T H E H A R V A R D C LA S S IC S

S H E L F O F F IC T IO N
SE L E CTE D BY CH A RLES W E LIOT LL D

CR I M E AND P UN I SH M E N T

BY

F YODO R DO ST OEV S K Y

T R A N S L A TED BY C O N ST A N C E GA RN ETT

E D I TED W I T H N O TES A N D I N T R O D U C T I O N S
B Y IV I L L I A M A L L A N N E I L S O N P D H

P F CO L L IE R 8: S ON CO M PAN Y
N EW YO R K
P u b l is h e d u n d e r s pe cial a r ra n g e m e n t w ith
T h e M a cm il l a n C o m p a n y

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C o pyr g t 1 9 1 7
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By P F C o m m a
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M ANU FACTURED IN U . S . A.
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C RIM E A N D PU N I S H M E N T
PA GE

B I RA P H I CA L N T
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C R I TI CI S M S AN D I N T RPR TATI N S
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. B YEM IL M L C HI R V I C M T
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BY K A z I M I E Rz WA L I S Z E W S K I
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III . FR O M TH E L ON D ON “
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IV . B Y M AU R I C E BA R I N G
LI ST OF C HA RACT E RS
PART I

PART II

PART III

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PART IV
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PA RT V

CHA P T E R I
C HA P T E R II
C HA P T E R III
C H A P T E R IV
C HA P T E R V
CH A P T E R V I
C HA P T E R V II
C HA P T E R VIII
EP I L OG U E
 B I OG RA PH I CA L N OTE

Y O D O R M IK H A IL O V IT C H D O S T O EV S KY w a s
bo rn at M o scow o n O ctobe r 3 0 1 8 2 1 the s o n o f a , ,

m il ita ry su rgeon H e was educated i n his native city

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and a t the S cho o l o f M i litary E ngineering at St Peters b u r g, .

fro m which h e gradu ated in 1 8 43 with the g rade o f s u b

l i eutenant Th e att raction o f literature l ed him to give u p
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the care e r t hat lay open to him and he entered instead up on ,

a long st ruggle with pov erty .

Hi s fi rst book Po o r F olks

, though O bviously
i nflu enced by Gogol w a s reco gni zed b y the critics as th e
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wo rk o f an o riginal genius and he became a re gular contrib

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uto r to a m o nthly magazine Annals o f the C ountry ” He
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is said to hav e u ndertaken ten new nov els at once and w a s ,

certainly wo rking a t a te rr ifi c pace when a sudden hal t w a s

called . He had j oined the ci rcle o f a political a g itator ,

P e tr a c h ev s k i and had been taking part in its rather harm

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l es s di scu ssion s on political economy when the suspicions o f ,

the pol ice we re a rou sed and he with hi s brother and thirty ,

comrades was arre sted i n Apr il 1 8 49 and t h rown into

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th e fo rtres s o f S t Pete r and St Paul in S t Peters b u rg

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where h e wrote hi s story A Little H ero O n D ecem b e r
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2 2d, h e and tw enty one others we re conducted to the foot

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o f a sca ffold i n the S im o n o v s k y Square and told to pre ,

pare for d eath B ut b e fo re the sentence was executed as

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they sto od i n thei r shi rts i n the bitter D ecember weather .

it was announced that thei r penalty was commuted to exile

i n S ibe ri a O n C hr i stmas E v e he started o n hi s j ourney
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and th e next fou r year s were spent among convicts in

a pri so n at O msk He h as descri b ed his expe ri ences there
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i n hi s M emo ri e s o f the H ou se o f the D ead ( 1 8 5 3 )

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experi ences which though fright ful in the extreme seem to

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hav e strengthened rather than inj ured him in b ody a nd

m ind tho u gh they may hav e embittered h is tempe r Hi s
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V B I O G RA P H I C A L NO TE

i mp r is o n m en t foll o w ed by th ree ye ar s o f c o mp u ls o r y
w as
m ilitary s e rv ice du ri ng th e l ast o f w hich h e b e came an
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u nde r o ffice r and m ar r i ed a w idow M adam e Is a ie v

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n o w r esumed hi s l ite rary c are er publi shing T he I n j ured ,

and the Insulted i n 1 8 60 In 1 8 62 h e v i sited we ste rn

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E u rope but s eem s to h av e made littl e u s e o f hi s o ppo r

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tu n it ie s t o study the civ il i z ation o r natio nal character o f

o the r p eopl es H e w a s a co nfi rmed gambler and hi s c o n
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du ct at time s r educed hi s w i fe and himsel f to an almo st

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d esperate s itu ati o n S h e d ied i n 1 8 63 and i n th e follow

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i ng ye ar he lo st hi s b roth e r M ichael who h ad sh ared w ith ,

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hi m th e management o f a pe r iodic al Le ft alon e h e wa s .

u nab l e t o c o nduct th e bu sines s a ffai rs connected with it

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and o nly th e su cce s s o f C rime an d Puni shment i n 1 866
r es cu ed hi m fr om rui n H e had now r e ached the height
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o f hi s power s a n d th e nov el s w ri tten

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a fte r thi s p er io d
a r e generally regarded as show in g an inc reas ing l ack o f
t h e propo rtio n and r est raint wh ich h ad nev e r b een h i s to
any great d e gr ee Th e mo st impo rtant o f the l ater wo rk s
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ar e Th e Idio t The Po ss es sed The
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Adul t a nd Th e B rothe rs K ar amaz o v
H e m arri ed a s h i s s econd w i fe hi s stenograph e r Ann a ,
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G r igo r ev n a S v itkin e a gir l w h o though n o t h igh l y educated

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was capabl e and d evoted ; and th rough he r ener gy his last

year s w er e p as sed in c o m fo rt and comp arativ e p ro s perity .

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He i s su ed p erio di cally An Autho r s N ote B ook to whi ch ’
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h e contributed an amount o f autob iographi cal matte r and ,

th rou gh th is and othe r w ritings in magazine s h e exe rci sed

a goo d deal o f influ ence H e came finally to h av e a v e ry .

h igh po siti on i n th e p o pul ar r egard and hi s de ath in ,

F eb ru ary ,
1 88 1 b rought fo rth an exp re ssi o n o f publ ic
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feelin g su ch as S t Pete rsbu rg had s eldo m s een

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Thou gh D o st o ev sky did no t regard himsel f a s a m artyr

in hi s S ib eri an exi l e and inde ed ev en s eems to h av e
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r egarded th e su ffering o f that tim e in the li ght o f expia

t ion— though o f what c ri me it i s h ard fo r a n o n Rus sian -

to s e e —h e bo re th e marks o f th e experi ence through th e

r e st o f hi s l i fe H i s face lo oked aged and so r ro w st ri cken
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and he b ecam e b itter s il e n t a n d suspici ou s He w a s s u b

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j e ct t o epi l ep sy and had s t range hallu cinati o ns P robably

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a s a consequ ence o f h is l ong association w ith criminals ,

h e had an intense i nte rest in a b normal and perverted types ,

th e psychology o f wh ich he analysed with an uncanny

subtlety H is books fo rm a str iking contrast to those o f
.

Tu rgenev i n point o f art fo r they are di ffuse O ften poorly

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constructed and incoherent and without charm O f style

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But i n sp ite Of these limitations hi s power o f r ousing

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emotion th e grim i ntensity o f hi s conceptions and hi s

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command o f th e sources O f fea r and pity make him a very

great w rite r .

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C r ime and Puni shment i s h is acknowledged masterpiece ,

and i t di splays some o f hi s mo st characteri stic ideas Chie f .

among them i s that o f expi ation The crime o f Raskolnikov

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i s not s o much r epented o f as it i s re g arded as being

cancel ed b y v oluntary su b mi ssion to S i b eri an exile Sonia .
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the p athet ic gi rl o f th e streets throu g h whom the hero

l ea rns th e l es so n o f pu rifi cation repre sent s the humility and
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devoti on whi ch are to D o stoe vs ky the saving vi rtue s w hich

a r e o n e d a y to s av e Ru ssi a T h e m o st striking featu re o f
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the bo ok to th e V\7e st e rn reade r to whom the spiritual

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teaching i s apt to see m strange and at times even pe r verse ,

i s to b e found in the analytical account o f the states o f

mind O f th e hal f —crazed criminal w h o cannot keep away
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from th e v ery O ffici al s w h o we re trying to get o n hi s track ,

and who cannot re frain from discussing the crime he i s

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t rying to hide As a study in mo rbid p sycholo gy C rime
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and Puni shment i s o n e o f the most amazingly convincing

and t er ri fying book s i n al l l iteratur e .

W A N . . .
C RI T I C ISM S AN D IN TE RP RETAT I ON S

BY E M I L E M E L C H I O R V I C O M TE
, DE VO GUE

H E subj ect i s v ery simple A man conceive s the idea .

o f committing a crime ; he matures it commits the ,

deed de fends himsel f fo r some time from being

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ar r ested and fi nally giv e s himsel f up to the expiation o f it

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F o r once thi s Ru s si an arti st has adopted the E uropean

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ide a o f unity o f action ; th e dram a purely psychological i s , ,

made u p o f th e combat b etween th e man and hi s o w n pro

j e c t Th e accesso ry C h ar acte rs and facts are o f no couse
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qu e n c e , except i n r e g ard to thi s i nfluence upon the

criminal s pl ans The fi rst part i n which are descri b ed the
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bi rth and g r t h o f the cr iminal idea i s written with con ,

summate ski ll and a t ruth and su b tlety o f analysi s b eyond

all prai s e Th e student Rasko lniko v a nihili st in the t ue
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s ense o f th e w o rd intell i gent u n p r in c l p ie d unscrupulous

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reduced to extreme pove rty dreams o f a happier condition

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O n r etu rning home from going to p awn a j ewel at an O ld

pawnb roke r s shop thi s vague thou ght cro sse s hi s b rain
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without h is attaching much impo rtance to it '

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An i ntel ligent man w h o had that O l d woman s money
could accomp lish anything he liked ; i t i s only necessary to
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get r id o f th e u seles s h ate ful old hag ,
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Thi s was but o n e o f tho se fleeting thoughts which c ro ss

the brain l ike a nightmar e and which only assume a di s
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tinct fo rm throu gh th e assent o f the will Thi s idea .

becomes fixed i n the man s b rain growing and increasin g

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o n ev ery p age u nti l he i s per fectly possessed b v it

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hard exp eri ence o f hi s outward li fe appears to him to

b e ar some r el ation to hi s proj ect ; and b y a mysteriou s powe r
o f re as o ning to work i nto his plan and u rge him on to the
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c rime . The infl u ence exercised upon thi s man is b rought

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out i nt o su ch di sti nct rel ie f that it s eems to u s its el f

l ik e a li ving acto r i n the dr ama gu iding th e cr iminal s,
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hand to th e mu rde rou s w eapon Th e ho rr ibl e deed i s

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accompli shed ; and the u n fo rtunat e m an w re stl e s w ith the

r eco llectio n o f it a s he did with th e O r i gi nal desi gn The .

r elati on s o f th e wo rld to the mu rdere r a re all changed ,

through th e i r repar abl e fact o f h is h aving suppr es sed a

human l i fe E ve rything takes o n a new phys iognomy and
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a n e w meaning to him excluding f ro m hi m th e p oss i b il ity

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o f feeling and reasoning l ike othe r p eople o r o f finding ,

h i s o w n plac e i n li fe Hi s who le sou l i s metamo rpho sed

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and i n constant di sco rd w ith the li fe a round him Th i s .

i s not remo rs e i n th e tru e s ens e o f the wo rd D o stoevsky .

exe rt s h im sel f to di stingu i sh and expl ai n th e di ffer ence H i s .

hero will fe el no r emo rs e u nti l the d ay O f exp i ation ; but

it i s a complex an d perv er s e feelin g which po ss esse s h im
the v exati on at hav ing d eriv ed no sati s factio n f r o m an
act s o su cces s fully car ri ed o u t ; the rev olting again st the
u nexp ected mo ral c o nsequ ence s o f that act ; the shame o f
finding hims el f so w eak and helpl es s ; f ounda ti o n
of Ra sk o l n ik o v s characte r i s p ride O nly o n e s ingle
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i ntere st i n li fe is l eft t o hi m : t o dece iv e and elud e the

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poli ce H e s eeks the i r company th ei r f ri endship by an

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attractio n analo gou s t o th at whi ch d raw s u s to th e extr eme

edge o f a di zzy p r ecipi ce ; the murde r er keeps up in t e rm i
nabl e i ntervi ews with h i s fri end s at th e pol ice o f fi ce and ,

eve n lead s o n th e co nv e rsation to that po int when a singl e ,

wo rd would betray hi m ; eve ry moment we fear he w il l

utte r th e w o rd ; bu t he e scape s and continu es th e ter rible
game a s i f i t we re a plea su re .

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Th e m agi strate Po rphyre has gue s s ed the student s secret ;
h e plays with hi m lik e a ti ge r w ith it s pr ey su re o f hi s ,

game .Then Rasko lniko v know s h e i s di scov e red ; and

through s ev e ral chapte rs a long fantasti c di alogue i s kept
up b etwe en th e two adv e rsari e s ; a double di alogu e th at O f ,

the lips which smi l e and w il fully i gno r e ; and that o f th e

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eye s which kno w and b etray all At l a w: when the autho r

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ha s tor tu red u s su ffici ently i n thi s way he i nt roduce s the ,

salu ta ry i nflu ence which i s to b re ak down the culprit s p rid e ’

and r ec o nci le him t o the exp iation o f his cri me Rasko lnikov .
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love s a po o r street walke r The author s clairvoyance

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div ine s that ev en the sentiment o f love w a s destined in

him to b e modifi ed like every othe r to be chan g ed into ,

a dull despai r .

S oni a i s a humbl e cre ature who has sold hersel f to ,

e scap e starv ation and i s almost unconsciou s o f her di s

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h ono r enduring it as a malady s h e cannot prevent S he

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w ear s he r igno miny as a cro ss with piou s resignation She , .

i s attached to th e only man w h o has not treated her with

contempt ; she s ee s that he i s to rtured b y some secret and ,

tri es to d raw i t from him A fter a long stru gg le the .

avowal i s made b u t not i n wo rds In a mute interview

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wh ich i s t ragi c in the extreme S oni a reads the terrible ,

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truth i n he r fr iend s eye s The poor gi rl i s stunned fo r a .

moment but recov er s her sel f quickly

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She knows the .

remedy ; he r stri cken heart cri e s o u t :

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We mu st su ffe r and su ffer to gethe r
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w e mu st pray

and atone ; l et u s go to prison !

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Thu s ar e w e l ed back to D o stoevsky s favo rite idea to ,

th e Ru ssian s fundamental conception o f C hri stianity : th e

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e fficacy o f atonement o f su ffering and its b eing the o n l v

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solution o f al l di fficulti es .

To expr es s th e singul ar relati ons between these t w o

b eings that s o l e rrm pathetic b ond so fo reign to ever y
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preconceiv ed idea o f lov e we should make u se o f the ,

wo rd c o m pa s s io n i n the sense in which B ossuet u sed it :

t h e su ffe ri ng w ith and through another b ein g \ V h en .

Rasko lnikov fall s at the feet O f th e g i rl who suppo rts her

parents by her shame s h e the de spi sed o f all i s te rrified
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at hi s sel f abasement and begs him to ri se

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utte rs a phras e which expresse s th e com b ination o f all the

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books we are studying : It i s not only b e fo re thee that I
p ro strate mysel f b ut b e fore all su ffering humanity Let .

u s he r e observ e that o u r author h a s neve r yet once

succeeded i n r epresenting love i n any form apart from these
subtleti e s o r th e s imple natu ral attraction O f two hearts
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tow ard e ach other He portrays only extreme cases ;

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eithe r that mysti c state o f sympathy and sel f sa c r ifi c e fo r -

a distre ssed fellow creature o f utter devotion apart from

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any selfi sh desi re ; o r the mad be stial cruelty o f a perverted ,

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na t u re Th e l ov er s h e rep resents a re not made o f fl e sh

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and blo od but o f n e rv e s and te ars Yet thi s r eal i st ev oke s

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o nl y h arrowing th o u gh ts n eve r di sagr eeable im a g es

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de fy any o n e to quote a si n g l e line su ggestiv e O f anything

sensu al o r a singl e instance whe re the woman i s repre sented
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i n the l ight O f a t empt re ss H is lov e scenes are ab solutely

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chaste and yet h e s eem s to b e in cap abl e o f po rtr aying

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any cre atio n b etween an angel and a b eas t — F ro m

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D osto evsky i n Th e Ru ssi an N ov eli sts ” t ranslated by ,

J L Ed m a n d s
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BY K A Z I M I E R Z W A L IS Z EW S K I
A S K O L N IK O V , th e s t udent w h o cl aim s t h e right to
mu rde r and ste al by v irtu e O f hi s i ll appl ied sci entific -

theo ri e s i s not a fi gu re th e inv ention o f which can

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b e cl ai med by the Rus si an nov el i st I t i s p robab le that .

b e fo r e o r a fte r r eadi ng th e wo rks o f V i cto r H u g o ,

D o st o ev sky h ad p eru sed tho s e O f B ulwe r Lytton E u gene .

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A ram th e E ngli sh nov el i st s h er o i s a cr imi nal O f a v e ry
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d i ffer ent o rde r and o f a sup eri o r sp eci es Wh en he commit s

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hi s crime h e not only think s like Raskolniko v o f a rapid

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m ean s O f attainin g fortune bu t als o and mo re n o b l y o f a

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great and sol emn s acr ific e t o sci enc e o f wh i ch h e feels ,

himsel f to b e th e h igh p rie st Like Raskolnikov h e d raw s .

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no b enefi t from hi s bo oty Like h im to o h e hid es it and

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l ike hi m h e is pu rsu ed no t b y r emo r s e but by r egret

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h aunted by th e pain fu l thou gh t that men now h av e th e

adv antage ov e r him and th at h e no lo nge r stands abov e
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thei r cu rio sity and th ei r spite— to rtu red by h i s consci o u s

ne s s o f th e total change i n h i s r el ations with t he wo rld .

In b oth cases th e subj ect and th e sto ry s av e fo r th e

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v o luntary exp i ati o n at th e cl os e appe ar i denti cal in thei r ,

es senti al lines Thi s fe atu re stands apart

. Yet p rop erly .
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speakin g it do e s not b elo n g to D o sto ev sky In T u rge n e v s
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Th e T av ern ( o s o a y D vo r ) th e p easant Akime
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who m hi s w i f e has dr iven into cr im e pun ishe s himsel f by ,

goin g out t o beg in all gentleness and humbl e submi ssio n

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S om e studen t s indeed hav e chosen to trans form both sub

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j cet and character and hav e looked on Raskolnikov as a

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po liti cal c rimi nal di sgui sed a fter the same fashion as
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D o sto ev sky h ims el f may h ave b een in hi s M emories o f
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th e Hou s e o f the D e ad B ut thi s v ersion appears to me

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t o ari s e o u t o f another e rro r A few days be fo re the b o ok

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appe ared a crime almost identical with that r elated in it

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and com m itted unde r th e appar ent influence o f N ihilist

te a c h ing though w ithout any mixture o f the politi cal ele
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m ent took pl ace at S t P etersburg These doctrine s as

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p erso nified by Tu rgenev i n Ba z a ro v are in fact general , , ,

i n thei r s cope . They contain the g erms o f every o rde r

o f criminal attempt whether public o r private ; and
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D ostoevsky s great merit l ies i n the fact that he has dem

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o n st ra t e d the likel ihoo d that the development o f this ge rm

i n o n e sol itary i ntelligence m ay foster a social malady In .

the domai n o f so ci al p sychology and patholo gy the great ,

nov eli st owe s noth ing t o anybody ; and his powers in thi s
di recti o n s u fli c e to compensat e fo r such imper fections as
I shall hav e to indicate i n hi s wo rk
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The fi rst cau s e i n t hi s book psychologically speaking , ,

i s that indiv idu al i sm which the S lavophil S chool ha s

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cho sen to e rect into a p rinciple o f the national li fe an
u nb ou nded selfi shness i n oth er wo rds which when crossed
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by ci rcumstance s takes re fuge in violent and monstrou s

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r eaction And inde ed Raskolnikov l ike B a z a ro v i s s o full

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O f contradictions some o f them gro ssly impro b a b le that

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o n e i s almo st dr iv en to inqui re whether the autho r has

no t intended to depict a condition o f m adn e ss We see thi s

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s elfish b eing spending h is l gs t c o in s to bury M a r m e l a d o v

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a drunkard picked up in the street whom he had seen for ,

the fi rst time in hi s l i fe only a few hours previously .

F ro m thi s point o f v i ew E u gene Aram has mo re psycho

l o gi cal consi stency and a great deal mo re moral di gn i ty
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Raskol nikov i s nothing but a poo r hal f crazed creature so ft -

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i n temp er ament con fused in i ntell ect w h o carries a b out

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a bi g ide a i n a head that i s to o small to hold i t He .

becomes awar e o f thi s a fter he has committed hi s cr i me ,

when he i s h aunted by hallucinations and wild ter ro rs wh i ch ,

co nv inc e hi m th a t hi s pretension t o rank as a man o f power

x ii C R IT I C IS M S AND I N T E RPR E TA T I O N S

w as nothin g but a d ream The n th e rul ing idea w hich .

has lu r ed him to mu rde r and to the ft giv e s pl ace t o

anothe r that o f con fe ssin g hi s c rime And ev en her e h is
—
.

cou rage and f rankne s s fai l him ; h e cannot run a strai ght
cou r s e and a fte r wande rin g round and rou nd the pol ice
, ,

station h e car ri e s hi s con fession to S oni a

, .

Thi s figu r e o f S oni a i s a v e ry o rdinary Ru ss i an typ e ,

and strangely chos en fo r the pu rpo s e o f te ach ing Rask o l

miko v th e v i rtu e o f exp iati on S h e i s a woman O f th e town .
,

chaste in mind though not i n deed and i s r edeemed by ,

one r eally o ri ginal fe atu r e her ab so lut e humi lity I t may , .

be i nqui red whethe r thi s el ement o f mo r al r edempti on i n ,

s o far a s it di ffe rs from tho se which s o constantly o ccu r

“
t o the imaginati on o f th e autho r o f M ano n Lescaut and ”
,
’
to that o f all D o sto ev sky s l iter ary fo re runners i s mo re ,

truth ful th an the r est and whethe r i t mu st not b e admitted

,

that ce rtai n mo ral like ce rtai n physi cal conditi ons nece ssarily
, ,

r esu lt i n an o rganic and qu ite i ncu rabl e d efo rmation o f

characte r S oni a i s like an angel w h o roll s i n the gu tte r
.

every ni ght and wh iten s he r w ings e ach mo rning by

p eru sing the H oly Go spel s We may j u st a s w el l fancy that .

a coal b eav e r could strai ght e n th e b ack b owed by th e

-

wei ght o f countl es s s acks o f charco al by p racti sing S wedi sh

gymnastics !
’
Th e auth o r s power o f evo cation and h i s gi ft fo r a n a l ys ,

in g feel ing and the imp res sions wh i ch p r o duce it are v ery
, ,

gre at and the e ffect s o f te rro r and c o mp as sion h e obtain s

,

c ann o t b e deni ed Yet wh ethe r from the arti sti c o r from

.
,

the s ci entific p oi nt O f v i ew ( si nce som e o f hi s admi rer s

i nsi st o n thi s l ast ) hi s method i s O pen t o nume rou s O b j e c
,

t ion s I t c o ns i sts i n rep ro du cing o r v e ry nearly th e c o n

.
, ,

d it io n s o f o rdina ry l i fe whe reby w e gain acqu aintance w ith

a particul ar characte r Th ere fo re with o ut t aking th e
.
,

trou ble o f telling u s who Raskol ni ko v is and i n what hi s ,

qu alitie s consi st the sto ry rel at e s a thou sand l ittl e incident s

,

out o f which th e p er sonal indiv idu al ity o f th e her o i s

gradually evo lved And as th e s e i ncidents do n o t n e c e s
.

s a r il y p re sent thems elv es i n r e al l i fe i n any logi cal sequence

, , ,

beginning w ith the mo st i nst ructiv e o f the s eri es th e ,

n o v eli st d o es n o t attempt t o f o ll o w any su ch cou rse A s _

.
e arly as o n the s econd page o f the book w e learn that ,

Rask o lnikov i s making up hi s mind to mu rde r an o l d

w o man wh o lends o u t money and it i s only at the clo se ,

o f the vo lume that we become aware o f the additional fact

that h e ha s pu b lished a rev iew article in which he has ,

endeavou r ed to s e t fo rth a theo ry j usti fying thi s hideou s

design — F r om A H i story o f Russi an Literatu re ”

H E n o vel s of
D o stoevsky may seem to di scover a
v ery strange world t o us in which people talk ,

and act like no o ne that w e have ever met Y e t w e .

d o not re ad them becau se we want to hear about these

'

strange Ru s si an people s o u nl ike ourselves

, Rather w e .

read them b ecau se they remind u s o f what we had for

gotten about ou rselves as a scent may suddenly remin d
,

u s o f some place o r scene not r emem b ered since childhood .

And as we have no doubt a b out the truth o f the memorie s

r ecalled by a scent s o w e have none a b out D ostoevsky s
,
’

truth .

I t i s strange l ike those memori es o f childhood but

, ,

only becau s e i t has been s o long sleepin g i n ou r minds .

H e has no need to p rov e it and he neve r tri es to do s o ;

,

he o nly pre s ents i t for ou r recognition ; and w e recognize

it at once how eve r contrary it may b e to all that we are
,

accu stomed to b elieve about ourselves .

Th e strangene s s o f D o stoevsky s novel s lies in his method ’

,

which i s unlike that o f other novelists b ecau se his interest

i s di fferent from thei rs Th e novel o f pure plot i s all co n
.

cerned w ith su cces s o r fai lure The hero has some definite
.

task to p er fo rm and we read to discove r whether he s u c

,

ceed s i n per fo rming it B ut even in novels w he re

.

char acte r i s mo re considered i t i s still the interest o f failu re

and success which u sually make s the plot Th e hero fo r .
,

i nstance fall s i n love and the plot forms round this love
,

i ntere st ; o r he i s marr ied and the re i s a suspense a b out

,

hi s happi ne ss o r unhappi ness But in the greate st o f

”
.

“
D o sto ev sky s books such a s The B rothers K aramazov o r
’

,
x iv C R IT IC IS M S AND I N T E RP R E TA TI ON S

The Id iot th e inte re st i s not ev en i n the happiness o r

,

u nhappine s s o f th e h e ro ; fo r to D o sto ev sky h appines s and

u nhappi nes s s eem to b e exte rn al thi ngs and h e i s not c o n ,

ce rned ev en w ith thi s kind O f fai lur e o r su cce ss He h as .

such a fi rm b e l ie f in the exi stence o f the soul and w ith

.
,

i t a faith so stron g i n the o rde r o f th e u n iv er se that h e ,

appli e s no final te sts whateve r to h i s l i fe Plo t wi th mo st .

nov eli st s i s an e ff o rt to m ake l i f e s eem m o re

than i t really i s ; and that i s one o f the r easo ns why w e
l ike a fi rm plot i n a novel With it s t est s and j udgment s
.

and results i t p rodu ce s an i llu sio n o f certainty agree abl e t o

ou r w eakne s s o f faith B ut D o sto ev sky n eeds no il lu si on
.

o f certainty and gi ves none He had a faith independent

,
.

o f happines s and ev en o f the state o f hi s o w n s o ul Li fe .

inde ed had pou red u nh appines s upo n h im s o that h e knew ,

th e w o r st o f it f ro m h i s own expe ri ence ; ye t we c a n t el l

fro m hi s books that h e kn ew al so a p eace o f tho u ght c o m
pared with which all hi s o w n m i se ri e s we re unre al to him .

In that h e di ffe r s from Tol stoy w h o s a w thi s peace o f ,

w

thought i n th e di stance a nd cou ld not r e ach it Tolstoy .

th ere fo r e conceiv ed o f li fe a s an i nev itabl e di sco rd b etween

w ill and conv i ction an d t ri ed t o i mpo s e th e impo ssibl e o n
,

m ankind as he tri ed to impo se i t upon h im sel f j udging th e m ,

with th e s ev e ri ty o f hi s s el f j udgment s -
H is books are .

ful l o f hi s o w n pu rsu i t o f ce rtainty and h i s own hal f

failu r e and h al f su cce s s
-
H e still make s h app ines s th e
.

te st ev en th ough h e feel s th at th e nobl est o f m en c annot

,

attai n to it ; fo r hi s o w n h appine ss w a s cau sed by th e c o n

fl ic t i n hi s mind b etw een w i ll and co nvi ction B ut i n .

D o sto ev sky thi s confl ict had ce ased H e was n o t h appy .

,

but h e w a s not t o rn by th e de si r e fo r happ ines s ; no r

di d he t est h i s o w n sou l o r th e soul s o f o th er s by thei r
h appi nes s o r unhappine ss Hi s faith in the s o u l w as s o gre a t
.

that h e s a w it independ ent o f ci rcumst ance and al most i nde ,

pendent o f its o w n m an i festati o n i n acti on F o r in the se .

m ani fe stati o ns ther e i s always th e alloy o f ci rcumstance o r ,

th e p as sion s o f the fl esh o r o f goo d o r ev i l fo rtu ne ; and h e

,

tri ed to s e e th e soul f re e o f thi s He di d not j udge m en by

.

thei r d iv e rsiti es wh ich outward things s eemed to impo se o n

them F o r h im the s o ul itse l f was mo r e r eal than all thes e
.
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clumsy i t is o nly becau s e D osto ev sky i s impati ent t o tel l

u s what h e has to tell .

Tho se w h o bel i eve that the sou l i s o nly an i llu sion

and th e re are many w h o bel i ev e thi s w ithout knowing it
— wi ll b e su rp ri s ed to find how much truth D o sto ev sky has

di scov e red th rou gh hi s e rro r Whethe r hi s faith was r ight

.

o r w rong i t certainly s erved hi m w ell a s a nov eli st and

, ,

s o di d hi s exp e ri ence N o mo dern w rite r has b een s o we ll

.

acqu ainted w ith e vi l and mi s ery a s he was O the r nov el i sts .

w rite about them as mov ing exceptio ns in li fe ; he w rote

ab o ut th em becau s e i n hi s exp e ri ence th ey we re the rule
, .

O the r nov e li sts h av e a quar rel with l i fe o r w ith soci ety ,

o r w ith p a rticul ar instituti on s ; but h e h as no qu ar rel with

anything . The re is nei the r hatred i n him no r r i ghteou s ,

indi gnati o n no r d esp ai r

,
H e h ad su ffered f rom gov e rn
.

ment a s much a s any m an i n the wo rld yet h e neve r s a w ,

i t a s a h ideou s ab st racti o n and i ts cr imes and e r ro rs

,

we r e fo r hi m o nly the cr ime s and e rro rs o f men like

himsel f .

W e hate m e n when th ey s eem no longe r men to u s when ,

w e s e e nothing i n them but tendencie s wh ich w e abhor ;

and a nov el i st who exp re s se s h i s h at re d o f tendenci e s in
hi s ch aracte rs d ep riv e s them o f l i f e and make s them u nin
t e re s t in g to all except tho s e w h o sh are hi s h atred E ven .

Tol stoy make s some o f h is ch aracter s li fele ss through

hatred ; b ut D o sto ev sky h ates no o n e , fo r beh ind ev ery
tendency h e lo ok s fo r the soul and the tendency o nly ,

i nte rest s hi m b ecau s e o f th e soul that is conce al ed o r

betrayed by it Thu s h i s wi cked p eopl e and they ab ound
.
, ,

a re nev e r i ntroduced i nto h i s books e ithe r to grati fy hi s

h atred o f them o r to m ake a p lot w ith thei r w ickedness .

He i s a s mu ch co ncerned w ith the i r soul s a s with th e

soul s o f h i s sai nts Alyo sh a and P rinc e M yshkin
,
Iago .

s eem s t o b e d rawn fro m l i fe but o nly f rom exte rnal ,

ob se rv ati o n We nev e r feel that S hake spe are h as b een

.

I ago him sel f o r h as deduce d hi m f ro m p os sib i liti e s i n h im

,
’
sel f B ut D osto ev sky s wo rst ch ar acte rs ar e l ike H aml et
. .

H e kn o w s things about them that he cou ld only know about

himsel f and th ey l iv e th rou gh hi s sympathy not m erely
, ,

throu gh hi s o b s e rvati on H e m ake s no divi sio n o f men into

.
 C R ITIC IS M S AND I N T E RPR E TA T ION S

sheep and go ats— n o t even that subtle divi sion common ,

in the b e st novels by which th e shee p are more real than

,

th e go ats . F o r him all men hav e more likeness to each

othe r than u nlikene ss fo r they all hav e soul s ; and b ecause
,

h e is always aware o f the soul in them he has a Chri sti an

s ense o f thei r equ ality I t i s not merely ri ch and poor o r
.

cleve r o r st u pi d that are equ al to him but even g ood and ,

b ad H e tr eats th e drunkard L e b e dye v with respect and

.
,

though hi s books contain other characters as a b surd as any

i n D i ckens h e does no t introduce them like D ickens to
, , ,

mak e fu n o f them but only b ecause he i s interested i n

,

the manne r i n which thei r absurdities mistranslate them .

No r i s th e sou l made di fferent for him by s e x fo r that ,

i s o nly a d i fference o f the body ; and so he does not insi st

o n femininity i n hi s women H e knows women but he .
,

knows them a s human beings like men ; and he i s inte rested

i n sexual facts not as they a ffect hi s o w n passions but
a s they a ffect th e soul H e like hi s hero M yshkin w a s
.
, , ,

an epilepti c and what he tells u s o f M ysh k in s attitude

’

towards women may hav e b een true o f himsel f But i f .

that i s s o hi s o w n lack o f appetite like the deafness o f

, ,

B eetho ven made hi s art more pro found and spiritual H e

,
.

makes no appeal to th e passions o f h is reader s as Beet h oven ,

in hi s l ater wo rks makes none to the mere sense o f sound .

Indeed h e was an artist pu rified b y su ffering as saints

,

ar e purifi ed by it ; fo r through i t he attained to that com

p l e t e di sinter estednes s which i s as necessary to the arti st
as to th e saint Whenev er a man s ees peopl e and things
.

i n r el ation only to hi s own personal wants and appetite s

h e cannot u s e them a s subj ect matte r fo r art D o stoev sky .

l earnt to f ree ev erything and every b ody from thi s relation

mo r e completely p erhaps than any w riter known to u s
, ,
.

N o t e ven v anity o r fear no r any theory b e gotten o f them

,
,

perverted his v i ew o f human l i fe I n hi s art at any rate .

he achi eved that complete li b eration which i s aimed at b y

the wi sdom o f the E ast ; and hi s heroe s exhi b it that li b era
tio n in thei r conduct M yshkin would b e a man o f no
.

account i n ou r wo rld but C hri st might have chosen him

,

fo r o ne o f H is Apo stle s Any Western noveli st d ra w in g

. ,

such a character would hav e m ade him unreal b y insisting

,
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u pon h is go o dnes s and by d i sp l aying i t o nly i n e x t e r na l

acti o ns a s S ai nts i n m o st E u ropean p ictu re s are t o be
,

r ecogni z ed o nly b y a h al o and a l ook o f s i lly sancti ty W e .

fai l with s u ch char a c te rs b eca u se w e sh ou ld n o t reco gniz e

th em i f w e m et them in r eal l i f e and b eca u s e w e d o no t ,

ev en w ant to b e l ike the m ou rs elv es Th ey r epr esen t an .

ideal impo sed o n u s lon g ag o fr o m th e Eas t and n ow onl y ,

fai ntly and conve nti onally re memb e red We t est ev ery .

bo dy by so m e k in d o f su cce ss i n t hi s l i f e ev en i f i t b e ,

o nly th e succe s s o f a j u st s el f -s ati s factio n Bu t M yshki n .

ha s n o t ev en that He is u nc o nsciou s o f h is o w n go o dne ss

.
. ,

and ev en o f th e b adnes s o f o th er m e n P eopl e wh o m eet

”
.

“
hi m ar e i mpati e nt wi t h him and ca l l h i m t h e i diot ,

b ecaus e h e s eem s t o b e p u rp o se l ess and d e fe n cele s s But .

w e do n o t feel that th e nov eli st h as a ffl icted the m w ith

i ncr edibl e b lindne ss f or we kno w as w e r ead t ha t w e to o
, , ,

should cal l M ysh ki n an i dio t if w e m e t h im I ndeed h is .

u nder s tandin g ha s n ev e r b een t r ain ed by com

,

p eti t i o n o r
de fence ; but th at i s the r e as o n why no w and then it s u r
p r i se s eve ry o n e by its p ro fundity Fo r he u nde rstand s .

m en s m inds j u st b ecau s e l ike Do st o ev sky hi msel f he d o es

’

, ,

not s e e t hem i n r el a t ion t o hi s o w n wants and b e cau se his ,

di sinte reste dnes s make s th e m pu t O ff a l l disgu ise be fo re

them .

“ “ ’
D ea r P ri nce som e o n e says t o him i t s no t e asy t o
, ,

r each Para di se on e arth ; b u t yo u r ec ko n o n findi n g i t .

P aradi se i s a di ffi cul t m atte r Pr inc e— m uch mo re d i ffi cu l t

”
,

Bu t Mys hk in s h ea rt i s
’
t han i t s eem s t o you r go o d h e art .

n o t goo d b ecau s e i t cheri s he s i ll u si o ns He do e s n o t expe ct .

to fi nd Par adi se o n e a r th and h e d o e s not li ke p eopl e

,

b ecau se h e thinks them b e t te r t han they ar e S eeing v e ry .

cl early what they a r e h e like s ev en th e w o r s t o f the m in

,
’
spite o f it ; and t o r ead D o st o ev sky s b oo ks th r ows u s fo r
th e time i nto M ys hk in s state o f mind When w e a r e c o n
’
.

f ronted with some fe a r f u l w ickednes s ev e n when w e re ad ,

about i t i n th e n ewspape r s i t shake s o u r faith in l ife an d

,

make s i t s eem l ike a ni gh t m a r e i n w hich o rdin ary co m

fo r t a b l e r eality h as suddenly turned i nt o an i nexpli cabl e
’
ho rro r B ut i n D o s to ev s ky s bo ok s th e ho rro r o f t h e night
.

mar e suddenly tu rn s to a happy fa m ilia r b ea u ty He sh o ws .

 C R IT I C I S M S AND I N T E RPR E TAT ION S xix

us wickedness wor se than any w e had ever imagined ,

wickednes s which i f w e met with it in real li fe would ,

make u s b eli ev e i n human monsters without souls ; and

then like a melody r i sing through the discord o f madness
,
,

h e shows u s the soul j ust like o u r own behi nd that wicked

,

ness And w e be li ev e in the one as we have b elieved in

.

th e othe r ; fo r we feel that a man i s tell ing u s about l i fe

w h o ha s ceas ed to fear it and that hi s faith tested b y all
, ,

the su ffe ring whi ch h e reveal s in hi s b ooks i s something ,

mo re to b e t ru sted than o u r o w n exper ienc e — F rom the

“ ”
London Time s ( 1 9 1 3 )

IV
BY M A U RI CE B A RI N C
N 1 8 66
cam e C rime and Punishment which brou ght ,
” “
D o sto evsky fame T hi s book D o stoev sky s M ac b eth
.
,
’
,

i s s o well known i n th e F rench and E n g lish t r a n s la

t on s that i t hardly needs any com m ent D o stoevsky never
i .

w rote anything mo re tremendou s than the portrayal o f

the angui sh that s eethe s i n the soul o f Raskolnikov a fter
”
,
“
h e ha s killed th e old woman mechanically forced
, as ,
“
P ro fesso r B r uckne r s ays i nto per forming the act as i f
, ,

h e had gone too nea r mach inery i n motion had been caught ,

by a bit o f hi s clothing and cut to piece s And no t onl y .

i s on e h el d sp el lbound by every shi ftin g h O p e fear and , ,

doubt and each n e w pang that Raskolnikov experiences

,
,

but the soul s o f al l the subsidiary characters in the b ook

ar e rev eal ed to u s j ust a s clearly ; the M a r m e l a do v family ,

the honest Ra z u m ih in the police inspector and the atmo s

, ,

ph e r e o f th e subme rged tenth i n S t Peters b urg the

—
.

steamin g smel l o f th e city in the summer There i s an .

epi sod e when Raskolnikov kneel s be fo re S oni a the prost i ,

“
tute and s ays to he r : It i s not be fore you I am kneeling ,
,
” T
but b e fo r e al l th e su ffering o f mankind hat i s what .

D o stoev sky doe s hims el f i n thi s and in all hi s b ooks : b ut

in none o f them i s the su ffering o f all mankind conj ured
u p b e fo re u s i n mo re living colou rs and i n none o f them
.

i s hi s act o f homage i n kneeling b e fore it mo re impressive .

— F rom
”
An O utli ne o f Russi an Li t erature
 LIST O F C HA RA CTE RS

ROD I O N RO M A N O V I T C H RA S K OL N I K V O , a t
s u den t .

PU L C H ER IA AL E! AN D R OV NA h is m o th e r , .

A V D OT YA RO M A N OV N A ( D O UN IA ) h is s i s t e r , .

D M IT R I P RO K O F I T C H RA Z U M I H I N h is fri e n d ,
.

P RA S K OV YA PA VL OV NA h i s l a n d l a d y , .

N A S TA S YA PE T R O V NA h e r m a i d s e rv a n t
,
—
.

A L Y O N A IVAN O V NA a n o l d w o m a n a p a w n b r o k e r
, , .

L I ZA V ETA h e r h a lf s is t e r
,
-
.

S E M Y O N ZA H A ROV I T C H MA R M EL A DOV a d r u n k e n c l erk , .

KAT E R I NA IVA N O V NA h is w ife , .

H e r t h re e l i t t l e c hi l d r e n .

S O NIA S E M Y O N OV N A M a r m el a d o v s d a u g h t e r
’
.
,

A M A L IA IVAN OV NA L I P PEV E C H S EL h is l a n d l a d y , .

A N D R E Y S E M Y O N OV I T C H L EBE Z IA T N I K O V a n a dv an c e d , yo u ng m a n
P Y OT R PE T R O V I TC H L U Z H I N s u i to r fo r D o u n i a,
.

A R KA D Y IV AN OV ITC H S V I DRI C A I L OV a l a n d o w n e r ,
.

MA R FA PE T R OV NA h is w i fe
, .

N I K OD I M F O M I T C H s u p e r i n t e n d e n t o f th e d i s tri c t
, ,

ZA M ET OV h e a d c l e r k
, ,

ILY A PE T R OV I TC H a s s i s t a n t c l e r k
, ,

P ORF I R Y PE T R O V ITC H d e t e c t i ve
"

, ,

Z O S S I M OV a y o u n g p h ys i c ia n
,
.
 C R IM E A N D PUN ISH M EN T
A NOV EL IN SI! PARTS AND
AN EPIL O GUE

PA RT I

C HAPT E R I

N an exceptionally ho t ev ening early in J uly a young

man came ou t o f the garret in which he lodged in S .

Pl ace and walked slowly a s though in hesitation to

, ,

w ards K b ridge. .

H e had success fully avoided meeting his landlady on the

stai rcas e H is gar ret was u nder th e roo f O f a high fi v e
.
,

stor ied hou s e and w a s mo re like a cup b oard than a room

, .

The landl ady who prov ided hi m with garret dinners and
, , ,

attendance l ived on the floo r below and every time he went

, ,

o u t h e was obl iged to pass her kitchen the doo r o f which ,

I nv ari ab ly stoo d op en And each time he passed the young

.
,

man had a s ick frightened feeling which made him scowl

, ,

and fe el ashamed H e w a s hopelessly in debt to hi s l and

.

l ady and w a s a fraid o f meeting her

, .

Thi s w a s not b ecau se h e w a s cowardly and a b j ect quite ,

th e cont rary ; but fo r som e tim e p ast he had b een in an ove r

strained irr ita b le condition verging o n hypochondria H e
, ,
.

‘
had b ecome s o comp letely a b so rbed i n himsel f and i sol ated ,

fro m hi s fellows that he dreaded meetin g not only hi s land ,

lady b ut any o n e at al l He was crushed b y poverty b ut

, .
,

th e anxi eti es o f hi s position had o f late ceased to weigh upon

h im H e had giv en u p attending to matters o f p ractical im
.

po rtance ; he had lost all desi re to do so N othing that any .

l andlady cou ld do had a re al terro r fo r him But to b e .

st o pp ed o n the s tai rs to b e fo rced to listen t o her trivial

,
.

I
2 F Y OD O R D O S T O EV S K Y

i rrel evant go s sip to p este ri ng demands fo r p ay m ent th reat s

, ,

and compl ai nts and to r ack hi s b rai ns fo r excu ses to p r e

, ,

v a r ic a t e to l i e— no r athe r th an th at h e wou ld c reep down

, , ,

the stai rs lik e a cat and s lip o u t u ns een .

Thi s ev ening how ev e r o n coming o ut int o th e street h e

, , ,

b ecam e acutely awa r e o f h i s fe ars .

“
I want to attempt a thing l ik e tha t and am f rightened by
thes e t r ifl e s ” h e thought w it h an o dd sm il e “
Hm .
, ,
’
ye s al l i s i n a m an s hands and h e l ets i t all sl ip from coward
,

i ce that s a n axio m It woul d b e int eresting to kno w wha t

,
’
.

it i s men ar e mo st a fraid o f Taking a new step utter ing a .

,

new wo rd i s what they fear mo st B ut I a m talking to o . .

mu ch I t s b ecau se I chatter that I do nothing O r p er

.
’
.

hap s it i s that I chatte r b ecau s e I d o nothing I v e learned .

’

to chatte r th is l ast month lying fo r days togethe r i n my den

,

thinking o f J ack th e Gi ant k il le r Why a m I go ing -

.

ther e now ? Am I cap ab l e o f th a t ? I s th a t se riou s ? I t i s

’
n o t s er iou s a t a ll It s simply a fant asy to amu s e mysel f ; a
.

p laything ! Yes m ayb e it i s a p l ayth ing

, .

Th e h eat in th e st reet was t er ribl e : and the ai rl essness the ,

hu s tl e and th e pl as t e r s ca ffolding b ri cks and du st al l ab ou t

, , ,

h i m and that sp e ci al P ete rsbu rg stench s o fami li ar to al l

, ,

w h o a r e un abl e t o get o u t o f t o wn i n summe r— all worked

p ain fu l ly up on th e y o u ng m an s al ready o v e rwr o ught ne rv es ’
.

Th e insu ffe rabl e stench from th e p o t hou ses whi ch ar e p ar -

,

t ic u l a r l y numerou s i n that p art o f the town and th e drunken ,

m en whom h e met conti nu ally althou gh i t w a s a wo rking ,

day c o mpl eted the r ev olting mis ery o f the pi ctu r e

, An .

exp r es sio n o f th e p ro fou ndest di sgu st gleam ed f o r a mo men t

i n th e you ng man s r efined f ace H e w a s by the way ex
’
.
, ,

c e p t io n a l ly handso me ab ov e th e av erage i n height sl im

, , ,

w ell b u i lt w ith b eauti fu l dark eyes and dark b rown hai r

-
, .

S oon h e s ank int o d eep thou ght o r mo r e accu rately sp eak ,

i ng int o a compl ete b l ankn es s o f m ind ; h e walked along not

o b s erving what was ab ou t h im and not car ing t o o b serve it .

F rom t im e to time h e wou l d mutter s ometh ing from the

, ,

h abi t o f talking t o hims el f to wh ich h e had j u st con fes sed , .

At th es e moments h e wou ld b ecom e consci ou s that h i s ideas

w er e s ometi mes i n a tangl e and th at he w a s v e ry w e ak ; f or
t w o days h e h ad s ca r cely t as t ed f oo d .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MENT 3

H e w as so b adly dres sed that even a man accu stomed to

shabbines s wou ld hav e been ashamed to b e seen in the street
in su ch rags I n that qu arter o f the town howeve r scarcely
.
, ,

any short c oming in dr es s wou ld have created su rprise

-
.

O wing to th e p roximity o f the H a y M arket the number o f ,

establ ishments o f b ad character the p reponderance o f the ,

t rading and wo rking cl as s population crowded in thes e streets

and alleys in the h eart o f Peters b ur g types s o variou s were ,

to b e seen in the streets that no figu re however quee r would , ,

hav e cau s ed su rp ri se B ut ther e was such accumul ated b it

.

t er mes s and contempt in the young man s heart that in spite ’

o f all th e fast idiou snes s o f youth he minded his rags least o f ,

all in the str eet It w a s a di fferent matter when he met with

.

acqu aintances o r with forme r fel low students whom indeed , , ,

h e disl iked m eeting at a n y time And yet when a drunken .

m an w ho fo r some u nknown reason was b eing taken some

, ,

whe re in a huge wago n dragged by a heavy dray horse s u d ,

“
d e n l y sho u ted at him as he drov e past : H e y there Germa n
”
,

h atte r ! b awl ing at the top o f his vo ice and po inting at h im “ :

th e y o ung man stopp ed suddenly and clutched tremulously at

’
h is h at It was a t all round hat from Z immerman s b ut
.
,

c o mpl etely wo rn o u t ru sty with age all torn and b espattered

, , ,

briml es s and b ent on o n e side in a most unseemly fashion .

No t shame howeve r but qu ite another feel ing akin to terro r

, ,

had ov ertaken him .

“
I knew it he muttered in con fu sion
,
I thought s o ! ,

Tha t s th e wo rst O f all ! Why a stupid thing l ike this th e

’
, ,

m o st triv i al det ail might spoil th e whole plan Yes my hat .

,

i s to o noticea b l e I t looks absu rd and that makes it

.

noti ceab l e .
With my rags I ought to wear a cap any ,

so rt o f o l d p ancake but not this grotesqu e thing N o b od y

,
.

wears su ch a hat it wou ld b e noticed a mil e o ff it would b e

, ,

r em emb ered ” Wh at matters i s that people would reme m

.

b er it and that would giv e them a clue Fo r thi s b usiness

,
.

o n e sh o ul d b e a s l ittl e consp icuou s a s possible Trifles . ,

Why it s j u st such t rifle s tha t

’
t rifl e s are what matte r ! ,

al ways ru in everything ”
H e h ad no t far t o go h e knew indeed how many steps i t ,

w a s fr o m th e gate o f his lodging hou se : exactly seven hun

H m h e h ad
ti re d a n d t hi rt y e had c ou nt
. e d t he o nce when
4 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

b een lo st i n dr eams At th e tim e h e had pu t no faith in

.

tho s e d reams and w as only t ant al i s ing h imsel f by the i r

h ideou s but dar ing r eckl es snes s N ow a month l at er h e had .
,

b egun to look upo n the m di ffe r ently and in spit e o f th e

,

, ,

m onologu es i n whi ch he j ee r ed at h is o w n impotence and

“
indecis ion h e had i nvo lu ntar ily co m e to r egard thi s h id eou s
,

dr eam as an explo it to b e attempted although h e still did ,

n o r r eal i s e thi s himsel f H e w as po sitiv ely goi ng now fo r a

.

“ ”
reh ear s al o f hi s p roj ect and at ev ery step hi s excitement
,

g r ew mo re and mo r e v i ol ent .

With a s inking h eart and a n ervou s tremo r h e we nt up to ,

a hu ge hou s e which o n o n e sid e looked o n to th e canal and ,

o n th e othe r into the str eet Thi s hou s e was l et out i n tiny
.

tenement s and w a s i nh ab ited by wo rking p eopl e o f al l

k inds— t ai lo rs lo cks miths cook s German s o f so rts gi rl s
, , , ,

p i cking u p a l iv ing a s b est they cou ld p etty cl erks 81 C , , .

Ther e w a s a continu al coming and going throu gh th e two

gat es and i n th e two cou rtyards o f th e hou s e Th re e o r fou r .

do o r —k eep er s we r e empl oye d o n th e bu ild ing Th e young .

man w as v ery gl ad to m eet none o f them and at once sl ipp ed ,

u nnoti ced through th e doo r on th e r ight and up the stai rcase ,

.

I t wa s a b ack stai rcas e d ark and narro w bu t h e w a s

, ,

famil i a r w ith it al ready and knew hi s w a y and h e liked al l

, ,

thes e su r rou ndings : i n su ch darknes s ev en th e most inqu i s i

tiv e eyes w er e not to b e d re aded .

“
I f I am s o s ca red n o w what w o ul d it b e i f it som ehow
,

came to p as s that I wer e r e al ly go ing to do it h e could not

help asking hims el f as h e r eached th e fou rth sto r ey Th er e .

hi s p rogres s w a s b ar red by som e po rt er s w h o w ere enga g ed

i n mov ing fu rnitu r e o u t o f a fl at H e knew th at the flat .

h ad b een o ccup i ed by a German cl erk i n th e civ il se rvi ce ,

and hi s family Thi s Ge rm an was mo ving out th en and s o

.
,

th e fou rth fl oo r on thi s stai rcas e wou ld b e u nt enanted except

by th e o l d woman “
.That s a goo d thing anyway ’ ” he ,
’
thought to hims el f as h e r ang th e b el l o f th e ol d woman s
,

fl at Th e b ell gav e a faint t inkl e as thou gh it wer e made o f

.

tin and not o f C opp e r Th e l ittl e flats i n su ch hou ses a l w a vs

.

h av e b ell s that r ing l ik e that H e had fo rgott en th e .

not e o f that b el l and now its p ecu l i ar t inkl e se em ed to r emind

,

hi m o f so m ething and to b ring i t cl early b e fo r e h im . o

 C R IM E A N D P UN I S H MENT
H e started hi s nerv es we re terribly ov erstrained by now In
, .

a l ittl e whil e th e doo r was op ened a tiny crack : the old

,

w oman eyed he r v i sito r w ith ev ident di strust through the

crack and nothing cou ld b e s een b ut her l ittle eyes glittering

,
,

i n the d arkness Bu t s eeing a num b er o f p eopl e o n the land

.
,

i ng s h e grew bolde r and op ened the doo r w ide T h e young

, , .

m an stepped into the dark entry which w a s partitioned o ff ,

from th e t iny kitchen The old woman stood facing him in .

s i l ence and looking inqui ringly at him She was a diminu .

a

tiv e w ither ed up o l d woman o f sixty with sharp mali g nant

, ,

eye s and a sharp littl e no se H e r colourless somewhat .

,

grizzl ed hai r w a s thi ckly smeared w ith o il and she wore no ,

ke rchi e f o v e r it Round her thin long neck which looked.

,
’
l ik e a hen s leg w a s knotted some sort o f flannel rag and in
, , ,

S p it e o f th e heat there hun g flapping on her shoulders a , ,

m an gy fu r cap e yel low with age The o l d woman cou ghed, .

and gro aned at ev ery instant The young man must hav e .

lo oked at he r with a rathe r p eculi ar exp ression fo r a gleam ,

o f mi st ru st came into he r eyes aga i n .

“
Raskol niko v a student I came her e a month ago the
, , ,

young m an m ad e haste to mutte r with a hal f b ow remem , ,

be ring that he ought to be mo re polite .

“
I remem b e r my good s ir I remembe r qu ite well you r
”
, ,

coming h ere th e old woman said distinctly stil l keeping

, ,

he r inqu i r ing eye s on hi s face .

“
And h er e I am again on the same errand Ra sk o l n i ,

k o v continu ed a l ittle disconcerted and su rp ri sed at the old

,

woman s mi stru st
’
Perhaps she i s always l ike that thou gh ,

”
.

o nly I d id no t noti ce it the other time he thought w ith an ,

u neasy feel ing .

The o l d woman p au sed as though hesitating ; then stepped ,

o n on e si de and po inting to the doo r o f the ro om she s a 1 d

,
, ,

l etting he r v i sito r p ass in front o f her :

“
S tep in my good s ir ” .
,

The l ittl e room into whi ch th e young man

yellow p ap e r o n th e wal ls geraniums and mu slin cu rta i ns m ,

the windows was b rightly l ighted up at that moment b y the

,

s etting s u n
”
.

h ! 1t
S o th e su n wil l shin e l ike thi s t e n too flashed a s
G

’
wer e by ch ance th rough Ra sk o l n iko v s mind and w i th 21 ,
6 F Y OD O R D O S T OE VS KY

r ap i d gl anc e h e scanned ev eryth ing i n th e ro om t rying a s ,

f a r a s po ss ibl e to noti ce and r ememb e r its arrangement .

B u t the r e w a s n o thing sp eci al i n the r o om T h e fu rnitu r e .

,

all ve ry o ld and o f yellow w o o d con si sted o f a so fa w ith a ,

hu ge b ent wooden b ack an o v al t ab l e i n f ront o f th e so fa a

, ,

d r es s ing tabl e w ith a lo ok ing gl as s fi xed o n i t b etwe en th e

- -

w i nd o ws chai r s al ong t h e wall s and two o r th ree hal f p enny

,
-

p ri nts i n yel l o w frames r ep r esenting Ge rman dams el s with

,

b i rds i n thei r hands— th at wa s al l I n th e co rn er a light was .

bu rning b e fo r e a s m all ik o n E ve ryth ing w a s very cl ean ; .

th e floo r and th e fu rnitu r e w ere b rightly p ol i shed ; ev erything

sh on e .

“ ’
L iz a v e ta s wo rk t h o u ght th e yo u ng m an The re w as no t
, .

a sp eck o f du st t o b e s een i n th e w hol e fl at .

“
I t s i n th e h o u s es o f sp ite ful o l d w idows th at on e fi nds
’

”
su ch cleanl ines s Rasko lnikov thought again and he stol e a
, ,

cu ri o u s gl anc e at th e c otto n c u rt ain o v er th e doo r leading

i nto anothe r t iny room in whi ch sto o d th e ol d woman s b ed
,
’

and ch est o f d r awer s and into whi ch he h ad n ev e r lo o ked

b e fo r e Th es e two r oo ms m ade up th e who l e fl at
. .

What d o y o u w ant ? ” th e O l d wom an sai d s ev er ely c o ming ,

into th e ro o m and a s b e f o re st anding i n f r o nt o f h im s o a s

, ,

t o lo ok h im straight i n th e face .

“ ’
I v e b r o u gh t s o mething to p awn h ere and h e d r ew ou t ,

o f hi s po cket an o l d fashioned fl at s il ve r w atch o n th e b a ck

-
,

o f wh i ch wa s engrav ed a gl o b e ; the chain w a s o f st eel .

“
B ut th e tim e i s up f o r you r l ast pl edge Th e month w as .

u p the d ay b e fo r e ye sterday ” .

“
I wil l b ring y ou the i ntere st fo r an o the r m o nth ; wai t a
l ittle .
”
B ut that s fo r m e t o d o as I p l eas e m y g oo d s ir t o w ai t
’

, ,

o r t o sell y o u r pl edge at once .

“
How much will y o u giv e m e fo r the watch A l yo n a I v a ,

? ”
n o vn a
“
You c o m e w ith su ch t r ifl e s my g oo d s ir it s s carcely , ,
’

w orth anything I gav e you tw o r oubl es l ast tim e fo r you r

.

r ing and o ne c o ul d buy i t qu ite new at a j ewel le r s fo r a ’

r oubl e and a h al f
” .

“
Giv e m e fou r roubl es fo r it I shal l r ed eem it i t was my
”
, ,

fa th e r s I shall b e getting so m e mo n ey s oo n
’
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8 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

Good bye— ar e you always at h o me al one y o u r s i s t er i s

-
,
”
not he re with you ? H e asked h er as casu ally as po s sibl e a s
h e w ent o u t i nto th e pas sage
”
.

What bu sines s i s s h e o f you rs my good si r ?

,

O h nothing p arti cu la r I si mply asked Y o u ar e to o

”
, , .

qu i ck . Goo d day A l yo n a I v an o vna

-
, .

Rask o lnikov w ent o ut i n compl et e con fu sion Thi s c o n .

fu s ion b ecame mor e and mo r e intens e A s h e w ent down .

the stai rs h e even stopp ed sho rt two o r th re e times a s

, , ,

though suddenly stru ck by som e thought When he was i n .

“
th e str eet h e cried out O h God how loath some it al l is ! , , ,

and can I can I p os sibly N o it s nonsense it s ru b

’ ’

”
, .
, ,

b i sh ! h e added r esolut ely And how cou ld su c h an atro .

c io u s thing come i n t o my head ? Wh at filthy th ings my

hea rt i s cap ab l e o f Yes fi lthy ab o v e al l di sgu sting l o ath
.
, , ,

so me lo athsom e — and fo r a whol e m o nth I v e b een

,
’
.

B ut no wo rds n o excl amati ons cou l d exp r es s hi s agitat ion

, ,
.

Th e feel ing o f int ens e r epu l sion whi ch had b egu n t o opp re s s ,

and to rtu re h is heart whil e h e w a s on h is w a y to s e e the o ld

woman h ad by no w reached su ch a p itch and h ad taken su ch
,

a definit e fo rm that h e did not know what to d o w ith him

s el f to es cap e from hi s w retch ednes s H e w alk ed along th e .

pav ement lik e a dru nken m an r egardl es s o f th e p ass ers —b y , ,

and j o stling against them and o nly came t o hi s s ens es when ,

h e was in th e n ext stre et Lo oking rou nd h e noticed tha t h e .

,

w a s standing cl os e t o a t av e rn whi ch wa s ente red by steps

l eading from th e p avement to th e b as ement At that instant .

two d runken men cam e o u t at the doo r and abu sing and ,

suppo rting o n e anothe r they mou nte d the steps Withou t

,
.

stopping to think R askol nikov went down th e step s at once

,
.

Ti ll that moment h e had neve r b een into a t av ern b ut now h e ,

felt giddy and w a s to rment ed by a b u rning thi rst H e longed .

fo r a d rink o f col d b ee r and attributed h is sudden weakne ss,

to th e w ant o f fo od He s at down at a sti cky littl e t able i n a

.

dark and di rty co rne r ; o rdered som e b ee r and e agerly ,

d rank o ff the fi rst gl as s fu l At o nce h e fel t eas i er ; and h i s .

t h o u ght s b ecam e cl ear .

“
All that s nonsens e h e s aid hop e fu lly and th er e i s noth
’

, ,

in g i n i t al l to wo rry ab out ! It s simply phys i cal de range ’

m ent J u st a gl as s o f b ee r a p ie ce o f d ry b read— and in

.
,

I— R
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MENT 9

o ne moment the b rai n i s stronge r the mind i s clearer and the ,

wil l i s fi rm ! Phew how utterly petty it all i s

,

B ut in spite o f thi s s co rn ful reflection he w a s by now look ,

in g cheer fu l a s though he were suddenly s e t free from a ter

r ibl e bu rden : and h e g a zed round in a friendly way at the -

p eopl e in th e room B ut even at that moment he had a dim

.

fo reboding that this happie r frame o f mind w a s also not

no rmal .

Ther e w ere few p eopl e at the t ime in the tavern B esides .

th e two dru nken m en he had met on the steps a group c o n ,

si sting o f a b out fiv e men and a girl with a concertina had

gone o u t at the same ti me T hei r departure left the room .

qu i et and rather empty The p ersons still in the tav ern were
.

a man w h o appeared to b e an artisan drunk b ut not ex , ,

t r e m e l y s o sitting b e fore a p ot o f beer and hi s companion

, , ,

a huge stout m an w ith a grey b eard in a short fu ll skirted

, ,
-

co at H e w as v ery dru nk : and had dropped asl eep on the

.

b ench ; ev ery now and then h e b egan as though in hi s sleep , ,

c racking h is fingers with h i s arms wide apart and the upper

,

part o f h is b ody b ounding about o n the b ench while h e ,

hu mmed s ome meaningl es s re frain trying to recall some ,

such lines as th es e :
“
H is w i fe a ye a r h e fo n d ly l o v e d
H is w ife a —a
ye a r li e— fo n d ly l o v e d .

Or suddenly w aking up again :

“
Wa l kin g a l o ng t h e c r o w d e d ro w
He m et the o n e h e u s ed to k n o w .

B ut no o n e sh are d h i s enj oyment : his silent companion

lo oked w ith po sitiv e ho stil ity and mistrust at all these mani
f e s t a t io n s Ther e was anothe r man in the room who looked
.

so mewhat l ike a r etir ed government cl erk H e w a s sitting .

apart now and then sipping from his pot and looking round
,

at the company He too a ppeared to b e in some ag i tat i on

.
, ,
.
 C HAP T E R I I

A S K O L N IK O V not u s ed to cr o wds and a s w e

w as , ,

s ai d b efo re h e avo ided so ciety o f eve ry s ort mo r e

, ,

p e c ia l l y o f late B ut now al l at o nce h e f elt a desi re

.

to b e w ith othe r p eopl e S omethi ng new s eemed to b e taking

.

pl ace withi n him and with it h e felt a so rt o f thi r st fo r com

,

p any H e was s o we ary a fte r a whol e month o f co ncentr ated

.

w retchednes s and gloomy excitem ent that h e longed to r est ,

i f o nly fo r a mom ent i n some othe r world wh atev er it m igh t

, ,

b e ; and i n spi t e o f the fi l t h in e s s o f the sur ro undi ngs he w as

, ,

glad now to stay i n th e tave rn .

The m aste r o f t he e stabl i shm ent w a s i n anothe r room bu t ,

h e f requ ently cam e dow n som e step s i nto the m ai n r oom ,

hi s j au nty ta rr ed boot s w ith r ed tu rn ov er tops coming i nto

,
-

v i ew each tim e b e fo r e th e r est o f hi s p er so n H e wo re a full .

coat and a ho rribly gr easy b l ack s ati n wai stco at with no ,

cravat and hi s whol e face s eem ed smeared w ith o il l ike an

,

i ro n lo ck At the cou nter stoo d a b oy o f a b out fourteen and

.
,

ther e wa s anothe r boy somewhat younge r w h o handed what

eve r w as wanted O n th e cou nter l ay some sl i ced cucumb er
.
,

som e pi ece s o f dri ed black b r ead and s ome fi sh chopped up , ,

sm all all smelling v ery b ad I t was i nsu ffera b ly clos e and s o

,
.
,

heavy w ith the fum es o f spi rits that fiv e m inutes i n such an

atmo spher e m ight wel l m ake a m an drunk .

Ther e ar e ch ance me etin g s w ith st range rs that i nter est u s

fro m th e fi rst mo ment b e fo r e a wo rd i s spok en Su ch w a s
, .

th e imp res s io n m ade o n Raskolnikov by th e perso n sitti ng a

l ittl e distance from him who look ed l ike a r eti red cl erk Th e
, .

you ng man o ften r ecal led hi s i mp r es sion a fte rwards and ,

even ascri b e d it to pre sentime nt H e l ooked r ep eatedly at .

the cl erk partly no doubt b ecau s e th e l atte r w a s stari ng p er

,

s is t e n t l y at h im O b vi ou sly anxious to enter i nto co nvers ation

,
.

At th e other p erso ns i n t n e room i ncluding th e tave rn keep e r

,
-
,

the cl erk looke d as thou gh h e w er e us ed to thei r comp any ,

a nd w eary o f i t sho w ing a shade o f co ndes cendi ng contempt

,

10
 C RIM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 11

with whom it would b e us eless fo r him to converse H e was .

a man o ve r fi fty b ald and grizzled o f medium hei g ht and

,

,
, ,

stoutly b uilt Hi s face b lo ated from continual dri nking was

.
, ,

o f a yellow even greeni sh tinge with swollen eyelids out o f

, , , ,

whi ch keen r eddi sh eyes gl eamed like little chi nks But there
, .

w a s som ethi ng very strange i n him there was a light i n hi s

;
eyes as though o f i ntens e feeling— perhaps there were even
thought and intelligence but at the same time the re was a ,

gleam o f something like madness H e w a s wearin g an o l d .

and hopel es sly ragged black dres s coat with all its b uttons ,

m i ss ing except o ne and that one he had b uttoned evidently

, ,

clinging to thi s l ast trace o f respe cta b ility A crumpled shirt .

front cov ere d with spots and stai ns protruded from hi s can
, ,

vas waistcoat Like a cl erk h e wo re no b eard nor mous

.
, ,
~

tache but had b een so lon g unshaven that hi s chin looked

,

like a sti ff greyi sh b ru sh And the re was somethin g respect .

abl e and like an o ffici al about hi s m anner too But he w a s .

restl es s ; he ru ffled up his hai r and from time to time let

h i s he ad drop into hi s hands dej ectedly resting hi s ra gged
elbows on the stained and sti cky tabl e At last he looked .

straight a t Raskol nikov and said loudly and resolutely : ,

“
M ay I ventu re honoured si r to en g age you i n polite c o n
, ,

versatio n ? F o rasmu ch as though you r exterio r would not ,

command r espect my experi ence admonishes me that you are

,

a m an o f education and not accustomed to drinking I have .

always r esp ected education when i n conj unction with gen

u in e sentiments and I am b esides a titular counsellor i n rank
, .

M a r m e l a d o v— such i s my name ; titul ar counsello r I make

”
.

ho l d t o inqu i r e have you been i n the se rvice

— ?
“ ”
N o I am studying answered the young man somewhat
, , ,

s u rp ri sed at th e grandiloquent styl e o f the speaker and also at

being s o di r ectly addressed In spite o f the momentary de .

s i re h e had j u st b een feel ing fo r company o f any sort on ,

b eing actu al ly spoke n to he felt immediately hi s hab itual i rri

ta b l e and u neasy aversion fo r any stranger who approached
o r attempted to app ro ach him .

“
A student then o r fo rm e r ly a student cried the clerk
, ,
.

Ju st what I thou g ht ! I m a man o f experience immense ’

,

e xp er ience s ir
,
and he tapp ed h is forehead w ith his fingers
,
12 FYO D O R D O S T OEVS KY
’
i n s el f approv al
-
Y o u ve b ee n a student o r hav e a tt ended
.

s om e le arned i nstituti o n ! B ut allow m e H e got

u p staggered took up hi s j ug and h i s glas s and s a t down
, , ,

b es ide th e yo ung m an faci ng him a littl e s ideways H e w a s , .

d ru nk but spoke flu ently and bol dly o nly o ccasio nally lo s ing
, ,

the thre ad o f hi s s entence s and d rawl i ng h i s wo rds He .

p ounced upon Raskolnikov a s gr eedi ly as th o ugh he to o

had not spok en to a soul f o r a mo nth
”
.

“
Ho n o u re d s ir he b egan almost w ith solemnity pove rty
, ,
’
i s not a vice that s a t ru e s ayi ng Yet I know to o that
, .

’
drunkenne s s i s not a vi rtu e and that that s ev en true r B ut , .

b eggary ho n o u re d s ir beggary i s a v i ce I n pov erty yo u

, , .

m ay sti ll r etai n your i nnat e nob i l ity o f soul but i n b eggary ,

n eve r— no o ne F o r b eggary a m an i s not chased out o f h u

.

m an so ci ety w ith a sti ck h e i s swept out w ith a b ro om s o , ,

as to m ak e it as hum i li ati ng as po ssi b le ; and qu it e r ight to o ,

fo rasmu ch a s i n beggary I am r eady to b e the first to h u

m il ia t e mys el f . H ence the pot hous e ! H on o u re d s ir a
.
,

m o nth ago M r Le b e z ia tn ik o v gav e my w i f e a b eating and

.
,

my w i fe i s a v e ry di ffe rent m atte r f rom m e ! D o yo u u n

d e r s t a n d ? Allo w m e to ask you anothe r qu esti o n o u t o f
s impl e cur i os ity : hav e you eve r sp ent a night o n a hay
”
b a rge o n the N eva ?
,
“
N o I h av e not h appened to answe red Rask o l niko v
”
.
, ,

What do you m ean ?

“ ’ ’ ’
Well I ve j u st com e from one and it s th e fi fth night I ve
sl ept s o H e fi l led hi s glas s empti ed it and p au sed , .

B its o f hay w e r e i n fact cli nging to hi s clothe s and sti cki ng

to hi s hai r I t s eem ed qu ite p robabl e that h e had not u n
.
.

d res sed o r w ashed fo r th e l ast fi ve d ays H i s hands p ar .

,

t icu l a r ly we re fi lthy ,
T hey we r e fat a nd r ed with bl ack
.
,

nai l s .

H is convers ation s eem ed to excite a general though l an

guid i nter est Th e b oys at the cou nte r fell to s niggering
. .

The i nnke epe r cam e down f rom the upp er r oom appa rently
”
,
“
o n pu rpo se to l i sten to the funny fel low and s a t down at
a l ittl e distance yawning lazily but w ith dignity E vi dently
, , .

M a r m e l a d o v wa s a fami li ar fi gu r e he r e and h e had m ost

l ikely acqui red hi s w eaknes s fo r high fl o w n speeches from -

t h e hab it o f f requently e ntering i nt o conver sati on with

 C R IM E A N D P UN IS H MENT 13

strangers o f all s orts i n the tavern T his habit develops .

i nt o a neces s ity i n some drunkards and especi ally i n those ,

wh o ar e l ooked a fte r sharply and kept i n order at home .

H ence i n the company o f other drinkers they try to j ustify

thems el ves and even i f poss i b l e o b tain cons ideration
”
.

“
F unny fellow ! p ronounced the inn ke eper “
And w h y .

’ ’
don t yo u wo rk why aren t you at your duty i f you ar e in
”
, ,

the s ervi ce ?
“
Why am I not at my duty honoured s ir M a rm e l a do v
, ,

went o n addressing himsel f exclus ively to Raskolnikov as

, ,

though it had b een he w h o put that question to him “

Why .

am I not at my duty ? D o es not my heart ache to think

wh at a u s ele s s wo rm I am ? A month ago when M r Le .

be z ia tn ik o v beat my wi fe w ith hi s o w n hands and I lay drunk , ,

’
didn t I su ffe r ? E xcus e m e young man has it ever happened
”
, ,

t o you hm well to p etition hop elessly for a loan ?

”
,
“
Yes it has B ut what do you mean by hopelessly
, .
?

H op ele ssly i n the full est sense when you know b e fore ,

hand that yo u w ill get nothing by it You know for in .

,

stance b e fo r ehand w ith positive certainty that this man thi s

, ,

most r eputa b l e and exemplary citizen will on no considera

“

tion gi ve you money ; and indeed I ask you why should he ?

F o r he knows o f cou rse that I shan t pay it b ack F rom
’
.

compass ion ? B ut M r Leb e z ia tn ik o v w h o keep s up with

.

m oder n ideas explained the othe r day that compass ion i s

’
fo rb idde n nowadays by science itsel f and that that s what i s ,

do ne now i n E ngland whe re there i s political economy

,
.

Why I ask you should h e give it to me ? And yet thou g h I

, ,

know b eforeh and that he won t I set o ff to him and ’

”
,
“
Why do you go ? put i n Raskolnikov .

Well when one has no one nowhere else one c a n go !

, ,

F o r eve ry m an mu st have somewhere to g o S ince there .

are time s when one a b solutely mu st go somewhere ! W h en

my o w n daughte r fi rst went o u t with a yellow ticket then ,

I had to go ( fo r my daughte r has a yellow

he added i n parenthesi s looking w ith a certain u n e a s m e s s
”
,

N o matte r s ir no matter ! he went

“
at the young man .
, ,

o n hu rri edly and w ith appar ent composu re when b oth the

boys at the cou nte r gu ffawed and even the innkeepe r .

smi led N o m atte r I am no t confounded b y the wagg i ng o f

,
14 F YODO R D OS TO EV S K Y

thei r heads ; fo r eve ry one knows eve rything about i t al r e ady ,

and all that i s se cret i s made O pen And I accept it all n ot .

w ith co ntempt b u t wi th humil ity S o b e i t ! S o b e it !

‘
.
,

B ehold the man ! E xcu s e me y o ung man can yo u

’
, , .

N o to put it mo re strongly and m o re di sti nctly ; not ca n yo u

”
,

but d a r e you l ooking upo n m e asse rt that I am not a p ig ?

, ,

The young m an did not answe r a wo rd

”
.

“
Well the o rato r b egan agai n stolidly and w ith eve n in
,

c re as ed dignity a fte r waiting fo r the laughter i n the r oom

,
“
to subs ide Well s o b e i t I am a p ig but s he i s a l ady ! I
.
, , ,

have th e s embl ance o f a b east but K ateri na Ivan o vna m y , ,

’
spou s e i s a p e rso n o f educat i o n and an o fficer s daughte r .

Granted granted I am a s cou ndrel but she i s a woman o f a

, , ,

n obl e heart ful l o f sentiments r efi ned by educati o n And

, ,
.

yet o h i f o nly s h e felt fo r m e !

, Honou re d si r honou red ,

s ir , you know every man ought to hav e at l east o ne pl ace

wh er e p eopl e f eel fo r him I! B ut K ate r ina I vanovna ,

th o ugh s h e i s magnanimou s s h e i s u n j us t And yet a l

, .
,

th o ugh I re ali s e that wh en s h e pulls my hai r s h e o nly do e s

it o u t o f p ity— fo r I r ep e at w ithout b eing asham ed she pul l s
”
,

my hai r young m an h e declare d w ith redoubl ed dignity

, , ,
“
hearing the s niggeri ng agai n— but my Go d i f sh e would , ,
’ ’
but o nce B ut no no ! I t s all i n vai n and i t s no u se
,

talki ng ! N 0 u s e talking ! F o r m or e than o nce my w is h did ,

com e tru e and mo r e than once s h e has felt fo r m e but

such i s my fat e and I am a b east by natu re
“ ”
Rathe r ! as s ente d the i nnkeep e r yawni ng M a rm e l a do v .

struck hi s fi s t r e solutely o n the tab le .

“
S uch i s my fate ! D o yo u know s ir do yo u k now I have , , ,

sol d h er ve ry sto ckings fo r dri nk ? N o t he r sho es— that

w ould b e mo re o r l es s i n the o rde r o f t hi ngs but he r sto ck ,

ings he r stockings I hav e sol d fo r dr ink ! He r mo hai r

,

shawl I so ld fo r d ri nk a pre sent to he r long ago he r o w n

, ,

p rope rty not m ine ; and w e li ve i n a cold room and s h e

,

caught co ld thi s w inte r and has b egun coughing and spitting

b loo d too We hav e thr e e l ittl e children and K ate rina
.

I vanovna i s at w o rk f ro m mo rni ng t ill night ; she i s s crub

’
b i ng and cleaning and w ashi ng the children fo r sh e s be en ,

u sed to cleanl ines s from a child B ut h er chest i s weak and .

s he h a s a tendency t o c o nsumpti o n and I feel it ! D o yo u

16 F Y OD O R D OS T O E VS KY

havi ng o nce b ee n happy And sh e w as l e f t at hi s .

d eath with thr ee chi ldren i n a w ild and r emot e di stri ct whe r e
I happ ened to b e at th e ti me ; and s h e was le ft i n such hop e
l es s pov erty th at although I h av e s ee n many up s and downs
,

o f all sort s I don t f eel equ al to d es cr i b ing i t ev en He r

’

, .

r el ati ons had all thrown he r o ff And s h e w a s proud to o .

, ,

exces sively p roud And then honou red s ir and then I , , , ,

b ei ng at the time a w idowe r with a daughte r o f fou rte en le ft ,

m e by my fi rst w i fe o ffe red her my hand fo r I c o u ld not , ,

bear the sight o f s uch su ffer ing Y o u can j udge the extrem .

i ty o f h er cal amiti es th at s h e a woman o f edu cation and , ,

cu ltu r e and di stingui shed family sh ould h av e cons ented t o ,

be my w i fe B ut s h e di d ! Weepi ng and sobbing and w ring

.

ing her h and s s h e mar r i e d m e ! F o r s h e had nowhe re to

,

tu r n ! D o y o u u nder stand s ir d o you under stand w hat it , ,

‘

m e ans wh en yo u h a v e ab so lutely nowher e t o turn ? N 0 that ,

’
you do n t u nde rstand yet And fo r a whol e ye ar I p er .
,

f o rmed my duti es co ns ci entio u sly and faith fully and di d not

”
,
“
to uch thi s ( he tapp e d th e j u g w ith hi s fi nger ) for I hav e ,

f eelings B u t ev en so I could not ple as e her ; and then I

.
,

lo st my pl ace too and th at th rou gh no fau lt o f mine bu t

,

thr o u gh change s i n th e o ffice ; and then I di d tou ch i t !

I t w il l b e a year and a hal f ago soo n s ince w e found o u r
s elve s at l ast a fte r m any wander ings and numerou s cal amiti e s
i n thi s m agni fi cen t capital ado rned with i nnumera b le mon u ,

m ent s H e r e to o I o btai ned a s itu atio n

. I obtained i t .

and I lo st i t again D o yo u und er stand ? Thi s time i t w a s

.

th rough my own fault I lo st i t : f o r my w eaknes s h ad c o me

out . We h av e n o w p art o f a room at Am al i a Ivanovna
L ip p e v e c h s e l s and what w e l iv e upo n and what w e p ay o u r
’

r ent w ith I c o uld not s a y Ther e ar e a l o t o f peopl e l iv ing

,
.

ther e b e sid e ou rs elv es D i rt and di so rder a p er fect B edl am .

,

hm ye s And m eanwhil e my d au ghter by my

.

fi r st wi fe ha s grown up ; and what my d aughter h as had t o

put up with fro m he r step —moth er whil st s h e w a s growi ng up ,

I wo n t spe ak o f F o r though K ateri na Ivanovna i s full o f

’
.
,

generou s f eelings s h e i s a spi rited l ady i rritable and short

, ,
’
temp er ed Ye s B ut it s no u s e going o v er that ! S oni a
'

. .
,

a s you m ay well f ancy h as had n o educatio n I did m ake an ,

.

e ffort f o u r ye ar s ago to giv e her a cou rs e o f geography and

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 17

u niver sal h i st o ry but a s I w a s not v ery well up in those sub

,

j e ct s mys el f and we had no suita b le books and what books ,

W é had hm any way w e have not even those now s o all

,
,

o u r i nstru ction came to an end We stopped at Cyru s o f .

P ersi a S ince s h e has attained year s o f maturity sh e has

.
,

re ad oth er books o f romanti c tendency and o f late sh e has

read w ith great inte re st a book she got throu g h M r Le b e .

’
z ia t n ik o v Lewes Physio lo gy— do you know it — and even
,

re counted extracts from it to u s : and that s the whol e o f her ’

edu cation And now m a y I ventur e to address you honou red

.
,

s ir, o n my o w n account with a priv ate question D o you .

suppo s e that a re spectabl e poo r gi rl can earn much by honest

work ? N o t fi fteen farthings a day can s h e earn i f s h e i s ,

re sp ectab le and has no speci al talent and that without putting

he r wo rk down fo r an instant ! And what s mo re Ivan ’
,

Iv a n itc h K lop stock the ci vi l counsellor— h ave you heard o f

h im — h as not to thi s day p aid her fo r the hal f dozen linen -

shirt s s h e made him and drov e her roughly away stamping ,

and revi ling he r o n the pretext that the shi rt coll ar s were
,

not made l ike the p attern and were put i n askew And there .

ar e th e littl e ones hungry And K aterina Ivanovna .

walking up and down and wringing her hands he r cheeks

flushed r ed a s they always are in that di sease : H ere you
‘ ,

,
‘ ’
liv e with u s says s h e yo u eat and drink and are kept warm
, ,
’
and you do nothing to help And much she gets to eat and .

drink when ther e i s not a cru st fo r the l ittle one s fo r three

days ! I was lyi ng at the time well what o f it ! I w a s ,

lying drunk and I heard my Soni a speaking ( she i s a gentle

cre atu r e with a s o ft little voi ce fai r hai r and such a
pal e thi n l ittle face ) ‘
S he s ai d : K aterina Ivanovna am I
.
,
,

re ally to do a thing like that ? And D arya F ra n t so v n a a

’
.

w o man o f ev i l characte r and ve ry well known to the pol ice ,

had two o r thr ee time s tried to get at her through the land
l ady ‘And w hy not ? said K aterina Ivanovna w ith a j ee r
’

‘
,
.

you are something mighty p reciou s to be s o care ful o f

’

But don t blam e her do n t blame her honou red si r don t

’
,
’
, ,

blame her ! S he w a s not her sel f when she spoke b ut driven ,

to di stractio n by he r illnes s and the cryin g o f the hun g r y

chi ldren ; and it was said mo re to wound her than anythin g
’
els e F o r that s K aterina Iv a n o v n a s character and
’
.
,
18 F Y ODO R DO S TO EV S KY

when children cry ev en from hunge r s h e fall s to beatin g

, ,
’
t hem at once At s ix o clo ck I s a w S oni a get up put o n he r
.
,

ke rchi e f and he r cap e and g o out o f th e ro om and a b out nin e

,
’
o clo ck sh e cam e b ack S he w alked straight up t o K aterin a
.

Iv anovna and she laid thi rty roubles o n the table b e fo re he r

i n s ilenc e S h e d id not utter a wo rd s h e did n o t even look
.
,

at her s h e si mply pi cked u p ou r bi g green d r ap d e d a m es

,

shawl ( we h av e a sh awl m ade o f dr ap d e d a m es ) put i t ove r

, ,

he r he ad and face and l ay down o n th e b ed with he r face to

th e w al l ; o nly h er little shou lder s and h er b o dy kept shudde r
i ng . And I w ent o n lying ther e j u st as b e f o re , .

And then I s a w young man I s a w K aterina Iv an o vn a i n

, , ,
’
th e sam e s ilence go up t o S oni a s l ittl e b ed ; she w as o n he r
knees al l th e ev ening ki ssing S o ni a s feet and woul d n o t get ’

,
’
up and th en t hey both fe l l a sl eep i n each o ther s arm s
”
,

t ogether to geth er , ye s and I lay d runk .

M a r m e l a d o v stopp ed sho rt as thou gh h i s vo ice h ad failed

,

h im Then h e hu rr i edly fill ed hi s glas s d rank and cleared

.
, ,

h i s th ro at .

“
S i nce then s ir he w ent o n a fte r a b ri e f p au s e
, , S ince
then owing t o an un fo rtunate o ccu rr ence and through in
,

f o rmati on given by ev i l -i ntentio ned p e rsons— in all which

D arya F r a n t so v n a t o ok a l eading p art o n th e pr etext th at
s h e h ad b een tr eated w ith want o f re spect — since then my
d au ghte r S o fya S e m yo n o v n a has b een fo rced t o take a yel
low ticket and o wing t o th at s h e i s unabl e to go o n l iving
,

w ith u s F o r o u r l andlady Am al i a I v a n o vn a w o uld not

.
,

h ear o f it ( though she had backed up D arya F r a n t s o v n a b e

fo re ) and M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v to o . hm Al l th e .

’
t roubl e b etween hi m and K ater in a Ivanovna w a s o n S oni a s
accou nt At fi rst he wa s fo r m aking up to S oni a h imsel f
‘
.

’
and then al l o f a sudden h e sto od o n hi s dignity : how said
‘
,

h e can a hi ghly educated m an l ike m e l iv e i n th e s ame

,

r o oms wi th a gi rl like th at ? And K ateri na I v anovna wou ld

’

’
not let i t p as s sh e sto od up fo r he r
,
and s o that s how
it happened And S oni a come s to u s n o w mo stly a fte r
. ,

d ark ; s h e com fort s K ater ina Iv anovn a and giv e s her all she
c an . S he h as a ro o m at th e K a p e r n au m o v s the tailo r s , ,

s h e lo dge s with them : K a p e r n a u m o v i s a l ame man with a

c le ft pal ate and al l o f h is nume rou s f amily h ave cl e ft pal ate s

 C R IME AND P UN I S H MEN T 19

t o o And hi s wi fe to o has a cleft palate They all live in

.
, , .

o ne room but S oni a has her own partitioned o ff

, Htu , .

ye s v ery poo r people and all with cleft palates

ye s Then I got up i n the mo rning put on my rags li fted up
.
, ,

m y h a n d s to heav en and s e t o ff to hi s excellency Ivan Afa

p

n a sye v it c h H is excellency Ivan A fa n a s ye v it c h do you know

.

him ? N o ? Well then it s a man o f God yo u don t know

’ ’
, , .

He is wax wax be fore the face o f the Lord ; even as

wax melteth ! H is eyes were dim when he heard my
sto ry
‘.M a rm el a d o v once already you have deceived my
,
’
expectations I ll take you once mo r e o n my o w n re
— ’ ‘ ’
sp o nsibility that s what he said remember he said and ‘ ’
, , ,
’
now you c a n go I ki ssed the dust at hi s feet— in thou ght
.

o nly fo r in reality he would not have allowed me to do it

, _ ,

being a stat esman and a man o f modern political and e n

lightened ideas I r etu r ned home and when I announced
.
,
’
that I d been taken back into the serv ice and should r eceive a
”
s alary heav ens what a to do ther e was
, ,
l -
.

M a rm e l a do v stopp ed again i n vio lent excitement At that .

mo ment a whole party o f reveller s already drunk came in

f rom the str eet and th e sounds o f a hired concertina and the
,

c racked p ipi ng v oice o f a child o f seven singing T h e

”
H amlet we r e heard i n the entry The room was filled with .

noise The tavern keeper and the b oys were b usy with the
.
-

new comer s M a rm e l a d o v paying no attention to the new

- .

arr iv al s continued hi s sto ry H e appeared b y now to b e .

extremely weak b ut a s he b ecame more and mo re drunk he

,
,

b ecame mo r e and mo re talkative The recollection o f hi s .

r ecent succes s in getting th e situation seemed to revive him ,

and was po sitively r eflected in a sort o f radiance on hi s face .

Raskolnikov li stened attent ively .

“
That wa s fiv e weeks ago s ir Yes As soon a s ,
. .

K ateri na Iv anovna and S oni a heard o f it mercy on u s it was , ,

a s though I stepped into the kingdom o f Heaven It u sed t o .

be : you can li e like a beast nothing b ut a b use N o w they

‘
.
,

w er e w alking o n tiptoe hushing the children ,

S e m vo n .

Za h a r o v it c h i s tir ed with hi s work at t h e o ffice he i s rest i ng , ,

shh They made me co ffee b e for e I went to work and b oiled

cream fo r m e ! They b egan to get real cream fo r me do ,

y o u he ar that ? And h o w the y managed to get t o gethe r the

20 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S K Y

mo ney f o r a decent o u t fi t— el ev en roubles fi fty copecks I , ,

’
can t gue s s B oot s cotto n shi rt front s mo st magni fi cent a
.
,
—
,

uni fo rm th ey got up all i n splendid style fo r eleven rouble s

, ,

and a hal f Th e fi r st mo rning I came b ack from th e o ffice

.

I found K a t er ina I v anovna had co o ked two cou r ses fo r d in

n e t — soup and s alt meat w ith ho r se r adi sh— which w e h ad

nev e r dre am ed o f ti ll then S he has not any dre s se s .

none at all but sh e got hersel f up a s though sh e w ere go ing

,
’
o n a v i sit ; and no t that she d anything t o do it w ith sh e ,

smartened hers el f u p with nothing at all she d do ne her hai r ,

’

ni cely put o n a cle an co llar o f some s ort cu ffs and th er e

, , ,

s h e w a s qu ite a di ffe rent pe r son s h e w a s younge r and b ette r

, ,

l ooki ng S oni a my l ittle darling had o nly help ed w ith

‘ ‘
.
, ,
’ ’
mo ney fo r the time s h e s aid it wo n t do f or m e to come , ,

a n d s e e you t o o o ften A fte r dark m ayb e when n o o n e can .

’
See . D o you he ar do you h ear ? I lay down for a nap ,

a fter dinne r and what do you think : though K ate rina I va

n o v n a h a d qu ar relled to the l ast degree with ou r l andlady

Amali a I vanovn a o nly a w eek b e fo re sh e could no t r e si st ,

then asking her i n to co ffee F o r two hou r s they we r e

‘
.

Sitting whi sper ing to gethe r S emyo n Z a h a ro v it ch i s i n th e

‘
.
,
’
s e rv i ce again now and receiv ing a s alary ,
s ays s h e and he
, , ,

went himse l f to hi s excellency and hi s excell ency himsel f

cam e o ut to him m ade all the other s w ait and l ed S emyo n
,
’
Z a h a ro v it c h by the hand b e fo r e ev erybody into hi s study
‘ ‘
.

’
D o y o u h ear do you r hear ? T o b e su r e says he S emyon
‘
, , ,
’
Z a h a r o v it c h r ememb ering you r past s erv i ces s ays h e and
, , ,

in spite o f you r propens ity to that fooli sh w eakn es s since ,

’

yo u pro mi s e now and s ince mo r eov e r w e v e got on b adly

’ ‘
w ithout y o u ( do you hear do you h ear ?) and s o s ays he ’

‘
, , , ,
’
I r ely no w o n you r wo rd as a gentlem an And all that let .
,

m e tell you she ha s simply m ade u p fo r her sel f and no t

, ,

simply o u t o f wantonnes s fo r th e sake o f b ragging ; no s h e ,

beli eve s it all her sel f s h e amus e s h er s el f with he r o w n ,

’
fanci es upon my wo rd s h e do es ! And I do n t blam e h er fo r
,

it no I don t bl ame her !

, , S ix d ays ago wh en I b rought
’

her my fi r st earn ings i n full — twenty th ree rouble s fo rty -

copecks altogether s h e called m e her poppet : popp et said —

‘ ’

‘
,
’
she ,
my little popp et And w hen w e wer e by o u rs elve s . ,

yo u u nde rstand ? Y o u w o uld n ot think me a b eau ty ,

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MENT 21

you w o uld n o t think muc h o f m e a s a husband would

yo u ? ,
‘
Well s h e pinched my cheek my little poppet
,
’
,

said s h e .

M arm e l a do v b r o ke o ff tri ed to smi le but suddenly hi s chin

, ,

began t o twitch He controlled himsel f however

. The .

tavern the degraded appearance o f the man the five nights

, ,

i n the hay barge and the pot o f spirits and yet thi s poignant
, ,

love fo r hi s wi fe and children bewildered hi s li stener Ras .

kol mikov l i stened intently but with a sick sensation H e felt .

v exed th at h e had come here .

“
Honou red s ir honou r ed s ir cried M a rm e l a do v recover
, ,
“
ing himsel f — O h s ir p erhap s all this seems a laughing
, ,

matte r to you a s i t doe s to othe rs and perhaps I am only

, ,

wo r rying you w ith the stupidity o f all the t rivi al details o f

my hom e l i fe but it i s not a laughing matter to me F o r I
, .

can fe el i t all . And the whole o f that heavenly day o f

my l i fe and th e whol e o f that evening I passed in fleeting
d ream s o f how I would arrange it all and how I would dress ,

all the chi ldren and h o w I should give her r est and how I
, ,

should r escu e my o w n daughte r f rom dishonou r and restore

her to th e bo s o m o f her family And a great deal more . .

Quite excu sable sir Well then s ir ( M a rm e l a d o v

,
.
, ,

suddenly gav e a so rt o f start rai sed hi s head and gazed ih ,

t e n t l y at hi s l i stener ) well o n th e very next day after all ,

t h o s e dreams that i s to s a y exactly fi ve days ago in t h e

, , ,

e vening by a cunning trick l ike a thie f in the night I stole

, , ,

f ro m K aterina Iv anovna the key o f her b ox took out what ,

w a s l e ft o f my earnings how much it w a s I have forgotten , ,

and n o w look at me all o f you ! It s the fi fth day since I le ft

’

,
’
home and they are lo oking fo r me there and it s the end o f
,

my employment and my uni form i s lying in a tavern o n the

,

E gypti an b ridge I exchan g ed it fo r the garments I have

”
.

on and it s the end o f everything !

’

M a rm e l a d o v struck hi s forehead with hi s fi st clenched h is ,

teeth clo sed hi s eye s and l eaned heavily with hi s el b ow on the

,

tabl e B ut a mi nute late r hi s face suddenly chan g ed a n d

.

w ith a ce rtain as sumed slynes s and a ffectation o f b ravado ,

h e glanced at Raskolnikov laughed and said ,

:

T hi s mo rning I went to s e e S o nia I went to ask her fo r

“
,

a p ick —me up ! H e he he - -
22 F YO D O R DO S T OEV S KY
”
Yo u d o n t sa y sh e gav e i t t o you ? c ri ed o n e o f th e new
’

c o me rs ; h e shouted th e wo rds and went o ff int o a gu ffa w

”
.

“
Thi s v ery quart w a s b ought with her m o ney M a rm el a ,

d ov decl ar ed addre ssing hims el f exclu siv ely t o Rasko lnik o v

,
.

Thi rty copecks she gav e m e w ith h er o w n h and s h er l ast , ,

al l s h e h ad a s I s a w
,
S h e sai d n o thing s h e only l o oked
. . .

at me w ithout a wo rd N o t o n e arth but up yonder

.
,
’
they gri ev e ov e r men they weep but they do n t blame
, ,
’
them th ey d on t blam e them ! B ut i t hu rts mo re it hurts
, ,
’
mo r e whe n they don t bl ame ! Th irty copeck s ye s ! And
m ayb e s h e ne eds them now e h ? Wh at do you think my , ,
’
d e ar s ir ? F o r now she s g o t to k eep u p he r app earance It .

co st s money th at smartne s s th at speci al smartne ss y o u

, , ,
’
know ? D o y o u u nde rstand ? And ther e s pomatum t oo you ,

se e , s h e mu st hav e things ; petti co at s starch ed o ne s shoe s , ,

t o o r eal j au nty o ne s to show o ff he r foo t wh en s h e h a s t o

,

step o v e r a puddle D o you unde rstand s ir do you unde r

.
, ,

stand wh at all that sma rtnes s me an s ? A nd h e re I h e r o w n ,

fath er he r e I to o k thi rty copecks o f th at money fo r a d rink !

,

And I am dr inking it ! And I h av e al ready dru nk it ! C o me ,

w h o wi ll hav e pity o n a man like me eh ? A r e y o u s or ry fo r ,

m e si r o r no t ? Tell me s ir a re yo u s o r ry o r not ? H e h e h e
, , , ,
- -

H e wou ld h av e fi ll ed hi s gl ass but ther e w a s n o drink l e ft ,

.

The po t w a s empty
”
.

“
What are yo u t o b e piti ed fo r ? sh outed th e tave rn
k eepe r who w a s again n ear them
,
.

S hout s o f l au ghte r and ev en o aths foll o wed The lau ghte r .

and th e o ath s c ame f ro m thos e w h o wer e li stening and al s o

f rom th o se w h o h ad h eard noth ing but w er e s imply lo o king ,

at th e figu r e o f the d i schar ged gov e rnment clerk

”
.

“
To b e piti ed ! Why am I to b e piti ed ? M a rm e l a d o v
suddenly d ecl ai med standi ng up w ith his arm out str etched
, ,

a s thou gh h e h ad b een o nly wai tin g fo r th at qu esti o n .

“ ’
Why am I to b e piti ed yo u s a y ? Yes ! The re s n o th ing
,

to pity m e fo r ! I ou ght to b e cru cified crucified o n a cro s s , ,

not piti ed ! C ru ci fy me o h j udge c ruci fy me but p ity me !

, , ,
’
And th en I w il l g o o f mysel f t o be cruci fi ed fo r it s n o t ,

m e rry making I s eek bu t tear s and tr ibulati o n !

-
,
Do
yo u suppo s e you th at sell th at th i s p int o f you rs h as b een
, ,

sweet to m e ? I t w as t r ib u l a t i o n I s ou gh t at the bott o m o f

24 F Y OD O R D O S T O EV S K Y

Let u s g o s ir s aid M a rm e l a do v al l at o nce r ai sing hi s

, , ,

h ead and addr e ss ing Rasko lnikov along with m e

K o z e l s h o u s e looking i nt o the ya rd
’
I m go ing to K ateri n a ’

”
.
,

—
I v an o vna time I did .

Ra skol nikov had fo r s o me ti me b ee n w anting to go and h e

h ad m eant t o h elp hi m M a r m el a d o v wa s much unsteadi e r .

o n hi s l eg s than i n hi s sp eech and le aned he avi ly on the

y o ung m an They h a d t wo o r th re e hundr ed pace s to g o

. .

Th e d runke n man was mo r e and m o r e ov e rcome by di smay

and co n fu sio n a s they d re w near er the hou se .

“
I t s not K ate rina I v anovna I am a fraid o f n o w h e mu t
’

,
“
t e r e d i n agitation and th at s h e w ill b egi n pu lling my h ai r
-
.

What do e s my hai r m atte r ! B o the r my h ai r That s wh at I ’

s ay ! Inde ed i t w il l b e b ette r i f sh e do e s b egi n pul ling it ,

’
th at s no t what I am a fr aid o f it s h er eyes I am a f raid
’
’

of ye s h e r e ye s , th e r ed o n h e r cheeks to o , ,

f rightens m e and he r b reath ing too H av e you .

noticed h o w peopl e i n that d is eas e b re athe when th ey

ar e excited ? I am f ri ghtene d o f th e chi ld ren s crying ’

to o . Fo r i f S oni a ha s n o t t aken them fo o d I

’ ’ ’
do n t kn o w wh at s h app ened ! I d o n t know ! B ut b low s
am not a frai d o f K now s ir that su ch b low s are no t
.
, ,
’
a p ai n t o me but ev en an enj oym ent I n fact I can t get o n
, .

’
w ithout i t It s b etter s o
. Let he r strike m e i t r e .
,
’
lie v e s he r he ar t it s b ette r s o Ther e is th e hou se .

Th e hou se o f K o zel th e cabi net make r a German ,

”
,

w el l to do Lead th e way !
- -
.

They went i n fr o m th e yard and up to th e f o u rth st o rey .

The stai r cas e go t da rke r and d arke r a s they w ent up I t .

wa s nea rly el ev e n o cl o ck and although i n summ er i n P e t e r s

’

bur g the re i s n o r e al ni ght yet i t w a s qu ite dark at the t o p ,

o f th e stai r s .

A gr imy l ittle do o r at t he v ery t o p o f th e stai r s stood a j ar .

A v e ry po or looking ro o m about te n p ace s l o ng w a s l ighted

-

up by a candle end ; the whol e o f i t w as v i sibl e fr o m the

-

en t rance I t w a s all i n d i so rde r litte red u p wi th rags o f all

.
,
’
s o rt s e sp eci ally chi ld ren s garm ents
,
Acr o s s the fu rth e st .

c o rne r w a s st retch ed a r agged she et B ehind i t p robably .

w a s th e bed Ther e w a s nothing i n th e ro om except t w o

.

ch a i r s and a s o fa c o v er e d w i t h A m eri can l eath er ful l o f ,

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 25

ho les b e fo re which stood an old deal kitchen t able u npainted

,
-
,

and uncov e red At the edge o f the ta b le stood a smouldering

.

t a l l o w c a n d l e i n an i ro n candlestick I t app eared that the .

fami l y had a roo m to themselves not part o f a room b ut , ,

thei r r o o m w as pr actically a passage The doo r leading to .

the othe r rooms o r rather cupbo ards into which Amal ia

, ,
'

L ipp ev e c h s e l s flat was div ided stood hal f open and there ,

was shouting uproar and laughte r within People seemed

, .

to be playing cards and drinking tea the re Words o f the .

mo st unceremoniou s kind flew out from time to time .

Rasko lniko v reco gni sed K aterina Ivanovna at once S he .

w a s a r athe r tall slim and grace ful woman terri b ly ema

, ,

c ia t e d w ith magnificent dark brown hai r and with a hecti c

,

flu sh i n he r cheeks S he was pacing up a n d down in her little

.

room pr essing her hands a gainst he r chest ; her lips wer e

,

par ched and he r b reathing came in nerv o u s b roken g asps .

H e r eyes glitte red as in fev er and looked a b out with a harsh

i mmov abl e stare And that co nsumptiv e and excited face
.

w ith the last fl icker ing light o f the candle end playing upon -

i t made a si ckening imp res sion S he seemed to Raskolnikov .

about thi rty ye ar s o ld and was certainly a st range wi fe fo r

M a rm e l a d o v . She had not heard them and did not
notice them coming i n S he seemed to b e lo st in thought . ,

hea ring and s eeing no t hing T h e room w a s close but s h e .

,

had not op ened th e window ; a stench rose from the stai r

cas e but th e doo r on to the stai rs was no t clo sed F rom the
,
.

inner room cloud s o f tobacco smoke floated in she kept ,

c o ughing but d id not close the doo r The youngest child

,
. ,

a gir l o f six w a s asleep sitting curled up o n the floo r with

, ,

h e r head o n th e so fa A boy a year older stood crying and

.

shaking i n th e co rne r pro b ably he had j u st had a b eating

,
.

B eside him sto od a girl o f nine years old tall and thin wear , ,

ing a thin and ragged chemi se with an ancient cashme re

p eli s s e flun g over he r b ar e shoulders long outgrown and ,

b arely reach ing he r knee s He r arm as thin as a stick w a s .

,
,

ro und h e r b rother s neck She was trying to com fort h i m

’
.
,

whi spe ring something to him and doing all s h e could to keep ,

h im from whimp ering again At the same time h er large .

dark eye s which looked larger still from the thinne ss o f he r

,

frightened face wer e w atchin g her mothe r W i th alarm

,
.
26 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S KY

M a rm e l a d o v did not ente r the do o r but d ropped , on his knee s

i n th e v e ry doo rway pu shing Raskolnikov i n front o f him
, .

The w oman s eeing a stranger s topp ed indi ffe rently facing

h im coming to h er sel f fo r a mom ent and app arently w o n
,

d ering what h e had c o me for But ev idently s h e decided

.

that h e wa s go m g 1 nt o the next roo m a s h e had to pa s s ,

th rough h er s t o get th er e Taking no fu rthe r no ti ce o f him

.
,

s h e walked toward s th e o uter doo r t o clo se i t and utter ed a

sudden s cr eam o n s eeing he r hu sb and o n hi s knees in the

d o o rway .

“ ”
Ah ! s h e cri ed out in a f renzy he has c o me b ack ! Th e ,
’
cri mi nal the mo nst er And whe r e i s the money ? VV h a t s
i n you r po cket show me And y o u r clothe s ar e all d i ffe rent !
”
,

Wh e re ar e you r clothe s ? W he re i s the m o ney speak !

?

And sh e fell t o s earch ing him M a rm e l a d o v su b mi s s ively .

and o bedi ently he ld up both arm s to f acil itate the search .

N o t a farth ing w a s th er e
”
.

“
Whe r e i s th e money ? s h e c ri ed M ercy o n u s can h e ,

h av e d ru nk it all ? The r e we r e twelv e si lve r rouble s le ft i n

”
the che st ! and i n a fu ry s h e s ei zed h i m by the hai r and
d ragged hi m i nto th e r o om M a rm e l a do v s econd ed h e r e fforts
.

by m eekly c rawling alon g o n h i s knee s .

A nd thi s is a con sol ation to m e ! Thi s do e s not hu rt m e

”
,

bu t is a po sitiv e con so l a tio n h o nou r ed si r he call ed o ut

- - -
,
- -
, ,

shake n t o and f ro by hi s h ai r and ev en o nce st riking the

gr o und w ith hi s fo reh ead The chi ld a sl eep o n the fl oo r
.

woke up and began t o c ry Th e b oy i n the co rner l o sing

,
.

all control be gan tr embl ing and scr e aming and ru sh ed to hi s

si ster i n v i o lent te r r o r almo st i n a fit The eldest girl w a s
, .

shaki ng like a l ea f .

“
H e s drunk i t ! h e s d runk i t all
’
’
t h e po or woman ,
“
s creamed i n de spai r — and hi s clothe s a r e gone ! And they
ar e hungry hungry —and w ringing h er hand s s h e po inted
,
“
to th e child ren O h accu r sed l i f e ! And you ar e you not
”
.
, ,
“
a sh amed —sh e pounced all at o nce upo n Rasko lnikov — from
th e tav e rn ! H av e yo u b een d ri nking w ith hi m ? Y o u hav e
b een d rinking w ith hi m to o ! Go aw ay ! ”
,

Th e young man w as h astening away w ithout utt ering a

wo rd The i nne r doo r w a s thrown wi de open and i nqu i sitiv e
.

face s we re pe ering i n at it C o ars e l aughing face s w ith pipes

.
 C R IM E A ND P UN IS H MENT 27

and cigarette s and he ads wearing caps thrust themselves in

at the doo rway F urther i n could b e seen figure s in dressing
.

g o wns flung open i n costumes o f unseemly scantiness some

, ,

o f them wi th card s in thei r hands They wer e particularly .

dive rted , when M a rm e l a d o v dragged about by his hai r

, ,

shouted that it wa s a co nso lation to h im T hey even began .

to come into the room ; at last a sinister sh rill outcry was

h eard : thi s ca m e from Amalia Lipp e v e ch s e l hersel f pushin g
h er w a y amongst them and trying to restore o rder after her
o w n fa shion and for the hundredth time to f righten the poo r

woman by o rdering he r with coar se abus e to clear out o f the

ro om next day A s he went o u t Raskolnikov had time to put
.
,

hi s hand into hi s pocket to snatch up the coppers he had

,

re ceived in exchange fo r hi s rouble i n the tavern and to lay

them unnoticed o n the window Afterwards o n the stairs he .
,

changed hi s mi nd and would have gone back

”
.

“ ’
What a stupid thing I v e done he thou g ht to himsel f
”
, ,

they hav e S oni a and I want it mysel f But r efl ecting that .

it would b e impossibl e to take it b ack now and that in any

case h e w ould not hav e taken it he di smi ssed it with a wave ,

o f hi s hand and went back to hi s lodging Soni a wants .

”
pomatum too h e s aid a s he w alked along th e street and
, , ,
“
he l aughed malignantly— such smartness costs money .

H m ! And may b e S oni a hersel f will b e b ankrupt to day fo r -

,

ther e i s always a r isk hunting big game ,

di gg ing fo r
go ld then they would al l b e without a cru st to —morrow
except fo r my money Hu rr ah for S onia ! What a mine
.

they v e dug ther e ! And they re making the most o f i t !

’ ’

’
Ye s they ar e making the m o st o f it ! They ve wept over
,

i t and grown u sed to it M a n grows u sed to everyth i ng

.
,

th e s cound rel
H e sank i nto thought .

“
And wh at i f I am wrong he cri ed suddenly after a mo
,

m ent s thought
’
What i f man i s not really a scound rel man
.
,

—
i n general I mean th e whole race o f mankind then all the
, ,

r est i s prej udice simply artifici al ter r o r s and there are no

’
,
”
b arri er s and it s all as i t should b e .
 C HAPT E R I I I

E waked up l ate next day a fter a b roken sl eep B u t .

hi s s l eep had not r e fre shed him ; h e w aked u p b ili ou s ,

i rr itable i ll temper ed and looked with hat red at hi s

,
-
,

ro om I t w a s a tiny cupboa rd o f a ro om ab out six paces i n

.

l ength I t h ad a po ve rty stri cken appe arance w ith it s du sty

.
-

yel low pape r pe eli ng o ff the walls and it wa s s o l o w pitche d ,

-

that a m an o f mo re than av erage height w as il l at eas e i n it

and felt e ve ry moment that h e would knock h i s h e ad against
the cei ling The furnitu re w a s i n keeping w ith the room
.

ther e w er e thr e e o l d ch ai r s r athe r r i ckety ; a painted ta b l e

,

i n the co rne r o n whi ch l ay a few manu script s and b ooks ; th e

dust th at lay thi ck upon them showed that th ey had been long
u ntouched A big clumsy so f a o ccup i ed alm ost the who le
.

o f one wall and a hal f th e floo r sp ace o f the ro om ; it was

once cov e red with chi ntz but was n o w i n r ags and s erved
,

Ra skolniko v a s a b ed O ften h e w ent to sle ep on i t a s h e

.
,

w as,
w ithout u ndr ess ing w itho ut she ets w rapped i n h i s
, ,
’
o l d student s ov e rcoat with hi s h ead o n o ne l ittl e p illow
, ,

u nde r whi ch h e he aped up all th e l in en h e h ad cle an and ,

d i rty by way o f a bol ste r A l ittl e tabl e sto o d i n fr o nt o f

,
.

th e so fa .

It wou ld h av e b een di fficult to s ink t o a l o we r ebb o f di s

o rde r b ut to Ra skolnikov i n h i s pres ent stat e o f m ind th i s
,

w a s p o siti vely agr e eab le H e had got compl etely away f rom
.

eve ry o ne l ike a t o rtoi se i n its shel l and even the si ght o f

. ,

th e s erv ant gi rl who h ad to w ai t upon him and looked some

time s i nto hi s ro om m ade him wr ithe w ith nerv o u s i r rita
ti on H e w a s i n th e co nditi on that o vertakes som e mono
.

m ani acs enti rely c o ncentrated upon o n e thi ng H is l andlady .

had fo r the la st fo rtnight give n up sending him i n m eal s and ,

h e had not yet thought o f expo stul ati ng w ith he r thou g h ,

h e w ent w ithout hi s dinne r N a s t a sya th e cook and onl y .

,
’
se rvant was r athe r pleased at the l odge r s moo d and had
,

e nti rely giv en u p swe epi ng and d o i ng h i s r o o m o nly once a ,

28
 C R IME AND P UN IS H MENT 99

week o r s o she woul d stray i nto hi s room with a b room She .

waked him up that day .

“ ”
Get up why are you asleep ! sh e call ed to him : “
It s ’
,

pa st nine I have b rought you some tea ; will you have a cup ?
,

I sh ould think you re fairly star vin ? ” ’

g

Raskolnikov opened hi s eyes started and recognized N a s ,

tasya
”
.

“
F rom the l andlad y eh ? he asked slowly and with a si ckly , ,

face sitting u p o n the so fa .

“
F rom the landlady indeed ! ,

S he set b e fo re him he r own cracked teapot full o f weak

and stale tea and l aid two yellow lumps o f su g ar b y the side
o f it .

“
H ere N a s t a sya take it pl ease
,
he said fumb ling in hi s
, , ,

pocket ( fo r h e had sl ept i n hi s clothes ) and taking out a

“
hand ful o f coppe rs — run and buy me a loaf And get me a .

l ittl e sau sage the cheapest at the pork , ,

“
The lo a f I ll fetch you thi s ve ry mi nute but wouldn t you
’
,
’

’
r athe r have some cabbage soup instead o f sau sage ? It s
capital sou p yesterday s I saved i t fo r you yesterday b ut ’

”
,
.
,
’
you c ame i n lat e It s fi ne soup . .

When the s oup had b een b rought and he had b e gun upon ,

i t N a s t a sya sat down b e side him on the so fa and b egan

,

chatting S he was a country peasant woman and a very

.
-
,

talkati ve o n e .

“
P r a s k o v y a Pavlovna means to complai n to the pol ice
”
a b out yo u s h e sai d ,
.

H e s cowled
”
.

“ ?
To th e pol ice ? What doe s she want
’
You do n t p ay he r money and you won t turn out o f the
’

”
room That s what s h e wants to b e sure
.
’
,
.

“
The devi l that s the l ast straw he muttered grinding hi s
’
, ,

“
te eth no that woul d not suit me j ust now She i s a
”
.

”
, ,
“
fool he added al oud
,
I ll go and talk to her to day .
’ -
.

F ool s h e i s a
“
n d no m istake j u st as I am But why i f ,
. ,

you are s o clev e r do you l ie he re l ike a sack and have nothing

,

to show for it ? O n e tim e you u sed to go out you s a y to , ,

?”
teach children But why i s it you do nothing now .

“
I am doing Raskolnikov b egan sullenly and re
l u c t a n t ly .
80 F Y O D O R D O S T O EV S K Y

Wha t a re y ou doing ” ?

Wo rk
”
.

What s o r t o f wo rk ?
”
I a m th inking he an swe red se r i o u sly a f t e r a p au s e
, .

N a s ta sya was o ve rcome w ith a fit o f l au ghte r S he w a s .

gi ven to l aughte r and when anyt hing amu sed he r sh e l aughed ,

i naudibly qui ver ing and shaki ng al l o ver til l she felt i ll
, .

“
And have yo u m ade mu ch mo ney by you r thi nking ?
s h e m anaged t o arti culate at last .

“
O n e can t go o u t t o giv e l es s o ns w ith o u t b o o t s
’
And .

’
I m si ck o f it .

“ ’
D on t qu ar rel with y ou r b read and bu t te r .

’
They p ay s o l ittle fo r l es so ns What s th e u s e o f a f ew .

c o pp e rs he answ ered r elu ctantly as th o ugh r eplying t o , ,

h i s o w n thou ght .

“
And you w a nt t o ge t a f o rt u ne all a t o nce ?
x

H e looked at he r strangely
”
.

“
Ye s I want a f o rtune he answer ed fi r m ly a fte r a b r ie f
, , ,

pa u s e .

“ ’
D o n t b e i n su ch a hu r ry y o u q u i t e f r igh t e n m e ! S hal l
”
,

I get you th e lo a f o r n o t ?
“
A s yo u pl ea se .

Ah I fo rgot ! A l ette r cam e f o r yo u yes t erday when y ou

”
,

we r e o u t
”
.

“
?
A l ett er f o r m e ! fr om wh o m ?
I can t s a y I gav e th re e cop e cks o f my o w n to t he p o s t
’

”
.

m an fo r it Wil l you pay me b ack

.
?
“ ’
Then b ri ng i t to m e fo r God s s ak e b r i n g i t cri e d
”
, , ,

Raskolniko v greatly excited good G o d !

A m i nute l ate r the l ette r wa s b rought him That w a s i t .

f rom hi s mothe r f rom the p rovi nce o f R ,

H e tu rne d
p al e whe n h e took it I t w a s a l ong whil e si nce he had t e
.

c e iv e d a l ette r but anothe r f eel ing al so suddenly stabb ed hi s

,

he art.

“ ’
N a s ta sya le av e m e alo ne f or go o dne ss s ake ; he r e are
, ,
’
y o u r thre e cop e cks but fo r g o odnes s s ake m ake haste and
, ,

go
The l e tt e r w as qu ive ring i n hi s h and ; h e did not w an t to
o p en i t i n he r p resence ; h e w anted t o b e le ft a l o n e with thi s
lette r. Whe n Na s ta sya h ad g o ne o u t he l i fted it qui ckly t o ,
32 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y
sa v i n g s b u t t h a t w a s n o t s o a n d n o w I t e ll y o u a ll a b o u t it b e cau s e
, , , ,

t h a n k G o d t hi n g s h a v e s u d d e n l y c h a n g e d f o r t h e b e tt e r a n d t h a t yo u
, ,

m ay k n o w h o w D o u n i a l o ve s y o u a n d w h a t a h e a r t s h e h a s At .

fi r s t i n d e e d M r S v i d r ig a i l o v t r e a t e d h e r v e r y r u d e l y a n d u s e d t o
.

m a k e h e r d i s r e s p e c t fu l a n d j e e r i n g r e m a r k s a t t a b l e Bu t .

I d o n t w a n t t o g o i n t o a l l t h o s e p a i n fu l d e t a i l s s o a s n o t t o w o r r y
’
,

yo u f o r n o t hi n g w h e n it i s n o w a l l o v e r In s h o r t i n s p i t e o f t h e
.
,

ki n d a n d g e n e r o u s b e h a v i o u r o f M a rf a Pe t r o v n a M r S v id r ig a i l o v s , .
’

w i fe ,
a n d a l l t h e r e s t o f th e h o u s e h o l d D o u n i a h a d a v e ry h a r d
,

tim e ,
e s p e c i a ll y w h e n M r S v i d r ig a i l o v r e l a p s i n g i n t o h i s o l d r e g i
.
,

m e n t a l h a bi t s w a s u n d e r t h e i n fl u e n c e o f B a c c h u s
, A nd how do .

y o u t hi n k i t w a s a l l e p l a i n e d l a t e r xo n
?
W o u l d yo u b e l i e v e t h a t t h e
c r a z y f e ll o w h a d c o n c e i v e d a p a s s i o n f o r D o u n i a f r o m t h e b e g i n n i n g ,

b u t h a d c o n ce a l e d i t u n d e r a s h o w o f ru d e n e s s a n d c o n t e m p t Po s .

s i b l y h e w a s a s h a m e d a n d h o rr ifi e d hi m s e lf a t h i s o w n fi ig h t y h o es
p ,

c o n s i d e r i n g h is y e a r s a n d h is b e i n g t h e f a t h e r o f a f a m i ly ; a n d t h a t

m a d e h im a n g r y w i t h D o u n i a A n d p o s s ib l y t o o h e h o p e d b y h is
.
, ,

ru de and s n e e ri n g b e h av i o u r t o hi d e t h e tr u t h f r o m o t h e rs Bu t .

a t la s t h e l o s t a l l c o n tr o l a n d h a d t h e fa ce t o m a k e D o u n i a a n o p e n

a n d s h a m e f u l p r o p os a l p ro m i s i n g h e r a l l s o rt s o f i n d u c e m e n t s a n d
,

o ffe r i n g b e s i d e s t o t h ro w u p e v e ryt h i n g a n d t a k e h e r t o a n o t h e r
, ,

e s t a te o f h is o r e ve n abro a d
,
Y o u c a n i m ag i n e a l l s h e w e n t th ro u gh !
.

T o l e a v e h e r s i t u a t i o n a t o n c e w a s i m p o s s ib l e n o t o n l y o n a cco u n t
of t h e m o n e y d e b t b u t a l s o t o s p a r e t h e fe e l i n g s o f M a r fa P e t ro v n a
, ,

w h o s e s u s p i c i o n s w o u l d h a ve b e e n a r o u s e d : a n d t h e n D o u n i a w o u l d
h a ve b e e n t h e c a u s e o f a ru p tu r e in t h e f a m i l y A n d i t w o u l d h a ve .

m e a n t a t e r r ib l e s c a n d a l f o r D o u n i a t o o ; t h a t w o u l d h a v e b e e n
in e v i ta bl e T h e re w e r e v a r io u s o t h e r r e a s o n s o w i n g t o w hi c h D o u n i a
.

cou ld n o t ho pe t o e s c a p e f r o m t h a t a w fu l h o u s e f o r a n o t h e r s ix
w e e ks . Y o u k n o w D o u n ia o f c o u r s e ; y o u k n o w h o w c l e v e r s h e i s
,

a n d w h a t a s t r o n g w i ll s h e h a s D o u n i a c a n e n d u re a g r e a t d e a l a n d
.

e v e n i n t h e m o s t d i ffi c u lt c a s e s s h e h a s t h e f o r t i tu d e t o m a i n t a i n h e r

fi rm n e s s S h e d id n o t e ve n w r i t e t o m e a b o u t e ve ryt hi n g f o r f e a r
.

o f u p s e tt i n g m e a lt h o u g h w e w e r e c o n s t a n t l y i n c o m m u n i c a t i o n
,
It .

a l l e n d e d v e ry u n e x p e c t e d ly M a r fa P e tro vn a a cc i d e n t a lly o ve r h e a r d
.

h e r h u s b a n d i m p l o r i n g D o u n i a in t h e g a r d e n a n d p u tt i n g q u i t e a , ,

w r o n g i n t e r p re t a t i o n o n t h e p o s i t io n t h r ew th e bl a m e u p o n h e r
, ,

be l i e v i n g h e r t o b e t h e c a u s e o f i t a l l A n a w fu l s c e n e t o o k p l a ce .

b e t w e e n t h e m o n t h e s p o t in t h e g a rd e n ; M a r f a P e t r o v n a w e n t s o
f a r a s t o s t r ik e D o u n i a r e fu s e d t o h e a r a n yt hi n g a n d w a s s h o u t i n g
,

a t h e r f o r a w h o l e h o u r a n d t h e n g av e o r d e r s t h a t D o u n i a s h o u l d

b e p a c k e d o ff a t o n c e t o m e i n a p l a i n p e a s a n t s c a r t i n to w hi c h t h e y
’
,

fl u n g a ll h e r t hi n g s h e r l in e n a n d h e r c l o t h e s a l l p e ll m e ll w i t h o u t
, ,
-
,

f o l d i n g i t u p a n d p a c ki n g it A n d a h e avy s h o w e r o f r a i n c a m e o n
.
,

to o ,
a n d Dou n i a i n s u lte d a n d p u t t o s h a m e h a d t o d r i ve w i t h a
, ,

p e a s a n t i n a n o p e n c a r t a l l t h e s e ve n t e e n v e r s t s i n t o t o w n O n ly .

t hi n k n o w w h a t a n s w e r c o u l d I h av e s e n t t o t h e l e tt e r I r e c e i v e d
f ro m y o u t w o m o n t h s a g o a n d w h a t c o u l d I h a v e w r i t t e n ? I w a s i n
d e s p a i r ; I d a r e d n o t w r i te t o y o u t h e t r u t h b e c a u s e y o u w o u l d h a v e
b e e n v e ry u n h a pp y m o rtifi ed an d ind ig n a n t a n d ye t w h a t co u l d y o u
, ,
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 33

do ? Yo u co u ld on ly p e rh aps ru n i b es i d e s D o u n i a
yo u r s e lf , an d, ,

w o u l d n o t a ll o w i t ; a n d fi l l u p m y l t t r ifl e s w h e n m y h e a r t
et e r w t i h
w a s s o fu ll o f s o r r o w I cou ld n o t , Fo r a w h o l e m o n th th e to w n.

w a s f u ll o f s o rr o w a b o u t t hi s s c a n d a l a n d i t c a m e t o s u c h a p a s s t h a t ,

D o u n i a a n d I d a r e d n o t ev e n g o t o c h u r c h o n a c c o u n t o f t h e c o n
t e m p t u o u s l o o k s w hi s p e r s a n d ev e n re m a r k s m a d e a l o u d a b o u t u s
, , .

A l l o u r a c q u a i n t a n c e s a v o i d e d u s n o b o d y ev e n b o w e d t o u s i n t h e ,

s tr e e t a n d I l e a r n t t h a t s o m e s h o p m e n a n d c l e r k s w e r e i n t e n d i n g t o
,

i n s u lt u s in a s h a m e fu l w a y s m e a r i n g t h e g a te s o f o u r h o u s e W i th ,

p i t c h s o t h a t t h e l a n d l o rd b e g a n t o t e l l u s w e m u s t l e a v e
,
A l l t hi s .

w a s s e t g o i n g b y M a r f a P e t r o v n a w h o m a n a ge d t o s l a n d e r D o u n i a ,

a n d t h ro w d i r t a t h e r in ev e r y f a m i ly S h e k n o w s ev e ry o n e i n t h e .

n e i g hb o u r h o o d and ,
t h a t m o n t h s h e w a s c o n ti n u a ll y c o m i n g i n t o
t h e t o w n a n d a s s h e i s r a t h er t a l k a t i v e a n d f o n d o f g o s s i p i n g a b o u t
,

h e r fa m i ly a ffa i r s a n d p a r t i c u l a r l y o f c o m p l a i n i n g t o a l l a n d e a c h
o f h er h u sba n d w hi c h i s n o t a t a ll r i g h t— s o i n a s h o r t t i m e s h e
—

h ad s p r e a d h e r s to r y n o t o n l y in t h e t o w n b u t o v e r th e w h o l e s u r ,

r o u n d i n g d i s t r i ct It m a d e m e il l b u t D o u n i a b o r e i t b e t t e r t h a n I
.
,

d i d a n d if o n l y y o u c o u l d h a v e s e e n h o w s h e e n d u e d i t a l l a n d t r i e d
,
r

t o c o m fo r t m e a n d c h e e r m e u p ! S h e i s a n a n g e l ! Bu t b y G o d s
’

m e r cy o u r s u ffe r i n g s w e r e cu t s h o r t : M r S v id r ig a l o v r e tu r n e d t o
,
. i

h i s s e n s e s a n d r e p e n t e d a n d p ro b a bl y f e e l i n g s o ry f o r D o u n i a h e ,
r ,

l a i d b e f o r e M a r fa Pe t r o v n a a c o m p l e t e a n d u n m i s t a k a b l e p o o f o f r

D o u n i a s i n n o c e n ce i n t h e f o r m o f a l e tte r D o u n i a h a d b e e n fo r c e d
’

t o w r i t e a n d g i v e t o h i m b e f o r e M a r f a P e t ro v n a c a m e u p o n t h e m i n
,

T hi s l e tt e r w hi c h r e m a i n e d in M r S v i d r ig a i l o v s h a n d s
’

th e ga rd e n .
,
.

a ft e r h e r d e p a r t u r e s h e h a d w r i t t e n t o r e fu s e p e r s o n a l e p l a n a t i o n s
,
x

a n d s e c r e t i n t e r v i e w s f o r w hi c h h e w a s e n t r e a t i g h e r I t h a t l e tt e r n . n
,

s h e r e p r o a c h e d h im w i t h g r e a t h e a t a n d i n d i g n a t i o n f o r t h e b
aseness

o f hi s b e h a v i o u r i n r e g a r d t o M a r f a P e t r o v n a r e m i n d i n g h im t h at ,

h e w a s t h e f a t h e r a n d h e a d o f a f a m i l y a n d t e ll i n g h im h o w i n fa m o u s
i t w a s o f h i m t o t o r m e n t a n d m a k e u n h a pp y a d e f e n c e l e s s g i r l u n ,

h a p py e n o u g h a l re a d y In d e e d d e a r Ro d ya t h e l e tte r w a s s o n o b l y
. , ,

hi l i h t bb h i t h s d ay
.

a n d to u c n g y w r tte n t a I s o e d w e n I r e a d a n d t o t i

t i t i t h t M v t h v i d e n c e o f th e s e r
I c an n o r e a d w o u t e a rs o r e o e r e . e ,

v a n t s t o o c l e a r e d D o u n i a s r e p u ta t i o n ; th e y h a d s e e n a n d k n o w n
, ,
’

d — as
a g re a t d e a l m o re th a n M r hi lf p p
S v id r i g a o v i l h a
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.

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a s s em b l e d fo r e v e ry r e a d i n g o f i t , e v e n m a n y w h o h a d h e a r d i t
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,

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w a s a t o n c e a s k e d t o g i v e l e s s o n s in s e v e r a l f a m i l i e s , b u t s h e r e fu s e d .

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a l l t h i s d id m u c h t o b r in g ab o u t t h e e v e n t b y w h i c h , o n e m a y s a y , o u r
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.

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t h a t w e c o u l d n o t w a it a n d p u t o ff o u r d e c i s i o n t i ll w e h e a r d f r o m
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,

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b e g a n w i t h his e x p r e s s i n g t h r o u g h h e r h is d e s ir e t o m a k e o u r a c qu ain t
an c e . He w a s p r o p e rly re c e i v e d , d r a n k co ff e e w i t h u s a n d t h e v e ry
n e xt d a y h e s e n t u s a l e tt e r i n w h i c h h e v e r y c o u r t e o u s l y m a d e a n

o ff e r a n d b e gg e d f o r a s p e e d y a n d d e c i d e d a n s w e r H e i s a v e ry b u s y .

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.

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.

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.
,

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, , ,

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,

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t h e m a t t e r h as b e e n a r r a n g e d i n g r e a t h a s t e B e s i d e s h e is a m an o f .

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h app i n e s s w ill b e th e m o r e s e cu r e t he h a pp i e r D o u n i a i s w i t h h im ,
.

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t h e h a p p i e s t m a r r i a g e s— D o u n i a h a s s a i d t h a t a s re g a rd s a l l t h a t s h e , ,

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, ,

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, , ,

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,

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,

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.
,

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,
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. , ,

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,
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n

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.

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,

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.

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.

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.

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g o o d i n fl u e n c e o v e r h e r f u tu r e h u s b a n d ; t hi s s h e i s r e c k o n i n g u p o n .

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p l a n s t o Py o t r P e t r o v i t c h e s p e c i a ll y o f y o u r b e c o m i n g h i s p a r t n e r
,
.

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.

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,
.

D o u n i a w a n t s t o a r ra n g e i t a l l l ik e t hi s a n d I q u i t e a gr e e w i t h h e r .

A n d w e h ave n o t s p o k e n o f o u r p l a n s f o r a n o th e r r e a s o n t h a t i s , ,

b e c a u s e I p a r ti cu l a r l y w a n te d yo u t o f e e l o n a n e qu a l f o o t i ng w h e n
yo u fi r s t m e e t h im W h e n D o u n i a s p o k e t o h im w i t h e n t u s i a s m
. h

a b o u t yo u h e a n s w e re d t h a t o n e c o u l d n e v e r j u d g e o f a m a n w i t h o u t
,

s e e i n g hi m c l o s e f o r o n e s e lf a n d t h a t h e l o o k e d f o r w a r d t o f o r m i n g
, ,

h is o w n O p i n i o n w h e n h e m a k e s yo u r a c q u a i n t a n c e D o yo u k n o w .
,

m y p re c i o u s Ro d y a I t hi n k t h a t p e r h a p s f o r s o m e r e a s o n s ( n o t hi n g
,

t o d o w i t h Py o t r P e t r o v i t c h t h o u g h s i m p ly fo r m y o w n p e rs o n al
, ,

p e r h a p s o l d w o m a n i s h f a n c i e s ) I s h o u l d d o b e t te r t o g o o n l i vi n g b y
-
,

m y s e lf a p a r t t h a n w i t h t h e m a ft e r t h e w e d d i n g
, , , I a m c o nvi n c e d .

t h a t h e w i ll b e g e n e ro u s a n d d e l i c a t e e n o u g h t o i n v i t e m e a n d t o
u r g e m e t o r e m a i n w i t h m y d a u g h t e r f o r t h e fu t u r e a n d if h e h a s ,

i t is s i m p ly b e c a u s e i t h a s b e e n t a k e n
.

s a i d n o t hi n g a b o u t i t hi t h e r t o ,

f o r g r a n t e d ; b u t I s h a ll r e fu s e I h a ve n o t i c e d m o r e t h a n o n c e i n
.

m y l i f e t h a t h u s b a n d s d o n t q u i t e g e t o n w i t h t h e r m o t h e r s in l a w
’
i - -
,

a n d I d o n t w a n t t o b e t h e l e a s t bi t i n a n y o n e s w a y
’
an d fo r m y
’

,
 C R IME AND P UN I S H MENT 37

ow n sa ke , to o , w ou ld ra th e r
b e q u i t e i n d e p e n d e n t s o l o n g a s I h av e
,

a c r u s t o f b r e a d o f m y o w n , a n d s u c h c hi l d r e n a s
yo u a n d D o u n i a
j
.

If p o s s ib l e , I w o u l d s e ttl e s o m e w h e r e n e a r yo u , f o r t h e m o s t o y f u l
p i e c e o f n e w s , d e a r Ro d y a , I h a v e k
e p t f o r t h e e n d o f m y l e tt e r :

k n o w t h e n , m y d e a r b o y , t h a t w e m ay p e r h a p s b e a l l t o g e t h e r i n a
v e ry s h o r t t i m e a n d m a y e m b ra c e o n e a n o th e r a g a i n a fte r a s e p a r a t i o n
o f a l m o s t t h r e e ye a r s ! It i s s e t tl e d fo r c e r t a i n t h a t D o u n i a a n d I
a r e t o s e t o ff f o r P e t e r s b u rg , e x a c tl y w h e n I d o n t k
n o w , b u t v e ry,
’

ve ry s o o n p o s s ib ly in a w e e
, k
It a l l d e p e n d s o n Py o t r P e t r o v i t c h
.

w h o w i ll l e t u s k n o w w h e n h e h a s h a d t i m e t o l o o k
r o u n d h i m in
P e t e r s bu rg T o s u i t hi s o w n a r r a n g e m e n t s h e is a nxi o u s t o h ave t h e
.

c e r e m o n y a s s o o n a s p o s s ib l e , e v e n b e f o r e t h e fa s t o f O u r L a d y if ,

it c o u l d b e m a n a g e d , o r if t h a t is t o o s o o n t o b e r e a d y i m m e d i a t e l y ,

a ft e r. O h , w i t h w h a t h a p p in e s s I s h a ll p r e s s y o u to m y h e a r t ! D o u n i a
j
is a l l e x c i t e m e n t a t t h e o y f u l t h o u g h t o f s e e i n g y o u s h e s a i d o n e ,

j k
d a y i n o e t h a t s h e w o u l d b e r e a d y t o m a rr y P y o r t r P e t r o v i tc h fo r
th a t a l o n e S h e is a n a n g e l ! S h e i s n o t w r i ti n g a n ythi n g t o yo u n o w ,
.

a n d h a s o n l y t o l d m e t o w r i t e t h a t s h e h a s s o m u c h , s o m u c h t o t e ll

y o u t h a t s h e i s n o t g o i n g t o t a k e u p h e r p e n n o w , fo r a f e w l i n e s
w o u l d t e ll yo u n o t hi n g , a n d it w o u l d o n l y m e a n u p s e tt i n g h e r s e lf ;
s h e bi d s m e s e n d y o u h e r l o v e a n d i n n u m e r a b l e k
i s s e s Bu t a l t h ou g h
.

w e s h a l l b e m e e t i n g s o s o o n , p e r h a p s I s h a ll s e n d y o u a s m u c h m o n e y
a s I c a n in a d a y o r t w o .N o w t h a t e v e ry o n e h a s h e a r d t h a t D o u n i a
i s t o m a r r y Py o tr P e t ro v i t c h , m y c r e d i t h a s s u d d e n l y i m p ro v e d a n d
I k n o w t h a t Af a n a s y Iv a n o v i t c h w i ll t ru s t m e n o w e v e n t o s ev e n ty
fi v e r o u b l e s o n t h e s e cu r i ty o f m y p e n s i o n , s o t h a t p e r h a p s I s h a l l
b e a b l e t o s e n d y o u tw e n t y fi v e o r ev e n t hi r ty r o u b l e s
-
I w o u l d s en d
.

y o u m o r e , b u t I a m u n e a sy a b o u t o u r t r a v e ll i n g e x p e n s e s ; f o r t h o u g h
Py o t r Pe tr o vi t c h h a s b e e n s o ki n d a s t o u n d e rt a e p a r t o f t h e e x k
j k
p e n s e s o f t h e o u r n e y , t h a t i s t o s a y, h e h a s t a e n u p o n hi m s e lf t h e
c o n v e y a n c e o f o u r b a g s a n d b ig t ru n k ( w hi c h w i ll b e c o n v e ye d t h r o u g h

k
s o m e a c qu a i n t a n c e s o f h i s ) , w e m u s t re c o n u p o n s o m e e x p e n s e o n

o u r a r r i v a l i n P e t e r s b u r g , w h e r e w e c a n t b e l e ft w i t h o u t a h a lfp e n n y,
’

a t l e a s t fo r t h e fi r s t f e w d a y s Bu t w e h a v e c a l c u l a t e d i t a l l , D o u n i a
.

a n d I, t o t h e l a s t p e n n y , a n d w e s e e t h a t t h e j
o u rn e y w i ll n o t c o s t

v e ry m u c h It is o n l y n i n e ty ve rs ts f ro m u s t o t h e r a i l w a y a n d w e
.

h a v e c o m e t o a n a g re e m e n t w i t h a d r i v e r w e k n o w s o a s t o be in ,

r e a d i n e s s ; a n d f r o m t h e r e D o u n i a a n d I c a n t ra v e l q u i t e c o m f o r ta b l y

t hi r d c l a s s k
S o t h a t I m a y v e r y l i e l y b e a b l e t o s e n d t o yo u n o t
.

t w e n ty fi v e , b u t t hi r t y r o u b l e s
- Bu t e n o u g h ; I h a v e c o v e r e d t w o
.

s h e e t s a l r e a d y a n d t h e r e i s n o s p a c e l e ft f o r m o r e ; o u r w h o l e hi s t o ry ,

b u t s o m a n y e v e n t s h a v e h a p p e n e d ! A n d n o w , m y p r e c i o u s Ro d ya ,

I e m b ra ce yo u a n d s e n d y o u a m o t h e r s b l e s s i n g t i ll w e m e e t
’
L o ve .

D o u n i a y o u r s i s t e r , K o d y a ; l o v e h e r a s s h e l o v e s yo u a n d u n d e r s t a n d
t h a t s h e l o ve s y o u b e yo n d e v e ryt hi n g , m o re t h a n h e rs e lf S h e is .

a n a n g e l a n d y o u , Ro d y a , y o u a e r e v ry hi g
e t n t o u s — o u r o ne
ho pe ,
o u r o n e c o n s o l a t i o n If. o n l y y o u a r e h a p p y w e s h a ll b e h a p py
,
D o .

yo u S t i ll s ay y o u r p r a y e r s R o d,
a
y , a n d b e l i e v e i n t h e m e r cy o f o u r

Cr e a to r a n d o u r Re d e e m e r ? I a m a fra i d in m y h e a rt t h a t yo u m ay
h a ve b e e n v i s i t e d b y t h e n e w s p i r i t o f i n fi d e l i ty t h a t is a b r o a d t o d ay ! -
38 F Y ODO R D O S T O EV S KY
I f it i s s o, Re m e m b e r, d e a r b o y, h o w i n yo ur c h il d ~
I p r a y fo r yo u .

h oo d, w h e n y o u r f a t h e r w a s l iv i n g yo u u s e d t o l i s p yo u r p ra ye r s a t
,

m y k n e e , a n d h o w h a p p y w e a l l w e r e in t h o s e d a ys G o o d b ye , t i l l
.
-

w e m e e t t h e n — I e m b r a c e yo u w a rm l y , w a r m l y w it h m a n y k is s e s
, .

“
Yo u r s t i ll d e a t h
“
L
PU C H E I A RA K O N I K OV R S L .

Al m o s t from th e fi r st whil e h e r ead th e lette r Ra sko l n i

, ,

k o v s face w a s wet w ith tear s ; but when he fi ni shed i t hi s

’

face wa s pale and di sto rted and a bitte r w r ath ful and malig ,

n ant smile wa s o n hi s l ip s H e lai d hi s head down o n hi s

.

thr eadb are di rty p illow and p o nde red p onde red a long tim e , .

H i s heart was b eating v io lently and hi s b rai n was i n a tu r ,

m o il At l ast he felt cr amp ed and sti fl ed i n th e l ittl e yell o w

.

r o om that w as l ik e a cupb o ard o r a box H i s eyes and hi s .

m i nd crave d fo r space H e took up hi s hat and went o u t thi s

.
,

tim e w ithout dread o f m eeting any one ; h e had fo rg o tten

hi s d read H e tu rned i n the di r e ctio n o f the V a s s ilye v s ky
.

O st r o v walking alo ng V a s s ilye v s ky P ro spe ct as though ha s

, ,

t ening o n s om e bu s ine ss but he w alke d as hi s hab it w a s

, , ,

w ithout notici ng hi s w ay mutter ing and even speaki ng al o ud

,

t o him sel f t o the aston ish m en t o f th e pass e rs by M any o f

,
-
.

the m t o o k h i m t o b e d runk .
40 F YOD O R DO S T OE V S K Y

i t al l put i nto w o r ds o r di d both unde rstand that th ey h ad

,

the s am e thing at he art and i n thei r minds s o that the r e ,

wa s n o need to sp eak o f i t al oud and b etter not to speak ,

o f it . M o st likely it w a s p artly like that from mothe r s ,

’

lette r it s ev ident : h e stru ck he r as rude a l ittl e and mothe r

’
,

i n her s impl i city took he r obse rvati ons to D ouni a And s h e

‘
.

w a s su re to b e v exed and answ ere d he r angrily

’
I should .

think so ! Who wou ld not b e angered when it w as qu ite

clea r without any naiv e questio ns and whe n it w a s u nder
stoo d that it w a s u sel es s to dis cus s it And why do es sh e
‘
.

w rite to m e lov e D ouni a Ro dya and sh e lov es you mo r e

, , ,

than hers el f ? Has she a s ecret co nsci ence p ri ck at sacr i

’
-

fi c in g he r daughte r to he r s o n ?
‘
You are ou r o ne com fo rt ,

yo u a re everything to u s O h mothe r l ” ’
.
,

H is b itte rnes s gr ew mo r e and mo r e i ntense and i f he ,

had happ ened to m e et M r Luzhi n at th e mom ent h e migh t .

,

have mu rde red him .

“
Hm
’
yes that s tru e h e conti nu ed pur sui ng th e
, , ,

whi rl ing i deas that chas ed each othe r i n hi s b rain it is

‘
tru e that i t needs tim e and car e to get to kno w a m an but
,
’
,

ther e i s no mi stake about M r Luz hin The chi e f thing i s

‘
. .

he i s a m an o f bu sine s s and s e e m s ki nd that w a s some ,

’

thi ng wasn t it to s end the bags and b i g box fo r th em ! A

,
’

ki nd m an no doub t a fte r that ! B ut hi s brid e and her

,
’
mother ar e to d riv e i n a peasant s cart cove re d with s ack
i ng ( I know I hav e b een driven i n it ) N o m atter ! It i s
,
‘
.

o nly ninety v ersts and then they can travel r y com fort
i

a b ly thi r d cl ass fo r a thou s and ver sts ! Quite r ight too

, ,
’

, .

’
O n e must cut one s coat acco rding to one s cloth but what
’

a b out you Mr Luzhi n ? S he i s you r b ri de

, . And you .

mu st b e awar e that h er mothe r has to rai s e money o n he r

p ens io n fo r th e j ou rney T o b e su r e it s a matter o f busi
.
’

ness a pa rtnership fo r mutu al b enefit wi th equ al shares

, ,

and expense s — food and d rink p rovi ded b ut pay fo r you r ,

tobacco The busi nes s man has got the b etter o f them too
.
,
.

Th e luggage w ill co st le s s than the i r fare s and v ery likely

go fo r nothing H o w is i t that they don t both s e e all that
.
’

o r i s i t that they don t want t o s e e ? And t hey ar e pleased

’

pl eased ! And to think that thi s i s o nly the fi rst blossoming ,

and that the r e al fruits ar e t o come ! B ut what r eally

 C RIM E A N D P UN IS H MEN T 41

matters i s not the stinginess i s not the meanness but the , ,

to n e o f the whole thing F o r that w ill b e the tone a fte r

.

’
m arriage it s a foretaste o f it And mothe r too w h y should
, .
,

s h e be s o l avi sh ? What will she have b y the time s h e

gets to Pete rsbu rg ? Thre e s i lver rou b les o r two paper‘
’
o nes as s h e s ays that ol d woman . hm What .

do es s h e exp ect to l ive upo n i n Petersbu rg afterwards ?

S he has he r r easons alre ady fo r guessing that s h e c o u l d n o t
l ive with D ounia a fte r the m arriage even fo r the fi rst few ,

mo nths The goo d man has no doubt l et sl ip something o n

‘
.

that su b j ect also though mothe r would deny it : I shal l

,
’
re fus e says s h e O n whom i s she reckoning then ? I s she
,
.

counting o n what i s l eft o f her hundred and twenty rou b le s

o f p ension when A fanasy Iv a n o v it c h s debt i s paid ? S he ’

knits wooll en shawls and emb roiders cu ffs ru ining her old —
,
’
eye s And all he r shaw ls do n t add mo r e than twenty
.

roubles a year to her hundred and twenty I know that ,

.

’
S o s h e i s bui ldi ng all her hope s all the tim e o n M r Lu z h in s
‘
.

gene ros ity ; h e wil l o ffe r it o f himsel f he wil l pre ss it o n ,

’
me .
’
You m ay w ait a long time fo r that ! That s how it
always i s with thes e S c hil l e r e s qu e nobl e hearts ; till the last
moment e ve ry goos e i s a swan with them till the last ,

moment they hop e fo r t hef b e s t and will see nothing w ro ng

, ,

and although they have an i nkl ing o f the other side o f the
p i ctur e yet they won t face the truth till they are forced to ;
,
’

the v e ry th gggh t o f i t makes them shiver ; they thrust th e

truth away with both hands until the man they deck o u t ,

i n fal s e colou rs puts a fool s cap o n them with hi s own ’

hands I shoul d l ike to know whether M r Luzhi n has any

.
.

o rder s o f me rit ; I b et h e has th e Anna i n his buttonhol e

and that h e puts it on when he g o e s to dine w ith contracto rs
o r merchants H e wil l b e sur e to have i t for his wedding
. ,

t o o ! E nough o f him confound him ! ,

’
“
Well mother I do n t wonde r at it s l ike her God
,
’
, ,

b les s he r but how could D ounia ? D ounia darling a s

,
, ,

though I di d not know you ! You we re nearly twenty when

I s a w you l ast : I under stand you then M othe r write s
‘
.

’
that D ou ni a c a n put up with a great deal I know that .

ve ry w ell I knew that two years and a hal f ago and fo r

. ,

the l ast two and a hal f years I have b een thinking a b out i t ,

3
— R
42 FY OD O R D OS TO EV S KY
‘
thinki ng o f j u st that that D ouni a pu t u p w ith a grea t c an
,
’
de al I f s h e co uld put up w ith M r S v id riga i l o v and all t h e
. .

r est o f it sh e ce rtai nly c a n put u p w ith a great deal A n d

, .

n o w mothe r and s h e h av e tak en i t i nt o the i r heads that s h e

c a n put u p w ith M r Luzh in w h o p rop o unds the theo ry o f .

,

t he sup eri o rity o f w iv e s rai sed f rom destitutio n and owi ng

’
e verything t o thei r hu sb and s b ounty— w h o p ropounds i t
too almo st at th e fi r st i nterv i ew ‘
Granted that h e l et i t .
,

s lip though he i s a s ensibl e m an ( yet m ayb e i t was not a

,
’
,

slip at al l b ut h e m eant to m ake hims el f c l ear a s so on

,

as po s s ib le ) but D ouni a D ouni a ? h e u nde rstands th e ,

m an o f cou rs e b ut she w i ll hav e t o l i ve w ith the m an

, , .

Why ! she d l i v e o n bl ack b read a n d wate r s h e woul d n o t

’

c o m fo rt ; s h e woul d no t b arte r i t fo r all S chleswig H o l stei n -

,

m u ch l es s M r Lu z h in s money N o D o uni a was not that

.
’
.
,

so rt w hen I knew he r and s h e is still th e s am e of ,

cou rs e ! Y es ther e s n o denying th e S v idr ig a i l o vs ar e a

,
’
,
’ ’
b itte r p il l ! It s b itte r thi ng to sp end o ne s l i fe a go ve r
ness i n the p rovi nce s fo r two hundre d r o ubl e s but I know ,

s h e woul d r athe r b e a nigge r o n a plantatio n o r a Le t t w ith

a German m aster than degrade h er s o ul and h e r mo ral , ,

dignity by b i nding her se l f fo r e ve r t o a m an w h o m s h e

,

do es not r espect and w ith who m s h e ha s nothi ng i n c o m

m on— fo r he r o w n advantage And i f M r Lu zhi n had . .

b een o f u nalloye d gold o r o ne huge di amo nd s h e w o uld , ,

neve r h av e consented to b ecome hi s l egal co ncub i ne Why .

’ ’
i s sh e co ns enti ng then ? What s the p o i nt o f it ? What s
th e answe r ? It s cl ea r en o ugh : fo r her s el f fo r h e r c o m
’

f o rt to s av e h e r l i fe s h e wou ld not s el l hers el f but f o r

, ,

s o me o n e els e sh e i s do ing it ! F o r o n e s h e l ove s f o r o n e ,

s h e ado res s h e w i ll s el l he rs el f ! Th at s what i t al l amounts ’

to ; fo r h e r b rother fo r he r m othe r s h e wi ll s ell he rsel f !

‘
S he wi ll sel l e ve rything ! I n su ch cas es w e o v e rc o me o u r
, ,

,
’
m o ral feeli ng i f necessary fre edom p eace c o ns ci ence e ven , , , .

all all ar e b r o ught i nto the m arket Let my li fe go i f o nly

, .
,

my de a r o ne s m ay be happy ! M o re than that w e b ecom e ,

casui sts w e l ear n t o b e J esuiti cal and f o r a tim e m ayb e

,

w e c a n s oothe ou rse lves w e can p ersu ade ou r s el ves that i t ,

is o ne s d uty fo r a go o d o bj ect
’ ’
Tha t s j us t l ike u s i t s a s .
,
’
 CRIM E A ND P UN IS H ME NT 43
’
c l ea r as dayl ight It s clea r that Rodion Ro m a n o v itch Ras
.

ko l mik o v i s the central fi gur e in the b usiness and no o n e ,

el se O h yes s h e can ensur e his happi ness keep him in

.
, ,

the univ er si ty make him a partner i n the o ffi ce make hi s

, ,

wh o l e futu r e s ecu re ; perhap s he may even b e a ri ch

man late r o n p ro sp erou s r espected and may even end hi s
, , ,

li fe a fam o u s man ! B ut my mothe r ? It s all Ro dya pr e ’

cions Ko dya he r fi rstborn ! F o r such a s o n w h o would not

,

s acr i fi ce such a daughter ! O h loving over parti al hearts ! , ,

-

Why fo r hi s sake w e would not shrink even from S oni a s

,
’

fate So nia S o nia M a r m e l a do v the eternal vi ctim so long

.
, ,

a s the w o rl d l asts H av e yo u taken the measur e o f you r

.

s acri fi ce b oth o f y o u ? I s i t right ? C a n you bear it ?

,

I s it any u s e ? I s the re s ens e i n it ? And let m e tel l you ,

’
D ounia S o ni a s l i f e i s no wors e than l i fe with M r Luzhin
‘
. .
,

Ther e can b e no questio n o f love mother w rites And ’

.

what i f ther e can b e no respect e ither i f o n the contrary ,

ther e is ave r si on contempt r epul si on w hat then ? S o

‘
you will hav e to keep up you r appear ance too Is not that
, , ,
’
, .

so ? D o you under stand what that smartness means ? D o

yo u u nderstand that the Lu zhi n smartness i s j ust the s am e
’
thing as S oni a s and may b e wo rs e v iler b aser because i n , , ,

you r cas e D ouni a i t s a bargai n fo r luxuri es a fte r all but

, ,
’
, ,

with S oni a it s s imply a question o f starvation I t h a s to b e

’
.

paid fo r it has to b e paid for D ouni a thi s smartness And

, , ,
.

what i f it s mor e than you can b ear afterwards i f you re

’
,

gret i t ? The bi tte rness the mi sery the curses the tears , , ,

hidden fro m all th e wo rld fo r you ar e not a M a r i a P e ,

tro vna And how will you r mothe r f eel then ? E ven now
.

she i s u neasy s h e i s wo rried but then when s h e sees it al l

, , ,

clearly ? And I ? Yes i ndeed what have you taken m e , ,

’
fo r ? I wo n t have you r sacrifice D ouni a I won t have it
’
, , ,

mothe r ! It shall not b e so long as I am alive it shal l not , ,

”
,

it shall n o t ! I wo n t accept it ! ’

H e suddenly p aus ed i n hi s reflections and stood sti ll .

“
I t shal l not b e ? B ut what are you going to do to pre
vent it ? You l l fo rbid i t ? And what right have you ?
’

W hat can you p romi se them o n you r side to give you su ch

a r ight ? You r whole l i fe you r whole future you wi ll de , ,

v o t e t o the m w h en yo u ha ve fi nis h e d yo u r s tu d ies a nd a b

44 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

tu rne d a Ye s w e have hear d al l that b e fo re a n d

po s t ? , ,
’
that s all w o r ds bu t now ? N o w somethi ng mu st b e done
, ,

now do you u nder stand that ? A n d w h a t a r e yo u d o ing n o w ?

Yo u ar e l i ving upo n them They bo rrow o n thei r hundred .

roubl es pensio n They b o rro w f rom th e S v id r ig a i l o v s H o w

. .

a re yo u going to save them from S v id r iga i l o v s from A fanasy ,

I vanov itch V a h ru s hin o h futu re m il l ionai r e Z e u s who

, ,

wou ld ar range th ei r l ive s fo r them ? I n another ten ye ars ?

I n another t en yea rs mothe r w ill b e bl ind w ith knitting
,

shawl s m ay b e w ith w eeping too

, S he wi ll b e w o r n to a .

shad o w w ith f asting ; and my s i ste r ? Imagi ne f o r a

mo m ent what m ay h ave b ecome o f y o u r s i ste r i n te n year s ?
What m ay h app en to her du ri ng th o s e te n ye ar s ? C a n
? ”
you fancy
S o he to rtu red him sel f f retting himsel f w ith su ch qu es
,

t ions and fi nding a ki nd o f enj oyment i n it And yet al l

,
.

thes e qu e stio ns w e r e not new o nes suddenly co n fro nti ng him ,

they w er e o l d fami lia r aches I t was l ong s ince they had .

fi r st b egu n to grip and rend hi s h eart Long long ago h is .

,

p res ent angu i sh had its fi rst b eginni ngs ; i t had w axe d an d
gathe red strength it had m atu red and co ncentr ated u ntil
, ,

i t had take n the fo rm o f a fear ful f r enz i ed and fantasti c ,

qu estio n w hich to rtu red hi s heart and hi s m ind clamou ring

, ,

i nsi st ently fo r an answe r N o w hi s mothe r s letter had

’
.

bu rst o n him l ike a thu ndercl ap It was cle ar th at h e mu st .

not now su ffe r p as si vely wo r ryi ng himsel f ov e r u nsolved ,

qu estions but that h e mu st do something do i t at o nce

, , ,

and do i t qu ickly Anyway he mu st decide o n s omething

. ,

o r el se
”
.

“
O r throw up l i f e altogethe r ! h e cri ed suddenly in a ,
“
frenzy accept o ne s lot humb ly as it is o nce fo r all and
’

sti fle e verything i n onesel f giving u p all claim t o acti vity ,

”
,

l i fe and l ove !
“
D o you u nderstand s i r do you u nderstand what it
”
, ,

m eans when you hav e ab solutely nowhe r e to tur n ? M ar

’ “
m e l a d o v s qu estio n cam e suddenly i nto hi s m ind fo r every
m an mu st hav e s omewher e to tu rn .

H e gav e a sudden start : anothe r thought that he had h ad ,

yesterday sl ipped back i nto hi s m i nd B ut h e di d not start

, .

at the th o ught re cur ring t o him fo r h e knew he had f el t , ,

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H M ENT 45

b ef o r e h a n d
that i t must come b ack he w a s expecting it ;
, ,

besides i t w a s not only yesterday s thought The di ffer ’

.

ence was that a mo nth ago yesterday even the thought w a s , ,

a me r e d ream : b ut now now it appeared not a dream

at all it had taken a new m enacing and qu ite unfami liar
,

shap e and he suddenly b ecame aware o f this himsel f

, .

H e felt a hammering i n hi s head and ther e w a s a dark ,

nes s b efo re hi s eyes .

H e lo oked round hu rriedly he was s earching fo r some ,

thing H e w anted to sit down and was looking for a seat ;

.

he was walki ng along the K B oulevard The re was .

a s eat about a hundred p aces i n f ront o f him H e walked .

towards it as f ast as h e could ; b ut on the way he met with

a l ittl e adventur e w hich a b s o rb e d all hi s attention Look. .

ing fo r th e se at h e had noticed a woman walking some

,

twenty pace s i n front o f him but at fi rst he took no mo re ,

noti ce o f he r than o f other o b j ects that crossed his path It .

had happ ened to him many times going home not to notice
the ro ad by whi ch h e was go ing and he w a s accustomed ,

to walk l ike that B ut the re w a s at fi rst sight something

.

s o strange about the woman i n f ront o f him that gradually ,

hi s attentio n wa s r iveted upon her at fi rst reluctantly and , ,

a s i t we r e res entful ly and then mo re and more intently

, ,
.

H e felt a sudde n desi re to find out what it was that was s o

s trange about the woman In the fi rst place she appeared .
,

to b e a girl quite young and s h e w a s walking i n the great,

heat b areheaded and with no parasol o r gloves waving h e r ,

arms a b out i n an a b su rd way S he had on a d ress o f some .

l ight s ilky mate ri al but put on strangely awry not properly

, ,

hooked up and to rn op en at the top o f the skirt close to t h e

, ,

waist : a great pi e ce w as rent and hanging loose A l ittl e .

kerchi e f w a s flung about her b are throat b ut lay slanting o n ,

one side The gi rl was walking unsteadily too stum b ling

.
, ,
’

and staggeri ng from s ide to side S he drew Ra s k o l n ik o v s .

whol e attenti o n at l ast H e overtook the gi rl at the seat

. ,

bu t o n r eachin g i t she dropped down on it i n the co rner ;

, , ,

she l et he r head sink o n the b ack o f the seat and closed her
eyes app arently i n extreme exhaustion
,
Looking at her .

closely h e s aw at o nce that she w a s completely drunk It

,
.

was a str ange and sho cking s ight H e could hardly b eli eve .
46 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

that he w as not m i staken H e s a w b efo r e h i m the face o f a .

qu ite young fa irh a ire d gi rl— sixteen p e rhap s not m or e than

, ,

fi fte en year s ol d a p retty l ittl e f ace b ut flush ed and heavy

, , ,

l ooking and as i t w e re sw o l l en Th e gi rl s eem ed hardly to

, , .

know wh at s h e w a s do ing ; s h e cro ss ed o n e l eg o ve r the

o the r l i fting it i ndeco rou sly and showed e very s ign o f
, ,

b ei ng u nc o ns ciou s that she w as i n th e street .

Raskolniko v di d not s it dow n but he f elt u nwilling t o ,

le ave her and stoo d f aci ng he r i n p e rpl exity Thi s boul e

,
.

’
vard w as nev e r mu ch f requ ente d ; and now at two o cl o ck , ,

i n the s ti fl i ng he at i t was qu ite de s erted And yet o n th e , .

fu rthe r s id e o f th e bo ul ev ard ab o ut fi fte en p ace s away a , ,

gentleman was standi ng o n the edge o f th e p avem ent he , ,

to o wou l d appare ntly hav e l iked to appro ach th e gi rl w ith

,

s ome obj ect o f his own H e t o o had p ro b a b ly s ee n he r i n .

, ,

th e di stance and had follow ed her but found Raskolniko v ,

i n hi s w ay H e l ooke d angrily at him though he t ri ed t o

.
,

e scap e hi s noti ce and stoo d i mpati e ntly b idi ng hi s t im e , ,

t il l the u nwel com e ma n i n rags shoul d hav e m ov ed away .

H i s i ntentions w er e u nmi stakabl e The gentl eman w as a .

p lump thi ckly s et m an about thi rty fashi onab ly d r e ss ed

,
-
, , ,

w ith a high col ou r r ed l ip s and mo ustach es Raskolni ko v , .

f elt furi ou s ; he had a sudden longi ng to i nsult thi s f at dandy

i n s om e w ay H e l e ft th e gi rl f or a m o m ent and w alked
.

towa rds the gentl eman

”
.

“
H ey ! Y o u S v id r iga i l o v ! What do you w ant he re ?
h e shouted cl enching hi s fi sts and l aughing splutte ri ng with
, ,

r age
”
.

What do you m ean ? the ge ntl em an aske d ste rnly s cowl ,

ing i n haughty asto ni shme nt .

’
Get away that s what I m ean , .

H o w dare yo u y o u l ow fellow ! ,

H e r ai s ed hi s cane Raskolnikov ru shed at him with hi s .

fi sts wi thout r efl e cti ng that the stout gentl eman w a s a

,

m atch fo r two m en l ike him sel f B ut at that i nstant som e .

o n e s ei z ed him from b ehind and a p ol i ce co nstabl e stoo d ,

b etwe en th em .

That s en o ugh gentl emen n o fi ghting pl ease i n a publi c

“ ’

”
, , , ,

?
pl ace What do yo u w ant Wh o ar e you ? he aske d Ras
.

k o l n ik o v ster nly n o tici ng hi s r ags , .

48 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

h e r t o he r add re s s Th e o nly thing i s to fi nd o u t he r

”
.

addre ss !
”
M i s s y m i ssy ! th e pol icem an b egan agai n t aking the
, ,
“ ’
m on ey .I l l fetch you a c a b and tak e you hom e mys el f .

Whe r e shall I t ake you eh ? Whe r e d o you l ive ” 3

”
,
“
Go a w a v ! They wo n t l et m e alo ne th e gi rl mutte red ’
, ,

and once mo re w av ed h er hand .

’
Ach ach how sho cking ! It s sham eful mi s sy it s a ’

”
, , , ,

shame ! H e shook hi s head agai n sho cked symp athetic , ,

and i ndignant .

“ ’
It s a di fficul t j ob th e pol i cem an s aid t o Raskolniko v, ,

and as h e did so h e lo oked him u p and down i n a rapid

,

gl ance H e to o mu st hav e s eem ed a st range fi gu re to him :

.
, ,

d res s ed i n r ags and handing him mo ney !

“
D i d you m e et h e r far f ro m he r e ? ” h e asked him .

I tell yo u s h e w as w alki ng i n f ront o f m e stagger ing , ,

j u st h ere i n th e b oul ev ard S h e o nly j u st r eached th e

”
.
,

s eat and s ank down o n it .

“
Ah th e shame ful things th at a r e d o ne i n th e wo rld
,

nowadays God hav e m ercy o n u s ! An inno cent c reatu re

,

l ike th at d runk al re ady ! S he h as b een dece ived that s

, ,
’

a su r e thing S e e how h er d r ess has b een to rn too

. .

Ah th e v i ce o n e s ees nowadays ! And as l ikely as not she

,

b elongs to gentl efolk t o o p o or ones m ayb e The r e ,

.

a r e m any l ik e that now adays S he l ooks r e fined to o as

”
.
, ,

t hough sh e w ‘er e a l ady and h e b ent o v e r h e r o nce mo re , .

“
P erhap s h e h a d daughte r s grow ing up l ik e that lo oking
”
,

l ike l adi es and r e fin ed w ith p r etens i ons to gentil ity and

smartness .

“
The chi e f th ing i s Rask o lnikov pe rsi sted to keep h e r , ,

o u t o f thi s scound rel s h ands ! Why should h e outr age he r !

’

It s as cl ear a s day w hat h e i s a fter ; ah th e b rute h e i s

’
, ,

not mov ing o ff !

Raskolnikov spoke aloud and po inted t o h im The gentl e .

m a n h e ard him a n d s eem ed about to fly into a r age again

, ,

b ut thou ght b etter o f i t and c o nfined h imsel f to a con ,

t e m p t u o u s lo ok H e then walked slowly an o the r t en p aces

.

away and agai n halted .

“
K e ep h er out o f hi s hands w e can s aid th e c o nstabl e ,
“
t hought fully i f o nly she d t el l u s wh e re to tak e h e r but
,
’

,
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 49

as it IS .
M issy hey ”
mi ssy ! he bent ov er he r once
, ,

intently as though real i sing something got up from the

,
,

s eat and walked away i n the di rection from wh ich s h e had

com e . O h shame ful w retches they wo n t l et m e alone ! ” ’
,

s he said w av ing her hand again

, She walked quickly .
,

though stagge ring as b e fo re T h e dandy followed her .

,

but along anothe r avenu e keeping hi s eye on he r ,

”
.

’
D o n t b e anxiou s I won t l et him hav e her the pol ice
,
’

m an s aid resolutely and h e s e t o ff afte r them

,
”
.

“
Ah th e v ice o n e s ee s nowadays ! he repeated aloud
, ,

sighing .

At that mom ent something seemed to sting Raskolnikov ;

i n an instant a compl ete r evul si on o f feel in g came ov er him
”
.

“
H e y he re I h e shouted afte r th e pol iceman
, .

Th e latte r tu rned round .

“
Let them b e ! What i s it to do with you ? Let he r g o !
Let him amuse hims el f H e pointed at the dandy What “

”
.
,

i s it to do with yo u ?

Th e poli ceman wa s b ewildered and stared at him open ,

eyed Raskolnikov l aughed

.

”
.

“
Well ! ej acul ated the pol iceman w ith a gestu re o f con ,

t empt and h e w alked a fte r the dandy and the g i rl pro b a b ly

, ,

taking Raskolnikov fo r a madman o r something even wo rse .

“ ”
H e h as car ri ed o ff my twenty copecks Raskolniko v ,

mu rmu red angrily when h e was le ft alone Well l et him .

,

t ake as m u ch f rom the othe r fellow to allow him to have

th e gi rl and so l et it end And why did I want to interfere ?
.

Is it fo r m e to help ? H av e I any right to help ? Let them

d evou r each othe r al iv e what i s it to me ? H o w did I -

d ar e to giv e him twenty cop ecks ? Were they mine ?

I n sp ite o f thos e strange wo rds he felt v ery wretched .

H e s a t down o n the deserted seat H is thou g hts strayed .

aiml essly H e found i t hard to fix hi s mind on any

.

thing a t that moment H e longed to fo rget himsel f

.

altogethe r to fo rget eve rything and then to wake u p and

, ,

be g i n l i f e anew
”
.

Poo r gi rl ! he s aid looki ng at the empty co rner where

,

sh e had s a t— f S h e will c o me t o hersel f and weep and then ,

50 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S KY

h e r mo the r w il l fi nd ou t S h e w ill gi v e h e r a b eat ing

.
,

a ho rribl e sham eful b eat ing and then m aybe tu rn h er o ut

, ,

of do o r s . And ev en i f s h e do es not th e D arya ,

F ra n t s o v n as wi ll get wi nd o f it and th e gi rl w il l s o o n b e ,

sl ipp ing o u t o n th e s l y h e r e and the r e T hen ther e w ill b e .

th e h o sp ital di r ectly ( that s always th e lu ck o f tho s e gi rl s

’

with r esp ectab l e mothers w h o go w rong o n th e s l y ) ,

and th e th e .

t ave rns and mo r e hosp i tal i n two o r th ree year s— a ,

w r eck and he r l i fe o v e r at eighteen o r ni net e en

, H av e .

not I s een cas es l ike th at ? And how hav e th ey b een b rought

to i t ? Why they v e al l com e to i t l ik e th at Ugh ! B ut
,
’
.

what do es it m atter ? That s a s i t should b e they t el l u s ’

, .

A ce rtai n p e rcentage th ey tell u s mu st ev ery ye ar go

, ,

that way t o th e d ev il I supp o s e s o that th e re st m ay

, ,

r emai n ch aste and n o t b e i nter f er ed w ith A p er centage !

, .

Wh at spl endi d wo rds they h av e ; th ey ar e so s ci entifi c s o

consolato ry .
‘
O nc e y o u v e s aid p ercentage
’
th er e s ’
,
’
,

n o thing mo r e t o w o r ry ab o ut I f w e h ad any o the r .

w o rd mayb e w e m ight feel m o r e un easy B ut .

wh at i f D ou ni a w er e o n e o f th e p ercen t age ! O f an o th e r
o n e i f no t that o n e ?
“
B ut whe re am I go ing ? ”h e th o ught suddenl y S tr ange . .

I came o u t f or something A s so on as I had r ead th e l ette r

.

I cam e o u t I was g o i ng to V a s s il ye v s ky O str o v t o

.
,

Ra z u m ih in n o w I rememb e r
’
That s what it w as
. .

What fo r though ? And wh at put th e ide a o f goi ng t o

”
,

Ra z u m ihin i nto my h ead j u s t now Th at s cu ri o u s ’

? .

H e wond er ed at him sel f Ra z u m ihin was o n e o f hi s o l d

.

com rades at th e u niv e rsity It was r emark abl e tha t .

Raskolnikov had hardly any f ri ends at th e univ e rsi ty ; h e

kept aloo f f rom ev e ry o n e went to s e e no o n e and did , ,

n o t w el com e any o n e w h o cam e to s e e him and ind eed ,

ev ery o n e soo n gave h im up H e took no p art i n the .

student s gath eri ngs amu sem ents o r conv ers ati ons
’
, He .

wo rked with gr e at inten sity without sparing him sel f and ,

h e w a s r esp ected f o r th i s but n o o n e l iked him H e wa s

, .

v e ry poo r and th er e w a s a s o rt o f h aughty p ri de and

,

r es erv e about him as though h e we r e ke ep ing som ething

,

t o him sel f H e see m ed t o s om e o f hi s c o m rades to l oo k

.
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MENT 51

d o wn u p o n them all as child ren as though h e were superio r ,

i n dev elopment knowl edge and convictions a s though thei r

, ,

b el i e fs and interests we r e b eneath him .

With Ra z u m ih in h e had got on o r at l east h e w a s more , , ,

unres erved and communi cativ e w ith him Indeed it was .

impo ssibl e to b e o n any other term s with Ra z u m ih in H e .

w a s an exceptionally good humoured and candid youth -

,

good —natu red to th e point o f simpli city though both depth ,

and dignity l ay conce al ed u nder that simpl icity The b etter .

o f hi s c o mrades u nder sto od this and all were f o nd o f him , .

H e w as extremely intelligent though h e was certainl y ,

r athe r a simpl eton at time s H e was o f striking appearance

.

— tall thin bl ack h ai red and always b adly shaved

,
-
H e was .
,

sometimes up ro ariou s and w a s r eputed to b e o f great

physi cal strength O n e n ight when o u t in a festive com
.
,

p any h e had w ith o n e blo w l aid a gigantic pol iceman o n

,

h i s b ack There was no l im it to hi s drinking powers but

.
,

h e could ab stai n f rom drink altogether ; h e sometime s w ent

t o o far i n h i s p ranks ; b ut h e could do without p ranks
altogethe r Another thing striking about Ra z u m ih in no
. ,

f ailu r e di st r ess ed him and i t s eemed as th o ugh no

,

u n fav o u rabl e ci rcumst ances could crush him H e could .

lodge anywh ere and b ear the extremes o f cold and hun g e r
,
.

H e w a s v ery po o r and kept himsel f enti rely o n what he

,

coul d earn by wo rk o f o n e so rt o r another He kne w o f .

no end o f r esou rces by which to earn money H e spent .

o n e wh o l e wi nte r without l ighting hi s stov e and u sed to ,

d eclar e that h e l iked i t b ette r b ecau se o n e slept mo re ,

s o undly i n th e c o ld F o r the p resent h e too had b een

. .
, ,

o bl iged t o giv e up th e unive rsity b ut i t was only fo r a time , ,

and h e w a s w o rking w ith all hi s mi g ht to sav e enough to

r eturn to hi s studi es again Raskolnikov had not been to .

s e e hi m fo r th e l ast fou r months and Ra z u m ihin did not ,

ev en know h i s addres s A b out two months b efo re they

. ,

had m et i n th e street but Raskolnikov had tu rned away

,

and even cro ssed to the othe r side that h e might not b e
ob serv ed And though Ra z u m ih in noticed him he p assed
. ,

hi m by a s h e did no t want t o ann o y him

,
.
 C HAPT E R V

F
’
c o u rs e
I v e b een m eaning l ately to g o to
,

Ra z u m ih in s to ask fo r wo rk to ask him to get m e

’

l es son s o r som ething Raskolnikov thou ght .

,

bu t what h elp can h e b e to m e now ? S upp o s e h e gets m e

l essons suppo s e h e sh ar es hi s l ast f arthing w ith m e i f
, ,

h e h as any f arthings s o that I could get som e boot s and,

m ak e mys el f t idy enough to giv e l essons hm

Wel l and wh at then ? What shal l I do w ith th e few copp er s
’
I earn ? Th at s n o t wh at I w ant now I t s re ally ab su rd .
’

f o r m e to go to Ra z u m ihin
Th e qu estio n w hy h e w a s n o w go ing t o Ra z u m ih in
agitated hi m ev en mor e than h e w as hims el f aw are ; h e k ept
u neas ily s eeking fo r som e s in i ster s igni fic ance i n thi s
a pp ar ently o rdinary acti o n .

C o uld I h av e exp ect ed to s e t it all str aight and t o find

a w ay o u t by m e ans o f Ra z u m ih in alo ne ? ” h e asked him sel f
i n p erpl exity .

H e ponder ed and rubb ed h i s fo r eh ead and st range to s ay , , ,

a fte r long mu si ng suddenly as i t we r e sp o ntan eou sly and

, ,

by chance a f antasti c thought cam e i nto hi s h ead

”
.
,

Hm to Ra z u m ihin s h e s aid all at o nce calmly ’

, , ,

as th o ugh h e had r each ed a fi nal determination I shal l .

go to Ra z u m ihin s o f cou rs e bu t ’
not now I shal l , .

go to h im o n the next day after It wh en It wi ll b e ,

o v e r and eve rything will b egin a fre sh .

And su ddenly he r eali s ed what h e w as think ing

”
.

“
A fte r It h e shout ed j ump ing up f rom th e s ea t bu t
, , ,

i s I t re ally go ing t o happ en ? I s it po s sibl e i t r e ally w il l

happen ? ” H e l e ft th e s eat and w ent o ff almo st at a run ; ,

h e m eant to tu rn b ack hom ewards but th e thought o f , ,

go ing h o me suddenly fi ll ed hi m w ith i nt ens e lo athi ng ; i n ,

that hol e i n that aw ful l ittl e cupb o ard o f hi s all this had
, ,

fo r a month p ast b een growi ng up i n hi m ; and h e walked

o n at r andom .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 53

Hi s n e rvou s shudde r had passed into a fev er that made

him f eel shivering ; i n sp ite o f th e heat he felt cold With .

a kind o f e ffo rt h e b egan almost unconsciou sly from some ,

inne r craving to star e a t a ll the obj ect s b e fo r e him as

,
,
,

though looking fo r some thing to distract hi s attention ; but

h e did no t succeed and kept dropp ing every moment into
,

b rooding When w ith a start h e l i fted hi s head again and

.

lo oked rou nd h e fo rgot at once what he had j u st b een

,

thinking about and ev en wh ere h e w as going I n thi s .

w a y h e walked r ight acros s V a ss il ye v s ky O strov came o u t ,

on to the Les ser N eva cro ssed the b ridge and tu rned ,

toward s th e i sl ands Th e greennes s and freshness were at

.

fi rst r est ful to hi s weary eyes after the dust o f the town
and th e huge hou ses that hemmed him in and wei g hed
upon him H e re there wer e no t averns no stifling close
.
,

n ess no stench
,
B ut soon thes e new pl easant sensations
.

passed into mo rb id i rritabi lity S ometimes h e stood still .

b e fo re a b rightly p ainted summer v ill a standing amon g

gre en foli age h e gaz ed through th e f ence h e s a w in the
, ,

distance smartly d ressed women o n the verandahs and

b alconi es and chi ldren running i n the gardens T h e flowers
,
.

esp eci ally caught hi s attention ; h e gaz ed at them lon g e r

than at anything H e was m et too by luxu riou s carri a g es
.
, ,

and by men and women o n ho rse b ack ; h e watched them

w ith cu riou s eyes and fo rgot a b out them b e fo re they had
v ani shed from hi s sight O nce he stood still and counted
.

“
hi s money ; he found h e had thi rty copecks Twenty to .

the pol i ceman th re e to N a st a sya fo r the l etter so I must

,
,

hav e gi ven fo rty s ev en o r fi fty to th e M a rm e l a do v s

-

”
yesterday h e thought r eckoning it up fo r some unknown
, ,

reason but h e s oo n fo rgot with what obj ect he had taken

,

the money o u t o f h i s pocket H e recall ed it o n passing .

an eating hou s e o r t avern

- and felt that he wa s ,

hungry .
Go ing into th e tav ern h e drank a gl ass o f
vodka and ate a p i e o f som e so rt H e finished eatin g it .

as h e walked away It was a l ong whil e since h e had

.

taken vo dka and it had an e ffect upon h im at once t h ough ,

h e only dr ank a w in e gl ass ful H is l e g s felt suddenly

- .

h eavy and a great drowsi ness came upon him H e tu rned .

hom ewards b ut reaching P etr o vsky O strov he stopped com

,
54 F Y OD O R D O S T O EV S KY

p l e t ely exhau sted tu rned o ff th e r o ad int o th e b u sh es s ank

, ,

d o wn upon th e gr ass and i nstantly f el l asl eep .

I n a mo rb id co nditio n o f th e b rai n dreams o ften h av e a ,

s ingul ar actu al ity v iv idness and extrao rdinary sem b lance

,

o f real ity . At time s m o nstrou s i mages ar e cr eated but th e ,

s etting and th e wh o l e p i ctu r e a r e s o t ruthl ike and fi ll ed

w ith d etail s s o d el i cate s o unexp ected but s o art isti cally
, ,

con si stent that th e d reame r w er e h e an arti st l ike Pu shki n

, ,

o r Tu rgen ev ev en could n ev e r hav e i nv ented them i n the

,

w aking state S uch s ick d ream s always r em ai n long i n the

.

m emo ry and m ak e a p o we r ful impr es si o n o n the o ve r

wrought and deranged n erv ou s system .

Rask o l niko v h ad a f ear fu l d ream H e d reamt h e w as .

b ack i n h is ch ildh oo d i n th e l ittl e town o f hi s b i rth H e .

w a s a chi ld about s ev en year s o l d w alking into the country ,

w ith h i s fath e r o n th e ev ening o f a h o l iday It w as a .

g rey and heavy day th e c o unt ry was exactly as h e,

r em em b e r ed i t ; i ndeed h e re call ed i t f ar m o re v ivi dly i n

h i s d ream than h e had d o n e i n m emo ry The l ittl e town .

st oo d o n a l ev el flat as b ar e a s th e hand n o t ev en a willow ,

n ea r i t ; only i n th e f ar di stance a cop se l ay a d ark blu r , ,

o n the v ery edg e o f th e h o ri z on A f ew p aces b eyond the

.

l ast market garden stoo d a t av e rn a b ig t av er n wh ich h ad , ,

alw ays arou s ed in him a f eel ing o f av er si o n ev en o f f ea r , ,

when h e w alked by i t with hi s f athe r Ther e w as always .

a cr o wd the r e always shouting l au ghte r and abu s e hid e

, , ,

ous ho ars e s inging and o ften fighting D runken and .

ho rribl e —l ooking fi gu re s w er e h anging about th e t av ern .

H e u s ed to cl ing cl o s e to hi s f ath er t r embl ing al l o v e r when ,

h e m et them N ea r th e t avern th e ro ad b ecam e a du sty

.

tr ack th e du st o f wh i ch w a s always bl ack

,
It w as a .

w i nding ro ad and ab ou t a hu nd red p ace s fu rther o n it

, ,

tu rned t o th e right to the grav eyard I n th e middl e o f th e .

grav eyard sto od a ston e chu rch with a green cupol a wher e
h e u sed to go to m as s two o r th ree tim es a yea r w ith h i s
f athe r and m o the r wh en a s e rvi c e was h eld i n m emory
,

o f h i s grandmoth e r w h o had l ong b een dead

,
and whom ,

h e had n eve r s een O n thes e o ccas i o ns they u sed t o t ake

.

o n a w hite di sh ti ed u p i n a tabl e n apki n a sp eci al so rt

o f r ic e pudding w ith r ais ins s t u ck i n it in th e shap e o f
56 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

Tak e u s all with a b east l ike th at ! ”

Why M ik o l k a ar e you crazy to pu t a nag l ike th a t in
”
, ,

s u ch a cart ?
“
And thi s m ar e i s tw enty i f sh e i s a day m ates ! ,

Get i n I ll t ak e yo u all M ik o lk a shouted again l eap

,
’

, ,

i ng fi rst into the cart seiz ing th e rein s and standi ng st r aight ,

u p i n f ront The b ay has gon e w ith M atvey h e shouted

.
,
“
f rom the cart — and thi s b rut e m ate s i s j u st b reaking my , ,

h eart I f eel a s i f I coul d kill h er

,
S h e s j u st eati ng he r .
’

h ead o ff Get i n I tell yo u ! I l l m ake h er gall o p ! S h e ll ’ ’

”
.
,

gallop ! and h e p icked u p th e whip p r ep aring himsel f ,

with r el i sh to fl og th e l ittl e m ar e
”
.

“ “
Get i n ! C om e along ! Th e cr o w d l aughed D yo n .
’

h ea r sh e l l gallop !
’

,
“
Gall o p i ndeed ! S h e has n o t h ad a gall o p i n h e r fo r the
l ast ten years !
”
“
S h e ll j o g along !
’ ”
D on t y o u m ind h er m a t e s b ring a whip each o f y o u
’

”
, , ,

get r eady !
Al l right ! Giv e i t to h e r !
Th ey all cl amb er ed i nto M ik o l k a s cart l au ghing and ’
,

making j okes S ix m en got i n and ther e w as stil l ro om

.

fo r m o r e They h aul ed i n a fat ro sy ch ecked woman

.
,
-
.

S h e w as d ress ed i n r ed c o tto n i n a po inted b eaded head , ,

d res s and thi ck l eath e r sho es ; s h e w a s c racking nuts and

l aughing Th e crowd round th em w as l augh ing to o and
.

indeed how could they h elp l aughing

,
?
That w r etched
nag was to d rag al l th e cartlo ad o f th em at a gal lop ! Tw o .

yo ung fell ows i n th e ca rt w e r e j u st getting whips r eady

“ ”
to help M ik o l k a With th e c ry o f now th e m ar e tu gged
.
,

with all he r might but f ar f rom galloping c o uld sca rcely , ,

mo v e fo rward ; s h e st ruggl ed with h er l egs gasping and ,

sh ri nking f r o m th e b l o w s o f th e th re e w hips whi ch w e r e

sh o w e red up o n h er l ike hail Th e l aught er i n th e cart and .

i n th e c rowd was r edoubl ed but M ik o lk a fl ew i nto a rage ,

and fu ri ou sly thrashed th e m ar e as th o ugh h e supp o sed ,

s h e r eally coul d gallop .

“
Let m e get i n t o o m ates shouted a y o ung m an in t h e
, , ,

c rowd who s e app etit e w a s a rou s ed

”
.

“
Get in al l get in c ri ed M ik o l k a sh e will dr aw y ou
, , ,
 C RIM E AND P UN IS H MENT 57

’
all I ll b eat he r to death !
— ” And he thrashed and th rashed
at the m are b eside himsel f with fu ry
”
.
, .

“ “
F ather f ather h e cri ed f ather what ar e they do ing ?
, , , ,

F athe r they ar e b eating the poo r ho rse ! ”

,
“ ”
C ome al o ng come along ! ,s aid his fathe r They ar e .

d runken and fooli sh they ar e i n fun ; come away don t '

”
, ,

lo ok ! and h e t ri ed to d raw him away b ut h e to re himsel f ,

away from hi s hand and beside himsel f with ho rro r ran to , , ,

the ho rs e The poo r b east wa s in a bad w a y S he w a s gasp

. .

ing standing sti ll then tugging again and almo st falling

”
, , .

cri ed M ik o lk a it s come to that

“ “
B eat he r t o death ’

”
, , .

I l l do fo r her !
’

What ar e you about are yo u a C hristi an you d evi l ? , ,

shouted an o l d man in the crowd .

“
D id any o n e ever s e e th e l ike ? A wretched nag l ike t h at
”
pull ing su ch a cartload s aid anothe r
”
.
,
“ ’
You ll ki ll her shouted the third , .

D on t m eddle ! I t s my p roperty I ll d o what I choose

’ ’

,
’
.

Get in mo r e o f yo u ! Get in al l o f you ! I will have her

, ,

go at a gallop !
All at once l aughter b rok e into a roar and covered every
thing : the m ar e rou sed by the shower o f b lows b egan fee b ly
, ,

k icking E v en the o l d man cou ld not help smiling To

. .

think o f a w retched l ittl e b east l ike that t rying to kick !

Tw o l ads i n th e crowd snatched up whip s and ran to th e
m ar e t o b eat he r about the ribs O n e ran each side . .

“
H it her in th e face in the eyes in the eyes cri ed , , ,

M ik o lk a .

“
Giv e u s a s o ng mates shouted some o n e i n the cart and
, ,

ev e ry o n e i n the cart j o ined in a r iotou s song j ingling a ,

tambou rin e and whistl ing Th e woman went o n cracking .

nuts and laughing .

H e r an b eside the mare ran in front o f he r saw he r , ,

being whipped acro ss th e eyes right i n the eyes ! H e w a s ,

crying h e felt choking his tears wer e streaming O n e o f

, ,
.

the m en gav e him a cut w ith the whip acros s the face he ,

di d not feel it Wring ing h is hands and screamin g he

. ,

ru shed u p to the grey headed o l d man with the g rey b eard -

,

w h o was shaking hi s head i n di sapp roval O n e woman sei zed .

h im by the h and and w o uld h av e t aken him away b ut h e ,

58 F Y OD O R D OS TO EV S KY

t o r e hims el f fr om h e r and ran b ack to th e mare S h e was .

almo st at th e l ast gasp but began ki cking o nce mo re

” M ik o l k a
.
,
“
I ll teach y o u to ki ck
’
shouted fero ciou sly H e
, .

th rew down th e whip b ent fo rward and p icked u p fr o m the

,

b ottom o f th e cart a l o ng thi ck sha ft h e t ook h o ld o f one , ,

end with both hands and with an e ffo r t b randi sh ed it ov er

th e mar e .

“ ’
H e ll cru sh her w a s shouted r o u nd him H e ll k ill
’
.
,

her ! ”
“
I t s my p r o pe r t y shou ted M ik o lk a and b r o u ght the sha ft
’
,

down with a swinging b l o w There w a s a sound o f a heavy .

thu d
”
.

“
Thrash he r t hrash h er ! Why h av e yo u st o pp ed ?
,

shouted voi ces in the crowd .

And M ik o lk a swung th e sh a ft a s ec o nd t im e and it fell a

s econd t im e o n th e S p in e o f th e lu ckl es s m are Sh e s ank .

b ack on h er h au nches but lu rched fo rward and tu gged fo r

,

wa rd w ith al l he r fo rce t ugged fi rst o n o n e sid e and then ,

o n th e oth er trying to m o v e th e cart B u t the s ix whip s

, .

w er e attacking he r i n all di rections and th e sha ft was rai s ed ,

agai n and fel l u pon he r a t h i rd t ime then a fo u rth w ith , ,

h eavy m easu r ed blows M ik o lk a w a s i n a fu ry tha t he c o uld

.

n o t ki l l he r at o n e bl ow
”
.

“ ’
S he s a tough o n e wa s shout ed in t h e c ro wd
, .

S h e l l fal l i n a minute m ates th er e w i ll s o o n b e an end

’

”
, ,

o f her s ai d an admi r ing sp ecta t o r i n th e cr o wd .

”
,
“
F etch an axe t o her ! F i ni sh h er o ff shout ed a thi rd , .

“ ”
I ll show y o u ! S tand o ff M ik o l k a sc reamed fr anti cal ly
’

h e thr ew down the sh aft stoop ed down in th e cart and p i cked

”
,
“
u p an i r o n crowb a r Look out h e shou t ed and w ith all
.
, ,

h i s might h e d ealt a stunning blo w at th e po o r m are The .

bl ow fel l ; th e m ar e stagge red s ank b ack t ri ed to pu ll but , , ,

th e b a r fel l agai n w ith a swinging blow o n h e r b ack and

s h e fel l o n th e grou nd l ik e a l og
”
.

F ini sh h e r o ff shout ed M ik o lk a and he l eapt b eside h im

“
, ,

s el f ou t o f th e ca r S ev e ral y o ung m en al s o fl u shed with

, .
,

dri nk s ei z ed anything they cou ld come acro ss— whips s t icks

, , ,

pol e s and r an to the dying m are M ik o l k a sto od on o n e s id e

, .

and be gan dealing random blow s w ith th e crowb a r Th e .

mar e str etch ed out her head d rew a l o ng b reath and di ed , .

 C R I ME A ND P UN I S H M E NT 59

Yo u butch er ed he r some o ne shouted i n th e crowd

”
, .

Why wou ldn t she g allop then ’

?
”
M y p rop erty ! shouted M ik o l k a with b loodshot eyes , ,

b r andi shing th e b ar in hi s hands H e stood a s though t e .

g r e tt in g that h e h ad nothing mor e to b eat .

“
N o m istak e abou t it you are not a C hri stian , many ,

v oi ce s wer e shouting in the crowd .

B u t the poo r boy beside himsel f m ade hi s w a y s creaming

, , ,

through th e crowd t o th e sorr el nag put his arms round ,

he r b leeding dead head and kissed it ki ssed th e eye s and ,

ki ss ed the lips Then h e j umped up and flew in a f renzy

.

with hi s l ittle fi sts o u t at M ik o lk a At that instant hi s fathe r .

w h o had b een running a fte r him snatched him up and car ,

r i ed hi m o u t o f th e cro w d .

“
C o me along come ! L et u s go home he said to hi m
”
.
, ,

F ather ! Why did they ki ll the poo r ho rse !

h e sobbed but h is voice b roke and th e words came in shriek s
,

from hi s p anting chest .

“
They a r e drunk They ar e b rutal it s n o t ou r ’

”
.

bu si ne s s ! sai d hi s fathe r H e put hi s arms round hi s

.

fathe r but h e felt choked choked H e tried to draw a

, ,
.

br eath to c ry o u t— and woke up

,
.

H e waked up gasp ing fo r b reath hi s hai r soaked with

, ,

p erspi ration and stood u p in ter ro r

,
.

“
Thank God that was only a dream h e said s itting down
, , ,
“
under a tree and d rawing deep b reaths But what i s it ?
”
.

I s it s o me fever coming o n ? Su ch a hideou s dre am !

H e f el t utterly b roken ; darkness and con fu sion wer e in
h i s soul H e r ested hi s elb o ws on hi s knee s and lean ed hi s
.

h ead o n hi s hands
”
.

“
Goo d God ! h e cr i ed c a n it b e can it be that I shall
, , ,

r eal ly tak e an axe that I shall strike her o n th e head spl it

, ,

her skul l open that I shal l t read in th e sticky warm

blood b reak the l ock steal and tremble ; hide al l spatte red
, , ,

in th e blo od with the axe Good God can it b e . ,

He w a s sh aking l ike a l ea f as he said thi s .

“ ? ”
B ut w hy am I go ing o n like this h e continu ed sittin g ,
“
u p again a s it were i n pro found amazement
,
I knew that .

I cou ld n ev er b ring mysel f t o i t so what hav e I b een tor ,

tu ring mysel f fo r t ill n o w ? Yes t e r day yesterday when I , ,

60 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S KY

went t o make tha t e x pe r im e n t yesterday I real i sed co m

o
,

pl e t e l y that I cou ld nev er b ear to do it Why am I going .

o ve r it again th en ? Why am I stil l hes it ating ? A s I came

,

down th e stai rs yesterday I s aid m y s el f that it was b ase , ,

l oathsom e vil e v il e
, , the v e ry th o ught o f it made me
feel s ick and fi l l ed m e w ith ho r ro r .

“
N o I cou ldn t do it I couldn t do it ! Granted gr ant ed
’ ’

, , ,

that ther e i s no fl aw i n all th at r easoning that al l that I have ,

concluded th i s l ast month is cl ear as d ay t ru e as arith ,

m eti c
. M y God ! Anyway I cou ldn t b ring mys el f t o ’

i t ! I cou ldn t do it I cou ldn t do it ! Why why then am

’
,
’

I stil l
H e ro s e to hi s feet lo oked rou nd i n wonder as though su r
,

p ri s ed a t finding h imsel f in this pl ace and went towards th e ,

bridge H e was pal e h is eye s glowed h e was exhau sted i n

.
, ,

ev ery l i mb bu t h e s eem ed suddenly to b re ath e mo r e easily

, .

H e felt he had cas t o ff that fear fu l bu rden that had s o long

been w eighing up on him and all at once ther e was a s ens e
”
,
“ “
o f reli e f and p eace i n h is soul Lo rd h e p rayed show .

”
, ,

m e my p ath I r enounce that accu rs ed

— d ream o f mine .

C ro ssing th e b ridge h e gaz ed qu i etly and calmly at th e

,

N ev a at the glowing r ed s u n s etting i n th e glow ing s ky I n

, .

sp ite o f hi s weaknes s h e w a s not cons ciou s o f fatigu e It .

w a s as thou gh an ab sces s that h ad b een forming fo r a month

p ast i n hi s h eart had suddenly b roken F r e edom fr eedo m ! .
,

H e w a s free frb m that sp ell th at so rce ry that obs es si on ! , ,

Late r o n when h e r ecall ed that tim e and al l that h ap

,

p ened to hi m du r ing tho s e days minute by m inut e p oint by , ,

po int h e w as sup erstitiou sly imp ress ed by o n e ci rcumstance

, ,

whi ch though in it sel f not v e ry exception al always s eemed ,

to him a fterwards the p redestined tu rning point o f hi s fate -

.

He coul d nev e r u nde rstand and expl ai n to hims el f w hy wh en ,

h e was t i red and wo rn out wh en it would h av e b een mo r e ,

c o nv eni ent fo r him to go home by th e sho rtest and mo st

d i rect way h e h ad r etu rned by th e H ay M ark et wh er e h e
,

h ad no need to go It was obv iou sly and qu it e u nneces s ari ly

.

out o f hi s way thou gh not mu ch s o It i s tru e that it hap

,
.

p ened t o him doz ens o f ti mes to r etu rn ho me w ithout n o t ic

i ng what streets h e p as sed th rough B ut why he was always .
,

asking hims el f why had su ch a n im p o r t ant su ch a d eci s iv e

, ,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 61

and at the s am e time su ch an absolutely chance meeting

happ ened in th e Hay M arket ( wher e he had mo r eov er no
reason to go ) at the v ery hou r the very minute o f hi s li fe ,

when h e was j u st in th e v ery mood and in the v ery ci rcum

stances in whi ch that meeting was a b l e to exe rt the g ravest
a n d most deci s iv e influ ence o n hi s whol e destiny ? As
though it had b een lying in wait fo r him on pu rpose !
I t w a s abou t nin e o clock when he cross ed the H a y M ar
’

ket At the tab les and the barrows at the b ooths and the
.
,

shop s al l th e market p eopl e were clo s ing thei r e sta b l ish

,

ments o r clearing aw ay and p acking up thei r wares and l ike ,

thei r cu stomers wer e go ing home Rag p ickers and co ste r

, .

monger s o f all kind s we r e crowdin g round the t averns in

th e di rty and stinking cou rtyards o f the H a y M arket Ras .

k o l n ik o v parti cul arly l iked th is p lace and the neigh b ou ring

alleys when he wandered aimlessly i n the streets H ere h is
, .

rags did not attract contemptuou s attention and one could ,

walk about i n any atti re w ithout s candal i sing p eopl e At .

th e co rner o f an al l ey a huckster and hi s wi fe had two

t ab les s e t o u t with t ap es thread cotton handkerchie fs & c
, , ,
.

They too h ad got up to go home but were lingerin g in

, , ,

co nv ers atio n with a fri end w h o had j ust come up to them

,
.

Thi s friend w a s L iz a v et a Ivanovna o r as every one called , ,

h er Liz a v e ta th e younger si ster o f the o l d pawn b roker

, , ,

A l yo n a I vanovn a whom Raskolnikov had v isited the p reviou s

,

d ay to p awn h is watch and make hi s e x pe r im e n t He .

al ready knew al l ‘ab ou t L iz a v e t a and s h e knew him a l ittle

too . Sh e was a s in g l e woman o f a b out thi rty —h y e t all , ,

clumsy timid submissi ve and almost idioti c She was a com

, ,
.

l e t e s l av e and w ent in fear and trem b l in g o f her si ste r w ho

p ,

made her wo rk day and night and even b eat her She w a s ,
.

standing with a b undl e b e fo re the hu ckste r and hi s wi fe ,

l i stening earnestly and doubt fully They were talkin g o f .

something with sp eci al w armth The moment Raskolnikov .

caught si g ht o f her he w a s ov ercome b y a stran g e sens a

,

t ion as it wer e o f i ntens e astoni shment though there w a s ,

nothing astoni shing about this m eeting .

“
You could mak e u p you r mind fo r you rsel f L iz a v e t a ,

”
Iv anovna the hu ckste r was saying al oud C ome round .
“
,

to mo rrow abou t sev en They wi ll b e here too

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To m o rr o w
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said L iz av e t a slowly and th o u gh t ful ly a s ,

t hou g h u nabl e t o mak e u p h er m ind .

“
U po n my w o rd what a fright you ar e in o f A l yo n a I van
,
‘ ’“
o vna gab b l ed th e hu ckst e r s w i fe a l iv ely l ittl e wo man
,
I , .

l o o k at you you a r e like som e l ittl e b ab e And s h e i s n o t

, .

you r o w n si ster e ithe r —nothing but a step si ster and what a

h and s h e keep s o v er you
“
B ut thi s tim e don t s a y a w o rd t o A l yo n a Iv an o vn a her
’

,
“
hu sband int er rupted ; th at s my advi ce but com e round t o ’

u s with o u t asking I t w ill b e w o rth yo u r whil e Late r o n

. .

you r si ster h ers el f m ay h av e a n o ti o n

”
.

“
Am I to come ?
’
Ab ou t s ev en o clo ck t o mo rr o w And t hey wi ll b e h er e
-

”
. .

You w i ll b e abl e to decide fo r you rs el f

”
.

“
And we ll hav e a cup o f t ea added hi s wi fe
’
, .

‘
All right I l l com e s aid L iz a v e t a sti l l p o nde ring a n d
,
’
, , ,

s h e b egan sl owly moving aw ay .

Rasko lniko v h ad j u st p ass ed and h e ard n o mo r e He .

p assed so ftly u nnot i ced t rying not t o m i ss a wo rd H i s

, ,
.

fi rst amazemen t w as followed by a thr ill o f h o rro r like a ,

shiv e r running down hi s sp ine H e h ad l earnt h e h ad su d .

,
~

d e n ly qu ite u nexp ectedly l earn t that th e n ex t day a t s ev e n

o clock Liz a v e t a the o l d woman s s i ste r and o nly compani o n
’

, ,

would b e away from h o m e and th at the re fo r e at s even o cl o ck ’

p reci sely the o l d woman w o u l d b e l eft a l o n e .

H e w as only a few step s from h i s l o dging H e w ent i n .

l ike a m an cond emned to d eath H e t hought o f nothing and .

w a s incapabl e o f thinking ; but h e felt suddenly in hi s wh o l e

b eing th at he had no mo r e freedo m o f thought n o w ill and , ,

t hat ev e rything w as suddenly and i r rev o cably decided .

C ertainly i f h e had to w ait whol e year s fo r a su itabl e o p

,

p o rtu n ity h e cou ld n o t re ckon o n a mo r e certain step towards

,

th e su cces s o f th e pl an than tha t whi ch had j u st p resented

its el f I n any case i t wou ld h av e b e en diffi cu lt t o fi nd o u t
.
,

b e fo reh and and w ith ce rtainty with greate r exactn es s and ,

l es s ri sk and without dangerou s i nqu i ri es and inv estigati o ns

, ,

th at next d ay at a certain tim e an o l d w o man o n wh o s e l i fe ,

an attemp t w as c o ntemp l ated w ou ld b e a t h o m e and en t i rel y ,

al o n e
.
64 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

w ith h im a young o ffice r Th ey h ad pl ayed a game o f b i l

.

l i ard s and b egan drinking t ea All at o nce h e h eard th e.

stu dent mention to th e o ffi ce r th e p awnbrok er A l yo n a I van

o vna and giv e hi m he r add re ss Th is o f its el f s eemed str ange
.

to Raskolnikov h e had j u st come f ro m her and her e at once

h eard her name O f cou rs e it wa s a chance but h e cou ld
.
,

not shak e o ff a v ery ext rao rdinary imp r ess ion and her e some ,

one s eemed to b e sp eak ing exp r es sly fo r him ; the student he

gan tell ing hi s f ri end v ar i ou s d etail s about A l yo n a I v anovna .

“ “
Sh e i s fi rst r ate he s aid ,
You can always get money
.

fro m he r S h e i s as ri ch a s a J ew s h e can giv e yo u five

.
,

thou sand roubles at a ti me and s h e i s not ab ov e taking a

p ledge fo r a rou b l e Lot s o f ou r fe llow s hav e had d ealings
.

w ith h er B u t s h e i s an aw fu l o l d h arpy
.

And h e b egan d escr ib ing how sp ite fu l and u ncertai n s h e

w a s how i f you wer e only a d ay l at e with you r inte rest th e
,

p ledge w a s l o st ; how s h e gav e a qu arter o f the v alu e o f an

articl e and to ok fiv e and ev en sev en p er cen t a month on .

it and s o o n Th e student ch atter ed o n s aying that s h e had

.
,

a si ste r L iz a v e t a who m the w retched littl e cr e atu re w a s c o n

,

t in u a l l y b eating and kept i n compl et e bondage like a small

,

chi ld though L iz a v e t a was at l east s ix feet high .

”
,
“
The re s a ph enomenon fo r you cr ied th e student and
’

he l au ghed .

T h ey b egan talking ab out Liz a v e t a The student spok e .

ab out he r with a p ecul i ar r el i sh and was continu al ly l aughin g ,

and the o f fi cer li stene d with g reat interest and asked him to
s end Liz a v e t a to do some mending fo r him Rasko lniko v did .

not mi s s a wo rd and l earned ev e ryth in g a b out he r L iz a v e t a .

wa s younge r th an the ol d woman and w a s he r h al f si st e r -

,

b eing the ch il d o f a di fferent mothe r S he was thi rty fi v e .

-
.

S he worked day and night fo r h er si ster and b eside s doing ,

th e cooking and th e washing s h e did s ew ing and wo rked as a

,

charwoman and gav e her si ster all s h e e arn ed S h e did not .

da re to accept an o rder o r j o b o f any k ind w ithout her s i ster s ’

p e rmi s sion Th e ol d woman h ad al ready m ade he r wi ll and

.
,

L iz a v e t a knew o f it and by th i s wil l she would not get a

,

farthing ; noth ing but th e mov abl es chai rs and s o on ; al l ,

the money w a s l eft to a mon aste ry in the prov inc e o f N

that p raye rs might b e s aid f o r h er i n p erp etu ity L iz a v e t a .
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was o f lowe r r ank than he r s i ster unmar ri ed and aw fully ,

u ncouth in appearance remarka b ly tal l with long feet that ,

l ooked as i f they wer e b ent outwards She always wo re b at .

e

t e r e d goatski n sho es and was cl ean in he r p er son , What .

the student exp re ssed mo st su rpris e and amu sement a b out

w as the fact that L iz a v e t a was continu ally with child
”
.

“
B ut you s ay she i s hideou s ? o b s erved th e o fficer .

Ye s s h e i s so dark skinned and looks l ike a soldi er d resse d

,
-

u p but you know s h e i s not at all hideou s She has such a

, .

good natu red face and eye s Strikin g ly so And the p roo f o f it
-
. .

i s that lots o f p eopl e are attr acted b y her She i s such a so ft . ,

gentle creatu re ready to put up with anythin g always w illing

, ,

willing to do anything And her smile i s really very sweet . .

“
You seem to find he r attractive you rsel f l aughed the ,

offi cer .

“
F rom her qu eernes s N o I ll tell you wh at I cou ld kill ’
. .
,

that damned old woman and mak e o ff with he r money I as ,

”
su re you withou t the faintest co nsci ence pri ck the student
,
-
,

added with warmth Th e o fficer l augh ed again while Ras .

k o l n ik o v shu ddered How strange it w a s ! .

“
Li sten I want to ask you a s eriou s qu estion the stu
, ,

dent said hotly I was j oking o i cou rs e b ut l ook h ere ; on

.
,

o n e s id e we have a stup id sen seless wo rthl ess spite ful ail , , , ,

ing ho rrid o l d woman not simply u seless b ut doing actual

, ,

m ischi e f w h o has no t an idea wh at she i s liv ing fo r he rsel f

, ,

and who will di e in a day o r two in any case You u nder .

”
stand ? You understand ?
“
Yes ye s I unde rstand answered the o ffice r watch ing
, , , ,

hi s excited comp anion attentiv el y

‘
.

Well l isten then O n the o the r side fresh young lives

,
.
,

th rown away fo r w ant o f help and b y thou sands on every ,

side ! A hu ndred thou sand good deed s could b e done and

help ed o n that old woman s money whi ch will b e bu ried in a
,
’

monastery ! H undreds thou sands perhaps might b e set o n , ,

the ri ght path ; do zens o f famili es saved from destitution ,

from ru in from vi ce from the Lock ho spital s and al l with

,
—
,

h e r mone y K i ll her tak e her mone y and with the help o f

.
,

i t d evote onesel f to the serv ice o f humanit y and the good

o f al l What do yo u think would not one tiny crime b e
. ,

wiped out by thou sands o f good deeds ? F o r one l i fe thou

66 FYODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

s and s w o uld b e s ave d fr o m c o rru pti o n and decay One .

death and a hundred l iv es i n exch ange — it s simpl e arith

,
’

m eti c ? B e s ide s what v alu e has th e li fe o f that s i ckly

, ,

s tupid i ll natu red o l d woman i n th e b al ance o f exi st ence ?

,
-

N o mo r e than the l i fe o f a lou s e o f a black be etl e l es s in , ,

fact becau se the o l d w oman i s do ing h arm S he i s we arin g .

o ut the live s o f othe r s ; the other day s h e b it Liz a v et a s ’

finge r o u t o f spit e ; it almo st had to b e amputated

”
.

“
O f cou r se s h e do es not des erve to l iv e r emarked t he
”
,
“
o ffice r but ther e it is it s natu r e
, ,
’
.

“
O h well b rother but w e h ave to c o r rect and di r ect natur e
, , ,

and but fo r that w e sho uld dr o wn i n an o cean o f p rej udice

, ,
.

B ut f o r that ther e wou ld nev e r hav e been a singl e great man

, .

They talk o f dut y conscience—4 d o n t want to s a y anyth ing

,
’

agai nst duty and consci ence ; —but the po i nt i s what do we

mean by them S tay I hav e anothe r q ue stion t o ask y o u
”
. .
,

Li sten !
“
N 0 you stay I l l a sk y o u a q u estio n
’
Li sten ! ”
”
.
, ,

Wel l !
You ar e talking and sp eechi fying away bu t t el l m e w o ul d
”
, ,

?
yo u kill the o l d w o man yo u rs el f
“
O f cou rs e not ! I w as o nly argu ing the j u s t ice o f i t .

’
It s nothing t o do w ith m e .

“ ’
But I th ink i f you w o u ld not d o i t your s el f t her e s n o
,

ju sti ce about it Let u s h av e another gam e

. c .

Rasko lniko v wa s v iol en t ly agitated O f cou r s e i t was all .

,

o rdi nary youth ful talk and thought such as h e h ad o ften ,

h eard b e fo re i n di ffer ent f o rm s and o n d i ffe rent th eme s B ut .

w h y had he h appened to he ar su ch a d iscu ssio n and such

i de as at the ve ry moment wh en hi s own b rai n w as j u st
conceivi ng th e v e ry s a m e id ea s ? And why j u st at th e ,

moment when h e h ad b rou ght away th e embryo o f hi s ide a

from th e o l d woman had h e dropp ed at o nce upon a c o n ,

v e rsation a b out h e r ? Thi s co incidence always seemed st r ange

to h im Thi s tri vi al t alk i n a t av ern had an immense in fl u
.

e nce on him i n h i s later action ; a s though th er e had re ally

b e en in it s ome t hing preo rdai ned s o me guiding hi nt ,
.

O n returning from th e Hay M arke t h e fl ung h imsel f on

t h e s o f a and sat f o r a W hol e h o u r w ith o u t sti r ring M ean .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME N T 67

whi l e i t go t dark ; h e had no candl e and indeed it did not , ,

o ccur t o hi m t o light up H e could nev er reco llect whether .

h e had been thinking about anything at that time At last .

h e was co nsciou s o f hi s fo rmer fev er and shivering and ,

h e re ali sed with reli e f that h e c o uld li e down o n the so fa .

S o o n heavy leaden sleep came ov e r him as it wer e cru shing

, ,

him .

H e slep t an extra o rdinary long time and without dreaming .

N a s ta sya coming i nto hi s ro o m at ten o clock the next morn

’
,

ing had di fficulty i n r o us ing him S he brought him in te a

, .

and bread The tea was again the sec o nd b rew and again
.

i n her o w n t eapot
”
.

“
M y go o dnes s how h e sleep s ! sh e cr ied i ndignantly
”
.
,

And he is always asleep .

H e go t up with an e ff o rt Hi s head ached he stood up .

, ,

t o ok a tu rn i n hi s garret and s ank back o n the so fa again .

“ “
G o ing t o s leep again cri ed N a sta s ya Are you i ll eh
, .
,

H e made no r eply
”
.

“
D o you want some tea ?
”
A fterwards he said w ith an e ff o r t clo sing hi s eye s again
, ,

and turning to the wall .

N a s ta sya stood over him

”
.

“
Perhap s h e really i s i ll sh e s aid tu rned and went o u t , ,
.

S h e came i n again at tw o o clock with soup H e w a s lyin g a s ’

.

b e fo re The te a stood untouch ed N a sta sya felt po sitively

! .

o ffended and began wr ath fully rou sing him

” he
.

“
Why ar e yo u lying like a log ? s shouted looking at ,

hi m w ith r epu lsion .

He go t up and s at d o w n again but said nothing and

, ,

stared at the fl oo r
”
.

“
Ar e y o u i l l o r n o t ? asked N a sta sya and a g ain received
”
no answer “
Yo u d better go o u t and get a breath o f ai r
.
’
,

“ ?
s h e said a fter a pau se Wi ll y o u eat it o r n o t
” ”
.

“ “
Afte rwards h e said we akly ,
You can go . .

And h e motioned he r out .

S h e remai ned a l ittl e longer looked at him with c o m ,

pas si o n and went o u t .

A f ew mi nute s a fterwards he raised hi s eyes and looked ,

f o r a long while at the te a and the soup Then h e t o ok the .

b read t oo k u p a sp o on and began t o eat

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H e at e a l ittle thre e o r fou r spo o n ful s with ou t appetite

, , ,

a s i t wer e mechani cally Hi s h ead ached l es s A fte r hi s . .

m eal he stretched himsel f o n th e so f a again but now he ,

cou ld not sl eep ; h e lay w itho ut sti r r ing w ith hi s f ace i n the ,

pillo w He w a s hau nted by d aydreams and such strange

.

d aydreams ; i n o n e that kept r ecu rr ing he fancied that h e

, ,

w a s i n A fr ica i n E gypt i n some s ort o f o asi s

, The car av an
, .

wa s r esting the camel s were p e ace fully lying down ; the

,

p alms stoo d all round i n a c o mplet e ci r cle ; all the p arty

wer e at dinne r B ut h e was dri nki ng water fro m a spring
.

whi ch fl ow ed gu rgling clo s e by And i t wa s s o co ol i t wa s .

,

wonder fu l wond er ful blu e co ld water running among the

, , ,

parti co l ou red sto ne s and ov e r the clean sand which gli stened
-

her e and ther e like gold S uddenly he heard a clo ck .

strike H e start ed rou sed h im sel f r ai sed hi s head looked

.
, , ,

out o f th e w indow and s e eing how l ate it w a s suddenly

, ,

j umped up wi de awake a s though s ome o n e had pu ll ed him

o ff th e so f a H e cr ept o n tipt o e to th e d o o r stealthily op ened
.
,

i t and began li stening o n th e stai rcas e H is heart b eat .

t err ibly B ut al l w a s qu iet o n the stai r s a s i f ev ery o n e w as

.

a sl eep I t seemed to hi m st r ange and monstrou s that he

.

could hav e slept i n such fo rget fulnes s f rom the previ ou s

day and had done nothing h ad p rep ared nothing yet ,
.

And meanwhi l e pe rhap s i t h ad st ru ck s ix And h i s d r o w s i .

ne s s and stupe factio n w ere fo llow ed by an extr ao rdinary ,

feve ri sh a s it w er e d i str acted haste B ut th e p reparation s

, , , .

to b e m ad e wer e few H e co ncentrated al l hi s energi e s o n

.

thinking o f eve rything and fo rgetting noth ing : and hi s h eart

kept b eating and thumping s o th at h e could hardly b reathe .

F i r st he had to make a noo s e and s e w it into hi s ov erco at

a wo rk o f a mo ment H e rummaged u nde r hi s p illow and .

picked o u t amongst th e l inen stu ffed aw ay u nde r it a w o rn ,

out old unwashed shi rt F rom it s r ags h e to r e a long st rip

, .
,

a coupl e o f i nche s wid e and about sixteen inches long H e .

folded thi s strip i n tw o took o ff hi s wide strong summe r , ,

o v erco at o f some stout cotto n m ateri al ( hi s o nly outer gar

ment ) and b egan s ewing the t w o ends o f th e r ag o n the
inside u nde r th e le ft armhol e
, Hi s hands sho ok a s h e .

s ewed bu t he did it su cces s fully so that nothing showed out

,

s ide when he put th e co at o n agai n The n eedle and thr e ad .

 C RIM E A N D P U N IS H M EN T 69

he had got r eady long b e fo re and they lay o n hi s tabl e i n a

p iece o f p aper A s fo r th e no ose it wa s a v ery in g eniou s
.
,

d evi ce o f hi s o w n ; the noo se was intended fo r the axe It .

wa s impo s sible fo r him to carry the axe through the street

i n hi s hands And i f hidden under hi s co at he would still
.

hav e had to support i t with hi s hand which would hav e been ,

noticea b l e N o w he had only to put the head o f th e axe in

.

the noo se and it would hang qu ietly under hi s arm o n the

,

i nside Putting hi s hand i n hi s coat pocket he could hold

.
,

th e end o f the handl e all th e way so that it did not swing ; ,

and a s th e co at was very full a regular sack i n fact it could

, ,

not be seen fro m outside that he wa s holding something with

th e hand that w a s i n the pocket Thi s noo se too he had .
, ,

designed a fortni ght be fo re .

When he had fi ni shed with thi s h e thru st hi s hand int o a ,

little opening b etween hi s so fa and the floor fumbled in the ,

l e ft corner and d rew out the pl e d ge which h e had got ready ,

long b e fo r e and hi dden there Thi s pl edge w a s however .

, ,

o nly a smoothly planed piece o f wood the si z e and thickness

o f a s ilve r cigarette cas e He pi cked up thi s piece o f wood
.

i n one o f h is wanderings i n a courtyard wher e ther e w a s

some so rt o f a wo rkshop A fterward s he had added to the
.

wood a thi n smooth piece o f i ron which he had al so pi cked ,

up at th e same time i n the street Putting the i ro n which .

w a s a l ittle the smalle r o n th e piec e o f wood he fastened ,

them ve ry fi rmly cro ssing and r ecro s sing the thread round
,

them ; then w rapp ed them car e fully and daintily i n clean ,

white paper and ti ed up th e parcel so that it would b e very

di ffi cu lt to unti e i t Thi s was i n o rder to divert the attention
.

o f the o ld woman fo r a time while she w a s trying to undo

,

the knot and s o to gai n a moment The i ron strip w a s

,
.

added to giv e w eight s o that the woman mi ght not gues s the
”
,

fi r st mi nute that the thing w a s made o f wood All thi s

“
.

had been stor ed by him be fo rehand under the so fa H e had .

only j u st got the pledge out when he heard some o n e s u d

d e n l y shout i n the yard .

“
It struck s ix long ago
”
.

Long ago ! M y Go d !
H e ru shed to th e doo r li ste n ed caught u p hi s hat and
, ,

began to descend hi s thi rteen step s cauti o u sly noi selessly , ,

70 F Y OD OR DOSTO E V S KY

l ike a ca t He h ad sti ll t h e m o st i mp o r t ant thin g to d o— t o

.

steal t he axe fr o m th e kitchen That the deed mu st b e done .

w ith an axe he had de ci ded l o ng ago H e had als o a p o cket .

p runing kni fe bu t h e could n o t r ely o n th e kni fe and stil l

-
,

l e s s o n hi s o w n strength and so r es o lved finally o n th e axe

, .

We may n ot e i n p assing o n e peculi arity i n r egard to al l the,

fi nal r es oluti o ns t aken b y h im i n th e matter ; they had o n e

strange ch arac t eri sti c ; th e mo re final they w ere the m o r e
hid eou s and the mor e ab su rd they at o nce b ecame i n hi s eye s .

In spit e o f all hi s agoni sing inward stru ggle h e nev er f o r a

“

s i ngl e instan t al l that time could bel i ev e i n the car rying o u t

o f hi s p lans .

And i nde ed i f it had ev er h appened th at everything to th e

, ,

l east p oi nt could hav e b een considered and fi nally settl ed and ,

‘
n o uncertai nty o f any ki nd h ad r em ained h e w o uld it s eems , , ,

hav e r en o unced it all as som ething ab surd m o nstrou s and ,

i mpo s sibl e B ut a whol e mas s o f unsettl ed point s and u n c e r

.

t a in t ie s r emai ned A s fo r g etting th e axe that trifl ing bu si

.
,

n es s co st him no anxi ety fo r nothi ng could b e easi er N a s , .

t asya w as continu ally o u t o f th e h o u s e e speci al ly in the ,

ev enings ; sh e wou ld run i n to th e nei ghb o u r s o r to a shop

and always l e ft the doo r aj ar I t wa s the o n e t h ing th e land .

l ady w as always s colding he r about And s o when the time .

came h e would only hav e t o go qu i etly into th e kitche n

,

and to t ake th e axe and an hou r later ( wh en ev erything ,

wa s ov er ) go i n and pu t i t b ack again B ut the se wer e .

doubt fu l po ints S uppo sing he r etur ned an h o u r late r to pu t

.

i t b ack and N a s ta sya h a d c o m e b ack and wa s o n the spot

'

.
,

He would o f cou r s e hav e to go by and wai t ti ll s h e went o u t

agai n B ut suppo sing s h e we re i n the meantime t o mi ss the
.

axe lo ok fo r it m ake an o utcry— tha t w o u ld m ean su spi ci o n

, ,

o r at l east gr o unds fo r su spi cio n .

B ut tho se we re al l t r ifl e s wh ich h e h ad n ot even begun to

cons ide r and i ndeed h e h ad no time He w as thinking o f th e
,
.

chi e f point and put o ff t rifling detail s u ntil h e c o u l d be l iev e

, .
,

in i t a l l B ut that s eemed utterly unattainabl e S o i t s eemed

. .

to himsel f at l east H e could not i magine fo r i nstance that

.
, ,

h e would sometim e l eav e o ff thi nking get u p and s imply go ,

the r e . E ven his l ate exper im ent ( l e hi s v is it with the .

obj ect o f a fi nal su rvey o f the pl ace ) wa s s imply an attemp t

72 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY
’
o ne s will powe r and rea son to deal w ith them and th ey w ill ,

al l be ov e rcom e at the time wh en o nce o ne has fami li ari se d

o ne sel f with the m inutest d etail s o f th e bu sines s .

B ut thi s p repa rati o n h ad nev e r b een b egu n Hi s final .

d eci s ion s we re what he came to tru st l east and wh en th e ,

hou r stru ck i t al l came to p ass qu ite d i ffe rently a s i t w e re

, ,

accidental ly and unexp ectedly .

O n e trifl ing ci rcumstance ups et hi s cal cul ations b e fo r e h e ,

’
had even l e ft th e stai rcase When h e r eached the l andl ady s .

kitchen th e do o r o f which w a s ope n a s u su al he glance d

, , ,

c autiou sly i n to s e e whethe r i n N a s t a s ya s ab sence th e l and ,

’
,

l ady he rs el f was there o r i f not wheth er the doo r t o he r

, ,

o w n ro om was clo sed so that she might not p eep ou t wh en

,

h e w ent in fo r th e axe B ut what was hi s amaz ement wh en .

h e suddenly s a w that N a s t a sya was not only at hom e in th e

.

kitchen but w a s o ccupi ed ther e t aking l inen o u t o f a b asket

, ,

and hanging i t o n a line S eei ng hi m sh e le ft o ff h anging .

,

th e clothe s turned to him and st ar ed at h im all th e t ime h e

,

wa s passing H e tu rned away hi s eye s and walked p ast a s

.
,

though he noti ced nothing B ut it was th e end o f ev ery .

thing ; he h ad not th e axe ! He was ove rwhelmed

”
.

“
What m ade m e thi nk h e r eflected as h e went u nde r th e , ,
“
gateway What m ad e m e think that she wou ld be su re n o t
.

t o b e at home at that m o ment ! Why why w hy d id I

”
, ,

a s sume th i s s o certainly ?
H e w a s cru sh ed and ev en humili ated H e co uld h av e .

l aughed at himsel f i n hi s ange r A dull animal r ag e . c

b o i led w ithin h im .

He st o o d h es itating i n the gat eway To go i nto the stre et .

,
’
to go a walk fo r appe aran ce sake w a s r evo lting ; t o g o b ack
“
t o hi s room ev en mo re revoltin g And wh at a chance I h av e
”
.
,

lo st fo r ev e r ! h e mutte red standing aiml essly i n th e gate ,

’
w a y j u st oppo site the po rte r s little d ark ro om whi ch wa s
,

al so op en S uddenly h e started F rom th e porte r 5 ro om two

. .
,

p ace s away f rom him something shining unde r th e b ench t o

,

th e ri ght cau ght his eye H e l o o ked about hi m— nobody

. .

H e app ro ach ed the room o n tipto e w ent down two steps i nto ,
“
it and i n a faint vo i ce called th e po rte r Ye s no t at hom e ! .
,

S omewher e nea r though i n the yard fo r th e do o r i s wide , ,

o p en He da shed t o th e axe ( it wa s an axe ) and pull ed i t

.
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 C R IM E AND P U N IS H ME NT , 73

ou t f rom unde r the bench W her e i t lay between two chunks

,

o f woo d ; at once be for e go ing out h e made i t fast i n the ,

noo se he thru st both hands into hi s pocket s and w ent o u t o f

,
“
the roo m ; no one had noticed him ! When re ason fails the
”
,

devi l help s ! he thought with a strange gri n Thi s chance .

ra i sed hi s spi r its extrao rdinari ly .

H e w alked along qu i etly and sedately without hur ry to , ,

avo id aw akening su spicion H e scarcely looked at the

.

pass ers by tri ed to escap e looking at their faces at all and

—
, ,

to b e a s l ittle notice abl e a s po ssible S uddenly he thought o f

.

“
hi s hat G o o d heav ens ! I had the money the day b e fo re
”
.

yesterday and di d not get a cap to wear instead ! A cur se

r o s e from the bottom o f h is soul .

Glancing o u t o f th e co rne r o f hi s eye into a shop he s a w ,

by a clock on th e wall that it wa s ten minutes p ast seven

—
.

H e had to make haste and at the same time to go some way

round s o as to appro ach the house from the other side
, .

When he h ad happened t o imagine all thi s b e forehand h e ,

had s ometime s thought that h e would b e v e ry much af raid .

B ut he wa s not v ery much a fraid n o w was not a fraid at all , ,

indeed H is mind wa s even occupied by i rrelevant matters

. ,

but by n o thing fo r long A s he passed the Yu s u po v garden

. ,

h e was deeply abso rbed i n consider ing the bu ilding o f great

fou ntain s and o f thei r r e freshing e ffect o n the atmo sphere
,

i n all th e squ are s B y degree s he pass ed to th e convi ctio n

.

that i f the summer garden wer e extended to the fi eld o f M ar s ,

and p e rhaps j o ined to the garden o f the M ih a il o v s k y Palace ,

i t would b e a splendid thing and a gre at benefi t to the town .

Then h e was interested by the question w h y in all gr eat towns

men ar e not simply driven by neces sity b ut i n some pecul iar ,

way inclined to l ive in tho se part s o f the town where there

ar e no gardens no r fo untains ; wher e ther e i s most di rt and
smel l and all sorts o f nastiness Then hi s own w alks through
.

the H a y M arket came b ack to hi s mind and fo r a moment he

”
,
“
waked up to reality What nonsense ! he thought b etter ,

”
.

think o f nothing at al l !
“
S o prob ably men le d to execution clutch mentally at eve ry
”
obj ect that meets them o n the way flashed through hi s mind , ,

bu t simply fl ashed like l ightning ; h e made haste to di smi s s

,

t hi s th o ught And by n o w h e was near ; here w a s the

.

— R
4
74 F Y OD O R DO S TOE V S KY

h ou s e he re wa s t h e gate S u ddenly a clock s om ewhe r e s t r u c k

, .

o nce . What ! c a n it b e hal f p ast s ev e n ? Imp o ssible i t mus t-

,

b e fast !
Lucki ly f o r him ev ery t hing w ent wel l again at the gates
, .

At th at v ery m oment a s thou gh exp re s sly fo r hi s b enefi t a

, ,

huge waggo n o f hay had j u st dr iv en i n at th e gate comp letely ,

scr ee ning him a s h e p assed u nder th e gateway and the wag ,

g o n had s carcely had time to dr iv e through into th e yard ,

be f o r e h e had slipped i n a fl ash to the r ight O n the o the r .

s ide o f the waggo n h e could he ar shouting and q ua rr elling ;

but n o o n e n o ti ced him and no o n e m et h im M any w indows .

l o oking into that huge quadr angul a r ya rd w ere op en at th at

m o ment bu t h e d id not r ai s e hi s head— h e had n ot the
,
’
st rength to The stair cas e l eading t o th e o ld w o man s r o om
.

‘
w as cl o se by j u st o n the r ight o f th e gat eway H e w a s
, .

al re ady o n th e stai rs .

D raw ing a b reath p res s ing hi s hand agai nst h i s th robb ing
,

h ear t and o nce mo re f eeli ng fo r th e axe and s etti ng it

,

strai ght h e began so ftly and cauti o u sly as cending th e st ai r s

, ,

l i stening ev e ry m inute B ut th e stai rs to o we re q u ite

.
, ,

d es erted ; al l the doo r s w er e shut ; he met no one One .

fl at ind eed o n th e fir st floo r w as w ide op en and painter s we re

at wo rk i n it b ut th ey d id n o t glanc e at him He st o o d still
,
.
,
“
t h o u ght a mi nute and w ent o n O f c o u r se i t w o uld b e .

’
b ette r i f they had n ot b een her e b u t it s tw o sto reys ,

abov e them .

And he r e w a s th e fou rth sto r ey h er e was th e d oo r h e re w a s , ,

t h e flat oppo site th e empty o n e The flat unde rneath the o l d

, .
!

’
w o man s wa s appar ently empty al so ; th e v i s iting card n ailed
o n the d o o r had b een t o rn o ff— they had gone away ! He
w a s o ut o f b reath F o r on e in stant th e though t flo ated
”
.

“
t h rough hi s mind S hall I go back ? Bu t h e mad e n o an sw e r
’
and began li stening at the o l d w o man s d o o r a de ad si lence ,
.

Then h e l i stened agai n on th e stai rca se li stened long and ,

i ntently then looked about him f o r th e l ast time pul led ,

hims el f togethe r d rew himsel f up and o nce mo r e tr ied the

”
, ,
“ “
axe in th e no o s e Am I v ery p al e ? h e w o nde red
. Am I .

no t evidently agitated ? S h e is mi stru st ful Had I b ette r

”
.

W ait a littl e longe r ti ll my h eart l eav e s o ff thumping ?

B u t hi s heart di d no t le av e o ff O n t he contr ary a s th o u gh . ,
 C HAPT E R VI I

H E do o r was as be f o r e op ened a tiny crack and again ,

tw o sharp and su spiciou s eye s stared at him out o f th e

darknes s Then Ra sk o lnikov lo st hi s h ead and nea rly
.

m ade a great mi stake .

F earing the old woman would b e frightened by thei r b eing

alone and not hop ing that the si ght o f hi m would di sarm h e r
,

su spici ons he took hold o f th e doo r and drew i t towa rd s him

,

to prev ent the old woman from attempting to shut i t again .

S eeing thi s sh e di d no t pul l the do o r b ack but sh e did not let ,

go the handl e so that he almo st d ragged he r out w ith i t on to

th e stai rs S e eing that sh e was standing i n th e doo rway not
.

allowing him to p as s h e advanced straight upon he r S he

,
.

stepp ed back i n alarm t ri ed to s a y something but seem ed

, ,

u na b le to speak and stared with op en eye s at him

”
.

“
Go o d ev ening A l yo n a Ivanovna ,
h e b egan tryin g to , ,

speak e asi ly but hi s vo ice wou ld n o t obey h im it b roke and

, ,
“
sh oo k . I h av e com e I h av e b rou ght som ething
’
but we d bette r com e i n to the l ight .

And l eav ing h e r h e pas sed str aight into th e room uni n
,

v it e d. Th e o l d woman r an a fte r him ; h er tongu e wa s

u nlo o sed .

“
Good h eaven s ! Wh at i s it ? Who i s it ? What do yo u
want ? ”
“
Why A l yo n a I vanov na you kn o w me
, Raskolnikov
,

he re I b rought you the pledge I p romi sed the othe r

,

d ay. and h e h eld out the pledge .

The o l d woman gl anced fo r a moment at th e pl edge but at ,

o nce star ed i n the eye s o f he r uni nv ited v i sito r S h e looked .

intently mal iciou sl y and mi st ru st f ully A minute passed ; h e

, .

ev e n fanci ed someth ing l ike a snee r i n he r eyes a s though she ,

h ad al re ady gues sed everythin g H e felt that he w a s lo si ng .

h i s he ad that h e was almo st fri ghtened s o fri ghtened that i f

, ,

sh e w er e to lo ok l ike that and not say a wo rd fo r anothe r

hal f m i nute h e th o ught he wo u ld h av e r u n away fr o m h e r
,
.

76
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 77

Why do you lo ok at me a s though you did not know me

“
h e said suddenly al so w ith malice Take i t i f you like i f
”
, .
,
’
n o t I ll go el s ewhere I am i n a hur ry , .

H e had n o t ev en thou g ht o f s aying thi s but it w a s sud ,

d e n l y s aid o f itsel f Th e old woman recov er ed her sel f and

. .

’
he r v i sitor s r esolute tone ev idently restored h e r confidence .

“
B ut w h y my go od s ir all o f a minute
, What i s it
, .

s h e asked looki ng at the pl edge

, .

“
The si lv er cigarette case ; I spoke o f it last time you
”
,

know .

S he held out he r hand .

“
B ut how p al e you are to b e su re and you r hands
”
,

are trembl ing too ? H av e you been bathing o r what ?

”
,
“ “ ’
F ev e r , h e an swe red ab ruptly You can t help getting .

pal e i f you v e nothing to eat h e added with di fficulty

’

, ,

articulati ng the wo rds .

H is strength w as failing him again B ut hi s answer .

sounded like th e truth ; th e o l d woman took the pledge

”
.

“
What i s it ? s h e a sked o nce mo re s canning Raskolnikov ,

intently and weighing the pledge i n her hand .

“
A thi ng cigarette case S i lve r Look at it
. . .

It do es not seem somehow l ike silve r H o w he has

”
.

w rapped it up !
T ry ing to unti e the string and turn ng to the window to i ,

the li ght ( all h er windows were shut i n spite o f the stifling ,

he at ) s h e l e ft him alto g ethe r fo r some s econd s and stood

,

with her b ack to him H e un b uttoned hi s coat and freed the

.

axe from the noo se but did not yet take it out altogether
,
,

s imply h olding i t in hi s ri ght hand under the co at H is hand s .

wer e fear fully weak h e felt them every moment growing

,

mor e numb and mor e wo oden H e w a s a f raid he would let .

the axe slip and fall A sudden giddines s came over him .

”
.

“
But wh at has h e ti ed it up like thi s for ? the o l d woman
cri ed w ith v exation and mov ed towards him .

He had not a minute mor e to lo se H e pulled the axe .

qu ite out swung i t with b oth arms scarcely con sci ou s o f

, ,

hims el f and almo st without e ffo rt almo st mechanically

, , ,

b rou g ht the blunt side down on her head H e seemed not .

to u se hi s own stren g th i n thi s But as soon as he had once .

b r o ught the axe down h i s strength retu rned to him,

.
78 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY

The o l d woman w as a s always b areheaded He r t hin l i ght .

,

ha i r str eaked with gr ey th ickly smeared wi th grease wa s

, , ,
’
pl aited i n a r at s tail and fastened b y a b roken h o r n comb
whi ch stood o u t o n th e nape o f he r neck A s s h e w a s s o .

sho rt th e blow f ell o n the v ery top o f h e r skull S he c ri ed

, .

o u t bu t v e ry fai ntly and suddenly sank al l o f a h eap on the

, ,

fl oo r r ai sing h e r h ands to her head I n o ne h and s h e sti ll

, .

“
h eld th e pl edge Then h e dealt her anothe r and an o the r
.

b low w ith the b lunt side and o n th e s ame spot Th e blood .

gushed forth a s from an ov e rtu rned gl ass th e body fel l back , .

H e stepped back l et it fall and a t once bent ov e r h e r face ;

, ,

s h e was dead He r eye s se em ed to b e starting out o f thei r

.

sockets th e b row and th e whol e f ace we re drawn and c o n

,

t o rt e d co nvu ls ively .

H e l aid the axe o n th e grou nd ne ar th e dead body and felt

at once i n he r po cket ( t rying to av o id th e st re aming bl ood )
-
the s ame right h and pocket from wh ich sh e had taken th e
key o n hi s l a st vi sit H e wa s i n full po ss es si on o f h i s fa cu l
.

t i es f ree from con fu sio n o r giddines s but h i s h ands w er e

, ,

still t rembling H e r ememb ered a fterwards that h e had b een

.

p art icul arly co llected and ca re fu l t rying all th e time n o t t o ,

get smeared w ith b l ood H e pull ed o u t th e keys at once

.
,

th ey w er e all a s b e fo re i n o n e bunch o n a steel rin g H e

, ,
.

r an at onc e i nto the b edro om w ith them It was a v e ry smal l .

r oom with a wh ol e sh rine o f holy image s Against the oth er .

w al l sto o d a b i g b ed v e ry cl ean an d cove r ed w ith a s ilk

,

p atchwo rk w added qui lt Against a thi rd w all was a chest o f .

drawe r s S t range to s a y s o s oo n a s he began to fit the keys

.
,

i nto th e ch est s o soo n as h e h e ard th ei r j ingling a convul siv e

, ,

shudde r p assed ov e r him H e suddenly felt t empted agai n to .

g iv e it al l up and go away B ut th at w as o nly fo r an instant ; .

i t w a s too l ate to go back H e p o sitiv ely smiled at h im sel f . ,

when suddenly ano the r ter ri fying idea o ccu r r ed to h i s mi nd .

H e suddenly fanci ed th at th e o l d woman mi ght b e still al iv e

and mi ght r e cov e r he r sens es Leav ing the keys in th e che st .
,

h e ran b ack to th e body snatch ed up th e axe and l i fted i t ,

o nce mo re ov er th e o l d woman but d id no t b ring i t d o wn ,

.

Th er e w a s no dou b t th at s h e wa s dead B ending down and .

examining he r again mo re clo sel y h e saw cle arly that th e ,

skul l w a s b roken and ev en b a t te red i n o n o ne side He w a s .

80 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

noti ceabl e th e thought p as sed throu gh hi s mind ; then h e

,

suddenly came to him sel f Goo d God am I go ing out o f

”
.
,

my sen ses ? he thou g ht w ith ter ror .

B ut no so one r did he to uch the clothes than a gold watch

slipped from under the fu r coat H e m ade haste to turn them .

all ov e r Ther e tu rned out to b e v a riou s article s made o f

.

gold among the clothe s — p ro b a b ly all pledges un rede emed o r ,

w aiting to b e redeemed— b racel ets chai ns ea r —r ings pins and , , ,

such things S ome we re i n case s othe r s simply w rapped in

.
,

newspape r car e fully and exactly folded and ti ed ro und w ith

, ,

tape Without any del ay h e began filling up th e p ockets o f

.
,

hi s trou se rs and ov erco at without examining o r u ndo i ng th e

p arcels and cases ; but he had not time to take many .

H e suddenly heard step s i n th e room wher e th e old wom an

lay He stopp ed sho rt and w a s still as death B ut all w a s
. .

qu iet so it mu st hav e b een hi s fancy All at o nce h e h ear d

, .

d i sti nctly a faint c ry a s though s ome o n e had u tter ed a low

,

b roken mo an Then agai n de ad silence fo r a mi nute o r two

. .

H e s a t squatting o n hi s h eel s by the b o x and waited ho lding

h i s b re ath S uddenly he j umped up s e iz ed the axe and ran
.
,

o ut o f the b edroom .

I n th e middl e o f th e ro om sto o d Liz a v e t a w ith a b ig bundle

in he r arm s S h e was gazing in stup e facti on at h e r mu rdered
.

s i ste r whit e a s a sh eet and seeming not to hav e the strength

,

to cry out S e eing him ru n o u t o f the b edro om s h e began

.
,

fai ntly qu iv eri ng al l o v e r like a l ea f a shudder ran down he r , ,

face ; she l i fted h er h and opened he r mouth but stil l did not , ,

s cream S he b egan slowly b acking away from hi m into the

.

co rne r star ing i ntently p e rsi stently at him but still u tte red
, , ,

no sou nd as thou gh s h e could not get b re ath to s cream

, He .

r u shed at h e r w ith the axe ; he r mouth twitch ed piteou sly a s ,

o n e s e e s b ab i e s mouth s when they b egin to b e frightened

’

, ,

sta re i ntently at what fri ghtens them and are o n th e point o f

screaming And th i s h aple s s L iz a v et a was so simpl e and had
.

been s o tho rou ghly cru shed and scared that sh e did not even
r ai se a hand to gua rd h er face though that was the mo st ,

necessary and natu ral action at th e moment for the axe wa s ,

rai sed ov e r her face S he only put up h er empty le ft hand b u t

. ,

not to he r face slowly holding it o u t b e fo r e he r as though

,

m o tioning hi m away The ax e fell w ith the sh arp edge j u st

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ou the skull and spl it at o ne blow al l the top o f her head She .

f el l heavi ly at o nce Rasko lnikov completely lo st hi s head

.
,

snatched up he r bundl e d ropped it again and ran into the

,

en t ry
.

F ear gained mo re and mo re mastery over him especially ,

a fte r thi s s econd qu ite u nexpected mu rder H e longed to

, .

run away from the place as fast a s po ssi b le And i f at that .

moment h e had been capabl e o f seeing and reasoning more

co r rectly i f he had b een abl e to reali se all the di fficulties o f
,

hi s po sition the hopel es snes s th e hideou sness and the ab surd

, ,

ity o f it ; i f h e could h av e u nde rstood how many o b stacl es and ,

pe rhap s crime s he had still to overcome o r to commit to get

, ,

o u t o f that pl ace and to make hi s way home it i s very po ssi b le ,

that h e would hav e flung up ev e rything and would have g one ,

to giv e himsel f up and not f rom fear b ut from simple ho r

, , ,

ro r and loathing o f what he had done The feelin g o f lo ath .

i ng especially su rged up withi n hi m and grew stronger every

minute H e wou ld not no w hav e g one to the box o r even
.

into the ro om fo r anything i n th e wo rld .

B ut a s ort o f blankn es s even dreamine ss had begun by

,

degrees to take po sse ssion o f him ; at moments he for g ot

hims el f o r rathe r fo rgot what w a s o f impo rtance and cau ght
,

at t rifl e s Glancing howev er i nto the kitchen and seein g a

.
, ,

bucket h al f full o f wate r on a b ench he bethou ght him o f ,

washing hi s hands and th e axe H is hands were sticky with .

b lood H e dropped th e axe with the b lade in the water

.
,

snatched a pi ece o f so ap that lay i n a b roken saucer o n the

window and b egan w ashing h is hands i n the b ucket When
,
.

they w ere cl ean he took out the axe washed the blade and
, ,

spent a long time a b out three minutes washing the wood

, ,

where there we re spot s o f blo od rub b ing them with soap Then .

he wiped it all with some linen that was hanging to dry on a

l ine in th e kitchen and then h e wa s a l ong while attentively
examining the axe at the windo w T here was no t race le ft .

o n it o nly th e wood wa s still damp

,
H e care fully hun g the .

axe in the noo se under hi s co at Then a s fa r as was po s si b l e . ,

i n the dim li ght in the kitchen h e looked ov e r hi s overcoat , ,

hi s trou ser s and hi s b o ots At the fi rst g l ance there seemed

.

to b e nothing b ut stains o n the boots H e wetted the rag and .

rubbed the boots B ut h e knew he was not looking thor

.
82 F Y OD O R D OS T OEV S K Y

oughly that there might b e s o mething quite noticeabl e that

,

h e was ov erlo oking H e stoo d i n the m iddl e o f the ro om

.
,

lo st i n thou ght D a rk agoni sing i de a s ro se in hi s m ind— th e

.

i dea that he wa s m ad and that at th at moment he w a s i ncap a

b l e o f r easoning o f p rot ecting h ims el f that he o u ght p erhap s
, ,

to b e doi ng someth ing utterly di ffe rent from wh at h e wa s

n o w do ing
“ ”
Good God ! he mu ttered I mu st fl y fly and
.
”
, ,

h e ru shed i nto the entry B ut h er e a shock o f te rro r awaited

.

hi m su ch a s he had n ev e r known b e f o r e .

H e st oo d and gazed and co uld not b eli ev e hi s eyes : th e

doo r the o ute r doo r from th e stai rs at which h e had not
, ,

l o ng b e fo r e waited and rung wa s standi ng u nfastened and ,

at l east s ix i nch e s O p en N o l ock no bolt all th e time all.

, , ,

that time ! Th e o l d woman had not shu t it a fter h im p e r

hap s a s a p recaution B ut go o d God ! Why h e had se en.
, ,

L iz a v e t a a fterw ard s ! And how could h e ho w cou ld he ,

hav e fai led to refl ect that sh e mu st hav e co me i n so mehow !

S h e cou ld not hav e com e th rou gh th e wal l !
He dashed to the do o r and fastened the l atch .

“
B ut no the w rong thi ng agai n ! I must get aw ay get
, ,

away
H e u n fastened the l atch op ened the do o r a nd b egan l i ste n ,

ing o n the sta ir cas e .

H e l i stened a long tim e S o mewher e far away i t mi gh t b e

.
,

i n the gateway two voi ce s we r e loudly and shrilly sh o utin g

” H
, ,
“
qu arrell ing and s colding What are they ab ou t ? e .

w aited patiently At l ast all w a s still a s though s uddenly

.
,

c u t o ff ; they had sepa rated He w a s m eani ng to go out but .

,

suddenly o n the flo or b elow a door w a s n o i s ily opened and

, ,
“
som e o n e b egan go ing downstai rs humm ing a tune H ow
”
.

i s i t they all m ake su ch a no i se ! flashed through hi s m ind .

O nce mo re h e clo sed the doo r and waited At last al l w a s .

sti ll not a sou l sti r ring H e w a s j u st taking a step to wa r d s

,
.

the stai r s wh en he he ard fre sh f ootsteps .

The steps sounded v ery f ar o ff at th e v ery b o t to m o f t he ,

stair s bu t he r em emb e red quite cl early and di stinctly tha t

,

from the fi r st sound he b egan fo r som e re as o n to su spect th at

thi s w a s som e o n e comi ng th e r e to the f ou rth floo r t o the , ,

o l d woman Why ? We re the s ounds s om ehow p e culi ar s ig

. ,

n ifi c a n t ? The step s we r e heavy even and unhu rr i ed N o w ,

.
84 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S K Y

A t thi s mom ent l ight hu r ri ed step s were h eard not far

of fo n the stai r s S ome one els e wa s appro achi ng Raskol
,
. .

miko v had not heard them at fi r st .

“ ’ ’
You do n t say the re s no one at home the new come r ,
-

cri ed i n a cheer ful ringing voi ce addr essing the fi r st v i sito r

”
, ,

w h o stil l went o n pulli ng the b ell Good ev eni ng K o ch .

”
.
,
“
F rom hi s voi ce h e mu st b e qu ite you ng thought Ras ,

kol miko v .

“ ’
Who the devi l c a n tell ? I ve almo st b r o ken the lo ck
”
,

answe red K o ch But how do you come to know m e ?

.

“
Why ! The day be fo re yeste rday I b eat you thr ee t ime s
ru n n in g at b i lli ards at Gamb r inu s
“
Oh !
”
’ ’
S o they ar e not at hom e That s queer ? It s aw ful ly ?

stupi d though Whe re could th e o ld w oman have g o ne ?

”
.
.

’
I ve com e o n bu sine ss .

“
Ye s ; and I have bu sines s w ith he r to o , .

Well what can w e do ? Go b ack I suppos e Ai e — aie !

”
.
, ,

And I w a s hop ing to get som e money ! cri ed the young man .

“
We mu st giv e it u p o f cou rs e b ut what did she fi x thi s , ,

tim e fo r ? The o l d w itch fi xe d the time fo r m e to come he r

’
s el f It s o u t o f my way And whe r e the devi l she c a n have
. .

’
got to I can t make o u t S he sit s he re fr om ye ar s end to
,
.
’

’
year s end the ol d hag ; he r l egs ar e b ad a nd yet he re al l o f
”
,

a su dde n sh e i s ou t fo r a w alk !
“
H ad n t we b ett er a sk the porte r ?
’ ”
What ?
’ ’
Whe r e she s gone and when she ll b e b ack .

Hm D amn it all ! We might ask B u t yo u

know sh e neve r doe s go anywhe re
” .

And h e once m or e tugged at th e doo r handle -

.

“
D amn it al l The re s nothing t o b e don e we mu st go ! ’

”
.
,
“
S tay ! cri ed the y o ung m an su ddenly D o you s e e h o w
”
.

t he doo r shake s i f you pull it ?

“
Wel l ? ”
That show s it s not l ocked but f astened w ith th e ho ok !
’
,

D o yo u he ar how the h o ok clanks

“
Well ? ”
Why don t yo u se e ? Tha t p r oves that o n e o f them is at
,
’

home I f they we re all out t hey w ou ld h av e l o cked the

.
,
 C R IME AND P UN IS H MENT 85

do or from outside with th e key and not with th e hook from

inside There do you hear how the hook i s clankin g ? To
.
,

fasten the hook o n the i nside they must b e at home don t ,

’

yo u s e e S o there they are sitting i nside and don t open the ’

doo r ”
.

“ ”
Well ! And so they mu st b e ! cr ied K o ch astonished
”
, .

What ar e they about i n there ! And he b egan furiously

shaking the doo r
”
.

“
Stay ! cri ed the young man again D o n t pul l at it ! .
’

H ere you ve b een

’
Ther e mu st be something wrong ,
’
ringing and pulli ng at the doo r and still they do n t open ! S o
’
e ithe r they ve both fainted o r
“
What ? ”
’
I tel l yo u what Let s go and fetch the porte r let him
”
.
,

w ake them up
”
.

“
Al l right .

B oth wer e going down .

“
S t a y Y o u stop he re whil e I run down fo r the p o rte r .

”
.

What fo r ?
’
Well you d b ette r
”
.
,

All r ight .

“ ’
I m s tudyi ng the l aw you see ! It s evident e vi dent
’
- -

”
,

ther e s something wr ong her e ! the young man cr ied hotly

’
,

and he ran downstai rs .

Ko ch r em ai ned O nce mo re he so ftly tou ched the b el l

.

whi ch gav e o n e tinkl e then g ently as thou g h reflecting and, ,

lookin g about him began touching the doo r handle pullin g

, ,

it and letting it go to mak e sur e once mo re that it wa s

o nly fastened by the hook Then pu ffing and panting .

h e bent down and b egan looking at the keyhol e : b ut the

key was i n the lo ck on th e i ns ide and s o nothing could b e
s een.

Raskolnikov stood keeping tight hol d o f the axe He w a s .

i n a sort o f delir ium H e was even making ready to fi ght .

when they shou ld come i n Whil e they were knocking and .

talking together the ide a s ever al time s o ccu rred to him t o

,

end it al l at once and shout to them through the doo r N o w .

and then he was tempted to swear at them to j ee r at them

”
, ,
“
whil e they could not op en the door ! O nly make haste !
wa s the thought that flashed through hi s mind .
86 F Y ODO R DO S T OE VS KY

Bu t what the devil i s b e ab o ut ? Time w a s p assin g ,

o ne m i nute and anothe r— no o ne came

, . K och began t o b e
r es t le s s
”
.

“
W hat the devi l ? h e cri ed suddenly and i n impa t i ence
de serting hi s sent ry duty he t o o went down hu rrying and , , , ,

thump ing w ith hi s heavy bo o ts on the stai rs The steps died .

away
”
.

“
Goo d heav ens ! What am I to do ?

Raskolnik o v u n fastened th e hook o p ened the doo r— ther e ,

wa s n o sound Ab ruptly without any thought at all h e went

.
, ,

Ou t clo sing the do o r a s tho roughly a s h e c o uld and w ent

, ,

downstai rs .

H e had gon e down th re e fli ghts when h e suddenly h ea r d a

l o ud noi se b elow — whe r e coul d he go ! Ther e was nowhe r e
to hi de H e w as j u st going back t o the flat
”
. .

“
H ey the re ! C atch the b rute !
S omeb o dy dashe d out o f a fl at b elow sh o u t ing and rathe r , ,

fell than r an down the stai r s b awl ing at the top o f h is vo i ce

”
.
,

M itka ! M itka ! M itka ! M itka ! M itka ! B last him !

The shout ended i n a shriek ; the last sounds cam e fro m the
yard ; all w a s sti ll B ut at the sam e i nstant sever al m en
.

talking l oud and fa st b egan noi si ly mou nting the stai r s .

Ther e w e r e thr ee o r four o f them H e di stingu i shed the

”
.

“
r i nging vo i ce o f th e young m an They ! .

F i lled with de sp ai r he w ent st rai ght to meet the m feelin g

”
,

com e what mu st ! I f they stopped h im — al l w as lo st ; i f

they l et him p as s— all w a s lo st to o ; they would r em embe r
him They w e re app roaching ; they we r e o nly a flight f rom
.

him — and suddenly del i verance ! A f ew step s f rom him o n

the right the r e w a s an empty flat w ith the doo r wide op en
, ,

the flat o n th e se cond fl oo r whe re th e painter s had b e en at

wo rk and whi ch a s thou gh fo r hi s b enefit they had j u st le ft
, , , .

It w a s they no d o ub t w ho had j u st run down shouting Th e

, , , .

fl o o r h ad only j u st b een p ainted i n the middl e o f the room ,

stoo d a p ail and a b roken pot with paint and b rushe s I n .

o n e i nstant he had whi sked i n at the open doo r and hidden

behind th e w al l and o nly i n the ni ck o f tim e ; they had a lre ady
r eached the l andi ng Then they tu rned and w ent o n u p t o
.

th e fou rth floo r talki ng l oudly H e waited went o u t o n tip

,
.
,

t o e and ran d o w n the stai rs .

88 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

w as cl o sed but n o t lo cked so that it seem ed most l ikely t h at

,

th e po rte r w a s at hom e B ut he had so completely lost all

.

powe r o f r efle ctio n that he w alked str aight to the doo r and
“
ope ned it I f the po rte r had asked him Wh at do you want
.
? ”
h e would pe rhap s hav e s imply hande d h im th e axe But .

agai n the po rte r wa s not at home and h e su cceeded i n putting

,

the axe b ack u nde r the bench a n d even covering it w ith the
chunk o f wood as b e fo re H e m et no o n e not a soul a fter
.
, ,
’
w a rds o n th e way t o hi s room ; th e l andl ady s doo r w a s shut .

When h e w a s i n hi s room he flu ng himsel f o n the so fa j ust

,

a s he wa s h e did not sl eep but sank into bl ank fo rget fulne ss

-
, .

I f any one had com e i nto hi s r oom t hen h e would have ,

j umped up at once and s cr eam ed S crap s and shr eds o f

.

t h o ughts we re simply swarm ing i n h is b rain but he could not

,

cat ch at o n e h e c o u l d no t r e st o n o ne i n sp ite o f al l hi s
,
~

e ff o r t s
 P A RT II

C HAPT E R I

O h e lay a v e ry long while and then he seemed . No w

to w ake up and at su ch moments he noticed that it was
,

far into th e night but it did not o ccu r to h im to get up

, .

At l ast h e noti ced that it w a s b eginning to get light H e was .

lying on hi s b ack still daz ed from hi s recent obl ivion F ear

, .

fu l desp ai ring cri es ro s e sh ri lly from the street sounds which

, ,

he heard ev ery night inde ed u nder hi s window after two

, ,
’
o clo ck They wok e him up now
. .

“
Ah ! th e d runken men ar e coming o u t o f th e taverns he
”
,
“ ’ ’
thought it s past two o clo ck and at once he leaped up as
,
-

, ,

though so me on e had pu l l ed him from the so fa

”
.

“
What ! P ast t w o o clo ck ! ’

H e sat down o n the so fa— and instantly r ecolle cted every

thing ! All at once in on e flash he recol lected everything
, , .

F o r th e fi rst mo ment h e thou g ht h e was going mad A .

d read fu l chil l came ove r h im ; but th e chil l was from the fever
that had begun long b e fo r e i n hi s sleep N o w he w a s su d .

d e n l y tak en with v i ol ent sh ive ring s o that hi s teeth chattered ,

and all hi s l imb s wer e sh aking He op ened th e doo r and b e .

gan l i stening ev erything i n th e hou se was asl eep

,
With .

amaz ement h e gaz ed at hims el f and everything i n the room

around him wo ndering how h e cou ld hav e come i n the
,

ni g ht b e fo r e w ithou t fastenin g th e doo r and hav e flung him ,

s el f o n th e so f a without u ndress ing without even taki n g hi s ,

h at o ff It had fallen o ff and was lying o n the floo r near

.

h i s p illow .

“
I f any on e h ad come in what would h e have though t ? ,

That I m drunk b u t
’

H e ru shed to the w indow T here w a s l ight enough and .

,

h e b egan hu r ri edly l o oking himsel f al l ove r fro m head to

89
90 F Y ODO R D O ST OEV S KY

fo ot all h i s cloth es ; we r e the r e no t r aces ? B u t t h ere w a s

,

no do ing i t like th at ; shi vering w ith cold he b egan takin g ,

o ff ev erything and l ooking o ve r again H e tu rned eve ry .

thing ov er to the l ast th re ads and r ags and m istru sting him ,

s el f went th r o ugh h is s ear ch th r ee t imes

,
.

B u t the r e s eemed to b e nothing no t race except i n o n e

, ,

pl ace wher e so me thi ck drop s o f congeal ed bl ood w er e cl ing

,

ing to the fr ayed edge o f h i s t rou se r s H e pi cked up a b ig .

c l a s p k n i fe and c u t o ff th e f rayed th reads The r e s eemed t o .

b e noth ing mo r e .

Su ddenly h e rememb e red th a t th e pu rs e and the things h e

had taken o u t o f th e old wom an s box w e r e stil l in hi s ’

po ck ets ! H e had not thou ght till th en o f taking them o u t

and h iding th em ! H e had n o t ev en thought o f them wh il e
h e w a s examining hi s cloth es ! What next ? I nstantly h e
ru shed t o t ake them out and fling them o n the t able When .

h e h ad pu l led o ut ev erything and tu rned th e po ck e t inside

,

o u t to b e su r e ther e w as noth ing le ft h e car ri ed the whol e

,

h eap t o th e co rne r Th e pap e r h ad com e o ff th e botto m

.

o f the w all and hung the r e i n tatt e rs H e b egan s tu flfin g all

.

“ ’
the things in to th e hol e u nde r th e p ap e r : They re i n ! All
o u t o f s ight
”
and th e pu rs e to o ! he thought gl ee ful ly get
, ,

t ing u p and gaz ing bl ankly at th e hol e wh i ch bulged o u t

m o r e than eve r S u ddenly h e shudder ed al l o ve r w ith h o r
”
.

“ “ ’
ro r ; M y God ! h e whi sp e red i n despai r ; what s the matte r
? ? ”
w ith me I s that hidden ? I s that the way to hid e things
H e h ad no t r eckoned o n h av ing tr inkets to h ide H e h ad .

o nly though t o f money and s o h ad not p rep ared a hiding

,

pl ace
”
.

“
But no w now what am I gl ad o f h e thou gh t
, ,
? I s tha t .

h iding things ? M y r eason s des erting me— s imply

’

H e s a t dow n o n th e so fa i n exh au st ion and w as a t ‘o n ce

sh aken by anothe r u nb ea rabl e fit o f shiv e ri ng M ech anical ly .

h e dr ew fro m a ch ai r b es ide hi m h is o l d student s w int er ’

co at w hi ch w a s still w arm th o ugh almo st i n rags co v ered

, ,

hims el f u p with it and o nce mo r e s ank into drows ines s and

d el i riu m H e l ost con sciou snes s
. .

N o t mo r e th an fi v e minut e s had p as sed when h e j u mp ed

u p a s econd time and at o nce p o u nced i n a f renzy o n h i s
,

cloth es again .
92 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

i nto that po o l B ut what am I to do w ith thi s now ?

.

Wher e am I to put the so ck and rags and pocket ?

H e gathered them all up i n hi s hands and stood in the
middl e o f th e room .

“
I n th e stov e ? B u t they would r ansack the stov e fi r st o f
all B u rn th em ? B ut what c a n I bu rn th em w ith ? Ther e
.

are no matche s even N o better go out and th row it al l .

,

away so mewhe r e Yes b ette r th row it away he r epeated

.
, , ,
“
s itting down on th e so fa again and at once thi s minute , , ,

without l inger ing

B u t hi s head s ank o n the p illow instead Agai n th e u n .

b e arabl e i cy shiv ering cam e o v e r him ; again he d rew hi s

co at ov e r him .

And fo r a l ong whil e fo r some hou rs he w a s h au n ted by , ,

“
th e impu l s e to go o ff somewh ere at once thi s moment and , ,

fl ing it all aw ay s o th at it m ay b e o u t o f sight and done

”
,

w ith at once at once !

, , S eve ral times h e tried to r is e from
th e s o fa but cou ld not .

H e was tho rou g hly wak ed up at l ast by a v iol ent kno cking
at h is doo r .

“
O pen do ar e y o u dead o r al iv e ? H e k eep s sl eeping
”
, ,

h er e ! shouted N a s t a sya b anging with he r fi st on the doo r , .

F o r whol e d ays togeth er h e s sno ring h er e l ike a dog ! A

’

dog he i s too O p en I tel l you I t s past ten ” ’

. . .
,
“ ’ ”
M ayb e h e s no t at hom e s aid a m an s v oi ce ’

”
.
,

H a ! that s th e po rte r s v o i ce
’
What do es h e want ’
? .

H e j umped u p and s a t o n th e so fa The b eating o f h is .

h eart w a s a po sitiv e p ain .

“ ”
T hen w h o can h av e l atched th e do o r ? reto rted N a sta sya .

H e s taken to bo ltin g hims el f i n ! A s i f he w ere wo rth

’

ste al ing ! O p en you stup id w ake up !

, ,
“
What d o they want ? Why th e p o rte r ? Al l s d is co v ’

e red Res ist o r open ? C o me wh at may !

.

H e h al f ro s e stoop ed fo rwa rd and u nl atched the doo r

, .

H i s ro om was so small th at h e cou ld u ndo th e l atch with

o u t l eav ing th e b ed Y e s ; th e p o rte r and N a s t a sya wer e
.

standing he re .

N a s t a s ya sta red at him i n a st range w a y H e gl anced .

w ith a defi ant and d esp erat e ai r at the po rter who w ithout a ,

wo rd held out a g rey f o lded p ap e r s eal ed with b ottl e wax -

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“
'
A notic e from th e o ffice , h e announced as h e gave him
,

th e p ap e r
”
.

“
F ro m what o ffice .
?

A summons to the pol i ce o ffice o f cou rse Y o u kn o w

”
, .

which o ffi ce .

“
To th e pol ice ? What fo r ?
’
How c a n I tell ? You re s ent fo r s o you go , .

Th e man lo ok ed at him attentively looked round the room

,
,

and tu rned to go away

”
.

“
H e s downr ight i ll ! obs erved N a st a sya not taking h er
’

eyes o ff him Th e po rte r tu rned hi s head fo r a moment . .

“
H e s b een in a fev er s ince yesterday s h e added
’
, .

Raskolnikov made no response and held the paper i n hi s

hands without op ening it
, .
~

“ ’
D on t you get up then N a s ta sya went on compassion ,

ately se eing that he wa s l etting hi s feet down from the so fa

, .

“
Y ou re ill and so don t go ; ther e s no such hurry
’ ’ ’
What
”
, .

hav e you got t here ?

H e loo ked ; i n h is right hand he held th e shreds h e had cut

from h i s trou sers th e sock and the ra g s o f the pocket , , .

S o h e had b een asleep w ith them in hi s hand A fterwards .

r efl ecting upon it h e remem b er ed that hal f waking up in ,

hi s fev er h e had grasp ed all thi s ti g htly in his hand and s o

,

fall en asl eep agai n .

Look at th e rags h e s co ll ected and s leep s with them as ’

,

though h e h a s go t hold o f a treasu re

And N a s t a s ya went o ff into he r hysteri cal gi g gl e .

Instantly h e thru st them al l under hi s great co at and fixed

hi s eyes intently upon he r F a r as he was from b ein g .

capabl e o f r ational r eflection at that moment he felt th at ,

no on e would b ehav e l ike that with a p erson who was go ing

“ ”
to b e ar rested B ut the poli ce ? .

“ ’
You d b etter hav e s ome tea ! Yes ? I l l b ring it there s
’ ’

som e l eft
‘
.

No I m going ; I ll go at once h e mutte red getting

’ ’
, ,

o n hi s feet
”
.

“
Why you l l nev er get downstai rs ! ’

”
,

Yes I ll g o ,
’
.

As you pl eas e .

S h e follow ed th e p o r t e r o u t .
94 F YODO R D O ST OEV S K Y

At once h e r u sh ed to th e l ight t o e x a m in e th e s o ck and th e '

rags .

T her e ar e stains bu t n o t v e ry noti ceabl e ; all cov ered w ith

,

di rt and rubb ed and al r eady di scolou red N o o ne w h o had

, .

no su spi cio n cou ld di stingu i sh anything N a s ta s ya f r o m a

”
.

d istance cou ld not h av e noti ced thank God ! Then w ith a ,

t remo r h e b rok e th e s eal o f th e notice and b egan r eading ;

he w a s a long whil e r eading b e fo r e h e unde rstood I t was , .

an o rdin ary summo ns fro m the di str i ct po lice station t o a p -

p ear th at day at hal f p ast n in e at the o ffic e o f th e di stri ct

sup eri ntendent .

B ut when h a s su ch a th ing h app ened ? I nev er h av e any

thing t o do with th e p ol i ce ! And why j u st to d ay ? ” he -

“
thought in agoni s ing b ewilderment Good God only get it
”
.
,

o ve r soo n !
H e w a s fl inging h i msel f o n h i s knee s to p r ay but ,

brok e i nto l aught er — no t at th e idea o f p rayer bu t at ,

him sel f .

’
H e b egan hu rri edly d r es sing i f I m l ost I am l ost I
,
”
, , ,
’
do n t car e ! Shall I pu t th e so ck o n ? h e suddenly wonder ed
”
,

it w il l get du sti e r stil l and th e t races wi ll b e gone .

B ut no s o one r h ad he pu t it o n th an h e pu ll ed i t o ff agai n
i n lo athing and ho r r o r H e pul l ed it o ff b u t r efle cting tha t
.
,

h e had n o o the r s o cks h e p i cked i t up and put it on again

,

and agai n h e l aughed .

“
That s al l conventi onal th at s al l r el ativ e merely a w a y
’

,
’
,
”
o f looking at it h e thou ght in a fl ash but only o n th e t o p
, ,
“
su r face o f h i s mind whil e h e w as shudd ering all ov e r ther e
”
, , ,

I v e got it o n ! I h av e fini sh ed by getting i t on !

’

B u t hi s laughte r w a s qu i ckly followed by desp ai r .

“
N o it s to o mu ch fo r m e
,
’
h e thought H is l egs .

shook . F rom fea r h e mu tte r ed H i s head s wam and

,
.

“ ’
ach ed with fev e r I t s a tri ck ! They w ant t o decoy m e
”
.

the r e and c o n fou nd m e ov er eve rything h e mu s ed a s he , ,

“
went o u t o n to the stai rs — th e wo rst o f i t is I m almo st ’

l ight h eaded
- I m ay blu rt o u t s om ething stup id
.

O n th e stai r s h e r em emb e red th at h e w a s l eav ing all the

“
things j u st as they w er e i n the hol e i n th e w al l and v er y
”
,
’
l ikely it s o n pu rp o s e t o s earch wh en I m o u t h e thought
,
’
, ,

and stopp ed sh o rt B ut h e wa s p o s ses s ed by su ch desp ai r

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d ressed h ardly b ette r than h e w a s and r athe r a qu eer l o oking ,

-

se t H e went u p to o n e o f them
”
. .

What i s it ?

H e show ed the n oti ce h e had r eceived

”
.

“
You a re a student ? the m an asked glancing at th e n o ti ce
”
.
,

Yes fo rmerly a student

,
.

The cl erk lo oked at him but without the sl ightest i ntere st

, .

H e wa s a parti cularly unkempt p erson w ith the look o f a

fi xed id ea i n hi s eye .

“
There wou ld b e no getti ng anything o u t o f him b ecau s e
”
,

he ha s no i ntere st i n anything thought Raskolnikov

”
.
,
“
Go i n the r e to th e head cl erk sai d the cl erk p ointing , ,

t o wards the fu rthest ro o m .

H e w ent into that r o o m —th e f o u rth i n order ; it w a s a

small ro om and packe d ful l o f pe o pl e r ather b ette r dr ess ed ,

than i n the outer rooms Among them we r e two ladie s

. .

O n e poorly dre ssed i n m ou rning s a t at the tab l e oppo sit e the

, ,

chi e f cl e rk w riting som ething at hi s di ctati on The othe r a

, .
,

v ery stout buxom woman w ith a pu rp li sh r ed b lotchy face

,
-
, ,

exces sively smartly d re s sed with a bro o ch o n he r bo som as

b i g a s a s au ce r w a s standing o n o ne side apparently waiting
, ,

fo r s om ething Raskolnikov thrust hi s noti ce upon the head

.

“
clerk Th e l atte r glanced at it sai d : Wait a m i nu t e and
.
, ,

w ent o n attendi ng to the l ady i n m our ning .

H e b reathed more f re ely

’
It can t b e that !
.

B y d egre e s he b egan t o r egain co nfi dence he kept u rging ,

himsel f to hav e co ur age and b e calm .

“
S om e fool i shness som e t r ifli ng carel essnes s and I may
”
, ,

b et ray mysel f ! H m ! i t s a pi ty the re s no ai r he re he

’ ’
,
“ ’
a dded i t s sti fling
,
’
It make s one s head dizz ie r than
e ve r and one s m ind to ’

H e wa s consciou s o f a te rribl e i nne r tu rm o il H e w a s .

a f raid o f lo sing hi s sel f —c o ntro l ; he tri ed to catch at some

thi ng and fix hi s mind o n it som ethi ng quit e i rrel evant b ut
, ,

he could not succeed i n this at al l Yet the head clerk greatly .

inter e sted him he kept hoping t o s e e thr o ugh him and gu es s

,

something f rom hi s face .

H e was a ve ry you ng m an about t w o and twenty w ith a , ,

dark mobi le f ace that looked olde r than hi s years H e wa s .

fas h io nably dre sse d and foppi sh w ith h is hai r p arted i n the ,
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m iddle w ell c o mb ed and pomaded and wo re a numb e r o f

, ,

rings o n hi s well scru bb ed fi nger s and a go ld chain on

-

hi s wai stco at H e sai d a couple o f wo rd s i n F r ench to

.

a fo reigner w h o wa s i n th e room and said them fai rly ,

c o rr ectly .

“
Lui se I vanovna you can sit down he said casually to
, ,

the gaily dre s sed purp l e faced lady who was still standing
-
,
-
,

a s though not ventur ing to sit down though there was a chai r ,

b e side he r .

“
Ic h danke said the latter and so ftly with a ru stl e o f silk
, , ,

s h e sank into the chai r H e r light b lu e dres s trimmed with

.

white lace floated about the tabl e like an ai r —balloon and

fi ll ed almo st hal f th e ro om S he smelt o f s cent B ut she . .

w a s obvi ou sly embar rassed at fi lling hal f the room and

smelling so stro ngly o f s cent ; and though her smil e w a s
impudent a s w el l a s cringing it b etrayed evident unea siness ,
.

The lady i n mou rni ng had done at l ast and got up All ,
.

at once with som e noi se an office r walked i n very j auntily

, _ , ,

w ith a peculi ar swing o f hi s shoulder s at each step H e .

to ssed hi s cockaded c a p o n the ta b l e and sat down i n an

ea sy chai r The smart lady po siti vely skipped from her seat
-
.

o n seeing him and fell to curtsying in a sort o f e cstasy ; b ut

,

the o ffice r took not the smallest notice o f he r and she did ,

not v entu r e to si t down agai n i n hi s pre sence H e w a s the .

assi stant superintendent H e had a reddi sh moustac h e that

.

stood o u t hor izontally on each side o f hi s face and extremely ,

small featu res expre ssive o f nothing much except a certain

,

i nsolence H e looked askance and rathe r i ndignantly at

.

Raskolnikov ; he wa s so very badly dressed and in spite o f ,

hi s humili ating po sition hi s be aring w a s by no means i n ,

keep ing with hi s clothes Raskolnikov had unwarily fixed a .

very long and di re ct lo ok o n him so that he felt positively ,

a ffronted
”
.

“
What do you want ? h e shouted apparently astoni shed ,

that su ch a ragged fellow w a s not annihi lated b y the maj esty

o f hi s glance .

I was summoned by a n o ti ce Raskolnikov

falter ed .

F o r the re cov ery o f money due from th e s tu d e n t

“
the , ,

head clerk i nter fered hu rri edly tearing hi msel f from hi s ,

98 F Y ODO R DO S TOE V S K Y

”
paper s Her e ! and h e flung Rask o lnik o v a do c u men t and
”
.

“
poi nted o u t t he place Re ad that !
”
.

“
M oney ? What m o ney ? though t Rask o l nik o v but
”
,
’
the n i t s ce rtainly not tha t .

And h e t remb led wi th j oy H e felt sudden i ntense i nde .

s crib abl e rel i e f A lo ad wa s li fted f r o m hi s b ack

”
. .

“
And pr ay what time we r e you di rected to appe ar s ir ?
, ,

shouted the a ssi stant sup er intendent s eeming fo r s om e n u ,

“
known r eason m ore and m ore aggr i eved Yo u are told t o
”
.

’
com e a t ni ne and now it s twel ve !
,
“
The n o ti ce w a s o nly b r ought m e a quarter o f an h o u r
ag o Raskol nikov answer ed loudly ove r hi s shoulde r To
, .

h i s o w n su rp ri se he t oo grew suddenly angry and f o und a, ,

“ ’
certai n pl easu re i n i t And it s en o ugh that I hav e c o m e
”
.

he re il l with feve r
”
.

“
K indly re frai n f r o m shouting !
“ ’
I m n o t shouting I m speaking ve ry q ui etly it s you w h o
’

,
’

,
’
ar e shouting at m e I m a stude nt and allow no o ne to shout
”
.
,

at m e .

The assi stant superi ntendent w a s s o fu riou s that fo r the

fi r st m i nute he could o nly splutter i narti cu lately H e l eaped .

Up f rom hi s s eat .

B e s ilent ! Y o u a re i n a gov e rnment o ffice Do n t b e

’

”
.

impudent si r ! ,
“
Yo u r e i n a g o v ernment o ffice to o cri ed Raskolnikov
’
, , ,

and you r e smoking a cigarette as w ell as shouti ng s o y o u

’

”
,

ar e sh owing di srespect to all o f u s .

H e f elt an i ndescri b abl e sati s factio n at hav ing s aid thi s .

The head cle rk looked at him with a sm ile The angry .

assi st ant supe ri nte ndent was obvi ou sly di sconcerted

”
.

“
That s not you r busine ss ! h e shouted at last w ith u n
’

natu ral loudness K i ndly make the decl arati on demanded

.

o f you S how him Al exander G r ig o rie v it ch There i s a com

.
,
.

’ ’
pl aint against you ! Yo u don t pay y o u r debt s ! Yo u r e a fine
bird ”.

B ut Ra skol ni kov w as not li stening n o w ; he had eage rly

clutched at the p ape r i n h aste to find an explanation ,
.

H e r ead i t o nce and a s econd time and still did n o t under

, ,

stand .

“
Wha t i s thi s h e asked the head cl e r k .
1 00 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

I have warned you ten time s o v er that I would not l et yo u

o ff the el eventh ! And here you ar e again agai n y o u , ,

.
ln

Th e p ape r f ell out o f Ra sk o l n ik o v s hands and h e look ed ’

wi ldly at the smart lady who w a s s o u nceremoniou sly t r eated .

B ut he soo n saw what it m eant and at once b egan t o fi nd ,

po siti v e amu sement i n the s candal H e l i stened w ith pl e asur e .

,

s o that h e longed to laugh and laugh al l hi s nerv e s we r e

o n edge .

I lya Petrovitch the head clerk wa s b egi nning anxi ou sly ,

but stopp ed short fo r he knew f rom expe ri ence that the e n

,

r aged a ssi stant coul d not b e stopp ed except by for ce .

A s fo r the smart l ady at fi rst sh e p ositively t remb led b e

,

for e the sto rm B ut strange to s a y the mo re nume rou s and

.
,

vi ol ent the te rms o f a b u s e b ecame the mo r e am ia b l e s h e ,

l o oked and the mo re sedu ctiv e the smi le s she lavi shed o n the
terr ibl e a s si stant S he mov ed u neasily a nd cu rt sie d in ce s
.
,

s a n t ly waiting imp ati ently fo r a chance o f putting in he r

,

w ord ; and at l ast she fou nd it .

“
The re was no so rt o f no i se o r fi ghti ng i n my house M r
”
.
,

C aptain s h e p atter ed all at once like p eas dropp ing sp eak

, , ,

i ng Ru s si an confidently though w ith a strong Ge rman a ccent

, ,
“
and no so rt o f scandal and hi s honou r came drunk and i t s
, ,
’

the whol e t ruth I am telling M r C aptai n and I am not to ,

.
,

bl ame . M ine i s an honou rable hou se M r C aptai n and ,

.
,

honou rabl e b ehavi ou r M r C aptai n and I alw ays always d is

,
.
, ,

l ike any s candal mys el f B ut he cam e quite t ipsy and asked

.
,

f o r thre e b ottle s again and then he l i fted u p one l eg and

, ,

b egan pl aying the p i ano fo rte w ith one foot and that is n o t ,

at all right i n an honou rabl e hou se and he g a ng b roke the ,

pi ano a nd it wa s v e ry b ad manner s i ndeed and I said so

, .

And he took up a b ottl e and b egan hitting every o ne with it .

And then I call ed the po rte r and K a rl came and h e took , ,

K ar l and hit hi m i n th e eye ; and h e h it H enri ette i n the eye ,

t o o and gav e m e fi v e slap s o n the che ek

,
And i t wa s so .

u ngentl emanly i n an honou rabl e hou se M r C aptai n and , .

,

I s cream ed And h e op ened the w indow o ve r the canal and

.
,

sto od i n the wi ndow s qu eali ng like a l ittl e p i g ; it was a

,

di sgrace Th e i dea o f squ ealing l ike a l ittl e pig at the w in

.

dow i nt o the str eet ! Fie upon him ! And K arl pulled him
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pay him fi fte en rou b le s damages And I did pay him M r .

, .

C aptain fi ve roub les fo r s e in r o c k

, And he i s an u ngentle ~

‘
.

manly vi sito r and cau sed all the scandal I will show
‘
.

yo u up he s aid fo r I can write to all the pap er s a b out

, ,
? 3’
you.

“
Then he w a s an author ?
,

Ye s M r C aptain and what an ungentlemanly v i sito r in

,
.
,

an honour abl e hous e

N o w then ! E nough ! I have told you already
I lya Petro vitch the head clerk rep eated signi fi cantly .

T he ass i stant glanced rapidly at him ; the head clerk s ligh tl v

shook hi s head .

S o I tell you thi s m o st re sp ectable Lu ise I vanovna , ,

and I tell it you fo r the last time the assi stant went on , .

“
If there i s a s candal i n you r honour abl e hous e once again I ,

w il l put you you r sel f i n the lock u p as it i s called i n polite -

,

s oci ety D o you hear ? S o a literary man an autho r took

‘
.
,

fi ve rou b l es for h is coat tai l in an honou rable hou se ? A -

’

nice s e t thes e autho r s ! ”

,

And he cast a contemptuou s glance at Rasko lnikov T here .

w a s a s candal the other day i n a re staurant too An aut h o r

‘
.
,

had eaten hi s di nner and would not pay ; I l l writ e a sati re o n ’

’
you says h e And there w a s another o f them o n a steame r
, .

last week u sed the most di sgrace ful language to the r e s p e c

ta b le family o f a civil councilo r hi s wi fe and dau g hter And , .

ther e w a s o n e o f them turned out o f a con fectioner s s h op ’

the other day They are l ike that authors literary men
.
, , ,

students t o wn cri e rs
,
P fo o !
-
You get along ! I shall
lo ok i n upo n you mysel f o ne day Then you had b ette r b e
”
.

car e ful ! D o you h ear ?

With hu rried de fe rence Lui s e Ivanovna fell to curtsying ,

i n al l di re ctions and so cu rtsi ed he rsel f to the doo r B ut at

,
.

th e doo r sh e stumb led b ackwards against a good looking

,
-

o ffice r w ith a fresh open face and splendid thi ck fai r ,

whi sker s This was th e sup eri ntendent o f the di stri ct himsel f
.
,

N ikodim F o m it c h Lu i s e Ivanovna made haste to curtsy

.

almo st to th e ground and with mincing l ittle step s s h e , ,

fluttered o u t o f the o ffice .

102 F Y ODO R D OSTO EV S K Y
”
Again thu nd e r and l ightning a hu rri can e ! s aid N ikodim —
“
F o m it c h to I lya P etr o vitch i n a civ il and f riendly to ne Yo u .

a re arou sed again y o u ar e fum ing agai n ! I heard i t o n th e

”
,

stai rs !
“ ”
We ll what then ! I lya Pe t rovitch dr awl ed w ith gentl e
, ,

m anly nonchal ance ; and h e walked w ith som e p ape r s to

anothe r tabl e w ith a j aunty swing o f hi s shoulde r s at each
,
“
step . Her e i f yo u w ill kindly look : a n autho r o r a student
, , ,

ha s been o n e at l ea st do e s not pay hi s debt s has given an

, ,

I 0 U wo n t cl ear o u t o f his r oom a nd compl ai nts ar e co n

. . .
’
,

s t a n t l y being lodged agai nst him and h er e h e has b een ,

pl eased to m ake a p rote st against my smoking i n hi s p re sence

H e b ehave s l ike a c a d him sel f and j u st l o ok at him p le ase
”
.
, ,
’
He r e s the gentl em an and v ery attract ive he i s ! ,
“
P ov e rty i s n o t a vi ce my fr i end but w e know you go , ,
’
o ff l ike p owde r yo u can t b e ar a slight I dares ay you took
”
.
,

o ffence at s o mething and went too f ar you rs el f co ntinued ,

“
N ik o dim F o m it c h tu rning a ffably to Raskolnikov
,
B ut .

you ar e w rong th er e ; h e i s a cap ital fellow I assur e you , ,

but expl o s ive expl o siv e ! H e gets hot fi r e s up b o il s o ve r

, , , ,
’
and no stopp ing him ! A nd the n it s al l ov er ! And at th e
b ott o m h e s a hear t o f gol d ! H i s ni ckname i n t he r egiment
’

w as th e E xpl os iv e Li eute nant

“
And what a r egime nt it w as t o o ; c r ied I lya Petr o v itch , ,

mu ch gr ati fi ed at thi s agre e abl e b ante r though sti ll sulky , .

Raskol niko v had a sudden d esi re to s ay som ething e x c e p

“
E xcus e m e C aptai n ”
t io n a ll y pl easant to th em all he .
, ,

b egan e asily sudde nly addres sing N ikodim Fo m it c h w il l

, ,

you ente r i nto my pos itio n I am ready to ask p ardo n .

,

i f I hav e b een ill manner ed I am a poo r s t udent s i ck

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.
,

and sh attered ( shattered wa s th e wo rd h e u sed ) by pov erty .

I am not studying b e cau s e I cann o t ke ep mysel f n o w

, ,

but I shal l get m o ney I h av e a m o the r and s ister

.

i n the p rovi nce o f ! They w il l s end it m e and I w ill

.
,

p ay M y l andlady i s a go o d hearted w om an but s h e i s s o

.
-
,

exasp erated at my hav ing l os t my l e s so ns and n o t p aying ,

he r fo r the l ast f o u r months that she doe s not even s end ,

u p my dinne r and I do n t u nder stand th i s I 0 U at all ’

. . . .

S he i s asking m e to pay h e r o n thi s I 0 U H o w a m I t o . . .

p ay h er ? J udge f o r y our s elves !

104 FYO D O R DO S T O E V S K Y

F o m itch , s itting d o wn at the tabl e and al s o b eginni ng t o

w rite H e looked a l ittl e asham ed
”
. .

“
Write ! sai d th e head cl e rk t o Raskolnik o v .

”
Write wh at ? the l atte r aske d g ru ffly
”
.

I w ill di ctate to you .

Raskol niko v fancie d that th e h ead cl erk tr eated him m or e

casu ally and contemptu ou sly a fte r hi s sp ee ch b ut st range ,

to say h e sudde nly felt completely indi ffe re nt to any o ne s ’

op inion and thi s r evu l si o n to ok p lace i n a fl ash i n o n e

, ,

i nstant I f h e had car ed to thi nk a l ittle h e w oul d h av e

.
,

b e e n am azed i ndeed that he could have talke d to them l ike

that a mi nute b e fore fo rci ng his fe el ings upo n them And
, .

w her e had tho s e feel i ngs come from ? N o w i f the whol e

r oom h ad b ee n fill ed not w ith p ol i ce o ffi ce rs b ut w ith
, ,

thos e ne ar e st and de ar est t o him h e woul d not have fou nd ,

o n e hum an w or d fo r them s o empty w a s hi s h e art , A .

gloomy s ensati o n o f ago ni si ng ev e rl asti ng sol itude and ,

r emote ness took co ns cious form i n h is s oul

, It w as not .

the meanne s s o f h i s s entimental e ffus ions b e for e I lya Petro

’
v it c h
,
no r the m e annes s o f the latter s tr iumph o ve r him
that had cau s ed thi s sudden r evul sio n i n h is heart Oh .
,

w hat had h e to d o now w ith h i s own b asene ss w ith al l ,

t hes e p etty v anitie s o ffice rs German women debts p o li ce

, , , ,

o ffi c e s ? I f h e had b ee n s entence d t o b e b urnt at that

m oment h e woul d not hav e sti rred would hardly h ave
, ,

he ard the s e ntence to th e end S om ething w a s happen .

ing to hi m entirely new sudden and u nknown ,

I t w as .

not that h e unde rstood but he felt cl ear ly w ith all the
,

i ntens ity o f s ens atio n that h e cou ld neve r m o re app eal t o

these p eop l e i n the p ol i ce o ffi c e with s entimental e ffu sio ns
-

l ik e hi s r ecent o utb ur st o r w ith anything whateve r ; a nd

,

that i f they had b een h is ow n b rothe rs and s i ste rs and not

p ol ice o ffi c e r s it woul d hav e b e en u tterly o u t o f the q ue s
-
,

t ion t o appe al to them i n any cir cumstance o f l i fe He .

had n ev e r exp er ience d su ch a strange a nd aw ful s ens ation .

And wh at w a s m ost ago nis ing— it was m or e a s e nsatio n than

a co nceptio n o r i dea a di re ct s ens ation the m ost agonis ing
, ,

o f all the s ens ations h e had known i n hi s l i fe .

The head cl erk b ega n di ctati ng to him the u sual f o rm o f

decl ar ati o n that h e could n o t p a y that h e u ndert oo k t o d o
, ,
 CR IM E A N D P UN I S H ME N T 05

so at a futu r e dat e that he would not leave the town , ,

no r s ell hi s p rop erty and s o o n , .

“ ’
B ut you can t w r ite you c a n hardly hol d the p en , ,

ob serv ed the head clerk looking w ith curio sity at

”
,

Raskol niko v A r e you i ll ?

”
.

“
Yes I am giddy G o o n !
, .

’
That s all S ign it . .

The head clerk took the pap er and tu rned t o attend t o ,

o thers .

Raskol niko v gav e b ack the pen ; but instead o f getting u p

and going away he put hi s elb ows o n th e table and p res sed
,

hi s head i n hi s hands H e felt as i f a nai l wer e b eing .

dri ven i nto hi s sku ll A strange ide a suddenly o ccurred to .

him to get up at o nce to go up to N ikodim F o m it ch and

, , ,

tell him everything that h ad happ ened ye sterday and the n ,

to go w ith him to his lodgings and to show him the things

i n the ho l e i n the cor ner The impul se was s o strong that .

“
h e got up from hi s s eat to car ry i t out H adn t I b ette r
’

”
.

“
think a m i nute ? fl ashed through his mind N o bette r
”
.
,

cast o ff the burden w ithout thinki ng B ut al l at once he .

st oo d still roote d to the spot N iko dim F o m it ch w a s talk

,
.

ing e agerly with I lya P etr o vitch and the wo rds re ached ,

him :
“ ’
It s imposs ibl e they l l both b e rele as ed To begin with
,
’
.
,

the whol e sto ry co ntradi cts itsel f Why s hou ld they have .

call ed the p orte r i f it had b een thei r doing ? T o i n form

,

agai nst thems elves ? O r as a bl ind ? N o that would be ,

t o o cu nni ng ! B es ides P e s trya k o v the student w a s see n , , ,

at the gate by both the porter s and a woman as h e went

in H e was w alking with three fr iends who l e ft him o nly
.
,

at the gate and he asked the po rte rs to di rect him in the

, ,

presence o f the fr iends N o w woul d he have asked his .

,

way i f he had b een going w ith su ch an o b j ect ? A s fo r

K och he spent hal f an hou r at the s ilver smith s b elow
’
, ,

b e for e h e w ent u p to the ol d w oman and he le ft hi m at

exactly a quarte r t o ei ght N o w j u st consider .

“
B ut excuse m e h o w do you explain thi s contradi ction ?
,

They state thems elves that they knocked and the doo r wa s
lo cked ; yet thre e m inutes late r when they went u p w ith t h e
”
porter it turned o ut the doo r w a s u nfastened
,
.
1 06 F Y OD O R D O S TO EV S KY

Tha t s j u st it ; th e m u rde re r m u st h ave b ee n t he r e a nd

’

’
bo lted himsel f in ; and th ey d hav e cau ght h im fo r a ce rtai n ty
i f K o ch h ad not b ee n an as s and g o ne to l ook fo r th e
p o rte r too H e m u st hav e s eize d the i nte r val to get d o wn
.

s tai rs and s lip by them s o m ehow K o ch keep s c ro ss ing

‘
.

hims el f and s aying : I f I had b een the re h e w o ul d hav e ,

j umped o u t and kill ed m e w ith hi s axe H e i s go i ng t o ’

”
.

—
hav e a thanksgiv i ng s erv ic e h a h a !
”
,
“
And n o o ne s aw the m u rdere r ?
“
They m ight w ell n o t s e e him ; t he h o us e is a r e gu l a r
N o ah s A rk
’
s ai d t he head cle rk who w a s l isteni ng
, , .

“
N ik o dim F o m it ch r epea t ed
’
It s cl ear q uit e cle ar , ,

w armly .

“
N o i t i s anything bu t cl ear
, Ilya P etr o vitch m ai n t ained , .

Rask o lniko v pi cked up hi s hat and w alke d to wards the

d o o r but he did not r each it
, .

Whe n he r ecover ed c o ns ci o us nes s h e f ou nd h imsel f s itt ing ,

i n a chai r supp o rte d by s o m e o n e o n the r ight s ide w hil e

, ,

s ome o n e el s e w as standing o n th e l e ft holdi ng a yell o wi sh ,

glass fi lle d w ith yellow w ate r and N ik o dim F o m itch s tand ,

i ng b e for e h i m l oo ki ng inten t ly at h im H e go t u p fr om
, .

the chai r
”
.

“
What s this ? Ar e y ou il l ? N ikodim F o m it ch asked
’
,

r athe r sharply .

“
H e coul d hardly h o l d hi s p en whe n h e wa s s igni ng s ai d ,

the head cle rk s ettl ing b ack i n h is p lace and taking up hi s

, ,

wo rk agai n
”
.

“
H av e you b ee n il l l o ng ? cr ied I lya P etrov itch fr om hi s
place w her e he t oo wa s looking through p ap e rs H e h ad
, , , .
,

o f c o u rs e c o m e t o l oo k at the s ick m an when h e f ai nted

, ,

bu t r eti re d at o nce w he n he r e co ve red

”
.

“
S i nce yesterday m utte re d Rask o lnik o v in r eply
”
.
,

D i d y o u g o o ut yesterday ?
Ye s
”
.

T hough yo u w er e i ll ?
Ye s ” .

At wh at ti me ?
”
About s ev en
‘ ”
.

And wher e di d yo u go m ay I a sk ?
”
,

Al o n g the str ee t .
 C HAPT E R I I

D what i f the re h a s b een a s earch al ready ? Wh a t

i f I find them in th e roo m ? ”
B ut he re w a s hi s room N othing and no one in
.

i t N o o n e had peeped i n E ven N a s t a s ya had n o t tou ched

. .

it B ut h eav ens ! how could h e hav e l e ft all tho se th ings i n

.

the ho le ?
H e ru shed to the co rn er sl ippe d hi s hand under the p ape r
, ,

pul led th e thi ngs out and fi lled hi s po ckets w ith them The re .

w e re e ight art icle s in all : two l ittle b oxe s w ith e ar rings o r -

something o f the so rt he h ardly lo oked to s e e ; then fou r

,

smal l l eather cas es Ther e was a chain to o me rely w rapped

.
, ,

i n newsp ap er and something els e i n new sp aper that lo oked ,

like a d eco r ation H e pu t them all i n the d i fferent

.

pocket s o f hi s ov e rco at and th e r emaining po cket o f hi s

,

t rou s er s t rying to conce al them a s much as po ssibl e H e

, .

took the pu r se t o o Then h e w ent o u t o f h i s ro om l eaving

, .
,

the do o r op en He walked qu ickly and r e solutely and though

.
,

h e felt shatter ed h e had hi s s ense s ab o ut him

, He was .

a fr ai d o f pu rsu i t h e w as a fr aid that i n another h al f hour

,
-
,

anothe r qu arte r o f an hou r p erhaps i nstructions woul d b e ,

i s su ed fo r hi s pu r sui t and s o at all c o sts h e mu s t hide al l

, ,

tr aces be fo r e then H e mu st clear ev erything u p while h e

.

sti ll had som e strength s ome r easo ning p o wer le ft him

,
.

Where wa s h e t o g o ?
Th at had long b een s ettl ed : F ling t h em i nto th e canal ,

and all t races hidden i n the w ater th e thing would b e at an

”
,

end . S o h e had decided i n t h e night o f hi s deli riu m when

s ev eral times h e had had the impul s e to get up and go away ,

t o m ake haste and get r i d o f it al l B ut to get ri d o f it

,
.
,

turned o u t to b e a v ery di fficult task H e wandered a long .

th e b ank o f the Ek a t e r in in sk y C anal fo r h al f an hour o r

mo r e and lo o ked s ev er al times at the step s r unning down
to the wate r but h e c o uld n o t think o f car rying o u t hi s plan ;
,
’
ei ther r a ft s st o od at t h e s t ep s edge and women wer e wash ,

1 08
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME N T 1 09

ing clothe s on them o r boats wer e moo red there and peopl e
, ,

we re swarming eve rywher e M o reov er h e could be seen and .

noticed fro m the b anks o n all sides ; i t would look su spiciou s

fo r a m an to go down o n pu rpos e stop and thr ow something , ,

i nto the wate r And what i f the boxes wer e to flo at instead

.

o f sinking ? And o f cou r se they would E ven a s it w a s .

,

eve ry o n e he met s eemed to stare and look round as i f they ,

“
had nothing t o do but to watch him Why i s it o r c a n it
”
.
,

b e my fancy ? he thought .

At l ast the thou ght stru ck him that i t might b e better to

go to the N ev a T he re we re not so many people the re he
,
.
.

would b e les s ob served and i t would b e mo re conveni ent i n ,

every way abov e all i t w a s further o ff H e wondered how

,
.

he could have b een wandering fo r a good hal f —hou r wo rri ed ,

and anxiou s in thi s dangerou s part without thi nking o f i t

b e for e And that hal f hou r he had lo st ov er an i r rational
.
-

plan simply becau se he had thou ght o f it in deli rium ! He

,

had b ecome extremely ab sent and fo rgetful and he w a s

awar e o f it H e certainly mu st m ake haste
. .

He walked towards th e N ev a along V Pro spect but o n ,

the way another i de a stru ck him Why to the N eva ? .

Would i t not b e bette r to go somewhere far o ff to the I slands ,

again and there hide the things in some solitary pl ace i n a

”
, ,

wood o r unde r a bu sh and mark the spot p erhaps ? And

,

though he felt incapable o f clea r j udgment th e idea seemed ,

to him a sound o n e B ut h e wa s not destined to go there . .

F o r coming o u t o f V P ro sp e ct towards th e squ are he ,

s a w o n the le ft a pas sage l eading b etween two bl ank wall s to

a courtyard O n the right hand the bl ank unwhitewashed

.
,

wal l o f a fou r sto ri ed hou s e str etched far into the court ; o n
-

the l e ft a wooden hoarding r an pa rallel with it fo r twenty

,

pace s i nto the cou rt and then tu rned sharply to the le ft ,

.

H er e w a s a deserted fenced o ff pl ace where ru bb i sh o f di ffer -

ent so rt s w a s lying At the end o f the court the co rner o f

.
,

a low smutty stone shed apparently part o f some wo rkshop

, , ,

peeped from b ehind the ho arding It was p robably a c a r .

r ia g e builder s o r carpenter s shed ; the whole place from th e

’ ’

entrance w a s b lack with co al dust H er e would b e th e place .

to thr o w it he thought N o t se eing any one i n the yard he

,
.
,

slipped in and at o nce s a w near the gate a sink such a s is

, ,
1 10 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

o ften pu t i n yards whe r e th er e ar e m any w o rkmen o r c a b

d river s ; and o n th e ho ardi ng abov e h ad been s cr ibbl ed i n
“
chalk th e time honou r ed w itti ci sm-
S tanding her e stri ctly ,

forbi dd en Thi s was al l the b ett er fo r ther e w o uld b e

.
,
“
nothing suspici ou s a b out hi s go ing i n H ere I could thr o w
”
.

i t all i n a heap and get away !

Lo oki ng rou nd o nce mo re w ith his hand al r eady i n hi s ,

p o cket h e noticed against th e o ute r w all b etween th e e n

, ,

trance and th e s ink a bi g u nhewn stone wei ghing p erh aps

, ,

s ixty pounds The o the r sid e o f th e w al l w a s a st reet H e

. .

could hear pas ser s b y always numerou s in that p art but h e

-
, ,

could not b e s ee n from t he entr ance u nl es s s o me o n e came ,

i n fr om th e str eet whi ch mi ght wel l h appen i ndeed s o ther e

, ,

w a s need o f ha ste .

He b ent down o v e r the stone s e ized the t o p o f it fi rmly i n ,

both hand s and u sing all hi s strength turned it ov e r U n de r

, .

the stone wa s a small h o llow in the ground and h e im m e d i ,

ately empti ed hi s po cket i nto it The pu r s e lay at th e top .

and yet th e hollow w a s not fi lled up Then h e s e iz ed the .

stone agai n and w ith o ne twi st tu rned it b ack s o that it wa s ,

i n the s ame po sitio n agai n though it st oo d a v ery l ittl e ,

higher B ut h e s cr aped th e earth ab o ut it and pr e ss ed i t a t

.

th e edge s with h is fo ot N othing could b e noti ced . .

Then h e went o u t and t u rned int o the squ ar e Again an

,
.

i ntens e almo st u nb ear abl e j oy ov erwhelmed hi m for an

,
“
i nstant a s i t had i n t he po li ce o ffice
, I h av e bu ri ed my .

track s ! And wh o w h o can think o f lo oking u nder tha t

,

stone ? It ha s b e en lying there mo st l ikely ev e r si nce the

hou s e w as bu ilt and wi ll li e a s many ye ar s m o r e And i f i t
,
.

wer e f o u nd w h o w o u ld think o f me ? I t i s al l o ve r ! N o
”
,

clu e ! And h e laughed Ye s h e r ememb ered that he be ga n .

,

l aughi ng a thin nervou s noi seles s l augh and went o n l au gh

, ,

i ng all th e t ime he wa s cro ssing the squ are B ut wh en h e .

r eached th e K B oul ev ard wher e tw o days be fo re h e h ad

come upo n that girl hi s l au ghte r s uddenly ceased O ther ,
.

i deas crept into hi s mind H e felt all at o nce that i t wou ld .

b e lo ath some t o p as s th at s eat o n whi ch a fte r the girl wa s

gone h e h ad s at and pond ered and that i t wou ld b e hate ful
, , ,

too t o meet that whi skered p o l i cem an to wh o m he had given

”
,
“
th e t wenty c o p eck s : D amn him l
1 12 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

i mmeasu r abl e almo st physical r epul si o n fo r eve ry t hing s u r

, ,

r o unding him a n ob sti nate mali gnant feeling o f h atred Al l

, ,
.

w h o met him w e r e lo athsom e to him — h e lo athed thei r face s ,

the i r mov ement s thei r gestu re s I f any o n e h ad add res sed

, .

h im h e felt that h e mi ght hav e spat at h im o r b itte n

,

h im .

H e stopped suddenly o n comi ng out o n the bank o f t h e ,

“
Littl e N eva near the b ridge to V a s s il ye v sk y O stro v
,
Why .
,
“
he l i ve s he re in that hou s e he thou ght why I h av e not
, , , ,

co me to Ra z u m ih in o f my o w n acco rd ! H ere it s the same ’

thing ov e r agai n V ery i nte re sti ng to know thou gh ;

.
,

hav e I com e on pu rp o se o r hav e I simply w alke d he re by

chance ? N eve r mind I s aid the d ay b e fo re yesterday that ,

I would go and s e e h im th e day a f ter ; well and so I w il l !

”
,

B e side s I r eally cannot go furthe r now .

H e w ent up to Ra z u m ih in s room o n the fi fth flo o r

’
.

Th e latte r was at hom e i n hi s garret bu sily writing at th e ,

m o ment and h e opened th e doo r hi msel f

, I t w a s fou r .

month s s ince they had s ee n e ach oth er Ra z u m ih in w a s sit .

ting in a ragged dre s sing gown with slippe r s o n hi s b are -

,

feet u nkempt u nshav en and u nwashed H i s fac e sh o wed

, ,
.

su rpr i se
”
.

“
Is i t you ? he cri ed H e lo o ked h i s comr ade up and .

“
down ; then a fter a b ri e f p au se h e whi stl ed As hard u p .

”
,

a s all that ! Wh y b rother you v e cut m e o u t ! he added , ,

’
,
“
l ooking at Ra s k o l n ik o v s r ags C ome s it down you ar e
’

”
.
,
’
ti red I ll b e bound
, .

And when h e h ad su nk down o n the Ameri can l eathe r so fa ,

w hi ch w a s i n eve n wor se conditio n than h is own Ra z u m ih in ,

s a w at once that hi s v i sito r was i ll

”
.

“
Why you ar e s eri ou sly i ll do you know that ? He began
, ,

feel ing hi s pul se Raskolnikov pulled away hi s h and

”
. .

“ “
N eve r mi nd h e s aid I h av e co me fo r thi s : I hav e no
, ,
’
l e ssons I wanted . bu t I do n t r e ally w ant l es
son s
”
. .

“
B ut I say ! Y o u are deli r iou s y o u kn o w ! Ra z u m ih in ,

obse rv ed w atchin g hi m care fully

”
.
,
“
N o I am not ,
.

Rasko lniko v got up f r o m th e so fa A s h e had mounted t h e .

’
stai r s to Ra z u m ih in s he had not r eali sed that he would b e ,
 C R IME AND P UN IS H ME NT 1 13

m eeting hi s friend face to face N o w i n a fl ash h e knew .

, , ,

that what he w a s le ast o f al l di spo sed fo r at that moment

was to b e f ace t o f ace w ith any one in the wide w o rld H is .

spleen ro se withi n him H e almo st choked with rage at him .

sel f a s soon as he cro s sed Ra z u m ihin s threshold ’

”
.

“
Go o d bye h e s aid ab ruptly and walked to the do o r
-

”
, , .

S top stop ! Y o u queer fi sh

”
.
,
’
I don t wan t to said t he othe r again pulling away hi s
, ,

hand .

“
Then w hy t h e devi l h av e you come ? Are yo u mad o r ,

wh at ? Why thi s i s almo st i nsulting ! I won t l et y ou ’

”
,

go l ike th at .

“
Wel l then I ca m e t o you b ecau s e I know n o o n e but you
, ,

who coul d help to begin b ecau s e you are kinder

than any o n e— clevere r I mean and can j udge and now, ,

I s e e that I want nothing D o you hear ? N othing at all .

’ ’
no o ne s s erv i ce s no o ne s sympathy I am by .

’
mysel f al o ne C ome that s e nough Leave m e alone
.
, . .

“
S tay a minute yo u sweep ! Y o u are a per fect madman
, .

A s yo u like f o r all I care I h av e no les sons do you s e e .

, ,
’ ’
and I d o n t care about that but ther e s a bookseller Heru , ,

v im o v— and he takes the place o f a le sson I would n o t .

’
exchange hi m f o r five les son s H e s do ing publi shing o f a .

kind and i s suing n atu ral sci ence manu al s and what a circula
,

tio n they hav e ! The v ery t itle s ar e wo rth the money ! You
always m aintai ned that I was a foo l but by Jov e my boy , , ,

ther e are greater fool s than I am ! N o w h e i s s etting up fo r

be ing advanced not that h e ha s an i nkling o f anything but
, , ,

o f cou rse I encou rage h im,

H er e are two si gnatu res o f the .

Ge rman text— in my O pinion th e crudest ch arlatanism ; it

di scu sse s the que stion 1 5‘ woman a human b eing ?
.And o f
,
’

cour se triumphantly proves that s h e i s H e r u v im o v i s go ing

,
.

to bring o u t thi s wo rk as a contributio n to the woman que s

tio n ; I am transl ating i t ; he wi ll exp and the se two and a
h al f signatu re s into six w e shall make up a gorgeou s titl e ,

hal f a page long and b ring it out at hal f a rouble I t will do .

He pays me six r ouble s the si gnatu re it wo rks o u t to a bout ,

fi fteen rou b le s fo r the j o b and I v e had s ix al ready i n a d ,

’

v ance When we h av e fini shed thi s we are go ing to begin a

. ,

translatio n about whal es and then s o me o f the dulle st scan ,

1 14 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

d al s out o f th e s ec o nd p ar t o f L e s Co nf es s io ns w e hav e
m ar k ed fo r t ransl atio n ; s o mebody ha s told H e r u v im o v t ha t ,

R ou sse au w a s a kind o f Radi shchev Y o u may be su re I .

’
d o n t con t r adic t hi m hang h im ! Well would you like t o do
‘ ,
”
t h e s ec o nd s ignatu re o f Is w o m a n a hu m a n b eing ? I f yo u
,

w o uld t ake th e German and pen s and pape r al l tho se are

,
-

p r o v id ed and take thre e r o ub le s ; f o r a s I h av e h ad s ix

,

r ouble s i n adv anc e o n t he whol e thing thre e roubl es c o me to ,

you fo r y o u r shar e And when yo u hav e fi ni sh ed the si gna

.

t u r e th er e wil l b e anoth er th ree r o ubl e s fo r you And pl eas e .

’
don t t h ink I am doing you a servi ce ; quite the contrary a s ,

so o n a s y o u came in I saw ho w you co uld help m e ; t o begi n,

w ith I am we ak i n spel ling and s econdly I am sometime s

, , ,

u tt erly adri ft i n Ge rman s o th at I m ake i t up as I go along ,

fo r th e m o st p art The only com f o rt i s that i t s b o und t o b e ’

.
,
’
a change fo r th e bette r Though wh o can tell m ayb e it s .

”
,

s o metime s fo r the wo r se Wi ll yo u take i t ? .

Raskolnikov to ok th e G erman sheets in si l ence t oo k t h e ,

thr e e r o ubl es and w ithout a w or d went o u t Ra z u m ih in .

gaz ed a fte r h im i n astoni shment B ut wh en Rask o lniko v .

w as i n th e n ext str eet h e t u rned b ack m o u n t ed t h e st ai r s

, ,

t o Ra z u m ih in s agai n and l ayi ng o n th e t abl e th e Germ an

’

a rti cl e and th e th re e roubl e s w ent o u t again sti ll with o u t , ,

u tte ri ng a w o rd
”
.

“
Ar e y ou r av ing o r wh at ? Ra z u m ihin sho u ted ro u sed
, ,
“ ’
to fu ry at l ast Wh at f ar ce i s thi s ? You l l d riv e m e
.

c razy t o o wh at di d yo u c o m e t o s e e m e f o r dam n
”
,

y ou ?
“
I don t w an t ’
t ransl a t i o n mutte red Ras k o lnik o v ,

fr o m t h e stai r s
”
.

“
Then what th e d evil d o yo u w an t ? sh o u t ed Ra z u m ihin
f ro m ab o ve Rasko lniko v c o nti nu ed descending t h e stai r
.

cas e in sil ence

”
.

“
H ey th er e ! Wher e a r e y ou l iv ing ?
,

N o answe r
”
.

“
Wel l co n f o und y ou then !
,

B u t Raskol nikov was al ready stepping in to th e str ee t .

O n th e N ik o l a ev sk y B ridge h e w as r ou sed to full consci o u s

n es s again by an u npl eas ant i ncident A c o achm an a fte r .
,

sh o ut ing a t h im two o r th r ee times gav e h im a v i o l ent ,

1 16 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

blank and l i fel ess H e w ondered ev ery tim e at hi s somb r e

.

and enigmati c impr es sion and m i stru sting h imsel f put o ff , ,

fi nding the expl anatio n o f it H e v iv idly recall ed tho s e old .

doubts and p erpl exiti es and it s eem ed to h im that i t w as ,

no m er e chance that h e r ecal l ed th em now It struck h im .

as strange and grotesqu e that h e sh o uld hav e stopped at ,

th e sam e sp o t as b e fo r e as though he actu ally i magined he ,

coul d think th e s am e thou ghts b e i nter ested i n th e s ame ,

theo ri es and p i ctu res that had i nte rested him s o short

a tim e ag o H e f el t i t almo st amu s ing and yet i t w rung

.
,

hi s h eart D eep down hidden far aw ay o u t o f s ight all

.
,

that seemed to him now— al l h i s ol d p ast hi s o l d thou ghts , ,

hi s o ld p r o b lems and theo ri e s hi s o l d imp re ssi o ns and that ,

p i ctu r e and himsel f and all all H e fel t a s thou gh h e , .

w er e flying u pwards and ev erything we r e v an i shing f rom,

hi s sight M aking an unconsci ou s movem ent w ith his hand

.
,

h e sudd enly b ecam e awar e o f th e p i ece o f money i n hi s

fi st . H e op ened hi s h and star ed at the coi n and with a , ,

sweep o f h i s arm flung it into th e w ater ; th en h e tu rned

and w ent hom e I t s eemed to hi m h e h ad cut h imsel f o ff
.
,

f rom ev e ry o n e and f rom ev e rythi ng at that mom ent .

E vening w a s com ing o n when h e r each ed home s o that ,

h e mu st h av e b een w alking about s ix hou rs H o w and .

whe re h e cam e b ack h e did not r ememb er Undr essing and .

,

qu iv e ring l ik e an o ve r driv en ho r s e h e l ay down o n the -

,

so fa d rew hi s gr eatco at o v e r him and at once s ank i nto

, ,

obl iv io n .

It w as du sk wh en h e w as w ak ed up by a f ear ful scr eam .

Go od G o d wh at a s cr eam ! S uch unnatu ral sounds su ch

, ,

h o wl ing w aili ng grinding t ea rs bl ows and cu rses h e had

, , , ,

n ev e r h eard .

H e coul d nev e r h ave im agined su ch b rutal ity such f renzy , .

I n ter ro r h e s a t up i n b ed almo st swooning w ith agony , .

B ut th e fighting w ail ing and cu rs ing grew loude r and ,

l oude r And th en t o hi s i ntens e amazement h e caught th e

.

v o i ce o f hi s l andl ady S he w as howl ing sh ri eking and .

,

w ail ing r ap idly hu r ri edly incoh erently s o that h e could

, , , ,

not m ake o u t what s h e w as t a lking about ; sh e was b es eech

i ng n o d o ubt not to b e b eaten fo r sh e w as b eing m ercil essly
, , ,

b e aten on th e stai r s The v o i c e o f h er assail ant was s o

.
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME N T 117

ho rribl e f rom sp ite and r age that it was almo s t a cro ak ;

but he too w a s saying something and j u st as qu ickly and
, , ,

i ndistinctly hu r rying and spluttering

, All at o nc e .

Raskolniko v trembled ; h e recogni sed th e vo ic e— it w as the

vo ice o f Ilya Petrovitch Ilya Petrov itch here and b eating .

th e landl ady ! H e is kicking he r banging h er h ead against ,

’
the steps— that s cl ear that can b e told f rom the sounds , ,

f rom the cri es and th e thuds How i s it i s the wo rld top sy .

,

tu rvy ? H e could h ear p eopl e running i n crowds f rom all

the sto reys and all th e stai rc as es ; h e heard vo ices excl ama ,
“
tion s knocking doo r s b anging B ut w hy w hy and h o w
”
.
, , , ,

could it b e ? h e rep eated thinking s er iou sly that he had ,

gone m ad B ut n o h e heard t o o di sti nctly ! And they

.
,
“
would c o m e t o him then next fo r no doub t i t s al l ’

”
,

ab out th at ab o ut yesterday G o od Go d ! He .

would hav e fastened hi s doo r with the l atch bu t he could ,

not l i ft hi s h and b esides it would b e u sel es s T erro r , .

gripped h i s heart l ike i ce to rtu red h im and num b ed ,

him . B ut at l ast all thi s up ro ar a fter continu ing about ,

ten mi nutes b egan gradu ally t o sub side The l andl ady wa s
,
.

moaning and gro aning ; Ilya P etro v itch w a s stil l uttering

th reat s and cu rses B ut at l ast h e too s eemed to b e
.
, ,
“
s il ent and now h e could not b e h eard C a n h e hav e gone
”
.
,

away ? Good L o rd ! Yes and now th e l andl ady i s going ,

to o,
still w eeping and mo aning and then he r doo r
sl ammed N o w th e crowd wa s going f rom th e stai rs
.

to thei r rooms excl aiming di sputing call ing to o n e anothe r

, , , ,

rai sing thei r v o i ces to a shout dropp ing them to a whi sp er , .

Ther e mu st h av e b een numb er s o f them — almo st al l th e

“
inmates o f the block B ut good Go d how could it b e !
”
.
, ,

And why w hy had h e c o me he re !

,

Raskolnikov s ank w o rn o u t o n th e s o fa but c o uld no t ,

clo s e hi s eye s He l ay f o r hal f an hou r i n such angui sh

.
,

such an i ntol erabl e s ensati o n o f i nfinite ter ro r a s h e had

nev e r experi enced b e fo r e Suddenly a b ri g ht l ight flash ed .

i nto hi s r o om N a s t a sya cam e i n with a candl e and a

.

pl ate o f soup Looking at him car e fully and ascertai ning

.

that h e was not asl eep s h e set th e candl e on the tabl e and ,

b egan to l ay out what s h e had b r o ught— b read salt a pl ate , , ,

a spoon .
1 18 F Y ODO R D OST OE VS K Y
’
Y o u v e e at e n nothing s ince yest e r d ay I w a rr ant , .

Yo u v e b een t ru dg in g ab o ut al l d ay and y o u r e shaking

’ ’

”
Q ,

w ith f ev e r .

“
N a st a sya wha t w e r e t hey b ea t ing t h e l andl ady
f or ? ”
S h e l o o ked in t en t ly a t h i m
”
.

“
Wh o b eat th e l andl ady ?

Ju st now hal f an h o ur ag o I lya P etr o v itch th e , ,

ass i stant sup eri ntendent o n th e stai rs

-
, Wh y w a s h e .

i ll t reati ng he r l ike that and

-
w hy was h e h ere ? ”
,

N a s t a sya s crutini s ed him s il ent and f rowning and he r , ,

s crutiny l as t ed a l o ng tim e H e f elt u neasy ev en f rightened .

,

a t h e r searching eyes
”
.

“
N a s t a sya w h y do n t yo u sp eak ? h e sai d t imidly a t l as t
’
,

i n a w eak v o i ce
‘
.

It s th e bl o od sh e answ e r ed a t l as t s o f t ly as t h o ugh
’

, ,

sp eaking t o h er sel f
”
.

“ ?
B l oo d ? What bl oo d h e m u tt e r ed g ro wing wh i t e and ,

tur ning t o wards th e w all .

N a st a s ya stil l l o oked at hi m with o u t sp eaking

”
.

“
N ob ody has b een b eating th e l andlady s h e de cl a r ed at ,

l ast i n a fi rm r es o l ute vo i ce
,
.

H e gaz ed at he r hardly abl e to b reath e ,

.

“
I heard i t mys el f I was n o t asl eep
. I w as
“
s itting u p h e sai d still m o r e timidly
,
I l i stened a l ong .

wh il e Th e as si stant sup erintend ent cam e -

E v ery o ne
”
. .

r an o u t o n t o the stai r s f r o m al l th e fl ats .

“ ’
N o o n e h a s b een h e re Th at s th e bl oo d crying i n y o u r
.

e ars When ther e s no o utl et fo r i t and i t g et s cl otted you

’

”
.
,

b egi n fancying things Wi ll yo u eat s o mething ?

H e m ade n o answe r N a s t a sya still st oo d o ve r him

.
,

w atch ing h im .

“
Giv e m e s o m ething to d rink N a s t a sya .

S he w ent d o wnstai rs and r etu rned with a white e a r then

w ar e j u g o f w ater H e r ememb er ed onl y swallowing one
.

s ip o f th e c o ld w at er and spill ing s om e o n h i s n eck Th en .

f o ll o wed f o rget fulnes s .

19 0 E Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y
”
I s a y he s h im sel f agai n ! she s ai d
’

”
.
,

H e i s h im sel f echo ed the m an , .

C oncluding that h e had ret u rned to his s enses th e land ,

l ady clo sed the doo r and disappear ed S he w a s always s hy .

and d readed co nv e rsations o r di scu ssions S h e w a s a woman .

o f forty not at al l b ad looking f at and buxom w ith black

,
-
, ,

eye s and eyeb rows go od natur ed f rom fatnes s and lazine ss

,
-
,

and ab surdly b ash ful

”
.

“
Who ar e you ? he went o n addres sing the man , .

B ut at that moment the do or was flung open and stoopi ng , ,

a l ittl e a s he was s o t all Ra z u m ih in cam e i n

”
.
, ,
“ “
What a cabi n i t i s ! h e cr i ed I am always knocking .

my he ad You cal l thi s a lodging ! S o you are consciou s

”
.
,
’
b rothe r ? I ve j ust h eard the news f rom P ashenka
”
.

“
H e has j u st com e to s ai d N a s t a s ya
”
.
,

Just com e to echo ed the m an again with a smil e

, , .

And w h o ar e you ? Ra z u m ihin ask ed suddenly a d ,

“
dre ssi ng him M y nam e i s V ra z u m ihin at you r s ervi ce ;
.
,

not Ra z u m ih in as I am always called but V r a z u m ihin a

, , ,

student and gentl em an ; and h e i s my f riend And w h o ar e

”
.

you ?
“
I am the m es senger from o u r o ffice from the m erchant
”
,
’
S h e l o p aev and I v e come o n bu si ne s s
”
.
,
“
Ple as e s it dow n Ra z u m ihin seated hims el f o n the o the r
.

“ ’ ’
s ide o f the table I t s a go od thing you v e come t o b rothe r
.
,
“
h e went o n t o Raskolniko v F o r the l ast fou r days yo u .

h av e scarcely e ate n o r d runk anything W e had to giv e .

you te a i n spo on ful s I b rought Z o s s im o v to se e you twi ce

. .

Y o u r ememb er Z o s s im o v ? H e exami ned you care fully and

s ai d at once i t w as nothing s e riou s— som ething s eemed to
have gone to you r head S ome ne rvou s nonsens e the r esu lt .
,

o f b ad feeding he s ays you hav e not had enough b ee r and

,
’
r adish but it s nothing mu ch i t w il l p as s and you w il l b e al l
, ,

r ight Z o s s im o v i s a fi rs t rate fellow ! H e i s m aki ng qu ite -

”
.

’
a nam e C om e I won t keep you he s aid addre ssing the
.
, , ,
“
m an agai n Will yo u explai n what yo u want ? You must
.

know Ro dya thi s i s th e s econd tim e they hav e s ent from

, ,

th e o ffic e ; but i t was anothe r m an l ast tim e and I talked t o

”
,

him Who was i t cam e b e for e ?

.

“
That w a s th e d ay b e fo r e ye ste rday I v en t u re t o s ay i f , ,
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 1 21

you pleas e s ir That w a s Al exey S e m yo n o v it ch ; he i s

, .

in ou r o ffice t o o ,
”
.

“
H e was more i ntell igent than you don t yo u think s o
’
?
”
,

Yes indeed S i r he i s o f mo re wei ght than I am

, , .

Qu ite s o ; go o n .

’
At you r mamma s request through A fanasy I vanovi tch ,

V a hr u sh in o f whom I p resum e you have heard mo r e than

”
,

once a remittance i s sent to you f rom o u r o ffi ce the man

, ,
“
began addressing Raskolniko v
, I f you are i n an in te ll i .

g ib l e condition I v e thi rty fi v e rouble s to remit to you as

’
-
, ,

S emy o n S e m yo n o v itch has recei ved f rom A fanasy I vano

’
v it ch at you r m amma s r equest inst ru cti ons to that e ffect
”
,

as o n previ ous o ccasi ons D o you know him s ir ?

”
.
,
“
Yes I r emem b er
,
V a h r u s h in Raskolniko v s ai d ,

dreamily .

“
You hear h e knows V a h r u s h in cri ed Ra z u m ih in He
‘ , , .

is i n an i ntelli gible conditi o n !

’
And I s e e yo u are an in
’
t e l l ig e n t man too Well it s always pl e asant to hear words
”
.
,

o f wi sdom .

That s the gentleman V a h ru sh in A fanasy I vanovitch

’
, , ,

And at the r equest o f you r m amma w h o has sent you a ,

remittance o nce b e fo re i n th e s ame m anner through him ,

he did not r e fus e thi s tim e also and s ent i nstructions to ,

S emyo n S e m yo n o v it ch som e days s i nce to hand you thi rty

fi ve r oubl es i n the hope o f b etter to come
‘
.

“ ’ ’
That hoping fo r bette r to com e i s the b est thi ng you v e
‘
s aid though you r m amma i s not b ad e ithe r C om e then ’

”
,
.
,

what do yo u s a y ? I s he fully conscious eh ?

,
“ ’
That s al l right I f only he c a n sign thi s littl e pap e r
. .

? ”
He c a n s crawl his name H ave you got the book
”
.

’
Yes here s the book
, .

Give it to m e H er e Ro dya s it up I ll hold you Take ’

‘
. .
, , .

the pen and scr ibbl e Raskolnikov fo r him F o r j u st now ’

.
,

brothe r money i s swe eter t o u s than t reacle

”
, .

“ ’
I don t want i t s ai d Raskolniko v pushing away the , ,

N o t want it
” ?
’
I won t si gn it .

H o w the devi l can y o u do without signing i t ?

’ ”
I don t want th e m o ney .
122 F Y OD O R D OS TO EVS KY
’
D o n t wan t the mo ney ! C ome b ro the r that s nonsense , ,
’
,

I b ea r witnes s D o n t troubl e pl eas e it s only that h e i s on

.
’

, ,
’

’
h i s tr avel s again B ut that s p retty comm o n wi th him at all
.

tim es thou gh Y o u ar e a m an o f j udgm ent and we

.

w i ll take him i n hand that i s mo re s imply take h i s hand and

, , ,

h e wi l l s ign i t H e re . .

B ut I can com e another tim e .

N o no
, Why sho uld w e t roub l e yo u ? Y o u are a m an o f
.

N o w Ro dya do n t k eep you r vi sito r yo u

’
j udgment .
, , ,

s e e h e i s waiting and he m ade r e ady t o hold Ra s k o l n ik o v s

,
’

hand i n e arnest .

“
S to p I l l do i t al o ne s aid th e l a t te r t aking the pen and
,
’

, ,

s i g ning hi s nam e .

Th e m essenge r took o u t th e money and went away

”
.

“
B ravo ! And n o w b rothe r ar e you hungry ?
”
, ,

Yes answere d Raskol nik o v

”
.
,

I s the r e any soup ?

”
S om e o f yeste rday s answe red N a st a sya who w as still ’
, ,

standing ther e
”
.

“
With potatoes and r ice i n i t ?
Ye s .

I know i t by heart B r ing s ou p and giv e u s s om e t ea . .

V e ry w ell .

Rasko lniko v l ooked at al l th i s w ith p ro fou nd as t oni sh

ment and a dull unr easoning ter ro r H e made up h i s m ind
, .

“
t o keep qu i et and s e e what w oul d h app en I b eli ev e I am .

’
n o t w andering I b el i ev e i t s r eal ity he thought
.
, .

I n a coupl e o f m i nutes N a s ta s ya r etu rned w ith th e s oup ,

and announced that the te a w o ul d b e r eady di re ctly With .

the s oup she b rought two spoons two pl ates s alt p eppe r , , , ,

mu stard fo r the b ee f and s o o n Th e tabl e w a s s et as i t

,
.

had not b een fo r a long tim e The cloth w as cl ean . .

“
It woul d not b e ami ss N a s t a sya i f P ra sk o v ya Pavlovna , ,

w er e t o s end u s up a c o upl e o f b o ttle s o f b eer We could .

e mpty them
‘
.

Wel l you ar e a c oo l hand mutte red Na s ta sya and she

, , ,

dep art ed to carry out h i s o rder s .

Ra skolnikov still gazed w ildly w ith strained attention .

M eanwhi l e Ra z u m ih in sat down on the so fa b eside him as ,

clumsily a s a b ea r put h is l e ft arm ro und Ra s ko l n iko v s h ead ’

,
124 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

nance A fte r sipping a do zen spoon ful s o f te a h e sudde nly

.
,

re leased h is he ad pu shed th e spo on away capr i ciou sly and

, ,

sank b ack on the p illow Ther e w er e actu ally re al pill o ws .

u nder h i s head n o w down p i llo ws i n cl ean cas es h e ob se rved

, ,

that to o and took note o f it

, , .

“
Pashenka mu st giv e u s s o me r aspb erry j am to day to —

”
mak e him some r aspbe rry tea s aid Ra z u m ih in go ing b ack , ,

t o hi s chai r and attacking h i s soup and b ee r again

”
.

“
A nd wher e i s s h e to get r aspb err ie s fo r you ? asked
N a s t a sya b al ancing a sauce r o n he r fi v e ou tspre ad finge r s
,

and sipping t ea through a lump o f suga r .

“
S he l l get it at th e shop my d ear You s e e Ro dya all
’
.
, , ,

s o rt s o f things hav e b ee n h appening whil e you h av e b een

l ai d up When you d ecamped i n th at rascally way without
.

l eav ing you r add re ss I fel t s o angry that I r e solv ed to find ,

you o u t and puni sh you I s et to wo rk th at v e ry day H o w . .

I ran about m aking inqu i rie s fo r you Thi s lodging o f your s

I had fo rgotten thou gh I n ev e r r ememb e red it indeed b e
, , ,

cau s e I did not know it ; and as fo r you r o l d lodgings I ,

could o nly r ememb er it w as at th e F iv e C o rne r s H a rl a m o v s ,

’

hou s e I kept trying to fi nd that H a rl a m o v s hou se and

.
’
,

a fterward s i t tu rned o u t that i t w a s no t H a r l a m o v s but ’

,
’
B u ch s How o n e muddle s u p s ou nd s sometimes ! S o I l o st
.

my temp e r and I went o n th e ch ance to th e addre s s b u reau

,

next d ay and o nly fancy i n tw o m inute s th ey l oo ked you up !

”
, ,

You r nam e i s down ther e .

“
M y n am e !
I should think s o ; and yet a Gener al K ob el ev t hey coul d
’
not fi nd wh ile I was there W ell it s a l ong sto ry B ut a s .
, .

s o o n a s I di d l and o n thi s pl ace I soo n go t to kn o w al l y o u r ,

a ffai rs— all all b roth er I kno w eve ryth ing ; N a s ta sya her e
, , ,

w ill tel l y o u I m ade th e acqu ai ntance o f N ik o dim F o m itch

.

and I lya Pet rov i ch and th e hou se porte r and M r Z a m et o v -

.
,

Al exander G r ig o r ie v itc h the h ead cl erk i n th e pol ice offi ce , ,

and l ast bu t n o t l e ast o f P ashenka ; N a st a sya her e

, ,

knows .

“
H e s go t round h e r N a st a sya mu rmu red smilin g shyly
’
.
, ,

Why don t y o u pu t the suga r i n y o u r tea N a s t a sya

’
,

N ik i fo r o v n a ?
“
Y o u ar e a o ner N as tasya cr ied suddenly g o ing o ff int o
,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H M EN T 1 25

a gi ggle I am n o t N ik ifo r o v n a but Petrovna sh e added

.
, ,

s uddenly r ecov ering f rom h er mi rth

,
.

“
’
I ll make a note o f i t Well b rothe r to mak e a long sto ry .
, ,

sho rt I was go ing in fo r a regul ar explo sio n h er e to uproot

,

al l mali gnant i nflu ence s i n th e l ocality but Pa shenka w o n ,

the day I had not exp ected b ro ther to fi nd he r s o

”
.
, ,

prepo ssessing E h what do you think .

?
,

Rasko lnikov did not sp eak but he still kept hi s eye s fi xed ,

upon him ful l o f al arm ,

.

“ "
And all that could b e wi shed i ndeed i n ev ery respe ct , , ,

Ra z u m ihin went o n not at all embar rassed by hi s silence

”
.
,
“
Ah the s ly dog ! N a s ta sya sh r i eked again Thi s co n
, .

ve rs ation a fforded her u nspe akabl e del ight .

“
I t s a pity b roth er that y o u d id not s et to wo r k in th e
’
, ,

right way at fi rst Y o u o ught to have app ro ached h er di ffer

.

ently S he i s s o to sp eak a mo st u nacco untable characte r

.
, ,
.

But we will talk ab o u t her ch aracte r l ater H o w could .

you l et things come to su ch a pas s th at s h e gav e up s ending

you you r dinne r ? And that I 0 U ? You mu st h av e b een . . .

mad to sign an I 0 U And th at p romi se o f mar riage when

. . .

he r daughter N atalya Y e g o ro v n a w a s aliv e ?

,
I kno w ,

al l about it ! B ut I s e e that s a d eli cate matter and I am an ’

a s s ; forgiv e me B ut t alking o f fooli shne ss do you know

.
, ,

P ra sk o v ya Pavlovna i s not n early s o fooli sh as you would

think at fi rst sight
“ ”
N o mumbled Raskolnikov lo oking away but feeling that
, , ,

i t wa s b etter to keep up the co nv er s ation

”
.

“ ’
S he i sn t i s s h e ? cri ed Ra z u m ihin delighted to get an
, ,

a nswer o u t o f h im B ut s h e i s not ve ry cleve r either eh ?

.
,

S h e i s e ssenti ally e ssenti ally an u naccountabl e character ! I

,

am sometime s qu ite at a lo ss I as su re yo u S he mu st b e ,
.

forty ; s h e says she i s thi rty six and o f cou rs e she has every -
,

ri ght to s a y s o B ut I swear I j udge h er i ntellectually s imply

.
,

from th e metaphysical p o int o f v i ew ; the re i s a so rt o f s ym

b o lis m sprung up b etween u s a so rt o f al geb ra or what not ! ,
’
I don t unde rstand it ! Well that s all non sense O nly see ,
’
.
,
~

ing that you ar e not a student now and hav e lo st you r l essons
’
and you r cloth es and th at th rou gh the young l ady s death sh e
,

has no need to t re at you a s a relation s h e suddenly took ,

fright ; and a s y o u h id in y o u r d en and d ropp ed all you r o ld

126 F YO D OR D OSTOEV S KY

r elati ons w ith h e r s h e planned to ge t r id o f y ou And she s

, .
’

b e en ch er i shi ng th at de sign a long time but w as so rry t o ,

l os e th e I 0 U fo r yo u as su red he r you r sel f that you r

. . .
,

m othe r woul d p ay .

“
It w a s bas e o f m e to s a y th at M y mo ther h er sel f is .

almo st a b egga r and I to ld a l i e t o ke ep my lodging

and b e fed Raskolnik o v s aid l o udly and di stinctly
, .

“
Ye s you di d v e ry sen sibly
, B u t the wo rst o f i t i s th a t .

at th at p oint M r T c h eb a r o v tu rns up a bu si ne s s man

.
, .

Pashenk a would neve r h av e thou ght o f doin g anythi ng o n h e r

o w n account s h e i s to o r eti ring ; but th e bu sines s man i s
,

by no mean s r eti rin g and fir s t thing h e put s th e q u esti o n

‘ I s ther e any hope o f reali sin g th e I 0 U
,

An swe r : the r e . . .
,

i s b ecau s e he ha s a mothe r w h o w o uld s av e h e r Ro dya w ith

,

h e r hu nd red and twenty fi v e r oub l es p ens ion i f sh e ha s t o -

,

starv e h e r s el f ; and a si ster to o w h o would go i nt o b ondage , ,

’
fo r hi s sak e That s wh at h e w a s bui lding up o n
. Why .

d o yo u start ? I kn o w all the i ns and outs o f you r a ffai r s

’
now my d ear boy— it s no t fo r nothing that y o u w e re so
,

op en w ith P ashenka when yo u w er e h er pr o sp ectiv e s o n in -

l aw and I s a y all thi s a s a f r i end

, B ut I t ell yo u wh a t .

i t i s : an h o nest and sensitiv e m an i s o p en ; and a bu sines s

‘
m an l i sten s and go e s o n e ating y o u up Well then s h e ’
.
,

gav e th e I 0 U by w ay o f p ayment to th i s T c h e b a r o v and

. . .
,

without hesitati o n h e made a f o rmal demand fo r p aym ent .

Wh en I h ear d o f all th i s I w anted to blow him u p t o o t o , ,

c le a r my co nsci ence bu t by th at tim e harm o ny r ei gn ed

,

b etw een m e and P ash enka and I i nsi sted o n st o pping th e ,

wh o l e a ffai r engagin g that you woul d p ay I went secu rity

,
.

fo r you b rothe r D o you under stand ? We cal led Tc h eb a ro v

, . ,

flung hi m ten roubl e s and got th e I 0 U b ack from him . . .

,

and h er e I h av e th e h o nou r o f p re senting i t to you S he .

t ru st s you r wo rd n o w H e re t ake i t y o u s e e I hav e .

, ,

t o rn it .

Ra z u m ihin put t h e n ot e o n t h e t abl e Raskolnik o v l oo ked .

at hi m and tu rned t o th e w al l w ith o u t u ttering a wo rd .

E ven Ra z u m ih in felt a twinge

”
.

“
I s e e b r o ther h e s aid a momen t l ate r th a t I hav e b ee n
, , ,

playing th e foo l again I thought I should amu se you with

”
.

m y cha t te r and I b el i ev e I h av e o nly m ad e y ou c ro s s

,
.
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of them and sh all giv e you an account o f them i n an hou r

,

o r tw o I w il l l et Z o s s im o v know at th e sam e time though

.
,

h e ou ght t o h av e b een her e l ong a go fo r i t i s nearly twelve ,

.

And you N a s t a sya l o ok in p retty o ften whil e I am away to

, , ,

s e e whether h e w ants a d r ink o r anyth ing el s e And I w il l .

tel l P ashenka what i s want ed mysel f Good by e -

”
.

H e cal ls h e r P ashenk a ! Ah h e s a deep o n e ! s aid ,

’

N a s t a s ya as h e w ent o u t ; then s h e open ed th e doo r and stoo d

l i stening b ut c o uld n o t r esi st running downstai r s a fte r
,

h im .

S h e was v ery eage r to h e a r wh at he w o uld say to th e l and

l ady S he w a s evidently qu ite fascinat ed by Ra z u m ihin
. .

N o soone r h ad s h e l e ft th e room than the si ck m an flung

o ff th e bedclothes and l eapt o u t o f b ed l ike a m adman With .

bu rning twitchin g imp ati ence h e h ad w aited fo r th em to b e

,

gone s o that h e m ight s e t t o wo rk B ut to wha t work ? .

N o w as though to spite him it eluded him

, , .

“
Good Go d only tel l m e o n e thing : do they know o f i t yet
,

o r not ? What i f they know it and are o nly p retending ,

m o cking m e whi l e I am l ai d u p and th en they w i ll come in

,

and tel l m e that it s b een d iscov er ed long ago and t h a t the y

’

’
h av e only Wh at am I to do n o w ? Th at s what I v e fo r ’

g ot ten as though o u pu rp o s e ; fo rgot t en i t al l a t o nce I re

”
, ,

m emb ered a m inut e ag o .

H e sto od i n th e middl e o f the roo m and g az ed i n m i s erabl e

b ew ildermen t ab out hi m ; h e w alked to th e do o r o p ened it , ,

l i stened ; but that wa s n o t w hat h e wanted S uddenly a s .

,

though recalling something h e ru shed to th e co rne r whe re

,

the re w a s a hol e u nde r th e p ape r b egan examining i t pu t hi s

, ,

hand i nto th e hol e fumbl ed— but that w a s not it H e wen t

, .

to th e stov e o p ened it and b egan ru m m a g m g i n th e ashes ;

,

th e frayed edge s o f hi s t rou se rs and the r ags cut o ff hi s

po cke t wer e lying the re j u st a s h e h ad thrown them N o .

o n e h ad l ook ed then ! Then h e r em emb ered the sock ab o u t

,

which Ra z u m ih in had j u st b een t elling h im Yes the re it .

,

l ay o n the so fa u nde r the qu ilt but it was s o c o ve red w ith

,

du st and grim e th at Z a m eto v co ul d not have s een any t h ing

on it .

“
B ah Z a m eto v ! The pol i ce o flfi c e ! And w hy am I s en t
,

f o r t o th e p o l ice o ffi ce ? Whe r e s the n ot i ce ? Ba h ! I am

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mixing it up : that was then I looked at my so ck then too .

, ,

bu t n o w now I have b een i ll But what did Z a m e to v

”
.

c o me fo r ? Why did Ra z u m ih in b r ing him ? h e mutte red ,

h elpl essly s itting o n th e so fa again What do es it mean ? .

Am I stil l in deliriu m o r i s i t r eal ? I b el i ev e it i s real

, .

Ah I remembe r ; I mu st escap e ! M ake haste to escap e Yes

, .
,

I mu st I mu st e scap e ! Y e s
,
but wher e ? And wher e
ar e my cloth es ? I v e n o b oots They v e taken them away !
’
.
’

They ve hidden them ! I unde rstand ! Ah he re i s my co at

’
,

they passed that ove r ! And her e is money on the t abl e ,

t hank God ! And he re s the I 0 U

’
I l l take th e money . . .
’

and go and take anothe r lodging They won t find me ! .

’

Yes bu t th e addres s bu reau ? They l l find me Ra z u m ihin

,
’
,

wil l find me B etter e scap e altogeth er

. far away
t o Amer ica and l et them do thei r wo rst ! And tak e the
,

I 0 U
. . i t would b e o f u se the re
. What el se shall I .

take ? They think I am ill ! They don t know that I can ’

w alk h a —h a h a l I cou ld se e by th ei r eyes that they know

,
-

al l about it ! I f only I could get do w n stai rs ! And what i f

th ey hav e set a watch there— pol icemen ! What s thi s te a ? ’

”
,

Ah and he re i s b ee r le ft hal f a bottl e cold !

, , ,

H e snatched up th e bottle wh ich still co ntained a gl as s ful ,

o f b ee r and gu lped it down w ith r eli sh as though qu enching

, ,

a fl am e in hi s b reast B ut i n another minu te the b eer h ad

.

gon e to hi s head and a faint and even pl easant shiver r an

,

down hi s spine H e l ay down and pulled the qu ilt o ve r him

. .

H is s ick and incohe rent thought s g rew mo r e and mo r e dis

connected and soon a l ight pl easant drowsiness came upon
, ,

him With a sens e o f co m fo rt he nestled hi s head into th e

.

p illow w rapp ed mo re clos ely a b out him th e so ft wadded qui lt

, ,

whi ch had replaced th e o ld ragged gr eat coat sighed so ftly ,

-
,

and sank into a deep sou nd re freshing sleep , , .

H e wok e u p hearing some on e com e in

, He opened hi s .

eye s and s a w Ra z u m ih in standing in the doo rway u nce rtain ,

w hethe r to com e in o r not Raskolnikov s a t u p qui ckly o n .

th e so fa and gazed at him as though t rying to r ecal l so me ,

thing .

“
Ah you ar e not asl eep ! Here I am ! N a s t a sya b ring in
”
, ,
“
th e parcel ! Ra z u m ih in shouted down th e stai rs Yo u shall .

have th e account di rectly ”

.
13 0 F Y OD O R D O S TO EV S K Y

”
Wh a t t i m e i s i t ? a sk ed Rask o lnik o v l ook ing rou nd
,

u n easily .

“ ’
Yes y o u h ad a fi ne sl eep b ro t he r i t s al m o st evening i t
, , , ,
’
w il l b e s ix o cl o ck di rec t ly Y o u h av e s lep t mo r e t han s ix
”
.

h ou rs
”
.

“
Go o d h eav ens ! H av e I ?
’
And w hy not ? It w i ll d o y ou go o d W hat s t h e hu r r y ? .

’ ’
A t ryst i s it ? We v e al l t im e b e fo r e u s I v e b e en w aiting
, .

’
fo r th e l as t thre e hou r s fo r y ou ; I v e b een u p t wi ce and
found you asl eep I v e called o n Z o s s im o v t w i ce : n o t a t
.
’

h o m e o nly fancy ! B ut no m at t e r he w il l tur n u p An d

, , .

’ ’
I v e b een ou t o n my o w n bu si nes s too You know I v e b een , .

moving to —day moving with my u ncl e I h av e an u n cl e l i v

, .

’
ing with m e now B ut that s n o m atte r t o b u sines s Giv e
.
, .

m e th e p arcel N a sta sya W e w i ll o pen i t di r ect ly And

”
. .
,

h ow do you feel n o w b rothe r ?

,
“
I am qu it e w ell I a m n ot i ll Ra z u m ih in h av e y ou b een
”
.
, ,

h e r e l ong ?
“ ’
I t ell yo u I v e b een w ai t ing f or t h e l as t t h r e e h ou r s
”
.

N 0 b e fo re
”
.
,

H o w do you mean ?
H o w lo ng h av e yo u b een c om ing h er e ?
”
’
Why I tol d y o u all abou t i t thi s m o rning D o n t yo u
”
.
,

r e m emb er ?
Rasko lnikov po ndered The mo rning s eemed l ik e a drea m .

t o h im H e c o u l d no t r e m emb e r al o ne and l o ok ed in qu i ringly

.
,

a t Ra z u m ih in
”
.

“
H m ! s ai d t h e l a t te r h e h as f o rg o tten I fan ci ed t h en ,
.

t h at you wer e no t quite you rs el f N o w y o u ar e b e t te r fo r .

yo u r sl eep Y o u r eally l o ok mu ch b ette r F i r s t r ate !

”
. .

W el l t o busin es s Look h er e my d ear b oy

,
.
,
.

H e b egan u ntying t h e bu ndl e whi ch evi den t ly in t e r es t ed ,

h im .

“
B el i ev e m e b rothe r t hi s i s s om eth ing sp eci al ly near my
, ,
’
h ear t F o r w e mu st mak e a m an o f y o u Let s b egi n from
”
. .

the top D o yo u s e e thi s c a p

.
? h e s aid t ak ing o u t o f the ,

b undl e a fai rly go o d th o ugh cheap and o rdina r y cap Let

”
.
, ,

m e try it o n .

“
P re s ently a f t e r wa r ds s ai d Rask o l nik o v w av ing i t o ff
, , ,

p e tt ishly .
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only do bu sines s o n th a t syst em at F e dya e v s ; i f you v e ’ ’

b ought a thing once you a re sati s fi ed fo r l i fe fo r you w ill

, ,

n ev e r go ther e ag ain o f you r o w n f re e w ill N o w fo r the .

boots What do you s a y ? You s ee that they are a b it wo rn

.
,
’ ’
bu t they l l last a coupl e o f months fo r it s fo r eign w o rk and ,

fo rei gn l e athe r ; the s ecretary o f the E ngli sh E mbas sy sold

them l ast w eek— h e h ad only wo rn them s ix days but he ,

was v ery sho rt o f cash P ric e— a roubl e and a h al f A

”
. .

b argai n ?
‘ B ut p e rh ap s they won t fit O b serv ed N a s ta sya ’

”
.
,

No t fi t ? J u s t l ook ! and h e pu lled o u t o f h is p o cket

Ra s k o l n ik o v s O ld b roken bo ot sti ffl y c o ated w ith dry mu d
’
.
, ,
“
I d id not go empty h and ed — th ey took the s ize f rom thi s
-

mo nste r We al l did o u r b est And a s t o you r linen you r

. .
,

l andlady h as s e en to that H er e to b egin w ith a re th re e .

,

shi rts hempen bu t with a fashionab l e front

,
Wel l now .

then eighty copecks th e cap two rou b le s tw enty fi v e copeck s

, ,
-

th e su it— togethe r th re e roubl es fi v e cop ecks a roubl e and a -

hal f fo r th e boots— fo r you s ee they are v e ry go o d and , ,

-

th at makes fou r roubl es fi fty fi v e cope cks ; fiv e roubl es f o r -

th e u nde rclothe s— th ey were bought i n the lot— wh ich m ak es

exactly n ine roubl es fi fty fi v e cop e cks F o rty fi v e C ope cks -
.
-

ch ange i n copper s Wi ll you take i t ? And s o Ro dya you

.
, ,

ar e s e t u p w ith a compl ete n ew r ig out fo r you r o ve r co at -

,

w i ll s erv e and ev en has a styl e O f it s o w n That comes from

, .

’
getting one s clothes f rom S h a rm e r s ! A s fo r you r so cks ’

and othe r thing s I l e av e t hem to you ; w e ve twenty fi v e ’

-

roub les le ft And as fo r P ashenka and p aying fo r you r

.

’ ’
l odgin g do n t yo u wo r ry
, I tel l you sh e ll tru st you fo r .

anything And now b rothe r l et m e ch ange you r l inen

.
, , ,

fo r I d ares ay yo u wi ll th ro w O ff y o u r i llnes s w ith you r

Shi rt
”
.

“
Let me b e ! I don t w ant to ! Rasko lnikov waved h im ’

o ff
. H e had l i stened with di sgu st t o Ra z u m ihin s e ffo rts t o ’

b e p lay ful about h is pu rchases .

“ ’
C o me b roth e r don t tel l me I ve b een tru dging ar o und
’

”
, ,

fo r noth ing Ra z u m ih in i n si sted N a s ta s ya don t b e b ash ful

’

”
.
, , ,
’
but help m e that s it
— and i n spite O f Ra s k o l n iko v s t e
’
,

s is t a n c e h e ch anged his linen The l atte r sank b ack on the .

p ill o w s and fo r a m inute o r tw o s ai d n o thing .

 C R I M E AND P UN I S H M ENT 13 3

It wi ll b e long b e fo re I get rid o f th em h e thou g ht

,
.

What money w a s al l that bought w ith h e asked at last ,

gaz“ ing at the wall .

M oney ? Why you r own what the messenger b rought

, ,

fro m V a h ru sh in you r mothe r sent it Hav e you forgotte n

”
.
,

that t o o
,
?
“
I rememb e r now said Raskolnikov a fte r a long sul le n
, ,

s ilence Ra z u m ih in looked at him f rownin g and u neasy

.
,
.

Th e doo r opened and a tal l stout man whos e app earance

,

seemed famili ar to Raskolnikov came in

”
.

“
Z o s s im o v ! At l ast ! cri ed Ra z u m ihin del ighted
,
.
 C HAPT E R I V

O S S IM OV w as a t all fat man w ith a pu ffy c o lo u rl e ss , , ,

clean shav en face and straight fl axen hai r H e wo re

-
.

sp ectacl es a n d a b ig gold ri ng o n h i s fat finge r H e

, .

w a s twenty sev en H e had o n a l ight grey fash ion abl e l oo s e

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co at light su mme r t rou sers and ev e rything ab out hi m l oo se

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fashionabl e and spick and span ; hi s l inen w a s ir re p ro a ch

abl e his w atch ch ai n was m ass iv e I n manne r h e was slow
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and a s it we re no nchal ant and at th e sam e ti me studiou sly

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fre e and e asy ; h e m ade e ff o rt s to conceal h i s sel f impo rtance -

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but i t w a s app aren t at eve ry instant All h is acqu aintances .

found hi m tediou s but s aid h e was clev er at his wo rk

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I v e b een t o you twi ce to day b r o the r y o u s e e he s c om e
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t o himsel f c ri ed Ra z u m ihin
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I s ee I s e e ; and how do w e fe el now eh
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? s ai d Z o s s im o v ,

to Raskolniko v watching hi m care fu lly and s itting d o wn a t

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th e fo o t o f th e so fa h e s ettled himsel f as c o m f o rtably a s h e

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could .

“
H e i s stil l dep res sed Ra z u m ih in went o n We v e j u s t ’

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,

changed h i s l inen and h e al mo st cri ed .

“
That s v e ry n atu ral ; you m ight h av e pu t i t o ff i f h e did
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not w i sh it H i s pu l s e i s fi rs t rate I s you r h ead stil l -

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aching eh ?
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I am w ell I am p er fectly w el l ! Raskolniko v d ecl ared

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po s itively and i rr itably He rai sed himsel f o n the s o fa and .

lo oked at them w ith gl itter ing eyes but s ank b ack o n t o th e ,

p ill ow at o nce and tu rn ed t o th e w al l Z o s s im o v w atched .

him i ntently .

“
V ery good G o ing o n al l righ t he s aid l azi ly H as
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h e eat en anyth ing ?

They tol d h im and asked what h e m ight have

, .

“
H e m ay h av e anything soup tea m u sh r oom s ,

and cu cum b e rs o f cou rs e you mu st not give hi m ; h e d bett e r ’

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n o t h av e meat e ither and but no n eed t o tell you that !

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“
Ra z u m ihin and h e looked at each o the r N o mor e m edi cin e .

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Wel l h e d o es ! and wh a t o f it ? I d o n t care i f h e do e s
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tak e b r ib es Ra z u m ihin cr i ed with u nnatu ral i r r itab i l ity
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don t p rai s e h im fo r taking b ribes I o nly s ay he i s a nic e

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m an i n h i s o w n w ay ! B ut i f o n e lo ok s at men in all w ays

ar e ther e many go o d o ne s le ft ? Why I am su re I shou ldn t ,
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b e wo rth a b aked o n i o n mysel f p erhap s w ith yo u

t h r o wn i n .

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That s too l i t tl e ; I d giv e tw o f o r y o u .

And I wou ldn t giv e mor e th an o n e fo r you N 0 mo r e o f

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you r j o ke s Z a m e t o v is no mo re th an a boy I can pull hi s

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h ai r and o n e mu st draw him and not rep el him You ll n eve r .

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imp rov e a m an by r ep el ling him esp eci ally a boy O n e h as , .

to b e twic e a s care fu l with a boy O h you p rogressiv e dul .

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l a rd s ! Yo u do n t u nde rstand Y o u h arm you r selve s running

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anothe r m an down B ut i f you w ant to kn o w w e re ally

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h av e s o m ethin g in common s

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I should lik e to know what .

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Why it s al l ab ou t a hou s e p aint er
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h im ou t o f a m es s ! Though i ndeed there s nothing to fear

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n ow Th e m atte r is ab s o lutely s el f evident We o nly pu t o n

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steam
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“
A p ainte r ?
Why h av en t I t o ld you abou t it ? I o nly tol d you th e
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b eginning then ab out th e mu rde r o f th e O l d p awnb r o ker

woman Well th e p ainte r i s m ixed u p i n i t
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O h I h ear d abou t that mu rde r b e fo r e and w as rath e r
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i nte rested i n it p artly fo r on e reas o n I r ead

about it i n the p ape rs too , .

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L iz a v e t a w as mu rde red to o N a s t a s ya blu rt ed o u t s u d
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d en l y addressing Rasko lniko v S he r em ained in t h e r oom all .

the time standing by the doo r li stening

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L iz a v e ta mu rmu r ed Raskolnikov hardly audibly
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L iz a v e t a w h o s ol d o l d clothes D idn t you know h e r ? ’

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S h e u sed to com e he re S h e m ended a shi rt fo r you

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to o .

Raskol niko v tu rned t o th e w all wh e re i n t h e dirty yel low ,

p ape r h e p i cked o u t on e clumsy whit e flo we r w ith b rown ,

line s on i t and b egan examining how many p etals ther e we r e

in it how many scal lop s i n th e p etal s and h o w m any l ines o n
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t hem H e fel t hi s arm s and l egs as li feles s a s th o ugh they

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had been cut o ff H e did not attempt to move but stared .

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o b stinately at th e flower .

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But what about th e painte r ? Z o s s im o v inter rupted
N a s ta sya s ch atte r with marked di sp leasu re
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S he sighed and .

w a s silent .

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Why he w a s accu sed o f the mu rder Ra z u m ihin went on
, ,

hotly .

“
Was there ev idenc e against him then ? ”
E vidence i ndeed ! E v iden ce that was no evidence and
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that s what we had to p rov e I t w a s j u st as they p itched o n .

those fel lows K o ch and P e st rya k o v at fi rst ,

F O O ! ho w , .

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stupidly it s al l done i t make s o n e sick though it s not , ,
’

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one s bu siness ! P e s t rya k o v may b e coming to —night .

By th e w a y Ro dya yo u v e heard about the bu sines s a l

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ready ; it happened b e fo r e you w ere i ll the day b e for e ,

yo u fainted at th e pol i ce O ffice wh il e they wer e talki ng

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about it .

Z o s s im o v looked cu riou sly at Raskolniko v H e did not .

sti r
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“
Bu t I s a y Ra z u m ih in I wonde r at you What a bu sy , .

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body you are ! Z o s sim o v ob serv ed .

M ay b e I am b ut w e w il l get him o ff anyway shouted

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Ra z u m ihin b ringing hi s fi s t down o n the ta b le What s ’
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th e most o ffensiv e i s not thei r lying— o n e c a n always fo rgive

lying— lying i s a del ight ful thing fo r it l eads to t ru th w h a t ,
fl

i s O ffensiv e i s that they l i e and wor ship thei r o w n lying .

I resp ect P o r fi ry b u t What th rew the m out at fi r st ?

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The doo r was locked and when th ey cam e b ack w ith the ,

porter it was open S o it followed that K o ch and P e s t rya k o v

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wer e the mu rdere rs— that was thei r l ogi c

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But don t excit e you rsel f ; they simply detained them they
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cou ld not help that And b y th e w a y I v e met that man

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K o ch H e u sed to buy unredeemed pledge s from the O ld

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woman E h ? ?
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Yes h e i s a swindl e r H e buys up b ad debts to o He
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make s a p ro fession o f it B u t enough O f him ! D o you know .

what makes me angry ? It s thei r si ckening rotte n petri fied ’

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routine . And thi s cas e might b e the means o f in t r o du c

ing a new method O n e c a n show from th e psychologi cal
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d ata alone h o w to get o n th e tr ack o f the real man We .

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Bu t facts are n ot ev e r y t hing—

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h av e f ac t s, they s ay at l eas t
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h al f th e bu siness li es i n how you i nterp r e t t he m !

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Ca n y o u interp ret them then ?
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A nyw ay o n e can t ho ld o n e s to ngu e wh en o ne h as a
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fe el ing a tangibl e feel ing th at on e m i g ht b e a h elp i f o nly

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E h ! D O y o u know th e d etai l s o f the cas e ?

I am waiting to h ea r abou t th e p ainte r

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O h yes ! Wel l h e r e s the sto ry E arly o n th e th i rd day ’

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a fte r th e mu rde r when they w er e still dandling K och and

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P e st rya k o v— though they accou nted f o r eve ry step they to o k

and it wa s a s pl ain a s a pikest a ff— a h u nexp ected fact tu rned
u p A p eas ant call ed D ushki n w h o k eep s a d ram shop facing
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the h o u s e b r o ugh t t o th e p o l ic e O ffic e a j ew ell er s cas e c o n ’

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t ain ing s om e gold ea r r ings and t o ld a l o ng rigmarole Th e

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d ay b e f o re yesterday j u st a fte r e ight o c l ock — mark the ’ ’

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d ay and th e h ou r i— a j ou rneym an hou se p ainte r N ikol ay
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w h o h ad b een i n to s ee m e al r eady tha t day b rought m e thi s ,

b o x o f g o ld ear rings and ston es and asked m e to giv e hi m

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tw o r o u b le s fo r them When I ask ed him wh ere h e got .

them h e s aid th at h e p i cked them u p i n the street I di d

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not ask h im anything mo r e I am tell ing you D u s hk in s st o ry ’ ’

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I gav e h i m a n o t e a r o ubl e that i s fo r I thou ght i f h e
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di d n o t p awn it w ith me h e wou ld w ith another It wou ld all .

c o me t o the s ame thing— h e d spend i t o n drink s o the thing ’

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had b ette r b e with me Th e fu rthe r you h ide it the qu icke r yo u

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w i ll fi nd it and i f anyth ing tu rn s up i f I h ear any ru mou rs

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O f cou rs e that s al l taradiddl e ; h e

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I ll tak e it to th e po li c e .
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l i es l ike a ho rs e fo r I know thi s D u shkin he i s a p awn

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b r o ke r and a re ce ive r o f stol en go o ds and h e did not che a t ,

N ik o l ay o u t o f a thi rty roubl e t rinket i n o rder to giv e i t to -

th e p ol i ce H e was s imply a fraid B ut no m atte r to r etu rn

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t o Du shk in s st o ry I ve known thi s p eas ant N ikolay D e

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m en tye v fro m a chi ld ; he comes from th e s am e p rov ince

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and di st ri ct o f Z arai sk w e ar e b oth Ryaz an men And , .

th o ugh N ikol ay i s not a d ru nk ard h e d rink s and I kne w h e , ,

h a d a j ob in tha t hou se p ainting wo rking w ith Dm itri w ho , , ,

c om e s fr om th e s am e v i llage to o A s s oon as he g o t t he , .

r oubl e h e ch anged i t h ad a coupl e o f glasse s to ok his change

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and w ent o u t B u t I did n o t s e e D mitr i with hi m then And

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the next day I heard tha t s o me o ne h ad mu rder ed A lyo n a

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we r e t u rned i nside o u t And th e d ay b e f o re yes t e rday th ey .

a r rested N ikol ay i n a t av ern at th e end o f the town H e h ad .

gone th ere taken the s ilve r cro ss o ff hi s neck and asked fo r

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a d ram fo r it Th ey gav e it to him A few minutes a fte r

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w ards th e woman went to th e cowshed and through a crack ,

i n th e w al l s h e s aw i n th e stabl e adj oining h e h ad m ade a

noo s e o f h i s sash fr o m th e b eam stood o n a b lo ck o f wood , ,

and was t rying to pu t his ne ck in th e noo se The woman

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s creeched her h ardes t ; p eopl e r an in S o th at s what you ’

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ar e u p to l Tak e m e h e s ays to su ch and su ch a p ol ice , ,
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o ffi ce ; I ll con fes s ev erything Wel l they took hi m to th a t .
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p o li ce stati o n— t ha t i s h er e— with a su itab l e esco rt SO

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th ey asked h im thi s and th at how o l d h e i s twenty two -

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and s o on At th e qu estion When y o u w er e wo rking w ith
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D mitri d idn t yo u s e e any o n e o n t he s t ai rcas e at su ch and

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such a time
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an swe r :
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T o b e su r e folks may h av e g o n e
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u p and down bu t I did n ot n o t ice th em ‘And didn t yo u ’ ’

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hea r anything any no is e and so o n ? We h eard nothing
speci al .
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And did you h ear N ikol ay that o n th e s ame d ay

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Wido w S O and s o and h er s i ste r w er e mu rdered and robbed ? ’

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I neve r knew a thing about it The fi rs t I h eard o f i t wa s

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fro m A fanasy P a v l o v itch th e d ay b e fo r e yeste rday And
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wher e did yo u fi nd the e ar r ings I f o u nd th em o n th e -

p av emen t ‘ ’
Why didn t y o u g o to w o rk w i t h D m itri th e ’

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o the r day ? B ecau s e I was dr inking And wh er e w e r e ’

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y o u d rinking ? O h i n su ch and su ch a pl ace Why did
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you ru n aw ay fr o m D u sh k in s B ecau s e I was aw fu lly ’

frightened ‘ ‘
What we r e yo u frightened o f ? Tha t I should
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H o w coul d yo u b e fright ened i f yo u felt fre e

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b e accu s ed .
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from gu ilt ? N o w Z o s s im o v yo u may not b eli ev e me that

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qu esti o n w a s pu t l iter ally i n tho se w o rds I kn o w i t fo r a .

fact i t w a s repe at ed to m e exac t ly ! Wha t d o y o u s ay t o

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th at ?
“ ’
Well anyw ay th er e s th e ev idence
, , .

I am not talking o f th e ev idenc e n o w I am talking abou t ,

that qu e stion o f thei r own ide a O f thems elves Well s o

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th ey squ e ez ed and squ eez ed h i m and h e con fes sed : I did

not fi nd it i n th e stre et but in th e fl a t whe r e I was p ainting
w ith D mit ri ‘And how was that .
?’ ‘Why D mitr i and I
,
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,

w er e p ain t ing t he r e al l day and w e wer e j u st getting r eady ,

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t o go and D mitr i took a b ru sh and p aint ed my face and h e

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r an O ff and I a fter him I ran a fte r him shouting my hard .

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e st and at th e b ottom O f the stai rs I ran right against the

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p orter and some gentlemen— and h o w many gentl emen wer e

the r e I do n t remembe r And th e po rter swo r e at me and
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th e oth er po rter swo re too and th e po rter s w i fe came o u t , , ,

and swo re at u s too ; and a gentl eman cam e into the entry
,

with a l ady and he s wo re at u s too fo r D mitr i and I l ay

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right acro ss the w a y I go t hold O f D mit ri s hai r and .

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kno cked him down and began b eating him And D mitri too .
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cau g ht m e b y the hai r and b egan b eating m e B ut w e did it .

al l not fo r temp er but i n a fr iendly w ay fo r spo rt And

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then D mitri escap ed and ran i nto the st reet and I ran a fte r ,

him ; b ut I did not catch him and w ent b ack to the flat alone ; ,

I had to clea r up my things I b egan putting th em togethe r .

,

expecting D mitr i to come and th er e in th e passage in the , ,

co rner by th e doo r I stepped o n the b ox I s a w it lying ,

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there wrapp ed u p in p aper I to ok o ff the p ap er and s aw .

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some l ittl e hook s u ndid them and i n the box w ere th e

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e ar rings
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B ehind the doo r ? Lying b ehind th e doo r ? B ehind the
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d oo r ? Raskolnikov cr i ed suddenly staring w ith a b lank ,

look o f terro r at Ra z u m ih in and slowly s a t u p o n the so fa , ,

l eaning o n hi s hand
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“
Ye s why ? What s the m atter ? What s wrong ? ’ ’

Ra z u m ihin too got u p from hi s seat

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“
N othing Rasko lniko v answer ed faintly tu rning to the
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w al l All we r e sil ent fo r a while

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He mu st h av e waked from a d ream Ra z u m ih in said at ,

l ast looking inqu i r ingly at Z o s s im o v

, Th e l atte r sl igh t ly .

shook hi s head .

“
Well go on s aid Z o s s im o v
, What next ?
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What next ? As soon as h e s a w the e ar rings fo rgetting -

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D mitr i and ev erything h e took up h is c a p and ran to D u shkin ,

and as w e know g o t a r ou b l e from him H e told a l ie s ay

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ing h e found them in the street and went O ff d rinking H e

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k eep s r epeating his O l d sto ry ab out the mu rder : I knew

nothing o f it never heard o f it til l the day b e fo re yeste r
day ‘ ’
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And w hy didn t you com e to the p ol i ce ti ll now ’

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wa s f r ightened And w hy did you try to hang you rsel f ?

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F r o m anxi ety .
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Wha t anxi ety ? ’ ‘
Tha t I sh o ul d b e accu se d
f
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o it Well that s th e whol e sto ry And n o w what d o yo u
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suppos e they dedu ced from tha t ?

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Why the r e s no suppo sing Th er e s a clu e su ch as it i s
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a fact You w ouldn t h av e you r painte r s e t free
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N o w they v e s imply taken him fo r th e mu rder e r
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They
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h av en t a shado w o f doubt .

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That s non sense You ar e excited B ut wh a t ab o ut th e
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e ar r ings ? You mu st admit that i f o n the v ery s ame day

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and hou r ear rings fro m the O l d wom an s box h av e come int o
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N ik o l a y s h ands th ey mu st h av e come th ere someho w Th at s

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a go od deal i n su ch a cas e
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Ho w did th ey get the r e ? H o w did they ge t there ? cri ed

Ra z u m ih in H ow can yo u a do cto r whos e duty it i s t o
.
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study man and who has m o r e opp o rtunity th an any o n e el s e

fo r studying hum an natu re— how c a n you fai l t o s e e th e
character o f th e m an i n th e whol e sto ry ? D on t yo u s e e at ’

o nce that th e answe rs h e h as giv en i n th e exam inatio n a re

th e h o ly t ruth ? They cam e i nto hi s h and s p reci sely a s h e
h as t o l d u s— h e stepp ed o n th e b ox and p i ck ed it u p .

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Th e holy t r u th ! B ut didn t h e o wn hi m s el f that h e told
a l i e at fi rst ? ”
“
Li sten t o m e l isten atten t ively The p o rter and K o ch and
, .

P es trya k o v and th e o th e r p o rte r and th e w i fe o f the fi rs t

p o rte r and t h e w o man who w as s itting in the p o rter s l odge ’

and th e man K ryukov wh o h ad j u st got o u t O f a cab at th at ,

m inute and went i n at the ent ry with a l ady o n hi s arm th at ,

i s eight o r t en witnesses ag re e that N iko l ay h ad D mitr i o n ,

th e ground was lying o n h im b eating him whil e D mitr i

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hung o n to hi s h ai r b eating him to o Th ey l ay r ight acro s s

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the w ay blo cking the tho rou gh fare They w e r e swo rn at

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f
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o n al l s ides whil e th ey l ik e child ren ( the v e ry wo rds o th e
w itnesse s ) w er e fal ling ov e r o n e anothe r squ ealing fi gh t
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ing and l aughing w ith th e funniest faces and ch asing o n e ,

anothe r l ike children they r an i nto th e street N o w take ,

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care fu l n o te Th e bodi es u p stai rs w er e w arm yo u u nde r

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s tand w arm wh en they h ad found them !

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I f they o r N ikol ay ,

alone had mu rder ed them and b rok en O p en the boxes o r

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s imply t aken p art in th e robb e ry all ow m e to ask you o n e ,

q u esti o n : d o t hei r s t a t e o f mi nd t hei r s qu eal s and giggles ,

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on i n i t but th ey took no sp eci al no tice and c ou ld n o t re

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membe r whethe r the re actu ally w er e men a t wo rk i n i t .

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Hm ! S O the only evidence fo r the d e fence is th a t
they we r e b eating o ne another and l aughing Th at c o n .

s t it u t e s a strong pre sumpti on but H o w do you explai n

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th e fact s you r sel f ?

“
H o w do I explain them ? What i s there t o expl ain ? It s
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cl ear At any r ate th e di recti on i n whi ch expl anati on i s t o

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b e sought i s clear and the j ewel cas e poi nts to it The r eal
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mu rder er d roppe d the se e ar rings Th e murdere r wa s u p -

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stai r s l ocked i n when K och and P e st rya k o v knocked at the

, ,

d o o r K o ch lik e an as s d id not st ay at th e doo r ; so the

.
, ,

m urdere r popped out and r an down to o fo r he h ad no , ,

o ther w a y o f e scape H e hi d f rom K och P e st ryak o v and

.
,

th e po rte r i n th e fl at when N ik o l a y and D mitri h ad j u st run

o u t o f it He stopped th er e whil e th e po rter and o the r s
.

w e re goi ng upstai rs waited t ill they we r e o u t O f h ear i n g

, ,

and then went c almly downstai rs at the v ery m inute when

D mitr i and N ikolay r an ou t i nto th e street and ther e w a s
n o one i n th e entry ; po s sibly he wa s s een but n o t noticed ,
.

T her e ar e l ot s o f peopl e going i n and o u t H e mu st h av e .

d ropped th e ear rings o u t o f hi s pocket wh en h e sto o d b e

-

hi nd th e do o r and d id not n o ti ce h e dropped them b ecau s e

, .

h e h ad othe r things to think o f The j ewel —cas e i s a c o n .

’
e lu siv e p roo f that h e di d stand th e r e That s h o w I
”
.

expl ai n it .

“ ’
T O O cl eve r ! N o my b o y y o u r e t oo cl ev e r Tha t b eat s
, , .

ev erything
“
But w hy w hy ? ”
, ,

it s t oo m el o
’
Why b ecau s e eve ry t hing fi t s to o well
,

d ramati c
”
.

“
A ach ! Ra z u m ihin wa s excl ai ming b ut at th a t m o me n t
-
,

t h e doo r opened and a pers o nage ca m e i n w ho w a s a

s t r a nge r t o all pr esent .
 C HAPT E R V

HI S was a gen t leman no l o nger y o ung o f a sti ff a nd ,

portly app earance and a cautiou s and s ou r c o u n te

,

nance H e began by stopping sho rt i n the doo rway

.
,

staring ab o ut h im w ith O ffensiv e and undi sguis ed astoni sh

men t as th o ugh asking himsel f what so rt O f pl ace h e had
,

come to .M i stru st fully and with an a ffectation o f being

_

’
alarmed and almo st a ffronted h e scanned Ra sk o l n ik o v s low
”
,
“
and narr ow cabin With the s ame amazement he stared
.

at Rask o lnikov w h o l ay undr ess ed dish ev elled unwashed

, , , ,

o n hi s mi serabl e di rty so fa lo oking fi xedly at him Then , .

with the same deliberatio n he scrutini sed the uncouth n u ,

kempt figu r e and unsh av en face o f Ra z u m ih in w h o looked ,

him boldly and i nqui ringly i n the face w ithout r i sing fr o m

hi s seat .A constrained s ilence lasted fo r a coupl e O f
minutes and then a s might b e exp ected s o me scene shi fting
, , ,
-

took place Reflecting p rob ably from certai n fai rly u n m is

”
.
,
“
takabl e s igns that he would get nothing i n thi s cab in by
,

attempting t o over aw e them the gentleman so ftened some ,

what and civil ly tho u gh with some s everity emphas ising

, , ,

every syllable o f hi s que stion addre s sed Zo s s im o v ,

“
Rodion Ro m a no v itch Raskolnikov a student o r f o r m erly
”
, ,

a st u dent ?
Z o s s im o v made a sl ight m o v ement and w o uld hav e a n ,
«

s w e r e d h ad not Ra z u m ih in anticipated him

”
.
,
“
H ere he i s lyin g o n the so fa ! What do y ou want ?
“ ”
Thi s fami li ar wh at do you w ant s eemed to cu t the
gr o und from the f eet o f the pompou s gentl eman H e w a s .

turnin g to Ra z u m ih in but checked himsel f in time and ,

t urned to Zo s s im o v again
”
.

“
Thi s i s Raskolnikov mumbled Zo s s im o v n o dd ng to
, ,
i

w ards him Then h e gav e a prolonged yawn openi ng hi s

. ,

mouth a s wide as po ssibl e Then h e l azily put hi s hand into .

h i s w ai stco at po cket pul led o u t a huge gold watch i n a

-
,

round hunter s case O pened i t l o o ked at i t and a s sl o wly a nd

’
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l az ily pr o ceeded t o put i t b ack .

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R askolnikov hims el f l ay without sp eaking o n his b ack

, , ,

gaz ing p er si stently though without u nderstanding at the

, ,

stranger N o w th at hi s face was tu rned away from the

.

str ange flowe r o n th e p ap e r i t wa s extremely p al e and wo r e

,

a look o f angui sh a s tho u gh h e h ad j u st undergon e an

,

ago ni s ing o perati on o r j u st b een t aken f rom the r ack But .

t h e new comer gradu ally b egan t o aro u s e hi s attenti on then

-
,

h i s wonder then su spi ci o n and ev en al arm Wh en Z o s s im o v

‘ ,
”
.

sai d thi s i s Raskolnik o v h e j ump ed up qu i ckly s a t o n the ,

so fa and with an almo s t defiant b u t w eak and b reaking , ,

v o i ce arti cu late d :
“
Ye s I am Raskolni k o v ! What do you want ? ”
,

The v i s ito r scrutini s ed hi m and pronou nced i mpr ess iv ely

“
Py o tr P etrovi tch Lu zh in I b eli ev e I h av e r eason t o hop e
”
.

tha t my nam e i s n o t wh olly u nknown t o you ?

B ut Rask o lni kov w h o h ad exp ected someth ing qu ite di f
,

fe r e n t gazed bl ankly and dre amily at him making n o r eply

, ,

as though h e hear d th e name o f Pyotr P etrovitch fo r the

first tim e .

“
I s i t po ssibl e th at y o u c a n up t o the p r es ent h av e r ecei v ed
” asked Pyot r P etr o vi tch s om ewhat di s
no i n fo rmation ?
,

co ncerted .

In r eply Raskolnik o v s an k l angu idly b ack on the p il l o w ,

p u t hi s h ands b ehind h i s head and gazed at th e cei ling A .

Z o s s im o v and
’
l ook o f di smay came i nto Lu z hin s fac e .

Ra z u m ihin star ed at hi m mo r e i nqui sitiv ely than ev er and ,

at l ast h e showed u nmi st akable s i g n s O f emb ar ras sment

”
.

“
I had p r esumed and cal cul ated h e f alter ed th at a l et t er
, ,

posted mo r e than ten d ays i f not a fo rtni ght ago

”R z m ihin
.
,

I s a y w hy ar e yo u standing i n the do o rway ?

,
a u
“
inter rupted suddenly I f you ve s o meth ing to s a y s it down
.
’
,
.

N a s t a s ya and you ar e s o crowded N a s t a sya m ake ro om

”
. .
,

H er e s a chai r thr ead y o u r way i n !

’
,

He m ov ed h i s chai r b ack f rom th e t abl e made a l i t t le ,

sp ace b etween th e t abl e and hi s knees and waited i n a ,

“
r ath er cr amped po sition fo r the v i sito r t o th r ead hi s w a y
in
.
The m inute w a s s o cho s en th a t i t w a s i mpo ssibl e t o
re fus e and th e vi s ito r squeez ed hi s w a y throu gh hu rryin g
,
,

and stumbl ing Reach ing th e chai r he s a t down looking

. , ,

s u spi ciou sly at Ra z u m ihin .

148 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y
’
There certai nly was s omething pecul iar i n Pyotr P e t r o v it ch s
whol e appear ance so mething whi ch s eemed to j u sti fy the
”
,
“
t itl e o f fi a n c é s o u nce remoniou sly appl ied to him In the .

fi rs t pl ace i t w a s ev ident far too much so i ndeed that

, , ,

Pyotr P etrov itch had mad e eage r u se o f his few days in the
capital to get h imsel f up and r i g him sel f out i n expectation
o f hi s bet rothed — a p er fectly i nno cent and permi ssibl e p r o

c e e d in g indeed
, E ven h i s o w n p erhap s too complacent
.
, ,

con sciou snes s o f the agreeable improvement i n hi s appear

ance mi ght hav e been fo rgiven i n such ci rcumstances s eeing ,

that Pyot r P etrovitch h ad taken up the r Ol e o f fi a n c é Al l .

hi s clo the s w e re fr esh from the tailo r s and wer e al l ri ght ’

except fo r b eing t o o new and too di stinctly app ropri ate .

E v en the styl i sh new round hat had the s ame s igni ficance .

Pyotr Petrov itch treated it too r espect fully and held i t to o

care fully i n hi s h ands The exqu i site pai r o f l av ende r .

glov e s r eal Louvai n told the s ame tal e i f only fro m the
, , ,

fact o f hi s no t wea ring th em but car rying them i n hi s hand ,

fo r show Li ght and y outh ful col ou r s p redomi nated i n

.

H e wo r e a charming summer
’
P yotr P e t r o v it c h s atti re .

j acket o f a fawn shade li g ht thi n trou ser s a w ai stcoat o f the , ,

s ame ,
new and fi ne l inen a cr av at O f the l ightest camb ri c ,

with pink s trip es o n i t and the b e st o f i t w a s thi s all suited

, ,

Pyotr Petrov itch H is v ery f re sh and ev en handsome f ace

.

looked younge r than hi s fo rty —fi v e year s at all times Hi s .

d ark mutton chop whi sker s made an a greea b l e s etting o n

,
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b oth sides growi ng thi ckly about h is shining cl ean sh aven

, ,
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chi n . E ven hi s hai r tou ched her e and ther e with gr ey , ,

’
though it had b een combed and cu rled at a hairdre s ser s did ,

not giv e hi m a stup id app earance a s cu r led ha i r u su ally do e s , ,

by inev itably suggesting a German o n hi s wedding day I f -

.

th ere r eally was something unpleasing and repul s iv e i n hi s

r athe r goo d looking and impo sing countenance it w a s du e
-
,

to quite othe r cau ses A fte r scanning M r Lu zhi n u n c e r e . .

m o n io u s l y Raskolnikov smiled mali gnantly s ank back o n th e

, ,

p illow and stared at th e ceil in g as b e fo r e .

B ut M r Lu zhi n hardened hi s he art and s eemed to d e

.

te rmine t o take no noti ce o f thei r O dditi es .

“
I feel the greatest r egret at fi nding you i n thi s s ituati on ,
“
he began again breaking th e s il ence w ith an e ffort
,
If I .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 1 49

had been awar e O f you r i llne s s I should have come e arlier .

B ut yo u know what bu sines s i s I have to o a v ery impo r .

, ,

t ant legal a ffai r i n th e S enat e not to mention other pre ,

occupations whi ch yo u may well conj ecture I am expecting

”
.

your mamma and si ster any mi nute .

Raskolnikov m ade a movement and s eemed about to speak ;

hi s face sh o wed some excitement Pyotr P etrov itch pau sed .
,

waited but a s nothing f o llowed h e went o n :

, ,

Any minute I have found a lodging fo r them o n

.

the i r arr ival

”
.

“
Wher e ? asked Raskolnikov weakly .

’
V ery near her e i n Ba k a l e ye v s house
”
.
,

That s i n V o sk re s e n sk y put i n Ra z u m ihin

’
There a r e
, .

two sto reys o f ro oms l et by a merch ant called Yu shin ; I v e ’

”
,

b een the r e .

“
Yes ro om s
,
’
A di sgu sting pl ac e— fi l thy stinking and wh at s m ore o f , , ,

doubt fu l char acter Things hav e happened there and there

.
,

a r e al l s o rts O f queer peopl e l iving ther e And I went ther e .

’
about a scandalou s busi ness It s cheap though .
,

“
I cou ld not O f cou r se find o u t so mu ch about i t fo r I am
”
, , ,

a stranger i n P eter sbu rg mysel f Pyotr Petrovitch r epl ied ,

“
h u ffi l y
t
. H oweve r the t w o room s are exceedingly clean
, ,

and as it i s fo r s o short a time I hav e al ready taken a

permanent that is o u r futu r e flat
, he s aid addressing
, , ,
“
Rask o lnikov and I am having i t done up And meanwh il e
,
.

I am mysel f cramped f o r room i n a l odging with my friend

Andrey S e m yo n o v itc h L e b e z ia t n iko v i n the fl at o f M adame ,
’
L ipp e v e c h s e l ; i t wa s h e w h o told me o f Ba k a l eye v s hou se ,

to o
“
L e b e z ia t n iko v sai d Rasko lnik o v slowly as i f r ecalling ,

something .

“
Yes Andrey S e m yo n o v it ch Leb e z ia tn ik o v a c l erk i n th e
”
, ,

M ini stry DO you know h im ?

”
.

“
Ye s no Rasko lniko v answered
, .

E xcu s e me I fancied s o fro m you r inqui ry I wa s o nc e

,
.

h i s guardi an A ve ry nice young m an and advanced I

. .

l ike to m eet young peopl e : o n e learns new things fr o m them .

Luzhi n l ooked round hope full y at them all

”
.

“
H o w do y o u mean ? a sked Ra z u m ihin .
15 0 F YOD OR D O S TO EV S K Y

In t he m o st s er i o u s and e ssen t i al mat t er s Py o tr Petro - ,

a

“
v it c h r epli ed as though del ighted at th e q u estion
,
You s e e .
,

it s ten year s s ince I v i sited Peter sb ur g

’
Al l the no vel ties .
,

r e form s ideas hav e r e ached u s i n the provinces but to s e e

, ,
’
i t al l mor e cl early one mu st b e i n P etersburg And it s my .

notio n that you O bserv e and l ear n most by wa t chi ng the

y o unge r gener ati on And I c o n fes s I am delighted
”
.

“
At what ?
Y o u r qu estio n i s a w ide o n e I may b e mi staken but I .
,

fancy I fi nd clear er v i ew s mo r e s o t o s ay cr itici sm mor e , , , ,

p ractical ity
“ ’
That s t ru e Z o s s im o v l e t d rop , .

N o nsense ! T he re s no p racti cality Ra z u m ih in fl ew a t

’
.

“
him . P r acti cal ity is a di ffi cul t thing to fi nd ; it do e s not
d rop down fro m h eav en And fo r th e last two hundred .

year s w e h av e b een divo rced fro m all p racti cal li fe Idea s .

,

i f you l ike are fe rmenting he s aid to Pyotr Petrovitch

, , ,
“ ’
and de si r e fo r good exi sts though it s i n a chi ldi sh fo rm , ,

and honesty yo u may find although ther e ar e c rowds o f ,

’
bri gands Anyway there s n o p racticality Practicality g o es
.
, .

well shod .

“ ’
I do n t agre e w ith yo u Py o t r Petr o v itch repl ied with , ,
“
ev ident enj oyment O f cou rs e p eopl e do get car ri ed away
.
,

and m ake mi st akes bu t o n e mu st hav e indulgence ; thos e,

m i stake s a re m e rely ev idence o f enthu si asm fo r th e c au s e

and o f abno rm al exte rnal env i ronmen t I f littl e h as been .

done th e ti me h a s b een but sho rt ; o f means I w il l n o t speak

,
'

’
I t s my p er so nal v i ew i f you care t o know that so mething , ,

has b een accompli sh ed alre ady N e w v alu able ide as new .

,

v alu abl e wo rks ar e ci rcul ating i n th e pl ace o f ou r O ld

dreamy and r omanti c autho r s Literatu r e i s taking a .

m atu rer fo rm many i nj u ri ou s p rej udi ce s hav e b een rooted

,

up and tu rned i nto r idi cule In a wo rd w e h av e c u t .

,

o u rs elv e s O ff i rr evo cably from the p as t and t hat to my , ,

thinki ng i s a great thing

“
,
”
H e s learnt i t by heart to show o ff ! Raskolniko v p rO
’
<

n o u n c e d suddenly
”
.

“
What ? asked Pyotr P etro v itch not catching hi s wo rds ,

bu t h e r eceived no r eply
”
.

“
That s al l tru e Z o s s im o v h astened to i nterpo s e
’

,
.
15 2 F Y ODO R D O STO EV S KY

E xcu s e me s ir s aid Lu zhin a ffron t ed and sp eaking

, , , ,

with exces sive dignity D o you m ean to suggest s o u m

.

ceremoni ou sly that I too

“ ’
O h my dear s ir h o w c o uld I ? C ome t hat s
”
, ,

enough Ra z u m ihin concluded and he tu rned abruptly to

, ,

Z o s s im o v t o c o ntinu e thei r p rev i o u s co nv ersation .

Pyotr P etro vitch h ad the g o od s ens e to accept th e di s

av o wal H e made up h is mind t o t ake l eav e i n anothe r
.

m i nute o r t w o .

“
I tru st o u r acq u ai ntance h e s aid addres sing Raskol , ,
“
miko v , may up o n you r r ecov ery and i n v i ew o f the ci r
,

c u m st a n c e s o f wh ich yo u are awar e be co me clo se r , .

Ab o v e all I h o p e fo r you r r etu rn to health

,

Raskolnik o v did not even tur n hi s h ead Pyotr P etrov i t ch .

b egan getting u p f r o m his chai r .

O n e o f he r cu st o mer s mu st h av e ki lled her Z o ss im o v .

d ecl ared po sitively .

“
N o t a d oub t o f i t repli ed Ra z u m ihin , Po r fi ry d o esn t .
’

giv e hi s O pi ni o n but i s exami ning al l wh o hav e le f t pledge s

”
,

with her the r e

”
.

“
E xamining them ? Rask o lnik o v asked al o ud
”
.

Yes What then ?

”
.

N oth ing
”
.

H o w does h e get hold o f them ? aske d Z o s s im o v .

Ko ch h as give n th e n ame s o f s o me o f th em othe r name s ,

a r e on th e w rapp er s o f th e p l edges and som e h av e c o me

”
f o rward o f themselve s .

“
It mu st hav e b een a cunning and p racti s ed ru ffi a n ! The
! ”
b o ldnes s o f it ! The coolnes s
“ ’ ”
That s j u st what i t w asn t ! i nterp o sed Ra z u mih in
’ l
.

That s what throws you all o ff the s cent B ut I mai ntai n

’
.

th at he i s not cunning no t p ractis ed and p rob ably thi s w a s

, ,

his fi r st cr ime ! Th e suppo sition th at it wa s a cal cul ated

’
cr ime and a cunning criminal d o es n t wo rk S uppo se hi m t o .

’
h av e b een inexper ienced and it s cl ear tha t i t was o nly a ,

ch ance that s av ed him— and chance may do anythi n g Why .

,

he did not for esee ob stacle s pe rhap s ! And how d id h e s e t ,

t o work ! H e took j ewel s w o rth ten o r twenty rouble s stu ff ,

’
ing hi s pockets with them ransacked th e old woman s trunk , ,

her rags— and they found fi f t een hundre d ro ubles b eside s ,

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 15 3

n otes i n a b o x i n th e top drawe r o f the chest ! He did not

,

know how to ro b ; he could o nly murde r It was hi s fi rst .

crime I assur e you h is fi rst cri me ; he lo st hi s hand And

”
, , .

he got o ff mo re b y luck than good counsel !

“
You ar e t alking o f the mu rder o f the old pawnb roker I
”
,

believ e ? Pyotr Petrovitch put i n addressing Z o s s im o v H e , .

was standing hat and glov e s i n hand but b e fo r e departing

, ,

he felt dispo sed to throw o ff a few mor e intellectu al phrases .

He was ev identl y anxiou s to make a favou ra b le impr ession

and hi s v anity overcame hi s prudence .

“
Y es You v e heard o f it ? ’
.

O h ye s being i n the neighb o urh oo d

”
.
, ,

D o you know the detai l s ?

I c an t s a y that ; but an o the r ci rcumstance in t erests me

’

in the cas e —the whole que sti o n s o to s a y N o t to speak o f , .

the fact that cr ime has been greatly o n the increas e among
the l ower cl asse s dur ing the last fiv e year s not to speak o f ,

t he cases o f robbery and arson everywhere w h a f strikes me ,

a s the strangest thing i s that i n the higher clas se s too crime , ,

i s increasing p ropo rtionately I n o n e p lace o n e h ear s o f a .

’
student s robb ing the mai l o n the high road ; i n another pl ace
p eople o f go od so ci al po sition forge f al s e banknotes ; i n
M oscow o f l ate a whole gang has b een captured who u sed to
fo rge lo ttery ti cket s and o n e o f the r ingleader s w a s a
,

l ectu rer i n univ ersal hi sto ry ; then o u r s ecretary abro ad w a s

mu rder ed from s o me ob scur e motiv e o f gain And i f .

thi s o l d woman the pawnb roker has been mu rdered by some

, ,
’
o ne o f a higher class i n society— fo r p easant s don t p awn
gold t rinkets— how ar e we to expl ain thi s demor ali sation o f
th e civili sed part o f o u r so ci ety ? ”
“
Th ere ar e many economi c changes put in Zo s s im o v ,
.

How are w e t o explain i t Ra z u m ih in caught h im

“
up . I t might b e expl ained by ou r i nv eterate im p r ac t i
c a l it y
”
.

“
H o w do you m ean ?
What answe r had you r lectu rer i n M o scow to mak e to the
questio n w hy h e was fo r g in g note s ? ‘
E v erybody i s getting
ri ch o n e w a y o r another so I want to make haste to get r ich
,

too I don t remember the exact word s but th e upshot w a s

.
’ ’
,

that he wants money fo r nothing without waiting o r w o rk ,

15 4 F Y ODO R DO S T OE V S K Y
’
in g ! We v e gr o wn u sed to h av ing ev erything r eady —mad e ,

to walking on crutche s to h av ing ou r food chewed fo r u s , .

’
Then the great hou r s t r u ck and ev ery m an sh o wed himsel f
”
,

i n hi s tru e colou r s .

“
B ut mo r ality ? And s o to speak p ri nciple s
”
,

B ut w hy d o y o u wo rry about i t ? Raskolnikov i nte r

p o sed suddenly “ ’
It s i n accordance with you r the o ry ! ”
”
.

“
In acco rdance with my th eo ry ?
Why c ar ry o u t logi cally th e the o ry you we re advo cating
,

j u st now and it fo llows that p eopl e m ay b e killed

”
,
“
Upo n my wo rd ! cr i ed Luzhin
”
.

N o that s not s o
’

, put i n Z o s sim o v , .

Raskolniko v l ay w ith a white face and twi t ching upp er l ip ,

b reathing p ain fu lly .

“ ’
Ther e s a me asu r e i n all th ings Luzh i n w ent o n super ,

c il io u s l y .E con o mi c ideas a re not an incitement to murd er ,

and o n e has but to supp os e

“ ”
And i s it tru e Rask o lnikov i nterpo sed once mo re sud
,

d e n l y agai n i n a v o ic e qu ive ring w ith fury and delight i n

,
“
insulting him i s i t t ru e th at you to ld you r fi a n c é e
,

w ithi n an h o u r o f h er acceptance that what pleased y o u ,

m o st w a s th at she wa s a beggar b ecau se it w a s

b etter to rai s e a wi fe f rom pov erty s o that you m ay h av e ,

comp lete contro l ove r her and r ep ro ach h er w ith you r b eing
”
,

he r b ene fact o r ?
“
Upon my w o rd Lu zh in cri ed w rath fully and i rritabl y
, ,
“
crim so n w ith co n fu sio n to di sto rt my wo rd s i n thi s way ! ,

E xcu s e me allow m e to as su re you that th e r eport wh i ch h as

,

reached you o r r athe r l et me say h a s b een conveyed to you

, , ,

has no found ati o n i n truth and I su spect who in a,

wo rd thi s arrow i n a wo rd you r m amma She ,

s e emed to m e in other things w ith all he r excellent qu alities , ,

o f a somewh at h igh fl o w n and ro manti c way o f thinking

B ut I w as a thou sand mil e s fro m suppo s ing that she w o uld

mi sunder stand and mi srepr es ent things i n s o fanci ful a way .

And i nd eed i ndeed

I tell you wh at cr ied Raskol nikov r ai sing hims el f o n hi s
, ,
“
pi llow and fixi ng hi s piercing glitter ing eyes upon him I ,

”
,

t ell you what .

Th e e m n ip t i n 8 61 is m e a t — TRAN S LATO R S N O TE
’
a f th e s f s i n
c a o o er 1 n . .
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I f o nly h e c o uld get s o me fav o u rabl e sh o c k tha t s what ,

’

w o uld do it ! At fi rst he was b ette r Y o u kn o w h e has .

go t something o n hi s mi nd ! S om e fixed i dea weighing o n

him . I am v e ry much a fr aid s o ; h e mu st h av e ! ”
“ ’
P erhap s i t s th at gentleman Pyot r Petrov itch F ro m hi s, .

co nv e rs atio n I gather h e i s g o ing to marry hi s si ste r and ,

that h e had r eceived a l etter ab o ut it j u st b e f o r e his

i llnes s .

“
Yes con found th e man ! h e m ay h av e upset the cas e alto
,

gether B ut hav e yo u noti ced h e takes no i nterest i n any

.
,

thi ng h e do e s not r espond to anything except one po int o n

”
,
’
which h e s eem s e x c ite d th a t s th e mu rder ? w

“ ” “
Ye s ye s Ra z u m ihin agre ed I noti ced that t oo He i s
, , , , .

i nterested f ri ghtened It gav e him a sho ck o n th e day h e

”
.
,

w a s i l l i n the p o lice o ffice ; h e fainted .

“ ’
Tel l m e mo re about th at thi s ev ening and I ll t ell yo u
s omething a fterward s H e i nte rests m e v ery mu ch ! I n h al f
.

’
Th er e ll b e no in
’
a n hour I l l g o and s ee him again .

fl a m m a t io n though .

“ ’
Thanks ! And I l l wait with Pashenk a meanti me and wi ll
k e ep w atch o n h i m throu gh N a s t a s ya .

Raskolniko v l e ft alo ne lo oked w ith imp a t ience and mi sery

, ,

at N a s ta s ya but s h e stil l l ingered

” h
.
,
“ ’
Wo n t yo u h av e s o me tea now ? s e asked
”
.

Later ! I am s leep y ! Le av e m e .

He tu rned ab rup t ly t o th e w all ; N a sta sya wen t o u t .

 C H APT E R VI

UT a s soon a swent o u t he got up l atched the sh e , ,

do o r undid the parcel whi ch Ra z u m ih in had b rought

,

i n that evening and had tied up again and began ,

d re s sing S trange to s ay he seemed immedi ately to hav e

.
,

b ecome p er fectly calm ; not a trace o f hi s r e cent deli rium

nor o f the p ani c fear that had haunted him o f late I t w a s .

the fi rst moment o f a strange sudden calm H i s movement s .

were preci s e and defi nite ; a fi rm pu rpo s e wa s ev ident in

“ ”
them To day to day he m uttered to himsel f H e under
.
—
,
-
, .

stood that h e w a s still w eak but hi s intens e sp iritual c o n ,

centrati on gav e h im strength and s el f c o n fi d e n c e He -

.

hoped moreov er that he would n o t fall down i n the street

, , .

When he had dre ssed in enti rely new clothes he lo oked at ,

’
the mo ney lying on the table and a fter a moment s thought ,

pu t i t i n hi s po cket It w a s twenty fi v e r ou b l es H e took

.
-
.

also all the coppe r change from the ten r oubles spent b y
Ra z u m ihin o n the clothe s Then he s o ftl v unlatched the .

do o r w ent out slipped downst ai r s and glanced in at th e

, ,

op en kitchen do or N a s ta s ya w a s standing with her b ack to

.

’
him b lowing up th e l andlady s samovar S he he ard noth
,
.

i ng Who would hav e dre amed o f hi s go ing out i ndeed ?

.
,

A minut e l ate r he was i n the stre et .

’
I t i s nearly e ight o clock the s u n wa s setting It w as ,
.

a s stifling as b e fo r e but he e agerly drank i n the stinking , ,

du sty town ai r Hi s head felt r athe r dizzy ; a so rt o f s avage

.

energy gle a m ed suddenly i n hi s f ev eri sh eyes and hi s

wasted p ale and yellow face He d id not know and did not
,
.

think wher e h e was go ing h e had o ne thought only that ,

all this mu st be ended to d a y once fo r all immediately ;

- -
, ,

that he would no t r eturn home without it b ecau se he w o u l d

”
,

n o t g o o n l iv ing l ike tha t How with what to make an .

,

end ? He had not an idea about i t he did not even want to ,

think o f it H e d rov e away thought ; thought tortured him

. .

All he knew all he felt w a s that ev erything mu st b e changed

,

15 7
15 8 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

o ne w ay o r anothe r
h e r epeated with despe rat e and im
,

m ov abl e s el f co n fi d e n c e and d etermination

-
.

F r om o l d habit h e took hi s u su al walk i n the di rection o f

the H ay M arket A dark —hai red young man wi th a b arre l
.

o rgan wa s standing i n th e r o ad i n f ront o f a l ittle general

shop and wa s grinding o u t a v ery sentimental s o ng H e w a s .

accompanying a gir l o f fi fte en w h o st oo d o n the p av e m en t ,

i n fron t o f him S he w a s d res sed up i n a cri n o l ine a man t l e

.
,

and a straw hat with a fl a m e c o l o u re d feather i n i t all very ~

,

o l d and shabby I n a strong and r ather agree able v o ice

.
,

cracked and co arsened by st reet s inging s h e sang i n hop e ,

o f getting a copp er fro m the sh o p Rasko lnikov j o ined tw o .

o r three li stener s took o u t a fiv e cope ck p i ece and put i t i n

,
’
t he gi rl s h and S he b roke o ff ab ruptly o n a sentimental
”
.

“
high note sh o uted sharply to th e o rgan grinder C om e o n
, ,
‘
and both mo ved o n to the next shop
”
.

“
D o yo u l ike str eet mu s ic ? s ai d Rask o lnikov addre ss ing ,

a mi ddl e aged man standing idly by him The man l oo ked

-
.

at h im s t artled and wonder ing

,
.

“
I lov e t o hear singing to a str e e t o rgan s aid Rask o lnik o v , ,

and hi s m anner s eemed strangely o ut o f keeping with the

“
subj ect — I l ike i t o n co ld d ark damp autumn ev enings , ,

they mu st b e damp— when al l the pass er s b y hav e pale green —

,

s i ckly faces o r b ette r sti ll when wet sno w i s f alling strai ght
,

d o wn when the re s n o w ind— you kn o w what I mean ? and

,
’

the street l amp s shi ne throu gh it .

“
I do n t kno w ’
E xcu se m e muttered the stran
.

’
ger fri ghtened by the qu estio n and Ra sk o l n iko v s strange
,

manne r and he c ro s sed o v e r to th e o th er s id e o f th e

,

stre et .

Raskolnikov w alked straight o n and cam e o u t ‘at th e

c o rne r o f t h e H ay M arket wher e th e hu ckster and h is w i fe ,

had t alked wi th Liz a v e ta ; bu t they we re not ther e now .

Reco gni zing the pl ace h e stopped looked round and a d , ,

dressed a young fellow i n a r ed shi rt wh o sto o d gaping

b e fo re a co rn C handle r s shop
’
.

“
Isn t ther e a man who keep s a bo o th w ith hi s w i fe a t t hi s
’

co rner ? ”
“
All sorts o f peopl e ke ep b o o th s here answered the ,

young m an gl ancing supercili o u sly at Raskolnikov

,
.
1 60 F Y ODO R DO ST OEV S KY

He felt strangely attrac t ed by the singing and al l th e n o i s e

and upr o ar i n th e s alo o n below S ome o n e could b e .

h eard w ithi n d anci ng f ranti cally marki ng t ime w ith h i s ,

heel s to the sound s o f the guitar and o f a thin fal setto v o ic e

singing a j aunty ai r H e l i stened i nt ently gl oo mily and .
,

dreamily b ending down at th e entrance and peeping in

,

qu is itiv e l y i n f r o m the pav e m en t .

O h m y h a n ds o m e
, s o l di e r

D o n t b e a t m e fo r n o th in g ,
’

tr illed the thin v o ice o f the singer Rask o lni ko v felt a grea t .

de s i r e to m ake o u t what he was s inging as t h o ugh every ,

thing d ep ended o n that

”
.

“
S hall I go i n ? he thought They are l au ghing F ro m
”
. .

d rink .S hall I get drunk ?

”
“
W o n t you co me i n
’
? o n e o f th e women asked him He r .

vo i ce was still mu sical and l e s s thick than the o ther s she w a s ,

oung and not r epulsiv e — th e only o n e o f the gr o up

y
”
.

“ ’
Why sh e s p r etty
, h e s aid d rawi ng himsel f up and , ,

lo o ki ng at he r .

S h e smi led m u ch pl eas ed a t the compl imen t, .

“ ’
Yo u r e v ery ni ce l o oking your s el f s h e s aid
”
.
,
’
I sn t h e thi n th o ugh ! o b se rv ed an o ther woman i n a deep
bas s . H av e yo u j u st come o u t o f a ho spital ? ”
’ ’
They re al l gene ral s d aughter s it s eems but they h av e all
”
,

s nub no se s i nte rpo s ed a tipsy peasant with a s l y smil e o n

”
,
“
hi s face wearing a loo s e c o at S e e h o w j o lly they a r e
”
. .
,
“
Go along with you !
“ ’
I ll g o sweeti e ! ”
,

And h e darted down i nt o the s al oo n b el o w Ras k o lnikov .

m o v ed o n .

“
I s ay si r the gir l sh o uted a fte r hi m .

”
, ,

Wh at i s it ?
S he h esitated .

“ ’
I ll always b e pleased t o spend an hou r w ith y o u kind ,

gentl eman but n o w I feel s hy Giv e m e s ix cop ecks fo r a

”
.
,

dri nk ther e s a nice young man !

,
’

Raskol niko v gav e h er wh at c ame fi r st— fi fte en c o peck s .

“
Ah wh at a good natu r ed gentleman -

”
,

“
Wh at s you r n a m e ? ’
 C R IM E A ND P U N I SH M E N T 61

Ask fo r Du c l id a .

’
Well that s to o much o n e o f the women ob serv ed shak
, , ,
“
i n g her head at D u c lid a
’
I don t know how you c a n ask .

like that I b eliev e I sh o uld drop with shame

. .

Rasko lnikov looked cu riously at the speaker S he w a s a .

pock marked wench o f thi rty covered with b ru i ses with he r

-
, ,

uppe r lip swollen S he made he r critici sm qu ietly and ear

”
.

“
n e s tl y . Wher e i s it thought Raskolnikov Where i s it
, .

’
I v e re ad that some o n e condemned to death s ays o r thinks ,

an hou r be fo re hi s death that i f he had to l iv e on so me high ,

’
rock o n such a nar row ledge that h e d only room to stand
, ,

and the ocean ev erlasting darknes s ev erl asting so litude

, , ,

ever lasting tempest around him i f h e had to r emai n stand ,

ing on a squa r e yard o f space all hi s l i fe a thou sand year s , ,

eternity it were b ette r to l ive s o than to di e at once ! O nly

,

to liv e t o live and l iv e ! Li fe whatev e r it may b e !

,
How ,

t ru e it i s ! Good G o d h o w tru e ! M an i s a v i le creatur e !

”
,

And v il e i s he wh o calls him v i l e fo r that he added a ,

m o ment late r .

H e went into anothe r stre et B ah the Pal ai s d e C rystal ! .

,

Ra z u m ihin was j ust talking o f th e Palai s de C rystal But .

what o n earth wa s i t I wanted ? Yes the newspaper s ,

.

Z o s s im o v s ai d h e d re ad i t in th e papers Hav e you th e

’
.

? ”
paper s he asked go ing into a v ery spaci ou s and po sitively
,

clean r estau rant consi sting o f s ev er al rooms which wer e

, ,

howev er r athe r empty Two o r thr ee p eopl e w ere drinking .

tea and i n a room furthe r away wer e s itting fou r men drink
,

i ng champagne Raskolnikov fanci ed that Za m e t o v was o n e

.

“
o f them but he cou ld not b e sur e a t th at di stance What .

”
,

i f i t i s ! he thought
”
.

“
Will you hav e vodka ? a ske d the waiter .

“
Giv e me some tea and bri ng me the paper s the o l d o ne s
”
,

f o r the last five days and I ll giv e y o u something ’

”
.

“
Y e s s ir here s t o day s N o vodka ?
’ ’
-
.
, ,

Th e o l d newspaper s and the t ea were b r o ught Raskolnik o v .

s a t down and began to look throu gh them .

O h damn ,
the se ar e the items o f intelligence An .

accident o n a staircase sp o ntaneou s combu stio n o f a shop ,

keepe r fr om alcohol a fi r e i n Pe ski a fire i n the Peter s

,

burg quarter an o ther fi r e i n th e P eter sbur g qu arte r

1 69 F Y OD O R DO S T OEVS K Y

and anothe r fi r e i n th e P ete rsbu rg q uarte r Ah

”
.
,

h ere i t i s ! H e found at l ast what he was se eki ng and

began to r ead it The lines d anced b e fo re hi s eye s but he
.
,

r ead i t all and began e agerly s eeking l ater additi o n s i n the

fo llowi ng num b e rs H is h and s shook with nervou s im
.

pati ence a s he tu rned th e she ets S uddenly som e o n e sa t .

down b eside hi m at h i s t able H e l o oked up i t wa s the h ead .

,

cl erk Z a m e to v looking j u st the s ame w ith th e r ings o n h i s

, ,

finge r s and the w atch ch ain with th e cu rly b lack h ai r -

, , ,

parted and pomaded w ith the smart w ai stco at rathe r shabby

, ,

c o at and doubt ful l inen H e w a s i n a go o d humou r at le ast

.
,

h e w a s smiling v e ry gaily and g oo d humou r edly H i s dark ~

.

face w as r ath er flu shed fr o m the champ agne he had drunk

”
.

“
Wh at y o u h er e
,
? h e be gan i n s urpr i se speaking a s ,
“
t h o ugh h e d known him al l hi s l i fe
’
Why Ra z u m ih in t old .
,

m e o nly ye sterday y o u we re unco nsciou s H o w strange !

”
.

And do yo u know I v e b een to s e e yo u ? ’

Rask o lnikov knew h e wo uld co me up to him He l ai d .

as id e th e pape r s and tu r ned t o Z a m et o v Ther e w a s a smil e .

o n hi s lip s and a new shade o f i r ritable imp ati enc e w a s

,

a ppare nt i n th at smi le
”
.

“ ’
I know yo u hav e h e answe red I v e h e ard it Yo u
,
. .

l o oked fo r my so ck And you know Ra z u m ih in ha s l o st

.

’
h i s heart to y o u ? He s ays you v e b een wi th hi m to Lui s e
Iv a n o v n a s you kn o w th e w oman you tr i ed to b e friend fo r
’
, ,

w hom yo u winked to the E xplo siv e Li eutenant and he would

not u nder stand D o you r emember ? H o w c o uld he f ai l t o
”
.

understand — it wa s qu ite cl ear w asn t i t ?

’

”
,
“
What a hot head h e i s !
”
The explo siv e o n e ?
“
N o you r fr iend Ra z u m ihin
,
.

You mu st h av e a j olly li fe M r Z a m e to v ; ent rance fre e ,

.

to th e mo st agre eabl e pl aces Wh o s b een pou r ing ch am

”
.

pagne i nto you j u st now ?

“
We v e j u st b een
’
h avi ng a drink togeth er .

”
t alk a b out pou ri ng i t i nto m e !
”
“
By w ay o f a fee ! You profi t by ev eryth in g ! Rask o l
“ ”
n ik o v laughed it s all r i ght m y de ar boy he add ed sl ap
,
’
, , ,

p ing Z a m e t o v o n the sh o u lde r I am not spe aking fro m .

temper but i n a fr iendly way f o r sp o rt a s that wo rkman o f

, , ,
164 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

I was re ading that I w as l ooking and searching

,
he
“
s crewed up hi s eye s and p au sed I w a s s e a r c h in g a n d
.
fl

came he re o n purpo se to do it fo r news o f the mu rde r o f the

—

o l d pa w n b roke r woman h e articu lated at last almost i n a

, ,

whi sper bringing hi s face exceedingly clo s e to the face o f

,

Z a m e to v .Z a m e t o v looked at h im steadily w ithout mov ing ,

o r dr awi ng hi s face away What struck Z a m e t o v a fterwards

.

a s the strangest p art o f i t al l wa s that silence fo llowed fo r

exactly a minu t e and that th ey gazed at o n e another all
,

th e whil e
”
.

“
What i f you hav e b een re ading about it ? h e cr ie d at
“ ’
l ast perpl exed and impati ent
, That s no bu sine s s o f mine !
.

What o f it
“
The same o l d w oman Raskolnikov w ent o n i n the sam e
,
“ ’
whi spe r no t heeding Z a m e to v s explanation about whom
, ,

you wer e t alkin g in the pol ice o ffi c e you r ememb er when I -

”
, ,

fainted Well do you u nd er stand now ?

”
.
,
“
What do you mean ? U nder stand wh at ? Za m e to v
b rought o u t almo st ala rmed
, .

Ra s k o l n ik o v s s e t and e arnest face w a s suddenly t ran s

’

fo rmed and h e suddenly went o ff i nto the s ame nerv o u s

,

l augh as be fo r e a s though utte rly unabl e to r estrain him sel f

,
.

And i n o ne fl ash he r ecalled with extr aordinary v iv idne ss o f

s ensatio n a moment i n the r ecent past that moment when h e ,

sto od w ith the axe b ehind th e do or whil e th e latch trembled ,

and the men outside swo re and sho ok it and h e h ad a sudd en ,

des i re to shout at them to swear at them to put o u t h is

, ,

tongue at them t o mo ck them to laugh and l augh and

, , , ,

l augh !
“
Yo u ar e e ither mad o r b egan Z a m e to v and h e
, ,

b roke o ff as though stunned by the idea tha t had suddenly

,

fl ashed i nto h i s mind

”
.

“
Or ? O r what ? What ? C ome tell me !
”
,
“ ’
N othing s ai d Z a m e to v getti n g angry i t s al l non
”
, , ,

sense !
B oth w ere silent A fte r hi s sudden fi t o f laughte r Ras
.

kol miko v b ecame suddenly thought ful and mel ancholy H e .

put hi s elbow o n the tabl e and leaned hi s head o n hi s hand .

H e seemed to hav e completely fo rgotten Z a m e to v The .

s ilence lasted fo r some time .

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME N T 1 65

’ ’
Why don t yo u dr ink your tea ? It s getting cold , said
Z am e t o v .

“
What ! Tea ? O h yes Raskolniko v sipped the
,
.

glass put a mo r s el o f b read i n h i s mouth and suddenly look

, ,

ing at Z a m e to v , seemed to rememb er ev erything and pul led

himsel f togethe r At th e same moment hi s face r esumed it s
.

o ri ginal mo cking expre ssion H e went o n drinking tea . .

“
Ther e hav e b een a gr eat many o f thes e crimes l ately ,

s aid Z a m et o v O nly the other d ay I r ead in the M o s c o w

.

N ew s that a whole gang o f fal se co iner s had b een caught i n

M o scow It w a s a regular s ociety They u s ed to fo rge
”
. .

tickets l
“
O h but i t w a s a long time ago ! I read about it a month
,

ago Raskolniko v answer ed calmly S o you conside r them

”
.
,

criminal s ? h e added smiling .

“
O f cou rs e th ey ar e cr iminals .

They ? They are children s impl etons not criminal s ! , ,

Why hal f a hundr ed p eople meeting fo r such an obj ect

,

what an i dea ! Thre e would b e to o many and then they ,

want to hav e mor e faith i n o ne other than i n them selv es !

O n e h a s onl y to blab i n hi s cup s and it all collap ses S impl e .

to ns ! They engaged untru stwo rthy peopl e to change the

note s— what a thing to tru st to a casual str ange r ! Well l et ,

u s suppo se that thes e simpleto ns succeed and each make s a

million and what fo llow s fo r the rest o f thei r l ive s ? E ach
,

i s dependent o n the other s fo r the r est o f hi s li fe ! B ette r

hang one sel f at once ! And they did not know how t o
change the note s either ; th e man who changed the note s
took fiv e thousand roubl es and hi s hand s trembled He,
.

counted th e fi r st fou r thou sand but did not count th e fi fth ,

thou sand— h e w as i n such a hur ry to get the money into

hi s po cket and run away O f cou rse he rou sed su spicion . .

And the who le thing cam e to a crash through one foo l ! I s

i t po s sible ? ”
“ ”
That hi s hand s tr embl ed ? ob serv ed Z a m e t o v ye s , ,

that s quite po ssible

’
That I feel quite sure i s po ssible .

”
.

’
S ometime s one can t stand things
”
.

“ ’
C an t stand that ?
’
Why could you stand i t then ? N o I couldn t F o r th e
, , .

sake o f a hundred roub le s to face su ch a ter rible expe rience !

1 66 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S K Y
’
T o g o with fals e notes i nt o a bank w her e i t s thei r bu s ines s
to spot that so rt o f thing ! N o I should not have the face to
”
,

d o i t Would you ?
.

Rasko lnikov h ad an intense de si r e agai n to pu t his to ngue

”
o ut S hiv er s kept running down hi s spine
”
. .

I shoul d do i t qu ite di fferently Ras ko lnikov b egan ,

Thi s i s how I would change the n o tes : I d count t he fi rs t ’

thou sand three o r fou r times b ackwards and fo rwards lo o k ,

’
ing at ev ery note and then I d s e t to th e second t ho u s and ;
’
I d c o u nt that h al f w ay through and then hold s o me fi f t y
roubl e note to the light t hen t u rn it then h o ld i t t o t he l i ght
—
again to s e e whether it was a goo d o n e ? ‘ ,

I am a fraid I
,
’

‘
would s ay a r elat i o n o f mine lo st t wenty fi v e r o ubl e s th e -
,

, _

’ ’
o ther d ay th rough a fal se note and t hen I d t ell th em th e
who l e sto ry And a fte r I began c o u nting the thi rd n o
‘ ,

‘
.
, ,

excu s e me I wo uld s a y I f ancy I made a mi stake in t h e

,
’
,
’
s ev enth hundred i n that s econd t housand I am n o t su r e ,
.

And s o I would giv e up the thi rd thou sand and go b ack to

th e s econd and s o o n to the end And when I h ad fi ni shed .
,
’
I d pi ck o u t o ne from th e fi fth and o n e f r o m the s econd
th o u sand and t ake the m agai n t o th e l igh t and ask agai n
‘ ’
change them pl ease and put th e cl erk in t o su ch a stew
, ,

that h e would not kn o w how t o get ri d o f m e Whe n

‘
.

’
I d fi ni shed and had gon e o u t I d com e b ack
’
no , , ,

’ ’ ’
e xcu s e m e and ask f o r s om e expl ana t i o n That s how I d
”
.
,

do it
”
.

F o o wh at t err ibl e things yo u say ! said Z a m e to v laugh

, ,
“
i ng . Bu t all that i s o nly talk I d are s a y when i t came to .

’
d eed s you d make a slip I b el iev e that even a p racti s ed .
,

d esp er ate man c annot always recko n o n himsel f mu ch l e s s ,

yo u and I To t ake an example ne ar home— th at o l d woman

.

mu rde r ed i n o u r di stri ct Th e murde re r s eems to hav e b een

.

a de sper at e fellow h e ri sked ev erything i n op en daylight

, ,

w as sav ed by a m i r acl e— but hi s hands shook too H e di d , .

’
not su cceed i n robb ing th e place h e couldn t stand i t That ,
.

w a s cl ear f rom the

Raskolnikov se emed o ffended
”
.

“
C lear ? Why don t yo u c atch h i m then ? he cried
’
,

m al ici ou sly gib ing at Za m e to v

”
.

“
Well they wi ll c a t ch h im
,
.
1 68 F Y OD O R DOS T O EV S K Y

He b ent down a s clo s e a s p o s sible to Z a m eto v and h i s l ip s ,

b egan to mov e w ithout utte ring a wo rd Thi s l asted fo r .

hal f a mi nute ; he knew what h e w a s doi ng but could n o t ,

r estrain hims el f The te rr ible w o rd t rembl ed o n hi s lip s

.
,

l ike the latch o n that doo r ; i n ano the r moment it w il l

b reak out i n an o ther m o ment h e wi ll let it go h e w il l sp eak
, ,

out .

“
And wh a t i f it was I w h o mu rdered the o l d wom an and
Liz a v e t a h e s aid suddenly and— reali sed what he h ad d o ne .

Z a m e to v looked wi ldly at him and turned white as the

t abl ecloth H i s face wo r e a co nto rted smile
”
. .

“
B ut is it pos sibl e ? he b rou ght o u t faintly Rask o lnik o v .

l oo ked w r ath fully at him

‘ ”
.

O w n up that you b el i ev ed it yes you did ? , ,

N o t a b it o f it I beli ev e i t l es s than ev e r now

,
Z a m e to v ,

cr i ed hastily .

“ ’
I v e c aught my cock spar row ! S o you did b eli ev e it
be fo re i f now you b eliev e it les s than ev er ? ”
”
,

N o t at al l cri ed Z a m e t o v obviou sly emb ar ras sed Hav e

”
.
, ,

you b ee n fri ghtening me s o as to lead up to thi s ?

“ ’
Yo u don t b el i ev e i t then ? What w er e you talking about
beh ind my back when I went o u t o f the police o ffi c e ? And -

w hy did the explo siv e l i eutenant question m e a fte r I fai nted ?

”
Hey the r e he shouted t o th e w aite r getting up and taking
”
, , ,
“
h is c a p h o w mu ch ?
“
Thi rty copecks th e l atte r r epli ed running up , , .

And he r e i s twenty copecks fo r v odka S ee what a l o t o f

”
.

mo ney ! h e held o u t hi s shaking h and to Z a m e to v with notes

in i t . Red note s and blue twenty —fi v e rouble s Wher e did ,
.

I get them ? And wher e did my new clothe s come fro m ?

Y o u kno w I h ad not a copeck
’
You ve cro s s —examined m y .

’ ’
l andlady I ll b e bound Well that s enough ! A s s e s
”
.
, ,
’

ca u s e ! T ill w e me et agai n !
H e w ent o u t t rembl ing al l ove r from a so rt o f W i ld 1i
,

t e r ic a l sensation i n which ther e w a s an el ement o f iu su f

,

fe r a bl e r aptur e Yet h e wa s gloomy and te rr i b ly ti red H is

. .

face was twi sted a s a fte r a fit H i s f ati gu e increased .

r apidly Any sho ck any i rr itating sens ation stimul ated and
.
,

r ev ived hi s e nergi e s at once but hi s strength failed a s ,

qu ickly when th e stimulu s w as remov ed .

 C R IM E AND PU N I S H MEN T 169

Za m eto v ,
l e ft alone sat fo r a long t ime i n the s ame pl ace
, ,

plunged in thought Raskolnikov had unwittingly wo rked a

.

r evo lutio n i n hi s b rai n o n a certai n po int and had made up

his mind fo r h im conclu sively .

“
Ilya Petrov itch is a b lo ckhead h e decided , .

Raskolniko v had hardly opened the doo r o f the r estaurant

when he stumbl ed against Ra z u m ihin o n th e step s They .

d id not s e e e ach othe r till they almo st knocked against each

othe r F o r a moment they stood lo oking each o ther u p a n d
.

down Ra z u m ihin w a s greatly a stounded th en anger real

.
, ,

anger gl eamed fie rcely i n hi s eye s

”
.

“
S o her e you are ! he shout e d at the t o p o f hi s vo ice
’
you r an away from you r bed ! And h ere I v e been looking
fo r you under the so fa ! We went up to the gar ret I .

almo st beat N a s ta s ya on you r account And he re h e i s afte r .

all Ro dya ! What i s the me aning o f it ? Tell m e the wh o l e

.

truth ! C on fes s ! D o you hear ? ”

“ ’
It means that I m si ck to death o f you all and I want to
”
b e alone Ra skolnikov answe red calmly .
,

Alone ? When you are not abl e to walk when you r face ,

i s as white as a sheet and you ar e gaspi ng f o r b reath ! Idiot !

What hav e you b een doi ng in the Palai s de C rystal ?
O w n up at once !
”
“ ”
Let m e go ! said Raskolnikov and tr i ed to pass him .

T hi s w a s too mu ch fo r Ra z u m ihin ; h e gripped him fi rmly

by the shoulde r .

“
Let you go ? Yo u dare tell me to let you go ? D o yo u
’
know what I ll do with yo u di rectly ? I ll pick you up ti e ’
,

you up i n a bundl e carry you home under my arm and lock

”
,

you u p !
“
Li sten Ra z u m ihin
, Raskolnikov b e g an quietly appar
, ,
“
entl y calm — can t y o u s e e that I don t w ant you r b e n ev o
~
’ ’

lence ? A stran g e desi r e y o u hav e to showe r b enefi ts o n a

man who cur ses them w h o feel s them a bu rden i n fact !
,

Why did yo u seek me ou t at the b e g i nnin g o f my i llnes s ?

M aybe I wa s v er y g lad to di e D idn t I tell yo u pl a inly
.
’

enou g h to d a y th at y o u were torturing me that I w a s

-
,

sick o f you ! Y o u s eem to want to to rtu re peopl e ! I assu re

you that all that i s seriou sly hindering my recovery becau se ,

it s c o ntinu ally i rritating me You s a w Z o ss im o v went awa y

’
.
17 0 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY

j u st now t o av o id i r r itating me Y ou l eav e m e al o n e too fo r .

,
’

goo dne s s s ake ! What r ight hav e you i ndeed t o keep m e b y , ,

’
fo r ce ? D on t you s e e that I am i n po s se ssio n o f al l m y
faculti es now ? How how c an I p ersu ade you n o t to p ers e ,

cute m e wi th y o u r ki ndne s s ? I may b e ungrate ful I m ay ,

’
b e mean o nly let m e b e fo r G o d s s ake let m e b e ! Le t
, , ,

m e b e l et m e b e
,

H e b egan calmly gl o ating b e fo rehand ove r the ven omou s

,

ph rase s h e was ab ou t t o utte r but fini shed pantin g fo r , ,

b reath i n a frenzy a s h e had b een with Lu zhin

, , .

Ra z u m ih in stoo d a moment thou ght and l et hi s hand d r o p

”
, .

“
Wel l go to hell then h e s aid gently and thought f u lly
”
, , .

“
S t ay h e ro ar ed as R a sk o lniko v wa s about t o m o v e Li ste n
, , .

to me Let m e tell yo u th at you are al l a set o f b abbl ing

.
, ,
’
po sing idiots ! I f yo u v e any l ittle t roubl e you b r o od o ve r
i t l ike a hen o ve r an e gg And yo u are pl agi ari sts even in .

th at ! Ther e i sn t a si gn o f indep end ent li fe i n yo u ! Yo u

’

’
ar e made o f sp ermaceti o intment and you v e ly m ph i n yo u r
veins i nstead o f blood I don t beli ev e i n any o n e o f yo u ! .
’

In any ci rcumstance s th e fi rst thing fo r al l o f you i s to b e

u nlike a human being !
”
S top ! h e cri ed with r edoubl ed f u ry ,

noti ci n g th at Raskolnikov w a s agai n making a mo v ement

“
h ear m e o u t ! Y o u kno w I m hav ing a hou s e warming thi s ’
-

’
ev ening I dare say they v e ar riv ed b y now but I le ft my
, ,

u ncl e ther e— I j u st r an in— to r ece iv e the gu ests And i f yo u .

we ren t a fo ol a co mmo n fo ol a pe r fect fool i f yo u we r e

’
, , ,

a n o riginal i nstead o f a t r ansl ati o n yo u s e e Ro dya I , ,

’
r eco gni s e y o u r e a cl ev er fell o w but yo u r e a fool
’
and i f ,
-

’
you w eren t a fo o l you d co me round to me thi s ev ening
’

i nste ad o f w earing out you r boot s i n the street ! S i n ce you

’
h av e gone o u t th er e s n o h elp fo r i t ! I d give you a snu g
,
’

e asy chai r my l andlady h as o ne

,
a c u p o f te a c o m ,
~

p any . O r yo u cou ld l i e on the so fa a ny way you would

—

b e w ith u s Z o s s im o v w ill b e the re to o

. W i ll yo u .

c o me ?
“
No
”
.

R rubb i sh ! Ra z u m ihin
- shouted o u t o f p ati ence How ,
.

d o you know ? You can t answe r fo r you rs el f ! Yo u ’

do n t know anything abo u t it

’
Thou sand s o f times I v e .

f o ugh t t o o t h and n a i l w i th p e o pl e and ra n b a ck t o the m

1 72 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

flashing a s though o n fi r e in the l ast r ays o f th e s etting sun ,

at th e darkening wate r o f th e c anal and the w ater s eemed ,

to catch hi s attention At last red ci rcl es flash ed b e fo r e h i s .

eyes th e hou s es seemed mov ing th e p assers by th e canal

, ,
-
,

b anks th e carr i ages al l danced b e fo r e hi s eyes Su ddenly

, ,
.

h e started s av ed agai n p erhap s f rom swo oning by an u n

,

canny and hideou s s ight H e b ecame aware o f som e o n e .

standing o n th e right sid e o f him ; h e looked and s a w a tall

woman w ith a ke rchi e f o n h e r h ead w ith a l ong yel low , , ,

wasted face and r ed su nken eyes S h e w a s looking straight .

at him but obvi ou sly s h e saw nothing and recogni sed no o n e

,
.

S u ddenly s h e l eaned her r ight h and on th e parap et l i fted h e r ,

r ight leg o ve r th e r ai l ing then h er l e ft and thr ew he rs el f into ,

th e canal Th e fi lthy w ate r p arted and swal lowed u p it s

.

v i ctim fo r a moment but an i nstant l at er the d rowning ,

woman flo at ed to the su r face mov ing slowly w ith th e cu r ,

rent h e r h ead and l egs i n the w ate r h er ski rt i nflated l ik e a

, ,

b alloo n ov e r b ack
”
.

“
A wo man d rowning ! A woman d rowning ! shouted
doz ens o f vo i ces ; p eopl e r an up b oth b ank s w er e th ronged ,

w ith sp e ctato rs on th e b ridge p eopl e crowd ed about Raskol

,

n ik o v p re ssing u p behind him

”
.
,
“
M ercy o n u s ! it s o u r A fro s inya ! a woman cri ed t ear
’

“
ful ly clo s e by M e rcy ! s av e her ! kind p eopl e pu l l her out
”
.
,
“
A bo at a b o at ! was shouted i n the crowd B ut the r e
,
.

w a s no n eed o f a b o at ; a p ol i cem an r an d own th e steps to th e

canal thr ew o ff hi s great co at and hi s boots and ru shed into
,

th e water I t w a s easy t o r each h e r : s h e flo at ed withi n a

.

coupl e o f yard s fro m th e steps h e cau ght hol d o f her clothe s ,

w ith hi s right h and and with h i s l e ft s ei zed a pol e whi ch a

comrade h eld ou t to h im ; th e d rowning woman was pul l ed
ou t at o nce Th ey l aid he r o n the granite pavement o f the
.

emb ankment S h e soon r ecov e red consci ou sness r ai sed he r

.
,

h ead s a t u p and b egan sneez ing and cou gh ing stup idly w ip
, ,

ing he r wet d ress w ith he r hands S h e s aid nothing

”
. .

’ ’
S h e s d ru nk her sel f o u t o f he r s ens es the same woman s ,

v o ic e wai l ed at her s ide O u t o f h er s enses Th e othe r day . .

s h e t ri ed to h ang he rsel f w e cu t h e r down I r an ou t to th e , .

s h 0 p j u st now l e ft my l ittl e gi rl t o look after h e r— and her e

,
’
sh e s in tr o ub l e again A neighb o u r gentleman a neighbo u r , , ,
 C R IM E A ND P UN IS H ME NT 1 73

we live clo s e b y the s econd hou s e from the end s e e

, ,

yonde r .

The crowd b rok e up the po lice still r em ained round the ,

woman some one mentioned th e poli ce station

,
Rasko l .

n ik o v looked o n with a strange s ensation o f indi ffe rence and

“
ap athy H e felt disgusted N o that s lo athsom e water ’

”
.
.
,

i t s not good enough h e muttered to himsel f N othing

’
.
,
”
will com e o f it he added n o u s e to w ait What a b out the .
, ,

pol i ce o ffi ce And w hy i sn t Z a m e t o v at the pol i ce ’

’
o ffi ce ? T h e police o ffice i s op en till ten o clo ck He .

tu rned h i s b ack to the r ail in g and look ed a b out him .

“ ”
V ery well then ! he s aid resolut ely ; h e moved fro m the
b ridge and walked in th e di rection o f the p oli ce o ffi ce H is .

heart felt ho llow and empty H e d id not want to think . .

E ven hi s dep ression had p ass ed ther e w as not a trace now ,

“
o f the ene rgy with which he had s e t out to make an end o f
it all ” C omplete ap athy su cceeded to it .

”
.

“
Well it s a way out o f it he thou g ht walkin g s lowly
,
’

, ,
“ ’
and li stlessly alon g th e canal bank Anyway I ll m ake an .

end fo r I w ant to
,
B ut i s it a w a y o u t ? What do es
.

i t matte r ! There ll b e the squ are yard o f sp ace— ha l B ut

’

wh at an end ! I s it really the end ? S hall I tell them o r not ?

Ah damn ! H o w ti red I am ! I f I cou ld find s ome
wher e to s it o r l i e down soon ! What I am mo st ashamed o f
i s its b eing so stup id B ut I don t car e about th at eithe r ! ’

”
.

’
What i dioti c i dea s come int o one s h ead .

T o reach the police o f fi c e h e had to go strai ght forward

—

and take th e s econd tu rning to the l e ft I t was o nly a few .

p aces aw ay But at th e fi rst tu rning h e stopp ed and a fte r a

.
,

minute s thought tu rned into a side st reet and w ent two

’
,

streets ou t o f hi s way po ssib ly w ithout any obj ect o r p o s

, ,

s ib l y to del ay a minute and gain ti me H e walked looking .

,

at th e ground ; su ddenly som e one seemed to whisper i n hi s

e ar ; he l i fted hi s head and s a w th at he w a s standin g at the
v ery gate o f th e hou se H e had not passed it h e had not .
,

been near it since th a t evening An overwh elming u nac .

,

counta b le p rompting d rew h im o n H e w ent into the hou s e .

,

p ass ed throu g h th e gateway then into the fi rst entrance on ,

th e ri g ht and b egan mounting the familiar stai rcas e to the

,

fou rth sto rey Th e narrow steep stai rcase was v ery dark
.
, .
174 F Y OD O R D O S T O EV S K Y

H e st o pp ed at each l anding and looked r o und h im with

cu ri os ity ; on th e fi rst l anding th e f ramewo rk o f the w indow
h ad b een taken out “
Th at w asn t s o th en ” h e thought ’
.
.
,

H e r e w a s th e fl at o n the s econd sto rey where N ikolay and

“
D mitr i h ad been wo rking It s shut u p and the doo r n ewly .
’

p ainted S o it s t o let Then th e th i rd sto rey and th e

’

”
. .

fou rth . Here ! H e w a s pe rp l exed to fi nd the doo r o f the

fl at wid e op en The r e we r e m en th er e h e coul d h ear vo ices ;
.
,

he had not exp ect ed th at A fter b rie f h esitation h e m o u nted .

the last stai rs and w ent into th e fl at I t too w a s being done .

, ,

up ; ther e we r e wo rkmen i n it Thi s s eem ed to amaz e hi m ; .

h e someho w fanci ed that h e would find ev e rything as h e

l e ft i t ev en p erhap s th e co rp s es i n th e sam e pl ace s o n
,

th e floo r And no w b are wall s no fu rnitu re ; i t seemed

.
, ,

strange .

H e walked to th e window and s a t down o n th e w indow si ll .

Th ere w er e two wo rkm en bo th young fel lows but one mu ch , ,

younge r th e oth e r Th ey we re p ap ering the wal l s with a new

.

whit e p ape r cove red w ith l i lac flowe rs i nste ad o f th e o l d , ,

di rty yellow o n e Rasko lnikov fo r som e r eason f elt ho rribly

, .

annoye d by thi s H e lo oked at the new p ap e r w ith d islike

.
,

a s though h e f elt so r ry to h av e i t all so ch anged Th e .

wo rkmen had obvi o u sly stayed b eyond thei r t im e and now

they we r e hu r ri edly roll ing up th ei r p ap e r and getting ready
to go home They took no noti ce o f Ra sk o l n ik o v s coming
.
’

i n ; th ey we r e talking Raskolniko v folded hi s arms and .

l i stened .

“
S he come s to m e i n th e mo rning s aid th e e lde r t o the
‘
,
“
you nge r v ery e arly al l d re ss ed up Why a re you p re en
‘
.
, ,

ing and p rinkin g ? s ays I I am r eady to do anythi ng to

’
.

pl eas e you Tit V a s s il it c h That s a w a y o f go ing on ! And ’

”
,

s h e d ressed up a r egu lar fashion book !

“
And what i s a fashio n book ? ” the younge r o n e ask ed .

H e o b viou sly r egarded th e othe r as an autho rity .

“
A fash i on b ook i s a l ot o f p ictu re s colou red and they , ,

com e to th e t ai lor s h er e ev ery Su nd ay by p o st fro m ab r o ad , ,

to sho w folks h ow to dress th e m al e s ex as wel l as th e ,

femal e . They r e p i ctu res ’

Th e gentl emen a re generally .

’
w earing fu r co ats and as fo r th e l adies fl u ffl e s t hey r e ’

b ey o nd any t hing y ou can f ancy .

17 6 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

At th e e n trance s eve ral peopl e wer e standing star ing a t ,

th e p asser s b y ; th e two po rter s a p easant wo man a man i n

-
, ,

a long c o at and a few o the r s Rasko lnikov w ent str aight u p .

to them
”
.

“
What do you w ant ? asked one o f th e porter s .

H av e you been to th e police —o ffi c e

“ ’
I v e j u st b een the re W hat do yo u want ? ”
”
.

I s i t op en ?

O f cou r se
”
”
.

I s the a ssi stant the re ?

H e w a s the r e fo r a time What do yo u want ? ” .

Raskolniko v m ade n o r eply bu t stood be side them lo st in ,

thou gh t
“
H e s been to lo ok at th e fl at
’
s aid the elde r w o rkman , ,

coming fo rward
”
.

“
Whi ch fl at ?

Wh e re w e ar e at w o rk ‘Why hav e you w a sh ed away

‘
.

’ ’
?
the blo od says h e There h as b een a mu rde r he re says
‘ ,
.

’ ’
h e and I v e come to t ake it And h e b egan r inging at the
‘
.

’
be ll all but b roke i t C o me to th e pol ice stati on s ays he
‘ ,
”
,
.
,
’ ’ ’
I l l tell you eve rythi ng the re H e wouldn t le av e u s . .

The po rte r lo oked at Raskolnikov frowning and pe rplexed

”
.
,
“
Wh o a r e you ? h e shouted as imp res siv ely a s he could .

I am Ro dio n Ro m a n o v itc h Raskolnikov fo rme rly a s tu ,

d ent I l iv e in S h il s hou se not fa r from h e re flat N umb er

’

”
, , ,

1 4 ask the po rte r h e know s me

, Raskolniko v said all thi s
,
.

i n a lazy d reamy v oic e not turni ng r ound but looking in

, , ,

t e n t l y i nto th e darkening stre et

”
.

“
Why hav e you b een t o th e fl at ?
To look at it ”
”
.

Wh at i s the r e to l o ok at ?
Take h i m straight to the po lic e stati on the man i n t he ,

l ong co at j e rked i n ab ruptly .

Raskolni kov looked int ently at h im o v e r h i s shoulde r and

s aid i n th e same s low l azy to ne
”
,
“
C om e along .

Ye s take hi m th e man went o n mo r e confidently Why

”
.
, ,

w a s h e go ing i nto tha t wha t s in hi s m ind eh

’
?
, ,
“
H e s n o t d runk but God know s what s the matter w it h
’ ’

”
,

h im mutte r ed th e w o rkman
, .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H M E N T 77

B ut wh at do you want ” the po rter shouted again b e

?
,
“
ginning to get angry i n earnest — Why a re yo u hanging
’
about ?
“
You funk th e police station then ? ” s aid Raskolnikov
j ee ringly
”
.

“
H o w funk it ? Why ar e you hanging about ?
”
H e s a ro gu e ! shouted the peasant woman
’

”
.

Why waste time t alking to hi m ? cr ied the other po rte r ,

a huge peasant in a fu ll open co at and with keys o n hi s b elt

”
.

“
Get along ! H e i s a rogu e and no mi stake Get along ! .

And sei zing Raskolnikov by the shoulder he flung him into

th e stre et H e lu rched fo rward but r ecove red hi s fo o ting
.
, ,

looked at the sp ectato rs i n s ilence and w alked away

‘ ”
.

Strange man ! ob se rved th e wo rkman .

Ther e ar e str ange folks about nowadays s aid the woman , .

Y o u should hav e taken him to the p olice station al l the

”
s ame sai d the m an i n the long co at
, .

“
B etter h av e nothing to do with him decided the bi g ,
“
porte r . A r egul ar ro gu e ! Ju st wh at h e w ants you may ,
’
b e su re but once take him up you wo n t get r id o f him
”
.
, ,

We know the so rt !
“
Shal l I go the re o r not ? ” thought Raskolnikov standing ,

i n th e middl e o f the tho rough fa re at the cro ss ro ads and ,

h e looked about him as though exp ecting from some one a

,

deci siv e wo rd B ut no sound c ame al l was de ad and sil ent

.
,

l ike th e stone s o n whi ch he walked dead to him to hi m , ,

alone . All at once at th e end o f the str eet two hundred ,

yards away i n th e gath ering du sk he saw a crowd and

,

heard talk and shouts I n the m iddl e o f th e crowd stood

.

a ca rri age A l ight gl eamed i n the middle o f the stree t .

”
.

“
What i s it ? R askolnikov tu rned to th e ri g ht and went u p
to th e crowd H e seemed to clutch at everyth ing and smil ed
.

coldly when he r ecogni sed it fo r h e had fully m ade up h is

,

mind to go to the poli ce station and knew that i t would

all soon b e ov e r .
 C HAP T E R V II

elegant ca r r i age s t o o d i n the m iddl e o f the r o ad w ith

a p ai r o f sp ir ited grey ho r s es ; the re was n o o n e in it ,

and th e co achman h ad go t o ff hi s b o x and sto o d by ;

the h o rse s w e re b eing held by th e b ridle A mas s o f pe o .

p l e had gath ered round the p o l ice standing i n f ro nt O n e o f

, .

the m held a li ghted l ante rn which h e wa s t u rning o n some

thing lyin g clo se t o th e whee ls E v ery o n e w a s t alkin g
.
,

shouting excl aiming ; t h e c o achman s eemed a t a l o s s and

,

kep t r ep eating :
,
What a mis fo rtun e ! Good L o rd wh a t a mi s fo rt u n e P ,

Raskol nikov pu sh ed hi s w ay i n as far as h e could and ,

su cceeded at l ast i n s eeing t he o bj ec t o f t h e c o mm o ti o n and

intere st O n th e gro und a man w h o had b een ru n o v e r l ay
.

apparently u nconsciou s and cov er ed w ith blo o d ; h e wa s v e ry

,

badly d re ssed but n ot like a w o rkman B l o o d w a s fl ow ing

, .

from hi s head and face ; h i s face w a s cru shed mutil a t ed and ,

di sfigu red H e was ev idently b adly i n j u red

”
. .

“
M e rci ful h e av en ! w ai led the co achman wha t m o r e ,
’
c o uld I do ? I f I d b een d riv ing fast o r h ad n ot sh o uted to
him bu t I was g o in g qu ietly no t i n a hu r r y E v e ry o n e
, , .

coul d s e e I w a s go ing alo ng j u st l ike ev eryb o dy els e A .

d runken man can t w alk straight w e al l k n o w

’
, I sa w .

hi m c ro s sing th e st reet staggerin g and almo s t falling I

, .

sh o uted agai n and a s econd and a thi rd time then I h el d th e ,

ho rse s i n but he fel l s t r ai ght u nde r thei r feet ! E ithe r h e

,

did i t o n pu rpo s e o r h e w a s v e ry tipsy The ho r se s a re.

young and re ady to tak e f right t hey s t arted h e ,

screamed tha t m ad e the m w o r s e That s ho w i t hap ’

”
.

pened !
“ ’
Th a t s j u s t how i t was a v o ice in t h e cr o wd c o n
,

fi rmed .

“
H e sh o uted th a t s t r u e h e sh o uted t h r e e t ime s a n o th e r
’
, , ,

v o ice decla red .

“
Thre e time s i t was w e all h e ard i t sh o uted a third
, , .

178
18 0 F Y ODO R DO S TO EV S KY

from window t o stov e and b ack again w ith h e r arms folded ,

ac ro s s h e r chest talking to her sel f and coughing O f l ate

, .

s h e had b egu n to talk mo r e th an eve r to he r eldest gi rl ,

Po lenka a chi ld o f ten w h o though ther e was mu ch she did

, , ,

not u nderstand unde rstood v e ry w ell that he r mothe r needed

,

h e r and s o always w atched he r with he r b ig cl ev er eyes and

,

st rov e he r utmost to app ear to u nderstand Thi s time .

Pol enk a was u ndress ing h e r l ittl e b rothe r w h o had b een ,

u nwel l al l d ay and was going to b ed The boy was w aiting .

fo r h er to t ak e o ff hi s shi rt whi ch had to b e w ash ed at ,

n ight H e w as s itting straight and motionl es s on a chai r

.
,

with a silent s er iou s face w ith h is l egs str etched out straight
, ,

b e fo r e him— h eel s togethe r and to es tu rn ed out .

H e was li stening to what hi s m othe r was saying to h i s

s iste r s itting p er fe ctly sti ll with p outing l ip s and wide op en
,
-

eye s j u st as al l go od l ittl e boys h av e to s it wh en they ar e

,

u ndr essed to go to b ed A l ittle gi rl still you nger d re ssed

’

.
, ,

lit erally in rags sto od at th e s creen waiting fo r h er tu rn

, , .

Th e doo r o n to th e st ai rs w a s op en to reliev e them a l ittl e

from the cl ouds o f tob acco smoke which flo ated i n from th e
o ther ro oms and b r o ught o n long ter ribl e fi ts o f coughing
i n th e poo r consu mptive woman K at eri na I vanovna s eemed
, .

to hav e grown ev en thinne r du ring that w eek and the heavy

fl u sh on he r face w a s b righte r than eve r .

“ ’
You woul dn t bel i ev e you can t imagine Polenka sh e ,
’

, ,
“
s aid walking ab o u t the ro om what a h appy luxu riou s l i fe
, ,
’
w e had in my p ap a s hou s e and how thi s drunkard ha s
b rou ght m e and w il l b ring you all to ru in ! Pap a was a
, ,

civ i l colonel and o nly a st ep fro m b eing a gov e rno r ; so that

‘
eve ry o n e w h o came to s e e h i m s aid We lo ok upon you ,

I v an M ih a il o v it ch as o u r gov e rn o r !
, Wh en I when ’

“
s h e coughed v i ol ently O h cu r sed l i fe s h e cri ed , , , ,

cl earing h er thro at and p res sing he r hands to he r b r east ,

“
when I when at the l ast bal l at the m arshal s ’

P rincess B e z z e m e l n y s aw me— who gav e m e the bl es s

ing when you r father and I we re mar ri ed Pol enka— s h e
‘
asked at once I sn t that th e p retty gi rl who danced th e sh awl
’
,

’
dance at th e b reaking up ( You mu st mend that te ar you
.
,

mu st t ak e y o u r n eedl e and darn it as I showed you o r tomor

”
,

r o w cough cough c o ugh h e wi l l m ake the h o le b igger

—
,
—
, ,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 18 1

she articul ated w ith e ffo rt ) P rince S ch e g o l sk o y a k am .

,

m e rj u n k e r had j u st come from P et ers b u rg then

,
he
danced th e m azu rka w ith me and wanted to make me an o ffer
next day ; bu t I thanked him i n fl attering expr es sions and
told him that my heart had long b een another s That other ’
.

was you r fathe r Po lya ; pap a w a s fear ful ly angry

,
.

I s the wat er r eady ? Giv e me the shi rt and the sto ckings ! ,
” “
Lida s aid s h e to the youngest o n e you mu st manag e with
, ,

o u t you r chemi se to night and l ay you r sto ckings out

-

with i t I ll w ash them togeth er H o w i s it that

’
.

d ru nken v agab ond doesn t com e i n ? H e has wo rn hi s shi rt ’

t il l it look s l ike a di shclout h e has to rn it to r ags ! I d do ,

’

i t all togethe r s o a s not t o hav e to wo rk t w o n ights running !

,
’
O h dear ! ( C ough cough cough cough ! ) Again ! What s
”
, , , ,

this ? s h e cr ied noticing a crowd in th e passage and th e

,

men w h o we r e pushing iri t o h er room carrying a bu rden

”
.
,
“
What i s it ? What are they b r inging ? M ercy o n u s !
“ ”
Wher e a re we to put him ? asked the pol iceman lo o king ,

round when M a rm e l a d o v u nco nsciou s and covered with ,

b lood had b een car ried i n

, .

“
O n th e so fa ! Put him st raight o n th e so fa w ith h i s
”
,

h ead thi s way Raskolnikov sh owed him

”
.
,
“
Ru n ov er in th e road ! D runk ! some o n e shouted in th e
p assage .

K ate rina Ivanovn a stoo d tu rning wh ite and gasp ing fo r ,

b reath The children wer e ter rified Littl e Lida scr eamed
. .
,

ru sh ed to Polenk a and clutched at her t remb ling all ove r , .

H av ing l ai d M a rm e l a d o v down Rasko lniko v fl ew to ,

K aterina I vanovna
”
.

“
F o r God s sake b e calm don t b e fright ened ! he s aid
’ ’
, ,
“
speaking qu i ckly h e w a s cross ing the ro ad and was ru n
,

ov er b y a carri age don t b e frightened h e wil l come to I

,
’
, ,

told them to b rin g him her e I v e b een h ere already ’

? H e w ill come to ; I l l pay ! ”

you rememb er ’

“ ”
H e s done it thi s t ime ! K ater ina I vanovna cried despai r
’

in g l y and she ru shed to h e r hu s b and .

Raskolniko v noti ced at once that sh e was not o ne o f thos e

wom en w h o swoon e asily Sh e instantly pl aced unde r the .

’
lu ckl es s m an s head a pillow whi ch n o on e had thought o f ,

and b egan u ndressing and examining him S he kept he r .

18 9
3 F Y OD O R D O S TO EV SKY

h ead f o rgetting he rs el f b iting h e r t r embl ing l ip s and s t i fl ing

, ,

t h e s cream s whi ch w er e r e ady to b reak fr o m her .

Rasko lniko v m eanwh il e i ndu ced som e o n e to ru n fo r a

do cto r Th e re wa s a do cto r i t app eared next do o r bu t one
. , , .

“
I v e s ent fo r a do cto r
’ ” h e k ept assu ring K at erina,
“ ’
I vanovn a d o n t b e u neasy I ll p ay H aven t you water ? ,
’
.
’

and giv e m e a napkin o r a towel anything as q u ick a s , ,

you can H e i s inj u r ed but not kill ed b el i ev e me

”
. .
, ,

We shall s ee wh at the do cto r s ays !

K at erin a I vanovn a r an to the window ; there o n a b roken ,

chai r i n th e co rne r a l arg e e arth enwar e b asin ful l o f w ate r

,
’
h ad b een sto od i n re adiness fo r wash ing h er child ren s and
,

hu sb and s l in en tha t night

’
Thi s w ashing w a s don e by
.

K aterin a I v anovn a at nigh t at l east twi ce a w eek i f n o t ,

o ftene r F o r th e fami ly h ad com e to su ch a p as s that they

.

w er e p r actically w ithout change o f l inen and K at erin a ,

I vanovna coul d not endu r e u ncl eanl ines s and r ath er th an s e e ,

d i rt in th e hou se s h e p r e fer red t o w e ar h ers el f o u t a t night

, ,

w o rking b eyond h e r strength wh en th e r est we r e asl eep s o ,

a s to get the w e t l inen hu ng o n a l ine and dry by the morning .

S h e took up the b asi n o f w ate r at Ra sk o l n ik o v s r e qu est but ’

,

almo st fel l down with h er bu rd en B ut th e l atte r h ad al ready .

su cce eded in fi nding a towel wetted it and b egu n washing ,

t h e b lo od o ff M a rm e l a do v s face ’
.

K ate rin a Iv anov na stood b y b reath in g pain fully and ,

p re s sin g h er h and s to h er b r e ast S h e was i n n eed o f atten .

ti o n hers el f Raskolnikov b egan t o r eal i se that h e m ight

.

h ave m ad e a mist ak e i n h av ing the inj u red man b rou gh t h e re .

Th e pol i cem an too sto o d i n hesitation

”
.
, ,
“
P o l enka cri ed K aterin a I v anovna ru n t o S oni a m ake
, , ,

h aste I f you do n t fi nd he r at h om e l eav e wo rd th at h er

’
.
,

fathe r h a s b een run ov e r and th a t s h e i s t o c o m e h e re at

o nce when s h e com es in Ru n Pol enk a ! the re pu t o n
”
.
, ,

th e sh awl
”
.

“
Ru n you r fast est ! c ri ed the l ittl e boy o n t h e chai r sud
d e n l y a ft er whi ch h e r el ap sed i nto th e sam e dumb r igidity
, ,

w ith rou nd eye s hi s heels th ru st f o rward and hi s toes S p r ead

,

ou t .

M eanwhi l e th e ro om h ad b ecome so fu l l o f p eopl e th at you

c o u ldn t h ave dropp ed a p in The p o l ic e m en l e ft all except
’
.
,
18 4 F Y ODO R D O ST OEV S K Y

who s l aughing b ehind th e do o r at thi s moment

L e b e z ia tn ik o v ,
’

a l au g h and a cry o f ‘
they ar e at it again a s i n fact
’

( w
a u d ible at th e doo r ) s o I shal l always call you Amal ia
L u dw ig o v n a though I fai l to u nder stand w h y yo u d i sl ike
,

that name You can s ee fo r you r sel f what has h appened to

.

S emyo n Z a h a ro v it ch ; h e i s dying I b eg you to clo s e th at .

do o r at once and t o admit no one Let him at l east di e i n .

p eace O r I warn you th e Gove rno r G ene ral himsel f sh all

.
-
, ,

b e i n fo rmed o f you r condu ct t o mo r ro w The p r ince knew -

.

m e a s a gi rl ; h e r ememb ers S emyo n Z a h a r o v it c h w el l and

has o ften b e en a b en e facto r to him E very on e know s th at .

S emyon Z a h a r o v itc h had many f ri end s and p rotecto r s .

whom h e ab andon ed h ims el f f ro m an honou rabl e p r ide ,

knowing hi s u nhappy weaknes s but now ( sh e po int ed to ,

Rask o lnikov ) a gener o u s young man h as co me to o u r as si st

ance who h as wealth and conne ctions and who m S emyon
,
‘
Z a h a r o v it c h h as known f ro m a child Y o u m ay r est as .

su red Am ali a Lu d w igo v n a

,

A ll thi s wa s utte red with ext reme r ap idity getting qu i cker ,

and qu icke r but a cou gh suddenly c u t short K ate ri na I van

,
’
o v n a s e loquence At that i nstant the dyi ng m an r e cove red
.

co nsciou snes s and utter ed a gro an ; s h e r an to him Th e in .

j u red man opened hi s eye s and w ith o ut r e cognitio n o r unde r

standing gaz ed a t Raskolniko v w ho w a s b ending ov er him .

H e drew deep slow p ai nful b re aths ; b lood ooz ed at the co r

, ,

n e r s o f hi s m o uth and d rop s o f p er spi r ation came out on hi s

f orehead N o t r e cogni sing Rasko lniko v h e b egan lo oking
.
,

r ound u neas ily K ate ri na Ivanovna lo oked at him w ith a

.

s a d but ster n f ace and t ea rs tri ckled from he r eye s

, .

M y God ! H is whol e che st i s crushed ! H o w h e i s bl e ed

“
i ng s h e s aid i n de spai r
,
We mu st take o ff h i s cloth e s
. .

Tur n a l ittl e S emy o n Z a h a r o v itc h i f you can she cried to

, , ,

him .

M a rm e l a do v re cogni sed he r .

“ ”
A p ri est he articulated hu skily .
,

K at er ina Ivano vna w alked to th e window laid her head ,

agai nst th e wi ndow f rame and excl aimed i n de spai r :

“ ”
O h cu rs ed l i fe l
”
,
’
A pri e st the dying m an sai d again afte r a m o ment s
,

sil ence .
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 185

’
They ve gone fo r him K ate rina Ivanovna sh outed to ,

him ; h e ob eyed he r shout and w a s s ilent With s a d and .

tim id eyes he l o oked for her ; s h e retu rned and stood by hi s

pillow H e seemed a little e as ie r b ut not fo r long
.
, .

S oon hi s eye s re sted o n littl e Li da hi s favou rite who w a s , ,

shaking i n the co rner as though s h e we re i n a fit and staring

, ,

at him with her wonde ring childi sh eye s .

“
A — ah he signed towards he r uneasily H e wanted to
, .

say something
”
.

What now ? cri ed K aterina Ivanovna .

B are foot b are fo ot he muttered indi cating w ith f renzie d

, ,
’
eye s the child s bare feet .

“
B e silent K ateri na Ivano vna cri ed i r ritably you know
”
, ,

why s h e i s bar e footed .

“
Thank God the do cto r exclaimed Raskolnikov rel i eved
, , ,
.

The do cto r came in a p re cise l ittl e o l d m an a German look

, , ,

i ng about him m i stru st fu lly ; he went up to the si ck man ,

took hi s pul se car e fully felt h is head and w ith the help o f
,

K aterina I vanovna he u n b uttoned the blood stai ned shirt -

,

and b ared the i nj ur ed m an s che st I t w a s gashed crushed ’

.
,

and f ractu red seve ral r ibs o n the r ight s ide were b roken
,
.

O n the l e ft side j u st ove r the heart was a large sini ster

. , ,

looking yellowi sh b lack b rui se— a cruel ki ck from the ho rs e s

-
’

ho o f The do cto r frowned The poli ceman told him that h e

. .

wa s caught i n th e wheel and tu rned round with it fo r thi rty

yard s o n the road .

“
It s wo nder ful that h e has reco ve re d consci o usnes s the
’
,

do cto r whi spe red so ftly to Raskolniko v

”
.

“
What do you think o f him ? he asked
”
.

H e wi ll die immedi ately

”
.

“
I s ther e really no hop e ?

N o t the faintest ! H e i s at th e l ast gasp H is head i s

b adly i nj ur ed too Hm ,
I could b leed him i f you
l ike but it would b e u s el e s s H e i s bound to d i e within
”
.
,

the next five o r ten mi nute s

”
.

“
B etter bl eed him then .

I f yo u like B ut I w a r n y o u i t w il l b e per fectly

.

u seless ” .

At that mom ent othe r step s wer e he ard ; the crowd i n t h e

p assage parted and the p r ie st a l ittle grey o l d man appeare d
, , , ,
18 6 F Y OD O R D O ST OEV S K Y

i n th e doo rway be aring th e sacrament A p o li ceman h ad .

gone fo r him at the tim e o f th e accident The doct o r .

change d pl ace s w ith him exchanging gl ances w ith him , .

Raskolnikov b egged the doct o r to remai n a l ittl e whil e H e .

sh ru gged hi s sh o ulde rs and remained .

All stepp ed b ack Th e co n fe ssi on was so o n ove r The

. .

dying m an p robab ly u nde rsto od l ittle ; he coul d only utte r

i ndi stinc t b roken s ounds K ateri na Ivan o vna took l ittle Lida
.
,

l i fted the boy f rom the chai r knelt down i n the corne r by the ,

stov e and m ad e the childre n kneel i n f ront o f he r The l ittl e .

gi rl w a s still t rembli n g ; b ut the boy kne eling o n hi s l ittl e ,

b are knees l i fted hi s hand rhythm i cal ly cro ssing hims el f

, ,

w ith p reci sio n and b owed down tou ching the doo r w ith hi s ,

fo rehead which s eemed to a ffo rd him especi al sati sfactio n

, .

K ater i na I vanovna b i t her lip s and held b ack he r t ear s ; s h e

p rayed t o o n o w a n d then pull ing st raight the boy s shi rt
, ,
’

,
’
and m anaged to co ve r the gi rl s b ar e shoulders with a ker
chi e f whi ch s h e to ok fr o m the chest without r i s ing f rom h e r
,

knee s o r ceasing to p ray M eanwhi l e the doo r f rom the i nne r

.

r oom s was opened i nqui sitively agai n I n th e pas sage t h e .

crowd o f sp ectat o r s f rom al l the flat s o n th e stai rcas e grew

dense r and dense r b ut they did not ventu re b eyo nd the
,

t hre shol d A singl e candl e end li ghted u p the s cene

.
-
.

At that moment Polenka for ced her w ay th rough th e crowd

at the d o o r S he cam e i n p anting from running s o f ast took
.
,

o ff he r ke r chie f looked fo r he r mothe r w ent u p to h er and

, ,
“
s aid S he s coming I m et he r i n the street
,
’
,
H e r m othe r .

m ad e h er kneel b e side he r .

Timi dly and no i seles sly a y o ung gi rl m ade he r way through

t he crowd and strange wa s h e r app ea rance i n that ro o m i n
, ,

th e midst o f w ant r ags death and despai r S he too w a s

, ,
.
, ,

i n r ags he r atti r e w as all o f the che ap est but decked o u t

, ,

i n gutte r fi ne ry o f a spe ci al stamp u nmi stakably b etr aying its ,

shame ful pu rpo se S oni a stopped sho rt i n the do orway a nd

.

l ooked about her b ew ildered uncons ciou s o f ev erything S he ,

.

fo rgot he r f ou rth hand gaudy s ilk dre ss s o u nseemly here

-
, ,

w ith its r i di cu lou s l ong t rain and her imme nse cri noline that ,

fi lled u p the whol e doo rway and her light colou red shoes and ,
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,

th e par asol she b rought w ith he r though i t w a s no u s e a t ,

night and th e ab surd r ound s t r aw hat w ith it s fl ari ng fl a m e

,
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and hi s only shi rt di rty and i n r ags and he d hav e fallen ’

asl eep l ike a log and I should have b ee n sou sing and r insing
,

till dayb reak w ashing hi s rags and the children s and then
,
’

d rying them by the wi ndow and a s soon as it w a s dayli ght

’
I shou ld hav e bee n darning them That s how I spend my .

ni ght s ! ’
What s th e u s e o f talking o f forgivene s s ! I
hav e fo rgiv en a s it i s ! ”
A te r ribl e hollow cough i nterrupted he r words She put .

h e r handke r chi e f to he r lip s and showed it to th e p rie st ,

p re ssing he r othe r h and to he r a ching che st The h a n d k e r .

chi e f wa s cov e red with bl ood Th e p ri e st bowed hi s h ead and .

s ai d nothing .

M a rm e l a d o v was i n the l as t agony ; h e did not t ake hi s

eye s o ff the face o f K ate rina I vanovna w h o was b ending ,

o ve r him again H e kept trying to s a y something to he r ; h e

.

began moving h i s tongu e wi th di fficulty and a rticulating

indi stinctly but K ate rina Iv anovna u nder standin g that
, ,

h e wanted to ask h e r fo rgiv enes s called per empto r ily to ,

h im
“
B e sil ent ! N o need ! I know what you want to s a y ! ”
And th e s i ck man w a s s i lent b ut at th e s am e i nstant hi s ,

wande ring eye s strayed t o the doo rway and he s a w S oni a .

Ti ll then he had not noti ced h er : s h e w a s standing i n the

shadow i n a corne r
”
.

“ ’ ’
Who s that ? Who s that ? he s ai d suddenly i n a thi ck
gaspi ng vo i ce i n agitation tu rning hi s eye s i n ho rro r toward s
, ,

the d o o r wher e hi s dau ghte r was standing and t rying to ,

s it u p
.

Li e dow n ! Li e do own cri ed K ate ri na Ivan o vna

-
.

With u nnatu ral stre ngth h e had succeeded i n p roppi ng

him sel f o n hi s elb ow H e l ooked wi ldly and fi xedly fo r som e
.

t im e o n hi s d aughte r a s though not r e cogni sing he r H e

,
.

had nev er see n her b e fo re i n su ch atti re S uddenly he re c .

o gn is e d he r cru shed and a shamed i n her hum il i ati on and

,

gaudy fi nery m eekly await ing h er tur n to say good bye t o

,
-

he r dying f ather H i s face showe d intense su ffe ring

”
. .

“
S oni a ! D aughter ! F orgiv e ! he cri ed and he t ri ed to ,

hold out hi s hand to he r but l o sing hi s b alance he fell o ff

, , ,

the so fa face downwards o n the floo r They ru shed to p i ck

,
.

h im up they put him o n the so fa ; b ut he wa s dyi ng S oni a

,
.
 C R IME A ND P U N ISH ME NT 18 9

with a fa i nt c ry ran up emb raced him and remained so

,

W ithout moving H e died i n her arm s

”
. .

“
H e s go t what he wanted K ate rina Ivanovna cri ed see
’

, ,
“
i n g her hu sband s dead b ody
’
Well what s to b e done now ?
.
,
’

H o w am I to bury him ! What can I give them to m o rrow -

”
to eat ?

Raskolniko v went u p to K aterina Ivanovna

”
.

“ “
K aterina I v anovna he began l ast week you r hu sb and
, ,

t old m e all hi s li fe and circumstances B el ieve m e h e .

,

spoke o f you with passionate rever ence F rom that evening .

,

when I learnt how devoted he was to you al l and how he

loved and respecte d yo u e spe cially K ate rina I vanovna i n , ,

spite o f hi s u nfortunate weaknes s from that evening we b e ,

cam e fri ends . Allow me now to do s o mething

to r epay my debt to my dead fri end H ere ar e twenty rou b le s .

I thi nk— and i f that can b e o f any as si stance to you then

-
,

I i n sho rt I wi ll com e again I wil l b e sure to com e

, ,

agai n I shall perhaps com e agai n to m or ro w

, ,
-
.

Good bye !
-

And he went qui ckly o u t o f the room squeezing hi s way ,

through the crowd to the stai rs B ut i n the cr owd h e s u d .

d e n ly j o stl ed against N ikodim F o m it c h w h o h ad heard o f ,

the accident and had com e to gi ve i nstru ctions i n p erson .

They had not m et s ince the scene at the pol ice stati on b ut ,

N ik o d im F o m it c h knew him instantly

”
.

“
Ah i s that you ? he asked him .

H e s dead answered Rasko lniko v

,
The d o c t o r and .

the pri est have b een all as it should have been D on t w o rry
, .
’

th e poo r w oman to o mu ch she i s i n consumption a s it i s

, .

Try and cheer he r up i f po ssible , yo u are a kind —hearted

man I know
,
he added with a smile looking straigh t ,

i n hi s face .

“
B ut you ar e sp attered with b lood ob se rved N ikodim ,

F o m it c h noticing i n the lampli ght some fresh stains on Ras

k o l n ik o v s w ai stcoat .

“ ’
Ye s I m cove red with blood Raskolniko v said w ith ,

a pe culi ar ai r ; then he smil ed nodded and went downstai rs , .

H e walked down slowly and delibe rately feve ri sh but not ,

con sciou s o f it enti rely ab so rb ed in a n e w ov e rwhelming

,

s ensation o f l i fe and stren gth that su rged u p suddenly w ithin

1 90 F Y ODO R DO S TOEV S KY

him Thi s sensatio n might b e compared to th at o f a man

.

condemned to death who h as suddenly b een p ard o ned H al f .

w ay down the stai rcase h e w a s o ve rtaken b y the p ri est o n

hi s w a y hom e ; Ra skol nikov l et him pa ss exchanging a s ilent ,

gre eti ng w ith him H e was j u st d escending the l ast step s

.

whe n h e he ard r ap id fo otstep s b ehind h im S om e o n e o ve r .

took him ; i t w a s P o l enka S he was running a fte r him cal ling

”
.
,
“
Wait ! wait !
H e turne d r ound S he w as at th e b o ttom o f the stai r case
.

and stopped sho rt a step abo v e him A dim li ght came i n .

f rom the ya rd Rasko lniko v c o uld di stingui sh the chi ld s

.
’

thi n but p retty l ittle face looking at him w ith a b ri ght child
,

i sh smi l e S he had ru n a fter him w ith a message whi ch sh e

.

w as evidently gl ad to gi ve
”
.

“
Tell m e what i s you r nam e ? and where do yo u l ive ?
,

s h e said hu rri edly i n a b re athl e s s voi ce .

H e laid b o th hands on her shoulde r s and looked at he r w i th

a so rt o f r aptur e It w a s su ch a j oy to him to look at he r
.
,

he cou ld not h av e s ai d why

”
.

Who sent you ?

S i ste r S oni a sent m e ans w e red t he girl smiling still mo re

, ,

b rightly .

“
I knew i t was s i ster S oni a s ent you .

M amma sent m e to o when si ster S oni a w a s s ending

‘ ,

m e m amm a cam e up too and sai d Ru n f ast P o lenka ’

”
.
, , , ,
“
D o you l ove si ste r S oni a ?

I lo ve he r m o re than any o n e Po lenka answe re d w ith a ,

pecul i a r e arnestness and her sm il e b e came grave r

”
.
,
“
And w i ll you lo ve m e ?
’
B y way o f answe r he s a w the little gi rl s face appro ach ing
him he r full lips naiv ely held out to ki ss him S uddenly he r
,
.

a rm s a s th in as sti cks he ld him tightly he r head r ested o n ,

hi s shoulde r and the lit t le gi rl wept so ftly p res sing he r face ,

against him .

“
I am so rry f o r f a t he r s h e said a m o men t l ate r r ai sing ,

h e r t ear stai ned face and b ru shing away the tear s w ith he r
-

hands “
It s nothing but m i s for tune s now
’ ” s h e added s u d
.
,

d e n l y w ith that peculi arly sedate ai r whi ch children t ry hard

t o assume when they want t o sp eak like gr o wn u p p eopl e -

”
.

“
D i d you r f ather l o ve you ?
1 99 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

by l et him wi n hi s b et ! Le t u s give him som e s a tis fa c

t io n too — no matte r ! S t rength strength i s wh at one wants
, , ,

yo u can get nothing w ithout it and str engt h must b e won

”
,
’
by strengt h that s what they don t know he added p r o udly
—
’

and s el f co n fi d e n tl y and h e w alked w ith flagging fo otsteps

-

f rom the b ri dge P r ide and s el f co n fi d e n c e grew c o nt in u a l l v

.
-

stronge r i n him ; he w a s b e com ing a di fferent man e very

moment What w a s it had happened to wo rk thi s r evol utio n
.

i n him ? H e did not know himsel f ; l ike a man catching at

‘
a st raw h e suddenly f elt that he too could live that the re
, , , ,

wa s stil l li fe fo r him that hi s l i f e had not di ed w ith th e o l d

,
’
woman P e rhap s he was i n too great a hur ry with hi s c o n
.

e lu si ons but h e di d not think o f that

‘ ‘
.
,

B ut I d id ask her to r em emb e r Thy s ervant R o di o n i n he r

“
p raye r s th e idea st ru ck him Well that was i n cas e
”
.
, ,

o f eme rgency h e added and l aughed himsel f at hi s b o yi sh

,

sally H e w a s i n the b e st o f S pi r its

. .

H e e asily found Ra z u m ihin ; the new lodge r w a s al r eady

’
known at P o tchin k o v s and th e p orte r at o nce showed him the
w ay . H al f —way upstai rs he could hear the noi se and ani
mated conve r sation o f a b i g gather ing o f p eople The doo r .

w a s w i de op en o n the stai r s ; he co uld hear exclamations and

’
d i s cu ssion Ra z iu m ih in s room w a s fai rly l arge ; the com
.

p any consi sted o f fi ft een p eopl e Raskol nikov stopped i n the .

’
entry whe re two o f th e landl ady s se rvants were b u sy b ehind
,

a s cree n w ith t w o s amo vars b ottl e s pl ates and di shes o f pi e

, ,
’
and s avou ri e s b rou ght up from the landlady s kitchen
,
.

Raskolnikov sent i n fo r Ra z u m ihin H e r an out deli ghted . .

At the fi rst glance it wa s app are nt that he had h ad a great

de al to drink and th o ugh no amount o f l iquo r made Razu
,

m i hin qu ite drunk thi s tim e he wa s pe rceptib ly a ffe cte d by it

”
.
,
“ “ ’
Li sten Raskolnikov h astened to s a y I v e only j us t
, ,
’
com e to tel l you you ve w o n you r b et and that no one r eally
’
know s what may not happen to him I can t com e i n ; I am .

s o w eak that I sh al l fall down di r e ctly And s o goo d eve .

ning and good bye ! C om e and s e e m e to mo r row

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.

“ ’ ’
D o vou kn o w what ? I ll s e e yo u home I f y o u s ay y o u re .

weak yoursel f you must ,

“
And you r vi sitor s ? Who is the cu rly headed o ne w h o ha s -

”
ju st p e ep ed o ut ?
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H M EN T 1 93

He ?
’
Goodne ss only knows ! S ome friend o f uncl e s I
“

expect o r p erhap s he has come without b eing i nvited

,
’
I l l l eave u ncl e with them he i s an i nvalu a b le pe rson p ity I , ,
’
can t i ntrod uce you to him now B ut confound them all .

now ! They wo n t notice m e and I need a littl e f re sh ai r

’
, ,
’
fo r you ve com e j ust in the nick o f tim e— another two mi nute s
and I should have com e to blows ! They ar e talking such a
l ot o f wi ld stu ff you simply can t imagine what m en ’

’ ’
w il l s a y ! Thou gh why shouldn t you imagine ? D o n t w e
’
talk nons ense ourselve s ? And l et them that s the way
”
to learn not to ! Wait a m inute I ll fetch Z o s s im o v ,
’
.

Z o s s im o v pounced upo n Raskolnikov almo st greedily ;

h e showed a sp eci al inte rest i n him ; soo n hi s face b right
ened .

“
Y o u mu st go to b ed at once he pronounced exam ini ng ,

the p atient as far as he could and take something fo r the ,

night Will you take it ? I got it r eady so me time ago

.

’
a powder .

Two i f yo u l ike answer ed Raskolnikov The powde r , .

wa s taken at o nce .

“
I t s a good thing you ar e taking him hom e ob served
’

,
“
Z o s s im o v to Ra z u m ih in —
w e shall s e e how he i s to mo rrow ~
,

to day he s not at all amis s : a conside ra b l e chan g e since the

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’

a fternoon Live and lear n .

“
D o you know what Z o s s im o v whi sp ered to m e when w e
wer e comi ng o u t ? ” Ra z u m ih in blurted o u t as soon a s they ,

we r e i n the str eet I wo n t tel l yo u everythi ng b rothe r

. .
’

, ,

b ecau se they are such fool s Z o s s im o v told m e to talk fre ely .

to you on the way and get you to t alk f reely to m e and ,

a fterwards I am to tell him ab out it fo r he s got a not ion i n ,

’

hi s head that you ar e mad o r clo s e on it O nly fancy ! .

’
I n the fi rst place you v e three tim es the b rains he has ; i n the
,

second i f you are not mad you needn t car e a hang that he
, ,
’

h a s got such a wild i de a ; and thi rdly that pie ce o f b ee f who se ,

sp ecialty i s surgery ha s gone m ad o n mental di seases and ,

w hat s b rought him to thi s conclu s ion a b out you was you r
’

”
conver sation to day with Z a m e t o v -

”
.

“
Z a m e t o v told you all a b out it ?

Ye s and h e did well N o w I u nder stand what i t all means

,
.

and s o doe s Z a m e t o v Well the fact i s Ro dya .

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’
t he point i s I am a l it t l e drunk now B u t t ha t s .

no m atte r the p oi nt is that thi s i dea you under

stand ? w as j ust b ei ng h atched in thei r b ra ins y ou under
s tand ? That i s no one v entu r ed to s a y it alo ud b ecau s e the
, ,

i dea i s to o a b su rd and e sp eci al ly s ince the ar rest o f that

’
p ai nte r that bubbl e s bu rst and gone fo r ev e r B ut why ar e
, .

they suc h fool s ? I gave Z a m e to v a b it o f a thrashing at the

’
tim e— that s b etween ou rselves b roth e r ; pl ease don t l et o u t ,
’

a h int that yo u know o f it ; I v e noti ced he i s a ti ckli sh ’

’
su b j ect ; i t wa s at Lu i s e Iv a n o v n a s B ut to day to day it s ’
.
-
,
-

al l cl ear ed up That Ilya Petrov itch i s at the bottom o f i t !

.

H e took advantage o f you r fai nting at the pol i ce stati on bu t ,

h e is asham ed o f i t him sel f now ; I know that

Rasko lniko v l i stened greedily Ra z u m ih in was drunk .

e nough t o talk to o fr eely .

I fai nted then b ecau se i t wa s s o cl o se and th e smel l o f

”
p ai nt s ai d Rasko lniko v .
,
“ ’
N o need to exp lai n that ! And i t wasn t the p ai nt o nly
the feve r had b een com ing o n f o r a mo nth ; Z o s s im o v t esti fi es
’
t o that ! B ut how cru shed that boy i s now yo u wouldn t
‘
b eli ev e ! I am not wo rth hi s l ittl e fi nger h e s ays You rs ’
,

.
,
,

h e means H e has good f eelings at times b rothe r B ut the

.
,
.

l esson the l es son you gave him t o day i n the Pal ai s de

,
-

C rystal that w a s too good f o r anything ! Yo u frightene d

,

him at fi rst you kn o w he nearly w ent i nto co nvu ls ions You

, ,

almo st convinced him agai n o f the truth o f all that hi deou s

nonsens e and then you suddenly— put o u t you r to ngu e at
‘
,

him : Th er e now what do you m ake o f it ? It was per fe ct !

,
’

H e i s cru shed annihi l ated now ! It wa s m aste rly by J ov e

, , ,
’
it s what they deserv e ! Ah that I wasn t ther e ! H e w as
’

h 0 pi ng to se e y o u aw fully P o r fi ry too w ants t o m ake y o u r .

, ,

a cqu ai ntance
Ah ! h e t oo b ut w hy did they pu t m e dow n a s
m ad ? ”
“
O h not mad I must hav e s ai d t o o mu ch b rothe r
,
.

What st ru ck him you see w as that o nly that subj ec t s e emed

, ,
’
t o i nter est you ; now i t s cl ear why i t did i nterest yo u ; know
i ng al l the ci rcum stance s and how that i r r itat ed you
and w orked i n with you r ill nes s I am a l ittle d runk ,

brothe r o nly co nfound him h e ha s so m e idea o f his o w n

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expected neve r thought o f them though the news that they

, ,

had started w er e on thei r w a y and would ar r ive imm edi ately

, ,

had b een repeated to him o nly that d ay ? They had sp ent that
hou r and a hal f plying N a s ta sya w ith qu estions S he w as stil l .

standing b e for e them and had tol d them everythi ng by now .

They we re b e side themselve s with alarm when they he ard o f

“ ”
hi s running away t o day i ll and a s they under stood from -
, ,
“
he r sto ry d eli r iou s ! Good H eav ens what had b ecom e o f
”
, ,

him ? B oth had b een w eep ing both had been i n angui sh ,

fo r that hou r and a hal f .

A cry o f j oy o f e cstasy gr eeted Ra sk o l n ik o v s entrance

, ,
’
.

B oth ru she d to him B ut he stood l ike one dead ; a sudden

.

i ntolerabl e se nsation st ru ck him like a thunderb olt H e did .

not l i ft hi s arm s to em b r ace them he could not Hi s mothe r ,

.

and s i ste r cl asp ed hi m in thei r arms ki s sed him l au ghed and , ,

cri ed H e took a step totte red and f ell to the ground

.
, ,

fainti ng .

Anxiety cri es o f ho r ro r mo ans

,
Ra z u m ihin who wa s
,

standing i n the do orway flew i nto the room s ei ze d the s i ck ,

man i n hi s strong arms and i n a m om ent h ad him o n the

so fa
”
.

“ ’
I t s nothing nothing ! he cri ed to the mother and si ste r
,
’
It s only a fai nt a m ere trifle ! O nly j u st now t h e do cto r
,

s ai d h e w a s mu ch bette r that h e i s p er fectly w ell ! Wate r !

”
,

S e e h e i s coming to himsel f he i s al l r ight again !

, ,

And sei zing D ou ni a by the arm so that he almost di sloca t ed

“
it h e made he r b end down t o se e that he i s all r i ght a gai n
,
.

Th e mothe r and si ster lo oked o n him with emotion and

gratitude a s thei r P rov idence They had heard alr eady from
,
.

N a s t a sya al l that had b e en done fo r the i r Ro dya du ring hi s

“ ”
i llnes s b y thi s ve ry competent young m an a s Pulcher i a
, ,

Al exandrovn a Raskolnikov called him that evening i n c o m

ve rsatio n w ith D ouni a .
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A S K O L N IK O V got up and s a t down on the s o fa H e

, .

wav ed hi s hand weakly to Ra z u m ih in to cu t sho rt th e

o f warm and i ncoherent consolations h e was a d
d ressing to hi s mother and si ster took them both by the h and ,

and fo r a minute o r tw o gaz ed fro m o ne to the other w ithout

spe aking H is mothe r w a s al armed by h is exp ression It
. .

r evealed an emoti on agoni s ingly po ignant and at the s ame ,

t ime something immo vable almost insane Pul cher i a Al ex , .

a n d r o v n a b eg an to cry .

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a w a s pal e ; h er hand tremb led i n her

’
b rother s .

“
Go home w ith him h e s aid i n a b roken vo ice po int
, ,

ing to Ra z u m ih in good b ye till to mo rrow ; to mo rro w

,
- - -

ev erything I s it long s ince you arriv ed ? ”

”
.

“
Thi s ev ening Ro dya answe red Pu lcheri a Al exandrovna
, , ,

th e t rain was aw fully l ate B ut Ro dya nothing wou ld .

, ,

i nduce m e to l eav e you now ! I w ill sp end th e night h ere ,

near you
”
.

“ ’
D on t to rtu re m e ! h e s aid w ith a gestu r e o f i rritation .

“
I wi ll stay with him cri ed Ra z u m ih in I won t l eav e him
, ,
’

fo r a moment B other al l my v i s ito rs ! Let them rage to

.

’
thei r hearts content ! M y u ncl e is p residing ther e ”
”
.

“
How h ow c a n I th ank you ! Pul cheri a Al exandrovna
,
‘
w a s b eginning o nc e mor e p r essing Ra z u m ihin s h ands but
’
, ,

‘
Raskolnikov inte rrupted h er again .

“ ’
I can t hav e it ! I can t hav e it he repeated i rritably
’ 9’

”
,
’
don t wo r ry m e ! E n o ugh go away I can t stand it !
,
.
’

“
C ome mamma com e out o f th e room at l east a minute
, , ,

D ouni a whi sp ered in di smay ; we ar e di st res sing him tha t s ’

evident .
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1 98 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S KY
”
M ayn t I lo o k a t him a fte r t hr e e yea r s ? w ep t Pul che ri a
’

Al exandr o vna
”
.

“ “
S tay h e stopp ed th em agai n y ou k eep inter rupting m e
, , ,

and my i de as get muddl ed H ave you s een Lu zhin .

“
N o Ro dya bu t h e knows al ready o f ou r arr iv al
, ,
We .

h eard Ro dya th at Py o t r Petrov itch w a s s o kind a s to v i sit

”
, ,

you t o day Pul che ri a Al exandrovna added s o m ewhat tim

-
,

idly .

Ye s h e wa s s o k ind D ouni a I p r o mi sed Lu zhin ,

I d th row him downstai r s and tol d hi m to go to h ell

’
.

Ro dya wh at a r e you s aying ! S u r ely y o u d o n t me an to

’

, ,

t el l u s . Pul che ri a Al exand r o vna b egan in alarm but ,

s h e stopp ed l o ok ing at D ou ni a , .

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a was l oo k ing attentively at h er

b rothe r w aiting fo r wh a t w ou l d co me next B oth o f them
, .

h ad h eard o f the qu arr el fro m N a st a sya so far as sh e had ,

su cceeded in u nderstanding and r ep o rting it and w er e i n ,

p ain fu l p erpl exity and su sp ens e .

“ ’
D ou ni a Raskoln iko v co ntinu ed w ith an e ffo rt I don t
, ,

w ant tha t mar ri age s o at th e fi rst oppo rtunity to —mo r r o w yo u

,

mu st re fu s e Lu zh in s o th at w e m ay n ev er hear hi s nam e
”
,

aga i n
”
.

“
Go od H e av en s ! c r i ed Pu lch er i a Al exandrovn a .

”
B rothe r think wh at you ar e s aying ! A v d o tya Roma
,

n o v n a b egan i mp etuou sly bu t immedi ately checked h er sel f

”
.
,
“
You a r e no t fi t to t alk n o w p e r h ap s ; you a r e t i red s h e , ,

added gently .

“
Y o u think I am del i ri ou s ? N o Y o u ar e m ar rying .

Lu zh in fo r m y s ak e B ut I wo n t accept th e s acr i fi ce And .

’
.

so w rite a l ette r b e fo re to mo r ro w to r e fu s e h im Let -

”
.
,

me r ead it i n th e m o rn ing and th at w il l b e th e end o f i t !

“ ”
That I can t d o ! th e gi rl c ri ed o ffend ed what r ight
’

, ,

h av e you
“
D ouni a yo u a r e h asty t o o b e qu iet to mo r row -

”
.
, , , ,

’
D o n t you se e the m othe r interpo sed in di smay B et
”
.
,

t er come away !
“
H e i s r av ing Ra z u m ihin cri ed t ips ily o r how wou ld
, ,

h e dar e ! To mo r ro w al l th i s n o nsens e will b e o v er

-
.

T o —day h e ce rtai nly di d d riv e hi m away That was so . .

And Lu zhi n g ot an g ry too H e m ade sp eeches h ere , .

,
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l andlady s doo r N a s ta sya l ighted them fr o m a step b el o w

’
. .

Ra z u m ih in was i n ext rao rdinary excitement H al f an hou r .

earl ie r whil e h e was b ringing Raskolnik o v h o me h e h ad

, ,

i ndeed t alked too freely but h e w a s awa r e o f it h imsel f and

, ,

hi s head w a s cle ar i n sp it e o f th e v ast qu antiti es h e h ad

imbibed N o w h e w a s in a state b o rde ring on ecstasy and
.
,

all that h e h ad d ru nk s eemed to fly to hi s h ead w ith r edoubl ed

e ffe ct H e sto od w ith th e two l adi es seiz ing both b y the i r
.
,

hands p e rsu ading them and giving them r easons w ith aston
, ,

is h in g plainnes s o f sp eech and at almost eve ry wo rd h e ,

u ttered p rob ably to emphas is e hi s a rgum ents h e s qu eez ed

, ,

t h ei r hands p ain fully as i n a v i ce H e stared at A v d o tya .

Ro m a n o v n a w ithout the l east r egard fo r goo d manne rs .

They someti me s pu ll ed thei r h ands o u t o f his hu ge bony

p aws bu t fa r from not ici ng wh at wa s th e m atte r h e d rew
, ,

them all th e clo s e r to h im I f they d told him to j ump he ad .

’

fo remost fro m th e stai rcase h e w ould h av e done i t w ithou t ,

thou ght o r h es ita t io n in thei r s ervi ce Though Pu lcheri a .

Al exandrov n a felt th at th e young m an was r e ally too e cc e n

t ri c and pi nch ed h e r hand to o mu ch in h e r anxi ety ov e r he r ,

Ro dya s h e lo oked o n hi s p r es ence as p rov identi al and wa s ,

u nwill ing t o not ic e al l h is p ecu li ar iti es B ut though A v do tya .

Ro m a n o v n a shared he r anxi ety and w a s not o f timo ro u s di s ,

po sition s h e cou l d no t s e e th e gl owing l ight i n h i s eyes w ith

,

o u t wonde r and almo st al arm It w as only th e u n b ounded .

confidence inspi red by N a s t a sya s account o f her b rothe r s ’ ’

qu ee r fri end whi ch p r ev ented h er f rom t rying to ru n away

,

f ro m hi m and t o p ersu ade he r mother to do the s ame S h e

, .

r eal i sed too that ev en running away was p erh ap s i mpo ss i b l e

, ,

no w Ten minu tes l at er howev e r s h e was considerably r eas

.
,

su red ; i t w as ch aracteri sti c o f Ra z u m ihin that he show ed

h is tru e n atu r e at once whatev e r mo od h e might be in s o , ,

that p eopl e qu ickly s a w the so rt o f man they had to deal

w ith
”
.

“ ’
You can t g o to th e l andlady that s p e r fec t nonsense !
’
,
“
h e cr ied
’
I f you stay though you a r e hi s moth er you l l
.
, ,

d riv e h im to a fr enzy and then go odnes s knows what will ,

h app en ! Li sten I l l tel l you what I ll do : N a st a sya wi ll

,
’ ’

stay w ith him now and I ll condu ct you both home you can t ’ ’

, ,

b e in the str eet s al o ne ; Petersbu rg i s an aw fu l p lace in th a t

 C R IME AND P UN I S H ME N T 201

w ay . B u t no m a t ter ! T hen I ll run straigh t b ack here ’

and a qu arte r o f an hou r l ater o n my word o f honou r I ll

’

, ,

b ring you news how h e i s whether h e i s asleep and al l th a t , , .

’
Then l isten ! Then I l l ru n ho me i n a tw inkl ing— I v e a lo t
,
’

o f friends there all d runk— I l l fetch Z o s s im o v— that s th e

,
’ ’

do ct o r w h o i s looking a fter him h e i s there t o o but he i s , , ,

’
n o t drunk ; h e i s not d runk he i s neve r drunk ! I ll dr ag ,

hi m t o Ro dya and then to yo u so that you ll ge t t w o r epo rt s

, ,
’

in the hou r— from the docto r you u nder stand from the , ,

do cto r himsel f that s a very di fferen t thing from my accoun t

,
’

o f hi m ! I f ther e s anything wrong I swear I ll b r ing you

’

,
’

’
h e re mysel f but i f it s all r ight you go t o bed And I ll
, ,
’
, .

spend th e night h er e in th e p ass age h e wo n t h ea r m e and

, ,
’
,
’ ’
I l l tell Z o s s im o v to sl eep at the l andlady s to b e at h and ,
.

Which i s b ette r fo r h im : you o r th e docto r ? S o come home

then ! B ut the l andl ady i s o u t o f th e qu estion ; it s all right ’

’
fo r m e bu t it s o u t o f the question fo r you : s h e wouldn t
,
’

fo r she s a fo ol S h e d b e j e al ’
tak e you fo r she s ,
’ ’
.

o u s o n my account o f A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a and o f you too , ,

i f you want to know o f A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a certainly .

S he i s an ab solutely absolutely u naccountabl e character ! ,

B ut I am a foo l too ! N o matter ! C ome along ! D o

,
'

you tru st m e ? C o me do you tru st me o r n o t ,

“
Let u s go m other s ai d A v d o tya Ro m a n o vn a h e w i ll
, , ,

certainly do what h e h as p romi sed H e h as saved Ro dya .

al ready and i f th e do cto r r eally w il l consent to spend the

”
,

ni g ht h ere wh at could b e b etter

,
?
“
You s e e you you u nder stand me b ecau se you
”
, ,
“
ar e an angel ! Ra z u m ihin cri ed in an e cstasy l et u s go ! ,

N a st a s ya ! F l y upstai r s and sit with him with a light ; I l l

’

com e i n a qu arter o f an hou r ” .

Though Pulcher i a Alexandro vn a was n o t p er fectly c o n

v in c e d s h e m ade n o fu rthe r r es istance
, Ra z u m ihin gav e .

an arm to each and drew them down the stai rs H e still .

made he r u neasy as though h e w a s comp etent and g o od

,

natu red was h e cap abl e o f carrying out h i s p romi s e ? H e

,

seemed i n su ch a condition
”
.

“
Ah I s e e yo u think I am i n su ch a condition ! Ra z u m ih in
,

b rok e in u pon her thoughts gu essing them as h e st roll ed , ,

along t h e p ave m ent w ith huge st ep s s o that th e tw o l adi es ,

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202 FYOD O R D O S TO EV S K Y

c o u ld hardly k eep u p w ith hi m a fac t h e did n ot o b se r ve , ,

“
h oweve r N ons ens e ! Th at i s
. I a m drunk lik e a fo o l ,
’
b ut t ha t s n o t it ; I a m n o t d r u nk fro m w ine It s s ee ing yo u .
’

’
h as tu r ned m y h ead B ut do n t m ind m e ! D o n t t ak e
.
’

any no t ice : I a m talking no ns ense I a m n o t wo rthy o f ,

I a m u tte rly u nw o rthy o f yo u ! T h e m inute I ve

’
y ou . .

’
t aken y o u hom e I ll p ou r a coup l e o f p ai l ful s o f w ate r ov e r
,
.

my head in th e gutte r h er e and th en I sh all b e all right ,

.

I f o nly you kn ew how I l ov e yo u b oth ! D o n t l au gh and ’

don t b e angry ! You m ay b e angry w ith any o ne but n o t

’

w ith m e ! I am hi s fri end and ther e for e I a m y o u r fr i end , ,

t oo I w ant t o b e
. I h ad a p res entimen t
. l as t yea r
t he r e w as a m omen t tho u gh it w asn t a p resenti men t ’

r eal ly fo r yo u s eem to h av e fallen fro m h eav en And I

, .

e xp ect I shan t s l eep all night Z o s s im o v w as a fraid a

’
.

l it t l e tim e a g o t h at h e w o u ld g o m ad th at s w hy h e ’

’
m u stn t b e i r ritated
”
.

“ ?
W hat do yo u s ay cr ied th e mo the r
”
.

D id th e do c t o r really s ay tha t ? a sk ed A v d o tya R om a

no vna ala rmed
, .

“ ’
Ye s bu t it s no t s o not a b it o f it H e gav e him s o me
, , .

m edi cin e a p owde r I s a w it and then y o u r coming h e re

, , , .

Ah ! I t wou ld h av e b een b ette r i f yo u had come t o -mo rr o w .

I t s a g o od thing w e wen t aw ay And i n an h ou r Z o s s im o v

’
.

him s el f will r epo rt to yo u about ev erything H e i s not d runk ! .

And I shan t b e d ru nk ’
And wh at m ade m e get s o tight ?
Becau se th ey got m e i nto an argu ment d amn them ! I v e
’

sw o rn n ev e r to argu e ! T hey t alk su ch t rash ! I almo st

ca m e to b lows ! I v e l e ft my u ncl e to p reside W o u ld you
’
.

b eli ev e they ins i st o n comp lete absence o f indiv idu ali sm and
,

t h at s j ust wh at th ey r el i sh ! N o t to b e themselv es t o b e as
’
,

u nl ik e th ems el v es as they c a n That s what they r egard as .

’

the highest po int o f p rogr es s I f only th eir nons ens e we re .

thei r o w n bu t as it i s
”
.
,
“
Li sten ! Pul ch eri a Alexandrovn a inte rr u p t ed t imidly bu t ,

it o nly add ed fu el t o the fl ames .

“
What do you think ? ” shout ed Ra z u m ihin lou der than ,
“
ev e r you th ink I am attacking th em fo r t alking nons ens e ?
,
’
N o t a b it ! I lik e th e m to talk nonsense
’
That s m an s o n e .

p r ivilege o ver a ll cr ea t i o n Th rou g h e rro r yo u c om e to the

.
204 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

tak e i n h e re ? And yo u hi s b et rot hed ! Yo u ar e hi s b e

’

t rothed ? Yes ? Wel l th en I t ell y o u you r fi a nc e i s a , , ,

s cou ndrel .

“
E xcu s e me M r Ra z u m ih in you ar e f o r getting
, .
,

Pulcheri a Al exandrovna was b eginning .

“
Ye s ye s you ar e r ight I did fo rget mysel f I am a sham ed
”
, , ,

o f it Ra z u m ih in m ad e h aste t o apologi s e
,
B ut but .

’
you can t b e angry w ith m e f o r spe aking s o ! F o r I speak
s i nce rely and not b ecau s e hm hm ! That would be di s ,
’
grace fu l ; in fact not b ecau s e I m i n h m ! Well any ,
’ ’
w a y I wo n t s a y w h y I d ar en t B ut all w e s a w to day ,
.
-

when he cam e i n that th at man i s not o f o u r so rt N o t .

’
b ecau s e he h ad h is h ai r cur led at the b arb er s not b ec au s e h e ,

w as i n su ch a hu rry to show h i s wit bu t b ecau se h e i s a ,

s py , a sp ecul ato r b ecau s e h e i s a sk in fl in t and a bu ffo on

,
.

’
That s evi dent D o you think him clev er ? N 0 h e i s a fo ol
.
, ,

a foo l And i s h e a m atch fo r yo u ? Goo d heav ens ! D o

”
.

you see l adi e s ? he stopp ed suddenly o n the w a y upstair s

,

to thei r rooms thou gh al l my f ri end s ther e are drunk yet

, ,

they ar e al l h one st and th o u gh w e do talk a lo t o f t rash , ,

and I do t o o yet w e shall t alk o u r w a y to th e t ruth at last

, , ,

fo r w e are o n th e r ight p ath whi le Pyotr P etrov itch is ,

’
not o n th e right p ath Though I v e b een cal ling th em all .

so rts o f nam es j u st now I do r esp ect them al l though I ,

’
do n t r e spect Z a m et o v I l ike him fo r h e i s a puppy a n d that , , ,

bul lo ck Z o s s im o v becau s e he i s an honest m an and knows ,

h i s wo rk B ut enough it s all s aid and fo rgiven I s it fo r

.
,
’
.

’
giv en ? Wel l then l et s go o n I kno w thi s cor rido r I v e
, ,
’
.
,

b een h er e th er e w a s a s candal he re at N umb e r 3

,
.

Whe r e ar e you h er e ? Whi ch numb e r ? eight ? Well l ock ,

you rs elv es i n fo r the night then D on t l et anybody in , .

’
.

I n a qu art er o f an hou r I l l come b ack w ith news and h al f ’

an hou r l ater I ll b ring Z o s s im o v you l l s e e ! Go od bye I ll

’ ’
-
’

”
, ,

ru n
”
.

“
G o od h eav ens D ou nia wh at i s going to h app en ?
,s aid ,

Pul che ri a Al exandrovna addr es sing h er dau ghter w ith ,

anxi ety and dismay .

“ ’
D on t wo r ry you rs el f m o ther s ai d D ouni a t aking o ff , , ,
“
h e r h at and cap e God has s ent thi s gentleman to ou r a id
.
,

t h ough h e h as come fr o m a d rinking p arty We c a n dep end .

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 205

on him ,
I assu re you . And all that h e has done fo r
Ro dya .

“
Ah D oun i a goodness knows wh eth er h e w ill come ! How
, ,

cou ld I b ring mys el f to leav e Ro dya ? And how di ffe r

ent h o w di ffe rent I had fancied o u r meeting ! H o w sull en
,

he w a s as though not pleased t o s e e u s

, .

Te ar s came int o her eye s .

“ ’
N o it s not that mothe r You didn t s e e y o u w er e ’
.
, , ,

c rying all th e time H e is quite unhi nged by ser iou s i llness

”
.

t hat s the reason

’
.

“
Ah th at illnes s ! What will happen what w ill happen ?
”
, ,

And how he talked to you D ouni a ! s aid the mothe r l ook , ,

ing timidly at h e r daughte r trying to r ead h e r thoughts ,

and al re ady hal f consol ed by D ouni a s st anding up f o r her

,
’

b rothe r which meant that sh e had al ready fo rgiv en him .

”
,

I am su r e h e w ill think b etter o f it to mo rrow s h e added ~

, ,

prob ing h er fu rthe r .

“
And I am su r e that h e will say the sam e t o m o rrow -

abou t th at ” A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a s aid finally And o f

,
.
,

cou rse ther e was no go ing b eyond that fo r th i s w a s a

, ,

po int whi ch Pul cheri a Al exandrovna w as af rai d to di scu ss .

D ouni a went up and ki ssed h er mother Th e l att er w armly .

emb raced he r withou t speaking Then sh e sat down to wait .

anxiou sly fo r Ra z u m ih in s retu rn timidly watching h er ’

daughte r who walked up and down th e room w ith her arms

folded lo st i n thought Thi s walking up and down when
,
.

s h e was think ing w a s a hab it o f A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a s and

’

’
th e mothe r was always afraid to b reak i n on her daughter s
mood at su ch moments .

Ra z u m ih in o f cou rse w a s ridi cul ou s i n h i s sudden

, ,

d runken i nfatuati on fo r A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a Yet apart .

f rom hi s eccentr i c conditi o n m any p eopl e would h av e ,

thou ght it j u sti fi ed i f they h ad s een A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a

, ,

e speci ally at th at moment when s h e w a s w alki ng to and

f ro w ith fol ded arms p ensiv e and m el ancholy A v d o tya
,
.

Ro m a n o v n a w a s remarka b ly good looking ; s h e w as tall ,

strikingly well p ropo rtioned strong and sel f rel iant— th e

-
,
-

l atte r qu ality w a s appar ent i n ev ery g estur e though it did ,

not i n th e l east d etract f rom th e grace and so ftness o f

h er mov ements I n f ace sh e res embl ed her b r o ther but s h e
.
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206 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

m ight b e describ ed as r eally b eauti ful H e r h ai r w as da rk .

b r o wn a l ittl e l ighte r th an h er b roth er s ; the re w a s a

,
’

p rou d l ight i n h er almo st bl ack eye s and yet at ti m es a

l ook o f ext rao rdinary kindnes s S h e w a s p al e but i t w as .
,

a h ealthy pall o r ; h e r fac e w a s r adi an t w ith f r eshnes s and

v igou r H er m outh w as r athe r small ; th e ful l r ed l owe r
.

l ip p r o j ect ed a l ittl e as did h er chin ; i t w as th e only

i r regul arity i n h e r b e auti ful f ace but i t gav e i t a p ecul i arly ,

i ndiv idu al and alm o st h aughty exp re ss ion H e r f ace was .

always mo r e s eri ou s and thought ful than gay ; but h o w w el l

smil es how w ell youth ful l ight hearted i rresp on sible
, ,
-
, ,

l aughte r su ited h e r f ac e ! It w as natu ral enough that a

w arm open s impl e h earted h o nest gi ant l ike Ra z u m ih in
, ,
-
, ,

who h ad n eve r s een any o n e l ike h e r and w as not qu ite

s o b e r at the tim e should lo s e hi s h ead immedi ately B esides
, . .

a s ch ance would h av e it h e s a w D o uni a fo r th e fi rst t im e

,

t r a n s fi g u re d by h er lov e fo r h e r b r o the r and h e r j o y at

m e eting him A ft erwards he s aw h e r l owe r l ip q u iv e r w ith
.

i ndi gnatio n a t h er b roth e r s in sol ent c r u el and ungrate ful ’

,

w o rds— and hi s f ate w as s eal ed .

H e h ad spoken th e truth mo re o ve r wh en h e blu rted o u t , ,

i n hi s d ru nk en t al k o n th e stai rs that P r a sk o v ya P avl o vna ,

Ra s k o l n ik o v s eccentri c l andlady w o uld b e j eal ou s o f

’
,

Pul che ri a Al exandrovn a as w el l as o f A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a

on hi s acco unt Although Pul che ri a Al exand rovna w a s
.

f o rty th re e h e r face still r etai ned t race s o f h er fo rm er

-
,

b eauty ; s h e lo oked mu ch younge r than h er age i ndeed , ,

whi ch i s almo st always the cas e wi th wom en who r etai n

s e renity o f spi rit s ensitiv enes s and pu r e s incer e wa rmth o f
,

h eart to o l d age We m ay add in p arenthes i s that t o

.

p r ese rv e all thi s i s th e only m ean s o f r etai ni ng b ea u ty t o

o l d age H er h ai r h ad b egun to gr o w grey and thi n there
.
,

h ad lo ng b een l ittl e crow s foot w r inkl es r ound h e r eye s ’

,

h e r ch eeks w e re hollow and sunken f rom anxi ety and gri e f ,

and yet it w as a handsom e face S h e w as D o un i a ove r .

again twenty years olde r but w ith o ut the p roj ecti ng u nde r
, ,

l ip Pul ch eri a Al exandrovn a w a s em o tional but not s enti

. ,

m ental timid and yi elding but o nly to a certain p o int S h e

, ,
.

coul d giv e w a y and accept a gr eat deal ev en o f what w a s

contrary to her co nv icti o ns b u t ther e w a s a ce rtai n b a r ri e r ,
208 F Y OD O R D O ST OEV S KY

on v ery s ati s facto ri ly Acc o rd ing t o h i s ob serv a t i o n s t h e

.

’
pati ent s illnes s was du e p artly to hi s un fo rtunat e m ateri al
sur roundings during th e l ast f ew m o nths but i t h ad p artly ,
“
al so a m o ral o rigin was s o to sp eak th e p r o du ct o f s ev e ral
,

m ateri al and mo ral in fl uence s anxi eti es appr eh ensions

”
, , ,

t roubl es ce r t ai n ideas
, and s o o n N oticing ste althily .

that A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a w a s follow ing hi s wo rds with

cl o s e attenti o n Z o s s im o v all o wed himsel f to enl arge o n thi s
,

them e O n Pulch er i a A l ex a n d r o v n a s anxiou sly and timidly ’

”
.

“
i nqui ring as to som e su spi ci o n o f i nsanity he repl i ed with ,

a compo sed and candid sm il e th at hi s w o rds h ad b een

exagge rated ; that c ertai nly th e p ati ent h ad some fixed idea ,

s o mething app ro aching a monoman i a w as

now p articul arly studyi ng thi s inter esting b ranch o f
m edi cine but th at it mu st b e r ecol l ected th at until to day
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th e pati ent h ad b een i n d el i r ium and and that n o doubt

the p r esence o f his f ami ly woul d h av e a favou rabl e e ffect
“
o n hi s reco very and di str act hi s mind i f o nly all f resh
”
,

shocks can b e avo ided h e added signi fi cantly Then h e

, .

got up took l eav e with an imp res siv e and a ffab l e b ow

, ,

whil e bl es sings w a rm gr atitude and ent reati es w er e

, ,

show ered up o n him and A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a spontaneou sly

,

o ffe red he r h and t o him H e w ent o u t exce edingly pl eased .

w ith hi s v i sit and stil l m or e s o with hims el f

”
.

“ ’
We ll talk to m o r r o w ; g o t o b ed at once ! Ra z u m ih in
-

“
s ai d i n conclu sion fol low ing Z o s s im o v o u t
, I l l b e with .
’

you to mo rr o w m o rning as early as p o ssibl e w ith my

-

r epo rt.
”
That s a fetchi ng l i t tl e gi rl A v do tya Ro m an o v n a
’
, ,

r em arked Z o s s im o v almost l icking his l ip s as th ey b oth

,

came o u t i nt o th e stre et
”
.

“
F etching ? Y o u s aid f etching ? r o ar ed Ra z u m ihin and
h e flew at Z o s s im o v and s eiz ed him by th e th r o at I f you
”
.

ev e r dar e D o you u nde rstand

.
? D o you u nderstand ?

h e shouted shaking h im by the c o ll ar and sq u eez ing hi m

”
,
“
against th e w al l D o y o u hear ?
”
.

“
Let m e g o you d runken devil s aid Z o s s im o v s t ruggl ing
, , , ,

and when h e had l et hi m g o h e s t ar ed at him and w ent o ff ,

i nt o a sudden gu ffaw Ra zu m ihin st oo d facing h i m i n

.

gl oo my and ea r nes t r e fl ecti o n .

 C R IME AND P UN IS H ME NT 209

Of cou r se I am an a s s h e obs erv ed somb r e as a sto rm

”
, , ,
“
cloud but still, yo u are another .

“
N o b rothe r not at all such anothe r I a m not dreaming
”
.
, ,

o f any folly .

They walked along i n silence and o nly when they w er e

clo se to Ra sk o l n ik o v s lodgings Ra z u m ihin b roke th e silence ’

i n considerabl e anxi ety .

“ ” “
Li sten h e said you r e a fi rs t rate f ellow but among
, ,
’
-
,

you r other failings you r e a l oo s e fi sh tha t I know and ,

’
, ,

a di rty o n e too You ar e a fee b l e n ervou s w retch and a

, .
, ,

mas s o f whims you r e getting f at and l azy and c an t deny ,

’ ’

you rsel f anything— and I call that di rty b ecau s e it l ead s

o n e straight into th e di rt You v e l et you r sel f get so sl ack ’
.

’
that I do n t know h o w it i s yo u ar e still a good ev en a ,

dev o ted docto r You— a docto r— sl eep o n a feather b ed and .

get u p at night to you r pati ents ! In anothe r th ree o r fou r

year s yo u won t get up fo r y o u r pati ents ’
B ut h ang i t .

all that s n o t the po int !

,
’
You ar e go ing to sp end to
’
night i n th e l andl ady s flat here ( Hard wo rk I v e had to
’
.

p ersuade her ! ) And I ll b e i n the kitchen S o h ere s a ’

.
’

chance fo r you to get to kn o w her b ette r It s not as .

’

you think ! There s not a t race o f anyth ing o f th e so rt ’

,

b rothe r
“
B ut I don t think ! ” ’

H er e you hav e modesty b r o ther si lence b ash fulness a , , , ,

s av age v i rtu e and yet sh e s sighing and m elting l ike ’

’
w ax , simply m elting ! S av e m e f r o m her by all that s ,
’
unholy ! S he s most p repo ssessing I ll r epay yo u I ll
’
.
’

do anything .

Z o s s im o v l aughed m o r e vi ol ently than ev er

”
.

“
Well you ar e smitten ! B ut what am I to d o with h e r ?
,

It won t b e much t roubl e I as su re y o u Talk any rot

’

,
.

you l ike to her as l ong as you sit by he r and t alk Y o u r e , .

’

a do cto r too ; t ry cur i ng he r o f som ething I swear y ou

, .

won t regret it Sh e has a p i ano and you kn o w I st rum a

’

‘
.
, ,

l ittl e I hav e a song there a genu i ne Ru ss i an o n e : I shed

.
,

hot t ears Sh e l ikes the genu ine articl e— and well it al l

.
’
.

b egan w ith that song ; No w you re a re g ul ar pe rfo rme r ’

,

a m a itr e a Rub instei n I ass u re yo u y o u won t r e ’

c

”
.
, ,

gret it !
210 F Y OD O R D O S T O EV S K Y

B ut h av e y o u m ade h er s o m e p rom i s e ? S o m e t hing

s igned ? A p rom i se o f m ar ri age p e rhap s ? ”
‘N othing nothing ab solutely nothing o f th e kind !
,

, ,

B esides sh e i s not that s o rt at all T ch eb a ro v t ri ed .

that
”
.

“
Well then dr o p he r !
B ut I c an t drop h er l ike tha t ! ”
Why can t you ? ” ’

’ ’
Well I c an t that s all ab o ut i t ! The r e s an el emen t
, ,
’

o f att raction he re b roth er

”
.
,

Th en w hy h av e you f ascinated h er ?
’
I h aven t fascinated he r ; p erhap s I w as fas cina t ed ,

mys el f i n my folly B ut s h e w o n t care a straw wh eth er it s .

’ ’

yo u o r I s o long as somebody s its b eside h e r s ighing

, , .

I can t expl ain th e po s ition b r o ther

’
lo ok h er e yo u ar e , ,

goo d at m athemati cs and wo rking at i t now b egi n ,

teach ing he r the i ntegral cal culu s ; upo n my s o ul I m no t ,

’

’
j oking I m i n e arnest it l l b e j u st th e sam e t o h e r S h e
, ,
’
.

wi ll gaz e at you and sigh fo r a whol e ye ar togeth er I .

t alked t o he r onc e fo r two d ays at a tim e ab out the P ru ssi an

Hou s e o f Lo rds ( f o r o n e mu st talk o f s o m ething ) — sh e
j u st sighed and p e rsp i red ! And you mustn t talk o f l o ve ’

’
sh e s b ash fu l to hyste rics— but j u st l et he r s e e you can t ’

’ ’
t ear you rs el f away— th at s enough It s f ear fully c o m .

fo rt a b l e ; you r e qu ite at home you can r e ad s it l i e about

’
, , ,

w rite Y o u m ay ev en v entu r e o n a ki ss i f you re car e ful ’

”
. .
,
“
B ut what do I w ant w ith he r ?

Ach I can t m ak e you u nder stand ! You s e e you ar e

,
’

m ad e f o r e ach other ! I h av e o ften b een r eminded o f

yo u ! You l l com e t o it i n th e end ! S o do es i t m atter
’

’ ’
wh ethe r it s so oner o r l ate r ? Ther e s the feathe r b ed ele -

m ent h ere b roth er — ach ! and n o t only that ! Ther e s an

, ,
’

attractio n h ere —h er e you h av e th e end o f the wo rld an ,

ancho rage a qui et hav en th e navel o f the e arth the th re e

, , ,

fi she s that a re th e foundation o f th e wo rld the es sence o f ,

p ancake s o f s av o u ry fi sh pi es o f the ev ening s am o var o f

,
-
, ,

so ft s igh s and w arm sh awl s and hot st o v es t o sl eep o n— as ,

’
snu g a s though yo u we re d ead and yet y o u r e al iv e— the ,

adv antages o f both at o nce ! Wel l hang it b rothe r wh at , , ,

stu ff I m talking it s b edtim e ! Li sten I s o m etim es wak e

’

,
’
.
 C HAPT E R I I

A ZUM IH IN waked up n ext m o rning at eight o clock ’

,

tr o ubl ed and s eriou s H e found himsel f co nf ronted

.

w ith m any n ew and unlooked fo r p e rpl exiti es

-
. He
h ad n ev e r exp ected that h e woul d ev e r wake up feel ing
l ik e that H e r ememb e red eve ry d etail o f the p rev iou s d ay
.

and h e knew th at a p e r fectly n o v el exp eri ence h ad b e fall en

him that h e had r ece iv ed an imp res si on unl ike anything h e
,

h ad known b e fo re At th e s am e time h e recogni s ed cl early

.

th at th e dre am w hi ch had fi red hi s imaginatio n w a s hop e

l e ssly u nattai nabl e — s o unattai nab l e that he f elt po sitiv ely
asham ed o f i t and h e h astened to pas s to th e o the r m o r e
,

p racti cal cares and d i fficulti es b equ eathed hi m by th at

"
th ri c e accu rs ed yesterday ”.

Th e mo st aw ful r ecoll ection o f th e p rev iou s day w a s th e

“
w ay h e h ad shown himsel f bas e and mean ” n o t only
,

b ecau s e h e h ad b een d runk but b ecau s e h e had t aken

,

adv antage o f th e young gi rl s p o sitio n to abu s e h e r fi a n c e

’

i n his stupid j ealou sy knowi ng nothing o f thei r mutu al

,

r el ations and obl igati ons and n ext to nothing o f the m an

h im sel f And what right h ad h e to criti ci s e him i n that
.

h asty and ungu arded manne r ? Who had asked fo r h i s

opi ni o n ? Was it th ink abl e that su ch a cr eatu re as A v do tya
Ro m a n o v n a would b e m a rryi ng an u nwo rthy m an fo r
m oney ? S o ther e mu st b e s o m ething i n him The l od g ing s ?
.

B ut a fte r al l how c o ul d h e know th e characte r o f the

lo dgings ? H e w a s fu rni sh ing a flat Fo o,
how
desp icabl e it al l w a s ! And w hat j u sti fication w as i t that
he w as d runk ? Su ch a stup id excu s e was ev en m o re
degradi ng ! I n w ine i s t ruth and th e t ruth had all com e
,
“
ou t that i s all th e uncl eannes s o f h i s co ar s e and env iou s
”
, ,

h e art ! And would su ch a d ream ev er b e p erm i ssibl e t o

h im Ra z u m ihin ? What w a s h e b eside su ch a gi rl— h e th e
, ,

d runken no i sy b raggar t o f l ast night ?

“
Wa s i t p o ssibl e to
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i mag i ne s o absu rd and cynical a j uxtapo sitio n ” Ra z u m ih in ?

bl ushed desp erat ely at the v ery idea and suddenly the
r ecollection fo rced its el f v ividly upo n him o f how h e had
s aid last night o n the stai rs that the l andl ady w o ul d b e
j ealou s o f A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a that was s imply
i ntolerabl e H e b rought hi s fi s t down h eav ily o n th e kitchen
.

st o v e hu rt h is hand and sent o n e o f th e b ricks flying

”
, .

“
O f cou rs e h e mutter ed to him sel f a minut e l ate r w ith
,
“
a feel ing o f s el f ab asement o f cou rs e all th es e i n fami es
-
, ,

c a n never b e w iped o u t o r smoothed ov er

’
and s o i t s
u sel es s even to think o f it and I mu st g o to them i n sil ence
,

and do my duty i n s il ence to o and no t , ,

ask forgiveness and s a y n o thing f o r al l i s l o s t

”
,

no w !

And yet a s h e d ressed h e examined hi s atti r e m o r e care

.

fully than u su al H e hadn t an o ther suit— if h e h ad h ad

.
’
,
“
p erhap s he wouldn t hav e put i t o n
’
I would h av e m ad e .

a p oint o f not putting it o n B ut i n any cas e h e could

.

no t remai n a cyni c and a di rty slov en ; he had no r ight to

o ffend th e feel ings o f others especi ally when they wer e i n
,

n eed o f his a ssi stanc e and asking h im t o s e e them He .

b rushed his cl othes care fully H i s l inen w a s always decent ;

.

i n that r esp ect h e w a s esp eci ally cl ean .

He washed that mo rning scrupul o u sly— h e got some s o ap

fr o m N a s ta sya— h e w ashed hi s h ai r hi s neck and especi ally ,

hi s hands When it came t o th e qu estion whethe r t o shav e

.

hi s stubbly chi n o r not ( P r a sk o v ya Pav lovna had cap ital

raz o rs that had b een l e ft by he r l ate hu sband ) th e que stio n ,
“
wa s angri ly answered in th e negative Let it stay as it is ! .

What i f they thi nk th at I shav ed o n pu rpo se t o They

certainly w o uld think s o N o t o n any acc ou nt !
.
”
“
And the w o rst o f i t w a s h e wa s s o coar se so di rty , ,

h e had th e manne r s o f a pothou se ; and even admittin g

that h e knew he had some o f th e es senti al s o f a gentl eman
what w a s ther e i n that to b e p roud o f ? E v ery on e
ought to b e a gentleman and mo re than that and all th e
s am e ( h e r ememb ered ) he too h ad don e l ittl e things
, ,

not exactly di shonest and yet , And what th o u ght s h e

.

sometime s had ; hm and to s e t al l that b eside A v d o tya

’
Ro m a n o v n a ! C o n f o und it ! S o b e i t ! Well h e d m ake a ,
214 F Y ODO R D O S TO EV S KY

p o in t then o f b e ing d i rty gre asy p o th o u se i n h i s m anne r s

”
, ,
’ ’
and h e wo uldn t car e ! He d b e wo rs e !
He w a s engaged i n such mo n o logu e s when Z o s sim o v w h o ,
’
had sp ent the ni ght i n P r a sk o vya P a v l o v n a s p arlou r came in ,
.

H e was go ing home and w as i n a hu rry to look at th e

i nvali d fi r st Ra z u m ih in i n fo rmed him that Raskolnikov w a s
.

sl eeping l ike a d o rmou se Z o s s im o v gav e o rder s th at they

.

’
shouldn t w ake him and p r o mi s ed t o s e e hi m again about
elev en .

“
I f h e i s still at h o me h e added D amn i t all ! I f one
, .

’ ’
c an t control o ne s pati ents how i s o n e to cu r e the m ! D o ,

yo u kno w wh ether h e wi ll g o to them o r whether th ey a re

”
,

coming h e re ?
“
They are coming I think said Ra z u m ih in u nder standing
, , ,
“
th e o bj ect o f the qu e stion and they wi ll di scu ss the i r fami ly
,

a ffai rs no doubt I l l be o ff Y o u a s t he d o ct o r hav e m o r e

’

”
. .
, , ,

ri ght to be h e re than I .

“
B ut I a m n o t a father co n fe ss o r ; I shall c o me and g o
’
aw ay ; I v e plenty to do be side s looking a fte r them ”
”
.

“
O n e thing wo r ri e s m e i nte rpo sed Ra z u m ihin f r o wning
, , .

O n th e w ay hom e I talked a l o t o f drunken n o nsens e t o

him al l so rts o f things and amongst them that y ou
w er e a frai d that h e might become insan e .

“
Y o u to ld the ladie s s o too ,
.

I know i t was stupid ! Y o u may b ea t m e i f y ou like !

D i d yo u thi nk s o s e riou sly ? ”
“
That s no ns ense I tel l you how c o uld I thi nk i t s er i o u sly !
’
, ,

Y o u you rs el f d e scrib ed him as a monomani ac when you

, ,

fetch ed me to h i m and w e added fu el to th e fi r e ye s

t e r d a y yo u d id th at i s w ith you r st o ry about th e painte r ;
, , ,

i t w as a nice conv e rs ation when h e w a s perhaps mad o n that , ,

’
v e ry point ! I f only I d known wh at happ ened then at th e
pol ic e stati o n and th at some wr etch h ad i n sulted h im
w ith thi s su spicion ! H m I would no t hav e all o wed th at
co nv e r satio n ye ste rday Thes e m o nomani ac s wi ll m ake a
.

mountain o u t o f a mo lehill a n d se e thei r fanci e s as so l id

real itie s . A s far as I r eme mb er it w as Z a m e to v s sto ry ,

’

that cl ear ed u p h al f the my st e ry to my mi nd Why I kno w .

,

o n e case i n wh ich a hyp o ch o ndri ac a man o f fo rty c u t th e , ,

’
t h r o at o f a l it t l e b o y o f ei g h t b ecaus e h e co u ldn t endur e the
,
21 6 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

gr eater con fusi on than i f h e had b een m e t w ith abu se .

F o rtunately the r e w a s a subj ect fo r co nver sation and he ,

made haste to snatch at it .

He aring that ev eryt hing w a s go ing well and that Ro dya

h ad not yet w aked Pu lcher i a Alexandrovna declared that ,
“
s h e w as gl ad to h ear it becau se she had something which ,

i t w a s v e ry v e ry neces sary to t alk ov e r b e fo rehand

, Then .

followed an inqu iry ab ou t b reak fast and an inv itati on to h av e

i t with them ; they had w aited to hav e i t w ith h im A v d o tya .

Ro m a n o v n a r ang the b ell : it w a s an swer ed by a r agged di rty

waite r and they asked h im to b r ing t ea which w a s se rv ed
,

at last but i n su ch a di rty and di so rderly way that th e

, ,

l adi e s we r e ashamed Ra z u m ihin v i go rou sly attacke d the .

lodgings but r ememb ering Lu zhi n stopped i n embar rass

, , ,
’
m ent and wa s gr e atly rel iev ed by Pulcher i a A l e x a n d r o v n a s
que st ion s wh ich sho we red i n a continu al stream upo n hi m
, ,
.

He t alked f o r thr e e qu arter s o f an hou r b eing constantly ,

inter rupted by th ei r qu estion s and succeeded in de scrib ing ,

to them all th e mo st i mpo rtant f act s h e knew o f th e l ast year

of Ra sk o l n ik o v s li fe concludi ng with a ci rcum stanti al
’
,

a ccou nt o f hi s i llness He omitted howeve r many things .

, , ,

whi ch w er e b ette r o mitted i ncluding the s cene at th e p o lic e ,

station with al l it s c o nsequ ence s They l i stened eage rly to .

h i s sto ry and wh en h e thought h e had fi ni shed and s ati sfi ed

, ,

h i s li sten er s h e found that th ey conside red h e had hardly

,

begun .

“
Tell m e t el l m e ! What do you think E xcus e m e
”
, ,
’
I still do n t kn o w yo u r name ! Pulcheri a A lexandrovna put
i n hastily .

“
D mitr i P ro k o fi tch .

I shou ld l ike v e ry v e ry much t o kn o w D mitr i P r o k o fi tch

,

h o w h e lo ok s o n things i n gener al now that i s , ,

how c a n I expl ain what a re hi s l ike s and di slik es ? I s h e,

always s o i rr itabl e ? Tell m e i f y o u can wh at are hi s hop es , ,

and s o to s ay hi s d re ams ? Unde r wh at i nflu ence s i s h e n o w ?

I n a w o rd I should l ike
”
,

Ah mothe r h o w c a n h e answe r al l th at at o nce ?

, ,

o b serv ed D ouni a .

“
G O O d h eavens I had not expected t o fi nd h im in th e l east
”
,

l ike thi s D mitr i P ro k o fi tch !

,
 C R IM E AND P U N IS H ME N T 9 17

N a t urally, answered Ra z u m ihin I hav e no moth er bu t .

,

m y uncle comes every yea r and almost ev ery time h e c an

scarcely recognis e m e even i n app earance though h e i s a
, ,
’
cleve r man ; and yo u r three years s eparation mean s a great
deal What am I to tel l yo u ? I hav e known Rodio n fo r a
.

year and a hal f ; he i s moro s e gloomy proud and haughty , , ,

and o f l ate and pe rhap s fo r a long time b e for e— h e has b een

-

su spiciou s and fanci ful H e has a nobl e natu r e and a kind

.

heart H e do es not l ike showing hi s f eel ings and would

.

r ather do a cruel thing than op en hi s h eart fr eely S om e .

times though he i s n o t at all mo rb id b ut s imply cold a n d

, , ,

i nhumanly callou s ; it s as thou gh h e w er e alternating b e

’

tween two character s S ometimes h e i s fear ful ly r e se rv ed !

.

He says h e i s s o bu sy th at ev e rything i s a h indrance and ,

yet he li e s in b ed do ing nothing H e do es n t j eer at things .

’
,
‘ ’
’
not becau se h e hasn t the w it but a s though he h adn t time ,

to waste o n such t rifl e s He n eve r li sten s t o what i s said to

.

him H e i s nev er i nte rested i n what intere sts oth e r peopl e

.

at any given moment He thinks v ery h i g hly o f h ims el f

.

and pe rhap s he i s ri ght Well wh at mor e ? I think you r

.
,

a rr ival will hav e a mo st b enefi ci al i nfl uence upo n h im

”
.

“
Go d grant it may cr ied Pulch eri a Al exandr o vna d i s
, ,

tre ssed by Ra z u m ihin s account o f her Ro d ya

’
.

And Ra z u m ihin ventu red to loo k mor e b oldly at A v d o tya

Ro m a n o v n a at las t H e glanced at h er o ften whil e h e w a s
talking but o nly fo r a moment and looked away again at
,

o nce A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a s a t at th e t able l i stening atten

.
,

t iv e ly then got up again and began walking to and fro w ith

,

h er arm s folded and her lip s comp res sed o ccasionally puttin g ,

i n a qu estion withou t stoppin g h er walk S he had the same

, .

habit o f not l istening to what wa s said S he was wea r ing .

a dre s s o f thin da rk stu ff and sh e h ad a wh ite transp arent

s car f round her neck Ra z u m ih in soo n dete cted signs o f
.

ext reme pov e rty i n thei r b elongings Had A v d o tya Roma .

n o v n a been d re ssed l ike a qu een h e fel t th at he would n o t ,

b e a fraid o f h e r but p erh ap s j u st becau se sh e was poorly

,

dres sed and that h e noti ced al l th e mi se ry o f he r su r round

ings hi s heart w a s fi lled with d read and h e b egan to b e
,

a fraid o f ev e ry wo rd h e utte red eve ry ge stu r e he m ade , ,

whi ch w a s v ery t rying fo r a m an w h o al ready felt d iffi d e nt .

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“ ’
You v e to ld u s a great deal th at i s i nter e s t ing ab ou t m y
b rothe r s ch aracte r
’
and h av e told it imp artially I am .

glad I thought th at y o u we re to o uncritically devoted t o

.

“
h im ob se rv ed A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a w ith a smile I think
”
.
,
’
you ar e r i ght th at h e needs a wo man s care s h e added ,

thou ght fully .

“ ’
I didn t s a y s o ; but I d ar es ay yo u ar e r ight o nly
”
,

What ?

H e lov e s no o n e and p er hap s h e n eve r w ill Ra z u m ih in ,

declar ed deci siv ely

”
.

“
Y o u m ean h e i s n o t cap abl e o f l o v e ?
D o you kno w A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a yo u are aw fully l ike
”
, ,

you r b rothe r i n ev erythin g i ndeed ! h e blurted o u t sudd enly

, ,

to hi s o wn su rp r i s e but r ememb er ing at o nce wh at h e had

,

j u st b e fo r e s ai d o f h er b rother h e tu rned as red a s a crab and ,

wa s o v ercom e w ith c o n fu si o n A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a coul dn t .

’

help l au ghing when s h e looked at h im .

“
Yo u may both b e mi stake n ab o u t Ro dya Pulch e ri a ,
“
Al exandrov na re marked sl ightly piqu ed I am n o t talkin g
,
.

o f o u r pr e sent di fficu lty D ouni a Wh at Pyot r P e t rov itch ,

.

w rite s i n th i s l etter and wh at yo u and I hav e supp os ed m ay

b e mi staken but you c an t imagine D m it ri P ro k o fi tch ho w
,
’
, ,

moody and s o to s a y capri ci ou s he is I nev er could depend

, , .

o n what h e wou ld do wh en h e w a s o nly fi fteen And I am .

su r e that h e mi ght d o something now that n o body else wo uld

thin k o f do in g W ell f o r i nstance do you kn o w how a
.
, ,

yea r and a h al f ago h e a st o unded me and gav e m e a shock

th at n ea rly ki lled m e when h e h ad the idea o f mar rying th at
”
,
’
gi rl what w a s he r nam e — h i s l andl ady s daughte r ?
—

‘ ”
D i d yo u he ar about that a ffai r ? asked A v d o tya
Ro m a n o v n a .

“
D o you suppo se Pul ch e ri a Alexandr o vna co ntin u ed
warml y D o y o u suppo s e th at my te ars my entre ati es my
. , ,

i llness my po s sibl e de ath f rom gr ie f o u r pov e rty woul d hav e

, ,

m ade h im pau s e ? N o he would calmly h ave di sregarded al l

”
,
’ ’
o b stacl es And yet i t i sn t that h e doe sn t lov e u s !
.

“
He h a s nev e r sp o k en a wo rd o f th at a ffai r t o m e ,

“
Ra z u m ih in answe red cauti o u sly But I did h ear s o mething .

fro m P ra sk o v ya Pavl o vna h e rsel f thou gh s h e i s by n o mean s

” ,

a g o ssip And what I h e ard certainly w a s r ath e r s t r ange

.
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He crimsoned and ce ased sp eaking A v d o tya Ro m a n o vn a .

flu shed but d id n o t b re ak th e sil ence S he had not uttered

, .

a word fro m the m o ment they b egan to spe ak o f Luzhin .

Without he r suppo rt Pu lcheri a Al exandrovna obviou sly did

n o t know wh at to do At l ast falter ing and continu ally
.
,

glancing at h e r d aughter s h e co n fe ss ed tha t s h e w a s exceed

,

in g ly wo rr ied by one ci rcumstance

”
.

“ “
Yo u s e e D mi tr i P r o k o fi tc h s h e b egan
, I l l b e p e r fectly
, .
’

open with D mi tr i P r o k o fi tc h D ouni a

”
,
“
O f cou r s e mother
, s aid A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a e m p h a ti
,

cally
‘
.

Thi s i s what it i s sh e be g an i n h as t e as thou g h th e

, ,

p ermi ss ion t o sp eak o f h er troub le l i fted a weight o ff he r

“
m ind . V e ry early thi s mo rning w e got a note from Pyot r
P etrovi tch i n reply to o u r l etter announcing o u r arr iv al H e .

p ro mi sed to mee t u s at the st atio n yo u know ; i nstead o f that ,

h e s ent a s erv ant to b ring u s th e addr es s o f thes e lodgings

and to show u s the way ; and he s ent a mes sage th at h e would
b e he r e himsel f thi s mo rning B ut thi s mornin g thi s note .

’
came f ro m him Yo u d b etter r ead i t you rs el f ; ther e i s one
.

poi nt i n i t which wo r ri e s m e v ery mu ch you will soon p

.

s e e what that i s and ,

tell me you r candid opinion D mitr i ,

P r o k o fi tc h ! Yo u know R o dya s char acte r b etter than any ’

o n e and no o n e can adv i s e u s b etter than y o u c an D ouni a .

,
’
I mu st tel l y o u made he r d eci sio n at once but I still don t
, ,

feel su r e h o w t o act and I I v e b een w aiting fo r you r ’

op inion ”
.

Ra z u m ih in op ened th e note whi ch w a s dated th e p rev i o us

ev eni ng and r ead as follows

DE A R MA DA M Pu l c h e r ia Al e x a n d ro vn a I h a v e t h e h o n o u r t o in
, ,

f o rm y o u t h a t o w i n g t o u n fo r e s e e n o b s t a c l e s I w a s r e n d e r e d u n a b l e t o
m e e t y o u a t t h e r a i l w a y s t a tio n ; I s e n t a v e r y c o m p e t e n t p e r s o n w i t h
t h e s a m e o bj e c t i n V ie w I l ik e w i s e s h a ll b e d e p r i v e d o f t h e h o n o u r
.

o f an i n t e r v i e w w i t h yo u t o m o r r o w m o r n i n g b y b u s i n e s s i n t h e
-

S e n a t e t h a t d o e s n o t a d m i t o f d e l a y a n d a l s o t h a t I m a y n o t i n t ru d e
,

o n y o u r f a m i l y c i rc l e w hi l e y o u a r e m e e t i n g y o u r s o n a n d A v d o ty a ,

Ro m a n o v n a h e r b r o t h e r I s h a l l h a v e t h e h o n o u r o f v i s i t i n g yo u a n d
.

p a yi n g y o u m y r e s p e c t s a t y o u r l o d g i n gs n o t l a te r t h a n t o m o r r o w
—

e ve n i n g a t e i g h t o c l o c k p r e c i s e ly an d h e r e w i t h I v e n t u r e t o p r e s e n t
’

m y e a r n e s t a n d I m ay a d d im p e ra t i v e r e q u e s t t h a t Ro d i o n R o m a n o
, ,

v it c h m a y n o t b e p r e s e n t a t o u r in t e rv i e w — a s h e o ffe r e d m e a g r o s s
 C R IM E A ND P UN I S H ME NT 921

a n d u n p r e c e d e n t e d a ffr o n t on th e o c c a s io n of my v i s it t o h i m in h is
i ll n e s s te rd a y a n d m o r e o ve r s i n c e I d e s i r e f ro m yo u p e r s o n a ll y
ye s , , ,

a n in d i s p e n s a b l e a n d c i r c u m s t a n t i a l e x p l a n a t i o n u p o n a c e r t a i n p o i n t ,

i n r e g a r d t o w h i c h I w i s h t o l e a r n y o u r o w n in t e r p r e t a t i o n I h av e .

t h e h o n o u r t o i n fo r m y o u i n a n t i c i p a t i o n t h a t i f in s p i t e o f m y
, , ,

r e qu e s t I m e e t Ro d i o n Ro m a n o v it ch I s h a ll b e c o m p e ll e d t o w it h
, ,

d r a w im m e d i a t e ly a n d t h e n y o u h a v e o n l y y o u r s e lf t o b l a m e I w r it e .

o n t h e a s s u m p t i o n t h a t Ro d i o n Ro m a n o v it c h w h o a p p e a re d s o i l l a t

m y v is i t s u d d e n ly r e c o v e r e d t w o h o u rs l a t e r a n d s o b e i n g a b l e t o
, ,

l e a ve t h e h o u s e m a y vis i t y ou a l s o
, I w a s c o n fi rm e d in t h a t b e l ie f
.

b y t h e t e s t i m o n y o f m y o w n e y e s in t h e l o d g i n g o f a d r u n k e n m a n
w h o w a s ru n o v e r a n d h a s s in c e d i e d t o w h o s e d a u g h t e r a y o u n g , ,

w o m a n o f n o t o r i o u s b e h a vi o u r h e g a v e t w e n t y fi v e r o u b l e s o n t h e
,
-

p r e t e x t o f t h e fu n e r a l w h i c h g r a v e l y su r p r i s e d m e k n o w i n g w h a t
,

p a in s y o u w e r e a t t o r a i s e t h a t s u m H e re w i t h e x p r e s s i n g m y
.

s p e c i a l r e s p e c t t o y o u r e s t im a b l e d a u g h t e r A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a I , ,

b e g y o u t o a c c e p t t h e re s p e c tfu l h o m a g e o f
“
Y o u r h u m b l e s e rv a n t ,
“
P LUZH I N . .

What am I t o d o n o w D mi t ri P ro k o fi tc h began Pul ,

“
ch er i a Al exandrovna almo st weeping H o w can I a sk
,
.

Ro dya not to com e ? Yesterd ay h e i nsisted s o e arnestl y o n

o u r r e fu sing Pyotr Petrov itch and now w e ar e ordered not

to r eceiv e Ro dy a ! H e wi ll come o n p urpo se i f he knows

and what wil l happen then ? ” ,

“
Act o n A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a s deci si o n Ra z u m ihin
’
,

answer ed calml y at once .

“
O h dear m e ! S he s ays
,
goodnes s knows what sh e
says sh e do e sn t expl ain her obj ect ! S he s ays that it would
,
’

’
b e best at l east n o t that it would b e b est but that it s a b so
, , ,

l u t e l y neces sary that Ro dya should make a po i nt o f b eing

’
he r e at ei ght o clo ck and that they mu st meet
’
I didn t .

w ant ev en to show hi m th e l etter but to pr event hi m fro m ,

coming by some str atagem w ith your help b ecause h e

’
i s so i rr itabl e B eside s I don t u nder stand about that
.

drunkard w h o di ed and that daughte r and how h e could hav e ,

given th e d aughter all th e money which

”
“
Which c o st y o u such sacri fi ce mothe r put i n A v do tya , ,

Ro m a n o v n a .

He w a s not himsel f yesterday Ra z u m ihin s aid th o ught

“
,

“
fully if yo u only knew what h e w a s up to i n a restau rant
,

yesterday though there w a s s ense in it too

,
Hm ! H e .

did s ay somethi ng a s w e w ere go ing h o me ye s t erday evening

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’
about a d ead man and a gi rl bu t I d idn t unde rstand a ,

w o rd . B u t l ast night I mysel f

“
Th e be st thing mother w i ll b e fo r u s to go t o h im o u r
, ,

s elve s and ther e I as su r e yo u we shal l s e e at o nce what s t o ’

b e done B e side s it s getting l ate— go od heav ens it s past

’ ’
.
, ,

ten s h e c ri ed looking at a splendid gold enamelled w atch

,

whi ch hung round he r neck o n a thi n V eneti an chain and ,

“
looked enti rely o u t o f keeping with the r est o f her d res s A
”
.

p re s ent fro m he r fi a n c é thought Ra z u m ihin

”
.
,
“
We mu st start D o uni a w e mu st start
, h e r mothe r , ,

cr i ed i n a flutt er H e w il l b e thinking w e are still angr y

.

a fte r ye sterday f r om o u r coming s o l ate M erci ful b e av

”
.
,

e ns !

Whil e s h e said thi s s h e w as hur riedly p u tting o n he r h a t

and mantl e ; D ouni a t o o put o n h er things Her glo ves a s
, ,
.
,

Ra z u m ih in noti ced we r e no t m er ely shabby but h ad hole s i n

,

them and yet thi s ev iden t pove rty gav e the two l adi es an ai r
,

o f speci al dignity wh ich i s always found i n peopl e w h o kno w

,

how to w e ar po o r clothe s Ra z u m ihin looked r ev er ently at .

“
D ouni a and felt prou d o f e sc o rting he r Th e q ue en wh o
”
.

“
mended h e r stockings i n p ri so n h e thou ght mu s t h av e , ,

looked th en ev e ry i nch a queen and ev en mo r e a q u een than

”
at sump t u ou s banq u et s and l ev é e s
”
.

“
M y Go d excl aimed Pulcheri a Al exandrovna l i t tle d i d
, ,

I thi nk that I shou ld ev e r fear s eeing my son my darling

”
, ,

darling Ro dya ! I am a fr aid D mitr i P r o k o fi tch s h e added , , ,

glancing at h im t imidly .

“
D o n t b e a fr aid mothe r s ai d D ouni a ki s sing h er bet t e r
’

”
, , , ,

h av e f aith i n hi m .

“ ’
O h d ear I hav e faith i n him bu t I h ave n t slept al l ni ght
, , ,

excl aimed th e poo r woman .

They came o u t into the street .

“
D o yo u know D ou ni a when I do z ed a l ittl e th i s mor ni n g
, ,

I dre amed o f M ar f a P et rovna s h e w as all i n white

s h e came up t o m e took my hand and shook h er he ad a t me

, , ,

but s o ste rnly a s though s h e w ere blaming m e Is tha t .

’
a goo d o men ? O h dear m e ! Y o u do n t know Dm i t ri Pro c!

,
” ’
ko fi t c h th at M ar fa P e t r o v n a s dead !
N o I didn t kn o w ; who i s M ar fa P e tr ovn a
’
,

S he di ed s u ddenly ; and o nly fancy

 C HAPT E R III

E i s w ell qu it e well ! ” Z o s s im o v cried ch ee r fully

as th ey enter ed .

H e h ad come i n ten m inute s e arl ie r and w a s

sitting i n the s ame place a s b e f o re on the so fa Rasko lniko v
, .

w a s s itting i n the oppo site co rner fully dr es sed and care fully
,

w ashed and comb ed as h e had no t b een fo r some tim e p ast

, .

Th e ro o m w a s immedi ately crowded yet N a sta sya managed ,

to fo ll o w the v i sito r s i n and stayed t o li sten .

Raskolniko v re ally w a s almost well as compared with hi s ,

conditi on the day b e fo re but h e w a s still pale li stles s and

, , ,

sombre H e lo oked like a wounded man o r one w ho h as

.

undergone s om e ter rible phys ical su ffering H is b rows wer e .

knitted hi s lip s comp res sed his e y e s fev eri sh

, , He spoke .

l ittle and relu ctantly a s though p er fo rming a duty and ther e

, ,

w a s a r estles snes s i n hi s mov ement s .

H e o nly wanted a sl ing o n hi s arm o r a b andage o n hi s

finge r to compl ete the imp re s sio n o f a man with a pain fu l
absces s o r a b roken arm The p al e somb re face li ghted up
.
,

fo r a moment wh en h is mothe r and s i ster enter ed but thi s ,

only gav e it a lo o k o f mo re i ntens e su ffering i n pl ace o f it s ,

l i stle ss d ej ection The l ight so on di ed away but the lo o k o f

.
,

su ffering r em ained and Z o s s im o v watching and studying hi s

, ,

p ati ent with al l the z est o f a young do cto r b eginni ng to

practi s e noti ced i n hi m no j oy at the arriv al o f hi s mother
,

and s i ste r but a sor t o f b itter hidden determinatio n to bea r

, ,

anothe r hour o r two o f i nevitabl e to rtu re H e s a w l at er that .

almo st ev ery wo rd o f the following co nv er s ation s eemed to

tou ch o n som e so re pl ac e and i r ritate it B ut at the s ame .

tim e h e marv elled at th e powe r o f controll ing hims el f and

hiding h i s feel ings i n a pati ent w h o the pr eviou s d ay had like ,

a monomani ac fallen into a fr enzy at th e sl ightest word

”
.
,
“
Y e s I s e e mysel f now th at I am almo st w ell s aid Rasko l
, ,

n ik o v giv ing hi s mother and si ster a kis s o f wel come whi ch

,
“ ’
m ade Pu lcheri a Alexandr o vn a r adiant a t o nce And I don t .

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say thi s a s I did ye s ter day h e said addre ssing Ra z u m ihin , , ,

with a friendly p re ssu re o f hi s hand .

“
Yes i ndeed I am qu ite surp ri sed at him to day began
, ,
-
,

Z o s s im o v mu ch delighted at th e l adies entrance fo r he had

’

, ,

not succeeded in keeping up a convers ation with hi s p ati ent

“
fo r ten minu tes In another thr e e o r fou r days i f h e go es
.
,

o n like th i s h e wi ll b e j u st as b e for e that i s as h e was a

, , ,

mo nth ago o r two , o r perhap s even three Thi s ha s .

been c o ming o n fo r a long whil e eh ? C o n fess now

”
, ,

that it h as been pe rhap s you r o w n fau lt ? h e added w ith a ,

tentativ e smile a s though stil l a frai d o f i rritating him

”
.
,
“
It i s very po ssible answered Rasko lnikov coldly
”
.
,

I should s a y too continued Z o s s im o v w ith z est tha t

, , ,

you r complete re cov ery depend s solely o n your sel f N o w that .

o ne can talk t o you I should like to impre ss upon you that it

,

i s ess ential to avo id the elementary s o to speak fundamental , ,

cau ses tending to p ro du ce you r morbi d condition : i n that

case you wi ll b e cur ed i f n o t i t will go from bad to wors e , ,
.

’
Thes e fundamental cau ses I don t know but they mu st b e ,

known to yo u You ar e an i ntelli gent m an and mu st h ave

.
,

observ ed you rs el f o f cou rse I fancy th e fi r st stage o f you r

, .

d erangement coi ncide s with you r l eav ing the univ ersity You .

mu st not be l e ft without o ccupation and s o wo rk and a

”
, ,

definite aim s e t b e fo re you might I fancy b e v ery benefi cial , ,

.

“
Yes yes ; you are p er fectly r ight
,
I will make haste .

and retu rn to th e univer sity : and then eve rything will go

smoothly .

Z o s s im o v w h o had begun hi s s age adv ice partly to make

,

an e ffect b e fo r e th e l adi es w a s ce rtainly somewhat mysti fied, ,

when g l ancin g at hi s p atient he ob serv ed u nmi stakabl e

, ,

mo ckery o n hi s face Thi s l asted an instant however Pul

.
,
.

cher ia Al exandrovna b e g an at once thanking Zo s s im o v ,

e speci ally fo r hi s v i si t to thei r lodging the prev ious night

”
.

“
What ! he saw you l ast ni g ht ? Raskolniko v asked a s ,
“
though startled Then you hav e no t slept e ithe r a fte r you r
.

j o u rn eyf
“
Ach Ro dya th at was o nly till two o clock D o unia and ’

”
.
, ,

I nev er go to b ed b e fo re two at home .

“
I don t know how to thank him eithe r Rasko lnikov went
’
,
“
o n suddenly frowning and lo o king d o wn
,
S etting aside the .
226 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

que sti on o f p aymen t— fo rgiv e me fo r r e ferr ing to i t ( h e

tu rned to Zo s s im o v ) I r eally don t kno w what I hav e don e
-
’

’
to de serv e such speci al attentio n from you ! I s imply do n t
under stand it and and i t w ei gh s upon m e ,
’
i ndeed b ecau s e I don t u nde rstand it I tell y o u s o c a n .

d id l y .

“ ’
D o n t b e i rr itated Zo s s im o v f o rced h imsel f to l augh
, .

As sume that yo u ar e my fi r st p atient— well — w e fellows

j u st beginning to p racti se lov e o u r fi r st pati ent s as i f they
wer e ou r child ren and some almost f all i n lov e with them
”
.
,

And o f cou rs e I am not r i ch i n p atients

”
.
, ,
“
I s a y nothing abou t him added Raskolniko v po inting to , ,
“
Ra z u m ih in though h e ha s h ad nothing f ro m me e ither but
”
,

i nsu lt and trouble .

“
What nonsense h e is talking ! Why you are i n a s enti
”
,

mental mo o d to day ar e you ? shouted Ra z u m ihin

-
, .

I f h e had had mo re p enetr atio n h e would h av e s een that

ther e wa s no t r ace o f sentimental ity i n him but something ,

indeed quite th e O ppo site B ut A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a notic ed .

it S h e was i ntently and u neasi ly w atching he r b rother

”
. .

’
As fo r yo u mother I do n t d are to sp eak h e w ent on
, , , ,
“
a s thou g h repe atin g a le sso n le arned by h eart It i s o nly .

to day that I hav e b een abl e to r eali se a littl e how di str essed
-

you mu st hav e b een h ere ye sterday w aiting fo r m e to com e

”
,

back .

Wh en h e h ad sai d thi s h e suddenl y h eld o u t hi s h and t o ,

h i s s i ste r smil in g w ithout a wo rd B ut in thi s smil e there

, .

w as a fl ash o f r e al un fei gned f eel ing D ouni a cau ght it at .

o nce and w arml y p res sed h is h and o verj oyed and th ank fu l
, , .

I t w a s th e fir st time he h ad addressed her since thei r dispute

’
the previ ou s d ay The mothe r s face lighted up with e cstati c
.

happines s at the s i g ht o f thi s conclu siv e unspoken r econcili a

t i on “
Y e s that is wha t I lov e hi m f o r
” Ra z u m ih in e x a g
.
, , ,

ger ating it all muttered to him sel f with a v i go rou s t u rn in

, ,
“
hi s chai r H e has thes e mov ements
”
.

“
And h o w wel l h e do es i t all the mothe r w a s thinking
-
,
“
t o h er sel f What generou s impu ls es he has and how simply
.
, .

h ow del icat ely h e put an end to al l the mi sunder standing

w ith h i s si ster— simpl y by holdi ng o u t hi s h and at the r ight
m inute and lo oking at her l ike that A nd what fi n e eye s .
228 F Y OD O R D OS T O EV S K Y

N a s ta sya
’
he r t o w ash o u t th e b l oo d I v e o nl y
”
.

j ust got dre ssed

”
.

“
B l o od ! What blo od ? Pul cheri a Al exandr o vna ask ed in
alarm .

“ ’
O h nothing— do n t b e u neasy It w as wh en I w a s w ander .

i ng a b out yesterday rathe r deli riou s I chanced upo n a m an

, ,

who had b ee n run ove r a cl erk

“
D eli ri ou s ? B ut you r em emb e r eve rything ! ” Ra z u m ihin
inter rupted .

“
That s t rue Rasko lniko v answer ed with sp eci al car e ful
’
,
“
nes s . I rem emb e r e ve rything even to the slighte st detai l ,
’
and yet— why I di d that and went the re and s aid that I can t ,

clearly expl ain n o w .

“
A fam ili ar phen o meno n i nterp o sed Z o s s im o v actions , ,

a r e s o m etime s p er fo rm ed i n a m aste rly and m ost cunning

w ay whil e the di re cti on o f the actions i s der anged and
,

dep endent o n v ar i ous mo r b i d impr e ssi ons— it s l ike a dream ’

.

Perhap s it s a goo d thing r e ally that h e sh o ul d think m e

’

almo st a m adman thought Raskolnikov , .

“
Why p eopl e i n pe r fe ct health act i n the same w ay t o o
, ,

ob ser ved D ouni a looki ng u neasi ly at Z o s s im o v

,
.

“
The re i s som e t ruth i n you r ob se rvati o n th e l atte r ,

repli ed . I n that s ens e we are certainly all not inf requently

like madm en but with the sl ight di fference that the derange d
,

a re som ewhat m adde r fo r w e mu st draw a li ne A normal ,

.

m an it i s tru e hardly exi sts Among doz ens— p erhap s hun

”
, , .

d reds o f thou sand s h ardly o n e i s to b e m et w ith

—
.

“
At the wo rd m adman carel es sly dropped by Z o s s im o v ,

i n hi s chatte r o n hi s favou r ite subj ect ev ery one f r owned , .

Ra skolnikov s a t s eem ing not to p ay attenti on plunged i n ,

thought w ith a strange sm il e o n h is p al e lip s H e wa s sti ll .

m editating o n something .

“
Well what about th e m an w h o w a s run o ver ? I in t e r
”
,

r u p t e d yo u ! Ra z u m ihin cri ed hasti ly

”
.

What ? Raskolniko v s e emed to w ake up Oh I .

got spattered w ith b l ood helpi ng to car ry him to hi s lodging .

B y the way mamm a I did an u npardonab le thing yesterday

, , .

I w a s lite rally o u t o f my mi nd I gav e away al l the money .

’
you sent m e to hi s w i fe fo r the fu ne ral S he s a widow .

now , in c o nsumption a p oo r cre atu re t hree l ittle chi l

,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 229

’
dren starving, n o thing i n t he house there s a d a u gh
’
te r too
, p erhap s you d have give n i t yours el f i f y o u d ’

s een them B ut I had no right to do it I admit espe cially

.
,

as I kne w how you needed the money your sel f T o help .

o ther s o n e must have the right to do it o r else Cr e v ez c hi e n s , ,

”
,
’
“ ’
H e l aughed
’ ’
s i n o u s n et es pa s c o n t e n ts That s r ight i sn t . .
,

it D ouni a
“
N 0 i t s not
’
answere d D ouni a fi rmly
”
.
, ,

B ah ! you to o hav e i deal s he muttered looking at he r

, , , ,
“
almo st w ith hatred and smi ling sarcastically I o ught to
,
.

’
hav e consider ed that Well that s prai s ewo rthy and it s.
,
’
,

b ette r fo r you and i f y o u r each a l ine you won t o ver ’

step you will b e unhappy

, and i f yo u o verstep it may ,

be you will b e still u nhappi e r B ut all that s nonsense .

’

,
“
he added i rritably v exed at b eing carri ed away ,
I o nly .

meant to s a y that I beg you r fo rgivenes s mother he co n , ,

cluded sho rtly and ab ruptly

, .

“ ’
That s enough B odya I am su r e that ev erythi ng y o u , ,

do i s ve ry good said hi s mother delighted

”
, , .

“ ’
D o n t b e to o sure he answer ed twi sting hi s m o uth i nto a , ,

smi l e .

A s il ence followed There was a certai n co nstrai nt i n all .

thi s conver sation and i n the silence and i n the r e conci li ation
, , ,

and i n the fo rgi veness and all w ere feel ing it

”
.
,
“
It i s as th o ugh they we re a fraid o f m e Raskolniko v was ,

thinking t o himsel f lo o king askance at hi s mothe r and s i ste r,

.

Pulcheri a Alexandrovna was indeed growi ng more t imid the

longe r s h e kept sil ent .

“
Yet i n thei r abs ence I seemed to lov e them s o much
flashed through hi s mind .

“
Do you know Ro dya M ar fa Petro vna is dead Pul cheri a
, , ,

Al exandrovna sudde nly blurted o u t .

“
What M ar fa Petrovna
O h mercy o n u s— M ar fa P etrovna S vidrig a i l o v I wr ot e
”
, .

you s o much about he r .

“
A a h! -
Ye s -
I r ememb er S o she s dead ! O h ’

”
. .
,

re ally ? he rou sed him sel f suddenly a s i f waking up “

What
”
.
,

did she di e o f ?
O nly imagi ne quite suddenly Pul cheri a Al exandr o vna
, ,
“
answer ed hur ri edly encouraged by hi s cu ri os ity O n t he
, .
93 0 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

v e ry day I was sending you that l ette r ! W o uld yo u b el i eve

i t that aw fu l man seem s to hav e b ee n the cau s e o f he r de ath
”
.
,

They say he be at h er dreadfu lly

”
.

“
Why wer e they o n su ch b ad te rms ? he asked addre ssing
, ,

hi s si ste r .

“
N o t at all Qui t e the cont rary i ndeed With h er he wa s
. .
,

alway s ve ry p ati ent cons ide rate e ven I n fact al l those s even
, .
,

year s o f the i r m arri ed l i fe he gav e w ay t o he r too mu ch s o ,

indeed i n m any cases All o f a sudden h e seem s t o hav e lo st

”
.
,

p ati ence .

“
The n h e coul d not have b een s o aw ful i f h e controll ed
h imsel f f o r seven year s ? Yo u s eem to b e de fending him ,

D ounia
“ ’
N o no he s an aw ful man ! I c a n imagine n o thing m ore
”
, ,

aw ful ! D ou ni a answer ed alm o st w ith a s hudder knittin g , ,

he r b rows and s inking int o th o ught

,
.

“
That had happ ened i n the mo rning Pul cher i a Al exan ,

d ro v n a w ent o n hu rri edly And d irectly afte rwards s h e .

o rder ed th e ho r se s t o b e h arnes sed to dri ve to the town

immediately a fte r di nne r S h e always u s ed to dr i ve t o the .

town i n su ch case s S he ate a very g oo d dinne r I a m

.
,

to ld
”
.

“
A fte r the b eating ?
That w a s always he r hab i t ; and i mm ediately a fte r
d inne r so a s not to b e l at e i n starting s h e w ent t o the
, ,

b ath —hou se Y o u s e e s h e was u ndergo ing so me t reat

.
,

ment w ith b ath s Th ey h av e a co ld sp ring there and

.
,

sh e u sed to b ath e i n i t regul a rly ev e ry day and no ,

so one r had s h e got i nt o th e w ate r when sh e suddenly had

a stroke ! ”
“
1 shoul d think s o sai d Z o s s im o v
”
°
,

And di d he b eat he r b adly ?

”
What do e s that m atte r ! pu t i n D o u ni a .

H m ! B ut I do n t know W hy yo u want t o tel l u s such

’ ’

go ssip mothe r sai d Raskolnik o v i rritab ly a s it we re i n S p it e

, , ,

o f him sel f .

“ ’
Ah my dea r I d o n t know wha t t o t alk ab o ut b r o ke f r om
, , ,

Pulche ri a Al exandrovna
‘ ”
.

Why are y o u al l a frai d o f m e ? he asked w i t h a c o n

, ,
~
=

s tr ai ned s m ile .
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’
Well i f you rememb e re d som ethi ng ; that s all ri ght !
, I
w a s b eginning to thi nk mutter ed Z o s s im o v getting u p ,
“
f rom th e so fa It i s tim e f o r me to b e o ff I w i ll look in
. .

agai n pe rhap s i f I can H e made h is b ows and ,

w ent out
”
.

“
What an excellent m an ! o b se rved Pul che ri a Al exan
dro v n a .

“
Y e s , excellent , splendid , w el l - educated , i ntellige nt Rask o l ,

miko v b egan suddenly speaki ng w ith su rpr i sing r apidity , and

,
“
a l ivel ines s h e had not shown ti ll then I can t rememb e r .
’

whe re I m et him b e fo r e my i l lnes s I b el ie ve I h av e m et

”
.

h im s om ewhe re And thi s i s a good man too h e , ,

nodded at Ra z u m ih in D o you l ike him D ounia . he asked ,

he r ; and suddenly fo r som e u nknown r eason l aughed

”
.
, ,
“
V e ry mu ch answe red D ou ni a
”
.
,

F o o w hat a pig you are

— Ra z u m ih in p rotested blu sh ing , ,

i n te r ribl e con fu s ion and he go t up f rom hi s chai r Pul che ri a

,
.

Al exandr o vna smi led f ai ntly but Raskolniko v l aughed aloud

”
.
,
“
Wher e a r e yo u o ff to ?

I mu st go .

You need not at all S tay Z o s s im o v h as g o ne s o yo u. .

,

mu st D on t go Wh at s the time ? I s i t twel ve o cl ock ?

.
’
.
’ ’

What a p r etty watch you have got D ouni a B ut w hy ar e yo u

”
.

al l s ilent again I do al l the talking . .

It wa s a p re sent f rom M ar f a Petrovna answe red D ounia

”
.
,

And a v ery expensiv e o n e ! added Pulcheri a Al exan

d ro v n a
”
.

“ ’
A ah ! What a bi g o n e ! H ardly like a l ady s
—
”
.

I l ike that sort s ai d D ouni a ,

.

S o it i s not a p r esent f r o m h er fi ance though t Razu ,

m i hi n and w as u nr easonably d elighted

”
.
,
“ ’
I th o ught i t w a s Lu z hin s p re sent ob se rv ed Ra skolnik o v
”
.
,

N 0 h e has n o t made D o uni a any pres ent s yet

,
.

A ah ! And do you rememb e r m oth er I was i n lov e and

-

”
, ,

w anted to get m arr i ed ? he s aid suddenly l ooking at hi s ,

m othe r w ho w a s di sconcerted by the sudden change o f s u b

,

je c“t and th e w ay he ” spoke o f it .

O h yes my d ea r
, ,
.

Pul che ri a Alexandr o vna exchanged glance s w ith D o uni a

an d Ra z u m ihin .
 C R IM E AND P UN I SH ME NT 23 3

“
H m ye s
’ ’
What shall I tell y o u
,
. I do n t rememb e r mu ch ?

indeed She wa s su ch a si ckly gi rl h e went on grow ing

.
,

d reamy and look ing down again Quite an i nval id She . .

was fond o f gi ving alm s to the poo r and wa s always dream ,

i ng o f a nunne ry and once s h e bu rst into tears when sh e ,

b egan talki ng to m e about i t Yes yes I rememb er I .

, , .

r ememb er very well S he wa s an ugly l ittl e thing I r eally . .

’
do n t know what drew me to he r then— I think it w a s b e caus e
s h e w a s always il l I f s h e had b een lame o r hunchb ack I .
,

b eli eve I sh o ul d h ave l iked h er b ette r still h e smile d ,

“
d reamily Yes it was a sort o f sp ring delirium
.
, .

“
N o it w a s n o t o nly sp ring del i rium
,
said D ouni a with , ,

warm feeling .

H e fixed a strai ned intent look o n hi s si ste r bu t did no t ,

hea r or did not u nde rstand her wo rds Then completely lost .
,

i n thought he got u p went up to hi s mother kissed her went

, , , ,

b ack to hi s place and s a t down

”
.

“
Y o u love he r even now ? sai d Pulcheri a Al exandrovna ,

touched .

“
H e r ? N o w ? O h yes Y o u ask about her ? No ,
.

’
that s al l now as it were i n anothe r wo rld and s o ,

long a go And indeed everything happening her e s eem s

”
.

“
somehow far away H e looked attenti vely at them You
. .

now I seem to be looking at you f rom a thou sand m ile s

away but goodnes s knows why we ar e talking o f that !
”
,
’
And what s th e u se o f asking a b out it he added w ith annoy ,

ance and b iting hi s nai ls h e fel l i nt o dreamy si lence again

, , .

“
What a wretche d lodging you have Ro dya ! It s like a ’

”
,

tomb s aid Pul che ri a Al exandrovna suddenly b reaking the

, ,
“ ’
oppres siv e sil ence I am sur e it s quite hal f through you r
”
.

lodging you hav e b ecome s o m elancholy

”
.

“
M y lodging he answe red l i stles sly Yes the l odgin g
, , .
,

had a great de al to do w ith it I thought that t o o .

,

I f only you knew though what a strange thing you s aid j u st , ,

”
now mother he s aid laughi ng strangely
, , , .

A l ittl e mo re and thei r companionship thi s mothe r and

, ,

thi s siste r with him a fte r three years abse nce thi s i ntimate
,
’
,

tone o f conve rs ati on i n face o f the utte r impos sibil ity o f ,

r eally speaking a b out anything w ould hav e b ee n b eyond hi s ,

p owe r o f endu rance B ut the re was o n e u rgent m atte r whi ch .

— R
9
23 4 F YODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

m u st b e s ettl ed way o r th e other that day s o h e h a d

o ne -

de cided whe n h e woke N o w h e w as gl ad to r ememb e r it

.
,

a s a means o f e s cape
”
.

“
Li sten D ouni a h e b egan gravely and dr ily o f cours e
, , , ,

I b eg you r p ardo n fo r yeste rday bu t I conside r it my duty ,

to tel l you agai n that I do not w ithdraw fr o m my chie f p o i nt .

It i s m e o r Lu zhi n I f I am a s c o u ndrel y o u mu st n o t b e
.
, .

O n e i s enough I f you m arry Lu zhin I ce as e at o nce to

”
.
,

l o ok o n y o u as a s i ster .

“
Ro dya Ro dya !
, I t i s the s ame as yeste rday agai n ,
“
Pul che ri a A lexandrovna cried m ou r n fully And w h y do , .

y ou ca ll you rsel f a s coundre l ? I can t b ear it Y o u s aid ’

.

the s am e yeste rday

”
.

“
B rothe r D ou ni a answe red fi rmly and w ith the s am e
,
“
d rynes s . I n al l thi s the re i s a m istake o n you r p art I .

thought i t o ve r at night and found o u t the m i stake ,

It .

i s al l b ecau s e you s eem to fancy I am s acr i fi cing mysel f

t o som e o ne and fo r s om e o ne That i s not the cas e at all . .

I am s imply m arrying fo r my o w n sake b ecau s e things ,

ar e har d fo r m e T hough o f cou rs e I sh al l b e gl ad i f I

.
, ,

su cceed i n b eing u s e ful to my fami ly B ut that i s n o t th e .

chi e f motiv e fo r my decis io n

”
. 0

“
S he i s lying he thou ght to him s el f b iting h is nail s
, ,
“ ’
v indi cti vely P roud creatu r e ! S he w o n t adm it she wants
.

t o do it o ut o f char ity ! Too haughty ! O h b ase characte r s ! ,

They even l o ve as though they hate Oh h o w I

”
o
.
,

h ate them all !

“ ”
I n fact c o nti nu ed D ou ni a I am m arrying Pyotr Petro
, ,

v it ch b ecau s e o f two ev il s I cho os e the l ess I intend to .

do honestly al l he expe cts o f m e s o I am not dece iv i ng him

”
.
,

Why did y o u smil e j u st now ? S he t o o fl ushed and , , ,

t her e w as a gl eam o f ange r i n he r eyes .

“ ”
A ll ? h e aske d w ith a m al i gnant gr in .

Withi n ce rtai n l imits B o th t he manne r and fo rm o f

.

’
Pyot r P e tro v itch s cou rtship sh o wed m e at o nce what h e
w anted H e m ay o f cou rs e think too well o f hims e l f but
.
, , ,

I h o p e he esteem s m e t oo Why are you l aughing 0

”
. o
,

agai n ?
“
And w hy a re yo u b lushing again ? You ar e lyi ng s iste r , .

Yo u a re i ntenti o nally lying s imply fr o m fem ini ne o b s t inacy , ,

23 6 F Y OD O R DO S TOEV S K Y

r eadi ng and read it through tw i ce Pul che r ia Alexandr o vna

, .

showed marke d anxi ety and all i ndeed exp ecte d s o mething ,

parti cular .

“
What surpri s es m e h e b egan a fter a short p au se h and , , ,

i ng the l ette r t o h is mothe r b ut not addr essi ng any o n e i n ,

“
p articu lar is that he i s a b u s ines s m an a lawyer and hi s
, , ,

co nve rsation i s p r ete ntiou s i nde ed a nd yet h e w rite s su ch

”
,

an uneducated l ette r .

They al l started They had expected s omethi ng quite

.

di ffer ent .

“
B ut they al l wr ite l ike that y ou know Ra z u m ihin , ,

o b se rved abruptly
”
, .

“
H av e y o u r e ad it ?
Ye s ” .

We showed him Ro dya We consulted h im j u s t

”
.
,

no w , Pul che ri a Al exandrovna b egan emb arr assed

”
.
,
“
That s j ust the j argo n o f th e cou rts Ra z u m ihin put i n
’

”
.
,

Legal do cuments ar e w r itten l ike that t o thi s day .

“
Legal ? Yes it s j u st l egal — bus i ness l anguage not so
,
’

v e ry u neducat ed and not qu it e educated— b usi ness l an

”
,

guage !
“
Pyotr Petrov itch m ake s n o s e cr et o f the fact that h e
had a che ap edu cation he i s prou d indeed o f hav ing m ade ,

hi s o w n way A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a obse rve d s omewhat

, ,

o ffended by he r b rothe r s tone ’

.

“ ’
Well i f he s pr ou d o f it he h as r eason I do n t d eny
,
’

, ,

it You s eem to b e o ffended s i ster at my making o nly su ch

.
, ,

a fr ivolou s criti ci sm o n the lette r a nd to thi nk that I speak ,

o f su ch tr ifl ing matte r s o n pu rpos e to annoy you It is .

qu ite the contrary a n o b se rvatio n apropos o f the s tyl e

,

o ccu rr ed to m e that i s by no m eans i rr elevant as things

‘
stand Ther e i s o n e expre s si on blam e your s elves put i n ’
.
,

very s igni fi cantly and p lai nly and ther e i s b es ides a thre at ,

that h e will go away at once i f I am pre sent That thr eat .

t o go away i s equ iv al ent to a thr e at to ab ando n you b oth

i f you are di sob edi ent and to ab andon yo u n o w a fter s u m ,

m o ning you to Petersbu rg Well w hat do you think ? C a n .

,

o ne r es ent su ch an expre s sio n from Luzhin a s w e shoul d ,

i f he ( he p o inted t o Ra z u m ihin ) had wr itte n i t o r Z o s s im o v,

”
,

o r o ne o f u s ?
 C R IM E A ND P UN IS H M EN T 23 7

N - no , answere d D ouni a with mor e animatio n I s aw , .

cl early that i t w as too nai vely expres sed and that perhap s ,

h e simply has no skill i n w riting that i s a true cr iti cism ,

b ro ther I did not exp ect indeed

.
,
“
It i s expr es sed i n legal style and s ounds co arse r than ,

perhap s he intended B ut I mu st disillus io n you a l ittle

. .

Ther e i s o n e expre ssio n i n the letter o n e s lande r about m e , ,

and rathe r a contempti b l e o n e I gave the money l ast nigh t .

to the w idow a woman i n consumption cru shed w ith trou b l e

‘ ,

and not o n the pretext o f the funeral b ut s imply to pay

,
’
,

fo r the fu ne ral and not to the daughter— a young woman

, ,

as he wr ites o f noto rious b ehaviou r ( whom I s a w l ast

,

night fo r the fi rst time i n my li fe ) b ut to the w idow In -

.

all thi s I s e e a too hasty des ir e to s lande r m e and to r aise

di ssension b etween u s I t is expressed agai n in legal j a r g o n
.
,

that i s to s ay w ith a too o b viou s di splay o f the aim a nd

, ,

with a very nai v e eagerness H e i s a man o f i ntelligence .

,

but to act s ensibly i ntelligence i s n o t enough I t al l show s

, .

the man and I do n t think he has a gre at e steem fo r you’

.

I tel l you thi s s imply to war n you be caus e I s ince rely w ish ,

fo r you r good
D ouni a di d not reply H er r esolution had b een take n . .

S he w as only awaiting the evening .

“
The n what i s you r de ci s ion Ro dya aske d Pulcheri a ,

Alexandro vna who was mo re uneasy than ever at the

,

sudden new bu s inesslike to ne o f his t alk

”
.
,

What deci si on ?
You s e e Pyotr Petr o vitch wr ite s that y o u ar e n o t to b e
w ith u s thi s evening and that he wi ll go away i f you com e .

”
,

S o will you come ?

“
That o f cou rs e i s not fo r m e to de cide but for you
, , ,

fi r st i f you ar e not o ffended by su ch a request ; and seco ndly

, ,

b y D ounia i f s h e too i s not o ffe nded I w ill do what you

”
.
, , ,

think best he added dr ily

, , .

“
D ou ni a ha s al ready de cided and I fully agre e w ith he r , ,

Pulcher i a Al exandrovna hastened to de clare .

“
I decided to a s k you Ro dya to u rge you n o t to fai l t o
”
, ,

b e with u s at thi s intervi ew s aid Do unia Will yo u , .

come ?
“
Yes .
23 8 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY
’
I wil l ask you too to b e w ith u s at eigh t o cl o ck sh e
, , ,
“
s aid address ing Ra z u m ih in Mo the r I am i nviting h im
”
.
, , ,

too .

“
Qu ite ri ght D ou ni a
, Well si nce y o u have de cided
.
, ,
“
a dded Pulcher i a Al exandr o vna so b e it, I shal l feel e asie r
.

mysel f I do not l ike co ncealment and de ception

. B ette r
.

l et u s have the whol e t r u th Py o tr Petrovitch m ay b e

”
.

angry o r n o t n o w !
,
240 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

t o al low he r t o enter Raskol nikov had at firs t sh o wn he r .

the place o n the so fa whe re Z o s s im o v had b een si ttin g ,

but feeling that th e so fa which se rv ed him a s a b ed was , ,

to o fa m il ia r a place h e hu rr iedly motioned he r to Razu ,

m ih in s ch ai r
’
.

“
Y o u sit he re he s ai d to Ra z u m ih in putting him on th e
, ,

so fa .

S oni a sat down almo st shaking with terro r and looked , ,

timidly at the tw o ladi e s It was ev idently almost in c o n .

c e iv a b l e to hers el f that she could s it down beside them .

At the thought o f it sh e w a s s o fri ghtened that sh e hu r ,

r ie d l y got up again and i n utter co n fusion addre s sed Ra s

,

ko l n iko v .

“
I I hav e com e fo r o n e minute F o rgiv e me fo r .

“
di stu rbing you sh e b egan falte ringly
,
I c o me fro m .

K ate rina Iv anovna and s h e had n o one to s end ,

K aterin a .

I v anovna told me to b eg yo u to b e at the se rv ice

i n th e mo rnin g at the M it ro fa n ie v s ky and then
to u s to h e r to do he r the honou r s he

told m e to b eg you S oni a stamme red and ceased

speaking .

“
I w i ll try ce rtainly most cert ainly an swered Rasko l
'

, , ,

n ik o v .H e to o stood up and h e too faltered and could

, , , , ,
“
no t fi ni sh hi s s entence Please s it down h e said suddenly .
, ,
.

“
I want to talk t o you You are pe rhap s in a hu rry bu t
”
.
,

please b e so ki nd sp ar e me two m inute s and he d rew up a

, , ,

chai r fo r he r .

S oni a s a t down again and aga in t imidly sh e t o ok a hu r ri ed , ,

frightened look at the tw o l ad ies and dropped he r eye s ,

.

Ra s k o l n ik o v s pal e face flu shed a shudde r pas sed ov e r him

’
, ,

hi s eye s glowed
”
.

“
M othe r h e said firmly and i nsi stently thi s i s S o fya
, , ,

S e m yo n o v n a M a rm e l a d o v th e d au ghte r o f that u nfo rtunate ,

M r M a r m e l a d o v who was run ov e r yesterday b e fo re my

”
.
,

eyes and o f whom I w a s j u st tell ing you

,
.

Pul che ri a Alexand rovna gl anced at S o ni a and slightly ,

screwed up he r ey es I n S pite o f h er emb ar ras sment b e fo re .

Ro dya s u rgent and ch allenging lo ok s h e could not deny

’
,

hers el f th at sati s factio n D ouni a gazed gr avely and intently .

’
into the po o r gi rl s face and sc rutini sed he r with p erplexity ,
.
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H M E NT 24 1

S oni a hearing hersel f intro du ced tri ed to r ai se h e r eyes

, ,

again but was mo re emb arr assed than ev er

‘
.

”
,

I wanted to ask you said Raskolnikov hastily how

"
, , ,

things we r e ar ranged yesterday You were n o t wo rr i ed b y

”
.

the po lice fo r instance ?

,
“
N o that was all ri g ht
,
It was too ev ident the caus e ,

o f death they di d not wo rry u s only the lodgers

ar e an g ry
‘ ”
.

Wh
f
?
y
At the body s r emainin g so long Y o u s e e i t i s hot now
’
. .

S o that to day they w ill carry i t to th e cemetery into the

,
-
,
-
,

chapel unti l to mor row At fi rst K aterina Ivanovna w a s u n

,
—
.

’
wi lling but now s h e see s her sel f that it s necess ary
”
,
“
T o day then
- ?
,

Sh e b egs you to do u s the honou r to b e in the church

to mo rrow fo r the s ervi ce and then to b e p resent at the
-

”
,

fu ner al lunch
”
.

“
S he is g iv ing a fune ral lunch ?
Yes j u st a littl e S he told me to thank you v ery .

mu ch for helping us yesterday B ut fo r you we shou ld hav e

”
.
,

had noth ing fo r the fune ral .

All at once her lips and chin b egan tr embling but with , ,

an e ffo rt s h e co ntroll ed her sel f looking down again

, ,
.

D urin g th e conv ersation Rasko lnikov watched her care ,

ful ly . S he h ad a thin v ery thin pale l ittl e face rathe r , , ,

i r regular and angu la r with a sharp littl e no se and chin S he ,

.

could not h av e b een cal led p retty but her b lu e eyes wer e ,

s o clear and when th ey lighted up ther e was such a k in d l i

, ,

ness and s impl icity i n h er exp res sion that o ne could not help
being attracted H e r face and he r whol e fi g ur e i ndeed had
.
, ,

another pecu li ar ch aracter i stic I n sp ite o f her eighteen .

years sh e lo oked almo st a littl e gi rl— almost a chi ld And i n

,
.

some o f her gestu res thi s childishness seemed almo st a b su rd ,

.

“
But has K a t e r n ia Ivanovna been abl e to mana g e with
such smal l means ? D oe s she even mean to hav e a funer al
lunch ? ” Raskol nikov asked pe rsi stently keeping up th e ,

conv e rsation .

“
T h e co ffin w ill be pl ain o f cou rse and ev e rything ,

w ill b e pl ain s o i t wo n t co st much K aterina Ivanovn a

,
’
.

and I have reckoned it al l o u t s o that the re will b e enough ,

242 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

l e ft and K ate rina I v anovn a w as v e ry anxiou s i t shoul d

’
it s a com fo rt to he r
’
b e so You know o n e can t
.

s h e i s like that yo u know , .

“
I under stand I under stand o f cou rse w h y do
,

you look at my room like th at ? M y mothe r has j u st said i t

”
i s l ike a tomb .

You gav e u s eve ryth in g yeste rday S oni a sai d sudd enly , ,

i n r eply i n a lo ud r apid whi spe r ; and again she looked down

,

i n con fu sion H e r lip s and chi n we re t remblin g once mo r e

. .

S he h ad been st ruck at once by Ra sk o l n ik o v s p oo r su r round ’

ings and n ow th ese w o rds brok e o u t spontaneou sly

,
A .

si lence followed Ther e w as a l ight i n D ouni a s eye s and .

’

ev en Pul che ri a Al exandrovna lo oked ki ndly at S oni a

”
.

“
Ro d ya sh e said gettin g up
, we shal l hav e dinne r , ,

to gethe r o f cou rs e C o me D ouni a And you Ro dya .

,
.
, ,

h ad better go fo r a li ttle walk and then r est and li e d own ,

b e fo re you com e t o s e e u s I am a f raid w e h av e ex .

h a u s t e d you .

“ ’
Ye s yes I ll come h e answe red getting up fus sily
”
.
, , , ,

B ut I h av e someth ing to se e to
”
.

“
B ut su r ely you w ill h av e dinne r togeth er ? c ried Razu
mihin looki ng in su rpr i s e at Raskolnikov What do yo u
”
.
, ,

mean ?
“
Ye s yes I am coming
, o f cou r se
, o f c o u r se ! And ,

yo u stay a m inut e You do not want him j u st now do you ,

”
.
,

moth er ? O r pe rh aps I am taking h im from you ?

“
Oh no no ,
And wi ll you D mitri P r o k o fi t c h do u s the
,
.
, ,

favo r o f dini ng w ith u s

“ ”
P leas e do added D ou ni a .
,

Ra z u m ih in bowed po sitiv ely r adi ant F o r one mo m en t , . ,

they we re all st rangely emb a rras sed .

“
Go od —bye Ro dya that is ti ll w e m eet ,
I do not l ike ,
.

s aying goo d —bye Good bye N a s t a s ya Ah I h av e s ai d -

”
.
,
.
,

good bye again

-
.

Pulch eri a Al exand rovn a m eant to gre et S oni a too ; but i t ,

som ehow fail ed to come o ff and s h e we nt i n a flutte r o u t ,

o f th e room .

B ut A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a seemed to await h e r tu rn and ,

follow in g he r mothe r out gav e S oni a an attentiv e cou rteou s , , ,

bo w S oni a i n con fu si on gav e a hu rr i ed f ri ghtened cu rtsy

.
, , , .
244 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

We di d wel l to com e away Pul cher i a Al exandrovna ,

“
hu rr i edly b roke i n He was i n a hu r ry about some bu si
.

n e s s o r othe r I f he gets out and h as a b reath o f ai r

.

it i s fear ful ly cl os e i n h i s room B ut whe r e i s o n e to .

get a b re ath o f ai r h er e The ve ry streets h er e f eel like .

shut u p rooms Good h eavens ! what a town !

-
. stay
thi s s ide they w il l cru sh you — carry something Why .

i t i s a pi ano they h av e got I decl ar e how they pu sh

”
,

I am very much a frai d o f that y o ung wom an t o o , .

“
What you ng w o m an mothe r ,

Why that S o fya S e m yo n o v a who was ther e j ust now

”
.
,

Why ?
I hav e a p r esentim ent D ou nia Wel l you may b el i eve i t, .
,

o r not but as so o n as s h e cam e i n that ve ry mi nute

, I felt , ,

that s h e w a s the chi e f caus e o f the troubl e

”
.

“
N othing o f th e sort ! cri ed D ouni a i n v exation What , .

nonsens e with yo u r pr es entiments mother ! H e o nly m ade

, ,

h e r acqu ai ntance the e vening b e fore and he di d not know

”
,

he r wh en she came i n .

“
Well you wil l s e e
, S h e wo rr i e s m e ; b ut yo u w ill
.

s ee yo u w i ll s e e !
, I w as s o frightened S he was gazi ng at .

m e with tho s e eyes I coul d s carcely s it still i n my chai r

.

when h e b egan i ntro duci ng h er do you rememb e r ? I t se em s ,

s o strange but Pyotr P etrovitch w rite s l ike that ab out he r

, ,

and h e i ntrodu ces he r to u s— to you ! S o he must think a

gre at deal o f h e r ” .

“
P e o pl e wi l l w r ite anything W e w ere talked ab out and .

w ritten abou t too H av e you fo rgotten ? I am su re that she

, .

i s a go od gi rl and that i t i s all no ns ense

”
, .

“
Go d grant i t m ay b e !
And Pyot r P etrovitch i s a contemptib le sl andere r ,

D ouni a s napp ed o u t suddenly , .

Pulche ri a Al exandro vna w as cru shed ; the conv e rs atio n

w a s n o t r esumed .

I wi l l t el l y o u what I want w ith you s ai d Raskol niko v , ,

draw ing Ra z u m ihin to th e wi ndow .

“
Then I w il l tell K ateri na I vano vna that y o u ar e coming ,

S oni a s ai d hu r ri edly p repari ng to depart ,

.

“
O n e m i nut e S o fya S em yo n o vn a
, We have no s ecrets . .
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME N T 245

Y o u a re i n o u r w a y I want to have an o the r wo rd o r

no t
”
.

two with you Li st en ! h e tu rne d suddenly to Ra z u m ihin

.

“
P o rfi ry
’
again ,
Yo u know that what s hi s nam e
P etrovitch
“
? ”
I shoul d think s o ! H e i s a rel ation Why added the .

l atter w ith inter est

,
.

I s not h e managing that cas e you know about th a t

mu rder ? You wer e speaking ab out it yesterday ” .

“
Yes well ? ” Ra z u m ihin s eye s opened wide
’
.

H e was i nqui ring fo r peopl e who had p awned things ,

and I have som e pledges ther e too t r ifl e s— a r i ng my si ste r ,

-

’
gav e m e as a keeps ake when I l e ft hom e and my father s ,

s ilve r watch— they are only wo rth fi v e o r s ix r oubl e s alto

gethe r but I v alu e them S o what am I to do now ? I .

do not want to lo s e the things especi ally the watch I was ,

.

qu aking j ust now fo r fear mothe r woul d ask to look at it

, ,

when w e spoke o f D ouni a s watch I t i s the o nly thing o f ’

.

father s l e ft u s S he would b e i ll i f it were lost Y o u know

’
. .

what women ar e S o tell m e what t o do I know I ought

. .

to h av e gi ve n noti ce at the pol ice station but would it not ,

b e b ette r to go str aight to P o r fi ry ? E h ? What do you thi nk ?

The matte r might b e settle d mo re qu ickly You s e e mothe r
”
.

m ay a s k fo r it be fo re dinner .

“
C ertai nly not to the pol i ce station C ertainly to P o r fi ry . .

“
Ra z u m ih in shouted i n extraordinary excitement Well how .
,

glad I am Let u s go at o nce I t i s a coupl e o f step s We

”
. . .

shall b e su re to fi nd him
”
.

“
V e ry well l et u s go , .

And he w il l b e very very glad to make you r a c qu a in

,

tance I hav e o ften talked to him o f you at di fferent times

. .

I was speaking o f you yesterday Let u s go S o yo u knew . .

th e o l d woman ? S o that s i t ! It is all tu rning o u t S plendidly

’
.

O h yes S o fya I vanovna

”
, ,

S o fya S e m yo n o v n a cor rected Raskolnikov

, S o fya .

S e m yo n o v n a thi s i s my fri end Ra z u m ih in and he i s a goo d

”
, ,

m an .

“
I f you have to go now Soni a was beginning not looking , ,

at Ra z u m ih in at al l and still mo r e emba rrassed

”
, .

“ “
Let u s go decided Rasko lniko v
, I wil l come to yo u
”
.

to day S o fya S em yo n o v n a O nly tell m e wher e you l ive

-
, . .
24 6 FY OD O R D O S T O EV S KY

H e w a s no t exactly i ll a t e ase but s eemed hu r ri ed a nd , ,

avo ided h e r eyes S oni a gav e he r addr es s and fl ushed a s

.
,

sh e did s o They all w e nt o u t togethe r

”
. .

“
D on t you lock up ? asked Ra z u m ihin f o l lowing him o n
’
,

t o the s t ai rs
”
.

“
N eve r answer ed Raskol nik o v
, I h av e b een m eani ng .

t o buy a lo ck fo r thes e two years P eopl e ar e happy w h o

”
.

hav e no ne ed o f lo cks he s aid l aughing t o S o ni a They , , , .

stoo d s til l i n the gateway .

“
D o yo u g o t o th e r ight S o fya S e m yo n o v n a ? How di d
”
,

you find m e by the way ? he added as though he w anted t o

, ,

s a y s om ethi ng quite di ffere nt H e wanted t o look at he r .

so ft cle ar eyes but this was not e asy , .

“
Why yo u gav e you r addres s to Po l enk a yesterday
, .

Po lenka ? O h ye s ; Po l enka that i s th e littl e gi rl S h e

”
, , .

is you r s i ste r ? D i d I give he r t h e addr es s ?

“
Why had y o u fo rgotten ? ”
”
,

N o I rem emb er
, .

I had heard m y fathe r speak o f y ou o nly I did n ot 0 o

k now you r name and he did n o t k now it And now I cam e

,
‘
.

and as I had l earnt you r name I aske d to day Whe re ,

-
,
? ’
doe s M r Raskolnikov liv e. I did n o t know you h ad
o nly a r oom to o Go o d bye I w il l tell K ate rina I v a -

”
.
,

no vna .

S he w a s extrem ely gl ad to escap e at l as t ; s h e w ent away

l ooking down hu r ryi ng to get o u t o f sight a s soon as po s
,

s ib le t o w alk th e twenty step s to th e tu rning o n the ri gh t

,

and to b e at l ast alo ne and then movi ng r api dly al o ng lo ok , ,

ing at no o n e noti ci ng nothi ng to think to rememb er to

, , , ,

m editate o n eve ry wo rd ev ery detai l N ev er neve r h ad , .

,

sh e felt anything l ike thi s D imly and u nconsciou sly a .

whol e n ew wo rl d was opening b e fo re he r S he r emembere d .

s uddenly that Raskolnikov m e ant to com e t o her that day ,

p erhaps that m o rning p erhaps at o nce !

”
,
“
O nly not to day pl ease not to day ! sh e kept muttering
—-
, ,

w ith a s inki ng heart a s though entreating som e one like a , ,

“
f ri ghtened chil d M e rcy ! to m e to that ro o m he
”
. o

wi ll s e e o h dear ! , p

S he w a s n o t cap abl e at that i nst ant o f n o tic1n g an u nknown

g en t l em an wh o wa s watching he r and f o ll o wing at her heels .
24 8 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

n a u mo v Tai l o r ”
B ah ! th e s t range r r ep ea t ed again
.
, ,

wondering at t h e strange c o incidence and he rang n ext doo r , ,

at N o 8 Th e doo r s w e re two o r thr e e yards apart

”
. . .

“
You lodge at K a p e rn a u m o v s h e s aid looking at S oni a ’
, ,

a nd l aughing H e alter ed a wai stco at fo r m e ye sterday

.

”
.

I am staying cl o s e her e at M ad am e Re s s l ich s H ow o dd ! ’

.

S oni a looked at hi m attentively

”
.

“
We ar e n eighb ou rs h e w ent o n gaily I only came
,
”
.

to t o wn th e day be f o re yesterday Good bye f o r the p resent .

-
.

S oni a made n o r eply ; th e do o r op ened and s h e sl ipped i n .

S he fel t fo r s o m e r eas o n ashamed and u neasy .

P o rfi ry s , Ra z u m ih in
’
On t he way t o was o bv i o usly ex
cited .

“ ’
Th at s cap ital b roth er h e r ep eated s ev eral times and
”
, , ,

I am glad ! I am glad !
“ ”
What ar e yo u gl ad ab out ? Rask o lniko v thought t o
hims el f .

“ ’ ’
I didn t kn o w that y o u pl edged th ings at tha t old woman s ,

to o And and w a s i t long ag o ? I mean w a s it l o ng

”
.
,

s inc e you w er e ther e ?

“
What a s impl e h earted fool h e i s ! ” -

When was it ? ” Raskolnik o v st o pp ed stil l to r ec o l le c t .

Two o r t hre e days b e fo r e he r death it mu st hav e b een B ut

”
.

I am n o t go ing to r edeem th e things now h e put i n w ith a ,

so rt o f hu rri ed and consp icu ou s sol i citude a b out th e things .

“ ’ ’
I v e not mo r e than a si lve r roubl e l e ft a fter last night s
accu rs ed deli r iu m ! ”
H e l aid sp eci al emphasi s o n th e del i r iu m
”
.

“
Yes ye s Ra z u m ihin h astened t o agr ee— w ith wh at was
, ,

not cl ea r Th en that s why you

. were stru ck ’

partly yo u know i n you r d el i riu m you we re co ntinu al ly

’
m entioning some rings o r chains ! Yes yes that s clear
”
, ,
’
i t s al l cl ear now .

Hul lo ! H o w that idea mu st h av e g o t abou t amo ng

them H er e thi s m an wi l l go to the stak e fo r m e and I fi nd
.
,

h im delighted at hav ing it c l e a r e d u p why I spok e o f r ings

i n my del i riu m ! What a hold th e ide a mu st h av e o n al l o f
t hem !
“
S hal l we fi nd h im ? ”h e ask ed su dd enly .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H M E NT 24 9

Oh, yes ,
Ra z u m ih in
answe red qu ickly He i s a ni ce .

fellow you wil l s e e b rother Rath er clumsy that i s to s a y

, , .
, ,

h e i s a man o f poli shed manners but I mean clu msy i n a ,

di fferent sens e H e i s an intelligent fellow v ery mu ch s o

.
,

indeed bu t h e h as hi s o w n range o f ideas

,
H e i s in c r e d .

u l o u s scepti cal cyni cal

, he like s to impos e o n peopl e o r
, ,

r ather to make fun o f them H is is th e o l d ci rcumstanti al .

,

m ethod B ut h e under stands hi s wo rk

. tho r
oughly . Last year h e cl eared u p a cas e o f mu rder in
whi ch the poli ce had hardly a clu e H e is very v ery anxiou s
”
.
,

to make you r acqu aintance !

“
O n what grounds i s h e s o anxi o u s ?
”
’
O h it s not exactly yo u s e e since you v e b een ill
’

, ,

I happ en to hav e menti o ned you s ev eral t imes S o when .

,

h e heard ab out yo u about you r b eing a l a w student and

‘
not able t o finish you r studi es he s aid What a p ity ! And ’
, ,

s o I concluded from everything together no t o nly that ; ,

yesterday Z a m et o v you kno w Ro dya I talke d some , ,

no ns ens e o n the way home to you yest erday when I was ,

d ru nk I am a fraid b rother o f you r exaggerating it , , ,

you s e e .

“
What ? That th ey think I am a madman ? M ayb e they
ar e right he said w ith a constr ained smil e
, .

“
Y e s yes ,
That i s pooh no !
. But al l that I s aid , ,

( and the re w a s s” omething el s e too ) it was al l nonsense ,

dru nken nons ense

”
.

“
But why a re you apologi sing ? I am so sick o f i t al l !
Raskolniko v cri ed with exagge rated i rritabi lity I t was .

p artly as sumed howev er , .

“
I know I know I understand ,
B el i ev e m e I u nder
,
.
,

stand O n e s ashamed to sp eak o f it

.
’
.

“
I f you ar e ashamed then don t sp eak o f it ,
’
.

B oth wer e s ilent Ra z u m ihin w a s mo re than ecstati c and

.

Raskolnikov perceived it w ith repu l si on H e w a s al armed .

,

t oo by what Ra z u m ihin h ad j u st s aid a b out P o r fi ry .

”
,
“
I shall have to pu l l a long face with him to o h e thought , ,
“
w ith a b eating he art and he tu rned white and do it n at , ,

u ra l l y t o o
,
B ut the most n atu ral thing would b e t o do noth
.

ing at all C ar e ful ly do nothing at all ! N o c a r e fu lly wou ld

.
,

not b e natu ral again O h w ell w e shal l s ee how it tu rns

.
, ,
25 0 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY

ou t We sh all s e e d i rectly I s i t a good th ing to .

go o r not ? Th e butte rfly flie s t o th e l ight M y h ear t is

”
.

’ ’
b eating that s wh at s b ad !
,
“
In thi s grey hou s e s aid Ra z u m ih in , .

Th e mo st impo rtant thing do es Po r fi ry know t hat I w a s ,

’
at the o ld h ag s fl at yest erday and asked about the
b loo d ? I mu st find t hat o u t instantly a s soon as I g o in , ,
’
fi nd out fro m h i s face ; otherwi s e I l l find o u t i f it s my ’

”
,

ru m .

“
I s a y b roth er h e s aid suddenly add res sing Ra z u m ih in
, , ,

w ith a s l y smil e I h av e b een noti cing all day that you s ee m

,
’
to b e cu riou sly excited I sn t it s o .

“
E xcited ? N o t a b it o f it s aid Ra z u m ihin s t ung t o , ,

t h e qu ick .

“
Y e s b ro the r I as su r e yo u i t s noti ceab l e
’

, , Why y o u s a t .
,

o n you r chai r i n a w a y yo u n ev e r d o s it o n the edge some ,

h o w and you s eemed to b e w rithing al l the time

,
You kept .

j umping u p fo r nothing O n e moment you we r e angry and .

,

th e next you r face l ook ed l ik e a sw eetmeat You ev en .

blu shed ; esp eci ally when you we r e inv ited t o di nne r y ou
”
,

b lu sh ed aw fu lly
”
.

“ ?
N othing o f the s ort nons en s e What do you mean ,

B u t w h y ar e you wriggling o u t o f it lik e a s ch oo lb o y ?

”
,

B y Jove ther e h e s blu shing again ’

”
.
,

Wh at a p ig y o u ar e !
B ut why are you s o shame faced ab ou t it ? Rom eo ! Stay ,

I l l tel l o f yo u to day H a h a h a ! I ll make m oth er l augh

’
-
.
- -
’

and some one el s e too ,

“
Li sten list en l i sten thi s i s s eriou s What nex t y o u .
,
”
, , ,

fi end ! Ra z u m ihin w as utte rly o verwhelmed tu rning co ld ,

“
w ith ho rro r Wh at w i ll you tell them ? C o me b rothe r
.
, o

foo w hat a p ig you a re !

,
“
Y o u ar e lik e a summer ro s e And i f only you knew .

how it su it s you ; a R o meo ov e r s ix fo o t high ! And how

you v e washed to day— you cl eaned y o u r nail s I decl are
’
-
, .

E h ? Th at s so mething u nheard o f ! Why I d o b el i eve

’
,

you v e got pomatum on y o u r hai r ! B end down

’

‘
.

(
Pi g
Raskol nik o v l au ghed as though h e coul d not r estrain him
s el f S o l au ghing th ey ente red P o rfi ry P e t r o v itch s fl at
.
,
’
.
 C HAP T E R V

A S KO L N IKO V
was al re ady entering the r o om H e .

cam e i n l ook ing as though h e had the utmo st di ffi culty

l aughing again B ehind him Ra z u m i .

h i n str o de i n gawky and awkward sh ame faced and re d a s ,

a p eony w ith an u tt erly cr est fallen and ferociou s exp res sion
, .

H i s face and wh o l e fi gu re really we r e ridiculo u s at t hat

moment and amply j u stified Ra sk o l n ik o v s l aughte r Ra sk o l n i ’
.

ko v not waiting fo r an introdu ction bow ed to P o r fi ry P etro

, ,

v it c h who stoo d i n the middl e o f th e roo m lo oking inqu i r

,

in g ly at th em H e held o u t h is hand and shook hands stil l

.
,

app arently m aking desp erate e ffo rts to subdu e hi s mi rth and
u tte r a few wo rds t o intr o du ce himsel f B ut h e had no .

so oner su cce eded i n as suming a s e riou s ai r and mutter ing

s omething when h e su ddenly g l anced again a s th o ugh acci
dental ly at Ra z u m ihin and cou ld no longe r control himsel f
,

h i s stifl ed l aughte r b rok e o u t th e mo r e i r res i stibly th e mor e

h e tri ed t o r estrain i t The ext rao rdina ry fe ro city w ith
”
.

“
whi ch Ra z u m ih in re ce iv ed thi s spontaneou s m i rth gav e the
whol e s cene th e app ear ance o f mo st genu ine fun and natu ral
n ess Ra z u m ihin st rength ened thi s imp ress i o n a s though o n
.

pu rpo s e .

“
F 0 0 1 ! Yo u fi end h e ro ar ed w av ing h i s arm wh ich a t
, ,

o nc e stru ck a l ittl e rou nd t abl e with an empty t ea gl as s on -

it E v erything w a s s ent flying and crashi ng

. .

B u t w hy b re ak chai rs gentlemen ? Y o u kn o w it s a lo ss ’

”
,

t o th e C rown P o r fi ry Pet rov itch qu oted gaily

, .

Raskolniko v w a s sti ll laughing w ith his hand in P o rfi ry

,

P e t ro v it c h s but anxiou s not t o o v erdo it awaited the right

’
, ,

m o ment to put a n atu ral end t o i t Ra z u m ihin comp l etely.

,

put to con fu sio n by up setting th e tabl e and smashing the

gl as s g az ed glo omi ly at th e fragments cu rs ed and tu rned
, ,

sharp ly to th e w indow wher e h e stood l ooking o u t with hi s

b ack to th e company with a fi erc ely s c o wl i ng countenance ,

s eeing nothing P o rfi ry Pet rov i tch l aughed and w a s r ea dy

.

25 2
 C R IM E AND P UN I SH MENT 25 3

to go l aughing bu t obviou sly looked fo r expl anations

on ,
.

Z a m e t o v h ad b een s itting in the co rner but h e ro s e at the ,

vi sito r s entr ance and w a s standing in exp ectatio n with a

’

smi le on hi s l ips though h e looked with su rpr is e and even

,

it s eemed i ncredul ity at the whol e s cene and at Rasko lnikov

’
w ith a certain emb ar rassment Z a m e t o v s u nexp ected p res .

ence stru ck Raskolnikov u npleas antly .

“ ”
’
I v e g o t to think o f that h e thought E xcu s e me ,

”
.
,
“
p l eas e h e b egan a ffecting extreme em b arrassment
, ,
Ras .

k o l n ik o v .

“
N o t at al l , v ery pl easant to s ee you and how plea s
a n t l y you v e com e in
’
Why, wo n t b e ev en s a y good ’

”
.

mo rning ? P o r fi ry P etrov itch nodded at Ra z u m ih in .

“
Up on my honou r I don t know w hy h e i s in su ch a rage
’

w ith me I only tol d hi m as w e cam e along that he w a s

”
.

l ike Romeo and p ro ved it And that w a s all I th ink ! .

,
“ ”
Pig ! ej acu l ated Ra z u m ihin w ithou t tu rning round .
,

The r e mu st hav e b een v ery gr av e grounds fo r it i f he ,

”
i s s o fu r iou s at th e wo rd P o r fi ry l augh ed ,
.

“
O h you sharp l awye r !
,
D amn you al l P snapped ,

Ra z u m ih in and suddenly bu rsting out laughing hims el f h e

, ,

w ent up to P o r fi ry w ith a mo re che er ful face as thou g h noth

“
ing had happened That ll do ! We ar e al l fo ol s T o come
.
’
.

to b u siness Thi s i s my fri end Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch Ras

.

k o l mikov ; in th e fi rst p l ace h e h a s hear d o f you and wants

to m ak e you r acqu aintance and secondly h e has a l ittl e mat , ,

te r o f bu siness w ith you B ah ! Z a m e t o v what b rou g ht you

.
,

h ere ? H av e yo u m et b e fo r e ? H av e you known each other

long ? ”
“
What do es thi s mean ? ”thought Raskolnikov u neasily .

Z a m e t o v seemed taken a b ack but not v ery mu ch s o

”
.
,
“
Why it w a s at you r rooms w e m et yesterday h e s aid
, ,

easily .

“
T hen I hav e b een spared th e trou b le Al l l ast we ek h e .

was b eggin g me to intro du ce him to you P o r fi ry and you .

have sni ffed e ach othe r o u t without me Wh er e i s you r

”
.

tob acco ?

P o r fi ry Petrov itch was wear ing a d ressing g own v ery -

,

cl ean l inen and trodden down sl ipper s H e w a s a man o f

,
-
.

abou t fi v e and thirty sho rt stout even to co rpulence and

, , ,
25 4 F Y ODO R D OSTO E V S K Y

cl e an sh av en H e wo r e hi s hai r cu t sho rt and h ad a l a r ge

.

rou nd h ead p articu l arly p rom inent at th e b ack H is s o ft

, .
,

round r ath e r snub no sed face w a s o f a s i ckly yellowi sh

,
-

colou r but h ad a vi go rou s and rath er i roni cal exp re ssion I t

, .

would h ave been goo d n atu r ed except fo r a look i n the eyes

-
, ,

w hich shon e w ith a w atery m awki sh light unde r almo st wh ite

,

blinking eyel ashes Th e exp r ession o f thos e eyes w a s

.

st rangely o u t o f k eep ing with hi s som ewh at womani sh figu r e ,

and gav e i t so meth ing far m o r e s e riou s than cou ld b e

gu e ss ed at fi rst s ight .

A s so o n a s P o r fi ry P etrov itch h eard th at h i s vi sito r h ad a

l ittl e matte r o f b u siness w ith him h e begged him t o s it down ,

o n th e so fa and s a t down himsel f o n the other end w aiting ,

f o r h im to explain h i s bu s iness w ith that care ful and ove r ,

s e ri ou s att ent io n whi ch i s at onc e O pp res si v e and emb ar rass

ing especi al ly to a strange r and esp eci al ly i f wh at you are
, ,

d i scu ssing is i n you r o w n O p in ion o f fa r t oo l ittl e impo rt ance

fo r su ch exc ept ional sol emn ity B u t i n b rie f and coher ent .

ph ras es Raskolniko v exp lained hi s bu si nes s cl early and

exactly and w a s s o wel l s ati sfi ed w ith himsel f that h e even
,

su cceeded in taking a goo d l o ok at P o r fi ry P o r fi ry P et ro .

~

v it c h did not o nce t ake his eyes O ff h im Ra z u m ih in sitting .

,

oppo site at the s ame t able l i stened warmly and imp ati ently
, ,

lo ok ing f rom o n e to th e o ther ev ery m oment w ith r athe r

excess iv e int e rest
”
.

“
F o ol Raskolnik o v swo r e to hims el f
, .

You h av e to giv e i n fo rmation to th e pol i ce P o r fi ry ,

“
r epl i ed w ith a mo st bu sinesslike ai r
, th at h av ing l earnt ,

o f thi s incident th at i s o f th e mu rde r you b eg to i n fo rm

, ,

th e l awyer i n charg e o f th e cas e that such and s uch

th ings b el ong to yo u and th at you d esi r e to r edeem
”
,

th em or bu t they w ill w r it e to yo u .

“ ’
That s j u st the p o int that at th e p r es ent moment , ,
“
R askolniko v tr i ed hi s utmost t o fe ign emb ar rassm ent I ,

am n o t qu it e i n funds and ev en thi s t r i fling sum i s

b eyond m e I only wanted you s e e fo r th e p re sent t o , ,

decl ar e that th e things ar e m ine and that wh en I hav e ,

m oney .

“
That s no m atte r answer ed P o r fi ry P et rov itch r e c e iv
’

, ,
“
ing hi s expl anati o n o f hi s p ec u ni ary po siti on coldly bu t ,
25 6 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV SK Y

O h, you r m o the r i s w ith y ou ?” P e t rov itch

P o rfi ry
inqu i red .

“
Ye s
”
.

When d id sh e c om e ?
Last ni ght ” .

P o r fi ry p au sed as though r eflec t ing .

You r things would not i n any cas e b e lo s t h e went o n

“
,

calmly and coldly I h av e b een exp ecting you her e fo r

.

s o me ti me .

And as though th at w as a m atte r o f n o impo rtance h e ,

care fully o ffer ed the ash t ray to Ra z u m ihin who w a s ruth-

,

l es sly scatte ring cigar ette ash ov e r th e carp et Raskolnikov .

shudd er ed but P o r fi ry did not s eem to b e looking at him

, ,

and was sti ll c o ncerned w ith Ra z u m ih in s c igarett e ’

.

“
Wh at ? E xp ecting him ? Why did you know that h e
”
,

h ad pl edge s th e r e ? cri ed Ra z u m ih in .

P o rfi ry P et r o v itch addr ess ed himsel f to Raskolni k ov .

“
You r things the ring and the w atch w e re w r apped up
, ,

togethe r and o n the p ape r you r name was l egibly w r itten

,

i n p encil togethe r with th e dat e o n which you l e ft the m

,

with he r
“ ”
H o w o bs e rvant you a r e ! Rask o lni k o v smil ed awkwardly ,

d o ing hi s v ery utmo st t o l ook him straight i n the f ace but ,

h e f ail ed and suddenly added :

,
“
I s ay that b ecau s e I suppo s e t he re w er e a grea t m any
pl edge s so th at i t mu st b e d i fficult to r em emb er
them al l B ut y o u r ememb e r t hem all s o cl early
.
,

and and
“ ”
S tupid ! F eebl e ! he th o ught Why did I add th at ? ” .

B ut w e know al l w h o had pl edge s and yo u are th e only ,

h asn t com e fo rward P o rfi ry answe red w ith

’
o ne w ho ,

h ardly p e rceptibl e i rony .

“
I h av en t b een quite w ell
’
.

I h eard that too I h eard indeed that yo u w er e i n

”
.
, ,

gre at d i stress ab out s o mething You l ook p al e still . .

“
I am n o t p al e at all NO I am qu ite w ell
.
, ,

R askol nik o v snapp ed o u t rudely and angrily c o mpl etely ,

c hanging hi s t one Hi s anger w as m o unting h e c o uld n o t

”
.
,
“
rep r ess it And i n my anger I shall b etr ay mys el f fl ashed
”
.
,
“
Why ar e they to r t u ring m e ?
t hrough hi s m ind again .
 C R IM E A N D P UN I S H M E N T 25 7

N o t quit e w ell !
” Ra z u m ih in caught him up What .

next ! H e w a s u nconsciou s and deli ri ou s till yeste rday .

Would you b el i ev e P o r fi ry as soon as o u r b acks we r e

, ,

tu rned h e dressed thou g h h e could hardly stand and gav e

, , ,

u s th e slip and went O ff o n th e spr ee som ewhe r e til l m id

night deli riou s all the time !
, W o uld you b el i ev e it !
Extraordinary
“
Really deli ri ou s ? Y o u don t s a y so ! ” P o r fi ry sh oo k
’

hi s head i n a womani sh way .

“
N o ns ens e ! D on t yo u b el i eve i t ! B ut you do n t b eli ev e
’ ’

”
i t anyway Raskolnikov l et sl ip in hi s anger B ut P o r fi ry
, .

Petrovitch did not s eem t o catch tho s e strange wo rds .

“
B ut h o w c o uld yo u hav e gon e o u t i f you hadn t b een ’

del i riou s ? ” Ra z u m ih in got hot suddenly

“
What did you .

go o ut fo r ? What w a s the O bj ect o f it ? And why o n the

sly ? We re you i n you r sens es wh en you did i t ? N o w that
all danger is ove r I can speak pl ainly ”
‘
.

I w as aw fully si ck o f them yeste rday Raskolnikov .

addressed P o r fi ry suddenly w ith a smi l e o f insol ent defi ance ,

“ ’
I ran away from them to tak e l odgings wh er e they wouldn t
fi nd me and took a lot o f money w ith m e M r Z a m e t o v
, . .

there saw it I s a y M r Z a m e to v w a s I sensibl e o r del i riou s

”
. .
, ,

yesterday ; s ettl e o u r di spute .

H e could hav e strangl ed Z a m et o v at th at mom ent s o hate ,

ful we re hi s exp ress ion and hi s sil ence to him .

In my op inion you talked s ensibly and even a r t fully ,

but yo u wer e extrem ely i r ritabl e ” Z a m et o v p r o nounced

”
,

drily .

“
And N ikodim F o m itc h was tell ing m e t o day put in -
,
“
P o r fi ry Petrovitch that he m et you ve ry l at e l ast night
”
,

i n the lodging o f a m an who had b een run o ve r

”
.

“ “
And ther e s aid Ra z u m ihin
,
we r en t you mad then ?
,
’

Yo u gav e you r l ast p enny to the w idow f o r th e funeral If .

you wanted to help giv e fi fteen o r twenty ev en but keep

, ,

thr ee roubl es fo r you rsel f at l east but h e flung aw ay all

”
,

th e twenty fi v e at once ! -

“
M ayb e I f o und a t reasu re somewhere and you kn o w
nothing o f it ? S o that s why I was liberal yeste rday ’
.

M r Z a m e to v knows I v e found a t reasu re ! E xcu se u s

.
’
,

pl ease fo r di stu rb ing y o u f o r h al f an hou r w ith su ch

,
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triv i al i ti es h e s aid tu rning t o P o r fi ry P et rov itch w ith

,
”
,
“
t rembl ing lip s We a r e b o ring you a ren t w e ?
.
,
’

“
O h no quite th e contr ary qu ite the contrary !
, I f only ,

yo u knew how you i nter est m e ! I t s i nte resting to l o ok on

’

and l i sten and I am r eally glad you have c o m e f o rward

at l ast ”
.

“
B u t you might giv e u s som e tea ! M y thr o at s d ry ’
,

cri ed Ra z u m ih in .

“
C apital id ea ! P e rh ap s we w ill all keep you comp any .

’
Wouldn t y o u l ike s omething m o r e es sential b e f o re
”
tea ?
“
Get along w ith you ! ”
P o r fi ry Pet rov itch w en t o u t to o rde r t ea .

Ra s ko l n ik o v s thoughts w er e i n a whi rl
’
H e wa s i n .

t e r ribl e exasp e ration .

“
Th e wo rst o f i t i s th ey don t di sgui s e it ; th ey d o n t c ar e ’ ’

to stand o n ce remo ny ! And how i f you didn t know m e at ’

all di d you com e to talk to N ikodi m F o m itch about m e ?

,
’
S o they d o n t care to h id e that th ey ar e t racking m e l ike a
p ack o f dogs They s imply spi t i n my f ace
.
” H e w as .

s haking w ith r age C om e strike m e o p enly don t pl ay

’
.
, ,

w ith m e l ike a cat w ith a mou s e It s h ardly civi l P o r fi ry .

’

P et rovitch but p erhap s I wo n t all o w it ! I shall get up

,
’

and throw th e whol e t ruth i n you r u gly face s and you ll ’

”
,

s e e ho w I d espi s e you H e coul d h ardly b r eath e

. And .

what i f it s only my f ancy ? Wh at i f I am m i staken and

’

th rough i nexpe ri ence I get angry and don t keep up m y ’

nasty p art ? P erhaps it s all unintentional Al l thei r ph ras es ’

.

ar e th e u sual on es but the r e i s s om ething about them

, .

It all might b e s ai d but th er e is som ething Why did he

‘
.
,

s a y bluntly Wi th her ? Why d id Z a m e to v add th at I

,
’

spoke art ful ly ? Why do they speak i n th at tone ? Yes th e ,

ton e . Ra z u m ihin i s sitting h ere w hy d o es h e s e e ,

nothing ? That innocent blo ckh ead nev er do es s ee anything !

F ev eri sh ag ai n ! D id P o r fi ry w ink at m e j u st now ? O f
cou rs e it s nons ens e ! What could h e wi nk fo r ? A re th ey
’

t rying t o up set my ne rv e s o r ar e they teasing m e ? E ithe r

i t s all fancy o r they know ! E v en Z a m e to v i s rude
’
Is .

Z a m e t o v rude ? Z a m et o v has ch anged hi s mind I fo r es aw .

’
h e would change his m i nd ! H e i s at hom e her e whil e i t s ,
 60 F Y ODO R DO S TOEV S K Y

against th e abno rm al ity o f the soci al o rgani satio n and

n o thing mo re and nothing mo r e ; no other cau se s
,

admitted !
“
Y o u a r e w rong there cri ed P o r fi ry P etro v itch ; h e w a s
,

noti ceably animated and kept l aughi ng a s h e l ooked at

Ra z u m ihin which m ade h im mo r e excited than ev e r
”
.
,
“
N o thing i s admitt ed Ra z u m ihin i nterrupted with heat
, .

I am n o t w rong I l l show you thei r p amphl ets E v ery ’

‘
. .

thing w ith them i s th e influ ence o f envi ro nment and ,

’

n o thing el s e The i r f avou rite phras e ! F ro m which i t

.

foll o ws that i f s o ci ety i s no rmal ly o rgani sed all crim e

, ,

wil l ceas e at o nce s ince th er e will b e nothing to p rotest

,

against and al l m en w ill b ecom e righteou s i n one i nstant .

’
Hum an n atu r e is not taken i nto account it i s exclud ed i t s , ,
’
no t supp os ed to exi st ! They don t reco gni s e that hum anity ,

d ev el op ing by a hi sto ri cal l iv ing p r o cess wil l b ecom e at l ast ,

a no rm al soci ety but they b el i ev e that a s oci al system that

,

h as com e o u t o f som e m ath ematical b rai n i s g o i ng to

o rgani s e all hum anity at once and make i t j u st and s inl es s
i n an instant qui cke r than any l ivin g p r o ce ss ! Th at s w hy ’
,
‘
th ey i nstinct ively di sl ike h i sto ry nothi ng but u gl ines s and ,
’ ’
stup idity i n it and th ey expl ain i t al l as stup idity ! Tha t s
,
’
w hy th ey so di sl ike th e liv in g p ro ces s o f l i f e they do n t :

ant a l iv in g s o u l ! The l i ving s oul dem and s l i f e th e soul ,

’
wo n t O b ey th e rul es o f m echani cs th e s o ul i s an O bj ect O f ,

su spi cion th e soul i s r et rograd e ! B ut wh at they w ant

,

though i t sm ell s o f d eath and can b e m ade o f i ndi a rubb e r -

,

at l east i s n o t ali ve has no w ill i s se rvil e and won t r evol t !

, ,
’

And it comes i n th e end to th ei r r edu ci ng ev erything to th e

building o f w all s and th e pl anning o f ro o ms and p assages
i n a phal anste ry ! Th e phal anstery i s r eady i ndeed but , ,

you r hum an n atu re i s not ready fo r th e phal anstery— it

’
w ants l i f e i t h asn t compl eted its vital p roces s it s to o so on
, ,
’

f o r th e grav eyard ! Y o u c an t skip o ve r natu r e by l ogi c ’

.

Logi c p re suppo s es th r e e p o ssib il iti es but ther e ar e m illions ! ,

C u t away a mill ion and r educe i t all to th e qu estio n o f

,

com fo rt ! That s th e easi est solution o f the p roblem ! It s

’ ’

’
s edu ctiv ely cl ea r and you mu stn t think about i t That s ’
.

th e great thing you mu stn t thi nk ! Th e who l e s ecret o f ’

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,

l i fe i n two p age s o f p ri nt !
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Now h e i s b eating the d rum ! C atch hol d o f him

O ff,
”
,

”
do ! l aughed P o r fi ry “
h e t u r n ed to
C a n yo u imagine .
,

Raskolnikov s ix p eopl e hol ding f orth l ike that l ast ni g ht

, ,

in o n e ro om with punch as a p r eliminar y! N o b r o ther

, , ,

yo u ar e w rong envi ronment account s fo r a gre at d eal i n

”
,

crime ; I c a n assu r e you o f th at .

“
O h I know i t do es but j u st tell m e : a m an o f fo rty
, ,

violates a child o f t en ; w as it env i ronment d r o v e hi m

to i t ?”
“
Well str ictly speaking i t did
,
P o rfi ry O b serv ed with
, ,
“
notew o rthy gravity ; a crime o f that natur e may b e v ery
w ell ascrib ed t o the influence o f env i ronment ” .

“
Ra z u m ih in was almo st i n a frenzy O h i f y o u l ike he .
, ,
“ ’
ro ared I l l p rov e to yo u that you r white eyelashe s m ay v ery
,

well b e ascri b ed to the C hu rch o f Iv an the Great s b eing two ’

hundred and fi fty feet h igh and I wi ll prove it clearly , ,

e xactly p ro g r essiv ely and ev en w ith a Li b eral tendency !

”
, ,

I u ndertake to ! Wi ll y o u bet o n it ?
“ ’
Do ne ! Let s hear please h o w h e wi ll prov e i t ! ”
”
, ,

H e i s always humbugging con found him cri ed Razu , ,

mihin j umping up and g esticulating

,
What s the u s e o f .
’

t alking to y o u ! H e do e s al l that o n purpo se ; you don t know

’

him Rodion ! H e took thei r s ide yeste rday s imply to make

, ,

fool s o f them And the thin g s he s aid yesterday ! And they

.

we re delighted ! He can keep it up fo r a fo rtnight together .

Last yea r h e p er suaded u s that h e w a s go ing i nto a monas

te ry z h e stuck to it fo r two months N o t long ago h e took .

i t into hi s head to decl ar e h e w a s go ing to get mar r ied that ,

h e had everyt hing ready fo r the wedding H e o rdered new .

clothes i ndeed We al l b egan to congratul ate him The re

”
. .

w a s no b ride nothing all pu re fantasy !

, ,
“
Ah you ar e wrong ! I got th e clothe s be fo re I t wa s th e
, .

new clothes i n fact that made me think o f taking you i n .

“
Ar e you su ch a goo d d i s semble r Rasko lnikov asked
carele ssly .

“ ’
You wouldn t hav e suppo sed it eh ? Wait a b it I shall , ,

take you in to o H a h a h a ! N o I ll tell you th e truth Al l

, .
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the se que stion s abou t crime env i ro nment children r ecall to , , ,

my mind an article o f you rs whi ch intere sted me at the time

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O n C rime o r something o f the s o rt I f o rget the titl e , ,

262 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

I r ead i t w ith pleasu r e tw o mo nth s ag o i n t he P erio d ica l

”
R e v ie w
”
.

“
M y arti cl e ? In the P e rio dic a l R evie w ? Rasko lnik o v
aske d i n astoni shment I ce rtainly did w rite an arti cl e upo n
.

a book s ix months ago when I l e ft the u niv ersity but I s en t

”
,

it to the We e kl y Re v ie w .

“
B ut it came o u t i n the P erio dica l .

And the W e ekl y R e view ceased to exi st s o th at s why i t ’

”
,
’
w asn t pri nted at th e time .

“
That s t ru e ; but when it c eased to exi st the We e kl y Re
’

v iew wa s amalgamated w ith th e P er i o d ica l and so you r ,

’
articl e app ear ed tw o mo nths ag o i n th e l at t e r D idn t y o u
”
.

know ?
Raskolniko v had n o t kn o wn .

“
W hy yo u might get som e money o u t o f them fo r the
,

article ! What a strange p er son you are ! Yo u l ead su ch a

s olitary l i fe that you kn o w noth ing o f matter s that c o ncern
’
you di rectly It s a fact I as su re you
”
. .
,
“
B ravo Ro dya ! I knew nothing abou t i t e ithe r ! cried
,
“
Ra z u m ih in
’
I l l ru n to day t o th e reading room and ask
.
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fo r the numb e r Two months ago ? What w a s th e date ?

.

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I t do esn t matter though I w il l find i t Think o f not telling
”
.
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us !
’
H o w d i d y o u fi nd o u t th at th e arti cl e was mi ne ? It s
o nly si gned with an initial .

“
I only l earnt it by chance th e othe r day Through the ,
.

editor ; I know him I was v ery much i nter e sted

. .

“
I analysed i f I r ememb er the psycholo gy o f a cr iminal
, ,

b e fo r e and a fte r the cr ime

‘
.

Yes and yo u maintained that the p e rp etrati o n o f a cr im e

,

i s always accompani ed by i llnes s V ery v ery o rigi nal but .

, ,

i t w a s not that part o f y o u r arti cl e th at i nterested me

s o mu ch but an idea at th e end o f the articl e which I regret
,

t o say you mer ely su ggested w ithou t wo rking i t o ut cl early .

The re is i f y o u r ecoll ect a suggestion that th ere are ce r t ai n

, ,

p erso ns wh o c a n that i s n o t preci sely are abl e t o but , ,

hav e a p e r fect r ight t o commit b reache s o f mo r ality and

crimes and th at th e l aw i s no t fo r them ” .
,

Raskolniko v smiled at th e exagge rated and i n t enti o nal Cl iS °

t o r t io n o f h i s idea .
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on, we re al l w ithou t exceptio n cr iminal s fro m th e v e ry fac t ,

that m aking a new l aw they t ransgres sed the anci ent o n e

, ,

h anded down f rom th ei r ance stor s and held sacred by the

p eopl e and they did not stop sho rt at blood shed e ither i f th at
, ,

bloodshed— O ften o f i nnocent per sons fighting b rav ely i n

de fence o f anci ent l aw— we r e o f u s e to thei r cau se It s .
’

remarkabl e i n fact that th e maj o r ity i ndeed o f thes e bene

, , , ,

factors and l e ade r s o f humanity wer e gui lty o f terribl e

c arnage I n sho rt I mai ntai n th at all great m en o r even
.
,

m en a l ittle o ut O f the commo n that i s to say c apabl e o f ,

giv ing s ome new wo rd mu st from thei r v ery natu re b e ,

cri minal s— m o r e o r l es s o f cou r se O therwi se i t s hard fo r

, .
’

them to get o u t o f th e common rut ; and to r emain i n the

’
co mmo n rut i s what they can t submi t to from th ei r v ery ,

natu re agai n and to my mind they ou ght not i ndeed to su b

, , ,

mit to it Y o u s e e th at th er e i s nothing parti cul arly new i n

.

al l th at The same thing has b een p ri nted and r ead a thou

.

s and time s b e fo re A s fo r my d iv i sio n o f p eopl e into

.

’
o rdinary and extrao rdinary I acknowl edge that it s s o me ,
’
what arb itr ary but I don t i nsi st upo n exact numbe r s I only
, .

b el i ev e i n my l eading idea that m en are in g e n er a l di vided

by a l aw o f n atu r e int o tw o catego ri es i n fer i o r ( o rdi n a ry ) , ,

th at i s s o t o s a y mater ial th at serv es only to r epro duce it s

, ,

kind and m en w h o hav e t he gi ft o r the talent to utte r a n ew

,

w o rd . Ther e ar e O f c o u r s e i nnumer abl e s u b div i si on s but

, ,
—
,

the di stingu i shing f eatu re s o f both categor ie s ar e fai rly wel l

marked The fi r st catego ry gene rally speaking ar e men c o n
.
, ,

s e r va t iv e i n temper ament and l aw abiding ; they l iv e under -

contro l and lov e to be co ntro lled T o my thinking i t i s thei r .

duty t o be co ntro l led becau s e that s thei r v o catio n and

’

, ,

ther e i s nothing humil i ati ng i n i t fo r them The second .

category all t ransgre s s the l aw ; they ar e de stroyer s o r di s

po sed to destru ctio n acco rding t o thei r capacit ie s The .

cr imes o f the s e me n ar e o f cou rs e r el ativ e and v a r i ed ; fo r

th e mo st p art they seek in v ery v ari ed ways th e d e structi on
o f th e pr esent fo r th e sa k e o f th e b etter B ut i f su ch a one .

i s forced fo r the s ake o f hi s i dea to step o v er a co rpse o r

wad e thr ou gh b loo d h e c a n I m aintain fi nd w ithin hi msel f
, , , ,

i n hi s co nscience a sanctio n fo r wading throu gh blo o d that

,
—

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depends o n the idea and its dimension s n o te that I t s o nly i n ,
.
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t ha t sens e I speak o f thei r ri gh t t o crime i n m y articl e ( y ou

’
r emembe r i t began with the l egal question ) Ther e s n o .

n eed fo r much anxi ety howeve r ; the mas se s wi ll s carcely

,

e ve r admit thi s right they puni sh them o r hang them ( more

,

o r l es s ) a n d i n do ing s o fulfil quite j u stly thei r cons ervativ e

,

vo catio n B ut the same masse s set these criminal s on a

.

pedestal i n the next gene ration and wo rship them ( mor e o r

l es s ) .The fi r st catego ry i s always t he man o f the pre sent ,

t he s ec o nd the man o f the futu re The fi rst p reserv e th e .

w orld and pe o ple it the second mov e the wor ld and lead i t
,

to it s go al E ach clas s has an e qu al r ight to exi st I n

. .

fact all hav e equal rights with me— and vive l a gu err e é ter
,

h el l e — til l the N e w J eru salem o f cour se ! ”

”
,
“
Then yo u beli ev e i n the N e w Je rusalem do yo u ? ,

I do Rask o lnik o v answered fi rmly ; a s h e s aid the se

,

word s and du ring the whol e p receding t irade he kept hi s eye s

o n o n e sp o t o n the carpet .

“
And and d o yo u b eli ev e i n G o d ? E xcu s e m y
curi os ity
”
.

“
I d o r epeated Raskolnikov r ai sing hi s eye s t o P o r fi ry
, , .

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And do yo u b eli eve i n Lazaru s r i sing fr om th e
dead ? ”
“
I I do Why do you ask all t hi s ? ”
”
.

Yo u beli ev e it l iter ally ?

Literally ” .

’
Y ou don t s ay s o I asked fr o m cu ri o sity E xc u se
. .

me B ut let u s g o b ack to the que stion ; they ar e not always

.

executed S o me o n the co ntrary

.
,
“
Tr iumph i n t hei r li fetime ? O h yes some attain t hei r ,

e nds i n thi s li fe and then

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,
“
They b egi n executing othe r people ?
I f i t s neces sary ; indeed fo r the mo st part they d o Yo u r
’

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r emark i s v er y witt y .

“
Thank yo u But t ell me thi s : how d o you di stingui sh
.

those extr ao rdinary peopl e from th e o rdinary o ne s ? Are

ther e signs at thei r bi rth ! I feel there ought to b e mo re
exactitude mo re external definition
, E xcu s e the natural .

’
anxi ety o f a pr actical l aw abiding citizen b ut couldn t they -
,
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adopt a speci al uni fo rm fo r instance couldn t they w ea r , ,

something b e br anded in s o me way ? F o r y o u kn o w i f co n

,

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fu sion ari ses and a memb er o f o ne categ o ry imagin es t ha t

‘
h e b elongs to the o ther b egins t o eliminate O bstacl e s a s y ou ’
,

s o happi ly exp re s sed it the n ,

“
O h that v ery O f t en happen s ! Tha t r e m a r k is wi t tie r t han
”
,

the other .

“
Thank yo u .

N O r easo n t o ; but t ake n o te tha t t he mi stake can o nly

ar i s e i n the fir st catego ry th at i s am o ng t he o rdi nary p eople
,

( as I p erhap s u n fortunately called them ) I n spite o f the i r .

pr edi sposi tio n t o O bedi ence v ery many o f them throu gh a ,

play fulne s s o f natu re so metime s v o u chsa fed even t o t he c o w

‘
, ,
’
like t o imagi ne thems elv es advanced p eople destroyer s and
‘
to push themselv es into the new mov ement and thi s quit e
,
’
,

s ince rely M eanwhi le the really n ew p e o pl e ar e v ery o ften u n

.

ob serv ed by them o r even despi s ed as r eactionari e s o f grov el

,
’
l ing tendencie s B ut I d o n t thi nk there i s any c o nsider abl e
.

d anger her e and yo u re all y need no t b e u neasy fo r they

,

n ev er go v ery far O f cou r s e t hey might hav e a thr ashing

.
,

sometime s fo r l ettin g thei r fancy run away with th em and t o

’
t each them the i r pl ace but no mo r e ; i n fact ev en thi s i sn t
, ,

neces sary a s they ca sti g ate themselve s fo r they ar e v ery ,

c o nsci enti ou s : s o me p er fo r m thi s s er vi ce fo r o n e anothe r

and other s ch asti s e th emselv es wi t h t hei r o w n h ands .

They wi ll impo se v ariou s publi c acts o f p enitence u po n

’
themselv es with a be auti ful and edi fying e ffect ; i n fact y o u v e
’
n othi ng to be uneasy about I t s a l aw o f n atu re . .

“
Well yo u h av e c ertai nly set my mind mo re at r est on tha t
,
’
s co r e ; but ther e s anoth er thi ng wo rri e s me Tel l me pl ease .
, ,

a re there many peopl e w h o have the r ight to kill others the se ,

extr ao rdi nary people ? I am r eady to bo w down to them o f ,

’
c o u rse bu t yo u mu st admit it s al armi ng i f ther e ar e a gre at
”
,

m any o f them eh ?
,
“
O h you needn t wor ry about th at either
’
, Rask o lnik o v ,
“
went on i n the s am e tone People with n e w id eas p e o pl e.
,

w ith the fai nte st capacity f o r s ayin g something n ew ar e ,

e xt remely few i n numbe r extrao rdinari ly s o i n fact O ne , .

t hing only i s cl ear th at t he app ear ance o f all these grade s

,

and subdivi sions o f m en mu st follow w ith un fail ing r e g u

l a r ity some law o f natur e That l aw o f cou rs e i s unk now n
.
, ,

at p r esent bu t I a m c o nvi nced t hat i t exi sts and o ne d ay

, ,
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po ssibiliti es that make me u neasy ! Wha t i f s o me man o r

youth imagine s that h e i s a Lycu rgu s o r M ah o met— a futu r e
o ne , o f cou rs e— and suppo se he begin s t o r emov e all o b

sta cl e s He ha s s o me gr e at ente rpri s e b e for e h im and

”
.

needs money fo r i t and tri es to get it do yo u s e e ?

Z a m e to v gav e a sudden gu ffaw i n hi s c o rne r Rask o lnik o v .

d id not ev e n rai se hi s e ye s to him

”
.

I mu st admit h e w ent o n calmly th at such case s c e r

, ,

f ainly mu st a ri s e Th e v ai n and fool i sh are p arti cula r ly ap t

”
.

t o fal l i nt o that snar e ; young pe o pl e e sp ecially

”
.

“
Ye s y o u s ee Wel l then ?
”
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,

What t hen ? Raskolnik o v smil ed i n reply ; th a t s n o t m y ’

fault S o i t is and s o it always wi ll b e H e said j u st n o w

. .

( he nodded at Ra z u m ih in ) that I s anctio n b loo dshed S o ci ety .

i s too wel l p r o tected by pr i sons b ani shment c riminal i nv est i ,

gato r s p enal s e rv itude The re 5 no need t o b e uneasy Y ou

”
, . .

hav e bu t to catch th e thi e f .

“
And what i f w e d o catch him
“
Th en h e get s what h e d eserv e s
”
.

You ar e ce rtainly lo gi cal B ut what o f h i s c o nsci ence ?

”
.

Why do yo u car e ab out that ?

S imply fro m humanity ” .

I f h e h a s a co ns ci enc e h e w ill su ffe r f o r h i s mi s t ake

”
.

That w il l b e hi s puni shment as well a s the pri son

—

”
.

“
B ut t h e r eal geniu se s asked Ra z u m ih in frowning thos e
, ,

w h o h av e th e r ight to mu rde r ?
’
O ughtn t they t o su ffe r at
al l eve n f o r th e bl o od they v e sh ed ? ” ’

Why th e wo rd o u g h t ? It s not a matte r o f p erm i s s m n o r ’

prohibitio n H e w il l su ffe r i f h e is s o rry fo r h i s v ictim

. .

Pai n and s u ffering ar e always inev itabl e fo r a l arge in t e ll i

gence and a deep heart Th e really great men mu st I think
”
.
, ,

h av e gr ea t s adnes s o n earth h e added d reami ly n o t i n the , ,

to ne o f the conv er sati o n .

He r ai sed h i s eye s lo o ked e a r nestly at them all smi l ed

, , ,

and t ook h is c a p He w as to o qu i et by compari s o n w ith

.

hi s m anner at h i s entr ance and h e felt thi s E v e ry o n e

, .

g o t up .

Wel l y o u m ay ab u s e m e b e angry with m e i f y ou l ike

, , ,

P o r fi ry Petrov itch b e gan aga i n but I can t r e si st Allow me

’
, .

o n e l ittl e q u esti o n ( I kn o w I a m tr o ubl ing y ou ) The r e is .

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 269

j u s t o n e l ittl e notion I want to express simply that I may

”
,

not forget it .

V ery good tell me you r l ittl e no tion Ra sko lnikov stoo d

, ,

waiting p al e and gr av e b e for e him

, .

“ ’
Well you s e e
,
I really don t know how to expre s s i t
’
p rop erly . It s a pl ayful psychological idea When ,
.

’
you w er e w ritin g your article su rely you couldn t h ave
helped h e h e fancying your sel f
-
‘
j u st a little an ex
,

, , ,
’
t ra o r d in a r y m an uttering a n e w w o r d in you r s ense
”
.
,
’ ’
That s so i sn t it ,
?
“
Quite poss ibly Raskolnikov an swered contemptu o usly
,
.

Ra z u m ih in made a mov ement .

“
And i f s o could you b r ing you rsel f in case o f wo rldly
,

difficulti es and h ardship o r fo r some service to human

ity— to ov erstep O bstacle s ? F o r i nstance to rob and
”
,

mu rder ?
And agai n h e wi nked with hi s le ft eye and laughed no i s e ,

l essly j u st as b e fo re .

“
I f I did I certainly should not tell you Raskolniko v ,

answered w ith defi ant and hau ghty contempt .

“
N O I was only i nte rest ed o n account o f you r a ticl e fro m
,
r
,

a l iter ary point o f v i ew

”
.

“
F o o how O bv iou s and insolent that i s
,
Raskolnikov ,

thought with repulsi on .

“ ’
Allow me to obse rve he answe red dryly th at I don t , ,

conside r mysel f a M ahomet o r a N apol eon n o r any p er son ,

age o f that kind and not b eing o n e o f them I canno t tell

”
,

you how I should act .

“
O h come do n t w e al l think ou r selv e s N apoleons now i n
’

”
,

Ru ssi a ? P o r fi ry Petrovitch sai d with alarming famili ar ity .

Something p eculi ar bet rayed i ts el f in th e v ery i ntonatio n

o f hi s voice .

“
Pe rhap s it was o n e o f these futur e N apol eons w h o did fo r
”
A l yo n a Ivanovna last week ? Z a m e t o v b lurted o u t fro m
th e co rner .

Raskolnikov did not speak but looked firmly and int e n tl v ,

at P o r fi ry Ra z u m ihin was scowl ing gloomily H e seemed

. .

be fo r e thi s to b e noti cing somethin g H e looked angrily .

arou nd There was a minute o f gloomy silence Raskolnikov

. .

t u rned t o g o .
27 0 F YOD O R D O ST OE V S KY
”
Ar e y o u go ing al ready ? Po rfi ry sai d ami ably h o ldin g ,

o u t hi s hand wi th exce ssiv e pol itene ss V e ry v ery glad .

,

o f y o u r acqu aintance A s fo r you r r equ est hav e n o u n e a s i

.
,

ne ss w rite j ust a s I told yo u o r bette r still co me t o m e

, , , ,

the re y o u r sel f i n a day o r two to mo rro w indeed I -

, .

sh all b e th er e at el ev en O cl ock fo r ce rtain We ll ar range ’

.
’

’
i t all ; we ll h av e a t alk A s o n e o f the last t o b e th e r e yo u
”
.
,

m ight pe rhap s b e abl e to tell u s s o mething h e added with a ,

m o st good natu red exp r es sio n

-

”
.

“
Yo u want t o cro ss exami ne me o fficially i n due f o r m ?
—

Ra skolnik o v a sked sharply .

“
O h w h y ? That s not nece ss ary f o r the p resent You
’
.
,

mi sunder stand m e I lo se no oppo rtunity y o u s e e and

.
, ,
’
I v e talked with all w h o had pledge s I O btained ev idence .

fro m some o f them and you are th e l ast Ye s by the

”
.
, ,

way h e cr ied seeming su ddenly d elighted I j u st r eme m

, , ,
“
be r what w a s I thinking o f
, h e tu rned to Ra z u m ih in yo u ,

we re talking my e ar s o ff about that N ik o lay o f c o u rs e

”
,
“
I kno w I kn o w v ery w ell h e tu rned to Raskolnikov th at
, , ,

th e fellow i s i nno cent but what i s o n e t o d o ? W e had t o

,

tr o uble D mitri to o Thi s i s the poi nt thi s i s al l : when

”
.
,
’
you went up th e stai rs it w a s past s ev en w a sn t i t ?
”
,
“
Ye s answe red Rasko lnikov with an unpleasan t s ensa
, ,

t i o n at th e v ery mo ment h e spoke that h e n eed n o t hav e

s aid it .

“
Then wh en y o u went up stai r s b etween s ev en and ei ght ,
’
didn t yo u s e e i n a flat that sto o d op en o n a s econd sto rey ,

d o y o u r ememb er tw o wo rkmen o r at l east o n e o f them ?

,
’ ’
They wer e p ai nting the re didn t y o u n o tice them ? I t s ve ry ,

v e ry impo rtant fo r them .

“ ’
P ainte r s ? N o I d idn t s e e th em
,
Rask o lnik o v answ ered ,

slowly a s th o u gh ransacki ng hi s memory whil e a t t h e same

, ,

i nstant h e w as racki ng eve ry ne rv e alm o st swooning w ith ,

anxiety to co n j ectu r e as qu ickly a s po ssible wh er e the trap

’
l ay and not t o ov erlook anyth ing N o I didn t s e e t hem .
, ,

’
and I d o n t think I noti ced a flat l ik e tha t O p en B ut
”
.

o n the fourth sto r ey ( he had maste re d th e trap n o w and

“
w a s t riumphant ) I r ememb e r now that some o n e wa s mov
’
i ng out o f the fl at oppo site A l yo n a Iv a n o v n a s I remem .

ber I r ememb er i t clearly S o me p o rte rs we r e c ar ryi ng .

 C HAPT E R VI
’ ”
D O N T b eli ev e i t I can t beli ev e it ! r ep eated Razu ’

mihin trying i n p erplexity to re fute Ra s k o l n ik o v s

,
’

a rguments .

They w er e by n o w app ro achi ng Ba k a l eye v s lodgings ’

wher e Pulcheri a Alexand rov na and D ouni a had b een expect

i ng them a long whil e Ra z u m ih in kep t stopp ing o n the w ay
.

i n th e heat o f d i scu ssion c o n fu sed and exci ted by th e v ery

,

fact that they w e r e f o r the fi rst time sp eaking o p enly ab o ut

it
”
.

’
D o n t bel i ev e i t then ! answe red Rasko lnikov with a
, , .

c o ld careles s smil e Y ou wer e n o tici ng n o thing a s u sual

”
, .
,

but I w a s weighing ev ery wo rd .

Y ou a re su spi ci ou s That is w h y you w ei gh ed thei r

.

’
hm
’
w o rd s ce rtainly I agr ee P o r fi ry s tone wa s , ,

r athe r strange and stil l m o r e that wr etch Z a m e t o v !

,

Y o u a re right the r e w a s something abou t hi m— b ut w hy ?

”
,

Why ?
“
H e h a s changed hi s m ind since l ast ni ght .

Qu ite th e co nt rary ! I f they h ad th at b rainles s i dea t hey ,

w ould do the i r utmo st to hi d e it and co nceal thei r cards s o , ,

a s to catch yo u a fte rward s Bu t i t wa s all impudent .

and carel ess .

“
I f th ey h ad had fact s— I mean r eal fac t s— o r at l east ,

ground s for su spi ci o n then they would certai nly h ave t ried
,

t o h ide th ei r gam e i n th e hop e o f getting mo re ( they would

,

h av e mad e a s earch lo ng ago b e side s ) B ut they hav e no .

facts not o n e It i s al l mi rage— all amb iguou s S impl y a

, . .

flo ati ng i dea S o they t ry t o th row m e o u t by impudence

. .

And pe rhaps h e w as i r ritated at hav ing n o facts and bl u r t ed

, ,

i t out i n hi s v exation— o r p erh ap s he has some plan he

s eems an intell igent man Pe rhap s h e wanted to frighten .

m e by p retending t o kno w They h av e a p sycholo gy o f .

thei r o w n b r o the r B ut i t i s l o ath s o me expl aining i t all

”
. .
,

S t op !
 C RIM E A ND P UN I S H MENT 73

’
And it s i nsulting insulting ! I understand yo u B ut ,
.

since w e h av e spoken openly now ( and it i s an excellent

t hing that w e hav e at l ast— I am glad ) I wil l own now
frankly that I noti ced it in them long ag o thi s idea O f , .

cou rs e the merest hint o nly— a h insinu ation— but w hy an

ins inuation even ? How dar e they ? What foundatio n hav e
they ? I f o nly yo u knew how fu riou s I hav e b een Think .

only ! S imply b ecau s e a p o o r student unhinged by pov e rty ,

and hypochondri a o n the ev e o f a s ev e re delir iou s i llne ss

,

( note that ) susp iciou s v ai n pr o ud w h o has not seen a soul

, , , ,

to speak to fo r s ix months i n rags and i n boots w ithout ,

s o l es has t o face som e wretched policemen and put up with

,

thei r insolence ; and the unexpected d eb t thrust under hi s

n o s e the I o U p r es ented by T c h e b a ro v the new paint thirty
,
. . .
, ,

degrees Reaumu r and a sti fling atmo sphe re a c ro wd o f peo ,

ple th e talk about th e mu rde r O f a p e rson wher e h e had

,

b een j u st b e fo re and al l that o n an empty stomach— h e might

,

wel l hav e a fainting fit ! A n d that that i s what they found ,

i t all o n ! D amn them ! I understand h o w annoying i t i s ,

bu t i n you r place Ro dya I would l augh at them o r better

, , ,

S till S pit in th ei r ugly face s and spit a dozen t ime s i n all

, ,
’
di re ctions I d hit o u t in all di rections ne atly too and so I d
.
’
, ,
’ ’
put an end t o i t D amn them ! D o n t b e downhearted I t s .

”
.

a shame !
“
H e really h as put i t w ell though Rasko lnikov thou ght , , .

D amn them ? B ut th e c r o s s exami natio n again to -

”
,

“
m orr o w ? h e s ai d w ith b itte rne ss M u st I really ente r .

i nto explanatio ns w ith them ? I feel v exed a s i t is that I ,

condescended to speak to Z a m e to v yeste rday i n the r e s tau ~

r ant .

“
D amn i t ! I will go mysel f to P o rfi ry I w ill squeez e it o u t ,

o f him as o n e o f th e fami ly : h e mu st l et m e know the i ns

,

and o uts o f it all ! And a s fo r Z a m e t o v

“ ”
At last he sees th rough him ! thought Raskolnik o v
”
.

S tay ! cried Ra z u m ih in seizing him by th e shoulder ,

again S tay ! you we re w rong I h ave thought it o u t Y o u

. . .

are w rong ! H o w w a s that a t rap ? Y o u s a y that the qu e s

tio n about the wo rkmen wa s a trap B ut i f you h ad don e .

th a t could you h av e sai d yo u h ad seen them painting the

,

fl at and th e w o r k men ? O n th e contrary yo u would ,

274 F Y ODO R D O S T O EV S K Y

h av e seen n o thing ev en i f you h ad s een it Who w o uld o w n

”
, .

i t again st hims el f ?
“
I f I had don e tha t thing I sh o uld ce rtainly h av e s ai d that
”
,

I had s een th e wo rkme n and the fl at Ra skolnik o v answer ed , ,

w ith reluctanc e and obvio us di sgu st

”
.

“
B ut w hy sp eak against you r sel f ?

B ecaus e only peas ant s o r th e mo st i nexper i enced n o v ice s

,

d eny ev e rything fl atly at examinations I f a man i s ev e r s o .

l i ttl e dev elop ed and exp eri enced h e w i ll ce rtainly try t o a d ,

’
m it all th e exte rnal facts that can t b e avo ided bu t w ill se ek ,

o the r e x p l a n a tio n s/o f them w i ll i ntroduce some sp eci al u n

, ,

expected turn that w i ll giv e them ano th e r signi ficance and

,

pu t them i n anoth er li ght P o r fi ry mi ght w ell r ecko n t hat

.

I s hou ld b e su r e to answe r s o and s a y I h ad seen them t o

”
,

giv e an ai r o f truth and then make som e expl anation

,
.

“
B ut h e woul d hav e to l d you at o nce th at the wo rk m en ,

c o ul d no t h av e b ee n the re two d ays b e f o r e and th at t her e ,

fo r e yo u mu st hav e b een th er e o n th e day o f th e mu rde r at

’
ei ght o clock And s o h e would h av e caught yo u ove r a
”
.

d etai l .

“
Yes that is wh at he w as reckoning on that I sh o uld n ot
, ,

h av e tim e to r eflect and S hou ld b e i n a hu r ry to make th e

,

mo st likely answe r and s o would fo rget th at th e w o rkm e n

”
,

could not hav e be en ther e two days b e f o re

”
.

“
B u t h ow coul d you fo rget it ?

N othing eas i e r I t i s i n j u st su ch stupid things clev er

.

p eopl e a r e mo st e asil y cau ght The mo re cunning a man i s .

,

th e l es s h e su spect s that h e w ill b e cau ght in a simple thin g .

Th e mo r e cunning a man is th e s impl e r the tr ap he mu st b e ,

caught i n P o r fi ry i s not such a foo l a s you think

. .

“
H e i s a kn av e th en i f that is so ,

Ra skolniko v could n o t help l aughi ng B ut at the ve ry .

m oment he wa s stru ck by the st rangene ss o f his o w n frank

,

nes s and th e eagernes s w ith wh ich h e had made thi s expl ana
,

tion though h e h ad kept up all th e p r eceding conv e r satio n

,

w ith gloo my repul si o n O bvi ou sly w ith a motive f ro m , ,

nece ssity
”
.

“
I am getting a reli sh fo r certain asp ect s ! h e thou ght t o
h ims el f Bu t almo st at th e same instant he b ecam e suddenly
.
,

uneasy a s though an u nexp ec t ed and al arming idea h ad

,
27 6 F Y OD O R D O S TOEV S K Y

a t a di stance remarkably l ike a woman H e st o op ed and .

,

his head i n a greasy c a p hu ng f o rward F rom hi s wr inkl ed .

fl abby fac e h e looked o v e r fi fty ; hi s l ittl e eyes w ere l o st i n

fat and they lo oked out grimly ste rnly and di scontentedly
”
.
,

What i s it ? Raskol niko v asked go ing up to the p orte r .

,

The m an stol e a look at him f rom u nder hi s b rows and he

l ooked at him attenti vely del ib e rately ; then he tu rned slowly
,

and went o u t O f the gate i nto th e street with o ut s aying a

wo rd
”
.

“
What i s it ? cri ed Raskol niko v .

Why h e the r e w as ask ing whethe r a student l ived here

, ,

m entio ned you r nam e and w ho m you l odged with I s a w .

yo u coming and po i nted y o u out and he w ent away

’
It s
”
.

funny .

The po rte r t o o s e emed r ath e r pu zzl ed but not mu ch s o , ,

and a fter wonder ing for a mom ent he tu rned and went b ack
to h is room .

Rasko lnikov ran a fte r th e strange r and a t once caugh t ,

s ight o f hi m w alking along the othe r side o f the str eet w ith
the same ev en delibe rate step w ith hi s eye s fi xed o n th e
,

ground a s though in meditati on H e so o n ov ertook h im but

, .
,

fo r some tim e w alked b ehi nd him At l ast moving o n to a .

,

l evel with him he l ook ed at hi s f ace Th e m an noticed him

, .

at once lo oked at him qu i ckly but dropped hi s eyes agai n ;

, ,

and s o they walked fo r a mi nute s ide by s ide with o ut u t

teri ng a word
”
.

“
You w ere i nqu i ring fo r m e o f the porter ? Raskol
n ik o v s aid at l ast b ut i n a cu r iously qu iet vo ice
,
.

’
Th e man m ade no answ er ; h e d idn t e ven look at h i m .

Agai n they we re both s il ent .

“
Why do you com e and ask fo r m e and s ay
nothing . What s the m eaning o f it ?’”
Ra s k o l n ik o v s vo ice b roke and h e s eem ed u nabl e t o a rti c
’

u l a t e the wo rds cl early .

The m an ra i s ed hi s eye s thi s tim e and tu rned a glo o my

s ini ste r l ook at Rasko l niko v
”
.

“
M u rde re r ! h e s aid suddenly i n a qu iet but clear and
d istinct voic e .

Raskolnikov went o n walki ng b eside him H i s l egs felt .

suddenly we ak a c o ld shive r r an d o wn hi s S pi ne and hi s

, ,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 277

h eart seemed to stand still fo r a moment then suddenly began ,

throbbing as though it wer e s et fre e S o they walked fo r .

about a hundred pace s s ide by side i n sile nce

, .

The man did n o t look at h im .

“
What d o yo u m ean what i s Who i s th e .

murde re r muttered Raskolniko v hardly audi b ly

”
.

“
Yo u a re a mu rdere r the man answ ered sti ll mo re arti c
,

u l a t e ly and emphati cally with a smil e o f triumphant hatr ed

,
.

and again he look ed straight i nto Ra sk o l n ik o v s p al e face and ’

stri cken eyes .

They had j ust reached th e cros s roads The man tu r ned .

to the l e ft w ithout looking b ehi nd h im Raskol nikov re .

m ained standing gaz ing afte r him

,
H e s a w him turn rou nd .

fi fty p aces away and look b ack at him stil l standing ther e .

Raskolniko v cou ld not see cl early but he fanci ed that he w a s ,

again smiling the sam e smi le o f co ld hatred and tr iumph .

With slow falter ing steps with shaking knees Raskolnik o v

, ,

m ade hi s way b ack to hi s l ittl e garret feel ing chilled al l ,

over H e took o ff hi s cap and put i t o n the tabl e and fo r

.
,

ten minutes he stoo d without moving Then he sank ex .

h a u s t e d o n the so fa and with a weak mo an o f p ain h e

stretched himsel f o n it S o he l ay fo r hal f an hou r
. .

H e thought o f nothing S om e thoughts o r fragments o f

.

thoughts som e images w ithout o rde r o r cohe rence floated

,

b e for e hi s mind— face s o f peopl e h e had s een i n hi s chil d

hoo d O r m et s omewhe r e o nce whom h e would neve r have ,

re called the bel fry o f the chu rch at V th e b i lliard tab le i n a

, .
,

r estau rant and s o me O fficer s pl ayi ng b illi ards the smell o f ,

cigar s i n som e underground tob acco S hop a tavern r o om , ,

a b ack stai r cas e qu it e dark al l sloppy with dirty wate r and

,

strewn with egg shell s and th e S unday b ell s floating i n f ro m

,

somewh er e The images fol lowed o n e another whi rl ,

ing l ike a hu rricane S ome O f them he l iked and tri ed to

.

clutch at but they faded and all the whil e there w a s an

,

O pp ressio n w ithi n him b ut it was not o ve rwhelmi ng som e

, ,

times i t w a s even pl easant The slight sh iveri ng stil l

.

per si sted but that too was an almost pleasant s ensatio n

, .

H e heard th e hurri ed footstep s o f Ra z u m ihin ; h e cl o sed

hi s eyes and p retended to b e asleep Ra z u m ih in op ened th e .

doo r and stood fo r some time i n th e doo rway as though he s i

27 8 FYOD O R D OSTO EVS KY

tati ng then he steppe d so ftly i nto the r oo m and wen t ca u

,

t io u s l y to the so fa Rasko lnikov heard N a s t a s ya s whi sper

.
’

“
D o n t di stu rb him ! Let him sl e ep H e can have hi s di n
’
.

ne r l ate r .

“
Quite s o answe re d Ra z u m ih in
,
B oth withdrew care .

fully and close d the do o r Anothe r hal f hou r pas sed Ras .
-
.

k o l n ik o v op ened hi s eyes t u rned o n hi s b ack agai n clasping , ,

hi s hands b ehind hi s h ead .

“
Wh o i s h e ? Wh o i s t hat man w h o sprang o u t o f th e
e arth ? Whe re w a s b e w hat did h e s e e ? H e h a s s ee n i t all
, ,

that s cl e ar Where was h e then ? And from wh er e di d h e

’
.

see ? Why has h e o nly now sp rung o u t o f th e e arth ? And

h o w c o ul d he se e ? I s i t po ss ibl e ? Hm co ntinued
R askol niko v tu rni n g co ld and shive r ing
, and t h e j ew el ,

cas e N ikol ay found b ehi nd th e doo r— w as that p o ss ible ? A

clu e ? Y o u m i s s an i nfi nitesim al l i ne and you can bu ild i t
~

i nt o a pyrami d o f evi dence ! A fl y fl ew by and s a w i t ! I s i t

p o ss ibl e ? ” H e felt wi th sudden lo athi ng ho w w eak h o w ,
“
p h ysi cal ly weak he h ad b ec om e I o ugh t to h av e know n
”
.

“
it
, h e thought w ith a b itte r smi l e And ho w dared I .
,

k nowing mys el f kn o wing h o w I sh o ul d b e t ak e u p an a x e

, ,

and shed b lo od ! I ou ght t o h av e kn o wn b e for ehand

”
.

Ah bu t I di d know ! he w h i spe red i n desp ai r A t t ime s he

, .

cam e t o a standstil l at som e thought .

“
N o tho s e m en ar e n o t m ade s o
,
The r eal M a s ter t o .

who m al l i s pe rmitted s torm s T o ul o n m ake s a m assacr e i n ,

P ari s f o r g e ts an army i n E gypt w as tes hal f a m i l li o n me n

, ,

i n the M o sc o w exp editio n and gets o ff w ith a j est a t V ilna .

And altar s a r e s e t u p t o h im a fter hi s d eath and so a ll i s ,

p ermitt ed N o su ch pe o pl e i t s eem s ar e not o f fl esh but o f

”
.
,

b ro nz e !
O n e sudde n i r rel evant idea al m o s t m ade him l augh N ap o .
c

l eon th e pyrami ds Waterlo o and a wr etched ski nny o l d

, , ,
’
w om an a pawnb roke r w ith a r ed trunk u nde r h er bed— it s
,

a ni ce hash f o r P o r fi ry Petr o vitch to digest ! How can they

“
digest it ! It s t oo i nartisti c A N apol e o n cre ep u nde r a n
’

”
.

O l d w o man s b ed ! Ugh h o w l oathsom e !

’
,

At mom ents h e f elt h e was r aving H e s ank i n to a s t at e .

“
o f feve ri sh excitem en t Th e O ld woman i s o f no co u se .

“
qu en c e h e th o ught hotly and i ncoherently
, Th e o l d
, .
28 0 F Y OD O R D OS TOEV S K Y

d es ir e s
’
f o r that s not fo r y o u ! I sh all neve r forgiv e
”
,

th e O l d woman !
H is hai r w a s s oaked w ith sweat his qui veri ng l ips wer e ,

parched hi s eyes w ere fixed o n the ceili ng

,
.

“
M othe r s iste r— how I l oved them ! Why do I h ate them
, '

now ? Y e s I h ate them I fe el a physi cal hatred fo r th em I

, , ,

can t b ea r th em near m e
’
I went up to my mothe r and .

ki ssed he r I r emembe r ,
To embrace he r and thi nk i f.

’
s h e only knew shall I tell he r then ? That s j u st what
I m ight do Hm S h e mu st b e th e s am e as I am
’ ”
. .
,

he added strai ning himsel f to think as it w e re struggling

, ,
“
with deli rium Ah ho w I hate the old woman now ! I
.
,

feel I should ki ll he r a g ai n i f s h e came to l i fe ! Poo r Li z a

’
veta ! Why did s h e com e i n It s strange thou gh w hy .
,
’
i s it I scarcely eve r think o f h er as though I h adn t kil led ,

he r ! Liz a v e ta ! S oni a ! Po o r gentl e things w ith gentl e ,

’
eye s . D ear women ! Why do n t they w eep ? Why
do n t t h e y m o a n ? They giv e u p everything
’
thei r eye s
”
x

a re so ft and gentle S oni a S oni a ! Gentl e S oni a !

.
,

He lo st cons ciousness ; it seem ed strange to him that h e

didn t remem b e r how h e got i nto the stre et It was l ate
’
.

eve ning Th e twil ight had falle n and th e ful l moo n wa s

.

shi ning mo r e and mo r e b rightly ; but the re w a s a pecul i a r

b re athles snes s i n the ai r Th er e w er e crowds O f p eopl e .

i n the street ; wo rkmen and b us ines s peopl e w er e m aking

thei r w a y home ; othe r p eopl e had com e o u t for a w alk ;
the re w a s a smell o f m o rtar du st and stagnant w ate r Ra s , .

k o l n ik o v walked along mou rnful and anxi ou s : he was di s ,

t in c t l y awar e o f havi ng com e o u t with a pu rpos e o f h av ing ,

to do s omething i n a hu rry but what i t was he h a d fo r ,

.

gotte n S uddenly h e sto od sti ll and s a w a m an standing o n

.

the other s id e o f the str eet be ckoning t o him H e c rossed , .

ove r to him but at once the m an tu rned and w alked away

,

with hi s head hanging as thou gh h e had made no S ign to

”
,
“
him . Stay di d h e re ally b ecko n !
, Raskolnikov wo nde red ,

b ut he tri e d to ove rtak e him When h e w a s withi n ten .

p ace s he recognis ed him and was f ri ghtened ; i t was th e

s am e man with sto opi ng shoulde rs i n th e long coat Ras .

k o l n ik o v followed him at a di stance ; hi s he art w a s beating ;

they went down a turning ; the m an still di d not look round .
 C R IME AND P U NI S H M E N T 28 1

”
D o es he know I am followi ng him ? thought Raskolnikov .

The m an went into the gateway o f a b ig hou se Raskolnik o v .

hastened to the gate and lo oked i n to s e e whether he woul d

look round and S ign to him In the cou rtyard the man did
.

turn round and a g ai n seemed to b ecko n him Raskolniko v .

at once follow ed him i nto the yard but the man was gone ,
.

H e must have go ne up the fi rst stai rcas e Raskolniko v .

rushed a fte r him H e heard slo w m e asured steps two flights

.

above The stai rcas e seemed strangely f amili a r H e r eached

. .

the window o n the fi rst floo r ; the moon sho ne through the
panes with a m elancholy and mysteri ou s light ; then h e
reached the s econd floo r B ah ! thi s i s the flat wher e t he
.

p ai nter s we r e at work how was it h e did not r ecogni s e

o

i t at once ? The steps O f th e man ab ove had died away .

“
S O h e mu st hav e stopped o r hidde n somewhere He .

reached the thir d sto ry should h e go o n ? Ther e w a s a

,

sti llness that w a s dread ful B ut he went o n

. The .

sound O f hi s own footstep s scared and frightened him How .

dark i t w a s ! Th e m an mu st b e hiding i n some corne r h ere .

Ah ! the flat was st anding w ide O pen h e hes itated and went ,

i n It w a s very dark and empty i n the pass age as though

.
,

e verything had b een r emoved ; he crept o n tipto e into the

parlou r which w a s flooded with mo onl ight E verything ther e .

w a s as be fore th e chai rs the looking gl ass the yel low so fa

, ,
-
,

and the pi ctures i n the frame s A huge r ound copp er r ed .

, ,
-

“ ’
moon looked i n at the windows It s the moo n that make s
.

it s o sti ll weaving som e mystery thought Raskolnikov H e

, , .

stood and waited w aited a long while and the mo re s ilent

, ,

the moonlight the mo re vi olently hi s h eart b eat till i t w a s

, ,

pain ful . And sti ll the same hu sh S uddenly he heard a .

momentary sharp crack l ike the s napping O f a splinte r and

al l was still again A fly flew up suddenly and struck th e
.

window pane w ith a pl ainti v e buz z At that mom ent h e .

n o ti ced i n the co rne r b etween th e wi ndow and th e l ittl e c u p

“
board som ething l ike a cloak h anging o n th e wal l Why i s
”
.

“
that clo ak here ? h e thought it wasn t there b e fo re ’
.
,

H e went up to i t qui etly and f elt that ther e was som e o n e

hiding b ehi nd it H e cautiou sly mo ved the cloak and saw
.
,

sitting on a chai r i n the co rne r the O l d woman bent doubl e ,

’
s o that he couldn t s e e he r face ; but it wa s s h e H e s tood .
28 2 F YO D O R D OSTOEV S KY

o v e r he r . S h e i s a fraid h e thought H e s t e althily took

, .

th e ax e from the no os e and struck h er o n e blow then a n ,

o the r o n the skul l B ut st range to s ay s h e did not sti r as

.
,

though s he wer e m ade o f wood H e was f ri ghtened b ent .

,

down neare r and tri e d t o look at he r ; but she to o b ent her , ,

h ead lowe r H e b ent r ight dow n t o th e gr o und and p eeped

.

u p i nto he r face from b el o w h e p eeped and turned co ld with

,

ho rr o r : the O l d wom an w a s s i tting and l aughing shaking ,

w ith n o i sel es s l au ghte r do ing h e r utm o st that he should

,

n ot h ea r i t S uddenly he fanci ed th at the d o o r from the

.

b edr oo m w a s op ened a l ittl e and that t her e was l aughter and

wh isp eri ng w ithi n H e was o v er com e w ith f r enzy and he
.

b egan hitti ng th e O l d wom an o n th e head with all hi s fo rce ,

but at every blow o f th e axe th e l au ghte r and whisp ering

from th e b edroom gr ew l ouder and th e o l d woman w a s
s imply shaking w ith mi rth H e was rushing away but the.
,

p as sage wa s full o f p eopl e the d o o r s o f th e flats stood O pen

,

and o n th e l anding o n the stai rs and ev erywher e b elow ther e

,

w e r e p eopl e r o w s o f h eads al l looking but huddled together

, , ,

i n s ilence and exp ecta t i o n S omething gripp ed hi s heart hi s

.
,

l egs wer e ro o ted t o th e sp o t they would not mo ve ,He .

t ri ed t o s cr eam and woke up .

H e drew a deep b re ath— but hi s drea m s eem ed s t rangely

t o p e rs i st : hi s do o r was fl ung op en and a m an whom he had
n ev er s een s to o d i n th e do orw ay w atching him intently .

Raskolnikov h ad hardly opened hi s eyes and h e in

s t a n tl y cl o sed the m again H e l ay o n hi s b ack w ith o u t
.

sti r ring
”
.

“
I s it stil l a dream ? h e wonder ed and agai n rai s ed hi s
e yeli ds hardly p er ceptibly ; the strange r w a s standing i n t he
s am e pl ace stil l w atchi ng him
,
.

H e stepp ed cautiously i nto the ro o m car e fully cl osing th e ,

doo r afte r him went u p t o the t ab l e p au s ed a m o ment sti ll

, , ,

keep ing hi s eye s o n Raskolnikov and no is eles sly s eated him ,

s el f o n th e chai r by the so f a ; h e put hi s hat o n th e floo r

b esi de him and l eane d hi s hands o n hi s cane and hi s chi n o n
hi s hands . It w as evi dent th at he was p r epared t o wai t
i ndefi nitely As far as Raskol nik o v coul d m ake o u t from hi s
.

st o l en glances h e was a m an no longe r young stout with a

, , ,

full fai r almo st whi t i sh b eard

, , .
 P A RT IV

C HAP T E R I

A N th i s b e sti ll a d re am ?
” Rask o lnik o v t h ou gh t o nc e
m o r e H e looked care fully and su sp ici o u sly at the
.

u nexp ected v i sit o r .

S v id r ig a il o v ! What n o nsens e ! I t can t b e !

’
he said at
l ast aloud i n b ewi lde rm ent .

H i s v i sit o r di d n o t s eem a t all su rp ri sed at thi s excl ama

t io n .

“ ’
I ve c o me t o y o u f o r tw o r eas o ns In the fi rs t place I .
,

wanted to make yo u r pe r sonal acqu ai ntance as I hav e al ready ,

heard a great deal about yo u that is i nteresting and flattering ;

s e condly I cher i sh the hop e that yo u m ay n o t r e fu se t o assi s t
,

m e in a m atte r di re ctly conce rning the wel fare o f you r s i ste r ,

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a F o r with o ut you r support s h e might

.

not let m e c o m e nea r he r n o w fo r s h e i s p rej udi ced agai ns t

,

m e but with you r as si stance I r ecko n o n

”
,
“
Y o u r ecko n wrongly i nte r rupte d Raskolnik ov
”
.
,
“
They only ar r i ved yeste rday may I ask y o u ?
,

Raskol nikov m ade n o r eply .

“
It wa s yeste rday I know I o nly arr ived mysel f the day
, .

b e fo re Well l et m e tel l yo u thi s Rodio n Ro m a n o v itch

.
, , ,
’
I don t c o nside r it ne ce ssary t o j u sti fy mysel f but kindly tel l ,

m e what was the re parti cu larly crim inal o n my part in al l thi s

bu si ne ss spe aki ng withou t p rej udi ce w ith commo n sense ? ”
, ,

Raskolnik o v conti nu ed to look at him i n sil ence .

“
That i n my o w n hou se I p ers e cuted a d e fencel e ss gi rl and
‘i nsulted he r with my i nfamou s p rop o sal s — i s that it ? ( I am ’

’
anti cipating you ) B ut you v e o nly t o as sum e that I too am
.
, ,

a m an e t n ihil hu m a n u m i n a wo rd that I am capab le ,

o f b eing att ra cted and fall ing i n lov e ( whi ch doe s not depend

o n our will ) then ev e r yt hing can b e expl ained i n the mo s t

,

28 4
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H M E NT 285

n a t u r al m anne r The question i s am I a m o ns t e r o r am I

.
, ,

m ysel f a vi ctim And what i f I am a v i ctim ? In pr o po sing

to the obj ect o f my p assion t o elop e with m e t o Ameri ca o r
S witze rland I may have cherished the deepest re sp ect fo r
,

he r and may h av e thought that I was promoting ou r mutu al

happiness ! Reaso n is the sl av e o f passion yo u know ; why
”
, ,

p ro b ably I w a s do ing mo re harm to mysel f than any o ne !

”
,
“ ’
B ut that s not the p o int Raskolnikov i nterrupted w ith
'

,
“ ’
disgust .I t s simply that whethe r yo u ar e r ight o r wrong ,
’
w e di slike yo u We don t want to have anything t o d o with
”
.

yo u. We show yo u the d o o r Go o u t ! .

S v id r ig a i l o v b roke i nto a sudden laugh .

“ ’ ’
B ut you r e b ut there s n o getting rou nd y ou he ,
“
said laughing i n the fr ankest way I hoped to get r o und
”
.

you but you took up the r ight line at o nce !

”
,
“
B ut you are trying t o ge t round m e stil l !
What o f it ? ”
What o f it ? cri ed S v id riga i l o v l augh in g ,
“
openly . B ut thi s is what the F r ench call b o nn e g u er r e a nd ,

the most i nn o cent fo rm o f decepti o n ! B ut s t ill y o u hav e

i nterrupted me ; o n e way o r anothe r I r epeat agai n : ther e ,

would neve r have b een any unpleasantnes s except fo r wha t

happened in the garden M ar fa P et rovna .

“
Y o u have g o t r id o f M ar f a P etr o vna t o o s o they s ay ? , ,

Raskol nikov inte r rupted rudely .

“ ’
O h you v e heard that t o o then ? Y o u d b e su r e to
’
, , , ,
’
though . B ut a s fo r your question I r eally don t know ,

what to say though my o w n conscience i s quite at re st o n that

,

s core D on t suppos e that I am i n any appr ehension ab out it

.
’
.

Al l was r egula r and i n o rder ; the medi cal i n qui ry diagno sed
apoplexy due to b athing immedi ately a fte r a heavy di nner and
a bottl e o f wine and i ndeed i t could have p roved nothing
,
’
e lse B ut I ll tell you what I h av e b een thinking to mysel f
.

’
o f l ate on my w a y her e i n the train especially : didn t I
, ,

contribute t o all that calamity mo rally i n a w ay by , , ,

i rr itatio n o r something O f the so rt B ut I came to t h e c o n

”
.

e lu sio n that that t o o wa s qu ite o ut o f the questi o n

, ,
.

Raskolnikov laughed
”
.

“
I wonde r yo u troubl e y o u rs el f ab out it !
But what ar e yo u laughing at ? O nly conside r 1 s t r u ck ,

he r j ust twi ce with a switch— the re wer e n o ma rks ev e n o

28 6 F Y ODO R DO S T O EV S KY
’
don t regard m e a s a cyni c please ; I am per fectly aware h o w ,

atrociou s i t wa s o f me and al l that ; but I know fo r certain ,

t o o that M ar fa Petr o vna w a s very l ikely pl eased at my s o t o

, ,

s ay warmth
, The sto ry O f you r siste r had b een w rung o u t
.

to the last dro p ; fo r the last thr ee days M ar f a Petr o vna had
b een fo rced to s it at home ; s h e had nothing t o sh o w he rs el f
with i n the town B e sides sh e had b o r ed them s o wi th that
.
,

lette r ( yo u heard ab o u t her reading th e lette r ) And all o f .

a sudden th o se two switches fel l from heave n ! He r fi rst ac t

was to o rde r th e carr iage t o b e g o t ou t N o t t o speak o f .

the fact that the r e ar e case s whe n wom en ar e very v ery ,

gl ad t o b e insulted i n sp ite o f all thei r show o f i ndignation .

The r e are instances o f it w ith e v ery o ne ; Hum an b eings i n

general indeed greatly l ove t o b e i nsulted hav e yo u noti ce d
, , ,

that ? Bu t it s parti cularly s o w ith w o m en O n e m ight even

’

”
.

’
s ay i t s thei r o nly amu sem ent .

At one tim e Rasko lniko v thought o f getti ng up and w alking

o u t and s o fi ni shing the i nte rvi ew B ut som e cu ri osity and .

even a s o rt o f p rudence m ade him l i nge r fo r a m o men t

”
.

“
Y ou are fo nd o f fi ghting ? h e asked car ele ssly
”
.

N O not v ery , S v id riga i l o v an sw e red calmly

, And , .

M ar fa P etrovna and I s carcely eve r fought We l iv ed v ery .

h armoni o u sly and s h e wa s always pleased with m e I o nly

, .

u s ed the whi p twice i n al l ou r sev en years ( n o t counting a

t hird o ccasio n o f a very amb igu o u s characte r ) The fi rst .

time tw o m onths afte r o u r mar r iage imm edi ately a fte r we

, ,

a r rived i n the c o u ntry and th e la st tim e w a s that o f whi ch

,

we are s peaking D i d you supp o s e I was su ch a m o nst e r

.
,

such a r eactio nary su ch a sl av e d ri ve r ? H a h a ! B y th e

, ,

way d o yo u r ememb e r R o di o n Ro m a n o v it c h h o w a fe w
, , ,

year s ago i n th o se days o f b e n e fi c e n t publ icity a nobl em an

, , ,

I ve fo rgo tten hi s nam e w a s put to sham e everywhe r e i n

’
, ,

all the p ap e rs fo r having thrashed a German w oman i n the

,

r ailway t rain Yo u r em emb e r ? It w a s i n tho se days that

‘ ,
.

’
ve ry yea r I b el iev e th e di sgrace fu l acti on o f th e A g e t oo k
‘
,

pl ace ( yo u kn o w The E gypti an N i ghts th at publi c r eading

, ,
’
,

yo u r em emb er ? The dark eyes yo u know ! Ah the golden , ,

days o f o u r youth whe r e ar e they ? ) Well as fo r the gentl e

, ,

m an wh o thrashed th e German I f eel no sympathy with him , ,

b ecau se a fte r all wha t n eed i s t her e f o r symp athy ? B ut I

28 8 F Y OD O R D OS T OEV S K Y

Bu t I ve heard yo u h ave m any f r iends he re

’
Y ou a r e a s
‘
.
,
’
they say not w ithout connections What can y ou w an t w ith
”
.
,

m e then u nles s you ve som e speci al obj ec t ?

’
, ,
“ ’
That s t ru e that I have f ri ends he re S v id r iga i l o v a d ,
“
m it te d n o t replying t o the chi e f po int
’
, I v e met som e a l .

’
re ady I ve been lounging ab ou t fo r the l ast three days and
.
,
’
I ve s een them o r they v e s een m e ,
’
That s a m atte r o f .
’

course I am well d re ssed and re ck o ned n o t a p oo r m an ; th e

.

’
em anci pati on o f the s e r fs has n t a ffected m e ; my pr o perty
consi sts chi efly O f f o re sts and wate r m eadows The revenu e .

ha s not fall en O ff ; bu t I am n o t g o ing t o s ee them I ,

’
was s ick o f them long ago I v e b een her e three days and .

h av e called o n no o n e What a town it i s ! H o w h a s it

.

com e i nto exi stence amon g u s tel l m e that ? A t o w n o f ,

o ffi ci al s and students o f al l so rts Ye s ther e s a gr eat deal .

,
’

I didn t n o ti ce w hen I was he re eight year s ago kicki ng up

’

my he el s M y o nly h o p e n o w i s i n anatomy by J o v e
”
.
, ,

it is !
“
Anat o my
B ut a s fo r t he s e club s D u s sa u t s par ades o r p r o gress, , , ,

i ndeed m ay b e— well all that can go o n w ithout m e he w ent

, , ,
“
o n agai n withou t not i c i ng the q u estion
, B e s ide s w h o wan t s .
,

t o b e a ca rd sha rpe r -

“
Why have you b ee n a card sharp e r then ? ” -
,

How could I help b ei ng ? Ther e w as a r egul a r s e t o f u s ,

m e n o f th e b est so ci ety e igh t year s ago ; we had a fi ne tim e

, .

And al l m en o f b reedi ng y o u know poet s m en o f pr o perty , , , .

And i ndeed a s a rule i n o u r Ru ssi an s o ci ety the b est m anner s

’
a re fou nd am ong th o se who v e b een thrashed have yo u ,
’
noti ced that ? I v e dete rio rated i n the co untry B ut I did get .

i nto p ris o n fo r d eb t throu gh a l o w Gre ek who cam e f rom

,

N ezhi n The n M ar fa Petrovn a tu rned up ; s h e b argai ned

.

w ith him and bought m e o ff fo r th i rty th o u sand s i lve r p ie ce s

( I owed s eventy th o u sand ) We we re united i n l aw ful w e d .

lo ck and s h e bor e m e o ff into t he country like a tre asu r e You .

know s h e was fi ve year s O lde r than I She was very fond o f .

m e F o r seven ye ar s I neve r l e ft the c o untry And take

. .
,

note that all my l i f e s he h eld a document o ve r m e the I O U

, , . . .

fo r thi rty thou sand r o uble s S O i f I wer e to elect to b e ,

r estiv e about anythin g I s h ou ld b e t rapp ed a t o nce ! And

 C R IM E A N D P UN I S H MENT 289

s he wou ld hav e d o ne it ! W om en fi nd n o thing inc o mp atible

i n that ” .

“ ’
I f it hadn t b een fo r t hat would y o u have give n he r ,

the S lip ?
“ ’
1 do n t know what t o say I t w a s scarcely the do cument .

r estrained me I didn t want to g o anywher e el se M ar f a

.
’
.

P etrovna hersel f invited m e to go ab ro ad se eing I was bor ed , ,

’
but I ve been ab road b e fo r e and always felt sick there F o r , .

n o r eason but the sunri se the b ay o f N apl es the s e a— y o u

, , ,
’
look at them and i t m akes you s a d What s most r evolting i s .

that o n e i s r eally s a d ! N o it s b ette r at h o m e H er e at l eas t

,
’
.

o n e b lame s other s fo r eve rything and excuse s o nesel f I .

should have g o ne pe rhap s on an expediti o n to the N o rth Pole ,

’ ’
b e cau s e j a i l e v in i n a u va is and hat e dri nki ng and the re s ,
’
nothing le ft bu t wi ne I hav e tri ed it B ut I s ay I ve b een
. .
, ,

told B erg i s g o ing up i n a great ball oo n next Sunday f rom

the Y u su p o v Ga rden and will t ake up passenge r s a t a fe e Is
”
.

i t true ?
“
Why would you go up ? ”
,

I N o o h no m uttere d S v id rigai l o v r eally see m in g

, , ,

t o b e deep i n thought
”
.

“
What d o es he mean ? I s h e in e arnest ? Raskolniko v
wonde red .

“
N o the d o c u ment didn t re strain m e
’
, S v id rig a i l o v we n t ,
“
on m editatively
, It w a s my o w n doing not l eaving th e
.
,

c o untry and nearly a year ag o M ar fa Petrovna gave m e back

,

th e docu ment o n my name day and made m e a pre sent o f a

considerabl e s u m o f m o ney to o S he had a fo rtune yo u
‘
.
, ,

Yo u see how I tru st y o u Arkady I vanovitch — that

’
kn o w .
,

Y o u don t b el i ev e s h e u sed it ?
’
w a s actually he r expres si on .

B ut d o you know I managed th e estate quite decently they ,

kn o w m e i n the nei ghbou rho od I o rdere d books to o .

, .

M a r fa Petrovna at fi rst approved but a fterwards s h e w a s

”
,

a f raid o f my ove r studying -

”
.

“
Y o u s eem t o b e mis si ng M ar fa Petrovna very much ?

M issing her ? P erhap s Really pe rhap s I am And by

”
. .
, ,

the way do you beli eve i n ghosts ?

,
“
What gho sts ?
Why o rdinary gh o sts
”
.
,

D o yo u b eli ev e i n the m ?
290 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

I w ou ld n t say no
’
P erhap s n o t po u r v o u s pl a ire .

”
,

exactly
”
.

“
D O yo u s e e them t hen ?
,

S v id r ig a i l o v looked at him r athe r o ddly .

“
M ar fa Petro vna i s p lea sed to vi si t me he said twi s t ing , ,

hi s m o uth i nto a strange sm ile

‘
.

“ U
How d o yo u mean s h e i s pl eased t o vi sit y o u ?
S he ha s b een thre e time s I saw he r fi rst on t he v e ry .

d a y o f th e fune ral an hou r a fte r sh e w a s buri ed

,
It w a s .

th e d ay be f o r e I le ft to c o me her e Th e s eco nd tim e .

wa s th e d ay be f o re yeste rday at d aybre ak o n the j o u rney , ,

a t th e statio n o f M alaya V i sher a and th e thi rd time w a s ,

tw o h o u r s ag o i n the ro o m whe re I a m staying I w as

”
.

a l o ne
”
.

“
We r e yo u awak e ?
Qu ite aw ake I wa s w i de awa k e eve ry time S he c om e s
. .
,

speaks t o m e fo r a m inut e and g o es o ut a t the d oo r— alway s

at the do o r I c a n alm o st he ar he r ” .
.

“
W hat m ade m e thi nk tha t som ething o f the s o rt m u st b e
happening t o y o u ? ”Raskolniko v said suddenly .

At the s ame momen t h e was su rp r ised at h av ing s aid i t .

H e was m u ch excited .

“
What ! D id you think s o S v id r ig a i l o v asked i n ast o n
ishm e n t D id yo u r eal ly ? D idn t I s ay tha t the r e w a s ’

”
.

s om ething i n comm o n b etw een u s eh ?

,
“
Yo u nev e r s a i d s o R a sk o lnik o v c ri ed sh arply and w i th
h eat .

“ ’
D idn t I
No
I t h o ugh t I did W h en I cam e i n and s aw y ou l yin g w ith
‘
.

y o u r e yes S hut p r etending I s aid to m ysel f at once h e r e s t he

, ,
’

m an ’

‘
.

“
Wha t d o y ou m ean by th e m a n ? Wh a t a r e y ou t alking ’

ab ou t ? ” cr i ed Rasko lnikov .

“ ’
W hat do I m ean ? I r eally don t kn o w S v id rigai l o v .

m utte red ingenuou sly a s th o u gh he t o o w er e pu zzled

, , , .

F o r a minute they we r e silent They stared i n eac h .

’
o ther s faces
”
.

That s al l n o ns ens e ! Rask o lnik o v shouted w it h v exa t i o n

’
.

W ha t d o es sh e s ay when s h e c o mes to yo u
292 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

And i n th e past h av e y o u eve r s een gho sts be fo re ” ?

,

Y—ye s I hav e s een th em b u t only once in my l i fe si x

, , ,

ye ars ago I had a s er f F ilk a ; j u st a fte r hi s bu r i al I call ed

‘
.
,

H e cam e i n and went t o

’
o u t fo rgetting F i lka my p ip e !
'

th e cup b oa rd wh er e my p ip es we re I s a t stil l and thought

‘
.

’
h e i s do ing it out o f rev enge b ecau s e we had a v io len t
qu arre l j u st b e for e hi s death ‘H o w dar e you come i n wit h
‘
.

a hol e i n you r elbow I s aid G o aw ay you scamp ,

He’
.
,
’
tu rned and w ent o u t and neve r cam e again I didn t tell , .

M ar fa Petr o vn a at th e t im e I want ed to h av e a s ervi ce .

sung fo r hi m but I w as ashamed .

”
,
“
You should g o to a docto r .

I know I a m no t w ell w ithou t you r tell ing me though , ,

I don t kno w what s w rong ; I b elieve I am fiv e t imes a s

’ ’

strong as you ar e I didn t ask you whethe r you b eli eve that
.
’

ghosts a r e s een but whethe r you b el i ev e that they exi st

”
.
,
“
N o I w o n t b eli ev e it ! Raskolnikov cried w ith po s itive
’
, ,

ange r
”
.

“
What do p eopl e gene rally say ? muttered S v id r ig a i l o v ,

a s though sp eaking to himsel f looking aside and b owing hi s

‘
,

h ead . They s a y Y o u a re il l s o what appear s to you i s

, ,
’ ’
o nly u nreal fantasy B ut that s not stri ctly logical I agree
. .

th at gh o st s o nly appear t o the s ick but th at only p rove s that ,

they ar e u nabl e t o app ear except to th e s ick not that th ey

”
,
’
don t exi st .

“
N othing o f the so rt Rasko lnikov in si sted i r ritably , .

N o ? You don t think s o S v id r ig a i l o v w ent on look

’
,

ing a t hi m d el ib e rat ely Bu t what do you s a y to thi s argu .

ment ( h elp m e w ith it ) : gho sts ar e as it we re shr ed s a n d

fragm ent s o f othe r wo rl ds the b eginning o f th em A man , .

in health has o f cou rse no re ason to se e them b ecau s e h e

, , ,

i s ab ov e al l a m an o f thi s earth and i s bound fo r the sak e

o f compl etene ss and o rd er t o l iv e o nly i n thi s l i fe B ut a s .

soo n a s o n e i s ill as s o on a s th e no rmal earthly o rde r o f

,

the o rgani sm i s b roken o n e b egins to re al i se th e po ssib ility ,

o f anothe r wo rld ; and the mo re s eriou sly il l one i s th e clo s e r ,

bec o mes o n e s contact with that othe r wo rld s o that as soo n

’

a s th e m an di es h e step s st raight into that wo rld I thought .

o f th at long ago I f you b el i ev e i n a futu r e l i fe y o u cou ld

.
,

b el i ev e in that to o ,
.
 C R IM E A N D P UN IS H M EN T 293

’ ”
I don t b el iev e in a futu r e l i fe s aid Rask o lnik o v .
,

S v id rig a il o v sat lo st in thought .

“
And what i f there ar e only sp iders there o r something o f
”
,

t hat so rt he s aid suddenly

”
.
,
“
H e i s a madman thought Raskolniko v , .

We always imagine eternity a s something b ey o nd o u r

conception something v ast vast ! B ut w hy mu st it be v ast ?
, ,

Instead o f al l that what i f i t s o n e l ittl e room like a b ath

,
’
,

hou se i n the count ry bl ack and grimy and sp ider s in every

,

co rne r and that s al l ete rn ity i s ? I som etimes fancy it l ik e

’

”
,

that .

“
C a n i t b e you can imagine nothing j u ster and mo re
com forting than that ? ” Raskolnik o v cried with a feel ing o f ,

angu i sh .

“
J u ster ? And h o w can we tell p erh ap s th at i s j u st and , ,

do yo u know it s what I wou ld certainly h av e made it

’
,

answered S v id riga i l o v with a v agu e smil e ,

.

This ho r ribl e answ er s ent a cold chill th rough Raskolnik o v .

S v id r ig a i l o v r ai sed hi s h ead look ed at him and su ddenly , ,

b egan l aughing
”
.

O nly think h e cri ed h al f an hou r ago w e h ad neve r

, ,

s een each oth er w e r egarded each other as enemi es ; the re i s

,

a matte r u ns ettl ed b etween u s ; w e v e thrown it as ide and ’

,
’ ’
away w e v e gone into the ab stract ! W asn t I r igh t in saying
that w e we r e b i rds o f a feather ? ”
“
K indly al low m e
” Raskolnikov w ent o n i rr itably to ask
, ,

you t o expl ai n w hy you hav e honou red m e with you r

v i sit and and I am i n a hu rry I hav e n o t ime t o ,

waste I want to go o u t
. .

“
By all means by all m eans You r si ster A v d o tya Roma
, .
,

n o vn a , i s going to b e mar ri ed to M r Luzhin Pyot r Petro .

,

v it ch
“
C an you re frain from any qu estion about my s ister and
fro m m enti oning her n ame ? I can t u nderstand how yo u ’

dare utt er he r nam e in my p r esence i f you r e ally are S vid

”
,

ri a il o v
g .

“
Why but I ve com e h e re to speak about he r ; h o w ca n
’

”
,

I avo id mentioning her ?

“
V ery good speak but mak e h aste
, , .

I am su re that you mus t hav e fo rmed y o u r o w n o p ini o n

294 F Y OD O R D OS TO EV S KY

of t hi s M r Lu zhin wh o i s a conne ction o f m ine th r ou gh my

.
,

w i fe i f you hav e only s een hi m fo r hal f an h o ur o r he ard

, ,

any fact s a b out h im He i s no match f o r A v do tya R o ma

.

n o vn a . I b el iev e A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a is sacrifi cing he rsel f

gene rou sly and imp rudently fo r the s ak e o f f o r the s ak e
o f he r fami ly I fanci ed fro m all I had heard o f yo u that
.

you wou ld b e v ery gl ad i f the m atch cou l d b e b rok en o ff

w ithou t the s acrifi ce o f wo rldly advantages N o w I kn o w
”
.

y o u p ers o nally I am conv inced o f it

, .

“
All th i s i s v e ry na i v e excu s e m e I sh o uld h av e s aid
”
,

i mpudent o n you r p art s aid Rask o lnik o v , .

“
Yo u m ean t o s a y t h at I am seek ing my o w n ends
’
Don t .

b e u neasy Rodio n Ro m a n o v itch i f I w er e w o rking f o r my

, ,

o w n advantage I woul d n o t hav e sp o k en o u t s o di rectly

,
I .

a m n o t qu ite a fool I w i ll c o n fes s something p sychol o gically

.

cu riou s about th at : j u st now d e fending my lov e fo r A v d o tya

,

Ro m a n o v n a I s aid I w a s mys el f th e v ictim

, Well l et m e .
,

t ell y o u that I v e n o f eeling O f l o v e now n o t th e sl igh t est

’
, ,

s o that I wonde r mys el f inde ed f o r I r eal ly did feel s o m e

,

thing
“
Through i dlenes s and dep rav i t y Rask o l nik o v pu t i n , .

I certainly am idle and dep r aved but y o u r s i ste r h as su c h ,

q ual iti es that even I coul d n o t h elp b eing i mpre ssed by t he m

”
.

Bu t th at s all n o nsens e a s I s e e mysel f n o w

’
.

”
,
“
H av e you s een th at long ?

I b egan to b e awar e o f i t b e f o r e bu t was o nly p e r fectly ,

su r e o f it th e day b e fo r e yeste rday al m o st at the moment ,

I a rr ived i n P etersbu rg I sti ll fanci ed in M o scow though

.
, ,

that I w as coming to t ry to ge t A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a s hand ’

and t o cu t o ut M r Lu zhin ” . .

“
E xcu se m e fo r inte r r upting y o u ; kindly b e b rie f and ,

com e to the O b j ect o f you r v i s it I am i n a hu rry I w a n t .

,

t o go o u t .

“
With the g reates t pl easu re O n ar riving h ere and de t er .

m ining o n a ce rtai n j o u rney I shoul d l ike t o m ake some ,

neces sary p relimina ry arrangements I l e ft my child ren with .

an aunt ; th ey ar e wel l p rovided fo r ; and th ey h av e n o need

o f me personally And a ni ce fathe r I S hou ld make t oo ! I
.
,

h av e tak en nothing but what M ar fa Petro vn a gav e me a yea r

a go . Tha t s e n o ugh f o r m e E xcu s e me I a m j u st coming
’
.
,
296 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

Not i n th e l east Then a m an may do nothing but har m

.

to h i s neighbou r i n thi s wo r ld and i s p revented f r o m d o ing ,

th e tinie st b it o f goo d by t riv i al conv entional fo rmal iti es .

That s absu rd I f I died fo r i nstance and l e ft that s u m t o

’

”
.
, ,

y o u r si ster in my will su rely S he wouldn t r e fu s e it ? ’

”
,
“
V e ry lik ely s h e woul d .

O h no indeed
, ,
H oweve r i f you r e fu se it S O b e it
.
, , ,

t hou g h t en thou sand rouble s i s a capit al thing to hav e o n

occasion I n any cas e I beg y o u t o r epeat what I h av e s aid
.

to A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a
”
.

“
N o I won t
’
.
,

In that cas e Rodi o n Ro m a n o v itch I sh al l b e obli ged to

, ,

t ry and s e e he r mys el f and wo rry her by do ing s o .

And i f I do tel l h e r w ill you not try to s ee her ? ,

’
I don t know r eally wh a t to s ay I should l ike v ery mu ch
”
.

t o s e e he r once mo r e ~

”
.

“
D o n t hop e fo r i t
’
.

“ ’
I m so r ry B ut y o u d o n t kn o w m e Pe rhap s w e may ’

”
. .

b ecom e b ette r f ri ends .

“
You think w e m ay be c o m e f ri ends
”
.

And why not ? S v id r ig a i l o v s aid smil ing H e sto o d u p ,

.

“
and took hi s hat I d idn t qu ite intend to d istu r b y o u
.
’

and I cam e her e w ith o ut r eckoning on it though I w a s

v e ry mu ch st ru ck by you r face thi s m o rning
”
.

“
Wher e did yo u see m e thi s m o rning ? Rask o lnik o v asked
u neas ily .

“
I s aw yo u by chance I keep fancying ther e i s s ome
.

th ing ab out you l ik e me B ut don t be u neasy I am .

’
.

not intru s iv e ; I u s ed to get o n al l right with card sh arp ers -

,

and I n ev e r bo red P rince S v irb e y a great p ersonage who ,

i s a d i stant relat ion o f mine and I cou ld w rit e ab ou t ,

Raphael s M a do n n a i n M adam P ril u k o v s albu m and I n ev e r

’ ’
,
’
l e ft M ar fa P e t ro v n a s side fo r s even years and I u sed to ,

stay the night at V ia z e m s ky s hou se i n the H ay M arket in ’

th e o l d days and I may go u p i n a b allo o n w ith B erg

, ,

p erhap s .

“
O h al l r ight A re you starting s oo n o n you r t ravel s
”
, .
,

m a y I ask ?
“
What t rav el s ?
‘
Why on that j ou rney y o u spok e o f it you rsel f .
,
 C R IM E A N D P UN I S H M E N T 29 7

A j o u rney ? O h yes I d id speak o f a j ou rney Well

, . .
,

th at s a w ide subj ect

’
I f only you knew what you are
”
.

asking h e added and gav e a sudden l oud short l augh

, , , ,
.

“ ’
Perhap s I ll get mar ried i nstead o f the j o u rney They re
’
.

making a match f o r me
‘ ”
.

II e re ?

Yes ”
”
.

H o w h av e y ou had time fo r t hat ?

B ut I am v ery anxiou s to s e e A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a once ,

I earnestly beg it Wel l good —b ye fo r the p r es ent O h ye s

.
,
.
, ,

I hav e fo rgotten som ething Tel l you r s i ster R o dio n Ro

.
,

m a n o v it c h that M ar fa Petr o vna r emembe red he r in he r w il l

,

and le ft h er thre e thou s and roubl es That s absolutely ce r .

’

t ain M ar fa Petrovn a ar ranged it a w eek b e fo re h er death

.
,

and it w a s don e i n my p re sence A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a w i ll

”
.

b e abl e to receiv e th e money i n two o r th ree we eks

”
.

“
Are you tell ing the truth ?

Yes t el l he r Well you r s ervant I am s t aying ve ry

”
.
, , .

near you .

A s he went o u t S v id rig a i l o v r an u p agains t Ra z u m ih in in

,

the doo rway .

 C HAPT E R I I

T was nearly eight O cl o ck The two young m en hu rri ed ’

.

to B a k a l eye v s t o a r riv e b e f o r e Lu zhin

’

”
.
,
“
Why w h o was that ,
? asked Ra z u m ih in a s s oo n a s ,

they wer e i n the stre et .

“
I t was S v id r ig a i l o v that l and o wner i n who s e hou s e my
,

si ster wa s i nsulted when s h e wa s thei r gov erne ss Th rough .

hi s p e rsecuting h e r w ith hi s attentions sh e w a s tu rn ed o u t ,

by hi s w i fe M a r i a Petrovna Thi s M ar fa Petrovna b egged

, .

’
D o u ni a s fo rgiv enes s a fte rwards and sh e s j u st di ed su d ,
’

d en l y I t was Of he r w e w ere talk ing thi s mo rning I don t ’

. .

kno w w h y I m a fraid o f that man H e came he re at once

’
.

’
a fte r hi s w i f e s fu neral H e i s ve ry strange and i s dete r .
,

m ined o n do ing something W e mu st gu ard Do u ni a .

’
fro m him that s what I w anted to tell yo u d o yo u
”
,

h ear ?
“
Gu ard h e r ! What c a n h e d o to h arm A v do tya Roma
n o vn a ? Thank you Ro dya fo r speaking to m e l ike that
”
.
, ,

We wil l we w ill gu ard h e r Whe r e do es h e l iv e

,
? .

“
I do n t know’
.

Why didn t you a s k ? What a p i ty ! I ll fi nd out though

’ ’
.

”
,

D id you s e e him ? asked Raskolniko v a fte r a p au s e .

Ye s I noticed him I noti ced him well

”
, , .

You di d r e al ly s e e h im ? You saw hi m clearly ? Rask o l

n ik o v ins isted .

“
Yes I r ememb er him p er fectly I shou l d know him in a
, ,

thou s and ; I h av e a go od mem o ry fo r faces .

Th ey w e re s ilent ag ain .

“
Hm ! that s al l right muttered Raskolnikov DO
’

, .

you kno w I fanci ed , I keep thinking that it may hav e

b een an hallu cination .

“
What do you m ean ? I don t u nde rstand you ’

”
.

Well you al l s a y Rasko lniko v went on twi sting hi s

, , ,
“
mouth into a smil e that I am m ad I thought j u st now ,
”
.

that p erhap s I real ly am mad and h av e only s een a phant o m , .

298
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w el coming h e r b rothe r Py o tr P etro vitch walked i n and .

qu ite am ia b ly thou g h with redoubl ed dignity bowed to the

, ,

l adi es H e lo oked how ev e r as though h e we re a l ittl e put

.
, ,

out and could not yet r ecov e r himsel f Pulche ri a .

Al exand rovna w h o s eemed al so a l ittl e embar rassed

, ,

hastened to m ak e th em al l s it down at the round tabl e

where a s amovar w a s b oili ng D ouni a and Lu zhi n we r e .

facing one anothe r o n O pposit e sides o f the t abl e .

Ra z u m ih in and Raskol nikov w e re facing Pulcheri a Al ex

a n dro vn a Ra z u m ihin w a s next to Lu zhi n and Rask o l niko v
,

was b esi de hi s si ste r .

’
A moment s s i lenc e fo llow ed Pyot r Pe t rov itch del ibe r .

ately d rew o u t a camb ri c handke rchi e f r eeking o f scent

and bl ew hi s no se w ith an ai r o f a b enevol ent man w h o
felt him sel f s lighted and was firmly re solved to i nsi st o n ,

an expl anation I n th e pas sage th e i dea had occu rred t o

.

hi m to keep o n hi s ove rco at and walk away and s o giv e ,

th e two l adi e s a sh arp and emphatic le sso n and make them

fe el th e grav ity o f the po sitio n B ut he could not bring .

him sel f to do thi s B e side s he could n o t endur e u nce rtainty

.
,

and he wanted an expl anatio n : i f hi s r equ est had b een so

O penly di so b eyed the re w a s s omethi ng be hind it and in that
, ,

cas e i t w a s b ette r to fi nd it out b e for eh and ; i t r ested wi th

h im to puni sh them and ther e would always b e time fo r
that .

“
I tru st y o u h ad a f av ou rabl e j ou rney h e i n q u i red ,

O ffici ally o f Pulcheri a Al exandr o vna

”
.

“
O h v ery Pyot r P et rovitch
, ,
.

I am grati fi ed to h ear i t And A v d o tya Ro m an o v n a i s

”
.

not o ve r f atigu ed eith er ?

’
I am young and strong I d o n t get ti red but it w as a ,
”
,

great str ai n f o r mothe r answe r ed D ouni a ,

.

“
That s unavo id abl e ; o u r national railways ar e o f t er ribl e
’

l ength ‘M othe r Ru s si a as they s a y i s a v ast c o unt ry ’

.
.
, ,

In spite o f al l my desi r e to do so I w as u nabl e to m eet yo u

”
,

yesterday B ut I t ru st al l pas sed O ff w ithout i nconv eni ence ?

.

“
Oh no Pyot r Petrov itch i t w as al l t erribly di s ,

”
, ,

h eartening Pul che ri a Al exandrovn a h astened to decl are

.

“
w ith p ecu li a r i ntonation and i f D mitr i P ro k o fi tch had not ,

b een sent u s I re ally b el iev e by God H imsel f we should

, ,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S HM EN T 3 01

hav e been utterly lost H er e h e i s ! D mit ri P r o k o fi tc h

.
,

Ra z u m ihin s h e added
,
i ntroducing him to Luzhi n
,
.

“
I had th e pl easu r e yeste rday mutte red Pyotr ,

P etrovitch with a ho stil e glanc e s id elong at Ra z u m ih in ;

then he scowl ed and was silent .

Pyotr Petr o vitch b elonged to that cl as s o f p ers o ns o n t h e ,

su r face v ery pol ite i n soci ety w h o m ak e a great poi nt o f ,

punctili ousn ess but who di rectly they ar e c r o ssed i n any

, ,

thing are compl etely di sconce rted and becom e mo re l ike

, ,

s acks o f flou r than elegant and l ively m en o f so ci ety .

Agai n all w a s sil ent ; Raskolniko v w a s o bstinately mute ,

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a w a s unwill ing to open th e conv ers a

tio n too soon Ra z u m ih in h ad nothing to s ay so Pulcheri a
.
,

Alexandrovna wa s anxiou s again

”
.

“
M a r f a Petro vn a i s dead hav e you he ard ? s h e b egan ,

having recou rs e to h er l eading item o f c o nv ersatio n .

“
To b e su re I heard s o ,
I w as immedi ately info rmed .
,

and I hav e come to make you acqu ainted with the fact that
Arkady Ivanov itch S v id riga i l o v s e t O ff i n haste fo r P ete rs
bu rg i mmedi ately a fte r hi s wi fe s funeral S o at l east I ’

”
.

h av e excell ent autho rity fo r b el i ev ing

”
.

“
To Peters b u rg he re
? ? D ouni a asked i n al arm and
l ooked at her mother .

“
Y e s i ndeed and doubtless not without som e d esign
, , ,

hav ing i n v i ew th e rapidity o f hi s depa rtu re and al l the ,

ci rcum stances p receding it .

“
Good heav ens ! wo n t h e l eav e D ouni a in p eac e even
’

? ”
her e cri ed Pul cheri a Al exandrovna .

“
I imagine that n eithe r you no r A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a
hav e any grounds fo r uneasiness unles s o f cour s e you are , , ,

your selve s desi rou s o f getting into communi cation w ith him .

F o r my part I am o n my gu ard and am now d iscov e ring

”
,

whe re he i s lodging .

“
O h Pyot r Pet rovitch y o u would n o t b el i ev e what a
, ,

f right you hav e giv en m e Pulcheri a Al exandrovn a went ,

“
on . I v e only s een him twice b ut I thought him terri b l e
’

, ,

ter ribl e ! I am conv inced that h e was th e cau se O f M a r f a

”
P et ro v n a s death
’
.

“
It s impossibl e to b e ce rtain about th at I hav e p reci s e
’
.

i nfo rmation I do n o t di spute that he may hav e co ntributed

.
3 02 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

t o accel er at e the cou r s e o f even t s by th e mo ral influ ence ,

so to s ay o f th e a ffront ; b ut as to th e general condu ct and

,

m oral characteri stic s o f that p e rsonage I am i n agreem ent ,

w ith you I do not know whethe r h e i s w ell O ff now and

.
,

p reci sely what M ar f a P etrov na l e ft him ; thi s will b e known

to m e within a v e ry sho rt p e riod ; but no doubt h e re i n
Peters b u rg i f h e h as any p ecuni ary r esou rce s he w ill
, ,

rel ap se at once int o hi s o l d w ays H e i s the m o st dep rav ed .

,

and a b j ectly v i ci ou s sp ecimen o f that cl as s o f men I hav e .

considerabl e r easo n to b el i ev e that M ar f a P etrovna w h o

w as so un fo rtu nate as to fall i n lo v e w ith him and to pay
hi s de b t s eight year s ago w a s o f s e rvi ce to hi m al so in ,

anothe r way S olely b y h er exertions and s acr i fi ce s a

.
,

criminal charg e i nv ol v ing an el ement o f fantasti c and

,

homi cidal b rutal ity fo r which h e might well hav e b een

s ent enced to S i b eri a wa s hu sh ed up That s th e so rt o f ’

”
.
,

m an h e i s i f you car e to kno w

”
.
,
“
Good he av en s ! cri ed Pul ch eri a Al exandr o vna Rask o l .

n ik o v li st ened attentively .

“
Ar e you sp eaking th e t ruth when you s ay that yo u
h ave goo d ev idence o f thi s ? ” D ou ni a asked sternly and
emph atically .

“
I bn l y r ep eat wh at I w as tol d i n s ecr et by M ar f a
P etro vn a I mu st O b s erv e that from the legal p o int o f v i ew
.

th e cas e w a s far f rom cl ear Ther e w as and I b el i ev e .

,

stil l i s l iv ing her e a wom an called Re s s l ich a fo reigne r

, , ,

w h o l ent sm all sum s o f money at i nterest and did othe r ,

commi s sions and with th i s w o man S v id rig a i l o v h ad fo r a

,

l ong whil e clo s e and myste ri ou s r el ati o ns S h e had a r el a .

tio n a ni ece I b el i ev e l i ving with he r a dea f and dumb

, , ,

gi rl o f fi fteen o r p erh ap s not mo r e than fou rteen Re s sl ich

, .

hated thi s gi rl and grudged he r ev e ry cru st ; s h e u sed t o

,

b eat h er m e rcile s sly O n e day the gi rl wa s found hanging

.

i n th e gar r et At th e i nqu est th e v erdict was su i ci de

. .

A fter th e u su al pro ceedings th e m atte r ended but l ate r , ,

on , i n fo rm ation w as given that th e child had b een

c ru elly outraged by S v id r igai l o v I t i s tru e thi s w a s n ot .
,

cl early e stabl i shed th e i n fo rmation w a s giv en b y anothe r

,

Germ an wom an o f l o os e char acte r whos e wo rd could not b e .

t rusted ; no stat em ent was actu ally mad e to th e p o l ic e ,

3 04 F Y ODO R D O S TO EV S K Y

w aked m e and i ntrodu ced himsel f

,
Raskolnikov continued . .

“
H e w as fai rly chee r ful and at eas e and qu ite hope s th at ,

w e shal l b ecom e fr iend s H e i s particul arly anxi ou s by th e

.

w a y D ouni a fo r an i ntervi ew w ith you at which he asked

, , ,

m e to assi st H e has a p ropo siti on t o m ake to you and he

.
,

told m e about it H e told me too that a week b e for e h e r

.
, ,

death M ar f a P etrovn a l e ft you th r ee thou sand roubl es in

he r w ill D ouni a and that y o u can r ece iv e th e money v ery
”
, ,

sho rtly
”
.

“
Thank God ! c ri ed Pul ch er i a Al exandr o vn a c ro ss ing ,

he rs el f Pray fo r h er sou l D oun i a

”
.
,
“ ’
It s a f act ! b rok e f rom Lu zhin
”
.

T ell u s what mo re ? , D ou ni a u rged Raskol nik o v .

Then h e said th at h e wasn t ri ch and all the e state w a s ’

l e ft to h i s ch ildren who are n o w w ith an aunt then that h e ,

’
was staying som ewhe r e not far f r o m me but whe re I do n t , ,

know I didn t ask ’

”
, .

“
B ut what wh at do e s he w ant t o p ropo s e to D ouni a ?
,

c ri ed Pul che r i a Al exandr o vna i n a f right D id h e tell

”
.

you ?
“
Yes
”
.

What wa s i t ?
“ ’
I ll tel l you a fte rwards .

Raskolnikov ceased sp eaki ng and tur ned hi s a t tenti o n t o

h is tea .

Pyot r P etr o v itch l o oked at h i s w atch .

“
I am comp ell ed to keep a bu s iness engagement and s o ,

I shal l not be i n you r way h e added with an ai r o f som e ,

piqu e and he b egan getting u p .

“
D on t go Pyot r Petrovitch s aid D ouni a yo u intended
’
, , ,

to spend the ev eni ng B esid es you w rote you rsel f that you
”
.
,

wanted to h av e an expl anati o n with moth er

”
.

“
P reci s ely s o A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a
, Pyot r Petrovitch ,

answe red i mp res s iv ely s itting d o wn again but still holding

, ,
“
hi s hat I ce rtai nly desi r ed an expl anatio n with yo u and
.

you r hon o u r ed m o the r upon a v e ry impo rtant po int indeed .

B ut as you r b r o ther cannot spe ak O penly i n my p resenc e o f

s om e p ropo sal s o f M r S v id rig a i l o v I too d o not desi re
.
, , ,

and am no t abl e to speak O p enly i n the p resence o f

o thers of c ertain m atte r s o f the gr eate st gravity .
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 3 05

M o reove r my mo st w eighty and u rgent requ est h as b een

,

di s regarded .

Assuming an aggriev ed ai r Lu zhin rel ap sed into digni fied ,

s ilence .

“
You r requ est th at my b rothe r should not b e p resent at
”
o u r meeting w a s di s regarded sol ely at my instance s aid ,
“
D ouni a Yo u w rote that you had b een insulted by my
.

b rother ; I think that thi s mu st b e explained at once and ,

yo u mu st b e reco ncil ed And i f Ro dya r eally has insulted

”
.

yo u then he s h o u l d and w il l apologi se

, .

Pyot r P etrov itch took a stronger l i ne .

“
Ther e are i nsults A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a which n o good
, ,

will can make u s fo rget There i s a line in everything .

wh ich i t i s dange rou s to o ve rstep ; and when it h as b een

overstepp ed ther e i s no retu rn ” .
,
“
That w asn t what I was sp eaking o f exactly Pyotr
’

”
,

Petrov itch D ouni a inte rrupted with som e impati ence

, .

“
Pleas e understand that o u r whol e futu re depends now o n
wh ethe r all thi s i s expl ained and s e t right as soon as po ssibl e .

I tell you f rankly at the start that I cannot look at i t i n

any othe r light and i f you hav e the l e ast regard fo r m e
, ,

all thi s bu siness mu st b e ended t o —day howeve r hard that ,

m ay b e I r epe at that i f my b rothe r i s to bl ame h e will

”
.

ask you r fo rgivenes s .

I am su rp ri sed at you r putting the qu estio n l ike that ,

“
s ai d Luzhin getting mo re and mo re i rritated
,
Esteeming .
,

and s o to s a y ado ring yo u I m ay at the s ame time ve ry

, , ,

well indeed be abl e to di slike som e memb e r O f you r family

, .

Though I l ay cl aim to th e happines s o f y o u r hand I cannot ,

accept duti es incomp atibl e with

“
Ah don t b e so r eady to take o ffence Py o t r Petrovitch
,
’
, ,
“
D ouni a i nter rupted w ith f eel ing and b e th e s en sibl e and ,

gene rou s man I h av e always conside red and wi sh to con ,

s ide r you to b e
, I v e giv en you a great promi se I a m
.
’

you r betrothed T ru st m e i n thi s m atter and b el iev e me

.
, ,

I shal l b e capabl e O f j udging imparti ally M y assuming th e .

p art o f j udge i s as mu ch a su rp ri s e fo r my b rother as fo r

you When I insi sted on hi s coming to o u r inte rvi ew to day
.
-

a fte r you r l ette r I told him nothing o f what I meant to do

, .

U nderstand that i f yo u ar e not r econciled I mu st choo s e

, ,
3 06 F YODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

b etwe en y o u— it mu st b e e ithe r you o r b e Tha t is h o w .

the qu estion rests o n you r s ide and o n his I do n t w ant .

’

to b e mistaken in my cho i ce and I mu s t not b e F o r you r

, .

s ake I mu st b r eak O ff w ith my b rothe r f o r my b rother s ,

’

sak e I mu st b reak O ff with you I can fi nd o u t fo r ce rtain

.

n ow whethe r h e i s a b rother t o m e and I w ant to know it ; ,

and o f you wh ether I am dear t o you whethe r yo u estee m

”
, ,

m e whethe r yo u ar e the hu sb and fo r m e

, .

“
A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a Luzhi n decl ared h u ffi ly
, you r ,

wo rds ar e o f to o much consequ ence t o m e ; I w ill s ay mo r e ,

they ar e o ffensiv e i n v i ew o f th e po s ition I h av e th e honou r

to o ccupy i n rel atio n to you T o s ay nothing o f you r str ange
.

and o ffensi v e s etting m e o n a l ev el w ith an imp ertinent b oy ,

you admi t th e po s s ib i lity o f b r eaking y o u r p romi s e to m e

‘
.

Y o u s ay you o r h e showing ther eby o f how l ittl e c o n s e

’
,

q u e n c e I am in you r eye s I cann o t l et thi s p ass con

s id e r in g th e r el ati o nship and the obl i gations exi sti ng
between u s ”
”
.

“
Wh at ! cri ed D ou ni a flu shing , I s e t you r i nte rest
.

b esid e al l th at h as hith erto b een mo st p r eciou s i n my l i f e ,

wh at has m ad e up th e w h o l e O f my l i f e and h e r e y o u a r e
”
,

o ffended at my m aking to o littl e account o f yo u .

Raskolniko v smil ed s arcasti cally Ra z u m ih in fi dg e t ed but

, ,

Pyot r P etrovitch di d no t accept the r ep ro o f ; o n th e con

t ra ry, at ev e ry wo rd h e b ecam e mo r e p ersi stent and
i r ritabl e as though he r eli shed i t
, .

“
Lov e fo r the futu r e pa rtne r o f you r li fe fo r y o u r hu s ,

b and ought to ou tw eigh you r lov e fo r you r b rothe r

,
he ,
“
p ronounc ed s ententiou sly and in any case I cann o t b e pu t
,

o n th e sam e l ev el . Although I s aid s o e mphatically that

’
I would no t speak O penly i n you r b rothe r s p res ence nev er ,

t h e l e s s I intend now to ask you r ho nou red m o the r f o r a

,

nece ss ary expl anat io n o n a po int o f gr eat importance cl o sely

a ffecting my di gnity You r s o n ” he tu rned to P ulcheri a
.
,
“
Alexandrovna yeste rday i n the p resence O f M r Ra z s u dk in
,
.

( o r I think that s it ? excu s e me I h av e fo rgotten you r

’

su rname he bowed politely to Ra z u m ihin ) insulted me by

,

mi srep r es enting th e idea I exp res s ed to you i n a private

conv er sation d rinking co ffe e th at i s that mar ri age with a
, , ,

poo r gi rl w h o h as h ad expe ri ence o f troubl e i s more ad y a h

3 08 F Y OD O R D O S TO E V S K Y

To my thinking you with all you r v i rtue s ar e n ot w o rth

,

t he l ittl e fi nge r o f that un fo rtunate girl at whom you throw

stones .

“
W o uld you go s o far then a s to l et he r a ssoci ate w ith
? ”
y o u r mother and si ster
“
I hav e don e s o al re ady i f you c are to know I made he r , .

s it down to day with mother and D ouni a

—
.

”
Ro d ya ! c ri ed Pu lcheri a Al exandrovna D ouni a cr im .

s o n ed
,
Ra z u m ih in knitted hi s b row s Luzhi n smiled w ith .

lo fty sa rcasm .

“
Y o u may s e e f o r y o u rsel f A v d o tya Ro m a no v n a h e said
, , ,

whethe r it i s po ssibl e fo r u s to agr ee I hope now that thi s .

que sti o n i s at an end o nce and f o r all I w ill withdraw that

, .
,

I may not hi nde r the plea su r e s o f f am ily intimacy and th e

”
,

di scu s sio n o f secrets He go t up f ro m h is chai r and took

.

“
h i s hat . B ut in w ithdr awing I v entu re to r equ est th at fo r ,

th e futu re I may b e sp a red s imilar meetings and so to s a y , , ,

compromi se s I appeal p arti cu la rly t o you hono ur ed Pul

.
,

che ri a Alexandrovna o n thi s subj ect the m o r e as my lette r

”
, ,

wa s addre s sed to you and t o no o n e els e .

Pulche ri a Al exandrovna was a l ittl e o ffended .

“
You s eem to thi nk w e ar e c o mpl etely unde r you r autho r
i ty Pyotr Pet rov itch D ouni a h as told you th e re ason you r
,
.

d esi r e wa s di sr egarded s h e had th e b e st i ntentions And

, .

indeed yo u w rit e a s though yo u w e r e l aying command s upo n

me Ar e w e to co nside r ev ery desi r e o f you r s as a com
.

m and ? Let me tel l you o n th e co nt ra ry that yo u ought to

show particul ar delicacy and consideratio n fo r u s now b e ,

cau s e w e h av e th rown u p ev erything and h av e come her e ,

r elying o n you and s o w e ar e in any case i n a sens e in you r

,

h ands .

“
That i s not qu ite tru e Pulche ri a Al exand r o v na e speci ally
, ,

at the p re sent moment when th e new s h a s come o f M ar f a

,
’
P e t r o v n a s l egacy which seem s i ndeed v ery ap ropo s j udgin g
”
, ,

from th e new tone you t ake to me h e added sarcastically ,

.

“
J udging from that r emark w e may certai nly p resume th at
”
,

you wer e r eckoning on ou r h elpl e ssnes s D ouni a o b served ,

i r ritably .

“
But now i n any case I cann o t reckon o n i t and I parti e ,

u l a r l y desi re not t o hinder you r di scu s si o n o f the s ecret

 C R IM E AND P UN ISH MEN T 3 09

p r op o sal s o f A rkady Iv an o v itch S v id rig a 1 l o v which h e h a s ,

e ntrusted to you r b rothe r and which hav e I p erce iv e a gr eat

”
, ,

and pos sibly a v ery agreeabl e interest fo r yo u .

“ ”
Good h eavens ! cried Pulcher ia Al exandr o vna .

Ra z u m ih in could no t s it stil l o n hi s chai r

”
.

“ ?
Aren t you ashamed now s ister
’
asked Raskolnikov
”
.
,
“
I am ashamed Ro dya s ai d D o uni a Pyotr P etr o v itch
” h
.
, , ,

g o away s e turned to him white with anger

, ,
.

Pyotr P etrovitch had apparently n o t at all expected such

a co nclusion He h ad too mu ch confidence i n h imsel f i n hi s
.
,

powe r and i n the h elplessne ss o f hi s v ictims H e could n o t .

beli ev e it ev en now He tu rned pal e and hi s lip s qu ive red

.
, .

“
A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a i f I go out o f thi s doo r now a fter
, ,

such a di smi ssal then y o u may reckon o n it I w ill neve r

, , ,

come back C onsider wh at y o u a r e doing M y wo rd is n ot

”
. .

t o b e shaken
”
.

What i nsolence ! cri ed D o uni a s p ringing up from he r

”
,
“ ’
Se at 1 don t want yo u to come b ack aga in
”
. .

“ ’
What ! S o that s how it stands ! cri ed Luzhin utterly ,

u nabl e to th e l ast moment to beli ev e i n th e ruptur e and s o

“ ’
completely thrown o u t o f hi s r eckoning now S o that s .

how it stand s ! But do you kn o w A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a tha t , ,

I might p rotest
”
.

“
What right h av e yo u t o speak to he r l ike that ? Pulche ri a
“
Al exand rov na i nte rvened hotly And what can yo u p ro te st .

about ? What r ight s h ave you ? Am I to giv e my D ouni a

to a man like you ? GO away leav e u s altogether ! We a r e ,

to bl ame fo r having agreed to a w rong acti o n and I abov e ,

all
B ut y o u h ave b o und me Pulcheri a Alexandrovna Lu zhi n , ,

st o rmed i n a frenzy by you r p romi se and now you deny

, ,

i t and b eside s I have been led o n account o f that

i nto expenses .

Thi s last compl aint wa s s o ch aracter i stic o f Pyotr P etr o

v itc h that Raskol nikov pal e w ith ange r and with th e e ffo rt
, ,
.

o f re strai ning it could n o t h elp b re aking into l au ghter

, B ut .

Pulcheri a Al exandrovna was fu riou s .

“
E xpense s ? What expenses ? Ar e yo u speaking o f o u r
t runk ? B ut the conductor b rought it fo r nothing fo r you .

M ercy o n u s w e hav e bound yo u ! What ar e you t hinking

,
3 10 F Y OD O R D O STO EV S KY

ab o u t Py o tr P etr o v itch it wa s yo u bo und u s hand and f oot

, , ,
”
,

no t w e !
“
E nough mothe r no mo re ple ase A v d o tya Ro m anOv n a
”
, , ,
“
i mplo red Pyot r P etr o vitch do b e kind and go !
”
.
,
“
I am going but o n e l ast wo rd he s aid quite unabl e t o
, , ,
“
co ntro l himsel f You r mamm a s eems to hav e enti rely f o r
.

gotten that I made up my mind t o t ak e you s o to spe ak a fte r , ,

th e go ssip o f th e town had sp read al l o v e r th e d istr ic t i n

regard to you r r eputation D isre gard ing publ i c O pinion fo r
.

y o u r sake and r einstating you r reputati on I certainly migh t ,

v ery well reckon o n a fi ttin g retu rn and mi ght i ndeed l o o k ,

fo r gratitud e o n y o u r part And my eyes hav e o nly n o w

.

b een opened ! I s ee mysel f that I m ay hav e acted v e ry v ery ,

reckl es sly i n d i s regarding th e u niv er sal v e rdi ct

“
Do e s th e fell o w want hi s h ead smashed ? ” cri ed Raz u ~

mihin j u m p in g u p
’

”
.
,
“
You ar e a m ean and spite ful man ! s aid D o u ni a
”
.

N o t a wo rd ! N o t a m o v ement ! cri ed Raskolnikov h o ld ,

“
ing Ra z u m ih in b ack ; th en go ing clo se u p t o Lu zhi n kindly
”
,
“
l eav e the room ! h e s aid qu ietly and di stinctly and not a ,

wo rd mo r e o r
Pyotr P etr o v i tch gazed at him fo r some S econd s with a
p al e face that wo rked w ith ange r then h e tu rned w ent o u t , , ,

and r arely h as any m an car ri ed awa y i n hi s h e ar t su ch v in

d ic t iv e h atred a s h e felt agai ns t Rask o l nik o v H i m and hi m .
,

alone he bl amed fo r ev e rythin g It i s notewo rthy that a s h e

, .

went d o wnstai rs h e sti ll i ma gined th at h i s cas e was p erhap s

no t utte rly lo st and th at so far a s the l adi e s we re conce rned
, , ,

all might v e ry w el l i ndeed b e s et ri ght again .

3 12 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

of a gi rl — v i rtuou s poo r ( s h e mu st b e poo r ) v ery young

, , ,

v e ry p retty o f go od b i rth and edu cati on v ery timid o n e w h o

, , ,

had su ffer ed much and wa s completely humbled be fo re him

, ,

o n e who would all he r l i fe lo ok o n him a s he r sav iou r w o r ,

ship him admi re hi m and only him How many s cenes how
, .
,

m any amo rou s epi so de s h e h ad i magi ned o n thi s seductiv e

and pl ay ful theme when hi s wo rk w a s o ve r ! And b ehold
, , ,

the d re am o f s o many year s was all but r eali sed ; th e b eauty

and educatio n o f A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a h ad imp re ssed him ;
he r helple s s po sitio n h ad be en a gr eat allu rement ; i n he r h e
had found even mo re than he d re am ed o f H er e w as a gir l .

o f p ride characte r v i rtu e o f educati o n and b reeding super io r

, , ,

t o hi s own ( h e felt th at ) and thi s creatu r e w o uld b e sl av

,

i shly gr ate fu l al l he r l i fe fo r h i s he ro i c condescension and ,

would humb l e h er sel f i n the du st b e fo r e him a nd he woul d ,

hav e ab so lut e unbo unded powe r o v e r her ! N o t l ong

b e fo re he had too a fte r lon g r efl ection and h e sitati on
, , , ,

m ade an impo rt ant ch ange in hi s caree r and w a s now e nte r

i ng o n a wide r ci rcl e o f bu sines s W ith thi s ch ange h i s .

cher i shed dr eam s o f ri sing i nto a higher cl ass O f so ci ety

seemed l ikely to b e re al i sed H e was i n fact determined
.
, ,

to t ry hi s fo rtun e i n Peter sbu r g H e knew that women .

co uld do a v ery gre at d eal The fascinati on o f a ch armin g

.
,

v i rtuou s hi ghly edu cated woman mi gh t m ake hi s way easi er

, ,

might do wo nder s i n attracting p eople to him throw ing an ,

au reol e round him and now eve rything w as in ru ins ! Thi s

,

sudden hor ribl e ruptu r e a ffected hi m l ike a clap o f thunde r ;

i t w a s l ike a hi deou s j oke an ab su rdity He h ad only b een
,
.

a tiny b it master ful h ad no t ev en time to speak o u t had

, ,

s imply made a j oke b een car ri ed away— and i t h ad ended

,

s o s eriou sly And o f cou r se too h e did lov e D o uni a i n hi s

.
, , ,

o w n w ay ; h e al ready p o sse ssed he r i n hi s d re ams— and al l

at once ! N o ! Th e next day the v e ry next d ay it mu st all,

b e s e t right smooth ed ov e r settl ed Abov e all h e mus t cru sh

, ,
.

that co nceited mi lks o p w h o wa s th e cau se o f it all Wi th a .

s ick fe el ing h e could not h elp r ecalli ng Ra z u m ihin too b ut , ,

h e soon reas sured hims el f o n th at s cor e ; as though a fellow

l ike that could b e put o n a l ev el w ith h im ! Th e man h e
r eally dreaded i n earnest wa s S v id rig a i l o v H e h ad i n . ,

sh o rt a great d eal t o attend to

, .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME N T 3 13

No , I I am mo re to blame th a n any on e
,
s ai d D ouni a ,
“
k i ssing and emb racing her mothe r I was tempted by hi s .

money b ut o n my ho nou r b ro the r I had n o idea h e w a s

, , ,

such a base man I f I had s een through him b e fo r e nothing

”
.
,

would hav e tempted me ! D on t blame me b rothe r ! ’

”
,
“
Go d has del iv er ed u s ! God has deliv er ed u s ! Pu lche ri a
Alexandrovna muttered but hal f consci ou sly a s though
, ,

s carcely able to re ali se what had happened .

They wer e all reliev ed and i n fi v e mi nute s they wer e

,

laughing O nly now and then D ouni a tu r ned white and

.

f rowned r emembe ring what had pas sed Pulcheri a Alexan

,
.

d r o v n a was su rpr i sed t o find that sh e too w a s glad : s h e , ,

had only that mo rning thou ght ruptu r e with Lu zhin a terr i
ble mi s fortune Ra z u m ihin w a s delighted H e did no t yet
. .

d are to expre s s hi s j oy fu lly but he was i n a fev e r o f excite

,

ment a s though a ton weight had fallen O ff hi s heart N o w

-
.

h e had th e ri ght to devote hi s l i fe to them to serv e ,

them . Anything might happen n o w ! B ut h e felt a frai d

to thi nk o f fu rthe r po ssi b ilitie s and dar ed no t l et hi s im a g
in a t io n range But Raskolnikov s a t still i n th e s ame pl ace
.
,

almo st sullen and i ndi fferent T hough h e h ad b een the mo st .

i nsi stent on getting r id o f Lu zhin h e s eemed now th e le ast ,

concerned at what had h appened D ouni a coul d not help .

thinking that h e wa s sti ll angry w ith her and Pulcheri a ,

A lexandrovna watched hi m timidly

”
.

“
What did S v id r ig a il o v s a y to yo u ? sai d D o uni a ,

appro achi n g h im
”
.

Y e s yes ! cried Pulcheri a Alexandrovna

, .

Raskolnikov r ai sed hi s head .

“
H e wants to m ake you a pres ent o f ten thou s and r o ubl es
and h e desi res to see y o u once i n m y presence ”
”
.

S ee h er ! O n no account ! c ri ed Pul cher i a Al exandrovna

”
.

And how da re h e o ffer he r money !

Then Raskolnikov repeated ( rathe r dryly ) h i s conv er sation
with S v id riga i l o v omitting hi s account o f the gho stly v i sita
,

t ion s o f M ar fa Petrovna wi shing to avo id all unnece ssary

,

talk
”
.

“
What answer di d you g iv e him ? asked Do uni a .

At fir st I s aid I would not take any me ssa g e to you Then .

he said that he would d o hi s utmo st to obtai n an interv i ew

3 14 F Y ODO R D O STOEV S KY

w ith you without m y help He as su red m e that h is pa ss io n .

fo r you w a s a pas sing in fatu ation now he h as no feeling ,

H is
’
fo r you H e do esn t w ant you to mar ry Luzhin
. .

talk w a s altogether r athe r muddled .

“
H o w do you explai n him to you rsel f Ro dya ? H o w did
”
,

h e stri ke you ?

I mu st con fes s I do n t qu ite unde r stand him H e O ffer s

’
.

you ten thou sand and yet s ays h e i s no t wel l o ff H e says

,
.

he i s goi ng away and i n ten minutes h e fo rgets he has s aid it

, .

Then he says he is go ing to be marri e d and has alre ady fixed

o n the girl N o doubt he h as a motiv e and probably a
.
,
’
b ad o n e B ut it s odd that h e should be s o clumsy about i t
.

if h e had any des ign s against you O f cours e I re fused .

,

thi s money o n you r account once fo r all Altogethe r I , .

,

thought hi m v ery str ange O n e might almo st think he .

w a s mad But I may b e mi st aken ; that may o nly be the part

.

h e as sumes The de ath o f M ar fa P etr o vna s eems to hav e

”
.

made a gre at impr e s sio n o n him

”
.

“
Go d r est h er soul exclaimed Pu lcheri a Alexandrovna , .

I shal l always always p ray fo r he r ! Wh er e shou ld we b e

,
’
now D ouni a without thi s three thou sand ! It s as though
, ,

i t had fall en fro m heaven ! Why Ro dya thi s mo rning w e , ,

h ad only th re e rou b l e s i n o u r po cket and D ou ni a and I wer e

j ust pl anning to pawn he r w atch s o a s t o av o id b o rrowing
”
,

from that man u nti l h e O ffer ed help .

’
D ouni a seemed strangely imp re ssed by S v idrig ail o v s
O ff e r .

S h e still sto od m editating .

“
He has go t some ter r ibl e plan sh e sai d i n a h al f whi spe r ,

t o h ersel f almo st shuddering

, .

Raskolnikov noticed thi s di sprop o rti onate ter r o r .

“
I fancy I shall hav e to see hi m m o r e than o nce again h e ,

s aid to D ouni a
”
.

“
We will watch hi m ! I w ill track hi m o u t ! cri ed Razu
“
m ihin v i go rou sly I won t lo s e sight o f h im Ro dya h a s ’

‘
.
, .

giv en me le av e H e sai d to m e himsel f j u st n o w T ake

.
,

care o f my si ster Wi ll y o u giv e me leav e too A v d o tya

.
’
, ,

Ro m a n o v n a
D ouni a smi led and hel d o u t h er h and but th e lo o k O f ,

a nxi ety did no t l eav e her face Pulcheri a Al exandrovn a .

3 16 F Y ODO R DO S T O EV S K Y

c ried Ra z u m ih in w armly O f cou rs e the re wi ll b e a lot o f .

wo rk but w e wi ll work you A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a I Rodion

, , , , , .

You get splendid p ro fit o n some books nowadays !

And the great point o f the busines s i s that we shal l know j u st
what wants tr ansl ating and we shall b e transl ating publi sh , ,

i ng learning all at once I c a n b e o f u s e becau s e I h av e

,
.

’
experi ence F o r n early two year s I v e b een scuttling abou t
.

among the publ i sher s and now I know every detai l o f thei r ,

bu si ness You need not b e a s ai nt to make pots b eli eve m e !

.
,

And why why should we l et o u r chance slip ! Why I know

, ,

— and I keep the secr et— two o r th re e books whi ch o n e might

get a hundred roubl es s imply fo r thi nking o f tr ansl ating and

publi shing Indeed and I would not t ake fiv e hundred fo r
.
,

the v ery idea o f o n e o f them And what do you thi nk ? I f .

’
I were to tel l a publ ishe r I d ar e s a y h e d hesitate— th ey ,

are such blo ckhe ad s ! And as fo r th e bu sines s side p ri nt ,

ing paper s elling yo u t ru st to m e I know my w ay about

, , , ,
.

We ll b egi n i n a small way and go o n to a l arge

’
In .

any case it wi l l get u s o u r l iv ing and w e shall get b ack o u r

capital ” .

’
D ouni a s eye s shone
”
.

“
I like what yo u a re s aying D mit r i P r o k o fi t ch ! sh e ,

said .

“
I know nothing about it o f cou r s e put i n Pulche ri a , ,
“
Alexand rovna it may b e a goo d i dea but agai n God knows
, ,
.

’
It s new and untri ed O f cou rs e we mu st r emain her e at
”
.
,

le ast fo r a tim e S he looked at Ro dya

”
. .

“
What do you think brothe r ? sai d D ouni a ,
.

Of
’
I think he s g o t a v ery goo d i dea h e answe red , .

c ou rs e it s too soon t o dre am o f a pu b l ishing fi rm but w e

,
’
,

certainly might bri ng out fiv e o r six bo oks and be sur e o f

succe ss I know o f o ne book mysel f which would b e su re to
.

’
go well And as fo r hi s b eing abl e to m anage it there s no
.
,

doubt ab out that either H e knows the bu sine s s But we . .

can t alk i t O ve r l ate r

”
.

“
H ur rah ! cri ed Ra z u m ihin N o w stay the re s a fl a t .
, ,
’

here i n thi s hou s e b el onging to th e same o wne r , It s a .

’

speci al fl at apart not commu ni cating with thes e lodgings

,
.

’
It s fu rni shed r ent mode rate thre e r oom s
,
S uppo se you t ake , .

’
them to begin with I ll p awn y o u r watch t o mo rr o w and .
-
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 3 17

b ring y o u the money and everything c a n b e ar ranged then ,

.

You can al l three live together and Ro dya will b e with you ,
.

B ut where ar e you o ff to Ro d ya
”
,
“
What Ro dya you are go ing alr eady ? Pul cheri a Alexan
, ,

d ro v n a asked in di smay
”
.

“
At such a minute ? cri ed Ra z u m ih in .

D ounia looked at he r brother w ith incredulou s wonder .

H e held hi s cap i n hi s hand he was p reparing to le av e ,

them .

“
O n e wo uld think you were bu rying me o r saying good bye -

fo r ever
” he said somewhat O ddly H e attempted to smi le .
, ,

but it did not tur n o u t a smile B ut who know s perhap s .

,

i t i s the l ast tim e we shall see e ach othe r h e let slip

accidentally It was what he was thinking and it someh o w
.
,

was uttered aloud

”
.

“
What i s the matter with you ? cr ied h is mothe r
”
.

Wher e ar e you go ing Ro d ya ? asked D ouni a r ather , ,

strangely .

“ ’
O h I m qu ite obliged to
,
he an swe red v aguely a s ,

thou g h he sitating what he would s a y But ther e w a s a lo o k .

o f sharp determination in hi s white face .

“
I meant to s a y as I wa s coming her e I meant
to tell you mothe r and you D ouni a that it would b e b ette r
, , ,

fo r u s to part fo r a time I feel ill I am not at peace .

, .

I will come a fterwards I wi ll come o f mysel f When it s ,

’

possi b l e I remember you and lov e you

. Le av e m e .
,

leav e me alone I deci ded thi s even be fo r e . I m a b so ’

l u t e ly r esolv ed o n it Whateve r may come to me whether I .

,

come to ru in o r not I w ant t o b e alone F o rget m e alt o , .

gethe r it s b etter D on t inqu i re about me When I can

,
’
.
’
.
,
’
I ll come o f mysel f o r
’
I ll send for you Pe rhap s it will .

all come back but now i f you love me g iv e me up

,
el se ,

I shall begin to hate you I feel it Good —b ye

”
.
,

“
Good God ! c ried Pulche ri a Alexandrovna B oth his .

mother and hi s si st er we re terribly alarmed Ra z u m ih in was .

al so
.

“
Ro dya Ro d ya b e reconciled with u s ! Let u s be as
”
, ,

b e fore ! cri ed hi s poo r mothe r .

H e tu rned slowly to the doo r and slowly went out o f th e

room D ouni a overtook h im
. .
3 18 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY
”
B r o the r what ar e you doing t o m o the r ? sh e whi spered
,
,

he r eyes fl ashing with i ndi gn ation .

He looked dully at he r .

“
N o matte r I sh all com e
’
, I m coming h e mutte red .
,

in an undertone a s thou gh not fu lly cons ciou s o f what h e

,

wa s saying and h e went out o f the r o om

, .

“
Wi cked hea rtl es s e go i st
, cri ed D ouni a .

He is insane but not h eartl es s H e i s mad ! D on t yo u

,
’

”
.

’
see it ? You re h eartl es s a fte r th at ! Ra z u m ih in whi spe red
“
i n he r e ar squ eez ing h er h and ti ghtly I sh all b e back
”
, .

di rectly h e shouted to th e ho rr o r stri cken m o the r and h e

,
-
,

ran out o f th e ro om .

Rasko lnikov w as wai ti ng fo r h i m at th e end o f th e p as sage .

“
I knew y o u would run a fter m e he said GO b ack t o , .

the m — b e w ith them b e with them to mo rro w and

. -

always . I perhap s I shal l come i f I c an .

Goo d bye -
.

And witho ut ho lding o u t hi s h and h e walked away .

“
B ut wh er e ar e yo u going ? Wh at are you doing ? What s ’

th e m atter with you H o w can you go o n l ike thi s

? ? ” Razu
’
mihi n mutter ed at h is w its end .

Raskolniko v stopp ed o nce mo re .

“
O nce fo r all nev er a sk me about anything I h av e nothing
, .

’
t o tell you D o n t come t o s e e me M aybe I ll come here ’

”
. . .

’
Leav e m e but d o n t l e a v e th em D O you u nde rstand me
,
? .

It was d ark i n th e co rr ido r they we r e standing nea r the ,

l amp F o r a mi nute they were lo oking at o n e anothe r in

.

silence Ra z u m ih in r ememb er ed th at minute al l hi s l i fe

. .

Ra s k o l n ik o v s bu rning and intent eyes gr ew m o r e p enetratin g

’

e v ery moment p i er cing into hi s soul , i nto hi s consci ou sness ,

.

S uddenly Ra z u m ihin st arted S omething strange as it w ere .

, ,

p ags e d b etween them S ome i dea som e hi nt as i t we re.

, ,

slipped somethi ng aw ful h ideou s and suddenly u nder st o o d

, , ,

o n b oth sides Ra z u m ih in tu rned pal e

”
. .

“
D O you u nder stand now ? s aid Rask o lnik o v h i s f ace
”
,

twitching nervou sly G O b ack go to them h e s aid sud

.
, ,

d e n l y and tu rning qu ickly he went o u t o f the hous e

, ,
.

I wi ll not attempt to des cribe how Ra z u m ihin went b ack

to the ladies how h e sooth ed them how h e protested th at
, ,

Ro d v a ne eded r est i n h i s illness p rotested that Ro dya was ,

 C HAPT E R IV

A S K O LN IK O V went strai g ht to th e hou se o n t he

canal b ank whe r e S oni a liv ed I t wa s an O l d green .

e o f thre e sto r eys H e found the po rte r and

.

O btai ned from hi m v a g u e di recti ons as to the wher e abo ut s

O f Ka p e r n a u m o v the tailo r
, Having found i n the co rne r o f
.

the cou rtyard th e entrance to th e dark and narrow stai rcas e ,

h e mounted to th e s econd flo o r and came o u t into a gal lery

that ran round the whol e s econd sto ry ov e r the yard W hi l e .

he was w andering i n the d arknes s uncertain wher e to tu rn ,

fo r K a p e rn a u m o v s doo r a do o r O pened thre e p ace s from

’
,

him ; he mechani cally to ok hold O f i t

”
.

“
W ho i s there ? a w o man s vo i ce asked u ne asily
’

”
.

“ ’
It s I come to s e e you answer ed Raskolnikov a n d ,

h e walked into th e tiny ent ry .

O n a broken ch ai r sto od a candle i n a b attered coppe r

c andl esti ck
“ ’
.

It s you ! Good he av en s ‘ 3’
cr i ed S oni a weakly and sh e
stood ro oted to the spot
”
.

“
Whi ch i s you r ro om ? Thi s w a y ? and Rask o lnikov
trying no t to look at he r h astened i n
, .

A m inut e l ate r S oni a t o o came i n with the candl e s e t

, , ,

d o wn th e candlesti ck and compl etely d isco nce rted stood

, ,

b e fo r e hi m inexpre s sibly agitated and appar ently fri ghtened

by hi s unexpected v i si t The co lou r ru shed suddenly to h e r
.

pale face and tears cam e into he r eyes S he felt si ck .

and ash amed and h appy t o o , Raskolniko v tu rned .

aw ay qui ckly and s at o n a chai r by the t abl e He scanned .

t h e ro om i n a r api d gl ance .

It was a l arge but exceedingly low p itch ed ro o m the only -

,

one l et by th e Ka p e r n a u m o v s to who se room s a clos ed d oo r

,

led i n the w al l o n th e l e ft I n the oppo site s ide o n the

.

right hand wall w as anothe r doo r alw ays kept locked That , .

’
l ed to the next fl at whi ch fo rmed a s eparate lodging S onia s
,
.

roo m looked l ike a b arn ; it wa s a ve ry i rregul ar quadr angle

3 20
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and thi s gav e it a gr o tesqu e appearance A w al l with thr ee .

w indows looking out o n to the canal r an aslant so that o n e

corner fo rmed a very acute angl e and it was di fficult t o s e e ,

i n it w ithout v ery stron g l ight The other corne r w a s d i s .

prop o rtionately o b tu s e Ther e was s carcely any furnitu r e i n.

the b ig room : i n the cor ne r o n the r ight w a s a b edste ad ,

b es ide it neare st the doo r a chai r

,
A pl ai n deal t abl e ,
.
,

covered by a b lu e cl oth stood agai nst the sam e w all clos e ,

to the doo r into the othe r flat Tw o ru sh b ottom chai rs .

-

stoo d by the tab le O n the oppos ite wal l near the a cute
.

angl e stood a small plai n wooden chest o f drawers looking

as it wer e lost i n a desert That w as al l there w a s i n the .

room . The yellow s cratched and shabby w all pape r w a s

,
-

b lack in the corne rs It mu st hav e b een damp and ful l o f

.

fum es i n th e w inte r There was every s ign o f pove rty ;

.

even th e bedstead had no curtain .

S oni a looked i n s ilence at he r v i sito r who w a s s o ,

attentively and u nceremoniously s crutinis ing he r r o om and ,

ev en b egan at l ast to trembl e with t erro r a s though ,

s h e was standing b e fo r e h er j udge and the arb ite r O f he r

d estini es
”
.

“ ’
It s el even i sn t it ? he asked still n o t
’
I am l ate , ,

l i fting hi s eyes
”
.

“
Ye s muttered S oni a o h yes it i s she added hastily
, , , , , ,
“
as though in that lay her means o f es cap e M y landl ady s .
’

clock has j u st struck I hear d it mysel f

”
. .

’“
I ve com e to you fo r the l ast time Raskolnikov w ent ,
“
o n gloomi ly although thi s was the fi rs t time
, I m ay pe r .

haps not s ee you agai n

“
Ar e you g oing away ? ”
.

I don t kn o w ’
to mor row -

Then you are not coming to K

. .

aterina I vanovna to
m o rrow S oni a s v oi ce shook
.
’
.

“ ’
I do n t kno w I shall know to —morrow morning
. .

N eve r m ind that : I ve come to s a y o n e word

’ ”
H e rai sed hi s b rooding eye s to he r and s ii dd e n ly noticed
.

that he was s itti ng dow n whil e she was al l the while stand
ing b e fore him .

Why ar e you standing ? S it d o wn he said i n a change d ,

v o i ce gentle and fr iendly

, .
3 22 F Y ODO R D OS T O E V S K Y

S he sat dow n H e lo o ke d ki ndly and alm o s t c o mpas

.

s io n a t e ly at he r .

“
H ow thi n you ar e ! What a hand ! Q uite t r anspare nt
”
,

l ike a dead hand .

H e to ok her hand S o ni a smil ed faintly

”
. .

“
I have always b een l ike that s h e sai d
”
.
,

E ve n wh en you l ived at home ?

Yes .
”
O f co ur s e you wer e ,h e added ab rup t ly and th e exp res
,

s io n o f hi s face and the sound o f hi s v o ice changed agai n

suddenly .

H e l ooked round him o nce m o re .

“
Yo u re nt thi s ro om f r o m the K a p e rn au m o v s
“
Yes .

They l i ve the re through tha t d oo r ? ,

Ye s. They hav e an o the r ro o m l ike this .

Al l i n one r o om
Ye s.
”
I should b e a frai d i n yo ur r oo m at night he o b s e r ved ,

gloomi ly .

“
They a re v e ry go o d p eopl e v e ry kind answe red S o nia , ,

w h o still s eeme d b ew ilder ed a nd all th e fu rnitu re e ve ry , ,

thing everything i s thei rs And they are ve ry k ind a nd

”
.

the childr en t o o o fte n com e t o s e e m e

”
.
, ,
“
They all stamme r do n t they ? ,
’

H e stamme rs and he s l ame

’
Yes And h is w i fe ,

It s not exactly that she stamme rs b ut s h e c an t

. . .

’
too. .
’

sp eak plainly S h e i s a v e ry ki nd woman A nd he u s ed to

. .

’
b e a hou se s er f A nd ther e a re s even childre n
. and it s
o nly the eldest o n e that stamm ers and th e other s ar e simply
i ll but they do n t stamme r B ut wher e did you hea r
’

” h
.

ab o ut them ? s e added w ith s o m e surpri se .

“
You r fathe r told m e then H e told m e al l about you , . .

’
And how you went out at s ix O clock and cam e b ack
at nine and how K ateri na Ivanovn a knelt down by you r bed ” .

S onia was co n fu sed .

“
I fanci ed I s a w him t o day S h e whi sp ered hesitatingly -

”
.
,

Whom ?
F ather I w as w alki ng i n the str eet out ther e at the
.
,
’
co r ner ab o ut t e n o cl o ck and he see m ed to b e walking in
,
3 24 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y
’
I don t know They ar e i n debt fo r the lodging bu t
.
,

the l andlady I hea r s aid to day that she wanted to get r i d

, ,
-

o f them and K ater ina I vanovna s ays that s h e w o n t s tay

,
’

anothe r m inute
”
.

“
H o w i s i t s h e i s so bold ? S h e r el i es up o n y o u ?
O h no do n t talk lik e that
’

, , We are o n e we l ive l ike .

,

o ne . S oni a was a gitated agai n and even angry as though a ,

“
canary o r s ome othe r littl e b i rd wer e to b e angry And
”
.

what coul d s h e do ? What what could s h e d o ? s h e p ers i sted ,

getting hot and excited And how s h e cri ed t o day ! H e r.

-

m ind i s unhi nged haven t you noti ced it ? At o ne m i nute

’
,

s h e i s wo r rying like a chi l d that eve rythi ng should b e ri ght

to mo rro w th e lunch and al l that

~
, Then sh e i s w ringing .

her hand s spi tting b lood w eeping and all at o nce s h e w ill
, , ,

begi n kno cki ng he r head agai nst th e wal l i n despai r Then ,

.

s h e wi ll b e com fo rted agai n S he b ui lds al l he r hope s o n .

you ; s h e s ays that you wil l h elp h er now and that s h e wi ll

borrow a l ittl e money s om ewher e and go to he r native t o wn
with m e and s e t up a b oarding s ch ool fo r the daughter s o f
gentl emen and take m e to sup er i ntend it and w e w i ll begi n ,

a new spl endi d l i fe And s h e ki s se s and hugs m e com fo rts.

,

me and yo u know s h e has su ch faith su ch f aith i n he r

, ,

fancie s ! O n e can t co ntradi ct he r And all th e day long s h e

’
.

ha s been w a shing cl eaning m ending S he d ragged the wash

, ,
.

tub into the r oom w ith he r f eebl e hands and sank o n the b ed ,

gasping fo r b r eath We w ent th is morning to the shop s to .

bu y S ho es fo r P olenka and Lida fo r thei r s are qu ite wo r n

’ ’
out . O nly the money w e d reckoned wasn t enough not ,

nearly enou gh And s h e p i cked o u t su ch dear l ittle bo ot s

.
,

fo r s h e has t aste you do n t know And the re i n th e shop s h e

,
’
.

bu rst o u t crying b e fo r e the sh o pm en b ecaus e S he hadn t

’

enough . Ah it w a s s a d to s e e h er
,
.

“
Well a fter that I c a n u nder stand yo ur l iving l ike thi s
, ,

Raskolnikov s aid with a b itte r smile .

“
And are n t you so r ry fo r them ? Are n t you s o rry ?
’ ’

“
S oni a flew at h im again Why I kno w you gav e you r .
, ,
’
l ast penny you r sel f though you d s een nothing o f it and , ,

i f you d seen ev erything o h dear ! And how O ften how

’

, ,

o ften I v e b rought he r to te ar s ! O nly last we ek ! Ye s

’
,

I ! O nly a w eek b e f o r e hi s death I wa s c ruel ! And .

 C R IM E A ND P UN I SH MEN T 3 25

’
ho w o ften I v e done i t ! Ah I v e be en w retched at th e ’

”
,

thought o f i t all day !

S oni a wrung he r hands as sh e sp o ke at the pai n o f r em em
b ering it
”
.

“
You w ere cru el ?

Ye s 1— 1 I went to s e e the m s h e w en t on w eeping

‘
.
, , , ,

and father s aid read m e something S oni a my head aches , , , ,

read to m e here s a b o ok H e had a b ook h e had got from

,
’
.
’

Andrey S e m yo n o v itch L e b e z ia t n ik o v he l ive s the re h e , ,

always u s ed to get hold o f su ch fu nny b ooks And I said

‘ ,
.

’ ’ ’ ’
I can t stay a s I didn t want t o r ead and I d gone i n chi efly
, ,

t o show K aterina Ivanovna som e collars L iz a v et a the .

,

p edla r sold me some collar s and cu ffs cheap pretty new

, , , ,

emb roider ed o ne s K aterina I van o vna liked them v e ry mu ch ; .

s h e put them on and looked at he r sel f i n the glass and w a s

‘
delighted with them M ake m e a pre sent o f them S o nia s h e ’

‘ ‘ ,
.
,
’
said pleas e do P l ea s e d o s h e s aid sh e wanted them s o
’
.
, , ,

mu ch And when could sh e wear them ? They j u st reminded

.

h er o f he r O l d happy days S he l o oked at her se l f in the glas s .

,

admi red her sel f and S h e has n o cl othes at all no things o f , ,

’
he r own ha sn t had al l the s e year s ! And s h e neve r a sks
,
’
any one fo r anything ; s h e i s proud she d sooner giv e away ,

everything And thes e S h e asked fo r s h e liked them so mu ch

‘
. .
,

And I wa s sor ry to gi ve them What u se are they to you .

,

K aterina Ivanovna I said I spoke like that to he r I ought .

,

not to hav e said that ! S h e gave m e such a l o ok And sh e .

was so gri eved so gri ev ed at my re fusing her And i t wa s , .

s o s a d to see And s h e w a s n o t gri eved fo r th e collar s

.
,

but fo r my r e fu s m g I s a w that Ah i f only I could b ring i t , .

,

all back change it take back tho se wo rds ! Ah i f I but

”
, , ,
’
it s nothing to you !
“
D i d you know L iz av e ta th e pedlar
”
,

Yes D i d you know her ? S oni a asked with som e

.

su rprise .

“
K ate rina Ivanovna i s i n consumpti o n rapid consumptio n ;
”
,

s h e wi ll soon di e sai d Rask o lnik o v a fte r a pau se w ith o ut , ,

answe ring her questio n

”
.

“
O h no no n o !
, , ,

And S oni a unconsciou sly clutched both hi s hands as though ,

imploring that sh e sh o ul d no t .
3 26 F Y ODO R DO S TOEV S K Y

B ut i t w ill b e b ette r i f sh e does di e

”
.

N O not bette r not at al l b ette r !

, ,
S oni a unc o nsci o u sly
repeated i n d ismay .

And the children ? What can you do except take them t o

”
l ive with you ?
“ ’
O h I don t kn o w
,
cri ed S oni a almo st i n despai r and she
, , ,

pu t he r hand s to he r head .

It wa s evident that that i de a had ve ry o ften o cc u r red t o he r

b e fo re and he had o nly r ou sed i t again .

And what i f even n o w while K ateri na I van o vna i s al ive

, , , ,

y o u get i ll and ar e taken t o the h o sp ital what w il l happe n

”
,

then ? h e p ers i ste d p itil essly .

“
How can y o u ? That cann o t b e
And S o ni a s face w o rk ed with aw fu l ter ro r
’

”
.

“
C annot b e ? Raskolnik o v went o n w ith a ha r sh smile .

Y o u ar e n o t i nsu red against i t ar e you ? What w ill happe n ,

t o them then ? They w i ll b e i n the str eet all o f them sh e , ,

w i ll cough and b eg and k no ck he r head against som e wal l a s ,

s h e di d t o day and the chi ld re n w i ll c ry

-
,
Then s h e wi ll .

f all d o w n b e take n t o th e poli ce stati o n and to the hosp ital

, ,

s h e w il l di e and the children

”
,
“
O h no
,
God w i ll n o t l e t it b e ! b r o ke at las t f r o m
.

’
S o ni a s o v erbu rdene d b o s o m
S he li stened lo o king impl o r ingly at him cl asping he r hands
, ,

i n dumb entreaty a s thou gh i t all depended up o n h im

,
.

Raskolnik o v got up and b egan to w alk ab o ut the room A .

m inute pass ed S o ni a w a s standing with he r h ands and he r

.

head hanging i n t err ibl e dej e ctio n

”
.

“
And can t y o u s ave ? Put by f or a rainy day
’
? he asked ,

s to pping suddenly b e fo r e he r
”
.

“
N O whi spe re d S o ni a
”
.
,

O f cour s e n o t Have yo u t ri ed ? h e added al mo s t

.

i roni cally
“
Ye s .

And it didn t c o m e o ff ! O f c o u r se n o t ! N 0 need to a sk

’
.

And agai n he p ace d th e ro o m Anothe r m i nut e passed

”
. .

“ '

You don t get money e very day ?

S onia was mor e con fu s ed than eve r and c o l ou r r u shed i n to

he r face again
”
.

“
No , s h e w hi spered w ith a p ai n ful e ffo rt .
3 28 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

and you r wo rst si n i s that y o u have dest royed and b etrayed

you rsel f fo r n o thi ng I sn t that fear fu l ? I sn t i t f ear ful
.
’ ’

that you a r e l iving i n thi s fi lth w hi ch you loathe s o and at ,

the same time you kno w you rsel f ( you ve o nly to O pen you r ’

eye s ) that you a re not helping any one by it not sav ing a ny
”
,

o ne from anything ! Tell m e he w ent o n almo st i n a f renzy , ,

how thi s sham e and degradatio n can exi st i n you side b y

S ide w ith othe r oppo site holy feel ings ? It woul d b e b ette r
, , ,

a thousand time s b ette r and wi se r t o l eap i nt o the wate r and

end it al l
“ ”
B ut what woul d b ecom e o f them ? S oni a asked faintly ,

gazing at him with eves o f angui sh but not seeming su rpr i sed ,

at hi s suggesti on .

Rasko lniko v looked strangely at he r H e read it al l i n he r .

face ; s o s h e mu st have had that thought already perhap s ,

many tim es and earnestly sh e had thou ght out i n her despai r
,

how to end it and s o earne stly that now sh e scar cely w o n ,

dere d at hi s sugge stio n S he had not even noti ced the cru elty
.

o f hi s wo rds ( The signi fi cance o f h is reproache s and hi s p e

.

c u l i a r atti tude t o h er sham e she had o f cou rs e not noticed , ,

e ithe r and that t oo wa s cl ea r to him ) B ut he saw h o w

, , ,
.

mo nstrously the thought o f her di sgra ce ful sham e fu l p ositio n

”
,
“
wa s to rtu ring her and had l ong to rtu r ed he r What what .
, ,

he thought co ul d hithe rt o hav e hi nde red h e r f rom putting

”
,

an end to it ? O nly then h e r e ali zed what tho se p oo r l ittl e

o rphan childre n and that piti ful hal f crazy K at erina I van -

o vna knocki ng he r h ead against th e wall i n her co nsumpti o n

, ,

m eant fo r S onia .

B ut nev ertheles s it w as cl ear to him agai n that w ith he r

, ,

chara cte r and th e amount o f edu catio n s h e had a fter al l

recei ved s h e could not i n any cas e r emai n s o H e wa s still
,
.

co nfro nted by the qu estio n how could s h e hav e remai ned s o

long i n that p osi ti o n w ith o ut go ing o u t o f he r m ind since ,

s h e coul d not b ri ng her s el f to j um p i nto the w ate r ? Of

’
cou rse h e knew that S oni a s po sitio n w a s an excepti onal case ,

thou gh u nh appily n o t u niqu e and not i n frequ ent i ndeed ; but ,

that very exceptionaln ess he r t inge o f educati on h er previ, ,

ou s li fe m ight o n e would h av e thou ght have ki ll ed he r at

, ,

th e fi rst step o n that r evolting path What held he r u p .

sur ely not d ep rav ity ? All that i n famy had ob vi o u sly o nly
 C R IM E A ND P UN I S H MEN T 3 29

touched he r me chani cally n o t one drop O f real dep ravity had

,

p e netrated to her heart ; he s a w that H e s a w through he r .

a s she stood b e fo re him .

“
There ar e thre e w ays b e for e he r he thou ght the canal , , ,

the m adhou se o r at l ast to sink i nto depravity which

”
,

obscu re s the mi nd and tu rns the heart to stone .

The last i de a w a s the most revolting but he was a s cepti c , ,

h e was young abstract and ther e fore cru el and so he coul d

, , ,

not help b eli eving that the last end was th e m o st likely
”
.

“
B ut can that b e t ru e ? he cri ed to him sel f C a n t hat .

creatu r e w h o has still preserved the pur ity o f he r spi rit b e

consciou sly d rawn at l ast into that sink o f fi lth and iniquity ?
C a n the p roce ss al ready hav e b egu n ? C a n i t b e that s h e has
only b een abl e t o bear it ti ll now b ecau se v i ce has b egun to
”
,

b e l es s lo athsom e t o her ? N o no that cannot b e ! he cri ed

, , ,

as S oni a had j u st b e fo re N o what has kept her f rom the

.
,

canal ti ll now i s the idea O f sin and they the chi ldren , .

And i f sh e ha s not gone o u t o f he r m ind b ut w h o says

’

she has n o t gone o u t O f he r mi nd ? I s sh e i n her sense s ?

C a n one talk can one r eason as she do es ? How can she sit
,

o n th e edge o f the abyss o f loaths o menes s into which s h e i s

slipping and re fu se to li sten when she i s to ld o f dange r ?

D oes s h e expect a mi racl e ? N o doubt s h e d o es D o esn t ’

”
.

that al l m ean madnes s ?

H e stayed obstinately at that th o ught H e l iked that ex .

planation indeed b ett er than any othe r H e b egan looking .

mor e intently at he r
”
.

“
?
S o yo u pray to Go d a great deal S oni a he asked he r .
,

S oni a did not speak ; h e stood b e side he r waiting fo r an

answe r
” h
.

“
What should I b e without God ? s e whi spe red rapidly ,

fo rci b ly glancing at him w ith suddenly flashing eyes and

, ,

squeezing hi s hand
”
.

“
Ah s o that is it ! he thought
”
.
,

And what doe s God do fo r you ? h e asked probing he r ,

furthe r .

S o ni a wa s sil ent a long while as though she could not a n,

swe r H e r weak chest kept heaving with emotion

. .

“ ’ ”
B e si lent ! D on t a sk ! You don t deserve ! sh e cri ed ’

suddenly looking ste rnly and w rath fully at him

, .

1 2— R
3 30 F Y ODO R DO S TOE V S K Y

That s it t hat s i t b e repe ated to himsel f

’

,
’
, .

He doe s eve rything s h e whi spe red qu ickly l oo king d o w n

, ,

agai n .

“ ’
That s the way o u t ! That s t h e explanation he de cided
’

, ,

s crutini si ng her with eage r cu ri o sity w ith a new strange , , ,

almost mo rbid feeli ng H e gazed at that pale thin i r regul a r

.
, , ,

angular littl e face thos e s o ft blu e eye s whi ch coul d flash

, ,

w ith su ch fi r e such ste rn ene rgy that l ittl e b ody stil l shaking
, ,

w ith indi gnatio n and ange r— and i t all seemed t o him mo r e

“
and m ore strange almo st impo ss ibl e S h e is a r eli gi o u s .

”
,

m ani ac ! h e rep eated t o hims el f .

There wa s a book lying on the ch es t o f drawer s H e had .

noti ced it e very tim e h e paced up and d o w n the room N o w .

he took it up and lo oked at it It wa s the N e w Te stam ent in .

th e Ru ss i an tr anslation It w a s b o und i n l eather o l d and

.
,

wo rn
”
.

“
?
Wher e did y o u get that h e call ed to her a cros s the r oo m .

S he wa s still standi ng i n th e same pl ace thr ee step s fro m ,

t h e tab le .

“
It w a s b rought m e sh e answe red a s i t we r e u nwil lingly,
, ,

n o t looking at him
”
.

“
Who b rought i t ?

L iz a v e t a I a sked he r for it
”
, .

L iz a v e ta ! strange ! he thou gh t .

E verything about S oni a s eemed to hi m strange r and m o re

wonde r ful ev ery mom ent H e car ried the b oo k to the candl e
.

and b egan to turn ove r th e p age s

”
.

“
Where i s the sto ry o f Laz aru s ? he asked suddenly .

S o ni a l ooked ob stinately at the ground and w o u ld n o t a n

swer S he w a s standi ng s ideways to the ta b l e
. .

“
Wher e i s the rai s ing O f Lazaru s ? F i nd i t f o r m e S o n ia , .

S he stole a glance at him .

“
It s i n t h e
’
You are not l ooking i n th e ri ght pl ace
”
.

fourth go sp el she whi spe red sternly without looking at him

, , .

“
F ind it and read it to me he said H e sat down w ith hi s
,
.

elbow o n the ta b le l eaned hi s he ad o n hi s hand and l ooke d

,

away sullenly p repar ed to l i sten

,
.

“ ’
I n thr ee weeks time they ll w el come m e i n the madhou se !
’

”
I shall b e there i f I am not i n a wo rse place h e muttered t o ,

h im sel f .
332 F Y ODO R D OS T OE VS K Y

he r vo ice b roke l ike an o v er strained str ing Ther e w as a .

catch i n h er b reath .

Ra skolniko v s a w i n p art w hy S oni a c o uld not b ring he rsel f

to r ead to him and the mo re h e saw thi s the mo re rou ghly ,

and ir rita b ly he insisted on her do ing s o H e u nder sto od only .

to o well how pain ful it wa s fo r he r to betray and u nvei l al l

that was he r o w n H e u nder sto od that thes e f eel ings r eally
.

w ere h e r s e cr e t tr e a s u r e whi ch s h e had kept p erhap s fo r

,

years perhap s from childhood whi le s h e l ived with an u n

, ,

happy father and di stracted stepmo ther crazed by gri e f in the ,

midst o f starv ing chi ldren and u n s e e m l v abus e and r e

.

p ro a che s B ut at the s am e time he knew n o w and k new fo r

.

certai n that although it fil le d he r with dread and su ffe ring

, ,

yet s h e had a to rmenti ng de si re to r ead and to r ead t o him

that h e mi ght he a r it and to r ead n o w whatever m ight com e
,

o f it ! H e re ad thi s i n her eyes h e could see it i n he r ,

i ntens e emotion S he m aste red her sel f cont rol led the spasm
.
,

i n h er thro at and w ent o n r e ading the el ev enth ch apte r o f S t .

J ohn S he went on to the nineteenth v e rse

.

“
And many o f the J ews cam e t o M artha and M ary t o c o m
fort them co ncerni ng thei r b rothe r .

Then M artha a s soon a s she he ard that Jesu s was coming

went and met H im : but M a ry s a t sti ll i n the ho us e .

Then sai d M artha u nto J e sus Lo rd i f Thou h adst been , ,

he re my b rothe r had not died

, .

B ut I know that ev en now whatsoeve r Thou wi lt ask o f

God Go d wi ll gi ve i t Thee
, .

Then s h e stopp ed again with a sham e faced feel ing that he r

voi ce would qui ve r and b reak agai n .

“
J e su s s aid u nto he r T h y b rothe r shall ri se agai n
,
.

M artha saith unto h im I know that h e shall r i se agai n i n

,

the r e sur r ectio n at the l ast day

,
.

Jesu s s ai d unto he r I am the re su rre ction and the l i fe : he

,

that b eli eveth i n M e though he w e re dead yet shall h e li ve ,

.

And who soeve r l i veth and b eli ev eth i n M e shall neve r di e .

B eli eve st thou thi s ?

S he saith unto H im ,

( And drawing a pai nful b reath S o ni a r ead di stinctly and ,

fo rci b ly as though s h e were m aki ng a publ i c con fes si o n o f

f aith ) ,
 C R IM E A ND P UN IS H MEN T 3 33

Yea Lo rd : I bel i eve th at Thou art th e C hri st the S on o f

, ,

God Whi ch shou ld com e into the wo rld .

S he stopp ed and looked u p qu i ckly at him but contr o ll ing ,

h ersel f went on reading Raskolniko v s a t without mo ving hi s .

,

el b ows o n the tabl e and hi s eye s tu rned away S he read to .

the thi rty se cond verse -

.

“
Then when M ary was com e wher e Je su s w a s and s a w
H im s h e fel l down at H is feet saying u nto H im Lo rd i f
, , ,

Thou hadst b een here my b rothe r had not di ed ,

.

When J esu s there fo re s a w he r we eping and the J ew s also ,

w eeping whi ch came with he r H e groaned i n the spi rit and ,

was trou b led ,

And s aid Wher e hav e yo u l aid him ? They said unto Him
, ,

Lord com e and s e e

, .

J e su s wept .

T hen said the J ews behold how He loved him ! ,

And some o f them s aid could not thi s M an Which o pened ,

the eye s o f the b li nd have cau sed that even thi s man sh o ul d
,

?”
not have died
Raskolnikov turned and looked at her w ith emotion Yes .
,

h e had known i t S he was trembli ng in a r eal physical feve r .

H e had expected it She was getting near the story O f the

.

greate st m iracl e and a f eeling o f imm ens e triumph cam e o ve r

he r He r voice rang out l ike a b ell ; triumph and j oy gave it
.

powe r Th e lines danced b e fo re he r eye s b ut s h e knew

.
,

what she w as r eading b y heart At the l ast ve rs e C ould not .

thi s M an Which op ened th e eyes o f the b lind dropping

he r voi ce sh e passionately r eprodu ced the doubt th e r epro ach ,

and censur e o f the b lind di sbeli eving J ew s w h o i n anothe r ,

moment would fall at H is feet as though stru ck b y thu nde r ,

“
so bb ing and b el ieving And h e h e— too i s blinded and
.
, ,

u n b eli eving he too wil l hear he to o wi ll b el iev e yes ye s !

”
, , , , , , , ,

At once now was what s h e w a s dreaming and s h e was

, , ,

quivering with happy anti cipation .

“
J esu s ther efor e again gro aning i n H imsel f cometh t o th e
grave It was a cave and a stone lay upo n it
.
,
.

J esu s s aid Take ye away the sto ne M artha the si ste r o f

,
.
,

him that w a s dead saith unto H im Lo rd by thi s tim e h e

, ,

sti n keth : for he hath b een dead fou r days .

She lai d emphasi s on the wo rd f o u r .

33 4 F YODO R DO S TOE V S K Y

J esu s saith u nto he r S ai d I not unto thee that i f thou

,

woulde st b eli eve thou shou ldest s e e the glo ry o f God ?

,

Then they too k away the stone f rom the place whe re the
dead was laid And J esu s l i fted up H is eye s and said F ather ,
.
,

I thank Thee that Thou hast heard M e .

And I knew that Thou heare st M e always ; but b ecau se o f

the people which stand by I sai d it that they may beli eve that ,

Thou h ast s ent M e .

And when H e thu s had spoken H e cri ed w ith a l ou d voi ce , ,

Lazaru s come fo rth

, .

And he that w a s dead cam e forth .

( S he r ead loud ly co ld and tr embl ing w ith ecsta sy a s

, ,

thou gh s h e we re s eeing i t be fo re he r eye s ) .

“
B ound hand and foot w ith g r a v e c l o th s and h i s face w a s
bound a b out with a napkin J e su s saith unto them L o o se him .
,

and l et him go .

Then m any o f the J ews whi ch cam e to M ary and had seen
”
the things whi ch J esu s did b el i eved o n H im .

S he could re ad no mo r e clo sed th e b o ok and go t up f ro m ,

he r chai r qu i ckly .

“
That i s all a b out the raising o f Lazaru s she whisper ed ,

s ev erely and ab ruptly and tu rning away she stood motio nl e ss

, ,

not daring to rai se he r eye s to him S he still tremble d fever .

i shly . The candle e nd w a s fli ckeri ng o u t in the b atte red

-

candlestick dimly li g htin g up i n th e pove rty stri cken roo m -

th e mu rd ere r and th e harlot who had so st rangely b een

r eading together th e ete rnal b oo k F iv e mi nute s o r mor e .

passed
'
.

I cam e to speak o f s ome t hing Ra sk o l niko v said aloud , ,

frowning H e got up and went to S oni a S he li fted he r eye s

. .

to him i n s ilence H is face wa s parti cularly ste rn and the r e

.

w a s a s o rt o f sav age determi natio n i n i t

”
.

“
I hav e a b andoned m y family to day he said my m o the r -
, ,

and si ste r I am not goi ng to s e e them I ve b roken with ’

”
. .

them compl etely

”
.

“
What fo r ? aske d S oni a amazed H e r r ecent meeting .

with hi s mothe r and si ste r had l e ft a great imp re ssi o n whi ch

S h e could not analyse S he hea rd hi s new s almo st with
.

h orro r .

“
1 hav e only yo u now he added Let u s go togethe r
, . .
336 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y
“
Wh at s t o b e done ? B reak what mu st b e b r o ken o nce
’
, fo r
all that s al l and t ake the su ffe ring on one sel f What yo u
,
’

, .
,
’
d on t u nder stand ? You l l unde rstand late r
’
F r eedom .

and powe r and ab ove al l pow er ! O ver all tremb l i ng cr e

, ,
’
ati o n and al l th e antheap ! That s the go al remem be r ,
’
that ! T hat s my f arew ell m es sage Perhap s it s the l ast .
’

’
t im e I shall speak to you I f I do n t come to mo r row yo u ll
.
~
,
’

hea r o f i t all and then remembe r these words And som e

, .

’
day l ate r on i n year s to com e you l l u nde rstand pe rhap s
, ,

w hat they m eant I f I com e to m o rrow I l l tel l you w h o

.
~
,
’

killed Liz a v e t a Good bye .

-
.

S oni a started w ith ter ro r

”
.

“
Why do yo u kn o w w h o ki lled he r ? s h e a sked chi lled
, ,

w ith hor ro r l ooking w ildly at him

,
.

‘
I know and wi ll tel l you only you I have cho sen ,
.

you out I m not com ing to you t o ask fo rgivenes s b ut

’
.
,

simply to tell you I cho se you out long ago to hear thi s
.
,

when you r f ather t alked o f you and when L iz a v e t a w a s al ive ,

I thou ght o f i t Good bye don t shake hand s T O —mo rrow

.
-
,
’
.

H e went o u t S oni a gaz ed at him as at a m adman B u t

. .

she her sel f w a s l ike o n e insane and felt i t He r head wa s .

go ing r ou nd .

“
Go od heave ns how doe s h e know w h o kill ed Liz a v e ta ?
”
,
’
What did tho s e wo rds me an ? It s aw ful ! B ut at the same
“
time th e id e a di d not ente r he r head not fo r a moment ! Oh , ,

h e mu st b e terr i b ly u nhappy ! H e has abandoned h i s

m othe r and s i ste r What fo r ? What ha s happened ?
.

A n d what had he i n hi s m ind ? What did h e s a y to her ?

H e h ad ki s sed he r foot and s aid said ( ye s h e h ad s aid ,

i t cl early ) that he c o uld not l ive without he r O h m erci .

”
,

fu l heavens !
S oni a spent th e whol e night f eve ri sh and deli ri ou s S he .

j umped u p f rom tim e to time w ept and w rung her hands , ,

th en sank again into f ever i sh sl eep and d reamt o f Pole nka ,

K ateri na I vanovna and L iz a v e t a o f re ading the go spel and ,

him him w ith pal e f ace with b urning eyes kis sing ,

he r feet w eeping
,
.

O n the othe r s ide o f the doo r o n the right which divided ,

S oni a s r oom from M adam e Re s s l ic h s flat wa s a room wh i ch

’ ’
,

had long stoo d empty A card w a s fixed o n the gate and a .

 C R IME AND P UN IS H ME N T 837

n o tice stuck i n the wi nd o w s o ver the canal adverti sing it to

let S oni a had long been accu st o m ed to the ro om s b eing
.
’

uninhabited B ut all that t ime M r S v id r ig a i l o v had b ee n

. .

standing li s t eni ng at the doo r o f the empty room Whe n

,
.

Raskolnik o v w ent o u t he stood still thought a moment went

, ,

o n tipto e to hi s own r o om whi ch adj o ined the empty o n e ,

b rought a chai r and noiselessly carri ed i t t o the doo r that l ed

’
to S onia s room Th e conv er satio n had struck him as i nter
.

e sting and remarkable and he had greatly enj oyed it —s o

,

mu ch s o that he b rou ght a chai r that he might not i n th e

futu re t o morrow fo r instance hav e to e ndu r e th e in co n
,
~
, ,

v e n ie n c e o f standing a wh o l e h o u r but might l i sten in

,

co m fort .
 CHAPT E R V

H EN ex t m or ning at ele ven o cl o c k p u nc tu ally Ra s

’
n

kol miko v w ent i nt o the department o f the i nve stiga

ti o n o f c r imi nal cau se s and s ent hi s nam e i n to
P o r fi ry P etro vitch he w as su rp r i sed at b eing kept waiting
,

s o l ong : i t w a s at l east ten m inute s b e fo re he w a s summoned .

H e had expected that they w ould pounce u pon him B ut he .

stood in the waitin g ro om and peopl e w h o apparently had

-
, ,

n o th ing t o do w ith him we r e co ntinu ally passing to and fr o

,

b e fo r e hi m I n th e next r o o m whi ch looked l ike a n o ffice

.
,

s everal cl erks w e r e sitting wr iting and o bvi ou sly they had

no noti o n who o r what Raskol niko v migh t b e H e l o oked .

uneasily and su spi ciou sly ab out him to s ee whethe r the re wa s

not som e gu ard som e mysteri ou s w a t ch b ei ng kept o n h im t o
,

p revent hi s e scap e Bu t t h e r e w a s n ot hi ng o f th e s o r t h e
.
,

s a w only th e face s o f cle rks ab so r b e d i n p etty d etail s then ,

othe r p eopl e n o on e se em ed to h ave any conce rn w ith him

, .

H e might g o whe r e he lik ed fo r the m The convi ctio n grew .

stronge r i n him that i f that eni gmati c m an o f ye ste rday tha t ,

p hantom sp rung ou t o f th e e arth had s ee n e verything they, ,

would n o t hav e l et him stand and wai t like that And w o uld .

they hav e w aited t ill h e el ected to appear at e l ev en ? E ithe r

the man had not yet gi ve n in form ati on o r o r s imply he
,

knew nothing had seen n o thing ( and h ow could he h ave s ee n

,

anything ) and s o all that had happened t o him th e day

?

b e for e wa s agai n a phantom exaggerated by hi s si ck and

o v er strai ned ima g inat io n T hi s c o nj e ctu r e had b e gu n t o gro w
.

strong the day b e f o r e i n the m idst o f all hi s al arm and de

,

spai r .

Thinking i t all o v e r n o w and preparing fo r a fre sh c o n

fliet h e w as suddenly awar e th at h e wa s t rembl in g— and
,

he felt a ru sh o f i ndignati o n at the thought that he was t re m

bl ing with fea r at faci ng that hate fu l P o r fi ry P etrov itch .

What he dreaded ab ove al l w a s m eeting that m an again ; h e

hated him with an i ntense u nm itigated hat red and w a s a fraid
,

33 8
3 40 F Y OD O R D O STO E V S KY

I beli eve you s aid ye sterday yo u wou ld l ike to qu esti on

me fo rmally ab out my acquai ntance w ith the mu r
de red woman ? ” Raskolnikov w a s b eginning agai n “
Why
‘
.

’
did I put i n I b el i ev e pas sed throu gh hi s mi nd i n a flash
‘
.

Why am I s o u neasy at having put i n that I cam e

i n a second flash And he suddenly felt that hi s u neasines s at
.

the mer e contact with P o r fi ry at th e fi r st w ords at the fi r st , ,

looks had gr o wn i n a n i nstant to m o nstrou s propo rtions and

, ,

that thi s was fear fully danger o u s H is nerve s we r e qu ive r .

“ ’ ’
ing hi s emotion w a s i ncr easing It s b ad i t s b ad ! I shall
”
.
, ,

s a y too mu ch agai n .

’ ’
Ye s ye s ye s ! The r e s no hu rry t her e s no hu rry mut
, , , ,

t e re d P o r fi ry Petr o v itch moving to and f ro ab out the t abl e ,

w ithout any apparent aim a s it w er e m aking dashes toward s ,

th e w i ndow the bu r eau and the table at one mom ent avo id
, ,
’
ing Ra s k o l n ik o v s su spi ciou s glance then agai n standing ,

stil l and looking him straight i n the fa ce .

H i s fat round l ittl e fi gure looked ve ry strange l ike a b al l ,

r ol ling f r o m o ne sid e to the othe r and r eb ounding back .

We v e plenty o f tim e D o yo u smoke ? hav e yo u you r

’

”
.

ow n ? H e re a cigarette ! he went o n o ffer i ng hi s v i sitor a

, ,
“
cigar ett e You know I am r e cei ving you he r e b ut my own
.
,

qu arte r s ar e throu gh there y o u know my gove rnm ent , ,

qu arte rs B ut I am l i vi ng outside fo r the time I had t o

.
,
’
h ave som e repai r s done he r e It s almo st fi ni shed now . .

Gov ernment quarte r s you kn o w ar e a capital thing E h, , ,

.

what do you think

“
Yes a capital thing answered Rasko lnikov l ooking at
, , ,

him almo st i ronically .

“
A capital thing a capital thing repeated P o r fi ry Petro
, ,

v it ch ,
a s though he h ad j u st thou ght o f somethi ng qu ite
“
di ffe rent . Ye s a capital thing he almo st shouted at l ast
, , ,

suddenly staring at Raskolnik o v and stopping sho rt two steps

from him .

Thi s stupid r epetiti on was to o i ncongruou s i n its ine pitu d e

w ith the s er i o u s b r oo ding and eni gm ati c gl ance h e tu rned
,

u pon hi s vi sito r .

B ut thi s sti r red Ra sk o l n iko v s spl ee n m o re than eve r and ’

h e coul d n ot r e sist an i r o n i cal and r athe r i ncau t iou s

cha He n ge .
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 34 1

Tell m e please he asked suddenly l o oking almo st i nso

, , ,

l e n tly at hi m and taking a kind o f p leasur e i n hi s o w n i nso

lence . I beli eve it s a sort o f legal ru le a sort o f l egal
’
,

t radition— fo r all i nvestigating lawyers— to b egin thei r attack

f rom a fa r with a t rivi al o r at l east an i rrelevant subj e ct
, , ,

s o as to enc o u rage o r rathe r to divert the man they ar e

, ,

cro ss examining to di sarm hi s caution and then al l at o nce

-
,

to g ive him an u nexp ected kno ck dow n b low w ith som e f atal -

’ ’
qu estion I sn t that s o ? It s a sacred tradition m entio ned
”
.
, ,

I fancy i n al l the manu al s o f the art ?

,
“
Ye s ye s Why do you imagine that w a s why I spoke
”
.
, ,

about government qu arter s eh ?

And a s h e sai d thi s P o r fi ry Petrovitch screwed up hi s eye s

and winked ; a g o od humou red cr afty lo ok pas sed ove r hi s -
,

face The w rinkle s o n his fo rehead wer e smo othed out hi s

.
,

eye s contracted hi s featu res b roadened and he suddenly w ent

,

o ff i nto a nervou s p rolonged laugh shaking all o ve r and l ook ,

ing Raskolniko v strai ght i n the face The l atte r fo r ced .

himsel f to lau gh t oo but when P o r fi ry s eeing that h e was

, , ,

l aughing b roke i nto su ch a gu ffaw that he tu rne d almo st

,

Ra sk o l n ik o v s r epul sio n o ve r cam e al l pre cautio n ;

’
Crimson ,

he l e ft o ff l aughing s cowled and stared w ith h atred at F o r

,

fi ry keepi ng hi s eye s fixed o n him whil e hi s i ntenti o nal ly

,

prol onged lau ghte r lasted The re was lack o f precaution on .

b o th s ides howeve r fo r P o r fi ry Petro vitch seemed to b e

, ,
’
l aughing i n hi s v isito r s face and to b e v ery little di sturb ed a t
the annoyance w ith whi ch the vi sito r rece ived i t The l atte r .

fact w a s very si gnifi cant i n Ra s k o l n ik o v s eyes : he s a w that ’

P o r fi ry Petrovitch had not b een embarrassed j ust b e for e

eithe r but that he Raskol niko v had perhap s fallen i nto a
, , ,

trap ; that there must b e something som e motiv e here u n ,

kn o wn to him ; that p erhaps everythi ng w a s i n readines s and

, ,

i n anothe r moment would b reak upon him .

H e went straight to the point at o nce ro se fr o m hi s s ea t ,

and took hi s cap .

“
P o r fi ry P etrovitch he b egan resolutely th o ugh with , ,
“
consi de rab le i rritatio n yesterday you expressed a desir e ,

that I should come to you fo r some inqui ri e s ( he laid special

stre ss on the wo rd I have com e and i f yo u ,

hav e anything to a s k me a sk it and i f not al l o w m e to , , ,

3 42 F Y ODO R D OS TO EV S KY

w ithdraw I have no time t o spar e

. I hav e to b e a t the .

fune ral o f that ma n w h o was ru n o ve r o f wh om y ou ,

k now also h e added feel ing angry at o nce at having m ad e

, ,

thi s addition and mor e i rritated at hi s ange r I a m s i ck o f ,

’
it al l d o you he a r and hav e l ong b een It s partly wha t
”
.
, ,

m ade m e il l In sho rt h e shouted feel ing t hat t he ph r as e

.
, ,
“
about hi s illnes s w a s sti ll mo re o u t o f place in sho rt kindly , ,

e xamine m e o r let m e g o at o nce And i f you m u st exa m ine , .

m e do so i n the prop er form ! I w i ll n o t allow you t o d o

,

s o otherwi se and s o meanwhi l e go o d bye a s w e hav e evi -

”
, , ,

d e n tl y nothing to keep u s now .

“
Goo d heav ens ! What do you m ean ? What sh al l I q u es
? ”
tion you ab out cackled P o r fi ry P etrov i t ch with a change
“
o f to ne in stantly l eaving o ff l aughing P lease do n t di s ’

”
.
,

tu rb you r sel f he b egan fi dg e t in g f ro m pl ace to pl ace and

,
“
fu s si ly makin g Raskolniko v s it down Th er e s no hu r ry .
’
,

the r e s no hu rry it s al l no ns ense O h no I m ve ry gl ad

’
,
’
.
, ,
’

’
you v e come to s e e m e at l ast I l ook up on you simply
a s a vi sito r And as fo r my con fou nded l aughte r pl eas e
.
,

e xcu s e i t Rodio n Ro m a n o v it ch
,
Rodi o n Ro m an o v itch ? .

’
That i s you r nam e ? It s my nerve s yo u ti ckl ed m e s o ,

w ith you r witty ob servatio n ; I as su re you som etime s I sha k e ,

with l aughte r like an i ndi a —rubb er b all fo r hal f an hou r a t

’
a time . I m o ften a f raid o f an attack o f par alysi s D o .

s it down Pleas e do o r I shall thi nk yo u ar e angry

.
,

Raskolnikov did not spe ak ; h e l i ste ned watching hi m still , ,

f rowning an gri ly H e di d s it down but still held hi s cap .

, .

“
I mu st tel l you one thing ab out m ysel f m y dear Rodi o n ,

Ro m a n o v it ch P o r fi ry P etrov itch conti nu ed m o vi ng ab o u t

, ,
“ ’
the room and agai n avoidi ng his v i sito r s eye s Yo u s e e .
,

I m a bachelo r a m an o f no cons equ ence and n o t u sed t o

’
,

soci ety ; b e si de s I have nothi ng b e fo r e me I m s e t I m

, ,
’

,
’

running t o seed and and hav e yo u noti ced Rodi on ,

Ro m a n o v it c h that i n o u r P ete r sbu rg ci r cle s i f two cl eve r

, ,

m en meet who ar e not i ntimate but r espect ea ch othe r l i k e , ,

you and m e i t takes them h al f an hou r b e fo re they can fi nd

,

a subj e ct fo r conver sation— they ar e dumb they s it o ppo site ,

e ach other and f eel awkward E very o n e has subj ects o f .

conver satio n l adie s fo r i nstance , p eople i n high s o ciety

always have thei r subj e cts o f c o nve r sati o n c es t d e r igu eu r ,
’
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3 44 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y
’
what s the u se o f fo rmality
’
I n many cases it s n o nsense ? .

S ometimes o n e ha s a f ri endly chat and get s a good deal mo re

out of it O n e c a n always fall back o n formality allow me
.
,

t o as su re you And a fter al l what do e s it amount to ? An

.
,

examining l awye r cannot b e bounded by fo rmal ity at eve ry

step The wo rk o f i nve sti gation is s o t o speak a f ree art
.
, ,

i n its o w n way h e h e h e ,
- -

P o r fi ry Petr ovitch to ok b reath a m o ment H e had simply .

b a b bl ed on uttering empty phrase s letti ng slip a f ew e mi g ,

m ati c wo rds and agai n r everting to i ncohe rence H e was .

almo st running about the room m ov ing hi s fat l ittl e l egs ,

qui cke r and qu i cke r looking at the ground with hi s ri ght , ,

hand b ehi nd hi s back whil e with hi s le ft making ge st icul a ,

tions that were extra o rdinari ly i ncongru ous w ith hi s wo rds .

Raskolniko v suddenly noti ced that a s he r an about the room

he seeme d twi ce to stop fo r a mom en t near t h e d oo r a s ,

though he wer e l i stening

”
.

“
Is he exp ecting anything ?
You ar e ce rtai nly quite ri ght about it ” P o r fi ry b egan ,

gaily looking wi th extr aordi nary s impli city at Raskolniko v

,

(“ whi ch startled him and i nstantly put him o n hi s guard )

certainly qu ite right i n l aughing s o w ittily at o u r le gal
forms h e h e ! S om e o f the se e labo rate p sychologi cal m eth
,
-

o d s ar e exce edingly r idicul ou s and perhaps u s el es s i f o ne ,

adhe r es t o o closely to the fo rms Y e s I am talking o f .

fo rm s again Wel l i f I r e cogni se o r mo re stri ctly s pe akin g

.
, , ,

i f I su spect some o ne o r other to b e a crimin al i n any case

e ntru sted to m e yo u r e re ading fo r th e law o f cou rse ’
, ,

Rodio n Ro m a n o v itc h
“
Ye s I w a s ,

then i t i s a pre cedent fo r you fo r th e futu re

’
though do n t suppo se I should v entu re to i nstruct you a fte r
the arti cles you pub lish ab out crim e ! N o s imply I m ake ,

b ol d to state i t b y way o f a fact i f I took thi s man o r that ,

for a crimi nal why I ask should I wo r ry him pr em aturely

, , , ,

even though I had evidence against him ? I n o ne cas e I m ay

b e bound for i nstance to arr est a m an at once b ut anothe r
, , ,

may b e in quit e a di fferent po siti on you know s o why , ,

’
shouldn t I l et him walk a b out the t own a b it h e h e h e ! B ut ,
- -

I s e e yo u don t q uite unders t and s o I ll giv e you a cleare r

’ ’

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 C R IME AND P UN IS H M EN T 45

e xample I f I put him i n p ri son t o o s oo n I may v ery

.
,

likely give him s o t o speak m o ral supp o rt h e he l Y o u re -

’

”
, ,

laughing ?

Raskolniko v had n o i dea o f laughing H e was sitti ng with .

c o mp ressed l ip s hi s f eve rish eyes fixed o n P o r fi ry P et

,

r o v it ch s
’
.

“
Yet that i s the cas e w ith som e type s e speci ally for m e n
, ,

a r e s o di fferent You s a y evidence Wel l there may b e

. .
,

evidence But evidence you know can generally b e take n

.
, ,

two ways I am an examining l awye r and a weak man I

.

co nfes s it I should like to make a pro o f s o to s a y math e

.
, ,

m a t ica l ly cl ear I should like t o make a chain o f evidence such

,

a s twice two ar e fou r i t ou ght to b e a d irect i rre futabl e

, ,

p roo f And i f I shut him up t o o soon— even th o ugh I might

b e convinced h e w a s the m an I should very likely b e d e p r iv ,

i ng mysel f o f the means o f getti ng furthe r evidence agai nst

him And how ? By giving him s o to S peak a defi nite
.
, ,

po sition I shall put him o u t o f suspense and set hi s m i nd

,

at re st s o that he w ill r etreat i nto hi s shell They s a y that

,
.

at S evastop o l soon a fte r Alm a the clever pe o ple w ere i n

, ,

a te rribl e fri ght that the enemy would attack openly and
take S evastopol at o nce B ut when they s a w that the enemy .

p re fe rred a regula r siege they wer e deli ghted I am told and , ,

r eassur ed fo r t he thing wou ld drag o n fo r two months at

You re l aughing yo u do n t beli eve m e agai n ? O f
’ '

l east .
,
’ ’ ’
course you r e right t o o You r e right you r e ri ght Thes e
, ,
.
, .

ar e all sp eci al cases I admit B ut yo u mu st o b serve thi s

, .

my dea r Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h the general case the cas e f o r , ,

which all legal fo rm s and rule s ar e i ntended fo r whi ch they ,

ar e cal culated and laid down i n b ooks does n o t exi st at all , ,

fo r the r eason that every cas e eve ry crim e for i nstance so , ,

so on as i t actually o ccu rs at once b ecome s a thoroughly ,

’
special case and som etim es a case unlike any that s gone b e
fo re V e ry comic case s o f that so rt sometime s o ccu r I f I
. .

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leav e o n e man qu ite alone i f I do n t tou ch h im and don t ,

w orry him but let him kno w o r at least su spect every

,

mom ent that I know al l about it and am wat ching him day
and night and i f he i s i n continu al suspi cion and terro r he l l
, ,
’

’
b e b ound to los e hi s head H e l l com e o f himsel f o r m ayb e .
,

d o s o mething which will m ake it a s pl ai n as tw ice tw o ar e

846 F Y ODO R D OS TO EV S KY

fou r— it s del ight ful It m ay b e s o w ith a simpl e peasant ,

’
.

bu t w ith one o f o u r sort an i ntelli gent m an culti vated o n a ,

’
c ertai n side it s a dead certainty F o r my dear fellow it s
,
.
, ,
’

a very impo rtant m atte r t o kn o w o n what side a man i s

culti vated And then the r e ar e ne rves there are nerves
.
, ,

you have ove rlooked them ! Why they ar e all sick nervou s , ,

and i rritabl e ! And then how they all su ff er f rom spl een !
That I assur e yo u i s a r e gu la r gold mi ne for u s And it s .
’

no anxiety to m e hi s running about the town f ree ! Let him , ,

’
le t him walk about fo r a b it ! I kn o w well enou gh th at I v e
’
caught him a n d that he w on t e s cape m e Whe re could he .

e s cap e to h e h e
?
Ab road perhap s ? A Pol e wi ll es cap e
,
-
,

abr o ad but n o t h e e spe ci ally a s I am w atching and hav e

, ,

taken m easu re s Will he e s cap e i nto the depth s o f th e c o u n

.

t ry perhap s ? B ut you know peasant s l iv e there re al rud e , ,

Rus sian p easants A m ode rn cultivated m an w oul d p re fe r .

p ri son to living w ith su ch st ranger s a s ou r peasant s H e he l .

-

’ ’
B ut that s al l nons ense and o n the sur f a ce It s n o t me rely ,
.

that he ha s nowhe re to run t o he i s psyc h o l o gi ca l l y u nabl e ,

to e scape m e he h e ! What an exp re ssio n ! Through a law

,
-

’
o f natu r e he can t e scap e m e i f h e had anywhere to go Hav e .

’
you seen a butte rfly rou nd a candle ? That s how he w ill
ke ep ci rcl ing and ci r cl ing rou nd me F reedom wi ll lo se it s .

’ ’
attractions He ll b egi n t o b ro o d he l l weav e a tangl e round
.
,
’
himsel f h e l l w o r ry him sel f t o death ! What s m o r e he wil l
,
’

p rovide m e w ith a m athem ati cal pro o f— if I only gi ve him

’
l ong enou gh i nte rv al And he l l keep ci rcli ng r o und m e ,
’
getting neare r and near e r and the n— fl o p ! H e l l fly str aight
i nto my mouth and I l l swallow him and t hat wi ll b e v e ry ’
,
’
amu sing h e h e h e ! You don t b el i ev e m e ?
,
- -

Ra skolniko v m ad e no r eply ; he s a t pal e and m oti o nl e s s ,

’
sti ll gaz ing with the s am e int ensity into P o r fi ry s face .

“ “
I t s a l e sson h e th o u ght tu rning co ld
’
Thi s i s b ey o nd
, , .

the cat pl aying with a m ou s e like yesterday H e can t b e , .

’

showing o ff h i s powe r w ith no motive p r o mpting m e ;

he i s far too cl eve r fo r that he mu st have anothe r
o b j ect What i s i t ? It s all nonsens e my fri end yo u are
.
’

, ,
’
p retending to s car e m e ! You ve no proo fs and th e man I
,

saw had no real exi stence Y o u simply w ant to m ake m e .

l o se my head t o w o rk m e u p be f o r ehand and s o to cru sh m e

, .
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culatio n ! I— li sten to an o l d m an— a m speaking s er iou sly ,

Rodi on Ro m a n o v it ch ( as h e sai d thi s P o r fi ry Petrovitch w h o

w a s s car cely fi ve and thi rty actually s eem ed t o have grown

o l d ; even hi s vo i ce changed and he s eem ed to shrink t o

’
gethe r ) moreove r I m a candid man ,
am I a candid m an
o r not ? What do you s a y ? I f ancy I r eally am : I tel l yo u
’
the s e things fo r nothi ng and don t eve n expect a r eward fo r
i t h e h e ! Well to p ro ceed w it i n my opinion i s a splendi d
,
-
, ,

thing it is s o t o s a y an ado rnment o f natu r e and a consola

, , ,

t i on o f l i fe and what tricks i t can play ! S o that it som etime s

,

i s hard fo r a po o r exam ining l awye r t o kn o w whe re h e i s e s ,

p e c ia l ly when h e s l i ab le t o b e car r i ed away by hi s o w n fancy

’

too fo r you know h e i s a m an a fte r al l ! B ut th e po o r f ellow

,
’
is s aved by the crim inal s tempe rament w ors e luck fo r him ! ,

B ut young peopl e car rie d away by thei r o w n w it do n t think ’

‘
o f that when t h ey o ver step al l o b stacle s a s you w ittily and
’

cl everly exp res sed i t yeste rday H e wi ll l ie — that is the m an .

w h o i s a s pe cia l c a s e th e i ncogni to and h e wi ll l i e w ell

, , ,

i n the clever e st fashi o n ; you m i ght think h e woul d triumph

and e nj oy the f ru its o f his wit but at the m o st i ntere sti ng , ,

th e mo st fl agr ant moment h e w ill fai nt O f cou rs e the re .

m ay b e i llne s s and a stu ffy ro o m a s well but anyway ! Any ,

w a y he s gi ve n u s the i de a !
’
H e l i ed i ncomparably but h e ,
’ ’
didn t r ecko n o n hi s temp erament That s what b et rays .

him ! Anothe r tim e h e w il l b e car r ied away by hi s pl ayful

w it into m aking fu n o f th e m an w h o su spects him he will ,

tu rn pal e a s i t wer e o n pu rpo se to m isl ead b ut h i s palene s s ,

w il l b e to o n a tu r a l t o o mu ch like the re al thing agai n h e

, ,

ha s give n u s an i dea ! Th o u gh hi s que stione r m ay b e d e

c e iv e d at fi rst h e w i l l think di fferently next day i f h e i s n o t
,

a fool and o f c ou rse i t is like that at eve ry step ! H e pu t s

, , ,

himsel f fo rward wher e he i s not wanted speaks co nti nu ally ,

when h e ought to keep s il ent b rings in all so rt s o f a ll e g o r i ,

’
cal allu sions h e h e l C ome s and asks why didn t y o u take m e
,
-

l ong ago h e h e he l And that c a n happ en you know w ith

,
- -
, ,

the cl eve rest m an the p sychologi st the l iterary m an Th e

, ,
.

temp erament r e fl ect s everythi ng l ike a m i r r o r ! Gaz e i nto

i t and admi r e what y o u se e ! B ut w hy ar e you s o p ale ,

Rodi on Ro m a n o v itch ? I s t he room stu ffy ? S hal l I o pen th e

w ind o w ? ”
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 3 49

O h, do n t
’
t rouble please cri ed Raskolnikov and h e s u d
”
, ,
“ ’
d e n ly broke i nto a laugh Pl eas e don t t rouble . .

P o r fi ry stoo d facing him pau sed a moment and suddenly ,

he to o laughed Raskolnik o v g o t up f r o m the so fa ab ruptly

.
,

checking hi s hysteri cal l aughte r .

“
P o r fi ry P etrov itch h e began spe aking loudly and di s , ,

t in ct l y though h is l egs trem b led and he could scarcely stand

,
.

“
I see clearly at last that you actually su spe ct me o f mu rder
ing that o l d woman and her si ste r Liz a v e ta Let m e tel l .

you for my part that I am si ck o f this I f yo u find that yo u .

hav e a right to p ro se cute m e l egally to arrest m e then , ,

p ro secute m e arrest m e B ut I w ill n o t let mysel f b e j eer ed

,
.

at t o my fac e and w o r ried

H i s lip s trembl ed hi s eye s gl o wed with fu ry and h e c o uld
,

n o t r estrai n hi s voi ce
”
.

’
I won t allow it ! he shouted b ri nging hi s fi r st down o n ,
“ ’
the table Do yo u hear that P o r fi ry Petrov itch ? I wo n t
”
.
,

al low i t
”
.

“
Goo d he avens What do es it me an ? cri ed P o rfi ry P etro
“
v it ch
, apparently qu ite f rightened Rodi o n Ro m a no vitch .
,

m y dear f ellow what is the m atte r with you ?

”
,
’
I wo n t al low it Ra skolnikov shouted agai n , .

Hush my dear man ! They l l hear and come i n Ju s t ’

” P
, .

think what could w e say t o them

,
? o r fi r y Petr ovitch

whi spered in h o rro r b ringing hi s face clo s e to Ra sk o l n ik o v s ’

”
.
,
“ ’ ’
I wo n t al low it I wo n t allow it Rasko lnikov r ep eated
, ,

m e chani cally but h e to o spoke i n a sudde n whi spe r

, .

P o r fi ry tu rned quickly and ran t o open the wi nd o w .

“
S ome fre sh ai r ! And you mu st have som e wate r my
”
,
’
dear fellow You r e i ll ! and he w a s running to the doo r
.

t o cal l fo r some when h e found a decante r o f wate r i n

“ ”
th e co rne r C ome dri nk a little
. h e whi sp ered ru shing
, , ,
“
up to him w ith the d ecanter I t wi ll b e su r e to do yo u
”
.

goo d .

P o r fi ry P e t ro v it ch s al arm and symp athy we re s o natu ra l

’

that Raskolniko v was silent and b egan looking at him w ith

wild curi osity H e did not take the w ate r howev e r
. .

“
Rodio n Ro m a n o v it c h my dear f ellow you ll dri ve you r , ,
’

s el f o u t o f you r mind I assu r e y o u a c h ach ! H ave s o m e , , ,

wate r d o drink a l it t le
,
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85 0 F Y OD O R D O ST OEV S K Y

H e fo rced him t o take t he gl ass Raskol nik o v rai sed i t .

m echanically to hi s l ip s bu t s et it o n th e table agai n with

,

di sgu st .

“
Ye s you ve had a l ittl e attack ! Y o u l l b ring b ack y o u r
’ ’

”
,

i llnes s again my de ar fellow ,

P o rfi ry P etrov itch cackled ,

with friendly sympathy though he still looked rathe r dis ,

c o ncerted Good heav ens you mu st take m or e car e o f

.
,

you rsel f ! D mitri P ro k o fi tch w a s her e cam e to s e e m e yes ,

’
t e rd a y— I know I know I v e a nasty i ronical tempe r but
, , , ,

what they m ade o f it ! Go o d heavens h e came ye sterday ,

’
a fte r you d b een We dined and he talked and t alked away
.
,

and I could only throw up my hands i n despai r ! D i d h e

’
com e f rom you ? B ut d o sit d o wn f o r m e rcy s sake s it
”
, ,

d o wn !
“
N o n o t from m e but I knew he w en t to y ou and w hy
”
, ,

h e went Raskol nik o v answer ed sharply

”
.
,

Yo u knew ?
I kne w What o f i t ?
.
”
Why thi s Rodi on Ro m a n o v it ch th a t I k n o w m o r e tha n
, ,

t ha t a bou t you ; I know ab out eve rything I know how yo u .

went t o ta k e a fl a t at night when it w a s dark and h o w yo u

r ang the bel l and asked ab out the bloo d s o that th e wo rkm en ,

and the p orter did n o t k n ow what to m ake o f i t Ye s I .

,
’
u nderstand you r state o f m ind at that tim e b ut yo u ll
dr i ve yo u rsel f mad like that upo n my wor d ! Y o u ll lo se ,
’

’
y o u r head ! Y o u r e fu ll o f gene rou s i ndi gn atio n at th e
’
w rongs you ve r eceived fi rst from de sti ny and then fr om , ,

the police o ffice rs and s o you ru sh f rom one thing t o anothe r

,

to fo rce them t o speak o u t and make an end o f i t al l b e caus e ,

’
you ar e si ck o f all thi s su spi ci on and fooli shness That s so .
,
’ ’
i sn t it ? I hav e gu e ssed how yo u fe el haven t I ? O nly i n ,

that way you ll lo se you r head and Ra z u m ihin s t o o ; he s

’ ’
,
’

to o g o o d a man fo r su ch a po siti o n yo u mu st kno w that , .

Y o u are i ll and he i s goo d and you r i llnes s is in fe cti ou s fo r

him I ll tel l yo u abou t i t whe n you a re m o r e your sel f
’
.

’
B ut do s it down fo r go o dnes s sak e P l eas e res t yo u
”
.
, ,

lo o k shocking do s it down ,
.

Raskolniko v s a t down ; h e no longe r shiv e red he w a s ho t ,

al l o ve r I n am az em ent h e l istened w ith strained attenti on

.

to P o r fi ry Petrovit ch w ho s til l s eeme d f rightened a s h e

35 2 F YODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

Ro m a n o vitch my dear fell o w ,

I f y o u w er e actually a crim
.

i nal o r we re somehow m ixed up i n thi s damnable bu si nes s

, ,

would you i nsist that you w er e not deli r iou s bu t i n full '

p ossessio n o f you r faculti es ? And s o emphati cally and p er

s is te n t ly ? w ould it b e p o ss ibl e ? Quite imp o ss ibl e t o my ,

thinking I f yo u had anything o n you r consci e nce y o u ce r

.
,
’
t a in ly ought to insi st that you we r e del i riou s That s s o
”
.
,

i sn t it
’
?

There was a note o f slyne ss i n thi s i nqui ry Raskolnikov .

d rew b ack o n the so f a as P o r fi ry b en t o v e r him and stared

in si lent perpl exity at h im .

“
Anothe r thing ab o ut Ra z u m ih in— yo u certainly ought to
h ave sai d that he cam e o f hi s o w n acc o rd to h ave conceale d ,
’
you r part i n it ! B ut you don t c o nceal it ! Y o u lay stre s s
”
o n hi s com ing at you r i nsti gation .

Rasko lniko v had no t don e s o A chill w ent down hi s .

b ack .

“
Y o u keep tell ing l i e s he s ai d slowly and w eakly twi st
, ,
“
ing hi s l ips into a s i ckly smil e you ar e t rying agai n to sh o w
,

that you know all my game that yo u know al l I shal l say

”
,

b e fo rehand he s aid consci ou s him sel f that h e w a s not

, ,
“
w eighing h is w ords a s he ought Y o u want t o f righten m e
.

o r you ar e simply laughing at m e

H e still stare d at him as h e s aid thi s and agai n there w a s
a l i g ht o f intens e h atre d i n hi s eyes
”
.

“ “
You keep lying he cri ed ,
Yo u know per fectly well tha t
.

the b est po li cy fo r the criminal i s to tell the truth a s nearly

a s po ssibl e t o conceal a s little a s po ss ible I don t b e ’

”
.

l iev e you l
“ ”
What a wily pe rs on you a re ! P o r fi ry tittered the r e s ’
,
’
no catching yo u ; you v e a p e r fe ct mo nom ani a S o you do n t .
’

beli ev e m e ? B ut sti ll you do bel i ev e m e you b eli ev e a ,

’
quarter ; I ll soon m ake you b el i eve the whole b ecau se I ,

hav e a sincer e l iking fo r you and genu inely wi sh you good .

R a sk o l n ik o v s lip s tremb led

’

”
.

“
Ye s I do went o n P o r fi ry tou ching Ra sk o l n ik o v s a rm ’
'

, , ,

geni ally you mu st tak e car e o f you r i llnes s B esides you r

, .
,

m other and si ste r ar e her e now ; you mu st thi nk o f them .

You mu st soothe and com fo rt them and yo u do nothing bu t

f ri ghten them
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 353

What has that to do wi th y o u ? H o w do you know i t ?

What conce rn i s it o f yours ? Y o u are ke eping wat ch o n
m e and want t o let m e know it ? ”
“
Good heave ns ! Why I learnt it al l f rom you yours el f ! ,

You d o n t noti ce that i n you r excitement you tel l m e and

’

others eve rythi ng F rom Ra u m ihin too I learnt a num b e r

.
z
, ,

o f inter esting detail s yeste rday N 0 you i nter rupted m e b ut .

, ,

I mu st tell you that fo r al l you r wit you r su spi ci o u sne s s

‘

, ,

make s you lo s e the common sense v iew of things To return -

.

to b ell r i nging fo r instance I an exami ni ng l awye r have

-
,
.
, ,

betrayed a p reciou s thing l ike that a r eal fact ( fo r i t i s a ,

fact wo rth having ) and you s e e nothing i n it ! Why i f I

, ,

had the slightest su spicion o f yo u should I hav e a cted like ,

that ? N o I should fi rst hav e di sarmed you r sus p i ci o ns and

,

not let you s e e I knew o f that fact should hav e diverted ,

you r attentio n and suddenly hav e dealt you a knock dow n -

‘
b low ( you r exp re s sio n ) saying : And what w er e you doing ,
’
si r pray at ten o r nearly eleve n at the murde red woman s
, ,

flat and why di d you r ing th e b ell and w h y did you ask about
blood ? And w hy did yo u i nvit e the port er s to go with you
to the poli ce station to the l ieutenant ? That s how I ought
-
,
’

to have acted i f I had a grai n o f su sp ici on o f you I ought .

to have taken you r evidence i n du e fo rm sear ched y o u r ,

lodging and perhap s h a ve ar re sted you to o so I hav e ,

no su spicion o f you since I hav e not do ne that ! B ut ,

’
you can t look at i t n o rmally and yo u s e e nothing I say
”
,

again .

Raskolniko v started s o that P o r fi ry P etrovitch could not

fail to perceiv e it .

“ ’
You ar e lying all th e while he cr i ed I don t kno w , ,

you r o b j e ct b ut you are lying Y o u did not speak like that

”
.
,

j u st now and I cannot b e mi staken !

“ ”
I am lying ? P o r fi ry repeated apparently i ncensed but , ,

p re serv ing a good humou red and i ronical face a s though h e

-
,

we re not i n th e least concerned at Ra sk o l n ik o v s opinion o f ’

“
him . I am lying but how did I t reat you j ust now I , ,

the examining lawyer ? Prompting you and giving you every

mean s fo r you r de fence ; illnes s I said deli rium inj u r y , , , ,

melancholy and the poli ce o fficer s and all the re st o f it ? Ah !

H e h e h e ! Though i ndeed al l those p syc h ologi cal means
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354 F Y ODO R D O S TO EV S K Y

o f
de fence are n o t v ery r el ia b l e and cut b oth ways : ill ne ss ,
’
deli rium I don t rememb e r— that s all ri ght b ut why, my
,
’
,

good s ir i n you r i llnes s and i n you r deli rium w er e you

,

haunted by j u st tho s e delu sio ns and n o t by any othe r s ?

The re may have b een o the rs e h ? H e he he !
” - -
,

Raskolniko v looked hau ghtily and c o ntemptu o u sly at h i m .

“
B ri efly he sai d lo udly and imp eriou sly r is ing t o hi s f eet
, ,
“
and in s o doing pu shing P o r fi ry b ack a l ittle b riefly I want , ,

to know do you a cknowl edge m e p er fe ctly f re e f r o m s u s pi

,
~

cio n o r not ? Tell m e P o r fi ry P etr o vitch tell m e o nce f or

”
, ,

all and make haste !

”
What a b u si nes s I m having w ith y o u ! cri ed P o r fi ry w ith
’

“
a pe r fectly goo d humou r ed s ly and c o mpos ed face
-
And ,
.

w hy do yo u want to know w hy do you want to kn o w s o ,

m uch since they h av en t b egu n t o wo rry you ? Why yo u

,
’
,

a re l ike a chi l d askin g fo r m atche s ! And why ar e you s o

u neasy ? Why d o yo u f o rce y o u r s el f u pon u s eh ? H e ,

he he -

“ ’
I repe at Raskol nik o v cr ie d furi ou sly tha t I can t pu t
”
, ,

up w ith i t !
With what ? U nce rtai nty ? ” i nter rupted P o rfi ry .

’ ’ ’
D o n t j ee r at m e ! I won t h av e i t ! I t el l y o u I w on t
’
? ”
hav e it I can t and I wo n t d o you h ear d o yo u hear
. he
’

, ,

shouted b ringi ng hi s fi st down on the tab l e again

,
.

H u sh ! Hu s h ! Th ey l l o ve rhea r ! I w arn you ser i o u sly

’

”
,

t ake car e o f your sel f I am not j oki ng P o rfi ry wh i spe red

.
, ,

but thi s time ther e wa s not th e look o f o l d womani sh goo d

natu re and alarm i n hi s face N o w h e w as p erempto ry .
,

stern frowni ng and fo r o nce laying aside all m ys t ifi ca t io n

,
.

B u t thi s wa s o nly fo r a n i nstant Raskolniko v b ewi ldered .

, ,

suddenly fell into a ctual fr enzy b ut strange t o s a y he agai n , , ,

ob eyed the command to speak q ui etly th o ugh h e wa s i n a ,

p er fe ct paroxysm o f fu ry .

“
I w ill not all ow mysel f to b e tor tu red h e wh ispe red in , ,

s t a n t ly r ecogni si ng w ith hatre d that he could no t help o b eying

the co m mand and drive n to ev en greate r fu ry by the thought .

“ ’
A r r est m e sear ch m e but ki ndly ac t i n due form and d o n t
”
, ,

pl ay with m e ! D o n t dare ! ’

“
D on t worry ab o ut the fo rm P o r fi ry i nte rrupted with t he
’
,

s am e sly smi le a s it w e r e gl o ating with e nj oy m en t o v e r

, ,
35 6 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y
’
the re s n o e scapin g form a s yo u s e e
,
P o rfi ry mutter ed
.
,

l i stening at the doo r through whi ch a noi s e could b e heard

”
.

“ “
Ah they re coming cri ed Raskolniko v
,
’
, .You ve sent
’

fo r them ! You expe cted them ! Well p roduce them all

,

you r deputi es you r witne s ses what you like ! I am

”
, ,

r eady !
B ut at thi s mome nt a st range inciden t o ccu r red s o m ethin g
,

s o unexpe cted that neithe r Raskolnikov no r P o r fi ry P etro

v it c h could have l o o ked f o r su ch a c o nclu si o n to thei r ih

t e rvie w .
 C HAPT E R VI

HE N he rememb er ed the s cene a fterwards thi s i s ,

how Raskolnikov s a w it .

The noi s e behind the doo r i ncreas ed and s u d ,

d e n l y the doo r was opened a l ittle

”
.

“
What i s it ? cri ed P o r fi ry Petrovi t ch annoyed Why , .
,

I gave o rder s
F o r an instant ther e w a s n o answe r b ut it w a s evident ,

that ther e w er e s eve ral pe rsons at the doo r and that they ,

w er e app arently pu shing s omebody b ack

”
.

“
What i s it ? P o r fi r y P etrovitch r ep eated une asily .

The p ri sone r N ik o lay has b een b rought some o n e a n ,

s w ered .

“
H e i s not wanted ! T ak e him away ! Let him wait !
? ”
H o w i rregular ! cri ed P o r fi ry ru sh
What s he do ing h er e
’
,

ing to th e door .

B ut h e began the s am e vo ice and suddenly ceased ,

.

Tw o s econds not mo re we re sp ent i n actu al struggl e then

, , ,

some o n e gav e a v iol ent shove and t hen a m an v e ry pal e , , ,

stro de into th e ro om .

Thi s man s appearance w a s a t fi rst sight very strang e H e

’
.

stared straight b e fo re him as though s eeing nothing Th er e

, .

was a determined gl eam i n his eyes ; at the same t ime

th ere was a deathly pallo r i n hi s face as though h e wer e ,

bein g l ed to the s ca ffold H is white l ip s w er e faintly

.

twitching .

H e w a s dressed l ike a w o rkman and w a s o f m ediu m h eight ,

very young sl im hi s h ai r cut in a rou nd cr 0 p with thin sp ar e

, , ,

featu res The man whom h e had thru st b ack fol lowed him
.

into th e room and succeeded in s eiz ing him b y th e shou lder ;

he w a s a warder but N iko lay pu ll ed hi s arm away .

S everal p ersons crowded i nqu i sitively i nto the doo rway .

S om e o f them tr ied to get in Al l thi s took pl ace almost .

instantane o u sly .

“ ’
G o away it s to o soon ! Wait till you ar e sen t fo r !
,

35 7
358 F Y OD O R D OS TO E V S K Y
”
Why h ave y o u b r o ught hi m too s oo n ? P o rfi ry Pe tro v i t ch
muttered extre m ely annoyed and as i t we r e t hrown o u t o f
, ,

h i s reckoning .

B u t N iko l ay su ddenly knelt down .

“
What s th e matte r
’
? ” cri ed Po r fi ry su r p ri s ed .
,

I am gu i lty ! M i n e i s th e s in ! I am th e mu rde r e r ,

N ik o l ay articul a t ed suddenly ra t he r b reathless , b u t sp eaking

,

fai rly loudly .

F o r ten s ec o nds the r e was s il ence as t h ou gh all ha d b ee n

stru ck dumb ; even th e w arde r stepped b ack m ech anically ,

r etreated t o th e d o o r and st o od imm o v abl e .

”
,
“
What i s it ? cri ed Po r fi ry P e t r o v i t ch r ec o ver in g fr om his ,

mome ntary s t upe facti o n .

“
I a m t h e m u rder e r r ep ea t ed N ik o lay a f t e r a b ri e f
, ,

p au s e
”
.

“
Wha t you wh a t who m d id you k il l ?
P o r fi ry P e t rov itch w a s o b v i ou sly b ewildered .

N ik o l a y agai n w a s s il en t fo r a m oment .

“
A l yo n a I vanovna and he r s is t e r L iz av e t a I v an o vna I
”
,

ki ll e d w i t h an axe D a r kness ca m e o v e r me h e added

.
,

su ddenly and was again s i lent

, .

H e sti ll remained o n hi s kn ees P o r fi ry P et r o v itch s too d .

f o r s om e mom ents a s though medita t ing bu t suddenly r o used ,

hims el f and w aved b ack th e u ninv ited sp ec t at o rs They .

instantly v ani sh ed and clos ed th e d oo r Then h e l o ok ed .

towards Raskolniko v who w a s standing i n the co rne r sta r ing

, ,

wildly a t N ikol ay and mo ve d towards h im bu t stopp ed sho rt , ,

l ooked f ro m N iko lay t o Raskolnikov and then agai n a t

N iko lay and s eeming u nab le t o r es t rain himsel f dar t ed at
,

th e l atte r .

“ ’
You r e i n t o o gr eat a hu r ry h e sh o uted at hi m al mo s t , ,
“ ’
angrily I didn t ask y ou what cam e ov e r yo u Sp eak
”
.
,

did you kill them ?

I am th e mu rdere r I w ant t o g iv e evidence N iko la y
.
,

p ronou nced
”
.

“
Ach ! What did you ki ll them wi t h ?
An axe I had it r eady
”
. .

Ach h e IS i n a hu rry ! Alone ?

,

N ikol ay di d not u nde rstand th e qu es t i o n

”
.

“
D id you d o i t alon e ?
3 60 F Y ODO R D OS T OEV S K Y

no so o ne r o n th e stai rs than h e he ard th e v o i ce o f P o rfi ry

Petrov itch b ehind him Tu rning r o u nd he s a w t h e l atte r .
,

ru nning a fte r him out o f b r eath , .

“
O n e wo rd Rodion Ro m a n o v itch ; a s to all the r est i t s
’
, ,

i n God s hands bu t as a matt er o f fo rm there ar e som e qu e s

’

tion s I shall h av e t o a s k y o u s o w e shal l me et again ,

shan t we ’
? ”
And P o r fi ry sto o d still facing him w ith a smil e , .

“
? ” ’
S han t w e he added again .

H e s eemed t o w ant t o s ay something m o re but c o uld not ,

speak out .

“
Yo u mu st fo rgiv e me P o r fi ry Petr o v itch fo r wha t ha s
”
, ,

j u st p assed I lo st my temp e r began Raskolnikov wh o , ,

had s o far regained h is cou rag e that h e felt i r resistibly in

c l in e d to di splay hi s c o olness .

“ ’
D o n t m ention it do n t menti o n it Po r fi ry repl i ed almo st ,
’

, ,
“
gl ee ful ly I mysel f too
. I h av e a w ick ed t emp er I , ,

admit i t ! B u t w e shall meet again I f it s G o d s will w e ’ ’

”
.
,

may s e e a gr eat deal o f one anothe r

”
.

“
And wil l get to know each oth er th r o ugh and through ?
added Rask o lniko v .

“
Yes ; know e ach oth er th r o ugh and thr o ugh assented ,

P o r fi ry Petrovitch and h e s crewed u p hi s eye s l ooking , ,

“
e arnestly at Rask o lnik o v N o w y ou r e go ing t o a b i r thday
’
.

p arty ?
“
To a funeral .

O f c o u rs e th e funeral ! Take ca r e o f you rs el f and get

”
, ,

wel l .

“
I don t know wh at t o wi sh you s aid Raskolnikov w h o
’
, ,
“
h ad b egu n to descend th e stai rs but looked b ack again I , .

should l ik e to w i sh you su ccess but you r o ffi ce i s su ch a ,

comical o n e
” Po rfi r
.

“
?
Why comical y Pet r o vitch had t u rned to go but ,

h e s eemed t o p rick up hi s ears at this .

“
Why how you mu st h av e b een t ortu ring and harassing
,

that poo r N ik o l ay p sychologi cally a fte r you r fashi o n ti ll h e , ,

con fes sed ! Y o u mu st hav e b een at him day and night p rov ,

ing to him that h e was the mu rde re r and n o w tha t he has

con fessed you l l b egin v ivi secting hi m agai n ’ ‘You ar e
,

‘
, .

’ ’
l ying you l l say You a re not the mu rd erer You can t b e !
, .
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 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 3 61

’ ’
It
’
not you r own tal e you ar e telling ! You mu st admit it s
s

a c o mi cal bu s iness
“
H e h e h e ! You noticed then that I s ai d to N ikol ay j u st
- -

? ”
now that it was not hi s own tal e h e was tel ling
“ ”
H o w cou ld I h elp noticing i t !
H e h e ! You ar e qu ick witted
-
You notice eve rything ! -
.

Yo u v e really a play fu l mind ! And you always fast en on the

’

comi c side h e h e ! They s a y that w a s th e marked char

-

”
a ct e r is t ic o f Gogol among the write rs ,
.

“ ”
Ye s o f Gogol ,
.

Ye s o f Gogol I shall look fo rwa rd to meeting yo u .

”
.
,

S o sh al l I .

Rasko lnikov w alked straight home H e w a s s o muddled .

and bewilde red that o n getting hom e h e s a t fo r a qu arte r o f

an hou r o n the s o fa t rying to coll ect hi s thoughts H e did
,
.

not attempt to think a b out N ikol ay ; he w a s s tu p e fi e d ; h e

felt that hi s con fes sion w a s something i nexpl ica b l e amazing ,

- something beyond hi s u nderstanding B ut N ik o l a y s c o n .

’

f e s s io n was an actu al fact The consequ ence s o f thi s fact .

we re clea r to him at once it s fal s ehoo d coul d not fail to b e ,

di scov ered and th en they would b e a fte r him again Ti ll

,
.

then at le ast he w a s fr ee and mu st do so mething fo r himsel f

, , ,

fo r th e dange r w a s i mminent .

But how imminent ? Hi s po siti on gradu al ly b ecame clear

t o him Remem b er ing sketchily the main outlines o f hi s
.
, ,

r ecent scene w ith P o r fi ry h e cou ld not help shuddering again ,

w ith ho rro r O f cou rs e he did not yet know al l P o r fi ry s

.
,
’

aims he could not see into all hi s cal cul ations B ut he had
, .

al re ady p artly shown h i s hand and no on e knew b etter than ,

”
Raskolnikov how t e r r ib e P o r fi ry s l ead had b een fo r him ’
.

A l ittl e mo r e and h e m ig h t h av e giv en himsel f away co m

p l et e l y ci rcumstanti ally
, K nowin g hi s nervou s tempe rament
.

and from the fi rst glance seeing throu g h him P o r fi ry though , ,

pl aying a b old game w a s b ound to w in The re s no denyin g

, .
’

that Raskolnikov had comp rom i sed himsel f seriou sly b ut no ,

f a c ts had come to l ight a s yet ; there was noth in g po sitive .

Bu t was he taking a t ru e vi ew o f th e po sition ? Wasn t h e ’

mistaken ? What had P o r fi ry b een t rying to get at ? H a d h e

r eally some su rp ri se p repared fo r hi m ? And what w a s it ?
H a d h e really b een exp ecting something o r not ? Ho w
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3 62 F Y ODO R D O S T O E V S K Y

w ou ld they hav e p arted i f it had not be en fo r the u nexp ected

app earanc e o f N ikol ay ?
had shown almo st al l h i s cards — o f cou rs e h e h ad
Po fi y
r r ,

r i sk ed something i n showing them —and i f h e had r e ally

h ad anything up hi s sl eev e ( Raskol nikov r efl ected ) h e wou ld ,
“ ”?
h av e shown that to o What w as that su rp ri s e
, . Was it a
j oke ? H a d it m eant anything ? C oul d it h av e conceal ed
anythin g l ike a fact a pi ece o f p ositiv e evid ence ? H i s ye s
,

t e r d a y s v i s ito r ? What h ad b ecom e o f him ? Whe re w a s he

’

to day ? I f P o r fi ry re al ly h ad any ev idence it mu st b e co n

-
,

n e c t e d w ith him .

H e sat o n th e so fa with h i s elb ows on his knees and h i s

face hidden i n h i s h ands H e w as still shiv er ing ne rvou sly . .

At last he got up took hi s cap thought a minu te and went t o

, , ,

th e doo r .

H e h ad a so rt o f p r es entiment that fo r t o day at l east h e -

, ,

m ight cons ider him sel f o u t o f danger H e had a su dd en s ens e .

almo st o f j oy ; he wanted to m ake h aste to K at erin a Iv a

h ovna s
’
H e wou ld b e too l ate fo r th e funer al o f cou rs e b ut
.
, ,

h e wou l d b e i n tim e fo r the m emo r i al dinn er and th ere at ,

o nce h e wou ld s e e S oni a .

H e stood stil l thought a moment and a su ffe ring s mi le

, ,

came fo r a moment on to hi s l ips .

“
-
”
To day ! T o day h e rep e at ed to hi ms el f
-
Y e s t o day ! .
-
, ,

S o it mu st b e .

B u t as h e w a s ab ou t to op en th e doo r it b egan op ening o f ,

its el f H e started and mov ed b ack The do o r op ened gently

. .

and slowly and th er e suddenly app eared a fi gu re— ye ste r

,

day s vi sito r fr o m u n d e r g r o u n d
’
.

Th e man stood in th e do o rway l ook ed at Raskol nikov W ith ,

o u t sp e aking and took a step fo rward into th e roo m H e

,
.

w a s exactly the s am e a s yeste rday ; the s am e fi gu re th e s am e ,

dres s b ut th er e w a s a gr eat ch ange in hi s face ; he looked

,

d ej ected and sigh ed deeply I f h e had only put hi s h and u p .

t o hi s ch eek and l eaned hi s head o n o n e s ide he wou ld hav e

looked exactly l ike a p easant wom an
”
.

“
What do you w ant ? asked Raskolnikov nu mb with ,

t er ro r .

Th e man w a s sti ll s il ent bu t su ddenly he bowed down ,

almo st to th e grou nd tou ching it w ith hi s finge r , .

3 64 F Y ODO R D O STO E V S K Y

What P o r fi ry
The head o f th e detectiv e department ? ”
Ye s T h e po rte rs did not go th ere b ut I went
.
, .

T o day
-

I got the re two mi nute s b e fo re you And I h eard I .

,
”
hea rd i t all how he wo r r i ed you .

”
,

“
Where ? What ? When ?

Why in the next room I wa s sitting the re al l th e time

,
. .

What ? Why then you w er e the su rp ris e ? B ut how ,

could it happ en ? Up on my wo rd !
“
I saw th at the po rter s did no t w ant to do wh at I s ai d ,
“
began th e man ; fo r it s to o l ate said they and mayb e he l l
’
, ,
’

b e angry that w e did not come at th e time I w a s v exed and .

I lo st my s leep and I b egan making inqu i r ies And finding

,
.

o u t yesterday whe re to go I w ent to day Th e fi rst time ,

-
.

I went he w asn t ther e when I came an hou r l ater h e cou ldn t

’

,
’

see m e I w ent the thi rd t ime and they showed m e in

.
,

I in fo rmed hi m o f ev e rything j u st as it happ ened and h e , ,

began skipping a b out the ro om and pu nching hims el f o n the

che st .
‘What do you scoundrel s me an by it ? I f I d known ’

a b out it I shou ld hav e ar re sted h i m ! Then h e r an o u t called ’

,

some b ody and b egan t alk ing to h im in the co rner then he ,

tu rned to me s colding and qu estioning m e H e s colded me

, .

a gre at de al ; and I told him ev e rything and I tol d h im that ,

you didn t d ar e to s ay a wo rd in answe r to m e yeste rday and

’

that you didn t r ecogni s e m e And he fel l to running a b ou t

’
.

a g ai n and kept h itting himsel f o n the chest and getting ,

angry and ru nning a b out and when you w ere announced h e

‘
told m e to go into th e next room s it the re a b it h e said
,
’

‘
.
, ,

D on t mov e wh at eve r you m ay h ear

’
And h e s et a chai r ’

‘ ‘
.
,

the re fo r m e and lo cked me i n Perhaps h e said I m ay .

,
’
,

call you And when N ik o l a y d b een b rought he l et me o u t a s

’ ’

‘
.

soon a s you w e r e gone I shall send fo r you again and

”
.

qu estion you h e s aid ,

’
.

“
And did he qu esti on N ikol ay wh il e you w ere there ?
H e got r id o f m e as h e did o f you be f o re he sp oke to
”
,

N ikol ay .

T h e man stood still and again su ddenly bowed down , ,

tou ching th e g round w ith hi s finge r .

“
F o rgive m e fo r my ev i l thoughts and my sl ander ,
.
 C R IME AND P UN IS H ME N T

M ay God fo rgive yo u an swe red Raskolniko v

,
.

And as h e said thi s the m an b owed down again but not to

, ,

the ground tu rned slowly and w ent ou t o f th e room .

”
,
“
I t all cuts b oth ways now it al l cut s b oth ways rep eated
, ,

Rasko lnikov and he went o u t mo r e confident than eve r .

”
,
“
N o w we ll mak e a fight fo r it he s aid with a m al i ci ou s
’
, ,

smil e as h e went down the stai rs H is mal ice w a s aimed

, .

at himsel f ; w ith shame and contempt he r e collected hi s

“
cowardice .
 P A RT V

C HAPT E R I

H E mo rning th at foll ow ed th e fate ful interv i ew with

D ouni a and he r mothe r brought so b ering influ ence s
to b e ar o n Pyot r P et rov itch I ntensely u npl easant as
.

it w a s h e was fo rced l ittl e by l ittl e to accept as a fact b eyond

,

r ecal l what h a d s eemed to hi m only th e day b e fo r e fantasti c

and incr edibl e The b l ack snak e o f wounded v anity had b een
.

gnawing at h i s h eart all night When he got out o f b ed

.
,

Pyotr P etrov itch immedi ately l ooked i n the ‘ l ooking glass .

H e was a frai d that he h ad j au ndi ce Howeve r hi s health

.

s eemed un impai red s o far and looking at his no b l e clear

, ,

skinned cou ntenance which h ad grown fattish o f l ate Pyotr ,

P etrovitch fo r an instant w a s po sitiv ely co m fo rted in th e

convi ctio n that h e w ou ld fi nd anothe r b ride and p erhap s , ,

ev en a b ette r o n e . B u t coming b ack to the s ens e o f hi s

p re sent po sition he tu rned aside and sp at v igo rou sly which
, ,

excit ed a s arcasti c smil e i n And rey S e m yo n o v it ch L e b e z ia t n i

kov th e young fr iend with whom h e w a s staying That smil e
,
.

Pyotr P etrov itch noticed and at o nce s e t it down a g ain st h i s

,

you ng f ri end s account H e had s e t down a good m any

’
.

point s against him o f l at e H is ange r w a s r edoubl ed wh en

.

h e r eflected that h e ou g ht not t o have to ld Andr ey S e m yo n o

v it c h ab ou t the r e su lt o f yesterday s intervi ew T hat was
’
.

th e s econd mi stake h e had m ade in t empe r th rou gh im ,

p u l s iv e n e s s and i r rita b i lity. M o reov er all that mo rning

,

on e u npl easantnes s fo llowed anoth er H e ev en found a h itch

.

awaiting hi m in hi s l egal case in th e senate H e was p a r t icu

.

l a r l y i rrit ated b y th e owne r o f the flat which h ad b een t aken

in vi ew o f his app ro aching m arri age and w a s b ei ng re
d eco rated a t hi s o w n expense ; the owne r a ri ch German ,

t radesman wou ld not ente rtain the idea o f b reaking the

,

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that al l th e l odgers h ad b een i nv ited among them s om e w h o ,

had not known the de ad man that even And rey S e m yo n o ,

v it c h L e b e z ia t n ik o v w a s i nv ited i n spite o f hi s p rev ious

qu arr el with K ate rina Iv anovna that he Pyot r P et rovitch , , ,

w a s n o t only invited bu t was eagerly exp ected as h e w a s the

,

mo st impo rtant o f th e lodge rs Amal i a Ivanovna h ersel f

.

h ad b een invited with great ce r emony i n sp it e o f the r ecent

u npleasantness and s o she w as v e ry bu sy w ith p rep ar ati ons
,

and was taking a po sitiv e pl e asu r e i n th em ; sh e was mo r e

ove r d resse d u p to th e n ines al l i n n ew bl ack s ilk and s h e
, ,

w a s p roud o f it . All thi s suggested an id ea to Pyotr P et ro

’
v it c h and h e went into hi s ro om o r rather L e b e z ia t n ik o v s
, ,

somewh at thou ght ful H e had l earnt that Raskolnikov w a s

.

to b e on e o f th e gu ests .

And rey S e m yo n o v it ch h ad b een at hom e al l the mo rning .

Th e attitude o f Pyotr P etrov itch to thi s gentl eman w a s

strange though p e rhap s n atu r al Pyotr Pet ro v itch had de
, .

s p is e d and h ated hi m f rom the day h e came to stay w ith

hi m and at th e s ame time h e se emed somewhat a fraid o f h im .

H e had not com e to stay wi th him on hi s a rrival i n Pete rs

b u rg simply fr om p ars imony thou gh th at h ad b e en p erhaps
,

hi s chi e f obj ect H e had h eard o f Andrey S e m yo n o v itc h

.
,

w h o h ad onc e b een hi s w ard as a l e ading young p rogress iv e

,

who w a s taking an impo rtant p art i n certain inter esting ci r

cl es the do ings o f whi ch we r e a l egend in th e p rov inces I t
, .

had imp ress ed Pyotr Pet rov itch T hese powe r fu l omni sci ent .

c i rcl es w h o despi sed ev e ry on e and show ed ev ery o n e up h ad

long insp i red in hi m a p ecu l i ar b u t qu ite v agu e alarm H e .

h ad not o f cou r se b een abl e to fo rm ev en an app roximat e

, ,

notio n o f wh at they m eant H e like ev ery one h ad he ard

.
, ,

that the r e we re e sp eci al ly i n P ete rsbu r g p rogress iv e s o f

, ,

some so rt n ihil i st s and s o on and like m any p eopl e h e

, , , ,

exaggerated and di sto rted the s igni fi cance o f tho s e wo rds to

an ab su rd d egree What fo r m any year s p ast h e had feared
.

mo re than anything wa s b e ing s h o w n u p and thi s was th e

chi e f g rou nd fo r hi s continu al u neasines s at th e thou g ht o f
t rans ferring hi s b u sines s t o P eters b u r g H e w a s a fra i d o f .

thi s as l ittle children ar e s om etimes p ani c stri cken S ome -

.

year s b e fo re when he w a s j u st ente ring o n h is own caree r

, ,

h e h ad come u pon two cases i n whi ch r athe r imp o rtant p er

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H M ENT 3 69

s o n a ge s i n the p rovince p atrons o f hi s had b een cruelly, ,

shown up O n e instance h ad ended i n great scandal fo r th e

.

p e rson attacked and th e othe r had v ery nearly ended i n

s eriou s t roubl e F o r thi s reason Pyotr P etrovitch intended
.

to go into th e subj ect as soon as h e r eached Petersbu rg and ,

i f neces sary to anti cipate conti n g enci es b y s eek ing the favou r
”
,
“
of ou r younge r gen eration H e r el i ed o n Andrey S e m yo n o .

v it c h fo r thi s and b e fo re h i s v i sit to Rasko lnikov h e h ad

su cceede d i n p i cking up some cu r rent phrases H e soo n .

d is cove red that Andrey S e m yo n o v itc h w as a commonpl ace

s impl eton but that b y no means r eas su red Pyotr Petrov itch
, .

E ven i f he had been certain that all th e p ro gre ss iv es we r e

fo ol s l ik e him it would not hav e all ayed hi s u neasiness Al l
, .

th e doct rines the ideas the systems with which Andrey

, ,

S e m yo n o v it c h p estered hi m h ad no int erest fo r him H e had .

h i s own o b j ect— h e simply w anted to find out at once what

was happ ening h er e H ad thes e p eopl e any powe r o r not ?
.

H ad h e anyth ing to fear from them ? Woul d they expos e

an y enterp ri se o f h is ? And what p reci sely was now the
) b j e c t o f thei r attacks ? C ou ld h e somehow mak e up to th em
and get round them i f they r eally w ere power ful ? Wa s
’
thi s th e thing to do o r not ? C ouldn t h e gai n something
throu g h them ? In fact hundred s o f que stions p resented
themselve s .

Andrey S e m yo n o v it ch w as an an aemic s cro fu lou s l ittl e ,

m an w ith strangely fl a x e n mutton chop whi skers o f which

,
-

h e was v ery p roud H e was a cl erk and had al mo st always

.

something wrong with hi s eyes H e wa s rather s o ft h earted .

-
,

but s el f co n fi d e n t and sometime s extrem ely conceited i n

-

sp eech whi ch had an a b su rd e ffect incongru ou s w ith hi s

, ,

l ittl e figu r e H e w a s on e o f th e lodgers most r esp ected b y

.

Amal i a Ivanovna fo r h e did not g e t d runk and p aid regu

,

l a rl y fo r h i s lodging Andrey S e m yo n o v it ch re ally w a s

.

r athe r stup id ; h e attached himsel f to the cau s e o f p rogres s

“ ” H e was
and ou r youn g er gene ration fro m enthus iasm .

o n e o f the nu me rou s and vari ed l egion o f dullards o f hal f ,

animate a b o rtions conceited hal f edu cated coxcomb s w h o

, ,
-
,

attach them selve s to the i dea mo st i n fashion only to vul

g a r is e it and w h o car icatu re ev ery cau s e they serv e l l O W
’
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,

eve r s ince rely .

3 70 F Y ODO R D O S T OE V S K Y

Th o u gh Leb e z ia t n ik o v wa s s o go od natu red h e too was -

, , ,

b eginning to di sl ik e Pyot r Pet r o v itch Th is h app ened o n .

b oth s ides unconsciou sly Howev e r simpl e Andrey S e m yo n o

.

v it c h might b e h e b egan to s e e that Pyotr P etro vitch wa s

,
“
duping him and secr etly d espi sing h i m and that h e was not ,

the r ight so rt o f man H e h ad t ried expounding to him

.

the system o f F ou ri e r and the D arw ini an th eo ry but o f l ate ,

Pyot r P etrov itch b egan to l i sten t o o s arcasti cally an d even t o

b e rud e Th e fact was h e h ad b egun instincti vely to gu e s s
.

that L e b e z ia tn ik o v w a s not m e rely a commonpl ace simpl eton ,

but pe rhap s a l ia r t o o and that h e had no conne ctions o f

, , , ,

any cons equ enc e even i n hi s o w n ci rcl e but had s imply p i ck ed ,

things u p thi rd hand ; and that v e ry l ik ely h e did not ev en

-

know mu ch about hi s o w n wo rk o f p rop aganda fo r h e w a s ,

in to o gr eat a mu ddl e A fi ne p er so n h e w ou ld b e to show

.

any o n e u p ! I t mu st b e noted by th e w a y that Pyot r , ,

Pet rov itch h ad du ring tho s e t en days e agerly accept ed th e

st rangest p r ais e from Andrey S e m yo n o v it ch ; he had n o t
p rote st ed fo r inst ance wh en Andrey S e m yo n o v it ch b elau ded
, ,

h im fo r b eing r eady t o contr ibut e to th e estab lishm ent o f

“ ” r
the new commu ne o t o ab st ai n from chr istening h i s
,

futu r e chi ldr en o r t o acqu ie sc e i f D ou ni a we re to t ak e a

,

l ov er a mo nth a fte r m ar ri age and s o on Pyot r Pet rov itch , .

s o enj oyed hear in g hi s o w n pr ai se s th at h e did n o t di sdai n

even su ch vi rtu es when th ey w er e attribu ted to h im .

Pyotr P etrov itch had h ad o ccasi on th at mo rn ing to re al i se

s om e fiv e p e r c ent bonds and now he sat down to the tab le
.

and cou nted o v er bundl e s o f note s Andrey S e m yo n o v itch .

w h o hardly eve r had any money w alk ed about th e room p r e

t end ing to himsel f to l o ok at all tho se b ank notes with in d if
fe r ence and ev en contempt N othing woul d hav e conv i nced .

Pyot r Petrov itch that And rey S e m yo n o v itc h cou ld r eally

look on th e money u nmov ed and th e latt e r o n hi s side kept , , ,

thinking b itterly th at Pyotr Petr o vitch w a s cap a b le o f ente r

tai ning su ch an i de a abou t h im and was p e rhap s gl ad o f , ,

th e oppo rtu nity o f t easing h i s young fri end by r em inding

him o f h is i n fe rio rity and the gr eat d i fference b etween them .

H e found hi m incredi b ly inattentiv e and i r ritabl e thou gh ,

he Andr ey S e m yo n o v itc h b egan enl arging o n hi s favou rite

,

”
,

subj ect th e foundation o f a n ew sp eci al commune

, The .
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l ik e th at at all it was qu ite di fferent

, You v e h eard it .
’

’
w rong ; it s a l ib el I w a s s imply de fending mysel f
. S he .

ru shed at m e fi rst w ith h er n ail s s h e pu lled o u t all my ,

’
w hiske r s It s p ermi ssibl e fo r any o ne I should h op e
to de fend himsel f and I n ev e r allow any o n e to u s e v iol ence
t o m e o n p rincip l e fo r it s an act o f despoti sm What w as ’

”
, .

I to do ? I s imply pu sh ed he r b ack .

“
H e he he
- -
Lu zhin w ent o n l augh ing mal i ciou sly .

You keep o n l ike that b ecau s e you a re out o f humou r

’
you rs el f . B u t that s no ns ens e and it h as noth ing noth ,

in g whatev e r to do with the w o man qu es t ion ! You don t "

u nde rstand ; I u sed to th ink ind eed th at i f women are equ al , ,

to m en i n all respe cts even i n str ength ( as i s m aintai ned ,

n o w ) the r e ought to b e equ al ity i n that to o O f cou rse I , .

,

r eflected a fte rwards th at su ch a qu esti o n ou ght not r eally t o ,

ari se fo r th er e ought not to b e fi ghting and i n the futu r e

, ,

so ciety fi ghting i s unthi nkabl e and that it would b e a

qu ee r thing to s eek fo r equ al i t y i n fi ghting I am not s o .

stup i d thou gh o f cou rs e th er e i s fi ghting

,
ther e ,

w on t b e l ate r
’
bu t at p r es ent th er e i s
,
co n found i t !
’
H ow mu ddl ed o ne g et s w ith yo u ! I t s not o n that accou nt
th at I am not go ing I am not go ing on p rincipl e not to.
,

take p art i n th e r evolting convention o f m emo ri al d inne rs ,

that s w hy ! Though o f cou rs e o n e m ight go t o l augh at

’

, ,
’
it. I am so r ry the r e won t b e any p r ie sts at it I shou ld .

ce rtainly go i f there we re
“
T h en you would s it down at anoth er m an s tab l e and
’

insu lt it and thos e w h o i nv ited you E h ? ”

.

“
C e rt ainly not insu lt bu t p rotest I shou ld do it w ith a
,
.

g o o d obj ect I m ight i nd ir ectly a ssi st the cau se o f enl ighten

.

m ent and p r o paganda It s a duty o f ev e ry m an to wo rk fo r

.
’

enli g htenment and p rop aganda and th e mo r e h arshly p erhap s , ,

the b ette r I might d rop a s eed an idea

. And some ,
.

thing might grow u p fro m th at seed H o w shou ld I b e .

i nsulting them ? They might b e o ffend ed at fi rst but a fte r ,

wards they d see I d don e them a s ervi ce Y o u kno w T ere

’ ’
.
,

b ye v a ( who i s i n th e commu nity n o w ) w as b lamed b ecau se

when sh e l e ft h er fami ly and devoted h ers el f she ,
’
w rot e to he r fathe r and mother that sh e wouldn t go o n l iving
conventionally and w a s ent ering on a f ree marr i age and it
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 C R IME AND P UN I S H ME NT 3 73

w as s aid that that w a s too h arsh that s h e mi ght have spared ,

’
them and hav e written mo r e ki ndly I think that s all non .

’ ’
s ense and ther e s no ne ed o f so ftne ss o n the contrary what s , ,

wanted i s protest V a r e n t s had b een ma rr ied s ev en ye ars

.
,

s h e abandoned her two child ren she to ld he r hu sband straight

‘
out in a lette r : I hav e r eali sed th at I c annot b e happy with
,

you I c a n neve r fo rgive you that you h av e d ece iv ed me b y

.

concealing from m e that the re i s another o rgani sation o f

soci ety b y me ans o f the communiti e s I hav e o nly l ately .

learned it fro m a gre at h earted m an to whom I hav e given -

mysel f and w ith whom I am establ i shi ng a community I .

speak plainly b ecau s e I conside r i t di shonest t o dece iv e you .

D o as you think best D o not hop e to get m e back you a re

.
,
’ ’
to o late I hop e you will b e happy That s h o w l etter s like
”
. .

that ou ght to be written !

“
i s that T e r e b ye v a the one you s aid had made a thi rd free
marr iage ?
“ ’
N o i t s o nly the s econd r eal ly ! B ut what i f i t w e re the
, ,

fo urth wh at i f it we re th e fi fteenth that s all no nsens e A nd

, ,
’

i f eve r I regretted the death o f my f athe r and mothe r i t i s ,

now and I sometimes think i f my par ents we re liv ing what

,

a p rotest I would h av e aimed at them ! I would hav e don e

something o n pu rpo s e I would h av e shown them ! I
would hav e astonished them ! I am really s o rry the re i s no
o ne
“
To su rpri se ! H e h e ! Well b e that as you will Pyot r
-
, ,

Petrovi tch inte rrupted but tell me this : do you know th e

,
’
dead man s daughter th e del icate looking little thing ? It s -
’

”
,
’
tru e wh at they s ay about he r i sn t it ?
,
“
What o f it ? I think that i s i t i s my own p er sonal con , ,

v ic t io n that thi s i s th e no rmal conditio n o f women

, Why .

not ? I mean d is tin gu o n s I n ou r pre sent so ci ety it i s not

,
.
,

al togethe r no rm al b ecau s e it is compul so ry b ut i n the futu re

, ,

so ciety it w ill b e pe r fectly normal becau se i t will b e v o l u n

, ,

t ary E v en as it i s she w a s qu ite ri g ht : s h e was su fferin g

.
,

and th at wa s he r ass et s o to spe ak her capital whi ch s h e

, ,

had a per fect r ight to di spo se o f O f cou r se i n the futu re .

,

soci ety the re wil l b e no n eed o f as sets b ut her part wi ll

, ,

h av e anothe r si gnifi cance r ational and i n ha rmony wi th he r ,

envi ronment A s to S o fya S e m yo n o v n a pe rsonally I regard

.
,
37 4 F Y ODO R DO STOEV S KY

h e r action a s a v igorou s p rotest agai nst th e o rgani s at i o n o f

so ciety and I r espect he r de ep ly fo r i t ; I r ej o ice ind eed wh en
,
”
I l ook at he r !
“
I w as told that yo u g o t h e r tu rned o u t o f t he s e l o dg
ings
” .

L e b e z ia t n ik o v w a s en raged .

“ ”
That s anothe r slande r h e yel l ed
’
I t was not so at al l ! .
,

That w a s all K aterina Iv a n o v n a s inv ention fo r sh e d id not ’

u nderstand ! And I nev er m ad e lov e to S o fya S e m yo n o v n a !

I was simply develop ing he r enti r ely disi ntere stedly trying , ,

t o rou se her t o p rotest Al l I w anted w a s he r p rotest

.

and S o fya S em yo n o v n a could n o t hav e r emained her e a ny

w ay !
”
“
H av e you asked h e r t o j oi n you r commu nity ? ”
You k eep o n l au ghing and v ery inapp rop ri ately allow m e ,

t o tel l you You do n t u nder stand ! Th er e i s n o su ch r o l e

.
’

in a community The community i s establ ished that ther e

.

should b e no su ch ré l e s I n a community su ch a rdl e i s .

,

e ss enti ally t rans fo rmed and what i s stupid he re i s sens ibl e

the r e what u nde r p res ent conditions i s u nnatu ral b eco mes
, , ,

p er fectly natu ral in th e commu nity It all d ep ends o n th e .

’
env i ronment It s all th e envi ronment and m an h im sel f i s
.

noth in g And I am o n good t erms w ith S o fya S e m yo n o v n a

.

to thi s day whi ch i s a p roo f that s h e nev e r r egarded m e a s

,

h aving w ronged he r I am t rying now to attr act h er to th e

.

commu nity bu t o n qu ite qu ite a di ffer ent fo oting What ar e

, , .

you l aughing at ? We ar e t rying to e stabli sh a co mmu nity o f

o u r o wn a speci al o n e on a b ro ade r b as i s
, We h av e gone
,
.

fu rther i n o u r conv ictions We r ej ect mo r e ! And mean .

’
whil e I m stil l dev eloping S o i ya S e m yo n o v n a S h e h as a .

b eauti fu l b eau ti fu l character !

,
“
And you t ak e adv antage o f h er fin e char acte r eh ? H e ,

No,
no ! O h no ! O n th e c o ntr ary , .

the contrary ! H e h e —h e l A qu ee r thing to s ay !

O h, -

B eli ev e me ! Why shoul d I disgu i s e it ? I n fact I feel ,

it st range mys el f how ti mid chaste and m o dest s h e i s with

” ,

me !
“
And you o f cou rs e ar e dev el op ing h e r
, h e h e l t rying -

”
,

to p rov e to her th at all that modes ty i s nonsense ?

3 76 F Y OD O R D O S TOEV S K Y

You a r e always thinking o f someth ing unpleasant h e ,

cried with ave rsion T fo o ! H o w v exed I am th at when I

.

w a s expounding o u r system I r e fe r r ed prematu rely to the,

’
qu estion o f per sonal pr ivacy ! It s always a stumbling block -

to people l ike you they tu rn i t i nto r idicul e b e fo r e they

,

u nderstand i t And how p roud they ar e o f it to o ! T fo o !

.
,

I v e o ften maintained that that qu estio n should not b e ap

’

p r o a c h e d by a nov i ce till h e h as a fi rm f aith i n th e system .

And tell me pl ease what do you fi nd so sh ame ful ev en i n

, ,

cesspools ? I should b e the fi rst to b e r eady t o cle an o u t any

’
ce sspool yo u like And it s not a qu estion o f s el f s a c r ifi c e
.
-
.

’
it s simply wo rk honou rab le u se ful wo rk whi ch is as goo d
, ,

a s any othe r and much b etter th an the work o f a Raphael

”
and a Pu shkin b ecau se it i s mo r e u se ful
, .

“
And mo r e ho nou r able mo re honou r abl e h e he he
‘
~ ~
, ,
“ ’
What do yo u me an by mo r e hono u ra b le ? I do n t ’

under stand such exp r es si ons to de scr ib e human activi ty

‘ ‘
.

’ ’
M o re honour abl e nobl er — all tho s e ar e o l d —fash ioned
,

p r ej udice s which I r ej ect E ve rything which i s o f u s e to .

m anki nd i s honou rabl e I only unde rst and o n e wo rd : u s efu l !

”
.

’
You can snigger as mu ch a s yo u like but that s so ! ,

Pyotr Petrovitch l aughed h eartily H e had fini shed count .

i ng the money and w a s putting i t away B ut some o f the

”
.

“
note s he le ft o n the t abl e The ces spool qu esti on had .

alr eady b een a su b j ect o f d i spute b etween them What w a s .

ab su rd w as that i t mad e L e b e z ia tn ik o v re ally angry whi le ,

it amu sed Lu zhi n and at that moment he p arti cularly wanted

to ange r h i s young fri end .

“
It s you r ill luck ye st erday th at m akes you s o i ll humou red
’
- —

and annoying blu rt ed o u t L e b e z ia tn ik o v w h o in spite o f

” ”
, ,

“ “
hi s i ndepend ence and hi s p rotest s d id not v entu re to
oppo se Pyot r P etrov itch and stil l beh aved to hi m wi th some
o f th e respe ct habitu al i n earl i er ye ar s
”
.

“
You d b ette r tel l me thi s Pyotr Petrovitch inte rrupted
’
,
“
with haughty di sple asu re can you o r rathe r are you
,

r e ally f ri endly enou gh with that young p er son to a sk her t o

’
step i n he r e fo r a minute ? I thi nk they v e all come b ack
from the cemete ry I hear the sound o f step s I
”
want to s e e he r that young p er son
”
.
,
“
What for ? L e b e z ia t n ik o v a sked with su rp ri s e .
 C R IME AND P UN I S H M ENT 3 77

O h,
I want to I am l eav ing here to day o r to mo rrow
.
- -

and ther e fo re I wanted to sp eak to her about H oweve r ,

yo u may b e pre sent du ring the i nterv i ew It s b etter you ’

.

’
should b e i ndeed F o r ther e s no knowi ng wh at you might
”
.
,

imagine .

“ ’
I shan t i magine anything I only a sked and i f you v e .
,
’

anything to s a y to he r nothing i s e asi er than to cal l he r i n

”
.
,
’
I l l go di rectly and you may b e su re I wo n t b e i n you r way
’
.

F ive minutes late r L e b e z ia tn ik o v came i n with S oni a S he .

came in v ery much surpr i sed and overcome w ith shynes s as

u su al S he w a s always shy i n su ch ci rcumstance s and was
.

always a fraid o f new p eople s h e had been as a chi ld and wa s ,

“
even mo r e s o now Pyotr P etrov itch met h er pol itely
”
.

and a ffably but w ith a certai n shade o f b antering famili

,

a r it y whi ch i n hi s op inio n w a s suitabl e fo r a man o f hi s

r espectabi lity and weight i n dealing with a creatu re s o young

“
and so in ter es ting a s s h e H e hastened to re assu re her and ” .

m ade her si t down facing hi m at the table S oni a s at down .

,

looked about her— a t L e b e z ia tn iko v at the note s lying on th e ,

tabl e and then agai n at Pyotr P etrov itch and her eyes r e
mained r iveted on him L e b e z ia tn ik o v w a s mov ing to th e .

do or Pyotr P etrovitch signed to S oni a to r emai n seated

.

and stopped L e b e z ia t n ik o v
”
.

H a s h e come
“
I s Rasko lnikov i n there ? ? he a sked him i n
a w hi sper .

“
Rasko lnikov ? Ye s Why ? Y e s h e i s ther e I s a w hi m
”
.
,
.

j ust come i n Why ?

“
Wel l I particularly beg you to remai n h er e w ith u s and
,

not to l eav e me alone with thi s young woman I only .

w ant a few wo rds with h er b ut Go d knows wh at they may ,

’
make o f it I shouldn t like Raskolnikov to repeat anything
”
. .

You understand wh at I mean ?

”
I understand ! L e b e z ia tn ik o v s a w the po int Ye s yo u .
,

a re r ight O f cou rse I am convi nced p ersonally that you

.
,

h av e no reason to b e u neasy b ut still yo u ar e ri ght , ,

.

C ertai nly I l l stay I l l stand h ere at the window and not b e

’ ’
.

i n you r w a y I think you are r ight

Pyotr Petrov itch r etu rned to the so fa s a t down oppo site ,

S oni a l ooked attentively at h er and assumed an extremely

,
“ ’
digni fied even s ev ere expr ession a s mu ch a s to s ay do n t
, , ,
3 78 F Y OD O R D O S T O EV S K Y

yo u make any mi stake m adam S oni a was o verwhelmed

, .

wi th embarrassment .

“
In the fi rst pl ace S o fya S e m yo n o v n a w ill you make my
,

excu se s t o you r r espected m amma Th at s r ight i sn t .

’

,
’

i t ? K ate rina Iv anovna stands in th e pl ace o f a moth e r

? ”
to you Pyot r Petrov itch b egan wi th great d ignity though ,

a ffably .

I t was ev ident th at h i s intentions wer e friendly .

“
Qu ite s o yes ; th e pl ace o f a mothe r S o ni a answered
, , ,

t imidly and hu rr iedly .

“
Then you wi ll m ake my ap o logi e s t o h er ? Through in
evitable ci rcum stance s I am fo rced to b e ab sent and shall n o t
b e at the dinner i n spite o f you r mamma s kind i nv itati o n ” ’

”
.

Ye s I l l tell he r
’
at once .

‘
And S oni a h as tily j u m p e d u p f rom he r s eat
”
.
’

“ ’
Wait that s not al l Py o t r Petrov itch detai ned he r smil e
, , ,
“
ing at her simpli city and igno r ance o f goo d m anner s and ,

yo u know me little my d ear S o i ya S e m yo n o v n a i f yo u s u p

, ,

po se I wou ld have v entu r ed to t rouble a p e rs on like you fo r

a matter o f s o l ittl e co ns equence affecting mysel f o nly I
”
.

h av e anothe r obj ect .

S oni a s a t down hu r ri edly H e r eye s r e sted again fo r an

.

instant o n the grey and r ai nbow colour ed notes th at re -

mained on th e tabl e but s h e qu i ckly l ooked away and fixed

,

h er eyes on Pyotr P etro v itch S he felt it ho r ribly indeco rou s

.
,
’
especi ally fo r h e r to lo ok at another p er son s money S he
,
.

stared at the go ld eyegl as s whi ch Pyot r P etrov itch held i n

hi s le ft hand and at th e m ass iv e and extr emely h and s o me
ri ng with a yell o w st o n e on hi s mi ddl e finger But sudd enl y .

s h e lo oked away and not knowing wh er e to tu rn ended by

, ,

staring Pyotr P et r o v itch again str aigh t i n th e face A fte r a .

p au se o f still greater d ignity he co ntinu ed .

“
I chanced yesterday i n pass ing to exchange a coupl e o f
words w ith K ateri na Iv anovna poo r woman That was s u ffi , .

ci ent to enabl e m e to ascertai n th at sh e i s i n a p o sition

preternatu ral i f o n e may s o expre ss i t
,
.

“
Yes pr eternatur al S oni a hu rri edly ass ented .

O r it would b e simpl e r and mor e c o mprehen sibl e t o s a y ,

”
Ye s s impl er and m or e c o mp rehensiv e
,
ye s i ll
,
.
3 80 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY

stance o f which I ought to war n you b e fo rehand and fo r

which I v entu re to trou b le you S o i ya S e m yo n o v n a to come , ,

he re I n my opinion money cannot b e indeed i t s unsa fe to

.
,
’

’
put i t into K ate rina Iv a n o v n a s own h ands The dinne r to .

day i s a p roo f o f that Though s h e h a s not so to speak a

.
, ,

cru st o f b read fo r to mo r row and -

well bo ots o r sho es , ,

o r anything ; she ha s bought to day J amai ca rum and ev en I -

, ,

b eliev e M adei ra and

,
and co ffe e I s a w i t a s I p a s sed .

th rough T o mo rrow i t w i ll all fal l upon you a g ain they

.
—
,
’
won t have a cru st o f b re ad I t s ab su rd r eally and s o to
’
.
, , ,

my thinking a sub scriptio n ought to b e rai sed so that th e

,

unhappy widow should not know o f th e money but only you

”
, ,

fo r instance Am I right ?
‘
.

’
I don t know thi s i s o nly to —day once i n he r l i fe ,

Sh e wa s So anxiou s to do honou r to celeb rat e the ,

memo ry And sh e i s v ery s ens ibl e

. but j u st a s you
think and I sh all be v e ry v ery
: they wi ll all b e
,
and
God wil l rewa rd and th e o rphan s
S oni a bur st i nto t ear s .

“
V e ry well then keep it i n mi nd ; and now w ill you accept
, ,

for the benefi t o f you r r el atio n the small s u m that I am able

t o spare f ro m m e pe rsonally I am v e ry anxiou s that m y
, .

name shou ld not be menti oned i n connect io n wi th it H er e .

having s o to speak anxi etie s o f my o w n I cannot do ,

mo re
And Pyotr Petrov itch held out to S oni a a ten roubl e note
care fully un folded S o ni a too k it flu sh ed cr imson j ump ed
.
, ,

up mutte red something and b egan taking l eav e Pyot r P etro

, .

v it c h accomp ani ed he r cer emoni ou sly to th e doo r S he got .

o u t o f th e room at l ast agitated and di str es sed and r eturned ,

to K ate rina Iv anovna ove rwhelmed w ith confu si on

, .

A ll thi s time L e b e z ia tn ik o v had sto od at th e w indow o r

walked a b ou t the room anxiou s not to i nte r rupt the c o n
,

ver sati on ; wh en S oni a had gone h e walked up to Pyotr

P etrovitch and s ol emnly h eld out h is h and
”
.

“
I he ard and s a w eve rythin g h e said l aying stre ss o n th e , ,
“
l ast v e rb That i s honou ra b le I mean to say it s hu mane !
.
, ,
’

You wanted to avo id gratitude I s a w ! And althou gh I c a n ,

not I con fess in p ri ncipl e symp athi s e with p riv ate char ity
, , ,

fo r it not only fai l s to e radicate th e ev i l but even promote s

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MENT 381

it yet I mu st admi t that I s a w yo u r action with pl easu re

”
,

y e s y,
e s I like it,
.

“
T hat s all no nsense muttered Pyot r Pet rov itch som e
’

, ,

what di sco ncerted looking ca re fully at L e b e z ia tn iko v

, .

“
N o it s not nonsen se ! A man w h o has su ffered d i stre ss
’

and annoyance as you d id ye ste rday and w h o yet can s ym

p a th is e w ith the mi s ery o f other s such a m an even ,

though h e i s making a so ci al mi stake— i s sti ll dese rving o f

respect ! I did not expect it indeed o f you Pyotr Petrov i tch , ,

e special ly a s acco rding to you r ideas o h what a draw ,

back you r ide as ar e to you ! H o w d i st ressed you ar e fo r

”
i nstance by you r ill luck yesterday cried the s imple h ea rted -
,

L e b e z ia tn ik o v w h o felt a r etu rn o f a ffectio n fo r Pyotr

,
“
P etrovitch And what do you want with mar ri age w ith
.
,

l eg a l marri age my dear nobl e Pyotr Petrov itch ? Why do

, ,

you cling to thi s l eg a l ity o f marriage ? Well you may beat ,

m e i f you like but I am glad p ositively glad it h asn t come

, ,
’

o ff that you a re fre e that yo u ar e not qui te lo st fo r h u

”
, ,

Y o u s e e I v e spoken my mi nd !
’
manity .
,
“ ’
B ecau se I don t want in you r fr e e m ar ri age to b e made a
-

foo l o f and to b ring up anothe r man s chi ldren that s why I ’ ’

”
,

w ant l egal marr iage Luzhin repli ed i n orde r to make some ,

answer .

H e seemed preo ccup i ed by s omethi ng .

“
C hildren ? Y o u re fer red to children L e b e z ia tn ik o v ,
“
s tarted o ff l ike a warho rs e at the trump et call C hildr en are .

a soci al qu estion and a que sti on o f fi rst impo rtance I a g ree ; ,

but th e que sti on o f chi ldren has anothe r solution S ome .

r e fuse to have chi ldren altogethe r becau se they sugge st the ,

’
institutio n o f the family We ll sp eak o f childr en l ater but .
,
’
now a s to th e qu e stion o f honou r I con fe ss that s my weak ,

poi nt That hor ri d mil itary Pu shki n expre ssi on i s u nthink

.
, ,

a b l e in th e di ctionary o f the futu re What do e s it me an .

i ndeed ? It s nonsense th ere wi ll b e no deceptio n i n a fre e

’

marriage ! That i s only th e natu ral consequence o f a l egal

mar ri a g e so to say its co rrectiv e a p rote st S o that i ndeed
, , ,
.

i t s not humi liating

’
and i f I ev er to suppos e an a h ,

su rdity w er e to b e l egally marr i ed I shou ld b e po sitiv ely

,
‘
glad o f i t I should say to my wi fe : M y dear hitherto I
,

.
,
’
h av e lov ed you now I re sp ect you fo r yo u v e shown you c a n
, ,
3 82 F YODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

Yo u l au gh ! That s becau se yo u a re incapabl e o f

’
p rote st
g etting away f rom p rej udi ces C on found it al l !
. I under
stand now where th e u npl easantne s s i s o f b eing d ecei v ed in a
’
l egal m arri age b ut it s s imply a de spi cabl e consequ ence o f a
,

de spi c a b l e position i n whi ch both ar e humili ated When th e .

d eception i s open as i n a f re e m ar ri age then i t doe s not

, ,
’
exi st i t s unthinkabl e You r w i fe wil l o n l y p rov e how sh e
,
.

r espects yo u b y conside ing you incap abl e o f oppo sing he r

r

happi nes s and av enging you r sel f o n h er fo r h e r new hu s

b and D amn it al l ! I som etime s d ream i f I we re to b e mar
.

’
ri ed p fo o ! I me an i f I we re to mar ry l egally o r not i t s
, , ,

j u st the s ame I should p re sent my wi fe with a lov e r i f sh e

,

h ad not found o n e fo r h ersel f ‘

M y dear I should s a y I
.
‘ ’
, ,

l ov e you but ev en mo re than th at I desi re y o u to re sp ect m e

”
.
,
’
S ee ! Am I no t r i ght ?

Pyotr Petrov itch sni ggered a s h e li stened but w itho ut ,

mu ch merriment H e hardly heard it i ndeed He wa s p r e

. .

o ccupi ed w ith something el se and ev en L e b e z ia tn iko v at l a st

noticed i t Pyot r P etrov itch seemed excited and r ubb ed h is
.

hands L e b e z ia tn ik o v rememb er ed al l thi s and reflected u pon

.

it a fterwards .
3 8 4‘ F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S K Y

Li sbon wine all o f th e poo r e st qu al ity but i n su ffi cient

,

qu antity B esides the tr aditional ri ce and ho ney ther e wer e

.
,

th ree o r fou r di shes o n e o f wh ich consi sted o f pancake s al l

, ,
’
p repa red i n Amali a Iv a n o v n a s kitchen Two samov ar s w ere .

b oiling that tea and punch mi ght b e o ffe red a fter d inne r
,
.

K ate rin a Iv anovna had h er sel f s een to purcha si ng the pro

v i sions with the h elp o f one o f the lodger s an un fo rtun ate
, ,

l ittle Pol e who had somehow b een str anded at M adame

L ipp e v e c h s e l s H e promptly put h imsel f at K aterina I v a
’
.

’
h ovna s di spo sal and had b een al l th at mo rning and all th e

day be fo r e running about as fast a s hi s l egs could car ry him ,

and v ery anxiou s that every o ne should b e awa re o f it F o r .

every t rifle h e ran to K ater ina Ivanovna even hunting he r ,

“ ”
o u t at th e b azaar at eve ry i nstant call ing he r P a ni
,
She .

was hearti ly s ick o f hi m b e fo r e th e end thou gh s h e h ad de ,

c l a r e d at fi rs t th at s h e could not h ave go t o n withou t thi s

“
se rvi ceabl e and m agnanimou s man ” It was one o f K aterina .

’
Iv a n o v n a s cha racte ri sti cs to p ai nt ev e ry o ne s h e met i n the
most g l owin g colou rs He r pr ai s e s w er e s o exagger ated as
.

sometime s to b e em b ar rassing ; s h e would i nv ent v a ri ou s

ci rcu mstance s to th e cr edit o f h er new acqu aintance and
qui te genu inely bel i ev e i n the i r r eality Then all o f a sudden .

s h e would b e d i si l lu sio ned and would rudely and c o n t e m p t u ~

o u s l y repul se the p e rson s h e h ad only a few hou r s b e fo re

b een liter ally ado ring S h e w a s n atu ral ly o f a gay l ively

.
,

and pe ace lovin g dispo siti on but from continu al fai lur es and
—
,

m i s fo rtu ne s s h e h ad come to de si re s o k e e n l y that all should

l iv e i n pe ace and j oy and sho uld no t d a r e to b reak th e p eace ,

that the sli ghtes t j ar th e sm allest di sa ster r educed h er almo st

,

to f renzy and sh e wo uld pass i n an i nst ant fr om th e b right

,

e st hope s and fanci es to cu r sing he r fate and rav ing and ,

knockin g he r h ead again st th e wall .

Amali a Iv anovn a too suddenly acqui red ext rao rdinary im

, ,

po rtance i n K ate ri na Iv a n o v n a s eye s and w a s tre ated by h e r ’

with extrao rdinary r espect p ro b ably only b ecau s e Amal i a ,

I vanovna h ad th rown h er sel f he art and sou l i nto the pr epara

tions S h e h ad u nde rtaken to l ay the table to p rov ide th e
.
,

l i nen cro cke ry & c and to cook the d ish es i n h e r kitchen

.
,
.
, ,

and K aterina Iv anovn a had l e ft i t all i n h e r h ands and g one

h ersel f to the cemete ry E v erything had b een w el l done .
.
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME NT 3 85

E v en the tablecloth was ne arly clean ; th e cro ckery knive s , ,

fo rks and glass e s were o f cou rs e o f all shape s and pattern s , , ,

lent b y di fferent lodger s but th e tabl e w a s properly laid at ,

th e time fixed and Amali a Iv anovna feeling she had do ne

, ,

her wo rk well had put o n a black si lk d res s and a cap w ith

,

n ew mourning r ib b o ns and met the r etu rning party with

some pride Thi s pride though j u sti fi abl e di spleased K ater ina
.
,
“
Ivanovna fo r some reason : a s though the tab le could not
h av e been l aid except by Amali a Iv anovna S he di sliked
“
th e c a p with new r i bb ons too C ould s h e b e stuck up the , .
,

stupid German b ecaus e s h e was m istres s o f the hou se and

, ,

had consented as a fav ou r to help her poo r lodge rs ! As a

’
favour ! F ancy that ! K aterina Iv a n o v n a s father who had
b een a colo nel and almo st a gov erno r had sometime s h ad th e
tabl e s e t fo r fo rty p ersons and then any o n e l ike Amali a
Ivanovna o r r athe r Lu d w igo v n a would not hav e been
”
, ,

allowed i nto the kitchen .

K aterina Ivanovna howeve r put o ff exp res sing her feel, ,

ings fo r th e time and contented hers el f with tre ating her

coldly though she decided i nwardly that she would certainly
,

hav e to put Amali a Iv anovna down and s et he r i n her prop e r

place for goodnes s only knew what s h e w as fancying hers el f
, .

K aterina Ivanovna w a s i rritated to o b y th e fact that h ardly

any o f the lodger s i nv ited had come to th e funeral except the ,

Po le w h o had j ust managed to run i nto the cemetery whi le ,

to the memo ri al dinner the poo rest and mo st insigni ficant o f

them had turned up the wretched cre atu res many o f them, ,

not quite sob er The o lder and mo r e r espe ctabl e o f them all
.
,

a s i f by commo n cons ent stayed away Pyotr P et rovitch ,

.

Luzhin fo r i nstance w h o might b e s aid to b e th e mo st r e

, ,

s p e c t a b l e o f all the lod g er s did not appear thou gh K aterina , ,

I v anovna had the evening b e fo re told all the wo rld that i s ,

Amali a Ivanovna Pol enka S oni a and th e Po le that he was

, , ,

th e mo st generous no b le he arted man with a l arge property

,
-

and v ast connections w h o had b een a fri end o f he r fi rst ,

’
hu sband s and a gue st in her fathe r s hou se and that h e had
’

, ,

promis ed to u se all hi s i nfluence to secur e her a co nside ra b l e

pens ion . It mu st b e noted that when K aterina Iv anovna
exalted any one s connections and fo rtune i t was w ithout
’

any u lteri o r motiv e quite di sinter e stedly fo r the me r e , ,

386 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

pleasu r e o f adding to the c o nsequence o f the per so n p rai sed

”
.

“
P robably taking hi s c u e from Lu zhin th at contemptibl e ,

w r etch L e b e z ia tn ik o v h ad not tu rned up e ither What did h e .

f ancy himsel f ? H e wa s o nly asked o u t o f kindne ss and b e

c au s e he w a s shar ing the s am e r o o m with Pyotr Petrov itch
a nd wa s a fr i end o f hi s s o that it wo uld h av e been awkward
”
,

no t to invite him .

Among tho s e who failed to appear w e re th e genteel l ady

”
and he r o l d maidi sh dau ghte r who h ad only b een lodger s in
-
,

the hou s e fo r the last fo rtnight b ut had s eve ral time s c o m ,

plai ned o f the no i s e and up ro ar i n K ateri na Iv a n o v n a s ro o m

’
,

e sp eci ally w hen M a rm e l a d o v had com e back drunk K ate ri na .

I vanovn a he ard thi s from Amal i a Iv anovn a who qua rrel ling ,

with K ate rin a I v anovna and th reatening to tu rn the whole

.
,
“
f ami ly out o f do or s had shouted at he r th at they wer e not
”
,

w o r th the fo o t o f the h o n o ur abl e l o dger s whom they we re

d i stu rb i ng K ate rina Iv anovna d ete rmi ned n o w t o inv it e
”
.

“
thi s lady and he r dau g hter who s e f o ot s h e w as not wo rth
, ,

and who h ad tu rned away h au ghti l y when s h e casu al l y met

them s o that they mi ght know that s h e was mo r e nobl e i n
,

he r thou ghts and feel ings and did not h arbou r mal i ce and ,

might s e e th at s h e was not accu sto med to her way o f liv ing .

S he had p ropo sed to m ake thi s cl ear t o them at dinne r w ith

’
allu si ons to her l ate fathe r s gov erno r ship and al so at th e ,

s ame time to hi nt that i t w a s exceedingly stupid o f them to

tu rn away o n meet ing h e r Th e fat col onel maj o r ( h e wa s
.
-

re ally a di scharged o ffice r o f low r ank ) w a s al so ab sent but

”
,
“
it appear ed that h e h ad been not h ims el f for th e last two
d ays The party co nsi sted o f the Pol e a w retch ed lo o king
.
,

clerk with a spotty fac e and a grea sy co at wh o h ad n o t a ,

wo rd to say fo r h imsel f and smelt ab o minably a d ea f and

, ,

almo st bl ind o ld man wh o had once been in the p o st o ffice and

who h ad b een f rom i mmem o ri al age s m ai ntained by some o ne
at Amal i a Iv a n o v n a s ’
.

A r eti r ed cl erk o f th e co mmi s sar i at department c ame t oo ; , ,

h e was drunk had a loud and most uns eemly l augh and only
,

fancy— wa s w ithout a wai stco at ! O n e o f the v i sitors s a t

straight down to th e table wi thout e ven greeting K aterina
Iv anovna F i nally o n e p er son h av ing n o su it appeared in hi s
.

d re ssing gown but thi s w as to o mu ch and the e ff o r t s o f

, ,
3 88 F YOD O R DO S TOEV SK Y

ha (
! C ough cough —cough
) And wh at do e s
-
sh e put o n that .

c a p fo r ? ( C ou gh cough cou gh ) H ave you -

noticed that she -
.

w ant s every o n e to con side r th at s h e i s p at roni sing m e a n d

do ing me an honou r b y be ing he r e ? I asked h e r l ike a s e n
s ibl e woman to i nvite peopl e e sp eci ally tho se who kne w my ,

l ate hu s b and and look at the s et o f fo o ls S he has b rought !

,

Th e sweeps ! Look at that one w ith the spotty face And .

tho s e w retched Pole s h a h a —h a ! ( C ough cough —cough

, ) - -

’
.

N o t one o f them has eve r poked hi s no se in he re I v e neve r ,

s e t eye s o n them What hav e they come here fo r I ask you ?

”
.
,

Ther e they sit i n a row H e y pa n ! she cri ed suddenly to .

,
“
o n e o f them hav e you tasted th e p ancake s ? T ake some
,

mo r e ! H av e so m e b eer ! Wo n t you h av e some v odka ? ’

’
Look he s j ump ed up and i s making hi s bow s they mu st b e
, ,

qu ite starv ed poo r things N ev e r mind l et them e at ! Th ey

, .
,
’
don t m ake a no i se anyway though I m r eal ly a f raid fo r ou r ’

”
, ,

l andlady s S i lv e r spoon s
’
Amal i a Iv anov na ! s h e a d
“
dres sed h e r suddenly almo s t aloud i f you r spo ons should , ,

happ en to b e sto len I wo n t b e r espo nsible I warn you ! H a

'

”
, ,

h a ha !
—
S he l aughed tu rning to Raskol nikov and agai n ,

no dding towards th e landlady i n hi gh gle e at h er s ally ,

.

“ ’ ’
S he didn t under stand s h e didn t understand again ! Lo ok ,

how s h e sits with he r mo uth open ! An owl a r eal owl ! An

”
,

owl i n new r ibb ons h a h a h a !

—
,
-

Her e h e r l augh t u rned agai n t o an insu ffer abl e fit o f

coughing that lasted fiv e minutes D r op s o f pe r spi r atio n .

stood out on he r fo rehe ad and h er h andke rchi e f w a s stained

wi th blo od S h e showed Raskolniko v th e b lo od i n si lence
.
,

and a s soon a s she could g e t her b reath be g an whi spe rin g

to him a g ai n w ith extreme animation and a h ecti c flu sh o n
he r cheek s .

“
D o you kno w I gav e he r the mo st del i cate inst ru ction s
, ,

so t o speak fo r inv iting that lady and he r d au ghter yo u

, ,

u nde rstand o f whom I am speaking ? It needed the utmo st

del icacy the greate st nicety b ut S h e h as managed things
, ,

so that that fool that conceited b a g gage th at pr ov inci al

, ,

nonentity simply b ecau s e she i s the wido w o f a maj o r and

, ,

h as come to t ry and g e t a pensi on and to fra y out her ski rt s

i n the g ov ernment o ffice s b ec au s e at fi fty sh e p ai nt s he r ,

f ac e ( ev erybody knows it ) a cr eatu r e l ike th at did

 C R IM E AND P U N IS H ME N T 89

not think fit to come and ha s n o t even an swered th e in ,

v it a t io n which th e mo st o rdinary good manne r s r equ i red !

,
’
I can t under stand why Pyotr Petrovi tch h as not come ?
’
But wher e s S oni a ? Wher e has s h e gone ? Ah there she ,

i s at l ast ! wh at i s it S oni a wher e h av e you been ? It s o dd

, ,
’

that even at you r father s fune ral you should b e so u n ’

punctual Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h m ake room fo r he r besid e

.
,
’
you . That s you r pl ace S oni a take wh at you like ,
.

H av e some o f the co ld entr e e w ith j elly that s the be st

'
’
.
,

They ll b ring the pancakes di rectly H av e they giv en th e

’
.

chi ldren some ? Po lenka h ave you got eve rything ? ,

( C ough cough cough ) That s all ri g ht B e a good gi rl

’
- -
. .
,

Lida and K o lya do n t fi d g e t with you r feet ; S it like a gentl e

’

”
,

man What ar e yo u s ay in g S oni a ?

.
,
’
S oni a h astened t o giv e her Pyot r P e tro v it c h s apolo gie s ,

t rying to speak lou d enough fo r ev ery o n e to hear and care

fully choo sing the mo st respectful phrase s which s h e a t t r i
buted to Pyot r Petrovitch S he added that Pyot r Petro .

v it c h had p articularly told he r to say that as soo n a s h e ,

po ssibly could h e would come immedi ately to di scu ss bu s i

,

n es s alone with her and to consider what could be done fo r

he r & c & c
, .
,
.

S oni a knew that thi s would com fo rt K aterina I v anovna ,

would flatte r he r and grati fy her pride S he s a t down .

b esid e Raskolnikov ; S he made him a hu r ried bow glancing ,

cu riou sly at him B ut fo r the re st o f the time sh e seemed

.

to avo id looking at h im o r speaking t o him She seemed .

absent mi nded though S h e kept looking at K aterina Iv a

-
,

n ovn a t rying to ple as e he r

, N eith er s h e nor K aterina .

Ivanovna had b een a b l e to get mou rning ; S oni a was wear

ing dark brown and K ate rina Ivanovna had o n he r only ,

dre ss a dark st riped cotton one

, .

Th e me ssa g e from Pyotr Pet rovitch w a s v ery success ful .

Li stenin g to S oni a w ith dignity K ate rina Ivanovn a ih ,

qu i red with equ al di gnity how Pyot r Petrov itch was then ,

at o nce whi spered almo st al oud to Raskolniko v th at i t ce r

t a in l y would have b een strange fo r a man o f Pyotr Petro
’ “
v it c h s po sitio n and standing to fi nd himsel f i n such ex
t r a o rd in a r y co mpany
” i n S pite o f hi s devotio n to he r family
,

and hi s old f ri end ship with her fathe r .

8 90 F Y ODO R D OS TOEV S KY

That s w h y I am s o grate ful t o y o u Rodion Ro m an o v it ch

’
, ,

that you hav e not di sdained my h o spitality ev en i n such

”
,
“
su rroundings s h e added almo st al oud
, But I am su re .

that it w a s only yo u r speci al a ffectio n fo r my p o o r hu sband

that ha s mad e you ke ep you r p romi se .

Then once mo re wi th pri de and di gnity S h e scanned h e r

v i sito rs and suddenly i nqu i r ed aloud acro s s the tabl e o f
,
“ ’
the dea f man : wouldn t h e hav e some mo re me at and h a d
”
,

he b een giv en som e wi ne ? Th e o ld man made no answer

and fo r a l ong whil e c o uld not u nderstand wh at h e w a s
a sked thou gh h i s n eighbou r s amu sed thems elv es b y poki ng
,

and shaki ng him H e S imply gaz ed abou t him with hi s

.

mo uth op en wh ich o nly i ncre ased th e gene ral mi rth

, .

“
What an imb eci l e ! Look lo ok ! Why w a s h e b ro ught ? ,

B ut as to Pyot r Petrov i tch I always had confidence i n him , ,

“
K ateri na Iv anovna conti nu ed and o f cou r se he i s no t , , ,

l ike with an extremely stern face s h e addr es sed

Amalia Iv anovna s o sharply and lo udly th at the l atte r w a s
“
quite di sco nce rted not l ike you r d res sed —u p d r a ggl e ta il s
w ho m my f athe r would not h av e t aken a s cooks i nto hi s
kitchen and my l ate hu sb and w ould h av e done them hono u r
”
,

i f he had i nv ited them i n the go odnes s o f hi s h eart .

“
Ye s h e w a s fond o f d ri nk h e w a s fond o f it h e did
”
, , ,

d r in k l cri ed th e commi s sar i at clerk gulp ing down h i s ,

tw el fth gla s s o f vo dka .

“
M y late hu s b and ce rtai nly h ad that weaknes s and ev e ry
”
,

o n e know s i t K ate r ina Iv anovna attacked hi m at o nce

, ,

“
but h e w as a ki nd and honou rabl e m an w h o lov ed and ,

re spected hi s family T h e wo r st o f i t was h i s go od natu r e

.

made h im t ru st all so rt s o f di sreputa b le peopl e and he ,

drank w ith fellow s w h o w e re not wo rth th e sol e o f hi s

sho e . Would you b eli ev e it Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h they , ,

found a ginger b read cock i n h i s po ck et ; h e w as dead drunk ,

”
b ut he did not fo rget the chi ldren !
? ”
A co c k ? D id you s ay a cock shouted th e commi s
sari at cl erk .

K aterin a Iv anovna di d not v o u chsa fe a reply She .

sighed lo st i n thou g ht
,
.

“
N o dou b t you think l ike ev e ry o ne th at I w a s to o
, ,
”
sev er e w i th h im sh e w ent o n addre ssing Ra skolnikov
, ,
.
3 99 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

S ho w n tho se that th ey we r e both

d r a g g l e t a il s To
make m atter s wo rse som e o n e pas sed S onia f rom th e othe r ,

end o f the ta b le a plat e wi th two he arts p i erced with an

,

ar row c u t out o f b lack b read K ater ina Iv anovna flu shed

,
.

c rimso n and at o nce sai d aloud acro ss the ta b le that the man
who s ent it w a s a d runken a s s ! ” “

Amali a Ivanovna was fo re se eing s omething ami s s and ,

at the same time deeply wounded by K aterina Iva n o v n a s ’

hau g htiness and to r e sto r e th e good humour o f the c o m

,
-

pany and r ai se he r s el f i n thei r e ste em S he b egan apropo s ,

o f nothing telling a sto ry a b out an acquai ntance o f her s

”
,

K arl from the C hemi st s

“
who w a s dr iv ing one night i n a
’

cab ,
and that the c a b man wanted him to ki ll and K ar l ,

ve ry much b egged him not to ki ll and w ept and cl aspe d ,

hand s and fri ghtened and f rom fear pi erced hi s h eart

,
.

Though K ate rina Iv anovn a smi l ed S h e ob serv ed at o nce th at ,

Amali a Iv anovna ought not to tell anecdotes i n Ru ssi an ;

th e l atter was still m o re o ffended and sh e r eto rted that he r ,
“
vate r au s B erl i n was a v ery i mpo rtant man and always
”
,

w ent with hi s hands i n pockets K aterin a I v anovna could .

not re str ain he r sel f and l aughed so much th at Am ali a Iv a

mo y na lo st pati ence and cou ld scarcely contro l h er sel f .

“ ”
Li sten to the o w l ! K aterin a Iv anovn a wh i sp er ed at
“
o nce he r g ood humou r almo st re sto r ed S h e m eant to s a y
,
—
,

he kept hi s hands i n hi s po ckets but S h e said h e put hi s ,

’
hand s i n peopl e s pocket s ( C ough cough ) And h av e you .
-
.

noticed Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h that al l thes e Pete r sbu r g

, ,

fo r eigner s the Germans e speci al ly ar e all stupide r than we !

‘
, ,

C a n yo u fancy any o n e o f u s telling how K ar l fro m the

C hemi st s pi erced hi s he art fro m f ea r and that the idio t
’ ’

‘
i nstead o f puni shing th e ca b m an cl a sped hi s hand s and ,

wept and much b egged

, Ah th e fool ! And you kno w .
’
,

S he fanci e s it s v ery t ouching and do e s n o t su sp ect ho w

’

stupid s h e i s ! To my thinki ng that dru nken commi ssar i at

cl erk i s a great de al clev ere r anyway one can s e e that he ,

h a s addled hi s b rains with drink b ut you know the se , ,

fo reigner s are always so w ell behav ed and s eri ou s .

Look how sh e sit s glar ing ! S he i s angry h a ha ! ( C ough ,

cough cough ) —
.

Regaining he r goo d humo ur K aterina Ivanovna began a t

-
,
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H M E NT 3

o nce t elling Raskolnikov that when s h e had obtained he r

pension S h e i ntended to open a s chool fo r the daughter s o f
,

gentlemen i n her nativ e town T Thi s was th e fi r st

tim e s h e had S poken to h im o f th e proj ect and S he l aunched ,

o ut into th e mo st allu ring detail s I t suddenly appeared .

that K ater ina Ivanovna had i n he r hands the v ery certifi cate
o f honou r o f which M a r m e l a d o v had spoken to Raskolnikov

i n th e tavern when he told hi m that K aterin a Ivanovna hi s

, ,

wi fe had danced the S hawl dance b e fo re th e g o ve rno r and

,

oth er gre at per sonages o n le av ing school T hi s certificate .

o f ho nou r wa s o b v iou sly i nt ended now to p rov e K aterina

’
Iv a n o v n a s r ight to open a boarding school ; but s h e had -

armed he rsel f with i t chi efly with the o b j ect o f ov erwhelm

“ ”
ing tho s e two stuck u p d ra ggl e t a il s i f they came to the
—

di nner and p rov ing incontesta b ly th at K aterina Iv anovna

,
“
w a s o f the mo st no b le s h e might ev en s a y ari stocrati c
,
’
family a colonel s dau ghte r and w a s far sup erio r to ce rtain
”
,

adventu re sse s w h o h ave b een S o much to the fo r e o f late .

The certificate o f honour immediately pas sed into the hands

o f the drunken gu ests and K ate rina Iv anovna did no t try
,

t o retain it fo r it actually contained th e statement e n t o u t e s

,

l e t tr es that he r fathe r wa s o f the rank o f a maj o r and

, ,

al so a comp anion o f an o rde r so that S he really w a s almo st ,

the daughter o f a co lonel .

Warming up K aterina I vanovna proceeded to enlarge o n

,

the peace fu l and h appy li fe they would lead i n T on

the gymnasium teacher s whom s h e would engage to give
les so ns i n her b oard ing school on a mo st re specta b l e o l d
-
,

F renchman o n e M angot w h o had tau ght K aterina Iva

, ,

n o v n a her sel f in o l d days and was still living i n T and

would no doubt te ach i n he r scho ol on mo derate terms .

N ext she spoke o f S oni a who wou ld go wi th her to T

and help he r i n al l her pl ans At thi s some one at th e .

fu rther end o f the tabl e gav e a sudden gu ffaw .

T hough K aterina Ivanovna tr ied to appear to b e di s ~

d a in fu ll y unawar e o f it she r ai sed he r voice and b egan at

,

o nce S peaking w ith conv ictio n o f S oni a s undou b ted a b ility ’

“
to assi st her o f her gentl eness patienc e devotion g ene r
”
, , ,

o s ity and good educatio n tapping So ni a on the cheek and

,

ki ssing he r warmly twi ce S oni a flushed crim son and

.
,
3 94 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

K ate rina I vanovna suddenly b u rst i nto tear s i mmedi ately ,

o b serv ing that she w a s ne rvou s and si lly that S h e was to o ,

m uch up set that it w a s ti me to fini sh and as th e dinne r

, ,

wa s ov er it wa s time to hand round the te a

,
.

At that mo ment Amali a Ivanovna deeply aggrieved at

, ,

taking no part i n th e conv e r sation and not being l i stened to , ,

made o ne l ast e ffort and with secret mi sgivings v entu red,

“
o n an exceedingly d eep and weighty ob s erv ation that i n ,

the futu r e bo arding s cho o l S he wou ld hav e to p ay p arti cul ar

-

attention to d ie s c h e and that there certainly mu st b e a ,

good d a rn e t o l o ok afte r th e l inen and s econdly that the

”
,

young l adie s mu st not nov el s at ni g ht r ead .

K ate rina Ivanovna w h o certai nly w a s up set and v e ry ,

ti red a s well a s h earti ly s ick o f the di nner at once c u t

, ,
“
sho rt Amali a Ivanovna saying s h e knew nothing about it ,

and w a s talking nonsense that it wa s th e bu si ne ss o f the ,

l aundry maid and not o f th e di r ectr e s s o f a hi gh —clas s

,

bo arding schoo l to loo k a fte r d ie Wcis c h e and as fo r nov el

’

-
,

reading that w a s S imply rudene s s and s h e b egged h er to b e

”
, ,

S ilent . Amali a Iv anovna fi red up and getting angry o b

“ “
s erved th at s h e only meant h e r go o d and that s h e h ad ,
“
m eant he r ve ry good and that it wa s lo ng si nc e s h e h ad
”
,

paid h er g o l d fo r th e l o dgings .

K ate rina Iv anovn a at o nc e s e t her down s aying that , , ,

it w a s a l i e to s a y s h e wi shed he r good b ecau se only yester ,

d ay when h er dead h u sband was lying o n th e ta b le S he had ,

wo rried h er a b out the lodgings To thi s Am ali a I vanovna .

v ery approp ri ately ob serv ed that S he had inv ited tho s e

“
l adi e s b ut tho se l adi e s had not come becau se those l adi e s
”
, ,

ar e ladi e s and cannot come to a l ady w h o i s not a lady .

K aterin a Iv anov na at o nce po inted ou t to h er that as s h e ,

wa s a slut S h e cou ld not j udge what m ad e o n e re al ly a lady .

“
Amal ia Iv anovna at o nce d ecl ared th at he r v ater au s
B erli n w a s a v ery v ery impo rtant man and both h ands i n
”
, ,

pockets went and always u sed to say : po o f ! poo f ! and s h e

,

l eapt up fro m the ta b l e to r epr esent her fathe r sti cking he r ,

hand s i n h e r po cket s puffing her cheeks and uttering v ague

”
, ,
“
sound s r esembling po o f ! poo f ! amid l oud lau ghter from
al l the lodger s wh o purp o sely encou raged Amali a Iv a
,
e

n o vn a hoping fo r a fight
, .
 C HAP T E R III

YO TR P E TR O V I T C H sh e cri ed p rotect me , ,

you at l east ! M ake thi s fo oli sh woman unde r

stand that s h e can t b eh av e l ike thi s to a lady i n m is
’

fo rtune that th ere i s a l aw fo r such thi ngs I ll .

’

go to the gove rno r general hims el f -

S h e shall answe r .

fo r it Remembe r ing my father s ho sp itality p rotect ’

”
.

these o rphan s .

“
Allow me ; madam Allow m e . Pyotr P etrov itch .

“
wav ed h er o ff You r pap a as yo u ar e well awar e I had
”
.

not th e honou r o f kno wing ( some one l aughed aloud )

“
and I do no t i ntend to take part i n you r ev erl asting
squ ab b l es with Amali a Iv anovna I hav e come her e .

to speak o f my own a ffai r s and I want to hav e a word

with you r stepdau ghte r S o fya I v anovna I think i t i s ?
, ,

Allow me to p ass .

Pyotr P etrovi tch edging by he r went to the opp o site

, ,

co rne r wh ere S oni a w a s .

K aterina Iv anovna r emai ned standing where s h e wa s a s ,

though thunde rstru ck S h e could not u nder stand how

.

Pyot r P etrov itch could deny hav ing e nj oyed he r fathe r s ’

hosp itality Though s h e h ad i nv ented i t hers el f s h e b e

.
,

l ie v e d i n i t fi rmly b y thi s t im e S he w a s struck too b y the .

bu sine s slike d ry and ev en co ntemptuou sly m enacing tone

,

o f Pyotr P etrov itch All the cl amou r gradu ally di ed away

.

“
at hi s entr ance N o t o nly w a s thi s s eri ou s bu sines s man
.

striki ngly i ncongruou s with the r est o f the p arty but it wa s ,

ev ident too th at h e had come upo n some m atte r o f cou se

, ,

qu e n c e that some exceptional cau s e mu st hav e b r ou ght him

,

and that ther e for e something w a s go ing to happen Ras .

k o l n ik o v standing b e si de S oni a moved asi de to l et hi m

, ,

pass ; Pyotr P etrov itch d id not se em t o noti ce him A .

minute late r L e b e z ia tn ik o v to o appeared i n th e doo rway ;

, ,

h e did not come in but stood still li stening with marked

, ,

intere st almo st wonder and seemed fo r a time p erplexed

, ,
.

3 96
 C R IM E AN D P U N IS H ME NT 3 97

E xcu se m e fo r possibly i nterrupting you but it s a mat ,

’

te r o f some impo rtance Pyotr P etrovitch o b serv ed a d

, ,
“
dres sing the c o mp any gene rally I a m glad indeed to fi nd .

other persons pr esent Amali a Ivanovna I hum b ly b eg

.
,

you a s mi stre ss o f the hou s e to pay c are ful attention to wh at

”
I have to s a y to S o fya Ivanovna S o fya Ivanovna he .
,

went o n addre ssing S oni a w h o wa s v e ry much surpr i sed

“
and al ready alarmed i mmedi ately a fte r you r vi sit I found
,

that a hundred rou b l e note w a s mi ssing from my tabl e i n

-
,

th e room o f my friend M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v I f in any w a y . .

whatev e r you know and wi ll tel l u S wher e it i s now I ,

as sur e you o n my wo rd o f honou r and cal l all present to

w itnes s that the matter shall end the re In the opposite .

cas e I sh all be compelled to h av e recou rs e to v ery ser iou s

m e a s r e s and then yo u mu st blame you rsel f
p
.

C omplet e si lence reigned i n the room E ven the crying .

childr en w er e still S oni a stoo d deadly pale staring at

.
,

Lu zhin and unabl e to say a wo rd S h e s eemed not to unde r .

stand S ome seconds pas sed

”
. .

“
Well how i s it to b e then ? asked Lu zhin lo oking in
, ,

t e n t l y at he r .

“ ’
I don t know I know nothing about it
. S oni a ,

articulated fai ntly at l ast .

“ ”
N o you know nothing ? Luzhin repeated and again h e
”
,

pau sed fo r some second s T hink a moment mademoi selle

.
, ,

h e b egan seve rely bu t still a s i t were admoni shing he r

, , ,
.

“
Reflect I am prepared to giv e you time fo r conside ration
,
.

K indly observ e thi s : i f I were no t s o enti rely convinced I

S hould not yo u may b e sure with my experi ence ventu re
, ,

to accu se you s o di rectly S eeing that fo r such di rect .

accu sation b e for e w itnes se s i f f al se o r even mi staken I , ,

should mysel f in a certain sense b e mad e respon si b l e I am .

awar e o f that Thi s mo rning I changed fo r my o w n pu r

.

po se s s everal fiv e pe r cent securiti e s fo r th e s u m o f a p .

p roximately three thou sand rou b les T h e account i s noted .

down i n my po cket b ook O n my retu rn home I proceeded

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.

to count the money —as M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v will b ear wit

, .

nes s— and a fte r counting two thou sand thre e hund red
rou b le s I put the re st i n my pocket b o ok i n my co at po cket -
.

About fiv e hundred rou b l es remained on the ta b l e and

3 98 F Y OD O R DO S TO EV S K Y

among them thre e note s o f a hundred r o uble s e ach At .

that moment you entered ( at my i nv itation ) — and all the

time yo u were p resent you w er e exceedingly embarrass ed ;
s o that thre e time s you j ump ed up i n the middle o f the

co nv e rsation and tri ed to m ake o ff M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v c a n . .

bear w itnes s to thi s You you r s el f mademo i sel le p roba b ly

.
, ,

wi l l not re fuse to confi rm my statement that I i nv ited yo u

through M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v sol ely i n o rder to di scu s s w ith
.
,

you the hopele s s and d estitute po sition o f you r r el ativ e ,

K aterina I vano vna ( who se dinner I w a s unable to attend ) ,

and the advi sa b i lity o f getting up something o f the natur e o f

a sub scripti on lottery o r the like fo r he r benefit
, You ,
.

thanked me and ev en S hed t ear s I descr i b e all thi s as it .

took pl ace p ri marily to re cal l i t to you r mind and s econdly

,

to S how you that no t th e sli ghte st detail h a s e scaped my

r eco ll ection Then I took a ten r oubl e n o te from the t abl e
.

and handed i t to y o u by way o f fi rst i nstalment on my par t

fo r the benefit o f yo ur r el ative M r L e b e z ia t n ik o v s a w all . .

thi s Then I accompani ed you to th e doo r —you b eing sti ll

.
,

i n the same state o f embarr as sment— a fter whi ch being ,

l e ft alo ne with M r L e b e z ia t n ik o v I talked to him fo r ten

.

minut e s — then M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v w ent o u t and I r eturned

, .

to the tabl e with the money lying on it i ntending to count ,

it and put i t asi de a s I pr opo sed doing b e for e ,

To my .

surpri se o n e hundred r ou b le note had d i s appeared K indly

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.

cons ide r the po sitio n M r L e b e z ia t n ik o v I cannot su sp ect

. . .

I am a sh amed to allude to su ch a suppo si tio n I cannot hav e .

m ade a mi stak e in my r eckoning fo r the minute be fo r e ,

you r entrance I had fi ni shed my account s and found th e

total cor rect Y o u wi ll admit that r eco llecting you r embar
.

ra s s m e n t you r eagernes s to get away and the f act that yo u

,

kept you r hand s fo r some t ime o n the table and taking i nto ,

consider ati on you r soci al po sitio n and the habit s associ ated
with it I w a s s o t o say w ith ho rr o r and po sitively again st
, , ,

my will c o m pell e d to entertai n a su spi ci on— a cruel but

, ,

j u stifia b le su spicion ! I will add fu rthe r and r epeat that i n

spite o f my po sitiv e conv ictio n I r eal is e that I run a c ertain ,

ri sk i n making thi s accu sati on but a s you see I could not , ,

l et i t pas s I hav e t aken action and I wi ll tell you why

.

so lely madam solely o wi ng t o you r black ingrat itude !

, , ,
4 00 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

hit him i n the eye and fel l o n th e ground Amali a Iv a .

no vna h astened to pi ck i t u p Pyotr Petr o v itch l o st hi s .

tempe r
”
.

“
H old that mad woman ! h e shouted .

At that moment s ev eral othe r p er s ons be side s Lebe ,

z ia t n ik o v appeared in th e d oo rway among the m the two ,

l adi es
”
.

“
What ! M ad ? Am I mad ? Idiot ! sh ri eked K ateri na
“
Ivanovna You ar e an idi ot you r sel f petti fogging l awye r
.
, ,

base man ! S o nia S oni a t ake hi s m oney ! S oni a a thi e f !

”
,

Why she d giv e away he r la st penny ! and K ater ina Iv a

,
’

“
n o v n a brok e i nt o hysteri cal laughte r D id you ev er se e
”
.

“
such an idi ot ? s h e tu rn ed from si de to side And you
”
.

“
too ? s h e suddenly saw the l andl ady and you t o o s au sage , ,

eater yo u decl ar e that s h e i s a thi e f you t rashy Pru ss i an

, ,
’
h en s l eg in a c rinol ine ! S he hasn t b een o u t o f thi s r oom : ’

s h e cam e str aight from yo u you w retch and sat down , ,

beside m e e ve ry one s a w he r , S he s at he r e by Ro dion .

,

Ro m a n o v it c h S earch h er ! S i nce S h e s not l e ft the room

.
’

th e money would hav e to b e on he r ! S ear ch he r s earch ,

’
h er ! But i f you don t fi nd it then excu se m e my dear , ,
’ ’
fellow you ll answe r fo r it ! I l l go to o u r S over ei gn to ou r
, ,

S ov ereign to ou r gr aci ou s Tsar h i msel f and thr ow mys el f

, ,

at hi s fe et t o day thi s mi nute ! I m alone i n the wo rld !

,
-
,
’

T hey wou ld l et m e in ! D o you think they wo uldn t ? ’

’
You r e wrong I w ill get i n ! I will get i n ! Y o u reckoned
,

o n her meekne ss ! You r eli ed upon that ! B ut I am not s o

’
submi s siv e l et m e t ell you ! You r e gone too fa r you r sel f !
”
,

S earch he r s earch h er ! ,

And K at erin a Iv anovna in a f renzy shook Lu zh in and

d ragge d h im toward s S oni a .

“
I am re ady I l l b e r esponsible b ut calm you rsel f
’

, ,

madam cal m you rs el f I see th at yo u a re not s o su b mi ss iv e !

,
.

“
Well well but a s to that
,
Lu zh in mutte red that
, ,

ought to b e be fo re th e poli ce though i ndeed th er e are

w itnes ses enou g h a s i t i s I am ready B ut i n any . .

case it s di ffi cu lt fo r a m an
’
o n account o f her s e x .

But w ith the h elp o f Amal i a Ivan o vn a though o f ,

H o w i s it to b e
’
cou rs e it s n o t th e w ay t o do things
”
, .

done ?
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 402

!
”
As you will ! Let any on e w h o l ikes s earch he r cri ed
K aterina I v anovna S oni a tu rn out you r po ckets ! S ee !
, ,

Look monste r th e pocket i s empty he re w a s her h a n d k e r

, , ,

chi e f ! H e r e i s the other pocket look ! D yo u s e e d yo u

’ ’

, ,

see ?

And K ate rina Iv anovna tu rned o r rath e r snatched— b oth -

po ckets inside o u t B ut from the right pocket a p i ec e o f

.

p ape r flew o u t describing a p arab ol a i n th e ai r fel l at

L u z h in s feet
’
E very on e s a w it s eve ral cried o u t Pyotr
.
, .

Petrovitch stooped down p i cked up the p ape r in two fi ngers , ,

l i fted i t whe re al l could s e e it and opened it It w as a .

hundr ed roubl e not folded in ei g ht Pyotr P etrovitch h eld

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.

up th e note showing it to every one

”
.

“
Thie f ! O u t o f my lodging Pol ice p ol ice ! yelled
”
.
,

Am al i a Ivanovna T hey mu st to S i b er i a b e sent ! Away !

.

E xclamation s aro s e on al l s ide s Raskolnikov w a s sil ent .

,

keeping his eyes fixed on S oni a except fo r an o ccas ional ,

rapid glance at Lu zhin Sonia stood still as though u n c o n .

,

s cious Sh e w a s hardly a b l e to feel su rpri se Suddenly the

. .

colou r ru shed to her cheeks ; s h e u ttered a cry and hid h e r

fac e in he r hands .

“
N o it w asn t I ! I didn t tak e it ! I know nothing ab out
’ ’

it
,
sh e cri ed with a heartrendin g w ai l and she ran to ,

K aterin a I vanovna w h o cl asped her tightly in her arms as

, ,

though s h e would shelte r he r from all the wo rld .

“
S oni a ! S oni a ! I don t b el i ev e i t ! You s e e I don t ’ ’

”
,

beli eve it ! S h e cri ed i n the face o f the obv iou s fact swaying ,

h er to and fro in her arms like a b a b y ki ssing her face c o n ,

t in u a l l y then snatching at h er hands and ki ssing them too

, , ,
“
yo u took it ! H o w stupid these p eopl e are ! O h dear ! You
”
are fool s foo ls she cried addre ssing th e whol e room you “
, , , ,
’
don t know you don t kno w what a heart sh e has what a
,
’

gi rl s h e i s ! Sh e tak e it s h e ? S he d sell h er l ast r a g S he d ,

’
,
’

go b are foot to help you i f you needed it that s what s h e ,

’

i s ! S he h as th e yellow p asspo rt b ecau se my children we re

starving S h e sol d h ersel f fo r u s ! Ah hu sb and hus b and !
, , ,

D o you see ? D o yo u s e e ? What a memo rial dinn er fo r

you ! M erci ful heaven s ! D e fend he r w h y are yo u al l stand ,

ing stil l ? Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch why don t yo u stand u p fo r ,

’

h er ? D o you b eli ev e it too ? Y o u ar e not wo rth h er l ittle ,

4 02 F YODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

finge r all o f yo u together ! Good God ! D e fend h e r n o w ,

”
,

at l east !

T h e wail o f the poo r consumptiv e h elples s woman s eemed, ,

t o p roduce a gre at e ffect on h e r au dience Th e agoni sed .

,

wa sted consumptive face th e pa rch ed b lo od stained l ips

, ,
-
,
’
the ho arse vo i ce the t ear s u nrest rained as a chi ld s the
, ,

t ru st ful childi sh and yet desp ai ring p r aye r fo r help w er e s o

,

pit eou s that ev ery o n e s eemed to feel fo r he r Pyot r Petro .

v it c h at any r ate w as at once mov ed to c o m pa s s io n

”
.

“
M adam madam thi s incid ent do es not r eflect u pon you !
, ,
“
he c ri ed imp res s iv ely no o ne wou ld tak e upon hi ms el f to
,

accu s e you o f b eing an instigato r o r ev en an accompl ice i n

it especi ally as you h av e p rov ed h er gu ilt by tu rning o u t h er
,

po ck ets showing that you had no p r ev iou s idea o f it I am

,
.

m ost r eady mo st re ady to S how comp as sion i f p ov e rty s o

, , ,

to speak d rov e S o fya S e m yo n o v n a to it but w h y did you ,

r e fu se t o con fess m ademo is ell e ? Wer e you a fraid o f the

,

di sgrace ? Th e fi rst step ? Y o u l ost you r h ead p erhap s ? ,

O n e can qu ite u nderstand it B u t h o w could you h av e .

lowered you rsel f to su ch an action ? Gentlemen he a d ,

d ressed the whol e comp any gentl emen ! C omp assi onating ,

and so to s a y commi s e rating thes e p eop le I am r eady to ov er ,

l o ok it ev en now i n sp it e o f th e p ersonal in sult l av i shed

upon m e ! And may thi s di sgrace b e a l esson t o you for th e
”
futu r e he s aid addres s ing S oni a and I w il l carry th e mat
, ,
”
,

ter no fu rth er E nou gh ! .

Pyotr Petr ov itch stol e a gl ance at Raskolnikov Thei r .

eyes met and th e fi re in Ra sk o l n ik o v s s eemed r eady to

,
’

redu ce h im to ashes M e anwhi le K aterina I vanovna a p

.

p a re n t ly h eard nothing S h e wa s kis s i n g and hugging S onia

.

lik e a m adwoman The chi ldr en too w e re emb r acing S oni a

.
, ,

o n all s ides and Pol enka — though s h e did n o t fu l ly u nde r

, ,

stand wh at w a s w rong — w a s d rowned i n t ears and sh aking ,

with sob s as s h e hid her p retty l ittl e face swol len with w eep
,

ing o n S oni a s shoulder

,
’
.

“ ”
H o w v il e ! a l ou d vo i ce cri ed suddenly in the doo rway .

P y otr Pet rov itch look ed round qu ickly .

“
What v il eness L e b z ia t n ik o v repeated star ing h im ,

strai g ht in the face .

Pyotr Petrovitch g ave a po sitiv e start— al l noticed i t

!
4 04 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

Lu zhin tu rned p al e .

“ ”
What l i es ! he cri ed i mpudently why h o w c ou l d yo u , , ,

standin g b y the windo w s e e th e note ! You fancied it w ith

,

you r sho rtsighted eye s You are rav ing ! .

“
N o I didn t fancy it
,
’
And though I was standing s om e
.

w a y o ff I s a w it all
,
And though it ce rtainly w o u ld b e hard
.

’
to di stingui sh a not e fro m the w indow — th at s tru e— I knew ,

fo r certai n that it w a s a hundred ro ubl e note becau se when -

, ,

you were go ing to giv e S o fya S e m yo n o v n a ten rouble s y o u ,

took u p from the tabl e a hund red —roubl e not e ( I s aw it /

b ecau se I w a s standing near then and an i de a stru ck m e at ,

once s o that I did no t fo rget you had i t in you r hand ) You

, .

folded it and kept it i n you r hand all the time I didn t th ink .
’

o f it again u ntil when yo u wer e getting u p you ch anged it

, ,

from you r right hand to you r le ft and near ly dropped it ! I

noticed it b ecau s e th e s am e idea stru ck me again that y o u ,

meant to do he r a kindnes s w ithout my seeing You can .

fancy how I watch ed you and I s a w how you su cceed ed i n

sl ipping i t into he r p ocket I s a w it I s a w i t I ll take m y .
, ,
’

”
o ath .

L e b e z ia t n iko v was almo st breathl e s s E xcl amations aro se .

o n all hands chi efly exp res siv e o f wo nde r but some w er e
, ,

menacing in ton e Th ey all crowded round Pyo tr Petrovitch

. .

K aterin a I v anovna flew to L e b e z ia tn ik o v .

“
I wa s mi stake n i n yo u ! Protect her ! Yo u a re th e
only o n e to take her part ! S he i s an o rphan God has sent ,

you
K aterina I vanovna h ardly knowing what sh e was doing
, ,

sank o n her knee s b e fo re him

”
.

“ “ ’
A pack o f nonsense ! yel led Lu zh in rou sed to fu ry it s
‘
all nonsen se y o u v e b een talking ! An ide a stru ck you you
’
, ,

didn t think you noticed — what do es it amount to ? S o I

’

,
’

gav e it to h e r o n th e s l y o n pu rpose ? Wh at fo r ? With

what o b j ect ? Wh at h av e I to do w ith thi s .

“
What for ? T hat s wh at I can t u nderstand bu t that
’ ’

what I am tell ing you is the fact th at s certain ! S o fa r from ,

’

my b eing mi staken you in famou s criminal man I r ememb er

, , ,

how o n account o f it a qu estion occu rred to me at o nce j u st

, , ,

when I was thanki ng you and p ressin g you r h and What .

m ade you put it s ecretly in h e r po cket ? Why you did i t

 C R IM E A ND P UN I S H MEN T 405

s ecretly I mean ? C ould it b e simply to conceal it from me

, ,

knowing that my convi ctions ar e oppo sed to you r s and that

I do not app rov e o f p riv ate b enevo lence wh ich e ffect s no ,

radi cal cu re Well I d ecided that you r eal ly wer e ashamed

.
,

o f giving su ch a larg e su m b e fo r e m e P erhap s too I .

, ,

thought he wants to give her a su rpr i se when sh e finds a

, ,

whol e hundr ed roub le not e i n h e r po cket ( F o r I know some

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.
,

b enevol ent p eopl e ar e v ery fond o f decking o ut thei r chari

t a b l e actions in th at w ay ) Then the idea struck m e too .
, ,

that you w anted to t est he r to s ee whethe r wh en s h e found , ,

i t s h e wou ld come t o thank you Then too that you wanted

, .
, ,

t o avo id thanks and that as th e s aying i s you r r ight hand , ,

should not know something o f that s ort i n fact I , .

thought o f s o many po ssibi litie s that I put o ff considering it ,

but sti ll thought it indeli cate t o s how yo u I knew you r

s ecret Bu t anothe r ide a struck me again that S o fya S e m yo
.

n o v n a might easi ly lo s e th e money b e fo re s h e noti ced it that ,

w a s w h y I decided to com e in here to cal l he r out o f th e

room and to t ell her that you put a hundred roub l es i n he r

p ocket B ut o n my w ay I went fi rst to M adame K o b il a t n i
‘
.

ko y s to tak e them the General T reatise o n the Po sitiv e

’

M ethod and esp eci ally t o recommend Pider it s articl e ( and

’ ’

’
al so Wagner s ) ; then I come o n h ere and what a state o f
things I find ! N o w cou ld I cou ld I hav e all these ideas and , ,

r eflections i f I h ad not s een you put the hundred rou b le -

”
,

note in he r pocket ?

When L e b e z ia tn iko v fi ni shed hi s l ong —winded harangue

w ith th e logical dedu ction at the end h e was qu ite ti red and , ,

the pe rspi ration st reamed from hi s face He could not al as .

, ,

ev en exp ress h imsel f co rrectly in Ru s si an though he knew ,

n o other l angu age s o that he was qu it e exh au sted almo st

, ,

emaciated a fte r thi s he roi c exploit But h i s S peech p ro .

d u c e d a power ful e ffect H e h ad S poken w ith su ch v e h e

.

mence w ith such convi ctio n that ev e ry one obv iou sly b e
,

l ie v e d him Pyotr Petrovitch felt that things we r e go ing

.

b adly w ith him .

What i s it to do with me i f silly ideas did o ccu r to you ? ’

h e shouted that s n o ev idence You m ay h ave d reamt it

,
’
.
,

that s all ! And I tell you you are lying s ir You a re lyin g
’

, , .

and slander ing from some spite against me s imply fro m ,

406 F Y ODO R DO S T O EV S K Y

piqu e b ecau s e I did not agree with you r freethinking godl ess ,
”
, ,

s oci al propositions !
B ut thi s reto rt d id not b enefit Pyot r P etrov itch M u rmu r s .

o f di sapprov al we r e heard on al l sides

”
.

“
Ah that s you r l i ne n o w i s it ! cri ed Leb e z ia tn iko v
,
’
, ,

that s nons ens e ! C all th e pol i ce and I ll tak e my o ath !

’ ’

There s only o n e thing I can t u nd erst and : what m ad e h im

’ ’

ri sk su ch a contemptibl e actio n O h piti fu l despi cabl e man ! .

”
, ,
“
I c a n expl ain w h y h e ri sked su ch an action and i f n e ce s
”
,

sary I t o o wil l swea r to it Raskolnikov s aid at l ast in a

, , , ,

fi rm vo ice and h e stepp ed fo r w a rd

,
.

H e app eared to b e fi rm and comp o sed E v ery o n e f elt .

clea rly from th e v e ry look o f hi m that h e r eal ly knew abou t

i t and that th e myste ry wou ld b e solv ed .

“
N o w I c a n expl ain it all t o mysel f said R askolnikov , ,
“
addressing L e b e z ia t n ik o v F ro m th e v e ry b eginning o f th e
.

bu siness I su sp ected th at the r e wa s s om e s cou ndrelly in

,

t rigu e at th e bottom o f it I b egan to su spe ct it from som e

.

sp eci al ci rcum stances known to me o nly whi ch I w ill expl ain ,

at once to every o n e : they account fo r ev e rything You r .

valu abl e evi dence has fi nally m ade ev erything cl ear to m e I .

b eg all all to li sten Th i s gentl em an ( he p oi nt ed to Lu zhin )

, .

w a s r ecently engaged to b e mar ried to a young l ady— m y

si ste r A v d o tya Ro m an o v n a Rasko lniko v
, B ut coming to .

Petersbu rg h e qu ar rell ed with m e the day b e fo r e yesterday , ,

at o u r fi r st meeting and I d rov e him o u t o f my ro om— I

h av e two witnes ses t o p r ov e it H e i s a v e ry spite fu l m an . .

Th e d ay b e fo r e yeste rday I did not know th at h e w a s

staying h ere i n you r ro om and th at consequ ently on the
, ,

very d ay w e qu ar rel l e d — th e day b e fo r e yesterday— h e s a w

m e give K at erina I vanovna som e mon ey fo r th e fu ner al as ,

a fri end o f th e late M r M a rm e l a d o v H e at o nc e w ro t e a

. .

note to my moth er and in fo rmed h e r that I h ad given away

al l my money not to K ate ri na I van o vna b u t to S o fya
, ,

S e m yo n o v n a and r e fe rr ed in a mo st contemptibl e way to

,

the ch aracte r o f S o i ya S e m yo n o v n a that is hint ed at , ,

th e characte r o f my attitu de to S o fya S e m yo n o v n a All t hi s .

you understand wa s w ith th e o b j ect o f div iding m e f rom my

mother and si ster b y insinu ating that I w a s squ andering o n
,

unwo rthy o b j e ct s th e mo ney w hich th ey had sent m e and

408 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

Lu zhi n smi led contemptu ou sly and did no t speak Bu t h e .

w a s ve ry pal e H e s eemed to b e d el iber ating o n some means

.

o f e scap e Pe rhap s h e wou ld h av e been gl ad to giv e u p

.

e ve rything and get away but at th e m oment thi s was ,

s ca rcely pos si b l e I t wou ld h av e impl i ed admi t ting th e truth

.

o f the accu satio ns b rought against h im M o reove r th e c o m .

p any wh ich had al re ady b een excited by dr ink wa s n o w too

, ,

mu ch sti r red t o al low it Th e commi ssari at cl erk th o ugh .

,

indeed h e had n o t g rasp ed th e whol e p o sition w a s shout ing ,

l oude r than any one and was m aking some suggestions v ery
u npleasant to Lu zhi n B ut not all tho s e p re sent w e re .

d ru nk ; l odge r s cam e i n fro m all the rooms The thr e e .

Pole s we re t remendou sly excited and w ere conti nu ally shout

“ ”
i ng at him : The pa n i s a l aj d a k ! and mutte ring thre at s
i n Pol i sh .

S oni a h ad b een l i stening w ith strained attention thou gh ,

she t o o seemed u na b l e to grasp it all ; s h e seemed as though

S he had j u st r etu rn ed to co nsciou sne s s S he did not take h e r .

eye s o ff Raskol nikov fe el ing that all he r s a fety l ay i n him ,

.

K ater in a I v anovn a b re athed h ard and p ain ful ly and s eemed

fear ful ly exhau sted Amal i a Iv anovn a sto o d lo oking mo r e
.

stup id than any o n e w ith h er m outh wide O pen u nabl e t o , ,

m ak e o u t wh at h ad h app ened S he o nly s a w that Pyot r .

Petrovitch had somehow co m e t o gri e f .

Raskolnikov w a s attempting to speak again but they d id ,

n ot l et him E v e ry one was crowding rou nd Lu zhin w ith

.

threat s and S houts o f abu se B ut Pyotr Petrov itch was n o t .

intimid ated S eeing that hi s accu sati on o f S oni a had com

.

p l e t e l y fail ed he h ad r ecou rs e to insolence :

,
“
Allow m e gentl emen allow m e ! D on t squ eeze l et m e ’

”
, , ,
“
p as s ! h e said m akin g h is w a y through the crowd
,
And .

no thre ats i f you pl eas e ! I as su re you it will b e u sel e ss yo u ,

w ill gai n noth ing by i t O n the cont rary you ll h av e t o .

,
’

answe r gentl em en fo r v iol ently o b st ru cting th e cou rs e o f

, ,

j u stice . The th i e f has b e en mo r e than u nmask ed and I ,

shall pro secu te O u r j udge s are no t so bl ind and

. no t
s o drunk and wi ll not b el i ev e th e testimony o f two noto ri ou s
,

in fi d e l s agitators and athei sts w h o accu s e me from motives

, ,

o f personal reven g e which they a re fooli sh enough to adm it .

Yes al low m e to p as s !
,
 C R IM E A ND P UN I S H MENT 4 09

D o n t let m e fi nd a trace o f you in my room ! K indly

’

l eav e at once and eve rything i s at an end b etween u s ! When

,

I think o f the troubl e I ve b een t aking the w a y I v e been

’ ’

,
”
expounding all thi s fo rtnight !
“
I told you mysel f to day th at I w as go ing when you t ried
-
,

to keep me ; now I wil l simply add that you ar e a fool I .

adv is e yo u to s e e a docto r for you r b rains and you r short

sight Let m e p ass gentl emen !
.
,

H e fo rced hi s way through But th e commi ssari at cl erk

.

w a s u nwilling to l et h im o ff so easily : h e picked up a

glas s fro m th e tabl e b randi shed it i n th e ai r and flun g it
,

at Pyot r P etrovi tch ; but the glass flew strai ght at Amal i a
Ivanovna .

S he sc reamed and the cle rk ov erb alancing fell heav ily

, , ,

u nde r the ta b le Pyotr Petrov itch made h is way to h i s

.

room and hal f an hou r later h ad l e ft the hou s e S on i a timid .

,

by natu re had felt b e for e that day that s h e could b e il l

,

t reated mo r e easily than any o n e and that S h e could b e ,

w ron g ed w ith i mpunity Yet till that mo ment s h e had

.

fanci ed that she might escap e mi s fo rtune by care gentl eness ,

and submi ssiveness be fo re ev ery o n e H e r dis appo intment .

w a s too great S he cou ld o f cou r se b ear with p ati ence and

.
, ,

almost withou t mu rmu r anything ev en thi s B ut fo r the , .

fi rst m inute s h e felt it too b itter I n S p ite o f he r t riumph .

and he r j u st ifi c a t io n— when he r fi rst ter ro r and stupe faction

had passed and sh e could u nde rstand it all cl early— th e feel
ing o f he r helpl essnes s and o f the w rong don e to he r made
he r heart throb with angu i sh and s h e was ove rcom e with
hysteri cal weeping At last unabl e to b ear any mo r e s h e
.
, ,

ru shed out o f the room and r an home almo st immediately ,

a ft er Lu z hin s d epartu r e When amidst lou d l aughter th e

’
.

gl ass fl ew at Amali a Ivanovna it was mo re than the l and ,

l ady could endu re With a sh riek s h e ru shed l ik e a fu ry at

.

K ate rina Iv anovna cons idering he r to blame fo r ev erything

,
”
.

“
O u t o f my lodgings ! At once ! Qu i ck m arch !
And with these wo rds sh e b egan snatching u p eve rything
s h e could l ay h er hands o n that b elonged to K ate rina Iv a

n o vna and throwing it on the floo r K aterin a I v anovna

, .
,

p al e almo st fainting and gasping fo r b reath j u mped up f rom

, , ,

the bed where s h e h ad su nk in exhau stion and darted at

4 10 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY

Am al i a I vanovna B ut th e b attl e was to o u nequ al : t h e l and

.

l ady w av ed her away l ike a feathe r .

“
What ! A s though th at godless calumny w a s not enough
_
thi s v il e creatu r e attacks me ! What ! O n th e day o f my
hu sband s funeral I am tu rned o u t o f my lodging ! A fte r
’

eating my b read and S alt sh e tu rn s m e i nto th e st reet w ith

”
,

my o rph ans ! Wher e am I to go ? wail ed the poo r w oman ,

“
so bb ing and gasping Go od God s h e cried w ith fl ashing
.

“
eyes i s th er e no j u stice upon e arth ? Whom shou l d yo u
,

p rotect i f not u s o rphan s ? We shall s ee ! Ther e i s l aw and

j u stice o n earth ther e is I w i ll find it ! Wait a bit godl es s
, , ,

‘
creatu re ! Po l enk a stay with the chi ld ren I l l come b ack
, ,
’
.

N ait fo r me i f you hav e to w ait in the str eet We wil l see .

”
,

wheth er ther e i s j u sti ce on earth !

And throwing ove r h er head that gre en shawl which
M a r m e l a d o v h ad mentioned to Raskolnikov K ate rin a I va ,

n o v n a squ eez ed her way th rough th e di so rderly and drunken

crowd o f lodgers who s till fill ed the room and w ai ling and , ,

t ear ful s h e r an into the str eet— with a v agu e i ntention o f

,

go ing at once somewhere to find j u stice Polenka w ith th e .

two littl e ones i n her arm s crou ched te rrifi ed o n th e t runk , ,

i n the co rner o f th e room wh er e s h e w aited t remb ling fo r

,

her mothe r to co m e b ack Amal i a I v anovn a raged a b ou t th e

.

room shri eking l am enting and throw ing ev eryth ing s h e

, ,

came acro ss o n the flo or Th e lodger s talked incoh erently .

,

som e commented to th e b est o f thei r ab ility o n what had

happened othe rs qu arrelled and swo r e at o ne anothe r whi le
, ,

other s stru ck u p a song .

’
N o w it s time fo r m e to go thought Raskolniko v Well
”
, .
,

S o fya S e m yo n o v n a w e shal l s e e what you l l s a y now !

’

And h e s e t o ff in th e di recti on o f S oni a s l odgings ’

.
4 12 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

Well S oni a ” h e s aid

and felt that h i s vo ic e w a s
?

t rem b l in g “
,
‘
it w a s all du e t o your soci al po sitio n and
,

,
’
the ha b its associated with it D id you u nder stand that j u st
”
.

now ?

H e r face showed he r di stre s s .

“
O nly don t talk to m e a s you di d yes t erday
’
she i nte r ,
’
r u p t e d him Ple ase don t begi n it There is mi sery e nough
. .

w ithout that .

Sh e made haste to smil e a frai d that h e m i ght not like the ,

r ep roach .

I was si lly to com e away from the r e Wha t i s happeni ng .

ther e now ? I wanted to go back d ire c tl v b ut I kept thinking

that you woul d com e ” .

H e told he r that Amali a I vanovna w as tur ni ng them o u t

o f thei r l odging and that K ater ina I vano vna h ad run o ff
“
somewher e to s eek j u sti ce
”
.

" “ ’
M y God ! cri ed S oni a let s go at o nce ,

And s h e snatched up her cap e

”
.

“
It s e verlastingly the sam e thing ! cri ed Raskolniko v
’

,
“
i rri tab ly You ve no thought except fo r them ! S tay a
’

”
.

littl e with m e .

“
B ut K ate rina I van o vna ?
You won t l o s e K at eri na Ivano vna you m ay b e su re
’

”
, ,
'

she ll com e to you he rsel f s ince she ru n o u t he added ,

“
peevi shly I f s h e doe sn t fi nd you her e you ll b e b l am ed
.
’
,
’

fo r it .

S oni a s a t do wn i n pai nfu l su spense Raskolniko v w a s .

silent gaz ing at the flo o r and delib erating

,
.

“
Thi s time Lu zhin d id not want to pro secute you h e ,
“
b egan not looking at So ni a but i f he had wanted to i f it h ad
, , ,

suited hi s plans he would hav e s ent you to p ri son i f it had

,

not b e en fo r L e b e z ia tn ik o v and m e Ah ?
”
.

“
Yes s h e assent ed i n a f aint vo i ce
,
Ye s she repea t ed .
, ,

p reoccupi ed and di str essed .

‘
B ut I mi ght easily not have b een the re And it was quit e
”
.

’
an accide nt L e b e z ia tn ik o v s turning up .

S oni a was s il ent .

“
And i f you d gone to p ri so n what then ? D o y o u r e
’

”
,

m em b e r w h at I s aid ye sterday ?

Again s h e di d not answe r H e waited . .

 C R IM E AND P UNI S H MENT 4 13

‘
I thought yo u would c ry out again don t speak it leav e ’
o f ,

o ff
’
Raskolnikov gav e a l augh b ut rather a forced o n e .

”
.
,
“ “
What sil ence again
,
? he asked a m i nute l ate r We mu st .

talk about something you know It would b e i nteresting fo r

‘
.
,

m e to know how you wou ld decide a certain pro b lem as ’

”
L e b e z ia t n ik o v would s a y
“
( H e w a s b eginning to lo s e the
.

thread ) . N o real ly I am s er iou s

, ,
Imagine S oni a that .
, ,

you had known all Lu z hin s intentio ns b e for ehand K nown ’

.
,

that i s fo r a fact that they wou ld b e the rui n o f K ater i na

, ,

Ivanovna and the chi ldren and you rsel f thrown in — since
’
you don t count y o u rsel f fo r anything— Pol enka too fo r
’
she ll go the sam e w a y Well i f suddenly it all depended on
.
,

you r deci sio n whethe r he o r they should go on l iving that i s ,

whethe r Luzhi n shoul d g o on l iving and doing wicked things ,

o r K ate ri na Iv a n o v n o should die ? H o w w o uld you decide

which o f them was to di e ? I ask you ? ”
S oni a looked uneasi ly at him The re w a s something p e .

cu l ia r i n thi s hesitating qu estion whi ch s eemed app roaching ,

something i n a rounda b out w a y .

“
I felt that you w ere going to a sk some qu estion l ike that .

s h e said looking i nqui sitively at him

”
.
,
“
I dar e s a y you did But how i s i t to b e answer ed
.
?
”
VVh y do you ask ab out “du n c o u hd not happen ? sa ki
S oni a r eluctantly .

“
Then it would b e bette r fo r Luzhin to go on l ivi ng and
’
doing wi cked thi ngs ? You haven t dared to decid e e ven
”
that !
“
But I can t know th e D ivi ne P rov idence
’
And why .

’
do you ask what can t b e answe red ? What s the u s e o f s u ch
’

fooli sh questi ons ? H o w coul d i t happen that it shoul d de

p end o n my deci s ion— w h o has m ade m e a j udge to decid e
? ”
who i s to li ve and w h o i s not t o l ive
“
O h i f the D ivine Providence i s to b e mixed up i n it there
, ,

i s no doin g anything R askolnikov grum b led mo rosely

,
.

“
You d b ette r say strai g ht o u t what you want
’
Soni a crie d
“
i n di stre ss .Y o u ar e l ead in g up to something again .

”
C a n you have com e simply to tortu re m e ?

S h e could not co ntro l hers el f and b egan crying b it

t e rl y .H e looked at he r in gloomy mi se ry F iv e m inute s .

pas sed .
4 14 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

O f cou rse you r e ri ght Sonia

’ ” h e s ai d s o ftly at l ast H e
, , .

w a s suddenly changed H is tone o f assumed arrogance and

.

helpl es s defi ance w a s go ne E ven hi s vo i ce was suddenly .

“
weak . I told you ye ste rday that I w as n o t coming to
’
ask forgiveness and almost th e fi r st thing I v e s aid i s
to ask fo r gi vene ss I sai d th at about Luzhi n and
.

P rov idence fo r my o w n sake I w a s a ski ng fo rgivenes s.

,

S o nia
H e tri ed to sm il e b ut there was something h elpl es s and
,

incomplete i n h is pal e smil e H e bowed hi s head and hi d hi s .

fa ce i n h i s hands .

And suddenly a strange su rpri sing sensat io n o f a so rt o f

b itter hatred fo r S oni a pas sed thr ough hi s heart As i t w e re .

w o ndering a n d f r ig h t e n e d o f this sensatio n he r ai sed hi s ,

head and looked i ntently at he r ; but he m et her u neasy and

pai nfully anxi ou s eyes fi xed o n h im ; ther e w a s l ov e i n them ;
hi s hatr ed vani shed l ike a phantom I t was not the r eal .

fe el ing ; he had taken th e o n e feelin g fo r the othe r I t o nly .

meant that th a t m inute had com e .

H e hid hi s face i n hi s hands agai n and b owed hi s head .

Suddenly he tu rned p al e got up f rom hi s chai r lo oked at

, ,

S onia and without utter ing a wo rd s a t down m echani cally

,

o n he r b ed .

H is sensati ons that m om ent we re t e r r ib l v l ike the m om ent

when h e had stood ov er th e o l d wom an w ith the axe i n hi s
”
hand and felt that he mu st not lo se anothe r m inute
”
.

“
What s th e matt er
’
? a sked S o nia dreadful ly f ri ghtened , .

H e c o ul d n o t utte r a wo rd Thi s w a s n o t at all not at al l

”
.
,
“
the w a y h e had i ntended to tell and he did not u nderstand
what w a s happening to him now S he w ent u p to him s o ftly .
,

s a t dow n o n the b ed b e side him and waited not taking her ,

eyes o ff him H e r he art throbb ed and sank

. It wa s u n .

endurabl e ; he tu rned hi s deadly p ale face to he r H i s l ip s .

wo rked helpl es sly stru ggl ing to utte r som ething A p ang
,
.

’
o f ter ro r p as sed throu gh S o ni a s heart
”
.

“
What s the ma tt er
’
? s h e repeated drawi ng a l i tt l e away ,

f rom him .

“
N othing S oni a do n t b e fri ghtened
’ ’
, ,
It s nonsense . .

It r eally i s nonsense i f yo u thi nk o f it h e mutte red l ike a

”
, , ,
“
man i n del irium Why have I com e to to rtu re you
.
? he
4 16 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

Anothe r aw ful moment passed B o th still gazed a t o ne .

anothe r
”
.

“
You can t guess then ? he aske d suddenly f eel ing a s
’
, ,

though he we re flinging himse l f down f rom a ste epl e .

“
N no i -
whi sp ered S oni a .

”
Take a good look .

A s soon as he had s ai d thi s agai n the s am e fami liar s en ,

s ati on froze hi s heart H e looked at he r and al l at o nce .

s eem ed to s e e i n he r face the face o f L iz a v e t a H e r emem .

b e red cl early the expres sion i n Liz a v e t a s face whe n he ’

approached he r w ith the axe and she stepped b ack to the

wall putting out he r hand with chi ldi sh te rr or i n he r f ace
, , ,

looking a s littl e ch ildre n do when they b egi n to b e f rightened

o f somethin g l o oking i ntently and u neasi ly at what f rightens
,

them shrinki ng b ack and holding ou t thei r l ittle hands o n

,

th e point o f crying Almo s t the same thing h app ened now

.

to S o ni a With the s am e helpl essne s s and th e sam e te r ro r

.
,

s h e l ooked at him fo r a whil e and su ddenly putti ng out he r ,

l e ft h and p re ssed he r fi nger s fai ntly against his b reast and

,

slowly b egan t o get up from the b ed m ov ing fu rthe r from ,

him and ke eping he r eyes fi xed ev en mo re immova b ly on

h im H e r ter ro r i n fected him The s am e f ear showed its el f
. .

o n hi s face In th e same way he stared at h er and almo st

.

with the same c hil d is h smi le

”
.

H av e you gue ssed

'

? he whi spe red at l ast

”
.

Goo d Go d ! b roke i n an aw ful w ai l from h e r b o som .

S he sank helpl es sly o n the b ed w ith he r face i n the p illows ,

but a mom ent l ater s h e got up mov ed qui ckly to him se i zed , ,

b oth hi s h ands and grippi ng th em tight i n her th in finge rs

, ,

b egan l ooking into h i s face aga i n W i th the sam e i ntent stare .

I n thi s l ast desp erate lo ok s h e tr i ed to look into him and

catch some la st hope B ut ther e was no hop e ; the re was no .

doubt r emaining ; i t w a s al l true ! Late r on i ndeed when , ,

s h e r ecall ed that moment s h e thought it strange and wo n ,

dered w h y sh e had seen at o nce that there w a s no dou b t .

She cou ld not have said fo r i nstance that she had fo re seen , ,

something o f the so rt— and yet no w as so o n as he told h er s h e , ,

suddenly fanci ed that s h e h ad r eal ly fo re seen thi s ve ry thing

”
.

’
S top S o ni a enough ! do n t tortu r e me he b egged he r
, , ,

m i serably .
 C R IME AND P UN IS H ME N T 17

It was not at all n o t at al l l ike thi s he had thou ght o f

,

tel ling her but thi s i s how it happened

, .

S he j umpe d up s eeming not to know what s h e was doing

, ,

and wringing h er hands walked i nto the middl e o f t he

, , _

room ; b u t quickly went b ack and s a t down agai n b eside him ,

h er shoulde r almo st tou ching hi s All o f a sudden s h e started .

a s though she had b een sta bb ed utte red a cry and fell o n ,

her knees b e fo re him she did not know w h y ,

.

“
What hav e you done— wh at h av e you do ne t o you r
”
s el f ! s h e s ai d i n desp ai r and j umping up s h e flung he r , , ,

s el f o n hi s neck threw her arms round him and held him

, ,

tight .

Raskolnikov drew back and l o oked at her with a mou rn fu l

smi l e .

“
Y o u are a strange girl S onia— you kis s m e and hu g m e ,

when I tel l y o u about that You don t think what you ’

”
.

are doing .

“
The r e is n o o n e— no one i n the whol e wo rld now s o
”
u nhappy as yo u ! s h e cried in a frenzy not he aring wh at he ,

s ai d and she suddenly b roke into v iol ent hyster i cal weeping
,
.

A feeling long un famil iar to him flooded hi s h eart and

s o ft e n e d it at once H e did n o t struggl e agai nst it Two
'

. .

tears started into hi s eyes and hung on hi s eyelashe s

”
.

“
Then yo u won t l eav e me S oni a ? h e said looking at
’

, ,

he r almost with hop e .

“ '”
N o no neve r nowher e
, ,
cri ed Soni a
,
I will follow .

you I w ill follow you everywher e O h my God ! O h how

,
.
, ,

Why w hy didn t I know you b e fo re !

’
mi serab l e I am ! ,

Why didn t you com e b e for e ? O h dear !

’

,
“
Here I have come .

’
Ye s now ! What s to b e done now ! Togethe r to
”
, ,

gether ! s h e r epeated a s it we re unconsci ou sly and she

”
,
“
hugged him again I ll follow you to S i b er ia !
.
’

H e recoiled at thi s and the sam e ho stile almost haughty , ,

smi le cam e o n to hi s l ip s .

“ ’
Perhap s I don t want to go to S iberi a yet S onia he said , , .

S oni a looked at him qu ickly .

Agai n a fte r he r fi rst passionate agoni s ing sympathy fo r ,

the unhappy m an the terr ibl e i de a o f the mu rde r over

whelmed he r I n hi s changed tone sh e seemed to h ear th e
.
4 18 F Y ODO R DO S T OE V SK Y

mu rde re r s peaking She l ooke d at h im b ewilde red

. S he .

knew nothing as yet w h y ho w with wh at obj e ct it h ad been , , , .

N o w al l the se questions ru shed at o nce i nto he r m ind And .

“
agai n she cou ld not b eli eve it : H e he i s a m u rder e r !
”
,

C oul d it b e tru e ?
“
What s the m eaning o f it ’
? Wher e am I ? ” she s aid i n
complete b ewilde rment a s thou gh still u na b l e to r e cove r her ,

H o w coul d you you a m an l ike you

“
sel f . H o w coul d
, ,
.

? ”
you b ri ng you r sel f to it What do es it m ean ?
“ ”
O h wel l to plunde r
—
,
Leave o ff S oni a h e answe re d .
, ,

weari ly almo st with v exation

,
.

S oni a stoo d a s though struck dumb but suddenly sh e cr i ed :

‘You w er e hungry ! I t w a s to help you r m othe r ?
,

Ye s ? ”
“
N o S onia no ,
he muttered turni ng away and hanging
, , ,
“
hi s head I w a s not s o hungry
. I ce rtainly did want to
’
h elp my mothe r but that s not the r eal thing e ithe r
, .

D o n t to rtu r e m e S o ni a
’
,
.

S oni a cl asped her hands .

C o uld it could i t all b e true ? Good God what a t ru th !

, ,

Who could b eli ev e i t ? And how could yo u giv e away you r

l ast farthing and yet rob and mu rder ! Ah she cr ied s u d ,
“
d en ly that money you gav e K ater ina I van o vna
, that
money C a n that mo ney
“ ”
N o S oni a , h e b roke i n hu rr iedly that money w a s not
, ,

it D on t wo rry you rs el f ! That money my mother s ent m e

.
’

and it came when I w a s ill the d ay I gave i t to yo u ,

Ra z u m ih in s a w it he r ece iv ed i t fo r
money w a s mine— m y own .

S oni a li stened t o hi m i n bewilderment and did he r utmo st

t o comprehend .

“ ’
And th a t money I don t ev en know r eal ly wh ether
.

ther e w a s any money he added s o ftly as though r e fl e c t , ,

“
ing . I took a pu r se o ff her neck made o f chamo i s le athe r ,
’
a pu r s e stu ffed ful l o f something but I didn t
’
look in it ; I suppose I hadn t time And the things .

chains and t rinkets I buri ed unde r a st o ne w ith th e pur s e

—

next morning i n a yard o ff the V P ro sp ect They ar e .

al l there now .

S oni a strained ev ery nerv e to l i sten .

420 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

Bu t ar en t you su ffering too ’” cr i ed S oni a ? .

,

Again a wav e o f the s ame feel ing surged i nt o h is heart ,

and a g ai n fo r an i nstant so ftened it .

S oni a I h av e a b ad heart take not e o f th at I t m ay

, , .

explai n a great deal I hav e com e b ecau se I am b ad T here . .

ar e men who wouldn t hav e come B ut I am a coward ’

.

and a mean w retch B ut n ev er mi nd ! Th at s .

’

not the poi nt I mu st spe ak now but I d o n t kn o w h o w t o

.
,
’

”
begin .

H e p aused and s ank int o thought

”
.

“
Ach w e are so d i ffe rent h e cr ied agai n w e ar e n ot
, , ,

al ike And w hy w hy d id I come ? I sh all neve r fo rgiv e

”
.
,

m ysel f th at .

“
N o no it w a s a g o od thing you came
, cr i ed S o ni a .

”
, ,
“ ’
It s b etter I should know far b ette r ! ,

H e looked at he r w ith angui sh .

“ ”
What i f it w er e r eal ly that ? h e s aid a s th o ugh reaching ,
“
a conclu si on Ye s that s what i t w a s ! I w anted to
.
,
’

b ecome a N apol eon th at i s w hy I kill ed he r D o you

”
.
,

unde r stand now ?

“
N no
”
-
S oni a whi sp er ed na i vely and timidly
, O nly .

speak sp eak I sh all understand I sh all unde r stand in

,
”
, ,

m ys e l f ! s h e kept b egging him

”
.

“ ’
You l l understand ? V e ry w ell w e shall s e e ! He ,

p au sed and w a s fo r som e tim e l o st i n m editatio n .

“
It was l ik e thi s : I asked mys el f o n e d ay thi s qu estion
what i f N apol eon fo r instance had h app ened to b e in my
, ,

place and i f h e h ad not had Toul on no r E gypt no r th e

,

p assage o f M ont B l anc to b egin h i s ca ree r w ith but instead ,

o f al l tho se p i ctu resqu e and monum ental th ings the re had ,

simply b een som e r idi cul ou s old hag a p awnb roker w h o , ,

had to b e mu rde red to o to get m oney f rom h er trunk ( fo r

his ca ree r yo u under stand ),
Well would he h av e b rough t .
,
’
himsel f to that i f the re h ad b een no othe r mean s ? Wouldn t
,

h e hav e felt a p ang at i ts b ei ng so far f ro m monument al

and and si nful to o ? Well I mu st tel l you that I
‘ ,

wo rri ed mysel f f ear fully ov er that qu esti o n s o that I w a s

,
’

aw fully ashamed when I gu es sed at l ast ( all o f a sudden ,

somehow ) that i t would not h av e gi ven him th e l eas t

p ang that it would n o t ev en h av e st ruck h im that i t w a s
,
 C RIM E AND P UN I S H M E NT 491

not monumental that h e would not h av e seen that

'

there was anything i n it to pau s e ov e r and that i f h e h ad , ,

had no othe r way h e would h av e strangl ed her in a m inute ,

without thinking about it ! Well I to o l e ft o ff th ink ,

ing about it mu rde red he r following hi s exampl e , .

And that s exactly how it was ! D o you think it funny ?

’

’
Yes S oni a th e funni est thing o f all i s that p erhap s th at s
, ,

j u st how it wa s .

S oni a did not think it at all funny .

“
Yo u had b ette r tel l m e st raight o u t without
examples sh e begged stil l mo r e timidly and scarcely
, ,

audi b ly .

H e tu rned to h er looked sadly at he r and to ok he r h ands ,

.

“
You ar e right agai n S oni a O f cou rs e that s all no n ,
.
’

s en se i t s almo st al l tal k ! You s ee you kno w o f cou rse

,
’
,

that my mothe r h a s s carcely anything my si ster h appened ,

to hav e a good education and was condemned to drudge as

a gov e rnes s All thei r hopes we re centred o n m e I was
. .

’
a student but I couldn t keep mysel f at th e u niver sity and
,

w a s fo rced fo r a tim e to l eav e it E ven i f I h ad l ingered .

o n l ike that i n ten o r twelv e year s I might ( w ith luck )

,

hop e to b e som e so rt o f teach er o r clerk with a sal ary o f a

”
thousand roubl e s ( b e r ep eated it a s though i t wer e a l esson )
“
and by that tim e my mothe r woul d b e wo rn out w ith g r ie f
and anxi ety and I coul d no t su cceed i n keeping he r i n
com fo rt whil e my si ste r
,
well my si ste r might well ,

h av e fared wo rse ! And it s a h ard thing to p as s eve ry ’

thing b y all one s l i fe to tu rn one s b ack upon eve rything ’

,
’

to fo rget o ne s mothe r and deco rou sly accept the insults

’

’
infli cted o n one s si st er Why should one ? When o n e has .

bu ri ed them to b u rden onesel f w ith othe rs —wi f e and

,

childr en— and to l eav e them agai n withou t a farthing ? S o

I re solv ed to gai n po sses sio n o f th e o l d wom an s money ’

and to u se i t fo r my fi rst years without wo r rying my

mothe r to ke ep mysel f at th e university and fo r a l ittl e
,

whil e a fte r l eav ing it— and to do thi s all o n a b ro ad ,

th o rough scal e so as to b uild up a compl etely new caree r

,

and ente r upon a new l i fe o f i ndep endence Well .

that s all
’
Well o f cou rs e in kill ing the o ld wom an I
”
.
,
’
did w rong Well that s enough
.
,
.
422 FYOD O R D O S TOEV S K Y

He struggl ed to th e end o f h i s sp eech i n exhau sti o n a n d

l e t hi s head sink .

O h that s not it that s n o t it S o ni a cri ed i n di st re ss

’ ’

”
, , , .

H ow could o n e no that s not r ight not r ight ,

’

, .

“
Y o u s e e you rs el f th at it s not right B ut I v e sp o ken ’ ’
.

t ruly it s th e truth ’

”
.
,
“
A s though that could b e th e truth ! Good God !
“
I v e only kill ed a l o u se S on i a a u sel es s l o athso m e
’

”
, , , ,

h arm ful creatur e

”
.

“
A hum an b eing a l ou s e !
—

I to o know i t w asn t a l ous e h e answe red l o o king ’

”
, ,
“
st rangely at he r B ut I am t alking nons ens e S oni a h e
.
, ,
“
added I v e b een talki ng nonsens e a l o ng ti m e
.
’
That s .
’

not it you a re r ight ther e T he re w er e qu ite qu ite othe r

, .
,

cau s es fo r it ! I h av en t talked to anyone fo r s o long ’

”
,

S o ni a . M y h ead ache s d readfully now .

H is eyes shon e w ith f eve ri sh b rill iance H e w as almo st .

del i riou s ; an u neasy smil e st rayed o n hi s l ip s H i s te r ri b l e .

exh au sti on coul d b e se en th rou gh h i s excitem ent S oni a .

saw how h e w a s su ffe ring S h e to o was growing di zzy . .

And h e t alked so st rangely : i t s eem ed som eho w comp re

h e n s ib l e bu t yet
“
B ut how h o w ! G o o d Go d ! ” And
, ,

s h e w rung he r h and s in d esp ai r

”
.

“
No S oni a that s n o t it h e b egan agai n sudd enly ’

, , , ,

rai sing h is h ead a s though a new and sudden t rain o f ,

“ ’
thought had struck and as it w e re rou s ed him — that s not
it ! B ette r i m agin e— yes it s ce rtai nly b ette r— im agine ,
’

that I am vain env iou s m al iciou s b ase v indictiv e and

, , , ,
’
w ell p erh ap s with a tendency to i ns anity
, ( Let s hav e it .

al l o u t at o nce ! They v e talked o f m adnes s al ready I ’

,

noticed ) I told yo u j u st no w I could not keep mysel f

.

at the univ e rsity B ut do you know that p e rhap s I m ight .

h av e don e ? M y m othe r would h av e s ent m e what I needed

fo r th e fees and I coul d hav e earn ed enough fo r cl oth e s ,

bo ots and food no do ubt Le ssons had tu rned up at hal f

, .

a roubl e Ra z u m ihin w o rk s !
. B u t I tu rned sulky and
woul dn t ( Ye s sulkine s s that s th e ri ght wo rd fo r it ! )
’ ’
.
, ,

I s a t i n my room l ike a spide r You v e b e en i n my d en .

’
,

you v e s een it
’
And do you know S oni a that l ow
.
, ,

ceilings and tiny room s c ramp th e soul and the m ind ? Ah,
4 94 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

h ad th e d ari n g to go st raight fo r it all and s end it fl yin g

to th e devil ! I I wanted to h a v e th e d a r ing and
I ki ll ed her I only w anted to h av e the d aring S o ni a !
”
. ,

That w a s the whol e cau s e o f it !

” Yo u
O h hu sh hush cri ed S oni a cl asping he r h ands
“
.
, ,

tu rned away f rom God and God h as smitten y o u h as giv en ,

you ove r to the d ev i l !

Then S oni a when I u sed to l i e the r e in th e dark and
, ,

all thi s becam e cl ear to m e w a s it a t emptat ion o f th e

”
,

d evil eh
,
?
“
H u sh don t l au gh bl asph em e r ! Y o u d o n t u nd erstand
’ ’

”
, , ,

you don t u nderstand ! O h God ! H e won t u nderstand !

’ ’

“
H u sh S oni a ! I am not l aughing I know mysel f that
”
.
,

it w a s the d ev il l eading m e H u sh S oni a hu sh ! he .

, ,
“
repeated with gl oomy i nsi stence I know i t all I h av e .
,

thought i t al l ov e r and o v er and w hi sp e red it al l ov er to

mysel f lying th ere i n th e dark
,
I v e argu ed it all ov e r .
’

w ith mysel f every poi nt o f it and I know it all all ! And

, , ,

how sick how sick I was then o f go ing ov e r it all ! I kept

,

w anting to fo rget it and m ake a new b eginning S oni a and , ,

l eave o ff thinking And you don t suppo se th at I w ent i nto

.
’

it headlong l ike a fool ? I went i nto it l ik e a wi s e man and ,

that was j u st my dest ructi on And you mu stn t suppo s e .

’

that I didn t know fo r inst ance that i f I b egan to qu estio n

’

, ,

mys el f whethe r I had the right t o gai n powe r— I certainly

hadn t th e right— o r th at i f I asked mys el f wheth e r a
’

human b eing i s a lou se i t p rov ed th at it wasn t s o fo r m e ’

,

though it might b e fo r a man w h o w ould go straight to hi s

goal without a sking qu estions I f I wo rri ed mysel f al l .

tho s e days wonderi ng whethe r N apol eo n woul d hav e done

,

it o r not I felt cl early o f cou rs e th at I wasn t N apol eon I

,
’
.

had to endu r e al l th e agony o f th at b attl e o f ideas S oni a , ,

and I longed to throw i t o ff : I wanted to mu rde r w ithout

casui stry to mu rde r fo r my o w n sake fo r mysel f alone !
, ,
’
I didn t want to li e about it even to mysel f I t w asn t to .
’

help my moth er I did th e mu rd er— that s no nsens e— I didn t ’ ’

do th e mu rde r to gai n w ealth and p ower and to b ecome a

b ene facto r o f m ankind N onsens e ! I s imply did it ; I did
.

the mu rde r fo r mysel f fo r mysel f alone and wheth er I , ,

b ecame a b ene facto r to others o r sp e n t my l i f e l ike a ,

 C R IM E A ND P U N I S H ME NT 4 95

spide r catching men i n my web and sucking the l i fe out o f

,

m en I couldn t hav e car ed at th at mom ent

,
’
And it w as .

not the money I wanted S oni a wh en I did it It w as not , ,

.

s o much th e m oney I w anted but something el s e I ,

. .

know it all now Understand m e ! P erhaps I should

.

nev er hav e committed a mu rde r again I wanted to fi nd .

out something el se ; it was someth ing else l ed m e on I .

wanted to fi nd out th en and qu i ckly wh ethe r I was a lou se

l ik e everybody el s e o r a m an Whether I can step ov e r .

b ar ri ers o r n o t whether I dar e stoop to p ick up o r not

, ,

wh ethe r I am a tr embling cr eatu r e o r whether I hav e the

r ig h t
“
To kill ? H av e the right to kill ” S oni a cl asp ed her ?

hand s
“ ”
A c h S oni a ! he cri ed i rritably and seemed about to make
,
“
some r etort but w a s contemptuou sly sil ent
,
D o n t i nter rupt .
’

m e S oni a I want to p rov e o n e thi ng only th at th e devi l

, .
,

l ed m e o n then and h e h as shown m e s inc e th at I had not

the right to take that p ath b ecaus e I am j u st such a l ou s e ,

as all the r est H e w a s mo cking m e and her e I v e come to

.
’

you now ! Welcom e you r gu est ! I f I we r e not a lou se ,

should I hav e come to you ? Li sten : when I went then to

the ol d woman s I only went to try ’
You may b e su r e .

”
o f that !
And you mu rdered her ! ”
But how di d I mu rde r her ? I s that how men do
mu rders ? D o m en go to commit a mu rde r as I went then ?
I will tel l you som e day how I w ent ! D id I murde r th e o l d
woman ? I mu rdered mysel f not her ! I crushed mysel f ,

once fo r all fo r eve r But it was th e dev il th at kill ed

,
.

that o l d woman not I E nough enough S oni a enou g h !

, .
, ,
”
,
“
Let m e b e ! h e cr i ed i n a sudden sp asm o f agony l et ,
”
me b e !
H e l eaned hi s elbow s on hi s knees and squ eez ed hi s head
in hi s h ands as i n a vi ce
”
.

“
What su ffering ! A wai l o f angui sh b roke from
So ni a
”
.

“
Well what am I to do now
,
? he asked suddenly rai sing ,

hi s h ead and looking at her w ith a f ace h ideou sly di sto rted
by despai r .
4 26 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

What are yo u to do ” sh e cri ed j umpi ng up

and h er
?
, ,

eyes that had b een full o f tears suddenly b egan to shine .

“
S tand up ! ”
( She s ei z ed him by th“e shoulde r h e got up , ,

l ooking at her almo st b ewilde red ) G0 at once thi s v ery .

,

m i nute stand at the c ro ss ro ads b ow down fi r st ki ss the

,
-
, ,

e a rth which you h ave d e fi l e d and th en b ow down to al l th e

w o rld and s a y to al l men aloud

‘I am a murdere r ! Then ’

”
,

God wil l send you l i f e again Wi l l you go w ill you go ? .

,

s h e asked him t rembl ing all o v er snatchi ng hi s two hands

, , ,

squ eezin g them tight in h er s and gaz ing at him w ith eye s
full o f fi re .

H e w a s am az ed at h er sudden ecstasy
”
.

“
You m ean S ib e ri a S oni a ? I mu st gi v e mysel f up ? he
,

asked gloomily .

’
S u ffe r and expi ate you r s in by i t that s what y ou ,
”
m u st do
”
.

“
No ! I am not go ing to them S oni a !
”
,

B ut how will you go o n l iving ? What w ill you l iv e fo r ?

“
cri ed S oni a how i s it po ssibl e now ? Why how c an yo u
, ,

talk to you r mother ? ( O h wh at w ill b ecom e o f them ,

now ! ) B ut what am I saying ? Y o u hav e ab andoned you r

m othe r and you r si ster al r eady H e h a s a b andoned them .

”
al ready ! O h G o d ! s h e cri ed why h e know s i t al l him , ,

sel f H o w how can h e li ve by him sel f ! What w i l l become

”
.
,

o f you now ?

D o n t b e a ch ild S onia h e s ai d so ftly

’

, Wh at w rong , .

hav e I done th em ? Why should I go to them ? Wha t

should I s a y t o them ? That s o nly a ph antom T hey ’
.

destroy m en by m ill ions th ems elv es and look o n i t as a

v i rtu e Th ey are knav es and s coundrel s S oni a ! I am not
.
,

go ing to them And what should I s a y to them — that I

.

mu rdered h e r b ut did not dare to t ake th e m oney and h id

”
,
“
it u nde r a ston e ? h e added w ith a b itter smi l e Why .
,

they would l augh at m e and would call m e a fool fo r not ,

’
getting it A cow ard and a fool ! They woul dn t u nder
.

stand and they do n t dese rv e t o understand Why sh o uld I

’
.

go to th em ? I won t D on t b e a ch ild S oni a ’ ’

”
. .
,
“
It will b e to o much fo r you to b ear too much ! she ,

r epeated holding o u t her h ands in despai ring suppl ication

, .

'

”
P erh ap s I v e b een un fai r t o mys el f
’
h e ob se rv ed ,
4 98 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

had felt that all hi s hope s rested o n h er ; h e expected to b e

rid o f at l east part o f hi s su ffering and now w hen al l he r , ,

h eart tu rned toward s him h e suddenly f elt th at h e w a s ,

i mmeasu ra b ly u nhappi e r than b e fo re .

“
S onia ” he said “
you d b ette r n o t come and s e e m e ’

”
, ,

when I am i n p ri son .

S oni a d id not answe r she was crying S eve ral m inute s ,

.

passed
”
.

“
H ave you a cro s s o n you ? she asked as though ,

suddenly thinking o f i t .

H e did not at fi r st u nde rstand the qu estion .

“
N o o f cou rs e not ?
,
Here take this o n e o f cypre ss , ,

w ood . I ha v e anothe r a coppe r o n e that b el o nge d t o ,

L iz a v e t a I changed with L iz a v e t a : s h e gave m e he r

.

’
cro s s and I gav e he r my l ittl e ikon I w i ll wear Liz a v e t a s .

’
now and give you thi s Take it it s mi ne ! It s m ine
.
’

,
“
you know s h e b egged h im We w il l g o t o su ffe r togethe r ,

”
.
,

and togethe r w e w ill b e ar ou r cro s s !

“ ”
Give it m e s aid Raskolnikov .
,

H e di d not w ant t o hu rt he r feel i ngs B ut im m ediatel y .

h e d rew b ack the hand h e held out for th e cro s s

”
.

“
N o t now S oni a B ette r l ate r he added to com fo rt he r
”
. .
, ,
“
Yes yes b ette r she repe ate d w ith convi cti on when you
, , , ,

go to meet you r su ffering then put it o n Y o u w ill come

”
, .

’
to m e I ll put it o n you w e w ill pray and go t ogether
, , .

At that mom ent some o n e kno cked thre e times at the doo r
”
.

“
S o fya S e m yo n o v n a m ay I com e i n ? they he ard i n a
,

very fam iliar and pol ite vo i ce .

S oni a rushed to the doo r i n a fright Th e fl a x e n he ad o f .

M r L e b e z ia tn ik o v appeare d at the doo r

. .
 C H APT E R V

E BEZ IA T N IK O V l ooked p ertur b ed .

“
I ve com e to you S o fya S e m yo n o v n a
’
h e began
”
.
, ,

E xcu s e me I thought I shoul d fi nd you he ,

“ ’
sai d addres sing Raskolnikov suddenly
,
that i s I didn t , ,

m ean anything o f that sort but I j u st thought

”
.

K ater ina I vanovna has gone o u t o f he r m i nd he .

b lurted out suddenly turning from Rask o l nikov to S oni a

,
.

S onia s creamed .

“ ’
At l east it s eem s so B ut w e do n t know what to.

do you se e ! S he came b ack— she s eems to hav e b ee n

,

tu r ned o u t somewhere p erhap s beaten S o i t s eems at

,
.

least . S he had run to you r fathe r s fo rme r ch ie f s h e ’

didn t fi nd him at hom e : he was dining at som e othe r

’

general s O nly fancy s h e rushed o ff ther e t o the

’
.
, ,

othe r general s and imagine she w as so pe rs istent that she

’

, , ,

m anaged to get the chi e f to se e her had him fetched o u t ,

from di nner it s eems You can imagi ne what happened

, . .

S h e w a s tu rned o u t o f course ; but acco rding to he r ow n

, ,

sto ry she abused him and threw somethi ng at him

, One .

may well b el i eve it H o w it i s s h e wasn t take n up

’
.
,
’
I can t unde rstand ! N o w s h e i s telling ev e ry o ne includ ,

i ng Amal i a Ivano vna ; but i t s di ffi cult to u nderstand he r ’

she i s s cream ing and fl inging hersel f a b out O h ye s .

,

she shouts that s ince eve ry one has a b andoned he r she ,

wi ll take the children and go i nto th e street with a b arrel

organ and the chi ldre n wil l s ing and dance and s he to o
, , ,

and collect money and w ill go every day u nder the g eneral s ’

window
‘ ,

to l et ev ery one s e e wel l born children who se -

,

fathe r was an o ffici al b e gg in g i n the str eet , S he keeps .

’

b eating the children and they are all crying S he i s teach

‘
.

ing Lida to sing M y V illage the boy to dance Polenka ,

’
,

the same S he i s tear ing up al l the clothes and making

.
,

them littl e caps l ike actors ; s h e means to car ry a tin b asi n

and make it tinkle instead o f mu si c ,S h e wo n t l iste n
’

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43 0 F Y ODO R D O S T OE V S KY

of
’
t o anything . Imagine th e state things ! It s b eyond
”
anything !
woul d hav e gone on but S o ni a w h o had
L e b e z ia t n ik o v , ,

h eard him alm ost b reathl es s snatche d up her clo ak a nd ,

hat and r an ou t o f the room pu tting o n he r things as

, ,

s he went Raskol nikov followed her and L e b e z ia tn ik o v

.

cam e a fter h im
”
.

“
S he has ce rtai nly gone m ad ! h e s ai d to Raskol niko v a s ,

they we nt out i nt o the street I didn t w ant to frighte n ’

‘
.

’
S o fya S e m yo n o v n a s o I s aid it se em e d l ike it but the r e
, ,

i s n t a dou b t o f it
’
They s ay that i n consumptio n the
.

’
tub er cle s s om etime s o ccu r i n the b rai n ; it s a pity I know
nothing o f m edici ne I di d t ry to p ersuade her but s h e
”
.
,

wouldn t l i sten ’

”
.

“
D i d you talk to he r ab out th e tu b e r cl es ?

N o t p reci sely o f the tub e r cle s B e sides she wouldn t ’

.
,

have u ndersto od ! B ut w hat I say i s that i f you conv i nce ,

a perso n logically that he has nothi ng t o c ry ab out he l l ,

’

stop cryi ng That s clea r I s it y o ur convi cti o n that h e

’

”
. .

’
wo n t ?
“
Li fe would b e t o o e asy i f i t we r e s o a nswe re d ,

R askolnikov .

“
E xcu se m e excu se m e ; o f cou rse it would b e r athe r
,

d ifli cu l t fo r K ater ina Ivanovna to u nder stand but do you ,

know that i n Par i s they hav e b ee n co ndu cting s eri ou s

expe riments as t o the p os s ib il ity o f cur ing the i nsane ,

s imply b y logi cal argum ent O n e p ro fes so r ther e a .

,

scientifi c man o f standing l ately dead b el i eved i n the , ,

possi b il ity o f su ch tre atme nt H is i de a w a s that there s

’
.

nothing r eally w rong w ith the phys ical o rganism o f the

i nsane and that i nsanity i s s o to s a y a l ogi cal m i stake
, , , ,

an e rror o f j udgment an i ncorre ct v iew o f things ,

He .

g radu ally showed the m adman his er ro r and would you ,

b elieve it they s a y h e w a s su cce ss ful ! B ut a s h e m ade

,

use o f dou ches too how far su cce ss w as du e to that ,

tre atm ent remai ns u ncertai n S o it s e ems at least . .

Raskolnikov had l ong ceas ed t o li sten Rea ching the .

house where he l ived he nodded to L e b e z ia t n ik o v and we nt

,

i n at the gate L e b e z ia t n ik o v w o ke up w ith a start l o oked

.
,

ab out him and hurr ied o n .

43 2 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

I don t think so and I fully u nder stand how i ndi gnant

’

y o u must b e and that that ,

i ndignati o n m ay h av e a
p ermanent e ffe ct o n you That s what I am a frai d o f A s .
’
.

for you r cutting you rsel f o ff from u s I don t j udge you ,

’

I do n t v entu r e to j udge you and forgiv e m e fo r having

’
,

blamed you fo r it I feel that I too i f I had so gr e at a .

,

t rouble shoul d keep aw ay from e ve ry o n e

,
I shall tel l .

m othe r nothing o f th is but I shal l talk about you conti nu ally ,

and shall tell he r from you that you w il l come ve r y soon .

D on t wor ry a b out he r ; I w il l s et he r mi nd at r est ; b ut

’

do n t you try he r too mu ch— com e o nce at least ; r ememb e r

’

that s h e i s you r m othe r And now I hav e come s imply to .

“
s ay ( D ouni a; b egan to get up ) that i f you should need
m e o r shoul d ne ed all my l i fe o r anything call
’
m e and I ll come Good bye
, .
-

S he turned a b ruptly and we nt towards the doo r .

“
D ouni a Raskolniko v stopped he r and w ent t owards he r
”
.

That Ra z u m ih in D m itri P r o k o fi t ch i s a ve ry good fell o w

, ,
.

D ouni a flu shed sli ghtly

”
.

“
Well ? s h e asked wai ting a moment .
,

H e i s comp etent ha rdwo rki ng honest and capabl e o f r ea l

, ,

lov e . Good b ye D ounia —

, .

D ouni a flushed crim son then suddenly s h e took al arm ,

.

“
B ut what doe s i t m ean b rothe r ? Ar e w e really parting
”
,

fo r ever that you giv e m e su ch a parti ng m essage ?

“
N eve r mind
”
Goo d bye .
-
.

H e tu rned away and walke d to the w indow ,

S he sto od a .

moment lo oke d at him u ne asily and went o u t trou b led

, ,
.

N o h e wa s not cold t o he r
, The re w a s an i nstant ( the .

v ery last one ) when he had longed t o take he r i n hi s arm s

and s a y g o o d bye to her and ev en to te ll h er but he had not
-
, ,

d ared even to touch he r hand .

“
A fterward s sh e may shudde r when s h e rememb er s that
”
I em b raced he r and wi l l f eel that I stol e he r ki ss
, .

“ ”
And w ould s h e stand that te st ? h e went o n a few m inute s
“
N o she w ouldn t ; gi rl s l ike that can t stand
’
l ater to him sel f ’

”
.
,

things ! They neve r do .

And he thou g ht o f S oni a .

Ther e was a b reath o f f resh ai r from th e wi ndow The .

daylight w a s fading H e took up hi s c a p and w ent out . .

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H M E N T 43 3

He could not o f cou rse and would not cons ide r how i ll h e
, ,

was But all thi s continual anxi ety and agony o f mind co uld
.

not but a ffect him And i f he w er e not lying in high feve r it

.

was perhaps j u st b ecau se thi s conti nual i nner strai n help ed

to keep him o n hi s legs and in posse ssion o f h is facultie s B ut .

thi s artifi cial excitement could not last lo ng .

H e wande red aimle ssly The sun was setting A speci al . .

form o f mi s ery had begun to oppre ss him o f l ate The re w a s .

nothing poignant nothing acute ab out it ; but ther e wa s a fe e l

,
c

ing o f p ermanence o f ete rnity about it ; i t b rou ght a fo retaste

,

o f hopeless year s o f thi s cold l eaden m i sery a f oretaste o f

”
,
“
an eternity on a squ are yard o f sp ace Towards eveni ng .

thi s sensatio n u sually b egan to weigh o n him mo r e heavily .

“
With thi s idioti c pu r ely physi cal w eaknes s dep ending on
, ,
’
th e sunset o r som ething o ne can t help doing s o methi ng
”
,
’
stupid ! You ll go to D ou ni a a s wel l a s to S oni a h e mut , ,

t e r e d bi tterly .

H e heard hi s nam e cal led H e looked round L e b e z ia tn ik o v . .

ru shed up to him .

“ ’
O nly fancy I v e b een to you r room l o oking fo r you
,
O nly .

’
fancy sh e s carri ed o u t her pl an and taken away the children
, ,
.

S o fya S e m yo n o v n a and I have had a j o b to fi nd them S he .

i s rapping on a frying p an and making the children dance -

.

The chi ldren ar e cryi ng T hey keep stopping at the cro ss .

’
roads and i n front o f shops ; the re s a crowd o f fool s running
a fte r them C om e along ! ”
”
.

“
And S onia ? Raskolniko v asked a nxiou sly hu rrying a fte r ,

Le b e z ia t n ik o v .

“ ’
S imply franti c That i s it s n o t S o fya S e m yo n o v n a s
.
,
’

franti c b ut K ateri na Ivanovna thou g h S o fya S e m yo n o v n a s

, ,
’

franti c too B ut K aterina Ivanovna is a b solutely f ranti c I

. .

tel l you s h e i s quite m ad They l l b e taken to the police You .

’
.

c a n fancy what an e ffect that will hav e They ar e on .

the canal b ank near the b ridge now not far from S o fya S em
”
, ,

yo n o v n a s quit e clo se
’
.
,

O n the canal b a n k near the b ridge and n o t two hou se s away

f rom the one wher e S o ni a lodged the re w a s a crowd o f ,

p eopl e consi sting principally o f gutte r children The hoars e

,
.

b roken voice o f K ate rina Ivanovna could b e heard from the

bridge and it certai nly w a s a strange spectacle l ikely to a t
,
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4 34 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S KY

tract a street crowd K ate ri na Ivanovna i n he r old dre s s w ith

.

the green shaw l weari ng a to r n str aw hat cru shed i n a

, ,

hideou s way on o n e side w as re ally f ranti c S h e w a s ex ,

.

h a u s t e d and breathles s H e r w asted consumpti ve f ace lo oked

.

more su ffe ring tha n eve r and i nde ed out o f doo r s i n the ,

sunshi ne a consumptiv e alw ays looks wo r se than at home .

B ut he r excitement di d no t flag and ev e ry mo ment he r e i rr ita ,

tion gr ew m or e i ntense S he ru shed at the children shouted .

,

at them coaxe d them tol d them b e fo re th e cr owd how to

, ,

dance and what t o s i ng began explai ni ng to them w hy it ,

w a s nece ssary and dri v en to de sp eratio n by the i r not u nder

,

standing be at them,
Then sh e would m ake a ru sh at the
.

crowd ; i f s h e noti ced any decently dre ss ed pe rso n stopping

to look s h e immedi ately appeal ed to him to s e e what thes e
”
,
“
childre n fr o m a genteel one m ay say ari sto crati c hou s e , ,

had b een b rought t o I f s h e h ea rd l aughte r o r j eer ing in

.

the crowd she would ru sh at o nce at the s co ffe r s and begin

,

squa b bling with them S ome p eopl e l au g h ed other s shook

.
,

thei r he ads but eve ry on e felt cu rio u s at th e s i ght o f th e

,

m ad w oman with the frightene d childr en The f rying pan .

-

o f whi ch L e b e z ia t n ik o v had sp o ke n was not there at le ast ,

Raskolniko v di d not s e e it B ut instead o f r apping o n the .

p an K ate rin a Iv anovn a b egan cl apping he r wasted hands

, ,

when she made Lida and K olya dan ce and P o l enka sing S he .

to o j oined i n th e singi ng but b roke down at the s e co nd not e ,

with a fear fu l cou gh which m ade he r cu rs e i n de spai r and

,

e ven she d tear s What made he r mo st fu ri o u s w a s th e w eep

.

i ng and terro r o f K olya and Li da S om e e ffo rt had b ee n .

made to dre ss the childr en up as stre et s inger s ar e dres sed .

The boy had o n a tu r b an m ade o f s omething red and whi t e

to look like a Tu rk Ther e had b ee n no co stum e fo r Li da ;
.

s h e simply had a r ed kni tted cap o r r athe r a ni ght c a p tha t ,

had belonged t o M a r m e l a d o v d eco rated w ith a b roken pie ce ,

o f white o stri ch feathe r which ha d b ee n K ater ina Iv a n o v n a s

,
’

g randmother s and had b e en p r es erv ed a s a fam ily po sses sion

’
.

Polenka was i n he r e veryday dres s ; s h e l ooked i n timi d p er

p l e x it y at he r mothe r and kept at he r side hiding he r tear s
, ,
.

S he dimly reali sed he r mothe r s co nditio n and lo oked u n ’

e asily a b out he r S he w a s terribly f ri ght ened o f th e stree t

.

a n d the crowd S o ni a f o ll o we d K ate ri n a I van o vna w eep in g

.
,
43 6 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

i n the waiting room by the pape r wher e you si gn you r nam e

-
.

I wrote my name threw it at h im and r an aw ay O h the ,

.

scoundrels the scoundrels ! B u t e nou gh o f them now I ll

, ,
’

’
p rovide fo r the children m ys el f I w on t bow down to any ,
”
b od y ! She has had to b ea r enou gh f or u s ! she po inted to
S onia P olenka how mu ch hav e you got ?
.
,
S how m e !
What only two farthings ! O h th e m ean w retches ! They
,

g ive u s nothing only run afte r u s putting thei r tongue s o u t , .

”
,

?
The re what i s that blo ckh ead l au ghi n g at
, ( S he poi nted “
”
It s al l b e cau s e K olya her e i s so
’
to a man i n the crowd ) .

stupid ; I have such a b othe r w ith him What do you want .

,

’
Pol enka ? Tel l m e i n F rench pa r l e z m o i fr a ii ga is Why I v e ,
.
,

tau g ht you you know s om e phrases E ls e how ar e you to

,
.

show that you ar e o f goo d family w ell b rought —u p childre n , ,

and not at all l ike othe r o rgan gr inde r s ? We ar en t going to -

’

h ave a Punch and Judy show i n th e street b ut to si ng a ,

genteel song Ah ye s Wh at ar e we to s ing ? Y o u ,

keep putting m e out but w e you s e e w e ar e standing , ,

here Rodio n Ro m a n o v it c h t o fi nd som ethi ng to si ng and

, ,

get money something K olya c a n d ance to

,
F o r as you ,

c a n fancy ou r per fo rmance i s al l impromptu

,
We must
talk it ove r and rehear s e i t al l tho rou ghly and then we s h al l -
,

go to N evsky whe re ther e a r e far mo re peopl e o f goo d

‘
,

society and we shal l b e noti ced at o nce Lida knows M y

‘
.
,

V i llage only nothi ng but M y V ill a g e and every one si ngs

’

, ,
’

that We mu st si ng som ethi ng f ar mo re genteel

. Well ,
’
hav e you thought o f anything Po lenka ? I f only you d help ,

you r mother ! M y m emo ry s qu ite g one o r I shoul d hav e ’

thought o f something We r eally can t sing An H u ssar ‘ ’

,
’

‘
. .

Ah let u s sing in F re nch C inq s ou s I have taught it you I

, , ,
’
,

hav e taught it you A nd as i t i s i n F r ench p eopl e will s e e .

,

at o nce that you ar e children o f g o o d f ami ly and that will

‘
,

b e much mor e tou chi ng You m ight s ing M al b o rough

’
s en v a t e n g u er re fo r that s qu ite a chi ld s song and i s
- -
,
’ ’ ’

sung a s a lulla b y i n al l the aristo crati c h o us es .

M a l bo r o u g h ’
s e ii v a - t- e h gu e rr e

Ne sai t qu a ii d r e v ie ii dr a .

she b e g an sin g ing No w .

‘
B ut no b ette r s ing C inq sou s .
,
,

K olya you r hands o n you r hip s make haste and you Li da

, , , , ,
 C R IME AND P UN IS H ME N T 43 7

keep tu rning the o the r way and Polenka and I w ill sing and ,

clap o u r hands !
C in q s o u s c i n q s o u s
,
’

P o u r m o n te r n o tr e m e n a g e .

( C ough cou gh cou g h S et you r dress strai ght Pol enka it s ’

- -

”
,

slipped down o n y o ur shoulders s h e o b served panting from , ,

“
coughing N o w it s p arti cularly neces sary to b ehav e ni cely
’
.

and genteelly that al l may s e e that you are well b o rn chi l

,
-

dren I sai d at th e tim e that the b odi ce shou ld b e cut longer

.
,

and made o f two width s It wa s you r fault S onia with you r.

, ,

advi ce to make i t sho rte r and now you s e e the child is quite,

de form ed b y it Why you re all cr y ing agai n ! What s ,

’ ’

the matte r stup ids ? C ome K olya b egi n M ake hast e make
, , ,
.
,

haste ! O h what an un b eara b le child !

,

Cin q s ou s, cin q sou s

A pol i ceman agai n ! What do yo u w ant ?

A poli ceman w a s i ndeed fo rcing his way through th e crowd .

But at that moment a gentleman i n civilian u ni fo rm and an

ov erco at— a solid looking o fficial o f a b out fi fty with a de co ra
-

ti on on hi s neck ( wh ich delighted K aterina Ivanovna and had

it s e ffect on the pol iceman ) — appro ached and witho ut a wo rd
handed he r a gre en thre e rouble note H is face wo re a look —
.

o f g enuine symp athy K ateri na I vanovna took it and gave

.

him a polite even ce remoniou s b ow

”
.
, ,
“
I thank you hono ured s ir s h e b egan lo fti ly
,
T h e cau se s , .

that have i nduced u s ( take the m oney Po l enka : you s e e t h er e ,

are generou s and h onou rable people w h o are ready to help a

poo r gentlewoman i n di str ess ) Yo u s e e honou red s ir the se .
, ,

o rphans o f good family— I m ight even s a y o f ar istocratic

connecti ons— and that w retch o f a general s at eating g rou se
and stamped at my di stu rbi ng h im ‘
You r excel lency ’

‘
.
,

I said protect the orphans fo r yo u knew my l ate hu s b and

, , ,

S emyo n Z a h a r o v it c h and on the ve ry day o f hi s death the

,

base st o f scoundrel s slandered hi s only dau g hter That

poli cem an agai n ! P rote ct m e ” cri ed to th e o fficial
she , .

Why i s that pol iceman edging up to me ? We have

o nly j ust run away f rom o n e o f them What do you want
”
.
,

foo l ?
43 8 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y
“
Yo u
’
It s forbidden i n th e str eets
’
. mu stn t make a di s
’
t u rb a n c e f
“ ’
you r e making a di stu rbance It s j u st th e sam e a s i f
’
'

It s .

”
I we re grindin g an o rgan What b us i ne s s i s it o f you r s ? .

“
You hav e to get a l i cence fo r an o rgan and you h av en t ,
’

got one and i n that w ay you collect a cr owd Whe r e do you

,
.

”
lodge ?
”
"
What a li cence ? waile d K ate rin a I v anovna I bu ri ed
”
.
,

my hu s b and to day What n eed o f a l i cence- ?

”
.

C alm you rsel f m adam calm you rs el f b egan the o ffic ial
, , , .

C ome along ; I wi ll e s co rt you Thi s i s no pl ace fo r yo u

i n the crowd Y o u ar e i ll . .

H onour ed s ir honou red si r yo u d o n t know

’
, s cr eamed , ,
“
K aterina Ivano vna We a r e goi ng to th e N ev sky .

S oni a S oni a ! Whe r e i s s h e ? S h e i s crying too ! What s ’

”
,

the matte r w ith you al l ? K olya Lida w her e ar e you go ing ?

, ,
“
s h e cri ed suddenly i n al arm O h silly ch i ld ren ! K olya .
, ,

Lida wher e ar e they o ff t o !

,

K olya and Lida scar ed out o f the i r w it s by th e c rowd

, ,
’
and thei r mothe r s m ad p ranks suddenly s ei zed each othe r by ,

th e hand and r an o ff at the si ght o f the pol i ceman who

,

wanted to take them away som ewhe re Weepi ng and wai ling .
,

poo r K aterina I vanovna r an a fte r them S h e w a s a piteou s .

and unseemly spe ctacle a s s h e ran w e ep ing and panti ng fo r ,

breath S oni a and Polenk a ru shed a fte r he r

. .

“
B ring th em b ack b ri ng them b ack S oni a ! O h stupid , , ,

ungrate fu l children ! Polenka ! c at ch them I t s fo r ’

you r s ake s .

S he stum b l ed a s s h e r an and fell dow n

”
.

S he s cut her sel f she s b le eding ! O h d ea r ! c ri ed S oni a

’
,
’

bending ove r he r .

Al l ran u p and crowd ed r ound Raskolnikov and Le b e z ia t .

n ik o v we r e t h e fi r st at h er side th e o ffi ci al to o hastened up
”
, ,
“
and behind hi m th e pol i ceman who mutte red Bothe r ! with ,

a ge stu r e o f impati ence feeling that the j ob was go ing to b e ,

a troub l esom e one

”
.

“
Pass o n ! P as s o n ! h e s aid to th e crowd that p re ssed
fo rward .

“ ’
She s dyi ng som e one shouted
”
.
,
’
Sh e ss g o n e out o f he r mind s aid ano the r , .
4 40 F Y ODO R D O S T O EV S K Y
The ble eding ceased fo r a time Sh e l ooked with sick but .

i ntent and penetrating eye s at S oni a w h o stoo d p al e and ,

trem b ling wipin g the sweat from h e r b row w ith a h a n dk e r

,

chi e f At last s h e asked to b e r ai sed They s a t he r up o n

.
.

th e b ed suppo rting he r on both side s

” h
.
,
“
Wher e ar e the childr en ? s e s ai d i n a f aint vo ice .

Y ou v e b rought them Polenka ? O h th e s illi e s ! Why did

’

”
,

you run away O ch ! .

O nce mo r e he r parched l ip s wer e cov e red w ith blood S he .

moved h er eye s lo oking a b out her ,

.

“
S o that s how you l ive S oni a ! N ev e r once h av e I be en
’

”
,

in you r room .

S he looked at h er w ith a face o f su ffer ing .

“
We hav e be en you r ru in S o ni a Po l enka Lida K olya ,
.
, , ,

come h ere ! Well here they ar e S oni a t ake them all ! I , , ,

’
hand th em ov er to you I v e had enough ! Th e b all i s ov e r '

”
.
,

( C ough ! ) Lay me down l et m e di e in p e ace ,

.

They lai d he r back o n the pi ll ow .

“ ’ ’
Wh at the p ri e st ? I do n t w ant h im You haven t got a
, .

roubl e to spare I hav e no sins G o d mu st forgiv e m e w ith

. .

o u t that H e knows how I have su ffered And i f H e

”
. .

’ ’
wo n t forgive me I don t c are ! ,

S he sank mo re and more into uneasy del i r ium At t ime s .

s h e shudde red turned he r eyes f rom side to sid e recogni sed

, ,

eve ry o n e fo r a minute but at o nce s ank i nto deli r ium again ,

.

H e r b re athing wa s ho ar s e and di fficult the re w as a sort o f ,

r attl e i n h e r throat .

“
I said to h im you r excellency sh e ej acul ated gasping, , ,

“
a fte r e ach wo rd That Amali a Lu d w igo v n a ah ! Lida
.
,

K olya hands o n you r hips m ake h aste !

, Gl is s e z gl is s e a ’ , ,
.

pa s d e ba s qu e ! Tap w ith you r he el s b e a grace fu l child ! ,

D u h a s t D ia m cm te n
.
a nd P e r l en

What next ? ’
That s th e thing to s ing .

D i r h a s t d i e s c h o n s te n A u g e n
/
M ad e ze n , w a s w i l l s t d a m e h r ?

What an ide a ! EV a s w il l s t d i i m e hr . What things th

fool invents ! Ah ye s ! ,

In th e h e a t o f m id d a y i n th e va l e o f D a g e s ta n .
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 44 1

Ah h ow I loved i t ! I lov ed that son g to di str actio n

, ,

Polenka ! You r fathe r you kno w u sed to sing it when we , ,

’
were engaged O h tho s e days ! O h that s the thing fo r
.

u s to sing ! H o w do es i t g o ? I v e forgotten Remind me ! ’

”
.

how was it ?
Sh e was v iolently excited and tri ed to s it up At la st in a .
,

ho rribly hoa rs e b roken vo ice s h e b egan shri eking and

, , ,

gasping at eve ry wo rd with a loo k o f growing ter ro r ,

In t h e h e a t o f m i d d a y ! in th e va le ! o f D ag e s ta n !
W i t h l e a d i n m y br e a s t !
”
You r excellency ! s h e wailed suddenly w ith a heart
“
r endi ng scream and a flood o f te ars p rotect the o rphans ! ,
’
Y o u hav e b een thei r father s gu est o n e may say ari s

t o c r a t ic .S he started regaining con sciou sne ss and , ,

g azed at al l with a sort o f te rro r bu t at o nce r ecogni sed ,

S o nia
”
.

“
S oni a S oni a ! s h e articul ated so ftly and caressingly as
, ,
“
though su rpr i sed to find he r the re S oni a d arling ar e yo u .

”
,

here to o ?
,

T hey li fted her up again .

“ ’
E nou g h ! It s ove r ! F a rewell poo r th ing ! I am don e
”
,

fo r ! I am broken ! s h e c ri ed with v ind ictive despai r and ,

h er head fel l he av ily back on th e pi llow .

S he sank into unco nsciou sne ss again but thi s time i t did ,

not last long H e r pale yellow wasted face d ropped back

.
, , ,

he r mouth fell open he r l eg mov ed convul siv ely sh e gav e a

, ,

deep deep s igh and died

, .

S oni a fell upon he r flung he r arm s ab out he r and r e ,

mained motionles s W i th h er he ad p res sed to th e de ad

’
woman s wasted bosom Pol enka threw he r sel f at he r .

’
mother s feet ki ssing them and weepi ng v iolently Thou g h
,
.

K olya and Lida did not understand what had happened ,

they had a feel ing that it was something ter ri b l e ; they put
’
thei r hands o n each other s little should ers stared strai g ht ,

at o ne anothe r and both at once opened thei r mouths and

b egan scr eaming T hey wer e b oth still in thei r fancy d res s ;
.

o n e i n a turban th e othe r i n the cap with th e o strich

,

feathe r .

And how did th e certifi cate o f mer it com e to b e o n the

4 42 F Y ODO R DO ST OEV S K Y

b ed b eside Katerina Ivanovn a ? It l ay th er e by the pillow ;

Rasko lniko v s a w it .

H e walked away t o th e w indow L e b e z ia tn iko v skipped .

up to him .

S h e i s dead h e s aid ,
.

Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h I mu st hav e t w o w o rds wi th you , ,

said S v id r ig a i l o v comi ng up to them ,

.

L e b e z ia tn ik o v at o nce m ade room fo r h im and d eli

c a t e l y withdrew S v id r ig a i l o v d rew Raskol nikov fu rthe r
.

away .

“
I wil l undertake all the ar rangements the fu ne ral and ,
’
th at Y o u know i t s a qu estion o f mo ney and a s I t o ld you
.
, ,

I have plenty to spare I w ill put thos e two l ittl e one s and .

Polenka i nto som e good o rphan a sylum and I wi ll settl e ,

fi fteen hundred roubl e s t o b e p aid to e ach o n coming o f age ,

s o that S o fya S e m yo n o v n a ne ed hav e no anxiety about them .

And I wi ll pul l he r o ut o f th e mud to o fo r s h e i s a go od ,

girl i sn t s h e ? S o tell A v do tya Ro m a n o v n a that that i s h o w

’

I am spending he r ten thou s and

”
.

“
What i s you r motiv e fo r such b enevo lence ? asked
Raskolniko v
”
.

Ah ! yo u skepti cal p e rs o n ! l au ghed S v id riga i l o v I .

’
told you I h ad no need o f that money Won t you admit that
‘
.

’ ’ ’
it s simply done f ro m hu manity ? S he w asn t a lou se yo u
”
,

know ( he po inted to th e co rne r where the dead woman l ay )

‘
,
’
was s h e like some o ld p aw n b ro ker woman ? C om e you l l
, ,

a g re e i s Luzhin to go o n liv ing and do ing wi cked things o r

, ,

i s s h e to di e ? A nd i f I didn t help th em Polenka wou ld go ’

,

the s ame w a y .

H e said thi s with an ai r o f a s ort o f gay w inki ng slynes s ,

keeping hi s eye s fixed o n Raskolnikov w h o tu rned white and ,

cold hearing hi s own phrase s spoken t o S oni a H e qu i ckly

, ,
.

stepped b ack and l ooked w ildly at S v id r iga i l o v

”
.

“
H o w d o you kno w ? h e whi sper ed hardly abl e t o ,

b reathe
‘
.

“
Why I l odge he re at M adame Re s s l ic h s th e othe r s ide
,
’

o f the wal l H e re i s K a p e r n a u m o v and th ere l iv es M adam e

.
,

Re s s l ic h an o l d and d evoted fri end o f mine I am a

”
.
,

n ei g hbou r
”
.

“
Yo u ?
 P A RT V I

C HAP T E R I

S TRA N G E p e rio d began fo r Raskolnikov : i t was as

though a fog had fall en upo n h im and w rapped him
i n a dre ary sol itude from which the re w as no e scap e .

Recalling that peri od long a fte r h e beli ev ed that hi s mind

,

had been clouded at times and that it h ad continu ed so at

, ,

i nte rv al s till th e fi nal catastrophe H e was co nvinced that

,
.

he had been mi staken about many things at th at t ime fo r ,

i nstance a s to the date o f c ertain ev ents Any way w hen .

,

h e tried late r o n to p i ece h is r ecoll ections together he le arnt ,

a great d eal about himsel f f rom what othe r p eopl e told hi m .

H e had mixed up i ncident s and h ad expl ained ev ents a s du e

to circumstance s which exi sted o nly i n hi s imaginatio n At .

time s h e w a s a pr ey to agoni es o f mo rb id uneas iness amount ,

in g sometime s to p ani c . But h e r emembered to o mo ments , , ,

hou rs pe rhap s whole days o f compl ete ap athy wh ich came

, , ,

upo n hi m as a r eacti on f rom hi s p rev iou s te rro r and might

b e compa red with the abnor mal i nsensibi lity sometimes s een ,

i n the dying H e seemed to b e t rying i n that latter stage

.

to e scap e f rom a full and clear und er standing o f hi s pos ition .

C ertai n e ssential facts which requ i r ed imm edi at e conside ra

tion wer e p articul arly i rksome to him H o w gl ad he woul d
.

have b een to b e f ree f ro m som e care s the neglect o f wh ich

,

would hav e threatened him with complete i nev itable ruin ,

.

H e wa s particularly wo r ri ed abo ut S v id r ig a i l o v h e might ,

b e said to b e pe rmanently thinking o f S v id r ig a i l o v F rom .

the time o f S v id r iga i l o v s too menacing and unmi stakabl e

’

’ ’
w o rds in S oni a s room at the moment o f K aterin a Iv a n o v n a s
death the no rmal wo rkin g o f h i s mi nd seemed to b re ak
,

down . But although thi s new fact cau sed him extreme
uneasiness Raskolnikov wa s i n no hu rry fo r an explanatio n
,

44 4
 C R IM E A ND P UN I S H MEN T 445

of it At times fi nding hi ms el f in a sol itary and remote part

. ,

of the town in som e w retched eating hou se sitting alone

,
—
,

lo st in thought h ardly knowing how h e had com e the re h e

, ,

suddenly thought o f S v id r iga i l o v H e r ecognised suddenly .

,

clearly and with di smay th at he ou g ht at o nce to co me to

,

an u nderstanding wi th th at man and to make wh at te rm s

h e could Walki ng outside the city gate s on e day he po s i
.
,

t iv e l y fanci ed that they had fixed a meeting the re that h e ,

w a s waiting for S v id r ig a i l o v Another time h e woke u p .

b e fo re day b reak lying on the ground unde r some b ush es and

could not at fi r st understand how h e h ad come ther e .

B ut du ring th e two o r three days a fte r K aterina Iva

n o v n a s death he had two o r thre e time s met S v id r ig a i l o v at
’

S oni a s lodging wher e he had gone ai ml es sly fo r a moment

’

,
.

T hey exchanged a few wo rds and made n o re ference to th e

v ital su b j ect a s though they wer e tacitly agreed not to sp eak
,

o f it fo r a time .

K aterina Iv a n o v n a s body was sti ll lying i n th e co ffin

’
,

S v id r ig a i l o v was b usy making arrangements for th e fune ral .

S oni a too was v ery b u sy At thei r last meeting S v id r iga il o v .

in fo rmed Rasko lnikov that h e had made an arr angem ent and ,

a ve ry s ati s facto ry o ne fo r K ateri na Iv a n o v n a s children ; ,

’

that he had throu g h certai n connections succeeded in g etting

, ,

hold o f certain pe rsonage s b y who se help th e thr ee o rph an s

could be at o nce pl aced i n v ery su ita b le i nstitutions ; that th e
money h e had s ettled o n them had been o f great assi stance ,

a s i t i s much easi e r to place o rphan s w ith some p roperty

than de stitute ones H e said something to o a b out So ni a and.

p romi sed to com e himsel f in a day o r two t o s e e Ra skolnikov ,

“
mentioning that he would like to consult w ith him that ,

ther e we re things they mu st talk ov e r .

T hi s conversation took place i n th e pas sage o n th e stai r s .

S v id r ig a i l o v looked i ntently at Raskolnikov and suddenly ,

“
a fter a b ri e f pau se d ropping h i s vo ice asked : But how is , ,

i t Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch ; you don t seem you r sel f ? Y o u look

,
’

and you li sten b ut you don t s eem to und er stand C hee r

,
’
.

’
up ! We l l talk thin g s over ; I am o nly sor ry I v e s o much to ,
’

do o f my own b u sine s s and othe r peopl e s Ah Rodion ’

”
.
,

Ro m a n o v itc h he added suddenly what al l men need i s

”
, ,

fresh ai r f resh ai r ,
mo re th an anything !
4 46 FY ODO R DO S TOEV S K Y

H e mov ed to o n e side to make way fo r th e p r i es t and

se rv e r w h o we re coming up the stai rs They had come fo r
,
.

’
the r equi em se rvi ce B y S v id r iga i l o v s o rd e rs it w a s sung
.

twice a day punctu ally S v id r ig a i l o v w ent his way Rasko l . .

n ik o v stood sti ll a moment thought and followed the p rie st

, ,

i nto S onia s room H e stood at th e doo r

’
. They b egan .

qu ietly slowly and mou rn fully singi ng th e se rv i ce F ro m

,
.

hi s childhoo d the thou ght o f d eath and th e p re sen ce o f

death had something opp re ssiv e and myster iou sly aw ful ; and
it was long s ince he h ad he ard th e r equ iem s erv i ce And .

the re was something el s e he re as w ell too aw ful and di s ,

t u r b in g H e looked at the children : th ey w e re all kneel ing

.

b y the co ffi n ; Polenka w a s weeping B ehind them S o ni a .

‘
p rayed so ftly and a s i t w ere timidly we ep ing
, , ,
.

“ ’
T hese last two days s h e h asn t s ai d a wo rd to me sh e
”
.

’
hasn t glanced at me Raskolniko v thought suddenly Th e ,
.

sunli ght w a s b right i n the room ; th e i ncense ro se in clouds ;

“
the p ri est read Giv e r est oh Lord
,
Raskolnikov ,
.

stayed all th rough the s erv ice A s h e bl ess ed them and took .

hi s leave the pri e st looked round st rangely

,
A fte r th e .

se rv ice Raskolniko v went up to S onia S he took both hi s

, .

h ands and l et h er head sink o n h i s shoulde r Thi s slight

.
.

friendly gestu re b ewildered Ra skolnikov I t s eemed strange .

to hi m that ther e w a s n o t race o f r epu gnance no tr ace o f ,

di sgu st no tremo r in h e r hand I t was the furthe st l imit

, .

o f sel f abnegation
-
at least s o h e i nte rpreted it
, .

S oni a s aid nothi ng Raskolnikov pr ess ed h er hand and .

went o u t H e f elt v ery m is erabl e I f it had b ee n pos si b le

. .

to e scape to som e soli tude he wou ld h ave thought h ims el f ,

lu cky even i f he had to spend h i s whol e l i fe ther e B ut a l

, .

though he had almo st always b een by hims el f o f l ate h e h a d ,

neve r been a b l e to feel alone S ometime s h e w alked o u t o f .

the to w n on to th e hi gh road on ce he h ad even r eached a ,

l ittl e wood b ut the lonel i er the pl ace was the mo r e h e

, ,

seemed to b e a w are o f an u neasy p r es ence n ear him It did .

n o t frighten him b ut greatly annoyed him s o that h e m a de

, ,

haste to retu rn to the town to mingl e with th e crowd to , .

enter restaurants and tave rns to walk i n bu sy thorou gh fares , .

There he fel t e asi er and e ven mo re sol itary O n e day at du sk .

n e s a t f o r an hou r l i s t e n 1 n
g to songs i n a tav e rn and he r e
4 48 FY ODO R D OS T O E V S K Y

actions and fr o m you r recent b eh av iou r t o you r m o the r and

.

si ste r O nly a monste r o r a madman could t reat the m a s

”
.

you hav e ; s o you mu st b e m ad

”
.

“
When did you s e e them la st ?

ust now H av en t you seen th em since then ? Wh at

’

j .

’
h av e you b een doing with yours el f ? Tell me pl ease I v e , .

been to you thre e time s al re ady You r mother ha s be en .

seriou sly ill s ince ye ste rday S he had m ade up h e r m ind to .

come to you ; A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a t r i ed to p rev ent he r ;

s h e wouldn t hear a wo rd
‘I f h e i s i ll i f hi s mind is giving
’
.
,
’
w a y who can look a fter him l ike hi s mothe r ? s h e s aid
,
We .

’
al l came h ere togethe r w e couldn t l et h er come al one all ,

the way We kept b egging h e r to b e c alm We came i n

. .
,
’
you weren t here ; sh e s a t down and stayed ten m inutes , ,

w hi le w e stoo d waiting i n si le nce S h e got up and sai d

‘
.

’
I f he s g o ne out that i s i f he i s w ell and h a s fo rgotten h i s
, , ,

mother it s humili ating and u nseemly fo r hi s mothe r to stand

,
’

’
at hi s doo r b egging fo r kindne ss Sh e retu rned home and
‘
.

’
took to he r b ed ; now s h e is i n a fev er I s e e s h e said
‘
.
, ,

’
that he has time fo r his g ir l S he m eans by yo u r girl .

S o fya S e m yo n o v n a you r b etrothed o r you r mi stre s s I don t

’
, ,
’
kno w I w ent at once to S o fya S e m yo n o v n a s fo r I w anted
.
,

to know what was going o n I looked round I s a w the .

,

co ffin the children crying and S o fya S e m yo n o v n a trying

, ,

them on mourning d res ses N o si g n o f you I apologi sed . .

,
’
came away and r epo rted to A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a S o that s
, .

all nonsense and you h av en t go t a g i rl ; the mo st l ikely thing ’

i s that yo u are mad But her e yo u s it gu zzl ing bo il ed b e e f

.
,
’
a s though you d no t h ad a bite fo r thre e days Though a s .

far as that g o es madmen eat too bu t thou gh you h av e not

, ,
’
s aid a wo rd to m e yet you a re not mad ! That I d
swear ! Abov e all you ar e not mad ,
S o you m ay g o t o .

hell all o f you fo r th ere s some myste ry some secret about

, ,
’

,
’
it and I don t intend to wo r ry my b rain s o ve r you r secrets
, .

S o I v e simply come to swear at you ” h e fi ni shed

’
getting , ,

up , to reli ev e my mind And I know what to do n o w

”
. .

“
\ V h a t do you m ean to do now ?
“
\ V h a t busine ss i s it o f you r s wh at I me an t o d o ? ”
“
You are g oing i n fo r a dri nking bout ”
”
.

How how did yo u know ?

 C R IM E A ND P UN IS H ME N T 449

’
Why it s p retty plai n
, .

Ra z u m ihin pau sed fo r a minute .

“
Y o u always hav e b een a v ery r atio nal pe rson and y o u v e
’

”
neve r b een mad neve r he ob s erved suddenly with w armth
”
.
, ,
’
You re right : I shal l drink Goo d bye ! .
-

And h e moved to go o u t .

“
I was talking with my sister— the day be fo re yeste rday I
think i t w a s— about you Ra z u m ihin , .

“
About me ! B ut whe re can you have seen he r the
”
day be for e ye sterday ? Ra z u m ih in stopped sho rt and even
turned a l ittl e p ale .

O n e could se e that hi s heart wa s throbbing slowly and

v iol ently .

“
She came h ere by her sel f s a t ther e and talked to m e
”
.
,

S he did !
Ye s
”
.

What did yo u s a y to he r I mean about me ?

,

I told her you were a v ery good hone st and indu striou s , ,
’
man I didn t tell her you lov e he r becau s e s h e know s th at
”
.
,

he rsel f
”
.

“
S h e knows that hers el f ?
’
Well i t s p retty plain Wher ev e r I mi ght go w h ateve r
, .
,

happened to me you would r emai n to look a fte r them I

,
.
,

s o to speak giv e them into you r keeping Ra z u m ihin

,
I say ,
.

t his b e c a u se I know quite well ho w you lov e he r and am

a

co nvinced o f the pu rity o f yo u r heart I know that she too .

may lov e you and p erhap s do e s lov e you al ready Now .

decide fo r yo u rsel f a s you know b est whethe r yo u need go

”
, ,

in fo r a d rinking bout o r not .

“
Ro dya ! You s e e well Ach damn i t ! B ut .
,

whe re do you mean to go ? O f cou r se i f i t s all a secret ,

’
.

neve r mi nd But I
. I shall find out th e secret
and I am sur e that it mu st b e some ridiculou s nonsense and
that you ve made it all up Anywa y you ar e a capital fellow
’
.
,

a capital fellow !
“
That w a s j u st what I wanted to add o nly you inte rrupted , ,

th at that was a v e ry good deci sion o f you r s not to find o u t

the se secret s Le av e it to tim e don t wo r ry a b out it You ll
.
,
’
.
’

know i t al l in time when it mu st b e Yesterday a man said .

to me that what a man need s i s fresh ai r fre sh ai r fresh , ,

45 0 FY ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

a ir mean to go to h im di rectly to fi nd o ut wh at h e m e an t
I
”
.

b y that .

Ra z u m ihin stood lo st i n th o u ght and excitement making ,

a silent conclu sion .

“ ’
H e s a political conspi rato r ! H e mu st b e And he s o n
’
.

’
the eve o f some despe rate step th at s c ertai n I t c a n o nly b e
”
.
,

that ! And and D ouni a know s h e thought suddenly ,

.

“
S o A v d o t ya Ro m an o v n a come s to s e e you h e s aid , ,
“ ’
weighing each syll abl e and you r e go ing to s e e a m an who ,

says we need mo r e ai r and s o o f cou rs e that l ette r ,

that
too must h av e something t o d o w ith i t h e co ncluded t o ,

himsel f
”
.

\ What l ette r
“
?

S he got a l ette r t o day I t u pset h e r v e ry much— v ery -

.

“
mu ch indeed Too much s o I b egan spe aking o f you s h e
. .
,

b egged m e not to Then then she sai d that perhap s w e

.

should v ery soon hav e to p art then s h e b egan warmly

thanking me fo r s omething ; then s h e went t o h e r r o o m and
l o cked her sel f i n ”
”
.

“
S he bgot a l etter ? Raskolniko v asked th o ught fu lly .

“
Y es and yo u didn t know ? h m
’ ’
,

They w ere both s ilent .

“
Goo d b ye Rodi on The r e was a ti me b rother wh e n I
-
, .
,

N eve r mind go od bye You s e e ther e was a time

,
-
.
,
.

Well go od b ye ! I mu st b e o ff to o I am not going to d ri nk

,
—
.
.

’
There s no need now That s all stu ff ! .
’

H e hu rri ed out ; but wh en h e had almo st clo sed th e doo r

behi nd him h e suddenly op ened it agai n and s aid lo o kin g
, , ,

away :
“
O h by th e w a y do you r ememb e r th at mu rde r you know
, , ,

P o r fi ry s that o ld woman ? D o you know the mu rde re r has

’

,
’
b een found h e ha s con fe ssed and given the p roo fs It s one
, .

o f tho se v ery wo rkmen th e p ainte r only fancy ! D o you , ,

remem b e r I de fended them her e ? Would you bel ieve it al l ,

that scene o f fi ghting and laughing w ith hi s comp anion o n

the stai r s whil e the po rter and th e two witnes se s w ere g o ing
up he got u p on purpos e to di sar m su sp icion Th e cunning
, . ,

th e presence o f mind o f the young dog ! O n e can h ardl y

credit i t ; but it s hi s o w n expl anation h e has con fessed i t
’

all And what a fo o l I w a s a bo ut it ! Well he s s imply a

.
,
’
45 2 F Y ODO R DO S T OE V S K Y
’
w hat s the mean ing n o w o f th at l ette r ? The re s som ething i n
’

that too perhap s Whom w a s it from ? I su spect

. No ,
”
, .

I mu st fi nd out !
H e thought o f D ouni a reali sing all h e h ad h e ard and ,

h is h eart th ro b bed and h e suddenly b roke i nto a ru n

,
.

A s soon a s Ra z u m ih in went out Raskolnikov got up , ,

tu rned to the windo w walked into one co rne r and th en i nto

,

anothe r as thou gh fo rgetting the smallne ss o f hi s room and

, ,

s a t do w n again o n the so fa He f elt so to speak r enewed ;

.
, ,

again the stru g gl e s o a means o f e scape had com e

,
.

“
Y e s a m ean s o f e scape had com e !
,
It had b een too
sti fling too cramping the b u rden had b een too agonising A
, , .

l ethargy had come upo n him at time s F ro m the moment .

o f the scene with N ikol ay at P o r fi r y s h e h ad b een s u ffo c a t ’

n g penned i n without hope o f escap e A fte r N ik o l a y s c o n ’

i .
,

fe s s io n o n that v ery day h ad com e the scene with S oni a ;

,

hi s b eh av iou r and hi s l a st wo rds h ad b een utt erly u nl ike any

thing h e could hav e im agined b e for ehand ; he h ad grown
f ee b l er in stantly and fund amentally ! And he h ad agreed
,

at the time with S oni a he had agreed in hi s heart h e could ,

not g o on living alone with such a thing o n hi s mind !

A n d S v id r ig a i l o v was a r iddl e H e wo rri ed him that ,

was tru e but somehow not on the same point H e mi ght

,
.

still have a struggl e to com e w ith S v id r ig a i l o v S v id r iga i l o v .

,

to o might b e a means o f escape ; but P o r fi r y was a di fferent

,

matte r .

“
And so P o fi r y himsel f had expl ained i t to Ra z u m ih in ,

had expl ained it ps yc h o l o gic a ll y H e h ad b egun b ri nging .

i n hi s damned psychology again P o r fi r y ? B ut to think that

P o r fi r y should fo r one moment b eli ev e that N ikolay was
’
guilty a fte r wh at h ad pas sed b etwe en them b e for e N ik o l a y s
,

appear ance a fter that t ete a t ete i nterv i ew whi ch cou ld hav e
.
- —
,

only o n e explanati on ? ( D u r in g tho s e days Rasko lnikov had

o ften recall ed p assages i n that scene w ith P o r fi r y ; he could
not b ear to let h i s mind re st o n it ) S uch wo rds such ges .
,

tu re s h ad passed between them th ey h ad exch anged such ,

glances things had b een said i n such a tone and had re ached
,

such a pass that N ikol ay whom P o rfi r y had seen th rough

, ,

at the first wo rd at the fi rst ge stu re could not have shaken ,

hi s convi ction .
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 45 3

And to think that even Ra z u m ih in had b egun to su spect !

The scene i n the co rri do r u nder the l amp had produced its
e ffect then H e had ru shed to P o r fi r y
. But what had .

induced the latte r to deceive him l ike that ? What h ad been

hi s obj ect i n putting Ra z u m ihin o ff with N ikolay ? H e
mu st hav e some plan ; there was some desi g n but what was ,

i t ? It was t ru e that a lon g time had passed since that

mo rning too long a time— and no s ight nor sound o f Po r
—

fi ry . Well that was a b ad sign

,
.

Raskolnikov took hi s cap and went o u t o f the room still ,

po ndering I t was the fi rst time fo r a long whi le th at he

.

“
had felt clear i n hi s mind at least I mu st settl e S v id r i
,
.

g a il o v h e thought
,
“
and as soon a s po s s ibl e ; he t o o
, , ,

seem s to b e waiting fo r me to come to him o f my own

acco rd ” And at that moment ther e w a s such a ru sh o f
.
‘

hate i n hi s weary heart that he mi ght have kill ed eithe r o f

these t w o P o r fi ry o r S v id r iga i l o v At l east he felt that h e
-
.

would b e cap a b l e o f doing it later i f no t now

”
.
,
“
We shal l s e e w e shall see h e r ep eated to himsel f
, ,
.

B ut no soone r had h e O pened th e doo r than he stumbled

upon P o r fi r y himsel f in the passage H e w a s coming i n .

to s e e him Raskolnikov w as dum b founded fo r a minute

. .

but only fo r one mi nute S trange to s a y h e w a s not v ery .

,

much astoni shed at s eeing P o r fi r y and scarcely a fraid o f

him H e was simply startled but w as qu ickly i nstantly on
.
, , ,
“
hi s gu ard Perhap s thi s will mean the end ? B ut how
.

could P o r fi ry have appr oached s o qu ietly like a cat so that , ,

he had heard nothing ? C ould be h ave b een li stening at the

doo r ?
“
You didn t expect a v i sito r Rodi on Ro m a n o v it ch Po r
’

, ,
“
fi ry explained l au ghi ng I v e b een meaning to look i n a ’
.
,

long t ime ; I wa s pas sing by and thought w h y not g o in fo r

fiv e minutes Are you going out ? I won t keep you lo n g ’

”
. .

Ju st let me hav e o ne ci garette .

“
S it down P o r fi ry P etrovitch s it down
,
Raskolnikov , ,

gav e hi s v i sito r a s eat with so pl eased and fri endly an

expression that he would hav e marv elled at himsel f i f h e ,

could have seen it .

Th e l ast moment h ad come the l ast drops had to b e ,

drained ! S o a man wi ll sometime s go throu gh hal f an

45 4 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

hou r o f mo rtal te rror with a b rigand yet wh en the kni fe i s

,

at hi s throat at l ast he feel s no f ear.

Raskolnikov seated him sel f di rectly facing P o r fi ry and ,

looked at him without fl in c h in g P o r fi ry sc rewed up h i s eye s

.

and b egan lighting a cigarette .

”
S peak spe ak s eemed a s though it wou ld bu r st from
”
, ,
“ ’
Ra sk o l n ik o v s heart
’
. C ome why don t yo u sp eak ?
,
45 6 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y

st range o n e ; b ut then and o ne thi ng a fter another !

T hi s i s the point : I hav e perhap s acted un fai rly to yo u ; I
fee l it D o you r emem b e r how we parted ? You r ne rv e s
.

w ere unhinged and you r kne e s we re sh aking and so w e re

mine And you know ou r beh aviou r w a s u nseemly ev en
.
, , ,

ungentl emanly And yet we ar e gentlemen abov e all i n

.
, ,

any case gentlemen ; that mu st b e u nde r stood D o yo u

”
.
,

r emem b er what we came to i t was qu ite i ndecorou s

”
.

“
What is h e up to what do e s he t ake m e f or ? Raskol
,

mikov asked h imsel f i n amazement r ai sing hi s head and ,

lo oking with open eye s o n P o r fi ry .

“
I v e decid ed openne s s i s b etter b etwe en u s P o r fi ry
’

Petrov itch went o n tu rni ng hi s head away and d roppi n g hi s

,

eyes a s thou gh unwilling to di sconcert hi s fo rm er v ictim

,
“
and a s though di sdaini ng h i s fo rmer w i le s Ye s such .
,

suspicion s and su ch scene s c annot conti nu e fo r l ong N iko .

’
lay put a stop to i t o r I don t know what w e mi ght not ,

hav e come to That damned wo rkman was sitting at the

.

time i n the next room — can you r eal i se that ? You know
that o f cou rse ; and I am awar e th at h e came to you a fter
,

w ard s But w hat yo u suppo s ed then w a s not tru e : I had

.

not sent fo r any o ne I h ad made no ki nd o f ar rangement s ,

.

You a sk why I hadn t ? W hat shall I s a y to you : it had all ’

come upon me s o suddenly I had scarcely sent fo r the .

po rte rs ( you noti ce d them as you w ent o u t I d are say ) ,

.

An idea fl ashed upon me ; I w as fi rmly co nv inced a t th e

time you s e e Rodi on Ro m a n o v it c h
, , C ome I thought .
,

ev en i f I l et one thing slip fo r a time I shall get hold o f .

’
something els e— I shan t lo s e what I want anyway Yo u ,
.

ar e ne rvou sly i rrita b l e Rodi on Ro m a n o v it c h b y t emper a , ,

’
m ent ; it s out o f p ropo rtio n with othe r qualiti es o f you r
heart and characte r whi ch I fl atte r mysel f I hav e to some
,

extent div ined O f cou r se I d id r eflect ev en then that it

.

do es not always h app en th at a man gets up and b lurts o u t

hi s whol e sto ry It do e s happen sometime s i f you make
.
,

a man lo se all p atience though even th en it s r are I was ,

’
.

capa b l e o f r eal i sing th at I f I o nly h ad a fact I thought .

, ,

the l east littl e fact to go upon something I could lay hold ,

of, something tangi b le no t merely p sycho logi cal F o r i f a , .

m an i s guilty yo u mu st b e able to get something substanti al

,
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME NT 57

out of hi m ;
may r eckon upo n mo st surpri sing r esult s
one

i ndeed I was r eckoning o n you r temperament Rodio n

.
,

Ro m a n o v it c h o n you r temperament abov e al l things ! I had

”
,

great hopes o f you at that ti me .

“
B ut what are you driving at now Raskolnikov mut
te r e d at l ast asking th e questio n without thinking
”
, .

‘
“
What i s he talking a b out ? h e wonde red d istractedly
”
,

do e s he really take m e to b e i nnocent ?

“ ’
What am I driving at ? I v e com e to explain mysel f ,

I conside r i t my duty s o to speak I want to make clear to ,

.

you how the whol e bu sines s the whol e mi sunderstanding ,

’
arose . I v e cau sed you a great deal o f su ffer ing Rodio n ,

Ro m a n o v it c h I am not a monste r I u nderstand what i t

. .

mu st mean fo r a man w h o h a s b een un fo rtunate but who ,

i s proud i mp eriou s and abov e all impati ent to h av e to bear

, , ,

such tre atment ! I regard you i n any case as a m an o f

nobl e char acter and not without elements o f magnanimity ,

though I do n t agree with all you r conv iction s I w anted to

’
.

tell you thi s fi rst frankly and quite s ince rely fo r a b ov e all
, ,
’
I don t want to deceiv e you When I made yo ur acqu aint .

ance I felt attracted by you Perhap s yo u wi ll l augh at my

,
.

saying s o Y o u hav e a ri g ht to I know you di sl iked me

. .

’
from the fi r st and indeed you v e no r eason to like me You .

may think what you like but I desi r e now to do all I can to ,

e fface that impre s sion and to show th at I am a man o f

heart and con science I speak sincerely ” . .

P o r fi r y Petrov itch made a digni fied pau se Raskolnikov .

felt a ru sh o f renewed al arm Th e thought th at P o r fi r y .

beli ev ed him to b e i nnocent b egan to make him u ne asy

‘
.

’
It s scarcely nece ss ary to go ov er everything i n d etail ,
“
P o r fi ry P etr ov itch w ent o n Indeed I cou ld s carcely .
,

attempt it To begi n with ther e wer e rumo ur s Through

.
, .

whom ho w and w hen tho s e rumou r s c ame to me

, , and
how they a ffected you I need not g o into M y su spicions ,
.

wer e arou sed b y a complete accident which might j ust as ,

easily not h av e happened What was it ? H m ! I b eliev e .

the re i s no need to go into that eithe r Tho se rumou rs and .

that accident led to o n e idea i n my m ind I admit it openly .

— fo r one may a s well make a cle an b reast o f it— I was th e

’
fi rst to pitch o n you The o ld woman s notes o n th e pledges
.

1 6— R
45 8 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S KY

and th e re st o f it— that all came to nothing You r s was o n e .

o f a hundred I happened too to hear o f the scene at the

.
, ,

o ffice from a man who d escribed it c apitally unconscio usly

, ,

r ep roducing th e scen e w ith gr eat v iv idne s s It wa s j u s t .

o n e thin g a fter anothe r Rodio n Ro m a n o v it ch my dear fel , ,

lo w ! H o w could I avoid b eing b rou ght to certai n i deas ?

’
F rom a hundred r abbits you can t m ake a ho rse a hundred ,

su spicions don t make a proo f as the E ngl i sh p rov erb s ays

’
, ,

b ut that s o nl y from th e r ational po i nt o f v i ew— yo u can t

’ ’

help b eing parti al fo r a fte r all a l awye r i s only human I

, .

thought too o f you r arti cl e in that j ou rnal do yo u remem

, , ,

b e r o n you r fir st v i si t w e t alked o f i t ? I j ee red at yo u

,

at th e tim e but th at wa s o nly to le ad you o n I r epeat

,
.
,

Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch yo u ar e i ll and i mpati ent That yo u

, .

wer e b old headstrong i n e arnest and

, had felt a gre at
,

deal I recogni sed long b e fo r e I too hav e felt th e same .

, , ,

s o that you r arti cl e s eem ed fami li ar to m e It was con .

c e iv e d on sleeple s s ni ghts with a thr obbing heart in ecstasy , ,

and suppres sed enthu siasm And th at proud supp re ssed .

enthu si asm i n young p eopl e i s d angerou s ! I j eered at yo u

then but l et me t el l you that as a lite rary amateu r I am
, , ,

aw fully fond o f such fi rst es says full o f the heat o f youth ,

.

Ther e is mi stines s and a cho rd vib rating i n the midst You r .

arti cle i s ab surd and f anta stic b u t ther e s a transp arent ,

’

si ncer ity a youth ful inco r rupti b le pride and th e dar ing o f
,
’ ’ ’
de spai r i n it It s a gloomy article but th at s wh at s fi ne i n
.
,

it I read you r a rticl e and put i t aside thi nking a s I did so

‘
.
,
’
th at man won t g o th e commo n way Wel l I a sk you a fte r .
’
, ,

that as a pr el imi nary how cou ld I help b eing c ar r ied away ,

b y what f ol lowed ? O h de ar I am no t sayin g anything I , ,

am not making any statement now I s imply noted it at the .

’
time What i s ther e i n it ? I r eflected There s noth ing
. .

i n i t that i s really nothi ng and perh aps absolutely nothin g

,
.

’
And it s not at al l th e thing fo r the p ro secuto r to l et him
sel f be car ri ed away by noti ons : he re I hav e N ikolay o n
my hands with actu al evi dence against him— you m ay think
w hat you like o f it b ut it s evidence He b rings i n hi s ’
. .

’
p sycholo gy too ; o n e h a s to conside r him to o for it s a mat
, , ,

ter o f li fe and death Why am I expl aining thi s to you ? .

That you may under stand and not b l ame my m aliciou s ,

460 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

little fact I said S o when I h eard o f th e b el l ringing I h eld

’ -

‘
. ,

H er e i s my littl e fact
’
my b re ath and wa s al l in a tremo r .
,
’ ’
thou g h t I and I didn t think it ov er I si mply wouldn t I
, , .

would h av e given a thou sand roubl es at that m inu t e to

hav e s een you with my own eye s when you w alked a hu n ,

dred paces b eside that workman a fte r he h ad called you ,

mu rderer to you r face and you did no t dar e to a sk h im a ,

question all the way And then what about you r t r embling
.
,

what abou t you r bell ringing i n yo u r illne ss i n sem i -

,

d eli rium ?
“
And so Rodi on Ro m a n o v itc h c a n you wo nde r that I
, ,

played such pranks o n you ? And what made you come at

that v ery minute ? S ome o n e s eemed to have s ent you by ,

Jov e ! And i f N iko lay had not p arted u s and do you

remembe r N ikol ay at the ti m e ? D o you r emembe r hi m
clearly ? It wa s a thunderbolt a r egu lar thunderbolt ! And ,
’
how I met him ! I didn t b eli ev e i n th e thunderbolt not fo r ,

a minute Yo u cou ld see i t fo r you r sel f ; and how could I ?

.

E ven a fterwards when you had gone and h e began m aki ng

,

v ery v ery pl au sibl e an swers o n certain poi nts s o that I w a s

, ,
’
su rpri sed at him mys el f ev en th en I d idn t bel iev e h i s ,

sto ry ! Y o u s e e what i t i s to b e as fi rm as a rock ! N o ,

thought I m o r g e h fr ith What ha s N iko l a y got to do w ith

”
.
,

it !
Ra z u m ih in told m e j u st n o w that you think N ikol ay
guilty and h ad you rs el f as su r ed h im o f it .

H is vo ic e failed h im and he b rok e o ff H e h ad b een l i sten

,
.

ing in indescr ib abl e agitation as thi s man w h o had seen ,

th rou g h and through hi m went b ack upon himsel f H e was ,

.

a fraid o f b el ievi ng i t and did not b eli ev e it I n tho se st ill .

am b igu ou s wo rds h e kept eagerly looking fo r s o meth ing mo r e

defi nite and conclus ive .

M r Ra z u m ihin
. cri ed Po r fi ry P etrov itch s eeming gl ad ,

o f a qu estion from Raskolnikov who had ti ll then b e en , ,

“
s il ent . H e h e h e ! But I h ad to put M r Ra z u m ih in o ff :
- -
.

two i s company thre e is none M r Ra z u m ihin i s not th e

, . .

r ight man b esides h e i s an outside r H e came ru nning t o

, .

m e with a pal e face But nev er mind him why b ring

.
,

h im in ! To r etu rn to N ikol ay woul d you like to kno w what ,

so rt o f a typ e h e is how I unde rstand h im th a t is ? T o

, ,
 CR IM E AND P UN I S H M E NT 4 61

begin w ith h e i s stil l a chi ld and not exactly a coward but

, ,
’
something by way o f an artist Real ly don t l augh at my .
,

d escr ibing him s o H e i s innocent and r esponsiv e to in fl u

.

ence H e has a heart and i s a fantasti c fellow H e sings

.
,
.

and dances h e tell s sto ri es they s a y s o that peopl e come

, , ,

from othe r v ill ages to hear h im H e attends schoo l to o .

,

and l augh s til l h e cri e s i f yo u ho ld u p a fin g e r to h im ; h e

w il l d rink hims el f s ensel ess— not as a regul ar v ice but at ,

t imes when p eopl e t reat him l ik e a ch ild And h e sto le to o

,
‘
th en w ithout knowing it h imsel f fo r How can it b e steal
, ,

, ,

ing i f o n e p i cks it up ? And do you know he i s an O l d

,
’

B el i eve r o r r ath e r a di s sente r ? Ther e hav e b een Wan

,

d e r er s in hi s family and h e was fo r t w o year s in hi s v illage,

unde r the spi r itu al gu idanc e o f a certain elde r I l earnt al l .

thi s from N ikol ay and from hi s fel low v ill agers And what s .
’

mo r e h e wanted to ru n into th e wilderness ! H e was ful l o f

‘
,

fervou r prayed at nights r ead th e ol d b ook s the t ru e o nes

, , ,
’
,

and read hi msel f crazy .

“
Petersbu rg had a great e ffect upo n him especi ally the ,

women and th e wine H e r esponds to ev eryth ing and h e fo r .

got th e elder and al l that I learnt that an arti st he re took .

a fancy to him and u s ed to go and s e e him and now thi s

, ,

b u siness cam e u pon him .

“
Well h e w a s frightened h e tri ed to h ang hi msel f ! H e
, ,

ran away ! How can o ne get ove r the idea th e p eopl e hav e
o f Ru ssian l egal p ro ceedings The v ery wo rd t ri al frightens ‘ ’

som e o f them Who s e fau l t i s it ? We shal l s e e what th e

.

n ew j u ri es w il l do God grant th ey do good ! Wel l i n .

,

p ri son it s eems h e remembe red th e v enerabl e elder the

, , ,

B ibl e to o mad e its appe arance again D o you kno w

‘
, , .
,

Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h th e fo rce o f th e wo rd su ffering among ,

’

some o f thes e p eople ? It s not a qu esti on o f su ffering fo r ’

’ ‘
som e one s benefit but s imply o n e mu st su ffe r I f they ’
, .

su ffe r at the hands o f th e autho rities s o much th e b etter , .

I n my t ime ther e w a s a v ery m eek and mild p ri sone r w h o

sp ent a whol e year i n p ri so n always reading hi s B i b le o n
th e stov e at night and h e read himsel f crazy and so crazy , ,

do you know that o n e day ap ropo s o f noth ing h e seized a

, , ,

brick and flung it at the gove rno r though h e had don e hi m ,

A r l i g i u s s e ct — TRA N S LAT OR S N o r a
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n o h ar m And t h e way h e th r e w it to o : a im ed i t a ya r d o n
'

o n e s ide on pu rpo se f o r fea r o f hu rting him Well w e

,
.
,

kno w what happ ens t o a p ri s o ne r who assau lts an o ffice r w ith

‘
a weapon S o he took hi s su ffer ing
. .
’

“
S o I su sp ect now th at N ikolay w ant s t o tak e h is su ffe ring
o r something o f the so rt I kno w it fo r certain from facts .
,
’
i ndeed O nly h e doesn t kno w th at I know
. Wh at you .
,

don t admit that the r e a re su ch fantasti c peopl e among th e

’

p easants ? Lots o f the m The eld er now has b egu n in flu e n c .

’
ing him especi ally s ince h e t ri ed t o h ang h ims el f Bu t h e ll
, .

com e and tel l m e al l him sel f Y o u t hink h e l l h o l d o u t ? .

’

Wai t a b it h e ll t ak e h i s wo rds b ack I am waiting from

,
’
.

hou r to hou r f o r hi m to c o m e and abj u r e hi s evidence I .

h av e com e t o l ik e that N ikol ay and am studyi ng him in detail .

And wh at do you think ? H e h e ! H e answe r ed m e v ery -

pl au si b ly on some po ints h e obv iou sly h ad col le cted som e ,

ev idence an d p rep ared hims el f cl ev e rly Bu t o n othe r p o i nt s .

’
h e i s simply at s e a knows nothing and doe sn t even su sp ect
,

th at h e do esn t know ! ’

“
N o Rodi on Ro m a n o v it ch N ikol ay do esn t com e in ! Thi s
’
, ,

i s a fantastic glo omy bu sines s a modern cas e an incident

, , ,

o f to day wh en the h e art o f m an i s t roubl ed when th e

-

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,

’
phra se i s quoted that blo od r enews when co m fo rt i s ,

p reached as th e aim o f l i fe He r e w e hav e b ooki sh d reams .

a h eart u nhinged by th eo r i es H er e w e s e e re solu tion i n .

the fi rst stage bu t re solution o f a sp ecial ki nd ; he resolved

,

t o do it l ike j ump ing ov e r a p recipi ce o r from a b el l tow e r

and hi s le g s shook as h e w ent to the c ri me H e fo rgot to .

s hut th e doo r a fte r him and mu rder ed two p eopl e fo r a ,

theo ry H e committed the mu rde r and cou ldn t t ake th e ’

.

money and wh at h e d id manage to snatch u p he h id u nder

,

a stone It wasn t enough fo r hi m to su ffer agony b ehind

.
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the doo r whil e th ey b atter ed at the doo r and run g the b el l ,

no h e had to go to the empty lodging hal f d el iri ou s to recall

, , ,

th e b ell ringing h e w anted to feel th e cold shi ve r o ve r

-
,

again . Well th at we gr ant was th rou gh il ln ess bu t

, , ,

consider thi s : he i s a mu rde re r but lo o ks u pon him sel f as an ,

h onest man desp i se s othe rs po ses a s inj u r ed innocence

, , .

N o that s n o t th e wo rk o f a N iko lay my dear Rodion

’
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Ro m a n o vit c h
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that s you r qu estion ! I w i ll answe r you po int fo r

O h,
'

point In th e fi rst pl ace to ar rest you so di r ectly i s not to

.
,

my i nterest .

H o w s o ? I f you a r e conv ince d you ought .

’
Ach wh at i f I am conv inced ? Th at s only my dream fo r
,
’
th e time Why shou ld I put you i n s a fety ? You know that s
.

i t since you ask me to do it I f I con front you with that

‘
.
,

wo rkman fo r instance and yo u s ay to him we r e you drunk

o r not ? Who s aw m e w ith yo u ? I simply took you to b e
’
d runk and you wer e d runk to o
. Well wh at could I ans w e r , .
, ,

e speci ally a s you r sto ry i s a mor e likely o ne th an hi s fo r ,

the re s no thing b ut p sycholo g y to suppo rt h i s ev idence

’

th at s almost u nse emly w ith hi s u gly mug wh ile you h it the

’

m ark exactly fo r th e r ascal i s an i nv ete rat e drunkard and

,

noto riou sly s o And I h av e mys el f admitted candi dly sev .

e ral times al ready that that p sychol ogy can b e t aken in two
ways and that th e s econd w a y is st ronge r and l ook s far mo re
p ro b a b l e and that apart from that I hav e as yet nothing
,

against yo u And thou gh I sh all put you i n p ri son an d

.

ind eed h av e come— qu it e cont r ary to eti qu ett e— to i n fo rm

you o f i t be fo reh and yet I t ell you fr ankly al so contrary to , ,

etiqu ett e that i t wo n t b e to my adv antage Well s e condly

,
’
.
, ,

I v e com e to you b ecau s e

’

“
Y e s yes secondly
”
?
,
Raskolnikov was l istening b r eath
,

les s .

“
B ecau se as I told you j u st now I consi der I owe you an
, ,

explan ation I do n t w ant you t o l ook upon me a s a monste r

.
’
,

a s I hav e a genu i ne liking fo r you you may b el i ev e m e o r ,

not And i n th e thi rd pl ac e I v e come to you w ith a di rect

.
’

and op en p ropo sitio n— that you shou ld su rrende r and co n

fess It wil l b e infi nitely mo re to you r advantage and to
.

my advantage too fo r my t ask wi ll b e don e Well is thi s

”
.
, ,

open o n my part o r not ?

Raskolnikov thou g ht a minute .

“
Listen P o r fi r y Petrov itch You s aid j u s t n o w you h av e
, .

nothing bu t p sychol ogy to go on yet now you v e g on e on t o ,

’

mathem ati cs Wel l wh at i f you a re mi staken you rs el f

”
.
, ,

now ?
“
N o Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h I am not mi staken
, I h av e a
”
.
,

l i ttl e fact ev en then pr ov idence s ent it me , .

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME NT 4 65

What littl e fact ?

I won t tell you wh at Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch And in any
’

, .

cas e I h av en t the right to put i t o ff any l ong er I mu st

,
’

a rrest you S o think it ove r : i t makes no di ffe rence to me

.

h o w and s o I speak o nly fo r you r s ak e B el i ev e me i t will

”
.
,

b e b ette r Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h
,
.

Raskolniko v smiled mal i g nantly .

“ ’ ’
T hat s not simply r idiculou s it s p os itively shameles s ,
.

Why ev en i f I wer e gu ilty wh i ch I don t admit what reason

, ,
’

shou ld I ha ve to con fess when you tell m e you rsel f that I ,

shall b e in gr eate r s a fety i n p ri son ?

“
Ah Rodio n Ro m a n o v it ch don t put too mu ch faith i n
, ,
’

wo rds p erhap s p ri son wi ll not b e al to g ethe r a rest ful p lac e

, .

T hat s only theo ry and my theo ry a nd wh at autho rity am I

’

fo r you ? P erhaps to o even now I am h iding something , ,

f rom you ? I can t l ay b ar e everyth ing h e h e ! And how ’

,
-

c a n you a s k what advanta g e ? D on t you know how it wou ld ’

l essen you r sentence ? You would b e con fes sing at a moment

when another m an has taken th e cr ime o n h ims el f and s o
h a s mu ddl ed the whol e case C onside r th at ! I swear b e fo re .

God that I will so arrange that you r con fes sion sh al l come
as a compl ete su rpri se We wil l make a cl ean sweep o f all .

these p sychological points o f all su spi ci on against you s o , ,

that you r crime wi ll app ea r to h av e b een someth ing like an

a b err ation fo r in truth i t w a s an ab er r ation I am an
”
.
,

honest man Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch and wil l ke ep my wo rd

, , .

Raskolnikov maintained a m ou rn fu l s il ence and l et hi s

head sink dej ectedly H e pondered a l ong whil e and at .

l ast smiled a g ain but hi s smil e w a s s a d and gentl e

, .

“
No h e s aid apparently a b andoning al l attempt to keep
,
“
u p app earances with P o r fi ry it s not wo rth it I don t care ’ ’

”
, ,

a b out lessening the sentence !

“ ”
That s j u st what I was a frai d o f ! P o r fi ry cri ed warmly
’

“
and as it seem ed involuntarily th at s j u st what I feared ’

”
, , , ,

that yo u wouldn t car e a b out th e mitigation o f s entence

’

Raskolnikov lo oked s adly and express iv ely at him

”
.

“ “
Ah don t di sdain l i fe ! P o r fi ry w ent o n
,
’
You h av e .

a great deal o f it stil l b e fo re you H o w c a n you s a y you .

don t want a mitigati on o f s entence ? Y o u a re an i mpatient

’

”
fel low !
4 66 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY
? ”
A great deal o f what l i es b e fo re me
O f li fe Wh a t so rt o f p rophet a re yo u do you know
.
,

mu ch a b out it ? S e ek and ye shall fi nd Th i s may b e God s .

’

means fo r b ringing you to H im And i t s not fo r ev er the .

’

bondage . .

“
The time wil l b e sho rtened l aughed Raskol nikov , .

Why i s it th e bou r g eo i s di sgr ace you ar e a frai d o f ? I t

,

m ay be that you a re a f raid o f it w ithout knowing it b ecau se ,

’
you ar e young ! B u t anyw ay yo u shou ldn t b e a fraid o f
givin g you rsel f u p and c on fes sing ” .

“ ”
A c h hang it ! Raskolnikov wh i sp ered w ith lo ath ing and
,

contempt as thou gh h e did n o t want to sp eak aloud

,
.

H e g o t up agai n a s though h e m eant to go away bu t s at ,

down again i n ev ident despai r .

“
H ang it i f yo u lik e ! You ve lo st faith and you th ink th a t
’
,

I am gro s sly fl atte r ing you ; but how long ha s y o u r l i fe b een ?

How mu ch do you u nde rstand ? You made up a theo ry and
then we re ashamed that it b roke down and tu rned o u t to b e
not at al l o ri g inal ! I t tu rned out something b as e that s ,
’

tru e b ut you ar e not hopel essly b as e By no m eans s o b as e !

, .

At l east you didn t deceiv e you rs el f fo r long y o u w ent

’
,

strai g ht to th e fu rthest p oint at o n e bou nd H ow do I .

regard you ? I regard you as o n e o f thos e m en w h o wou ld

stand and smil e at thei r to rtu re r wh il e he cuts thei r entr ail s
ou t ,i f only they h av e found faith o r God F ind i t and .

you wi ll liv e You hav e long n eeded a ch ange o f ai r Su f

. .

fe r in g too i s a good thi ng

, S u ffer ! M aybe N ikol ay i s
, .

right in w anting to su ffe r I know you don t b el i ev e i n it .

’

but don t b e ov erwi se ; fling you rs el f straight into li fe w ith

’
,

ou t del ibe ration ; don t b e a fraid— the flood will b ear you to
’

the b ank and s e t you s a fe on you r fe et again What b ank ? .

How can I tell ? I only b eliev e that you hav e long li fe b e fo re

you I kno w that you tak e al l my wo rds n o w fo r a s et
.

speech pr ep ared b e fo reh and but mayb e you w ill rememb er ,

’
them afte r They may b e o f u s e so me time That s why I
. .

’
speak I t s a s well that yo u only kill ed th e ol d woman
. .

’
I f you d inv ented ano the r theo ry yo u mi ght p erhap s hav e
done someth ing a thou s and times mor e hideou s You o ught .

to thank God pe rh ap s How do you know ? Perhaps God

, .

is s av ing yo u fo r something B u t keep a good h eart and .

46 8 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

w o u ld you do i n h iding ? I t wou ld b e h ate ful and di fficu lt

fo r you and what you n eed mo re than anything i n l i fe i s a
,

d efinite po sition an atmo spher e to su it you And what so rt ,

.

’
o f atmospher e woul d you h av e I f you r an away you d .
,

come b ack o f you r sel f Yo u ca n t g e t o n w ith o u t u s And

’
. .

i f I pu t you in p rison — say you v e b een ther e a month o r

’

, ,
’
two o r three— rememb er my w o rd you ll con fes s o f you r
, ,
’
s el f and perhap s to you r o w n su rp ri se You won t know .

an hou r b e fo rehand th at you ar e coming w ith a co n fession

‘
.

I am conv inced that you w ill decide to take you r su ffering , .

’

Y o u do n t b el i ev e my wo rds now b u t you ll come to it o f

’ ’

you rsel f F o r su ffe ring Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch i s a great

.
, ,

thing N eve r mind my h aving grown fat I know al l the

.
,

s am e D on t l augh at it ther e s an ide a in su ffer ing N ikol ay

’ ’

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.
, ,

is right N o you won t ru n aw ay Rodion Ro m a n o v it ch

.
,
’

,
.

Raskolniko v got up and took hi s c a p P o r fi ry P etrov itch .

al so ro se .

“
Ar e you going fo r a w alk ? T he ev ening w ill b e fi ne i f ,

only w e don t hav e a sto r m Though it would be a go o d

’

”
.

thing to freshen th e ai r .

H e to ok hi s c a p .

“
P o r fi ry Petrov itch pl eas e don t tak e u p th e notion th at I
’
,

h av e con fess ed to you to —day Raskol nikov pronounced with ,

“ ’
sull en insi stence You re a st range man and I h av e l i st ened .

to you from s impl e cu ri os ity B ut I h av e admitted nothing .

,
”
remember that !
“ ’
O h I kno w that I ll r ememb e r Look at him h e s ’
.
, , ,

tre mb ling ! D o n t b e uneasy my dear f ellow h av e i t you r ’

, ,

o w n w ay Walk a b out a b it you won t b e abl e to w alk to o

.
,
’

far I f anyth ing happens I hav e o n e r equ est to m ak e o f

.
,
“
yo u h e added d ropping hi s v oi ce
, I t s an awkward o n e
, .
’

b u t impo rtant I f anything wer e to h appen ( though i ndeed

.

I don t b eli ev e in it and thi nk you qu it e incapable o f it ) yet

’

in cas e you wer e t aken du ring thes e fo rty o r fi fty hou rs

with the notion o f putting an end to the b u si ness i n some
othe r way in som e fantasti c f ashion l aying hands o n you r
,
-

’
sel f ( it s an absu rd p ropos ition but you mu st fo rgiv e me
-
,

fo r it ) do l eave a b ri e f b u t p r ecis e note only two l ine s and ,

mention th e stone It wi ll b e mo re gene rou s C o me till w e .

”
.
,

m eet ! Go od thoughts and sound d eci sions to you !

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME NT 4 69

P o r fi ry went ou t stoop ing and avo iding looking at Ras

,

ko l n ik o v
. T h e l atte r went t o th e windo w and w aited w ith
i rritabl e imp ati enc e til l h e calcu lated that P o r fi ry had r eached
the street and mov ed away Then he too went hu rriedly o ut
.

o f the r oom .
 C HAPT E R III

’
E hu rri ed to S v id r ig a i l o v s What h e h ad to hop e
.

from that man h e did n ot kno w B ut th at m an h ad .

some hidden pow er ov er h im H av ing o nce r e co g .

n

n is e d thi s h e cou ld not r est and now th e t ime had come

, , .

O n the way o n e qu estion p arti cu larly wo rri ed him : had

,
’
S v id r ig a i l o v b een to P o r fi ry s ?
A s far as h e coul d j u dge h e w ou ld sw ear to it that h e
, ,

h ad not H e ponder ed again and again w ent ov e r Po rfi ry s

.
,
’

v isit ; no h e hadn t b een o f cou rs e h e h adn t

,
’

,
’
.

B ut i f he had not b een y et wou ld he go ? M eanwhi le fo r

, ,
’
th e p res ent he fanci ed h e wouldn t Why ? He could not .

h av e explained but i f h e cou ld h e would not hav e w ast ed

, ,

mu ch thought ove r it at th e moment It al l wor ri ed him .

and at th e s ame ti me h e could not att end to it S trange t o .

say non e wou ld hav e b eli ev ed i t p erhaps but h e only f elt a

, ,

faint v agu e anxi ety abou t hi s i mmedi at e futu re Anothe r .

,

much mo re i mpo rtant anxi ety to rmented h im— it concerned

himsel f but i n a di fferent mo r e v ital w a y
, ,
M oreov er .
,

h e w a s consciou s o f i mmense mo ral fatigu e though hi s ,

mind w a s w orking bette r that mo rning th an it had done o f

l ate.

And w a s it wo rth w hil e afte r al l th at h ad h app ened t o

, ,

contend wi th these new tri vi al di fficulti es ? Was it w o rth

whil e fo r i nstance to m anoeuvr e th at S v id r ig a i l o v sho uld n o t
go to P o r fi ry s ? Vi as i t wo rth while to i nv esti gate to
’
,

ascertai n th e f acts to wa ste t im e ov e r any o n e l ike

,

S v id r ig a i l o v ?
O h how sick h e w a s o f i t al l !
And yet he w as hastening to S v id r ig a i l o v ; coul d h e b e
expecting something n e w f rom h im i nfo rmation o r m eans , ,

o f escape ? M en will catch at straw s ! Was i t destiny o r

some instinct b r inging th em togethe r ? P erh ap s it w as only
fatigue despai r ; p erhap s it w a s not S v id r iga i l o v but som e
,

other whom h e needed and S v idr ig a i l o v had simply

,

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I n a n y case h e mu st see S v id r ig a i l o v as soo n as p o s sibl e ,

h e decided finally Thank God the detai l s o f th e i nter

.
,

vi ew w er e o f l ittl e cons equ ence i f only h e could get at t he ,

root o f the m atter ; but i f S v id r ig a i l o v w e r e cap abl e

i f he wer e intri gu ing a gainst D oun ia — th en ,

Raskolnikov w a s s o exhau sted by wh at h e h ad p assed

th rou g h that month th at h e could only de cid e such que s
“
tion s in o n e way ; then I shall kill h im h e th o ught i n cold ,

despai r .

A sudden angu i sh opp res sed h i s he art h e st oo d still i n ,

the middle o f th e stre et and b egan looking about t o s e e

whe re he w as and whi ch w ay h e w a s go ing H e found .

hims el f i n ! P ro sp ect thi rty o r fo rty p ace s f rom the H ay

.
,

M arket th rou g h which he had com e Th e w h o l e s econd

, .

sto rey o f th e hou s e o n th e l eft w a s u sed as a tav ern Al l .

the wi ndow s w e re w ide op en J udging from th e fi gu re s .

moving at the window s th e rooms w er e ful l to o ver ,

flowing T her e w er e so unds o f s inging o f cl ar io net and

.
,

v i olin and the boom o f a Tu rki sh d rum H e could h ear

, .

women sh ri eki ng H e w as ab out to tu rn b ack w onde ring

.

w h y he had come to the ! Pro spect when suddenly at .

,

o n e o f th e end wi ndows h e s a w S v id r ig a i l o v s itting at a ,

tea ta b l e right i n th e op en w indow w ith a pip e i n hi s

-

mouth .

Raskolniko v w a s d read fully t aken ab ack almo st t e rri ,

fi ed . S v id r ig a i l o v w a s silently watching and scrutini sing

h im and what struck Rasko lnikov at o nce s eemed to be
, ,

m eaning to get up and slip away u no b se rved Rasko lnikov .

at once p ret end ed n o t to h av e s een him but to b e look ,

i ng ab sent mindedly aw ay whi le h e w atched hi m o u t o f

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the co rne r o f hi s eye H is h eart w a s beating v iolently

. .

Y e s i t was ev ident that S v id r iga i l o v did no t want to

,

b e seen H e to ok th e pip e o u t o f his mouth and w as

.

on the po int o f concealing himsel f but as h e got up ,

and mov ed b ack h is chai r he s eem ed to h av e b ecom e ,

suddenly awar e th at Ra skolnikov had se en him and w a s ,

watching him What h ad p as sed b etween them w as mu ch

.

the sam e a s what h app ened at th ei r fi rst m eeting in

Ra s k o l n ik o v s ro om A s l y smil e cam e into S v id r ig a i l o v s
’
.
’

face and gr ew b ro ade r and b ro ade r E ach knew that h e .

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H MEN T 47 3

was s een and w atched by th e othe r At l ast S v id rig a i l o v .

b roke into a loud l augh

”
.

“
Well wel l come i n i f you want me ; I am he re ! h e
, ,

shouted f rom th e wi ndow .

Raskolniko v went up i nto th e tavern H e fou nd .

S v id r ig a il o v i n a tiny b ack ro om adj oining the s alo o n .

i n whi ch merch ants cle rks and num b ers o f p eopl e o f all,

so rts were d rinking tea at twenty l ittl e t abl es to th e

desperate b awl ing o f a cho ru s o f s in g er s Th e cl ick o f .

b ill iard b all s could b e heard i n th e di stance O n th e ta b l e .

b e fo re S v id rig a il o v stood an op en bottl e and a gl ass h al f ,

full o f champagne I n the ro om h e fo und al so a b oy with

.

a l ittl e h and o rgan a h ealthy looking r ed cheeked gi rl o f

,
- -

ei ghteen w earing a tucked u p striped ski rt and a T yrol es e

,
-
,

h at with r ibbons In sp it e o f th e cho ru s i n th e oth er

.

room s h e was singing som e serv ants hal l song i n a r athe r

,
’

hu sky contralto to the accomp an m ent o f the o rgan i

”
.
,
“
C ome that s enough S v id r ig a i l o v stopp ed he r at
’

, ,

Ra s k o l n ik o v s ent r ance Th e gi rl at o nce b roke o ff and

’
.

sto od waiting r espectf u lly S h e had sung h er gutter .

rhymes too with a se riou s and r esp ectful exp res si on i n

, ,

her face
”
.

“
H ey Phil ip a gl ass ! shouted S v idr iga i l o v
”
.
, ,

I wo n t drink anything s ai d Raskol nikov

’

, .

As yo u l ike I didn t m e an it fo r you D rink K ati a ! I

,
’
.
,
”
do n t want anything mo r e to day you can go H e pou re d
’
-
, .

h er o u t a ful l gl ass and l ai d down a yel low note , .

K ati a drank o ff h er gl as s o f w in e as women do w ithou t , ,

putting it down i n twenty gul ps took th e note and ki ssed

, ,

S v id r ig a i l o v s hand which h e all owed qu ite s eriously

’
.
,

S he w ent out o f th e room and th e b oy t rail ed a fter he r

w ith the o rgan B oth had b een b rought in f rom the st reet
. .

S v id r ig a i l o v had not b een a week i n P eters b u rg but ,

eve rything a b out h im was al ready s o to sp eak o n a , ,

p atri archal footing ; the w aite r Phi lip was b y now an old , ,

friend and v ery o b sequ iou s .

T h e do o r l eading to th e s aloon h ad a l ock o n i t .

S v id r ig a i l o v was at home i n thi s ro om and perhaps sp ent

whol e days in i t The tav ern wa s di rty and w retched n o t
.
,

ev en second rate .
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I was go ing t o s e e you and l ooking fo r yo u ,

“
Raskol niko v b egan b ut I don t know what m ade me tu rn ,
’

from the H a y M arket i nto th e ! P ro spect j u st n o w I . .

n eve r take thi s turning I tu rn to th e r i ght f rom th e Hay .

M arket And thi s i sn t the w ay to you I simply tu rned ’

”
. .

and h ere you are It i s st range !

‘
.

“
Why don t you s a y at o nce i t s a m i racl e
’ ’ ’

B ecau s e i t m ay b e o nly chance .

Oh that s th e w ay with all y o u folk

,
’
l aughed ,
’
S v id r ig a i l o v You won t adm it i t ev en i f you do inw ardly
.
,

b el i ev e i t a mi racl e ! H er e you s a y th at i t m ay b e onl y

chance And what cowa rds they al l ar e here about h aving
.
,

an O pi nion o f thei r o w n you can t fancy Rodion Rom ano ,

’

vit c h I don t mean yo u you h av e an opinio n o f you r o w n

.
’

a n d ar e not a fr aid to h av e it Th at s how i t was you ’

.

attracted my cu rio sity

”
.

“
N othi ng els e ?

Well that s en o ugh you know S v id rig a i l o v was

’
.
, ,

obvi ou sly exhil arat ed bu t o nly sl ightly s o he had not h a d , ,

m o re than h al f a gl as s o f wine .

“
I f ancy you cam e to s e e m e b e f o r e y o u knew th at I w as
capabl e o f having what you call an op ini o n o f my own ”
,

o b s erv ed Raskolniko v .

O h w ell it w as a di ffe rent m atte r

, , E v ery o n e has hi s .

o w n pl ans And ap ropo s o f the m i r acl e l et m e tell yo u

.

that I think you hav e b een asl eep fo r th e l ast two o r

three days I to ld you o f thi s tav ern mysel f the re i s no
.
,

m iracl e i n your coming st raight h er e I expl ai ned the .

w a y mysel f told yo u wh ere i t w a s and the h ou r s yo u

”
, ,

cou ld find m e he re D o you r ememb er ? .

“
I don t r ememb e r answ er ed Raskol nikov w ith su rp ri s e
’
.
,

I b eli eve yo u I told you twi ce The addre s s h as b een

. .

stamped m ech ani cally on you r m emo ry You tu rned thi s .

w a y m echani cal ly and yet p re ci s ely acco rding to th e d ir e c

tion though you ar e not aw ar e o f i t When I told i t you

, .

then I hardly hop ed you understo od m e Y o u gi v e you r

, .

sel f aw ay to o mu ch Rodi on Ro m a n o v itch And anothe r ,

.

thing I m conv inced ther e ar e l ots o f p eopl e i n P ete rsbu rg

,
’

who talk to them s elv es as they w alk Thi s i s a town o f .

c razy p eopl e I f only w e h ad s ci enti fi c m en do ct o rs

.
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l ike a m ask ; white and r ed w ith b right r ed l ip s w ith a , ,

fl axen b eard and still thick flaxen h ai r

,
H i s eyes w er e .

somehow too b lu e and thei r exp res sio n som ehow to o heavy
and fi xed The re was som ethi ng aw fully unpl easant in
.

that handsome face wh i ch l ook ed s o wonder fully youn g

,

fo r hi s age S v id r ig a i l o v was sm artly dr es sed i n l ight

.

summer clothes and wa s p articu l arly dainty i n hi s l inen .

He w o re a huge ri ng w ith a p reci ou s ston e in it

”
.

H ave I got to bothe r mys el f about you t o o now ? s aid

Raskolnikov suddenly coming w ith n ervou s impati enc e ,

straight to the point E v en though p e rhaps you ar e the

.

most dangerou s m an i f you ca r e t o inj u r e m e I don t ,

’

w ant to put mysel f o u t any mo r e I w ill sho w yo u at .

o nce th at I don t p r iz e mys el f as you p rob ably think I do

’
.

I ve come to tell you at o nce th at i f yo u ke ep t o you r forme r

’

intentions w ith r ega rd to my si ster and i f you think to

deri ve any b enefit i n that di recti on f rom what has b een
di scove red o f l ate I wi ll kill you b e fo r e you get me locked
,

up You c a n r eckon o n my wo rd You know th at I can

. .

keep it And i n th e second p l ace i f you w ant to tell m e

.

anything— fo r I keep f a ncying all thi s t im e that you h av e

somethi n g to t el l m e— mak e haste and tell it fo r tim e i s
”
,

p reci ou s and v e ry l ikely i t w ill soon b e to o l ate .

”
“
W hy i n such haste ? asked S v id r ig a il o v lo oking at hi m ,

cu riou sly .

E v ery o n e h as hi s pl ans Raskol nikov answe red ,

gloomily and imp ati ently .

“
Y o u u rged m e v o u r s e l f to f rankness j u st now and a t
”
,

th e first que stion yo u r e fu s e t o an swe r S v id r iga i l o v ,

“
ob served w ith a smil e You ke ep f ancying that I h av e
.

ai ms o f my o w n and s o you l ook at me with suspici on .

O f cou rs e it s p er fectly n atu ral i n you r po sitio n B ut

’
.

’
though I shoul d l ik e to b e f ri ends w ith you I shan t ,

troubl e mysel f to conv ince you o f th e cont rary The gam e .

i sn t w o rth the candl e and I w asn t i ntending t o talk t o

’ ’

you a b out anything sp eci al ” .

“
What did you w ant m e fo r then ? I t w as yo u w h o
”
,

came h anging abo ut m e .

“
W hy simply a s an i nte resting subj ect fo r ob serv ation
,
.

I l iked th e f antasti c n atu r e o f you r po s ition— th at s what ’

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it w as ! B esides you are th e b rothe r o f a p e rson w h o

gr eatly interested m e and from that p e rso n I had i n th e ,

p ast heard a v e ry great deal ab out you from which I ,

gathered that yo u had a great i nflu ence ov er he r ; i sn t ’

that enough ? H a h a h a ! S till I mu st admit that you r - -

question i s rathe r compl ex and i s di fficult fo r m e to answe r , .

H e re you fo r i nstance hav e com e to me not o nly fo r a

, , ,

definite obj ect b ut fo r the sak e o f he aring something new

”
, .

I sn t that so
’
? I sn t th at so ? p ersi st ed S v id r ig a il o v w ith
’

a s l y smil e Well can t yo u f ancy then th at I to o o n

.
,
’

, ,

my way her e i n the t rai n was r eckoning on you o n you r ,

telling m e something new and o n my making som e p ro fit ,

”
o u t o f you ! You s e e what ri ch men w e a re !
What pro fit could you make ? ”
H o w can I tell you ? H o w do I know ? You s e e i n
what a tav ern I sp end all my time and it s my enj oyment ’

that s to s a y it s n o great enj oyment b ut one mu st sit

’ ’

somewhe re ; that poo r K ati a now— you saw he r ? If

only I had b een a glutto n now a club gou rmand b ut yo u
”
, ,

s e e I can eat thi s .

H e po inted to a l ittl e tabl e i n the co rne r wher e th e

r emnant s o f a terrible looking b ee f steak and potat o e s l ay -

o n a tin di sh .

“
H ave you dined by th e w a y ? I v e h ad something a n d
’

w ant nothing mo re I do n t drink fo r i nstance at all

.
’

, , .

E xcept champ agn e I nev e r touch anything and not mo re ,

than a g las s o f that all the ev ening and even th at i s enough ,

to m ake my h ead ache I o rd ered it j u st n o w to w ind .

mysel f up fo r I am j u st go ing o ff s om ewhe re and you

,

s e e me in a p ecul i ar state o f mind That w as why I hid .

mysel f j u st now l ike a school b oy fo r I wa s a fraid you ,

woul d hinde r m e B ut I b el i ev e h e pull ed o u t hi s w atch

.
, ,

“
I c a n spend an hou r w ith you It s hal f past fou r .
’
—

now If only I d b een somethin g a l andowne r a father a

.
’
, , ,

cav al ry o ffice r a photogr aphe r a j ou rn al i st

,
I am ,

nothi ng no speci al ity and sometime s I am po sitively

, ,

bo red I r eally thought you would tell m e som ethin g n ew

. .

“ ”
But what a r e you and w h y h av e you come h ere ,
?

What am I ? You know a gentl eman I s e rved fo r two , ,

year s in the cav al ry then I kno cked about her e i n Peter s ,

4 78 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

bu rg then I mar ri ed M a r fa P etrovn a and l iv ed in th e

”
,

country Ther e you hav e my b iogr aphy !

.

“ ”
Y o u a re a gam b l e r I b el i ev e ?
,

N o a poo r so rt o f gambl e r A card sharp e r — n ot a ~

”
.
,

gam b l e r
”
.

“
You hav e b een a card sh arp e r th en ? -

Yes I v e b e en a card sh arp er to o

’ ” -

”
.
,

D idn t yo u get th rashed so metimes

’
?

It di d h appen Why ? ” .

Why yo u mi ght hav e ch all enged th em alt o geth e r

”
,

i t mu st h av e b een l ively .

“
I won t contradi ct you and b esides I am no h and at
’

phi lo sophy I con fe s s that I h astened h ere fo r th e s ake

-

”
.

o f th e wom en
”
.

“
As soon as you bu ri ed M ar fa P e t rovn a ?
”
Quite s o S v id r ig a i l o v smil ed w ith engaging candou r
,
.

What o f it ? Y o u s eem to fi nd som eth ing w rong in my

sp eaking l ike that about wom en ? ”
“
Y o u ask whethe r I fi nd anyth ing w rong i n v ice ? ”
V ice ! O h th at s what you a re afte r ! B ut I ll an swe r
,
’ ’

yo u i n o rder fi rst about w omen i n gene ral ; you kno w

,

I am fond o f talking T el l m e what should I r estr ai n

.
,

mysel f fo r ? Why should I giv e up women s inc e I h av e ,

a p assion fo r them ? It s an o ccupation anyw ay ’

”
.
,
“
S o yo u hop e fo r nothing h e re but v ic e ?

O h v e ry w ell fo r v i ce then
,
You insi st on its b eing
, .

v i ce . B ut anyway I l ike a di r ect qu estion In thi s v ice .

at l east ther e i s som ething p erm a n ent founded i nd e ed ,

upon natu re and n o t d ep endent o n f antasy s ometh ing ,

present i n the bl ood l ike an ev er bu rning emb e r fo r ev e r -

,

settin g on e on fi r e and m ayb e not to b e qu i ckly ,

extingui shed ev en w ith ye ar s You ll agre e it s an ’ ’

”
.
,

o ccupati on o f a so rt .

“ ’
Th at s nothing to r ej o i ce at it s a d i s eas e and a ’

”
,

d an g erou s on e .

“
O h that s what you think i s it ! I agre e th at i t i s a
’
, , ,

di seas e l ike ev erything that exc eed s m od er ati on And o f .

,

cou rse i n thi s o n e mu st exceed mod er ation

, Bu t in th e .

fi rst pl ace every b ody do e s so i n o n e w a y o r anothe r an d

, ,

i n th e s econd pl ace o f cou rs e one ought t o b e mode rat e

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48 0 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

acro ss an intell igent p erson l ike you— intel li gent and highl y
interesting I am simply gl ad to talk and b esides I v e drunk
—
,
’

’
that hal f —gl ass o f champagne and i t s gone to my h e ad a
l ittl e And b esides the r e s a c ertai n f act th at h as wou nd
.
,
’

m e up trem endou sly but ab out th at I w ill ke ep qui et

”
.
,

Wh ere are you o fl? to ? h e asked i n al arm .

Raskolnikov had b egun getting up H e fel t opp ress ed and .

sti fled and as it we re i ll at e as e at havi ng com e here H e

, , .

fel t convinced that S v id r ig a il o v w a s the m o st w o rthl es s

scoundrel o n th e face o f th e e arth .

“
S v id r ig a i l o v b egged
7
A —ach ! S i t down stay a l ittl e " , .

Let them b ring yo u som e tea anyw ay S tay a l ittl e I

, .
,

w on t talk no nsens e about mys el f I m e an I l l tell yo u

’ ’

‘
.
, ,

something I f you l ike I l l tel l you how a woman t ri ed to

.
’

’
save m e a s you w ou ld call it ? I t w ill b e an an swe r to you r
,

first qu esti on indeed fo r th e wom an w a s you r s iste r M ay

, .

I tell you ? It wil l h elp to spend the time .

“
Tel l m e b ut I t ru st that you
, .

O h don t b e u neasy B eside s ev en i n a w o rthl es s l ow

’
, .
,

fell ow like m e A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a can o nly excite th e

deepest r esp ect .
 C H APT E R IV

O U know p erhap s— yes , I told you mysel f b egan ,

“
S v id rig a i l o v , that I wa s i nthe de b to rs p riso n ’

her e fo r an immens e s u m and had not any ex

, ,
’

p ec t a t io n o f b eing able to p ay it Ther e s no need to g o i nto

.

particular s o f how M ar f a P etrovna b ought m e out ; do you

know to what a point o f insanity a woman c a n sometimes
love ? S he wa s an honest woman and ve ry s ensi b le although
“

, ,

completely uneducated Would you b eli ev e that this hone st

.

and j ealou s woman a fter many s cene s o f hyste rics and r e

,

p r o a c h e s condescended to ente r into a kind o f contract with

,

m e which sh e kept throughout our marr ied li fe ? S h e w a s

c onsidera b ly older than I and b eside s s h e always kept a
, ,

clov e o r something i n her mouth T here w as s o much .

swini shne ss in my so ul and honesty too o f a so rt as to tell , ,

he r straight out that I cou ldn t b e ab so lutely f aith ful to h er

’
.

Thi s con fessio n drov e he r to frenzy but yet s h e s e ems i n a ,

way to hav e liked my b rutal fr ankne ss S he thought it .

showed I was unwilling to deceiv e her i f I warned her l ike

’
thi s b e fo r ehand and fo r a j ealou s wom an you know that s , ,

th e first cons ider ation A fte r many tears an unwritten co n

.

t ract was d rawn up b etween u s : first that I would neve r ,

leav e M ar f a Petrovna and would always b e h er husband ;

secondly th at I would never a b sent mys el f w ithou t h er per
,

mi ssio n ; thi rdly that I would nev e r s e t up a p ermanent mi s

,

tr es s ; fou rthly i n return fo r thi s M a r f a P etrov na gav e me

, ,

a fr ee hand w ith th e maid serv ants but only w ith he r secret ,

knowl edge ; fi fth l y God fo rbid my falling i n lov e with a

,

woman o f ou r clas s ; sixthly i n case I— which G o d fo r b id

,
~

should b e vi sited b y a g re at seriou s p as sio n I was b ound to

r ev eal it to M ar fa P etrovna O n thi s l ast sco re howeve r
.
, ,

M ar fa Petrovna was fairly at ea se S he w a s a sensi b l e .

woman and s o she could not help looking upon me as a

di ssolute p ro fl ig a t e incapable o f r eal love B u t a sensi b l e .

woman and a j ealou s woman ar e tw o v ery di fferent things ,

’
and that s where the trou b l e came in But to j udge some .

48 1
48 2 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S K Y

people imparti ally we must r enounce ce rtain p reconce ived

opinion s and ou r habitu al attitud e to the o rdinary p eople
a b out u s I h ave r eason to h av e faith i n you r j udgment
.

rather than in any one s P e rhap s you hav e al re ady he ard

'

a great d eal th at w a s r idi culou s and a b surd a b out M ar fa

Petrovna S he ce rtainly had some v e ry ridiculo u s w ays but
.
,

I tel l you frankly that I feel r eally so rry fo r the i nnume rable
’
woes o f whi ch I w a s the cau s e W ell and that s enough .
, ,

I think b y way o f a deco rou s o r a is o n f u n eb r e fo r the mo st

,

tender w i fe o f a mo st tender hu sband When w e qu arrelled .

,

I u sually held my tongue and did not i r ritate he r and that

gentlemanly conduct rarely fail ed to attai n its obj ect i t ,

influen ced h e r; i t pleased h e r i ndeed Th e re we re ti me s ,

.

when s h e w a s po sitiv ely p roud o f m e B ut you r si ster s h e .

couldn t put up w ith anyway And howeve r s h e came t o

’

,
.

r i sk taking such a b eauti ful c reatur e i nto he r hou s e a s a

governess M y explanation i s that M ar f a P etrovna wa s an
.

ardent and imp re ss ionable woman and s imply fe ll i n lov e

he r sel f— literally fell i n l ov e— with you r s i ste r Well l ittle .
,

wonder— look at A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a ! I s a w th e danger

at th e fi r st gl ance and wh at do you thi nk I r eso lved not to ,

look at her even B ut A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a her s el f made

.

the first step would you b eli ev e it ? Wou ld you b eli ev e i t

,

too th at M a r i a P etrovna w a s po s iti v ely angry w ith m e at

fi r st fo r my p er si stent s i lence a b ou t you r s i ster fo r my ,

ca reles s reception o f h e r co ntinu al ado ring p rai se s o f

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a I do n t know wh at it wa s she w anted !
’
.

Well o f cou r se M ar fa Pet rov na to ld A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a

, ,

every detai l a b out me S h e h ad th e un fo rtunate ha b it o f

.

telling li terally eve ry o n e all ou r fami ly s ecrets and c o n

t in u a ll y compl aining o f m e ; how could s h e fail to co nfi de
i n su ch a delight ful new f ri end ? I expect th ey talked o f
nothing el se but me and no doubt A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a
heard all tho s e dark myste ri ou s rumou r s that w e re cu r rent
’
a b out me I don t m ind betting that you to o h av e h eard
.

”
something o f th e so rt al ready ?
“
I h ave Luzhin charged you with havi ng cau sed the
”
.

death o f a chi ld Is that tru e ? .

D on t r e fe r to thos e vulgar tale s I b eg said S v id rig a i l o v

’

, ,

w ith disgu st and annoyance

“
I f y o u ins ist o n wanting t o
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48 4 F Y OD O R DO S T O EV S K Y

aw ay i nto th e E gypti an de ser t and wou ld h av e stayed the re

thi rty year s l iv ing o n ro ots and ecstasi e s and v i sio ns S h e .

i s simply thi r sting to f ace some to rtu r e fo r some o n e and ,

’
i f s h e can t get he r to rtu r e sh e ll thro w h ers el f out o f
’

I v e heard s omethi ng o f a M r Ra z u m ih in he s
’
windo w .
’
.
—

s aid to b e a sensi b l e fellow ; hi s su rname suggests it i ndeed ,

.

H e s proba b ly a div inity student

’
’
Well he d bette r loo k .
,

a fte r yo u r si ster ! I b eli ev e I understand her and I am ,

p roud o f i t B ut at the be ginning o f an acqu aintance a s

.
,

yo u know o n e i s apt to b e mo re he edle s s and stup id

,
One .

doe sn t s e e cle arly H ang i t all why i s s h e s o hand some ?

’
.
,

It s not my fault I n fact it b egan o n my s ide with a mo st

’
.
,

i rresi stible ph ysical de si re A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a i s aw fully .

chaste incredi b ly and phenomenally s o Take note I tell yo u

, .
,

thi s about you r si ste r a s a fact S he i s almo st mo rbidly .

chaste i n spite o f h er b ro ad i ntel ligence and it wi ll stand

, ,

i n he r way The re happ ened to b e a gi rl in the h o u se then

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,

F arash a a b lack eyed wench who m I h ad nev e r seen be fo r e

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—sh e had j ust come f rom anoth er v illage — v e ry p r etty but

,

incredibly stupid : s h e bu rst i nto tear s wai led s o that s h e ,

could b e heard all o v er th e place and c aused scandal O n e .

day a fte r dinne r A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a fo llowed m e into an

av enu e i n the g ar den and with flashing eye s ins is te d o n my
l eaving poo r F arash a alo ne I t w a s almo st o u r fi rst c o n .

v e rsatio n by ou r selv e s I o f cou rs e w as only to o pl eased

.
, ,

to obey he r wi she s tri ed to app e ar di sconce rted embar ras sed

, , ,

i n fact played my p art no t badly Th en came inte rv i ews .

,

myste ri ou s conv er sations exho rtation s entr eati e s supplica , , ,

tions even tea rs— would you beli ev e it even tears ? Thi nk
, ,

what the p assio n fo r p rop agand a w i ll b ring some gi rl s to !

I o f cou rs e th rew it all o n my de stiny po sed as hunge ring
, , ,

and thi r sti ng fo r light and fi nally r eso rted to th e mo st ,

power fu l weapo n i n th e subj ection o f the femal e he art a ,

weapon which neve r fail s o ne It s th e wel l known r esou rc e .

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-

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fl a tt e ry N othing in th e wo rld i s ha rde r than sp eakin g
.

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the truth and nothing e asi er th an fl atte ry I f there s th e .

hundredth part o f a fal se no te in sp eaking the truth i t l e ad s ,

to a di sco rd and that l eads to trou b l e B ut i f all to th e last

, .
,

note i s fal se i n flatte ry it i s j u st a s agree abl e and i s h eard

, , ,

n o t with o ut sati s faction I t m ay be a c o ar s e s ati s faction

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bu t sti ll a s ati s faction And how ev er co ar s e the fl attery at

.
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l east hal f will b e su re to s eem tru e That s s o fo r al l stages .

o f dev elopment and classe s o f soci ety A v e stal vi rgi n might .

be seduced by flatte ry I can nev e r r emembe r w ithout l augh

.

te r how I o nc e seduced a lady who w as dev oted to h e r hu s

band he r childr en and he r p ri nciple s What fun i t w a s
, ,
.

and how l ittl e t roubl e ! And the lady r eally had p rinciple s o f
h er own anyway All my t actics lay i n simply being utterl y
, .

annihil ated and p ro strat e b e fo re her pu rity I flattered he r .

shamelessly and a s soo n a s I succe eded in getting a p re ssu re

,

o f the hand ev en a glance fro m h e r I would r epro ach m y

, ,

sel f fo r h av ing snatched i t b y fo rce and would decl ar e that ,

Sh e had r esi sted s o that I could neve r h av e gained anything

,

b ut fo r my be ing so unprincipled I maint ained that she was .

s o i nno cent that she could not for es ee my t r eachery and ,

yi elded to me unconsciou sly u naw are s and s o o n In fact , ,

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,

I triumphed whil e my l ady remai ned fi rmly conv inced that

,

s h e was inno cent chaste and faith fu l to al l he r duti e s and

, ,

o b ligations and had succumb ed qu ite b y acci dent And how .

angry sh e w a s with me when I expl ained to her at l a st that

i t wa s my sincer e conv i ctio n th at s h e w a s j u st as eage r as I .

Poo r M a r fa P etrovna wa s aw fully weak o n th e s ide o f fl at

t e ry and i f I had only car ed to I might h av e h ad al l he r
, ,

p roperty s ettled on me du ring h er l i fetime ( I am d rinking .

an aw ful lot o f w ine and talking to o mu ch ) I hope you .

’
wo n t b e angry i f I mention now that I was beginning to
p roduce the s ame e ffect o n A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a But I wa s .

stupid and impatient and spo i led i t al l A v d o t ya Ro m a n o v n a .

had s everal time s— and o n e time in particular— b een greatly

di splea sed by th e expr es sion o f my eye s would you b elieve ,

it ? Ther e w a s sometime s a light in them which fri ghtened

he r and grew stronge r and stronge r and mor e un g u arded
ti ll it w a s hate ful to her N o n eed t o go into detail s b ut
.
,

w e parted .There I acte d stupidly again I fel l to j eering .

i n th e co ar sest way at al l such propagand a and e ffo rts to

conve rt me ; F arash a came o n to the scene agai n and not ,

s h e alone ; i n fact ther e w a s a tr emendou s to do Ah Rodio n —

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,

Ro m a n o v it c h i f you could only see h o w you r si ste r s eye s

’

c a n fla sh sometimes ! N eve r mind my being drunk at thi s

moment and hav ing had a whole glas s o f wine I am sp eak .
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i ng th e t ru th I a ssu r e you that thi s gl ance h a s hau nted my

.

d re ams ; the v e ry ru stl e o f he r d re s s wa s mo r e th an I cou ld

stand at la st I really began to think that I might b ecome
.

epileptic I cou ld nev e r h av e b el i eved that I could b e mov ed

.

to such a frenzy I t was e s senti al i nde ed to b e r econciled

.
, , ,

but b y then it was impo ssible And imagine what I did then ! .

To what a p itch o f stupidity a m an c a n b e b rou ght by f renzy !

N ev er undertake anything i n a f renzy Rod ion Ro m a n o v it c h ,
.

I reflected that A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a w as a fte r all a b egga r

( ach excu s e me that s not the wo rd but do e s i t matte r
’

, ,

i f it expres se s the th at sh e l iv ed by he r wo rk ,

that s h e had he r mothe r and you to keep ( ach hang it you , ,

a r e f ro w n in g a g a in ) and I re so lv ed to o ffe r he r al l my
~

money— thi rty thou sand roubl es I c o uld hav e r eali s ed then
i f s h e would run away w ith m e h er e t o P ete r sbu rg Of , .

cou r se I should h av e vowed ete rnal lov e r aptu re and s o on , ,

.

D o you know I w a s s o wild about h er at th at time that i f she

,

h ad told m e to po i son M ar fa P et rovna o r to cu t he r thro at

and to mar ry he r sel f i t wou ld h av e b een d one at o nce ! B u t
,

i t ended in th e catast r oph e o f which you know al re ady .

You can fancy how franti c I was wh en I h e ard that

M ar fa Petrovna had got hold o f that scound relly atto rney ,

Lu zhin and h ad almo st m ade a m atch b etween them— which

,

would really hav e b een j u st the sam e thing a s I was pro

’
p o sing VVo u l d n t it ? Wou ldn t it ? I notice that you v e
.
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begun to b e v e ry attentive yo u i ntere sting young

m an .

S v id r iga i l o v stru ck th e table w ith hi s fi st impati ently H e .

w a s flu shed Raskolnikov saw cl e arly that th e gl ass o r gl ass

.

and a h al f o f ch ampagn e that h e h ad sipped almo st u n co n

s c io u s l y w a s a ff ecting h im and he r eso lved to take a d v a n -

tage o f th e oppo rtunity H e fel t v e ry su sp i ciou s o f S v id ri .

ga fl o v .

“
Well a fte r wh at you hav e s aid I am fully conv inced that
, ,

vou h av e come to P etersbu rg wi th d e signs o n my si ste r he '

,

said di rectly to S v id r ig a i l o v in o rde r to i rrit ate him fu rther

”
.

“
O h nonsen se s aid S v id r ig a il o v s eeming to rou s e h im
, ,

sel f Why I told you

.
,b e si de s yo u r si ste r can t endu re ’

me .

“
Ye s I am certain th at she can t bu t that s not th e p o i nt
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now eh ? I know what you r e thi nking th at she s the wom an
, ,

who se gi rl they s a y d rowned he r sel f i n the wi nte r C ome .

,
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ar e yo u l i steni n g ? S he arranged it all fo r m e You r e b o red .
,

she said you want som ethi ng to fi ll up you r t ime F o r you

,
.
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know I am a glo omy depre ssed per so n D o you think I m
, ,
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li ght hearted ? N o I m glo omy I do no harm b ut s it in a

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corne r without speaking a wo rd fo r thre e days at a time .

And that Re s s li c h i s a sly hus sy I tell you I know what s h e ,

.

ha s go t i n her mind ; sh e thi nks I shall get sick o f it a b ando n ,

m y wi fe and depart and she ll get hol d o f her and make a

’

p ro fi t out o f he r— in o u r cl ass o f cou rs e o r high er She , ,

.

told m e the fathe r was a b roken down r eti r ed o ffici al who -

,

had b een s itting i n a chai r fo r the l ast thre e years with h i s

l egs paralysed The mamm a s h e s ai d w a s a s ensi b le woman
.
, ,
.

Ther e i s a s o n se rvi ng i n the p rov inces b ut he do e sn t help ; ,

’

there i s a daughter w h o i s m arri ed but she do esn t v i s it them

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.

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And they ve t w o little nephew s o n the i r hands as thou gh the i r ,

own childr en we re not enou gh and th ey v e taken f rom school ,

’

thei r younge st daughte r a gi r l who l l b e sixte en i n anothe r ,

’

month so that then s h e can b e m arri ed S he w a s fo r me

,
. .

We went the re H o w fu nny it w a s ! I pr e se nted mys el f — a

.

l and —owne r a wi dower o f a w ell know n name w ith con

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nections w ith a fo rtu ne What i f I am fi fty and s h e i s not

,
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s ixteen ? Who think s o f that ? B ut it s fasci nating i sn t i t ? ’

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It i s fa scinating h a h a ! Y o u should have s een how I talked

,
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to the p apa and mamma I t w a s w orth paying t o have seen .

m e at that moment S he comes i n cu rts eys you can f ancy .

, , ,

stil l i n a sho rt fro ck— a n u nopened b ud ? F lu shing l ike a

suns et— sh e h ad b e en told no dou b t I don t know h ow you ,
.
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feel a b out femal e f ace s but to my m ind these s ixteen years , ,

these chi ldi sh eye s shynes s and tear s o f b ash fulnes s ar e b ette r
,

than b eauty ; and s h e i s a p e r fect l ittle pi ctu re too F ai r h ai r , .

in littl e cur l s like a l amb s ful l l ittle ro sy l ip s ti ny feet a

,
’

, , ,

charme r ! Well w e made fr i ends I told them I was i n , .

a hurry owing to domesti c cir cumstance s and the next day , ,

that i s the day b e for e ye ste rday w e we re b etro thed Whe n ,

.

I go now I take he r o n my kne e at once and keep he r the re .

Well s h e flu shes like a su nset and I ki ss he r every

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minute H e r mamma o f cour s e imp r e ss es o n her that th i s i s

.

he r husb and and that thi s mu st b e s o It s s imply del iciou s ! .

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Th e pre sent b etrothed conditi o n i s p erhap s bette r than m ar

r ia g e .H er e you hav e what is called l a n a tu r e e t l a v ér ité ,
’
h a h a ! I v e t alked to her twice s h e i s fa r from a fool
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.

S ometime s sh e steal s a look at m e that po sitiv ely sco rche s

me He r face i s like Raphael s M ado nn a Y o u know th e
.
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S i stine M adonna s face has something fantasti c in it the

’
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face o f mou rn fu l r el igiou s ecstasy H av en t you noticed it ? ’

.

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Well she s something i n that l i ne Th e day a fter w e d b een
,
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.

betroth ed I bought he r pr esent s to the v alu e o f fi fteen hun

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d red roub le s a s e t o f di amond s and anothe r o f p ear ls and

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a si lv e r dre ss ing—case a s l arge as th i s w ith all sorts o f thi ngs ,

i n it s o that ev en my M adonna s face glowed I sat he r o n

,
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.

my kne e yesterday and I suppo se r ather too u nceremoniou sly

,
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— s h e flu shed cr im so n and th e tea r s started but sh e didn t
,

want to show i t We we r e l e ft alon e s h e suddenly flung

.
,

he rsel f on my neck ( fo r th e fi r st time o f h er o w n accord ) ,

put he r littl e arm s r ound me ki s sed me and vowed that she , ,

would b e an o b edient faith ful and goo d w i fe would m ake , , ,

me happy wou ld devote all h er l i fe ev ery minute o f her l i fe

, , ,

w o uld sacrifice ev e rything ev erything and that al l sh e ask s

‘
i n retu rn i s my r es pe c t and th at s h e want s nothing nothing
, ,

mo r e fro m me no pr esent s
, ,
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You ll admit that to he ar such
,
.

a con fes sion alo ne f rom an ange l o f s ixte en i n a mu sli n

, ,

f ro ck with l ittl e cu rls w ith a flu sh o f mai den shyne s s i n he r

, ,

cheeks and tear s o f enthu s iasm i n he r eye s i s r ather fa sc in a t

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i ng ! I sn t i t fascinating ? I t s wo rth paying fo r i sn t it ? ,
’

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Well l isten w e l l go to se e my betrothed o nly not j u st
”
, ,

now !
“
The fact i s thi s monstrou s d i ffe renc e in age and develop
'

ment excite s you r sensual ity ! Will you re ally make such a
m arri age ? ”
“
Why o f c o u r se E ve ry o n e think s o f himsel f and h e live s
, .
,

mo st gaily who know s be st how to deceiv e himsel f H a h a ! .

-

But w h y are yo u s o keen about v i rtue ? H av e me rcy o n me ,

my good f ri end I am a sin ful m an H a h a h a

, .
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But yo u h ave p rovided fo r th e children o f K ate rin a

Ivanov na Thou gh thou g h yo u had you r o w n reasons
”
. .

I under stand i t all n o w .

I am always fond o f children v e ry fond o f th em laugh ed , ,

“
S v id r iga i l o v I can tel l you o n e cu riou s instance o f it The
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fi rst day I came h e re I v i si t ed v ar i o u s haun t s a fte r s eve n ,

year s I simply ru shed at them You p rob ably noti ce that I .

a m not i n a hu r ry to r enew acqu ai ntance with my o l d f riends .

I shall do without them a s long a s I can D o yo u kno w wh en .

,

I was with M ar fa Petrov na i n th e c o u ntry I was haunted by ,

the thou ght o f the se pl ace s wh ere any o n e who kn o w s hi s

way about can find a gr eat de al Ye s upo n my sou l ! Th e .
,

pe asants hav e v o dka the educated young p eople shut o u t , ,

from activ ity wa ste themselv e s i n impo ssibl e dre am s and

,

vi sions and ar e cr ippled by the o ri e s ; J ew s h av e sprung up and

are amas sing money and all th e r est giv e them selve s up t o
,

debauche ry F r om th e fi rst hou r th e town reeke d o f its

.

fami li ar odou rs I ch anced to b e i n a fri ght fu l den— I l ike

.

my dens di rty— it w a s a d ance s o called and ther e wa s a , ,

c a n ca n such as I nev e r s a w in my day Yes th er e yo u hav e .

,

p rogre s s Al l o f a sudden I s a w a l ittl e gi rl o f thi rteen

.
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nicely d re s sed dancing w ith a sp eciali st i n tha t l ine with

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another o ne v is a m s He r mother w as s itting o n a chai r

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by th e wall You can t f ancy wh at a ca n ca n that was ! Th e
.

gi rl wa s ashamed b lu shed at l ast felt i n sulted and b egan

, , ,

to cry He r partne r se ized h er and began whi rling he r r o und

.

and per fo rming b e fo re he r ; ev e ry o n e laugh ed and— I like

y o u r publ ic ev e n the c a n c a n publi c— they l aughed and
shouted ‘ ,

S erv e he r r i ght— s erve he r right ! S h o uldn t b ring

.
’

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children ! Well i t s not my bu sines s whethe r that consol in g
,

reflection w a s logi cal o r n o t I at once fi xed o n my plan s a t . ,

down by the mothe r and began by saying that I to o w a s a ,

strange r and th at peopl e he re we r e i ll b red and that they -

’
c o uldn t di stingui sh decent folk s and t reat them with r espect ;
gav e he r to under stand that I had ple nty o f mo ney o ffered ,

to take them home i n my car ri age I took th em h o me and .

got to know th em They we re lodging i n a mi ser abl e l ittle

.

hol e and h ad o nly j u st arr ived f rom the cou ntry S he to ld .

m e that sh e and h e r dau ghter c o uld o nly regard my acqu aint

ance a s an honou r I found o u t th at th ey had nothi ng o f th ei r
.

o w n and had come to tow n up on some l egal bu s ines s I .

pro ffe red my servi ces and mo ney I l earnt that they had g o n e .

to th e dancing s al oo n by mi stake b eli ev in g that i t w a s a ,

’
genuine dancing cl ass I o ffer ed to as sist in th e young gi rl s.

education in F rench and dancing M y o ffer w a s accep t e d .

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A S K O L N IK O V w alked a fte r hi m
”
.

“ ’
What s thi s ? cr i ed S v id rig a i l o v t u rning round I .

I s aid
I t means that I am not g o ing to l o s e sight o f you n o w .

What ? ”
B ot h stood stil l and gaz ed a t o n e an ot her a s t h o ugh mea s ,

u ring thei r str en gt h .

“
F ro m all y o u r h al f tip sy sto ri es Rask o lnikov ob serv ed
,
“
ha rshly I am po s itiv e th at y ou h av e not giv en up you r
,

de signs o n my s i ster but ar e pu rsuing them m o r e actively

,

than eve r I h av e l earnt th at my si ster r eceiv ed a l etter thi s

.

mo rning Yo u hav e h ardly b een abl e to s it still all thi s time

. .

Yo u may hav e u nearthed a w i fe o n the way but th at ,

means nothing I should l ike to m ake certai n mysel f

. .

Ra skolnikov could hardly hav e s ai d himsel f what he w anted

and o f what he w i shed to make certain
”
.

“
Upon my wo rd ! I l l call th e p o l ice !
’

C all away !
”
Agai n they sto o d fo r a mi nute facing e ach o the r At l as t .

S v id r ig a i l o v s fac e changed
’
Hav ing s ati sfi ed himse l f that
.

Raskolnikov was not fri ghtened at thi s th re at he as sumed a ,

mi rth ful and f ri endly ai r .

“
What a fellow ! I pu rp o sely r e fra ined f rom r e fer ring
’
to you r aff ai r though I am d evou r ed by cu ri o s ity It s a
,
.

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fantastic a ffai r I v e pu t it o ff till anoth er t ime but you r e
.
’

enough t o rou se th e dead Well l et u s go o nly I w arn

.
, ,

yo u b e fo rehand I am o nly g o ing hom e f o r a m o ment t o get ,

s o me mo ney ; then I shall lo ck up the flat take a cab and go ,

to spend the evening at the I sland s N o w now are you

”
.
,

go ing to fol low m e ?

“’
I m coming to you r lodgings n o t t o s e e you but S o fya
S e m yo n o v n a to say I m so rry no t to hav e b een at th e fune ral
’
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” .
,
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That s as you like but S o fya S e m yo n o v n a i s not at h o me
,
.

S he has taken the th ree children to an o ld l ady o f high rank ,

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the patro ne ss o f some o rphan asylum s whom I u sed to know ,

year s ago I charmed th e o l d lady by depo siting a s u m o f

.

money w ith he r to provide fo r the th re e chi ldren o f K aterin a

I vanovna and sub scri b ing to the institution a s well I told .

h er too the sto ry o f S o fya S e m yo n o v n a i n ful l detai l sup ,

p re ssing nothing It p rodu ced an inde scribabl e e ffect o n he r

. .

That s w hy S o fya S e m yo n o v n a has b een i nv ited to call to d ay

’

at the ! H otel wher e the lady is staying fo r the time ”

”
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“
N o m atter I l l come all the same
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A s you l ike i t s nothing to me but I won t come w ith yo u ;
, ,

her e we are at home By th e way I am conv inced th at you .

,

regard m e with su spici on j u st becau se I h av e shown such

delicacy and h av e not s o far troubled you w ith qu e st io n s _

you understand ? It st ruck you a s extrao rdinary ; I

’ ’
don t mind betting it s that Wel l it teach es one to show
”
.
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delicacy !
“
And to l i sten at d o or s ! ”
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Ah that s it i s it
,
? l aughed S v id riga i l o v
,
Ye s I should .
,

h av e been surpri sed i f you had let that p as s a fter a ll that

has happened H a h a ! T hough I did under stand something
.
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o f th e prank s you had been up to and wer e telling S o fya

S e m yo n o v n a about wh at was the meaning o f it ? Perhap s I ,

am qu ite b ehind the times and can t under stand F o r good ’

.

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ne s s s ake explai n it my dea r b oy E xpound the l atest
”
, , .

theo rie s !
“ ’
You cou ldn t hav e he ard anything You re making i t al l .
’

’
B ut I m not talking about that ( thou gh I did hear s o me
thing ) N o I m talking o f the way you keep sighing and
’
.
,

groaning now The S chill er in you i s in r evol t ev e ry moment

.
,

and now you tell me not to li sten at doo r s I f that s how you .
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feel go and in form the poli ce that you had thi s mi schance :
,

you made a l ittle m i stake in you r theory B ut i f you ar e .

co nv inced that o n e mu stn t l i sten at do o rs bu t o n e may ’

,
’
murder old women at o ne s pl easu re you d b ette r b e o ff to ,
’

America and m ake ha ste Run young man ! There m ay .

,
’
still b e time I m speaking sincerely H aven t yo u th e ’

”
. .

m oney ? ’
I ll giv e you th e fare .

“ ’
I m not thinking o f that at all Raskolnik o v interrupted ,

w ith di sgu st .
4 94 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S K Y
’
I unde rstand ( but d o n t pu t y o u r sel f out don t di scu ss it i f
’
,

you don t want to ) ’

I unde rstand th e qu estio ns you ar e
.

wo r rying ove r— mo ral ones aren t they ? D uti es o f citize n ,

’

and man ? Lay them all aside Th ey are n o thing to you .

now h a —h a ! You l l s a y y o u ar e stil l a m an and a citi zen

,
’
.

’
I f so you ought not to hav e got into thi s coi l It s n o u s e .

taking up a j ob you ar e not fi t fo r Well y o u d b ette r shoo t ’

”
.
,
’
?
you rsel f o r don t yo u w ant to
,
“
You seem t rying to e nrage me to m ake m e l e av e y ou ,
.

What a quee r fellow ! B ut he re w e are Wel come t o th e .

’
stai rca s e You s e e that s the w a y to S o fya S e m yo n o v n a
.
,
.

Lo ok the re i s no one at home D on t yo u b eli eve me ? A s k

, .
’

K a p e rn a u m o v
’

S h e l eav es th e key w ith him

. H er e i s .

M adame d e K a p e rn a u m o v h e rsel f H ey what ? S he is .

,

r athe r dea f Ha s s h e gon e o u t ? Wher e ? D id yo u hear ?

.

S he i s not i n and wo n t b e till l ate i n the evening Well ’

.
,
’
com e to my room ; you wanted t o com e and s e e m e didn t ,

you ? H e re w e a re M ad ame Re s s l ich s n o t at home S he

.
’
.

i s a woman who i s always bu sy an excell ent w o m an I a ssu r e ,

you . S he mi ght have b een o f u s e to you i f you had be e n

a l ittl e more sensibl e N o w s e e ! I take thi s fi ve pe r cent
.
,
.

bond o u t o f the bu re au— s e e what a lot I v e got o f them stil l ’

_
thi s one wil l b e tu rned i nto cash to day I mu stn t wa st e -
.
’

any mo re time Th e bureau i s locked the flat is l ocked and

.
, ,
’
h er e we ar e agai n o n the stai r s S hall we take a cab ? I m .

going to th e I sl ands Wou ld you l ike a l i ft ? I l l tak e thi s

.
’

carri age Ah you r e fu se ? You ar e ti red o f it ? C om e fo r

.
,

a d riv e ! I b el ieve i t wi ll come on t o r a in N ev e r mind .

,

we l l pu t down the hood

’
.

S v id r iga i l o v w a s alr eady i n th e car riage Raskolnik o v .

decided that hi s su spi cion s w er e at l east fo r th at m o ment u n

j u st Without answe ring a wo rd h e tu rned and walked b ack
.

towa rds th e H a y M arket I f h e h ad o nly tu rned round o n hi s.

way he might hav e seen S v id r ig a i l o v get o u t not a hundred

pace s o ff di smi ss th e cab and walk along th e pav ement B u t
, .

he had tu rned th e corne r and cou ld s e e nothing Intens e .

di sgust drew him away f rom S v id r iga i l o v .

“
To think that I could for one instant hav e l o oked fo r help
f rom that co ars e b rute tha t dep rav ed sensu al i st and black
,

guard he cr i ed .
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’
cur iou s secret o f y o u r b elo ved b rothe r s is entirely i n my
keeping ” .

D ouni a stood still h es itating and lo o ke d a t S v id riga i l o v

,

with s earching eyes

”
.

“
What are you a frai d o f ? he ob se r ve d qu i etly The .

town i s n o t th e country And ev en i n the coun t ry y o u di d m e

”
.

more harm than I d id y o u .

“
Have y o u p rep ared S o fya S e m yo n o v n a
N o I have no t sai d a wo rd to h er and am no t q u ite ce r
,

tai n whethe r she i s at home now B ut m ost l ikely sh e i s . .

S he has b uri ed her stepmother to day : s h e i s n o t l ikely to go -

vi siting on su ch a day F o r the tim e I do n t want to S p e ak

.
’

to any o ne ab out i t and I hal f r egret havi ng spoken to you .

The slightest i ndi scretion i s as b ad as b etrayal i n a thing

l ike this I l ive ther e i n that hou s e w e ar e coming to it
.
,
.

That s the po rte r o f o u r h o us e— h e knows m e v ery well ; you

’

’
see ,
he s b owing ; he s ees I m comi ng w ith a l ady and no
’

doubt he has noti ced you r face al ready and yo u wi l l b e gl ad

o f that i f you ar e a fraid o f m e and su spiciou s E xcu s e my .

putting things so coar sely I hav en t a fl at t o mysel f ; S o fya .

’

’
S e m yo n o v n a s r o om i s next to mi ne— s h e l o dges i n the next
flat The whol e floo r i s l et o ut i n lodgings Why ar e you
”
.
.

f rightened l ike a child ? Am I r eal ly s o terr ibl e ?

S v id r iga i l o v s l ip s w ere twi sted i n a co ndescendi ng smil e ;
’

but he w a s i n n o sm iling mood H is heart w as throbb ing .

and he could s carcely b re athe H e sp o ke rather loud to c o ve r .

hi s growing excitement B u t D ou ni a di d no t noti ce thi s

.

p ecul i ar excitement s h e w a s s o i r ritated by hi s remark t ha t

,

s h e w a s frightened o f him l ike a child and that he w a s so ter

ribl e to her .

Though I kno w that y o u ar e n o t a m an o f ho n

ou r I a m not i n the l east a f raid o f y o u Lead th e way ”

, .
,

sh s aid with appare nt c o mp o su re but her face w a s v ery

?
,

pa e .

S v id rig a i l o v stopp ed a t S oni a s r oom ’

.

“
Allow m e to i nqui re whethe r s h e i s at h om e S h e is .

not H o w unfortunate ! B ut I know s h e m ay com e qu ite

.

’
soon I f she s gone o ut i t can o nly b e to s e e a lady ab o ut
.
,

the o rphans Thei r moth er i s dead . I v e b een meddling .

’

and making ar rangements f o r the m I f S o i ya S emyo no vn a .

 C R IM E AND P U N IS H M E NT 4 97

do es not c o me b ack i n ten mi nutes I w ill s end her t o you , ,

to day i f you l ike

-
Thi s i s my flat T hes e are my two
. .

ro oms M adam e Re s s l ic h my l andlady has th e next room

.
, , .

N o w look thi s way

,
I will sh o w you my ch i e f pi ece o f
.

evidence : thi s doo r from my b edroo m le ads i nto tw o per fectly

empty rooms whi ch ar e to l et H er e they ar e yo u mu st
”
.
,

l o ok into them with som e attention .

S v id r ig a i l o v occupied tw o f ai rly large furni shed ro o m s .

D ouni a was looking abou t he r m i stru st fully but s a w n o thing ,

sp ecial i n the fu rnitu r e o r p o sition o f the r oo ms Yet the r e .

’
was som ethi ng to obs erve fo r i nstance that S v idr ig a i l o v s , ,

fl at wa s exactly b etween two s ets o f almost u ni nhabited

apartments H i s room s wer e not e nte re d di rectly f ro m
.

’
the pass age but through the l andl ady s two almost empty
,

room s Unlocking a doo r l eading o u t o f hi s b edroom

.
,

S v id rig a il o v showed Do u ni a the tw o empty room s th at wer e

to l et D ouni a stopp ed i n the doorway n o t know ing what
.
,

s h e was cal led t o lo o k up o n b ut S v idrig ail o v haste ned to

,

explai n .

“
Look her e at this sec o nd l arge ro om N o ti ce that doo r
, .
,
’
i t s lo cked B y the do o r stands a chai r the o nly o n e i n th e
.
,

two rooms I b rought i t from my room s so a s to l i sten mo r e

.

conveni ently Ju st the othe r s ide o f th e doo r i s S o i ya S em

.

yo n o v n a s tabl e ; s h e s at there talking to Rodio n Ro m a n o v itc h

’
.

And I s a t h er e l istening on two successi ve ev enings fo r t w o ,

hour s each tim e— and o f cou rs e I w a s abl e to l e ar n s o me

t hing what do yo u think ? ”
”
,
“
You l i stened ?
’
Yes I di d N o w come b ack to my room ; w e can t s it
”
, .

down he re .

H e b rought A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a b ack i nto h is s itting

r oom and o ffer ed h er a chai r H e s a t down at the o ppo site .

s ide o f the t abl e at l east s even feet fro m h er but p rob ably
, ,

there was the same glo w i n hi s eye s which had o nce f right
ened D ou ni a s o mu ch S he shudder ed and o nce mo re l ooked .

about h e r di stru st fully It was an i nvoluntary gestu re ; s h e .

evidently did not wish t o betray he r u neasines s B ut the .

seclu ded p o siti on o f S v id riga i l o v s l o dging had suddenly ’

struck he r S he wanted to ask whethe r hi s l andlady at l eas t

.

w ere at ho m e but pride k ep t her fr o m asking M o reo ve r

, .
,
498 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S K Y

s he had an o the r trou bl e i n h e r heart inc om p a r ably g r ea t e r

than fear fo r hersel f S h e was i n gr e at d i st re ss . .

H e re s you r lette r s h e s aid laying it o n th e tab le Ca n

“ ’
.
, ,

i t b e true what you wr ite ? Y ou hint at a c r i m e c o m m itted ,

y o u s ay b y my b rother,
Y o u hint at i t t oo clearly ; you .

’
daren t deny i t now I mu st tell y o u that I d he ard o f thi s
’
.

stupid sto ry be fo re you w rote and don t b eli ev e a wo rd o f ’

i t I t s a di sgu sting a n d rid iculou s su spicion I kn o w th e

.
’
.

s t o ry and why and how i t w as i nv ented You can h av e no .

p roo fs You p r o mi sed to p rove i t Sp eak ! B ut let m e w arn

”
. .

’
o ! o !
’

y o u that I d n t b eli ev e you I d n t b el i ev e you

Do uni a s aid th is spe aking h u r r iedly and fo r an instant th e
,

c o lou r ru shed to he r face .

“
I f yo u didn t b eli ev e it how c o uld yo u r i sk coming alon e
’
,

t o my r o oms ? Why h av e yo u come ? S imply f ro m cur i

o s ity
“
D on t t o rment me ’
. S peak sp eak ! ”
,

The re s no denying that you ar e a b rav e gi rl U pon m y

’
.

wo rd I thought yo u wou ld h av e a sked M r Ra z u m ih in to

, .

e sco rt y o u he re B ut he wa s no t w ith you no r anywhe r e

.

’
nea r I w a s on th e lo o k out It s spi rited o f y o u it p r o v e s
.
-
.
,

yo u wanted to spar e Rodi on Ro m a n o v it c h B ut ev erything .

i s d iv ine i n you About you r b rothe r what am I to s ay

.
,
’
to y o u ? Yo u v e j us t seen h im you r sel f W hat did y o u
”
.

think o f him ?
“ ’
S u rely that s not th e o nly t h ing y o u a r e bu ilding o n ?”
N o not o n that but o n hi s own w o rd s
, H e came he re o n
, .

’
two success iv e eveni ngs t o s e e S o i ya S e m yo n o v n a I ve .

shown you wh ere they s a t H e m ade a full con fes si o n t o .

her H e i s a mu rderer H e killed an o l d w oman a pawn

. .
,

b roke r wi th whom he had p awned things h imsel f

, He .

killed he r s i ster too a p edlar woman call ed L iz a v e t a w h o , ,

happened t o come i n whil e h e w as mu rder i ng he r s i ste r .

He kil led them with an axe h e b r o ught with him He mu r .

dered them to rob th em and h e d id ro b them H e to ok m o ney .

and vari ou s things H e t o ld all thi s w o rd fo r wo rd

.
, ,

to S o fya S e m yo n o v n a the only p er son w h o know s hi s s ecret ,

.

B ut s h e h as had no share by w o rd o r d eed i n the mu rder ;

s h e w a s as ho rr ifi ed at i t a s y o u ar e now
’
D o n t b e anxiou s . ,

s h e won t b et ray h im
’
.
5 00 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

l aw doe s not appl y owing to thei r superio rity w h o m ak e ,

’
l aws fo r the re st o f mankind th e m ater i al that i s I t s all , , .

r ight as a theo ry u n e th e o r ie c o m m e u n e a u tr e N ap o l eon

’

.
,

attracted him trem endou sly that i s what a ffected him w a s , ,

that a great many me n o f genius h av e not h esitated at

w rongdoing but have ov erstepped the l aw without thi nking
,

a b out it H e seems to h ave f anci ed that h e w a s a geniu s

.

too that i s h e w a s co nvi nced o f i t fo r a time

—
,
H e has .

su ffer ed a great deal and i s stil l su ffer ing f rom the idea that
he could make a theo ry but was i ncapab le o f boldly ove r ,
’
steppi ng the law and so i s not a m an o f geniu s And that s
,
.

hum il iating fo r a young m an o f any p ri de i n o u r day ,

e specially .

“
B ut remors e ? You deny hi m any m o ral fe el ing then ?
? ”
I s h e like that
“
Ah A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a everything i s in a mu ddl e n o w ;
, ,

not that i t was e ve r i n v ery good o rde r Rus s ians i n .

general are b road i n thei r ideas A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a b ro ad , ,

l ike thei r l and and exceedingly di spo sed to th e f antasti c the ,

chaoti c B ut it s a m is fortu ne to b e b ro ad w ith o ut a speci al

.
’

geniu s . D o you r em emb er wh at a lot o f talk w e had

togethe r o n thi s subj e ct s itting i n th e evenings o n the ,

terrace a fte r suppe r ? Why you u sed to r ep roach m e w ith ,

b readth ! Who knows perh ap s we w er e t alking at th e v e ry ,

t ime when he w as lying her e thi nking ove r his pl an The re .

ar e no sacred t r aditi o ns am ongst u s e specially i n the ,

edu cated cl as s A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a

, At the b est som e .

one w i ll m ake them up s o m ehow for hims el f o u t o f b ooks

o r from s ome o l d chr onicl e B ut thos e ar e fo r th e mo st .

p art the l earned and al l ol d fogeys s o that i t woul d b e ,

almost il l b r ed i n a m an o f s ociety You know my op inio ns

-
.

i n general thou gh I n ev e r b l ame any o ne I do nothing at

, . .

’
all I p ers ev er e i n that B ut we v e talked o f th i s mo r e th an
, .

once b e fo r e I w as s o happy ind eed as to i nte re st you i n my

”
.

O pinions Y o u ar e v ery pal e A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a

.
,
.

“
I know hi s theo ry I read that art icl e o f hi s ab out m e n
.

to whom all i s permitted Ra z u m ih in b rought i t to m e

‘ Ra z u m ihi ?
. .

Mr . n You r b rother s arti cl e ? I n a m agaz ine ? ’

I s there su ch an arti cl e ? I didn t know It mu st b e i nte r ’

.

e sting B ut whe re ar e y o u go ing A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a

.
,
 C R IM E AND P UN IS H MEN T 5 01
.

I wan t to s e e S o fya S e m yo n o v n a D ouni a a rti cul ated ,

“
faintly How do I go to he r ? S he has come in perhaps
.
, .

I must s ee he r at o nce Perhaps she .

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a coul d not fi nish H e r b reath l iterally .

failed he r .

“
S o fya S e m yo n o v n a wi ll n o t b e b ack ti ll night at l east I ,

b eli eve not S h e w a s t o have b een b ack at o nce but i f not

”
.
, ,

then she will not b e i n till qu ite l ate .

“
Ah then y o u are lying ! I s e e
, yo u w er e lying
lying all the time I d o n t b el i eve you ! I do n t b el ieve ’ ’

”
.

yo u ! cried D ou ni a completely l osi ng he r he ad

,
.

Almost fainting s h e sank o n to a chai r whi ch S v id riga i l o v

,

m ade haste to give h e r .

“
A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a what i s it ? , C o ntro l yoursel f !
Her e i s some water D rink a little . He sp rinkled som e .

water ove r he r D ouni a shuddered and came to hers el f

. .

“
It has a cte d vi olently S v id r ig a i l o v mutter ed to him
,
“
s el f frowni ng
,
A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a
. calm you rs el f ! ,

B elieve me he has fri ends We w i ll s ave h im Would yo u

, . .

l ike m e to take him ab road ? I hav e money I can get a ti cket ,

in three days A nd as fo r the mu rder he w ill do all s o rts

.
,

o f good deeds yet to atone fo r it , C alm y o ur sel f H e m ay . .

b ecom e a gre at m an yet Well how are you ? How do.

”
,

you feel ?
“
C ruel man ! To b e abl e to j e er at i t ! Let m e go
”
.

Whe re ar e you go ing ?

To him Wher e i s he ? D o you kno w ? Why i s thi s

.

doo r locked ? We cam e i n at that doo r and now i t i s l ocked

”
.

When did yo u manage to lock i t ?

“ ’
We couldn t b e shouti ng all ove r the fl at o n su ch a
’
subj e ct I am fa r from j eer i ng ; it s s imply that I m s i ck
.
’

o f talking l ike thi s B ut h o w can yo u go i n su ch a state ?

.

D o you want to b etray him ? You w ill dr iv e him to fury ,

and he w ill give himsel f up Let m e tel l you he i s already .

,

b eing watched ; they ar e alre ady o n hi s t rack You w ill .

s imply b e giving him away Wait a l ittle : I s a w him and .

w a s t alking to him j ust now H e can still b e s aved Wai t

. .

a b it s it do w n ; let u s thi nk i t ov er togethe r

, I aske d .

you t o com e i n orde r to di scu ss i t al one w ith y o u and t o

c o nsider i t t h oro ughly Bu t d o s it d o wn !
.
”
5 09 F Y ODO R D OSTOEV S KY

Ho w you s ave h im ? C a n
can h e re al ly b e s aved ?”
D ouni a s a t down S v id r iga i l o v s a t d o wn b eside he r
. .

“
It all depends on you o n you o n you al o ne he b ega n , , ,

w ith g lowing eyes alm o st i n a whisp er and hardly ab le t o

,

u tte r the wo rds fo r emotion .

D ouni a dr ew b ack from him i n alarm He to o w a s .

t rembli ng all ove r .

“
Yo u o n e w o rd fr o m you and h e i s s ave d I ,
.

’
I l l save him I have mo ney and fri ends I ll s end him away
’
. .

a t once I ll get a p assport tw o passports one fo r him and

.
’
, ,

o n e fo r m e I have fr i ends
. cap abl e p eopl e If .

you l ike I l l take a p as sp ort fo r you

,
’
fo r you r m othe r .

Wh at do you w ant w ith Ra z u m ih in ? I l ove you too

I l ov e you b eyo nd e verything Let m e kis s the .

hem o f you r dress l et me l et m e T he v ery r ustle o f

‘
.
, ,
’
i t i s to o mu ch for me T el l m e d o th at and I ll d o i t .
, ,
’
.

’
I ll do everything I w il l do the imp os sibl e
. What you .

b el ieve I will b el iev e I l l do anythi ng— anything ! D o n t

, .
’ ’
,
’
don t look at me li ke th at D o yo u kn o w t hat yo u a r e .

k illing m e ?
He was almost b egi nning t o rave S o methi ng s ee m e d .

suddenly to go t o his head D ou ni a j ump ed up and r u shed t o .

the do o r
”
.

“
O pen it ! O p en it ! s h e call ed shaking the d oo r O p en
”
.
,

it ! I s ther e no one ther e ?

S v id r ig a i l o v got u p and cam e to him sel f H i s s t il l .

t rem b l ing l ip s slowly b roke i nt o an angry mo cki ng smil e

”
.

“
Ther e i s n o o n e at home h e s ai d qu i etly and emph ati cally , .

The l andl ady has gone o ut and it s w aste o f time to shou t ’

”
,

like th at Y o u are o nly exciting you r sel f u sel es sly

. .

“
Wher e i s the key ? O pe n the d o or at o nce a t o nce
”
, ,

base man !
“
I h av e lo st th e key and canno t find i t .

This i s an outrage cr ie d D o uni a tu rning pal e a s de ath

, ,
.

S he ru she d to the fu rthest co rne r w her e s h e m ade haste t o ,

barri cade he rsel f w ith a l ittl e t ab le .

S he did not scream but s h e fixed he r eyes o n he r to r

,

mento r and watched every mo vement he m ade .

S v id riga il o v r em ained standing at th e othe r e nd o f t h e

ro om facing her
, H e w as p o s itively c o mp o sed a t l east
.
,
5 04 F Y OD O R DO S T OEV S K Y

we r e capabl e o f I f yo u dar e to advance o n e s t ep I swea r ,

”
.

I l l ki ll you
’
S he w a s frantic .
.

B ut your b rothe r ? I ask from cu r i o s ity s aid ,

S v id r ig a i l o v still standi ng whe r e h e w a s

,
.

’
“
I nform i f you want to ! D o n t sti r ! D o n t come near er !
,
’

I ll shoot ! You poi soned you r w i fe I know ; y ou ar e a

’
,

murdere r y o ur sel f ! ” S he hel d the r evol ve r r eady

”
.

“
Are you s o p ositiv e I p oiso ned M ar fa P etrovna ?
“
You d id ! You hinted i t you r s el f ; you talked to m e o f
p oison . I know you we nt to get i t you had it in
readines s I t w a s y o ur d o i ng
. I t must have b ee n .

y o u r doing S coundre l ! .

“
E ve n i f that wer e tru e i t w oul d hav e b e en f o r y o u r
”
,

s ake . you would have b ee n the cau s e .

You are lying ! I hated you always always , .

O h o A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a ! You se em to h av e forgotte n

,

how y o u so ftened to m e i n the heat o f p ropaganda I s aw i t .

i n you r eyes D o you r ememb e r that m o onlight night when

”
.
,

the nightingal e w a s s inging ?

“ ” ’ ’
That s a li e the r e w a s a flash o f fu ry i n D ouni a s eye s
”
, ,

that s a l i e and a l ib el !
’

“ ’
A l i e ? Well i f you l ike i t s a l ie I m ade it up
”
. .
, ,

Wome n ought not to b e r emi nded o f su ch things h e sm iled , .

“
I know you w i l l s ho ot yo u p retty w ild cre atu r e We ll ,
”
.
,

shoot away !
D ouni a r ai se d the r evolv er and deadly p ale gaz ed a t hi m , , ,

measur ing the di stance and awaiting the fi rst mov eme nt o n
hi s part H er lowe r l ip w a s white and qu iv e ring and he r
.

big b lack eyes flashed like fi re H e had nev er s een her s o .

h andsome The fi r e glowing i n her eyes at th e m o ment

.

s h e r ai sed the r evo lv er s eemed to kindle him and ther e w a s

a pang o f angui sh i n hi s he ar t H e took a step fo rward and .

a shot r ang o u t The bu llet graz ed hi s h ai r and fl ew i nt o

.

the wall behi nd H e sto od stil l and l aughed so ftly. .

“
T h e w asp has stung m e S h e aim ed straight at my h ead
”
. .

’
What s thi s ? B loo d ? h e pul led out hi s handkerchi e f to
wipe the blood whi ch flowed i n a thi n stre am do w n hi s righ t
,

templ e The bullet s eem ed to hav e j u st gr azed the ski n

. .

D ouni a lowe red the revol ve r and l ooked at S v id rig a i l o v

n o t s o much i n te r ro r a s i n a s o r t o f W i ld amazemen t S he .
 C R IM E A N D P U N I S H ME NT 5 05

s eemed n ot t o u nderstand wh at s h e was doing and wh at

w a s going o n .

“
Well you mi s sed ! F i re again I ll wait said S v id ri
, ,
’

,
“
g a i l o v so ftly sti ll smiling bu t glo omily I f y o u go o n like
”
, , .

that I shall hav e time to s ei z e you b e for e you cock again

,
.

D ouni a start ed qu ickly coc ke d the p i sto l and agai n

,

r ai sed i t .

“ ’
Let me b e s h e cri ed i n d espai r I swear I l l sho ot
”
.
,
’
again I . I ll kill you .

“
Wel l at thre e p aces y ou can hardly help i t B ut i f
”
.

’
you d o n t then Hi s eyes fl ashed and he took t w o
.

step s forward D ouni a shot agai n : i t missed fi re

. .

“
Yo u haven t l o aded i t pr o perly
’
N ev er mind you hav e
”
.
,
’
!
a n o ther charge the re Ge t it r eady I l l w ait . . .

H e st o o d facing h er two pace s away waiting and gazing , ,

at h er w ith wi ld determinati o n with fever i shly passio nate , ,

stubbo rn s e t eye s D o uni a s a w that he wou ld s o oner di e

, .

than l et her go And now o f cou rs e s h e wou ld kill

”
.
,

h im at tw o paces ! S uddenly s h e flung away th e r evolve r

”
.
,
“
S he s dropped it ! s ai d S v id r ig ai l o v w ith su rpr i s e and
’
,

h e dr ew a deep b reath A weight s eemed to hav e rol led .

fro m hi s heart— perhap s no t o nly th e fe ar o f d eath ; indeed

h e may scarcel y hav e felt it at that moment I t w a s the .

d el iv er ance fro m another feel ing darker and mo re b itter , ,

which h e cou ld not hims el f hav e de fined .

H e went to D ouni a and gently put hi s arm round h e r

wai st S he did not r esi st but tr embling like a l ea f looked
.
, , ,

at him with suppli ant eye s He tri ed to s ay something but .

,

hi s l ip s moved without being able to utte r a sound

”
.

“
Let me go D o uni a impl o r ed S v id r ig a il o v shudder ed
, . .

H e r v o i ce now w a s qui t e di fferent

”
.

“ ? ’
Then yo u don t lov e me he asked s o ftly D ouni a shook .

he r head
”
.

“ ’
And and y ou can t ? N ev er ? h e whi spe red in
d espai r .

“
N ev er !
T her e followed a moment o f terrible dumb stru ggle i n th e ,

h eart o f S v id riga i l o v H e lo oked at he r w ith an inde.

scribabl e gaze S uddenly h e withdr ew hi s arm tu rned quickly

.
,

t o th e w ind o w and s too d facin g i t An ot he r m o ment p as sed . .

5 06 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

H e re s th e key
’
.

H e took it o u t o f the le ft p o cket o f h is co a t and laid i t on

the tabl e behind him wi thout turning o r l o oking a t Dou ni a

”
, .

“
Take it ! M ake h aste !
He looked stubbo rnly o u t o f the w ind o w Do uni a wen t .

u p to the table to t ake the key

”
.

M ake h aste ! M ake h aste ! r ep ea t ed S v id riga i l o v s t il l ,

without turning o r mov ing B ut th er e s eemed a t er ribl e

”
.

“
signi ficance i n the ton e o f th at m ake hast e .

D ouni a under sto od i t snatched up the key fl ew to the

, ,

doo r unlocked i t qu i ckly and ru shed o u t o f the roo m A

, .

mi nute later be sid e he r sel f sh e r an out o n t o th e canal b ank

, ,

i n the di rectio n o f ! B ridge .

S v id r iga i l o v r emained thr e e m inu t es st anding at th e

window At last h e slowly tu rned looked about hi m and
.
,

passed hi s h and o v er hi s for ehead A strange smil e co n .

t o rt e d hi s face a piti f u l s a d w eak sm il e a smi le o f desp ai r

, , , , .

The blo od wh ich w a s al re ady getting d ry smear ed hi s

, ,

hand H e l oo ked angr ily at it then w etted a t o wel a n d

.
,

washed hi s temple The r ev o lv er which D ouni a h ad flung

.

away l ay near th e doo r and sudd enly caught hi s eye H e .

picked it up and examined i t It w a s a littl e po cket three .

b arrel r evolv e r o f o l d fashioned c o nstru ction Ther e w ere .

sti ll two charge s and on e capsu l e l e ft i n it. It c o uld b e .

fi red again H e th o ught a littl e p ut the r ev o lver i n h is

.
,

po cke t t oo k his h at and wen t o u t

, .
5 08 F Y ODO R D O STO E V S K Y

clap o f thunder and th e r ai n came down like a wate r fall

, .

Th e w ate r fell not i n d rop s but beat o n the earth i n ,

streams Ther e were flashes o f ligh t ning ev ery mi nu t e and

.

e ach fl ash lasted whil e o ne c o u ld count five .

D renched t o the skin h e went home locked hi m s el f i n, , ,

opened the bure au took o u t all hi s money and to r e u p two

,

o r three paper s Then putti ng the money i n hi s po cket he

.
, ,

was about to change h is clothe s but lo o king o u t o f window , ,

and li stening to th e thunde r and the r ai n h e gav e up the ,

i dea took up hi s h at and went o u t o f the r o o m w ith ou t

,

l ocking the d o o r H e wen t str aight t o S o ni a S he w a s at

. .

home .

S he was no t alo ne : th e four K a p e r n a u m o v child ren wer e

with he r . S h e wa s giv ing th em te a S he receiv ed S v i .

d r ig a i l o v i n respect ful s ilence lo oking wonderingly a t hi s ,

so aking clothes Th e ch ild ren all ran away at o nce i n i nde

.

s cr ibabl e te rro r .

S v id riga i l o v s a t down at th e tabl e and asked S o ni a to s it

b eside h im S he timidly pr epar ed to li sten
. .

“
I may b e going t o Ameri ca S o fya S e m yo n o vn a s ai d , ,
“
S v id r ig a i l o v and as I am p rob ably s eeing yo u fo r the l ast
,

time I h ave come to make s o me a r r angements Well did

,
.
,

y o u s e e the lady to day ? I know wh at s h e said to you yo u

-
,

need not tell me ( S o ni a mad e a mov ement and blu shed )

. .

“
Tho s e p eopl e h av e thei r o w n way o f doi ng things A s to .

y o u r si ster s and y o ur brothe r they ar e r eally prov id ed f o r ,

’
and the money a s si gned to them I v e pu t i nto s a fe keeping
and hav e received acknowledgments Y o u h ad b etter take .

charge o f th e receipts i n case anyth ing h appens ,

Here .
,
’
take them ! Well now that s s ettl ed ,
Her e a re three 5 .

p e r cent bonds t o the V alu e o f thr ee thou sand r ouble s Take

. .

tho se fo r you r s el f enti rely fo r you r s el f and l et th at b e

, ,

strictly b etween ou rselv e s s o th at no o ne know s o f it what, ,

ever you he ar Y o u wi ll need th e money fo r to go o n l iving

.
, ,

in the o l d w a y S o fya S e m yo n o v n a i s b ad and b e sides

”
, , ,

t here i s no nee d fo r it n o w .

“
I am s o much indebted to you and s o ar e the ch ildren
”
,
“
and my stepmother said S oni a hur ri edly and i f I v e s ai d
, ,
’

’
s o littl e pl eas e don t con side r
’
That s enough ! t hat s enoug h ! ” ’
 C R IM E A ND P U N I S H MEN T 5 09

B ut a s fo r the m o ney Arkady I vanov itch I am v ery , ,

’
grate ful to yo u but I don t need i t now I can always earn
,
.

my o w n l iving D on t think me ungrate ful I f you are s o

.
.
’
.

charitable that money ,

“ ’
It s fo r yo u fo r you S o fya S e m yo n o v n a and pl ease
, , ,
’ ’
do n t waste wo rd s o ve r it I haven t time fo r i t Yo u will . .

want it Rodi on Ro m a n o v itc h has t w o alternative s : a bullet

”
.

i n the b rain o r S iberi a ( S oni a looked w ildly at him and .

,
“ ’
started ) D on t b e u ne asy
. I know all about i t from .

’
himsel f and I am n o t a gossip ; I wo n t tell any one I t was .

good adv ice when you told hi m to giv e h imsel f u p and

con fess It would b e much better fo r him Well i f i t turns
. .
,

o u t to b e S ib eri a he wil l g o and yo u w ill foll o w him

’

,
That s .

’ ’
so, i sn t it ? And i f s o you ll ne ed money Y o u ll need it , .
’

for him do yo u understand ? Giving it to you i s the s ame

,

a s my giving it to him B es ides you p romi sed Amali a .

,

I vanovna t o pay what s o wing I heard yo u H o w can you

’
. .

undertake such obligatio ns s o he edlessly S o fya S e m yo ,

no vna ? It was K ater ina Iv a n o v n a s d ebt and not you r s s o ’

,

yo u ought not to h av e taken any notice o f the German

woman Y o u can t get throu gh the wo rld l ike tha t I f yo u
.
’

ar e ev er questioned about me— to mo rro w o r the day a fter -

’
you wi ll b e asked— do n t s a y anything about my coming to
’
se e you now and do n t show the money to any o n e o r s a y
”
a wo rd about it Well now good bye .
( He g o t up ) , My -
. .

gre etings to Rodion Ro m a n o v it c h B y the w a y y o u d .

,
’

bette r put the money fo r th e pr esent i n M r Ra z u m ih in s .

’

keeping You kn o w M r Ra z u m ihin ? O f cou rse you do

. . .

H e s not a bad fello w Take it to hi m to m or row o r

’
-
,

when th e tim e comes And til l then h ide it care fully

.
,
.

S oni a too j ump ed u p from he r chai r and looked in dismay

at S v id rig a il o v She longed t o speak to a sk a qu estion bu t
.
, ,

fo r the fi r st moments sh e d id not d are and did not know how

to begin .

“
H o w can y ou h o w c a n you b e going now i n su ch ,

? ”
r ain
“
Why b e s t arting fo r America and b e s t opped by rain !
, ,

H a h a ! Go od bye S o fya S e m yo n o v n a my dear ! Li ve and

,
-
, ,

l iv e long you will b e o f u se to oth er s B y th e way

, tel l .

M r Ra z u m ihin I s end my greetings t o h im Tel l him .

5 10 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y

A rkady Ivanov itch S v id r ig ai l o v send s h i s greetings Be .

su re to .

He went out leaving S oni a in a state o f w o nder ing anxi e t y

,

and vagu e app rehens ion .

I t appeared a fterwards that o n th e same evening at twen t y ,

p ast elev en h e made anothe r v ery eccent ri c and u nexpected

,

v i sit The r ain still persi sted

.
D r enched to the skin h e
.
,

walked into the l ittl e fl at wh er e the p ar ents o f hi s b etrothed

l ived i n Thi rd St reet i n V a s s il yev s ky I sl and H e kno ck ed
,
.

some tim e b e for e h e was admitt ed and h is v i sit at fi rst ,

cau sed great p e rtu rb ation ; but S v id r ig a il o v cou ld b e v ery

fascinating when h e l iked s o that th e fi rst and indeed v ery
, ,

intel ligent su rmi se o f th e s ens ibl e p ar ents that S v id rig a il o v

had p robab ly h ad s o mu ch to d ri nk that h e did not kn o w
what he was doi ng v ani shed immedi ately Th e d ecr ep i t .

fathe r was wheeled i n to s e e S v id r ig a i l o v by th e t ender and

s ens i b l e mothe r w h o a s u su al b egan th e co nv er satio n w ith
,

variou s i r relevant qu estions S h e nev e r asked a di r ect qu es

.

tion but began b y smil ing and rubb ing h er h ands and th en
, ,

i f s h e we re obl iged to ascertain something— fo r i nst ance ,

when S v idr ig ai l o v wou ld l ik e to h av e the w edding— sh e

wou ld begin by inte rested and alm o st eager qu e stions ab ou t
Pari s and th e c o u rt li fe the r e and only by degr ees b rou gh t
,

the conv ersation r ound to T hi rd S tr ee t O n other o ccasion s .

thi s had o f cou rse b een v ery i mp r essi v e but thi s t ime A rk ady ,

I vanov itch s eemed p arti cul arly i mp ati ent and ins isted o n ,

s eeing hi s b et roth ed at o nce though h e h ad b een in fo rmed

,

to b egin with that s h e h ad alr eady gon e to b ed The gi r l o f .

cou rs e appeared .

S v id r ig a i l o v i n fo rm ed h er o nce that he w a s o b li ged by

v e ry impo rtant a ffai rs to leav e Pet ersbu rg fo r a t ime and ,

ther e for e b rought he r fi fteen thou s and roub l es and b egged

h er t o accept th em as a p res ent fr om h im as h e h ad long ,

been intending to m ak e he r thi s t rifling p r es ent b e fo re th ei r

wedding T h e l ogi cal conn ectio n o f the p res ent w ith hi s
.

immediate dep artu r e and th e ab solute n eces sity o f v i s iting

them fo r that pu rpo s e in p ou r ing r ain at midni ght w a s no t
made cl ear B ut it al l went o ff ve ry w ell ; even th e in evitabl e
.

ej aculations o f wonde r and regr et th e inev itabl e qu estions ,

wer e extra o rdinari ly few and r est r ained O n th e oth er .

5 12 F Y OD O R DO ST OEV S K Y
hotel somewhe re towards th e end bu ilt o f wo od Lu t fai r ly , ,

l a rge and its n am e h e remem b er ed was someth ing lik e

,

Adri anopl e H e was not m istak en : th e hot el w a s s o co n

.

s p icu o u s in that God fo rsak en pl ace that he cou ld n o t fail to

-

s e e i t even in th e dark It w as a long bl ackened w o oden

.
,

bu ilding and in sp i t e o f th e l ate hou r the re w er e l ights in

,

th e w indows and s igns o f l i fe w ithin H e w ent in and .

asked a ragged fellow w h o m e t h im i n t h e c o rrid o r fo r a

room The l atter scanning S v id rig a i l o v pull ed him sel f to
.
, ,

gethe r and l ed him at once to a clo s e and tiny r oom i n th e

d istance at the end o f the co r r ido r u nde r t h e stai rs Ther e
, , .

was no othe r all w er e o ccupi ed Th e r agged fell o w l oo ked

,
.

inqui ringly
”
.

“
I s the re te a ? ask ed S vidrigail o v .

Yes si r
”
.
,

What el s e i s ther e ?

V eal v odka s av o u ri es
, , .

B ring me t ea and v eal

”
.

And yo u w ant nothing el s e ? h e asked w i t h a pp a r ent

su rpri se .

“
N othing nothing , .

Th e ragged man wen t away c om pl e t ely d i s illu si o ne d

”
.
,
“
It mu st b e a ni ce pl ace t h o ught S v id rig a il o v , Ho w .

was it I didn t know it ? I exp ec t I l o ok as i f I cam e fr om

’

a ca f é chantant and h av e had s o m e adv entu re o n the w a y

”
.

It would b e interesting t o know w h o stay he re ?

H e l ighte d th e candl e and l o oked at th e r o om mo r e ca r e
fu lly I t w a s a r o o m s o l o w p itch ed th at S v id rig ai l o v coul d
.
-

o nly j u st stand up i n it ; i t h ad on e wind o w ; th e b ed whic h ,

was v e ry di rty and th e plain s t ained ch ai r and t ab l e almos t

,

fi lled it u p The w all s l o oked as thou gh they wer e m ad e o f

.

planks cov ered with shabby p ap e r s o to rn and du sty tha t

, ,

the p attern w a s indi stingu i shab l e th o ugh the general c o l o u r ,

—yellow — coul d stil l b e m ad e o u t O n e o f th e wal ls was cu t .

sho rt b y th e sloping ceiling th o ugh th e r o o m w a s n o t an ,

atti c but j u st u nde r the sta irs

, .

S v id riga i l o v s e t down th e candl e sat down o n t he b ed and ,

sank into thought B ut a strange p ers i stent mu rmu r which

.

sometime s ro s e to a shout i n the n ext roo m a tt rac t ed hi s

attenti o n The mu rmu r had n ot c eas ed fr o m the m om en t he
.
 C R IM E AND P U N IS H ME N T 5 13

ente red the r o om He l i stened : some o n e w a s upbraid

.

ing and almo st tear fully s co lding but he heard only o n e ,

vo rce .

S v id rig a i l o v got up shaded th e l ight with hi s h and and at

,

o nce h e s a w light th rough a c rack in the wal l ; h e went u p

a n d p eep ed th rough The room which was somewhat l arge r
.
,

than thi s had two o ccupants O n e o f them a v ery cu rly

,
.
,

h eaded man w ith a red inflamed face w a s standing i n the ,

p o s e o f an o rato r without hi s coat with hi s l egs wide apart

, ,

t o p reserv e h i s b al ance and smiting himsel f o n the b reast

, .

H e rep ro ached th e othe r with being a b eggar w ith h av in g ,

no standing whateve r H e decl ared that h e had taken the

.

other o u t o f the gutte r and h e cou ld tu rn h im o u t wh en h e

l iked and th a t only the fi nger o f P rovidence s ees it al l The
, .

obj ect o f hi s rep r o aches and s itting i n a ch ai r h ad th e

, ,

ai r o f a m an w h o w ant s dread fu lly to sn eez e b u t can t H e ,

’

sometime s tu rned sheepi sh and b e fogged eyes on the speake r ,

bu t obv iou sly h ad not th e sl ight est ide a what h e was t alking
about and scarcely heard it A candl e was bu rning d o wn o n .

the ta b l e ; ther e w ere win e gl asses a nearly empty bottle ,

o f vodka b read and cu cumb er and gl as se s w ith the d regs

, ,

o f stal e tea A fter gaz ing attentively at this S v id rig a i l o v

.
,

tu rned away indi ffe rently and s a t down o n th e bed .

Th e ragged attendant r etu rning with the t ea could not

, ,
’
r esi st a sking him agai n wheth er h e d idn t w ant anything
mo re and again r eceiving a negativ e reply finally withdre w
, , .

S v id rig a i l o v made h aste to d rink a glass o f tea to w arm hi m <

s el f bu t coul d not e at anything H e began to feel fev er ish

,
. .

H e took o ff hi s co at and w rapp ing hims el f i n th e bl anket , ,

“
l ay down o n th e b ed H e w a s annoyed It would hav e b een
”
. .

b ette r to b e w el l fo r th e o ccasion h e thought with a smi l e , .

The room w a s clos e th e candl e bu rnt dimly; th e wind was

,

ro ar ing o utside h e heard a m ou s e scratching in th e co rner

,

and th e room smelt o f mi ce and o f leather H e l ay i n a .

so rt o f rev eri e : o n e thought follow ed anothe r H e felt a .

“
l onging t o fi x hi s imagin ation o n something I t mu st b e a
”
.

“ ’
garden u nder the window h e thought The re s a sound
, .

o f t rees H o w I dislike th e sound o f tre es o n a sto rmy night

”
.
,

i n the dark ! They giv e o ne a ho rr id feel ing H e remem .

b ered how h e h ad disl iked i t when h e p as sed Pet r o vsky

5 14 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

Park j u st now Thi s r eminded h im o f the b r idge o v er t h e

.

Littl e N eva and h e felt cold again as h e had when standing

there “ ” “
I neve r h ave l iked wate r h e thou ght ev en i n a
. , ,

l andscape and he su ddenly smil ed again at a str ange idea :

,
“
Su rely now all thes e qu estio ns o f tast e and co m fo rt ought
not to matte r b ut I v e b ecome mo re p arti cu l ar l ike an a n i
,
’

mal that pi cks out a sp eci al pl ace fo r su ch an o ccas ion .

I ou g ht to hav e gone into the P et rov sky P ark ! I suppo se i t

seemed dark cold h a h a ! As though I w er e s eeki ng pleas
, ,
-

ant sensations ! B y th e way w h y hav en t I put out th e ’

” ”
,
“ ’
candl e ? h e blew it out They v e gone to b ed next doo r .
,
“
he thought not s eeing th e l ight at the crack
,
Well now .
, ,

M ar fa Petrovn a no w i s the t im e fo r yo u to tu rn u p ; it s
,
’

dark and th e ve ry time and p l ac e fo r y o u B ut n o w yo u

, .

’
won t com e
H e suddenly r ecal led how an hou r b e fo r e car rying o ut ,

hi s desi gn o n D ouni a he had r ecommended Raskolniko v to ,

“
tru st he r to Ra z u m ihin s k eeping I supp os e I r eally d id ’
.

s a y i t as Rasko lniko v gu es sed to t eas e mys el f

,
B u t what a , .

rogu e that Rasko ln iko v i s ! H e s gone through a good deal ’

.

H e may b e a su ccess fu l rogu e in time wh en h e s got ove r ’

’
hi s nons ens e B ut now h e s t o o eager fo r l i fe Thes e young
. .

men ar e contemptib l e o n that p oi nt Bu t h ang th e fell o w !

”
.
,
’
Let him pl eas e himsel f it s nothing t o do w ith me , .

H e cou ld not get t o sl eep B y d egr ees D ouni a s i mag e ’

.

“
rose b e fo r e him and a shudde r r an ov er h im
, N o I mu s t .
,

giv e u p al l that now he thou ght rou s ing h imsel f ,

I mu s t , .

think o f something el s e I t s qu e e r and funny I nev e r h ad .

’
.

a great hatr ed fo r any o n e I nev er p arti cul a rly desi red to ,

’
revenge mys el f ev en and th at s a b ad s ign a b ad s ign I , , .

nev e r liked qu ar r el ling either and n ev er lo st my temp e r ,

that s a b ad sign too And the p romi s es I m ad e h e r j u st now

’
.

too ! D amnat io n ! B ut— who knows — p e rh ap s s h e w o u ld

hav e m ade a new man o f m e som ehow .

He grou nd h is t eeth and s ank into si lence again Again .

’
D ouni a s image ro s e b e fo r e him j u st as sh e was wh en a fte r , ,

sho oting the fi rst tim e sh e h ad l ow e red th e r evolv e r in ter ro r

,

and gazed bl ankly at h im so that h e might h av e s ei zed her ,

twi ce over and s h e wou ld not hav e l i fted a hand t o de fend

hersel f i f he had not reminded h er H e r ecal led h o w at that .
5 16 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

ri ch rugs was deco rated with r are pl ants i n china pots H e

,
.

noticed particul arly i n the w indow s no segays o f tende r ,

white heavily fra g rant n arci ssu s b ending ove r thei r b right
, ,

green thick l on g stalks H e w a s r elu ctant to mov e aw ay

,
.

from them b ut he went u p th e stai rs and cam e into a l arge

,

hi g h drawing roo m and aga in ev e rywhe re a t the w i ndows

- —
,

the doo rs on t o the b al cony and o n th e b al cony itsel f ,

we re flowers Th e floo r s w er e st r ewn w ith fr eshly cu t frag

.
-

rant hay th e windows we r e open a fresh coo l light ai r

, , , ,

came into the ro om Th e bi rds w er e chi rruping u nde r th e

.

window and i n th e middl e o f the room o n a ta b l e covered

, ,

w ith a whit e sat in shroud stood a c o flin Th e co ffin w a s c o v .

e red with whit e s i lk and edged w ith a thi ck white f rill ;

w reaths o f flowe rs su r rounded i t o n al l s ides Among th e .

flowe rs l ay a gi rl i n a white mu sl i n d re ss w ith he r arms ,

crossed and pressed o n h e r bo som a s thou gh carv ed out o f ,

mar b l e B ut he r loo s e fai r h ai r w a s w et ; there w as a w re ath

.

o f ro ses o n he r head Th e stern and al ready r igid p ro fil e o f

.

her face looked as though chi sel l ed o f m ar b l e too and th e ,

smil e o n he r p al e l ip s w a s fu ll o f an i mmens e u nch ildish

mi sery and sor row fu l app eal S v id r ig a i l o v knew that gi rl ; .

there w a s no holy ima g e n o bu rning candl e b esid e th e co ffi n ;

,

no sound o f p raye rs : th e gi rl had d rowned hersel f S he w as .

only fou rteen bu t he r he art w a s b roken , And s h e had .

dest royed h ersel f c ru sh ed by an insult that had appalled and

amazed that chi ldi sh s oul had smi rched that angel pu rity ,

w ith unmerite d disgrace and torn from h er a l ast s cream

o f despai r u nheeded and b rutally di s regarded o n a dark
, ,

night in th e cold and w e t whil e th e wind howled

S v id r iga i l o v cam e t o himsel f got up from the b ed and ,

w ent to th e window H e fel t for the l atch and opened it . .

The wind lashed fu riou sly i nt o th e littl e r oom and stung

hi s face and hi s che st only cov er ed w ith hi s sh irt as though
, ,

with fro st U nde r th e w i ndow ther e mu st hav e b een some

.

thing like a garden and appa rently a plea su r e garden Ther e

, .
,

too p rob a b ly wer e t ea tabl es and s inging i n th e day

,

time N o w drop s o f rai n fl ew in at th e window from the

.

trees and bu she s ; it was d ark as i n a cella r s o th at he could ,

only j ust make out some dark blu r s o f obj ects S v id r iga i l o v .
,

bending d o wn with elb o w s o n th e window sill gazed f o r fiv e -

,
 C R IM E A N D P UN IS H ME NT 5 17

m i n ut es i nt o th e darkness ; the b o om o f a cann o n f o ll o wed ,

by a sec o nd o n e r e sounded i n the darknes s o f th e night .

”
,

Ah th e si gnal ! The r ive r i s ove rfl o wing h e t h o ught

, ,
.

B y mo rning i t wi ll b e swi rling down the street in th e lowe r

parts flo oding the b asements and cellar s Th e cella r rat s
, .

w i ll swim o u t and men w ill cu rs e i n the r ain and wind as

,

they drag thei r rubbi sh to thei r upper sto reys What time
”
.

is i t n o w ? and h e had hardly thou ght i t when somewher e ,

n ear , a cl o ck o n th e wall ticking away hu rri edly stru ck

, ,

thr ee .

“ ’
Aha ! I t wi ll b e l ight i n an h o u r ! Why wait ? I l l go
o u t at o nce st raight to th e park I ll choo s e a great bu sh .
’

’
ther e d renched with rain s o that a s soo n as o ne s sh o ulde r
”
,
’
t o u ches it mill ion s o f d rop s d rip o n o ne s head
,
.

H e m o v ed away fro m the wi nd o w shut it lighted th e , ,

candl e put o n h i s wai stco at h i s o v erco at and h is hat and

, ,

went o ut carrying th e candl e into the p as sage t o lo ok fo r

, ,

the ragged attendant wh o would b e asl eep somewh e re in the

m idst o f candle ends and all sort s o f rubbi sh to p ay him fo r ,
“ ’
th e r o om and l eav e th e hotel It s th e b est m in u te ; I
”
.

’
couldn t cho o s e a b etter .

H e walked fo r s o me time through a long narrow co r rido r

w ithout fi nding any o n e and wa s j u st go ing to call o u t wh en ,

suddenly i n a dark c o rne r between an ol d cupbo ard and th e

d oo r he caught sight o f a strange ob j ec t which seemed t o
b e al iv e He bent d o wn with the candl e and s a w a l it t l e
.

gi rl n o t mo re than fi v e year s o l d shivering and c rying with

, , ,

he r clothe s a s w e t a s a s o aking hou se fl a n n e l S he did not -

.

s eem af raid o f S v id riga il o v but l o oked at hi m w ith blank

,

amazement o u t o f he r b ig black eyes N o w and th en sh e .

s o bbed as children do when they h ave b een crying a long

time bu t ar e beginning to b e com fo rted Th e chi ld s face
, .
’

“
w a s p al e and ti red sh e was numb w ith c o ld
,
H o w can s h e .

hav e c o me h ere ? S h e m u st h av e h idd en her e and n o t slept

al l night ” H e b egan qu esti o n ing h e r Th e chi ld suddenly
. .
,

b ecoming animated chatte red away i n he r b aby l angu age

”
, ,
“ “
something about mammy and th at m ammy would b eat
”
he r and about s o m e c u p that sh e had b w o k e n ” The child
, .

chattered o n w ith o ut stopping He could o nly gu es s f ro m .

w h a t s h e s aid tha t sh e wa s a neglec t ed child wh o s e mot he r, ,

5 18 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

p robably a d runken co ok i n t h e s ervi ce o f th e h o tel wh ipped

, ,

and fri ghtened he r ; that th e child had b roken a c u p o f he r

mothe r s and was s o frightened that sh e h ad ru n away th e
’

ev ening b e fo re had h idden fo r a long whi le somewhe re o u t

,

side i n the rai n at la st h ad made he r w a y in he re hidden

, ,

behind the cupbo ard and spent th e ni ght the re c rying and ,

trembling fro m th e cl amp the d arknes s and th e fe ar that sh e

,

would be b adly beat en fo r i t H e t o ok he r i n hi s arms w ent

.
,

b ack to hi s room s a t h e r o n th e b ed and began undre ssing

, ,

her Th e to rn shoe s whi ch s h e had o n h er st o ckingl es s fe et

.

were a s wet a s i f they h ad b een st andi ng i n a pu ddl e all

night Whe n he had u nd ressed he r h e pu t he r o n th e b ed
.
, ,

covere d he r up and w rappe d h er i n the blanket f ro m he r

head downward s S h e fell a sl eep at o nce The n he s ank
. .

into dreary mu sing again .

“
What folly t o t roubl e mysel f h e decided suddenly w ith
”
,
“
an oppre ssiv e fe eling o f annoyance What i dio cy ! In .

vexatio n h e to ok up the c andl e to go and l o o k fo r the ragged

“
attendant again and make haste to go away D amn the
”
.

child ! h e thou ght as h e opened th e doo r but he tu rned ,

agai n to s e e whethe r th e chi ld w as asl eep He r ais ed th e .

blanket care fully The chi ld w a s sleepin g s o u ndly s h e h ad

.
,

got warm u nder the bl anket and he r pal e cheek s w ere ,

flu shed But str ange to s ay th at flu sh seemed b righter and

.

“
co arse r than the ro sy ch eeks o f ch ildho od It s a flu sh o f
’

”
.

fev er ,thought S v id rig ai l o v I t w as l ike the flu sh from

.

drinking as thou gh s h e had b een giv en a ful l gl as s to d rink

,
.

He r cri mson lip s we r e hot and glowing ; but what w a s th i s ?

He suddenly fancie d th at her long bl ack eyel ashes w e re qu iv
ering a s though the lid s w ere O penin g and a s l y cra fty eye
,

peeped out w ith an unch ildl ike w ink as th o ugh th e l ittl e gi rl ,

we r e not a sle ep but pr etending Ye s i t was s o H e r l ip s

, .
, .

parted i n a smil e The co rne rs o f he r mouth qui vered a s

.
,

though sh e w er e t rying t o con t r o l them B u t now s h e q u ite .

gav e u p all e ff o rt now i t w as a gri n a b ro ad gr in ; ther e w a s

, ,

something sh amel e s s p rovocativ e in that qu ite u nchildi sh

,

face ; i t w a s depr av ity i t w a s th e face o f a harlot the shame

, ,

le s s face o f a F rench h arlot N o w both eye s opened wi de ; .

they tu rned a glowing sh amel es s gl ance upo n him ; they

,

l au ghed i nv ited hi m
, The r e wa s something i nfi nitely
.
5 20 F Y OD O R D O S T OEV S KY

shivering dog c r o ssed hi s p ath w ith it s t ai l b e t we en it s l egs .

A man i n a great co at l ay face d o wnward s dead drunk , ,

acro s s the pavement H e looked at hi m and w ent o n A

. .

“ “
high towe r stood up o n the le ft B ah h e th o ugh t her e
.
,

i s a place Why should i t b e Petr o v sky ? I t w i ll b e i n th e

.

p resence o f an o fficial w itnes s anyway .

H e almost smiled at thi s new thought and tu rned i nt o th e

street where ther e wa s the bi g hou s e with th e t o we r At th e .

great closed gate s o f the hou se a littl e man stood with h i s ,

’
shoulde r l eaning agai nst them wr apped i n a grey soldie r s ,

coat with a copper Achilles h elmet on hi s h ead H e ca st a

,
.

drow sy and indi ffer ent glance at S v id rig a i l o v H i s fac e .

wor e that p erpetu al loo k o f p e ev i sh dej ectio n whi ch i s so ,

sou rly pri nted o n al l face s o f J ewi sh race w ith o ut excepti o n .

They both S v id rig a i l o v and Achill es star ed at each othe r

, ,

fo r a few m inute s with o ut sp eaking At la st it struck .

Achill e s a s i r regul ar fo r a man n o t d runk to b e standin g

thre e step s from h im staring and n o t saying a w o rd
”
.
,
“
What do yo u want her e ? h e s aid w ith o ut m o v ing o r ,

changing hi s p osition .

“
N othing b r o the r go o d mo rning answer ed S vidriga i l o v
”
.
, , ,
’
Thi s i sn t the place .

I am going to fo reign p arts b r ot he r

”
, .

T o for eign p arts ?

To America ”
”
.

Ame ri ca ?
S v id r ig a i l o v took o u t t h e r evo lv e r and c o cked i t Ach ill e s .

rai sed hi s eyeb r o ws

“
.

I say thi s i s n o t the place fo r such j oke s

,
’ ”
‘
f’

Why shouldn t it b e th e place ?

B ecau s e i t i sn t ” ’
.

’ ’
Well b rothe r I don t mind that I t s a go o d pl ace When
, , . .

yo u a r e a sked you j us t s a y h e wa s g o ing h e s aid t o

”
, , ,

Ame ri ca .

H e put th e r evo lv er t o hi s right templ e .

“ ’
You can t d o i t h ere it s not th e place cri ed Ach ille s,
’

, ,

r ou sing himsel f hi s eye s grow ing bigge r and bigge r

, .

S v id r iga i l o v pull ed the t rigge r .

 C HAPT E R VI I

H E s a m e day ab out s ev en o cl o ck in the e v e n in g

,
’
,
’
Rasko lnik o v w a s o n hi s way t o hi s mother s and
’
si ster s lodging —the lodging i n Ba k a l eye v s hou s e
’

which Ra z u m ihin had f o und f o r them The stair s went up .

from the st reet Raskolnik o v walked with l agging step s as

.
,

though stil l hesitating wheth er to go o r not B ut nothing .

would hav e tu rned him back : hi s deci si o n was t aken .

“ ’
B eside s i t do esn t matt e r th ey still know n o thing h e
”
, , ,
“
thou ght and they ar e u sed to thinking o f m e a s eccentri c
, .

H e wa s appall ingly dres sed : hi s cloth es to r n and di rty ,

’
soaked with a night s rai n Hi s face was alm o st di sto rted .

from fati gu e expo su re th e inward confl ict that had l asted

, ,

f o r twenty fou r hour s H e had spent al l the p rev ious ni ght

-
.

alone Go d kn o w s iw h er e B u t anyway h e had r eached a

,
.

deci sio n .

H e kn o cked a t the d o o r which was O p ened by h i s mothe r .

D o uni a was not at home E v en th e se rvant happ ened to b e .

ou t
. At fi rst Pulcheri a Al exandrovna w a s sp eechl es s with
j oy and surp ri se ; then sh e to ok him by the hand and d rew
him into th e room
”
.

“
Her e you ar e ! s h e b egan falter ing with j o y Do n t b e , .
’

angry w ith me Ro dya fo r welcoming yo u s o fo o li shly with

, ,

tear s : I am l aughing not crying D id yo u think I w a s cry

, .

i ng ? N O I am deli g hted b ut I v e g o t i nto su ch a stupid

, ,
’

’
habi t o f shedding tear s I v e b een like that ev er since you r .

’
fathe r s death I cry fo r anything . S it d o wn dear boy .
,

you mu st b e tired ; I see you ar e Ah how muddy you are .

,
.

“
I w a s i n the r ain ye sterday mothe r Raskolnikov , .

began .

“
N O no , P ulcheri a Al exandrovna hu rri edly inte rrup t ed
, ,

yo u thou gh t I w a s go ing to cr o s s que sti on you i n th e

-

’
womani sh w a y I u sed to ; do n t b e anxi ou s I unde rstand I , ,
’
unde r stand it al l : n o w I v e l earned the ways he re and t ruly
’
I s e e f o r mysel f th a t they ar e b ette r I v e mad e u p my .

5 21 18— R
5 22 F Y ODO R D O ST O E V S K Y

mind o nce for al l : h o w c o uld I under stand y our pl an s and

exp ect you to give an accou nt o f th em ? G o d kn o w s what
concern s and plan s you m ay have o r wh at i dea s y o u ar e ,
’
h atching ; s o it s not for m e to keep nudging you r elbow ,

asking you what you are thinking ab o ut ? But my go o dnes s ! ,

w hy am I runnin g to and fro a s thou g h I w ere cr azy .

I am reading you r arti cl e i n the magazin e f o r the thi rd time ,

Ro dya . D mitri P r o k o fi t c h b rou g ht i t t o m e D i rectly I .

s a w it I cried o u t to m ys el f th ere f oo li sh o n e I thought

, , , ,

t hat s wh at h e i s bu sy ab ou t ; th at s th e s o lu t i o n o f the m ys
’ ’

tery l Le arned p e o pl e ar e always l ike t h at H e m ay h av e .

some n ew i dea s i n hi s h e ad j u st n o w ; h e is thinking t h e m

ove r and I wo r r y hi m and up se t h i m I r e a d i t m y dea r .
, ,

and o f co urse the re was a great deal I did n ot u nde r s t and ;

’
but that s o nly natu ral h o w sh o uld I ?
— ”
Show m e m o th e r
’

.
,

Ras kolnikov took the m agazin e and gl anced a t hi s a rt icl e .

Incongruou s a s it w a s w ith hi s m o od and h i s ci r cu m s t ance s ,

h e felt that st range and bi t te r swee t s ens a t ion th a t ev ery

autho r experience s t he fi rst ti m e h e s ee s hi m s el f i n prin t ;
besides h e was only twenty —th re e It l asted o nly a mom ent
, . .

A fte r r eading a few l ine s h e frowned and h i s h e a r t th r o bbed

w ith angu i sh He re called al l th e i nward conflic t o f th e p re
.

c eding mon t h s He flung th e a rticl e o n t he t abl e w ith d is gu s t

.

and anger .

“
But how ev e r fo ol i sh I may b e Ro dya I can s e e fo r , ,

m ys el f th at you w ill v ery s o on b e o ne o f th e le ading- if n o t

th e l eading m an —in th e w orld o f R u ssi an though t And .

’
they dar ed t o t hink y o u w ere mad ! Y ou d o n t kn o w b ut ,

they r eally tho u ght th at Ah th e de spi cabl e cre atu r e s h o w

.
, ,

could they u nde rstan d geniu s ! And D ouni a D o uni a wa s ,

all but bel i ev ing it— wh at d o yo u s ay t o th a t ! Y o u r f a t her

sent twi ce to magaz ines— th e fi r st ti me p o e m s ( I v e g o t th e ’

m anu script and wil l sh o w you ) and the s ec o nd t i m e a whol e

novel ( I be g g ed him t o l et me cop y it o u t ) and h o w we
’
prayed th at they shoul d b e taken— they w e r en t ! I wa s
b reaking mv h eart Ro d ya six o r s ev en d ays ag o o ve r y o u r
, ,

food and you r cloth e s and th e way you ar e l iving B u t now .

I see agai n how f oo l ish I w a s f o r you can attain any po s i

,

t i o n yo u l ike b y y o u r intellec t and t al en t N o d o ub t you .

5 24 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y
“ ’ ’
I v e com e to a ssur e yo u tha t I v e always l o ved yo u and
”
I am glad that we ar e alone ev en glad D ouni a i s out he , ,
“
went o n with the s ame impul se I h av e com e t o t el l you .

that though you wi ll b e unhappy you mu st beli ev e that you r ,

son lov e s yo u now mor e than hims el f and that all you ,
’
thought a b out me that I w a s cru el and d idn t car e about y ou
, ,

was all a mi stake I shall neve r ceas e to lov e yo u . .

Well that s enough I th o ught I mu st d o thi s and b egi n

,
’
.

with thi s .

Pulcheri a Al exandrovna embraced hi m i n sil ence p r es s ,

ing him to her bo som and w eeping gently .

I d o n t know what i s wr o ng with y o u Ro dya s h e s ai d

’

, ,
“ ’
at last I v e b een thinking al l thi s ti me that we wer e
.

simply bo ring y o u and no w I s e e tha t there i s a great so r row

’ ’
i n sto re fo r you and that s why y o u ar e mi serabl e ,
I ve .

fo reseen it a long time Ro dya F o rgiv e m e fo r speakin g , .

ab out i t I keep thinking ab o u t it and l i e aw ake at nights

. .

Y o u r s i ste r lay talking i n he r sleep al l last nigh t t alking o f ,

’
nothing but yo u I caugh t s o mething bu t I couldn t m ake i t
.
,

out . I felt all th e morning as thou gh I we r e go ing t o b e

hanged waiting f o r som ething exp ecting something and
, , ,

now it has come ! Ro dya Ro dya whe r e a re y ou g o ing ?

”
, ,

You are go ing away somewhe r e ?

’
That s what I thought ! I can c o m e with y ou yo u kn o w , ,

i f you need m e And D ouni a to o ; sh e love s you s h e l o ve s

.
, ,

y o u dearly— and S o fya S e m yo n o v n a may come with u s i f

you like Y o u s e e I am gl ad to l ook upon he r a s a dau ghte r
.
,

ev en . D mitri P r o k o fi tc h w i ll help u s to g o to gethe r

”
.

B ut wher e ar e yo u go ing ?
“
Goo d bye mothe r ” -
.
,

What to day s h e cri ed a s th ou gh l o sing hi m f o r ev e r

,
-
,
.

’
I can t stay I mu st go n o w
”
.
,
’
And can t I com e w ith you ?

N o but kneel down and p ray t o G o d f o r m e Y our

”
, .

prayer perhaps wi ll re ach Him .

“ ’
Let me bles s you and si gn y o u w ith th e c r o s s That s
”
.

’
r ight that s right O h God what ar e w e d o ing ?
, .
,

Yes he was glad he was v ery glad that ther e was no o n e

, ,

t here tha t he w a s alone with hi s m ot he r F o r th e fi rst tim e

, .
 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME NT 5 25

a ft e r a l l
t h o se aw ful month s hi s heart wa s s o ftened He fell .

d o wn be f o re her h e ki ssed h er f eet and both wept e m b r a c

, ,

in g And s he was no t surpri sed and d id not que stion h im

.

thi s time F o r some days s h e had reali sed that something

.

aw ful was happening to her s o n and that n o w s o me t errible

minut e had com e fo r him .

“
Ro dya my darling my fi rst born
, s h e s aid sobbin g , , ,

now you a r e j u st as when you wer e little Y o u w o uld r u n .

l ike thi s to me and hu g me and ki s s me When you r fathe r .

w a s liv ing and w e were poo r yo u com f o rted u s s imply by ,

b eing w ith u s and when I bu ried you r fathe r h ow o ften w e ,

wept together at hi s grav e and embr aced a s now And i f , .

’ ’
I v e been crying l ately it s tha t my mother s heart h ad a
’
,

foreboding o f t roub le The first time I s a w yo u that eve .

,

n ing yo u remembe r a s s o on as we a rr ived h ere I gu es sed, ,

s imply from you r eyes M y h eart sank at o nce and to day .

,
-

w hen I o pened the do o r and lo oked at you I t h o ught th e ,

fatal hou r had c o me Ro dya Ro dya yo u a re no t g o in g . , ,

a way t o day -

“
NO !
3’

’
You ll come agai n ?”
“
Ye sI ll come ’
.

Ro dya do n t b e angry I d o n t d a r e t o q u esti o n y o u I

’ ’
, , .

kn o w I mu stn t O nly s ay tw o wo rd s to m e— i s i t far whe r e

’

”
.

y o u ar e g o ing ?
“
V ery far ” .

What i s awaiting y ou t h e r e ? S om e p o st o r caree r fo r

ou ?
”
y
“
What Go d send s o nly pray fo r me R a sk o lnikov .

went to th e doo r bu t s h e clutched him and gazed desp ai r ,

in gl y into hi s eye s H e r face wo rked w ith t erro r . .

“
E nough mother s aid Rask o lniko v deeply r egretting
, , ,

that he had come .

“ ’ ’ ’
N o t fo r ev er it s n ot yet f o r ev er ? Y ou ll c om e y o u l l
”
, ,

c o me t o mo rrow ? -

“
I w ill I will goo d bye
,
He tor e himsel f away a t l as t
,
-
. .

It wa s a warm fre sh bri ght evening ; i t had cl eared u p in

, ,

the morning Raskolnik o v went to hi s l o dgings ; he mad e

.

haste He wanted to fini sh all be fo re sunse t He did n ot

. .

wan t t o meet any o n e till then G o ing u p th e s t ai r s h e .

5 26 F YODO R DO STOEV S K Y

noti ced th at N a s ta sya ru shed fr o m th e s am o var to w atch

“
? ”
him i ntently C a n any o n e h av e co me t o s e e me
. he
wondered He had a di s gu sted v i sio n o f P o r fi ry
. B ut .

O pening hi s doo r h e saw D ouni a S he was s itting alone .

,

plunged in deep thought and looked as thou gh sh e h ad been ,

waiting a long t ime H e stopped sho rt i n the do o rway . .

S he rose from the so fa i n di smay and sto od up facing him .

He r eyes fixed upo n him betr ayed ho rro r and i nfi nite gri e f
, ,
.

And from tho s e eye s alon e he s aw at once that s h e knew

”
.

“
Am I to come i n o r go away ? he asked uncertainly .

“
I ve b een al l day w ith S o fya S e m yo n o v n a
’
We were .

both waiting fo r yo u We thought that y o u wou ld be su r e

”
.

t o come there .

Raskolnikov w ent in t o th e ro om and sank exhau sted o n a

chai r .

“
I feel weak D ouni a I am v ery ti red ; and I should h av e
”
, ,

l iked at thi s moment to b e able to co ntr o l mys el f .

He gl anced at he r mi stru st fully

”
.

“
Where were you all night ?
’
I don t r ememb er cl early You s ee si s t e r I wanted to .
, ,

make up my mi nd once fo r all and s ev eral tim es I Walked ,

b y the N ev a I rememb er that I wanted to end it all ther e

”
, ,
’
but I couldn t mak e u p my m ind h e whi sp er ed lo ok , ,

i ng at he r mi stru st fully again .

Thank Go d ! Th at w as j ust wh at w e wer e a fr aid o f ,

S o fya S e m yo n o v n a and I T hen you sti ll h av e faith in l i fe ?

”
.

Thank God thank God ! ,

Raskolnikov smil ed bitterly .

“ ’ ’
I h aven t faith b ut I have j u st b een we eping in moth er s ,
’
arms ; I hav en t faith but I h av e j u st a sked h er to p ray fo r
”
,
’
me I don t know how it is D ouni a I don t under st and it ’

”
. .
, ,
“
H av e yo u been at mo ther s ? Hav e yo u told her ? cri ed ’

“
D ounia ho rro r stri cken, S u rely you hav en t do ne that ?
-
’

“
N O I didn t tell h er
’
, i n word s ; but sh e u nde rstood
a great deal S he h eard you talking i n y o u r sl eep I am
. .

sure sh e hal f u nder stands i t al ready Perhap s I did w rong .

’
in g oing to s ee her I don t know why I did go I am a . .

contempti b l e per son D ouni a ,

.

“
A contem p ti b le per son but ready to face su ffering ! Yo u
”
,

are aren t you

,
? ’
5 28 F Y ODO R DO ST OEV S K Y

spi lt l ike champagne and fo r wh ich men are c r o wned i n ,

the C apito l and are c alled a fterwards b ene facto rs o f man

kind Look into it mo r e car e fully and under stand it ! I
.

to o wanted to d o good to men and would h av e done hu n

d reds thou sands o f good deeds to make u p fo r th at o n e
,

pi ece o f stup idity no t stupidity even simply clums ine ss fo r

, , ,

the idea wa s by no me ans so stupid a s i t seems n o w th at it

has failed ( E v erythi ng seem s stupid when i t fail s )
. .

By that stupidity I only wanted to put mysel f i nto an inde

pendent po siti on to take th e fi rst step to Ob ta in me ans and
, , ,

then eve rything would hav e b een smoothed over by b ene fit s

’
immeasu rabl e i n comp ari son But I I couldn t .

carry o u t ev en the fi r st step becau s e I am c o ntemptible , ,

’ ’
that s what s th e matte r ! And yet I won t lo o k at it a s you
’

do I f I had succeeded I should hav e been cr o wned w ith

”
.

’
glo ry but now I m trapped
, .

“ ’
B ut that s not s o not s o ! B r o ther what a re y o u s a y
”
, ,

ing ?

Ah it s not pictu re sque not aestheti cally attractive ! I fai l

,
’
,

to under stand why bombarding peopl e by regul ar s i ege i s

more honou r abl e T he fear o f app ear ance s i s th e fi rst
.

symptom o f imp o tence I ve nev e r neve r reco gni sed thi s .

’

mo re clearly than now and I am fu rthe r than ev er f ro m ,

’
seeing that what I di d w a s a crime I v e neve r neve r been
”
.
,

stronger and mo re co nv inced than n o w .

The colou r had rushed i nto hi s pal e exhau sted f ace but a s ,

he uttered hi s last explanati o n h e happ ened to m eet D ou ,

’
ni a s eyes and he s a w su ch angui sh i n them that h e could
not help bei ng checked He felt that h e h ad any way made .

these two poo r women mi serabl e t hat h e wa s any way the ,

cau se
“
D ouni a darl ing i f I am guilty fo rg i v e me ( though I ,
’
cannot b e fo rgiv en i f I am gui lty ) Good bye ! We won t .
-

’
di spute It s time high t ime to go
. D on t follow me I, .
’
,

b ese ech you I have somewhere els e to g o , But you .

go at once and sit with moth er I entr eat yo u to ! It s my .

’

last reque st o f you D o n t leav e he r at all ; I l e ft he r i n a

.
’

state o f anxi ety that s h e i s not fit to bear ; sh e will di e o r go

,

out o f her mi nd B e with her ! Ra z u m ih in will be w ith you

. .

’ ’
I v e b een talking t o h im D on t cry abo u t m e : I l l try .
’
 C R IME AND P UN IS H M EN T 5 29

t o b e h o nest and manly all my l i fe even i f I am a mu rdere r , .

’
Perhap s I shal l some day make a name I won t di sgrace .

N
’

y o u y o u wi ll s e e ; I ll stil l show o w good bye fo r th e -

”
.
,

pr esent he conclud e d hur ri edly noti cing again a strange ,

’
e x p r e s s m n i n D ouni a s eyes at hi s last wo rds and p romi ses .

“ ’ ’
Why ar e you c rying ? D on t cry don t cry : we are no t
”
,
’
p arting fo r eve r ! Ah yes ! Wait a minute I d forgotten ! , ,

H e went to the tabl e took up a thi ck du sty book opened it , ,

and to ok from between the pages a littl e w ater colou r p o r -

’
t rait o n ivo ry It was the portrai t o f hi s l andlady s d a u gh
.

te r who had di ed o f fev er that strange gi rl who had wanted

, ,

to b e a nun F o r a minute he gazed at the deli cat e expr es

.

s ive face o f h is betrothed ki ss ed the po rtrait and gav e it to ,

D ouni a .

“
I used to talk a great deal about it to he r o nly to her , ,

h e said thought fully To he r heart I confided much o f W hat

“

”
.

has since b een s o hideou sly r eal i sed D on t b e u neasy he .

’
,
“
turned to D ouni a she was as much O ppo s ed t o it as you
, ,

and I am glad that she is g o ne The gr e a t po int i s that .

everything now i s go ing to be di fferent is go ing to b e

”
b roken i n t w o he cri ed suddenly r eturn i ng to h is d e j e c
, ,

tion . E verything everything and am I p repar ed fo r it ?

, ,

D o I want i t mysel f ? They s a y i t i s nece ssary f o r m e t o

su ffer ! What s the obj ect o f thes e s ensel es s su ffer ings ?
’

S hall I know any b etter wh at they ar e fo r when I am ,

cru shed by hardships and idiocy and we ak as an O l d man ,

’
a fter twenty ye ar s p enal s erv itude ? And what shall I h av e
to liv e fo r then ? Why am I co nsenting to th at l i fe now ?
O h I knew I was contemptibl e when I stood looking at th e
,

N ev a at day break to day - -

At l ast they both went o u t f It w a s hard fo r D ouni a bu t ,

s h e lov ed him S he walked away but a fter go ing fi fty

.

pace s s h e tu rned round to look at h i m again H e was still .

i n sight At the co rne r he t o o tu rned and for the l ast time

.

thei r eyes m et ; but noti cing that s h e was looking at h im he ,

motioned her away with imp ati ence and ev en v exati on and ,

tu rned the co rne r abruptly .

“
I am wi cked I s ee that h e thought to himsel f feel ing
, , ,

ashamed a moment late r o f hi s angry gestur e to D ouni a °

“
B ut why are they s o f o nd o f m e i f I d o n t deser ve it ? O h,
’
5 30 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S KY

i f only I we re al o ne and no one l oved m e and I to o had neve r

l oved any one ! N o thin g of a l l this w o u l d ha v e ha ppe n e d .

B ut I wonde r shall I i n tho se fi fteen o r twenty ye ars gr o w s o

m eek that I shall humbl e mysel f b e fo re peopl e and whimpe r
’
at eve ry word that I am a criminal Ye s that s it tha t s it
.
, ,
’

,
’
that s what they are sending m e the re fo r that s what t hey
’

want Look at them ru nni ng to and f ro about the st r e ets

.
,

every one o f them a scou ndrel and a crim i nal at h eart and ,

worse still an i diot But try to get m e o ff and they d b e ’

”
.
,

wild w ith ri ghteou s indi g nati on O h h o w I hate them all !

.
,

He fel l to mu sing by what p ro ces s i t c o ul d come t o p as s ,

that he could b e humbl ed b e fo re all o f them i ndi scrim i na t ely

,

-
humbled by convi ctio n And yet why n o t ? I t m u s t b e 5 0
. .

Would not twenty year s O f continu al b o ndage cru sh him

utterly ? Wate r w ear s out a stone And why w hy sh ou l d
.
,

he li ve afte r t hat ? Why should h e g o now whe n he knew

that i t would be s o ? It was the hundredth tim e pe rhap s tha t
he had asked himsel f t hat question since th e p r ev iou s e ve ning ,

bu t stil l he went.
5 32 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S KY

could s e e nothing but the unwh itewash ed b lank w all o f the

next hou se At last when s h e b egan t o f eel su r e o f hi s death
.

-
h e walked i nto the room .

She gav e a cry o f j oy but looking care ful ly i nto hi s fac e ,

s h e turned p al e
”
.

“
Yes said Raskolnikov smi ling
,
I h av e com e fo r you r ,
.

cross Soni a It w a s yo u told m e to go t o the cr o s s ro ads ;

”
.
,
’
why i s i t you are f ri ghtened now it s c o m e t o that ?

S onia gazed at him astoni sh ed H is to ne s eeme d strange .

to her ; a c o ld shi ve r ran o ve r he r b ut i n a mome nt s h e ,

guessed that the tone and the wo rds we r e a m ask H e spoke .

to he r looking away a s though t o avoi d m eeting her eye s ,

.

“ ’
You s e e S o nia I v e decided that i t w il l b e b ette r s o
, , .

’ ’
There i s o ne fact B ut i t s a long story and ther e s no
.

need to discu s s i t B u t d o yo u kn o w what anger s m e ? I t

.

annoys me tha t al l thos e stupi d b ruti sh f aces w ill b e gaping

at me di rectly pestering m e w ith thei r stupi d qu estions whi ch
, ,
’
I shal l h av e t o answe r— they ll p o i nt thei r finger s at me
T fo o ! Y o u kno w I am no t goi ng to P o r fi ry I am si ck o f ,

him I d rathe r g o to my fri end th e E xpl o s i v e Li eutenan t ;

.
’
,

how I shall su rpr is e him what a sensati on I shall m ake B ut

,

I must b e coole r ; I ve b ecom e t oo i r ritab l e o f l ate Y o u kn o w

’
.

I was nearly shaking my fi st at my s iste r j u st n o w b e caus e ,

’
s h e turned to take a l ast look at m e It s a b rutal stat e to b e .

i n ! Ah ! what a m I coming to ! Well whe re ar e the

”
,

cro sses ?

H e s e emed hardly t o kn o w what h e w a s d o ing H e w o ul d .

not stay stil l o r concentrate hi s attentio n o n anything ; hi s _

i deas seemed t o gallop a fter o n e anothe r he talked in co h e r ,

ently hi s hands tr embl ed sli ghtly

, .

Without a wo rd S oni a took out o f the drawe r t w o cr o sse s ,

o n e o f cypress wo od and on e o f co pp e r S he m ade the si gn .

o f the cro s s o ver hers el f and o ve r him and put the wo o den ,

cros s o n hi s neck .

“ ’
It s the sym b ol o f my t aki ng up the cros s h e l au ghed , .

As though I had not su ffe red mu ch ti ll now ! Th e woo den

cros s that i s the p ea sant one ; th e C opp e r o n e that i s Liz a
, ,
’
v eta s— you wi ll wear you rs el f show m e ! S o sh e h ad it o n ,

at that moment ? I r em emb er two things like thes e t o o ,

a si lver o ne and a lit t l e ik o n I threw them back o n the O l d .

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H M EN T 5 33

’
w o man s neck Tho s e w o uld b e appr o pri ate n o w re ally
.
, ,

th o se are what I ought to put o n now B ut I am talking .

’
nonsense and f o rgetting what m atter s ; I m som eh o w f o r
g e t fu l . You s e e I hav e com e to warn y o u S o ni a s o tha t , ,
’ ’
y o u might kno w that s all— that s all I came fo r B u t .

I thought I had mo r e to s a y Y o u wanted m e to go you r sel f . .

’
Well n o w I am going t o pr i so n and you ll have you r wi sh
,
.

Well what are yo u crying f o r ? Y o u t oo ? D o n t Leav e ’

”
.
,

o ff O h how I hate i t all !

,

B ut his feeling w a s sti rred ; h i s heart ached as he l ooked

”
,
“
at her . Why i s s h e gri eving to o ? h e thought to himsel f .

“
What am I to her ? Why doe s s h e w eep ? Why i s sh e look
ing a fter m e like my mother or D ou ni a ? S he l l b e my nu r se ” ’
.

C ro s s you rsel f s a y at l east o ne p raye r

,
S oni a b egged i n a ,

timid b r o ken vo ice .

“
O h ce rtainly a s m u ch a s you like ! And s ince rely S o ni a
, , ,

sincerely .

B ut he wanted to s a y som eth ing quite di ffer ent .

H e crossed him sel f s everal time s S o ni a took up he r shawl .

and put i t ove r he r head It w a s the green d r a p d e d a m es

”
.

shawl o f whi ch M a rm e l a do v had s poken the family shawl

“
, .

Raskolnikov thought o f that lo o king at it but he did n o t ask , .

H e began to feel him sel f that h e w as certainly fo rgetting

things and wa s di sgu stingly agitated H e was fri ghtened a t .

thi s H e w a s suddenly stru ck to o by the th o ught that S oni a

.

m eant to go with him .

“
W hat ar e you doing
”
? Where are yo u go ing ? S tay h ere ,

stay ! I ll go alone ’
he cr ied i n cowardly vexation and
, ,
“
almo st r esent ful he moved t owards the doo r What s the ’

”
.
,

u s e o f goi ng i n pr o ce ssi on ! h e mutt ered going out .

S oni a rem ained standi ng i n the m iddle o f the room He .

had no t even sai d goo d bye to he r ; he had fo rgot t en he r A

-
.

p oi g nant and reb elliou s doubt su rged i n hi s h eart

”
.

"
Was it ri ght was i t ri ght all thi s
,
? he thought again a s ,

C o uldn t he s t0 p and r etract it

’
h e went down the stai rs
”
.

al l and not g o ?

B ut stil l h e went H e fel t suddenly o nce fo r all t hat h e

.

’
mu stn t ask him sel f qu estio ns A s he tu rned i nto the stree t .

h e r ememb er ed that he had n o t s aid good bye to S o nia that -

,

he had le ft her i n t he m iddl e o f t h e roo m i n her green shawl ,

5 34 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

not da ring to sti r a f t e r h e had sh o uted a t h e r and he s t oppe d ,

sho rt fo r a moment At th e sam e i nstan t an o the r t hough t

.
,

dawned upon him a s th o ugh it h ad b een lying i n wait t o

,

s trike him then .

“
Why with what obj e ct did I g o t o h e r j u st n o w ? I t o l d
,

he r— o h busines s ; o n what bus iness ? I had no sort o f b u s i

ness ! To tell he r I wa s g o ing ; b ut wher e w a s the need ?
D o I love her ? N o no I drov e her away j u st now lik e a d o g
, , .

D id I want h e r cross e s ? O h how l ow I v e sunk ! N O I ,

’

wanted he r tear s I wanted to s e e he r ter ro r to see how h er

, ,

heart ached ! I had to hav e someth ing t o clin g to som ething ,

to delay me som e fri endly f ace to s e e ! And I dared t o b e

,

li eve in mysel f to dre am o f wh at I would d o ! I a m a

”
,

beggarly contemptible w r etch contemptible ! ,

H e walked along the ca n al b ank and he had no t mu ch ,

further to go B u t o n r eaching th e b ridge he st opp ed and

.

tu rning out O f hi s way al ong i t w ent to the H ay M arket .

H e looked eagerly to r ight and le ft gaz ed intently a t ev e r y ,

obj ect and could not fix hi s attentio n o n anything ; ev e ry

thing sl ipped away In a nothe r w eek another month I shal l
.
,

b e d riven in a p ri son van ov er thi s b ridge how shal l I look a t

”
,

the canal then ? I should l ike to r em emb er thi s ! slipp ed i n to

“
hi s mind Look at t h is s ign ! H ow sh all I r ead t ho se l e t ter s
‘
.

’
then ? It s written here C ompany that s a thing t o r em em ,
’ ’

be r that letter a and to look a t i t agai n i n a month— h o w

, ,

shall I look at i t then ? What shal l I b e f eel i n g and thinki n g

then ? H o w trivi al it al l mu st b e what I am fretting ,

about now ! O f cou rs e i t mu st al l b e i n t er esting i n its

w ay ( H a h a h a !-
What am I-
thi nking abou t ?
) I am
becoming a b aby I am showing o ff to mys el f ; w hy am I
,

ashamed ? F o o how p eopl e shov e ! that fat man— a Ge r

,

man he mu st b e— who pu shed against m e do es h e kno w ,

whom h e pu she d ? There s a p easant woman w ith a b aby ’

,
’
begging It s cu riou s that she thinks m e happi e r tha n s h e i s
. .

I might gi ve he r s o methi ng fo r the i nc o ngru ity O f it H er e s, .

’

a fiv e cop eck p iece l e ft in my po cket wher e did I get i t ?

”
,

Here he re
, take it my g o od w om an !
”
,
“
God bless you the b eggar c hanted i n a l achrym o s e v o i c e
, .

H e went i nto the Hay M arket It wa s dist aste ful v ery di s .

,

taste ful t o b e i n a c ro wd b u t he walked j u s t wh er e h e sa w

,
536 F Y ODO R DO S T OEV S K Y
tu rned down a street l eading to the pol ice o ffi ce H e had a .

glimpse o f something o n the way which did n o t su rpri se him ;

he had felt that it mu st b e s o The se cond time h e bowed .

down in the Hay M arket he s a w st anding fi fty paces f ro m ,

him o n the le ft S o ni a S he wa s hiding f rom h im b ehi nd

.

o n e o f the wo o den shantie s i n the market place S he h ad -

.

followed him then o n hi s p ain fu l w a y ! Raskol nikov at th a t

m oment felt and knew once fo r al l tha t S oni a w a s w ith h i m
fo r ever and wou ld follow him t o the ends o f the earth ,

w hereve r fate m ight take him It wrung hi s heart bu t .

he was j u st reaching th e f atal place .

H e went i nto the yard fai rly r esolu t e l y H e had to mo unt

”
.

“
t o the thi rd sto rey I shall b e s ome t ime going u p h e
. ,

thought He f elt a s though the fa t e ful m o m ent w a s sti ll fa r

.

o ff as though he had pl enty o f time l e ft fo r c o nside rati o n

,
.

Again the same rubb ish th e sa m e eggshell s lying ab o u t o n ,

t h e spi ral stai rs again t he op e n d oo r s o f th e fl ats agai n th e

, ,

s am e kitchens a nd the s am e fume s and stench com ing fr om

t hem Raskolnikov had not b ee n he r e since that day H is
. .

l egs were numb and gave way u nde r him but sti ll t hey ,

mo ved forward H e stopped fo r a m o m ent t o take b reath

.
,

t o coll ect hims el f s o as to enter l ike a m a n But w hy ? wha t

”
.
,
“
?
fo r he wondered refle cti ng I f I m u st d ri nk the cup wha t
”
.
,

d iff erence doe s i t make ? The m o re r evolting the b e tt e r .

“
H e imagined fo r an instant th e figu r e o f th e explo siv e l i eu
”
t enant I lya P etr o v itch Was h e actu al ly go ing to hi m ?
.
,
’
C ouldn t h e go to some o n e el s e ? T o N ikodi m F o m it c h ?
’
C ouldn t b e tu rn b ack and g o straight to N ikodim F o m it ch s ’

l odgings ? At l east then it would b e d o ne p riv ately NO

”
.
,
“
no ! To th e expl o siv e l i eutenan t ! I f h e m u s t d rink i t ,

d rink it o ff at once .

Tu rning cold and hardly c o nsci o u s h e O pened th e d oo r o f ,

t he o f fi ce The r e we re ve ry f ew p eopl e i n it this tim e— only

.

a hou s e po rte r and a p easan t The d o o rke ep e r did not eve n .

peep ou t f rom b eh ind h i s s creen Raskolnikov walked i nt o .

“
th e next room Pe rhap s I stil l need n o t speak p ass ed
.
,

through hi s m ind Som e so rt o f clerk not weari ng a uni

.

form w a s settling hims el f at a bu reau to write I n a c o rne r .

anothe r clerk was s eating him sel f Z am e to v wa s n ot ther e .

,

no r o f course N ik o di m F o m it ch
, , .
 CR IM E A ND P U N I SH MENT 5 37

No
”
o ne in ? Rask o lni ko v asked addre ssing t he pe rs o n a t ,

t h e bureau
”
.

“
Whom d o yo u wa n t ?
A ah ! - N o t a sound was heard not a s ight was s ee n , ,

b u t I scen t the Ru ssi an how do es i t go i n t h e fai ry

”
tal e I v e f o rg ot te n ! At y o u r service ! a famili ar v o i c e
’

cri ed suddenly .

Raskol nik o v shudde r ed The E xplo siv e L ieu t enan t st o od .

b e fo r e hi m He had j ust come i n from the thi rd r oom

”
. .

“
I t i s the hand o f fate th o ught Rask o lnik o v Why is h e
”
.
,

h ere ?
“
Y o u ve c o m e t o s e e u s ? What about ? cri ed I lya Petro
’ ”
v it c h H e was ob viously i n an exceedi ngly goo d humou r and
.

“ ’
p erhaps a tri fle exhilarated I f it s o n b usi nes s yo u ar e .

’
r athe r early It s only a chance that I am h er e
. howeve r
I ll do what I can I must admit I
’
wha t 13 it what is
.
, ,

it ? E xcu s e me .

“
Yo u didn t imagine I d f o r
’ ’
O f cou rs e Raskolnik o v .

gotte n ? D o n t think I am l ike th at R o di on RO — Ro

Ro d io n o v itch that s it i s n t i t ?
” ’ ’

”
, ,

Rodion Ro m a n o v itc h .

Y e s yes o f cours e Rodi on Ro m a n o v itch !

, , I was j u s t ,

getting at it I made many i nqui ri e s ab o ut y o u I assu r e

. .

’
you I ve b een genu inely grieve d s i nce that s ince I b e
haved l ik e that it w a s explai ned to m e afterward s that
you w er e a l iterary m an and a l ea rned o n e too and
s o to say the fi rst step s M ercy o n u s ! What l ite rary o r
scienti fi c man do es not begi n by s o me o riginal ity o f c o ndu c t !
M y wi fe and I have th e greatest r esp ect fo r l iteratur e in ,
’
my w i fe i t s a genui ne p as s io n ! Lite ratu re and art ! I f o nl y
a man i s a gentleman all the rest can b e gained by tal ents , ,

l earning good s ens e geniu s A s fo r a hat— w el l what do e s

, , .

a hat matter ? I can buy a hat a s easily as I c a n a b u n ;

’
but what s unde r the hat what th e hat c o ver s I can t buy , ,
’

that ! I was even meaning to com e and ap o l o gis e t o y ou ,

’
bu t thought mayb e y o u d B u t I am fo rgetting to a sk .

you i s ther e anything yo u wan t r eally ? I hear you r fa m ily

”
,

hav e come ?
D t o ev ky a p p
os s t o h ve f
s g o t te t h t it i
e ar ft r s u s e t a n d th at
a or n a s a e n
l t tim R k l i k v vi i t d t h e p o l i c e o fi ce a t t w o in th e a f t
,

th e as e as o n o s
oo n e . e rn
h e w a s re p o ac h e d f o r c o m ng t oo l at e
.

r i .
 5 38 F Y OD O R D O STO E V S KY

“
Ye s my m o ther and s iste r
,
.

“
I v e even had the honou r and h app ines s o f m ee t in g
’

you r si ster — a highly cultiv ated and charming p e rs o n I .

co n fess I w a s s o rry I g o t s o h ot w ith yo u There i t is ! .

B ut a s fo r my looking su spici o u sly at y o u r f ainting fi t ,

that a ffa i r has b een cleared up splendidly ! B igot ry and

fanaticism ! I understand you r indi gn ation P erhaps you .

are changing you r lodging o n accou nt o f yo u r f amily s ’

arriving ?
“
N o I only l oo ked i n I came to a s k I t h ou gh t
,

that I should find Z a m e to v her e

” .

O h yes ! O f cou rse y o u v e mad e f ri ends I h eard W el l

“ ’
.
, , , ,

no Z a m e to v i s no t h ere Yes w e v e lo st Z a m e to v He s
’ ’
.
, , .

not b een her e since yesterday h e qu arr elle d with every

one o n leav ing in the rudest way H e is a fe athe r .

’
headed youngste r that s all ; o n e m i ght hav e expec t ed s o me
,

thing from him bu t the re you know wha t they ar e o u r b r i l

, , ,

l iant young men H e w anted to g o in fo r s ome exami na t i o n

.
,

but it s only t o t alk and b o ast ab o u t it i t w i ll go no fu rthe r

’

than that O f cou rs e it s a ve ry d i ffe r ent matte r w ith yo u

.
’

or Mr Ra z u m ih in th er e you r fri end

. Y ou r ca r e e r i s an , .

’
intellectual one and you wo n t b e d ete r red by f ailur e Fo r .

you o n e may say al l th e attracti o n s o f l i fe n ihil e s t— y ou

, ,

are an asceti c a monk a h e rmit ! , A b oo k a p en behind , ,

you r ea r a le arned r esearch— that s whe re yo u r sp i rit so ars !

,
’

I am the s ame w ay mysel f Hav e yo u r ead Liv ingst o ne s ’

”
.

Trav els ?
“
No
” .

O h,
I have Th er e a re a gre a t m any N ihil i sts ab out
.

nowadays you know and indeed it i s not t o b e wonde red at

, , .

What s o rt o f days ar e they ? I ask you B ut w e th o u ght .

you are n o t a N ihil i st o f cou rse ? Answe r m e o p enl y

”
.

openly !
“
N no -
.

B elieve m e you c a n sp eak O penly to m e a s yo u would to

,

you rsel f O ffici al du t y i s one thing but you a re thinkin g

I meant t o s a y f r ie n ds hip i s qu ite an o th e r ? N o you re ,
’

w rong ! It s not fri end ship bu t the feel in g O f a man and a

’

citi zen th e feel ing o f humanity and o f lov e fo r the Almighty

, .

I may b e an O ffi ci al but I a m a lwa s b ou nd to fee l m ysel f a

y ,
5 40 F Y ODO R DO S TOEV S K Y

i s to bl ame fo r hi s death He had m o ney they say Ho w did .

”
. ,

you com e to know him ?

“
I w a s acquai nted m y s i ster w a s g o v ernes s i n
”
hi s family .

“
B ah bah b ah ! Then no doub t you can t ell u s so m ethin g
- -

”
about him You had no su spi cio n ?
.

“
I saw him yesterday he w a s dr inking w i ne ; I

knew nothing .

Raskolniko v felt as th o u gh something h ad fall en o n him

and w a s sti fling him .

“
You ve turned pal e agai n It s s o s t u ffy here
’
.
’
.

Yes I must go ” mutter ed Rask o lnik o v

“
E xc u s e my .
, ,

troubl ing yo u .

’
“
Oh not at al l as o ften as yo u l ike It s a ple asu re to s e e
”
.
, ,

you and I am gl ad to say s o .

I lya P etrovitch held o u t hi s hand .

I o nly wanted I cam e to s e e Z a m e to v .

’
I u nderstand I u nderstand and i t s a pl eas ur e to s e e
, ,
,
yo u !
“
I am v ery gl ad go o d bye Raskol niko v s m il ed -
,
.

H e w ent out ; he reel ed he was ov er t aken w ith giddine s s ,

and did not know what h e w a s doing H e b egan g o i ng .

down the stai rs su ppo rting himse l f w i th hi s right hand

,

against the wall H e fanci ed that a p o rte r pushed p ast him

.

o n hi s way up stai rs t o th e pol i ce o ffice that a d o g in th e ,

lowe r sto r ey kept up a shri ll b arki ng and that a woman flung

a rolling pi n at it and sh o uted H e w ent down and o u t i nto
-
.

th e yard Ther e not f ar f rom the entr ance stood S o nia

.
, , ,

p ale and horro r stri cken S he lo oked wildly at him H e

-
. .

stood still b e fo re her Ther e was a look o f po ignant agony .

,

o f despai r i n he r face S he cl asped he r h ands H is l ips

, . .

wo rked i n an ugly m eaningless smil e H e st oo d s til l a

, .

minute gri nned and w ent b ack to the p o l i ce o ffice

, .

I lya Petrovitch had s a t dow n and was rummaging am o ng

some papers B e for e him stood t he s a m e p e as ant w h o had
.

pushed by o n the stai rs .

“
H ullo a ! B ack again ! h av e yo u l e f t som ething b ehi nd ?
’
W hat s the m atter ? ”
Raskolniko v w ith white lips and staring eyes ca m e s l o wly
, ,

nearer H e walked right t o the table l e aned hi s hand o n

.
,
 C R IME AND P UN IS H M E N T 5 41

it tri ed to s a y som ething but could not ; o nly i ncoherent

, ,

s o u nds w ere audibl e .

You ar e f eeling i ll a chai r ! H ere s it down ! S om e

, ,

w ater ! ”
Rask o lnikov dropped o n to a chai r bu t he kept hi s eyes
,

fixed o n th e face o f Ilya Petrovitch whi ch exp ress ed u h

pl easant surpri s e B oth looked at o n e another fo r a mi nut e
.

and waited Wate r w a s b r o ught

. .

“
It was I began Raskolnikov
”
.

D rink some wate r .

Raskolnikov re fu sed the wate r with hi s hand and so ftly ,

and b rokenly but di sti nctly sai d :

,
“
It w as I kill e d th e o l d pa w n br o k e r w o m a n a nd h er s is te r

Liz a v e ta w ith a n a x e a n d r o b be d th em
” .

I lya Petro vitch o pened hi s mouth Peopl e r an u p o n

. a ll

sides .

Rask o lnik o v r epea t ed h i s s t a t e m e nt .

5 44 F Y ODO R D O S T OEV S K Y

s eventeen roubl es and sixty copecks F rom b eing so l ong .

u nder the stone some o f the mo st v alu abl e not es lying u pper
,

mo st had su ffe red from th e damp They w er e a long W hile .

t rying to di scove r w hy the accu s ed m an should t el l a l i e

a b out this when abou t eve rything el s e h e had m ade a t ruth
,

fu l and straightfo rward con fes sion F inally so me o f the .

l awye rs mo r e v ersed in p sychology admitted that it w a s

’
po ssi b le h e had really not looked into the pu r se and s o d idn t ,

know what was in it when h e h id i t u nder the stone B ut .

they immediately d rew the dedu ctio n th at th e crim e could

only hav e been committed th rough tempo rary mental de range
ment through homi cidal mani a w ith o ut obj ect o r the pu r
, ,

suit o f gain Thi s fell i n with th e mo st recent fashionabl e

.

theo ry o f tempo rary insanity so o ften appli ed i n o u r days

,
’
i n criminal cases M o reov e r Ra sk o l n ik o v s hypo chondri acal
.

condition w a s p roved by many w itnes ses by D r Z o s s im o v , . ,

hi s fo rme r fel low students hi s l andl ady and h er se rv ant Al l

,
.

thi s po inted strongly to the conclu sion that Rasko lnikov was
not quit e l ik e an o rdinary mu rder e r and robb er but tha t ,

ther e was anothe r el ement in th e case .

To the i ntens e annoyance o f tho s e w h o m aint ained thi s

O pinion the criminal scarcely attempted t o de fend h ims el f
,
.

To the deci siv e qu e sti on a s to what m o tiv e impel l ed hi m t o

the mu rde r and the robb ery h e answe red v e ry cl e arly w ith
,

the co arsest franknes s that th e cau s e was hi s mi ser abl e po si

tion hi s pov erty and h elp les snes s and hi s des i r e to p r o vid e
, ,

fo r hi s fi rst step s in l i fe by th e help o f th e th ree thou s and

roubl es h e had reckoned o n fi nding H e h ad b een l ed to th e .

mu rde r through hi s sh allow and cowardly n atu r e exasp er ,

ated mo reove r by p rivation and failu re T o th e qu estio n .

what l ed him to con fess h e answe r ed th at i t was h i s heart

,

felt repentance Al l thi s w as almost co a rs e

. .

The sentence however w a s mo r e merci ful th an c o u ld h av e

b een expected perhap s p artly b ecau se the cr iminal had not
,

tried to j usti fy himsel f but h ad rathe r shown a des ire to e x a g

,

ge rate hi s gu i lt Al l the strange and p ecul i ar ci rcumst ance s

.

o f the crime we re taken into cons id e ration The re cou ld b e .

no doubt o f th e a b no rmal and p overty stri cken condition o f -

the criminal at the t ime Th e fact that h e h ad m ade no u s e

.

o f what h e had stol en w a s put down p artly to th e e ffect o f

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME NT 5 45

r emors e partly to h i s abn o rmal mental condition a t th e ti me

,

o f the crime I ncidentally th e mu rder o f Liz a v e ta s erved

“

indeed to confi rm th e l ast hypoth esi s : a man commit s tw o

m u rde rs and fo rgets th at the doo r is open ! F inally the con ,
;

fe s s io n at the ve ry moment when th e cas e w a s hopel es sly

,

muddl ed b y the false evidence given by N ikol ay th rough

mel anch o ly and fanat icism and when mo reov er th er e w er e
, , ,

no p roo fs against th e real criminal no su spi cion s even ( Po r

,

fi ry P etrov itch fully kept hi s wo rd ) — a 11 thi s d id much to

s o ften the sentence O the r ci rcumstances too i n th e p ri s
.
, ,
~

oner s favou r came out qu it e u nexp ectedly Ra z u m ihin some

’
.

how di scovered and p rov ed that whil e Rask o lnikov w a s at

the university h e had helped a po o r c o nsumptiv e fellow stu
d ent and had sp en t h is l ast p enny o n suppo rting him fo r s ix
months and when thi s student di ed l eaving a decr epit o l d
, ,

father who m h e had m aintained alm o st fr o m his thi rteenth

yea r Raskolnikov had go t th e o l d man i nto a h o spital and
,

p aid fo r h is fune ral when h e died Ra sk o l n ik o v s l andl ady

.
’

bo re wi tness too that when they had l ived i n another hou s e

, ,

at F iv e C o rne rs Raskolnikov h ad res cu ed tw o l ittl e children

,

from a hou s e o n fi r e and was bu rnt i n do ing s o Thi s w as .

investigated and fai rly wel l confi rmed b y many w itnesse s .

Thes e facts made an imp ressio n in hi s favou r .

And in the end the crimin al w a s in considerati o n o f exten

u a t in g ci r cumstances condemned t o p enal s erv itude i n the

s econd clas s fo r a term o f eight year s only .

At th e v ery b eginning o f the trial Ra sk o l n ik o v s mothe r ’

fel l i ll D ou ni a and Ra z u m ihin fou nd it pos sible to get he r

.

o u t o f Petersbu rg du ring the tri al Ra z u m ih in cho s e a town

.

o n the railway not fa r from Peter sbu rg s o as to b e abl e t o ,

follow eve ry step o f the trial and at th e sam e tim e t o s e e

A v d o tya Ro m a n o v n a as o ften as po s sible Pulch eri a Al ex .

a n d r o v n a s i llnes s w a s a st range nervou s on e and was a c c o m

’

p a n ied by a parti al derangement o f he r intell ect .

When D ouni a r etu rned from he r last interv i ew with h er

b rothe r s h e h ad foun d he r mother al ready il l i n feve ri sh
, ,

d el i rium That evening Ra z u m ih in and s h e agreed what

.

answe rs they mu st mak e to he r mother s qu esti o ns abou t Ras ’

k o l n ik o v and mad e u p a compl ete sto ry fo r he r mother s

’

b enefit o f hi s having to g o away to a di stant part o f Ru s si a

546 F YODO R DO S TO EV S K Y

on a bu siness commi ssion which w o uld b r ing h i m i n th e e nd

,

money and reputatio n .

B ut they wer e stru ck by the f ac t t h at Pu lcher i a Alex ‘

a n d ro v n a nev er asked them anything o n th e subj ect n eithe r ,

then no r therea fte r O n th e cont r ary s h e h ad h er o w n

.
,

version o f he r son s sudden d ep artu r e ; s h e t ol d th em w ith

’

tear s how he had come t o s a y g o od bye to her hinting -

,

that she alone knew many myster iou s and impo rtan t facts ,

and that Ro d ya had many v ery pow er ful enemi e s s o tha t ,

i t w a s nece ssary fo r him t o b e in hiding A s fo r hi s futu re .

caree r sh e had no doubt that it would b e b rilli ant w hen c e r

,

tain sini ster i nflu ence s could b e r emov ed S he assu red .

Ra z u m ihin that he r s o n wou ld b e o n e day a gr eat state sman ,

that hi s art icle and bri lli ant lite rary talent p roved it Thi s .

arti cl e s h e w a s continu ally r eading s h e ev en r ead it alou d , ,

almo st took it to b ed with h e r bu t s car cely ask ed wher e ,

Ro d ya was though th e subj ect was obv iou sly av oid ed by

,

th e other s whi ch might h ave b een enough t o aw ake n he r

,

S u spicions .

They began to b e f rightened at last at Pulcher i a Al exan

d ro v n a s strange s il ence o n ce rtai n subj ect s S he did not fo r
’
.
,

i nstance compl ain o f getting no l ett er s from hi m though i n

, ,

p reviou s years s h e had o nly li ved o n th e hop e o f l ett er s from

he r belov ed Ro dya Thi s w a s th e cau s e o f great un eas ines s
.

to D ouni a ; th e idea o ccu rr ed to h e r that he r moth e r su s

p e c t e d that ther e w a s something t er r ib l e i n he r son s fate
’

and was a f raid t o ask fo r fea r o f h ear ing s omething still

,

mor e aw fu l I n any case D ou ni a s a w cl e arly that h e r

.
,

mothe r w a s not in ful l po s sess i on o f he r faculti es .

It happ ened o nce o r twice howev e r that Pu lche ri a Al ex , ,

a n d ro v n a gav e su ch a tu rn to th e conv ers ation th at i t w a s

imposs ibl e to answer h er without ment ioning wher e Ro dya

w a s and o n r eceiv ing un sati s facto ry and su spi ciou s answ ers
,

she b ecame at once gloomy and s il ent and thi s mood l asted ,

fo r a long time D ouni a s a w at l ast that it w a s h ard t o

.

deceiv e he r and cam e to th e conclu si on that it w as b ette r to

b e a b solutely s il ent o n certain p oints ; but it b ecame mo re
and mor e ev ident that the poo r mothe r su sp ected something
ter ri b l e D ouni a rememb er ed he r b rother s tell ing her that
.
’

he r mother h ad o v erheard he r t alking in h e r sl e ep o n the

5 48 F Y ODO R DO S TOEVS K Y

D ouni a put impl icit faith i n h i s ca rrying o u t h i s pl a n s

and i ndeed s h e coul d n o t but b el i ev e i n him H e di s .

pl ayed a rare strength o f wi ll Am o ng o ther th ings h e .

began attending u niv ersity l ectu r es agai n i n o rde r to take

hi s degree . They w e r e c o ntinual ly m aking pl ans fo r the
futu re ; both counted o n s ettl ing i n S ib eri a w ithi n fi v e
years at l east Til l then th ey r e sted thei r h o p es o n S o ni a
. .

Pulche ri a Al exandrovn a was delighted to giv e he r

blessing to D ouni a s m arri age with Ra z u m ih in ; but a fte r
’

the mar riage sh e b ecam e ev en mo r e m el anch o ly and

anxiou s . To giv e he r pl easu r e Ra z u m ih in to ld h e r h o w
Rask o lnikov had looked afte r th e p oo r studen t and hi s
decrepit f athe r and how a year ag o h e had b een bu rn t and
inj u red in re scu ing t w o l ittl e chi ld r en f r o m a fi r e These .

’
tw o pi eces o f n ew s excited Pulcheri a A l ex a n d ro v n a s d is
-

o rd ered imaginatio n al m o st t o ecstasy S h e w as c o n .

t in u a l l y talking about them ev en enter ing in to co nv er sa

,

ti o n w ith stranger s i n th e st re et though D o u ni a always ,

accompani ed he r In publ i c c o nv eyances and sh o p s

.
,

wherever s h e coul d captu r e a l i st ene r s h e w o ul d b egin ,

to di sc o u rse about he r s o n his arti cl e h o w h e had help ed

, ,

the student how h e had b een b u rnt at the fi r e and s o on !

, ,

D ouni a di d n o t know h o w t o r estrai n h er Ap art f rom th e .

dange r o f her mo rb id excite m en t the r e w a s th e r i sk o f ,

s o me one s r ecall ing Ra sk o l n ik o v s n am e and speaking o f

’ ’

the recent t ri al Pul cheri a Al exandr o vn a f o und o u t th e

.

addres s o f th e mother o f the two children h e r s o n h ad

saved and i nsi sted o n goi ng to s ee h e r .

At l ast her restlessne s s r eached an ex t r em e p o int S he .

.

would sometimes b egi n t o c ry suddenly and w as o ften il l

and fev eri shly del i ri o u s O n e m o rning s h e d ecl ar ed that
.

by her reck o ning Ro dya ought soon t o b e h o me tha t s h e ,

‘
rememb ered wh en h e s aid g oo d bye to h e r h e s aid that -

they mu st expect him b ack i n n in e m o nths S he b egan t o .

pr ep are fo r h is coming began t o do u p h e r r oo m fo r him

, ,

to cl ean the fu rnitu re t o w ash and pu t u p n ew h angings

,

and s o o n . Do uni a w as anxiou s b ut s aid n o thing and ,

helped h e r to arrange the r oo m After a fatigu i ng day

-
.

spent in continu al f anci es i n j oyful day d re am s and te a r s

, ,

Pulcher i a Al exandr o vna w a s t aken i ll i n th e nigh t and by

 C R IM E AND P UN IS H ME N T 5 49

m o r ning sh e was f ev eri sh and del i riou s I t w as b rai n .

f ev er S he di ed w ithin a fortnight I n h e r del i rium s h e

. .

d ropp ed wo rds w hich show ed that s h e knew a great de al

m o r e ab o ut h e r son s te rribl e fate th an they had suppo sed
’
.

F o r a l ong tim e Rask o lnikov d id not kn o w o f h i s

mothe r s death though a regul a r co rr espo ndence h ad b een
’
,

maintained f rom the tim e h e r each e d S ib eri a It w as .

carri ed o n by mean s o f S o ni a w h o w r o t e ev ery m o nth t o ,

the Ra z u m ihin s a n d r eceiv ed an answer with un failing

r egul arity At fi rst th ey found S o ni a s l e t ter s d ry and
.
’

u nsati s facto ry but l at er o n they cam e to th e c o nclu si o n

,

that th e l ette s could not b e b ette r f o r f ro m th es e l etters

r
,

they r eceiv ed a c om pl e t e p ictu r e o f thei r un fortunat e

b r o the r s l i fe S o ni a s l ette rs we re full o f th e mo st m atter
’
.
’

o f fact detail the simpl est and cl ea r est descripti o n o f all

,

Ra s ko l n iko v s su rr o undings as a conv i ct There w a s n o

’
.

wo rd o f he r o wn h o pes n o c o nj ectu r e as t o th e futu re no

, ,

descripti o n o f h e r f eel ings Instead o f any att empt t o

.

i nte rp r et hi s stat e o f mind and i nne r l i f e s h e gav e th e ,

s impl e facts— th at i s hi s o wn w o rds an exac t a cc ou nt o f

, ,

hi s h ealth what h e asked f o r at thei r i nt erv i ews wha t

, ,

c o mmi s sio n h e gav e he r and s o o n All the se fact s s h e .

gav e with extrao rdinary minutenes s Th e pictu r e o f thei r .

u nhappy b rothe r st o od out at l ast w ith great cl earnes s and

p reci sion The r e c o uld b e n o mi stake b eca u s e n o thing w a s
.
,

given but facts .

B ut D o uni a and he r hu sb and c o uld get l ittl e c o m fo rt o u t

o f th e new s e speciall y at fi rst
,
S o ni a w rote that h e was c o n
.

s t a n t l y sullen and n o t r eady t o t alk tha t he s ca r cely seemed ,

inte rested i n the new s sh e gav e him from thei r letter s that ,

h e someti mes a sked a fte r h is mothe r and that when seeing ,

that h e had gu es sed th e truth s h e told him at last o f her ,

death sh e w a s su rp ri sed t o find that he did n o t seem greatly

,

a ffected by i t n o t externally at any r ate S h e told them

,
.

that although h e s eem ed s o w rapp ed up in hims el f and as

, ,

i t we re shut him sel f o ff f rom eve ry o n e— h e took a v ery

,

di rect and s impl e v i ew o f hi s n ew l i f e ; th at h e u nderstood

hi s po sition exp ected n o thing b ette r fo r the tim e h ad n o
, ,

i ll founded hop e s ( as i s s o c o mmon i n h i s po siti o n ) and

-

s carcely seemed su rp r i sed at anything i n hi s su r r ou nd ings ,

550 F Y ODO R D O S TOEV S KY

so unl ike anything h e had kn o w n b e f o re S h e w r o t e that .

hi s health w a s sati s facto ry ; h e did hi s w o rk with o ut sh i rk

ing o r s eeking to d o mo re ; he was almo st indi ffe rent ab o u t
food but except o n S undays and hol idays th e food w a s
,

s o bad that at l ast h e had b een gl ad t o accept som e m oney

f rom he r Soni a to h av e hi s own te a ev ery day H e b egged

, ,
.

he r n o t to troubl e about anything el s e decl aring that all ,

thi s fuss about hi m o nly annoyed h i m S o ni a w rote fu r th e r .

that i n p ri s o n h e sh ar ed th e s am e ro om w ith t h e r est t h a t ,

s h e had n o t s een the ins ide o f thei r b ar r acks but concluded ,

that they w er e crowded m i s erab l e and unh ealthy ; that h e

,

sl ept o n a pl ank b ed w ith a ru g u nde r h im and w as u m

willing t o make any oth e r a r rangem ent B ut that h e l i ved .

s o po o rly and roughly n o t f r o m any pl an o r d es ign

,
bu t ,

s imply from inattentio n and i ndi ffe ren ce .

S o ni a w rote simply th at he h ad at fi rst shown no i nte res t

in h er v is its h ad almo st b een v exed w ith h e r indeed fo r
,

coming unwilling to talk and rude to h e r B ut that i n th e

, .

end thes e vi sits had b ecome a h ab i t and alm o st a neces sity

f o r him so that he w a s po siti vely di str es sed when s h e w a s
,

i ll fo r some days and could not v i sit him S h e u sed t o .

s e e him o n h o lidays at th e pr i so n gate s o r i n the guard

room to whi ch h e was b rou ght fo r a f ew mi nutes t o s ee

,

h er O n w o rking days s h e w o ul d g o t o s ee him at w o rk

.

eithe r at th e wo rkshop s o r at th e b rick kilns o r a t the ,

sheds o n the b anks o f the I rti sh .

About hers el f S oni a w rot e th at s h e h ad su cceeded i n

,

m aking some acqu aintances i n th e t o wn th at s h e did ,

s ewing and as the r e was sca r cely a d ressmak er i n the

, ,

town s h e w a s lo ok ed upo n as an i ndi sp ensabl e p ers o n i n

,

many hous es B ut sh e did n o t mentio n that the a u th o ri

.

ties we re through her i nter ested i n Rask o lnik o v ; that hi s

, ,

task was li ghtened and s o on .

At l ast th e n ews cam e ( D ou ni a h ad indeed noti ced si gns

o f alarm and u nea si ness i n the preceding l etter s
) that h e
h eld alo o f f rom ev e ry on e th at hi s f ell o w p ri son ers did
,

not like him th at h e kept sil ent fo r d ays at a tim e and

,

w a s b ecoming v ery p al e In th e l ast l ette r S o ni a w r o te

.

that he had b een taken v e ry seri o u sly ill and w a s i n th e

conv ict w ard o f th e ho sp ital .
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had b ee n ready a th o u sand t im es b e fo r e to giv e u p

exi stence fo r the s ak e o f an i dea fo r a hop e even f or a , ,

fancy M e re existence had always b een to o l ittl e fo r him ;

.

h e had always wanted m o r e P e rh ap s i t w as j u st b ecau s e .

o f the strength o f hi s des i re s th at h e had though t him sel f

a man to whom mo r e wa s p e rmi ssibl e than t o o thers .

And i f only fate w ould h ave s ent him r ep entance— bu rn

in g repentance that would h av e tor n hi s heart and r o bbed
him o f sl eep that repentance th e aw ful ag o ny o f w hi ch
, ,

b rings vi sions o f hanging o r drow n ing ! O h he w o u ld hav e ,

b een g l ad o f i t ! Tear s and ago ni es w o uld at le ast h av e

b een l i fe B ut he did not repent o f hi s cr im e
. .

At l east he might have f o und rel i e f i n raging at hi s

stupidity a s he had rage d at the grote s qu e b lu nde rs that
,

had b rought him to pr i son B ut n o w i n p r i so n in fre ed o m .

, ,

he thought ove r and cr iti ci sed all hi s acti o ns agai n and

b y no m eans found them s o blunde r ing and s o gr o te s qu e
as they had s eem ed at the fatal time
”
.

In what w a y he a sked hims el f , was m y the o ry ,

stupider than o ther s that hav e swarmed and clashed fr o m

the beginning o f th e wo rld ? O n e ha s o nly t o lo ok at th e
thing quite indep endently b ro adly and u ninflu enced by c o m , ,

m o n p l a c e ideas and my ide a w ill by n o me an s se em s o

,
'

st range O h s c e p tic s a n d hal f penny phil o s o phe r s w hy d o -

”
.
, ,

you halt h al f way ! -

“
Why do e s my actio n strike them as s o ho r r ibl e ? ” he
said to himsel f I s it b ecau s e it was a crime ? What i s
.

meant b y crime ? M y cons ci ence i s at rest O f c o u r s e it was .

,

a l egal crime o f cou rs e th e lette r o f th e l a w w a s b roken and

, ,

blo o d w a s shed Well puni sh m e fo r the l ette r o f the l aw

.
,

and that s enough O f cou r s e i n th at cas e many o f th e

’
.
,

b ene facto rs o f mankind w h o snatched p owe r fo r themselve s

instead o f inh eriting it ou ght t o hav e b een pu ni shed at thei r
fi rst steps B ut tho se m en su cceeded and s o th ey w er e r igh t
”
.
,
’
and I di dn t and s o I had no right t o have taken that step
, .

It was only in that that h e recogni sed h i s cri minal ity o nly ,

in the fact that h e had b een u n su cces s fu l and h ad con fessed

it .

H e su ffer ed too from the qu es t ion : w hy had h e no t killed

himsel f ? Why had he st oo d l o oking at t h e r ive r and p re
 C R IM E A ND P UN I S H M ENT 553

fer red t o c o n fess ? Was the d es i re to l iv e s o strong and w a s

it s o h ard to ov ercome it ? H ad n o t S v idrig a il o v ov ercome it ,

although h e w a s a fraid o f death ?

I n mi s ery he asked himsel f thi s qu estion and cou ld no t ,

u nderstand that at the ve ry time he h ad b een standing look

,

ing i nto the rive r h e had p e rhap s b een dimly cons ciou s o f
,

th e fundamental fal sity i n himsel f and hi s convictions H e .

didn t u nderstand t hat that cons ciou snes s might b e the

’

p romis e o f a futu r e crisi s o f a new v i e w o f l i fe and o f his

,

futur e r e su rrection .

H e p re fer red to att ribute it to the dead weigh t o f instinc t

which h e could not step o v e r again through w eaknes s and ,

m eanness H e looked at his f el low p risone rs and w a s amazed

.

t o s e e how they al l loved l i fe and p ri zed it I t seemed t o hi m .

that they l ov ed and v alu ed li f e mo r e in p r i so n th a n in free

dom What te rrible agoni es and p riv at ion s s o me o f them
.
,

the tramp s fo r i nstance h ad endu red ! C ou ld they car e s o

,

mu ch fo r a ray o f sunshine fo r th e p rimev al fo rest th e cold

, ,

S p ring hidden away i n som e unseen spot wh i ch th e t ramp ,

had ma rked three year s b e fo re and longed to se e again a s , ,

h e might to s e e hi s sweetheart d r eaming o f the green gras s ,

round it and th e b i rd s inging i n th e bu sh ? As h e went o n h e

s a w still mo re inexp li ca b l e examples .

In p ri son o f cou rs e ther e w a s a great d eal h e did n o t s e e

, ,

and did not w ant to see ; h e l ived as it we r e with downcast

eyes I t was loathsom e and u nbearabl e fo r hi m to look But
. .

i n th e end there w a s mu ch that su rp ris ed him and h e b egan ,

a s it w er e i nvoluntar ily t o notice much that h e h ad not

,

su spected b e fo re What su rp ri sed him mo st o f all w a s th e

.

te rri b le i mpo ssibl e gul f that lay b etween hi m and al l the re st .

They seemed t o b e a d i fferent sp ecies and h e look ed at them ,

and they at him with d istru st and hostility H e fel t and .

knew th e reasons o f hi s i sol ation but h e would n eve r hav e ,

adm itted t ill then th at thos e r easons we r e s o deep and

strong The r e w er e some Pol ish exi les political p risone rs
.
, ,

among them T h eg, simply looked down u pon al l the r est

.
r

as igno rant chu rl s ; but Raskolnikov cou ld not lo ok upo n them

l ike that H e saw that thes e igno rant men we re in m any
.

r esp ects far wi ser than th e Pol es There we re som e Ru ssi an s .

w h o w er e j ust a s contemptuou s a f o rme r o ffi ce r and tw o ,

I g— R
55 4 F Y ODO R DO S TO EV S KY

semi n a r i sts Raskol n ik o v s a w th ei r mi st ak e as cl early H e

.
.

w as di s lik ed a n d avoid ed by ev e r y o n e ; th e y ev en b e ga n t o
hate him at l ast — w hy he c o ul d not tell M en w h o had be en
,
.

far mo r e gui l ty despi s ed a n d lau gh ed at hi s c rim e .

” “
You shoul dn t
’
"
You r e a g e ntl ema n th e y u sed t o say
’

”
.
.

’ ’

b a c k a b ou t with an axe ; t h at s not a g en tl em an s w ork .

Th e s econd week i n Lent hi s tu rn c am e t o ta k e th e sacra

,

m en t with hi s gan g H e w ent to chu rch and p ray e d w ith

.

t h e o thers .
d i
A qu arrel b roke o u t o n e day h e d not kn o w ,

ho w Al l f el l o n h im at o n ce in a fu r y
‘
.
.

Y ou r e an infi del ! You don t b eli ev e in Go d th ey ’

,
“ ”
shout e d You ou ght to b e kill ed .

H e had n ev e r t a l k ed to t hem abou t G o d n o r hi s beli ef b u t ,

th ey w an t ed to k il l hi m a s an in fi del H e s ai d nothi ng O n e . .

o f th e p rison er s r u sh ed at him in a p e r f e ct f r e n zy Raskol .

n ik o v aw ait ed him ca lm l y a n d s il ently ; hi s e yeb rows did not

qu i v er hi s face did not fi in ch

,
The gu ar d su cceeded in .

i nte rv e n in g b etw e en him and his assa il ant o r t h ere w o ul d ,

h av e b e en bl o o d sh ed .

Th er e w a s anoth er qu esti on h e coul d n ot d e ci de : w hy w er e

?
th ey all s o fond o f S oni a Sh e di d not tr y t o w in th ei r
favou r ; sh e r a r el v m et th em s om et im e s onl y sh e c a me to s e e
,

h i m at work fo r a momen t A n d y et eve rybo dy kn ew h er

.
,

th ey kn ew that h e had com e o u t to fo ll ow h im kn ew how

s
,

and where s h e l i v ed Sh e nev er g av e th em m o n ey did th em

.
,

n o p a rti cu l ar se r vi ces O n ly on ce at Ch r is t m as sh e s ent t h e m

.

all p re sen ts o f p ic s and ro l l s B u t by d egr e es cl o s er re l a t i o ns

.

s p r ang u p b et we en th em and S oni a S h e w ou l d w ri te and .

p o st l et te rs fo r th e m to thei r r el ati ons R el ati ons o f the .

p ri s on ers w h o v isit ed th e to w n at thei r in st ru ct i o ns l e ft w i t h

, ,

S o ni a p r esents and m oney f o r them T h e i r wiv es and sw e et .

h earts knew h er and u s ed t o v is it her And wh e n sh e v i si t ed .

Rasko l ni kov at wo rk o r m et a p a r ty o f th e p ri son er s on th e

,

“
r oa d th ey a ll took o ff th ei r hats to h er
, Littl e m o th er S o fya
”
.

S em yo n o v n a vou ar e ou r d ear good l i ttl e mo th er co a r s e

, ,

br a nded cr imi nal s said to that f r ail l i ttl e cr e atu r e Sh e .

w ou ld smi le and b o w to th em and e ve ry on e w a s del i ght ed

w h en sh e sm i l ed T h ey ev en adm r e d he r gait and t u r n ed
.
i

r ou n d to wat ch h er wa k ing ; th ey adm i r e d h er to o fo r

be ing so li tt l e an d in f act d i d n o t kn o w w ha t t o a d mir e
, ,
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renew and pu ri fy th e earth but n o o n e had s een t hes e men

, ,

no one had heard thei r wo rds and thei r v oi ce s .

Raskolnikov was wo r ri ed that thi s sensel es s d ream haun t ed

hi s mem o ry s o mi s e rably the imp res sion o f thi s fev er i sh
,

deli rium p ersi sted s o l ong The s econd w eek a fter E aste r
.

had come . The r e we re warm b right sp ring days ; in th e

p ri son ward th e gra t ing windows u nder whi ch th e sent inel
paced were O p ened S oni a h ad o nly b een abl e to v i sit hi m
.

twice du ring hi s il lnes s ; each tim e sh e had to obtain p er

mi ssion and i t w a s diffi cult B ut s h e O ften u sed t o c o me
,
.

to the hospital yard e speci ally i n th e ev ening s o metime s

, ,

o nly to stand a minute and l oo k u p a t th e w i ndows o f th e

ward .

O n e evening when h e was al mo s t w el l again Raskolnik o v ,

fel l asl eep O n waking u p h e chanced t o go t o t h e w indow

.
,

and at onc e saw S oni a i n the di stanc e at th e ho sp ital gate .

She s eemed t o b e waiting fo r som e o n e S o meth ing stabb ed .

h im to th e hea rt at that minut e H e shu dde red and moved .

away from the window N ext day S o n i a d id not com e no r

.
,

the day after ; he noticed th at h e w a s exp ecting he r u neas ily .

A t l ast h e was d ischarged O n reaching th e p r is on h e l earnt

.

from th e conv icts that S o fya S e m yo n o v n a was lying i ll at

hom e and was u nabl e to go o u t .

H e was ve ry u neasy and se nt to i n qu i r e a fter h er ; he s o o n

l ea rn t that he r i llness wa s n o t dange rou s H eari ng that h e .

w a s anxious ab o ut h e r So ni a sent him a p enciled note

, ,

telling him that s h e w a s mu ch b ette r that s h e had a slight ,

cold and that s h e would soon v ery soo n come and s e e him ,

at hi s wo rk H is heart throbbed pai nfully as he r ead it

. .

Agai n i t wa s a warm b ri ght day E a rly i n the mo rning .

,
’
at si x o clo ck he went O ff to wo rk o n the r iv er b ank whe r e
, ,

they u sed to pound alab aster and wher e the re wa s a kiln fo r

b aking it i n a shed The re we r e o nly thre e o f them sent
. .

O n e O f the convi cts went with th e gu ar d to th e fo rtre s s to

fetch a tool ; th e othe r b egan getti ng the wood re ady and
laying i t i n the ki ln Raskolniko v cam e o u t o f the shed o n
.

t o the ri ve r b ank s a t down on a heap o f lo gs by the she d and

,
'

b e g an gazing at the wi de des erted r iver F rom the high .

b ank a b road l andscap e op ened b e for e him the sound o f ,

singing floated fai ntly audibl e f rom t h e o the r b ank In the .

 C R IM E AND P UN I S H ME N T 557

vast steppe b athed in su nshi ne h e c o uld j u st se e l ik e black

, , ,

s pecks the nomads tents Ther e ther e w a s f re edom ther e

,
’
.
,

othe r men w ere livi ng utterly u nl ike tho se her e ; ther e tim e
,

itsel f seemed to stand still a s though the age o f Ab raham and,

hi s fl ocks had not pas sed Raskolniko v s a t gazing h i s .

,

thought s passed i nto day dreams into contemplatio n ; he -

,

thought o f nothing but a vagu e r e stl essness excited and

,

t roubled him S uddenly he found S oni a b es ide him ; s h e had

.

come up noi seles sly and s a t down at hi s s ide I t was still .

qu ite early ; the mo rning chi ll w a s still keen S h e w o re he r .

po o r o l d bu rnou s and th e green shawl ; her face still sh o wed

signs o f i llnes s i t w a s thinne r and pale r S he gave him a
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j oyful smil e o f wel com e but held out he r hand with he r ,

u sual timidity S he wa s always t imi d o f ho ldin g o u t her

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hand to him and som etim es di d n o t O ffe r i t at all as though ,

a f raid he would repel it H e always to o k he r hand a s though

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w ith repugnance always seemed vexed to m eet he r and was

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s o metimes ob sti nately silent throughout he r vi sit S ometim e s .

s he trembl ed b e f o re him and went away deeply gri eve d But .

n o w thei r hands did not part H e stole a r api d glance at .

he r and dropped hi s eye s on th e ground without sp eaking .

They wer e alone no o n e had s een them The gu ard had

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turned away fo r th e time .

How it happened he did not know B ut al l at once s o me .

thing seemed to seiz e him and fling him at her feet H e .

w ept and th rew hi s arm s r ound he r knee s F o r the fi rst .

i nstant she wa s ter ribly fri ghtened and she turned pal e S he .

j umped u p and looked at him tr emb ling B ut at the sam e .

moment s h e understood and a l ight o f infinite happi nes s came

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i nto he r eyes S he knew and had no doubt that he lo ved he r

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b eyo nd everything and that at l ast the moment had come .

They w anted to speak but co uld not ; tears stood i n thei r

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eye s They we re b o th p al e and thi n ; but tho s e si ck pale

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faces we re b right with the dawn o f a new futur e o f a full ,

re sur re ctio n into a new li fe They w er e r enewed by love ; .

the heart o f each held infinite sou rce s o f li fe for the heart o f
the othe r .

They r esol ved to wait and be patient They had anothe r .

seven year s to wait and what terribl e su ffering and what i n

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fi nite happines s be f o r e the m ! B u t he had r i sen agai n and he

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knew i t and felt it i n al l hi s b eing whi l e sh e sh e o nly l ived ,

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in hi s li fe .

O n the evening o f the same day when the b arracks w e r e ,

locked Rask o lniko v lay o n hi s plank b ed and th ou ght o f h e r

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He had even fancied that day that all th e co nvi cts w h o had
b een hi s enemie s l ooked at him di ffe rently ; h e h ad even e n
t e re d i nto talk w ith them and they answ ered hi m in a fri endly
w ay . H e remembered that now and thought i t w a s b o u nd ,

to b e so Wasn t eve rything now bound to b e changed ?

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He thought o f h e r He r eme mb e red h o w continu ally h e

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had to rmented he r and wo unded her h ea r t H e re m e m b e r e d .

her pale and thin littl e face B ut th e s e r ecollec t ions scarcely

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troubled him now ; he knew with what i nfinite lov e he w o uld

now repay al l he r su ffer ings And w h at w er e all a l l the .
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agoni es o f the p a st ! E v erythi ng ev en h i s crime h i s s en t ence

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and impri sonment seemed to h im no w i n th e fi rs t ru sh o f

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feeling an external strange fact w ith wh ich h e had n o con

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ce rn But h e could not think fo r long to ge t h er o f anything

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that eveni ng and he could not h av e analys ed anything c o n

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s c io u s l y ; he was simply f eel ing Li fe h ad stepp ed i nto th e

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place o f theo ry and someth ing qu ite di ffe r ent w o uld w o rk

itsel f o u t i n hi s mind .

Unde r hi s pillow l ay the N e w Testa m ent H e to o k i t up .

mechani cally T h e book b elonged to S oni a ; i t w a s th e o ne

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from which s h e had re ad th e r ai s ing o f Laz aru s t o him A t .

fi rst he wa s a fraid that she wou ld wo r ry h im abou t r eli gion ,

would talk about the go spel and peste r h im with books Bu t .

to hi s great surp ri se sh e h ad not o nce app ro ach ed the subj ec t

and had no t ev en o ffe red hi m th e T estament H e had asked .

h e r fo r it himsel f not long b e fo re hi s illnes s and she b rought

him the b ook without a wo rd Til l n o w h e had not op ened i t . .

H e did not open it now but o n e t h o u ght pa sse d thr o ugh hi s

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mind : C a n her c o nvi ctions not b e m i ne ? H er f eelings he r ,

i nspi ratio ns at l east .

She t o o had b een greatly agitat ed t hat day and a t nigh t ,

s h e w a s taken i ll agai n B ut s h e w a s s o happy— and s o u n ex

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p e c t e d l y happy —
that s h e was almo st f r ightened o f he r h app i
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ness S ev en year s o n ly seven year s ! At the b egi nning o f

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thei r happi ness at som e mom ents they we re b o th r eady to

l ook o n thos e s even yea r s as th o ugh th ey we r e s even days .