All Taylor Swift Songs Lyrics (2024)

Taylor Swift Songs Lyrics
Taylor Swift
2024
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Contents
Taylor Swift 2
Tim McGraw . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 2
Picture To Burn . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 4
Teardrops On My Guitar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 5
A Place In This World . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 6
Cold As You . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 7
The Outside . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 8
Tied Together With A Smile . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 9
Stay Beautiful . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 10
Should’ve Said No . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 11
Mary’s Song (Oh My My My) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 12
Our Song . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 13
I’m Only Me When I’m With You . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 15
Invisible . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 16
A Perfectly Good Heart . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 17
Fearless 18
Jump Then Fall . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 18
Untouchable . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 20
Come In With The Rain . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 22
Superstar . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 23
The Other Side Of The Door . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 24
Fearless . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 25
Fifteen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 26
Love Story . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 27
Hey Stephen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 28
White Horse . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 30
You Belong With Me . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 31
Breathe (feat. Colbie Caillat) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 33
Tell Me Why . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 34
You’re Not Sorry . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 35
The Way I Loved You . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 36
Forever & Always . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 37
The Best Day . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 38
Change . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 39
We Were Happy . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 40
That’s When . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 41
Today Was A Fairytale (from ”Valentine’s Day” soundtrack) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 42
You All Over Me (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Maren Morris) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 44
Mr. Perfectly Fine (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 45
Don’t You (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 47
Bye Bye Baby (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 48
Speak Now 49
Spark Fly . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 49
Back To December . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 50
Speak Now . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 51
Dear John . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 53
Mean . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 55
The Story Of Us . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 57
Never Grow Up . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 58
Enchanted . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 59
Better Than Revenge . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 61
Innocent . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 63
Haunted . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 64
Last Kiss . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 65
Long Live . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 67
Ours . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 69
If This Was A Movie . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 70
Superman . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 71
Mine . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 72
Electric Touch (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Patrick Stump) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 73
When Emma Falls in Love (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 74
I Can See You (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 75
Castles Crumbling (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Hayley Williams) . . . . . . . . . . . . 76
Foolish One (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 77
Timeless (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 79
Red 81
State Of Grace . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 81
Red . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 82
Treacherous . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 83
I Knew You Were Trouble . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 84
All Too Well . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 85
All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 86
22 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 88
I Almost Do . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 90
We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 91
Stay Stay Stay . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 92
The Last Time (feat. Gary Lightbody) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 93
Holy Ground . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 95
Sad Beautiful Tragic . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 96
The Lucky One . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 97
Everything Has Changed (duet with Ed Sheeran) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 98
Starlight . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 100
Begin Again . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 101
The Moment I Knew . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 102
Come Back... Be Here . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 104
Girl At Home . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 105
State Of Grace . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 107
Ronan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 108
Better Man (originally by Little Big Town) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 109
Nothing New (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Phoebe Bridgers) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 110
Babe (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (originally by Sugarland) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 111
Message In A Bottle (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 112
I Bet You Think About Me (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Chris Stapleton) . . . . . . . . 113
Forever Winter (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 114
Run (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Ed Sheeran) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 115
The Very First Night (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 116
1989 117
Welcome To New York . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 117
Blank Space . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 119
Style . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 121
Out Of The Woods . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 122
All You Had To Do Was Stay . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 124
Shake It Off . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 126
I Wish You Would . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 128
Bad Blood . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 130
Wildest Dreams . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 132
How You Get The Girl . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 134
This Love . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 136
I Know Places . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 137
Clean . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 138
Wonderland . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 139
You Are In Love . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 141
New Romantics . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 142
”Slut!” (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 144
Say Don’t Go (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 145
Now That We Don’t Talk (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 147
Suburban Legends (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 148
Is It Over Now? (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 149
Reputation 150
...Ready For It? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 150
End Game (feat. Ed Sheeran and Future) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 152
I Did Something Bad . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 154
Don’t Blame Me . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 156
Delicate . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 158
Look What You Made Me Do . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 160
So It Goes... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 162
Gorgeous . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 164
Getaway Car . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 166
King Of My Heart . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 168
Dancing With Our Hands Tied . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 170
Dress . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 172
This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 174
Call It What You Want . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 175
New Year’s Day . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 177
Lover 178
I Forgot That You Existed . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 178
Cruel Summer . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 179
Lover . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 181
The Man . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 182
The Archer . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 183
I Think He Knows . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 185
Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 187
Paper Rings . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 189
Cornelia Street . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 191
Death By A Thousand Cuts . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 192
London Boy . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 194
Soon You’ll Get Better (feat. Dixie Chicks) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 196
False God . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 197
You Need To Calm Down . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 198
Afterglow . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 200
ME! (feat. Brendon Urie of Panic! At The Disco) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 201
It’s Nice To Have A Friend . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 203
Daylight . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 204
Folklore 206
the 1 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 206
cardigan . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 207
the last great american dynasty . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 208
exile (feat. Bon Iver) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 209
my tears ricochet . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 211
mirrorball . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 212
seven . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 213
August . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 214
this is me trying . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 216
illicit affairs . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 217
invisible string . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 218
mad woman . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 219
epiphany . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 220
betty . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 221
peace . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 223
hoax . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 224
the lakes . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 225
Evermore 226
willow . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 226
champagne problems . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 228
gold rush . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 229
’tis the damn season . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 230
tolerate it . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 232
no body, no crime (feat. HAIM) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 233
happiness . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 235
dorothea . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 237
coney island (feat. The National) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 239
ivy . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 241
cowboy like me . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 243
long story short . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 245
marjorie . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 247
closure . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 248
evermore (feat. Bon Iver) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 249
right where you left me . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 251
it’s time to go . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 253
Midnights 254
Lavender Haze . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 254
Maroon . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 256
Anti-Hero . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 257
Snow On The Beach (feat. Lana Del Rey) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 258
You’re On Your Own, Kid . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 260
Midnight Rain . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 261
Question... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 263
Vigilante Shit . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 265
Bejeweled . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 266
Labyrinth . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 268
Karma . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 269
Sweet Nothing . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 271
Mastermind . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 273
The Great War . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 274
Bigger Than The Whole Sky . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 276
Paris . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 277
High Infidelity . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 278
Glitch . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 280
Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 281
Dear Reader . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 283
Hits Different . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 284
Snow On The Beach (feat. Lana Del Rey) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 286
You’re Losing Me (From The Vault) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 288
THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT 290

Fortnight (feat. Post Malone) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 290
The Tortured Poets Department . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 291
My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 293
Down Bad . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 294
So Long, London . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 296
But Daddy I Love Him . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 297
Fresh Out The Slammer . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 299
Florida!!! (feat. Florence + the Machine) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 300
Guilty As Sin? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 302
Who’s Afraid Of Little Old Me? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 303
I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 304
The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 305
The Alchemy . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 306
Clara Bow . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 307
The Black Dog . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 308
imgonnagetyouback . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 309
The Albatross . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 311
Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 312
How Did It End? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 313
So High School . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 314
I Hate It Here . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 316
thanK you aIMee . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 318
I Look in People’s Windows . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 319
The Prophecy . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 320
Cassandra . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 322
Peter . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 323
The Bolter . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 325
Robin . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 327
The Manuscript . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 328
loml . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 329
I Can Do It With A Broken Heart . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 330
Singles 332
Carolina (from ”Where The Crawdads Sing” soundtrack) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 332
The Joker And The Queen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 333
Christmas Tree Farm . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 334
Safe & Sound (feat. The Civil Wars) (from ”The Hunger Games” soundtrack) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 336
Renegade . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 337
Only The Young . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 339
All Of The Girls You Loved Before . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 341
Sweeter Than Fiction . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 342
Crazier (from ”Hannah Montana: The Movie” soundtrack) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 344
The Taylor Swift Holiday Collection 345

Last Christmas . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 345
Christmases When You Were Mine . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 346
Santa Baby . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 347
Silent Night . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 348
Christmas Must Be Something More . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 349
White Christmas . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 350
1
Taylor Swift
Tim McGraw
He said the way my blue eyes shined
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said, ”That’s a lie”
Just a boy in a Chevy truck
That had a tendency of gettin’ stuck
On back roads at night
And I was right there beside him all summer long
And then the time we woke up to find that summer gone
But when you think Tim McGraw

I hope you think my favorite song
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
And my old faded blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me
September saw a month of tears

And thankin’ God that you weren’t here
To see me like that
But in a box beneath my bed
Is a letter that you never read
From three summers back
It’s hard not to find it all a little bittersweet
And lookin’ back on all of that, it’s nice to believe

The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
And I’m back for the first time since then

I’m standin’ on your street
And there’s a letter left on your doorstep
And the first thing that you’ll read is:
”When you think Tim McGraw

Someday you’ll turn your radio on
I hope it takes you back to that place”

Oh, think of me
Mmmm
2
He said the way my blue eyes shined
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night
I said, ”That’s a lie”
3
Picture To Burn
State the obvious, I didn’t get my perfect fantasy
I realize you love yourself more than you could ever love me
So go and tell your friends that I’m obsessive and crazy
That’s fine I’ll tell mine that you’re gay!
By the way...
I hate that stupid old pickup truck

You never let me drive
You’re a redneck heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying
So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned
You’re just another picture to burn!
There’s no time for tears

I’m just sitting here planning my revenge
There’s nothing stopping me
From going out with all of your best friends
And if you come around saying sorry to me
My daddy’s gonna show you how sorry you’ll be
’Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck

And if you’re missing me

You’d better keep it to yourself
’Cause coming back around here
Would be bad for your health...
’Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck

In case you haven’t heard
I really really hate that...
Stupid old pickup truck

Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn

You’re just another picture to burn
Baby, burn...
4
Teardrops On My Guitar
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing
Everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she’s got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me
I laugh ’cause it’s just so funny
That I can’t even see
Anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right

I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing. Don’t know why I do
Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky ’cause
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
So, I drive home alone

As I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight
’Cause he’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough

And he’s all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won’t see
5
A Place In This World
I don’t know what I want, so don’t ask me
’Cause I’m still trying to figure it out
Don’t know what’s down this road, I’m just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I’m not the only one
Who feels the way I do
I’m alone, on my own, and that’s all I know

I’ll be strong, I’ll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh, I’m just a girl, trying to find a place in this world
Got the radio on, my old blue jeans

And I’m wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow’s just a mystery, oh yeah
But that’s OK

Oh, I’m just a girl, trying to find a place in this world
Maybe I’m just a girl on a mission

But I’m ready to fly

Oh I’m alone, on my own, and that’s all I know
Oh I’m just a girl, trying to find a place in this world
Oh I’m just a girl

Oh I’m just a girl, oh, oh
Oh I’m just a girl
6
Cold As You
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight ’cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want ’cause I’m not what you wanted
Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Just walk away, ain’t no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I’m sitting here thinking it through
I’ve never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

So just walk away, ain’t no use defending words that you will never say
You never did give a damn thing, honey, but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn’t have told nobody if I died, died for you, died for you

Every smile you fake is so condescending counting all the scars you made
7
The Outside
I didn’t know what I would find
When I went looking for a reason
I know I didn’t read between the lines
And, baby, I’ve got nowhere to go
I tried to take the road less traveled by

But nothing seems to work the first few times
Am I right?
So how can I ever try to be better?

Nobody ever lets me in
I can still see you
This ain’t the best view
On the outside looking in
And I’ve been a lot of lonely places
I’ve never been on the outside
You saw me there, but never knew

That I would give it all up to be
A part of this, a part of you
And now it’s all too late. So you see
You could’ve helped if you had wanted to

But no one notices until it’s too late to do anything

I can still see you
Oh, yeah

And I can still see you
8
Tied Together With A Smile
Seems the only one who doesn’t see your beauty
Is the face in the mirror looking back at you
You walk around here thinking you’re not pretty
But that’s not true ’cause I know you
Hold on, baby, you’re losing it

The water’s high, you’re jumping into it
And letting go
And no one knows
That you cry, but you don’t tell anyone
That you might not be the golden one
And you’re tied together with a smile
But you’re coming undone
I guess it’s true that love was all you wanted

’Cause you’re giving it away like it’s extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, ’cause it’s not his price to pay

It’s not his price to pay

And letting go
And no one knows

And letting go
And no one knows
You’re tied together with a smile

Goodbye, baby
With a smile, baby, baby
9
Stay Beautiful
Cory’s eyes are like a jungle
He smiles, it’s like the radio
He whispers songs into my window
In words that nobody knows
There’s pretty girls on every corner
That watch him as he’s walking home
Saying, ”Does he know?”
Will you ever know?
You’re beautiful
Every little piece love
And don’t you know
You’re really gonna be someone
Ask anyone
And when you find everything you looked for
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Oh, but if it don’t
Stay beautiful
Cory finds another way to be

The highlight of my day
I’m taking pictures in my mind
So I can save them for a rainy day
It’s hard to make a conversation
When he’s taking my breath away
I should say, hey, by the way
You’re beautiful
Ask anyone
I hope your life leads you back to my door
Stay beautiful
If you and I are a story

That never gets told
If what you are is a daydream
I’ll never get to hold
At least you’ll know
You’re beautiful
Ask anyone
I hope your life leads you back to my front door
Will you stay
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful?
La la la
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Stay beautiful
Stay beautiful
Na, na, na, na, na
10
Should’ve Said No
It’s strange to think the songs we used to sing
The smiles, the flowers, everything is gone
Yesterday I found out about you
Even now just looking at you feels wrong
You say that you’d take it all back, given one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said, ”Yes.”
You should’ve said ”No”, you should’ve gone home

You should’ve thought twice ’fore you let it all go
You should’ve known that word
’Bout what you did with her’d
Get back to me (get back to me).
And I should’ve been there in the back of your mind
I shouldn’t be asking myself, ”Why?”
You shouldn’t be begging for forgiveness at my feet...
You should’ve said ”No”, baby, and you might still have me
You can see that I’ve been crying

And baby, you know all the right things to say
But do you honestly expect me to believe
We could ever be the same?
You say that the past is the past, you need one chance
It was a moment of weakness and you said, ”Yes.”

’Bout what you did with her’d,
I can’t resist
Before you go, tell me this:
Was it worth it?
Was she worth this?
No... no, no, no...

’Bout what you did with her’d,
11
Mary’s Song (Oh My My My)
She said, I was seven and you were nine
I looked at you like the stars that shined
In the sky, the pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said, ”Oh my, my, my”
Make me back to the house in the backyard tree

Said you’d beat me up, you were bigger than me
You never did, you never did
Take me back when our world was one block wide
I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried
Just two kids, you and I
Oh my, my, my, my
Well, I was sixteen when suddenly

I wasn’t that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we’d really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said, ”Oh my, my, my”
Take me back to the creek beds we turned up

Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside ’til the morning light
Oh my, my, my, my
A few years had gone and come around

We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee
Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle

Our whole town came and our mamas cried
You said ”I do” and I did too
Take me home where we met so many years before
We’ll rock our babies on that very front porch
After all this time, you and I
I’ll be eighty-seven; you’ll be eighty-nine

I’ll still look at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, oh my, my, my
12
Our Song
I was riding shotgun
With my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
He’s got a one-hand feel
On the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says, ”Baby, is something wrong?”
I say, ”Nothing
I was just thinking
How we don’t have a song”
And he says...
Our song is the slamming screen door

Sneakin’ out late, tapping on your window
When we’re on the phone and you talk real slow
’Cause it’s late and your mama don’t know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date: ”Man, I didn’t kiss her, and I should have.”
And when I got home ... ’fore I said, ”Amen”
Asking God if he could play it again
I was walking up
The front porch steps
After everything that day
Had gone all wrong
And been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway,
Well, on my way
To my lovin’ bed
I almost didn’t notice
All the roses
And the note that said...
Our song is the slamming screen door

Sneakin’ out late, tapping on your window
When we’re on the phone and you talk real slow
’Cause it’s late and your mama don’t know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date: ”Man, I didn’t kiss her, and I should have”
I’ve heard every album, listened to the radio

Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...
’Cause our song is the slamming screen door

Sneakin’ out late, tapping on his window
When we’re on the phone and he talks real slow
’Cause it’s late and his mama don’t know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date: ”Man, I didn’t kiss him, and I should have”
Play it again
Oh, yeah...
Oh-oh, yeah
13
I was riding shotgun
With my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen
And an old napkin And I wrote down our song
14
I’m Only Me When I’m With You
Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are paintin’ pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don’t say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you

I don’t wanna live without you
I’m only up when you’re not down

Don’t wanna fly if you’re still on the ground
It’s like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I’m only tryna let you know that what I feel is true
And I’m only me when I’m with you
Just a small town boy and girl

Livin’ in a crazy world
Tryna figure out what is and isn’t true
And I don’t try to hide my tears
My secrets or my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me

You say that you can’t live without me
I’m only up when you’re not down

And I’m only me when I’m with you
When I’m with anybody else

It’s so hard to be myself
And only you can tell
...That I’m only up when you’re not down

And I’m only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I’m only me when I’m with you
With you
15
Invisible
She can’t see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile
She’ll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by
And you can’t see me wantin’ you the way you want her
But you are everything to me
And I just wanna show you

She don’t even know you
She’s never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful
Miracle
Unbelievable
Instead of just invisible
There’s a fire inside of you

That can’t help but shine through
She’s never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me

And everything that we could be
I just wanna show you

She’s never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
Miracle
Unbelievable
Like shadows in a faded light

Oh, we’re invisible
I just wanna open your eyes
And make you realize
I just wanna show you

Baby, let me love you
Let me want you
You just see right through me
Miracle
Unbelievable
She can’t see the way your eyes

Light up when you smile
16
A Perfectly Good Heart
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Maybe I should’ve seen the signs, should’ve read the writing on the wall
And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall
No matter what you say, I still can’t believe
That you would walk away
It don’t make sense to me, but

It’s not unbroken anymore

How do I get it back the way it was before?

Why would you wanna break, would you wanna break a

17
Fearless
Jump Then Fall
I like the way you sound in the morning
We’re on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound
I have ever heard
I like the way I can’t keep my focus

I watch you talk, you didn’t notice
I hear the words but all I can think is
We should be together
Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I’ll shine for you
Whoa, oh, I’m feeling you baby

Don’t be afraid to
Jump then fall
Jump then fall into me
Baby, I’m never gonna leave you
Say that you wanna be with me too
’Cause I’mma stay through it all
So jump then fall
Well, I like the way your hair falls in your face

You got the keys to me
I love each freckle on your face, oh
I’ve never been so wrapped up, honey
I like the way you’re everything I ever wanted
I had time to think it all over

And all I can say is come closer
Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me
’Cause every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I’ll shine for you
Whoa, oh, I’m feeling you baby

Don’t be afraid to
Jump then fall
So jump then fall
The bottom’s gonna drop out from under our feet

I’ll catch you, I’ll catch you
When people say things that bring you to your knees
I’ll catch you
The time is gonna come when you’re so mad you could cry
But I’ll hold you through the night until you smile
Whoa, oh, I need you baby

Don’t be afraid, please,
Jump then fall
So jump then fall
Jump then fall, baby,
Jump then fall into me, into me
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Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I’ll shine
And every time you’re here
Baby I’ll show you, I’ll show you
You can jump then fall, jump then fall
Jump then fall into me, into me, yeah
19
Untouchable
Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I’m reaching out and I just can’t tell you why
I’m caught up in you
I’m caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun

And when you’re close I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night

When I’m in this dream
It’s like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we’ll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven
It’s half full, and I won’t wait here all day

I know you’re saying that you’d be here anyway
But you’re untouchable, burning brighter than the sun

And now that you’re close I feel like coming undone

Come on, come on
Oh, in the middle of the night

Waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
Come on, come on
I’m caught up in you. Oh, oh
But you’re untouchable, burning brighter than the sun

Now that you’re close I feel like coming undone

Come on, come on, oh, oh

Come on, come on, come on
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Waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
Come on, come on

Come on, come on
Come on, come on, oh, oh, oh
Like a million little stars

They’re spelling out your name, oh
21
Come In With The Rain
I could go back to every laugh
But I don’t wanna go there anymore
And I know all the steps up to your door
Talk to the wind, talk to the sky

Talk to the man with the reasons why
And let me know what you find
I’ll leave my window open

’Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name
Just know I’m right here hopin’
That you’ll come in with the rain
I could stand up and sing you a song

But I don’t wanna have to go that far
And I, I’ve got you down
I know you by heart
And you don’t even know where I start
Talk to yourself, talk to the tears

Talk to the man who put you here
And don’t wait for the sky to clear
I’ll leave my window open

’Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name
Oh, just know I’m right here hopin’
I’ve watched you so long

Screamed your name
I don’t know what else I can say
But I’ll leave my window open

’Cause I’m too tired at night for all these games
Just know I’m right here hopin’
I could go back to every laugh

22
Superstar
This is wrong but I can’t help but feel like
There ain’t nothing more right babe
Misty morning comes again and I can’t
Help but wish I could see your face
And I knew from the first note played
I’d be breaking all my rules to see you
You smile that beautiful smile and all the girls in the front row
Scream your name
So dim that spotlight, tell me things like

I can’t keep my eyes off of you
I’m no one special, just another wide-eyed girl
Who’s desperately in love with you
Give me a photograph to hang on my wall, superstar
Morning loneliness
Comes around when I’m not dreaming about you
When my world wakes up today
You’ll be in another town
And I knew when I saw your face
I’d be counting down the ways to see you
You smile that beautiful smile and All the girls in the front row scream your name

I can’t take my eyes off of you
You played in bars, you play guitar

And I’m invisible and everyone knows who you are
And you’ll never see, you sing me to sleep
Every night from the radio

I can’t take my eyes off of you
Sweet, sweet superstar
Superstar
23
The Other Side Of The Door
In the heat of the fight I walked away
Ignoring words that you were saying
Trying to make me stay
I said, ”This time I’ve had enough.”
And you’ve called a hundred times
But I’m not picking up
’Cause I’m so mad I might tell you that it’s over

But if you look a little closer
I said, ”Leave,” but all I really want is you

To stand outside my window throwing pebbles
Screaming, ”I’m in love with you.”
Wait there in the pouring rain, come back for more
And don’t you leave ’cause I know
All I need is on the other side of the door
Me and my stupid pride are sitting here alone

Going through the photographs, staring at the phone
I keep going back over things we both said
And I remember the slamming door and all the things that I misread
So babe if you know everything, tell me why you couldn’t see

That when I left I wanted you to chase after me
Yeah, I said, ”Leave,” but all I really want is you

And I’ll scream out the window

”I can’t even look at you!”
I don’t need you but I do, I do, I do
I say, ”There’s nothing you can say to make this right again
I mean it, I mean it.”
What I mean is
I said, ”Leave,” but baby all I want is you

With your face and the beautiful eyes

And the conversation with the little white lies
And the faded picture of a beautiful night
You carried me from your car up the stairs
And I broke down crying, was she worth this mess?
After everything and that little black dress
After everything I must confess, I need you
24
Fearless
There’s somethin’ ’bout the way
The street looks when it’s just rained
There’s a glow off the pavement
You walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
Oh yeah
We’re drivin’ down the road

I wonder if you know
I’m tryin’ so hard not to get caught up now
But you’re just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absentmindedly makin’ me want you
And I don’t know how it gets better than this

You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don’t know why but with you I’d dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
So, baby, drive slow

’Til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger’s seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it
’Cause I don’t know how it gets better than this

Fearless
Fearless
Well, you stood there with me in the doorway

My hands shake
I’m not usually this way
But you pull me in and I’m a little more brave
It’s the first kiss
It’s flawless
Really something
It’s fearless
Oh yeah

Fearless
Fearless

Fearless
Fearless
Oh-oh
Oh yeah
25
Fifteen
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It’s the morning of your very first day
You say ”Hi” to your friends you ain’t seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody’s way
It’s your freshman year and you’re gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
”You know I haven’t seen you around before.”
’Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen
Feeling like there’s nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you’re gonna be
Fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail

And soon enough you’re best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they’re so cool
We’ll be out of here as soon as we can
And then you’re on your very first date and he’s got a car
And you’re feeling like flying
And your mamma’s waiting up and you’re thinking he’s the one
And you’re dancing ’round your room when the night ends
When the night ends
When you’re fifteen
And your first kiss makes your head spin ’round
But in your life you’ll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn’t know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted

Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind
And we both cried
And when you’re fifteen
Don’t forget to look before you fall
I’ve found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you’re supposed to be
I didn’t know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
La, la, la, la, la, la, la

Your very first day

Take a deep breath, girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors
26
Love Story
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I’m standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns

See you make your way through the crowd
And say, ”Hello.”
Little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said, ”Stay away from Juliet.”
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, ”Please don’t go.”
And I said
”Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting. All there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story. Baby, just say ’Yes’.”
So, I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet ’cause we’re dead if they knew
So, close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh
’Cause you were Romeo. I was a scarlet letter

And my daddy said, ”Stay away from Juliet.”
But you were everything to me
I was begging you, ”Please don’t go!”
And I said
”Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting. All there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story. Baby, just say ’Yes’
Romeo, save me. They’re tryna tell me how to feel
This love is difficult but it’s real
Don’t be afraid. We’ll make it out of this mess
Oh, oh, oh
I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said
”Romeo, save me. I’ve been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head? I don’t know what to think.”
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said
”Marry me, Juliet. You’ll never have to be alone
I love you, and that’s all I really know

I talked to your dad. Go pick out a white dress
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
’Cause we were both young when I first saw you
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Hey Stephen
Mmm-mm, mm-mm
Mmm-mm, mm-mm
Mmm-mm, mm-mm, yeah
Hey, Stephen
I know looks can be deceiving
But I know I saw a light in you
And as we walked
We were talking
I didn’t say half the things I wanted to
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window

I’ll be the one waiting there even when it’s cold
Hey, Stephen
Boy, you might have me believing
I don’t always have to be alone
’Cause I can’t help it if you look like an angel

Can’t help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain
So, come feel this magic I’ve been feeling since I met you
Can’t help it if there’s no one else
Mmm, I can’t help myself
Hey, Stephen
I’ve been holding back this feeling
So, I got some things to say to you, ha
I’ve seen it all—
So I thought—
But I never seen nobody shine the way you do
The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name—
It’s beautiful, wonderful, don’t you ever change
Hey, Stephen
Why are people always leaving?
I think you and I should stay the same
’Cause I can’t help it if you look like an angel

They’re dimming the street lights

You’re perfect for me. Why aren’t you here tonight?
I’m waiting alone now, so, come on and come out
And pull me near and shine, shine, shine
Hey, Stephen
I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls—
Well, they’re beautiful
But would they write a song for you?
(Ha-ha)
I can’t help it if you look like an angel

...if you look like an angel
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Myself
Can’t help myself
I can’t help myself
29
White Horse
Say you’re sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
’Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should have known, I should have known
That I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale

I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse to come around
Maybe I was naïve

Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn’t know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
That I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale

I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain’t Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse to come around
And there you are on your knees

Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I’m so sorry
’Cause I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairy tale

I’m gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it’s too late for you and your white horse
Now it’s too late for you and your white horse to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa

Try and catch me now
Oh, it’s too late
To catch me now
30
You Belong With Me
You’re on the phone with your girlfriend
She’s upset, she’s going off about something that you said
’Cause she doesn’t get your humor like I do
I’m in the room, it’s a typical Tuesday night

I’m listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like
And she’ll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts

I wear T-shirts
She’s cheer captain
And I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you’re looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see

That I’m the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So, why can’t you see
You belong with me
You belong with me
Walk in the streets with you in your worn-out jeans

I can’t help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself
”Hey, isn’t this easy?”
And you’ve got a smile

That could light up this whole town
I haven’t seen it in a while
Since she brought you down
You say you’re fine I know you better than that

Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels

I wear sneakers
She’s cheer captain
And I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you’re looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see

That I’m the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your backdoor

All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Oh, I remember you driving to my house

I’m the one who makes you laugh
When you know you’re ’bout to cry
I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
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Think I know it’s with me
Can’t you see

That I’m the one
Who understands you?
Been here all along
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your backdoor

All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me?
You belong with me
32
Breathe (feat. Colbie Caillat)
[Taylor Swift:]
I see your face in my mind as I drive away
’Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time
[Taylor Swift with Colbie Caillat:]

Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie
It’s the kind of ending you don’t really wanna see
’Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down
Now I don’t know what to be without you around
And we know it’s never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can’t breathe without you, but I have to

Breathe without you, but I have to
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road, I tried to swerve
But people are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can’t breathe without you, but I have to

Breathe without you but I have to
It’s 2 AM, feeling like I just lost a friend

Hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me
It’s 2 AM, feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain’t easy, easy for me

Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh-oh
I can’t breathe without you, but I have to

I’m sorry, I’m sorry (Mmm)

I’m sorry, (Yeah, yeah) I’m sorry
I’m sorry, I’m sorry
I’m sorry
33
Tell Me Why
I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I’m bulletproof, but I’m not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground I see who you are
I’m sick and tired of your attitude

I’m feeling like I don’t know you
You tell me that you love me, then cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
That makes me run for cover when you’re around
And here’s to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know, that you see, what you’re doing to me
Tell me why
You could write a book on how to ruin someone’s perfect day

Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I’m trying to say, oh
I’m sick and tired of your reasons

I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
That makes me run for cover when you’re around
Here’s to you and your temper
And I know, that you see, what you’re doing to me
Tell me why
Why do you have to make me feel small

So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you’re the only thing on my mind?
I’m sick and tired of your attitude

I’m feeling like I don’t know you
You tell me that you want me, then cut me down
I’m sick and tired of your reasons
I’ve got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love, then you push me around
Here’s to you and your temper
And I know that you see what you’re doing to me
Tell me why (Why)
Tell me why (Why)
I take a step back, let you go

I told you I’m not bulletproof
Now you know
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You’re Not Sorry
All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it’s taken me this long
Baby but I’ve figured you out
And you’re thinking we’ll be fine again
But not this time around
You don’t have to call anymore

I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby
Like I did before
You’re not sorry... no, no, no, no
You are looking so innocent

I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’ve loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you’ve got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
’Cause it’s worked each time before
But you don’t have to call anymore

Don’t wanna hurt anymore
Like I did before
You’re not sorry... no, no, no
You had me crawling for you honey

And it never would’ve gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade
So you don’t have to call anymore

There’s nothing left to beg for
Like I did before

No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
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The Way I Loved You
He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it’s like
I couldn’t ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain

And it’s 2 AM and I’m cursing your name
You’re so in love that you act insane
And that’s the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone

It’s a roller coaster kind of rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He’s close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He’s charming and endearing
And I’m comfortable
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain

It’s 2 AM and I’m cursing your name
You’re so in love that you acted insane
He can’t see the smile I’m faking

And my heart’s not breaking
’Cause I’m not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating
Intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain

It’s 2 AM and I’m cursing your name
I’m so in love that I acted insane
And that’s the way I loved you oh, oh
And that’s the way I loved you oh, oh

Never knew I could feel that much
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Forever & Always
Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
’Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don’t feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
’Cause one second it was perfect
Now you’re halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called

And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
’Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Was I out of line?

Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I’m not so sure
So here’s to everything coming down to nothing
Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute, but I don’t anymore
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called

And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
You didn’t mean it baby, I don’t think so
Oh, back up, baby, back up

Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything?
’Cause it rains in your bedroom

Everything is wrong
Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom

Everything is wrong
You didn’t mean it baby
You said forever and always, yeah
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The Best Day
I’m five years old, it’s getting cold, I’ve got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides
Look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home
I don’t know why all the trees change in the fall

But I know you’re not scared of anything at all
Don’t know if Snow White’s house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today
I’m thirteen now

And don’t know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop ’til I’ve forgotten all their names
I don’t know who I’m going to talk to now at school

But I know I’m laughing on the car ride home with you
Don’t know how long it’s going to take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today
I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger

God smiles on my little brother, inside and out
He’s better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you
There is a video I found from back when I was three

You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you’re talking to me
It’s the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy’s smart
And you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world
And now I know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn’t know if you knew, so I’m taking this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today
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Change
And it’s a sad picture
The final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
And you know it’s all the same
Another time and place
Repeating history and you’re getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do

And I’ll do anything to see it through
Because these things will change

Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we’ll sing hallelujah
Oh, oh
So we’ve been outnumbered

Raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now
Find things they never found
They might be bigger
But we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away, say we don’t need this

But there’s something in your eyes says we can beat this
’Cause these things will change

Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution, the time will come
For us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we’ll sing hallelujah
Oh, oh
Tonight we stand, get off our knees

Fight for what we’ve worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
But we’ll stand up champions tonight
It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up
’Cause we never gave in
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we sang hallelujah
Hallelujah
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We Were Happy
We used to walk along the streets
When the porch lights were shining bright
Before I had somewhere to be
Back when we had all night
And we were happy
I do recall a good while back

We snuck into the circus
You threw your arms around my neck
Back when I deserved it
And we were happy
When it was good baby,

It was good baby
We showed ’um all up
No one could touch the way we
Laughed in the dark
Talking ’bout your daddy’s farm
We were gonna buy someday
And we were happy
We used to watch the sun go down

On the boats in the water
That’s sorta how I feel right now
And goodbye’s so much harder
’Cause we were happy

It was good baby
Laughed in the dark
We were gonna buy someday
And we were happy
Oh, I hate those voices

Telling me I’m not in love anymore
But they don’t give me choices
And that’s what these tears are for
’Cause we were happy
We were happy

It was good baby
Laughed in the dark
And you were gonna marry me
When we were happy
Yeah, we were were happy

Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
We were happy
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That’s When
[Taylor Swift:]
You said, ”I know”
When I said, ”I need some time, need some space
To think about all of this”
You watched me go
And I knew my
Words were hard to hear
And harder to ever take back
And I said, ”When can I-I-I come back?”
[Taylor Swift and Keith Urban:]

And you said that’s when
When I wake up in the morning
That’s when, when it’s sunny or storming
Laughing, when I’m crying
And that’s when, I’ll be waiting at the front gate
That’s when, when I see your face
I’ll let you in, and baby, that’s when
Mm, mm
I said, ”I know”
When you said, ”I did you wrong
Made mistakes
And put you through all of this” (through all of this)
Then through the phone
Came all your tears
And I said, ”Leave those all in our past”
And you said, ”When can I-I-I come back?”
And I said, that’s when

When I wake up in the morning
Laughing, when I’m crying
And that’s when I’ll be waiting at the front gate
I’ll let you in, and baby, that’s when”
[Taylor Swift:]
And you said, ”Honestly
When you were gone
Did you ever think of me?”
And I said
[Taylor Swift with Keith Urban:]

”That’s when, when I woke up in the morning
That’s when, it was sunny or storming
Laughing when I was crying
And that’s when, you were waiting at the front gate
That’s when, when I saw your face
You let me in, and baby, that’s when”
That’s when, when I wake up in the morning (Yeah)

When I’m laughing, when I’m crying
That’s when I’ll be waiting at the front gate
(That when I miss you, that’s when I want you)
That’s when I love you, that’s when
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Today Was A Fairytale (from ”Valentine’s Day” soundtrack)
Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six

I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey T-shirt
You told me I was pretty
When I looked like a mess
Time slows down

Whenever you’re around
But can you feel this magic in the air?

It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way


You’ve got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right

All that I can say
Is now it’s getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense ’til the time I saw your face
Time slows down


Time slows down

I can feel my heart
It’s beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can’t put this down


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You All Over Me (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Maren Morris)
[Taylor Swift:]
Once the last drop of rain has dried off the pavement
Shouldn’t I find a stain, but I never do
The way the tires turn stones, on old county roads
They leave ’em muddy underneath
Reminds me of you
You find graffiti on the walls of old bathroom stalls
You know, you can scratch it right off
It’s how it used to be
But like the dollar in your pocket it’s been spent and traded in
You can’t change where it’s been
Reminds me of me
[Taylor Swift and Maren Morris:]

I lived, and I learned
Had you, got burned
Held out, and held on
God knows, too long
And wasted time, lost tears
Swore that I’d get out of here
But no amount of freedom gets you clean
I’ve still got you all over me
The best and worst day of June

Was the one that I met you
With your hands in your pockets
And your ”Don’t you wish you had me?” grin
Well, I did, so I smiled, and I melted like a child
Now every breath of air I breathe reminds me of then
And I lived, and I learned

Had you, got burned
Held out, and held on
God knows, too long
And wasted time, lost tears
Swore that I’d get out of here
But no amount of freedom gets you clean
I lived, and I learned

And found out what it was to turn around
And see, that we
Were never really meant to be
So I lied, and I cried
And I watched a part of myself die
’Cause no amount of freedom gets you clean
Still got you all over me
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Mr. Perfectly Fine (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
Mr. ”Perfect face”
Mr. ”Here to stay”
Mr. ”Looked me in the eye and told me you would never go away”
Everything was right
Mr. ”I’ve been waiting for you all my life”
Mr. ”Every single day until the end, I will be by your side”
But that was when I got to know Mr. ”Change of heart”

Mr. ”Leaves me all alone,” I fall apart
It takes everything in me just to get up each day
But it’s wonderful to see that you’re okay
Hello Mr. ”Perfectly fine”

How’s your heart after breaking mine?
Mr. ”Always at the right place at the right time,” baby
Hello Mr. ”Casually cruel”
Mr. ”Everything revolves around you”
I’ve been Miss ”Misery” since your goodbye
And you’re Mr. ”Perfectly fine”
Mr. ”Never told me why”

Mr. ”Never had to see me cry”
Mr. ”Insincere apology so he doesn’t look like the bad guy”
He goes about his day
Forgets he ever even heard my name
Well, I thought you might be different than the rest, I guess you’re all the same
’Cause I hear he’s got his arm ’round a brand-new girl

I’ve been pickin’ up my heart, he’s been pickin’ up her
And I never got past what you put me through
But it’s wonderful to see that it never fazed you
Hello Mr. ”Perfectly fine”

How’s your heart after breakin’ mine?
Hello Mr. ”Casually cruel”
I’ve been Miss ”Misery” since your goodbye
So dignified in your well-pressed suit

So strategized, all the eyes on you
Sashay away to your seat
It’s the best seat, in the best room
Oh, he’s so smug, Mr. ”Always wins”
So far above me in every sense
So far above feeling anything
And it’s really such a shame

It’s such a shame
’Cause I was Miss ”Here to stay”
Now I’m Miss ”Gonna be alright someday”
And someday maybe you’ll miss me
But by then, you’ll be Mr. ”Too late”
Goodbye Mr. ”Perfectly fine”

How’s your heart after breakin’ mine?
Goodbye Mr. ”Casually cruel”
I’ve been Miss ”Misery” for the last time
45
You’re perfectly fine
Mr. ”Looked me in the eye and told me you would never go away”
You said you’d never go away
46
Don’t You (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
Hey, I knew I’d run into you somewhere
It’s been a while, I didn’t mean to stare
I heard she’s nothin’ like me
I’m sure she’ll make you happy
But don’t you

Don’t you smile at me and ask me how I’ve been
Don’t you say you’ve missed me if you don’t want me again
You don’t know how much I feel I love you still
So why don’t you, don’t you?
Ah, ah, ah, ah
Sometimes I really wish that I could hate you

I’ve tried, but that’s just somethin’ I can’t do
My heart knows what the truth is
I swore I wouldn’t do this
But don’t you

Don’t you say you’ve missed me if you don’t want me again
You don’t know how much I feel I love you still
So I walk outta here tonight

Try to go on with my life
And you can say, ”We’re still friends”
I don’t wanna pretend
So if I see you again
Don’t you (Don’t you)

Don’t you (Don’t you), say you’ve missed me if you don’t want me again
You don’t (You don’t), know how much I feel I love you still
Ah, ah, ah, ah

Don’t you, ah, ah, ah
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Bye Bye Baby (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
It wasn’t just like a movie
The rain didn’t soak through my clothes, down to my skin
I’m driving away and I, I guess you could say
This is the last time I’ll drive this way again
Lost in the gray and I try to grab at the fray
’Cause I, I still love you but I can’t
Bye, bye, to everything I thought was on my side

Bye, bye, baby
I want you back but it’s come down to nothing
And all I have is your sympathy
’Cause you took me home but you just couldn’t keep me
Bye, bye, baby
Bye, bye, baby
The picture frame is empty

On the dresser, vacant just like me
I see your writing on the dash
Then back to your hesitation
I was so sure of everything
Everything I thought we’d always have
Guess I never doubted it
Then the here and the now floods in
Feels like I’m becoming a part of your past

Bye, bye, baby
Bye, bye, baby
And there’s so much that I can’t touch

You’re all I want but it’s not enough this time
And all the pages are just slipping through my hands
And I’m so scared of how this ends

Bye, bye, baby

Bye, bye, baby
Oh, you took me home, I thought you were gonna keep me
Bye, bye, baby
Bye, bye, baby
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Speak Now
Spark Fly
The way you move is like a full-on rainstorm
And I’m a house of cards
You’re the kind of reckless
That should send me running
But I kinda know that I won’t get far
And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn’t see
What I was thinking of
Drop everything now

Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
’Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down
Give me something that’ll haunt me when you’re not around
My mind forgets to remind me

You’re a bad idea
You touch me once and it’s really something
You find I’m even better than you imagined I would be
I’m on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you I know it’s no good
And I could wait patiently but I really wish you would
Drop everything now

Take away the pain
I’ll run my fingers through your hair and watch the lights go wild
Just keep on keeping your eyes on me, it’s just wrong enough to make it feel right
And lead me up the staircase
Won’t you whisper soft and slow?
I’m captivated by you, baby, like a firework show
Drop everything now

Take away the pain
And the sparks fly

Oh, baby, smile
And the sparks fly
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Back To December
I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life? Tell me how’s your family?
I haven’t seen them in a while
You’ve been good, busier than ever

We small-talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying, ”I’m sorry for that night,”
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you

Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I’d go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time
These days I haven’t been sleeping

Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn’t call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was ”Goodbye”
So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying, ”I’m sorry for that night.”
And I go back to December all the time

I’d go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night:
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I’d love you right
I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t

So if the chain is on your door I understand
But this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying, ”I’m sorry for that night.”
And I go back to December

I’d go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I’d go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

All the time
50
Speak Now
I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white-veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl
I sneak in and see your friends

And her snotty little family all dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid
Somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry
This is surely not what you thought it would be

I lose myself in a daydream
Where I stand and say
Don’t say ”Yes”, run away now

I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said, ”Speak now.”
Fond gestures are exchanged

And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be
She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen

But I know you wish it was me
You wish it was me
Don’t you?

Your time is running out
Oh, la, la
Oh, oh
Say a single vow
I hear the preacher say, ”Speak now or forever hold your peace.”
There’s the silence, there’s my last chance
I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I’m only looking at you
I am not the kind of girl

Who should be rudely barging in on a white-veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl
So, don’t say ”Yes”, run away now

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And you say, ”Let’s run away now
I’ll meet you when I’m out of my tux at the back door
Baby, I didn’t say my vows
So glad you were around
When they said, ”Speak now.”
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Dear John
Long were the nights
When my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps
Praying the floor won’t fall through
Again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind

But I swore I was fine
You paint me a blue sky

And go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game
But you changed the rules every day
Wonderin’ which version of you I might get on the phone tonight

Well, I stopped pickin’ up, and this song is to let you know why
Dear John
I see it all now that you’re gone
Don’t you think I was too young to be messed
With?
The girl in the dress
Cried the whole way home
I should’ve known
Well, maybe it’s me

And my blind optimism
To blame
Or maybe it’s you and your sick need
To give love then take it away
And you’ll add my name

To your long list of traitors
Who don’t understand
And I look back in regret
How I ignored when they said
”Run as fast as you can.”
Dear John
With?
Dear John
I see it all now. It was wrong
Don’t you think nineteen’s too young to be played
By your dark twisted games?
When I loved you so
I should’ve known
You are an expert at ”Sorry”

And keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you’ve run dry
Have tired lifeless eyes
’Cause you’ve burned them out
But I took your matches

Before fire could catch me
So, don’t look now
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I’m shining like fireworks
Over your sad empty town
Dear John
With?

With?
Wrote you a song
You should’ve known

Don’t you think I was too young?
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Mean
You, with your words like knives
And swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again
Got me feeling like I’m nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard
Calling me out when I’m wounded
You, picking on the weaker man
Well, you can take me down

With just one single blow
But you don’t know what you don’t know
Someday, I’ll be living in a big old city

And all you’re ever gonna be is mean
Someday, I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me
Why you gotta be so mean?
You, with your switching sides

And your wildfire lies and your humiliation
You have pointed out my flaws again
As if I don’t already see them
I walk with my head down, trying to block you out
’Cause I’ll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again
I bet you got pushed around

Somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now
’Cause you can’t lead me down that road
And you don’t know what you don’t know

And I can see you years from now in a bar

Talking over a football game
With that same big loud opinion
But nobody’s listening
Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things
Drunk and grumbling on about how I can’t sing
But all you are is mean
All you are is mean
And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life
And mean, and mean, and mean, and mean
But someday, I’ll be living in a big old city

And all you’re ever gonna be is mean, yeah

(Why you gotta be so mean?)
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56
The Story Of Us
I used to think one day we’d tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
And people would say, ”They’re the lucky ones.”
I used to know my place was the spot next to you
Now I’m searching the room for an empty seat
’Cause lately I don’t even know what page you’re on
Oh, a simple complication

Miscommunications lead to fall-out
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can’t break through
Now I’m standing alone in a crowded room and we’re not speaking
And I’m dying to know is it killing you like it’s killing me, yeah?
I don’t know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
Next chapter
How’d we end up this way?

See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy
And you’re doing your best to avoid me
I’m starting to think one day I’ll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should’ve held me
Oh, I’m scared to see the ending

Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I’d tell you I miss you but I don’t know how
I’ve never heard silence quite this loud
I don’t know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down
This is looking like a contest

Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side
The battle’s in your hands now

But I would lay my armour down
If you said you’d rather love than fight
So many things that you wish I knew

But the story of us might be ending soon
But I don’t know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now
...and we’re not speaking

I don’t know what to say, since the twist of fate ’cause we’re going down
The end
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Never Grow Up
Your little hand’s wrapped around my finger
And it’s so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter ’cause you’re dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything’s funny, you got nothing to regret
I’d give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up

Don’t you ever grow up, just stay this little
Don’t you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
I won’t let nobody hurt you, won’t let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up
You’re in the car on the way to the movies

And you’re mortified your mom’s dropping you off
At fourteen, there’s just so much you can’t do
And you can’t wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don’t make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she’s getting older too
And don’t lose the way that you dance around in your pj’s getting ready for school

No one’s ever burned you, nothing’s ever left you scarred
And even though you want to, just try to never grow up
Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room

Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother’s favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone
So here I am in my new apartment

In a big city, they just dropped me off
It’s so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
Wish I’d never grown up

I wish I’d never grown up
Oh, I don’t wanna grow up, wish I’d never grown up

I could still be little
Oh, I don’t wanna grow up, wish I’d never grown up
It could still be simple
Won’t let nobody hurt you
Won’t let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Oh, don’t you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up, just never grow up
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Enchanted
There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered, ”Have we met?”

Across the room your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go

I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
The lingering question kept me up

2 AM, who do you love?
I wonder ’til I’m wide awake
And now I’m pacing back and forth
Wishing you were at my door
I’d open up and you would say, ”Hey
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you.”

This night is flawless, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
This is me praying that

This was the very first page
Not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back
As I was leaving too soon
Please don’t be in love with someone else

Please don’t have somebody waiting on you

This night is flawless, don’t you let it go
(Please don’t be in love with someone else)
I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
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(Please don’t have somebody waiting on you)
(Please don’t be in love with someone else)

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Better Than Revenge
”Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did.”
Time for a little revenge
The story starts when it was hot and it was summer and
I had it all, I had him right there where I wanted him
She came along, got him alone and let’s hear the applause
She took him faster than you could say ”sabotage”
I never saw it coming, wouldn’t have suspected it

I underestimated just who I was dealing with
She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum
She underestimated just who she was stealing from
She’s not a saint

And she’s not what you think
She’s an actress
She’s better known
For the things that she does on the mattress
Soon she’s gonna find

Stealing other people’s toys
On the playground won’t make you many friends
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge
She looks at life like it’s a party and she’s on the list
She looks at me like I’m a trend and she’s so over it
I think her ever-present frown is a little troubling
She thinks I’m psycho ’cause I like to rhyme her name with things
But sophistication isn’t what you wear or who you know

Or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go
They wouldn’t teach you that in prep school so it’s up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity
(Think about what you did)
She’s not a saint

She’s an actress
For the things that she does
On the mattress

I’m just another thing for you to roll your eyes at, honey
You might have him but haven’t you heard
I’m just another thing for you to roll your eyes at, honey
You might have him but I always get the last word
She’s not a saint

She’s an actress
(She deserve it)
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For the things that she does on the mattress

Do you still feel like you know what you’re doing?

’Cause I don’t think you do
(No, no, no, no)
Do you still feel like you know what you’re doing?
I don’t think you do
I don’t think you do
Let’s hear the applause

(Come on, come on)
Come on show me how much better you are
(So much better, yeah?)
So you deserve some applause ’cause you’re so much better
She took him faster than you could say ”sabotage”
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Innocent
I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin’ to get it back
Wasn’t it easier in your lunchbox days?

Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you?
It’s alright, just wait and see

Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you’ve been
You’re still an innocent
Did some things you can’t speak of

But at night you live it all again
You wouldn’t be shattered on the floor now
If only you had seen what you know now then
Wasn’t it easier in your firefly-catchin’ days?

When everything out of reach
Someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn’t it beautiful runnin’ wild ’til you fell asleep
Before the monsters caught up to you?

Oh, who you are is not what you’ve been
It’s okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin’ up now
Who you are is not what you did
Time turns flames to embers

You’ll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too
Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never too late to be brand new

Oh, who you are is not what you’ve been
Please don’t be in love with someone else Please don’t have somebody waiting on you It’s okay, life is a tough
crowd
32, and still growin’ up now
Who you are is not what you did
Lost your balance on a tightrope

It’s never too late to get it back
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Haunted
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I’d live to see it break
It’s getting dark and it’s all too quiet
And I can’t trust anything now
And it’s coming over you like it’s all a big mistake
Oh, holding my breath

Won’t lose you again
Something’s made your eyes go cold
Come on, come on, don’t leave me like this

I thought I had you figured out
Something’s gone terribly wrong
You’re all I wanted
Can’t breathe whenever you’re gone
Can’t turn back now, I’m haunted
Stood there and watched you walk away

From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you
He will try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I’m wishing he was you instead
Oh, holding my breath

Won’t see you again
Something keeps me holding on to nothing

You’re all I wanted
Can’t turn back now, I’m haunted
I know, I know, I just know

You’re not gone. You can’t be gone. No

Won’t finish what you started
Can’t go back, I’m haunted
Oh You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time

Never ever thought I’d see it break
Never thought I’d see it
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Last Kiss
I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered
For just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go away?
Away
I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement
I ran off the plane
That July 9th
The beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt
I can still feel your arms
But now I’ll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don’t know how to be something you miss
I never thought we’d have a last kiss
Never imagined we’d end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
I do remember the swing of your step

The life of the party, you’re showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then
You pull me in
I’m not much for dancing
But for you I did
Because I love your handshake, meeting my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you’d kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There’s not a day I don’t miss those rude interruptions
And I’ll go sit on the floor

All that I know is
I never imagined we’d end like this
So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it’s nice where you are
And I hope the sun shines

And it’s a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
So I’ll go sit on the floor

All that I know is
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I never imagined we’d end like this
Just like our last kiss

Forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last
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Long Live
I said remember this moment
In the back of my mind
The time we stood with our shaking hands
The crowds in stands went wild
We were the kings and the queens

And they read off our names
The night you danced like you knew
Our lives would never be the same
You held your head like a hero

On a history book page
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age
Long live the walls we crashed through

How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders
One day, we will be remembered
I said remember this feeling

I pass the pictures around
Of all the years that we stood there
On the side-lines wishing for right now
We are the kings and the queens

You traded your baseball cap for a crown
When they gave us our trophies
And we held them up for our town
And the cynics were outraged

Screaming, ”This is absurd!”
’Cause for a moment a band of thieves
In ripped-up jeans got to rule the world

I was screaming long live all the magic we made
I’m not afraid
Long live all the mountains we moved

I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming long live that look on your face
Hold on to spinning around

Confetti falls to the ground
May these memories break our fall
Will you take a moment

Promise me this
That you’ll stand by me forever
But if God forbid fate should step in
And force us into a goodbye

If you have children some day
When they point to the pictures
Please tell them my name
Tell them how the crowds went wild
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Tell them how I hope they shine

I had the time of my life, with you
Long, long live the walls we crashed through

And I was screaming long live all the magic we made
I’m not afraid
Singing, long live all the mountains we moved

I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
And long, long live that look on your face
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Ours
Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers’ silence makes me wanna take the stairs
If you were here we’d laugh about their vacant stares
But right now my time is theirs
Seems like there’s always someone who disapproves

They’ll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury’s out, but my choice is you
So don’t you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water’s rough
But this love is ours
You never know what people have up their sleeves

Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But I don’t care ’cause right now you’re mine
And you’ll say

Don’t you worry your pretty little mind
And it’s not theirs to speculate

If it’s wrong and
Your hands are tough
But they are where mine belong and
I’ll fight their doubt and give you faith
With this song for you
’Cause I love the gap between your teeth

And I love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
’Cause my heart is yours
So don’t you worry your pretty little mind

Don’t you worry your pretty little mind
But they can’t take what’s ours
They can’t take what’s ours

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If This Was A Movie
Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I’m still reaching
Even though I know you’re not there
I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinking ’bout everything we’ve been through
Maybe I’ve been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you
Come back, come back, come back to me like

You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside ’til I came out
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you’d be here by now
I know people change and these things happen

But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
’Cause nothing like this ever happened to them
Now I’m pacing down the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to the night when you said to me
”Nothing’s gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose.”

If you’re out there

If you’re somewhere
If you’re moving on
I’ve been waiting for you
Ever since you’ve been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door
And I’d say

You would before you said, ”It’s not that easy.”
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I take it all back now

You’d be here by now

It’s not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, what about the ending
Oh, I thought you’d be here by now, whoa
Thought you’d be here by now
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Superman
Tall, dark and superman
He puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work
It’s the same thing to me
He’s got his mother’s eyes, his father’s ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on every word you say
And you smile and say, ”How are you?”

I’ll say, ”Just fine.”
I always forget to tell you, I love you, I’ll love you forever
I watch superman fly away

You’ve got a busy day today
Go save the world, I’ll be around
And I watch superman fly away
Come back I’ll be with you someday
I’ll be right here on the ground
When you come back down
Tall, dark and beautiful

He’s complicated, he’s irrational
But I hope someday you’ll take me away and save the day, yeah
Something in his deep brown eyes has me sayin’
He’s not all bad like his reputation
And I can’t hear one single word they say
And you’ll leave, got places to be

And I’ll be OK
I always forget to tell you I love you, I loved you from the very first day

Go save the world I’ll be around
And I watch superman fly away
Come back I’ll be with you someday
And I watch you fly around the world

And I hope you don’t save some other girl
Don’t forget, don’t forget about me
I’m far away but I never let you go
I’m love-struck and looking out the window
Don’t forget, don’t forget where I’ll be
Right here wishing the flowers were from you
Wishing the card was from you
Wishing the call was from you
’Cause I loved you from the very first day

Go save the world, I’ll be around
Forever and ever here
I swear I’ll be with you someday
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Mine
Ah-ah, ah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah
You were in college working part-time, waitin’ tables

Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wonderin’ why we bother with love if it never lasts
I say, ”Can you believe it?”

As we’re lyin’ on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now
Do you remember, we were sittin’ there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine
Flash forward and we’re takin’ on the world together

And there’s a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I’m guarded
You say we’ll never make my parents’ mistakes
But we got bills to pay

We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about
Do you remember, we were sittin’ there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
Oh-oh, oh
And I remember that fight, 2:30AM

As everything was slippin’ right out of our hands
I ran out cryin’ and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye
’Cause that’s all I’ve ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said, ”I’ll never leave you alone”
You said, ”I remember how it felt sitting by the water

And every time I look at you, it’s like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man’s careful daughter
She is the best thing that’s ever been mine”
Hold on and make it last

Hold on, never turn back
(Hold on) You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
(Hold on) You are the best thing that’s ever been mine
Yes, yes, do you believe it? (Hold on)

Yes, yes, we’re gonna make it now (Hold on, yeah)
Yes, yes, and I can see it (Hold on)
Yes, yes, I can see it now (See it now, see it now)
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Electric Touch (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Patrick Stump)
Just breathe, just relax, it’ll be okay
Just an hour ’til your car’s in the driveway
Just the first time ever hangin’ out with you tonight
I’ve got my money on things goin’ badly
Got a history of stories ending sadly
Still hoping that the fire won’t burn me
Just one time, just one time
All I know is this could either break my heart or bring it back to life
Got a feelin’ your electric touch could fill this ghost town up with life
And I want you now, wanna need you forever
In the heat of your electric touch, mmm
I’ve been left in the rain lost and pining

I’m tryin’ hard not to look like I’m trying
’Cause every time I tried hard for love, it fell apart (Woah)
I’ve gotten used to no one callin’ my phone
I’ve grown accustomed to sleepin’ alone
Still, I know that all it takes is to get it right
Just one time, just one time
Got a feelin’ your electric touch could fill this ghost town up with life
I was thinking just one time (Just one time)

Maybe the stars align (Just one time)
And maybe I call you mine
And you won’t need space
Or string me along while you decide
And just one time (Just one time)
Maybe the moment’s right (The moment’s right)
It’s 8:05 and I see two headlights
Got a feelin’ your electric touch (Ooh)
Got a feelin’ your electric touch could fill this ghost town up with life (Life)
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When Emma Falls in Love (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
When Emma falls in love, she paces the floor
Closes the blinds and locks the door
When Emma falls in love, she calls up her mom
Jokes about the ways that this one could go wrong
She waits and takes her time
’Cause Little Miss Sunshine always thinks it’s gonna rain
When Emma falls in love, I know
That boy will never be the same
’Cause she’s the kind of book that you can’t put down
Like if Cleopatra grew up in a small town
And all the bad boys would be good boys
If they only had a chance to love her
And to tell you the truth, sometimes I wish I was her
When Emma falls in love, it’s all on her face

Hangs in the air like stars in outer space
When Emma falls in love, she disappears
And we all just laugh after seein’ it all these years
When Emma falls apart, it’s when she’s alone
She takes on the pain and bears it on her own
’Cause when Emma falls in love, she’s in it for keeps
She won’t walk away unless she knows she absolutely has to leave
And she’s the kind of book that you can’t put down
Well, she’s so New York when she’s in L.A

She won’t lose herself in love the way that I did
’Cause she’ll call you out, she’ll put you in your place
When Emma falls in love, I’m learning
Emma met a boy with eyes like a man

Turns out her heart fits right in the palm of his hand
Now he’ll be her shelter when it rains
Little does he know, his whole world’s about to change
’Cause she’s the kind of book that you can’t put down
Yeah, between me and you, sometimes I wish I was her
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I Can See You (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
Uh-uh, uh, uh
You brush past me in the hallway

And you don’t think I, I, I can see ya, do ya?
I’ve been watchin’ you for ages
And I spend my time tryin’ not to feel it
But what would you do if I went to touch you now?

What would you do if they never found us out?
What would you do if we never made a sound?
’Cause I can see you waitin’ down the hall from me

And I could see you up against the wall with me
And what would you do? Baby, if you only knew
That I can see you
Uh-uh, uh, uh
And we kept everything professional

But something’s changed, it’s somethin’ I, I like
They keep watchful eyes on us
So it’s best that we move fast and keep quiet
You won’t believe half the things I see inside my head
Wait ’til you see half the things that haven’t happened yet
But what would you do if I went to touch you now?

What would you do if they never found us out?
What would you do if we never made a sound?
’Cause I can see you waitin’ down the hall from me

And what would you do? Baby, if you only knew, oh, oh, oh
That I could see you throw your jacket on the floor
I could see you, make me want you even more
What would you do? Baby, if you only knew
That I can see you
Uh-uh, uh, uh
I can see you in your suit and your necktie

Passed me a note saying, ”Meet me tonight”
Then we kissed and you know I won’t ever tell, yeah
And I could see you being my addiction
You can see me as a secret mission
Hide away and I will start behaving myself
Uh-uh, uh, uh
Oh-oh, oh, oh
I can see you waitin’ down the hall from me

And what would you do? Baby, if you only knew, oh
That I could see you throw your jacket on the floor
I could see you, make me want you even more
What would you do? Baby, if you only knew
That I can see you, oh, I can see you
Oh, I see you, I see you, baby

I see you
(Uh-uh, uh, uh) I see you, I see you, baby
Oh, baby
75
Castles Crumbling (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Hayley Williams)
(Once, I had an empire)
Once, I had an empire in a golden age

I was held up so high, I used to be great
They used to cheer when they saw my face
Now, I fear I have fallen from grace
And I feel like my castle’s crumbling down

And I watch all my bridges burn to the ground
And you don’t want to know me, I will just let you down
You don’t wanna know me now
Once, I was the great hope for a dynasty

Crowds would hang on my words and they trusted me
Their faith was strong, but I pushed it too far
I held that grudge ’til it tore me apart
Power went to my head and I couldn’t stop

Ones I loved tried to help, so I ran them off
And here I sit alone behind walls of regret
Falling down like promises that I never kept
And I feel like my castle’s crumbling down

And you don’t want to know me, I will just let you down
You don’t wanna know me now
My foes and friends watch my reign end

I don’t know how it could’ve ended this way
Smoke billows from my ships in the harbor
People look at me like I’m a monster
Now they’re screamin’ at the palace’s front gates
Used to chant my name
Now they’re screaming that they hate me
Never wanted you to hate me
My castle’s crumbling down

And you don’t want to know me, I will just let you down (Just let you down)
My castle’s crumbling down
You don’t wanna know me now, now

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Foolish One (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
My cards are on the table, yours are in your hand
Chances are, tonight, you’ve already got plans
And chances are I will talk myself to sleep again
You give me just enough attention to keep my hopes too high
Wishful thoughts forget to mention when something’s really not right
And I will block out these voices of reason in my head
And the voices say, ”You are not the exception

You will never learn your lesson”
Foolish one
Stop checkin’ your mailbox for confessions of love
That ain’t never gonna come
You will take the long way, you will take the long way down
You know how to keep me waitin’

I know how to act like I’m fine
Don’t know what to call this situation
But I know I can’t call you mine
And it’s delicate, but I will do my best to seem bulletproof
’Cause when my head is on your shoulder
It starts thinkin’ you’ll come around
And maybe, someday, when we’re older
This is something we’ll laugh about
Over coffee every mornin’ while you’re watching the news
But then the voices say, ”You are not the exception
You will never learn your lesson”
Foolish one
Foolish one
You will learn the hard way instead of just walkin’ out
Now I’m slidin’ down the wall with my head in my hands

Sayin’, ”How could I not see the signs?”
Oh, you haven’t written me or called
But goodbye screamin’ in the silence
And the voices in my head are tellin’ me why
’Cause you got her on your arm and me in the wings
I’ll get your longing glances, but she’ll get your ring
And you will say you had the best of intentions
And maybe I will finally learn my lesson
Foolish one
Foolish one
You will learn the hard way instead of just walkin’ out, oh-oh, oh, oh
La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, oh
La-la-la-la-la
Ain’t never gonna come
Ooh, you will learn the hard way now
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Foolish one
Sittin’ ’round waiting for confessions of love
They ain’t never gonna come
And thinkin’ he’s the one, you should’ve been walkin’ out
Foolish one
The day is gonna come for your confessions of love
When all is said and done, he just wasn’t the one
No, he just wasn’t the one
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Timeless (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
Down the block, there’s an antique shop
And something in my head said, ”Stop,” so I walked in
On the counter was a cardboard box
And the sign said, ”Photos: twenty-five cents each”
Black and white, saw a ’30s bride
And school lovers laughin’ on the porch of their first house
The kinda love that you only find once in a lifetime
The kind you don’t put down
And that’s when I called you and it’s so hard to explain
But in those photos, I saw us instead
And, somehow, I know that you and I would’ve found each other
In another life, you still would’ve turned my head even if we’d met
On a crowded street in 1944

And you were headed off to fight in the war
You still would’ve been mine
We would have been timeless
I would’ve read your love letters every single night
And prayed to God you’d be comin’ home all right
And you would’ve been fine
’Cause I believe that we were supposed to find this
So, even in a different life, you still would’ve been mine
We would’ve been timeless
I had to smile when it caught my eye

There was one of a teenage couple in the driveway
Holdin’ hands on the way to a dance
And the date on the back said 1958
Which brought me back to the first time I saw you
Time stood still like somethin’ in this old shop
I thought about it as I started lookin’ ’round
At these precious things that time forgot
That’s when I came upon a book covered in cobwebs
Story of a romance torn apart by fate
Hundreds of years ago, they fell in love, like we did
And I’d die for you in the same way if I first saw your face
In the fifteen hundreds off in a foreign land

And I was forced to marry another man
I would’ve read your love letters every single night
And run away and left it all behind
’Cause I believe that we were supposed to find this
So, even in a different life, you still would’ve been mine
Time breaks down your mind and body

Don’t you let it touch your soul
It was like an age-old classic
The first time that you saw me
The story started when you said, ”Hello”
In a crowded room a few short years ago

And sometimes there’s no proof, you just know
You’re always gonna be mine
We’re gonna be
I’m gonna love you when our hair is turnin’ gray
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We’ll have a cardboard box of photos of the life we’ve made
And you’ll say, ”Oh my, we really were timeless”
We’re gonna be timeless, timeless

We would’ve been
Even if we’d met on a crowded street in 1944
We would’ve been
Down the block, there’s an antique shop

And somethin’ in my head said, ”Stop,” so I walked in
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Red
State Of Grace
I’m walking fast through the traffic lights
Busy streets and busy lives
And all we know
Is touch and go
We are alone with our changing minds

We fall in love ’til it hurts or bleeds or fades in time
And I never (never) saw you coming

And I’ll never (never) be the same
You come around and the armor falls

Pierce the room like a cannonball
Now all we know
Is don’t let go
We are alone, just you and me

Up in your room and our slates are clean
Just twin fire signs
Four blue eyes
So you were never a saint

And I’ve loved in shades of wrong
We learn to live with the pain
Mosaic broken hearts
But this love is brave and wild

This is a state of grace

This is the worthwhile fight
Love is a ruthless game
Unless you play it good and right
These are the hands of fate

You’re my Achilles’ heel
This is the golden age of something good and right and real


And I’ll never
(So you were never a saint
I’ve loved in shades of wrong)
Be the same
(We learn to live with the pain
But this love is brave and wild)

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Red
Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue like I’d never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
(Red, red)
(Red, red)
Loving him was red
(Red, red)
(Red, red)
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong
Losing him was blue like I’d never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone (whoa)
But loving him was red
(Red, red)
Oh, red
(Red, red)
Burning red
(Red, red)
(Red, red)
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes

Tell myself it’s time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
In burning red
Burning, it was red
Oh, losing him was blue like I’d never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone (whoa)
’Cause loving him was red
(Red, red)
Yeah, yeah, red
(Red, red)
We’re burning red
(Red, red)
(Red, red)
And that’s why he’s spinnin’ ’round in my head

(Red, red)
Comes back to me, burning red
(Red, red)
(Red, red)
Yeah, yeah
(Red, red)
His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
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Treacherous
Put your lips close to mine
As long as they don’t touch
Out of focus, eye to eye
’Til the gravity’s too much
And I’ll do anything you say
If you say it with your hands
And I’d be smart to walk away
But you’re quicksand
This slope is treacherous

This path is reckless
And I, I, I like it
I can’t decide if it’s a choice

Getting swept away
I hear the sound of my own voice
Asking you to stay
And all we are is skin and bone
Trained to get along
Forever going with the flow
But you’re friction

This path is reckless
I, I, I like it
Two headlights shine through the sleepless night

And I will get you a—get you alone
Your name has echoed through my mind
And I just think you should, think you should know
That nothing safe is worth the drive
And I would follow you, follow you home
I’ll follow you, follow you home
This hope is treacherous

This daydream is dangerous
This hope is treacherous
I, I, I... I, I, I... I, I, I
Two headlights shine through the sleepless night

And I will get you, I’ll get you alone
Your name has echoed through my mind
And I just think you should, think you should know
That nothing safe is worth the drive
And I would follow you, follow you home

I, I, I like it
83
I Knew You Were Trouble
Once upon a time, a few mistakes ago
I was in your sights, you got me alone
You found me, you found me, you found me
I guess you didn’t care, and I guess I liked that
And when I fell hard you took a step back
Without me, without me, without me
And he’s long gone when he’s next to me

And I realize the blame is on me
’Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now
Flew me to places I’d never been
’Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Now I’m lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
No apologies. He’ll never see you cry

Pretends he doesn’t know that he’s the reason why
You’re drowning, you’re drowning, you’re drowning
Now I heard you moved on from whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt is all I’ll ever be
And now I see, now I see, now I see
He was long gone when he met me

And I realize the joke is on me, hey!

So shame on me now
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I’d never been (yeah)
And the saddest fear comes creeping in

That you never loved me or her, or anyone, or anything, yeah

So shame on me now
Flew me to places I’d never been (Never been)
I knew you were trouble when you walked in (Knew it right there)
So shame on me now (Knew it right there)
Flew me to places I’d never been (Ooh)

Trouble, trouble, trouble
Trouble, trouble, trouble
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All Too Well
I walked through the door with you, the air was cold
But something ’bout it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your sister’s house
And you’ve still got it in your drawer even now
Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze

We’re singing in the car, getting lost Upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days
And I know it’s long gone

And that magic’s not here no more
And I might be okay
But I’m not fine at all
’Cause there we are again on that little town street

You almost ran the red ’cause you were looking over at me
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well
Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red

You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother’s telling stories ’bout you on a tee-ball team
You tell me ’bout your past, thinking your future was me
And I know it’s long gone

And there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to
’Cause there we are again in the middle of the night

We’re dancing ’round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah
Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much

But maybe this thing was a masterpiece ’til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise

So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
’Cause I remember it all, all, all... too well
Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it

I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
’Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can’t get rid of it ’cause you remember it all too well, yeah
’Cause there we are again, when I loved you so

Back before you lost the one real thing you’ve ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well
Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all

Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well
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All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
I walked through the door with you, the air was cold
But something ’bout it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your sister’s house
And you’ve still got it in your drawer, even now
Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
We’re singing in the car, getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days
And I know it’s long gone and

That magic’s not here no more
And I might be okay, but I’m not fine at all
Oh, oh, oh
’Cause there we are again on that little town street

You almost ran the red ’cause you were lookin’ over at me
Wind in my hair, I was there
I remember it all too well
Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red

You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother’s telling stories ’bout you on the tee-ball team
You taught me ’bout your past, thinking your future was me
And you were tossing me the car keys, ”fuck the patriarchy”
Key chain on the ground, we were always skipping town
And I was thinking on the drive down, any time now
He’s gonna say it’s love, you never called it what it was
’Til we were dead and gone and buried
Check the pulse and come back swearing it’s the same
After three months in the grave
And then you wondered where it went to as I reached for you
But all I felt was shame and you held my lifeless frame
And I know it’s long gone and

There was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to
’Cause there we are again in the middle of the night

We’re dancing ’round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there
And there we are again when nobody had to know
You kept me like a secret, but I kept you like an oath
Sacred prayer and we’d swear
To remember it all too well, yeah
Well, maybe we got lost in translation

Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
’Til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I’m a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
’Cause I remember it all, all, all
They say all’s well that ends well, but I’m in a new Hell
Every time you double-cross my mind
You said if we had been closer in age maybe it would have been fine
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And that made me want to die
The idea you had of me, who was she?
A never-needy, ever-lovely jewel whose shine reflects on you
Not weeping in a party bathroom
Some actress asking me what happened, you
That’s what happened, you
You who charmed my dad with self-effacing jokes
Sipping coffee like you’re on a late-night show
But then he watched me watch the front door all night, willing you to come
And he said, ”It’s supposed to be fun turning twenty-one”
Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralyzed by it

I’d like to be my old self again, but I’m still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
’Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can’t get rid of it
’Cause you remember it all too well, yeah
’Cause there we are again when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you’ve ever known
It was rare, I was there

Wind in my hair, you were there
You remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there
You remember it all
It was rare, I was there
And I was never good at telling jokes, but the punch line goes
”I’ll get older, but your lovers stay my age”
From when your Brooklyn broke my skin and bones
I’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight
And did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?
Just between us, did the love affair maim you, too?
’Cause in this city’s barren cold
I still remember the first fall of snow
And how it glistened as it fell
Just between us, did the love affair maim you all too well?
Just between us, do you remember it all too well?
Just between us, I remember it (Just between us), all too well
Wind in my hair, I was there, I was there
Down the stairs, I was there, I was there
Sacred prayer, I was there, I was there
It was rare, you remember it all too well
It was rare, you remember it
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22
It feels like a perfect night to dress up like hipsters
And make fun of our exes, uh uh, uh uh
It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight
To fall in love with strangers, uh uh, uh uh
Yeah
We’re happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time
It’s miserable and magical
Oh, yeah
Tonight’s the night when we forget about the deadlines
It’s time
Uh oh!
I don’t know about you
But I’m feeling 22
Everything will be alright
If you keep me next to you
You don’t know about me
But I’ll bet you want to
If we just keep dancing like we’re
22, ooh-ooh
22, ooh-ooh
It seems like one of those nights

This place is too crowded
Too many cool kids, uh uh, uh uh (who’s Taylor Swift anyway, ew?)
It seems like one of those nights
We ditch the whole scene and end up dreaming
Instead of sleeping
Yeah
We’re happy, free, confused, and lonely in the best way
It’s miserable and magical
Oh, yeah
Tonight’s the night when we forget about the heartbreaks
It’s time
Uh oh! (hey!)
You don’t know about me
Everything will be alright (alright)
22, ooh-ooh (oh, oh, oh)
22, ooh-ooh
22, ooh-ooh
22, ooh-ooh
It feels like one of those nights

We ditch the whole scene
We won’t be sleeping
You look like bad news
I gotta have you
I gotta have you
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Ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ye-e-e-e-eah, hey
I don’t know about you (I don’t know about you)
You don’t know about me (you don’t know about me)
22, ooh-ooh (oh – whoa)
22, ooh-ooh (dancing like)
22, ooh-ooh, yeah, yeah
22, ooh-ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah

We ditch the whole scene
We won’t be sleeping
You look like bad news
I gotta have you
I gotta have you
89
I Almost Do
I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me
And I just wanna tell you

It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that every time I don’t
I almost do
I almost do
I bet you think I either moved on or hate you

’Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply
I bet it never ever occurred to you that I can’t say ”Hello” to you
And risk another goodbye

I almost do
I almost do
Oh, we made quite a mess, babe

It’s probably better off this way
And I confess, babe
In my dreams you’re touching my face
And asking me if I wanna try again with you
And I almost do

I almost do
I almost do
I bet this time of night you’re still up

I bet you’re tired from a long hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city
And I hope sometimes you wonder about me
90
We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together
I remember when we broke up the first time
Saying, ”This is it, I’ve had enough,” ’cause like
We hadn’t seen each other in a month
When you said you needed space. (What?)
Then you come around again and say
”Baby, I miss you and I swear I’m gonna change, trust me.”
Remember how that lasted for a day?
I say, ”I hate you,” we break up, you call me, ”I love you.”
Ooh, we called it off again last night

But ooh, this time I’m telling you, I’m telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together

You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together
Like, ever
I’m really gonna miss you picking fights

And me falling for it screaming that I’m right
And you would hide away and find your peace of mind
With some indie record that’s much cooler than mine
Ooh, you called me up again tonight

But ooh, this time I’m telling you, I’m telling you
We are never, ever, ever getting back together

We are never, ever, ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
Ooh, yeah, ooh yeah, ooh yeah

Oh oh oh
I used to think that we were forever ever

And I used to say, ”Never say never...”
Uggg... so he calls me up and he’s like, ”I still love you,”
And I’m like... ”I just... I mean this is exhausting, you know, like
We are never getting back together. Like, ever”
No!

You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
We, ooh, getting back together, ohhh

We, ooh, getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)

91
Stay Stay Stay
I’m pretty sure we almost broke up last night
I threw my phone across the room at you
I was expecting some dramatic turn-away
But you stayed
This morning I said we should talk about it

’Cause I read you should never leave a fight unresolved
That’s when you came in wearing a football helmet and said, ”Okay, let’s talk.”
And I said
Stay, stay, stay
I’ve been lovin’ you for quite some time, time, time
You think that it’s funny when I’m mad, mad, mad
But I think that it’s best if we both stay
Before you I’d only dated self-indulgent takers

Who took all of their problems out on me
But you carry my groceries, and now I’m always laughin’
And I love you because you have given me no choice but to
Stay, stay, stay

But I think that it’s best if we both stay, stay, stay, stay
You took the time to memorize me:

My fears, my hopes, and dreams
I just like hangin’ out with you all the time
All those times that you didn’t leave
It’s been occurring to me I’d like to hang out with you for my whole life
Stay
And I’ll be loving you for quite some time
No one else is gonna love me, when I get mad, mad, mad
So I think that it’s best if we both stay, stay, stay, stay, stay, stay
Stay, stay, stay

But I think that it’s best if we both stay, stay, stay, stay, stay, stay
Stay, stay, stay

But I think that it’s best if we both stay
That’s so fun!
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The Last Time (feat. Gary Lightbody)
[Gary Lightbody:]
I find myself at your door
Just like all those times before
I’m not sure how I got there
All roads—they lead me here
I imagine you are home

In your room, all alone
And you open your eyes into mine
And everything feels better
[Both:]
And right before your eyes
I’m breaking, no past
No reasons why
Just you and me
This is the last time I’m asking you this

Put my name at the top of your list
This is the last time I’m asking you why
You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye
[Taylor Swift:]
You find yourself at my door
Just like all those times before
You wear your best apology
But I was there to watch you leave
And all the times I let you in

Just for you to go again
Disappear when you come back
Everything is better
[Both:]
And right before your eyes
I’m aching, no past
Nowhere to hide
Just you and me

You break my heart in the blink of an eye, eye, eye
This is the last time you tell me I’ve got it wrong

This is the last time I say it’s been you all along
This is the last time I let you in my door
This is the last time, I won’t hurt you anymore
Oh, oh, oh

You break my heart in the blink of an eye
This is the last time I’m asking you

Last time I’m asking you
Last time I’m asking you this
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94
Holy Ground
I was reminiscing just the other day
While having coffee all alone and Lord, it took me away
Back to a first-glance feeling on New York Time
Back when you fit in my poems like a perfect rhyme
Took off faster than a green light ”Go”
Hey, you skip the conversation when you already know
I left a note on the door with a joke we’d made
And that was the first day
And darling, it was good never looking down

And right there where we stood was holy ground
Spinning like a girl in a brand new dress

We had this big wide city all to ourselves
We blocked the noise with the sound of ”I need you”
And for the first time I had something to lose
And I guess we fell apart in the usual way
And the story’s got dust on every page
But sometimes I wonder how you think about it now
And I see your face in every crowd
’Cause darling, it was good never looking down

Tonight I’m gonna dance for all that we’ve been through
But I don’t wanna dance if I’m not dancing with you
Tonight I’m gonna dance like you were in this room
It was good never looking down

Tonight I’m gonna dance for all that we’ve been through
Tonight I’m gonna dance like you were in this room
95
Sad Beautiful Tragic
Long handwritten note deep in your pocket
Words, how little they mean when you’re a little too late
I stood right by the tracks, your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they’ll be and long they will wait
We had a beautiful magic love there

What a sad beautiful tragic love affair
In dreams I meet you in warm conversation

We both wake in lonely beds, different cities
And time is taking its sweet time erasing you
And you’ve got your demons, and, darling, they all look like me
’Cause we had a beautiful magic love there

Distance, timing, breakdown, fighting

Silence, the train runs off its tracks
Kiss me, try to fix it, could you just try to listen?
Hang up, give up and for the life of us we can’t get back
A beautiful magic love there

What a sad beautiful tragic, beautiful tragic, beautiful
What we had a beautiful magic love there

We had a beautiful magic love there

96
The Lucky One
New to town with a made up name in the angel’s city
Chasing fortune and fame
And the camera flashes, make it look like a dream
You had it figured out since you were in school

Everybody loves pretty, everybody loves cool
So overnight you look like a sixties’ queen
Another name goes up in lights, like diamonds in the sky
And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one

Yeah, they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one
But can you tell me now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh
Now it’s big black cars, and Riviera views

And your lover in the foyer doesn’t even know you
And your secrets end up splashed on the news front page
And they tell you that you’re lucky

But you’re so confused
’Cause you don’t feel pretty, you just feel used
And all the young things line up to take your place
Another name goes up in lights. You wonder if you’ll make it out alive
And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one

Can you tell me now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh
It was a few years later, I showed up here

And they still tell the legend of how you disappeared
How you took the money and your dignity, and got the hell out
They say you bought a bunch of land somewhere
Chose the rose garden over Madison Square
And it took some time, but I understand it now
’Cause now my name is up in lights, but I think you got it right
Let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one

Let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one
Let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh
Yeah they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one

And they’ll tell you now, you’re the lucky one, oh, oh, oh
Oh, whoa, oh, oh
97
Everything Has Changed (duet with Ed Sheeran)
[Ed Sheeran:]
You good to go?
[Taylor Swift:]
All I knew this morning when I woke
Is I know something now, know something now I didn’t before
And all I’ve seen since eighteen hours ago
Is green eyes and freckles and your smile
In the back of my mind making me feel like
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
[Both:]
I just wanna know you, know you, know you
’Cause all I know is we said, ”Hello”

And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You’ll be mine and I’ll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
[Ed Sheeran:]
And all my walls stood tall painted blue
And I’ll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you
[Taylor Swift:]
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies
The beautiful kind, making up for lost time
Taking flight, making me feel right
[Both:]
’Cause all I know is we said, ”Hello”

And you’ll be mine and I’ll be yours
Come back and tell me why

I’m feeling like I’ve missed you all this time
Oh, oh, oh
And meet me there tonight
And let me know that it’s not all in my mind
[Taylor Swift:]
[Both:]
All I know is we said, ”Hello”
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You’ll be mine and I’ll be yours
[Taylor Swift:]
All I know is we said, ”Hello”
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain and everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days I’ll know your face
99
Starlight
I said, ”Oh my, what a marvelous tune.”
It was the best night, never would forget how we moved
The whole place was dressed to the nines
And we were dancing, dancing
Like we’re made of starlight
Like we’re made of starlight
I met Bobby on the boardwalk, summer of ’45

Picked me up late one night out the window
We were 17 and crazy, running wild, wild
Can’t remember what song it was playing when we walked in
The night we snuck into a yacht club party
Pretending to be a duchess and a prince
And I said, ”Oh my, what a marvelous tune.”

Like we’re made of starlight, starlight
He said, ”Look at you: worrying too much about things you can’t change
You’ll spend your whole life singing the blues if you keep thinking that way.”
He was tryna skip rocks on the ocean, saying to me
”Don’t you see the starlight, starlight?
Don’t you dream impossible things?”
Like ”Oh my, what a marvelous tune.”

Ooh, ooh, he’s talking crazy

Ooh, ooh, dancing with me
Ooh, ooh, we could get married
Have ten kids and teach them how to dream
Oh my, what a marvelous tune

Like we dream impossible dreams
Like starlight, starlight
Like we dream impossible dreams
Don’t you see the starlight, starlight?
Don’t you dream impossible things?
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Begin Again
Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn’t like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn’t get this song
But I do, I do
Walked in expecting you’d be late

But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don’t know how nice that is
But I do
And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny ’cause he never did
I’ve been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again
You said you never met one girl

Who had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don’t know why
I’m coming off a little shy
But I do
But you throw your head back laughing like a little kid

And we walked down the block to my car and I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies that your family
Watches
Every single Christmas and I want to talk about that
And for the first time what’s past is past
’Cause you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
101
The Moment I Knew
You should’ve been there
Should’ve burst through the door
With that ’baby I’m right here’ smile
And it would’ve felt like
A million little shining stars had just aligned
And I would’ve been so happy
Christmas lights glisten

I’ve got my eye on the door
Just waiting for you to walk in
But the time is ticking
People ask me how I’ve been
As I comb back through my memory
How you said you’d be here
You said you’d be here
And it was like slow motion

Standing there in my party dress
In red lipstick
With no one to impress
And they’re all laughing
As I’m looking around the room
But there’s one thing missing
And that was the moment I knew
And the hours pass by

Now I just wanna be alone
But your close friends always seem to know
When there’s something really wrong
So they follow me down the hall
And there in the bathroom
I try not to fall apart
And the sinking feeling starts
As I say hopelessly
”He said he’d be here.”

In red lipstick
And they’re all laughing
And asking me about you
But there was one thing missing
What do you say

When tears are streaming down your face
In front of everyone you know?
And what do you do when the one
Who means the most to you
Is the one who didn’t show?
You should’ve been here

And I would’ve been so happy

In red lipstick
And they’re all standing around me singing
”Happy birthday to you”
102
But there was one thing missing
Ooh, I knew
Ooh
You called me later

And said, ”I’m sorry, I didn’t make it,”
And I said, ”I’m sorry too,”
103
Come Back... Be Here
You said it in a simple way
4 AM, the second day
How strange that I don’t know you at all
Stumbled through the long goodbye
One last kiss, then catch your flight
Right when I was just about to fall
I told myself, ”Don’t get attached,”

But in my mind I play it back
Spinning faster than the plane that took you
And this is when the feeling sinks in

I don’t wanna miss you like this
Come back... be here, come back... be here
I guess you’re in New York today
I don’t wanna need you this way
The delicate beginning rush

The feeling you can know so much
Without knowing anything at all
And now that I can put this down
If I had known what I know now
I never would have played so nonchalant
Taxi cabs and busy streets

That never bring you back to me
I can’t help but wish you took me with you
And this is when the feeling sinks in

I guess you’re in London today
And I don’t wanna need you this way
This is falling in love in the cruelest way

This is falling for you when you are worlds away
New York... be here

But you’re in London and I break down
’Cause it’s not fair that you’re not around
This is when the feeling sinks in

I guess you’re in New York today
And I don’t wanna need you this way

Come back... be here
Come back... be here
104
Girl At Home
Don’t look at me
You’ve got a girl at home
And everybody knows that
Everybody knows that
Uh, uh
Don’t look at me
I don’t even know her

But I feel a responsibility
To do what’s upstanding and right
It’s kinda like a code, yeah
And you’ve been getting closer and closer
And crossing so many lines
And it would be a fine proposition

If I was a stupid girl
But honey I am no-one’s exception
This I have previously learned
So don’t look at me
Uh, uh
Don’t look at me
I see you turn off your phone
And now you got me alone
And I say
Don’t look at me
I just wanna make sure

You understand perfectly
You’re the kind of man who makes me sad
While she waits up
You chase down the newest thing
And take for granted what you have
And it would be a fine proposition

If I was a stupid girl
And yeah I might go with it
If I hadn’t once been just like her
Don’t look at me
Uh, uh
Don’t look at me
I see you turn off your phone
And now you’ve got me alone
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And I say
Don’t look at me
Call a cab
Lose my number
You’re about to lose your girl
Call a cab
Lose my number
Let’s consider this lesson learned
Don’t look at me
Uh, uh
Don’t look at me
Wanna see you pick up your phone
And tell her you’re coming home
Don’t look at me
Uh, uh
Don’t look at me
It would be a fine proposition

If I hadn’t once been just like her
106
State Of Grace
I’m walking fast through the traffic lights
Busy streets and busy lives
And all we know
Is touch and go
We are alone with our changing minds

We fall in love ’til it hurts or bleeds or fades in time

You come around and the armor falls

Pierce the room like a cannonball
Now all we know
Is don’t let go
We are alone, just you and me

Up in your room and our slates are clean
Just twin fire signs
Four blue eyes
So you were never a saint

And I’ve loved in shades of wrong
We learn to live with the pain
But this love is brave and wild


These are the hands of fate

You’re my Achilles’ heel
This is the golden age of something good and right and real


And I’ll never
(So you were never a saint
I’ve loved in shades of wrong)
Be the same
(We learn to live with the pain
But this love is brave and wild)

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Ronan
I remember your bare feet down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor, plastic dinosaurs
I love you to the moon and back
I remember your blue eyes looking into mine

Like we had our own secret club
I remember you dancing before bed time
Then jumping on me, waking me up
I can still feel you hold my hand, little man

And even the moment I knew
You fought it hard like an army guy
Remember I leaned in and whispered to you
Come on baby with me, we’re gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
I remember the drive home

When the blind hope turned to crying and screaming ”Why?”
Flowers pile up in the worst way, no one knows what to say
About a beautiful boy who died
And it’s about to be Halloween

You could be anything you wanted if you were still here
I remember the last day when I kissed your face
And whispered in your ear
Out of this curtained room in this hospital grey, we’ll just disappear
What if I’m standing in your closet trying to talk to you?

What if I kept the hand-me-downs you won’t grow into?
And what if I really thought some miracle would see us through?
What if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?
I remember your bare feet down the hallway

I love you to the moon and back
108
Better Man (originally by Little Big Town)
I know I’m probably better off on my own
Than lovin’ a man who didn’t know
What he had when he had it
And I see the permanent damage you did to me
Never again, I just wish I could forget when it was magic
I wish it wasn’t 4am, standing in the mirror
Saying to myself, you know you had to do it
I know the bravest thing I ever did was run
Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again

But I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
A better man
I know I’m probably better off all alone

Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute
And it was always on your terms
I waited on every careless word
Hoping it might turn sweet again
Like it was in the beginning
But your jealousy, oh, I can hear it now
You’re talking down to me like I’ll always be around
You push my love away like it was some kind of loaded gun
Oh, you never thought I’d run

I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
A better man
I hold onto this pride because these days it’s all I have
And I gave to you my best and we both know you can’t say that
I wish you were a better man

I wonder what we would’ve become
If you were a better man
We might still be in love
You would’ve been the one
Yeah, yeah

I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand
But I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man
A better man

(We might still be in love, if you were a better man)
I know why we had to say goodbye
Like the back of my hand
But I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man
A better man
We might still be in love, if you were a better man
You would’ve been the one
109
Nothing New (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Phoebe Bridgers)
They tell you while you’re young
”Girls, go out and have your fun”
Then they hunt and slay the ones who actually do it
Criticize the way you fly
When you’re soaring through the sky
Shoot you down and then they sigh
And say, ”She looks like she’s been through it”
Lord, what will become of me
Once I’ve lost my novelty?
I’ve had too much to drink tonight

And I know it’s sad but this is what I think about
And I wake up in the middle of the night
It’s like I can feel time moving
How can a person know everything at eighteen
But nothing at twenty-two?
And will you still want me when I’m nothing new?
How long will it be cute, all this crying in my room?

When you can’t blame it on my youth
And roll your eyes with affection
And my cheeks are growing tired
From turning red and faking smiles
Are we only biding time ’til I lose your attention
And someone else lights up the room?
People love an ingénue
I’ve had too much to drink tonight

How did I go from growing up to breaking down?
And I wake up in the middle of the night
It’s like I can feel time moving
And will you still want me when I’m nothing new?
I know someday I’m gonna meet her

It’s a fever dream
The kind of radiance you only have at seventeen
She’ll know the way and then she’ll say she got the map from me
I’ll say I’m happy for her then I’ll cry myself to sleep
Oh woah, oh woah, oh, oh
I’ve had (I’ve had) too much to drink tonight

But I wonder if they’ll miss me once they drive me out
I wake up (Wake up) in the middle of the night
And I can feel time moving
And will you still want me, will you still want me
Will you still want me when I’m nothing new?
110
Babe (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (originally by Sugarland)
What about your promises, promises?
What about your promises, promises, promises? (No)
What a shame
Didn’t wanna be the one that got away, yeah
Big mistake, you broke the sweetest promise
That you never should have made
I’m here on the kitchen floor

You call, but I won’t hear it
You said, ”No one else”
How could you do this, babe? (What about your promises, promises?)
You really blew this, babe

We ain’t getting through this one, babe
This is the last time I’ll ever call you, babe (This is the last time, this is the last time)
This is the last time I’ll ever call you, babe
(What about your promises, promises, promises?)
What a waste
Takin’ down the pictures and the plans we made, yeah
And it’s strange how your face doesn’t look so innocent
Your secret has its consequence and that’s on you, babe
I break down every time you call

We’re a wreck, you’re the wrecking ball
We said, ”No one else”
How could you do this, babe? (What about your promises, promises?)

This is the last time I’ll ever call you
Since you admitted it, I keep picturing

Her lips on your neck, I can’t unsee it
I hate that because of you, I can’t love you, babe
What a shame didn’t want to be the one that got away
How could you do this, babe?

I’m here on the kitchen floor, you call but I won’t hear it
I break down every time you call
We’re a wreck, you’re the wrecking ball
What about your promises, promises?
111
Message In A Bottle (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
I know that you like me
And it’s kinda frightening
Standing here waiting, waiting
And I became hypnotized by freckles and bright eyes
Tongue tied
But, now, you’re so far away and I’m down
Feeling like a face in the crowd
I’m reaching for you, terrified
’Cause you could be the one that I love

I could be the one that you dream of
A message in a bottle is all I can do
Standing here hoping it gets to you
You could be the one that I keep
And I could be the reason you can’t sleep at night
These days I’m restless

Workdays are endless
Look how you made me, made me
But time moves faster
Replaying your laughter
Disaster
’Cause, now, you’re so far away and I’m down

Feeling like a face in the crowd
I’m reaching for you, terrified

And I could be the one that you dream of
How is it in London? (London)

Where were you while I’m wondering (Wondering)
If I’ll ever see you again?
You could be the one that I love

And, now, I’m standing here hoping it gets to you

I could be the one that you dream of

My love
And, now, I’m standing here hoping this gets to you
112
I Bet You Think About Me (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Chris
Stapleton)
3 AM and I’m still awake, I’ll bet you’re just fine
Fast asleep in your city that’s better than mine
And the girl in your bed has a fine pedigree
And I’ll bet your friends tell you she’s better than me, huh
Well, I tried to fit in with your upper-crust circles

Yeah, they let me sit in back when we were in love
Oh, they sit around talkin’ about the meaning of life
And the book that just saved ’em that I hadn’t heard of
But now that we’re done and it’s over

I bet you couldn’t believe
When you realized I’m harder to forget than I was to leave
And I bet you think about me
You grew up in a silver-spoon gated community

Glamorous, shiny, bright Beverly Hills
I was raised on a farm, no, it wasn’t a mansion
Just livin’ room dancin’ and kitchen table bills
But you know what they say, you can’t help who you fall for
And you and I fell like an early spring snow
But reality crept in, you said we’re too different
You laughed at my dreams, rolled your eyes at my jokes
Mr. Superior Thinkin’

Do you have all the space that you need?
I don’t have to be your shrink to know that you’ll never be happy
And I bet you think about me
I bet you think about me, yes

I bet you think about me
Oh, block it all out

The voices so loud, sayin’
”Why did you let her go?”
Does it make you feel sad
That the love that you’re lookin’ for
Is the love that you had?
Now you’re out in the world, searchin’ for your soul

Scared not to be hip, scared to get old
Chasing make-believe status, last time you felt free
Was when none of that shit mattered ’cause you were with me
But now that we’re done and it’s over

I bet it’s hard to believe
That it turned out I’m harder to forget than I was to leave
And, yeah, I bet you think about me
I bet you think about me, yes

I bet you think about me when you’re out

At your cool indie music concerts every week
I bet you think about me in your house
With your organic shoes and your million-dollar couch
I bet you think about me when you say
”Oh my god, she’s insane, she wrote a song about me”
113
Forever Winter (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
He says he doesn’t believe anything much he hears these days
He says, ”Why fall in love, just so you can watch it go away?”
He spends most of his nights wishing it was how it used to be
He spends most of his flights getting pulled down by gravity
I call, just checking up on him
He’s up, 3 A.M., pacing
He says, ”It’s not just a phase I’m in”
My voice comes out begging
All this time I didn’t know

You were breaking down
I’d fall to pieces on the floor
If you weren’t around
Too young to know it gets better
I’ll be summer sun for you forever
Forever winter if you go
He seems fine most of the time

Forcing smiles and never minds
His laugh is a symphony
When the lights go out, it’s hard to breathe
I pull at every thread trying to solve the puzzles in his head
Live my life scared to death he’ll decide to leave instead
I call, just checking up on him
He’s up, 5 A.M., wasted
Long gone, not even listening
My voice comes out screaming

If I was standing there in your apartment

I’d take that bomb in your head and disarm it
I’d say I love you even at your darkest and
Please don’t go
I didn’t know
I’ll be your summer sun forever

At 3 A.M., pacing
At 5 A.M., wasted
I’d be in pieces on the floor
He says he doesn’t believe anything much he hears these days

I say, ”Believe in one thing, I won’t go away”
114
Run (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault) (feat. Ed Sheeran)
One, two, three, four
Give me the keys, I’ll bring the car back around

We shouldn’t be in this town
And my so-called friends, they don’t know
I’d drive away before I let you go
So give me a reason and don’t say no, no
There’s a chain ’round your throat, piece of paper where I wrote
”I’ll wait for you”
There’s a key on the chain, there’s a picture in a frame
Take it with you
And run, like you’d run from the law

Darling, let’s run
Run from it all
We can go where our eyes can take us
Go where no one else is, run
Ooh, we’ll run
Ooh, we’ll run
Ooh, we’ll run
So you laugh like a child

And I’ll sing like no one cares
No one to be, no one to tell
I could see this view a hundred times
Pale blue sky reflected in your eyes
So give me a reason and don’t say no, no
And the note from the locket, you keep it in your pocket
Since I gave it to you
There’s a heart on your sleeve
I’ll take it when I leave
And hold it for you
And run, like you’d run from the law

Darling, let’s run
Run from it all
We can go like they’re trying to chase us
Go where no one else is, run
Ooh, we’ll run
Ooh, we’ll run
Ooh, we’ll run
There’s been this hole in my heart

This thing was a shot in the dark
Say you’ll never let ’em tear us apart
And I’ll hold onto you while we run (And we run, and we run, and we run)
Like you’d run from the law (And we run, and we run, and we run)
Darling, let’s run (And we run, and we run, and we run)
Run from it all (And we run, and we run, and we run)
We can go where our eyes can take us (And we run, and we run, and we run)
Go where no one else is, run (And we run, and we run, and we run)
Ooh, we’ll run (And we run, and we run, and we run)
Ooh, and we’ll run
115
The Very First Night (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
I wish I could fly
I’d pick you up and we’d go back in time
I’d write this in the sky
I miss you like it was the very first night
And so it goes
Every weekend, this same party
I never go alone and I don’t seem brokenhearted
My friends all say they know everything I’m going through
I drive down different roads
But they all lead back to you
’Cause they don’t know about the night in the hotel
They weren’t riding in the car when we both fell
Didn’t read the note on the Polaroid picture
They don’t know how much I miss you
I wish I could fly

And so it was
We never saw it coming
Not trying to fall in love
But we did like children running
Back then we didn’t know we were built to fall apart
We broke the status quo, then we broke each other’s hearts
But don’t forget about the night out in LA
Danced in the kitchen, chased me down through the hallway
No one knows about the words that we whispered
No one knows how much I miss you
I wish I could fly

Take me away, take me away

Take me away to you, to you
I remember the night at the hotel

I was riding in the car when we both fell
I’m the one on the phone as you whisper
”Do you know how much I miss you?”
I wish that we could go back in time
And I’d say to you
”I miss you like it was the very first night”
I wish I could fly

116
1989
Welcome To New York
Walking through a crowd
The village is aglow
Kaleidoscope of loud
Heartbeats under coats
Everybody here
Wanted something more
Searching for a sound we hadn’t
Heard before
And it said
Welcome to New York

It’s been waiting for you
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
It’s a new soundtrack

I could dance to this beat, beat
Forevermore
The lights are so bright
But they never blind me, me
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
When we first dropped our bags on

Apartment floors
Took our broken hearts
Put them in a drawer
Everybody here was someone else
Before
And you can want who you want
Boys and boys and
Girls and girls
Welcome to New York

Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York

I could dance to this beat, beat
Forevermore
But they never blind me, me
Welcome to New York (New York)
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Like any great love it keeps you
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Guessing
Like any real love
It’s ever-changing
Like any true love
It drives you crazy

But you know you wouldn’t
Change anything anything
Anything
Welcome to New York

Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York

I could dance to this beat
But they never blind me
Welcome to New York
New soundtrack
Welcome to New York
But they never blind me
Welcome to New York
So bright
They never blind me
Welcome to New York
Welcome to New York
118
Blank Space
Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
Saw you there, and I thought
”Oh my God, look at that face
You look like my next mistake
Love’s a game, wanna play?”
Ayy
New money, suit and tie

I can read you like a magazine
Ain’t it funny? Rumors fly
And I know you heard about me
So hey, let’s be friends
I’m dying to see how this one ends
Grab your passport and my hand
I can make the bad guys good for a weekend
So it’s gonna be forever

Or it’s gonna go down in flames
You can tell me when it’s over, mm
If the high was worth the pain
Got a long list of ex-lovers
They’ll tell you I’m insane
’Cause you know I love the players
And you love the game
’Cause we’re young and we’re reckless

We’ll take this way too far
It’ll leave you breathless, hmm
Or with a nasty scar
But I’ve got a blank space, baby
And I’ll write your name
Cherry lips, crystal skies

I could show you incredible things
Stolen kisses, pretty lies
You’re the King, baby, I’m your Queen
Find out what you want
Be that girl for a month
Wait, the worst is yet to come, oh no
Screaming, crying, perfect storms

I can make all the tables turn
Rose garden filled with thorns
Keep you second guessing like
”Oh my God, who is she?”
I get drunk on jealousy
But you’ll come back each time you leave
’Cause, darling, I’m a nightmare dressed like a daydream

119
Boys only want love if it’s torture

Don’t say I didn’t, say I didn’t warn ya
Boys only want love if it’s torture
Don’t say I didn’t say, I didn’t warn ya


120
Style
Midnight
You come and pick me up, no headlights
Long drive
Could end in burning flames or paradise
Fade into view, oh, it’s been a while since I have even heard from you (heard from you)
I should just tell you to leave ’cause I

Know exactly where it leads but I
Watch us go ’round and ’round each time
You got that James Dean daydream look in your eye

And I got that red lip classic thing that you like
And when we go crashing down, we come back every time
’Cause we never go out of style
We never go out of style
You got that long hair, slicked back, white t-shirt

And I got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt
So it goes
He can’t keep his wild eyes on the road
Takes me home
Lights are off, he’s taking off his coat, hmm, yeah
I say, ”I heard, oh, that you’ve been out and about with some other girl, some other girl.”
He says, ”What you’ve heard is true but I

Can’t stop thinking about you,” and I
I said, ”I’ve been there, too, a few times.”
’Cause you got that James Dean daydream look in your eye
You got that long hair, slicked back, white t-shirt

And I got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt (tight little skirt)
’Cause we never go out of style (We never go, we never go)
Take me home
Just take me home, yeah
Just take me home
(Out of style)
You got that James Dean daydream look in your eye

And when we go crashing down (when we go)
We come back every time
121
Out Of The Woods
Looking at it now
It all seems so simple
We were lying on your couch
I remember
You took a Polaroid of us
Then discovered (then discovered)
The rest of the world was black and white
But we were in screaming color
And I remember thinking
Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?
Are we in the clear yet?
In the clear yet? Good
Looking at it now
Last December (last December)
We were built to fall apart
Then fall back together (back together)
Ooh, your necklace hanging from my neck
The night we couldn’t quite forget
When we decided (we decided)
To move the furniture so we could dance
Baby, like we stood a chance
Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying
And I remember thinkin’

Oh
Remember when you hit the brakes too soon?
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Twenty stitches in a hospital room
When you started cryin’, baby, I did, too
But when the sun came up, I was lookin’ at you
Remember when we couldn’t take the heat
I walked out and said, ”I’m settin’ you free,”
But the monsters turned out to be just trees
When the sun came up, you were lookin’ at me
You were lookin’ at me

You were lookin’ at me

I remember
Oh, I remember

(Yeah)
Are we?


(Yeah)
(Yeah)


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All You Had To Do Was Stay
(Hey, hey, hey)
(Hey, hey, hey)
(Hey, hey, hey)
(Hey, hey, hey)
People like you always want back the love they gave away
And people like me wanna believe you when you say you’ve changed
The more I think about it now the less I know
All I know is that you drove us off the road
Stay
Hey, all you had to do was stay
Had me in the palm of your hand
Then why’d you have to go and lock me out when I let you in?
Stay
Hey, now you say you want it back
Now that it’s just too late
Well, could’ve been easy
All you had to do was stay

Here you are now, calling me up, but I don’t know what to say
I’ve been picking up the pieces of the mess you made
People like you always want back the love they pushed aside
But people like me are gone forever when you say goodbye
Stay
Stay

All you had to do was stay, stay, stay, stay, stay
Let me remind you

This was what you wanted
You ended it
You were all I wanted
But not like this
Not like this
Not like this
Oh, all you had to do was... Stay

Stay
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Stay
(All you had to do was stay)

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Shake It Off
I stay out too late
Got nothing in my brain
That’s what people say, mmm-mmm
I go on too many dates

But I can’t make them stay
At least that’s what people say, mmm-mmm
But I keep cruising

Can’t stop, won’t stop moving
It’s like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, ”It’s gonna be alright.”
’Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play

And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
I never miss a beat

I’m lightning on my feet
And that’s what they don’t see, mmm-mmm
That’s what they don’t see, mmm-mmm
I’m dancing on my own (dancing on my own)

I make the moves up as I go (moves up as I go)
And that’s what they don’t know, mmm-mmm
That’s what they don’t know, mmm-mmm
But I keep cruising

Can’t stop, won’t stop grooving
It’s like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, ”It’s gonna be alright.”

And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Shake it off, I shake it off,

I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off
Hey, hey, hey

Just think while you’ve been getting down and out about the liars and the dirty, dirty cheats of the world,
You could’ve been getting down to this sick beat.
My ex-man brought his new girlfriend

She’s like ”Oh, my God!” but I’m just gonna shake.
And to the fella over there with the hella good hair
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Won’t you come on over, baby? We can shake, shake, shake
Yeah ohhh

And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate (haters gonna hate)
I’m just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break (mmmm)
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake (and fake, and fake, and fake)



I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off (you’ve got to),
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I Wish You Would
It’s 2 AM in your car
Windows down, you pass my street, the memories start
You say it’s in the past, you drive straight ahead
You’re thinking that I hate you now
’Cause you still don’t know what I never said
I wish you would come back

Wish I never hung up the phone like I did
I wish you knew that I’d never forget you as long as I live
And I wish you were right here, right now, it’s all good
I wish you would
It’s 2 AM in my room
Headlights pass the window pane, I think of you
We’re a crooked love in a straight line down
Makes you wanna run and hide
But it makes you turn right back around

I wish you would
I wish we could go back

And remember what we were fighting for
And I wish you knew that I miss you too much to be mad anymore
I wish you would
I, I, I, I, I, I wish, I wish
You always knew how to push my buttons

You give me everything and nothing
This mad mad love makes you come running
To stand back where you stood
I wish you would, I wish you would
(I wish you would, I wish you would)
(I wish I, wish I)
2 AM, here we are

See your face, hear my voice in the dark
We’re a crooked love in a straight line down
Makes you wanna run and hide
But it made us turn right back around

I wish you were right here, right now, it’s all good
I wish you would

I wish you would
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I wish we could go back
And remember what we were fighting for
I wish you knew that I miss you too much to be mad anymore
I wish you would
You always knew how to push my buttons

You give me everything and nothing
This mad mad love makes you come running
To stand back where you stood
I, I, I, I, I, I wish, I wish you would
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Bad Blood
’Cause, baby, now we got bad blood
You know it used to be mad love
So take a look what you’ve done
Hey
Now we got problems
And I don’t think we can solve them
You made a really deep cut
And, baby, now we got bad blood
Hey
Did you have to do this? I was thinking that you could be trusted
Did you have to ruin what was shiny? Now it’s all rusted
Did you have to hit me where I’m weak? Baby, I couldn’t breathe
And rub it in so deep, salt in the wound like you’re laughing right at me
Oh, it’s so sad to think about the good times, you and I

Hey
Now we got problems
Hey
Did you think we’d be fine? Still got scars on my back from your knife
So don’t think it’s in the past, these kinda wounds they last and they last
Now did you think it all through? All these things will catch up to you
And time can heal but this won’t, so if you’re coming my way, just don’t
Oh, it’s so sad to think about the good times, you and I

Hey
Now we got problems
Hey
Band-aids don’t fix bullet holes

You say sorry just for show
If you live like that, you live with ghosts (ghosts)
Band-aids don’t fix bullet holes (hey)
You say sorry just for show (hey)
If you live like that, you live with ghosts (hey)
Mhmmm
If you love like that blood runs cold

You know it used to be mad love (mad love)
Hey
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Now we got problems
And I don’t think we can solve them (think we can solve them)
(Hey)

So take a look what you’ve done (look what you’ve done)
Hey
Now we got problems
Hey
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Wildest Dreams
He said, ”Let’s get out of this town
Drive out of this city, away from the crowds”
I thought, ”Heaven can’t help me now”
Nothing lasts forever
But this is gonna take me down
He’s so tall and handsome as hell

He’s so bad, but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins
My one condition is
Say you’ll remember me

Standin’ in a nice dress
Starin’ at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you’ll see me again
Even if it’s just in your
Wildest dreams, ah, ha
I said, ”No one has to know what we do”

His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound
Nothin’ lasts forever
But this is gettin’ good now
He’s so tall and handsome as hell

He’s so bad, but he does it so well
And when we’ve had our very last kiss
My last request is

Wildest dreams, ah, ha (Ha, ha)
You’ll see me in hindsight

Tangled up with you all night
Burnin’ it down
Someday, when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
You’ll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin’ (Burnin’) it (It) down (Down)
Someday, when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow (Follow) you (You) around
(Follow you around)

Standing in a nice dress
Even if it’s just pretend
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Even if it’s just in your (Just pretend, just pretend)
Wildest dreams, ah, ha (Ah)
In your wildest dreams, ah, ha
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How You Get The Girl
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh-oh, oh-oh
Stand there like a ghost

Shaking from the rain, rain
She’ll open up the door and say, ”Are you insane?”
Say it’s been a long six months
And you were too afraid to tell her what you want, want
And that’s how it works

That’s how you get the girl
And then, you say
I want you for worse or for better

I would wait forever and ever
Broke your heart, I’ll put it back together
That’s how you get the girl, girl (Oh-oh, oh)
That’s how you get the girl, girl
Remind her how it used to be, be, yeah-yeah

With pictures in frames of kisses on cheeks, cheeks
Tell her how you must have lost your mind, ooh-ooh
When you left her all alone
And never told her why, why

That’s how you lost the girl
And now, you say
I want you for worse or for better

I would wait forever and ever (Ever and ever)
That’s how you get the girl, girl (Oh-oh, oh-oh)
Yeah, yeah
And you know

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
That I don’t want you to go, oh, oh
Remind me how it used to be

Pictures in frames of kisses on cheeks
And say you want me, yeah-yeah
And then you say
’Cause I want you for worse or for better (Worse or for better)
I would wait forever and ever (Ever and ever)
I would wait forever and ever (I want you forever and ever)
That’s how you get the girl, girl (This is how it works)
That’s how you get the girl, girl (Get the girl)
(That’s how it works)
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(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh)
That’s how it works

That’s how you got the girl
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This Love
Clear blue water
High tide came and brought you in
And I could go on and on, on and on and I will
Skies grew darker
Currents swept you out again
And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone
In silent screams and wildest dreams

I never dreamed of this
This love is good, this love is bad

This love is alive back from the dead, oh-oh, oh
These hands had to let it go free, and
This love came back to me, oh-oh, oh
Oh-oh, oh, oh-oh, oh
Tossing, turning
Struggled through the night with someone new
And I could go on and on, on and on
Lantern, burning
Flickered in my mind, only you
But you were still gone, gone, gone
Been losing grip, on sinking ships

You showed up just in time

This love left a permanent mark
This love is glowing in the dark, oh-oh, oh
(This love, this love, this love, this love, oh)

Your kiss, my cheek

I watched you leave
Your smile, my ghost
I fell to my knees
When you’re young, you just run
But you come back to what you need

(This love) This love left a permanent mark
(This love) This love is glowing in the dark, oh-oh, oh
(This love) These hands had to let it go free, and
(This love) This love came back to me, oh-oh, oh

(This love, this love, this love, this love)
This love, this love came back to me, oh-oh, oh
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I Know Places
(I, I, I, I I, I, I, I I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I)
You stand with your hand on my waistline

It’s a scene and we’re out here in plain sight
I can hear them whisper as we pass by
It’s a bad sign, bad sign
Something happens when everybody finds out
See the vultures circling dark clouds
Love’s a fragile little flame, it could burn out
It could burn out
’Cause they got the cages, they got the boxes

And guns
They are the hunters, we are the foxes
And we run
Baby, I know places we won’t be found

And they’ll be chasing their tails tryin’ to track us down
’Cause I, I know places we can hide
I know places, I know places
Lights flash and we’ll run for the fences

Let them say what they want, we won’t hear it
Loose lips sink ships all the damn time
Not this time
Just grab my hand and don’t ever drop it

My love
And we run

I know places

And we run
Just grab my hand and don’t ever drop it
My love

I know places
They take their shots, but we’re bulletproof

I know places
And you know for me, it’s always you
I know places
In the dead of night, your eyes so green
I know places
And I know for you, it’s always me
I know places
(I, I, I, I I, I, I, I I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I)
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Clean
The drought was the very worst (Oh-oh, oh-oh)
When the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst
It was months and months of back and forth (Oh-oh, oh-oh)
You’re still all over me
Like a wine-stained dress I can’t wear anymore
Hung my head as I lost the war

And the sky turned black like a perfect storm
Rain came pouring down

When I was drowning, that’s when I could finally breathe
And by morning
Gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
There was nothing left to do (Oh-oh, oh-oh)

When the butterflies turned to
Dust that covered my whole room
So I punched a hole in the roof (Oh-oh, oh-oh)
Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you
The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud

But no one heard a thing

And by morning
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
I think I am finally clean
(Oh, oh)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh-oh
Said, I think I am finally clean
(Oh, oh)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh-oh
Ten months sober, I must admit

Just because you’re clean, don’t mean you don’t miss it
Ten months older, I won’t give in
Now that I’m clean, I’m never gonna risk it
The drought was the very worst (Oh-oh, oh-oh)

When the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst
(Oh)
The rain came pouring down

And by morning
And by morning
(Oh, oh)
Finally clean
Think I’m finally clean
(Oh, oh)
Oh-oh, oh-oh
(Oh, oh, oh)
Think I’m finally clean
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Wonderland
Flashing lights and we
Took a wrong turn and we
Fell down a rabbit hole
You held on tight to me

’Cause nothing’s as it seems
And spinning out of control
Didn’t they tell us don’t rush into things?

Didn’t you flash your green eyes at me?
Haven’t you heard what becomes of curious minds?
Oh
Didn’t it all seem new and exciting?

I felt your arms twisting around me
I should have slept with one eye open at night
We found wonderland
You and I got lost in it
And we pretended it could last forever
Eh
We found wonderland
And life was never worse but never better
Eh eh
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
So we went on our way

Too in love to think straight
All alone or so it seemed
But there were strangers watching

And whispers turned to talking
And talking turned to screams
Oh
Didn’t they tell us don’t rush into things?

Didn’t you flash your green eyes at me?
Didn’t you calm my fears with a Cheshire cat smile?
Oh
Didn’t it all seem new and exciting?

I felt your arms twisting around me
It’s all fun and games ’til somebody loses their mind
But darling, we found wonderland

And we pretended it could last forever
Eh
We found wonderland
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Eh eh
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
Eh eh eh eh eh
In wonderland
I reached for you but you were gone

I knew I had to go back home
You searched the world for something else to make you feel like what we had
And in the end in wonderland we both went mad
Oh
We found wonderland
And we pretended it could last forever (last forever)
Eh eh
We found wonderland
You and I got lost in it (got lost in it)
And life was never worse but never better (never better)
Eh eh
We found wonderland
You and I got lost in it (wonderland)
And we pretended it could last forever (in wonderland)
We found wonderland
You and I got lost in it (wonderland)
In wonderland
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You Are In Love
One look, dark room meant just for you
Time moved too fast, you played it back
Buttons on a coat, light-hearted joke
No proof, not much, but you saw enough
Small talk, he drives, coffee at midnight

The light reflects the chain on your neck
He says, ”Look up,” and your shoulders brush
No proof, one touch, but you felt enough
You can hear it in the silence, silence

You, you can feel it on the way home, way home
You, you can see it with the lights out, lights out
You are in love, true love
You are in love
Morning, his place, burnt toast, Sunday

You keep his shirt, he keeps his word
And for once, you let go
Of your fears and your ghosts
One step, not much, but it said enough
You kiss on sidewalks, you fight then you talk

One night, he wakes, strange look on his face
Pauses, then says, ”You’re my best friend”
And you knew what it was, he is in love

You are in love

And so it goes
You two are dancing in a snow globe, ’round and ’round
And he keeps a picture of you in his office downtown
And you understand now why
They lost their minds and fought the wars
And why I’ve spent my whole life trying to put it into words
’Cause you can hear it in the silence

You can feel it on the way home
You can see it with the lights out
You are in love

You are in love

You are in love
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New Romantics
We’re all bored, we’re all so tired of everything
We wait for trains that just aren’t coming
We show off our different scarlet letters
Trust me, mine is better
We’re so young but we’re on the road to ruin

We play dumb but we know exactly what we’re doing
We cry tears of mascara in the bathroom
Honey, life is just a classroom
’Cause baby, I could build a castle

Out of all the bricks they threw at me
And every day is like a battle
But every night with us is like a dream
Baby, we’re the new romantics

Come on, come along with me
Heartbreak is the national anthem
We sing it proudly
We are too busy dancing
To get knocked off our feet
The best people in life are free
We’re all here, the lights and noise are blinding

We hang back, it’s all in the timing
It’s poker, he can’t see it in my face
But I’m about to play my Ace
We need love, but all we want is danger

We team up then switch sides like a record changer
The rumors are terrible and cruel
But, honey, most of them are true
’Cause baby, I could build a castle


We sing it proudly
So come on, come along with me

Please take my hand and

Please take me dancing and
Please leave me stranded
It’s so romantic (it’s so romantic)
(Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)
Oh, ’cause baby, I could build a castle

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’Cause baby, I could build a castle (castle)

We sing it proudly
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”Slut!” (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
Flamingo pink, Sunrise Boulevard
Clink, clink, being this young is art
Aquamarine, moonlit swimmin’ pool
What if all I need is you?
Got love-struck, went straight to my head

Got lovesick all over my bed
Love to think you’ll never forget
Handprints in wet cement
Adorned with smoke on my clothes
Lovelorn and nobody knows
Love thorns all over this rose
I’ll pay the price, you won’t
But if I’m all dressed up

They might as well be lookin’ at us
And if they call me a slut
You know it might be worth it for once
And if I’m gonna be drunk
I might as well be drunk in love
Send the code, he’s waitin’ there

The sticks and stones they throw froze mid-air
Everyone wants him, that was my crime
The wrong place at the right time
And I break down, then he’s pullin’ me in
In a world of boys, he’s a gentleman
Got love-struck, went straight to my head (Straight to my head)

Got lovesick all over my bed (Over my bed)
Love to think you’ll never forget
We’ll pay the price, I guess
But if I’m all dressed up (If I’m all dressed up)

They might as well be lookin’ at us (Lookin’ at us)
And if they call me a slut (If they call me a slut)
You know it might be worth it for once (Worth it for once)
And if I’m gonna be drunk
Half asleep, takin’ your time

In the tangerine, neon light, this is luxury
You’re not sayin’ you’re in love with me
But you’re going to
Half awake, takin’ your chances
It’s a big mistake, I said, ”It might blow up in your pretty face”
I’m not saying, ”Do it anyway” (Do it anyway)
But you’re going to
(Up)
And if they call me a (Slut)
You know it might be worth it for once
And if I’m gonna be (Drunk)
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Say Don’t Go (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
I’ve known it from the very start
We’re a shot in the darkest dark
Oh no, oh no
I’m unarmed
The waiting is a sadness
Fading into madness
Oh no, oh no
It won’t stop
I’m standing on a tightrope, alone

I hold my breath a little bit longer
Halfway out the door, but it won’t close
I’m holding out hope for you to say, ”Don’t go”
I would stay forever if you say, ”Don’t go”
Why’d you have to lead me on?

Why’d you have to twist the knife?
Walk away and leave me bleeding, bleeding
Why’d you whisper in the dark
Just to leave me in the night?
Now your silence has me screaming, screaming
Say, ”Don’t go” (Say, ”Don’t go”)
I would stay forever if you say, ”Don’t go” (Say, ”Don’t go”)
Say, say, say, say
Now I’m pacing on shaky ground

Strike a match, then you blow it out
Oh no, oh no
It’s not fair
’Cause you kiss me and it stops time
And I’m yours, but you’re not mine
Oh no, oh no
You’re not there
I’m standing on the sidewalk, alone

I wait for you to drive by
I was trying to see the cards that you won’t show
I’m about to fold unless you say, ”Don’t go” (Say, ”Don’t go”)
Oh-ah

Say, say, say, say
Why’d you have to make me want you? (Why’d you have to make me want you?)
Why’d you have to give me nothing back? (Why’d you have to)
Why’d you have to make me love you? (Why’d you have to make me love you?)
I said, ”I love you,” you say nothing back (I said, ”I love you”)

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Say, say, say, say
But you won’t

But you won’t
But you won’t
I would stay forever if you say, ”Don’t go”
But you won’t
But you won’t
But you won’t
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Now That We Don’t Talk (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
You went to a party, I heard from everybody
You part the crowd like the Red Sea, don’t even get me started
Did you get anxious though, on the way home?
I guess I’ll never, ever know
Now that we don’t talk
You grew your hair long, you got new icons

And from the outside, it looks like you’re trying lives on
I miss the old ways, you didn’t have to change
But I guess I don’t have a say
I called my mom, she said that it was for the best

Remind myself the more I gave, you’d want me less
I cannot be your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost
And what it cost
What do you tell your friends we

Shared dinners, long weekends with?
Truth is, I can’t pretend it’s
Platonic, it’s just ended, so
I called my mom, she said to get it off my chest (Off my chest)

Remind myself the way you faded till I left (Till I left)
I cannot be your friend, so I pay the price of what I lost (What I lost)
And what it cost
I don’t have to pretend I like acid rock

Or that I’d like to be on a mega-yacht
With important men who think important thoughts
Guess maybe I am better off
And the only way back to my dignity

Was to turn into a shrouded mystery
Just like I had been when you were chasing me
Guess this is how it has to be
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Suburban Legends (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
You had people who called you on unmarked numbers
In my peripheral vision
I let it slide like a hose on a slippery plastic summer
All was quickly forgiven
You were so magnetic, it was almost obnoxious
Flush with the currency of cool
I was always turning out my empty pockets
And when it came to you
I didn’t come here to make friends

We were born to be suburban legends
When you hold me, it holds me together
And you kiss me in a way that’s gonna screw me up forever
I had the fantasy that maybe our mismatched star signs

Would surprise the whole school
When I ended up back at our class reunion
Walking in with you
You’d be more than a chapter in my old diaries
With the pages ripped out
I am standing in a 1950s gymnasium
And I can still see you now
I didn’t come here to make friends

We were born to be suburban legends
When you hold me, it holds me together
And you kiss me in a way that’s gonna screw me up forever
I know that you still remember

We were born to be national treasures
When you told me we’d get back together
And you kissed me in a way that’s gonna screw me up forever
Tick-tock on the clock, I pace down your block

I broke my own heart ’cause you were too polite to do it
Waves crash on the shore, I dash to the door
You don’t knock anymore, and my whole life’s ruined
Tick-tock on the clock, I pace down your block

I broke my own heart ’cause you were too polite to do it
Waves crash to the shore, I dash to the door
You don’t knock anymore, and I always knew it
And my life had been ruined
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Is It Over Now? (Taylor’s Version) (From The Vault)
Once the flight had flown
With the wilt of the rose
I slept all alone
You still wouldn’t go
Let’s fast forward to 300 takeout coffees later

I see your profile and your smile on unsuspecting waiters
You dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor
You search in every maiden’s bed for something greater
Baby, was it over when she laid down on your couch?

Was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse?
”Come here,” I whispered in your ear in your dream as you passed out
Baby, was it over then?
And is it over now?
When you lost control

Red blood, white snow
Blue dress on a boat
Your new girl is my clone
And did you think I didn’t see you? There were flashing lights
At least I had the decency to keep my nights out of sight
Only rumors ’bout my hips and thighs, and my whispered sighs
Oh Lord, I think about jumping
Off of very tall somethings
Just to see you come running
And say the one thing I’ve been wanting
But no!
Let’s fast forward to 300 awkward blind dates later

If she’s got blue eyes, I will surmise that you’ll probably date her
You dream of my mouth before it called you a lying traitor
You search in every model’s bed for something greater
Baby, was it over when she laid down on your couch?

Was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse?
”Come here,” I whispered in your ear in your dream as you passed out
Baby, was it over then?
And is it over now?
Think I didn’t see you? There were flashing lights

At least I had the decency to keep my nights out of sight
Only rumors ’bout my hips and thighs, and my whispered sighs
Oh Lord, I think about jumping
Off of very tall somethings
Just to see you come running (Running)
And say the one thing I’ve been wanting
But no!
(Flashing lights, oh Lord) Let’s fast forward to 300 takeout coffees later
(Flashing lights) I was hoping you’d be there
And say the one thing I’ve been wanting, but no (Oh Lord, oh Lord)
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Reputation
...Ready For It?
Knew he was a killer first time that I saw him
Wondered how many girls he had loved and left haunted
But if he’s a ghost, then I can be a phantom
Holdin’ him for ransom, some
Some boys are tryin’ too hard, he don’t try at all though
Younger than my exes, but he act like such a man, so
I see nothing better, I keep him forever
Like a vendetta-ta
I, I, I see how this is gon’ go

Touch me and you’ll never be alone
I-Island breeze and lights down low
No one has to know
In the middle of the night, in my dreams

You should see the things we do, baby
I know I’m gonna be with you, so I take my time
Are you ready for it?
Knew I was a robber first time that he saw me

Stealing hearts and running off and never sayin’ sorry
But if I’m a thief, then he can join the heist, and
We’ll move to an island, and
And he can be my jailer, Burton to this Taylor
Every love I’ve known in comparison is a failure
I forget their names now, I’m so very tame now
Never be the same now, now

No one has to know (No one has to know)

You should see the things we do, baby
In the middle of the night in my dreams
I know I’m gonna be with you, so I take my time
Oh, are you ready for it?
Baby, let the games begin

Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin

No one has to know
In the middle of the night (Night), in my dreams (My dreams)

You should see the things we do (We do), baby (Baby), hmm (Eh)
In the middle of the night, in my dreams (My dreams)
I know I’m gonna be with you (I know I’m gonna be with you)
So I take my time
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Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin
Let the games begin
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End Game (feat. Ed Sheeran and Future)
[Taylor Swift and Future:]
I wanna be your end game
I wanna be your first string
I wanna be your A-Team (Whoa, whoa, whoa)
I wanna be your end game, end game
Big reputation, big reputation

Ooh, you and me, we got big reputations, ah
And you heard about me, ooh
I got some big enemies (Yeah)
Ooh, you and me would be a big conversation, ah (Git, git)
And I heard about you, ooh (Yeah)
You like the bad ones, too
[Future:]
You so dope, don’t overdose, I’m so stoked, I need a toast
We do the most, I’m in the Ghost like I’m whippin’ a boat
I got a reputation, girl that don’t precede me (Yeah)
I’m one call away whenever you need me (Yeah)
I’m in a G5 (Yeah), come to the A-Side (Yeah)
I got a bad boy persona, that’s what they like (What they like)
You love it, I love it too ’cause you’re my type (You’re my type)
You hold me down and I protect you with my life

I don’t wanna touch you, I don’t wanna be
Just another ex-love you don’t wanna see
I don’t wanna miss you (I don’t wanna miss you)
Like the other girls do
I don’t wanna hurt you, I just wanna be
Drinking on a beach with you all over me
I know what they all say (I know what they all say)
But I ain’t tryna play
[Taylor Swift:]
I wanna be your end game (End game)
I wanna be your first string (First string)
I wanna be your A-Team (A-Team)
[Ed Sheeran:]
Knew her when I was young, reconnected when we were little bit older
Both sprung, I got issues and chips on both of my shoulders
Reputation precedes me, in rumors, I’m knee-deep
The truth is, it’s easier to ignore it, believe me
Even when we’d argue, we’d not do it for long
And you understand the good and bad end up in the song
For all your beautiful traits, and the way you do it with ease
For all my flaws, paranoia, and insecurities
I’ve made mistakes and made some choices, that’s hard to deny
After the storm, something was born on the 4th of July
I’ve passed days without fun, this end game is the one
With four words on the tip of my tongue, I’ll never say it
[Taylor Swift:]
I don’t wanna touch you, I don’t wanna be
Just another ex-love you don’t wanna see
I don’t wanna miss you (I don’t wanna miss you)
Like the other girls do
I don’t wanna hurt you, I just wanna be
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Drinking on a beach with you all over me
I know what they all say, yeah
But I ain’t tryna play

I wanna be your first string (Wanna be your first string)

Ooh, you and me, we got big reputations, ah
And you heard about me, ooh
I got some big enemies
Hey, big reputation, big reputation
Ooh, you and me would be a big conversation, ah
And I heard about you, ooh
You like the bad ones, too
[Taylor Swift:]
I hit you like bang, we tried to forget it, but we just couldn’t
And I bury hatchets, but I keep maps of where I put ’em
Reputation precedes me, they told you I’m crazy
I swear I don’t love the drama, it loves me
And I can’t let you go, your hand prints on my soul
It’s like your eyes are liquor, it’s like your body is gold
You’ve been calling my bluff on all my usual tricks
So here’s the truth from my red lips
[Swift, Future, and Ed Sheeran:]

I wanna be your first string (Me and you, first string)
I wanna be your A-Team (Be your A-Team now, A-Team)
I wanna be your end game (Oh, I do)
I wanna be your first string (First string)
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I Did Something Bad
I never trust a narcissist, but they love me
So I play ’em like a violin
And I make it look—oh—so easy
’Cause for every lie I tell them, they tell me three

This is how the world works
Now all he thinks about is me
I can feel the flames on my skin

Crimson-red paint on my lips
If a man talks shit
Then I owe him nothing
I don’t regret it one bit
’Cause he had it coming
They say I did something bad

Then why’s it feel so good?
But why’s it feel so good?
Most fun I ever had
And I’d do it over and over and over again if I could
It just felt so good, good
I never trust a playboy, but they love me

So I fly ’em all around the world
And I let them think they saved me
They never see it comin’, what I do next

This is how the world works
You gotta leave before you get left
I can feel the flames on my skin

He says, ”Don’t throw away a good thing.”
But if he drops my name
Then I owe him nothin’
And if he spends my change
Then he had it comin’

Then why’s it feel so good?
Most fun I ever had
It just felt so good
They’re burning all the witches, even if you aren’t one

They got their pitchforks and proof, their receipts and reasons
They’re burning all the witches, even if you aren’t one

So light me up (light me up), light me up (light me up)
Light me up, go ahead and light me up (light me up)
Light me up (light me up), light me up (light me up)

Light me up (light me up), light me up
They say I did something bad (oh)

Then why’s it feel so good? (so good)
Most fun I ever had (most fun I ever had)
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It just felt so good (good), good
Oh, you say I did something bad

(You say I did something bad?)
Why’s it feel so good, good?
So bad, why’s it feel so good?
Why’s it feel, why’s it feel so good? (bad)
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Don’t Blame Me
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
If it doesn’t, you ain’t doing it right
Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
I’ll be using for the rest of my life
I’ve been breaking hearts a long time

And toying with them older guys
Just playthings for me to use
Something happened for the first time
In the darkest little paradise
Shaking, pacing, I just need you
For you
I would cross the line
I would waste my time
I would lose my mind
They say, ”She’s gone too far this time.”
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
Oh, Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
My name is whatever you decide

And I’m just gonna call you mine
I’m insane, but I’m your baby (your baby)
Echoes (echoes) of your name inside my mind
Halo, hiding my obsession
I once was poison ivy, but now I’m your daisy
And, baby, for you

I would fall from grace
Just to touch your face
If you walk away
I’d beg you on my knees to stay
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
Oh, Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
I get so high, oh
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Every time you’re—every time you’re loving me
You’re loving me
Trip of my life, oh
Every time you’re—every time you’re touching me
You’re touching me
Oh, Lord, save me

My drug is my baby
(Using for the rest of my life. Oh!)
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
If it doesn’t, you ain’t doing it right (doing it right, no)
Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
Don’t blame me
Love made me crazy
If it doesn’t, you ain’t doing it right (you ain’t doing it...)
Oh, Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
I’ll be using for the rest of my life (I’ll be using, I’ll be using)
I get so high, oh
You’re loving me
Oh, Lord, save me
My drug is my baby
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Delicate
This ain’t for the best
My reputation’s never been worse, so
You must like me for me
We can’t make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink
Dive bar on the East Side, where you at?

Phone lights up my nightstand in the black
Come here, you can meet me in the back
Dark jeans and your Nikes, look at you
Oh damn, never seen that color blue
Just think of the fun things we could do
’Cause I like you

Yeah, I want you
We can’t make
Is it cool that I said all that?

Is it chill that you’re in my head?
’Cause I know that it’s delicate (delicate)
Is it too soon to do this yet?
’Cause I know that it’s delicate
Isn’t it? Isn’t it? Isn’t it?
Isn’t it?
Isn’t it?
Delicate
Third floor on the West Side, me and you

Handsome, you’re a mansion with a view
Do the girls back home touch you like I do?
Long night, with your hands up in my hair
Echoes of your footsteps on the stairs
Stay here, honey, I don’t wanna share
’Cause I like you

Yeah, I want you
We can’t make

Isn’t it?
Isn’t it?
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Delicate
Sometimes I wonder when you sleep

Are you ever dreaming of me?
Sometimes when I look into your eyes
I pretend you’re mine, all the damn time
’Cause I like you

Yeah, I want you
’Cause I like you
Isn’t it? Isn’t it? Isn’t it? Isn’t it?
(Yeah, I want you)
(Isn’t it?)
Delicate
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Look What You Made Me Do
I don’t like your little games
Don’t like your tilted stage
The role you made me play
Of the fool, no, I don’t like you
I don’t like your perfect crime
How you laugh when you lie
You said the gun was mine
Isn’t cool, no, I don’t like you (Oh!)
But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time

Honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time
I’ve got a list of names and yours is in red, underlined
I check it once, then I check it twice, oh!
Ooh, look what you made me do

Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me
I don’t like your kingdom keys

They once belonged to me
You asked me for a place to sleep
Locked me out and threw a feast (What?)
The world moves on, another day, another drama, drama
But not for me, not for me, all I think about is karma
And then the world moves on, but one thing’s for sure
Maybe I got mine, but you’ll all get yours
But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time

Honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time
I’ve got a list of names and yours is in red, underlined
I check it once, then I check it twice, oh!

I don’t trust nobody and nobody trusts me

I’ll be the actress starring in your bad dreams
(Ooh, look what you made me do)

(Look what you made me do)
(Look what you just made me do)
”I’m sorry, the old Taylor can’t come to the phone right now.”
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”Why?”
”Oh, ’cause she’s dead!” (Oh!)


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So It Goes...
See you in the dark
All eyes on you, my magician
All eyes on us
You make everyone disappear, and
Cut me into pieces
Gold cage, hostage to my feelings
Back against the wall
Trippin’, trip, trippin’ when you’re gone
’Cause we break down a little

But when you get me alone, it’s so simple
’Cause baby, I know what you know
We can feel it
And all the pieces fall

Right into place
Getting caught up in a moment
Lipstick on your face
So it goes
I’m yours to keep
And I’m yours to lose
You know I’m not a bad girl, but I
Do bad things with you
So it goes
Met you in a bar

All eyes on me, your illusionist
All eyes on us
I make all your grey days clear and
Wear you like a necklace
I’m so chill, but you make me jealous
But I got your heart
Skippin’, skip, skippin’ when I’m gone
’Cause we break down a little

But when I get you alone, it’s so simple
’Cause baby, I know what you know
We can feel it
And all the pieces fall

Right into place
Getting caught up in a moment
So it goes
I’m yours to keep
And I’m yours to lose
So it goes
Come here, dressed in black now

So, so, so it goes
Scratches down your back now
So, so, so it goes
You did a number on me

But, honestly, baby, who’s counting?
I did a number on you
You did a number on me
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Who’s counting?
1, 2, 3
And all the pieces fall (pieces fall)

Right into place
Getting caught up in a moment (caught up, caught up)
So it goes
I’m yours to keep (oh)
And I’m yours to lose (baby)
So it goes

So, so, so it goes
So, so, so it goes
So, so, so it goes
So, so, so it goes
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Gorgeous
Gorgeous
You should take it as a compliment

That I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk
You should think about the consequence
Of your magnetic field being a little too strong
And I got a boyfriend, he’s older than us
He’s in the club doing, I don’t know what
You’re so cool, it makes me hate you so much (I hate you so much)
Whisky on ice, Sunset and Vine

You’ve ruined my life by not being mine
You’re so gorgeous
I can’t say anything to your face
’Cause look at your face (Gorgeous)
And I’m so furious
At you for making me feel this way
But what can I say?
You’re gorgeous
You should take it as a compliment

That I’m talking to everyone here but you (but you, but you)
And you should think about the consequence
Of you touching my hand in a darkened room (dark room, dark room)
If you got a girlfriend, I’m jealous of her
But if you’re single that’s honestly worse
’Cause you’re so gorgeous it actually hurts
(Honey, it hurts)
Ocean blue eyes looking in mine

I feel like I might sink and drown and die
I can’t say anything to your face (To your face)
’Cause look at your face (Look at your face, gorgeous)
And I’m so furious
At you for making me feel this way (Feel this way)
But what can I say?
You’re gorgeous
You make me so happy it turns back to sad

There’s nothing I hate more than what I can’t have
And you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad (Mmh)
You make me so happy it turns back to sad (Yeah)
There’s nothing I hate more than what I can’t have and
Guess I’ll just stumble on home to my cats (Yeugh), alone
Unless, you wanna come along? (Oh)
I can’t say anything to your face (To your face)
’Cause look at your face (Look at your face, gorgeous)
And I’m so furious (I’m so furious)
At you for making me feel this way (Feel this way)
But what can I say? (I say)
You’re gorgeous
You make me so happy it turns back to sad (Yeah)

There’s nothing I hate more than what I can’t have
And you are so gorgeous it makes me so mad (Mmh)
You’re gorgeous
You make me so happy it turns back to sad (It turns back to sad)
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There’s nothing I hate more than what I can’t have (What I can have)
You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad (Mmh)
You’re gorgeous
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Getaway Car
No, nothing good starts in a getaway car
It was the best of times, the worst of crimes

I struck a match and blew your mind
But I didn’t mean it
And you didn’t see it
The ties were black, the lies were white
In shades of gray in candlelight
I wanted to leave him
I needed a reason
”X” marks the spot, where we fell apart

He poisoned the well, I was lying to myself
I knew it from the first Old Fashioned, we were cursed
We never had a shotgun shot in the dark
You were driving the getaway car

We were flying, but we’d never get far
Don’t pretend it’s such a mystery
Think about the place where you first met me
We’re riding in a getaway car
There were sirens in the beat of your heart
Should’ve known I’d be the first to leave
In a getaway car
No, they never get far
It was the great escape, the prison break

The light of freedom on my face
But you weren’t thinking
And I was just drinking
Well he was running after us, I was screaming, ’Go, go, go!’
But with three of us, honey, it’s a sideshow
And a circus ain’t a love story
And now we’re both sorry (we’re both sorry)
”X” marks the spot, where we fell apart

He poisoned the well, every man for himself
I knew it from the first Old Fashioned, we were cursed
It hit you like a shotgun shot to the heart
You were driving the getaway car

We were flying, but we’d never get far
There were sirens in the beat of your heart
In a getaway car
We were jet-set Bonnie and Clyde

Until I switched to the other side
To the other side
It’s no surprise, I turned you in
’Cause us traitors never win
I’m in a getaway car
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I left you in a motel bar
Put the money in a bag and I stole the keys
That was the last time you ever saw me
Driving the getaway car

We were flying, but we’d never get far (Don’t pretend)
There were sirens in the beat of your heart (Should’ve known)
In a getaway car
I was riding in a getaway car

I was crying in a getaway car
I was dying in a getaway car
Said ’goodbye’ in a getaway car
I was riding in a getaway car

I was crying in a getaway car
I was dying in a getaway car
Said ’goodbye’ in a getaway car
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King Of My Heart
I’m perfectly fine, I live on my own
I made up my mind, I’m better off being alone
We met a few weeks ago
Now you try on callin’ me ”baby” like tryin’ on clothes
Salute to me I’m your American Queen

And you move to me like I’m a Motown beat
And we rule the kingdom inside my room
’Cause all the boys and their expensive cars
With their Range Rovers and their Jaguars
Never took me quite where you do
And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting for
King of my heart, body and soul, ooh whoa
And all at once, you are all I want, I’ll never let you go
And all at once, I’ve been waiting, waiting

Ooh whoa, ooh whoa
And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting, waiting
Body and soul, ooh whoa
And all at once
Late in the night, the city’s asleep

Your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep
Change my priorities
The taste of your lips is my idea of luxury
Salute to me I’m your American Queen

And you move to me like I’m a Motown beat
And we rule the kingdom inside my room
(Inside my room, oh)
’Cause all the boys and their expensive cars
With their Range Rovers and their Jaguars
Never took me quite where you do (Where you do)
King of my heart, body, and soul, ooh whoa
And all at once, you’re all I want, I’ll never let you go
King of my heart (My heart), body, and soul, ooh whoa
And all at once (Hey), I’ve been waiting, waiting (Waiting)

Ooh, whoa, ooh whoa
And all at once, you are the one
I have been waiting (Waiting), waiting (Waiting)
And all at once
Is this the end of all the endings?

My broken bones are mending
With all these nights we’re spending
Up on the roof with a school girl crush
Drinking beer out of plastic cups
Say you fancy me, not fancy stuff
Baby, all at once, this is enough
King of my heart, body, and soul, ooh whoa
And all at once, you’re all I want, I’ll never let you go
King of my heart (My heart), body, and soul (My soul), ooh whoa
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And all at once, I’ve been waiting, waiting
Ooh whoa, ooh whoa
And all at once
’Cause you’re the one I have been waiting, waiting
And all at once
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Dancing With Our Hands Tied
I, I loved you in secret
First sight, yeah, we love without reason
Oh, 25 years old
Oh, how were you to know and
My, my love had been frozen

Deep blue, but you painted me golden
Oh, and you held me close
Oh, how was I to know what
I could’ve spent forever with your hands in my pockets

Picture of your face in an invisible locket
You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it
I had a bad feeling
And darling, you had turned my bed into a sacred oasis
People started talking, putting us through our paces
I knew there was no one in the world who could take it
I had a bad feeling
But we were dancing

Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied
Yeah, we were dancing
Like it was the first time, first time
And I had a bad feeling
But we were dancing
I, I loved you in spite of

Deep fears that the world would divide us
So, baby, can we dance
Oh, through an avalanche?
And say, say that we got it
I’m a mess, but I’m the mess that you wanted
Oh, ’cause it’s gravity
Oh, keeping you with me
I could’ve spent forever with your hands in my pockets

Picture of your face in an invisible locket
You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it
I had a bad feeling
But we were dancing

Like it was the first time, first time
(Ooh, we had our hands tied)
And I had a bad feeling
But we were dancing
I’d kiss you as the lights went out

Swaying as the room burned down
I’d hold you as the water rushes in
If I could dance with you again
I’d kiss you as the lights went out
Swaying as the room burned down
I’d hold you as the water rushes in
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If I could dance with you again (Again)

Oh, yeah, we were dancing
Like it was the first time, first time (First time, first time)
Yeah, we were dancing (Oh)
(Dancing with our hands tied)
Yeah, we were dancing (Ooh)
And I had a bad feeling (Had a bad feeling)
But we were dancing
(Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Hands tied, hands tied (Dancing)
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Dress
Our secret moments in a crowded room
They got no idea about me and you
There is an indentation in the shape of you
Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo
All of this silence and patience, pining and anticipation

My hands are shaking from holding back from you
Ha, ah, ah
All of this silence and patience, pining and desperately waiting
My hands are shaking from all this
Ah, ha, ha, ha-ah
Say my name and everything just stops

I don’t want you like a best friend
Only bought this dress so you could take it off
Take it oh, ha, ha, ha-ah
Carve your name into my bedpost
’Cause I don’t want you like a best friend
Inescapable, I’m not even gonna try

And if I get burned, at least we were electrified
I’m spilling wine in the bathtub
You kiss my face and we’re both drunk
Everyone thinks that they know us
But they know nothing about—
All of this silence and patience, pining and anticipation

My hands are shaking from holding back from you
Ha, ah, ah
All of this silence and patience, pining and desperately waiting
My hands are shaking from all this
Ah, ha, ha, ha-ah

Take it oh, ha, ha
Ha-ah-ah, ha-ah-ah, ha-ah-ah-ah

Ha-ah-ah, ha-ah-ah, ha-ah-ah-ah
Flashback when you met me

Your buzzcut and my hair bleached
Even in my worst times, you could see the best in me
Flashback to my mistakes
My rebounds, my earthquakes
Even in my worst lies, you saw the truth in me
And I woke up just in time
Now I wake up by your side
My one and only, my lifeline
I woke up just in time
Now I wake up by your side
My hands shake, I can’t explain this
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Ah, ha, ha, ha-ah

There is an indentation in the shape of you

You made your mark on me, golden tattoo
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This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things
It was so nice throwing big parties
Jump into the pool from the balcony
Everyone swimming in a champagne sea
And there are no rules when you show up here
Bass beat rattling the chandelier
Feeling so Gatsby for that whole year
So why’d you have to rain on my parade?

I’m shaking my head and locking the gates
This is why we can’t have nice things, darling

Because you break them
I had to take them away
This is why we can’t have nice things, honey (Oh)
Did you think I wouldn’t hear all the things you said about me?
This is why we can’t have nice things
It was so nice being friends again

There I was, giving you a second chance
But you stabbed me in the back while shaking my hand
And therein lies the issue
Friends don’t try to trick you
Get you on the phone and mind-twist you
And so I took an axe to a mended fence
But I’m not the only friend you’ve lost lately (Mm-mm)
If only you weren’t so shady
This is why we can’t have nice things, darling (Yeah)

This is why we can’t have nice (Nice things) things (Baby), honey
This is why we can’t have
Here’s a toast to my real friends

They don’t care about the he-said, she-said
And here’s to my baby
He ain’t reading what they call me lately
And here’s to my mama
Had to listen to all this drama
And here’s to you
’Cause forgiveness is a nice thing to do
Haha, I can’t even say it with a straight face
This is why we can’t have nice things, darling (Darling)

This is why we can’t have nice (Uh-uh) things (Oh no), honey (Baby, oh)
This is why we can’t have nice things, darling
(And here’s to my real friends)
I had to take them
(And here’s to my baby)
Nice things, honey
(They didn’t care about that he-said, she-said)
This is why we can’t have nice things
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Call It What You Want
My castle crumbled overnight
I brought a knife to a gunfight
They took the crown but it’s alright
All the liars are calling me one
Nobody’s heard from me for months
I’m doing better than I ever was
’Cause
My baby’s fit like a daydream
Walking with his head down
I’m the one he’s walking to
So call it what you want, yeah
Call it what you want to
My baby’s fly like a jet stream
High above the whole scene
Loves me like I’m brand new
All my flowers grew back as thorns

Windows boarded up after the storm
He built a fire just to keep me warm
All the drama queens taking swings
All the jokers dressing up as kings
They fade to nothing when I look at him
And I know I make the same mistakes every time
Bridges burn, I never learn
At least I did one thing right
I did one thing right
I’m laughing with my lover
Making forts under covers
Trust him like a brother
Yeah, you know I did one thing right
Starry eyes sparking up my darkest night

(Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it)
I want to wear his initial on a chain ’round my neck

Chain ’round my neck
Not because he owns me
But ’cause he really knows me
Which is more than they can say, I
I recall late November, holding my breath
Slowly I said, ”You don’t need to save me
But would you run away with me?”
Yes (would you run away?)

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(Call it what you want, call it)

Call it what you want, yeah
Call it what you want
To
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New Year’s Day
There’s glitter on the floor after the party
Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby
Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor
You and me from the night before, but
Don’t read the last page

But I stay when you’re lost, and I’m scared
And you’re turning away
I want your midnights
But I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year’s Day
You squeeze my hand three times in the back of the taxi

I can tell that it’s gonna be a long road
I’ll be there if you’re the toast of the town, babe
Or if you strike out and you’re crawling home

But I stay when it’s hard, or it’s wrong
Or we’re making mistakes
Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you

And I will hold on to you
Please don’t ever become a stranger

Whose laugh I could recognize anywhere
There’s glitter on the floor after the party

Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby
Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor
You and me forevermore

But I stay when it’s hard, or it’s wrong
Or we’re making mistakes

And I will hold on to you

(To the memories, they will hold on to you)
(Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you)
(Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you)
(I will hold on to you)
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Lover
I Forgot That You Existed
How many days did I spend thinking
’Bout how you did me wrong, wrong, wrong?
Lived in the shade you were throwing
’Til all of my sunshine was gone, gone, gone
And I couldn’t get away from ya
In my feelings more than Drake, so yeah
Your name on my lips, tongue-tied
Free rent, living in my mind
But then something happened one magical night
I forgot that you existed

And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t
And it was so nice
So peaceful and quiet
It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference
I forgot that you
Got out some popcorn

As soon as my rep started going down, down, down
Laughed on the school yard
As soon as I tripped up and hit the ground, ground, ground
And I would’ve stuck around for ya
Would’ve fought the whole town, so yeah
Would’ve been right there, front row
Even if nobody came to your show
But you showed who you are, then one magical night

And it was so nice
I forgot that you
Sent me a clear message

Taught me some hard lessons
I just forget what they were
It’s all just a blur

And it was so nice
I did, I did, I did
It isn’t hate, it’s just indifference
So, yeah
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Cruel Summer
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Fever dream high in the quiet of the night

You know that I caught it (Oh yeah, you’re right, I want it)
Bad, bad boy, shiny toy with a price
You know that I bought it (Oh yeah, you’re right, I want it)
Killing me slow, out the window

I’m always waiting for you to be waiting below
Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes
What doesn’t kill me makes me want you more
And it’s new, the shape of your body

It’s blue, the feeling I’ve got
And it’s ooh, whoa oh
It’s a cruel summer
It’s cool, that’s what I tell ’em
No rules in breakable heaven
But ooh, whoa oh
With you
Hang your head low in the glow of the vending machine

I’m not dying (Oh yeah, you’re right, I want it)
We say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times
We’re not trying (Oh yeah, you’re right, I want it)
So cut the headlights, summer’s a knife

I’m always waiting for you just to cut to the bone
Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes
And if I bleed, you’ll be the last to know
Oh, it’s new, the shape of your body

But ooh, whoa oh
With you
I’m drunk in the back of the car

And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (Oh)
Said, ”I’m fine,” but it wasn’t true
I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you
And I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer just to seal my fate (Oh)
And I scream, ”For whatever it’s worth
I love you, ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard?”
He looks up, grinning like a devil
It’s new, the shape of your body

But ooh, whoa oh
With you
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I’m drunk in the back of the car
And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (Oh)
Said, ”I’m fine,” but it wasn’t true
I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you
And I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer just to seal my fate (Oh)
And I scream, ”For whatever it’s worth
I love you, ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard?”
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
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Lover
We could leave the Christmas lights up ’til January
This is our place, we make the rules
And there’s a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear
Have I known you twenty seconds or twenty years?
Can I go where you go?

Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out and take me home
You’re my, my, my, my
Lover
We could let our friends crash in the living room

This is our place, we make the call
And I’m highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you
I’ve loved you three summers now, honey, but I want ’em all

And ah, take me out and take me home (Forever and ever)
Lover
Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand?

With every guitar string scar on my hand
I take this magnetic force of a man to be my
Lover
My heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue
All’s well that ends well to end up with you
Swear to be over-dramatic and true to my
Lover
And you’ll save all your dirtiest jokes for me

And at every table, I’ll save you a seat
Lover

And ah, take me out and take me home (Forever and ever)
Oh, you’re my, my, my, my
Darling, you’re my, my, my, my
Lover
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The Man
I would be complex, I would be cool
They’d say I played the field before I found someone to commit to
And that would be okay for me to do
Every conquest I had made would make me more of a boss to you
I’d be a fearless leader

I’d be an alpha type
When everyone believes ya
What’s that like?
I’m so sick of running as fast as I can

Wondering if I’d get there quicker if I was a man
And I’m so sick of them coming at me again
’Cause if I was a man, then I’d be the man
I’d be the man
I’d be the man
They’d say I hustled, put in the work

They wouldn’t shake their heads and question how much of this I deserve
What I was wearing, if I was rude
Could all be separated from my good ideas and power moves
And they would toast to me, oh, let the players play
I’d be just like Leo in Saint-Tropez

Wondering if I’d get there quicker if I was a man
And I’m so sick of them coming at me again
’Cause if I was a man, then I’d be the man
I’d be the man
I’d be the man
What’s it like to brag about raking in dollars

And getting bitches and models?
And it’s all good if you’re bad
And it’s okay if you’re mad
If I was out flashing my dollars
I’d be a bitch, not a baller
They’d paint me out to be bad
So, it’s okay that I’m mad

Wondering if I’d get there quicker if I was a man (You know that)
And I’m so sick of them coming at me again (Coming at me again)
’Cause if I was a man (If I was a man)
Then I’d be the man (Then I’d be the man)
I’m so sick of running as fast as I can (As fast as I can)
Wondering if I’d get there quicker if I was a man (Hey)
And I’m so sick of them coming at me again (Coming at me again)
’Cause if I was a man (If I was a man), then I’d be the man
I’d be the man
I’d be the man (Oh)
I’d be the man (Yeah)
I’d be the man (I’d be the man)
If I was a man, then I’d be the man
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The Archer
Combat
I’m ready for combat
I say I don’t want that
But what if I do?
’Cause cruelty
Wins in the movies
I’ve got a hundred thrown-out speeches
I almost said to you
Easy they come

Easy they go
I jump from the train
I ride off alone
I never grew up
It’s getting so old
Help me hold on to you
I’ve been the archer

I’ve been the prey
Who could ever leave me darling...
But who could stay?
Dark side
I search for your dark side
But what if I’m alright
Right, right, right here?
And I cut off

My nose just to spite my face
Then I hate my reflection
For years and years
I wake in the night

I pace like a ghost
The room is on fire
Invisible smoke
And all of my heroes
Die all alone

Screaming, ”Who could ever leave me darling...
But who could stay?”
(I see right through me, I see right through me)
’Cause they see right through me

They see right through me
They see right through
Can you see right through me?
They see right through
They see right through me
I see right through me
I see right through me
All the king’s horses

All the king’s men
Couldn’t put me together again
’Cause all of my enemies
Started out friends
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Who could ever leave me darling...
But who could stay?
(I see right through me, I see right through me)
Who could stay?

Who could stay?
Who could stay?
You could stay
You could stay
Combat
I’m ready for combat
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I Think He Knows
I think he knows
His footprints on the sidewalk
Lead to where I can’t stop
Go there every night
I think he knows
His hands around a cold glass
Make me wanna know that
Body like it’s mine
He got that boyish look that I like in a man

I am an architect, I’m drawing up the plans
It’s like I’m 17, nobody understands
No one understands
He got my heartbeat
Skipping down 16th Avenue
Got that, oh, I mean
Wanna see what’s under that attitude like
I want you, bless my soul
And I ain’t gotta tell him, I think he knows
I think he knows
I think he knows
When we get all alone
I’ll make myself at home
And he’ll want me to stay
I think he knows
He better lock it down
Or I won’t stick around
’Cause good ones never wait (Ha)
He got that boyish look that I like in a man

I am an architect, I’m drawing up the plans
He’s so obsessed with me and, boy, I understand
Boy, I understand
He got my heartbeat (Heartbeat)

Skipping down 16th Avenue
Got that, oh, I mean (I mean)
Wanna see what’s under that attitude like
I think he knows
I want you, bless my

Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh

We can follow the sparks, I’ll drive
Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh
We can follow the sparks, I’ll drive
”So where we gonna go?”
I whisper in the dark
”Where we gonna go?”
I think he knows
He got my heartbeat (Heartbeat)

Skipping down 16th Avenue (Baby)
Got that, oh, I mean (I mean)
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Wanna see what’s under that attitude like (Yeah)
I think he knows

I want you, bless my (Oh, baby)
I want you, bless my soul (He got my heartbeat)
I want you, bless my (Skipping down 16th Avenue, baby)
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Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince
You know I adore you, I’m crazier for you
Than I was at sixteen, lost in a film scene
Waving homecoming queens, marching band playing
I’m lost in the lights
American glory faded before me
Now I’m feeling hopeless, ripped up my prom dress
Running through rose thorns, I saw the scoreboard
And ran for my life (Ah)
No cameras catch my pageant smile

I counted days, I counted miles
To see you there, to see you there
It’s been a long time coming, but
It’s you and me, that’s my whole world

They whisper in the hallway, ”She’s a bad, bad girl” (Okay)
The whole school is rolling fake dice
You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes
It’s you and me, there’s nothing like this
Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince (Okay)
We’re so sad, we paint the town blue
Voted most likely to run away with you
My team is losing, battered and bruising

I see the high fives between the bad guys
Leave with my head hung, you are the only one
Who seems to care
American stories burning before me
I’m feeling helpless, the damsels are depressed
Boys will be boys then, where are the wise men?
Darling, I’m scared (Ah)
No cameras catch my muffled cries

I counted days, I counted miles
To see you there, to see you there
And now the storm is coming, but

They whisper in the hallway, ”She’s a bad, bad girl” (Okay)
The whole school is rolling fake dice
You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes
It’s you and me, there’s nothing like this
We’re so sad, we paint the town blue
And I don’t want you to (Go), I don’t really wanna (Fight)

’Cause nobody’s gonna (Win), I think you should come home
’Cause nobody’s gonna (Win), I just thought you should know
And I’ll never let you (Go) ’cause I know this is a (Fight)
That someday we’re gonna (Win)

They whisper in the hallway, ”She’s a bad, bad girl”
Oh, I just thought you should know (You should know)
It’s you and me, there’s nothing like this (Like this)
We’re so sad, we paint the town blue (Paint it blue)
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And I’ll never let you (Go) ’cause I know this is a (Fight)
That someday we’re gonna (Win), I just thought you should know

They whisper in the hallway, ”She’s a bad, bad girl”
”She’s a bad, bad girl”
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Paper Rings
The moon is high
Like your friends were the night that we first met
Went home and tried to stalk you on the internet
Now I’ve read all of the books beside your bed
The wine is cold
Like the shoulder that I gave you in the street
Cat and mouse for a month or two or three
Now I wake up in the night and watch you breathe
(Ayy)
Kiss me once ’cause you know I had a long night (Oh)
Kiss me twice ’cause it’s gonna be alright (Uh)
Three times ’cause I waited my whole life (1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4)
I like shiny things, but I’d marry you with paper rings
Uh huh, that’s right
Darling, you’re the one I want, and
I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this
Darling, you’re the one I want
In paper rings in picture frames in dirty dreams
Oh, you’re the one I want
In the winter, in the icy outdoor pool

When you jumped in first, I went in too
I’m with you even if it makes me blue
Which takes me back
To the color that we painted your brother’s wall
Honey, without all the exes, fights, and flaws
We wouldn’t be standing here so tall, so
(Ayy)
Kiss you once ’cause I know you had a long night (Oh)
Kiss you twice ’cause it’s gonna be alright (Uh)
Three times ’cause you waited your whole life (1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4)
Ah
In paper rings in picture frames in dirty dreams
I want to drive away with you

I want your complications too
I want your dreary Mondays
Wrap your arms around me, baby boy
I want to drive away with you
I want your complications too
I want your dreary Mondays
Wrap your arms around me, baby boy
Uh huh
Uh huh, that’s right, you’re the one I want
Ah-ah, darling, you’re the one I want
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In paper rings in picture frames in all my dreams
You’re the one I want
In paper rings in picture frames in all my dreams
You’re the one I want, one I want

You’re the one I want, one I want
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Cornelia Street
We were in the backseat
Drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar
”I rent a place on Cornelia Street”
I say casually in the car
We were a fresh page on the desk
Filling in the blanks as we go
As if the street lights pointed in an arrow head
Leading us home
And I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends

I’d never walk Cornelia Street again
That’s the kinda heartbreak time could never mend
And baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name
And baby, I’m so terrified of if you ever walk away
Windows flung right open, autumn air

Jacket ’round my shoulders is yours
We bless the rains on Cornelia Street
Memorize the creaks in the floor
Back when we were card sharks, playing games
I thought you were leading me on
I packed my bags, left Cornelia Street
Before you even knew I was gone
But then you called, showed your hand

I turned around before I hit the tunnel
Sat on the roof, you and I
I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends

That’s the kinda heartbreak time could never mend
You hold my hand on the street

Walk me back to that apartment
Years ago, we were just inside
Barefoot in the kitchen
Sacred new beginnings
That became my religion, listen
I hope I never lose you

Oh, never again
I don’t wanna lose you (Hope it never ends)

I don’t wanna lose you (Yeah)
”I rent a place on Cornelia Street”

I say casually in the car
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Death By A Thousand Cuts
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
My, my, my, my
Saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts

Flashbacks waking me up
I get drunk, but it’s not enough
’Cause the morning comes and you’re not my baby
I look through the windows of this love
Even though we boarded them up
Chandelier’s still flickering here
’Cause I can’t pretend it’s okay when it’s not
It’s death by a thousand cuts
I dress to kill my time, I take the long way home

I ask the traffic lights if it’ll be alright
They say, ”I don’t know”
And what once was ours is no one’s now
I see you everywhere, the only thing we share
Is this small town
You said it was a great love, one for the ages
But if the story’s over, why am I still writing pages?
’Cause saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts

Flashbacks waking me up
’Cause the morning comes and you’re not my baby
It’s death by a thousand cuts
My heart, my hips, my body, my love

Tryna find a part of me that you didn’t touch
Gave up on me like I was a bad drug
Now I’m searching for signs in a haunted club
Our songs, our films, united we stand
Our country, guess it was a lawless land
Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand
Paper cut stings from our paper-thin plans
My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust
Tryna find a part of me you didn’t take up
Gave you so much, but it wasn’t enough
But I’ll be alright, it’s just a thousand cuts

’Cause you’re not my baby
No, it’s not
It’s death by a thousand cuts (You didn’t touch)
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Tryna find a part of me that you didn’t touch
My body, my love, my trust (It’s death by a thousand cuts)
But it wasn’t enough, it wasn’t enough, no, no
I take the long way home

I ask the traffic lights if it’ll be alright
They say, ”I don’t know”
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London Boy
[Idris Elba and James Corden:]
We can go driving in, on my scooter
Uh, you know, just ’round London
Alright, yeah
I love my hometown as much as Motown, I love SoCal

And you know I love Springsteen, faded blue jeans, Tennessee whiskey
But something happened, I heard him laughing
I saw the dimples first and then I heard the accent
They say home is where the heart is
But that’s not where mine lives
You know I love a London boy

I enjoy walking Camden Market in the afternoon
He likes my American smile, like a child when our eyes meet
Darling, I fancy you
Took me back to Highgate, met all of his best mates
So I guess all the rumors are true
Boy, I fancy you (Ooh)
And now I love high tea, stories from Uni, and the West End
You can find me in the pub, we are watching rugby with his school friends
Show me a gray sky, a rainy cab ride
Babes, don’t threaten me with a good time
They say home is where the heart is
But God, I love the English
You know I love a London boy, I enjoy nights in Brixton

Shoreditch in the afternoon
Darling, I fancy you
So I guess all the rumors are true
Boy, I fancy you
So please show me Hackney

Doesn’t have to be Louis V up on Bond Street
Just wanna be with you
Wanna be with you
Stick with me, I’m your queen
Like a Tennessee Stella McCartney, on the Heath
Just wanna be with you (Wanna be with you)
Wanna be with you (Oh)
You know I love a London boy, I enjoy walking SoHo

Drinking in the afternoon (Yeah)
Darling, I fancy you (You)
So I guess all the rumors are true (Yeah)
You know I love a London boy (Oh)
Boy (Oh), I fancy you (I fancy you, ooh)
So please show me Hackney

Doesn’t have to be Louis V up on Bond Street
Just wanna be with you
I, I, I fancy you
Oh whoa, oh, I
Stick with me, I’m your queen
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Like a Tennessee Stella McCartney, on the Heath
Just wanna be with you (Ooh)
Wanna be with you
I fancy you (Yeah), I fancy you
Oh whoa, ah
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Soon You’ll Get Better (feat. Dixie Chicks)
The buttons of my coat were tangled in my hair
In doctor’s office lighting, I didn’t tell you I was scared
That was the first time we were there
Holy orange bottles, each night, I pray to you
Desperate people find faith, so now I pray to Jesus too
And I say to you
Ooh-ah
Soon, you’ll get better
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
You’ll get better soon
’Cause you have to
I know delusion when I see it in the mirror

You like the nicer nurses, you make the best of a bad deal
I just pretend it isn’t real
I’ll paint the kitchen neon, I’ll brighten up the sky
I know I’ll never get it, there’s not a day that I won’t try
And I say to you
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
And I hate to make this all about me

But who am I supposed to talk to?
What am I supposed to do
If there’s no you?
This won’t go back to normal, if it ever was

It’s been years of hoping, and I keep saying it because
’Cause I have to
Ooh-ah
You’ll get better
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
Ooh-ah
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False God
We were crazy to think
Crazy to think that this could work
Remember how I said I’d die for you?
We were stupid to jump
In the ocean separating us
Remember how I’d fly to you?
And I can’t talk to you when you’re like this

Staring out the window like I’m not your favorite town
I’m New York City, I still do it for you, babe
They all warned us about times like this
They say the road gets hard and you get lost
When you’re led by blind faith, blind faith
But we might just get away with it

Religion’s in your lips
Even if it’s a false god
We’d still worship
We might just get away with it
The altar is my hips
We’d still worship this love
I know heaven’s a thing

I go there when you touch me, honey
Hell is when I fight with you
But we can patch it up good
Make confessions and we’re begging for forgiveness
Got the wine for you
And you can’t talk to me when I’m like this

Daring you to leave me just so I can try and scare you
You’re the West Village
You still do it for me, babe
They all warned us about times like this
They say the road gets hard and you get lost
When you’re led by blind faith, blind faith
But we might just get away with it

Religion’s in your lips
We’d still worship
We might just get away with it
The altar is my hips
We’d still worship this love, ah
Still worship this love

Still worship this love
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You Need To Calm Down
You are somebody that I don’t know
But you’re taking shots at me like it’s Patrón
And I’m just like, ”Damn!
It’s 7 AM”
Say it in the street, that’s a knock-out

But you say it in a tweet, that’s a cop-out
And I’m just like, ”Hey!
Are you OK?”
And I ain’t tryna mess with your self-expression

But I’ve learned the lesson
That stressing and obsessing
’Bout somebody else is no fun
And snakes and stones never broke my bones
So, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh!

You need to calm down
You’re being too loud
And I’m just like
”Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh!
You need to just stop
Like, can you just not step on my gown?
You need to calm down”
You are somebody that we don’t know

But you’re coming at my friends like a missile
Why are you mad
When you could be GLAAD?
(You could be GLAAD)
Sunshine on the street at the parade

But you would rather be in the dark ages
Just making that sign
Must’ve taken all night
You just need to take several seats

And then try to restore the peace
And control your urges to scream
About all the people you hate
’Cause shade never made anybody less gay
So, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh!

And I’m just like
Like, can you just not step on his gown
And we see you over there on the Internet

Comparing all the girls who are killing it
But we figured you out
We all know now
We all got crowns
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh!

(You need to calm down)
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(You’re being too loud)
And I’m just like
(Can you stop?)
Like, can you just not step on our gowns
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Afterglow
I blew things out of proportion, now you’re blue
Put you in jail for something you didn’t do
I pinned your hands behind your back, oh
Thought I had reason to attack, but no
Fighting with a true love is boxing with no gloves

Chemistry ’til it blows up, ’til there’s no us
Why’d I have to break what I love so much?
It’s on your face, and I’m to blame, I need to say
Hey, it’s all me, in my head

I’m the one who burned us down
But it’s not what I meant
Sorry that I hurt you
I don’t wanna do, I don’t wanna do this to you (Ooh)
I don’t wanna lose, I don’t wanna lose this with you (Ooh)
I need to say, hey, it’s all me, just don’t go
Meet me in the afterglow
It’s so excruciating to see you low

Just wanna lift you up and not let you go
This ultraviolet morning light below
Tells me this love is worth the fight, oh
I lived like an island, punished you with silence

Went off like sirens, just crying
Why’d I have to break what I love so much?
It’s on your face, don’t walk away, I need to say

I’m sorry that I hurt you
Tell me that you’re still mine

Tell me that we’ll be just fine
Even when I lose my mind
I need to say
Tell me that it’s not my fault
Tell me that I’m all you want
Even when I break your heart
I need to say

Sorry that I hurt you
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ME! (feat. Brendon Urie of Panic! At The Disco)
[Taylor Swift:]
I promise that you’ll never find another like me
I know that I’m a handful baby, uh

I know I never think before I jump
And you’re the kind of guy the ladies want
(And there’s a lot of cool chicks out there)
I know that I went psycho on the phone

I never leave well enough alone
And trouble’s gonna follow where I go
(And there’s a lot of cool chicks out there)
But one of these things is not like the others

Like a rainbow with all of the colors
Baby doll, when it comes to a lover
I promise that you’ll never find another like me-e-e-eh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
I’m the only one of me
Baby, that’s the fun of me-e-eh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
You’re the only one of you
Baby, that’s the fun of you
And I promise that nobody’s gonna love you like me-e-e-eh
[Brendon Urie, Taylor Swift:]

I know I tend to make it about me
I know you never get just what you see
But I will never bore you, baby
(And there’s a lot of lame guys out there)
And when we had that fight out in the rain

You ran after me and called my name
I never wanna see you walk away
(And there’s a lot of lame guys out there)
’Cause one of these things is not like the others

Living in winter, I am your summer
Baby doll, when it comes to a lover
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Let me keep you company-e-e-eh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
[Single version:
”Hey, kids.
Spelling is fun!”]
Girl, there ain’t no ”I” in ”team”

But you know there is a ”me”
Strike the band up 1, 2, 3
I promise that you’ll never find another like me

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And you can’t spell ”awesome” without ”me”
Yeah, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
(And I want you, baby)
(I’m the only one of me)
Baby, that’s the fun of me-e-e-eh
(Baby, that’s the fun of me)
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Baby, that’s the fun of me-e-e-eh
Strike the band up 1, 2, 3

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
You can’t spell ”awesome” without ”me”
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It’s Nice To Have A Friend
Ooh
Ooh
School bell rings, walk me home

Sidewalk chalk covered in snow
Lost my gloves, you give me one
”Wanna hang out?” Yeah, sounds like fun
Video games, you pass me a note
Sleeping in tents
It’s nice to have a friend (Ooh)

Light pink sky up on the roof

Sun sinks down, no curfew
20 questions, we tell the truth
You’ve been stressed out lately, yeah, me too
Something gave you the nerve
To touch my hand

Church bells ring, carry me home

Rice on the ground looks like snow
Call my bluff, call you ”Babe”
Have my back, yeah, every day
Feels like home, stay in bed
The whole weekend

(Ooh)
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Daylight
My love was as cruel as the cities I lived in
Everyone looked worse in the light
There are so many lines that I’ve crossed unforgiven
I’ll tell you the truth, but never goodbye
I don’t wanna look at anything else now that I saw you

I don’t wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
I’ve been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night
And now I see daylight, I only see daylight
Luck of the draw only draws the unlucky

And so I became the butt of the joke
I wounded the good and I trusted the wicked
Clearing the air, I breathed in the smoke
Maybe you ran with the wolves and refused to settle down
Maybe I’ve stormed out of every single room in this town
Threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it’s morning now
It’s brighter now, now

(I can never look away)
(Things will never be the same)
(Now I’m wide awake)
And now I see daylight (daylight), I only see daylight (daylight)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
And I can still see it all (In my mind)

All of you, all of me (Intertwined)
I once believed love would be (Black and white)
But it’s golden (Golden)
And I can still see it all (In my head)
Back and forth from New York (Sneaking in your bed)
I once believed love would be (Burning red)
But it’s golden
Like daylight, like daylight
Like daylight, daylight

(I can never look away)
(Things will never be the same)
(Now I’m wide awake)
And now I see daylight (I see daylight), I only see daylight (Ah)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight (Ah)
(And I can still see it all)
(And I can still see it all, back and forth from New York)
(I once believed love would be burning red)
Like daylight
It’s golden like daylight
You gotta step into the daylight and let it go
Just let it go, let it go
I wanna be defined by the things that I love
Not the things I hate
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Not the things that I’m afraid of, I’m afraid of
Not the things that haunt me in the middle of the night
I, I just think that
You are what you love
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Folklore
the 1
I’m doing good, I’m on some new shit
Been saying ”yes” instead of ”no”
I thought I saw you at the bus stop, I didn’t though
I hit the ground running each night

I hit the Sunday matinee
You know the greatest films of all time were never made
I guess you never know, never know

And if you wanted me, you really should’ve showed
And if you never bleed, you’re never gonna grow
And it’s alright now
But we were something, don’t you think so?

Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool
And if my wishes came true
It would’ve been you
In my defense, I have none
For never leaving well enough alone
But it would’ve been fun
If you would’ve been the one
I have this dream you’re doing cool shit

Having adventures on your own
You meet some woman on the Internet and take her home
We never painted by the numbers, baby
But we were making it count
You know the greatest loves of all time are over now
I guess you never know, never know

And it’s another day, waking up alone
But we were something, don’t you think so?

Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool
And if my wishes came true
It would’ve been you
For never leaving well enough alone
Hey, yeah-yeah
I persist and resist the temptation to ask you
If one thing had been different
Would everything be different today?
We were something, don’t you think so?

Rosé flowing with your chosen family
And it would’ve been sweet
If it could’ve been me
For digging up the grave another time
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cardigan
Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
Sequin smile, black lipstick
Sensual politics
But I knew you

Dancing in your Levi’s
Drunk under a streetlight, I
I knew you
Hand under my sweatshirt
Baby, kiss it better, I
And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone’s bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite
A friend to all is a friend to none
Chase two girls, lose the one
But I knew you

Playing hide-and-seek and
Giving me your weekends
I, I knew you
Your heartbeat on the High Line
Once in twenty lifetimes, I
To kiss in cars and downtown bars

Was all we needed
You drew stars around my scars
But now I’m bleeding
’Cause I knew you

Stepping on the last train
Marked me like a bloodstain, I
I knew you
Tried to change the ending
Peter losing Wendy
I, I knew you
Leaving like a father
Running like water, I
And when you are young, they assume you know nothing
But I knew you’d linger like a tattoo kiss

I knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs
The smell of smoke would hang around this long
’Cause I knew everything when I was young
I knew I’d curse you for the longest time
Chasing shadows in the grocery line
I knew you’d miss me once the thrill expired
And you’d be standing in my front porch light
And I knew you’d come back to me
You’d come back to me
And you’d come back to me
And you’d come back
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the last great american dynasty
Rebekah rode up on the afternoon train, it was sunny
Her saltbox house on the coast took her mind off St. Louis
Bill was the heir to the Standard Oil name and money
And the town said, ”How did a middle-class divorcée do it?”
The wedding was charming, if a little gauche

There’s only so far new money goes
They picked out a home and called it ”Holiday House”
Their parties were tasteful, if a little loud
The doctor had told him to settle down
It must have been her fault his heart gave out
And they said, ”There goes the last great American dynasty
Who knows, if she never showed up what could’ve been
There goes the maddest woman this town has ever seen
She had a marvelous time ruining everything.”
Rebekah gave up on the Rhode Island set forever

Flew in all her Bitch Pack friends from the city
Filled the pool with champagne and swam with the big names
And blew through the money on the boys and the ballet
And losing on card game bets with Dalí
And they said, ”There goes the last great American dynasty
Who knows, if she never showed up, what could’ve been
There goes the most shameless woman this town has ever seen
She had a marvelous time ruining everything.”
They say she was seen on occasion

Pacing the rocks staring out at the midnight sea
And in a feud with her neighbor
She stole his dog and dyed it key lime green
Fifty years is a long time
Holiday House sat quietly on that beach
Free of women with madness
Their men and bad habits, and then it was bought by me
Who knows, if I never showed up what could’ve been

There goes the loudest woman this town has ever seen
I had a marvelous time ruining everything
I had a marvelous time
Ruining everything
A marvelous time
Ruining everything
A marvelous time
I had a marvelous time
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exile (feat. Bon Iver)
[Justin Vernon:]
I can see you standin’, honey
With his arms around your body
Laughin’ but the joke’s not funny at all
And it took you five whole minutes
To pack us up and leave me with it
Holdin’ all this love out here in the hall
I think I’ve seen this film before

And I didn’t like the ending
You’re not my homeland anymore
So what am I defendin’ now?
You were my town
Now I’m in exile seein’ you out
Hoo, hoo-ooh
Hoo, hoo-ooh
Hoo, hoo-ooh
[Taylor Swift:]
I can see you starin’, honey
Like he’s just your understudy
Like you’d get your knuckles bloody for me
Second, third, and hundredth chances
Balancin’ on breaking branches
Those eyes add insult to injury

I’m not your problem anymore
So who am I offending now?
You were my crown
So I’m leavin’ out the side door
[Justin Vernon, Taylor Swift:]

So step right out
There is no amount
Of cryin’ I can do for you
All this time

We always walked a very thin line
You didn’t even hear me out (You didn’t even hear me out)
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
All this time

I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind)
I couldn’t turn things around (You never turned things around)
’Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
So many signs
So many signs (You didn’t even see the signs)

You’re not my homeland anymore
So what am I defending now?
You were my town
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So I’m leaving out the side door
So step right out

There is no amount
Of cryin’ I can do for you
All this time

We always walked a very thin line
You didn’t even hear me out (didn’t even hear me out)
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
All this time

I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind)
I couldn’t turn things around (You never turned things around)
’Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
You never gave a warning sign (All this time)
(So many times) I never learned to read your mind
(So many signs) I couldn’t turn things around (I couldn’t turn things around)
’Cause you never gave a warning sign (You never gave a warning sign)
You never gave a warning sign
Ah, ah
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my tears ricochet
We gather here
We line up weeping in a sunlit room
And if I’m on fire
You’ll be made of ashes, too
Even on my worst day

Did I deserve, babe
All the hell you gave me?
’Cause I loved you
I swear I loved you
’Til my dying day
I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace

And you’re the hero flying around saving face
And if I’m dead to you why are you at the wake?
Cursing my name
Wishing I stayed
Look at how my tears ricochet
We gather stones
Never knowing what they’ll mean
Some to throw
Some to make a diamond ring
You know I didn’t want to
Have to haunt you
But what a ghostly scene
You wear the same jewels
That I gave you
As you bury me

’Cause when I’d fight, you used to tell me I was brave
And if I’m dead to you why are you at the wake?
Cursing my name
Wishing I stayed
And I can go anywhere I want

Anywhere I want
Just not home
And you can aim for my heart, go for blood
But you would still miss me in your bones
And I still talk to you
When I’m screaming at the sky
And when you can’t sleep at night
You hear my stolen lullabies

And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves
You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same
Cursing my name
Wishing I stayed
You turned into your worst fears
And you’re tossing out blame
Drunk on this pain
Crossing out the good years
And you’re cursing my name
Wishing I stayed
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mirrorball
I want you to know
I’m a mirrorball
I’ll show you every version of yourself tonight
I’ll get you out on the floor
Shimmering beautiful
And when I break it’s in a million pieces
Hush
When no one is around, my dear
You’ll find me on my tallest tiptoes
Spinning in my highest heels, love
Shining just for you
Hush
I know they said the end is near
But I’m still on my tallest tiptoes
I want you to know

I’m a mirrorball
I can change everything about me to fit in
You are not like the regulars
The masquerade revelers
Drunk as they watch my shattered edges glisten
Hush
When no one is around, my dear
You’ll find me on my tallest tiptoes
Hush
I know they said the end is near
But I’m still on my tallest tiptoes
And they called off the circus

Burned the disco down
When they sent home the horses
And the rodeo clowns
I’m still on that tightrope
I’m still trying everything to get you laughing at me
I’m still a believer but I don’t know why
I’ve never been a natural
All I do is try, try, try
I’m still on that trapeze
I’m still trying everything
To keep you looking at me
Because I’m a mirrorball

I’m a mirrorball
I’ll show you every version of yourself
Tonight
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seven
Please picture me
In the trees
I hit my peak at seven
Feet
In the swing
Over the creek
I was too scared to jump in, but I, I was high
In the sky
With Pennsylvania under me
Are there still beautiful things?
Sweet tea in the summer

Cross your heart, won’t tell no other
And though I can’t recall your face
I still got love for you
Your braids like a pattern
Love you to the moon and to Saturn
Passed down like folk songs
The love lasts so long
And I’ve been meaning to tell you

I think your house is haunted
Your dad is always mad and that must be why
And I think you should come live with
Me and we can be pirates
Then you won’t have to cry
Or hide in the closet
And just like a folk song
Our love will be passed on
Please picture me
In the weeds
Before I learned civility
I used to scream
Ferociously
Any time I wanted
I, I
Sweet tea in the summer

Cross my heart, won’t tell no other
And though I can’t recall your face
I still got love for you
Pack your dolls and a sweater
We’ll move to India forever
Passed down like folk songs
Our love lasts so long
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August
Salt air
And the rust on your door
I never needed anything more
Whispers
Of ”Are you sure?”
”Never have I ever before”
But I can see us

Lost in the memory
August slipped away into a moment in time
’Cause it was never mine
And I can see us twisted in bedsheets
August sipped away
Like a bottle of wine
’Cause you were never mine
Your back
Beneath the sun
Wishing I could write my name on it
Will you call when you’re back at school?
I remember thinking I had you
But I can see us

Lost in the memory
August sipped away
Back when we were still changing for the better

Wanting was enough
For me, it was enough
To live for the hope of it all
Cancel plans just in case you’d call
And say ”Meet me behind the mall”
So much for summer love, and saying ”Us”
’Cause you weren’t mine to lose
You weren’t mine to lose
No
But I can see us

Lost in the memory
August sipped away
’Cause you were never mine, mine

Never mine
But do you remember?
Remember when I pulled up
And said ”Get in the car”
And then canceled my plans
Just in case you’d call?
Back when I was living for the hope of it all
For the hope of it all
”Meet me behind the mall”
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(Remember when I pulled up)
(And said ”Get in the car”)
(And then canceled my plans)
(Just in case you’d call?)
(Back when I was living for the hope of it all)
(For the hope of it all)
(”Meet me behind the mall”)
Remember when I pulled up

And said ”Get in the car”
And then canceled my plans
Just in case you’d call?
Back when I was living for the hope of it all
(For the hope of it all)
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this is me trying
I’ve been having a hard time adjusting
I had the shiniest wheels, now they’re rusting
I didn’t know if you’d care if I came back
I have a lot of regrets about that
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout
Could’ve followed my fears all the way down
And maybe I don’t quite know what to say
But I’m here in your doorway
I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying
They told me all of my cages were mental

So I got wasted like all my potential
And my words shoot to kill when I’m mad
I have a lot of regrets about that
I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere
Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here
Pourin’ out my heart to a stranger
But I didn’t pour the whiskey

At least I’m trying
And it’s hard to be at a party

When I feel like an open wound
It’s hard to be anywhere these days
When all I want is you
You’re a flashback in a film reel
On the one screen in my town
And I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying (And maybe I don’t quite know what to say)
At least I’m trying
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illicit affairs
Make sure nobody sees you leave
Hood over your head
Keep your eyes down
Tell your friends you’re out for a run
You’ll be flushed when you return
Take the road less traveled by
Tell yourself you can always stop
What started in beautiful rooms
Ends with meetings in parking lots
And that’s the thing about illicit affairs

And clandestine meetings
And longing stares
It’s born from just one single glance
But it dies and it dies and it dies
...a million little times
Leave the perfume on the shelf

That you picked out just for him
So you leave no trace behind
Like you don’t even exist
Take the words for what they are
A dwindling, mercurial high
A drug that only worked
The first few hundred times
And that’s the thing about illicit affairs

And clandestine meetings
And stolen stares
They show their truth one single time
But they lie and they lie and they lie
And you wanna scream

Don’t call me ”kid”
Don’t call me ”baby”
Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me
You showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else
Don’t call me ”kid”
Don’t call me ”baby”
Look at this idiotic fool that you made me
You taught me a secret language I can’t speak with anyone else
And you know damn well
For you I would ruin myself
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invisible string
Green was the color of the grass where I used to read at Centennial Park
I used to think I would meet somebody there
Teal was the color of your shirt when you were 16 at the yogurt shop
You used to work at to make a little money
Time
Curious time
Gave me no compasses
Gave me no signs
Were there clues I didn’t see?
And isn’t it just so pretty to think
All along there was some
Invisible string
Tying you to me?
Bad was the blood of the song in the cab on your first trip to LA
You ate at my favorite spot for dinner
Bold was the waitress on our three-year trip getting lunch down by the Lakes
She said I looked like an American singer
Time
Mystical time
Cutting me open, then healing me fine
Were there clues I didn’t see?
Invisible string
Tying you to me?
A string that pulled me

Out of all the wrong arms right into that dive bar
Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire
Chains around my demons
Wool to brave the seasons
One single thread of gold tied me to you
Cold was the steel of my axe to grind for the boys who broke my heart
Now I send their babies presents
Gold was the color of the leaves when I showed you around Centennial Park
Hell was the journey but it brought me heaven
Time
Wondrous time
Gave me the blues and then purple-pink skies
And it’s cool
Baby with me
Invisible string
Tying you to me?
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Me
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
(Ah-ah-ah)
(Ah-ah-ah)
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mad woman
What did you think I’d say to that?
Does a scorpion sting when fighting back?
They strike to kill and you know I will
You know I will
What do you sing on your drive home?

Do you see my face in the neighbor’s lawn?
Does she smile?
Or does she mouth, ”Fuck you forever”?
Every time you call me crazy

I get more crazy
What about that?
And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry
And there’s nothing like a mad woman
What a shame she went mad
No one likes a mad woman
You made her like that
And you’ll poke that bear ’til her claws come out
And you find something to wrap your noose around
Now I breathe flames each time I talk

My cannons all firing at your yacht
They say ”move on”
But you know I won’t
And women like hunting witches, too
Doing your dirtiest work for you
It’s obvious that wanting me dead has really brought you two together
Every time you call me crazy

I get more crazy
What about that?
And when you say I seem angry, I get more angry
No one likes a mad woman
And you’ll poke that bear ’til her claws come out
And you find something to wrap your noose around
I’m taking my time

Taking my time
’Cause you took everything from me
Watching you climb
Watching you climb
Over people like me
The master of spin
Has a couple side flings
Good wives always know
She should be mad
Should be scathing like me
But no one likes a mad woman
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epiphany
Keep your helmet
Keep your life, son
Just a flesh wound
Here’s your rifle
Crawling up the beaches now

”Sir, I think he’s bleeding out”
And some things you just can’t speak about
With you, I serve

With you, I fall down
Down
Watch you breathe in
Watch you breathin’ out
Out
Something med school

Did not cover
Someone’s daughter
Someone’s mother
Holds your hand through plastic now

”Doc, I think she’s crashing out”
And some things you just can’t speak about
Only twenty minutes to sleep

But you dream of some epiphany
Just one single glimpse of relief
To make some sense of what you’ve seen
With you, I serve

With you, I fall down
Down (Down)
Watch you breathin’ out
Out
With you, I serve

With you, I serve
With you, I fall down (Down)
Down (Down)
Watch you breathin’ out (Out)
Out (Out)
Only twenty minutes to sleep

But you dream of some epiphany
Just one single glimpse of relief
To make some sense of what you’ve seen
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betty
Betty, I won’t make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom
But I think it’s ’cause of me
Betty, one time I was riding on my skateboard when I passed your house
It’s like I couldn’t breathe
You heard the rumors from Inez
You can’t believe a word she says
Most times, but this time it was true
The worst thing that I ever did
Was what I did to you
But if I just showed up at your party

Would you have me?
Would you want me?
Would you tell me to go fuck myself
Or lead me to the garden?
In the garden would you trust me
If I told you it was just a summer thing?
I’m only seventeen
I don’t know anything but I know I miss you
Betty, I know where it all went wrong

Your favorite song was playing from the far side of the gym
I was nowhere to be found, I hate the crowds, you know that
Plus, I saw you dance with him
You heard the rumors from Inez
You can’t believe a word she says
Most times, but this time it was true
The worst thing that I ever did
Was what I did to you
But if I just showed up at your party

Would you have me?
Would you want me?
Would you tell me to go fuck myself
Or lead me to the garden?
In the garden would you trust me
If I told you it was just a summer thing?
I don’t know anything but I know I miss you
I was walking home on broken cobblestones

Just thinking of you when she pulled up
Like a figment of my worst intentions
She said ”James, get in, let’s drive”
Those days turned into nights
Slept next to her but
I dreamt of you all summer long
Betty, I’m here on your doorstep

And I planned it out for weeks now but, it’s finally sinking in
Betty, right now is the last time
I can dream about what happens when you see my face again
The only thing I wanna do
Is make it up to you
So, I showed up at your party

Yeah, I showed up at your party
Yeah, I showed up at your party
Will you have me?
Will you love me?
Will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends?
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If you kiss me
Will it be just like I dreamed it? Will it patch your broken wings?
I don’t know anything
But I know I miss you
Standing in your cardigan
Kissing in my car again
Stopped at a streetlight, you know I miss you
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peace
Our coming-of-age has come and gone
Suddenly this summer it’s clear
I never had the courage of my convictions
As long as danger is near
And it’s just around the corner, darlin’
’Cause it lives in me
No, I could never give you peace
But I’m a fire and I’ll keep your brittle heart warm
If your cascade ocean wave blues come
All these people think love’s for show
But I would die for you in secret
The devil’s in the details
But you got a friend in me
Would it be enough
If I could never give you peace?
Your integrity makes me seem small

You paint dreamscapes on the wall
I talk shit with my friends
It’s like I’m wastin’ your honor
And you know that I’d

Swing with you for the fences
Sit with you in the trenches
Give you my wild, give you a child
Give you the silence that only comes when two people understand each other
Family that I chose now that I see your brother as my brother
Is it enough?
But there’s robbers to the east
Clowns to the West
I’d give you my sunshine
Give you my best
But the rain is always gonna come
If you’re standing with me
But I’m a fire and I’ll keep your brittle heart warm
If your cascade ocean wave blues come
All these people think love’s for show
But I would die for you in secret
The devil’s in the details
But you got a friend in me
Would it be enough
Would it be enough
Would it be enough
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hoax
My only one
My smoking gun
My eclipsed sun
This has broken me down
My twisted knife
My sleepless night
My winless fight
This has frozen my ground
Stood on the cliffside

Screaming, ”Give me a reason”
Your faithless love’s the only hoax
I believe in
Don’t want no other shade of blue
But you
No other sadness in the world would do
My best laid plan

Your sleight of hand
My barren land
I am ash from your fire
Stood on the cliffside

Screaming ”Give me a reason”
Your faithless love’s the only hoax
I believe in
But you
You know I left a part of me back in New York

You knew the hero died, so what’s the movie for
You knew it still hurts underneath my scars
From when they pulled me apart
You knew the password, so I let you in the door
You knew you won, so what’s the point of keeping score?
You knew it still hurts underneath my scars
From when they pulled me apart
But what you did was just as dark
Darling, this was just as hard
As when they pulled me apart
My only one
My kingdom come undone
My broken drum
You have beaten my heart

But you
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the lakes
Is it romantic how all my elegies eulogize me?
I’m not cut out for all these cynical clones
These hunters with cell phones
Take me to the Lakes where all the poets went to die

I don’t belong and, my beloved, neither do you
Those Windermere peaks look like a perfect place to cry
I’m setting off, but not without my muse
What should be over burrowed under my skin

In heart-stopping waves of hurt
I’ve come too far to watch some namedropping sleaze
Tell me what are my words worth

I want auroras and sad prose

I want to watch wisteria grow right over my bare feet
’Cause I haven’t moved in years
And I want you right here
A red rose grew up out of ice frozen ground
With no one around to tweet it
While I bathe in cliffside pools
With my calamitous love and insurmountable grief

No, not without you
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Evermore
willow
I’m like the water when your ship rolled in that night
Rough on the surface but you cut through like a knife
And if it was an open/shut case
I never would’ve known from that look on your face
Lost in your current like a priceless wine
The more that you say, the less I know

Wherever you stray, I follow
I’m begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that’s my man
Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind

Head on the pillow, I could feel you sneaking in
As if you were a mythical thing
Like you were a trophy or a champion ring
And there was one prize I’d cheat to win

You know that my train could take you home
Anywhere else is hollow

They count me out time and time again
But I come back stronger than a 90’s trend
Wait for the signal and I’ll meet you after dark
Show me the places where the others gave you scars
Now this is an open/shut case
I guess I should’ve known from the look on your face
Every bait-and-switch was a work of art


Hey, that’s my man

That’s my man
Yeah, that’s my man
Every bait-and-switch was a work of art
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That’s my man
Hey, that’s my man
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champagne problems
You booked the night train for a reason
So you could sit there in this hurt
Bustling crowds or silent sleepers
You’re not sure which is worse
Because I dropped your hand while dancing

Left you out there standing
Crestfallen on the landing
Champagne problems
Your mom’s ring in your pocket
My picture in your wallet
Your heart was glass, I dropped it
Champagne problems
You told your family for a reason

You couldn’t keep it in
Your sister splashed out on the bottle
Now no one’s celebrating
Dom Pérignon, you brought it

No crowd of friends applauded
Your hometown skeptics called it
Champagne problems
You had a speech, you’re speechless
Love slipped beyond your reaches
And I couldn’t give a reason
Champagne problems
Your Midas touch on the Chevy door

November flush and your flannel cure
”This dorm was once a madhouse”
I made a joke, ”Well, it’s made for me”
How evergreen, our group of friends
Don’t think we’ll say that word again
And soon they’ll have the nerve to deck the halls
That we once walked through
One for the money, two for the show
I never was ready, so I watch you go
Sometimes you just don’t know the answer
’Til someone’s on their knees and asks you
”She would’ve made such a lovely bride
What a shame she’s fucked in the head,” they said
But you’ll find the real thing instead
She’ll patch up your tapestry that I shred
And hold your hand while dancing

Never leave you standing
Crestfallen on the landing
With champagne problems
Your mom’s ring in your pocket
Her picture in your wallet
You won’t remember all my
Champagne problems
You won’t remember all my

Champagne problems
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gold rush
Gleaming
Twinkling
Eyes like sinking ships
On waters so inviting
I almost jump in
I don’t like a gold rush, gold rush

I don’t like anticipating my face in a red flush
I don’t like that anyone would die to feel your touch
Everybody wants you
Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you
Walk past, quick brush
I don’t like slow motion double vision in rose blush
I don’t like that falling feels like flying ’til the bone crush
Everybody wants you
But I don’t like a gold rush
What must it be like

To grow up that beautiful?
With your hair falling into place like dominoes
I see me padding across your wooden floors
With my Eagles T-shirt hanging from the door
At dinner parties
I call you out on your contrarian shit
And the coastal town
We wandered ’round had never
Seen a love as pure as it
And then it fades into the gray of my day-old tea
’Cause it could never be
’Cause I don’t like a gold rush, gold rush

I don’t like anticipating my face in a red flush
I don’t like that anyone would die to feel your touch
Everybody wants you
Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you
Walk past, quick brush
I don’t like slow motion double vision in rose blush
I don’t like that falling feels like flying ’til the bone crush
Everybody wants you
And I don’t like a gold rush
What must it be like

To grow up that beautiful?
With your hair falling into place like dominoes
My mind turns your life into folklore
I can’t dare to dream about you anymore
At dinner parties
I won’t call you out on your contrarian shit
And the coastal town
We never found will never
See a love as pure as it
’Cause it fades into the gray of my day-old tea
’Cause it will never be
Gleaming
Twinkling
Eyes like sinking ships
On waters so inviting
I almost jump in
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’tis the damn season
If I wanted to know
Who you were hanging with
While I was gone, I would’ve asked you
It’s the kind of cold
Fogs up windshield glass
But I felt it when I passed you
There’s an ache in you
Put there by the ache in me
But if it’s all the same to you
It’s the same to me
So we could call it even

You could call me ”babe” for the weekend
’Tis the damn season, write this down
I’m staying at my parents’ house
And the road not taken looks real good now
And it always leads to you and my hometown
I parked my car
Right between the Methodist and the school that used to be ours
The holidays linger like bad perfume
You can run but only so far
I escaped it too
Remember how you watched me leave
But if it’s okay with you
It’s okay with me
We could call it even

Time flies
Messy as the mud on your truck tires
Now I’m missing your smile, hear me out
We could just ride around
Sleep in half the day

Just for old times’ sake
I won’t ask you to wait
If you don’t ask me to stay
So I’ll go back to LA
And the so-called friends who’ll write books about me if I ever make it
And wonder about the only soul who can tell which smiles I’m faking
And the heart I know I’m breaking is my own
To leave the warmest bed I’ve ever known

Even though I’m leaving
And I’ll be yours for the weekend
’Tis the damn season

Time flies
Messy as the mud on your truck tires
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Now I’m missing your smile, hear me out
We could just ride around
It always leads to you and my hometown
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tolerate it
I sit and watch you reading with your head low
I wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed
I sit and watch you, I notice everything you do or don’t do
You’re so much older and wiser and I
I wait by the door like I’m just a kid

Use my best colors for your portrait
Lay the table with the fancy shit
And watch you tolerate it
If it’s all in my head tell me now
Tell me I’ve got it wrong somehow
I know my love should be celebrated
But you tolerate it
I greet you with a battle hero’s welcome

I take your indiscretions all in good fun
I sit and listen, I polish plates until they gleam and glisten
You’re so much older and wiser and I
I wait by the door like I’m just a kid

Use my best colors for your portrait
Lay the table with the fancy shit
And watch you tolerate it
But you tolerate it
While you were out building other worlds, where was I?

Where’s that man who’d throw blankets over my barbed wire?
I made you my temple, my mural, my sky
Now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life
Drawing hearts in the byline
Always taking up too much space or time
You assume I’m fine
But what would you do if I
Break free and leave us in ruins

Took this dagger in me and removed it
Gain the weight of you then lose it
Believe me, I could do it
But you tolerate it
I sit and watch you
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no body, no crime (feat. HAIM)
[HAIM:]
He did it
He did it
[Taylor Swift:]
Este’s a friend of mine
We meet up every Tuesday night for dinner and a glass of wine
Este’s been losing sleep
Her husband’s acting different and it smells like infidelity
She says, ”That ain’t my Merlot on his mouth
That ain’t my jewelry on our joint account”
No, there ain’t no doubt
I think I’m gonna call him out
She says
[Taylor Swift and HAIM:]

I think he did it but I just can’t prove it
No, no body, no crime
But I ain’t letting up until the day I die
[HAIM:]
No, no
I think he did it
No, no
He did it
[Taylor Swift:]
Este wasn’t there
Tuesday night at Olive Garden at her job or anywhere
He reports his missing wife
And I noticed when I passed his house his truck has got some brand new tires
And his mistress moved in
Sleeps in Este’s bed and everything
No, there ain’t no doubt
Somebody’s gotta catch him out
’Cause

I think he did it but I just can’t prove it (He did it)
I think he did it but I just can’t prove it (He did it)
But I ain’t letting up until the day I die
No, no
I think he did it
No, no
He did it
Good thing my daddy made me get a boating license when I was 15

And I’ve cleaned enough houses to know how to cover up a scene
Good thing Este’s sister’s gonna swear she was with me (”She was with me dude”)
Good thing his mistress took out a big life insurance policy
[Taylor Swift:]
They think she did it but they just can’t prove it
They think she did it but they just can’t prove it
She thinks I did it but she just can’t prove it
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I wasn’t letting up until the day he
Died
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happiness
Honey, when I’m above the trees
I see this for what it is
But now I’m right down in it, all the years I’ve given
Is just shit we’re dividin’ up
Showed you all of my hiding spots
I was dancing when the music stopped
And in the disbelief, I can’t face reinvention
I haven’t met the new me yet
There’ll be happiness after you

But there was happiness because of you
Both of these things can be true
There is happiness
Past the blood and bruise

Past the curses and cries
Beyond the terror in the nightfall
Haunted by the look in my eyes
That would’ve loved you for a lifetime
Leave it all behind
And there is happiness
Tell me, when did your winning smile

Begin to look like a smirk?
When did all our lessons start to look like weapons
Pointed at my deepest hurt?
I hope she’ll be a beautiful fool
Who takes my spot next to you
No, I didn’t mean that
Sorry, I can’t see facts through all of my fury
You haven’t met the new me yet
There’ll be happiness after me

But there was happiness because of me
Both of these things, I believe
There is happiness
In our history, across our great divide

There is a glorious sunrise
Dappled with the flickers of light
From the dress I wore at midnight, leave it all behind
I can’t make it go away by making you a villain

I guess it’s the price I paid for seven years in Heaven
And I pulled your body into mine
Every goddamn night, now I get fake niceties
No one teaches you what to do
When a good man hurts you
And you know you hurt him, too
Honey, when I’m above the trees

I see it for what it is
But now my eyes leak acid rain on the pillow where you used to lay your head
After giving you the best I had
Tell me what to give after that
All you want from me now is the green light of forgiveness
You haven’t met the new me yet
And I think she’ll give you that
There’ll be happiness after you
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But there was happiness because of you, too
Both of these things can be true
There is happiness
In our history, across our great divide

There is a glorious sunrise
Dappled with the flickers of light
From the dress I wore at midnight, leave it all behind
Oh, leave it all behind
Leave it all behind
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dorothea
Hey Dorothea
Do you ever stop and think about me?
When we were younger
Down in the park
Honey, making a lark of the misery
You got shiny friends since you left town
A tiny screen’s the only place I see you now
And I got nothing but well wishes for ya
Oooh
This place is the same as it ever was
Oooh
But you won’t like it that way
It’s never too late

To come back to my side
The stars in your eyes
Shined brighter in Tupelo
And if you’re ever tired of being known
For who you know
You know that you’ll always know me
Dorothea
Dorothea
Ooh, you’re a queen

Selling dreams
Selling make-up and magazines
Ooh, from you I’d buy anything
Hey Dorothea
Do you ever stop and think about me?
When it was calmer
Skipping the prom
Just to piss off your mom
And her pageant schemes
And damn, Dorothea
They all wanna be ya
But are you still the same soul
I met under the bleachers? Well
Oooh
I guess I’ll never know
Oooh
And you’ll go on with the show
But it’s never too late

To come back to my side
The stars in your eyes
Shined brighter in Tupelo
And if you’re ever tired of being known
For who you know
You know you’ll always know me
Dorothea
Dorothea
Oooh
Oooh
Ooh-woo-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Oooh
Oooh
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Ooh-woo-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
Dorothea
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coney island (feat. The National)
[Taylor Swift:]
Break my soul in two
Looking for you but you’re right here
If I can’t relate to you anymore
Then who am I related to?
And if this is the long haul
How’d we get here so soon?
Did I close my fist around something delicate?
Did I shatter you?
And I’m sitting on a bench in Coney Island wondering where did my baby go?
The fast times, the bright lights, the merry go
Sorry for not making you my centerfold
Over and over

Lost again with no surprises
Disappointments, close your eyes
And it gets colder and colder
When the sun goes down
[Matt Berninger and Taylor Swift:]

The question pounds my head
”What’s a lifetime of achievement?”
If I pushed you to the edge
But you were too polite to leave me
And do you miss the rogue
Who coaxed you into paradise and left you there?
Will you forgive my soul
When you’re too wise to trust me and too old to care?
’Cause we were like the mall before the Internet
It was the one place to be
The mischief, the gift wrapped suburban dreams
Sorry for not winning you an arcade ring
Over and over

Were you waiting at our old spot

In the tree line by the gold clock
Did I leave you hanging every single day?
Were you standing in the hallway
With a big cake, happy birthday
Did I paint your bluest skies the darkest gray?
A universe away
And when I got into the accident
The sight that flashed before me was your face
But when I walked up to the podium
I think that I forgot to say your name
I’m on a bench in Coney Island wondering where did my baby go?

The fast times, the bright lights, the merry go
Sorry for not making you my centerfold
Over and over

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The sight that flashed before me was your face

But I think that I forgot to say your name
Over and over
Sorry for not making you my
Making you my
Making you my centerfold
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ivy
How’s one to know?
I’d meet you where the spirit meets the bones
In a faith-forgotten land
In from the snow
Your touch brought forth an incandescent glow
Tarnished but so grand
And the old widow goes to the stone every day

But I don’t, I just sit here and wait
Grieving for the living
Oh, goddamn
My pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand
Taking mine, but it’s been promised to another
Oh, I can’t
Stop you putting roots in my dreamland
My house of stone, your ivy grows
And now I’m covered in you
I wish to know
The fatal flaw that makes you long to be
Magnificently cursed
He’s in the room
Your opal eyes are all I wish to see
He wants what’s only yours
Oh, goddamn
Oh, I can’t
And now I’m covered
Clover blooms in the fields

Spring breaks loose, the time is near
What would he do if he found us out?
Crescent moon, coast is clear
Spring breaks loose, but so does fear
He’s gonna burn this house to the ground
How’s one to know?

I’d live and die for moments that we stole
On begged and borrowed time
So tell me to run
Or dare to sit and watch what we’ll become
And drink my husband’s wine
Oh, goddamn
Oh, I can’t
And now I’m covered in you
And I’m covered in you
So yeah, it’s a fire

It’s a goddamn blaze in the dark
And you started it
You started it
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So yeah, it’s a war
It’s the goddamn fight of my life
And you started it
You started it
Oh, I can’t
And now I’m covered
In you
In you
Now I’m covered in you
In you
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cowboy like me
And the tennis court was covered up
With some tent-like thing
And you asked me to dance
But I said, ”Dancin’ is a dangerous game.”
Oh, I thought
This is gonna be one of those things
Now I know
I’m never gonna love again
I’ve got some tricks up my sleeve

Takes one to know one
You’re a cowboy like me
Never wanted love

Just a fancy car
Now I’m waiting by the phone
Like I’m sitting in an airport bar
You had some tricks up your sleeve

Perched in the dark

Telling all the rich folks anything they wanna hear
Like it could be love
I could be the way forward
Only if they pay for it
You’re a bandit like me
Eyes full of stars
Hustling for the good life
Never thought I’d meet you here
It could be love
We could be the way forward
And I know I’ll pay for it
Perched in the dark

Telling all the rich folks anything they wanna hear
Like it could be love
I could be the way forward
Only if they pay for it
You’re a bandit like me
Eyes full of stars
Hustling for the good life
Never thought I’d meet you here
It could be love
We could be the way forward
And I know I’ll pay for it
And the skeletons in both our closets

Plotted hard to fuck this up
And the old men that I’ve swindled
Really did believe I was the one
And the ladies lunching have their stories about
When you passed through town
But that was all before I locked it down
Now you hang from my lips

Like the Gardens of Babylon
With your boots beneath my bed
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Forever is the sweetest con
I’ve had some tricks up my sleeve

And I’m never gonna love again
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long story short
Fatefully
I tried to pick my battles
’Til the battle picked me
Misery
Like the war of words I shouted in my sleep
And you passed right by
I was in the alley surrounded on all sides
The knife cuts both ways
If the shoe fits, walk in it
’Til your high heels break
And I fell from the pedestal

Right down the rabbit hole
Long story short, it was a bad time
Pushed from the precipice
Clung to the nearest lips
Long story short, it was the wrong guy
Now I’m all about you
I’m all about you
I’m all about you
Actually
I always felt I must look better in the rear view
Missing me
At the golden gates they once held the keys to
When I dropped my sword
I threw it in the bushes and knocked on your door
And we live in peace
But if someone comes at us
This time I’m ready
’Cause I fell from the pedestal

Clung to the nearest lips
Long story short, it was the wrong guy
I’m all about you
I’m all about you
No more keepin’ score

Now I just keep you warm (Keep you warm)
No more tug of war
Now I just know there’s more (Know there’s more)
No more keepin’ score
Now I just keep you warm (Keep you warm)
And my waves meet your shore
Ever and evermore
Past me
I wanna tell you not to get lost in these petty things
Your nemeses will defeat themselves
Before you get the chance to swing
And he’s passing by
Rare as the glimmer of a comet in the sky
And he feels like home
If the shoe fits, walk in it
Everywhere you go
And I fell from the pedestal
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Climbed right back up the cliff
Long story short, I survived
(And now) I’m all about you, ah
(And now) I’m all about you
(And now) I’m all about you, ah
Yeah, yeah
I’m all about you
(And now) Yeah, yeah
I’m all about you

Long story short, I survived
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marjorie
Never be so kind, you forget to be clever
Never be so clever, you forget to be kind
And if I didn’t know better

I’d think you were talking to me now
If I didn’t know better
I’d think you were still around
What died didn’t stay dead
You’re alive, you’re alive in my head
You’re alive, so alive
Never be so polite, you forget your power

Never wield such power, you forget to be polite

I’d think you were listening to me now
The autumn chill that wakes me up

You loved the amber skies so much
Long limbs and frozen swims
You’d always go past where our feet could touch
And I complained the whole way there
The car ride back and up the stairs
I should’ve asked you questions
I should’ve asked you how to be
Asked you to write it down for me
Should’ve kept every grocery store receipt
’Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me
Watched as you signed your name Marjorie
All your closets of backlogged dreams
And how you left them all to me

I’d think you were singing to me now
I know better
But I still feel you all around
I know better
But you’re still around
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closure
It’s been a long time
And seeing the shape of your name
Still spells out pain
It wasn’t right
The way it all went down
Looks like you know that now
Yes, I got your letter

Yes, I’m doing better
It cut deep to know ya
Right to the bone
I know that it’s over
I don’t need your ”closure”
Your ”closure”
Don’t treat me like some situation that needs to be handled

I’m fine with my spite
And my tears
And my beers and my candles
I can feel you smoothing me over

Right to the bone
Your ”closure”
Your ”closure”
Your ”closure”
I know I’m just a

Wrinkle in your new life
Staying ”friends”
Would iron it out so nice
Guilty, guilty reaching out across the sea
That you put between you and me
But it’s fake
And it’s oh so unnecessary

Right to the bone
”Closure”
Your ”closure”
Your ”closure”
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evermore (feat. Bon Iver)
[Taylor Swift:]
Gray November
I’ve been down since July
Motion capture
Put me in a bad light
I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone

Trying to find the one where I went wrong
Writing letters
Addressed to the fire
And I was catching my breath

Staring out an open window
Catching my death
And I couldn’t be sure
I had a feeling so peculiar
That this pain would be for
Evermore
Hey December
Guess I’m feeling unmoored
Can’t remember
What I used to fight for
I rewind the tape but all it does is pause

On the very moment all was lost
Sending signals
To be double-crossed
[Taylor Swift and Justin Vernon:]

Barefoot in the wildest winter
Catching my death
That this pain would be for
Evermore
(Evermore)
[Justin Vernon:]
Can’t not think of all the cost
And the things that will be lost
Oh, can we just get a pause?
To be certain we’ll be tall again
Whether weather be the frost
Or the violence of the dog days
I’m on waves, out being tossed
Is there a line that I could just go cross?
[Taylor Swift and Justin Vernon:]

And when I was shipwrecked (Can’t think of all the cost)
I thought of you (All the things that will be lost now)
In the cracks of light (Can we just get a pause?)
I dreamed of you (To be certain we’ll be tall again)
(If you think of all the costs)
It was real enough (Whether weather be the frost)
To get me through (Or the violence of the dog days)
(Or the violence of the dog days)
(Out on waves, being tossed)
(I’m on waves, out being tossed)
I swear (Is there a line that we could just go cross?)
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You were there

Floors of a cabin creaking under my step
This pain wouldn’t be for
Evermore
Evermore
Evermore
This pain wouldn’t be for evermore
Evermore
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right where you left me
Friends break up, friends get married
Strangers get born, strangers get buried
Trends change, rumors fly through new skies
But I’m right where you left me
Matches burn after the other
Pages turn and stick to each other
Wages earned and lessons learned
But I’m right where you left me
Help, I’m still at the restaurant

Still sitting in a corner I haunt
Cross-legged in the dim light
They say, ”What a sad sight,” I
I swear you could hear a hair pin drop
Right when I felt the moment stop
Glass shattered on the white cloth
Everybody moved on, I, I stayed there
Dust collected on my pinned-up hair
They expected me to find somewhere
Some perspective, but I sat and stared
Right where you left me
You left me no, you left me no

You left me no choice but to stay here forever
You left me, you left me no, you left me no
Did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen?
Time went on for everybody else, she won’t know it
She’s still twenty-three inside her fantasy
How it was supposed to be
Did you hear about the girl who lives in delusion?
Breakups happen every day, you don’t have to lose it
She’s still twenty-three inside her fantasy
And you’re sitting in front of me
At the restaurant when I was still the one you want

Everything was just right, I
I could feel the mascara run
You told me that you met someone
Glass shattered on the white cloth
Everybody moved on
Help, I’m still at the restaurant

Still sitting in a corner I haunt
They say, ”What a sad sight,” I
I stayed there
Dust collected on my pinned-up hair
I’m sure that you got a wife out there
Kids and Christmas, but I’m unaware
’Cause I’m right where
I cause no harm
Mind my business
If our love died young
I can’t bear witness
And it’s been so long
But if you ever think you got it wrong
I’m right where
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You left me
You left me
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it’s time to go
When the dinner is cold and the chatter gets old
You ask for the tab
Or that moment again he’s insisting that friends
Look at each other like that
When the words of a sister come back in whispers
That prove she was not
In fact what she seemed, not a twin from your dreams
She’s a crook who was caught
That old familiar body ache

The snaps from the same little breaks in your soul
You know when it’s time to go
Twenty years at your job

Then the son of the boss gets the spot that was yours
Or trying to stay for the kids
When keeping it how it is will only break their hearts worse

The snaps from the same little breaks in your soul
You know when it’s time to go
Sometimes giving up is the strong thing

Sometimes to run is the brave thing
Sometimes walking out is the one thing
That will find you the right thing
Fifteen years, fifteen million tears

Begging ’til my knees bled
I gave it my all, he gave me nothing at all
Then wondered why I left
Now he sits on his throne in his palace of bones
Praying to his greed
He’s got my past frozen behind glass
But I’ve got me

The snaps from the same little breaks in my soul
I know when it’s time to go

And you know in your soul
You know in your soul
When it’s time to go
You know, you know, you know, you know
When it’s time to go
So then you go
Then you go
You just go
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Midnights
Lavender Haze
Meet me at midnight
Ooh ooh ooh whoa
Staring at the ceiling with you

Oh, you don’t ever say too much
And you don’t really read into
My melancholia
I’ve been under scrutiny (Yeah, oh yeah)
You handle it beautifully (Yeah, oh yeah)
All this shit is new to me (Yeah, oh yeah)
I feel the lavender haze creeping up on me

Surreal
I’m damned if I do give a damn what people say
No deal
The 1950s’ shit they want from me
I just wanna stay in that lavender haze
Ooh ooh ooh whoa
All they keep asking me

(All they keep asking me)
Is if I’m gonna be your bride
The only kinda girl they see
(Only kinda girl they see)
Is a one-night or a wife
I find it dizzying (Yeah, oh yeah)
They’re bringing up my history (Yeah, oh yeah)
But you weren’t even listening (Yeah, oh yeah)
I feel the lavender haze creeping up on me

Surreal
No deal
That lavender haze
Talk your talk and go viral

I just need this love spiral
Get it off your chest
Get it off my desk
(Get it off my desk)
Talk your talk and go viral

I just need this love spiral
Get it off my desk
I feel (I feel) the lavender haze creeping up on me

Surreal
No deal (No deal)
Ooh ooh ooh whoa

Get it off my desk
That lavender haze
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I just wanna stay
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Maroon
When the morning came, we
Were cleaning incense off your
Vinyl shelf ’cause we lost track of time again
Laughing with my feet in your lap
Like you were my closest friend
”How’d we end up on the floor anyway?”
You say
”Your roommate’s cheap-ass screw top rosé
That’s how”
I see you every day now
And I chose you

The one I was dancing with in New York
No shoes
Looked up at the sky and it was
The burgundy on my t-shirt when you splashed your wine into me
And how the blood rushed into my cheeks, so scarlet, it was
The mark they saw on my collarbone
The rust that grew between telephones
The lips I used to call home
So scarlet, it was maroon
When the silence came, we

Were shaking blind and hazy
How the hell did we lose sight of us again?
Sobbing with your head in your hands
Ain’t that the way shit always ends
You were standing hollow-eyed in the hallway
Carnations you had thought were roses
That’s us
I feel you, no matter what
The rubies that I gave up
And I lost you

The one I was dancing with in New York
No shoes
Looked up at the sky and it was maroon
And how the blood rushed into my cheeks, so scarlet, it was
And I wake with your memory over me

That’s a real fuckin’ legacy, legacy
(It was maroon)
And I wake with your memory over me
That’s a real fuckin’ legacy to leave

And how the blood rushed into my cheeks, so scarlet
It was maroon
It was maroon
It was maroon
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Anti-Hero
I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser
Midnights become my afternoons
When my depression works the graveyard shift, all of the people
I’ve ghosted stand there in the room
I should not be left to my own devices

They come with prices and vices
I end up in crisis
(Tale as old as time)
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I’ll watch as you’re leaving
’Cause you got tired of my scheming
(For the last time)
It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me

At teatime, everybody agrees
I’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero
Sometimes, I feel like everybody is a sexy baby

And I’m a monster on the hill
Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city
Pierced through the heart, but never killed
Did you hear my covert narcissism

I disguise as altruism
Like some kind of congressman?
(A tale as old as time)
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I’ll watch as you’re leaving
And life will lose all its meaning
(For the last time)
It’s me, hi, I’m the problem, it’s me (I’m the problem, it’s me)
At teatime, everybody agrees
I have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money

She thinks I left them in the will
The family gathers ’round and reads it and then someone screams out
”She’s laughing up at us from Hell”
It’s me, hi
I’m the problem, it’s me
It’s me, hi
I’m the problem, it’s me
It’s me, hi
Everybody agrees, everybody agrees
It’s me, hi (Hi), I’m the problem, it’s me (I’m the problem, it’s me)
At teatime (Teatime), everybody agrees (Everybody agrees)
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Snow On The Beach (feat. Lana Del Rey)
One night a few moons ago
I saw flecks of what could’ve been lights
But it might just have been you
Passing by unbeknownst to me
Life is emotionally abusive
And time can’t stop me quite like you did
And my flight was awful, thanks for asking
I’m unglued, thanks to you
And it’s like snow at the beach

Weird, but fuckin’ beautiful
Flying in a dream
Stars by the pocketful
You wanting me tonight, feels impossible
But it’s comin’ down, no sound, it’s all around
Like snow on the beach

Like snow, oh
This scene feels like what I once saw on a screen

I searched ’aurora borealis green’
I’ve never seen someone lit from within
Blurring out my periphery
My smile is like I won a contest
And to hide that would be so dishonest
And it’s fine to fake it till you make it
Till you do
Till it’s true
Now it’s like snow at the beach

Flying in a dream

Like snow, oh
I can’t speak, afraid to jinx it

I don’t even dare to wish it
But your eyes are flying saucers from another planet
Now I’m all for you like Janet
Can this be a real thing, can it?
Are we falling like

Snow at the beach
Flying in a dream
Like snow
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(It’s coming down, it’s coming down, it’s coming down, it’s coming down)
(Down, it’s coming down, it’s coming down, it’s coming down)
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You’re On Your Own, Kid
Summer went away
Still the yearning stays
I play it cool with the best of them
I wait patiently
He’s gonna notice me
It’s okay, we’re the best of friends
Anyway
I hear it in your voice

You’re smoking with your boys
I touch my phone as if it’s your face
I didn’t choose this town
I dream of getting out
There’s just one who could make me stay
All my days
From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes

I waited ages to see you there
I search the party of better bodies
Just to learn that you never cared
You’re on your own, kid
You always have been
I see the great escape

So long, Daisy May
I picked the petals, he loves me not
Something different bloomed
Writing in my room
I play my songs in the parking lot
I’ll run away

I called a taxi to take me there
I search the party of better bodies
Just to learn that my dreams aren’t rare

I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this
I hosted parties and starved my body
Like I’d be saved by a perfect kiss
The jokes weren’t funny, I took the money
My friends from home don’t know what to say
I looked around in a blood-soaked gown
And I saw something they can’t take away
’Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned
Everything you lose is a step you take
So make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it
You’ve got no reason to be afraid

Yeah, you can face this
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Midnight Rain
He wanted it comfortable
I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride
I was making my own name
Chasing that fame
He stayed the same
All of me changed
Like midnight
My town was a wasteland

Full of cages, full of fences
Pageant queens and big pretenders
But for some it was paradise
My boy was a montage
A slow motion, love potion
Jumping off things in the ocean
I broke his heart ’cause he was nice
He was sunshine
I was midnight rain
I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride
Chasing that fame
He stayed the same
All of me changed
Like midnight
It came like a postcard

Picture perfect shiny family
Holiday peppermint candy
But for him it’s every day
So I peered through a window
A deep portal, time travel
All the love we unravel
And the life I gave away
’Cause he was sunshine

I was midnight rain
I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride
Chasing that fame
He stayed the same
All of me changed
Like midnight
Rain
I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride
Chasing that fame
He stayed the same
All of me changed
Like midnight
I guess sometimes we all get

Just what we wanted, just what we wanted
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And he never thinks of me
Except when I’m on TV
I guess sometimes we all get
Some kind of haunted, some kind of haunted
And I never think of him
Except on midnights like this
Midnights like this
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Question...
(I remember)
Good girl, sad boy

Big city, wrong choices
We had one thing going on
I swear that it was something
’Cause I don’t remember who I was before you
Painted all my nights
A color I have searched for since
But one thing after another
Fuckin’ situations, circumstances
Miscommunications and I
Have to say
By the way
I just may like some explanations
Can I ask you a question?

Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room
And every single one of your friends was making fun of you
But fifteen seconds later they were clapping too?
Then what did you do?
Did you leave her house in the middle of the night? Oh
Did you wish you’d put up more of a fight, oh
When she said it was too much?
Do you wish you could still touch her?
It’s just a question
Half-moon eyes, bad surprise

Did you realize out of time?
She was on your mind
With some dickhead guy
That you saw that night
But you were on something
It was one drink after another
Fuckin’ politics and gender roles
And you’re not sure and I don’t know
Got swept away in the gray
I just may like to have a conversation
Can I ask you a question?

Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room
And every single one of your friends was making fun of you
Does it feel like everything’s just like second best after that meteor strike?
And what’s that that I heard, that you’re still with her?
That’s nice, I’m sure that’s what’s suitable
And right
But tonight
Can I ask you a question? (Can I ask you a question?)

Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room? (In a crowded room)
And every single one of your friends was making fun of you (You, making fun of you)
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Vigilante Shit
Draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man
You did some bad things, but I’m the worst of them
Sometimes I wonder which one will be your last lie
They say looks can kill and I might try
I don’t dress for women
I don’t dress for men
Lately I’ve been dressing for revenge
I don’t start shit, but I can tell you how it ends

Don’t get sad, get even
So on the weekends
I don’t dress for friends
She needed cold hard proof so I gave her some

She had the envelope, where you think she got it from?
Now she gets the house, gets the kids, gets the pride
Picture me thick as thieves with your ex-wife
And she looks so pretty
Driving in your Benz
Lately she’s been dressing for revenge
She don’t start shit, but she can tell you how it ends
So on the weekends
She don’t dress for friends
Lately she’s been dressing for revenge
Ladies always rise above

Ladies know what people want
Someone sweet and kind and fun
The lady simply had enough
While he was doing lines
And crossing all of mine
Someone told his white collar crimes to the FBI
And I don’t dress for villains
Or for innocents
I’m on my vigilante shit again
I don’t start shit, but I can tell you how it ends

So on the weekends
I don’t dress for friends
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Bejeweled
Baby love, I think I’ve been a little too kind
Didn’t notice you walking all over my peace of mind
In the shoes I gave you as a present
Putting someone first only works when you’re in their top five
And by the way
I’m going out tonight
Best believe I’m still bejeweled

When I walk in the room
I can still make the whole place shimmer
And when I meet the band
They ask, ”Do you have a man?”
I could still say, ”I don’t remember”
Familiarity breeds contempt
Don’t put me in the basement
When I want the penthouse of your heart
Diamonds in my eyes
I polish up real
I polish up real nice
Nice
Baby boy, I think I’ve been too good of a girl

Too good of a girl
Did all the extra credit then got graded on a curve
I think it’s time to teach some lessons
I made you my world
Have you heard?
I can reclaim the land
And I miss you
But I miss sparkling
(Nice) Best believe I’m still bejeweled

Diamonds in my eyes
I polish up real
Nice
Sapphire tears on my face

Sadness became my whole sky
But some guy said my aura’s moonstone
Just ’cause he was high
And we’re dancing all night
And you can try
To change my mind
But you might have to wait in line
What’s a girl gonna do?
A diamond’s gotta shine

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Diamonds in my eyes
I polish up real (Nice)
And we’re dancing all night

And you can try
To change my mind
But you might have to wait in line
I polish up nice
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Labyrinth
It only hurts this much right now
Was what I was thinking the whole time
Breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out
I’ll be getting over you my whole life
You know how scared I am of elevators
Never trust it if it rises fast
It can’t last
Uh oh, I’m falling in love

Oh no, I’m falling in love again
Oh, I’m falling in love
I thought the plane was going down
How’d you turn it right around?
It only feels this raw right now

Lost in the labyrinth of my mind
Break up, break free, break through, break down
You would break your back to make me break a smile
You know how much I hate
That everybody just expects me to bounce back
Just like that


Uh oh, I’m falling in love (falling in love)

Oh no, I’m falling in love again (falling in love again)
Oh, I’m falling in love (falling in love)
Uh oh, I’m falling in love (falling in love)

Oh no, I’m falling in love again (falling in love again)
Oh, I’m falling in love (falling in love)
(You know how much I hate it)

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Karma
You’re talking shit for the hell of it
Addicted to betrayal, but you’re relevant
You’re terrified to look down
’Cause if you dare, you’ll see the glare
Of everyone you burned just to get there
It’s coming back around
And I keep my side of the street clean

You wouldn’t know what I mean
’Cause karma is my boyfriend

Karma is a god
Karma is the breeze in my hair on the weekend
Karma’s a relaxing thought
Aren’t you envious that for you it’s not?
Sweet like honey, karma is a cat
Purring in my lap ’cause it loves me
Flexing like a goddamn acrobat
Me and karma vibe like that
Spiderboy, king of thieves

Weave your little webs of opacity
My pennies made your crown
Trick me once, trick me twice
Don’t you know that cash ain’t the only price?
It’s coming back around
And I keep my side of the street clean

You wouldn’t know what I mean
’Cause karma is my boyfriend

Karma is a god
Karma is the breeze in my hair on the weekend
Ask me what I learned from all those years

Ask me what I earned from all those tears
Ask me why so many fade, but I’m still here
(I’m still here, I’m still here)
’Cause karma is the thunder

Rattling your ground
Karma’s on your scent like a bounty hunter
Karma’s gonna track you down
Step by step, from town to town
Sweet like justice, karma is a queen
Karma takes all my friends to the summit
Karma is the guy on the screen
Coming straight home to me
’Cause karma is my boyfriend (Karma is my boyfriend)

Karma is a god
Karma is the breeze in my hair on the weekend (Weekend)
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Karma is my boyfriend
Karma is a god (Ah)
Uh-huh, mm
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Sweet Nothing
I spy with my little tired eye
Tiny as a firefly
A pebble that we picked up last July
Down deep inside your pocket
We almost forgot it
Does it ever miss Wicklow sometimes?
Ooh
Ooh
They said the end is coming

Everyone’s up to something
I find myself running home to your
Sweet nothings
Outside, they’re push and shoving

You’re in the kitchen humming
All that you ever wanted from me was
Sweet nothing
On the way home

I wrote a poem
You say, ”What a mind”
This happens all the time
Ooh
Ooh
’Cause they said the end is coming

Sweet nothings
Outside they’re push and shoving

Nothing
Industry disrupters and soul deconstructors

And smooth-talking hucksters
Out glad-handing each other
And the voices that implore
”You should be doing more”
To you I can admit
That I’m just too soft for all of it
Ooh
They said the end is coming

Sweet nothings
Outside, they’re push and shoving

Sweet nothing
They said the end is coming (They said the end is coming)
Everyone’s up to something (Everyone’s up to something)
Sweet nothings
Outside, they’re push and shoving (Outside, they’re push and shoving)
You’re in the kitchen humming (You’re in the kitchen humming)
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Sweet nothing
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Mastermind
Once upon a time, the planets and the fates and all the stars aligned
You and I ended up in the same room at the same time
And the touch of a hand lit the fuse
Of a chain reaction of countermoves
To assess the equation of you
Checkmate, I couldn’t lose
What if I told you none of it was accidental

And the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me
I laid the groundwork and then just like clockwork
The dominoes cascaded in a line
What if I told you I’m a mastermind?
And now you’re mine
It was all by design
’Cause I’m a mastermind
You see all the wisest women had to do it this way

’Cause we were born to be the pawn in every lover’s game
If you fail to plan, you plan to fail
Strategy sets the scene for the tale
I’m the wind in our free-flowing sails
And the liquor in our cocktails
What if I told you none of it was accidental

And the first night that you saw me, I knew I wanted your body
I laid the groundwork and then just like clockwork
The dominoes cascaded in a line
What if I told you I’m a mastermind?
It was all my design
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid

So I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless
This is the first time I’ve felt the need to confess
And I swear
I’m only cryptic and Machiavellian ’cause I care
So I told you none of it was accidental

And the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me
I laid the groundwork and then saw a wide smirk
On your face, you knew the entire time
You knew that I’m a mastermind
Yeah, all you did was smile
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The Great War
My knuckles were bruised like violets
Sucker punching walls
Cursed you as I sleep talked
Spineless in my tomb of silence
Tore your banners down
Took the battle underground
And maybe it was egos swinging
Maybe it was her
Flashes of the battle come back to me in a blur
All that bloodshed, crimson clover

Uh-huh, sweet dream was over
My hand was the one you reached for
All throughout the Great War
Always remember, uh-huh
Tears on the letter, I vowed
Not to cry anymore
If we survived the Great War
You drew up some good faith treaties

I drew curtains closed
Drank my poison all alone
You said I have to trust more freely
But diesel is desire
You were playing with fire
And maybe it’s the past that’s talking
Screaming from the crypt
Telling me to punish you for things you never did
So I justified it
All that bloodshed, crimson clover

Uh-huh, the bombs were closer
The burning embers, I vowed
Not to fight anymore
If we survived the Great War
Uh-huh, uh-huh
It turned into something bigger

Somewhere in the haze
Got a sense I’d been betrayed
Your finger on my hairpin triggers
Soldier down on that icy ground
Looked up at me with honor and truth
Broken and blue
So I called off the troops
That was the night I nearly lost you
I really thought I’d lost you
We can plant a memory garden

Say a solemn prayer
Place a poppy in my hair
There’s no morning glory
It was war, it wasn’t fair
And we will never go back to that
Bloodshed, crimson clover

Uh-huh, the worst was over
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We’re burned for better, I vowed
I would always be yours
’Cause we survived the Great War
Uh-huh, uh-huh
I will always be yours
’Cause we survived the Great War
Uh-huh
I vowed I will always be yours
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Bigger Than The Whole Sky
No words appear before me in the aftermath
Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears
Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness
’Cause it’s all over now, all out to sea
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky
You were more than just a short time
And I’ve got a lot to pine about
I’ve got a lot to live without
I’m never gonna meet
What could’ve been, would’ve been
What should’ve been you
What could’ve been, would’ve been you
Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia?

Did some force take you because I didn’t pray?
Every single thing to come has turned into ashes
’Cause it’s all over, it’s not meant to be
So I’ll say words I don’t believe


(What could’ve been, would’ve been you)

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Paris
”Your ex-friend’s sister
Met someone at a club and he kissed her
Turns out, it was that guy you hooked up with ages ago
Some wannabe Z-lister
And all the outfits were terrible
2003 unbearable
Did you see the photos?”
No, I didn’t, but thanks, though
I’m so in love that I might stop breathing

Drew a map on your bedroom ceiling
No, I didn’t see the news
’Cause we were somewhere else
Stumbled down pretend alleyways
Cheap wine, make believe it’s champagne
I was taken by the view
Like we were in Paris

Like we were somewhere else
Like we were in Paris, oh
We were somewhere else
Privacy sign on the door

And on my page and on the whole world
Romance is not dead if you keep it just yours
Levitate above all the messes made
Sit quiet by my side in the shade
And not the kind that’s thrown
I mean, the kind under where a tree has grown
I’m so in love that I might stop breathing

Drew a map on your bedroom ceiling
Stumbled down pretend alleyways
Cheap wine, make believe it’s champagne
I was taken by the view

Like we were somewhere else
We were somewhere else
I wanna brainwash you

Into loving me forever
I wanna transport you
To somewhere the culture’s clever
Confess my truth
In swooping, sloping, cursive letters
Let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight
In my mind
We drew a map on your bedroom ceiling

In an alleyway, drinking champagne
’Cause we were in Paris

Yes, we were somewhere else
My love, we were in Paris
Yes, we were somewhere else
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High Infidelity
Lock broken
Slur spoken
Wound open
Game token
I didn’t know you were keeping count
Rain soaking
Blind hoping
You said I was freeloading
High infidelity
Put on your records and regret me
I bent the truth too far tonight
I was dancing around, dancing around it
High infidelity
Put on your headphones and burn my city
Your picket fence is sharp as knives
Do you really want to know where I was April 29th?

Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?
Storm coming
Good husband
Bad omen
Dragged my feet right down the aisle
At the house lonely
Good money
I’d pay, if you’d just know me
Seemed like the right thing at the time
You know there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love
The slowest way is never loving them enough
Do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?
High infidelity
Put on your records and regret me
High infidelity

Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?
You know there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love
The slowest way is never loving them enough
High infidelity
Put on your records and regret meeting me
High infidelity
Oh, there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love
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And it’s never enough, it’s never enough
Lock broken
Slur spoken
Wound open
Game token
Rain soaking
Blind hoping
You said I was freeloading
But, oh, you were keeping count
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Glitch
We were supposed to be just friends
You don’t live in my part of town but maybe I’ll see you out some weekend
Depending on what kind of mood and situation-ship I’m in
And what’s in my system
I think there’s been a glitch, ah-yeah

Five seconds later I’m fastening myself to you with a stitch, ah-yeah
And I’m not even sorry
Nights are so starry
Blood moonlit
It must be counterfeit
I was supposed to sweat you out

In search of glorious happenings of happenstance on someone else’s playground
But it’s been 2,190 days of our love blackout
(Our love is blacking out)
The system’s breaking down
(The system’s breaking down)

Blood moonlit
A brief interruption
A slight malfunction
I’d go back to wanting
Dudes who give nothing
I thought we had no chance
And that’s romance
Let’s dance
Glitch, ah-yeah
Blood moonlit
I think there’s been a glitch
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Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve
If you would’ve blinked, then I would’ve
Looked away at the first glance
If you tasted poison you could’ve
Spit me out at the first chance
If I was some paint, did it splatter
On a promising grown man?
And if I was a child, did it matter
If you got to wash your hands?
Oh, all I used to do was pray
Would’ve, could’ve, should’ve
If you’d never looked my way
I would’ve stayed on my knees

And I damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil
At nineteen, and the god’s honest truth is that the pain was heaven
And now that I’m grown, I’m scared of ghosts
Memories feel like weapons
And now that I know
I wish you’d left me wondering
If you never touched me I would’ve

Gone along with the righteous
If I never blushed then they could’ve
Never whispered about this
And if you never saved me from boredom
I could’ve gone on as I was
But, lord, you made me feel important
And then you tried to erase us
Oh, you’re a crisis of my faith
Would’ve, could’ve, should’ve
If I’d only played it safe
I would’ve stayed on my knees

And now that I know
God rest my soul

I miss who I used to be
The tomb won’t close
Stained glass windows in my mind
I regret you all the time
I can’t let this go
I fight with you in my sleep
The wound won’t close
I keep on waiting for a sign
If clarity’s in death, then why won’t this die?

Years of tearing down our banners, you and I
Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first

And now that I know
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God rest my soul

Oh, god rest my soul

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Dear Reader
Dear reader, if it feels like a trap
You’re already in one
Dear reader, get out your map
Pick somewhere and just run
Dear reader, burn all the files
Desert all your past lives
And if you don’t recognize yourself
That means you did it right
Never take advice from someone who’s falling apart

Never take advice from someone who’s falling apart (You should find another)
Dear reader, bend when you can

Snap when you have to
Dear reader, you don’t have to answer
Just ’cause they asked you
(You should find another)
Dear reader, the greatest of luxuries is your secrets
Dear reader, when you aim at the devil
Make sure you don’t miss

So I wander through these nights

I prefer hiding in plain sight
My fourth drink in my hand
These desperate prayers of a cursed man
Spilling out to you for free
But darling, darling, please
You wouldn’t take my word for it if you knew who was talking
If you knew where I was walking
To a house, not a home, all alone ’cause nobody’s there
Where I pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care
No one sees when you lose when you’re playing solitaire
You should find another guiding light, guiding light

But I shine so bright
You should find another guiding light, guiding light
But I shine so bright
You should find another, you should find another (Guiding light)
Find another, you should find another
You should find another
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Hits Different
I washed my hands of us at the club
You made a mess of me
I pictured you with other girls in love
Then threw up on the street
Like waiting for a bus that never shows
You just start walkin’ on
They say that if it’s right, you know
Each bar plays our song
Nothing has ever felt so wrong
Oh, my, love is a lie

Shit my friends say to get me by
It hits different
It hits different this time
Catastrophic blues
Movin’ on was always easy for me to do
It hits different
It hits different ’cause it’s you
(’Cause it’s you)
I used to switch out these Kens, I’d just ghost

Rip the band-aid off and skip town like an asshole outlaw
Freedom felt like summer then on the coast
Now the sun burns my heart and the sand hurts my feelings
And I never don’t cry (And I never don’t cry) at the bar
Yeah, my sadness is contagious (My sadness is contagious)
I slur your name ’til someone puts me in a car
I stopped receiving invitations

It hits different
Catastrophic blues
It hits different
(’Cause it’s you)
I find the artifacts, cried over a hat

Cursed the space that I needed
I trace the evidence, make it make some sense
Why the wound is still bleedin’
You were the one that I loved
Don’t need another metaphor, it’s simple enough
A wrinkle in time like the crease by your eyes
This is why they shouldn’t kill off the main guy
Dreams of your hair and your stare and sense of belief
In the good in the world, you once believed in me
And I felt you and I held you for a while
Bet I could still melt your world
Argumentative, antithetical dream girl
I heard your key turn in the door down the hallway

Is that your key in the door?
Is it okay? Is it you?
Or have they come to take me away?
To take me away
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It hits different (It hits different)
Catastrophic blues
It hits different (It hits different)

’Cause it’s you
Catastrophic blues
It hits different (Yeah)
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Snow On The Beach (feat. Lana Del Rey)
One night a few moons ago
I saw flecks of what could’ve been lights
But it might just have been you
Passing by unbeknownst to me
Life is emotionally abusive
And time can’t stop me quite like you did
And my flight was awful, thanks for asking
I’m unglued, thanks to you
And it’s like snow at the beach

Flying in a dream

Like snow, oh
This scene feels like what I once saw on a screen

I searched ’aurora borealis green’
I’ve never seen someone lit from within
Blurring out my periphery
My smile is like I won a contest
And to hide that would be so dishonest
And it’s fine to fake it till you make it
Till you do
Till it’s true
Now it’s like snow at the beach

Flying in a dream

Like snow, oh
I can’t speak, afraid to jinx it

I don’t even dare to wish it
But your eyes are flying saucers from another planet
Now I’m all for you like Janet
Can this be a real thing, can it?
Are we falling like

Snow at the beach
Flying in a dream
Like snow
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(Down, it’s coming down, it’s coming down, it’s coming down)
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You’re Losing Me (From The Vault)
You say, ”I don’t understand,” and I say, ”I know you don’t”
We thought a cure would come through in time, now, I fear it won’t
Remember lookin’ at this room? We loved it ’cause of the light
Now, I just sit in the dark and wonder if it’s time
Do I throw out everything we built or keep it?

I’m getting tired even for a phoenix
Always risin’ from the ashes
Mendin’ all her gashes
You might just have dealt the final blow
Stop, you’re losin’ me

I can’t find a pulse
My heart won’t start anymore for you
’Cause you’re losin’ me
Every mornin’, I glared at you with storms in my eyes

How can you say that you love someone you can’t tell is dyin’?
I sent you signals and bit my nails down to the quick
My face was gray, but you wouldn’t admit that we were sick
And the air is thick with loss and indecision

I know my pain is such an imposition
Now, you’re runnin’ down the hallway
And you know what they all say
”Don’t know what you got until it’s gone”

My heart won’t start anymore for you
Stop (Stop) ’cause you’re losin’ me
My heart won’t start anymore

(Stop ’cause you’re losin’ me)
(Stop ’cause you’re losin’ me)
How long could we be a sad song

’Til we were too far gone to bring back to life?
I gave you all my best me’s, my endless empathy
And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier
Fighting in only your army, frontlines, don’t you ignore me
I’m the best thing at this party (You’re losin’ me)
And I wouldn’t marry me either
A pathological people pleaser
Who only wanted you to see her
And I’m fadin’, thinkin’
”Do something, babe, say something” (Say something)
”Lose something, babe, risk something” (You’re losin’ me)
”Choose something, babe, I got nothing” (I got nothing)
”To believe, unless you’re choosin’ me”
You’re losin’ me
Stop (Stop, stop), you’re losin’ me
Stop (Stop, stop), you’re losin’ me
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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT
Fortnight (feat. Post Malone)
I was supposed to be sent away, but they forgot to come and get me
I was a functioning alcoholic till nobody noticed my new aesthetic
All of this to say, I hope you’re okay, but you’re the reason
And no one here’s to blame, but what about your quiet treason?
And for a fortnight there, we were forever

Run into you sometimes, ask about the weather
Now you’re in my backyard, turned into good neighbors
Your wife waters flowers
I wanna kill her
All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February

I took the miracle move-on drug, the effects were temporary
And I love you, it’s ruining my life

I love you, it’s ruining my life
I touched you for only a fortnight
I touched you
But I touched you
And for a fortnight there, we were forever

Run into you sometimes, ask about the weather
Now you’re in my backyard, turned into good neighbors
Your wife waters flowers
I wanna kill her
And for a fortnight there, we were together

Run into you sometimes, comment on my sweater
Now you’re at the mailbox, turned into good neighbors
My husband is cheating
I wanna kill him

I touched you
I touched you

I touched you
I touched you
Thought of calling ya, but you won’t pick up

Another fortnight lost in America
Move to Florida, buy the car you want
But it won’t start up till you touch, touch, touch me
Thought of calling ya, but you won’t pick up

Another fortnight lost in America
Move to Florida, buy the car you want
But it won’t start up till I touch, touch, touch you
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The Tortured Poets Department
You left your typewriter at my apartment
Straight from the Tortured Poets Department
I think some things I never say
Like, ”Who uses typewriters anyway?” But
You’re in self-sabotage mode, throwing spikes down on the road
But I’ve seen this episode and still loved the show
Who else decodes you?
And who’s gonna hold you like me?

And who’s gonna know you, if not me?
I laughed in your face and said
”You’re not Dylan Thomas
I’m not Patti Smith
This ain’t the Chelsea Hotel
We’re modern idiots”
And who’s gonna hold you like me?
Nobody
No-fucking-body
Nobody
You smoked then ate seven bars of chocolate

We declared Charlie Puth should be a bigger artist
I scratch your head, you fall asleep
Like a tattooed golden retriever
But you awaken with dread, pounding nails in your head
But I’ve read this one where you come undone
I chose this cyclone with you
And who’s gonna hold you like me? (Who’s gonna hold you? Who’s gonna hold you?)
And who’s gonna know you like me? (Who’s gonna know you?)
I laughed in your face and said
”You’re not Dylan Thomas
We’re modern idiots”
And who’s gonna hold you like me? (Who’s gonna hold you? Who’s gonna hold you?)
No-fucking-body (Who’s gonna hold you? Who’s gonna hold you?)
Nobody (Who’s gonna hold you? Gonna love you? Gonna troll you?)
Nobody
Sometimes I wonder if you’re gonna screw this up with me

But you told Lucy you’d kill yourself if I ever leave
And I had said that to Jack about you, so I felt seen
Everyone we know understands why it’s meant to be
’Cause we’re crazy
So tell me
Who else is gonna know me?
At dinner, you take my ring off my middle finger and put it on the one
People put wedding rings on, and that’s the closest I’ve come
To my heart exploding
Who’s gonna hold you?

Me
Who’s gonna know you?
Me
”And you’re not Dylan Thomas
We’re two idiots”
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Who’s gonna hold you? (Who’s gonna hold you?)
Who’s gonna hold you? (Who’s gonna hold you?)
Who’s gonna hold you? Gonna know you? Gonna troll you?
You left your typewriter at my apartment

Straight from the Tortured Poets Department
Who else decodes you?
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My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys
Oh, here we go again
The voices in his head
Called the rain to end our days of wild
The sickest army doll
Purchased at the mall
Rivulets descend my plastic smile
But you should’ve seen him

When he first got me
My boy only breaks his favorite toys, toys, oh

I’m queen of sand castles he destroys, oh, oh
’Cause it fit too right
Puzzle pieces in the dead of night
I should’ve known it was a matter of time
Oh, oh, my boy only breaks his favorite toys, oh, oh-oh-oh
There was a litany of reasons why

We could’ve played for keeps this time
I know I’m just repeating myself
Put me back on my shelf
But first, pull the string
And I’ll tell you that he runs
Because he loves me (He loves me)
’Cause you should’ve seen him

When he first saw me
My boy only breaks his favorite toys, toys, oh

I’m queen of sand castles he destroys, oh, oh
’Cause I knew too much
There was danger in the heat of my touch
He saw forever so he smashed it up
Oh, oh, my boy only breaks his favorite toys, oh, oh-oh-oh
Once I fix me, he’s gonna miss me

Once I fix me, he’s gonna miss me
Just say when, I’d play again

He was my best friend
Down at the sandlot
I felt more when we played pretend
Than with all the Kens
’Cause he took me out of my box
Stole my tortured heart
Left all these broken parts
Told me I’m better off
But I’m not
I’m not
I’m not
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Down Bad
Did you really beam me up?
In a cloud of sparkling dust
Just to do experiments on
Tell me I was the chosen one
Show me that this world is bigger than us
Then sent me back where I came from
For a moment, I knew cosmic love
Now I’m down bad, crying at the gym

Everything comes out teenage petulance
”Fuck it if I can’t have him”
”I might just die, it would make no difference”
Down bad, waking up in blood
Staring at the sky, come back and pick me up
Fuck it if I can’t have us
I might just not get up
I might stay down bad
Fuck it if I can’t have him

Down bad
Did you take all my old clothes?

Just to leave me here naked and alone
In a field in my same old town
That somehow seems so hollow now
They’ll say I’m nuts if I talk about the existence of you
For a moment, I was heaven struck
Now I’m down bad, crying at the gym (Crying at the gym)
”Fuck it if I can’t have him” (Fuck it if I can’t have him)
Down bad, waking up in blood (Waking up in blood)
Like I lost my twin

Fuck it if I can’t have him (Down bad)
Down bad
Waving at the ship
I loved your hostile takeovers

Encounters closer and closer
All your indecent exposures
How dare you say that it’s-
I’ll build you a fort on some planet
Where they can all understand it
How dare you think it’s romantic
Leaving me safe and stranded
’Cause fuck it, I was in love
So fuck you if I can’t have us
’Cause fuck it, I was in love
Now I’m down bad, crying at the gym (Crying at the gym)
”Fuck it if I can’t have him” (Can’t have him)
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Down bad, waking up in blood (Waking up in blood)
Like I lost my twin

Fuck it if I can’t have him (Down bad)
Down bad
Waving at the ship
Like I lost my twin

Down bad
Waving at the ship
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So Long, London
So long, London (So long, London)
I saw in my mind fairy lights through the mist

I kept calm and carried the weight of the rift
Pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away
My spine split from carrying us up the hill
Wet through my clothes, weary bones caught the chill
I stopped trying to make him laugh, stopped trying to drill the safe
Thinking how much sad did you think I had
Did you think I had in me?
Oh, the tragedy
So long, London
You’ll find someone
I didn’t opt in to be your odd man out

I founded the club she’s heard great things about
I left all I knew, you left me at the house by the Heath
I stopped CPR, after all, it’s no use
The spirit was gone, we would never come to
And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free
For so long, London

Stitches undone
Two graves, one gun
I’ll find someone
And you say I abandoned the ship

But I was going down with it
My white-knuckle dying grip
Holding tight to your quiet resentment
And my friends said it isn’t right to be scared
Every day of a love affair
Every breath feels like rarest air
When you’re not sure if he wants to be there
So how much sad did you think I had
Did you think I had in me?
How much tragedy?
Just how low did you think I’d go
Before I’d self-implode?
Before I’d have to go be free?
You swore that you loved me, but where were the clues?
I died on the altar waiting for the proof
You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days
And I’m just getting color back into my face
I’m just mad as hell ’cause I loved this place
For so long, London (So long, London)

Had a good run (Had a good run)
A moment of warm sun (Moment of warm sun)
But I’m not the one (I’m not the one)

Stitches undone (Stitches undone)
Two graves, one gun (Two graves, one gun)
You’ll find someone (You’ll find)
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But Daddy I Love Him
I forget how the West was won
I forget if this was ever fun
I just learned these people only raise you to cage you
Sarahs and Hannahs in their Sunday best
Clutching their pearls, sighing, ”What a mess”
I just learned these people try and save you
’Cause they hate you
Too high a horse

For a simple girl to rise above it
They slammed the door on my whole world
The one thing I wanted
Now I’m running with my dress unbuttoned

Screaming, ”But Daddy, I love him!
I’m having his baby”
No, I’m not, but you should see your faces
I’m telling him to floor it through the fences
No, I’m not coming to my senses
I know he’s crazy but he’s the one I want
Dutiful daughter, all my plans were laid

Tendrils tucked into a woven braid
Growing up precocious sometimes means not growing up at all
He was chaos, he was revelry
Bedroom eyes like a remedy
Soon enough the elders had convened
Down at the city hall
”Stay away from her”

The saboteurs protested too much
Lord knows the words we never heard
Just screeching tires and true love
And I’m running with my dress unbuttoned

No, I’m not, but you should see your faces
I’m telling him to floor it through the fences
No, I’m not coming to my senses
I know he’s crazy but he’s the one I want
I’ll tell you something right now

I’d rather burn my whole life down
Than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning
I’ll tell you something about my good name
It’s mine alone to disgrace
I don’t cater to all these vipers dressed in empath’s clothing
God save the most judgmental creeps

Who say they want what’s best for me
Sanctimoniously performing soliloquies I’ll never see
Thinking it can change the beat
Of my heart when he touches me
And counteract the chemistry
And undo the destiny
You ain’t gotta pray for me
Me and my wild boy and all this wild joy
If all you want is gray for me
Then it’s just white noise
And it’s just my choice
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There’s a lot of people in town that I
Bestow upon my fakest smiles
Scandal does funny things to pride
But brings lovers closer
We came back when the heat died down
Went to my parents and they came around
All the wine moms are still holding out
But fuck ’em, it’s over
Now I’m dancing in my dress in the sun, and

Even my daddy just loves him
I’m his lady
And oh my God, you should see your faces
Time, doesn’t it give some perspective?
And no, you can’t come to the wedding
I know he’s crazy, but he’s the one I want
I’ll tell you something right now, you ain’t gotta pray for me
Me and my wild boy and all of this wild joy
If all you want is gray for me
Then it’s just white noise, and it’s my choice

No, I’m not, but you
Should see your faces
But oh my God, you should see your faces
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Fresh Out The Slammer
Now, pretty baby, I’m runnin’ back home to you
Fresh out the slammer, I know who my first call will be to
Fresh out the slammer, oh
Another summer, takin’ cover

Rollin’ thunder, he don’t understand me
Splintered back in winter, silent dinners, bitter
He was with her in dreams
Gray and blue and fights and tunnels
Handcuffed to the spell I was under
For just one hour of sunshine
Years of labor, locks and ceilings
In the shade of how he was feelin’
But it’s gonna be alright, I did my time
Now, pretty baby, I’m runnin’ back home to you

Fresh out the slammer, I know who my first call will be to
Fresh out the slammer, oh
Camera flashes, welcome bashes

Get the matches, toss the ashes off the ledge
As I said in my letters, now that I know better
I will never lose my baby again
My friends tried but I wouldn’t hear it
Watched me daily disappearing
For just one glimpse of his smile
All those nights you kept me going
Swirled you into all of my poems
Now we’re at the starting line, I did my time
Now, pretty baby, I’m runnin’

To the house where you still wait up and that porch light gleams
To the one who says I’m the girl of his American Dreams
And no matter what I’ve done, it wouldn’t matter anyway
Ain’t no way I’m gonna screw up, now that I know what’s at stake
Here
At the park where we used to sit on children’s swings
Wearing imaginary rings
But it’s gonna be alright, I did my time
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Florida!!! (feat. Florence + the Machine)
You can beat the heat
If you beat the charges too
They said I was a cheat
I guess it must be true
And my friends all smell like weed or little babies
And this city reeks of driving myself crazy
Little did you know, your home’s really only a town you’re just a guest in
So you work your life away just to pay for a timeshare down in Destin
Florida!
Is one hell of a drug
Florida!
Can I use you up?
And the hurricane with my name, when it came

I got drunk and I dared it to wash me away
Barricaded in the bathroom with a bottle of wine
Well, me and my ghosts, we had a hell of a time
Yes, I’m haunted, but I’m feeling just fine
All my girls got their lace and their crimes
And your cheating husband disappeared, well
No one asks any questions here
So I did my best to lay to rest
All of the bodies that have ever been on my body
And in my mind, they sink into the swamp
Is that a bad thing to say in a song?
Little did you know, your home’s really only the town you’ll get arrested
So you pack your life away just to wait out the shitstorm back in Texas
Florida!
Florida!
Can I use you up?
I need to forget, so take me to Florida

I’ve got some regrets, I’ll bury them in Florida
Tell me I’m despicable, say it’s unforgivable
At least the dolls are beautiful, fuck me up, Florida!
I need to forget, so take me to Florida

I’ve got some regrets, I’ll bury them in Florida
Tell me I’m despicable, say it’s unforgivable
What a crash, what a rush, fuck me up, Florida!
It’s one hell of a drug

It’s one hell of a drug
Love left me like this
And I don’t want to exist
So take me to Florida
Little did you know, your home’s really only a town you’re just a guest in
So you work your life away just to pay for a timeshare down in Destin (Take me to Florida)
Little did you know, your home’s really only the town you’ll get arrested (Take me to Florida)
So you pack your life away just to wait out the shitstorm back in Texas (Take me to)
Florida!
(Take me to) Florida!
Can I use you up?
Florida!
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Florida!
Go on, fuck me up
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Guilty As Sin?
Drowning in the Blue Nile
He sent me ”Downtown Lights”
I hadn’t heard it in a while
My boredom’s bone-deep
This cage was once just fine
Am I allowed to cry?
I dream of cracking locks

Throwing my life to the wolves or the ocean rocks
Crashing into him tonight, he’s a paradox
I’m seeing visions, am I bad?
Or mad? Or wise?
What if he’s written ”mine” on my upper thigh only in my mind?

One slip and falling back into the hedge maze
Oh, what a way to die
I keep recalling things we never did
Messy top lip kiss, how I long for our trysts
Without ever touching his skin
How can I be guilty as sin?
I keep these longings locked

In lowercase, inside a vault
Someone told me there’s no such thing as bad thoughts
Only your actions talk
These fatal fantasies giving way to labored breath

Taking all of me, we’ve already done it in my head
If it’s make-believe
Why does it feel like a vow we’ll both uphold somehow?

My bedsheets are ablaze, I’ve screamed his name
Building up like waves crashing over my grave
What if I roll the stone away?

They’re gonna crucify me anyway
What if the way you hold me is actually what’s holy?
If long-suffering propriety is what they want from me
They don’t know how you’ve haunted me so stunningly
I choose you and me religiously

I keep recalling things we never did
Messy top lip kiss, how I long for our trysts
He sent me ”Downtown Lights”

I hadn’t heard it in a while
Am I allowed to cry?
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Who’s Afraid Of Little Old Me?
The ”Who’s Who” of ”Who’s That?”
Is poised for the attack
But my bare hands paved their paths
You don’t get to tell me about ”sad”
If you wanted me dead

You should’ve just said
Nothing makes me feel more alive
So I leap from the gallows, and I levitate down your street

Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream
”Who’s afraid of little old me?”
You should be
The scandal was contained

The bullet had just grazed
At all costs, keep your good name
You don’t get to tell me you feel bad
Is it a wonder I broke? Let’s hear one more joke

Then we could all just laugh until I cry

I was tame, I was gentle till the circus life made me mean
Don’t you worry, folks, we took out all her teeth
Who’s afraid of little old me?
Well, you should be, you should be, you should be (You should be, you should be)
You should be, you should be, you should be (You should be, you should be)
So tell me everything is not about me

But what if it is?
Then say they didn’t do it to hurt me
But what if they did?
I want to snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me
You wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me
So all you kids can sneak into my house, with all the cobwebs
I’m always drunk on my own tears, isn’t that what they all said?
That I’ll sue you if you step on my lawn

That I’m fearsome, and I’m wretched, and I’m wrong
Put narcotics into all of my songs
And that’s why you’re still singing along

I was tame, I was gentle till the circus life made me mean
Don’t you worry, folks, we took out all her teeth
Well, you should be, you should be, you should be (You should be, you should be)
’Cause you lured me, and you hurt me, and you taught me (You should be, you should be)
You caged me, and then you called me crazy
I am what I am ’cause you trained me
So who’s afraid of me?
So who’s afraid of little old me?
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I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)
The smoke cloud billows out his mouth
Like a freight train through a small town
The jokes that he told across the bar
Were revolting and far too loud
They shake their heads, saying, ”God help her” when I

Tell ’em he’s my man
But your good Lord doesn’t need to lift a finger
I can fix him, no really I can
And only I can
The dopamine races through his brain

On a six-lane Texas highway
His hand, so calloused from his pistol
Softly traces hearts on my face
And I could see it from a mile away
A perfect case for my certain skillset
He had a halo of the highest grade
He just hadn’t met me yet
They shake their heads, saying, ”God help her” when I

Tell ’em he’s my man
But your good Lord doesn’t need to lift a finger
I can fix him, no really I can
And only I can
Good boy, that’s right

Come close, I’ll show you heaven
If you’ll be an angel all night
Trust me, I can handle me a dangerous man
No really I can
They shook their heads, saying, ”God help her” when I

Told ’em he’s my man (I told ’em he’s my man)
But your good Lord didn’t need to lift a finger
I can fix him, no really I can (No really I can)
Whoa, maybe I can’t
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The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived
Was any of it true?
Gazing at me starry-eyed
In your Jehovah’s Witness suit
Who the fuck was that guy?
You tried to buy some pills
From a friend of friends of mine
They just ghosted you
Now you know what it feels like
And I don’t even want you back, I just want to know

If rusting my sparkling summer was the goal
And I don’t miss what we had, but could someone give
A message to the smallest man who ever lived?
You hung me on your wall

Stabbed me with your push pins
In public, showed me off
Then sank in stoned oblivion
’Cause once your queen had come
You’d treat her like an also-ran
You didn’t measure up
In any measure of a man
And I don’t even want you back, I just want to know

If rusting my sparkling summer was the goal
And I don’t miss what we had, but could someone give
A message to the smallest man who ever lived?
Were you sent by someone

Who wanted me dead?
Did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed?
Were you writing a book?
Were you a sleeper cell spy?
In fifty years will all this be declassified?
And you’ll confess why you did it
And I’ll say, ”Good riddance”
’Cause it wasn’t sexy once it wasn’t forbidden
I would’ve died for your sins
Instead I just died inside
And you deserve prison, but you won’t get time
You’ll slide into inboxes and slip through the bars
You crashed my party and your rental car
You said normal girls were ”boring”
But you were gone by the morning
You kicked out the stage lights, but you’re still performing
And in plain sight you hid
But you are what you did
And I’ll forget you, but I’ll never forgive
The smallest man who ever lived
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The Alchemy
This happens once every few lifetimes
These chemicals hit me like white wine
What if I told you I’m back?

The hospital was a drag
Worst sleep that I ever had
I circled you on a map
I haven’t come around in so long
But I’m coming back so strong
So when I
Touch down, call the amateurs and cut ’em from the team
Ditch the clowns, get the crown, baby, I’m the one to beat
’Cause the sign on your heart said it’s still reserved for me
Honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy?
Hey, you
What if I told you we’re cool?
That child’s play back in school is forgiven under my rule
I haven’t come around in so long
But I’m making a comeback to where I belong
So when I
These blokes warm the benches, we been on a winning streak

He jokes that it’s heroin but this time with an ”E”
Shirts off, and your friends lift you up over their heads
Beer sticking to the floor, cheers chanted ’cause they said
There was no chance, tryna be the greatest in the league
Where’s the trophy?
He just comes running over to me
These blokes warm the benches, we been on a winning streak

He jokes that it’s heroin but this time with an ”E”
This happens once every few lifetimes

These chemicals hit me like white wine
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Clara Bow
”You look like Clara Bow
In this light, remarkable
All your life, did you know
You’d be picked like a rose?”
”I’m not trying to exaggerate

But I think I might die if it happened
Die if it happened to me
No one in my small town
Thought I’d see the lights of Manhattan”
”This town is fake, but you’re the real thing

Breath of fresh air through smoke rings
Take the glory, give everything
Promise to be dazzling”
”You look like Stevie Nicks

In ’75, the hair and lips
Crowd goes wild at her fingertips
Half moonshine, a full eclipse”
”I’m not trying to exaggerate

But I think I might die if I made it
Die if I made it
No one in my small town
Thought I’d meet these suits in L.A.
They all wanna say”
”This town is fake, but you’re the real thing

Breath of fresh air through smoke rings
Take the glory, give everything
”The crown is stained, but you’re the real queen

Flesh and blood amongst war machines
You’re the new God we’re worshipping
Beauty is a beast that roars

Down on all fours
Demanding, ”More”
Only when your girlish glow
Flickers just so
Do they let you know?
It’s hell on earth to be heavenly
Them’s the breaks, they don’t come gently
”You look like Taylor Swift

In this light, we’re loving it
You’ve got edge she never did
The future’s bright, dazzling”
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The Black Dog
I am someone who, until recent events
You shared your secrets with
And your location
You forgot to turn it off
And so I watch as you walk
Into some bar called The Black Dog
And pierce new holes in my heart
You forgot to turn it off
And it hits me
I just don’t understand
How you don’t miss me

In The Black Dog
When someone plays ’The Starting Line’ and you jump up
But she’s too young to know this song
That was intertwined in the magic fabric of our dreaming
Old habits die screaming
I move through the world with the heartbroken

My longings stay unspoken
And I may never open up the way I did for you
And all of those best laid plans
You said I needed a brave man
Then proceeded to play him
Until I believed it too
And it kills me
I just don’t understand
How you don’t miss me

In the shower
And remember
How my rain-soaked body was shaking
Do you hate me?
Was it hazing?
For a cruel fraternity I pledged
And I still mean it
Old habits die screaming
Six weeks of breathing clean air

I still miss the smoke
Were you making fun of me with some esoteric joke?
Now I want to sell my house and set fire to all my clothes
And hire a priest to come and exorcise my demons
Even if I die screaming
And I hope you hear it
And I hope it’s shitty

In The Black Dog
When someone plays The Starting Line and you jump up
But she’s too young to know this song
That was intertwined in the tragic fabric of our dreaming
’Cause tail between your legs you’re leaving
And I still can’t believe it
’Cause old habits die screaming
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Lilac short skirt
The one that fits me like skin
Did your research
You knew the price goin’ in
And I’ll tell you one thing, honey

I can tell when somebody still wants me, come clean
Standing at the bar like something’s funny, bubbly
Once you fix your face, I’m goin’ in
Whether I’m gonna be your wife or

Gonna smash up your bike, I
Haven’t decided yet
But I’m gonna get you back
Whether I’m gonna curse you out or

Take you back to my house, I
I hear the whispers in your eyes

I’ll make you wanna think twice
You’ll find that you were never not mine
You’re mine
Small talk, big love

Act like I don’t care what you did
I’m an Aston Martin
That you steered straight into the ditch
Then ran and hid
And I’ll tell you one thing, honey

I can take the upper hand and touch your body
Flip the script and leave you like a dumb house party
Or I might just love you ’til the end

Whether I’m gonna flip you off or

Pull you into the closet
I haven’t decided yet

I’ll make you wanna think twice, you’ll find
That you were never not mine
You’re mine
I can feel it comin’, hummin’ in the way you move

Push the reset button, we’re becoming something new
Say you got somebody, I’ll say, ”I got someone too”
Even if it’s handcuffed, I’m leaving here with you
Bygones will be bygone eras fadin’ into gray

We broke all the pieces but still want to play the game
Told my friends, ”I hate you but I love you just the same”
Pick your poison, babe
I’m poison either way
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Whether I’m gonna curse you out or

Take you back to my house, I

I’ll make you wanna think twice
You’ll find that you were never not mine
I’m gonna get you back
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The Albatross
Wise men once said
”Wild winds are death to the candle”
A rose by any other name is a scandal
Cautions issued, he stood
Shooting the messengers
They tried to warn him about her
Cross your thoughtless heart

Only liquor anoints you
She’s the albatross
She is here to destroy you
Wise men once said

”One bad seed kills the garden”
”One less temptress
One less dagger to sharpen”
Locked me up in towers
But I’d visit in your dreams
And they tried to warn you about me
Cross your thoughtless heart

Only liquor anoints you
Devils that you know
Raise worse hell than a stranger
She’s the death you chose
You’re in terrible danger
And when that sky rains fire on you

And you’re persona non grata
I’ll tell you how I’ve been there too
And that none of it matters
Wise men once read fake news

And they believed it
Jackals raised their hackles
You couldn’t conceive it
You were sleeping soundly when they dragged you from your bed
And I tried to warn you about them
So I crossed my thoughtless heart

Spread my wings like a parachute
I’m the albatross
I swept in at the rescue
The devil that you know
Looks now more like an angel
I’m the life you chose
And all this terrible danger
So cross your thoughtless heart

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Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus
Your hologram stumbled into my apartment
Hands in the hair of somebody in darkness
Named Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus
And I just watched it happen
As the decade would play us for fools
And you saw my bones out with somebody new
Who seemed like he would’ve bullied you in school
And you just watched it happen
If you want to break my cold, cold heart

Just say, ”I loved you the way that you were”
If you want to tear my world apart
Just say you’ve always wondered
You said some things that I can’t unabsorb

You turned me into an idea of sorts
You needed me, but you needed drugs more
And I couldn’t watch it happen
I changed into goddesses, villains, and fools
Changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules
All to outrun my desertion of you
And you just watched it
If you want to break my cold, cold heart

Just say, ”I loved you the way that you were”
If you want to tear my world apart
Just say you’ve always wondered
If the glint in my eye traced the depths of your sigh

Down that passage in time
Back to the moment I crashed into you
Like so many wrecks do
Too impaired by my youth
To know what to do
So if I sell my apartment
And you have some kids with an internet starlet
Will that make your memory fade from this scarlet maroon?
Like it never happened
Could it be enough to just float in your orbit?
Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses?
Cooler in theory, but not if you force it
To be, it just didn’t happen
So if you want to break my cold, cold heart

Say you loved me
And if you want to tear my world apart
Say you’ll always wonder
’Cause I wonder
Will I always
Will I always wonder?
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How Did It End?
We hereby conduct this post mortem
He was a hothouse flower to my outdoorsman
Our maladies were such we could not cure them
And so a touch that was my birthright became foreign
Come one, come all

It’s happening again
The empathetic hunger descends
We’ll tell no one except all of our friends
We must know
How did it end?
We were blind to unforeseen circumstances

We learned the right steps to different dances
And fell victim to interlopers’ glances
Lost the game of chance, what are the chances?
Soon they’ll go home to their husbands
Smug ’cause they know they can trust him
Then feverishly calling their cousins
Guess who we ran into at the shops

Walking in circles like she was lost
Didn’t you hear they called it all off
One gasp, and then
How did it end?
Say it once again with feeling

How the death rattle breathing
Silenced as the soul was leaving
The deflation of our dreaming
Leaving me bereft and reeling
My beloved ghost and me
Sitting in a tree
D-Y-I-N-G

How did it end?
I can’t pretend like I understand
How did it end?
Come one, come all

The empathetic hunger descends
We’ll tell no one except all of our friends
But I still don’t know
How did it end?
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So High School
I feel so high school
Every time I look at you
I want to find you in a crowd
Just to hide from you
And in the blink of a crinklin’ eye

I’m sinkin’, our fingers entwined
Cheeks pink in the twinklin’ lights
Tell me ’bout the first time you saw me
I’ll drink what you think and I’m high
From smokin’ your jokes all damn night
The brink of a wrinkle in time
Bittersweet sixteen suddenly
I’m watchin’ American Pie with you on a Saturday night
Your friends are around, so be quiet
I’m tryin’ to stifle my sighs
’Cause I feel so high school
But look at you
Are you gonna marry, kiss, or kill me?

Kill me
It’s just a game, but really
Really
I’m bettin’ on all three for us two
All three
Get my car door, isn’t that sweet
That sweet
Then pull me to the backseat
Backseat
No one’s ever had me, not like you
Had me
Truth, dare, spin bottles

You know how to ball, I know Aristotle
Brand new, full throttle
Touch me while your bros play Grand Theft Auto
It’s true, swear, scouts honor
You knew what you wanted, and, boy, you got her
You already know, babe
I feel like laughin’

In the middle of practice
Do that impression you did of your dad again
I’m hearin’ voices, like a madman
And in the blink of a crinklin’ eye

I’m sinkin’, our fingers entwined
Cheeks pink in the twinklin’ lights
Tell me ’bout the first time you saw me
I’ll drink what you think and I’m high
From smokin’ your jokes all damn night
The brink of a wrinkle in time
Bittersweet sixteen suddenly
I’m watching American Pie with you on a Saturday night
Your friends are around, so be quiet
I’m tryin’ to stifle my sighs
’Cause I feel so high school
But look at you
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Truth, dare, spin bottles
You know how to ball, I know Aristotle
Touch me while your bros play Grand Theft Auto
It’s true, swear, scouts honor
You knew what you wanted, and, boy, you got her
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I Hate It Here
Quick, quick
Tell me something awful
Like you are a poet
Trapped inside the body of a finance guy
Tell me all your secrets
All you’ll ever be is
My eternal consolation prize
You see I was a debutant
In another life, but
Now I seem to be scared to go outside
If comfort is a construct
I don’t believe in good luck
Now that I know what’s what
I hate it here so I will go to

Secret gardens in my mind
People need a key to get to
The only one is mine
I read about it in a book when I was a precocious child
No mid-sized city hopes and small-town fears
I’m there most of the year ’cause I hate it here
I hate it here
My friends used to play a game where

We would pick a decade
We wished we could live in instead of this
I’d say the 1830s but without all the racists and getting married off for the highest bid
Everyone would look down
’Cause it wasn’t fun now
Seems like it was never even fun back then
Nostalgia is a mind’s trick
If I’d been there, I’d hate it
It was freezing in the palace

Lunar valleys in my mind
When they found a better planet
Only the gentle survived
I dreamed about it in the dark
The night I felt like I might die
I hate it here
I’m lonely, but I’m good

I’m bitter, but I swear I’m fine
I’ll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I’ll get lost on purpose
This place made me feel worthless
Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me and in my fantasies I rise above it
And way up there, I actually love it

Secret gardens in my mind
People need a key to get to
The only one is mine
I read about it in a book when I was a precocious child
I hate it here
Quick, quick
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Tell me something awful
Like you are a poet
Trapped inside the body of a finance guy
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thanK you aIMee
When I picture my hometown
There’s a bronze, spray-tanned statue of you
And a plaque underneath it
That threatens to push me down the stairs at our school
And it was always the same searing pain
But I dreamed that one day I could say
All that time you were throwin’ punches

I was buildin’ somethin’
And I can’t forgive the way you made me feel
Screamed, ’fucK you aIMee’ to the night sky
As the blood was gushin’
But I can’t forget the way you made me heal
And it wasn’t a fair fight

Or a clean Kill
Each time that aIMee stomped across my grave
And then she wrote headlines
In the local paper laughing at each baby step I’d take
And it was always the same searing pain
But I prayed that one day I could say

I was buildin’ somethin’
And I couldn’t wait to show you it was real
Screamed ’fucK you aIMee’ to the night sky
As the blood was gushin’
But I can’t forget the way you made me heal
Everyone knows that my mother is a saintly woman
But she used to say she wished that you were dead
I pushed each boulder up the hill
Your words are still just ringin’ in my head, ringin’ in my head
I wrote a thousand songs that you find uncool

I built a legacy that you can’t undo
But when I count the scars
There’s a moment of truth
That there wouldn’t be this
If there hadn’t been you
And maybe you’ve reframed it

And in your mind you never beat my spirit black and blue
I don’t think you’ve changed much
And so I changed your name and any real defining clues
And one day
Your kid comes home singing
A song that only us two is gonna know is about you
’Cause

It was all for nothin’
And our town it looks so small from way up here
Screamed, ’thanK you aIMee” to the night sky
And the stars are stunnin’
’Cause I can’t forget the way you made me heal
Everyone knows that my mother is a saintly woman
But she used to say she wished that you were dead
So I pushed each boulder up that hill
Your words were still just ringin’ in my head, ringin’ in my head
ThanK you aIMee
ThanK you aIMee
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I Look in People’s Windows
I had died the tiniest death
I spied the catch in your breath
Out, out, out, out, out, out
Northbound I got carried away
As you boarded your train
South, south, south, south, south, south
A feather taken by the wind blowing
I’m afflicted by the not knowing so
I look in people’s windows

Transfixed by rose golden glows
They have their friends over to drink nice wine
In case you’re at their table
What if your eyes looked up and met mine
One more time
You had stopped and tilted your head

I still ponder what it meant
Now, now, now, now, now, now
I tried searching faces on streets
What are the chances you’d be
Downtown, downtown, downtown
Does it feel alright to not know me?
I’m addicted to the ”if only”
So I look in people’s windows

Like I’m some deranged weirdo
I attend Christmas parties from outside
In case you’re at their table
What if your eyes looked up and met mine
One more time
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The Prophecy
Hand on the throttle
Thought I caught lightning in a bottle
Oh, but it’s gone again
And it was written
I got cursed like Eve got bitten
Oh, was it punishment?
Pad around when I get home
I guess a lesser woman would’ve lost hope
A greater woman wouldn’t beg
But I looked to the sky and said
Please
I’ve been on my knees
Change the prophecy
Don’t want money
Just someone who wants my company
Let it once be me
Who do I have to speak to
About if they can redo
The prophecy?
Cards on the table

Mine play out like fools in a fable, oh
It was sinking in
Sinking in, oh
Slow is the quicksand
Poison blood from the wound of the pricked hand
Oh, still I dream of him
Please
Change the prophecy
Don’t want money
Let it once be me
The prophecy?
And I sound like an infant

Feelin’ like the very last drops of an ink pen
A greater woman stays cool
But I howl like a wolf at the moon
And I look unstable
Gathered with a coven round a sorceress’ table
A greater woman has faith
But even statues crumble if they’re made to wait
I’m so afraid I sealed my fate
No sign of soulmates
I’m just a paperweight
In shades of greige
Spending my last coin so someone will tell me
It’ll be ok
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Please
Change the prophecy
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Don’t want money
Let it once be me
The prophecy?

To change the prophecy?
Hand on the throttle
Thought I caught lightning in a bottle, oh
But it’s gone again
Pad around when I get home
I guess a lesser woman would’ve lost hope
A greater woman wouldn’t beg
But I looked to the sky and said
Please
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Cassandra
I was in my new house placing daydreams
Patching up the crack along the wall
I pass it and lose track of what I’m saying
’Cause that’s where I was when I got the call
When the first stone’s thrown there’s screamin’

In the streets there’s a ragin’ riot
When it’s, ”Burn the bitch”, they’re shrieking
When the truth comes out it’s quiet
So they killed Cassandra first

’Cause she feared the worst
And tried to tell the town
So they filled my cell with snakes, I regret to say
Do you believe me now?
I was in my tower weaving nightmares

Twisting all my smiles into snarls
They say what doesn’t kill you makes you aware
What happens if it becomes who you are?

So they set my life in flames, I regret to say
They knew, they knew, they knew the whole time

That I was onto somethin’
The family, the pure greed, the Christian chorus line
They all said nothin’
Blood’s thick, but nothin’ like a payroll

Bet they never spared a prayer for my soul
You can mark my words that I said it first
In a mourning warning no one heard
I patched up the crack along the wall

I pass it and lose track of what I’m saying
’Cause that’s where I was when I lost it all

So they filled my cell with snakes, I regret to say
I was onto somethin’

They all said nothin’
Blood’s thick, but nothin’ like a payroll
Bet they never spared a prayer for my soul
You can mark my words that I said it first
In a mourning warning no one heard
No one heard
Not a single word was heard
When the first stone’s thrown there’s screamin’

In the streets there’s a ragin’ riot
When it’s ”Burn the bitch”, they’re shriekin’
When the truth comes out it’s quiet
It’s so quiet
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Peter
Forgive me, Peter
My lost fearless leader
In closets like cedar
Preserved from when we were just kids
Is it somethin’ I did?
The goddess of timing
Once found us beguiling
She said she was trying
Peter, was she lying?
My ribs get the feelin’ she did
And I didn’t want to come down
I thought it was just goodbye for now
You said you were gonna grow up

Then you were gonna come find me
Said you were gonna grow up
Words from the mouths of babes
Promises oceans deep
But never to keep
Oh, never to keep
Are you still a mind reader?

A natural scene stealer?
I’ve heard great things, Peter
But life was always easier on you
Than it was on me
And sometimes it gets me
When crossing your jet stream
We both did the best we could do underneath the same moon
In different galaxies
And I didn’t want to hang around
We said it was just goodbye for now

But never to keep
Never to keep
And I won’t confess that I waited

But I let the lamp burn
As the men masqueraded
I hoped you’d return
With your feet on the ground
Tell me all that you’d learned
’Cause love’s never lost when perspective is earned
And you said you’d come and get me, but you were twenty-five
And the shelf life of those fantasies has expired
Lost to the Lost Boys chapter of your life
Forgive me, Peter, please know that I tried
To hold onto the days when you were mine (Hold onto the days)
But the woman who sits by the window has turned out the light
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But never to keep
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The Bolter
By all accounts, she almost drowned
When she was six in frigid water
And I can confirm she made
A curious child, ever reviled
By everyone except her own father
With a quite bewitching face
Splendidly selfish, charmingly helpless
Excellent fun till you get to know her
Then she runs like it’s a race
Behind her back, her best mates laughed
And they nicknamed her The Bolter
Started with a kiss

”Oh, we must stop meeting like this”
But it always ends up with a town car speeding
Out the drive one evening
Ended with the slam of a door
Then he’ll call her a whore
Wish he wouldn’t be sore
But as she was leaving
It felt like breathing
All her fuckin’ lives
Flashed before her eyes
It feels like the time
She fell through the ice
Then came out alive
He was a cad, wanted her bad

Just like any good trophy hunter
And she liked the way it tastes
Taming a bear, making him care
Watching him jump then pulling him under
And at first blush, this is fate
When it’s all roses, portrait poses
Central Park Lake in tiny rowboats
What a charming Saturday
That’s when she sees the littlest leaks
Down in the floorboards
And she just knows
She must bolt
Started with a kiss

But it always ends up with a town car speeding
Out the drive one evening
Then he’ll call her a whore
Wish he wouldn’t be sore
But as she was leaving
It felt like breathing
Then came out alive
She’s been many places with

Men of many faces
First they’re off to the races
And she’s laughing drawin’ aces
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But, none of it is changin’
That the chariot is waitin’
Hearts are hers for the breakin’
There’s escape in escaping
Started with a kiss

But it always ends with a town car speeding
Out the drive one evenin’
But she’s got the best stories
You can be sure
That as she was leaving
It felt like freedom
And she realized
Then came out alive
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Robin
Long may you reign
You’re an animal
You are bloodthirsty
Out window panes talking utter nonsense
You have no idea
Strings tied to levers

Slowed-down clocks tethered
All this showmanship
To keep it for you
In sweetness
Way to go, tiger
Higher and higher
Wilder and lighter
For you
Long may you roar

At your dinosaurs
You’re a just ruler
Covered in mud, you look ridiculous
And you have no idea
Buried down deep and out of your reach

The secret we all vowed
To keep it from you
In sweetness
Way to go, tiger
Higher and higher
Wilder and lighter
For you
You got the dragonflies above your bed

You have a favorite spot on the swing set
You have no room in your dreams for regrets
You have no idea
The time will arrive for the cruel and the mean
You’ll learn to bounce back just like your trampoline
But now we’ll curtail your curiosity
In sweetness
Way to go, tiger

Way to go, tiger
Higher and higher
Higher and higher
Wilder and lighter
For you
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The Manuscript
Now and then she re-reads the manuscript
Of the entire torrid affair
They compared their licenses
He said, ”I’m not a donor but
I’d give you my heart if you needed it”
She rolled her eyes and said, ”You’re a professional”
He said, ”No, just a Good Samaritan”
He said that if the sex was half as good as the conversation was
Soon they’d be pushing strollers
But soon it was over
In the age of him she wished she was thirty

And made coffee every morning in a French press
Afterward she only ate kids’ cereal
And couldn’t sleep unless it was in her mother’s bed
Then she dated boys who were her own age
With dartboards on the backs of their doors
She thought about how he said
Since she was so wise beyond her years
Everything had been above board
She wasn’t sure
And the years passed like scenes of a show

The professor said to write what you know
Looking backwards might be the only way
To move forward
Then the actors were hitting their marks
And the slow dance was alight with the sparks
And the tears fell in synchronicity with the score
And at last
She knew what the agony had been for
The only thing that’s left is the manuscript

One last souvenir from my trip to your shores
Now and then I re-read the manuscript
But the story isn’t mine anymore
328
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Who’s gonna stop us from waltzing back into rekindled flames
If we know the steps anyway?
We embroidered the memories of the time I was away
Stitching, ”We were just kids, babe”
I said, ”I don’t mind, it takes time”
I thought I was better safe than starry-eyed
I felt aglow like this
Never before and never since
If you know it in one glimpse, it’s legendary

You and I go from one kiss to getting married
Still alive, killing time at the cemetery
Never quite buried
In your suit and tie, in the nick of time
You lowdown boy, you standup guy, you
Holy Ghost, you told me I’m
The love of your life
You said I’m the love of your life

About a million times
Who’s gonna tell me the truth, when you blew in with the winds of fate
And told me I reformed you?
When your Impressionist paintings of Heaven turned out to be fakes
Well, you took me to hell too
And all at once, the ink bleeds
A conman sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme
But I felt a hole like this
Never before and ever since
If you know it in one glimpse, it’s legendary

What we thought was for all time was momentary
Still alive, killing time at the cemetery
Never quite buried
You cinephile in black and white
All those plot twists and dynamite
Mr. Steal Your Girl, then make her cry
You said I’m the love of your life
You shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles
I wish I could un-recall how we almost had it all
Dancing phantoms on the terrace, are they second-hand embarrassed
That I can’t get out of bed ’cause something counterfeit’s dead?
It was legendary
It was momentary
It was unnecessary, should’ve let it stay buried
Oh, what a valiant roar

What a bland goodbye
The coward claimed he was a lion
I’m combing through the braids of lies
”I’ll never leave”
”Never mind”
Our field of dreams, engulfed in fire
Your arson’s match, your somber eyes
And I’ll still see it until I die
You’re the loss of my life
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I Can Do It With A Broken Heart
I can read your mind
”She’s having the time of her life”
There in her glittering prime
The lights refract sequin stars
Off her silhouette every night
I can show you lies
’Cause I’m a real tough kid

I can handle my shit
They said, ”Babe, you gotta fake it ’til you make it”
And I did
Lights, camera, bitch, smile
Even when you want to die
He said he’d love me all his life
But that life was too short
Breaking down, I hit the floor
All the pieces of me shattered
As the crowd was chanting ”More!”
I was grinning like I’m winning
I was hitting my marks
’Cause I can do it with a broken heart
I’m so depressed, I act like it’s my birthday

Every day
I’m so obsessed with him, but he avoids me
Like the plague
I cry a lot, but I am so productive
It’s an art
You know you’re good when you can even do it with a broken heart
I can hold my breath

I’ve been doing it since he left
I keep finding his things in drawers
Crucial evidence, I didn’t imagine the whole thing
I’m sure I can pass this test
’Cause I’m a real tough kid

I can handle my shit
They said, ”Babe, you gotta fake it ’til you make it”
And I did
Lights, camera, bitch, smile
In stilettos for miles
He said he’d love me for all time
But that time was quite short
Breaking down, I hit the floor
All the pieces of me shattered
As the crowd was chanting ”More!”
I was grinning like I’m winning
I was hitting my marks
’Cause I can do it with a broken heart
I’m so depressed, I act like it’s my birthday

Every day
I’m so obsessed with him, but he avoids me
Like the plague
I cry a lot, but I am so productive
It’s an art
You know you’re good, and I’m good
330
’Cause I’m miserable!
And nobody even knows!
Try and come for my job
331
Singles
Carolina (from ”Where The Crawdads Sing” soundtrack)
O Carolina creeks
Running through my veins
Lost I was born
Lonesome I came
Lonesome I’ll always stay
Carolina knows
Why for years I roam
Free as these birds
Light as whispers
Carolina knows
And you didn’t see me here

No, they never did see me here
And she’s in my dreams

Into the mist, into the clouds
Don’t leave
I make a fist, I make it count
And there are places I will never ever go
And things that only Carolina will ever know
Carolina stains
On the dress she left
Indelible scars
Pivotal marks
Blue as the life she fled
Carolina pines
Won’t you cover me?
Hide me like robes
Down the back road
Muddy these webs we weave

No, they never did see me
And she’s in my dreams

Into the mist, into the clouds
Don’t leave
I make a fist, I make it count
And there are places I will never ever go
And things that only Carolina will ever know

They never did see me here
No, you didn’t see me here
They never saw me
O Carolina knows
Why for years they’ve said
That I was guilty as sin
And sleep in a liar’s bed
But the sleep comes fast
And I’ll meet no ghosts
It’s between me
The sand and the sea
Carolina knows
332
The Joker And The Queen
How was I to know?
It’s a crazy thing
I showed you my hand
And you still let me win
And who was I to say

That this was meant to be?
The road that was broken
Brought us together
And I know you could fall for a thousand kings

And hearts that would give you a diamond ring
When I fold, you see the best in me
The joker and the queen
I was upside down

From the outside in
You came to the table
And you went all in
With a single word

And a gentle touch
You turned a moment
Into forever

And hearts that could give you a diamond ring
When I fold, you see the best in me

And hearts that would give you a diamond ring
When I folded, you saw the best in me
The joker and queen
333
Christmas Tree Farm
My winter nights are taken up by static
Stress, and holiday shopping traffic
But I close my eyes, and I’m somewhere else
Just like magic
In my heart is a Christmas tree farm

Where the people would come
To dance under sparkling lights
Bundled up in their mittens and coats
And the cider would flow
And I just wanna be there tonight
Sweet dreams of holly and ribbon

Mistakes are forgiven
And everything is icy and blue
And you would be there too
Under the mistletoe

Watching the fire glow
And telling me, ”I love you”
Just being in your arms
Takes me back to that little farm
Where every wish comes true
In my heart is a Christmas tree farm

There’s a light in the barn
We’d run inside out from the cold
In the town, kids are dreaming of sleighs
And they’re warm and they’re safe
They wake to see a blanket of snow
Sweet dreams of holly and ribbon

Mistakes are forgiven
And everything is icy and blue
And you would be there too
Under the mistletoe

Just being in your arms
Takes me back to that little farm
Where every wish comes true
(Baby, yeah!)
And when I’m feeling alone

You remind me of home
Oh baby, baby, Merry Christmas
And when the world isn’t fair
I’ll pretend that we’re there
Baby, baby, Merry Christmas
To you
Under the mistletoe (To you)


(Darling)
I love you
334
(I just want you to know)
May your every wish come true
335
Safe & Sound (feat. The Civil Wars) (from ”The Hunger Games” soundtrack)
I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, ”I’ll never let you go.”
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, ”Don’t leave me here alone,”
But all that’s dead and gone and passed tonight
Just close your eyes

The sun is going down
You’ll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I’ll be safe and sound
Don’t you dare look out your window, darling.

Everything’s on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the music’s gone
Gone

The sun is going down
You’ll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I’ll be safe and sound
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

La, la (la, la)
La, la (la, la)
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
La, la (la, la)

You’ll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I’ll be safe and sound...
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oh, oh
336
Renegade
I tapped on your window on your darkest night
The shape of you
Was jagged and weak
There was nowhere for me to stay
But I stayed anyway
And if I would’ve known
How many pieces you had crumbled into
I might have let them lay
Are you really gonna talk about timing in times like these?
And let all your damage, damage me
And carry your baggage up my street
And make me your future history
It’s time, you’ve come a long way

Open the blinds, let me see your face
You wouldn’t be the first renegade
To need somebody
Is it insensitive for me to say

Get your shit together
So I can love you?
Is it really your anxiety
That stops you from giving me everything
Or do you just not want to?
I tapped on your window on your darkest night

The shape of you
Was jagged and weak
There was nowhere for me to stay
But I stayed anyway
You fire off missiles cause you hate yourself
But do you know you’re demolishing me?
And then you squeeze my hand as I’m about to leave
Let all your damage, damage me

To need somebody

So I can love you?
And if I would’ve known

How sharp the pieces were
You’d crumbled into
I might’ve let them lay
And let all your damage, damage me
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To need somebody
To need somebody
I need somebody
To need somebody
To need somebody
(Are you really gonna talk about timing in times like these?)
(And let all your damage, damage me)
(And carry your baggage up my street)
So I can love you?
(And make me your future history)
(It’s time, you’ve come a long way)
(Open the blinds, let me see your face
To need somebody)
338
Only The Young
It keeps me awake
The look on your face
The moment you heard the news
You’re screaming inside
And frozen in time
You did all that you could do
The game was rigged, the ref got tricked
The wrong ones think they’re right
You were outnumbered — this time
But only the young

Only the young
Only the young
Only the young can run
Can run, so run
And run, and run
So every day now

You brace for the sound
You’ve only heard on TV
You go to class, scared
Wondering where the best hiding spot would be
And the big bad man and his big bad clan
Their hands are stained with red
Oh, how quickly, they forget
They aren’t gonna help us

Too busy helping themselves
They aren’t gonna change this
We gotta do it ourselves
They think that it’s over
But it’s just begun
Only one thing can save us

Only the young (Only the young)
Only the young

Only the young
(Don’t say you’re too tired to fight
It’s just a matter of time
Up there’s the finish line)
Only the young
Can run
Don’t say you’re too tired to fight

It’s just a matter of time (Can run)
Up there’s the finish line
So run, and run, and run
Don’t say you’re too tired to fight
It’s just a matter of time (So run)
Up there’s the finish line
And run, and run, and run
339
Only the young
Only the young
Only the young
340
All Of The Girls You Loved Before
When you think of all the late nights
Lame fights over the phone
Wake up in the mornin’ with someone
But feelin’ alone
A heart is drawn around your name

In someone’s handwriting, not mine
We’re sneakin’ out into town
Holdin’ hands, just killin’ time
Your past and mine are parallel lines

Stars all aligned and they intertwined
And taught you
The way you call me ”baby”
Treat me like a lady
All that I can say is
All of the girls you loved before (Ooh)

Made you the one I’ve fallen for
Every dead-end street led you straight to me
Now you’re all I need, I’m so thankful for
All of the girls you loved before
But I love you more
When I think of all the makeup

Fake love out on the town (Ooh)
Cryin’ in the bathroom for some dude
Whose name I cannot remember now
Secret jokes all alone

No one’s home, sixteen and wild (Ooh)
We’re breakin’ up, makin’ up
Leave without sayin’ goodbye (Ooh)
And just know that

It’s everything that made me
Now I call you ”baby”
That’s why you’re so amazing
All of the girls you loved before (Ooh)

Every dead-end street led you straight to me
Now you’re all I need, I’m so thankful for
But I love you more
Your mother brought you up loyal and kind

Teenage love taught you there’s good in goodbye
Every woman that you knew brought you here
I wanna teach you how forever feels like
The girls you loved before (Ooh)

Every dead-end street (Dead-end street) led you straight to me (Straight to me)
Now you’re all I need (All I need), I’m so thankful for
But I love you more
(I love you more)

(I love you more)
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Sweeter Than Fiction
Hit the ground, hit the ground, hit the ground, oh oh
Only sound, only sound that you hear is ”No”
You never saw it comin’
Slipped when you started runnin’
And now you’ve come undone and I, I, I, I
Seen you fall, seen you crawl on your knees, eh eh

Seen you lost in a crowd, seen your colors fade
Wish I could make it better
Someday you won’t remember
This pain you thought would last forever and ever
There you’ll stand, ten feet tall

I will say, ”I knew it all along”
Your eyes are wider than distance
This life is sweeter than fiction
Just a shot, just a shot in the dark, oh oh

All you got, all you got are your shattered hopes
They never saw it comin’
You hit the ground runnin’
And now you’re onto something, I, I, I say
What a sight, what a sight when the light came on

Proved me right, proved me right when you proved them wrong
And in this perfect weather
It’s like we don’t remember
The rain we thought would last forever and ever
There you’ll stand, ten feet tall

I will say, ”I knew it all along”
There you’ll stand, next to me

All at once, the rest is history
This life is sweeter than fiction (than fiction)
I’ll be one of the many saying

”Look at you now, look at you now, now”
”You made us proud, you made us proud, proud”
”Look at you now, look at you now, now”
”You made us proud, you made us proud, proud”
And when they call your name

And they put your picture in a frame
You know that I’ll be there time and again
’Cause I loved you when, when you
Hit the ground, hit the ground, hit the ground, oh oh

Only sound, only sound that you heard was ”No”
Now in this perfect weather
It’s like we don’t remember
The rain we thought would last forever and ever (forever)
There you’ll stand, ten feet tall (ten feet tall)

I will say, ”I knew it all along” (I knew it all along)
Your eyes are wider than distance (your eyes)
342
There you’ll stand next to me (next to me)

All at once, the rest is history (ooh)
Your eyes are wider than distance (your eyes)
This life is sweeter than fiction (than fiction)
It’s sweeter than fiction

It’s sweeter, yeah
It’s sweeter than, sweeter
Sweeter than fiction
343
Crazier (from ”Hannah Montana: The Movie” soundtrack)
I’d never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
’Til you open the door
There’s so much more
I’d never seen it before
I was trying to fly but I couldn’t find wings

But you came along and you changed everything
You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I’m falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
I’ve watched from a distance

As you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn’t see

You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You spin me around
Feels like I’m falling and I am lost in your eyes
Baby, you showed me what living is for

I don’t wanna hide anymore

You spin me around
Feels like I’m fallin’ and I am lost in your eyes
Crazier, crazier.
344
The Taylor Swift Holiday Collection
Last Christmas
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day, you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special
Once bitten and twice shy

I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me, baby, do you recognize me?
Well, it’s been a year, it doesn’t surprise me
Merry Christmas, I wrapped it up and sent it

With a note saying ’I love you’. I meant it
Now I know what a fool I’ve been
But if you kissed me now, I know you’d fool me again

This year

This year
A crowded room and friends with tired eyes

I’m hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on
A face on a lover with a fire in his heart

A girl on a cover but you tore her apart
Maybe this year
Maybe this year I’ll give it to someone special
’Cause last Christmas I gave you my heart

This year

This year
And last Christmas

And this year
It won’t be anything like, anything like

This year
345
Christmases When You Were Mine
Please take down the mistletoe
’Cause I don’t wanna think about that right now
’Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
My momma’s in the kitchen, worrying about me
Season’s greetings, hope you’re well
Well I’m doing alright
If you were wondering
Lately I can never tell
I know this shouldn’t be a lonely time

But there were Christmases when you were mine
I’ve been doing fine without you, really

Up until the nights got cold
And everybody’s here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone’s got someone to hold
But for me it’s just a lonely time

’Cause there were Christmases when you were mine
Merry Christmas, everybody

That’ll have to be something I just say this year
I’ll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again?
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands?
I know this shouldn’t be a lonely time

But there were Christmases when I didn’t wonder how you are tonight
’Cause there were Christmases when you were mine
You were mine
346
Santa Baby
Santa baby, slip a sable under the tree for me
I’ve been an awful good girl, Santa baby
So hurry down the chimney tonight
Santa baby, a ’54 convertible, too, light blue

Well, I’ll wait up for you, dear, Santa baby
So hurry down the chimney tonight, yeah
Think of all the fun I’ve missed

Think of all the boys I haven’t kissed
Next year I could be just as good
If you check off my Christmas list
Santa baby, I want a yacht and really that’s not a lot

I’ve been an angel all year, Santa baby
Santa, honey, there’s one more thing I really do need

The deed
To a platinum mine, Santa honey
Come and trim my Christmas tree

With some decorations bought at Tiffany’s
I really do believe in you
Let’s see if you believe in me
Santa baby, forgot to mention one little thing
And I don’t mean on the phone, Santa baby

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Silent Night
Silent night, holy night
All is calm and all is bright
Round yon virgin mother and child
Holy infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from Heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Hallelujah
Christ the Saviour is born
Christ our Saviour is born

Son of God
Love’s pure light
Radiant beams from thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus Lord at thy birth
Jesus Lord at thy birth
Hallelujah!
Hallelujah!
Hallelujah!
Christ the Saviour is born
348
Christmas Must Be Something More
What if ribbons and bows didn’t mean a thing?
Would the song still survive without five golden rings?
Would you still wanna kiss without mistletoe?
What would happen if God never let it snow?
What would happen if Christmas carols told a lie?
Tell me, what would you find?
You’d see that today holds something special

Something holy, not superficial
So here’s to the birthday boy who saved our lives
It’s something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
So here’s something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something more
What if angels did not pay attention to

All the things that we wished they would always do?
What if happiness came in a cardboard box?
Then I think there is something we all forgot
What would happen if presents all went away?
Tell me, what would you find?
You’d see that today holds something special

Something holy, not superficial
So here’s to the birthday boy who saved our lives
So here’s something you should know that is for sure
We get so caught up in all of it

Business and relationships
Hundred-mile-an-hour lives
And it’s this time of year
And everybody’s here
It seems the last thing on your mind
Is that the day holds something special

Something holy, not superficial?
So here’s to Jesus Christ who saved our lives
But here’s something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something
Christmas must be something
There’s gotta be more

There’s gotta be more
349
White Christmas
I’m dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the tree tops glisten and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

Just like the ones I used to know
So may your days be merry and bright
May your days be merry and bright

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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT 290

The Taylor Swift Holiday Collection 345

But when you think Tim McGraw

September saw a month of tears

When you think Tim McGraw

And I’m back for the first time since then

”When you think Tim McGraw

When you think happiness

I hate that stupid old pickup truck

There’s no time for tears

’Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck

And if you’re missing me

’Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck

Stupid old pickup truck

Burn, burn, burn, baby, burn

I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about

He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

So, I drive home alone

’Cause he’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough

I’m alone, on my own, and that’s all I know

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans

I’m alone, on my own, and that’s all I know

Maybe I’m just a girl on a mission

I’m alone, on my own, and that’s all I know

Oh I’m just a girl

Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Oh, what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

I tried to take the road less traveled by

So how can I ever try to be better?

You saw me there, but never knew

You could’ve helped if you had wanted to

So how can I ever try to be better?

So how can I ever try to be better?

Hold on, baby, you’re losing it

I guess it’s true that love was all you wanted

Oh, ’cause it’s not his price to pay

Hold on, baby, you’re losing it

Hold on, baby, you’re losing it

You’re tied together with a smile

Cory finds another way to be

If you and I are a story

You should’ve said ”No”, you should’ve gone home

You can see that I’ve been crying

You should’ve said ”No”, you should’ve gone home

No... no, no, no...

You should’ve said ”No”, you should’ve gone home

Make me back to the house in the backyard tree

Well, I was sixteen when suddenly

Take me back to the creek beds we turned up

A few years had gone and come around

Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle

I’ll be eighty-seven; you’ll be eighty-nine

Our song is the slamming screen door

Our song is the slamming screen door

I’ve heard every album, listened to the radio

’Cause our song is the slamming screen door

And I know everything about you