‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺗﺪﻣﻴﺮ ﺫﺍﺗﻲ ﻭﻛﺎﻥ ﻻ ﺑﺪ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﻭﺇﻻ ﻋﺪﺕ ﻟﻠﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻣﹸ ﺠﺪﹼ ﺩﺍﹰ‪.

‬‬ ‫ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺔ ﻣﺪﻣﻦ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﻭﺍﻹﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻻﻟﺘﺰﺍﻡ‬

‫ﺗﻌﺎﻓﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻤﻜﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‬ ‫ﹼ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻘﺒﻠﺖ ﺣﺎﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺁﻣﻨﺖ ﺑﺈﻣﻜﺎﻧﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻟﺘﺰﻡ ﺗﻤﺎﻣ ﹰﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺣﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﻟﺒﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ‬ ‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﹼ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻗﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺣﺪﹼ ﺩﺕ ﻣﺸﻜﻠﺘﻲ‪ :‬ﻛﻨﺖ ﺃﺭﻏﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻣﺘﻨﺎﻉ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‬
‫ﻮﺟﻬﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻭﻛﻞ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﻭﺇﺭﺍﺩﺗﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﻨﺎﻳﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﻘﺮﺭﺕ ﺑﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﹸ ﱢ‬ ‫ﻮﺟﻬ ﹰﺎ ﻧﺤﻮ‬‫ﻛﻴﻒ‪ .‬ﻓﻨﺘﻴﺠﺔ ﻟﻄﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﺍﻹﺩﻣﺎﻥ ﻛﺎﻥ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺘﻲ ﻣﹸ ﱠ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺪﺭ ﻓﻬﻤﻲ ﻭﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺗﺤﻮﻝ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ؛ ﻓﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻭﺇﻳﺠﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﻮﺳﺎﺋﻞ‬
‫ﻼ ﻣﺴﺘﻤﺮ ﹰﺍ ﻭﺇﻳﻤﺎﻧ ﹰﺎ ﻳﻨﻤﻮ ﺑﻼ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﻭﺍﻟﺘﺰﺍﻣ ﹰﺎ ﻳﻮﻣﻴ ﹰﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻌﺎﻓﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﻄﻠﺐ ﺗﻘﺒ ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻠﺤﺼﻮﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺳﻤﺎﺕ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺘﻲ ﺗﻌﺰﹼ ﺯ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‬
‫ﻛﺎﻥ ﻗﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﺑﺘﻮﻛﻴﻞ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﻭﺇﺭﺍﺩﺗﻲ ﻟﻠﻪ ﻳﻘﻀﻲ ﺑﺄﻥ ﺃﻓﺤﺺ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‬ ‫ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺟﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻤﺎ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻛﻨﺖ ﻻ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﺇﻻ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣﺎﻭﻟﺖ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﺑﻌﺰﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﻴﱢﺮ ﺃﺳﻠﻮﺑﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻌﺎﻳﺸﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻔﻌﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻻﻟﺘﺰﺍﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻣﻮﺭ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻼﻋﺐ ﺑﺎﻟﻨﺎﺱ ﻭﺍﻟﻈﺮﻭﻑ ﻟﻤﺼﻠﺤﺘﻲ‪ ...‬ﻗﺪ ﺃﻓﻠﺘﺖ‬
‫ﺍﻛﺘﺴﺒﺖ ﺍﻷﻣﺎﻧﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻳﺤﻘﻖ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ‬ ‫ﺯﻣﺎﻡ ﺍﻷﻣﻮﺭ ﻣﻦ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺗﻤﺎﻣﺎﹰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﻏﻤﻨﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻬﺎﺟﺲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻜﺮﺍﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﻧﺠﺎﺣ ﹰﺎ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ :‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﺗﻘﺒﻞ ﻣﺮﺿﻲ ﻭﺃﺅﻣﹺﻦ ﺑﺄﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺒﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ‬ ‫ﺗﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ ﺿﺪ ﺇﺭﺍﺩﺗﻲ ‪ -‬ﻣﻊ ﻋﻠﻤﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﺗﺪﻣﻴﺮ ﻟﻠﺬﺍﺕ ‪ -‬ﻭﺿﺪ‬
‫ﻗﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮﻱ ﻭﺃﻟﺘﺰﻡ ﺑﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺣﺎﻧﻴﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻏﺮﻳﺰﺓ ﺣﺐ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﻷﺳﺎﺳﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺻﻮﺍﺑﻲ ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺤﺖ ﻋﺎﺟﺰ ﹰﺍ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺍﻟﻔﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻐﻴﹼﺮ ﺳﺄﺻﺒﺢ ﺑﺎﺋﺴ ﹰﺎ ﻭﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﻟﻠﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺑﻼ ﺃﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﺗﺨﻠﻴﺖ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺮﺍﻉ ﻭﺗﻘﺒﻠﺖ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻣﺪﻣﻦ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺘﺮﺣﻪ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻓﻌﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻏﻴﺮ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﺘﺴﻴﻴﺮ ﻭﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﺑﻼ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﻣﺮﺿﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﻌﻔﻨﻲ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺇﺭﺍﺩﺗﻲ‬
‫ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻪ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺘﻲ ﻭﺻﻔﺎﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻓﺤﺺ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺄﻣﺎﻧﺔ ﻭﺃﺩﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺇﺣﺪﺍﺙ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺔ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺾ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺘﻤﻠﻜﻪ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﻗﻬﺮﻳﺔ‬
‫ﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﻓﻌﻠﺘﻪ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻪ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﺘﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻛﺸﻒ ﺗﻤﺎﻣ ﹰﺎ ﻣﻜﻨﻮﻥ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻟﻠﻪ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﻌﻔﻨﻲ ﻗﺪﺭﺗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺘﺤﻜﻢ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‬
‫ﻭﻟﺸﺨﺺ ﺁﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﺤﺪﺛ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺩﻕ ﺃﺳﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻌﻠﻘﺔ ﺑﻤﺨﺎﻭﻓﻲ ﻭﻏﻀﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﻹﺣﺪﺍﺙ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﺾ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺴﻴﻄﺮ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻓﻜﺮﺓ ﺗﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻣﻮﺍﺩ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻴﺎﺋﻲ‪ .‬ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻡ ﺑﻬﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺷﻴﺎﺀ ﻳﻔﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﺿﻲ ﺗﺤﻜﻤﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‬ ‫ﺗﻐﻴﹼﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺰﺍﺝ ﻟﻠﻬﺮﻭﺏ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻗﻊ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻊ ﻣﺜﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ ﺇﺣﺪﺍﺙ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺗﺤﺮﹼ ﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﺄﻋﻴﺶ ﻃﺒﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻟﻤﹸ ﺜﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻠﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﻴﻮﻡ ﻭﺃﺑﺪﺃ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﺼﺮﻑ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ‬ ‫ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺭﻭﺣﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﻳﻀﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺎﻛﺮﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺎﺩﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﺴﻤﺔ ﺑﺎﻷﻧﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﺎﻣﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺨﺘﻠﻒ ﻭﺃﺻﺒﺢ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺪ ﹰﺍ ﻟﻠﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﺑﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﻟﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺨﺺ‬ ‫ﻭﺑﻤﺠﺮﺩ ﺗﻘﺒﻠﻲ ﻟﻔﻜﺮﺓ ﻋﺠﺰﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻧﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻓﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﺒﻞ ﻟﺤﺎﻟﺘﻲ ‪ -‬ﻣﻦ ﻋﺠﺰﻱ ﺗﺠﺎﻩ ﺍﻹﺩﻣﺎﻥ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﻗﺪﺭﺗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﻭ ﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﺩﻋﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺰﻳﻞ ﻋﻨﻲ ﻧﻘﺎﺋﺼﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻛﻮﹼ ﻥ ﺻﻮﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﻌﺎﻓﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﹼ‬ ‫ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ ﻛﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﺧﻞ‬
‫ﻣﻌﻘﻮﻟﺔ ﻋﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺳﺎﺱ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﻲ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻤﺴﺎﻋﺪﺓ ﻣﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﻳﺘﻌﺎﻓﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ‬
‫ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻗﺪﻣﺖ ﺇﺻﻼﺣﺎﺕ ﻟﻤﻦ ﺁﺫﻳﺘﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌﻠﻤﺖ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺳﺎﻣﺢ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﺍﻣﺘﻨﻌﺖ ﺩﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﺑﺪﻗﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺳﺎﻋﺔ ﺑﺴﺎﻋﺔ ﻭﻳﻮﻣ ﹰﺎ ﺑﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻭﺍﻵﺧﺮﻳﻦ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻇﻠﻠﺖ ﺭﺍﻏﺒ ﹰﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻧﺸﻮﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺎﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﻻ ﺗﹸﺤﺘﹶﻤﻞ ﺑﺪﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻻ ﺑﺄﻭﹼ ﻝ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺇﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﻓﺤﺺ ﺗﺼﺮﻓﺎﺗﻲ ﺑﺎﻧﺘﻈﺎﻡ ﻭﺃﺻﺤﺢ ﺃﺧﻄﺎﺋﻲ ﺃﻭ ﹰ‬ ‫ﻣﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺯﺩﺍﺩ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻻﻣﺘﻨﺎﻉ ﺷﻌﻮﺭﻱ ﺑﻔﻘﺪﺍﻥ ﺍﻷﻣﻞ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﻛﺜﺮ‬
‫ﻭﺃﹸﻃﻮﺭ ﻭﺃﹸﻗﻮﻱ ﺛﻘﺘﻲ ﻭﺇﻳﻤﺎﻧﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺣﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﹸﻗﺪﻡ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺫﻱ ﻗﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﹶ ﺳﻮﹶ ﺱ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﺑﺎﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻣﺴﺎﻳﺮﺓ‬
‫ﺷﻴﺌ ﹰﺎ ﻟﻶﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﺑﻤﺸﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﺗﺠﺮﺑﺘﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺠﻨﺎ ﻭﺃﺣﺎﻭﻝ ﻣﻌﺎﻳﺸﺔ‬ ‫ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻷﺣﺎﺳﻴﺲ‪ ،‬ﻓﺘﻘﺒﻠﻲ ﻟﻌﺠﺰﻱ ﻭﻋﺪﻡ ﻗﺪﺭﺗﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺇﺩﺍﺭﺓ ﺣﻴﺎﺗﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻤﺒﺎﺩﺉ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﻌﻠﻤﺘﻬﺎ‪ .‬ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺨﻄﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻻﺛﻨﺘﻲ ﻋﺸﺮﺓ ﺃﺗﺎﺣﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻓﺮﺻﺔ‬ ‫ﺟﻌﻼﻧﻲ ﺑﺤﺎﺟﺔ ﻟﻘﻮﺓ ﺃﻋﻈﻢ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺮﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﻷﻏﻴﱢﺮ ﻃﺒﻴﻌﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻴﹼﺎﻟﺔ ﻟﺘﺪﻣﻴﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻭﺃﻓﻘﺪﺗﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻣﻨﺤﺘﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺬﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﺃﺧﺒﺮﻧﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺎﺑﻠﺘﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﺟﺘﻤﺎﻋﺎﺕ ﺃﻧﻬﻢ ﻭﺟﺪﻭﺍ ﻗﻮﺓ ﺃﻋﻈﻢ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺇﺩﻣﺎﻧﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺑﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻫﺆﻻﺀ ﺃﻧﺎﺱ‬
‫ﻣﻤﺘﻨﻌﻮﻥ ﻣﻨﺬ ﺷﻬﻮﺭ ﺃﻭ ﺳﻨﻴﻦ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﻟﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﺭﻏﺒﺔ ﺣﺘﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺧﺒﺮﻭﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻨﻲ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﻏﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ ﺑﺎﻟﻌﻴﺶ‬
‫ﻃﺒﻘ ﹰﺎ ﻟﺒﺮﻧﺎﻣﺞ ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ ﺃﻣﺎﻣﻲ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺻﺪﻗﻬﻢ؛ ﻓﺄﻧﺎ ﺟﺮﺑﺖ ﺍﻷﻃﺒﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺒﺸﺮﻳﻴﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﻔﺴﻴﻴﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻴﺎﺕ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺼﺤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﻠﻴﺔ ﻭﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻮﻇﻴﻔﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻼﻕ‪ ...‬ﻭﻓﺸﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻼ ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﻛﻞ ﻣﺤﺎﻭﻻﺗﻲ ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻧﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺟﺪ ﺃﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﺃﻣ ﹰ‬
‫ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﺣﻴﺚ ﺍﻟﺘﻘﻴﺖ ﺑﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﻳﺘﻌﺎﻓﻮﻥ ﻭﺗﻮﺻﻠﺖ‬
‫ﻟﻺﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﺑﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﻤﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺣﻴﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﺨﺪﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﺟﺪﺕ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺯﻣﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺪﻣﻨﻴﻦ ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻮﻟﻴﻦ ﺍﻹﻳﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺣﺘﺎﺟﻪ ﻷﺑﺪﺃ ﺍﻟﺘﻐﻴﻴﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻨﺖ ﻣﻤﺘﻨﻌ ﹰﺎ ﻋﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺎﻃﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﺖ ﻭﺍﻋﺘﻘﺪﺕ ﺍﻋﺘﻘﺎﺩ ﹰﺍ ﻳﺸﻮﺑﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﺮﺩﺩ ﺑﺄﻧﻨﻲ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺍﻻﺳﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻣﺘﻨﺎﻉ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻴﻦ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﻭﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻛﻤﺪﻣﻦ ﻭﻟﻜﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻌﺎﻃﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻠﺖ ﺷﺨﺼﻴﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺻﻔﺎﺗﻲ ﻛﻤﺎ ﻛﺎﻧﺖ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ﹰﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻐﻴﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺟﻮﺍﺭﺣﻲ ﺃﹸﻣﻠﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
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