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A Dyslexic Haiku Full Edition
A Dyslexic Haiku Full Edition
By Jennifer S. Wakefield
Phases of Mental Illness
Context for People
Who Want to Learn About It
Acknowledgements:
My Brother, Brendon
Who Convinced Me To Write This Book
Inciting Me To Go On
Again And Again
Encouraging Me To Try
To Those Who Shaped Me
Erased The “Im”
From Impossibility
It Is Possible, A Dream
Materialized
Don’t Give Up, Don’t Give Up, Don’t!!
At Times, De-Railed
Destinations Lost
Model, Actor, Beauty Queen
Celebrity S T A L K I N G, Yes
Those Crazy Things Done
Mania In It’s Best Form
Magical Omnipotence
Perfection And Grace
Feeling Indestructible
In A Fantasy Bond
Because Real Life Too
Painfully Aware To Bear
Internal Cacophony
Obsess, Obsess Much?
Delusions Won’t Quit
Medical Solutions
More Side Effects
What Is Quality of Life?
Preparedness Surprises
Those Bearing Witness
To The Mystery of Life
The Silver Lining Is Here
Nowhere to Go, So
Upward Mobility Then!
Constantly Redirecting
Trying New Things
Growth Deliberates On
Fascinating Animals,
We, The People Are
Are Born Into The Trapping
Of Civilized Culture
Lucky to Have It?
Or Are We Victimized?
Socioeconomics
Poverty Traps Some
Technology Does Not Wait
Facebook, Instagram, Twitter
Monopolies
Why? I Might Ask? Power-Play
Open Communication
Key for Anyone
Why Take It Away? Rights
Power Untainted Is
Inspired And Clear
Unfettered Truth
Idolized Images
The Higher The More
Difficult to Reconcile
Disappointment? Um,
Self-Dedication
What Is Acceptable?
On The Streets
I Found Me
My Own Guardian--
Warrior Version Of Myself
Tearful Circumstances
My Instincts Intact
Well-Honed For Pandemic
I Went To Oregon
To Visit Grandma
Who Was Ninety-Three Years Then
I Am So Lucky To Be
An American
By Birth No Less, So Lucky
Invaluable Lesson
Biggest Mistakes
Learning Life Through Repetition
Esoteric Rhetoric
Lies Or Truth
Who Is Hiding What, Where, When?
I Am Not An Exception
Maybe The Norm
Try Not To Judge Harshly
As I Could I Would Do It
Be Every Day
Reinventing Myself
My Life, Genuinely
State Of Being Well
Open And Flexible
Am I A Careless Person?
I Have Caused Much Hurt
How Can I Avoid The Past?
My New Aspiration
Journey Moves With
Me In My Bubble of Hope
Self-Reflection Is Over
View Of Self-Study
Procrastination Pays Off
Believe In Redemption
Hope Within Your Soul
Release The Universal
An Action Potential
Electrical
Microscopic Signals
Am I Mystery of Life
Or Mystery Meat
Karmic Time Will Laugh Again
Am I An Organic
Smart-Iphone Android?
Intelligent Design
Manufactured By Mother
Nurtured By The Sun
Dance with Karmic Time In The
So Introspective Today
Got A Writing Bug
Can’t Let Go Of The Thoughts
Infancy Fragmented
Broke The Mold Before
There Ever Was One To Break
Inherently Understood
Floating Through The Air
Stinging All Those She Engaged
To Self-Love, Humility
Patience And Timing
Is Essential to Allow Growth
I Am Catapulted To
The Future Of Me
Since I Made It Through Then—Now
Sustenance, Stability
Comfort, Safety And
Sanity, Freedom, and Trust
Validation, Everything
Myself, Being Seen
I Can Give That To Someone
Self-Hatred, Self-Loathing
Insanity
Weakness, Insecurity
Insatiable Chasms
Flaws That I Can Heal?
What Did I Learn Unhoused?
Insatiable Jealousy
Stemmed From Infancy
As And Adult So Much Hurt
Pre-verbal Trauma Is So
Debilitating
Attachment Is So Crucial
Crying Unconsolably
She Can’t Conceive
Herself, An Adult Raging
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Continued:
How the Future Came To Be
It Crashed Through Today
Twenty Twenty Would Be Big
American Luxury
Sorry; United
States Is Not “America”
Catatonia Migraine
Cross Between Migraine
And Petite Mal Seizure
Irritability
Of This Med Causes
Me To Wonder If Ever
I Am Worthy Of Any
And Worthless of Naught
I Am Keeping Myself High
Re-Parenting Myself
Loss of Self-Ego
Letting Go Of, “I Want”
Don’t Be Dissuaded By
My Maniacle Mess
I’m Not Doper Than You Are
Independently Of Dress
Or Scrubs That Will Sing
Praise to the Highest Bidder
It Is Three Or Four AM
Wake My New Grandpa
Who Protects My Grandma
Why Do I Self-Sabotage?
In My DNA?
Negative Strategem?
It Keeps Me Occupied
When Reality
Is Too Much Too Bear Daily
I Problem-Solved, Asked
For Help, Until I
Got What I Needed For Me
Painted On Anatomy
Unnecessary
When Unsatisfactory
Are We Civilized?
Our Caged Food
Who Can Be A Fair Judge?
Humanity Levels
Us All At Birth
And Death Is A Blessing Too
Minimalism Simple
I Stopped Eating Meat
For A Time, At Least
My Body Is My Living
City, My Temple
I Did Not Always Honor
Darkness To llluminate?
Do Not Ruminate
Action Calls to Action
Painful Self-Reflections
My Humble Mirror
Alone, Search For Answers
To Own My Wrongs
Doesn’t Make It Right
Mystery Of Life, You Know
Only A Therapist
Could Fit The Pieces
Into a Grand Thesis
In My Own Company, I
Hold Space To Cherish
What Nurtures My Existence
Sustaining, Reclaiming
Child-like Wonder
At The Mystery Of Life
Existential Questioning
What Is “Mania”?
Will I Be What Annoys Me?
Taking Inventory Of
Me, What I Dislike?
I Can Be Controlling
I Scramble To Recollect
Myself, Though Often
Lost To Raging Bull Fever
I Have To Retreat To
My Habitat
Hidden In A Corner Of
Plasticity, BioPsych
Hopefully, The
Future of Medication
Will Be Microscopic
And Behavioral
Brain Surgery Could Help
…
Quantum Physics, Nature
Of Reality
Fascinate Me, Endlessly
Alternate Reality
Drug Induces
Mania Is It Real?
I Am Not An Alpha
I Can Mediate
I Can Self-Reflect
I Still Have So Much To Learn
But I Know Something
I Have So Much Power
Imagination Never
Lies If All Is Truth
To Someone, Somehow, Somewhere
Am I Defensive?
Too Blasé About?
Facts? Details? Sources?
Am I Childish?
It Would Make Sense
I Was Wounded So Then
Deeply So I Want Be
Seen, Heard, And Felt
My Dreams Scare Me So I
Don’t Attempt Them
I Take The Safe Road
Because I Got Burned So Young
I Learnt Non-Conformity
Within Conforming
So I Didn’t Have To
Am I Gay or Bi or Pan?
I Don’t Know?
Does It Matter Anyway?
Quiet Miracles
Here On Earth
We’ll See More Too
My Body Is A City,
Microbiome
Navigate and Steer Through Space
Me Rudely Awoken
At 4 AM In
The Sprinkler Systems
I Stopped Breathing
I Didn’t Know Who
“She” Was But I Didn’t
Human Trafficking
Later When I Got
Housed Again, It Was By
Rotchana Sussman
Obama’s Guest
Wife Of College Professor
Anti-Human Trafficking
Was The Topic Then
It Was All I Talked About
I Must Have An Obsessive
Trait And Missing
Sense Of Self, I Thought I Was
Never Intended
But I Don’t Blame
I Only Self-Care, Self-Care
Medication Daily
To Numb Myself Out
To These Feelings That Linger
Intentions By The
Wayside Of Human
Invention, We Are Not
Subjugating Gods
And Goddesses
For Greed And False Wealth
I Am Not An Exception
Although I May See
Differently Than You
You Would See It In My Shoe
I Have A Fur Coat
Though I Don’t Speak You Know Me
I Am “Domesticated”
I Don’t Speak English
I Am Non-Human
Society Is Unfair
I Am Light Skinned
And Classically Pretty
We Grow Up Differently
The Struggle Is Real
No Matter What Age
On Another Day I
Start A Train Of Thought
Here We Go Again, Again!
Sanity Or Insane
Individual
Choices May Seem, But Mindset
Sirens Are Loud In The Hood
Distracts Me From My
Writing This Right Now Why Is
Art Important It Is
So Critical To
Be Able to Express One
Plethora Layers
Helical Solar
Dimensions That Overlap
It Would Be So Easy To
Detach From Someone
You Just Met As An Adult
And I Am No Exception
To Any Rule
There Are Always Rules
Invisible, Unheard
Laws Of Nature
Are Not Human-Bound
That Is Why I Believe That
Humans Are Not So
Smart, We Just Subjugate
In My Own Experience
Following The Night
Without Contact Lenses
In Multiple Dimensions
Across Time And Space
There’s More Than We Can Believe
What Happens After Belief?
Disbelief
And What Is In Between Them?
Writing Is An Expression
It Is A Privelege
It Is Not Universal
Am I Hellen Keller?
Or Is The World To
Me Blind And Deaf To The World?
On A Rainy Tuesday
Morning I Was Born
At Seven Ten A. M.
Less Understandable
Give The Circum-
Stances Poor Thing Had Her Face
Marciano Foundation
Was Opening
Wolfgang Puck Was Catering
I Was Able To Go To
A Book Engagement
And I Was So Crushed
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Apology To
Everyone I Hurt Then
From All The Damage I Sowed
The Silver Lining
Is Your Old Friend Is Back
Never In Reality
Fully Because
Well, What Is It Really?
Supported Me My Whole
Life Even Though
It Wasn’t What I Wanted?
On A Hill of Production
Showcase My Color
Spectrum With A Wide Array
I Am So Many Things
Cool Girl, Young Woman
Best Friend and Sweet Daughter
Maniacal Stalker
Recoveree
Relapse and Pick Myself Up
Speaking To An Old
Acquaintance
There, On Set With Me When I
Imagination
Creativity
Know The Difference?
Dynamic Because
It’s So Raw And Clear
That I’m Not Who I Portray
Mediocre Frames
A Perspective
With Growth, Hope And Charm
Unseen Experience
Empathy Lost
Or Gained From Precise Use Of
Diction Syllables
Words And Rhyme
I Paint the Horizon Pink
Language Is Sacred
Boredom Infinite
When Useless Brains Roam Free
Checking In On Yourself
You Must Stay Stable
Everyone Has Pain
A Purpose Or Feeling
Perhaps This Is Part
Of The Ambiguity
Of BiPolarness
Schizoaffective
Reactive Attachment
We Are Struggling To Be
Okay Ev’ry Day
We Pick Up The Pieces
Of The Multiplies
That Exist
Within The Confines
Of What Constitutes
You Right Now In This
Moment And The Moment
“I Am Enough” I Have
Enough, I Will
Have Enough And I Was
Enough, I Am Enough
Yes, I Am Right Now
Gratitude With Attitude
A Dyslexic Haiku
Black Lives Matter
The Fight Continues...
Race in America
How To Unify
Disparate Notions Of Fair
To Systemically
Oppress the Oppressed
Perpetually Silenced
Propagated To Keep Me
In The Dark About
My Real Worth And Value
To Write A Prescription
Google Symptoms
Yet To Carry A Gun
To Write A Prescription
To Save Your Life
You Will Cost Me My Youth