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The Portable Star - Isaac Asimov
The Portable Star - Isaac Asimov
Now he was gone again, and Philip sat on the edge of the bed,
elbows on wide-spread knees, fingers intertwined loosely, his face
dazed and unhappy.
Celestine said, with abruptness, “Well, there’s no use brooding
about it. It couldn’t be helped. Do you want a sleeping pill?”
Philip looked up, and when he spoke it was not exactly
complimentary to her. He wasn’t even thinking about Celestine.
What he said was:
“A portable star.”
“What?” His wife stared at him.
“Something you said earlier,” he said. “A portable star. It might
work.” He stood up. His hands balled into fists and he moved about
restlessly. “We can’t just let things go on, can we?”
“What are you going to do?”
Philip didn’t answer. He just tore out of the cabin and on into the
engine room. With feverish, inspired haste, he dismantled the water
recirculator and removed the gas cylinders. Cautiously he twisted the
hoses together, clamped them into position with wire from the
electrical stock supply drawer and fitted an Elgin tube of transparent
quartz over the combined nozzles. Turning again to the water
recirculator he loosened the pencil-thin catalyst-chamber, squinted a
moment at the spongy platinum-black it contained, and slipped it in
his pocket.
He moved back into the common room and pulled his own space-
suit from its rack. The other three in the party were waiting for him—
Holden, with a hangdog look on his face, and his eyes sliding away
from direct contact; Grace, pale and scrubbed-looking, as though
fresh from a sponge bath; and Celestine, wearing new makeup,
though it showed traces of an unsteady hand in the application.
Celestine asked Philip, “Are you leaving the ship?”
“That’s right,” he told her grimly. “Help me with this, Holden.”
Holden lifted the cylinders onto the back of the suit, strapped
them in place just next to the oxygen cylinder that would supply
Philip’s respiratory needs. He passed the two hoses over Philip’s
head.
Philip shifted the catalyst-chamber from his trousers pocket to
the pocket in his space-suit. He dipped his finger into a glass of water
and ran it around the inner surface of the quartz jacket he had drawn
over the twinned hoses.
Celestine began, “What do we do for water if you—” and let her
question fade into silence.
“Take care of yourself, Philip,” Grace said uncertainly.
“Thanks,” he said tightly. He placed the helmet over his head.
Once outside the ship, Philip Van Horne felt cut off from all
things human. He had polarized all ports to full opacity before
leaving the ship, and now no spark of light invaded the solid
blackness all about.
Slowly he moved away from the ship, bucking the steady wind.
Hearing its whistle against his suit was the only sensation he could
recognize. Dimly he sensed the natives, curious, waiting for him.
He halted and cracked open the gauges to both cylinders. When
he felt the gentle push of gas within the quartz jacket he put his
gauntleted hand over it.
He lifted the nozzles. They could see him, he hoped, or could
sense him by whatever method it was they used. A sudden thought
chilled him. What if they lacked the sense of sight, or any sense
corresponding to it? Desperately he refused to think of such a thing.
They had to be sentient!
He raised the catalyst-chamber toward the open top of the quartz
jacket. For a single moment, he was furiously certain that this would
do the trick. But only for a moment. He paused, hands lifted halfway.
Could anything work so simply, after all? To try, to fail, to have to
return to the ship to report failure—
His hand moved, stopped again. Swift thoughts came.
The creatures—call them that—were emotion-controllers. Was
the doubt of his success his own? For a moment he had been certain,
and then—
Had the triumph he had felt spilled over too openly? Were they
now canceling it out in their own way?
Once more, half-heartedly, he made a tentative gesture of raising
the catalyst chamber, and instantly depression hit him, as dark as the
night that surrounded him. It would not work. How could it?
And that thought decided him. The depression had come too
quickly, too patly. It had not come from his own mind, but from
theirs. He could fight it now, and he did.
He fought the despair, fought his own apparent knowledge of
inevitable failure. Closing his mind to what was trying to seem to be
bitter certainty, he lunged at the quartz tube with its leaking gases
swirling upward.
He fought the fear that followed. But it grew until it became the
same fear that had kept him from taking the controls of the ship.
However, the ship’s controls were complicated. There were fifty
motions involved, each with its fresh surcharge of fright. And here it
was necessary only to touch one object to another.
In the dark, he could not tell by sight how close chamber was to
quartz except for the position of his arms. But he knew there must be
only inches left. He compressed those inches, and his forehead
slicked with perspiration.
He fought with what remained of his untouched mind, and
momentarily felt the dim contact of metal against quartz. Contact
broke off immediately in a perfect agony of despair, but that one
moment had sufficed. The moisture he had introduced within the
quartz was a second catalyst, and between the effect of powdered
platinum and water traces the hydrogen and oxygen combined in
chemical action and burst into flame.
Pale blue, dancing in the residuum of dusty air that blew into the
jacket from he the open end, it sparked in his hand like a star,
twinkling and shifting tirelessly.
And the aliens were gone!
Philip could now see that. Out here it has been as black as tar
before. It was as black as tar now, except for the dim blue star in his
hand. But there was a lightness in Philip Van Horne’s mind that was
clear enough in the information it gave him. The touch of the aliens
had been so constant a factor for over two full days that, with it
removed, it was as though a boulder had been heaved from his
crushed body, leaving him free to stand once more.
He called into his radio, “Holden! Holden! Get to those controls!”
Turning, he ran back to the ship as fast as he could pump his
encased legs… .
The two men were at the controls. The two women were asleep.
At last Philip had a chance to explain more in detail to Holden,
who still couldn’t seem to take it all in.
“It wasn’t just light,” Philip was saying. “They knew what light
was, from the steady gray illumination of their cloudy skies. The
illumination may have been whiter, but they recognized it for what it
was. To them, it was still just a piece of their sky that had come down
to the surface. Flame was something else again.
Holden shook his head, “I still don’t see why.”
“It was blue light that flickered and shifted, and could be carried
about. That was the main point. It was light that could be held in the
hand. It was a portable star, and not just featureless light in the sky
or from a ship. Remember flame can’t exist on this world of theirs
with its atmosphere of nitrogen, argon, and sand. In millions of years
nothing could possibly have burned on Sigmaringen IV until I got the
compressed hydrogen and oxygen from the water recirculator and let
them burn in one another. The aliens were faced with the unknown,
the incomprehensible. They were only children, after all, and they
ran.”
Around the space-ship now was the comforting blackness and
emptiness of space; the friendliness of the stars.
Holden sighed deeply. “Well, we’ll be Jumping soon, and then
we’ll just be a day or two outside Earth. We can report these energy
creatures, only … Phil?”
“Yes.”
“There’s no point in telling what happened to us.”
“No, I suppose not.”
“Let’s just forget it all. It was mental control. It’s better to forget.”
Philip said, “Much better.”
His words rang hollowly in his own ears. Mental control or not,
he would live with the memory of Celestine barring him from the
door while Holden pursued him with clutching fingers; the memory
of Celestine laughing wildly.
Forget?
In his mind, he could hear Celestine laughing and, quite
uselessly, he put his hands over his ears.
“What’s the matter?” said Holden.
“Nothing,” Philip said drearily.