The sun is up and still on my back

Seeking the comfort, the pillows lack

Still and pale, I am still contemplating
The scenarios and the “what could have been”
Confusion strikes me day by day
I thought I was having my best days
Didn’t expect I was losing grasp
Of the reason for this all

Maybe attention needed attention

I admit time was one thing going bare
Dreams took moments away from us
As seconds thinned, so as your touch
Deluded into seeing that I was building
A life that can offer the jewels of this world

You walked away along with your gaze

You sought comfort in another shade
Saw you with my own two eyes
I just thought of ending it all

I came to him looking for guidance

He told demons shouldn’t be offered a chance
I burst into a million pieces
But I still held myself standing

It has always been you

Although you might not believe it’s true
But let me choose me
just this time, for a little while

I am shattered and scarred

So forgive me if I try to rebuild myself
But break you in the process
Riskin it all so that I would not regret
But what if I do risk it all but still regret

I have always chosen you

Let me choose me just this time
It has always been you
Although you might not believe it’s true
But let me choose me
just this time, for a little while

I am lost in space looking for a pill

Promise to come back with vigor and life
I just couldn’t give up easy
Crumbling with a lot of doubt
But I just needed to zoom out
Even though it’s hard to see
Something is waiting for me

It has always been you

Although you might not believe it’s true
But let me choose me
just this time, for a little while

Looking forward to knowing who is who

Nobody knows if it still might be you
Our fabric was torn, tears are everywhere
Leave me be as I weave it whole again

It’s a struggle to look up as I condole with myself

Forgive me as I gasp
I apologize to the pain
As I tend my wounds

It has always been you

Although you might not believe it’s true
But let me choose me
just this time, for a little while

But let me choose me

just this time, for a little while