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Slowly, I lifted my middle finger. With my other hand, I gently kissed my fingers and blew them a
kiss.
One by one, they each smiled at me.
I turned so they wouldn’t see my cheeks burning red, again.
I was pretty sure I was in over my head.
And once I got too far, there was no coming back from it all.
With nothing.
Except for a broken heart.
prologue
T hey’d probably think I was running, right? Well, not running. The only thing my feet - well,
foot - did was press the gas pedal and watch what could happen. Somewhere in my head
there had been an idea of a place or two to go. Just to actually get away.
So, fine, they were right. For about a split second.
Because maybe even though everyone was okay with their secrets being spilled, they were so
quick to assume. Not exactly judge, but assume. Which was crazy in itself. I could deal with secrets.
And rumors. And little stories that grew legs and ran through the halls of BFH faster than those
messing around and hearing the second bell, knowing they were going to get into trouble if they didn’t
get to class on time.
That was the easy stuff.
The typical stuff.
But that wasn’t it for BFH.
It never was.
And when you’re living fake… living a different life… not even a lie because you’d become used
to it…
Maybe for a second I forgot that I was balancing on a chair with three broken legs.
Think about it. And if you can’t, then oh fucking well to you.
It’s like when Mom would try to hide her problem from me. When we were living in the
apartment that Claire owned. She would always come home super late from work. And most of the
babysitters would just leave. They figured Mom wasn’t showing up and they weren’t going to get
paid. Not that I could blame some teenage girl wanting to get away from me to go spend the night with
her boyfriend. Funny how I never understood why that sounded so fun… until now. Or when Mom
would leave money, the babysitter would time out the hourly wage and then bolt. So I was used to
being alone and waiting for Mom. And she’d come home and tell me she had to take her medicine.
It was all one giant coverup.
It took me a little while to figure out what that was and what it meant.
I actually thought Mom was a doctor… or at least a nurse… because of the stuff she had in the
bathroom. The way she knew how to administer the… medicine…
It made me laugh.
I laughed through the pain as the echoing sound of the SUV kissing the tree replayed over and over
and over in my head. Like this constant whirring in my brain. It made everything really dizzy one
second, then super clear the next. And on the super clear moments, when I put my head back, I looked
through the open, crooked, crunched sunroof and could see the stars shining through the trees.
It made me laugh even more.
Mom told me you could travel to the stars then through the stars and find new galaxies and meet
new friends and hear new music and… and… and…
All lies.
All bullshit.
Just like everything else.
Including where I was…
Waiting for the faint cry of a siren.
To come save me.
Or maybe nobody would show up at all…
one
“NI putever?”
my head back and let the sun brush against my face. Which was really the only thing I had
going for me at the moment.
Because now I was apparently a fucking science project to Gi and Iris.
All because of something that wasn’t exactly a secret but I guess to them it was. And I guess it
was big enough news to the Rulz that they wanted to have fun and bet on who would get me first.
The get something from me that was already gone.
“Never, what?” I asked Gi with enough attitude that it warranted a head nod from Iris.
“I mean, it was just with Devin?” Gi asked. “Never anyone else?”
“Why does that matter?” I asked. “It’s not like you need to screw ten guys to actually lose your…
whatever.”
“You had us all fooled,” Iris said.
“Fooled? How?”
“You never… I mean, you always…”
I pulled my sunglasses down the bridge of my nose. “Exactly. I don’t brag. I don’t need to brag
about what I’ve done. Or who I’ve been with.”
“One guy,” Gi reminded me.
“Just for that,” I said.
“Oh, dirty,” Iris said. “Well, we know you’ve been swapping spit with the Rulz like crazy.”
“Like crazy?” I asked. “Please. It was one kiss. For each. And now I know what it all was for.
Why they suddenly had a change of heart for the dirty, poor girl.”
“They want your dirty, poor innocence,” Iris said.
I laughed. “Innocence. What innocence? I haven’t had anything that resembled that since I was a
kid.”
I looked between Gi and Iris.
They knew better than to challenge me there.
Their lives were nothing but pampered moments laced with drama that made it seem oh-so-
fucking-bad when in reality it was never bad.
For me…
I shook my head.
I lifted my toes out of the water and stared at them.
They were the nicest I had ever seen my toes. I had only ever painted my toes myself. So to go to
some fancy place and have someone take care of my feet, that was new. And it was actually kind of
fun. Sitting in a big, comfy chair without a care in the world.
Other than the hottest and baddest three guys in BFH were throwing money at each other
because they wanted to have me.
I still hadn’t figured out all of that yet.
But I would.
I would dig into them, lead them on, and find a way to hurt them.
At the very least, I would use them the way they wanted to use me.
So now the name of the game was to fake it, lie, adapt, and see where this entire thing ended up.
As long as I kept the truth to myself, I would be fine. And not the truth of whether I was untouched or
not. The truth that I didn’t belong in BFH. And I wasn’t going to be in BFH for forever. This was all
temporary. For the sake of Mom. And if the Rulz wanted to mess with me, I was going to mess back.
Because I’d eventually be gone and they would move on to someone else.
“So what are you going to do?” Gi asked.
“I don’t know,” I said. “Beth wasn’t lying. She could have not told me. You know?”
“Don’t even try it,” Iris said. She stood up and walked away from the pool leaving wet footprints.
“That fucking bitch always has an agenda.” Iris looked back. “Even with this.”
“Yeah, but what’s the purpose of telling me then?” I asked. “It’s kind of stupid. I mean, everyone
could think what they want about me. Including them. I’m the one who knows the truth. Well, me and
you two.”
“And Devin,” Gi said.
“Shit,” I whispered. “I bet that’s how it happened.”
“What?” Gi asked.
“Devin,” I said. “That fucking moron.”
“Why?” Iris asked.
“When we broke up, he told everyone I refused to do anything. Call it backward or whatever, but
where I’m from, you’re looked down on for being a prude. Like if you’ve hooked up with a bunch of
guys…”
“It’s cool,” Gi said. “Being a whore is a rite of passage.”
“There’s a tattoo for you,” Iris said with a laugh.
“Better suited for you,” Gi said to Iris with a wink.
Iris showed both her middle fingers and gave a fake laugh.
“The point is,” I said, “Devin spread it around that I wasn’t willing to do anything with him.
Which wasn’t true. We were together and broken up like three or four times… and each time we got
back together…”
“Oh, you got back together,” Gi said slowly lifting her arms dancing to no music.
“Right,” I said. “So something must have spilled from there to here. I don’t get how though.”
“Don’t underestimate the Rulz,” Gi said. “I mean it. You never know what they’re up to. What
they know. How they know it. Or what they’ll do.”
“Makes me wonder if I should just tell them,” I said. “Honestly. At first, I was so pissed… so
fucking pissed. But I knew something was up, right? I knew there had to be a reason for what they
were doing. I found the reason. Why not just expose it. Laugh in their face?”
“I don’t know, Ti,” Gi said.
“Screw that,” Iris said. She hurried back to the pool and towered over me. She blocked the sun
and looked down at me. “I will drown you in this pool if you do that.”
“Oh? Love me that much?”
“You tell them that… or laugh at them over it… they’ll destroy you. I’m saying that as a friend.
Okay?”
“Iris is right,” Gi said. “I mean, if you wanted to tell them, you probably can. But not in a bitchy
way.”
I swallowed hard.
I guess I forgot about their power for a second there.
My memory reminded me of what Barr did. Just for a kiss. Or the fact that they always seemed to
appear at the worst possible times.
“You should just ride it out,” Iris said. “And I’m saying that as a bitch who doesn’t care if you get
hurt.”
“Ride it out,” Gi said. She laughed. “I’m sure there will be a lot of riding…”
“I’m not riding anything or anyone,” I said. “Ever.”
“Never ever, girl?”
I gasped and turned.
Speaking of worst possible times…
The Rulz were here.
“Y“Didn’t
ou don’t knock, huh?” I asked.
need to, sugar,” Pres said. “Just walking the beach.”
“Three guys walking the beach?” I asked. “Holding hands?”
Gi and Iris giggled.
Barr lit a cigarette and looked at Gi.
She quickly went quiet. Her face turned red.
“Something you want to say?” he asked her.
She shook her head.
“Are you sure? You were easy to laugh there.”
“It was a joke,” I said.
“No, it’s okay,” Barr said as he stepped toward Gi.
She stiffened. She reached for the railing of the pool and pulled herself up. She hurried to get
away and grabbed her towel. She wrapped it around herself, like she did the last time they were here.
I just gently splashed my feet in the water.
It was nice to feel like I had some kind of power at the moment.
Barr closed in on Gi.
He took a drag of his cigarette and exhaled the smoke in her face.
Then he turned and grinned at me. “How are you today, love?”
“Was having a great day,” I said. “Then you three showed up.”
“To make it greater-er,” Kip said.
“That’s not a word,” Iris said.
“I just fucking invented it,” Kip said. “Do you have a problem with that?”
Iris curled her lip. “Nope.”
“Good,” Kip said. He looked at me. “Mind if I cuddle up next to you, girl?”
“You’re wearing…”
Kip stepped right into the water. Socks and shoes. All the way up to where his shorts ended. He
plopped down next to me and gently elbowed me.
The smell of Barr’s smoke hung in the air and flirted with my nose.
That was only matched by the smell of Pres’s cologne as he moved closer to me.
I put my hand flat to the warm pavement and tilted my head back to look up at him. He was so
gorgeous it wasn’t fair. At all. They all were gorgeous. In their own way too. But I knew who they
really were. Everything I heard about them was true. And I knew what they were doing to me. Or
wanted to do to me. Or whatever.
But I had the power… the power of the truth. Of a truth they couldn’t get away from or change.
“Can I help you?” I asked Pres.
“Oh, I’m sure you can, sugar,” Pres said. “Just wanted to check up on you. Make sure you weren’t
running back to that shithole you once called home.”
“Nope,” I said. “I’m right here. My new home.”
“Good,” Kip said. “Thought we were going to need a new set of wheels after driving through that
other town. Smelled like shit.”
“Looked like it too,” Pres said. “Plus, your old BFFs don’t like you anymore. You’re too rich for
them now.”
He slowly smirked.
I curled my lip. “Anything else you want to say?”
“Also needed to make sure you were home for tonight, love,” Barr said.
I sat up straight and looked at Barr.
“Damn,” Pres said. “There goes my view.”
I swallowed even harder than before and tried to casually cover my chest. Which was impossible
to do casually or at all since I was in a two piece bathing suit.
“Dinner tonight,” Barr said.
“Us?” I asked.
“I’m going to cook you a gourmet dinner, love,” Barr said. “Then I’m going to treat you to
dessert… well, you’re the dessert…”
My cheeks turned red.
“Not if I can help it, girl,” Kip whispered at me.
He brushed his lips to my shoulders.
I shivered everywhere.
Before I could say a word, Pres crouched behind me. His knees gently touched my sides, putting
me sort of between his legs.
Right in front of everyone.
My eyes moved to Iris and she was blushing too.
She was blushing and they weren’t even touching or talking to her.
Pres pressed his lips to my other shoulder. “We need you here, sugar. Right where you belong.”
I sucked in a breath. “Are you cooking me dinner too?”
Pres laughed.
“I’m not cooking a thing, love,” Barr said. “I’m just messing with you. Another fancy business
dinner.”
“Oh,” I said. “With your parents. And Claire.”
I thought about asking about Pres’s father but I didn’t want to start that again. I still couldn’t
believe that Claire was sleeping with Pres’s father (who was married, by the way).
“We weren’t invited,” Kip said.
“Too bad for you,” I said.
“Not at all,” Pres said. “That’s the other reason we’re here. There’s a little gathering down on the
beach later. Once the sun goes down. Everyone who is here right now will be there.”
I looked at Gi. She looked ready to just turn and bolt.
“Fine by me,” I said. “As long as I don’t have to hear about real estate deals.”
“The only real estate you need to worry about is the beach right behind us, girl,” Kip said.
He stood up and walked out of the pool with heavy, splashing steps as the water bounced from his
socks and shoes. When he walked his feet made a slush type sound.
“Do I need to even say what would happen if you all aren't there?” Pres asked, looking right at
Iris. Then Gi. Then back to Iris.
And as though they were obedient students dealing with a dickhead teacher, Gi and Iris shook
their heads.
“We’ll be there,” Iris said.
“Yeah,” Gi said. “We will.”
“Let’s hope so, giggles,” Barr said to Gi.
He took one more drag of his cigarette and dropped it on the concrete.
Of course he didn’t step on the cigarette.
“See you tonight, sugar,” Pres said to me.
“I’ll be here early, love,” Barr said.
Pres, Barr, and Kip all walked away, disappearing down to the beach. The only thing left behind
of them was Kip’s wet footprints. But those faded quick.
Oh.
And Barr’s lit cigarette.
Just resting on the concrete, smoke curling into the air.
“That was fun,” Iris said.
“That was terrifying,” Gi said.
“I guess you both will be at the beach thing tonight then?” I asked.
They didn’t answer.
They didn’t need to.
I knew they would be there.
They had no choice.
Gi motioned toward the door and Iris was quick to run toward it.
They were done with the pool.
They were done outside for now.
Not that I could blame them.
I was left alone, watching Barr’s cigarette on the ground.
I slowly moved toward it and crouched and reached for it.
As I picked up the cigarette, I curled my lip.
It was gross.
Yet somehow it tasted good on his lips.
I leaned forward a little and shut my eyes and took a deep breath to smell the nasty smoke. But
that nasty smell was the smell of Barr. And it did something to me.
I licked my lips, thinking about his kiss.
Thinking about all their kisses.
When I opened my eyes, I caught myself almost tempted to take a drag of the cigarette.
“No,” I whispered. “Fuck no.”
I stood up and carried the cigarette to a glass of freshly made lemonade and dropped it into it.
It sizzled and died a quick death.
I wiped my hands on a towel and shook my head.
I wasn’t going to be theirs… not anymore.
They were going to be mine.
two
I walked down to the beach party and found Gi and Iris already enjoying themselves. A drink in
their hands, they stood right behind the same two guys from other parties who were strumming
guitars. That must have been their thing. To sit around a fire, playing songs, hoping to find someone
willing to fall for that pretend hippie crap.
And judging by the way Gi was already swaying her hips, it was working.
“Where are your bodyguards?” Gi asked with a giggle.
“Oh, look,” I said to Iris, “giggles is back.”
“Gina,” Iris whispered with a wink.
I laughed at the notion of Gi’s alter ego when she drank too much.
But at least she was fun about it all.
“Barr was just in my house,” I said.
“Bet over?” Gi asked, lunging at me.
I lunged at her. “Not even close.”
“Too bad,” Iris said. “You should just pick one and let it happen. See what the fallout is. Oh, and
then tell them you knew about the bet and that you weren’t a-”
“Shut up, Iris,” Gi said.
I saw the way their eyes changed.
I turned my head and the first thing I thought of… my dream.
The one where Pres, Barr, and Kip turned my ice cream into gold, gave me perfume, and then
turned into vampires.
That’s what it reminded me of.
The entire beach came to a stop.
For a second I literally thought the waves were going to stop too.
But everyone turned their heads to watch the Rulz.
One of the guitar players stopped right away. The other guy kept strumming until the first reached
across and put his hand over the guitar.
“They like to make an entrance, huh?” I asked.
“Yes, they do,” Iris said.
Pres, Barr, and Kip all walked down from the spot where I had come from Claire’s house. Pres
was dressed all in black, thick with muscle, looking viciously good. And Barr strutted like he knew
every secret about the world, sucking on his cigarette, the beach breeze playing with his forever
messy hair. And then Kip… bare foot, light tan board shorts, and his forever needed sleeveless shirt.
His long arms pouring from the no sleeves with toned muscle. And it all matched his perfectly cut jaw
and the cocky grin on his face when he looked my way.
Of course when Kip looked at me, everyone else did too.
Heat raged through my body.
I wasn’t sure what anyone else knew. Truth or not.
“They are all locked on you, Ti,” Gi said.
“Shut up,” I said. “I don’t really care.” I turned and faced Gi and Iris again. “Just start talking to
me.”
“About what?” Gi asked.
“Anything.”
“So you’ve only been with one guy?” Iris asked.
“New subject,” I said. I looked at the guitar players. “Hey. You. Guitar dude.”
The guy turned his head. “Me?”
“No. The other twenty-five guitarists on the beach. Start strumming.”
“No way,” he said.
“I said to.”
“I’ll wait until they’re here,” he said.
“I said to fucking play the guitar,” I growled.
“You can sit down and wait your turn to bark orders,” he said.
“Want me to go get my screwdriver?” I asked.
“What’s the problem, sugar?” Pres asked.
Of course they came right to me. Just to make things even more obvious.
I shook off the annoyance. “Nothing. Just wanted to hear a song.”
“Play for her,” Pres said to the guitarist.
“No problem,” he said.
He strummed one chord and Barr jumped forward and kicked the guitar so hard, his foot broke the
wood. He was then standing on the guitar, fighting to get his foot out. The guitar player fell back to the
beach, a shocked look on his face.
Barr then grabbed the broken guitar and tossed it into the fire.
“That’ll work,” Barr said.
“Holy shit,” Iris said.
My head whipped around to her. “They do this before?”
“No,” she whispered.
“You better play your heart out,” Barr said to the other guitarist.
“I can go get another guitar,” the first one said. “Not a big deal.”
“What do you think, Pres?” Barr asked.
“Fair enough,” Pres said. “Go get a guitar. Keep everyone happy.”
The guitarist stood up and Kip grabbed him by the shirt. “If Tinsley ever asks you to play her a
song… what are you going to do?”
“Play her a fucking song,” the guitarist said.
“Now that’s music to my ears,” Kip said.
He winked and let the guy go.
The rest of the party was in silence.
Pres looked around. “Give me a bottle of something. Now.”
Five hands shot out at him.
Pres grabbed a bottle and stepped up on a log. Not that he needed the height to be taller or more
powerful.
“You were invited to be here,” he said. “But I really don’t give a shit that you’re here. Enjoy
yourself. Just make sure you always… follow… the Rulz.”
Pres took a drink, stepped down and smashed the bottle off the log.
Everyone broke out into a cheer and just like that the party was back to what it was before they
arrived.
My eyes scanned the beach and I saw the guitar player walking with his arm around some girl.
They were talking, smiling, looking back, making hand gestures that mimicked what Barr had done to
his guitar.
But what the hell did that guy care?
He probably had two hundred guitars. And he probably could afford another two hundred and not
blink twice.
“Let’s go down to the water,” I said.
When I turned my head, expecting to see Gi and Iris, they were gone.
It was Kip. With his knees bent so he was eye level with me.
“Sure thing, girl,” he said.
I sidestepped and crashed into a waiting Barr.
“You want to get wet tonight, love?”
“The only thing you’ve done is make me dry,” I said.
“I saved your ass when you fell down the stairs,” Barr said.
“She fell down the stairs?” Pres asked.
“Three steps.”
“Boom, boom, boom,” Barr said. “Her pretty, little ass is probably all bruised up.”
“Want me to kiss it and make it better?” Kip offered.
I laughed. “Actually, yeah. You all can totally kiss my ass.”
Kip made a playful move at me and I ran.
He chased me through the sand, smiling.
My mind almost forgot everything that was happening. Or was supposed to happen. Or would
happen.
I had no traction in the sand. My small and stubby feet were like weights hitting the sand. Yet
Kip’s giant surfer feet glided over the sand and he caught up to me in no time.
The dry sand became wet sand and I went right into the water.
I scooped up a handful of water and threw it at him.
Kip screamed. “No! Not water! I can’t get water on my skin!”
“What?” I asked.
Stupid me for falling for that for a split second.
Kip ran at me, wrapping his arms around me and ran into the chilly ocean.
I screamed and laughed, feeling the water creeping up my legs.
“Cellphone rule!” I cried out.
“Fuck your cellphone, girl,” Kip said.
I growled. “I’m the dirty poor girl. I don’t have the same luxuries as you.”
Kip stopped. A wave rippled along the back of my legs.
“Fuck that,” Kip said. “Your new Mommy will get you a new one.”
“Don’t say that,” I said. “Claire is not my mother.”
“I bet you want her to be. No way you want to leave this place. Admit it.”
“I’m still here, right?”
“Because we told you to stay,” he said.
Our faces were super close. I could somehow see the blue of his eyes even in the darkness. And
my body lined up to his body in a very certain way…
“I stayed because I wanted to,” I whispered.
“You’re here for me, girl. You can admit it. It’s just us.”
“Nothing to admit,” I said.
“You say that now.”
“I’ll say it forever.”
Kip stepped forward into the water.
“Don’t,” I said.
“Tell me you want me.”
“No.”
He stepped again.
“Kip…”
“I love the sound of my name on your lips,” he said. “Just tell me you want me.”
“No,” I said again.
Kip took another step.
I opened my mouth to tell him I wanted him when a wave smacked against my back.
It was so cold I froze up and tried to gasp but had no breath.
“I’ll take that as you wanting me, girl,” Kip said.
He turned and hurried back toward the shore.
When he let me go, but kept my hand, and I ended up spinning like we were dancing.
Back to the princess crap, huh?
Kip let me go and I stumbled back.
He put his hand to his mouth and blew me a kiss.
I hurried to turn and get out of there before my mind and heart and other parts simply exploded.
I made it two steps before someone bumped into me.
It was some guy trying to snag a ball out of the air.
“Oh, fuck, are you okay?” he asked, eyes wide.
He was holding my arm.
“You barely touched me,” I said to him.
“Shit. Still. Sorry about that. Are you sure…”
I saw movement from the corner of my eye.
It was Pres.
With a fist.
Aimed for the guy who bumped into me.
I was never good at math. And I was never good at magic. Trust me on both. The point of math
was, well, pointless because everyone had a calculator on their phone or their phone itself could
be used to look up anything. As far as magic went, there was a brief moment when I wanted to be
a magician. So I saved up for a magic kit, got it, and tried out the tricks on Mom. She called out every
secret of each trick and told me to find a new career.
But tonight… math and magic…
Somehow.
Someway.
I turned one little drink from a plastic cup… into… a lot.
A lot, a lot.
So much, so soon that what I had done at that other party (the one where Pres kissed me) looked
like nothing.
I was feeling it.
Really feeling it.
Only because the images of the Rulz attacking Malcolm played through my head. And I couldn’t
figure out why. Why it hit me the way it did. I had seen fights before. I watched as they beat up Denny
because Denny made a few passing jokes about being with me. I even watched Kip fight up at the
ditch. This was nothing new. This was nothing shocking.
But…
“Why don’t you let me take this?” Iris asked as she lifted the cup out of my hand.
“Hey,” I said. “That’s my drink, bitch.”
“Yeah, it is,” Iris said. She tossed the cup away. “Now it’s gone.”
“Hey, fuck you,” I said.
“You’re getting too far along here, Ti,” Iris said.
“What the fuck do you care? You love it like this, right? You want to see me like this.”
“Not like this,” Iris said. “Bad enough I’ve got Gi dancing around the fire like she’s never seen
fire before.”
I giggled and snorted.
I stepped back and missed a step, which seemed to be impossible to do, but this fake wannabe
princess was once again toppling down to her ass. Right down to the sand, falling to my back.
Distance was sort of my only friend.
Anytime one of the Rulz tried to come near me I casually found a way to slip away. Not that I
could actually stay away from them for long. They would always catch up. And if they really wanted
me for any reason, it would happen.
There was no escaping it.
But I tried.
Which went against my plan all the way.
I pointed to the sky and laughed.
“What are you doing?” Iris asked as she stood over me.
Making a quick move, I grabbed the inside of her left leg and squeezed. She let out a yell and tried
to kick at me, laughing, but I had her.
Her leg bent and she was falling down to the sand too.
Of all people, right?
Me and Iris just hanging out.
Me tickling her.
Of course the douchebag perv guys at the fire were watching, praying for that moment when Iris
and I would start to make out which would make all their stupid wet dreams come true.
Iris sat next to me, shaking her head. “You must be really wasted to want to be my friend like
this.”
“You saw what they did, right?” I asked.
“Of course,” she said.
“That was because of me. That guy… Malcolm… he got his ass kicked…”
“That guy is a loser,” Iris said.
“Loser or not, be real…”
“I am real,” Iris said. “Look, when you’re dealing with the Rulz you need to pay attention. This
isn’t a drink fest party. Or a find someone to hook-up with party. Or throw a ball around and jump in
the sand party.”
“Then what is it?” I asked.
“An excuse to have you near them,” Iris said. “Or just to see who would listen to them. Nobody
knows what they’re thinking. Or why they do what they do.”
“Oh I know why they’re doing what they’re doing,” I said.
Iris and I stared at each other.
She let out a sigh. “What were you pointing at in the sky?”
“You have to get next to me,” I said. “On your back.”
“We’re going to make all those guys hard,” Iris said.
“Good. Then they can go into the water and chill the fuck out.”
Iris laughed.
When she was next to me on the sand, I pointed up to the same spot. “Right there.”
“What?”
“Those stars.”
“Seriously? We’re watching stars together? Exactly who do you want to sleep with?”
“Actually… nobody. How’s that for an answer?”
“That’s bullshit, Ti,” Iris said.
“Just shut up. I thought it looked funny.” I waved my finger like I could draw and connect lines
between the stars. “It looks like…”
“Wow,” Iris said. “That’s where your mind is? You’re looking at that in the sky when you have
three of those that want you. Instead of drawing a line with your hand, you could touch the real thing.”
“It was a joke, Iris,” I said as I hurried to sit up.
“It never is,” she said.
“Oh, look, I suddenly feel sober enough to tell you how much I don’t like you. You can never just
turn the stupid bitch meter down, can you?”
“It ran out of batteries two years ago and I never changed them.”
“I’d rather dance around a fire with Gi.”
“Only because you’re afraid of the truth.”
“Fuck you,” I said.
I tried to get to my feet gracefully but that wasn’t happening. Taking a ten minute breather from
drinking didn’t make the rest of the night go away.
Iris was able to stand up much quicker.
“Don’t play that fucking game with me,” she said.
“What game?”
“You know it’s going to come down to one of them,” she said. “There’s no other choice. You think
you’re going to lead them on and fuck with them? I don’t believe it for a second. I never did. You’re
not an attention whore but you like what’s happening here.”
I laughed. “Wrong again, Iris.”
“Why?”
I shook my head and backed away.
I waved a middle finger at her and turned to go back to Claire’s.
Fuck this fake party thing.
Iris wasn’t having it though.
She chased me right down and got in my face.
“Don’t walk away, Ti.”
“Too late.”
“Don’t be weak.”
“Weak? You and Gi freeze up when they’re around. Why’s that? Huh? What makes you so afraid
of them?”
Iris curled her lip. “Where’s the bitch who owned those assholes earlier?”
“You saw what they did,” I said. “I’ve been trying to get that out of my mind. And it’s not
working. So now I’m drunk and I still can’t stop picturing it. All because someone bumped into me.
They’re crazy. Fucking crazy.”
“So are you,” Iris said.
“Get out of my face,” I said.
I pushed Iris.
“Fight!” someone yelled.
Which was the last thing I needed.
Iris grinned and shoved at my shoulders.
I stumbled more than I should have.
“Bring it… bitch,” Iris said.
I grinned too.
Everyone wanted to see a fight.
I wasn’t going to fight her. She wasn’t going to fight me.
But since everything else was all forced and made up… why not this?
When I made my move to run after her, Kip appeared between us, his hands gently touching my
shoulders.
“Whoa, girl,” he said. “What the hell is this?”
I sidestepped and saw Pres and Barr standing on each side of Iris.
“We were just messing around,” I called out. “Having fun. It’s a fucking party.”
Iris stepped back to get away. The bitch went back to the fire, back to Gi, who grabbed her hands
and started making her dance.
“Fighting your own friends now, sugar?” Pres asked.
“Hardly a friend,” I said. “Were you going to beat her up too?”
Pres smirked. “Worried about Malcolm, huh?”
“I just don’t get it.”
“You don’t have to, girl,” Kip said. “Now… how about another drink?”
“Fine,” I said.
“I’ll get it for you, love,” Barr said. “Then maybe we can all go for a walk along the beach. Show
you some places that are secret around here.”
I laughed. “Sure thing. You know all the right things-”
One step forward and I felt like my ankle jumped out of the side of my foot.
Who the hell twists their ankle trying to walk in the sand?
Me.
So for the night I had fallen down the stairs at Claire’s. Fallen down into the sand. And now
twisted my ankle.
More than that, when I twisted my ankle, the pain that went through my entire leg was enough to
make me scream and claw for help. My left hand grabbed Kip’s right hand. My right hand grabbed for
Pres’s shirt.
“What the hell just happened?” Barr asked.
“Twisted my ankle,” I said.
“Broken?” he asked.
“I don’t know. I’m not a fucking doctor.”
Barr lunged forward. He put his hands to my hips and I sucked in a breath.
Heat flooded my entire body.
Surrounded by them… the Rulz…
All the drinks I had had were now playing deadly games with my mind and my heart.
“Here, lower her down to the sand,” Barr said.
He bent his knees and pulled at my hips.
His grip so tight. His grip so commanding. His grip so protective.
Kip and Pres held my arms as I slowly sat back down to the sand with my right leg sticking out.
“Hey, sorry, uh, mind if we talk now?”
I looked up and saw Brando and Maverick standing near Kip.
“Shit, what happened to her?” Maverick asked.
“I’m asking her to fucking marry me,” Barr said. “You’re ruining my moment?”
“Uh…,” Maverick’s eyes were wide.
“He’s fucking around,” Kip said. “What the fuck do you want?”
“You said to come find you,” Brando said.
“We did say that,” Pres said. “Fair enough.”
“I’m good here with her,” Barr said. “You know my take on the game. I don’t give a shit. Pick
somewhere everyone agrees on.”
Pres crouched down and touched my chin. “I think you’re better off your feet tonight, sugar.”
“Very funny.”
“I wasn’t being funny.”
Pres leaned and brushed his lips to my cheek.
The smell of his cologne washed over me heavier than the ocean waves.
He stood up and stepped over me.
Kip looked down at me and blew me a kiss.
They walked away with Brando and Maverick.
Leaving me alone with Barr once again.
“I’m always saving your ass, aren’t I?” he asked me.
“I can walk home just fine,” I said. “In fact, I’m done with this party.”
“Yeah, me too,” he said. “Let me help you home.”
“Not a chance,” I said.
Iris’s voice went through my head. Saying I had to choose one of them. Which was a lie. There
was no choosing at all. This wasn’t a game for me. For them, it was. They wanted to get something
from me that wasn’t there. Something they couldn’t see, touch, taste, and something no amount of
money could buy.
“Let’s see this, love,” Barr said.
He stood up and lit a cigarette.
I was screwed.
My head swirled and the beach was wavy thanks to the drinks. And now my right ankle was a
little messed up. But I had to do it. I have to prove to myself and to Barr that I could walk my ass
home and end this night.
In repeat fashion I climbed to my feet again.
I stood there, hiding the fact that I wasn’t putting any weight on my right ankle yet. I knew I was
swaying. I hated myself for drinking what I did. All because of them.
“See?” I asked. “I’m better than perfect.”
I turned and put weight on my right ankle.
“Nope,” I whispered as I put my right hand out as though there was some magical wall waiting for
me.
There was no wall.
Just the open beach.
Which meant I was going to fall into the sand again.
Except…
Barr caught me.
The smell of his smoke wrapping tightly around me. His hands with a firm grip as he swung me
off my feet, cradling me in his arms.
I looked at his honey gold eyes.
He had caught me.
And his warning from earlier played in my head.
If he caught me… he wasn’t going to let me go.
“T“Ohhey’re still having drinks, love,” Barr whispered to me. “That’s how these deals go down.”
yeah?” I asked as Barr carried me along the side of Claire’s perfectly manicured shrubs and
long house.
“Yeah. You try to out drink the person,” Barr said. “Get them loosened up to agree to something.
There’s a loser in every deal. No matter what. Nothing is ever equal. There is no fair when it comes
to this stuff.”
For a second I wasn’t sure if Barr was talking about his parents or about me and the Rulz.
Which proved the point home even more.
They were powerful. All three. I was just some girl. The new girl. The dirty, poor girl. The girl
with the junkie for a mother.
“I think I can take it from here,” I said as Barr finally reached the front of the house.
Him carrying me was kind of nice. I put my arms around his neck just to make sure I didn’t fall out
of his arms. Not that it was possible. He was big, strong, with a tight hold on me.
“I’m taking you to bed, love,” he said.
He spoke so casual, knowing exactly what he had just said.
My cheeks turned red because I couldn’t help it.
Barr swung me around so I could punch in the code to open the front door.
I laughed.
I didn’t mean to laugh. But I laughed.
“What’s so funny?” he asked.
“This entire thing,” I said. “This is all fucking crazy, Barr.”
“Yeah, it’s one hell of a moment here, huh?” he asked.
“Something like that,” I said.
The front door was unlocked and Barr walked right to the grand staircase.
“I can make it up the steps,” I said.
“Maybe. Maybe not. Why chance it?”
“Why help me?” I asked.
“Why not?”
“Because you’re an asshole,” I said. “But now suddenly you’re not?”
“Oh, I still am, love. This is a cheap excuse to get me into your room. And you’re drunk.”
“So you think that means I’m suddenly easy?” I asked.
“You can be easy and I’ll be hard,” Barr said.
“Gross,” I whispered.
“Yet you’re the one blushing over it,” he said.
I shut my eyes.
Which was a bad idea.
The movement and bouncing from the steps instantly made me feel sick. I opened my eyes but felt
like my face was now green. My stomach was talking back, mad for everything I had to drink.
Last thing I needed was to get sick in front of Barr.
That would be a total disaster.
As Barr kept walking I realized something beneficial about being poor. If you were sick or drunk
or had a twisted ankle, getting to your bedroom didn’t take a fucking year to get there.
I laughed again.
“What’s funny again, love?” Barr asked.
“Nothing. Just stupid thoughts.”
“Like what?”
“Me being poor. That’s what.”
Barr stopped walking. “You’re not poor anymore, Tinsley.”
Oh. Serious voice.
“Yes I am. This is all fake.”
“So what? Let it be fake. But you’re not poor. Don’t ever say that again.”
“Are you going to whisk me away, Barr? Give me all your money so I could live happily ever
after?”
Barr curled his lip. “I better get you to bed, love.”
We were silent the rest of the walk to my bedroom.
And even there, Barr had no care in the world as he opened the door and walked in like he owned
it.
Now, it was my bedroom.
My eyes looked to the clothes on the floor.
My panties.
And of course there was a bra hanging off the side of the messy bed.
Barr didn’t say a thing though.
He walked me right to the bed and lowered me down.
“Thanks,” I said.
“Are you going to get sick?”
“From being so close to you? Maybe.”
“Yeah? How close is too close?”
“You tell me.”
Ohgod, I’m flirting… drunk and flirting…
Barr put his lips to mine. But he didn’t kiss me.
“How’s this?” he asked, his lips dancing against mine.
I tasted him.
I hated it. But I loved it.
“Maybe,” I whispered.
“Then… maybe this…”
Barr kissed me.
Like full on kissed me.
Lips, tongue, a real kiss.
My hands grabbed at his arms, not sure if I wanted to push him away or invite him into my bed.
The make out session was short lived when he pulled back.
The sound of our kissing echoed around the bedroom.
He had his right hand on the nightstand and his left hand on the bed over me.
We just stared for a few seconds before Barr lowered me back down.
This is it… I could end this stupid bet thing right now.
“What’s the game about?” I asked.
Barr was just a few inches from me. “What?”
“Pres. Kip. They went to talk to Brando and Maverick.”
Barr grinned. “Right. The game.”
Barr stood up and folded his arms.
“Well?”
“Just bullshit stuff, love,” he said.
“Like what?”
“A football game,” Barr said. “BFH against HCH.”
“HCH? That’s that other school?”
“Yeah.”
“Where Weslee Jackson goes to?”
“Yeah.”
“You guys beat up that one guy… well, he was already beat up…”
“Yeah,” Barr said for a third time.
He was getting annoyed.
“Why’s it such a big deal? The football game, I mean.”
“It just is,” Barr said. “They can fight each other. Or they can play each other. It’s for bragging
rights. It’s not during the season.”
“Bragging rights…”
“Yeah. They play without equipment. So the hits are hard. There’s no refs either. So you play dirty
and hope for the best. It’ll probably end up in a big fight. That’s what happens. Tension boils over…
and like I told you, love, someone loses. Always.”
“Why did Brando have to talk to you?” I asked.
“Because we fucking said so,” Barr said.
I opened my mouth but Barr turned and made the move I expected.
He hooked his finger under my bra on the bed and lifted it.
“First time you’ve seen one?” I asked.
Barr laughed. “You really want to talk about first times, love?”
I swallowed hard. “Goodnight, Barr.”
He dropped my bra to the bed.
He took out a cigarette and lit it.
Just to be an asshole.
“Night, love,” he said.
He walked out of the bedroom, shutting the door behind him.
Leaving me with the smell of his cigarette smoke.
Leaving my heart racing.
I shut my eyes and just wanted to sleep everything away.
Not the drinks.
Not the pain in my ankle.
Not the night.
But everything.
Part of me said to just tell the truth. Because whatever the Rulz knew about me, it was wrong. Yet,
if I did that, then what would happen? Would they just suddenly leave me alone forever and pretend
like I didn’t exist?
The answer was simple… no.
This entire thing wasn’t going to end calmly at all.
four
I
away.
n some crazy twist of fate, my hangover didn’t linger more than one day and my ankle wasn’t
broken, sprained, or even hurt. It was like the night at the beach didn’t even exist. And just by
brushing my teeth and taking a shower, I washed Barr away. I washed Pres away. I washed Kip
I opened my locker and there was a tan, cloth bandage half unrolled waiting for me.
“Asshole,” I whispered, knowing that was from Barr for my ankle.
I slammed the locker, shaking my head.
Beth came to her locker and for a second, she acted as though I wasn’t even there.
Screw that.
“Hey,” I said to her.
She nodded. “Hey.”
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing.”
“That’s a lie.”
“Probably.”
She opened her locker and I put my hand to it, shutting the door. “Talk.”
“Nothing to talk about.”
“Are you going to keep the eighth grade bullshit act up all day then?”
“Not sure yet,” Beth said.
I slid to block Beth’s locker. “Then I’ll just stand here and wait. And miss class. And get into
trouble.”
Beth’s eyes filled with tears.
She shook her head and backed up.
I reached for her but missed her by an inch before Vicky threw a shoulder at her, knocking her
forward into my arms.
Beth burst into tears.
“Oops,” Vicky said.
“Whore,” I said.
“At least I know how to have fun,” Vicky said.
“Yeah… with a pack of hotdogs,” I said.
“Don’t bother replying, Vicky,” Blair said. “That’s how those street scums act. Looking for a
fight. It’s really sad.”
The two bitches walked away as I held a crying Beth.
I put my head back against Beth’s locker and sighed.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered. “I’m sorry. So sorry.”
“What are you sorry for?” I asked.
Beth looked at me, her chin quivering. “What are you going to do?”
“About what, Beth?”
“This entire thing. I thought I was telling you to protect you.”
“You’re talking about the Rulz?”
“Yes.”
“Don’t worry about them.”
“I don’t know why I told you,” Beth said.
I wasn’t sure what she wanted me to say. Feel sympathy for her? That wasn’t going to happen.
“What else is wrong?” I asked.
“Denny,” she said.
“What about?”
“What the Rulz did to him…”
“I’m so sorry for that, Beth,” I said. “That’s been eating me up since it happened.”
“No, no, no, listen to me, Ti. They were right. They did good. I kind of want them to do it again.”
“Break his hand?”
“Break his other hand.”
“What happened?” I asked.
“He’s just a piece of shit,” Beth said.
“He hurt you. What did he do?”
“What all guys do.”
“He fucked someone else.”
“Big shock, right?”
“You thought you two were exclusive though.”
“Stupid me,” Beth said, her eyes welling up again.
“Shit. Come here.”
I hugged Beth again.
I saw Gi and Iris walking the hall. They both stopped and both lifted their eyebrows at me.
I mouthed fuck off to them.
Iris put her hands to her eyes and twisted them, pretending to cry.
Damn, she really didn’t like Beth at all.
That was a story I needed to get to the bottom of.
They kept walking, leaving me standing there with Beth.
“Let me walk you to the bathroom,” I said to Beth. “So you can get cleaned up.”
“We’re going to be late,” she said.
“Someone once used period cramps to get out of trouble,” I said with a grin.
“Works every time,” Beth said, her chin still quivering.
I took her to the bathroom and she stood over the sink, cleaning her face. I’m talking her bag on
the counter with full cleaning stuff out. Like she was scrubbing herself before bed.
“What did he actually do?” I asked her.
She finally calmed down. Her eyes reflected to my eyes. “Some rotten cunt from East. I think I
know who too. I’ll get my hands on her. Trust me. I will.”
“Good,” I said. “Or better yet… let him have her. It’s his loss. And if he goes near you again I’ll
stab him with a screwdriver.”
“Or maybe we can do something else,” Beth said.
She turned and offered a wicked grin.
“Like what?” I asked.
“I was thinking… remind Denny of the Rulz.”
“Excuse me?” I asked.
“Hear me out,” Beth said, eyes wide. “You go tell them that Denny did something again. They’ll
believe you. Then we sit back and wait and watch. They’ll destroy him. I heard that Malcolm bumped
into you at the beach and they damn near took him out for good. He told his parents he was jumped.
Did you know that? He told them he was over near East and things got tense. They have police
looking over there for clues. All because Malcolm knows better than to say a word about Barr, Pres,
or Kip.”
“Are you kidding me?” I asked.
“Not at all. That’s the power… of you.”
“Me?”
“You, Ti,” Beth said. “You’re not the puppet anymore to them. They are to you. You point and shit
happens…”
I looked away.
I didn’t want to believe that for a second.
But it was true.
The thing with Malcolm. Oh, and then before that… the guitar dude. Barr put his foot through the
guy’s guitar. Then they made him go get a new one. Because of me.
I shook my head. “No.”
“No? Fuck that, Ti. It’s a yes. You know it. That’s how I get him back.”
“Get him back? Come on, Beth…”
“What? I just told you what he did to me. You don’t even give a shit, do you?”
“Give a shit? Of course I give a shit. We can handle it together. Plus, if I do that and they get
Denny and he says I’m lying, then what?”
“They’ll beat him even harder,” Beth said.
“Or they find out I was lying.”
“And you tell them you were testing them,” she said. “You were testing their loyalty to you. Oh,
it’s perfect. They’d do anything for you right now. All because they want you.”
“Stop,” I said.
“Ti, listen to me.”
“I said stop!” I yelled.
My voice smashed against the walls.
Beth stepped back.
“This isn’t a fucking game for me, okay? Is that why you told me what you did? To use it? To use
me? I’m not some fucking hit woman or whatever. I’m not going to stand there and point at a person
and watch them get hurt. What happened to Malcolm was wrong. And it’s still bothering me.”
“So, that’s a no…”
“Screw you, Beth,” I said. “I can’t believe you just asked me that.”
I walked toward the door and ripped it open.
“I loved him,” she called out. “I’ve always loved him.”
I let the door shut but I didn’t turn around.
“Who?” I asked.
“Denny,” she said. “He was the one I really liked. And loved. I watched him flirt with so many
girls. And I heard of him fooling around with some. When he was flirting with you that day, I got
really jealous. But then he got beat up and he came to me for help. I thought we were finally going to
have our chance together. Yeah, maybe that was bad thinking, but oh well. He hurt me, Ti. And with
some trash from East? I’d rather him go down to HCH and fuck one of their whores.”
I swallowed hard. “I almost wish you never told me what you did, Beth. My entire world is
upside down again because of it. I thought I was going to have the power over them but I don’t. At
least not in the way I want.”
“Then set them up,” she said. “Use Denny and set them up. I have another idea but it involves you
and Denny in bed together. Nothing is going to happen…”
“Goodbye, Beth,” I said.
I opened the door and left this time.
I turned left around the hall and was met with a wall of… them.
I let out a yell and covered my mouth.
“She okay?” Kip asked.
“Beth? Yeah. Denny slept with someone.”
“Did he come near you?” Pres asked, his lip curling.
“No. But she wanted me to tell you he did. So you’d beat him up.”
“That’s pretty devious, love,” Barr said.
“Maybe you should set your attention on Beth then,” I said. “She’s more your type.”
I tried to step around them but they moved with me.
Each one finding a subtle way to gently touch me.
“You’re all we see and want, girl,” Kip said. “Never doubt that for a second.”
“Oh, I don’t,” I said.
“And we don’t need an excuse to take out Denny again,” Pres said. “He’s a piece of shit. He
obviously didn’t learn his lesson from before.”
“When there wasn’t a lesson to be taught,” I said.
“Nobody touches what’s ours,” Barr said.
“And he’s upset you again, sugar,” Pres said.
He flexed his fists, making his knuckles crack.
“No,” I said. “I can’t stomach that anymore. No more violence.”
“That’s never going to happen, girl,” Kip said.
“Unless we find another outlet for our pent up frustrations,” Barr said.
I knew what he meant.
I squinted my eyes. “Go fucking smoke something then.”
“And me?” Pres asked.
“Go pick out a new cologne.” My head snapped over to Kip. “And go catch a wave.”
I turned and Kip had my arm, pulling me close to him.
“I’d rather catch you, girl,” he whispered.
“We all would,” Barr said.
“You tell pretty little Beth that if she has a problem and needs us, to come talk to us,” Pres said.
I looked at Pres.
Jealousy hit me and I didn’t like that at all.
Jealous thinking about any of them with someone else.
That wasn’t a good thing.
That was a very bad thing.
“What do you want?” I asked.
“Just checking up on you, love,” Barr said. “Like we always do.”
“And to let you know about the football game,” Kip said. “You’ll be there. You can stand with us.
Watch these jock assholes rip each other apart over nothing.”
“Bring your pom poms, girl,” Kip said.
“I can give you something to really cheer for, sugar,” Pres said.
I shook Kip away and backed away.
“Football game, huh?” I asked. “I’ll check with my friends and see what we’re doing.”
“Funny,” Barr said.
“Is it?” I asked.
“Very funny,” Pres said.
“Hilarious,” Kip said.
“Maybe I’ll see you around,” I said.
“You will,” Pres said. “I’ll text you where to be.”
“I’ll figure it out myself,” I said.
“Come on, let’s go,” Barr said. “All this talk about kicking Denny’s ass again has me ready for a
fight.”
“Me too,” Kip said. “Should we break his other hand?”
“Definitely,” Pres said.
“Just stop it,” I said. “Don’t go near him. I’m not being part of any of this.”
“Far too late for that, girl,” Kip said.
“Just tell us what we want to hear, love,” Barr said.
I gritted my teeth.
I want you… I want all three of you… and I don’t know what that means…
Slowly, I lifted my middle finger. With my other hand, I gently kissed my fingers and blew them a
kiss.
One by one, they each smiled at me.
I turned so they wouldn’t see my cheeks burning red, again.
I was pretty sure I was in over my head.
And once I got too far, there was no coming back from it all.
five
I wanted to get up early and go down to the beach just after the sun came up. I pictured it as quiet
and lonely. The waves just crashing to the shore. Nothing and nobody but me. All the ghosts that
hung around wouldn’t be there yet either. That part though was probably a lie. There weren’t
ghosts. Anything I would let creep into my mind would be that. My mind.
The spot where I fell on my ass after twisting my ankle.
The spot where Pres, Barr, and Kip insisted on having a party.
The spot in the water where Kip took me out, flirting with me, wanting a kiss, wanting more,
leaving my heart wanting to believe him even though I knew it was all part of a game or bet or
whatever.
And of course the spot where I first met Pres. When he was beating the crap out of some guy and I
thought he was going to drown him.
So I ended up waking up too early and standing at my window. That way I could look at the beach
from a distance. Which felt kind of stupid. But whatever.
There wasn’t anything exciting about it either. Unless I was right on the beach. Which was
somewhere I had always wanted to go. Or wanted to live. Those dumb kid thoughts. When life was so
bad at home, the greatest freedom was the beach. It was where the world ended to me. All this water,
deadly yet protective.
Now I had it.
Whether it was going to last another day, another week, or last a year, it was right there.
I threw on my favorite hoodie and went downstairs to grab a coffee and go to the beach. I wasn’t
sure if Claire would be awake at this hour or not. I’m sure for those with careers it was normal
waking and functioning hours. Even though I was an adult according to my age, I still appreciated the
notion that I had time to sleep. And even if I skipped a class here and there it really didn’t mean a
thing. First off, I was a transfer student to BFH. And it was obvious Claire had a hell of a hold over
Jacobson.
Which meant… I was rich. I had power.
I was fitting right in.
But my plan with the Rulz felt way off base.
I thought I had a step up on them but their violent streak proved me wrong.
Which explained my restless night of sleep and the real reason I was working my way to the
beach so early.
I needed a new plan.
Or a better plan.
Or to make some changes to the current one.
As I shuffled my feet across the cool kitchen floor, I yawned.
The giant house felt so calm, as though it were sleeping itself.
The big fancy coffeemaker on the counter had fresh coffee in it. Everything in the kitchen was
bright, stainless steel, that aura of holy fucking shit I’m loaded with cash and you aren’t! which
seemed to be everywhere in this town.
I poured a cup of coffee and heard a gentle metallic clank from behind me.
“Pour me one, my Claire kiss,” a voice said.
My muscles stiffened and I slowly turned to see a man in black pants, a white shirt - unbuttoned -
looking down as he started to put a belt on. His hair was really messy and my jaw dropped when I
realized it must have been someone Claire had over for the night.
“Uh, I’m not Claire,” I said.
The man lifted his gaze and stepped back. “Jesus. You’re Tinsley. I’m sorry…”
If my jaw could drop more, it would.
Because who I was staring at was not just any man.
I was staring at Pres’s father.
My mind thought back to the night I first saw Claire with Will. And then the stuff Gi and Iris told
me about him. And then when I tried to use that information against Pres, he simply didn’t care. He
knew about his father’s habits and that was that.
“Do you want some coffee?” I asked, not sure what I was supposed to do or say in that moment.
“I’ll get it myself,” Will said with a smile that almost resembled Pres’s. “No need for you to do
that. And what are you doing up so early?”
“Thought I would catch a walk on the beach,” I said. “Before the day got crazy.”
“Now that’s smart thinking.”
I swallowed hard. The uncomfortable feeling in my stomach wasn’t going to go away anytime
soon.
So I nodded.
I smiled.
I had a lot of questions in my head. Wondering what kind of man could just freely cheat on his
wife like this. Or if Claire knew… she had to know. There was no way she could play stupid. Unless
maybe Pres’s parents were separated. Not together but still legally married? For money reasons?
Or…
I shook my head.
None of it really mattered.
Unless of course there was something I could use to break Pres down a little.
Ohgod, Tinsley, listen to yourself…
“You’re the new girl,” Will said.
“New girl?”
“Yeah. You just moved in with Claire.”
“Right. I guess I’m well known, huh?”
“You know my son, right?”
“Pres. Yes.”
“Pres,” Will said with a laugh. “Preston never liked his name. He always was after me to change
it. I would never let him. But he found a way to shorten it anyway. Make it sound cooler, huh?”
I nodded some more. “Yeah. Exactly.”
There was awkward silence which was topped by more awkwardness when Claire walked into
the kitchen.
She came from a different entrance and froze when she saw me and saw Will.
“Morning,” I said to Claire.
“What are you doing awake?”
“Studying hard,” I said. “Got to get those grades so I can become big and rich like you, right?”
Will laughed. “She’s got attitude.”
“This is Will,” Claire said. “He’s, uh, a colleague of mine.”
“Right,” I said.
“He slept in the guest wing,” Claire said, her tone defensive.
“Okay,” I said. “I was just getting some coffee.”
“She was going to walk the beach,” Will said.
“How long have you two been talking?” Claire asked.
“Not long,” Will said in a commanding tone.
Claire seemed to instantly back off.
“I’m going to go back to bed,” I said. “This whole walk early in the morning thing wasn’t a good
idea.” I looked at Claire. “At all.”
I hurried to get out of the kitchen, coffee in hand, and went back to my room.
I knew I wasn’t going to go back to sleep.
And it had nothing to do with the coffee either.
I t was intense.
And intense wasn’t even a good enough word for it.
They were playing with no football pads or helmets. The really built and fit guys weren’t wearing
shirts. And they were playing hard. Running at full force. Hitting each other with purpose. They
weren’t really even tackling each other. They were out for blood. For injury.
And they were all cheating.
It wasn’t just HCH either.
Actually, it was mostly BFH playing dirty. Like really dirty.
The sidelines for HCH screamed and argued. Everyone looked ready to storm the field.
I was just a foot or two away from the sidelines.
My eyes had no idea what to look at first.
I scanned the other side of the field.
Gi and Iris pointed out anyone that seemed important to them.
I finally got a look at the ever so popular Weslee Jackson.
He was tall, built, with messy dark hair, and had the appeal of a young biker dude ready to pull
out a gun or a knife. And the girl he was with - Aira - was pretty. And Weslee had his hands all over
her, making it damn well known she was his.
It actually made me casually look left to right, knowing I was standing alone. Yet at the same time
knowing I had three guys who wanted me. Except they wanted me for the wrong reasons. Not the
same reasons Weslee wanted Aira.
Great.
Now I stood there feeling jealous.
Maverick came running to the sidelines and got a drink of water.
Brando was right behind him.
“Fuck this,” Brando said. “I’m putting the ball in the air this time. You good with it?”
“About fucking time,” Maverick said. “Open the field and show them speed.”
“They’re going to crush you,” Roman said.
“Then we better stop that from happening,” Brando said. “I don’t give a shit what it takes.
Maverick is scoring on this play. Everyone on the field if need be. Fuck these pussies. I want them
pissed off.”
“I think they’re plenty pissed off,” Iris said.
Brando looked at Iris. “You going to run out there? Throw some hits?”
“I bet I can dance on your face,” Iris said.
“Oh, I’d love that,” Brando said. “Save it for after the game. I’ll need a snack.”
Iris threw him the middle finger.
Maverick pulled at Brando. “Let’s go.”
“Oh, that was hot,” I said to Iris.
“Been there, done that,” Iris said.
“Brando?” I asked.
“And Maverick,” Gi added.
“What? You’ve got a soft spot for football players?”
“Just a wild rebound,” Gi said.
“Hey,” Iris growled. “You want to spill my history here? Why don’t you tell your new BFF what
you did with your hairbrush that one time?”
I turned my head to Gi.
“Brushed my hair,” she said.
Iris snorted. She was ready to spill something else, but then she grabbed my arm. “Oh. Shit.”
I looked at the field and watched as Brando ran backwards, his feet moving fast and smooth. He
threw the ball as someone hit him. He fell to the ground hard but quickly got up.
Everyone’s eyes followed the ball.
There was Maverick running along the side of the field.
Someone came running across, ready to hit him.
Maverick made some kind of spinning move and tripped the guy, sending him down to the ground
with force. The guy rolled right toward us and we jumped back, laughing.
Iris swung her foot. “Go to your side of the field, asshole.”
“Fuck off, cunt,” the guy said as he got up.
“Whoa,” I said.
“I hate them all,” Iris said.
There was a loud cheer from our side of the field as Maverick made the catch and ran in for a
touchdown.
It was now HCH’s turn with the ball.
Their quarterback Ryder huddled with his team and then quickly ran a play.
“Fuck that,” Gi said.
It was a pass to Kyle who was quickly walloped by Roman.
That caused Ryder to go after Roman.
Brando and Maverick then ran onto the field.
“Here we go,” Iris said.
“Nah, it’s too soon,” Gi said. “Plus, it won’t be them. It’ll be Wes.”
“Wes?” I asked.
“He started this shit,” Gi said. “It’s going to go down. Just wait and watch.”
The scuffle on the field ended as fast as it started.
Ryder grabbed the ball and called a play.
Kyle took off down the field and caught a really good pass to score.
HCH cheered and pointed and laughed at us.
Everyone on the BFH side booed and yelled back.
My heart was racing a little as I was starting to get caught up in it. And I knew nobody across the
field. Hell, I really didn’t know anyone on the side of the field I was on. Yet I was feeling it. Getting
swept up in the fun of it.
Brando grabbed Maverick by the back of the neck and pulled him close. They looked ready to
kiss but they were talking about a play.
They nodded and took to the field.
Brando called out the play and everyone started pushing and shoving each other again.
Maverick tried to keep getting away from two guys but it was hard to do.
Brando darted all over the field trying to make a play.
With no choice, he threw the ball toward the sidelines to end the play.
That didn’t end the play though.
Roman stood a foot away from me.
Someone from HCH then came running toward him.
Before I could say a word, Roman was hit and came flying in my direction. Him hitting me was
going to kill me. Or at the very least, knock me down, knock me out, break some bones.
I couldn’t even scream.
I shut my eyes and felt myself fly back… but without pain.
When I opened my eyes, I was surrounded by the Rulz.
Kip had his strong arms around me while Barr and Pres were in front of me to make sure they
didn’t accidentally kill me.
Roman got to his feet and looked around for me. “She okay?”
“Get the fuck out there,” Pres ordered. He quickly turned and looked at me. “What the fuck were
you doing so close?”
“It’s okay, girl,” Kip whispered. “He’s just nervous about you getting hurt.”
“Listening to your friends again,” Barr said.
I shook to get out of Kip’s grip. “It was an accident. Who cares? I’m only here because you said
to come.”
Pres’s dark eyes flared. “You take commands on when to come, sugar?”
I rolled my eyes as I blushed.
Of course he would go there…
“Can I just watch the game?” I asked.
“With us here, sure, love,” Barr said.
And that’s what they did. They stood right behind me, lined up, making sure I was safe.
I could feel Iris and Gi already becoming distant. They were now standing next to each other, arm
in arm, probably as a way to remind each other they had each other.
All the while I had the Rulz.
Which wasn’t the worst thing in the world because the football game was getting more and more
tense. I kept my eyes across the field and watched as Weslee looked ready to explode.
And then it happened.
Weslee walked out onto the field.
And he wasn’t alone.
“Now it’s happening,” Gi said. She reached for me. “We better get going.”
“No,” Iris said. “I want to watch.”
“Your friend is right, girl,” Kip said from behind me. “Time to leave.”
I looked back. “I have a ride. No need to-”
Barr pulled me toward him and turned.
It was like the entire field exploded.
People started running everywhere and anywhere they wanted, trying to get near the field.
It was a giant fight.
Like a real fight.
“You’re with us, love,” Barr said.
I looked and tried to find Gi and Iris but they were lost in the crazy shuffle.
“I’m fine on my own,” I said to Barr.
“Shit, we’re out of here,” Pres said. “Kip, take the side. We’ve got eyes.”
“Eyes?” I asked.
“Nothing you need to worry about,” Barr said.
Kip took off in a hurry. I tried to see where he was going.
For a split second I thought I saw someone familiar.
The guys from the fight at the ditch. The ones wearing leather jackets.
But I couldn’t be sure.
Barr and Pres led the way and when I started dragging my feet just a little, Pres swept his arms
around me and tossed me to his back. Like… literally…
I put my arms around his neck and my hands down to his chest.
He reached back and gripped the back of my legs so tight it did things to me that I wasn’t proud to
admit.
“No time for this shit, sugar,” he said to me as we approached his giant SUV.
He walked to the driver’s side and put me on my feet. He turned really fast and grabbed my chin.
Those wild dark eyes of his just ripped through me.
“We’ll get you home safe,” he whispered.
And he lowered his mouth down to mine.
Pres kissed me like we were never going to see each other again. And that he wanted to make sure
I would never kiss another guy again because nobody could match his kiss.
He kissed so perfectly, I slapped my hands to the SUV door.
The smell of his cologne and the taste of his mouth made me want to rob a bank and become a rich
bitch just to stay in BFH forever.
Tinsley, no! They’re just trying to use you. You can’t… fall for… this…
Pres pulled away and I stupidly kissed the air for a second, wanting more.
That just gave him even more power.
He opened the door for me and nodded to get inside.
I slid across the smooth leather seat and watched as Barr lit up a cigarette.
He had his head turned, grinning at me.
Like he knew Pres just kissed me.
Which wouldn’t have surprised me at all.
But still… it left me feeling weird.
Pres got into the driver’s seat.
“What was that?” I asked.
“Bullshit, love,” Barr said.
“No…”
“Yes,” Pres said. He looked in the mirror at me. “They want to fight like that? That’s on them. I
don’t care. No time for it.”
“Pres is right, love,” Barr said. “That’s an old war that will never end. Every once in a while it
gets kicked up. And with what happened to Wes’s girl, he needed tonight.”
I swallowed hard. “So you’re okay with Brando and Maverick getting beat up…”
“You want a fight, you get it,” Pres said. “And this way HCH can feel like they got something up
on us. But they don’t.”
“Not even close.”
“What does that-”
The passenger back door opened.
It was Kip.
He climbed into the SUV and I saw blood.
I gasped.
“Kip…”
He showed me his hands. “Not mine, girl.”
“Clean yourself up, man,” Barr said. “You’re scaring Tinsley.”
“I’m not scared,” I said.
“It’s okay, girl. You were worried about me. That’s sweet of you.”
“Who did you fight?” I asked.
Kip turned and reached into the back of the SUV.
I could smell the sweat on his skin. Like the ocean water. Like the moisture in the air from the
ocean breeze.
My toes curled in my shoes.
They were all so much to handle. Especially at once.
“It wasn’t a fight,” Kip said. He sat back down and rubbed a black towel over his hands. “Just
had to keep things safe for you.”
“For me? Is someone after me?”
“Nobody is after you, sugar,” Pres said.
“Well, that’s a lie,” Barr said. He took a drag of his cigarette. “I’m after you, love.”
I looked at Kip. “You going to punch Barr to save me?”
“I’ll take him out to get to you, girl,” Kip said.
All three of them started to laugh.
I wasn’t laughing at all though.
It was all scary. And serious.
Kip clapped his hands together, scaring me. “How about that football game, huh?”
They kept laughing.
I looked out the window and saw nothing.
It was just darkness.
Darkness everywhere.
“I have to make a quick call,” Pres said. He gently touched my chin again. “You get some rest,
sugar. Sleep tight.”
He kissed my cheek.
I walked around the SUV and Kip threw his door open and hung out toward me.
“Hey, girl.”
“Hey, Kip,” I said.
“Want to kiss my boo boos?” he asked and made a fist, showing me his knuckles.
“No,” I said. “Those boo boos are your fault.”
“Damn. Then what do you want to kiss?”
“How about your apology to Iris for what you did to her?”
“You’re still worried about that?” Kip asked. “Damn, girl, you hold a grudge like you’ve lived
here all your life.” He turned his head and pointed to his cheek. “Plant one right here and I’ll think it
over later. When I’m in bed. Wishing you were there with me.”
I leaned in and kissed Kip’s cheek.
He shut the door and Barr opened his door.
It was like a fucking routine for them. Or something they all practiced when I wasn’t around.
Barr got out of the SUV and flicked a cigarette to the ground.
“I’ll walk you to your door, love,” he said.
“Really? It’s a gated driveway. Nobody is going to be here that I don’t want here.”
“Then it shouldn’t be a problem,” he said.
Barr started walking, leaving me no choice. As always.
I caught up to him and he put his arm around me.
He smelled like smoke.
And I was still really pissed at myself for liking it as much as I did.
When we got to the door, he pulled me close for a hug.
It was a little bit surprising to me.
So I hugged him back.
I rested my head to his chest.
“Something I want to show you, love,” he said.
“What? Or better yet… is this where you slip in something sexual?”
“No,” he said. He looked down at me and grinned. “Although…”
“Barr…”
“You have to come somewhere with me.”
“Right now?”
“Not tonight, love. I’ll let you know when.”
“You want me to go somewhere with you? Alone?”
“Just us,” he said.
“What about Pres and Kip? Won’t they get jealous.”
“Good point,” he said. “Maybe we can make it our filthy little secret together.”
“You’re not really that good of a friend then.”
“The word friend is used loosely in this town.”
“That much I can agree with,” I said.
Barr stroked my cheek with the back of his hand. “What do you think, love?”
“I think I’m tired. And annoyed. I’m going to go inside and be done with this.”
“You can text me,” Barr said. “You’re not going to want to say no.”
“Right,” I said.
I reached for the door and Barr swiped my hand. He brought it to his mouth and kissed the back of
my hand. Then he rubbed my fingertips in his hand.
“You ever play piano?”
“Me?” I asked. “No. Those kinds of things…”
“Maybe someday I can teach you,” he said.
“Okay. Sure thing, Barr.”
“Goodnight, love.”
“Goodnight,” I said.
I opened the door and tripped over my own two feet as I went inside.
That made Barr laugh.
I looked back to say something nasty to him but he was walking away. Lighting up another
cigarette.
I stood there and watched them.
Kip put his window down. Barr smoked. Pres stood a few feet away from the SUV on his phone.
I bit my bottom lip and slowly shut the door.
I was more than lost.
My entire plan screwed up.
But the plan was still there.
They may have been the hottest guys in BFH. They may have been the most feared. They may have
been horrible for what they wanted from me.
But I was the one with the truth.
The truth that would leave them looking stupid and weak.
seven
“W e need to talk.”
I opened my locker and saw what was waiting and quickly shut it.
Now I had no choice but to talk to Beth.
“What?” I asked her.
“Will you slap me?”
“What?”
“Like right across the face. As hard as you can.”
“I’m not slapping you, Beth,” I said.
“Fine. I’ll find someone who will.”
She moved fast and when I spotted Blair and Vicky I rolled my eyes.
Beth hurried right up to Vicky and pushed her.
“Shit,” I whispered.
Beth nodded and tried to push Vicky again.
Vicky wound up and smacked Beth right across her left cheek. She hit Beth hard, Beth fell against
the lockers. Grabbing her face, she turned and faced the lockers, slowly bending her legs.
Of course both Blair and Vicky looked at me.
Blair pointed at me and then offered up a perfectly manicured middle finger.
Vicky stared down at her hand, smiling.
I just stood there and let them pass by.
Beth slowly turned and came back to me.
“What the hell was that?” I asked her.
“My apology,” she whispered.
“For what?”
“For what I asked you to do,” she said. “I was caught up in the moment of everything. I deserved a
slap across the face.”
“Well if I knew that’s what it was for I would have slapped you,” I said.
“I have another cheek,” Beth said.
She moved her hand from her face and there was a pretty nice handprint on the left side of her
face.
“You’re crazy,” I said.
“Maybe,” she said. “But I was even crazier to ask you to do what I did.”
“I agree with that,” I said.
“In my head it made sense. Something quick and easy to get back at Denny.”
“I get it. He hurt you. And I’m sorry he did that. We can find another way to get back at him. I can
get a screwdriver and-”
“Or just put some of that super strong glue in his shampoo bottle,” Beth said.
“No way,” I said.
“Or tell everyone the truth about what he isn’t packing,” she said.
“Keep going.”
“Slash his tires. Invite him over for a little fun and then wait for him to drink himself to sleep and
do all kinds of things to him. Shave his head.”
“Or his eyebrows,” I said.
“Glue his hand to his-”
“You like the glue thing, huh?” I asked.
“I’m not going to do anything though,” Beth said. “Not my style. That’s why I asked you. You’re a
fucking badass, Ti. I’m nothing compared to you.”
“Don’t say that.”
“I have one trick. Period cramps. And it worked maybe three times.”
“My advice then is to forget about Denny,” I said. “Whatever he did to you he’ll do to someone
else.”
“Maybe some other bitch will cut his dick off.”
“Or maybe I could tell Kip he made a pass at me.”
“No,” Beth said.
“It wasn’t the worst idea. I mean, if I’m going to use them, use them as much as I can, right?”
“I’m not getting involved in that,” Beth said. She touched her cheek. “Fuck, this stings. That bitch
has a hard slap.”
“Go tell Jacobson what happened,” I said. “It’ll get you out of class.”
I opened my locker, forgetting what was in there.
My eyes went wide and Beth grabbed the locker door. “What is that?”
“Nothing.”
“That looks like a shoelace,” Beth said. “Is that from…”
“Yeah,” I said.
It was some kind of skimpy gross looking bikini. A top and bottom that was not a top and bottom
at all. Combine all the cloth together and it wouldn’t even cover one of my boobs. And that was
probably exactly what Barr wanted. Me to wear this stupid thing.
I slammed my locker closed, my cheeks red.
“Wow,” Beth said. “I think if you wore that, all three of them would… explode…”
“Gross,” I said. “Stop.” I pointed to Beth’s cheek. “Go get ice or something for that.”
“So you accept my apology then?”
“Yes,” I said. “You crazy bitch.”
Beth walked away and I refused to open my locker again.
I walked the hallway alone, feeling weirded out.
Of course the first turn I made, Barr was standing there.
“Hey, love,” he said.
“I’ll never wear that,” I said.
He grinned. “Hey. All I know is that I saw a pretty girl down on the beach fully clothed. Figured I
would get you something to wear. Beach attire.”
“That’s not beach attire. That’s… strip club attire.”
Barr looked up and rubbed his chin. “Well, now that you mention it…”
I threw a punch at his chest.
Rock. Fucking. Hard.
“I hate you,” I said to him. “Don’t make me cancel tonight.”
“Can’t cancel,” Barr said. “Things are already in place.”
“Watch me.”
Barr moved toward me. “No, love, you’re going to watch me.”
“Are we deaf today?” a voice called out.
It was Jacobson from down the hallway.
“No,” Barr called out without looking at him.
“Last I heard, all bells had rung,” Jacobson called out. “Miss Ditkiss, is there a problem here?”
“No,” I said. “Sorry.”
“Get moving,” Jacobson said.
Barr walked by me but paused. He leaned toward me. “See you later for our date… Tinsley
Ditkiss.”
He laughed.
My cheeks burned again.
Jacobson was still staring at me. Except he was shaking his head.
As though he knew I was already in way too much trouble to be saved.
But that was just the saga of my life.
B arr showed up in a sleek, long black car with the windows all blacked out. It was low to the
ground but not done in a custom way like guys used to do in my old town. When they’d buy a
piece of shit car and then try to customize it so much it looked stupid and sounded like someone was
passing gas as they drove by.
Not this car.
This car was made this way.
It was the darkest black I had ever seen. Yet it was so pristine and shiny. There wasn’t a logo or
name anywhere on it which made me assume it was probably worth more than anything I had ever
owned in my life added up together. Or ever would own for that matter.
Barr climbed out wearing a black buttoned down shirt with the top few buttons undone. Looking
killer handsome that it made me pause for a second. He helped himself to a cigarette as I walked
toward the car, casually inspecting it as though it wasn’t good enough for me to sit in.
In reality I was shaking on the inside.
He leaned against the car knowing it was a badass ride. You didn’t have to know a thing about
cars (hello, me) to know this was a cool vehicle.
“You look fucking amazing, love,” he said.
I snorted. “Yeah, right.”
Barr threw his right hand out and touched my side. “Hey. You do.”
“Barr. These are cheap, shit clothes that I brought with me from the shithole I grew up in. These
are dirty, poor girl clothes. I’m afraid to sit in your car.”
“Well, it all works on you, love,” he said.
He moved his hand to my face for a quick second before he opened the car door and reached
inside. He moved smooth and cool, his eyes never leaving my eyes.
I reminded myself I wasn’t the first girl he had ever taken out on a date. Or whatever this was. So
I needed to be ready for all the moves and tricks and whatever else he had in store.
That included handing me a single red rose.
A long, thorny stem with a beautiful red, velvet petal laced rose at the top.
Honestly, it was the prettiest flower I had ever seen in my life.
There was a smell to it too. Just so fresh. So perfect.
So Barr.
And not just Barr either.
All three of them.
They had ways of always surprising me, even with little things.
Barr dropped his cigarette and left it smoking on the ground.
He took my hand and walked me around to the other side of the car. Pretending to be a gentleman,
he opened the car door and helped me inside.
The seats were a black leather that were super big and super comfortable.
I sat there trying to keep my breathing in check.
Barr got into the car, revved the quiet yet deadly engine, and looked at me.
“Ready, love?” he asked.
“I’m sitting here, aren’t I?” I asked, trying to offer a snotty bitch tone.
That only made Barr smile even more.
He loved when I was mean.
He loved when I was nice.
When he put his foot to the pedal, the car took off.
And I mean… took off.
I grabbed for the door and the seat, my body pushed hard to the seat, almost making it hard to
breathe.
He sped down the driveway and I thought about shutting my eyes because there was no way in
hell he was going to make it through the gate opening without killing us. The car flew through the open
gates and Barr cut the wheel, turning right with smooth precision. Any other car would have fishtailed
and the tires would have squealed. Not this car. It was made for this kind of driving.
And once we got on the main road where it was nothing but straight road, he sped up even more.
“You okay over there, love?” Barr asked.
“Just fine,” I said. “You wanted to pick me up in an expensive car and show me you could drive
fast?”
“No. We have somewhere to go.”
“Where?” I asked.
Barr glanced at me. “That’s the fun part. You’ll see.”
I rolled my eyes.
Barr sped through town and then left town.
That’s when even more of my nerves started to act up.
BFH had become a sense of home to me. Even if it was temporary, it was still something. Anytime
I had to leave, it left me uneasy. Especially when I wasn’t in my own vehicle.
“I’m going to ask you something, love,” Barr said. “You’re going to hate me for it.”
“You really know how to charm a girl on a date, huh?” I asked.
“Not really a date when you already know the ending,” Barr said with a wink.
My cheeks warmed up.
Oh, really? You think you’re getting what you want tonight?
“What do you have to ask me, Barr?”
“How’s your mother?”
I turned my head and looked out the tinted window.
There was silence for a few seconds.
“See, I’m not afraid to ask questions, love. And keep asking questions. You know that though. So
you either tell me the truth or what you think I want to hear.”
I curled my lip.
“Why the hell do you care?” I asked. “You tried to hurt her worse than she already is.”
“Nah,” Barr said. “That was just me making sure we were on the same page.”
“Yeah? How about you just take me back home then. I don’t give a damn what you have to show
me.”
“You do,” Barr said. “I kind of hit home with the whole Mom thing, huh?”
I swallowed hard. “What is this? You want the truth? She’s a mess. She’s always been a mess.
And I have no idea what’s going to happen to her. The only reason I’m here is because me looking
safe makes it easier for her to deal with her own life.”
Barr nodded. He reached across the car to take my hand.
I wasn’t playing that game though.
I ripped my hand away.
“So I hit a nerve,” he said. “Rightfully so. It’s the same nerve to hit with me.”
“What?” I asked.
Barr looked forward, put both hands to the wheel, and smirked.
He sped up and then suddenly slowed.
He took a few random turns and we were then on some back street. Almost like an alley but
wider. There was a single light hanging above each door. It almost reminded me of some fantasy story
or whatever. Where you’d pick a door to another world or open a door to get a superpower.
Barr made one more right, and stopped.
“Here we are,” he said.
“What is this?”
“Are you afraid of dark alleyways, love?”
“Not even close,” I said. “This is like home to me.”
Barr laughed. “Ah, Tinsley… you’re making me love you. That’s dangerous.”
My eyes went wide as Barr opened the door and got out of the car.
I hurried to join him as he lit up another cigarette.
“You probably have a lot of questions,” he said. “We’ll get there. Now come with me.”
Barr put his hand out.
And this time I really had no choice but to take it.
nine
B
winked.
arr made a fist and pounded on one of the black doors. It was a heavy, metal door, looking
damp and rusted.
He flicked his cigarette as far down the alley as he could and then looked at me and
“T“See
here she is,” Iris said with a big grin. “Let’s see it.”
what?” I asked.
“Your V-card,” Iris said. “See if that hole got punched. Get it?”
“Is she really dumb or what?” I asked Gi. “Does she not get that it’s already been punched?”
“I’m not dumb, Ti,” Iris said. “But if you don’t use it, the hole closes back up.”
“What the fuck are you talking about?” I yelled at Iris.
Her eyes went wide and she stepped back.
A few people around us started looking.
Gi touched my arm. “Whoa. Are you okay?”
“No,” I said. “Last night… this place…”
“Eating you alive,” Iris said. “That happens when you get too involved.”
“Iris, just shut up for a second,” Gi said.
“Let me ask you something,” I said. “What do you know about Claire?”
“Claire?” Gi asked. “Not much. You probably know more. You live with her. And you’ve known
her since you were little. Right?”
“Not much about her from when I was little,” I said. “Other than her kicking us out. Which was my
mother’s fault. I’m just talking right now. Who she is. What she does.”
“Everyone knows what Claire does,” Iris said.
“Yeah,” I said. “Right.”
“Did something happen?” Gi asked.
“I don’t know. I’m freaking myself out. Claire got into an accident last night. That’s why my night
with Barr ended when it did. Which was a good thing.”
“You were totally going to screw him,” Iris said.
“I don’t know,” I said.
“Wow,” Gi said. “That would have made today really interesting.”
“It didn’t happen,” I growled.
“Hey, it’s okay,” Gi said, rubbing my arm. “I mean, I know what you’re trying to do here, Ti. What
you want the Rulz to feel. Make sure you protect yourself too though.”
“I am,” I said. “I just didn’t expect to see Claire like that. Maybe this sounds greedy but if
something goes wrong with Claire, I’m gone.”
“Aw, you don’t want to leave us,” Iris said. “You love us.”
She put her arms around me from behind and hugged me.
I gritted my teeth.
Gi started to smile.
“We love you so much, Ti-bug,” Iris said.
She started kissing my hair, hugging me tighter.
“Our little Ti-bug almost lost her cherry,” Iris teased.
I started to laugh. “Can I hurt her?” I asked Gi.
“Be my guest,” Gi said.
“Oh, come on, Ti-bug, don’t be like that,” Iris said.
Iris finally let me go and I turned to put my back against the locker.
“Maybe you’re right,” I said. “Maybe I secretly love it here. But I know I don’t belong here. That
I’m only here as a favor to my mother. So I never know when my last day will be.”
“That’s deep,” Gi said.
“Kind of what Barr could have been,” Iris said. “Deep.”
I looked at Iris. “Why don’t you just go and be with him then?”
“Maybe I already have,” Iris said.
“What?” I asked, jumping from the locker.
“She’s messing around,” Gi said.
“Am I though?” Iris asked.
The same sense of jealousy hit me as it did in Barr’s car when he told me about Richy’s
girlfriend. Which meant what? That I was actually starting to like Barr? That I had real feelings for
him?
No way, Ti. No way in hell…
“Ignore her,” Gi said. “She’ll say anything to get you pissed off.”
“Looks like it doesn’t take much,” Iris said. “My little Ti-bug.”
“Watch yourself, my little I-don’t-know-when-to-shut-my-fucking-mouth-so-I-got-my-jaw-
wired-shut-for-free…”
Iris grinned. “Nice.”
“You two are too much,” Gi said.
“No,” Iris said. “What’s too much is the way a certain someone is staring Ti down right now.
Don’t turn around too fast, you might get dizzy.”
I tried to do the casual turn your head thing to look, but whatever.
The Rulz were waiting for me.
“See you later,” I said to Gi and Iris.
“Want me to come with you?” Gi offered.
“Why? So you could pee yourself when they talk to you?” I asked.
“Cold,” Gi whispered.
“And that ain’t pee either,” Iris said.
“Ew, no way,” Gi said to Iris. “I’m not you.”
I had to walk away from them. I had no idea if Iris was just messing with me or if she really had
messed around with Barr or maybe even all three.
My eyes went right to Barr.
That honey gold stare that almost won me over last night.
Fucking jerk.
“How was your night, sugar?” Pres asked.
“Not bad,” I said. “Nothing quite like watching Barr getting his ass kicked.”
“I didn’t get my ass kicked,” Barr said. “Just a minor scuffle.”
“Because you slept with someone’s girlfriend,” I blurted out.
They all laughed.
“Well, damn,” Kip said, “I think we’re all guilty as charged there.”
Anger attacked my gut.
I felt sick.
I missed home. My real home. Not my fake home.
Dammit… I was starting to miss Mom.
It was almost easier to live with her drug problem than live with the Rulz.
“Glad you made it here safe, love,” Barr said.
“Why wouldn’t I make it here safe?” I asked.
“Figured you would have been up all night dreaming about what could have been,” he said.
“Or maybe celebrating an avoided mistake,” I said.
Barr laughed.
It was like nothing could get to him.
For a second I thought about telling Pres and Kip about Barr’s secret place to play piano. But
would that really matter?
No.
Not to them.
“Maybe soon we can finish what we started,” Barr said. “Take you out for another night.”
“I’ll check my schedule,” I said.
“You better get to class, sugar,” Pres said. “Hate to see you late and in trouble.”
“Yeah, right,” I said.
“No, I mean it,” Pres said. “Staying out late with Barr. Getting too close to fights. Sipping a little
too much on the beach. Getting extra attitude with us today. You’re changing right before our eyes,
Tinsley Ditkiss.”
“Is that a problem?” I asked.
Pres touched my chin. “Never. Change is good. But what doesn’t change is what I want.”
Pres pushed from the wall and walked away.
Barr followed him, looking at me, winking with that cocky grin that made me angry in my mind
and turned me on somewhere else.
When Kip walked by, he leaned down toward me.
His bright blue eyes and bad boy smile made me feel safe and excited. Which wasn’t the truth at
all.
“My turn, girl,” he whispered.
“What?”
Kip brushed his lips to my cheek and laughed.
He walked away, casually looking back a few times.
His turn?
For what?
To try and close the deal with me?
I laughed as the hallway emptied for good.
Then I started to jog to get to class on time.
They could keep pushing at me all they wanted.
But each time they spoke I got a little more truth.
And soon enough, my truth would out do anything they had to offer.
eleven
bleachers
super important
don’t tell anyone else
please
i trust you with this
T hat was the note left in my locker after class one day.
Iris.
I…?
Then it hit me.
Which was weird. Iris and I had never had a private conversation. Or even a really serious
conversation. Sure there were times when things teetered on being serious or whatever, but it wasn’t
like we were trading off our deepest and darkest fears.
We weren’t best friends. I wasn’t even sure if we were regular friends.
She was close with Gi and I was a friend of Gi’s.
I looked around the hallway after I read the letter.
Maybe something was going on with Gi and Iris didn’t know what to do. Or maybe there really
was something important with Iris and she felt safe with me? Maybe because I was the new girl or the
temporary girl or whatever my title actually was in the social world of BFH.
“Another present?”
I shut my locker and tucked the note into my pocket.
“Hey, Beth,” I said. “No presents today.”
“No thongs or dirty toys?” she asked.
“Hardly,” I said. “What’s up with you?”
“Nothing. What are you doing after class today?”
“I, uh, I don’t know,” I said. “I mean, I’m meeting up with someone.”
“Someone? Does this someone have a name?”
“Not what you think,” I said. “But, hey, I know it’s not my business, but what is the deal with you
and Gi and Iris?”
Beth’s face dropped. “Look, Ti, I would never put you in position to choose your friends. That’s
not me. But I’ll never be friends with those two ever again.”
Ever again?
“I was just…”
“No offense, but you were right when you said it’s not your business. Because it isn’t.”
“Okay,” I said. “Sorry I asked. I will never bring it up again.”
“Yes, you will,” Beth said. “I don’t blame you. Someday you’ll get the story. And then I’ll tell you
the truth.”
She winked and turned on her heels and took off.
I gave a quick wave and my eyes went right for the door.
I touched my pocket, feeling the note.
Iris wants to talk to me?
It was way too weird to not go to the bleachers and figure out what this was.
Even if she was playing some stupid joke on me just to be a bigger bitch than she already was.
Because if that was the case, I could do a little note slipping of my own into her locker.
I walked alone to the bleachers, keeping my eyes out for Gi.
The note said nothing about Gi so I didn’t want to run into her and screw up whatever Iris wanted.
Which made me wonder if it was Gi’s birthday soon or something.
And Iris wanted to plan a party.
All that did though was make my stomach flip and my heart hurt.
I didn’t know their birthdays. They didn’t know mine.
But I knew Ruby’s.
September 17th.
I knew Amelia’s.
March 3rd.
And I even remembered Devin’s (of course)… December 27th.
Those were locked in my memory probably forever.
Yet my new best friends… I had no clue when their birthdays were.
I climbed the bleachers feeling sad and alone.
I sat about halfway up and looked around at the perfectly manicured football field. There were
two guys throwing a ball in the one end zone. I didn’t recognize them. I hadn’t heard much from the
fallout over the HCH vs BFH football game turned fight. In fact, things were really quiet about HCH
lately. I wasn’t sure if that was normal or not.
I chewed on my lip until it hurt.
I chewed on my fingernails but that was boring.
I scrolled through my phone.
I felt like texting Iris just to see where she was.
As my thumb moved over her name, I heard a thud and looked down.
I stood up.
I touched the note in my pocket.
“Hey, you showed up…”
I swallowed hard.
It wasn’t Iris who wanted me to meet her at the bleachers.
I pulled the note out of my pocket as Kip walked up the bleachers toward me.
My heart raced and sank at the same time. That made my stomach tingle. Not butterflies. Not
fear. Not worry. But a feeling.
It was the way Kip always looked at me.
The bright color of his blue eyes and the way he always casually smirked at me. Like he knew
something about me. Or he was just that confident about me and him together. Like he wasn’t worried
for a second about Pres or Barr.
That made him hotter.
It also helped that he wore sleeveless shirts and his arms were tanned and toned. Everything about
him screamed surfer boy and maybe that was wrong just to assume something about Kip like that
considering I had never seen him surf. In fact the only time I saw him in the ocean was the night of
their party and when he carried me into the water.
“What is this?” I asked, waving the note. “I thought something was wrong. I thought it was
serious.”
“Whoa, calm down, girl,” Kip said. “It is serious. And there is something wrong.”
“You really wrote this?”
“Typed it up, yes,” Kip said.
“What is the i for then?” I asked.
Kip was one row down from me. He was eye level with me.
Damn his eyes.
Damn his smile.
The world of Pres and Barr was dark and scary.
Kip’s was bright and freeing.
That made him worse because I knew Kip had a dark side too. I had seen him in the ditch. I had
seen what he was capable of doing.
Which meant more than with the others I couldn’t fall for the look of the pretty boy surfer.
“Oh, that,” Kip said. “The i was for… I. As in me. Me being Kip.”
“What?” I yelled.
“Or… I fucked up,” Kip said. “Got a pen?”
I stupidly dug through my bag for a pen.
Kip took the pen and the note and plopped down on the bleachers.
He put a K in front of the i and then a p after it.
“There,” he said. “It’s fixed now.”
He looked up at me with that smirk.
I ripped the note out of his hand. Now the note said it was from Kip.
“So funny,” I said. “You set me up. You tricked me to be here.”
“And here you are, girl,” he said. “Here I am too.”
“Like fate, huh?”
“I love fate,” Kip said. He stood back up and stepped up to my level, now taller than me. “I
fucking love fate.”
“So what’s so super important you needed me here?” I asked. “Or what’s so serious? What’s
wrong with you?”
Kip started to walk up the bleachers. “Come for a walk.”
I turned my head and saw how tall the bleachers went.
Fun fact - I hated heights.
And that meant knee shaking, sweating, thinking the worst thoughts ever kind of fear. Now, on a
set of bleachers all I could picture was the bleachers falling. Some kind of freak accident, collapsing
to the ground in a wreck of twisted, deadly metal. Dying that kind of death at BFH.
Kip paused and looked back at me. “I’ll just start talking. Whether you’re here or not.”
I slowly shook my head.
Jerk off. Moron.
I climbed the bleachers, slowly, but at least I was doing it.
Kip went right to the top.
Of course he did.
He turned and leaned against the railing.
It made my body tingle with panic for him.
Now, these weren’t normal bleachers. This place - the field and bleachers - could probably
withstand a hurricane, tornado, earthquake, or whatever else Mother Nature could muster up and
throw at it.
Even still, these reminded me of cheap bleachers that made that echoing ping sound when you
walked on them.
I climbed to one level lower than Kip and folded my arms.
“Now what?” I asked. “You going to jump.”
“If it gets me alone with you, I would.”
“What?”
“You and me, girl. I can’t have Barr walking around bragging about taking you out. It’s driving me
crazy.”
“Jealous?” I asked.
Kip stepped down and put his fingertips to my arms like he had done before. My skin tightened
and broke out in goosebumps.
He lowered his mouth toward mine but stopped with a few inches to spare.
“One thousand percent fucking jealous, girl,” Kip whispered.
He brushed his lips to mine and then slowly sat down. Still reaching for my arms, fingertips
moving up and down.
My lips ached for more.
My mind raced as fast as my heart.
I’m this girl now? Freely kissing them whenever I want? Making out with Barr in his car.
Kissing Kip on the bleachers. Wonder what I’ll end up doing with Pres then…
Kip moved his fingers to my hands and curled his fingers around mine and pulled me toward him.
It was in such a hot and commanding position.
Holding hands.
Me towering over him.
His legs open.
Knowing that in one quick move I could be straddling him right there on the bleachers.
I was on fire.
Maybe worse than with Barr.
Which made me want to feel wrong about it but I didn’t.
Nothing really made me feel wrong anymore.
Not since coming to BFH. Not since getting involved with the Rulz.
Kip slid his hands from mine and put his elbows on the seats above him and leaned back.
“Why don’t you sit somewhere, girl?” he asked. “So we can chat.”
He wanted me to do what was going through my head.
Instead, I sat down right where I was.
Keeping my legs closed super tight, my elbows on my knees, casually trying to bite my bottom lip
because everything inside me was going crazy.
“I don’t really give a shit about you and Barr hanging,” Kip said. “There’s no beef there with us.
Just know that. No jealousy within our group. We don’t roll like that.”
“Okay,” I said.
“But that still doesn’t take away the fact of what I want.”
“Which is what?”
Kip pushed from the bleachers and leaned toward me. He put his hands to my legs.
“You, girl. I want you.”
“Want… me…?”
“Have something to show you,” he said.
“Oh?”
“See, I could lie to you right now. I could tell you something sweet. Like what you think you know
about me… about us… that you’re wrong. That it’s not what you see or what you think. That it’s all
different. Okay?”
I nodded. “Okay… but that’s a lie.”
“Exactly. Because what you see is the truth. The fucking truth, girl.”
“And that doesn’t scare me as much as you think it does,” I said.
Kip booped his pointer finger on my nose. “Now look who’s the one lying.”
I pulled back. “I’m not lying.”
“Right. Convince yourself of that. So here’s the deal. I want to show you something. Take you
somewhere. Just you and me, girl.”
“So you want to take me out on a date too?”
“Not a date,” Kip said. “I don’t date.”
“You don’t date?” I asked, laughing. “Then what do you do?”
Kip leaned closer to me again. “I like to surf and I like to fuck.”
Before I could come up with anything that resembled a response to that, Kip kissed me.
His lips tasted so fucking good.
I shut my eyes and begged my heart to tell my mind and my body to pull away.
But I didn’t pull away.
I grabbed Kip’s shirt – wanting more.
H is hands touched my sides, his thumbs pressing hard just under my breasts, over my shirt. My
back was so straight and stiff that it started to hurt. And the sound of our lips and tongues
enjoying themselves was almost too much for me to handle. I felt ready to explode. Or pass out.
Now there would be an embarrassing story to spread around BFH.
The dirty, poor girl makes out with Kip and passes out.
I kissed Kip so aggressively. In a way I had never kissed someone before.
I had no idea what was going through my mind.
His hands moved up over my chest and I broke the kiss, sighing, putting my head back. His hands
kept going though, up to my neck. He was strong and gentle at the same time. His thumbs touched my
bottom lip and he forced me to look at him.
There was something about the look in his eyes.
It was…
It was like he was in love with me.
The thought hit me hard and made me lose my breath for a second.
There was no way Kip loved me. He probably didn’t even really like me. I was a goal to him.
That was it. Just like with Barr. And just like with Pres.
But his eyes…
He just stared.
Almost like he was confused.
“Kip…”
“There’s a reason I brought you all the way to the top. I know you’re afraid of heights.”
“Who said I was afraid of heights?” I asked.
“I can read it on your face, girl. Stand up and hold my hand. It’s worth it.”
Kip stood up and offered his hand to me.
I took his hand and moved to my feet.
I took a shaky step or two to get to the top of the bleachers to stand next to him.
My right hand clamped down on the railing really hard.
Kip put my left hand to the railing. He put his right hand to my waist, holding tight.
Protective.
“Just look out there,” he whispered. “Look at the view.”
My eyes focused as I stared forward.
And, fine, I had to give it to Kip.
The view was… wow.
That was the only word.
Being so high up in the air, I could see over everything and see right to the ocean.
I couldn’t see the beach or the waves, but I could see the long horizon that was a dark bluish
color. Where the land met the water.
“Wow,” I whispered, still reduced to just one word to describe what I was looking at.
“That’s my reaction when I see you, girl,” Kip said.
I turned my head. I pretend to choke. “Now that’s cheap. Sweet. Weak.”
“And it works,” he said. He reached for my cheek and acted as though he was moving a piece of
hair out of my face. “Always works.”
“Okay, Kip,” I said. “You lured me here. We’re alone. You showed me what you wanted to. Now
what?”
“First off, lured you?” he asked. “That makes me sound bad.”
“Your point?” I asked with a wink.
He laughed.
“Second, that’s not what I wanted to show you. What I have in mind is much… different. It’s
perfect. Big. Long. And whether you believe it or not, it’s something I don’t share with many chicks.”
Chicks. How fucking cliché.
Yet his words were burning me up inside.
I felt my cheeks turning red.
“Now… this was just to say hey,” Kip whispered. “See if you would listen to me. And you did.”
“You tricked me.”
“It worked. What’s the difference?”
“There’s a big difference, Kip.”
“Then you can tell me about it. When I steal you tomorrow. Late afternoon. Meet me at the end of
your driveway.”
“Are you asking?”
“Fuck no, girl,” Kip said. “I don’t ask. I do. I take. I get. I enjoy.”
Kip stepped back and down a step. Then another. Then another.
“Hey, be careful,” I said, worried he was going to fall.
“See?” he asked with a grin. “Shows how much you care.”
“No,” I said. “I hope you fall. I hope you smash your head and forget who you are. I hope you
break your neck!”
“Lies, girl,” Kip said.
He turned and trotted down the bleachers, leaving me up there alone.
When I looked out to the ocean again, my knees started to shake and hit together.
I hated heights.
I hated being alone at such a height.
And I hated that I missed Kip being next to me.
There was just something about the way he looked at me…
I t was embarrassing how long it took me to walk down the bleachers. And it also included me
texting Gi so I had some kind of distraction. Or at least the knowledge that someone knew where I
was in case I fell and hurt myself.
I didn’t fall.
I didn’t hurt myself.
And that was with Gi responding.
I gave her the quick story of why I was alone on the bleachers and she text me back an eggplant
emoji. Which was well known for representing a certain part of a guy. For a second, I felt jealousy,
wondering if Gi – or Iris – had seen Kip’s… eggplant.
I told myself not to ask a question where the answer would hurt me.
See, Ti, you can do this without self-destruction. Good job!
I walked out of the stadium and toward my SUV only to find it being blocked by another SUV.
I stopped and put my head back, laughing.
“Here we go again,” I whispered as I watched the window roll down.
Pres looked at me and pulled the same sunglasses down the same nose.
I stood there, defiant, curling my lip, not impressed.
He slowly drove forward to show me that someone was in my SUV.
I started to run only to realize it was Barr.
He climbed out of the driver’s seat and shut the door.
He was smoking which meant my SUV would stink like cigarette smoke.
“Jerk,” I called to him.
“Beautiful,” he said back. He dropped the cigarette and walked toward Pres’s SUV.
“What did you do?” I called out.
“Nothing,” he said, without looking back.
He was big, tough, sexy, burly… dammit.
I had Barr and Kip in my head fighting each other.
Honey gold eyes versus bright blue eyes.
And then to make it worse, there was Pres, staring at me through the side mirror of the SUV.
His dark, cold and evil eyes just pushing at me.
He half grinned when Barr got into the SUV.
Then he sped off.
I ripped open the door to my SUV and there was a rose waiting for me on the seat.
Except all the petals had been ripped off and scattered along the seat and the floor.
What did that mean?
Beauty destroyed? Untouched being ripped apart?
I reached for the rose and pricked my finger.
“Fuck,” I growled.
I swiped the rose to the ground, along with any of the petals I could grab.
I got into the driver’s seat and took a deep breath.
This game was getting more and more intense by the minute.
But that was okay.
I still had the biggest surprise of them all just waiting to be revealed.
twelve
T here was something to be said when the Rulz were the ones waiting for you.
And I didn’t need anyone to tell me how amazing it was. I could sense it on everyone’s
face and I could feel the whatever in the air as I approached them outside BFH.
Barr was finishing his cigarette while Pres leaned against a railing with his arms crossed.
Kip stood forward a couple feet, staring at me as though he had already won their little fucking
bet.
The reminder of that bet took my mood and flushed it down an old, stained toilet.
Which was probably a good thing.
I needed the reminder on a daily basis now.
“You broke my heart, love,” Barr said as he dropped the cigarette. And for maybe the first time
ever, he stepped on the cigarette. “The fire is out.”
“Just like that, huh?” I asked. “No more fight in you?”
Barr slowly grinned. “You know me. Damn, love, you really know me.”
My eyes moved to Pres. Wearing the same sunglasses, like he did the last couple times I saw him.
He just started wearing them too. I had no idea what that meant.
“And you’re so silent,” I said to Pres.
“Thinking, sugar,” he said.
“About what?”
“Moments,” he said. “Just collecting them. Sorting them out.”
“Wow, the badass is tamed,” I said with a laugh.
That was the wrong thing to say.
Pres pushed from the railing and took off his sunglasses. A look in his eyes almost flashed at me
and then he was on the move. He stood at the top of the steps, blocking the way for some guy who had
his head down.
Shit.
The guy walked right into Pres.
“Bad move, Cade,” Kip said.
The guy – Cade – looked up at Pres. “Fuck.”
“Fuck is right,” Pres said.
He grabbed Cade by the shirt and lifted him. He turned and walked Cade to the railing and threw
him against it.
Cade dropped down to one knee and put his hand up. “I’m sorry, Pres. I was checking something.”
“Give me the phone,” Barr ordered.
“Seriously?” I asked.
Pres glanced at me and curled his lip.
“Give him the fucking phone,” Kip growled.
Cade reluctantly held his phone out.
Kip kicked Cade’s wrist so the phone fell to the ground.
Barr stepped forward and slammed his heel down on the screen.
“Oh, shit,” Barr said. “I wasn’t paying attention. Look what I’ve done now.” Barr lifted his foot
and slammed it down again. “Oh, I did it again…”
Barr did it three more time before kicking the phone off the steps into the bushes.
“That’s supposed to impress me?” I asked Pres.
Pres closed in on me, putting his body right against mine, but he didn’t touch me. His hands stayed
away.
“He’s friends with Jacob,” Pres whispered. “And I think you know what Jacob did. So I’m going
to just assume he played a role in that night. And if he did, then we’re taking care of a problem. If he
didn’t, then we’re sending a clear message.”
Pres walked toward Cade.
I wasn’t sure how to feel.
But I guess my feelings didn’t mean a thing.
Kip wound up and came down with a hard right fist to Cade’s face.
Cade curled right up and rolled under the railing but not off the steps.
The Rulz then set their sights on me as a bell rang.
Pres grabbed Barr’s shirt and tugged and they walked away first.
Kip touched my cheek with the knuckles that had just smashed against Cade’s face.
He leaned down toward me and kissed my cheek. “I’ll see you later, girl. Can’t wait for it.”
Kip went to tag along with Pres and Barr.
I glanced to my right and saw Cade reaching for the railing. His cheek was bright red and
swollen. He looked at me but hurried to turn his head and cover his face.
“What was that about?” Gi asked from my left side.
I hadn’t even seen her show up.
“Hey,” I said.
“Hey to you,” Iris said. “Cade got his ass kicked, huh?”
“He bumped into Pres,” I said.
“Typical,” Gi said.
“Forget Cade,” Iris said. “I want to talk about Kip hitting his lips to your cheek.”
“What about it?” I asked.
Gi motioned toward the door to BFH and we started to walk.
“Nothing to talk about,” I said.
“Bullshit,” Iris said.
“He’s picking you up today, right?” Gi asked.
My stomach did a backflip. I sort of hated that I panicked on the bleachers and ended up texting Gi
everything about Kip. So she knew what happened with the note, the bleachers, that Kip wanted to
take me somewhere…
“You’re going to fall hard for those blue eyes,” Iris said. “I can sense it on you.”
“Shut up,” I said. “I’m not falling for anything.”
“He’ll probably want to show off his surf moves,” Gi said.
“Then his bedroom moves,” Iris added.
“Have you been there before too?” I snapped at Iris.
Iris hurried to cut me off and grinned. “What if I said yes?”
I stared. I kept the jealousy under control.
I shrugged my shoulders. “Whatever.”
“Yeah, whatever,” Iris said.
“Okay, I have to ask something,” Gi said.
“Ask away,” I said.
“What’s the plan?”
“The plan?” I asked. “I don’t know. Kip said he’s-”
“No, not with Kip,” Gi said. “With you, Ti. I get what you’re thinking here. Going out with them.
Thinking you’re messing with them. But they don’t get jealous. You see that, right?”
“Yeah, I see it,” I said.
“Okay… so what happens after you go out with all three? Then what? Just repeat the cycle over
and over? How long do you think this could last?”
“I don’t know,” I said.
“I think Gi is right,” Iris said. “I mean that too. Seriously. I figure it this way… you either give it
up to one of them or they leave you be. But if they do that, they’ll ruin your reputation.”
“And what reputation is that?” I asked. “I’m just here for a little bit.”
“Are you though?” Gi asked.
“Yeah,” I said. “When my mother…”
I actually thought about that sentence before the rest of it came out.
“Face it, Ti, you’re settled here,” Gi said. “You like it here. You like everything that Claire has
given to you and can keep giving you.”
I shook my head. “No. That’s wrong. Because with one breath, I’m gone. And I’m not entitled to
anything. Claire isn’t family. So nothing changes.”
“Meaning what?” Iris asked. “You’re going to do what to the Rulz? Make them look stupid for
following you around for nothing?”
“Where is this coming from?” I asked. “I thought this was okay.”
“Beth told you it was okay,” Gi said. “You really want to follow her lead?”
“There is no lead to follow,” I said. “I know what I’m doing. Those three assholes are used to
getting anything they want. No matter what. I have something they want that they literally can’t have
or get. There’s no undoing it. And they can’t hurt me. I’m poor. My mother is a mess. My entire life
and world is a mix of lies and broken memories.”
Another bell rang.
We were all officially late.
Which was the norm.
I really didn’t care.
“We sort of like you here,” Gi said. “You fit. This works. I kind of don’t want you to leave.”
“Shit,” I whispered.
I looked at Iris.
“Don’t look at me,” Iris said. “I’ll pack your bags for you. Well, bag… clothes in a shopping bag,
right?”
I threw Iris the middle finger.
“Just think about it,” Gi said. “What you’re doing here.”
We all split up to go to class.
That kind of stuff was the last thing I wanted on my mind.
Making friends.
Making best friends.
Thinking about what would happen if I stayed in BFH. Thinking about what would happen if I left
BFH. And the harsh reality of what life would be like when Mom got out of rehab. She would need to
finish first. And then…
I shut my eyes.
There were too many unknowns to deal with.
I preferred to stick with what I knew.
Kip wanted to take me somewhere private.
And I wasn’t going to turn down the chance to spend time with a blue eyed surfer boy with a crazy
bad attitude, who looked at me the way he did.
I just needed to keep my heart protected.
T here was now a strange feeling that went through me when I went home. Home of course was
still Claire’s house. But it got exhausting to call it that in my head. And truthfully if I didn’t call
Claire’s house home then I would be homeless. And I really didn’t want to be the poor, dirty girl with
the junkie mother who was now also homeless.
I had no idea how to approach Claire. Or deal with her.
She lied to me.
And it wasn’t some little lie either.
It was a big lie.
She lied about a car accident.
She told me she was in a car accident.
Her face looked like she was in a car accident.
But her car had been untouched… until the next morning…
So I tiptoed through the house only to find Claire in the kitchen.
Sitting with a large cup of coffee in front of her, along with two laptops and a tablet.
She looked at me and smiled. “Hey there.”
“Sorry,” I said. “Am I interrupting?”
“No,” she said. “Just finished a conference call. Bullshit developers. They think me being a
woman means I lost my cock and I’m forever trying to find it and lack the same brain power as they
do.”
My eyes went wide. “Wow.”
“Yeah,” Claire said. “Come here. Look at something with me quick.”
I approached Claire slowly.
Her face was still roughed up but much better than that first initial shock of seeing the cuts and
bruises. Of course she had the help of makeup.
“Sylvester pointed me to this,” Claire said. “But there are no favors in life.”
“What about me?”
“What about you?”
“This is a favor,” I said. “Me being here.”
“No,” Claire said. “It’s my responsibility. I owe you.”
For what, Claire? For what…
Claire pointed to the screen again. “So this building needs to be knocked down. Then we can
build on it. I asked Sylvester why he wasn’t interested and he said he had taken on enough for the
year. I looked into it. It’s bullshit. He wants to dump this on me. Why? Because there’s background
noise to it and he promised someone he’d help. So if I take this, it would get held up and just sit there,
draining me little by little.”
I really didn’t know what Claire was talking about.
I nodded anyway.
“Sorry about that,” I said.
“I’m not. That’s how they all are. Parents to kids. Father to son.”
My heart raced a little.
Was she talking about Barr?
“That’s why you have to know who you’re talking to, Tinsley,” Claire said. “No matter what it is
in life.”
“Makes sense,” I said. “Hey, did you get your car fixed yet?”
Claire laughed. “Fixed?”
“From the accident…”
“Oh, I’m not getting that fixed,” Claire said. “I just ordered a new one. No big deal.”
She shut the laptops and the tablet and stood up.
My mother had never owned a new vehicle in her entire life. Everything was always one piece of
shit car to another. If we didn’t break down on the side of the road at least once a month something
was very wrong in life.
Claire must have picked up on my shock.
She started to laugh. “It’s okay, Tinsley. Sometimes it can be a lot to understand.”
“I’m just not used to it,” I said. “Any of this actually. I still wake up in bed and look around
thinking it has to be a mistake.”
“Enjoy it,” Claire said. “I still stand by what I told you the first day you were here.”
“And I still thank you for having me here,” I said.
“No need for that.”
Claire left the kitchen.
I went upstairs to get changed.
And I paced my room.
My eyes looking to my phone.
A sense of logic told me to text Kip and tell him I wasn’t going anywhere. It was easy to lie.
Especially through texts.
I couldn’t bring myself to do it, though.
And then my screen lit up with a text from Kip.
Outside girl
I swallowed hard.
Too late to back out now.
e was dreamy.
E verything Gi and Iris said ran through my head as I stood on the beach.
I wiped my eyes, feeling worse than I did before.
The ocean could soothe the most achy soul or it could just add to it.
The same soft sound of the waves that proved things come and go was the same sound that
reminded you everything just kept changing and would keep changing.
I knew Kip would follow me.
He was my ride out of here anyway.
So if I could just take my tears with me and control myself, I’d be fine.
Of course, Kip being Kip, when he came after me, he turned me to face him and put his hands to
my cheeks.
His blue eyes made me want to cry even more.
And that was just fucking weird. And sad. And it made me want to go back to where I came from.
Fix things with Ruby and Amelia. Go back to being poor.
Then Kip kissed me.
A soft kiss.
For a second.
He kissed me harder, deeper, offering the same promises his eyes did. All of which would be
broken the second he touched me and took me.
I was ready.
Right there on the beach.
End the Rulz and their bullshit game once and for all.
And turn my stupid tears into laughter before I bailed on BFH.
There were too many racing thoughts as Kip kissed me.
It was impossible to make anything make any kind of sense.
His thumbs stroked a few tears and that was that.
There were no more tears.
My emotions were focused somewhere else.
My fingertips against the bare skin of his chest. Feeling the hardness of muscle. And the subtle
curves as muscle touched more muscle. All the way down to the top of his board shorts.
Kip pulled my hands from where they were going and moved them to his back.
He pulled my body against his and kissed deeper.
I felt something splash against my face and thought it was more tears.
But that wasn’t possible.
I wasn’t crying.
No fucking way.
Kip broke the kiss and looked up. “Oh shit…”
I looked up.
Water hit my face again.
And again.
It was starting to rain.
Well… it went from starting to rain to pouring rain in five seconds.
I darted from Kip to get my hoodie from the sand.
He took off the other way to get the towels from the little cove.
The rain poured so hard, I started to yell as I ran toward Kip’s ride.
I jumped into the passenger seat and tried to hide myself as though the rain was going to burn my
skin.
Kip strolled up the beach, getting soaked, looking right at me as he walked.
When he got into the driver’s seat, he opened one of the towels to reveal the second one, which
was dry.
“Here, girl,” he said. “For you.”
“Thanks, Kip,” I said.
I wrapped the towel around my body and hugged my knees.
The rain came down fast but came down in a straight line.
It was actually kind of pretty.
In a sad way, I guess.
Kip leaned toward me and nudged his chin to my shoulder.
I looked back.
Those blue eyes were right there in my face.
“I don’t know what you think about yourself, girl, but you’re pretty damn special to me.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
“And you’ve never brought anyone here before?”
“I didn’t say that.”
“So this is your spot, Kip. You take a girl up here and make your moves and then…”
“And then,” he said with a grin. His eyes looked to the backseat and then to me.
I moved my eyes to the backseat and then back to Kip.
He leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine.
I started to open the towel.
In the backseat of his ride… in the rain… next to the beach…
A big crack of thunder shook the ground and I jumped.
The rain then suddenly started to go sideways, coming right through Kip’s ride. And there was no
stopping it because there were no doors.
A flash of lightning climbed across the sky a second before a bigger crack of thunder sounded.
“Fuck,” Kip said. “We have to get out of here.”
“I guess so,” I whispered.
I licked my lips and tasted rain and Kip.
He started his ride and took off, leaving me grabbing for the metal bars again.
He drove fast through the storm, the rain and wind and thunder and lightning doing whatever the
hell it wanted to do.
Honestly, it was fucking scary. And fucking dangerous.
But at one point, I looked at Kip and started to laugh.
“What’s so funny?” he growled at me.
“This,” I said. “Your ride is getting soaked. I’m getting soaked.”
“Laugh it up, girl,” Kip said.
And I did.
All the way back to Claire’s.
When Kip stopped, I jumped out of his ride. I tossed the towel to the seat and grabbed my hoodie.
“This isn’t over, girl,” Kip said as the rain continued to pound down.
“No?” I called out.
“Not even fucking close.”
He didn’t smile.
He didn’t laugh.
And his blue eyes were still blue but a different kind of blue.
Which was impossible but still…
Kip sped away, his tires skidding on the wet pavement of the driveway.
I stood there long after he was gone, getting wetter by the second.
Thunder rumbling overhead.
Thunder rumbling in my heart.
I could have been looking for my clothes in Kip’s backseat by then.
I grinned and turned, walking toward the house.
Toward home.
Maybe I could find a way to stay in Bay Falls High for as long as I wanted.
fourteen
A s I sat up in bed, freshly awake, I thought about everything my life used to be. It was like
the sudden and giant rush of thoughts and memories that hit me all at once. I thought about
Ruby, I missed her. I told myself I would reach out to her - or at least try to - but I know I
probably wouldn’t. Not after what happened the last time I tried. She and Amelia made it very clear
that I was no longer welcome there.
But the years of memories just kind of sat there in my head.
Like, what was I supposed to do with them? Those memories were my life.
Just like the memories with my mother.
We had a game called fast monster.
You’d think being a kid hearing the word monster would scare me… and believe me, it did… but
I had gotten used to it because Mom knew how to take care of the monster. It was sad to think that in
some ways she was kind of a hero to me for always making the monster go away. The reality though
was that she was the monster.
No matter what I was doing in the apartment, if Mom said the words fast monster, I had to run. If
I was playing with toys in the living room, I had to run. If I was eating cold, crooked chicken nuggets
on a flimsy paper plate, I had to run. There was one time I was in the bath, making a white beard with
bubbles, and Mom opened the door and said the words.
That meant I had to grab a towel and run.
And by running, I had to go to my room and get under my bed.
All the way under my bed.
I wasn’t allowed to move. I wasn’t allowed to talk. I wasn’t allowed to make any noise at all.
Since it was so crammed under my bed, I would try to close my eyes and think about happy things.
I would write my Christmas list, knowing not a single thing on that list would show up from Santa. In
fact, the only time Santa actually brought me decent presents was when we lived in the apartment that
Claire owned. I always assumed Claire must have had a connection to Santa, but it was obvious when
I got older that she was the one helping to preserve something that looked like my innocence.
But that was the game.
Fast monster.
And the monster was always the person bringing Mom the stuff she needed. I was always told to
hide because if something went wrong, Mom could get hurt. Or I could get hurt.
All those memories just floated around in my head as I sat in the biggest bed I had ever seen in my
life. In the biggest house I had ever been in. Living for free. Eating for free. Driving a really
expensive vehicle. And there was no reason I couldn’t stay as long as I wanted to stay.
As if I needed more convincing I threw the covers off my body and walked to the window. The
view right from the window… the ocean…
“Damn,” I whispered.
Movement caught my attention and I leaned forward and looked down.
The pool water was crystal clear.
But that wasn’t what I was looking at.
It was Claire.
Standing next to the pool in a black work dress. Her hair pulled back tight. Looking devilish and
beautiful. I bit my lip, wishing she was my real mother.
She was on her cellphone, her left hand animated as she gave orders.
I loved her attitude. And her style. She held herself on her own and built herself a little empire.
Claire pulled the cellphone from her ear and shook it in the air.
Just like that the call was over.
But Claire wasn’t done though.
She started talking to someone.
I couldn’t see who the person was though.
She looked really irritated too.
Pointing. Yelling.
And then walking away.
“Rough morning,” I said to myself.
With Claire gone, the mystery person stepped forward toward the pool.
It was a man.
With his hands in his pockets.
Staring down at the water.
He took his right hand from his pocket and ran his hand through his hair.
When he turned his head and I saw the side of his face, I let out a gasp.
It was the man from the car…
I stared intently, trying to figure out who the man was. He didn’t look familiar to me at all though.
I couldn’t put him anywhere in my mind or memory.
The man looked left to right, then he started to nod.
Then he turned around and looked up.
Right at me.
Our eyes met.
I jumped back.
“F“Don’t
uneral?” I asked.
worry about it, girl,” Kip said.
“I am,” I said. “Who died?”
“This is out of respect,” Barr said. “I don’t even want to fucking go. Fucking asshole playing dirty
games and got his ass caught.”
“Who?” I asked.
“Hidden Creek High,” Pres said.
“Weslee Jackson?” I asked.
“No,” Kip said. “Not him. But the way he lives though…”
“Doesn’t matter,” Barr said.
“Well, do you have the name of who died?” I asked.
“Sugar, let it be,” Pres said. “We just wanted to come see you.”
“Wanted to make sure you had dry clothes this time,” Kip said with a grin.
“Yeah, funny,” I said. “Let’s just pretend someone didn’t die.”
“It’s nobody you knew, love,” Barr said.
“He had it coming to himself,” Kip said. “Like Barr said.”
“Wait,” I said. “He had it coming? How did this person die?”
“By not breathing anymore,” Pres said.
He reached for my chin and I swatted his hand away.
“No,” I said. “I’ve had a weird morning. I don’t need this shit right now.”
“Feisty,” Kip said.
“I can handle feisty,” Barr said.
“When you put yourself into a position where you can get hurt… sometimes you get hurt,” Pres
said to me.
“Meaning?”
“Murdered,” Barr said.
“What?” I called out.
“You heard him,” Pres said.
“Someone at Hidden Creek High was murdered?”
“That’s right,” Kip said. “Honestly, we don’t even want to go. What happened… he got what was
coming to him.”
“Then why go?” I asked.
“To show face, love,” Barr said.
“So we don’t get accused of anything,” Pres said.
My jaw dropped.
Accused? Murder?
“Why would…”
“Just the way this war goes, girl,” Kip said. “They’ll point at us for it.”
“But you didn’t…”
“No,” Barr said. “We didn’t kill anyone.”
“But the cops will look, right?” I asked.
“Who knows what they’ll do,” Pres said. “Just wanted to see you before we leave.”
“We’ll be back later,” Barr said. “Stay out of trouble.”
“Yeah, of course,” I said.
Pres touched my chin again. He made me look at him.
His eyes were so dark. So sexy.
Were they capable of murder?
Murder?
My body shivered and started to shake as they walked away.
I looked down at the pool and watched my own reflection rippling.
For every second I felt comfortable in BFH there was something there to surprise me.
These were the kinds of surprises I wanted though.
I would have rather been making out with Kip. Or Barr. Or Pres.
I looked over my shoulder and saw Claire and Jeff hugging each other. Claire looking up at him.
Jeff looking down at her. Knowing Claire spent time with Pres’s dad on the side. Maybe they had an
arrangement that when Jeff was gone it was okay to sleep around.
It was a lot to think about.
I should have just stayed in my fucking bed.
fifteen
T he motorcycle was super sleek. Black with neon red stripes all along the body. It wasn’t a rough
and tough biker’s kind of motorcycle. It had a wide back wheel and looked built for intense
speed. The kind of motorcycle that was quiet and fast. Not the growling kind that you’d see in some
outlaw show.
“I’m getting on that?” I asked.
“Yeah, sugar, you are,” Pres said.
He handed me a helmet that would cover my head and face. With a flip-up visor.
I slowly put the helmet on, feeling almost claustrophobic for a second or two at the feel of it
constricting against my head and face. Obviously I wasn’t going to get on the motorcycle without the
helmet.
Pres put a similar all black helmet on his head.
He then climbed on the ride and waited for me to do the same.
I acted as though I was stepping over fire, moving awkwardly with my heart racing.
My hands grabbed his shoulders but I realized that wasn’t going to work. So I moved my hands
down to his sides and then around his body. I interlocked my shaking fingers as he started the
motorcycle and began to go.
The engine was quiet and powerful.
The twists and turns through the parking lot of BFH were enough to toss my stomach around,
leaving me feeling a little seasick and with butterflies everywhere.
The second Pres got the ride out on the road, he took off.
I tried to scream but lost my breath at the feeling of the sudden speed.
I knew if I moved my hands I could fly off the back of the motorcycle and that would be it for me.
He was going faster by the second with no intention of slowing down at all. The motorcycle screamed
with powerful force. All at the hands and command of Pres.
It was like going from zero to a thousand in seconds.
Which was dramatic.
But I had never been on a motorcycle before.
When Pres took the first bend in the road, I thought we were going to fall. The motorcycle went
low to the ground. So low that I shut my eyes, waiting for the feeling of the road to start ripping apart
my clothes and skin.
That never happened.
Pres knew how to ride.
And it was obvious I wasn’t the first girl to be on the back of his ride.
My fear of the motorcycle was then replaced with another touch of jealousy.
There was nothing I could do about it though.
I was at the mercy of Pres and wherever our destination was.
We blasted far away from BFH and started to climb the twisty beach roads. With each bend, Pres
took the turn without slowing down. And with each bend, I kept feeling the sinking feeling that we
were going to crash.
On my right were mountains made of rock. On my left was a cliff that went down to the ocean.
My fingers had a death grip together on Pres’s shirt.
And he just kept going.
Cruising really fast along the coast.
We started a small descent and I felt our speed slowing down. Not enough that I felt safe but at
least it wasn’t the crazy, blinding speed.
Pres pulled to the side of the road and stopped.
Without hesitation, I jumped off the motorcycle and ripped off the helmet. I handed it to him,
tempted to slap him across the face for the way he had been riding. Instead, I turned and walked to the
guardrail and looked to the ocean.
I took deep breaths, reminding myself to calm down. To just focus on the water and relax. I was
alive. Everything was okay. At least in the sense of not being killed in a violent, fiery motorcycle
accident.
“Not a fan of the speed, sugar?” Pres asked me.
“Don’t know,” I said. “Wasn’t expecting that.”
“The way I see it… if you’re going to ride it, ride it.”
I looked up at him. “Yeah?”
“Problem?”
“You tell me.”
“Not anymore,” he said. “Want to do something fun?”
“Fun? You and the word fun don’t seem to get along.”
“Try me, sugar,” Pres said.
He offered his hand.
I took it.
I wasn’t sure how to feel about it.
It was like I was with a different part of the Rulz.
Pres walked from the side of the road to the thick rocks. He guided me down where the rocks
turned into sand and it was a much easier climb down to the beach than I thought it would be.
“Are we allowed here?” I asked Pres.
He looked back and grinned.
I wasn’t sure what that was supposed to mean.
There was no real choice but to just stay with him.
When we got to the flat part of the beach, Pres slipped his arm around me and pulled me close as
we walked.
“You need to stop worrying so much, sugar,” he said.
“Have you seen the way my life has been, Pres?”
“And what’s that?”
“Games, Pres. Games. I don’t think BFH is worried about secrets or rumors. But you all love
games.”
“I think we prefer to deal with the truth on our own terms,” he said. “There’s a difference.”
“Yeah? Kind of like your father cheating on your mother? And it’s just totally okay? For the
record, Claire is in love with someone else. I met that guy too.”
“You think that’s love?” Pres asked with a laugh. “My old man has a thing in every goddamn city
across this country. And across the world. What’s it matter to you so much?”
“I don’t know,” I said. “Maybe because I never knew my father. I never had a normal family. And
then I see you… I mean, it’s not my business, but it just bothers me. Mother, father, son. Rich parents.
Rich kid. And you look the way you look…”
“Meaning?”
“Really? You need me to say it?”
“Say what, sugar?” he asked with a smirk.
“You’re fucking gorgeous, Pres. And you know it. I’m not the first to say it and I won’t be the
last.”
“So just because my parents are married and rich it’s supposed to be happily ever after?”
“No,” I said. “But in my mind it sure as hell makes sense.”
Pres stopped walking. “You know, you’re breaking the law right now, sugar.”
“How so?” I asked.
“This area here is private.”
“A private beach?” I asked.
Pres nodded to a sign that warned of what he said.
“How do you own the beach?”
Pres grinned. “You just do.”
“So now what? You going to call the cops on me? Set me up to get me in trouble?”
“No. I’m going to fix it.”
“Fix what?”
Pres touched my chin and brought his lips down to mine. With one soft kiss he stole my breath
away.
“This is my beach,” he whispered. “And as long as I invite you to join me, you’re not breaking the
law.”
“This is yours?”
“Yup.”
“And what’s the catch?”
“There is no catch, sugar.”
“That’s a lie,” I said. “There’s always a catch. You don’t need to be rich to know that.”
“Fine. You’re going to do what I say.”
“How cliché.”
“It works.”
“So I’ll ask you the same thing I asked Barr and Kip… is this your routine? You grab a girl, scare
her half to death on your motorcycle, then bring her to your private beach?”
“Why do you worry about that shit?”
“Answer me.”
“You answer me. You’re always worried about the surroundings. What’s the difference if I
brought a hundred girls up here or just one? You’re the one here now.”
I hated that he was right.
I hated that he could get to me and get through me.
“Whatever,” I said. “Show me what you’ve got then.”
Pres smiled. He stole another kiss. “Someday you’re going to regret saying that to me, sugar.”
P res being Pres, he planted a kiss to my lips and then walked away.
Leaving me standing there with his words echoing through my head.
His mother was dying?
What did that mean?
Are you stupid, Ti? It means his mother is dying.
I argued with myself in my head.
I know that! I’m asking, how is she dying?
“Pres,” I finally managed to say. “What does that mean?”
Pres sat on the side of the seat to the four-wheeler and looked out at the ocean.
“They were I guess what you would call a power couple,” Pres said. “At least that’s what I heard.
They were vicious, ruthless, powerful. In fact, they met battling over a piece of land. My father took
everyone down involved in the deal, but my mother refused to back off. So he took her to dinner one
night. His plan was to warn her to back off. Kind of like being a friendly dickhead.”
Pres paused.
I laughed in my head.
At least I knew where Pres got his charm from then, huh?
“My mother refused to back down,” Pres said as he looked at me. “She ordered the most
expensive thing off the menu. Ate it. Then threw her wine at him. She walked out and he went after
her. I guess it was all cliché love at first sight from there. They ended up spending the night together.
They agreed to split the land deal. Made a good chunk of change off it. And they never looked back.”
Pres grabbed the handlebar of the four-wheeler that was closest to him and he squeezed it tight,
shaking his head.
“He legit knows Claire through real estate stuff,” Pres said. “Not that it makes it okay to be
playing in her panties. He probably used the same words and moves on Claire that he did my mother.”
“I’m sorry,” I said.
“For what?” Pres asked. “You have nothing to do with it. Neither do I.”
“It’s still courtesy to say sorry.”
“Stop being fucking courteous then,” Pres said.
I stiffened and nodded. “Is your mother…”
“She’s alive,” Pres said. “But nobody talks about it. To my father, it’s a sign of weakness. Same
for her too.”
“Weakness?”
“She’s got ALS, sugar,” Pres said.
“Oh, Pres,” I said.
“Don’t do that to me,” he said as he stood back up. “I’m just telling you what you want to hear.
Not sure what you know about the disease, but it’s pretty fucked up to watch. She gets weaker by the
day it seems. And there’s no amount of money that could fix this. She’s done everything possible.
Every treatment. Traveled the world to see the best doctors. You can’t write a check to make
something like that go away.”
I nodded. “Wow.”
“Wow. And to them, the admittance of disease and dying is just too much for their reputation.
Which is why everyone sometimes wonders where my mother is. So they feed the rumors. Like
they’re the ones our age, sugar. I’ve heard all kinds of stories. That she’s traveling the world. That
she’s just enjoying life at home. Hell, it’s sometimes easier to just let people think my father is a
rotten prick. Or that they are secretly split up. I just ignore it.”
“To be fair, your father is a rotten prick,” I said. “He’s cheating on your mother.”
“He’s just taking care of himself,” Pres said. “And it really doesn’t matter to me.”
I didn’t understand how it didn’t matter.
Then again, I said those same words a hundred times.
It doesn’t matter what Mom does to herself. That’s her body. Not mine. If she wants to put that
crap into her arms then let her. I don’t care what happens. Even if she dies…
I didn’t say anything to Pres though.
I just went to his side and reached for his hand.
My hand slipped into his.
I looked up at him.
He looked down at me, his lip curled. Almost the same look he gave me the first time we met.
“What?” he asked.
“Forget everything you think you feel, Pres. I’m sorry about your mother. That’s shit. And it’s
sad.”
“Are you sad right now?”
“Maybe.”
“Maybe you should toughen up then.”
“Maybe you shouldn’t be such an asshole then.”
“Not going to happen, sugar,” Pres said.
He tried to walk away but I didn’t let him go.
I gave a quick pull which was nothing compared to his strength.
He pulled me along, looking back, smiling.
I tripped and fell to the sand, still holding his hand.
Of course that was the moment Pres decided to laugh.
An actual laugh.
“Are you kidding me?” I called out. “You’re laughing at me right now?”
“Look at you, sugar,” he said. “Begging to know about my life. Falling in the sand. Refusing to let
my hand go.”
“Why’s that funny?” I snapped.
Pres laughed even harder.
I never heard him like that ever.
He then took a step toward me and dropped to his knees.
Right there in the sand with me, still holding my hand.
With his free hand, he skipped touching my chin like he always did. Instead, his strong fingers slid
to the back of my neck and he pulled me right to him.
“You okay?” he whispered. “Break your ankle or anything?”
“No, Pres,” I whispered. “Nothing is broken.”
“Yet,” he said with a sly grin.
He kissed me before I could ask what that comment meant.
The way he kissed was just so… something.
It was everything Pres was in real life.
Perfect, strong, commanding.
Yet there was a little playful side when he broke the kiss so he could just kiss around my lips. Soft
and gentle kisses that sent feelings throughout my entire body. To my right the ocean waves pounded
to the shore. In my head, I told myself we were on a private beach. One that Pres owned. Meaning
nobody would be coming here. Nobody would see us. I thought about the four-wheelers. What would
it be like for him to…
Pres kissed me again, stealing my thoughts.
I wanted him. I craved him. And I ached for him. In a way that actually scared me. As though I
were untouched and was making the decision to let everything happen.
I walked on my knees in the sand to get closer to him.
When my body pressed against his, I could literally feel him.
His hand moved from the back of my neck to my face and he cupped my chin and pushed me away.
Our eyes locked and that was it.
Another one of those moments. My body and heart making the decision to scream yes to him. To
let him think he was winning what he wanted but it was me who was winning. He could command the
kiss or maybe make the next move, but I was the one who had the real power.
He kissed me again, forcing his hand away from mine.
He cupped my face with both hands, taking more control.
It was like he could sense something about me and wanted to make sure I knew who he was.
He was tall, strong, and had more power than I ever saw someone have in my life. His mother
was dying of ALS. All the while his father traveled as though things were normal, sleeping around,
enjoying his fortune.
My hands touched his chest.
So big and strong.
I hurried my hands down and had to touch skin.
Bare, hard skin.
I forced my hands under his shirt and felt just that. The ripples of his stomach muscles that acted
like a ladder for my fingertips to climb. Then my hands moved over his chest again, but kept going,
needing to feel and claw at his shoulders.
It probably looked awkward with his shirt forced up the way it was, but whatever.
Pres touched my wrists and forced my hands away.
He broke our kiss and put his forehead to mine and looked down.
I watched as he did the same thing to me.
His hands moving down over my chest.
Even over my shirt, his touch to my chest sent heat soaring throughout my body.
He touched the bottom of my shirt and his fingers peeled my shirt away from my body so his right
hand could go under it. His hand against my bare skin made me suck in a breath and forget how to
exhale it.
“Breathe, sugar,” Pres whispered. “I haven’t even started to make you lose your breath yet.”
That comment alone left me melting into the sand.
I actually touched my own shirt. Tempted to take it off.
There had to have been a better place though for this.
“Pres,” I whispered. “I want…”
His fingertips touched the edge of my bra. Digging to get under, going right for me.
I gasped and shut my eyes.
“Yes,” I whispered.
I was losing myself to him.
Fuck… I had already lost everything… to all of them…
I opened my mouth to tell Pres he had to make a decision. Take me there or take me somewhere
else to take me.
We both heard the sound of an engine.
It wasn’t a four-wheeler though.
And it wasn’t someone on the beach.
Pres quickly stood up, taking everything away from me. His lips. His hands. His body.
I looked up, feeling shaky and desperate.
“Pres…”
“Fuck,” he growled.
The engine sound got louder and then took off.
It sounded familiar.
And when Pres looked down at me, I realized why.
“Sugar, someone just decided to steal my ride.”
P res had me get on the back of one of the four-wheelers, telling me he would have someone take
care of the other one later.
He sped along the beach to the spot where we could walk and climb to get back up to the road.
My heart raced like crazy.
For plenty of reasons.
Which seemed to be the trend when dealing with the Rulz.
Pres held my hand tight as we rushed to get back up to the road.
When we did, his motorcycle was gone.
“Fuck,” he whispered.
“Who would do this?” I asked.
It was kind of shocking.
Someone stealing from Pres? Whoever it was, was going to get their ass kicked. No, that wouldn’t
be good enough. Remember, the first time I saw Pres, he was trying to drown someone in the ocean.
Pres looked up and down the road. He slowly shook his head. “Nobody knows about this place.”
“Obviously someone does,” I said.
He looked at me, pissed off.
I heard a horn honking and turned my head and did a double take.
There was a SUV coming up the road now.
Window down.
A familiar face and set of blue eyes looking at us.
Kip was smiling ear to ear, beeping the horn like a fool.
He cut across the road and stopped.
He leaned out of the SUV and looked at Pres, then at me.
“Need a ride?” he asked.
“How did you…”
I let the question trail off.
The smile on Kip’s face told me everything.
“Where’s Barr?” Pres asked in a cold voice.
“I think he went for a ride,” Kip said.
Pres shook his head. “That’s the game you want to play right now?”
“Me?” Kip asked. “Don’t look at me, brother. I’m here to save your ass. Well, mostly Ti’s ass.
Hers is much nicer than yours.”
My jaw slowly dropped.
Brother? Kip saying Pres has a nice ass? Barr playing a joke on Pres?
My head started to swirl again.
It was like they wanted to show a different side of themselves to me.
Like they weren’t complete and total bad ass dickheads all the time. That they could let loose for
a second and mess around with each other. As friends. True friends.
“Barr stole Pres’s motorcycle?” I asked.
“Appears that way, girl,” Kip said. “And last time I checked it’s a long damn walk home.”
“Come on, sugar,” Pres said as he put his hand to my back.
“This is crazy,” I said.
“You’ll see crazy soon enough when I get my hands on Barr,” Pres said.
He led the way to the SUV and opened the back door for me.
When I climbed in I didn’t expect him to follow me. I figured he would sit in the front seat next to
Kip.
“Move over, sugar,” he whispered. “I’m not done with you yet.”
I swallowed hard and inched across the seat to make room for Pres.
When I went a little too far, he put a hand to my leg and stopped me.
He wanted to be extra close to me.
My teeth chattered for a few seconds as I tried to catch my breath.
Kip looked in the mirror at me, that wicked bad boy grin on his face.
“Let’s go find Barr,” Kip said.
Pres moved his hand to my inner thigh on my bare leg.
I sucked in a breath.
Pres stared at me. “Hey, Kip… take the long way home…”
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feel… relief.
ip drove fast.
Pres kept his hand on my inner thigh. He flirted in a way that was really unfair. Because
I wasn’t only falling for it, I wanted it. I didn’t give a shit about their bet. I just wanted to
“YI was
ou know, Ti, if you were any more distant you’d need a life raft to get home,” Iris said to me.
caught staring at my feet in the pool water.
Watching the water ripple and seeing how different my feet looked in the water.
Yet my mind was out to sea.
“She’s in love,” Gi said.
That got my attention. “Love?”
“I’m kidding,” Gi said, showing her hands. “Whoa.”
“Sorry,” I said.
“Don’t be,” Iris said. “If she’s acting like a bitch, tell her.”
Iris winked at me and nudged the bottle she brought toward me. It was fruity with a burn that went
from your throat to your stomach.
It was good.
The only flaw it had was that no matter how much of it I drank it didn’t chase away the Rulz.
How stupid of me to waste a perfectly good night with friends thinking about those assholes. The
thing was… each one had a certain something that just made me hooked. I loved that Barr had a
secret world of music. Watching him play piano and seeing the way people reacted to him… he could
do something with that. He could play shows. Or clubs. Or something.
And then with Kip.
Seeing him even more loose and flirty and funny. Surfing like he was competing. Oozing a sexy
confidence. Taking me to his favorite and secret place. Even when he pulled me on top of him and
was being goofy, it was still so hot. He was comfortable. Inviting. Warm. And the way his eyes
looked at me. Gi wanted to talk about love… I couldn’t help but seriously think that Kip loved me.
And Pres.
Oh, damn you, Pres. Damn. You. To. Hell.
“Hey, say something,” Iris said. “You look like you’re going to pass out.”
“Too many thoughts,” I said. “And this isn’t helping.” I waved the bottle at Iris before taking
another sip.
“Let’s go down to the ocean,” Gi said. “Run through the water and the sand. Maybe the sound of
the ocean will help.”
“Fuck that," Iris said. “The ocean sound?”
“I don’t know,” Gi said. She started to laugh.
I looked at Iris.
We both nodded.
Gina.
I pulled my feet out of the water and stood up.
The ground and the world started to move a little but I kept my balance.
“I want to know about them,” I said.
“Who?” Iris asked.
“The Rulz,” I said, wiggling my fingers. “Give me it all.”
“Like what?” Gi asked.
“Where did they come from? When did they become the Rulz?”
“I don’t remember,” Iris said. “They just did what they wanted. All the time. I could remember
Kip beating someone up in fourth grade.”
“Always in trouble,” Gi said. “One time, Barr was sent away. Remember that, Iris?”
“Yeah I do,” Iris said. “That was a big deal.”
“Sent away where?” I asked.
“A place called Brooks Crest,” Gi said. “That’s where really bad kids are sent. Scary place.”
“You never want to go there,” Iris said.
“Why did Barr come back?” I asked.
They both shrugged their shoulders. “He just did. And it was right around then that they were
called the Rulz. They didn’t make up the name either. Everyone else did. Just because of how they
were. Who they were.”
I shook my head. “I don’t get it.”
“You don’t have to,” Gi said. “They back up everything with action. You’ve seen it.”
“Why are we talking about this?” Iris asked. “It’s simple, Ti. You’re either going to fuck with
them or not. Everything they’re doing right now is to get your pants off. So whatever they are saying
or doing isn’t real. It’s a game to them. A joke. And trust me, if you decide to not do one of them,
they’ll move on. So fucking fast too.”
I swallowed hard and looked at Gi.
She nodded. “Iris is right.”
“Shit,” I said.
I walked away from the pool, hugging myself.
Iris was right.
Gi was right.
My plan had been to mess with them and now I was too close. I was buying into it all. And I had
to stop. I had to remind myself it was all fake. Just like me being in BFH. It was fake. I wasn’t rich. I
was pretending to be rich. And Claire gave me the means to do that. And those means could vanish in
a second.
“I’m sorry, Ti,” Gi said.
“Yeah,” I said. “I don’t know what I was thinking when I got involved in all of this. I should have
stayed at the hospital with my mother. And then helped her from there like I always used to do.”
“No way,” Gi said. “You’re one of my best friends now. I can’t imagine you not here.”
“Stop saying that to me,” I said. “This isn’t my house. Claire isn’t my mother. Or family. I’m out
of here soon.”
“Then you might as well enjoy it,” Iris said, handing me the bottle.
“Hell yeah,” I said.
I put the bottle down and turned and ran for the pool.
As I dove into the air, I let out a scream.
I slammed into the water, fully clothed, and opened my eyes underwater.
There was a sea of bubbles dissipating that gave way to the super clear water.
I kicked my feet and popped up, throwing my wet hair behind my head.
I turned and waved to Gi and Iris.
They were standing near the edge of the pool.
“Come on,” I said. “Let’s swim.”
“You can swim,” Iris said. “I’ll stay dry.”
“Oh, come on, you love being wet,” I said. “I heard rumors about you.”
Gi laughed.
Iris looked at her. “I don’t see you swimming.”
“But you are,” Gi said.
She shoved Iris.
Iris let out a yell as she fell into the water.
Before she could pop up out of the water, Gi dove in head first.
And the three of us swam.
In our clothes.
Leaving our phones on the table on the patio.
Forgetting about everything in the world.
Splashing each other.
Laughing.
Just like friends would do.
Real friends.
True friends.
They were sort of now my best friends.
T here was a leather couch at the back of Jacobson’s office and he told me to sit there.
So I did.
He sat in his chair which was way across the room from me.
Sideways, his right hand on the desk, fingers tapping away.
“Do I even want to ask?” he asked.
“I’m not sure what you want me to say here,” I said. “We were handling it.”
“That is not how we handle things. Not when I’m here.”
“But outside of BFH, it’s okay?” I asked.
Jacobson turned and looked at me. “Outside of this building you can deal with the police. And
quite frankly, Miss Ditkiss, I’m debating on whether I should call the police right now.”
“For what?”
“Fighting.”
“Then bring those other two in here and make the call,” I said. “I was defending myself.”
“You looked quite engaged.”
“Yeah. Engaged in defending myself. In case you missed it, there were two of them. And one of
me. Think about that for a second. What would you have done?”
“You know, I really think the best thing for you right now is silence.”
“Or what? You’re going to kick me out? I don’t belong here. I’m here as a favor. It won’t matter to
me what happens.”
Jacobson nodded. “So that’s how you feel?”
“That’s how I feel.”
“Then maybe we don’t have to have a conversation,” Jacobson said. “You can just freely leave.
Go back to your old town. Do whatever you want, Miss Ditkiss. How’s that sound? Because
obviously anything I say here doesn’t matter to you. And while I can tell you I feel bad about your
home life, I’m not so sure that matters to you either.”
I looked down at the floor.
Then I stood up.
I walked across the office and put my hands to the back of one of the chairs on the other side of
Jacobson’s desk.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “Okay? I’m sorry that I walked into this building and broke your rules. I really
am.”
“I feel like there’s a but coming next.”
I nodded. “But… I won’t be sorry for anything I’ve done. I don’t belong here and they know that.
So what am I supposed to do?”
Jacobson pursed his lips as he stared at me.
This was a moment for him to say something important.
That moment never came because the door opened and in walked Claire.
I looked at her.
Well, you’re alive at least…
“I see you’ve forgotten how to knock, still,” Jacobson said as he stood up.
“Again?” Claire asked.
“Are you asking me or Tinsley?” Jacobson asked.
“Both,” Claire said. She looked at me. “Another fight?”
I shrugged my shoulders.
“This isn’t where you used to live,” Claire said. “You don’t need…”
She trailed off.
“Don’t need to what? To live like a poor girl anymore?” I asked.
“Maybe we can transition this conversation to something else,” Jacobson said.
“No,” Claire said. She pointed at him. “What’s going to happen now?”
“I’m not sure yet,” he said.
“Well, until then, Tinsley can stay home with me.”
“We really should talk-”
“Then call and make arrangements for that,” Claire cut in. “Tinsley, let’s go.”
Claire still had her power over Jacobson.
I exited the office but refused to look at her.
And I refused to talk to her.
She didn’t bother to talk to me either.
We left BFH and when the point came for us to split up to go to our separate vehicles, Claire
touched my arm.
“You’re coming with me,” she said.
“What about…”
“Someone is coming to get it.”
“What?”
“I think you and I need to have a long talk.”
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“Y ou really weren’t in a car accident,” I blurted out before Claire could even get out of the
parking lot.
“And you got into another fight,” she threw back at me. “Where would you like to start?”
“Anything that resembles the truth.”
“Okay,” Claire said. “We can do that. You go first, Tinsley.”
“Me? I think what I know or think I know is way more important than some fight.”
“You’re living in my house,” Claire said.
Which was the one thing I had hoped she would never say to me.
But there it was.
Slapping me in the face harder than Vicky’s fist.
“It’s really nothing,” I said. “These two… whatever you want to call them… they won’t leave me
alone. So what?”
“The same ones you tried to stab with a screwdriver? The same ones that had their car
vandalized?”
“Same ones,” I said.
“So when does that end?” Claire asked.
“When I’m not here anymore.”
“Real nice to say.”
“Well, it’s the truth, right? I’m not here forever. When Mom gets out, I’m gone.”
“Who told you that?”
“You’re going to let Mom live with you too? Take someone recovering and give her the biggest
excesses in life?”
Claire laughed. “Do you think I’m going to serve her fresh drugs on a platter?”
I looked over at Claire. “Wow. Thanks for that.”
“You wanted the truth. There it is. And also, I have no idea what’s going to happen with her when
this is done. She’s got to get through it first. And you know what, Tinsley? You’re on your own now.
You don’t need to take care of your mother. Or have her take care of you.”
“But you can take care of me?” I asked.
“Maybe I’m making a big mistake too then. Okay? Maybe I should drop you off right here on the
side of the road. Let you figure out what to do. All I want is for you to have a shot at life.”
“Then teach me how to sell houses or buildings or whatever,” I said. “It worked for you.”
“That’s not how you pick a career.”
“So you just always knew what you wanted to do?”
Claire laughed. “That’s what you want to talk about?”
“When you’re poor, it’s amazing to see those who have money. And you always want to ask what
they do for a living.”
Claire gripped the wheel tighter. “So what do you think the solution is to this problem you’re
having?”
“Problem?”
“These fights.”
“Oh. We’re still talking about that.”
“Yeah, we are. You can leave here right now but that’s still a problem. I don’t like leaving
problems behind. I like solving problems.”
So many words and questions went through my head.
I took a deep breath.
“Okay, fine,” I said. “The only thing I can do is what I did today. Stand up for myself. Just because
they have money… well, their parents have money… that doesn’t mean they can mess with me. Call
me names. Threaten me. And then attack me. They hit first.”
Claire slowly nodded. “But fight after fight after fight gets nowhere.”
“I understand. What would you do then?”
“Truth? Find a weakness and exploit it. Break the bitches down with fear. That’s where the power
is. Not in a fist.”
“Wow,” I said. “I take it you’ve been through this before.”
“I’ve had my fair share of fights,” Claire said.
“So I guess I need to stick around then. Get into their minds, huh?”
“Up to you,” Claire said. “The offer still stands.”
“And what offer is that, Claire? It’s my turn to talk now. My turn for you to answer my questions.
And no crap.”
“Okay. You want to know about my car accident.”
“Actually, I don’t,” I said. “I know what I saw. And, yeah, I don’t understand it… but oh well. I
want to know something else.”
“And what’s that?” she asked.
“Tucker,” I said.
Claire looked at me quick. “What’s that?”
“Liar,” I said. “Tucker said he’s my father. And you’re lying to me about it.”
Claire drifted to the side of the road.
For a split second I had this vision of her purposely crashing the SUV to silence me.
But she slowed right down and put the SUV into park.
“What did you just say to me?” she asked.
“You heard me. The way he kept looking at me. I found out the truth.”
“The truth?”
“He’s my father. Just say it, Claire. Say it! You’re involved with my entire life. From the time I
was a baby. You helped my mother the best you could. Now you’re doing it again. And you have my
father working for you. Just tell me the truth.”
A tear slipped from my eye.
I didn’t want to cry in front of her.
Dammit.
Claire reached across the seat and slowly wiped away that tear.
She nodded. “Yes… Tucker is your father.”
K ip stood on the beach flexing his fists with a wicked grin on his face. Knowing exactly why
I texted him and what I wanted him to do. It was time to end their bet and time to expose
the truth. Not the fake shit they believed in when it came to me. I didn’t want any more fake
in my life.
And out of the three of the Rulz… something about Kip…
“Hey there, girl,” he said.
I opened my mouth to say hey in a flirty voice but it came out as a gasp when I saw his hand.
I pointed. “Fight?”
“I think it’s only a fight if someone punches back, love.”
I turned and saw Barr and Pres walking down the beach.
My heart jumped a mile in the air.
My body flushed with a sense of guilt.
But there was no guilt.
I tried hard to fight that off.
Barr lit up a fresh cigarette and Pres looked intense. More intense than normal.
“What happened?” I asked.
“Nothing worth talking about, sugar,” Pres said.
“Say that to Kip’s knuckles,” I said.
Kip brought his fist near his mouth. “Hey there, knuckles. How you feeling? A little rough? But
fun, right? Oh, what’s that? You want to do it again? Already?”
Kip winked at me.
“That’s pathetic,” I said. “Super tough guy talking to his hand.”
“Don’t worry, love, we didn’t hurt anyone else in your family,” Barr said.
“That’s not funny,” I said.
Barr smirked.
“Are you okay, sugar?” Pres asked.
“You tell me,” I said to Pres. “You know everything about me. You find ways to figure things out
about me.”
Pres curled his lip. “Yeah, I think everyone heard about your little fight today.”
“Yeah,” Kip said. “And your freaking on me over my fight? You’re crazy, girl.”
“Defending myself,” I said.
“Me too,” Kip said.
I laughed. “I really doubt you three ever have to defend yourself. You’re way above that. You
make others defend themselves. They’re at your mercy.”
“Is that a wrong thing?” Barr asked.
He took a drag of his cigarette and blew the smoke at me.
I secretly inhaled it.
That stinky smell that I had weirdly become addicted to. I had no desire to ever smoke a cigarette
or ever get involved with someone who did smoke, but the smell of Barr’s smoke… it was different.
Not really. But it was.
“What are you all doing down here?” I asked.
“Finding a little Zen, girl,” Kip said.
“Zen?”
“After a fight,” Kip said. “Check out the waves. Appreciate that I was able to fight. That whole
thing.”
“You beat someone up and you’re finding Zen over it?” I asked.
“How did you feel dancing on Blair’s face, love?” Barr asked.
I turned my attention to Barr but didn’t reply.
“If you need anything from us about Tucker…,” Pres said and trailed off.
“If I need you to beat him up for missing another birthday of mine, I’ll let you know,” I said.
“That’s not funny, sugar,” Pres said, mocking me.
“You all are killing my moment,” Kip said.
“We’ll be waiting then,” Pres said.
He walked right toward me like we were a couple and he grabbed my chin - gently, of course -
and he lowered his lips to mine.
The kiss was quick. Just a goodbye kiss.
But it was laced with even more guilt.
When Pres walked away, Barr took his place. Cigarette smoke dancing around his head as he
pressed his lips to my cheek.
I again found myself inhaling that gross smell.
My brain couldn’t figure out what to do.
I looked at Kip. “What about you?”
He smiled and looked back at Pres and Barr.
Once they were far enough away, he winked at me.
“I’ll wait to get more than a kiss, girl.”
H is house was giant, which wasn’t a surprise. And whoever built the house loved arches. There
were arches out front and inside and all throughout the house. The floors were made of thick
tiles and had the same kind of feel that Kip gave off. That’s when it hit me that his mother probably
designed the house herself. After everything he told me about his parents, it made sense. The house
was instantly comfortable. It wasn’t some gigantic house that made you feel like you were in a
museum or something.
It was welcoming.
It was cool.
It was Kip.
He held my hand as we walked through the house.
There was a back set of stairs just off the kitchen.
As we walked the steps, I ran my thumb over Kip’s knuckles. They were still crusted with blood.
“Who did you fight, Kip?”
“Nothing to worry about, girl,” he said.
“I’m asking.”
“Just some clown from out of town,” he said. “Big mouth.”
“Did it have anything to do with me?”
Kip laughed. “Not everything revolves around you.”
“I didn’t mean it like that,” I said.
We got to the top of the steps and he turned left.
I went with him.
The second door on the right, he opened and nodded for me to go first.
Again, it was typical Kip fashion.
The bedroom was big, bright, large windows open with sheer curtains blowing in the beach
breeze. His room faced the ocean and the view made me stop.
I looked around the room.
The bed was big.
Comfortable.
Messy from him sleeping in it last night.
There were surfboards in the corners of the room.
Kip stepped up behind me and slid his arms around my waist.
“What do you think, girl?” he whispered.
“I think I like it.”
“Yeah, I think I like it too,” he said.
His lips touched my neck.
I jumped and shivered.
Kip kissed again… and again…
His hands moved up my body, over my shirt.
I started to sink back into him, feeling him. The reaction his body had to kissing and touching me
made me ache more for him.
His hands helped themselves to my chest and he put his cheek to my cheek.
I turned my head the same time he did.
When he kissed me - from that angle - I reached back and grabbed at his shorts. My right hand
nuzzled its way between our bodies. My hand touched him. And even over his shorts… wow.
Kip then backed away.
I hurried to turn around and watched as he grabbed his shirt with one hand and stripped it off his
beautifully cut body. He rolled it up with one hand and flung it across the room.
Then he looked at his hands.
“I better go clean myself up, girl,” he said. “I don’t want you to get too dirty.”
“Whatever you want to do, Kip,” I said.
“I’m going to grab a quick shower. Care to join?”
“I’ll wait right here for you,” I said. “You better hurry. If I start on my own I’ll have to have
someone else finish it.”
“Using my own text against me,” he said. “You’re wild.”
“You haven’t seen wild yet,” I said.
“Is that so?” he asked.
I shrugged my shoulders. “I guess you’ll find out.”
Kip grinned.
And then his eyes seemed to change. Which was impossible. But there was that look on his face.
That deep and intense look. The one that hinted to me that he loved me. Which wasn’t possible.
He didn’t love me.
He didn’t love anyone.
He was excited. And not just because of kissing and touching me.
He was excited because he thought he was going to have something to throw in Pres and Barr’s
faces. And whatever amount they had bet together, he would get.
Only until I ruined it all…
I smirked and stepped forward. “Fuck it, Kip.”
“Fuck it?” he asked.
I slowly reached for his chest.
When my fingertips grazed his hard skin, I closed my eyes for a second.
There couldn’t be any feelings.
Or, if there were, they were fake. Completely and totally fake.
I stripped my feelings away the same way I wanted Kip to strip me.
I put my hands flat to his chest.
I looked into his eyes.
“Don’t shower,” I whispered. “Why bother?”
“I always figured you to be dirty, girl,” he said with a wink.
I slid my hands up to his neck and then to his face. As I cupped his face, my heart raced faster, but
I stayed steady, leaning forward, kissing his chest.
He smelled so good.
Just like the beach… but with a mix of sweat and violence.
There was no way I was going to be mad at myself for liking it either.
This was wild and hot.
And I wanted it.
I needed it.
Kip grabbed my hands and peeled them from his face. He interlocked his fingers to mine and
squeezed tight. The burning look in his eyes made all those feelings start to bubble again.
I opened my mouth to ask him why he looked at me the way he did but I stopped myself.
Kip put his forehead to mine.
He then stepped at me, making me step back.
He laughed.
I smiled.
“Keep going, girl,” he whispered.
Kip walked me to the bed with his forehead to mine, our fingers interlocked.
There was a sense of fun and innocence to him.
It made it easy to fall into him.
When I got to the edge of the bed, Kip gave a playful nudge with his head and I fell down to the
bed. He moved with me, his hands still holding mine.
He lowered his mouth down to mine for a kiss that could have shaken the ground and reduced his
mansion to rubble.
Powerful and commanding, trying to guide the wicked kiss, but I knew how to kiss right back.
Maybe I was giving myself away a little but I couldn’t help it. I matched every move he made with his
tongue until he pulled away and went for my neck again. I turned my head and let out a long breath. I
stared at his hand holding mine. I felt the tip of his tongue caressing and gently tickling my neck as he
kissed again and again.
I saw his knuckles.
The crusted blood.
A stark reminder that this blonde hair blue eyed surfer boy was dangerous.
Very dangerous.
As though I was giving my good conscious the middle finger, I wrapped my legs around Kip and
pulled at him.
His lips traveled to my throat and I put my head back.
His hands finally moved from my hands.
That allowed me to slap his back. Literally.
He pushed his body harder against me.
I didn’t need any more of a hint or proof that he was ready.
Kip put his hands flat to the bed and pushed himself up.
He looked down my body and back up.
Without saying a word, I took my hands from his body and grabbed the bottom of my shirt. As I
lifted it up, he inched down and kissed my belly.
I let out a whimper and bit my lip.
“Kip…”
My heart raced and ached and wanted more but wanted the truth and everything else lingering in
the room.
“Oh, Kip… oh, baby, Kip…”
I jumped up to my elbows and turned my head.
Barr stood in the doorway, a lit cigarette between his lips.
Right behind him… Pres.
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