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sister, I’m going to fight duels for wives in distress, like men do in
Paris, and I’m going to learn how to lift pianos on my stomach by
expanding something—the diapan muscles—and I’m going to cut my
hair off!’ she mendaciously concluded, glancing sideways to observe
the effect of this bombshell.
‘Bon Dieu, soyez clément!’ breathed Mademoiselle Duphot, casting
her eyes to heaven.
CHAPTER 7
This then was how Stephen conquered yet another kingdom, and at
seventeen was not only athlete but student. Three years under
Puddle’s ingenious tuition, and the girl was as proud of her brains as
of her muscles—a trifle too proud, she was growing conceited, she
was growing self-satisfied, arrogant even, and Sir Philip must tease
her: ‘Ask Stephen, she’ll tell us. Stephen, what’s that reference to
Adeimantus, something about a mind fixed on true being—doesn’t it
come in Euripides, somewhere? Oh, no, I’m forgetting, of course it’s
Plato; really my Greek is disgracefully rusty!’ Then Stephen would
know that Sir Philip was laughing at her, but very kindly.
In spite of her newly acquired book learning, Stephen still talked
quite often to Raftery. He was now ten years old and had grown much
in wisdom himself, so he listened with care and attention.
‘You see,’ she would tell him, ‘it’s very important to develop the
brain as well as the muscles; I’m now doing both—stand still, will you,
Raftery! Never mind that old corn-bin, stop rolling your eye round—it’s
very important to develop the brain because that gives you an
advantage over people, it makes you more able to do as you like in
this world, to conquer conditions, Raftery.’
And Raftery, who was not really thinking of the corn-bin, but rolling
his eye in an effort to answer, would want to say something too big for
his language, which at best must consist of small sounds and small
movements; would want to say something about a strong feeling he
had that Stephen was missing the truth. But how could he hope to
make her understand the age-old wisdom of all the dumb creatures?
The wisdom of plains and primeval forests, the wisdom come down
from the youth of the world.
CHAPTER 8
1
Anna worried continually over her daughter; for one thing Stephen
was a social disaster, yet at seventeen many a girl was presented, but
the bare idea of this had terrified Stephen, and so it had had to be
abandoned. At garden parties she was always a failure, seemingly ill
at ease and ungracious. She shook hands much too hard, digging
rings into fingers, this from sheer automatic nervous reaction. She
spoke not at all, or else gabbled too freely, so that Anna grew vague in
her own conversation; all eyes and ears she would be as she listened
—it was certainly terribly hard on Anna. But if hard on Anna, it was
harder on Stephen who dreaded these festive gatherings intensely;
indeed her dread of them lacked all proportion, becoming a kind of
unreasoning obsession. Every vestige of self-confidence seemed to
desert her, so that Puddle, supposing she happened to be present
would find herself grimly comparing this Stephen with the graceful,
light-footed, proficient young athlete, with the clever and somewhat
opinionated student who was fast outstripping her own powers as a
teacher. Yes, Puddle would sit there grimly comparing, and would feel
not a little uneasy as she did so. Then something of her pupil’s
distress would reach her, so that perforce she would have to share it
and as like as not she would want to shake Stephen.
‘Good Lord,’ she would think, ‘why can’t she hit back? It’s absurd,
it’s outrageous to be so disgruntled by a handful of petty, half-
educated yokels—a girl with her brain too, it’s simply outrageous!
She’ll have to tackle life more forcibly than this, if she’s not going to let
herself go under!’
But Stephen, completely oblivious of Puddle, would be deep in the
throes of her old suspicion, the suspicion that had haunted her ever
since childhood—she would fancy that people were laughing at her.
So sensitive was she, that a half-heard sentence, a word, a glance,
made her inwardly crumble. It might well be that people were not even
thinking about her, much less discussing her appearance—no good,
she would always imagine that the word, the glance, had some purely
personal meaning. She would twitch at her hat with inadequate
fingers, or walk clumsily, slouching a little as she did so, until Anna
would whisper:
‘Hold your back up, you’re stooping.’
Or Puddle exclaim crossly: ‘What on earth’s the matter, Stephen!’
All of which only added to Stephen’s tribulation by making her still
more self-conscious.
With other young girls she had nothing in common, while they, in
their turn, found her irritating. She was shy to primness regarding
certain subjects, and would actually blush if they happened to be
mentioned. This would strike her companions as queer and absurd—
after all, between girls—surely every one knew that at times one ought
not to get one’s feet wet, that one didn’t play games, not at certain
times—there was nothing to make all this fuss about surely! To see
Stephen Gordon’s expression of horror if one so much as threw out a
hint on the subject, was to feel that the thing must in some way be
shameful, a kind of disgrace, a humiliation! And then she was odd
about other things too; there were so many things that she didn’t like
mentioned.
In the end, they completely lost patience with her, and they left her
alone with her fads and her fancies, disliking the check that her
presence imposed, disliking to feel that they dare not allude to even
the necessary functions of nature without being made to feel
immodest.
But at times Stephen hated her own isolation, and then she would
make little awkward advances, while her eyes would grow rather
apologetic, like the eyes of a dog who has been out of favour. She
would try to appear quite at ease with her companions, as she joined
in their light-hearted conversation. Strolling up to a group of young
girls at a party, she would grin as though their small jokes amused her,
or else listen gravely while they talked about clothes or some popular
actor who had visited Malvern. As long as they refrained from too
intimate details, she would fondly imagine that her interest passed
muster. There she would stand with her strong arms folded, and her
face somewhat strained in an effort of attention. While despising these
girls, she yet longed to be like them—yes, indeed, at such moments
she longed to be like them. It would suddenly strike her that they
seemed very happy, very sure of themselves as they gossiped
together. There was something so secure in their feminine conclaves,
a secure sense of oneness, of mutual understanding; each in turn
understood the other’s ambitions. They might have their jealousies,
their quarrels even, but always she discerned, underneath, that sense
of oneness.
Poor Stephen! She could never impose upon them; they always
saw through her as though she were a window. They knew well
enough that she cared not so much as a jot about clothes and popular