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Heal 223 - Personal Reflection Paper
Heal 223 - Personal Reflection Paper
my identity learned that have led me to the person I am today. For example, there are a few
instances in my life where I distinctly remember becoming aware of my ethnic and racial
identity. The first time was when I was in elementary school-- which happened to be
predominantly White. One day, as my classmates around me began opening their lunch pails to
eat, I remember seeing them proudly showing off their Lunchables, burgers, and peanut butter
and jelly sandwiches. On the other hand, I had a plastic bag with aluminum foil wrapped around
them that I rapidly threw it away and did not eat lunch that day.
Looking back, I see how much this experience applies to the racial and cultural identity
development (RCID) model by Sue and Sue (2003). The first stage of conformity, describes
exactly what I did. I internalized negative stereotypes of my ethnic background by thinking that
the food my mom made was nasty and threw it away. I tried to conform with my White
classmates by attempting to fit in and believing that my food was not “normal”.
As I entered high school, I adapted the second stage (dissonance) and third stage
(resistance and immersion). This was largely due to the fact that I moved to a predominantly
Hispanic town. As White individuals were now the minority group, I rejected their norms and
gained curiosity of my own ethnic background. Therefore, I began actively exploring my culture
It was until I graduated high school that I entered the fourth stage (introspection).
Coming to Fresno State, I was challenged with molding my own identity as well as adapting to
so many diverse individuals from both minority and majority ethnic groups. However, a few
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months into my first year, I got a job at the Cross Cultural and Gender Center, where I was
exposed and worked closely alongside many wonderful people from different ethnicities. I also
took Sociology classes which taught me about critical race theory, racial biases, and social
injustices. This helped me move onto the last stage which is synergistic articulation and
awareness. After these past years as an undergrad and graduate student, I can proudly say that I
wholeheartedly embrace my ethnic identity. I also both embrace and appreciate the contributions
of other ethnic backgrounds which make up our world. I do not see our society as a melting pot
but as a beautiful salad bowl with differences and similarities that make up who we are.
Similar to my ethnic identity, race was a topic that I never learned about or knew very
well of as an adolescent. However, there were certain experiences that obligated me to confront
my race. Bernardo Ferdman and Placida Gallegos’s (2012) considerations for understanding how
Latinos encounter race apply a lot to these experiences. The first consideration is the significance
of skin color, specifically how favorable it is viewed for Latinos to have light skin rather than
dark skin. Ferdman and Gallegos state that “skin color remains pertinent among Latinos, and
racism may manifest itself in the devaluing of those with darker skin” (Patton et al., 2016, p.
105). When I was younger, I distinctly remember a time where my dad would ask in a
disapproving tone why I was playing in the sun so much. Moreover, he would insist that I play
under the shade because the color of my skin was getting “too dark”. Therefore, growing up, I
was socially influenced to value a lighter skin complexion rather than a darker one.
The second applicable consideration from Ferdman and Gallegos (2012) is how “Latinos
respond in various ways to the racial categories in which they are placed in the United States”
(Patton et al., 2016, p.105). For instance, the first time I became aware of what race I was
perceived as was when I was in high school. I was barely starting to fill out my college
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application with the help of an advisor, when I stumbled upon the race question. The racial
categories listed: White, Black, Asian, and American Indian. I was so confused and did not know
what to select. I thought Hispanic was a race. I even said to her, “I am Mexican. What do I
choose?”. My advisor stood quiet and then told me to just select what my race was. I was still
confused after she said that. Therefore, I remember logging into my high school student portal to
check my demographics to see what race I was listed as and seeing White. I was so shocked.
“Am I White?”, I asked her. I remember there were other students in the classroom hearing my
question and laughing at me, but my mind was blown. I was having an identity crisis. The next
day, I remember feeling forced to choose that racial category in order to complete my college
applications and not feeling good after, as I knew deep down that I did not identify as White.
It took me some time after this experience to learn that others feel the same way that I do.
According to Ferdman and Gallegos (Patton et al., 2016, p.45), some Latinos “identify as White,
while others reject this classification and use Latino as a racial and an ethnic category”. For me, I
know that race is a social construct and has no biological premise (Patton et al., 2016). Therefore
I feel more confident in selecting my ethnicity rather than my race as I know that my ethnicity is
something of more value to me. If I have to select a racial category, I do not select “White” and
Having lived all these experiences, I can confidently say that I identify as a
“Latino-identified” and “Latino-integrated” individual (Patton et al., 2016). This means that I
Altogether, these moments in my life have led me to reflect and think about what I
identity as-- whether it is my racial or ethnic identity. It is fair to say that other Latinos, as well,
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share similar experiences that have led them to the person they are today. The theories of
References
Patton, L. D., Renn, K. A., Guido, F. M., Quaye, S. J., & Evans, N. J., (2016). Student