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Mistletoe in the Marigny
By Kyle Baxter
Mistletoe in the Marigny
Copyright © 2020 Kyle Baxter
Finally, this book would not have been possible without Gabriella
Michaelis, my ever-patient beta reader and a fantastic novelist
herself, and Bodie Dykstra, my amazing editor.
“Do you think that they know these are horrid?” Larry leaned over to
Joel. “Are they even that self-aware?”
The photos in question, set up on easels on either side of the
entrance to the reception, were large poster-sized glossies of the
two grooms. On one, a groom was situated in the foreground,
portrait style, with the other standing in the background, a hazy
blurring effect separating them. The poster across from it showed
the grooms in the opposite positions and in different outfits, of
course. At best, they could be called tacky chic. At worst they were,
well, horrid.
“We shouldn’t comment on our clients’ taste,” Joel scolded him.
Friends since elementary school, they moved to New York together,
right after Larry broke up with Dwayne.
Larry took the note. “I apologize—” He’d worked at Five Points
Catering on and off for almost two years now. It was a nice steady
gig between acting jobs.
Joel adjusted his tie and whispered, “You’re right, though.
These are terrible. But we still shouldn’t say it, at least not here.
We’ll be like the good Southern gentleman we are.”
Larry brightened. “We’ll talk about them when their backs are
turned?”
“Absolutely.” Joel looked around. “You know the bar we just shut
down?”
“The satellite bar from the lobby?” Larry likewise looked around.
No guests were near them; everyone was in the dining hall and
dancing. “We moved it into the back already.”
“Great, meet me there,” Joel said and left to take a turn through
the event. Larry went in the opposite direction, checking all the
stations at the buffet, making sure everything was in order.
“I’ll be back in five . . . or ten,” Larry told Nancy, an older server
who worked with them occasionally. A career waitress, her 401K had
taken some hits of late and she picked up the odd shift.
“Save me some amaretto,” she groused in a gravelly voice not
unlike his mother’s. It reminded Larry also of Brenda Vacarro. Or
Kathleen Turner.
“You got it, Nance.” He aimed a finger like a gun at her and
made a pew-pew sound.
“Kids,” he heard her say as he walked away, and he knew as
sure as he lived that she was rolling her eyes.
“They look like overblown, badly photoshopped Glamour Shots,”
Larry told Joel. After making their martinis, they’d gone back to
talking about the function, as waiters would.
“The absolute worst,” Joel agreed, raising his martini glass.
They clinked them together.
“Promise me that you will not do anything like that when you
walk down the aisle,” Larry said. The prospect of Joel marrying his
boyfriend grew more real every day, though the engagement wasn’t
official and no date was set.
Joel’s eyes went wide. “I don’t think Her Royal Highness would
allow that.”
“When is Astrid’s coronation?” It still amazed Larry that his best
friend’s boyfriend was the prince of a sovereign nation. It definitely
kept things interesting. They were always flying off somewhere,
playing gay mystery archaeologists, and Larry helped pick up the
slack at work.
“It’s in May. I’ve already put in for the time off.” Joel finished his
martini and set it aside. “Is that okay?”
Larry looked at him in surprise. “Oh, you mean with me? Yes,
you do what you want. I love playing event coordinator when you go
out of town.”
“You’ve really stepped up. I appreciate that.” Joel patted Larry
on the back. At six-foot-four, Joel was only a little taller than him.
People often assumed they were brothers. Not that he understood it.
Joel had an olive complexion and dark hair, compared to Larry’s pale
and blond. He chalked it up to their closeness.
“Lord knows there’s not a whole lot else going on.” Larry sighed.
“I haven’t had a real acting job in ages, and the last big thing was in
a chorus.”
“Oh yeah, that off-Broadway musical version of Always,” Joel
said and managed a weak smile. “That was different.”
“‘Different’ is doing a lot of work in that sentence. How it even
got that far was only due to the high-money backers. It was terrible,
but it was a job.” Larry took another sip of his cocktail. Per old
restaurant tradition, they allowed themselves one shift drink.
Joel turned to him, an arm resting jauntily on the bar. “Why did
they cast that lead? You would have been so much better.”
“Thank you, I think so, too.” Larry grinned, lifting his glass in
salute.
“It’s too bad he couldn’t sing. Or dance.” Joel noshed on the
olive from his cocktail. “Or even act, really.”
“He was a soap opera actor with a following.” Larry rolled his
eyes and added, “He had a cachet.”
“If that’s what they wanted, they should have gone with
Chandler Massey.” Joel swirled the vodka around in his glass. “He’s
got that handsome, athletic blond thing, like you.”
“And he’s got an Emmy,” Larry groused. “Always was a
nightmare, closed after a week.” He sighed again. “Oh well, it’s
another line on the résumé. At least my work with Five Points lets
me pay my union dues.”
“Any luck finding a new roommate?” Joel asked.
Larry could tell from Joel’s tone that he still felt bad. It wasn’t as
if he’d left Larry in the lurch, but they’d lived together for over
fifteen years between New York and New Orleans. Joel’s moving out
was an adjustment for them both. His best friend since their
childhood in New Orleans, Joel was his touchstone. His leaving left a
hole in Larry’s life.
He decided not to talk to Joel about the latest gossip from
home. It cut him to the core, hitting all his insecurities. Here he was,
about to be tossed to the curb by his agent, and now his biggest
humiliation was being thrown in his face by his cousin. It was too
much to take in at the moment. Though he was still considering
asking Joel to go to New Orleans with him, Larry didn’t want to
rehash it at work or bring his friend down.
Joel was so happy lately, still in the honeymoon period in his
relationship with his Prince Charming Frederick. Whatever else, Larry
did not want to harsh his best friend’s mood; he loved him too
much. Besides, Joel would learn soon enough anyway. Just get
through the night, then go home and have a good sulk.
“Yes, Mark Elmer is moving in,” Larry said firmly. “I’ve told you
this. Relax.” He gave Joel a friendly push in the shoulder and a wider
smile than he felt.
Joel let out a breath. “That’s nice. I like him.”
“Yeah, he’s a good guy,” Larry agreed. A salesman with Five
Points for almost six months, Mark was learning the event manager
side of the business now and was around their same age. Larry
barely knew the man, save for that he made money for them and
was reliable. Not bad qualities in a roommate.
Joel’s phone buzzed, and he glanced at it. “And that’s Boromir.
Scheiße.”
“That would be Groom Two, right?” Larry asked. Joel started
giving each client a nickname, a habit he picked up from his
boyfriend, along with cursing in German.
Joel ran a hand through his thick, dark hair. “Yes. Groom One is
—”
“Faramir, I remember,” Larry said. “They really do look too much
alike.”
“They do.” Joel nodded. “It’s odd.”
“It’s very odd,” Larry agreed. “Please, never let me do that.”
“‘Roger, roger,’” Joel said in a metallic voice and straightened his
tie again.
Larry immediately recognized the quote from Star Wars. “God,
you’re a nerd.”
“Takes one to know one.” Joel grinned and stopped before he
walked out of the door. “Ooh, that reminds me. How is Gregg?”
“Who?” Larry asked as off-handedly as he could manage.
Joel’s eyes went wide, and he stepped back to his friend and
poked him in the chest. “The guy you’re dating?”
“Oh no, that ended last week.” Larry finished his drink. Please
leave it alone, JoJo.
“No, not again. I really liked Gregg.” Joel frowned and put a
hand on Larry’s shoulder and squeezed.
Larry picked up their martini glasses and put them on the bus
tray. “Well, I’m glad that one of us did, but I may have a date this
weekend.”
Joel tittered. “Really? Before you go home for Christmas
vacation?”
“Of course, why not?” Larry waved a hand in the air. “I look at it
as doing my part to spread Christmas cheer.”
“By spreading your legs?”
“So help me, I will slap you, Joel McIntyre,” Larry warned him
with a slight smile. After adjusting his suit, doing his best James
Bond, he walked away.
“I know you like to keep your dates surface level, because of He
Who Will Not Be Named.”
Larry paused for effect and looked back over his shoulder. “You
really are such a massive nerd.”
“One day we’ll find a man for you. Mark my words,” Joel called
after him.
That made Larry snort. “Never!” But the bravado lay surface
deep. Joel knew well what happened with Dwayne years ago.
Though it did put Larry off of relationships, and settling down in
general, he still dated. But he was not now, or ever, “looking for a
man.” No thank you.
However, the news from home about his ex and Charlene
nagged at him. Sitting on his shoulder, whispering in his ear, it
reminded him how alone he was, how alone he felt. Especially now
with Joel partnering up and moving on.
Damn.
❖
The event ended after dusk, with everything cleaned and
transported back to Five Points Catering’s storage. Tired, Larry took
the L train alone to Brooklyn, getting off at the Lorimar Avenue stop.
He pulled his jacket tighter around him as he walked up the
sidewalk, slick with snow, to his building.
Arriving at his ground-floor home, he hung up his coat and
quickly found his new roommate, Mark Elmer, unpacking boxes in
Joel’s old bedroom. After calling out, “I’m home,” he let Buttons, his
Yorkshire terrier, out for a quick bit of business in their small back
yard. It was too cold and the snow too deep, so the dog did not
linger.
After grabbing two beers, he then went to greet his new
roomie. A pang bit at his stomach as he walked through the living
room. Gone were the maquettes, the posters, the action figures, and
all the sci-fi memorabilia his best friend loved so much. And now
someone else was moving into Joel’s room. He couldn’t help the
slump that took over his body.
Shaking it off, he reminded himself, No, we’re happy for Joel.
We ARE. And we like Frederick. Don’t be picayune. Pulling up to his
full six-foot-two, he forced a smile and knocked on the doorframe of
Joel’s—Mark’s—open room.
“I’m glad to see that you made it.” Larry came in and sat the
beers on the desk in Mark’s new room, then gave the dark-haired
man a one-armed bro hug. Once a few inches shorter than him,
Mark returned the quick embrace patting Larry’s back with strong
arms. The apartment was warm, so he was in short sleeves, showing
off his smooth russet, reddish-brown skin.
Nice build and a firm back. Meow.
“Yeah, got all my stuff in one trip, too.” Mark pushed his glasses
up higher on his nose and went back to unpacking.
“I noticed the moving van outside.” Larry handed him one of the
beers and leaned against the doorframe. “But still, that is some
feat.”
“I’ve had a bit too much practice moving lately.” A twinge of
sadness colored Mark’s voice. “My last couple of roommates never
really worked out. They kept finding boyfriends or lovers and moving
in with them.” He took a long swig of the beer and set the bottle
down.
“I think this’ll work out.” Larry gestured between the two of
them. “I may date a lot, but I’m not the settling down kind of guy.”
“So I hear.”
Larry arched an eyebrow and gave Mark a quirky smile. “Oh
really?”
“Oh my god.” Mark froze. “I am so sorry—”
Larry chuckled and waved a hand. “Relax, it’s fine.”
“No, really, I apologize,” Mark said. “It was just idle chitchat.
You know how queens can be.”
“Mark, I said it’s fine.” Larry chuckled. “I’ve spread half of those
rumors about me myself.” Not true, but Mark didn’t need to know
that.
His new roommate narrowed his eyes. “Really?”
“Yes, I really am not the marrying kind.” Larry stood straight
and struck a heroic pose. “Love ’em and leave ’em Larry, that’s me.”
Aiming his thumb at his chest, he put on his game face and winked,
trying desperately to sell it, though as with Joel earlier, the bravado
was shallow.
Truthfully, he was worn out. I’m tired of it, tired of being alone,
and tired of putting on a front. A Madeline Kahn line from Blazing
Saddles popped into his head, and he chuckled despite himself.
“Let’s face it, I’m pooped.”
After he got the news from his agent, he was desperate to go
home to New Orleans. He wanted nothing more than to rest up and
recharge his batteries. Now he was going to have to put up with
Charlene and Dwayne at the requisite gatherings—alone. It really
brought his holiday spirit down. Normally, he loved the season.
While he didn’t feel like he needed a man, having one around
would be nice at the moment. Someone to take home with him and
meet his pushy mother. Larry was not looking forward to the third
degree she was bound to give him. She was more ready for him to
settle down than he was.
“Okay . . .” Mark squinted at him as he put folded shirts in a
chest of drawers. “Well, I really hope this does work out. My sister
worries about me.”
“That’s Shelly, right? And does she live in the city?” Larry leaned
against the doorframe again and took a big swig of beer. He only
knew Mark a little and was curious to know more.
“Yes, she just got engaged.” A big smile lit up Mark’s face,
transforming it. “I like her boyfriend—fiancé—Dan. He’s a good guy.”
“Five Points is coordinating their wedding, right?” Sometime
next year, if he remembered correctly. A lot was going on in the new
year. I need that acting job.
“Sort of . . . maybe. It’s very small. My mother passed a couple
of years ago, so we’re keeping it to immediate family.” Mark pulled
tchotchkes out of a box and set them on a bookshelf.
“I’m so sorry for your loss,” Larry said. Poor Mark. That has to
be tough. “But I promise, we’ll do right by Shelly. Five Points takes
care of family.”
“Thank you. By the way, I like this apartment a lot. It’s a really
nice place. Lots of space.” Mark looked around critically. “Two-
bedroom, one-bath with a backyard and living room? How did you
guys even swing that?”
“We were very lucky. We knew someone that lived in the
building.” Larry ran a hand through his shaggy blond mane. He
needed a haircut before he went home. “A friend of ours used to live
here, Josie. We took over the place when she decided to move back
home.”
“Of course. That is how it works in New York.” Mark took a swig
from his own beer. “You’ve been here ten years, right? That’s a good
long time in one apartment.”
“Yeah, it’s affordable and the landlord likes us. Well, she likes
me.” Larry blew air on his fingernails and rubbed them on his shirt.
At a side-eye from Mark, he added, “She does, I swear. She’s even
come out to several of my plays.”
Larry’s Yorkie, Buttons, came in and sat by Mark’s feet. Bending
down, he took a moment to scratch the dog’s head. “I love your
dog.”
“Thank you, and he likes you,” Larry said. “It’s always a good
sign when a dog likes you . . .”
“Well, dogs like people generally.” Mark opened up a new box.
After taking out some books, he put them on his bookshelf. “The
thing is to avoid people your dog doesn’t like.”
Larry thought about that for a moment. “You’re absolutely
correct. My mom had a Labrador retriever when I was a teenager—
she always has a Lab—but this one, Annie, she liked everyone
except my ex. In retrospect, I should’ve paid closer attention to that.
She was definitely onto something.”
“Where’d you get the name Buttons?” Mark regarded him
seriously.
“Animaniacs. Joel and I loved that show.” Larry grinned.
“I knew it!” Mark high-fived with him, then went back to work.
“Again, I really appreciate this. Not only did my roommate leave, but
the landlord wanted to hike up the rent on my old place. I was
fucked. I had to leave.” Mark let out a heavy breath.
“We’re rent-stabilized here, so we’re all right.”
Mark raised a finger and gave him a big smile. “And the landlord
likes you. You truly are blessed.”
“Your mouth to God’s ears,” Larry said softly and knocked on the
wood molding around the door. He didn’t feel particularly blessed at
the moment. “Do you have any other family in the city?”
Mark started digging into another box for the rest of his books.
“No, just my Shelly Belly. You?”
“Only Joel. We grew up together. He’s practically my brother.”
Larry smiled. “Now, I will be gone for Christmas, and he’ll take care
of Buttons.”
Mark’s head jerked up. “I can do it, if you like. I mean, I’m
visiting Shelly and her fiancé for the holidays, but they both live in
the city, so I’ll be here or at work most of the time.”
“Uhm, well—” He looked down at Buttons watching him with his
sweet face. He wasn’t sure. Mark seemed like a good guy, but . . . I
hardly know him. “I hate to put you out.”
“It’s not a problem. I love dogs. We always had dogs growing
up,” Mark said. “My mom loved Maltese. They’re great lap dogs.”
I’ll ask Joel to check in on him, if I need to. And I’ve got that
webcam by Buttons’s kennel. “Okay, thank you. I really appreciate
that.” Larry bobbed his head. He liked this guy. He’ll be a good
roommate.
“Where’s home again?” Mark asked as he broke down the now-
empty box and set it aside. “I’m sorry if you already told me.”
“No problem.” Larry waved a hand. “I never remember who I
told what to, so I feel like I have the same conversations over and
over again with people.”
“Tell me about it,” Mark agreed. “I think it’s the curse of being in
the service industry.”
“I am from New Orleans, in an area of town just outside the
French Quarter. Marigny, born and raised.”
“The Big Easy? I’ve always wanted to go visit the twenty-four-
hour party city.” Mark pulled several framed photos out of a box and
placed them on his chest of drawers. “Though I’m not sure I could
actually live there.”
“I understand that. The twenty-four-hour party can get very old.
I’m glad I left.” Larry looked down. Though it was true, he felt
ungrateful for saying that out loud. It seemed disloyal, even if he still
considered leaving there to be one of the best decisions he ever
made. Especially after the way everything went down with Dwayne.
Too many hard feelings there eclipsed the good.
Mark glanced over at him. “Really?”
“Yes, I had a lot of growing up to do, and living there in the
bosom of my family? It wasn’t happening.”
“You have a lot of family there?” Mark asked.
“My family is kind of a fixture in the Marigny, for better or
worse,” Larry said, then clapped his hands. “All right, I will leave you
to it. I’m going to study and then hit the hay. I have an audition in
the morning.”
“Good lu—I mean break a leg,” Mark said and waved goodnight.
Buttons followed after his master.
Chapter Three
Almost There
Joaquín Tapia walked into the condo fresh from his morning run, out
of breath but energized. He loved the city in wintertime, with the
store windows decorated for the holiday season, the people rushing
to and fro with their packages, all bundled up against the weather. It
was delightfully cold, and snow covered the ground. A fresh layer fell
overnight and had yet to turn to slush. Though that was already
close to happening, it was still a pretty commute to Central Park this
morning for his run. The park itself was gorgeous, picturesque under
a clear blue sky.
After a quick shower and change, he walked through the hall
and into the dining room. His older brother and roommate, Enrico,
sat at the dining table, having breakfast with his partner Jaime.
“Could you sit down for a moment with us?” Enrico asked as he
ate cereal out of a bowl. Jaime drank a green smoothie of some
sort. She was juicing and doing a daily half-day fast at the moment.
“Okay.” Joaquín looked from one to the other and saw an odd
look in their eyes. Something’s up. He didn’t know what it could be.
Things had been so good with them of late. Joaquín dropped his
messenger bag onto the sofa, then came back to the dining room
table and sat down.
Enrico took a deep breath. “You know I love you, Quino—”
Joaquín looked heavenward. “No good conversation starts out
that way.” He’s going to play big brother again, isn’t he?
“But . . .” Jaime interjected. She was not only Enrico’s fiancé but
a longtime friend of Joaquín’s as well. Assigned male at birth
(AMAB), Jaime was nonbinary and gender fluid, though she normally
presented and lived as a woman. “You need to do something. It’s
been a while since your last job.”
“Are you worried about my money? You know, I do have some.”
Once upon a time, Joaquín had a recurring role on a small sci-fi
series. As such, there were regular residual checks coming in. Not a
lot, and he wasn’t wealthy by any stretch, but they helped offset his
living expenses. Well, mostly.
“No, we’re not worried about money. We’re worried about you.”
Enrico finished his cereal, put his spoon down, and pushed the bowl
aside. “We know you have money.”
“We also know you,” Jaime said and cocked her head to one
side. “And you are never happy unless you’re working. This moping
around isn’t good for you.”
“I’m not moping.” Joaquín crossed his arms in front of him.
“Are you going to your therapist?” Enrico asked. His brother was
well aware of his battle with depression. Joaquín appreciated his
watchful eye, even as he occasionally resented it.
He scowled. “Yes, and I’m on my meds. Thank you very much.
And by the way, I’m not moping—I’m not,” he protested firmly. “I’m
going to auditions. I’m taking acting classes. As a matter of fact, I
even have an audition today.”
“I hope it’s not another bit part on a TV show.” Jaime rolled her
eyes. She was a pro at that. “You deserve better than that.”
“I don’t know about that, but it is work.” He shrugged, trying to
sound as casual as he could. In truth, he was going stir crazy. I
really do need a job. And the audition today was more than the
usual; it meant a lot to him, a real step forward. So far, he’d refused
to talk about it out loud, even to them. Don’t jinx it! It was a silly
superstition, but he held to it.
Enrico looked at his phone, then back up at him. “You know you
could come work at Five Points.”
“I thought you didn’t want me underfoot.” Joaquín put a hand to
his chin, giving his brother a petulant pout.
“Don’t do that. Don’t stick out your lower lip. I’m not Mama. It
doesn’t work with me. You can work there without us working
together,” Enrico said. “More importantly, it will give you something
to do between jobs. Keep you busy.”
“Another out-of-work actor playing cater waiter?” He aimed a
sharp eyebrow. “Thanks anyway, but pass.” Pulling out his own
phone, Joaquín quickly glanced at the screen for messages, then set
it facedown on the table.
“All right, but we want you to do something.” Enrico leaned
back in his chair. “Think about it, will you? At the very least, Five
Points would give you something to anchor to here in New York.”
Joaquín stared at his brother blankly. “What do you mean?”
“You’ve been moving back and forth between here and LA since
your TV show ended two years ago,” Jaime said. “You couch surf
with friends in LA, and then you live with us when you’re in New
York.”
“Are you trying to get rid of me?” Joaquín chuckled.
“You know that’s not the case,” Jaime said. “We love you living
here.”
“I wouldn’t go that far.” The corners of Enrico’s eyes crinkled.
“But we do think you should pick one coast and set down a few
roots, at least for a while.”
“Ricky, I go where the jobs are. That’s all,” Joaquín said. Both
Enrico and Jaime raised eyebrows at that, and Joaquín sat back and
crossed his arms. “It is.”
The truth was a little more complicated, of course. Since his
breakup with his boyfriend Luke Miller months ago, he felt better not
being tied down. Single life was fun . . . ish. Besides, a moving
target was harder to hit. Or to hurt.
Still, his older brother’s words stung. Too close to home. Which
was probably why he automatically retorted with the diminutive of
Enrico’s name. He hated it. So of course Joaquín loved using it.
“When you’re an actor, you have to be flexible and go where
things take you. That, and I enjoy traveling,” Joaquín continued.
“Maybe if you were in one place full-time, you’d be able to find
steady work.” Enrico leaned forward, resting his forearms on the
table.
“The real money’s in LA,” Joaquín said pointedly. Why are they
on me? Am I really moping? That was not what he wanted. He
thought he was doing well—all things considered. Granted, he was a
little sad that things ended as badly as they did with his ex, but
moping? Yuck.
“You have money. You’ll be fine,” Jaime said. “We’ll be fine. And
from what I read, film and TV has never been more active in New
York than it is right now. Even shows that shoot in Vancouver are
cast out of here. A lot of actors live here full-time and still do TV and
film work. You can stay here, have a home, and still act. Maybe even
date someone regularly.”
“The last thing I want to do is settle down,” he scoffed. He was
still dealing with the fallout from his last relationship. It was a big
reason why he came back to New York last month. It still stung.
After everything they shared, Luke couldn’t even break up with him
in person. Actors.
“Be that as it may, maybe you could give it a real try here,”
Jaime continued. “Don’t simply visit, but make it a home for a while.
I think you’ll be happier.”
“That’s our big concern,” Enrico said. “And also Mama and
Papa’s. You don’t seem happy and we all want you to be happy.” He
reached over and squeezed Jaime’s hand. “This is the second time in
six months you’ve lived with us. Maybe it’s time to stay. You keep
talking about wanting a career in theater. Well, then take the leap
and stay here. Work for that career you want. Broadway is here.”
“I’ll think about it,” Joaquín mumbled, “Ricky.” He wanted to say,
You don’t know me, but they did. Even though he didn’t like it, he
knew they had a point. “So you’ve talked to Mom and Dad about
this?”
“Of course I have. And many other things. They’ve already left
on their Christmas Cruise with Alex’s Aunt and Uncle,” Enrico said.
“Mom wants you to call her. And don’t call me Ricky.”
“I will—” Keep calling you Ricky, Joaquín thought with a smirk.
“I saw that.” Enrico pushed a lock of his long, dark hair off his
forehead. “You’ll be at the party tonight?”
“I thought that was a Five Points thing.” Pulling out his phone,
he checked the messages again, then slid the phone back into his
pocket.
“Well, you did work there last summer—” Jaime cut in.
Joaquín raised a hand. “I helped out on one job in an
emergency.”
“And you live here,” Enrico said. “And you need to get out
more.”
“A party in your condo is not getting out.”
“Quino, I’m not not inviting you. Will you be there?” Enrico
strummed his fingers on the table.
Joaquín asked, “What’s this for anyway?”
“It’s our annual Christmas party,” Enrico explained, gesturing to
the large tree in the living room. “We’ve got events coming up and
we need to do it early. Some years, we hold it in the week between
Christmas and New Year’s. This year we are busy, so we’re doing it
before.”
“Then yes, I’ll be there. I love a Christmas party,” Joaquín said
and stood up. “Okay, unless there’s anything else, I’m out.” He gave
Jaime a kiss on the cheek and started for the door. “Later, Ricky.”
“Don’t call me Ricky!”
“What are you doing all the time in your room anyway?” Jaime
turned to watch him go. “Not that it’s our business, of course.”
“Studying.” Joaquín threw his scarf around his neck and
buttoned up his coat.
Enrico’s eyes went wide. “Studying? You?”
“Thanks, Ricky.” Joaquín scowled as he left.
As the door shut, he heard, “Don’t call me—”
“Thank you, love. That was great,” Anthony Perot, the casting
director, said. “Now do you think you can do it without the shirt?”
Joaquín pushed out his best Hollywood smile and a happy,
“Sure.” They always wanted to see him without his shirt, whether or
not it had anything to do with the script. But in this case, he was
prepared for it; he knew ahead of time they would ask this. By
Equity rules, they weren’t allowed to on a regular audition, a
regulation put in place to avoid abuse, but with the Union’s approval,
they could ask it in callbacks.
In this case, it actually did fit the script. The show he was
auditioning for was A Streetcar Named Desire. The plan so far was
to have a flash of full-frontal nudity right before the blackout at the
end of act one, right before Stanley raped Blanche—offstage. I hope
it’s only a flash.
Joaquín was fine with nudity, even his own. Too much, though,
and it might make the show about the nudity. Less was more. He’d
also spend a lot of time onstage in an undershirt, like Brando.
Joaquín worked out with a trainer, preparing specifically for this.
As he pulled off his shirt, he realized he still didn’t like it. It felt
cheap. When he was on the sci-fi TV show Cassandra, there were
lots of shirtless scenes. He never got inured to it. With a sigh, he
unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off. Underneath he wore a singlet,
an A-shirt, also called—
“A wifebeater?” Anthony gasped, a hand on his chest.
“It seemed fitting.” Joaquín looked up from under thick, heavy
brows. Brando wore one famously in the movie version of the play.
Iconic.
Anthony caught his glance. “And a smolder.” He leaned down
and whispered to his associate Trisha, who sat beside him.
“Uh-huh,” she agreed absently. “Very nice.”
Joaquín immediately liked her. Nonplussed, she was obviously
an old pro. Probably seen too many shirtless actors so far. Though
this was his fifth callback, and no one else—at least no other
Stanleys—had been in the waiting room. Is that a good sign? He
wasn’t sure. This was also scheduled over a week ago. Maybe they
were here other days.
Then again, Joaquín never saw any of the other actors up for
Stanley. Everything so far was set up by his agent. No cattle car
auditions for this show. Apparently the producers worked from a
short list of people they were really interested in. It was an honor
just to make it. True, his little bit of celebrity usually earned him a
chance, but that was it.
“Can we start again from the top?” Anthony gestured with his
hand. “Without the shirt, of course.”
Of course.
On his way home, Joaquín took a detour and headed
downtown. The callback went well. They liked him. This could be it.
Getting off the subway at Greenwich, he strolled through the Village
with a spring in his step.
He loved this neighborhood, more so in the summer with its
outdoor cafés and shops, but found it picturesque in winter as well.
Decorated for the season, most of the shop windows were festive
and sparkled. All of the brownstones had railings trimmed in garland
and wreaths on their doors.
The Village reminded him for all the world of a small town, a
little city within the big city. It pulsed to its own rhythm. When he
got his own place—maybe this summer, if it went well and he got
the show—he was determined to move down here. Summer. He
made a silent prayer as he passed New York University and headed
toward Broadway.
The street’s name wafted through his mind like a breeze. It was
magic. Broadway.
Spying the Village Commons Bookstore with its signature red
awning, he then checked his watch. Plenty of time to browse. And
he did have research he wanted to do for the part.
Walking in the store, he saw a large Christmas tree made of
multicolored books sitting on a rectangular stand, which was also
made of books, at the front. Strands of garland with red bows were
strung throughout the store, and wreaths adorned all of the pillars.
Between the holiday shoppers and the massive inventory, space
was at a premium. Making his way through the aisles, Joaquín
browsed until finally finding the biography he was looking for. He
turned and headed over to the theater section.
“Oh you . . .” a deep voice said in a frosty tone.
Joaquín looked up from the selection of plays he was perusing
to see a familiar face. His stomach fluttered and the heat rose to his
cheeks when he saw Lawrence Fonteneau, one of Enrico’s
coworkers. They dated briefly last summer.
“Hello, Lawrence,” Joaquín said. Did my voice drop when I said
that?
Sharp, and funny, Lawrence was definitely his type. That he was
tall, blond, and good-looking didn’t hurt, either. His expressive face,
with its prominent nose and chin, was perfect for an actor. Joaquín
couldn’t stop a smile from breaking across his face.
His mind drifted back to when he met him this past summer at
a rooftop party here in the Village. The party was Joel’s boyfriend’s
grand gesture, and Lawrence was there. In fact, he helped set it up.
Lawrence still looked more like an athlete than a theater actor.
Solid. He had some scruff on his face now, a trendy faded beard
only full near the jaw. Damn, he looks so good.
“You know you can call me Larry,” the big guy said as he picked
through a nearby stack. He already had several books under one
arm.
Unf. Love a man that reads, he thought. “But I prefer
Lawrence.” Of Arabia. Joaquín smirked. He’s got that young Peter
O’Toole thing going on. Quirky and mesmerizing . . .
Larry picked up a used play paperback and, after a quick look,
tossed it back, grumbling, “What are you even doing here?”
Joaquín stopped and looked up at him again. “I’m in a
bookstore, Lawrence. What do you think I’m doing here?”
Lawrence was being snappy, not that he blamed him.
Unceremoniously, Joaquín bailed on a date with him last summer,
and the taller man took exception to it. Joaquín got cold feet; that
was all. Fresh off his breakup, he found he liked Lawrence a lot more
than he was ready for at that moment and got spooked.
Remembering that, he wilted. He did apologize, but Lawrence iced
him out.
“You never seemed the type,” Larry said with a polished smile.
He was not one to pass up a chance to snark, and Joaquín always
enjoyed their back-and-forth. Larry continued, “I never thought
reading was your thing. Isn’t video more your specialty?”
“I can read,” Joaquín shot back. Clutching his book to his chest,
he added dramatically, “I love knowledge. In fact, I yearn for it.”
“So I see.” Larry eyed the book in his hand and reached over to
snatch it. Joaquín moved to grab it back, but with a laugh, Lawrence
darted away. “What is this? Huh. Gentleman Caller: A Biography of
Tennessee Williams. Why are you reading this?” Larry squinted at
him.
“I’m not,” Joaquín lied as he yanked the book away from him. “I
grabbed it off the table. It looked interesting. You got a problem
with that?” Why is he so bitchy? Their brief flirtation ended amicably
enough—or so he thought. True, he could have handled it better, but
this sounded bitter. Where was it coming from?
Larry searched Joaquín’s eyes. “No, I just . . . It’s nothing, never
mind.” The taller man was sweaty and defensive. It was a new look
for him.
“Okay, what’s wrong?” Joaquín asked. “You look stressed.”
Lawrence took a deep breath. “I apologize. I had an audition
this morning—a callback.”
“How’d it go?” Joaquín was curious. Though he only knew Larry
a little, he’d never seen him off like this. He was normally so
confident, almost arrogant.
“Who knows?” Larry snorted, walking down an aisle, talking
over the rows of books. “When I think I did good, I never hear
anything, and when I think I tanked it, I get hired.” He raised both
hands in the air.
“I dig it.” Joaquín bobbed his head, following on the other side
of the stacks. Auditions were tricky and expectations and desires
clouded any rational appraisal. “So? How do you think it went?”
“I tanked it.” Larry punched the air and smiled smugly. “God, it
was terrible. Maybe the worst audition I’ve ever had.”
Joaquín couldn’t help but laugh and held up his hand. “Fingers
crossed.” He let out a deep breath. Do I say this out loud? He
thought it was unlucky to talk about a job before it happened.
Taking a breath, he went for it anyway. “I had an audition earlier
today myself. I’m a little nervous about it.”
“What’s it for?” Lawrence eyed the Williams biography. “Is it for
Streetcar?”
“Oh, no. No, it’s not,” Joaquín lied and held the biography
tighter. He didn’t want to tell him what the audition was for. Larry
was a bit of a theater snob and Joaquín was a lowly TV actor. “Oh,
you know me . . .”
“More sci-fi? Or is it another TV procedural?” Larry asked
skeptically.
“Yeah, you know it,” Joaquín mumbled, his stomach churning.
God, I want this job. “Playing a dead body. No real acting for me.”
“Exactly.” Larry nodded, picking through a stack of used plays.
Joaquín gave him a glare. When Larry looked up, his eyes went
wide when he saw his face. The big man put a hand to his forehead.
“I swear, I did not mean that the way it sounded. I’m having an off
day. I apologize again . . . I should probably leave, quit while I’m
ahead.”
“It’s okay. I get it,” Joaquín said with a little sigh. “I need to go,
too. Take care.” With his book in his hand, he walked to the front of
the store and the cashiers.
“All right, take care,” Larry called after him. “And break a leg—
it’s for luck.”
Joaquín stopped and turned, giving Larry his best glower. “I do
know some things, Lawrence.” Wow, he just keeps putting his foot in
it. What a tool.
Chapter Four
Wild Heart
“What are you doing tomorrow night?” Enrico asked Larry from his
position on the couch. Both men and Mark, the newcomer to their
group, were all at Robert’s condo in the Village for Movie Night. It
was a once-a-month event when their mother hen, Robert, gathered
all of his ducklings to partake in queer or queer-related cinema.
Attendance waxed and waned over time but picked up of late
with the winter weather. An evening in with friends was just the
ticket.
“I’m going to Five Points Catering’s Christmas party,” Larry said
with a tight smile as he sat down next to him, a bowl of popcorn in
hand. All he really wanted to do was stay home and sulk after his
garbage audition today.
Not only was the casting director late getting back from lunch,
making everyone wait, but when Larry was delivering his
monologue, baring his soul in an emotional performance, they cut
him off with a phone call. If they weren’t interested in him, why did
they even ask him back? It all felt so hopeless.
Then they asked him to take his shirt off. Knowing it was
coming didn’t make the request easier. He worked out and did yoga
every day, but he didn’t have the ripped look he feared they wanted.
Then, to top it all off, he ran into Joaquín Tapia at the Village
Commons. Someone he liked, once. The handsome, dark-haired man
blew off a date at the last minute. I was already at the restaurant,
waiting. It was the kind of thing Dwayne used to do, and it never
failed to infuriate him. It was better that we ended it before it got
too serious. Besides, Joaquín was a bicoastal actor, living half the
year on the other side of the country.
Though he wasn’t opposed to them, after watching many long-
distance relationships fail, Larry was not in a hurry to try it out for
himself. His former roommate Joel had a boyfriend move across the
country. They tried to make it work, though ultimately it died. They
had issues beyond that, though, he reminded himself.
Tomorrow night’s event was an office thing. It was Five Points
Catering’s Christmas Party, and they were all friends, so it was all but
impossible to say no, especially during the holidays. This time of
year was about family, and his friends here were his family in New
York.
Enrico patted his leg. “Good boy.” The event was at his house,
further making it a command performance he couldn’t blow off.
Larry took a deep breath and asked, “Can I bring anything?”
He’d make a good show of it tonight, despite how he felt. His friends
were owed that at least. And as he had a whole day off tomorrow,
he could make more gingerbread Wookies for the party. Or maybe a
cake. Ooh, I could make a rum cake.
“Just bring yourself and that chipper little attitude.” Enrico
nudged him, a twinkle in his eye.
“That was mean.” Larry chuckled and pushed back. “Bitch.”
Enrico was a good man. Too bad about his brother. Still peeved from
Joaquín standing him up on their date, Larry broke it off. Joaquín
apologized, but before Larry could even entertain a second thought,
the man up and left town. He flew back to the west coast, ending
the matter.
He’d liked Joaquín, but Larry knew it was his own fault, a little
self-sabotage. That realization still smarted. Seeing him today was
not only awkward—it hurt. He let out a quiet sigh. Another bit of
drama he absolutely did not need at the moment. Pushing his
woolgathering aside, he made a decision. Larry was definitely
making Wookies for the party.
“Now, why on earth wouldn’t you want to go to the Five Points
party?” Robert brought over a bottle of Blauburgunder, a Pinot Noir
from the little Germanic country of Etreustein. He handed Larry a
glass. “Here, you need this, brighten up that sour mood of yours.”
“I know I’m the new guy at Movie Night, but why is your mood
so foul tonight?” Mark took a glass from Robert. “Thank you.” He
rolled the wine around in his glass before taking a sip.
“I’m sorry,” Larry said with a wince. “It’s your second night as
my roommate, and I’m here being a pill.” The last thing he wanted
was for Mark to regret moving in with him. He needed a roommate
and the money coming in to make rent.
“He had an audition today,” Robert volunteered as he shared a
knowing glance with Enrico. “He always gets like this after an
audition.”
Mark’s mouth formed a perfect circle. “Oh, that’s right. I forgot.”
“It was my fifth callback, and I think I might actually have a
shot at it,” Larry said, taking a deep breath. “It’s off-Broadway, but
there’s real money behind it. If all goes well and it gains a following,
it moves to Broadway.”
Mark’s eyes were wide. “That’s wonderful. What is it? What’s the
play?”
“A new take on Tennessee Williams’s A Streetcar Named Desire,”
Larry said as dismissively as he could. He didn’t want to get into it,
fearing that the more he talked about it, the higher his hopes would
soar, followed by the inevitable crash.
“Ooh, I love that play,” Mark said and munched on some
popcorn.
“And that is what we’re watching tonight. Nothing compares to
a wet Marlon Brando in a wifebeater.” Robert fanned himself.
We are? Larry stared at him. So much for not getting into it. Oi.
“You said it,” Enrico agreed and took some popcorn from the
bowl. “And where’s Joel? He loves early Brando.”
“Oh, he and Frederick are at a dinner party,” Robert said. “He
sent his apologies.”
“He has some life.” Mark shook his head. “His boyfriend is
training to be the ambassador of his country, as well as being a
prince. Amazing.”
Sitting down, Robert then took a sip of his wine. “And where’s
Jaime, Enrico?”
“Oh, she’s busy with the Christmas rush,” Enrico said and turned
to Mark. “My better half got a new job in a small bakery in Midtown
and this season is one of their busiest times all year. She’s working
six days a week and sixteen hours a day.”
“Good lord, they’d never allow that in the Union,” Robert
clucked. He, Enrico, and Joel all met when they worked at the
Halcyon Hotel in Midtown.
“It’s only for the holiday season and the money’s good.” Enrico
half-shrugged. Larry thought he noticed a tiredness to him. It was
probably rough on them.
“Is money tight?” Larry asked, concerned. Enrico never talked
about money. “I mean, business is good at Five Points, right?”
“Oh, we’re doing great at Five Points,” Enrico added cheerily.
“But Jaime and I did just buy the new condo . . .”
“That’s right. I can’t wait to see it,” Robert said. He was coming
to the Five Points Christmas Party as well. He was a fixture in their
lives, so how could they not invite him?
Larry found he was curious about it, too. Enrico and Jaime
moved uptown and into a new building on the Upper East Side. It
was a big deal to them, getting a place together. A real commitment.
Like Joel was doing with Freddie. And here I am, commitment-
less . . . It was his choice, but was it still what he wanted? He wasn’t
so sure anymore.
Larry sat in silence for a long moment, and the conversation
moved around him, buffeting him. His eyes fell on Robert’s small
Christmas tree, which sat on a TV tray on the far side of the room. I
feel like that tree, all alone in a corner.
He shook his head to clear his mood. Wow, Debbie Downer, he
chided himself. Maybe I should have stayed home tonight and not
come and brought everyone down.
Retreating into himself, into the corner of the couch, he
watched the movie in silence. Again he found Brando amazing. He
really is like lightning, intense and elemental. God, I want that role.
Stanley is so iconic. He was reminded again of how incredible the
script was, of how Tennessee Williams sat in the audience during
rehearsals for the play’s original run. Brando’s performance alone
shifted the focus from Blanche to Stanley. Legend.
After the movie, Larry helped Robert clean up while Enrico and
Mark went out on the balcony to get a breath of fresh air. Larry
pulled the handheld vacuum off the wall.
“Too bad your friend Sean couldn’t come over,” Larry said. “I like
him.” Sean lived in the building and worked with Robert years ago.
When he was free, he came to Movie Night.
“Busy at work. You know how it is.” Robert collected glasses but
stopped and looked up at him. “Duckling, tell me the truth. What’s
going on? I know when you’re upset.”
Larry stopped and thought about that. I need to talk to
someone about this. He’d been afraid to tell Joel. He was starting a
new life, and Larry wanted to support that, not drag him down. “I
really need this job—Streetcar. Actually, I need any acting job,” Larry
said. “I believe my agent is ready to let me go.”
Robert gave him a sympathetic look. “I am so sorry. That’s
tough.”
“It’s fine.” Larry turned away from him. “It’s all right. I mean, at
least I have Five Points, but it smarts, you know?” Larry grumbled as
he vigorously cleaned the couch with the vacuum. “I’ve always
wanted to be an actor, and I’m good. But I can’t get a break. I don’t
know what I’m going to do.”
Robert’s eyes searched his face. “That’s a lot, I know, but is that
all?”
Larry dropped his head and chuckled ruefully. “No, it’s not, I
guess. You know me pretty well.” He took a deep breath before he
went on “As if that wasn’t drama enough, it turns out my ex-fiancé is
getting married—this time to my cousin. Now, I’m going to have to
deal with that on my trip home for Christmas. Honestly, it’s all a bit
much. I wanted a nice escape home and now . . .” He waved a hand
in the air.
The older man came over and put his arm around him. “I’m
sorry, dear. Is there anything I can do?”
“No, there’s nothing anyone can do. It’s just . . .” Larry sighed
and plopped down hard on the sofa. “God, I feel like such a failure.
At acting, at work, at everything, but especially at love. My ex is
getting married, and here I am, all alone.”
“You are not a failure.” Robert sat next to him and pulled him
into an embrace. “Baby boy, you can do everything right and still not
get what you want. That is not failing—that is life. It happens to all
of us.” They rocked back and forth for a moment. “And you are
anything but ‘all alone.’”
“Thank you.” Larry patted the older man’s back stiffly. He
appreciated the gesture but . . .
“Oh, I forgot,” Robert sat back. “You’re not a hugger, are you?”
“Sorry,” Larry said and then looked to the sliding glass door and
the balcony. The others were still there. “Will you give them my
apologies? I’m going to go for a walk to clear my head. Then I’m
heading home. I think I need an early night.”
“Of course, duckling.” Robert followed him to the door and then
helped him bundle up. “I’ll see you at the party tomorrow night.”
“Yay,” Larry said weakly and gave jazz hands. “I can’t help but
wonder what seasonal joy awaits me there.”
Chapter Five
Truth Hurts
Le discours de Paul, tel qu’on nous l’a transmis, est mieux qu’un
morceau fictif d’éloquence ; il donne en abrégé le type de ses
homélies dans les milieux juifs. L’accent en est grave, même
guindé ; on dirait que les voûtes de la synagogue oppriment la
vivacité de sa dialectique et qu’il se contraint à parler
impersonnellement.
Au début, l’Apôtre remémore la vocation du peuple saint, les
prodiges où Dieu a prouvé qu’il le conduisait, lui réservant une terre
d’héritage, des chefs comme David, « un homme selon son cœur ».
De la descendance du roi David il a fait venir le Sauveur Jésus, celui
dont Jean « se disait indigne de dénouer les sandales ».
« C’est pour vous que cette parole de salut a été envoyée. Car
les habitants de Jérusalem, l’ayant méconnu, l’ont jugé et ont ainsi
rempli les prophéties qui sont lues à chaque sabbat… Mais Dieu le
ressuscita… »
Et Paul ramène le texte du Psaume toujours invoqué : « Tu ne
permettras pas que ton Saint voie la corruption [202] . »
[202] Ps. XV, 10 plus longuement cité par Pierre
(Actes II , 25-26).