Turn off your porcelain face

I can't really think right now and this place

Has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane

Are you dead? Sometimes I think I'm dead

'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head
But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet

Every time I close my eyes,

The colours fade and change inside my mouth
It’s all too loud
I sink my teeth into my fingers
Blood forms branches in the water

Anxiety, tossing, turning in your sleep

Even if you run away, you still see them in your dreams
It's so dark tonight, it looks nice, fall asleep

My sour boy is a pain

I wanna shoot him in the brain
But I'd miss him in the morning

I'm sorry for exploding

I said some things I didn't mean
And I don't know what came over me

I'm trying to forgive myself for things I didn't do

For words I didn't say and things I didn't choose
Spending every day decomposing in my room

Why can nothing stay the same?

Fuckin' stupid head, I'm gonna kill you,
Melt all your art and drink the paint
I am not a beast, I'm not a monster
I don't care what you say

Hold yourself, there's no one else

And you know when the sun dies
None of this will matter half as much as you thought

You don't know what it's like to be nothing at all

When the night turns cold, my thoughts feel like stone
And it's nothing I can't change, but I can't breathe anymore

It's been getting worse,

But you don't wanna know
Ignoring how it hurts,
Delaying getting old
I don't sing my songs I bleed them,
I don't write unless I mean them
Without cold the snow's just rain,
Without my voice it's all the same

You're falling further down

But I've got you by a thread
I wrap the cord around my arms
Until my hands start to turn red

Curling up against the wall

Can't shut you up, you know it all
Yeah, honestly, I'd kill you if I could

Man, what I would do just to kick you out

Fit you out of my head, I don't think I'm allowed
It feels so bad when there's no one around
Try to shut it out

I get it now that it's too late

I never stopped feeling guilty
I'm over it, I promise

If you fall down too far

And I can't see you through these marks
And your eyes are covered in scars,
And my head's filling with tar

I've gotta find a way to make this feel okay

When rock bottom for me is routine for someone else
I'm gonna take care of things
There's things I need to sort out

I'm trapped in my tiny human brain and it's killing me

But I'm fine, yeah I'm alright
If I move my hands fast enough I won't die

I wanna be ten feet tall

I wanna grow big red horns
Fingers covered in thorns
That pierce everythin'

I wanna eat fire and snow

I wanna scare everyone
I want to collect swords
Stab my walls when I'm bored

I'm awake again at 3am

My head's so tired but I don't care
No, I don't
Outside the sky looks like it's burning down
My head's not treating me well, I'm losing track
Of all the reasons I had for fighting back
And I'm scared I don't belong anywhere

Just let me feel low, let it by

Let it eat me alive
I don’t care, I don’t mind
I don’t want to feel fine

I can't do this anymore, but I don't wanna stop

If I quit, it doesn't count
Hear the pressure in your voice
I think someday this shit's gonna put me in the ground

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I just wanna break free from my misery

It's suffocating everyone around me
Choking on my apathy and disregard for humanity

Sink back into my ways

Past and present
Grow and change
Don't you fucking test me

You kept everything inside

And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory

Makes you high, makes you hide

Do you really want to think and stop?
Stop your eyes from flowing

Just look me in the eyes and say I'm wrong

Now there's only emptiness, venomous, insipid
I think we're done, I'm not the only one

Put me back together

Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces,
Then you can leave me alone

My end, it justifies my means

All I ever do is delay
My every attempt to evade
The end of the road

Something about this, so very wrong!

I have to laugh out loud,
I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more than anytime before

There's so much left to learn

And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high
And steal your pain

Life, it seems, will fade away, drifting further every day

Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters, no one else
I have lost the will to live, simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me, need the end to set me free

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late

Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye
(Goodbye)

I need someone to show me

The things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness
I must be blind

And so, as you hear these words

Telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life
I wish I could but it's too late

This face is my last confession

This life... it feels like a prison
Oh, I'm not afraid
I'm giving into grievances again
You're looking at an absolute zero
I'm not the devil, but I won't be your hero

And everything I can't remember,

As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again, again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away, just one more peaceful day

And I wonder
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again
The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when

I wish I could take the pain for you

If God has a master plan
That only He understands
I hope it's your eyes He's seeing through

What I've felt, what I've known

Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free, never me

Ain't it funny how it is?

You never miss it till it's gone away
And my heart is lying there
And will be till my dying day

He's just a loner,

He never says hello
A friend to no one,
He's got no place to go

Flying away in the clouds

You know you're losing your control
And finding your way in the dark
Like some poor forgotten soul

I'm falling asleep

You're missing the point again
I've been so sick of flowers on everything
Someone told me I'm crazy
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