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Counting Mistakes
Counting Mistakes
It’s been 10 times in the past 17 years of my life where I’ve been forced to go
Somewhere to rectify the million and one mistakes my biological mother did unto my siblings
and I to the point where I had to undergo
All the hurt and growing pains of being better than what was done to me
434 times and more, I swear I could not breathe, when I sought to look deep down inside of me
In fact when I was a baby at 16:34 September 24,
I came out with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck
Almost signifying before all these years of how I would feel almost every night
As I lay awake inside my bed
Thinking of everything I’ve done wrong
And what I can do to make it right
Ruminating over every little second, minute, and hour of every day
Counting mistakes until I saw no stars, no light
Until all I saw was black and 50 shades of gray at the very best
I couldn’t stop myself while I’d do a 360 turn over and over, while grinding into the ground
911 was called at least 30 times but they couldn’t save or find my soul,
and me when I say I’ve already checked the lost and found
3 times a day I try to thank God for what he’s given me and it’s hard
But I like to think that maybe this is the long journey into something big he has in store for me
I have 2 more burning questions though,
How many times can you wish on the Wishing Star?
With all the mistakes I’ve made, can one wish fix it all for me?