NOTES TO

SELF: ESSAYS
BY EMILIE PINE

Presented by Dolores Medina Ruiz

 FIRST QUOTE

“I used to push myself

to reject him, to walk
away, failing each “It took years of refusing him
“Like all children of heavy
drinkers, we developed a time.” empathy before I realized that
particular kind of watchfulness. the only person I was hurting
We learned, through experience, was myself.”
not to trust. We learned to cope
with crisis.” “How can I love him,
how can I save him,
when I can’t even reach
him?”.

Gender perspective?
 SECOND QUOTE
“It sounds exotic, and people who
“Because I shouldn’t be here. I have only known me in the good
shouldn’t be here at all. I’m only years will look slightly surprised,
sixteen, my mum doesn’t know where I then laugh at the idea that I used
am, it’s a school night, I should be to be a wild child.”
tucked up in my own bed, not being
fucked on someone else’s.”
“I had a crazy few
years as a teenager”.

“Why, after all, would I ever

tell the story, when to tell it
Gender perspective? would be to risk the life that I
have made in the years
since?”.
 THIRD QUOTE
“I hated that we ate the same cheap
“I hated that there were no food repeatedly, an endless litany
treats, that our car was so old the of graybrown mince and watery
locks froze shut in winter, that potatoes that, each mealtime, filled
we had no TV, and then later me with revulsion”
only a tiny black and white one.” “I discovered
the power of
not eating.”

“I hated the sense that we were

only ever scraping by, I hated
that there were no treats, that
our car was so old the locks
Gender perspective? froze shut in winter, that we
had no TV…”.
 CONCLUSIONS

Absence of nurturing and affection of parents towards

children.
Trauma and its Impacts.
Economic Hardship on Childhood.
Gender Norms.
Thank You
For Your
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