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Galata and Nutmeg
Jane GÜNDOĞAN
Contents
Author’s Note
Disclaimer
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Postlude
Salep and Ginger
Pomegranates and Olive
The Summer We Fell
About the Author
Author’s Note
This book contains explicit sexual content, drug and alcohol abuse,
suicide and topics that may be sensitive to some readers. This book
is for ages 18+.
Copyright © 2023 by Jane Gündoğan
All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or
mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without
written permission from the author, except for the use of brief quotations in a
book review.
Jane Gündoğan
authorjanegundogan@gmail.com
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Disclaimer
This book isn't your run-of-the-mill English affair. Nope, it's got a
dash of something different, a sprinkle of language that might not
be what you're used to. You see, I'm Australian, and us Aussies have
our own unique way of spelling words that can catch you off guard.
If you’re used to US English, then prepare yourself for a wild ride.
For instance, we say “colour” instead of “color” and “realise” instead
of “realize”. It’s all part of our quirky, Aussie charm.
If you’re unfamiliar with our lingo, I’d suggest you tune in to a
couple of episodes of Kath and Kim. But steer clear of that ghastly
remake and stick to the original with those hilarious sheilas, Jane
Turner and Gina Riley.
And as always, this book is dedicated to my little ripper of a
daughter, Alyssa.
Cheers, love!
Chapter One
Mmm-hmm. Everything’s Fine. It’s Okay. I’m Fine
BREAKING STORY:
Oh dear , it looks like trouble is brewing again for disgraced rockstar , K aan .
T he one - time bass player for S even of C rows has reportedly been arrested in
L ondon after allegedly getting into a drunken brawl that left two people
hospitalised . Y ikes !
A ccording to sources , K aan was throwing punches left and right , causing
quite the scene . T his isn ’ t the first time K aan has had a run - in with the law ,
as we all remember his infamous mugshot grin from his DUI arrest in M iami .
B ut this time , it seems the consequences might be more serious .
I can ’ t help but wonder what the new label thinks about this latest
incident . A re they starting to regret signing him , or are they just crossing
The bar is packed with the usual mixed assortment of people for a
Friday night. I scan the room, searching for familiar faces. Spotting
my people, I take a deep breath, plaster a smile on my face and
sashay across the room like I don’t have a care in the world. Of
course, my sashay is an act, now that I have come to the realisation
of what I need to do. Facing the truth won’t be easy without some
emotional support and that support lies with the group smiling back
at me. I drop my bag onto an empty chair and clear my throat. It’s
time. It has been a struggle to get to this point; to realise that I
have a problem. I take a deep breath and blow out hard. I’m finally
ready to confront it head on. And let’s be honest, if I can’t tell the
people here now, who can I tell?
“Hi, my name is Margaret Martin, and I’m addicted to love.”
Their smiles change to bewilderment. No. Amusement, maybe?
“How does that song go again?”
“Stop it, Nate!”
“Are you talking about the song with the sexy girls all in black?”
“Come on, guys!”
“Something, something…” Nate hums the tune. “I don’t know the
words.”
The group bursts into the chorus. “Gonna have to face it, you’re
addicted to love!”
“I’m in pain, and you guys are treating my pain like it’s one big
joke.” I stomp my red patent leather, five-inch heel in frustration.
“Why won’t anyone take me seriously?”
But I know why. Multiple award-winning actress, Daisy Reyes, of
course.
Personally, I don’t see it but everyone else, from my hairdresser
to a lesser-known web-swinger, has pointed out to me at one time or
another that I bear more than a little resemblance to Ms. Reyes.
Flattering? Of course. Awkward? Not usually, although when I
worked at an after-party for a fashion label last month, a certain
actor (whose name I legally can’t mention) came up and kissed me
on the lips and grabbed my ass (hence the awkwardness) before he
realised I wasn’t his past amore. The actor in question was awfully
embarrassed. He apologised, even so, they whisked me out of the
room and asked me to sign a non-disclosure agreement about the
incident before they would let me leave.
Few people know Daisy Reyes is actually a natural blonde and
dyes her hair the same deep auburn as mine. When people started
pointing out the resemblance I rebelled and started dying my hair…
just to give myself some separation from my famous twinsie. Since
then, I’ve been all the colours of the rainbow, but I settled back to
my natural deep auburn, and I love it. Sure, I know she may be
better known for her locks that were once compared to the deep red
of an autumn sunset, but I’ve finally embraced the look that God has
given me. Coupled with my wide-set eyes (albeit mine are hazel
rather than Ms. Reyes’s blue), and extremely perky baps, Daisy and I
also rock a similar style proving that size really doesn’t matter. We
may both be short, but we pack a lot of pep and sass into our 5’2
frame. Like Daisy, I also worship at the altar of fashion, although the
only designer shoes I own are knock-offs, and my clothes are more
op-shop than the real deal. Either way, we both look amazing with
smoky eyeshadow, winged eyeliner and, for now, some banging red
lipstick.
But being Ms. Reyes’s doppelgänger can be detrimental,
particularly when I’m trying to have a moment—like I am right now!
“The first step is admitting you have a problem, Meggsy.”
That smart-ass comment is classic Nate Reuben. Nate thinks he’s
funny, but I think it’s more sarcasm than humour. He’s been down in
the dumps since The Doc broke his heart. The Doc, aka Dr. Nina
Montgomery, unexpectedly broke it off with him last month. She’s
currently somewhere in Jordan working with Amnesty International.
None of us are really sure what happened between them, and Nate
definitely won’t talk about it, so right now we let him have his
sarcasm to help him get over his heartache.
Nate and I have known each other for a few years. I’ve never
slept with him or anything, but we have spent a few drunken nights
feeling each other up. As cute as he is (and he is very, very cute in
that hipster, urban cool, kind of way), we’re just not meant to be.
Still, everyone knows that misery loves company, so I drop into the
empty seat beside him and make a decidedly mopey face.
He slides a glass of amber liquid in my direction. “You look like
you could use a drink.”
I take a sip and make a face. Scotch. It’s my second most hated
drink, behind absinthe (I’m pretty sure I was chased by a particularly
nasty green fairy after drinking that concoction once). “I’ve had a
bloody awful night, so you all must be very nice to me.”
“It’s going to be hard to make that promise, especially when you
come waltzing in here looking like one hot piece of crumpet and
announce to us that you’re some kind of love junkie.”
I look pretty good for a Friday night. Getting dressed for a date is
hard enough, but when you factor in the rain and wind that hasn’t
let up since January, finding the right outfit can be seriously tough.
So, I did what any sensible millennial girl does; I went on social
media for some Insta-inspiration. And it didn’t take me too long to
find it. After spotting a particular fetching creation being worn by
one of my favourite New York bloggers, I pulled out the fabulous
black keyhole romper that I found in a tiny shop off Portobello last
month. It might be the world’s shortest romper, but I don’t care
because it’s got a really great vibe going with it. I matched it with
my black rain jacket, an original patent leather red Kelly bag I got
for a steal at a boot sale, and also my red patent leather heels. My
hair is pulled into a high ponytail, and I kept my makeup 50s chic
with lots of eyeliner and, of course, oodles of red lipstick. I’m totally
rocking #fridaynight #datenight. I’m cute and contemporary but
with a very 1950s feel. I took a selfie and uploaded it to my IG,
“megmartinissingle.” With the caption, ‘Here’s hoping things heat up
in ol’ London town. Let’s see if tonight’s date is ‘all he’s cracked up to
be’ – we’ll be using the hashtag #hotornot.”
I got 100% hot. Instant gratification.
“And forcing us to croon Robert Palmer!”
Along with Nate, who could be considered one of the girls, I have
two best girlfriends, which makes me, by far, the luckiest girl in the
world. Courtney Ryan is one of them. She is also Nate’s ex-girlfriend.
Oh, and she’s gay (which was the reason she and Nate actually
broke up, because other than that he has a penis, they are a perfect
match).
Courtney grimaces before continuing. “You know how much I
hate Robert Palmer.”
“We all know your aversion to debonair English men.” That’s Nate
again. Sometimes I wonder whether he still holds a little resentment
to Courtney outing herself.
“Guilty.” Courtney put her hands up in surrender. “Okay, so what’s
happening? Bad date? Did he stand you up? Or did he refuse to
reciprocate after you sucked his dick?”
If I could sum up Courtney with one word it would be “sassy,”
although I’ve heard people also call her, “a foul-mouthed slag.” Let’s
just say, you either love her or you hate her. She gets her olive
complexion, jet-black hair and ballsy attitude from her Spanish
father, but she has her mother’s Gaelic eyes, so blue they are nearly
violet. And despite her “take no prisoners” attitude, Courtney has a
soft and gooey centre, like a Jam Roly-Poly. She is also blessed by
the god’s with, as Ginger would say, “a totally rocking body.” I adore
Courtney.
Ginger Knox is my other best friend. She’s a fair dinkum Sheila
from Down Under (translation: Australian girl). We met two years
ago when she was working in London, and we immediately clicked.
Her visa expired last March, so she packed up her life and
abandoned us to move to Turkey to live with her fiancé, Aydin.
Downside? I miss her every day. Upside? I took over the lease on
her disgusting, depressing bedsit in Pimlico and, after practically
blackmailing the pervo landlord, I got myself a massive cut on the
rent and cart blanche to renovate. With a little TLC I turned her
once-tatty apartment into my deceptively spacious (Ginny is still in
shock over the amount of storage I now have) home, thanks to my
love of wall units that reach the ceiling, thick rugs, mirrors, and soft
colours. Despite talking practically every day, I still miss her terribly…
plus if she were here, I am certain that she would give me the exact
amount of sympathy that I covet right now.
“His name was Charles Rupert Stanton.” I take another sip of the
scotch, realise I’ve taken another sip of scotch, and make a
strangled sound. “Bleugh! He actually introduced himself like that, in
a very plummy accent I might add, but then he gave me a ten-
minute breakdown of his lineage before announcing I should call him
Stanton.”
Brynn Hayes bends forward and theatrically air-kisses either side
of my face, while waving her fist in the air menacingly. “Who calls
themselves by their surname, for fuck’s sake?”
Brynn joined our circle when I went to work at Brazen, one of
the biggest PR firms in London. Brynn is 40, looks 30 and has the up
and at ‘em attitude of a 20-year-old on coke (the drug, not the cola).
Slightly famous (or maybe that should more accurately be said as
slightly infamous), Brynn is a total powerhouse in the world of PR.
Everyone knows her, and everyone wants to work with her. She’s
been married more times than even she can remember and has
apparently slept with at least one member of Oasis.
Brynn’s also ultra-kooky but in a sophisticated way. She can turn
a boring black dress into a masterpiece with a tweak here and a snip
there. She is a sequin zealot, a slave to ruffles (yes, I know) and a
lover of tattoos. It might sound like a fashion fiasco but on her it’s a
work of art. Her smooth, dark skin, short, tight curls, wide, generous
mouth and cheekbones that can cut glass just totally makes it all
work.
I fluked my way into my dream job with her, thanks to
@megmartinissingle and its two million followers (well, that, and our
mutual love of vodka).
You’re curious about @megmartinissingle, aren’t you?
It all started with a rubbish date and a selfie that quickly became
an Insta-blog about just how god-awful the single scene in London
is. It’s all about what I wear, where we meet, what I drink, and
finally, whether or not he gets the thumbs up; all documented
originally to amuse my friends, but after a monumentally bad date
with a Russian musician went viral, thanks to his desperate need to
play with his balalaika in the taxi (and, no, I don’t mean the musical
instrument), my following exploded. Restaurants and bars wanted to
collaborate with me, shops wanted me to wear their clothes (I even
got free Johnny’s from a condom company once) and suddenly I’m
an actual “social influencer.” Anyway, Brynn came across my
Instagram feed late one night, laughed her ass off and begged me
to take a meeting with her. The meeting wasn’t even needed
because she offered me a job on the spot. She said she just couldn’t
wait to meet me. And now, I’m working with massive names in the
music industry as their social media strategist working exclusively in
cancel culture management. I help turn a negative into a positive
before any fallout destroys their reputation. This is the job that I was
born to do.
“He then spent the next hour boasting about his business, his
travels, and his apartment before he mansplained to me that I didn’t
have an actual job.”
Brynn puts her arm around me and pulls me in tight, her steel
eyes burning at his insult. “I’ll kill him!”
Nate slams his glass down on the table. “Suffering from total
fuckwittery, I’d say.”
“And then to top it all off, he said that I was not attractive
enough to take it any further!”
“What a wanker!”
“Oh, and as he was leaving, he tells me I was the one with the
problem because I wouldn’t shag him.”
“You should have called me, Meggsy, I would have given him a
proper beating.”
I moan and slump back into my chair. “I’m thinking that I’ve
struck out with pretty much every guy on the whole internet.”
“It certainly seems like you have dated every loser in London.”
“You just haven’t met the right one.”
I glare across the table at Courtney. She means well but she
somehow always gets me riled up. “You’re some kind of genius,
aren’t you?”
“I hear your sarcasm, thank you very much.”
“I’d hope so.”
“He’s not wrong though—”
Oh no!
“—not about you not being attractive enough, more about you
being the problem.”
God help me!
“I’m the problem? How am I the problem? I’m an eight. Or even
a nine. Yes! I’m a sodding nine out of ten. I’m Daisy Reyes, for fuck’s
sake! I’m funny. And I’m charming as hell. What’s not to love about
me?”
“I think you’re smoking hot.” A woman at the table beside us
leans over. “Has anyone ever told you, you look like that actress…
what’s her name?”
“See? Even complete strangers think—” I turn to the gorgeous
black woman and give her an awkward smile. “—I’m sorry, I’m not
usually such an appalling bitch, I’m just having a terrible night. Hi,
I’m Meg.”
“Camilla.”
We all grin at her very royal-wannabe name.
“It’s great to meet you Camilla and—,” I turn back to Courtney,
“—see? Camilla thinks I’m smoking hot, and I look like Daisy Reyes,
thankyouverymuch!”
Camilla taps her finger to her nose. “Right. The sexy red head in
that movie with that guy that’d I’d go back to dick for.”
We all reply at once. “Rowan Grantley!”
“That’s the one!”
“Fine, Meg. I was wrong. You’re not the problem. You are, in
fact, ridiculously hot and I am totally attracted to you. Are you happy
now?”
“Not really.”
“Why ever not?” asks Camilla curiously.
“Mostly because I’m not a lesbian.”
We all crack up at Camilla as she moans loudly. “You’d be
surprised how often this happens to me.”
“I’m really sorry.” And I am. Camilla is gorgeous. “I hope you
meet your someone.”
“C’est la vie.” She shrugs and turns back to her friends who have
been watching our exchange with interest.
“Seriously though, how am I the problem?”
“Where do I even start?” She barely holds back a snort as she
proceeds to analyse me. “You struggle to realize your worth. You
spend half your life wondering whether people are lying to you when
they tell you you’re beautiful and the other half of your life
wondering what others see in you. There’s always—"
“I don’t do any of those things!”
“Let me finish.” She nods knowingly. “There’s always a ‘but’ with
you.”
“A butt?”
“A big, fat ‘but’… one ‘t’.” Courtney sighs. “You avoid attachment
because you assume everyone is going to end up leaving you so you
search for something wrong with the guy so you can find that
‘but’—”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“For example, Philippe was really great, but—”
“Philippe? He whistled when we had sex.” I scowl around the
table. “It was weird.”
“My turn, my turn!” Nate laughs loudly. “Cameron was really
great—”
Courtney and Brynn add, “Buuutttt?”
“Cameron Bright? I have no proof, but I think he may have been
a vampire.” Now my friends are just taking pot-shots at me. “He
never went outside in the sun!”
Courtney high-fives Nate. “Vampire… a new low, even for you.”
“So, I have some baggage.”
“Everyone has baggage, Meg. Look at me, for example. I was a
mess, bouncing from guy to guy, none of them able to satisfy me.”
“Hold on a minute!”
“Shut up, Nate.” Courtney wiggles her pinkie at Nate who
mumbles under his breath. “Listen, the fact is I had to take a very
hard look at myself to understand who I am and what I wanted out
of life. I did that and all that emotional heteronormative bullshit that
was wearing me down just didn’t matter to me anymore. I learned
what, or more correctly who, I wanted to be with. Look at me now,
I’m single and always ready to mingle. And I’ve never been happier.”
“You can’t compare the two of us.”
“I’m not. I’m saying that you struggle to see what we see… a
beautiful, talented, strong-willed woman with everything going for
you. It’s all about self-love, babe!” Already reading Nate’s mind,
Courtney waves her hand menacingly at him. “Don’t go there, Nate!
I’m talking about self-love. Learn to love the woman you are
because she’s pretty great. And once you realise that everything else
will just fall into place.”
“I just said I was a sodding nine out of ten!”
“That’s all talk, Meggsy. It’s difficult, but I promise you that once
you’ve worked on the tossing out that cargo ship worth of self-
loathing baggage that is lumbered around your neck, all those past
dickheads you thought meant everything will be a hazy memory.
When you’re truly happy, you will find love.”
“That’s very… profound, Courtney.”
“I know I talk a lot of rubbish but I’m actually pretty
enlightened.”
“I’m going to weigh in on this as well.” Brynn, the voice of
occasional reason smiles at me. “You are all emotion, Meg—which
we adore about you—but emotions and the brain aren’t great friends
at the best of times. You meet a guy, and your heart wants to love
that person, but your brain is fighting back, looking for flaws that
aren’t always there. Then your emotions bubble over and you’re a
red-hot mess which scares the guy witless, and he runs screaming
into the night… even the vampires.”
“Now you’re calling me an emotional mess?”
“Never! I’m merely saying that you need to find a healthy
process for your emotions and your love life to co-exist.”
“All solid advice.” Although Nate is still scowling at Courtney’s
pinkie joke, he nods in agreement. “But can I just add that my penis
is not the size of a pinkie, and I’m prepared to whip it out right now
if you want proof!”
“We all believe you, Nate.”
“Seriously, though, this makes sense, even to me, but if that
doesn’t work then I’m sure I could scrounge up a pretty decent chap
for you.” He tips an imaginary hat at me. “I’ve been rather successful
at that in the past.”
It was Nate that introduced Ginny to her fiancé, Aydin. He had
bet her a bottle of scotch and a naked swim in the Thames that he
would find her the perfect man and he did. They are so much in love
it’s borderline comical. She happily purchased a bottle of 25-year-old
Glenfarclas for losing the bet (Aydin vetoed the naked swim part of
the wager though).
“Although this is probably not the best place for me to work my
magic.”
Nate’s right. We’re at She Soho, a lesbian bar off Charing Cross
Road and it’s a bit of a man-drought in here tonight. Courtney chose
the venue, but she did it for the karaoke (her guilty pleasure) rather
than the patrons, although she seems to be making eyes at Camilla
now.
“Give it a rest, Nate.” Courtney sneers across the table. “So,
we’re all in agreement that Meg’s a bloody nine of out ten.”
“Thank you.”
“Smoking hot—” She lifts her martini glass to Camilla at the next
table, who flutters her eyelashes back at her, “—and all that.”
“I believe you.”
“What I’m trying to say is that once you learn to forgive yourself,
respect yourself and love yourself, then you won’t find yourself
attracted to the wrong type of man. Jeffrey is the perfect example.
Total knob head, that one.”
Jeffrey was my most recent paramour (before the high-brow
Charles Rupert Stanton and practically every other loser in London,
of course). We had met at Blanch Wigdor Lanier, one of London’s
most prominent personal injury law firms. I was working as a PA and
Jeffrey had just joined the firm as an associate. Despite a very rocky
start, we ended up dating for a few months until I found out he was
actually engaged to another lawyer in the office. But that isn’t the
end of the story. The only reason I found out about the engagement
was the photos of him and Emma Grieste sipping on champagne,
smiling at the camera, surrounded by their family and friends on his
social media. The whole fecking office was invited to the
engagement party… well, everyone but me that is!
Emotional baggage.
I glance around the table at my slightly inebriated and overly
opinionated, friends. If what they say is true, then it is time that I
start to take a long, hard look at myself. Learn to love me and
decide what I want in my life.
Is a happily ever after with marriage with kids and a dog really
what I’ve been craving all these years? Is this my dream or my
mother’s? And how do I learn to love myself when I’m being
drowned by all this self-loathing, emotional baggage that’s pulling
me under?
The truth is, I don’t have the answers.
Chapter Two
Bad Memories, Good Stories
LATEST STORY:
In the ever - dramatic world of rock and roll , there are stories of meteoric rises and
tragic falls . A nd then there ’ s K aan , the once - beloved bass player of S even of C rows ,
whose descent from grace can only be described as a spectacular train wreck .
As revealed by an anonymous source within K aan ’ s circle , his behaviour has become
a constant thorn in the label ’ s side . R ecording sessions and meetings are mere
doesn ’ t hold back , describing K aan as a walking liability . W ith such antics , it ’ s no
wonder the label wants to distance itself from his unpredictable behaviour .
As if K aan ’ s behaviour wasn ’ t enough , his debut solo album has become the stuff
of legends — and not in a good way . T he release date has been a revolving door of
disappointment for both fans and the label alike . T he delays have fuelled speculation ,
with whispers of creative blockages , perfectionist tendences , and even diva tendencies .
might be necessary to save K aan ’ s career . B ut with his track record , I think an
BREAKING NEWS:
W hat happens in the club stays in the club … until someone leaks it exclusively to me ,
that is !
A ccording to a source at the exclusive T ape L ondon club , the new face of T aranto
L ingerie , B lair R oberts , and former S even of C rows bass player - turned - loser rockstar ,
K aan , were caught in a steamy embrace on F riday night . A nd when I say steamy , I mean
W itnesses reported that the unlikely duo couldn ’ t keep their hands off each
other , engaging in some seriously over - the - top PDA. F rom making out at the bar to
sneaking off to the bathroom , they were like a couple of lovesick teenagers !
As you might expect , I have some serious reservations about this pairing . I mean ,
M iz R oberts might be a successful model but she also has an excessive party lifestyle ,
while K aan is little more than a has - been with a history of bad behaviour . It’s like
D oes anyone else hate the idea of these two together as much as I do ?
II
It was an hilarious Elmer Gantry who took the 10:21 train to
Monarch, a city of perhaps three hundred thousand. He sat in the
day-coach planning his Easter discourse. Jiminy! His first sermon in
a real city! Might lead to anything. Better give ’em something red-hot
and startling. Let’s see: He’d get away from this Christ is Risen stuff
—mention it of course, just bring it in, but have some other theme.
Let’s see: Faith. Hope. Repentance—no, better go slow on that
repentance idea; this Deacon Eversley, the lawyer, might be pretty
well-to-do and get sore if you suggested he had anything to repent
of. Let’s see: Courage. Chastity. Love—that was it—love!
And he was making notes rapidly, right out of his own head, on
the back of an envelope:
Love:
a rainbow
AM & PM star
from cradle to tomb
inspires art etc. music voice of love
slam atheists etc. who not appreciate love
“Guess you must be a newspaperman, Brother,” a voice assailed
him.
Elmer looked at his seatmate, a little man with a whisky nose and
asterisks of laughter-wrinkles round his eyes, a rather sportingly
dressed little man with the red tie which in 1906 was still thought
rather the thing for socialists and drinkers.
He could have a good time with such a little man, Elmer
considered. A drummer. Would it be more fun to be natural with him,
or to ask him if he was saved, and watch him squirm? Hell, he’d
have enough holy business in Monarch. So he turned on his best
good-fellow smile, and answered:
“Well, not exactly. Pretty warm for so early, eh?”
“Yuh, it certainly is. Been in Babylon long?”
“No, not very long.”
“Fine town. Lots of business.”
“You betcha. And some nice little dames there, too.”
The little man snickered. “There are, eh? Well, say, you better
give me some addresses. I make that town once a month and, by
golly, I ain’t picked me out a skirt yet. But it’s a good town. Lot’s of
money there.”
“Yes-sir, that’s a fact. Good hustling town. Quick turnover there,
all right. Lots of money in Babylon.”
“Though they do tell me,” said the little man, “there’s one of these
preacher-factories there.”
“Is that a fact!”
“Yump. Say, Brother, this’ll make you laugh. Juh know what I
thought when I seen you first—wearing that black suit and writing
things down? I thought maybe you was a preacher yourself!”
“Well—”
God, he couldn’t stand it! Having to be so righteous every
Sunday at Schoenheim—Deacon Bains everlastingly asking these
fool questions about predestination or some doggone thing. Cer’nly
had a vacation coming! And a sport like this fellow, he’d look down
on you if you said you were a preacher.
The train was noisy. If any neighboring cock crowed three times,
Elmer did not hear it as he rumbled:
“Well, for the love of Mike! Though—” In his most austere
manner: “This black suit happens to be mourning for one very dear
to me.”
“Oh, say, Brother, now you gotta excuse me! I’m always shooting
my mouth off!”
“Oh, that’s all right.”
“Well, let’s shake, and I’ll know you don’t hold it against me.”
“You bet.”
From the little man came an odor of whisky which stirred Elmer
powerfully. So long since he’d had a drink! Nothing for two months
except a few nips of hard cider which Lulu had dutifully stolen for him
from her father’s cask.
“Well, what is your line, Brother?” said the little man.
“I’m in the shoe game.”
“Well, that’s a fine game. Yes-sir, people do have to have shoes,
no matter if they’re hard up or not. My name’s Ad Locust—Jesus,
think of it, the folks named me Adney—can you beat that—ain’t that
one hell of a name for a fellow that likes to get out with the boys and
have a good time! But you can just call me Ad. I’m traveling for the
Pequot Farm Implement Company. Great organization! Great bunch!
Yes-sir, they’re great folks to work for, and hit it up, say! the sales-
manager can drink more good liquor than any fellow that’s working
for him, and, believe me, there’s some of us that ain’t so slow
ourselves! Yes-sir, this fool idea that a lot of these fly-by-night firms
are hollering about now, that in the long run you don’t get no more by
drinking with the dealers—All damn’ foolishness. They say this fellow
Ford that makes these automobiles talks that way. Well, you mark
my words: By 1910 he’ll be out of business, that’s what’ll happen to
him; you mark my words! Yes-sir, they’re a great concern, the Pequot
bunch. Matter of fact, we’re holding a sales-conference in Monarch
next week.”
“Is that a fact!”
“Yes-sir, by golly, that’s what we’re doing. You know—read
papers about how to get money out of a machinery dealer when he
ain’t got any money. Heh! Hell of a lot of attention most of us boys’ll
pay to that junk! We’re going to have a good time and get in a little
good earnest drinking, and you bet the sales-manager will be right
there with us! Say, Brother—I didn’t quite catch the name—”
“Elmer Gantry is my name. Mighty glad to meet you.”
“Mighty glad to know you, Elmer. Say, Elmer, I’ve got some of the
best Bourbon you or anybody else ever laid your face to right here in
my hip pocket. I suppose you being in a highbrow business like the
shoe business, you’d just about faint if I was to offer you a little
something to cure that cough!”
“I guess I would, all right; yes-sir, I’d just about faint.”
“Well, you’re a pretty big fellow, and you ought to try to control
yourself.”
“I’ll do my best, Ad, if you’ll hold my hand.”
“You betcha I will.” Ad brought out from his permanently sagging
pocket a pint of Green River, and they drank together, reverently.
“Say, jever hear the toast about the sailor?” inquired Elmer. He
felt very happy, at home with the loved ones after long and desolate
wanderings.
“Dunno’s I ever did. Shoot!”
“Here’s to the lass in every port,
And here’s to the port-wine in every lass,
But those tall thoughts don’t matter, sport,
For God’s sake, waiter, fill my glass!”
The little man wriggled. “Well, sir, I never did hear that one! Say,
that’s a knock-out! By golly, that certainly is a knock-out! Say, Elm,
whacha doing in Monarch? Wancha meet some of the boys. The
Pequot conference don’t really start till Monday, but some of us boys
thought we’d kind of get together today and hold a little service of
prayer and fasting before the rest of the galoots assemble. Like you
to meet ’em. Best bunch of sports you ever saw, lemme tell you that!
I’d like for you to meet ’em. And I’d like ’em to hear that toast. ‘Here’s
to the port-wine in every lass.’ That’s pretty cute, all right! Whacha
doing in Monarch? Can’t you come around to the Ishawonga Hotel
and meet some of the boys when we get in?”
Mr. Ad Locust was not drunk; not exactly drunk; but he had
earnestly applied himself to the Bourbon and he was in a state of
superb philanthropy. Elmer had taken enough to feel reasonable. He
was hungry, too, not only for alcohol but for unsanctimonious
companionship.
“I’ll tell you, Ad,” he said. “Nothing I’d like better, but I’ve got to
meet a guy—important dealer—this afternoon, and he’s dead
against all drinking. Fact—I certainly do appreciate your booze, but
don’t know’s I ought to have taken a single drop.”
“Oh, hell, Elm, I’ve got some throat pastilles that are absolutely
guaranteed to knock out the smell—absolutely. One lil drink wouldn’t
do us any harm. Certainly would like to have the boys hear that toast
of yours!”
“Well, I’ll sneak in for a second, and maybe I can foregather with
you for a while late Sunday evening or Monday morning, but—”
“Aw, you ain’t going to let me down, Elm?”
“Well, I’ll telephone this guy, and fix it so’s I don’t have to see him
till long ’bout three o’clock.”
“That’s great!”
III
From the Ishawonga Hotel, at noon, Elmer telephoned to the
office of Mr. Eversley, the brightest light of the Flowerdale Baptist
Church. There was no answer.
“Everybody in his office out to dinner. Well, I’ve done all I can till
this afternoon,” Elmer reflected virtuously, and joined the Pequot
crusaders in the Ishawonga bar. . . . Eleven men in a booth for eight.
Every one talking at once. Every one shouting, “Say, waiter, you ask
that damn’ bartender if he’s making the booze!”
Within seventeen minutes Elmer was calling all of the eleven by
their first names—frequently by the wrong first names—and he
contributed to their literary lore by thrice reciting his toast and by
telling the best stories he knew. They liked him. In his joy of release
from piety and the threat of life with Lulu, he flowered into vigor. Six
several times the Pequot salesmen said one to another, “Now there’s
a fellow we ought to have with us in the firm,” and the others nodded.
He was inspired to give a burlesque sermon.
“I’ve got a great joke on Ad!” he thundered. “Know what he
thought I was first? A preacher!”
“Say, that’s a good one!” they cackled.
“Well, at that, he ain’t so far off. When I was a kid, I did think
some about being a preacher. Well, say now, listen, and see if I
wouldn’t’ve made a swell preacher!”
While they gaped and giggled and admired, he rose solemnly,
looked at them solemnly, and boomed:
“Brethren and Sistern, in the hustle and bustle of daily life you
guys certainly do forget the higher and finer things. In what, in all the
higher and finer things, in what and by what are we ruled excepting
by Love? What is Love?”
“You stick around tonight and I’ll show you!” shrieked Ad Locust.
“Shut up now, Ad! Honest—listen. See if I couldn’t’ve been a
preacher—a knock-out—bet I could handle a big crowd well’s any of
’em. Listen. . . . What is Love? What is the divine Love? It is the
rainbow, repainting with its spangled colors those dreary wastes
where of late the terrible tempest has wreaked its utmost fury—the
rainbow with its tender promise of surcease from the toils and
travails and terrors of the awful storm! What is Love—the divine
Love, I mean, not the carnal but the divine Love, as exemplified in
the church? What is—”
“Say!” protested the most profane of the eleven, “I don’t think you
ought to make fun of the church. I never go to church myself, but
maybe I’d be a better fella if I did, and I certainly do respect folks that
go to church, and I send my kids to Sunday School. You God damn
betcha!”
“Hell, I ain’t making fun of the church!” protested Elmer.
“Hell, he ain’t making fun of the church. Just kidding the
preachers,” asserted Ad Locust. “Preachers are just ordinary guys
like the rest of us.”
“Sure; preachers can cuss and make love just like anybody else.
I know! What they get away with, pretending to be different,” said
Elmer lugubriously, “would make you gentlemen tired if you knew.”
“Well, I don’t think you had ought to make fun of the church.”
“Hell, he ain’t making fun of the church.”
“Sure, I ain’t making fun of the church. But lemme finish my
sermon.”
“Sure, let him finish his sermon.”
“Where was I? . . . What is Love? It is the evening and the
morning star—those vast luminaries that as they ride the purple
abysms of the vasty firmament vouchsafe in their golden splendor
the promise of higher and better things that—that—Well, say, you
wise guys, would I make a great preacher or wouldn’t I?”
The applause was such that the bartender came and looked at
them funereally; and Elmer had to drink with each of them. That is,
he drank with four of them.
But he was out of practise. And he had had no lunch.
He turned veal-white; sweat stood on his forehead and in a
double line of drops along his upper lip, while his eyes were
suddenly vacant.
Ad Locust squealed, “Say, look out! Elm’s passing out!”
They got him up to Ad’s room, one man supporting him on either
side and one pushing behind, just before he dropped insensible, and
all that afternoon, when he should have met the Flowerdale Baptist
committee, he snored on Ad’s bed, dressed save for his shoes and
coat. He came to at six, with Ad bending over him, solicitous.
“God, I feel awful!” Elmer groaned.
“Here. What you need’s a drink.”
“Oh, Lord, I mustn’t take any more,” said Elmer, taking it. His
hand trembled so that Ad had to hold the glass to his mouth. He was
conscious that he must call up Deacon Eversley at once. Two drinks
later he felt better, and his hand was steady. The Pequot bunch
began to come in, with a view to dinner. He postponed his telephone
call to Eversley till after dinner; he kept postponing it; and he found
himself, at ten on Easter morning, with a perfectly strange young
woman in a perfectly strange flat, and heard Ad Locust, in the next
room, singing “How Dry I Am.”
Elmer did a good deal of repenting and groaning before his first
drink of the morning, after which he comforted himself, “Golly, I never
will get to that church now. Well, I’ll tell the committee I was taken
sick. Hey, Ad! How’d we ever get here? Can we get any breakfast in
this dump?”
He had two bottles of beer, spoke graciously to the young lady in
the kimono and red slippers, and felt himself altogether a fine fellow.
With Ad and such of the eleven as were still alive, and a scattering of
shrieking young ladies, he drove out to a dance-hall on the lake,
Easter Sunday afternoon, and they returned to Monarch for lobster
and jocundity.
“But this ends it. Tomorrow morning I’ll get busy and see Eversley
and fix things up,” Elmer vowed.
IV
In that era long-distance telephoning was an uncommon event,
but Eversley, deacon and lawyer, was a bustler. When the new
preacher had not appeared by six on Saturday afternoon, Eversley
telephoned to Babylon, waited while Dean Trosper was fetched to
the Babylon central, and spoke with considerable irritation about the
absence of the ecclesiastical hired hand.
“I’ll send you Brother Hudkins—a very fine preacher, living here
now, retired. He’ll take the midnight train,” said Dean Trosper.
To Mr. Hudkins the dean said, “And look around and see if you
can find anything of Brother Gantry. I’m worried about him. The poor
boy was simply in agony over a most unfortunate private matter . . .
apparently.”
Now Mr. Hudkins had for several years conducted a mission on
South Clark Street in Chicago, and he knew a good many unholy
things. He had seen Elmer Gantry in classes at Mizpah. When he
had finished Easter morning services in Monarch, he not only went
to the police and to the hospitals but began a round of the hotels,
restaurants, and bars. Thus it came to pass that while Elmer was
merrily washing lobster down with California claret, stopping now
and then to kiss the blonde beside him and (by request) to repeat his
toast, that evening, he was being observed from the café door by the
Reverend Mr. Hudkins in the enjoyable rôle of avenging angel.
V
When Elmer telephoned Eversley, Monday morning, to explain
his sickness, the deacon snapped, “All right. Got somebody else.”
“But, well, say, Dean Trosper thought you and the committee
might like to talk over a semi-permanent arrangement—”
“Nope, nope, nope.”
Returned to Babylon, Elmer went at once to the office of the
dean.
One look at his expression was enough.
The dean concluded two minutes of the most fluent description
with:
“—the faculty committee met this morning, and you are fired from
Mizpah. Of course you remain an ordained Baptist minister. I could
get your home association to cancel your credentials, but it would
grieve them to know what sort of a lying monster they sponsored.
Also, I don’t want Mizpah mixed up in such a scandal. But if I ever
hear of you in any Baptist pulpit, I’ll expose you. Now I don’t suppose
you’re bright enough to become a saloon-keeper, but you ought to
make a pretty good bartender. I’ll leave your punishment to your
midnight thoughts.”
Elmer whined, “You hadn’t ought—you ought not to talk to me like
that! Doesn’t it say in the Bible you ought to forgive seventy times
seven—”
“This is eighty times seven. Get out!”
So the Reverend Mr. Gantry surprisingly ceased to be, for
practical purposes, a Reverend at all.
He thought of fleeing to his mother, but he was ashamed; of
fleeing to Lulu, but he did not dare.
He heard that Eddie Fislinger had been yanked to Schoenheim to
marry Lulu and Floyd Naylor . . . a lonely grim affair by lamplight.
“They might have ast me, anyway,” grumbled Elmer, as he
packed.
He went back to Monarch and the friendliness of Ad Locust. He
confessed that he had been a minister, and was forgiven. By Friday
that week Elmer had become a traveling salesman for the Pequot
Farm Implement Company.
CHAPTER XI
I
elmer gantry was twenty-eight, and for two years he had been
a traveling salesman for the Pequot Company.
Harrows and rakes and corn-planters; red plows and gilt-striped
green wagons; catalogues and order-lists; offices glassed off from
dim warehouses; shirt-sleeved dealers on high stools at high desks;
the bar at the corner; stifling small hotels and lunch-rooms; waiting
for trains half the night in foul boxes of junction stations, where the
brown slatted benches were an agony to his back; trains, trains,
trains; trains and time-tables and joyous return to his headquarters in
Denver; a drunk, a theater, and service in a big church.
He wore a checked suit, a brown derby, striped socks, the huge
ring of gold serpents and an opal which he had bought long ago,
flower-decked ties, and what he called “fancy vests”—garments of
yellow with red spots, of green with white stripes, of silk or daring
chamois.
He had had a series of little loves, but none of them important
enough to continue.
He was not unsuccessful. He was a good talker, a magnificent
hand-shaker, his word could often be depended on, and he
remembered most of the price-lists and all of the new smutty stories.
In the office at Denver he was popular with “the boys.” He had one
infallible “stunt”—a burlesque sermon. It was known that he had
studied to be a preacher but had courageously decided that it was
no occupation for a “real two-fisted guy,” and that he had “told the
profs where they got off.” A promising and commendable fellow;
conceivably sales-manager some day.
Whatever his dissipations, Elmer continued enough exercise to
keep his belly down and his shoulders up. He had been shocked by
Deacon Bains’ taunt that he was growing soft, and every morning in
his hotel room he unhumorously did calisthenics for fifteen minutes;
evenings he bowled or boxed in Y. M. C. A. gymnasiums, or, in
towns large enough, solemnly swam up and down tanks like a white
porpoise. He felt lusty, and as strong as in Terwillinger days.
Yet Elmer was not altogether happy.
He appreciated being free of faculty rules, free of the guilt which
in seminary days had followed his sprees at Monarch, free of the
incomprehensible debates of Harry Zenz and Frank Shallard, yet he
missed leading the old hymns, and the sound of his own voice, the
sense of his own power, as he held an audience by his sermon.
Always on Sunday evenings (except when he had an engagement
with a waitress or a chambermaid) he went to the evangelical church
nearest his hotel. He enjoyed criticizing the sermon professionally.
“Golly, I could put it all over that poor boob! The straight gospel is
all right, but if he’d only stuck in a couple literary allusions, and
lambasted the saloon-keepers more, he’d’ve had ’em all het up.”
He sang so powerfully that despite a certain tobacco and whisky
odor the parsons always shook hands with extra warmth, and said
they were glad to see you with us this evening, Brother.
When he encountered really successful churches, his devotion to
the business became a definite longing to return to preaching; he
ached to step up, push the minister out of his pulpit, and take
charge, instead of sitting back there unnoticed and unadmired, as
though he were an ordinary layman.
“These chumps would be astonished if they knew what I am!” he
reflected.
After such an experience it was vexatious on Monday morning to
talk with a droning implement-dealer about discounts on manure-
spreaders; it was sickening to wait for train-time in a cuspidor-filled
hotel lobby when he might have been in a church office superior with
books, giving orders to pretty secretaries and being expansive and
helpful to consulting sinners. He was only partly solaced by being
able to walk openly into a saloon and shout, “Straight rye, Bill.”
On Sunday evening in a Western Kansas town he ambled to a
shabby little church and read on the placard outside: