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2/23,
15:
49]: Di
arykaAmo

I
ntr
oduct
ion
:
:MynameisAmogel angZiqubuiam 15year
soldi
have2si
bli
ngs(
Sbulelo-
6yrsoldgir
l)n(Omphil
e-12
yr
soldboy),
iam i
ngr ade10andi l
ivei
nDurban..
.
Ohhhi gotabestf
rndwhogoesbyt
henameof
Mbalenhle.
..
Thi
sismyst
ory
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2/23,
15:
49]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t1

ItwasMondaymor ningwhenmymom( Anast

asia)
wokemeup. .
.nowy oual lknowhowi rri
tati
ngitist
o
bedistur
bedinyoursl eepiwokeup, mademybed
andwentt ot
hebat hroom. .
..Letmedescr i
bemysel f
foryou(iam col
our edsincemydadi swhiteandmy
mom isZulu,
iam tallandsize28i '
vegotbigey es
small
li
psandl
onghai
r)wel
lwecansayi
am
beaut
if
ul.

Ifi
nishedbr ushi
ngmyt eetht
heniwentt
o
shower ,
l
otionedmysel ftheiworemyschool gr
ey
tr
ouser,school shi
rt(shortsl
eev
e)andatie.
..
iti
ed
myhai rint
oabunt henwentt ot
hekit
chen..
.

Mom::kodwamtanam youmustnotfor
getphel
ukut
hwenauyintombazanukeugcokiski
rtnj
e
nawe..
(Aykeminavel
engingmuntwet
rouserguy
sand
every
oneknowsthat)
Me::
aymaar nmamangzosgcokiski
rtoneday
hau(
withthati
tookmybreakf
astandstar
ted
di
ggingin)
Mom::heeeaykeccminangzozengshone
ngi
ngakazengakbonugcokiski
rt
Me:
:
(gi
ggl
i
ng)ay
boNont
ombuzawbul
awy
inke
Mom:
:
ngy
agugaphel
ahau
(
Guy
smymom i
s38y
rsol
dkodwaut
hsoy
aguga)

Me:
:
unedr
amamt
akama .
..
MamabaphoTom noJer
ry
(
Wel
lthatwhati
cal
lmysi
bli
ngs)
Mom::bahambilphel
noteveryonel
ovestobe
l
ate(
shesaidthatpoint
ingt
hewatchonthewall
)
F*cki
twas8:30Iwasanhourl
ate.
.iqui
ckl
ytookmy
bagandwentoutrunni
ngl
eavi
ngmymot her
l
aughi
ngatme...
.

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scomment
spl
zzz
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2/23,
15:
49]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t2

Wel
liarr
ivedngesecondperi
odwellwheni
ent
ered
t
heclasstheyal
ll
aughedlucki
l
yther
ewasno
t
eacheri
wentt
omydesk

Mbal
i
::
aii
bogi
rlwhyar
eyout
hisl
atebozol
i
lenah
Me::
asukamf
tyouknowmocmi
nanokv
uka
ast
handan
Mbal:
:
anywayili
edtomissUnder
son(classt
eacher
)
ngt
heuyagulsouhadtostar
tecli
nic.
.
Me::
li
kereall
y,
wast
hatthebestexcusephel
amanj
e
ihav
et opret
endsi
ckkulabot
eacherthewhole
day
Mbal
i:
:
sorrychom buti
hadtocomeupwit
h
somet
hingmocotherwisebuzoshay
wa
(
Thet
eachergoti
n)
Thedaywentonjustfi
neunt i
li
twasafterschooli
sai
dmygoodby estoMbal iandshelef
tasi was
aboutt
ogoNqabaappr oachedme( he'
sbeenmy
cl
assmatesincegrade4til
lnow)
Hi
m::
hy
Me:
:
heyWhatup?
Him::
well
notthati
disr
especty
oubutcani
hav
e
yournumber
s
(
Ist
opedandl
ookedathi
m)
Me:
:
mftl
i
ker
eal
l
yuzozenzannj
e
Hi
m::
ndf
unt
het
hanawemf
t
(
He'
sXhosa)
Me:
:
askasy
athet
hamocnamanj
e..
Him:
:Amodon'
tbely
kththauuknowI
'
vegot
somethi
ngt
otel
lyou
Me:
:
youcant
ell
menowmoc
Hi
m::noipr
efer
etot
ell
youpr
ivat
eaphakupubl
i
c
mfondi
n
Me::
itbett
erbesomet
hingi
mpor
tantnxxx.
.wel
li
t
0714****
**
Hi
m::
thnx
Me:
:
byeNqaba
(
Iwentt
ohomesi
ncei
twasn'
tthatf
arf
rom homei
wal
ked)
Igothomengaf
icauOmphi
l
eaphekaandSbul
elo
waswatchi
ngTV
Me:
:
whatar
eyoucooki
ngl
i
lbr
o
Omphi
l
e::
ri
ceandchi
cken
Me:
:
mmm uphmama
Omphil
e::
usemsebenzi
nhauandshe'
swor
kingni
ght
shi
ft
(
Guy
smymom i
sadoct
or)
Me:
:
mhmm
Omphi
le:
:
lookngo5ineedtogoseemygi
rlf
rndsoi
mi
ghtnotbeherekusupper
Me::
mhmm j
ustmakesur
eyoucomehomeear
ly
andsaf
e
(Iwentt
omyroom t
hrewmysel
font
hebedand
passedout
)

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arykaAmo

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t3

Sibulel
owokemeupat18h00t el
li
ngmeshe' s
hungr y,
iwokeupt ookoffmyunif
orm sinceif
ell
asleepinit..
wenttothebathr
oom ibathedandwore
myP. j
'
swentt othekit
chenandOmphi lewasnot
backi dishedforthe3ofusandSbuleloandi at
e
shewentt otakeabaththentosl
eep..
.Omphil
ewas
sti
llnotbackOki wasnowgetti
ngwor ri
ed

Ical
ledhi
m seventi
messti
ll
dolol
oanswering.
..I
wenttositont
hecouchscaredofwhatcould
happentohimifel
lasl
eeponthecouch.
Ihear
dcoldhandst
ouchi
ngmyfacenxxi
twas
Omphilei
tookmyphoneandt
hetimewas22h00
Nxxx..
.hewentt
otheovent
ookhi
sfoodandat
e
wit
houtsayi
nganyt
hing
Me::y
aziniOmphil
enextty
m uwannagoouttour
hoersdon'tbot
hertel
l
ingmebecausei
tcl
ear
uyphethephelwenanxxx
(
Wit
hthati
stoodupandwentt
omyr
oom)
Asi wasabouttosl
eepmyphoner
angandi
coul
dn'
t
recogni
zethenumber
Ianswer
edi
t

Per
son:
:
hy
Me:
:
thi
sis?
Per
son::
wowwand'
phoxakl
k..
.udon'
trecogni
zemy
voi
cevel
e
(
Ihear
dngesXhosakut
huNqaba)
Me:
:
ufunanNqababesengl
ala
Hi
m::
sor
rypr
incessj
ustwant
edt
owi
shugoodny
t
Me:
:
okyby
e
Hi
m::
mhmm ayuy
akwazuphoxay
ohany
way
ut
handi
wev
ahh
(
Ihangedup)
Andl
oggedi
ntomyf
acebookt
heni
dozzedof
fto
l
alal
and

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arykaAmo

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t4

Myphoner
angitwokemeupandi
twasNqaba.
.i
answer
edt
hephone

Me:
:
yoNqabay
ethuuf
unani
maary
eh
Hi
m::heypr
incessi
want
edt
omakesur
ekbaawut
h
l
atekwakhona
Me:
:
nxxf
sg
Hegi
ggl
edandhangup
Iwoke.
.di
dmymor
ningr
out
ine
Af
teri
wentt
otheki
tchent
opr
epar
ebr
eakf
astf
or
us
ThenwokeSbulel
oandOmphil
eupthenhel
ped
Sbul
elot
opreparesi
nceshewasst
il
li
npreschool
..
Thenwewentt oeatandOmphi leapologizedfor
cominghomel atet
hepreviousnightaswewer e
abouttogomom camei n...t
hebust hatTom and
Jerr
y(Sbul
eloandOmphile)usedf orgoi
ngt oschool
wasalreadyatthegat
esot heywentout
Isai
dmygoodby
est
omom andal
sowentout
..
.

Wellsinceiwasear
lyi
hadmyear phonesonandi
waslisteni
ngtomyfavour
atesong(
fl
ashli
ghtby
JessiJ)
I
ti waswal
ki
ngsl
owlyt
heninot
icedt
hecart
hat
wasf ol
l
owi
ngmeitwasabl
ackjeepi
twasbeaut
if
ul
yoh..
.
I
twasdr i
venbyayoungwhi
temanhel
ooked
handsomeiwon'
tl
ie..
.
Welliarr
ivedatschoolati
wenttoMbal
iandgave
heralonghugi missedmybesti
exei
mitwaslyk
kdalngamgcinlol
Thent
hebel
lrang

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arykaAmo

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Well
wewenttoclassandNqabahasbeenl ooking
atmethewhol
edaysi ncewe'
rei
nt hesameclass
wel
litol
dMbal
iaboutNqabaandshesai dishould
dowhatmyhearttol
dmet odo..
.t
hedaywenton
j
ustfyn

Aft
erschoolasiwaswal
kinghomet hev
erysame
whit
emani najeepof
fer
edmeal if
tandicouldn'
t
saynotoajeepduhandsinceil
ovedatt
enti
oni
wantedt
heschool
kidst
oseemei
naj
eep soi
poppedi
n

Hi
m::
hy
Me:
:
hey
..Unj
n
Hi
m::
iam f
yn
Me::
ohhhsoucanunderst
andzulumocmi
na
bengi
thngy
akphaphel
nje(
giggl
i
ng)
Him:
:welli
understandeveryzul
uwordj
ustthati
can'
tspeakit
,i
tkinderhar
df ormet
opronounce
(
Het
hensmi
l
ed)
Me:
: or
yti
mustbegl
adangkakt
hukangmoc
(
Webot
hlaughed)
Hi
m::
you'
rebeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
(smi
l
ing)i
know
(
Hel
aughed)
Hi
m::
andhy
pert
oo
Me:
:
wel
lyouknowmet
oowel
l
(
Hel
aughedev
enmor
e)
Hi
m::
what
'
syourname?
Me:
:
Amogel
ang
Hi
m::
Sur
name?
Me:
:
Ziqubu
Him:
:i
sthaty
ourr
eal
sur
name?
,causet
omeul
ook
col
our
ed
Me:
:
noi
tmymot
her
's
Hi
m::
wel
liwanty
ourr
eal
sur
namef
rom y
ourf
ather
's
si
de
Me::i
don'
tknow(
ilookedawaybecausei
was
ashamedofmyanswer )
Him::howcanyounotknowabouty
our
surname..
.whydon'
tyouasky
ormom
Me::
becauseinev
eraskmymom aboutmydadi
don'
twannafeelt
hepaini
fel
tthel
astt
ym
Hi
m::
pai
n??
Me:
:
yeahhedi
edaf
teri
wasbor
n
Hi
m::
sai
dwho?
(hel
ookedsur
pri
sed)
Me:
:
mom sai
dso.
..
Ohhhy
oucandr
opmeher
enowi
am home
Hi
m::
ohhhsoy
oul
i
vet
her
e(hesai
dpoi
nti
nghome)
Me:
:
yes(
igotout
)thnxf
ort
hel
i
ftMr
..
.
Him:
:
Parker
,i
t'
sBr
ianParker
..
.andheyy
oushoul
d
asky
ourmom aboutyourdad
(
Wit
hthathel
eft
)

OkyIwasconf
usedwhywashesoconcerned
ngokut
hmelngazubaba.
.anywayi
goti
nsidet
he
house

Andmyst
epf
atherwasback(
Omphi
l
eandSbul
elo'
s
dad)
Wel l
yenaHe'szulusothatmakesmet heonl
y
colouredsolot
atauyipi
lotmaaryenanomamathey
aremar ri
ed
Andguesswhat

Idon'
tl
ikehi
m

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arykaAmo

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Soasi gotinsi
deitwast
hef
ouroft
hem Mom,her
husband,Sbulel
oandOmphi
let
heyl
ookedl
ikeali
l
happyfam...
Wel
liwenttomyroom wi
thoutsayi
ngany
thi
ngasi
wasaboutt
otouchmydoorhandle..
.
Mom:
:
aii
boccawusbi
ngel
elanga
Me:
:
sanbonan
(
Withthati
goti
ntomyr
oom i
didn'
tev
enwai
tfor
r
esponce)
Itookoffmyunifor
m andi unti
edmyhai r,
woremy
bl
ackAdi dast
racksui
tsandt heniworemysleepers
andappliedmyblackli
psti
ckon...
itl
ookedgoodon
mephelai am ayel
lowbone...
iwenttothekit
chen
andfoundmamawashi ngdishes

Me:
:
kuphokwam ukudl
a
Her
::
thatallyouknow.
..Whatwi
thy
oust
inkyat
ti
tude
t
owardsy ourfat
her
Me:
:
youmeanSt
epf
ather
..
Her:
:y
azinwenat hatmanrai
sedyouhefedy
ouand
hasdoneev er
ythi
ngforyoungal
eskhat
huBri
an
ekl
ahli
lel
a(shouti
ng)
Me:
:
Bri
an?
???
Her:
:y
azi
nnever
mindwhatisaidwenanj
est
art
act
ingni
ceorel
sentombazana.
..
(
Wit
hthatshel
eft
)
Istoodther
eli
kearostedchi
ckenwonder
ingwho'
s
Brianmyphonerangitdi
stur
bedmefrom my
thought
Me:
:
Amoher
e
Hi
m::
heypr
incesscanwemeetatpar
kin30mi
n
Me:
:
uhmmm noI
'
vegot
..
.
(
Hecut
tedme)
Hi
m::
alr
ightcakesseeut
her
e
(
Hehangedup)
Theguyiscrazyangvumangamocmxm i
wentt
o
thefr
idgeasIwasabouttomakefood
Mike(
stepfat
her)ent
eredt
heroom.
..
Mxm ij
ustl
ostmyappet
it
eithent
ookanappl
eand
wentt
otheparkt
ohearwhatNqabahadt
osay..
.
Asiwaspr
essi
ngmyphonei
sawhi
m comi
ng
l
ooki
nghotA.
F

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arykaAmo

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SoNqabanot
icedt
hatI
'
vebeenst
ari
ngathi
mfora
whi
lenow
Hi
m::
cakesi
knowi
am cut
ebuti
tenoughnow
(
Irol
l
edmyey
es)
Me:
:
Nqabakhul
um of
unukukushongzohambat
uu
Hi
m::
ohhst
rai
ghtt
othepontv
ele?
Me::
TalkNqabaabany
ebet
hugott
hingst
odo
angnal
anglonke
Him::okyhowdoisaythis(
hetookadeep
breath)Amogel
angiam sur
eyounowknowhowi
feelabouturyt
Me::
mftang'
nabuhl
aluangsi
soi
sangomasoangaz
howufeel
Hi
m::
sov
eleuf
unndi
ythet
hel
ewayendi
feel
er
ngay
o
Me:
:
TALKmaar
n
Him:
:okyokyoky
..
.Cakesi
lov
euandi
ntoendi
ycel
kuweichancenj
echa
(Ist
oodt
her
emot
ionl
essnotknowi
ngwhatt
osayor
do)
Hecamecloset
omeandki
ssedmewi
thhi
s
sof
t,
col
dandwetli
ps

Wekissedf
orli
ke15mi
nthenIpul
ledoutand
l
ookedathi
m andhi
sey
eswerebloodyredhe
smil
ed
Hi
m::
ipr
omi
seuwon'
tregr
ett
hispr
incess
Me:
:
lethopeso
.
..
.

Well
wespentthedayt
oget
herchat
ti
ngandki
ssi
ng
ay
pheloamali
pskaguybewavumayuh
Wellkut
hengo5wangi
khaphawangj
i
kel
4houses
bef
oremi ne.
..
Welligotinsi
ddt hehouseandmamabesacedi l
ukpheksoweat ei nsil
enceaf t
erOmphileandi went
towasht hedisheshav i
ngl i
ghtconvoswel
l af
teri
wenttotakeabat h,gotintomyP. j
'
sandcalledu
Mbaliandt ol
dheraboutmnanoNqabay ohuy e
warasauchom pheloshewashappyf orme.

Okyngabhal
amahomeworkswam thencall
edubae
j
usttosaygoodni
ghtt
henidossedof
ftolal
aland

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Sot
heweekwentont
hingswer
est
il
ll
itbet
weenme
andmyki ng.
.i
twasnowSat ur
dayand
Mike(
stepfat
herwasleav
ing)

Mom:
:
eyccurdadi
sleav
ingcomesaygoodby
e
(
Wit
hthatshel
eftt
her
oom)
Mxm i
can'
tbel
i
evekut
hngv
usel
wlenonsense.
..
Okyit
ookmygownandmysl
eeper
sAndwentout
andl
ooksl
i
kebekasal
i
ndemi
navel
eudot
i
Me:
:
byeby
ebababohav
easaf
etr
ip
(Wit
hthatiwentbackinthehousehappyt
hatt
he
guywasleavingay
yi l
ovehisj
obforkeepi
nghi
m
awayfrom us)

Soumamasentmet otheshopst obuybreadonthe

wayi waschat ti
ngwithbaeonf acebookwhena
bl
ackG. T.Istoppednextt
ome, itwasBri
an,Bri
an
Parkertheonewhogav emel i
ftwithaJeepthe
otherday.
..ohhhsotodayhe'sinaG. T.
Iokykant
i
thinint
oy alomlungu
Heoff
eredmeal i
ftagai
naii
butiref
usedhet
hen
st
oppedhiscarwangkhapheshopaii
ke.
..
Si
thi
nst
orysakhkant
.
..

Hi
m::i
t'
ssogreatt
oseeuagai
nAmo.
.hav
ei
pr
onouncedurnamery
t
Me:
:
ilaughedy
ecudi
d..
.sodoul
i
vear
oundher
e?
Hi
m::
nahi
justcomeher
etoseeu
Me:
:
(ichockedf
rom sal
i
va)what
??
Whatf
or?
Hi
m::
wel
luwi
l
lknowsoon
(Wearri
vedeplazaandloml
unguof
fer
edt
obuymei
breakf
asticoul
dn'
tsaynotoMcDkewesetdown)

Hi
m::
how'
sAnast
asi
a?
Me:
:
(il
ookedathi
m sur
pri
sed)howdouknowmy
mot
her
Hi
m::
andhowar
eursi
bli
ngs
(
Wel
lhej
usti
gnor
edmyquest
ionwow)
Me:
:
theyar
efy
n
Hi
m::
hav
eyoubot
her
edt
oaskabouturf
ather
Me:
:
no
Hi
m::
ithi
nky
oushoul
d
(
Wit
hthathest
ooduppai
dthebi
l
landl
eft
)

Kantiv
elewho'
sthatmani wentt
obuythebreAd
theonethatmymothersentmetogetanhourago
Theniwentbackhomeandi
foundmamadoi
ng
washi
ng
Her:
:
ohhhsoukhumbul
i
lkut
hut
huny
iweandu
deci
dedt
ocomeback
Me::
sor
rymt akama(well
thathowical
lmymother
mostty
ms) ngibenecrampsendlel
enandi
hadtosit
downzizeziphel
(l
yi
ng )
Her
::y
uhhmt
anam ur
ytmanj
eorshoul
dichecku
Me:
:
nononomasengr
ytnow

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t9

Welliwentt omyr oom andi satatthecornerofmy

bed..
.yeci wasst i
ll
conf useaboutBr i
anPar keri
meanhowcomei strangersfunngazubabam
kangakay oh,whil
ei wasbusyt hi
nki
ngi r
emember ed
theotherdaywhenmom wasangr yatmeaboutmy
att
it
udet owar dsMike(stepfather
)..
.
Mymot
herment
ionedt
henameBr
ian.
.

Thatwheni gotoutandwenttomom out

sideshe
wasnowatt hewashingli
ne,i
hadtoaskherabout
Bri
an..
.ihadto..
..
Mom:
:
kwenzenj
anwenwachamukasowndi
zanj
e
Me::
mom i
needut
otel
lusomet
hing.
.Andbe
honest
Her
::
hav
eiev
erl
i
edt
ounacc
Me:
:
mom pl
ease
Her:
:
okyoky(shel
eavedthewashi
ngandcamet
o
st
andinf
rontofme)kwenzenj
ancc
Me:
:
mom who'
sBr
iant
heoney
ousai
dwangl
ahl
a
Her:
:
uhmm babyidon'
tknowwhatiwassay
ingt
hat
dayiwasangr
y..
youhavenot
hingt
oworr
yabout
Me::
okythenwhat'
smyf ather
'sname.
.iwantt
o
knoweverythi
ngabouthim
Her:
:(
shechocked)l
ookuhhhhunnywewi
l
ltal
k
aboutthi
slat
erokay

Asiwasaboutt
oanswerhermyphonerangandi
t
wasNqabasoimovedawayfrom mom t
oanswer
y
phone.
.
Phonecal
lconv
o

Me:
:
MyNqaba
Hi
m::
cakesunj
nPr
incessand'
sakukhumbul
anganj
e
Me::
(ismi
l
edphelail
ovedthewaybekakhul
um
ngay
oandi l
ovedi
siXhosa)
Myper
soni
micut
oo
Hi
m::
canwemeetkepl
ease
Me:
:
inanhourkeneh
(
Ihangedup)
Ir
ushedinsi
det
hehousetofr
eshenup,mi
ndui
wassti
l
linmygownyetthet
ym was12h00

Wel
ligotbat
hedwor emymaroonshor
tdresswit
h
mywhit
eallst
arthenuni
tedmyhai
rtofl
ownj ei
t
wasl
ongphelo.
.
Appli
edmymar
oonlipst
ick..
.iwasl
ooki
nghotke
mtakamat
heniwentout..
.
AsIwaswai
ti
ngf
orhi
m att
hepar
kMbal
ical
l
ed
Me:
:
chom
Her:
:heyst
ranger.
..
iwaswonderi
ngi
fungakhony
in
ukf
ikasohambasy emall
justt
hetwoofuswe
haven'
tdonethati
nawhilenow
Me::
uhmm babesI
'
vegotplanswi
thNqabasohow
aboutt
omorrowaf
terchur
ch
Her:
:
y ohl
ooksl
i
keuNqabasoy
akt
jont
jaempi
l
wen
yam kenow
.
..
..

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s
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15:
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arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionofi
nser
t9

Wel
lmyf
rndwasr
ytnowev
eryspar
ety
migeti
am
wi
thNqaba

Me:
:chom i
t'
snotl
i
ket
hati
promi
seksasai
wil
l
makeituptou
Her
::
ayyngzobonangawekecc
Me:
:
lov
eyah
(
Shehangedup)
Yohmyf r
ndiangr yatmei thenf
eltNqaba'
shands
touchingmywai stfrom behi
nditur
nedtolookat
himy ohhejustkissedme

Lor
dknowswhathi
ski
ssdi
dtome
Wel
lweki
ssedf
orl
i
ke6mi
n
.
.
Hi
m::
unj
nmypr
incess
Me:
:
plamnt
wam
Hi
m::
imi
sseduy
oh
Me:
:
met
oo
Hesmi
l
edandr
eveal
edt
hosebeaut
if
ult
eet
hs
Yohgoshhi
lov
ethi
sguymaary
ohhh

Okywespentt
hedayt ogetherupunt
il3gi
rl
s
showedupwel
lnabobaf undeclassl
am butthey
arenotmyf
avori
tepeoplexeim
ButyenauNqabaaiizi
chom zakhelezhest
oodup
andwenttothem t
ohugthe1by1l eavi
ngmeli
kea
roast
edchi
ckennxx

Wellhechat
tedwi
tht
hem unt
ili
wasi
rr
it
atedandi
deci
dedtogohome
Imeanwhodoesthat
,l
eav
inghi
sgal
justt
ochat
wit
hothergal
snxxuy
adel
eluboy

Welli
gothomeandbengekhmunti
suppose
bay
okwenzigr
ocer
ies.
..
Asi
wasaboutt
oSi
tdownNqabacal
l
ed
Hi
m::
cakeswav
elwand'
shi
yanj
ewi
thoutagoodby
e
Me::
hauwasi supposet
ofoll
owungi
kphazami
se
whi
leywerehav i
ngfunnabomzal
abakho(
well
that
whathecal
lthem)
Hi
m::
haucakesi
tnotl
i
kend'
j
olnabokl
k
Me:
:
mxm what
everNqaba
Hi
m::
wel
ll
etmel
etucool
off
(
Hehangedup)
Mxm mf
ttheguywasnotev
enapol
ogi
zi
ng
.
..
Anywayiwentt
owat
cht
heTVunt
ili
fel
lasl
eepat
thecouch

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arykaAmo

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nser
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SoSbul
elowokemeup
Her:
:wakeupwakeupAmu(
wel
lshecal
l
smeAmun
idon'
tknowwhy)
Me:
:
whati
sitLel
o
Her
::
Mbal
ii
sher
e
Iwokeupli
ketherewassomeonepoint
ingagunon
mei r
ushedtotheki
tchenandshewasther
elooki
ng
hotA F
Welll
etmedescr
ibeMbal
iforushe'
sdar
k(nott
hat
dar
k)
Shehasdi
mpl es,
si
ze30andshe'
stal
l
ert
hanme
she'
sper
fectguys.
..
Wel
lshewaswear i
ngmaroonAdidastr
acksui
t,
mind
umaroonisourfav
ouri
tecol
our
.Andshehad
mar
oonlipst
ickonwit
hwhiteAl
lstar
..
.

Me:
:
chomamaar
nuf
akaukshi
sagi
rl
Her:
:waYazbabesandwenaual
sol
ookgoodona
dr
ess
Mom:
:
pleaset
ell
herMbal
i
Me::mam pl
easest
opi
nter
fer
ingkuy
indaba
ezngakf
un
(
Theyal
ll
aughed)
Me:
:
any
waychommawhatbr
ingsuher
e
Her
::
wel
lsekuy
cal
ayi
ngi
rlukukv
akashel
Me:
:
aii
phel
owenaawv
akashel
anhau
Her:
:
aii
boAmogel
angZi
qubuki
l
lmef
ormi
ssi
ngu
hl
e
(
Ilaughed)
Me:
:
okyokyokyl
etgot
omyr
oom kebunny
Shef ol
lowedmeandmom wasbusypacki
ngt
he
grocerywit
hLel
oandOmphil
e

Wesatont hebedohhbekaphet heibagyeNike

minduwel oveamal abel
ssnochommashet ook
outiyoghurt,l
ays,
tennisnamafl
yingfi
shfrom t
hat
bagandwedagi nwhi l
ecatchi
ngupev er
ythi
ngwent
well
untilshement i
onedmyNqabai nt
heconv o
.
.
Besengamtjel
ngentoeyenzi
wuNqabaandshe
wantedtoconfr
ontherphel
ashe'
sov
erprot
ect
ive
overmelomntu

Istoppedherbecauseihat
eidr
amakemi na.
..
fr
om
therethedaywentwell
ngamkhaphasekubal
ate
andwheni gothomeif
oundLel
oandOmphi l
e
havingicecream
Me:
:
uphmamenu
Omphi
l
e::
she'
sinherr
oom
Aykebesengay
akhonasinceiwant
edtotal
ktoher
aboutmyfat
heritt
ym shet
ell
smeev er
ythi
ngnow

Asi
wasaboutt
onockguesswhati
hear
d??

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arykaAmo
I
nser
t11

Itsoundedlikemom wasargui
ngwit
hsomeone
cryi
ngsosi nceidi
dn'
thearwhoshewasar gui
ng
withifi
guredshewasont hephoneihear
dher
saying
.
..
.
"Umustbecr azyi
fut
hinkI'dletucomei ntomy
daughtersli
feshe'
sminei rai
sedheralonewher e
wereut hesepast15yrsshedoesn'thaveaf atheri
am themot herandaf
at hertoherdon'
tev ercall
me
agai
n"
Thenshewentsilent.
..
iheardfootst
epscomingt
o
whereiwasstandingiqui
cklyrantomyroom andi
l
ockedthedooriwenttot hecornerofmyroom
Isatt
heretry
ingtofi
gureoutwhowasmom t al
king
aboutandwhowasshet al
ki
ngtobecauseshetold
medaddi ed.
..
didsheli
edtome???.
..

.
..
Isatt
herequesti
oningandansweringmyself.
..
i
musthavefal
lenasleepbecauseihear
dmom' ssof
t
handssl
owlyshakingmei wokeupandr ubbedmy
eyesandsatstr
aightlooki
ngather
Her:
:babywhydi
dyousl
eepatt
hecor
neronacol
d
f
loor..
.auoky
Me::
ishoul
dbeaski
ngut
hatmom urey
esar
e
bl
oodyred
Her:
:ohhhitmustbebecauseoft
heoni
oni
was
chopping
(
Peopl
ethi
swomani
sly
ingt
omei
hear
dhercr
ying
moc)
Me::
ohhhifusayso...
.mom ineedt
otal
ktouabout
somethi
ng(isneezedaft
erthat)
Her
::
standuphunumust'
vegot
tenacol
dwhi
l
eu
wer
esleepi
ngonthef
loor
(Istoodupandwenttomybed,
shecamewit
ha
blankett
ocovermethensher
ubbedmyback)
Her
::
auokyshoul
didoacheckuponu
Me:
:
mom st
opbei
ngadoct
orandbeamot
her.
..
i
am f
inebuty
ou'
reno.
.whatup
Her:
:
sweetyiam f
ineokynot
hingi
swr
ong(
wit
hthat
shewentout
)

.
..
.
Ther
e'ssomethi
ngdeepthatmom washi
dingf
rom
me...
butil
ett
edthatt
houghtsl
ide.
..

Si
nceimissedNqabai
tookmyphoneandtext
ed
hi
m hecall
edandwehadaver
yniceconv
o..
.
Wellhere'
sthethingwithmei dogetangr ywith
Nqababuti fai
ltoconfronthimi justl
etitsl
ide
Mbalisaysiam af ool
fordoingt hatbuti am scar
ed
t
hatificonfronthimimi ghtpushhi m away

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nser
t12

So3mont hshaspasseditwasnowJul yholi

day
s..
.
Andihav en'
tbeenabletoaskmymom aboutdad
causeshe'shasbeenscarcelatel
yandwhenshe
wasar oundshewouldlockhersel
finherroom
somethinghasbeeneatinginsi
deoutbecauseshe
evenlostwait.
..
Sot odayitwasthefirstweekoftheholidaysand
mama, Sbulel
oandOmphi lewerevisi
ti
ngmy
grandparentsinK.Z.
Ni wasn'tgoi
ngbecausemy
grandparentshatedthefactthatiam colour
edso
thewoul dcall
meal lsortofnames...
Ihelpedt
hem topackt
hei
rbel
ongi
ngst
heywer
e
goingtoneed.
..

Mom:
:
sweet
yar
eusur
eyouar
egonnabef
ynal
one.
Me:
:yesmom iwi
l
lbeher
epl
usi
fineedany
thi
ngi
wi
ll
letuknow
Her
::
iam onecal
lawayoky
Me:
:
yes
Her
::
besaf
eandt
akecar
eoky
..
.
Il
oveu
Me:
:
lov
eut
oo

.
..
Well
isaidmygoodby
est
oal
loft
hem andi
was
homealoney
eeey
Ical
l
edMbal
itocomeov
erandshediday
keshe
camewi
thboozesowet
hrewahousespart
yjust
thet
woofus

Wedanced,
drank,
laughedet
c..
.
Soitwasnow21h00andMbaliwasasl
eepandi
wasn'
tsleepymyphoner
anganditwasNqaba.
.y
es
westil
ldati
ng
Hi
m::
comeoutnowcakes
(
Hehangedup)
Welli
wentoutandi
sawabl
ackpol
oinf
rontoft
he
gat
e
Wel
liknewhewasi
nsi
dei
tsi
ncei
twashi
sbr
other
's

Iwentt
oknockont
hewi
ndowheopenedadoorf
or
me
Me::
dudeuzofunanl
aebsukso.
.y
azumama
angasbamba
Hi
m::
cakesy
ou'
ret
heonewhotol
dmekba
uy
ahambanamhl
aremember
Me:
:
yhuhambi
lbutushoul
dn'
tbeher
esol
ate
Hi
m::
comeoncakesand'
kwazangaul
i
ndakusei
mi
ssedu
Me:
:
whati
fthenei
ghbor
sseeuher
e
Him::
rel
axcakestheywon'
t..
butwecanmov
efr
om
herei
fuwantt o
Me:
:
yesmov
evel
e
(
Well
hedroveawayf
rom homeandwentt
othepar
k
i
twasqui
te)
Hi
m::
happy
?
Me:
:
yes
Hi
m::
sodi
dul
ockt
hedoornj
e
Me:
:
nobutMbal
ii
sther
e
Hi
m::
whati
sshedoi
ngt
her
e
Me:
:
sleepov
erhaungy
adabngedwaphel
Hi
m::
askaushoul
dhav
ecal
l
edme
Me:
:
what
??
Hi
m::
nd'
yaj
okerkl
k

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arykaAmo

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inuat
ionofi
nser
t12

Me:
:
mxm
Hel
aughed
Het
henki
ssedmet
henqui
ckl
ypul
l
edout
Hi
m::
cakeshav
eubeendr
inki
ng
Me:
:
yeahso
Hi
m::
not
hing
Heki
ssedmeagai
nsl
owl
ythi
sti
me.
.
Wekissedunt
ili
waswethet
henst
oppedy
ohi
was
i
rr
it
ated
.
..
Okywehli
saisituguythenaskedmet osi
tontopof
hi
m wellwi
ththefeel
i
ngt hati
wasf eel
i
ngididasi
wastol
dhekissedmewhi l
ebrushi
ngmy
br
east.
..
mindui waswear i
ngigownnepantykphel
a
nj
e..
.
Hethenki
ssedmeonmybr eastandhi
shandswer e
nowinmyp* ssyir
eleasedasoftmoanphel
aitwas
ni
cehethenkissedmei nmystomachleav
inglov
e
bi
tesal
lovermybodywel l

Heki
ssedi
nthemout
hagai
nwhi
l
ehi
shandswer
e
r
ubbi
ngmyp*
ssysony
c

Okyhewasnowont
opofmeonl
ygodknows
how
Heconti
nuedwhathewasdoingwithmemoani ng
andunexpect
edl
yheenteredmesoi r
eleasedaloud
moanhekeptgoingi
nandout ,
i
nandout, i
nandout
unt
ilhecameonmyt i
ghtshethencol
lapsednextto
me
.
..
Andi
wasnol
ongerav
irgi
nwef
ell
asl
eep.
..

Iwokeupandtookhi
sphonesincemi newasat
homeanditwas07h00yohiquickl
ytookmygown
andworei
twit
houtwaki
nghim up..
Gotoutofthecarandi t
ri
edtorunbuticoul
dn'
t
becauseiwasi npai
nthatwhenirememberedwhat
happenedlastnyt
..
.
Tear
smadet
hei
rwayout f
orsomer
eason.
..
Okyi
tri
edtowalkf
astgoi
nghomesi
ncei
twasn'
t
t
hatf
arlucki
l
ynobodysawme..
.
Iwentinsi
det
hehouseandMbali
wasal
ready
wai
tingformeonthecouch.
..
.
.
..
.

Yohnkosi
notnowy
oh

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Iwal
kedpastherl
i
keshewasn'
tev
ent
her
e .
..
Iwenttoshoweribat
hedwi t
hcol
dwat er,
Lot
ioned
myselfthenworemyblackumbrel
laskir
t,
whi
teshirt
thenmyblacksl
eepers.
..Ti
edmyhairi
ntoaloose
bunt
henwentt
otheki
tchen.
..

.
..
..
Wenttot
hefri
dgetookoutyoghurtand
st
rawber
ri
es.
..Iwentt
ositnextt
oMbal iandat
e..

Her
::
SawubonaAmogel
angVanessaZi
qubu
Me:
:
yeboMbal
enhl
eLucyZi
kal
ala
Her
::
wher
ewer
eu
Me:
:
Nqaba'
sbr
other
'scar
Her
::
sincewhen
Me:
:
21h00
Her
::
WHAT?
??.
..
B*t
chuspentt
heni
ghtwi
thhi
m??
?
Me:
:y
eah(
isai
dthatwi
tht
hest
rawber
ryonmy
mout
h)
Her
::
pleaset
ell
meuguy
sdi
dn'
tdoany
thi
ng
Me:
:
wedi
dhadsex(
isai
dthati
nal
owv
oice)
Her
::
Amogel
angwhyt
hough
Me:
:
itj
usthappenedi
didn'
tpl
ani
t
Her:
:butupromi
sedmeuwouldkeepurVirgini
ty
unt
ilureach18(
shesai
dthati
nadisappoi
nted
voi
ce)..
.
Me:
:
iam sor
rychom
Her
::
diduusedcondom
Me:
:
no
Shest
oodupandgr
abmyhand
Her
::
wear
egoi
ngt
ogetumor
ningaf
terpi
l
ls.
..

Wellguysididpr omisedMbalithatiwasgoingt
o
keepmyv ir
ginityunti
lireach18..
.sheaskedmeto
doitforhersinceshecoul dn'
tbecauseshewas
rapedwhenwewer e12bysomeoneshedoesn' t
know...
.

Wellwearr
ivedandt
henweboughtt
hemor
ning
af
terpi
ll
andi dr
ankt
hem t
henwewentt
oMcDt o
grabsomethi
ngtoeat
..
.iapol
ogi
zedt
oherf
or
breaki
ngt
hepr omi
seimadetoherandwewer
enow
fi
ne..
.

It
oldherev
ery
thi
ngt
hathappenedt
hepr
evi
ous
ni
ghtal
lshedi
dwaslaugh

Wehadagr
eatdayhl
e

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t14

So14day spastandihaven'
theardfrom Nqaba
sincethatnighti
wassohear tbroken,
ful
lwit
hregr
et
icrieddayandnight,
icoul
dn'teatal
lieverdi
dwas
totexthim buthewouldn'
trespondi t
ri
edtocal
lhi
m
buthewoul
danswerandsay
"
List
eni
wil
lcal
lubacki
am al
i
lbusyatt
he
moment
"
Thenhewoul
dhangup.
..
Somet
imesiwouldbumptohim att
hest
reet
sbut
hewoul
djustpr
etendt
onotseeme...

.
..
If
eltst
upi
d,l
onel
yandf
ool
i
sh.
..
Imissedhi m somuch, i
mi ssedthewayhetouched
me,thewayhel aughed,thewayheki ssedmeand
thewayhet al
kedtomei missedbei
ngcall
edcakes
orprincessGodi missedhim
.
..
.
Iwasbr
okenthathowiwasmyhear
twasdivi
ded
i
ntomil
l
ionpi
ecesalli
coul
dev
erthi
nkaboutwas
hi
m..
.
Itwascl
eart
hatal
lheev
erwant
edf
rom mewas
sex.
..
Andi
hat
edmy
sel
fforgi
vi
nghi
mit .
.
Iwasafool,
thesongt
hatwasonrepeatt
hoseday
s
wasthesongti
tl
ed"mel
tthesnow"
Il
ovedt
hel
yri
cs
youseeloveatf i
rsti
tsummertimethatwhen
uthi
nkthatever
ything'
sf i
nenooneevert
hinksit
gonnaend,
thenthingsgowr ongandwint
ercomesu
gonnaneedtorunt osomeonel ef
tal
oneyou'
llj
ust
fr
eezeupagain

.
..
Alli ev
erdidwast ositatthecornerofmybedl isten
tothesongandcr i
ed..
.myheartwasbr okenandt he
wor stt
hingwast hatnoonenot i
cedmypai ni was
allbymyselfsinceMbal iwasalsov i
si
tingherfather
i
nCapeTown. .
.
Iwasal
lal
one.
.al
lal
one

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thef eel
ingt hatiam f
eelingnowt hatidon'thear
yourv oiceorhav ey ourt
ouchandki ssy ourli
ps
'
causei don'thav eachoiceohwhati wouldn'
tgive
tohav ey oulyingbymysi deri
ghthere,'
causebaby
wheny oulefti l
ostapartofmei t'ssti
ll
sohar dto
beli
evecomeback, babyplease'causewebel ong
together
.
..
Mari
aCarey-webel
ongt oget
her.
..Asiwasli
steni
ng
t
othesonginsidet
heshowert earswereal
so
f
lowi
ngthroughmyf acewiththewater
..
.
Igotoutoftheshower,
lot
ionedandworemypur pl
e
Adidastr
acksui
tandmybl acksl
eeper
si t
iedmyhair
i
ntoaneatbuni thenappl
iedmypurpl
elipst
ick.
..
Il
ookedmysel
fintoamir
rormyeyesweresmal
l
andredandmyfacewaspuff
yfr
om cr
ying.
..
Okyiwenttot
hekit
chenmadechi
ckennoodl
esand
it
ri
edtoeatphel
aican'
tev
enrememberthel
ast
t
imeiate.
..
Welli
managedt
ofini
shthewholebowl
wowi
was
sur
pri
sedmyphonerangandi
titwasmom

.
..
Me:
:
mamam
Her
::
nkosazankamamaunj
n
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
ama.
..
ninni
njn
Her
::
we'
ref
ynbaby
,howhav
eubeen
Me:
:
beengood
Her
::
douneedany
thi
ng
Me:
:
nomamabuti
wil
ll
etuknowi
fido
Her:
:
okybabyIwaschecki
ngonu.
..
ohhhandwe'
re
comingbackSunday
Me:
:
okymom by
e
Her
::
lov
eyou
Me:
:
lov
eumor
e
(
Ihangedup)
Wellit
ooksomefewsel
fi
esandl
ucki
l
yi was
beat
if
ullont
hepi
csmyfacewasn'
tpuff
y

.
..
..
Asiwasl ookingatthepicmypicwithNqaba
appear
edont hescreenandirememberedtheday
wetookthatpi c,
wewer esohappy.
.l
ovewasinthe
ai
r,
wellatleastthatwhatit
hought.
..
Asiwaslooki
ngatt
hepicmyt
earfel
lont
hescr
een
andidi
dn'
tevennot
icei
wascr
ying.
..

.
.
Thet
hingsboy
sdot
ous.
..
Irel
easedapainf
ulsoar
b..
.ici
edandcr
iedandcr
ied
unti
lIfel
lasl
eep
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Myphonewokemeupi
twasMbal
iandi
answer
ed
i
nasleepyv
oice
Me:
:
chommam
Her
::
bunnyhowar
eu
Me:
:
iam goodbabes.
..
imi
cut
hough
Her:
:i
know,i
micut
oobutr
elaxi
am comi
ngback
Fr
idaysweet
Me::
yuhhhMbal
enhl
eksesei
mondaynj
enay
oshay
ni
nfri
dayngi
kbon
Her
::
rel
axerhaugi
rl4day
sl ef
tnj
ena.
..
any
wayf
il
lme
i
nwhathasbeenhappeningtou
Me:
:
wel
lihav
ebeengoodhun
(
Wellil
iedcauseiknewi
fit
oldherthet
rut
hshe
wasgoingtofl
yandcomeherejustt
oki
ll
Nqaba.
..
thathowmuchshelovedme )
Her
::
andNqabahowar
ethi
ngsbet
weent
het
woofu
Me:
:
aii
chommat
hatonei
sbor
ingmenj
e
Her
::
stopl
yi
ngt
uuAmo.
..
whatupt
ell
me
Me:
:
not
hingchommahau.
..
I'
vegotnot
hingt
otel
l
Her:
:
Amogel angyekaukcambamangatuuiknowu
notf
yni canfeel
itandinot
icedy
ourposton
WhatsApp
.
.
Okyshegotmei
tol
dherev
ery
thi
ngandi
mean
ever
ythi
ng
Her
::
sor
rybabesbutydi
dn'
tubot
hert
ocal
lme
Me:
:
idi
dn'
twannabot
heruwi
thmypr
obl
ems
Her
::
babesurpr
obl
em ar
emypr
obl
emsmocuknow
i
t
.
..
Wellumnganami
wangduduzakeandi
fel
tbet
ter
af
terthat
..

Me:
:
li
stenkechom sobuyskhul
um.
.il
oveuoky
Her
::
thandway
im mubi
andchom domeaf
avor
Me:
:
any
thi
ng
Her
::
stopcr
yingov
erpeopl
ewhoar
enotwor
thur
t
earsoky
Me:
:
goti
tmyB*
tch
(
Ihangedup)
Soideci
dedtot
akeawal
ksi
ncei
hav
en'
tfort
hel
ast
twoweeks.
..

Iwenttot
akeR100f
rom mypur
set
heni
wentt
o
pl
aza..
.
WenttoPicknPayandboughtmyselfyoghur
t,
Lay
s,CocaColaandsomechocol
ate.
..
Theni
wentt
osi
tdownal
one.
..
Itookf
ewsel
fi
esupl
oadedt
hem onf
acebookt
heni
hadmygoodi
es..
.
Thedaywentonj
ustf
yn.
..
.
..
Iwenthomewelliwaskinderhungr
ysoideci
dedt
o
Cookspaghet
tiandchakal
aka(myfavour
it
e)
Wel
licookedandat
e..
.
..
Imustsayienj
oyedmyfoodphel
aihav
en'
teat
en
homecookedmeal iawhi
lenow.
..
.
..
It
henwentt
otakebat
h,l
oti
onedt
henwor
emyp.
j'
s.
..
Igotundermybl
anki
es.
..
Tookmyphonewentt ogall
eryandidel
etedevery
picofmi neandNqabaimeaneverypi
c..
.wentt
omy
contactidel
etedhi
snumberitwasti
mef ormeto
acceptthathewasgone.
..
Theni wentt
olal
alandl
i
steni
ngt
othesong"
no
brokenheart
sbyBebeRexha"
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Thenextdayi
woke.
..
niwasi
nagoodmoodandi
di
dn'
tknowwhy ..
..
Iwentt
oputmyphoneonspeakerngavul
ayonki
vol
umethenngaf
akai colour
sbyD. JZi
nhl
e
.
.iyavumal atrackguysaykeicleanedt hewhole
housewi thi
n2hour swhileiwassi ngingal
ongwi t
h
thesong...t
hathowf astiam mangcl eanerkuno
msi ndoplusindluyaki
thi
wasnott hatbig(
kit
chen,
mom' sr
oom, bathr
oom,myr oom,Omphi lenSbulel
o'
s
room andasi tti
ngroom)...
.
..
..
.
Iwentt
othebat
hroom,
ibat
hed,
l
oti
onedmysel
f.
..
Theworemyboyf
ri
endjean,
myLoosebl
ueredbatT-
shi
rtappl
i
edpi
nkl
ipst
ick.
..
idi
dn'
tti
emyhai
rijust
spr
ayedit
..
.
.
.
Iwasonpoi
ntmt
akama.
.
Wenttotheki
tchenandihadfr
uitsal
adanda
yoghur
tforbr
eakfastmyfav
ouri
te
.
..
.
Sinceiwasboredi
deci
dedtogoanddomyhai
ri
haven'
tdoiti
nmonthsphel
a..
..

Wentt omyroom tookmypurseandngabangena

ke,iar
ri
vedesalonichooset
odoi st
rai
ghtupesi
blackandpurpl
e..

I
ttook2hour
sformyhairt
obef i
nished.
..
.y
uhhay
y
bengmuhl
exei
m bey
ingf
anelal
anto..
.
Ipai
dtheni
wasoutoft
her
e..
.
..
Icr
avedforipi
zzamarnsoit
ookitaxingay
aemal
l
si
nceidebonai
rsbey
ngekhoepl
aza..
.
Wel
liar
ri
vedandi
order
edt
heyt
oldmet
owai
t15
mi
n..
.
.
Iwenttosi
tdownkei
tookamasel
fi
esi
ncei
was
l
ookinggoodke.
.
Ihear
dav
oice
Hi
m::
Amoi
t'
sal
way
sgoodt
oseeuagai
n
(
Itur
nedt
olookwhoi
twasandi
twasBr
ian)
Me:
:
hy
Hi
m: :
howareu(
hesai
dthatgr
abi
ngachai
rand
si
tt
ingnextt
ome)
Me:
:
iam good,
u
Hi
m::
goodt
oo.
..
.ul
ovet
aki
ngpi
ctur
esneh
Me:
:y
uuhnawebowzot
handai
fuhadt
hisbeaut
if
ul
f
aceihav
e
(
Wel
aughed)
Me:
:
heyi
got
tat
akemyor
deri
wil
lber
ightback
(
Iwentt
otakei
pizzay
am necoket
henwentback
t
ome)
Me:
:
sowhatbr
ingsuher
e
Him::
wel
lihadt obuymyselffewthi
ngs(hesai
dthat
openi
ngmypi zzawithoutmypermeat
ionayke
yangj
wayell
oml ungu )
Me::
oky(
besengbhor
eki
lnj
ecozl
oml
unguudl
ai
pi
zzayam ir
epeatyami
)

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arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
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Hi
m::
sohow'
surbeaut
if
ulmot
her
Me::
she'
swasfi
net
helastt
ymit
alkedt
oher
..
..
ist
il
l
don'
tknowhowuknowmymother
Hi
m::
wher
eisshe(
yohhhedi
dn'
tanswermeagai
n)
Me:
:
K.Z.
N
Hi
m::
ohht
oherr
aci
stpar
ent
s
Me:
:
howdouknowt
hat
Hi
m::whydi
dn'
tugo(y
ohhhaiit
hismankeeps
i
gnor
ingmyQsyetheiseat
ingmypizza )
Me::
ididn'
tgobecausetheyateraci
stssot
heydon'
t
l
ikemet heycan'tev
enpret
endandmom al way
s
i
gnorethatfactevenwhenitel
lhersheal
wayssays
iam i
magi ni
ng
Him::mmm i
seeurmot
herst
il
lcan'
tst
andupt
oher
parents
Me:
:kahl
ekahl
ewenahowdouknowmyf ami
l
y(t
his
mansoundedl
ikeheknewal
otoft
hings)
Hi
m::
sowher
e'st
hef
atherofy
oursi
bli
ngs
Me::
ohht
hatonehe'
sapil
otsohehar
dlycomes
homeandit
hankGodfort
hat
Hi
m::
souhat
ehi
m
Me:
:
mor
ethanuknow
(
Hegav
emeaf
unnyl
ookandwebot
hlaughed)
Hi
m::i
twasgoodseei
ngubabygi
rl
(hesai
dthat
st
andi
ngupandtaki
ngouthi
spur
se)
Me::
l
eavi
ngalr
eady
??(
Iwasst
art
ingt
oenj
oyhi
s
companyphel
a)
Him::
yeahI
'vegotameet i
nginanhourbutdon' t
worryuwil
lseemear oundagain(
wi ththathstook
outfewRandsfrom hi
spurse)her
et hisisfor
repl
aci
ngurpizzaisawthewayul ookedatmewhi le
iwaseati
ngit(
helaughedsayi
ngt hat)
Hel
eft
..
.

.
..
Icount
edthemoneyhej
ustgav
emei
twasR2000
yohhh!
!!
Whorepl
aceapi
zzawi
thaR2000ay
yunemal
i
l
omuntuyoh.
.
Wel
liwentt
obuyanot
herpi
zzat
heni
wenthome
.
..
.
Wentt
otakeabat
h,at
ethenwentof
ftol
alal
and

.
..
.

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Sotheweekwentonjustf
ineandimustsaymu
hear
twasrecov
eri
ngfrom thehear
tbr
eakandi
was
begi
nni
ngtobehappyagain

.
..
SoitwasSunday,
thedaybef
oretheschool
reopenedmom wascomingbackimustsayiwas
happybecauseiwasnowmissingher
..
.
Mbal
iwasal
readybacksoi
hadaskedhert
ocome
hel
pmecookameal towelcomemom, Lel
oand
Omphil
eback,
ther
easoni askedheri
sbecauseshe
knewhowtocookyohhh.
..
.
.
..
Sowecookedboiledpot
atoes,
greensal
ad,
fr
ied
chi
ckenandcabbagesal
ad..
.
Imustsayi
twasDel
i
cious
Andi
tlookedgoodt
o
Wedishedup..
.theniwenttobat
hthenwor
emy
greyt
rackpant
,whit
evestandmyblackAdi
das
sandl
es..
.
Wentbackt
oMbaliandwesatdownwewait
edf
or
mom andmysi
bli
ngswhil
ehavi
ngli
lconv
os

.
..
.
Mom::
theownerofthehouseisbackke(
shesai
d
t
hatwi
thabigsmileonherface)
Shelookedbeaut
if
ulguy
sshewaswear
ing
boyf
riendj
eanebluenecropt
opewhi
tenevans
onethingaboutmymom shehasabeaut
if
ulbody
ungaphikaukut
hunabant
wanabay3andshe'
s
beauti
ful
.
..
Iqui
ckl
ywentt
ohugher.
..
andi
huggedhert
ight
Her:
:y
uhhhsi
ster
sngangbul
alphel
auar
enow
suf
focat
ingme
(
Weal
ll
aughed)
Theni wentt
ohuggedamasi
bli
ngsam i
missed
them phel
ayohh

.
..
.
Mom:
:
Mbal
iwenaawf
unv
elel
okunghugger
(
Wel
aughedandMbal
iwentt
ohugher
)
Wegavethem f
oodwesatdownandat
ewhi
l
ethey
wer
etel
li
ngusaboutt
hei
rtri
p..
..

.
..
.
Thedaywentonandonandon
Imustsayumamal ookedhappyt
hanthel
astt
imei
sawher,i
guessshejustneededt
imeawayandshe
hadgai
nedwaitagain
.
..
Iwashappyt
oseemyAnast
asi
aagai
n
.
..
USbulel
ohadgr
ownupsofastnge2weeksnj
eand
mybrother(
Omphi
l
e)wasst
il
lthesame
.
..
.
Imustsayi
am bl
essedt
ohav
ethem i
nmyl
i
fe

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 igot
tasaywhatonmymi ndsomethi
ngaboutus
doesn'
tseem r
ightt
heseday
s,l
if
ekeepget
ti
ngin
theway.
..
Whenev
erwet
rysomehowt
hepl
ani
tal
way
sfades
away
Got
tagomyownway-
Highschool
musi
cal
song,
one
ofmyfav
our
it
emovi
es.
..
Welli
twasnowMondaymorni
ngi waspr
epar
ingf
or
schoolwhi
l
esi
ngi
ngalongwi
ththesong.
..

Ideci
dedtowearsomet
hingdi
ff
erentski
rt
,shi
rt,
ti
e
andablazer
Sincebesengchachi
leistr
aightupileav
edmyhai
r
hangingandi put
tedablackhairbandthent
o
compl et
emyl ookiappl
iedpinkli
psti
ck
.
..
..
Onewordthatcandescr
ibet
hewayi
wasl
ooki
ng
t
hatdayi
s" hot
"
.
..
..
Iwenttotheki
tchen..
.mom wasal
readygonet
o
workandLelonOmphi l
ewerenowont hei
rwayout
wel
litookanapplethenwentout
.
..
Iar
ri
vedatschool
andMbal
iwasnoty
ett
her
emxm
..
.
Iwentt
oclasskobeki
yncwadi
foundNqabapl
ayi
ng
wit
hhisex.
..
Wel
lthatwhathet
oldme,
buti
tdi
dn'
tl
ookl
i
ket
hey
wer
eex(s)
.
..
Iputt
edonmybiggirl
'
sbootandwalkpassedt
hem
wenttomydeskthengotoutoft
heroom l
eavi
ng
them l
aughi
ngatsomethi
ngidi
dn'
tknow..
.
Sohepr
etendedl
i
kehedi
dn'
tseeme.
..
Howcoul
dhet
hepai
nst
art
edal
lov
eragai
n..
.
Iheardahandtouchi
ngmeonmyshoul
derf
rom
behindit
urnedtol
ookwhoil
twas.
.
.
.
I
twasMbal
i
Her
::
babewhyar
eucr
ying
(Itouchedmyfaceandindeediwascryi
ngandi
didn'tr
eal
isei
wassoi quickl
ywipedt
hem)
Sheleftmewher eiwasstandi
ngt
heshecameout
agai
n,grabedmyhandandwewentt othetoi
let
whenwegott her
eshehuggedmetightwi
thout
sayi
ngawor d.
..
.
..
Istar
tedcry
ingoutl
oudsopainf
ull
yandallshedi
d
wastor ubmefrom mybackandwhisper
"ev
erythi
ng'
sgonnabeokay"

.
..
..
Icr
iedoutal
lthepai
niwasf
eel
i
ng.
..

.
..
Icr
iedandcri
edandcr
iedunt
ilt
her
ewer
enot
ear
s
l
efttocr
y..
.
.
..
Wewer enowonthefl
oorwi
thmyheadonherchest
andherhandbr
ushi
ngmyhair.
..
.
.
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arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t19

Her
::
babeswegonnabel
atef
orcl
assl
etgo
.
..
Westoodupwentt
othetap,
washedmyf acenshe
gav
emePondsnal i
pst
ick(uhl
alakphet
heke
l
oko )

Iappl
i
edt
hepondsandt
hel
i
pst
ickandi
twasper
iod
onewewenttosi
tdownandipr
etendedt
obehappy
thewhol
edaybuti
nsi
deIwasbl
eeding
.
..
..
Andi
tri
edmybestt
oignor
eNqaba

.
..
Soitwasnowl unchchom niwenttosi
tunderthe
tr
eeatschoolafterweboughtourpi
es,
dri
nksand
chocol
ates.
..
.
..
Weat
ethenwechat
tednMandl
adi
stur
bedi
s
(WellMandlaistheschool
'
spresi
denthe'ssocut
ei
am sureeverygir
lhasacrushonhim butyenahe
hadhiseyesonMbal i
andshe'
sbeenreject
inghi
m
si
ncewewer eingrade8yenaakwagrd10sonow
he'
singrd12)
Hi
m::
hal
l
ozi
gir
l
Me:
:
Momo(
wel
lthathowi
cal
lhi
m andhehat
esi
t
)
Hi
m::
yohhay
keuy
akwazkubai
moodki
l
lergi
rl
(
Ilaughedoutl
oud)
Hi
m::
any
waycani
steal
myQueenf
or2mi
n
Me:
:
sur
e(i
sai
dthatbi
ti
ngmychocol
ate)
Mbal
ist
oodupandwentt
ohi
m andt
heyst
art
ed
ki
ssi
ng.
..
.
..
W.
T.Fwhatdi
dimi
ss.
.
Ar
ethoset
wodat
ingy
ohhh
Bengimangel
ekevahh,
inmywhol
eli
fei
nev
er
thoughti
wouldseethi
s..
.
Mbal
i
'sf
ir
stl
overwowai
ikuhambakbona

.
..
.
Shecamebackandi
gav
ehert
he"
khul
umaphel
a"
l
ook
Her
::
lookchommawe'
vebeendat
ingf
or2weeks
now
Me:
:
wangangt
jel
ivel
e
Her
::
wel
lnowuknowmocchom
Me:
:
Mbal
enhl
e
Her:
:okyokyokysor
ryangkutjel
angakeitjustthatu
weregoingthr
oughahear t
breaksobengingafun
kbonakalngat
hngyakchoshela
Me:
:
ahhhmf
tthatt
hel
amestexcuseI
'
veev
erhear
d
Her
::
sor
rykechom
Me:
:
okyket
ell
meev
ery
thi
ng
.
..
Shest
art
edtel
li
ngmekeandilaughedal
otcause
someofherst
ori
eswer
efunny

.
..
.
Sot
hedaywentandi
wasn'
tthatbad.
..

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I
twasnowafterschool
isai
dmygoodby
estoMbal
i
nMomosincehewasaccompani
ngher.
..
.
..
Iarr
ivedathomeandngat holaumamano
Omphi l
e,
Lelowasasleepi gr
eetedthem andwentto
myr oom ,
tookoffmyuniformthenwor emybl ack
shortwit
hawhi t
etennisT-shi
rt
..andmesl eeper
s
It
henwentt
otheki
tchen
Me:
:
mamangcel
imal
iyamacosmet
icsangphel
ele
Her:
:
gotomyr
oom sweetuknowkut
hihl
alaph
angi
th
Aykeiwentther
enit
ookR500andiclosedt
hewoo
dropr
oughlyaboxf
ell
andalotofpi
ctur
escameout
fr
om i
t.
..
.
..
Aykeingagobakeasi
waspi cki
ngthepi
ctur
esupi
sawsomet hi
ngver
ydi
stur
bing..
..
.
..
I
twasapict
ureofmymom andBr i
an,
yecBri
an
Par
kert
heylookedv
eryy
ounginthatpi
ctur
eandi
t
l
ookedl
ikemymom waspregnant.
.
..
..
Nononot
hiscan'
tbe.
..
I
sBr
ianmydad?
???

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arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
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Her:
:somyparentssaidishoul
dabortubuti
r
efusedithr
eatenedthem iwoul
drunawayift
hey
wouldconti
nueforci
ngmet oabort
..
.l
ucki
l
yMike
agr
eedtomarrymepr
egnantthatwheniknewt
hat
hetr
ulyl
ovesmebutt
hetrut
hisi nev
erl
ovedhi
m..
.
Thathowuweresepar
atedfr
om urf
atheri
tol
duhe
di
edbecausei
didn'
twanttoconf
useubabyni am
sorr
yforl
yi
ngtou
(
Shewasnowi
ntear
s)
Andiwasalsocr
yingsomygr
andpar
ent
shat
edme
fr
om day1
.
.
Me::
iwanttot
alkt
ohi
m mom setameet
ingi
know
he'
saround
Her
::
okaybabyi
wil
l
.
..
Istoodupandwenttomyroom t
orestsi
nceIwas
feel
ingt
ir
edidon'
tknowfr
om what
.
..
Mom wokemeupar
ound1pm t
ell
i
ngmehe'
sher
e..
.
.
.
Iwokeupwenttol
oungeandi
ndeedhewast
her
ei
fr
ozether
eforl
i
ke12min..
.

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arykaAmo

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Soi
wentt
osi
topposi
tehi
m
Me:
:
mom canugi
veusaspace
(
Shel
eft
)
Hi
m::
soi
figur
eunowknowwhyI
'
venaggi
ngu
Me:
:
yeah.
..
.whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
me
Hi
m::
iwant
edut
oheari
tfr
om y
ourmot
her
Me::
sothatyyou'
vebeennaggi
ngmet
oaskmom
aboutu.
..
dad
Hi
m::
yeah.
.
List
eninall
oft hisyouweretakenawayf rom me
yesiwasatf aultbetweenmeny ourmotherbutthat
didn'
tgiv
eheranyr i
ghttohi
dey oufrom me,she
nevertol
dmeshewaspr egnant
...Ionl
yfoundout
outaboutulasty ear
(
Wel
lwhathesai
dmadesensehewasn'
tatf
aul
t)
Me::
ngyakuzwa..
..
butdouknowhowhardi
twas
gr
owingupwithoutu,
ineededui
nmyli
fe
Him::i
knowsweethear
tni am sor
ryiugrewupi n
anotherman'
shandswhil
ei wasstil
lal
iv
e..
.but
thesepastf
ewmont hsI
'v
ebeent ryi
ngtoconvi
nce
urmom toletmemeetubutshecoul dn'
tagree
Her
::
whatmat
ter
sist
hati
foundunuhav
efound
meryt
Hi
m: :
yeahniam wi
l
li
ngt
obui
l
tar
elat
ionshi
pwi
thu
..
.i
fyou'dj
ustl
etme
Iwentt
ohughimfort
hefi
rstt
ym.
.ni
tfel
tgoodt
obe
i
nthehandsofmyfat
her ..
.
.
..
Omphi
l
enLel
ocamebackf
rom school
theyent
ered
t
hehousewi
thmom.
.
.
..
Lel
o::
mamangbanl
o(shesai
dthatpoi
nti
ngatBr
ian
..
.)
Mom:
:
ngubabakaAmomt
anam
Omphi
le:
:ohhhsot
hatexpl
ainsyAmo'
swhi
tewi
th
l
onghair
..
.

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arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
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Mom:
:
Omphi
l
engcel
ani
yokhumul
uni
for
mtuu
Omphi
l
e::
yecmam(
theysai
dthtgoi
ngaway
)
Dad:
:
uhmm i
tty
mformetogocanihav
eur
number
ssowecankeepi
ntouch
Me:
:
0714*
***
**
Hi
m::
wil
lcal
luokay
Me:
:
yeah
Het
henwentoutwi
thoutsay
inganywor
dtomom
.
..
.
Me:
:whatar
ewehav
ingf
orsupper(
isai
dthatgoi
ng
t
othekit
chen)
Mom:
:
ricenbeefst
ewwi
l
ldobaby
.
..
Okyistar
tedcooki
ng.
..
thendi
shedupf
ort
hef
our
ofus.
.
It
henwentt
obat
h,goti
ntomybl
anki
es
.
..
.
Ipl
ayedmysongsandthesongbyBebeRexhat
it
led
meanttobepl
ayedi
tselfnj
e..
.
.
..
IrememberedthevideoNqabani hadwi
ththat
songbutt
histi
mei wasnotcr
yingbutij
ust
admitt
edthati
mi ssedhi
m...
.
.
..
Thet
rut
hisi
wasst
il
li
nlov
ewi
thhi
m

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arykaAmo

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nser
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i
fyouhadachoi
cet
henwhatwoul
dyou
chooset
odo,
Icoul
dli
vewi
thoutmoney
,
Icoul
dli
vewi
thoutt
hef
ame,
Andifev
ery
daywassunnyi
coul
dli
vewi
thoutt
he
rai
n
Nifiev
erwentuptoheaveniwouldf
allr
ightback
downbutiwouldn'
tbel
i
vingcauseutheonei
coul
dn'
tli
vewit
hout
.
..
Chr
isBr
own-
wit
houty
ou
Oneofmyf avor
it
esong..
.asiwasl
isteni
ngtoi
ti
wasprepar
ingforschool
nsinceiwasupsent
yest
erdayi
hadt ocomeupwi t
hastronglie .
..
.
..
Sincei
twasal i
lbitcol
diwor emygr ey
tr
ouser,
shir
t,
schooljer
sey
,schoolscurfnmygr
ass
Hopper,notfor
geti
ngmyschool heat...
..
.
.
..
Tocomplet
ethelookiappli
edpi
nkl
ipst
ickni
twas
per
fectwi
thoururni
fom si
ncei
twasnei
venwhit
e..
.
.
..
Wheni
gotoutoft
hehousei
sawmydad'
sbl
ack
j
eep . .
.
..
Ipoppedi
n..
.
..
Hi
m::
whoi
nvi
teduher
e
Me::
ii
nvi
tedmysel
fhauphel
asometi
mespeople
f
orgett
oinvi
teui
fukeepwai
tingf
ori
nvi
tat
ion
(
Hel
aughed)
Me:
:
any
wayhowar
eu
Hi
m::
iam goodpr
incess.
.u
Me:
:
met
oo
(
Hedr
ovet
oschool
)
Hi
m::
ubet
ternotgetusedt
othi
s
Me:
:
haumaar
Him: : i
am ser
iousthough,t
her
easoni
fetcheduf r
om hometoschooltodayi
sbecausei
didn'thav
eameet i
ng
Me:
:
oky
..
.
Hi
m::
areuokay
?
Me::
yeahbutij
ustwishicouldtal
ktouaboutlotof
t
hings,i
gotquest
ionsthatneedtobeanswered
Him:
:don'
tworr
yiwillf
etchut
hisweekendsowe
canspendtheweekendatmyplace.
..
ther
eucan
askmeany
thi
nguwant
..
.how'
sthat
Me:
:
soundsper
fect
(Si
ncewewer
eattheschoolgat
eisai
dmy
goodby
est
hengotoutofthecar
)
Andal
leyeswereonmeniwassohappy i
was
nowwalki
ngli
keiwasont
heredcar
pet
.
..
Mbal
iappear
edf
rom nowher
e
Her
::
soachuzi
sthaturf
ather
Me:
:
yesbabes
Her
::
he'
scut
exei
m
Me:
:
aii
boMbal
i
Her:
:r
elaxhauminangiry
tnoMomo(Mandl
a)
bengi
mncom njebabakhonobi
gdeal
Me:
:
good
Her
::
aii
kodwakenawehau.
..
Byt
hewayawshongokut
hunemal
mocki
m
Me:
:
hedoesn'
t
Her
:: ai
i
bogi
rlhe'
sdr
ivi
ngaJeepchomma
Whatdoumeanakanay
o
Me:
:
aii
sukauneDr
amay
azwen
wewentt
ocl
assnt
hedaywentonnonnonv
ery
wel
l

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arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
t23

theweekf l
ewsof astitwasnowFr i
daybengced
kbuyeskolenni waspacki ngthethi
ngsiwasgonna
needsinceiwasgoi ngt ospendtheweekendat
dad'spl
acent hebestt hi
ngisthatMikecamet hat
dayearli
erbutididn'
tgett ospendti
mewi t
h
hi
m. .
.gr
eat ...
.
..
Mom::
babyyourdad'
sher
e.(
shesai
dthatgoi
ngout
ofmyroom)
tookmybagni wentt
owher
ehewassit
ti
ng.
..He
wassitt
ingopposi
teMi
kenhewasbusywi
thhi
s
phone
.
..
Dadi
am done
Hi
m::ul
ookbeautif
ulmyQueen(iwasweari
nga
whi
teRedbatT-shi
rtnagr
eytrackpantwi
thVans)
Me:
:
thnx.
..
.
Isai
dmygoodby
est
oOmphi
l
enLel
o..
.
.
..
Wentt
ohugmom
Me:
:
Mikehopeuenj
oyt
heweekend.
..
bye
Mi
ke:
:
u2
(Dadniwentt
ohi
scart
odayhecamewi
thabl
ack
G.T.
I)
Dad:
:
wowy
ourmot
her
'shusbandi
ssounst
yli
sh
Me:
:
sot
rue
(
Wel
aughed.
..
)
Dadwastel
li
ngt
het
rut
huMikeumntuwamatie
namabran-
wood imeanwhodoest
hatathi
s
age(
39)
.
..
.
Me:
:
nowi
seewhyIam naught
y
Hi
m::
y
Me:
:
itookAf
teru
Hi
m::
iam notnaught
y
(
Ashesai
dthatwewer
elaughi
ng)
Me:
:
itf
eel
ssogoodt
ohav
eaf
ather
Hi
m::
iknowbaby

.
..
.

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arykaAmo

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wearri
vedathisapar
tment.
.Utwashugeit
beaut
if
ulnithadanoceanview,I
'
veneverseena
beaut
if
ulplacel
iket
hatbef
ore .
.
..
Me:
:
ist
hisurhouse?
Hi
m::
nohunnyi
am j
ustr
ant
ingi
t
Me:
:
O.M.
Gitbeaut
if
ul
Hi
m::
thnx
Me:
:
soudon'
thav
eahouse
Hi
m::
obv
iousi
doi
nLondont
hough
Me:
:
mmm.
.
.
..
.
Hi
m::
whatdouwantt
ohav
eforsupper
Me:
:
pizza
Hel
aughed
Hi
m::
alr
ightt
heni
twi
l
lbedel
i
ver
edi
nanhour
hewentt
opourachampagne
.
..
Me:
:
sohowbi
gisurhouse
Hi
m::
don'
twor
ryy
ou'
l
lpr
obabl
yseei
toneday
Me:
:
oky
..
.
.
..
t
hepizzawasdeli
ver
edwewentt obath,
int
o
di
ff
erentbat
hroomsofcause,
goti
ntoourP.J'
s
Wentt
ocouch.
..
Ngathatjumcamel
ongawabekemathangenakhe
t
heni puttedmyheadt
her
eweseti nthatposi
ti
on
WatchingT.Vwhil
ehewasbrushi
ngmysof thai
r
.
..
Me:
:
dad
Hi
m::
yes
Me:
:
am i
theonl
ychi
l
dtou
Hi
m::
not
her
ear
efouroft
hem nuar
enumberf
ive
Me:
:
am i
theonl
yonewi
thadi
ff
erentmot
her
Hi
m::
yesni
tbecauseuar
ethel
astbor
n
Me:
:
whatar
ethei
rnames,
tel
lmeaboutt
hem
Him::
wel
lthef
irstbor
n'snameisChri
sti
neage( 22)
she'
sanamazinggirl
,
secondisJayage(20)
,t
hird
borni
sJadenage18t henther
e'sBr
it
neyage(16)
Me:
:
doul
ovet
hem
Hi
m::
theyar
emyl
i
fe.
.Theymeant
hewor
ldt
ome
j
ustl
i
keudo
Me:
:
areust
il
ltoget
herwi
tht
hei
rmot
her
Hi
m::
yeahtheirmotherniarest
il
lgoi
ngstrong,we
r
esol
vedourissuesaftery
oumom' sdi
sappearent
Me:
:
soChr
ist
ine,
Jay
,JadennBr
it
neywer
erai
sedby
t
hebot
hofu
Hi
m::
yeah
Me:
:
luckyt
hem
Hi
m::
iam sorr
yuhadt
ogr
owupundert
hehandof
t
hest
epfather
Me:
:
itokaywhat'
sdoneisdone.
..
butuar
eher
enow
nuwil
lneverl
eaver
ight
?
Hi
m::
yeahi
wil
lnev
erl
eav
euagai
n
Her
::
promi
se?
Hi
m::
idobabygi
rl
..
.daddyl
ovesuoky
?
Her
::
lov
eut
oodad
.
..
wecont
inuedwat
chi
ngt
heTVunt
ilwebot
hfel
l
asl
eepatt
hecouch ..

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I
twasnowSat
urday.
..
.iwokeupal
oneatt
hecouch
..
.
Ihear
dasmel lofabeaconcompanycomingfr
om
theki
tchenyohhhij
umpednwentt her
ephelbeacon
i
smyf avori
te.
..
.
.
dadwascooki
ng.
..
.hewasweari
ngablack
j
ean,whi
tel
ongsl
eev
eT- shi
rtwi
thwi
thwhit
eAll
St
ar

Me:
:
mm uy
aphekubabam
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
mor
ningbaby.
..
Me:
:
unj
anbaba
Hi
m::
iam f
ine.
..
Iam maki
ngbeacondoueati
t
Me:
:
it'
smyf
avor
it
eke
Hi
m::
real
l
ycozi
tmi
net
oo
Me:
:
yey
yyy
Hi
m::
got
akeabat
hsowecaneat
iwenttotakebath,
woremyWhi tel
ongsleeveT-
shi
rt
,bl
ackboy f
ri
endjeanandablackvans.
..
thenti
ed
myhairint
oaneatbun. .
.iwor
eli
kemydadbecauseI
wantedustotakepictur
es
.
..
.
Iwentbackt
otheki
tchen
.
..
Dad:
:
ohhsowe'
remat
chi
ngout
fi
tsnow
Me:
:
yeahi
wantust
otakepi
ctur
es
Hi
m::
alr
ightbabywewi
l
l
.
..
West
art
edeat
ingt
heni
wentt
owashdi
shes.
..
.
..
Dad:
:
sowhatdouwantt
ododur
ingt
heday
Me:
:
ijustwannabewi
thui
ndoor
sthatal
l
Hi
m::
whatdouwantust
odo
Me::
idon'
tknow.
.wecanwat
chmov
ies,
playgames
l
ikecheer
s
Hi
m::
l
etwat
chmov
ies
Me:
:
whatt
ouwantt
owat
ch
Hi
m::
uchoose
Me::
Empir
ei taseri
essoitcankeepusbusyall
day
si
ncether
ear epl
entyofseasons(ay
keEmpireis
oneofmyf avour
it
eseri
es)
Hi
m::
canwest
artbyt
aki
ngpi
cs
Me:
:
Hel
lyeah
wetookpi
cs,
plent
yoft
hem .
.iupl
oadedsomeof
t
hem onFB
Me:
:
dadhowol
dar
eu
Hi
m::
43whyask
Me:
:
utoocool
tobe43
(
Hel
aughed)
Hi
m::
sweet
yudon'
tneedt
obeYoungt
obecool
Me:
:
isee
west
art
edwat
chi
ngt
heEmpi
reser
ies

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inuat
ionkai
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i
twasnow5Oclocknwewerehungr
y..
iwentt
o
t
hekit
cheni
madenoodl
esforus
.
..
Dad:
:
sot
ell
medouhav
eaboy
fri
end
Me:
:
yohhhnoidon'
t(whatki
ndofapar
entwhoask
umt
anakhel
oku.
..
bel
unguthough)
Hi
m::uknowucant el
lmeevery
thi
ngi am notgonna
j
udgeu,shoutatuorany
thi
ngli
kethatiknowuar ea
t
eenagernteenager
sdatei
tnotasecret
Me:
:
dadi
don'
thav
eaboy
fri
end,
ihadonenhe
brokemyhear
tinawayucan'
ti
magi
nesoi
am done
dati
ng
(
Hel
aughed)
Hi
m::uar
ejustsay
ingthatnowbutonceugetov
er
t
hatboyyou'
ll
besingi
nganothersong
Me:
:
idon'
tthi
nki
wil
lev
erbeabl
etogetov
erhi
m
Hi
m::
tr
ustmepr
incessuwi
l
l
weconti
nuedhav
ingournoodl
esnt hedaywent
onimustsaymydadni hadagreatday

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withmyf atheri
hadthisst
rongconnect i
onthati
neverhadwi t
hanyone,
evenmyownmot her.
.Around
hi
mi f
eltsaf
e,goodenoughnspecial
..Yesi haven'
t
spendal
otofti
mewi t
hhim buti
fel
tli
kehewas
ther
emywholeli
fe.Nidon'
tknowyifeltt
hatway
.
..
Him:
:pr
incessi
tSundayt
oday
,atwhatt
imewoul
du
l
iket
ogohome
Me:
:i
don'
twannagohome(
isai
dthatwithacheese
onmymouthsi
ncewewereeat
ingbreakf
ast
)
Hi
m::
butuhav
etoo
Me:
:
cani
stayher
ethewhol
eweekdaddypl
ease
Him::uknowt hati
mpossi
bleherei tfarfrom your
school nisometimesworklate,
whowi l
lstayhere
withuwheni am awaynont opofev erythi
ngi don'
t
thi
nkurmot herwoul
dagreetothat .
..
looki t
oowoul d
l
iketospendmor eti
mewi t
huni willtr
ustmej ust
notthisweek
Me:
:
okyket
akemehomeat19h00
(
Hel
aughed)
Hi
m::
ohkt
hen
hi
sphoner
ang
Hi
m::
i
tChr
ist
ine
Me:
:
putheronspeakerpl
ease
heanswer
edi
tnhedi
dasi
sai
d
Hi
m onaphone
hi
m::
daddy
'squeen
Her
::
howar
eudaddy
Hi
m::
iam gud.
..
u
Her
::
iam f
ine.
..
imi
cit
hough
Hi
m::
imi
cuguy
stoo
Her
::whenar
eucomi
ngback
Hi
m::
soon
Her
::
itbeen7mont
hsnowdaddywhati
skeepi
ngu
t
here
Hi
m::
uguy
swi
l
lfoundoutsoon
Her
::
okydaddyi
got
tagonow,
l
ovey
ou
Hi
m::
l
oveut
oo
(
Hehangedup)
Me:
:
sot
heydon'
tknowwhyy
ou'
reher
e
Hi
m::
yeah
Me:
:
theydon'
tknowaboutme?
Hi
m::
yecbabybutt
heywi
l
lsoon
Me:
:
ydi
dn'
tyout
ell
them
Hi
m::
becausei
don'
tknowhowt
otel
lthem i
mean.
..
Me::
itokayi
under
stand(
isai
dthatpr
essi
ngmy
phone)
.
..
.
Him::
iam sor
rybabybuti
pri
misei
wil
ltel
lthem
aboutuipromise
Me:
:
okydaddy
wespentt
hedayv
erywel
lnt
henhet
ookme
homeat19h30

l
i
kencomment
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15:
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arykaAmo
Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t25

Phi
ndi
lenicont
inuedt
ocooknwewer
edone
ar
ound12h00.
.
Shesaiditwastooearl
yfordishi
ngupsot
ookout
i
cecream from t
hefr
idgethenwewenttochi
l
lon
si
tt
ingroom
.
..
Me:
:
socani
askusomet
hing
Her
::
sur
esweet
y
Me:
:
howcomeunurpar
ent
sdon'
tgetal
ong
Her:
:
welli
t'
salongstor
ysolet'
ssaymenmy
par
entsdon'
tgetal
ongbecauseifi
ghtf
orwhati
wantidon'
twannabecontr
oll
ed
Me:
:
mmm t
heyar
econt
rol
l
ingf
reaksai
n'
tthey
?
Her
::
uknowt
hem t
oowel
l
wecont
inuedchat
ti
ng,
wechat
tedaboutl
otof
t
hings.
..Wedi
shedupnt
henweat
e..
.
Imustsayt
hedaywaswel
lspent
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arykaAmo

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t
hef ol
lowingweekmymom hadt oper f
orma
surgeryinSpainsinceshewasaknownbest
surgerntsoshel eavedmeandt hekidswi thherl
i
l
sis...
wellyenawezaekhay asinceherplacewas
veryfarfrom theschool
sweat t
ended..
mom hadt o
gof or14day sjusti
magineyohhhphel a
umamncanei sav eryst
ri
ctperson..
.iwon'tbeabl
e
tovisitMbaliorgooutlateyohhhaiii
uyi bi
gdeal
l
omnt u

Mom::iwi
l
l bebackin14daysAmogel
angpl
ease
behav
ent akecareofyoursi
bli
ngs
Me:
:
okaymom
Mom:
:
promi
seme
Me::
mamam i
promiseiwillbehav
eni wi
l
ltakecar
e
ofOmphi
l
enoSbulelount
ilugetback
Mom:
:
okaykemt
anam
wecontinuedpackingherbagst henshewentt o
takeabat h..
..
sheworeawhi teshir
tnabl ackj ean
withhighhealsthenway ekai weaveyakhey aflower
sinceshehadasof tdr eads...
.shewasl ooking
beauti
fulumamami guy sy ohhh..
.akasi
y eumunt
wamal i
psti
ckkeshehat esthem shesay sthey
messupherski ncol
our. ..
she'schocolatedar kphel
yenamaarshe' sbeautifulinawayucan' timagi ne
.
..
Wewenttothekit
chenwef
oundOmphi
l
e,Sbul
elo
nomam'ncane(
Phindi
l
e)
Ther
e
.
..
Mom:
:
babi
escomesayy
ourgoodby
es
 t
het
hreeofuswentt
ohugher
Mom::Omphi
l
etakecar
eofy
oursi
ster
swhi
l
eiam
goneokay
Omphi
l
e::
yesmam
Mom::Sbul
elomtanam l
i
stent
otheinst
ructi
onsthey
giv
etouokay .
..
unl
essnaweuyabonakuthangeke
azeaksi
zendawo
Sbul
elo:
:
iwi
l
lmommy
Mom::Amogel
angt
akecar
eoft
hem nt
akecar
eofur
sel
fokay
Me:
:
yesmom
shet
henwentt
ohersi
ster
Mom::Phi
ndi
l
etakecar
eofmychi
l
drenunt
ili
get
back
Her
::
khul
ulekawena
t
heyhugged,
weaccompani
edhert
ohercar
Her
::
ngy
ani
thandani
yezwa
Me:
:
uthandway
ithi
mama
 wet
henwat
chedhercart
aki
ngof
fdi
sappear
ing.
..
Wet
henwentbackt
othehouse
Phindi
le:
:
okaykeguy
suknowi
li
ker
esponsi
ble
peoplemoc
Omphi
l
e::
yecwedoknowt
hat
Her
::
goodkesi
zosebenzi
sanamoc
Me:
:
yecwewi
l
l
Her:
:
okaygood,Sbul
elonaweOmphil
ehamban
ni
yodlal
angaphandl
enbecareful
l
t
heywentoutkev
ele
Her
::
Amouhel
pmet
ocookl
unch
Me::y
ohsodl
amnandmocnamuhl
amam'
ncan
kunawe
Her
::
way
azmocgi
rl
wel
aughed
Me:
:
sphekani
ke
Her:
:
spaghet
tinbeefst
ewt
henwe'
l
lhav
ecaken
ul
tr
amel f
ordesert
Me:
:
soundsni
ce
webegant ocookke,
wellPhindil
eistheonly
rel
ativ
ey akamamaengt handayo..
.maybeitbecause
shedoesn' tcl
i
ckwithherparentsnam angsazi
storysabokuthsthi
ni

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mom hasbeengonef or2daysnow..

.Itwas
Tuesdaymor ni
ngni wasprepari
ngfor
school,
ngagcokaiskir
tsam,shi
rtt
henngafaki
blazer
..
Phindi
lest
yledmybighairiwasonf i
re .
..
Iwentoutnwentt oschooliwasear
lysoiwal
ked
sl
owlyli
steningtothesongbyLemonade
mouth(movie)ti
tl
edsomebody
.
..
canuseeme,cozi
am r
ighther
e,canu
l
i
sten?
,cozI'
vebeent
ryi
ngtomakeuknowt hi
s

.
..
Il
i
stenedt
othesongunt
ili
arr
ivedatschool
..
.
Mbal
icamet
ome

.
..
Her
::
chommami
Me:
:
sweet
y
Her
::
njn
Me:
:
iam f
ine
Her
::ni
cehai
rst
ylebooboo.
..
ulookhot
Me:
:
thnxmybaby
Her
::
whodi
durhai
rbabes?
Me:
:
Phi
ndi
l
e
Her
::
ukhon?
?
Me:
:
yec
Her
::
moct
hatmeansi
wil
lonl
yseeuher
eatschool
Me:
:
uknowi
t
t
hebell r
ang.
..
wewentt ocl
assthedaywentonn
onnonv erywel
l..
.i
twasnowschool outnMbali
wentt oMomo( Mandla)niwentoutasigotoutof
thegatei sawmydadwear i
ngblackj
ean,
whitel
ong
sleeveT-
shi r
twit
hawhi t
eAll-
Starhehadshadeson
hewason
Me:
:
daddy
(isai
dthathuggi
nghi
m)
Hi
m::
muhbaby
Me:
:
uher
eforme?
Hi
m::
whoel
sewoul
dibeher
efor
Me:
:
souwal
kedcomi
ngher
e?
Hi
m::
yeahi
hav
en'
twal
kedi
nawhi
l
e
Me:
:
okay,i
am j
ustgl
adpeopl
ecanseemydadout
t
hecarnow
(
Hel
aughed)
Hi
m::
souenj
oyt
hef
actt
hati
bri
nguat
tent
iondon'
t
u?
Her
::
uknowme
(
Hel
aughed)
sopeopl
ewer
eact
ual
l
ylooki
ngatusni
lov
ed
t
hat
Hi
m::
cani
car
ryy
ourbag
Me:
:noi
tfi
nedadI
'
llcar
ryi
t
Hi
m::
okaymypr
incess.
..Shal
lwegonow
wewal
kedhomechatti
ngnl aughi
ngnt
aki
ng
sel
fi
esnv
ediosunt
ilwearr
ivedhome
.
..
.
i
wenti
nsi
de
Me::
Ncanecanucomemeetmydad(
isai
dthat
hol
dingndr
aggi
ngherout
side)
Her
::
whatdoumean.
.iknowMi
kemoc
wewer
enowout
sidenshel
ookedsur
pri
sedl
i
ke
shehasj
ustseenaghost
Me:
:dadthisi
smy"
mam'
ncane"mom'
sli
lsi
s
Phi
ndil
e..
.
Ncanet
hisi
smybi
ologi
cal
fat
herBr
ianPar
ker
Dad:
:
hal
l
oP
Her
::
h..
e..
y
Dad:
:
looki
twasny
cmeet
ingubuti
hav
etogo
Her
::
o..
ky
dadl
eftni
wentt
omyr
oom Phi
ndi
l
efol
l
owed
me
Her
::
aii
bont
hen?
i
tol
dhert
hewhol
est
orynshewascr
azyt
ohear
i
t

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arykaAmo
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inuat
ionkai
nser
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i
t'
snott
hateasywi
thuher
ebuti
knowi
wantu
st
ay
Seethi
scouldbeusinafewy ear
sbutjustadmit
youl
iketoplay
,i
t'
sli
keev
erydayiam kicki
ngrocks,
i
coul
dflyawaybutugotmeatacompl etestophow
doumanaget okeepmegoingbutsomehowukeep
mefrom goi
ng..
.

.
..
iwasgoinghomef rom schoolasiwasl
ist
eni
ng
tothesongt hef
ollowingday..
..
thenisawmy
brotherf
ighti
ngiquicklyranoverther
easisawhim
beingbeatenW.T.F..
.
.
..
.
Me:
:
Omphi
l
est
opi
t!
!!
al
lthechi
l
drent
urnedt
olookatmenEventhe
boywhowasbeati
nghim st
oppedit
ookhi
sschool
backt
hendr
aggedhi
m home
.
..
wear
ri
vednl
ucki
l
yther
ewasnooneathome
Me:
:
whatt
hef
uckdudey
ini
nki
ngy
akhododi
?!
!
Him::
Amoi wasbeingbeatenbymygi r
lf
riend's
boyf
ri
endwhoi s3y r
solderthanmenubuzkut hyin
nki
ngy am mftiai
n'
ttheonewi thapr
oblem that
dudecameoutofnowher etell
ingmetoleavehi s
gi
rl
fri
endalone
Me:
:
nur
efused?
Hi
m::
yeahtheni
wasbeat
en(
hesai
dthatgoi
ngt
o
t
hebathr
oom)
soubhut
wam ucedakshay
elwaugi
rl
funny
.
..
Ihel
pedhim washhi
swoundsnimakeduphim
avoi
dingPhi
ndil
efr
om seei
ngt
hem.
..
wellhewas
goodasfine
.
.
 Phi
ndi
l
ecamebackwi
thSbul
elowi
thagr
ocer
y.
Wecooked,
atet
henwenttosleepwi
thoutPhi
ndi
l
e
not
ici
ngOmphil
e'
swounds..
.Wheew
.
..
i
wentt
oOmphi
l
e'sr
oom t
otal
ktohi
m..
..
Me:
:Omphil
euhavetopr
omisemet
hatuwi
l
lleav
e
t
htgi
rlal
onengetonwi
thurl
if
e
Hi
m::
okayi
wil
l
..
thnxaboutev
ery
thi
ng
Me:
:
sur
ethi
nggoodni
ghtsweet
..
.il
oveu
Hi
m::
l
oveumor
e
t
heni
wentt
omyr
oom.
..
Fr
om t
her
eidozedof
ftol
alal
and

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 it
'sbeenaweeknowwi thoutmom...
.si
ncei
missedherideci
dedtovedi
ocallheri
twas18h00
soforshoshe'snotatwor
k..
.
.
..
Ourconv
o
Me:
:
mfazozal
ami
na
Her
::
muhpr
eci
ousbaby
..
.
Me:
:
unj
nmf
azwam
Her
::
ngy
aphi
l
amt
anam.
..
ij
ustmi
cuguy
s
Me:
:
ukhunj
ulway
ithi
yazsi
ster
s
Her
::
howar
euguy
sdoi
ng
Me:
:
wedoi
nggr
eat
..
Her
::
howi
sPhi
ndi
l
etr
eat
inguguy
s
Me:
:
fineshe'
sbeenv
erygoodt
ous
Her
::
okay
..
.
Me:
:
how'
sthepl
acet
her
e
Her:
:sweet
yiwi
l
ltel
lual
labouti
twheni
getback
mtanam
Me:
:
okayke
Her
::
baphoOmphi
l
enoSbul
elo
Me:
:
theyar
einl
ounge
Her
::
cal
lthem f
orme
(
Idi
dasi
wast
old)
Lel
o::
unj
nmamet
hu
Mom:
:
plaLel
o..
.
Ni
nni
njn
Omphi
l
e::
wegood
Mom::okayiwasjustchecki
ngonu.
..
takecar
eof
eachotherokay
Us:
:
yecmam
cal
lendednwewentt
osit
ti
ngroom t
owatch
sopi
esimustsayi
twasgoodtal
ki
ngtomom
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arykaAmo
Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t27

Sothef
oll
owingdaymom wascomi ngbacki
was
wokenupbyhercal
l..
..
phonecal
lconv
o
Mom:
:
aii
boccv
ukauy
eechur
chusel
ele
Me:
:
aibomamasi
ncewhendoi
att
endchur
ch
Mom::
(shelaughed)
anywaymtanam i
call
edt
otel
lu
t
hati
wi l
lbeonmywaybackhomemor r
owmorni
ng
I
'v
eal
readybookedt hef
ir
stf
li
ght
Me:
:
can'
twai
ttoseeumamam ngkukhumbul
e
Mom:
:
you'
l
lseemesoonpr
incess.
..
Me:
:
okaymom.
..
.ungphat
hel
eisur
pri
sephel
o
Her:
:
(shel
aughed)ngy
aycal
akel
eumuntozcel
eli
sur
pri
se
Me::
(ilaughed)aii
maarnhauungphat
hel
e
somethingint
erest
ing
Her
::okaypr
incess.
..Ngy
akt
handamt
anam y
eva
Me:
:
thandway
imi
mamam
Her
::
sendmyl
ovet
omyl
i
lbabi
es
Me:
:
wil
ldo
shehangedup. .
.iwokeupbat hednibathed
Sbul el
onOmphi lebathedhi m self
..
.westar
ted
springcl eani
ngwhi l
ePhi ndi
lewascooking.
..The
reasonwhybesenzai springcl
eaningi
t'
sbecause
wewant edumamat of indtheplacespotl
essn
i
ndeedwemadei tspot l
esswewer esotir
edaf t
er
that. .
Phindil
edishedupf orusnweat ethenwe
wat chTVi mustsayi twasabor i
ngSundayt heday
endedl ikethat.
..
.
IwokeupMondaymor ni
ngdidmymorningrout
ine
prepar
ingf
orschooltheniwenttot
hekit
chenLelon
Omphilewereal
readygonesoi f
oundPhindi
l
e
Me:
:
ncanewam
Her
::
hy(
shesoundeddown)
Me:
:
ury
t
Her:
:yazmyheartispoundi
ngfastnwhenitdoes
somet hi
ngbadhappensniam suresomet
hing
real
l
ybadi sgonnahappensoon
Me:
:r
elaxncanenot
hingbadi
sgoingtohappenu
mamauy abuynamhl
asocookforherpl
zz
Her
::
udon'
tunder
standwhati
am say
ingdou?
Me::ai
i
iccminaiai
n'
tgonnal
eturuinmyday
l
isacal
anjesoseeuwhenigetback(i
sai
dthtgoi
ng
out)
yohhhncanekodwayissheacti
ngsoweir
dall
of
asuddentell
i
ngmesomet hi
ngreal
lybadi
goingt
o
happensoon,whodoesshethi
nkshe
i
s,God?.
..
akemekancanyuhh
.
..
iar
ri
vedatschoolt
hedaywentonnonnonjust
f
ine.
..
bef
oreievenknewitwasschool
outi
qui
ckl
y
wenthomesinceiwantedt
ocookformymom..
.
Iar
ri
vedathome,f
oundncanecooki
ngihel
pedhern
Lel
onOmphi l
earr
ivedwewait
edformom...
itwas
now6PM nirecei
vedaacalli
twasanunknown

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arykaAmo

I
nser
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i
wentt
oanswermyphone
Phoneconv
o..
..
Me:
:
hal
l
o
Thel
ady
::
hyi
sthi
sAmogel
angZi
qubu
Me:
:
yes.
.t
hisi
s?
Her:
:thisisBridgeti
cal
l
edtoinf
ormyout
hat
AnastasiaZiqubuhasbeeni
nvol
vedi
naplanecr
ash
Me:
:
What
??
Her
::
weneedutoident
if
yherbody
..
.we'
l
lsendut
he
det
ail
soft
hehospi
talwe'
rei
n
(
thent
hel
adyhangedup)
Idr
oppedmyphoneont hefl
oorisatdownnot
bel
iev
ingwhati
justheard..
.Tear
swer efl
owing
downmycheeksunst oppablePhi
ndil
equickl
yran
t
ome
Her
::
Amobabywhat
'
swr
ong
Me:
:
she.
..
.i
s..
.gone(
isai
dthel
astpar
tcr
ying)
Her
::whoi
sgone?
Me::
mom..
.she'
sbeeni
nvol
vedi
napl
anecr
ash.
..
She'
sgone
Her
::
O.M.
G
shestar
tedcryi
ngoutl
oudsodi dOmphilenLel
o
..
..
ididnotbel
iev
ewhati j
usthear
d..
.icr
iedunt
ili
f
ellasl
eepwithaheavyheart
..
.
Phi
ndi
l
ewokemeupwi
thhersof
thandsi
wokeup

Her
::
weneedt
oni
dent
if
yyourmot
her
sbody
real
i
tykickedi
nir
emember
ednt
ear
sst
art
ed
f
lowingagain
Me::
ican'
tdot
hat
,howdouguysexpectmet o
i
denti
fymyownmotheri
can'
tdothtiam onl
y15
Her
::
hunnyuhav
enochoi
cei
can'
tgoal
oneny
our
grandparentsar
eont hei
rwayhere,
yourst
epfat
hern
everyoneelse.
..
soprepar
eyourselfsowecan
go(withthatshewentoutnshewasal soi
ntears
i bat
hed,woremybl ackAdidastracksui
t,
black
Nikesneakersthent iedmyhai ri
ntoaneatbun. .
.n
Phindil
eni l
eftleavingLelonOmphi l
ewithour
neighborididnotcr i
edonourwayt herebecauseit
waspubl i
cni couldn'tcrypubli
c..Thatj
ustthewayi
am. .
..
idon'
tcryinfrontofpeople...
Wearr
ivedther
eatt
hathospi
tal
theyt
ookust
othe
r
oom whereshewas..
.
Itwasher,
shehadv erybadwoundsonherf or
ehead
nherneckhadav er
ybi gwoundar oundit..
shewas
paleherhairwasneatl
ybr ushedbutonet hi
ng
remained.
.shewasDEAD ..
.buti
couldn'
tcr
ywhi l
elookingatherijustremaineda
stat
ue

.
.
wewentbackhomenPhi
ndi
l
ewascr
yingal
lthe
wayasf
ormei
wasj
ustnumb.
..
Wearri
vedathoment herewemanycar soutside
wegotinsidemygrandparents,uncl
es,mam'khulu
cousi
nsnot her
sicoul
dn'trecognisewerethere
somewer ecryi
ngnsomewer enot .
..
Il
ookedformysibl
ingsntheywer
eont
hecouch
wi
ththei
rfat
hercuddli
ng
Oky
..
.l
ooksl
i
kei
wasal
lial
one
Iwentt
omyr
oom nj
ustf
ell
asl
eepi
mmedi
atel
y

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kencomment
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15:
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arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
t28

i
heardsomeonesl
owlyshaki
ngmewakingme
upiopenedmyeyesni
twasmydadi qui
cklywoke
upnhuggedhi
m..
Hi
m::
i
tokaysweet
yiam her
enow
Me:
:
dadshe'
sgone,
mom'
sgone
Hi
m::
iknow,
iknowbabyni
am sor
ry
il
aidonhi
schestwhil
etearssl
owlymadethei
r
wayoutunt
ilmygrandf
atherent
eredt
heroom
Him::ezi
nyeiy
nganezyasebenzalangaphandle
wenaAmoubusyuzenzai nkosazanal
a...
.phuma
uyolekel
e(hethengav
emyf atheraver
ybadl ook
thenwentout)
Dad:
:i
seet
hatmanhat
emet
othepoi
ntt
hatheev
en
hat
esutoo
Me:
:nit
'sj
ustbecauseofwhowear
e(i
sai
dthat
wi
pingmytears)
Hi
m::
souar
enotgonnagooutar
eu?
Me:
:
whodoeshet
hinkhei
sor
der
ingmear
ound
Hi
m::
yourgr
andf
ather
Me:
:
ryt
(isai
dthatr
oll
i
ngmyt
ear
yredey
es)
Him::
l
ookuhm .
..
ineedt
ogosomewher
eiwi
l
lcome
backlat
er
Me::
nodaddon'
tleav
eme, can'
tusee?
,abangf
un
l
abantui
havenobodyexceptu
Him:
:
hunnyj
ustbestr
ongf
or2hour
sipr
omi
sei
wil
l
comebacki
timpor
tant
Phindi
le:
:
it'
sokayAmoi wil
lbewit
huunti
lheget
s
back(shesaidthatst
andi
ngonthedoor
)
dadki
ssedmyf
oreheadthenhewentout
..
.i
st
ooduptoonwentt
oPhindil
e'
sdir
ect
ion
Her:
:
let
'sgot
otheki
tchenumustbehungr
y
wewentt
her
enwef
oundgr
andf
athert
her
e
Hi
m::y
azini
angfunkumbonal
oyamlungu
emngcwabeni
kaOwet hu(
mymother
'ssecondname)
Phi
ndil
e::
uthandaungat
handikebabauzoza..
.u
Owethubekazofunaabekhonafuthnawuyakwaz
l
okofuthuzobeazosekaumt anakhe
Hi
m::
wakhul
umakeumt
hakat
hi
Phindi
le:
:
(shel
aughed)ngt
hakat
hanjengan
ngafundi
swanguwenxaa,Amolet'
sgo
i
fol
l
owedher
..
.nwewentt
otheshop'
sshe
boughtf
ishnchi
pswi
thaCokenwesatatt
hepar
k
eat
ing
Me:
:
thnxf
orbei
ngt
her
eformewhennobodyi
s
Her::
nothankuforbeingther
eforme.
..
uknowt he
famil
yactli
keidon'thaveaheartl
i
keidon'
tfeela
pain.
..
howcouldthey
Me:
:
asf
ormenobodynot
icesme
wesatt her
ethewholeeveningchatt
ingunti
lit
wasr eal
lyl
atewewentbackhomeaswegoti nsi
de
thehouseitwasmorecrowdedt hati
twaswhenwe
l
eft...
ihear
dsomeonetappingmyshoul derfr
om
behindnitwasMbaliit
oldPhindil
ethatineededto
tal
kt oMbalit
heniwentoutwithMbali
Her
::
chom what
'sgoi
ngonher
enwhydi
dn'
tucame
t
oschool
yohhievenfor
gott
hati
twasTuesday
..
iev
en
f
orgotthatihadt
ogotoschool
Me:
:
Mom.
..
Her
::
whatabouther
 soshedi
dn'
tknow

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kencomment
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15:
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t29

Me:
:
canwegot
alkout
side
isai
dthatgoi
ngoutnshefoll
owedme.
..
wewent
outsi
dethegatebecauseoft
hecrowd
Mbal
i
::
chom t
ell
mewhatwr
ong
Me:
:
mom'
sgone
Her
::WHAT?
?..
.whatdoumeanshe'
sgone
Me::
shepassedawayonherwaybackher
e..
the
pl
aneshewasi ncr
ashednnobodymakedi
tout
al
i
ve
Mbali
'stearsst
art
edflowi
ngv
eryfast
uncont
roll
ableshesatdownncr
iedoutl
oudni
sat
downtooncomf or
tedher.
..
thef
unnyt
hingi
sthati
wasn'
tcr
yingbutshewas..
.wesatt
her
eunti
lshe
wasfi
ne,
iwipedhertear
s
Her:
:aski
cchomma(
shesai
dthati
nawhi
sper
ing
voi
ce)
Me:
:
thankscakes
Her
::
douwantmet
ost
ayov
er
Me::nobabygohome...
.i
t'
sverycr
owdedplusidon't
wantmygr andpar
ent
snaggingme...
wenapromise
meuwi l
lreportmeatschoolmorr
ow
Her
::
wil
ldo.
..
takecar
e
shethenleftni al
sowentinsideibathedwor
emy
neiv
eNi ket
racksuitthenmysleepersti
edmyhair
i
ntoaneatbunt heni lockedmyr oom t
henwentto
the"community"thatwasathome
Phi
ndi
l
e::
ther
euar
e..
I'
vebeenl
ooki
ngal
lov
erf
oru.
..
Me:
:
WhatUp
Her
::awl
ambanga
Me:
:
nongseser
yt
Her
::
alr
ight
..
.Sat
urdayi
sthef
uner
alday
Me:
:
ohhh(
tear
sfi
l
ledmyey
esbuti
hel
dthem back)
Her
::
don'tuwannasayhit
oy ourgr
andmot
her
..
.U
hav
en'tseenhersol
oaf
iki
lphela
Me:
:
sur
e
wewentt othesitt
ingroom wher eshewas. .
.she
wassitt
ingonamat reswi thother2ladiesicouldn'
t
r
ecognisei wentt
oherni kneeledi
nfrontofhershe
j
usthuggedmencr i
edwi t houtsay
ingany t
hing
..
.okaythatwasfir
st . .
.
Her
::kunj
ncc
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
a
Her
::aski
cnt
ombazana
ij
ustlookedather.
..Iwasjustconfusedabout
herbehavi
ortowardsmeshe' salwaysrudephela
maarnamhl aayi
tadifferentst
ory
Her
::
cinant
ombazane.
..
cinel
ebant
wanbaki
ni
speaki
ngofmysibl
i
ngsohav
en'
tseent
hem ina
whil
e..
.wel
lit
henst
oodupnwentt
otheki
tchen.
..
it
wasnow21h00i t
ook4bi scuit
sat
ethem theni
wenttomyroom wit
hPhindilewel
ockedthewesat
onthebedundert
heblankies
Her
::
howar
euf
eel
i
ng
Me:
:
idon'
tknowhowi
am f
eel
i
ng
Her
::
you'
l
lbef
ine
i
dozzedof
ftol
alal
and.
..
iwast
ir
edphel
ayoh

Thef oll
owingdaywewokeup(menPhi ndi
l
e)we
bathedi wokemymar oonlongdr
esswit
hsandles
..
.appli
edmymar oonl
ipst
ickPhi
ndi
lest
yledmyhair
..
.iwasl ooki
nggood
Her:
:
kubeuyazazkut
humuhlenj
nmawgcoki
dr
ess..
.i
tagoodthi
ngurememberedkut
h
uynt
ombazanenamhla

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kencomment
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15:
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arykaAmo
Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t29

hear
ingPhi
ndil
esayi
ngt
hatremi
ndedmeofmy
mom tear
swantedtocomeoutsobadl
ybuti
st
oppedthem
Me:
:
thanku
Her
::
let
'sgohav
eourbr
eakf
astnow
wewentoutni
sawOmphi
l
eiwentt
ohughi
m
t
ight
Hi
m::
uar
esuf
focat
ingmehau
Me:
:
imi
sseduhau(
isai
dthatgi
ggl
i
ng)
Hi
m: :
imi
ssedut
oo(
hisey
eswer
ebl
oodyr
edf
rom
cr
ying
Me:
:
wher
ewer
eu
Hi
m::ar
oundbutucoul
dn'
tseeusv
elekul
o
mphakathi
ola
(
Webot
hlaughed)
Me:
:
wher
e'sLel
o
Hi
m: :
she'
swi
thgr
andmaont
hemat
res.
..
.she'
s
cr
yingnonst
opshewant
smom
hesai
dt hatnt ear
sescapedhi seyeshequi ckl
y
wipedthem i tbrokemyhear tintobil
li
onpeaces
seeinghiml ikethatnoutofnowher eLelocamet o
hugmenshecr yed..
..
I'
veheardpaininmyl i
febut
thepainiwasf eelingnowwasi ncompar abletoany
painieverfel tihuggedbothmysi bli
ngnt heybot h
soabedpai nfull
yi nmyey esiheldbackmyt ear s
becausei didn'twantt hem t
oseemecr ying..Ihad
tobest r
ongf orthem...i
hadtobeashoul derfor
them tocryon, iwasn'tsupposetoletthem see
breaki
ngdownbutGodknowst hatinsi
dei was
bleedi
ng....
Me:
:i
tsokaynow.
..
uguy
swi
peurt
ear
swe'
l
ltakea
wal
k
Lel
o::
iwanti
cecr
eam
Me:
:
let
'sgot
hen.
..
wegotoutoft
hehousewewentt
otheshop
boughti
cecr
eam wechat
ted,
laughed,
tooksome
sel
fi
esnforasecondwefor
gotaboutt hepai
n..
.
Wet henwentbacktothehouse.
..
out
sidet hegat
ei
sawdaddy'scar
..
.iwenttoi
tnhewasi nsidei
poppedinwhil
eLelonOmphi l
ewentinside
Dad:
:
howar
eu
Me:
:
get
ti
ngt
her
e
Dad:
:iam sor
ryi
coul
dn'
tcomebacky
est
erd.
.
Me:
:
itokay
..
.
Iam gl
aduher
enow
Dad:
:
ist
her
eany
thi
nguwantt
otal
kabout
Me:
:
no.
.iam f
ine
Dad::
sweetyyougott
ast
opactingsostr
ong
sometimesitokayt
ocry
,i
tokaytoneedhel
p,i
tokay
tofeelsai
d
Me:
:
ijustcan'
tbel
i
eveshe'
sgone
Hi
m::
met
oo,
shewasy
oung
Me:
:
nowt
hatshe'
sgone,
whosegonnat
ell
me
ever
ythi
ng'sgonnabefi
newheni am sad,
whose
gonnalaughatmewheni am l
ateforschool
,
whose
gonnakissmyf or
eheadwheniam asleep
Him::
iam sorr
y(hesai
dthatput
ti
ngmyheadonhi
s
chestbr
ushingmyhair
)
ni
cry
edsi
l
ent
lyonmyf
ather
'schest
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15:
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: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t30

t
heweekf l
ewnpeopl ewer esti
llbusyprepari
ng
formymot her'
sfuneral mydadnmybest
fri
endwer ewithmeal ltheway. .
.nsowas
Phindil
e..
.shewast heonlyadultiwasl ef
twithinmy
mot her
'sfamilytheotherst
reatedmel i
keastranger
not her
swer eevenpr et
endingnott oseemewheni
wasar ound..
.ItwasnowFr idayev eningnmy
mot her
'sbodywascomi nghome. ..i
waswear inga
blackdresswi t
hpumpsnadoek( mygr andmamade
mewor epumpsnadoek)
.
..
iwassouncomf ortablebutkei hadnochoi ce..
.we
weresitti
ngonat entwi t
hmydadnMbal i,
Lelon
Omphi l
ewer ewi ththei rfatheri don'tknow
where,Phindil
ewascooki ngi nsidewi ththeot her
l
adiesMi kecamet of etchmehet oldmet ofollow
hi
mi didast ol
dwewenti nsidet hehousenal most
every
onewascr y i
ngev enMi keHi msel fhadt earsin
hi
sey esbuthewast ry
inghi sbestt oholdt hem
backasf ormei hav en'tcryinawhi l
eni don'
tknow
why..
..wellwewentt ot her oom wher emom' sbody
was..
..t
heyt oldme, Omphi l
e,Mi ke,Lel
onot herfami l
y
member stogol ookatmom f orthel asttym..wedi d
astold

Icouldn'
tholdmyselfl
ookingatmom tearsj
ust
escapedmyey esuncontr
ollabl
e..
.Wethenwentt
o
thetenttotheni
ghtcer
emonyni twasj
ustfi
ne
.
..
..
i
twasnowSat ur
dayt
hefuneraldayiwentto
bat
h,woremyblackumbrell
askirt
,whi
teshi
rt
,bl
ack
hi
ll
..
.bl
ackheat
(theonepeopleusuall
ywearata
f
uner
al)
IwasinmyFat her scaronourwayt ochurchwe
arri
vedatthechur ch,
ever
yonesaidtheirpai
nful
speechesspeakingaboutmymom nt heyaskedme
togof or
wardtosaysomet hi
ngaboutmymot her..
.i
stoodupnwentf orwardnearmymot her'
scoffin
asi di
dn'
tknowwhatt osayigavethem myphonen
iaskedthem toplaythebeatofWhitneyHoust on'
s
song-Iwill
alwaysl oveu

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kencomment
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15:
58]: Di
arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t30

Me:: i
..
..
should'
vestayiwouldn'tl
eav
eyouin
yourwayyyyy.
..
soI'l
lgogooo,butiknowiwil
lthi
nkof
uevery
stepoft hewayyyy.
..
.
Niii
i
iiwil
lal
waysl
oveuuuuuu,
wil
lal
way
slov
euuuuu
uuuuuuuuh.
..
.

Mydar
li
ngu.
..
uuu
Bi
tt
er,
sweetmemor
ies,
thati
sal
liam t
aki
ngwi
th
meeeee

.
..
Sogoodbyepl
zzdon'
tcry,
webot
hknowi am not
whatu,
uneednii
iwil
lal
waysl
oveuuu.
..
..
iwil
l
al
wayslov
euuuuu.
..
uuu.
.

Ihopel i
fet
reatukindnihopeyou'
l
lhaveal
lyou
dreamedof f
ffniwishujoynhappi
nessbutabove
al
l t
hingsiwishulove.
..

Niii
i
ii
iwil
lal
waysl
oveuuuuu,
iwi
lli
will
alway
slov
e
uuuu..
.wi
lli
wil
lal
waysl
oveuuuuu..
.
Iwi
l
lal
way
slov
eeuuuu.
.
Dar
li
ngi
lov
eu.
..
thatwasmymymom' sfav ouritesongni was
singingi twhi letearswer eflowi ngnev er
yoneint he
room wasnowcr yi
ngi kneel eddowni nfrontofmy
mot her '
scof finni cri
edoutal lt
hepai niwasf eeli
ng
whi l
el ookingatherbeaut i
ful picthatwasont opof
hercof fi
n. .
.icri
edt hi
nkingt hati willneverseeher
beaut ifulfaceagai n,iwillnev erseeherbeaut i
ful
smi leagai n,i wi
llneverhearherv oiceagain...
icried
thinkingaboutt hef actthati am nowmot her
l
ess. ..
myf atherhelpedmest andi ngupnt henhe
helpedmet osi tdownbecausei wasnowdi zzy
...
.thecer emonywenton. .
.thenwewentt othegr ave
sitest hatwhenmenmysi blingssai dourlast
goodby etoourbeaut i
ful
,kind, cal
m nl ovelymot her..
.
.
Iwatchedmymot
her
'scof
fi
ngoi
ngdownwhi
l
e
cr
ying..
.
.
Nj
ustl
i
ket
hati
wasof
fi
cial
l
ymot
herl
ess
.
..
.
Ihadnoonet
ocal
l"mom"any
one
Nthatwast
heendofAnast
asi
aOwet
huZi
qubu'
s
l
if
e

R.
I.
Pmamam

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kencomment
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15:
58: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t31

afterwewentbackhome. .
peopledi
shednt hey
di
sappear editwasjustme, Si
bli
ngs,Gr
andparents,
dad,Mymom' solderbrother(Muzi)nPhindil
eohh
notforgetti
ngMuzi'swifewewer enowsi tt
ingat
si
tti
ngr oom
Grandfat
her:
:konkesekndl
uli
manj
e..
.oksel
enj
e
ukuthkucleanekekl
endawo...
Gr
andmot her:
:bengsacel
askhul
umebabaudaba
ol
ubal
ulekil
eesbabizel
elona
Grandf
ather
::ohhh.
..
int
oesini
bizel
eyonangf
una
skhul
umisanengokuthabantwanabakaOwethu
bazohl
alanoban
Mike:
:ohhhbabaminabesengkhul
umi
lenoma
uvumileukuthuSbul
elonoOmphil
ebayohl
alanay
e
unti
ltheyareol
denoughtocomenstaywit
hme
Grandf
ather
::wenzekahl
engokukhul
umanony
oko
ndodana.
.i
ndluyona?
Mike:
:i
ndl
ubabai
zot
hengi
swamasengt
het
hekonke
okngokwam l
a
Grandmother
::nj
engobaasashi
l
okebabauMi ke
ukuthuzot
hathaezakhiy
ngane.
.nconot
hinast
hat
he
uAmo
Grandfat
her:
:uyazi
zwakuthuthin?
!.
.angekengi
ze
ngyohlal
analomlunguodel
elay
omi nakwam
..
.ngeke!
!!
 somygr
andf
atherhat
esmet
hatmuchhuh
Dad::
wit
hal
lduer
espectiwi
llal
sot
akemydaught
er
wit
hmeni wil
lmakesureit
akecar
eofher
Phi
ndil
e::
thatt
hemostgreat
estthi
ngI'
veeverhear
d
comingfr
om uBri
anthanku..
.whatdouthi
nkMuzi
Muzi:
:ai
iminangekengisholut
hovel
eiynganakzon
ezam(well
Muzi i
sthemostselfi
shpersoniknowhe
doesn'
tcareaboutany
thingbuthi
mself)
Phi
ndi
l
e::
Aykengy
athembanizwil
ebazal
baka
Phi
ndi
l
e(r
efer
ingt
oherparents)
Akekhoumt
wanakaOwet
huozobamt
hwal
okni
na
Gr
andf
ather
::ay
vel
eloml
unguakay
eebal
ungwi
ni
..
.Mikendodanaokunyenokuny esesokukhul
um
ocingwenthi
nakumel esihambemanj esif
unakfi
ka
kusakhanyaeDanti(hesaidthatgoingoutofthe
room wit
hMi kenhiswifefoll
owinghim)
gr
andmot
hercamet
ome
Her
::
unakekel
emt
anam(
shesai
dthathuggi
ngme
t
ightnt
henl
eav
ing)
Phindile:
:Amogel
angsthandwasami..
.iwantuto
knowt htil
oveukakhul
uni fihadaplaceofmyown
iwoul d'vet
akenuwithme...
iam sor
ryaboutyour
mot her,uhavet
obest r
ongnow. .
Welcometot
herealwor
ldmysweet(sheki
ssedmy
for
ehead)
iwi
llbei
ntouchokay
..
.by
ei havet
ogo
now
.
..
Dad::
pri
ncessgopackal
lyourt
hingsev
ery
thi
ngwe'
l
l
beleavi
nginanhour.
.
istoodupwenttomyroom .tookoffthehi
ghhil
l
s
iwaswear i
ngthenwor
emysl eepers..
.it
ookout
every
thingonmywoodrouptheni st
art
ed
packi
ng...
aft
erl
ike30miniwasdone. .
.
Iwentt
omymom'
sroom

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kencomment
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arykaAmo
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inuat
ionkai
nser
t31

herroom wasf
il
ledwithherscenti
tearescaped
myey eiqui
ckl
ywipeditbecauseiwasti
redof
cr
ying..
.
Wentt
oherwoodr
oupi
tookoutheral
bum .
..
Tooksomephot osofhernmysi bli
ngsthenitook
herfavour
itecl
othesthatfit
tedment henitookher
necklace.
..
theoneshel ovedthemost...
iwasev en
surpri
sedthatshelef
titbehindbecausemostt i
mes
i
twasar oundherneck...
.
Aft
erthatit
ookallmythi
ngsndadhelpedmeto
packthem i
nthecart
heni wentbacki
nsi
det
he
housetoOmphilenLel
o
Me:
:
guy
scomeher
e(t
heybot
hcamet
ome)
.
..
.
Iam l
eavi
ngnow,upr
obabl
ywill
seemeinthenext5
yrsormorebutonet
hingi
alwayswantut
oknowi s
thatiloveuv erymuch...
iwantuguy stotakecar
eof
eachot her..don'tf
orgettoprayever
yday.
..nOmphil
e
rememberwhatmom sai dtout hedayshe
l
eft..
.protectLelonLel orememberwhatmom sai d
toual so" foll
owalltheinst
ructi
onstheygiveu
unlessuy abonakut hngekaksizendawo"(isai
dal
l
thatwi t
ht earsflowing)
Omphi
le:
:
takecareofyoursel
fwhereev
ery
ou're
goi
ngAmo..don'
tfor
getaboutus(
hewascryi
ngtoo)
Me:
:
iwi
l
lbei
ntouchwi
thuguy
zokay
..
.Il
oveuguy
s
Lel
o::
wel
oveut
oo(
wehugged)
Me:
:
Mikepl
easet
akecar
eoft
hem
Hi
m::
wil
ldo.
..
takecar
eofy
our
sel
f
Me:
:
iwi
l
l.
..
nthnxf
orev
ery
thi
ng
i
thenwentoutl
eav
ingmycr
yingsi
bli
ngsi
nsi
de.
..
Wenttomyf at
her'
scarnwehit
tedther
oad.
..
.iwas
soheart
brokenl
eavingmysi
bli
ngsbehi
ndbutihad
nochoi
ce..
Ev
enmy
sel
fiwasst
il
lyoung.
..
.
..
Ihopenpraythattheyfi
ndhappi
nessnpeace
whereev
ertheyaregoing..
Maygodbl
esst
hem
.
..
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kencomment
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nser
t32

wewenttomyfat
her
'sapart
ment
..
.Hehel
ped
meget
ti
ngthebagsi
nsi
de..
.nwewer
edonein20
mi
n
Hi
m::
got
akeashowermybabyumustbet
ir
ed
ididastol
dnindeediwastir
ediworemywarm
purpl
epy j
amasnmypur pl
esleeper
sthenimade
myhai rabennbet
tysty
letheniwentbackt
othe
ki
tchenwheredadwashewascooki ng
Me:
:
idi
dn'
tknowucancook
Hi
m::
thenther
e'salotust
il
ldon'
tknowaboutme
(
hesaidt
hatlaughi
ng)
Me:
:
whatar
eucooki
ng
Hi
m::
spaghet
tinmi
nce
Me:
:
mhhm can'
twai
t
hecooked,weatethenwenttosl
eep.
.isleptli
kea
baby
,iwasti
redsofinal
lyi
hadresti
haven'tslept
l
iket
hatinawhile
.
..
I
twasnowmor
ningnmydadwokeme
Upwi
thabr
eakf
asti
nbed
Ncoahhowsweet
..
.
I
twastoastedbr eadwit
h
pal
ony
,sausage,cheese,
Baconnegggs(
nonet
hing
mydaddidn'tknow
Wast
hati
am ar
ll
egi
ctoeggs)
Nt
her
ewasal
sonor
angej
uice
Me:
:
thnx
Him::
Anyt
hingf
oru..
lookeat
,getabathuneedt
o
accompanymetotownweneedgr ocery
i
didast
old,
iat
e,bat
hednt
hedaybegan
.
..
wewentt
ot heshops.
..
broughtgrocer
ythen
somefewclothesforusboth..
wewer enowhungr yn
ti
redwewenttoMcDboughtbur ger
s,chi
psndrinks
wesatdownandbegant oat e
.
.
Dad:
:
uknowt
hatwecan'
tst
ayher
efor
everr
yt
Me:
:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ngt
ost
ay
Dad:
:
London
Me:
:
whataboutschool
Hi
m::
ther
ear
eschool
sinLondon
Me:
:
whenar
ewegoi
ng
Hi
m::
nextmont
h
Me:
:
W.T.
Fdadnextmont
hisnextweekmoc
.
..
ihaven'
tevenwri
temyexam i
t'
ssti
l
l
Sept
ember,can'
tweatl
eastwai
tfort
hisy
eart
oend
Hi
m::
nowecan'
tAmu.
.nextweekwe'
regoi
ng
Me:
:i
t'
sAmonotAmu(
isai
dthatgoi
ngt
othecar
l
eav
inghi
mther
e)
t
hemaniscr
azymoc.
..
.what
'st
her
ush.
..
Next
weekpho

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kencomment
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15:
58]: Di
arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
t32

mendadwer
edr
ivi
ngi
nsi
l
enceunt
ilhedeci
ded
t
otal
k
Him:
:iam sorr
ybabygirlbuti
havenochoicenI'
ve
gotr
easonsyweneedt ogonextmonththatu
woul
dn'tunderst
and.
..Fr
idaywegoingt
ot akea
removef
orusot
hisweeki
sgoi
ngt
obeurl
astweek
herei
nS.A
ij
ustl
ookedathi
m nsai dnothi
ng..
.t
ryi
ngto
di
gestthesh*thej
ustsaidni l
ookedoutthe
wi
ndowuntilwearr
ivedathisapart
ment..
.Theday
wentonnwewent osleep..
.
.
..
Iwokeupi nthemor ni
ngt
ookabath,
wor
emyschool
greyt
rouser,
shir
t,t
ienablazer
..
.
Iwasr
eadyf
orschool
..
.
Dad:
:
ineedtodr
opuatyourschool
rightnow.
.ihav
e
ameeti
ngin3hour
ssoplstr
ytobequi ck
Me:
:
iam donel
et'
sgo
wegoti
ntot
hecarnwemadeourwayt
o
school
Dad:
:
iam sor
ryi
fmydeci
sionaboutl
eav
ing.
..
Me:
:
itf
inedadi
under
stand
Dad:
:
daddyl
ovesuokay
Me:
:
daddy
'sgi
rlal
sol
ovedaddy
 welaughednhedr
oppedmeof
ftoschool
ni
wenti
n..
.Mbali
cametome
.
..
Her:
:
sthandwasomei
t'
sgoodt
oseeuatschool
agai
n
Me:
:
thnxchom
Her
::
lastweekwassobor
ingwi
thoutuhey
Me:
:
kbhor
anj
nuMomoakhon
Her
::
gir
lhegothi
sownf
rndsphel
a
(
Ilaughedt
hebel
lrangnwewentt
ocl
ass)
.
..
itwasnowluncht
imeasiwasst
andi
ngupf
rom
mydeskNqabacametome
Hi
m::
hey
Me:
:
hy
Hi
m::
njn
Me:
:
pla
Hi
m::
ain'
tugoi
ngt
oaskmekbandi
njannna
Me:
:
mftt
alkuf
unani
needt
ogo
Hi
m::
O..
kay
..
justwant
edt
otel
lut
hati
micu
Me:
:(
ismil
ed)
ngyabongkungkhumbul
a,
(it
henputon
ast
rai
ghtf
ace)sowcedi
lekukhul
umabhuti
?
Hi
m::
hau
Me:
:
yini
Hi
m::
nvm
Me:
:
okay
.
.
Isai
dthatgoi
ng
Hi
m::
iam sor
ryabouty
ourmom
Me:
:
ngy
abonga
it
henwentoutnxnuyanghlanyel
ayazl
o..
.iwent
toMbal
inwewentt obuylunchthenwentt
osi t
down
.
.
Me:
:
chomm.
.uy
azkut
hngohl
alangi
kthandan
y
ohl
alausenhl
i
zweny
am nomet
terwhatangi
thi
Her:
:ai
i
boAmo.
..
whyar
esay
ingt
hatmanj
e..
yi
n
?.uy
afa??
Me:
:
no.
..
buti
am l
eav
ingnextweeksweet
y
Her
::
wher
ear
eugoi
ngnwhenar
eucomi
ngback
Me:
:
toLondonni
ain'
tcomi
ngback
Her
::
WHAT?
?
(
Iexpl
ainedever
ythingnshewascry
ingthatiam
l
eavi
ngwecr y
edt ogethernt
hedaywentonpainf
ull
y)
.
..
Butsheacceptedthati
havetogoni havenochoi
ce
sosheinsi
stedthatwetakepi
cstogethert
ocreat
e
newmemor ies.
..
.
..
Iwi
l
lmi
cmyf
rndxei
m..
.
.
..
Sotheweekwentonnonniwasspendi
ngev
eryl
i
l
fr
eesecondi
hadwithMbal
i
...
Shetol
dtheclasst
hati
wasl
eav
ingn.
theyt
hrewme
afar
ewellpar
ty
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nser
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myf
airwel
lparywasf unyetpainf
ull
..
.myf
ather
tookaremoveforme..
.ihadalreadysai
dmy
goodby
est oMbalint
heot hers..
.
.
..
I
'
veal
readypackedmybags.
.
.
.
Mydadhadal
readybookedust
icketf
ort
hepl
ane.
..
.
..
Wewer
eleav
ingSundayev
ini
ng
Idi
dn'
tknowhowt
ofeel
aboutgoi
ng.
..
YesI
'veal
way
swantedt
ost
artov
erinanewpl
ace
buti
wantedt
hatwi
thmymom nsibl
i
ngs..
.
..
Nnowi gett
ogetthatwi
thmydadnhi
sfami
l
ythat
doesn'
tknowaboutme..
.
.
..
Thi
swasi
t.
.
Leavi
ngmySibl
i
ngs,
fr
nds,
mymom.
..
wel
lmy
mother'
sgr
ave.
..
Leavi
ngall
thatbehi
ndhasal
way
sbeenani
ght
mar
e
forme..
.
.
Li
fewithoutmom hasal
way
sbeenani
ght
mar
ei
neverwanted.
.
.
..
Looksl
i
kei
am nowl
i
vingi
nani
ght
mar
e..
.
.
Canany
onewakemeupnt
ell
Mei
am notl
eav
ing.
.t
ell
met
hatmymot
her
'sal
i
ve?
?
.
.
Buti
hadnochoi
cebutt
ober
eady
Fort
henewl
i
fewi
thmydad
.
..
Soi
ndeedwet
ookt
hatf
li
ghtnwentt
oLondon.
.
.
.
I
twasal
ongf
li
ghtbuti
twasf
unatt
hesamet
ime
.
.
Wear
ri
vedatLondonai
rpor
tnwet ookapr
ivat
eJet
t
nwewentt
otheplacehecal
ledhome
Hi
m::
i
t'
sbeaut
if
ulher
eisn'
ti
t
Me:
:
alot
..
.t
hemostbeat
if
ull
thi
ngI
'
veev
erseen
Hi
m::okay
..
.sohunnydon'tuhav
eanengl
i
shname
t
hatanyonecanpronounce
(Il
aughedr emember
ingt
hatev
enhi
m sel
fhehad
nevercall
edmebymynamebecausehecan't
pronounceit)
Me:
:
itVanessadad
Hi
m::
alr
ightmyVanessawel
comet
oLondon
Me:
:
thnxbabam,
kant
isol
oasf
iki
yini
Hi
m::
wehavebabyl
ook(
hesaidpoi
nti
ngout
sidethe
wi
ndownisawthi
shuge,
beaut
if
ulhousewi
thli
ght
al
lov
eri
t.
..
I
'
veseenbi
gbeauti
ful
housebef
orebutt
hisone
y
oooitwastoomuch)
Me:
:
ist
haty
ourhouse(
iaskedi
ndi
sbel
i
eve)
Hi
m::
yeshunny
Me:
:wow!
!!

nt
hecarst
oodinf
rontoft
hehousenitwastime
f
ormetocomeoutnmyhear twaspoundi
ngfast
f
orsomereasoni
didn'
tknow..
.
Dadcal
l
edhi
smai
dst
otakebagsf
orus
.
.
Ohh
Hi
m::
comel
et'
sgoi
nsi
depr
incess.
.
i
slowl
ygotoutoft
hecarnwef
inal
l
ywent
i
nsi
de

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kencomment
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inuat
ionkai
nser
t33

wethengotinsidenitwasahugeempt yr
oom
thentherewerestair
s..
.l
ooksl
iketheyl
edtothe
wholehousewhi leiwaslooki
ngatthehouse
holdi
ngdad' shandateenagegir
lcamerunni
ng
shouti
ng" daddy"
Hehuggedhi m,shewasf ol
l
owedbyot hergi
rlwho
l
ookedol dert
hanhernt hebothheldhi
shandsn
draggedhimthroughthestair
sislowl
yfoll
owed
them feel
ingl
eftoutal
ready.
..
.
.
Wereachedthi
shugesi
tt
ingr
oom whi
chhadleader
cr
eam whit
ecouchesni
thadaglasswal
lwi
ch
showedt
hewonder
ful
lvi
ewmi
ndut
het
imewas
21h00
.
..
Theroom wasbeaut
iful
..I
thadaTVwhichf
it
tedt
he
wholewal
ly oohguy
si t
'
sheavenonear
thiam
tel
l
ingu.
.
Welli
ntheroom t
herewasthi
sladyguessi
ngher
ageiwouldsayshe'
s37..
ntherewasthesetwo
boys.
.
.
.
Theladystoodupt ohugdadntheyki
ssed..
wel
li
guessthatishiswif
ewellsheai
n'
tbeauti
ful
umlungunje..
thendadwenttoshoul
derpumpthe
boysni mustsaylabel
unguwerehappytoseeeach
other
.
..
.
Whileal
lofthi
swashappeningi
wasstandi
ngthere
quit
eli
keawetchickennitwasli
kei
am inv
isi
ble
thewaytheywereacti
ng.
..
.
.
Thel
ady:
:hunnywhosethi
s(shesai
dthatpoi
nti
ngat
me..
.sof
inal
lysomeonenoti
cesme)
Thet
eenagegi
rl
::
i
ssheoneoft
henewmai
dscause
i
fsheisshewi
l
lserv
eme
W.T.Fdoil
ookli
keamai dtot
hisbi
tch.
..
iwasso
i
rri
tat
edbywhatshejustsai
dnmydadnot i
cedthat
..
Ibetmynosewaspink
Dad:
:
uhm canwet
alki
nPr
ivat
eLi
nda
Me::
noBriant
ell
them i
nfr
ontofme..
.t
ell
ever
yone
(wel
lisai
dBri
anbecauseidi
dn'
twanttocal
lhi
m
dadwitht
hem unawarewhoiam )
wel
ltheyal
ltur
nedt
olookatmesur
pri
sebywhat
I
'
vejustsai
d
Li
nda:
:
tel
luswhat
..
.hunnywhati
sshet
alki
ngabout
Dad:
:
canwesi
tdown
theydi
dast
oldniwentt
ositnextt
odad..
.my
dadwasswear
ti
ngyohiguessthi
sishar
dforhi
m
.
..
Dad:
wel
lVanessasweet
ythi
sisChr
ist
ine(
poi
nti
ng
atthegirlwhodr aggedhimthroughthe
stai
rs)
,Jaden(theolderboy),
Jay(
thel
ilboy
),n
Brit
ney(t
hegi r
lwhocamer unni
ngforhim).
.nthati
s
mywi f
eLi nda..
.
Li
nda:
:
wel
lBr
iannowcanui
ntr
oduceuspl
z
Dad:
:well
uhm...
(hetookadeepbr
eat
h)guyst
hisi
s
mylastbornVanessa.
..
she'
smydaught
er
Li
ndast
oodupnt
heyal
ll
ookedmei
ndi
sbel
i
ef
.
..
Li
nda:
:
What
Dad::
bematur
edpl
easej
ustsi
tdownnl
et'
stal
k
aboutthi
s
Linda:
:
ther
e'snot
hingtot
alkaboutBr
ian.
..
all
lthi
s
yearsyou'
vebeenhidi
ngherfr
om me
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 dadst
oodupt
oo
Hi
m: :
idi
dn'
thi
deheri
onl
yfoundoutabouther8
mothsback
Li
ndawasnowcr
yingnscr
eami
ng.
..
abal
ungubane
dr
amayaz
Her
::
butst
il
ludi
dn'
tbot
hert
ell
i
ngmei
nthat8
months
Dad:
:
iam t
ell
i
ngunowai
n'
ti
Her
::
iknewt hatugoi
ngtoSouthAfr
icawasno
l
ongerrel
atedtobusi
ness.
..
.You'
vebeencheat
ing
onme
Dad:
:ihav
en'
tbeencheati
ngonu..
can'
tuseethat
she'
sold,
menhermot herwer
eanit
em fi
ft
eenyrs
ago
Her:
:Fi
ft
een?!
..
O.M.G she'
sAnastasi
a'sdaughter.
..
i
al
way sknewthatt
hatWi t
chwil
lAlwaysfindaway
backint
oourliv
eswhatisherdaughterdoinghere
thatbi
tchj
ustcal
l
edmymot
herawi
tch
W.
T.F
.
.
Dad:
:
she'
smov
ingi
n
Linda::
hel
lnothatai
n'
thappeni
ng..
.Iwi
l
lnotal
low
that.
.what
'snext,
i
sAnastasi
agonnamov ei
ntoo
Dad:
:
douseeAnast
asi
aany
wher
eher
e..
.
Her:
:
butthi
schil
disnotgonnastayherenever.
not
nownotlat
ernotever
..
.ei
thermykidsnileaveor
sheleav
e
Dad:
:t
here'
snoneedforthedramauar
ecausi
ng
her
e..
.uarehur
ti
ngherfeel
ings
Her:
:idon'tcar
eBriangetherthefuckoutofmy
house.
..
there'
snochilsofAnastasi
aiam goingt
o
sharet
her oofwit
h..
.Never.
..
getheroutofmyhouse
nowBr i
annow
mydadheldmyhandndr aggedmeoutofthat
househewentinsi
deleav i
ngmeatt hedoorhethen
cameoutwithmybagsnhet ookmetothecarni
fol
lowedhi
m...
hedrovei don'tknowwherei
nsil
ent.
..
Iwashurtbr
oken..
iwon'tli
e..
.
..
Wefinal
l
yreachedthisbi
gbuildi
nghewentinsi
de
l
eavi
ngmei nthatcarhethencameout..
tookmy
bagsoutoft
hebootnhet ol
dmet of
oll
owhi m.
.
I
twasanhot
el.
..
Wegoti
nitwasabeaut
if
ulhot
el.
..Socl
assyn
f
ancy
..
Therewerenei
vebed's,Tv,
Whit
epaint
edwallna
bathr
oom sothetheemewaswhi t
ennei vei
twas
beauti
ful
xei
mi satatthatbedemoti
onlessndad
j
oinedme
.
.
Him:
:i
am sosor
ryaboutal
lthatsweet
hear
tidi
dn'
t
knowshewoul
dactli
kethat

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t35
Me::
thatwomanhat
esmewi
thpassi
on.
..
sheev
en
cal
l
edmymot herawit
ch
Hi
m: :
she'
l
lcomedown..ni
Am sor
ryuhear
dthe
t
hingsuweren'
tsupposet
ohear
Me::i
don'tcarewhet hershecomesdownorupone
thi
ngi knowist hatiam notgoi
ngbacktothat
houseitcleariam notwelcome(wel
ltear
swere
nowmaki ngt heirwayout)
Hi
m::
iam sor
rymypr
incess
Me::
idon'
twannabeher
edaddyj
ustt
akemehome,
i
wannagohome
hejusthuggedme. ..
thet r
uthis..
iwantedt osee
my selfi
nS. Ai wantedt oseemysel foutofthathell
holecalledLondon. .soisthiswhatki dswithout
mot hersgot hroughev erydayoram i just
cursed..
.whydi di
thav etobemewhogot hrough
thatsh*t..
.att hatmomenti hadnomot herni had
nopl acetost ay whydi dmom l eavemeal onein
thi
scr uelwor l
d? ,whathav eidonet odeserveall
thi
s..
.It
henwentt obathndador deredameal buti
hadnoappet i
teij
ustgotunderthebl anket
s..t
ook
myphonet olookatmymot her
'spicsni cr
ieda
sil
entcr
ywhi l
elookingatthem..
.shewasbur i
edl ast
weekbutitfeel
si havebeenalonei nthi
sworldfor
l
ike2y r
sormor e..
.
Imi
ssedher
..
Imissedheral
otnifel
lasl
eepi
don'
tknoewhen
becauseiwasbusycry
ing

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kencomment
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15:
59]
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arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t35

i
twasnowmorni
ng..
mydadwokemeupwit
ha
ki
ssonmyfor
eheadncoahhi
wokeupnsmi
l
ed
.
.
Hi
m::
ncoahul
ooksocut
ewhenuwakeupsmi
l
ing
Me:
:
mor
ningdad
Hi
m::
howar
eu
Me:
:get
ti
ngt
her
e
Him::
looki knowri
ghtnowuwantnothi
ngt odowit
h
thi
splace..Uprobabl
ywanttogobacktoS.Aniam
sorr
yf orwhathappenedl
astni
ghtiam deepl
ysor
ry
Me:
:
it'
sokaydadi
t'
snoty
ourf
aul
t
Hi
m::
iwi
l
lmakei
tupt
ou.
..
Justt
ell
mewhatuwantni
wil
lgi
vet
ou
Me:
:dadev
eni
fit
ell
u..
uwon'
tbeabl
etogi
vei
tto
me
Hi
m::
j
ustt
ell
me
Me::
iwantmymom dad(
isai
dthatget
ti
ngoutoft
he
bl
ankieswi
tht
ear
sfl
owing)
Hi
m::
iknow.
..
butukn.
.
Me:
:
yeci
knowshe'
sgone.
..
letmegot
akeabat
h
i
wentt
otakeabat
h,wor
emygr
eyAdi
das
t
racksui
tnablackNi
kesneakers.
.ti
edmyhai
rint
oa
messybunthenappl
i
edmypi nkli
psti
ck
Dad:
:
ulookgood
Me:
:
thnx
t
her
ewasanockont
hedoor
Dad:
:
itmustbet
her
oom ser
vice
hewenttoopenthedoornhecamebackwi
th
pancakeswit
hhunnynorangej
uice
Me:
:
looksdel
i
cious
Dad:
:t
rustmeiti
s..
.(
webeganeat
ing)sowhatdou
wanttodotoday
Me:
:
stayi
nthi
shot
elunt
ilf
orev
er
Dad:
:
souai
n'
tgonnagont
akeal
ookatt
hepl
ace
Me:
:
no.
..
wena?
Dad:
:
ihav
est
ufft
osor
tout
Me:
:
plsdon'
ttel
lmeugonnabegurwi
fet
oletme
movei
n
Dad:
:
wecan'
tst
ayher
efor
everpr
incess
Me::
iknowbutican'
tst
aywit
hstaywi
tht
hatb*
tch
youcal
lyourwi
fenurspoi
l
trats
Hi
m::
uknowuj
ustcal
l
edmywi
feab*
tch
Me::
uknowthatl
astni
ghtshecal
l
edmymot
hera
wi
tchri
ght
Hi
m::
o..
.ka.
y.
..
Lookihavetogonowokay
(heki
ssedmycheek)
bye
iwil
lseeulat
er
Me:
:
bye
hewentoutni wasleftalone.
.ist
ayedi
nther
e
forl
ikeanhourthenidecidedtot
akeawalk
becauseiwasreall
ybored..
.
WentoutO. M.Gt hepl
acewasamazi ngitwas
beauti
fulsoitooksomesel f
ies.
..
theniwentto
somer estaur
antorderedaSushi nimustsayispent
thedaywel lt
heni wentbacktothehotelr
oom i
foundmydadt here
Hi
m::
soudeci
dedt
otakeawal
khuh
Me:
:
yeahst
ayi
ngi
nthi
sroom al
one.
..
aii
iiwasgoi
ng
t
oendupcr
azy
Hi
m::
isee.
..
.
Me:
:
sohowwasurday
Hi
m::
nott
hatbad
Me:
:
mhmmm okayi
am t
ir
edkemi
nangsal
ala
Him:
:Sl
eepti
ghtpr
incess.
..
asf
ormei
sti
l
lgot
busi
nesst
odo
ipr
etendedtobeasleepwhil
eprayi
ngthathi
s
wi
fedoesn'tagreet
osharearoofwit
hmecausei
wasn'
treadyforastepmotherdramaI'
vebeen
t
hroughalotalr
eady

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ke
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00]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t36

i
wokeupt
hatf
oll
owi
ngWednesday
..
.Idi
dn'
tsee
mydadaround. .
.iwenttotheshowernbathedthen
woremyblueboy f
riendj
eanwhi t
eRedbatT-shi
rtn
mywhiteall
stariididn'
tti
emyhai rt
henappli
eda
bl
ackl
ipst
ick..
.

.
..
Dadcamebackwi
thapi
zza
Hi
m::
mor
ning
Me:
:
hy
Hi
m::
I'
veboughtusbr
eakf
ast
Me:
:
iam nothungr
y
Hi
m::
whatdi
duat
e
Me:
:
not
hing.
..Ij
ustdon'
tfeel
li
keeat
ing
Hi
m::okayt
hensui
tyour
sel
f(
hesai
dthatopeni
ngt
he
pi
zza)
Me::
douknowaplacewher
eicandomyhai
r.
.I
hav
en'tdonei
tiawhi
le
Hi
m::
okayI
'
llt
akeuwher
eucandourhai
rlat
er.
..
Ohhnt
omor
rowwemov
ingt
omyhouse
Me::
idon'
twannagot
her
edad...
idon'
twant
any
thingt
hathast
odowit
hthosepeople
Hi
m::
thosepeopl
ear
eurf
ami
l
y
Me::
notheyar
enot!!
..
.t
heyar
eyour
snotmi
nent
hat
pl
acedoesn'
tfeel
li
kehome
.
..
mydadjuststoodther
enlookedatme
emot
ionl
esswithoutananswer..
iwasnowcr
ying
Me::daducangonl i
veahappyf amilywi ththem but
takebackhome. .
.iwil
lmakeapl anwher e'll
li
v e..
.i
am nothappyher edad..i
wannabehappy. .
.iwanna
wakeupwi thahappyhear tandawidesmi l
e...can'
t
useeI '
vegotnohappi nesshere.
..
thi
spl acef eels
l
ikeahel lholetome. .
.i
tdoesn'tf
eelsli
kehome
...
.I
'
v egotnooneher e..
iwantmybestf r
iend,iwant
mysi bli
ngsdadi wantmymom. .
.whyi sitmewho
havet ogoal lt
hispain...
whathavei donet odeser ve
allt
his..
.
i
thencr
iedpai
nful
l
ythet
rut
hismyhear
twas
heavy.
..Icouldn' thol
ditinany mor e,i
wast ir
edof
beingstrong,i wast i
redofpr etendingni wast i
red
tel
li
ngmysel fthatev er
ything'sgonnabeokaybuti t
wasonl ygettingwor se..
.iwast ir
edofl i
vingijust
wishedmymot hercouldcomebacknt akemet o
heavenwi thhermay bether eiwasgoi ngt obe
happy.
..Anastasi awhydi dul eavemewhenuknew
thatnoonewi lleverl
ov emel i
keudi d..
.
.
.
Mydadheldmeti
ghtwhil
ei cri
edmylungsoutt
o
hi
schestandf
ewminuteslateiwasf
ine
.
.
Him:
:ihav
etogosomewher
eitwi
l
lonl
ytakeanhour
okay
Me:
:
okay
Hi
m::
buti
can'
tl
eav
eul
i
ket
his.
.comewi
thme
Me:
:
dadI
'
llbef
ine.
.ugo
Hi
m::
okayt
hen(
het
ookhi
skeynwentout
)
.
.
 i
wentt olockadoor
..
.Tookar
azert
heni
satown
i
nfrontofthemir
ror
..
Iwastir
edoffeel
ingtheemoti
onalpai
ni want
edto
feel
thephysi
calpai
nnotthatiwaskil
l
ingmyself
..
.i
thebegant
ocutmysel fontheri
ghtarm

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Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t36

i
cont
inuedt
otocutmysel
f.
..
Thelastt
imei didthatiwas6yrsoldiwasangry
withmymom becauseshedeni edtobuymei ce
cream nipromisedmymom I '
dneverdoitagainbut
hereiam .
.breakingt
hatpromi
se...
ihadnochoice
whereevershei ssheseeswhatiam goi
ngthrough
..
.
Nowi
wasdonecut
ti
ngmysel
fbot
har
msni
tfel
t
goodt ofeelthephysi
calpainismi
l
edf orsome
reason..
.af
terawhilebloodwassti
llcomingoutni
fel
tdizzynitwasl i
ghtoutforme
.
..
.
Iwokeuphearingt
hesoundofpeepingmachi
nesi
sl
owlyopenedmyey esni sawmydadnextt
ome
hewasf aci
ngdowncov er
inghi
sfacewi
thhi
sface
..
itr
iedtomovemysel fbutmybodywasnumbi
coul
dn'tmoveevenafinder.
.
.
.okayni hadthisoxygenboxonmynosei t
ri
edt o
tal
kbuwor dsf ai
ledmet heonlythingthatcameout
ofmymout hwas" dad"nakhonai wassay i
ngitina
whisperi
ngv oi
cenf i
nall
ymydadl ookedatmenhe
quickl
yremov edthatoxygenthinonmyf ace.
..
Ohhnmi
ndui
wasatt
hehospi
tal
.
..
Him::
Vanessawhydidudoi t(
hist
earswerefl
owi ng
nitwasthefi
rstt
imei sawmydadi ntear
s).
.iknow
ugoingthr
oughadif
ficultt
imebuttr
yingtoki
llur
sel
f
 ai
ibowhatisthi
smantalki
ngabouti
wasn'tt
ryi
ng
toki
l
l myselfmnahaubutkeicoul
dn'
tevenanswer
himijustl
ookedathi
m
Hi
m: :
Vanessadiduthinkofmewhenuwer edoing
t
his.
..
I'
vejustf
ounduni can'
taf
fordtol
oseuagain.
.
Whatwasi goi
ngt osaytourmot her
'sf
amil
y.
..
didu
t
hinkofyoursibl
i
ngs..
.
WhyVanessa? ?douknowial
mosthadanhear
t
attackf
indi
ngulyi
ngonapoolofbl
ood.
..
douknow
thtualmostdi
ed..
Vanessai knowiam doingev er
ythi
ngwr ongbuti
am tr
yingmybesther e..
.iknowi can'tgi
v euwhatu
wantbutl am gi
vi
ngmycar enlovet ou...
niam
sorr
yaboutev er
ythi
ngbutuhav etopr omiseme
you'
dnev ertr
ytokil
lyourselfagain
O.M.Gwhathaveidonemyf at
heri
scr
yingn
tearswereal
somakingt hi
erwayoutt
omebuttoo
badi coul
dn'
tanswerhim
.
.
Thi
sti
meI
'
vehur
tmydadi
nabi
gwaynowhe'
s
bl
aminghi
msel
fforev
eryt
hingni
twasn'
tmy
i
ntent
iont
omakehimfeelt
hatway.
.
Landi
ngonahospi
tal
wasnev
erpar
toft
hepl
an.
..
.
.
Somyhet
hinkst
hathe'
sbeendoi
ngany
thi
ngwr
ong
..
.
Hedoesn'
tknowthathe'sbeendoi
ngev er
ythi
ngj
ust
fi
nemaybethat
'sbecausealli
everdoistocompl
ain
buti
nevert
hankhimf orbei
ngthere.
..
.

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kencomment
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arykaAmo

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nser
t37

seei
ngmyfat
hercr
yingli
ket
hatshowedmehow
muchthismanr
eal
lyl
ov esme.
..
Itwasheartbr
eaki
ngseei
nghi
ml i
ket
hat
..
.asmuch
asitri
edansweri
nghi
mi Coul
dn'
twor
dswerefai
l
ing
me. .
.
.
.
Thedoct
orcamei
n
Doc:
:
icanseeurpr
incessi
sawake
Dad:
:
yecdoc.
..
whenwi
l
lshebedi
schar
ged
Doc:
:assoonast
hei
nject
ioni
snol
ongeri
nherbody
She'
l
l gohome
Dad:
:
nhowl
ongwi
l
lthatt
ake
Doc::
iam sur
ebytomorr
owmor ningtheinject
ion
wil
lbegone..
.ul
uckyugott
herejustontimeorot her
wiseshewouldhavedi
ed..
.shedidlostalotof
bl
ood
Dad:
:
okaydocnt
hanx
Doc:
:
justdoi
ngmyj
obsi
r(hesai
dthatgoi
ngout
)

mydadcont
inuedt
ost
aywi
thmeunt
ili
dozzed
of
f
.
..
okayi
wokeupl
ater.
.
Iwasnowal onei
ntheroom noiwasfuckenthi
rst
y
soislowlyt
ookthegl
assofwaterthatwasnextto
mei drank.
..
nowiwashungry.
.
Yohhhwher
e'sdadwheni
needhi
mthemost
..
.
.
..
Butev
ent
ual
l
yidozz
edof
fagai
n

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kencomment
[
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16:
00]
: Di
arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t37

thef
oll
owi
ngmor ni
ngi
waswokenupbymy
f
atherisl
owl
yopenedmyeyesni
sawatakeaway.
..
Thatwheni
quickl
ywokeupnopenedi
tiwasver
y
hungr
yphel
ayohhndadnoti
cedsohel
aughed.
.
..
.
Iopenedt
het
akeawayni
mmedi
atel
yat
e
Hi
m::
icanseet
hei
nject
ioni
snol
ongerony
ourbody
ididn'
tanswerhi
mi j
ustcont
inuedeati
ngi
wishedi hadazi
ponmyst omachthatmomenti
wasjustgonnaunzi
pitnputthefoodin.
..
yept
hat
howf astiwant
edtoeat
Hi
m::
uscar
edmeVanessa.
..
foramomenti
thoughti
wasgoi
ngt
oloseumypri
ncess
st
il
lij
ustcont
inuedwi
thwhati
wasdoi
ng.
..
Thedoct
orent
eredmywar
d
Doc:
:
icanseet
heQueeni
snowbet
ter
Dad:
:
nhungr
ytoo
t
heybot
hlaughed
Dad:
:sowheni
sshecomi
nghome
Doc:
:
aft
ernoon
Dad:
:
areusur
eshe'
sfy
n
Doc::
ifsheconti
nueswashingherwoundseveryday
nbandidgethem agai
n..
.not
hingcoul
dgowr ong
becausefrom myviewtheinj
ecti
onisnolongerin
herbody
mindumyar
mswer
ebandi
dgednt
heywer
est
il
l
pai
ning
Me:
:andthepai
ns?,
howam i
supposet
ogetr
idof
t
hem(isaidt
hatchewi
ng)
Doc:
:
it'
sst
il
lhur
t
Me:
:yeah.
..
justal
i
lbi
t
Doc:
:i
will
giv
eusomet hingthatcanendthe
pai
ns.
..
nowgetreadytobedi schar
ged(hesai
dthat
goi
ngoutwithmyfatherfol
l
owi nghim)
.
..
.
..
if
inishedeat
ingntheni wenttothebat
hroom n
guy
st hiswasapriv
atehospital
..
.Yohhmyf at
heri
s
l
oadedmor ethanithoughtmoc...
Okayi
bathednasiwasl
oti
oni
ngdadent
ereda
r
oom wit
hanikebag
Itookitnhewentoutagai
n..t
herewasAdidas
sneakersnnei
veAdidastr
acksui
t..
.igotdr
essed
..
.ti
edmyhairint
oaneatbun...
ThnxGodthetracksui
tmyfatherboughtwereali
l
bi
toversi
zedsoi tcover
edt
hebandadgesonmy
wri
stver
ywellni am sur
epeoplewon'tnot
iceit
hen
wentouttowheremydadwas
.
.
Me:
:
whatar
ewewai
ti
ngf
or
Hi
m::t
hefor
msi needtosi
gninorderf
orutoget
di
schar
ged.
..Thedocsai
dthey'
l
lbereadyi
n30min
Me::dadiam sorr
yfort
hetroubl
esI
'
veputu
t
hrough..
.Itwasn'
tmyint
ension
Hi
m::
whydidut r
ytoki
ll
ursel
f.
..
am i
notgi
vi
ngut
he
ki
ndofsuppor
tnloveuwant
Me::
dadi wasn'
ttryi
ngt
okil
lmyselfimeanwhy
wouldidothat?
...
ij
ustwant
edtofeelt
hephysical
pai
ninsteadoftheemoti
onal.
..
theemoti
onalpaini
s
sotut
ori
ng.
.iwantedadist
ract
ion.
..Somethi
ngt
hat
cankeepmefrom thi
nki
ngaboutmypr obl
ems

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somyfat
hersi
gnedt
hepaper
sniwas
di
schar
gedwewenttot
hecarnhest
art
eddr
ivi
ng
Me:
:
dad
Hi
m::
yec
Me:
:
iwasn'
ttr
yingt
oki
l
lmysel
f
Hi
m::
usai
dthatear
li
eri
hear
du
:
:
ouch
Me:
:
butudi
dn'
tev
enr
espondt
owhati
wassay
ing
Hi
m::
thatbecausei
am hur
tbywhatudi
d
Amugel
ang( mydadcall
edmebymyknownname
yohhev
enthoughhedi
dn'
tpr
onouncei
twel
lbuthe
did)
Him::howcanubesoi r
responsi
ble..
.Umademe
feelli
keiwaslosi
ngualloveragain.
..
whatudidwas
self
ishudidn'
tthi
nkaboutanyoneev eny
oursel
f
Me::
iknowniam sor
ry.
..
iam sososor
rybabam
pl
zzforgi
veme
Him:
:iam notangr
yatuiam j
ustdi
sappoi
nted.
..
Don'
teverdothatagai
n
Me::
dad..
.ij
ustwantut
oknowt
hatuar
enotdoi
ng
any
thingwrong
Hi
m::
real
l
y
Me:
:
yeah.
..
it
'sj
ustt
hatwhati
am goi
ngt
hroughi
s
t
oomuchforme
Hi
m::
il
oveuokay
Me::
ilov
eutoo.
..
nthnxf
orbei
ngt
her
eformewhen
nobodyis
Hi
m::
iam urf
atheri
t'
smyj
obt
odoso
Me::ohhnonemorethi
ngitwasgoodt
oseeu
cr
yingforme(i
sai
dthatlaughi
ng )
hel
aughedt
oo
Hi
m::
ohmyGoduar
esost
upi
d
i
laughedhar
der
Hi
m::nextti
mer
emi
ndet
ocr
yinpr
ivat
e(hesai
dthat
l
aughing)
.
..
Hi
m::
areurwr
istst
il
lpai
ning
Me:
:not
hey
'r
efi
nef
ornow.
.
Hi
m::
iam cr
avi
ngf
ori
cecr
eam don'
tuwantsome?
Me:
:ohmygoddadareupr
egnant(
isai
dthat
t
ouchi
ngmychestdr
amati
c)
Hi
m::
what
???
Me::
yohbabamar athewor d"
crav
ing"i
susuall
y
usedbypregnantl
adies(
ithenl
aughedaft
erthat)
Hi
m::
uar
esocr
azy
(het
henl
aughedt
oo)
Buti
t'
sgoodt
oseeul
aughi
ngagai
nmypr
incess
 ncoahguy smydadl ovesmeneh...
sother eason
whyi wastr
y i
ngtomakehi mlaughitbecausei
wantedhimt ofor
givemecozdeel downi knewhe
wasst i
l
lupsetwit
hme. .
nial
sowant edhimt othink
iwasnowf inewhereasiwasn't
..
Iwasst
il
lbl
eedi
ngont
hei
nsi
de.
..
Iwasst
il
lmoani
ngf
ormymom.
..
Ni wassti
llhur
tbyhiswif
e'sr
eacti
ontheotherday
butideci
dednottoshowhi mthatdaybecauseI'
ve
puthimthroughsh*
talr
eady..
.
Soasiwasbusyt
hinki
ngi
not
icedhi
m st
oppi
ngt
he
carW.
T.F
.
..
Guesswher
ehewasst
oppi
ng?
?!

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nser
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wewereatthecarout
sideatmydad'
shouseni
waspi
ssedoffashell
.
.
Me:
:
whatt
hehel
lar
ewedoi
ngher
e
Hi
m::
whatki
ndofaquest
ioni
sthat
..
.it
olduy
ou'
dbe
movi
ngi
nhere
Me:
:
butuknowi
don'
twantt
o
Hi
m::thi
sti
mei
twi
l
lbedi
ff
erenti
promi
se.
.It
alked
t
oLinda
Me:
:
whatdi
ff
erencewi
l
lthatmake
Hi
m::babyit
'snotli
keiwil
lnotbeher
ewi
thuguy
s
t
oeveryt
hingthatwil
lbehappeni
ng
Me:
:
whatev
er
Hi
m::
ast
imegoesbyy
ou'
l
lseet
hey
'r
eni
cepeopl
e
Me:
:
tou.
.t
omet
heyar
edev
il
swi
thhor
ns
Hi
m::
canupl
easegi
vet
hem achance.
..
ipr
omi
sei
f
unothappyt
heni
wil
lmakeapl
ant
ogetuoutof
her
e
guysihadtodot
hisf
ormydad.
.ihadt
omake
hi
m happy..
Lat
elyI
'v
ebeenfeel
i
ngli
keaburdentohisl
i
fesoy
hi
hadtogiv
ehi
sfam achancej
ustforhi
m
Me:
:
okayt
henl
et'
sgo(
hesmi
l
edi
nrel
i
ef)
.
.wher
ear
emycl
othes
Hi
m::
theyal
readyher
e
sowegotoutt hecarnwenti nsidethathouse
t
hereweremai dsbusyr unningaroundi don'
tknow
whattheyweredoing...Wewentt othesi t
ti
ngroom
wherewef oundeverybodychattingnl aughingbut
t
heyimmedi atel
ystoppedt hesecondi enter
edthe
r
oom . .

.
..
Dad:
:
wel
come.
..
..
.
Me:
:
thnx
.
.
thent
heroom wentqui
etforl
i
ke10minunt
il
someonedeci
dedtobreakthesi
lence
Jaden(
theol
dboy )
::
soVanessadon'
tuwantt
osee
urroom (
heaskedmewithasmi l
e
Me:
:
iwoul
dlov
eto
Hi
m::
fol
l
owmet hen(hesai
dthatgoi
ngni
didas
t
oldl
eavi
ngev
eryoneel
seinthatr
oom)
wegotint
othi
sbeaut i
ful
blacknwhit
eroom i
t
wassobignthewei
rdt hi
ngisthatonl
ythebedwas
t
here.
.nowoodr
opejustthebed
.
.
Hi
m::sothi
sisurr
oom nbehi
ndthatdoori
sur
cl
oset(hesai
dpoi
nti
ngtothedoort
hatwasther
e)
Nbehi
ndt
hatot
herdoori
surbat
hroom
Me:
:
okayt
hnx
Hi
m::
nosweatnifuneedany
thi
ngj
ustshoutt
he
mai
dswil
lat
tendu
Me:
:
okay
Hi
m::
ubeaut
if
ulLi
lsi
s
Me:
:
thnx.
.nuhandsomet
oo
Hi
m::
sougonnabef
iner
ight
Me:
:
ithi
nkso
Hi
m::
okayt
henl
etmel
eav
eut
oset
tl
eyoursel
fin
Me:
:
sur
e
het
henwentout
..
.
Letmedescr i
beJadenforu..
.he'
stal
lli
kedad,bl
ue
eyes,
blackhai
r,pi
nkti
nyli
psnawel lbui
ltbodyone
wordtodescribehimishandsome...
Well
keithr
ewmyselfont
hebedni
wast
ir
edsoi
ev
entual
l
yfell
asl
eep

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 iwaswokenupbysomemai dnshet ol
dme
dinnerisready..wenttowashmyf acenwent
downst ai
rstowher eeveryonewasi sil
ent
lywentto
sittoJadensi ncehe'stheonlyonethatsmiledwhen
ishowedupnt henpeoplestart
edtodishthem
selvesupni j
oinedthem thoughthefoodlooked
bluh(i
fuknowwhati mean)
.
..
Itwasboi
l
edfull
pot
atoes,
greenpease,
tunanun
cookedsl
i
cedtomat
oes..
.
Ai
iguy
sbel
ungubay
ayi
dli
nonsense.
..
.
..
Asiwasbusyl
ooki
ngatt
hef
oodt
heb*
tchsai
d
somet
hing.
.
Li
nda:
:
sweet
yyou'
resupposet
oeatt
hatnotj
ust
l
ookatit
Me:
:
areut
alki
ngt
ome
Li
nda:
:
yeah
Me:
:
whyar
eusoconcer
nedaboutme
ever
yonelookedatmenLi ndastoodupnwent
awaydadwasj ustspeechl
essisawthe
di
saapoint
mentinhiseyes..
.
Ii
mmedi at
elyregretedmysel
fforbei
ng
di
srespect
fulicouldn'
thel
pitt
hewomancal
l
edmy
motherawitch...
Thatbr
okemyhear
t..
.

.
.
Witht
helookev
eryonegavemei j
ustst
oodupn
wenttomyroom i
wenttoseatonthebednmy
phonerangi
twasbesti
e..
.Mbal
iii
mmediat
ely
answered
.
.
Her
::
fr
nd
Me:
:
mnganami
Her
::
howar
eu
Me:
:
iam good
Her
::i
tri
edcal
l
ingut
hedaybef
orey
est
erday
Me:
:
iwasatt
hehospi
tal
Her
::
what
??!
!.
..
whatwr
ongar
euokay
Me:
:
rel
axi
cut
tedmywr
ist
Her
::
u'
ll
neverstopdoi
ngthatwi
llu(
wel
lMbal
iknows
t
hatwheneveri
am upsetidoi
t)
Her
::
whatwr
ong
Me:
:
everyt
hing.
..Ever
ythi
ng'swr
ong,imi
cmy
mot
her,
imicmysi bli
ngs,i
am aburdent
odad
.
.iam busyfi
ghti
ngmyst
epmot
herev
ery
thi
ngi
sa
messnot hi
ng'
sfine
Her::iknowsweet ybutu'r
est rongallofthiswil
lpass
everything'
sgonnabef inejuststophur ti
ngurself
..
.onemor et hi
ngucan' tmoany ourmom f orev
er
evenher. .
shewoul dbedi sappointedseeingunot
mov ingonwi tburli
fe.
..
buty ourbiggirl
sbootonn
startli
v i
ngagai nAmoucan' texpecteveryonetofeel
sorryf oru..
.nrelaxyoursibli
ngsar ebeingtaken
caredof
 Mbal
i wasri
ghtI'
vebeenmourningformymot her
f
ortoolongnow...
it
'
stimeist
op..i
t'
sti
mei accepted
t
hatshewasn'tcomingbackeveragai
n

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inuat
ionkai
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t
hef
oll
owi
ngdayi
hear
dsomeonesof
tl
yshaki
ng
me.
.
Isl
owlyopenedmyeyesni
twasmydadigotupni
satl
ooki
ngathim wai
ti
ngf
orhi
mtosay
somethi
ng
Hi
m::
pri
ncess
Me:
:
dad
Hi
m::
howar
eu
Me:
:
iam good.
.u
Hi
m::
me2.
..
lookwhathappe.
.
Me::
iam sor
rydadodidn'
tmeantober
udet
oheri
pr
omiseitwil
lnev
erhappenagai
n
Hi
m::y
eswhatudidwasoutofli
nebutiunderst
and
t
hatufel
toff
endedbywhatshesai
dnucoul dn'
teat
t
hefoodbecauseuai
n'
tusedtofoodl
ikethatri
ght
Me:
:
yeaht
hef
oodwaspr
ett
ybadt
ome
Him:
:
iknowt
hatwhyI
'
veoneoft
hemai
dst
omakeu
anyf
ooduwant
Me:
:
thatwoul
dbeni
cet
hanku
Him::
nifusti
l
lwantt
ogeturhai
rdonejustt
ell
one
ofthemaidnamedMandy.
.Sheknowswhattodo
Me:
:
thanku
Him::
ohhniam goi
ngtoworknowni
funeed
anyt
hingi
am onecall
away
Me:
:
okay
Hi
m::
takecar
e..Il
oveu
Me:
:
ilov
eut
oo
 hethenwentoutibat
hedandibandagedmy
woundsagai
nwor emyjeanshor
tdress(
shor
t
sl
eeved)
Withmybl
acksandl
est
hencombedmyhai
rint
oa
push.
..
Appl
i
edpur
plel
i
pst
ick.
..
.
..
Theniwentdownstair
stohavebreakf
astsi
ncei
waskindahungr
yididn'
teatany
thi
nglastni
ght
phel
a..
.
.
..
Welliarri
vedt
herenever
yonewashav i
nganEnglish
breakfastnir
equest
edyoghurtnfrui
tsaladihav
en't
eatthtinawhil
etheniwenttojoi
neveryone
Me:
:
mor
ning
Jaden:
:
hey
Jay
::
howar
eu
Me::
iam good(ohhhsot
heboysar
etheonlyones
t
alki
ngtomet hegirl
sdi
dn'
tev
enbotherl
ooki
ngat
metheyjustpretendedli
keiwasn'
ttheren
cont
inuedwithwhatt heyweredoi
ng..
.Wit
hme
havi
ngmyegoy ohhi wasn'
tgonnabegthem.
..
Soweallatei
nsilencet
hemaidscametot
akethe
pl
atenLindast
oodupgoi ngupst
air
sni
fol
lowed
hersi
nceiwantedtotal
ktoher
Me::
Lindai
needtotal
ktou(
noof
fenceguy
sbuti
wasn'
tgonnacal
lhermom)
Her:
:
whatsupbecausethelastt
imei
checkedi
wasn'
tconcer
ningmyselfaboutu
Me::
aboutt
hat...
lookiam sor
ryidi
dn'
tmeantobe
r
udetouaty ourhouseiam real
l
ysorr
yidon'
tknow
whatcameov erme
Her
::
mhmm okay
(wi
tht
hatshel
eftmet
her
e)
aykesoisthatwhatigetf
orapol
ogi
singaykeu
ccakangazkahleiwasn'
tgonnabeghertof
orgi
ve
memxm. .
.
..
Ithenwentdownst
air
stof
indthemaidt
hatwas
goingt
ohelpmegetmyhairdone.
..
.
..
.
Ifounday
ounggi
rli
naki
tchenwear
ingt
hemai
d'
s
unif
orm

Me:
:
hy
Her
::
hal
l
omi
ss
Me:
:
douknowwher
eicanf
indMandy
Her
::
that
'smemi
ss
Me:
:
ohhh
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Me::
ohhMandysomyfathersai
dishoul
dtel
lu
aboutget
ti
ngmyhai
rdoneuknowwhatt odo
Her:
:
ohhyeah.
.f
oll
owme(
shesai
dthatget
ti
ngoutni
di
dastol
d)
 wegoti
ntot
hecarnshest
art
eddr
ivi
ng
Me:
:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng
Her
::
sal
on
Me:
:
ohhhhowol
dar
eu
Her
::
20
Me:
:
whydi
duchoosesuchj
obaturage
Her
::
someper
sonal
reasonsuwon'
tunder
stand
Me:
:
ohhokay
..
ubeaut
if
ult
hough
Her
::
thnxmi
ss
Me:
:i
tAmogel
ang
Her
::
nwhat
'
sthatmi
ss
Me::
ohhhhpar
donmei
meani
t'
sVanessa.
..
cal
lme
Vanessa
Her
::okayVanessa.
..
iam Mandy
son
Me:
:
okayMandy
..
.
sowefinal
l
ygottothesal
onnodidmyhai rt
hen
ii
nsist
edwegotothemallsi
nceiwasn'
tgonna
spentmydayatt
hatsourhouse
.
..
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inuat
ionkai
nser
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sowewentt othesneakersshopwit
hMandyi
sawt hisbeaut i
fulNi
kegreysneakerniimmedi
atel
y
fel
tinlovewithitsoitookitntry
editonn
unfortunat
elyitdidn'
tfi
t
Me:
:
Mandycanut
ryt
hison
shedi
dast
oldni
tfi
tt
edherper
fect
ly
Me:
:
comeonl
ookhowbeaut
if
uluar
e..
buyi
t
Her
::i
don'
taf
for
dthi
smi
ss
Me:
:
Mandyi
t'
sVenessanotmi
ss
Her
::
ohhy
eahV.
..
udon'
tmi
ndi
fical
luVr
ight
?
Me:
:
itcool
..
.sosi
nceucan'
taf
for
ditI
'
llbuyi
tforu
Her
::
nononomiss.
.imeanVanessai
t'
sfi
neudon'
t
hav
etodothi
s
Me:
:
buti
wantt
o
Her
::
noVurf
atherwi
l
lki
l
lme
Me:
:
hewon'
tknow.
..
who'
l
ltel
lhi
m
Her
::
noVt
hiswi
l
lmakemel
osemyj
ob
sheevenhadt
ear
sonherey
essoi
didn'
tbuyi
t
f
orher.
..
Yohhhiwonderwhatdidmyf at
herdotoMandythat
madehert obescaredofhi
m somuch..
.okaysoi
boughtfewclothesniwasnowhungryiwenttoa
coff
eeshopboughtuscupcakesncof f
eenwe
star
tedeati
ng..
Her
::
whathappenedt
ourar
ms
Me:
:
huh
Her
::
urwr
ist
..
.uhav
ebundaget
hem
Me:
:
icut
tedmysel
f
Her
::
onmi
stakeor
..
?
Me:
:
onpur
pose.
..
.
Her
::
ohhh
shesai
dthatconti
nui
ngeati
ngokyi t
houghtshe
wasgonnaaskmor eaboutt
hisbutheyithought
wrong
.
..
Idon'
tknowwhybutwhati
knowi
sthati
lov
edt
his
Mandy
.
..
Sothedaywentonniwenthomeni founddadin
thesi
tt
ingr
oom wit
hChri
sti
nenBr i
tneyi ni
cel
y
askedMandytogoputwhatI'
veboughtinmyr oom
.
..
.
Sodadwast al
kingnl aughi
ngwi t
hthegi
rlsnthey
weretaki
ngvediostogethertal
ki
ngabouthowmuch
theyl
ovedthei
rfathernhowmuchofabl essi
nghe
i
s..
Whi
l
eal
loft
hiswashappeni
ngi
wasst
andi
ngatt
he
doorlooki
ngatt
hem t
heni
wentt
osi
toppi
si
te
them
.
..
Dad:
:ul
ookbeauti
fulpr
incess..
..
thathai
rsty
ler
eal
ly
l
ookgoodonu( mindui hadcurledmyhairndi
ed
hal
fofi
tint
opurpl
eitreall
ylookedgoodonme)
Me:
:
thnxdaddy
(isai
dthatwi
thasmi
l
e
Chri
sti
ne::
itr
eall
ylookgoodonuhey .
..
Ithi
nkimi
ght
copyit
(okaythatthefi
rstt
imeshetal
ksto
me..
may beit
'sbecausewe'rei
nfr
ontofday)
Br
it
ney
::
comeonChr
ist
inei
tnott
hatni
cehau
ehhht
hisBri
tneygotastinkyatt
it
udeclear
lyshe'
s
l
ikehermot her
..
.i
nthatcasewenev ergonnaget
alongbecauseimy sel
f.
.Iam rudeashelli
fiwant
to
Me:
:
thnxChr
ist
ine
Dad:
:
Bri
tneywhatdi
disayt
ou
Me::
dadit'
sfi
ne.
..
besi
desit
'sheropi
nionIt
hink
opi
nionsshoul
dberespect
ed
Dad::
sowhatwer
eudoi
ngt
hewhol
edaycausei
t'
s
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Me::
wel
liwentt
otheshopsbecauseicoul
dn'
tst
ay
her
etol
ist
entopeopl
e'
snastyopini
on
Dad::
iam si
ckoft
his.
..
Chr
ist
inegocal
lyourmom n
theboys
Christ
inedi
dastol
dnwewer
enowsi
tt
ingont
he
couches..
.t
hesev
enofus
Dad::i
tri
edt ol
erat estheshi *tt
hathasbeen
happeningt othishouse. .itr
iedtomaket hi
sa
peacefulhousebutl ooksl i
kenoonei spreparedto
workwi t
hme. .
.Lindai knowuhur tthatihaveachi l
d
withanot herwomanbutI '
vealreadysaidi am sorry
butwhati wantut odoist oaccepthetnacceptt he
factshe'
sher et ost ayforever.
..Treatherwith
respect.
..Asforuki ds..
thisisursisterl
ikeitornot
you'
l
llov
ehernrespectherbst
artt
reat
ingherl
i
kea
memberofthi
sfamily
..
.
NuVanessai wantutor
espectev
ery
onent
reat
t
hem wi
threspect.
..
Nifoneofuseet hatheorshewon'tbeabl
eto
fol
lowmyr ules,
heorsheisfreet
oleavethi
s
house..
..
myhousemyr ul
esiam ti
rediam t
ir
edof
beingcaughtinthemiddl
e..
Iam cl
ear(
het
henst
oodupgoasi stoodup
prepar
ingt
ogotomyroom hegetback)
Hi
m::
ohhnonemor et
hingy
ouki
dswi
l
lshar
ea
r
oom..
thef
iveofu
Br
it
ney
::whatf
orhowl
ong
Dad:
:
unt
ili
sayso(hewentoutagai
n)
.
.
mydadreal
l
yknowshowt opunishpeopl
eyeva
..
.ay
kewewenttotheroom weweresupposeto
shar
ecanubeli
evethati
thadonl
ytwobigbeds
Jay
::
sohowar
ewesupposet
osl
eepher
e
Jaden:
:wel
lJayuni wi
llsl
eept
oget
her
..
.Nt
hegi
rl
s
wil
lsharet
heotherbed
soweal
lwenttot
akebat
hnwewor
eourp.
j'
s
t
henwentbackt
othatr
oom
.
.
Theni wentbacktothatroom guesswhatt
heywer
e
al
lmi ser
ableifor
gottotell
udadal sot
ookour
cel
lphones.
..
SoChr i
sti
newassi tt
ingdownwi thherbackont he
bed,Jaywassi t
tingnexttoher,Jadenwassl eepi
ng
withhisstomachont hebed..
.onsowasBr i
tneybut
ontheotherbed. ..
theywerelookingsomi serabl
eso
assoonasi enteredtheroom i j
ustl
aughedoutl oud
..i
couldn'
tholdmysel ftheyweresof unnyi l
aughed
tothefactthatev entear
smadet hei
rwayout
Chr
ist
ine:
:
whatar
eul
aughi
ngat
Me::
youguy
sar
elooki
ngsomi
ser
abl
eli
keuar
ein
j
ail
t
heyal
ll
ookedateachot
herandbegant
o
l
augh
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Jay
::
uar
esomecr
azychi
ck'
nessa
Me:
:
crazyi
smymi
ddl
ename
Jaden:
:uguy
shasmadedadtopunishusnnowhe
hastookmyphoney
'al
lknowineedtocal
lmybaby
Chr
ist
ine:
:ComeonJadendon'
tactl
i
keav
ict
im
her
euknowweal l
vict
ims
Jaden:
:
ahhhudon'
tgeti
tdou?
Me::
sorr
yBroi
t'
smyf
aul
tuguy
sar
eher
eni
am
deepl
ysorr
y
Jaden:
:i
t'
snotonl
yyourf
aul
t..
Bri
tneydon'
tugot
somethi
ngtosay
Br
it
ney
::
what
Jay::
Bri
tneyy
ou'
vebeenrudetowar
dsher
..
.uhear
d
whatdadsaid..
uguysshoul
dmakepeacewitheach
other
Bri
tney
::okok.
.Vanessai
am sosor
ryf
oral
lI'
ve
donensaidtou
Me:
:
iam sor
ryt
oo
Christ
ine:
:comeonguy
sgr
ouphugt
hen(
shesai
d
thatstandingup)
soweall
huggedeachot
hernfort
hefi
rstti
mei
f
eltwel
comenIfel
tathomethewebrokethehug
.
..
Chri
sti
newasnowcr yi
ngnshesai
dit
'st
ear
sofj
oy
yohhhabel
ungunokukhal
amaar
.
..
Jaden:
:
soVanessami
ndt
ell
i
ngusabouty
ou
Me::
wel
lther
e'snot
hingt
otel
laboutme.
.iam j
ust
cr
azynfr
iendl
y
Chr
ist
ine:
:
I'
venot
icedt
hat
(wel
aughed)
Br
it
ney
::
doumi
ndi
fiaskusomet
hingper
sonal
Me:
:
sur
e
Her
::
isy
ourmom okaywi
thust
ayi
ngher
e?
sot
heydon'
tknowwhyi
am her
edon'
tthey
?,what
di
ddadtol
dthem kant
i
Me:
:
uguy
sdon'
tknow?
Jay
::
knowwhat
Me:
:
mymom passedaway
Br
it
ney
::
what
..
real
l
y??
Chr
ist
ine:
:
tel
lmeuj
oki
ng
Me::
amonthbackshewasinvol
vedinaplanecrash
onherwaycomingf
rom Spai
ntoperfor
m asurgery
si
nceshewasoneofthebestsur
geonaround
Chr
ist
ine:
:
iam sosor
ryt
oheart
har
shewascr
yingagai
nwi
thBr
it
neyt
hist
ime
Me:
:
it'
sokayI
'
vemadepeacewi
thi
t
Jay
::
areuheronl
ychi
l
d
Me:
:not
herewerethr
eeofus.
.iam t
hef
ir
stborn
t
henmybrotherwho'
s10namedOmphilethent
he
l
astbor
nwho'
sagi
rlnamedSbul
eloaged6y
rsol
d
Jay
::
sowher
ear
ethey
Me::
aft
ert
hefuneralmyl
atemom'
shusband,
thei
r
f
athert
ookthem wit
hhim
Jay
::
nuwer
etakenbydad
Me::
sincemymom'sfami
lyhat
edmebecausei
am
acol
our edmydadt
hendeci
dedtot
akeme
Jay
::
theyhat
edubecausey
ou'
recol
our
ed
Me::
y eaht
heydidn'twantanyt
hingtodowi thme
..
..
sowheni l
ostmymot heril
osteveryt
hingmy
heartwasbrokenintobil
l
ionsofpeaces..
.thenmy
si
bli
ngswer etakenawayf r
om mei hadnoone
l
eft.
.nofamil
y
Jaden:
:
uhav
eusnow.
..
we'
ref
ami
l
ynwel
oveu
Chri
sti
ne:
:wel
oveualot
..
.gr
ouphug(
shesai
dthat
wit
hacr y
ingv
oice)
wehuggednonet
hingaboutt
hem t
hey
'r
ereal
l
y
ni
cepeopl
e
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kencomment
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sowef ell
asleepatar ound11h00nwewer e
wokenupbyMandy ..
.weal lwokeupnbat hediwor
e
mygr eytightwithmyl oosejeanshir
tthenwentfor
breakfast..
.minduitwasnowNov embersoitwas
winterholi
days...
.sowehadEngl i
shbreakfastwi
th
theirmother,dadwasal readygonetowor k..
.
.
..
Li
nda:
:ki
dsmom cal
l
edl
astni
ghtnsheaskedi
fwe
canvi
sthert
oday
Jaden:
:
igot
tagoseemygi
rl
Jay
::
I'
vegotpl
answi
thEddy
Chr
ist
ine:
:Shawnni
alsogotpl
ans
Br
it
ney
::I
'
llgowi
thumom
Li
nda:
:okayt
hengopr
epar
eyour
sel
fwe'
l
lleav
ingi
n
anhour
okaysoLi nda'
sgonnacont i
nuePret
endi
ngli
kei
don'texist.
..
.sothedaywentonnev ery
bodylef
tto
theirdesti
nationsni waslef
talonet
heniwenttosi
t
byt helaungeni cal
ledforMandy
.
..
Her
::
ucal
l
edf
ormeV
Me::
yescanupl
easecomewi
thaSt
rawber
ryi
ce
cr
eam here
Her
::
ri
ghtawaymi
ss.
..
imeanV
shet
hencamebackwi
thi
t
.
..
Her
::
her
eiti
s(shesai
dthatgi
vi
ngi
ttome)
Me:
:
comeony
ou'
vegott
ojoi
n
Her
::
iam atwor
kV
Me:
:
wel
ll
et'
spr
etendl
i
kei
am aski
ngut
owashmy
f
eet
Her
::
uwon'
ttakenof
orananswerwi
l
lu
Me:
:
yeah
.
.
shel
aughednj
oinedme
.
.
Me::i
fudon'
tmindmeaskingMandywhydi
du
chooset
hisj
ob.
.imeanutooYoungtobeamai
d
Her:
:iam savi
ngformyvarsi
tyfeesnont heother
si
dei hav
et ot
akecareofmysickmot herwhohas
cancersi
ncemyfatherdi
edni am theonlychi
l
d
Me:
:
iam sor
ryt
oheart
hat
Her
::
it
'sfi
ne.
.nu?,
howar
eur
elat
edher
e..
.i
sMr
Par
keryourr
ealdad?
Me::
yeahappar
ent
lyhehadanaf
fai
rwi
thmymom
f
if
teenyear
sback
Her
::
ohhh.
..
.nwher
e'sy
ourmom
Me:
:
dead
Her
::
iam sosor
ryt
oheart
hat
..
youmustbegoi
ng
t
hroughal
ot
Me:
:
noi
wasnotnow
.
..
soMandyni spentt
hedaytoget
hernwet al
ked
aboutal otofper
sonalstaf
fnimustsaythi
sgir
lis
reall
ystraggli
ngmanni t
houghtmyli
fewasa
disaster

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solatert
hatdayev er
yonecamebackhomen
Mandycontinueddoingherworkwewerenow
watchi
ngTV. .all
ofusnwewer eal
lqui
te.
..
unt
il
Dad'sphonewr ang
.
..
Hi
m::
hel
l
o..
,yes.
..
nononoshe'
sfi
ne.
.okay
..
.
Hi
m::
Vanessai
t'
sforu
it
ookthephonenpl
acedi
tonmyearwi
thout
say
inganyt
hing
Cal
l
er:
:
Amo
myhear
timmedi
atel
ymel
ted,
i
twasOmphi
l
e
Hi
m::
seswam
Me:
:
bhut
wam
Hi
m::
unj
n
Me:
:
pla.
.ni
nani
njn
Hi
m::
syaphi
l
a
ever
yonewasl
ooki
ngatmeconf
usedaccept
dad
Me:
uphLel
o
Him::
usemal
lnobabami
naanghal
elanguk'
hamb
bengf
unwena.
..
Amongi
kukhumbul
i
l
Me:
:
micut
ooboyboy
Hi
m::
uzani
n
Me:
:
idon'
tknowl
ovemay
besoon
Hi
m::
wher
ear
eu
Me:
:
somewher
efar
Hi
m::
okayt
hen.
..
whydi
dul
eav
eus
Me:
:ihadnochoi
ce
Hi
m::
Amoi
micmom
t
ear
simmedi
atel
yfi
l
ledmyey
es
Me:
:
iknowbutugotYourdadr
ight
Hi
m::
yeah
Me:
:
nu'
vegoteachot
herangi
th
Hi
m::
yeah
Me:
:
ilov
euguy
sokay
Him::
welov
eut ooguysmaarsomet
imesi
feel
li
keu
havefor
got
tenaboutus
Me:
:
nosweet
yihav
en'
tnsozengani
khohl
wa
Hi
m::
okayby
ethen
Me:
:
bingel
eluLel
oyev
aa
Hi
m::
wil
ldo
i
hangedupngav edadhi sphonenqui ckl
ywent
totheroom dadsaidweshouldsl eepiniwantedto
crysobadbuti hel
dbackmyt earsifel
tli
kethey
thi
nkI'vef
orgot
tenthem onlyi
ft heyknewthat
there'
snodaypassingwithoutmet hinki
ngabout
them
.
..
..
Imissedt
hem somuchnitbr
okemyhear
thear
ing
thatOmphi
le'
sst
il
lmoani
ngformom.
..
If
eltl
i
keheneededmemorethanever
..
.howi
wi
shedtobether
ewit
hhi
m comfort
inghim..
.butke

Iwonderhow'
sLel
ocopy
ingwi
tht
hewhol
e
si
tuat
ion
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asiwassti
l
lthi
nki
ngaboutmysi
bli
ngsmydad
ent
eredt
heroom
Hi
m::
what
'
swr
ongpr
incess
Me:
:
theyt
hinkI
'
vef
orgot
tenaboutt
hem.
.t
heyneed
medad
Hi
m::
uknowi
t'
snotut
heyneed
Me:
:
thenwho
Him::
theyneedt heirmom nwebot hknowt hat.
..
ni
knowr i
ghtnowuf eell
ikeucanclosethegapt hey
haveintheirheartsbutthetr
uthucan't
..
.Noone
can.
..
sol etthem healonthei
rownt hey
'l
lbefine
you'
ll
seel etthem moan
hewi
pedmyt
ear
s..
funnyenoughi
didn'
tev
en
not
icediwascryingbutkemyfat
herwasri
ghti
t
wasn'tmetheyneededitwasmom t
heyneededbut
somehowi fel
tbadfornotbei
ngt
heref
orthem
Me:
:
imi
chert
oo
Hi
m::
iknow
Me::
dadther
e'snodayt
hatpasswi
thoutmet
hinki
ng
abouther
Hi
m::
iknowmybaby
..
.shel
ovedual
ot
Me::
dadi wanthertotel
lmethat
,iwannafeelher
warm hug,
hervoicehersmi
leimicsleepi
ngnextto
hernbeingbrushedthehai
rbyher.
..
dadi wantmy
mom
.
..
iwasbackt osquareoneagaincryingformy
mom. .
..
it
'sjustthatt
alki
ngtoOmphi leboughtback
thepai
ni thoughtiwasov erwi
th..
.icri
edoutloud
agai
nwhi l
emydadwasbr ushi
ngmybacki cr
yed
evenmor ethinki
ngaboutmysi bl
ings...
Imeanhowar
etheycopy
ingwi
tht
hiscauseev
en
meifai
l
edto.
..
.
..
Butwhydi
dmom l
eav
euswhenwest
il
lneedher
..
.
.
.
Ist
il
lneededhert oseemewal kingdownt heisleon
myweddi ng,iwantedhertoseemegi vi
ngbi r
tht o
myfir
stbor n,
iwantedhertohelpmechoosemy
weddingdress,iwant
edhertoseemegr aduatingat
Var
sity,
iwant edhertoseemyf i
rstcar
..
.
.
..
ButGodchoset
otakeherawayf
rom me
.
..
AsforLeloshe'
ssti
l
l si
x..
sheneedshermotherto
tel
lherbedt
imestor
ies,
sheneedshermot hert
obe
ther
eforherwhenshest ar
twit
hhermenst r
uati
ons
butGoddecidedtotakeherawayfrom us
.
..
.
Omphi l
eneededhermothertoadvi
sehi
m onhi
s
weddingdayonhowt otreatawomen.
.Hesti
ll
neededhermom tojustseehim gr
owi
ngup
.
.butGoddecidedtotakeourAnast
asi
aawayf
rom
us,
ourGol
d,ourtr
easure.
.Ourmom
Dad:
:
don'
tuwantt
osl
eepwi
thmet
oday
Me:
:
iwoul
dlov
eto(
isai
dthatwi
pingmyt
ear
s)
Dad:
:
prepar
eursel
fthen
i
didastold.
..
iwantedt
osl eepnexttodad
becausewhenev eri
am aroundhimi feelsaf
en
protect
ed,
ifeelt
heparent
'
sl i
v emymot herusedt
o
gaveme. .
.
..
Soibathed,wor
emypj '
snwenttosleepwit
hdadon
thespareroom si
ncewedi
dn'twannabotherLi
nda
soifel
lasleepi
nmyf at
her
'sarms

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 i
wokeupt
hesecondmydadopenedt
hedoor
Me:
:
dad(
isai
dthati
nasl
eepyv
oice)
Hi
m::
sor
rypr
incessi
didn'
tmeant
owakeuup
Me:
:
noudi
dn'
t
Hi
m::
okt
hen.
.
Me:
:
wher
ear
eugoi
ng
Hi
m::
wor
k
Me::
butdad,
can'
tuspendt
hedaywi
thusj
ustf
or
once
Hi
m::
iwi
l
l.
.onChr
ist
mas
i
smydadokaymaary
eh.
.Chr
ist
masi
saweek
away
Me:
:
kdal
kanj
e
Hi
m::
yeah.
.by
epr
incess(
hequi
ckl
ygotout
)

.
..
 wokeup,woremyski nnyj
ean,
whiteNikeT-shir
t
wi
thblackvans...
.f
ixedmyhairnspray
edi t.
.appl
ied
apurpl
eli
psti
ckwhi chmatchedthecol
ourofmyhai r
nappli
edalilbi
tofmakeup
.
..
Iwashotmtakama.
.iwhenwentdownst
air
stohav
e
breakf
ast

.
..
Li
nda:
:
what
'
sthev
acat
iony
oungl
ady
Me:
:
nov
acat
ion
Jay
::
ifi
ndt
hathar
dtobel
i
eve
Me:
:
Y
Br
it
ney
::
gir
lul
ookhot
Me:
:
thankungwana
Br
it
ney
::
nwhatt
hehel
li
sthat
Me:
: nev
ermi
ndcakes
Br
it
ney
::
O.M.
Glet
'
sjusthopei
t'
ssomet
hingni
ce
.
..
il
aughednwentt othefr
idgentookoutFr
uit
saladwithyoghurtnhadthatforbr
eakf
astsi
ncei
didn'
tfeell
i
keeat i
ngwhattheywereeati
ngasiwas
washingmypl ateLindacamein
.
..
Her
::t
her
ear
emai
dsi
nthi
shouset
odot
hatf
oru
Me:
:
nahdon'
twor
ryi
goti
t
Her:
:
mmm isee..
.l
ookt
hatcal
lur
ecei
vedl
astni
ght
whatwasi
tabout
Me:
:
not
hingi
mpor
tant.
..
why
Her:
:yecidi
dn'tunderst
andwhatuweresayi
ngbuti
cantellt
hatcall
hurtedu,unear
lycr
yedwhatwasit
about
.
.
ohhhj
ehov
akantwhati
sitwi
tht
hiswoman
Me:
:
itwasmysi
bli
ngs
Her:
:t
henwhatmadeucr
yifi
twasthem .
.uwer
e
supposet
obehappyt
otal
ktothem
Me::
whattheret
obehappyaboutl
ist
eni
ngtourl
i
l
br
othertel
l
inguhowmuchhemi ssedhi
slat
e
motherhuh(i
askedpol
i
ty)
Her
::Lat
e..
.l
atemot
her
???
?
Me:
:
yeah
Her
::
urmot
her
,Anast
asi
aisdead?
Me:
:
yeah.
..
mont
hback,
planecr
ash.
.Udi
dn'
tknow
Her
::
noi
didn'
t
Me::
don'
tuev
eraskursel
fhowdi
dil
endedi
nyour
house
Her
::
ihadnoi
dea
Me:
:
wel
lnowudo
.
..
i
sai
dthatgett
ingoutbecausei don'
tl
iket
otalk
aboutmymot her
'sdeat
h...
ileftherconf
usedkant
i
whatdiddadsaytoher..
.di
dn'theexplai
neditt
o
them..
.
Ai
i
..
Iwenttothesibl
i
ngsntheusai
dtheywer
egoi
ngto
theshopsnsinceihadnopl
ansijoi
nedt
hem.
..
.
Me,
Chri
sti
ne,Jadenwer
edri
vi
nginablack
G.
T.I
,
Jay,
Brit
neyweredri
vi
ngint
heblackjeep.
..
.

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kencomment
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nser
t46

sowewentt otheshopsthefiv
eofuswit
houtt
he
guardsai
iphel
adadcanbesoannoy ingmaki
ngus
togowiththeguardswher
eev erwegosowe
arr
ivedatt
hemal l
.
..
.
..
Jaden:
:
guy
siam hungr
y
Chr
ist
ine:
:
me2guy
s
Br
it
ney
::
sowhatdousuggest
Me:
:wel
lisuggestpi
zza
Jay:
:
umustbekiddi
ngme'
nessacan'
tut
hinkof
somethi
ngel
se
Me:
:
wel
lthehowaboutSushi
Jaden:
:
O.M.
GVanessashutupal
ready
weal
ll
aughed
.
..
.
Jaden:
:
bur
ger
s??
?
Bri
tney
::soundsl
i
keagoodi
deawhatdout
hink
guys
Me:
:
yeahy
eah
asiwassayi
ngt hatipumpedi
ntosomeonenhe
hur
tedmywristagainyohhhGodsewaphol
a
Me::
mf ty
ini
ngawebobhekalwahambakhonaman
ar
hg(isai
dthatshout
ingathi
m never
yonear
ound
uswasnowl ooki
ngatmewi t
haconfusedl
ook)
Hi
m::
iam sosor
ry
Me:
:
uaskiwakhoawzuphol
i
samawoundwam
osowat
hunki
l
ewenadodi
Him:
:iam sorr
ybuti
can'
tunder
standanywor
d
you'
vejustsai
d
okayit'
sirememberedthattheswpeopleonly
understandEngli
sh...
..
iremember ediwasn'
tinS.
A
yohhhi fel
fembarrassedtotal
ksiZulumxm soi j
ust
l
ef thi
mt herenotknowingwhattosayt ohim nmy
sibli
ngsfoll
owedme
.
..
Jaden:
:
dudeualmostf
ini
shedt
heguy
'sheadof
fhe
sai
dhe'ssor
ry
Me::
hell
olook(
ishowedhim mywoundswhi
chwer
e
nowbleedi
ngagainai
iungl
imazi
ll
ododi)
Jaden:
:
O.M.
Gsor
ry
Me:
:iguessi
hav
etogoseet
hedoct
oragai
n
Chr
ist
ine:
:
whathappenedt
ourwr
istexact
ly
Me:
:
longst
ory
Bri
tney
::
okayuguys.
...
.di
duseethatVanessa
bumpedintot
hough.
.guystheguyi
shot
Me:
:
mftr
eal
l
y
Jay:
:sot
ell
meonet
hingwhatki
ndofl
anguagear
eu
tal
ki
ng
Me:
:
Zul
u
Jay
::
il
ikei
tushoul
dteachme
Me:
:
iwi
l
lwheni
gett
ime(
isai
dthatwi
thasmi
l
e)
Bri
tney
::
soguysarewegonnapret
endt
hatwedi
dn'
t
seetheguy
'shandsome(
ness)
Me:
:
nowedi
dn'
t..
..
udi
d

aii
keuBri
tneykeptontel
l
ingusaboutthebeaut
y
oftheguyweboredasfucksowewentt oeatthen
wedecidedt
ogot othegamereser
ve
.
..
Sowhenwegott her
eJadennJaydisappear
edi
don'tknowwher
etondodidChri
sti
nei wasl
eftwi
th
Bri
tney
.
..
Her
::
uknowl
i
lsi
sit
hinki
t'
sti
meugetaboy
fie
Me:
:
nahi
am f
inenj
e
Her
::
nounotgi
rll
ookatursel
f
Me:
:
not
hing'
swr
ongwi
thme
Her
::
gir
lul
ookmi
ser
abl
e
Me:
:
(il
aughedi
ndi
sbel
i
ef)ai
iuar
ecr
azygi
rl
ehhmaart
hisgi
rlai
ikhona.
..
.
Idon'twantt
odat emna,
whatifmynextboy
fiedo
whatNqabadi d.
..
uhuhiam notreadyt
ogothrough
thatagai
n

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kencomment
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04]: Di
arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
t46

sowhi
l
eBr
it
neywasbusynaggi
ngmei
deci
ded
t
orunawayf
rom her
.
.
Me:
:
don'
tuwanti
cecr
eam
Her
::
no
Me:
:
iwantone.
..
sowher
ecani
geti
t
wanglay
elakeugirlnigotoffhersi
tejustl
ike
t
hat,
wheuuy nki
ngalomuntutr
ustme. .
..
okysoasi
wasgoingiheardsomeonetappingmyshoul dersoi
t
urned.
..
I
twasaguywi
thgreeney
es,
brownhai
rhel
ooked
l
i
kehewas18..
.y
h
.
..
Me:
:
cani
hel
pu
Hi
m::
iam Paul
...
uar
e?
Me:
:
Vanessa
Hi
m::
okay
..
.ul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
thanks
Hi
m::
soi
woul
dli
ket
ogett
oknowumor
e
Me:
:
for
?(i
askedwi
thanat
ti
tude)
Hi
m::
forper
sonal
benef
ituknow
Me:
:
excuseme,
per
sonal
benef
it
s
asiwassay
ingt
hatBr
it
neycameoutof
nowher
e
.
..
Her
::
ohhhbabeiseeuhav
emetmysi
ster
(shesai
d
t
hatref
err
ingt
otheguyW.T.
F)
Me::
babe?
(iaskedconf
used.
..Di
dshej
ustcal
l
ed
hi
m babe)
Her
::
yeaht
hisi
smyboy
fri
end.
..
Me: :
ohhh..
..
hymynamei sVanessaPar
ker,
Bri
tney'
s
halfsis.
.uare(
i pret
endedl
ikewejustmetwit
hthat
Paul becauseididn'
twantBri
tneyt
obehurtknowing
thattheguywasaski ngmeout )
Hi
m::
I.
..
iam Paul
Me:
:
nicet
omeetuPaul
Hi
m::
l
ikewi
se
 soheal
soput
tedonaactl
i
kei
did.
.nxnboy
s
t
hough
.
..
Me::
uhm Br
it
neyi
shoul
dcont
inuel
ooki
ngf
orani
ce
cr
eam
Her
::
okayVnasf
ormey
ou'
l
lfi
ndmeher
ewi
thhi
m
.
..
il
eftt
hem t
herex
eimthepoorgi
rli
sinl
ove.
..
.i
f
onl
ysheknewhowmuchofanassholetheni
ggais
mxm butShe'
l
lfi
ndoutonherownsoon..
.
Asf
ormei
t'
snotmypl
acet
otel
lher
..
.
.
..
thatj
usthowi am,urguymayfl
eetwi
thme.
..
i
won'tt
ell
u,hemaycheatwi t
hsomeoneel
seni
f
oundout .
..
iwon'tt
ellu.
..
.
..
Thosear
emyrulesil
i
vewi ththem nMbal
ihad
madepeacewi
ththem becauseihatebei
ngcaught
i
nthemiddl
eoftwopeoplesoy h.
..
Br
it
neywi
l
lknowhowmuchofanasshol
ePaul
is
butshe'
l
lfi
ndouthersel
f.
..
.
.
..
.Soiwentt
obuyani
cecr
eam nideci
dedtoj
ust
walkar
oundngett
oknowthepl
aceunt
ili
twaslat
e..
.
..
Recei
vedacal
lfr
om Jayt
ell
ingmetheywer
ewait
ing
formeatt
hecarsoiwenttowher
ewepackedthe
carsnweal
lwentbackhome

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nser
t47

wegothomeni wenttomyr oom..

.mi
ndudad
sai
dweshouldgobacktoourownr oomssincewe
hadstoppedwi
thour'
nonsense'nhadgi
venusour
phoneback
.
.
Wenttobath,woremypurpl
ep. j
'
sthenwentback
downstai
rstohavedi
nner
...
.ev
eryonewaswat chi
ng
TVatthesitt
ingr
oom niwentt othekitchentohave
waternifoundMandycry
ingshequi ckl
ywi ped
awayhertearsasshesawmeappr oaching
.
..
.
Me:
:
whatwr
ong(
iaskedherpol
i
tel
y)
Her
::
iam f
ine
Me:
:
nounot
..
.
Her
::
thankuforconcer
ningur
sel
faboutmeVbuti
am f
inereal
l
y
shequi
ckl
ygotoutoft
her
oom .
..
.
Yohhhthi
sgi
rl
'
slif
eishardmaniwishicoul
dgeta
waytomakehertotal
ktomebecauseeveryti
mei
tr
ytal
ki
ngtohersheshutmeout
.
..
.
Manitbreaksmyheartseei
ngsomeonegood
hear
tedashersuf
feri
ngthewaysheis.
..
Any
wayi
wentt
othef
am,
atet
henwentt
obedasi
wasaboutt
osl
eepmydadent
eredt
her
oom
.
..
..
.
Hi
m::
pri
ncess
Me:
:
dad
Hi
m::
areuokay
?
Me:
:
yes.
.y
Hi
m::
j
ustchecki
ngu
Me::
dadushoul
dst
opwor
ryi
ngt
oomuchaboutmei
am f
ine
Him::
thelastt
imeididn'
tworrymy
sel
fthi
s
happened(hesai
dthattouchi
ngmywri
st)
Me:
:
dadi
promi
sedui
twi
l
lnev
erhappenagai
n
Hi
m::
l
ethopeso
Me:
:
ilov
eu
Hi
m::i
lov
eut
oopr
incess.
..
nit
hinki
shoul
dgi
veu
t
his
itwasapict
ureofhim nmom t
ogetheratthe
beachtheyl
ookedverycutet
oget
herntheylooked
happy
.
.
Me:
:
thankudad
Hi
m::
sur
e
Me:
:
uguy
sreal
l
ylookedgoodt
oget
her
Hi
m::
yeah.
..
uknowsomet
imesi
missher
Me:
:
uwer
est
il
li
nlov
ewi
thher
?
Hi
m::
nist
il
lam.
..
inev
erst
oppedl
ovi
ngher
Me:
:
thenyar
euwi
thher
..
Linda
Hi
m::
ever
ythi
ng'
scompl
i
cat
ed.
..
.
Me:
:
isee
Hi
m::
goodni
ghtsweet
y
Me:
:
goodni
ghtdad
.
..
hel
eftt
her
oom.
..
UknowI'
vehear
dcompl
icat
edstori
es,butnost
oryi
s
compl
i
catedmoret
hanmyparentsstory.
..
.
..
Ikeptonl
ooki
ngatt
hepi
ctur
eunt
ili
fel
lasl
eep

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kencomment
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04]: Di
arykaAmo

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inuat
ionkai
nser
t47

t
hefol
l
owingdayi
waswokenupbymyphone,
i
t
wasMbal
ical
li
ng
.
.
Her
::
yeywenamunt
uusel
ele
Me::
ngy
aphil
awenunj
nMbal
enhl
e(i
sai
dthati
na
sl
eepyvoi
ce)
Her
::
ngy
aphi
l
anam chom(
shesai
dthatgi
ggl
i
ng)
Me:
:
ubut
hinkecc
Her
::
yohhhai
ibosokf
unekkbekhoni
reasonkuze
ngf
onel
bestf
rndy
am
Me::
sor
rykechom..
.maardoi
reali
sedkut
hyouhad
j
ustwokemeupf r
om mybeautysl
eep
Her
::
sor
rykechom..
..
aii
gir
limpi
l
oimnandl
apho
sov
ukngal
eskhat
h
Me:
:
yhneh(
ilaughed)
Her
::
sochom v
eledol
olokweboy
fiel
apho
Me:
:
yohhh(
ichuckl
ed)dol
olochommam
Her
::
yohhechom ucal
eni
nkubhay
izamaar
Me:
:
aii
bochom i
..
.
Her:
:
ehhchom pl
easedon'
ttel
lmeust
il
lnur
singt
he
br
okenhear
tcausedbyNqaba
Me:
:ai
i
bochom kudal
ngay
lungi
sbr
okenhear
t
webot
hlaughed
Her:
:
ngyakuv
ake..
.maarngy
akukhumbul
aAmo
yoh.
..
whenulef
tutookapartofmewit
hu
Me:
:
micut
oochom
wecont
inuedchat
ti
ngt
hewegossi
pedal
i
labout
t
heschool
kids.
.
Wentt
obathaf
tert
hecall
,
wor
emypit
chdressnmy
bl
acksandl
est
henappl
i
edpur
plel
i
pst
ick.
..
.
.
..
Didmymorni
ngrouti
nensinceitwasaSat
urdayi
deci
dedt
otakeawalkal
onef orsomecr
azyreasoni
j
ustwant
edtobealone.
..
..
.ihadmyear phonesonl
isteni
ngto"badatloveby
Halsey "asi wasrunni
ngi
sawsomet hingreall
y
disturbing.
..Mandywassitt
ingnextt
ot het
ree
cryingherlungsout
.
..
Ii
mmedi
atel
ywentt
oher
Me:
:
Mandywhat
'swr
ong(
iaskedheri
nav
erycal
mn
l
owvoi
ce)
Her
::
she'
sgoneVanessa
Me:
:
whosegone
Her:
:mom,
she'
sgoneVshepassedawayl
ast
ni
ght,
nowi
havenobody
,ihav
enooneinthi
swor
ld
Vi don'
tev
enknowhowwi ll
iburyherbecausethe
onlymoneyi hav
eit
'sformet ostudywi
thit
..
.idon'
t
knowwhatt odoV(shesaidthatcryi
ngl
ouder)
.
..
ididn'
tknowwhattosaytoherdoij
usthugged
herti
ghtwhilebr
ushi
ngherhai
rlet
ti
nghertocry
unti
lthetear
saregone
.
..
.
If
eltherpai
nofl
osi
nghermot
her
,buti
tfel
tli
keher
s
wasdouble
.
..
Shedoesn'tevenhavethemoneytobur
yhermot her
iwishedthati
wasabl etohel
pherbuti
my sel
fiwas
fed,
clot
hedni wasst
il
laski
ngmoneyevenforpads.
.
.
..
Nomat
terhowmuchi
want
edhel
pheri
coul
dn'
t.
..
Buttherewasonet hi
ngiwasgonnabetoher.
..
a
shouldert
ocryon,ever
ybodyneedtot
alkto
somebodywhent heyaregoingthr
uatoughpat
ch
.
..
..
depressi
oni
sreal
soi
tnotheal
thyt
obot
tl
e
t
hingsup...
.
..
Isatt
her
ewi
thMandycomf
ort
ingher

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nser
t48

secondspast
,mi
nutespast
,hour
spast
,day
s
past
,weekspast
,mont
hspast...
Itwasnowt hefoll
owingy earnmenmydadwer e
stil
lhavi
ngthebestrelati
onship,
menmysi bli
ngs
wer est
il
ltr
yingt
obui l
ttherelati
onshi
p..
.Ev
ersince
Lindafoundoutthatmymom di edshe'
sbeennice..
.i
mustsayherni wer edoinggoodnwewer enow
tryi
ngtobuil
ttherel
ationship.
..
.
.
..
.
Itwast he3thofJanuar
yni hadj
ustf
ini
shed
bathingiwasonmywayt othesal
on.
..
.wentto
Linda,shegavemet hemoneyniwentout..
.
.
..
Iwal
kedgoingt
herebecausei hav
en'twal
kina
whi
leiam nowal
way si
nt hecar..
..
fr
om hometot
he
sal
onitwasa45mi nwalk..
.
Iarr
ivedthereni cutt
edmyhairi
ntoashorthai
r
causeIwant edtot r
ysomethi
ngdif
fer
enttheniput
apurplecolouronmyhai ri
mustsayi l
ooked
dif
fer
entsoi paidnmademywayout .
.
Sinceiwashungr
yimademywayt otheshops
,wenttomugnbeannor der
ed.
..Whi
l
ei waswait
ing
fortheor
dersomeboycamensatinfrontofme
manhewashot ..
.
Hewasabl
ackAmeri
can,
pinkt
inyl
ips,
bedr
oom
ey
es,
wel
lhehadbi
gnosekeyohnotthatbi
gthough
..
.
Isatt
her
eadmiri
nghishandsome(ness)unti
lhe
deci
dedtoi
nter
ruptmebyopeninghi
smout h..
Hi
m::
hy
Me:
:
hi
Hi
m::
i
t'
ssogoodt
oseeuagai
n
manmi naI'
venev
erseenthi
sguyi
nmyl
i
fe
bef
orebutyenangat
huyangaznje
Hi
m::
udon'
tremembermedou
Me:
:
noi
don'
t
Him::
iam t
heguyupumpedint
oatthemal
lnu
endedupshout
ingatmewi
thastr
angel
anguage
ohhhnowi rememberedniwasquiet
embarrassedbyrememberi
ngthewayishout
edat
hi
mt hatday
Me:
:
ohhhi
t'
su
Hi
m::
nowuremember(hesai
dthatsmi
l
ingr
evel
i
ng
hi
swhit
eper
fectt
eet
h)
Me:
:
yeahi
remember
Hi
m::
mynamei
sTr
ey
Me:
:
Vanessa
Hi
m::
nicehai
rst
yleVanessa
Me:
:
thanky
ou
Hi
m::
soudon'
tmi
ndmej
oini
nguher
e
Me:
:
nahi
t'
sfi
ne
wesatt hereeat
ingnchat
tingf
orli
ke2hoursni
enjoy
edtheguy '
scompanytobehonestiwas
charmedxeimy ohhphel
athisguyist
hehot
testguy
I'
veeverseennhe'ssofunnyncrazysoimustsayi
t
wasnicesitti
ngtherewi
thhi
m

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arykaAmo

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nser
t49

sothedaywentwel lweexchangednumbersTrey
nitheniwenthome. .
.wheniarr
ivedhomethere
wasnoonet her
e,onl
ythemaids..
..mi
nduididn'
tsee
any
onetodayijustwentt
othesal
onwi
thoutev
en
hav
ingbr
eakfast.
..
Asi wassit
tingatthecouchihear
dloudnoiseof
somethingfall
ingcomingfr
om dad'
sroom soiwent
ther
etocheck. ..
Asiopenedt hedoorisawsomet hingvery
di
stur
bing,mydadwashav i
ngsexwi thanotherl
ady
ni
twithLindaasi wasabouttoreturnnclosethe
doorheimmedi at
elystoppedandlookedatmet hei
qui
cklyranoutoftheroom
.
..
Howcanmydaddosomet hingsocr
uel
toLi
nda
,howcanhecheatonher.
..
Iwassodi
sappoi
ntedonhi
m soi
wentt
obat
hni
sl
ept
..
.
Iwaswokenupbyoneoft hemaidst
ell
i
ngme
dinnerisreadyiwentt
ot hetabl
enever
yonewas
alreadythereisatt
her
eandgr eet
edt
hem nbegan
toat e,
wellmydadwasn'tthere
Li
nda:
:
Vanessababywehav
en'
tseenut
oday
Me:
:
ohhhi
hadt
ogot
othesal
on
Li
nda:
:
all
day
?
Me:
:
ohi
thenwentt
olunchwi
thaf
ri
end
Chr
ist
ine:
:
nicehai
rst
yle
Me:
:
thanku.
..
wher
ewer
euguy
sear
li
er
Li
nda:
:
wewentt
ospar
Me:
:
all
ofu
Li
nda:
:
yh
Jay
::
Lil
sisi
ain'
tgayt
heyf
orcedmet
oit
weal
ll
aughed
Me:
:
whosai
duneedt
obegayt
ogot
ospar
Br
it
ney
::hecanbesodr
amat
ic
weall
laughedndadwalkedinir
emember ed
whathedidniimmedi
atel
ystoppedlaughi
ng
Li
nda:
:honeywher
ewereunwhyar
eul at
efor
di
nnerbecauseut
oldmeuwereof
ftoday
Dad:
:ohhuhm myuhhmyassi
stantneededmeat
work
hewasl
yi
ng
Li
nda:
:
ohhokayt
hen.
.j
oinus
hesatdownnilookedathim,
hel
ookeddownhe
coul
dn'
tlookatmeattheeyes,
hewasashamed.
..
Itoowasashamedi
wasbail
edoutift
gatawkwar
d
sit
uat
ionbymyri
ngi
ngphoneniansweredi
tnwent
tomyr oom

Me:
:
hel
l
o
Per
son:
:
babyboo
i
twasTr
ey
Me:
:
What
sup
Hi
m::
j
ustchecki
ngu
Me:
:
okt
hnx
Hi
m::
hav
eagoodni
ght
Me:
:
thnx,
u2
 it
henhangedupnwentt
otel
lever
yonet
hati
am
of
ftobedtheniwentt
omyroom..
.
Idi
dn'
tbeli
evemydad,
iknowguyscheat
,butt
odoi
t
i
nanotherwoman'
shouseeuw..
Whatifi
twasn'
tmewhosawt hem,whati
fitwasmy
sibl
i
ngsobvi
oustheywoul
dhav etol
dthei
rmot her
,orwhati
fLi
ndahersel
fent
eredtheroom .
..
Aii
maarthisi
snonofmybusi
nesst
hisdoesn'
thav
e
anythi
ngt
odowithme

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kencomment
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arykaAmong

I
nser
t50

t
hef
oll
owi
ngmor
ningi
waswokenupbymy
dad
.
..
.
Me:
:
dadwhatupwhyar
euwaki
ngmet
husear
ly
Him::
babyiwant
edust
otal
kaboutwhatusaw
yest
erday
Me:
:
dad,
dad,
dadt
her
e'snot
hingt
otal
kabout
Hi
m::
babyuwer
en'
tsupposet
oseewhatusaw
Me::
iknow dad.
.nr
elaxiwon'
ttel
lany
oneabout
whatisawbutuhavetopromisemethatu'
l
lnever
doanythi
ngli
keher
eev er
..
Hi
m::
iwon'
tn.
.
Me::daddoi tsomewhereel
se,
whatifsomeoneel
se
thatisn'tmeenteredt
hatr
oom,dadLindawoul
d'
ve
beenhur twhoknowsmaybengabeskhulum
uphet hemaphephae..
Hi
m::i
knowni
promi
sewhatusaw,
uwi
l
lnev
ersee
i
tagai
n
Me:
:
mm okay
..
Hi
m::
daddyl
ovesuokay
Me:
:
nil
oveudaddy
..
cani
gobat
hnow
Hi
m::
yeah
 hesaidthatgoingoutsoi wenttothebat h,bat
hed,
woremynei veAdi dast r
acksui
tnmybl ackv ans
appl
iedpurpl
elipstickwhichmat chedthecol ourof
myhairtheniwentt othefam t
ohav ebr eakfastwel
l
Li
ndandadwer en'ttheresowehadbr eakf astus
ki
dsonlyhavinglightconv er
sat
iontherent hereso
myphoner angni twasTr eyni answered
.
.
Me:
:
hey
Hi
m::
heycupcakehowar
eu
Me:
:
iam good,
u
Hi
m::
met
oo.
.uhm douhav
epl
ansf
ort
heday
Me:
:
uhmmm.
..
nowhy
Hi
m::
canwemeett
oday
Me:
:
yeahwhynot
,I
'
llsendut
het
iment
hepl
ace
Hi
m::
ory
tthenseeu
i
hangedup
Jaden::
plsdon'
ttel
lmeugoi
ngt
oseesomeoneI
'
ve
gotplansforus
Me:
:
butudi
dn'
tl
etmeknow
Jaden:
:
itwasgoi
ngt
obeasur
pri
se
Br
it
ney
::
O.M.
Gil
ovesur
pri
ses
Jay:
:
unf
ort
unatel
yuar
enotcount
edi
n,
itwasgoi
ng
tobeme,
JadennVanessa
Chr
ist
ine:
:
whataboutus
Jaden:
:
whataboutu?,
comeonuguy swejustwanna
spendthedaywi
thourlostnf
oundsist
ermoc
Br
it
ney
::nwedon'
t?
Jay
::
hey
,hey
..
.cr
eat
eyourownpl
ansaf
terour
s
Br
it
ney
::
toobadVal
readyhav
epl
ans
Me:
:
uhmm .
.icancancel
them
Jay
::
great
..
sowegoi
ng
Me:
:
yeah
Jaden:
:
inf
actl
et'
sgonow
.
..
sothet
hreeofuswentt
othecar
,.
.wewer
eusi
ng
dad'
sJeepsooffwewentwit
hmyhandsome
brot
her
s,y
est
heyar
ehandsomeespeci
all
yJaden
yohhh.
..
I
twasaquit
edriv
enwedr oveforl
ike2hoursunt
il
wefi
nal
l
yreachedourdest
inat
ionguesswherewe
wer
e

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kencomment
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arykaAmo

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nser
t51

sowewereatt
hispl
acewhi
chhadaswi
mmi
ng
poolwi
thapar
kso
Me:
:
guy
spl
zdon'
ttel
lmewegonnaswi
m
Jaden:
:
yeswear
e
Jay
::
plzdon'
ttel
lmeudon'
tknowhowt
oswi
m
Me:
:
idon'
tknow.
.y
eahi
sai
dit
Jay
::
gir
lnowonderunev
ergoneart
heswi
mmi
ng
pool
athome
Jaden:
:
thi
smakesmequesti
ont
hewayugr
ewup,
i
meanwhatwereurhobbi
esi
nSA
Me:
:wel
lguy
s..
.igr
ewupi na5room house,
wit
hno
swi
mmingpoolsothati
swhyidon'
tknowhowt o
swi
m
Bot
h::
okaywe'
l
lteachy
ou.
.i
t'
seasy
.
..
sotheyspentanhourt eachingmeni f
inal
lygotit
sowespent2hour satt
hatswi mmi ngpoolni was
nowhungr ysowegotout ,wrappedourselveswith
thetowelsthenwewentt osetourlilpi
cnicinthe
parkwhichhadst r
awberr
ies, y
oghurts,
cupcakes,
dri
nks,
chips,pi
zza,
bagofLay s..
.sot
hetimewasnow
12h09
.
..
Aswewer ebusyeat
ingnchatti
ngi sawTrey
cover
ingsomegir
lwithatowel,
lookedli
ketheyjust
cameoutoftheswimmingpool,af
tercover
ingher
theyt
alkedabi
tnlaughedthenofftheywentwit
h
hi
shandont hegirl
'
sback. ..
i wassohear tbroken,i
meani knowt hatwewer en'tdat i
ngbutil
ov edthe
guynseei nghim wit
hagi rlruinedmydayi hadt ears
onmyey esbutiholdthem backi n,l
ucki
l
yJayn
Jadendidn'tnoti
ceany thing...Sothedaycont i
nued
nitri
edact i
ngli
kei wasokayt hewholeday ,wet ook
somesel fi
esnv i
deost her enwet al
kedaboutl otof
goodthingsnbadt hings
.
..
Jay
::
Vnextweeki
t'
sschool
areur
eady
Me::no,imeani
nanewcountrynanew
school,
soundsbad..
douknowhowhar
diti
sto
makef r
iendsntry
ingtof
eeti
n
Jaden::
don'
tworryJaynBri
tneywil
lbewit
hu,
in
Chri
sti
newe'll
beinUniver
sit
y,pl
usthi
sismyf
ir
st
yeariam sohappy
Me:
:
goodf
oru
.
..
wecont
inuedchat
ti
ngunti
litwas19h30sowe
deci
dedt
ogohome. .
.wepackedourthi
ngsnthey
wenttoputt
heninacarni wasl
eftbehindsi
ncei
waslooki
ngformylef
tsneaker,
ifounditnwheni
wasabouttogotot
hecaRsomeonet appedmy
shoul
dernitur
nedt
olook,i
twasTr ey
.
..
Him::
hey,
whathappenedt
oourplans,
ustoodme
up.
.ushouldhav
esaidsoifudi
dn'twanttogoout
wit
hmeV
Me::
udidwentoutwit
hurr
eal
gir
lf
ri
endmocso
whatdouwantfrom me
Hi
m::
whatar
eut
alki
ngabout
?
Me::Treydon'
t,j
ustdon'
tdenyit,
isawuear l
ierwith
heruwer ecoveri
ngherwithatowel af
tercoming
outfrom thepool
..
.uthi
nkididn'
tseeu,yesi di
dni t
tur
nsoutuar ejustasevelastheotherboysher e
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16:
04]
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arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionofi
nser
t51
 hejustl
ookednmeconf
usedf
orasecondt
hen
smil
ed
.
..
.
Hi
m::
whyareusojeal
ous.
.imeanuniai
n'
tdat
ing,
ar
ewe?.
.ohhhi
getulovemedon'tu
Me:
:
eveni
fidi
d,i
don'
tany
mor
e
Hi
m::
thatal
i
e,ust
il
ldo
mxm theguyain'
tev
enapol
ogi
si
nghe'
sbusy
changi
ngthatopi
chere
Hi
m::wai
ther
eI'
l
lbeback,
uowei
ttomef
or
st
ood(i
ng)meup
.
.
idi
dastol
d,hedisappear
edforl
i
ke5mi nncame
backwit
hthegir
l,
W.T.F..
thener
vethi
sguyhas
.
..
Hi
m::
okayuhm.
.Vt
hisi
smyt
winsi
sterKy
le,
Kyl
ethi
s
i
sVanessa
Ky
le:
:
hyVi
t'
sni
cet
omeetu.
.j
ustsouknowi
am 5
mi
nol
dert
hanhi
m
i l
aughed,
notatwhatshewassayingbuti
l
aughedonmyst upi
dit
y..
.SoKyl
ethentookoff
..
.theyhadthesameey escol
our,
samemouth
shape..
.Theyreal
lyl
ookedali
ke
.
..
Hi
m::
seei
am notwhout
houghti
am
(It
ri
edtal
ki
ngbutwordsf
ail
edmesinceidi
dn'
t
knowwhattosay
,iwassoembar
rassedf
orjumpi
ng
i
ntoconcl
usi
on)
Hi
m::shhdon'
tsayany
thi
ng(
hev
sai
dthatcomi
ng
cl
osetome)
Hi
m::uknowwhat.
.il
oveu2(hesai
dthati
na
whi
speri
ngvoi
ce)
hethenhel dmychi nmakingnelookathim ashe
wasal ottall
ert hanme. .
..
hethenbentnki
ssedme
atfir
stididn'trespondnhebat emylowerli
psoi
respondedt otheki ss.
.hi
sli
pswereti
ny,
coldnsoft.
.
Wekissedsl
owlyf
orli
ke10minunt
ili
was
becomingwetsoipul
l
edout
Me:
:l
ookuhm,
mybr
other
sar
ewai
ti
ngf
orme
soi quicklyr
anawayf r
om himl eavi
nghimt here
soi gott ot hecarnJadennJayshout edatmef or
keepingt hem waitingnidi
dn'trespondthem sincei
didn'theardanywor dt
heysaid...
iwasbusy
replayi
ngt hekissonmymi nd..
.al
lthewayback
homei wast hi
nkingabouthim

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kencomment
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arykaAmo

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nser
t52

sowearri
vedathomendadwaswai
ti
ngf
orusat
t
hedinnert
ableal
one
.
..
Hi
m::
goodthatuguysar
eher
esi
tdowni
wannat
alk
t
ouaboutsomethi
ng
 hesoundedseri
oussowedidastoldndad
requestedoneofthemaidstogocal
lChri
sti
nen
Britney
..
.wewerenowsit
tingonthet
ablewait
ingf
or
dadt osaysomething
.
..
.
Dad::
Chr i
stinenJadenwi l
l beleavingforv arsi
ty
tomorrowsi ncei
tJaden'sfirstyeartherear ealotof
thi
ngsheneedst obeforeschool reopensnu
Chri
stineneedstohelphi m souguy sbettergost ar
t
packi
ngsi nceuwi l
lbetakingt hefir
sttrai
nnasf oru
Jaysincethisisurthi
rdsemest erathighschool I'
ll
needut obemor eserioust hanlastyear
..
..
VanessanBrit
neyuwil
lbebothdoi
ngasecond
semesteratt
hesameclassnextweekniwoul
dli
ke
uallnottodi
sappoi
ntme
.
.
hethenleftnJadennChri
sti
newentt
opackthei
r
bags..
.thefol
lowi
ngmorni
ngwesaidourgoodbye'
s
ntheyleftwewerenowitwasthe5ofus..
..
Asday
swentondadr
egi
ster
edmet
othenew
school
..
.
Itwasnowthedaybef
oreschool
reopenssoTrey
askedmetospendthedaywit
hhim soiwentt
ohim
nwewenttohishomenwesatbyt hepool
.
..
Me:
:
souar
ehomeal
one
Hi
m::
yeah.
.ev
ery
onewentt
othespar
Me:
:
nwhydi
dn'
tugo
Hi
m::
iwant
edt
ospendt
hedaywi
thuboo
Me:
:
isee(
ismi
l
ed)
Hi
m::
mindi
fiaskusomet
hing
Me:
:
yeah
Hi
m::uhmm howcomeursi
bli
ngsar
ewhitenuare
whi
tebutnotaswhi
teast
heyarenyourhai
risal
so
di
ff
erent
Me:
:
thatbecauseweonlyshar
eaf
athernmymom
i
sAfr
ican.
..
she'
sblack
Hi
m::
umeanuf
rom Af
ri
ca
Me:
:
yeah,
Sout
hAf
ri
ca.
.iDur
ban
Him::wel
lidon'
tknowwher
ethati
s..
.sourmot
her
agreedforutostaywi
thast
epmother
Me:
:
shedi
edsoi
hadnochoi
cebutt
ocomeher
e
Hi
m::
ohhuhm sor
ry.
.douwantai
cecr
eam?
Me:
:
yecpl
z
.
.
hef
etchedanicecream f
orbothofusnweat ei
t
t
henweswi m(ed)t
ogethernpl
ayedtoget
her
,ki
ssed
..
.
Imustsaywehadalotoff
untogethernwetal
ked
abouthi
sfami
l
ysinceiwasn'
treadytoopenupto
hi
m aboutmyfami
ly.
..
Sohei
sat wi
n,t
her
earej
ustthetwoofthem,he'
s17
,hi
smotheri
sanursenhi
sfatheri
salectur
e

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kencomment
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04]: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t53

soitwasnowthefoll
owingday..
ibat
hedworemy
boyf
ri
endjean,
maroonlongsleev
edcroptopnmy
pi
tchVansthenappl
iedmypur pl
eli
psti
cksi
ncethe
col
ourofmyhairwaspurple.
.
Wentdownstai
rsforbreakfastnBri
tneywas
wear
ingherboy
fri
endjean,pi
tchcr
opt opwi
tha
bl
ackwayge
.
.
Jay
::
mat
chi
ngoutf
it
shuh.
..
Me:
:
ohhh.
..
idi
dn'
tnot
ice
Br
it
ney
::
wowmet
oo,
buti
t'
sagoi
dthi
ng
Me:
:
yessy
abangenagi
rl
t
heyl
ookedatmewi
thaconf
usedl
ook
Jay
::
mindt
ransl
ati
ng
Me:
:
weent
eri
ngt
hem(
ithenl
aughedaf
tert
hatn
theyjoi
nedmer
eal
i
singI
'
vej
ustsai
dasensel
ess
sentence)
sowehadaEnglishbr
eakf
astt
hent
hecarwas
wait
ingf
orusout
side
.
..
Me:
:
wher
e'sdad
Jay
::
hehadanear
lymeet
ing
Me:
:
urmom
Jay
::
sti
l
lasl
eep
Me:
:ohhh.
..
.
..
offwewenttothenewschool
...
iwassoscared
butexci
tedatt
hesametime..
.Wearri
vedaf
ter20
minnwegotof ft
hecar.
..
.

Itwasadif
ferentschoolf
rom theonewwhadi nS.
A
sowewenti nnBr i
tneyst
artedshowingmet he
schoolwhi
leJaydisappearedsoasshewas
showingmet wowhi t
egir
lsappearedfrom nowher
e
nBrit
neyr
antothem nhuggedthem whi
leistood
t
hel i
keachi
ckenwai
tingtobefri
ediimmediatel
y
missedMbal
iimeanforthefi
rstt
imeinmgl i
feifel
t
l
eftout
.
..
Brit
ney:
:ohhuhmm guysthi
sismysist
er
Vanessa,Vanessat
hesearemyfr
iends,
Tyl
ern
Stel
lar
Me:
:
hi
Bot
h::
hey
..
.
St
ell
ar:
:wel
comet
oJuni
orhi
gh
Me:
:
thanku
Br
it
ney
::
uhmm si
sigot
tago,
hopeumakef
rndssoon
Me:
:
alr
ight.
..
enj
oyy
ourday
.
..
wit
hthati
lef
timademywayt omynewcl assn
therewasnoonetherebutsomeboywhi chhada
purplehai
rnhewasWhi t
e..
hecameinfr
ontofmy
desk,minduumntunomuntubekahl
alayedwa
bi
ngekhol
eka2nj
engaseS.
A
.
.
Hi
m::
hyi
am Chr
is
Me:
:
Vanessa
Hi
m::
newher
e?
Me:
:yeah
Hi
m::
okay
,wel
come
Me:
:
thanku,
ni
cehai
rcol
our
(hesmi
l
ed)
Hi
m::
thanku.
.u2
.
..
het
henl
eftni
satt
her
emi
ser
abl
eunt
ili
deci
ded
t
ocall
mybit
ch
.
..
Her
::
b*t
chwhatup,
soear
lykuf
eban
Me::
aysukawenami
nangi
zkhumbul
elesf
ebesam
nj
ena
Her:
:
yuhhsbongei
sfebesi
ngkhumbul
i
lnamhl
a
kwenzenj
an
Me::
chom ngi
kukhumbli
lboh.
..
imeaniam att
his
newschoolnilookl
ikeadeadchi
cken
Her:
:
aibochom school
,imeant
hinawear
elef
tne
vi
kiyonkebef
oresvula
Me::ai
ingi
niabantchom.
.lookbi
tchi
got
tago
sebangbukngathngbul
aleumntu
welaughedni
ndeedt
heywerest
arr
ingatmeso
uncomfor
tabl
esoii
gnor
edthem nt
hedaybegan

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sot hedaywentonverywel
leventhought
heway
thewholeclassesar
eit
'sdi
ff
erentf
ormebutI'l
l
adjustsoon.
..
Soi
wentt
otheschool
playhal
lsi
ncet
heysai
dit
'
s
wasaopeni nggame. .
.isatthereatthebacknat
fi
rstthecheersquadstart
eddoi ngthei
rthingnaft
er
theyweredonet heschoolteam star
tedplaying
basketbal
lntomysur pri
seTr eywasal so
there.
..
whichmeanswear einthesameschool . ..
Ii
mmedi at
elyf
elthappy,
soit'
stur
nedouthewas
oneofthoseboyseverygi
rlhasacrushonsi
ncehe
wasthebestplayeri
ntheteam..
.
.
Sotheyplayednpl ayed..
thegameendedni t
ook
mybelongings_Treydisappearedi
ntothi
nairnasi
wasbusyt r
yingtof i
ndhimi pumpedt oawhitegi
rln
herbooksfellihel
pedherpi cki
ngthosebooksup
.
..
Me:
:
iam sosor
ry.
..
.I
'
lll
ookwher
eigonextt
ime
Her:
:noi
t'
sfi
ne.
..
heymay beucanhelpme,iam
l
ookingf
orMrsBranagaintheysentmetogiv
et hese
(t
hebooks)t
oherni don'
tknowhersinceiam new
here
Me:
:
wel
liam newt
oobuti
knowBr
anagai
nbecause
sheintr
oducedhersel
fasmycl
asst
eachert
his
morning
soihel
pedheri
nfi
ndi
ngBr
anagai
nnshegav
e
t
hosebooks
.
..
Her
::
thanku
Me:
:
pleasur
e..
.Iam Vanessa,
u
Her
::
Anast
asi
a
shehadmymot her
snamenbecauseoft
hati
i
mmedi at
elyl
i
kedher
Me:
:
nicet
omeetuAnna.
.udon'
tmi
ndmecal
l
ingu
t
hat
,dou
Her
::
(shesmil
ed)noi
don'tmind,
heysi
nceunew
her
e,i
am new,
weshouldhangupsometimes
Me::
goodi
dea.
..
her
etakemynumberni
wil
ltake
your
s
weexchangednumbersnwewentdi ff
erentways
,well
letmedescr
ibeherf
oru,shehadbluesmall
eyes,
pinknor
malsizel
i
ps,
longnose,
longbackhairn
shewasl
i
kesi
ze28nshewasal
i
lbi
ttal
lthanme.
..
Soourcapfetchedusnwewenthomenwe
ar
ri
ved,
wenttobat h,
woremypi
nkNi
ket
racksui
twi
th
bl
ackAdidassandals.
..
.
.
Sinceimissedmysi
bli
ngs,Sbul
elonOmphi
le,
i
decidedt
ocallt
hem nMikeansweredt
hephone
.
..
Me:
:
hal
l
o
Mi
ke:
:
heyAmo,
kunj
an
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
a,wena
Mi
ke:
:
ngy
aphi
l
anam
Me:
:
cani
tal
ktomysi
bli
ngs
Mi
ke:
:
sur
ehol
donasec
.
.. af
ter5mi
nihear
dSbul
elo'
ssof
tli
lvoi
ce
.
.
Her
::
Amo
Me:
:
nana,
unj
n
Her
::
ngy
aphi
l
a,wena
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
anami
..
Her
::
ngi
kukhumbul
i
lemi
na
Me:
:imi
ssumor
enana.
..
Her
::
uzosv
akashel
ani
ni.
.
i
didn'
tknowhowt
oanswert
hequest
ion
Me:
:
soonnana.
..
ureadyky
eskol
wennextweek
Her:
:y
ohhhAmogelangsengj
ahekanj
ani
..
ngat
hi
sengyazi
bonanj
ekagrade1.
..

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inuat
ionkai
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Sbul
elosoundedsoexci
tedov
ert
hephonent
hat
melt
edmyhear t
Me:
:
uzi
misel
ekeeskol
weny
ezwa
Her
::
naweke
Me:
:
ngy
akt
handauy
ezwa
Her
::
lov
eumor
enmor
e
i
smi
l
ed
Me:
:
nikezauOnphi
l
eiphoneke
.
.
Omphi
l
e::
Amo
Me:
:
bhutomncane
Hi
m::
Amosengi
mdal
amanj
eawuv
asengnebass
il
aughedev
ent
houghhewasr
ightbesekane
bass
.
..
Me::
aysukaOmphi
l
eoksal
ayoki
miuzohl
alaungu
bhut
iomncane
Hi
m::
yeahwhat
ever
Me:
:
imi
ssuy
azi
n..
Hi
m::
ngi
mloy
o..
.ij
ustwi
shuwer
eher
ewi
thusy
az
Me:
:howareuguy
sdoi
ngmaar
(isai
dignor
ingwhat
hej
ustsai
d)
Hi
m::
wedoi
nggood,
wena
Me:
:
met
oo
Hi
m::
yooAmosengnent
ombent
japhel
a
i
laughedoutl
oud
Me::socal
i
leke,
nakesur
ethi
sti
meawshay
wake
yezwa
Omphi
l
e::
(hel
aughed)okayshar
p
.
..
i
hangedupnwentdownst
air
sbt
her
ewasnoone
t
hereonl
yMandy
.
..
Me:
:
Mandy
Her
::
V
Me:
:
wher
ehav
eubeengi
rl
,hav
en'
tseenui
nawhi
l
e
Her
::
wasbusypr
epar
ingf
ormymom'
sfuner
al,
now
t
hatal
loft
hati
sov
eru'
l
lbeseei
ngmeal
other
e
Me::
goodt
oknowt
hat
(ismi
l
ed)
,wher
edi
dBr
it
neyn
Jaygo
Her
::
theyar
eint
hei
rrooms
Me:
:
Linda?
Her
::att
hepool
Me:
:
ohhokay
..
.
i
tookfr
uitsal
adnyoghur
tnhadi
twi
thMandy
whi
lechat
ti
ngwithher

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asIwassit
ti
ngwit
hMandydadgotinn
i
mmediatel
ymyphonerang,
soianswer
edi
tsi
ncei
t
wasmamncanPhindi
le
.
..
.
Me:
:
mam'
ncanewam.
.
Her
::
Amogel
angwam.
..
unj
an
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
anam wena
isai
dthatgoi
ngoutt
otal
ktot
hephone
out
side
Her::
ngyaphi
labam..
.Amongyacol
i
sakut h
angkufonel
angaaft
eryourmom'sfuneral
it'
sjust
thatiwasgoingthr
oughalotmyselfbutiam fi
ne
now..
Me:
:
it'
sfi
ne'
ncane,
whathasbeenhappeni
ngt
ou
Her
::al
otoft
hingsnanabuti
am goodnow.
..
Me:
:
usur
e?
Her
::y
eah.
.whataboutu,
howar
eudoi
ng
Me::
ihadhar
dti
mecopi
ngaf
termov
ingt
oher
ebuti
am al
sogoodnow
Her
::
imi
cu
Me:
:
imi
cumor
e..
.
Her
::
heyguesswhat
Me:
:
what
Her
::
iam 4mont
hspr
eggi
es
Me:
:
O.M.
Gncanei
am sohappyf
oru.
.
Her
::
thankunana
.
..
wecont inuedtal
kingforli
ke30mi nnt henshe
hangedupt heniwentinsi
det hehouse.
..
ifound
dad,
Linda,Brit
neynJayt heywer esi
tt
ingonthe
couchesthef ourofthem withLinda'
sfeetondad'
s
ti
ghtsni wentt osi
toppositethem
.
..
Dad:
:
soi
comei
nnugoout
Me:
:
ihadt
ospeakt
oPhi
ndi
l
e
Jay
::who
Me:
:
Phi
ndi
l
e
Dad:
:
urmom'
ssi
ster
?
Me:
:yeahnguesswhat
Dad:
:what
Me:
:
she'
sfourmont
hspr
egnant
Dad::
wowgoodtoher
,ij
ustf
eel
sor
ryf
ort
hef
ather
uraunt'
scr
azy
Me:
:
true
dadnibothl
aughedwhi
l
eev
ery
onewasl
ooki
ng
atusconf
used
Me:
:
imi
cherdad,
imi
cal
loft
hem
i
wasstart
ingtogetemoti
onalndadnot i
ceditso
hecall
edmet ohisoff
icet
oplayPlayStat
ionwit
h
him nwedidthathavi
ngNoodlesntalki
ngabout
random st
uff
.
..
Thethingi
loveaboutmydadi sthatheknowswhich
batt
onstopresswheni st
artmissi
ngmymot her
's
famil
y,
mom ormysi bl
i
ngs...
He'
sthebestdadonecoul
dev
eraskf
orsot
heni
ght
wentonnwewentt osl
eep
Thenextdayi
wokeup,
wor
emynei
vedr
esswi
th
bl
acksandel
sthenappli
edanei
vel
i
pst
ick.
.t
ookmy
bagniwasreadyforschool

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iwasquiteal
lthewayt oschoolBri
tney'
snJay
werebusychatt
ingal
lthewayni di
dn'
tsayat hi
ng,
notthatiwassadoranythingbutij
ustdidn'
twanna
sayat hi
ng.
..
Wearri
vedl
ateratschool
nigotoutni
foundAnna
busyl
ooki
ngleftnri
ght
.
.
Me:
:
looki
ngf
orsomeone?
Her
::
B*t
chi
wasl
ooki
ngf
oru
Me:
:wel
lher
e'sme
Her
::
duhhi
canseeu
wel
aughednhugged
Me:
:
sowhi
chcl
assar
euat
tendi
ng
Her
::
dramanar
ts.
.u
Me:
:
musi
cncooki
ngcl
asses
Her
::
ohh.
.canusi
ngf
orme
Me:
:uhuhgi
rl.
..
anot
herday
t
hebellr
angnwwwentsepar at
eway stoour
classntheclasswentonnonunti
litwasluncht
ime
wheni gotoutAnbawasalr
eadywaiti
ngformeat
thedoor,
thi
sgirlt
hough
.
..
Me:
:
iseei
gotabody
guar
dhuh
wel
aughed
Her
::
let
'sgohav
elunchi
am hungr
y
indeedwehadfoodnwenttositt
ot hel
unch
si
tti
nghallaswewereeat
ingnchatt
ingTrey
showedupholdi
ngabasketbal
lnont heotherhand
hi
sfoodwalkingwit
hagr oupofguysngir
lsnthey
werebusyl
aughingntheysatattheot
hert
ablen
begantoat
ewhilemakingnoice.
..
Cl
ear
lyTr
eyhasf
orgot
tenaboutme .
.
.
..
Asiwasbusytal
ki
ngal
onei
nmyt
houghtAnast
asi
a
Col
l
usyint
err
uptedme
.
..
.
Her:
:
Vanessa,
Vanessahell
oiam t
alki
ngt
ou(
she
sai
dthatwaiv
ingherhandonmyface)
Me:
:
ohhuhmm i
am sor
ry,
whatwer
eusay
ing
Her
::
pshhnevermind,
whatareuthinkingaboutt
hat
morei
mportantt
hanat al
ki
nggir
linfrontofu
.
.
asiwasabouttoanswerthequest
ionsomeone
cl
osedmyeyesfrom behi
ndnguesswhoi t
was,
Trey
..
hethensatnexttome
.
..
Hi
m::
cupcakehowar
eu
Me:
:
...
..
Him::
whydidn'
tutel
lmewewer
egonnaat
tendt
he
sameschoolimeanbabei
coul
dhav
eshoweduthe
school
,i
ntr
oduceutoit
asi
wast
osaysomet
hingAnnasai
dsomet
hing
f
ir
st
Her
::uhm hel
l
oMrwhoar
eu
Tr
ey:
:
ohhiam sor
ryi
am Tr
ey,
urf
ri
end'
sboy
fri
end.
.
Nuare?
Her
::
Anast
asi
a
Tr
ey:
:
nicet
omeetu.
..
.l
ist
enbbeI
'
llseeul
aterokay
hesai
dthatl
eav
ing,
yohhni di
dn'tsayany
thi
ng
r
espondi
nghim,
butatl
easthesti
ll
rememberme
.
.

Anna:
:gi
rludi
dn'
ttel
lmeuar edati
ngthehot
testguy
i
nschool.
..
imeanuar enewherebutualr
eadyhave
hi
m atthepal
msofy ouehands..
.t
ell
mehowdi du
guysmeet
 wel
list
artedtel
li
ngherni
meanev
ery
thi
ngnot
l
eavi
nganythingout

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sot
hedaywentonnonunti
li
twasschoolout,
i
wasst
andingwit
hAnnaatt
hepassaget
alki
ngabout
r
andom st
uff.
.
Tr
eyshowedup
.
..
Hi
m::
Anast
asi
adoumi
ndi
fist
eal
herf
rom u
Anna:
:sur
enopr
obl
em.
..Fr
ndI
'
llseeut
omor
row
Me:
:
bye
shel
eft
Tr
ey:
:
babeI
'
vebeenmi
ssi
nguuknow
Me::
butudi
dn'
tevenbothert
ext
ingorcal
l
ingor
i
nboxingmeonFacebook
Tr
ey:
:
iam sosor
rybabe.
.iwasal
i
lbi
tbusy
Me:
:
evenf
orme?
(iaskedt
hatpoi
nti
ngmychest
)
Hi
m::
iam sor
rybabe,
pleasef
orgi
veme
Me:
:
kissmef
ir
st
Hi
m::
ugot
tabeki
ddi
ngme,
publ
i
c??
Me:
:ohhsouhav
eapr
obl
em ki
ssi
ngmepubl
i
chuh
Hi
m::
yes.
..
imeannobutbabewear
eatschool
Me:
:
so?
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
ohhsouar
eafr
aidofpeopl
eseei
nguki
ssi
ng
me,
got
ohel
lTr
ey
.
..
isai
dthatl
eavi
nghim st
andi
ngther
e..
..
imean
whatupwithhi
mi sheashamedofmeoram inot
goodenoughforhi
m...
.
Mxm imademywayt ot hecarnwheni ar
riv
edat
homei t
ookof fmycl ot hesntheni wenttoswim
backyardluckil
ynoonewast here. .
imeani j
ust
wantedtobeal onewi thmyt hought..
.Myphone
keptonri
ngingnonst opni twasTr eycall
i
ng, i
didn'
t
wannatalktohi m..
.atleastnottoday..
..
soi
swimmednaf terawhi leiwentbacki nsi
dethe
house..
haddi nnerwitht hefam whilehavi
ngconv os
herentheretheni wentt obed
.
..
NguesswhatTr
eywasstil
lcal
li
ngunti
lideci
dedt
o
shutdownmyphone,
ipr
ayedthenwenttolal
a
l
and

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inuat
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 thefoll
owi ngdayi wokeupi nagoodmood
,bathed,
wor emyt ightbl
ackjean,whi
teshortsl
eeved
NikeT-shi
rts,blackVans...
compl et
edthelookwitha
l
ightpinkli
pst i
ck..
.atti
meslikethisimissedhavi
ng
alonghairbutkei madeachoi cetocutitsoimust
l
eavewi t
hit...
.
.
Wentdownstai
rst
ohav
ebr
eakf
astnev
ery
onewas
t
herei
ncludi
ngdad.
.
..
Me:
:
mor
ningf
am
Dad:
:somebody
'si
nagoodmood
Jay
::
ucansayt
hatagai
n,what
'supwi
thuV
Linda:
:soi
nthi
shousewhenuar
ehappyumust
explai
nwhy
Me:
:
goodq
Br
ir
ney
::
comeont
ell
us,
whatorwhohasmadeut
o
gl
ow
Me:
:
guy
str
ustmei
am happybuti
don'
thav
ea
r
eason
Dad:
:wel
ltheni
hopet
hatsmi
l
elast
sfor
everont
hat
cut
eface
Me:
:
ihopesot
oodad
Linda:
:uhm guy
si am goi
ngtovi
si
tmysist
ersi
nce
shejusthadanewbor nniwi
ll
bebackMonday
(mindu,itwasThursday)
Jay
::saf
etr
ip,
don'
tfor
gett
otakepi
csoft
henew
bor
n
Li
nda:
:
wil
ldo,
uguy
sbehav
e
Br
it
ney
::we'
l
ldo
Li
nda::
Vanessakeepneyeonthem,
thelastt
imei
wasn'
taroundtheyt
hrewahousepart
ynmyhouse
smell
edli
keapi g
Me:
:
wil
ldoso
Dad:
:wel
lthenhav
easaf
etr
ipdearwi
fe,
iam goi
ng
towork
.
..
af
terbr
eakf
astwewentt
othecarnwedr
ovet
o
school
hav
ingconv
osher
ent
her
e..
Sowearr
ivednmybodyguar
dwasal
readywai
ti
ng
formel
oool
.
..
Me:
:
myAnna
Her
::
MyVanessa
wehugged
Her:
:
iseesomebody
'si
nagoodmood,
whatdi
dTr
ey
do
Me::
uhhmxm t
hatoneai
n'
tev
ent
her
easonofmy
happi
ness
Her
::
ohhsouwokeupl
i
ket
his
Me:
:
uknowi
t
welaughednTr
eyshowedupni
wasi
mmedi
atel
y
t
urnedoff
.
..
Hi
m::
Anast
asi
ahowar
eu
Her
::
iam goodT,
u?
Hi
m::
iam good,
Vanessacani
tal
ktou
Anna:
:
uhm f
rnduwi
l
lfi
ndmei
nsi
det
hen
Me:
:
ayt
shel
eft
Me:
:
what
sup
Tr
ey:
:
iam good,
howar
eu
Me:
:
uhav
e5mi
nudoknowt
hatr
ight
?
Him::
okaybabyi am deepl
ysorr
yaboutwhat
happenedyesterdayihavenoexcusewhyi
t
happenedbuti knowitwasn'
tsupposet
ohappen.
.
Babypleaseforgiv
eme
Me:
:
...
Hi
m::
iwi
l
lkneel
downi
fihav
eto
i
laughed,
aii
thi
sguyi
scr
azyy
az
Me:
:
nodon'
tif
orgi
veu(
ilaughedagai
n)
Hi
m::
thankubaby
,il
oveuokay
Me:
:
lov
eut
oo
.
..
 t
henwewenti
nsi
det
heschool

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kencomnent
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arykaAmo

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nser
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soitwasnow14h00ni wassit
ti
ngalonebythe
pool havi
ngsomei cecr
ean,Br
it
neywasinher
room, Jaywasout,
idon'
tknowwher easforLi
nda
shewasal readygone
.
..
Myphoner
angni
twasTr
eysoi
answer
edi
t
.
..
Hi
m::
babyboo
Me:
:
myper
son
Hi
m::
canucomeov
er,
iam homeal
one
Me:
:
sur
e,wi
l
lbet
her
einanhour
Hi
m::
alr
eadywai
ti
ngf
orut
hen
ihangedup,wenttoBri
tney'
sroom totellheri
wasgoi ngoutthenwentt
omyr oom tofreshen
up,
woremypi tchjumpsuitwit
hbl acksandlestheni
hi
ttedtheroadni ar
ri
ved,
iknockednheopenedt he
door.
.
Hewasweari
ngagr
eyt
rackpantnawhi
tev
estwi
th
nei
vesl
eeper
s
.
..
.
Hel
ookedhotshei
m
Hi
m::
baby
Me:
:
iam her
enow
Hi
m::
comel
et'
sgot
othel
aunch
wewentther
ensatont
heCouch,heboughtpop
cor
nsndri
nksforusnwewat
chedthemov i
e"If
onl
y"
Oneofmyf
avori
temovi
esilayedmyheadonhi
s
t
ight
snwestay
edint
hatposit
ion
.
..
Hi
m::
uknowi
missedboo
Me:
:
yeahi
knowni
missedut
oo
Hi
m::
il
oveuboo
Me:
:
ilov
eut
oo
Hi
m::
ndon'
tev
erdoubtt
hat
Me:
:
iwon'
t
Hi
m::
uknowsomet
imesi
feel
li
keudon'
tknowhow
muchumeantome
Me:
:
...
Hi
m::umeanalottome'nessa,ucompl
etedt
he
pi
ecethatwasmissi
ngi
nmyl if
e
idi
dn'tknowwhattosaytohi
m soijustki
ssed
hi
m, wehadt hatsl
owl
ypassi
onat
ekissforli
ke5
minnwecont i
nuedwat
chi
ngthemov i
euntil
itwas
overnthetimewas15h00
.
..
Me:
:
babyi
got
tagohome
Hi
m::
alr
eady
Me:
:yeah,
iam hungr
ynow
Him:
:
nobabyunotgoi
ngany
wher
e,l
et'
sgomakeu
somefood
iagr
eedsi
ncei
sti
l
lwant
edt
ospendmor
eti
me
wi
thhi
m
.
..
.
Hi
m::
whatdouwannaeat
Me:
:
spaghet
tinmi
ncewoul
dbeni
ce
Hi
m::
l
et'
smakei
tthen
aswewer ebusycooki
nghespl
itwat
eronhi
s
vestnhetooki
toff,
istar
edathi
sbodyun
expect
edl
y
.
..
Hi
m::babydi
dn'
ttheyt
eachui
t'
srudet
ost
air
(hesai
d
t
hatsmili
ng)
Me:
:
mxm
Hi
m::
char
ming,
ryt
 il
aughednhej
oinedme,
soweat
enhet
ookme
home..
.
Imustsay,
ireal
l
ylov
edt
heguy

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Seconds,
minut
es,
hours,
day
snweekpast.
..
itwas
nowThef ol
l
owingmonth,
Febr
uar
y..
..
Treyniwer est
il
lgoingstrongni wasinlovewith
hi
m mor ethanevernAnast asi
ani werenowbest
fr
iends.
..Nthefam ni weresti
llget
ti
ngal ongj
ust
fi
nesoi wokeupont he16thofFebruary..i
twasmy
bi
rthdayni waswokenupbyt hefamilywhichwas
si
ngingahappybi r
thdaysongf ormewi thdadn
Li
ndahol di
ngacakei wokeupnsmi led
.
..
Me:
:
ncoahuguy
s,t
hanku
Dad:
:
makeawi
sh
i
closedmyeyesnwishedf
ort
hehappi
nessi
nmy
l
i
fethenibl
ewthecandl
es
Br
it
ney
::
happysweet16t
hbi
rt
hdayl
i
lsi
s
i
smi
l
ed
Me:
:
thanky
ou
Li
nda:
:nowwakeup,
got
akeabat
hwe'
regoi
ng
somewher
e
.
.
wi
tht
hatt
heygotoutofmyr
oom.
..
Iwokeupnwentt otheshower,
bathed,woremy
maroondr
essnbl ackwages,
appli
edt hemaroon
l
ipst
ickni
wor etheneckl
acemymot herboughtf
or
meatmypr ev
iousbirt
hday
.
..
Thi
swast hefi
rstbir
thdayiwasgoi
ngt
ospend
wit
houtmom,usuallyshe'
dwakemeupwit
hakiss
onmyf or
eheadnt hentel
lmehowmuchsheloved
menhowmuchshewasbl essedt ohaveme,butthi
s
ti
meshewasn' tt
her
e. .
.mysibl
ingswhousual l
y
wrotemebirt
hdaycardsweren'
tt her
e,Iwasn'
teven
athome,Mbal
iwhousual l
ybakedmeonecupcake
wasn'tt
her
e..
.
Imi ssedthem al l
,especi al
lymymom, i missedher
sweetv oice,imissedhert elli
ngmehowmuchshe
l
ov edme, imi ssedhowshemademybi rthdaysthe
bestday sev er,imi ssedherper fumes, herhugs, her
kisses..
.wit
houtev enexpect i
ngtearsescapedmy
eyeswhi lei waslooki ngatthatnecklacendad
enteredther oom nhedi dn'tsayanythinghej ust
huggedmet ightni cryedoutloudpai nfull
y..
.i
thoughti wasgonnagetusedt othefactt hatidon't
hav eamom any mor ebutclearl
yi won'tgetusedt o
i
t,it
'
shar dv eryhard. ..
Af
terawhi
l
eicamedownndadwi
pedmyt
ear
s
.
..
Hi
m::
uwi
shshewasher
e
inoddedwhi
let
ryi
ngt
ohol
dbackt
het
ear
sthat
wantedtocomeout
Him::iknowt hisishar
df oruprincess,
iknow..
.niam
sorryallofthisishappeningtou..butt
odayisyour
bi
rthday .
..Pl
easeputonasmi leont hi
scuteface
j
ustf orme, i
knowt hatAnastasiaisalwayswith
u,
alway s..
.Nowgetr eadyokay .
..wegoingout
Me:
:
okaydad(
ifakedasmi
l
e)
Hi
m::
ber
eadyi
n5mi
n(hel
eftmyr
oom)
.
..
iwashedmyf aceallov
eragai
n,appl
i
edli
psti
ckn
l
ilbi
tofmakeupnt henhadmybl ueshadestohide
mypuffyredeyesni wasreadynwegotoutofthe
housenheatedtheroad
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arykaAmo

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mindu,i
twasSatur
daywhenwewer egoi
ngout
f
ormybi r
thday
,sowearr
ivedattheshops,
dadnthe
r
estofthefamil
ydi
sappearedidon'
tknowtowhere
l
eav
ingmenBr
it
neyt
her
e
.
..
.
Her
::
sowhatdouwannawear
Me:
:
wher
e
Her:
:wegoingoutr
emember,
wecameher et
ogetu
speci
alcl
othessi
ncet
hisi
surspeci
alday
Me:
:
okayt
henl
et'
sgobuymesomecl
othes
iboughtt hi
slongnei v
edr esswit
hasweet hear
t
neckli
ne,
itwasbeaut i
ful
,itr
ev i
l
edmyper fect
body,t
hei boughtthisneivesweatheals..
..
well
Bri
tneychoset hewhol eatti
reformebuti
i
mmedi atelyfel
linlovewithitsoiagreed,wepaidn
wewentout .
.
Bri
tneyinsi
stedwegotothesal
ongetmynai l
sdone
ncurledmyshortpurpl
ehai
rni hadsomemakeup
on,
i l
ookedbeauti
ful
butil
ookedlikeadol
ll
ol
.
..
.
Sot
hedriv
ercamentookust
oahotel
nBr i
tneyt
old
metogetinsi
denwor
ethedr
esswebought..
.
Wheni gotoutshewasn'
tther
e..
..
..
onlyt
hedri
ver
wasdohet oldmetofoll
owhim ni di
dastol
dhe
openedadoornal l
ihear
dwas
"Sur
pri
se"O.M.Gi
twasasur pri
separ
tydecoratedi
n
neiv
enwhi tenever
yoneel
sewaswear i
ngpar t
y
acceptme,act
ual
l
yitwasn'
tjustapar
ty.
..
itwasa
sweetsi
xteen
.
..
Iwasspeechl
essev
eryonewasthereincl
udi
ngTr
ey
nAnastasi
anmyotherclassmates..
Asi wasbusyl
ikel
ooki
ngaroundmydadst
art
ed
speaki
nginthemicr
ophone
.
..
Him::at
tent
ionever
yone, iwouldli
ketowelcomeall
ofut othi
swonderful
ev ent..
.mostofal
liwouldli
ke
tothankAnastasi
aforraisingthi
sbeauti
fulgi
rl
cal
ledVanessa..
Vanessadaddy'
sprincessiknowwe'vej
ustf
ound
eachotherbutiwantutoknowt hatt
hemomenti
foundoutaboutyourexist
ence,
uhadalr
eadyhada
specialpl
aceinmyhear t.
..
iam sorr
yiwasn'tther
e
i
ny ourgrowingupbuti wantutoknowt hatnow
thatihavefoundu,I
'l
lbethebestthi
ngthathasever
happenedt ou..
.il
oveupr i
ncess
.
..
mydad'
sspeecht
ouchedme,
iwasnowcr
yingbut
t
earsofj
oythi
sti
me.
.
Nt
henaf
tert
hatBr
it
neywentt
ost
age
.
..
Her:
:
uhmm Vanessa, iknowuar enewtoourliv
esn
wewerenewt oy ours,
buti wantutoknowt hatthe
momentuent er
edourl i
ves..
..
uwer eabl
essingto
us,
event
houghatf irstuni didn'
tseeeyetoeyebuti
wantutoknowt hatI'vealwayslovedunthankuf or
bei
ngthel
iloneint hehouse
i
smilednthecr
owdl
aughed,
Jayal
sosai
dhi
s
amazi
ngspeech

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ken.
comment
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soaf
terJay'
sspeecht
hemusicbegan.
.fi
rstsong
pl
ayedwastit
led'
Thewayiar
e'byBebeRexha..
.
Ever
y onekeptonwi shi
ngmeahappybi rt
hday..
.so
guysi bi
ngathikusebsukuphayabekukhanyi
sei
di
scobal lnphasi bekunent
oebonakalangath
i
ntuthuunf ort
unatelyangazi
bizwanganibekukuhl
e
mfti am tel
li
ngu..
Anast
asi
ashowedup
.
..
Her
::
happybi
rt
hdayfr
iend.
..
whydi
dn'
tut
ell
me
t
odaywasurbir
thday
Me:
:
wel
luar
eher
eri
ght
Her:
:i
fBr
it
neynJaywer en'
ttheoneswhogave
ever
yonetheinvi
tati
oncardstoevery
oneatschool
wewouldn'tbehere,
evenTreywouldn'
tbeher
e
 i
smi
l
ed
Me::
buyatt
heend,uar
eher
e,uar
eal
lher
esol
et'
s
cel
ebrat
emybir
thday
Her:
:y
eah..heywhydi
dn'
tut
ell
meurmom'
snamei
s
Anastasi
a
Me:
:
wel
lnowuknow.
..
.wantadr
ink
Her
::
iwouldl
ovesome.
..
ulookbeaut
if
ul,
thi
sdr
ess
f
it
superfect
ly
Me:
:
thankubest
ie.
..
nul
ookbeaut
if
ult
oo
Her:
:
what,
il
ookli
keevery
onei
nher
eimeanwe'
real
l
weari
ngwhit
eexceptu
Me:
:
_it
'smydayaf
teral
l
welaughedt
henwewentt
ogetour
sel
ves
cockt
ail
s
.
..
Naswewer echatti
ngmyTreyshowedup,hewas
wear
ingwhiteski
njeannawhit
ev estwi
thawhi
te
j
eanjacket.
..
Hewasl
ooki
nghot
.
.
Anna:
:
sinceurpr
incechar
mingi
sher
eibet
tergo
fi
ndmine
i
laughednshel
eft
.
..
Tr
ey:
:
myst
ar(
hesai
dthatcomi
ngcl
oset
ome)
Me:
:
ulookhandsome
Hi
m::
comeonuar
etheoneshi
ningher
e
Me:
:
thanku.
..
Hi
m::
,
happybi
rt
hdayst
ar
Me:
:
thankubaby
het
ookoutanbr
acel
et
Hi
m::
thi
sisf
oru
i
wassur
pri
sednt
hebr
acel
ethadan'
V&T'
.
..
Me:
:
'V&T'
?
Hi
m::
i
t'
s'Vanessa&Tr
ey'
Me:
:
babyi
t'
sbeaut
if
ul,
thanku
Hi
m::
any
thi
ngf
oru
heput
tedi
tonme
.
..
Me:
:
thankubaby
,il
oveusomuch
i
sai
dthathuggi
nghi
m
Hi
m::
il
oveumor
emyst
ar
.
..
Me:
:
kissmepl
ease
Hi
m::
whycan'
tuki
ssmef
ir
st
Me:
:
becauseTr
eyBol
tonuar
etal
l
hesmilednthenbentt
oki
ssme,
iki
ssedhi
sti
ny
l
i
pst henheleanedout
Me:
:whydi
dust
op
Hi
m::
becauseweaty
ourpar
tybabenotatmybed
r
oom
.
.
 i
gav
ehi
m af
unnyl
ooknwel
aughed
Hi
m::
comeher
elet
'
sdance
.
.
wedancedt
oget
her

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soasiwasdanci
ngwi
thTr
eySomeonecl
ear
eda
t
hroatni
twasdad
.
..
Me:
:
uhhh.
.Dadi
didn'
tseeu
Dad::
it'
sbecausei
t'
sti
mef
orut
ocomencuty
our
cake.
..
shal
lwe
hesai
dthatgi
vi
ngmehi
shandni
hel
dhi
m nwe
wentt
othecake.
..
Thecakewas15st eps,
i
twaswhi t
e..
.i
twasbeaut
if
ul
icutt
editnthecrowdst ar
tedsingingahappy
bir
thdaysongforment heystartedshouti
ng
'
speech'nthenitookthemi cr
ophone
.
..
Me::wel
liuhm..
.idon'
thavemucht osay ,ij
ustwanna
saythankutomyf ami l
ywhoor ganisedt hi
sparty
forme..Nmostofal lIwouldli
ketot hankmydad
forbei
ngthebestdadagi rlcoul
dev eraskf or,
il
ove
usomuchdaddy ...
ni wouldli
ketothankual lf
or
comingbecausewi t
houtuguy sthi
sev entwouldn'
t
havebeenasuccess...
t
heyclaphandswhileotherswer
etaki
ngmepi cs
not her
sv i
deosthenaftert
hatsomepeopl
easked
met ot
akepict
ureswiththem nidi
dasasked,al
so
tookpictur
eswithmyf am,Anast
asi
anTreyaswel l
ofcausenunexpect edlydadhadanannouncement

.
.
Him::
uhmm excusemeforonelastt
ime.
..Vanessa
sweetyihav
eonemoresurpri
seforyouthatnobody
knowsaboutcanwepleasegooutsi
deit
'sthere
weal lwentoutsi
denmyey eswereclosedby
dad..
.heopenedthem nheshoutedhappysweet
si
xteenthbir
thdaymybabygir
l..
.
..
I
twasabl
ackG.
T.Iwr
apedi
nanei
ver
ebor
n..
.
Ist
oodther
espeechl
esswit
hmyhandscover
ingmy
mouthwhil
etear
sofjoywer
emaki
ngthei
rwayout
.
..
.
Iwenttohuggedmydadnhegav emethecarkeysi
unwrappedthecarni wenti
nsi
denpeoplest
art
ed
taki
ngmepictures.
..
.Thefunnyt
hingwas.
..
idi
dn'
t
knowhowt odri
v e

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sothepart
yendedar
ound03h00nt hecaptook
ushomei sl
eptnwokeuparound14h00yohhhhi
must'
vebeentir
ed
..
tookabat h,woremygr eyNi ketrackpany,red
RedBatT- shi r
tsnmywhi teall
-st
arsneaker
completedt helookwithal i
ghtpinklipsti
ckt ookmy
phoneni found11mi ssedcallsfrom Mbal iwell
yester
dayi didn'
ttouchmyphonesot hatwhyi di
dn'
t
seemyr ingi ngphoneni cal
ledherback
.
..
Her
::
chom chom
Me:
:achuzwaka
Her
::
unj
n
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
a..
wena
Her:
:met oo.
..
.ydi
dn'
tuanswery
ourphone
yest
erdayiwantedtowi
shuahappybir
thday
Me:
:
sor
ryf
rndphel
abebangenzel
isweetsi
xteen
par
tysomyphonewasf
arawayf
rom me
Her:
:
yohhhhchom y
azi
nlogi
nonWhat
sAppnowi
wanttoseet
hem pi
cs
Me:
:
alr
ightchom
.
..
ihangedupnwentdownst ai
rsifoundeveryone
havi
nglunchqui
teigreetedt
hem njoinedthem i
don'
tknowweatheri wasimagi
ningthingsbutthey
wereallmoodyacceptdad..
.
Buti
didn'
tmi
ndt
hem t
hatmuch,
fi
nishedhav
ing
l
unch
nwentt
osi
toutsi
deatt
hebal
conyndadf
oll
owed
me
.
..
Hi
m::
babygi
rldon'
tuwannat
ryouty
ournewcar
Me::
dadi
woul
dlov
etoobuti
don'
tknowhowt
o
dr
ive
Hi
m::
thatai
n'
tapr
obl
em,
I
'l
lteachu.
..
come
.
..
 wel
lindeedwewenttothecarninsideitwas
heavenonear t
hwithl
eaderseat
s..
.mani twas
beauti
ful t
henwedrov
earoundwhiledadwas
teachi
ngmehowt odri
venwedidt hatforli
ke2
hoursni twasnow16h00
.
..
.
Me:
:dadwer
en'
tuwor
kingt
oday
Hi
m: :
iwasbutit
ookadayof
fbecausei
am t
ir
ed
..
.y
ourpart
ykeptmebusy
Me:
:
ohhhhoky
..
..
dadt
hnxf
ort
hecar
,il
ovei
t
Hi
m::
any
thi
ngf
orupr
incess
Me:
:
dad.
..
Hi
m::
huh.
..
Me:
:
isi
tmeort
hewhol
efami
l
yisact
ingf
unnyt
oday
Hi
m::
well
theyar
ebutdon'
tmi
ndt
hem t
hey
'l
lget
ov
eri
t.
.
Me:
:getov
erwhat
Hi
m::
don'
tmi
ndme
Me:
:
nodadt
ell
me
Hi
m::
sweet
yihav
eacal
ltomake
.
..
hesai
dthatgoi
ngawayf
rom me.
..
Mydadwashi
dingsomet
hingf
rom me
.
..
.
Whati
sit
?,
Ithenwenti
nsi
dethehousenwentt
othki
tchent
o
getmyselfani
cecream
Ni
foundMandyt
her
e
.
..
Me:
:
Mandyhowar
eu
Her:
:
iam good,
happybel
atedbi
rt
hday
..Lookwhat
I
'v
eboughtforu
shet
ookoutanchocol
ate
Me:
:
Thatsosweetofut
hankusomuch
Her
::
iknowi
t'
snotmuch.
..
.
Me:
:
ilov
eit
..
.t
hanku
Her
::
iam gladudo..
.iam sor
ryi
wasn'
tther
eatur
par
tytoday
,ihadt
owor k
Me:
:
itf
inei
under
stand
Her:
:nthepr
esenturf
atherboughtu,
thecari
t'
s
beaut
if
ulgi
rl
Me:
:
thanku

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thedaywentonnbef or
eiknewit.
..i
twas
over,
wokeupt henextdaybathed,
woremyboy fr
iend
j
ean,pi
tchcroptopnpitchVanssneakersthen
appli
edpinkli
psti
ckthenwentdownstair
st ohave
br
eakf
ast
..
.
.
..
If
eltl
ikrhavi
ngy oghur
tnfrui
tsaladsoi wenttoget
i
tfr
om t hefr
idgethenwenttothesitti
ngroom
whereifoundJaynBr i
tneyhavi
ngt hei
rbreakf
ast
.
..
.
Me:
:
mor
ningguy
s
Br
it
ney
::
heysi
s
Jay
::howar
eu
Me:
:
iam good.
..
wher
e'sdad
Jay
::
inhi
sroom wi
thmom,
y
Me:
:
ineedt
oaskhi
m somet
hing,
I'
ll
beback

i
saidthatgoingt
ohi sroom,iwantedtoknow
whathewashi di
ngfrom met heprevi
ousdayabout
thebehaviorofthefamilynasi wasabouttoknocki
heardthattheywerearguingaboutsomethingni
couldn'
thelpitbutt
ol i
stentowhattheywere
arguingabout
.
..
.
Li
nda::
Bri
anuni havefourkidsnt hey'
veall
tur
ned
16butnonofthem havereceivedacarasapr esent
butVanessadi
d,what'
ssoimpor tantabouther
Dad::
uarerytwehav efourkidsnnonoft hem gr
ew
upwithoutme,nonofthem hadt hei
rbirt
hdays
wit
houtmenextt othem nVanessa. .
.shehad15
bi
rt
hday swit
houtme. .
.shegrewupwi thoutmeni
am sti
ll
try
ingtocoveralltheti
mei l
ostwi t
hher
Li
nda:
:
bybuy
ingheracar
Dad::t
hatcardoesn'
tmeannot hi
ngmyown
daughtergrewupwi thoutmyl ovensuppor t..
.she
thoughtiwasdeadal lthesey earsuknow
why ,
becauseiwasn'ttheret obeaf at
hertoher .
..
but
iwast her
et obeafathert oChr i
stine,
Jaden,Jayn
Brit
ney..
.Whatmor ecoul dtheywant .
..
.st
opbei ng
j
ealousLindauareact inglikeat eenagerrightnow
Linda:
:i
am notact
inglikeat eenageriam justtr
y i
ng
tostandupformykids...
uknowt heyfeell
ikeul ove
Vanessamorethant hem becauseuboughthera
carathersweetsi
xteenbirthday...
theyfeellef
tout
Dad::
theydonotf eel
lef
tout
..
.t
heyar
ejustsel
fi
shas
thei
rmot hernxn
.
..
.
i
hear
dfoot
stepscomi
ngt
othedoor
Li
nda:
:
Bri
ani
am st
il
ltal
ki
ngt
ou
i di
dn'tmov efr
om thedoori j
ustfrozetryi
ngto
digestt hefactthatever
yonet hinksi am dad'
s
fav ourit
endadopenedt hedoorhewasshockedt o
seemet herenhenoticedthet earsthatwer eabout
tocomeoutofmyey eshej uststoodt here
speechl essbecauseheknewt hatI'
vehear d
ev erythi
ngi sai
dnothingijustheldbackt het ear
sby
blinkingtwiceni wenttothecarwhi chwasour
transpor ttoschoolnJaynBr i
tneyjoinedmenwe
wentt oschool

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kencomment Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t65
 sowear ri
vedatschool nigotoutoft hecar
wit
houtsayinganywor d.
..
..
iwasj ustdi
sappoint
ed
onthem ntheirmot herwhom iwasst ar
tingt
ol i
ke..
i
meanhowcant heybejeal
ousov erabir
thday
pr
esent.
..Dadhasdoneal otforthem al
readyn
wherewasi ?,
atS. Awithmymot hernast epf
ather
whom ihatedv erymuch

..
..
asiwasbusywal
ki
ngnt
hinki
ngi
pumpedt
o
someonenitwasTr
ey
Him:
:bunny
..
.ar
euokay
,ul
ookupset
..
.Whathav
ei
donenow
Me:
:
it'
snotu.
.r
elax
Hi
m::
areugonnal
etmeknowor
..
Me:
:
nahi
wil
lbef
ine,
idon'
twannat
alkabouti
t
Hi
m::
comeon
Me:
:
Treyi
tfami
l
ypr
obl
ems
Hi
m::
ohhh.
..
Me:
:
lookwe'
l
ltal
klat
er
isaidt
hatgoingawayf rom him.
..
i wasn'tina
moodt otal
ktoever y
onet hatmomentsoi went
str
aightt
oclassnt hatdayi didn'
thearat hing
comingoutf r
om thet eachersmout hiwasl osti
n
myownwor l
d..
.

Iwashurt
edbythefactt
hatmyfamil
ydidn'
tli
kei
t
whenmydaddoni cethi
ngsf
ormeev enaft
eri
spendi
ngthef
ir
st15Yearsofmyli
fe.
..
Iwassoi
rr
it
ated.
..
Lunchcamenpastnbef oreiev enknewi t,
i
twas
afterschool nguesswhat,ididn'tseeAnnat he
whol edayi keptonrunni
ngawayf rom them,hern
Trey. .
forsomer easonidi
dn'tunder st
and,ijust
want edtobeal one
.
..
Thecarcameni
wasonmywaybackhome
I
twasasil
entdr
ivenwearr
ivedigothomenmy
dadnLi
ndawerewatchi
ngTVsit
tingi
nopposi
te
couchesBr
it
neynJaywer
efol
l
owi
ngmef
rom
behi
nd
..
..
iwantedtotel
lLi
ndawhati
thoughtofher
..
.i
couldn'
titi
nanymore
Soi arr
ivedatt
heloungewheretheywere
sit
ti
ng,t
hrew mybagont hecouchnisatdown
waiti
ngfordadtosaysomethingsi
ncehelooked
l
ikehewant edt
osaysomet hi
ngbutLindadi
d
i
nstead

Her
::
thef
avour
it
eisback
Me::
callmeal luwantidon'tcar
e,justbecausemy
dadboughtmeacardoesn' tmeanhel ovesme
morethanhi skids..
.Uj
ustneedtounder st
andthat
he'
stryi
ngt omakeupf orthetimewel ostfort
he
pastfi
ft
eeny ears,t
othi
nkIwasst arti
ngt oli
keu..
.i
meani thoughtuwer eagrownup, butguesswhat ,
ur
acti
onsaremor el i
keahighschool gi
rlacti
ons
it
henstoodupnwentt
omyr
oom l
eav
ing
ev
eryonespeechl
ess
Li
kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
10]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t66

so3weekspastnt hi
ngsbetweenmenLinda
wereawkwardbutbetweenment her
estoft
he
f
ami l
ythi
ngsweresupercoolniwasnowdri
ving
myselfi
nmycar. .
.
Anastasi
aniwerest
il
lbecomingcl
oserncl
oser
ever
ydayandalsomenTr ey.
..
SoitwasSunday ,Iwassit
ti
ngbythepoolwit
h
Bri
tney
,Jaywasinhi sroom wi
thhi
sgir
lf
ri
end,Li
nda
wasout,idon'
tknowt owherenusual
l
ymydadwas
aswork
.
..
.
Sothet
imewas12:46naswewer echil
l
ingn
tal
ki
ngaboutr
andom st
uffmyguycal
l
ed
.
..
.
Hi
m::
myst
ar
Me:
:
hey
,whatup
Hi
m::
uhm canupl
easecomeov
er
Me:
:
uhhhol
..
rytokywi
l
lbet
her
e
Hi
m::
seeut
hen
.
.
i
hangedup
Br
it
ney
::bl
ahbl
ahbl
ahugot
tago
Me::iam sorr
ysi
sI'
l
lmakei
tupt
oysomeot
herday
r
ightnowi havet
ogo
Her
::
whatev
er
i
smi l
ednki ssedherchi ckthenwenttomyr oom,
iworemypi t
chshor tj
umpsui tnmybl acksandles
thenappliedapi nkli
psti
ckbyt heway,myhai rwas
nowl ong.
.wellnotthatlongitwasjustaroundmy
neckni twasasof tAfro..
.uknowi am acolouredn
i
tstil
lhadt hatpurplecolourattheendofit.
...
Wellonet
hingaboutmyhai
r,i
tgr
owsf
asti
don'
t
knowwhy
.
..
.
Wel
lit
iedmyhai
rint
oamessybunt
henwentt
othe
mi
rr
or.
..
Yohhguyst
heshoesiwasweari
ngdi
dn'
tmat
chwit
h
myoutfi
tnichangedt
heshoest
henwor
emypit
ch
Vans.
..
Nguesswhat,i
wasnowonf lamesthenihitt
edthe
r
oad,
justsoyouknow, i
waswalki
ngnotdr iv
ingwell
t
hewalktookme45mi nnfi
nal
lyiar
riv
ed..Iknocked
nKyl
er(Tr
ey'
stwin)openedt
hedoor
.
..
Her
::
hey
Me:
:
hey,
cani
comei
n
Her
::
ohhhy
es.
.howar
eyou
Me:
:
iam good,
u
Her
::
iam per
fect
..
.Ihav
en'
tseenuher
einawhi
l
e
now
Me:
:ohhhI
'
vebeenbusy
Her
::
ohhhoky
,ul
ookbeaut
if
ul.
..
especi
all
ywi
tha
l
onghair
Me:
:
thankuSweet
y,
uhhm wher
ecani
findTr
ey
Her
::
ohhhuhm he'
supst
air
sinhi
sroom
Me:
:
alr
ty.
..
seeul
atert
hen
isaidt
hatgoi
ngupstai
rsnifoundhim hal
fnaked
l
ayi
ngonhi sbedwithamessyhairnhewas
l
ist
eningtocont
rol
labyDrakehelookedcutenhe
wasbusywi t
hhisphone
.
..
.
Me:
:
myper
son
i
sai
dthatj
umpi
ngont
opofhi
m,mi
ndu.
..
hewas
f
aci
ngdown
Hi
m::
baby
..
.douknowhowheav
yuar
e
Me::
no.
..
idon'
tbecauseI
'
venev
ercar
ri
edmysel
f
bef
ore
wel
aughednweki
sses
Li
kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
10: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t67

soaf
terl
i
ke5mi
nipul
l
edoutoft
heki
ss
Hi
m::
imi
ssedu
Me:
:
imi
ssedut
oobaby
Hi
m::
buti
tfeel
sli
key
ou'
vebeeni
gnor
ingme
Me:
:
nobabyt
hatnott
rue
Hi
m::
hel
l
owehav
en'
ttal
kedf
orl
i
kef
ourday
s
Me:
:
udi
dn'
tcal
l
Hi
m: :
nwhydoi havetobetheoneal
wayscal
l
ing.
.I
am noti
nthi
srelat
ionshi
paloneual
way
shaveto
meetmehalfway
Me:
:
okay
,okay
..
..
babyi
am sor
ry.
.sososor
ryi
twi
l
l
nev
erhappennextt
ime
Him:
:okay
..
uar
efor
giv
en.
..
.babywhi
chdayi
sthi
s
day
Me:
:
uhm Sat
urday.
.3t
hofMar
ch
Hi
m::
ohhh
Me:
:
what
Hi
m::babyi
tour3mont
hsanni
ver
sar
y..
.You'
ve
f
orgott
en,r
yt
Me:
:
yeahni
am sor
ryf
ort
hat
Hi
m::
oky
hel
ookeddisappoi
ntednupsett
oot
houghhe
di
dn'
tadmiti
t
Me:
:
babyi
am sor
ry
Hi
m::
i
tfi
ne
hesai
dthatt
aki
nghi
slapt
opnopeni
ngi
t
Me:
:
babyi
am sosor
ry
Hi
m::
Vanessai
sai
ditf
ine
Me:
:
noi
tnot
..
..
icanseeunotf
ineatl
eastt
alkt
ome
Him:
:nsaywhatexactl
y,t
hatif
eelhappyuhad
negl
ect
edmef orthepast4daysniam proudthat
you'
vefor
got
tenouranniver
sar
y..
.Huh,i
sthatwhatu
wantmetoSay
.
..
ididn'
tknowhowt oanswerhi m soi t
urnedhi
m
makinghimf acethecei l
ingni gotont opofhimn
ki
ssedhi m...
.hedidn'tr
espondsoi batehislowerl
i
p
nher esponded..
..
ikissedhim slowlyforli
ke10mi n
nipulledouti t
henlookedathi mi ntheey es
.
..
Me::
iam sor
ryokay
,i
twi
l
lnev
erhappenagai
ni
pr
omise
Hi
m::
ilov
eu
Me:
:
ilov
eumor
e
.
..
Hi
m::
don'
tuwannawat
chamov
ie
Me:
:
canwewat
ch Twi
l
ightpl
ease
Hi
m::
uhmm noi
nfactani
deaj
ustcamet
omymi
nd
Me:
:
whati
sit
Him::wejustgonnaspendthedaytogetherwit
hout
watchinganymov i
e..
.t
akeoffyourshoestheyare
hurt
ingme
idi
dastol
dnheplay
edthesongLov
est oryby
Ri
hannaFtFut
urenwet
ookvedi
osnself
ies..
.
Wespentthedayplayi
ng,pil
lowf i
ghtnhi m car
ryi
ng
meonhi sbacknthesongjustsof t
enupt hemood
evenmore..
.mi
ndu,i
twaspl ayingrepeatedl
yhekept
onkissi
ngmenput ti
nglovebitesallovermy
neck,
fort
hefir
stt
imei f
eltl
ov ed,
specialnimportant
tosomeone...
Iwasinlov
ewit
hTr ey
..
.il
ovedhi
m al
ot,
hewast
he
ownerofmyheart
.
..
Hewast
hebl
essi
ngi
nmyl
i
fe

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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
10] Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t68

idon'
twannagiveut hewrongimpressi
on,
i
needlovenaf fect
ionnidon'twannasoundtoo
desperat
ei needlovenaffecti
on
.
..
.
Lov
est
orybyRi
hannaFtFut
ure
.
..
Treywassingingitf
ormeholdingatoot
hbr
ushas
ami cr
ophoneni wassit
ti
ngontopofthebed
watchinghi
mt hefeel
ingiwasfeel
ingwaspr
icel
ess
,i
keptonsmi l
i
ngnonst op..
.
.
..
Afterhefini
shedsi
ngi
ngthesongiwentt
ohughim
nhepi ckedmeupnkissedmesinceiwasshor
ter
thanhim
.
..
Weslowl
yki
ssedf
orl
ike12minormore,
wewere
pausi
ngnsmi
li
ngbet
weentheki
ssnistoppedwhen
i
felthi
shar
dd*ckonmystomachnil
aughedathi
m
..
.hi
seyeswer
ebloodyr
ednheputt
edmedown
I
rri
tat
edt
othef
actt
hati
wasl
aughi
ngathi
m so
har
d
.
..
Hi
m::wil
lust
opl
aughingnowpl
ease(
hesai
dthat
t
hrowinghi
msel
fonthebed)
Me:
:
babydouknowhowf
unnyul
ook
Hi
m::
nitbecauseofu.
..
.sost
opl
aughi
ng
ni
didastol
dbecausehel
ookedsoi
rr
it
atedt
hati
wasl
aughi
ngathi
m
.
.
Me:
:
okywhatcani
dot
ohel
p
Him::
areur
eal
l
ywai
ti
ngf
orananswert
othat
quest
ion
ilookedathi
m nwebothl
aughedbecausehehad
naughtyeyesnicoul
dseewhathewasthinki
ng
.
..
Me:
:
mmm.
..
howabouthav
ingi
cecr
eam
Hi
m::
thatt
hedumbesti
deaI
'
vehear
dal
lday.
..
i
laughed
Hi
m::
stopl
aughi
ngncomeher
e
i
wenttohim ni gotontopofhim. .
..
hewas
f
aci
ngdownnhet ookthelaptopnwewat cheda
movi
eti
tl
ed'ever
ythingeveryt
hing'
itactual
lyagood
movi
etowatchnwewat cheditinthatposit
ion.
..
Af
terawhi
l
emyphoner
angni
twokemeup.
..
F*
ckwefel
lasleep,
bot
hofusi
answer
edmyphone
i
nasl
eepyvoice
.
..

Me:
:
hel
l
o
Per
son:
:Vanessawher
ethef
uckar
eyou
*
itwasdad*
Me:
:
ii
..
uhm i
am ataf
ri
end'
shouse
Dad:
:
whi
chf
ri
endbecauseAnast
asi
awasher
e
l
ooki
ngf
oruasecondago.
..
Me:
:
act
ual
l
yiam atanot
herFr
iend'
shousedad
Dad:
:
att
hist
ime
i
lookedatt
het
imeandi
twas19h35sh*
t
Dad:
:
geturl
i
ttl
elegsi
nthi
shousenow
.
.
hehangedupf
*ck.
..
Iwokeup,
wor
emyshoesnTr
eywokeup
Hi
m::
starwhatt
imei
sit
Me::19h35ni
am st
il
lher
egett
hef
uckupn
accompanymehome
hegotup,
wor
eat -
shir
tsnshoessi
ncehewas
hal
fnakednwehit
tedtheroadiwassoscar
ed

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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
10]: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t69

aswewerewalki
nginsi
l
ent,Tr
eyni.
..
acar
showedupnitst
oppedinf
rontofusnmydadgot
out.
..
Ij
ustfroze,iwasshocked. .
.ididn'tknowwhatt odo
orsayhesl owlyapproachedourdi recti
onnTrey
sl
owlywentbacki nrever
seni heldhishand
st
oppinghi m ndadwentt ostandi nf r
ontofhimthat
momentmyhear twasaboutt ocomeoutofmy
mouth. .
.iwasshaking...
.dadl ookedathi mfora
whil
ent henher oughlyheldmyhandnhedr agged
met othecarwi t
houtsay i
ngany thingnthenhe
cl
osedt hecardoorf rom mysi denhedr oveoff
...
Ididn'
tdowhattodoorsaybecausemydad'sface
wasemot i
onlessitwashar
dformet oseeweather
hewasangr yatmeorwhatnbeforei knewi
twe
wer ehomehegotoutofthecarnifoll
owedhimlike
alostpuppywithshaki
ngknees.
..
Wegoti
nsi
det
hehouse
.
..
Dad:
:
tomyr
oom
idi
dast old..
.iwenttohi
sroom nmindutear
s
wer enowmaki ngt hei
rwayoutnwegotint
ohis
room nhel ocked..
.isweari
thoughti
wasgonnaget
kil
ledthatnight.
..
Iwasnowstandi
ngnextt
ohi
sbednhecamen
st
oodinf
rontofme
.
..
.
Hi
m::
whyar
eucr
yingVanessa
Me:
:
...
.
Hi
m::
who'
sthatboy
Me:
:
uhhh.
..
it
's.
..I
t'
sTr
eyBol
ton
Hi
m::
i
shet
he"
fri
end"
uwer
etel
l
ingmeabout
Me:
:
no(
isai
dthatwi
thashaki
ngv
oice)
Hi
m::
thenwhat
'
sthebusi
nessbet
weent
het
woofu
Me:
:
he'
smyboy
fri
end
Hi
m::
i
shet
heoneuwer
edanci
ngwi
thony
our
bi
rt
hday
Me:
:
yeah.
..
Hi
m::
hei
surboy
fri
endf
orhowl
ong
Me:
:3mont
hs
Him:
:Vanessaforthr
eemont
hsnuar
eal
ready
havi
ngsexwithhim
Me:
:
dad.
..
nowehav
en'
tdoneany
thi
ngy
et
Dad::
ohhsot hesel
ovebi
tesar
oundy
ourneckar
e
decorat
ions
.
..
irememberedthatTreywasbusymaki ngmel ove
bitesalldaynmydadsawt hem nhet houghtthat
wewer ehavi
ngsexwher easwewewer en'tbuti
didn'tknowhowt oexpl
ainthistodadi meant he
situati
onwasalreadyandawkwar d.
..Imeanhowdo
uexpl ai
nwhatuwer edoingwi t
hyourboy fri
endto
yourdad
.
..
Dad:
:
ohhhsonowy
ou'
vegotnot
hingt
osay
Me:
:
iam sor
rydad
Dad:
:ar
eusorryf
ormaki
ngmewor ry
ingov
eruwhil
e
uwerehavi
ngtheti
meofyourl
if
eorareusorr
yfor
havi
ngsexwit
haboyuonlyknewfor3months
Me:
:
iam sor
ryf
orev
ery
thi
ng
canuimagi
neiwasevenapol
ogi
si
ngf
orhav
ing
sexevent
houghi
didn'
thavei
t
Dad::
Vanessaidon'tmi
ndudati
ngbutcominghome
aft
er18h00..
.t
hat'
sgonnagiv
eusaproblem .
..
make
surei
tneverhappensagai
n
Me:
:
itwon'
t.
.Ipr
omi
se
Dad:
:
nowst
opcr
ying
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nser
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Me:
:
sounotgoi
ngt
obeatme
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
wellsweet
hearti
am notgonnadot
hat
(hesai
d
t
hatwi
pingmytearswithhi
shands)
Me:
:
uthebest
(isai
dthathuggi
nghi
m)
Hi
m::
il
oveupr
incess
Me:
:
lov
eut
oodaddy
Him::
thatboybet
termakesurehedoesn'
tbr
eakur
hear
tbecauseifhedoes,
he'
ll
regr
etthedayhewas
born
i
laughed
Hi
m::
iam ser
ious.
.hemustmar
ryu
i
laughedev
enmor
e
Me::
dadiam si
xteenny
ou'
real
readyt
ell
i
ngme
aboutmarr
iage
webot
hlaughed
Hi
m: :
itj
ustt
hatyou'
vebeenthr
oughalotal
readymy
pr
incessaheartbr
eakisthel
astt
hinguneed
Me:
:
dadr
elax
...
.Sof
arhe'
smyhappi
ness
Hi
m::
ij
usthopei
tst
ayst
hatway.
..
nowgohav
e
di
nner
.
..
idi
dastol
dni at
ealonebecausei
tlookedli
ke
ever
yonewasal
readyasl
eep,f
ini
shedni wenttol
ala
l
and

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kencomment
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16:
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arykaAmo

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nser
t71

wokeupthenextmorning,bathed.
,woremyjean
dresswithmuhSandlesthewentt othedini
ngroom
nthewhol efam wast
hereincludingdad,
itwas
Saturdayphelo
.
..
Me:
:
mor
ning
Them:
:
hey
 i
tookaseatndishedf
ormyself.
..
wewerehav
ing
toastedbr
ead,
cheese,
pal
onynbaconsoibegant
o
ate
.
..
.
Dad:
:
Vanessay
ourSt
epf
athercal
l
ed.
..
istoppedeat
ingnlookedathi
m wai
ti
ngt
o
conti
nuewithwhathewassay i
ng
.
.
Me:
:
Mike?
Dad:
:
yeah
Jay
::
uhav
east
epf
ather?
Me::
yeahhe'smylatemot
her
'shusbandnt
hef
ather
ofmyy oungersi
bli
ngs
Dad:
:wel
lhecal
ledsayi
ngyoursi
bli
ngswantt
otal
k
touappar
entl
yuwer est
il
lasl
eep
Li
nda:
:
idi
dn'
tknowuhav
eyoungersi
bli
ngsV
Me:
:wel
li
t'
saboynagi
rl
..
boy13,
gir
l7.
..
.dadydi
dn'
t
uwakemeup
Dad:
:uweresl
eepi
ngpeacef
uli
didn'
twanna
i
nter
ruptu
Me::
dadnextti
meeveni
fiam onapl
ane,
whenmy
si
bli
ngscal
l..
.ugi
vemethephone
Dad:
:
ok.
.y.
..
areuokay
Me:
:yeahi
am f
ine.
..
inf
actl
etmecal
lthem back
Now
i
saidthatt aki
ngmyphone, iwasalilupsetthat
myf atherdidn'tgi
vemet hephone..
imeani can
stopwhatev eriam doi
ngjustt
ohearOmphi l
en
Sbulelo'
svoicei don'
teverwantthem t
ot hi
nkI've
neglectedthem. .
.
Soiwentt
otheki
tchenncal
l
edt
hem nMi
ke
answer
ed
.
..
Hi
m::
Amogel
ang
Me:
:hey
..
.Mi
keunj
ani
Hi
m::
ngy
aphi
l
a..
.u
Me:
:
same,
dadt
oldmeucal
l
edear
li
er
Hi
m::y
eahOmphilenSbulelowantedtotal
kto
u.
..
unf
ort
unat
elytheyar
enol ongerwit
hmet hey
wentt
othemallwithLi
ndiwe(t
hatMike'
ssist
er)
Me:
:
ohhhoky
..
.ngcel
aungf
onel
emababuy
a
Mi
ke:
:
oky
.
..
ihangedupnideci
dedtocall
Mbali,
imeani
t
bei
ngal ongt
imesi
nceI'
vetal
kedtoher
..
.
Herphoner
angnaf
tersomet
imesheanswer
ed
.
..
.
Her
::
yohhhgi
rlngy
afakenamhl
akwaf
onawena
ii
mmedi
atel
ysmi
led.
..
imeanhear
ingherv
oice
j
ustwar
mednyhear
t
Me:
:
ngazophaphadodi
Her
::
unj
ani
maarachuzwami
Me:
:
iam f
ine,
u
Her
::
iam goodcakes.
..
imi
cut
hough
Me:
:
iknowbabes,
imi
cumor
e
Her
::
how'
sli
fet
hough
Me:
:
per
fect
..
.Nwenahow'
sgr
ade11t
reat
ingu
Her:
:uhhhgi
rli
tjustf
ine.
..
.i
t'
snott
hesamewi
thout
uthough
Me::
iknow.
..
.sowhoar
eushar
ingadeskwi
tht
his
year
Her
::
Tsepocabanga
il
aughedwel
lTsepohasbeenaski
ngMbaliout
si
ncewewereingrade8nMbalihasbeenr
eject
ing
hi
m
Me:
:
soar
euguy
sani
tem now
Her:
:
aii
ibogir
l..
.uyazi
zwauthin,
minanoTsepo
wuuuhgir
lnever
...BeseushonaphiuMandl
awam
Me:
:
(il
aughed)ai
i
imaarwena.
..
Her
::
ser
ious
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arykaAmo

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Me:
:
sowhyar
eushar
ingadeskwi
thhi
m
Mbali
:
:becausegir
lnguyeyedwaonconoeclassi
n
,i
maginemesi t
ti
ngwiththeothermoronsnj
ewuuu
gi
rl
,mustnever
i
laughedevenhar
dimagini
nghersayi
ngher
"
mustnev er
"O.M.
Gshelovessay
ingthat
.
..
.
Soweconti
nuedt
alki
ngunt
ili
wasoutofai
rt
imen
dadwal
kedin
.
..
.
Dad:
:getr
eadyallofusar
egoi
ngoutni
am not
aski
ngui am t
ell
i
ngu
.
..
ithenwenttomyroom,idi
dn'
tchangemyoutf i
ti
j
ustappli
edmyblackli
psti
ckwhichmat chedmy
sandlesnit
iedmyhairt
woneatbunt heni appl
i
eda
l
ilbi
tofmakeupni wasreadytogo
.
..
Wel
lwewentt
othefamil
ycarnwet
ookof
f.
..
mindu
,menLi
ndaweref
ineagai
n
.
..
onourwayther
eil
oggedi
ntomyWhat
sAppn
t
alkedt
oTrey
(
What
sAppconv
os)
.
..
Hi
m::
soi
guessy
ourf
atherdi
dn'
tki
l
lul
astni
ght
ir
emember
edl
astni
ght
'ssagani
begant
olaugh
si
l
entl
y
Me:
:
noi
am al
i
ve
Hi
m::
thatagoodt
hing.
..
.buti
near
lydi
edl
astni
ght
Me:
:ar
euki ddi
ng,mydaddidn'
teventouchubutu
wer
ealreadyknocki
ngatheaven'
sdoor
Him::
starpl
easedon'
tmakef
unoft
his,
sodi
dhe
beatuorsomething
Me::
nohedidn'
t,
hewasj
ustwor
ri
edaboutmenot
bei
ngathomelate
Hi
m::
ohhh.
..
uknowi
micu,
feel
sli
kei
hav
en'
tseenu
i
nages
Me:
:
rel
axbbeI
'
llseey
oumor
row
.
..
wecontinuedchar
ti
ngunt
ilmyf
am ni
reached
ourdest
inati
onnwebeganourday

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kencomment Di
arykaAmo

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nser
t73

thefoll
owingmor ningiwokeupshower ed,wore
myAdi dasgreytracksui
tsi
nceitwascol dnthenmy
Nikeblacksneakerstiedmyhairintoaneatbunt hen
appli
edmypi nkl i
psti
ckiwaslookingbeauti
ful,
exceptthefactthatmyhairwasst i
llpur
pleatthe
endofitmani neededtochangeitASAP
.
..
Wentdownstai
rsf
orl
unchnt
hef
am wasal
ready
t
herei
ncludi
ngdad
Me:
:
hey
Li
nda:
:
mor
ningsweet
y..
.
Dad:
:
Chr
ist
inenJadencal
l
ed
Me:
:
ohh.
..
howar
ethey
Jay
::
ihav
en'
ttal
kedt
othem si
ncet
heyl
eft
Br
it
ney
::met
oo
Dad:
:
well
theyar
efi
nent
heysai
dishoul
dpasst
hei
r
l
ovetouguys
Li
nda:
:
imi
sst
hem somuch
Me:
:
met
oo
Dad::
okayf
ini
shupeat
ingI
'
llbedr
ivi
nguguy
sto
schoolt
oday
Li
nda:
:
nI'
l
lbeaccompany
inguguy
s
Me:
:
luckyus
Jay
::
whatar
ewai
ti
ngf
orl
et'
sgoal
ready
weallwentt
othecarl
eav
ingthemaidcl
eani
ng
upthetabl
endaddroveust
oschoolhavi
ngnor
mal
convosher
entherenwearr
ived,
wesai
dourgood
byeswegotofft
hecarnitt
ookof
fnmysi
bli
ngsni
wentdif
fer
entdi
rect
ionsni
bumpedt
omydearest
fr
iend
.
..
Anast
asi
a::
mybi
*ch
Me:
:myf
ri
end
Her
::
wher
ehav
eubeenI
'
vebeenmi
ssi
ngu
Me:
:
I'
vebeenar
ound
Her
::
wel
ltheni
t'
sagoodt
hingt
hatt
odayi
t'
sgame
day
Me:
:
gameday
Her
::
yeah,wewil
lbenotl
earni
ngbutoutschool
t
eam wil
lbecompeti
ngwithothert
eam
Me:
:
basket
bal
lteam?
Her
::
yeah
Me:
:
nhowdouknowt
hat
Her
::i
am t
hepr
e-pr
esi
dentoft
heschool
remember
Me:
:ohh
Her:
:
nsinceitgamedaywe'
llspendthedayt
oget
her
,
notwat
chingthegamebutbycharti
ng
Me:
:
areucrazy
,uknowthatev
ery
onei
sneededt
o
t
heschool
hall
towatcht
hegame
Her:
:comeonwe'
l
lgot
othedet
ent
ionr
ooms,
noone
wil
lseeust
her
e
Me::
nifMrsBr
anagai
n(pr
inci
pal
)cat
chesuswe'
l
lbe
deadAnast
asi
a
Her
::
wewon'
tgetcaughtr
elaxokay
..
..
let
'sgonow
.
..
if
ollowedherknowi
ngthatwhatweweredoi
ng
wasagainstt
heschooll
aw'sbutl
aw'sar
emeantto
bebrokenmoc?,
.
..
Wearri
vedt
othedet
ent
ionr
ooms,
goti
nsi
den
l
ocked
.
..
.
Me:
:
I'
ll
kil
lui
fwegetcaught
Her
::
wewon'
trel
axVwi
l
lu?
Me:
:
okyoky
Her
::
sowhenl
astdi
duspendt
imewi
thTr
ey
Me:
:
Sundayonour3mont
hanni
ver
sar
y
shesmi
l
ed
Her
::
wher
e
Me:
:
hisr
oom
Her
::
anddi
duguy
sdi
dit
(shesai
dthatsmi
l
ing)
Me:
:
didwhat
Her
::
comeonVuknowwhati
am t
alki
ngabout
Me:
:
unf
ort
unat
elyi
am l
ost
Her
::di
duguy
shadsexornot
Me:
:
uhuhwedi
dn'
t
Her
::
soust
il
lav
irgi
n
Me:
:
no
Her
::
butut
oldmeTr
eyhav
en'
tfuckeduy
et
Me:
:
yeah
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16:
1: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t73

thefoll
owingmor ningiwokeupshower ed,wore
myAdi dasgreytracksui
tsi
nceitwascol dnthenmy
Nikeblacksneakerstiedmyhairintoaneatbunt hen
appli
edmypi nkl i
psti
ckiwaslookingbeauti
ful,
exceptthefactthatmyhairwasst i
llpur
pleatthe
endofitmani neededtochangeitASAP
.
..
Wentdownstai
rsf
orl
unchnt
hef
am wasal
ready
t
herei
ncludi
ngdad
Me:
:
hey
Li
nda:
:
mor
ningsweet
y..
.
Dad:
:
Chr
ist
inenJadencal
l
ed
Me:
:
ohh.
..
howar
ethey
Jay
::
ihav
en'
ttal
kedt
othem si
ncet
heyl
eft
Br
it
ney
::met
oo
Dad:
:
well
theyar
efi
nent
heysai
dishoul
dpasst
hei
r
l
ovetouguys
Li
nda:
:
imi
sst
hem somuch
Me:
:
met
oo
Dad::
okayf
ini
shupeat
ingI
'
llbedr
ivi
nguguy
sto
schoolt
oday
Li
nda:
:
nI'
l
lbeaccompany
inguguy
s
Me:
:
luckyus
Jay
::
whatar
ewai
ti
ngf
orl
et'
sgoal
ready
weallwenttothecarl
eavi
ngthemaidcleaning
upt hetabl
endaddr oveustoschool
havi
ngnor mal
conv osher
ent herenwearri
ved,
wesaidourgood
byeswegotof fthecarnitt
ookoffnmysiblingsni
wentdi f
fer
entdir
ecti
onsnibumpedtomydear est
fr
iend
.
..
Anast
asi
a::
mybi
*ch
Me:
:myf
ri
end
Her
::
wher
ehav
eubeenI
'
vebeenmi
ssi
ngu
Me:
:
I'
vebeenar
ound
Her
::
wel
ltheni
t'
sagoodt
hingt
hatt
odayi
t'
sgame
day
Me:
:
gameday
Her
::
yeah,wewil
lbenotl
earni
ngbutoutschool
t
eam wil
lbecompeti
ngwithothert
eam
Me:
:
basket
bal
lteam?
Her
::
yeah
Me:
:
nhowdouknowt
hat
Her
::i
am t
hepr
e-pr
esi
dentoft
heschool
remember
Me:
:ohh
Her:
:
nsinceitgamedaywe'
llspendthedayt
oget
her
,
notwat
chingthegamebutbycharti
ng
Me:
:
areucrazy
,uknowthatev
ery
onei
sneededt
o
t
heschool
hall
towatcht
hegame
Her:
:comeonwe'
l
lgot
othedet
ent
ionr
ooms,
noone
wil
lseeust
her
e
Me:
:
nifMr
sBr
anagai
n(pr
inci
pal
)cat
chesuswe'
l
lbe
deadAnast
asi
a
Her
::
wewon'
tgetcaughtr
elaxokay
..
..
let
'sgonow
.
..
if
ollowedherknowi
ngthatwhatweweredoi
ng
wasagainstt
heschooll
aw'sbutl
aw'sar
emeantto
bebrokenmoc?,
.
..
Wearri
vedt
othedet
ent
ionr
ooms,
goti
nsi
den
l
ocked
.
..
.
Me:
:
I'
ll
kil
lui
fwegetcaught
Her
::
wewon'
trel
axVwi
l
lu?
Me:
:
okyoky
Her
::
sowhenl
astdi
duspendt
imewi
thTr
ey
Me:
:
Sundayonour3mont
hanni
ver
sar
y
shesmi
l
ed
Her
::
wher
e
Me:
:
hisr
oom
Her
::
anddi
duguy
sdi
dit
(shesai
dthatsmi
l
ing)
Me:
:
didwhat
Her
::
comeonVuknowwhati
am t
alki
ngabout
Me:
:
unf
ort
unat
elyi
am l
ost
Her
::di
duguy
shadsexornot
Me:
:
uhuhwedi
dn'
t
Her
::
soust
il
lav
irgi
n
Me:
:
no
Her
::
butut
oldmeTr
eyhav
en'
tfuckeduy
et
Me:
:
yeah
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arykaAmo

Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t73

Her
::sowhof
uckedut
hen
Me::
Ihav
eanexuknow,
butwhoonl
yfuckedme
once
Her:
:gi
rlr
eal
l
y,t
hatmeansudon'
tknowany
thi
ng
aboutsex
Me:
:ni
am f
inewi
tht
hat
Her
::gi
rlonet
hingumustknow,
sexi
samazi
ng
Me:
:
euwwww.
..
Anast
asi
auar
esocor
rupt
Her
::
uhuhbabybooi
ain'
tcor
rupti
am st
ati
ngf
act
her
e..
.
Me:
:
ohhh
Her:
:y
eahgirl
,
especi
all
yinacar,
couchnev
eni
nthe
shower.
..
.O.
M.Ggirl
uhavenoidea
Me:
:
b*t
chcanwest
opt
alki
ngaboutt
hisnonsense
shelaughednst
optal
kingnwetal
kedabouther
boy
fri
endStevewhoihav
en'tmety
et

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kencomment
[
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t74
 soaswewerechar t
ingsomeonetr
iedtoopenthe
doornf
oundoutitwasl ockedt
henst
artedknocki
ng
myheartwasabouttocomeoutofmymout hiwas
scar
ed,
whocoulditbe.
..
Anna:
:
whoseknocki
ng(
sheaskedi
nawhi
sper
ing
voi
ce)
Me::
areucr
azy,
howdouexpectmetoknowwho'
s
knocki
ngwhi
leiam i
nsi
deher
ewit
hu..
..
shedidn'tanswermeshej ustwenttoopenthe
doornitwasMr sBranagai
n(thepri
nci
pal)
..
.Iwas
shockedijustfroze,
howdidshef oundoutaboutus
bei
nghere
.
..
MrsB: :
ParkernCollucyuknowv erywel l
thatyoual
l
l
ear nerswer esupposetobeatt heschool hal
lbutu
decidedt obreaktheschool r
ules..
.anduCol l
ucyu
aret heschool'
spre-presidentushoul dn'
tbe
i
nv olvedinsuchmanner s..
.
Anna:
:
iknowAndi
am sor
ryMr
sB
Mr
sB:
:
fol
l
owmet
omyof
fi
ce,
thebot
hofu
.
.
welookedateachotherndidasweweret ol
dthat
momenti wishedi
didn'
tli
stentoAnast
asi
a,butidi
d
any
wayni wasnowfoll
owingthepri
nci
palj
ust
i
magine
,
wearr
ivedattheoffi
cenMr
sBst
oodi
nfr
ontofus
wi
thastrai
ghtface
.
..
.
MrsB::
Par
kershoul
dical
lurf
athernl
ethi
m know
abouty
ouract
ions?
Me::
nonoMrsBpl
easedon'
t,idon'
twantmyf
ather
st
ressi
ngov
ermyst
upiddeci
si
ons
Mr
sB:
:
whatdousuggestwedot
henhuh.
..
Me:
:
...
.
Mr
sB:
:
anduCol
l
ucy
,shoul
dical
lurmot
her
?
Anna:
:
no
MrsB:
:mmm okyt
henthetwoofuwillbecl
eani
ng
t
hedet
ent
ionr
oomsforthenext2weeksnuwi l
lbe
havi
ngurlunchatdet
ent
ionnCol
l
ucyi
am v
ery
di
sappoi
ntedinu
Anna:
:sosor
ryMr
sB
Mr
sB:
:
getoutofmyof
fi
ce
.
..
wedidastol
d,iwasveryangryatAnast
asi
afor
maki
ngmebr eaktheschoollaw,
nowwegonna
cl
eanthedet
enti
onroomst hatar
edustynsmell
yn
ev
eneatther
e..
.
Guysthedetenti
onis,
att
hebasementsowe'
l
lev
en
hearpeopl
eflushi
ngthetoi
l
et

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kencomment
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t75

wel
lthegamewasal
readyov
ersoappar
ent
ly
Bri
tneynJayhadal r
eadyleftwhichmeanti hadto
walkforanhourfrom schooltohomeni twas
Anastasia'
sfaul
tmxmt hisgir
lthoughsoi saidmy
goodby estohernasi wasaboutgoTr eyshowed
upfrom nowherenhehuggedmef r
om behind
.
..
.
Hi
m::
babyboo
Me:
:
myper
son
helaughedatwhatiwassayingbecausehefinds
i
tcrazythatical
lhi
m mypersonwhathedoesn't
knowisthatwhereicomefr
om i tmakessense
.
..
Hi
m::
idi
dn'
tseeuwat
chi
ngmepl
ayi
ngbasket
bal
l
Me::i
wasatthedet
ent
ionni
wil
lbet
her
efort
he
nexttwoweeks
Hi
m::
why
Me:
:Anast
asi
a
Him:
:
wel
li
fshe'
sinv
olv
edi don'
twanttoknowthat
onei
sat
roubl
emaker,souarewalki
ngtoday
Me:
:
it'
snotl
i
kei
hav
eachoi
ce
Hi
m::
wel
lthenl
et'
sgo
sohewaswal
ki
ngwi
thme
.
..
Hi
m::
star
Me:
:
yes
Hi
m::
ydoucal
lurmot
herwi
thhername,
Linda
well
guysTreydoesn'
tknowathi
ngaboutmen
myf
amilyniguessi
twastimeit
oldhi
m
.
..
Me:
:
wel
lbabyshe'
snotmymom
Hi
m::
she'
sur
?
Me:
:
stepmom
Hi
m::
sot
hatmeansJaynBr
it
neyar
eurhal
fsi
bli
ngs
Me:
:
yeah
Hi
m::
nwher
e'surr
eal
mom
Me:
:
shedi
edl
asty
ear
,pl
anecr
ash.
..
shewascomi
ng
f
rom anot
hercount
ry,
shewasaser
geantnshehad
asur
gerytoperf
om
Hi
m::
wasshebl
ackAmer
ican
Me:
:
shewasf
rom Af
ri
cababy
,why
Him:
:icantel
lshewasn'
twhi
tebyurhai
rnt
he
col
ourofyourski
n,
souarefr
om Afr
ica
Me::
SouthAf
ri
ca,
icamethi
ssi
deaf
terherf
uner
alt
o
l
iv
ewi t
hmydad'sfami
l
y
Hi
m::
iam sosor
ryf
ory
ourl
ossmyst
ar
Me:
;
I'
vemadepeacewi
thi
t
i
conti
nuedtel
l
inghim ev
ery
thi
ngaboutme,
not
l
eavi
nganythi
ngout.
..
It
rust
edhimthatmuch,hewasnowaf
ri
end,
l
overn
abrot
her
,yept
hatwhathewas
.
..
.
Iwascr
azyi
nlov
ewi
thhi
m..
..
Ni
wasn'
tpr
epar
edt
olosehi
m
Hewast
her
easonf
ormysmi
l
e
.
..
Itcr
azyi
wasalr
eadyf
eel
ingthatwayabout
someoneatt
heageof16yearsol
d

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kencomment
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16:
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t76

so4housesbef
orehomeTr
eyni
stopped
.
..
.
Tr
ey:
:
ibet
tergobackbef
oreurdadseesme
Me:
:
he'
spr
obabl
yatwor
k
Hi
m::
okayt
hen
hesai
dthathol
dingmyneckwi
thbot
hhi
s
ar
ms
Hi
m::
il
oveuVanessa
Me:
:il
oveut
oo
ashewasaboutt
osaysomet
hingi
trai
nedhar
d

Me:
:
lookI
'
llseeut
omor
rowokay
Hi
m::
nouai
n'
tgoi
ngany
wher
e
Me::
ohhsouwantust
ost
andher
eunt
ilwecat
cha
col
d?
Hi
m::no,
stari
wantust
ost
andher
eunt
ili
tst
ops
r
aini
ng
Me:
W.T.
FTr
eyBol
tonar
eucr
azy
??
Hi
m::
yes,
nuar
ether
easoni
am
hesaidthatpull
ingnecl osertohi m,hi
shands
wereonmywai stnmywer ear oundhi sneckhethen
pi
ckedmeup, mylegswer enowar oundhis
waist,
myhandswer esti
llaroundhi sneck,buthi
s
werenowonmyA* sneachmi nutetherainwas
get
tingst
rongernst ronger
.
..
.
Unexpect
edl
yhesmashedhi
scol
d,t
inysof
tli
psi
nto
mi
neni
qui
ckl
yresponded.
.
Mybloodwasr unningaroundmybody ,
myheart
wasskippi
ngnmybodyf eltweak..
hesl
owlyki
ssed
mewhi l
esqueezingmya* stherai
nmadethe
si
tuat
ionevenmor eromantic,
lol
..
.
Thefeeli
ngihadwasn'
tnor
mal ,
i
twasst
rangebut
goodatthesameti
me,hestoppednl
ookedatmein
theeyesthehesmil
ednhekissedmeagain
.
..
..
Whatthi
sboywasdoi
ngtomewasunfairbecause
t
hemindwantedtost
oppedbutt
hebodywanted
moreofwhathewasdoi
ng
.
..
.
Het
henput
(ted)medown
.
..
Hi
m::
starurbooksar
eget
ti
ngwet
hesaidthatl
ookingdown,
guesswhatmybooks
f
ellnididn'
tnot
icef*ckal
lmynotesarether
enhe
waslaughingwhil
eIwastryi
ngtopickthem upbut
t
hepageskeptont
ear
ingapar
tbecauset
heywer
e
t
oowet
.
..
Hi
m::
l
eav
ethem al
onest
ar
Me:
:
O.M.
Giam dead
Him::
rel
axbbeI'
l
lcopythenotesf
rom Kyl
e(hi
stwin
si
ster
)si
nceshe'
sdoingthesamesubject
suar e
doi
ng
Me:
:okayt
hen(
isai
dthatst
andi
ngup)
minduitwassti
ll
rai
ningbutnotstr
ongasi
twas
hehuggedmetightnki
ssedmyf orehead
Hi
m::
igot
tago
Me:
:
okyby
e

it
henwenthomei wasf*ckenwetal l
becauseof
Treyni wasfeeli
ngcoldsoi wentstraighttomy
room upstai
rs,t
ookoffthosetracksuitnunt i
edmy
hairiwenttothebathnhadawar m bubbl ybat
h,i
t
fel
tsogoodnast hewaterwasst art
ingt obecold,
i
gotout
,l
oti
onednwor
emywar
m P.
j'
sthengotunder
thebl
anki
es..
.
Loggedi
nonmyWhat
sApp

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kencomment
[
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16:
12]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t77

soaft
erawhil
eihear
dahandsoftl
yshaki
ngmei
sl
owlyopenedmyeyes,
imusthav
efal
lenasl
eep.
..
I
twasdadnasi
wasaboutt
osaysomet
hingt
ohi
m
i
sneezed
Hi
m::
areuokaymypr
incess
Me:
:
iam f
inedad,
iguessi
cat
chedaf
lu
Hi
m::
wher
e
Me:
:
ont
her
ain
Him::
how,
imeanwhatwer
eudoingont her
ain
becauseuar
ebei
ngfet
chedf
rom school
Me:
:ohhhi
wascomi
ngf
rom Anast
asi
a'
shouse
Hi
m::
y
Me:
:
dadwhatwi
tht
he21quest
ions,
Hi
m::
iam j
ustwor
ri
edaboutut
hatal
l
Me::
ther
e'snoneedt
oworryaboutme,i
am f
ine
dad.
..
nowwhathasboughtutomyr oom
Hi
m::
ohhhhuhm di
nneri
sready
Me:
:
dinner
??
Hi
m::
yeahdi
nner
Me:
:
whatt
imei
sit
Hi
m::
20:
00
Me:
:W.
T.Fdadi
wassupposet
obest
udy
ingi
hav
ea
t
estmor
row

.
..
.
i
qui
ckl
ywentt
othesi
tt
ingr
oom wi
thdad
fol
l
owingmef rom behindlaughingit
ookmypl at
en
wentupstai
rstomyr oom withoutsayi
nganythi
ngto
anyone..
..
igoogledt
hei nf
oi neededbecausemy
booksweretearedapartbyther ai
n,
istudi
edwhil
e
eat
ingforli
ke2hours
Niwassoexhaustedaft
ert
hatsoiwentt
othe
bat
hroom,
bathed,
woremyp.j
'snt
iedmyhairt
hen
wentdownst
airswi
ththepl
ate
Si
ncei
tneededt
obewashed
Li
nda:
:
uknowt
odayy
ou'
vebeenscar
cet
hewhol
e
day
Me::
ohhhi
am sor
ryf
ort
hat
,ihadsomest
ufft
otake
car
eof
Li
nda::
okaythen,
tomor
rowpleasequickl
ycome
back,
iwantustohaveanicecream j
ustme,un
Bri
tney
Me:
:
alr
ightt
hengoodni
ght
Her
::
nightsweet
y
.
..
 iwenttothekitchenni
foundMandyther
e,iwas
dosurpri
seditbeenawhil
enotseei
ngheraround
thehouse
.
.
Me:
:
heyst
ranger
Her
::
Vanessa,
howar
eu
Me:
:
iam good,
u
Her
::
met
oo
Me:
:
ihav
en'
tseenui
nawhi
l
e
Her
::
ohhhthatbecauseiam nowatt
endi
ngacoll
ege
soiam al
waysbusywi t
hschoolwor
ksoi onl
ycome
her
eonmyspar etime..
.
Me:
:
wowgi
rli
am sohappyf
oru
Her:
'
thanku,
uknowaf
terawhi
l
einmyl
i
fei
feel
ali
ve
agai
n
shesai
dthatsmi
l
ing
Me:
:
ncoahmany
ou'
reev
engl
owi
ng,
iam sohappy
f
oru
Her
::
thankubutuknowwhat
Me:
:
what
Her
::
I'
vebeenmi
ssi
ngub*
tch
i
justl
aughednwenttohugher
,seei
ngherhappy
mel
tedmyheart,
thi
sgir
ldeser
vestobehappy
..
.
Soaf t
erthatil
eftt
omyroom nifoundedmyphone
ri
ngingni qui
ckl
yrant
oit,
answer
edi twi
thoutev
en
checkingwhowascall
ing
.
..
Me:
:
Vanessahel
l
o
Per
son:
:
soi
sthathowwet
alkt
oeachot
hernow
st
ar
Me:
:
sor
rybabyi
answer
edwi
thoutchecki
ng
i
twasTr
ey
Hi
m::
isee
Me:
:
yeah
Hi
m::
cal
l
edt
osaygoodni
ght
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2/23,
16:
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t78

t
hef oll
owingmor ningi wokeupni twas5: 00soit
wasst il
learl
y,itookmyphonenl oggedont omy
Facebooksi nceitbeenawhi le...
.acceptedthe
fr
iendr equestihad,checkedt hemassages, the
notif
icati
onsi had,checkedMbal i
'sti
mel i
nenmy
fr
iend'sslayi
ngmor et hanev ert heni l
oggedont o
myWhat sAppunt il7:00soi wokeupsi nceiwas
nowhungr y,
wentdownst air
swashedmy
hands...t
ookoutf ruitsaladny oghurtfrom t
hef ri
dge
ni satdownnhel pedmysel f,mindui wasstill
on
myp. j'
snnoonewasawakey et. ..
SoasiwasbusyeatingBri
tneyshowedupalso
wear
ingherp.
j'
srubbinghereyesnshesatopposi
te
me
.
..
Her
::
mor
ning
Me:
:
hey
,it
houghti
wast
heonl
yoneawake
Her
::
met
oo,
hungerboughtmeher
e
Me:
:
met
oo
wel
aughedasshewentt
othekit
chenf
orawhi
l
e
ncamebackwit
hbananasnyoghur
t
Her
::so.
..
what
'sbeenhappeni
ngt
ourl
i
fe
Me:
:
alothashappenedbutgoodt
hingst
hough
Her
::
thatgoodf
oru
Me:
:
yeah,
nu.
..
whatupwi
thy
ourl
i
fe
Her:
:
not
hingint
erest
ingbecausemyboy
fri
endn
br
okeuplastweek
Me:
:sosor
ryt
oheart
hatsi
s
Her
::
it
'sokay
,thedudewasaj
ecka*
s
Me:
:
ihopeuar
efi
net
hough
Her
::
iam f
ine,
l
ookmyfri
endwil
lbet
hrowi
ngahouse
par
tyonFri
day.
..
let
'
sgother
e
i
twasWednesday
Me:
:
sur
e..Atwhatt
ime
Her
::
19:
00
Me:
:
wil
ldadl
etusgot
her
e
Her
::
obv
iousl
yno,
we'
l
lsneakout
,ial
way
sdoi
t
Me:
:
What
,ar
eucr
azy
Her::
iam f
u*kenseri
ousVanessa,
eversinceugot
hereyouhavenov i
be,comeonsister
,we'r
e
teenager
s,wesupposetobehav i
ngfun
Me:
:
nifdadcat
chesus?
Her
::
hewon'
tipr
omi
seu
Me:
:
no
Her
::
wel
lat
leastt
hinkabouti
tpr
ett
ypl
ease
Me::
fi
ne,
I
'l
lthi
nkabouti
t.
..
.nowl
et'
sgogetr
eady
bef
orewegetlat
e
.
..
ist
oodup,
wenttomyroom showered,
woremy
ski
nJeannmycr opt
opwithmywhi teAll
-st
art
hen
ti
edmyhairi
ntoamessybun,
didn'
tappli
edany
Li
pst
ick,
iwasi
nnomoodf
ormakeup,
ikepti
t
si
mple..
.
Br
ushedmyteethnwentdownst
air
sJaywasr
eady
nhavi
ngbr
eakfastwi
thLi
ndandad
Me:
:
mor
ningf
am
Dad:
:
wow,
todayul
ookdi
ff
erent'
nessa
Jay
::
ulooksosi
mpl
e
Me:
:
justbecausei
hav
enol
i
pst
icki
looksi
mpl
e
Dad:
:
eveny
ourout
fi
ttodayi
ssi
mpl
e
Li
nda:
:
buti
t'
sbeaut
if
ulmydear
,ul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
thanku
Br
it
ney
::
canwegot
oschool
now
shesai
dthatcomi
ngdownt
hest
air
snJayst
ood
uptoo
Me:
:
todaywe'
l
lbet
aki
ngmycart
oschool
Jay
::
thatagoodt
hing,
cani
dri
ve
Me:
:
sur
e..
daddycarkey
spl
ease
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kencomment
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16:
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arykaAmo

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nser
t79

sol
atert
hatday
,wecamebackf
rom school
...
Nwef oundLi ndaaloneatt hehouse,nthemaidsof
coursenJaywentt ohi sroom nl ockedhimsel
f
therehesaidt hathewant edanapsi ncehewas
ti
red...
soi wentt omyr oom, showerednwor emy
swimmi ngcost ume, t
ooki cecream from t
hefri
dge
nwentt ositwi thLi
ndanextt oapool nBri
tney
j
oinedussowesatbyt hepool hav i
ngconvosabout
random stuffi mustsayf orthefir
sttimeifel
tli
ke
havingamot herall
ov eragainsoi twasnow17: 00
sowewenti nsidethehouse. .
.
Iwentt omyr oom,
woremyTr acksui
tnsleeper
s
theni wentdownst
air
sndadwasal r
eadybacksoi
t
wast hefiv
eofusintheki
tchen,Dad,Li
nda,
Jay,
Brit
neynme. ..
.
Sodadcameupwitht
heideathatwemustcook
di
nnernl
etthemai
dsrel
axnweal lagr
eedt
othe
i
deaofspendi
ngt
imetoget
her..
.
Weal lworeapr
onsnwest art
edcooki
ng,wewere
cookingSpaghet
ti,
beefst
ew,veget
abl
estewnwe
fi
nishedcooki
ng,wefi
xedthetabl
e,
satdownnbegan
toeat...
Imustsayi
twasfunspendi
ngti
mewit
hthefam n
l
aterdadnhi
swif
ewentt osl
eepnwewerewashi
ng
di
shes
.
..
Brit
ney:
:
soVhav eudeci
dedweat
herwegoi
ngt
o
thatpar
tyornot
Me:
:ihav
en'
tdeci
dedy
et
Jay
::
comeonl
i
lsi
sitwi
l
lbef
un
Me:
:
you'
real
sogoi
ng
Jay
::
yesi
am
Bri
tney
::
Vubet
terdeci
debecauset
omorr
owwe'
l
lbe
goi
ngtobuycl
othesngoi
ngtothesal
on
Me:
:
okayl
etmemakemyselfcl
ear
,I'
l
lgobutuhav
e
t
opromi
semethatwe'
l
lbehomeby03:00
Them:
:
okaywepr
omi
se
Me:
:
okayt
heni
am goi
ng
Bri
tney::
wel
lthengetr
eadyy
ou'
reaboutt
ohav
ethe
bestti
meofyourli
fe
Jay
::
yeahy
eah
Me:
:
ijusthopewedon'
tgetcaught
B:
:
trustmewewon'
t
Jay
::
breat
hVwewon'
t
sowewenttoourr
oomsni
final
l
yhadarestasi
wasaboutt
oclosemyey
esmyphonerangni
answer
edit
..
.i
twasTr
ey
.
..
Hi
m::
mybaby
Me:
:
hey
Hi
m::
idi
dn'
tseeut
oday
Me:
:
iam sor
ryaboutt
hatbaby
Hi
m::
i
t'
sfi
nebuti
hopeI
'
llseeut
omor
row
Me:
:
ofcour
se,
il
oveumyki
ng
Hi
m::
nil
oveumyqueen
Me:
:
goodni
ght
Hi
m::
nyt
i
hangedupncl
osedmyey
esndossedof
ftol
ala
l
and

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kencomment
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16:
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t80

t
hef ol
lowingmorningiwokeupdi dthemor ning
routi
nenwor emyAdidasgreytracksui
tsincethe
weatherwasn' tsogoodtheniwentdownst ai
rs..We
hadbr eakfastnguesswhatBri
tneynJayi nsi
sted
thatweusemycart oschoolagainsoi askedforthe
key
snwegoti nsi
dethecarJaywasdr
ivi
ngagai
nni
wasseat
ingonthelef
tnBrit
neyatt
heback
.
..
Jay:
:
sowhatdouguy ssuggest
,ar
ewegoi
ngt
othe
sal
onfi
rstort
otheshops
Me:
:
what
..
.wear
egoi
ngt
oschool
Hi
m::
didn'
tBr
it
neyexpl
aini
ttou
Me:
:expl
ainwhatexact
ly
Brit
ney:
:ohhhuhm wewon'
tbegoi
ngtoschool
today,
we'l
lbepr
epari
ngf
orthepar
ty
Me:
:
what
?!
Jay
::
areui
norout
Me:
:
nwhati
..
.
Br
it
ney
::r
elaxdadwon'
tfi
ndout
Jay
::
Var
eui
norout
Me:
:
iam i
n
Br
it
ney
::uwor
ryt
oomuchaboutdad.
..
justl
i
veal
i
ttl
e
Jay
::
wel
comet
oourwor
ldl
i
lsi
s
Me:
:
can'
tbel
i
evei
am doi
ngt
his
.
..
Jayst
art
edthecarnwehitt
edther
oadplayi
ng
t
hesongtit
tl
ed'Thousandmi
l
es'i
am notsureabout
t
hearti
st
.
..
.
Bri
tney:
:soVanessay
ou'
ret
ell
i
ngy
ou'
venev
erbr
oke
therul
esbefore
Me:
:
wel
lnotr
eal
l
y
Jay
::
wel
lthewel
comet
oourwor
ld
.
..
naft
erthatsong,
myf
avor
it
esongpl
ayed.
..
.'
Crush
byUshernYuna'
Soiscreamednsangal ongwit
hitimustsayi
was
al
readyhavi
ngfunbreakingt
herules.
..
Jaywas
si
ngingUsher'
spar
tni wassingi
ngYuna's
.
..
.
Yohhhhguysmybr
othergotav oi
cethemomenthe
openedhi
smouthiwasalreadyimpr
essedbywhati
washear
ing

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kencomment

#i
nser
t81i
n30mi
n?
[
2/23,
16:
12]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t81

sowearri
vedattheshopsiwasal ilbi
thungr
yso
wewenttoasmal lr
estaur
antf
irstiorder
edacoke,
a
pieceofl
argepizzanchipsnmysi bli
ngsorder
ed
thesamethingstoo,weate,
pai
dt hegotout
.
..
.
Wet henwenttoashopJaygotlostlooki
ngfora
outf
itinsi
det
heshopwewer ein.
..
i di
dn'
tknowwhat
tochooseall
thecl
otheswerebreathtaki
ngsoi kept
onwal ki
ngar
oundnBr i
tneywasalsoconfusedon
whatt
ochoosenwhatt
oleav
e..
.
Iwentt
ot heshoesisawt hi
sbeautif
ulnei
vesweat
hi
llwhi
chhadazi pbehind..
.manitwassobeaut
iful
i
i
mmedi at
elytooki
twithoutlooki
ngatthepri
cet
hen
iwentt
ot hej
eans..
.
Ikeptonlooki
ngunti
lif
oundat
ightonebot
tonhi
gh
waistski
njeannitooki
t..
.
It
ookanei
veski
ncr
opt
opT-
shi
rtt
hatwaswr
it
ten
#sl
ayi
ng
I
ngol
dcol
ouri
twasbr
eat
htaki
ngi
am t
ell
i
ngu
.
..
.ni
wasdone.
..
.
SowasBr it
neynJay,Br
it
neyhadabl ackj umpsui t
withablackVansitwasalsoabeautif
ul outf
itbut
notforme,JayhadajeantojeanoutfitwithaNi keT
-shi
rt
snaVans. ..
Wepai
dnwentt
othesal
on
.
..
Jaychoose(
d)aGer
mancutnBr
it
neywant
edher
hai
rcurl
ed
Ni di edmyhai rblackagai nt akingoutt hepur pledie
outofmyaf r
oni styledi tbycur li
ngi tnngachi naon
theot herside,iwasl ooki ngsobeaut ifulguyst he
hairst ylesuitedmenasf orJayhewassochar ming
guy s,Brit
neywasal sobr eatht akingnwewentback
tothecar ,
iwast i
redA. Fal r
eadynt het i
mewas
16:00nwewentbackhome, luckilytherewasnoone
aroundsowemanagedsneaki ngi nwithclothes, got
tomyr oom ni goti nsideabat hnwar m wat er
startedf il
l
ingi nthebat h,fi
nallymybodywasr elaxed
ni stay edinsidet hewat erforl i
ke45mi nthengot
out,lotinedmysel fthengotdr essed,iwasdazzl i
ng
onmynewoutf ittheni wor emyl onggownont op
ofitsot hatdadnLi ndadon' tnot iceat hingt heni
wor emyshower i
nghatt ohi det hehai rstyle. .
.
Wentdownst ai
rsnBrit
neywasal sowear i
ngagown
nadoeknJay. .
.j
ustagownluckilydadnLi nda
didn'
tnot
icedathingwehaddinnernhav i
ngconv os
herentherenapparentl
ydadwast i
redheneededt o
l
aydownnwhendadgoest osleep,Lindaal
way s
foll
owshim
.
..
.
Sot
het
imewasnow20:
35
Iwentbackt omyr oom appli
edmakeupnhada
Neivel
ipsti
ckney eliner,
tookofft
hegownnt he
hat,
woremyamazi nghi l
l
snt heniti
ptoedwalki
ng
downt hestai
rs,
Brit
neynJayshowedupl ooki
ng
beauti
fulasevertoo. .
.
West
olet
hehousekey

Li
ke
[
2/23,
16:
13]:Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t82

westolethehousekeyf
rom dad'
sof f
icenwe
sneakedout..
.madesuret
hatt
heguar dsdon'
tsee
usnwewentt omycar ,
nwewer eal
readyout..
.
Iwasalr
eadyfeeli
ngt
hevibe,soitwasanhourdr
ive
wearri
vedther
eat21:30nthehousehadapool at
thef
ront.
..
peoplewer
ealreadyinsi
deit
,t
her
ewere
somanycar snt
hemusicwasalreadypl
ayi
ng,
a
song'shutupnj
ustdancebyLadyGaga'nwewent
i
nside.
..
.
Itwasheavenoneart
h,adiscowball,
tablewith
dri
nksnabarmanbehi ndit,
wi t
hthedecor at
ion.
..
Everyt
hingwasbeauti
fulyetitwasalreadycrowded
nJaydisappear
edwithhisfri
endsnsomegi rl
showedupwear i
ngav er
yshor tdr
esswi thhil
ls
Her
::
iam sogl
adt
oseeuher
e
shesai
dthatr
efer
ri
ngt
oBr
it
ney
B::youknowi neverdi
sappoint.
.ohhhuhm thi
sismy
sister
,VanessatheoneI'
vebeent el
li
ngu
about ,
Vanessathisi
smyf ri
endCandy ,
thepar
ty
thrower
Me:
:
heyCandy
Her
::
hel
l
oV,
wel
comenmakey
our
sel
ffeel
athome
Me:
:
thanku
Her
::
Bri
tneyi
gotsomet
hingt
oshowu,
fol
l
owme
Br
it
neydi
dn'
thesi
tat
eshef
oll
owedherf
ri
end
l
eavingmeal onesoi wenttothebartable,
askedfor
adrinkcal
led'sexinthebi
tch'itwasthefir
stti
me
seei
ngitsoi wantedtotasteit..
thedr
inkswere
serv
edinpl ast
iccupsfoesafetynasi tookasipon
mydr i
nkAnast asi
ashowedupwear i
ngaboy fr
iend
j
eannani kecr optopwit
hani kesneakermanIwas
thr
il
ledtoseeher

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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
13]: Di
aryKaAmo

I
nser
t83

Anast
asi
a::
Bi*
tchuar
eher
e
Me:
:
yesf
ri
end.
..
.ul
ookamazi
ng
Her
::t
hankusweet
y,ut
oo
Me:
:
iam sohappyt
oseeuher
e
Her
::babe,
whydi
dn'
tucomet
oschool
today
Me:
:
ihadt
ober
eadyf
ort
hepar
ty
Her
::oukt
hengetr
eadyf
ordet
ent
ionagai
n
.
..
i
laughed
Me::
canwetal
kaboutschool
tomor
row,
rytnowi
j
ustwannahavef
un
.
..
soweaskedf
orwinesnwewentt
odance,i
kept
onref
il
li
ngmygl
assandsodi
dAnastasi
a..
Sowegott i
redofdanci
ngnwewenttositt
othe
couchesatt
hecornernatt
hetabl
ether
ewas
hubbly.
..
Wedidn'
thesi
tat
ewej
ustst
art
edsmoki
ngi
tso
har
d..
Il
i
kedhowthewhit
esmokecameoutonmynosen
mout
hatthemoment't
heni
ghti
ssti
lly
oungby
Ni
cki'
wasplay
ing.
..
Iwasnowhighndrunkaswewer
esi
tt
ingt
her
e4
guysj
oinedus,
onesatnextt
oment
hetheot
her
t
hreenextt
oAnast
asi
a
.
..
Guy1(
theonet
hatwassi
tt
ingnextt
ome)
::
heygi
rl
s..
.
Anast
asi
a::
hy
G1::
ithi
nkyouguy
shav esmokedenoughnow,
ifu
cont
inuenowuwon'tbeabl
etowakeupt omor
row
Me:
:duderel
ax,
we'r
enot5y
rsol
dweknowhowt
o
t
akecareofoursel
ves
Guy2::
wellt
heni
fusayso,
what
'sy
ourname(
he
sai
drefer
ri
ngtoAnna)
Anna:
:
iam Anast
asi
a
G2:
:
andu(
hewasnowr
efer
ri
ngt
ome)
Me:
:
iam Vanessa
G2:
:
oky
,iam Av
en
Me:
:
oky
G2:
:
Vanessacanwegodance
Me:
:
sur
ewhynot
.
..
 ist
oodupnial
mostfel
lbecauseiwasdr
unkbuti
bal
ancednwentt
odancewithAven
.
..
.
Wellletmedescr
ibeAvenf oru,hewasnotthat
tal
l,
hewaswhite,
blackeyes,blackhair
,pi
nkmedi
um
l
ips,
longnosenhehadawel lbui
ltbodyhewas
handsome,sowedancedt ot hesongbyChrisBr
own
ti
tl
eddon'tl
etmeup' .
..
Iwasdanci ngli
kei wascr azyonmyhi l
ls,
theGuy '
s
handswer ealloverme, mya* s,
mybr east,
myf igur
ei
meanev erywherenbecausei wasdrunki
i
mmedi atel
ybecamehor nyi stoppeddanci ngandi
l
ookedatAv en,
hepul ledmecl osetohim, soclose
thathisnosecoul dt ouchmi ne, hi
shandswer eon
mya* snmi neonhi sneck, ourey eswer el
ockedi
don'tknowwhybuti hadbut t
er fl
ysonmyst omach
secondbysecondhi smout hwasget tingcloseto
mineni fel
thisbreat h..
.
Nbef
oreourl
ipsevenr
eachedsomeonegrabbed
mebymyT-shir
tssohar
dthatial
mostfel
lnitwas
Tr
eyW.T.
Fiwassoshocked,mehear
twasaboutto
comeoutofmymout
h

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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
13]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t84

hedraggedmet othebacky ardofthathouse,i

t
wasempt ythatsi
de..
.t
hewayi wasdrunki coul
dn't
evenstandonmyownbuti tr
iedtobalancemysel f
hestoodinfrontofme,hewaswear ingablack
tr
ackpant,
whiteKappavestnaFi l
lasneakerwitha
ri
ppedjeanJacket.
.

Hestoodinfrontofmeatlookedatmewithoutany
emotionstohisface,
icoul
dn'
tseewhet
herhewas
upsetornotbuthiseyeswerered
.
..
Icoul
dn'
tev
enl
ookathi
mikeptonl
ooki
ngl
eftn
ri
ght
.
..
.
Hi
m::
whyV
hi
svoi
cewasshaki
ng,
icant
ell
hewant
edt
ocr
yi
l
ookedathi
m
Me:
:
iwasj
usthav
ingf
undude
.
..
i
coul dn'
tbeli
ev ewhati j
ustsaid,
idon'tknowwhy
isaidthatbuti saiditany way,hecoveredhisface
withbot hhishandsnf acedbackwar dsnhet urned
withahotsl aponmyf aceni immedi atel
yfelldown
nhisf r
iendscameoutf rom nowhere,therewere4of
t
hem 3oft hem dr aggedhi minsidethehouseni
wasl ef
twi ththeot heronei wassodi zzyi
i
mmedi atelyvomitedt herenaf teri
wasdoneTr ey
's
f
riendpi ckedmeup, ididn'
tevenknewhi snamebut
i
twasnotmyf i
rsttimeseei nghim...
Hesatmedowntot
hebat
chnearbynhe
di
sappear
edf
orl
i
ke5minncamebackwitht
issues
nabott
leofwat
ermyheadwassoheavy
,hesatnext
tomenwipedmymouthwit
htheti
ssuenmademe
dri
nkt
hecoldwater
.
..
Hi
m::
iam Aust
in
Me:
:
ia.
..
Hi
m::
Vanessai
knowwhouar
e
.
..
i
didn'
tanswerhi
mij
ustt
ookanot
hersi
poft
he
wat
er
Hi
m::uknowI
'
venev
erseenTr
eysoupset
,ur
eal
l
y
messedup
Me:
:
tel
lmesomet
hingi
don'
tknow
Hi
m::
mant
heni
ggahur
tedu
hesai
dthatl
ooki
ngatmyf
acei
lookeddown
.
..
Hi
m::
looki
got
tago,
goodl
uckbeggi
ngTr
eyt
o
f
orgi
veu
 withthathel
eftni
satt
her
erepl
ayi
ngwhatj
ust
happened...
Iwasst arti
ngtofeelcol
dsoiwentinsi
de,
iwasn't
thatdizzyanymorebutmyheadwasst il
lpai
n
ful
l.
..
.soi wentbacktowhereAnastasi
awas,she
wasst il
lonthatcouchdri
nki
ngaloneisatnextt
o
hernt ooktheglassshewasdri
nkingndrankital
l
Her
::
nthen?
,wher
ear
eucomi
ngf
rom,
nwhyi
syour
f
acesored
ididn'
tanswerheri
justkeptondri
nki
ngni
st
artedsmokingtheHubbleagainnshej
oined
me

#st
ayt
unedt
ofi
ndoutwhatwi
l
lhappennext
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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
13: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t85
 sothepart
ywentonnonni musthavepassed
outbecauseidon'
trememberwhathappenednexti
j
ustrememberdancingwit
hAnastasi
a..
.
.
..
.
Sothefol
lowi
ngmor ni
ngi
wokeupni wasonmy
bedoutofthebl
anketnwi
thmyshoeson..
Act
uall
ythewholeoutfi
toniwasfeel
ingsocol
dn
myheadwassof u*kenheav
yi coul
dn'tev
enwake
upbutitr
iedanyway..
.
Isl
owlyundressedwenttothebathroom nbat hed
wit
hwar m waternaft
erli
ke40mi ni gotdressed
woremyl oosepit
chdressnmysl eepersni found
Bri
tneynJaysitti
ngonthecouchest hanksGod
Daddywasn'tthere
Jay
::
ulookt
err
ibl
eV
Me:
:
nif
eel
ter
ri
blet
oo
Brit
ney:
:youmustbe,l
astni
ghtuweresodrunkthat
wehadt ocar
ryutothecar,f
rom t
hecart
oy our
room wealmostgotcaught
Me:
:iam sosor
ryguy
s
B:
:i
t'
sokayV...
you'
l
lgetusedtot
hepar
tyl
i
feny
ou'
l
l
nolongerf
eel
whatyou'
refeel
i
ngnow
Jay:
:butf
ornowi
cecubeswi
thchi
l
lyf
oodwi
l
ldot
he
tr
ick
Me:
:
guy
s,wher
ear
ethepar
ent
s
Jay
::
theywentt
ogr
ansshouse,
mom'
smot
her
Me:
:
whenwi
l
ltheybeback
Jay
::
toni
ght
Me:
:
okay
ist
oodupnwentt otheki
tchentookoutice
cubesni askedthemai
dt odospaghett
inchill
y
beefformei ateniwasfeel
ingali
lbett
er.
..
Tookmyphoneni f
oundmi ssedcallsfrom Treybut
theyweref r
om theprev
iousdayear l
ierni
remember edwhathappenedt ohim ni atthepar t
yn
myhear tstar
tedbeati
ngfastni cal
ledhi m buthe
didn'
tanswerhisphoneni wentbackt owher eJayn
Brit
neywer enisatdownt r
yingtoreplayev eryt
hing
t
hathappenedt
hepr
evi
ousni
ght
..

Nguesswhatever
ythi
ngcamebacktomymindir
an
crazl
ytof
etchmycarkey
snidrovecr
azl
ytohi
s
house

#Wi
l
lTr
eyFor
giv
eVanessa
Li
kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
14] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t86

soiarri
vedathi
shomeni t
ookadeepl
ong
br
eath,gotoutofmycarnwenti
nsi
de
.
..
Iknockednaf
terawhi
l
eKy
leopened
.
.
Ky
le:
:
'nessai
t'
ssoni
cet
oseeuagai
n,
comei
n
i
didast
old
Me::
i
t'
salway
snicet
oseeut
ooKy
le,
wher
ecani
f
indTrey
,i
shear
ound?
K:
:
yeahi
nthesi
tt
ingr
oom wi
thhi
ssquad
Me:
:
okyt
hanx
asiwasaboutt
ogot
otheSi
tt
ingr
oom she
st
oppedme
Me:
:
isev
ery
thi
ngokay
Her
::
whathappenedt
oyourf
ace'
nessa
Me:
:myf
ace
i
wast
rul
l
yconf
used
.
..
Her
::
yeahi
t'
sred.
..
.whohur
tedy
oul
i
ket
his
ohhhshewast
alki
ngaboutmychi
ckwher
eTr
ey
sl
appedme
Me::
ohhhuhm t
his,
nvm mysi
bli
ngsni
wer
ehav
inga
f
ightsodadsl
appedusall
 isawiti
nhereyesthatshewasn'tbuy
ingt
he
st
orybutsheletmebeni wenttothesit
ti
ngroom
l
eavingKyl
etherewi
thaconfusedface
.
..
Iarr
ivedt
herenhewassitt
ingwit
hhis3fri
endsn
theyweresmoki
ngweedTr eywashal
fnakedn
wearingngr
eytr
ackpantwithAdi
dassandel
s
.
..
Assoonasi lai
dmyey esonhi
m myheartst
arted
beati
ngfastididn'
tknowwhattosayordoi wanted
torunawayngobackhomebutoneofhi sfr
iends
theonewhowashel pi
ngmesawment hey
i
mmedi atel
ystoppedwhatthwyweredoingnlooked
atme,al
lofthem now...
.
..
Soideci
dedtosl
owl
ywalki
nsidet
othatroom t
hat
wasfi
ll
edwit
hthesmokeoft
heweedni stoodnext
toTr
ey
.
..
Me:
:
guy
scani
tal
ktohi
mforami
n
Aust
in(
hisf
ri
end)
::
sur
e
.
..
Tr
eyj
ustsatt
her
encont
inuedwi
thhi
sweed
.
..
Aust
in:
:Tr
ey!
!
Treyl
ookedathi
mt henlookedatmenhest oodn
wenttohi
sroom nifol
lowedhisli
keAlostpuppy.
.
Wewenti
nnhecl
osedt
hedoor
.
..
Hi
m::
whatt
hef
*ckdouwantVanessa
t
hatwast
hefi
rstti
mehewast al
kingt
omeli
ke
t
hatmyhear
tst
artedbeat
ingf
astevenmore
Me:
:
Treyi
..
.
i
want
edt
oSaysomet
hingbutwor
dsf
ail
edme
Hi
m::
Vanessai
don'
thav
ethewhol
edaypl
easet
alk
Me:
:
babYi
am sososor
ryi
didn'
tmeant
odowhati
di
d
Hi
m::
ohhh
Me:
:
yeah,
nidi
dn'
tmeant
otal
ktout
hewayi
did
Him: :
fi
rstofallupromisedtospendrhewhol eday
withmebutudi dn't
,ikeptoncal
lingncall
ingbutu
didn'tansweryourphonebecauseuwer et oobusy
forme, secondlyiseeucosywi t
haanot herguyi
talktou,youtellmesh*tnowugonnacomeher en
tellmet hesh*tuaretell
ingme..
.comeonbabygi r
l
I
'vegotbet t
erthingstodowi t
hmyday
.
..
hesai
dthatl
eav
ingwhathesai
dtear
edmyhear
t
apar
t

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kencommen
[
2/23,
16:
14]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
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 soiwalkedoutofTr ey'
shomesohear tbr
oken,i
knowI'
vehurthim buttopunishmet hismuch,he
sl
appedmeal readycan'thej
ustforgiveme,iwentto
mycarnsatt hereforamomenti lookedatmyf ace
atthemir
rortoseehowmycheeckl ookedli
ke..
.
I
twasrednitwasal
i
lbitbiggert
hantheotheronei
f
ucoul
d'
veseenmecl
ose,youcouldhavesawthati
wasbeat
en
.
..
.
Soi wenttoAnastasi
a's,f
oundhermom ont
he
ki
tchen..Gr
eetedhernshet oldmeiwoul
dfi
ndAnna
i
nherr oom niwenttot heroom i
wenti
nnshewas
onherbednakedwi t
hapant yonl
yshewasf
aci
ng
downbutshewasn' tasleep
.
.
Me:
:
b*t
chWTF,
whyar
eunaked
Her:
:i
fuweref
eel
i
ngt
hewayi
am f
eel
i
ngy
ou'
d
under
stand
Me:
:
hangov
er?
Her
::
andf
ever
..
.if
eel
li
kei
am nextt
othesun
 i
laughed
Me:
:
dudeTr
ey'
sangr
y
Her
::
whatdi
dudo
Me:
:
it'
sal
laboutt
heguyi
wasdanci
ngwi
th
Her
::
ohhhh,
iremember.
.what
'shi
snameagai
n
Me:
:
idon'
tev
enr
emember
Her:
:
sorr
ycakesTwi l
lcomearound.
..Idi
dn'
tev
en
seehimlastni
ghti
wast oodr
unk
Me::y
eahr
ight
,l
ookbi
tchigot
tagookay,
iwasjust
checki
nguouttomakesuret
hatyou'
rest
il
lal
i
v e
Her
::
kkyby
e
.
..
iwenthomendadwasst
il
lnotbacksoi
went
st
rai
ghttomyroom .
..
ItookanapnLi ndawokemeupt el
l
ingmet hat
di
nnerisr eadyy
ohht hedaywasov eralr
eady,woke
uphaddi nnernitookabath,cal
l
edTr eyhedidn'
t
answeronFacebooki twas'seen'nonWhat sApphe
bl
uet i
ckedmey ohhmaart hisguyhlesoi deci
ded
t
osl
eepatl
ast

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t88

thefol
l
owi ngdayi twasmondayIwokeup
..
bathedworemygr eytrackpant,
whit
ev estnNi
ke
sandl
esijustwant edt okeepi tsi
mple,appli
edal
il
makeupnal ightpinklipsti
ckmyhai rwassucha
messattimesl ikethisi missedmom becauseshe
usedtofi
xmyhai rwheni tamess...

Soi combeditnti
edmyneatbuni wascutexei
m
l
ol,wentdownstai
rsnt
hewholefam wastherei
greetednsatdownnstar
tedhel
pingmyselfwit
h
thebr eakf
ast
.
..
Dad:
:morningt
out
ooVanessa,
idi
dn'
tseeu
yest
erday
Me:
:
iwasi
nmyr
oom i
wasf
eel
i
ngaLi
ldi
zzy
Hi
m::
areuokaynow
Me:
:
yesdad
Him::
okaylookyourgr
andmother,
mymom is
comingtodaytomeetufort
hev eryf
ir
stt
imenmy
si
sternli
lbrot
her
Me:
:
can'
twai
ttomeett
hem
i
sai
dthatsmi
l
ing
Dad:
:okaynowgot
oschool
otugonnabel
ate
t
hethreeofusstoodupnwewentt othecar .
.we
weren'
tgoingwithmycart histym sowear r
ivedat
schoolnschool wasjustschool withalotofwor k
butididn'
tseeTreysot hedaywentonnbef orei
evenknewi t
,i
twasschool outi wenthoment he
housewasr eal
lyful
lofdad' sfam ni metallofthem
grandmawassohappyt oseemet hatsheev en
cri
edforthefir
stti
mei hadagr andmawhol oved
mef oewhoi am ntheywer eallhappytoseeme
t
hatt
heyst
ayedov
erf
orsupper
.
..
I
twasmygr
an,
myt
woaunt
sndad'
sli
lbr
other
Soweat enal l
theycoul ddowast oaskmeabout
mychi l
dhood, Sout hAf r
icanmom ni di
dn'tmind
answeringt hem thewhol eev eningsoaf tersupper
themaidcl eanedupndadhadt ogivegr anaride
backsoLi ndaaccompani edt hem t hehousewasl ef
t
withme,BritneynJaynt heywentt ot hei
rrooms
mindut het imewas19: 00soi decidedtogot o
Trey'
sAGAI Nsoi ar r
ivedt herenwheni wascloseby
iwrotehim amsgt ell
i
nghi mt ocomeoutorel sei
am getti
ngi nnaf ter6mi nhecameoutl ooksli
kes
myplanwor kedbecausehedoesn' twanthi sf
ather
toseemeappar entlyhe'st oost r
ictsohecamehal f
nakednwi thoutshoes
.
..
Thi
sboyhatescl
othesxei
m nhewaswear
inga
bl
ackt
rackpant
Ai
ithi
sper
soni
sinl
ovewi
tht
rackpant
sxei
m
.
..
Hi
m::
whatar
eudoi
ngher
esol
ate
Me:
:
imi
ssedu
Hi
m::
nyou'
veseenmenowgoback
Me::
no,
l
ookbabyi am sosor
rywhathappened
bet
weenment hatboywasami st
ake
Hi
m::
sonowi
t'
sami
stakenothav
ingf
un
Me:
:
itwasn'
tmet
alki
ngi
twast
heal
cohol
babyi
was
t
oodrunk
Hi
m::
areudone
Me:
:
Treypl
easedon'
tbel
i
ket
his

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t89
Trey
::
Vanessai
fidi
dn'
tshowupuwer
ecl
ear
ly
gonnasl
eepwit
hthedude
Me:
:
nobabYt
hat
'snott
rue
Hi
m::
howdouknowbecauseuwer
etoof
*cken
dr
unk
Me:
:
...
Him::
see,
Vanessaupromisedtospendt hedaywith
mebutno,ical
ledunudidn'tevenbothertouchi
ng
urphoneclear
lyiwast
helastthingonurmi nd
Me:
:
niam sor
ryf
ort
hat
Hi
m::
whatev
er
.
..
ashewasaboutt
oleav
ensatdownnhel
dhi
sleg
t
ight
.
..
Hi
m::
nnow,
arey
oucr
azy
Me:
:
no,
butweai
n'
tl
eav
ingher
eunt
iluf
orgi
veme
Hi
m::
W.T.
Fgi
rl
 hesaidthatl
aughi
ng,yesiknewwhatiwasdoing
wascrazybuticoul
dn'
ttaketherej
ect
ionanymorei
waswill
ingtostayt
herethewholeni
ghtunti
lhe
f
orgi
veme

Hi
m::
okayokayst
andup
i
stoodupnl
ookedathi
m
Me:
:am i
for
giv
en
Hi
m::
no
Me:
:
butTr
eyt
hisi
snowunf
air
Hi
m::
ohh
Me:
:
yeah
Hi
m::
Vanessacani
gohomepl
ease
Me:
:
no,
i
fugoI
'
llf
oll
owu
Hi
m::
babygi
rluaresocr
azy
..
.ev
eni
fwest
ayher
ei
ai
n'
tgonnaf
orgi
veu
.
..
 i
didn'
tanswerhi mi justlookedathim nhesat
downont her oad,t
ookouthi sphonenl oggedinon
hi
sFBwer emai nedsil
entf orli
ke2hour siwasnow
start
ingtof eelcoldbuhi wasn' tgoi
nganywaywi th
Treystil
langr yatme, goinghonewast helastt
hing
onmymi ndi justwant edtobef or
giv
en
.
..
Soi alsosatdown, nmykneeswer enowonmybody
whi lemyhandswer ecov eri
ngmymout h,
iwasso
col di wasev enshakingnTr eynoti
cedi tntr
iedto
i
gnor eitbuti sawitinhisey esthathest i
l
lcared.
..A
l
otsoaf terawhi l
ehecamef r
om behindnhugged
met ightnt hatalliwantedhewasal socoldhimself
ev enmor ethanmehewasst i
llhal
fnakedsohe
kissedmeont heneckni i
mmedi atelyfel
twarm,he
fi
nal l
yki ssedmyl ipsslowlynpassi onatenaf t
era
fewsechepul l
edoutnhest oodupnr antohis
homewi thoutsayinganyt hi
ngl olt
hisGuy '
scrazy
.
..
Ialsowenthomenimanagedt
osneakbacktomy
room minduthet
imewasnow22:
00afterget
ti
ng
i
nsi
det
heblanki
esirecei
vedamsgf r
om Tr
eytell
i
ng
mehefor
giv
esmenhest il
lcar
esasmil
eescaped
mymouthnunexpectedl
yiwenttol
alal
and

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t90

theweekwentonnonj ustfi
ne,
thebound
betweenmenmydadwasgr owingev ery
dayhehad
becomet hepersonineverwannalose,ev
ernmen
Treywerenormal agai
n,
menmysi bl
ingswer e
becomingreall
yclosenAnastasi
awasst i
ll
beingt
he
bestfr
iend..
.
.
..
.
SoitwasnowSaturdaymorni
ngwheniwoke
up,
bathed,
woremyblackUmbrel
l
aski
rt
,whi
teRebdat
t-
shi
rt
snAdi dassandl
esiwentt
odad'
sroom i
knocked,
ifoundhi
m asl
eepal
oneni
wokehi
m up
.
..
Dad:
:
whatnowpr
incess
Me::
dadcanut
akemet
othesal
oni
wannaf
ixmy
hai
r
Dad:
:
can'
tuaskoneoft
hedr
ivest
otakeut
her
e
Me:
:
nodadi
wannagowi
thu
Dad:
:
okayt
hengi
veme30mi
ntof
ixmysel
f
Me:
:
okayt
heny
ou'
l
lfi
ndmedownst
air
s
.
..
.
iwentoutofther
oom nwentdownst
air
s,i
found
onl
yLindather
e
Me:
:
mor
ning
Her
::
mor
ningbaby
Me:
:
wher
eisJaynBr
it
ney
Her
::
ohhhi
askedt
hem t
ogodot
hegr
ocer
yforme
Me:
:
ok
 i
hadbreakf
astwit
hherndadjoinedusafterwe
weredonedadni l
eftwewereusinghiscarnwe
droveplay
ingMari
aCarey
'spl
ayl
istitooksome
self
iesofmendadnmeal one
Aft
ersomet i
mewear r
ivedatt
hesalontheyrel
axed
myhairnitwasnowsoftnlongagainthenicur
ledi
t
iwasbeauti
fulndadpayedaft
eriwasdone
Thenwewentf
ori
cecr
eams
.
..
Me:
:
dadwhenar
eJadennChr
ist
inev
isi
ti
ngus
Dad:
:
nextmont
hst
hey
'r
ecomi
ng,
y
Me:
:
justaski
ngi
mict
hem
Dad:
:
yourmot
her
'ssi
stercal
l
edt
hismor
ning
Me:
:
Phi
ndi
l
e?
Dad:
:
yeah
Me:
:
and?
Dad::
shewasaski
ngmei
fiwi
l
lev
erl
etuv
isi
tSout
h
Afr
icaAgai
n
Me:
:
nwhatdi
dusay
Hi
m::
itoldhert
hatwhenev
eruwannagot
hatsi
dei
won'
tstopu
Me:
:
idon'
twannagot
hatsi
de,
atl
eastnott
hisy
ear
Dad:
:
why
Me:
:
idon'
tknow
Dad:
:butdout
hinky
ou'
l
lev
erwantt
ogo
Me:
:
yeah.
..
butnott
hisy
ear
.
..
t
het r
uthisi di
dn'twannagobecausei was
scaredofbei nghur tagainbecausei knewt hatme
beingthatsidewi ll
makememi ssmymom ni
wasn'treadyt ofaceherdr amat i
cf amilyy esi
missedOmphi lenSbul eloal ot,
ialsomi ssedmy
fr
iendMbal inPhi ndil
e...
i alsowant edtoseeher
babybecauset helasttimei tal
kedt ohershewas
pregnantbuti fel
tlikeiwasn' tr
eadyt of aceS.Aso
daddr oppedt hetopicbecausehesawt hatitwas
changingmymood
.
..
Dad:
:
sowher
e'st
hatboy
fri
endofy
our
s
Me:
:
Trey
Dad:
:
yeah
Me:
:
he'
sar
ound
Dad:
:
ishest
il
lmaki
nguhappy
Me:
:
mor
ethanev
er
Dad:
:
that
'sgood
.
..
somydadnikeptchat
ti
ngunt
ili
twas13:
00nwe
deci
dedt
ogobackhome

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t91
 sowheni arr
ivedhomei changedintomybum
shortandcropt opwithmyv ansni deci
dedtogot o
Trey
'ssincei waskindamissinghim,ihaven'
tsaw
hi
mi ntwoday s
.
..
Soiwalkedthenitwassohot ,
iar
ri
v edniknocked
andbeauti
full
adyopenedthedoor,
shewassi ze32
nshehadlonghairshewasbeautiful,
minduTr eyn
hi
sfam areblackAmeri
cansnuknowbl ack
Ameri
cansgotabodyt odiefor
.
..
Her
:hey
Me:
:
hlwMr
s
Her
::
youar
e?
Me:
:
VanessaPar
ker
Her
::
Vanessahowcani
hel
pu
Me:
:
uhhhi
sTr
eyar
ound
Her
::
yescomei
n
i
wenti
nsi
deni
twassmel
l
ingdi
vi
nei
wonder
whatshewascooki
ng
Her
::
Trey
yy(
shesai
dthatshout
ingsol
oud)
af
terawhi
l
eKy
leshowedup
K:
:
heyV
Me:
:
Kyl
e,
howar
eu
K:
:iam good,
mom whatar
eucooki
ng
Hermom:
:
spaghet
tinmi
nce,
wher
e'sy
ourbr
other
K:
:
thel
astt
imei
checkedhewast
aki
ngabat
h
Hermom:
:
got
ell
him hi
sfr
iendi
sher
e
K:
:
afr
iend?
???
Me:
:
yeahKy
le
isaidthatst
oppi
nghert
oSaysomet
hingst
upi
dn
shelaughed
Hermom::
Kyl
egocal
lyourbr
otherncomeback
her
ehel
pmecook
.
..
Ky
ledi
dast
oldnTr
eycamedownst
air
snt
old
metofol
l
owhimi
didast
old,
wear
ri
vedt
ohi
sroom
nhel
ockedi
t
.
..
.
Hi
m::
itakei
tyou'
vemety
ourmot
heri
nlaw
Me:
:
yesi
hav
e,nshel
ooksscar
y
Him::comeonStarujustdon'tknowhery
et,onceu
gettoknow heryou'l
lknowshe'sthemost
fr
iendli
estncr
aziestperson
Me:
:
let
'shopeso,
wher
e'sy
ourdad
Hi
m::
he'
sinL.
Ahe'
l
lbebackaf
ter2weeks
Me:
:
bet
ter
hesmi
l
edt
hencamei
nfr
ontofme
Hi
m::
ulooksexyst
ar
Me:
:
iknow
Hi
m::
j
ustki
ddi
ng
wel aughedni t
hrewmyselfontopofhi
sbed
facingt hecei
li
ngnhet hr
ew himsel
fontopofmen
heki ssedmeni qui
ckl
yrespondednaft
eraseci
pull
edout,pushedhim of
fmethenitookoutmy
shoesnsatont opofthebed,
Treywasweari
nga
greyshor
tnwhi tevest
.
..
Hi
m::
imi
ssedu
Me:
:
met
oo
.
..
it
ookhislapt
opnopenedi
tthenit
urnedont
he
musicst
art
ingwitht
hesong'
EscapebyKehl
ani
'
.
..
Tr
ey:
:
ilov
eu
Me:
:
nil
oveumor
e
.
.
hel
aiddownf
aci
ngt
hecei
l
ingni
wentont
opof
hi
m

Hi
m::
that
'sav
erywr
ongposi
ti
onst
ar
i
smi
l
ed
Me:
:
why
?
Hi
m::
I'
vegotf
eel
i
ngsuknow
Me:
:
noi
don'
tknow
Hi
m::
thatbecausei
hav
en'
tfuckeduy
et
.
..
i
laughed

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nser
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Hi
m::
iam ser
ious,
sur
elyut
hinki
don'
thowt
ofuck
Me:
:
dou?
hewi
denedhi
sey
es
Hi
m::
whatki
ndofaquest
ioni
sthat
?
Me:
:
it'
sasi
mpl
equest
iont
hatneedsay
esorano
bbe
Hi
m::
babygir
licanf
uckunuwoul
dn'
tev
enbeabl
e
t
owalkfor3days
i
laughed
Hi
m::
Stari
am ser
ious
Me:
:
tomeuj
ustl
ooki
nnocent
Hi
m::
areusay
ingi
am av
irgi
n
il
ookedathi
m wi
tha'
ofcour
se'
looknhe
l
aughed
Hi
m::
whatev
erVanessagetof
fofme
idi
dn' tinsteadikissedhi mt helowerl ipslowl yn
passi
onat e,ikeptonki ssinghi m,therewer epauses
nsmilesbet weent heki ss,
heent eredhi stongueat
mymout hni li
ckeditnaf terawhi l
ei alsoent ered
mineintohi snhwl i
ckedi t,
wekeptonki ssing,he
wasnowont opofmeni wasunderhi m. .hekissed
myear s,
f r
om myear stomyneck, from myneck
backtot hel i
psi wasnowhor ny,
het ookof fmyt -
shi
rtni wasnowhal fnaked, hekissesmyst omach
whil
ehi shandswer etakingof fmybr ah,hel i
ckedmy
nipplessonicey etsohard,iwasnowbr eathi
ng
heavynhecamebackt omyl i
pswhi l
ehishands
weresl owlyrubbingmybr eastnmyl egswer e
aroundhi swaisteachsecondpassi ngi was
becomi ngmor ehor nynicouldfeelhishardd* ckon
myst omach,hekeptonl i
ckingmet hewhol ebody
thesongt hatwasnowpl ayi
ngistit
led'countony ou
bytink'it'
sreall
yani cesong
.
..
ItookoffTrey
'sv
estnhekeptonki ssi
ngmenhe
camebackt omybr easthewasli
ckingsohardyet
sonicenunexpectedlyhepul
ledoutnlookedatme
withhi
sr edsmal
ley es
.
..
Hi
m::
nott
odayst
ar(
wit
hawhi
sper
ingv
oice)
.
.
nhegotoffofmeworehisv
estnkissedmy
foreheadnwentoutoft
heroom,mxm maarthisguy
,iwassoirri
tat
edbywhathehaddone,itookmy
brahnwor ei
tnmyt -
shi
rt
snwentbythewi ndowto
cool
down,
Trey
'sr
oom doeshav
eani
cev
iew.
..
Asi waslookingoutt hewindowTr eyenter
edthe
room holdingicecream contai
nerwithtwo
teaspoonshesatonhi sbedopenedt hecontainer
thendagi nwi t
houtsay i
nganythi
ngwhilepressing
hisphone, thi
sguyt hough

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arykaAmo

I
nser
t93

soiwentt
osi
tnextt
ohim,tookt
het
easpoonn
j
oinedhi
mineat
ingt
heicecr
eam
.
..
Hi
m::
yourhai
rreal
l
ylooksgoodt
odayst
ar
Me:
:
thanku
ncoahmanhenot
icedi
tasi
wasaboutt
osay
somet
hingmyphonerangni
twasOmphi
l
ei
i
mmediatel
yanswer
ed
.
..
Me:
:
bhut
wam
Hi
m::
seswam,
unj
n
Me:
:
ngy
aphi
l
awena
Treywasnowst
art
ingt
olookatmewi
tht
he
W.
T.Flook
.
..
.
Omphi
l
e::
ngy
aphi
l
anam,
suskhohl
i
wekanj
alonj
e
Me:
:
nomanhowcanusayt
hat
Hi
m::
uhar
dlycal
lusAmo
hewasr
ight
,mostt
imest
heyar
etheonescal
l
ing
me
Me:
:
iam sosor
ryaboutt
hat
Hi
m::
olr
yt,
how'
sli
fe
Me:
:
per
fectmysi
de,
ursi
de
Hi
m::
goodtheonl
yprobl
em I
'
vegoti
sthenew
st
epmot
herdad'
sabouttomarr
y
Me:
:
howi
sshet
hepr
obl
em
Him::
wel
lyenashe'ski
nd,
fri
endl
ynshetreatusl
ike
herki
dsandallbutij
ustdon'
tli
keher
,i
nfactif
eel
l
ikeshe'
sheret
or epl
acemom
Me::
udon'tneedtocal
lhermom ifudon'
twantt
o,n
ucanjustkeepheratdi
stancey
ou'l
lbefi
ne
Hi
m::
yeah?
Me::
yeah,
uknowialsogotastepmom,butsheis
f
inewiththef
actt
hatidon'
tcall
hermom nI '
vegot
4halfsi
bli
ngs
Hi
m::
howcomey
ounev
ert
alkaboutt
hem
.
..
soOmphilenital
kedapparentl
ySbul
elowas
vi
sit
ingatK.
Z.Nsoi coul
dn'
ttal
ktohernaft
era
whil
eOmphilehangedup
.
..
Tr
ey:
:
tal
ki
ngt
ourbr
othercanbr
ight
enupurday
cl
ear
ly
Me:
:
whyar
eusay
ingt
hat
Hi
m::
staruar
esmi
l
ing
Me:
:
imi
cthem uknow
Hi
m::
yeahi
know
somybabYni spenttherestofthedaywat chi
ng
moviesneatingguystrustmewheni sayt
helovei
havewiththeTreyi
sthekindoflov etharonl
yexist
i
nmov iesbuttomeitexistedinreali
ty

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kencomment
#Sor
ryFor
TheShor
tI
nser
t
[
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16:
14]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t94

solat
erTreyaccompani
edmehomentheni
ght
wasjustnor
mal,weatedi
nnerwi
tht
hef
am niwent
tosleep,
thenextmorningi
twasSundaysowe
decidedtospendthedayindoor
s,thewhol
efam..
it
wasni cenfunnlaternideci
dedtocal
lOmphil
e
sincehetoldmethatSbulel
owouldbebackby
now
.
..
.
Me:
:
hey
Omphi
l
e::
Amokama
Me::
canuguy
sborr
owl
apt
opf
rom Mi
ke(
thei
rdad)i
wantust
oskype
Omphi
l
e::
okayt
hen.
..
.
.
..
i
hangedupnwentt oborrowmydad'slapt
opn
theniwenttothebalcony,
itwas18:00soididthe
skyp(i
ng)processnguesswhatf orthef
ir
stti
meina
l
ongt i
mei sawOmphi le'
sfacehewassogr ownup
butunfort
unatel
yiwasonl yabl
etoseehisface
.
..
.
Me:
:
yohhhbhut
wam awsakhul
anganj
e
Hi
m::uy
azmoc(
hel
aughed)nul
ookbeaut
if
ulnmor
e
whi
ter
Me:
:comeoni
am st
il
lthesame
Hi
m::
mani
missedseei
ngy
ourwhi
teugl
yface
i
laughed
Me:
:
ngang'
cal
kewena,
uphSbul
elo
asiwasaski
ngsheshowedup,shewasalso
gr
ownup,wel
lshehadashortbeauti
ful
hai
rnshe
wasnowthecopyofmom
.
..
Lel
o::
Amo
Me:
:
Lel
owam
Her
::
ngkukhumbul
i
leuzani
ni
Me:
:i
micut oo,
I
'l
lcomebuti
am notsur
ewhen.
..U
l
ookbeaut
if
ul
Her
::
yoohgi
rlt
hanks
i
laughedather,
sonowsheknowsEngl
i
sh
Me:
:
how'
sschool
Her
::
school
'
sgood
Me:
:
okayt
hent
akecar
eil
oveuguy
s
Them:
:
wel
oveut
oo
.
..
nt hatwasi
t,
ithenwenttomyroom,
bat
hedn
call
edmyTr eyasi wasnowlay
ingi
nmybedf
aci
ng
theceili
ng
.
..
Hi
m::
Myst
ar
Me:
:
myper
son
Hi
m::
howar
eyou
Me:
:
iam good,
u
Hi
m::
besi
desf
rom mi
ssi
ngui
anal
sogood
Me:
:
butuwer
ewi
thmet
hewhol
edayy
est
erday
Hi
m::
iknowbuti
tfeel
sli
kei
Hav
en'
tseenui
nages
. i
laughed,
manTr
eycanbedr
amat
ic
Me:
:
uar
ecr
azy
Hi
m::
overuy
es
Me:
:
ilov
eu
Hi
m::
iknow
Me:
:
justki
ddi
ng
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
okayt
hengoodni
ght
Me:
:
night
.
..
nt hecallendedni wentt omywoodr ope,t
ookout
nyalbum ni l
ookedatt hepi cturesof
me,mom, SbulelonOmphi let hosememor iesu
wouldn'twannaf orgetismiledal onel
ookingatthem
nonet hingi washappyabouti sthatmylilsi
bli
ngs
werebei ngtakencar eof ,
theywer ehappynheal t
hy
thewayi wantedt hem tobe, nthewaymom coul d'v
e
wantedt hem t obe

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kencomment
#I
Lov
eYouFam
[
2/23,
16:
1: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t95

sodayspassednev er
ythi
ngwassti
llgood,
nwe
werewait
ingforJadennChrist
inet
ocomebackto
vi
situsntheyweregonnastayfor3weeks..
.
Sowecookedhel pingt hemai dsbecausei twasal ot
thatneededt obecooked, bakedetc.
aftercookingi
wentt omyr oom,freshenedupnwentdownst air
s
againsot heyarr
ivedlat erthatday,t
heywer eboth
l
ooki nggoodni mustsayi missedthem, soitwas
nowAugustnwewer eal soonschool holidays..
n
Treywasal soaway ,vi
sitinghisrel
ati
vessot henight
wentonni twasnowt hef oll
owingdayni was
asleepwhendadsl owlyt ouchedmyhai rwakingme
ni sl
owlyopenedmyey es
.
..
Hi
m::
mor
ningpr
incess
Me:
:
dad,
whyar
euwaki
ngmesoear
ly
Him:
:
wel
luhmm I
'v
egotabusi
nesstr
ipgoi
nggo
NewYor
kfor2weeksniwaswonder
ingi
fuwantt
o
comewi
thus,
i
twil
lbeme,unLi
nda
Me:
:
isLi
ndaf
inewi
thmecomi
ngwi
thu
Dad:
:
yeah,
she'
stheonewhot
oldmet
oasku
Me:
:
wel
ltheni
am mor
ethanhappyt
ocomewi
thu
Dad:
:
star
tpacki
ngt
hen
ij
umpedoutofmybednst artedpacking
i
mmedi ately,
iwasdoexi t
ed,imeanseei nganew
placehasal way sbeenint eresti
ngt omenaf t
er
packingi wentdownst airsat ebreakfastwi tht he
fam nmysi bli
ngsni wentt ot ownf orent ertainment
nweboughtal otofclothes, wentt ogamer eserves
,wenttor estaurants..
..
.thedaywasf unnweev en
tookpics,nlaterwewenthomendadt oldmet hat
wewer el eavinginanhour ,
ibathed,ti
edmyhai rinto
aneatbunnwor emyAdi dast racksuitnmyVans
sneakerni wasr eadytogonLi ndawasal sol ooking
beautif
ulsowesai dourgoodby estot heot her snoff
wewer e,drovet otheairportnt henwet ookour
pl
ane,
i
twasa6hour
sfl
i
ghtnal
soi
twasagood
fl
i
ght,

.
..
..wear
rivedthendr ovetothehotelwherewewere
gonnastay..
..
guy sicouldn'
tstoplooki
ngoutthe
window,NewYor kwasbeaut i
ful
,
mor ethan
London,
butonet hingremained,wewer esoti
redn
hungry.
..
Wearr
ivedtothehot
el nweallwentt
obedwokeup
ar
ound9:00wehadbr eakf
astndadhadtogoto
worki
wasl ef
twit
hLinda

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kencomment
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Lov
eYouFam
[
2/23,
16:
14]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t96
 soiwasatthebal
conyt akingpictur
esinint hat
beaut
if
ulvi
ew,iwaswear i
ngmyr ippedboyf r
iend
j
eanwithmywhi t
eshor tsl
eevedRedbatT- shirtwi
th
mywhitehi
llnmycurledhairwasj usthangingn
Li
ndashowedupwear ingapur pl
esummerdr essn
whit
esandal
sherhairwast iedtoaneatbun
.
..
Her
::uncamer
a
Me:
:
wecl
i
ckv
erywel
l
wel
aughed
Her:
:soiwasthi
nki
ngt
hatmay
beweshoul
dgot
ake
alookatthepl
ace
Me:
:
thatagoodi
dea
Her:
:
okaytheny
ou'
l
lfi
ndmei
nmyr
oom whenuar
e
pr
epared
Me:
:al
ri
ght
shewenti
nsidenir
emember
edihadtocal
l
Omphil
enSbuleloni
didsot
henaf
teri
call
ed
Mbali
.
..
Her
::
best
ie
Me:
:
hun
Her
::
what
sup
Me:
:
fri
endcanubel
i
evei
am i
nNewYor
k
shescr
eamedi
njoy
Her
::
b*t
cht
akepi
csnsendt
hem v
iaWhat
sApp
Me:
:
wil
ldoso
Her
::
ohhnr
emi
ndmeont
he'
Appi
hav
enewsi
need
t
otell
u
Me:
:
ual
way
shav
enewst
otel
l(i
sai
dthatl
aughi
ng)
Her
::
way
azphel
a
Me:
:
okayt
henwe'
l
ltal
kvi
athe'
App
Her
::
olr
ytt
hen
.
..
ihangedup,ir
eal
lykissedmyfrndxei
m,soiwent
tomyr oom(t
hehotelroom)appli
edabitmake
up,
pit
chl i
pst
ickniwasbeautif
ulthenwentt
o
Li
nda'
sroom t
henof
fwewent
.
..
Sowebot hhadsomuchf unnweev entookpi
cs
togetherni shar
edt hepicswithAnast
asianMbali
n
afterawhi l
ewewer et i
redsowewentt oapizza
restaurantnweor deredpizza,
chi
psndr i
nks
.
..
Me:
:
soi
siturf
ir
stt
imeher
e
Her
::
No,
secondt
ime.
.
Me:
:
whenwasurf
ir
stt
ime
Her
::
onmyhoney
moonwewer
eher
e
Me:
:
ncoahhowsweet
Her
::
sohowdi
dugr
owuo
Me:
:
uwantmet
ouaboutmychi
l
dhood
Her
::
udon'
thav
etoi
fudon'
twantt
o
Me::
no,
noidon'
tmi
ndtel
li
ngyouaboutmy
chi
l
dhood,
whatdouwannaknow
Her
::
ever
ythi
ng
Me: :welltheni gr
ewupi nDur ban,
asuknowi was
raisedbymom, myst epf
ather,
Mikewasalway saway
becausehei sapilotsoheonl ycameduring
holiday sbutsomet i
mes,nmom nhi m hadtwo
kids,Omphi le,
aboynSbul el
o,agir
l..
.mysi
bli
ngsni
gotal ongv erywell buti
twasn'tasecrett
hatinever
reallyli
kedMi kenev enmom hadmadepeacewi th
thatf act
Her
::
whydi
dn'
tul
i
kedhi
m
Me::
idon'
tknowbuthewasnev
ermyfavouri
te
per
son..
.iusedmyf
ir
stname'
Amogel
ang'thatsi
de
Her
::
nthenameVanessa?
Me:
:i
t'
smysecondname
Her
::
sowhoi
snowt
aki
ngcar
eofursi
bli
ngs
Me:
:
thei
rfat
her
Her
::
nyourmot
her
'sf
ami
l
y?
Me::
iwasnevertheirf
avour
it
ebecauseofthefact
t
hatiam acoloured,t
heyhat
edmewi thpassi
on,but
icar
elessaboutthem
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2/23,
16:
14] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t97

sowespentt hedaytogether
,menLindanwehad
areal
lygoodt y
mindeed,lat
erwewentbacktot
he
hotel
,
freshenedupnwor eourp.j
'snwewait
edfor
dadtocomebacknaf terawhi l
ehedid
.
..
.
Me:
:
nhowwaswor
k
Dad:
:
wor
kwasj
ustwor
k,nhowwasurday
Me:
:
good
Dad::
okyyou'
llt
ell
meal l
abouti
ttomor
rowbutnowi
havetoresti
am exhausted,
canugotoyourr
oom
i
laughed
Me:
:
okyt
hengoodni
ght
Li
nda:
:
seeui
nthemor
ningbaby
.
..
i
wenttomyroom,l
ockedi
tnthr
ewmysel fon
thatbi
gcomfor
tabl
ebed,imi
ssedmyTreysomuchi
haven'
ttal
kedt
ohimin3dayssoideci
dedtocall
him
.
..
.
Hi
m::
star
hesoundedl
i
kehewasasl
eep
Me:
:
hey
,howar
eu
Hi
m::
iam good,
u
Me:
:
met
oo,
imi
ssut
hough
Hi
m::
met
oo
Me:
:
alr
eadyasl
eep?
Hi
m::
noj
ustl
ayi
ngonbedi
am soexhaust
ed
Me:
:
whatwer
eudoi
ng
Hi
m::
iwasdoi
ngl
otoft
hing
Me:
:
li
ke?
Hi
m::
comeonst
arar
ewer
eal
l
ygonnat
alkabout
t
hat
Me:
:
diduwokeupatt
hewr
ongsi
deoft
hebed
Hi
m::
nost
ar
Me:
:
thenwhyar
eusor
ude
Him::
lookmybabyiam sor
ry,
butasisai
diam
exhaustedi
hadalongday,
canwet al
ktomor
row
Me:
:
okyt
henby
e
Hi
m::
il
oveu
Me:
:
bye
Hi
m::
isai
dil
oveu
Me:
:
ihear
du
.
..
ihangedup,mxm ifel
tir
ri
tat
edbecausei mi
ssed
hi
m nall hehadt
osaywast ot
ellmethathe'
sti
red
soidecidedtogetundermyblankiesncl
osemy
eyes
.
..
I
nthemor
ningi
wokeup,
bat
hed,
wor
emyj
ean
maroonshor t,
whiteNi keT- shirtnwhi t
esandal s,
ti
ed
myhai rintoaneatbunnappl iedmymar oonl i
psti
ck
nihadmymot her'
sneckl aceon, itwasmyf irstti
me
wearingi tbecausei hav en'tgotthest rengtht owear
i
tbeforebutt hatmor ningi did,nitlookedgoodon
met hent heroom ser viceboughtmebr eakfastiate
nthenl oggedi ntomyWhat sApp, t
alkedt oAnast asi
a
nMbal i nthenmyphoner ang,i
twasTr eyni
answer edmyphoneont het hirdring
.
..
.
Me:
:
whatup
Hi
m::
soy
ou'
rest
il
lupset
Me:
:
no
Him::
stariknowyouare,
lookiam sor
ryt
hatiwas
coldtoyoulastni
ghti
t'
sjustt
hatiwasabitangr
y
oversomethingokay
Me:
:
angr
yov
erwhat
Hi
m::
idon'
twannat
alkabouti
tfornow
Me:
:
okayt
hen
Hi
m::
am i
for
giv
en
Me:
:
yeah
Hi
m::
thanku.
..
.imi
cust
ar
Me:
:
met
oo,
heyguesswhat
,iam i
nNewYor
k
Hi
m::
ser
iousl
y
Me:
:
yeah,
thepl
acei
ssobeaut
if
ul
Hi
m::
sendmesomepi
cs
Me:
:
wil
ldoso,
tal
klat
er
Hi
m::
aytt
hen
.
..
hehangedupnt heni
wenttot
hebalconytol
ook
att
hev i
ew..
.foronceinawhil
eif
elt
,happy,
fr
een
al
ivenotj
ustexist
ing

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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
14]: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t98

soi am notgonnabor euguy swit

htheNewYor k
tri
pdet ail
sthewholev acationinNewYor kwent
wel l
,wesawt hing,
explor
edt hingsnall,
Lindaniwere
reallyclosendadwashappyaboutt hat,
sothe
holidayswer enowov erwehad3day sleftf
orbef
ore
school reopenedguesswhati wasgonnadomyl ast
semest erinhi
ghschool isn'tthatgr
eat
.
..
.
Sotodaywast hedayt hatweweregoi
ngbackt o
London,wetookt he6hoursfl
i
ghtbackhomenwe
arr
ivedhomev erylateweweresoti
redneveryone
wasalreadyasleepsowewentt obedtoo,
i
nt he
morningiwaswokenupbyBr it
neynChri
sti
ne
hol
dingbreakfastforme
.
.
Chr
ist
ine:
:wel
comebackl
i
lsi
s
Me:
:
ncoahuguy
sthough
Br
it
ney
::B*
tchi
missedu
Me:
:
imi
ssedy
oumor
e
Chr
isti
ne:
:
nowwakeup,
fr
eshenupcozurbr
other
's
gi
rl
fri
end'
scomi
ng
Me:
:Jaden'
sgi
rl
fr
iend
Chrissy
::
y eah,
shewi
llbecomi
ngtobeint
roduced
todaynt henwewill
beallgoi
ngbackt
oschool af
ter
4day s
Me:
:
yohhi
can'
twai
ttoseet
hegi
rl
i
saidt hatjumpingof fthebedgoi ngt
ot hebath
room,didt hebat hi
ngr outi
nenwentbackt oChrissy
nB,wewer eallwearingjeandressesnVans
sneaker s,dadwentt owor kasalwaysnLindawr nt
foragr ocer yshoppingnJadenwasbusyf ixi
nghi s
room lol..
.
Jaywasoutwi t
hhi sf
rndsnasforusgir
lswewere
cookingatthekitchenwhilet
hemaidswere
cooking,
you'
dsweart hatitwast
hepresi
denti
tsel
f
thatwascomi ngov er
.
..
.
Sowebakedapi
e,
cookedbeefst
ew,
ri
ce,
veget
abl
es
et
c
Bni coul
dn'twaitanyl
ongert
oseeoursisinlaw,as
forChri
ssysheknewhersoshewasn'tthatexit
ed
shewasbor edthatweweredoingal
lofwhatwe
weredoingforj
ustagirl

Li
kencomment
#ABl
essedSunday
ToYa'
l
l
[
2/23,
16:
14]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t99

solaterthatdaydadarr
ivedfr
om wor
knwewere
nowatt heloungewatchi
ngT.Vwhil
echatt
ingn
l
aughing,thewholefam wasther
ensuddenly
Kate(
oneoft hemaids)showedup
.
..
.
Kat
e::
excuseme,
butt
her
e'saknockont
hedoor
Dad:
:
ohhht
hnxf
orl
ett
ingusknow,
Jadenwi
l
lgeti
t
soKat eleftt
heroom wi t
hJadenf ol
lowi
nghern
afterawhi l
eJadenshoweduphol dingapink
travel
lingbaghewasbei ngfoll
owedbyat hi
ck
beautifullady,
shehadal ongblackhai rnshewas
whi t
e,size32wi t
hbiga*snhi psshehadabodyt o
diefor,shehadsmal lbl
ueey esnpi nklipsnalong
nose....
shewasbeaut if
ul mybrotherdoeshav ea
tasteinwomen. .
.
Shewasweari
ngamaroontightdr
esst
hatr
eached
herkneesnbl
ackhi
ghhi
ll
s..
..
SoJadenhel
dherhandnt
heyst
oodi
nfr
ontofus
.
..
.
Jaden:
:soguys,
thi
sisMiaJones,
myfut
urewi f
e,Mia
thi
sismydad,mom, mylil
broJay,
myLi
tt
lesister
's
Bri
tneynVanessant heoneuknowChr
isti
ne
Li
nda:
:
hiMia,
nicetofi
nal
lymeettheladywhost
ole
myson'
sheart(shesai
dthatst
andingupnhuggi
ng
her
)
Mi
a::
nicet
omeetut
ooMr
sPar
ker
(shesai
dthat
smi
l
ing)
Li
nda:
:
guy
sit
hinkwecannowgot
ohav
elunch
shesaidt
hatleadingthewayt odiningroom nwe
al
lfol
lowedher,
sowesatdown, nbegant oatein
si
l
entupuntildadstart
edinter
rogatingthepoorgir
l
wi
thLindahel
pinghery ohhhhifeltsorryf
orthepoor
gi
rl.
..
Soheansweredever
yquesti
ontheywer easki
ngn
Jadendi
dn'
tevenbai
lheroutofthati
nterv
iewlol
..
.
Afterdinnerwesaidourgoodni
ghtsniwenttomy
room,calledmyli
lSibl
i
ngsnmyTr eyt
henaftert
hati
wentt olalal
and.
..
.
..
.
Ihadeverystr
angedream,
i
nthatdr
eam i was
tal
ki
ngtomymom i t'
sli
keweweresi
t t
ingatt
he
housei
usedt ocal
lhomebackinDurbanwewere
havi
ngfr
uitsal
ad
.
..
Me:
:
imi
ssedumom
Mom::
iknowbaby
,butuknowi
am al
way
swi
thu
guy
s
Me:
:
buti
t'
snott
hesamemom
Mom:
:
...
..
Me:
:mom( shedi
dn'
tanswermei
nst
eadshest
ood
upnfacedme)
Her:
:
iloveuAmogel
angni
don'
tev
erwantut
o
f
orgetthat
(
Thenshest
art
edwal
ki
ngaway
)
Me::
mom pl
easedon'
tgo,
stay
,iwantut
ost
ay,
mom
pl
ease
(Ikeptonbeggi
nghert
ost aybutshedi
dn'
trespond)
iquickl
ywokeupaft
erthatnaftert
hatdr
eam i
couldn'
tsl
eep

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kencomment
#St
il
lLov
ingYa'
l
l
[
2/23,
16:
14]
: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t100

thetimewas02: 00nt hatdr eam hasleftmewi th

nothi
ngbutt hepainthatithoughti wasnev ergoing
tofeelagainigotoutofmybl anki
esni walkedto
mydad' sroom i
ntothedar knessi knockedsol oudn
aft
erawhi ledadopenedt hedoorr ubbinghi s
eyes
.
..
Hi
m::
Vanessawhati
sit
?,
itnotev
enmor
ningy
et
idi
dn'tanswerhim,hetur
nedont hel
ightnhe
l
ookedatmenhesawt hattearsweret
hreateningto
comeoutofmyey esheheldmyhandncl osedt he
doornhedr aggedmet omyr oom,wegotinsidenhe
cl
osedthedoornwesatonmybedhehel dmyf ace
whil
elookingsurpr
ised
.
..
Hi
m::
what
'
swr
ongpr
incess
(
Heaskedi
nav
erysof
tvoi
ceL
Me:
:
mom.
..
.
Hi
m::
whatabouther
Me:
:
ihadadr
eam abouther
Hi
m::
wasi
tagooddr
eam orabaddr
eam
Me:
:
idon'
tknow
t
ear
swer
enowf
lowi
ng
Hi
m::
comeher
e
hesai
dthatput
ti
ngmyheadonhi
schestwhi
l
e
r
ubbingmyhair
Me:
:
shel
eftmeagai
n
i
sai
dthatcryi
ng,i
fel
tli
kei
losthert
hesecond
t
imenthatf
eltsopai
nful
Dad::
whatreal
l
yhappenedi
nthedr
eam(
heasked
concerned)
.
.
it
olddadever
ythi
ngaboutt
hedr
eam wi
thmy
v
oicethatwasshaki
ng
.
..
Hi
m::
i
twasn'
tsuchabaddr
eam t
houghpr
incess
Me:
:
idi
dn'
twanthert
oleav
e
Hi
m::
iam sor
rybabY
icr
iedoutlouderwhi
lemydadwasbrushingmy
hai
rnwi t
htheotherhandmyback.
.dad'
shugwasall
iwantedatthemomentnunexpect
edlyifel
lasl
eep
agai
n
.
..
.
Butmymom' sbeautif
ulfacewasal lovermymi ndn
ievensmel
ledherniceperfumeagai n,
thoughshe
l
ookedhappynfineinthedr eam butthatl
eftme
withaheav
yheart,
thatdream fel
tsor ealnfora
secondiwi
sheditwasr eal

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kencomment
[
2/23,
16:
14]
: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t101

Sothef ol
l
owi ngmor ningiwokeup,bathed,
tied
myhairintotwoneatbuns, woremypitchjumpsuitn
whit
esandals,myf acewasl il
bitrednmyey eswer e
puf
fyfrom allt
hecr yi
ngsouappl i
edli
lbi
tofmake
upnotforgett
ingmyl ightpinkli
psti
ckniwas
l
ookinggood
.
..
Wentdownst
air
stohavebr
eakfastnevery
onewas
al
readyt
her
eincl
udingMi
a,
Jaden'sgi
rl
fri
endi
gr
eetedt
hem nsatdown
.
..
Li
nda:
:
final
l
ysomeonedeci
dedt
owakeup
ifakedasmi
l
elooki
ngathert
heni
cont
inued
eat
ing..
Wecont i
nuedeati
nginsil
entnafterbreakfast
every
onewentt ot
heloungeni st
ay edinthekit
chen
withdadbecauseisawitinhi
seyest hathewant ed
total
ktome
.
..
.
Hi
m::
areuokay
?..
Me:
:
yesdadi
am f
ine
Hi
m::
areusur
e?
Me::
y eah,
infactiam ali
lbi
thappythatihadt
hat
dr
eam. .
.imeanbeingtoldbymymom t hatshel
oves
mefeelsgood,eventhoughshetol
dmei nadream,i
t
j
ustfeelsreal
Dad:
:
nicet
oheart
hatmypr
incess
Me:
:yeah
thenmydadnijoi
nedever
yonei
nthel
ounge
becauset
hatdayi
twashisdayof
f.
..
Guysi wasn'
tl
yingt omydad,i
ndeediwasnow
happyaboutthedr eam t
houghbuttobehonest
,f
or
thefir
stti
meinal ongtimeiwasnowmi ssi
ngher
butitiswhati
tis.
..
.
..
Soi waschat
ti
ngwit
hTreyontheAppnhehas
askedmet ocomeoverhi
shouse,
icoul
dn'
tsaynot
o
mybaby,iwasmissi
nghi
m nowi
t'
sbeen3weeks
notseei
nghim soij
umpednwentt
omyroom to
fr
eshenup,t
hetimewas11:
23..
.
.
..
It
oldthef
am t
hati
wasv
isi
ti
ngAnast
asi
atheni
wentout
.
..
SoTr
eywashomealonesoiknockednheopened
upwear
inghi
sAdi
dasblackt
racksui
t
.
..
Soi
jumpedhuggi
nghi
m sot
ight
.
..
Hi
m::
icanseeumi
ssesmesomuch
Me:
:
mor
ethanuknow
Hi
m::
imi
ssedut
oomyst
ar,
ulookbeaut
if
ul
i
smi
l
ed
Me:
:
thanku
i
won'
tl
iet
ouguy
s,seei
ngTr
eybr
ight
enedupmy
dayniwasi
mmedi
atel
yhappy
,whatt
hisboy
'sdoi
ng
tome.
..
Hi
m::sonowi'
mmagobath,
it'
surchoi
cet
hatyou'
l
l
st
ayherewat
chtheT.
Vorucomingtomyroom
Me:
:
uhhh,
l
et'
sgot
ourr
oom
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
okayt
henl
et'
sgo
.
.
wear r
ivedtohisroom nhedisappear
edtothe
bat
hroom whi l
eiwassitt
ingonhisbedplayi
ngwi t
h
hi
slaptop..
.heyguesswhat,
thepasswordismy
name..
.soasi wasbusywat chi
ngthemusicv i
deos
hecamebacknaked, imeanguy snaked,
naked,
naked
..
.
.
..
Ifoundmysel
finaver
yawkwar dsi
tuat
ion,
icoul
dn'
t
facehisbi
gp*ni
ssoijustcov
eredmyfacewithbot
h
ofmyhands
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kencomment
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2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t102

sotheguylaughedhi slungsout,
li
keseri
ously?
..
..
If
elthi
shandst akingmyhandsof fmyf ace,manhe
wasstil
lnaked,
hehel dmyhandst i
ghtthaticoul
dn't
cl
osemyf acewi t
ht hem anymorebutij
ustcouldn'
t
l
ookatthatbigthingsoi simpl
yclosedmyey esnhe
l
aughedev enmor e
.
..
Him::
comeonstar
,don'
ttel
lmey
ou'
venev
erseena
nakedmal
ebefore
Me:
:
no,
ihav
en'
t(myey
eswer
est
il
lcl
ose)
Hi
m::
souar
eav
irgi
n?
Me:
:
no,
butI
'
venev
erseenanakedguybef
ore
Him:
:comeonopenyourey
esnl
ookatme,
myp*
nis
don'
ttur
npeopl
ebli
nd
 i
laughed
Hi
m::
iam ser
ious,
uhav
etol
ookatmengetusedt
o
me
Me:
:
I'
ll
openmyey
esonceugetdr
essed
Him:
:i
knowi
don'
tmi
ndst
ayi
ngnakedf
ort
hewhol
e
day
Me:
:
meani
ng?
Hi
m::
meani
ngi
won'
tgetdr
essedi
fudon'
topenur
ey
es
Me:
:
ucan'
tbeser
ious
Hi
m::
unf
ort
unat
elyi
am deadser
ious
isl
owl
yopenedmyeyesnhewasinfrontofme,
n
i
final
l
yil
ookedathi
m wi
thmyeyeswideopen
Hi
m::
areudeadnow
Me:
:
no,
buti
am nowt
raumat
ised
.
..
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
babYuar
ereal
l
ycr
azy
 hewenttoopenhisdawnnst ar
tedlot
ioni
ng
hi
mselfsl
owly,
iwasnowst ar
ri
ngathim,hegota
bl
ackroundspotonhisbackwhichI'
veneverseen
bef
ore,whi
chisafunnythi
ngsbecausehe'salway
s
hal
fnaked.
..
.
..
Butguysmyey esweren'tst
il
lusedtohisbigp*ni
s,
i
meanguystrustmeitwast hatbig.
..
hefini
shed
l
oti
oninghi
msel fnheslowlystar
teddressi
ngup..
.
Theguywassor el
axedy ou'
dswearhewasalonein
theroom,hewasdoingevery
thingi
nslowmotionn
he'dlookatmensmi l
ethenlookouthiswi
ndow
sincehewasnexttoit
.
..

Fi
nal
l
yhef
ini
shed
.
..
.
Hi
m::
ucanst
opst
arr
ingnow,
iam done
Me:
:
yeahwhatev
er
Hi
m::
I'
vegotabeaut
if
ulbodyr
yt?
Me:
:
stopl
yi
ngt
oursel
f
i
sai
dthatl
aughi
ng
Hi
m::
uar
ejustj
eal
oust
hati
am sexyni
knowi
t
i
laughednhej
oinedmei
nthebed
Me:
:
uar
ement
all
ydi
stur
bed
Hi
m::
atl
easti
am nott
raumat
ised
hesai
dthatl
aughi
ngni
joi
nedhi
m
Him:
:buthowcomeuar esay
ingunotaVi
rgi
nyet
you'
veneverseenanakedmalebef
ore
.
..
okayi
wasn'
texpect
ingt
hatquest
ion.
.
Butsi
ncehewantedtoknowi
expl
ainedt
hewhol
e
Nqaba'
sstor
ytohim
Hi
m::
sor
ryuwentthr
oughallt
hatbabY.
..
ij
ustwantu
t
oknowthati
am nothi
ngl
ikeurexokay,
ireal
l
ylov
e
u
Me:
:
iknowni
lov
eut
oo,
nowcanwest
opt
alki
ng
abouthi
m
.
..
west
oppedtal
ki
ngaboutmypastnwewat
ched
t
hemovie'
whit
ehousedown'i
nhisl
apt
op

[
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16:
17]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t103

soitwasaround14:
12nt hemov i
ethatwewere
watchi
ngwasov ernTreywaslayi
ngwithhis
st
omachwhi l
ei wasontopofhisbacknsuddenl
y
weheardaknockatthedoor
.
..
.
Me:
:
pleasedon'
ttel
lmeurpar
ent
sar
eal
readyback
Hi
m::
idoubti
tthem
.
..
 naswewer ebusyguessi
ngwhocouldbe
knocki
ngTrey'
sfri
endcamein,
thr
eeofthem ni
i
mmedi at
elygotof
fofTrey'
sbacknisatst
rai
ght
.
..
.
Wel l
itwasAust
inni
don'tknowt heothert
wo,but
they'
real
lbl
ackAmeri
cansnt heyarehandsome,but
Stil
lmyTreyi
smorehandsome
.
..
.
Aust
in:
:sorr
ytoi
nter
ruptuguy
s,butTi
twasopen
downst
airs
Tr
ey:
:y
eahitwasdownst
air
s,buther
einmyr
oom,
i
t
wascl
osed
Aust
in:
:
ohhhwenot
iced
t
heyal
lsatont
hebed.
.W.
T.F
Aust
in:
:heyVanessa,
howar
eu
Me:
:
iam goodt
hanku,
nu
Aust
in:
:iam t
op
Tr
ey:
:
sowhatbr
ingsuguy
sher
eexact
ly
Austi
n::
ohhhuhm Vanessat
hisi
sShawn,
nthisis
Li
am ..
.guyst
hisi
stheVanessawe'
vebeentold
about
Li
am:
:
nicet
ofi
nal
l
y'nessa
Me::
nicet
ofi
nall
ymeetuguys,
unf
ort
unat
elyI
'
ve
nev
erbeentol
daboutubef
ore
Shawn:
:
whyam i
notsur
pri
sed
Il
aughed
Shawn:
:ur
eal
l
yar
ebeaut
if
ulV
Tr
ey:
:
souguy
scameal
lthewayj
ustt
ocompl
i
ment
mygi
rl?
Shawn:
:chi
l
ldudei
twasj
ustacompl
i
ment
Aust
in:
:pl
easedon'tt
ell
mey ou'
rej
eal
ous
man,
causethatdoesn'
tsui
tu
.
..
weall
laughedbutTr
eyj
ustl
ookedatuswi
tha
st
rai
ghtface
.
..
Me::
comeonbabyitwasj
ustacomplement,
u
shoul
dbehappyt
hatuhaveabeaut
if
ulgir
l
Tr
ey:
:
whatev
er,
l
et'
sgodownst
air
s
.
.
hesai
dthatstandi
ngupngoi
ngt
othedoor
,he
wasreal
l
yirr
it
atedman..

Sowestoodupnwef ollowedhim,whenwear
riv
ed
tothel
ounge,Aust
in,
Liam nShawnsatont he
couchopposi
temenTr eysatnexttome

.
..
Aust
in:
:
Tmanugot
tast
opact
ingl
i
keal
ady
hesai
dthatt
easi
nghi
m butTr
eykeptonhi
s
st
rai
ghtf
ace
Shawn:
:
guy
siam hungr
y
hesai
dthatst
andi
ngupngoi
ngt
othef
ri
dge
Tr
ey:
:
met
oo
Li
am:
:
met
hree
Aust
in:
:
mef
our
i
laughed
Me:
:
sowhoar
euguy
stel
l
ingexact
ly
Aust
in:
:uarethel
adyinthehousesoiam sur
eu
cant
hinkofsomethi
ngthatcancookf
ast
Me:
:
you'
vegott
obeki
ddi
ngme
Tr
ey:
:
comeonbabyi
am sur
eucanmakeapl
an
Me:
:
...
.

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kencomment
#I
Lov
eYouFam
[
2/23,
16:
17] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t104

soi
stoodupnwentt
othef
ri
dge,
tookoutbeefn
thentot
hecupboar
dstogetr
icent
heot
hercooki
ng
stuf
fiwasgonnaneed
.
..
Icookedwit
houtanyhel
pbecauseTreynhi
sfr
nd
werewatchi
ngsoccerntheycoul
dn'
tevenmov
e..
.
Boyswit
hsoccerthoughLOL,soidishedupf orthem
nweallate,
iwassharingaplat
ewithmybabecause
idi
dn'
tcookenoughf ood,
aft
ereat
ingTr eywentt o
washthedisheswiththehel
pofAust i
nnt heycame
backt
othel ounge
.
..
Aust
in:
:t
hankYoufort
hef
oodV,
thoughudi
dn'
t
washthedishes
Me::
uwelcome..
..
butonet
hingushoul
dremember
,i
am notamaid
Tr
eyl
aughed
Trey
::
it
'sget
ti
ngl
atebabyl
et'
susaccompanyy
ou
home
Me:
:
what
'st
imei
sit
Li
am:
:
16:
00
Me:
:
okyguy
slet
'sgot
hen
.
..
sotheyaccompani
edmehomeonthewayt
hey
werebusyteasi
ngeachot
herl
i
ket
heywer
e6year
s
ol
d,boyst
hough..
Soi wenthomewit
houtevenki
ssi
ngmybae
becauseofhisf
ri
endsiwasali
lbi
tangr
y..
.
Butt
heni wenthomeni foundLinda,
Brit
neyn
Mia(
Jaden'sgi
rl
fri
end)i
nt heki
tchentheywer
e
baki
ngntheylookedsohappy
.
..

Li
nda:
:
ohhheybaby
,wher
ear
eucomi
ngf
rom
Me:
:
uhhhf
rom af
ri
end'
spl
ace
Br
it
ney
::comenhel
pusbake
Me::
iwoul
dlovet
oobutiam ali
lbi
tti
redsoi
am
t
hinki
ngabathwoul
dthetr
ick
Li
nda:
:
ohokyt
hen
.
..
iwentt omyr oom,call
edSbulel
inOmphi l
e
checkingont hem asforMbali,
iwasalwayschat
ti
ng
withheronWhat sApp. .
.it
henwentt obath
,fi
nished,woremyp.j'
snt i
edmyhai rint
ooneneat
bunni satonmybed. ..
icall
edAnastasiasi
ncei
wasmi ssi
ngher
.
..
Her
::
bi*
ch
Me:
:
hunny
,howar
eu
Her
::
iam notgood
Me:
:
why
..
.
Her
::
becausey
ou'
vedel
etedmeony
ourl
i
fe
Me:
:
comeonuknowt
hatnott
rue
Her
::
whenwast
hel
astt
imeucal
l
edmeorv
isi
ted
me
Me:
:
iam t
alki
ngt
ounowt
houghai
n'
tai
i
Her
::
mxm whatev
er,
any
wayhowhav
eubeen
Me:
:
good,
you
Her
::
beenper
fect
Me:
:
imi
cu
Her
::
imi
cut
oo,
nI'
vegotal
ott
oshar
ewi
thy
ou
Me:
:
highl
i
ght
Her
::
it
'saboutmenmynewman,
Chr
is
Me::
yohhhniam onl
yfi
ndi
ngoutt
hatuhav
eanew
boy
fri
endnow
Her
::
comeonwehaven'
tbeent
alki
ngsoiam t
ell
i
ng
nowsincey
ou'
vecal
l
edthatuaretal
ki
ng
Me:
:
whenwemeeti
wantal
lthedet
ail
s
Her
::
rel
axgi
rly
ou'
l
l

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kencomment
#Lov
eYouFam
[
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16:
17]
: Di
arykaAmo
I
nser
t105

sothenext2dayspassnt odaywewer egoing

backtoschool
Chri
sti
ne,JadennMi a(Jaden'
sgirl
)
hadalr
eadygonebacktoVar si
tysoitwasme, Jay,
Bri
tney
,Li
ndandadagain
.
..
.
Iwokeupthatmor ni
ngbat
hed,
wor
emyj
eandr
essn
whi
teAll
Starsneaker..
.
Combedmyhairbutidi
dn'
tti
edi
ttheni went
downst
air
sforbr
eakf
ast..
hadbr
eakfastwitht
he
fam ni
tookmycarkeysnoffwewent..
.
Wedroveinsi
l
entwhil
eoneofmyf av
ouri
tesong
wasplay
ing'
StaybyZedd'i
real
l
ylovethesong
guy
s..
Afterawhilewearr
ivedJaynBr i
tneypoppedoutof
thecarni wasl
eftbehindf
ixingmyf acenaft
era
whileial
sopoppedoutnAnast asiacameoutfrom
nowherenshehuggedmet ight.
..
.
..
Me:
:
icanseeI
'
vebeenmi
ssed
Her
::
alot
,uhav
enoi
dea
Me:
:
ncoahi
missedumor
ebabes
Her
::
ulookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
thanku,
u2.
..
Her
::
thanks
Me:
:hi
ghl
i
ght
saboutt
henewboy
fie
Her:
:uhhhhgirl
(shescreamed)I'
vegotalott
otel
l
abouthim buthere'
stheint
erest
ingpar
t
Me:
:
myear
sar
eopen
Her
::
gir
lwehads*
xonourf
ir
stdat
e
Me::
W.T.F(i
evenst
oppedwal
ki
ngni
lookedatheri
n
di
sbeli
ef)
Her
::
what
??!
Me::
you'
ret
ell
ingmet
hatuhads*
xwi
thsomeoneu
hadl
yevenknew
Her
::
uhhhy
eah,
thatwhatmadeuscl
i
ckev
enmor
e
Me:
:ureal
lydon'
tl
oveyourbodyAnast
asi
a(i
sai
d
t
hatconti
nui
ngwalki
ng)
Her
::
whatev
er,
l
et'
sjustdr
opt
het
opi
c
Me:
:
goodi
dea
.
..
aii
imyf r
iendcanbesounbel
i
evabl
esometimes
..
.f
uckingaper sony
ouonl
ymet2day sback.
..
that
's
t
akingrisk.
.
.
..
Soaftert
hatAnnani
wentsepar
ateway
stoour
cl
asses

Li
kencomment
#Cr
opTop
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t106♥
 thedaywentonj ustfineafterwewenthome,
me
nmysi bl
ings..
iwenttobat hsinceiwassweat
yni
woremyv er
yshor
tpi t
chdr essnsleeper
snisaton
mybedr elaxi
ngwhileplayi
nggameswi t
hmyphone
nitrang(i
twasmybabecal l
ing)

.
..
Me:
:
hubby
Hi
m::
myst
ar,
howar
eu
Me:
:
iam good,
u
Hi
m::
iam f
ine,
wher
ewer
eut
oday
Me:
:
atschool
,wher
ewoul
dibe
Hi
m::
idi
dn'
tseeu
Me:
:
thatai
n'
tapr
obl
em,
i
sit
?
Hi
m::
nahi
tnot
..
..
bbY
Me:
:
whatnow
Hi
m::
I'
vegotsomet
hingi
needt
oasku
Me:
:
shoot
..
.
Hi
m::
canucomeov
erf
orl
unchf
ri
day
Me:
:
lunch?
??
Hi
m::
yeah,
wit
hmenmyf
ami
l
y..
.
Me:
:
fami
l
y??
..
.
Hi
m;:
yeah,
i
t'
ll
beme,
umyt
winsi
s,
mom ndad
Me:
:
what
??.
..
Hi
m::
stari
wantt
oint
roduceut
othem
Me::
what,
nomanwest
il
lgott
imet
odot
hatdon'
tu
t
hinkital
i
lbi
tEar
ly
Hi
m::
pleaset
hinkabouti
tst
ar
Me::
nother
e'snothingt
ot hi
nkabouther
emy
answeri
snoTr eyforgoodnesssakewe'
rest
il
li
n
hi
ghschool
Hi
m::bbYi
t'
snotlikeiam aski
ngutomar
ryme
t
hough,i
t'
sjusthavi
nglunchwithmyf
amil
y
Me:
:
...
.
Hi
m::
pleaset
hinkabouti
t
Me:
:
I'
ll
try
Hi
m::
oky
..
.howwasurday
Me:
:
longnexhaust
ing,
urs
Hi
m::
good.
..
Me:
:
okyt
hebbewe'
l
ltal
klat
er
.
..
ihangedup,
idi
dn'
tbel
i
evewhatTr
eyhasj
ust
asked
.
.what
'st
her
ushy
ohhhsosi
ncei
wasal
i
lbi
tti
redi
t
ookanap
.
..
.
Afterl
i
ke2hour siwokeupnwentdownstai
rsni
foundonlyLi
ndaatthesi
tt
ingroom,shewashav
ing
pizzanisatnextt
ohernjoinedher
.
..
Me:
:
wher
ear
etheot
her
s
Her:
:
theywentwithurfat
hertoshoppi
nguwere
sl
eepingpeacef
ull
ysoi t
oldt
hem nott
odist
urbui
hopether
e'snoprobl
em
Me:
:naht
her
e'snopr
obl
em
Her
::
oky
,howwasurdayatschool
Me:
:
nor
mal
Her
::
okysweet
y
Me:
:
isi
tokayi
fist
artcal
l
ingumom
Her
::
it
'smor
ethanokay
shesai
dthatsmi
l
ing
Me:
:
oky.
..
mom
Her
::
il
oveu
ismil
ed,iwon'
tli
eitwasal il
bitstrangecal l
ing
someone'mom' iki
ndaf eltl
i
kei wasr eplaci
ngmy
mom inmyl i
febutiignoredthefeel
ingnmynew
mom ni conti
nuedtochatwhi l
eeati
ngt hepizza

Li
kencomment
#Lov
eYou
[
2/23,
16:
17]
: Di
arykaAmo
Cont
inuat
ionkai
nser
t106

itwasnowWednesdaywheni wokeupdi
dmy
mor ni
ngr
outi
nentodayLi
ndawasdr i
vi
ngusto
schoolnwewentoutsi
dendadwaspackinghi
s
thi
ngsinhi
scarhewasgoingfor6days,
workt
ri
pso
weal l
wentt
osayourgoodbyes
.
..
Me:
:
promi
sey
ou'
l
lcomebackt
ousal
i
ve
Hi
m::
I'
l
lmypr
incess,
behav
ewhi
l
eiam away
Me:
:il
oveudaddy
Hi
m::
l
oveumor
epr
incess
.
..
ihuggedhim nt
henwenttothecar
,wearri
vedn
wegotoffthecarniwenttomyfrndAnnashewas
st
andingwithawhit
etal
lguy.
..
.
.
..
Me:
:
heyguy
s
Her
::
heyb*
tch
Me:
:
hel
l
o(i
sai
dlooki
ngatt
heguy
)
Hi
m::
'
ey
Anna:
:
ohhhChr
ist
hisi
sVanessa,
Vthi
sisChr
is
Me:
:
nyct
ofi
nal
l
ymeetuChr
is
Hi
m::
nyct
omeetut
ooV,
het
urnedt
olookatAnna
Hi
m::
bbeI
'
llseeul
ateroky
?
Anna:
:al
ryt
t
heykissedhel ef
t..
.nAnnani wentinsi
det he
schoolpremi sesaswewer echart
ingnlaughingi
sawTr eywi t
hsomegi rlt
heywer ereall
yreal
lyclose
toeachot hertot hepointthatherbreastswere
touchi
nghi schestt heywer elooki
ngineachot her'
s
eyesnl aughing,idon'
tknowwhatt heywerelaughing
butonet hingi knowisthatt heywereenter
tained
.
..
Letmedescr i
bethegirlforu,shewast al
lthanme
butshortert
hatTrey,
whitelonghair
,beauti
fulshaped
body..
.shewasn'tthatbad
.
..
.
Anna:
:O.
M.Gfri
endareuseei
ngwhati
am
seei
ng??
(shesai
dlooki
ngatt
hem)
Me:
:
isawt
hatbef
oreu
isaidt
hatt
aki
ngmyphoneoutofmypocketn
put
tingmyatt
ent
iononi
t
Anna:
:
nuat
eignor
ingt
hissh*
t
Me:
:
idon'
thav
eti
mef
ordr
ama
shesai
dthatst
oppi
ngt
owal
k
Me:
:
what
???
?
Anna::
you'
redi
sappoi
ntingmerytnowwewer
e
supposstobeatt
hes*itoutoft
hatgi
rl
Me:
:
you'
recr
azy
,comeonl
etgo.
..
shel
ookedatmeindi
sbel
i
efnt henshef
oll
owed
me.
.WewalkedpassTr
eynthatgi
rlnhedi
dn'
teven
not
iceme.
..
Iwasreal
lyi
rr
it
atedbutidi
dn'
twannacauseascene
asforAnnashewasevenredLIOL.
..
shecouldn'
t
giv
eupbeggingmet ogobeatt
hatgir
likepton
sayi
ngno..
.
Ireal
l
yhaveabadl
uckofhav
ingdr
amat
icf
ri
ends
becauseMbal
ii
sexact
lyl
i
keAnna

l
i
kencomment
#Happy
Fri
daY
[
2/23,
16:
17] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t107

sothedaywentonv eryfineni wasstil

li
rr
it
ated
ofwhatisawearli
eron,solaterLindacametofetch
usnwewenthome. .
.soi arr
ivedhomewent
upstai
rsgotnakedni gotinthebat hwhil
ecold
waterwasfi
ll
ingthebathni untiedmyhair.
..
iwasa
l
i
lbi
tti
redsoist
ayedt
her
ewi
thmyey
escl
osed,
for
l
i
ke30mi n..
Al
liev
erthoughtaboutwasmyy oungersi
bli
ngs,
whenwasi goi
ngtoseethem agai
n,hownwhen
.
..
Whil
eiwasbusyt hi
nkingmyphoner angni gotout
nwenttoansweri t.
..
icheckedwhowascal l
ingnit
wasTreysoi decidednottoanswerhim,notthati
wasupsetiwasj ustnotinthemoodf orhi
m. .
..
i
wasn'
teventhinkingofaskinghi
m aboutthewhole
i
ssue..
.
Iloti
onednworemypi nkNiketr
acksui
tnmywhi t
e
sleeper
sniti
edmyhai rint
otwoneatbunntheni
wentdownstai
rsfoundJay,Br
it
neynMom having
frui
tssal
adnyoghurtattheseat
ingroom nij
oined
them
.
..
Mom:
:
sohowwasurdayatschool
guy
s
Jay
::
minewascool
..
.
Br
it
ney
::nor
mal
Me:
:
bor
ing
Mom:
:
socanuguy
shel
pmet
ocooksupert
oday
Jay
::
countmeoutI
'
vegotpl
ansf
ort
oni
ght
,mydawg
i
shosti
ngahousepar
ty
Mom:
:
onWednesday
?
Jay
::
uhhhy
eahi
nfactl
etmegopr
epar
emysel
f
hesai
dthatst
andi
ngupngoi
ngupst
air
s
Me:
:
I'
ll
hel
pucookmom
Br
itney
::
uknowihaven'
tbeeni
napar
tyi
nal
ongt
ym
it
hinkI'
l
lbej
oini
ngJaytoni
ght
Mom:
:
gett
hehel
lout
aher
eal
ready
Brit
neyl
aughednhewentupst air
s..
.mom ni
wenttotheki
tchenwewer ecooki
ngspaghetti
,
cheesemacaroninchickenstewnsomev egetabl
es
i
twasr eal
l
yfuninthekitchenwewer echarti
ngn
l
aughingwhil
edancingto'stay'
byZeddguy sIwas
ki
ndaobsessedwiththatsong
.
..
'
All
youhav
etodoi
sst
ay,
ami
nut
ejustt
akeurt
ime
t
hecl
ocki
sti
cki
ngsost
ay'
.
..
..
t
hatwasmyf
avour
it
epar
toft
hesong
.
..
Wefi
nishedcooki
ngnweat
etheni
wasof
ftol
ala
l
and

Li
kencomment
#GoodNi
ght
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t108

t
hefoll
owingmor ni
ngiwokeupdi dthemor ni
ng
routi
nehadbr eakf
astnasforJaynBr i
tneythey
couldn'
tevenwakeupsot heyweren'tgoingto
schoolsoi wasgoingtodr
ivemyselftoschool
.
..
Onthewayi waslist
eni
ngasongti
tl
ed'canwehave
thi
sdance'
from themovie'
HighSchoolMusi
cal
'
oneofmyfav our
itemovi
e
.
..
.
'ohhhnomount ainstoohi
ghenough,noocean'st
o
wil
dcozt ogetherornotourdancewon'
tstop,
leti
t
rai
nleti
tpourwhatwehav ei
swor t
hfi
ght
ingfor,u
knowubel i
evethatwewer emeanttobe'
.
..
.
Ikeptonsingi
ngal
ongwitht
hesongunt
ili
reached
mydestiny
,nguesswhat
..
Iwaslat
e,wenti
nsi
detheschoolpr
emi
sesnirushed
tocl
assigotinnever
yonestar
edatme,
itwasMr
Morgan'
speriod
.
..
MrM:
:
Par
kery
ou'
rel
ate
Me:
:
iknowsi
rni
am sor
ry
MrM:
:
sitdown
i
qui
ckl
ydi
dasi
wast
oldnt
hel
essoncont
inued
.
..
Itwasnowl unchiwassitt
ingwit
hAnnant heother
fourgi
rlhavi
nglunchwhenTr eyshowedupnhe
askedtotal
kt ome,istoodupnwentt ospeakwith
him al
ilbi
tFarawayfrom thegir
ls
.
.
.
..
.
Hi
m::
V..
..
Me:
:
Trey
..
..
Hi
m::
didi
dosomet
hingwr
ong
Me:
:
uhhhno.
..
Hi
m::
ical
l
edut ent
imesl
astni
ghtbutudi
dn'
tbot
her
pi
cki
ngupurphone
Me::
sorryaboutt
hati
wasasl
eepi
hadav
erybad
headache
Hi
m::
areunowokay
Me:
:
yeahi
am f
ine
Hi
m::
okayt
hen
 guysisawTr
ey.
..Hewasn'
tbel
i
evi
ngWhati
was
t
ell
inghi
m
.
..
Hi
m::
sohaveuthoughtabouthav
ingl
unchwi
thmy
f
amil
ytomorr
ow
Me:
:uhhhyeahniam sor
rybbYbutmom hasasked
metohelpherwit
hsomethingt
omorr
owsoi won't
makeitt
odinnerwit
hurfam
Hi
m::
ohhhokyt
hen
.
..
hekissedmyforeheadnhelef
t,
deepdowni
knewt hatheknewthatiwasl
yi
ngt ohi
m nheknew
thatiknewLOL. .
.
.
..
.
Iwentbackt
ohavelunchwi
tht
hegi
rl
snt
her
estof
thedayj
ustwentnor
mal

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kenCOMMENT
#Cr
opTop
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t109

sot
heweekendwentonnormalnbori
ng,
idon'
t
knowwhatwashappeni
ngbetweenmenTreyal
li
knowi
sthathewasdist
anci
nghimsel
ffr
om me,
ni
wasdoi
ngthesame...
.
Soi twasnowthefoll
owi
ngweekWednesdayijust
camebackf r
om schooli
ateniwenttobat
h,wore
somet hi
ngwarm(nai
vetr
acksui
tnVans)i
t'
swasl i
l
bitcoldncl
oudyoutsi
de..
..
.
..
IsatonmybedncheckedonmyWhat sApp,char
ted
withMbali
,
mam'ncanPhi
ndi
lenoOmphile.
..
imissed
them somuchi
nfactimi
ssedDurban
.
..
.
IcheckedatMbal
i
'sst
atus(
pict
ures)shel
ooked
happynshesogrownupnherpict
ureswi
th
Momo(Mandla)wer
esobeaut
if
ul
.
..
.
.
..
What
sAppconv
osbet
weenmenMbal
i
.
.
Me:
:
how'
sDur
ban
Her:
:Durbanisst
il
lthesamewayul
efti
tbabei
t
hasn'
tchanged
Me:
:
how'
sschool
Her
::
bor
ingnj
e..
.kuwe
Me:
:
it'
suhhhoky
Her:
:sowher
e'st
hatboy
fri
endofy
our
s,what
'shi
s
nameagai
n?
Me:
:
Trey
..
.
Her
::
yeah.
..
Me:
:
he'
sar
ound
Her
::ohk.
..
.y
ohhhf
rndbef
orei
for
getphel
aguess
what
Me:
:
what
?..
.
Her
::
Nqabay
ethui
sgoi
ngt
obeaf
ather
.
.
wel
lguy
sihopeust
il
lrememberNqabahe'
smy
ex
Me:
:
tel
lmeuj
oki
ng
Her
::Amogel
ang,
iam deadser
ious
Me:
:
who'
sthemot
her
Her:
:
somegi
rlwhoar
ri
vedher
elasty
earcal
l
ed
Unat
hi
Me:
:
yohhhgi
rlt
hat
'
ssounbel
i
evabl
e
Her
::
iknowy
azi
n..
.
.
..
.
weconti
nuedchart
ingunt
ilmybat
ter
ywasl
owso
i
loggedoutnchargeditnit
ookanap
.
..
..

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

.
..
mynameisTr
eyBoltonVanessa'
slov
ery
ouguy
s
knowaboutmer
ight
?..
Icomef rom aweal thyf amil
y ,
butnott hatwealthmy
fatherisal ectur
ebuthe' salsoacr i
mi nalonthe
otherside. .
butmymom doesnotknowabouti tn
Kyledoesn' tknow. .
..Iam theonl yonewhoknow
aboutt his...
.dadtell
smeev erythingidon'tknow
why ,somet i
meshegoesawaynt ellmom t hathe'
s
goingonwor ktr
ipnmom bel i
evesev eryt
hinghe
say sbutt hetrut
hi st hateveryti
mehegoeshi s
goingal way shadt odowi t
hcr i
me
.
..
Ismom thatst
upidt
obeli
evethatl
ect
urest
rav
el
aroundt
hewor l
dli
kepi
l
ots..
..
Li
kencomment
#TuneI
n
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t110♥

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

.
..
asy ouallknowt hatiloveVanessav er
ymuchbut
atthemomentt hi
ngsar en'tl
ookinggoodbetween
thetwoofus. ..
.I
'vebeendi stanci
ngmysel ff
rom her
becausei waskindai r
rit
atedt hepr
evi
ousweek
whenshedi dn'tanswerherphonenshet henmade
afalseexcuseofnotcomi ngt ohavesupperwit
hmy
family
,wheneverV'slyingicant el
lnihateitv
ery
muchwhenshel i
estome. ..
butthetr
uthisimic
her.
..
..
Amogel
ang\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V
.
..
.
sotheweekwentonni twasnow8day swi
thout
tal
kingorseeingTrey..
.i
twasSaturdayi
wokeup
didthemorningprocessni woremybluesummer
dresswithwhitesandel
snacap. ..
Mom, JaynBr i
tneyweregoingv isiti
ngmom' s
parentsfortheweekendt heyinsistedi gowi t
hthem
butirefusedsoi twasgoingtobemeal oneall
weekendsoi helpedthem pr
epar i
ngf ort hei
r
tr
ip,
saidmygoodby esntheylefti don'twannal i
e
guysi wasmi ssingTreyA.Fsoi decidedt ocal
lhi
m
nheanswer edont hethi
rdri
ng
.
..
Me:
:
hey
..
..
Hi
m::
hey
Me:
:
areubusy
Hi
m::
nah
Me:
:
okygetr
eadyI
'
llbet
her
ein40mi
n
ihangedup,
i
twastimeforustofixt
hebroken
bondagainsoiwentt
her
ei knockednheopened
thedoor
.
..
.
Hi
m::
comei
n
idi
dast
oldni
fol
l
owedhi
mtot
hecouchnwesat
down
Me:
:
howar
eu
Hi
m::
iam good,
u
Me:
:
imi
ssedu
Hi
m::
udi
d?
Me:
:
yeah,
idi
d
Hi
m::
iwasjustgi
vi
ngual
lthet
imeuneedt
ohel
pur
mom wi
thsomething
sohe'sst
il
lupsett
hati
ref
usedt
ohav
edi
nner
wi
thhi
sfamil
y
Me:
:
ust
il
lnotov
ert
hat
Him::
Vwhydidn'
tuanswerurphonet
hel
astt
imei
cal
ledu,
ndon'
tli
ethi
sti
mepl ease
Me:
:
...
Hi
m::
Vanessa.
..
Me::
okayokayI'
l
ltel
lu,
itbecauseiwasjeal
ousof
seei
nguwiththatgi
rlt
hatday ,
shewasstandingso
cl
osetount hewayuguy slookedateachother.
..
Hi
m::
O.m.
gVushoul
d'
veaskedmei
nst
eadofact
ing
st
upi
d
ouch
Him::
bythewayt hat'
sLi
sashe'
smyex,butherni
datedwhenwewer eonl
y13..
.wewer
ej ustt
alki
ng
aboutrandom st
uff,
Me:
:
ohhh
Him::
yeah,
betweenmenhernothi
ng'
sgoi
ngon
t
rustmestar,
il
oveu,
nonl
yui j
usthat
eitwhenul
i
e
t
ome
Me:
:
iwon'
tdoi
tagai
nipr
omi
se
Hi
m::
buti
t'
ski
ndacut
ethatuwer
ejeal
ous
hesaidthatsmil
ingi l
aughedni ki
ssedhisl
ipsn
heimmediatel
yrespondedi won'tl
ieireal
l
ymissed
thi
ssoul,
wekeptonki ssi
ngv er
yslowlyn
passi
onate

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kencomment

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16:
17: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t111

sowekeptonki
ssingunt
ilwewerebot
hwetTrey
pickedmeupf r
om t
hecouchncarri
edmet ohi
s
room whi
lewewerekissi
ngheputmeont hebedn
hegotontopofme...
Hishandswereal
lar
oundmybodyhewasnow
l
icki
ngmyneckni wasnowbreat
hingheavi
l
y..
.he
keptonli
cki
ngmyneckwhil
eitookoffhi
st-
shi
rt
,unt
iedhi
sbel
tnhet
ookof
fmydr
essnmybr
a..
.
Hekissedmeont hemouthagainwhil
esqueezi
ng
mybr east
sni t
ookoffhi
spentswithmyfeet'
snhe
keptonbrushingmyv .
gwhil
elicki
ngmywhol ebody
Iwassohor nynsowashe. .
.
Hekissedmeonmyl ipsagai nwhi l
eslowlytaki
ng
offmypant yni sl
owlytookouthi sunderwearwi t
h
myfeet'
smyl egswerespr eadedar oundhiswai st
wewer enowbot hnaked,nakedhet r
iedtoenterhis
p*ni
sonmyv .
gbuthecoul dn'tij
umpedbecausei t
wassof *ckenpainful..
.hehel dmeagai n,t
ightthi
s
ti
menhet ri
edagainav eryl oudscream escapedmy
mouth...
hef ai
ledtodoi tagainbecausei tr
iedto
j
umpagai n,guysitwaspai nful .
..
Idi
dn'
tthi
nki
twoul
dbepai
nful
thatmuchbecause
i
twasnowmysecondti
me..
.
IguessTr
ey'
spen*
sist
hatbi
ghest
opped
.
..
Hi
m::
staropeny
ourey
es
.
..
 t
heywerecl
osedsoisl
owlyopenedt
hem n
l
ookedathi
ssmallr
edeyes
Hi
m::
don'
tcl
oseurey
esokay
inoddedhet
riedenter
ingdownt
her
eicl
osedmy
ey
esnj umpedagainLOL
Hi
m::
openurey
esV
iopenedthem nhehel
dmywai
stver
yti
ghtwit
h
hi
slefthandnheheldmyhandwi
thhi
sri
ghthand

Hi
m::
l
ookatmyey
es.
..
ididastol
dniheardhim sl
owlyenter
inghi
msel
f
downt her
enicoul
dn'
tevenscream becauseiwas
l
ookingathimij
ustgasped
.
..
Hi
m::damnstarusot
ight
(hesai
dthati
na
whi
speri
ngvoice)
.
..
hekeptonpushi
ngunt
ili
twasalli
nsi
dent
henhe
st
art
edlicki
ngmyneckwhil
emovingupndownon
topofmev
erygent
leniwasnowmourningvery
l
oudwhathewasdoingwaspai
nful
butniceatt
he
sameti
me
.
..
Hekeptonmovi
ngfr
om sl
owt ofastnf
astt
ofast
er
unti
lir
eal
i
zednheal
sodidthesamebutonmy
thi
ghs

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kencomment
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ryFor
TheSt
rongLanguageFam
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t112

Thi
soneisdedi
cat
edt
o: :Nol
owBl
ess
Mohlamony
ane

soTr
eygotupnhedi
sappear
edt
othebat
hroom
ncamebackwi t
hthewettowel,
i wipedmythighsn
heworehispantngotoutoft
her oom ist
oodup
si
ncei want
edtohavesomewat erbuticoul
dn't
walk.
..
.
..
Myv.gwasonf ir
e..
..
itwaspai
nful
itr
iedwal
ki
ngbut
wheneveri
tookastepi wasi
nmor epai
nsoi
deci
dedtositdown..
.
(
Mindui
wasst
il
lnaked)
.
..
Tr
eycamebackwi
thy
oghur
tnhesatnextt
ome
.
..
.
Hi
m::
areuokaymyst
ar
Me:
:
noi
am notokay
Hi
m::
whati
sit
Me:
:
ican'
twal
k
.
..
hel
aughedni
justl
ookedathi
m wi
thast
rai
ght
f
ace
Me:
:
what
'ssof
unny
Hi
m::
not
hing.
..
hest
oppedl
aughi
ng
Me:
:
thenwhyar
eul
aughi
ng
Hi
m::
iam sor
ryst
ar,
butwecanf
ixt
his
Me:
:
how
.
..
hest
art
edki
ssi
ngmeagai
nni
pul
l
edout
Hi
m::
bby
..
.
Me:
:
what
hedi
dn'trespondbuti
nst
eadhekissedmeagai
n
whil
esqueezingmybreastnguesswhatwedi
dour
r
oundtwo...
.
..
Guyshewasgent l
eslowlyhewasdoingeveryt
hing
perf
ectnt hesecondroundwasperf
ect,bet
tert
han
thefi
rstonenaf t
erithecarr
iedmetothebathnhe
openedcol
dwat
er.
..
Wetookal
ongcoldbathtoget
hernwegotout,
iwas
st
il
li
npai
nguysbutthecoldwaterhel
pedal
i
lbit
..
.
.
..
Wel oti
oned,imustadmitiwasnotcomf or
tabl
e
walkingaroundnakedinfr
ontofTreybutipret
ended
thatiwascomf ort
ablenafterwegotdressed,we
bothmadet hebed
.
..
.
Hi
m::
il
ovey
ou
Me:
:
ilov
eumor
e..
.butI
'
m hungr
y
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
l
et'
sgodownst
air
s
wewentdownst
air
snhemadecheese
sandwi
chesf
orbot
hofusnweatewhil
etaki
ng
sel
fi
es
(
Thet
imewas14:
00)
Him:
:st
art
hef
am wi
l
lbebacki
nanhoursowouldu
l
ikemetowal
kuhomeorwoul
duli
ketomeetthem
al
l
Me:
:
wal
kmehomepl
ease
.
..
heaccompani
edmehomeont hewaywewere
busyplayingnl
aughi
ngnteasi
ngeachotherwhen
wewer etwohousesawayfrom homewe
stopped
.
..
Hi
m::
starwhendi
dil
astwentt
othesal
on
Me:
:
2or3mont
hsback,
why
Hi
m: :
your
eal
l
yneedt
ovi
sitsal
on,
urhai
rlooks
t
err
ible
i
laughedbecauseTr
eywasbei
ngf
orwar
d
Hi
m::
don'
tl
aughbbYpl
easet
hisi
saser
iousmat
ter
hesai
dthatwi
thadr
amat
icf
acei
laughedev
en
more
Me:
:
f*cku
Hi
m::
i
ftakest
wot
odot
hat
 hesai
dthatwi
thanaught
yface
Me:
:
pleasegoal
ready(
isai
dthatl
aughi
ng)
Him::
okayt
henwe'
l
ltal
klat
erbbe,
don'
tfor
gett
he
sal
onissue
i
laughednt
heni
wentbackhome

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kencomment
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16:
17]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t113

soi wenti
nsidehome,
wentt
omyroom i
was
j
usttir
edsoi t
hrewmyselfonmybadniwentt
o
l
alaland
.
..
.
Iwokeupar
ound18:
00,i
wentdownstai
rsimade
mysel
fsomenoodl
es,at
eniwentupstai
rsagai
n,
myphonewasri
ngi
ngnitwasmom
.
..
.
Her
::
pri
ncess.
..
Me:
:
mom,
howwasurt
ri
p
Her
::i
twasokay
..
.nu?
,ar
euokay
Me:
:
iam good
Her
::
okayt
hencal
lmei
funeedany
thi
ngokay
Me:
:
I'
ll
,
goodni
ght
Her
::
goodni
ghtsweet
yil
ovey
ou
.
..
ihangedupniwenttoshowerworemyp.j'
si
t
ri
edt ocombmyhairbuti
twasal i
lbi
thar
d,Tr
ey
wasrighti
real
l
yneededtogotothesal
on
.
..
Iwentdownstai
rstowatchT.Vniwatchedthe
movieti
tl
ed'
ifonly
'it
'
sar eal
l
ynicebutpai
nful
movie,
i
tmademecr y.
..
.
..
Wheni
tcomest
opai
nful
mov
iei
cryguy
snmy
bi
ologi
calmotherusedtoteasemeaboutthatLOLi
must'
vefal
lenasleepint
hecouchbecauseiwas
wokenupbymyr ingi
ngphonenitwasTrey
.
..
Hi
m::
star
Me:
:
mybabe
Hi
m::
ust
il
lgood
Me:
:
yeah,
u
Hi
m::
met
oo,
iwascal
l
ingut
osaygoodni
ght
Me:
:
goodni
ght
Hi
m::
il
oveu
Me:
:
lov
eumor
e
.
..
hehangedupniwentupst
air
sgotundermy
bl
anki
es,
prayednsl
ept
..
..
.
..
.
Thenextdayi
twasSundayi
wokeuparound9:
30
bat
hedwor emyumbrel
l
aski
rt,
whi
tet
-shi
rtnmy
bl
acksweatheel
str
iedtocombmyhai
r,
appl
i
ed
bl
ackl
ipst
ickniwentdownst
air
s
.
..
.
Hadmybr eakfastniwenttomycar,
drov
eof ft
o
sal
ont heyrel
axedmyhai rnt
heycur
ledit.
..
iwas
l
ookingbeauti
fulipai
dni mademywayoutni took
someselfi
esni wenttotheshops

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kencomment
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opTop
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2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t114

iwenttoapi
zzashop,orderedpizza,
chipsna
gl
assofcokeasiwasenj oyingmymeal someone
oneshowedup,
itwasaboy ,hewast all
,
black
Amarican,
Smal
leyes,
pinklips..
.hewas
handsome
.
..
Hi
m::
hey
Me:
:
hy
Hi
m::
mindi
fij
oinu
Me:
:
sur
e..
.
hesatdowni
nfr
ontofme
.
..
Hi
m::
iam Zac.
..
Me:
:
Vanessa
Hi
m::
nicet
omeetu
Me:
:
...
Hi
m::
you'
rebeaut
if
ul'
nessa
Me:
:
thanky
ou.
.
Him:
:sol
etmegetst
rai
ghtt
othepoi
nt,
cani
hav
eur
numbers
Me:
:
whatwi
l
ludowi
tht
hem
Hi
m::
soi
cancal
lnwecant
alk
Me:
:tal
kaboutwhat
Hi
m::
ther
e'ssomet
hingi
wannat
ell
u
Me::
sincei
am i
nfr
ontofu,
ucant
ell
mewhatuwant
t
ell
menow
Hi
m::
comeon.
..
Me:
:
areugoi
ngt
otel
lmeornot
Hi
m::
..
.
.
..
si
ncehewasn'
tpr
epar
edt
otal
kit
ookmyphonen
l
efthi
mther
e..
..
Iwasn'
tprepar
edt oent
ert
ainsomeoneelse,i
already
haveTreyi
nmyl i
f enhe'
sallineediwentt
ot hemall
nstrol
l
edtherealonewhil
etakingsel
fi
es,
ineeded
somef r
eshair
..
Ihav
en'
tbeenouti
nawhi
l
esoi
yeah.
..

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kencomment
#Sor
ryFor
TheShor
tI
nser
tFam-
Net
wor
kPr
o
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t115

soar
ound16:
00i
wenthome.
..
Iwassot i
redi wentt
ot hebathr
oom,bathednwor e
myp. j
'
ssincei wasn'
tgoingtogetoutofthehouse
againnireceiv
edacall fr
om mom tell
i
ngmet hat
theyweregonnacomebackt hefol
lowingdayafter
noon(Mondayaf t
ernoon)soi wentdownstai
rsni
mademysel facoldorangejui
ceni wenttowatch
Tv

.
..
.
Iwaswatchi
ngEmpi
reseason4soTr
eycal
l
ed
di
stur
bingme
.
..
Me:
:
hel
l
o
Hi
m::
starhav
euf
orgot
tenaboutme
Me:
:
no,
whywoul
dut
hinkt
hat
Hi
m::
uhav
en'
tcal
lorev
ent
extt
oday
Me:
:
iwasbusybbysor
ry
Hi
m::
wit
hwhat
?
Me:
:
iwasatt
hesal
on
Hi
m::
thewhol
eday
?
Me:
:
ial
sowentt
othemal
l
Hi
m::
ohhhoky
Me:
:
iam sor
ry
Hi
m::
okay,
canwemeet
Me:
:
now?
??
Hi
m::
yeahi
fucan
Me:
:
okayt
hen
.
..
i
hangedup,
wentupst
air
snwor
emysl
eeper
s,i
wasouti methi m hal
ftwayhewasweari
ngabl ack
ski
nnyjean,bl
ackRedBatt -
shi
rt
snajeanjacket
,he
waslookinghandsomewhi leiwasweari
ngpurple
p.j
'
snwhi tesleepersLOL

.
..
Hi
m::
l
iker
eal
l
yst
arPy
jamas
Me:
:
whatwr
ongwi
thwear
ingp.
j'
s
Hi
m::
it'
snotev
en18:
00y
et
Me:
:
so?
??.
..
Hi
m::
you'
recr
azyl
i
keser
iousl
y
Me:
:
yeahr
ightwhat
ever
Him::
byt hewayiam happyuwentt
othe
sal
on,you'
rebeaut
if
ul
.
..
i
laughed
Hi
m::
imi
ssedy
ou
Me:
:
met
oo
Hi
m::
l
iar
..
.
Me:
:
ser
ious
Hi
m::
yeahr
yt
heki
ssedmyf
oreheadnhel
dmyhands
Hi
m::
yourf
am ai
n'
tbacky
et
Me:
:
they
'l
lbebackt
omor
row
Hi
m::
aren'
tuscar
edsl
eepi
ngal
onei
nthatbi
ghouse
Me:
:
nahi
am not
,i
t'
ssaf
e
Hi
m::
alr
ightt
hen,
don'
tuwannahav
easl
eepov
eron
myhouse
Me:
:
what
??
Hi
m::mypar
ent
sar
eonadat
etoni
ghti
tjustmen
Ky
le
Me:
:
no
Hi
m::
pleasest
ar
Me::
nowe'r
egoi
ngt
oschool
tomor
rowhav
eu
f
orgott
en
Hi
m::
iknowbu.
.
Me:
:
Treyi
t'
sanookay
Hi
m::
alr
ight
..
.
Me:
:
wher
ewer
eut
oday
Hi
m::
athome
Me:
:
dressedl
i
ket
his?
guy
si knowTreyv
erywel
lwhenhe'
sIndoor
she
weart
rackpant
snotj
eans
Hi
m::
okayokayi
wasoutwi
tht
heguy
s
Me:
:
ohhoky
Hi
m::
..
..
Me:
:
ijusthopet
her
ewer
enogi
rl
sinv
olv
ed
Hi
m::
rel
axst
ari
twasment
heguy
s
Me:
:
oky
westoodther
etal
ki
ngforli
ke2hoursnafteri
wenthomeiimmediat
elywenttosl
eepbecausei
wassotir
ed
Li
kencomment
#AGoodNi
ght
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t116

thefoll
owi
ngdayi twasmonday ,
iwokeupndi d
thehygi
eneprocess,
loti
onednwor emypinkdress
whichwasont opofmykneesnwhi t
eAdidas
sandal
s,appl
i
edal i
ghtpinkl
ipst
icknali
lbitofmake
up
.
..
.
Wentdownst air
sgr eetedthemai dsni hadmy
breakf
astni decidedthatI'l
lwalkgoi ngtoschool n
soi di
d,i
hadmyear phonesonl isteningtoTrey
Songs'ssongtit
led'Alreadytaken' i
twasi nrepeatl
,i
arri
vedatschool ni wentstrai
ghtt oclass,
the
peri
odswentonnonunt i
li
twasl unch, wenttothe
eati
nghallhadmyf oodnsatdownshor t
ly
Anast
asi
ajoi
nedmecar
ryi
ngherf
ood
.
..
Her
::
,best
iehowar
eu
Me:
:
iam good,
nu
Her:
:
met oo,
soy
ouf
orgotaboutmet
hewhol
e
weekend
Me:
:
ofcour
senot
..
.
Her
::
howwasurweekendany
way
Me:
:
good.
..
(isai
dthatsmi
l
ing)
Her
::mmmhm t
ell
meabouti
t
Me:
:
wel
ll
etmej
ustsayTr
eyni
final
l
ydi
dit
..
.
Her
::
O.M.
G..
.f
inal
l
ygi
rl
,howwasi
t
Me:
:
pai
nful
.
..
Her
::
pai
nful
???
Me:
:
nal
i
lbi
tni
ce
Her:
:don'
twor
ryast
imegoesbyi
twi
l
lbemor
eni
ce
nfun
Me:
:
ihopeso.
.
shel aughednwecont inuedeati
ng,thebellr
angn
wewentoursepar ateway sbeforeievenknewi t
,i
t
wasaf terschoolAnastasiawasalreadywit
hChr is
soi wasn'tgonnadist
urbthem inst
eadi wenttolook
forTrey,hewaspracti
singbasketball
intheplayi
ng
hallbuthecamet omeassoonashesawme
.
.
Hi
m::
myst
ar
hesai
dthatki
ssi
ngmyforeheadii
mmedi atel
y
smil
edbecauseir
eal
lyl
ovef
oreheadkissesguys
Me:
:
howar
eumyev
ery
thi
ng
Hi
m::
idar
knl
ovel
y,nu
i
laughed
Me:
:
iam f
ine
Hi
m::
sobbeusai
durf
am i
scomi
ngbackl
atert
oday
?
Me:
:
yesnmydadi
scomi
ngbackt
omor
row
Hi
m::
canucomear
ound14:
00
Me:
:
ihav
eabet
teri
dea
Hi
m::
what
Me:
:
ski
ppr
act
icesowecangot
oget
hert
ourpl
ace
Hi
m::
ski
ppr
act
ice?
???
Me:
:
yeah,
orot
her
wisei
ain'
tcomi
ng
Hi
m::
sonowy
ouput
ti
ngmebet
weenar
ocknahar
d
pl
ace
Me:
:
...
Hi
m::
l
et'
sgo
.
..
.
sohedi
dskippracti
cenwewentt ohispl acehi
s
mom wasinherroom onl
yKylewaswat chi
ngT. V
wi
thher3fri
endsigreet
edthem ntheydidn't
r
espondi
nsteadtheygavemeasi cklooky ohhh
.
..
soTr
eyni
wentt
ohi
sroom
.
..
Me:
:
whatupwi
thursi
ster
'sf
ri
ends
Hi
m::
ioncedat
edoneoft
hem ni
brokeherhear
tso
y
eah
Me:
:
ohhhoky
Him::ihopey
ou'
renotupsetst
arbecauseiam not
goingtoapol
ogi
seforsomethi
ngthathappeneda
yearago
Me:
:
butsouknowt
heoneudat
edst
il
ll
oveu
Him::
thenshemustkeepherf
eel
i
ngst
oherasel
f
becauseil
oveyou
[
2/23,
16:
17]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t117

hesai
dthatcomi
ngcl
oset
ome
Me:
:
ilov
eut
oobabYboo
wekissednourkissl
edtos*
x,wehad3
r
ounds.
..Treywant
edtokil
lmeguysiswearLOLbut
t
henitwasgood. .
..
Wewentt
obat
htoget
hernwef
ixedt
hebedi
was
sot
ir
ed
.
..
.
Me:
:
bbei
am hungr
y
Hi
m::
whatdouwantt
oeat
Me:
:
iwoul
dli
ket
ohav
easandwi
chpl
ease
hel
ookedatme
Me:
:
what
Hi
m::
usoundl
i
key
ou'
rei
nar
est
aur
ant
il
aughednhegotoutofhi
sroom l
eavi
ngmenext
tot
hewindowl ooki
ngatt
hevi
ew,t
hat
'smyfav
our
it
e
par
tofTrey'
sroom
.
..
.
Hecamebackafter10mincar
ryi
nganor
angej
uice
nasandwi
chthatlookedy
ummy
.
..
.
Sohewatchedmeeati
ngiti
nsil
encenaf
teri
was
donei
layonhisbedf
acingup
.
..
Tr
ey:
:
you'
rer
eal
l
ylov
efood,
don'
tu
Me:
:noi
don'
t
hel
aughed
Hi
m::uknowi
enj
oyedwat
chueat
ingl
i
keser
iousl
yu
wer
ecute
Me:
:
whatev
er
Hi
m::
cani
geta'
thankubbe'
i
laughed
Me:
:
you'
resodr
amat
ic
Hi
m::
yeahr
yt
Me:
:
bbecani
askusomet
hing
Hi
m::
what
Me:
:
canusi
ngf
orme
Hi
m::
areuki
ddi
ngme
Me:
:
bbepl
ease
Hi
m::
no
Me:
:iam beggi
ngu
Hi
m::
Vanessa,
no
Me:
:
okyt
heni
won'
ttal
ktouunt
ili
agr
ee
heknewthati
wascapabl
eofdoi
ngt
hatsohe
hadnochoi
cebuttoagr
ee
Hi
m::
whi
chsongdouwantmet
osi
ng
Me:
:
yourf
avour
it
esong
heopenedhi slaptopnhesandChr i
sBr own'
s
song'withoutyou'hewasholdi
ngatoothbrushasa
microphone,nsingi
ngformei wasstar
ri
ngat
hi
m,guy sTreygotav oi
cetodiefori
don'tknowyhe
doesn'tl
iketosingbecauset
hishumandoeshav ea
goodv oi
ce. .
.
Soicoul
dn'
tstopsmi
li
ngwhil
ehewassi
ngi
ngy
ou'
d
sweariwasunderal
ovespel
lLOL.
..
.
..
Af
terhef
ini
shedsi
ngi
ngi wasspeechl
esssoij
ust
st
oodupnhuggedhim guysif
eltsospeci
al
.
..
Me:
:
thankubbY
Hi
m::
iwon'
tsay'
pl
easur
e'becauseuf
orcedmet
o
si
ng
i
laughed
Hi
m::
whatt
imei
sit
Me:
:
idon'
tknow.
.
i
wenttocheckt hetimeni twas17:00f*ckitook
mybagsi mmedi at
elynTr eyaccompaniedme
home,iarr
ived,ast
iredasi wasi hadtocookforthe
fam becausetheyallaskedmeni cel
ytoCookf or
them,theylovemycooki ng
.
..
Icookedsomethi
ngsimpl
ewit
hthehel
pof
Grace(
theol
destmaidint
hehouse)
Spaghet
tinBeefst
ewnsomev
eget
abl
es
Naf
teranhourt
heyal
lar
ri
ved
Idi
shedupnweat ewhilethey
vweret el
l
ingme
aboutt
heirt
ripnafteriwenttomyr oom,call
edmy
dadconfi
rmingthathewasst i
llcomingthe
fol
lowi
ngdayi pr
ayed,goti
ntomyp. j
'sni wasof
f
[
2/23,
16:
22]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t118

sotheweekwenton, dadcamebackni twasnow

thef ol
lowingweek19Apr i
l
,i
twasTuesdayi wokeup
didmyhy gieneprocess,
iworemygreyNike
tracksuitnNi kesneaker
s...
I
twasali
lbi
tcoldit
iedmyhairnasIwasapply
ing
mymakeupont hemirr
orir
ememberedthat it
wasmymother'
sbir
thdayi
becamealilbi
tsad..
.
Wentforbreakf
ast,hadbreakf
astwit
hmyfam..
.t
hey
werechatt
ingni wasquit
enaf t
erdaddr
oveusto
school
..
.
Forthef i
rstt
imeinmylif
eiwasthinki
ngaboutmy
motherbuti wasnotcryi
ngiar
ri
vedatschoolhad
mycl assesnAnastasi
anoti
cedthatiwasquit
e
duri
ngourl unch
.
..
.
Her
::what
'
swr
ongmyb*
tch
Me:
:
it'
smymot
her
'sbi
rt
hday
Her
::
Linda?
?
Me::
nomybi
ologi
cal
mot
her
,Anast
asi
athat
'sher
name
Her
::
gir
lyourmot
herni
shar
eaname
Me:
:
yeah,
uknowi
feel
gui
l
tyofbei
ngher
e
Her
::
meani
ng?
Me::
meaningtodayi shouldbedoingsomethi
ngto
cel
ebrat
eherbirthday,l
ikevi
sit
inghergr
ave,
cl
eani
ng
i
twithmyy oungersibl
ings,
uknow. .
.
Her
::
iam sor
rycakes
Me:
:
it'
sokay
isai
dthatfaki
ngasmil
enshehuggedme,my
fr
iendiscrazyiknowbutshe'
sonesuppor
ti
ng
b*tch..
.
Her
::butwhyam i
onl
yfi
ndingoutnowt
haty
our
mother'
snamewasAnastasi
a
.
..
i
laughed.
..
Sotherestoft
hedaywentoni tal
kedtoTreyabi
tn
l
uckil
yhehadapr act
ice,
whichwastot
allyagood
thi
ngbecausehonestl
yiwantedtobealone..
.
.
..
Af
terschool
Lindaf
etchedus.
..
iwentt
omyroom,
i
wasn'
thungr
ysatonmybedncal l
edMbal
i
.
..
.
Her
::babes
Me:
:
hey
Her
::
what
'
supAmo,
usoundsodown
Me:
:
lookIneedut
odosomet
hingf
orme
Her
::
shoot
Me::
uremembert
hatt
oday
'smymot
her
'sbi
rt
hday
angi
thi
Her
::
ohhhy
hbabesi
remember
Me:
:
pleasegobuypur
plef
lower
snt
aket
hem t
oher
gr
ave,
urememberwher
eiti
sdon'
tyou
.
..
wel
lshel
ovedpur
plef
lower
s
Her
::
ido
Me:
:
pleasef
ri
end
Her
::
okay
Me:
:
thanku
Her
::
areuokaykodwa
Me:
:
iam f
inef
rnd
Her
::
okayt
henl
etmego,
I
'l
lcal
luaf
terI
'
vedonewhat
uaskedme
Me:
:
okayt
hanku
.
..
ihangedup,
tookoffwhatiwaswearingniwore
myp.j'
stookoutmymot her
'sneckl
ace,
putt
editonn
it
ookmyt eddybear
,cuddl
editimust'
vedossed
of
f
Pl
ease l
i
ke comment nshaRe
[
2/23,
16:
22] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t119

sothenextdayiwokeupdidmyhy
gienepr
ocess
ni
wentdownstai
rsforbr
eakf
ast
.
..
Thewhol
efam wasal
readyt
her
eigr
eet
ednsat
down
.
.
Dad:
:
soI
'
vebeent
hinki
ng
Jay
::
about
?
Dad:
:
taki
ngal
lmychi
l
drenf
orl
unchaf
terschool
Br
it
ney
::
itay
esf
orme
Dad:
:
Jay
??
Jay
::
countmei
n
Dad:
:
Va.
.
Me::
met
oo,
i
t'
sbeenawhi
l
enotspendi
ngt
imewi
th
you
Li
nda:
:whataboutme
Dad:
:
I'
ll
deal
wit
hyouont
hebed
Me:
:
li
ker
eal
l
ydad,
diduhav
etosayt
hather
e,now?
?
Dad:
:
justpr
etendl
i
keudi
dn'
thearat
hing
Br
it
ney
::whatev
er,
guy
scanwegot
oschool
now.
.
.
.
shest
oodupnleftJayni
fol
l
owedher ,
thedr
iver
dr
oveustoschool
sowewentintheschool
pr
emises..
..
Anast
asi
acametomenwet al
ked,
aswewer
e
tal
ki
ngsomeonei
nter
rupt
edus..
.
I
twasLi
sa,
Trey
'sext
heonei
sawwi
thhi
mtheot
her
day

Her
::
hey
..
.
Us:
:
hal
l
o..
Her
::
Vanessar
yt?
shesai
dthatpoi
nti
ngmewi
thaphone
Me:
:
yeah,
whatup
Her
::
ij
ustwant
edt otel
lutoenj
oyt
heti
mey ousti
ll
hav
ewithTr
ey,becausenotsol
onghe'
l
l,bemine.
..
shethensmi
l
ed,
winkednl
eftust
her
e
speechl
ess

Li
ke shaRe comment
#cRopTop
[
2/23,
16:
22: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t120

sothedaywentonAnastasi
awasbusybeggi ng
metolethergoibeatt
hatgir
lupbutikeptsayi
ng
no,
iwasn'
tprepar
edonaskingTreyanyt
hingrel
ated
t
oher
..
.
.
..
Afterschoolmysi bli
ngsni wenthomewear ri
ved
home, i
freshenedupsi ncedadwast aki
ngus
out,woremygr eytightdresswhi
chwasont opofmy
knees,t
henmywhi tesandalsnileav
edmyhair
l
oose,pinkli
pstick
.
..
.
Offwewent ,
wewenttoburgersshop,
iorder
edbeef
burger
,chi
psncoke,
Bri
tneyorder
edcheese
burger
,chi
psnacokendadnJayor der
edwhatthey
wantedtoo
.
..
Soi
wast
alki
ngt
oTr
eyv
iaWhat
sApp
.
..
.
Hi
m::
star
..
Me:
:
hey
..
.
Hi
m::
yougood?
Me:
:
yeah,
u?
Hi
m::
met
oo,
cani
askusomet
hing
Me:
:
shoot
..
.
Hi
m::sonextweekWednesdayi
t'
smymot
her
's
bi
rt
hday
Me:
:
so?
Hi
m::
we'l
lbehav
ingasmal
lpar
tytocel
ebr
ate,
soi
waswonder
ingi
fuwoul
dli
ketocome
Me:
:
urwhol
efami
l
y'sgonnabet
her
e?
Hi
m::
yeah,
niwi
l
lgetachancet
oint
roduceut
othem
Me:
:
olr
ytI
'
llbet
her
e
Hi
m::
ser
ious?
Me:
:
yeahser
ious
Hi
m::
thankumyev
ery
thi
ng
.
..
.
ithenl
oggedoutofmyWhat
sAppni
cont
inued
eat
ingwit
hthefam
.
..
..
.
..
..
 Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

soiwaswit
hKyle(
myt win)whi
l
echart
ingwit
h
V,
wewer ebyt
hepool,soiwasali
lbi
thungryi
went
i
nsidel
eavi
ngKyl
eoutside
If
ounddadint
hekit
chen,hewasholdi
ngaglassof
or
angejui
cewhi
lest
arri
ngatnot
hingucoul
dt el
lhi
s
mindwassomewhereel
se
.
..
Me:
:
dadar
euokay
Him:
:
ohhhT(
thathowhecal
l
sme)
idi
dn'
tseeu
comi
ngin
Me:
:
areuokay
Him:
:yes,
act
ual
l
yno,
oneofmybusi
nessi
sfal
l
ing
apar
t
Me:
:
busi
ness?
?
Hi
m::
yeah,
thedr
ugsbusi
ness
Me:
:
ohhh
Hi
m::
ntosaveiti
am caughti
nthemi
ddl
eofar
ock
nahar
dplace
Me::
ihopesav
ingdoesn'
tmeany
ou'
l
lhav
etoki
ss
someone
Hi
m::
nonono.
..
not
hingl
i
ket
hat
Me:
:
thendowhatuhav
etodot
osav
eit
Him:
:eveni
fitmeanst
aki
ngawayt
hehappi
nessof
someonecl
osetomyheart
?
Me:
:
whatdoumean
iaskedthatquest
ionl
eav
ingwhati
wasdoi
ngn
l
ookingathimintheeyes
Hi
m::
nev
ermi
nd
hesai
dt hatputt
ingt
heglassofj
uicehewas
holdingi
nt hesinkngoi
ngawayf r
om meni wasl
eft
thereconfusedwi t
hunansweredquesti
ons

Li
ke Comment nshaRe
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oveYa'
l
l♥
[
2/23,
16:
22] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t121

Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

sodayswentonni
didn'
tbot
hert
ell
i
ngTr
eywhat
Li
sa(hi
sex)sai
dtome...
.
.
..
I
twasnowTuesday
,thedaybef
oreTr
ey'
smot
her
's
bi
rt
hday
..
.
Iwokeupdidmyhy gi
eneprocess,
woremybum-
shor
tnmyRedBatwhi teshor
tsleev
edT-shi
rtni
appl
iedanai
veli
psti
ckni waswearingmynaive
Pumasneakers.
..
Myhairwasloose,
iwaslookingbeauti
ful
i
ndeed,
thenwentforbreakf
ast..asusual
lyt
he
whol
ef am wasalr
eadyther
ei gr
eetednsatdown
.
..
Dad::
soki
ds,
mywifeni
,
aregoi
ngoutt
oni
ghtnwe'
l
l
backtomor
rowni
ght
Jay
::
someani
ngwe'
l
lbehomeal
one
Li
nda:
:yes,
buty
ou'
l
lhav
etobehav
e
Dad:
:
exact
ly,
nohousepar
ti
esnno.
..
Br
it
ney
::dadr
elaxwe'
l
lbehav
e
Dad::
ihopeuwill
becauseifudon'
tyouguy
swi
ll
walkyoursel
ftoschoolf
orthewhol
emonthnwe'
ll
cutursal
ary
Jay
::
li
keser
iousl
yguy
s?
Li
nda:
:
yeah
Me:
:
wegoti
t,
uguy
senj
oyy
ourt
imeaway
Br
it
ney
::y
eahby
e
westoodupnwenttoschool
wear
ri
vednas
usual
iwenttoAnast
asi
a
Her
::b*
tchugl
owi
ng
Me:
:
thanky
ou
Her
::
howar
eu
Me:
:
ali
ve

shel
aughed
Her
::what
everman
Me:
:
uknowt
omor
rowi
s't
hee'
day
Her
::
thedayy
ou'
l
lbemeet
ingy
ouri
nlaws
Me:
:
yeah,
iam scar
ed
Her:
:
don'
tbe.
..
yousai
dyou'
vemethi
smot
herbef
ore
ordi
dn'
tu
Me:
:
yesbu.
.
Her
::
shedi
dn'
thav
eanypr
obl
em wi
thudi
dn'
tshe?
Me:
:
no
Her
::
thenuhav
enot
hingt
owor
ryaboutV
Me:
:
ihav
en'
tmett
hef
athery
et
Her::
iam sur
ehe'l
ll
ikeu..
imeanwhowoul
dn'
tl
ike
suchabeauti
ful
girll
ikeu
 i
laughed
Me:
:
let
'shopehewi
l
l
Her
::evenifhedoesn'
t,whocar
es,
asl
ongasTr
ey'
s
onyoursideyou'
l
lbefine
Me:
:
...
Her
::
justr
elaxVnbeudon'
tbesomeoney
ou'
renot
j
ustt
oi mpress
Me:
:
rel
axi
knowbet
tert
hant
hat
Her
::
good
.
..
sot
hebel
lrangnmyf
rndni
wentsepar
ateway
s
.
..
Ihadanor
mal daygoingonnaft
erschool
Iwentt
o
watcht
hebasketbal
lgame,mymanwasplayi
ngsoi
hadtobet
hereLOL
.
..
Af
tert
hegamei wenthome,
idi
dn'
tgett
otal
kto
Tr
eysoyeah.
..
Iarri
vedtherenmom ndadhadal readyleft
..
.Jay'
s
fr
iendfil
ledthehouseni hadnochoicebuttolock
mysel fi
nmyr oom layi
ngonmybednl i
steni
ngt o
myf avouri
teplayl
istnunexpect
edi fel
lasl
eep

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ke♥comment
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e♥
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ayTuned
[
2/23,
16:
22]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t122

sothefoll
owingmor ningiwokeup,
bat
hednwor e
myNiketracksui
t,t
iedmyhai ri
ntoabunthenIwent
downstai
rs,iwastheinlyoneawakesofar.
..
.
..
.
Ideci
dedtospoilmysibl
ingsbymakingbreakfast
fort
hem,pancakeswithhoneynorangejui
ceaf t
era
whil
eiwasdone,thecamedownstair
snweat ein
peacethenourdri
vetookustoschool.
..
Wewer el
i
lbi
tlat
esoi
didn'
tgetachancet
osee
Anna.
..
.
..
Onbr eakti
meiwasstandi
ngalonenexttomy
carbonate,
nsomeclosedmyey esf
rom behi
ndi
knewt hati
twasTr
eysoi l
aughednt ur
nedtoface
him
.
..
Me:
:
mybabe
Hi
m::
wif
ey.
.
Me:
:
ugood?
Hi
m::
yeah
heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m::you'
rest
il
lcomi
ngt
omymot
her
'sbi
rt
hday
di
nnerryt
Me:
:
dinner
?,i
thoughti
twasapar
ty
Him::ohhyeah,
mom sai
dshedoesn'
twantanyt
hing
thatwill
beawasteonmoneynt i
mesowe'llbenow
havingadinner
Me:
:ohhhoky
Hi
m::
ohhhnst
ar
Me:
:
yes.
.
Hi
m::
bey
ouokay
wi
tht hathelef
tnit
henwentt olookforAnnan
surpri
singlyshewasn'
tpresentatschoolsoiwasby
mysel f
,i wentt
oeatwit
hBr i
tneynherannoyi
ngtwo
fr
iends
.
..
Theper
iodswentonnonunt
ili
wasschool
out
.
..
.
WewenthomenJaynBr
it
neyhadapar
tyt
oat
tend
soi
wasleftal
one.
..
.
..
.
Wentt
othebat
hroom,pouredwar
m wateri
nthe
bat
hnigoti
nnrelaxed,
aft
er20igotoutl
oti
oned.
..
Ididn'
tknowwhatt owearonthatdinnerbutfi
nal
lyi
choseast i
tchedboyf
ri
endjean,bl
ackVansnabl ack
FILAt-
shir
tscurledmyhairnileaveditunti
ed
.
.
Al
i
lbi
tofnaï
vel
i
pst
ickcompl
etedt
hel
ook

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soi waslooki
ngni ceni t
henwentdownst ai
rs
,toldthemai dstotellmom ndadt hatwewenttoa
sleepov erwhent heygetbackt heni t
ookmycarkey
thetimewas18: 00i dr oveniarri
vedaf t
er30min
wheni wasoutsidei call
edTreytell
inghimtocome
nf etchmef rom mycarnhedi d..
..
Iwasv
eryner
vousmyhear
twasaboutt
ocomeout
ofmymouthbutTr
eywasj
ustov
erthemoon.
..
Sowegoti
nisawhi
smot
herwear
ingal
ongnai
ve
l
ongdressnsheherhairwasloose,
she'swas
l
ookingbeaut
if
ulguys,
nKylewaswearingsameout
f
itashermother,
theywer
elooki
ngcuteA.F
.
.asf
orTr
ey,hewasweari
ngabl
ackski
njean,
Vansn
awhit
eRedBadt-
shi
rthewasl
ooki
ngsohot..
.
.
..
Idi
dn'
tseehi
sfat
hersowewentt
ohi
smot
her
.
..
.
Tr
ey::
somom thi
sisVanessaPar
ker
,myf
utur
ewi
fe
nthemotherofmychi
ldr
en
i
coul
dn'
thel
pmysel
fsoi
blushedguy
s
Hi
m::
nV,
thi
sist
hewomanwhogav
ebi
rt
htomen
t
hisi
smytwi
nsist
erKy
le
Ky
le:
:
it'
sal
way
sapl
easur
etoseeuV
Hi
smot
her
::
nicet
omeetuf
utur
ewi
fe
.
..
weal
ll
aughed
Hi
smot
her
::
ulookbeaut
if
ulsweet
y
Me:
:
thanku
Tr
ey:
:
sobabedadwentsomewher
ebuthe'
l
lbeback
i
nnotime
ashementi
onedhi sf
atherbutt
erf
ly'
sstar
tedto
fi
l
l mystomachsowehel pedHi smothernKyleto
preparet
hedinnertabl
enaf t
erwewer edonewe
fi
l
ledthetabl
ewi t
hallki
ndsofdelici
ousfood...
Trey
'smot
herwasnicet
omeni
wasnowwor
ri
ed
aboutt
hef
ather.
..
.
..
Soafterweweredonewesatdownwai
ti
ngf
orMr
Bol
ton(Trey
'sf
ather
)
.
..
Nguesswhat
,heshowedupwit
hawhitel
adyna
whit
emanntheywerebei
ngfol
lowedbyLi
sa(
Trey
's
ex)W.T.
F

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ke Comment nshaRe
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arykaAmo
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soinsilentweal lsatdown...
Lisarushedtosit
nexttoTr eysoi hadnochoi cebutt osittonextto
Kyle..
.Tr
ey '
sfathersatnexttohi swifenthewhi te
mannt hewhi t
el adythatweref oll
owinghisalsosat
together,
Tr eynLi saweresitt
ingopposi t
emen
Kyle..
.
Lisakeptonlooki
ngmewi thali
lsmi
l
eonher
face,
butikeptonignor
ingher
..
.
Soshewaswear i
ngapit
chdresswhi
chreachedher
kneesnpinkhi
l
ls,
herhai
rwascurl
ednshehadar ed
l
ipsti
ckon..
.
.
..
Sowest ar
teddi
shi
ngupf
oroursel
vesnwest
art
ed
eat
ing.
..
Soguy sTr
ey'
sfatherlookedlikehewasi nhi
s30'
s
buthehadthi
sv eryscarylooki don'
tknow
why,samegoeswiththewhi teman. .
.
ThanksGodTr
ey'
smotherfi
nal
l
ydecidedtobr
eak
theawkwar
dsi
lentt
hatwasint
heroom,soshe
stoodup
.
.
Her::
soi woul
dli
ketothankeveryoneher
ef or
comingt ocel
ebr
atethi
sdaywi t
hmei t'
smeansal ot
tome,mostofalliwouldl
iketothankmyhusband
forbeingthemostwonderful
husbandal adycoul
d
everwi shf
or
Tr
ey'
sfat
her
::
thankuf
orbei
ngt
hewonder
ful
wif
e
ncoahtheyr
eal
lylookedgoodt
oget
hernTr
ey'
s
motherwasevenblushi
ngLOL
Trey'
smother
::
andiwouldl
i
ketothankmychil
dren
forbei
ngthebl
essi
ngsinmyli
fe,
iam bl
essedt
obe
surr
oundedbyyouguysonthi
sday
Ky
le:
:
ilov
eumom
shestoodupnhuggedherbeautif
ul
mother,
ncoahhhnTrey'
smothersatdown,
her
husband(
Trey'
sfat
her)st
oodup
Hi
m::
fi
rstofal
liwoul
dli
ket
owi
shmywonder
ful
wifeof16y earsahappybi rthday,secondlyi would
l
iketointr
oducet heHudsonf amily,t
hisisMr
Hudson(hesai dthatpointi
ngatt hewhi teman) ,
Mrs
Hudson(thewhi t
ewoman)nt hisistheirdaughter
LisaHudson. .
.MrnMr sHudsont hisitmywi fe(he
saidthatpointi
ngatTr ey'
smot her),
ydaught erKylen
thisi
smysonTr eynuhhhi guesst hatKy le'
s
fri
end(hesaidthatreferr
ingtomenLi salaughed)
Tr
ey:
:
act
ual
l
yda.
..
Tr
ey '
sdad:
:
Ti am notdonet
alki
ngucant
alkaf
ter
me,nowwherewasi .
.
SoI'
v eBeendoingabusi nesswi
thMrHudsonf or
suchal ongti
met hatourwishwasnowt obecomea
famil
ynnowourwi shhascomet ruebecause
i
mmedi atelyaft
erhighschoolTr
eynLisawill
be
gett
ingmar ri
ed
.
..
.
i
chockedf
rom t
hewi
ne

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ke Comment nshar
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ayTuned♥
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arykaAmo

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nser
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myheartstar
tedbeat i
ngfast
,Kylenhermot her
l
ookedatLi sa,
ilookedatTreynTr eywasl ooki
ngat
hisfat
herindisbeli
ef.
..Li
sawassmi l
ing,
nsower e
herparent
s...
.Ididn'
tknowhowt ofeelorhowt o
react
.
..
Trey
'sfat
her
::
pleasest
andupf
utur
edaught
eri
nlaw
sotheycanseey ou
.
..
Li
sadidast
oldnilookeddownav
oidi
ngeye
cont
actwit
hever
yone,
idon'
tknowwhyididt
hatbut
idi
danyway
.
..
Trey
'sf
atherkeptonbraggi
ngaboutLisa,abouthow
bl
essedhewast ohaveherasadaught eri
nlaw,how
hewaslookingfor
wardtobegivengrandchil
drenby
hernal
lshedidwastosmi l
e..
.
Idon'
tknowwhy ,
butithoughtTreywasgoi
ngtosay
somethi
ng,any
thingbuthejustkeptqui
te.
..
idi
dn'
t
bel
iev
ewhatwashappeni ng,itf
eltl
i
keabaddream
.
Howi wishedicoul
dwakeupbitunf
ortunat
elyone
canneverwakeupf r
om r
eal
i
tycausethatwhatit
was,
REALI TY
.
..
.
Asal loft
hiswashappeningmyphonerangni
i
mmedi at
elyansweredcauseitwasr
escui
ngme
from hear
ingallt
hepraiseLi
sawasgetti
ngfr
om MY
fatherinl
awsoi twasdadcall
ing
.
..
Me:
:
hel
l
o
isai
dthatmov
ingawayf
rom t
het
abl
etot
alkt
o
myphone
Dad::
Vanessagetyourl
i
l a*sher
enow,nmakesur
e
ucomeher ewit
hyoursibli
ngsbecauset
heyar
enot
answeri
ngthei
rphones
hehangedup.
.
Thi
snightwasn'tget
ti
nganybet
ternowwasi t..
.Soi
wentbacktothetabl
enitol
dthem thatineededto
goASAPni saidmygoodbyespoli
tely
..
.
.
..
Iwasnowforcedtogol
ookf
orJaynBr
it
neyt
o
somepar
tyjustGREAT.
..
Soi wentt
ot hatpart
yni l
ookedf orthem whil
emy
mindwasdi gesti
ngwhathappenedatTr ey'
sifound
Jaysmokinghubbywi thhisfri
endsni t
oldhi
m what
happenedsowewer enowl ooki
ngf orBrit
neynwe
foundhersodr unkshewasdanci nghalfnakedwith
evennobra...
Ibecamesoi
rri
tat
ed,i
tookhert
-shi
rt
sont
hef
loorn
imadeherwearit
..
SheDi
dn'twantt
ogonshecouldn'
tev
enwal
kshe
wasgi
vingmehardt
imebecauseJaywashi
ghnhe
coul
dn'
thol
dher
.
..
.
Soif
inal
lymanagedtoputheri
nsi
demycarnJay
wasonthelef
tseat
.
..
.
Ist
art
eddr
ivi
ngont
hepat
hgoi
nghome

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ke♥comment
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eYa'
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wef i
nall
yr eachedhome,wegotinsidewhil
e
carr
yingBri
tneydadwassi tt
ingont heCoff
eytabl
e
wit
hhol di
ngagl assofwinenMom wasont he
couchcoveringherfacewithbothherhandsnas
shesawusshecamet owardsus,helpedt
oput
Brit
neyont
hecouchnialsosatdownbecausei
was
ti
reddadwasr
eall
yreal
l
yupset...
Itwasmyfir
stti
meseeinghi
mlikel
ikethat
,hewas
evenRedwhil
eLindawasbusyhuggingatus
thanki
ngGodthatwe'
resaf
e
.
..
.
Dad:
:
iam notgonnatal
ktour
ytnowcauseut
oo
dr
unksoI'
llseeuint
hemorni
ng
hesai
dthatwi
thav
eryl
owangr
yvoi
cenhewent
t
ohisroom..
.
Ni
wentt
omi
newi
thoutsay
ingany
thi
ng.
..
Tookoffmyclot
hesni gotundert
hebl
anki
es
becauseiwassoti
red

.
..
Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

sot
hedi
nnerendedni
didn'
tsai
dat
hing,
the
Hudsonfamil
ylef
tmom nKy
lewentt
osl
eepndad
wenttohisof
fi
cenifol
l
owedhi
m
.
..
.
Me:
:
dadW.
T.Fwast
hat
?
Hi
m::
whatar
ewet
alki
ngabouther
e
Me:
:dad(ibangedthetabl
emakinghimt oclosehi
s
l
apt
op)whatt hi
sthingofmemar r
yingLisa,
she'
snot
mygirl
fr
iendherniendedthi
ngslongtimeago,i
movedon
Dad:
:sonuseem t
obefor
get
ti
ngonething,
iwasn'
t
aski
nguornegoti
ati
ngwi
thuiwast
ell
ingu
Me::ni
am al
sot
ell
i
ngut
hati
am notgoi
ngt
omar
ry
her
Him:
:Tyou'
remyonl
yopt
ioni
havet
osav
emy
busi
nessry
tnow,
uhavet
odothi
s
Me:
:
NOdadt
hatai
n'
tgonnahappen
Hi
m::
we'
l
lsee.
..
.
igotoutofhisoff
iceniwentt
omyroom,iwasso
angrynconfusedatthesameti
me,howdoes
get
ti
ngmar
ri
edtoLisansav
ingt
hebusi
nesshav
eto
dowit
hmeexact
ly.
..
Itr
iedt
ocallVanessa3t
imesbutshedidn'
tbot
her
toanswerherphonesoideci
dedt
osleep..
..
Wit
hav er
yheavyheart,
howcanmyownf atherdo
t
histomebutI'
ll
fightthi
sbecauseIwon'
tl
ivemy
l
if
ewithhi
m contr
olli
ngme

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her
One?
??♥
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16:
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arykaAmo

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Vanessa\
Amo'
sP.
O.V

asyouall
knowt
hefol
l
owingmorni
ngi
twas
Thur
sday,
iwokeupar
ound6:30di
dmyhygi
ene
pr
ocess.
..
..
Loti
onedni woremyt r
acksuit
,Adidasbl
ack
tr
acksui
tnmywhi t
eAllst
ar..
..
ti
edmyhai ri
ntoa
ti
ghtneatbun,
ididn'
tapplyanyli
psti
ckbecausei
wasn'ti
nagoodmood. .
.
.
..
.
Wentdownst
air
sfoundBr
itneyint
hedinner
t
abl
e,t
heywerebothl
ooki
ngmi ser
abl
eni joi
ned
t
hem
.
..
.
Me::
youguy
slooksomiser
ableri
ghtnow(
isai
dthat
pour
ingmysel
fanorangej
uice)
Br
it
ney
::
myheadi
ssof
*ckenpai
nful
rightnow.
..
Jay:
:t
ell
mesomethi
ngnew,
ican'
tev
enopenmy
eyesatthi
spoi
nt
Me:
:whatwer
euexpect
ingaf
teral
lthedr
inki
ngn
smoki
nguweredoi
nglast
dadnLi
ndacamei
nther
oom,dadwaswear i
nga
whit
egol
ft-
shi
rtnaj
eanwi
thwhi
tesneaker
s,Li
nda
waswear
ingaj
eanshor
tdr
ess.
..
Aswesawt
hem comi
ngwewentqui
tent
heyj
oined
us
.
..
.
Dad:
:
sot
hepar
tyani
mal
sar
eal
readyawake
Us:
:
...
.
Dad:
:
didn'
tit
ellutobehave,
buti
nsteadofl
ist
eni
ng
tomeyouallwentpart
ying,
whatifoneofugothur
t
Me:
:
we'
resor
ry.
..
Jay
::
real
l
ysor
ry.
..
Dad:
:forthatiam cut
tingy ourmont
hlyal
lowancefor
3mont hsny ou'
reallgroundedfor2weeks,meani
ng
you'
reonlyall
owedt ogot oschoolnowhereel
se
Br
it
ney
::butda.
..
Dad:
:
itwasn'
tadi
scussi
on
hesai
dthatgoi
ngaway
Br
it
ney
::
mom pl
easet
alkt
oyourhusband
Mom:
:
uhuhhhuguy
sdeser
veapuni
shmenty
ougot
mewor
ri
edl
astni
ght
.
..
sheal
sost
oodst
oodup.
..
Sowewenttot
hecarnourdr
ivert
ookust
oschool
af
terawhi
l
ewearri
ved.
..
.
Asi gotoutmyey esjustlookedatTrey,
hewas
standingwi t
hhisFriendslaughingnasi sawhim
reali
tykickedin,
iremember edwhathappenedlast
night,
iimmedi at
elybecamer ednmyhear tst
arted
beatingfastnunexpect edlyatearescapedmy
.
..
.
Istart
edt
oreali
set hatwhatwashappeni
ngthe
previ
ouswasreal,
Tr ey
'sfat
herdi
dannouncethatt
he
personil
ovei
sgoi ngt ogetmarr
iedt
osomeone
el
se...
.
..
AsIwast hi
nki
ngiheardsomeone'
shandwi
pingmy
tear
s,i
twasAnast
asia
.
.
Her
::
bunnyar
euokay
Me:
:
iam goi
ngt
olosehi
m Anna.
..
Her:
:whoar
eugoi
ngt
olosenow,
whatar
eut
alki
ng
about
Me:
:
he'
sgoi
ngt
ogetmar
ri
edt
oher.
..
Her
::
Vanessawho'
sget
ti
ngmar
ri
edt
owho?
..
.
.
..
idi
dn'tanswerheri
nst
eadij
usthuggedhern
cr
iedsi
lentl
yonhershoul
der

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af
terawhi
l
eicamedown,
thebel
lrangnwewent
separateway s,iwenttoclassiwoul dbetotal
lyly
ing
i
fisayi heardsomet hi
ngthatday...
iwasthinking
aboutt hiswholesituat
ionnthequest i
oni hadwas
'
why ?
' butunf or
tunatel
yicouldn'
tfindtheanswerso
i
twasnowl unchi gotoutoftheclassnwentt omy
l
ocker...
NTreyshowedupf
ort
hef
ir
stt
imei
didn'
tknow
whatt
osay
.
..
Hi
m::
hey
Me:
:
...
Hi
m::
areuokay
idi
dn'
tknowwhatt
osaybecausei
wasn'
tokayn
heknewthati
wasn'
t
Him::
lookbbei am sor
ryforwhathappenedl
ast
ni
ght,
i hadnoideathati
twasgoingtohappendad
surpr
isedusall,
onethi
ngi wantutoknowisthati
am madl yi
nlovewithu,
nonlyu
Me:
:
areugoi
ngt
omar
ryher
?
Hi
m::
noi
am nothowcanuaskmet
hat
Me::
butthetr
uthisthaturdadwillnev
eracceptme
asherdaughteri
nlaw,he'
ll
nevergiveushi
s
bl
essi
ngsbecausehewant sherasadaughteri
nlaw
Him:
:starudon'
tneedtobel
ovedbymydadwe
don'
tneedhisbl
essingsasl
ongasil
ovey
ou,we'
re
complete.
..
Ipr
omi
seI
'
llf
ixt
his
.
..
whathesai
dwasmusi
ctomyear
sihuggedhi
m
t
ightnheki
ssedmyf
orehead
.
..
Hi
m::
il
oveu
Me:
:
ilov
eu2
Hi
m::
nowl
et'
sgoeati
am sur
eyou'
rehungr
y

wewenttoeatnt hebell
rangaft
erawhi
lenwe
wentbackt
oclasses,iwasnowfeeli
ngal
il
bett
er
Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

iwashurtseei
ngVanessalikethaticouldtel
l t
hat
shewascryingnseei
nghercry i
ng,t
hatmyweak
spot.
..
soaft
erschooliski
ppedBasketballpract
ice
becauseiwantedtot
alktomydad. .
..
Ifoundhi
mi nhi
soff
icei
greet
edhi
m ni
satdownt
o
thechai
ropposi
tehi
m
.
..
.
Me:
:
dad.
..
Hi
m::
whatUp
Me:
:
canuexpl
aint
omewhymusti
mar
ryLi
sa
Hi
m::
ureal
l
ywannaknow?
hesai
dthatcl
osi
nghi
slapt
opnl
ooki
ngatme
Me:
:
ideser
vet
oknow.
..
Hi
m::
ory
t,
soher e'
sthethi
ng,
mybusi
nessisfai
li
ngn
Mi
chael(
Lisa'
sfather
)ist
heonl
yper
sonthatcan
helpmer ebuil
tit.
..nooneel senhisconditi
onwasto
tel
lutomar ryhisdaught ersot hatucansomeday
takeoverthebusi nessnt akecareofhisdaughtern
thesecondr easoni sthathisdaughternever
stoppedlovi
ngunappar entl
ybeingaroundu
makesherhappynasuknowev eryman'swishi
sto
seetheirdaughtershappy .
..
.nwhatmakeshi s
daughterhappyi sy ouT,onlyyou

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Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

Me::
dadiam sor
rybutiwon'
tbeabl
etomar
ryLi
sa,
i
can'
tmakeherhappythewayyouwantmet
oo
Dad:
:Tr
eyiam notaski
ngut
okil
l her
eiam only
aski
nguonesimplethi
ngnyou'
realr
eadyf
ail
ing
Me::
dadiam al
readyi
nlov
ewi
thsomeoneel
sesoi
can'
tmar
ryLisa
Hi
m::don'
ttel
lmeaboutl
oveT,
wil
ll
oveev
erbr
ingu
moneynrespect
?

hesai
dthatpour
inghi
swi
ne
Me::
itmaynotbri
ngal
loft
hatbuti
am sur
ethati
t'
l
l
br
ingmehappiness
Him::
li
stenher eboy,
I'
veal
readymadet hedecisi
on
youli
keitornoty ou'
regoingt omar r
yLisa..
.End
t
hingswi t
hy ourdamngirlf
riendrightnownst ar
t
yournewj ourneywit
hLisa,buil
tthat'l
ove'uwere
t
elli
ngmeaboutwi thher
.
..
mydadwasn'tpr
epar
edtochangehismi
ndsoi
st
oodupinangerngotoutofhi
soff
ice
.
..
Wentt omyr oom,t
ookoffmyt-
shi
rtsnilockedmy
room star
tedsmokingweedwhi
leplay
ingmusicata
highvolume,thesmokefi
ll
edmyroom ..
.
I
'
venev
erbeensof
uri
ousi
nmyl
i
fe

.
..
.

Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

sosincewewer egroundediwasinthelounge
watchi
ngt.valone,JaynBrit
neywereinthei
rrooms
t
heni gotatextfrom Annatell
i
ngmet ologintomy
f
acebookni didast oldnguesswhat.
..
Li
sa'sprofi
l
epict
urewasTreynitwaswri
tten'f
utur
e
husband'ontopassoonasisawthatt
earsfil
l
edmy
eyeswithi
neven4mi n
.
..
.
Nthemostannoy
ingt
hingi
sthatever
yonekept
comment
inghowgoodtheyweregoodtoget
hern
howbl
essedt
heyar
etohav
eeachot
her

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soi
immedi
atel
ycal
l
edTr
ey
.
..
Hi
m::
yeah.
..
Me:
:Treycanupl
easeexpl
ainwhyLi
samadeuher
f
acebookd.p
Hi
m::
shewhat
???
..
.
Me:
:
don'
tactl
i
keudon'
tknow.
..
Hi
m::
shemademeherd.
p?
Me:
:
ofcauseshedi
d..
.
Hi
m::
andt
hatal
l
Me:
:
excuseme.
..
Hi
m::
Stari
didn'
taskhert
odot
hatnr
elaxI
'
llf
ixt
his
.
..
i hangedupnwentt omyr oom,thr
ewmy selfon
thebed, f
acedtheceil
ingnt ear
smadet hei
rwayout
...
thisLisagirl
wasn'tgonnagiveuponr ui
ningmy
rel
at i
onshipnthemostpai nfult
hingi
sthatshehad
Trey'sfatheronherside

.
..
..

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

aft
erVanessa'
scal
l i
woremyt -
shir
t..
.niwent
downstai
rsmom nKylewerecooking..
.iwasfumi
ng
wit
hangertothepoi
ntthatidi
dn'
tevenheardwhat
mymom saidt omeijustwentt
othedoor .
..
.
.
..
.
Tool
mom'scarndrovetoLi
sa'
shouse,
thatchi
ck
wasnowst
art
ingt
oi r
ri
tat
eme..
Iar
ri
vedafterawhi
leniknockedsheopenedt
he
doorwear
inganoversi
zedT-shi
rtonl
y
.
..
.
Me:
:
canwet
alk
Her
::
sur
e,comei
nnr
elaxmydadi
snotar
ound
ient
eredt
hehouse.
.i
t'
sani
cebi
ghouse,
real
l
y
bi
g
.
..
Her
::
whathav
eidonet
ogetasur
pri
sef
rom y
ou
Me: :
li
stenLi
sa,
takemeoutofyourprofil
epic,
n
forgetther
ewil
leverbea'meny ou'idon'
tl
ov eyoui
l
ov eVanessa..
.ioncelov
eduyes,butwewer ejust
kids..
..Moveonwilly
ou..
.
Her
::
ify
ouoncel
ovedmeonce,
whatcanst
opunow
Me:
:
gir
lwhatwr
ongwi
thu,
arey
oul
onel
y
Her:
:noTr
eyiam notlonel
yiam inl
ove(
shewasnow
scr
eaming)nI
'l
lneverstopfi
ght
ingfotu..
.ev
er,
even
i
fitmeanski
l
li
ngsomeonei
wil
lj
ustt
obewi
thu
Me:
:
you'
recr
azybaby
gir
l
.
..
igotoutoft
hathousebecausewhat
'sLi
sawas
say
ingwassoi r
ri
tat
ing.
..
IwenttoAusti
n'snluckilyhewashomeal one,
now
guysAusti
nni hasbeenbestf r
iendsfor6
years,
he'
sli
kemybr othernow,he'stheonl
yonewho
calmsmedownwheni am upsetnheal wayst
ell
me
wheni makestupiddecisionsnatthatmomenti
neededhim...
.
..
becausei
wasf
eel
i
ngpower
less

It
oldhi
m ev
ery
thi
ng,
notl
eav
ingany
thi
ngout

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ke comment nshar
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nser
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Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

so2weekshaspassed,Lisawasstill
tryi
ngher
bestt
oendmyr elat
ionshi
p,Tr
eykeptont r
yinghi
s
bestt
ochangehisFather'
smindnt r
yinghisbestto
getLi
saoffourbacks
.
..
.
Thi
swassohar
dforme,
sohar
d..
Soiwasnolongergr
oundedn.
myf atherwasno
l
ongerangr
yatusforgoi
ngoutthatnight
..
.
.
..
.
I
twasnowmonday,
didthemor
ningpr
ocessnmy
f
atherdr
oveust
oschool.
..
Wentinsi
detheclass.
..
.t
helessonswentonnitwas
nowlunch,
iwenttomyl ockernasitur
naroundn
Treywasinf
rontofme
.
..
.
Hi
m::
myst
ar
heki
ssedmyl
i
psf
orl
i
ke2mi
n
Me:
:
imi
ssedu
Hi
m::i
know
i
laughed
Hi
m::
j
ustki
ddi
ngi
missedut
oo
Me:
:
canweeatl
uncht
oget
her
Him::iwouldl
ovet
hat,
nsinceyou'
renolonger
groundediwasthi
nki
ngthattodaywecouldgooutn
haveicecream
Me:
:
I'
ll
thi
nkaboutt
hat
.
..
.
soweatenaft
erthebel
lrang,
wewentbackto
cl
assesnbef
oreiev
enknewi ti
twasaf
terschool
.
..
.
Onmywaybackhomeacar,
blackB.M.W st
oodi
n
fr
ontofme(i
waswalki
ng)t
hedr i
verr
oll
eddown
thewi
ndowni twasTr
ey'
sfat
her
,idon'
tknowwhy
butij
ustbecamescar
ed
.
..
.
Hi
m::
geti
n
.
..
i
stoodt
her
enst
aredathi
m
.
..
Hi
m::
shoul
dir
epeatmysel
f.
..

idi
dn'
tanswerhi
mi justgoti
n,
isatont
hel
eft
seatnhest
arteddr
ivi
ng
.
..
Hi
m::
youknowwhoi
am,
don'
tyou
Me:
:
ido
Hi
m::
good.
..
.nowt
ell
me,
doy
oul
ovemyson
Me:
:
yes
Hi
m::
thenj
ustl
ethi
m go
Me:
:
what
??
Him::
li
tt
legi
rlut
wocomef rom twodi f
fer
entworl
ds
ny ou'
renotf
itt
obehisfutur
ewi f
e,you'
renotgood
enoughforhi
m,you'
ret
ooinnocentforhim..
.l
ethi
m
go
.
..
asTr ey
'sfat
herwassayi
ngalloft
hismytear
s
wereflowingnonstop,myneckwasnowwet
becauseofthetear
s, i
coul
dn'
tsayanythi
ngt
hose
wereteari
ngmeapar t
.
..
Him::l
eavemysonal oneyoungl
ady,
moveonhe's
nottheoneforu,you'
renottheoneforhi
m..
..
..
you
needtoacceptthat,we'r
eherenow
wewereal
readyoutsidemyhomeni gotoutof
thatcarr
unni
ng,passedmom ndadatt hekit
chenni
l
ockedmymy sel
finmyr oom ,
satatt
heedgeofmy
bedni cr
iedmyl ungsout

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icoul
dn'tsleepawi
nkthatni
ght,
icr
iedt
hewhol
e
ni
ght.
..
.idi
dn'tknowwhattodo.
..
.
.
.
Soint
hemorni
ngiwokeup,
bathed,
l
oti
oned,
woremy
boy
fri
endj
ean,
whi
teNi
keT-shi
rtnmywhiteal
lstar
..
..
Il
eav
edmyhai
rloose.
..
..
.
..
Iwentdownst air
s,dadhadal readyleftf
orwor ksoit
wasj ustmom, JaynBr i
tneytheywer ehav i
ngan
Engli
shbr eakfastigreet
edt hem nsatdown, they
weret al
kingnl aughi
ngwhi l
ei wasjuststar
ri
ngat
myf ood,afterJaynBr it
neywer edonewewentt o
school..
..
.
.
..
.
Wear
ri
vedni
wentt
omyl
ockersi
ncei
needed
somebooknTr
eyshowedup
.
..
.
Hi
m::
star
Me:
:
hey
i
sai
dthatf
aki
ngasmi
l
e
.
.
Hi
m::
hey
,ar
euokay
?
guysTreycanalwaysseerightt
hroughme,
he
cantel
lwheni am nothappy
Me:
:
yeahi
am f
ine
Hi
m::
stopl
yi
ng,
whatwr
ong
Me:
:
...
.
Hi
m::
Vanessawhati
sit
.
..
i
justl
ookedathi
m,wor
dswer
efai
l
ingme,
i
nst
ead
t
earsrol
l
eddown
Hi
m::
start
ell
mewhatwr
ongpl
ease
.
.
guysasmuchasi wantedt otel
lhim what
happenedicouldn'
t,t
hebellrangni wipedmytears
nwenttoclassleavi
nghimt here,t
helessonswent
onnonndur inglunchididn'
tgoout si
dei r
emained
tocl
assbecausei wantedtobeAl one...
.
..
..
Afterschooliwasthefir
stonetobeoutofthe
schoolpr emi
ses,ar
ri
vedathomeni thr
ewmysel f
onmybed, mi
ndy ouihaven'
teat
enanythi
ngsince
thepreviousday.
..
.
..
Imusthavedozzedoffbecausemyphoner
ang
wakingmeupni twasTrey,
Iwantedt
oanswerhi
m
butiknewthathewasgoingaskmeaboutwhat
happened.
..
.
Butt
henhekeptoncal
l
ingunt
ili
answer
edhi
m
.
..
Hi
m::
stari
am att
hepar
kcani
seeu
Me:
:
uhhhact
ual
l
y..
Hi
m::
I'
l
lseeut
hen
hehangedup,
soi
hadnochoi
cebutt
owakeup,
i
washedmyface,
myeyeswer
esorednpuf
fy.
..
Iwenttot
heparknhewasstandi
ngAlonehavi
ng
i
cecream ,
thet
imewas16:
00guys..
.soiwentto
hi
m
.
..
.
Me:
:
babe.
..
Him::
myev eryt
hing,
hesaidthathol
dingmy
hand,
starwhathappened,
didLisabothery
ou?
Me:
:
no
Him:
:t
henwhati
sit
,pl
easetel
lmeyouknowseei
ng
youcr
yingki
l
lsme,
imeanlookaty
oureyesr
ight
now
Me:
:
it'
syourdad
Hi
m::
whatdi
dhedo
i
tol
dhi
m every
thi
ngnhedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng
i
nst
eadhebecameangr
y
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t
heweekwenton,
iwasnowokaybecauseTrey
t
oldmetoi
gnoreal
lthet
hingshi
sfat
hersai
dtome..
.
.
..
Itwasnowf r
idayaft
ernoonni
waspr epar
ingmy
selftogotoAusti
n'
shousepart
y,i
twashisbir
thday
soy eah.
..

Iappl
i
edmymakeup,
nai
vel
i
pst
icket
c..
.
Iworemyhighwai stbum-shortnmywhit
eRedBatt
-
shir
tsnwhiteall
-st
ar,t
iedmyhairint
oaneatbun
thenasiheardthedoorbellr
ingi
ngiwent
downstai
rs,nitwasTrey
Hewaswear i
ngabackr i
ppedskinj
ean,
white
RedBatT-shi
rtnaj eanjacketwit
hwhit
eall
-star
,h
wasonf l
ames, i
introducedhimt omyfamil
ynt hey
welcomedhim,itolddadt hatweweregoi
ngona
datebecauseifitoldhi
mt het
rut
h,hewasn'
tgonna
l
etmego. ..
.
.
Sowewentout ,wewereusi
ngTrey'
smother'
s
car.
.soaft
eranhourdri
vewearr
ivedatAusti
n'
s,i
t
wasal r
eadyfullt
her
ebutwemanagedt ofi
nda
packingspace.
..
.
..
Wewenti nsi
de,welookedf orAusti
nntherest,
it
wascr owdedsowef oundhardtimefi
nding
them,theywer esi
tti
ngatt hecouchthatwasatthe
corner,
itwasAust i
n,Liam,Shawnntheotherthr
ee
gir
ls,
theywer esmoki ng'hubby'
sowewentt osit
withthem, Tr
eyintr
oducedmet othegir
lsnthey
wereal sothegirl
fr
iends...
Soweal
soj
oinedt
hem smoki
ngndr
inki
ng
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inuat
ionkai
nser
t133

soeveryt
hingatthepar
tywassti
l
lfi
ne,
iwasnow
high,
infactallofuswerenTreywasnowbusy
touchingmyt highsnhewasbusyki
ssi
ngmy
neck
.
..
.
Aust
in:
:
jeezTr
eymanW.
T.F.
..
Tr
ey:
:
what
Li
am:
:
dudey
ou'
renoti
nyourr
oom.
..
Tr
ey:
:
so?
?..
.
Aust
in:
:
stopdoi
ngwhaty
ou'
redoi
ng
.
..
il
aughednTreyst
oppedforl
i
ke10minnbefor
ei
ev
enknewit,
hi
shandswereonmythi
ghsagai
n
LOL.
..
Aust
int
hrewakey
.
..
Aust
in:
:
getyoursel
far
oom bef
oreut
urnmypar
ty
i
ntoporncl
ub
il
aughed,
Treytookthekeynhedraggedme
upst
air
s,wegotintosomer oom,
helockedi
tnt
hrew
awaythekey,
hemademel ookathi
m
.
..
.
Hi
sey esweresmal
lnredicouldtel
lhewastur
ned
Onnseeinghimli
kethatt
urnedmeont oo,
hesl
owly
smashedhisli
psi
ntomine,
hishandswereal
lover
me..
.
Heki
ssedmyneckguy
sif
eltl
i
kei
wasi
nheav
en
LOL.
..
.
.
It
ookoffhi
sT-
shi
rtnhet
ookof
fmi
neheki
ssedme
onthel
i
psagai
n..
.
Hepushedmeagai
nstt
hewal
lhekeptonleav
ing
wetki
ssesar
oundmywhol
ebody,
tookof
fmybum-
shor
tnmybr
a..
.
Wekeptonki ssi
ngeachotherunti
lwewerenaked
,hepickedmeupputtingmylegsaroundhiswai
stn
unexpectedl
yhewasal r
eadyi
nside,i
mournedout
l
oud
.
..
.
Hi
m::
l
ookatme.
..
i
openedmyey
esnl
ookedathi
ssexyey
es
.
..
.
Hekeptonmov i
nginnoutv er
yslowly,
pleasurewas
allt
hati f
elt
,mi
nduourey esweresti
ll
lockednhe
thenkissedmewhi l
ehewasf *ckingme, he
squeezedmybr east
,icoul
dn'
tstopmourni ng.
..
.
..
Hi
sspeedwasi
ncr
easi
ngeachnever
ysecond
maki
ngmetomournevenl
ouder(
iwasst
il
lagai
nst
t
hewall
)
.
..
.
Af
terawhi
l
ewewer
edone.
..
Wethent
hrewour
sel
vesont
hebedbecausewe
wer
esoti
red.
..
.
..
Asi waslayi
ngonthebedf aci
ngdowniheardTrey
ki
ssi
ngmyearf rom behi
ndnheent er
edhimself
fr
om thebackthi
sti
me, t
hisguynev
ergetsti
rednow
doeshe?,
.
..
Soroundtwowassoroughni
twasthebest,
the
thi
ngsTreywasdoi
ngtomeweremakingmelose
mymi nd.
..
Forthef
irstt
imeinawhil
eweenj
oyedeachot
her
wit
houtthewholeLi
sathi
ng

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 sothefol
lowi
ngmor ni
ngiwokeup, Tr
eywasnext
tomenhewasasl eep,
helookedreal
l
ycutesoi
capt
uredhim af
ewpictur
eswithhisphonesi
nce
minewasinthecar.
..
Thehangov
erwaski
l
li
ngme.
..
Buti managedt owakeupnl ookf ormy
clothes,
sinceTr eywasundr essingmet hepr evi
ous
nightitwashar dt ofindthem becausehet hrew
them alloverther oom ,i
gotdr essednmyhai rwas
j
ustamess, buti didn'
tevenbot hermyselfwithit
becausei want edt ogohome. ...
itr
iedopeningthe
doorbuti twasl ockedjeez!.
.
Il
ookedf
ort
hekeybuti
didn'
tfi
ndi
t,
ihadnochoi
ce
butt
owakeTreyup
.
.
Hi
m::
whatisi
t(hesai
dthatwi
thasl
eepyv
oicenhi
s
ey
esweresti
l
lclose)
Me:
:
wakeupwi
l
lu.
..
hedi
dn'
tanswermebecausehewasasl
eep
agai
n..
.iwasnowbecomi
ngi
rr
it
ated
.
..
Me:
:
Treywakenow(
isai
dthatwi
thal
oudv
oice)
hesl
owl
yopenedhi
sredey
es
.
..
Hi
m::
starwhat
'
sisi
t
Me:
:
wher
e'st
hekey
?
Hi
m::
key
??
hesai
dthatr
ubbi
nghi
sey
es
Me:
:
thekeyt
othi
sdoorTr
eyi
wantt
ogohomenow
i
sai
dthatshout
ingathi
m
Hi
m::
idon'
twher
eiti
s
Me:
:
you'
vegot
tabeki
ddi
ngme
Hi
m::
whatwrongwi
thudi
duwokeupatt
hewr
ong
si
deoft
hebed
hesai
dthatstandi
ngupnhi
sp* ni
swaspoi
nti
ng
atme,
isawitbecausehewasnaked
.
..
Him::
stopl
ooki
ngatmyp*
nisnf
ocusonf
indi
ngt
he
key
hesai
dthatwear
inghi
sboxer
s
Me:
:
iwasn'
tl
ooki
ngati
t
Him:
:yesyouwerenicoul
dseei
tiny
ourey
est
hat
you'
resti
l
lcrav
ingf
orit
i
laughed
Me::
noi
am not
,youal
mostki
l
ledmewi
thi
tlast
ni
ght
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
yeahwhatev
er?
..
wher
e'st
hatkey
Me::
idon'tknow,buti
doremembert
hatAust
ingave
youthethekeysoy ou'
ret
heonewho'
ssupposeto
knowwher eisit
Hi
m::
wel
lidon'
t.
..
Me::
Treyy
oubet
terf
indi
tbecausei
wantt
ogo
homenow
Hi
m::
whatt
imei
sitany
way
Me::
idon'
tknowilef
tmyphonei
nthecarl
astni
ght
nyoursi
soffso.
..
Hi
m::
l
et'
slookf
ort
hekeypl
ease
.
..
..
sowelookedforitf
oraveryl
ongtimeiam sure
30minpassedwhilewewerebusylooki
ngforitbut
st
il
lwecouldn'
tfi
ndit.
...
soij
ustsatdownncryed

.
..
.
Tr
ey:
:
whyar
eyoucr
yingnow
Me:
:
iwantt
ogohome
Tr
ey:
:
soy
ou'
recr
ying?
?
Me:
:ni
am hungr
y..
.
.
..
Treyj
ustl
ookedasi
fiwascr
azynhel
aughedat
me
Li
ke♥comment
♥nshar
e
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ningFam
[
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16:
2: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t135

Trey
::st
opwhat
every
ou'
redoi
ngnhel
pmef
indt
he
key
Me:
:
...
.
Tr
ey :
:
arey
ougonnahel
pmeorar
eugonnakeepon
cr
ying
.
..
ididn'
tanswerhimijustwi
pedmyt ear
sn
conti
nuedtolookfort
hekeynf i
nall
ywefound
i
t,
Treywor ehisT-
shi
rtnhisJeanthenwewent
downstair
s...
.
WefoundShawnnLiam i
nthecouchnAusti
nwas
maki
ngbreakf
astt
hehousewassoclean.
.t
hese
guy
sar
en'
tl
azy
..
,wewentt
ojoi
nLi
am nShawn
.
..
.
Shawn:
:
thel
ovebi
rdsf
inal
l
ydeci
dedt
ojoi
nus
Tr
ey:
:
mor
ningt
out
ooShawn
Li
am::
i
t'
ssogoodt
oseet
haty
oucanst
il
lwal
k
'
Nessa
Me:
:
huh(
iaskedconf
used)
Aust
in:
:
wet
houghtTr
eywaski
l
li
ngul
astni
ght
..
.
Me:
:
whywoul
dut
hinkt
hat?
??
Shawn::
uwerescreami
ngsof*
ckenloudpast
ni
ght,
thnxGodthemusicwasl
oud.
..
Me:
:
wasi
??
Liam::
youwer
eli
ke"
ohhhhTr
eyf
*ckmehar
der
yesss"
..
.
..
hesai
dt hatf
aki
ngmyv oi
centheyal
l
l
aughed(i
ncludi
ngTrey
)asformeiwasso
embarr
assed
.
..
.
Aust
in:
:
ibetTr
eyshowedy
oul
i
ttl
eheav
enl
astni
ght
di
dn'
the??
Tr
ey:
:
dudei
showedhert
hebi
gheav
en
Shawn:
:
sheev
enf
orgott
ocombherhai
r
Aust
in:
:
she'
sst
il
ldi
str
act
ed
.
..
t
heyalll
aughedandiwasnowreal
lyir
ri
tat
edi
meandotheyreal
lyhav
etotal
kaboutthi
sinmy
pr
esence.
..
..
Iwantedt ogohomebuti coul
dn'tbecausei wanted
toeatt hebr eakf
astAust i
nwasmaki ngsoi justkept
quit
eni gnoredwhatt heywer esaying. .
.af
terawhi l
e
Austinser vedusall,
i
twasr eal
lydelicious...
after
breakfastTr eyni l
efthisannoy i
ngf rnds,wewentt o
thecarmyphonehad6mi ssedcall from dadnt he
ti
mewas12: 00W.T.
Fi wassupposet obehome
before2: 00am. ..
Myhear
tstar
tedbeat
ingf
astbecausei
knewt
hat
dadwasangr
yatme...
Wear
ri
vedhome,
idi
dn'
tevensai
dmygoodbyeto
Tr
eyi
justj
umpedof
fofthecarnwenti
nsi
de.
..
.
Thef am wassi
tt
ingi
nt heloungeinsi
l
entassoon
astheysawmemom ndadcamet omenhugged
me...Ouk,i
wasn'
texpecti
ngt hat
.
..
.
Dad:
:
arey
ouokay
Me:
:
uhh.
..
yeah.
..
Mom::
thanksGodyou'
reokay
,wet
houghtmay
beu
guy
shadanaccident
Me:
:
nowe'
ref
ine
Dad:
:
wher
ewer
eyou
Me::
uhhhi.
..
isl
eptatAnastasi
a'shousesincewe
camebacktool
atesoi di
dn'twanttodi
sturbeu
guysi
nyoursl
eep,iam sor
ryigotuwor r
ied
Dad:
:
alr
ightsweet
hear
tgot
akeabat
h
.
..
wheeeu,i
gotof
fthateasy
,wentt
othebat
hroom
ni
tookalongwarm bat
h
Li
ke comment nshar
e
#AGoodNi
ght
[
2/23,
16:
24] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t136

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V♥

soaf
terdr
oppingVatherhome,ial
sowent
home.
..
asienter
edi sawLi
sa'
sdad'
scarnmymood
j
ustdr
oopedfrom 100%to0,
09%..
.
Ipackedmom'scari
nthegar
ageniwentinsi
de,
mom nLisa'
smom werecooki
ngi
nthekit
chen..
.
Dad,Ky
le,Li
sanherf atherwereinthelounge
watchi
ngsoccer,igreetedthem nwentupst ai
rs,got
tomyr oom,bat
hed,t
henwor emygr eytrackpant
onl
y(meaningiwashal fnaked)thanksGodi already
ateatAust
inbecauseifi
didn'
tiwasgoi
ngtobe
forcedt
ogoeatwi t
hthewhole"communi
ty"t
hat
wasdownstai
rs..
.
.
..
Iopenedmyl
apt
opnl
ayeddownonmybed.
..
Iwasplayi
ngasongAl r
eadytakenbyTreySongz
,i
l
oveitbecauseit'
soneofVanessa'
sfav
ourit
esongs
nwheneverili
stentoi
t.
.i
tremindsmeofher..
.
.
..
.
Asi waschil
ledLisaenter
edmyr oom i
became
tot
all
ypissed..
shesatattheedgeofmybed(she
waswear i
ngabum- shor
tjumpsui
tsoherthi
ghs
wereexposed)

.
..
.
Her
::
youwer
ewi
thherwer
en'
tyou?
Me::
eveni
fiwasn'
t,
whatdoest
hathast
odowi
th
you
Her
::
soy
ouwer
ewi
thher
..
.
Me:
:
whatdouwant
Her
::
didy
ouwakeupatt
hewr
ongsi
deoft
hebed
Me:
:
...
Her
::
yourbody
'sst
il
lat
tract
ivei
see
Me::
Lisaudi
dn'
tanswermyquest
ion,
whatdoy
ou
want
Her
::
iwantut
oleav
eVanessa
Me:
:
excuseme?
i
sai
dthatget
ti
ngup
Her
::
youhear
dme,can'
tuseeiam t
ryi
ngmybestt
o
bewhatyouwant
..
.j
ustmeetmehalfway
Me::
Lisa,
stoptry
ingbecausewebot
hknowt
hat
you'
l
lneverbecomewhati want
Her
::
whatdoest
hatbi
tchhav
ethati
don'
thav
e
.
..
.
ij
ustl
ookedatherbecausei
wasstar
ti
ngtobe
angr
ynunexpectedl
yshesmashedherl
ipsi
nto
mine
Li
ke♥comment
♥nshar
e♥
#Cr
opTop
[
2/23,
16:
24]
: Di
arykaAmo

Unser
t137

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

i
didn'
trespondLisa'
skiss,
i
nsteadi
stoodupn
movedawayf r
om her..
.ist
oodbythewindow
l
eavi
ngheront hebed
.
..
..
Me::f
irstofal
ldon'
tev
ercall
Vanessaa
bit
ch,secondl
ydon'
tevert
rytoki
ssmeagai
nn
thi
rdl
ygetout
.
..
shesmi
l
edngotoutofmyr
oom.
..
.butt
her
e'sone
t
hingi
havet
oadmi
t,t
heki
sswasal
i
lbi
t
t
empti
ng

Vanessa\
Amo'
sP.
O.V

soispentthedaywit
hmyfam,
wewer
epl
ayi
ng
games,
singi
ngneat i
ng..
..
Laterweatedinnernwesaidourgoodnight
sni
wentt omyroom,changedi
ntomyp.j'
sngoti nt
o
mybl anki
es,
ical
ledTreynheansweredonthethir
d
ri
ng
.
..
Hi
m::
star
(hesai
dthatwi
thasl
eepyv
oice)
Me:
:
asl
eepal
ready
?
Hi
m::
yeahi
am t
ir
ed
Me:
:whatwer
eudoi
ng
Him::
not
hing.
..
.buti
fir
ememberwel
ll
astni
ghty
ou
keptmebusy
 i
laughed
Me:
:
yeahr
ytwhat
ever
Hi
m::
goodni
ght
Me:
:
nyt
Hi
m::
hel
ovesy
ou
Me:
:
shel
ovesy
out
oo
.
..
ihangedup,
pray
ednwenttolal
aland,
the
f
oll
owingdayitwasSunday
,iwokeup.
..
Di
dthehy
gienepr
ocessni
wentdownst
air
s..
.
Wewerehav
ingpancakesf
orbr
eakf
ast
,my
f
avour
it
e
.
..
.
Dad::
iwast
hinki
ngweshoul
dal
lgof
orshoppi
ng
today
Li
nda::
countmeout
,iam goi
ngt
ochur
chwi
thmy
mother.
..
Jay
::countmei
n
Br
it
ney
::met
oodad
Me::
wellit
hinkiam gonnagowit
hmom t
ochur
ch,
i
hav
en'tbeentochurchinawhi
le
Mom::
okaythenit
hinkweshoul
dgonowbecause
west
il
lhavetofet
chmymom f r
om herhouse
.
..
.
mom nistoodupngott
othecar
,wedr
ovewhi
l
e
l
i
steni
ngtotheradi
o

Li
ke♥comment
♥nshar
e
#cr
opTop

GuysI'
llwr
it
eassoonastheel
ect
ri
cit
ycomesback
becauseri
ghtnowiam l
owonbatt
ery
[
2/23,
16:
24] Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t138
 somonthspassed,
i
twasnow2weeksaf
termy
17t
hbir
thday.
..
.
I
twasnowmonday ,
iwokeupnbathed,
woremy
bl
ackov
ersi
zedKappaT-shi
rtnabum-shor
t..
.
Whit
eAl
l
-st
arsneakerni
tiedmyhai
rint
oaneatbun
..
.
Iwaslooki
ngbeauti
ful
,wentdownstai
rs,
had
breakf
astndaddroveustoschool
,wearri
ved.
..
Wewer ealilbi
tlat
esoiimmedi
atel
ywentto
cl
ass..
.atl
unchAnastasi
aniwenttotheschool
eat
inghall.
..
.
Nwebegant
oat
e
.
..
..
Anna:
:
bitchdouknowt
hatpr
om i
s6mont
hsaway
fr
om t
hismonth
guy
sPr
om i
sli
kemat
ri
cdance
Me:
:
yeahi
know
Anna:
:who'
l
lbey
ourpar
tner
Me:
:
obv
ious.
..
Anna::
wel
lasforChr
isniwewi
l
lbewear
ingout
fi
ts
thathast
hesamecolour
..
..
Me::
goodforyou.
..
asf
orTreyni
wehaven'
t
di
scussedtheout
fi
tswe'
l
lbeweari
ng
Anna:
:
am i
seei
ngwel
lorar
emyey
esdecei
vi
ngme.
..
shesaidthatl
ookingbehindmeni tur
nedtooto
l
ookatwhatshewasseei ngnitwasTreynLi
sa,t
hey
werestandi
ngtogether
,talki
ngnlaughi
ngij
ustgot
i
rr
itat
ed
.
..
Anna:
:don'
tyouwannaknowwhathappeni
ngt
her
e,
cozido,i
real
lydo
Me:
:
no,
notnow.
.I
'
llt
alkt
oTr
eyl
ateraboutt
his.
..
Anna:
:
what
ever
..
..
.
..
..
sol unchwentonnonni wasnowt hinkingabout
TreynLi sa,
imeanwhat'ssoint
erest
ingt hatthey
weret alkingabout,
Annawasbusyt alkingbuti
couldn'thearat hi
ngbecausemymi ndwasnowal l
ov
ert
hepl
ace.
..
.
Solunchwasov ernbef
oreiev
enknewi
t,
itwas
af
terschool
.
...
Itookmybagnwentt othegameshal lwher
eTrey
washav inghisbasket
bal
lpract
ise.
..
lucki
l
yiarr
ived
thereont i
me,theywer
esti
ll
changingt ot
hei
r
basketballuni
formsnassoonasTr eysawmehe
camet omenhuggedme
.
..
.
Hi
m::
myst
ar.
.
Me:
:
hey
..
.
Hi
m::
arey
ouokay
Me:
:
yeah,
you?
Hi
m::
met
oo,
ulookbeaut
if
ult
oday
i
smi
l
ed
Me:
:
thanky
ou.
..
idi
dn'
tseeut
odaydur
ingl
unch
Him:
:
ohhhyeahuhhhh,
iwashel
pingShawnwi
th
someexper
imentf
orSci
ence
Me:
:
yeah.
..
Hi
m::
yeahiam sorr
yididn'
tcomet
oubabyi
pr
omisei
ll
makei tuptou
.
..
.
Tr
eywaslyi
ngtomeni f
eltsopower
lessi
just
l
ookedathi
m nli
stenedt
ohim
Me:
:
okayt
heni
guessI
'
llseeul
ater
Hi
m::
yeah.
..
het
ri
edt
oki
ssmeni
lookedont
hesi
denl
eft
..
..
Iwentt
othecarni
wenthome.
..
Icoul
dn'
tbel
i
evei
t,
Treyl
i
edst
rai
ghtt
omyf
ace

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ke comment nshar
e
[
2/23,
16:
24]: Di
arykaAmi

I
nser
t139
 iarri
vedathome,mom wasnowher etobe
seen,t
hemaidssaidthatshewasoutf or
shopping,
wenttomyr oom,bathednunti
edmy
hair
,l
oti
onednwor eanoversizedWhit
eRedBatT-
shi
rtnmysl eeper
s..
.
Il
ayedonmybedwhi
l
eli
steni
ngt
o'Shal
l
ow'
byLady
Gaga..
.
Iwaswonder
ingwhydi
dTr
eyl
i
edt
ome.
..
Iwasconfused,
ishef
all
i
ngi
nlov
ewi
thLi
sa,
aret
hey
dat
ing.
..
.
..
Al
lthesequest
ionsonmymi ndwerei
nter
rupt
edby
myringi
ngphone,i
twas Anastasi
a
.
..
.
Her
::bi
tchi
am aty
ourdoornowcomeopenup
shehangedup,ni
wentdownst
air
s,openedt
he
doornshegotin
.
..
.
Me:
:udi
dn'
ttol
dmeuwer
egonnav
isi
t
Her:
:udidn'
ttellmeineededtomakean
appoint
mentf orvi
sit
ingyou
i
laughednwewentt
omyr
oom
.
..
.
Her
::
sodi
dyout
alkt
oTr
ey
Me:
:
yeah.
..
Her
::and?
?
Me:
:
hel
i
edt
ome
Her
::
li
edt
oyou?
??
i
tol
dherev
ery
thi
ng
Her
::
whydi
dhel
i
ethough?
Me:
:
idon'
tknowt
hatwhati
am t
ryi
ngt
ofi
gur
eout
Her
::don'
tyout
hinkhe'
s.
..
Me:
:don'
tsayt
hat
,he'
snotcheat
ing.
.especi
all
ynot
wi
thLisa
Her
::
whyar
eusosur
e
Me::
becauseTr
eydoesn'
twantany
thi
ngt
odowi
th
Li
sa
Her:
:thencaretoexpl
ainwhydi
dhespentl
unch
wit
hthegirlhedoesn'
twantany
thi
ngt
odowi t
h
Me:
:
Anast
asi
acanwedr
opt
hist
opi
cpl
ease
Her:
:okay,okay.
..
..
soy oupr
omisedtoshowmet
he
pi
csofy ourlat
emot hernyourl
i
lsibl
i
ngs
Me:
:ohhhy
eahl
etmegot
akemyal
bum
.
..
.
i
wentt
ogetmyal
bum
.
..
.
Me::
sothi
sisSbul
elo,
mom'slastbor
n,she'
s8y ear
s
t
hisyear isai
dthatpoi
nti
ngasSbulelo'
spic
Anna:
:she'
ssocut
e,nwhoset
his(
shesai
dthat
poi
nti
ngatOmphil
e)
Me::
that
'sOmphile,
he'
s14thi
syear,
nthi
s(poi
nti
ng
atmom'spict
ure)isAnast
asi
a,myAnast
asia,
the
womanwhogav ebir
thtome.
..
Her
::shewassobeaut
if
ulV,
youhav
eherey
es
.
..
.
 sowekeptont
alki
ngaboutmyf
ami
l
y,t
heeot
her
f
amily
..
..

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ke comment nshar
e
[
2/23,
16:
24]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t140

i
twasnowTuesday
,thef
oll
owi
ngday
..
.
.
..
Iwokeupbat hed,l
oti
oned,
woremyov er
sizedpink
Niketr
acksuitnmyNi kesneakers(t
heweat herwas
l
ilbi
tcoldsoy eah.
.)Ti
edmyhai rint
oaneatbunni
putt
edont hehatofmyJer sey,noli
psti
ckapplied
.
..
.
Tookmybagpackt heniwentdownstai
rs,
greet
ed
thefam ngr
abbedanappleiwasn'
tinamoodf ora
breakf
astsoigotoutndadwasabouttoenterhi
s
carbuthedi
dn'
twhenhesawmecomi
ng
.
..
.
Me:
:
mor
ningdaddy
Hi
m::
mor
ningmypr
incess,
offt
oschool
alr
eady
??
Me:
:
yeah.
..
Hi
m::
diduhadbr
eakf
ast
Me:
:
noi
am nothungr
y
Hi
m::
soy
ou'
l
lwal
kyour
sel
ftoschool
?
Me:
:
yeah.
..
Hi
m::
why
?
Me:
:
becausei
feel
li
kewal
ki
ngt
odaydad
Hi
m::
Vanessaar
euokay
Me:
:
yeahdadwhyar
euaski
ng
Hi
m::
yournosei
spi
nk
Me::
ohhhidi
dn'
tnot
icei
guessi
t'
sbecauseoft
his
col
dweather
Hi
m::
okayt
heni
lov
euokay
Me:
:
ilov
eut
oodaddy
heki
ssedmyforeheadngoti
nthecar,
hewentto
workniwal
kedtoschoolwithmyearphoneson
l
ist
eni
ngtoasongbyXXXTentaci
on'Sad'
..
.i
twason
r
epeat.
..
.
..
.
Wheni was15minawayf r
om school isawav ery
famili
arcareer
,well
shoul
di sayacari knew,Tr
ey's
mom' scar,i
twasdriv
enbyTr eynasi wasaboutt o
wav emyhandsohecanseemei sawLisaont he
passenger'
ssitnitl
ookedli
ket heywereenjoyi
ng
eachot her
'scompanycauseTr eywasev ensmili
ng
...
.
Forsomer
easont
ear
sescapedmyey
esi
njustone
bl
ink
.
..
.
Butiquickl
ywipedthem becauseiwasint
hest
reet
,
ii
ncreasedthevol
umencont i
nuedwit
hmywalkto
school.
.
Iar
ri
vedasal
way
sAnast
asi
acamet
omewi
tha
hug
.
..
Her
::
yougood?
Me:
:
yeah,
your
sel
f
Her
::
iam t
oo,
ulookcut
etoday
i
smi
l
ed
Me::
thanku,
heyhav
en'
tuseenTr
eyi
needt
otal
kto
hi
m
Her:
:ohhyeahif
orgott
otel
luhecamewit
hthegir
lu
sai
dhewant snothi
ngtodowi
th,
heevenopeneda
doorforher
Me:
:real
l
y??
Her:
:yeah,
any
wayi needt
ogot
omyl
ockeri
needt
o
changesomet ext
book
Me:
:
let
'sgo
.
..
.
wewentt otheherl
ocker
,sheexchangedt
he
books,
thebell
rangnwewentseparateways..
.
Thelessonsst
artednitwasnowl unch,
igotoutof
thecl
assni wenttostandnexttoTrey'
slocker
becausehealwaysstartt
herebefor
egoingt oeatn
hedidshowedup
.
..
.
Hi
m::
mybabe
Me:
:
hey
Hi
m::
howar
eu
Me:
:
iam notgood,
atal
l
Hi
m::
why
,what
'sup?
Me::
canuexplai
ntomehowdiduendedupwi
th
Li
sainthesamecart
hismor
ning

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ke♥comment
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Tr
ey:
:
whatar
eut
alki
ngabout
Me::
sonowudon' tknowwhatiam tal
ki
ngabout
,i
sawuwi t
hherTrey,
goaheaddenyitnli
etomeli
ke
udidyest
erday
..
..
Hi
m::
..
.
Me::
yeahial
sosawt
hatuspentl
unchwi
thher
yest
erday
i
wasnowr
eal
l
yupset
Hi
m::
babyl
etmeex
plai
n
Me:
:
ohhsonowy
ouwannaexpl
ain
myvoi
cewasnowshaki
ngbecauset
ear
swer
e
t
hreat
eni
ngmyeyes
.
..
Hi
m::
babyi
t'
snotwhatut
hink
Me::
guesswhat
,idon'
tev
encarewhathappeni
ng
bet
weenthetwoofusodon'tbot
herexpl
aini
ng
.
..
.
wi
tht
hati
lef
t,whati
rr
it
atedmet
hemosti
sthat
hewant
edt
odenyi
tnl
i
etomeagai
n,
Soiwentt
othetoi
l
ets,
washedmyf acet
hatwas
nowfi
ll
edwit
htear
s,niwentbackt
oclass
.
..
Lessonswentonandbef
oreiknewit
,i
twasschool
outnasigotoutoft
heclassisawBri
tneynextt
o
thedoor
.
..
Me:
:
looki
ngf
orsomeone?
Her:
:
yes,
u..
.l
ookZac(herboy
fri
end)nineedtogo
somewhereni needutocoverupformebecauseI
'
ll
comehomer eall
ylat
e
Me:
:what
??
Her:
:
pleaseVanessadoursi
steraf
avournowwi
l
l
you?
Me:
:
okayf
ineI
'
lldoi
t,
ononecondi
ti
on
Her
::
namei
t
Me:
:
makesur
eudon'
tgetpr
egnant
 shel
aughed
Me:
:
iam ser
ious
Her
::
okayt
hent
hanky
ouI
'
llseeul
ater
Me:
:
oky
shel
eftniwal
kedhome,ar
ri
vedt
here,
mom was
att
heloungewat
chi
ng'gameofthr
ones'
.
..
Me:
:
heymom(
isai
dthatki
ssi
nghercheek)
Her
::
heybaby
,wher
ear
eyoursi
bli
ngs
Me:
:ohhhuhhhBrit
neywentt
othel
i
brar
ywi
thher
f
ri
endsni betJay
'sst
il
lcomi
ng
Her
::
okaythearen'
tyouhungr
y,i
cookedy
our
f
avouri
te,
Spaghett
inbeef
Me::
wellIwasn'
tbutnowi am,
i
mmagof
reshenupn
comebackforthatpl
atenow
shel
aughed
Her
::
youdot
hat
.
..
 i
rangoi
ngtomyr oom,threwmybagonmybed,
tookofft
hosetr
acksuitniwor emygownnIwent
downstai
rsagai
ndishedupnwentt othel
ounge,sat
nexttomom nibegant oate,Tr
eycall
edniignor
ed
i
ttwicenonthethi
rdringihangedup
.
..
Mom:
:
whyar
eunotanswer
ingy
ourphone
Me:
:
idon'
twannat
alkt
ohi
m
Mom:
:
boy
fri
end?
Me:
:
yeah
Mom:
:
whatdi
dhedo
Me:
:
longst
orymom i
don'
twannat
alkabouti
t
Mom:
:
usur
e?
Me:
:
yeah
Her
::
okayt
henswi
tcht
hatphoneof
fbecausei
t'
s
maki
ngnoi
se
i
laughed
Me:
:goodi
dea
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ke comment nshar
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thefollowingdayiwokeup. ..
.bat
hednloti
oned,i
t
wasr ai
ningcatsndogsout sidesoi woremygrey
Nikeoversizedtr
acksuitnblackVans,ti
edmyhair
i
ntoonemessybunt heniwentdownst ai
rs,
greet
ed
thefam,weat einsi
lencenaf terdadsai
dhewas
dri
vingust oschoolsohedid. ..
.
..
.
Wear
ri
vednwewentsepar
ateway
s..
.
Iranquickl
ytot
heschoolpremi seswenttomy
l
ockerbecauseineededtochangesomebooksnas
iwaschangingthebooksif
el tsomeonebehindme,
i
turnednitwasTreyii
mmedi atelybecamebored
.
..
.
Me:
:
whatdouwant
???
Hi
m::
Iam goodhowar
eu
Me:
:
wel
liwasunt
ilurannoy
inga*
sshowedup
Hi
m::
ouch.
..
Me:
:Tr
eywhatdoy
ouwant
?
Hi
m::
canwet
alk?
?..
.
Me:
:
we'
ret
alki
ngr
ytnowar
en'
twe?
Hi
m::
imeancanwet
alkl
ateron
Me:
:
no
Hi
m::
pleasest
ar.
..
Me:
:
noTr
ey,
no
.
..
ashewasaboutt
osaysomet
hingAust
inshowed
up
Aust
in:
:
heyVhowar
eu
Me:
:
iam good,
nu?
Aust
in:
:iam superf
ine,
TmanI
'
vebeenl
ooki
ngf
oru
ever
ywhere,
theteam(basket
bal
lteam)ishav
ingan
agentmeeti
ng,
thecoachwanttotalkt
ousabout
somethi
ng
Tr
ey:
:
starI
'
llseeul
aterokay
Me:
:
nouwon'
t
.
..
nt
heyl
eft
,t
hebel
lri
ngnwewentt
ocl
ass.
..
Soitwasannouncedthatweweregoingtolearnthe
fi
rstt
hreel
essonsnaftert
hem wewer egoi
ngt o
watchthebasket
bal
lgamesinceourschoolteam
wasgoingtocompetewithsomeotherschoolteam
..
..
Sowedidat
tendedt
hosethr
eel
essonsnthenwe
madeourwaytowheret
hegamewast aki
ngpl
ace.
..
IsatnexttoAnastasi
a..
.attheback,wewat chedt he
gamei nsil
entwhil
epeoplewer ebusyscreami ngn
cheeri
ng,asformewasey esweregluedonTr eyhe
l
ookedsose* yplayi
ngtherent hepl
ayinguniform
l
ookedgoodonhi mismiledalonereal
isi
ngt hatI
wasdeeplyinlovewitht
hatj er
kbutonet hi
ng
r
emai
ned,
iwasst
il
lupsetwi
thhi
m..
.
Soaft
ert
hegameist
oodup,
sai
dmygoodby eto
Anast
asi
antheni
wentt
othecar
,mom f
etchedus.
..
Mi
ndui
twasst
il
lrai
ning,
Wear r
ivedathome,
iwenttomyr oom..
ididn'
tfeel
l
ikechangingmyoutfi
tsoi di
dn'
t,
iwentback
downstair
snbecauseibwashungryimademy selfa
sandwich,asIwasenj
oyingitmyphonerang
.
.
I
twasTr
ey
.
..
Me:
:
what
Hi
m::st
ariam t
wohousesawayf
rom y
our
ssocanu
pl
easecomehere
Me:
:
can'
tuseei
trai
ning
hehangedupwi
thoutanswer
ingme,
sonowi had
t
oleavemysandwi
chngoonar ai
nyweat
herj
ust
f
orTrey
Li
ke comment nshar
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ningFam
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arykaAmo

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soilef
tmysandwi
ch,
tol
dmom i
wasgoi
ngt
o
Anast
asia'
s..
.
Isl
owlywal
kedtoTrey
'sdi
recti
ontherainwasst
il
l
pour
ingsohar
d..
.Tr
eywasalreadyfuckenwet
.
..
.
Hi
m::
ithoughtuwer
enol
ongercomi
ng
Me:
:ut
houghtwr
ong.
..
Hi
m::
isee.
..
Me:
:you'
vegot5mi
ntoexpl
ain
Hi
m::
5??
..
..
Me:
:
it'
s4now
Hi
m::
okayt
hen,
wher
edoi
star
t.
..
Me:
:
startbyexpl
aini
ngwhydi
duspentl
unchwi
th
t
hegir
lusaiduwantnothi
ngtodowi
th
Him::
ohhhuhhhshecamet omenaskedmet o
spendthelunchwi t
hherni coul
dn'
tsaynobecause
i
fi di
dshewoul d'
ver annt
oldherfat
hernherfat
her
would'
vetoldmyf athernuknowhewoul dhav
e
bit
tenmyheadof f
Me:
:
howdi
duendupwi
thheri
nthesamecar
Him::
dadtol
dmet ofetchhersowecangot o
schoolt
ogethersi
ncehermotherisaLilbi
tsickn
usual
lyshe'
stheonewhot akehertoschool
Me:
:
ndi
durf
athert
oldut
oopenadoorf
orher
Hi
m::
no.
..
Me:
:
sowhydi
du
Hi
m::
iam sor
ryst
ari
twi
l
lnev
erhappenagai
ni
pr
omise
Me::
whatwon'thappenagai
n,y
ouspendi
ngl
unch
wit
hherory oudr
ivi
nghertoschool
nopeni
nga
doorforher
Hi
m::
ever
ythi
ng
Me:
:soyou'
ret
ell
i
ngmet hatnextt
imeyou'
l
lsayno
t
oyourf
atheri
fhetel
lyoutodosomethi
ngforLi
sa
Hi
m::
I'
ll
tryt
osayno
i
smi
l
ed
Me::
i hat
eseei
ngyouwit
hherT,ir
eal
l
y
do..
.somehowitmakesmefeel
li
keiam l
oosi
ngun
she'
swi nni
ngu
Him::i
am sor
ryst
ar,
She'
l
lnev
erwi
nmeny
ou'
l
l
neverl
oosemeokay
i
nooded
Hi
m::
i
smyannoy
ingassf
orgi
ven
i
laughed
Me:
:yeah,
yourannoy
ingassi
sfor
giv
en
Hi
m::
il
oveu
Me:
:
wel
lidon'
t
.
..
.
hesmi
l
ednsmashedhi
scol
dnsof
tli
psonmi
ne
nir
espondedtheki
ss,
itmademer
eal
i
sedhow
muchimissedhi
m....
Nowweconti
nuedki
ssi
ngont
her
ainf
orsomet
ime
ntheni
pul
l
edout
.
.
Me:
:
ithi
nkweshoul
dgobef
orewebot
hcat
chacol
d
Hi
m::
okayt
hen,
guessI
'
llseeut
omor
row?
Me:
:
yeah,
you'
l
lseemet
omor
row
.
..
wi
tht
hati
wentbackhome

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

ir
eal
lyhat
elyi
ngtoVanessabutatt
hispoi
ntiam
f
orcedt
o,imeantel
l
inghert
hetrut
hwil
lbreakhern
I
'
lll
ooseher.
..
Ican'
tlooseher,
il
ovehert
oomuchni am notdat
ing
Lisabecauseiwantt
obutmyfat
hergavemeno
choi
ce.
..
..
..
.

Li
ke?
?comment nshar
e
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ght
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es
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Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

soiwenttoAust in'
slat
erthatday,iknocked,
found
hi
smom i nthekit
chennshet ol
dmei wouldf i
nd
hi
mt ohisroom (wellguysAusti
nonl yli
veswi t
hhis
mom,hisdadisremar ri
edtosomeoneel sebuthe
st
il
lsupporthi
mf inanci
all
y,hi
ssisterdiedwhenshe
was3y r
si don'
tknowwhybecauseAust indoesn't
wannatalkaboutthatstuff
)
.
..
Soiwenttohisroom,
knockednheopenedup,he
washal
fnakednhi sr
oom wasfil
ledwithweed
smoke..
.isatdownattheedgeofhisbedncover
ed
myfacewithbothmyhands
.
..
.
Hi
m::
itakei
tudi
dn'
ttel
lVt
het
rut
hordi
du
ishockmyheadsayingno,
wel
lAusti
nknows
aboutthewhol
esit
uati
onnhehatesthi
sideaofme
cheat
ingonVanessa,
mindui'
vebeendati
ngLisaf
or
2weeksnow
Aust
in:
:
sohowl
ongwi
l
lukeeponl
yi
ngt
oherT
Me:
:
idon'
tknowman.
..
Hi
m::
whathappenedt
oday
?
Me::
Lor
dknowsIwantedtot
ellhert
hetrut
hbuti
coul
dn'
t,
iam scar
edi
mightl
ooseher,
ican'
tloose
herman
Hi
m::
buty
oudoknowt
hatShe'
l
lfi
ndout
Me:
:
iknowt
hat
..
.
Hi
m::
ndshe'
l
lbehur
tnwhenshe'
shur
t,she'
l
lhat
e
y
ourst
inkyass
Me:
:
dudey
ou'
renothel
ping
Hi
m::
iam j
ustst
ati
ngf
act
s
Me:
:
whatmusti
doexact
ly
Hi
m::
dumpt
hatbi
tchofy
our
(Li
sa)
Me::youknowi
can'
tdot hat
,uknowi
fidodadwil
l
sendmeawayfrom heretosomebodyi
ngschool
n
he'
ll
sendmeawaywi thher
.
..
thatt
heopti
onsdadgaveme,
ei
therhesentme
awaywithLi
saoriagr
eetodat
eherherenleav
e
Vanessaal
one
Aust
in:
:
manwhenwi
l
luev
erst
andupt
ourf
ather
Me:
:
it'
snott
hateasyasy
out
hinky
ouknow
.
..
aswewer
etal
ki
ngLi
sacal
l
ed
Austi
n::
makesureugetoutofmyr
oom bef
oreu
answerthathoe
 Aust
inhat
esLi
sawi
thPassi
on,
hehat
edhert
he
f
ir
stti
mehesawherwhenwewere14
Me:
:
whatdi
dsheev
erdot
oyou
Him::
nothi
ng,buticansmelltr
oublemi l
esawayn
tr
ustmeLi saisnothingbutt
roublei
don' teven
underst
andhowdouev enki
ssherimeani would
j
ustvomi t
,iwoul
dn'tevenbeabletosleep,t
hatgir
lis
anightmare..
.Howdouev enstandasightofher
heevenmadeadisgust
edl
ookni
laughed
becausehewasbei
ngdramat
ic

Me::
youknowAus(
thathowicallhi
m mostt
imes)
for
t
hefir
stti
meinmylif
eiam caughtbet
weenarockn
ahardpl
ace
Aust
in:
:
whateverudo,
don'tfuckLisabecauseshe'
ll
makesureshegetspregnantjustt
omakesur ethat
unVdon'tstandachanceev eragai
n
Me:
:
manshe'
snott
hatcr
azy
Hi
m::
tr
ustmeshei
s
Li
ke comment nshar
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Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

soweekspassed,Betweenmenmyf ami
l
y,t
hings
weresti
llr
osey,
iwouldn'
tstopchecki
ngonmy
youngersi
bli
ngs
Ev
eryni
ght
..
.
Thingsbet weenmenTr eyhaschangedal i
l
bit,
sometimesi wouldcall
nhewoul dn'
tanswer,
our
textai
n'tt
hesameany morei don'
tknowi fi
t'
smy
i
magi nati
onornot,butTreywasn'ttheTreyiknew
anymor e.
..Someti
meshecan' tev
enl ookmeinthe
eyesnal l
oft hi
shurts,
i
treall
ydo. .
.
.
..
Soit
'swasnowfri
dayaft
ernoon,
theti
mewas17:
00
iwasasleepnmyphonerangwakingmeup,
i
twas
Anastasi
a
.
.
Me:
:
uhhhuh
Her
::gi
rlwakeupngeturl
i
lassher
e
Me:
:
why
Her
::
we'
regoi
ngoutt
oni
ght
.
.
shehangedup,ididn'
tev
engetachancet
osay
no..
.soihadnochoicebuttowakeup.
..
Soiwokeup,
bathed,
l
oti
onednwor
emyr
ipped
ski
nnyj
ean,
pit
ch
Nikesneaker
,whit
eRedBatT- shi
rtnapitch
oversi
zeddJersey.
..Appl
iedpinkli
pst
ickntiedmy
hairi
ntoonemessybun. .
.
Tolddadi
wasgoi
ngoutwi
thaf
ri
endnhedi
dn'
t
mind..
.
Iwal
kedt oAnastasia'
swithmyear phoneson, after
awhil
ei arr
ivednitextedhert
elli
nghert hatiwas
nowoutsidenshegotoutwear ingaboy f
ri
endj eann
anpurpl
eAdi dasT-shi
rtnwhit
eAl l-
star
,herhairwas
j
usthangingnshehadapur pl
elipsti
ckon,she
l
ookedcool
.
.
Her
::
ulookcut
ewear
ingl
i
ket
hisuknow
Me:
:
thanku,
udon'
tl
ookbadur
sel
f
Her
::
what
ever
i
laughed
Me:
:
sowher
ear
ewegoi
ng
Her
::
tot
hemal
l
,nr
elaxev
ery
thi
ng'
sonme
.
..
.
soweusedhermot
her'
scargoi
ngther
e,wedrove
l
i
steni
ngt
oTay l
orSwi
ft
,naf
teranhour
,wearr
ived
..
.
.
.
Her
::sowher
etof
ir
st?
Me:
:
iam hungr
ysocanwegot
oabur
gerpl
acef
ir
st
Her
::
sur
e
wewenti
nther
e,or
der
ednwebegant
oat
e
.
..
Her
::t
hankuf
oragr
eei
ngt
ospendt
heni
ghtwi
thme
Me::
nopr
obl
em,
what
'
sgoi
ngonIcanseey
ou'
renot
good
Her:
:
mom ndadar
efi
ght
ingni
hat
ewat
chi
ngt
hem
f
ight
ing
Me:
:
iam sor
rycakes
Her
::
thanks,
whendi
dul
astt
alkedt
oTr
ey
Me:
:
lastni
ght
,t
odayi
didn'
tseehi
m atschool
Her:
:it
houghtuguy
swer
eseei
ngeachot
her
ever
yday
Me:
:
wewer
e,unt
ilhechangedt
obet
hisnewTr
ey
Her
::
dout
hinkmay
behe'
scheat
ing
Me:
:
NO,
he'
dnev
erdot
hatt
ome
Her
::
thenwhatdoumeanbysay
inghe'
sanewTr
ey
Me::
imeansomehow, hehaschangedni won'tl
ie,
i
misstheoldv
ersi
onofhim every
day,
causerytnow
wehadlycommunicat
e,wheneverwemeetwej ust
f
u*knf u*
kunti
lwegetsti
red
Her
::
unheal
thyr
elat
ionshi
p

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soAnastasianicontinuedchatti
ng,
laughi
ngn
takingaselfi
es,whi
lewewer eisawsomeonewho
l
ooksexact l
ylikeTrey
,istaredforawhiletr
yingt
o
makesur ethat'si
twashi m ntheperson
disappear
ed
.
..
Anna:
:
whatar
eul
ooki
ngat
Me:
:
ithoughti
sawTr
eyt
her
e,di
dn'
tuseehi
m
Her
::
noididn'
t,
it'
sjustyouri
maginat
ion.
.Anyway
l
et'
sgograbanicecr eam,don'
tuwantsome
shesai
dthatleadi
ngthewaynif
oll
owedher,
i
brushedthethoughtofseei
ngTr
eynicont
inued
hav i
ngfun

.
..

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

soit'
swasFr i
dayniwast aki
ngLisaoutbecause
shehasbeencompl ai
ningthatidon'
tgivehermy
ti
menal lthat,soiworemyhuggi ngshortsl
eevedT-
shirt
,myr ibbedblackJeannaj eanjacketwit
hWhi te
All
-star.
..Soi wasusingdad'scarbecauseheknew
thatiwasgoi ngoutwit
hLisandadcando
everythi
ngconcer ni
ngmenLi sa,
hecouldevenbook
anairplanef orusiam tel
li
ngu(ohhhi f
orgottotel
l
u,t
hewhol efam thi
nkthatVanessani areover)
...
Soifet
chedLisaather's..
shecameoutwear i
nga
shor
thuggi
ngblackdr esswi t
hhighhi
ll
s,nshewas
l
ooki
ngnice,sowedr ov einawkwardsi
lence.
..
Wewentt
othemall
nLisawantedust
ohol
dhands
soi
coul
dn'
tsaynotopr
incessLi
sa
.
..
Li
sa::
am i
theonl
yonewhof
eel
sgoodabouthol
ding
hands
Me::
unf
ort
unat
ely,
yes.
.you'
ret
heonlyone,
hol
ding
handsmakesmefeelsouncomfor
tabl
e
Her
::
don'
twor
rybabyy
ou'
l
lgetusest
oit
shesai
dthatsqueezi
ngmyhandni
fakeda
smil
e..
.
Aswewer ewalki
ngi spot
tedVanessanAnastasi
ai
quickl
ysnatchedmyhandf r
om Li
sani l
ookedat
thosegir
lsclosel
y,guesswhat,
itwasVnAnnasoi
quickl
ychangedthedi r
ecti
onnLisafol
l
owedme
whileshewasbusyaski ng"whatgoi
ngon"..
..
.
Ihopednpr
ayedt
hatVanessadi
dn'
tseeme.
..
SoImadesur eLisanidon'
tgotowher ethei
ce
cream i
sfoundorwheregamesAref oundbecausei
knowthatthosearethepl
acesVanessanAnna
weregonnav i
sitt
hatni
ght.
..
.
..
SoLisani werebusyhuggi
ng,ki
ssi
ngnplayi
ng
whil
eIwaspr ayi
ngnottocrosspathwi
th
Star
(Vanessa)becauset
histi
me,t
herewereno
expl
anati
onwhatwashappeni ngwasobvi
ous

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arykaAmo

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nser
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Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

solat
eraround2am Anast
asi
atookmehome,i
goti
nni thr
ewmy sel
fonthebedbecausei
wasso
t
ir
ed.
..
Iwokeupt hefol
lowi
ngdayaround9: 30am,itwas
Satur
day,wokeupbathed,
lot
ionedni wor
emywhi te
j
ump- sui
tncream whit
esandals,
leavedmyhai r
unti
edni appl
iedali
ghtpi
nklipst
ickt heiwent
downstai
rsthefam wasal
readyhav i
ngbreakfasti
greet
ednj oi
nedthem
.
..
Dad:
:
atwhatt
imedi
ducomebackl
astni
ght
Me:
:
around2
Li
nda:
:
iam j
ustgl
ady
ou'
resaf
e
Bri
tney:
:
letmeguess,
Anast
asi
a'
spar
ent
swer
e
fi
ghti
ngagain
Me::
yeah,
nspeaki
ngofheri
hav
etogoseehow
she'
sdoing
Dad:
:
now?
?
Me:
:
yesdad,
sof
am l
etmel
ovenl
eav
euguy
s
isai
dthatstandi
ngupngoing,i
walkedtoAnna'
s
house,
iknockednhermotheropenedthedoor
,she
hadredey esnchi
cs,
it
'sshowedt
hatshewas
cry
ing.
..Igreet
edhernwenttoAnna'
sroom.
..
.
..
Shewasonherbedfaci
ngt
heceil
ingnshewasst
il
l
wear
ingt
heoutf
itshewaswear
inglastni
ght
.
..
.
Me:
:
hun
i
sai
dthatseat
ingatt
heedgeofherbed
Her
::
they
'r
eget
ti
ngadi
vor
ceV
Me:
:
what
??
shesatont
hebedwi
thherbackont
hehead
board
Her:
:
mom ndad,
they
'regett
ingadiv
orce,
naft
erit
's
dad'
smov
ingtoCali
forni
awi t
hAndrea(
Anna'
sli
lbro)
Me:
:
nyou?
Her:
:I'
l
lremai
nher
ewi
thmom,
Vmyf
ami
l
y'st
ear
ing
apar
t
shesai
dthel
astpar
tcr
yingni
huggedhert
ight
whi
l
ebr
ushi
ngherbacknaf
terawhi
l
eshewascal
m

.
..
Me::i
am sorr
yhun,gofr
eshenupnownI
'
llmakeua
cheesesandwichokay
?
.
.
shenodded,
stoodupnwentt othebathroom,
i
wentdownstai
rs,madeheratoastedcheese
sandwi
chnaor angejui
ce,
aft
erawhi l
eshewas
doneniwatchedhereati
nginsil
ent.

Seeingherli
ket
hathurtmebutsomething'
sare
beyondourcontrol
,someti
mesallwehavetodois
toacceptthesi
tuat
ion,nomat
terhowharditi
s
.

Somyf r
iendnispendedt hedaywatchingEmpire
seri
esneati
ng,
hermot herlockedhersel
finherr
oom
thewhol
edayaround15: 30i deci
dedtogohomen
onmywayhomeibumpedt
oTr
eynhi
sfr
iends
Li
am,
ShawnnAust
in.
.
Icouldn'
tholdmysel fijustrantohim( Trey)n
huggedhi mt i
ght,t
hathowmuchi mi ssedhi m nasI
washuggi nghim,ismelledawoman' sper f
umeon
hisT-shir
t,i
twasf amili
arbuticouldn'tremember
whoi t'
sbelongsto,butiresumedthatmay beit
's
belongedtoKy leorhismot her

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soaft
erhugginghi
mi gr
eetedal
lhi
sfr
iendsn
t
heylef
tusbehindgiv
ingussomepriv
acy
.
..
.
Me:
:
uknowf
orasecondi
thoughtuwer
edead
Hi
m::
whywoul
dut
hinkt
hatSt
ar
Me:
:
whenwast
hel
astt
imewet
alked?
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
seewhatI
'
mtal
ki
ngabout
Hi
m::
iam sor
ryf
orbei
ngscar
cemyst
ar
hesai
dthatbr
ushi
ngmyhai
r
Me:
:
it'
sokay
iki
ssedhi
m nherespondedsl
owl
yni
stoppedn
l
aughedwhenhegrabbedmya* s
.
..
Hi
m::
imi
ssedy
ouwi
fey
myhear
tmel
tedwhenhecal
l
edme'
wif
ey'
nij
ust
bl
ushed
Me::
imissedumor
e,i
hat
ewhat
evert
hat
'skeepi
ng
youbusy
Hi
m::
..
.
Me::Tr
eyimi
ssu,
theol
du,
theTreywhousedt
o
checkuponmeever
y2hours,
theTr
eywhowouldn'
t
sl
eepwithoutseei
ngme,theTreywhouset
otextme
unt
il3:
00am,whathappenedtohim??
?
i
sai
dal
loft
hatl
ooki
nghi
mint
heey
es
Hi
m::
you'
rel
ooki
ngathi
mthough
Me::
no,
he'snott
heoneiam l
ooki
ngatrytnow,
canu
pl
easebri
ngbacktheol
dTrey,
MyTrey,
tel
lhimimi
ss
hi
m uncondi
ti
onall
y
myey
eswer
enowf
il
ledwi
tht
ear
s
Him::iam sorr
yimadeuf eell
onelynabundant
star,
i
twasnev ermyintenti
onstohurtuli
kethat,
i
promiseuI '
ll
makeitupt ou..
.ij
ustwantutoknow
thatisti
l
lloveyouuncondit
ionall
y,
not
hingchanged
.
..
.
aftersayi
ngt hathehuggedmeti
ght
,put
ti
ngmy
headonhi schestnwhenev eri
am wi
thhim,
ifeel
safe,
happyni feelcomplet
e
.
..
.
Hi
m::
I'
l
lseeut
oni
ghtokay
?
Me:
:
toni
ght
??
Hi
m::
yeah,
j
ustkeepurphoneon
Me:
:
o..
kayt
hen
.
.
heki
ssedmeont
hef
oreheadnl
eft
..
.
Ipl
ayedthesongtit
led'
escape'
byKehl
ani
onmy
ear
phoneswhilegoinghome

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

heari
ngVanessatal
kingli
ket hatmademer eal
ise
thatiwasslowlysl
ippi
ngawayf rom her,
nidi
dn'
t
wantt hatt
ohappenbecauset het houghtofl
osi
ng
hermakesmewannascr eam outloud...
.
Inearl
ycri
edl i
steni
ngtohertel
li
ngmehowmuch
I'
vechanged,nev er
ythi
ngshesai
disr
ytbecause
eversi
ncei st
arteddatingLi
sashemakessureshe
grabsall
myat tenti
on
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ke ncomment
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arykaAmo

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nser
t149

Amo\
Vanesaa'
sP.
O.V

soi arrivedathome, Britneysaidt hatmom ndad

wereoutonadat esoitwasj ustt
het hreeofus,but
asusual lyJaylockedhi msel finhisroom ni wasleft
withBritney,wewer ewatchingTvwhi l
echatting
aboutrandom st uffti
mepassed, i
twas18: 00when
Treytoldmet omeethi m halfway ,
iwent
upstai
rs,tookaj acketni wentouti methi m but
surpri
singlyhewasnol ongerwear ingthesame
outfi
t
.
..
.
Him:
:st
ar,
thatJer
seydoesn'
tmat
chwi
tht
heout
fi
t
you'
reweari
ng
Me:
:
leav
emyout
fi
tal
onenowwi
l
lyou
hel
aughednheki
ssedmeababyki
ss
Me:
:
soar
ewegonnast
andher
e
Hi
m::
no,
butwe'
regonnakeeponwal
ki
ng
hesai
dthathol
dingmyhandmaki
ngmet
ofol
l
ow
hi
m
Me:
:
wher
e'r
ewegoi
ngexact
ly
Hi
m::
idon'
tknowwe'
rej
ustwal
ki
ng
Me:
:
olr
yt.
..
Hi
m::
uknowi
am t
hinki
ngofchangi
ngmyhai
rcut
Me:
:
why
?..
Hi
m::
ihav
en'
tchanget
hisonei
nawhi
l
e
Me:
:
thi
sonel
ooksgoodonubabysodon'
tchangei
t
Him::
thenewonewi
l
lal
sol
ookgoodonmest
ar
t
rustme
Me:
:
nhowdouknow
Hi
m::
iknowt
heybecauseev
ery
thi
ngl
ooksgoodon
mest
ar
 i
laughed
Me:
:we'
ll
seeaboutt
hat
,babey
ou'
reawar
ethatpr
om
i
snearbyry
t
Hi
m::
yeahi
am awar
e
Me:
:
whatar
ewegonnawearT
Him::
idon'
tknow,
buti
doknowthatyou'
l
lbemy
Part
ner,nwegonnabewear
ingmaroon
Me:
:
mar
oon?
?
Hi
m::
yeahmaroon,
j
ustmakesuret
hatwheny
oubut
adr
essyoubuyamaroondress
Me:
:
olr
ytt
henMrMar
oon
hel
aughed
Me:
:
whatwi
l
luwear
Hi
m::
ican'
ttel
lucausei
wanti
ttobeasur
pri
se
Me:
:
wel
ltheni
am l
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtot
hatsur
pri
se
Hi
m::
j
ustmakesur
eyou'
l
lbel
ooki
ngbeaut
if
ult
her
e
Me:
:
okay
,Tr
ey?
Hi
m::
huh?
?
Me:
:
canusi
ngf
orme
Hi
m::
what
hesai
dthatst
oppi
ng
Me:
:
ihav
en'
thear
dyousi
ngi
nawhi
l
esocanu
Hi
m::
Nost
ar
hesaidthatputt
ingbot
hhishandsi
nhi
sjean
pocketnconti
nuingwalki
ng
Me:
:
Tpl
ease
Hi
m::
VNo
Me:
:
pret
typl
ease
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
pleasepl
easepl
ease
Hi
m::
you'
renotgonnal
ett
hisgonowwi
l
lu
Me:
:
noi
won'
t
Hi
m::
olr
ytt
henwhi
chsong
Me:
:
anysonguf
eel
li
kesi
ngi
ng
Hi
m::
okayt
hen
 hest
opped,heldbot
hmyhandsnst ar
tedsi
ngi
ng
'
tr
umpets'byJasonDerul
owhi l
elooki
ngatmeinthe
eyesnij
ustmeltednismiled

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25]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t150

soday spassed,
itwasnowSunday ,
iwoke
up,
bathed,woremygr eytr
ackpantnwhit
eAdidas
Vest,
blackAdidassneakers,
ti
edmyhairi
ntoaver
y
neatbunnt ocompletethelookiappl
i
edanli
ght
pi
nklipsti
ck.
..
Niwentdownst
air
sforbreakfast
,wewer
ehav
ing
or
angejui
cewit
hpancakes...
Weat
ewhil
ehavi
ngniceconv
osherentherenaf
ter
t
hebr
eakf
astmom ndadwenttochur
ch,dadi
snot
r
eall
yachurchpersonsomom f or
cedhimtoit,
Jay
t
oldusthathewasinv i
ti
nghi
sgirl
ov ernBr
it
ney
wasgoingforawindowshoppingwithherf
ri
ends,
i
wastheonlyonewithoutapl
anfortheday
.
..
Iwentt
ositbythepool
,l
oggedi
ntomyWhat
sAppn
l
ucki
lyTreywasonl
ine
.
..
.
Me:
:
hubby
..
.
Hi
m::
myst
ar
Me:
:
ugood?
Hi
m::
yeah,
you?
Me:
:
met
oo
Hi
m::
plansf
ort
oday
?
Me:
:nopl
ans
Hi
m::
per
fect
!!
..
Me:
:
per
fect
??.
.
Hi
m::
yeahbecausei
wantut
ocomeov
er.
..
Me:
:
youwantmet
ocomeov
ert
oyourhouse?
??
Hi
m::
yeah.
..
Me:
:
NO.
..
Hi
m::
why
?
Me:
:
idon'
twannacr
osspat
hswi
thurdad.
.
Hi
m::
Rel
axi
am homeal
one
Me:
:
ser
ious?
Hi
m::
yeah
Me:
:
okayt
henI
'
llbet
her
eint
wohour
s
Hi
m::
seeut
hen
.
..
.
it
henloggedout ,
gotmyselfnicecream n
enjoyedtheview,theskywasclearnbluenthesun
washotsoi wouldsayitwasaper f
ectweather.
..
my
earphoneswer eon,iwasl
ist
eningtoEdSheer an'
s
playl
ist
..
.
.
..
Lat
eroni
wentupst
air
s,f
reshenedup,
changedt
oa
pi
tchshor
thuggi
ngdressnwhi
tesandal
s,
unt
iedmy
hai
rniwasreadytogo.
.
Ont hewayi wastakingself
iesniarri
vedatTrey
'si
text
edhimt ell
i
nghi mthatiwasalreadyoutsi
den
heholdmet ocomei n,
igotinnwentt ohi
sroom,he
wasi nhi
sboxer s,
nhewasl ay i
ngonhisbedplayi
ng
withhisphonenassoonasi sawhimi r
annjumped
ontopofhim
.
..
Hi
m::
douknowhowheav
yyouar
e??
Me:
:
noi
don'
tknowbecausei
can'
tcar
rymy
sel
f
hel
aughed
Hi
m::
you'
resof
ool
i
sh
Me:
:
exact
lyl
i
key
ou
Hi
m::
whatev
er
iki
ssedhi
m nher
espondedsoqui
ckl
yni
pul
l
ed
out
Hi
m::
whydi
dupul
l
edout
?
Me:
:
becauseucal
l
edmeaf
ool
Hi
m::
noi
didn'
t,
isai
dyou'
resof
ool
i
sh
Me:
:
what
'st
hedi
ff
erence
hel
aughed,
gotmeof
fhi
m nst
oodup
Hi
m::
iam goi
ngt
otheki
tchendon'
tuwantany
thi
ng
Me:
:
yoghur
tpl
ease
hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m::
okayt
hen
hegotoutofther oom ni wenttoTrey
'sdrawer
causei wantedthelaptopnnextt oitt
herewashisT
-shirtwhi
chhadar edl i
pst
ick,sofunnybecausei
don'tuseredli
psti
cknonet hingiam sur
eofi st
hat
neitherdoesKyl
e

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 i t
ookthatT-shi
rtnsmell
edi t,
i
thadt hesmellof
theperfumei smell
edonTreyt heotherday ,
iwentto
Trey'
sbedhol di
ngtheT-shi
rt,
tookhispill
own
sniff
edit,
itwasokay..
.t
ookthesecondonensni ff
ed
i
t,ithadtheverysameperfumei i
mmedi atel
y
becamesoangr ynTreywalkeditholdi
ngaYoghur t
nabowl t
hathadnoodles
.
..
.
Hi
m::
stary
oul
ookl
i
key
ou'
vej
ustseenaghost
hesai
dthatput
ti
ngwhathewashol
dingont
he
dr
awer
.
..
Me:
:
Treywho'
sli
pst
icki
sthi
s
iaskedi
nav er
ylowvoi
cenheturnedtol
ookat
whattheT-shir
tnhechockedseei
ngitt
hehecame
t
ost andi
nfrontofme
Hi
m::
idon'
tknowbabymay
bei
t'
sKy
le'
s
Me::Tr
eydon'tl
i
etomeunibothknowt
hatKy
le
usesLi
pglossesnotr
edl
i
pst
icks
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
Trey
,iam gonnaaskagai
n..
who'
sLi
pst
icki
sthi
s
myv oi
cewassti
l
llowbutiwasget
ti
ngangr
yn
angr
iereachnev
erysecond
Hi
m::
wel
lthenmay
bei
t'
smom'
s
Me::
sonowyou'
ret
ell
i
ngmet
haty
ourmom i
sev
en
sl
eepi
ngwit
hu
Hi
m::
what
?..
Me::
Treyt heper
fumet hati
sinthi
sT- shi
rti
sthevery
sameper fumethatisi
ny ourpi
l
low...Nguess
what,
it
'snotmyf i
rstti
mesmel l
ingitinyour
cl
othes..
.soTreyiam gonnaaskagai n,
who'
slipst
ick
i
sthis
i
wasnowscr
eami
ng
Hi
m::
..
.
hedi
dn'
tanswermei
nst
eadhel
ookedatme
st
rai
ghti
ntheeyes
.
..
Me:
:
Treyy
ou'
recheat
ingonmeai
n'
tyou?
myey
eswer
enowt
ear
y
Hi
m::
noi
am not
Me::
thenexpl
ainhowdi
dthi
sfuckenl
i
pst
ickgott
o
yourshi
rt
i
sai
dthatscr
eami
ngwhi
l
etear
swer
efl
owi
ng
Hi
m::
babyi
twasaoneni
ghtst
and
i
lookedathi
mindi
sbel
i
ef
Me:
:
oneni
ghtst
and?
Hi
m::
yeah
Me::okayt
henexplai
ntheperfumebecausethi
sver
y
exactperf
umet hati
sinyourshi
rtnpi
ll
ow,wason
yoursweatert
heeotherday
hel
ookedatmenotknowi
ngwhatt
osay
.
..
Me::Tr
eywhoi
sshe,
who'
sthatgi
rlt
haty
ou'
re
cheati
ngonmewit
hhuh
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
sonowucan'tt
alkhuh,
Treyhowcoul
dudot
his
t
ome,i
trust
edu
isai
dthatwi
thascr
eami
ng,
shaki
ngncr
ying
v
oice
Hi
m::
iam sor
ry
Me:
:
sor
ry'
sal
luev
ersayt
heseday
s
sosinceTreydidn'
twanttotal
kiwipedmytear
s
ngotoutofhi
sr oom,nthedoordownstai
rswas
l
ockedW.T.F.
..

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25]: Di
arykaAmo

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nser
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soihadnochoi
cebuttogobacktoTrey
'sroom n
t
ellhi
mtoopenthedoorbecausei
didn'
twanttobe
t
hereanymor
e..
.
.
..
Igoti
nhi
sroom nhebusywear
ingaj
ean,
si
ncehe
onl
yhadhi
sboxersonl
y
.
..
Me:
:
Treycanupl
easegoopenadoorf
ormei
want
t
ogohome
Hi
m::
canwepl
easet
alkaboutt
his
Me:
:
igav
euachancet
otal
kbutudi
dn'
t,
nowi
want
t
ogohome
Hi
m::
okayI
'
llopenj
ustl
etmeexpl
ainpl
ease
Me::
okayfi
ne,I
'
lll
etuexpl
ain,
butt
hist
imei
want
not
hingbutthetr
uth
hekeptqui
tef
orami
n
Hi
m::
okayt
hen
Me:
:
star
texpl
aini
ng
Him::wher
edoi st
art
,okayl
etmej
ustst
artby
agreeingt
hati
am cheating
t
hemomenthesai
dthatt
ear
sescapedmyey
es
uncont
rol
l
abl
e
Him::
nit'
sbeengoingonforawhil
enow,nyesherni
havefucked,
sev
eralt
imes,
nthat
'sl
ipst
ickonmyT-
shi
rt,
it'
sher'
snalsotheper
fume
asTreywassay i
ngal lofthishewaslookingat
menIwasl ookingr ytbackathi m whil
emyhear t
wasbeat i
ngsosl owlynmyneckwasnowwet
becauseoft hetears,icouldn'tbeli
evewhathewas
say i
ng,hewasst andingnextt othebedniwas
standingagainstthedoor
Me:
:
whoi
ssheTr
ey
i
sai
dthatwi
thawhi
sper
ingv
oice
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
soudon'
twannat
ell
mewhoi
sshe?
Hi
m::i
t'
sbecauseudon'
tneedt
oknowwhoi
sshe
t
hat'
snoti
mpor t
ant
Me:
:
okayt
hent
ell
meonet
hing,
doy
oul
oveher
Hi
m::
No
Me:
:
thenwhyar
euwi
thher
Hi
m::
..
.
.
..
.
hedidn'tbotheransweri
ngmei nst
eadhesaton
theedgeofhi sbedncov er
edhisfacewit
hbothhi
s
handsni satdownont hefloorncri
edsil
ent
lywhi
l
e
cover
ingmyf acewi thmyknees
.
..
Hi
m::
iam sor
ryV
idi
dn'
trespondhi
minst
eadasof
tsobescaped
mymout
h...
Icri
edunt
ilmyey
esbecamepainf
ul,
yeshewas
tal
ki
ngbutidi
dn'
thearany
thi
nghewassayi
ng ..
.
Me:
:
TreyIwantt
ogohome
Hi
m::
ther
e'st
hekey
hesaidthatpointi
ngathisdrawer,
istoodup, went
t
ot hedrawer,
tookthekeysngotoutoft hathouse,i
wi
pedmyt earsnwenthome, ar
riv
ed,wentst r
aightto
myr oom it
ookof fmyclot
hesngoti ntoabat hfil
led
wi
thcoldwat er,
repl
ayedTrey'
sconfessiononmy
mindwhil
etear
swer
efl
owi
ngl
i
kenobody
's
busi
ness.
..
.
Ni
must
'v
edossedof
fther
e

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kencomment
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16:
25]: Di
arykaAmo

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nser
t153

sofourdayspassed,Iwassti
ll
angryatTr ey,
he
keptoncal
li
ngmedaynni ghtniwouldn'tanswer,at
schooli
madesur ehedoesn'tseeme, onWhat sAppi
wasalwaysoffl
i
ne,ididn'
twannat al
ktohim, i
was
sohurt
..
.
Bri
tneynAnastasi
aweremyshoulderstocr
yonni
madesurethatmom ndadwouldn'tseemecry
becauseIr
eall
yhatet
ostressmydad
.
..
..
SoitwasThur sdaywhenmyal ar
m wokemeup,i
bathed,l
oti
onedmy sel
f,woremyboyfr
iendj
eann
greyhightwai
stwithanoversi
zedgr
ey
Jacket,
appli
edmynei veli
psti
cknil
ooked
beauti
ful.
..
.
Wentdownst
air
s,hadbr
eakf
astndaddr
oveust
o
school
...
.
..
Iwenttomyl
ockernasi
tur
nedar
oundTr
eywasi
n
fr
ontofme
.
..
.
Hi
m::
hy
Me:
:
hy.
.
Hi
m::uhhhlookst
ari
am reall
ysorr
yforcheati
ngn
pl
easetrustmewhenisaythatI
'v
eendedt hi
ngs
wi
thher
Me:
:
"her
"?,
who'
sherTr
ey
Hi
m::Vthatdoesn'tmatt
eranymor
e,whatmatt
ersi
s
t
hatherni ar
eov erniam sor
ryf
orhur
ti
ngu,i
twas
nev
ermyi
ntent
ions
Me::i
twasnevery
ouri
ntent
ions?
??Di
duhonestl
y
thoughtt
hati
wasgoingtobehappywheni
find
out.
..
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
jeezucanbesodumpsomet
imes
isai
dthatleav
inghimther
engoingt
oclass,
the
l
essonswentonunt i
li
twaslunchnasiwassit
ting
wi
thAnnaTr eyshowedup,AGAINnhecamet othe
t
ablewewer esit
ti
ngin
.
..
.
Hi
m::
Vcani
tal
ktoupl
ease
il
ookedatt
heir
ri
tat
edAnastasi
athenbackat
Tr
eyni st
oodupdowecouldtalk
.
..
.
Me:
:
whatdouwantf
rom meexact
ly
Hi
m::
her
e(hesai
dthatgi
vi
ngmehi
sphone
Me:
:
whatshoul
didowi
thi
t??
Hi
m::
thi
sisapr
ooft
oshowut
hati
didbr
okeupwi
th
t
hegi
rl
itookthephonenr adthei
rconvos,
i
ndeedwhat
hewassay i
ngwastrue,
hediddumpedt hegir
ln
aft
erreadingal
ltheconvosigavehim backhi
s
phone
.
..
Hi
m::
sodouf
orgi
veme
Me:
:
yeah,
ido
hesmil
ednhuggedme,
ihav
etoadmi
tir
eal
l
y
mi
ssedhi
m

.
..
Iwasr
eal
l
yinl
ovewi
thhi
m

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

soher
e'swhatr
eal
l
yhappened,
inev
erdumped
Li
sa,iaskedAusti
ntopretendtobeagirl
sot hati
canpretendtobedumpingLi sathr
oughthephonen
Starbeli
evedthewhol
et hi
ng. .
.
Thet
rut
his,
iam st
il
ldat
ingLi
saHudson

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kencomment
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16:
25]: Di
arykaAmo

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nser
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sonowitwasFridayaf
terschool
,we'vej
ustcame
backf
rom school
,
iwasinmyr oom rest
ingontopof
mybedwhenmom camei n
.
..
.
Mom: :
ihopey
ou'
renotasl
eepcozwe'
regoi
ngf
or
shoppi
ng
Me:
:
mom i
am sot
ir
ed,
cani
ski
ppl
ease
Her
::
noy
oucan'
tcausewe'
rel
eav
ingi
n30mi
nso
getr
eady
shel
eftt
heroom,thi
swhit
ewomancanr
uin
someone'
sdayser
iousl
y..
.
Soiwokeup,wentt othebathr oom,r
insedmymout h
nchangedwhati waswear ingt oabeaut i
ful
short
whit
edresswithblacksandal s,appl
i
edpi nkl
ipsti
ckn
iwasreadytogo,
soBr i
tney
, mom ni dr
ov et
ot he
malli
nsil
ence,wear r
ivedafterawhi le
.
..
Br
it
ney
::sowhyar
en'
tweget
ti
ngoutoft
hecar
??
Mom:
:
taket
his
shesai
dthathangi
ngBr
it
neyacar
d
B:
:
whatmustwedowi
thi
t?
Mom: :
sinceyou'
reamonthawayfr
om pr
om it
'st
ime
foruguy st
obuyevery
thi
ngyou'
ll
beneedingf
or
prom
Br
it
neyt
ookt
hecar
dnwescr
eamedcel
ebr
ati
ng

Mom:
:
butpl
easedon'
tspendt
omuch,
soI
'
llbei
nthe
sal
ondoingmyhairnihopebythet
imeiam
done,
you'
ll
alsobedone.
.Sotr
ytobefast
Me:
:
okaymom t
hanky
ou
wegotoutofthecarnsheleft
,Br
it
neyni gotint
o
theshops,
Iwassooverj
oyed,wegotint
odr esses
shops,t
heshophadreal
lybeaut
if
uldresses...
.

.
..
.
Me:
:
sowhatar
eul
ooki
ngf
orexact
ly
Br
it
ney
::i
am l
ooki
ngf
orabeaut
if
ull
ongdr
ess,
real
l
y
l
ongdr
ess
Me:
:
col
our
?
Her
::
pinki
sh,
whatabouty
ou,
whatar
eul
ooki
ngf
or
Me:
:
forabeaut
if
ulmar
oondr
ess
Her
::
mar
oon?
?
Me:
:yesmar
oon
Her
::
gir
l,y
ou'
regoi
ngt
opr
om nott
oaf
uner
al
Me:
:
iknowokay
Her
::
letmest
artl
ooki
ngf
ormydr
eeeeam dr
ess
shesaidthatwal kingaroundthestoreni wentto
adiff
erentdir
ectionf r
om her'
s.
..al
lthedresseswere
beauti
fulbuttheyallhadthebrightscolours,mar
oon
wasnowher et obef ound ...
.

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kencomment
#Cr
opTop
[
2/23,
16:
25]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t155

soasi waswal ki
ngIsawt hesebeaut i
fulbl
ack
hil
ls,
theywer ereal
lybeauti
fulididn'
tevenlookat
thepriceijustt
ookt hem,nluckil
ytheywer emysize,
i
wentt olookforBr i
tneynifoundherhol dingavery
l
ongpi tchdress,i
twassooobeaut if
ul
.
..
.
Me:
:
you'
ret
aki
ngt
hatdr
ess?
Her
::
yeshunnY,
i
t'
sbeaut
if
uli
sn'
ti
t?
Me:
:
it'
sreal
l
yis
Her
::y
ou'
rehol
dingsomer
eal
l
yni
ceshoes
shesai
dthatl
ooki
ngatt
hehi
l
ls
Me:
:
thanku,
buti
cantf
indadr
essuknow
Her
::
goodluckfi
ndi
ngmar
oonov
erher
e,l
et'
smego
l
ookforshoes
shel
eftmestanding,
asiwasst
andi
ngt
her
ethe
guywhoworkedinthestor
eshowedup
.
..
Hi
m::
l
ooki
ngf
oradr
esshunny
?
heaskedi
nagay
ishv
oice
Me:
:
uhhhy
eah
Hi
m::
whatki
ndofadressareul
ooki
ngfor
,l
et'
sst
art
wi
thacol
our
..
whichcol
ourdouwant??
Me:
:
uhhhmar
oon
Hi
m::
shapeoft
hedr
ess?
Me:
:,
iam notsur
eaboutt
heshapebuti
doknow
t
hati
thastobeahuggingdr
ess
Hi
m::
l
ongorshor
t??
Me:
:
alongdr
essofcaur
se
Hi
m::ithi
nkiknowj
ustt
heper
fectdr
essf
ory
ou
gi
rl
fr
iend,fol
l
owme
if
ollowedhi m nwewentt othesi
deofthedar
k
coloureddr esses,
hepul
ledoutthisl
ongmaroon
dress,i
t'shadt hel
oooongesttai
l,
i
twassooo
breathtaking,i
thadanopenback
.
..
Him:
:got
ryt
hison,
wit
htheshoesy
ou'
rehol
dingof
caur
se
iwenttothefit
ti
ngroom,t
ookoutmycl othesn
worethatdress,
nthosehi
ll
s,
ilookedsobeaut i
ful
the
dr
essr ev
ealedallt
heperf
ectplaces,
myhips,a*sn
mycleavege..
.
Soi
wal
kedoutoft
hef
it
ti
ngr
oom
Hi
m::
wowhunnyy
oul
ooksobeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
thanku
Hi
m::
doul
ovei
torshoul
dwel
ookf
oranot
herone
Me:
:
no,
thi
sist
hedr
ess
Hi
m::
yousur
e
Me:
:100%sur
e,t
hanku
Hi
m::
iam sogl
adi
hel
ped,
byt
heway
,i
am Sam
Me:
:
nicet
omeetuSam,
iam Vanessa
nhel
eftniwentt
olookforBri
tneyi
found
l
ooki
ngatgol
dhil
lsnwhit
ehill
s
.
..
Her
::
V,whi
chhi
l
lsar
ethemostbeaut
if
ulher
e..
.
Me:
:
thegol
dones
Her
::
wel
ltheni
am goi
ngwi
tht
hem
Me:
:
olr
ytt
hen
Her
::
O.M.GVyourdr
essissooobeaut
if
ulwher
edi
d
ugeti
t(
shesai
dthatscr
eaming)
Me:
:
thanku,
ifoundi
tar
ound
Her
::
mygoshit
'
ssoper
fect
,it
'sev
enhasal
onger
t
ail
thatmi
ne
Me:
:
nithast
heper
fectcol
ourr
ight
?
Her
::
ever
ythi
ng'
sper
fectabouti
t
Me::
thankunowcanwegopayf
ort
hese,
ihungr
yi
wannagetoutofher
e
Her
::
okaythenlet
'sgo,
causewest
il
lneedt
ogon
l
ookfort
hej ewel
l
ery
wewentt
opayngotoutoft
her
e

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kencomment
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2/23,
16:
25]
: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t156

af
tert
hatwewenttoacafeter
iacar
ryi
ngour
heav
ydressesnshoes,
ior
deredaCoffeywi
th
pancakes,sodi dBr i
tney,weat ei nsi l
encebecause
wewer esooohungr y,thetimewasnow18: 40aft
er
eati
ngwewentt ojewel l
eryshop, Ididn'twantany
j
ewellerybecausei wantedt owearmom' s
neckl
ace(biologicalmom) ,
ilovedt hatneckl acewith
al
lmyhear tbecausei twasmom' sf avourite,
atthe
j
ewelleryui want edtobuyTr eyawat chthatwi l
lbe
hi
spr esentforhisbi r
thdayt hatwas10day saway,i
boughthim abl ackAdi daswat ch,i
twasv ery
beautif
ulyetexpensi ve,buti boughti tany way
becauset omeTr eywaswor t
hi tall
...
..
Bri
tneyboughtaLOTofjewell
er ynaft
erwewer e
donewecal l
edmom tofetchusnshear ri
ved,
wegot
i
nt hecar
,nshelookedbeauti
ful wi
thhernewhair
sty
le,
shehadcutherhai
ral i
lbitnthencurl
edit
.
..
Her:
:uguyssur
eknowhowt
obankr
uptaper
sonl
i
ke
ser
iousl
y
Me:
:howmuchdi
dwespend
Her
::
$95000
Me:
:
ser
iousl
y??
Her
::
yeah
Br
it
ney
::
mom i
t'
snott
hatmucht
hough
Her:
:Bri
tneysweet
yIfeelsor
ryf
oryourf
utur
e
husbandbecauseureall
yareagol
ddigger
weal
ll
aughed
Mom:
:
myphonekeptonbeepi
ngt
hewhol
eday
Me:
:
sosor
rymom,
butt
hanku
Mom:
:
soar
euguy
shappywi
thurdr
esses
Me:
:
somuch
Bri
tney:
:they
'r
esobr
eat
htaki
ngmom,
wai
tunt
ilu
seethem
Mom::
anyt
hingthat
'
scostmor
ethan$50000shoul
d
bebr
eatht
aking
Me::
bythewaymom urnewhai
rst
yler
eal
l
ylooks
goodonu
Br
it
ney
::i
t'
sreal
l
ydoes
Mom:
:
thankubabi
es
.
..
 af
terawhilewearrivedhome, t
ookmystufftomy
room,mom saidthatshewast i
redsoShe'
ll
see
everyt
hingthefoll
owingday ,
iwenttot
hebathroom,
tookal ongwarm shower,goti
ntomyp.j'
sni cal
led
Trey,
heanswer edont hethi
rdri
ng
.
..
Hi
m::
final
l
ysomeoner
emember
edme
i
laughed
Me:
:
uwer
en'
tfor
got
tenbaby
Him::
yesi was,
itr
iedt
ocal
l,
udi
dn'
tbot
hert
o
answer,
texted,
norepl
yonWhat
sAppuwereof
fl
ine
Me:
:
sor
rybabyi
wasoutshoppi
ngf
orPr
om out
fi
t
Hi
m::
ihopeuchoosear
eal
l
yni
cemar
oondr
ess
i
laughed
Me:
:
act
ual
l
yidi
d
Hi
m::
goodt
hen,
hel
ovesherokay
?
Me:
:
shel
oveshi
mtoo
Hi
m::
goodni
ght
Me:
:
goodni
ght
i
hangedup,
pray
ednIwentof
ftol
alal
and

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nser
t157

thenextmorningi wokeup, bathed,

woremygr ey
tr
ackpantnanov ersizedT-shirtwit
hsleepers,
went
downstai
rshadbr eakfastwitht hefam naft
erweall
wenttothelounget owatchTV
.
..
Mom:
:ij
ustremember
ed,
uguy
sdi
dn'
tshowusy
our
Pr
om dr
esses.
..
shesai
dthatr
efer
ri
ngt
omenBr
it
ney
Jay
::
uguy
sboughtPr
om dr
esses?
Dad:
:
yeah,
urmom t
ookt
hem t
oshoppi
ngy
est
erday
Jay:
:iam sur
eshe'sbankr
uptnowbecauseiam
pret
tysureBri
tneyusedal
lthemoneythatwasi
n
thecard
dadl
aughed
Dad:
:
gogett
hosedr
essesgi
rl
s
Bri
tneynistoodup,wecamebackwi t
hthe
dresses,weshowedt hem ntheywer eimpressedby
thechoiceswemade, wehadi cecream whil
e
wat chi
ngTVnmyphoner ang,
i excusedmysel fn
wentt oanswerit(
itwasTrey)

.
..
Hi
m::
starcanucomeoutnow
het
henhangedup,
ouk.
..
Soiwentbacktothefam t
oldt
hem i wasgoi
ng
somewherenigotout,
Treywas2housesawayf r
om
minenhewasalsowear i
ngatrackpant,
whi
teT-
shir
t
wit
hsleeper
sLOL..
..
.
..
.
Me:
:
whosedy
ingTr
ey
Hi
m::
noone,
ij
ustmi
ssedmywi
fe
hesmil
ed,
nkissedme.
..Weki
ssedf
orav
eryl
ong
t
imeunti
lideci
dedtopul
lout
.
..
Me:
:
imi
ssedut
oo
Him::
ihopeut
ookpi
ctur
esofthedr
essuchose
becauseir
eal
l
yneedtoseei
t
Me::
noididn'
t,
nuwon' tseeitunt
ilPr
om ni
ght
,al
lu
needtoknowisthati
t'
smar oon
i
sai
dthel
astpar
tlaughi
ng
Hi
m::
wel
ltheni
can'
twai
tunt
ilPr
om ni
ght
heki
ssedmeagai
n
Hi
m::
ulookcut
etodayst
ar-
star
Me:
:
star
-st
ar?
?
Hi
m::
yeah
i
smi
l
ed
Hi
m::
what
,don'
tul
i
kei
t.
.
Me:
:
noi
don'
tl
ikei
tbaby
,il
ovei
t
hesmi
l
edr
eveal
i
nghi
sper
fectt
eet
hs
Hi
m::
ulookcut
etoday
Me:
:
thanku,
you'
renotsobadei
ther
hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m::st
arwi
l
luev
eradmi
tthati
am handsome
t
hough
Me:
:
ther
e'snot
hingt
oadmi
ther
eT
i
sai
dthatl
aughi
ng
Hi
m::
y eahr
ytwhatev
er,
butdeepdownuknowt
hati
l
ookl
ikeChri
sBrown
i
laughedev
enmor
e
Him::
stopl
aughingnjustadmi
tthatiam
handsome(hesaidt
hatwithast
raightf
ace)
Me:
:
babyy
ou'
renothandsome,
you'
reper
fect
hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m::
fi
nal
l
ysheadmi
t
hesai
dthatscr
eami
ng.
..
.I
'
veonecr
azyboy
fri
end
xei
m..
.
Hi
m::
l
et'
sgotomyhouse,
Ther
e'snoone,
ther
ent
s
t
oKyl
eforshoppi
ng
Me:
:
okayl
et'
sgo
heheldmyhandnwewentt
otheBolton'
s
house,
goti
nnwesatont
hebigcouch.
.
Tr
ey:
:
sowhatdouwantt
owat
ch
Me:
:Ev
ery
thi
ngev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lbef
ine
wel
lguy
s'Ev
ery
thi
ngev
ery
thi
ng'
isourf
avour
it
e
movi
e

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kencomment
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16:
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t159
 soaf
tert
hemov
iei
wasal
i
lbi
thungr
y,no.
..
Act
ual
l
yiwasr
eal
l
yhungr
y
.
..
Me:
:T.
.
Hi
m::
yes
Me:
:
iam hungr
y
Hi
m::
so?
Me:
:
gomakemesomet
hingt
oeat
Hi
m::
comeonst
ardon'
tuhav
ehands
Me:
:pl
ease
Hi
m::
no
Me:
:
iam beggi
ngu
Hi
m::y
ou'
l
lkeeponbeggi
ngunt
iludi
eofhungeri
am
t
ell
i
ngu
Me:
:
fucku
Hi
m::
i
t'
stakest
wot
odot
hat
.
..
 i st
oodupnwentt othekitchen,imademy selfa
cheesesandwi chnpour edmysel ffruit
sjuice,
saton
thekitchencount ernat
e,ididn'twannagobackt o
Treywi ththefoodbecausei knewt hathewasal so
hungryj ustt
hathewasl azyt ostandupf rom that
couch,fini
shed..
.washedthepl atengl assiwas
usingt heniwentbacktoTr ey
.
..
.
Hi
m::
wher
e'st
hef
ood
Me:
:
whi
chf
ood
Hi
m::
theoneuwer
epr
epar
ing
Me:
:
iat
eit
Hi
m::
wit
houtshar
ing
Me:
:you'
vegothandsj
ustl
i
kemedon'
tu
Hi
m::
stardon'
tuknowt
hatshar
ingi
scar
ing
Me::st
opt
alki
ngnonsensengopr
epar
efoodf
orur
sel
f
Hi
m::
ican'
tbel
i
eveur
ytnow
Me:
:
wel
lthenbel
i
evewhatuwantt
obel
i
eve
 hechuckl
ed
Him:
:okayi
am beggi
ngu,
canugomakeme
somethi
ngtoeat
Me:
:
no,
nondno
Hi
m::
I'
l
lgi
veuani
ceki
ssi
fudo
Me:
:
nifi
don'
t
Hi
m::
I'
l
lnotki
ssuf
ort
henextt
hreeday
s
Me:
:
idon'
tcar
egomakey
our
sel
fsomet
hingeat
hestoodup,
wenttot
hekitchennhecameback
aft
erawhil
ewithabowlful
lofnoodl
es,heat
ein
si
lencenaft
ert
hathest
oodupwi tht
hebowlnhe
camebackagain
.
..
.
Me:
:
that
'swassi
mpl
ewasn'
ti
t
hei
gnor
edmeni
laughed
Hi
m::
what
'
sfunny
Me:
:
not
hing,
j
ustt
hatul
ookcut
ewheny
ou'
reangr
y
hegav
emeadeadst
are
Me:
:
cani
getaki
ss
Hi
m::
don'
twor
ryy
ou'
l
lgeti
tint
henext3day
s
Me:
:
youmustbej
oki
ng
Hi
m::
doi
lookl
i
keacl
ownt
ou
Me:
:
noudon'
t
.
..
itr
iedt
okissmebuthelookedatt
heot
her
di
recti
on,
itr
iedagai
nbuthepushedmebackt
his
ti
me..
.
Mebei
ngsil
l
yi wasenj
oyi
ngwhathewasdoi
ng,
i
f
oundi
tfunL.O.
L
.
..
.
Ikeptontryinguntil
ireachedhisli
ps,i
kissedhim
buthedidn'trespond,batehi
slowerli
pnhe
responded(
t hathi
sweakspot )wekisseduntilwe
wereonnev eryt
hingthathappenedwashi st
ory(
we
diditonthecouchni twassoooni ce&fun)

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kencomnent
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16:
25]: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
t160

soafterwegotdressednTr eyaccompaniedme
homeont hewayTr ey'
sphoner ang,
helookedati
tn
hedidn'
tbotheranswering,
thepersoncall
edthe
secondtime,
hedidn'tansweri
tagainnont hethi
rd
ti
mehehangedup
.
..
Me:
:
whydon'
tuanswert
hephoneT
Hi
m::
i
t'
snot
hingi
mpor
tant
Me:
:who'
scal
l
ingany
way
Hi
m::
i
t'
suhhh
Me:
:
who?
?
Hi
m::
i
t'
sdad
Me:
:
ohhoky
.
..
.
 soi
arr
ivedathome,
bat
hednsl
eptsi
ncei
was
t
ir
ed
.
..
.
SoitwasnowSat urday,
Trey'sbirt
hday,wewer ea
weekawayf r
om Prom,i wokeup, didthehy giene
process,wentdownstair
sf orbreakfastnaf t
er
breakfastMom ndadwer egoi ngtosomeev entt
hat
wast akingpl
aceatdad' swor k,
iwenttomyr oom n
wroteTr eyahappybirt
hdaymassagesi ncehe
wasn'tansweringhisphone,Iwant edtogi v
ehi mt he
watchi boughtforhim weeksagobuti didn'tknow
howt o..
.
Isatonmybedunt il11:00Tr ey'sphonewasst il
loff
nthatbotheredmewor sei coul dn'
tgotohi shouse
becausei don'
teverwannacr osspat hswi t
hhis
fat
her ,
sosinceiwasal il
bitbor edi deci
dedt otakea
walknhav esomei cecr eam f ormysel f
,ihadmy
earphonesonnt hev olumewassohi gh,asIwas
walkingacarnearlyhittedme, iwasshaki ng
becausei nearl
ydied,i
tst oppedi nfr
ontofment he
windowr oll
eddown, luckilyitwasdr i
venby
Aust
in,
hewaswi
thShawnnLi
am i
nthatcar
.
..
Aust
in:
:
Vwhatt
hef
ucky
ou'
l
lgetursel
fki
l
led
Me::
sor
ryguy
sidi
dn'
tseeucomi
ng,
ihadmy
ear
phoneson
Hi
m::
unear
lygotmear
rest
ed
Me:
:sosor
ryAust
in,
wher
ear
euguy
sgoi
ngany
way
Hi
m::
tourman'
spar
ty
Me:
:
myman'
spar
ty?
?!
Hi
m::
yeah,
Trey
'sbi
rt
hdaypar
ty,
it'
shi
sbi
rt
hdayt
oday
i
sn'
ti
t
Me:
:
he'
sthr
owi
ngapar
ty?
?
Li
am:
:
pleasedon'
ttel
lmeudi
dn'
tknowV
Me:
:noi
didn'
t
Shawn:
:
wel
lthensi
nceunowknowl
et'
sgo
Aust
in:
:
yeahVl
et'
sgo
Li
am:
:
Twi
l
lsur
elov
etoseeut
her
e
Me:
:
uhhhokayt
henl
et'
sgo
.
..
iwenttothecar ,
iaskedt hem topassbymy
housesoi cantakeTr ey'
spr esentntheydi
d,ranto
myr oom,t
ookt hatwat ch,changedtheoutf
itintoa
whit
eshortj ump-suitnwhi tesandals,
ti
edmyhai r
i
ntoaneatbunnappl iedapi nkishli
pst
ick,
thenwent
backtothecarnwedr ovetoTr ey'
shousewhi l
e
havi
ngcrazynni ceconv os

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kencomment
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16:
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arykaAmo

I
nser
t161

aft
erawhil
ewear r
ivedatTrey's,
ther
ewer eal
ot
ofcarspar
kedout
side,whit
enbl ueballoonswer
e
decorat
edatt
hegate,i
twassocr owded, sowegot
offt
hecarnwewenti nsi
dei waspray i
ngnottosee
ortobeseenbyTr ey'sfat
her,
aswegotinisaw
Lisa'
smothernTrey '
smot herchat
ti
ng,
ij
ustknew
thatLi
sawasalsot here
.
..
.
Aust
in:
:sowher
edoi
gett
hebi
rt
hdayboy
Li
am::
golookf
orhi
m,asf
ormei
am goi
ngt
ogetmy
sel
fadri
nk
Shawn:
:
met
oo
t
heysai
dthatl
eav
ing
.
..
Me:
:
douhav
eanyi
deawher
ehemi
ghtbe
Hi
m::
he'
spr
obabl
ywher
ethemeati
s,
let
'sgol
ookf
or
hi
mther
e
Me:
:douev
enknowwher
ethemeati
s
Hi
m::
nobutwe'
l
llookf
ori
t
i
laughednwest
art
edwal
ki
ng
Hi
m::
sohowcomeudi
dn'
tknowaboutt
hepar
ty
Me:
:
Treydi
dn'
tsayawor
dabouti
ttome,
may
behe
doesn'
twantmeher
e
Hi
m::
coneonVi
am sur
ehepr
obabl
yfor
got
Me:
:
we'
l
lfi
ndoutwhi
chi
swhi
choncewef
oundhi
m
sohewasn'twher
ethemeatwas,
wheret
he
dr
inkswer
e,hewasnowher
etobefound
.
.
Me:
:
iam sot
ir
ednow
Aust
in:
:l
et'
sgol
ookf
orhi
minhi
sroom
Me::
whatwouldhebedoi
ngi
nhi
sroom whent
he
par
tyisout
side,
hi
spar
ty
Hi
m::someti
mest hedudedoesweirdthi
ngs,
i
t
houghtyou'
vef
iguredthatoutbynow
i
laughed
Me:
:asucanseei
hav
en'
tfi
gur
edt
hatout
wewenti nsidethehousenTrey
'sf
atherwasin
thekit
chen,it
ookAustin'
scaptohi
demyf acewit
hit
nlucki
lyhewast oobusytonoti
ce,
passedthe
kit
chen,wentupstai
rswenttoTr
ey'
sroom nthedoor
wascl
osed
Me:
:
shoul
diknock
Aust
in:
:
nodon'
tj
ustopen
Me:
:
whati
fhe'
snaked
Aust
in:
:webothknowhi
m nakedsot
hatwon'
tbea
pr
oblem,don'
twe
ismil
ed,shockmyheadopenednopenedt
he
doorverywidel
y
.
..
.
IndeedTr eywasinhi sbed,wit
hhi sboxersonly,
wit
h
Lisaont opofhim, sheonlyhadherpant yon,t
heir
clotheswer eal
lov erthefl
oor,t
heywer ekissi
ng
whileTr eywassqueezi ngherbreasts.
..
Austinni
stoodt her ewatchingthem indisbel
ief
,it
ear
escapedmyey easi sawthem,Iwasn'tangry,i was
hurt,di
sappoi nt
ed,betrayednweak. .
.
AssoonasTheynot
icedus,
irangoi
ngdownst
air
sn
Aust
inf
oll
owedme..
.
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arykaAmo

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nser
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i r
antothecarwhi
letearsweref
lowi
ngnon
st
op,gottot
hepassenger'
sseat,
nAusti
ngott
othe
dr
iver'
sseat
.
..
Me:
:
getmet
hehel
lout
aher
e
isaidt
hati
nacr
yingv
oicenAusti
ndidn'
tsay
any
thinghedi
dwhathewastol
d,hest
art
eddriv
ing
.
..
.
Sothegirl
Tr eyhasbeencheat ingwithi
sLi
sa,did
theyevenbrokeuporwasTr eyl yi
ngtome?,soTr ey
fi
nall
ydecidedtolistentohisfathernmadeaf ool
outofme, doesheev enst
il
llovemeorishedat i
ng
mebecausehef eelspityf
orme,
.
..
.
Al
ltheset
houghtwererunni
ngthr
oughmymi nd
whi
letear
swerealsofl
owingasiwaslooki
ngatthe
wi
ndow
.
..
Aust
in:
:we'
reher
eV
wow,ididn'
tevennoti
cedthecarstoppi
ng,
we
wereoutsideAusti
n'
shouse,idon'
tknowyhebought
methere,wegotoffthecarnwewenti nsi
de,
l
ucki
l
y
t
herewasnoonear ound
.
..
Aust
in:
:makeursel
fathome
iwenttositatthecouchont hell
oungenhe
disappearedt othekit
chen,camebackwi thagl ass
ofwat erntissues,hegavemet heglassigaspedit
allnthenhegav emet heti
ssues, i
wipedmyneck
thatwasnowwet ,
mychicst hatwerenowpi nknmy
eyesthatwer epainfulnred.
..Austi
nsatont he
Coffeytableinfrontofme
.
..
Hi
m::Viam sososor
ryi
tookut
her
etoseeal
lof
t
hatshi
t,
ireal
l
yam
i
lookedathi
ssadf
ace
Me::
it'
sokayman,noneoft
hisi
surf
aul
t,att
heendi
hadtofi
ndoutaboutthi
s
Him::
wellt
heni
am sor
ryuf
oundouti
nawor
seway
possi
ble
Me:
:
diduknewaboutt
his
hedi
dn'
tanswermei
nst
eadhel
ookeddown
Me:
:
Aust
inanswermepl
ease,
ndon'
ttr
ytol
i
etome
henoddedsay
ingy
es
Me:
:howl
onghasi
tbeenhappeni
ng
het
ookadeepbr
eat
h
Me:
:
Aust
in.
..
Hi
m::
about5mont
hs
tear
simmediatel
ymadet hei
rwayoutagai
n
uncont
rol
labl
enhecame, satnextt
omenhe
huggedmet i
ght
,brushedmybackwhileicr
yedmy
l
ungsout,i
fthey'
vedatedthatl
ongtheypr
obabl
y
gonnagetmarr
iedaft
erhighschool
.
..
icoul
dn'
tbel
i
evet
hatTr
eymanagedt
oli
etome
f
orsolong

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kencomment
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opTop
[
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16:
27: Di
arykaAmo

I
nser
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solat
erthatdayAustintookme
home,ar
ri
ved,wenttomyr oom,tookacoldshower
l
oti
onednsl eptwi
thouteati
ngdi nnerTr
eykepton
cal
li
ngnonest opunti
lidecidedgoputitonsil
ence
.
..
.
Wokeupt
henextday
,itwasSunday
,bathedworemy
bl
acknwhi
teshor
tdress,
appl
i
edapi nkl
ipst
ickn
ti
edmyhai ri
ntoaneatbun, myey eswer eli
l bitpuffy
fr
om thecr yi
ngdoi decidedt oputsomesungl asses
becausei knowt hatdadcanal way snoti
cei twheni
wascr yi
ng.wentdownst ai
rs,hadbreakfastni went
bythepool side,sattherealmostt hewhol edaywi th
mom nBr itney,t
heymanagedt odi
stractmymi nda
l
ilbitf
rom thinki
ngaboutTr ey,asforTreyhekepton
call
inguntilmyphoner anoutofbat t
eryni didn't
botherchargingit.
..
Thef
oll
owi
ngdayi
twasMonday
.
..
.
Wokeup, di
dthewholehygienepr ocessnwentt o
school,wearri
vedali
lbi
tlatesii wentstr
aightto
classsot hewholecl
asswast alkingaboutPr om
nightthatwasgoingtotakeplaceSat ur
dayni ghtn
thatwheni rememberedthatatt hemomentt hi
ngs
wer en'
tsogoodbetweenmenmyPr om partner.
..
.
..
Solunchcame,
Iwaseat
ingal
onethat
'sdaybecause
Anastasi
awashavi
ngLunchwit
hChri
ssoi hadmy
ear
phonesonthewhol
elunch
.
..
.
Timewentonnbef
oreievenknewi
t,
itwasafter
school
nasiwasabouttogohomeAustinshowed
up
.
..
Hi
m::
heyVugood?
Me:
:
yeahi
am f
ine
i
sai
dthatf
aki
ngasmi
l
e
Hi
m::
sti
l
lnott
alki
ngt
oTr
ey?
Me:
:
idon'
tknowwhatt
osayt
ohi
m uknow
Hi
m::
you'
renott
heonewho'
ssupposet
otal
k,
hei
s
Me::
i don'
twannahearany
thingcomi
ngfr
om hi
mr y
t
now,causeallheev
ersayi
ssor r
ynaf
tert
he'
sorr
y'
heli
es,iam t
ir
edofbeingli
edto
Hi
m::butVmay
behehav
ear
easonwhyhedi
dal
lof
t
his
Me:
:
nwhat
'scoul
dthatr
easonbe
Hi
m::
youwoul
dfi
ndouti
fucanj
ustt
alkt
ohi
m
.
..
il
ookedathi m nlefthimtheregoingtothe
transportthatwastakingmehome, i
wasn'tgonna
forgiv
eTr eyjustl
i
ket hatyesilovedhim buti
couldn'tl
ethim goof fthehookjustl
ikethat
.
..
Whatwashur ti
ngmet hemosti sthathewas
cheati
ngonmewi t
ht hegirlhewasor deredtomar r
y
aft
erhighschool ,
imeanwhodoest hat,doesLisa
evenknowt hatTr
eyni aresti
l
ltogetherordidhe
tol
dhert hatheendedt hi
ngswithmej ustlikehetol
d
met hatheendedt hingswi t
hherwheni caughthim
afewmont hsback..
.
DidTreyreal
lythi
nkthati
wasn'
tgonnaf
indout
aboutthi
s,well
guesswhatidi
d
.
.
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t
hedayswenton,
itwasnowFriday,
thedaybef
ore
Pr
om ni
ght.
..Tniwerest
il
lnott
alki
ng
.
..
I
twasaft
erschoolwhenBri
tneyni
werewai
ti
ngf
or
dadt
ofet
chus,Austi
nshowedupwit
hLi
am
.
..
Them:
:
gir
ls
Us:
:
heyguy
s
Them:
:
howar
euguy
s
Me:
:
we'
regoodt
hanku
Aust
in:
:
Vihear
duwer
elooki
ngf
ormeear
li
er,
what
's
up
Me::i
waswonder
ingi
fudohav
eaPr
om par
tneror
not
wellguysit
'sawel
l knownf
actthatAusti
nisa
fuckboysoi f
igur
edthathemightnothaveaProm
partneravoidi
ngtobecaughtbyhisgir
lf
ri
ends
Aust
in:
:
wel
lVi
don'
t,
ithi
nkuknowt
her
eason
weal
ll
aughedbecauseweal
lknewt
her
eason

.
..
Me:
:
wel
lthencani
pleasebeurpar
tner
Aust
in:
:
nwhataboutT
Me:
:
he'
l
lhav
etogoal
one,
forpuni
shment
t
heyal
ll
aughed
Aust
in:
:
uknowwhatV,i
wouldhelput
opunishTrey
,
soiagr
eetobeurPr
om par
tner
,ononecondi
ti
on
Me:
:
yes
Hi
m::
pleasel
ookgood
wel
aughed
Me:
:alr
ightt
henf
etchmet
omor
rowl
ater
t
hen,ar
ound7
Hi
m::
wil
ldo
Aust
innLi
am l
eft
.
..
Br
it
ney
::ar
eusur
eaboutal
eoft
his
Me:
:
yeah
Her
::
thi
swi
l
lhur
tTr
eyV
Me:
:well
thenl
et'
shi
m hav
ethet
ast
eofhi
sown
medi
cine
Her
::
Treysur
edi
dmessedupt
hist
imei
cansee
.
..
dadarri
vednweal lwenthome, wehel pedmom
toCook, haddinnerwitht
hefam, wentt omy
room,changedi ntomyp.j
'sgotundert he
blanki
es,l
oggedi ntomyWhst sApp,chattedwithmy
l
ilsibl
ingsnwi thMbali
,Iwast ell
i
ngt hem aboutthe
Prom thatwillbetaki
ngplacet omorrowni ght
,t
hat
nightIpromisedmysel ft
hatnomat terwhat
happenst omorr
owni ghtbetweenmenTr eyiwoul
d
notletitr
uinmybigni ght,
becausedeepdowni
knewt hatanot
herdramawasaboutt oPop-
up
duri
ngPr om,ij
ustknew
.
..
Butiwon'
tl
ie,t
hefactofnotgoi
ngtoProm wit
hTrey
hunt
edme,itbrokemyheartbutwhatcanisay,
T
al
waysrui
nev eryt
hing.
..
Iwant edhi mtobet hefi
rstonewhoseesme
wearingt hatdress,
iwantedtowalkdownther
ed
carpethol di
nghishandbutal l
ofthatwasa
dream, notjustadream
.
..
Abr
okenone

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 t
hef oll
owingi spentt hedayi ndoor s,l
aterBrit
ney
ni wentt obath,mom appl iedmakeuponus, she
curledBritney'
shai rnhel pedmet osty l
emybi g
blackf l
uffyafro,nafterwegotdr essed,iwasl ooki
ng
sobeaut if
ul,i
wor emymom' snecklace( biol
ogical
mom)ni wascompl ete,i hadamar oonlipsti
ck
on,blackmascar a,holdhai rpi
ece,goldneckl ace,
mar oonlongdr essnbl ackhi l
ls,
wasl ookingso
beaut i
fulnsowasBr itney ,
dadwal kedi nasi was
starri
ngatmy selfint hemi rr
or
.
..
.
Hi
m::
ulookbeaut
if
ulpr
incess
Me:
:
thanky
oudad
Hi
m::
iam sopr
oudofu
Me:
:
thanky
ou
hegav
emeoneoft
hewar
mesthugs
Hi
m::
daddyl
ovesu
Me:
:
ilov
eyout
oo
Hi
m::
enj
oyy
ourni
ghtt
oni
ght
Me:
:
that
'st
heor
igi
nal
plan
hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m::
that
'smygi
rl
sot hedoorbel lrangdownst ai
rsndadr ushed
downst ai
rsni stayedbehi nd,
yesmom ndadwer e
theref ormet hatnightbutdeepdeepdowni wished
thatmymot herwast heret oseeme, asiwas
thinkingaboutt hatmom cal l
edmet ocomedown, i
slowl ywalkeddownt hest air
s,Br i
tneywasalready
downst ai
rswi thhisdat e,asi waswal ki
ngdownt hey
allstarred,i
f el
tsooospeci alL.O.L,Austi
nwast here
too,hewasl ooki ngsohot ,hewaswear i
ngablack
ri
ppedj ean,
whi teNi kesneaker s,whiteshir
t(i
twas
nott uckedi n)nabl acksui tt
op, hewasonf l
ames
guy strustme
.
..
Aust
in:
:
damnVul
ookbeaut
if
ul
i
smi
l
ed
Me:
:
thanku,
you'
renotsobadursel
f
 ev
ery
onel
aughed
Dad:
:
boy
spl
easet
akecar
eofmydaught
ers
hesai
dthatr
efer
ri
ngtoAusti
nnBrit
ney'
sboyf
ie
,sodadt
ookme,Austi
nBri
tneynherboyf
ri
endapic
befor
ewelef
t
.
..
Al
lofusweretr
avel
li
ngwi
thaLimo,
dad'
sLi
moso
welef
tAust
in'
scaratmyyar
d..
..
Wehadwinewhi
l
egoi
ngt
owher
ethepr
om was
t
aki
ngpl
ace..
.
Wear rivedthedriverwentt oopenadoorf or
us,Bri
tneynherb. fgotofff i
rstnAust ingotof ftoo,
helpedmegotof fthecarnhehel dmywai stnwe
walkedsl owlyonther edcar petgetti
nginsidet he
venue,thatwasmybestmoment ,
wet ookal otof
picsthenwegoti n,i
twasdecor atedinblacknwhi t
e
event heballoonswer eblacknwhi t
eev erythingn
everyonewasbeaut if
ul,
i
twasj ustbreathtaking

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soaswegotinisawAnastasi
a,shewasweari
ng
abluedr
ess,
sheal
solookedbeaut
iful
,iscr
eamedn
wenttohugher
.
..
Me:
:
bit
chul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Her
::
notasy
out
hough,
ulooksopr
ett
y
Me:
:
thankusweet
y
Her
::
heyAust
in
Aust
in:
:
Anast
asi
ahi
,
howar
eu
Her
::
iam good,
nu
Hi
m::
met
oo
wel
lguysther
e'st
hisspar
kbet
weent
heset
wo
t
hatican'
tev
enexplain
Me::
uhhguy
scanwegetour
sel
vessomet
hingt
o
dr
ink
Anna:
:youguy
sdothat
,iam goi
ngt
olookf
orChr
isi
don'
tknowwherehedi
sappearedt
o
Me:
:
seeul
atert
hen
sowewentt
owher
ethedr
inkswer
efound
Hi
m::
sowhi
chdr
inkdouwant
Me:
:
opt
ions.
.
Hi
m::
redwi
ne,
cockt
ail
nsexi
nthebi
tch
Me:
:
cockt
ail
wil
ldo
Hi
m::
cockt
ail
iti
s
hegav
emet
hegl
ass
.
..
.
Hi
m::
uknowi
can'
tseemygi
rl
fr
iend
Me:
:
whi
choneexact
ly
hel
ookedatmensmi
l
ed
Hi
m::
theonei
lov
ethemost
Me:
:
whydon'
tugol
ookf
orher
Hi
m::
nleav
euher
eal
one,
nothappeni
ng
Me:
:
I'
ll
bef
ineuknow
Hi
m::
don'
twor
ryI
'
lll
ookf
orherl
ater
.
..
.
aswewer echatti
ng,Tr
eymadehi sentr
ance,he
hadanewhai rcutwhichlookedr
eall
ygoodon
hi
m, hewasalsowearingablackr
ippedjean,maroon
Nikesneaker
,whiteT-shi
rt
,namar oonblouse...
Hel ookedsohandsome, butonhislef thandhewas
holdingLisawhowaswear i
ngapi nkdr ess,i
twas
al
sobeaut i
fulasisawLisanexttohimi justtooka
si
patmydr i
nkavoidi
ngtobeirri
tated, so
unexpectedlysomeonespokeatt hemi crophone,i
t
wast hepr i
nci
pal,
weal l
satdownnl i
st enedtohis
l
ongbor ingspeech,Tr
eywasst ari
ngatmet hewhole
ti
mebuti pret
endedthatiwasn'tnoticing
.
..
Aft
erpr
inci
pal
'
sspeechthemusi
cpl
ayed,
i
twasso
l
oudnpeoplestar
teddanci
ng
.
..
.
Aust
in:
:
uwannadanceV?
Me:
:
iwoul
dlov
eto
istoodupnwedancedaswewer edancing
Austi
n'sgir
lshowedupnhehadt ogot oher
,so
si
nceIwasal onei t
ookadrinknwalkedaround
whil
et aki
ngself
ies,
imustsayevery
thingwasgoing
gr
eatnt hemusicwasalsoonpoi nt
.
..
Thenipumpedt
oTrey
,hewasst
andi
ngal
one
hol
dingagl
assofr
edwine
.
..
Hi
m::
hy
Me:
:
hey
Hi
m::
ureal
l
ylookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
ulookgoodt
oo
Me.
..
Hi
m::
thanku
Hi
m::
bbei
am sor
r.
..
Me:
:
Treypl
ease,
let
'
snott
alkaboutt
hisher
e

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arykaAmo

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Hi
m::
ohhoky
..
.
Me:
:
I'
ll
seeuar
oundt
hen
isaidthatleavinghimt here,
asformei just
wantedtohav ef unngetwai sted,
toitookabot t
leof
redwinenst arteddancingalonewhi l
esippingit
,i
l
ookedcr azyy es,
buti wasreall
yenjoyi
ngmysel fn
Austi
njoinedme, sowedancedt ogether.
.danci
ngto
asongt i
ttl
ed'newf l
ames'..
.
.
..
Aust
in:
:
Vcanwegot
akepi
ctur
es
Me:
:
butwedi
d
Austi
n::
comeonIwantt
ohav
elotofmemor
iesof
thi
snight
Me:
:
okyt
hen,
wher
etot
hist
ime
Hi
m::
bal
cony
.
..
sowewenttothebalcony
,therewasnoone
there,
thevi
ewwasreall
ybeaut i
ful
,it
ookoutmy
phonenwest ar
tedtaki
ngpictures,
Aust
inr
eal
ly
l
ov esthecamer
aguy s
.
..
ThenwewentbackinsideasongbyJustinBi
eber
ti
tt
led'
li
vemylif
e'wasnowpl ay
ing,i
t'
soneofmy
favour
it
esongssoijustwentcrazy
..
.
Thenightwasj ustperfect
,sobefor
emi dnightiwent
totheladies,
camebackncameback, ilookedfor
Austi
nni couldn'tf
indhim,asi waslookingforhi
mi
sawTr eykissingLisa,AGAIN,mybodyj ustwentcold
nifel
tt earsfi
lli
ngmyey es,madeonebl i
nknt hey
wereout ,
asi wasst andingthereAusti
nhel dme
f
rom t
hebacknt
ookmeawayf
rom t
her
e,hewi
ped
mytear
s
.
..
Hi
m::
comeonVdon'
tl
ett
hem r
uiny
ourni
ghtpl
ease
Me:
:
whydoeshekeepdoi
ngt
hist
omeAust
in
Him::comeonV,
don'
tl
ett
hem gett
ou,t
hisi
sanight
toremembernwedon'
twannarememberucry
ing
nowdowe?
t
ear
sescapedagai
n
Hi
m::Vanessapl
easenow,
stopcr
ying,
nother
e
pl
ease
iwi
pedmyt
ear
s,t
ookabot
tl
eofwi
nent
ooka
si
p
.
..
Me:
:
let
'sgodance
Hi
m::
that
'smygi
rl
.
..
wewentt
othedanci
ngci
rcl
e,
nikeptondr
inki
ng
unti
lIwasti
psy
,nAusti
ntol
dmenottodrink
anymoresoist
oppeddri
nki
ngncont
inuedwitht
he
danci
ng

-
Trey
'sP.
O.V

ireall
ywasn'tenj
oyingthewhol eProm thing
becauseIwaswi ththewr ongpar tnerni hatedever
y
minuteofit
,soasi wassittingdrinki
ngmycockt ai
l
Li
sacameoutofnowher enki ssedme, ifel
t
someonest ar
ri
ngatusni pull
edoutt olookwhoi t
was,isawAustinnVanessaf acingtheot hersideni
fi
guredoutthatitwasVst ar r
ingatus...
f*ck...
IpushedawayLi
sanwentt
othebal
conyt
oget
somef r
eshai
r

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kencomment
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arykaAmo
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nser
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sol
aterwewenthome,
Aust
int
ookhi
scarnwent
hometoo..
..
.
..
Thef oll
owingmor ningi wokeupont opofmybedn
iwasst il
lwear i
ngt hedr ess,myheadwasdo
painful
,iwokeup, tookof fthatdressnwentf ora
l
ongcol dshower ,
lotioned,wor emygreybun-shortn
awhi teAdidasT- shirtwithsleepers,l
eavedmyhai r
unt i
ednwentdownst ai
rs,t
hef am washav i
ng
breakfastbutBr i
tneywasn' tther
e,igreet
edthem n
wentt othefridge,tookoutabot tleofcoldwatern
start
eddr i
nking
.
..
Dad::
youknowt
her
ear
egl
assesi
nthi
shouse
Vanessa
Jay
::
iseeHanov
er'
ski
l
li
ngsomeone
Me:
:wher
e'sBr
it
ney
Dad:
:
sti
l
lasl
eep
Mom:
:
howwasPr
om,
diduenj
oyy
oursel
f
Me:
:
wesur
elydi
d
Mom::
that
'sgoodt
ohear
,Jayl
et'
sgowe'
regonnabe
l
ate
Me:
:
wher
e'r
euguy
sgoi
ng
Mom:
:
tochur
ch
t
heyst
oodupnl
eft
Me:
:
mom f
orcedhi
m di
dn'
tshe
Dad:
:uknowurmotherver
ywell
,
looki
am al
sogoi
ng
topl
aygolfwi
thmycoli
csI'
ll
seeuGuy'
slat
er
Me:
:
enj
oy
healsol
eft
,it
ookhi
splat
eofbreakfastnf
ini
shed
i
tbecauseiwashungr
y nBri
tneywalkeddown
l
ooki
ngsomi ser
abl
e
.
..
Her
::
wher
e'sev
ery
one
Me:
:
mom nJaywentt
ochur
chndadwentt
opl
ay
gol
f
Her
::
ohhh,
myheadi
ssopai
nful
Me:
:
icansee,
tr
ycol
dwat
er
shest
oodupnwentt
othef
ri
dge
.
..
.
Me::l
ookI
'
llbei
nmyr
oom i
funeedme,
iam so
sl
eepy
Her:
:
don'twor
ryi
won'
tbot
herubecauseI
'
llbeal
so
sl
eeping
il
aughednwentt omyr oom, t
hrewmysel font he
bedndossedof f
,iwaswokenupl at
erbymyr inging
phoneni twasTr ey,
ididn'
tanswerbecausei didn'
t
knowwhatt osayt ohim, i
nsteadi wokeup,wentt o
thebathroom,thenIwentdownst air
stookoutice
cream nwentt owat chamov i
esincei wasti
red
from sl
eeping,
i endedupt hinkingaboutthesituation
thatwashappeni ngbet weenmenTr ey,i
couldn't
i
gnor ei
nanyl onger ,
ineededt omakeadeci sionni
fi
nall
ymadeupmymi nd
.
..
Ifi
nal
l
ymadeaf i
naldeci
sionaboutwhatt
odowi
th
thewhol
esi
tuat
ion

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arykaAmo

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sot hef oll

owingday(Monday )Iwoke
up,bathed,wor emyover si
zedgreyNiket r
acksuit
withall-
star ,
itwasli
lbitcoldsoyeah,hadbr eakf
ast
nmom t ookust oschool ,
thewholedaywentonj ust
fi
ne,thelessonswer enor malnbeforei evenknew
i
t,
itwasaf terschool
..
..
Mom fet
chedus,
wearri
vedhomenitst
art
edrai
ning,
iat
enwentupstai
rst
omyr oom,
fr
eshenedupni
cal
ledTr
ey
.
..
Hi
m::
stari
am sogl
aducal
l
ed
Me:
:
let
'smeethal
fway
,now.
..
please
Hi
m::
okayt
hen
ihangedup,
itwasti
mei fi
xalloft
his,
asrai
ning
asitwasiwentoutwal
kingsoslowlyni f
inal
l
ymet
hi
m, hewasal
soweari
ngt r
acksui
t
.
..
.
Hi
m::
stari
am sogl
adcal
l
ed
Me:
:
nthankuf
orcomi
ng
Hi
m::
l
ookwhatusawt
heot
herdaywa.
..
Me::
Trey
,I
'l
ldot
hetalkingny
ou'
l
lli
stenokay
,ndon'
t
pl
easetr
ynottoint
erruptme
Hi
m::
o..
kay
i
tookadeepbr
eat
h
.
..
Me::
Treywhenisawuwi
thherIwasn'
tangr
y,i
was
di
sappoint
edi
ny ou
Hi
m::
niam sor
r.
..
Me:
:
Trey
!,
justl
i
stenokay
Hi
m::
okaysor
ry
Me: :nseeinguwi thherlastatPr om night ,
ki
ll
edme
ont hei nside,thatwheni knewt hatican'thandle
seei nguwi t
hhernmef eelingl i
ket hat
,you'l
lbe
forcedbet weenmenLi sa,nall ofthat'
slikeputti
ngu
bet weenar ocknahar dpl acebecausey ourf at
her
willbeupsetwi t
huwhoknows, hemi ghtsev en
disownuny ourrel
ati
onshipwi thhi m wil
l be
ruined,allbecauseofme, ni don'twantt hatto
happen, asmuchasi l
oveuTr eyi can'
tcont i
nueli
ke
this
Hi
m::
what
Me::
Ti..
i..
iam l
ett
ingugo,ican'
tcar r
yonlike
t
his,
evenifwepretendli
keeverythi
ng'sfi
nethat
won'
tchangethefactthatyourfatherdon'
twantu
wi
thme, hewantsuwithhernI '
vemadepi ecewit
h
t
hat,ushouldt
oo
Hi
m::
V..
.
Me::
T,i
am gi
vi
ngumybl essi
ngswit
hher,
iam t
ir
ed
offi
ghti
ngafi
ghtthatI
'
veal r
eadyl
ost,
gomarr
yher
aft
erhi
ghschoolndowhatev eruwantwit
hheri
don'
tcar
eanymor
e,ev
eni
fumar
ryhert
omor
row,
i
am f
inewit
hit
guy
sfort
hefir
stti
me,Tr
eywascr
yingnt
hat
br
okemyheartIwon'
tli
e
.
..
Hi
m::
Starpl
easedon'
tdot
his
hesai
dthathol
dingmyhands
Me::
pleasedon'
tmakethi
smorehardthani
tis,
n
pl
easedon'tcal
lme,
textme.
..
inf
actdel
etemy
number
.
..
wit
hthati
leftl
eavi
nghimther
enassoonasi
t
urnedawayfrom hi
mt ear
sst
art
edmaki
ngthei
r
wayout

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dumpingTreywast hehardestt
hingI'v
eev er
done,butihadnochoi cebecauselooksli
kehis
fathermanaget oforcehimtodatethatbitch,
nifhe
managet ogett hem dat
ing,whatwil
lstophimt oget
them mar r
ied.
..
.
Icriedallt
hewaygoi nghome(i
twasst i
l
l
raining)
,ar
ri
v edathome,
tookof
fthosewet
clothes,
wor emyp. j
'
sncriedmyselft
osleep
.
..
.

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

icoul dn'
tbel i
eveallt
hathasjusthappened, i am
notthet ypewhoeasi l
ycrybutthisti
mei couldn't
hol
di tin,if
eltl
ikei wasdreaming,notjustadr eam
butani ghtmar e,ifel
tsopowerless,iknowI 'vehurt
her,
al otbuti nev erwanthert
ol etmego, ev er
,but
shedidandi tallbecauseofmysel fi
shngr eedy
f
ather
..
..
From therei wipedmyt earsnwentt oAusti
n's,i
real
lyneededaf riendri
ghtnow, iknockednhis
mot heropenedt hedoor ,i
greetedhernshet ol
dme
thatAust i
nisinhi sroom, imademywayt ohisroom,
ifoundal lofthem there,Li
am,ShawnnAust in,i
didn'
t
sayany thi
ngi justwentt othecoucht hat
'snextto
thewi ndowonAust i
n'
sr oom,isatther
encov ered
myf acewi thbot hmyhands
.
..
Li
am:
:
manar
euOK?
Aust
in:
:
whodi
edT,
whyar
eul
i
ket
his
Me:
:
guy
sshe'
sdonewi
thme
asi
sai
dthatt
ear
sescaped
Shawn:
:
who'
sdonewi
thuwhatar
euonabout
Me:
:
Vanessa'
sdonewi
thme
Aust
in:
:
shedumpedu?
Me:
:
yeah
t
ear
skeptonf
lowi
ng
Aust
in:
:
idon'
tbl
ameher
Li
am:
:
sor
ryman
i
couldn'
tsayanythi
nganymor
eij
ustbr
okedown
i
nfrontoft
hem ntheyletmebe
.
..
Fort
hev
eryf
ir
stt
imei
nmyl
i
fei
wasCRYI
NGov
era
GIRL
.
..
Aft
eri
whi
lei
waschil
led,
nij
oinedt
heguy
sin
smoki
ngt
heweed.
..
.
Fil
l
edtheroom wi t
ht hesmokeunt i
liwassohi gh,
i
wantedtoforgetallaboutmybr okenheart,
Lisakept
oncall
ingni i
gnoredal l
thecall
s,thenmydadcal l
ed
ibetLi
satoldhimt hatiam notanswer i
ngmy
phone,
becausethatwhatshedoes, wheneverwe
haveaproblem sher unstomydadorherdad, n
someti
mest heyblamemeev enifiam notwr ong...
Tothem Li
sa'salway sri
ghtinther el
ati
onshi
pwe
have
Li
kencomnent
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27]: Di
arykaAmo

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nser
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Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

sotheweekpassed, i
twasnowSat urday,
ican'
t
sayi wasal readyoverTr eybecauseiwasstil
l
thi
nkingabouthi m eachnev er
yday,t
houghI've
stoppedwi ththecryi
ng,soi wokeup,bathed,
woremy
ri
ppedj ean,whit
eFILAT- shir
tnpitchVans
sneakers,ti
edmyhai rintotwoneatbun( s)nappli
ed
mypi nklipsti
ck,i
wasgoi ngout ,
al
one...
Iwentdownstair
saskeddadtogivehi
scardni
was
taki
ngataxibecauseidi
dn'
tfeel
li
kedri
vi
ng
.
..
.
Ar
riv
edatt hemal
lat11:
57,si
nceidi
dn'
thad
br
eakfastathomeiwenttoaPizzapl
ace,
order
eda
pizzawit
hacokenchips,
iat
etheni
wasoutof
there,
iwentt
ogamereser
ve
.
..
Ther easoniwentoutaloneisbecauseeversi
ncei
brokeupwi thTr
eyi don'
twannabear oundpeopl
e,i
don'tknowwhy ,
neversinceibrokeupwi t
hhimI'
ve
nevercrossedpathswithhim,ev
enatschool..
.
Asiwasatthegamer eser
veipumpedtoMandy,
the
onewhouset oworkasamaidathome,shewas
l
ookingsobeaut
if
ulnshehasev engai
nedwai
tas
soonasisawherirantoher
.
..
Me:
:
Mandy
..
.
sheturnednassoonasshesawmeshesmi
l
edn
Gaveinforawarm hug
.
..
Her
::
Vanessahowar
eu
Me:
:
iam goodnu
Her
::
iam goodt
oo
Me:
:
it'
sbeensol
ong
Her
::
iknowO.M.
Glookaty
ou,
you'
vegr
ownupnu
l
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
:
thanku,
utoo
Her
::
ulook20y
ear
sol
dnowuknow
i
laughed
Me:
:stopki
ddi
ng,
iam onl
y17,
butI
'
llbe18i
n6
months
shesmi
l
ed
Her
::wannagogr
abani
cecr
eam
Me:
:
sur
e
Her:
:sohow'sy
ourf
ami
l
y,i
hav
en'
tseent
hem i
na
ver
ylongti
me
Me:
:
they
'r
egood,
wher
ehav
eubeenal
lthi
sti
me
Her:
:aft
ermymom di ed,i
wenttocollege,whil
ei was
sti
l
lstudyingimetthi
samazingmannheof f
eredto
payformyst udi
es,
thatwhenileavedmyj obasa
maid,naftercol
l
egeigraduat
ed,hepr oposed,we
gotmar r
iednwe'vebeentogethereversince,
we're
l
iv
inginL.
AbutI'
vecamet
hissi
det
ocheckMy
mother
'sgr
ave
Me::
iam sohappyyou'
vef
inal
l
yfoundhappi
ness,
you'
regl
owinggir
l
Her
::
thanku.
.
shesai
dthatsmi
l
ing
Me:
:
sodon'
tuguy
shav
eki
ds
Her
::
nowe'r
est
il
lenj
oyi
ngoursel
ves,
we'
l
lhav
eki
ds
i
n3-4year
smaybe,
howaboutuupdat
eme
Me:
:
wel
lmyl
i
fehasbeengoodsof
ar
.
..
itol
dheraboutmyli
fewi
thmyf
ami
l
yidi
dn'
ttel
l
heraboutmysadlov
elif
e
Her
::andhi
ghschool
Me::iam l
eftwi
th5mont
hst
her
eni
can'
twai
t
al
ready

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soi mustsayi spentthedaywel lwi

th
Mandy ,
l
aterthatdayi wenthome, hadsupperwith
thefam,t
henwentupst ai
rs,
undressed,goti
ntoa
warm bath,gotout,
lot
inednwor emygown, saton
mybednl oggedintomyWhat sApp,guesswhat,i
haven'
tdeletedTrey'
snumbersoi checkedhisnew
P.p
.
..
Toi thewaswearingawhi teT-
shir
tnajean
j
acket ,
hewaslookingsohandsome,hi
slowerpink
l
ip,hissmal
ley
esnhi sbignoseL.
O.L,
yesTreyhasa
bignosebuthe'sperfectanyway
Thenewhai
rst
yler
eal
l
ysui
tedhi
mimustsay
..
.
Soaft
erstar
ri
ngatTreynl
oggedoutnwentt o
bor
rowalaptopfr
om dad,
iwantedtowat chamovie
nimust'
vefall
enasl
eepwatchi
ngitbecauseiwas
wokenupbydad
.
..
.
Hi
m::
mor
ningsl
eepyhead
Me:
:
mor
ningdad
Hi
m::
wakeup
Me:
:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng
Him:
:somewher
e,i
Needut
ohel
pmewi
th
somethi
ng
Me:
:
what
'st
hat
Hi
m::
you'
l
lfi
ndoutsoon,
getr
eady
hegotoutofmyr oom niwenttobat h,
woremy
greyshortdresswithwhi t
eAll
-starsneakers,
went
downstair
s, hadbreakfastndadni lef
t,
hefoldmom
that'
she'
st akingmet oseeadoct orbecause
apparentl
yIwascoughi ngal
lnight
.
..
Sowegott
othecar
.
..
.
Me:
:
dadwhydi
dul
i
e
Hi
m::becausewe'
regoingtochooseananni
ver
sar
y
pr
esentfr
om urmothernicoul
dn'tt
ell
hert
hat
Me::
whydidn'
tuaskBr
it
neybecauseshewokeup
ear
lythanme
Hi
m: :
Bee(
Brit
ney)isnotgoodwi t
hsecr
etsbecause
t
helastti
mei askedhersheendedupt el
l
ingyour
mothereventhetypeofpresentwebought
i
laughednwewentt
othej
ewel
l
eryshop
.
..
Wekeptonl ookingtherebutwecoul dn'tf
ind
somet hingthatsays'Li
nda' i
fuknowwhati meanso
isuggest edthatwegot ot hedr
essesshop, wekept
onl ookingunti
lwef oundabeautifulpurpl
edr ess
whichwascov eredinglit
tersontop,
i wasso
beaut i
fulnwet ookit,
payednwentf orburgers,we
hadl argebeefburgers,
largemil
kshakesnl arge
chips
.
..
Dad:
:
sowhatdouwantt
odoaf
terhi
ghschool
Me::
idon'tknowr
eal
l
y,i
am gonnacr
osst
hatbr
idge
onceireachit

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sowewer enowl ef twi

thonly2mont hsi nhi
gh
school,meani ng3mont hshaspassed, ni haven'
t
tal
ktoTr eyf or3mont hsn2weeks, iwoul dseehim
atschool buti woul djustpretendli
kei don'tsee
him,whenev eri am ar oundhim hewoul dst areat
me,iwouldbel yingi sayi wasn'tmissinghi m,i
missedhi m ev eryday, niwasal wayst hinkingabout
him,ikeptonl ookingatourpi ct
ures,yest heywer e
sti
ll
onmyphone
.
..
Nev
ery
timei
sawhi
mif
eltl
i
ker
unni
ngt
ohi
m,hug
hi
m nki
sshi
m,buti
coul
dn'
t
Thetruthisiwasfail
ingtocopewithouthi
m,i
thoughtiwouldgetov erhi
minjustamonthbuti
wasl y
ingtomy sel
f,nseeinghi
m almostever
ydayat
schoolalsomadeithar dformetogetoverhi
m
.
..
SoitwasnowMonday, iwokeup,di
dthehygi
ene
process,hadbreakfastnwalkedt
oschool,
arr
ived
thereaftersometiment heniwentt
omy
l
ocker,changedmyt ext
booksnwenttocl
ass
Studiedthefir
stlessonsthenwentt olunch,asiwas
eatingwi t
hAnastasiaChri
saskedhert oeatlunch
withhim ni wasleftal
one,ihadmyear phonesonn
l
istenedt oEll
aMai t
hewholel unch,t
henwentback
toclass,soaft
erlunchtheteacherswer etalki
ng
aboutgr aduat
ion,
yesoverher eafterhi
ghschool we
graduate,gotocollege\universi
tyngr aduateagai
n
L.O.L
.
..
Bef
oreievenknewit
,i
twasaf
terschool,
ni was
wal
kinghomebecauseidi
dn'
tfeell
ikegoingwit
ha
car
,ist
il
lhav
elegsdon'
ti
.
..
Whileiwaswal ki
ngiheardsomeonetappingmy
shoulderfr
om theback,
itookoffmyearphonesn
tur
nedar ound,
guesswhoi twas
.
.
I
twasTr ey
,hel
ookedsohandsome,
ihaven'
tseen
himt hatcl
osei
nawhi l
esoforsomereasoniwas
thr
il
led
.
..
Hi
m::
howar
eust
ar
wow,
he'
sst
il
lcal
l
ingme'
Star
'
Me:
:
iam f
ine,
ursel
f
Hi
m::
notr
eal
l
y
Me:
:
why
Hi
m::
imi
ssuV,
ireal
l
ydo.
.
Me:
:oh.
..
Hi
m::
myl
i
fehasn'
tbeent
hesamewi
thoutu
Me:
:
ithasbeenmor
egoodnowr
yt?
Hi
m::
NO,
i
t'
shasbeenwor
se
Me:
:
sor
ry
Hi
m::
ibr
okeupLi
sa
Me:
:
udi
d?
Hi
m::
yeah,
forr
eal
thi
sti
mei
promi
se
Me:
:
goodf
orut
hen
Him::
nmydadhascutt
edmymonthlyal
lowance,
he
doesn'
ttal
ktome,
i
t'
sli
kei
am nowinvi
si
bletohim
Me:
:
sor
ryf
ort
hat
Hi
m::
idi
ditf
oruV

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nser
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Me:
:andhowshoul
diknowt
haty
ou'
ret
ell
i
ngt
he
t
rut
hthist
ime
Hi
m::
ucanaskLi
saher
sel
f
Me:
:
...
.
Him::
Vi am deepl
ysorr
yforwhathappened,i
am
sorr
yfornotfight
ingf
orourl
ove,
from nowoni
promiseiwil
l.
..Pl
easegi
veusanotherchance
Me::
T,l
et'
stal
kaboutt
hisanotherday,
ri
ghtnowi
am
hungr
y,exhaust
ednsleepysoplease
Hi
m::
pleaset
hinkabouti
t
Me:
:
I'
ll
tryt
o
.
..
isaidthatleav
inghi
mt her
e,ist
il
lneededtobe
sur
et hatTreywasnotlyi
ngthisti
me,butIwasnot
sur
ehowt oknowbecauseLisawast helastper
soni
am goingtoask
.
..
Iar
ri
vedhomewentupst
air
s,bat
hed,
l
oti
oned,
wor
e
mybum-shor
tnmyWhi t
eT-shi
rt
,
Wentdownstai
rs,mademysel fat oastedcheese
sandwichwi
thorangej
uice,atetheni wentupstai
rs
agai
n,i
waskindatir
edsoi neededt olaydown

Tr
ey'
sP.
O.V

iwasn' tcopingwithoutVanessasoi decidedto

dumpLi saoncenf orall
,sher antomydad, mydad
tri
edf orcingmebackt oherbuti r
efused,sodad
decidedt ocutmymont hlyall
owance, takemy
l
aptopnmyphone, henol ongerspeakst ome
becausehecl ai
mshedoesn' tspeaktocowar dsbuti
don'tcar ewhathesay sort hi
nkaboutme, ifhe
want sLisamar ri
edinordert osavehisi ll
egal
business,t henhemustmar r
yLisahimsel f,we'r
eonly
l
eftwi th2mont hsunt i
lgraduationndadsai dthathe
won'thel pmewi thmyVar si
tyfeesbecausei now
takemyowndeci si
ons
.
..
Buti
don'
tcar
eany
mor
e,i
am t
ir
edofl
i
vingi
nthe
shadowofmyf at
her,
al
liwantthi
stimei
sVanessa
back,
ifi
haveherback,
ever
ythi
ngelsewi
l
lfi
gure
themsel
vesout
.
..
..
Mom st ill
doesn' tknowaboutal lofthis,
nshe
doesn'tknowt hatiam forcedt ogetmar ri
edto
Lisa,
dadt oldhert hatwelov eeachot herthatwhy
theygonnahel pusgetmar ri
ed,withmom bel i
evi
ng
everythi
ngt hatherhusbandt ell
sher,
shebel i
eved
that,
ijustwi shedmymom knewt heassholeshe
mar r
ied,buti wasn'tgonnatellherbecausenoone
woul dli
ket oseehi s\hermot hersuff
er i
ngbecause
thiswillbreakher ,nmymot herhasahear tcondit
ion
soI '
l
lnotaf fordtolooseher

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kencomment
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arykaAmo

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nser
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Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V

soitwasnowTuesday ,ibat
hed,
lot
ioned,wor
emy
FILAcr opTop,
Boyfr
iendjeannNikesneakers,
idi
dn'
t
hav ebreakf
astij
ustgrabbedanapplenwentt o
school,iar
ri
vednasi wasgoingtomyl ockeri
pumpedt oAust
in
.
..
.
Hi
m::
VanessaPar
kersur
pri
sedt
oseeual
i
ve
i
laughed
Me:
:
whatmadeut
hinkt
hati
am dead
Hi
m::
imeanihav
en'
tseenusi
ncePr
om,
nthat
's3
mont
hsback
Me:
:
sor
ryf
orbei
ngscar
ceman,
howar
euany
way
Hi
m::
iam goodV,
atal
l
Me:
:
andwhyi
sthat
?
Hi
m::
becausemyboyai
n'
tokay
hewast
alki
ngaboutTr
ey
Me:
:
whyi
sn'
the
Hi
m::heneedsuT,
l
ikeser
iousl
y,he'
smi
ser
abl
e
wi
thoutu.
..
Me:
:cani
askusomet
hing
Hi
m::
yeah
Me:
:
ishest
il
lseei
ngLi
sa
Hi
m::NO,
hedumpedhernnowhisfat
her
'smaki
ng
hi
sli
feali
vi
nghel
lV,
hedidi
tal
lforuVcan'
tusee
Me::
:
giv
emeone,
j
ustoner
easonwhyi
shoul
d
f
orgi
vehim
Hi
m::
Oner
eason?
?
Me:
:
yeah
Hi
m::
hel
ovesuV,
alot
..
.
.
..
aswewer
etal
ki
ngt
hebel
lrang
Me:
:
lookAust
in,
I
'l
lseeul
aterokay
iwentt
oclass,asthel
essonsweregoi
ngoni
wasn'
tpayi
ngattenti
on,i
wasar gui
ngwit
hmyhear
t
nbr
ainwhet
hert
ofor
giv
eTr
eyornot
,l
unchcame
.
..
Aswewer esi
tt
ingwit
hAnast
asiaTr
eywal
ked
passedusnistoodupnwenttohi
m
.
..
.
Me:
:
hey
Hi
m::
hey
,ugood
Me:
:
yeahi
am f
ine,
areu
Hi
m::
iam f
ine,
nowt
hat
'
syou'
rei
nfr
ontofme
i
smi
l
ed
Hi
m::
imi
ssedt
hatsmi
l
e
Me:
:
whatwi
l
lubedoi
ngFr
idayni
ght
Him:
:I'
l
lbeathomealonebecausethewhol ef
am i
s
goi
ngout,
nican'
tgooutwit
ht hem becauseo.
.
Me::
becauseofyourdad,
ryt
,sosi
ncey
ou'
l
lbehome
al
one,
I'
llkeepusomecompany
hesmi
l
ed
Hi
m::
ican'
twai
tal
ready
 i
laughed
Me:
:
I'
ll
seeut
hen
Hi
m::
il
oveu
Me:
:
iknow
hesmi l
ed,
theni wentt
oconti
nuewi t
hmy
l
unch, soI'
veforgiv
enTrey,
hewasgoi ngt hr
ougha
l
otal r
eadyjustformesoi coul
dn'
tkeepon
pretendingli
kei di
dn'
tknowthat
,imeant heguywent
againsthisFather'
scommandsjustforme, who
doest hat
.
..
Ot
hert
hanal
loft
hat
,if
orgav
ehi
m becausei
lov
e
hi
m

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 sotheweekwenton, Treyni werebacktogether
agai nneveryt
hingwasbackt onor mal,i
twasnow
Fridayaft
ernoon( 18:
30),
ibathed,l
oti
oned,
wor emy
blackshortdress,ver
yshortonenwhi teAll
-star
sneakers,
i l
eavesmyhai runtied,
appli
edalilbitof
makeupt heniwentdownst airs,
thefam was
wat chi
ngT.Vatt helounge

.
.
Me:
:
guy
siam goi
ngoutt
oni
ghtwi
thAnna
Mom:
:
okaybabyenj
oy
asi
waswal
ki
ngoutdadst
oppedme
Me:
:
yesdad
Hi
m::
areugoi
ngoutwear
ingl
i
ket
hat
Me:
:
uhhhy
eah
Hi
m::don'
tmesswit
hmePar kergochanget
hat
dr
essandwearsomethi
ngdescent
Me:
:
dadpl
ease
Him:
:ei
therugochangeorudon'
tgooutatal
l
,u
deci
de
hesai
dthatwi
thast
rai
ghtf
ace
Me:
:
fine
iwentbackupst
airs,changedint
omyr i
ppedj
ean
naWhi teAdi
dasT-shir
t,theniwentback
downstair
stothef
am
.
..
Me:
:
doi
lookdescentnow
Hi
m::
yes,
enj
oyy
ourni
ghtout
Me:
:
thanky
ou
isaidthatgoing,mydadcanbesuchabor e
somet i
mes, soiwalkedalonegoingtoTrey'
s
house,i
twasn'tthatdarkoutsi
de,iar
ri
vedaftera
whil
e,knockednheopenedt hedoorwearingGrey
tr
ackpantonl y,
hewashal fnakednhewashol dinga
pl
atef i
l
ledwi t
hricenbeefstew,iwenti
nnsatont he
couch
.
..
.
Hi
m::
whydi
dn'
tut
ell
met
ofet
chu
Me:
:
becausei
didn'
twantt
obef
etched
Hi
m::
o..
kay
Me:
:babydoumi
nddi
shi
ngupf
orme
Hi
m::
you'
real
way
shungr
ywhenucomeher
e
wel
aughed
.
..
Me:
:
whatev
erl
eav
eit
,I
'
lldi
shf
ormy
sel
f
helaughednidi
shedup,
satont
hekit
chen
count
ernat ent
hestewhadtooomuchsal
t
Me:
:
whocooked
Hi
m::
me
hesai
dthatsmi
l
ing
Hi
m::noof
fencebaby
,buty
our
eal
l
yneedcooki
ng
l
essons
i
sai
dthel
astpar
tlaughi
ng
Hi
m::
iam sohur
tbywhatuj
ustsai
d
Me:
:
kil
lmef
ort
ell
i
ngt
het
rut
hthen
Hi
m::
thatwhati
plant
odot
oni
ght
hesai
dt hatcomingbet weenmyt highsnhe
start
edkissingme,imi ssedthosecold,
softnwet
l
ips,ir
eall
ydid,wekisseduntilibecamewet ,
hi
s
handswer eallovermenhewasnowgi vi
ngme
neckkisses,nthat'
smyweakness

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het
ookT-shir
tnhecontinuedli
cki
ngmybodyn
aft
erawhil
ehet ookof
fmybr ah,wewerenowboth
hal
fnaked,
(mindui wassti
llontheki
tchencount
er
nhewasstanding),
hepul
ledoutnlookedatmewi t
h
hi
ssmalleyesthatwer
enowr ed
.
..
Hi
m::
youl
ookcut
ewheny
ou'
reonst
ar
i
laughedatthenonsensethatj
ustcameoutof
hismout hnconti
nuedkissi
nghim,hecarr
iedmet o
thecouchngotont opofme, unbott
onedmyj eann
tookitoff,
bothwi
thmyunderwar e,hekepton
l
ickingmybodyunt i
lhearri
vedonmyV. ji
t'swas
soooniceL. O.
L
.
..
.
Thenheki
ssedmemaki ngmet ast emysel f,
ialmost
vomit
ediswear,i
nnot i
meheent eredhimselfso
sl
owly,
nwehadourf i
rstround,afterthefi
rstwehad
asecondone,
thenathir
donenl astlythef
our thone,
i
wasnowsooot i
redsowef ellasleepcuddling
.
..
Thefol l
owi ngdayi wokeupar ound5am, Treywas
sti
ll
asl eepni di
dn'
twannawakehi m becausehe
wassl eepi ngpeaceful
l
y,i gotdr
essed,babyki
ssed
hispinkl i
psnwentout ,
irangoinghomebecausei t
wascol d,arr
ivesathome, wenttomy
room,bat hed,woremyp. j
'
snsl eptagainbecausei
wasst illt
ired
.
..
Iwokeupagainaround8,
wenttot
he
bat
hroom,r
insedmymouththenwentdownstai
rs,
i
wastheonlyoneawakesofarsoimademy sel
f
somethi
ngtoeat
.
..
Asisatdownif
eltt
hatmyv.
jwasst
il
lpai
nful
that
's
whenireal
i
sedt
hatTrey
'sai
m wast
okil
lmeexactl
y
L.
O.L
.
..
Aftereati
ngi washedthepl
ateiwasusi
ngt heni
wentt othebalconytoenj
oythemorni
ngview,it
's
reall
ynicetolookoutsi
deatthemorni
ngnbr eath
thefreshair
,uguysshouldtr
yitsomet
imes. .
.
Asiwasl
ooki
ngoutsi
desomeonegr
eet
edmef
rom
behi
nd
.
..
Hi
m::
heyV
i
tur
nedt
olookwhoi
twasni
twasJay
,hewas
al
sowear
inghi
sp.
j'
s
Me:
:
hey
,howar
eu
Hi
m::
per
fect
lyf
ine,
whendi
dugetback
Me:
:ear
li
er
sowestoodther
etal
kingaboutr
andom st
ufft
hat
anysi
bli
ngscantal
kabout,
not
hingi
nter
est
ing

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kencomment
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arykaAmo

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nser
t178

soitwasTuesdayaf
ter
noonwhenTreyniwer
e
si
tt
ingatthepar
k,j
ustt
hetwoofus,t
hetimewas
18:
30
.
..
Hi
m::
star
Me:
:
uhuhh
Hi
m::
what
'
sar
eurpl
ansaf
terhi
ghschool
Me:
:
ureal
l
ywannaknow
Hi
m::
iwoul
dn'
tbeaski
ngi
fidi
dn'
twannaknowi
t
Me:
:
wel
ltobehonest
,idon'
tknow,
urs?
Hi
m: :
ial
sodon'
tknow,
butthereisonethi
ngi
know
..
.iwannamoveoutaf
terhighschool
i
laughed
Him:
:iam ser
ious,
imeani
am t
ir
edofl
i
vingi
nthat
hel
lholeical
lhome
Me:
:
Ty ou'
recr
azy
,howar
eugoi
ngt
opayf
or
r
ent
,f
oodnall
Hi
m::
..
.
Me:
:
seewhati
am t
alki
ngabout
Hi
m::
wel
ll
et'
ssayI
'
llj
obhuntaf
terhi
ghschool
Me:
:
jobhunt
???
,wi
thoutadegr
eeTl
i
keser
iousl
y
Hi
m::
yeah,
imi
ghtbel
ucky
Me:
:
baby
,st
opdr
eami
ng,
youshoul
dthi
nkabout
appl
yi
ngt
ocol
l
egesorUni
ver
sit
ies.
..
Him::andwhowil
lhel
pmewi tht
hefeesexact
ly,
becausemyfat
herwon't
,letmenotr
eminduwhy
Me::
ohhhhh,
ifor
got
,urmot
her
,she'
sanur
ser
yt.
.soi
am sur
eshecanaffor
d
Him::
bbemymot her
'spayi
ngforhermedi
cat
ion,n
i
t'
sex pensi
veenough,besi
des,
idon'
twannastr
ess
heraboutthi
sshit
Me:
:
she'
spay
ingf
orhermedi
cat
ion?
??!
Hi
m::yeah,shehasahear tcondi
ti
onnher
medi
cationisl
il
bitexpensive
iwashurtfindi
ngoutal
lofthi
s,aboutTrey
's
mother'
sconditi
onnthathi
sfatherhasdisowned
him,
justf
orbeingwit
hME, i
fel
tlikeiwassomehow
rui
ninghi
sfuture
Me:
:
iam sor
rybaby
,ir
eal
l
yam
Hi
m::
star
,idon'
twantut
ofeel
li
keal
loft
hisi
syour
f
aul
tokay
Me:
:
butar
eur
eal
l
ywi
l
li
ngt
ori
skurf
utur
ejustf
..
.
Him:
:justfort
heloveisharewit
hu,yes,
Vy ou'
ret
he
mostwonder f
ult
hingthathaseverhappenedtome,
i
don'
tregrett
hesacri
fi
cesI'
vemadej usttobewit
hu..
i
smi
l
edwi
tht
ear
sonmyey
es
.
..
Me:
:
ilov
eu
Hi
m::
ilov
eut oo,
promi
semethat
'si
fimanaget
o
moveoutyou'
llmovei
nwit
hme
i
laughed
Me:
:
IFy
oumov
eout
??
Hi
m::
yesi
f.
..
Me:
:
okayt
heni
promi
sed
hesmi
l
ednwesl
owl
yki
ssed

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kencomment
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arykaAmo
I
nser
t179

Tr
ey'
sP.
OV

everythingbet weenmenVwer est i

llgoing
smoot hly,butt hingsbet weenmenmydadwer e
gettingwor seeachnev erysecondbecausehewas
gettingint roubl ewi t
hLi sa'
sf atherbuti didn'
tcare
aboutt hat, butst ressaboutVar sityfeeswaski ll
i
ng
mei nsideout ,
thoughi didn'twannat ell
Vabouti t
becausei hat eseei ngherst ressedorwor ried,
Austin
hasal readyappl iedtosomecol legenhewas
accept ed,al ongwi t
hShawn, Liam saidthataf t
er
graduat i
onhe' sgonnaj obhuntsot hathecan
prov i
def orhi s6mont hsol dson, Yeshehasason, as
formeaf tergr aduat i
oni wantedt ogot oaUni versit
y
nst udymedi ci
ne, butfrom wher ei wasstandingall
ofmydr eamsngoal sseemedi mpossi ble
.
..
.
Asf
orV,
shet
oldmet
hatshehadal
readyappl
i
edt
o
thesamecol
l
egeAusti
nnShawnar egoi
ngtobut
she'
ssti
l
lwai
ti
ngforaresponse,
she'
sgoingt
ostudy
l
aw
.
..
.
Mybiggestf
eari
stoseeherf
all
ingf
orsomeguy
she'
sgonnabemeeti
ngatcol
lege
.
..
.
SoitwasnotSunday ,
thedaybef or
egraduation'
s
day,Iwokeup, bathed,
woremyr i
ppedskinjeann
greyvest,wentdownst ai
rs,founddadhav i
ng
breakfastwithmom nKy le,
ijustgr
abbedanAppl e,
i
wasn'tgonnaj ointhem sincedadwasal sothere
.
..
Me::
Kyl
ecanubor
rowmeurphonei
needt
omakea
cal
l
sodadhasn'tr
etur
nmyassetsyet,
soiwasonl
y
communicat
ingwithVthr
oughKyl
e'sphonen
Aust
in'
sphone
Ky
le:
:i
t'
sint
hechar
ge,
i
nthel
ounge
 soiwentt
othephonendi
aledV'
snumber
,she
answer
edonthethi
rdri
ng
Her
::
hubby
Me:
:
starcanwemeet
Her
::now?
Me:
:
yeah
Her
::
okayt
hen,
hal
fwayr
yt
Me:
:
yeahhal
fway
shehangedupni
wentbackt
otheki
tchen
Me:
:
Mom I
'
llseeul
aterokay
i
kissedherchi
c
Her:
:
okaybaby
,beher
eat7we'
rehav
ingaf
ami
l
y
di
nner
i
thenwentout
,ispentt
hewhol
edaywi
thV
.
..
..

Amo\
Vanessa'
sP.
O.V
 solaterthatdayonmywayhome, comi ngfrom
Treyofcourse,ir
eceiv
edanSMSt ell
i
ngmet hatI'
ve
beenaccept edtoHarvar
dcoll
eget ost udylaw,iwas
sooohappy ,
i r
angoinghome,iarri
vedf ound
every
onei ntheloungenitol
dt hem thenews, they
weresohappy

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kencomment