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Alexis Hall
Delphine Dryden
Vanessa North
Annabeth Albert
Amy Jo Cousins
Geonn Cannon
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and
incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used
fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons,
living or dead, is coincidental.
He’s the nice one. Everybody’s third or fourth favourite. His name is
Noah and his job is to be young and free, wild but not too wild,
exciting but safe. He has everything he’s ever wanted, and he’s
beginning to think it sucks.
—With one-of-a-kind pics, exclusive interviews and the real story behind
the band, this is TruNorth as you’ve never seen them before!
Zev doesn't want to leave the village on the crag, leave his family
and the rest of the dragon kin. He doesn't want to go down to the
grasslands where the non-kin live—flat landers, earthbound. He
worries his friend Rook may be headed that way. So how can Rook
seem so calm about it?
But once Zev does change, a new dilemma greets him. Even staying
in the village may mean a life he didn't bargain for. If only he could
borrow a little of Rook's patient wisdom--reach out and take it from
his slender hands, his petal-soft lips. If only Zev could unfurl his
new wings and follow Rook up and up and up, into the blinding
brilliance of a summer sky.
Owen works the counter at the coffee shop where Jude changes
clothes and she thinks maybe he knows things she usually keeps
hidden. When he reveals her secret to someone else, Jude will have
to decide if she can hang onto enough trust to let her take the biggest
risk of all…
Alexis Hall
Dear Reader,
Love,
AJH
quicunquevult.com
I’m the nice one.
That’s the first thing they told me after the final episode of The
Next Big Thing.
Not that it meant anything to me then. Stumbling off stage, hardly
believing what’d just happened, light-dazzled, the baying of the
crowd ringing in my ears.
And honestly—two years, two world tours and three albums later
—it still doesn’t.
I’m still stumbling off stages. Lights still burn my eyes. And the
fans still scream until it could be any noise at all. Joy or rage or hate
or whatever.
But I’m allowed to be a little goofy. My smile to be a little
stunned. Apparently it’s endearing. Makes me relatable.
And safe to be loved by somewhere in the region of eight million
girls. Or one fifth of that. Probably less because Max is the charming
one—all flippy curls and chocolate eyes—and everyone knows he’s
the favourite.
The second thing they told me that day was that I hadn’t really
won the show. I’d come in sixth by audience vote, but the other guy
—couldn’t even remember his name—hadn’t…how did they put it?
Fit the concept.
I’m probably supposed to be grateful. But at the same time
understand that I’m expendable. Chosen not on talent or popularity
or because I really believed in my dream, but because Simeon Glyde
decided. And changed my life for me.
I wonder sometimes what would have happened if I’d been
different. Brunette not blonde. Taller. Shorter. Or whatever else I’d,
or not had, that made me right. When someone else—someone
better, I guess—had been wrong.
I suppose I would have gone back home with my parents. Joined
up with one of the corps like they’d done.
For a little while, I’d have been Nearly the Next Big Thing, the life
that could have been mine on every screen around me. Probably it
would have hurt. But that stuff fades with time. And, afterwards,
what would’ve been left…
Would’ve been me.
Just me.
*****
*****
Finally, we get to the hotel. But before I can make it to the elevator—
“Just a moment, Noah.”
Words I’ve come to dread.
I really thought I might be spared the debrief tonight.
Unfortunately it’s all so friendly I can’t easily say no. Of course I
try anyway. “I’m kind of pretty tired right now.”
“It won’t take long.”
They always send Benedict when it’s me. It’s embarrassing how
obvious it must be that I like him. I don’t even know what his job is
—some kind of liaison to Glyde, I think—but he’s been with us since
the very beginning. He has a nice smile and a soft voice and I like
how he looks at me.
As if maybe he sees past TruNorth all the way back to that boy
with the guitar.
He uses iGlass—most people in his line of work do—but even
though he’s got it turned off his eyes have this shininess. Like
pebbles on the beach smoothed by the tide.
“Okay,” I say.
His hand closes over my forearm, just for a moment. The warmth
of it is shocking somehow. So is how he real he is, how solid.
When we’re in public, we’re always touching each other. The
band I mean. Friendly, unambiguous touches. Shoulder to shoulder.
Arm to arm. Whatever makes us look comfortable together.
But suddenly I’m trying to remember the last time somebody just
hugged me.
Wondering what it would be like to sway into Benedict and be
held.
I don’t do it, of course.
I just follow him into one of the conference rooms, where the
media team is already set up.
The walls are all screens and the screens are all us. Endless images
from every possible angle. And social media feeds from all over the
world racing past like traffic.
It’s basically for my benefit because I’m not perma-streaming..
Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t. Our contracts don’t allow us any
unapproved modifications. Even Rayan’s bad-boy tattoos and
diamond studs had to go past Glyde first.
And I can’t imagine he’d ever say yes to iGlass, since most people
—me included—find it creepy as hell.
I catch this faint, insectoid click as Benedict activates his.
A couple of people turn to look at me as I sit down. They’re
smiling, saying “hey Noah” or whatever and all the time their eyes
are covered by a flickery, milky film. Cataracts made of data.
I’m sure I should know at least somebody here. But the Media
Team is this merry-go-round of analysts and specialists and
branding gurus and communication experts.
“So.” This is how these meetings always begin. One harmless
little word.
I glance towards whoever said it. She’s looking at me but she
could be seeing anything. There’s probably some sort of
collaborative project-management plan for me updating behind her
eyes. Her hair is pulled into tight, purple-streaked warrior braids
that lie flat to her skull.
It’s such a small thing but it makes me realise that I know nothing
about her life at all..
I can’t imagine any more what it’s like to be her. What she thinks
about when she wakes up in the morning, in some cheap hotel or in
a room she rents, and begins to plait her hair.
I’m probably just a line on her CV.
“Only a few things to cover tonight,” she tells me, all brisk and
cheerful.
They always say this as well. Even if there’s lists and lists. Hours
and hours.
“I know we’re getting close to the end of the tour and you’re
probably flagging but you missed your mark a couple of times.”
The dregs of exhilaration drain away. Leaving only this dull
thumping in my head.
Images fill up the screens. All me. With a flick of somebody’s
fingers they pan, rotate, tilt, zoom in, zoom out. We go over
everything I’ve done badly. Every time I’ve been in the wrong place.
Every time I’ve broken alignment. Every time I’ve been off message.
I lose track of the shoulds and shouldn’ts.
But I uh-huh and yeah and sorry. I’m supposed to be used to this
but all it ever does is make me feel bad.
Watching someone fucking up and being told it’s me.
There’s this photo someone’s put on LineUp. Some fan snap from
back stage, grainy and unglamorous. Close to monochrome. I can’t
remember the moment it was taken. No idea what was going
through my head.
I guess I’m just waiting?
I don’t exactly look sad but I don’t look happy either. Still and
unsmiling. Harsher angles than usual. Mainly eyes and cheekbones
and shadows. Slightly hulking because my arms are folded and
bulgy.
It’s odd. I’m used to seeing myself. Like living in a room of
mirrors.
This picture is different.
It doesn’t feel like a mirror. It feels like a pool. Depth behind the
reflection.
Embarrassing…vain maybe…but I like it.
Except it’s not how I’m supposed to look. I’m supposed to be
clean-cut, grinning, open body language. Not moody or
intimidating.
So they’re talking about how to ensure it doesn’t get much
attention. Our own posts always get the most traction—millions
upon millions of responses—so it’s easy to swamp stuff.
It’s kind of a thing. The way we engage with our fans.
I wonder how they’d feel if they knew that everything was done
by committee. Every candid selfie. Every funny comment. Every
spontaneous update. Every reply.
Maybe they wouldn’t care. It’s him they know.
Which is a fucking crazy thing to think.
Because it’s not him, it’s me.
And nice boys don’t say “fucking”.
Even while I’m sitting here, messages and comments and pictures
are flashing up on the screens, too fast for me to read. Everyone is
talking to everyone else. It’s all how many Echoes this Bark got or
what’s trending on MeIm.
I know better than to read comments. Except I’d look anyway.
new side to noah hot hot hot Max is waaaaaay hotter I wanna be with
Cal 4eva Rayan is def the hottest for me Defenetely max I cannot live
without him I love Oli Cal and max!!!!! back off bitch max is mine
Pathetic how much I still care.
Part of me just doesn’t want to lose. Doesn’t want to be the
weakest link. The boring one. The other one.
And part of me—the only part I can recognise really—is still that
kid on the audition stage. Wanting to be loved and heard and seen
and understood.
“Look.” Not Purple Braids. Someone else. A man. His suit too
expensive. “We really have to talk about the gay thing.” He looks at
me with his off-white eyes. His stare feels accusing somehow. “It’s
not going away.”
There’s been rumours for a while.
“We stick to the strategy.” Someone else again. “Ignore it. Starve
it. Anything else will fuel the story.”
Suit sighs. Irritated and disappointed. I’m making his job harder
than it has to be. An impatient snap of his fingers and fresh images
tile the screen.
I gaze at them. There I am again. Onstage. Off. With fans.
Publicity stills. Candids. Smiling, waving, pulling silly faces. I don’t
get whatever he’s try to show me.
“He’s not even trying.”
He gestures and a picture flies from between the rest. A twist of
his hand and it spins. He opens his palm and we zoom in.
It’s the standard photograph. The five of us in a row, arms around
each other’s shoulders.
Except wait.
No.
My hand is lower on Oli’s back. Almost around his waist.
I can’t remember doing it. I know better than that.
My skin crawls.
“What the fuck are we supposed to do with that?” Suit’s watch
strap scrapes against the glass table as he shoves the picture away.
The wall of me ripples around it. I know what this is about now.
It’s about whatever this man, maybe whatever the world, sees as
suspect.
Gay, I guess?
“We can call in the consultant again?” A woman with big hoop
earrings.
I’m not going through that a second time. Though, honestly, if
they decide it’s necessary, I probably don’t have much choice.
I’m suddenly too aware of my body, the memory of my day with
the consultant in my skin like pins and needles. I find myself
worrying about the angle of my wrists. The way my hands are
resting on the table.
My face must do something because Purple Braids leans in.
“We’re on your side, Noah. We’re just trying to help.”
I nod. I’m so deep into exhaustion even despair is sluggish.
“The fact is”—she’s talking to the room now—“there’s usually a
gay one. We’ve managed to contain it so far but this was probably
inevitable.”
One of the screens dissolves into charts. Lines tracking
merchandise sales, mentions, likes, market research data scribbling
endlessly. Reminds me of those heart monitors you get in hospitals.
I’m the yellow one, dipping slightly below the rest.
“Better him than one of the others.” Suit shrugs.
Purple Braid’s eyes flick back to me. Pity, maybe, drowned in the
data. “We can push back on this. It doesn’t have to be you.”
Silence.
I watch the vanishing point on the screens. Old words fading into
new.
“How about,” says Hoops suddenly “we get him a girlfriend?”
Benedict shakes his head. “No girlfriends. You know that.”
“Yes, we know. Keep them accessible.” Hoops’s earrings chime
with her impatience. “Question is: does supposed homosexuality
make him seem less or more accessible than a temporary girlfriend?”
“But”—Purple Braids again—“when they break up, the narrative
will be that it didn’t work out because he’s gay.”
I laugh.
It ricochets off the glass table and the screens.
There’s a moment before I realise it’s me. That the sound is
coming from me.
Heads snap round.
So many pairs of eyes. Irises and pupils blurred to oily cream.
“Let’s wrap this up,” says Benedict.
It takes me a long time to remember how to stop laughing.
I don’t know how to explain. But I went out with a girl and broke
up with her all inside someone else’s conversation.
And also.
Also.
In all this talk, this endless scrutiny, nobody’s ever asked.
Nobody’s ever asked if I’m actually gay.
I almost wish they would. Except I wouldn’t know how to
answer.
There’s so much I’ve lost track of the past few years. I’m not even
sure what music I like anymore. How I’d dress if it was up to me.
I don’t even know if I’m really all that nice.
I think I’m probably not.
I think I’m probably pretty selfish.
Mainly what I am is stuck in my own head. Thinking about
myself. Trapped somehow while my body moves and smiles and
sings and does what it’s told.
*****
Eventually I’m hustled into a hotel room that isn’t mine to have my
photo taken They’re the kind of candid, behind-the-scenes shots that
the fans are supposed to love. All carefully rehearsed, of course. Put
through a gazillion filters.
We have to be careful with this stuff. The fans are everywhere and
they’re really good at finding us. They tracked us to this shopping
centre once from a random Metavore update. I still remember the
screams and the thudding of hands against glass.
I smile and smile and thumbs-up into various phones. I’m rolling
up my socks—because that’s apparently the sort of thing I do—and
being excited for New Berlin.
We’re heading there tomorrow to close out the tour and start
recording our fourth album. They’re calling it While We’re Young.
It’s meant to be a return to…whatever.
Now & Then, the third one, still debuted at number one but
apparently the fans didn’t like it as much.
Something about it not being us or something. I don’t know. They
keep us pretty insulated from that stuff. We don’t even have access
to our own social media accounts any more. Not since Oli had a
massive meltdown on Weeble because some fans worked out which
hotel room he was staying in and kept ringing the internal phone.
Whatever he posted is long buried.
He had to do this big apology video.
Tell everyone his grandmother had died.
“Okay folks.” It’s Benedict who breaks up the…whatever this is.
“I think that’s enough for now.”
I escape through security to our rooms.
Pitch into bed. And I’m gone.
Asleep like falling down a well.
*****
*****
*****
The whole time I’m terrified I’m going to get recognised. I imagine
alarms going off. Security chasing me down.
But nobody notices me at all.
I’m just someone in a crowd.
It’s…amazing.
And then I get terrified all over again. What if something happens
to me? If I get lost or attacked or…or… Well I have no idea.
All my biometrics are logged, of course, but I’ve heard stories
about blackmarket retinal surgery. People losing their whole
identity, all their money, everything.
Or maybe it’s just what you tell kids to make them take scanning
in seriously. I don’t know.
Anyway, I’m not turning back.
I need to know what Callum is doing.
It’s hard to unravel whether I’m concerned for him or curious or
just plain jealous. It would never have occurred to me that this was
possible. That we could just leave. Though, honestly, even if it had,
I’m not sure I’d have found the balls to actually do it.
Just enough courage to follow, that’s me.
I wonder if he’s running away or something. But that doesn’t
make much sense. He doesn’t seem unhappy and you wouldn’t flee
into an unknown city with only a shoulder bag. Right?
Maybe this is just what he does. Stealing the occasional night off.
Maybe Glyde approves.
Just like he does the rest of it.
Me and Benedict.
I keep to the edges of the crowds. The safest distance I can
manage without losing him completely.
He walks quickly, head down, barely looking around him.
Purposeful, not touristy.
We leave the domes and the skyscrapers and the fountains, the
lavish little gardens that probably cost more than some of the
buildings, and head through a sort of checkpoint.
It’s eerie. Unmanned. Not even a scan
Just a gate that slides quietly open for anyone to pass through.
It’s dark on the other side. And cold. And, oh fuck, raining.
The drops hit the backs of my hands, my cheeks, like nothing I’ve
ever felt before.
We must have reached the edge of the skybox.
Callum speeds up, his footsteps echoing in the deep silence of the
deserted street.
But I have to go more carefully. The shadows conceal me, but
they conceal him too, and any sound could give me away.
We pass between a set of sandstone columns. They’re chipped
and cracked and thick with dirt and I think they were probably once
part of something much bigger. If I squint, I can make out what
might have been an arch or a roof, maybe.
Ahead, the road is wide and straight. Lined by old-fashioned
streetlights, still flickering occasionally with drowned green light.
And trees grown fairytale wild, their branches twisted together like
lovers or enemies.
The buildings on either side, the ones that still stand, are tall and
square, though the styles run a gamut of centuries. Some of them
would probably have been pretty grand once, but now even the
intact ones are tumble-down, the windows mostly boarded up.
Someone has scrawled LIEBE ODER NICHTS right across the
front of one. The foot-tall letters are ragged, as if they’re bleeding.
Across another: DAS IST DER LETZTE TANZ.
And then: ART CONQUERS ALL. Across a painting of two
hands, chained by golden links.
On the bridge of broken statues that crosses the dark river:
POLITIK IST DIE FORTSETZUNG DES KRIEGES MIT ANDEREN
MITTELN.
I squint through the silver haze of the still-falling rain at Callum’s
back. He’s just on the edge of sight. Just about to disappear.
What are we doing here?
I’m really cold now, really wet. I’m about ready to turn back.
Except then there’ll be no answers at all.
And, even though he doesn’t know I’m there, I don’t want to
leave Callum alone.
There are other pedestrians sometimes, but they might as well be
ghosts.
At last we come to a wide, grey plaza, framed by hollowed-out
buildings and what looks to be a derelict train station. Here and
there, the ground is scored by metal tracks and, on the far side, the
road narrows, becoming darker still.
Sometimes, I think I can catch music. Muffled by brick and stone.
Voices, too. And other noises. Laughter. Gasps. Muffled moans that
could just as easily be pain or pleasure. And in the distance there’s a
reddish glow. Getting brighter as we get closer.
A flood of lipstick-scarlet neon spilling onto the murky street.
It’s coming from a sign pinned over the door of a building.
NEW
ELDORADO
Is what it says.
The letters crackling and humming as if they’re magic. Or alive
somehow.
It must be a club. Maybe?
Callum doesn’t hesitate. Doesn’t even glance up. He just steps
inside and is gone.
I wait, alone on the dark street, with no idea where I am, until I’m
certain he’s not coming out again.
Then I follow.
Graffiti runs the whole length of the building. Although I guess
it’s not exactly graffiti—maybe more of a mural? It shows these
dancing couples, all in ball dresses and tuxedos or whatever,
silhouetted against this crazy sweep of colour. As if someone broke a
rainbow against the wall.
There’s a man and a woman, then a woman and a woman, then a
man and a man, then… I don’t know …could be either or neither or
both, then three people together and finally a man and a poodle. I
have no idea what’s going on with that last one. But it’s more
cartoonish than the others so I guess it’s meant to be a joke?
At least they both look like they’re having a nice time?
I make it to the front door.
My heart is beating so fast as I stand there, bathed in crimson
light. I can see the rest of the sign now. There’s a painting of a man
(?) and a woman (?) winking. And between them: HIER IST’S
RICHTIG!
Brisk, stompy footsteps behind me.
I freeze. Pure panic.
A man—a middle-aged man in jeans and a leather jacket—steps
past me. Disappears inside, just like Callum did.
For some reason, the sight of him shoves me into action. I catch
the door as it swings and slip in after him, nearly smothering in the
velvet curtain that’s waiting for me on the other side.
By the time I’m out, the other man is handing his coat and a dirty
collection of dollar bills to an attendant. “Danke, Fräulein.” I guess
he’s probably American from his too-slow, too-loud German.
She nods.
I hover in the doorway, faintly alarmed by her boredom and her
beauty. Both of which are obvious. She’s wearing a silver evening
dress that clings to her every movie-starlet curve.
“Excuse me.” The American isn’t done, leaning in a little closer,
apparently undiscouraged by the way she draws back from him.
“But are you really a man?”
She smiles. Lips as red as Snow White’s poisoned apple. “I’m
whatever you want me to be, darling.”
Then she waves the man away.
And I have no choice but to come forward.
I’m in this shabby little alcove, all peeling paint and threadbare
carpet. There’s a rack for coats and a chair and a smell of rising
damp and that’s about it. Except for the doors I guess must lead into
the club itself. Honestly, it’s not even that it’s sleazy so much as
ordinary. Rundown in this everyday way.
“Um,” I say.
Beauty eyes me without much interest and extends her hand,
palm up, fingers wiggling. The universal gesture for “pay up.”
“I don’t… That is…can you…” I flail vaguely. The universal
gesture for “take it from the database”.
“Oh no.” Beauty’s perfectly shaped, perfectly dark brows dip into
a frown. “We have no use for your biometric credits here. What we
trade, is paid for in cash alone.”
“And, uh, what is that exactly?”
“If you have to ask, darling, you are in no position to have it.”
“Right.”
I’m about to leave when a different voice, a deeper, warmer voice,
says: “Let him come, Ernst.”
Beauty—Ernst—shrugs, produces a nail file from somewhere and
puts it viciously to work.
The raspy sound makes me cringe, like there’s ants under my
skin, but I ignore it. There’s a tall woman standing in by the internal
doors.
At least, I think she’s a woman. But, I mean, who cares? I’m not
going to be crass about it like the American.
She’s got dark skin and champagne-blonde hair that falls in sleek
waves from beneath a shiny top hat. Just like the figures on the
mural outside, she’s wearing a tuxedo with a silk lapels and a very
stiff white shirt under it. Satin ribbons run up the seams of her dark
trousers, making her legs look endless. In one hand, she’s holding an
ivory cigarette holder, inlaid with red jade and green. With the other
she beckons me forward.
I step towards her, feeling shabby and awkward and incredibly
ordinary. “Sorry I didn’t bring any cash.” To be honest, I’ve no idea
how I’m even supposed to get any.
“Put it from your mind, mein Kleiner.” She gives me this moon-
bright smile. “Why don’t you tell me what you’re looking for
tonight?”
I don’t know how to explain that I’ve no idea what I’m doing.
That I’m following a boy. So I shrug. Try to smile. “I don’t know.
What have you got?”
A laugh billows out of her with a plume of smoke from her
cigarette. “Dreams. Truth. Hope. Art. Sex. Freedom. Joy. Love.” She
steps clear of the doorway and ushers me through with a flourishing
bow. “Welcome,” she tells me, “to Eldorado.”
And I step through.
I don’t know what I’m expecting. Some kind of wonderland, I
think.
At first I don’t think it is. And then … then I’m not sure.
Because the first thing I hear is the music. There’s a live band.
And I don’t really know what they’re playing, except it’s brassy and
bold and it makes me want to dance in ways I’ve never danced
before.
In a flurry of feathers and sequins just like the mureal.
For whatever reason, the club itself has a slightly Asian theme,
with hanging lanterns and strange paintings on the walls. There’s a
bar and a stage and a wooden dance floor, ringed by tables, all set
into intimate little alcoves.
The air is thick with perfume and tobacco.
And it’s somehow smaller than I’d imagined. Almost
claustrophobic, especially with the number of people. Some of them
clearly tourists, like me and the American, but the rest must be staff
or patrons or regulars because they’re dressed as glamorously as the
hostess. Tuxedos or evening dresses. And I even think I see someone
in a floor-length mink coat.
No poodles though.
Which I’m pretty grateful about.
I look for Callum but there’s no sign of him at all.
The hostess pushes me gently into a seat at an unoccupied table
and snaps her fingers.
Next thing I know someone is putting a glass of champagne down
in front of me. I don’t drink much—it’s a no-no if you’re in a
boyband—but since I’m being stared at, I take a sip. The bubbles
explode on my tongue, that kind of acidic, apple-y taste flooding my
mouth.
The hostess watches me, amused and lazily curious. “What’s your
name?”
“Noah.” I answer without even thinking about it and then wish I
wasn’t a complete idiot. She just nods, so I rush on. “What’s yours?”
“You can call me—” She seems to think about it for a moment,
smiling all the time. “—Rumpelstilzchen.”
“Um, okay.”
She takes another pull on her cigarette, the tip glowing red for a
moment like a watching eye. “Well, Noah. Enjoy the show. I hope
you find what you need.”
With that, she stands and pushes into the crowd.
I stay where I’ve been put, drinking the champagne very slowly
and avoiding eye contact. Nobody talks to me, which is a relief, but
sometimes they smile my way. And I’m pretty sure if I smiled back,
I’d have company.
I’m starting to worry I’ve lost Callum completely.
And, even if I haven’t, what’s going to happen when he sees me?
What am I supposed to say to him?
Oh yeah, I kind of stalked you across Berlin. Because reasons.
Just when I’ve pretty much decided to leave, the band falls silent
and the lights dim. The dancers clear the dance floor. And
Rumpelstilzchen takes the stage. Claiming the attention of the room
with a nothing more than a flick of her cigarette holder.
“Hola, Bonsoir, Guten Abend, Da Jia Hao, Hi. Je suis ni de
compere for this evening of…entertainment.” She smiles, her eyes
everywhere. But it feels like she’s talking to me. Like I’m alone in the
room and I’m the only one who matters. “I beg of you, do not be
alarmed by anything you see or hear. I assure you it is all part of the
show. I ask of you also to disable your personal recording
equipment because, my darlings, do any of you really want your
employers to know you were here? And believe me we are very
serious about this rule. Why, last week, we had to confiscate a man’s
eyes.”
There’s laughter. Some of it sounds genuinely amused. The rest of
it is nervous.
I don’t laugh. I think I’m on the uncomfortable edge of lost.
Alice wanting out of Wonderland. Dorothy dreaming of home.
“But I’m sure,” she continues, “you have heard enough of me and
my dire warnings for your personal and moral safety. Please, in
whatever way you deem appropriate, make yourselves ready for our
first performer. All the way from a secret research facility deep in the
wastelands of the Americas, I bring you the death-defying, gravity-
defying, mis…defying—” She pauses, brows sardonically arched.
“—let me have that one, darlings. Subject 17!”
She steps down, the spotlight snaps off and, while we wait in the
darkness, a piano breaks softly into the opening notes of… Chopin, I
think? One of the nocturnes?
There’s a rustling gasp from the audience and then I see a slender,
graceful figure floating in the air above the stage, illuminated only
by lines of turquoise light that run up and down his body, like his
veins are full of whatever they put in glowsticks. As the music plays,
he dances—a kind of aerial ballet—turning slowly, suspended by
nothing, supported by nothing, the light pulsing slowly beneath his
skin.
It’s hard to watch somehow. Beautiful, for sure. But something
else as well.
There’s other acts after. Singers, dancers, acrobats, lasers and
holograms. Some are funny, some are sad, a lot of them are really
kind of blatantly sexual and make me blush. There’s even this
woman in a black evening gown who paints what I guess has to be
the War and the fall of old Berlin with sand poured from her hand, a
flickering projector throws the images onto a screen at the back of
the stage. I recognise the columns we walked through—apparently
they were a gate once.
And I suddenly realise I have no idea how long I’ve been here.
What if I’m missed? Could I be tracked?
I picture a swarm of paparazzi surging into the Eldorado. Finding
me. My flushed and startled guilty face front and centre of every
gossip blog and scandal feed there is.
Except if I try to leave now, I’ll have to blunder out in the dark
and maybe the performers will think I’m being rude and mock me in
front of everyone.
And while that’s much less bad than being caught, it’s also
slightly more likely to actually happen.
So I just sit there, fretting and paralysed.
Caught between an imagined terrible thing and a possible bad
one.
“And now, meine Damen und Herren, Mesdames et Messieurs,
Ladies and Gentlemen—” Rumpelstilzchen is back on stage. “—I am
afraid we have but one more offering to set before you this evening.”
She gazes around with exaggerated grief and the audience
responds with boos and awws.
But all I feel is relief. Last act and then I can go.
I’m starting to think I must have imagined Callum because he’s
definitely not here.
“A very special treat,” Rumpelstilzchen is saying. “A wonderful
young lady all the way from England. You remember England, ja?
Cold, rainy, used to have an empire? This wonderful young lady is
so beautiful, so charming, so talented, only yesterday I said to her, ‘I
must have you for my wife.’ And she said to me, ‘But darling, what
does your wife want with me?’” There’s a murmur of amusement
but she presses on mercilessly. “And I said, ‘She wants what I want,
dear. To fuck you.’” There’s a boom-tish from the band. “But so,
without further ado, my friends and companions, please welcome to
the stage, the remarkable, the exceptional, Fräulein Aisling Cleary.”
I nearly knock my champagne glass over. Startled to hear
Callum’s surname.
So…
His…sister works here?
There’s a scattering of applause.
Then darkness. Anticipatory silence.
The light fades in slowly to reveal a young woman standing
before the old-fashioned microphone. She’s wearing a red corset
dress with ruffly skirts and black lace trimmings. Fishnets. Sparkly
shoes. A hat with a veil and a jaunty feather. Her shoulders are bare
and pale.
She’s…y’know. She’s pretty.
Okay, she’s very pretty. A little bit fragile, a little bit wicked.
Her lips are so soft-looking.
Callum would probably beat the crap out of me if he knew I was
here and what I was thinking.
Then she sings. Just the piano and her voice.
But her voice. Her voice. Powerful and vulnerable at the same
time, with this edge to it, this ache, this hint of roughness that makes
all the hair on my arms stand up.
My breath catch.
I’m so transfixed by her, by the movement of her throat and by
the way her mouth shapes the words, by the shadows and colours in
her eyes, that it takes me a moment to place what she’s singing.
It’s an old one: the “The Ship Song.” It sounds so different the
way she does it.
So full of yearning. Relentless in a way. Like a thrush beating
against my curled up snail of a heart.
Breaking me open.
The very last line, she makes sound all glittery. Like an invitation.
And… I would… I would. I would drown everything. Burn it
down.For a little history with someone.
With her.
She’s smiling as the last notes fade and the applause—which is
wild—begins.
And that’s when I realise. When I recognise her.
Not Callum’s sister. Not Callum’s sister at all.
She’s Callum.
She’s moved on to the next song—“Don’t Tell Mama”—but I’m
barely listening.
Everything’s whirling in my head. Surprise, I guess, and
confusion. But only because I don’t know if this is part of the act.
Or if the act is everything else.
The thing is, I’ve got so many memories of Callum. Three years’
worth. Of seeing him nearly every day. Being with him nearly every
day.
On stage. In the recording studio. At press conferences. At
photoshoots and interviews. On planes and buses and in cars. In
hotel after hotel after hotel.The way he curls himself into very small
spaces. The way his hair falls into his eyes. His quietness. His
intensity. His patience. His kindness to fans. His hints of
playfulness.I can remember him singing Happy Birthday to
someone at an airport. Steadying someone else so she didn’t fall in
the middle of a screaming, shoving crowd.
Though I can’t remember when I first realised he was beautiful.
All these memories. And now I’m going through them, looking
for someone else. Looking for Aisling.
I don’t know if I should be able to find her or not.
Then I realise the shocking thing isn’t so much that she’s here. It’s
just how “here” she is. In every note she sings.
So I stop thinking and just…listen. Because she’s speaking to me
in the language I know best. And haven’t really spoken for a long
time.
I don’t recognise all her songs. And some of them aren’t in
English.But I feel them. And I understand them.
And she’s so full of fire and joy. Not quiet now.
She sings Cohen, Cave, Waits. Harsh songs she cracks wide and
fills with tenderness. With hope.
She’s funny, too. She detaches the microphone from the stand,
steps down from the stage and perches on the edge of one of the
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Language: English
by
VICTOR APPLETON
Copyright, 1926, by
GROSSET & DUNLAP, Inc.
New York, N. Y.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
Printed in U. S. A.
CONTENTS
I. Something Queer
II. Waiting in the Dark
III. Masked Men
IV. A Night of Worry
V. A Crash
VI. Again a Prisoner
VII. The Plot
VIII. Mr. Damon’s News
IX. Koku’s Alarm
X. Tom’s Plight
XI. The Explosion
XII. A Dangerous Search
XIII. An Ominous Message
XIV. The Airline Express
XV. A Trial Flight
XVI. Jason Jacks
XVII. The Airline Starts
XVIII. Chicago
XIX. Denver
XX. A Mountain Storm
XXI. The Golden Gate
XXII. Kenny Breaks Down
XXIII. Another Capture
XXIV. Troubles and Worries
XXV. A Glorious Finish
Tom Swift and His Airline Express
CHAPTER I
SOMETHING QUEER
After the treatment that had been accorded him, Tom Swift rather
welcomed than otherwise a chance to come to grips with the men
who were responsible for his position. Usually even-tempered and
generous, just now he felt eager for vengeance and he would not
have cared much if two men had attacked him at once.
Strangely enough he did not feel weak or ill now. He had,
somewhat, when he first regained his senses after having been
overpowered by some drug. But his brain had cleared and he kept
himself in such good physical trim all the while that even a night of
unconsciousness had not sapped his strength.
The light in the distance did not increase any, from which Tom
gathered that it was full daylight with the sun well above the horizon,
and after that first murmur of voices and the sound of footsteps these
sounds did not come any nearer. Nor did Tom catch a glimpse of any
figures between himself and that little circle of light.
Then from some point outside the cave or tunnel he heard voices
calling. They were louder than the first, and there seemed to be
some dispute or disturbance.
The voices rose to a high pitch and then died away. Silence
followed, and then came the sound of retreating footsteps.
“They’re going away!” exulted Tom. “Now I’ve got a chance to
walk toward that daylight and see where I am. Maybe I’d better wait
a few minutes, though. They may come back.”
He waited what he thought was several minutes and then,
hearing no other sounds of voices or footsteps, began a cautious
approach toward that gleam of light. What a blessed thing light was,
after all that black and clinging darkness!
In silence Tom crept on, advancing one foot after the other
cautiously, and keeping one hand extended to give warning of his
approach toward any obstruction while in his other hand he held the
file like a dagger, ready to use.
But there was no occasion for this. A little later he found himself
standing in a circle of daylight illumination that filtered down an
inclined shaft which led out of a tunnel, such as Tom could now
ascertain he was in. A natural tunnel it appeared to be, with rocks
jutting out here and there in the earthen sides. Roughly the tunnel
was in the form of a half circle, the floor being flat and the roof
arched. The inclined entrance led upward in a gentle slope.
“Well, now to see what’s up there!” said Tom to himself, taking a
long breath and holding his weapon ready. He tensed his muscles
and steeled his nerves for what he felt might be a desperate
struggle. Yet he did not shrink back.
As he advanced cautiously, step by step, up the incline that led to
daylight and the outer world, he felt at first a sense of disappointment
when he saw no one with whom he might come to grips. He had
been treated so meanly that it would have been a source of
satisfaction to have had it out in a rough-and-tumble fight with those
responsible.
But, to his surprise, Tom pushed his way out through a tangle of
underbrush and bushes which grew about this end of the tunnel and
found none to dispute him. This surprise was added to when he
looked about him and found out where he was.
“On Barn Door Island!” exclaimed Tom. “Of all places! Barn Door
Island! But how did I get here? It’s miles away from where I went
down those steps near our plant. Of all places! Barn Door Island!”
This was a small island in Lake Carlopa which had been named
Barn Door because, some time or other, one of the early settlers
happened to remark that it was no larger than the door of a barn.
The island was at the end of the lake farthest removed from Shopton
and the Swift plant.
“I never knew there was an entrance to a tunnel here!” said Tom,
as he looked about him. “But then I’ve never explored here very
much.”
Nor had any of the other lads of Shopton. Barn Door Island was a
barren place—merely a collection of scrubby trees and tangled
bushes and great boulders set down at the swampy end of Lake
Carlopa. It was not a good fishing location and too dreary for picnic
parties, so Barn Door was seldom visited.
“But if I had an idea there was a tunnel entrance here—the
beginning of a passage that led under the lake and under the land