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Contents
1. The Challenge
2. Anger Management
3. Reconciliation
4. His Choice
6. The Offer
7. Plans Change
9. Confidential
10. The Ex-Boyfriend
16. Vengeance
22. Hope
23. A Gift
24. Trepidation
31. Letting Go
32. Unwelcomed Sleep
41. Oops
42. Moonset
47. Betrayal…Maybe
48. Laid Bare
49. Hunger
50. Reunited
61. Roasting
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S now fell gently, blanketing the balcony on the tenth floor of the
mid-Manhattan high-rise, the late dusk sky obscured with
clouds, the magenta fading to deep grays. From the living room
couch, Cerissa Patel watched a blue jay land on the balcony rail and
steal the last peanut she’d left out for the birds.
Instead of staring at the skyline, she could be reading, watching
television, or doing just about anything other than obsessing over
what was happening twelve floors above her.
But her mind wouldn’t cooperate, so she sipped on her glass of
Cabernet and stared out the balcony’s floor-to-ceiling window,
focused on the hodgepodge view of skyscrapers pressed close
together—some shorter ones made of old tawny bricks, some taller
ones of glass and steel, with the Empire State Building and its art
deco style and iconic spire in the distance. All the buildings were lit
up against the night sky.
Despite the stately view, her mind immediately shot back to the
problem worrying her: Why hasn’t Henry returned?
For this trip, she and her fiancé shared the richly appointed one-
bedroom apartment. The elegant lodgings, part of the guest floor at
the New York Collective, were courtesy of Anne-Louise. Cerissa took
another sip of wine and tried to relax while she waited for Henry to
finish his visit with his maker.
So far, he’d been gone longer than he should have been.
Although Enrique Bautista Vasquez—Henry to his close friends—
was over two hundred years old, Anne-Louise refused to let the
blood bond between them die and insisted on biting him multiple
times a year to keep the maker-child connection alive.
To limit the interruptions her demands made on their life together,
Henry and Cerissa had cut a deal with her. In exchange for only
taking his blood twice annually, Henry would build a house on his
property in California, so when Anne-Louise visited Sierra Escondida,
she could lodge there.
Until construction on the new dwelling finished, Henry preferred to
travel to New York to see his maker. Cerissa had joined him for this
trip, having planned events for a fun two-week vacation. Now, she
waited for him to return from Anne-Louise’s second feeding of the
calendar year, so they could finally begin their exploration of the city
together.
Despite the relaxing evening view and the promise of a fun
vacation, irritation rode her. Obsessing over the situation wasn’t
helping. She did her best to accept the fact Anne-Louise wouldn’t let
go. But the longer she waited, the more her worry grew. Her
growling stomach, hungry for dinner, didn’t help either.
The front door flew open. “Esa puta! Ahora todo se va a la
mierda.”
Startled, Cerissa jumped to her feet and set the half-drunk
wineglass on the coffee table, almost toppling it. Henry calling his
maker a whore, and complaining that it was all going to shit,
whatever “it” was, couldn’t be good. “Quique—”
His already expanded pupils blew wider, turning his normally
bourbon-brown beauties almost solid black. “I will not spend a
minute longer in the Collective’s building. We are leaving. Pack.
Now.”
To say Henry and Anne-Louise didn’t always get along was an
understatement, but this was far more anger on his part than
Cerissa had seen before.
Her bestie, Karen, had warned her that joining Henry while he
visited his maker might be a bad idea. But she’d wanted to see New
York at Christmas. The city was so beautiful, so magical, so
exhilarating all lit up and decorated for the holiday. So, she’d
embarked on the cross-country trip with her eyes wide open.
That didn’t mean she’d tolerate being Henry’s whipping girl.
“Wait a minute. You don’t give orders, remember?” She eyed him
in his dark charcoal wool suit, the stark white dress shirt unbuttoned
at the top, his long ebony hair tied back—and fang marks absent
from his bare, sensual throat. “What happened?”
“Anne-Louise went too far this time. Please, pack.”
That answer wasn’t satisfactory at all. His vague reply failed to
explain the sudden change in plans. “Did you at least renew the
blood bond?”
He shook his head vigorously, and his ponytail whipped with the
motion. “No. It doesn’t matter. I refuse to spend one more night
here. Not as her guest.”
Damn. “If we leave now, when will you renew the bond? You were
supposed to get the bite done tonight, so we don’t have to see her
again until next year.”
“I will figure it out later.” He marched into the bedroom, tossed his
suitcase onto the bed, and started taking his clothes from the closet.
She shivered. The Alatus Lux crystal embedded in Henry’s wrist
connected their emotions as sensations, and his anger chilled her.
She followed and touched his arm to regain his attention, hoping
the contact would calm him without using her aura. “We can’t leave
—we need some place to stay for tonight. It’s four weeks before
Christmas. Everything’s booked. But if you can find us a hotel to
move to, I’ll pack and go with you. But until you have a solid plan,
I’m not packing.”
“We have no need of a hotel. Only a plane.”
“It’s too late in the evening for you to fly us to California and
arrive before dawn—”
“On the contrary. My plane is being made ready as we speak. If
we leave now for La Guardia airport, we will reach Sierra Escondida
before sunrise.”
She inhaled a breath. He’d dressed in the handsome suit so they
could go out together as soon as he returned. “But I haven’t had
dinner. I was waiting for you to return, for your company. And… I
wanted to see New York at Christmas—all the lights and ice skating.
We even took lessons so we could skate together.”
“We can skate another time.”
“Henry, I scheduled two weeks off work to be here with you.
Think about this. Talk to me. Besides, you can’t pilot the plane when
you’re this angry. It’s not safe.”
He growled angrily. Growled.
He’d never growled at her before. In her presence, maybe, but not
at her.
Accompanying the growl, he glowered, his expression turning
darker.
That was it. She refused to stay there one minute longer. After
grabbing her coat, purse, and the cute little mink-colored fake-fur
hat Karen had talked her into buying, she marched to the front door.
In a whoosh, Henry blocked her from reaching her objective. He
pointed at the bedroom door. “You aren’t leaving. Go pack.”
“No. You can come with me to Katie O’Leary’s restaurant, and we
can talk, or you can wait here while I go out for dinner. I’ll be back
in two hours.”
He growled again.
She felt like thumping his chest and saying, “Bad dog,” but didn’t.
Instead, she looked him in the eyes and said, “Stop that right now.”
In response, he leaned against the front door, arms crossed,
gripping his biceps and tapping one finger.
“Henry, you’re being childish.”
“I am not being childish. I’m your mate. You should honor my
wishes in this.”
“Clearly, Anne-Louise got under your skin and you’re reacting. I
won’t honor wishes you haven’t fully explained to me. Now come
with me, and we can discuss whatever is bothering you over dinner,
or wait here alone—but either way, quit blocking the door.”
He didn’t move.
She refused to stay and pander to his mood. Brushing her sleeve
back, she opened her watch crystal, tapped the face, and flashed to
the hallway outside the apartment. Using Lux technology was a
calculated risk, but the odds were small that anyone would notice
her sudden appearance in the hallway.
In a few steps, she arrived at the elevator and stabbed the call
button, punching the down arrow multiple times for good measure,
then ordered a taxi pickup on her phone. This close to Grand Central
Station, she wouldn’t wait long.
The rapid heartbeat, tight throat, and sweaty palms, which always
occurred when adrenaline flooded her system, finally slowed,
relaxed, and dried as she rode the elevator. Then it hit her: her Lux
supervisors would see the fight. The contact lenses she wore
recorded everything—except certain personal moments, such as
making love to Henry—but she could do nothing to stop the Lux
from viewing the domestic dispute, as much as she hated the
violation of her privacy.
By the time she reached the curb, the taxi waited for her, and she
slid into the back seat, again doubting the wisdom of joining Henry
on this trip. Perhaps Karen had been correct. But she would think
clearer after she ate.
The light snow would have made the street magical, with the
sparkling white lights in the parkway trees, except Henry had taken
a lovely night and turned it into a battlefield.
Why? Why wouldn’t he discuss what angered him?
Getting out of the cab in front of the famous Katie O’Leary’s
restaurant, she pushed those thoughts aside. She’d earlier reserved
a table for two, and the maître d’ agreed to seat her by the big
picture window that ran the width of the restaurant, even though
her companion was running “late.” It was a weeknight, and there
were plenty of open tables.
The waitress greeted her right away. “May I bring you anything
while you’re waiting?”
“If you don’t mind, I’d like to order. I don’t know when he’ll join
me.”
Or if he would at all.
The waitress angled her stylus, prepared to take down the details
on the electronic pad. For an appetizer, Cerissa ordered their best
scotch and a bowl of steamed clams, then for dinner, added a
swordfish steak pan-fried in lemon butter and capers, along with
rosemary potatoes, to be accompanied by a glass of the house
Sauvignon Blanc.
After the waitress left, Cerissa propped her phone against the
white ceramic caddy that held packets of sugar, opened the e-book
app, and read, not caring if anyone found her activity strange. She
would calm down, enjoy her meal, and be ready to talk with Henry
when she returned.
The scotch arrived, as did the clams and a freshly baked
sourdough loaf. She tore off a piece, dipped it into the clam broth,
and moaned when she bit through the hard crust soaked in broth.
She then used the little seafood fork to pry loose the clam meat and
enjoy the well-spiced shellfish.
Soon, the tension in her chest unwound, and she hadn’t even
sipped the scotch yet.
During her three months engaged to Henry, she’d learned not to
tie herself to his moods. She could choose to be happy even when
he was being his demanding, broody self.
Sometimes all it required was a little space and a good meal.
Except—she couldn’t shake the lingering worries as they hovered
in the back of her mind, distracting her from the smutty novel she
read.
He wouldn’t leave New York without her, would he?
No. Absolutely not. He loved her and would never, ever abandon
her.
More importantly, what had Anne-Louise done to upset Henry?
Cerissa took another bite, pondering the matter and nodding to
herself. She couldn’t imagine what new mischief his maker had
created to stir his anger so much. Yes, indeed, that was the better
question. What had Anne-Louise done?
And Cerissa wouldn’t hold back asking him when they reunited.
Chapter 2
Anger Management
Collective apartment #1010—Shortly after Cerissa’s
departure
H enry clenched his fists, then released them. The rage bubbling
through his chest meant following Cerissa risked disaster. For
the same reason, she was right. It was unwise to get behind the
controls of a plane in his current mood, as much as he hated
admitting the truth. And he refused to abandon Cerissa in New York
—he loved her too deeply to leave the city without her.
So they’d have to talk this through before he could convince her to
terminate their vacation, which meant joining her for dinner. But he
had to settle himself enough to speak civilly about Anne-Louise’s
latest unreasonable demand.
Resigned to staying one more night, he grabbed his coat and
cane, then dashed out the door and to the elevator. As part of his
two-week vacation, he’d planned on visiting Saint Patrick’s Cathedral.
He checked the church’s schedule on his phone, hoping luck was
with him.
It was. The church offered confession between three and nine
p.m., accommodating those who worked—or slept—during the day.
As he walked, he sent a message to the general aviation service
canceling the plane for tonight. Minutes later, he arrived at the
church. He stood outside, reflecting on the beautiful gothic-style
building, the spires like fairy lace covered in snowflakes, and peace
touched his soul, chasing away the rage from earlier.
He’d lived in New York when they began constructing the
cathedral, but work halted when the Civil War started, and he left
New York around the same time, so he wasn’t there to see the
structure finished in 1878.
Still, he enjoyed visiting the old building, one of the few existing
from the period when he’d called New York home. Back then, he’d
made his living as a restaurateur and chef. Enrique’s Restaurant,
which he’d christened after his given name, had specialized in
cuisine from his birthplace: Veracruz, Mexico.
Striding inside Saint Pat’s, Henry slid a generous donation into the
tithe box slot, then took a pew, knelt, and made his heart ready.
When he stood to enter the confessional line—which had grown
longer while he prayed—he tried to set aside his irritation over the
wait, and realized he had one more sin to confess. Tapping on his
phone’s notepad, he reluctantly added the sin of impatience to his
confession list.
He inhaled a deep breath and let the peace of the room fill him
again. Beautiful poinsettias bordered the steps on both sides of the
carpet leading to the altar, and hanging lights illuminated the
stained-glass windows.
The line moved forward again, and a carved wood door swung
out. His turn. He stepped into the open booth. According to the
name placard, Father Pearson would hear his confession. “Bless me,
father, for I have sinned. It has been seven days since my last
confession. These are my sins.” He glanced at the list on his phone.
“I allowed my righteous anger at someone else affect my
relationship with my fiancée.”
The priest chuckled. “Righteous?”
“My ma—er, I mean, my ex-wife made a demand that was
outrageous, impossible.”
“And your fiancée—how did you express your anger at her?”
“I yelled and demanded she immediately leave New York with
me.”
“You did not strike her?”
“No. Never.”
“And you did not call her names?”
“No—I wouldn’t. But I was quite demanding and persistent, and I
raised my voice at her.”
“I understand. Continue your confession, please.”
“Impatience at waiting in line.” Some of the sins unique to being a
vampire couldn’t be explicitly confessed to a mortal, although he’d
practiced other ways to frame them. “Thoughts of gluttony that I did
not act upon.”
He then named a few lesser sins.
The priest offered him suggestions for dealing with anger,
insightful ideas—reminding him of the advice he’d received from
Father Matt back home—and gave him a penance of five Hail Mary
prayers.
He made an act of contrition, thanked the father for his time, and
exited the booth. Performing penance immediately had been
ingrained in him, so he stopped in a pew to say the prayer
repetitions, then strode through the vestibule and out into the night.
Having made himself right with God and gained control of his rage
once again, he had more amends to make.
Chapter 3
Reconciliation
Katie O’Leary’s restaurant—Around the same time
“W ell?” Cerissa asked again, her head tilted to the side, her
radiant lips pursed.
Henry smiled slyly at her impatience.
Indeed, it is my turn. Decisions, decisions.
There were so many delicious things he enjoyed doing with her.
So many that sometimes he found it hard to choose.
Then he recalled the master bedroom’s en suite bathroom came
with a huge flat-bottomed bathtub that had whirlpool jets, a side-
centered faucet, hand sprayer, and two bath pillows, one at each
end. Large enough to hold two people comfortably, and the
Collective didn’t have the water-use restrictions currently applicable
to the Hill. He and Cerissa hadn’t been able to fill their big tub at
home and indulge in any fun there for months because of the
drought.
Guiding her into the bedroom, he asked, “What would you say to
playing in the bathtub?”
“Lovely. I’m chilled from being outside. A soak in hot water sounds
wonderful.”
He let her start the water and set the temperature. They couldn’t
rely on him—he’d set the gauge at scalding without realizing he’d
done so. Extremely hot water was one hedonistic pleasure he’d
reveled in since becoming a vampire.
Although she didn’t wait for him to undress her—another
hedonistic pleasure of his—he had the enjoyment of watching her
beauty unveiled as she stripped.
“Hey, don’t stand there staring,” she said, then gave him a quick
kiss before removing her contact lenses and braiding her hair. “You
need to get naked, too.”
“Of course, mi amor.” He flashed his fangs at her. “I was just
enjoying the show.”
“Oh. Oh!”
Yes, she’d almost forgotten, and he was glad he reminded her.
From among the toiletries scattered on the sink vanity, she picked up
the hypo and held the jet injector’s silver cylinder head against her
neck, delivering a stream of stabilizing hormone into her muscle to
keep her blood mortal when he bit. The morphing hormone in his
fang serum would change her back to her Lux form if she didn’t use
the medication.
After she pinned her braid in a circle atop her head, she slid into
the tub. The jets bubbled around her, and she relaxed back on the
waterproof cushion. “Aah, that feels so good.”
With the show over, Henry disrobed and put his ponytail into a
knot. Slipping into the opposite end of the oval tub, he stretched his
legs, crossing them over hers, and lay back. Whatever tension
remained from their tiff drained from him in the heat of the water.
When she reached for him, he met her in the middle of the tub,
wrapping his arm around her shoulders, supporting her as he
captured her lips with his. She parted on a moan, and he enjoyed
the gentle tangling of their tongues, the delicious taste of her
mouth, the intensity of their kiss increasing as their tongues glided
back and forth, faster and faster.
She broke away, panting, and he ran his thumb across her cheek,
trailing beads of water over her skin, before sweeping a stray strand
of hair from her face.
“Turn around,” he said.
Bending her knees closer to her body, she pivoted on her butt
cheeks.
He put a splash of jasmine body wash in his hands. The flower
was one of his favorite scents, and he’d been sure to pack the whole
product line for the trip. He rubbed the sensual emulsion over her
skin and massaged her back as he washed her.
“Oh, I like what your fingers do.”
“I want you nice and relaxed.”
“Why? What mischievous plan do you have for tonight?”
“Nothing too…extreme.”
She laughed. “You do like to tease.”
“Indeed.” He poured more body wash on his palm. “Lean back.”
He wrapped his arms around her as she rested her back on his
chest. Starting at her neck, he rubbed the bubbly liquid over her
throat, worked the slick scent over her breastbone until he reached
the mounds themselves, and palmed one in each hand, rubbing the
silky suds over her nipples, lightly squeezing her breasts.
“Oh, Henry,” she said, pressing against him more. His pene was
hard and pinned between her back and his abs. “I like this.”
He cupped water in his hands and rinsed away the soap, then
wrapped his arms around her and pulled her more firmly to him,
raising her out of the water, and gently pressed his lips against her
tender neck.
“Are you going to bite so soon?”
“No, not yet.” He continued nibbling without breaking her skin,
dragging his teeth lightly over her throat, and she moaned
delightfully. The blood below the surface teased him, but he forced
his fangs to remain retracted. “We will take our time. Now turn
around.”
She lay back, placing her head on the cushion, and he gently
spread her thighs apart, bending forward onto his knees to capture a
nipple with his lips, sucking and licking until she moaned again. The
soap was gone, but the lingering sweet jasmine scent intoxicated
him, making him want to rush to the main course, but he gave the
other breast equal attention.
Working down her chest, kneeling in the deep tub between her
legs, he dipped his head underwater, trailing kisses over her belly to
her mound. Parting the folds with his thumbs, he ran his tongue
over her clit, then sensually sucked.
He could stay underwater as long as he wanted, never feeling
starved for air. The disadvantage—he couldn’t easily hear her moans
with the sound of the jets bubbling in his ears. But the way her body
vibrated against his lips, her clit engorged, her labia slick with her
arousal, told him everything he needed to know.
After slipping one finger inside her, then the second one, he curled
them to rub against the sensitive inner wall. She bucked her hips,
riding his tongue, and he met her rhythm, licking faster and harder
until her hips froze, her clit pressed against his tongue, and her
entire body shuddered with her orgasm, as her inner muscles
clenched over and over around his fingers.
He let his lips linger, flicking his tongue to coax her orgasm to its
very limits, then emerged, running his hands over his long hair to
press the water away so he wouldn’t splash her.
With her head lying on the pillow, a look of rapture on her face, a
wave of pleasure crashed through him at the mere sight of her.
Mi ángel!
He crawled up her front and kissed her. “How was that?”
“Wonderful.” She sighed. “But I want more,” she said teasingly,
shooting him a coyly crooked grin.
His passion wound higher at her words. How could he not accept
a challenge like that? “Querida, there is definitely more on the
menu.”
He hooked his arms under hers and raised her to kneel, then
folded two washcloths and placed one under each knee to cushion
them from the hard acrylic surface. He stretched his legs between
hers and, gripping his pene at the base, guided the head inside her
as she braced her hands on his shoulders. Her warm, slick sheath
engulfed him, making him even harder. The flicker of her inner
muscles still slightly spasming like a tongue licking over him had his
pene flexing in response.
Once he was deep within her, he kissed her, then asked, “Better?”
“Much,” she said, her smile quirking, before he captured her lips,
thrusting his tongue between them, invading her mouth.
With his help, she rose and fell, spearing herself over and over
again on him as the bubbles from the jets spilled around them,
caressing his skin, framing her waist as she rose and fell. Then an
idea struck him, a way to enhance her pleasure. He lifted the spa’s
hand sprayer and aimed the spray between them, seeking her clit,
and her moan told him when he hit the right spot.
“Oh my goddess.”
“You like?”
“Yes, I like.”
He kept the pulsing spray aimed at her clit and, with the other
hand, teased her nipple, peaking the bud. As she rode him faster,
and his own hips rose to meet hers, the scent of blood thrumming
through her veins called to him. He reluctantly let go of her breast to
slide his hand around her waist to pull her closer as he arched
forward. Slowly, he sank his fangs into her neck.
The fang serum shot into her, and he sucked back his share as he
drank her blood. The sweet nectar was intoxicating. The
combination lit a fire in his groin as he pumped faster and faster into
her, keeping the sprayer aimed at her clit, feeling her tighten on him
as her orgasm started, and her inner walls rippled over him,
grabbing his pene to send exquisite shivers deep into him. His
cojones pulled tighter against his body, and then he followed her,
exploding inside her with a moan of his own. His pene flexed,
pulsing, as he held her hips tightly.
She collapsed on his chest. He shut off the hand sprayer, returning
the metal hose to its hook, and then stroked along her spine. No one
else made him this happy.
“I love you, querida.”
She kissed his shoulder tenderly. “I love you too, Quique.”
After holding each other for a few minutes, she rose and turned
off the jets. The water stilled around them.
“Are you ready to get out?” he asked.
She held up her fingertips for him to see and laughed. “I’m
pruning. So, yes.”
He helped her to stand, drained the tub, and toweled her off.
Something about serving her, about running the soft cotton towel
over her skin, made him feel manly. As her fiancé, it was his duty to
make her happy, a duty he roundly embraced, and making her
happy by giving her the best vacation possible was what he planned
to do for the rest of their stay in New York.
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fellow-sinner, and go fishing."
She saw the pair of them from her window, plunging into the jungle,
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The little chap was beginning to say whole sentences in English, though
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CHAPTER XIX
Kingfisher, who had fastened his canoe behind it, with forethought
concerning creeks which did his intelligence justice, found his companion,
even for a foreigner, exceedingly stupid over the fishing. Cyprian, on the
other hand, was regretting proper tackle, and finding Kingfisher's methods
irritatingly childish.
Everybody in the islands was childish. Jellybrand with his weak chin
and his goggles, and his ridiculous tuft of hair sticking out at the back, and
his lisping faith; the natives with their infantile intellects, not half a degree
removed from John's, and now Ferlie with her clouded illogical trust in the
differing satellites of a long-dead Teacher, who, to Cyprian's mind, had
shown less courage in deciding the doubtful question of the Life-to-Come
than had the Buddha. Cyprian recalled the words of one modern writer,
"Buddhism is the religion of men; not of children." Assuredly, had the
Christ only professed to preach the religion of children. Well, Ferlie was a
child. She would outgrow it, and he, in the light of his extra experience,
must be patient.
He now clutched Cyprian's arm, indicating that they must not land. The
latter was in no temper to be thwarted.
The man could not explain himself any more clearly than to insist that it
would be unsafe to land.
His fear was very genuine and when he had gauged Cyprian's obstinacy
he climbed resignedly into his canoe, from the motor-boat, and cut it adrift.
"All right!" Cyprian agreed cheerfully, "If you fish long enough you
may catch a whale. I am going to explore."
He beached the motor-boat, and the jungle swallowed him up.
Then Kingfisher did a very sensible thing: he seized his paddles and
made for home.
* * * * * *
Ferlie was going down the forest road to the shore to meet the
fishermen. Long before he saw her Kingfisher heard her singing to herself
and thought, for a little while, that it was Giri.
"Oh, ye'll tak the high road and I'll tak the low road,"
... and ever the last two lines filled the green gloom with haunting sorrow....
It was the little padre who wiped the joy out of it after he had seen
Kingfisher.
* * * * * *
The agent's face was grotesquely serious, thought Ferlie. No one could
make her understand why for quite a long time.
"They live so far afield; right out in Great Nicobar. How w-was one to
dream——? The Andamanese have a similar tribe to cope w-with, the
Jarawas. But they, like the Shorn Pen, are so seldom seen that one forgets.
For centuries the Shorn Pen have managed to isolate themselves from the
remaining islanders, and they are now practically a different people.
Markedly Malayan. Intermarriage and contact with foreigners has altered
the ordinary Nicobarese and civilized him."
The people, by nature, were no heroes, and it took more than the sight
of the foreign lady's stricken insensibility to induce them to collect canoes
at this late hour, when the labours of the day should be over.
The padre's influence did more than Mr. Toms' promises of reward, but
little Jelly, having finally shouldered his shot-gun, was surprised to find
Ferlie prepared to accompany them armed with a small despatch case and
Cyprian's revolver.
"There will be Naomi and Young Brown," said Ferlie coolly. "And I
want to explain that, should anything happen to us, those converts who take
care of the boys till my brother and Colonel Maddock return will be very
substantially rewarded for their trouble. I have left a note with Naomi."
He came, dragging his imitation spear, and she knelt down putting her
arms about him.
"I have got to go away for a little while, John. If I do not get back very
soon, wait for Uncle Peter and look after Thu Daw. And when Uncle Peter
comes, tell him that Mother went away to follow Cyprian wherever he had
gone. Can you repeat it after me? Say, 'Wherever he had gone.'"
He spoke the words wonderingly, straining back, boylike, from the close
pressure of her arms.
She whirled back to meet him and lift him against her heart.
"You are a man," she told him. "And one day you will stay by your
woman, please God, as I am going to choose to stay by my man to-night
and through Eternity."
Jellybrand surveyed the little scene, his face troubled, but he did not
again try to prevent her from joining them.
He was puzzled, but not inquisitive. Ferlie added dully, "That was
before we found one another."
There was no sign of any living thing on the shimmering starlit shore.
The canoes crept closer and closer, under the shadow of the bank, cutting
the water noiselessly as otters. The foremost one, containing Kingfisher,
had only just been beached when he took a sudden flying leap into the
creek. They heard him scruffling with someone on the far side of the motor-
boat.
The two struggled out into the open; two naked forms grappling in the
stream where the water was just shallow enough to allow a precarious
footing.
The man was dragged towards the bank and a dozen willing hands
stretched out to draw him up. Scarecrow, who, generally, showed more
initiative than his fellows, stepped forward to act as spokesman. Fingers
were firmly pressed against the prisoner's mouth, lest his alarmed shout
should attract his friends.
The latter had, evidently, made up his mind not to risk shouting. Or,
maybe, he was only a stray member of the tribe, lured back to the motor-
boat out of curiosity.
To get him to speak, however, was another matter. His dialect, also,
differed from that of his interlocutors.
"He must speak," said Ferlie. "He shall speak. He will speak under
torture."
"Mrs. Sterne!"
She wheeled round upon the padre as he advanced hastily to her side,
pushing him back into the arms of his huddling flock.
"Let me be!" cocking the revolver. "Stand aside, any one of you who
does not want to be shot. But if I shoot this wild beast to bits, inch by inch, I
will know where Cyprian is to-night."
Whether or no, the present captive, who had obviously never set eyes
until that moment on a white woman, was startled by the impression that
she was an avenging devil, it was certain he considered her supernatural.
He broke shuddering from his gaolers to prostrate himself at her feet in
crawling supplication.
In due time they extracted from him a promise to lead them to "the
place where they had put the white man."
Yes, the white man had come there in the boat. Yes, he had walked in
the jungle. Yes, he had been captured. The rest was not clear.
Jellybrand saw that, although they might be moving directly into a trap,
there was nothing for it but to go on. Everybody understood that there
would probably be a scrap. They must rely upon the terrorizing effect of
their fire-arms. He stopped to make the sign of the cross.
It was not long before they arrived at a fired clearing, the centre of
which showed the remains of an earth-oven. A low bamboo platform,
beyond, supported a primitive hammock of plaited grass, hung round with
queer indistinguishable objects.
The whole thing suggested a funeral pyre; not an unlikely idea, since the
padre knew that the Jarawas in the Andamans burnt the bodies of their
dead.
Ferlie was the first to push aside the grass and leaves completely
screening the still form on that rude dais.
And then the birds of the forest rose in fluttering distress, disturbed by
the exceeding bitter cry of a soul in torment.
Cyprian lay there with an arrow, dimly discernible, pinning his coat to
the dark stain which had spread over his breast. They held the dancing
torches high, and poured brandy between his lips, but he did not appear to
swallow; they splashed his face with water from a flask and listened
desperately for the beating of his heart. His hands were clammy cold.
The arrow had pierced clean through his coat to the other side of the
shoulder; after cutting off the barbed head they were able to remove the
shaft. And Ferlie, having done all she could with no result, flung herself
moaning like a wounded thing upon the charred ground.
All at once she raised her tortured face to the priest's and out of the
extremity of her suffering challenged him.
"You talk of faith! Use yours. You talk of prayer. Pray! You believe
there is Someone to pray to: speak to Him, then, but do not come near me
nor try to take this revolver from me, until I see whether the God you
uphold as faithful answers faithful prayer."
But he also considered the danger of resorting to such prayer before the
marvelling undeveloped intellects of the adult children round him, so
hardly-won to Christ. Their faith was ever-ready to rise or fall to the success
or failure of a sign. How could he thus tempt the Lord his God?
"You are afraid!" she said. "And there is not even God left."
"Hush!" he pleaded. "Hush, child. W-wait and I w-will pray ... that His
w-will be done."
It was a strange scene: the girl writhing in her mental agony at the foot
of the savage bier; the frail diminutive figure of the little shepherd, in his
unsuitable draggled white robe, who had proved himself, whatever his
weakness, no hireling to his Master's flock; the scared human animal, naked
as his Creator made him, starting from the grasp of the hybrid agent clad in
khaki shorts and bowler hat; and, behind, the straight smooth-skinned forms
of the Nicobarese, leaning on spear and long bow, awaiting the miracle their
Christian witch-doctor must, surely, perform upon the white woman's man,
who lay so still in the dead light of torch and mocking star.
Jellybrand knelt forlornly on the earth. It has been shown that St.
Francis—the "little sheep of Christ"—was small and starved of appearance
with no physical beauty but his transfiguring trust....
For coincidence or miracle, at the same moment the man on the rickety
erection twitched one hand faintly and opened glazed eyes.
"For God's sake get the arrow out!" he muttered, and once more
relapsed into unconsciousness.
* * * * * *
From the fact that those present ever after respected her as a
superwoman, she supposed she must have taken over charge again of the
reins she had relinquished, for the time being, to the padre and his God.
In her dreams she would often hear the padre's voice saying,
She had necessary things with her in the despatch-case. It was really
blood-poisoning they had to fear, for the actual hurt proved not serious.
They had reason to be glad of the glassy night-harbour and the smooth
stealing of their canoe.
Their prisoner they took with them, it being the padre's inspiration to
load him with gifts and send him back to his tribe with a wholesome
narrative of good returned for evil.
Mr. Toms clung to a theory that the Shorn Pen, amazed at the
appearance of their quarry, had left him for dead at a popular festival
ground, in charge of the prisoner, wishing to display him to the rest of their
tribe before burning him with due ceremony. Probably, not more than three
or four were responsible for the actual outrage....
Before that hour came Gabriel Jellybrand had learnt more than he had
ever sought to know of his new friends. He took his turn at watching beside
the fever-stricken bed and was able to spare Ferlie a considerable amount of
the sick raving that wrung her heart.
"It is nothing." And the padre would describe other sick-beds at which
he had officiated. "He is not worse. It is as if he were speaking in a foreign
language, absorbed at some time or other by his sub-conscious mind."
But always the sick man returned to the same poignant theme; that
Ferlie was his and the barrier between them a figment of her imagination.
"Do not distress yourself over that delusion either," Jellybrand implored
her.
She saw that he was shying away from her admission, eager to show
that he claimed no right to pry into more than she willed to confide in him.
It was inevitable then that she should make known to him the
circumstances which had driven them to seek temporary refuge at some
spot where they would not be hampered by the living lie represented in their
lives side by side.
"And even here," she finished pathetically, "there was you to deceive."
He thought it all out for some while before his slow wits responded
gropingly.
"You see, though God understands, His 'little ones' can't. And it is
forbidden to cause them to stumble.... And so again... There were only three
magi w-who came across the thirsty desert in their w-wisdom to the Cradle.
But many shepherds clustered about it, simple and adoring, w-who
imagined the star to have been lit in the Heavens that very night by some
supernatural hand. The w-wise men did not seek to convince them, by
astronomical data, that it had probably existed before the w-world began.
They merely followed them and adored."
"But they did not accept the shepherds' view," objected Ferlie. "They
reserved their own. What matter, if it was the same star and led them to the
same Cradle?"
"I know—I know. But, by action, they accepted the belief of the simple
folk. They conformed, outwardly, for the sake of those 'little ones'..."
He passed his hand over the back of his head, accentuating the tuft of
hair, like a drake's tail.
"I am so sorry for the W-wise; they have such heavy responsibilities."
CHAPTER XX
The day came, at last, when she was able to approach the subject with
Cyprian, lying in a hammock beside her under the trees.
"I'll let you off," she replied shakily, "If you'll make adequate restitution
by getting well."
"I am well."
She took his cup of tea to him and placed it within reach of the
uninjured arm. His stiffened shoulder still prevented free use of the other.
"I know it. You are both saints, and I eye the haloes with envy, but not
much hope. I want you, as well as your halo."
"Take!" said Ferlie. But she went back to her chair and sat looking at
John chasing Thu Daw across the clearing.
He followed their flight and then said, "We can't stay. 'Unto each his
mother beach, bloom and bird and land.'"
"That's true," agreed Ferlie, and rolled Thu Daw's ball back to him from
under her chair.
"If we could circumvent the first question he could live the other down."
"The alternative is Burma, and, there, you and I have much to live
down, whatever course we take."
The sight of Jellybrand on his way from the school checked Cyprian's
reply. The padre beamed joyously as Ferlie waved him to the second straw
chair.
"W-would you believe it? My choir can now sing the w-whole of
'There's a Friend for little children,' by heart. W-we are going to have it at
Benediction to-night. The Bishop is not quite certain w-whether I ought to
be allowed Benediction, as an extra service, but I hope to be able to
persuade him to my point of view when he visits us. He's not a very
Protestant Bishop, and most w-wide minded."
"If I were the Bishop," said Ferlie, "I shouldn't be able to help feeling
that you must know best and that you mattered more than he did. He has so
much to encourage him. Does your brain never bother you into believing
the work useless and the source of all your inspiration a dream?"
"That is just the point," said Ferlie. "You are incapable of making a
single thing about yourself. But you are able, if you wish, to insist that your
brain, and all the attributes of your particular temperament shall serve
instead of rule you. Faith is within the reach of all who reach out towards it.
The Christ, whose ethics you adopt, explained that whenever He met
educated doubting men."
"But sometimes," said Jellybrand, "one fears to presume."
Ferlie saw that he was thinking of that night in the forest when she had
defied him to test his own faith for her sake, and she replied,
Unexpectedly, he chuckled.
"W-would you like to spend a happy hour now torturing our prisoner? It
might entertain the invalid. I have often w-wondered w-what I should have
done if he had not confessed and you had proceeded to carry out your
intention of making a second St. Sebastian of him w-with revolver bullets."
"Did she intend doing that?" asked Cyprian. "Ferlie, what a joke!"
"It was no joke, I assure you," contradicted Jellybrand, "She stood there
—w-would you believe it?—w-with that horrid little w-weapon pointing in
all directions at once, and rank murder in her face."
Then Ferlie said a horrible thing. So horrible for her that the padre
dropped his tea-cup and Cyprian raised himself upright to meet her blazing
eyes.
In the petrified silence which followed Cyprian extended his one arm.
She went to him, startled into comprehension of her own words, and hid her
face in his sleeve.
"It's all right," muffled tones assured them. "Do you suppose that,
because you don't understand, all Heaven doesn't?"
"I meant to tell you both"—they heard his words stumbling towards
them through a clogging mist—"I have thought a good deal about you—and
prayed. But, somehow—I suppose because I am not quite sure of my right
to advise—light has not come to me yet. The solution slowly dawning may
be a mirage. I must leave you to judge of that. It is not for me to follow the
w-wise across the desert. My place is in the fields w-with the blind flocks.
Still, since you must go back and live practical lives in a practical w-world,
there is such a thing as rendering unto Cæsar. In this case—to a custom, if
an unlawful custom, as many considered Cæsar's tribute. Yet, the disciples
were permitted to pay that, to give their enemies no handle. You could pay
it—this tribute to our so-called Civilization—by obtaining your divorce and
contracting, according to the law of the land, to live together as it permits
you. A marriage in a registry office counts as no marriage to a Catholic; but
this you know. Your lives together after it w-would be a matter for
yourselves and your own consciences, supposing you can continue to live
together under the same conditions you have observed up to now. If you
find you cannot, then I, honestly, see no w-way out but the one w-which
seems to spell living death to both of you—separation.
"The views of any Church are immaterial to one of you, who has been,
hitherto, a law unto himself. They are not immaterial to me; but my heart is
ready to let the situation rest between you and the Greatest of all Lovers,
who sees further than His disciples in the Church."
The speaker pushed his untasted tea aside with a little clinking jerk of
china, and moved swiftly away from the two under the restless palms.
In the distance they watched him climb the steps of the toy ark and, a
moment later, the cracked bell clanged.
* * * * * *
Cyprian spoke first, when the cadences of the concertina would have
been inciting to hilarity most listeners superior to the Nicobarese and
inferior to the angels.
"Did you ever hear of Er, the son of Armenius? No. You never trod the
mill of the ordinary Greek classics. Er was a brave man who was killed in
battle, and the story goes that, ten days later, his body was discovered quite
fresh. The twelfth day they laid him on a funeral pyre, when he wisely came
to life again. He brought news that he had been permitted to see the other
world and return, and described a long and complicated vision—Socrates'
idea of the justice meted out to Man after death.
"While I was ill my brain was troubling itself with an account of the
method by which the sky's vault was held together, in the vision, at either
end, by a belt of light."
"I can well believe that I babbled about them. Er's idea of the eight
whorls, inserted in one another was founded on the Greeks' conception of
astronomy. Never mind. I'll lend you the translation....
"I am only prefacing my own vision (if you can call it that when you
know) with the mention of all this, to show you how my mind has been
running on Plato for the sake of one passage in his Republic, portraying
Earthly Love as a frantic and savage Master."
"Your faith tells you so. I only saw it in my—dream. Do you know that
I believe, like Er, I have been dead?"
"You were dead. Your heart had stopped beating. You must have been
unconscious for a long time. And now, being you, you are wondering
whether knowledge acquired during an experience in Death should be
pushed aside by your well-balanced living mind. What did you see?"
"It was not exactly a seeing. It was a knowing. I was dead and I knew I
was dead. But I was still alive, most terribly and poignantly. You were the
Dead—on this side of the Dark, belted down, like Er's universe, from the
light. But I was struggling so passionately to return and be dead with you
here, rather than alive with all those other Living, that, like Er, I think I was
shown the way to break through....
"One has heard of people in trances waking in the grave. Can you be
sure with me, Ferlie, that this was more than a trance?"
"You need not have been afraid. I would have wrenched the way
through to you if you had not come back to me. For that reason I took your
revolver."
After a silence he said, "Then I see now why I was allowed to find the
way. I was not worth such a sacrifice ... the sacrifice of your unfinished
work here. That is quite clear."
"Ah, never! Never till that night did I know the depths of my own
weakness. For the memory I must go humbly all my days. Cyprian, believe,
rather, that you have been allowed the vision because only through its
acceptance can you receive the strength which must make me strong."