I feel anonymous hopeless and

I hated my life
And the worst part was I started hating myself too
I knew they my life was in desperate need of a big change
so I decided to quit my job with no backup plan and left Hanoi city
But the decision didn’t happen overnight
It was after month and month of thinking, dealing with self-doubt and
second guessing
I have never really told anyone why exactly I quit
because I didn’t even know myself
I think I am ready to share my story
I couldn't handle the gap between my dreamy weekend and the real
reality
So maybe I need to take care of myself better and I signed up Gym
and went whenever you have time
but I didn’t feel fulfilled
Something in me just broke
So many questions in my head that needed to be answered
Make decision for yourself not for someone else
After spending hours and hours to think about my future I started to
have this strong desire to to job that matters to me and make the
money that matters to me
An angel in my head said you should go for it but a devil in me said
that’s selfish
The universe is testing me
I am losing my mind a little bit
I hate doing big girl stuff, I am not made for this
It’s just daunting the idea of like….
I plan on learning Chinese in this month
Have such a special place in my heart.
I look back on myself from when I was 25 and I see myself as a kid
and I still know I am so young but I just feel so much better about
myself in literally every single way and so much more confident and
happy and more eager to get out of my comfort zone. I had this
thought the other day of like I am getting out of my comfort zone so
that I can create a new comfort zone rather than just like abandoning
my comfort zone
I am mutually eager to talk to you about it
she is incredibly diligent and approaches her work