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1 Gigi Blume - Love and Loathing
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CONTENTS
Beth
LOATHE PIE
Beth
FINE EYES
Will
SHE WAS WALKING AWAY. I had the urge to run after her. Explain
myself. But why? Perhaps to save face. I told myself I didn’t owe her my
apology. She wasn’t the press, or anybody really. But watching her tiny
little form retreat from me, her resolute chin pointed in the air, while her
pigtails bounced behind her head, reminded me a little of my sister. Small
but mighty. I shook my head to clear it. She certainly wasn’t anything like
my sister. Too much spunk.
And those curves…
“Fastidious.” Bing peered at his phone. It was that damn word of the
day app he liked to use. I didn’t think it made him any smarter, but it was a
distraction. I brought myself back to the present to respond to him.
“Use it in a sentence.”
“I would not be as fastidious as you for a kingdom,” he said with a
smile.
“Your own sentence.” I knew he liked to cheat by using the example
sentence.
He squirmed a little where he stood, twisting his features in thought. “It
would be fastidious of you not to accompany me to the bar.”
I rolled my eyes, and he quickly added, “Beth works there.”
If he was trying to tempt me into going to some grease trap hole in the
wall so he could score with some pretty blonde, he had to do better than
that. Even if that pretty blonde had a hot little pixie for a friend. I didn’t
need the distraction. But Bing was new in town and probably wanted to see
more of L.A. than the inside of that little room he sub-rented.
“I know a great place on Sunset,” I replied. “I don’t want to name drop
or anything, but last time I was there, I ran into Leo DiCaprio.”
I hoped a night out in a legendary Hollywood hangout would give him
some perspective. Keep his eye on the prize. But he shook his head and
responded with a dopey grin. “The whole cast is expecting us. Right. The
whole cast. What he meant was “leggy blonde.”
And if I were being honest, I had my thoughts on seeing a particular
person myself. Just because I was curious. By the sound of Beth’s phone
call, it would seem she had tons of offers on her agent’s desk. Then why
would she moonlight at a dive bar? It didn't add up. She didn’t add up. So I
went—not making Bing any promises how long I’d stay.
I HAD TRAVELLED the expanse of this great earth. I had been in places as
diverse as India, Guatemala, Brazil, Germany, China, and South Africa, just
to name a few. In my travels, I had encountered cities and slums in varying
degrees of society, customs, and enlightenment. I was no stranger to the
diversity found in the most distant corners of the world. But never had I
ever beheld the singular, outlandish abomination that was Lucas Lodge.
Where would one even begin to describe this place? The entryway was akin
to an old-timey Las Vegas casino. I think I’d seen the same carpeting at
Circus Circus. As I made my way through the front lounge, the floor
yielded to checkered tile that I imagined Alice encountered in her
adventures in Wonderland, except in place of the White Rabbit, a silver-
haired, ostentatious man greeted us in a garish, peacocky sort of fashion and
loudly introduced himself as Sir William Lucas. He tripped all over himself
in effusions of outrageous salutations and, beseeching me for a photo to
hang on his wall, he directed Bing and me to our seats at a booth covered in
leopard-print fur. I most likely would have paid little attention to his
ramblings anyhow, but I found myself more disinterested than usual as I
scanned the restaurant for a sight of Beth. I told myself I was just curious
and nothing more, imputing my desire to see her to the virtues of pride. Yes,
pride, and justifiably so. I wasn’t to be castigated by a waitress.
You dropped something, she’d said. Oh, it’s just your tact.
I couldn’t see a trace of her without drawing attention to myself by
craning my neck. Perhaps she had the night off. That would be the best
scenario. I was beginning to relax when we were greeted tableside by the
small voice of our waitress. Beth. How could it be we were seated in her
section? Fate was an ugly visitor sometimes. By the looks of it, she wasn’t
any more thrilled by the situation than I was. We’d be forced to… exchange
pleasantries!
She shifted her weight to one foot, making her hip jut out to one side as
her eyes locked onto mine, narrowing into slits.
“Really?”
My thoughts exactly.
“Okay, whatever.” She sighed heavily and rolled her eyes. “I bid thee
welcome, good sirs. Dost thou care for an ale or perhaps a robust mead?”
She was using a posh English accent and if I wasn’t completely
mortified by the whole business of being found in her section, I’d have been
immensely amused.
I contemplated an escape as she rambled through the specials. Honestly,
I didn’t hear a word she said. I was too busy planning my own death hoax,
wondering how to stage an alien invasion, or staging a distraction by way of
fire—anything to get away from her. I half consciously heard Bing order a
drink then excuse himself to the men’s room, but I was overwhelmed by my
inability to concentrate. Beth wore this atrocious wench costume, and I
couldn’t help but ogle at the way the bodice accentuated her curves. It was
like her figure was teasing me, dancing in my line of vision, just waiting to
be—
“Have you decided, My Lord?” her little voice squeaked, erecting a
blockade upon my thoughts.
“What?”
“I have to address the guests of Sir William Lucas with a title. May I
call you ‘My Lord,’ or do you prefer another royal title?”
“Oh,” I croaked. What kind of crackpot place was this? She waited for
my reply, but she kept looking over her shoulder impatiently. Why couldn’t
I just order a beer or something and get this over with?
“Um,” I said taken by surprise. “I am the Pirate King, so you can call
me… Your Majesty?”
Where the blazes did that come from?
She placed a hand on her tiny little waist and scowled at me. “Very well,
Your Majesty, shall we pour the pirate sherry or would a Bud Lite be your
pleasure?”
My pleasure? The way she looked in that costume—I drew a blank.
“Dilly dilly.”
That, my friends, was the ridiculous reply my blood-deprived brain
offered. What was wrong with me?
“Bud Lite it is,” she said rather salty and turned on her heel in the
fastest exodus imaginable. She walked away from me again, and I wasn’t in
any more control than I had been earlier in the day. She infuriated me to no
end.
The form of another female slipped her way into my vicinity. This one
wasn’t any more pleasant than Beth, but at least she didn’t get under my
skin. Caroline sat herself down next to me and scooted her hips flush
against mine on the furry bench seat. She certainly wasn’t very shy. I’d had
my share of bold women, but I wasn’t in the mood at present.
“I bet I can guess what you’re thinking,” she said huskily.
“I doubt it,” I replied laconically.
She held a fruity-looking cocktail and set it down on the table to free
her hands to turn my chin towards her face. Whoa! She wore a lot of
makeup. She smiled coquettishly and ran her tongue along her top teeth.
Checking for rogue lipstick perhaps?
“I’m really good at this game,” she purred. “Stare into my eyes.”
I really wasn’t in the mood for this, and I let my expression show it.
Maybe she’d get the hint and leave me be. And why hadn’t Bing returned?
“You’re thinking about how disastrous rehearsal was today,” she said.
“Not really.”
“Well, it’s not a very happy thought by the look on your face.”
“You think?” My reply was laced with a heavy dose of sarcasm.
She adjusted, positioning herself up on her knees so her head was at my
level and stared intently over my features.
“Hmm. I know. You’re thinking about how stupid this party is.”
“I’d hardly call this a party.”
She inched a little closer. “It can be if you want it to.”
I did my best in the distracted state of mind I was in to expose her lack
of logic. “As you said, if this were a party, I’d think it’s stupid.”
She opened her mouth to reply but must have thought better of it and
clamped it shut.
“In any case,” I continued, “that’s not what I was thinking.”
In an overt, suggestive manner, she wrapped her lips around her straw
and took a long sip of her cocktail, never taking her eyes off me. It was a
little more than disconcerting how tawdry she was. Frankly, I was rather
embarrassed for her.
“So?” she said, batting her lashes. “Are you going to tell me?”
Tell her what I was thinking? Oh, darlin’ there were sooo many things I
was thinking. Where to begin? But before I could respond, the one image
that rushed to the forefront of my mind and assaulted my senses manifested
before me, bearing my Bud Lite on a tray. Beth took one look at Caroline,
set the beer on the table, and whisked herself away again. Caroline took the
opportunity in that moment to throw her arms around my neck.
“Well, what are you thinking?”
Caroline was a good-looking woman, and she knew it, but she was
laying it on a little too thick. And without glancing away from Beth,
watching her tend to her other tables, I gave Caroline my answer.
“I’m thinking,” I said in a low gravely tone, “how much I like a
gorgeous pair of fine--”
She snorted and gave me a little chastising smack on the back of my
hand. “Oh, you are a naughty one, aren’t you?”
And it was then that I finally looked at her.
“…eyes,” I said. “Fine eyes.”
A splattering of crimson overspread her cheeks, and I realized with
some regret she must have taken it as a compliment to herself. But she was
playing a game as women like her often do, and in a coy, kittenish purr, she
said, “Whoever could you mean?”
I suddenly felt claustrophobic, caged in by a pair of long, ivory arms. A
dancer’s arms. She was probably exceedingly flexible, I mused. But why
didn’t she do anything for me? Was I losing my libido? I turned my eyes to
Beth. No. Definitely not losing my libido.
Untangling myself from Caroline’s tentacles, I slid the best I could
along the furry surface of the booth, all the way around to the other side,
still maintaining my eyes on Beth. Caroline’s scrutiny followed the
direction of my gaze to where Beth stood across the room, and her jaw fell
open.
“Her?” she cried incredulously
“I gotta go.”
I extracted the first bill I found in my wallet and tucked it under the beer
bottle, unabashedly leaving Caroline behind without another word. I didn’t
even care where Bing was at that point. There must have been something in
the air at Lucas Lodge that made my head feel so foggy. It wasn’t until I
escaped into the cool, November night that my mind cleared.
“Hmmph,” I growled as I climbed into my Ferrari. Regional theatre!
What had I gotten myself into?
4
Beth
ALL I HAD to do was get through with this show and take every
opportunity to avoid contact with him. For the most part, especially while
we were only rehearsing music, it didn’t take much effort. It was a rather
unfortunate impasse. I wanted with all my heart for this experience to be all
I had ever dreamt. No, I wasn’t on Broadway—yet—but performing at the
Gardiner was a giant step in my career. I wanted to love every second of it,
savor each moment, make important connections and post about it on
Instagram. Instead, I dreaded rehearsals, dragged my feet every time I
walked through the door, and couldn’t wait for the run to be over. All
because of one man. One infuriatingly chauvinistic, egotistical, arrogant,
pretentious (albeit hunky) man. I hated that perfectly symmetrical,
esthetically pleasing, phony smile; the way he would soft-soap Stella
Gardiner, the way he beguiled the directors in his favor, but especially how
he influenced his friend Bing. It was a mystery to me how a sweet-tempered
guy like Bing and a grump like Will could be friends. Sure, Will had all the
right connections, but Bing didn’t strike me as the worshipful barnacle type.
The only thing Bing seemed to worship was the ground on which Jane
walked on. He followed her around like a puppy dog. Over the course of the
week, I couldn’t help but steal a glance at Will every now and then just to
see the look on his face when Bing favored Jane’s company over his. A
couple of those times, however, I caught him glancing my way instead.
What was he trying to prove by giving me the stink eye? I felt like I was in
high school all over again. I was the band geek and for some unknown
reason, the football star shot eye daggers at me while Caroline, the flossy
cheerleader, clung to him like—well, like a worshipful barnacle. At least it
was finally Friday, and rehearsal was ending.
“Caroline might not be the sharpest tool in the shed, but she’s definitely
the hoe.”
I practically choked on my own spit before I turned around to see Lydia
making tawdry jokes.
“What did you say?” I managed to squeak.
She was right behind me, conspiring with Holly, another soprano in the
chorus, who laughed so hard, I was afraid I’d have to employ CPR on the
poor girl. But Lydia didn’t let up.
“Seriously. Her hoo-ha has more users than Twitter.”
Lydia had most likely been at it a while, because Holly seemed to be
hyperventilating. In a fun way, I guess.
“I mean, she was craving Five Guys before it was a restaurant.”
Holly doubled over, practically in tears and turning bright red. “Oh my
gosh, stop!”
Those girls! I was certainly not a fan of Caroline, but I wasn’t so low to
resort to hoe jokes. I did, however, agree with them on one thing. She
wasn’t the sharpest tool in the shed if she was at all attracted to Will Darcy.
But then again, maybe they deserved each other.
“Hey, I’ve got one,” I said. “She’s so fake, Barbie is jealous.”
Crickets. Clearly, I didn’t have the talent for juvenile insults. Lydia and
Holly shook their heads and offered me a consolatory pat on the back in a
nice try but no cigar sort of way. Then they abandoned me.
It was the end of a truly horrible day. My old Volvo broke down on the
way to rehearsal, and I had to run the rest of the way.
Let me repeat that. I had to run in Los Angeles.
It was like my car waited until my AAA membership expired. I was
grubby, tired, hangry, and I had to work the closing shift at the lodge. Most
of the cast had cleared out of the rehearsal studio, and I needed to find Jane
to ask for a ride because Holly and Lydia had already gone out for drinks. I
was just on my way to search for Jane when I was stopped in the hallway
by the theatre’s chief costume designer. I knew her name was Ari—I’d met
her when we were sent to her costume shop in the bowels of the theatre to
have our measurements taken. I remember her chiding me for sucking in. I
argued that I’d be wearing a corset, but she won me over by telling me a
funny story about a costume malfunction in Tartuffe.
“Would you do me a huge favor?” she said to me a little out of breath.
She had a bolt of brocade satin in her arms and a huge bag slung over her
shoulder. “I’m late for an appointment but I can’t leave this lying about.”
It took me a moment to register what she was saying. My brain was still
clearing out the bad hoe puns. And so I stared at her for a few seconds
longer than was socially acceptable. Derp. Yo speako English.
“Would you be a dear?” she pleaded, offering the bolt of fabric to me.
“Oh!” I said with a jolt. “Do you want me to take that down for you?”
She most likely thought I was a ninny. I took the fabric and smiled,
nodding like a clod, and she gave me a big hug, bidding her appreciation
and before running toward the door, called over her shoulder, “Just put it on
the cutting table and shut the door on your way out. It will automatically
lock.”
And then she was gone like the enigma she was. A little bit of an odd
birdy, that one. It was a small wonder she wasn’t completely nutso with a
workshop so many flights of stairs below the theatre.
Down once more.
I amused myself by singing as I navigated my way down, down, down
those narrow stairs as the air became cooler the further my descent into the
dungeon of black despair, my geeky musical theatre brain just an endless
loop of songs on repeat.
As I continued through my repertoire, I found myself testing the echo in
that long stairwell with an eerie reverberation reminding myself to keep my
hands at the level of my eyes.
I must have spooked myself out because I thought I heard footsteps
behind me, masked in the echo of my voice.
I realized in that moment that although I was most likely perfectly safe,
it would have given me more peace of mind if I had only waited to find
Jane before taking this endeavor all alone. A faint light at the end of the
corridor like a beacon in the darkness peered through the costume shop
door and as I reached it, I could hear music coming from inside. That
scatterbrained woman left her music player on. I thwacked the bolt of fabric
on the cutting table and went in search of the offending music.
Three things happened at once.
One. I found the source of the music. It was a small Bluetooth speaker.
Two. The music shut off, but I wasn’t the one to do it.
Three. The figures of two people moved in the shadows.
I was already spooked from the creepy dungeonous stairwell and the
freaky echoes reminiscent of the secret passageways to the fifth cellar. To
say I was startled would be an understatement. I screamed. Reality
dawning, my addled brain devised it could either be A) a deformed man
obsessed with a soprano or B) a rat catcher. This is what happens when
you’re tired, haven’t eaten much, and allow yourself to get worked up over
an ominous yet harmless stairwell.
In the half second after my B-movie scream, I sobered to the vision
before me. Jane and Bing were shuffling apart with the guilty evidence of
post-osculation faces. And yes, I resort to obscure vocabulary when in
shock. Osculation. In other words, smooching, making out, smacking lips
together. Kissing. I was equal parts embarrassed, delighted, and furious.
The two of them likely felt the same way, but not in the same order.
For the next few moments that felt like ten minutes but was probably
only three seconds, we had a staring contest. I stared at them eyes wide,
mouth open. They stared at me cheeks flushed, hair askew. I opened my
mouth wider to say something, but nothing came out. So many thoughts ran
through my head at once, I couldn’t figure out which to give voice to.
Apologize? Give them high fives? Yell at Jane for sneaking off like a randy
teenager?
To my chagrin, I was spared the effort because the bustle of heavy
footfall exploded into the room and the imposing, shark-like form of Will
Darcy appeared, followed closely by his very own remora fish—Caroline.
“What’s going on?” he said rather threateningly. I nodded in agreement,
deciding that’s exactly what I would have said had I been given the chance
—if he hadn’t barged in or, more accurately, if I’d remembered how to use
the faculties of my mouth. It seemed to be contagious because neither Jane
nor Bing could remember how to use their mouths either, other than
opening and closing them like fishies gasping for air—fishies about to be
eaten by a great, big Darcy shark.
“Uhh, uhh…” was all Bing could manage to say before a shrill scream
came from the direction of Caroline.
“What is it with the screaming?” growled the Darcy shark.
Caroline danced like a leprechaun on hot coals, shrieking, “Spider!
Spider!”
“Oh, for heaven’s sake,” cried Will. “Step on it.”
At that moment, my animal activist roommate suddenly remembered
how to speak and shouted, “No, don’t kill it.”
It seemed to happen in slow motion like I was a distant spectator to the
most ridiculous scene: Caroline shrinking away from a spider, Jane rushing
to save it, Bing looking for something to humanely capture it, and Will
staring everyone down like they had gone insane. I didn’t watch sports, but
I imagine that was what the instant replays must look like. Then, as the
crazy town scrimmage played out, Caroline swung her leg in one swift
motion and kicked the spider like a football through a field goal—the goal
posts being the threshold of the costume shop door which she quickly and
abruptly shut.
A robust “Noooooo!” resounded from the remaining four occupants of
the room because we knew—we knew what Caroline obviously was too
dumb and self-absorbed to realize—the door locked from the outside.
5
Will
WHAT SORT of moronic architect would design a door to lock from the
outside? Unless guarding a bank vault or sensitive government documents,
there was no reason for a door to have a Fort Knox security system like the
one currently employed by the costume shop in the Gardiner Theatre. I
would have felt inclined to credit the idea to that crazy woman who ran it.
But I knew that door had been there many years before Ari became the
wardrobe director. How did I know this? Because I’d been locked in before.
The Stella Gardiner Theatre was my playground when I was a kid. My
father, the most excellent actor I’d ever known, enjoyed taking a break from
filming his blockbusters to perform in a summer-stock show at the
Gardiner. He would often bring me to his rehearsals, and since there were
no other boys my age to play with, I would wander backstage, in the
catwalks, and through catacombs for hours. I knew every single crevice of
this theatre better than my own home. One day in particular, for a reason I
no longer remember, I hid in the costume shop and closed the door which
locked me in. I was rescued within twenty minutes, but to me, it seemed an
eternity. To this day, I never close a door without checking the knob first.
Therefore, when Caroline dislodged the doorstop in the surprisingly
impressive soccer play with a spider, my instinct was to dive for the door,
but my body felt like it was swimming in glue. I couldn’t get there fast
enough. Furthermore, if Caroline spent more time learning to read rather
than watching makeup tutorials on YouTube, she would have seen the
bright-red warning sign on the door. That sign must have been put there by
Ari. That woman might have been nutty as a fruitcake, but she did make a
point to warn the actors about that door when they came in for fittings. I
imagine Caroline was too busy taking selfies to pay attention.
To compound my frustration, she had no business following me down
there. She had no idea what I was doing. I could have taken advantage of
her if it suited me. She certainly was willing enough. As hot as she was, all I
wanted to do was shake her off, but she was gum on my shoe—
irremediably stuck to me.
To some extent, I was used to the attention from women, but that
lifestyle got old very quickly. Oh, I was a firm believer in fun, but I liked to
think I was more selective than girls like Caroline took me for. Plus, she’d
been grating on my nerves all day. If it wasn't a jibe against other cast
members spewing from her mouth, it was the conditions of our contract, or
a complaint about the facilities, or bragging about her film work. But her
crowning sauciness was her barefaced, unequivocal contempt for Beth.
Honestly, I couldn't care less about that pixie. As far as I was concerned,
Beth was just a pretty little girl in over her head in professional theatre. She
was rarely prepared for rehearsals, always seemed to be frazzled, and would
oftentimes arrive at the theatre a hot mess. And I couldn’t keep my eyes off
her. What was it about her? She was… scrappy. The way she looked in
those clingy yoga pants she wore, or how her fandom t-shirts stretched
tightly over her chest and exposed just a tiny bit of skin at her waist when
she moved the right way. I didn’t have to particularly like the girl to
appreciate her at a distance.
Woah! Hold it right there. I certainly did not like the girl. But I didn’t
hate her the way Caroline was determined to.
Beth had been a half hour late for rehearsal that morning, blaming her
tardiness to car trouble. Her arms and face were smudged in grease, and her
hair was all over the place. She looked flushed and radiant. It was hot. But
Caroline wouldn’t shut up about it.
“Did you see her pants?” she sneered when Beth left to clean up in the
bathroom. “Looks like she wiped her hands all over them.”
Oh, I had most certainly noticed that.
She went on. “What was she doing? Trying to fix her own car? Is she a
hillbilly? And so sweaty!”
When I didn’t indulge her rants, she pressed me for my opinion.
“Still admiring her fine eyes?” she mocked. “Hard to see much of them
under layers of dirt and sweat.”
“I wasn’t looking at her eyes,” I said more to myself than to her, and
then to shake off the effect the vision had on me, I stood and spent the
remainder of rehearsal by the piano.
At lunch, Caroline climbed into the passenger seat of my car and
insisted I take her to Whole Foods. Since I hadn’t yet decided what I
wanted to eat, I acquiesced. All the rest of the day, I would catch her
eyeballing me. Once rehearsal was dismissed and Bing was missing in
action, she followed me when I went in search of him. Subsequently, by the
turn of events that ensued, she trapped us in the costume shop. And who
just happened to be there? The very woman I was trying to forget: Elizabeth
Bennet. I was cursed.
At present, however, it wasn’t the arousing yet vexing presence of Beth
in the room, or that Caroline had shut us all in together indefinitely that
upset me. Those things were enough on their own. What irked me the most,
and after all my admonishments to him, was that Bing got us into this
situation because of some girl. It was written all over his dopey face. I
didn’t blame him for wagging all over Jane; she was gorgeous—blonde
hair, blue eyes, and legs for days. But Bing wasn’t the kind of guy to
differentiate hook-ups from serious girls. He wasn’t a player, and he was
falling fast and hard. I warned him not to get distracted by a woman. He
needed to think of his career first, and he wasn’t following any of my
advice. It infuriated me.
Also, my brain was a muddled mess with Beth so nearby. I needed to
think of a way to get us out before we all murdered each other.
Four sets of eyes incredulously stared at the door as though staring at it
with a Jedi mind trick, it would open and grant us passage. Then the same
four sets of eyes turned to Caroline, and I don’t know about the others, but
mine were set on kill mode. I might have strangled her if Beth hadn’t
spoken up.
“Dddd-did you just…” she stuttered. “Did you just… slam the door to
keep a spider out?
Caroline didn’t respond.
“You slammed the door to keep a SPIDER out?” she repeated with more
of an edge.
“Yeah. So?” Caroline looked around at all the incriminating faces
burning holes into her skull.
“It wasn’t a big spider,” said Bing in a stoic fashion. “He can get back in
through the crack.”
“She,” corrected Jane.
“What?” he asked, turning his gaze to her.
“She,” Jane repeated. “It was probably a female spider.”
“Well, he or she is dead,” said Caroline, “so you’re welcome.”
“Then why shut the Thenardier door?” cried Beth.
“Thenardier?” said Bing.
“From Les Mis,” touted Jane matter-of-factly.
“There might be more spiders,” exclaimed Caroline.
“Can we drop the issue with the spider?” I bellowed. Why was I the
only sane person in the room? “We’re trapped in here now.”
Caroline laughed, evidently not believing me and jiggled the door knob.
Then she jiggled it again. It wouldn’t budge.
“There must be some other way out of here,” she said. “Or another way
to open the door.”
I pressed my lips in a thin line, keeping any profanity at bay and slowly
shook my head. For good measure, I crossed my arms over my chest, so
they wouldn’t decide to commit homicide on their own accord. Caroline
tried the knob again. Yep. Still locked.
“We’ll just wait until someone comes down to let us out,” she said.
“It’s the weekend, Caroline,” I growled. “No one will be back until
Monday.”
“Does anyone have Ari’s phone number? Or anyone with a key?” asked
Beth optimistically.
I immediately took the phone out of my back pocket. “I have Stella’s
number.”
I quickly found her contact image and tapped the screen. A red ‘X’
appeared where the signal icon should have been. No service. I moved
around the room, trying to get reception from different areas. I tried
standing on the sofa, pointing the phone towards the ceiling, walking
around that confined space like a Ghostbuster trying to detect psycho-
kinetic energy, but nothing I tried was successful. We were too far below
ground. In a fruitless endeavor, Bing did the same with his phone. We
looked like a couple of interpretive dancers offering our smart phones to the
ceiling gods. This lasted a good five minutes before frustration got the
better of me, and I lashed out on the one person I believed was responsible:
Bing.
It was he who stole away with Jane to hide from the rest of us for his
face-licking fest, he who I went in search of followed by the door-
slamming, spider-kicking Caroline. I surmised Beth was down there
because she had likewise searched for Jane and found the lovers climbing
on each other right before I arrived, hence the scream I’d heard earlier. All
this could have been avoided if Bing had taken my advice. Therefore, in a
not-so-articulate display of anger, I barked. All at once, everyone in the
room pointed fingers at one another, placing the blame on Caroline for
having shut the door, on Beth for creeping up on them and screaming, on
Jane for being so beautiful, and on myself, according to Beth, for something
akin to sharks. It was a very messy and poor rendition of It’s Your Fault
from Into the Woods, except with no music and no Bernadette Peters. I
didn’t approve.
I had to do something. I couldn’t stand still, and I certainly couldn’t
wait until Ari came to work on Monday only to find four corpses and one
crazed and homicidal Will Darcy. I went in search of something, anything
that I might use to get that door open. Tools, perhaps.
“What are you doing now?” Beth crossed her arms and glared at me.
“I have to get that door open.”
“With what?” she said sarcastically. “A seam ripper?”
I pretended to ignore her, but I was hyper aware of her scathing glower
as if she willed me to fail. She wouldn’t be the victor. Not today, pixie girl.
Determination under my wings, I searched harder and finally came upon
some paper clips, corset boning, knitting needles, and a butter knife. I
immediately set to work on the door, jamming the knife in the frame and
poking around with the paper clips. I thought for a minute I felt it give, but
then I lost it. Surely, it couldn’t be that difficult.
“Are you picking the lock?” asked Caroline.
“Yes.”
She hovered over me, blocking my light. It took all my willpower not to
bite her head off. Maybe that was what Beth meant when she called me a
shark. I sighed and counted to ten. Maybe Caroline got the hint or maybe
she just got distracted by something shiny, but when she moved to the other
side of the room, I was hyper aware of Beth sneering somewhere behind
me.
“Do you mind?” I said, turning my head just enough to see her crossing
her arms. “I’m trying to concentrate.”
She rolled her eyes. “Don’t mind me, MacGyver. Would you like some
bubble gum and a wire hanger? You could build a bomb.”
“I’ve done this before, you know.”
“Oh? And then did the director call ‘cut?’”
I feigned a laugh. “Har har! Actually, a wire hanger would be great.
Thank you.”
Caroline was at my side in seconds with the hanger and said quite
seriously, “I have faith in you, Will.”
It was too much pressure. At one point, Bing tried to help me, using his
flashlight app to illuminate the doorjamb. One thing I could say for those
old industrial steel doors—the craftsmanship was far from shoddy. That was
one sturdy mother-lovin’ door. After about a half hour, I took a break, not
conceding to defeat, but to rest for a time. By then, Caroline amused herself
by stacking spools of thread, Beth had found a copy of Anna Karenina
somewhere on Ari’s shelves, and the lovebirds exchanged hushed secrets.
I was so worked up and quite frankly peeved beyond all that was good
and holy, socializing with any of them was out of the question. And so I
took a seat at Ari’s desk, fished a notebook out of my bag, and vented my
frustrations on paper. It was much safer than venting on Bing’s face. I was
able to write a few lines, but only before Caroline once again interrupted
my solace.
“What are you doing?”
“Writing.”
“With a pen?” she asked confoundedly.
Smothering her with a pillow sounded good in that moment.
“Yes,” I hissed. “That’s usually what one uses to write in a journal.”
“OH! You keep a journal? I’d love to read it.”
“It’s a rather private thing.”
“Oops. Sorry. So, it’s more like a diary.”
“If you want to call it that, yes.”
She thought about that for a minute and at length, asked, “You won’t let
anyone read it?”
Clearly, I wouldn’t get much else down on paper. I sighed. “If you must
know, my sister reads my journals sometimes.”
She perked up at this. “I didn’t know you had a sister. Is she older or
younger?”
“Younger.”
“What does she look like?”
I could tell she was fishing for me to produce a photo. In fact, my sister
Georgia’s image was the screensaver on my phone but sharing that
somehow seemed oddly intimate all of a sudden. I didn’t have the energy
for that.
“She’s my sister, I don’t know how to describe her. She’s petite, I
guess.” I flicked my hand dismissively. “Like Beth.”
I felt rather than saw Beth look up from her book. A shift in energy
waved through the room at the awareness.
“Does she live with you?” Caroline continued to drill for information.
Good Lord, woman! All the questions!
“Only when she’s in L.A. She’s at Juilliard School now.”
I didn’t mind bragging about that a little. I was truly proud of my sister.
She had come a long way in recent years. It wasn’t an easy road.
“That doesn’t surprise me at all,” continued Caroline. “If she’s anything
like you, she must be the most talented in her class.”
“Her talent far exceeds mine.”
“I’m glad to hear it. So many girls call themselves actors even when
they lack the talent,” she said pointedly, rolling her eyes in Beth's general
direction.
“She’s not an actress,” I replied. “She’s a musician.”
She didn’t seem to hear me, because she ploughed through with her
thoughts.
“In order for an actress to be truly accomplished, she has to have a
strong dance background, can sing both classical and contemporary musical
theatre, and have a great stage presence.”
Bing decided to join the conversation at that point. “I’m always so
amazed at the talent I’m surrounded by every day in this business,” he said.
“All the girls in this cast are triple threats.”
“Hardly,” I said with a small laugh. I was still very much upset with
him, and he had a lot to learn. I also noticed Beth set her book on her lap at
that moment.
“I can probably count on one hand the women I know who are true
triple threats,” I continued. “The term is applied too liberally these days.”
“I agree,” chimed in Caroline.
But then Beth cast aside her book entirely and finally spoke up. “You
must have extremely high expectations, then.”
“I do,” I said. “It’s a competitive business.”
“I can imagine,” she said with a smirk. “It must take an immense
amount of talent to bend over the hood of a Camaro in a bikini.”
I knew she was making a jab at my movies. I’d never pretended they
were Oscar-worthy performances, but they were lucrative, and that paid for
my sister’s tuition. I wasn’t proud of those films, but I didn’t have to
explain myself to her.
“Acting, singing, and dancing are only the basic skills one must have to
make it,” said Caroline. “You have to be able to read music, play piano,
have some acrobatic skill, perform basic stunts, have a thorough repertoire
of songs in your arsenal, know the mechanics of acting on stage and on
screen, not to mention voiceover work, and go seamlessly from drama to
comedy in one audition.”
“Not to mention,” I added for good measure, “a brain in her head.”
Someone who reads books instead of stacking spools of thread.
“Well then,” said Beth to me, “I’d be surprised if you knew any
actresses with that impressive list of skills.”
“You don’t think so?”
“No,” she replied, pointing her chin in the air. “That person doesn't
exist.”
Caroline, bored with the subject, interjected, “I’ve been staring at that
piano for the last hour.” She pointed to the upright piano in the corner. It
looked pretty beat up. “Let’s play a song together, Will.”
No, no, no! I wasn’t up for that.
“I’m going to finish writing for now, thanks,” I said dismissively.
Caroline chuckled and tapped me on the shoulder. “You’re a regular
Shakespeare, aren’t you?”
From the corner of my eye, I caught Beth making a puke face.
“It’s hard to be the Bard,” she said under her breath.
Touché, Miss Bennet. Touché.
6
Beth
THREE HOURS PASSED since the brilliant Caroline shut the door,
trapping us in the costume shop. For two of those hours, I watched, with
some amusement, the futile efforts of Will-the-action-hero-Darcy to rescue
us from our plight. He tried everything, it seemed, and with every passing
minute, became more and more frustrated by degrees. The heat radiating off
him became palpable as I could sense by the sheen of sweat on his face, and
then after he removed his button-down shirt, more glistening sweat issued
along the lines of muscle on his arms and shoulders exposed by a tank
undershirt. If he continued to work fruitlessly on the door, I imagined he
might have found the heat unbearable enough to warrant the removal of his
tank as well. I wasn’t opposed to the idea, as it would pass the time by the
amusement of watching him get upset and therefore, increase my pleasure
twofold by the added benefit of a splendid view. I loathed the man, but I
wasn’t blind.
I had long abandoned the book I’d found. Too many long chapters about
nineteenth century Russian politics. Plus, the references to food made me
hungry. I hadn’t had breakfast—and lunch consisted of a cashew butter
sandwich and Funyuns. My stomach growled relentlessly, and I probably
had rank breath. A perusal through Ari’s mini fridge produced only a few
bottles of water and some hot sauce packets, and so, I’d grabbed one of the
waters and occupied myself with a piece of remnant fabric, a needle, and
thread.
I’d left my rehearsal bag upstairs and even if I’d brought it down into
the dungeon, there would be little in it to occupy me. In fact, the only
person to have brought their things was Will, and every now and then, he’d
dig something out. He reminded me of an overachieving boy scout. Or
Mary Poppins. After he abandoned his efforts on the door, he pulled out his
iPad and started up a movie for the other three. Most surprising, was the
fact he had Moulin Rouge downloaded, as if he watched it often. I didn’t
have Will pegged as a fan of anything I would share an interest in.
“You have a digital copy of Moulin Rouge?” I exclaimed incredulously.
Will glared at me pointedly. “Yeah. What did you expect?”
“Oh, I don’t know,” I responded. “Fast and Dangerous one through
seven?”
He sneered at my comment but didn’t say anything more. After he set it
up, he positioned himself at the other side of the shop.
Moulin Rouge was one of my favorites, but Bing, Jane, and Caroline fit
nicely on the sofa together. An addition to their party on the sofa would
have been too crowded.
For more than half of the movie, however, Caroline talked over it,
starting absurd discussions about the parts she didn’t agree with. Bing
gently reminded her more than once to enjoy it regardless.
For example, she’d say, “I’d prefer it without so much music.”
And then Bing would reply, “Then it wouldn’t be a musical.”
Will, ignoring all the rest of us, fished out his earbuds and listened to
music on his phone. When the battery wore down, he plugged it in, because
of course, he came prepared like the Mary Poppins Boy Scout he was. I also
noticed he went in the adjacent bathroom to brush his teeth more than once.
Not two seconds after he emerged from the bathroom the last time, Caroline
accosted him so he could settle a disagreement between herself and Bing.
“What profession has better job security?” she bellowed at Will. “Film
acting or theatre?”
“Neither one is a secure industry to pursue,” he said without any
emotion. “If you want security, stay out of show business.”
“Yes, we know that,” she said. “But between the two, which do you
prefer?”
“I make my living in film. You know that.”
“Well, I’d like to do both,” said Bing with vigor. “If I could, I’d film on
location by day and perform on stage by night. I wouldn’t be able to decide
between the two.”
I giggled at his wide-eyed optimism. He was quite adorable. “I can
totally tell that about you,” I said lightheartedly.
“Really?” he asked. “Am I that transparent?”
“Not exactly,” I said. “I’m just a good judge of character.”
“Oh?” he said with interest. “And what’s your diagnosis, doctor?”
“It just shows you’re diverse in your interests and can adjust to any
situation.”
“The theatre,” interjected Will, “is a great way to exercise your craft,
but it doesn’t compare to film when it comes to monetary concerns. A
performance in the theatre is fleeting, but once recorded on film, there’s no
telling how much you can make in royalties for years to come.”
“I think the takeaway here,” I said to Bing, “is to do what makes you
happy.”
“You have to admit,” Will retorted, “that a career in theatre is limited in
its longevity. There are less and less roles as you age. Not so with film.
Especially for men.”
Jane, who had been silent for much of the evening, smiled at Bing and
said, “It doesn’t hurt to have the right people in your court, either.”
Will narrowed his eyes at her.
“All I know,” said Bing after some thought, “is that when I’m in the
theatre, there’s no place I’d rather be. But when I’m on a movie set, I feel
the same kind of magic.”
“Nothing wrong with that.” I nodded in agreement.
Caroline, who must have felt left out of a conversation that she herself
had started, stood from the sofa, stretched a little too provocatively in front
of Will, and, pulling me from my seat, said, “Come on, Beth. I’m so sick of
sitting on my butt. Let me show you some of my favorite yoga poses. It’s so
good for the muffin top.”
I had little choice other than follow her lead, muffin top remark
notwithstanding. I figured I could do for a little bit of stretching anyway.
We took the only available space for such an exercise and faced away from
everybody. I noticed Will usurped my comfortable chair almost
immediately after I quit it.
“Don’t forget to breathe, Eliza,” mewed Caroline while we were in
downward dog. Where did she get off calling me Eliza?
“Isn’t this refreshing?”
“Yeah,” I huffed. “Sure is.”
She turned her head slightly to look behind us while her rear end
wiggled toward the ceiling. “Care to join us, Will?”
Oh no, please no. I’d rather lock myself in the bathroom a la Michael in
Be More Chill. I’d lock myself in there, and everybody else would have to
hold their pee the rest of the weekend.
I could hear an appreciative groan come from Will’s vicinity.
“The view is just fine from here, thank you,” he said unabashedly.
I shot up immediately, and Caroline, a little slower to respond, also
straightened her body to stand, but it was more like a bend and snap
maneuver.
“Oh my goodness!” she squeaked. “Shame on you!”
She placed her hands on her hips, feigning offense at his confession of
ogling her, but she giggled and blushed. She loved the attention. I wanted to
hide within the costume racks and pretend to be invisible. But Caroline
wasn’t content to be the object of only one person’s attention, regardless of
gender and so, she linked her arm in mine and pulled me along with her as
she planted herself right in front of Will.
“What do you think, Beth? Should we punish him?”
Will shifted in his seat, crossing his legs, and I noticed he held in a
breath.
“I think,” I said, “that we should just ignore him.”
Will let out the breath, but the rhythm of his breathing was shallow and
erratic. This wasn’t Caroline’s first rodeo.
“That’s impossible,” she said. “We’re trapped indefinitely. We might
have to choose who gets eaten and who gets to eat.”
“Thank you, Mrs. Lovett,” I said, “but remember, actors always taste
overdone.”
I saw Will relax at my joke as the corner of his lip curled ever so
slightly. He caught the Sweeney Todd reference. That also surprised me.
“We’ll have to just tease him,” I concluded. “Laugh at him.”
“Laugh at Will Darcy?” blurted Caroline, disentangling her arm from
mine and crossing to perch herself on the piano. “I don’t think so.”
For some reason, I felt inclined to remain rooted in place, even
considering the proximity to Will. Maybe it was the advantage I had in that
position in regard to height. I was hardly ever able to look down on
someone. It felt good. Especially when that someone was an arrogant
misanthropic misogynist.
“Why not?” I asked.
“Because…” she cooed. Good heavens, now she was twirling her hair.
“He’s a good man.”
“A good man?” I couldn’t believe this girl. “Less than a minute ago, you
were considering mincing him into pie filling. Besides, there’s always
something to laugh at. Even with action heroes.”
Caroline just shrugged as if to say Will Darcy shan't be laughed at
because he is without fault other than his pervy remarks.
I looked down at Will, narrowing my eyes into slits. “I guess you’re off
the hook, Mr. Darcy. Not guilty.”
“No one is completely off the hook, Miss Bennet,” he said, swallowing
hard. “Even the best of men will be laughed at by people who see the world
as one big joke.”
“There are people with no sense of humor at all,” I replied. “In contrast,
I suppose, there are those who joke too much. But it’s perfectly normal to
laugh when someone is being ridiculous. Even the great Will Darcy must
have character flaws.”
“I do my best to avoid them.”
“Like vanity?” I goaded.
“Maybe.”
“Or pride?”
“No. Not pride.”
“Aha!”
“I’m proud of a lot of things,” he said, straightening in his chair. “My
work, my family, my position—lots of things. Pride is definitely not a flaw.
It’s a virtue.”
“Are you done with your interrogation?” cried Caroline. “I’m bored.”
“He’s all yours, Caroline. Will has no flaws. He said so himself.”
“I never said that.” His tone was a little too cool for my taste. “I’m just
as bad as the next guy.”
This caught my interest more than it should have.
“Oh?”
“Yes,” he croaked, trying to regain his usual composure. “Nobody's
perfect.”
“So what’s your defect, then? We’re all dying to know.”
“I’m not,” chirped Jane. I’d almost forgotten she was there. “Dying to
know, that is.”
“I’m not either,” said Caroline. She actually pouted at the fizzle the
conversation made in turning the focus from her.
“Bing?” I asked. “What about you?”
He just shrugged, but he had a devilish smirk on his cute, little face.
“I have a short temper,” offered Will. “I’ll admit I have little patience
for idiots and rude people.”
Rude people? That was ironic!
He went on. “I don’t have time for users or liars. I’m the king of holding
grudges. Call me resentful or petty or whatever, but I don’t care. I have
strong opinions about people and once they're on my Burnt List, they’re on
there forever.”
The whole room fell silent. He was truly a fierce thinker, and I found
myself wanting nothing more than to get away from him and his unfair
scrutiny.
“Those sure are some heavy defects,” I said, trying to lighten the mood,
“But nothing I can laugh at.”
He shrugged and gave me a cool, calculated stare. “We all have our
quirks, Elizabeth.”
“Yours is to hate everybody.”
“And yours,” he said, standing to his full height, towering over me, “is
to intentionally misunderstand them.”
The earth stood still, and for the length of a thousand heartbeats, all the
reality around us fell away. He stood so close to me, my chest was a hair’s
breadth away from brushing against his white Fruit of the Loom trailer-
tank. His heat and fury bore down on me, and I shrank into myself, flushed
from the inferno he diffused from his infuriatingly brawny figure. His entire
presence was imposing, invading my senses with whatever scent that was. It
was unique to him and mingled provocatively with the minty freshness of
his toothpaste. It was intoxicating and swoony. And I knew in that moment,
he tried to break me. Oh, he was good. He knew the effect he had on
women, and I felt all the weight of his artifice. But I had an advantage over
him because I could see right through him. I knew the type. Hunky
Hollywood playboy, lots of money, and the power to crush someone’s
career with a few carefully spread rumors. I wouldn’t play into his hands.
I’d leave that to Caroline.
The piano interrupted our staring contest. Bing played remarkably well,
which was a welcome distraction to everyone, but nobody quite as much as
Caroline, who dripped her body all over the piano, cabaret style, while she
sang song after song like a diva in a speakeasy. Bing seemed to know every
song ever composed in the history of musical theatre. He only missed a few
notes here or there, but his skill was beyond anyone in the room and
probably the whole cast. It was little wonder why Will had taken him under
his wing.
I returned to my sewing abomination, and Jane stretched out on the
sofa, admiring Bing and his magic fingers fly over the keys. Every so often,
I’d glance up and watch her drowsy, contented smiles, and my heart
warmed to the sight. She was so smitten with him. I’d only seen her fall for
a guy once before. He’d write songs about her and serenaded her with his
guitar. What girl wouldn’t go gaga over a guy like that? I was the only one
who didn’t trust him, and I almost lost Jane’s friendship when I voiced my
concerns. The guy hoodwinked her. Turned out Jane wasn’t his only muse
for those beautiful songs and when she found out, she cried on my shoulder
and watched Spanish telenovelas for days. I never once said I told you so,
and I vowed to keep my opinions about her boyfriends to myself from then
on. But Bing was different. I didn’t sense any danger for her where he was
concerned.
Will once again took up his pen and journal he so secretly wrote in.
Probably writing songs for multiple women. Every so often, I’d catch him
glowering at me then turn back to his writing when our eyes met. What
could he have been writing, I wondered? Probably one hundred and one
ways he hated Beth Bennet. I honestly couldn’t figure out any other reason
why he’d glance my way so often. It couldn’t be that he found me at all
attractive. I’m a Hobbit—not a tall bombshell like Caroline or a beautiful
Swedish goddess like Jane. Still, I was at a loss why someone like him
would waste any more energy than necessary in such contempt to warrant
the stink eye. I went over our earlier conversation in my memory. He’d
looked right at me when he spoke of his impatience with idiots and rude
people. Was he referring to me when he told us about his Burnt List? What
had I ever done to be on his Burnt List? For the record, I wouldn’t expect
anything less crass from Will Darcy.
An energy bar flew in my direction and landed on the cutting table in
front of me. I blinked at it like it had fallen from the sky.
“Are you allergic to peanuts?” Will was several feet away, far enough to
keep a safe distance.
“Um… no,” I croaked.
He didn’t say another word and turned away from me, placing himself
at the farthest end of the room. I looked up to find everyone else with a
similar bar, devouring them like manna from heaven and Will taking his
seat, fishing another one from his Mary Poppins messenger bag. He was an
overachieving boy scout. Did he have any burritos in there by chance? The
stubborn part of me didn’t want to accept anything from him. It was
counterintuitive to the sinister joy I got from loathing him. But hunger won
out, and I ripped into the package, grateful for anything other than the hot
sauce packets in Ari’s mini fridge.
I finally made my bed out of layers of crinoline and nineteenth century
wool coats (probably from previous productions of Oliver or Jekyll and
Hyde) and drifted off to a restless sleep. Caroline likewise found some coats
for a makeshift bed while Bing and Jane shared the sofa. Will, as far as I
know, stayed up all night. Maybe he thought I might bludgeon him in his
sleep and decided to stay on guard. All I know is each time I shifted from
sleeplessness or got up to empty my bladder, he was awake in his chair,
reading or listening to music.
Somewhere after three in the morning, the tumult of what was arguably
the worst day of my life caught up with me, and I fell into a hard and deep
slumber. I only awoke when an abrupt jostling roused me from the weight
of it and coming out of the haze of dreaming, I focused on the image of
Charlotte shaking me like a sack of flour. Caroline, Jane, and Bing rose,
having just awoken, and there in the threshold of that blasted door, stood
the formidable Dame Stella Gardiner. She wore an amused grimace on her
stoic features and leaned against the doorframe, fondling the keys on her
forefinger. It took me a minute to register the scene before me, somewhat
disoriented to my surroundings before a flood of realization washed over
me, and the dreamy haze was replaced by a splitting headache.
Charlotte spoke, but I only caught a few phrases. Something about
being worried I didn’t show up for work, not finding Jane or me at our
apartment, and coming upon all our cars in the theatre parking lot. Stella
must have been called at some point, but since it couldn’t be any later than
six in the morning, I imagined she wasn’t amused by the early-hour
disturbance.
And then I noticed with more interest than I cared to admit—and a good
measure of relief—that Will Darcy was gone. He no doubt fled the moment
Stella’s keys turned the lock.
7
QUETZALCOATL’S HOT
CHOCOLATE
Beth
THE BEST PART of Monday’s rehearsal was the absence of all the male
members of our cast except for Bing. We were expected to learn the
choreography for three pieces in the first act, which required only the
Stanley Sisters and Frederic. I knew I couldn’t avoid Will entirely, but the
reprieve of three days was like a mini vacation. At least it would have been
if I didn't have to spend my every hour of freedom at the lodge. In
consequence to missing my shift on Friday night, I was given the worst
section in the restaurant and extra side work. I also had to pick up the
Sunday Brunch shift nobody wanted. In short, I spent more on gas than I
made on tips. Still, it was better than spending a weekend rationing energy
bars between five people in a costume shop, two of which were Heathers to
my Veronica Sawyer. I pondered whimsically who I could recruit for the
character of Jason Dean.
All thought of poisoning aside, I did have to endure an entire day
dancing with Caroline, but she was the lesser thorn in my side. In fact, I
hardly noticed her presence. Of course, a day at rehearsal wasn’t complete
without its weirder-than-fiction theatrics, and that came in the form of our
replacement choreographer who was the most spectacular mixture of drill
sergeant and drama queen on the planet. He was such an amusing study that
I found myself watching him when I should have been dancing. He could
easily put on a one-man show without even scripting it, and I’d probably
pay to see it.
Stella introduced Colin Hunsford in the morning with a short
announcement and quickly left the rehearsal studio. The man sashayed
before us for a long, silent minute as if to survey what he had to work with.
He didn’t seem pleased with what he saw until his eyes fell on Jane, and
then only gave a little nod of approval. He spent the next three quarters of
an hour showboating his accolades and why he was more qualified than our
previous choreographer, or anyone else in his acquaintance for that matter,
with the exception of his mentor whom he was sure to name-drop
throughout the day whenever an opportunity arose. I’d never heard of her. A
sneaky Google search on my phone while he ranted on came up with pages
of information on Catherine de Bourgh, apparently a world-renowned
dancer in her time and founder of the Rosings Institute of Dance. The most
current photo I could find was of a majestic, slender woman in her sixties or
seventies. Her silver hair was tied into a fierce, yet elegant bun, and she was
celebrating the debut of one of her star students.
After some of the oddest warm-ups in the history of dance, Colin taught
the choreography for Climbing Over Rocky Mountain. He pranced to the
center of the room and flicked his hands in the direction he wanted us to go.
“All right!” he chirped with a clap. “We will start with a sashay from
stage left, go into three pirouettes on pointe, and then I want you to break
off into the lines which I will now place you in.”
“On pointe?” cried Caroline. “We’re dancing on pointe?”
Colin swooshed his long, flowy scarf and snapped his head over his
shoulder sharply in her direction. It was quite fabulous in a Nathan Lane in
Birdcage sort of way. “Daaaahling,” he oozed, “of course you’ll be on
pointe. This song is a classic ballet showpiece. Haven’t you listened to the
D’oyle Carte soundtrack? The flutes, the staccato trills. It begs for sissonne
and temps levé sauté. In 1978 the great Fordyce Ballet Company performed
a musical rendition of The Tempest entirely on pointe.”
He then waffled on for ten minutes about the Fordyce Ballet Company
and how every dancer should study the principles of their training
philosophy.
At length Holly spoke up. “But we didn’t audition on pointe.”
Colin’s perfectly sculpted eyebrows arched into his hairline. “What?
That’s preposterous. No wonder the old choreographer was replaced.”
“He had a family emergency,” offered Lydia.
“And what is your name, love?” Colin asked with interest.
“Lettuce.”
Colin ran his eyes up and down over her body and strutted around her,
making a complete circle. I found it a little amusing that Lydia calling
herself Lettuce didn’t faze him one bit. Maybe he didn’t hear what she said?
He stopped in front of her, resting one hand on his hip and the other on his
chin.
“Hmmm,” he resounded. “You have a lovely long neck. Graceful arms.”
“Uh… Thank you?” she squeaked.
“I’m making you dance captain.”
Her mouth fell open. “But I’m not a ballerina.”
“You will be once I’m done with you,” he said as he strutted back to the
front of the room. “I want everyone to bring pointe shoes tomorrow. Today
we will make do with demi-pointe.”
More than a few groans and shared expressions of confusion followed. I
was sure the only one trained on pointe was Jane, and she wasn’t even in
this scene. I certainly didn’t own pointe shoes, and I was willing to bet
Lydia didn’t either. I was already calculating how many sprained ankles
there would be by the end of the week.
Colin shooed everyone back in place and pointed to Lydia to front the
line. He assumed fifth position and demonstrated his most elegant port de
bras. He counted and sashayed. Everything he said was in rhythm. “Ready?
And, one two three four five six seven eight. Everybody, follow Lettuce.”
(Apparently, he did hear her call herself Lettuce after all.) There were a few
snickers from some of the girls. He sped through, ignoring them. “Sashay,
sashay, and turn, turn, turn, relevé, don’t forget your port de bras. Again.”
And again and again and again. Poor Lydia was on the spot, and Colin
lavished her in equal measures of fury and praise. Any time we couldn’t get
a port de bras or jete perfectly, he’d scream, he’d cry, he’d use his scarf as a
whip and smack us with it until we got it right. However, when we were on
it, he’d fall to his knees and kiss the floor.
“If you had been wearing pointe shoes,” he said to Lydia, “I’d kiss your
feet. As it is, I will defer my raptures until tomorrow and content myself
with kissing the ground you walk on.”
This well-meant but slightly creepy compliment found Lydia, who
loved attention from any human of the male variety, embarrassed. She
shifted her wide eyes around the room and shrunk back into the folds of the
other girls like a shy schoolgirl.
I overheard her tell Holly later that day that she wouldn’t be purchasing
pointe shoes just to spite Colin and his overzealous foot fetish.
IT WAS mid-day when we finally broke for lunch. Most everyone went to
the juice bar down the street, but I had packed leftover mac-n-cheese that I
shoveled in my face in forty-five seconds flat. With time left to spare, I
wandered the scope of the theatre, inhaling its essence, letting the ghosts of
shows past seep into my skin. A theatre was a magical place, and there was
nowhere else I felt more at home than within the dome of its shelter. I loved
the smell, the texture, the sounds of the building itself even when it was
resting from the bustle of performers.
The stragglers that stayed behind for lunch remained in the green room
or the rehearsal studio, and since nobody was in the house, the theatre was
dark. I felt like a voyeur, running my hands along the velvet-backed seats as
I made my way down the aisle. How many patrons had sat in those seats
over the years? What stories they could tell of entertainments long ago
enjoyed, faded laughter and echoes of applause. Such history was etched
within the walls, along the proscenium and upon that stage. Such a beautiful
stage!
I glanced around the enormity of the theatre. Not a soul in sight, not on
the stage, not in the tech booth high above the balcony, not in the orchestra
pit. I was alone. Yet there was an awareness that tickled the back of my
neck as I stepped onto the stage as if I were passing some invisible border.
It wasn’t as though I was restricted to enter that magical realm—after all, I
would be performing in a few, short weeks. But somehow, it was as if the
stage were my lover, and I wasn’t to cross its virgin threshold until our
wedding night. There was only one thing to do. Only one thing in answer to
my fantastical little musings.
Tap dance.
If there were one thing musical theatre performers couldn’t resist when
presented with the broad, beautiful surface of a stage, it was tap dancing.
Flaps, shuffle off to Buffalo, pullbacks, time steps, you name it. We loved to
tap. It was an addiction, like dollar slots for grandmas or Starbucks for basic
white girls. I was always that annoying person, tapping down the aisles of
the supermarket, at the DMV, at the museum—anywhere that had a floor
that went click, click, click at my footfall. A stage? Well, that was tap
Disneyland. The surface was sooo satisfying—like protruding veins for
nurses or clickable plaque for dental hygienists. I had to get my fix.
I began with some flaps, just to get accustomed to the resistance my
Converse All Stars gave on the floor and made a mental note to bring my
tap shoes (along with pointe shoes) the next day.
I transitioned into the time step and before I knew it, my feet were
flying, doing paddles and syncopated digs. I was in tap heaven. Tappity tap,
tap.
And for my big finish, the Bombershay Broadway!
I supposed I liked this step because of the name. Also, I had a thing for
traveling steps. I could make an entrance or even a memorable exit doing
the Buffalo or Bombershay Broadway. Like at the convenience store after
getting my change. Just shuffle on out of there. Or at the bank. A spank step
and twist ball change and a see ya later!
The whole human race needed to learn to tap. It would achieve world
peace.
So I was doing my Bombershays, imagining myself in A Chorus Line or
Thoroughly Modern Millie, when the rubber soles of my Converse caught
on the floor, or my feet, or the laces. It happened in a millisecond, but I was
flying through the air, trying to flap my arms as if that would help, and
crashed onto the hard plane of man flesh. My first reaction as I fell was to
grab onto something to get my bearings. My hands instinctively reached out
and clutched onto the closest thing they could reach, and oh man, they were
rewarded with miles and miles of muscle attached to long, sinewy arms.
At the same moment, as I slid down to my utter humiliation, my face
found a place to burrow and stifle a scream. I found myself in the peculiar
position of staring straight into the midst of a dark, olive-skinned set of abs.
Also more muscles. A pair of strong, sure hands reached behind me and
before I could be completely devastated by a crash to the floor, they
scooped me up and held me close to their owner’s chest. It was indeed a
fine chest, but what was more fascinating was the set of perfectly white
teeth smiling down at me, attached to what could only be described as the
most perfect face imaginable. It was almost unfair how perfect it was, so
beautiful it might not have been real. His skin was a golden brown, a
natural tan made even more bronze by the effects of the sun as was evident
by the whips of blond invading his chestnut hair. A long, straight nose
dipped down, pointing to lips full and plump and rounded with a single
dimple on his left cheek. But what most arrested me in that moment were
his eyes. Lord in heaven, those eyes! I cannot guarantee a little drool wasn’t
dripping on my chin, but while the rest of this Latin demigod was carved
from Quetzalcoatl’s hot chocolate, those gorgeous eyes were blue-green,
like the ocean in Cozumel, and they looked at me like I was the last piece of
flan. I felt gooey and soft. I probably wouldn’t have protested if he were to
request a taste test.
“Do you often lose your balance, or just enjoy attacking the floor?”
The demigod speaks!
He set my feet gently on the floor and held me at arm’s length, his
hands still searing into the small of my back.
“Oh, uh.” My mouth might as well have been stuffed with cotton balls
because he rendered me speechless with his shirtless, golden torso and the
swagger of a caliente surfer dude.
At length, I managed to say, “I was doing a gravity check.” I tapped a
foot on the floor. “Yep. It works.” I was such a dork!
He smiled and generously chuckled at my dorkiness. His lips curled as
he said with a shrug, “Here I was hoping a beautiful woman was finally
falling for me.”
“Um…” I croaked. Was he flirting with me?
“I’m Jorge.”
Wow. He pronounced his name with a soft roll of the tongue. Also, he
was so gorgeous, my IQ dropped several points.
“Hor-hay,” I repeated. “Is that spelled with a… W-H, or just an H?”
“With a J.” He laughed. “That crazy Spanish language, always mixing
up consonants.”
“Right. I knew that,” I said with a nervous laugh. “How annoying.”
“That’s what I’ve always thought.”
“Is it short for something?”
“Spanish consonants?”
“Your name.”
“No… just Jorge.”
“Oh, yeah, of course. Duh.”
His eyes smoldered, surveying me from my toes, lingering on my hips
and teetering from my face to my chest in unveiled interest.
“I’m Beth,” I blurted. “That’s short for Elizabeth. Some people call me
Lizzie. Actually, only my parents call me Lizzie. So just Beth.”
He was silent, just looking at me with his head tilted to the side like he
was trying to figure me out. It made me a little uncomfortable, and when
I’m uncomfortable, I talk way too much.
“I thought I was alone. If I had known you were here, I would have
never… I mean, I didn’t mean to disturb your work. Do you work here?
What do you do? I’m an actress. I’m in the cast of Pirates, but we’re still
using the rehearsal studio. Are you building the set? It must be hard to erect
something like that. It’s really big!”
One brow shot up on his remarkable face, and he let go of me, stepping
back an inch. I immediately felt the cool air on my back where his hand had
been, oddly missing the contact. But then he enclosed his hand on mine and
nudged me softly toward the wings.
“It is really big,” he said with a wink. “Would you like to see it?”
I nodded furiously and followed him backstage, passing a forest of
trellis and scrim. I looked up to the fly system. It was so high, it made me
feel small. He took me past counterweights and pulleys, through the
crossover behind the scrim and into a large, cool room smelling of sawdust
and fresh paint. I loved that smell. It reminded me of building sets in high
school and college to fulfill my tech requirement.
Jorge led the way with his arms stretched out.
“And this is where the magic happens.”
He spun around to see how impressed I truly was, and it hit me. This
guy was smooth. Real smooth.
“Oh, I get it,” I said, shaking one finger. “You’re good, I gotta hand it to
you.”
“What?”
“I almost fell for it.”
“Fell for what?” he whimpered. “I don’t understand.”
“Come on. Look at you. No shirt. Low-fitting jeans. You appear out of
nowhere with your ripped abs and foxy simper and bring me to ‘where the
magic happens.’ Oh, pah-leez. That line must work on lots of girls.”
He looked at me, marveling my words for a long, still moment, and he
appeared so out of sorts, I suddenly regretted my verbal diarrhea. But then
he laughed, and I regretted opening my mouth at all because it sounded so
ridiculous once the words were out there, hanging between us.
“I’ve known you for like, ten minutes.” He laughed.
“I know. Sorry. I don’t know why I said that. I watch too many movies,
I guess.”
“I mean, if I were to have my way with you, I’d wait at least a half
hour.”
“Ha ha.”
“It’s one of my rules. No swimming after meals and wait a half hour
before seducing girls.
“Okay. Now you’re making fun of me. That’s fine. I deserve it.”
His laugh simmered into an amused sigh and his lips curved into a smile
that reached his sparkling eyes, provoking that dimple to make an
unguarded appearance. His eyes searched mine, and an electric charge
sparked and turned my innards into molten lava. I felt like one of those
chocolate cakes with the drippy center. Why did this guy make me feel like
food?
I didn’t notice how he closed the distance between us, but he was
suddenly close. I had known the man for less than fifteen minutes, but I felt
in that moment, as his presence shared the energy surrounding my body, I
wouldn’t protest if he didn’t wait a half hour before swimming. I was a rule
breaker like that.
His eyes traveled over my figure, and he sucked in a sharp breath as he
said, “Do you like my vessel?”
“You… your what?”
His eyes flashed with mirth, and he grinned ruefully as he repeated,
“My vessel.” He inched closer to me. “Do you think it’s large enough?”
“Whaa—”
For the second time in our short acquaintance, he closed his hand
around mine and guided me to follow him. This time, it was to the other
side of the scene shop where there were various projects in different degrees
of completion. He stopped in front of the unfinished structure of what
looked like the beginnings of a boat and gestured to it with an air of
accomplishment.
Oh! His vessel.
“Is this the pirate ship?”
He moved around it, stroking the wood with reverence.
“Not just any pirate ship,” he said, wagging his brows. “This boat is
automatic, it’s systematic, it’s hyyydromatic…”
“It’s greased lightning?”
“I’m trying to convince Stella it needs a fuel-injection cutoff and
chrome-plated rods.”
“You should totally do it,” I said with enthusiasm.
“You think?”
“Paint it cherry red and put some thirty-inch fins on the back. The
pirates could wear leather jackets.”
He laughed. It was a contagious one. “The girls could dress like the
Pink Ladies.”
I had a eureka moment. “We are brilliant,” I said. “We should do a
Pirates of Penzance/Grease crossover.”
“I’d actually pay to see that.”
I felt such a connection with this person I barely knew, but it was like
I’d known him all my life, like our meeting was destined.
“You see, it was serendipity, me bumping into you,” I said, making light
of the chaos going on inside my mind. “We could make a million dollars
with our brilliant ideas.”
“Just a million?”
“Or maybe we’d go bankrupt,” I teased.
He retrieved two wooden stools from an alcove overstuffed with props,
and giving me one, perched himself on the edge of the seat and leaned
forward, offering me his full attention.
“So, Beth, short for Elizabeth but hardly ever Lizzie, tell me something
about yourself.”
“Me? There’s nothing to tell. I’m boring.”
“You’re anything but boring. Why did you get into theatre?”
I could feel the flush of blood rush to my cheeks.
“For the money,” I said, dismissing his smoldering stare. I could never
receive a compliment well, usually deflecting the resulting bashfulness with
humor. “I entered into one of those Ponzi schemes,” I continued. “Turns out
I was duped.” I shrugged and made a meh face. “Too late to back out now.”
He sighed an easy and unaffected laugh, never releasing me with his
eyes. “So you’re a comedienne.”
“I get my share of comedy roles, yes.”
“Okay.”
He shifted in his seat, tallying his knowledge of me on his fingers. “I
now know you have a knack for comedy, you’re a snappy dresser…” He
gestured to my Doctor Who t-shirt. “and you’ve got the moves like Jagger.”
Holy Moley!
“You’ll never let me live that down.”
“But I still don’t know what makes you tick, Beth, short for Elizabeth,
sometimes Lizzie.”
His stare was penetrating, searching my soul. “Why theatre?”
His tone shifted to earnest sincerity. Was this guy for real?
“Okay,” I conceded. “If you really want to know… there’s no other art,
not even cinema, that can combine music, storytelling, dance, painting,
costumes, lighting…” I gestured to the pirate ship. “Set design… and all of
those things come together for three hours every night, and it’s a shared
experience as it happens on stage. It’s the most magical thing in the world.”
I crinkled my brow in thought, and his face softened, leveling into my orbit.
“The stage is not merely the meeting place of all the arts,” he said,
holding my eyes, “but is also the return of art to life.”
“Jorge, that’s… wow! That’s beautiful.”
“That’s Oscar Wilde.”
“I’m impressed.”
“Don’t be. I memorize prose just to woo the ladies.”
“Good one.”
We had come full circle, it seemed. He enjoyed teasing me far too
much.
“So…” He grinned. “Ripped abs and foxy simper?”
“Well, it’s a little distracting to tell you the truth,” I said, gesturing to his
bare chest.
“It gets hot in here,” he said apologetically. “Let me get my shirt. I’ll be
right back.”
He was gone before I had a chance to stop him. I would have to get
back to rehearsal soon. Checking my phone for the time, I had the notion to
arm myself with some ammunition of my own in the form of poignant
theatre quotes. I was determined not to blurt out the first idiotic thing that
came to mind. I’d be ready with brilliant verse and resplendent sonnets
upon his return.
“The internet does not a smart person make,” I whispered to myself as I
scrolled the memes.
The sound of footfall announced his entry through the passageway. I
hoped to high heaven that his shirt wasn’t a clingy, white t-shirt, because
that wouldn’t have been much better for my concentration than his bare
chest. Please be flannel, please be flannel.
“Here’s one for you, Shakespeare,” I bellowed, not daring to look
behind me. “Movies will make you famous, television will make you rich,
but theatre will make you good.”
The footsteps halted, and then there was long pause. My estimation was
that he was too overcome with my smarts to answer. But then a response
did come, but it wasn’t the Latin demigod I expected.
“Terrence Mann,” the voice said.
I shot up from the stool, almost knocking it to the floor, and flipped
around to see Will Darcy assessing my presence with intense scrutiny.
“What are you doing here?” I cried.
“I might ask you the same thing,” he said coolly, lifting a solitary
eyebrow.
It was a Mexican standoff. I felt like I was in a Sergio Leone Spaghetti
Western, where he was Clint Eastwood, and I was that other guy about to
get his head blown off.
For what seemed an hour, neither one of us spoke. The last time we had
exchanged words, they weren’t pretty.
At length, he declared, “I met him once.”
“Clint Eastwood?” Had I spoken that aloud?
“What? No. Terrence Mann.”
“Oh.”
“My father took me to see him perform in Beauty and the Beast. We
were invited backstage.”
“I like Beauty and the Beast,” I blurted stupidly.
He had the most terrified expression; his body was stiffer than it usually
was, and his eyes were so wide, they were fixed on me as if he were dealing
with a hostage situation, and I was the terrorist about to blow us all to
kingdom come.
“Yes,” he replied robotically. “That’s a good play.”
Don’t blow us up, his eyes spoke. Back away from the ledge.
I was suddenly very aware of a prickling in my toes. What was it about
this man that ate away at my nerves so much? He was a haughty hottie. So
what? There were plenty of those guys in Hollywood. They made me laugh.
But Will had a special sort of arrogance—the kind that cast a shadow over
everyone in his vicinity but was pointedly directed at me. The prickling in
my toes spread up my legs, and I no longer had confidence they would
support my weight. Traitors. I sat on the wooden stool before I could make
a fool of myself.
“It’s a tale as old as time,” I agreed.
“Right.” He exhaled and shook his head vigorously.
“I just came for these.”
He frowned, and grabbing two prop swords, made a beeline towards the
exit. But upon the appearance of Jorge, still shirtless I might add, he
stopped abruptly and glowered at him.
I’d seen enough nature shows to recognize when a tiger confronts a lion.
I could have sworn I saw Will bear a sharp set of fangs. Jorge, lingering in
the shop entrance, took one glance at Will and turned an ashen pale. I
marveled at the sight—he was like a stone carving from Tenochtitlan—
majestic, protective, fiercely angry. Darcy stood his own, though. Strong
and proud.
The coincidence of the prop swords in Will’s hands wasn’t lost on my
overactive imagination. Jorge’s eyes flickered to them for just a moment
and returned to hold Will’s stare lest he be tempted to use them. (They were
dull anyway.) But with the release of a long-held breath, he turned his focus
to me and slowly inched out of Will’s vicinity. There was a heady tension
that even words couldn’t cut through, and I found myself enthralled by the
curiosity it ignited. There was history there, and I could only imagine it was
a juicy one. Rival suitors for the same woman perhaps? Beer pong
adversaries? Or gasp… maybe Will was a Yankees fan. I had to know.
Will narrowed his eyes as Jorge crossed the room to me, watching him
balance an arm over my shoulders with a claiming simper. The dissonance
was deafening. With a scowl that went on for days, he heaved in contempt
and swiftly quit the room.
“What was that all about?” I asked as Jorge took a step away from me.
For a long moment, he watched the space Will left vacant, waiting for a
ghost to reappear. He was quiet, preoccupied by the erstwhile encounter.
His beautiful brow wrinkled in review of it, and I noted his fists clenched at
his sides. It was inspiring—the sensation of solidarity I acknowledged with
a person I barely knew. But a heavy awareness aroused me. (Or maybe it
was just because he was still without a shirt.) In any case, something had
gotten him all worked up, which oddly made him appear even more
attractive.
“Why so silent, good monsieur?” I asked, attempting to bring him back
to Earth.
When he turned around to face me, all trace of malice was gone from
his features. He wore a cheery smile (and that irresistible dimple) and
posed, “Do you like pubs?”
“Is that a rhetorical question?”
He exhaled an easy laugh, drawing near enough to touch me. “There’s a
gastro pub that serves the best onion ring tower in the universe. Come out
with me tonight.”
I blinked at this intriguing man standing before me, a man I had known
for less time than it took to order lunch at Jerry’s Deli, and he was inviting
me out for onion rings.
Onion rings!
My eyes ran over his body, clad in well-used Levi’s, tattered Vans, and
nothing more. Then I gazed upon his perfect face and blurted like a dope,
“Where’s your shirt?”
8
Beth
JORGE WAS WAITING FOR US, with a shirt on, already on his second
beer. To my surprise, our director Cole sat at the table. Sitting very cozily
next to him was Lydia’s new friend Holly. With the way she was giggling at
Lydia’s jokes the other day, I wouldn’t have matched her with someone like
Cole. It didn’t seem to faze Lydia at all, however, and she greeted Cole and
Holly in a cheery and familiar fashion. Then she took one appraisal at Jorge
and offered him the back of her hand. “Well, hello there. I’m Lettuce.”
Jorge took her hand and kissed it. “Yes, I know. Your reputation
precedes you.”
She giggled coyly, and I resisted an urge to gag myself with my index
finger. Jorge then winked and said, “Buttercup was telling me all about
you.”
“Buttercup?” I questioned although I knew what the answer would be.
Lydia shrugged out of her pea coat, revealing a terribly skimpy
spaghetti-strap dress.
“Don’t be silly, Edith,” she said to me. “Buttercup is our sister.”
Right—her zany method acting, if you could call it that. So Holly was
now Buttercup, and I wondered, by the way she was nuzzled close to Cole,
if he was her Wesley.
I’d never been inside Phillip’s Gastro Pub before. The location was a
former Blockbuster Video and had been vacant for some time before some
developers tore the building down to the foundation. I remember watching
the progress each time I passed that way, and once it was finally finished, I
figured it was far too hipster for me and my pocketbook. One look at the
trendy hemp menu and my suspicions were confirmed. A hamburger with a
side of slaw was twenty-eight dollars, and that was the cheapest entree they
had. My reaction must have played plainly on my features because Cole
leaned across the table and placed his warm, heavy hand on mine.
“It’s my treat tonight.”
“Oh no, I couldn’t accept—”
“Just order something,” Jorge interjected. “You’ll make all the rest of us
look like jerks if you don’t.”
I looked around the table to find the nodding faces of Lydia and Holly
in agreement with Jorge.
“You can repay me with a song,” Cole bade to me. “It’s karaoke night.”
Great! Karaoke. I considered myself an open-minded person, but there
were a select few things I disliked on this great earth of ours: war, poverty,
global warming, Will Darcy, and karaoke.
This evening was turning out to be far from what I expected. I wasn’t
prepared to make a fool out of myself by singing I Got You Babe in front of
my director, much less the humiliation of conceding to the offer of a free
dinner. To compound the whole armpit of a night, Lydia took the seat
closest to Jorge, placing me far from his side. Even though we had hit it off
earlier, I didn’t have a claim on him, nor was I sure I wanted to just yet, but
for the hours that led up to meeting up with him, all I wanted was to do was
ask about his acquaintance with Will. There was a juicy story in there
somewhere, and I was too curious for my own good. As it stood, we were in
a bar too noisy for conversation, a night of drunk karaoke revelry was on
the horizon, and our party was getting bigger by the minute by the addition
of the lip-syncing pirate.
“Sorry I’m late.”
Denny took the empty chair between me and Cole, rounding out our
party of six. Presently, Denny the lip-syncing pirate, with whom I’d never
spoken two words in succession, gave me an artless grin and claimed my
water for himself.
“You’re not drinking this, are you?” he asked. “I’m parched.”
I just shook my head because, frankly, I’d never given it more of a
passing thought that he could have any word in his vocabulary other than
watermelon.
“You all know my nephew Denny, of course,” said Cole.
We all nodded and smiled, but Lydia twirled her hair and winked.
“Hi Danny.”
“It’s Denny. With an ‘e,’” he said nonplussed. “Like the restaurant.”
“Oh,” she purred, casting her eyeballs all over him in open assessment.
“Are you open all night?”
“Yes, as a matter of fact,” he said without a pause. “And I’ve got hot
cakes.”
“I like to call them flap jacks,” she cooed.
Jorge laughed lightly—that beautiful, unaffected laugh—and he caught
my stare. His eyes flickered over me with awareness, sharing a moment—
the sort of telepathic moment that suggests Let’s blow this taco stand. Or
maybe I was imagining things.
All I knew was that this conversation was getting weird and oddly
enough, making me hungry for pancakes. Denny’s (the restaurant, not the
pirate) would have been much cheaper, less hipster, and best of all, have no
karaoke.
I had to admit, however, as the evening progressed and after a few
margaritas, we all relaxed into comfortable intimacy like good friends. Cole
surprised me the most with his easy humor. I suppose I never thought of
him more than the stern director he wore as a facade at the theatre. He wore
many hats as any professional would. It was a pleasant discovery on my
part. It was also alarmingly plain there was a lot more going on between
him and Holly than innocent flirting. I found myself watching them every
so often through the night—the touches, the stolen whispers. What was the
age difference between them? It had to be close to thirty years. And yet they
were so beautifully matched and so incandescently in love, it hardly
mattered.
Lydia, never one to turn down a free drink, made good use of Cole’s
generosity. He’d left an open tab for our table, ordering pitcher after pitcher
of margaritas. And Phillip’s Gastro Pub, being overly trendy and hipster,
had delicious and expensive artisan-crafted margaritas. We were all a little
buzzed and so cozily paired, we danced all night. And when a patron on the
karaoke mic would sing painfully off key, we’d cheer them on with raucous
encouragement. To Cole’s amusement, and my astonishment, Denny and
Lydia sang Don’t Go Breaking My Heart as a duet. Denny actually had a
great voice as he channeled his inner Elton John. No lip-syncing at all. It
was so contagious, I dragged Jorge on stage to join as back-up singers. He
was reluctant at first, and I found the timid reaction an endearing, awkward
garment he clearly didn’t frequently wear.
“I’m a backstage guy,” he said later on. “I’ll leave the performing to
you.”
“You did great.” I laughed. “With the exception of all the ho-ho-hos.”
“It’s not ho-ho?”
“No, Santa Claus, it’s ooo-ooo.”
The corners of his lips curled and leaned into me, brushing his stubble
against my ear. “I’m really good at coming down chimneys.”
His breath was hot on the delicate skin of my collarbone, and he wore
the lingering scent of tequila like a fine cologne. It suited him very well. All
at once, I didn’t care about any of those other things I was preoccupied
with. Not Cole and Holly, not Lydia’s homelessness, not that Darcy guy. In
a haze of onion rings and tequila, I wondered why any of those things
mattered at all. I was having fun.
The small escape from my cares was too short lived, and I crashed into
sober awareness with the abrupt appearance of Denny. He flew to me with a
whoosh so swift, he didn’t pause or halt his steps as he pulled me by the
arm towards the back of the restaurant.
“Lydia threw up all over the stage,” he said with a determined gait. “I
was able to get her to the restroom, but you’d better check on her.”
Wonderful!
“Where’s Holly?” I questioned.
He chuckled. “Are you kidding? She left with my uncle about an hour
ago.”
“Oh.”
I was in Latin dreamland longer than I’d realized.
“He left me his credit card,” said Denny. “He’s gonna be livid when he
gets the cleaning bill.”
I found Lydia in the first stall, huddled over the toilet. She was a shade
of pale puce and strands of her hair were plastered against her face. One of
her spaghetti straps hung low on her shoulder, causing her dress to sag low
on her tiny boobs.
“You okay, hon?” I asked, stroking the hair from her neck.
“You’re holding my hair as I hurl into the toilet,” she managed to say
with some humor.
“That’s what friends do.” I smiled.
She looked like she was going to say something else endearingly sappy
but gagged again and let more party evidence spill into the toilet.
“How much did you have to drink?” I asked but thought better of it a
moment later. “Never mind.”
It didn’t matter at this point. I needed to get her home—hopefully
without damage to the interior of my Volvo. I stayed with her until I
deemed it safe to move her. Jorge and Denny met us at the door, carrying
both our purses. I would have made a cheeky joke had I not been
determined to get Lydia the Eddie Flagrante out of there.
Denny was a little more anxious than I was. “Let’s go before there’s
more damage,” he cried. “The busboy is giving us the stink eye.”
“I don’t blame him,” I said with sympathy. I’d never had to deal with
drunk customers at the lodge, but I’d cleaned my share of messes. Mostly
idiots playing with the ketchup or Tabasco. It gave me an unhealthy
aversion to condiments.
Jorge gathered Lydia in his arms and carried her out of the pub. We
made it to my car without incident, and he gently lowered her into the
backseat. “I better ride with you,” he said. “To make sure she’s okay.”
“I can handle it, really,” I protested.
“Are you going to carry her into the house?” he argued. “Besides, I’m a
little too tipsy to drive.”
He climbed into the seat beside Lydia without another word and cradled
her head on his lap.
“I feel like a dip-head,” said Denny. “I didn’t even realize she had that
much to drink.”
“Don’t worry about it.”
I would have hugged him, but I suspected traces of Lydia’s vomit got on
my clothing. “Are you okay to drive?”
“I am now,” he blurted. “Nothing like a little drama to kill the buzz.”
We parted with a nod and an awareness of the new friendship an
experience like that produced. I drove home with these thoughts in the
forefront of my mind. New friends already forming a tender attachment to
my heart just because we spent an evening laughing over margaritas and
bad karaoke. I wondered if Jane was having as much fun with her new
acquaintances. I imagined her meeting Bing at a bar, maybe one of those
posh martini bars. And wouldn’t it be a riot to be joined by Will and
Caroline.
Gag me.
I wished her well, but as long as Bing relied on such meddling friends,
she’d always be under their scrutiny. There was no sign of her when we
arrived at the apartment.
Jorge helped me get Lydia situated on the couch. She was totally passed
out, but I put a barf bucket next to her just in case. I wasn’t interested in
losing my security deposit. Before I even noticed what he was doing, Jorge
had disrobed down to his boxers. I almost leapt into the barf bucket.
“It’s not a good party unless you’re covered in vomit.” He shrugged,
holding his soiled clothes. “Do you mind if I wash these in your bathtub?”
“Oh! Of course.”
I looked down at my own clothing and noticed patches of caked-on
residue. “I’ll get you some detergent. And a robe.”
The evening had played out just a little differently in my imagination
when I was preparing to go out. Jorge was in my living room, exposing
more skin than should be legal, but my fantasies never included a barf fest.
I consoled myself with a quick shower and fresh pajamas while Jorge
washed his clothes in the guest bathroom, and when he met me in the
kitchen with the Hello Kitty robe I lent him, I had a pot of boiling water on
the stove.
“You look dashing as ever,” I teased.
“It suits me,” he said, modeling the robe. “I think I’ll keep it.”
“Sorry, the laundry room is locked at this hour,” I apologized. “Tea or
hot cocoa?”
“Cocoa, if you have milk. My mom used to make it with milk.”
Used to. That didn’t escape my notice, but I didn’t want to ask after the
night we’d had. Instead, I continued to tease him, offering him my fluffy
slippers to match the robe and suggesting we give each other manicures
while watching chick flicks. We joked over cocoa and laughed louder than
we ought to with a sleeping reprobate just a few feet away on my couch.
She was so barbecue, she never stirred an inch. After some time, he thanked
me for a lovely evening and prepared to gather his clothes to leave.
“But they’re still soaking wet,” I protested. “Are you going out like
that?”
He shrugged. “This is L.A. I’m sure the Uber driver has seen weirder
stuff than a guy in a Hello Kitty robe.”
“What if I don’t let you take the robe?”
He shrugged it off his shoulders and held it out to me in one fluid
motion. “Like I said, this is L.A.”
He was a sight to behold—pure, chiseled man flesh, the defined features
and golden brown of his skin more pronounced in the low light of my
apartment. I swallowed hard and squeezed my eyelids tight. “Put that back
on before I—”
I choked on my words, not entirely sure what I planned to say.
“Before you what?”
Gah! I lost all sense of sentence structure around this guy!
“Just put it on and stay.” I sighed. “You can’t go out like that. Just crash
here.”
My eyes were still shut. I heard him chuckle under his breath as the
swoosh of the cloth brushed against his body, and I rendered it safe to open
my eyes again.
“You are something else, Beth short for Elizabeth and sometimes
Lizzie.”
He drew near to me, invading my space. Even with a silly bathrobe
barely covering his tall frame, he was still way too gorgeous. I began to
regret this whole evening. The temperature in my apartment was always a
slight chill in November, but the heat from his presence was downright
tropical. He locked his eyes with mine as his arm wrapped behind me,
barely grazing my side, and I heard a screech.
“Shall we sit and talk then?”
The screech was a chair he pulled out behind me at the breakfast nook.
What a ridiculous tweenager I’d become. My innards crumpled into a heap
of nerves whenever he was near. Get it together, Beth. I reminded myself he
was a player. He had to be. The question was, did I care?
“Some people call me Eliza,” I blurted. “But I don’t like it. Too much
like Eliza Doolittle.”
He smiled at my admission. “Okay, Beth short for Elizabeth sometimes
Lizzie but never Eliza. Got it.”
An awkward silence fell over the room as if after a full day of easy
banter, we’d finally run out of words to say to one another. I went over the
inventory in my head. Yep. Tank was empty. But what I really wanted to
talk about, what I was burning to know, was something I didn’t feel the
confidence to ask. The showdown in the scene shop earlier in the day
seemed like so long ago, but the feelings it stirred were still fresh on my
mind. It turned out the same thoughts weighed on Jorge’s mind as well, and
his countenance shifted to somber reflection.
“I want to apologize about this afternoon,” he began. I didn’t interrupt
him. I let him speak without reservations lest he change his mind. “You
probably noticed the… less than cordial greeting I exchanged with a certain
person today.”
I nodded, understanding he was referring to Will, but waiting for an
explanation I was anxious to learn. What could be the story between these
men who were polar opposites of one another? How could their paths have
crossed in life to have triggered such a response? The eager features on my
face gave him the encouragement he needed to continue.
“Let’s just say he and I don’t exactly get along very well.”
That was it? No, no. He opened Pandora's box and now, he would show
me all the ugly contents inside. I didn’t want to pry too hard. Best to keep
the questions neutral. Respectful.
“How do you know each other?” I asked as innocently as possible.
Perhaps I didn’t do innocent very well because he ran his fingers
through his hair and apologized, “I’m sorry. If you two are friends, I don’t
mean to—”
“NO,” I blurted a little too loudly. “We’re certainly not friends. I had the
unique displeasure of being locked in the costume shop with him all night. I
could definitely understand your visceral reaction to him today.”
He relaxed into a relieved smile, and I could almost hear the wheels
turning in his head. He was no doubt thinking what I was thinking. There
was an agreement between us. Something unspoken but heady in the air. We
were very much alike right down to the people we couldn’t stand together.
It’s the little things.
Inspired by the confidence he sensed in me, he proceeded to tell me the
story—the long story—of his childhood and how he came to be a close
member of the Darcy household. To truncate his lengthy explanation, to
which I was entirely enthralled but kept us up until almost four in the
morning, Jorge lived the first eight years of his life without a clue about his
real father. Why his mother kept it from him, I didn’t know. I got the
impression she was nervous about getting deported back to Costa Rica and
never revealed to her erstwhile lover he had a son. When she fell ill and
could no longer care for Jorge, she confessed the truth to a very shocked
and overwhelmed Greg Wickham, who was (you guessed it) Martin Darcy’s
publicist. The relationship between Greg and Martin was so close to
brotherly, Martin himself accepted Jorge as a nephew once the truth was
made known. The passing of his mother brought Jorge into a new lifestyle,
spending long hours at the Darcy house while his father worked or played
golf with Martin. It was a culture shock and complete contrast to his
humble beginnings.
Jorge then explained the distance of only a few years between himself
and Will, and that they would often play together. But he described Will as
a spoiled child and a poor playfellow most of the time and then went on to
relate memories of some rather unpleasant pranks Will would play on him,
all in the name of some ‘good ‘ol fun.’ He was quite the little brat.
The untimely death of Greg Wickham brought Jorge once again to a
crossroads in his unlucky life, and he was taken in by Martin, a single father
himself by that time, in the hopes to give Jorge a family. Although Jorge
didn’t find much of a brother in Will, he became like a mentor to Will’s
young sister Georgia. She’d follow him everywhere. He was like a hero to
her.
“She’s at Juilliard now, right?” I interjected, remembering the
conversation Will had with Caroline.
“Yes, she is. She’s a truly gifted musician. They don’t let you in that
school if you’re not. But it’s gone to her head. She used to be such a sweet
girl. Now she’s almost as bad as her brother. I don’t know where they get
that entitled attitude from. Martin was such a humble man.”
I was sorry to hear that but not at all surprised. Will and his sister were
born into privilege. They’d never know the struggles of people like Jorge—
or me for that matter. We were worlds apart, and more often than not,
people like that became conceited.
Unfortunately for Jorge, his suffering was only beginning. His studies at
UCLA had opened all sorts of doors for him in film production and he was
on course to a successful career. But his world came crashing to a halt when
Martin Darcy died suddenly.
Jorge’s eyes welled up with tears as the memory flooded into view.
“He was like a father to me,” he said woefully.
Cue the tug on my heartstrings. Imagine the loss this man had to endure
—first his mother, then his father, then his foster father and friend—it was
overwhelmingly painful to hear. But that wasn’t the worst of it.
When Martin’s will was read, Jorge was left with a considerable sum as
well as some sentimental personal items. He didn’t expect anything at all
and only wanted a book of poems Martin would sometimes read to him. It
was a special item and held a lot of happy memories. But once the dust
settled from the funeral and following weeks, Will cut Jorge off completely
from the estate. He had found some kind of legal loophole to shut him out.
This in itself didn’t bother Jorge half as much as what he did next.
“When I came to claim the book.” Jorge winced at the painful memory,
“he flat out refused to give it to me.”
“Why not give you the book?” I asked incredulously.
“I don’t know,” he answered. “At first, he said he couldn’t find it, but
then after some prodding and looking around on my part, he finally
admitted he had no intention of letting me have it. What would he want
with a book of poetry? That was a little petty, don’t you think?”
“More than a little,” I agreed.
If I were a cussing person, I might have chosen a few choice words a
little stronger in context than ‘petty.’ But there was even more to the story
to add a gruesome cherry to an already distasteful pudding. Just as Jorge
was making connections, close to advancing in his career, Will flexed his
celebrity muscle and had Jorge blackballed from every studio worthy of
working for. Nobody would hire him. All his hard work and Martin Darcy’s
wishes wiped away with one sweep of Will’s callous influence.
I could hardly believe my ears, but Jorge was the sincerest I had ever
seen in a human being. There was deep misery in his features. It was a
fascinating vision to see such a different man than the one who’d been
flirting with me all day. He was a broken, tortured man, afflicted with a life
of disappointment after bitter disappointment, and here he was in my
kitchen, telling me his heart-wrenching story, wearing nothing but boxers
and my Hello Kitty bathrobe. I was moved beyond words.
“What a Delilah,” I said. “Why would he do such a thing?”
It didn’t make much sense to me. Then again, the rich and famous were
an entirely different breed of human.
“I hate to say it,” he admitted, “but the truth is, Will was jealous of my
relationship with his father. I was closer in temperament with Martin, and
he loved me like his own son. That made Will blind with jealousy.”
He sighed and dug into a package of saltines on the table. “So here I am,
getting odd jobs in stage craft, trying to keep afloat.” He took a
disappointing bite out of a cracker. “I didn’t expect I’d see William at the
theatre of all places.”
I noted his use of the long form of Will’s name. Even after what he went
through at that man’s hands, he still showed that small gesture of respect. I
wondered if it was an ode to the great loss he felt, a wasted opportunity for
a brother he never had and now never would.
“What about other family?” I asked. “Do you have uncles or cousins?”
“I never met any of my father’s family. He never spoke of them. And
my mother was the only one in her family to immigrate to the United States.
All my relations on her side live in Costa Rica. I have no contact with
them.”
That was probably the saddest thing I’d ever heard. My own mother was
a pain in the Coco, but at least I had a mom.
“So,” he said with finality. “Do you have a secret sofa hidden away
somewhere, or do I sleep on the floor?”
I wasn’t sure if his question was laced with innuendo or if he was just
sleepy. I hadn’t considered the sleeping arrangements when I made the
offer. Now with Lydia on the couch and Jorge in my kitchen, there were
more people than my little two-bedroom apartment could accommodate.
“You know what?” I said at length. “Take my room.”
His eyebrows shot up. “That was easy.”
I smacked him in the leg. This guy!
“Alone!” I chided. “I’ll sleep with Jane.”
Truth be told, I didn't expect she’d come home at all at this point, but I
didn’t want to offer Jorge her room just in case she did.
“Mine’s the master bedroom, so you can have the bathroom in there all
to yourself.”
He wagged his brows provocatively. “I don’t mind sharing. I’m a giver
like that.”
I could sense a rush of heat flood my cheeks. “You’ve got a one-track
mind, don’t you, Mr. Wickham?”
He flashed his ever-so-white teeth, and a twinkle overcame the whole of
his expression. “Maybe,” he replied. “But right now, I’m just slap happy. I
mean tired. Right now, I’m just tired.”
“I’m sure that must be it.”
“And maybe a little bit slap happy.”
“How ‘bout I slap the happy right out of you?”
“I would like that very much, Beth short for Elizabeth—”
“Yeah. I got it,” I interrupted. “Go to sleep.”
He reluctantly obeyed with a pout to his lips but not before several
attempts to convince me to join him. At last, I was rid of him behind my
bedroom door, and hoping he wasn’t going through my drawers in search of
incriminating baubles, I stole into Jane’s room. I was so worn out by the
day’s events, I was almost inclined to take the bed without pulling back the
covers. But I knew once the fever from the effect Jorge had on me wore off,
I’d be too cold to sleep yet too tired to burrow under the covers. And as I
felt my way around the bed in the dark, to my surprise, I found the form of
Jane fast asleep and occupying the entire bed diagonally. She’d been home
the whole time? At that moment, I wished I did have a secret futon hidden
away, but I was so exhausted and my head so full of the words from Jorge’s
story, I yanked an extra pillow from Jane’s bed and fell into a hard, fast
sleep on the floor.
I woke in the morning to the shrill echo of screams. They were far away
at first in the hazy cloud of a half-dream state, but as I shed the weight of
sleep, I shot up to find myself alone and wondering if I’d overslept.
Strangely, the first thought in my head was pointe shoes I never attempted
to buy. Didn’t they have to be custom fitted or something? The second
thought in my head was that the scream wasn’t Jane’s, but another woman
whose wailings I unfortunately recognized. My mother. I shot up, finding
that at some point, Jane had covered my body with her comforter. Always
thoughtful, that one.
As I rushed out of the room and into the hallway, I noticed three things:
When my mother saw me, she scurried down the hallway and cried,
“Lizzie. Oh, Lizzie. There’s a naked man in your shower!”
It took all my efforts and Jane’s gentle urging to get my mother to calm
down. The half-naked presence of Jorge didn’t help matters. He stroked her
back, offering her water—all while she flailed about, waving her arms in
the air and gasping for breath. No wonder he thought she was having an
apoplexy. Between each labored breath, she would cry about having a heart
attack.
“I’ll be remembered for dying on this hideous beige carpet,” she
bellowed. “Just like Elvis.”
Jorge valiantly swooped her into his arms and carried her to the couch.
There she was, shocked dumb against the bare chest of the Latin demigod,
much like I had been yesterday. Did this guy make a habit of scooping up
women upon first acquaintance?
“Elvis died in the bathroom, Mom,” I said as Jorge placed her down.
“And you’ll be fine.”
“Fine? Fine says you. You who don’t even acknowledge your poor
mother.”
“Take a deep breath, Mrs. Bennet,” Jane said as she demonstrated,
channeling her inner yoga guru. Surprisingly, Mom followed her example.
Was Jane some kind of mom whisperer?
“Lizzie…” Mom said after a few calming breaths, “Why was there a
naked man in your shower?”
“That’s actually a funny story.” Jorge laughed, his wet thighs just inches
from her vision. Her eyes went wide, sweeping over him in open
assessment. She turned her head ever so slowly to me like a possessed doll
in a horror movie.
“And why,” she said with a strained calm, “is he still HERE?!”
I motioned for Jorge to leave the living room. He wore a surprised
expression, clearly clueless to the reason he had to go, and with a shrug,
padded down the hall, stopping to retrieve his clothes from the guest
bathroom before closing himself in my room.
I then proceeded to explain all the events that led to his current state of
undress—the gastro pub, Lydia’s vomit, and the chivalry of Jorge’s
assistance to get us home safe. In my new G-rated version, Lydia had fallen
ill with food poisoning, not for drinking her weight in tequila. I concluded
with the assurance to my helicopter mom that it was all very innocent, and
I’d roomed with Jane for the night. She looked to Jane for confirmation, my
own mother giving more of her faith in my friend than me. Jane nodded in
grave agreement but betrayed me in saying, “Mrs. Bennet, I was just as
surprised as you were. But yes, Beth slept on the floor of my room.”
“On the floor?” cried Mom. “On the dirty carpet?”
“The carpet’s not dirty, Mom,” I tried to explain. “It’s just a little
stained.”
She narrowed her eyes at me, surely judging my housekeeping skills,
and then, as if Lydia had suddenly appeared out of nowhere, looked to her
and said, “Who are you?”
“That’s Lydia, Mom.” I sighed. “My friend who got sick, remember?”
Lydia waved cheerily. “Vomit girl.”
A light went off in mom’s head and she nodded. “Oh yes. Nice to meet
you, you poor thing. Have you tried apple cider vinegar?”
Mom and her internet remedies. She had new diet and health ideas
every week—all contradictory to one another.
“We’ll be late for rehearsal if we don’t get going soon.” I sighed. “I’ll
call you and Dad on the weekend.”
She sat upright and patted on the sofa for me to join her. I obeyed but
didn’t allow myself to sit comfortably lest she never leave. Jane and Lydia
took this as a cue to get dressed for the day and left the room.
“I’m worried about you,” she said like a woeful Jewish mother. “You
haven’t had a boyfriend since college.”
“That’s not true,” I protested. “I’ve gone out.”
“But no one serious. What was that boy’s name? Jon?”
“Brett,” I said flatly.
“Yes,” she said with a vague expression. “He was a nice boy. Why don’t
you call him?”
“No, thanks. Besides, I don’t want a boyfriend.”
She glared at me for a few moments and deciding something that must
have just come to mind, said in a semi-serious tone, “Are you a lesbian?”
“NO! Mom. Seriously?”
She shrugged innocently and threw her hands up, waving them in front
of her. “Well, you’re always around those theatre types.”
“I can’t believe we’re having this conversation,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“Again!”
“Okay, okay,” she conceded. “Just promise me you’ll try to get a
boyfriend.”
I released a heavy, frustrated breath as I rose from the couch. “I have
two boyfriends, actually.”
She perked up immediately, poised for the news with an eager
expression. “Oh?”
“Yes,” I said as I crossed to the kitchen. “I have a serious relationship
with Ben and Jerry.”
She huffed and followed me across the small space that connected the
living room and kitchen.
“Please be serious,” she said. “Dad and I want you to come for dinner
this Sunday. Bring a date.”
“Can I bring Lydia?”
“Vomit girl? No. I’ve just had my floor waxed. Bring that naked man if
you like. Just bring someone. Preferably male.”
9
Beth
PART of me wanted to keep the dirt Jorge told me about Will to myself. He
had told me those things in confidence. Would he appreciate it if I blabbed
about it all over the theatre? When I pressed him about revealing Will’s true
character to Stella, he just shrugged humbly and said he couldn’t slander the
Darcy name for the sake of his foster father. He said it wasn’t his place to
expose Will—something about karma—and he’d get what he deserved. I
took this as an open-ended invitation to at least leak a little incriminating
evidence to my friends. I had to at least tell Charlotte, who was convinced I
was blinded by prejudice toward Will. I wanted to rub it in her face. For the
present, I had to content myself by confiding the secret to Jane and Lydia
during our carpool to rehearsal. We’d dropped off Jorge at Phillip’s to
retrieve his truck, and Lydia ogled at his retreating backside when I felt
compelled to drop a few hints about our heart-to-heart over hot chocolate
and saltines. I left out a few of the more intimate details, but by the time we
were halfway to the theatre, I had said enough to convince Lydia that Will
was a complete Molokov. (It was my Chess day) Jane was less inclined to
form such colorful judgements and turned over the information in her head
with a good measure of thought before exclaiming, “It doesn’t make sense.
There must be some other explanation.”
“What other explanation could there be?” I said. “Will was a jealous,
spoiled brat--and probably racist. The things he did to Jorge were plain
vindictive. He had no reason for it.”
“I’m sure there are two sides to the story,” she replied. “They were both
grieving the loss of Will’s father. It all could be a big misunderstanding.”
“Cutting him out of the will, keeping an otherwise worthless,
sentimental object from him and then spreading lies about him around
Hollywood hardly can be written off as a misunderstanding.”
“Sorry, but I agree with Edith,” chirped Lydia from the backseat.
“Everyone knows The Pirate King is a dirtbag. Nobody in the cast likes
him.”
Jane was still getting used to Lydia’s quirky habit of calling every cast
member by their character name. It took her a minute to realize Lydia was
referring to Will. I twisted in my seat to address Lydia behind me. “I
wonder why Gilbert and Sullivan never gave The Pirate King a name,” I
said diplomatically. “We should give him a name to simplify things. How
about… oh, I don’t know… Will Darcy?”
“If he is the evil villain Jorge paints him to be,” continued Jane, “why
would Bing think so highly of him? I know Bing. His friendship with Will
is genuine, and I don’t see how he could be so close with someone so
inherently rotten. He’s probably exaggerating.”
“Bing sees the world through rose-colored glasses, Jane,” I replied. “I
can more easily believe that Bing is too nice to see the truth, than that Jorge
is exaggerating. I could see the very painful memory in his eyes…”
“Blue, blue eyes!” interjected Lydia dreamily.
“…and he wasn’t exaggerating.”
There was a length of silence after I spoke, and Jane drove on,
concentrating on the road, but after a long pause, she sighed and said,
“Well, it’s hard to know what to think.”
“Excuse me,” I exclaimed, “but I know exactly what to think.”
But she was no longer listening, and I couldn’t help but wonder for the
remainder of the ride, whether she was just as deceived as Bing to Will
Darcy’s true colors.
ANOTHER DAY of choreography without the men was on the schedule, but
I didn’t feel confident we wouldn’t be ‘graced’ with another appearance of
Will. A small part of me secretly hoped to run into him like the day before,
and this time I’d be armed with a few carefully rehearsed words instead of
gushing over Beauty and the Beast like a nine-year-old girl. It wasn’t my
fault I was caught unaware. It also wasn’t my fault he was ninja trained to
make women swoon with his brooding glower. I was sure there was a
Hollywood Masterclass for that. Smoldering for the Camera 101 and A.P.
Bedroom Eyes. I was both relieved and dampened to find no trace of him
for the course of the day.
When I casually brought up the subject to Jorge, he grinned smugly and
said, “He’s the one who should be avoiding me. I have every right to be
here.” Of course I would never suggest Jorge not come to work, so I don’t
know where that came from. Perhaps he felt threatened by Will’s influence
over Stella. He certainly spent enough time in her office.
I concluded my visit to the scene shop with an invitation to my parents’
house for barbecue on Sunday. I quickly amended that it wasn’t a date or a
‘meet the parents’ kind of situation.
“My mom just wants to see what you look like with your clothes on,” I
joked. Casting my eyes over his shirtless torso, I added, “And so do I, for
that matter.” To ease him of any possible apprehension, I informed him I’d
invited a few other friends and that Sunday barbecues at my house were
totally casual.
“My dad marinates the tri-tip all weekend,” I said in an attempt to allure
him. “And my mom buys cheap prosecco.”
“How could I resist?” He grinned, brushing my chin with his thumb.
“And it’s not because of the free food.”
My toes curled at the contact. This was a guy who didn’t need to take a
Bedroom Eyes Masterclass. He was a natural, and I was afraid I’d be in big
trouble if I wasn’t careful. I had to protect the friend zone at all costs.
“Stop by the rehearsal studio later on,” I said as I walked away. “You’re
gonna love our new choreographer.”
He did come to watch our dance rehearsal in the afternoon, but he didn’t
stay for long. If he was looking for a laugh, Colin wasn’t one to disappoint.
I just wished Jorge could have stuck around a little longer to experience the
drama. But after only a few minutes, he bristled at something Colin said
(probably all his bragging about Rosings Institute of Dance) and abruptly
left.
It turned out I was the only one to bring pointe shoes. I begged Jane to
let me take hers, even though they were too big for me.
“I won’t even put them on,” I pleaded. “I just want to bring them with
me. Like show and tell.”
I didn’t know how to dance in point shoes per se, but that wasn’t even
on Colin’s radar. He was too busy throwing a fit about everybody else’s
unpreparedness.
“Never have I ever,” he spat, “in all my years at Rosings Institute of
Dance under the patronage of Catherine de Bourgh…” (he loved to name
drop and quite often) “have I seen such incompetence. Did I not instruct
you all to bring pointe shoes today?”
Holly timidly raised her hand as if she were in grade school. “None of
us are trained on point. We could get injured.”
He narrowed his eyes on her. I imagined if he were a Sith Lord, she’d be
dead by now. But he growled and with a flip of his chiffon scarf, stormed
out of the rehearsal studio.
“That’s why they call this the cry room,” chirped Lydia from behind my
shoulder.
“What?”
“The cry room,” she repeated. “There have been many a tear shed in
this room, from firing actors I suppose.”
“I’ve never heard that before.” I laughed. “You're making this up.”
She nodded her little head with energy, but Holly disputed her. “No, no,
Lettuce. They call this the cry room because someone actually died in here
and now, it’s haunted. Sometimes, late at night, a melancholy wailing can
be heard coming from this room, but when theatre staff come to investigate
it, the lights flicker, and the crying person cannot be found.”
She shuddered at the idea and crossed herself even though she wasn’t
Catholic.
“You two are being ridiculous,” I exclaimed. “No one’s getting fired,
and there are no ghosts.”
“Actually…” a girl spoke up, one of the altos I didn’t know very well.
“All theatres are haunted.” Her name, I believe, was Mariah, and I
sometimes would see her with Caroline—whenever Caroline wasn’t
hanging all over Will. Since there was no Will today, it was Caroline and
Mariah for the win.
Yay.
Lydia, who hated Caroline, didn’t seem to have a problem with Mariah
and nodded in agreement. “That’s actually true,” she said. “The Majestic on
Broadway is haunted. That’s a fact. And all the actors at Her Majesty’s
Theatre in London confirm the ghost that lives there will sometimes tap
someone on the shoulder.”
“A ghost that taps people on the shoulder?” I rolled my eyes. “Lydia—I
mean Lettuce—both those theatres house Phantom of the Opera. It’s a
publicity gimmick having an Opera Ghost in real life—or death, depending
on how you look at it.”
Holly, Lydia, and Mariah all grumbled at my disbelief and agreed
amongst themselves to ask Stella when they saw her next. Surely, Stella
would have heard the Wailing Ghost, as they now called it, and she’d settle
this dispute.
Colin’s return saved me from any more kooky stories. He was calmer
but still had unrest simmering beneath the surface. “We shall dance on
demi-point today,” he said through his teeth. “But I want to see those
relevés high.”
For the rest of the day, we were treated to more of his tantrums whereby
he would drill the choreography into us until we begged for mercy, pout if
we asked for a bathroom break, and waste an immeasurable amount of time
bragging about his accomplishments at Rosings or lecturing the
philosophies of the Fordyce Ballet Company. He spent a half hour straight
preaching on the virtues of a wide turnout. Then he showered all the girls
with compliments, admitting he’d taken the time to rehearse a few lines of
delicate flattery so we might feel encouraged to dance better. He batted his
eyes as he said this, and I noticed his lids were brushed with a hint of
dramatic gold eyeshadow. It seemed to me he was going for that stage
makeup look. I’d have to ask him for some advice on contouring when we
got closer to dress rehearsals.
“HAVE any celebrities worth talking about gone to eat at the lodge lately?”
Mom asked on Sunday. We were gathered on the deck in the backyard
where Dad had built an area for outdoor entertaining. It was normally used
in summer, but it was warm for a November afternoon, and the large
farmhouse table fit seven of us better than the dining room table would
have. I was able to convince Jane to invite Bing, and I was a little giddy at
the arrival of Jorge. I could hardly believe this gorgeous man was at my
parents’ doorstep, looking for me. He’d brought a bottle of Argentinian
Malbec from the Mendoza region. Dad loved it. I didn’t know why that
made me so proud. I didn’t make the wine. I didn’t even bring the wine. I
supposed I was responsible for inviting the man who’d brought the wine, so
I claimed a little pat on the back.
Presently, Mom made small talk, but I was sure she was fishing for
more information on Will Darcy. I’d told her a little about his arrogance,
how we clearly didn’t get along, and about our adventure in the costume
shop. I didn’t, however, tell her about Jorge’s relationship with him and the
Darcy family. She’d heard enough of my aversion to the man and decided
to be offended on my behalf. But with the presence of Bing at her house,
she dropped subtle hints, trying for any morsel of intelligence about Martin
Darcy, what the house must look like, or if there was anything Bing could
slip in his pocket for her that Martin might have touched. Bing was too
naive to understand her meaning. And so, she brought the subject around to
Lucas Lodge where she lived vicariously through my brush with the rich
and famous and their eating quirks. The truth was, I didn’t pay much
attention to celebrities, most of them producers or screenwriters who I
wouldn’t recognize just by their order of the Windsor Castle Club Sandwich
and a Perrier. But there was one celebrity I did recognize, and thankfully, he
didn’t sit in my section. Will came alone to the lodge on Saturday, and he
took a table in the far corner. It was a fair distance from my section, but
there were a few openings through the arches separating the two dining
halls where I had a clear view of where he sat. A couple of times, I caught
him glaring at me. What he was doing there, I couldn’t tell. It certainly
wasn’t for the fine cuisine. I could only surmise he was looking for some
fault in me, perhaps because he’d seen me with Jorge, and he wanted to ruin
me as he’d done to him. Maybe he hoped to get me fired. In any case, I
didn’t consider that worth talking about at my mother’s indelicate prompt,
and so I simply said, “No. Not really.”
It was more or less a pleasant afternoon. Dad made his famous tri-tip
and mashed potatoes, which everyone praised. I was sure Bing had a
generous second helping of everything, and Dad polished off the Malbec
almost single-handedly. We all laughed on the subject of Mom finding Jorge
naked in my shower, which I noted embarrassed my poor little sister Mary.
She was a senior in high school and as polar opposite of me as she could
possibly be. She was generally quiet and never caught without a book in her
possession, She didn’t have a large social circle and was usually clammy in
nature. She was a little shy of Jorge and Bing at first, but Jorge couldn’t
have been more polite and sweet with her, even bordering on charming. It
gave me the warm fuzzies when she opened up to Jorge, becoming more
chatty than usual, and a little pink faced. He was entirely attentive to her
and even spent twenty minutes discussing her favorite books.
At the mention of the shower story, however, Mary buried her nose at
once in the book she’d brought to the table. Even though books and devices
weren’t allowed.
“I must apologize,” Mom said to Jorge. We all thought she was referring
to barging in on his shower, but she’d changed the subject without warning.
“You must not be used to this kind of food. I should have insisted we serve
Mexican, but my husband wanted to make his all-American barbecue. Next
time you visit, we’ll have something from your culture.”
Words couldn’t describe the mortification I felt in that moment. I
wanted to throw a burlap bag over Mom’s head and pretend the racial faux
pas we’d just heard came from a sack of potatoes.
“He’s from Burbank, Mom,” I said. “I’m sure they have barbecue in
Burbank.” I turned my eyes to Jorge with as much I’m sorry for the
existence of my mother in my expression as I could communicate silently,
but he wasn’t fazed at all and was rather pleasant in his reply.
He gently placed his powerful hand on my forearm and chuckled, “It’s
okay.” He turned to Mom and responded, “Actually, I don’t have any
Mexican heritage. My mother’s family is from Costa Rica. It’s a common
misconception.”
“Every culture chars meat on the fire, Marie,” Dad growled with a
mouthful of steak. He was a man of few words, and those few words were
usually sarcastic.
I could almost hear the thoughts turning over in my mother’s head. She
was most likely wondering if there was any difference between Mexicans
and Costa Ricans. I wouldn’t be surprised if she thought Costa Rica was
actually Southern Mexico. For my part, I knew the geographical and even
perhaps the cultural differences, but I’d be ashamed to admit I had no clue
about the cuisine of Costa Rica. Lots of fish maybe? Thankfully for Bing
and his innocent inquisitiveness, he asked for me.
“What would you say is a traditional dish from Costa Rica? I’d love to
visit someday.”
“Black beans and fried plantains are the staple for almost any meal,”
Jorge shared whimsically. He had that glassy look to his eyes, traced with a
shade of sadness, as if he were remembering his mother’s cooking and heart
sick for his loss. “A traditional Costa Rican meal is called casado. It literally
means married. It’s usually a combination of meats or fish on a plate with
beans and rice and salad, plantains, bread—everything on one plate. My
mother made the best casado for me on my birthday and special occasions.
Even on Christmas and Easter.”
“Sounds absolutely delicious,” exclaimed Bing. “We were stuck with
very dry ham every year. No one had the heart to tell my grandmother how
bad it was.” He laughed at the memory. “Oh! And the deviled eggs!”
Jane expressed she loved deviled eggs to the room, but my sister said, “I
can’t eat deviled eggs. Too gassy.”
Jorge admitted, “I’ve never had them.”
“Well,” continued Bing, “You’re lucky you’ve never tried my mother’s
deviled eggs. She’d use the eggs from our Easter Egg hunt, but the food
coloring had seeped through to the flesh. It was epically unappetizing. My
sister—excuse me for saying this at the dinner table—but my sister once
lost her cookies when she was served Mom’s deviled eggs. It ruined the
whole dinner that year.”
His story made everyone laugh, and I watched him light up at the
attention. I’d never seen him so talkative, but somehow, the memory
brought out the natural performer in him.
“I can match your Easter story,” Jorge said in challenge. The attention
was once again reverted to him. “We’d never decorated eggs at my mother’s
house,” he began. “It’s not a custom in Costa Rica, so I didn’t grow up with
that tradition. I’d only ever hunted for plastic eggs at school or the
community center. So one year after I heard my friends talking about
decorating real eggs, I made the request to Mom. She kind of put me off at
first, clearly confused, but come Easter morning, she surprised me with a
dozen eggs she’d dyed after I went to bed. I was so excited, I could hardly
sit through church. Later that day, we went to a neighborhood party, and she
brought the eggs to contribute to what the other families brought. Anyway,
to make a long story—well, I can’t make it much shorter at this point—once
we’d found all the eggs, one of the girls—una gordita—went to crack open
the shell to eat it and got raw egg all over her fancy dress.”
Mom and Jane gasped at this, but the rest of us laughed.
“Like I said,” he continued as he laughed with us. “It’s not a tradition in
Costa Rica. My mother didn’t know to hard boil the eggs first. No wonder
she was so confused.”
“You have to be careful not to leave dairy products out,” said Mary.
“When in doubt, throw it out.”
“Thank you for those wise words, Mary,” Dad said. “How I’ve survived
all these years without them, I’ll never know.”
“It’s actually sound advice,” said Jane. “My family used to hide real
eggs until one Fourth of July, there was a terrible smell in my uncle’s
backyard. It was so incredibly bad, and nobody could figure out where the
smell came from until one of my cousins found a three-month-old Easter
egg in the bushes. I’m sure it was worse than your mom’s deviled eggs,
Bing.” She smiled, leaning into him with a spark in her eyes.
“My sister would have fainted for sure.” He laughed.
“What’s your sister’s name?” asked Mary.
“Rose,” he answered with a smile. “My parents’ favorite movie is White
Christmas. She was named after Rosemary Clooney, and I was named after
Bing Crosby. My middle name is actually Crosby.”
“Well, I think that’s adorable,” said Mom. “And speaking of holidays,
I’d like you to come for Thanksgiving dinner. You too, Jose.”
Jorge thanked her for the invitation but said he had other plans. Since he
didn’t have a family, I couldn’t imagine who he’d spend it with, but I didn’t
let the thought run too wild. Bing was also grateful to be included but
lamented some business in New York he had to attend to with Will. This
piqued my mother’s interest, and she asked all sorts of questions about his
friendship with Will and what was it like on the national tour where they
had met. I stole a glance at Jorge, but if the subject made him
uncomfortable, he was good at hiding it. I felt inclined to be offended for
him, but Bing didn’t linger on his relationship with Will for too long. He
mostly spoke about his job as a swing in Something Rotten (or Rotten on the
Road as he endearingly called it) and all the roles he had to learn and be
ready to perform at any time.
“My favorite track was Bard Boy,” he said brightly.
Jane gave him a sly wink. “Because of the leather pants or guy-liner?”
she quipped. She was truly a different person around him. I liked it.
I watched her as Bing spoke of his experiences. She was clearly
enamored with him beyond anything I’d seen. It gave me all the feels,
watching the two of them interact, and in that moment, everything was right
in the world. Jane had Bing, and I had a new man-candy friend. I actually
didn’t know what Jorge and I had going on. I told myself not everybody
could be crazy in love like Jane and Bing. Jorge was nice enough. Maybe it
could grow into something more. I wasn’t the type to get butterflies in my
stomach anyway.
My mother certainly didn’t miss an opportunity to voice her admiration
towards Jorge when he was out of earshot. She attacked me as soon as we
went into the kitchen for the key lime pie.
“Tell me all about Naked Man,” she stage-whispered. “Is he keeping his
hands to himself?”
“We’re just friends, Mom.”
“Well, don’t let him slip through your fingers,” she chided. “I had a
Latin lover like him once. Before I met your father.” She sighed, and I
wasn’t sure if there was a hint of regret in her words. I didn’t want to know.
“It was my third year of college,” she said dreamily. “I spent a summer
abroad in Zijuatenejo.”
“You need not say more, Mother.” I stacked the plates and dessert forks
to take outside, but she didn’t budge. She leaned on the kitchen counter, lost
in a memory.
“My friends and I would take the water taxi to Ixtapa Island almost
every day. He was the driver. One day, I scraped my leg on a sharp piece of
coral, and he came to my rescue. He was so beautiful standing over me with
the sun glistening off his back—so tan and sculpted.”
“I don’t want to hear about this.” I would have plugged my ears if I
thought it would help.
“We spent all our free time together after that,” she went on, ignoring
me. “He knew a little English, so our communication was limited, but who
needs words when there’s the language of love, am I right?” She wagged
her eyebrows, and I shook my head, trying to jostle the vision from my
brain.
“I really really don’t want to hear about this,” I pleaded. “Please, just
stop.”
She sobered immediately from the high of reminiscing, and her face fell
into a serious frown.
“Then one day, I found out he had a secret love child.”
She came to me and took me by the shoulders with a hard stare. “Make
sure Jose doesn’t have a secret love child before it gets too serious.”
She nodded once in finality and retrieved the pie from the refrigerator.
“It’s not going to get serious,” I said. “And his name is Jorge, not Jose.”
She waved her hand at me in dismissal. “Same thing. Jose is just the
diminutive of Jorge.”
“No, it’s really not.”
“Would you rather I continue to call him Naked Man?”
She gathered the pie and the serving utensils in her arms and flurried out
of the kitchen. I pondered her admonition with amused reflection. She was,
in her own quirky way, giving me the best motherly advice she knew how
to give—to learn from her mistakes. Lord knows she had made enough of
them and therefore, had lots of sage advice to give. I didn’t have any fears
about Jorge, though, because I wasn’t in the market for a man at this time of
my life. At least I did everything in my power to convince myself of that.
But when I walked him to his car, I seemed to forget what I did or didn’t
want.
“You sure you don’t want to stay and sit through three hours of baby
photos?” I joked. “Mom hasn’t finished scaring you off yet.”
He laughed, his face brightening with an expression of contentment. “I
actually like your mom. She can show me your baby photos the next time I
come to visit.”
The next time. There would be a next time. Was I reading too much into
his words? I smiled awkwardly and hugged my hands over my bare arms.
The weather was finally cooling down, and the ocean breeze washed a brisk
chill through the air. He was responsive to my actions as he always seemed
to be, and he gathered me in his arms, rubbing warmth into my back.
“You’re a tiny thing,” he whispered. “You’ll catch a cold.”
He released the embrace just enough to look me in the eyes. His face
was the most perfect thing I’d ever seen. I found myself examining each of
his features individually, amusing myself with the idea they couldn’t
possibly be real. He was the type of handsome that was so remarkable, it
made me feel extremely uncomfortable. He was a freshly frosted cake—no,
he was fondant, and I was cheese wiz. I pressed my lips together, suddenly
self-conscious of my teeth, what my breath must be like after Dad’s garlic
mashed potatoes. What would I do if he tried to kiss me? Was that even
what I wanted? I still didn’t have those butterflies.
He caressed his fingers over my chin, and I thought for a moment that
was what he wanted. The mashed potatoes couldn’t have been so bad. I did
have wine to mask the garlic, after all. But he didn’t draw any closer to me
in the electric moments as our eyes met. If anything, he inched just a little
bit further away. I felt like an idiot. What made me think a guy like Jorge
would be into me? I was cheese wiz.
“I have to go,” he said at length. “Can I call you?”
Whoa! Those were some serious mixed signals. Did he like me or not? I
decided I didn’t want him to like me at this point. I didn’t have time for
games, and so I shrugged and played aloof.
“Yeah, whatever,” I said. Yep. Totally not playing games.
He smiled and stepped closer to his car.
“Great.”
He slung his keys around his fingers. I could tell there was something
more he wanted to say. I wasn’t about to prompt him. He was way too
complicated. Maybe my mother was right. Maybe he had a secret love
child.
“Beth,” he began. There it was. Secret love child. Or he was gay. Or he
was artificial intelligence—like DATA from Star Trek, only cuter. I knew he
was too beautiful to be real. Whatever his confession, he had a hard time
verbalizing it. After a pause of several seconds, he sighed and said, “I didn’t
want to bring this up, especially after I’ve had such a nice time tonight.”
What? What could it be?
“It’s the garlic mashed potatoes, isn’t it?”
He chuckled and shook his head. “No. Those were awesome. It’s…”
“Yeah?”
“It’s Bing.”
“Bing?” Now, I was really confused. “What about Bing?”
“He’s a great guy, don’t get me wrong,” he replied quickly. “Just tell
your friend to be careful.”
“I don’t understand.”
“I know Will Darcy. He’ll do everything in his power to poison Bing’s
mind against Jane if he feels like it. And Bing is just enough of a follower to
believe him.” I crossed my arms over my chest and shook my head
furiously. I couldn’t imagine Bing would ever hurt Jane. Jorge noticed the
protest in my body language and quickly amended, “I’m sorry. Bing seems
to really like your friend. I hope I’m wrong.”
I didn’t know whether to be grateful or angry. Surely, Jorge had good
intentions, but with him in such proximity, Will Darcy was the furthest
thing from my mind. Clearly, the feeling wasn’t mutual.
“You think about him a lot, don’t you?” I said, more of a comment than
a question.
“How can I not?” he cried. “He has his claws in every corner of my life
—you, your friend, even Stella.”
His face was contorted into something a little less beautiful but still
magnificent, like the fury of a tropical storm or a raging sea.
“That new choreographer you have…”
“Colin?”
“He works for Rosings,” he spat. “Did you know that the founder of
Rosings is a shareholder of Darcy’s production company? Will is practically
engaged to her granddaughter. He’s everywhere. I can’t get away from his
influence.”
I was speechless for the duration of several tense moments. I didn’t
know what to say. There was certainly nothing I could do about it. With any
luck, Jorge would get through the run of Pirates, and Will would be back to
filming his stupid movies. Also—practically engaged? Why did that
suddenly bother me so much? I wondered if Caroline knew about that juicy
tidbit.
Jorge tossed his head from side to side and looked down at his shoes
with a sigh.
“I’m sorry,” he bade softly. “I just can’t lose this job.” After a lengthy
pause, he exhaled a profound breath he had been holding and plastered a
forced smile on his tragically gorgeous face. And running a paw through his
mane, he declared lightly, “Ah! You don’t want to hear about my financial
woes. I seem to always spill my heart out when I’m with you. What is it
about you, Beth short for Elizabeth sometimes Lizzie but never Eliza?”
I shrugged, feeling rather like a bartender in a bad movie. “Maybe I just
have that effect on people.”
He smiled tenderly and closed his hand over mine.
“You certainly have that effect on me.” He winked and placed a sweet
kiss over my knuckles. I felt my bones turn to butter before he withdrew the
warmth of his touch and slid into his truck. He closed the door between us
like an exclamation point on the distance he asserted in our friendship. His
faucet ran hot and cold—this was the cold side of him and in the end, that
was all it would ever be.
10
ANY SAVAGE CAN DANCE
Beth
Will
Beth
Beth
I FOUND Jane in the darkened living room just as Lydia described her—
slouched on the sofa, staring mindlessly at an over-acting Latina bombshell
with rivers of mascara trailing down her cheeks. Her hairy chested love
interest had his chiseled jaw set in a scowl so fierce he could cut steel with
it. He was lustily saying something that had her wailing in a pool of tears
and when her manicured hand flew to slap him, he caught her wrist and
pulled her in for a forceful kiss. She melted in his arms, and they fell to the
floor. Fade to black. Then a commercial for Tide filled the screen. That was
my cue to open the blinds and force Jane to return to the human race.
Preferably the English-speaking variety. But when I reached for the remote,
she clawed it close to her chest and hissed.
“Give me the remote, Jane,” I warned.
“Go away.”
“I live here.”
She pouted in silence.
“I paid for half of that TV.”
Oh yes. I went there.
She shifted on the couch, giving me more of her back.
“Okay,” I said, stomping towards our flat screen Visio. “You asked for
it.”
It was time for some tough love. I reached behind the TV, sifting
through the tangle of cables to where I could disconnect them randomly. I
didn’t know a thing about how to plug them back in, and neither did Jane. It
was a sabotage I was willing to make even though it meant I’d miss the next
few episodes of Outlander.
“No!” she cried in panic, almost flying off the couch. “Don’t do it.”
I turned slowly to her with my hand extended, bidding her to give me
the remote like in a hostage situation.
“Give me the remote.”
Her fingers were white around the little device, clinging onto it as a
lifeline. I’d never seen her so wild looking. Her face was so pale, it was
almost translucent, and there were bits of Cap'n Crunch in her disheveled
hair. Geez, whatever Bing did to her, he would pay big time—as soon as I
got the current situation under control. Lydia stood to the side of the couch
with her knees bent and her arms extended… ready for what? To catch Jane
in case she flew in her direction like a fly ball?
“Give me the remote, Jane,” I warned again. I felt like I was talking
Meg Giry down off the Coney Island Pier. (#spoilers)
Give me the hurt and the pain and the remote, Jane.
She shook her head in tiny protests, but I could tell her resolve was
crumbling. The commercials were almost over, and I had to act fast. With
careful steps, I inched closer to Jane, my palm outstretched in gentle
supplication. I was moments from my target when Lydia reached for the
spray bottle we used to mist the plants and squirted Jane in the ear,
momentarily distracting her. I grabbed the remote, and Jane dissolved into a
heap on the floor, bellowing like a tired toddler. I shut off the TV and flew
to her side, rubbing her back and pulling her sticky hair from her face.
Lydia joined us on the floor, and we group-hugged in a mess of wet tears,
sweaty pajamas, and sticky Cap'n Crunch hair for a full ten minutes.
At length, Jane allowed us to take her into the kitchen for a paper towel,
which she wiped her face and blew her nose with it as she sat at the table. I
gave her a minute before speaking, exchanging the dirty paper towels in her
hand for clean ones. Toilet paper would have been better, but the bathroom
was too far. I didn’t want to lose my patient.
“Are you ready to tell me what happened?” I asked.
“Did he cheat on you?” Lydia growled. Clearly, she was hungry for
blood. But Jane shook her beautiful, blonde head with a sniffle. Bing wasn’t
the cheating type.
“Did he break up with you?” I gently bid. She just shrugged.
“Does he have herpes?” chirped Lydia. I furrowed my brow at her
incredulously, but Jane released a minuscule laugh through the tears, a
small breakthrough in her woe.
“No,” she said softly.
“Tell us what happened,” I said, still stroking her back. My other hand
labored to shove the remote in my back pocket undetected. We didn’t want
any relapses here.
“I’ll break his pate across,” warned Lydia. Ah, how comforting a
Shakespearean threat is when one is brokenhearted.
“I don’t know what happened,” Jane feebly admitted. “He won’t talk to
me.”
“The fiend!”
“Thank you, Lydia,” I said, slicing her a pointed stare. “You can sheath
your rapier.”
And turning back to Jane, I whispered, “Tell it to us from the
beginning.”
Bing had gone with Will to New York for Thanksgiving. When his
phone went straight to voicemail, Jane assumed he’d run out of battery or
forgot to turn it back on after his flight. But the next day, it rang and rang
before her call was redirected to a new, more formal greeting for his
outgoing message. She knew he had heard her messages if not seen her
texts. She didn’t hear from him all weekend. No calls, no texts. Nothing.
“I tried to ignore my suspicions,” she said quietly. “He was in New
York, having fun. He didn’t need to check in with me.”
I wanted to tell her that a man in love like Bing was with her wouldn’t
let a day go by without calling. It didn’t make sense. Bing couldn’t keep his
hands off her before he left California. But I kept my mouth shut and let her
finish her story.
Then she told us that his social media was filled with photos of him all
over New York with a beautiful girl I could only assume was Georgia
Darcy. She was fresh faced with a brilliant smile—her shoulder-length,
chestnut hair blowing in the wind in front of Rockefeller Center, on the
Empire State Building, in Central Park—and Bing posed with her like a
silly tourist with rosy cheeks and bundled in scarves against the autumn
chill.
But he wasn’t a cheater. Jane was sure of that. Still…
“I wasn’t jealous,” she assured us. I believed her. She wasn’t the jealous
type. “But on Monday, Caroline took me aside and told me Bing was going
out with Will’s sister.”
Why that little busybody.
“I don’t buy that for one second,” I exclaimed. “Caroline just likes to
stick her fake nose where it doesn’t belong.”
“I’ll steal his phone,” offered Lydia. “I can check his call history to see
if he’s been calling her since he got back.”
“No,” said Jane. “I asked him if there was someone else. I wanted to
give him my blessing if there was. To give me closure. But all he said was,
‘There’s no one.’ Those are the only words he’s spoken to me since he
returned.”
Jane fell into a wash of fresh tears and covered her face with two full
sheets of Costco-brand paper towels. The stiff material stuck out like angel
wings on either side of her face, and all I could see was the nest of golden
locks from behind the white barricade and her thin hands scrunching the
towels in the middle.
I was determined to find out the truth somehow. I regretted not
befriending Bing earlier, so I could hear his thoughts on the subject. I
couldn’t exactly approach him in rehearsal and casually ask why he was
acting like a dirtbag. I refused to believe Bing would let himself become
influenced by the stellar way Will treated women.
14
WHAT IS THIS FEELING?
Will
Beth
I HAD three words to describe Will Darcy. Stink. Stank. Stunk. Okay,
maybe I was just listening to too many Christmas songs, but I really did
think he was a triple-decker toadstool sandwich.
After the confrontation from hell, I checked my appearance in the
bathroom mirror before emerging to the scrutiny of my fellow cast
members. Hold your head up high. Don’t let them see you down. Who said
I couldn’t act? I almost fooled myself. Not that anybody was paying
attention.
By the time I went in for my fitting, my eyes were dry as a California
riverbed. Ari had created a bundle of gorgeous Victorian dresses, accented
in pastel trim and satin ribbons. It was so incredibly perfect, I looked as if
I’d stepped right out of a painting. The only adjustments she needed to
make were a few inches off the hem.
Short in stature. Yeah, so what? I preferred to use the term petite. But
one thing Will didn’t realize—I was small but mighty. I wouldn’t let his
asinine remarks get me down.
“Are you all right?” Ari looked at me over her glasses with an
introspective glare. “You’re somewhere else, and it doesn’t look like a fun
place to be.”
The word eclectic wasn’t dynamic enough to describe Ari. She
reminded me of equal parts Professor Trelawney, Audrey Hepburn, and a
fairy godmother secretly into 90s grunge bands. Corduroy was her material
of choice in bootleg pants, and she often sported red Doc Martins. Today,
she’d tossed her hair in a messy bun and slapped a scarf around her
forehead. And she hardly ever wore makeup. She didn’t need it. She was a
natural beauty, but I could tell she’d be a knockout if she ever got dressed
up.
I laughed, attempting to put on the mask I wore hiding from scrutiny,
but mostly hiding from myself. I was also retrospectively coming up with
several witty comebacks I should have jabbed at Will. Why did I always
come up with the good stuff when it’s too late?
“I’m just worried about a friend,” I said dismissively. It was a half-truth.
I was preoccupied about Jane, but the whole Bing debacle encroached on
my mental faculties. I wondered if roommate problems were cause enough
to plead temporary insanity. How much time would I have to serve if I got
all Cell Block Tango on Will?
“You probably have no drama in your life,” I said.
It was more of a question, but she struck me as a no-nonsense type of
gal. Like she’d been there, done that, and now she was a working
professional with a picket fence and a beautiful garden.
She shrugged. “I’ve had my share of drama.”
“Are you married?”
Her features shifted, eyes darkening like a car’s headlights shifting from
high beams to low.
“No.”
That was it. Just one word. No.
There was no way I would head down that tell me about your mother
rabbit hole. So I left it at that, thinking if Ari ever wanted to have a girl talk
bonding over costume fitting, I’d do my best to be a good listener. For now,
I’d have to listen to my own annoying thoughts.
Everything that came out of Will’s mouth put me in the mood for
sparring with sharp objects, but one thing in particular stuck with me—even
more so than his unfounded overacting comment. He said I was a nobody. A
nobody doomed to wait tables in questionable establishments all my life
with no one to share it with. In truth, I wouldn’t mind the spinster life. It’s
kind of like the thug life but with more baguettes. I even resigned myself to
the idea I might not have a career in acting. I knew it was a pipe dream.
Many people didn’t make it. I couldn’t say I blamed Will. If my dad were
Hollywood royalty, I’d ride his coattails too. If everything he said to me
were true, it wouldn’t bother me. But a nobody? I didn’t do that.
I arrived at Lucas Lodge a little early since my dinner comprised of
quick and dirty drive-thru Mexican food. Pro tip: use the extra drink holder
in your car for the nacho cheese cup. French fries fit nicely in there as well.
I’d mastered the art of driving while eating burritos, thus affording me lots
of extra time before my shift started to do stuff to actively avoid adulting.
Things like pouring the best years of my life into my smartphone. Honestly,
my world had turned into such a crazy town, even my waitress job was a
welcome distraction.
Charlotte was at the bar as usual, but when she saw me enter, her
features stiffened. I laughed because she seemed shocked I’d arrived early
rather than my usual ten minutes late, but then, I caught sight of the true
source of her deer in the headlights expression. Colin leaned into the bar,
drinking his Shirley Temple with extra cherries and a cocktail umbrella.
What on earth did this guy want now?
I was still considering the scenario whereby I tiptoed backwards to the
parking lot, undetected by Colin when he turned his head in my direction.
Oh, lucky day. I was stuck. My options were to smile and jog past the bar,
avoid eye contact and hope he disappeared, or suddenly come down with
pink eye and go home sick. Interacting with Colin wasn’t on the schedule.
We all knew what happened last time, and I wasn’t in the mood to get fired
again. But I didn’t have to do any of those things. Colin stood, sipped the
last of his drink, and reached for his man bag. But what happened next
almost did give me pink eye—if one could get eye diseases from seeing
things that shouldn’t be seen. Like your best friend kissing the guy who
only recently declared his unwavering love to you. They weren’t making
out, so that was a relief. In fact, the kiss was so brief, I thought I might have
imagined it. But Colin had the most stupid grin as he parted from her. I
think he whispered something to the effect of, “I’ll see you on the morrow,
my lamb.” He made for the exit with a bounce in his step, pausing briefly to
bid me a good evening, and rode off into the sunset—or at least to Sunset
Blvd.
My day had officially reached level one million on the crazy meter.
Charlotte and Colin? No, no, no, no, no. Where were the hidden cameras? If
this was some sort of messed up reality show, I wanted to be voted off
yesterday.
“Pizza!”
I closed the distance, sliding behind the bar so there would be no barrier
between us. She wrinkled her nose and narrowed her eyes.
“We only have pizza on Fridays,” she said innocently.
“Our code word, remember? When one of us is making a horrible dating
mistake, the other is supposed to say pizza. Colin? Really? You can’t be
serious.”
I was mentally face palming. What’s the point in a code word if you
have to explain it every time?
She blushed. “Actually, he’s kind of nice.”
“Kind of nice? Kittens are kind of nice. Hot tea on a rainy day is kind of
nice. Colin is ridiculous.”
She shrugged and smiled within herself while mindlessly wiping the bar
with a towel.
“Fries before guys, Charlotte. Remember when we were going to get
that on a tattoo?”
She laughed. “I’m glad we chickened out.”
“Yeah.” I nodded. “But it’s still our girl pact.”
She paused her busy nothings to look at me squarely in the eye.
“You know what, Beth? I’m not like you. I don’t need to go out with the
hottest guys in the world. I’m practical. Like Jessica Rabbit. I want
somebody who makes me laugh.”
I snorted. The kind of snort that would spew milk from my nose if I
were drinking milk.
“He’s laughable. That’s for sure.”
Charlotte’s daydreamy grin turned into a fiery scowl.
“I suppose nobody else has a valid opinion on that because you’ve
stamped your authority on it?”
“It doesn’t bother you how he jumps from one woman to the other in the
bat of an eye?” (A heavily mascara-caked eye.) “He was just in here last
week making a scene.”
“If I recall, you were the one making the scene. Or was it Colin spilling
yams all over the customers?”
“Okay. I own that. I just don’t want to see you get hurt.”
“No. Don’t give me that. You just can’t stand the fact every man you
turn down isn’t wallowing in sorrow. You can’t wrap your head around the
idea of someone else liking him just because you don’t, that he could find a
date even though he wasn’t successful with you, or that he’s not crying into
a bottle of gin just because Elizabeth Bennet turned him down.”
I had no idea where this was coming from. She painted me to like some
sort of maneater.
She threw her towel down and stormed off somewhere in the back of
the house. What was going on? I didn’t even recognize her. I didn’t
recognize any of my friends anymore. Jane was, thank goodness, past the
grief stage but was now in a scary denial phase. She wore a perpetual
plastic smile and was always too busy with Pinterest-worthy tasks like an
over-achiever Barbie. Whenever I would ask how she was doing, her eyes
would glaze over, and she’d say something like, “I’m great. Couldn’t be
better.” Then she’d go off and organize her Kanban board and throw out
most of her possessions.
Newsflash: I was a minimalist’s second-worst roommate. First prize
was reserved for Lydia. I would find things under the couch and in the
bathroom, I wish I could unsee. I’d never met anyone quite as messy as
Lydia. She perfected a particular kind of messy. She was the Jackson
Pollock of messy. That in itself didn’t surprise me in her behavior. As long
as I’d known her, she’d washed her car a total of two times. One of those
times because the rain water ran in muddy streaks across her windshield,
rendering it unsafe to drive. She actually got a ticket for it. The other time
was because she was submitting her car, so she could drive for Uber. That
didn't work out so well.
But lately, Lydia had been uncharacteristically distant from me. Her
nightly partying was nothing new, and I really didn’t want to be invited to
go out with her and the girls to pick up random idiots in bars. But she would
usually chat my ear off about what they drank and who got asked to dance
and who got so plastered they had to be carried home. Sound familiar? Now
when I asked how her night was, she’d give me the old one-word blow off.
“Fine.” Then I’d be ignored in favor of baby goats in sweaters on YouTube.
My life had suddenly turned into a demented Lifetime movie. I was at
that point in the story where the protagonist was in a series of montages set
to inspirational music and discovered something profound about herself by
the end of the song. The best I could do to recreate that was take a drive
after work with the radio blasting. My old Volvo didn’t even have a CD
player. I had to plug my phone into a cassette tape auxiliary adapter to listen
to my playlist. It made a strange squeaking sound—like a dying chipmunk.
The buzzing in the speakers and commercial interruptions weren’t exactly
helping the makeshift movie soundtrack of my life either. The montage
sequence wasn’t any better, unless you consider a string of liquor stores,
taco shops, and homeless encampments incredibly enlightening.
But that’s LA for you. And so after deciding that hitting every all-night
donut shop in greater Los Angeles was a bad idea, I ended up at my parents’
house.
“What’s wrong? What happened now?”
My mother patted me down, making sure I wasn’t what? Bloody? Had
missing limbs? I didn’t even realize how late it was until Dad came out of
his study wearing his smoking coat and carrying his brandy snifter. It was
his nightly ritual right after the eleven o'clock news. A classic novel, usually
Dickens or Tolstoy, a dram of brandy, and a cigar. He’d abandoned the cigar
a few years ago—doctor’s orders—but replaced it with a monthly
subscription to See’s candy. Who knew that was a thing? I could see the
chocolate on the side of his mouth. When Mom confronted him about it,
he’d protested it was healthy for him because it was dark chocolate.
Another thing about his nightly routine was that he wasn’t to be disturbed
unless it was an emergency. I supposed my mother's hysterics were enough
cause for alarm because he ran into the living room upon my arrival.
“Nothing happened, Mom.” I shooed her hands away. “Can’t I come
visit my family?”
“At midnight?” Dad said.
“Sorry. I didn’t realize it was so late. Go back to War and Peace, and
I’ll make myself a sandwich.”
“You really shouldn’t eat this late, dear,” said my mother. “It will make
you fat.”
Dad narrowed his eyes and shook his head.
“Let’s go in the kitchen together, Lizzie. I’ve been craving that Italian
salami ever since your mother brought it home from Costco.”
Score! Mom made a Costco run. That meant there were giant value
packs of toilet paper, bottled water, instant mac and cheese, and all sorts of
snacks in the garage pantry. I’d have to raid their stash before I left for
home.
As I followed Dad into the kitchen, Mom hollered after us, “Don’t eat
the kettle chips. Those are for Mary’s lunches.”
The salami was glorious. Dad pulled out the sourdough, provolone, and
brown mustard and made each of us a deli masterpiece. Then he opened two
ice-cold glass bottles of Coke, and we ate in heavenly silence for five
minutes, just enjoying the midnight snack. I may have moaned with
pleasure when the bread hit my lips. Sometimes it’s the simplest things that
taste the best.
I let out a breath I’d been holding the entire day and exhaled into the
afterglow of meat, bread, and liquid sugar. The bubbles from the Coke sat in
my chest, threatening to release the sting of carbonation through my nose
from drinking it too fast.
Dad wagged his brows. “Fancy some kettle chips?”
“Heck yeah!”
He reached into the cupboard while I retrieved two more bottles of
Coke. Mexicans made the best Coke, but it was too expensive in the
supermarkets. God bless Costco.
“So,” Dad began as he tore open the bag of kettle chips. I immediately
snatched a handful and bit into the crunchy goodness.
“So?” I shrugged.
Dad likewise gathered a handful of chips in his hand, popping two at a
time in his mouth.
“You just happened to be in the neighborhood?”
I wasn’t there for any particular reason. I didn’t need to go running
home every time something upset me. I just didn’t feel like going back to
the apartment. So I told him just that.
“Why not?” he asked, taking a long swig of his drink.
“My roommates. They’re driving me crazy.”
His chin folded back into his neck, and he blinked. “Even Jane? She
strikes me as the easiest person in the world to live with.”
“She is usually. But she broke up with her boyfriend and—”
“Jane broke up with Bing?” My little sister was at the kitchen door,
standing dumbstruck in her long flannel nightgown. “Why?”
“Mary, what are you doing up at this hour?” Dad wasn’t one to
reprimand either one of us, so his question came off as more of an “Oh, you
silly girl,” sort of remark, so she didn’t consider it necessary to answer.
“Bing was perfect for her,” she cried. “Why would she do that?”
“He’s the one who broke it off, not her.”
This information changed her expression from confused to enraged in a
matter of seconds. “What? Why?”
I did my best at the twitter version of the story, trying to keep the
particulars at 280 characters or less. Subsequently, I left out a lot, but they
still got the gist of it.
“Well,” said my father, “Good for her.”
“How so?’
“Oh, everybody needs a little heartbreak at least once in their lives. It
provides a small distinction apart from their peers and gives them
something to talk about. Good she got it out of the way now.”
“Daddy!”
“When are you going to let some man come along and break your heart,
Lizzie? You can’t let Jane have the all the fun.”
“Very funny, but I have no such plans.”
“What about that young man you brought over for dinner?”
“Jorge,” Mary offered.
“Yes, Jorge,” he said with a grin. “He’d jilt you credibly.”
“I don’t think he’s capable of that,” I said. “He’s been jilted enough
himself.”
My father and Mary’s interest in the subject piqued. I knew Dad was
joking, but he did seem to like Jorge. And if I didn’t know Mary better, I’d
believe the little blushes on her face the few times he spoke directly to her
were indications of a little crush. Of course Mary, with her nose constantly
in Tony Robbins books, rarely took notice of anything else.
I didn’t know how much of Jorge’s story I wanted to tell my family. If
he were to visit again, how comfortable would he feel if they knew so
much. Still, I could give them another twitter version. In the end, the only
thing I’d left out was the particulars about his mom. I figured that was
sensitive material.
At length, my father sat back in his chair, shaking his head in disbelief.
“That’s an incredible story if it’s true.”
“Why wouldn’t it be true?”
“Have you heard both sides of the story?”
“You sound like Jane.”
“She might have a point there.”
“Well, if you knew Will Darcy, you wouldn’t doubt it. He’s the most
arrogant, vain, prideful man I’ve ever had the displeasure of knowing.”
“Pride,” offered Mary, “is different from vanity. Pride can have a lot to
do with one’s accomplishments. For example, I’m proud of my grades.”
“And we’re all proud of you, dear,” Dad appeased with a nod.
“But vanity,” she continued, “that has more to do with one’s
preoccupation of what other people’s opinions of them are. So like I want
Mom and Dad to be proud of me, that’s fine. But I shouldn’t care what the
popular girls at school think about me. That’s vanity.”
“Thank you, Mary,” I deadpanned. “So very helpful.”
“Oh, yes,” my father winked at me. “Your sister is a young lady of deep
reflection.”
“And she quotes great books,” I agreed.
“In any case,” said Dad. “If Will Darcy really is the devil Jorge paints
him to be, there’s nothing we can very well do about it. Just don’t tell your
mother.”
“Don’t tell your mother what, exactly?” Mom had her phone in her hand
and entered the kitchen with her war face.
Mary, always seeking approval from either one of my parents, couldn’t
keep anything from them and blurted, “Will Darcy is a jerk-face.”
My mouth fell open. “Mary!”
Also—jerk-face? She was adorably juvenile.
“Oh, I knew that,” said my mother with a wave of her hand.
“Everybody knows that. Don’t you people read?”
That was an ironic statement coming from Mom because the only
reading she did was on gossip sites. Dad and I stared at her for a few
seconds because all this time we thought her celebrity crush on Martin
Darcy extended toward his son. I surmised by her candid dismissal of
Mary’s statement that Mom had found some dirt on Will in the tabloids, and
apparently, it didn’t bother her much.
“Then what are you so bent out of shape about?” Dad asked. “I know
you didn’t come in here for a cup of tea.”
Dad knew Mom so well, it was scary. Or rather, Mom was scary and
Dad knew that so well. Or something.
Mom held up her phone and shook it for emphasis. “You’ll never guess
what I saw on Facebook.”
“You’re right,” said Dad. “I’ll never guess.”
“Well, don’t you want to know?”
“I know you want to tell me. And where am I to go at this time of night
to avoid hearing it?”
Her jaw dropped in furious indignation, and she waved her phone at
him. “You are impossible. You don’t even know about my stress.”
“That’s not true, my dear. I’ve lived with your stress for twenty-eight
years.”
“Fine,” she exclaimed. “I won’t even tell you.”
“If that’s what you want.” He smiled.
Mom huffed, stomped one foot, and turned toward the door but changed
her mind and immediately spun back around.
“It’s Mrs. Lucas. She had the nerve to post this on Facebook.”
She unlocked her screen and handed me the phone. I glanced at it with
amusement. It was a video of a monkey playing the accordion.
“That’s funny,” I said, laughing.
She bent her head to see what was so funny.
“Oh, wait.” She grabbed the phone from my hands and tapped around to
find what she was looking for. “Here.”
I accepted the phone, again assaulted by Mrs. Lucas’ newsfeed. It was
mostly political nonsense and photos of her garden. But one post in
particular stood out in bold lettering on a bright pink background.
“SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER AND HER NEW BOYFRIEND”
All caps. Somebody needed to inform that woman of internet etiquette.
I looked up at Mom. “So?”
“I did a little digging. That so-called new boyfriend is the same man
who wants to date you, Lizzie. That choreographer.”
My sister took her turn with the phone and scrolled to the comments
where there was a photo of Colin taken off the internet.
“I knew the Lucases were jealous of us, but I didn’t think they’d go so
far as to lie.” Mom paced the small space of the kitchen. “It makes me so
angry to have neighbors who only think about themselves.”
“What do you care who their daughter is dating?” Dad questioned.
“Because that famous choreographer is sweet on Lizzie!”
Mom was practically screaming by now. Any more excitement, and
we’d have to give her a paper bag to breathe.
“I don’t like him, Mom,” I said, trying to calm her. “I told you that.”
Her face morphed into a scowl that Maleficent would envy.
“I didn’t put you through college so you can just throw every
opportunity out the window. You are going back there to tell that man
you’ve changed your mind.”
“What are you talking about?” I cried. “One, I don’t know where he is
right this second, and two, he’s dating Charlotte.”
“Lizzie, don’t you realize you are committing career suicide? Call him
on the phone and apologize. I’m sure you can salvage something out of this
fiasco.”
“What part of ‘he’s dating Charlotte’ don’t you understand?”
“I am still paying for your bachelor’s degree,” she growled. “I wanted
you to be a lawyer, but noooooo! You had to be an actress. You swore to me
that you would work hard and make it all worth it.”
“I am working hard.”
“This man could give you the push your career needs. Charlotte stole
him from you. So, go steal him back.”
“Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s boyfriend,” said Mary.
“Go to bed, Mary.” Mom was almost ready for that paper bag. “Tell her,
John. Tell her what she has to do.”
Dad arched his brow and let go of a deep breath. He glanced at me,
glanced back at Mom, and back at me again, and when he spoke, his calm,
soft voice was almost a whisper.
“Well, Lizzie, it seems your mother has some strong opinions about
this.”
“I’ll pay you back for college,” I said. I was so tired of Mom bringing it
up whenever she wanted to throw something in my face.
“Tell her she has to call that choreographer,” she demanded.
Dad looked from Mom to me. This was ridiculous.
“He’s not even that famous, Mom.”
“Tell her, John. If she doesn’t call that man…” She paused for a
moment to think of a good ultimatum. When I was sixteen, it took her an
entire weekend to decide my punishment for staying late at a party. Finally,
she grounded me—for the entire weekend. My sentence was over before it
began. I didn’t have that kind of time to hear what she had to say.
“If she doesn’t call him,” she decided. “I will never speak to her again.”
Whoa. That was harsh. A little melodramatic, maybe. Even for Mom.
“Hmmm.” Dad got up and cleared the empty Coke bottles. “You have a
tough choice, Lizzie. Your mom will never speak to you again if you don’t
call Charlotte’s boyfriend.” He put the bottles in the sink and rinsed them.
“And I will never speak to you again if you do.”
I couldn’t help but laugh a little. That was Dad for you: always the
pragmatic one in the family. Mom wasn’t happy about it, though. Dad blew
her a kiss, and she stormed out of the kitchen. She’d get over it eventually.
Mary, who hadn’t gone to bed as she was ordered, watched with eyes as
big as saucers while Mom left the room. I half-expected her to offer another
one of her insightful, philosophical extracts, but she waited until Mom was
completely gone and looked between me and Dad, silently asking if this
was all a bad joke. I just shrugged and picked up the plates to join Dad at
the sink, and that’s when Mary shouted at the top of her lungs, “You ate all
my kettle chips!?”
Oops.
16
AT COMMON SENSE SHE GAILY
MOCKS
Beth
IF I WERE the type of person to hold a grudge like some people who will
remain anonymous (whose name rhymes with kill), my friendship with
Charlotte could have suffered damage of momentous proportions. But as I
wasn’t like a certain someone (whose name rhymes with kill), Charlotte and
I were on good terms by the following morning. I don’t remember who
called who, but I can tell you we both stretched out the proverbial olive
branch and laughed about it.
Over the course of our conversation, I gathered that she did indeed like
Colin, although I couldn’t imagine why. As far as I knew, he’d won her over
by a little tactic used by men called the wounded lover syndrome, or the old
but rather effective victim of unrequited love schtick.
After I left the lodge on Thanksgiving, a moment I care not to remember
as I was covered in yams and stripped of my pride, Sir William Lucas
offered Colin a meal on the house and an open invitation to return any time
he desired. Colin, being quite respectable and overly grateful, sat at the bar,
letting out all his woes to Charlotte, the receptive bartender—and we all
know bartenders were a poor man’s shrink. Charlotte listened intently,
poured him more Shirley Temples, and offered her sage advice as was her
Charlotte way. Then, as I already knew, he spent the evening at the Lucas
house, whereas Mrs. Lucas referred to him as Boy George.
It must have had a profound effect on him because he returned the
following day, unbeknownst to me, to seek the company of Charlotte and
her serene ability to listen to hours of nonsensical yammering. And if there
was one thing Colin was good at, it was nonsensical yammering. In short, it
appeared to be a match made in heaven. He couldn’t stop talking, and she
had no reservations to listen all day.
And so, although I couldn’t understand the mystery that was
Colin/Charlotte, I was happy they both found a partner in this big, scary
world.
My mother would take a little more convincing, but for the time being, I
felt it was best to just avoid her calls and incessant Facebook messaging.
When I arrived home from my parents’ house, it was close to two in the
morning. Not that avoiding my roommates by staying away was successful
at all. After the drama with Mom, I could face anything. As it turned out,
Jane was awake, checking online trade magazines.
All I wanted to do was lie my weary body down on my bed, but my legs
betrayed me and sent me to the couch to sit by Jane. She smiled at me from
behind her laptop screen and asked me how my day went in the gentlest of
fashions. Her tone of voice was calm and… dare I say content. It was
almost as if her heart hadn’t been put through a meat grinder less than two
weeks before.
Although Charlotte had been my longest and dearest friend, Jane was
more like a sister. Someone I could confide in. I supposed by telling her all
about the Colin loves Charlotte story, it would bring her a welcome
distraction. I still couldn’t help but think she was sweeping her feelings
about Bing under the rug. Or had the telenovelas helped her cope? She’d
gone cold turkey, so I was a wee bit concerned.
When I was done blabbering about Colin and Charlotte and then Mom’s
reaction, she was able to find humor where I hadn’t before, and in seeing it
through her eyes, it made me laugh. It was quite ridiculous and silly when I
thought about it.
But then in a tone a little more somber, she said, “I don’t want you to
worry about me. I’ll be fine, and everything will be the same as before.”
She must have read the disbelief in my features because she added, “You
don’t believe me. I’ll always remember Bing as the nicest man I’d ever met,
but that’s all he’ll ever be to me. I read more into it than there was in the
relationship. I’ll get over it.”
“Jane, I’d have to be blind to not see how much he liked you. You didn’t
‘read into’ anything he wasn’t writing all over the place. If there’s anyone to
blame, it’s him.”
“I don’t blame him for anything,” she said. “We were never official.”
“We’re not in high school. Guys don’t ask girls to go steady. Besides,
the whole theatre company was taking bets on the wedding date.”
A wash of pink spread over her face, and she shrunk behind a throw
pillow to hide it.
“Okay, maybe not a wedding date,” I amended, “but still. You just think
too well of people in general to let me say anything against them. But
you’re the only person I know that’s even close to perfect. It’s true. And as
you know, I don’t think well of anybody. Not even myself. The more I see
of the world, the more I think everyone in it are psychos.”
“You know, I don’t mind being the idiot,” she said as if in thought. “I
liked him. He didn’t return the feeling. End of story. If he liked me as much
as you think he did, we’d still be together. But he didn’t, and I’m fine with
that. I won’t hold him to any promises he never made.”
She was a better person than I, always seeing the best in people even
when they broke her heart. In the end, it wasn’t up to me to be offended for
her. It was her life, after all. Still, there was a tiny part of me that wanted to
squeeze Bing’s nipples with a vice grip. I wondered if Jorge could get me
one of those from the scene shop. If I actually thought it would work, I’d be
on it in an instant.
I couldn’t help but hope, however, that it was possible, even probable
that Bing might still come to his senses. That he would get over whatever
was keeping him from opening up to Jane. That he would give in to his
obvious attraction to her. I watched him every day at rehearsal. I was sure
he still had the hots for her, but something prevented him from admitting it.
Maybe the idea scared him? Maybe it was moving too fast. Guys tend to
freak out about these things. If only he had better influences. Someone like
Cole, who in his time of life saw what he wanted and took it. He never
displayed his affection for Holly at the theatre. He was a professional. But
every other nanosecond of his free time was spent with her, and in the
moments I’d witnessed, he was the most romantic person on the planet. He
made Romeo look like a schmuck. Actually, scratch that. Romeo was a
schmuck.
If only Bing could recognize what he was missing.
PIRATES OF PENZANCE was on its feet. The magic truly began to form
at the sitzprobe—a fancy German term for rehearsing for the first time with
an orchestra. Fitz was brilliant, and from the first note of the show, I felt
shivers down my spine. That was the beauty of live theatre right there. That
was what I was talking about with Jorge the first day we met.
Cole had worked the cast to the nubs of our toes to get the show up and
running to the closest to perfection as possible. Truthfully, I was a little
worried there for a while. But most of the kinks were ironed out, and we
were ready to go. Tech rehearsals had been from hell, but other than that, it
was an exhilarating thing to behold. The show was awesome. It was better
than awesome—it was funny and energetic and beautiful.
I found myself enthralled by everyone’s performance. Even Will’s. He
was actually an excellent performer. Perhaps I hadn’t noticed it before
because I actively avoided him whenever I could. But now that the show
was in run-throughs, there were fewer opportunities to hide from him. It
was annoying, for once he began to sing, I couldn’t peel my eyes off him.
He commanded the stage. Bigger than life. It truly was a glorious thing to
see the Pirate King. His booming voice shook my center and tilted my
equilibrium.
Gah! Why did he have to be so talented? It made it so much harder to
dislike him.
Every concern I had in the weeks of toil were laid aside when we
completed our first dress rehearsal. It was magical. Earth stopped on its axis
to applaud. It was masterful. It was also weeks before we’d have an
audience because we had to break for the holidays.
The Gardiner Theatre had a Christmas tradition of hosting holiday
concerts with the local philharmonic. The house sold out every year, and it
was a major draw for the season. All the subscribing patrons looked forward
to a spread of holiday hors d’oeuvres on the terrace before the concerts.
During this time, the Gardiner was transformed into a winter wonderland.
This annual event was one of the reasons Stella scheduled our rehearsals to
end in mid-December. We would have to be completely ready to open after
the new year, and there was no time for rehearsals at Christmas. A schedule
like that was generally unheard of in a professional or even amateur theatre.
But Stella was determined for a January opening, and there was no other
way around it. Therefore, the company had a long break. Which meant no
Caroline and, best of all, no Will for three glorious weeks. What would I do
with all the excess sarcasm?
Jane booked the first flight out of California she could find. I hadn’t
even realized she’d been packed for days until I noticed her wear the same
three outfits in regular circulation. When she left, the apartment was so
quiet, I found myself tuning in to telenovelas just to see what the appeal
was. From what I gathered, there was a whole lotta cheatin’ going on. Those
characters were in serious need of a hobby. Or a chastity belt.
I was able to use my extra time to catch up with Charlotte over
pedicures and peppermint lattes. Everything was going swimmingly until
she invited me to a New Year's Eve party at Rosings.
That sounded like the opposite of a good time. Ring in the New Year
with Colin? Hard pass.
But Charlotte nearly pleaded with me. Moral support, I guess. I told her
I would think about it.
One event I was looking forward to was Cole’s Christmas party. He
invited the entire cast and crew. I was pleased as punch to find out Will
didn’t plan to attend. It gave me a sense of freedom to have the liberty to
enjoy the evening in the company of Jorge without looking over our
shoulders or checking for poison in our eggnog. Plus, Cole pulled out all the
stops for the festivities. It wasn’t an uppity Hollywood party although his
house was fabulous. He had a view of the valley from the hills. The
twinkling lights of the city on the horizon wrapped around his property in
an absolutely breathtaking, panoramic vista. He certainly had the perfect
house for one of those classy soirees with a fancy caterer and valet parking.
But Cole was a Jersey guy at heart, so his idea of an ideal party included a
mobile woodfired pizza truck and plenty of beer. Everybody was
encouraged to wear ugly sweaters, and we had a white elephant gift
exchange. Then, once everyone was warm with their innards full of spirits,
Stella stood by the fireplace and recited a poem with a line for each person
in the cast and crew. It was both poignant and hilarious. Mostly, it was just
cheeky, but every bit Stella. Nothing got past her.
Jorge gave me a lot of his attention the entire night, but when he
stripped down to nothing but his boxers and jumped in the pool, he was on
his own. Lydia and Mariah got it all on video.
“That bloke is something else, isn’t he?” Stella poured herself a drink at
the bar a few feet away from where I was shamelessly ogling Jorge. “Care
for one of these?”
She held up a concoction that looked more like a science experiment
than a beverage. Interesting. I had her pegged as more of a rosé type.
I held up my wine cooler. “I’m good, thanks.”
She shrugged and slid closer to me, sipping on the rim of her glass and
casting her eyes in the direction of the pool. Jorge had convinced Lydia to
jump in fully clothed. I hoped the water was heated because they’d be
popsicles when they got out. They say California doesn’t have seasons.
Well, I'm here to tell you that for a local girl, sixty degrees Fahrenheit might
as well be sixty below. Californians are cold weather wimps and I have no
shame in that.
“Mr. Wickham is the type of man to make the most of any circumstance,
I gather,” she said with a smile. “If I had known it was a pool party, I would
have brought my suit.”
She winked at me and took another sip of her cocktail.
“I suppose you could say he’s an opportunist,” I said.
“He’s certainly taken the opportunity to catch your notice.”
“It’s a little hard not to notice.” I smiled.
“He’s an interesting creature, I’ll give him that,” she said over the rim of
her glass.
“That he is.”
“But if I may be so bold,” she added, “I must admit I thought you were
more sensible than to fancy a man that gets his attention by skinny dipping
in December.”
I chuckled to myself. The idea of getting carried away with a skinny-
dipping heartthrob wasn’t in my bag of tricks. That’s why Lydia would
catch a cold and not me.
“Well,” I said, “I’ve fallen for much stupider a fellow. It seems to be my
specialty. But if you must know, we’re just friends.”
“That’s good to know,” she said with a single nod. “You wouldn’t want
to let your fancy run away with you. I’d have to be seriously disappointed.”
“I’ll do my best to avoid it, then.” I winked. “But I might have to tone
down my feminine arts if I want to keep shirtless men from falling madly in
love with me.”
I wiggled my hips and modeled the ugly Christmas sweater I wore. I’d
bought it at the Goodwill where some unfortunate grandma must have
reluctantly emptied her closets.
“Speaking of madly in love,” she said. “I hope you don’t find it
impertinent to ask, but I haven’t seen Jane all night. She isn’t avoiding a
certain someone, is she?”
“More like the other way around,” I said. The warmth of the alcohol
broke down my inhibitions. Stella was so easy to talk to.
“I’m sorry to hear it,” she replied. “Sometimes men can be like that dog
from Up. They fall in love with a pretty face for a few weeks but can so
easily get distracted by a squirrel.”
I laughed. “That has to be one of the most accurate analogies ever.”
I knew more than a few guys like that. But then my thoughts fled to my
father. As silly as my mother was sometimes, he never once had a
wandering eye. I had to believe there were more men in the world like him.
I’d stupidly thought Bing was one of them.
Total fail.
“I don’t know if that’s the case with Bing,” I continued. “I’ve never
seen a guy so infatuated with anyone like Bing was with Jane. It got to the
point where he ignored everybody else.
“Showmances!” she scoffed. “Well, I hope they can figure it out. Now
neither one of them are here.”
“Jane’s in New York,” I replied, feeling I had to defend Jane somehow.
“She said she had a few auditions.”
“Good for her.” Stella’s face brightened. “I have no doubt she’ll make a
good impression. I wish she would have told me, though. I could have put
in a word for her.”
“You’d do that?”
“Why yes. I’d do that for any of you. It’s what I do. I’m sure you’ve
heard of my academy in New York?”
“Yes, of course.”
“Well, we have our charity arts program here in Los Angeles.”
I knew a little about the work her charity did. It was a theatrical
program for underprivileged youth.
“Not only is it an arts program, but we also offer full scholarships and
career advancement. The students don’t have to pursue the arts if they don’t
want to. We use theatre as a springboard into all areas of study. Theatre is a
dynamic discipline. It’s not just for us drama llamas.”
I giggled. I was feeling a buzz from the alcohol, but Stella’s dry British
delivery made everything she said sound humorous or poignant. Sometimes
both at the same time.
Stella smiled wistfully and took a sip of her science experiment. “But if
the students in our workshops want to be a doctor or computer engineer, our
scholarships will still give them a full ride. We just want them to be
successful.”
This was why I admired this woman. Yes, she was the best actor in my
acquaintance, she’d won awards too numerous to count, but it was her
philanthropy that set her apart from her peers.
“How many scholarships does your foundation award each year?”
“At first, it was only one. Now, we’re able to sponsor three graduates
from our youth program. I’m hoping to raise enough money this year to
send five students to college.”
“That’s incredible.”
“Who knows? Maybe in future years, we can sponsor ten or twenty. Or
thirty!”
“That should be something.”
“It would. Of course, there are some graduates who go straight into
auditioning. We don’t always recommend it, but if the actor is ready, we’ll
help them get headshots or an agent or whatever else they need and send
them off. And we put in a good word wherever they go—casting directors
seem to respect that. I get calls all the time. So I would have extended the
same for Jane. Not like she needs my help at all.”
“She’s amazing, isn’t she?” I said with a smile.
Stella agreed with an enthusiastic nod. “That she is. And so are you, my
dear.”
“Me? Nah.”
“Now don’t give me false modesty. I can always tell the ones who are
going to make it. And you’re one of them.”
“I… I don’t know what to say. Thank you.”
“You’re welcome,” she said with a tipsy smile. “Don’t let it go to your
head. It’s still a very steep, uphill climb. There’s nothing worse than when a
talented person gets lazy. I just want to slap them and say, Hey, you could be
so much more if you’d only do the work to get there.”
“I will do my best to avoid a slapping.”
“I’m sure you will.”
“I think I’ll take you up on that drink,” I said, abandoning my wine
cooler on a table.
Her eyes sparkled mischievously. “You’re going to love it.”
I could tell the novelty of mixing cocktails was an entertainment to her.
She accented her every movement with a flourish as she poured the mixers
and added the condiments.
“By the way,” she said, “I would love for you to attend my charity event
as my plus one.” She splashed a piece of dry ice in the glass with a flourish.
“It’s a carnival theme this year. The festivities last all day, and you’ll get to
meet some of our recipients. One of our former students, Francesca, just
graduated from NYU. She’s coming to present the fellowship awards this
year. You would get along swimmingly.” She handed me the smoking
cocktail. “What sayeth thou?”
“Are you kidding?” I screeched loud enough to turn a few heads. Every
who’s who in Whoville attended that event. Visions of myself brushing
shoulders with A-list celebrities and powerful producers danced in my head.
Even if it was a carnival. I may not have been interested in working in film,
but I’d be crazy to pass that up. “I sayeth yes.”
“Good.” She clinked her glass with mine. “Now we better get that
friend of yours out of the pool before she recreates the love scene from
Shape of Water.”
17
TWITTERPATED
Will
I FOUND myself once again at the one place I swore I’d never set foot in
again. The parking lot for Lucas Lodge was surprisingly full for its lunch
crowd. I knew it was a popular place among Hollywood types--I’d seen the
autographed photos on the wall--I just couldn’t imagine why. I scanned the
cars in the lot for Beth’s atrocious clunker. A part of me hoped I wouldn’t
find it, the other part of me, the sadistic part, was disappointed when I
didn’t. What was wrong with me? Pathetic.
But then, because I was an obsessed idiot, I got out of my car and
walked around the parking lot just to, you know, prove to myself I was
indeed an obsessed idiot. And that’s when I noticed the beat-up old Volvo
hiding behind a delivery truck. She’d parked near the back, away from
where the customers parked.
I must have stood there in the parking lot, staring at Beth’s car for
several minutes, deciding what to do next. Go in and face my demons or
peel out of there and stuff them in the back of my head where they could
torment me the rest of my days? Schrank.
Oh, fabulous. Now I had Musical Theatre Tourette’s. I had to get that
girl out of my headspace. She had set up residency there, and I didn’t like
the way she decorated it.
I was inside the lodge, getting seated by that same odd man before I
knew what I was doing.
“Here you are again, sir,” he groveled. “I knew it wouldn’t be long
before you were back. Come in and take the best seat in the house.”
There was a best seat in the house? The only seat I was concerned with
was the one where I could observe Beth surreptitiously. I wasn’t so lucky. I
hadn’t been hiding behind my menu for long before I saw her approach my
table. She wore the biggest frown I’d ever seen, and her eyes were set on
kill mode. She deposited a bottle of Bud Lite in front of me with a clunk.
No glass. No cocktail napkin. Then she walked away. That horrendous
costume she had to wear swooshed as she retreated, leaving lots to the
imagination. The way she swayed her hips made the skirt swing side to
side; it was the hottest thing I’d ever seen. I guess I’d always had an over-
active imagination. Did I have a weird obsession for medieval maidens?
Possibly.
She ignored me for the next hour. I would have been upset with any
other waitress in the same situation. But I was relieved. I let the beer sit in
front of me untouched. The condensation had long disappeared—it dripped
down the bottle and left a soaked ring on the table and now was likely flat
and warm. I glanced a few times at my menu whenever Beth was out of
sight. Nothing appealed to me. My stomach was in too many knots to eat
anything. She approached the bar a few times to chat with her co-worker.
The bartender, a twenty-something girl with thick-rimmed glasses and a
face full of freckles, would glance my way then whip her head back to
Beth. I knew they were talking about me. Probably conspiring to slip poison
in my next drink. But the next drink never came. The poison was delivered
in the occasional snide glances Beth condescended to give whenever she
passed to wait on another table.
This idea of mine was the most asinine thing to come out of the bowels
of my brain. Ever. It was worse than the time I thought it would be fun to
skydive. What was I doing there, stalking a woman like a scary clown? I
didn’t even have a plan beyond finding her car in the parking lot. I didn’t
know what I would say to her if she did decide to pay any attention to me.
All my faculties left me as I crossed the threshold to this fluffed-up elks
lodge. I’d bet my car they pumped opium through the vents. But Beth
worked without much apparent aggravation from the opium or me for that
matter. She did her job with swift efficiency, greeting customers with a
genuine smile never once bestowed upon myself since I’d known her. She
had an effervescent smile that reached her chocolate eyes with a small glint
of playfulness. There was an indulgent merriment behind them—like she
had a secret too fabulous to share. I wanted to know what it was. I wanted
to know everything.
No! This experiment wasn’t working. It was supposed to remind me
how much of a bad idea it was to obsess over Beth. I was perfectly content
with my career and my dog. I wanted my life back.
The faux leather portfolio holding my bill appeared on the table.
“Anything else?” Beth had her arms crossed, waiting for my reply. The
smile had been replaced once again with a scowl. I had to laugh at that
scowl. It was strange I found humor in it, but I realized in that moment the
sour-puss face she wore was reserved only for me. Everyone else was the
recipient of her smiles. But I was the only one to deserve her frowns. You
have to admit—that’s pretty funny and ironic. Especially since it dawned on
me that my grumpy attitude was likewise reserved for her.
I reached for the check itemizing my one beer. “Three dollars and fifty
cents?”
Beth ticked her head to the side. “Is there a problem?”
“How does this place stay in business?” I shook my head. “Never
mind.”
I slipped a credit card from my wallet and placed it in the bill holder.
But as she reached for it, I stopped her hand with mine and held it there flat
against the table for several moments, catching her eyes. Her hand was so
tiny and delicate. I could have devoured it in my grip and pulled her closer,
clashing her against me and claiming her soft lips. I could carry her away
like the Pirate King carries Edith. Steal her for my very own and sail away
on the high seas. From the corner of my eye, I could see the rise and fall of
her chest. Her heart raced as fast as mine. She had to sense the primal
attraction between us. It was heady and strong and if we weren’t in a
crowded restaurant, I would have taken her into my arms and kissed her
senseless. Forget the consequences.
“May I have my hand back, Your Majesty?” She tried to keep her calm,
speaking through gritted teeth.
I slowly lifted my hand from hers. A chill claimed my palm where her
warmth had been. She snatched the bill to her chest, putting distance
between us as swiftly as she could, but before she escaped completely, I
blurted, “Wait.”
She froze in her tracks. I was surprised at how effective that was. She
didn’t turn her body back towards me but shifted her eyes just enough for a
sideways glance.
“Elizabeth…” I said. I didn’t know where I was going with this, but I’d
opened my mouth, so I was committed to finishing the sentence. “…about
the other day. I realize I might have said some things that may have
offended you. But I don’t have the talent…” to what? To use my words
while conversing with infuriating women? To repress my inner cave man?
“…to act naturally in social situations.” It was the best I could do for an
apology. I mean, come on—the pixie wouldn’t give me back my dog.
“And?”
Oh. Was I supposed to keep talking? Because my mind went completely
blank. I fixed my eyes on the soft curve of her jawline. The way it yielded
to the gentle slope of her graceful neck, the rogue wisps of hair falling from
the confinement of her loose bun, caressing the skin above her collar bone.
Oh, to trail my fingers along the goose flesh there. Hail Poetry.
“Well?”
She grew impatient, likely set off her rails by the intense scrutiny of my
whacky stare.
“Uh, keep the card,” I blurted, sliding out from the booth. “To run a
tab.”
“Run a tab? This isn’t the Old West. We don’t run tabs here.”
I was done. I was so done. I didn’t care if I left my card behind. She
could rack up charges on all the fandom t-shirts in the world for all I cared.
I needed to leave before I let the Pirate King take over. As I left the
building, I decided my suspicions were correct. They definitely piped
something through the vents. But why did it affect only me?
18
TACO WEDNESDAY
Beth
“WHY DO rich guys think they can impress women by throwing their
money around like glitter?” I plopped onto a barstool and slammed the
check holder on the counter. I didn’t care who saw me sitting on the job. I’d
had it.
“Did he leave you another hundred-dollar bill?” Charlotte gave me a
quick glance and continued chopping limes.
“Worse. He told me to keep his credit card and took off.”
“So charge it and give yourself a nice tip.”
“What’s twenty percent of three dollars and fifty cents?”
“Um… seventy cents.”
“Hmmm.” I slumped lower on the barstool. “That won’t even buy me a
nail polish at the dollar store. I hate him.”
“Don’t be ridiculous.”
“Why does he have to bother me at work and challenge me to a staring
contest?”
“It’s pretty obvious he’s into you.”
“No way. He’s a bully. He just came to flex his muscle in my face.”
“Exactly,” she nodded. “A very nice muscle.”
“Shut up.”
A nice muscle. Lots of nice muscles. Everywhere. Ugh! I wondered if
washing that man right outta my hair was actually a thing. It was worth a
try. And what was that stupid little speech of his? I don’t have the talent to
act naturally in social situations. What kind of lame apology was that?
Will came back the next day. And the day after that. Each time he sat in
the same booth, and I brought him his Bud Lite, which he never drank. We
didn’t speak a word, and I happily charged his card with an added twenty
percent gratuity. I was rolling in the big bucks now. I almost had enough for
an iced americano at Starbucks. A few more visits, and I could afford a
cinnamon bun. Woo hoo!
I noticed a new addition to the autographed black and whites on Sir
William Lucas’ celebrity wall after Will’s third visit. It was signed “the best
service in Hollywood” next to a loopy signature in gold sharpie. Brilliant.
When a few days passed, I thought I’d be rid of him, but the day before
Christmas Eve, he came again, but this time he brought a guest. Why he
chose Lucas Lodge to have lunch with Fitz Hanlon was a mystery beyond
my understanding. Sir William Lucas was all over himself with joy,
imputing Will’s frequent visits as a compliment to himself. Charlotte had to
refrain him from creating a plaque that read William Darcy’s table.
I actually grew to like Fitz a lot. He still owed me a rematch in ping
pong after he beat me impressively at Cole’s party. I called him on having
an unfair advantage because he was stone-cold sober. He didn’t deny it. I
didn’t admit I was horrible at ping pong, either.
I brought Will his usual Bud Lite which he frowned at and then turning
to Fitz, I greeted him with a smile. His presence at the William Darcy table
rendered it impossible to ignore Will altogether, but I was willing to play
nice for Fitz’s sake. His features brightened when I approached the table,
followed by an amused perusal of my uniform.
“Oh em gee, Beth! Why are you dressed like a wench?” His smile was
contagious, and his energy was enough for the whole restaurant to run on
for a week. To say Fitz was like the energizer bunny was an understatement.
“This is my uniform, thank you.”
His jaw dropped, and he bounced his expression from me to Will and
back again. “You work here? I didn’t know that. Will, did you know that?”
“Yes,” was Will’s bored, laconic reply.
Fitz rolled his eyes. “Don’t mind Will. He’s in a mood.”
“A man of few words,” I agreed.
“Come sit next to me,” he said, sliding over in the booth.
“I can’t,” I said. “I’m on the clock.”
“She can’t socialize while working.” Will had his face buried in the
menu but chanced a glance in my direction. “She hardly speaks to me at
all.”
“Well, I can’t say I blame her.” Fitz laughed. “So, what’s good here?”
“Order anything you want,” I said with a grin. “Will has a tab. Should I
start you with some oysters Rockefeller? The filet mignon is also an
excellent choice. It’s grass fed and wrapped in bacon.”
Will narrowed his eyes and offered me a thin-lipped smirk. Game on.
Fitz groaned appreciatively. “Mmmm. Sounds delicious. Medium rare
for me. Will?”
“Oh, Will likes his meat bloody,” I said with a devilish smirk. He just
nodded stupidly. “I recommend a bottle of Opus One to pair with your
meal.”
Will’s eyes popped out of his head. “That’s an eight-hundred-dollar
bottle of wine.”
At least I got some kind of reaction from him.
“Sorry, but that’s the best we have,” I said. “I hope it’s good enough for
you.”
“What does a place like this get off having eight-hundred-dollar bottles
of wine?”
“Is there a problem, Your Majesty?”
“The sign outside boasts of the best Taco Wednesday in all the realms.
Who does Taco Wednesdays? It doesn’t exactly scream fine dining.”
“Well, Your Majesty, perhaps if you got off your lofty perch, you’d see
how the other half lives.”
“Oh? Let’s see.” He ran his finger down the appetizer menu. “Does
Opus One pair well with the St. James Nachos, or do you recommend the
Regency Chili Fries?”
Actually, the chili fries should have come with a side of Pepto Bismol,
but I didn’t tell Will that. Instead, I contented myself with, “Tell me. How’s
the weather up there in your castle? Can you see Catalina on a good day?”
His eyes flashed over my atrocious costume. “Enjoying the view
immensely, thanks.”
“What are you two even talking about?” Fitz cut in. Will and I ceased
fire and turned our heads to him like synchronized swimmers. His eyes
volleyed between us. “You sound like an old married couple.”
Our heads whipped back to one another, my features cringing, his
flushed and bothered. The veins in his neck were protruding, bulging
tunnels ready to burst, reaching the surface of his skin. His jaw ticked and
set like stone on his somber face while his eyes pierced through the fog of
discord we’d created.
“The Opus One will be fine, thank you.” His eyes never left me, and I
could feel the weight of his stare as I walked to the bar to place the order.
“This is a far leap from the usual Bud Lite,” said Charlotte with dollar
signs in her eyes. “How did you manage this?”
“I got skillz.”
“What you got is an admirer.” She nodded in Will’s direction as she
polished two wine glasses. I casually glanced over my shoulder to find Fitz
chatting away to a very inattentive Will, who watched my interaction with
Charlotte with pointed interest. Was he worried I’d spit in his glass or
something?
“Why is he staring like that?” I groaned. “It’s creepy.”
Charlotte shot me a ‘girl, you cray cray’ look. “Creepy? Really? Are
you blind?”
I huffed. “Just because he’s good looking doesn’t give him the right to
ogle people at work. It’s making me uncomfortable, like he’s waiting for me
to make a mistake.”
Charlotte crawled into the cabinet behind the bar and emerged a
moment later with the Opus One.
“Whatever you say, Beth. I’m sure he’s moonlighting as a secret
shopper. Oh, look! He’s making his report now. You’re so busted.”
I admit, she made me look. He was still staring with his signature sour
expression, and Fitz was still talking his ear off.
I snatched the bottle of wine and one glass. “Give me another Bud
Lite.”
“Only one wine glass?” she asked.
I was about to confirm her question but thought better of it when Will
stepped outside to answer his phone.
“On second thought, I’ll take two glasses. And the Bud Lite.”
Charlotte shrugged and popped the top off the beer, which I happily
placed on my tray with the wine service and made my way back to Fitz. He
was taking in all the visual stimulus Lucas Lodge had to offer. There
certainly was no shortage of interesting things to occupy one’s eyeballs.
“That’s a real beaver,” I said, nodding to the shelf of taxidermic animals
as I uncorked the bottle. He chuckled.
“If I were a straight man, I’d have a joke for that.”
“If you were a straight man, I wouldn’t be talking to you right now.” I
winked, pouring a sampling of wine and offering him the glass for approval.
He nodded for me to fill the glass, and I poured two generous portions,
plopped onto Will’s side of the booth and took a long gulp.”
Fitz regarded me quizzically. “I thought you couldn’t sit on the job.”
“Oh. That was a lie.”
“I see.” He laughed. We clinked our glasses and sipped the Opus One in
silent appreciation for a long moment. It was the best wine I’d ever tasted.
I’m not sure if I’d say it was worth eight hundred dollars, but it was
definitely worth charging Will Darcy eight hundred dollars.
“What’s twenty percent of eight hundred?” I asked nonchalantly.
“One hundred sixty.”
I raised a brow. “Not bad for a day’s work.”
The wine, plus two filet mignon dinners—I was looking at a two-
hundred-dollar day. “Not bad at all.”
I wondered how long I could hold on to Will’s credit card and if I could
somehow strong-arm him into bringing a large party next time. Lobster for
everybody!
“May I ask why…” Fitz began tentatively.
“Well, we’re technically supposed to only add eighteen percent, but I
figure twenty is customary. Although, some people still only tip fifteen
percent…”
“No. Not that.” He shook his head. “Why do you work here? Aren't you
on equity contract?”
“You want to know why I still wait tables when it would seem I’ve
made a career in theatre.”
“Exactly.”
I shrugged. “What happens when the show closes? What happens when
I don’t book another gig for months? There’s no guarantee.”
“Okay.” He took another sip of his wine. “I have another ‘why’
question.”
“Why am I drinking on the job?”
“Actually, I was going to ask why you wouldn't be talking to me if I
were a straight man, but the drinking question’s interesting, too.”
I let out a long sigh, somewhat warmed by the tannins in the wine. Fitz
didn’t really want to be bored with my feeling towards men. The fact was, I
had trust issues. I supposed part of it stemmed from my recent
disappointment in Bing. I seriously didn’t think there were any good men
these days. Except the gay ones. Why were all the good ones gay? It didn’t
seem fair.
Then there was Brett. I thought he was the one. But when Hollywood
called, he turned into someone I didn’t recognize. Breaking up with me
would have been a blessing. But he humiliated me at an important screen
test. If I’d gotten that job, it would have changed my life. Actually, it did
change my life because the next day, the video went viral on Brett’s
YouTube channel. He’d used my humiliation for personal gain. I vowed
never to trust another guy ever again. Especially Hollywood types.
“You know, Fitz,” I said after some thought, “I just don’t believe in
happily ever after. Men and women can’t be friends, and I’d rather not
waste my time.”
He gave me a small nod and was silent for a long time after that,
watching me sip my wine and pouring more for us to enjoy together. I was
probably drinking faster than I should have, especially considering I was
devouring Will’s portion. We had gone through three quarters of the bottle
when Fitz said thoughtfully, “You’re right. There are no guarantees.”
Interesting. Most people didn’t agree with me on anything, but I just
rolled with it.
“The entertainment business is fickle,” he continued. “You might not
get another gig for a while, that’s true, but you also might get carpal tunnel
or something and lose your ability to wait tables.”
“Okay, you have a point there.”
“And call me a Disney princess, but I believe in happily ever after. How
will you know if you don’t take a chance? Audition for more shows, put
yourself out there. Go on dates. The only guarantee is failure if you don’t
try.”
This was the first time I’d seen this side of Fitz. He was all business at
rehearsals, surprisingly fun at parties, but here he was getting all deep on
me. Maybe it was the wine, but my eyes welled up with moisture. I wanted
to return his sentiment, say something profound that would match his wise
words, but his features shifted like he had turned off some switch, and he
laughed. “And then the bartender says, ‘I’m sorry, we don’t serve breakfast
here.’”
“What?”
“Just laugh.” His eyes flickered behind me and sure enough, Will was
approaching the table. By the time he reached us, Fitz and I were laughing
our heads off. I had no idea why, but who cared?
“You are too much!” I portioned the last of the wine between us, and we
offered an air toast to one another.
“I’ll be here all week,” he quipped. “Tip your waitress.”
“I’ll do that,” I said. “Twenty percent.”
Will loomed over the table, looking between the empty wine bottle to
the two untouched Bud Lites, to Fitz, and then he let his eyes land on me
sitting in his seat.
“I have to get going,” he said with a frown. He turned his attention to
Fitz in a silent command to join him.
“Well, Beth,” Fitz said, rising from the booth. “It’s been fun, but my
Uber is leaving.”
“But your food should be coming out soon,” I protested. “At least wait a
few minutes so we can pack it to go.”
But Will was already out the door, so Fitz shrugged and gave me a quick
kiss on the cheek. “Sorry, love. Let me know how it tastes.”
As he retreated from view, all I could think of was how selfish Will’s
behavior was to expect his friends to give in to his demands. Even Fitz, who
I admired, was ordered around like a page boy. What was so important to
drive Will out of the lodge so quickly? He hadn’t even tried the chili fries.
19
SOME DISENCHANTED EVENING
Beth
JANE WAS HOME FOR CHRISTMAS. It was all the present I needed,
although the whole cheesecake she brought from Junior’s was pretty
awesome, too.
After the obligatory celebrations with my family in which my father
made a fabulous prime rib, the Lucases came over for a cringeworthy gift
exchange where my mother drank too much, Charlotte accompanied me
back to the apartment where Lydia and Jane had games planned for the
whole night.
I’d never had so much fun playing poker and the arrival of Jorge,
Denny, Cole, and Holly made it even better. My little apartment could
hardly fit all those people, but that made it all the more hilarious and
memorable for our insane game of Guestures. You’d think a bunch of
performers would be good at a game where you have to pantomime
everything, but most of us were spectacularly horrible at it. Lydia beat us all
by a landslide, only because she had no inhibitions to make a complete fool
of herself.
We didn’t make a big deal over exchanging gifts, but Jorge took me
aside and gave me a vintage book he picked up in a boutique book store. It
was a first edition of The Hobbit, signed by J.R.R. Tolkien. It was one of the
most thoughtful gifts I had received in my life. Made me feel a little rotten
about the lame sweater I bought him. He hardly ever wore regular shirts. I
don't know what I was thinking when I bought it.
We were in the hallway to the bedrooms, partly secluded from the rest
of the party when he gave me the gift. I felt like he was ashamed for giving
me a used item and didn’t want the others to see, but I assured him how
much I loved it and gave him an appreciative hug. His eyes flickered over
me in unveiled carnality, and he leaned one arm over me against the wall to
the point of backing me up against it.
There was an intensity in him that unhinged me. He’d always been
comical in the little flirty innuendos that spilled from his lips, but this time,
his features claimed a deliberate intention, a heady, suggestive, potency in
his body language.
“I’d like to stay the night,” he whispered.
Not a chance, bucko.
First of all, he was drunk. I didn’t need an encore performance of Naked
Man in my shower. The last time he was in there he used my razor. I was a
strong supporter of guarding my personal sundries. Furthermore, I wasn’t
sure how I felt about Jorge, even if he had been sober. He projected so
many crossed signals, it was hard to keep up. I didn’t have time for that.
Nope. No sir.
I’d thought about the things Fitz had said to me. They made sense.
There were no guarantees. But I decided to concentrate on one ambition
outside my comfort zone at a time, and that was my career. After the show
closed, I would follow Jane’s example and go to New York. Maybe I’d even
move there if I could afford it. Who didn’t love sharing a two-bedroom
apartment with ten other girls for a small fortune? I could totally do it.
What I couldn’t do was Jorge. I convinced myself quite easily that he
couldn’t be all that serious, especially since his words were a little slurry.
“I’ll ask Denny to take you home,” I said, slipping out from under his
arm, but he grabbed my wrist and said, “Beth, I’m afraid.”
Ummmm.
“Afraid?” I asked. “What are you afraid of?”
He stared deeply into my eyes, suddenly grave. “Obscurity.”
“I don’t think you have to worry about that.” I laughed.
“I do,” he replied. “The Darcys will make sure of it.”
I was a little troubled as to why he would choose that moment to bring it
up. The Darcys. Plural. Not just Will, but his little sister, too. What were
these people up to now? I patted his hand and wiggled my wrist from his
grip.
“I won’t let that happen,” I said. “I promise.”
I was happy to send him off that night so I could be alone with my
thoughts.
What was the deal with Will Darcy that kept him constantly in my life?
I couldn’t very well avoid him at the theatre for obvious reasons, but then
he showed up at my work and now was making an appearance on
Christmas, even if it was only in conversing about him. It was like that
show Man in the High Castle where every film reel, every scenario in the
parallel universe involved the same woman. Will was that woman. He was
everywhere. And when I say everywhere, I mean everywhere.
I shouldn’t have been surprised to see him at the Rosings New Year’s
Eve Ball, but when I saw him, I wanted to run. His eyes met mine from
across the room, searing into me like a sniper’s target. I wondered if I had
one of those red laser dots on my forehead. He was at the bar, and without
letting his eyes lose focus on me, drained his drink, set the lowball glass on
the bar, and made the trek through the crowd towards where I stood. You’ve
heard the term deer in headlights? That was me, because although I knew
danger was approaching, I was unable to move. The T-Rex had his sights
set on his prey, and I had nowhere to turn.
“There you are.” Charlotte stepped in front of me, right within Will’s
path, and he halted. Thank goodness! “We were beginning to worry you
wouldn’t show.”
She looked absolutely radiant in a black sequin halter dress. Her hair
was in a loose French knot with tendrils of her auburn hair cascading down
onto her fair skin. I don’t think I’d ever seen her so dressed up. But her
smile was the most beautiful accessory she wore. Her arm looped around
Colin’s, and she absolutely beamed. She was truly and deeply happy.
Colin wore that same goofy smile on his face, happy as a clam to have a
woman on his arm as gorgeous as Charlotte. He looked so different.
Handsome. I tried to put my finger on the change I saw in him when I
realized he wasn’t wearing any makeup. He no longer looked like a
confused drag queen. Without layers of foundation and mascara caked on
his face, he appeared younger, with a boyish charm. He and Charlotte were
adorable together. She was good for him. I couldn’t say the same for his
choice of dress wear, though. He wore a light-pink tux with a ruffled shirt
and a matching pink top hat. Wisps of hair curled from under the brim and
framed his face, the fringe of his bangs almost covering his eyes. He had his
own style, that was for certain.
“How long have you been standing around all by yourself?” Charlotte
pulled me in with her other arm. What a trio we were. The egret, the swan,
and the flamingo. (I was the egret).
“Not long,” I lied.
In truth, I’d been looking for her for what seemed like forty-five
minutes. That place was huge. There was a main ballroom, where we were
currently conversing. Then there were several smaller rooms with gaming
tables and other interesting entertainment. And outside was an enormous
garden with a hedge labyrinth and secluded sitting areas surrounded by
conifer trees. I’d made a full circle around the property before ending back
at the ballroom.
“Beth.” Colin took my hand in his, so we were standing in a lopsided
circle. I would have protested had he began to dance the Horah. “I hope
there are no hard feelings between us. I actually want to thank you
because…”
He let go of my hand to rest his palm on Charlotte’s and gazed in her
eyes with a sappy expression. “…Charlotte has made me the happiest of
men.”
I didn't know how much of their sugary sweet exchanges I could handle,
but I didn’t know anyone else at the ball, unless you counted Will, which I
preferred not to. I’d put on a smile, support my friend, and make it home
before the ball dropped. Technically, the ball had already dropped on the
East Coast. Happy New Year! My idea of the perfect New Year’s
celebration included cozy pajamas, pizza, and Netflix.
I plastered on a thrilled expression which contained too many teeth and
respectfully slunk out of Charlotte’s vice grip. I think she was a little
nervous around all the industry big wigs and supermodels.
“No hard feelings here,” I said. “I’m happy for you both.”
“Excellent,” he said with a huge smile. “Because I want to introduce
you to the great Catherine de Bourgh, founder of Rosings Institute and
international ballet legend.”
With an introduction like that, no wonder the pressure was on for
Charlotte. She’d met her briefly once before and told me the woman was a
force to be reckoned with. I get that she wanted to make a good impression
on her boyfriend’s boss, but if the woman was so fierce, I didn’t see why
she couldn’t just avoid her company. It’s not like she was a dancer or
anything.
Colin led the way though the serpentine path beyond the crowded
ballroom, down a paved walkway and into an elaborate private room. There
was a password to enter, like a speakeasy. It was kind of cool. Catherine de
Bourgh sat on a wingback chair with her hands folded on her lap. Lots of
people mulled about, drinking and conversing in small groups, but there
were a few fortunate (or unfortunate however way you look at it) people
sitting in her circle holding court. When we approached her, I had to fight
the urge to bow or curtsy.
“And who is this you have here, Mr. Hunsford?” she said with a regal
air.
Colin removed his hat and introduced me, half prideful, and half
groveling. “May I introduce a member of my company at the Gardiner,
Miss Elizabeth Bennet.”
He crowned the introduction with a flourish of his arm. His hat, a pink
beacon in my direction. I smiled, not entirely sure of the correct protocol.
After all, she was an international ballet legend. She narrowed her wrinkled
eyes on me and puckered her lips into a frown.
“Well?” she said after a short pause. “Do you talk?”
“What?” I was fought off guard by her sour disposition. Of course I
could talk.
She rolled her eyes. “I’ll forgive your unintentional incivility. You must
be quite overcome by the grandeur of Rosings.”
“She is,” exclaimed Colin. “Quite overcome.”
“I wasn’t speaking to you, Mr. Hunsford. You must let the lady answer
for herself.”
Alrighty then.
Now I had an idea why Charlotte clung so tightly to me earlier.
“Mr. Hunsford gets a little ahead of himself sometimes.” Catherine
shook her head. “But I’m sure you already knew that.”
“Yes,” I said with a nod. “I mean, yes to your earlier question. This
place is ginormous.”
She glanced over me in open assessment, starting from my not so fancy
footwear to the top of my hastily coiffed up-do. She shrugged her brows in
a she’ll do sort of expression.
“You may sit.” She nodded in the direction of three recently vacant
chairs. Colin and Charlotte swiftly took her up on the invitation, which I
followed with more trepidation. I felt like I was on an interview for a job I
didn’t want.
“I see you’ve brought the heiress.” Her eyes cast briefly onto Charlotte.
Heiress?
Charlotte shot me don’t you dare glance. What exactly was that about?
“Yes,” said Colin. “My girlfriend Charlotte.”
“Thank you for the invitation.” Charlotte offered a genuine smile to the
imposing woman, which won her a glance of approval.
Then the woman’s eyes rested on me. “I hear you’re an actress.”
I laughed under my breath and said, “If you can call it that.”
That little quip earned me another sour frown. “Do you dance?” she
questioned.
“Does flossing count?”
Her frown became more pronounced. Apparently, they didn’t consider
flossing a serious dance move at Rosings.
“I’m more of a singer that moves well,” I amended.
“She's being modest,” said Charlotte. “She’s actually a triple threat.”
I was sure Charlotte was biased when it came to my talent. Plus, she
was about as proficient a judge of theatre as I was of impressionism. I knew
Monet was good, but I couldn’t tell you why.
Catherine de Bourgh disregarded Charlotte entirely and plowed through
my interrogation.
“If you practiced more, you’d improve. My granddaughter Anne was
such a frail little thing, but she grew stronger the more she practiced. You’d
hardly recognize her if you knew her before she took classes.”
Colin interjected, “Anne is one of the principal dancers in the company.
She was Clara in the Nutcracker.”
“You must be so proud,” I said with sincerity.
“I am,” she beamed. “But there’s always room for improvement. That’s
why I invite friends of Colin to use my small barre room to practice. If
you’d like to take advantage of my offer, I’m sure you won’t be in the way.”
“Um, thank you?”
“I would be able to find your deficiencies right away. There are very
few people with my eye for talent. And if I had taken up singing as well as
dancing, I would have excelled at it.”
“I only wish I would have started dancing earlier,” I admitted.
“How old are you?”
“Old enough to know what to do with my young face.”
It amused me to find the astonishment on her face at not receiving a
direct answer. Also, I loved quoting Gene Kelly movies whenever
opportunity arose.
“You are a spunky one, aren't you? Well, you’ll never be a ballerina at
your age, but you could pick up a few moves that will help you in the
theatre.”
A fourth chair landed in place in our strange little pow wow, and Will
plopped down, straddling it, resting his arms on the back.
“What are you doing here?” cried the old woman.
“You invited me.” Will glanced briefly at us, his attention landing on
Colin’s pink suit for a few extra seconds.
“Well, I didn’t think you’d show up.” She was a little salty, but
something hinted to me that was the nature of their relationship. It certainly
didn’t seem to faze him. He just shrugged.
“If you’re looking for Anne,” she said, “you just missed her. You might
want to check the VIP room.”
Wasn’t this the VIP room?
Will shifted in his seat like he was trying to get comfortable but
couldn’t. “No,” he said. “I’m fine right here.”
A smirk overcame her face, and she flushed a little when she turned to
me and said, “These young people are so attached to me.”
Will stole a glance in my direction. Was I judging? Not at all.
“Why don’t you find Anne and ask her to dance?” Catherine was trying
to shoo Will away. Probably to drill me with more probing questions. She
winked at him. “You don’t want some other man to claim her for a New
Year’s kiss.”
Practically engaged to Catherine de Bourgh’s granddaughter. That’s
what Jorge told me. I didn’t know the girl, but I already felt sorry for her.
Will remained silent, casting his eyes towards me to gauge my reaction.
I was finding the exchange rather amusing and so, I made a joke.
“It’s bad luck if you don’t kiss someone at midnight.” I laughed. “You
might remain a frog forever.”
His eyes flickered to mine, alight as blue flames, and the corner of his
lips hitched into a crooked grin.
“And what happens to the princess?” he said softly, almost coaxing.
My heart sputtered to a halt, dropping to my navel. There it was, ladies.
That devastating smile that earned him millions on the silver screen. I was
incredibly annoyed with myself for not having a stronger immunity to his
movie star charms. I swallowed unevenly and lifted my chin to regain some
semblance of control.
“Her carriage turns into a pumpkin,” I replied, practically croaking the
words. “So she bakes a pie.”
His eyes unapologetically dipped to my mouth. “It Only Takes a Taste,”
he said, deepening his wicked grin.
A warm flush washed over me. Way to quote a musical theatre song.
Bravo. His intense stares and double innuendos made the walls close in. I
had to get away from him. And now I had that song from Waitress stuck in
my head. Ugh! It was a good song, too.
“Are we talking about pies here?” Charlotte chimed in.
I abruptly stood, causing the chair to scrape on the floor.
“Where’s the bathroom?”
Catherine de Bourgh shot me an expression as if I offended her by
leaving. I didn't have to use the restroom, but she didn’t know that.
“Miss Bennet, I’m not done talking to you.”
Not done talking to me? What if I did have to go to the restroom?
I could hear her protests fade as I left the room, following me out the
door until they were only echoes into the ether. I felt bad for abandoning
Charlotte to the aftermath, but I needed to distance myself from Will. His
movie star charm was too much, and the last thing I wanted was to be his
fangirl. His eyes, though. They held an underlying magnetism that reached
too far inside my core. It made my heart drum so rapidly, it was almost
painful.
I decided after all that, a splash of cold water to my face would do me
good. The ladies room was bigger than my whole apartment and had a
separate sitting area for friends to wait. If there’s any mystery why girls go
to the restroom in groups, that sitting area would be the answer. The sofas
were so posh, I wouldn’t have been surprised if tea service suddenly
appeared, accompanied by a recording of God Save the Queen. I was
running my hands over the upholstery when Charlotte found me.
“I’m sorry I embarrassed you in front of your boyfriend’s boss.”
“Don’t worry about it,” she said with a soft smile. “You should have
seen the look on her face, though. I’m sure nobody has ever walked out on
her like that.”
We shared a laugh. I wanted to tell her the reason I bolted out of there
wasn’t because of Catherine de Bourgh, but it was suffocating to be in the
same room as Will. Everything about him caused a hot lava reaction in my
veins. Whenever he was near me, I felt sick to my stomach, and my blood
would boil, causing my pulse to race. If he didn’t repel me so much, I’d
think I had a crush on the guy. Ridiculous. But I couldn’t tell Charlotte these
things because she’d read too much into it. I decided to keep the
conversation light.
“Well, when ya gotta go, ya gotta go.”
She laughed. “She’ll get over it. Colin’s in there doing damage control.
Like Men in Black.”
“Or Men in Pink.” I couldn’t resist. Only a guy like Colin could pull off
that outfit. It actually suited him well.
“So…” She wound up for the pitch. I could see it coming. She wanted
to talk about the elephant in the room. “I was surprised to see Will.”
There it was. I knew she was jonesing to bring it up. I shrugged, trying
to pretend it didn’t affect me.
“It’s not a huge stretch,” I said. “Catherine de Bourgh is a shareholder
of Will’s production company.” I remembered what Jorge had told me about
Will’s connection to Rosings. “And he’s got something going on with the
granddaughter. Engaged, I think.”
“Anne?” she snorted. “Not even. I know Anne. There’s no way.”
“Whatever.” I feigned a nonchalant eye roll. What did I care who Will
was or wasn’t dating? It was none of my business. Charlotte eyed me
speculatively, but thankfully kept her thoughts on the subject to herself. The
downside to her silence, however, was the empty space I had to fill with my
own thoughts. They were probably more annoying than anything she could
have said.
At length, I stood up, once again ready to triumph over my killer heels,
and led Charlotte out the door.
“Don’t let me keep you. I’m sure Colin is looking for his heiress
girlfriend.” I gave her a conspiring wink.
“Oh, that.” Her face flushed. “Catherine kind of assumed I was an
heiress when she found out my father owned a restaurant. I guess she just
thought it’s a big conglomerate restaurant chain.”
“And you didn’t bother to correct her,” I nodded.
She grinned. “It’s not like she’ll ever step foot inside Lucas Lodge.”
“That’s what I thought about Darcy.”
We parted with a promise to find each other later. She didn’t want to
leave me alone, feeling guilty she had to get back to Colin when she was
the reason I came in the first place. I let her know I was fine on my own for
a while and that I was hoping to try my chances on the roulette table. I
usually played red and black. I didn’t mind risking the fifty-fifty odds. I was
exchanging some cash into chips when I ran into Fitz.
“You clean up well.” He cat-whistled with an appreciative once-over.
“They should let you out more often.”
“Thanks.” I blushed. “But I have to return the glass slippers by
midnight.” My thoughts raced to the earlier Cinderella reference I
exchanged with Will. Why did I sabotage my own thoughts like that? I
blinked them away.
He grinned with his devastatingly swoony dimples. “I didn’t expect to
see you here. I must say, it’s a welcome surprise.”
“Ditto.”
“I’m bored out of my mind.” He scanned the crowd with a disappointed
air. “Will keeps taking off, and I don’t know a soul here.”
So they were there together? Great.
“I’m sorry, did you say Will?”
He nodded. “I regret ever agreeing to carpool. I’m not entirely sure
which one of us is the designated driver but if I meet Mr. Right, I’m out.”
“Well, I know I’m a poor substitute, but I’ll be your date until you find
what you’re looking for.”
“Girl, you’re anything but a poor substitute.” He took my arm in his.
“You are absolutely delicious. Let’s go gamble.”
Next to crawling into my pajamas with my subscription to the
Broadway Channel, I considered it the next best thing to spend the evening
with Fitz. I couldn’t think of a better person to laugh with while watching
the modern dance performances on the small stages scattered throughout
the property. The costumes were interesting to put it nicely (bubble wrap
anyone?), and the choreography was certainly something we’d never seen
before. I learned I didn’t know much about the Avant Garde, and I was
perfectly fine with that. Give me Fosse any day of the week. Fitz held my
hand and pulled me from one thing to another like children in an
amusement park. He taught me a few roulette tricks, cleaning out everyone
at the table before we were kicked out. We downed a few drinks (hooray for
the open bar) and danced like fools. At last, we found an unoccupied room
with a ping pong table and challenged each other to a duel, finally giving
me a chance for a rematch. But we were both so tipsy, the ball hardly
touched the table. The effects of the alcohol also broke down our
inhibitions, and I felt emboldened to ask, “Tell me about this Mr. Right
you’re waiting for. I could be your wingman.”
He grinned, allowing the thought to burrow deep in his fantasies. Dang,
this man was cute. He hit the ping pong ball with his paddle, sending it to
bounce off the table.
“My standards are too high,” he said. “I’m convinced he doesn’t exist.”
I retrieved the ball and clobbered it into the net.
“There’s nothing wrong with high standards.”
“What about you?” he asked. “What’s your idea of the perfect guy?”
I broke out into a show tune. “I’ll know when my love comes along.”
He threw down his paddle and ran to the upright piano against the wall
(because naturally all the rooms had pianos), gracing the keys with his
skilled fingers. “Ah, good ol’ Frank Loesser.” He ran into an ascending
arpeggio. “One of my favorites.”
He was an astounding pianist. He was playing the song by heart, most
likely in the correct key, probably not missing any notes even in his half-
inebriated state.
“You sing Sarah Brown, and I’ll do Sky Masterson’s part,” he said,
playing the tonic.
I fudged through the song, making stuff up as I went along. I didn’t
care. It was fun. Fitz, on the other hand, was born in the wrong decade. He
was so classy, I’m sure he would have given Frank Sinatra a run for his
money. And boy, the man could croon.
“You never answered my question. About Mr. Right,” I pressed.
“Did I say Mr. Right?” he said with a grin. “I meant Mr. Right Now.”
I craned my head to take a peek at the party guests through the door. So
many men and women dressed to the nines. Beautiful people any day of the
week, but tonight, the magic of a new year paired with extremely expensive
designer clothes made them look like they stepped out of The Great Gatsby.
“How about that guy?” I said, pointing to a stylish man who favored a
red bowtie over the traditional black. He followed my gaze.
“Straight.”
I crinkled by brows. “How can you tell?”
“Honey, you learn to have a sixth sense about these things after too
many rejections.”
I frowned. “Oh.”
He tinkled a few notes on the piano, something romantic and lamentful.
“That’s pretty.”
“Thanks. I wrote it.”
He continued to play, the melody taking shape. “It’s a musical I’m
working on, but it’s far from finished.”
“You’re writing a musical? That’s amazing! What’s it about?”
“Oh, it’s a love story about a man who searches the world for his
destiny. Sounds kind of sappy saying aloud, but—”
“No! It doesn’t sound sappy at all. Imagine the guys that had to pitch
South Pacific. A man who falls in love with a woman across a crowded
room? Pah-lease.”
He gave me a blank look. Oh.
“You have one of those scenes in your play, don’t you?”
He shrugged. “Too cliché?”
“I’m sure yours is awesome.” I suddenly felt like a jerk.
He continued to play and smiled proudly. “It is, actually.”
Knowing Fitz, I didn’t doubt it.
He sighed, and I could see a shadow come over his expression.
Something that ran deep.
“Funny how art imitates life, huh?” I nudged him with my elbow. It was
probably a little more accurate than I realized. He stopped noodling his
finger over the keys and placed his hands on his lap, turning to face me.
“Have you ever heard the song Somebody by Depeche Mode?” he
asked.
“Uh… no.”
Wasn’t that some emo eighties band?
“It’s all about how he wants somebody to share the rest of his life with,
someone to confide his innermost thoughts, that knows him so well—all of
his faults—and loves him anyway. Somebody who will even convince him
to see things differently, and although they might disagree, they understand
each other… because…love!” He gently stroked the ivories. “I want that.”
He looked into my eyes, searching, wondering if he was the only silly
romantic in the room. It was a moment. It was heart bleeding share time.
Also we were tipsy.
“Aaaaanyway.” He shrugged it off and started playing a ragtime riff.
“Who needs that kind of salmagundi?” He smiled, losing himself in the
upbeat tempo. “Especially after what Will told me.”
Hold the phone.
“Will? What did Will tell you?”
“Oh, just something about a friend who almost threw his career down
the toilet over a girl.”
What the actual Tevye?
It couldn’t be he was talking about Bing? “What…what do you mean?
What friend?”
“I don’t know. He’s got lots of friends. Could be anyone.”
I didn’t want to come off as desperate, but I really needed this
information. I figured he would be more apt to tell me the details if I didn’t
act like some psycho beating answers about of him. Plus we’d had a
moment.
“Well,” I said, trying to remain calm, “what exactly did he say?”
He shook his head. “I shouldn’t have said anything.”
I looked into his eyes. Those blue beautiful icicle eyes. “Fitz. Hey. It’s
me, here.”
He stopped playing his ragtime tune and twisted his body slightly on the
bench to conspire with me. “All he said was that he persuaded his friend to
think twice about this woman.” He held up his palms. “I don’t know what
was wrong with her. Probably some kind of harpy. But he did say it was a
close call and he was glad he could talk some sense into this guy.”
It was Bing. I knew it was Bing. Who else could it be? My blood was
beginning to boil again. It was so fierce my eyes started to water. It was
really feeling hot in there.
“What gave him the right to interfere like that?” I was on the verge of
tears. I had to blink them back because, for some stupid reason, I didn’t
want Fitz to see me cry. “I mean, can’t his friend think for himself?”
“Wouldn’t you do the same for a girlfriend if she was making a major
mistake with a guy?”
My thoughts shot to my confrontation with Charlotte. How I tried to
keep her from Colin. It almost destroyed our friendship. And I was so very
wrong about them.
“If I did,” I said after a pause, “she wouldn’t listen to me anyway.”
He laughed. “People rarely do.”
An announcement by the DJ came from the main ballroom. Ten minutes
until midnight. Get your champagne for the countdown. Fitz grinned at me
and nodded his head toward the bar.
“Should I get us two glasses each? I say we double fist it into the new
year.”
Double fisting sounded great if it meant throwing said fists into Will’s
smug face. I nodded in acquiescence and Fitz hurried off to get the
champagne. My head was spinning, everything was suddenly unraveling
out of control. Everything, all Jane’s suffering, the heartbreak the
telenovelas! All of it was because of Will Darcy. Wasn’t the man miserable
enough without dragging his friend down his sick misogynistic path? How
dare he ruin the happiness of two of the nicest people ever. I knew Bing
couldn’t be so evil as to hurt Jane the way he did. He was just too easily
influenced—which admittedly wasn’t a very charming character trait. Still,
who knows what kinds of threats there might have been? In the end, it was
his arrogant and famous friend that was to blame for inflicting them both
with extreme sorrow. Okay, I was being melodramatic, but who does that
kind of thing? What did Will have to gain by influencing Bing to break up
with Jane? Jane! The most affectionate, generous person anyone could ever
hope to love. I wanted to scratch his eyeballs out. That horrid man! And to
have the gall to boast about how he tore them apart as if he was bragging
about his golf score. Anger washed over me with every perusal of it. I had
to get out of there.
Tall elegant forms in glitzy finery crushed against me as I bounded my
way against the tide in a sea of party guests. I could barely make it to the
nearest door into the courtyard before I imagined myself running out of
oxygen. I took a deep breath, inhaling the crisp air. It hit me with a frigid
blast, cleansing me from the fire burning between my ears. If there was
snow on the ground, I’d stick my head in it and watch steam rise like in
cartoons. The best I could do was lose myself in the gardens until I could
calm myself down enough to drive home. It was almost midnight and the
pumpkin was crashing down.
20
COLD CIVILITY
Will
Beth
THAT WAS BANANAS. One minute, I was planning Will’s demise, the
next, his lips were on mine. Will Darcy was the type of guy to get what he
wanted. All the time. I just didn’t realize he wanted me. But he couldn’t
want me. Could he? That kiss. The way his lips encompassed my mouth,
the way his breath mingled with mine, the way he held me, making me lose
all thought. It seemed sincere. For that moment it didn’t matter.
But what was I doing? Kissing him back as though I wanted to. As
though everything he’d done wasn’t an abomination to me. I supposed I
wasn’t any different than those idiotic female leads who can’t seem to stay
away from the villain in the play. Mina came to mind. She had the funky
vampire hots for Dracula even though he was like a thousand years old and
ate babies. She couldn’t help herself. I think the sexy Transylvanian accent
had something to do with it. Maybe if I’d sung Please Don’t Make Me Love
You, Will would have stabbed himself with a stake. A girl can wish.
I went home immediately, without a word to Charlotte. Without a word
to Fitz. Text messages lit up my phone so much, it was like a nightclub in
my purse. So I shut it off. I had to process what happened with Will. I still
hadn’t fully comprehended all the things Fitz said before I was assaulted by
those confusing feelings when Will kissed me. I was playing with fire with
that one. Still, that pit of despair in my stomach entertained the butterflies
with a nightcap. No, no, no, no! The butterflies didn’t get to stay. The
butterflies weren’t welcome.
The house was (thankfully) quiet when I arrived. The last thing I wanted
to do was answer questions about how my evening went. Also, my head felt
like a lowrider’s subwoofer. The pounding was relentless. And lucky me. I
had the morning shift at the lodge.
When sleep finally came to me, I dreamt of Paris. Will was there
dressed in his Pirate King costume, but he was just out of reach. And he was
wet. Completely wet from head to toe. He was drowning. But right before I
could help him (I didn’t have a plan for that but just roll with it because it
was a dream) Caroline threw herself all over him. And I felt jealous.
Needless to say, I awoke furious with myself.
I frowned at my coffee maker. Nothing that could possibly have come
out of that ten-dollar Walmart appliance was strong enough for my needs. I
stopped for a triple americano at the drive-thru Coffee Bean, and I hoped
for an easy day at work. Charlotte had the day off. I didn’t even realize my
phone was still shut off until she called the restaurant after the breakfast
crowd dispersed. I made up some lame excuse for leaving the party,
imputing my swift departure to a headache—which was partially true. The
headache’s name was Will.
She was on her way to Disneyland with Colin when she called but said
she would have no fun at all if she didn’t check on me. I could just picture
Charlotte worrying herself sick while she watched the Holiday Parade. Not
even the tin soldiers would cheer her up. Poor Charlotte.
I wished I could go to Disneyland. Only a couple more hours until my
shift was over. I’d have to content myself with watching videos when I got
home. That would do for a mediocre substitute.
I was deciding upon a comforting stack of carbolicious pancakes to
soothe my woes when the air around me was suddenly disturbed by the
arrival of Will Darcy. He looked horrible. Like he hadn’t slept. In fact, I
don’t think he had slept. His eyes were bloodshot, and his hair looked like
small birds could make it their home. I gave him kudos for changing out of
his tux at least. He didn’t go to his usual table. Instead, he made a straight
line in my direction and stopped an arm’s length from where I stood. He
looked at me with his sad eyes and unshaven face like a deflated balloon. It
was depressing.
I didn’t say anything to him. What do you say to a guy who, less than
twenty-four hours ago, kissed you like you’ve never been kissed before but
there was that little caveat of swearing to hate him forever? Yeah. There
were no words.
He held out an envelope, handing it to me without an explanation.
“Will you please read this?”
That’s all he said. Nothing more. Then he walked out the door, leaving
me astonished and bristled. He was such a drama llama, making an exit like
that. Clearly, he watched too many black and white movies. That thought
upset me because I loved black and white movies, too. Ugh!
The envelope burned at my curiosity for the next few hours until my
shift ended. I was acutely aware of its presence in my apron pocket as I set
about my chores. Filling the salt shakers, wiping down the menus, doing
fifty roll-ups. All those menial tasks gave me ample time to contemplate
what might be in that envelope. It was kind of thick. If it was a letter, it was
a long one. Who wrote letters in the twenty-first century? I pictured Will at
an old writing desk with a quill and ink. It was the best I could do to lighten
my mood until I could have some privacy to read whatever it was he
couldn’t put in an email. Maybe he knew I’d delete it without opening it.
Once I left the lodge for the day, I decided to pull into a Home Depot
parking lot to open the letter in my car. If it exploded in my face, I’d be able
to use their fire hydrant. I gingerly opened the seal and retrieved four sheets
of stationary filled with scribblings front and back. A word here and there
was crossed out, and since there were no lines, the sentences curved down
in a slant and weren’t uniform in size.
The letterhead was personalized, like he actually wrote letters on a
regular basis. Maybe he did use a quill. Will with a quill. The words he
used, careful in execution and somewhat formal were as follows:
Last night, you made two incriminating accusations against me. One, I
convinced Bing to detach himself from Jane—to put it in your words—
played with their emotions and made them miserable. The other grievance
you expressed concerned Jorge Wickham. According to your accounts, I
stripped him of his dignity and ruined his life, casting him out into the
world to live out his days in poverty and obscurity. You make me out as a
tyrant.
As you’re probably aware, Bing and I came to the Gardiner straight from a
national tour. What you don’t know, however, is that I was responsible for
introducing him to Stella, which got him the lead role in Pirates. I promised
I would guide him in his career—to steer him in the right direction so he
could enjoy some success. I did this selflessly, taking a job in a venue far
below my skill level all as a favor to him. (I won’t get into the particulars of
my arrangement with Stella that came with the deal.) Because I felt so
protective of Bing’s success, I grew increasingly concerned with the amount
of time he was spending with Jane versus his craft. He’s a talented actor,
but he has a lot to learn, and in this business, it takes tireless dedication
and hard work. Having a girlfriend is just a distraction. Even so, if I
thought there was any true affection, I wouldn’t have said anything. But I
watched them. I took advantage of every opportunity I had to observe the
way they acted in private—away from the theatre. Bing was like a docile
puppy dog; he’d follow her around anywhere. But I didn’t sense she felt the
same for him. She was aloof—she almost seemed bored around him. That’s
when I knew it wasn’t worth it.
If I didn’t intervene, he would have lived the rest of his life with regret. I’ve
seen too much pain because of unequal relationships. I don’t think I did
anything wrong in pointing out to him the consequences of making a big
mistake like that. If Jane’s feelings were hurt in the process, I’m sorry. I
didn’t intend for anyone to get hurt. I’m sure you’ll probably disagree with
me about everything. But that’s how I saw the situation, and I stand by my
decision to protect my friend.
At this point, I didn’t want to read any further. I was tempted to rip that
letter to shreds. I wanted to douse it in gasoline and set it on fire. Just the
fact that he touched the paper grated on my nerves. Typical Hollywood
actor, so wrapped up in his own ego, he couldn’t see how much two people
loved each other. Unbelievable. Jane wasn’t the type to act like an imbecile
when she liked a guy. That was Lydia’s department. What did he expect? A
soliloquy? And how dare he? How dare he make assumptions based on a
few fleeting observations? Ugh! I could have punched somebody. I exerted
my anger by laying my fist down hard on the horn. A guy getting out of his
Ford whipped his head around, looking for the culprit. He was out for blood
over such an offense.
I decided to head home, lest I do something rendering me a public
nuisance. All throughout the drive, my thoughts simmered on the haughty
words in that letter. Dating Jane wasn’t worth it? He would have lived the
rest of his life with regret? Who gave Will the authority to interpret those
signals for Bing? What was even in it for him? One would imagine, by the
tone of his words and the half-baked excuses he made, his reputation was
hinged on Bing’s life choices. News flash: Will didn’t have much of a
reputation to uphold. He took his shirt off and ran from explosions to make
box office millions. Who cared about his little escapade at a venue below
his skill level. What a Judas. I’m sure none of his fans had even heard of
Gilbert and Sullivan, much less Pirates of Penzance.
By the time I arrived at the apartment, my knuckles were white. I didn’t
even realize how tight I gripped the steering wheel. It was rather painful to
pry them loose. I had my sights set on a B.L.T. and the whole bag of kettle
chips I stole from my parents’ house. Then I would lock myself in my room
and decide if I wanted to give Will’s letter any more of my time, or if I
wanted to flush it down the toilet. After some thought, I decided the letter
didn’t deserve the honor of clogging up my plumbing, so it sat in my purse,
taunting me as I made my sandwich.
Jane and Lydia were still in their pajamas and messy buns. I envied
them. Why was I the only one with a crappy job? An Equity paycheck was
good enough for them. It should have been more than adequate for me too. I
truly considered the advice Fitz gave me. There are no guarantees. Take a
chance. Put yourself out there. I made a mental note to call him later to
apologize. There were no messages from him on my phone. Maybe he saw
me talking to Will. Ugh! Will. My eyes drifted to my purse—like if I stared
at it hard enough, my x-ray vision might kick in.
To add to the noise level in my little apartment, Holly was visiting. She
and Lydia made plans that sounded rather ominous.
“Don’t take any expensive jewelry—and if you want fireworks, Cole
knows a guy.” Holly perused internet articles on her phone, exchanging
advice with Lydia. “We’ll be on the boat most of the time, but if we go
anywhere, stash a roll of toilet paper in your purse. I guess they don’t
provide toilet paper in public restrooms.”
“B.Y.O.T.P.,” Lydia quipped.
“Oh!” Holly frowned at her phone. “This article doesn’t recommend
carrying a purse at all.”
“How about a beach bag?” Lydia suggested.
Holly shook her head solemnly. “Nope. A friend of mine had her beach
bag stolen when she was distracted by a good-looking guy who pointed out
a mustard stain on her shoulder. Apparently, it’s a big scam. One guy squirts
condiments on your back and steals anything you set on the floor while the
other guy distracts you with his bedroom, Latin-lover eyes.”
Lydia laughed. “The only thing they’ll steal from me is a roll of toilet
paper and some sunscreen. I plan on putting my pesos in my bathing suit.”
She grabbed her boobs and wiggled them, shaking her butt for extra
flavor.
“What are you two talking about?” I asked with a trace of annoyance in
my tone.
Lydia spread her palms, pumping her party-girl arms over her head.
“We’re going to Mex-i-co!”
Then she hooted like she was already at some Tijuana nightclub doing
shots. She hadn’t even left the living room and already, she was acting like
a dingbat.
“We’re going on Cole’s boat,” Holly explained. “Definitely Ensenada,
but maybe we’ll make it as far as Cabo.”
Lydia rocked her head in agreement. “Papas and Beer!”
“And fishing,” Holly added. “Cole loves to fish.”
Lydia winced, offended by the imaginary fish smell.
“Are you sure you should be going to Mexico?” I asked Lydia. “You got
Montezuma’s Revenge when you went to lunch in Chula Vista. Besides, I
don’t think Mexico’s quite ready for you.”
“She’ll be fine,” Holly said. “We’ll eat on the boat and won’t drink the
water.”
“Don’t drink the water, señorita,” Lydia said, rolling her Rs. “Only
tequila.”
“That’s what I’m afraid of,” I said.
Lydia and tequila were a bad combo. Lydia and tequila plus Mexican
nightclubs were a recipe for disaster. I spent one Spring Break in Ensenada
a few years back. The way some girls were going on, I felt a tinge of shame
for all my fellow gringos. I could only imagine the kinds of conversations
the bartenders shared with one another. Estupidos would be one of the
milder descriptions used to describe the border-hopping party seekers.
“Just be careful,” I warned.
The noise Holly and Lydia made didn’t seem to bother Jane at all. I
envied how she could sit at the kitchen table and type away on her laptop as
if no one else were in the room. I couldn’t even make a sandwich without
being annoyed by the girls gone wild preview in my living room. Even the
clicking of Jane’s fingers over her keyboard grated on my pounding
headache. I decided to take my B.L.T. into my room and just shut everyone
out.
“What are you doing?” Holly asked, glancing at Jane.
“Oh, just some creative writing.”
“My sister’s a writer,” said Lydia, sounding bored.
Jane looked up for the first time since I arrived. “I didn’t know you had
a sister.”
Lydia shrugged as if Jane had said I didn’t know you had red shoes.
“Yeah.”
“How is it we’ve never met her?” asked Holly. “I don’t think you’ve
ever mentioned her.”
Lydia pulled a bikini top from the Trader Joe's bag she kept by the
couch and put it on over her clothes.
“She doesn’t live in California,” she said, checking out her own boobs
under the bikini top. “She’s got her own thing going on at Harvard.”
Harvard?
Everyone stared at her incredulously. She had a sister at Harvard? We
all spoke with overlapping questions.
“You have a sister at Harvard?”
“How did we not know this?”
“Is she related to you?”
Lydia laughed. Her free, irreverent laugh that was so Lydia.
“Of course she’s related to me. She’s my sister.”
“One of you could be adopted,” I offered. Or somehow the smart gene
ran out before it got to Lydia. I was just assuming her sister was older, here.
“Why would you think that?” she asked innocently.
I motioned up and down her body, still holding the mayo knife. She
looked down over her body, which was clad only in emoji pajama shorts
and a barely there cotton cami, covered by the recent addition of a bikini
top. She flipped her head back up, the messy bun flopping on her head.
“What?”
Holly, Jane, and I exchanged a look.
“Nothing,” I said, returning to my sandwich building.
“What kinds of things does your sister write?” asked Jane.
“Well,” answered Lydia with a sigh, “her dream is to write for SNL, but
her stuff is too angsty. She sent me a video of her undergraduate program
doing one of her plays, and it was weird. She said it was a think piece. I
couldn’t make it through the second act.”
Of course, anything that required thinking turned Lydia off. In a way, I
admired her for that. She just didn’t care enough to use her bandwidth on
anything not related to fun. She was carefree. If an arrogant movie star had
given her an earth-jolting kiss last night, she wouldn’t be dwelling on it like
I was. She’d probably just laugh and brag about it on Snapchat.
I let the conversation between my three friends fade as I took my
sandwich and potato chips into my room, shutting the chatter out of my ears
so I could pay attention to the monologue in my head. Will Darcy kissed me
last night. And I didn’t hate it. My lips tingled at the memory.
I should have hated it. I should have fled for the hills. But when his
imposing form hovered over me, taking my head in his elegant hands, I let
the nearness of him capture me, and I melted into the kiss. The ground
reeled, taking my insides for a ride. I’d never been kissed like that. He was
definitely an expert kisser. But it felt real. The way he cradled my head,
running a thumb over my jawline. The way his breath hitched, and his
entire body committed itself to mine. It felt real. But it couldn’t have been. I
was there. He was there. And he wanted what he couldn’t have like a bratty
kid on the playground. Hey Beth, how does it feel to be the toy du jour?
Pretty crappy with a side of fist-bumping glee. My sensical side buttoned it
up while my inner jezebel went for high fives. Traitors.
I sat on my bed eating my B.L.T. with the offending letter taunting me
to finish reading it. I gave it my best mad dog stare down with each bite of
bacon, lettuce, and tomato goodness. Each crunch of kettle chip crumbling
under my teeth was an exclamation point.
I won’t read you. Crunch.
You’re nothing but junk mail. Crunch.
But the letter stared back at me like a mobster with a Brooklyn accent.
You lookin’ at me? You can’t handle the truth.
Me: Oh yeah?
Letter: Yeah.
I don’t know why I gave it a Brooklyn accent. It just seemed
appropriate.
I set my empty plate on my side table and snatched the gangster letter in
my fist. I could handle the truth. I totally could. They were words on a page.
Nothing more. And after Will admitted his shameful participation in Bing
and Jane’s breakup, those words were empty ramblings. I perused to where
I had left off.
Now for the other accusation you charged me with. A far more serious
offense, if it were true. I don’t know how much Jorge told you about his
history with my family, but I will try to give you a brief sketch. Jorge’s dad
and my own father had a close working relationship. Greg Wickham was my
godfather. Practically family. I remember when Jorge first came to live with
him. His mother had died and all of a sudden, Greg had a son. I didn’t
understand it at the time, but I was happy to have another kid my age at
Fourth of July picnics and pool parties. We’d hide and get into all sorts of
mischief when we were young. Boy stuff. But then Greg died, and Jorge
came to live with us. He became a brother I never had. I know that sounds
lame, but that’s how I saw it. But there was always something off with him,
like he wanted the world to feel sorry for him. So, he’d do stuff to get
attention. At first, it was pretending to have a sore throat all the time or a
belly ache. Then it turned into self-harm and petty theft. I get it. He didn’t
have his parents. He was hurting. But my father did everything he could to
make him feel welcome. When we grew up, Jorge became rebellious. He’d
often leave for weeks at a time without telling anyone where he was going. I
suspected drugs.
After the course of a few months, I noticed a long thread of text messages
from Jorge on Georgia’s phone. Most of them stupid small talk like an
exchange of photos of what they ate for lunch. Sometimes, he’d ask her
about her day, what she learned in school that day, what she bought at the
mall. For about three seconds, I felt sorry she was growing up without her
adopted brother. Then the texts got into personal territory. Send me a
picture of yourself. She’d send a pouty snapshot of her face. What are you
wearing? She’d reply with poop emoji. A tight coil wrenched in my gut. He
preyed on her. Then a few texts later, he’d say how much he enjoyed seeing
her at a friend’s party. At the beach. At the coffee house she studied at most
afternoons. All that time I wasn’t present in her life because I was working
long hours on set. Sometimes out of the country. I blamed myself. If I’d only
been there. So I took away her phone and made sure she came straight
home from school. When I couldn’t pick her up, I’d send a car. She hated
that. Hated being the movie star’s sister. In retrospect, I realize I could have
handled it better. I didn’t know how to deal with a teenager.
One night, I was up late, long after she was supposed to be asleep. I was on
the other side of the house, and I wouldn’t have heard anything if it weren’t
for Lady. Her ears perked up, and she started growling in the direction of
the bedrooms. I followed her up the stairs, and that’s when I heard voices.
When I forced open the door, I saw a sight I will never unsee. Jorge had my
sister pinned down. The expression of fear on her face was conviction
enough that his advances weren’t welcome. She was sixteen.
“Shut the front door!” I didn’t realize I had said that aloud until three
heads swooshed in my direction, everyone with various degrees of shock in
their eyes.
“Beth, what the?”
“Are you okay?”
“I’ve never heard you cuss before.”
I shoved the letter under my comforter and turned my head to
acknowledge them. I smiled on one side of my mouth, dismissing their
concern.
“I didn’t cuss.”
Lydia nodded vehemently. “Knowing you, that was close enough.”
Jane came to sit on the edge of my bed and looked at me in the eyes.
She put a soft hand on my arm.
“What’s wrong?”
She knew I wasn’t reading show notes.
“I’ll tell you later,” I whispered, nodding in the other girl’s direction.
She understood. I couldn’t say anything in front of Holly and Lydia. They
didn’t take anything seriously. But Jane gave me a reassuring smile and
quietly left the room. I glanced over at Holly and Lydia, happily oblivious
to the world’s woes while they threw various clothing into piles. They made
a huge mess of my room. I told myself it was only a reflection of my life at
the moment. Just piles of stuff everywhere. No real direction. No plan.
In a last-ditch effort to read the rest of the letter in peace, I took a stroll
down to the community pool and claimed one of many unoccupied lounge
chairs. The gated-in area was perfect for a reprieve from the noise in my
apartment. The breeze made little ripples in the pool water, which glistened
with the orange glow from the setting sun. Soon, it would be too chilly to sit
there without a sweater, but only one page remained of the thick stack of
papers Will gave me. I didn’t think I’d care to read this far, but now I was
invested in learning all he had to say. I couldn't escape it now, no matter
how crazy his story was. I didn’t want to believe him. I couldn’t imagine
Jorge doing those things. But Will’s account of things was too horrific to be
made up. He wouldn’t involve his sister in the story if it weren’t true.
Thankfully, I caught him before anything happened, but because of that, and
the trail of text messages they’d been exchanging, the authorities shrugged
it off. They didn’t believe her. He got off scot-free. But my sister didn’t
recover so easily. She became more and more distant. Counseling did little,
and she became rebellious.
Beth, I’m only telling you these things so you will know the truth about
Jorge. Whatever he said about me and my family could only be half-truths
at best.
Very few people know about what my sister went through. Could you
imagine what it would do to her if the media got ahold of this story?
Keeping it hidden was the last thing I could do. I failed her. But I hope I can
at least keep you from being one of Jorge’s victims.
I know he must have given you some sob story. Maybe even told you I had
something to do with his failure in the business. But the truth is Jorge is
extremely unreliable and difficult to work with. If he can’t get a job in
Hollywood, he has no one to blame but himself. The only reason Stella took
him on at the Gardiner was to honor my father’s memory. She knows how
much Dad loved him.
I understand if you’re having a hard time believing all this. We haven’t been
stellar communicators, you and I. Fitz is one of the few people who knows
the details of what happened. He had given Georgia piano lessons while
these events took place and was with me at Lucas Lodge the other night
when I got a phone call from my sister telling me Jorge paid her a visit at
our house. I’m sure Fitz would be happy to answer any questions you may
have.
Perhaps, this will give you some idea where I'm coming from and why I act
upon my instincts in the way I’ve done recently. You and I still have to work
together once the show opens. My desire is that we come to an
understanding and can at least bury the hatchet until we part ways. Not for
my sake, but for the sake of the show.
Sincerely,
Will
I let the words sink in for a long time. It was a lot to take in, and I
wasn’t sure how to process it. I didn’t know what to think. I swore to loathe
Will for all eternity. How I wished to go back to those simple times. I
reminisced fondly of the good ol’ days when Will was just a common jerk.
Now, I felt sorry for the man, which was incredibly inconvenient. I was still
angry about the whole Bing and Jane thing.
I went back to the first page and read the letter again with the
knowledge I now had. I had a better sense of him, where his motives came
from. On my third reading, I could almost read between the lines, running
over every detail. I scanned the letter over and over until it was too dark to
read. I reclined my head and gazed at the night sky. The palm treetops
swayed in the soft breeze against the smoggy backdrop above. The rustle of
palm fronds caressed in lulling gentle waves while the roar of engines and
swooshing of tires against pavement provided a counter rhythm. The tumult
of my thoughts fell in line with the ambient sounds of Los Angeles
apartment living. Every now and then, voices and clanging dishes would
carry on the wind from beyond someone’s window. Iron bars would cast
dancing shadows over the pool whenever headlights shone in passing.
Sounds of footfall and sundry conversation whizzed by when families and
couples took the path from the parking lot to their units. A dog would bark.
Someone was watching TV. A guy spoke on the phone obnoxiously loud in
Spanish. I must have been there for a couple hours when I decided it was
time to go back inside.
The apartment was dark when I returned. Lydia left a drawing of herself
drinking margaritas on the dry-erase board we used for grocery lists. Her
eyes were bulgy and words inside a speech bubble said, Look out, Mexico.
Here comes Lettuce. Under that, Jane’s fine handwriting stated BRB: gone
to Hobby Lobby.
I was glad for the silence, but it was maybe a little too silent. I plopped
on the couch, flipping through the thousands of channels the guy next door
hacked for us. Nothing was on but reruns of the Rose Parade. I usually liked
the Rose Parade, but all the smiling faces on the floats, waving cowgirls on
horses, and marching bands made my misery even more acute by
comparison. I returned to the letter and read it again. By this time, I almost
had it memorized. I was a glutton for punishment. Looking back on my
memories with Jorge only confirmed Will’s account of his character. Where
I once saw a young, hot, fun surfer, I realized there was no redeeming
quality in Jorge. He was just a party guy and a flirt. From the first moment I
met him, it was all double entendres and stripping himself of his shirt at
every opportunity. The attention he got from the chorus girls at the theatre
—he was all over that. He was in his element. And then there was
Caroline’s warning. As much as I hated to admit it, she was right about him
—in her own bigoted, Caroline way.
I always suspected he was a player. That was no newsflash. But now
that I’d read Will’s letter, things made sense. Jorge was so worried all the
time. Could it be he thought Will might expose him?
Suddenly, I felt like an idiot. Jorge had me eating right out of his hands
with his bedroom eyes and sad story about his childhood—how much he
suffered because of the Darcys. Then I remembered how friendly he was to
my sister—all the times he encouraged me to invite her along with us
places. She was only seventeen—one year older than Georgia had been. I
shuddered to think what might have happened if I’d included her as Jorge
so often suggested. What was wrong with me? I’d always been proud of my
excellent judge of character. But I was wrong about Colin and now, so
detrimentally wrong about Jorge. I was even wrong about Will.
Every time I turned it over in my head, Jorge’s charm faded more and
more. But the most disturbing thing of all was that I saw Will in a
completely different light. It had been so fun to direct all my abhorrence
toward him. Now what was I supposed to do? I couldn’t exactly join the
Will Darcy fan club. That would involve attending weekly meetings with
Caroline. It would majorly suck beans. I decided to let all this new
information percolate for a while. In a week, I’d go to Stella’s charity
carnival and after that, there’d be a few days before I had to face Will at the
theatre. It would be awkward but doable and certainly not the end of the
world.
I opened my laptop and clicked through the trades. It was time to take
Fitz’s advice. There are no guarantees. Only regrets.
22
THE WINTER OF OUR DISCONTENT
Will
THE FEDEX DRIVER came to my house for the ten millionth time in a
week. Today, Stella briskly swooshed away one rather large, flat box from
my hands.
“I’ll take that, thank you,” she chirped merrily.
Stella had been a permanent fixture at my house since the day after
Christmas. She was a spry force to be reckoned with in her winter years.
The round-the-clock preparations for her charity event seemed to magically
float into place by her tireless orchestration. A constant movement of
elegant rental tables, tents, booths, stages, and rides were erected all over
my house and lawns. I couldn’t tell you where most of my furniture had
gone, only that my living room was transformed into a ballroom at the Ritz
Carlton. A great tent extended beyond the back deck, and the front lawn was
littered with carnival rides and even more tents and stages. Why did I ever
agree to this? I supposed it was the sweet charm spread across Stella’s face
when she asked me. Her organization had outgrown the venue from prior
years, and I couldn’t resist those pleading, soft eyes. That woman could con
a con artist with those baby blues. It made me wonder how many hearts
she’d broken as a young woman.
“Wait a minute.” I caught the corner of the box to make sure my eyes
weren’t playing tricks on me but after reading the address label, I let go as if
it scorched my skin.
“Why is Elizabeth Bennet getting Bloomingdale’s deliveries at my
house?”
Stella shrugged with her arms stretched around the edges of the package
and smiled wryly.
“For the gala, of course. You wouldn’t expect the poor child to carry an
evening gown in a knapsack all day. She’ll have to change into it before
dinner.”
Why could I not escape this pixie girl? She was everywhere. Now, she
was having evening gowns delivered to my house?
“Couldn’t you have found someone else to take Emma’s ticket?” I said
with more aggravation than I cared to display. I would have preferred to
avoid Beth for as long as possible before preview night at the Gardiner. She
hated my guts. Plus, I couldn’t control my manners around her. My intellect
reverted to caveman status whenever she was within a hundred feet from
me. Her feisty wit and scrappy obstinacy were all that refrained me from
clubbing her over the head and throwing her over my shoulder. The thought
of her in my home, touching my furniture, using a guest room to slip into a
slinky dress—at least I hoped it was a slinky dress—oh hell, I lost my train
of thought.
Get a grip.
I stared at the offending box and willed it to contain a burlap sack. A
burlap sack from Bloomingdale’s. That didn’t help. It just brought on more
caveman scenarios.
Stella didn’t answer my question. She just grinned with a twinkle in her
eyes and winked. This was all her fault. She flittered away with Beth’s
seduction-in-a-box with a bounce in her step just as my cell phone went off
in my back pocket. The caller ID displayed contact info for Catherine de
Bourgh. Oh, how wonderful. Was this my day to be harassed by elderly
women?
“William Martin Darcy,” she snapped without preamble, “I want to be
sure I have a place for Anne and myself at the head table.”
She never did have patience for pleasantries, even over the phone.
“Hello to you, Catherine.” I, on the other hand, wasn’t above a cordial
yet pointless greeting. “How may I help you?”
I learned long ago that the way to grate on her nerves was to either
ignore her completely or be so sugary sweet, it would offend a dentist.
“I have donated a large sum for the honor of attending the gala, and I
intend to be seated at your table.”
I decided to channel my inner customer care representative who doesn’t
give a fig about your first world problems.
“I’m so sorry,” I said. “You’ll have to take that up with Stella. She’s in
charge of the seating chart.”
“That woman doesn’t answer her phone.”
“She’s been a little busy.”
I could hear a frustrated sigh on her end of the line.
“At least tell me who you have at your table,” she demanded.
My thoughts raced to Beth. Lovely Beth in a burlap sack from
Bloomingdale’s. Stella already placed her name card next to mine at the
VIP table. At first, I was livid, but now with Catherine yelping in my ear,
Beth at my side sounded like a superior alternative to the De Bourghs.
“I’m afraid I can’t tell you that, ma'am,” The customer service rep was
getting cheeky.
Catherine was silent for a long while. For a moment, I thought she’d
hung up. But then she said with resignation, “You’ll take Anne around to
meet your colleagues. Wear a blue bowtie to match her dress.”
“I’ll make sure Anne has a wonderful time,” I promised. Honestly, I
didn’t anticipate I would have time to show anybody around. The jobs
Stella had for me to make sure the gala ran smoothly wouldn’t allow for it.
But Stella assured me Anne would hit it off with a certain gentleman on the
guest list. Maybe he’d wear a blue bowtie.
Once Catherine was done giving me sufficient instructions—from her
preferred dinner music to the foods she had an aversion to—she hung up,
and I looked all around me to make sure no other old ladies were in line to
torment me. But there were none. The only tormenting going on was in my
head. I wasn’t exactly heartbroken. That would imply Beth had accepted
my heart long enough to shatter it. Downtrodden was more the right word. I
was a miserable mess. I naively thought that if I could explain my feelings
in a letter, she’d be at my doorstep, aching to kiss me again. Or at least a
text. But five days had passed without a whisper. Had she even read it?
Couldn’t she see I was in torment?
It was probably too forward of me to kiss her on New Year’s Eve. But
the look in her eyes seemed an invitation. They flashed with a challenge,
provoking my concession. For one glorious instant, the universe exploded
around us. It was everything. She was everything. Her beautiful body gave
in to my touch, and a little moan escaped her throat. She had to feel it too.
That was no ordinary kiss. I never knew it could be like that.
But then she pulled my hair and bit my lip. Who does that? A feisty,
scrappy pixie who hated my guts, that’s who.
To top it all off, I was being a terrible brother. Georgia only had a
couple more weeks before she had to go back to New York. I dreaded her
absence, but at the same time, I must have been the worst companion
imaginable. Thoughts of Beth occupied my every thought to the point of
causing physical pain. A constant tightening in my chest felt as though it
was caught between the jaws of a nutcracker. And I felt queasy all the time.
I’d lost my appetite completely.
It wasn’t hard for Georgia to figure out something was wrong. She’d
baked Mexican Wedding Cookies—my favorite. She made a royal mess of
the kitchen, but the gesture was adorable. I knew she tried to get me out of
my slump, but I couldn’t bring myself to eat more than one small bite.
“Wow!” she said. “You got it bad.”
“What? No, I don’t.”
Yes, I do.
“I knew you were twitterpated, but this goes way beyond. You never eat
less than a dozen of these cookies in one sitting.”
Her little face was scrunched up in a know-it-all smirk, and she nodded
smugly.
“Has it perhaps occurred to you I’m just stressed? I have a show
opening soon, Tobias has been badgering me to sign on to another
Dangerous film and look at the state of our house.”
I waved around erratically to accentuate the chaos.
“And stop using that word twitterpated,” I added. “It makes me feel like
Bambi, and that just gets me depressed.”
“Okay, all right,” she huffed. “Not twitterpated. In love. Better?”
Whoa, whoa, whoa! I never said I was in love. I only thought about
Beth all my waking moments. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t
have daydreams without her popping into them like a zealous photo-
bomber.
Was this what love was? More than ever, I wished Dad was there. He
was crazy in love with Mom. He’d know if that’s what I was feeling for
Beth.
“No,” I replied. “Not better. But thanks for the cookies all the same.”
Georgia rolled her eyes and gave me one of those head shakes mothers
often do when their small child makes a mess.
“Don’t worry, big brother.” She slapped a hand on my back and patted it
a few times. “Everything will turn out. We got this.”
She shot me a wink and scurried away without an explanation as to
what ‘we got this’ meant. What did she mean? Who was ‘we?’ Even as I sat
there with a tin of Mexican Wedding Cookies on my lap, I had a sinking
feeling exactly what she meant, and that delivery for Beth had everything to
do with it.
23
THE GIRL WITH THE LANYARD
Beth
THE CHARITY CARNIVAL was a day away, and I was alone. Lydia was
still in Mexico with Cole and Holly, and Jane got a callback for a show in
New York. I’d never seen someone bolt to the airport so quickly. I was so
incredibly happy for her, but it made me a little sad. I knew our days as
roommates were numbered, and even though we promised to always keep
in touch, it would never be the same. I guess that’s life. Welcome to
adulting. Things change. Get over it.
But Jane being Jane was a little bit worried to leave me. She said she
was worried I might eat my weight in ice cream. Pshh. As if. (I totally
would do that.)
Jane knew me well enough to know that when faced with cruddy life
situations, my coping mechanism was to stuff my face with copious
amounts of sugar. Usually Nutella or ice cream. Or Nutella with ice cream. I
assured her the sugar would remain at normal levels and waved off her
concern with an “I’ll be fine.” Then I gave her a tight squeeze and ushered
her out the door where her Uber waited. What she didn’t know was that I’d
recently traded in sweets for French fries on top of pizza. I figured I’d get a
head start on the carnival food.
There was no reason for her to worry, though. I didn’t tell her
everything in the letter. I left out a few of the more sordid details and opted
not to go into too much where it concerned Bing. Jane was just starting to
get her life back. I didn’t need her to revert back into Cap’n Crunch hair and
telenovelas. Bing was a big boy and when it came down to it, he made his
own decisions. He’d come around if that’s what he wanted in the end. If he
truly deserved Jane, even Will’s influence over him couldn’t hold him back.
True love always wins. At least that’s what I learned from watching
Princess Bride a thousand times. Then I got angry because Princess Bride
reminded me of Will. Admittedly, everything reminded me of Will, but that
was another can of worms. So what if I left out certain details for her own
good?
Besides, Jane was too fixated on Will kissing me to hear much else. Her
grin couldn’t have been much bigger if I’d told her I won the lottery and
was elected president on the same day. Her reaction didn’t help my efforts
to dampen the little leprechaun doing cartwheels in my tummy. It was a
female leprechaun, and she liked to perform gymnastics whenever I thought
of the kiss. So I resorted to the French fries on pizza tactic to squeeze her
out.
“Are you upset I pushed him away?” I asked. She looked horrified when
I told her I stopped the kiss by pulling his hair. I didn’t mention the biting.
Even I thought that went too far.
“Upset? No! Not if you really don’t like him. Maybe you could have
been a little less violent, but hey. These things do happen.”
She threw on a little Italian inflection with the last sentence.
“But you think I shouldn’t have brought up Jorge?”
“No. You spoke your mind, that’s all.”
“You might change your mind once I tell you what happened the next
day.”
I told her how Will brought me the letter at work on New Year's Day
and his explanation of his history with Jorge without mentioning Georgia.
That alone was enough to give her pause. Jane had a hard time recognizing
the bad in anybody and could hardly believe someone could be so selfish.
She kept asking questions, trying to find a way for both Jorge and Will to be
in the right. She was sure there must be some mistake. That perhaps it was
just a big misunderstanding like every single episode of Three’s Company.
Somehow, she still held out for that final scene where the truth was revealed
and everyone laughed about it.
“I’m afraid we’re going to have to choose which man to believe,” I said
as though I was Morpheus with a blue pill in one hand and a red pill in the
other. “There’s only enough virtue between them to make one good guy and
as far as I’m concerned, the needle had been swaying more toward Will
lately.”
I saw her start at that, so I quickly added, “And it has nothing to do with
that kiss.”
Or did it?
After a few moments of thought, she shook her head.
“Poor Will. He must have been upset after you told him off. It was
probably hard to trudge up painful memories in writing you that letter.”
“Thanks a lot.”
“I’m sorry,” she said with sincerity. “I’m sure it’s upsetting for you,
too.”
“Nope. Not at all.” I put on my big girl grin. “I’ll let you be upset for
the both of us.”
“And poor Jorge,” she went on. “He seemed like such a nice guy.”
“Well, you know what they say about books and their covers.”
“Jorge has a really nice cover.” She nodded enthusiastically.
“Yep. But Will is the better book.”
She sighed and shook her head even more. “That’s enough metaphors
for me.”
I agreed. “What do you think I should do? Should I say something to
Stella?”
“No,” she said seriously. “Will would have told her if he wanted her to
know.”
She was right. The story of Georgia’s encounter with Jorge wasn’t my
secret to tell. It was a personal matter Will told me in confidence. Besides,
now that the set was finished, I didn’t think Jorge had a reason to return to
the theatre.
Jane watched me for the next few days, periodically checking the
freezer for a stash of Chunky Monkey. When she didn’t think I was looking,
she rummaged my usual hiding places for candy bars like an obsessed
parole officer. I came up clean every time. If she were clever, however,
she’d have searched my car for discarded pizza receipts. Since she left for
New York, the house was quiet, and I rebelliously let the fast food evidence
pile up in my garbage can.
I looked at my underwear-clad figure in my closet door’s full-length
mirror. Had I put on some pizza weight? Even though the charity event was
casual dress, I didn’t want to look bloated. I decided to go for a loose,
flowery Mod Cloth dress and a denim jacket. The ensemble was very
forgiving around the middle, but it made my legs look awesome—
especially in strappy sandals. I wore that dress to auditions a lot. It had cap
sleeves, a low, gathered, scoop neckline and empire waist that made my
girls appear more perky. Believe me, those poor little pebbles needed all the
help they could get.
As much as Stella’s charity event was a welcome distraction, my
thoughts would often wander back to Will. I was so harsh on him and
frankly was a little embarrassed how much I pigeonholed him into a
stereotype. He wasn’t Brett. He wasn’t even the same species as Brett.
The silence in the apartment only made that voice in my head seem
louder. Plus, I was convinced that little leprechaun in my belly was drunk.
I turned in my two weeks’ notice to Sir William Lucas with a quiver in
my voice. Oddly, it was one of the hardest things I’d ever done. The look on
his face alone made me feel like I’d just dashed a child’s dreams by telling
him there’s no such thing as Santa Claus. But Charlotte was supportive,
proud even. Mom was angry it took me so long. I could hear her chattering
on about it in the background when I called Dad. He only laughed and
whispered into the phone, “If you need money, I have a bit stashed away.”
I assured him it wouldn't come to that.
I had to admit, after several weeks of the tiring schedule of two jobs, I
was at a loss for something. I had far too many quiet hours alone to pine
over Will. I had to stop myself a few times when I tried to define what I felt.
I wasn’t pining. Definitely not.
To prove my point, I did what any perfectly indifferent person would
do. Stream all his movies and have a binge-watching marathon. With
popcorn. I was fully prepared to hate every single one of them. But I didn’t.
I was actually really invested in the storyline and sympathized with the
characters. I just had to know what would happen to them in the next
installment.
What had gotten into me? Had I somehow lowered my standards for
entertainment? Was it only because Will looked certifiably gorgeous? He
was certainly good at jumping on rooftops and hanging one-handed from
helicopters. But his ability to pull off the quiet moments were enthralling.
The raw emotion and gut-wrenching agony in his performance in the third
movie when his character’s wife died got me right in the heartstrings. I
wondered what experience he pulled from when he shed those tears. Maybe
he was thinking about his sister. Or his parents. Suddenly, I felt a deep
connection with him. Then I kicked myself because that was exactly what
delusional fan girls did. Which led me to wonder how much fan mail he got
from adoring women. It made me rage with jealousy.
That made me the most pathetic fan girl in all the land.
Will
Beth
THE MAZE of Mirrors was just a distraction. I was having too much fun
with Will. He was funny and charming, and we liked the same things. I
didn’t know what to do with this information. Also, if I were being honest
with myself, I wanted him to kiss me again. Just for research purposes, of
course.
It would be the perfect place for it, dark corridors, private alcoves,
secret doors. An experiment to theorize if the whole world would tilt again
like it did on New Year’s Eve. But once inside, I think we both immediately
regretted it. Instead of a mysterious, dimly lit tunnel of love, it was a loud,
obnoxious scream prison. A Punjab lasso would have capped the experience
quite nicely. Lady freaked out and squirmed out of my arms, almost landing
on a boisterous kid with a buzz cut. The little brat ran through the maze,
hollering and grunting to scare the smaller children. The effect was an echo
chamber of high-pitched screams and the faint smell of vomit somewhere
nearby. Will caught Lady just in time and stroked her snout. That seemed to
calm her down.
“Watch your step,” he said to me. “There might be puddles of
questionable body fluids on the floor.”
Yuck.
“I’d carry you,” he said with a grin, “but I’ve got the dog.”
How romantic.
“How do we get out of here?” I exclaimed over the ear-splitting
screams.
“Death by madness?” he quipped.
“There’s only one way,” I said with the most serious expression I could
give. “Kill or be killed.”
He nodded gravely. “It’s a war zone. I got your back.”
We gave each other the knowing look soldiers made while in the
trenches and then made a run for it. We barreled past children and covertly
inched around corners. At one point, Will cried, “Land mine! Nine o’clock.”
We averted disaster and gave each other high fives. Lady lifted her
snout, wanting in on the action so we high-fived her paw. Little bodies
blurred by like explosions in slow motion, and we ducked, zigged, and
zagged as we narrowly escaped within an inch of our lives.
“You okay?” he said, catching his breath.
“Yeah. You? Missing any limbs?”
He dabbed a finger on his tear duct. “I got shrapnel in my eye, but I
think I’ll survive.”
We’d made it with no casualties. It was exhilarating. But I may have
made my victory dance a little too soon because, just as it would seem we
were clear of danger, I took a fatal hit.
A passing teenager with a cherry slushy crashed into me while rough-
housing with his friends. Ice-cold red slush gushed onto my chest, dripping
down the front of my white flowered dress.
“Nostradamus!” I cried.
The teenager offered me a half-hearted apology with a stifled snicker
and ran off. I could sense Will trying to suppress his own laughter.
“Be brave, soldier,” he said. “Walk toward the light.”
“Save yourself,” I cried dramatically. “Leave me and save yourself.”
Red syrup seeped into the fabric of my dress, leaving a wet, sticky stain.
I looked like a hot mess but all I could do was laugh. Here I was next to
Hollywood’s hottest heartthrob, and I could be typecast as the sticky, drippy
swamp monster. He ran to grab some napkins but before he returned, a little
girl with honey-blond pigtails and the biggest green eyes I’d ever seen
handed me a single tissue. She didn’t say a word—just stared up at me with
those enormous eyes. If I had to guess, I’d say she was about five.
I accepted the tissue and thanked her—mostly for restoring my faith in
humanity than the little gift. When Will approached with the napkins, he
bent down to her level and whispered something I couldn’t hear above the
carnival noise. He then reached in his pocket and handed her a long string
of ride tickets. Her face lit up, and she hugged him around the neck. Her
mother, a few feet away smiled gratefully and led her daughter away by the
hand.
My ovaries went zing! The way Will interacted with that little girl, the
tender way he crouched to her level, the soft expression on his face when he
whispered to her, the sweet reaction she made to his kindness. He was full
of surprises.
He handed me the napkins. “Do you want to return to the house to clean
up?”
He had the thoughtfulness to dampen them with water. I suddenly felt
shy.
“No, I’m good,” I said, wiping myself down. “There’s no getting this
stain out.”
“Maybe you could borrow something of my sister’s,” he offered. “She’s
about your size. Maybe an inch or two taller.”
Huh. That would be just a little awkward. I’d never met his sister, but if
he told her anything about my erstwhile friendship with Jorge, I didn’t think
I could look her in the eye.
“Um, no, thank you,” I said. “I should probably head home.”
I had a lovely time. Too lovely. But if I were smart, getting out before it
turned ugly again was the best course of action. Now, how was I to get
ahold of Enrique? Or did L.A.’s fine public transportation system extend to
the reaches of Will’s fairytale castle?
His expression dimmed, and he stood looking at me like he wanted to
say something but couldn’t. My chest hurt at the idea of leaving, wishing
this day could last. But I didn’t want to play the fool. I’d already done a
good job at that so far.
“Well…” I sighed. “I’m just going to say goodbye to Stella—”
His hand flew to his forehead. “Stella! I almost forgot.”
He wrapped his strong fingers around mine and pulled me along with
him, rushing through the crowd. The contact of his skin melted me from my
palm, up the length of my arm, and straight to my heart. If I weren’t careful,
I could fall hard. And that would just set me up to get hurt.
Lady pattered along beside his feet, happily trotting in step with her
human. They kind of looked alike. The golden streaks in Will’s brown locks
whooshed in the breeze while her silky fur bounced with every spring in her
step. And there I was, running along on the other side of him, bounding past
people with huge stuffed animals and balloons, people of all different
backgrounds. I could have sworn I almost bumped into Lady Gaga.
When we reached Stella, she and a pretty, button-nosed girl were
laughing brightly, drinking beer. By the looks of it, and her ruddy cheeks,
they’d been at it a while. Actually, it took them about a minute before they
realized Will was right next to them. It was rather cute to see him apologize
profusely, passing her a phone from his pocket. She looked at him with
glassy eyes, then back at the girl, and they both spat in a burst of laughter.
“I’d completely forgotten about you, William.”
He combed a hand through his hair, giving it a deliberate tousled look.
Lady broke free of his grip on her leash and perched her front legs on the
pretty girl’s lap. It was then that Stella noticed me.
“Here you are, Beth,” she slurred. “I was just about to call you.”
“How many beers have you had, Stella?” Will stared down at the
woman with his hands on his waist. The girl was the one to answer.
“One and a half,” she said with a bright smile and stood from her
folding chair to shake my hand. “I’m Georgia.”
Georgia. I should have known. She looked more mature than the photo
I’d seen in the bathroom and her bright, easy personality caught me off
guard. I guess Jorge had tainted my expectations.
“Nice to meet you,” I said, taking her hand. “My name’s Beth.”
“Oh, I know.” She wagged her brows and winked at Will. Stella laughed
again.
“One and a half?” Will asked incredulously. “Cups or gallons?”
Georgia shrugged. “She’s a lightweight.”
“Good heavens!” cried Stella, openly assessing my appearance. “What
happened to you?”
“She got caught in the line of fire,” Will said, wrapping an arm around
my shoulder. “Saved my life.”
Stella volleyed her eyes between us. “Indeed.”
Will’s arm on my shoulder gave me heart palpitations. Couldn’t he feel
it pounding out of my chest? Trying to conceal it was akin to holding in gas.
I think I made one of those vein-popping squishy faces that accompanies
extreme discomfort. Whether he noticed it, I couldn’t tell, but his arm
dropped from my shoulder, and he stepped away awkwardly. He crossed his
arms, then put his hands in his pockets, then crossed his arms again. My
shoulder already missed his touch.
“I best be going,” I said, gesturing to the stain on my dress. If this were
a regular carnival, I wouldn’t care so much, but I knew it was an important
affair for Stella, and she didn’t need a ragamuffin like me hanging around.
“Nonsense,” she cried. “We need you at dinner. Who will sing the duet
with Will?”
“What duet?”
Will shifted on his feet. “I haven’t told her yet.”
Haven’t told me what exactly?
“You haven't told her?” Stella bleated. “What have you two been doing
all this time?”
Well… should we start with getting caught in his bedroom or jump to
sparks flying in our orbit?
“Eating,” said Will.
Yeah, that too.
“Can we back up here?” I said. “What duet?”
The two women exchanged a conspiring glance. Will sighed with
resignation.
“Stella wants us to sing Mabel and Frederic’s duet from the second act,”
he said with a shifty sideways glance. “For tonight’s gala.”
My jaw dropped just enough for sound to escape in a squeak. “Me? I
thought you were looking for a replacement for Bing.”
Stella grinned, and her eyes sparkled. I wasn’t sure if that was the effect
of the alcohol or the ideas going off in her head.
“Will is the replacement for Bing,” she said, nodding her head at Will.
“But that means we can’t do the Pair of Ducks song, and we have to do at
least two numbers.”
Will bristled. “For the last time, It’s Paradox. Not Pair of Ducks.”
“Well…” I had to find at a way out of this. Anything to spare me the
pressure of singing in front of some of the most influential people in the
business. “I don’t think I could do that. I don’t know the song, and I—”
“Don’t play coy with me.” Stella’s eyes suddenly became steely. Also,
I’m sure she was far more sober than she let on. “You know the song. You
were Mabel in college.”
How did she know that? I left that credit off my resume when it started
getting too fat. Which was a good problem to have as far as resumes go.
“Well… um…” I looked at Will. Did he know the song? If I were
honest, singing with him made me more nervous than singing in front of
Hollywood’s powerhouses. Performing was what I lived for. That was the
kind of opportunity one didn’t pass up. He turned his head towards me,
silently asking the same questions. A week ago, I loathed the man. Could I
pull this off? Could he? Would he want to?
Stella snapped us out of our little moment by the clapping of her palms.
“It’s settled then,” she said with finality. “Let’s get to work.”
Get to work, indeed. We had a few short hours to rehearse the music,
learn the blocking, and commit to memory the songs we were to perform
for the gala. Will’s load was double my own because he was in two
numbers. It was fascinating to watch his process. He relied on the sheet
music for only the first couple of run-throughs, and from then on out, strode
through the rest of rehearsal with confidence, dedicating his focus on
technique. He was an incredible scene partner, and I was somewhat bristled
by the fact I’d only reluctantly admitted he was a good Pirate King, when in
fact he could play any role. This, I thought to myself, was a true
professional. I momentarily relapsed into imposter syndrome, and then
reminded myself that I was the girl with the lanyard. My presence was
requested at this thing—even if that meant they were temporarily insane in
bestowing me the honor.
We were in a sweeping, glorious tent situated on the back lawn of the
house. A baby grand piano sat on a rented stage, and we rehearsed while the
event coordinators made quality checks on the round banquet tables.
Colored lights lined the draped tent walls and trellis held the stage lighting
in place. Georgia played the accompanying score until Fitz arrived. She was
an astounding pianist. She apologized a few times when she missed a note
or two, but I didn’t even notice. She explained she wasn’t used to
accompanying singers. She was a concert soloist, trained at Juilliard, and
far surpassed the piano teacher of her youth. Fitz was the first to admit it.
Of course, when you get to that level of excellence, the difference between
magnificent and outstanding is a difference with blurred lines. Especially
for the untrained ear.
Fitz was all hugs and air kisses. It was good to see him. When he saw
my stained dress, he said, “Darling, is this what kids are wearing these
days?”
I giggled. “Apparently, a teenager with a slushy thought it would be a
good look for me.”
I didn’t care my dress was ruined. Once it dried off, the red splotch was
hardly noticeable. Still, I couldn’t perform like that. Stella assured me not to
worry. I figured she probably had my maiden costume sent over from the
theatre.
When evening came and there was no more we could do to perfect our
scenes, Stella and Georgia ushered me into the house to get ready. I was
given the use of a guest bedroom down the hall from the bathroom I’d used
earlier and was encouraged to enjoy a bubble bath. When I saw the Roman
tub and jacuzzi jets, I didn’t need much convincing.
It felt sublime to wash off the craziness of the day. Many parts of it
would stay with me, but the dust from the carnival, the sticky syrup on my
skin, and my rattling nerves could just melt away with the body soap, thank
you very much.
When I emerged from the bath wearing the provided terry cloth robe
and slippers, four people were waiting for me in my room. Stella, half ready
with a fresh face of makeup and curlers in her hair, Georgia, looking very
much the same as earlier, and two other women introduced to me as Julie
the makeup artist, and Sierra who would be doing my hair.
Makeup and hair! Wow. We didn’t even get that kind of treatment at the
theatre.
Julie and Sierra turned out to be two of the funniest ladies ever. Any
sentence one would begin, the other would finish, and usually, it was more
of a punchline than anything else. Then they’d giggle and do a little shimmy
while they set about their work. They were hilarious. At one point, Julie had
to force a frown on her face to stop me from laughing just so she could
apply my lip stain.
“It’s color-stay,” she said. “For all the kissing.”
Then she and Sierra burst in peals of laughter and didn't come down
from it the rest of the evening.
They did a fabulous job. I never really liked having my makeup done by
other people. In my opinion, professional was a term loosely given to the
mall employees whom I’d previously entrusted. This was a whole other
ballgame.
“It helps to have a beautiful face to work on,” said Julie, deflecting the
compliment I paid her.
By this time, Georgia was growing impatient. She jumped off the bed
where she had been tapping away at her phone and said, “So, are you ready
for your dress yet?”
Ah yes, my Pirates of Penzance costume. I looked around the room.
Where was it?
“Sure,” I said. “Did Ari bring the costume yet?”
“Costume?” Her brows shot up. “Why would you be wearing a
costume?”
“Um… for the show?”
She and Stella shared a laugh. What was so funny? Was I supposed to
wear my stained dress? That poor scrap of cloth was currently in the
bathroom sink. Stella stood behind me, fixed her eyes on my reflection, and
smiled warmly.
“You can call it a costume if you like,” she said with a wink. “But you
should probably try it on before you decide.”
She grinned with a twinkle that hinted she had a special kind of secret—
a secret Georgia was evidently in on because she wore the same grin as
Stella and skipped to the closet, emerging with a magnificent gold gown in
her arms. She could hardly contain her excitement when she brought it to
me. Fluffy socks covered her feet as they danced on the floor. She looked
like a little girl who had to pee really bad, except I knew the bouncing she
was doing had nothing to do with the state of her bladder. It was cute, how
thrilled she was to see my reaction. I was sure not to disappoint her. My
eyes went wide, and I couldn’t speak for a full minute while they swept
over the golden offering. The dress was breathtakingly elegant.
It was made from a light chiffon, the torso a ruched V-neck with
gathered straps and a tulle, floor-length skirt draping from a high waist. The
entire dress was covered in golden lace appliqués. On closer inspection, I
noticed a sprinkling of Swarovski crystals and a small tag on the interior by
Ivonne D Mon Cheri. In other words, that dress didn’t come from Target.
“Well…” chirped Georgia. “What do you think?”
“It’s gorgeous.” I didn’t have a more creative reaction than that. I was
too busy being tongue tied. “Are you sure you want to let me borrow this?
I’m good at bumping into people with dark liquids. Obviously.”
It was meant as a joke, but there was some truth to my words. I didn’t
want to be responsible for Georgia’s beautiful gown. I’d be afraid to eat
without a bib—or drink red wine. Or stand next to anyone else drinking red
wine. I could think of a whole lot of things that could go horribly wrong. At
least I’d ruled out the possibility of barbecue sauce being on the menu. I
hoped.
Georgia scrunched her nose in an adorable chipmunk-with-a-donut sort
of way. “I’m not letting you borrow anything,” she said. “Not like I
wouldn’t—you can borrow anything you want—but this is yours. Stella got
it for you.”
She beamed with her whole face to deliver that little piece of news. She
must have expected it to be welcome intelligence, but I couldn’t process it
that way. It was too much. I looked to Stella, whose proud expression
confirmed it.
“You did this for me?”
“And shoes,” added Georgia while Stella retrieved a shoe box from
beneath the bed. “And a clutch to match.”
“We got your size from Ari,” said Stella. “Six and a half?”
I was gobsmacked. How did they get all this in a matter of hours? Was it
a rental?
I could only stutter. “How… when?”
“Never mind that,” replied Stella. “Put it on before we miss cocktail
hour. The seared ahi is always the first to go.”
26
STAY
Will
I GAVE Lady one last scratch of the snout and thanked Ephraim for staying
late. He’d been up at the crack of dawn, not to mention a week of
instructing vendors where and how to set up. He singlehandedly was
responsible for any troubleshooting that arose with the facility. He liked to
call my house the facility. It made it seem official. So here he was, fourteen
hours in, taking care of Lady. I suggested he take her to his home, so he
could relax and most likely spoil her with his famous carne asada, but he
insisted on staying close, just in case a problem arose in the facility. I told
him the screening room would be the best place to stay low, but I wanted
him to put his feet up, maybe stream a movie. He’d be set up quite nicely
with the leather recliners and fully stocked snack bar. I made a mental note
to have some of the roast sent down to him later.
The formal living room in our house, which we used primarily for
absolutely nothing except to showcase Georgia’s new piano, was filled with
the most interesting hodgepodge of weirdos. Most of them were
moneymakers in the entertainment industry, but there were some politicians
and Silicone Valley types who made a fortune in the dot-com era. Every
single one of them were sickeningly wealthy and were primarily interested
in being seen throwing their money at a good cause. Stella was an
incredibly savvy woman and knew how to use this to her advantage. She
didn’t care (for the most part) where the funds came from, she just wanted
arts education for the underprivileged. So, she made sure to stroke the egos
of those with the deepest pockets.
I mingled with those folks for longer than I would have liked before
Stella and Georgia finally came down to rescue me. The whole business
made me feel like Captain Von Trapp forced to make small talk with
Vienna’s high society. The only things missing were Nazi sympathizers
(although one can never be certain) and singing children requesting
champagne. My Maria was somewhere getting ready, and I hoped she
wouldn’t change her mind and run off to the Abbey.
“Where’s Beth?” I tried not to sound too anxious by keeping my voice
low, but it ended up more like a sad Barry White impression. Georgia shot
me a what the what face and scrunched her nose.
“Twitterpated,” was all she said.
As I rounded the bend towards the grand staircase, a vision in gold
almost blinded me, and my heart stopped. Beth descended with tentative
steps from the top of the stairs as radiant as the sun.
Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon.
Her hair was gathered atop her head and held there by some sort of
magic. A few loose strands cascaded down her elegant neck, the column of
which could boast of smooth buttermilk skin and graceful lines to the bare
shoulder.
Each step down the stair was the blessing of the heavens come to take
me from the misery of the intolerable guests drinking expensive wine and
exchanging pleasantries with people they could hardly stand. All the world
fell away, and her sublime face was fixed solely on me.
I never knew until that moment how your future could flash before your
eyes. But that’s exactly what happened. I’d once seen an episode of Doctor
Who where John Smith and his love interest could look into their possible
future through the aid of a fob watch. In an instant, they saw a vision of a
happy marriage, having children, and John on his death bed. Seeing Beth
with her hand on the same banister I slid down as a child was something
like that, sans the death bed part. All of it was in her eyes. Did she see it
too? Her smile was only a hint. I wanted to ask somehow.
But even if I were the real William Shakespeare and not some idiot who
portrayed him in a musical, any words I could have said couldn’t have done
justice to that moment suspended in time. Beth at the end of my stairs—
maybe seeing the future. But if I didn’t open my mouth to speak, I might
have carried her off and groveled at her feet for all eternity. So, like a
novice screenwriter regurgitating every cliché in dialogue, I said, “You look
beautiful.”
No, I wasn’t about to win an Oscar for that brilliant one-liner, but Beth
only blushed and bit at her bottom lip.
“I feel kind of silly,” she said.
“Why?”
“This dress costs more than my car.”
I wanted to reply with something witty and charming, but my tongue
felt like it had been injected with Novocain.
“Um…” was all I could manage.
I took her hand to escort her into the party and as her little fingers
settled into my palm, I was acutely aware of every ridge, every pore, every
skin cell where her touch seared into mine. I held on for as long as I could
without becoming awkward, but even as I let go, her brand remained etched
on my fingertips.
I had to soberly remind myself that she wasn’t my date. She wasn’t
interested. She’d made that perfectly clear.
Stella appeared at my side, accompanied by a pretty Latina young
woman in black sequins.
“I see you’ve found our stunning princess,” she said with a wink.
A princess indeed. The Beauty to my Beast.
She caught Beth’s arm before she was lost in the crowd.
“My dear, don’t go running away just yet.”
“Oh, I didn’t see you,” said Beth, rolling her eyes at a rather large man
next to her. “Short people problems.”
“I hear ya.” The girl in black held her hand out to Beth. “I’m
Francesca.”
“Francesca Precio is the graduate from NYU I was telling you about,”
said Stella as the two girls shook hands. Awareness lit Beth’s expression,
and she shook her hand with more enthusiasm.
“Yes, yes,” she said. “You’re presenting tonight. Such an honor to meet
you.”
Beth and her new B.F.F. Francesca seemed to hit it off immediately.
There was so much girl power in the air, I felt invisible. But Stella, ever the
diplomat, gave me the proper introduction to her young Latina friend, then
linked arms with both ladies.
“I’m afraid I have to steal Beth from you, Will,” she said, already
turning away from me. “You don’t mind, do you?”
I guessed that wasn’t the kind of question she expected an answer to
since she was gone before she finished her sentence, taking my date that
wasn’t really a date with her.
I was suddenly so incredibly alone in this crowd. Where the heck was
my sister?
“I expect a little more hospitality from you.”
An icy voice from behind pierced into the last of my warmth. As I
turned toward the owner, I took every one of those seconds to shrug on the
Hollywood schmooze face.
“Catherine.” I feigned a smile. “So glad you could make it.”
“We’ve been here a half hour, and you haven’t so much as brought a
glass of champagne to Anne.”
Aaaand there went my last drop of joy.
“Oh, is Anne here?” I replied. “I hadn’t realized.”
She scowled. “Oh, please. There’s a guest list at the door.”
I shrugged. “I have no control over those things. I just live here. Where
is Anne?”
I actually got along well with Anne. Her grandmother was a pain, but
she was pretty cool.
“She was looking for you,” she clipped. “Now I’ve lost her.”
“Leave it to me,” I said. “I got this.”
I gave her hand a squeeze because that’s what a gentleman does, and I
left her to harass some other poor soul.
I kind of felt sorry for her though. Clearly, she had designs to set her
granddaughter up with me, but Anne was just as interested in me
romantically as a peanut butter sandwich. And since she had a severe peanut
allergy, I was off the menu. Catherine would be so salty once she found out.
After a few polite interactions in the crowd, I finally found Anne way
too interested in the contents of her beverage.
“All the food is allergy friendly tonight, well, except the Yorkshire
pudding,” I said with a smirk. “No nuts, no gluten, no soy, no shellfish…
and some other dietary restriction I forgot. It’s a mystery why we bother to
serve food at all.”
Her face lit up at the sight of a friendly face, and she threw her arms
around my neck.
“I’m glad I found you before my grandmother did,” she said. “She’s got
the Evil Queen theme song following her around.”
“I know. Apparently, I have to get you a glass of champagne, or she’ll
cut out my heart.”
She lifted her beverage. “I’m good.”
“What is that?” I asked. “Looks terrible.”
“It’s a Bloody Richard.”
“Such a delightful name.”
“It’s named after King Richard. War of the Roses?”
“Okay.”
“It’s like a Bloody Mary, but with bacon instead of celery.”
“I take back my earlier comment. It’s vile.”
“Oh, man,” she said. “Don’t look now. My grandmother spotted us.”
“Do you think she’ll come over?”
“What else does she have to do? We’re her favorite victims.”
“Well, it was kind of her to donate to the charity.”
She laughed. “Ha. Don’t you know Rosings cuts a profit from these
things? It’s an Arts Fellowship. The money goes to art schools. And
Rosings is a top school on that list.”
Whoa. That woman really did have her fingers in dozens of different
pies. I wouldn’t be surprised if she ran her own ballerina mafia ring.
I shook my head in disbelief. “I don’t think the Evil Queen theme song
is right for her.”
“No?” Her eyebrows arched curiously. “What’s her theme song, then?”
“I’m thinking more Don Corleone.”
She laughed a bright, flittery laugh like a finch. I wondered if she really
loved dancing or if it was her grandmother’s influence. I’d seen how hard
she worked, rehearsing until her feet bled. And she was so thin. Did she
dance because it was her passion? Or did she not have a choice? Sort of
how young Michael Corleone didn’t want to have anything to do with the
family business but ended up becoming the mob boss. Anne was a free
spirit. I didn’t see her as a future mob boss.
The ambient music ceased, and the crowd hushed as Stella made a few
sound check noises into a microphone. I could see the silver of her hair
beyond the heads of the people in front of me. She was standing next to my
sister’s new piano.
“Thank you all for coming,” she announced. “I’d say something cheeky
like you’re only here for the hosted bar, but we all know that isn’t true. Your
very generous donations are what made this happen.”
There were some scattered applauses and she smiled, nodding she’d like
to continue.
“But don’t worry. You’ll find your tax write-off receipts in your goody
bags along with Chipotle coupons and a shirt that says I donated to the
Gardiner Arts Foundation and all I got was this dumb t-shirt.”
Soft laughter waved through the room. She was joking about the
Chipotle coupons of course, but the t-shirts were a real thing. And the
goody bags were filled with sponsored items like Bluetooth headphones and
designer golf balls. My dining room table had been an assembly line of gift
bags and tissue paper the week before.
“We will all convene for dinner in a few minutes, but first, I wanted to
acknowledge the Darcy family for opening up their home and letting us ruin
their grass with the carnival rides.”
She was spot on with that.
“Where’s Will?”
I raised my hand, and a few heads turned my way. When Stella spotted
me, she raised her glass and said, “We promise to have your lawn fixed in
time to ruin it again next year.”
A few chuckles ensued, and I bellowed across the room, “Not on your
life.”
The energy was light and breezy, and everyone smiled, which was
exactly what Stella wanted. She planned one last pitch for higher levels of
sponsorship. She wanted the guests relaxed and tipsy before she made her
plea. It would come after dinner but before dessert. She told me she planned
to hold the poached pears ransom until she raised a few extra million
dollars.
“You heard the man, ladies and gentlemen,” she said. “It looks like
we’ve already worn out our welcome, so enjoy the Darcy house while you
can and steal whatever ashtrays you find.”
That was a little inside joke. I was one of the few people alive that knew
Stella was a bit of a kleptomaniac. Before California banned smoking in
public places, it was ashtrays. Now, she liked to nab ramekins from
restaurants.
“Our staff will escort you out into the grand tent and help you find your
tables. Meanwhile, the lovely Georgia Darcy will play for us while we
transition out of cocktail hour.”
As my sister began a melody, I ushered Anne to the side of the room
away from migrating guests, but most importantly from view of her
grandmother. It was for purely selfish reasons, though. I wanted to find
Beth, and as much as I was looking forward to singing the duet with her, all
I wanted was some more alone time, so we could converse freely as we’d
done earlier in the day.
When we found her, she was chatting with Francesca by the piano. She
and Anne hit it off like I knew they would, but there was something in her
eyes I couldn’t put my finger on when I introduced them. What was it?
Could it be a hint of jealousy? God, I hoped so. I’d be ugly jealous if Beth
hung around some dude. I didn’t even have the right, but that didn’t stop my
inner caveman.
Woman. Mine. Ug.
Eventually, we migrated to the dining tent, and Anne joined her
grandmother. It didn’t take long before Catherine found us to complain she
didn’t have a seat at the head table with Stella and me. She was particularly
salty when the “entertainment,” as she put it, had better seats than she. Then
she scowled at Beth and Francesca as she returned to her table, which was
situated as far away from ours as Stella could have planned.
“I know you can’t exactly separate the two,” said Georgia, “but I
wouldn’t have minded Anne’s company at our table if we could exclude the
grandmother.”
“Oh, indeed,” replied Stella, wagging her brows. “But I have my
reasons.”
I chuckled softly to myself because I knew exactly what kind of reasons
Stella had. She loved playing matchmaker any chance she got. She couldn’t
help herself, really. I had to love her for it; she was responsible for mine and
Georgia’s existence. Dad probably wouldn’t have had a chance with my
mother if Stella didn’t have her hand in the whole business.
“Who’s the lucky fellow?” I asked.
She was super glad I asked because her face lit up and put her whole
body into it as she pointed with her chin.
“See that bloke sitting next to Anne?”
I glanced over, trying not to appear obvious. “I’m taking a chance here
by assuming you don’t mean the older gentleman to her left.”
“Oh, I am more strategic than that, young padawan,” she chirped with a
wide grin. “The position to her right is much better situated for an
unobstructed view of her features.”
The gentleman to her right was presently engaged in a conversation
with the previously mentioned gentleman to her left. Anne was stuck in the
middle of whatever robust conversation they might be having and smiling
timidly with her Bloody Richard. The young man, likewise, had the same
hideous drink. He was a broad, tall man who reminded me of a young
Denzel Washington, and he practically towered over Anne’s tiny, delicate
form. Also, he wore a blue bowtie almost the exact shade of Anne’s dress.
“His name is Garret Townsend,” said Stella, “and he is someone to keep
an eye on.”
“Oh? How so?”
“He’s a genius,” added Georgia. “He’s developing groundbreaking
advancements in artificial intelligence. Plus, he’s righthanded.”
Great. Not my sister, too. Was Stella running some kind of
matchmaking apprenticeship?
“What does being righthanded have to do with anything?” Beth asked
innocently. She’d just joined the conversation after talking to Francesca for
a while.
“Anne is lefthanded,” answered Georgia. “They’ll be practically facing
each other all throughout dinner.”
Stella nodded vehemently. “That’s true, and she’s sitting right between
his line of sight and the stage.”
“You think of everything,” I said, silently noting Beth’s position in
relation to mine. To my left. In my line of sight to the stage. She wasn’t
lefthanded as far as I knew. But I didn’t need any of those tricks to notice
her. A man would have to be blind not to notice her. She lit up the room
with her glowing luminosity.
“We haven’t told you the best part,” said Georgia, bubbling over with
excitement.
I exchanged a look with Beth. She was just as amused as I was, but
much more tolerant.
“Oh?” I said. I wished this silly conversation could be over already.
Actually, I wished the whole night could fast forward to when I could give
Beth a goodnight kiss.
Goals.
“Garret’s brother has a peanut allergy,” replied Stella.
Beth’s little nose scrunched up, and she asked, “How is that the best
part?”
I answered her with a soft reply in her ear, “Anne is highly allergic.”
Her beautiful mouth formed an O, and she nodded silently.
“Garret, out of habit, won’t come within a ten-mile radius of a tree nut,”
said Stella. “But since he’s adopted, he doesn’t share his brother’s DNA, so
there’s a good chance the allergy won’t be passed down to any potential
offspring.”
Francesca, who silently listened next to Beth, almost did a spit-take with
her water and coughed. Georgia got up and rubbed her back, which does
absolutely nothing for a choking person, but she likely didn’t know what
else to do to be helpful.
“I’m okay.” Francesca held up a hand in the universal sign that means
‘chill.’ “Went down the wrong pipe, that’s all.”
When she had recovered, Beth asked, “Is that sort of thing passed
down? Peanut allergies?”
“Oh yes,” replied Stella with energy. “There’s research that pinpoints a
region in the human genome associated with allergies. It’s like anything else
—hair color, artistic talent, terrible taste in fashion…”
“Wow,” Beth replied. “You certainly have done your research.”
“I always do.”
Stella grinned and took a long pull of her wine, volleying her eyes
between Beth and me. She’d done her research, all right. This whole thing
with Beth was no accident. It was highly orchestrated. Somehow, I had the
suspicion my sister was in on it, too.
“Sorry I’m late.” Clay Tilney pulled out the sixth chair at our table and
slid into it, smiling apologetically. “I had to run home and change, and
traffic was… well, you know. It’s L.A.”
Stella assured him there were no apologies needed and introduced him
to everyone at the table. Clay Tilney was the heir to Northanger
Productions, a famous but has-been film company. I honestly couldn’t tell
you what they’d done in the past ten years. In Hollywood, that was an
eternity.
But Clay was a cool-enough guy. I wondered what Stella had planned
for that poor soul. Currently, he sat where Bing would have, had he not left
us hanging.
Dinner turned out to be good—what I ate of it. My stomach was tied up
in knots with the proximity of Beth quietly nibbling at her meal. It was a
traditional English roast. I noted with some amusement the Yorkshire
pudding was way off the dietary restriction wagon. Not a tree nut in sight,
though, which was good. I was so distracted with my own thoughts, I didn’t
notice until halfway through dinner that neither Clay nor Francesca ate any
meat. Vegetarians. That was the one I’d forgotten on my list earlier. I stole a
glance at Stella and my sister to gauge their involvement in this particular
seating arrangement. But they were watching Clay and Francesca all
throughout dinner, conspiring and shaking their heads as if to say, No, this
will never work.
Hmmm. So there was a vetting process? What on earth did Beth and I
have in common? Nothing—except pride and prejudice. And those weren’t
good virtues with which to begin a relationship. Still… perhaps we were
beyond all that.
I had to kick myself for thinking in those terms. This was no
relationship. Whatever it was between Beth and me was anything but. I’d be
wise to remember that.
Coffee and tea were served, a few people had aperitifs sent from the bar,
a few speeches were made, and Francesca announced the Hershel Gardiner
Endowment awards. I didn’t even notice when she got up from the table. It
was all a blur. All my attention was focused on the woman to my left, the
exquisite creature in gold.
At one point, we were ushered off backstage, and Francesca sang a song
about hair. ‘Hair, hair, hair’ were all the lyrics that registered to me. It must
have been a comedic piece because the audience laughed throughout the
song, and when she hit a ridiculously high note at the end, the room erupted
in thunderous applause. Beth certainly was impressed, watching from the
wings and smiling brightly at the performance. My hands were too sweaty
to pay attention to much of anything beyond my breathing. What had gotten
into me? I never had stage fright. Never had I been nervous before a
performance in my entire life until now. I told myself it was the material. It
wasn’t exactly opera, but the score from Pirates of Penzance was way more
legit than contemporary musicals. I’d only learned the song a few hours
ago. Also, my dinner was still digesting. I preferred to sing on an empty
stomach. And that there were colleagues in the audience that didn’t see me
as a song and dance man. To them, I was an action star and nothing more.
I told myself those things, but none of them were true. The woman
within an arm’s reach, a woman with whom I was about to sing a love duet,
caused my disquiet.
Stella gave her sales pitch now. Fitz came backstage to get a sip of
water and hang out with us while we waited for Stella to finish. If he spoke
to me, I don’t remember. I probably nodded and laughed at a joke I didn’t
hear. My eyes must have glazed over and maybe lost consciousness (if
that’s possible while standing), because Fitz snapped his fingers in my face
amidst the distant sound of applause. The kind of applause that’s a cue to go
on stage. Stella was in the spotlight, waiting like the timeless star she was,
and suddenly, I snapped into performance mode.
The piano clanged into the fierce intro to Oh! False One, and I sprang
upon those operatic notes without looking back. Stella, of course, was
brilliant in her usual Stella way. She got a few laughs from the comedic
moments in the song. Clearly, her character stole the show. I much preferred
playing a gullible pirate than a male ingenue. A… mangenue? Bing was
better suited for the role of Frederic. In many ways, he shared some of the
same qualities. Young. Wholesome. Naive.
And easily influenced by the Pirate King. Me. It was right there in the
lyrics. You have deceived me. I who trusted so.
Yep. I royally messed with things I shouldn’t have. Bing wasn’t my
sister or my father. I didn’t need to protect him. And I had no place to
interfere.
I was a dirtbag.
The song ended with robust applause, and Stella did her little bit where
she ran in circles before making her dramatic exit. And there I was alone on
the stage, feeling crappy. But it was the perfect emotion for the recitative
Beth sang as she entered. “My Frederic in tears? It cannot be that lion-
heart quails at the coming conflict.”
Yes. A terrible disclosure has just been made. I’m a dirtbag.
I did my best to struggle the music out of my lungs through the sting of
that damning epiphany. Even Beth’s lines echoed the sentiment.
“Oh, horrible! Catastrophe appalling.”
It wasn’t a far cry from the things she had said on New Year’s Eve. But
her voice was bright and lyrical, and she took my hands in hers and sang,
“Stay.”
Stay. No shadow of a shame will fall upon thy name. Stay.
And her eyes! It was as though she secretly told me nothing mattered
anymore because she knew me now. And even though I deserved the
painful hair pulling and all those names she’d called me, she realized I had
good intentions. Albeit in a messed-up, egotistical way, but good intentions,
nonetheless.
And then, like a nightingale, she softened her tone and let her voice
linger in light, flittering notes. “Ah, leave me not to pine alone and
desolate.” It was mesmerizing. I almost forgot to sing my part when the
time came. But never before were lyrics so apt when I echoed, “He loves
thee.”
At that point, once we had sung our gentle harmonies, there was a lull in
the music. Usually during this time, the pause allowed the audience to
applause and the actors transitioned into the next section of music. We’d
rehearsed it holding hands as we now were, and I was supposed to plant a
soft kiss on her knuckles before bravely declaring my long-suffering fidelity
while serving the Pirate King until 1940. It was a funny line because the
show took place during the Victorian era. But I wasn’t ready to go there yet.
I couldn’t bring myself to let go of her hands. Our eyes were locked in a
heavy-lidded gaze—and let’s be real here—it was probably not as long as it
seemed. Fitz embellished the accompaniment tastefully and effortlessly.
The audience most likely didn’t notice the few extra seconds at all, but
Beth’s expression was pure tenderness and longing, and I could have stared
at her forever. My chest swelled with an overwhelming desire to care for
something outside my self—beyond the duty of family or even my name. It
was every cheesy fairytale, the heartbeat in every single novel—even
horror, a common theme in all the classics…
‘A love of the most exquisite kind. The kind of which people do not
admit even to themselves.’
So with a quick caress of the lips, I covered her mouth with mine and let
the music play its sweet melody into the next scene. The kiss was slow and
tentative, asking permission. Asking she not pull my hair. Asking for this to
be real. Beth was a superb actress. And a superb kisser. If this kiss was an
act, she had me fooled. Her performance was flawless in every other way.
Why should this kiss be any different? I kept telling myself to get in line
with reality. We were in the middle of a scene. She was acting. Right?
But I ignored the pesky voice in my head that so annoyingly reminded
me she wouldn’t pull my hair in front of an audience of Hollywood
gatekeepers—no matter how much she wanted to. At least, I hoped she
didn’t want to. And maybe I was a fool to believe it for the few short
moments we had to transition into the next sequence. If this were the only
chance I would ever have to feel her lips on mine, I would take it and
chance the consequences. I wasn’t all that attached to my hair anyway. The
Hair Song wasn’t even in my vocal range.
27
LIGHTS, COOKIES, SNOOPY
Beth
Beth
“SO,” said Holly in the most uncouth manner. “You’re the smart one.”
Lydia’s sister Nora had been in my apartment all of one hour when
Holly arrived. I stayed up to wait for her, believing she’d come straight to
my apartment from the airport as Stella had said. But Nora was far too
polite, as I soon discovered, so she spent the night at the airport hotel. She
made up some kind of excuse that it was too late, that she was so tired and
couldn’t possibly stand a thirty-minute cab ride. But I could tell she was
way too prissy to crash on a stranger’s couch. Especially a friend of her
sister, and remembering her previous roommates, I didn’t blame her. No
doubt she expected Lydia to hang with the unrefined crowd. If so, Holly just
proved it.
The poor girl didn’t seem to know how to answer Holly. Was it a
question or a statement?
“Lydia tells us you’re studying at Harvard,” I said in an effort to smooth
over Holly’s indelicate ice breaker.
“Uh… yes,” Nora answered distractedly. Her thoughts were in a galaxy
far, far away. Who knows what was going through her mind. She was
probably fearing the worst. I reached over the kitchen table and cupped my
hand over hers. She hadn’t touched the peppermint tea I gave her. No doubt
it was too cold by now. Probably tasted like toothpaste.
“We’ll find her,” I said in the most reassuring voice I could muster.
“Holly’s boyfriend is in close contact with the US Consulate, and our friend
Denny is searching all of Jorge’s usual hang outs.”
She slumped in her chair. “I feel so helpless. I’m not making any more
progress here than I would have in Cambridge.”
“I know it feels that way, but it’s better you’re here,” I said. “For when
she comes home.”
“We’re really glad you came,” agreed Holly.
Nora reluctantly nodded and sipped her cold tea.
“Do you want me to get you a warm cup?” I offered.
She shook her head and declared it was fine.
“Maybe you’d like to look through Lydia’s things for a clue.” That was
a feeble suggestion on Holly’s part, but Nora agreed to it, if nothing other
than to have some useful occupation to pass the time.
Most of the day was spent in the same manner. Nora quietly searching
for answers in Lydia’s messy belongings, on crumbled receipts and post-it
notes. She must have checked Lydia’s social media accounts every five
minutes. She was restless. I totally got it. I’d be much worse off if
something ever happened to my sister. As it was, I felt completely
responsible, irrationally so or not.
By late afternoon, Jane came home. She wouldn’t answer my inquiries
about how her audition went. Her only concern was for Lydia and tending
to Nora’s comfort. Somehow, Jane was able to relate to her better than
Holly or I. It was a special kind of talent. And it was so Jane.
My mother, on the other hand, had her own special kind of talent.
Gossip. She’d gotten wind of the news through the mysterious grapevine in
which she lived. Her timing was impeccable as usual. She called while
Nora was telling us a tearful story about Lydia getting lost in the super mall
when they were little. I didn’t want to be rude, but I felt I had to answer
Mom’s call. It was one of those ‘hug your loved ones’ moments. I’d have
felt guilty to ignore her call.
“Oh, that poor girl,” she cried. “I liked her so much.”
“You met her once, Mom.” I paired my Bluetooth earbuds, so I could be
hands-free. Doing stuff like cleaning or organizing my bookshelf while on
the phone relaxed me. It helped ease the hour away.
“I know I met her once, but I felt we really bonded in that time. Like a
daughter I never had.”
“Except for the two you did have?”
“In addition to. Like a third daughter I never had.” She sighed. “I
wanted five or six, but your dad wouldn’t think of it.”
“Okay.” I absentmindedly broke down some gift boxes leftover from
Christmas.
“It’s not what you think, dear.”
“I’m not thinking anything at all, Mom.”
“He didn’t get a… you know. He’s good at math.”
“You don’t have to explain.” The last thing I needed to hear was stories
about my mother’s cycles and the measures Dad took to avoid impregnating
her. I crumbled some wrapping paper and threw it in the wastebasket. Post-
Christmas organizing was a fun and tedious job. I’d have to find new homes
for the various gifts I’d received. And then I noticed a particular gift. The
book Jorge gave me. I didn’t even want to look at it. I was so disgusted. If I
weren’t such a nerd, I’d have thrown it away. But it was a first-edition
Hobbit. It had to be incredibly valuable. The thrift shop or wherever he got
it from didn’t know the gem they had sold him. Maybe I could sell it on
eBay.
Mom had moved on to her local gossip train. Something about a
neighbor’s daughter getting married and how all she wanted now was
grandkids. Truthfully, I kind of tuned her out because I found something in
the book I hadn’t noticed before. Tolkien’s signature. It was personalized.
Why didn’t I catch on to that before?
To Martin. A small boy with big dreams. JRR Tolkien
Martin. Martin Darcy?
“Mom, I gotta go.”
“But I haven't finished telling you about—”
“Sorry, bye.” I hit the end call button and immediately pulled up a
search for Tolkien’s date of death. 1973. It was possible Will’s father met
him as a young boy. Then again, there could be any number of people with
the name Martin who happened to know the famous novelist. More
realistically, someone from England. But then I remembered Will’s letter.
He said Jorge had taken some of his father’s books. Was he really so stupid
as to give one of them to me for Christmas?
I gingerly filed through the aged pages for annotations or notes perhaps.
Something that could give me more answers. And then I found it. Tucked
deep in the pages where it was sure not to fall out, was a strand of hair
enfolded in a scrap of waxed paper. And next to that was a small
photograph of Will’s mom.
IT WAS EVENING when Cole finally called. They were on to some lead,
but that’s all he could say. Even he didn’t have the details. All we could do
was wait. One last thing he said before he hung up. “Go to the theatre
tomorrow and do your best. I’ll be home Tuesday.”
None of us wanted to sit like hens and wait, and we certainly didn’t
want to do our final dress rehearsals while poor Lydia might be lying in a
ditch somewhere. But Cole was right. It was all we could do. Wait, hope,
and rehearse. Opening night was less than a week away.
And so off we went on Monday to the theatre, morbid and sad. I felt like
a jerk, singing and dancing and doing comedic bits. It was weird without
Lydia there. But Nora tagged along to claim a small piece of her sister
through the osmosis of the art.
“I’ll feel close to her just being there,” she said. So we brought her with
us. The other absences in the cast were deeply felt. We knew Cole was still
in Mexico, but our stage manager did a perfectly fine job at running the
show. Stella cut out early, but Will didn’t show up at all. After all the new
insights I had about his character, how I was now sure he was a man of
virtue, he didn’t bother coming to one of the last rehearsals before opening
night. I was Lydia’s oldest friend in the cast. We were practically sisters. So
were Holly and Jane. We were heartbroken and worried. But we came to
rehearsal. Where the heck was Will? Did he want to wash his hands of this
whole mess? Would the actor that played Samuel have to step up last
minute to do Will’s part? Those thoughts did nothing but stress me out. But
then I had another thought, and I became incredibly depressed. What if I
never saw Will again? What if he was gone from my life forever? I mean, I
knew it was inevitable. We’d part ways after the run. But now that I was
faced with the reality of it, and with the possibility of it being sooner than
expected, the idea of it was unbearable. I’d gotten so used to his presence,
now that he was gone, I wasn’t whole.
My heart galloped in my chest, and all those rocks in my stomach (the
ones I’d been entertaining for weeks as the ingredients for my loathe pie)
turned to fairy dust, and I felt lighter than air. Oh. My. Hamilton. I was in
love with Will Darcy.
How incredibly inconvenient.
Why me? Why was I the stupid girl in the movie that didn’t realize until
it was too late that the perfect guy had been right in front of her all along? I
wanted to throw popcorn at myself.
There was one good thing that came of the whole day. Bing and Jane
were on speaking terms again. They weren’t quite back to the same old
smooching in the dressing room antics, but the mutual affection was written
all over their faces. It was a sliver of light in an otherwise gloomy day and
only a matter of time before we could ship their names together. Jing got
my vote.
“Did Bing tell you why he skipped out on Stella’s charity?” I asked as
we hung up our costumes for the day. The corners of her lips hitched in the
silent grin of someone with a secret and a flush of pink dotted her cheeks.
But I was having none of that. There would be no more secrets.
“Spill,” I demanded. I even did the Wonder Woman pose.
After a few moments, she burst at the seams and said, “He was in New
York!”
And I knew immediately that Bing in New York at the same time as
Jane was no coincidence. As it turned out, he learned she was there through
friends. I guess the theatre world really was that small. He followed her
there in a grand romantic gesture just to apologize. Like he couldn’t do that
in California. Nope. Had to go to the Big Apple.
But I was happy for her. If anyone deserved a second chance, it was her.
“I hope you can find a good guy too.” Her eyes were rimmed with
happy tears as she gave me a gentle hug. “There’s someone out there who’s
perfect for you.”
“You mean someone who’ll put up with my snark?” I laughed.
“It’s not snark,” she said. “It’s intelligence.”
Wonderful. Now she would get me crying.
“Well…” I said with a wink. “Maybe someday I’ll come across another
guy like Colin.”
“That will make your mom happy at least.”
I know I said no secrets. Perhaps I should have told her all the details of
the gala, how we walked the dog and sang and almost kissed in front of the
tree.
“Oh no!” I cried.
“What?”
My ornament. The beautiful year bulb Will gave me. I left it behind in
my haste to get home. I would tell her eventually, but it wasn’t the right
time. I sighed and shook my head slowly.
“Oh, I just remembered something I lost.”
Wasn’t that the understatement of the year? It was more than the
ornament I’d lost. So much more. I’d lost love.
“They found her!”
Jane and I shot our heads to the sound of the approaching voice. Holly
burst through the dressing room, waving her phone in the air. “She’s okay.”
“Lydia?” Jane exclaimed. “How did they find her?”
“No time,” she answered. “Nora’s already in my car. Let’s go.”
Jane and I dropped what we were doing and ran out with Holly. She
filled us in as best she could in the car.
“Cole got her across the border,” she said, speeding down the 101
freeway. “She’s in a Chula Vista hospital.”
“Is that where we’re going now?” I asked.
She nodded.
“Where’s Chula Vista?” asked Nora.
“A two-hour drive, honey,” said Holly. “But I can make it in one-forty-
five.”
She was right. She had a lead foot, but she was right. One hour and
forty-seven minutes later, we pulled into the parking lot of Chula Vista
Memorial.
I hated the smell of hospitals. It always reminded me of band-aids and
sadness. But all that disappeared when I saw Lydia in her hospital bed,
surrounded by plush toys and balloons. Cole and Stella were at her side, and
although I wanted to be the first to throw my arms around her, I held back
enough to let Nora have that distinction.
The reunion between the two sisters was beautiful and gave us all the
feels. Lydia gave my hand a squeeze when it was my turn to approach the
bed. I noticed several bruises on her face and arms. Probably more where
the hospital gown covered. Her left eye was swollen, and a bandaged cut
trailed across her eyebrow.
“Hey,” I joked. “You look great for a boxer.”
“Yeah.” She smiled, trying not to laugh. Laughing looked like a painful
endeavor. “Lightweight champion of Penzance.”
“Maybe we’ll make you a pirate now,” said Cole.
Lydia nodded and cupped a hand over her injured eye.
“An eye patch can be arranged,” said Stella. “Would you like a parrot to
go with it?”
“A foul-mouthed parrot,” Lydia said feebly.
“Consider it done,” replied Stella. “But in the meantime, how about
some hot chocolate from the coffee cart? Cole and I will leave you to visit
with the girls for a while.”
Lydia smiled and said yes to the hot chocolate. “Extra marshmallows,”
she said as Cole and Stella left the room.
Nora sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed Lydia’s feet. “When can you
go home?”
“Maybe tomorrow,” she answered.
“Then I’ll stay the night.”
Despite Lydia’s protests, Nora insisted she’d be perfectly comfortable in
the visitor’s chair.
“I’ve slept in worse conditions,” she said.
She wasn’t fooling anyone.
Lydia was in good spirits considering what she’d gone through. I
wanted to ask her how she got those cuts and bruises. Did Jorge do that to
her? Holly had told us everything she knew from Cole’s phone
conversations, which wasn’t much. She had a fractured rib cage, head
injuries, and several skin abrasions. Holly guessed from rope or wire. It was
disheartening to see Lydia like this. Still, I was grateful to see her alive.
We joked about the five-star resort she was currently staying at, asking
about the quality of the room service and spa amenities. We all laughed
when a nurse came in to check her IV. Lydia jokingly asked her if she could
change the drip from a cava to a brut. She rolled her eyes. She’d probably
heard that one before.
We all did our best to keep the conversation light. None of us wanted to
ask Lydia what had happened. Eventually, she was the one to bring it up.
The way she told it, one would think she was pitching a movie. She even
winked at her sister and said, “Are you getting this down? This is Oscar
material.”
I imagined some of the more spectacular moments in her story were
elaborated for dramatic purposes, and most likely, the version she would
someday tell her grandchildren would be completely outrageous, but for
now, she basked in the warmth of being the center of attention and played
off our pitiful expressions. She was scarce on the details. But her entire
narrative was embellished with sounds and smells and how scared she was,
but also brave when faced with the possibility of death.
Long story short. Jorge Wickham: bad, bad guy. Apparently, he had
some connections in the Mexican Mafia where someone could make a lot of
money in human trafficking. Especially with blond-haired, blue-eyed girls.
Like Lydia.
A knot formed in my belly at the memory of Jorge, and how he was
always concerned about his finances. The things he had said to me when he
had dinner at my parents’ house. And Christmas. What did he mean when
he said he was afraid of obscurity? At the time, I blamed it on the Darcys.
But now, I knew better. If only I hadn’t been so blind, I could have
prevented this. Lydia would be safe at home, and Will and I could…
No. There was no Will and me.
Lydia finished her story by saying she was dropped off in a field
blindfolded, and Cole came to her rescue like a knight in shining armor.
“Okay, now tell me something happy.” She was so over The Adventures
of Lydia and the Mob and was ready to change the subject. She reached out
her hand to Jane. “I heard you got a callback in New York. Tell me about
that.”
Jane looked warmly upon Lydia, braving it through the pain like a
trooper. It was obvious to me that Jane didn’t want to draw attention to
herself. She wouldn’t let anyone ask her about her audition since she
returned. Maybe it wasn’t the happy news Lydia asked for. But she took
Lydia’s hand and sat on the edge of the bed.
“Well,” she began. “New York is cold this time of year. But it’s pretty.
Some Christmas decorations were still up when I arrived, so that was nice
to see.” Then she turned to Nora. “It’s probably colder in Massachusetts.”
“Oh, yeah,” agreed Nora. “Manhattan is more temperate.”
“Especially,” I added, “if you have a special visitor to keep you warm.”
Jane shot me a knowing glare and went on at Lydia’s insistence.
“Just tell us about the audition already,” Lydia said with a wince at the
pain in her ribs.
“The producers at The Majestic were so nice,” said Jane. “Everyone
was, really.”
“Aaaand?”
“And,” Jane said, blushing and reigning in a silly grin, “I don’t know
how to say it.”
“Just say it!” we all cried in unison.
“They offered me alternate Christine Daaé. I start right after Pirates
closes.”
This was big news. Huge!
The congratulations poured forth from all of us in varied expressions
and exclamations.
“Why didn’t you tell us?” asked Holly.
“Now I’ll know someone famous,” said Nora.
“You’ll get to do those Instagram story takeovers,” said Lydia excitedly.
“I’m going to totally follow you.”
Jane tried her best to answer all their questions and comments. Lydia
and Holly could hardly contain their joy, Nora seemed impressed in her
own mellow demeanor, and I couldn’t be prouder for my friend. Something
inside me knew she’d get the job. I’d been expecting it. And I was so happy
for her. Still, a small part of me mourned our friendship because no matter
how much we vowed to keep in touch, it was about to change in a big way.
“Well, Beth,” Jane looked directly at me. “What do you think? Want to
move to New York with me?”
“What?” How did this conversation get turned towards me? Oh yeah.
That was so Jane. She loved to perform for a crowd as long as it was in a
theatre, but she couldn’t handle too much personal attention. It was doubtful
she’d do any Instagram story takeovers.
“You don’t have to answer right now,” she said. “Just think about it.”
“I don’t see what there would be to think about,” said Lydia. “Just do it.
Like Nike.” Then she made the swoosh sound.
Actually, there was a lot to think about. My family. The lease on our
apartment. William. Or not William. And when did I start calling him
William?
At length, I said, “I’ll think about it. And congratulations. You’re made
of star-stuff. You belong on Broadway.”
Tears formed in Jane’s eyes, and she reached over the bed and clamped
her hand over mine. “Ditto.”
“All right,” exclaimed Lydia. “Enough sappy talk. Where’s my hot
chocolate? Stella’s been gone forever.”
“I’ll find her,” said Jane, getting up to go. Holly joined her. “I’ll come
with. Maybe they have muffins. Anybody want a muffin?”
I declined the offer. We hadn’t had dinner, so I hoped we could stop at
Plant Power on the way home.
“Since we’re all getting up, I’m going to track down a nurse to see when
you can go home,” said Nora.
The three of them were gone in a parade of yoga pants and messy buns.
Watch out, Chula Vista Memorial, musical theatre girls were taking over.
“So,” I said, looking around at all the stuffed bears and balloons. “You
got a moving van for all these presents?”
Her room was seriously filled with them. Huge flower arrangements, a
bouquet of helium ‘Get Well Soon’ balloons, a giant teddy bear occupying a
corner of the room. Somebody went to Costco.
She grinned as she swept her eyes over it all. “Isn’t it great? I should get
abducted more often.”
“Not even funny,” I warned. “Were they having a sale at the gift shop?”
She shrugged. “I dunno. Most of it’s from Will.”
Hold the phone.
“Will?” I questioned. “Darcy?”
She nodded and scrolled through her phone. Holly had brought it for
her, along with some other items.
My jaw almost fell off its hinges. “Why would Will Darcy buy you your
own Hallmark store?”
She looked up from her phone and blinked at me with those blue doll
eyes. “He was there when Cole rescued me,” she said plainly. Then she
went back to her phone.
“He was there?” I cried. “In Mexico?”
Lydia’s hand flew to her mouth. “Oh no,” she said. “I wasn’t supposed
to tell anyone. Just forget I said that.”
“I can’t forget you said that. It’s like trying to put toothpaste back in the
tube.”
“Well, I don’t know why he was there. Just that he was.”
It floored me how Lydia could be so cavalier about this whole thing.
She barely got out of there with her life. A guy we were all smitten with
betrayed her. She was dumped in a field blindfolded. But whatever—a
movie star came to her rescue and filled her room with get well wishes. So
what?
My fingers itched to call Will. I had to know what his involvement was
in Lydia’s rescue. How did they do it? Did they have an altercation with El
Chapo? Was he hurt? What happened to Jorge? Did he get away?
But I couldn’t bring myself to call him. He didn’t want anything to do
with me. That was clear. Cole must have called him for help. That’s why he
was there. Did Will speak Spanish or something? Ugh! I had to stop asking
questions to the air. I’d just drive myself bonkers.
“Dang, girl, I look hot in this pic.” Lydia had gone back to scrolling
through her phone. From what I could see, she was deleting the photos with
Jorge, but her lighthearted commentary was her coping mechanism.
Stella and Cole returned a few minutes later with the hot chocolate and
some cookies for Lydia. Jane and Holly followed soon after with muffins.
By the time Nora came into the room, the noise level had gotten so high, we
were gently reminded that visiting hours were over, and they’d appreciate it
if we took the party elsewhere. We tried to protest that there’d be no party
without Lydia, but our quips didn’t work on the night nursing staff. So we
left Nora behind and took our turns hugging Lydia goodbye.
“So, what did the doctor say?” Jane whispered to Cole as we walked
through the hospital corridors towards the exit. We were told to hush more
than a few times, so Jane exaggerated a stage whisper.
“She’ll be fine. She suffered a few blows, broken ribs, first-degree
burns. But there’s no organ damage, which is good. She’ll get to go home
tomorrow, but she’ll need to rest for the next six weeks.”
“So, she can’t do the show?” asked Holly.
“No.” Cole shook his head with extreme disappointment. “You girls will
have to fill in the gaps in the choreography. It’ll work out.”
Lydia didn’t have any solos, so the most negative effect her absence
would toll on the show would be an imbalance in the pirate to maiden ratio.
Poor Denny would be the single pirate.
“Should we finish this conversation over dinner?” I asked the group. It
was way past dinnertime, and I was fairly certain Plant Power was closed,
but I was getting hangry. I wanted an opportunity to ask more questions of
Cole. Like where did Will fit into the whole scheme of things kinds of
questions.
“Cole and I had something resembling food at the cafe,” said Stella.
“So, we’ll pass. Which reminds me, I should use the loo before that long car
ride back to L.A.”
She broke off from the group to find a bathroom, and I joined her in the
search. I didn’t have to go. I hadn’t eaten in hours, so there was nothing
there. But I wanted to talk to her alone. I needed answers. My questions
were really for Cole, but I figured Stella might be more straightforward
with me than he would, especially after our little bonding time at the gala.
I waited until she was washing her hands, so it wouldn’t be too
awkward. I didn't want to discuss this through a bathroom stall door.
“Thank you for all you’ve done for Lydia,” I said. “You’re a good
friend.”
“You’re the good friend,” she said. “I’m just tagging along.”
“And Cole’s gone above and beyond,” I added.
“That he has,” she agreed.
She was drying her hands. Once we left the bathroom, I’d miss my
opportunity to talk to her alone. I didn’t want to sound too eager in bringing
up Will, but it was now or never.
“Lydia said something,” I hinted. “I thought it might have been the pain
killers or maybe she wasn’t in her right mind when Cole found her, but she
mentioned Will. Was he there? In Mexico?”
Stella stared at me blankly for a long moment and then responded, “You
don’t know?”
“Is this something everybody knows but me?”
And if so, why was I the last to find out?
“Not necessarily,” she said. “Not if William didn’t want it known.”
“Why wouldn't he want it known?”
Stella took my arm and led me out of the bathroom and around a corner
where we wouldn’t be seen by our friends.
“I’m going to tell you this,” she said in a whisper, “but if William
wanted it to be a secret, you have to honor that and tell no one.”
“Okay,” I said feebly.
“All right.”
She took a deep breath like she was about to settle into a long campfire
tale.
“We wouldn’t have been able to find Lydia without him,” she said.
“What?”
“And even if we had, none of us could have negotiated her release the
way he did.”
“What do you mean?’
“Those guys never release anyone,” she replied. “They’re not some
small fry operation. They have international ties with who knows which
human trafficking rings. Lydia was going to be shipped off the continent.
Like cattle.”
My head was spinning. I was still confused.
“So what did Will do?”
“I’m not entirely sure. All I know, is that he tracked down Jorge. If
anyone knows Jorge’s hideouts, it’s Will. Then he paid to get her out.”
“Will paid the bad guys.”
“Oh, yes. They’re businessmen at the end of the day. Money talks.”
“How much?”
“I really couldn’t begin to guess. But I’ll tell you this. Whatever they
paid Jorge, they’d be stupid to accept less than ten times that amount.”
My stomach dropped to my knees. Any appetite I had was now
obliterated.
“And what about Jorge?”
“Don’t worry. He won’t bother us again.”
“Is he? You know…” I ran my forefinger across my neck.
“No, heavens no.” She laughed. “He’s in custody. But let’s not dwell on
these things. What’s done is done.”
She started towards the hospital exit to join our friends but stopped
abruptly. “Don’t tell Will I told you this.”
I promised I wouldn’t with a vigorous nod.
“If you must bring it up, blame it on Lydia’s big mouth. It will be more
believable.”
29
T MINUS ONE DAY
Will
Beth
I SHOULD HAVE INVITED WILL OVER for tacos. There were more
than enough to go around; I picked up a party pack at Taco Bell. He
probably didn’t eat tacos anyway, washboard stomach and all. Not that I
was obsessing over it or anything.
Bing rode with Jane to my apartment, pulling into the parking lot at the
same time. I waited at the curb, so we could walk in together, but they
weren’t getting out of the car.
“Hey, you guys coming?” I knocked on the hood of Jane’s car. “Nobody
likes cold mystery meat.”
Jane waved her hand out the driver’s window. It was dark, but I could
swear her eyes glistened with tears.
“Go on ahead,” she said. “We’ll be right in.”
What was going on with these two now? Why was that man always
making her cry? I wanted to tap on his window and get some answers. But
it was getting chilly, and I knew Jane would tell me eventually. Hopefully,
without telenovelas or Cap’n Crunch hair. I made a mental note to hide the
remote.
The front door to my apartment was unlocked and as I entered, Lydia’s
balloons, flowers, and stuffed animals assaulted my eyes. Was it my
imagination, or were there more gifts than before? They took up every spare
inch of my apartment.
Lydia lounged on the sofa, propped up with copious amounts of pillows
and blankets. Her sister sat next to her on the floor, tenderly stroking her
hair.
“Finally,” Lydia exclaimed. “I’m starved.”
Nora had sent me a text an hour before rehearsal ended saying they’d
arrived at home, and Lydia was jonesing for bar food. I responded with a
taco emoji and she responded, with impeccable grammar, that they would
await my arrival. I was so relieved to hear the good news and left the
theatre the second Cole finished giving notes.
“Shall I bring your dinner to you and feed you by hand, Cleopatra?” I
joked while unpacking the party pack on the breakfast nook.
“Har har,” Lydia grunted as she tried to lift herself from the couch. Nora
shot up from the floor to assist her.
“Take it slow, Lydia. I’ll bring you a plate.”
“My butt hurts from sitting on it for two days straight,” replied Lydia. “I
think I can manage a few steps to the kitchen.”
Nora wrapped her arm around her sister’s back and helped her
maneuver to the kitchen table.
“Should we wait for Jane?” she asked.
“She’s in the parking lot with Bing,” I said resentfully. “Who knows
how long they’ll be.”
Nora’s eyebrows arched with curiosity, but she didn’t know us well
enough to press for details. All she said was, “Oh.”
“So, are they back together or what?” Lydia asked with a mouth full of
crunchy taco.
I shrugged and filled three glasses with water. “Who knows? I can’t
keep track anymore.”
I decided I was done worrying about it. I could hardly keep track of my
own life.
“Oh, I almost forgot.” Nora abandoned her taco to retrieve a smallish
box from among the plethora of Lydia’s gifts. “This came for you.”
She handed me the package and sat down to her meal.
It was a simple brown box weighing hardly anything. I looked at the
shipping label. One day express. No return address. Curious. I didn’t order
anything online. I ran the edge of the kitchen shears over the packing tape
and gingerly unfolded the flaps. Packing peanuts spilled on the counter as I
reached in to find a smaller box with intricate designs embossed in gold. I
recognized it immediately. The year bulb I left behind at Will’s house.
“What is it?” questioned Lydia impatiently. She was a sucker for
delivered packages. Even when it was just vitamins.
“Oh,” I said absently. “Just something I accidentally left at a friend’s
house.” I took the shipping box off the kitchen counter, careful to sweep the
packing peanuts back into it, and headed to my bedroom.
“I’m just going to put it in a safe place. Be right back.”
Closing the door behind me, I sat on my bed and stared at the little box.
Why did Will send it FedEx? Why couldn’t he hand it to me directly? Was
this his way of cutting ties with me? We still had a six-week run ahead of
us.
I opened the lid and ran my fingers over the silk lining. I was almost
afraid to take the ornament out of its snug little bed. It had to be so fragile.
Like me. How did I get to this point in life? Delicate and so easily broken—
in love with a man completely out of my league.
Something caught my eye amidst the packing peanuts. A small, red
envelope with the initials W.M.D. gilded in a script font. How many types
of stationary did that man have?
Will with a quill strikes again.
With a measure of trepidation, I opened the envelope. I feared the words
inside. What would they say?
Have a nice life? Goodbye and good riddance? The lyrics to I Don’t
Ever Want to See You Again from the musical Dance a Little Closer? Or We
Do Not Belong Together from Sunday in the Park with George?
I took a brave breath and let my eyes fall over the handwritten lettering.
Straight and precise. All neatly written caps except his signature.
SOMETHING ELSE? What else did I leave there? My soiled dress? Was
he upset I left it soaking in the bathroom sink? He could throw it away if it
bothered him. I didn’t even realize my eyes were wet until the salt from a
single tear reached the corner of my mouth. Gross.
I closed the box and shoved all the contents of the package under my
bed. There was no sense in letting it bother me at this point. Also, tacos. My
tummy hurt from hunger.
I was a new Beth with a new life, I decided. A life brimming with
possibilities and opportunities. A life in New York with my bestie. What did
I have to lose? I would take Jane up on her offer to share an overpriced
studio apartment in Manhattan while she dazzled the audiences of
Broadway, and I hit the pavement at four in the morning to stand in audition
lines. It doesn’t get much more glamorous than that.
When I returned to the kitchen, Jane and Bing were sitting at the table,
feeding each other nachos.
Gag me.
Ten minutes ago, they were having a cry-fest in the parking lot. I was so
over the whole world.
“So, did you guys finally figure it out?” I realized my tone came off as
jaded. I didn’t care. Soon, we’d be rid of this drama. And I was determined
to finally get my taco. Jane shared a conspiring glance at Bing as I leaned
over them to grab my share of the meal. They giggled, looked from one
another’s glowing faces to me, and blurted, “We’re getting married.”
31
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Beth
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Will
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
A million thanks to the following beta readers for helping me whip this
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Rachel John – This book is better because of you, and that’s all there is
to it. I am astounded by the generosity you have shown me. Actually, I’m
floored that a busy author would come to the aid of a complete newbie and
give the gift of time and insight. I didn’t know where I belonged in this
world of romance authors before. Now I’m the girl with the lanyard. I’m
eternally grateful.
KG Fletcher – My musical theatre sister from another mister. I am so
blessed by your friendship and all the golden advice you’ve offered me in
this journey. I could always count on you to guide me and answer any
ridiculous questions I had. Thank you for critiquing this book when it was a
hot mess, especially over the holidays while you were on tour with your
band. You rock.
Cinnamon Worth – Thank you for the wealth of information you have
shared with me. There are so many nuggets of writerly wisdom in your
feedback of this book and the correspondence we’ve enjoyed. You opened
my eyes to see revising a manuscript with renewed awareness.
Brenda St John Brown – I am humbled and thankful for the time you
took to offer your expertise through your comments and suggestions. Your
knowledge and experience in the romantic comedy genre are an invaluable
resource I will return to in all my writing endeavors.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Gigi is a hopeless Musical Theatre nerd far too obsessed with Phantom of the Opera.
Former professional wedding singer turned wordslinger, Gigi lives in Southern California with a
husband who cooks all the meals, a bookworm teenage son, and a theatre-loving teenage daughter
(wonder where she got that from?).
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