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About Difficult People
Difficult people take over our lives. They live rent-free in our heads.
We steel ourselves before we meet them. We can’t relax when we
are with them. We ruminate on their behaviour after they’ve gone.
They harvest our empathy and operate without regard for our
feelings.
Be Happy
The Universe Listens to Brave
The Art of Self-Kindness
Breakthrough
Setting Boundaries
Believe
Small Habits for a Big Life
Good, Great, Perfect
To the people I have been difficult for: thank you for your grace and
guidance upon realising the pain behind my actions and for staying
by my side as I did the work of healing. And thank you to those who
showed me the door in the days before I took responsibility for the
way I carried my wounds. Your boundaries helped me learn about
who I want to be.
To the people who have been difficult for me: thank you for
helping me understand what I will and won’t accept in my
relationships and interactions. Thank you for testing me to ensure I
am committed to my circles of preservation and empowerment. And
thank you for teaching me that my inner peace is both priceless and
my responsibility. I hope peace finds you also.
acknowledgement of country
This book was written on the lands of the Jinibara and Kabi Kabi
(Gubbi Gubbi) peoples. I pay my deepest respects to their Elders,
past, present and emerging and honour the ancient wisdom and
connection to First Nations peoples that this land holds. Sovereignty
was never ceded.
Contents
Cover
About Difficult People
Also by Dr Rebecca Ray
Title Page
Dedication
Acknowledgement of Country
Preface
Introduction
PART 1 BEING HUMAN IS COMPLEX
1 Understanding difficult people
2 Who is a difficult person?
3 Are they actually difficult?
PART 2 DIFFICULT BEHAVIOURS
4 Preoccupied behaviours
5 Avoidant behaviours
6 Fearful behaviours
PART 3 BOUNDARY BASICS
7 How you react
8 How you feel
9 How you self-regulate
10 How to set boundaries
PART 4 MOVING GENTLY AND BRAVELY FORWARD
11 Be gentle with yourself
12 Be brave and empowered
Acknowledgements
References
About the author
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Preface
Dear reader, hello! If we’re meeting for the first time, I’m Dr
Rebecca Ray, but please call me Beck. I’ll be by your side in text
form throughout these pages. And if we’ve met before because we
shared therapy space during my time in clinical work, or through my
earlier books and audio content, an audience I’ve presented to, my
social media presence, or my courses, hello again! It’s my privilege
to continue alongside you for this part of your journey.
However you’ve found you’re way here, I’m betting that you are
not here because boundaries are brand new to you. No, you are
here because you’ve realised that boundaries are the most powerful
gift you can offer another person when you are interacting with
them. If you’ve read my book Setting Boundaries, I don’t need to
convince you of the positive influence of boundaries on your
psychological well-being. The reader response I received to the book
was stunning. Yet, there was a question asked frequently enough
that it was clear that we needed to continue the conversation: ‘What
do I do when my boundaries don’t work with a challenging person in
my life?’
The book you have in your hands now exists in reply to that
question, because real life is more nuanced than simply identifying
your boundaries and learning to say no.
It is destabilising and distressing when someone repeatedly fails to
respect your circles of empowerment and perseveration. You know
this person, don’t you? The person who doesn’t seem to care about
your boundaries. The one who unsettles you, dismisses your
attempts to communicate your expectations, and confuses you into
thinking it’s you who is the problem. This person violates your
psychological safety. They fail to manage their feelings effectively
and leave a trail of emotional baggage for you and everyone else
around them to trip over. While they don’t quite fit into the league of
dangerous people, their behaviour is problematic enough that it
knocks you off centre. And it makes you question whether
something is wrong with you.
Dear reader, there is nothing wrong with you. Yes, we must
acknowledge that we are all difficult people sometimes (we’ll explore
this throughout the book). I’m not about to pander to you by
absolving your personal responsibility when we both know that
relationships are a two-way street. However, it’s just as important
that you understand that difficult people can compromise your
perception of what you know about yourself, what you can trust in
others, and whether or not you have agency in your own life to set
boundaries around what you need and want to live bravely and
meaningfully.
Privilege
I am an able-bodied, cisgendered, neurotypical white woman. I was
born in Australia, a first-world, democratic country with free
healthcare and (relatively) equal rights for women, raised in a
middle-class family with parents who remain married and who loved
and provided for me as a child. As an adult, I have multiple levels of
tertiary education under my belt, and a career that’s afforded me an
income that has never had me questioning where I will sleep at
night or how I will access my next meal. The amount of privilege in
these sentences is significant and this privilege must be
acknowledged because it shapes my life experience. It means that
my life has not seen the barriers that people of colour,
underrepresented identities, low-resourced settings, and countries
with fewer rights and greater threats to safety face. As Kerry
Washington’s character in Little Fires Everywhere articulated, ‘I didn’t
make good choices. I had good choices.’
You don’t get to choose your parents. You don’t get to choose your
personality. No one chooses to be traumatised. You don’t get to
choose your race. Your sexuality. Your gender. The country, culture
and socio-economic status you were born into, and the
opportunities, education, healthcare and citizen freedoms therefore
offered you. You don’t get to choose the generational history laid out
before you arrived, or the choices the adults in your life make that
change the course of your childhood for better or worse. Every
single one of these circumstances not of your choosing shapes the
load you carry and its relative weight. You don’t get to choose the
load. You don’t get to choose the weight. But you do get to choose
how you carry it.
I am a complex trauma survivor who consciously manages my
mental wellness and residual psychological scars on a daily basis. I
am in a same-sex relationship and was only legally able to marry my
partner just a few years ago. I am a woman and know what it’s like
to navigate the world in a plus-sized body. These things also shape
my perspective, but they don’t negate my inherent privilege due to
my race, access to resources, and capacity to set boundaries
because my culture allows me to.
I have no right to speak on your lived experience. What I can offer
you is transparency about my perspective and privilege, as a white
Australian clinical psychologist whose training and clinical experience
has existed largely in settings where people can access healthcare
and the benefit of creating change in their lives without the
significant weight of oppression on their shoulders. Please know that
I understand your interpretation of this book can only ever be
through your own lens. I acknowledge the limits of what I can write
and thank you in advance for recognising those limits as you read
this book.
Behaviours vs people
When we speak of difficult people, we are actually talking about
behaviours they exhibit that are abrasive to receive. It gives us
greater scope for change if we focus our perspective on difficult
behaviours rather than tarring people as wholly difficult, and
therefore unworthy, and likely ‘defective’.
Most people are capable of changing. However, whether they have
insight, motivation and willingness to make those changes is another
matter entirely. As such, when I refer to difficult people in this book,
I am using this phrase to refer to difficult behaviours of people who
have developed coping strategies that cause problems for others, or
who struggle to have insight into their behaviours and have low
motivation to change those behaviours, or who don’t have the skills
(or willingness to learn the skills) to do things differently in their
interpersonal world.
Blurred lines
Forensic, violent and clinically diagnosable disorders of personality
don’t belong in this book. However, because many things can exist
at once in the complexity of human behaviour, difficult people can
often straddle a blurred line on the spectrum of psychologically
unsafe behaviours that escalate to dangerous behaviours. I’ve
attempted to include as much nuance as possible to help you make
decisions about what has been ‘normal’ for you and more
importantly, what you’ll define as acceptable in your relationships
moving forward.
Changing them
I don’t blame you if you’re impatient to arrive at the part of the book
where I teach you the magic words that allow you to confront the
difficult person in your life, force them to take responsibility for their
actions and, ultimately, change their ways. If changing others was
possible, then relationships wouldn’t be the source of discomfort that
they often are, and this book wouldn’t be necessary! You already
know this at your core, though. The good news is that we are going
to work on something far more effective: taking control of yourself
to decide who and what you allow into your space.
Boundaries
Boundaries can be statements or instructions to others about your
preferences and needs or they can be values that you hold within
that don’t need to be said out loud. Boundaries enable you to set
and communicate your choices about how you want to distribute
your personal resources to live in alignment with your values. They
are lines of connection that form your own personal operation
manual to show others how to love and respect you while ensuring
you do the same for yourself. They are not combat weapons
designed to defeat others so that your needs can ‘win’; nor are they
selfish, unkind or unreasonable. It can feel that way if you habitually
ignore your own needs, though. If you tend to dismiss your own
needs, here’s a quick example of how honouring your needs using
boundaries is kind to both the person asking something of you, and
yourself. A friend wants to catch up this week because she’s going
through a tough time and would value your support. However, you
are exhausted. There’s very little left in your tank for supporting
yourself, let alone holding space for a friend. A healthy boundary
would sound like: ‘I’d love to see you, but my energy levels are low.
I can meet you next week instead, so that I can give you my full self
and undivided attention.’
Boundaries underpin the safety of our relationships. They help you
to reflect on not just why this person is behaving the way they are,
but why you are allowing them to. They help you acknowledge
where your (lack of) boundaries may be giving permission for others
to continue with unhealthy behaviours that are negatively affecting
you.
Locus of control
Locus of control is the extent to which you feel like your actions
determine the events and outcomes in your life. It’s how much you
lean towards participating in the conscious creation of the life you
want to live (internal locus of control), as opposed to believing that
life happens to you and much of it is outside of your control
(external locus of control). Trusting that you can shape your life is an
essential ingredient to setting boundaries that protect you with the
difficult person in your life, rather than giving away that power.
As a trained professional, I will always encourage you to utilise
your agency and take responsibility for what’s not working in your
life, and to do what you need to do to improve it. As a living human,
I love a little woo-woo and like to believe that there is something
bigger out there that might be supporting us.
‘Normal’
One of the most common phrases I uttered in my time in clinical
practice was, ‘It’s normal to feel this way’. Normalising feelings (and
behaviour) is part of the task of validation and helping a client feel
seen, heard and understood. Our inherent need to belong creates a
strong desire to know that we are ‘normal’; not defective, and not so
different as to be excluded. In this sense though, normal doesn’t
necessarily mean ‘right’. It means commonplace, or typical within the
realm of similar circumstances.
If you were raised by difficult people, you don’t know any
different. When your first long-term relationship is with a difficult
person, you don’t know any different. When your first job is working
for a difficult person, you don’t know any different. When the
significant people in your life have allowed difficult people to get
away with their behaviour without setting boundaries, you don’t
know any different. When the significant people in your childhood
allowed difficult people to have access to you, you don’t know any
different.
Difficult is, or becomes, your ‘normal’.
You expect that loving and being loved will be fraught with
emotional landmines. And when it is, while you don’t find it easy, it
is familiar, which can be confusing because the brain interprets what
we know as safer than what we don’t know. ‘Normal’ feels safer than
anything outside it.
Clara’s normal was difficult. When I met her for her first therapy
session, she was 21 and working as an erotic dancer to pay for her
studies in occupational therapy. She was in an ‘on/off’ relationship
with Josh, whose style of relating to Clara is best described as one of
convenience. Clara’s reason for seeking therapy was short and
simple: ‘I feel anxious all the time and I want those feelings to go
away.’ At first glance, a full-time study load combined with 10-hour
overnight shifts multiple times a week, and a dissatisfying
relationship, could easily be a load to overwhelm most people’s
personal resources. However, the very nature of psychological
treatment is to explore beyond first glance. Sure, Clara had a lot on
her plate, but it’s not always the load that’s the problem. The way
we cope with that load can exacerbate its weight.
Clara’s coping style was complex, because her childhood was
complex. Raised in a family of four sisters, her parents modelled
conflict management via yelling at each other and threatening
divorce, or turning their emotional pain into the fault of their children
and playing the siblings against each other as a form of manipulation
to bring them into line. Clara learned to expect love to be conditional
and that her needs would only be met through constant games of
emotional push and pull.
She grew into an adult determined to ‘make something of myself’,
but who believed that doing so was unlikely because ‘I’m not good
enough’. Her sense of inadequacy was reinforced by her significant
relationships lacking unconditional love and acceptance. She
believed it was entirely normal to be in conflict with at least one
sibling and/or one parent at any given time, while chasing
breadcrumbs of attention from her boyfriend. For Clara, ‘boundaries’
looked like starting fights instead of expressing her needs and
constantly being on guard instead of relaxing into love. She thought
the problem was anxiety. But anxiety was the manifestation of
relationship patterns that are perpetually difficult.
Psychological mindedness
Your presence here indicates that there is something about you not
often present in people who are difficult: psychological mindedness.
This broadly refers to having an awareness and understanding of
psychological processes including thoughts, feelings and behaviours.
It involves self-awareness, insight, a willingness and capacity for
self-reflection, and the resultant desire for change based on that
insight and reflection. A person’s capacity for psychological
mindedness helps them to make connections between their internal
world and its behavioural expression for themselves and others.
A friend of mine recently spoke to me about feelings of wanting to
give up on her business because she had received a nasty review
and refund request from a disgruntled customer. Despite the
intensity of her feelings, she was able to note that her default
response to feelings of failure is to ‘run and hide’. She also made
links between the urge to give up and hide away and the feelings of
inadequacy that had arisen when her father suggested she ‘Just go
and get a job’. Her psychological mindedness allowed her to observe
these feelings, thoughts and urges, and process them, rather than
reacting unconsciously in negative ways (closing her business is not
what my friend truly wanted).
Psychological mindedness allows you to reflect on your own
reactions to others, and the motivations of others’ behaviours, and
then use your understanding of how those behaviours came to be.
You can then consciously choose healthy methods of coping.
Psychological safety
Psychological safety was first defined in 1999 by Amy Edmondson, a
professor in leadership and management at Harvard University.
Edmondson defined psychological safety as a concept applicable to
work settings as, ‘A belief that one will not be punished, or
humiliated, for speaking up with ideas, questions, concerns or
mistakes and that the team is safe for interpersonal risk-taking’.
I once treated a primary school teacher who I’ll call Hayden.
Hayden was dedicated to his students but feeling increasingly
anxious at the demands placed upon him outside of the task of
teaching. He said to me, ‘We have so little time to actually teach
thanks to the administrative demands on us’.
Part way through our time together, Hayden mentioned that the
principal of his school was leaving. Hayden thought this changing of
the guard could be a good time to raise his concerns about
administration tasks eating into teaching time.
It was halfway through the new principal’s first term at the school
when Hayden spoke up in a whole-school staff meeting to suggest
the possibility of a role being created for a communications manager
to help reduce the inbox stress experienced by parents and teachers
alike. He reasoned that a communications manager could centralise
communications, increasing seamless contact between all
stakeholders in each student’s life, and improving productivity for
teachers who gain freedom from email overwhelm. His suggestion
was met with a scoff from the principal, who asked Hayden who he
thought he was to be making managerial suggestions and then
laughed facetiously to the remaining staff that: ‘Hayden thinks he
can do a better job than the principal, it seems, when he clearly has
no idea why we have to do things a certain way!’ Some of his fellow
teachers joined in the laughter, humiliating Hayden further. Not only
did this lead to feelings of hopelessness, but Hayden was now
averse to speaking up about any issues that needed addressing for
fear of further embarrassment. This workplace was not
psychologically safe.
Placing this concept in family and relational systems, it becomes
the interpersonal environment where an individual is accepted and
valued as they are, without fear of being punished or humiliated for
recognising and speaking up for their own needs, expressing their
feelings and making mistakes on the path of personal growth.
Throughout Difficult People we are focused on the status of your
psychological safety in your relationships.
Difficult people tend to violate others’ psychological safety. Let’s
return to Clara for a moment. She was raised by difficult parents
who created patterns of loving conditionally in their family and
projected their dysregulation onto their children. Clara then repeated
these patterns in her intimate relationship, settling for a partner who
only occasionally met her needs as a form of manipulation to keep
her feeling inadequate and therefore grateful for any attention she
received. Consequently, Clara had become frustrated. She would
simmer until she reached boiling point, at which time she would
erupt at her partner Josh, repeating the pattern of projecting her
own emotional dysregulation rather than managing it and setting
healthy boundaries. Difficult people model difficult behaviours. Clara
had learned that the way to cope with not being psychologically safe
was to violate others’ psychological safety in retaliation.
Self-regulation
Human beings don’t walk around feeling happy all the time
(unfortunately). We respond emotionally to our outer and inner
worlds, giving us valuable information about ourselves and others.
Self-regulation is the ability to know when your emotions are
approaching (or breaching) the outer limits of your zone of comfort,
and to take action to temper them accordingly. Without knowing it,
you are regulating yourself all the time by responding to the stimuli
around you and your internal environment, including thoughts,
memories, feelings and body sensations.
The process of self-regulation is like reacting to your emotional
temperature, akin to your inherent ability to know when you are too
hot and to respond by going for a swim to cool down.
When you are unable to moderate your responses effectively,
psychologists refer to this as emotional dysregulation. One of the
most common difficult behaviours we face in others is a lack of skills
or willingness to regulate themselves appropriately.
I opened a news site this morning only to read a story of a
McDonald’s customer becoming so frustrated at the wait time in
drive-thru that they verbally abused a crew member who requested
they park in the waiting bay. The driver then punched another crew
member who delivered the order to their car window. Both crew
members were terrified and left in tears after the experience.
Emotional dysregulation hurts others and can be not just difficult,
but dangerous.
Defining ‘difficult’
State vs trait vs disorder
A state is a temporary emotional response, like the anxiety about
what your mother will say about your recent weight gain when you
return home for Christmas. It is a temporary state of behaving in
difficult ways due to abnormal or intensely stressful situations (e.g.
arguing with a friend over the way she announced her pregnancy
because the pressure of fertility treatment has you hanging by a
thread).
A trait is an ongoing way of behaving or relating to others and the
world, for example a generally pessimistic outlook. This might be a
long-term and predictable way of being (e.g. acting out when feeling
vulnerable by verbally attacking and blaming others).
A personality trait is a pattern of perception, thinking, reacting and
relating to yourself, others and the world that is relatively stable and
enduring over time. A personality disorder is diagnosed when a
collection of personality traits and behaviours become so fixed,
pronounced and maladaptive that they cause dysfunction across
many life areas, including work and interpersonal relationships.
To summarise, a state is a temporary response to internal or
external stimuli – we all experience daily changes in our state. A trait
is a long-term way of being or pattern of behaviour. It can be
positive or negative and we all have a combination of both that
shapes who we are. The intensity of someone’s negative personality
traits and their resultant impact on you when you are interacting
with them, point to features of a difficult person.
Difficult vs dangerous
This book is about difficult people, but we can’t talk about difficult
people unless we acknowledge the continuum of interpersonal
safety.
Healing people are your people; the ones you adore so much
because of who they are, and who they are to you and for you. You
think about these people because they add so much beauty to your
life, and it would be heartbreaking to not have them by your side.
My wife, Nyssa, and two friends I consider close enough to be
family, Jen and Bec, are profoundly healing in my world. For me,
these women are the epitome of excellent humans. I am lucky to
love and be loved by them and that looks like unconditional and
non-judgemental acceptance for who I am and who I am not, and
unwavering support for who I am becoming. The idea of my inner
circle missing one of these women is unthinkable.
Comfortable people are the ones you don’t second-guess. You
don’t feel unsettled around them or doubt yourself when they’re with
you. In fact, you probably haven’t thought too much about how they
are because we don’t usually question comfort or psychological
safety. These people may exist in any and all areas of your life. In
fact, I would argue that it would be lovely if everyone outside your
inner circle was, at least, comfortable! People on this side of the
continuum are safe.
A difficult person is someone who violates your psychological
safety and/or is unable or unwilling to regulate their emotions and
their responses to their environment, but who stops short of
threatening or acting out violence. Difficult People is about precisely
these people.
A dangerous person is usually someone who has started out as
difficult and escalated to be someone who violates your
psychological and/or physical safety, and shows no empathy,
remorse or willingness to change their behaviour, or acknowledge
the harm they have caused you. People on this side of the
continuum are unsafe.
A friend of mine told me about her experience with a couple living
up the street from her. These people were the neighbours you hope
to never have. The wife was apparently rude, nasty and abusive
towards anyone who parked in front of their property, while the
husband was physically intimidating, vandalised their immediate
next-door neighbour’s car and threatened them with physical
violence. It’s fair to characterise the wife in this situation as difficult,
and the husband as dangerous.
Dealing with a dangerous person requires a more complex and
supported approach than simply setting boundaries. I encourage you
to assess your life for anyone who causes harm with violent and
abusive (and, therefore, criminal) behaviour. This person is not just
difficult; they are dangerous. Please seek help quickly to take action
that restores your safety.
Bipolar
This term is commonly – and incorrectly – used to describe someone
whose emotions or behaviour seem unpredictable. Its vintage cousin
is ‘manic-depressive’, popularised by fictional representations like Dr
Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
Bipolar disorder is a collective term for a set of mental health
diagnoses around extreme mood changes that coexist within a long-
term pattern of symptoms that are much more complex than lack of
predictability alone.
If your father-in-law popped over to jovially help you tidy the yard
last week, and this week he’s back to criticising you and your
husband’s level of debt and telling your husband that you are a
‘liability’ to the family, that’s not grounds for labelling him ‘bipolar’. It
is, however, a red flag.
Depression
Depression is probably a term that you are familiar with, even if
you’ve never experienced it. However, it’s not a term that just means
‘sad’. It’s part of a much broader set of symptomatology that affects
thoughts, feelings, behaviours and physiology. I remember treating a
man who I’ll call Chung. Chung was in his thirties and struggled to
maintain long-term intimate relationships. His interpersonal
sensitivity, high expectations of others, and inability to identify and
communicate his feelings accurately, often led him to be easily
disappointed by partners. He would then accuse his partner of
‘making me depressed’. Chung wasn’t depressed. He was frustrated
with the need to compromise and would externalise his feelings as
being the fault of his partner. His partners often left as a result.
Gaslighting
This refers to a legitimate form of manipulation that leads you to
question your own reality. For a full definition, see Chapter 5.
Gaslighting can occur when someone causes you to doubt your
memory of an event or question your feelings, or turn the narrative
on its head to make conflict appear to be your fault. But not every
uncomfortable interaction is gaslighting. Just because someone
disagrees with or questions you doesn’t mean they are gaslighting
you. Gaslighting usually occurs repeatedly and in tandem with other
indicators of your relationship or interactions with this person being
psychologically unsafe. Your partner stating that they don’t
understand why the dishes being left in the sink is such a problem is
not them gaslighting you. However, if they continually tell you that
‘you’re crazy’ for doubting their trustworthiness after seeing
suggestive messages from a co-worker of theirs, followed by
needing to ‘work late’, then gaslighting may very well be present.
Narcissist
Labelling someone as a narcissist has become more common in
response to a person who is manipulative and generally abusive, but
there is a difference between narcissistic behaviour (infrequent or
random state-based behaviours) and narcissistic personality disorder,
or NPD, (a psychiatric disorder that offers a full diagnostic picture).
Narcissistic behaviour occurs when a person elevates themselves
and their needs above other people (see Chapter 5). They may use
this sense of superiority to believe they are always right or to make
you believe that you are incompetent. Narcissistic behaviour is
common in difficult people, but it doesn’t necessarily mean that they
meet criteria for NPD. Similarly, your boss’s habit of always needing
to be right doesn’t make her narcissistic, or even difficult (annoying,
maybe!), unless that behaviour occurs in conjunction with other red
flags.
PTSD
Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a trauma-related condition
encompassing a range of triggers, symptoms and associated life
problems. As discussed earlier in the Introduction, there is a big
difference between capital T trauma (which can lead to the
development of PTSD) and small t trauma which, while painful and
destabilising, is not diagnostically or clinically appropriate to be
referred to as PTSD. Divorce is tough, but it’s not in the same
category of trauma created by sexual abuse.
Toxic
This is not a recognised clinical term, but can refer to any relational,
situational or behavioural pattern that is unhealthy. Perhaps you
know a person for whom life seems to be overly dramatic. There’s
always a problem following them that would fit well in the storyline
of a soap opera. And occasionally, they project their problems onto
you. It’s toxic. Toxic is a great descriptor, but unfortunately, it now
tends to be casually overused, and has become something of a go-to
word for any interaction someone doesn’t like.
Don’t worry if you’re not sure of all your answers. By the end of the
book, you’ll have much more clarity, coupled with the actions you
need to take to move forward bravely and meaningfully.
So, now that we’re speaking the same language, curl up in your
favourite spot with a cuppa and maybe a snack, and let’s do some
truth-telling.
PART 1
Difficult childhoods
Dear reader, you and I had a childhood. We must start here,
because we all start here. An adult who had a difficult childhood
frequently still holds something from that childhood that continues to
hurt in some way. This statement usually elicits a chorus of older
generations of parents saying: ‘Well, they turned out fine!’ And I
have to ask – did they?
They’re the children that are unsettled in peaceful environments
because they were raised in chaos. Their bodies are in perpetual
fight/flight mode, seeking out drama because it’s what they know
how to navigate. Worse still, they’re so accustomed to abrasive
environments that receiving compassion feels not just foreign, but
cloying, smothering even. It feels like, if they were to relax into
being loved, they’d be risking everything that has kept them safe.
Their psyches are anxious, depressed, traumatised. Their sleep is
non-existent, they can’t regulate their emotions, they are reliant on
others for validation, and respectful conflict resolution and
relationship repair are terms that belong to weird people who know
how to say sorry without thinking that person will now hate you
forever.
They are difficult people.
A difficult person is not necessarily a ‘bad’ person; sometimes, a
difficult person is an emotionally unskilled person, or a person who is
in survival mode. A person who is doing what was done to them,
and doesn’t know better.
Attachment styles
An attachment style represents the bond between primary caregiver
and child, which creates a relational template known as an internal
working model for how relationships will go throughout the lifespan.
Defined by John Bowlby, it influences a child’s expectations and
responses in relationships, based on whether or not their primary
caregivers provided a stable, nurturing environment where needs
and feelings were met and respected.
Children need a circle of security. Parents are responsible for giving
a child the freedom to explore their world with boundaries for safety
and learning, while being attentive, interested and supportive during
that exploration and offering comfort and protection when the child
returns from exploration – think of it as refilling the child’s emotional
cup. Providing this circle of security creates a secure attachment for
the child.
Our attachment style is intimately connected to our sense of
psychological safety in that it is predicated on three fundamental
assumptions about ourselves, other people and the world, as
identified by Ronnie Janoff-Bulman. Children who are raised in an
environment where psychological safety and self-regulation are
present grow to assume that: