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A NineStar Press Publication
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ISBN: 978-1-64890-382-3
© 2021 Fearne Hill
Cover Art © 2021 Natasha Snow
Edited by Elizabetta McKay
Published in September, 2021 by NineStar Press, New Mexico, USA.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the
product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to
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This book contains sexually explicit content, which is only suitable for mature
readers, discussion of drug (past) and alcohol use and the need for rehab, eating
issues; past trauma, and past sexual assault/rape (off page).
To Catch a Fallen Leaf
Fearne Hill
Table of Contents
Dedication
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Epilogue
Acknowledgements
About the Author
To the gardening team at Rossingley. You know who you are.
Prologue
Freddie
THREE MONTHS EARLIER
“Oh, baby doll, for goodness’ sake! Please, please, please. Could we
ensure this be the last time I have to put up with all of your
ridiculousness?”
Disappointment is the inevitable result of a mismatch between
expectation and reality. Vincent expects me to never get drunk,
never embarrass him in public, and never, ever, ever vomit over his
shoes outside a smart London restaurant.
The reality, of course, is that I’m a twenty-five-year-old male
model. I like booze, I like to occasionally snort coke, I say stupid
things in front of people I shouldn’t, and sometimes, all of those
combined, lead to unexpected chundering episodes outside smart
London restaurants. So, I can’t be blamed if Vincent chooses to put
his burgundy Lobb penny loafers in the path of the contents of my
stomach.
I am fully cognisant of the reasons Vincent endures these
occasional mishaps. Being a minor member of the aristocracy helps.
In addition, my father, a well-known and respected politician, is
perfectly placed to further Vincent’s own eventual political ambitions.
But, most importantly, Vincent is a sucker for eye-catching arm
candy. I’m not the first pretty piece of fluff he’s moved into his
Belgravia apartment, but I’ve stayed the longest. While I’m definitely
pretty, I also have financial independence and a first-class degree
from Cambridge. Thus, he finds my company tolerable.
What’s in it for me is more complex. Despite occasional
debauched one-night forgettables when I’m working abroad—to
which Vincent turns a blind eye—I’m a sucker for a steady
relationship. Unless I’m travelling for work, I prefer waking up in the
same familiar bed each morning. I enjoy the finer things in life, such
as sharing good food in decent restaurants and trips to the theatre
with an educated partner.
My adorable cousin, Lucien, believes my predilection for older
men comes from a deep-seated desire to be cared for, seeing as
Father left that responsibility entirely to my boarding school after
Mother died. According to his theory, my monogamous tendencies
are an unconscious rebellion against Father’s complete lack of fidelity
towards my mother. He’s probably right on both accounts, explaining
how I muster a coquettish smile as I watch forty-something Vincent,
in his pristine white Y-fronts and sock garters, select a double-
breasted Hawes & Curtis suit from his walk-in wardrobe. Even
though the zipping of his fly and the clack of one wooden coat
hanger against another is enough to make my head reel and my
guts threaten a repeat performance.
Rolling over in bed, I clamp a goose down pillow over my head in
an attempt to shut out the morning sunlight.
“Sorry about last night, Vincent,” I mumble from underneath the
pillow. “I possibly overcooked things a little. The end of a busy
week, I guess, and I probably didn’t eat enough dinner with my
wine. I’m not sure I ate at all yesterday, now I think about it—it was
a long photo shoot.”
There’s a slithery sound as he selects a tie. Time stands still; I
wish he’d bloody get on with it and clear off, so I can retch over the
loo in peace.
“Yes. Well, whatever, baby doll. I have to dash; I’m chairing a
meeting of investors at nine, and I can’t have that derailed by your
foolish antics.”
He looms over me, all expensive sandalwood and minty
freshness. In a bespoke suit, which hides the paunchy bit around his
middle, Vincent is a good-looking guy. He still has a full head of dark
hair; any flecks of grey only serve to accentuate his air of suave
sophistication. Despite himself, he smiles as he pecks my cheek.
“You are going to be the death of me, young man,” he murmurs.
“Try to stay out of trouble. Drink plenty of fluids and take an aspirin.
You can make it up to me tonight.”
I recall that it’s Tuesday and manage to stifle my groan at least
until the front door slams. Oh joy. Deep, deep joy. To say we have a
regimented sex life would be affording the military a degree of
precision they can only dream of emulating. On Tuesdays,
Thursdays, and Saturdays, at the stroke of twenty-two hundred
hours, Vincent switches on the BBC News and swallows down 50 mg
of Viagra with a small glass of San Pellegrino (one cube of ice). He
doesn’t know that I know about the Viagra. The gravitas of the
opening theme tune is my cue to go and “freshen up, baby doll,”
which is Vincent doublespeak for reacquainting my arse with the
nozzle of the shower hose. I am then expected to drape myself
seductively across our enormous bed in the master suite, with a
fresh towel under me, and await his presence.
I used to like my sex spontaneous and messy. I still do. Because,
occasionally, smelly, sweaty, imprecise, surprising, and even
disappointing sex can unexpectedly turn into joyous, forgiving,
funny, and tender sex. Not loving sex. I haven’t experienced that
yet, although I remain optimistic. I’ll take all of the above over
predictable any day. And—not to put too fine a point on it—I quite
like topping. Turn and turnabout is okay if the mood takes me, but
really? Always bottoming? Not so much. Some guys love it; for some
of my friends it’s a race to the bottom, but I’m prepared to share the
love around. Unfortunately, Vincent’s arse only opens once a day,
around 6:45 a.m., as part of his shit, shower, shave routine. After
that, it’s locked tight as an oyster shell, whereas I’m expected to roll
over and take it, and take it, and bloody take it. I usually manage to
reach orgasm (ejaculating carefully onto the towel, naturally), but
only because I’m young, horny, and excellent at conjuring up visions
of myself ploughing into some raven-haired, faceless beauty, while
Vincent happily labours above me.
The thing is, I could put up with being called baby doll. I could
put up with the bad sex. I could even put up with being told what to
wear and when to wear it. But there is one thing that really sticks in
my craw: My boyfriend’s close friendship with my father. Around
once a month, they share lunch at my father’s club, when I imagine,
along with plotting world domination and very visible, showy acts of
philanthropy, they enumerate my varied shortcomings, sighing
wistfully at each other: “If only Aloysius could… If only he would…”
etcetera, etcetera. (My real name is Aloysius; thank God, my second
name is Frederick.) And then, after a manly handshake, they part
ways; my father returns to pontificating in the House of Commons,
and Vincent returns to whatever he does in that enormous office of
his in Mayfair.
Chapter One
Freddie
THREE MONTHS LATER
Freddie
PRESENT
From: charles.d-avery@parliament.uk
To: aloysius@d-avery.com
Freddie,
Words fail me. If your mother were alive today, she would
be so utterly ashamed of you that it’s almost better she’s
dead. You don’t need me to tell you, but you have let
yourself down, the Duchamps-Avery family name down,
and more importantly, you’ve let me down. I could lose my
job and everything I’ve worked for when word about this
idiocy gets out! God knows what the PM is going to make
of it, in an election year too. The shame that my only son
has brought on me. The shame, Freddie! It truly beggars
belief.
As for those vague plans for rest and recuperation, for maybe
reading a few novels, and so forth? Well, Lucien has other ideas. His
brain moves far too quickly.
Introductions out of the way, he remains in his very comfy seat
on Jay’s lap, while the man mountain munches his way steadily
through a kilo of marmite on toast. He’s evidently the strong, silent
type. Every so often, he persuades Lucien to nibble on a corner of
his breakfast. For some disturbing reason, this simple act of sharing
—which from their obvious familiarity with each other probably
happens most mornings—brings tears to my eyes. No one deserves
happiness any more than my dearest cousin, and if Lucien looked at
me as though I were the centre of his world, then this Jay chap
looks at Lucien as if he’s the centre of his entire galaxy. I’m an
emotional wreck these days, and I hide the wetness on my face by
busying myself at the sink with my empty mug. My hands shake.
Somebody much smarter than me once said that he didn’t merely
have a nervous system, that he was a nervous system, and that is
exactly how I feel.
“Freddie, darling, I have had the most marvellous idea for your
rest and recuperation.”
I turn to look at Lucien with a feeling of trepidation. It’s that
commanding tone again, dressed up as a lighthearted, fluttery
suggestion. And the eyes, the pale assessing eyes, a much lighter
shade of blue than mine. Jay senses the whirring of the brain too.
He looks expectantly at the beautiful man perched in his lap, waiting
for whatever wonderful suggestion/command he’s about to deliver.
Maybe I’ve come here to Rossingley because, subliminally, my
heart knows this is what I need: Lucien’s firmness wrapped up in his
kindness, his wisdom, his never-ending, patient love. My nerves are
so stretched to the wire that I’m totally in his hands. I’ll say yes to
anything, as long as he remains my guardian angel, even though he
is regarding me in a worryingly naughty fashion.
“You’re going to find rattling around this big old place terribly
boring, darling, especially when Jay and I are at work. So, it will be
best if you find something to occupy yourself, and do you know, I
have exactly the thing. Steve, the head gardener, has recently fired
one of his boys for pilfering from the estate stores, and so they are a
bit short on labour.”
Yep, those eyes definitely have a naughty gleam.
“And the grounds require so much maintenance at this time of
year. I’ll phone Will, my estate manager, right now, and let him know
I have a willing, young body to take his place. He’ll be so pleased,
and the exercise and fresh air will do you the power of good,
darling. You will be a perfect fit for that gardening team. You know
I’m right. Now, go and have a nice hot shower, and I’ll find you
some comfy clothes. Then have a gorgeous rest and you can start
work after the weekend.”
And that is a masterclass in how to persuade a spoiled young
man to perform forty hours a week of manual labour, outside, in the
depths of winter, and still be his favourite person in the entire world.
Bloody hell.
Chapter Three
Reuben
Dear Guillaume,
Hope all is well with you. I’d love to see some pictures of
your last match. I enclose a photo of the coffee table I
made for my design and tech exam. If you look closely, you
can see I’ve inlaid the brass ends of some old shotgun
cartridges around the edge and polished them up. The
table still needs varnishing, but it’s not a bad effort, even if
I do say so myself.
We shovel shit on roses until the light fades. With a backwards wave
of his hand, Freddie heads home, back to the big house, and I
amble the short distance to my cottage, smiling as I see Obélix
patiently waiting on the doorstep for me. When I unlock the door, as
is the way of cats, he pretends he hasn’t been waiting at all, and
hangs around on the doorstep a little longer, licking his paw before
following me inside. He turned up at Rossingley not long after I did,
scruffy and underfed. As no one else appeared to be looking after
him, I started feeding him. He comes and goes as he pleases—he’s
out all night—but spends most evenings curled in my lap next to the
wood burner. I named him Obélix after the sidekick in the Astérix
comic book, the only kid’s stories I’ve ever read.
My cottage is the most amazing place on earth. Even saying the
words ‘my cottage’ out loud makes me happy. It’s not mine, of
course, it belongs to the estate, but it’s mine as long as I live and
work here. I can honestly say it’s the only real home I’ve ever had.
Incredibly old, it’s tagged onto the end of a row of much larger
cottages. The row is hidden around the back of the big house, off
the rear driveway behind the stable block. My home almost seems
an afterthought, as if the seventeenth-century builders had a few
bricks left over and didn’t want them to go to waste, so they created
a doll’s house for fun. The hobbit-sized front door opens directly into
the lounge, with a tiny kitchen off to one side and an even tinier
bathroom next to that. A narrow wooden staircase leads out of the
lounge straight into my bedroom, and that’s it. There is enough
room to swing a cat in the lounge and the bedroom, because Obélix
and I have tried it, but not in the kitchen.
I put a match to the kindling in the wood burner, which I’d
prepared this morning. The only pieces of furniture in the lounge are
two old-fashioned, lumpy green armchairs, a fluffy red rug, and a
scratched gateleg table, with two mismatched oak dining chairs
tucked underneath it. I’ve made a coffee table out of packing crates,
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