i

ntr
oduct
ion
.
.
Itwast heear lyhour softhemor ningam sur eitwas
03am whenIwaswi ldawaket hinkingaboutmy
future,phelaithasbeenagood3year sof
unempl oymentandont heothersideI '
vegota2
yearol dsont ot akecar eofandIl ovewi thmyaunt
whoi sadr unkar dsoyoucani maginehowhect i
cit
i
s.Mypar entsdi edwhenIwas16year sol dingrade
10.Ipassedmymat ri
cwi thadiplomaal thoughI
wasn' tevensur eIwasgoi ngtomakei tbczIf ell
pregnantont hatyear .
Mybabydaddydi sappear ed
i
mmedi atelyafterhef oundoutt hatIwaspr egnant
hei snowmar r
iedandhappyi ntheci tywhi l
eI
sufferwithoursoni nt hevil
lage.
Ihavepl annedon
movi ngtoJobur gwi thmyson. Idon'tevenknow
howJobur glooksl ikebutI '
vehear dthatit'
sabi g
danger ouscitybutf ullofjoboppor tunit
ies
wel
lmynameisNOMKHITHANGXOWAa21year
ol
dgir
lwi
tha2yearol
dsonwhoi
sBAXOLI
SE
NGXOWAhei sdarknhandsomekesanamntana
j
ustli
kehisbast
ardf
ather
.Si
ghWhil
eIontheother
handhaveahoneyskin
wel
lthi
sismyj
our
neybeki
ndandwal
kwi
thme

LI
KE.
COMMENT.
INVI
TEANDSHARE
CHAPTERONE

KHI
THA
.
It'
sWednesdaymi d-dayIam justchil
li
ngont he
verandatiredf r
om al lt
hechor esandlaundryI '
ve
beenbusywi th,
mysoni spl
ayingwithotherkidson
thestreetandIr emembert hatIhavetostart
packingaswear eleavingforJoburgtommor owmy
andmyaunti ssl eepingIguessshehasahang
over.Igotomyr oom andst artbychecki
ngt het i
nI
usuallysavemymoneyon. I'
vebeensavingthe
grantmoneyeachandever yyearsoIcoul dbuymy
soncl ot
hesf orDecembersonowi t'
sendofJul y
andyeahI '
vegotaR3800andR450t hatisgr
ant
moneysoal li
nalli
t'
sR4250youguysmustbe
wonderingwheredoigetallt
hismoneywel lIhave
myhust l
ewhichisdoingpeople'
slaundryn
yards.
.WhenIwaspackingmyauntknockedi nmy
room oncenlether
selfi
n..
Rolleyes
Her:
Yesskheberesh(bit
ch).
wellt
hat
'smyauntf
or
youshe'
sahar dloverbutbecomesamesswhen
she'
sdrunk
Me:
Heymakazi(
Aunt
)
Her:
Sovel
ewenanomzukul
wanawam
ni
yandi
shi
ya?
(soi
ndeedyouandmygrandsonar
e
l
eavi
ngme)
Me:I
'
vegotnochoi cemakaziIhavet ogolookf
ora
pr
operjobandli
veabet t
erli
feformysonIwant
hi
mt ostudyandfurtherhisstudi
esunl
ikeme
Her:
Wellndi
yakuvamntanam(Ihearumychi l
d)as
youknowwhatJoburgiscapableofpl
easemnt aka
si
sidonotlooseyour
selfandpl
easerespect
your
selfandkeepmygrandsonsafe*sil
ence*I
haveaZulufri
endwhohasbackroom forrent
alsso
Iwillr
unaf ewfavourssoyount hechi
ldcould
haveapl acetostayIwouldblamemysel fi
f
somet hi
ngbadhappenst oyoutwoIknowam a
drunkardbutIdohaveacar i
ngheartandifiwasn't
thebestauntam sorrybant
abam nam ndinengxaki
mpilozangeibemnandinakum( mychil
drenIhave
myownpr obl
emsl i
fewasn'
tnicetome)
Iwashappythatmyauntwasaboutt
ogetusa
placet
ostayi
t'
snotyetconf
ir
medbutIpr
ayfor
somethi
nggood
Me:ThankyousomuchmakaziIwonderbesi
zoqal
a
ngaphibawokwel
aGol
i
Her
:I
tsnotyetconf
ir
medKHI
THA
t
obecont
inued
Cont
inuat
ion
Me:I
tdoesn'tmatterkaziam j
usthappythatyouare
wil
li
ngtohelp.Ihuggedherbeforel
eavingtheroom
andaft
erthatmysonent erst
heroom runni
nghe's
sosweatythiskidlovesplayi
ngguysyooo
Me:
Wooahwoooahboyyi
ntonngoku?(
wai
twai
t
wati
sitnow)
Him:Yoomamayambi yemnaxelelexeim(am so
hungry).Il
ookatmycutesomebodyandsmi l
edhe
bri
ngsthebestoutofmehe'sareasonIwantto
bett
ermyl i
feandhe'
salwayshungrytoo
Me:
Okboymamazokwenzel
aumvuboyeva(
your
mom wi
llmakeudr
ypapnmilk)
Him:YesYesYebo. hessoexcit
ednowbecausehe
l
ovesit.asIwaspr epar
ingmysonsf oodmakazi
camei nsmil
ingandt ol
dmet hatshegotusar oom
andherfri
endi sgoingt
ohelpmewi thmysonasI
wil
lbejobhunt i
ngYesmusi ctomyear sIwasso
happyandner voustooYheayhit'
soff
icialam going
toJOZI

LI
KECOMMENTI
NVI
TEANDSHARE
CHAPTERTWO
.
Iam l
eani
ngonabuseswi ndowl
ooki
ngatt hi
s
beaut
if
ulbusyci
tyevent
houghit
'sst
il
ltheearl
y
hour soft hemor ni
ngbutheysi sphi t
hiphithi.Wel l
wedepar tedyest erdayandIwasn' thappyatal l
becauseIwasaboutt omoveoutofmycomf ort
zone. hustleandchangemyl i
festylewhi l
emyage
mat ear eslayqueensot hersar einvar sit
ybutkel if
e
wasneverf air.
Wehavear ri
vedatt heparkst ation
andwegotof fwellmyaunt '
sfriendwasal r
eady
thereshecamet ousandcal l
edourauntt oconf ir
m
everyt hi
ngandt hatwehavear r
ived.wewentt oa
taxirankt ogett ranspor ttowher eshewasst aying
mysonwasf astasleepam sur ehewasexhaust ed
18hour sont her oadai n'tnochi ld'
spl ay.wear ri
ved
atKat hlehongwher eshewasst ayingsheshowed
ust her oom wewer egoi ngt ousel uckil
yt her ewas
abedwi t
hbl anketsandat ablewi thsomef ew
thingsMat hoko( aunt'sfriendandl andlord)sai d
shehar dl
ydoest hisbutf orusasshe' sfri
endswi th
ourauntandwewi l
lstartpayi ngr entmont hendof
August .
Sighj anesot hi
si sitweset tl
edi nand
rested
》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》
I
t'
sbeen2weeksi
nJobur
gIhavebeendr
oppi
ng
mycvsi ntomanypl acesaspossi blebutnoluck
buttodayt hi
ngswer epromisingbecauset herewas
anewsuper markettheywerel ookingforcashier
s
sojaIguesst heywi llhi
remeandt heysaidthey
wil
lcallmei fIgothired.
wellmaThasbeena
darl
ingshewasl ookingaft
ermysonwhenwasout
l
ookingf oraJobandIpr ayIdogetonewear e
sl
owl yrunningoutofcash
MaT:Hawudar
lywangat
hiawuj
abul
il
eyi
ni(
youdo
notl
ookwel
lwatisi
t)
Me:YoomamaTyoushoul d'
vewar nedmeaboutour
RUDEsuccessf
ulblacksisterswithoutut
teri
nga
wordumntuisbusyundermi ningyouandt el
li
ng
youthatt
heydonothireyookwanzi ma(Hard)
MaT:Aar
gnevermindt
hoseonestheyacthol
ier
thant
houbutumuntugotajobbysleepi
ngwithher
bossdonotst
ressmychil
dGodwi l
lprovi
dei
ndue
ti
me.
Tobecont
inued
WellguysmamaTi sagoodper
sonaChr
ist
iant
obe
exactshehasbeensokindt
omeshemakesme
missmymama. Mysonyoohe'sgrowingdayby
dayandhehasal otoff
ri
endsIdon'
tknowhowhe
communicatewit
hthem cozot
hersare
Zulu,
Pedi
,
Tsongaandsof or
thl
olbutkidsgott
hei
r
ownwayt hough
》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》》
i
tsSat ur daymamaThassentmet ot hemalltoget
somef ewt hingsforherandshesai dImustbuy
mysel ftoiletriesorsomet hi
ngher' treat'
shesai dlol
j
ane. Iwasatcl i
cksshoppingandwentt othet i
ll
pointst opaywhenaguyappr oachedmeaski ngme
topayf orhi mt oohe'sinar ush. .
ok..Ididpayf or
him andguesswatdi dhepaymel olniggawentout
witoutevent hanki
ngmehowRudehe' sso
handsomef orthatbutheyuzobonwanguThi xo
mnt kbw. Onmywayt otheexi tIgotacal lf
rom
Foschi nitellingmet hatIgotaj obasasal es
assistantandImustber eadyt ostart
Monday. WheeewGodyouar esoGoodIwashappy
andr ushi nghomet ot el
lmamaTt hegoodnews
she'sgoi ngt obehappy. andnotf orgetti
ngthatI
washangr yhungr yandangr yatt hesamet ime
t
hankstothehandsomecrook.
Igoti
nataxiand
l
ucki
lyIwasthelastonet
ofil
lngothome
maT:
Wasuboyi
zel
akanjekwenzenj
ani(
wati
s
maki
ngyousmil
eli
kethat
)
Me:
mamaIgott
heJob.
shescr
eam wi
thj
oyand
t
hanki
ngt
heLor
d
Her
:It
oldyoumydaught
er,
Sowher
edi
dyougeti
t?
Me:
atFoschi
nima.Isaysmi
ll
ing
Her:
YeayIusedt
owor kther
eyazit
heirmoneyi
s
nott
hatbadcomparedtosomeretai
lstor
esbutt
he
shi
ft
saremadItellyou
Me:
EixmaIdi
dn'
tknowyazi
Her:noworr
iesmychi
ldIam goi
ngtofet
chxoxoat
Creachwhenyouareknocki
ngoffl
ateandyouar
e
goingtopaymexeim.
shesayslaughi
ng
Me:Wel
lyoudeser
vemywhol
epaymama.
we
l
aughedsomemor e
SeemamaTi sawi dowwit
h3kidst heyar
eold
thoughagir
lismarri
edtoapastorand2boysare
i
npr i
sonshealwaystal
kabouthowshewi shedher
ki
dsl
ist
ent
ohert
heywoul
dbesuccessf
ulnow.
Ei
xjanel
if
e..

LI
KECOMMENTANDSHARE

CHAPTERTHREE
.
.
It'
sbeenamont hnowandal othashappened.I'
ve
gotashockofmyl i
fewhenImetmybabydaddy
Menzihehasgai nedalotofweightheisit
muscul arnomor ehewaswi t
hhiswi fenshe'
s
fl
amesyooyel lowandshegotamodelbodyyour
highlifeSlayqueensIt el
lyouwhi l
eam busy
gainingwei ghtli
kenobody'sbusinessseewhenI
gother eIwas30andnowam on36cabanga. well
whenhecamet otheshopIwasbusydoi ngmy
thingbusywor ki
ngont hefl
ooryouknowsal es
assistant.
Hedi dn'tevencometogr eetmehewas
shockedmaybesmh.
Sot odayit'
sFr i
dayandam knocki ngof fat21: 00
si
ghyooIhat egoi nghomelatemysoni sal ready
asleepbyt hen.Okayremembert hehandsome
crookhecamet otheshopwithsomeot hersl ay
queent obuycl othesandhest i
llhadaner vet o
dit
cht hegirlandcomet omeandaskedf ormyt ens
wellIgavehi m becausehesost ubbornhecoul dn't
l
etmegoandhehascal ledtocomeandf et ch
me. HesaidImustwai tf
orhim atent ranceno. 220
minut esagoam pani cki
ngit
'sget tinglatewhenI
wasaboutt ocallmeaGr eyMer cedesc- cl ass
pulledinf
rontofmeandl oweredt hewi ndowst here
hewascar amelski nmuscul
arthi ckeyebr owsand
mout habi tpurpli
shIthi
nkhesmokeIwasbusy
drooli
ng
Hi
m: ar
eudonecheckingonmesoyoucanhoopi
n
i
t'
slatelet
'sgetgoi
ng
Me:wowsayssomebodywhosaidhewil
lbeher
e
decade'
sago.
Irol
ledmyeyesasIhoopi
n
Him:am sor
rymommyIhadal i
ttl
eprobl
em t
osolve
atwork.canyoupleasef
orgi
veme? Hemadepuppy
eyespoutedhisl
ipsandabeggingfaceGayhabi
ts
mxm t
hisguy'
pret
typl
ease'
hebegged
me:
fi
necanIgethomenowImi
ssmyson
Hi
m:(
ali
tt
lebi
tuncomf
ort
abl
e)Yougotason
Me:
(smi
ll
ing)YesIdo
Hi
m:Howol
dist
hechap?
Me:
he'
stwoyear
sol
d
Hi
m:ukhul
isi
lene
Me:
yeahr
ight
Him:sot
ellmedoyouwantsomet
hingt
oeat
?he
askedst
il
lconcent
rat
ingont
her
oad
Me:
Noam f
inebesi
desi
t'
sget
ti
ngl
ate
t
obecont
inued
hi
m: soyouar egoingtost
arveyoursel
fbecauseit
s
l
atejusttellmewhatyouwoul dli
ketohaveand
whatthelilmanlikessowecanpassbyt hestores
orrestaur
ants
It
oldhi
m watIwantwegetbackt
othecar
Hi
m:somommywher
edoidr
opyouof
f?
Me:
Kat
hlehongext
5nextt
othef
ourwayssi
r.
isay
wi
thaseri
ousface
Hi
m:okaymadam(hesaidsar
cast
ical
ly)j
ustt
ellme
wher
eyoustayIwil
ldropyoubythegate
Me:noit'
sfi
neIwi
llmanage.
Isayt
ryi
ngt
opr
otest
butkeepi
ngitl
owkey
Him:i
t'
seit
heryout el
lmewher eyoustayorwewi l
l
beonthiscarforthewholenightandit'
snotli
keI
domindIdon't.
hesaidsmi l
li
ng.idon'
trespondhim
helowershiscarseatbr
ushinghi smil
li
ondollar
fadeandInoti
cedsomet att
oosIwonderhowmany
doeshehave
Him:si
nceyoudonotknowhowt ospeakIwil
lrest
here.
hesaidthatcl
osi
nghi
seyesthenIknewIgot
nochoicebuttotel
lhi
m
Him:Finall
yyooyouar estubbornwoman. hedrove
asIwasbusygi vi
ngdir
ecti
onsti
llwereachwher e
wewer egoi ng.wearri
vedIsai
dmygoodbyeswhen
It
riedopeningt hedooritwaslockedIlookedathim
wit
ht he'andt hen'l
ook
Hi
m:Pr
omi
semeyouar
egoi
ngt
ospendt
he
weekendwi
thme.
andt
henwhati
sthatl
ooGuymom
Me:
Iam goi
ngt
obewi
thmysonbr
oImi
ssedhi
m
Him:Idonotmindspendi ngt
imewi t
hthetwoof
youmommypl easetuh.hest
art
edwi t
hhisbeggi
ng
thi
ngiesandyest heydoworkIagreedHelookedso
happyandheki ssedmeont hecheek
Him:Youreall
ydonotknowhowt hi
smakesmef eel
Iwil
lseeyout ommorowpleasedonotdisappoint
meandpl easebereadyat13:00am comingto
fet
chy'al
lcan'twai
ttomeetthechapAnywayl et
menotkeepyougoodni ghtNgiyakut
handayezwa.i
j
ustblushedandwal kaway
CHAPTERFOUR
.
.
Ohshi t.
..
ohShit
...
.(l
ooksatthewallclock)ohdamn
shit
!!!I
t'
s11:45(calmsdownabi t)YoooIt houghti
overslept
,howcouldIbesocar el
essthough?So
yesterdayIwentoutwiththeboyst ooneofmy
str
ipclubsinSandton,gotdrunkanddidwat ever
Godknowsandnowam l ef
twiththemotherofall
headachesandIhavet ogetreadybecauseani gga
gotadat e(
smiles)yeahani ggagotadateIsi ng
andstartdanci
ngabi tasam st ri
ppi
ngnakedand
mydickswi ngi
nglefttor i
ghtl
ol.'
manam happy' I
sayheadingtothebat hroom

okmynamei sBandil
eBi yelaa29yearol d
busi
nessman,Ihavetwo5st arhotel
sinmyname,
twostr
ipcl
ubsandar est aurantandsti
lldon'
thave
awif
e?notinastabl
erel ationship?
notevenababy
mamadr amar?whatkindofar i
chniggaam Ikanti
?
maybey'al
laski
ngyour selves
Wel llastt
imeIhadagi rl
fr
iendwast woort hree
year sago.shegotascholarshi
pt ostudyoverseas
sincet henshenevercamebackhomeIt r
ied
gettingholdofherItri
edinwhat everwayIcoul dto
evenf i
ndherIneededanswer sormaybeshe' sin
tr
oubl eorsomet hi
ngbutnex.SoIgotagi rlcan'
tsay
she'smi newej ustmovingwiththeflowwenever
hadaser i
ousconversati
onaboutussoIguessi t
's
j
ustamutualfeel
ing,
becausewej
ustf
ucki
ngand
hangi
ngout.
.

KHI
THA
.
.
It'
shal
fpastt
wel
veandIstil
lhaven'
tdecidedon
whatIam goi
ngtowear..
maybeasummer
dress,
pushi
nandmysl i
ngbagsimplethingsbutno
thatmanisal
waysneatandgood-l
ookingarg
CONTI
NUATI
ON

Lordhelpme. okIhaven'tt oldy'

allaboutmy
facebeatam flamesy'allam f l
amest hankstomy
dearfri
endBont leforhelpingmeoutshet aughtme
alotofthingssoj aam girlyandnaught yt
ooback
towhatIam goi ngt owear .okokIthinkiam going
towearaboyf riendsjean,croppieshirtandsome
blackmulesIboughtf r
om Foschi niandendi tal
l
withroundear ri
ngsandshadesyesyes
Trit
riwai
twhat
sthat'
overt
hehor
izon'
oht
hat
'smy
phone
Me:
Hel
lo
Voi
ce:
Mami
Me:(
Ohnothat'
shim,i
t'
shi
mthatkwest
avoi
cei
f
notBar
rywhi
telol
)OhHey
Hi
m:Sorr
ytokeepyouwai
tingIwi
llbet
her
ein20
mi
nutesam st
uckontr
aff
ic
Me:
nonopr
obl
em
Him:youar
enotreadyyetncncncWomenokbbe
seeyouinaminute(dropsthecal
l)
Xoxo:Mommysihambaninikodekuval
we
etawuni(
whenar
ewegoingt heyar
egoingt
ocl
ose
atstor
es)
Me:
Ngokungokubaby(
nownow)
He'sbeenwai
ti
ngf
ormef ort
hepast45minutesI
am awomansoyeahihavetotakemyti
met olook
good
BANDI
LE
.
OkIam att hespotweagr eedonbutIcan' t..
.oh
theresheislookingallkindsofsexyandbeaut if
ul
HolyJesusSonoft heLi vi
ngGodwai twho' s
accompaninghernowandshel ooksmad( Igotout
ofthecar)Ileanedont hebonnetIwaski ssedam
tryi
ngtocont ai
nit,
theguydoesn' tevengiveup
sheim mywomancanevenut teraVoetsekshe' sso
sweetandhumbl eshej usttur
nsbackandt ellshim
tobackoffdidhe? mxm thisguyyangi j
wayel a,
the
l
ittl
emani sfocusedonmyAudiR8It hinkhel oves
carsasmuchasIdoandohwewor ethesame
outfi
tbutdiff
erentbrandsokIgotcl oser
Me;(Fl
ates)
AwuMjakesmananiwaziamant
ombi
eni
ngawashelayi
ni?Iaskki
ssi
ngmywomans
cheekIledg
Hert
omycarandf
ist
bumpt
hel
it
tl
eni
ggat
heygot
i
nthecar
Hi
m:Ei
shbhozabengazinguwedaar
Me:
Wegotameet
ingonWednesdaydon'
tfor
get
andnextt
imewhenawomantel
lsyoutobackof
f
pl
easedoandstopeyei
ngmyl
adysiyezwana
manjefot
seka

It
ri
edbabi
est
ommor
owagai
n
Wehavebeeni nthecarformor ethan20mi nutes
oknoam exagger ati
ngbuti thasbeenawhi l
e.And
againwhatbusi nessdoeshehaswi t
hMj akes
becauseMj akesisalowlifethugmaybenotbuthe
i
sr umor edtobei npossessionofdrugshe' salsoa
womani zerseewhyIhat ehim.Iwonderwhatar e
theyevent alki
ngaboutam j ustcuri
ousam t hinking
ofaskinghi m butIdon'
twantt oevent hinkabouti t
cozIwi l
lsoundl i
kethosenai vegir
lf
riendsl oldi di
saygirlf
riendslolbutnoliesguysIlovet hisman
withallofme( hecamebackt othecar ,
startedt he
engineof fwego)
Hi
m;Iam sor
ryf
orkeepi
ngyouwai
ti
ngguys
Me:
Nopr
obl
em Mi
ster
.Isaysar
cast
ical
ly
Hi
m:(
chuckl
es)Exemfet
hukonj
ebat
hiungubani
umabakubi
za?(heymansowhatdoyourpeer
ssay
whent
heycal
lyou)
Xoxo:Ndi
m uBaxol
isemnabhut
i(Iam Baxol
ise
brot
her)
Him:ohokpoisowenauyamxol
isaumamakho
nomauyamhlupha?(
areyoucomfor
ti
ngyour
motherasyournamesaysorar
eyougivi
nghima
hardti
me)
xoxo:
ndi
yamxol
isamnauNomkhi
tha(
Idocomf
ort
her)
Igavehim ashar
plookhowdar
ehe,
whocal
lsa
motherbyhername
Me:
xoxout
hini
?(whatar
eyousayi
ngxoxo)
Xoxo:
Lambi
lemnamamam(
Iam hungr
ymom)
Him:(
heburstalaught
er)soareyouNomkhitha
geezIcan'
tbel
ievemyselfrightnowwhofal
lsin
l
ovewi t
hsomeoneyoudon' tevenknowhername
Me:
Youar
esounbel
ievabl
eBandi
leyazi
Hi
m:howdi
dyou..
(Ij
ustpoi
ntedhi
sbusi
nesscar
d
ont
hedashboar
d)
Hi
m:Ohf
uck(
laughsagai
n)
Xoxo:
Hayibhut
iuyat
huka(
nobr
otheryouar
e
swear
ing)
Hi
m:Ngi
yat
hukana?
Xoxo:Uyabuzakhambet
hemama(
youar
easki
ng
dealwithhi
m mom)
Him:
Yoot
hisi
sser
iousnongi
yaxol
isaIwontswear
agai
n
Xoxo:
Zondi
thengel
ant
onikqal
a?
Hi
m:wenauf
unani
?(whatdoyouwant
)
Xoxo:
Ndi
funaudl
alai
mot
o,i
bhol
a,ndi
qubhendi
tye
naseMacdonam
Him:Okshar pnomayinikonj
eiMacdonam
i
kuphi(anyt
hing-wher
eismacdonam again?
heasks
sarcasti
cal
ly)
Xoxo:
Yoomamakhoxel el
echommi
eyakho(
Aar
g
mamat el
lyourf
ri
end)
Bandi
leandIl
ookedoneachot
her
andbur
sti
ntoal
aught
erandmysonwasso
confusedam surehewasaskinghi
msel
f'Whoon
eart
hdoesn'tknowMacdonam' hewasevenr
oll
ing
hiseyesgayhabitsgayhabi
ts
Me:Ndzomboni
saboyungaWar
i(
Iwi
llshowhi
m boy
don'
tworry)
AfterabitwhileNdil
eswi t
chonsomemusi ci
twas
Top40onmet r
of m weweresingingalonghereand
therejokescrackedsharedlaughterunti
lwe
reachedourdest i
nati
on.wewer einGOLDREEFCI TY
ohGodIwashappyial wayswant edtobringmy
sonher eIplannedthatforhisbir
thday

CHAPTERFI
VE
.
.
BANDI
LE
YoooithasbeenalongassdayGodIam ti
red
Li
se(xoxo)i
sgivi
ngmeahar dt
imehedoesn'twant
ustoleave,
soideci
dedtol
eavehi
m wit
hotherkids
pl
ayingIgoandjoinhermot
herwho'
ssit
ti
ngunder
at reebusyonthephonesheevenlooksfedupI
wonderwhati ssheupto.Igotwher
eshewassitted
Ilayedbesidesherandrest
edmyheadi nhert
hick
thighs
Me:
Youdon'
tlookokmami
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Her:Nomyphonei sgivi
ngmeproblems,
i
thasbeen
stuckforabout10minutesnow,
anywaywhere'smy
son?Sheaskswi thworr
yonhervoicemothersand
thei
rkids
Me:LiseishyperyooIcan' tt
akeitwepl ayed
cars,
wentt oabasketbal lcor
t,
playedarcadegames
andst i
llhewantedtogoandswi m butIdistr
acted
him wit
hi cecream butonourwaybackwepassed
somewhi tedudesplayingsoccerheaskedi fwe
canjoinIr ef
usedbuthekeptoni nsist
ingsot hose
dudessai dtheyWilbringhi m whentheyar eleavi
ng
Her:
Soyouwanttot
ellmethatyoulef
tmysonwith
st
ranger
sNdil
e?(
sheaskedtryi
ngtogetupunt
ilI
poi
ntedwher
etheyweretheywavedatmehesaw
howhappyhewassosher el
axed)
HER:
OkIwasj
ustwor
ri
ed
Me:
Noprobl
em Iunder
stand(
clear
edmyt
hroat
)
wel
lIwantt
otel
lyousomethi
ng
Her
:Ohokt
hissoundsser
ious
Me:Okwhenwewer eplayi
ngar cadegamesImet
wit
hanoldfri
endandIintroducedLiseasmyson
soheaskedmei fIwasreall
yhisfatherIsai
dyes
soIam sor
ryforbei
ngforward
Her:Idon'
tknowyaziIr eall
ydon'tthingisxoxohas
beennaggi ngmeabouthi sfather'
swher eabouts
recentl
ysoIl i
edathimt hathi
sf atherisalwaysat
wor kandhest aysthere,sometimesIwoul dt ake
him outandsayt hemoneyi sfrom hisfatheryou
couldseehowhappyheget ssodon' tgetmewr ong
butyouar enothisbiologicalf
athersowhatwi l
l
happent otherelat
ionshipyouguysar ebuildingif
youandIdonotwor koutmaybe? DoIhavet oli
e
aboutyourwher eaboutst ooIhatel yi
ngNdi l
eIam
justdoingitnowbecauseIwantt oseemyson
happy.
Me:Fi
rstofal
lIam sor
ryforwhatyouar
egoi
ng
t
hroughyoudonotdeservethatnowomandoes
andsecondlyIhateempt ypromi sessoIwoul dn't
makeonesof rom onwardsIvowt obei nyour
l
ives,
hishappinesswhenIt oldhim hei smyson
waspr i
cel
ess.SoIwoul dn'
ttakethatawayf r
om him
andIwouldn'thurtyouthatmuchmommyIl ove
youandIseemysel fspendi
ngt her estofmyl i
fe
withyou
Her:
(shewasal lsmi
les)
AndIloveyour
ightback
daddy.idon'tknowwhathappenedbutIfound
myselfalloverherki
ssingher
.GodIam ahappy
man

KHI
THA
It
'smid-
weekIam wit
hBont l
ewej ustknockedoff
fr
om workwearejustl
azingaroundthemal lunt
ilI
deci
dedtotakehert
olatelunchatBurgerking
Her:
Somnganeubusashophel
a(f
ri
endyouwer
e
sayi
ng)
Me:
Sazi
thandii
indabagi
rl
iswa,
SoIt
ellherwhatwentdownonGol
dreefci
tyon
weekendandtol
dherhowmysont ookthespot
l
ighti
twasli
keIwasjustaccompanyi
ngthem phel
a
Her:
Jeal
ousydoesnotsui
tyou(shesai
dwhi
stl
e
bi
tt
ingonherburger
)
Me:ButonSundayt
hough(
Isai
dbl
ushi
ngand
pouti
ngmylips)
Her:
Noyoudi dn'
t.
.donttellmeyougaveittohim on
yourseconddatewelllet'
ssayfi
rstbecauseyour
sonhappened
Me:
lolnoIdi
dn'
tbutIwassocl
oseonl
ett
inghi
m
smashit(
Isai
dlaughi
ng)
Her
:HeeeawudleiBur
geryakhont
ombiyoDl
amini
(
shesaysrefer
ri
ngtoher)SodoIhavet
oaskyou
whatwentdownmoGur lcomeon
Me:Het ookmet ooneofJoburgsclassyf ancy
restaurants,Wehaddi nnerandthenwewentt othe
rooftopt ochi l
l,
Wedrankchampagnewhi stle
l
aughi ngandki ssi
nginbetween,hewast ell
ingme
howmuchhel ovesmeandourf ut
ureplansandhe
askedmet olookforadecentplacetostayathe's
goingt opayf orit
Her
:Andyoudonotsoundhappybecause
Me:BecauseIt
hinkt
hismani
str
yingt
ocont
rolme
hawuBont l
e
Her:Byonlytel
li
ngyout ofindadecentplacewhich
he'sgoingtopayforit
,haibogi
rldon'
ttakeoff
ence
ont hi
sbutaren'
tyousupposet obehappybecause
l
astt i
meIcheckedyouwant edtomoveawayf rom
thattownshipbecauseitsnotsafeandnowyouar e
getti
ngachancewhatdoyoudobl owitaway?
Me:Youdonotunder st
andchommi ehet oldmeto
quitmyjobtoobecauseIcan'tbeoverwor ki
ngmy
sel
fandear npeanut
s,hesaidheisgoingtotake
careofallmybil
lsandtakemysont oadecentpre
schoolIam happyaboutthatbutIcan'
tjustl
ethi
m
beIdintwanttodependonHi m andbesideswhat
wil
libedoinghomeal lday?spendi
nghismoneyon
shoppingnoIdon'twantthat
Her:
Butyouar
ealreadyspendi
ngitnjeR8000per
weekwhodoesthatIknowhejuststart
edbutthi
s
ni
ggaisfi
lt
hyri
chchommi e
Me:
Whati
fthi
ngsgowr
ongf
ri
endwhati
fhef
inds
meuglysomedayandleavemef
orsomeoneel
se
whatwil
libel
eftwi
thonmyname?
Her:
Yesyougotapoi
ntr
ightt
her
esowhatar
eyou
pl
aningke?
Me:Okwithoutthinkingnegati
veabouttheniggabut
i
t'spossi
bil
it
iesrightanywayIhavebeent hi
nkingof
askinghi
mt ostopgi vingmethisweeklyall
owance
andpayformyf eesinsteadbecauseIwanttogo
backtoschoolandf ur t
hermystudies,
soIwilll
ook
foracheaperinstit
utionwhereIcanenrol
lat
Her:
Didyousaycheapergurlt
hismancanaffor
d
gofori-
col
legechoma(webursti
ntoalaught
erand
cont
inuedwithourconvounti
lweweredoneand
deci
dedtogohomewentonoursepar ateways
whenIgottotheyardtheyt
oldmexoxowentout
wit
hhisdad
CONTI
NUATI
ON
Wellt
hatgavemet i
metor estabitbecausexoxo
canbehecti
c.Ideci
dedtotakeabat hithasbeena
l
ongdaykalokuyooo.Sojustaft
erIdidtheygotin
l
aughingandcarryi
ngshoppingbags
Him:Awui si
thandwasami boh(
hesaidthatkissi
ng
meal lovermyf aceandxoxowasj
ustenjoying
seei
ngt hisbecausehewasbusygiggl
ing)
Me:
Heyboys(
Isayt
aki
ngpl
ast
icf
rom t
hem)
Xoxo:
Ndisayobonaumakhulumnamama
ndi
zobuyangoku(Iam goi
ngtoseemygr
annyIwi
ll
bebacknow)
Bebackbef
oreIknowi
tkeboyheshout
edaj
aand
wentof
f
Hi
m;Babywher
e'syourphone?
Me:
isechar
ge.
ini
Hi
m:Ok(
hesai
dscr
oll
ingdownmyNet
fl
ix)
Me:
Whyar
eyouaski
ngl
ove?
Him:Ihavebeencal
l
ingyouthewholeaf
ter
noonI
evensentyoumessagesdidn'
tyouseet
hat?
Me:Nomyphonehasanet workprobl
em maybei
wi
llgetmessagesl
ateronam sor
ry
Hi
m:ButwhenIsaidl
etmebuyyouaphonewhat
di
dyousay?babyyourej
ect
edmyof
ferati
-st
ore
i
nfrontofphambikwabantukodwanowyouare
tel
li
ngmet hatyourphoneisgi
vingyoupr
obl
emsor
areyouokwi t
htheproblemsyourphonei
sdi
shi
ng
uponyou?
Me:WellIdi
dn'
tmeanitl
iket
hatnjena,
andIhadno
i
deaonhowyout ookiti
nididn'
twanttolookl
ikei
am mi
lkingyousoIhadtoli
mitit
hink
Hej
ustsl
ight
lyshookhi
shead
Him:Tomeandt othewor l
dlookedlikeyouwer e
doingmeaf avourbydecli
ningitbutkemina
kaNtshangaseiboughti ti
nyourabsencemaybe
theressomeoneyouwer ehidi
ngfrom Idon'tknow
buthereitisIboughtitanywaysIwantt oreachyou
wheneverIam cal l
ingyouican'tgoover5hour s
withoutheari
ngyourvoice
It
ooktheboxandopenedi
t.
.ohmyGodohmyGod
ani-
phone11promaxGodisthi
smanforr
eal
Me:BabynoIsayscr
eami
ngandj
umpi
ngupand
downoutofhappi
ness
Hi
m:Babyyeshesai
djumpi
ngupanddown
Hebanathi
sguylolIhuggedt
heLi
vingdayl
ight
s
offhi
m Iki
ssedhi
m ami l
li
ont
imesYooam t
he
gyel

enj
oybabi
esgoodni
ght
CHAPTERSI
X
.
.
It'
sbeent woweekssi nceImovedi nKempt onpar k
Iam enjoyingmyl ifeandt hi
ngsbet weenNdi l
eand
Iaregoodt ooIam happilyinlove.Wel lyourgir
lis
notwor ki
ngbutat tendingcomput erclassesand
somedr i
vinglessonsbecausei tsOct oberso
there'
snowayicanenr ol
ltoanyt erti
ar yi
nstit
ution
thisti
meihaveappl iedatUJsoiwi l
lstartnextyear
andmysongoest ooneoft hebestdaycar esin
Nor t
hRand. I
tsWednesdayam pr eparingf ormy
l
unchdat ewi t
hmyf riendBontleIdon' tknowwhat
towearsoIdeci deonwear i
ngawhi teskinnyjeans
withanof fshoulderpeachcr oppieandnude10i nch
bl
ockHeel
sandmyL.Vhandbag,
facebeaton,
32
i
nchonandnail
sdone.
Gir
lspoppi
ng
Iam atFour waysMuggandbeanswai t
ingf or
Bontleshe'sforeverl atethisonesoIt aket his
oppor t
unitytologont omyI nst
agram andpostt he
snapsIt ookear l
ieronasIam busyonmyphoneI
canf eeleyesburningi ntomyski nsoIsl owly
searchedar oundt oseewho' sbusychecki ngupon
me,Goshi shest il
lont hisf aceoftheear th?well
don'tgetmewr ongguysIdon' twanthim deadIst il
l
wanthi mt oseehowhappymysoni swithouthim,I
wanthi mt oseemesucceed, Iwanthimt oswal l
ow
hisownwor ds.Wher e'shiswi febythewayhe' s
havi
ngl unchwi thsomeot herslayqueenar r
rgthis
i
sManziwet al
kingaboutamanhar lort
.
Bontl
e:Backt
oear
thbi
tch!!
!shesayssnappi
ngher
handsnearmyeyesasirol
lthem
Me:Hell
otoyoutoo.
.l
etmeguessyourphoneran
outofbatter
yonyourwayher
ethat
'swhyyou
wouldn'
tletmeknowyouwouldbethi
slatewhil
e
i
t'
son60%
Her
:Bi
tchhowdoyouknowmyphonei
son60%
Me:Ij
ustknowit'
salwayson60%moss.wehugged
andbestfr
iendki
ssed
Her:
OkIwontl
eti
tsli
dewho'sthatnigga?
shesays
poi
nti
ngMenziwi
thherglassasshewasf il
li
ngi
t
wit
hchampagne.
thi
sgir
landalcoholsmh
Me:
Babydaddy.
isayr
oll
ingeyes
Her:
Whydidn'
tyoubri
ngxoxowithyou?i
nfactnoI
wanthi
mt omeetyouallwi
thBandi
leandseehow
happyyouare
Me:Gurlanganeheartat
tacksamet i
mekalokuhe
won'tr
ecoveranyti
mesoon. weburstint
oalaught
er
andthatonit'
sowndr awedattent
iononusdowe
car
enowedon' t
Her:
Bropluswit
hxoxobusycal
li
ngBandil
e'daddy
wam'.shesaysi
mit
ati
ngmysonsvoice.
'
Goshyour
soniscutechoma
Me:
Iknowbabes.
sher
oll
shereyes
wetal
ksomemoreoverwhist
leeati
nganddri
nki
ng
wi
nes.Whenl
unchwasoverIrequest
edanuber
backtomyapar tmentbutIf i
rstwentt opi cupxoxo
atcrecheasi twasal readyaf ter
noon.Whenwegot
homeIt riedcal l
ingNdi lebutIcoul dn'
tr eachhim
maybei t
'snet wor ksincehe' soverseasonsome
businesst r
ipbutwhogoesona' businesst ri
p'for8
daysandhehasonl ycal l
edmeonhi sfirstdayat
Dubaiandsi ncet henIcoul dn'tr
eachhi m aiiandazi
i
fhedoesn' tcal l
edtil
lFr i
dayIwi llgoandaskhi s
fr
iendNat himaybehemi ghthelpmet rackinghim
downwhati fhe' sindangerorevenwor seandxoxo
ontheot hersi deisbusyaski ngmeabouthi sfather
andIhavet obr ushhim of feverytimehedoes
(
meanwhi
lei
ncol
ombi
a)

??:
MrBiyel
asi
rIdon'
tli
kebei
ngkeptwai
ti
ngdi
d
youbr
ingmyparcel
?
Hesayspour
ingsomewhi
skyf
orhi
m
Bandile:YouknowIdon'tmakeempt y
promises( t
akesthewhiskyandgulpinonego)Your
parcelsareatroom 22floor15al
lvir
ginsam fl
ying
offtonightandthanktoyourladi
esforkeepi
ngme
companypl easepaythem sotheycannotbot her
meI '
vegotawi feandasont otakecareofand
sendmymi l
li
onsimmediatel
ywhenIwal koutof
thatdoormywi feneedmoneyf orherglowseeyou
soon.hesaysfixi
nghimsel
f
Guy:
Butyoudi
dn'
tdoanyt
hingt
othem whymustI
payt
hem?
Bandile:
Theywantedtodotheirj
obbutIref
usedso
i
t'snotthei
rfaul
tbutminesopayt hem t
heygot
famil
iestofeed.
theguysshakeshishead
Guy:
am neverget
ti
ngawi f
eifam goi
ngt
obet
his
weak.
Theysharedalaught
er
Bandil
e:Ir
emembersayi
ngthatwhenmybestfr
iend
Nathigotmar
ri
edsoneversaynever
.t
heyshook
handsandBandil
ebidgoodbye
BANDI
LE

Iam backinthecount
ryandIst
il
lhaven'
tchecked
onmyl i
tt
lefamil
yam abadguyIknowbutIl i
ed
bei
nginDubaiiwasi nCol
ombiashippi
ngimportant
car
goes.
AsIam r
efr
eshi
ngIgetacal
lfr
om Nat
hi
Me:
Myni
ggamyni
gga.
isayt
hati
nmysi
ll
iestvoi
ce
Him:ifitwasn'tf
oryourgir
lfr
iendIwouldbe
droppingthiscallr
ightnowam notaniggaIam a
manamar r
iedonet obeexactlet'
smeetatoneof
forbarsImi sseddrinki
ngforfree.
Hai
bothisguy
Me:manIcanhearyout
alki
ngaboutf
reedr
inks
what'
sgoi
ngonismywomanok?
Him:Youdisappearfor8daysandyoutheone
aski
ngt hatmanmeetmeatyourbart heonet hat
's
i
nSandt onbyeee.damnhedroppedthecalloklet
megoandgetal ectur
efrom mybestfr
iendandI
am goingtogetanotheronefr
om mywomanyooo
am screwed.
Af
ter40minut
esam al
readyatSandt
onhavi
nga
dr
inkwit
hmyf r
iend
Hi
m:Sot
ellmehowdi
ditgo?
Me:Youknowmemosszonkei
zint
omt
hebel
ele.
we
cheer
ed
Hi
m:Toomuchpr
ident
anga.
Chuckl
es.
Yourl
ady
cal
ledmeyester
dayaski
ngaboutyourwel
l
-
bei
ng,whyi
sthatdi
dn'
tyoui
nform her
?
Me:
wel
lIki
ndal
iedt
oher
.isayl
ooki
ngdown
Him: ncncncnc.hesai dshaki nghi sheadi n
disagreement .
Bandsmf ethuwhenar eyougoi ngto
l
ear nhuh,whenar eyougoi ngt ostoplyingandlet
thepoorgi rlt
oknowt her ealyoubecausesooneror
l
at ersheisgoi ngtof i
ndoutwhatyour eal
lydofora
l
ivingsoi t
'sbet t
ertot ellhernowbef oreyoufall
deeperi nlovewi t
hhersot hatifuyakugabha
njayam ungangi khalelikakhul u.hesaidthat
l
aughi nghel l
Me:
Ithi
nki
t'
stool
atenj
ayam.
isaycar
essi
ngmy
f
ade
Him:Iseeandnjayam Iwontt
ellyousomethi
ngt
hat
youalreadyknowinthisgamewe'vegotmany
enemiesandyoudonotwanthert of
indoutt
hebad
waysol ungi
saumuziwakhopoi .
Wher eam Ievengoi
ngtost
artandifIdoitwon'
tbe
todaybecauseIwill
spendt
herestofthi
sday
apologi
zingokletmegoandseemywomanbut
fi
rstl
etmest
artatt
hemal
landbuyhersomet
hing
ni
ce
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
IwasatL. Vstor esIgotmyl adyabackpackand
l
adiesboot sthatshehasbeenpost ingonher
stor
iessurelyshest ansthem andasagood
boyfri
endIdeci dedtobuyt hem justtoseeher
happyf aceandIal soboughtgr oceri
esam headi
ng
toherapar t
mentwhenigott hereijustparkmyM7
andof f
loadedthet hi
ngsIboughtandwentt oher
doorstepr i
ngedt hedoorbell
Her
:Comi
ng!
!.
Me2me: ohLordgi
vemest r
engthIneedyour.
..
she
opensthedoorgotnomybabyi sstandingt
here
l
ookingallki
ndsofsexyandyummyIswearmyD
j
usttwit
chedabi t
.shehadatowelcoveri
ngheram
sureshejustcameboutoftheshower..
Her
:ar
eyougoi
ngt
ocomei
nor
..
Me:
(scr
atchi
ngmyhead)
yeahyeahsur
eam f
ine
thanksandyou? shelookedconfusedIcansee
she'scontai
ningalaughterbutkeepi
ngitcool
.she
helpedmewi ththeshoppingbags.whenwewer e
donewesatont hehighchai
rsandshegavemet he
'
explai
nt ome'look
Me: Thatshorthairanddyemamakhemxaai sheim
uyibaxil
e.isai
dt r
yingt osoft
enherupasIwas
aboutt okissherf oreheadheblockedmywayeer
sani'soItoldherwhatwentdownover seasnot
everythingthoughi twasjusthalf
-trut
hsobasi cal
ly
Ili
edsomehowbutIhadt oo,shelooksli
keshe
boughtmyst orybutyoucanneverconf ir
m women
pri
vat einvest
igators
me:
Imi ssedoursonbabywhenishecomingback
f
rom yourfri
endspl
ace?Isai
dget
ti
ngcloset
oher
Her
:wel
lhemi
ssedyout
oobuthewi
llbeback
t
ommorow
Me:(sul
king)nobutImisshi
m.imadepuppyeyes
l
olshelaughedatmeandhuggedmet henwejust
foundeachot herki
ssi
ngandwemadel oveatt
he
kit
chencounterGodImustmar r
ythi
sCoochie
becausewowitgotmetalki
ngintaungesand
confessi
ngmyloveIswearIevengavehermy
pin

Al
it
tl
esomet
hingchapt
er7comi
ngMor
row
LOVEANDLI
GHT
canIhavecommentsIneedtoknowhowy'
al
lfeel
aboutt
hisst
orymaybehelpmehereandt
her
e
RESPECT
CHAPTERSEVEN
.
KHI
THA

Lastnightwasabl usteventhoughNdi l
eman
handledmeandnowIcan' tevenwalkpr operl
ysmh,
andyenahe' snotevenherehewentt omeeta
potentialcl
ientfr
om theU.S.soIwasbusycl eani
ng
upatt heloungewhent hedoorswingsopenand
there'
smycut estsonIrantohughi m andkisshim
al
lover
Xoxo:
Yhuuumamakhondi
yeke(Heymamal
eave
mealone)
andt
henhebanaxoxo
Me:
(Ij
ustt
urnedandl
ookatBont
le)
Her:
Wellhedi
dn'twantt
ol eaveatt
hemallhe
wantedtocarracethewholedayandminaam
t
ir
edyooosoIhadt oforcehimleave.
Me:
Argmaar
nhewi
llbef
ineshei
m maar
n
mnt
anam
Her:
Butfr
iendxoxohastounder
standt
hathe'snot
Godwear enotgoi
ngtoli
vebyhiswil
l.
.anyway(
she
sai
dthatsmil
ingiguessshesawmywal ksohLord
savemenow)
Me:
mmmhh.
Her
:Ohpl
easeyouaregoi
ngt
otellmewhat
'sgoi
ng
on,
i
sthel
ostsonbackint
hecountr
y.
Me:l
olyeshei
s.(
andInar
rat
edt
hewhol
ethi
ngt
o
her
)
Her
:Andyoust
il
ldonotl
ooknorsoundhappy
what'
sgoi
ngon?di
dn'
themakeyoucum?shesai
d
t
hatl
aughi
ngherassout
Me:
lolnophedi
dami
ll
iont
ime
Her
:t
hent
ellmewhat
'swr
ong
Me:Fr
iendIt
hinkwe'l
lIdon'
tthi
nkbutt
her
e's
somethi
ngthatNdi
leishidi
ngfr
om meandIneed
tof
indoutwhatiti
s
Her:Wellhowdoyoumeanhet ol
dyouwher ehe
wasandhowhect icthi
ngsgotwhenhewas
overseas,nowwhat'
swr ongchoma? doyoususpect
thathe'
smaybecheat i
ngonyou? di
dyouseeany
signsbesidest
hesuddendi sappearance?
Me:Nohemightnotbecheati
ngl
etmesayIam not
sur
ebutther
e'sabsol
utel
ysomet
hingabouthi
m
Her
:Sowhatar
eyou/
wegoi
ngt
odo?
Me:Iwil
lhavet
oplanthi
sIneedtomoveinsil
enceI
havetobesmartaboutt
his.
isaypour
ingsome
morewine
Her:
HeeeHambaadvocateNGXOWAnextyeargo
getthatl
awdegr
eebaby.
shesaysdr
inki
ngf
rom t
he
bott
le
Me:welli
ttakes4/
5yearsorevenmor
e..
andwhy
areyoudrinki
ngfr
om t
hebottl
ekwiWi
ne
endi
yit
hengelwengumntuwam?
Her
:l
olngi
phuzel
ekuphike
MENZI
Wel lIwassi tt
ingatmyof f
icef aci
ngt hebeaut if
ul
vi
ewofJobur gargt hisplacei sbreathtaking.Iwas
deepi nt hought sthinkingaboutNomkhi thaher
suddengl ow, thewayshel ookedsohappy. Iwonder
whi chNi gerianblesseri spayi ngforthel uxurylif
e
she'sl i
vingnowadayswhydoIevencar e,She'sjust
ar uralgi r
lexcitedaboutbei ngi nt
hebi gci t
ysoshe
doesn' tknowhowsomebodyyout rustedcanbe
possi blybeyourenemyt henextdayandwher ethe
hellishersonwhom t heysayIsupposet of atherI
woul dn'tdarespendi ngmymoneyont hose
l
owl ivesmnawhatar emyf riendsgoingt hinkam a
manofl evel
ssono. asIwasi ndeept hought siwas
disturbbysomebodycl earingt hei
rthroatandwho
cant hatbegoshi t
'smybeaut if
ulwifeanddaught er
Me:
myt
wof
avour
it
ewomenont
hewhol
epl
anet(
I
saymaki
ngmywayt
othem)
Wif
e:Babedon'tt
ellmeyouforgotaboutour
l
unch.WtflunchgoshyeahIdidpromisethem lunch
soam goingtoactli
keiwasjustwait
ingforthem
Me:
OhyesbabyIwaswai
ti
ngf
ory'
al
l.
.
Her:
oksowearegoingtoMorningGl
enmallr
ight
nana?(
shesai
dthatref
err
ingt
oourdaught
er)
Nana:
Yesmom

{
Mor
ningGl
enMal
l
}

KHI
THA

Wewer ebusyshoppi ngformysonst riptoDur ban

sowecamet oMor ningGlenmal lt
obuyal lthe
necessarythingsneededbutnowwewer eatZARA
ki
dsbuyi nghisclot
hesandhewasonNdi l
esback
busytalkingnon-st
opandpoi nt
ingwhat everhe
wantedandt hetrol
leyisallmostful
lifhewaswi t
h
mewewoul d'vebeenlefthoursagoactuall
yIdon'
t
evencomeher ether
eisAcker mansforthese
peopl
e(r
olleyes)andwai tisthatMenziandhis
famil
ycoincidensy(rol
leyes)
Xoxo:
Mamam udaddywam ut
hindi
khet
hel
eboot
s
Me:Semnandimntkbw.Isai
dlooki
ngforhi
ssi
ze
whist
leNdi
lewasalsolooki
ngforhi
ssizet
oomhh
f
atherandsongoals.
.
Menzi
:MhhMrBi
yel
a
Ndi
le:
ohheyman.
hesai
dlooki
ngconf
usedok
what'
sgoi
ngonher
e
Menzi:
Weoncemetatt
heGaladi
nneri
n
Cent
uri
on.Doyour
ememberme?Mxm uf
unanikant
i
l
onentloko
Ndi
le:
Ohmanar
eyouMrLokwe?
Menzi:
LolIt
sMrLokhwebutIunder
stand.
they
shar
edal aught
er
Ndil
e:Okmananywaymeetmybeaut
if
ull
adyam
t
alki
ngaboutmyfutur
ewif
eumahkaboyhesaid
t
hatkissi
ngmeandbrushi
nghi
snosewit
hmineI
j
ustgiggled.
.ij
ustsaidafai
ntl
y'Hi'hewantedt
o
hughim meIj ustgavehim ast
ernlookhemoved
backalit
tle.
xoxocamebackwi ththesales
assi
stanttheywenttolookforhi
ssi ze
Me:ni
yithol
e.t
heynoddedIt
hankedtheguyand
gavehim aR100notejustt
othankhimforhi
sti
me
andkindness.
Xoxo:
Daddywam. hesaidspr eadi
nghisar msNdile
andMenziturnedt ohim Icanseet heshookin
Menziseyeslolhegot t
achillheain'tt
alki
ngtohim
Ndil
etookhimi nt
ohi sarmsandxoxor estedhis
headonNdilesbroadar mst heylookedsocut e
guys
Menzi
:Yougotason?heaskedt
ryi
ngtocont ai
n
hi
mselflolIwonderwhyi
sheal
itt
lebi
tjumpynow
i
sheamazedhowgr ownhei
sst
upidhet houghthe
woul
d'vediedmaybesmh
Ndi
le:
Yesasyoucanseemanthisi
smyntwana
nt
wanahesaidti
ckl
inghi
m andki
ssi
nghi
m
Menzi
:OhIdi
dn'
tknowwel
lhi
ssogr
own.
Ndi
le:
Aar
gmf
ethuukukhul
akwenganeakusi
lut
ho
whenther
e'slot
sofl
oveandsuppor
t.Icansee
di
scomforti
nMenziseyes
Menzi
:ManIt
hinkIhavet
ogowe'
l
lmeet
Ndil
e:Jawemustmanandaboutyourbusi nessI
thi
nkIwi l
linvesti
npl usIal
wayswant edtobein
theminningindust r
ybutwewi l
ltal
k.t
hey
exchangedcont actsIwrappedmyar msonNdi lehe
j
ustkissedmyf oreheadwhil
ebusyonhi sphoneas
theywereexchangi ngcontact
sande- mailaddr
ess
Xoxo:
Daddywam ndicel
aiRibsndi
lambi
le(
canI
haveRibsam hungr
yplease)
Ndil
e:okwewi
llhavet
opayforyourt
hingst
henwe
cangoandhavelunchatDr
os
Me:
Areyoual
sogoi
ngt
oeatr
ibsmunt
uwam?
Ndil
e:Changingat
handaukudlawenami na.
hesaid
thelastpar
tinawhisperhe'snaughtyl
ikethat
'ok
manyougott heemailaddressjustl
etmeknow
whenyouar enotbusyseeyouar ound.
Menzidi dn'
t
utt
erawor dhestormedout
Ndi
le:
okdi
disaysomet
hingawf
ul?
Ijustshr
ugged
myarmswewentt opayandleftt
ohavelunch.l
ol
Menzii
ssuchadramarkingwhatwasthatallabout
buthe'
sst
il
lgoi
ngtobreatht
hrought
hewoundt hi
s
i
sjustast
art
Ndi
le:
Areyouokmyl
ove?
Me:
YesbabyIam.
Ndil
e:Mhhhdoyoubyanychanceknowthat
guy?welli
swhatIam thi
nki
ngdi
dhenot
icethathe
l
ikehe'sbelovedson
Me:
YesIdobaby
Ndi
le:
Umazel
akuphi
?
Me:canwehavet
hisconver
sat
ionendl
inipl
ease
baby?
Ndi
le:
okmyl
ove

MENZI

Iam her
esitt
ingandwonder
ingwhatmightt
hisbe
al
labout,
didNomkhit
hafr
ameMrBi yel
awith
pregnancyandmadehi mt hi
nkt hati
shi sson?
no
whendi dthathappent houghbecauseshewasi n
thevil
lageallalong?mhhaiIt hinkImustj usti
gnore
thi
sjustfornow, letmefirstgetMrBi yela'
smil
li
ons
tosavemysi nkingshi
pt hatmangotpr idehewant
toownever ythinghethinkIwi l
lsellhalfofmy
sharestohim smhhegotanot herthingcoming

PALESA

Higuyswelly'allknowmeasMenzi '
swi fewellhim
andIarehappi l
ymar r
iedbuthe' sabul l
y.todayI
sawhimt al
kingt oBandsheeeandhewaswi t
ha
gir
landaboychi ld.
Wast hathisbabymama
hebanaletmesendmyf r
iendamessageweneed
tomeetshegott oknowwhathe' smani s
doing.
Wellmyf riendwasi nDubaial lal
ongf ora
photoshootwear ebot hmodel satoneofJobur gs
numberoneagency' s.
ThatBl ondieheadedbi tchwill
knowwher etopl ayatam sur ethatisnotBands
sontheydon'tevenl ookalikewel lIsawt hem ina
di
stancebutwhatevermyf ri
endgottofi
ghtf orher
manshecantl etthatl
owbudgetsl ayqueenhave
hershe'
snotevenhi stypeBandzisnotintochubby
gi
rlsSheim uGir
l,
she'
saboutt odeacti
vat
eherI .G
becausetheATM i sabouttobetakenbyi t
's
owner..
heeIcan'twaitfort
ommor owokl etmecal l
hershejustblueti
ckedmesmh
Phoneconvo
Lel
e:Fri
endam dr
ivi
ngIsawyourmessageon
app.
.rol
leyes
Me:
Mnganingi
nezi
ndabaezi
shi
sani
Lel
e:Haomnganeungadl
alinj
alozi
ngani
?
CHAPTEREI
GHT

Pal
esa
.
Am gett
ingreadyt
omeetmygi rlheeeIcan'twaitt
o
t
ellherwhatIsawhayinayeshe'salwaysl
at eam
wait
ingforheratWat
erFallr
est
aurant.
.ohthereshe
i
scatwal
kingt
hisbi
tch.
Wehuggedandor
der
ed
Her
:Yooam sor
rymoGur
lIwasbusy
Me:
Lolwi
thwhatkewenabecauseyourmani
nbusy
wi
thhi
sli
tt
lef
amily?
Her
:Fami
ly?
whoar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:Wehoekant
iunamadodaamangakhi
wena?(
howmanyboyfr
iendsdoyouhave)
Her:
owpleasejustt
ellmealreadyforsur
eyou
knowsomethingIdon'tknow.inar
rat
edthewhol
e
stor
ytoherandwasdeadshocked
Her:
Not hat'sal
iehowcoul dhedothattome?I
meanwe. ..Godthi
sexplainswhyhisfr
iendNat
hi
hasbeeni gnori
ngmewheneverIaskaboutBandz
hewouldj ustbl
uet i
ckme, f
ri
endIwenttohi
shouse
yest
erdayatSandt onifoundanoldmagogobasho
yenashemovedi ntoday.
.
Me:Nowthatyouknowyourmangotababymama
okl
et'
ssaya' fake'babyl
owbudgetsl
ayqueenand
hemovedfrom wher ehewasstayi
ngi
t'
sobvi
ous
he'
swit
hher ,
Sot el
lmewhatareyougoi
ngtodo
bbes?
Her:Idon'
tknowfri
endIthi
nkiwillhavetogot
ohi
s
off
iceonMondaymaybeIwi l
lfi
ndhi m and
confronthi
m aboutt
his,
howcouldhe?
Shei
m

NOMKHI
THA
.
Ndi
leandIwer
echi
ll
ingatt
hebackyar
dwhi
leXoxo
wasbusypl
ayi
ngwi
thhispugs
Ndi
le:Sobabyhowar et
hedrivi
nglessonssofar?
oh
heforgotaboutwhatwesai
dwewi l
ltal
kaboutso
am notgoingtoremi
ndhim eit
her
Me:
Wellyourgi
rli
scol
lect
ingherdr
iver
sli
cenceon
Mondayheynow..
Ndil
e:ncooababyam sohappyforyouar
rgmaarn
comeandki ssyourdaddy.
lolweki
ssedwewer
e
dist
urbedbyhisbeepingphone
Me:
Youbet
tercheckonyourphonemaybei
t'
s
i
mpor
tantdon'
tyout
hinkmyl
ove?
Ndil
e:What
'si
mportantonaSunday?ever
ybody
knowsSundaysarestri
ctl
yforf
amil
y.hechecked
hisphonehequi
cklyret
urnstometoseeifIam
l
ookingorwhat
Me:
URi
ghtl
ove
Ndil
e:Ohj
ababyam fi
neit
'sj
ustsomesi
ll
yasI
.G
comments.
.ohhe'
slyi
ngagai
n
Bandi
le
.
.
It
'sMondayam atwor kI'
vebeenonbusysi nce
06am andnowi t
's11am justi
magi nehavi
ngso
manycompani esisni
cebutt i
ri
ngsoam chi l
li
ngat
myof f
icecouchanddr i
nkingwhiskyandthere'
sa
knockgoshwho'sthatandt hedoorswingsopen
and..
.
Guy:Myniggamyni gga..
ijumpandrushtohimit
's
myot herBest
ieLukhanyohe'soneofS.Asbest
advocatehewasinI t
alyforacer
tai
ncli
ent
Me:
Nigga.
..
wehadabr
other
lyhuh
Luu:
Manohmani
t'
sbeenal
ongt
ime
Me:Real
lyi
tis.
.isaypour
ingwhi
skyf
orhi
m wesi
t
down
Luu:Sowhat
'snewmfethuheadthatyougot
yoursel
fawoman?heaskedwit
honeeyebr ow
rai
sed
Me:Yesmanandam pl
anni
ngt
oputar
ingoni
t.
He
cheer
edforme
Luu:
What
?who'
sshe?
wenamar
ri
agei
ntshakel
e(i
t'
s
new)
Me:WellImetsomeoneandIl
oveherImeanshe
changedme
Luu:
Howso?
Me:
Mant
hisl
adyhasasonr
ight
Luu:
whuuuuok.
.
Me:AndyouknowhowIal wayssaidiwouldnever
rai
seanotherman'schil
dactual
lyIwantedtomarry
avirgi
nbutlovehappenedbroandtobequi t
e
honestIdidn'
tfal
linl
ovewit
hhismot herbuthi
m
toohisli
kemysonbr o..
Luu:
Inevert
houghtIwi
llseet
hisday.
.mf
ethuwena
commitmentThi
xo
Me:HahamanNat hiwasrightandanothert
hingI
thi
nkmywoman' sbabydaddyi ssomeoneiknow
butshehasn'
tsai
danyt hi
ngaboutherbabydaddy
soIlett
hatsl
idebecauseIdidn'twantt
ogodeeper
andquesti
onherIwantedhert otel
lmewhenever
she'
sready
Luu:
Whenyousayyout
hinki
t'
ssomeoneyouknow
who'
sthat
?
Me:It hi
nkit'
sMenzimf ethutheotherdaywewer e
atthemal lsowemetatZar abuyingmysons
clot
hesandhecamet oaskmeaboutbusi nessbut
thewhol eti
mehewasl ookingatLisebroandjiki
j
ikitheguyst orm outnj
enayol emeidisacting
somehowandwhenIdomyr esearchLiseis
l
ooki ngexactlyl
ikeMenzi
Luu:Manthi
sishecti
cforsur
etheissomething
goingonortheyhaveapastmanwhatifhe
assaul
tedhermadeherpregnantandl
eftheratthe
vi
ll
ageortheyareoldfl
ames
Me:ManIdon'tknowandnayeakakhul
umi(
she
doesn'
tsayanythi
ng)
Luu:Don'
tfor
cehermanshewillopenup..
sowena
areyousureyousti
llwantt
odobusinesswit
hthi
s
Menziguy?
Me:Af
terthi
snoIdon'
tknowIam notsur
ewhati
f
hi
splott
ingsomet
hingf
orme?
Luu:
Plot
ti
ngf
orwho?
Thet
ermi
nat
or?
Wel
aughed
Me:
Mxm manl
et'
sfor
getaboutt
hatandt
ellmehow
wasI
tal
y
Luu:
Asifawuyaziyheemfondinikhondiboni
sele
meidyakho(Aifyoudon'
tknowi t.
.canyouplease
showmeyourwoman)It ookmyphoneand
showedhim mygirl
spict
ures
Luu:Yhoooooyhooooof
lamesbr
ofl
ames.
.hesai
d
thatsi
dehuggingme
Luu:Idi
dn'
tknowyouwerei
ntochubbygi
rl
s.hesai
d
thatwit
hhiseyebr
owrai
sed
Me:
HahahasyouseenaweIcoul
dn'
tresi
st
Luu:
SowhataboutLel
ethu?
Me:Aar
gmanuyazithatherandIwerejust
shaggi
ngandchi
ll
ingsoshewillunder
stand
Luu:
butyouwer
ebusydef
endi
ngheract
ingl
ikeher
man
Me:
Maybet
heblazi
ngsexsheusedt
ogi
veme
mademesothat
..
isayshr
uggi
ng
Luu:
Andyenaumamakaboy?
sheaskswi
thasi
l
ly
smir
k
Me:yoomf
ethuIcan'
tbedi
scussi
nghernawewe
al
lknowwhoyouare"Casi
nova"
Luu:
Brocomeonkhot
het
he
Me:OkkeIwon'tgiveyousomuchdet ail
sbutshe'
s
waywaytootightandt hat
'showIwantitandshe
canbeupti
ghttopIthinkaftert
oni
ghtshewill
l
oosenup
Luu:
Hai
bowhat
'sgoi
ngont
oni
ght
?
Me:She'
sgett
ingherdri
ver
sli
cencewewil
l
cel
ebrat
ethatandgivei
tal
ltoher48mi
nround
baba
Luu:
Hai
bo andher eIwasthi
nki
ngwewi l
lgot
o
cl
ubver
nucegetdr
unkandfuckaroundasweuse
to
Me:
Sor
ryam notavai
labl
etoni
ght
Luu:
Okman(helooksatthewat
chathi
swr
ist
)I
havetogoseeyouaround
webr
ohuggedandhel
eft

LELETHU

Am onmywayt oBandzof fi
ceIknockonceandlet
myselfint
herehei stopl
essl yi
ngonthecouch
faci
ngtheceil
ing,
Istr
ipedleftwit
honl
ymyl i
ngeri
e
andcatwalkedtohim
Me:Heyhandsome.isayget
ti
ngontopofhim he
pushesmeont hesideandwhati
sthatal
labout
Hi
m:Whatdoyouwant
?
Me:OwpleaseBandsyouknowwhatIwant.
.Isay
goi
ngtositontopofhi
m hewasathi
soffi
cechair
nowIsi tmyassst raightt ohi sbonerohhhi seven
turnedonandt hatal onewor kedhej ustki ssedme
hungr i
lysoandt ur
nedmeandIbal ancedwi tht he
tablemanhedi dn'twast eanyt i
mehej ustf ucked
thel i
vingdayl i
ghtsof fmegoshIf or gothowhecan
turnintoabeastaf t
ert hat10mi nroundIheadhi m
openhi sdr awerokhet ookat issuet ocovert he
condom andt hrewi tinadust binandt ookal ubok
he'saboutt ofuckmei nt heassandhedi diwas
screami ngont opofmyl ungsl uckilyhisof fi
cei s
proofedsowesaf eaf terthathel eftmebr eathless
hewentt ocleanhimsel fatthebat hroom It ried
wal ki
ngbecauseheyi twasbur ni
ngdownt her emy
bothhol eswer ebreat hingf i
regoshwhenIgoti nhe
wentoutIdi dmybusi nessandbackt ohisof fice
he'snott hereandt hen. .myphonebeeped* R20000
received*hebanaoknowhewant stopl aydirtywel l
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BANDI
LE
.
It
'seveningIhavecooked,setthetabl
e,
litt
he
candlesandmusi cisonsof t
lysoandt her
e'sa
knockatt hedoormyl adyishereoklet
'sget
dinningIopenthedoorholymar rymotherofJesus
myl adyisbeauti
fulshe'sf
lames
Her
:I
tsabi
tchi
ll
yout
sidecanIgeti
n?
Me:Jasur
esure.
.youl
ookumm sexy.wal
king
behi
ndherandtheass.
.al
loutbaba
Her
:t
hankyoubabyyouarenotbadyoursel
f.
we
l
aughedandnowitcli
ckst
hatIhavebet
rayedher
Godam suckasucker
Me:
MommyIt hinki
t'
saboutti
meIbuyyouacarI
meanthatinherdri
verwasbusychecki
ngonmy
woman'sthi
ghsnoangekhe(never
)
Her
:Ohplease(sherol
lshereyes)ndi
selambemnt
u
wam ndi
kuxelele(
Iam sohungr ymylove)
Me:Letmedi shupforyoumysugarandspi ce.
i
dishupforthebothofuswehadourdi nnerwit
h
l
ightconver
sation,
ki
ssesandl
aughterhereand
theregosham ahappyman
woul dcal laf atherbecausehi sownf atherl ef tme
pregnantatt hevi l
lager i
ghtaf t
erIt oldhi mt hatI
waspr egnantandi t'shischild.Het oldmet ogot o
thenear estcl inicandabor tt
hel i
ttl
ebust ar dt hatis
growi ngi nsideofmebecausehe' si snotgoi ngt o
fatheri t
,hecan' tbeseeni npubl i
cwi thal owl ifegi r
l
l
ikemehet ol dmet hatIam ugl yiwi llneverbe
anythingiwi llneversucceediam awi tchj ustl ike
myl atemot heriwi llendupbei ngadr unkar dand
mychi dwi l
lbeapr osti
tuteoraj unki ehesl apped
mesohar dt hatIlostsi ghtandf aintedhenever
tri
edt ohel pmeiwast oldthathel eftmel ayi ng
thereatt hest r
eetsi ncethenIneversawhi m. After
ayearorsoIhear dt hathewasget ti
ngmar riedI
didn'tevencar eItol dmysel fthatIam goi ngt oplay
farfrom hi m andIdon' twantt oeverseehi m agai n
andIcameher eIsawhi m whileIwasst illwor king
atFoschi nihewaswi thhiswi f
eandIt hankt he
counsel lingIgotatchur chIdi dn'tcryIj ustwant ed
himt oseemor eofmeandhowgr ownandheal thy
mysoni swi thouthi m andIwant edt otellyoubutI
didn'tknowhowt osayi tmaybei twasgoi ngt o
j
eopar di
set hebusi nessr elati
ony' allhavingsoI
j
ustkeptqui
te
Me:Shitwhat .
.nononot hatbustar
dncncncnanami
Idi
dn'tknowokandnowt hatIknowIwi llcutt
ies
wit
hhi m orrathernotIwillt
eachhim alessonhis
businessissinkingam goingtomakei tdrownor
heeeenever mindbabyam sor ryokIl
oveyouok. ..
i
gavehert heti
ght esthugeverandIki
ssedher
Me:Nanamiwheneveryouhaveapr obl
em wi t
h
somet hingort her
e'ssomeonewhoi sdisturbing
yourpeacel etmeknowok. .
shenodded'justknow
thatmi nanawewear est
uckwewi l
lneversepar at
e
i
fyourl over unsoutdon' tworrywewi l
lusemi ne
ok..
shej ustl aughedandIsmi ledimissed
that'
Ngi qi
nisilenjal
o'isl
idmyhandunderherdr ess
shif
tedhert hongabi tandplayedwithherclitI
l
ookedherdeepi ntheeye
Me:Ngi
yakut
handamaMdl
anewami
bef
oreshe
coul
devenanswerme.
.
CHAPTERNI
NE
.
.
.
.
Af
terwehaveeat
enwewentt
ochi
llbyt
hef
ir
epl
ace
whi
stl
edri
nki
ngwine.
Me:
BabyIneedt
otel
lyousomet
hing
Her
:Ohok.
shesoundedsouncomf
ort
abl
e
Me: BabyIhaveabadpastwhi chIam nothappy
aboutwel lIoncehadagi r
lf
riendIl ovedhersoso
muchbutwhenshegotaschol arshi ptost udy
over seasshenevercamebackt omel etalone
communi cating,sothatruinedmebabyIst art
ed
hoei ngar oundbecauseIwashur t,betrayedand
playedt hat '
showIf eltsoIdi dn'tcar eaboutones
hear tbuti nallIwasdoi ngIwoul dal wayspl ayit
saf ebecauseIdi dn'
twantt oi mpr egnat esomeone
thatIdon' tevenseeaf uturewi thandneverwant ed
tor aiseanot herman' schi l
dbutImeetyoubaby
whenyout oldmeyougotasonIwasabi t
disappoi ntedbecausemywi shwast omar rya
virginbutt hel oveIhadf orcouldn' tletyougoI
lovedyoust i
llasIam st il
lcrazyaboutyouandour
son. Sthandwasami IloveBaxol isel ikemyownson
iam wi l
li
ngt ogi vehimt hef atherlylovebecauseI
knowhowi tfeelstogr owupwi thoutaf athereven
tousmeni tst ingsbabysodon' tgetmewr ongI
l
ovet hebot hofyouwaywayt oomuchandam i nto
i
llegalbusinesst oobutIwillal wayshaveyouguys
protectedal lthet i
meIwi l
lpr otectthebot hofyou
withmyl ife.SowhatIam t ryingt osayi spleasedo
notleavemej usttrytobarewi thmeasIam t ryi
ng
tobeagoodpar t
nerandaf at herthisi
sal lnewt o
mebutIwi l
ltrybabyj ustdon' twakeuponeday
anddeci det ol eavemeam j ustt i
redofallthese
secretsIwantsomet hingreal nowacl ean
relat
ionshipwi thnosecretsandl i
esmunt u
wami ..
Ther e'ssi l
enceIthi
nkshe' sstil
ldigesting
whatIj ustsai d
Her:Fi
rstofal
lIjustwantt osayt hankyouf or
tel
li
ngmet hat,
fortrusti
ngmeandf or..(
snif
fsI
quickl
ytakeherintomyar ms)forlovingmeandmy
sonwhenwel essdeser veitandthankyousomuch
formakinghim happyt hefatherfigureisjustt
oo
muchbaby. .
Inevert houghthewi llonedayhave
someone
woul
dcallafat
herbecausehi
sownf at
herl
eftme
pr
egnantatt
hevil
lageri
ghtaf
terIt
oldhi
mthatI
waspr egnantandi t'shischild.Het oldmet ogot o
thenear estclinicandabor tt
hel i
ttl
ebust ar dthatis
growi ngi nsideofmebecausehe' si snotgoi ngt o
fatheri t
,hecan' tbeseeni npubl i
cwi thal owl i
fegi r
l
l
ikemehet oldmet hatIam ugl yiwi llneverbe
anythingiwi llneversucceediam awi tchj ustlike
myl atemot heriwi llendupbei ngadr unkar dand
mychi dwi llbeapr ost i
tuteoraj unki ehesl apped
mesohar dthatIlostsi ghtandf aintedhenever
tri
edt ohel pmeiwast oldthathel eftmel aying
thereatt hest r
eetsincet henIneversawhi m.After
ayearorsoIhear dt hathewasget ti
ngmar ri
edI
didn'tevencar eItoldmysel fthatIam goi ngt oplay
farfrom hi m andIdon' twantt oeverseehi m again
andIcameher eIsawhi m whileIwasst illwor king
atFoschi nihewaswi t
hhi swi f
eandIt hankt he
counsel lingIgotatchur chIdi dn'tcryIj ustwant ed
himt oseemor eofmeandhowgr ownandheal thy
mysoni swi thouthim andIwant edt otellyoubutI
didn'tknowhowt osayi tmaybei twasgoi ngt o
j
eopar di
set hebusi nessr elati
ony' allhavingsoI
j
ustkeptqui te
Me:Shitwhat .
.nononot hatbustar
dncncncnanami
Idi
dn'tknowokandnowt hatIknowIwi llcutt
ies
wit
hhi m orrathernotIwillt
eachhim alessonhis
businessissinkingam goingtomakei tdrownor
heeeenever mindbabyam sor ryokIl
oveyouok. ..
i
gavehert heti
ght esthugeverandIki
ssedher
Me:Nanamiwheneveryouhaveapr obl
em wi t
h
somet hingort her
e'ssomeonewhoi sdisturbing
yourpeacel etmeknowok. .
shenodded'justknow
thatmi nanawewear est
uckwewi l
lneversepar at
e
i
fyourl over unsoutdon' tworrywewi l
lusemi ne
ok..
shej ustl aughedandIsmi ledimissed
that'
Ngi qi
nisilenjal
o'isl
idmyhandunderherdr ess
shif
tedhert hongabi tandplayedwithherclitI
l
ookedherdeepi ntheeye
Me:Ngi
yakut
handamaMdl
anewami
bef
oreshe
coul
devenanswerme.
.
Igrabbedherthi
ghsandopenherlegsItookt
he
l
acet hongshewaswear i
ngaheadinbetweenher
thi
ghsandf east
edonherjuicyj
urshewas
mour ni
ngmessokam doi ngitt
heri
ghtwaywhen
shewasaboutt oreachcl
oud9Istoppedand
l
ookedheri nt heeyeshewaspi ssedl olwomenand
orgasm,carr
iedhert othet abl
ewhi chwasneart he
wallIshif
tedt hevasethatwasont opofi tand
undressedherGodt hi
ckmomma, Ili
ft
edbot hher
l
egsputt hem i nmyshoul dersandIpi nnedheron
thewallandnowourf aceswer esocl osewewer e
breathi
ngthesameai rIlookedherdeepi ntheeyes
asIwasundr essingIrubbedmydi ckopeningher
fol
dsandent er edheronj ustoneforcepushshe
screamedandIdi dmyj obandandand. .
..
..
.

KHI
THA
.
It
'sTuesdayIdon' tknowwhatt i
meitiswhatIknow
i
st hatIam tir
edguys,Ndi
lealwaysmanhandl esme
noIneedt opl aceacomplainlol
..
honestlyIam
happyt hatIam withamanwho' smadl yinlove
withevent houghIneverdreamtIwilleverbemnk
l
ifeasIwast r
yingtowalktothebathroom because
myj ari
sbur ning.
.myphoner angandit'
smyman
Me:
Hey.
.
Hi
m:St
handwasami
unj
aniusuvuki
le?
Me:Yeskhonandivukayoam l
impi
ngt
othe
bat
hroom becauseyoumanhandledmewena.
.isay
sul
kingandyenahe'slaughi
ng
Him:NgiyaxolisananamihawuIleftmybl
ackcard
onthesidedr awer,t
hepinist
hegogetgrocer
ies
andbringLi seoveriwanttospendthewhol
eweek
wit
hy'allpleasenanami..
Me:Ummm okbabybutIt hi
nkIwillalsoneedaf
ew
personalt
hingssocanIuseyourblackcardont
hat
too?
Him:Yeahsurebabyyoucanbuythewhol
e
FourwaysIdon'
tcareaslongasi
twil
lmakeyou
happyam fi
newithit
Me:
Ha.
anakebaby
Him:Whatbabyyouareawomanandeverybody
knowy'al
lloveshoppi
ngsodot
hatandpampermy
honeyj
arImi ssit
Me:
What
!!
!noawuzi
vanga
Hi
m:(
bur
stoutal
aught
er)
iloveyou.
He
disconnect
edhai boyooohegoti
tal
lyest
erdayand
eveninthemor ningasozeal
okndi
ngabhubha
(neverIwoulddie)
It
ookal
ongbat
h
CHAPTERTEN
.
LELETHU

Iam atthemallwit
hPal
esaandmy2ot herf
ri
ends
AshleyandTina.
WeatFabianchecki
ngonsome
beauti
fult
opswithmyfr
iendsaswewerebusy
shopping
Palesa:
Mhhhsochommieyouwenttohisoff
ice
yester
dayr
ightdi
dyouconf
ronthi
m aboutwhatI
tol
dyou?
Me:NoIdi
dn'
tIj
ustgotdi
str
actedbyhi
stopl
ess
hi
m sowedidwhatweusuall
ydoumasisobabi
li
Tina:Butbabeyoushouldn'
thavel
ett
hatgetover
you,youshould'
vei
gnoreditandconf
ronthi
m
becausehe'
sgoingtobelit
tleyoushei
m. .
aar
gTina
i
ssonegat i
veguysyooPal esaandIlookedoneach
otherandr
olledoureyes
Me:Ohpl easeitsnotli
keididn'
twanttoImissed
thatdarkskinneddick.
.isayli
cki
ngmyl i
ps.
.Tina
shookherheaddi sagreeingmxm am notgoingto
entert
ainher
Ashl
ey:
Soyouar esayingt
hepinkoneyouwere
get
ti
nginDubaican'tbecomparedt
othedar
kone
yougotyest
erday.
..
Me:Gur
lyou'
vegotnoideaandnowmybank
bal
anceissoexci
ti
ng.
.isaysqui
rmi
ng
Palesa:
Gurlgurlgurl.
.shesaidpointbythedoorand
therearetwoladiestheotheronei spushi
nga
trol
leywit
hacut ebabyboy, She'
ssobeaut i
fulbut
whatabouther ,
isitaboutthesneakershe'swearing
thegirl
sknowhowmuchwewant edtobuy
GivenchysneakersandsomeL. Vsl i
ngbagsthat
costover80kandshehast hem t
heweaveAgr ade
babes
Me:
Whatabouther
?Isaybef
orecompl
iment
ingher
Tina:
Goshshe'sfl
amestheyar
ebothflameslookat
thatsneakerweal
wayswishtohave.
Wel ookather
withenvyeyesbutPal
esahadthi
sboredlookand
now
Palesa:
Andt
hatl
adyy'
al
lbusyst
anni
ngi
sBandi
l
es
babymama
Whatt
heheck.
..
..
..
.
Ididn'
tsayanythi
ngijustwentwheretheywereI
sl
appedhershescr eamedandIgaveheranot her
onebeforeIknowitIwasont hefl
oorherfr
iend
ki
ckedmeandyenashewascr yi
ngonhersons
armscoward
Her
F:Whatt
hefuckar
eyoudoi
ng?
Bit
chwhatt
he
f
uckareyoudoi
ng?
Me:Whoareyouwenadoyouhaveanyi deawho
am I
?andwenawhatar eyoudoingwit
hmyman
huh?Isaypoki
ngherforehead?
Bandi
leismyman
onl
ymi netohavesostayawayyoufakeassqueen
Son:
Yekaumamam
Me:
Orel
sewhat
?
Son:
Ndzomxel
elaut
atam ubawenaubet
heumama
Me: Andt henwhatheywenat ellyourmamat o
showyouyourr eal f
atherBandi l
eisnotyourfather
he'smyman. .isaypoki nghi schestbef or
eIknewi t
thebabymamawasont opofmebeat ingthehell
out tameIscr eamedf orhelpmyf ri
endswer e
takingvi deoswhi leherf r
iendwasal sokickingmy
but thur t
ssobadbutIwi lltr
yf ighti
ngbackbutno
thisgi r
lgotwei ghtIscr eamedandcr i
ed
Secur i
ty.
.Securit
y..andmywi gwasnowher etobe
foundandmyski rrpothai rwasoutcr ustydust yfor
peopl et oseeIcr i
edf ornott hatIwasi npaint hat
girlcanpunchabi tchicriedf ormywi ggosht hat
's
themostexpensi vewi gIeverownedIr anto
par kinglotaspeopl eweret akingvideos

BANDI
LE
.
.
IwasbusywithworkwhenLuuandNat
hibuggedi
n
wit
houtevenknocki
ng
Me:
Manj
ewhyni
nganokhiwhati
fIwasbusywi
th
mywoman?
Them tothem:
Hedoesn'
tknow..
theysai
dwhatam I
missi
ngher et
heyt
ookthei
rphonesandscrol
led
theyshowedmeavideooftwoslayqueensfi
ghti
ng
Me:
Manjeyiningaleyi
f.
..
.wai
taminutei
sthat
Khi
thaandowshi tLelet
huholyshi
tam scr
ewed
Them:Manyouar
eindogusenj
enisbal
i.
they
l
aughed
Me:HowdidLelet
huf
ound?outImeanihaven'
ttol
d
hershehasn'
tsawmear oundwi
thherwhotol
dher
al
lofthi
s?owam def
eated
Luu:
Ist
hatwhatyoucareabout
?manyourwoman
wasbeatenbyyoursi
de
Nat
hi:
noyoumeani tt
heot
herwayrounddude
Khi
thacanpunchyesesmanIf
eelf
oryoushe'
s
goi
ngtofr
yyou
CHAPTERELEVEN
.
.
.
.
BANDI
LE

Immedi at
elyafterwhatsawonI nstagram Iknocked
offandonmywayt ot hepar ki
ngl otIgotst ares
peoplewer ebusypoi nti
ngonmeonsome' yesit'
s
theBandiletheywer efightingforbutt hatwast he
l
eastofmywor r
iesIwasmor ewor ri
edaboutMy
womanandsonshi tIdr oveoutandwentst raightt
o
myhousei t
'sgoodr esidingont heseexpensi ve
surbubsthere'
speaceeveni ntraffi
cyougot talove
West cl
if
f.
idrovei nt
heyar dwellshe'sbackican
seetheG63shel ovesi t.
.icanhearvoi cesinthe
l
oungeam sur eshe'
swi ththemyst eri
ousBont l
eso
Istoodandl i
stened
Bont
le:
YooMnganimayIber emindwhenIt hi
nkof
poki
ngXoxoshuuuumfazihayingekeabakuyeke.
Khit
ha:
Ohpl easest
opexagger
atingthi
ngs,di
dyou
seehiwherslapsmademescr eam goshlookatmy
cheektheyaresoredandswol
len
Bont
le:
butt
heycan'tbecompar
edonthepunches
yout
hrewmoGurl.
.sotel
lmewhatar
eyougoingto
doaboutal
lthi
s?ohgoshIst
artsweat
ingabi
t
Her:
Idon'
tknowfazibutBandi
lemustt
ellhi
shoes
tost
ayawayf r
om mebecausedramariswhatIdo
notneedr
ightnow.
.ouchMnganiyouarehurt
ing
me
Bontl
e:Awumenaweam tr
yingt
ohelpyou
her
e..
wellai
kengi
ngubankumarel
ati
onshi
p
wabantu
Khi
tha:
Idon'
tknownam but
..
icl
ear
edmyt
hroat
t
heylookedatme
Me:
Aft
ernoonl
adi
es.
.
Bontl
e:HiandbyeeIwasonmywayoutummm wel l
fr
iendIwillseeyou.
.shegavemeanevi
ll
ookyooo
Me:Okt
ravelsaf
eitwasniceseei
ngyou..shefaked
asmil
eIturnedtoKhi
tha'
babyI.
.I.
.am sorryam
ver
ysorr
y
Her:
ForwhatBandi
lef
orwhatexact
ly?
OhokShe'
s
evencal
li
ngmebymyf ul
lname
Me:Forwhatwentdownatt
hemallbabyam sor
ry
Lel
ethuismyexshe'sj
ustmadt
hatImovedonand
maybeshet houghtIwantHerbackbecauseof
whatwe..
.shewasl ooki
ngstr
aighti
ntomyeyes
whydidievenment iont
hat
Her
:Yesconti
nue.
.si
lence'
whatyoucan'tspeaknow
whatacatcoughtyoutongue.
.t
hethakaloku
Me:
Babyi
twasami
stakeigott
empt
edandIl
osti
t
Shegavemeahar
dsl
ap
Her
:Bandi
leut
hiniut
hinikum(
whatar
eyousayi
ng
t
ome)
Me:
Babyam sor
ryIdi
dn'
tknowshewi
llcauseso
muchdr
amarbecauseoft
hemoneyIgaveher.
.
Her:Youevengavehermoneybutwhatdi diexpect
i
t'
st ypicalofyour i
chassf uckboysyout hink
moneyf ixeseveryt
hingandI '
veseenyoudoi ngt
hat
Bandilenott hatam ungr eatf
ulbutnot oyou
everythingisaboutmoneyyoucan' tapologize
properlyevenwhenyouhavemessedupal lyoudo
i
sbuysomeexpensi vethingstoshushmeupbut
BandileIneedar ealtal
kandnowyougaveher
moneybecauseyouf uckedhermaybet hatwas
yourar rangementwi thherbutt hatdoesnotchange
thefactthatyoucheat
edBandileBiyel
ayou
cheatedonmeandyoucamebackandl i
edonmy
faceyoul i
edami l
li
onti
mestomeandyouf ucked
mest i
ll
..waitdi
dyouuseprot
ection?i
nfactdon'
t
answermeyousuchanassshet hrewherheelson
meIducked' Whyar
eyouduckingthem huhIwant
tobeatyouandyouducki ngr
haaaaamadoda
BAXOLI SE!!
BAXOLISE!
!Heeewenamasambe
Me: Noyounotl eavi
ngbabyyounot..
isayget t
ing
closetoherbutshet ooktheshoppi
ngbagsand
threwthem onmyf aceIswearsomethinggoton
myeyeIheart hedoorshutt
ingowmyshe' sl
eaving
whenIwasr eachingfort
hedoorIheart heher
drivi
ngoutshitIjustsatdownonthef l
oor
Xoxo:
Daddywam. .
ilookedupit
'smysonhehad
he'
ssleepyeyesam sureshewassl
eepi
ng
Me:
Heyboy.
hel
ooksatme
Hi
m:URi
ghtdaddywam?
Me:
YesIam uDaddyuphet
hwei
khanda
Him:Uxolovaxel
elaumamam akuphepi
yisi(
am
sorr
ytellmymothertogi
veyoupil
ls)
Me:Umamakhowentoutwi
thherf
ri
endshewi
ll
comebackl
aterokboy
.
.henoddedIgotupwentupst
air
sashewas
f
oll
owingmeLor dhavemer
cyonme

BONTLE
.
.
Iwasatmyapar tmentwit
hmy3munchki nsyesI
am amot herof32gi r
lsandaboywewer e
watchingcartoonsandtherewasaknockatthe
doorokwho' sthatIwantther
eandopenedohit'
s
myf r
iendhereyespuf f
yyoucouldt
ellt
hatshewas
cryi
ng..
Ij
usthuggedherandledhert
omyguestroom so
shecanbealonebutwhatdomenwantfr
om us
huh
.
It'
smor ni
ngIwokeuppr eparedformymunchki
ns
sot heycangotoschoolthei
rtranspor
tcameand
theywentoff,
asformeIcal l
edinsickatwor
kmy
fr
iendneedsmeIwentt
owhereshewassl
eepi
ng.
i
knockedonceandl
etmysel
fin
Me:GooDMorningloveIboughtyousomethi
ngto
eat
..
isaypl
acingthetrayonthedrawerasshewas
si
tt
ingupst
raight
Her:
Mor ningfr
iendwel
lthanksf
orbr
eakf
astbut
youdidn'thaveto.
Me:
Whatnogir
lIwon'
tletyoust
arvebecauseofa
manwhat
?!nonotonmywat ch.
.noweat
Her
:Letmegor insemymout
h..
.shedi
sappear
edt
o
t
hebathroom andcamebacki
naf ewminutes
Me:YooIwasonmywayt
ofet
chyoui
nther
e.she
f
aintl
ylaughsncooa
Her
:Owpl
easeandf
ri
endcanyoupl
easedomea
f
avour
?
Me:
Jashoot
..
Her:CanyoupleasegotoBandi
lesplaceandfetch
xoxoforme,youcanusehiscaronyourwayt here
anduberwhenyouguyscomebackineedt o
preparef
orhistri
ptheyar
edeparti
ngf orDur
ban
t
hisaf
ter
noon
Me: Okbabesasyouwi shletmegonowsowecan
packf orthepri
nce.
.iki
ssedhercheek..'
Fri
endyou
willbeokuyezwashenoddedIhuggedherandl eft
forBandileshousewithin40mi nIwasthereparked
thecarout si
dehisgarageandIwenti nwhenIgot
thereBandi l
ewasatthel aungel
yingonthefl
oor
withlotsofwhiskybottlesnextt
ohim Ishookhi
m
hest areatmeforagood3mi n
Hi
m: YoumustbeBont
le.
.ar
rgmor
ningbr
eat
hhe'
s
st
ilt
ipsyt
oo
Me:YesandIam her
etofet
chxoxohermomma
sentmeandyourcarispar
kedout
sidenearyour
garage
Hi
m:OwbutIthoughtIwi
llbespendi
ngsomet
ime
wi
thhi
m now
Me:Sometimewhi l
eyousmel ll
iketheyhavedipped
youint
opool f
ullofwhiskycomeonmanxoxoi sa
chil
dandyouknowhowt heseli
ttl
ethi
ngscan
senseandwehavet oprepareforhist
ri
phe's
l
eavingforDurbanthisafter
noonandbesidesyou
needsometi
meal
one.
Soshowmewher
ehei
ssoI
cangogethim
CHAPTERTWELVE
.
.
.
.
KHI
THA

It
'sFr
idayjustt
wodaysaf t
ermysonl ef
tforDur
ban
andit
'sli
keawhol eyearIsomi sshi
m. .
andBandil
e
Ihavebeenignoringhi
m idon'twanttotal
ktohi
m
notnowam notr eadytofallf
orhisl
iesagai
n
Bontle:
Mnganiyouknowt hosetwodr essessuityou
verywellbutam suggestingthefi
rstonet hatoneis
tooreveal
ing.
.ar
rgrolleyes
Me:Ndifunayonalei'
tooreveal
ing'(
Iwant)iworea
cockt
aildresswhichwasacent imeteranditwas
openedatt hebackfr
om shoulderstowaistwe
weregoingt oSumoNightClubjustloosenupit'
s
Fri
dayanywayandEnt l
e'
skidsar eatthei
rfat
herfor
aweekendsoj awesafe..
Entl
e:Wel
lai
kemoGurli
fyousaysoasambe( let
's
go)whenwearr
ivedatSumoitwasn'
tthatpacked
sowechoseourspotorder
edsomealcoholand
downed
Me:YooMnganindi yanxil
angokuandkephel a
kwentoendiyi
funayoleyokhendibefr
ee(Friendam
get
tingdrunknowandt hat
'swhatIneedjusttofr
ee
myspi r
it
)
Entl
e:Mhm mnganengiyakuzwamebutangi kuzwa
minaam busychecki
ngoutont hehottiesbythe
VVIPsect
ionyoohayipotenti
alsIt
ellyou..
wedr unk
l
aughed
Me:Mhm lookatthatyel
lowoneyhuumnganihayi
ngekheLordsavemenowyoursoni sext
raaaaaa.
Her:
Extr
aawhatsisyougotamansopl easeletus
si
nglepeopl
egetourchancehawumyki dswould
l
ovetohaveanuncleorbett
eryetast
epf at
her
Me:Don'
tyoudar erui
nmymoodwenaact ual
lyl
et
megot othedancef l
oorIcan'tdi
sappoi
ntKabza
thesmallno.
.iwenttothedancef l
ooral
one
becauseEntl
ecan'tmoveaf ingerandminaqueen
yomdantso(
dance)asIwasdanci
ngmyassout
twer
kingtosomeyanostheguywhoIwasfl
ir
ti
ng
wit
hcamet ome
Guy:
Owheybeaut
if
ul.
.mmhh
Me:Heyhandsome.
.isaybi
tt
ingmylowerl
ipyou
don'
tdar
ejudgemel omunt
ui Cr
eam nj
e
Guy:Canwegot owher
eyouweseat ingIwouldl
ike
tospendsometimewit
hyou..wewentt owher
eI
wasseatingandEnt
lewasalsowithamanok
ok.
.wesettl
edwefir
stexchangedcontact
sandhe
boughtsome
moreboozeChampagnet
obeexactaboHouseof
Bonang.
.i
zint
osbal
i
Him:CanIask?I
sityourf
ir
stt
imehere?Haibowenja
uyi
buzanj annt
wenjal
ooram Iover
doingthi
sshit
soIdecidedtobehonestt
oast r
angerjustf
oronce
Me:
Owj
aiti
swhy?
Him:Oknpdon'tgetmewrongam ki
ndausedtothe
l
adiesthatcomeheresoIcantel
lwhenIgotanew
customer.
..
newcustomeryant
onngok
Me:
newcust
omer
?Ar
eyout
heowner
?
Hi
m:Lolyes
Me:Real
lyandyetyouarebusydanci
ngonthe
samedancefloorasyourcust
omers?r
eal
ly
Hi
m:(
laughsohGodImel
ted)yeswhynot
?
Me:Youshoul
dhaveyourowndancef
loorImean
youownthispl
ace
Him:Noihavet ointeractwi
thmycust omer s
'
somet i
mes' andifIwasont hedancef loor
bengiszobubonaninil
obuhlebakhohuhhesai dt
hat
ki
ssingmeandIki ssedhim backhebr ushedmy
exposedthickthi
ghsandl etalightmoansomebody
cl
earedat hroat
Entl
e:Gur
lweneedt
ogo.
.ar
rgshe'
ssuchapar
ty
pooper
Me:Whywest i
llenj
oyingmossandi
t'
sst
il
lear
ly
khohl
alephant
si(si
tdown)
Her:
Nocan'
tyouseethatyouar
ewastedanddrunk
ki
ssi
ngastr
angeryoudontevenknowthi
sperson
Me:
Wel
lFYIIknowhi
m andIwoul
dreal
ly
appr
eci
atei
tifyoucoul
dleavemeal
oneIwi
llget
youatt
hehouse
Her:
Toughl
uckbabesam notleavi
ngyou.
.shesai
d
dr
aggingmegeewhat'
swr ongwithher
Me:Mrownercanyoupl
easecallyourbouncersfor
herImeanshewantst
oleaveandIdon'tIsti
llwant
togetdr
unksi
s
Guy:Noy'allcanleaveyouwehaveeachother
s
contactsIwillcal
lyoudon'twor
ryokl
ove.
.hesai
d
thatki
ssingmewehuggedandEnt lewasbusy
draggingmel ikeapatientwhor
anouti
na
Psychiatr
ichospitalsmh
OnourwayoutIwasbusysi ngingyheel
ingand
danci
ngjusttopissherof
fAarghowcansher ui
n
ourni
ghtjustl
ikethat
Entl
e:Am neverevercomingwit
hyouatthiscl
ub
i
nfactam nevergetti
ngyoudrunkyesesuyipi
ece
j
ob
Me:Andwenayouar
eapar
typooperam never
comingwi
thyoueCl
ubi
n
Sowewer
enowoutsi
dear
gui
ng
Wegothomeby02:am andnowam sur epeopleare
st
il
ldanci
ng,
dri
nki
ngandenj oyi
ngbutthere'
s
not
hingIcandoEntl
elockedmei nherbedroom.
.
.
Iwokeupat12goshIhaveabangi ngheadache
yoookantiwhatwentdownyest
erdayandmybody
i
ssoexhaustedIneedtotakealongassbath
becauseIneeditandtr
eatmyhangover

.
.

It
'sbeentwoweeksweeksandIhaven' tmetwi
th
Ndil
eImi sshim sobadbutIj ustwanthimtobeg
meashehasbeendoi ngsoj aweget ti
ng
somewher el
olandThabo( clubowner )wewenttoa
coupleofdatesandhehasbeenspoi l
ingmewith
gif
tsandmoneyIhat etolovet hi
swhenam Igoing
tostudysoIcanat l
eastsayI'vegotabackupplan
becauseshoppingalldayain'
tgoodbutanywayi t
's
enjoyableandnowam onmywayt oFourwaysto
meetwi t
hThabowesaidwewi l
lmeetatFoodchai
n
andt hereheiswai
ti
ngformehe'ssohandsome
guysy' al
lcoul
dswearhehasaboyf r
iendiwentt
o
him huggedhim wesett
ledandordered
.
.
BANDI
LE

Iam atmycr ibchill

ingbyt hepoolwhenIgotane-
mailfrom Mphohe' soneofmybestt rust
edITguys
sohehasbeenchecki ngkhit
hasmovesso
apparentl
yshe' sbeengoi ngoutwit
hthislooserand
sheswi t
hhi m aswespeak. .i
sshedoingt hi
stoget
backatmeorshe' sinl ovewit
hhim aiwewi l
lfi
nd
outsoonl etmecal lhershepicksupaf t
erfourt
hif
notfi
fthri
ng
Her
:Hi
..
Me:
Sthandwasam howar
eyou?
Her
:am goodandyou?
Me:
notsogoodImi
ssyounanaandxoxohasbeen
sl
eepingsincemor
ningIdon'
tknowwhycanyou
comeandcheckuponhi mtu?Il
iexoxoi
satNat
his
placevi
sit
inghi
sfr
iend
Her
:Whatandyouaret
ell
ingmenow?
youknow
whatam comi
ng.
.dr
opsthecal
l
Me:hahahaGot cha.
.wenttothehousetotakea
showerinlessthan15mi nshe'
shereowwowshe
didn'
tevenknockshegoti nwentstrai
ghttoxoxo'
s
bedroom Iguessandcamei nt
omi neIwasbusy
combingmyf adeandIwasn' twearinganyt
hingi
j
ustwr appedat owel
Me:
Ohheyyoul
ooki
ngbeaut
if
ul.
shewaswear ingal eat
hermi niski
rtandthose
woment hingsl ooki
nglikebr asorwhateverbutshe
wassexyImi ssedheral otandInoti
cedthatshe's
concentr
atingonmyV- l
ineokweget ti
ng
somewher eIgotcl osertoherandwhi spered'
dont
worryyouwi l
lgetme'
Her:
Wher
e..
wher
e..
shescr
atchedherneckf
rom t
he
back
Me:
Wher
e'swhatbaby?
..ihuggedherf
rom behi
nd
andkissesherneckhershest
art
edbr
eat
hingabi
t
fast
er
Me: mhhhbaby? .
.ikissedherneckacoupl eoft i
me
untilshet urnedandweki ssed,Iundressedherand
caref ul
lyplacedheront opofmybedwhenshewas
buttnakedIt ookof ft hetowelandwhenIgotont op
ofhershet urnedmeoverandshegavemeahead
ami ndbl owi ngonewhenIwasaboutt ocum she
stoppedhandsquat tedont opofmydi ckandr ode
thef uckout tameIwasgr oaningandswear i
nghow
canshebesogoodshepr obablyknowshert hing
afterwehavebot hcum shecol lapsedont opofme
Iletherr elaxf orami nut eandt urnedhersoIcoul d
hitfrom behi ndIf uckedhersosohar duntilshe
startedaski ngf orf orgivenesst hatthesuni shot
outsi detrustNt shangaset odriveawomancr azy
weheadsomanyst eamyassr oundsunt i
lwef el
l
asleeponeachot her'sarmsbutwhenIgotupshe
wasnowher etobef oundl i
kereallywhatgamei s
thiswomanpl ayingIt houghtshef orgavemeno
manno. .istil
lneedmor eofherandwokeupwent
downst airsohsheevencookedf ormehowl ong
haveibeensl eepi
ngandsheevenl eftanotefor
mer eads'dontcallmeandpl easebr
ingmyson
beforenoon' Iguesswear ebacktosquareone
yooohayit hi
si sarealpunishmentaniggacanget
butatleastshecookedl etmeeat

'
LoveandLi
ght '
CHAPTERTHI
RTNEEN
.
.
MENZI

(
atBandi
le'
sof
fi
ce)

Me:
Goodmor
ningMrBi
yel
asi
r.
.
Him:Goodmor
ning.
.hedi
dn'
tevenst
andupto
shakemyhandandwelcomemeathisoff
ice
Me:Ihavebeent
ryi
ngtogetholdofyouf orthepast
twoweeksbutyouwereunreachable..
isaysett
li
ng
downbymyownwi l
lam noti
nani ntervi
ew kal
oku
Hi
m: Ihavebeenbusyman..
youknowfamil
y
t
hings..
hesaidconcent
rat
ingonhisl
apt
op
Me:okthenIguessIcameatthewrongt i
met oobut
Ihaveaskedmyl awyertomakeacontractsoIwil
l
l
eaveithereandIwillbewai
ti
ngforyourcall
..
Him:Iwi l
ldefini
telycheckitupMrLokhweandget
backatyouam sor ryyouhavel essofmyat tenti
on
nowam busywi thsomet hingseeyounextt ime..i
wal kmysel foutthismanisf ul
lofhimselfandI
alsof i
guredthathe'sabitignor
antsohewon' teven
not i
cethatisafakecont r
actcont ai
ningri
ght
i
nf ormati
onf ormybenef i
tthoughIdr ovebackt o
theof f
ice
.
.
Lukhanyo
.
MysquadandIareatBoot
hni ghtcl
ubhavi
ngthe
ti
meofourli
vesl
ikeweusedto,IcanseeBandsi
s
notevenher
ehe'
sdeepinthoughts
Me:
Bandsmanwhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Tumelo:
JamanIhavebeent hi
nkingofaski
ngt
hat
too,
youarenotyour
sel
ftodaysup?
Bands:
Eishmani t
'snot
hingam j
ustt
hinki
ngabout
mybusinesses.
.hesayssippi
ngonhi
swhi sky
Me:YoumeanNomkhi
thahol
dingsbr
o?t
heyal
l
l
aughed
Him:Ihateyoubro(
smi
lesandshakehishead)can
youimagineshe'
sbeenignor
ingmefor3/4weeks
i
sn'tthatamonthnobr
oIcan'ttakei
tnow
Me: Let
'sgotoSumo' sandgetCameroonbrovel
e
kunyiwe..
wel aughedCameroonisTi
kanyahis
usualstri
ppershe'sfr
om Cameroonthat
'swhywe
callherli
kethatandshe'sl
ikeadol
lbroandonly
bil
li
onershaveher
Hi
m:Gotmyownxhosawomant hankyouvery
muchcan'tgetexci
tedoveracoochi
ethat
'sget
manydi
fferentchocksadaysoplease.
.
Us:
Oooooosayswho
Hi
m:Sayst
het
ermi
nat
or.
.hesayscl
ear
inghi
sci
gar
Me:
Mant
hisl
adygotyouwr
appedi
nherf
inger
she'
syourmast
er
Him:I
sn'tt
hatagoodthi
ngNathi
,MphoandSbu?he
sayslooki
ngatthesemarr
iedmen
Bachel
ors:
Don'
tyoudarey'
al
lrui
nourni
ghtsave
thel
ect
urefornextt
ime.
.
Nat
hi:I
tsagoodt
hingBands,
whenar
eyouget
ti
ng
marr
iedagai
n?
Hi
m:NextyearMar
chNj
ayam.
.hesayswi
thl
otof
pr
ide
Us:t
hefuck.
.andweonl
yhear
ingt
hatnowman
haveyouproposed?
Phi
lani
:Nininaiqunj
elwel
ekaka?
(whencozhi
s
womani sstil
lmadathim)
Him:Iwi
llshecanmar
rymei nhermoodIdon' tcare
butwhatIknowisam get
ti
ngmar r
iednextyear,
,so
bereadyy'al
l
Us:
weneedsomemor
ewhi
skyandhoesandyou
ar
epayi
ng
Hi
m:Icanpayfordr
inksbutnothoesbaf
ethuihave
l
ear
ntmylessonsothankyouverymuch..
He
boughtmor
edrinkswedrankconver
sat
ionl
iti
t'
s
goodtobewit
hyourniggas
.
.
BANDI
LE

Am atKhit
ha'sdoorst
epshesai
dshe'scomi ngsoI
am standi
ngoutsi
deandmyhandst uckedintomy
pocketsam t
ipsytooi
sthi
sanotherpuni
shment
hayikodwankosisheopensupit'
s02:am andit
l
ooksl i
keshe'
sbeenupsinceokletmegeti n
Me:Ear
li
estMor
ningmyl
ove.
.isayhuggi
ngherby
f
orce
Her:
letmegoNdile.
.shesmi
lesandqui
ckl
yhi
desi
t
oksalayoIsawi
t
Me:
Babyawushowhenwi l
lyoust
opallofthi
sI
mi
ssyounanamiandithurt
ssobad.
.shelooksat
meandsays.
..
not
hing
AlsoMe:
Okkedishupformeuphekeniam so
hungr
yyesesmadoda..
isayopeni
nghispotst
hey
areal
lcl
eannot
hisisn'
thappeni
ngam dyi
nghere
Her
:Si
tdownIwi
lldi
shupf
oryou
Me: Awuzwekewenaam mar ryi
ngyoustrue
uzobona..
sherol
lshereyesshedoesthatalotshe
dishupformeIindulgeandaskformoreandIeat
ti
llIwasful
l
Me: NanakecanIpl easesl
eepinyourbednextto
youpl ease.
.Imadepuppyf aceandeyesar r
gthi
s
alcoholisalsodoingthemostshedoesn'tsay
anythingiblink3timesshetakesmyhandandl ed
met oherbedr oom Iwaswalkingbehi
ndherand
theasswhuuuuf atandinshapeIli
keili
ke
Me:
CanIt
akeashowerf
ir
st
Her
:whyar
eyouaski
ngdoyouwantmet
ojoi
nyou?
Me:
Yesbaby
Her
:Nextt
imeIneedmybeaut
ysl
eep
Me: yooo..
.idraggedmyl azyselftothebathroom
tooka15mi nshowerasusualIj ustdri
edmysel f
andwentst rai
ghttobedIcan'tbel oti
oningwithher
thi
ngsIcan' tsmel lhoney,
ber
riesandvani l
laangeke
ngiyindodami na..
whenIgoti nbedshewas
sleepingormaybef aki
ngitIjustgotunder cover
s
andcl osedmyeyesaf teracoupleofmi nutesshe
turnedt omenowi t'
smyt imetofakemysl eepIcan
feelhereyesburninginmyski nbutIwon' tgivei
n
andopenmyeyesshemovesabi twhatisshe
doingnow. .
shelayedonmychestandgothi sot
her
l
egbet weenminesasi tki
ssesmydi ckwhi le
settl
ingitshedidthatonpurpose.isl
ightl
yopened
myeyeswhenshel ookedupIquicklycloset hem
Her
:Khol
ale(
sleep)
Me:
Iwast
ryi
ngt
ount
ilyoudi
stur
bedmypeace
Her
:Yourpeace?
Me:
Jamypeace
Her
:'
Yourpeace'
endl
inkabani
Me:okourpeaceke.
.wel
aughed'
butnanakeimi
ss
youmoesmi na
Her
:I
'vebeenmi
ssi
ngyout
oobaby
Me:butyouwer
ebusyi
gnor
ingmeandt
hatwas
dr
ivi
ngmenut s
Her
:Youar
eamanyouwer
esupposet
ofol
lowme
ar
oundandbegme.
..
hawul
aGender
Me:
ButIdi
dmossori
twasn'
tenoughnanake?
Her
:NoI
twasn'
t
Me:
Okam sor
ryIwi
llt
ryhar
dernextt
ime
Her
:Sot
her
ewi
llbenextt
ime.
.ooops
Me:Notherewon'tbemyloveam sorr
yandIhave
l
earntmyl essonIsweart
hewon'tbebuti
fit
happensibakhonaitwon'
tbesomethi
ngli
ket hi
s
Her
:Okmyl
oveyoursi
nsar
eal
lfor
given.
.
Me:
Whatar
eyouser
ious?
Her:
Noam j
oki
ng.
.r
ollhereyesof
cour
seIam
ser
ious
Me:
Okt hankyousomuchmunt uwami
Ngi
yakuthandayezwana.
.isayki
ssi
ngherf
orehead
Her
:Justl
iket
hatnj
e
Me:Howdoyoumeanbaby.
.t
ellyourdaddywhat
youwant
Her
:Iwantt
his.
..
shesaysbr
ushi
ngmydi
ckpecksof
sl
eepi
ngnaked
Me:
Areyousur
e?
Her
:YesandIwanti
tnow
Me:
Saynomor
e..

Wemadel
oveandsl
eptoneachot
herar
ms
.
.
THABO

(
Att
heshi
sanyama)

Me:ManIfigur
edt
hatyouandIgott
hesame
enemythatwewantt
odestroysoIt
hough
It
houghtwecoul
dwor
kont
hist
oget
her
..
isay
si
ppi
ngonmybeer
Menzi
:Soi
fwefi
nal
lydowhat
'si
nforyoual
lIwant
i
shismil
li
onst
osavemycompanysowhatabout
you?
Me:Ij
ustwanttoseehi
m athi
slowesthe'
salways
ontopofthegamebesi
desIli
kehiswomant oosoI
mightt
akeherandmakehermysecondwi fe
Menzi
:(
laughs)ever
yoneonhi sci
rcl
eispr
aisi
ng
hi
swomanwhat '
sallabouther
?
Me:Mant hatwomani sflamesandshe'
ssohumble
Ili
kethattooabouther..
.anywayswear
enother
e
todiscussthatyousaidyouwantmoneysowhatis
yourstart
?
Menzi :
ManIf i
guredthathe'
sai gnorantbi
ll
ionerso
Iaskedmyl awyertodrawupaf akecontract
containi
ngrighti
nformati
onactuallyit
'snotfake
fakebutit'
stwothingsinone,sowhenhesi gnshe
willbesigni
nga3mi ll
itomeandget t
ingnothingin
return.
.
Me:Youlooksorelaxedmandoyouknowwhowe
aredeal
ingwit
h?letmeputi tt
hiswaybesi
deshis
formal
it
iesdoyouper sonal
yknowhim?heshakes
hishead
Me:
Letmetellyousoyoucanbeext
racar
efuli
fyou
wer
e..
Bandi
leisoneofthel
eadi
ngdrugl
ordand
gangsterofJozi nial
lhisbusi nessesar efundedby
him sobasicall
yhe' scleaningt hedir
tymoneyhi s
getti
ngfrom drugsIhear dt hatheisal sowor king
withRussiansandCol ombi ansdoyouknowhow
manydr ugdeal ersarestrivingforthat..
helooks
amazedr athershockedIcont inue.
'he'salsobr utal
tooandwi nsever ycaser umourhasi tthatafterhe
spend7year sinpr i
sonhebecamef riendswitht he
j
udgesandt headvocat esi nthiscountrybecause
ofthemoneyhehast alkingaboutpowerhi sot her
namei sTerminat orhaveyoueverhear daboutt hat
namebef ore?
Menzi:
What?!
!Manar eyouser
iousI'
veal
ways
hear
dpeopletal
kingaboutt
hee'Ter
minat
or'
Idi
dn'
t
knowitwashim
Me:
Youar
eYout
hinki
ngofwi
thdr
awi
ng?
Menzi
:Nother
e'snot
urningbackI
'
vegotpl
ansf
or
t
hismoneyIthi
nkIwil
ltakemychances
Me:
That
'swhatIt
houghtt
oowehavet
obr
ingt
his
mandownbutwemustbecaref
ult
oo
CHAPTERFOURTEEN
.
.
MENZI
.
.
Iwasatmypl acesit
ti
ngintheloungedrinkingmy
favourit
ewhi skywhent hi
nkinghardaboutwhat
Thabosai dtomeandt obequi t
ehonestam shook
butIhavet ocont i
nuewi t
htheplanwhenIwas
deepi nthoughtsIgotdistur
bbybeepi ngsoundi t
's
thedeliver
yguyIhavebeenget ti
ngevacuat i
on
l
ettersIcan'tevenaffordthi
shousenowIr eall
y
havet ogoaheadwi t
hthisplaneventhoughi ti
s
goingtoputmyf amilyandIindangerbutaman
gottamakeapl anforhisfamil
y..
.
.
.
LELETHU
.
.
Iwasatmyapar tmentwit
hmyf ri
endsbusy
di
scussingaboutthepar
tyNathiwil
lbehost
ing
nextweekFri
dayandIwantt obeflamesBandz
needtoseewhathe'smissing.
Iwanthimto
r
ememberallt
hegooddaysweusedt
ospend
t
oget
heratpar
tiesl
i
ket
hese
Pal
esa:
Whatar
eyoubusyplanni
ngyou'
vebeen
l
ooki
ngatt
heceil
ingsi
ncef
orever
..
soshenoti
ced
Me:Iam t
hinkingaboutt
hepart
y..
.weal
l
scr
eamed'Biycheswhat'
swrongwithy'
al
l?
Ashl
ey:Andwehavet
obefl
amest
hoserichestf
uck
boysgott
aseeusweneedt
ogetl
aidandget
money
Me:
YasssIwantt
oweart
hatbei
gecockt
aildr
ess
i
tsBandzf
avour
it
e
Palesa:Bi
tch!
!!youneedt
oweari
tphel
aiyakudl
ala
tuh(itsui
tsyou)
Ti
na:
Thatmangotababymamahe'
scr
azyabout
us:
Whooooooaaabi
tch!
!!
weshout
ed
Me:whydoyouhavetobet
hatnegat
ive?doyou
wanttobef
ri
endher
?Iaskl
ooki
ngather
Tina:
Nofri
endthi
sisallexhaust
ing,f
orgetabout
hi
m andmoveonorel seyouar egoingtogethurt
andlooseyour
sel
finthiswholething
Pal
esa:
Canyoubeposi
ti
vef
oroncepl
ease?
Ashl
ey:
for
getaboutTi
nashe'
sdickpr
essedt
his
one,
gogetyourmanngwaneso
Tina:Okfine(si
psonherwi ne)MrsLokhwenott o
ber udebutndicelalampahlamntase(canIhave
thatparcelsibl
ing)Ineedtodri
pont hatFr
idayLuu
hast onot i
ceme. .
Me:
Yooooar
eyoust
il
lcr
ushi
ngonhi
m?
Ti
na:YesIl
ovethatmanyouguyshavet
o
underst
andthat
Ashl
ey:
Gir
lIwi
llhel
pyouchooseabeaut
if
uldr
ess
t
hatassneedt
obeseenbabes
Me:
Thisoneneedtost
opact
ingl
ikeagoodi
e,t
hose
menareint
ofr
eakywomentakei
tfrom meIknow
t
hatsquad
Ashl
ey:
Andyetbakushayengest
ina
Me:
ohpl
easet
hati
smymansweet
ie
Ti
na:
MamuLokhwekal
okumnt
asendi
ncede
Pal
esa:
OkbbesIwi
llsendi
tnowvi
ae-
wal
let
..
Tina:
Enkosimhamha.
.sowhenar
ewegoi
ngt
o
shoppingbogurl
Them:
Wednesdaybabes
Yeahwecont
inuechi
t-
chat
ti
ngandsi
ppi
ngon
wines
.
.
LUKHANYO
.
.
Me:
Bandzmanyoucall
edme.
.isayset
tl
inghewas
wai
ti
ngformeatoneofhi
scl
ubs
Hi
m:Manyouareanadvocat
eIneedyout
odr
awup
acont
ractf
orme
Me:
Cont
ractwhat
'sgoi
ngonmf
ethu?
Him:Menzihappenedbro.
.hegavemeaf ake
contr
actactual
lyi
t'
snotthecontr
actstat
ethatI
havetosign3mi l
li
ontohim andIwil
lgetnot
hingi
n
ret
urn
Me:
Whatdidyoujustsaybafo?
ForgetIaskedsohe
t
houghtyouwon'
tseeitthtmanisungratef
ulno
he'
sgr
eedy
Hi
m:Tel
lmeaboutandnowIwantt
ocl
eanhi
m out
Me:
Okwhat
'st
hepl
an?
Him:
Thecontr
actyouaregoi
ngt odr
awmustbe
l
ikei
twasfrom hi
m si
gni
ngthatwholecompanyto
me..
hesaidsippi
ngonhiswhiskyokhe'
sangry
now
Me:
Thewhol
eofi
tmf
ethu?
Hi
m:Yeswhynot
?
Me:
Thatmanhasaf
ami
lybr
oatl
easthal
fofi
tke
Hi
m:NoIwanti
tal
lifhewantaj
obam goi
ngt
ohi
re
hi
m
Me:
saywhatathi
sowncompany?
Him:i
twon'tbehi
snomoresoIneedt
hatcont
ract
attheendofthi
smonthIwantt
ostar
tnewyear
owningthatcompany
Me:Sohowareyougoi
ngt
oconvi
ncehi
mint
o
si
gningt
hefor
m?
Hi
m:Whoam I
?
Me:
TheeTer
minat
or
Hi
m:Akubenj
aloke

Yooremi
ndmewhenIt hi
nkofthi
nki
ngtodouble
cr
ossBandi
lehe'
sapsychothi
soneIfeelsor
ryfor
Menzi

YourAdmi
nisbusywi
thassi
gnment
s
LoveandLi
ghtt
othel
iker
sandmor
etot
he
commenter
s
CHAPTERFI
FTEEN
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
.
It
'sWednesdayItookadayoffam onmywayt o
seemysonandhi smamaImi ssedt
hem i
t'
sbeena
while.
.Igott
her
eandparkedmycarandwentinside
andIleanedonthedoorwayandwat chmywoman
doingthethi
ngsonthestoveandshetur
nedam
sureshef
eltmypr
esencesheflashedasmil
eam
happyImademywayt oherIhuggedherandwe
ki
ssed
Me:Heymama.ipeckherli
psoncemor
eandher
f
oreheadandsqueezedher
Her
:Heydaddyyouar
esquashi
ngmypoorbones.
.i
l
etgoofher
Me:Imissedyounj
e..
ipout
edshepeckedmyl
ipsa
coupl
eoft i
mes
Her
:Imi
ssedyout
oo.
shewentbackt
owhatshe
wasdoi
ng
Me:
Wher
e'smyson?Iseeyouar
ebusy
Her:He'
sar oundletmegoandcheckuponhi m he'
s
beensilentIwonderwhatishedoing..
she
disappearstothecorri
dorandiwenttosett
leatthe
l
oungeandscr ol
ltothechannel
sinlesst
hanami n
Ihearmysoncr yi
ngwhatIsitnowIwentand
checkont hem hismamawaswhi ppi
nghisass
me:
Babynowhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Isaysepar
ati
ngher
f
rom hi
m
Her:
LookaroundmybrandnewFENTYmake- upall
i
nthesinkmy32inchmeluviani
sinpieceswhatdo
wecallt
hisBaxol
isei
ssil
lyhedeser
vesmor e.
.she
sai
dwalkingtousIbl
ockedherway
Me:
Nanamipleasefor
givehi
m Iam goi
ngt
o
r
epl
acethem youhavebeathi
m enough
Her:Noheneedsmor ehe'sgoi
ngtogetusedon
messingupmyt hi
ngsorsomeoneel se'
sUsil
elo
ndizomnyi
samna..shestormedoutIcomfor
tedmy
cryi
ngson
Me:
Whydi
dyoumessyourmot
her
sthi
ngsboy.
.
Hi
m:Notatam mnabendi
zidl
alel
a(dadIwasj
ust
pl
ayi
ng)hesaidwhi
stl
ehiccupping
Me:
Butt
hosewer
enewt
hough
Him:Kodwatat
aumamaunenwel euzozit
hinieziya
andngamadakamossangaya( butdadmom has
herownhairwhatisshegoingt
odowi t
htheot her
oneandthatwasjustmud)Iwantedt
olaughbutI
contai
nedi
t
Me:
Butuyazi
sebenzi
sanj
esopr
omi
semeyou
won'
tmesswi t
hyourmot her
sthi
ngsagai
nifyou
wantmoretoysjustsayi
tIwil
lbuyt
hem f
oryouok
boyhenodded'
Me:
Iloveyouyezwa.
Him:Nam Il
avu.
.ismi
ledbabi
est
houghwewentto
theki
tchenandmywomanwasbusypr epar
ingt
he
dinni
ngtabl
e
Me:
Hesayshe'
ssor
rymyl
ove
Her
:hemustsayt
hathi
msel
f.
ilookedathi
m
Hi
m:Iam sor
rymamasondi phi
ndeuyeva.(
Iwon'tdo
i
tagai
nyouhear)Theyhuggedandweat einpeace
wehadsomef amil
ytal
ksandwenttosleep..
(
Att
heBedr
oom)
.
.
Me:Babydi
ditel
lyout
hatwehaveapar
tyt
oat
tend
t
hisweekend?
Her
:Noyoudi
dn'
tIdon'
tremember
Me:Iam sor
ryt
henbutweekendwear
egoingto
Boothcl
ubmyni ggaLuui
shosti
ngayearendand
t
het
hemei
sBl
ack
Her
:OkIt
hinkIhavesomet
hingt
oweart
he
Me:
Youdo?
Her
:Yeswhy?
Me:Iboughtyousomethi
ngni
cewhenIwasat
NelsonMandelasquar
eIhopeyouwi
lll
ovei
t.
..
squeal
ing
Her:Thankyousomuchbabyandwhenareyou
goingtoreplacemyhai
randmake-
upIhavet
obe
fl
ameskal oku
Him:
Iwil
lgi
veyoumybl
ackcar
dandbuyt
hem
your
sel
f
Her:
Ok.
.shesaysget
ti
ngont
opofmeandshi
twent
down
.
.
MENZI
.
.
Bandi
lecal
ledmeonMondaysayingwehavet
o
meetnextweekf
ri
dayidon'
tknowhowIhavet
o
f
eelaboutt
hisIjusthopewereachanagreement
t
hatwil
lbenefi
tthebothofusIjustneedt
osave
mycompany
andontheot
herhandmywif
ewant15ktopay
someoneandnowIhavenot
hingl
efti
nmyname
CHAPTERSI
XTEEN
.
.
PALESA
.
.
It'
sfi
nall
ySaturdaynightmygi r
lsandIar
e
prepari
ngforthepartyeventhoughthechangedthe
themebutam sl ayi
ngsti
llbutam ki
ndofjeal
ousof
Tinashegotabi ggerassherdresshugsitandher
curvesjustf
inebutkenamingi muhlexei
m wedid
amat ouchups
Me:
Yoogur
lswel
itwef
lames.
.isayandwehyped
Ti
na:JongasiRel
evantchommieIcan'
twaittoget
drunkandhavealiverndi
pli
tel
aLukhanyo.
.we
bursti
ntoalaught
er
Ashl
ey:
Moghelewhenwegett
heosekewasenya
nakogost
rai
ghttot
hebar
Ti
na:Lont
ounyani
sil
ethati
saver
ybr
ighti
dea
uCl
everwena.
..
Palesa:
Theridei
sherel
et'
sgogirl
sIdon'
twantmy
husbandtoshoutatmefornot
hingint
hemorning
phelaIsneakedout
Tina:
Sneakedout
?!Ai
n'tyousl
eepi
ngont
hesame
bed?
Pal
esa:
He'
salwaysbusywi
thwor
ksomet
imeshe
sl
eepsatt
hestudyso.
.j
a
Me:For
getyoursor
rowsy'
al
lasambenican'
twai
tto
seemyman. .
.
Tina:
Senawor
ryngawebonanj
e..
(Iam wor
ri
ed
aboutyou)
Me:
Leavemeal
one
Wegoti
ntoourr
ideandwentof
f

KHI
THA
.
.
ItwasSat urdayni
ghtyesweprepar
ingfortheparty
yassssiOn, mysoniswit
hEntl
esoam
sorted.
.actuall
yIwastheonewho'ssti
lli
nfrontof
themi r
rorbecausemymani sdonemnaam st i
ll
doingmyf ashi
onshow
Him:Youwi
llt
ellmewhenyouar
edonenanami.
he
sai
dt hr
owi
nghimsel
fint
hecouchandr
elaxi
ngon
i
t
Me:
Whydoyousoundbor
edkngk?
Hi
m:Babyyouaresobeauti
fulyouar
eevenbeyond
t
hatbutIj
ustcan'
tgett
hereasonwhyyouar est
il
l
i
nfr
ontoft
hatmirr
orIhavebeenwait
ingforyoufor
agood30minutes
Me:Youshould'
vetol
dmet
hatear
li
eram sur
e
ngesi
separt
iningoku?
Hi
m:Soal
lthi
swai
twasf
ort
hat
?
Me:Secace.
.isayt
aki
ngmyfurputti
ngitovermy
shoul
dersIwaswearingabl
ackleatherdressit
wasshortandmanwasbusycompl ainingthati
t'
s
reveal
inghi
sasset
sbuthe'stheonewhoboughti
t
thoughitwassobeaut
if
ulguysitwasopenatt
he
backandhadsomecr i
sscrossi
ngstr
ings
Makingitl
ooksmoresexi
erIt
ookmyD.Gsli
ngbag
andmyf uraswewentouthewaswalki
ngbehi
nd
mesoIgotachancetocatwalk,
swi
ngmyhipslef
t
tor
ightandshakemyassjustt
ochar
m myman
Him:AwuumadodaaboNt shangaseabakhulubaze
bangigidel
aboh..hesaidthatandst ar
tsi
ngi
ng
NgaqonywabyBl aqdi
amondAar gmyman. .
wegot
tothecarbef or
ehecoul dopent hedoorhepinned
meoni tanddryhumpedmeandIguesshef el
tthat
iwasn'twearinganyunder gar
ment sitwasj
ustthat
dressandt hatalonedrovehim crazyIwas
moani ngandwet
Me:
Ndi
lest
opi
twear
elat
e..
Him:Andit'
syourfaul
t.
.whyunjemamihuh,canwe
cancelt
hispart
ythingandstayindoor
sjustmeand
you..
hepinnedmeanddr yhumpedmeagai n'
Huh
baby?
Me:
Nowecan'
tmnt
uwam weal
readyconf
ir
med
t
hatwear
ecomi
ngsowecan'
tjustst
ayasambe.
.
Him:Finekelet
'shaveaquicki
e..
isheeven
seri
ous'Babypl
easeitIwi
llbequick2minutes
noodlesbabychachachangi qedil
e
Me:2mi nutes?who? wena? Lolni cetrybabyni cetry
asambeIhavebei ngl ate.
.hel ookedatmeand
l
ookedathi sbonerhemadepuppyeyesbutt hat
didn'twor knott odayIshookmyheadandhegoti n
thecardef eatedwedr oveof f..whenwegott hereit
waspar kedal readysowegotoutoft hecarIf i
xed
myAgr ademel uvianwhi chwasscr eami ng'Iam
expensi ve'Bandi l
ehel pedmewal ktot heredcar pet
andwhenwegoti nam eyeswer eonusandyesi t
's
ti
met oputmywal ki nactionIhavebeenpr acti
cing
13inchheel sain'tnoj okey'allthest areswegotand
Ndileshandwasonmyasshewasbusybr ushing
andsl ightlysqueezi ngi tmnkdr ama. .
AndIcansee
howLel ethuandot hergi r
lswer epissedandmy
confidenceshoot edhi ghert heygott oknowt hi
si s
mymankal okuwewentt osi tdownatvvi psect i
on
andwewer eservedt heni ggaswer ebusygr eeti
ng
eachot herwhi stl
eust hegirlf
riendsandwi veswer e
givi
ngeachotherf
akesmil
esandhugy'al
lshoul
d
seeNathi
swifeshe'
srudeandcol
dthoughher
husbandiski
ndandwelcomingor
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Wewer edrinkingthewi neswi t
hthel adiesatt he
vvipcoucheswhi stl
eourmenwer edr inki
ngshot s
atthebarandsmoki ngcigaritwasaf tert
he
speechest hatt hesquaddi dtheywer eactuall
y
celebrat
ingt heiryearsuccessesIwasabi tti
psy
thoughanIwant edtokeepi tl
iket hatbecause
Ndileiswast edsohecan' tdri
vesot heladieswere
busyt hr
owi ngi nsomeshadesoneachot her
especiall
ymet heywer ebusyt ell
ingmet oenjoyit
whi l
eitl
astbecauseever ygirlknowsBandzast hey
callhimisamanCasnovaIwassopi ssedIasked
tobeexcusedbecauseIwi l
lendupsl appingahoeI
wentt othebat hroom Ididmybusi nessandwhenI
wasbusyf i
xi ngmyf aceandhai ral adyappr oached
meshewassobeaut i
fulwithherbl ackshor t
jumpsuit
Lady:
HiyoumustbeBandznewl
ady
Me:OwheysisyeahIam.
.isayconcent
rat
ingon
whatiwasdoing
Lady:
Iwonderhowdoeshekeepupwi
thal
adyl
ike
you
Me:
Whyi
sthat
?It
urnedt
olookather
Lady:Youl ooksoupt i
ghtandabi tseri
ousyouar e
definit
elynothist ypeBandzi sint
of r
eakywomen
sweet y.
.shesaysbef or
eheadingoutmnkiam
goingt oignoreallthisdramaryaziwhenIwasdone
Iwentoutandt heguyswer eseatedont hecorner
couchandt herewer eladiesaroundthem Lel
ethu
wasamongstt hem shewasbusybr ushingNdiles
broadar msandf li
rti
nghim soIdecidedt ogoand
j
oint hem ihear dthem talki
ng
Him:Let
huwespokeaboutt hissopl
easejustf
orget
aboutwhatwehadandmoveonIdon' twantto
soundlikearudepersonbutweneverdat edwe
werejustfucki
ngsopl easebealadyandaccept
rej
ecti
onam t i
redofexplai
ningmyselft
oyou
Her
:ButBandzwhatwehadwasr
ealyousai
dlet
's
trythi
ngsoutnoam notlett
ingyougojustli
kethat
youmi sl
edme..
okt hat
'senoughIwalkedtowhere
theywereandsatonmyman' slaphekissedmy
foreheadandIr
estedmyheadi nhisshoulders
Her:
Can'
tyouseethatwear
ebusyt
alki
ngabout
somethi
ngser
iouswena?
Me:
Didyouhearmei
ntr
udi
ngonwhat
ever
..
onwhateveryouguyswer
esayi
ng?
shedi
dn'
tsay
anyt
hing
Me:Cont
inuewi
thwhat
everyouguyswer
etal
king
about
Him: NobabyLel ethuwasl eavingr i
ghtLethu?We
kissedandshej uststormedout ..
sonowIwaswi t
h
thegentstheywer etalkingaboutwayst ogr owthei
r
businessover seasevent houghIcoul dseet hat
theyarehidingsomet hingf r
om mebecauseMpho
saidsomet hingaboutshi ppi
ngacar gonextweek
andt heyal
lshushhi m andl ookedatmemnkbuti t
wasgoodt hanwi ththosel adiesthenPhi l
anis
girl
fri
endcamewi thmyf urshe' stheonlyonewho
seem okayandwegetal ong
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rl
:Yoooyoushoul
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adi
es
ar
efight
ingnowimagine.
.shesai
dsi
tti
ngonher
manslapwhowassittednexttoNdi
le
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eeli
ngabitchil
ly,
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comingthosel
adi
esanddramararetheyalways
l
ikethat
?
Girl:
Idon'
tknowi twasmyf i
rstt
imehangi ngwi t
them too.
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gt heygotissueswecont inuedwi t
hour
convoanddr inkingfr
om ourmen' salcoholandt hey
played'HotgirlsummerbyMeganTheest all
ionft
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ooranddi dthe
thingandtwer kedIsawThaboIwentt ogreethim
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HeyTmanIdi
dn'
tknowyouwer
eher
e
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sgot ot hebal
conyit
'snoi
syandcrowded
hereIcan'thearyouiwentandtookmyfurwewent
tothebalcony

NARRATED
.
.
Bandi
lesawherwomanwal
kingoutwi
tht
heot
her
manwhent heydisappearedt
othebalconyhe
f
ollowedthem andwhenhegott heretheywere
f
acingwestl ooki
ngatt heamazi
ngjoburgcit
y
t
alkinghewentt ostandinbet
weenthem andkhi
tha
wasabi tshook
Ndil
e:AwuuThabonguwel omfethu..
youcould
sensefrom hisvoicethathe'
spissedwhistl
eThabo
i
sconf usedrathershakenhedidn'tknowthat
Bandil
eknowshi m
Thabo:
Yeahsur
emanl i
stenIhavet
ogobacki
nsi
de
i
twasniceseei
ngyou
Ndi
le:
Sur
egr
eetyourwi
fef
ormeok
Khi
thadi
dn'tknowt
hatThabohasawi
feshel
ooked
di
sappoi
nted
Ndi
le:
Sohedi
dn'
tment
iont
hatt
oyou
Khitha:
NOwel
lyeahIknewei
therwayhe'
smy
fr
iend
CHAPTERSEVENTEEN
.
.
Ndil
e:YouknowIhatebeingdisr
espectedmoss
nanamimor eespeci
all
yinf
rontoftheguyswhydi
d
youjustwalkoutwit
hamani nfrontofmehuh?
Khit
ha:
Babyhewantedt
oasksomethi
ngbutIcoul
d
hearhi
m sowedeci
dedtocomeher
e
Ndi
le:
Mxm..het
ri
edwal
kingawaybutkhi
tha
bl
ockedhi
sway
Ndi
le:
Andwhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Khi
tha:
(shetookof
fherfurandputitonthetable
andhersli
ngbag)babydoyoust i
llwantaquicki
e?
shesai
dbr ushi
nghert
highstr
yingtoseduceher
man
Ndile:
NomkhithaIneedtogobackto..
tohecouldn'
t
evenfini
shwhathewassayi ngbecauseshewas
alr
eadyonherkneesundr essi
nghim whenshewas
doneBandi l
eseyesweresosmallful
loflustshe
gavehim agoodheadandt heendedupmaki ngout
atthebalcony
.
.
Pal
esaandLel
ethuwer
eont
hei
rwayt
othesame
balconyt otakepicturesandsnapsf orInstagram
whent heygott hereitwast enseLelethucouldn't
standseei ngthatsightshewenti nsidewhistle
Palesadeci dedtotakeoutherphoneshewant ed
somet hingt ogetmoneysobybl ackmai l
ingthem
withthevi deoshe'saboutt otakeisgoingtoupher
budgetsoshet hinksshef oundgoodspacesot hey
willnotseehershet ookavi deoofthem whent hey
wer echangi ngpositi
onsshesawagl i
mpseof
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wasdr enchedshequi ckl
ywentbacki nsideTo
wher eAshl eywassi t
ted
Ashl
ey:
Whati
sityoul
ookl
ikeyou'
veseenaghost
?
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esa:
Heeesomegi
rl
sar
esobr
avebr
oIwoul
ddi
e
i
ntwengaka
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y:Kentwhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
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esa:Letmeshowyou. .
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gal
lerytol
ookfort
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cur
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.
.
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whatbelongst
ohim
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ocomment
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NA
.
.
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ngdrunknowbutwhat everhappensam
notforgett
ingmymi ssionIhavet ogett othatman
andwhenIwast hinkingofappr oachinghi m hi
s
phoner angandhewentoutt othebal conymaki ng
i
teasierformeIpul ledupmydr essal i
ttl
eIwantit
toshowmybut tcheekswhenIwal kandimademy
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mesomeki ndofawayXhosamenandpr i
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i
ntimidati
ng
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m:HidoIknowyou?t
hat
'scol
d
me:
NoIdon'
tthi
nksobutIdoknowyou?
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m:Oksoyoucamet
oint
roduceyour
sel
f?
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lIsawanadvertisementon
gumtreestayi
ngt hatyourcompanyisinneedofa
secr
etarysoIthoughtIshouldaskyout heownerif
yi
nyaninabecauseyouknowhowi nternetoperat
e
nowadayssoi fyoudon'tmindmister
?Isaytryi
ngto
chal
lengehim
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str
uelookl
etmegiveyoumynumber
soifyouareser
iousMondaymorni
ngIwouldli
ke
toi
ntervi
ewyouandseewhatvacantcansui
teyou
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saysal otaboutmyser iousnesshaveal ovel ynight
MrL. .isaywal ki
ngawaysl owlymaki ngsur ehe
noticeswhatIwanthi mt oseeIf eelhishands
grabbi ngmyar m Ilookedbackandwel ookedat
eachot herforacoupl eofmi nut esandhet ried
kissingmeIbl ockedhi m andf reedmyhandonhi m
asIwal kedawayIf elthiseyesbur ningintomyski n
that'
smor eIlikeit.
.whenigoti nsi demygi rl
swer e
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vethecarkeyssoI
willj
ustdr i
vemyselfhomeandt omysuppr ises
Mr sLokhwewasbusyki ssingwithoneofBandi les
fri
endswhatawowAshl eyam sur eshe'sbusy
screami ngherlungsoutsomewher eatthe
storeroom becauseshehasat hi
ngwi thbouncers
thatoneandLet huwentoutwi ththoseoldrich
hagsshel i
kesexpensiveshitbutshedoesn'twant
towor ksher at
heropenherl egsforitsoIdecided
todr i
vehomeandpr epare
CHAPTEREI
GHTEEN
.
.
TI
NA
It
'sMondayalreadyam pr epari
ngforthei nt
erview
andboyam abi tshakenwhenIconf r
ont edtheguy
aboutt
heof f
erIwasdr unkandnowam soberasa
j
udgemnkandspeaki ngofbeingdrunkIhaven' t
metwiththegirlssi
nceSat urdaymorningIwi llbe
seei
ngthem lateratMor ni
ngGl enmallforlunch
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lneed
anupgradeIdidwel lbyleavi
ngt hemodelagenci es
becauseyouhavet oopenyourlegsforbett
er
photoshoot
sofferssonoIcouldn'tdothat
.WhenI
gottothebuil
dingIwentst
rai
ghtt otheRecept
ion
Me:
HiMshowar
eyou?
Her
:Mor
ninghowcanIhel
pyou?
..ok
Me:
Icamet
oseeadvocat
eLuu
Her
:YoumeanMrNgcol
osi
?
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Ifhe'
stheowneroft
hispl
aceImeanhi
m?
Her:
Howareyour
elat
edt
ohi
m?doyouhavean
appoi
ntment
?
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swiththe21quest ionsar eyoua
j
ournalist?Jongasisi andonqeniumkhangel ale
buil
dingyonke<l ooksi sdon'
tmi ndsear chi
ngfor
hi
mi nthi swholebui ldi
ng>khona<besi des>isitpart
ofyourj obdescript
iont oaskmesomany
unreasonabl equestionssopl easedirectmet ohis
off
ice..
isayasshewasbusyr ol
li
nghereyesgi rls
beengivi ngmeat ti
tudeabadone
Her
:Fl
oor8.
off
iceno.
4onyourl
eft
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Thankyou.
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otheel
evat
orpr
essedno.
8
andwentstr
aightwher
eIwasdi r
ectedIknocked
andheletmeinhewasl ooki
ngki
ndofbusybut
heyhe'
stheonewhosai dImustcomeanyway
Me:Goodmor
ningMrNgcol
osiIcamef
ormy
i
ntervi
ew
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GoodmorningtoyoutooMswel lIam busy
nowbutyoucanleaveyourc.
vIwil
laskmyp. ato
l
ookuponitandwai tf
ormycall
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?yousai
dimustcomef oran
i
nt ervi
ewnotbr i
ngmyc. vam notorder
ingorbeing
disrespectfulbutIreall
yneedajobplusIdon'teven
trustyourp. aafterthebadservi
cesIgotfr
om your
receptionist
..helookedatmeandf i
nall
yheasked
meaf ewquest i
ons
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ness
especi
all
ytheAtt
orneyspacethat'
savai
labl
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CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
beher
eonWednesdaywehaveaser
iouscaset
o
di
scuss.
.iwassohappyiwentt
ohughi
m
Me:Thankyousomuchyoudon'
tknowhowyou
havehelpedme
Him:
Bendingenachoi
cekal
oku<Idi
dn'
thavea
choi
ceanyway>
LolwehuggedonceandIwentoutt omeetmy
fri
endsbutonmywayoutImetBandzhegr eet
ed
mehei snotabadpersonsheim Ihar
dlybeli
eveal
l
thethi
ngsaresai
dabouthim he'
skind.idr
oveto
M.Gmal landmetwit
hthegirlsatoceanbasketwe
huggedandorderdourmeals
Me:Si
nceSatur
daynanyamal
ala<vani
shed>kwi
thi
n
ai
rmntkbw<chi
ldofGod>
Them:
Osi
yekat
hina<Leaveusal
one>
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ecomesIwil
lleavey'
al
l
assesalonest
il
lanywaygir
lgotaj
ob..t
hey
screamed
Palesa:
That
'sagoodthi
ngcongr
a..
evenachi
ldcan
sensethecoldness
Ashl
ey:
Final
lyam sohappyf
oryou.
.t
hat
sfake
Let
hu:
Ajobwher
e?.
.wi
tch
Me:
AtLuu'
slawf
ir
m..
isaysi
ppi
ngonmyj
uice
Them:what
?!ashisPersonalassi
stant
..
theysai
d
gri
ndi
ngontheirchai
rshoes
Me:
Asanat
tor
neybobabesl
evel
s
Them:
weshal
lsee.
.

KHI
THA
.
.
It
'sFridaymysonandIar eleavingf orEast ernCape
tovisitmyauntyouknowusbl ackpeopl ewheni t
's
festi
veseasonwewantt oseeour selveswi thour
fami l
iescat
chingupanyenj oyingsoIcan' twaitto
seeherpl usithasbeenal ongt i
meIcan' teven
reachheront hephoneam sur eshel ostitorsoldit
becauseofhi sdrinksmnkipr aytogett hathouse
onagoodst atey'
allknowhow t ir
ingi tis,t
ravel
ing
l
onghour swewi l
lbet r
avelingwi t
hGr eyhoundI
boughtt heti
cketsandNdi lewasaski ngmei fwe
willcopeormusthebookaf l
ightforusbutIsai d
nohe'ssowor ri
edaboutusasifwegoi
ngel
se
wherethoughwear egoinghome,wewer
eat
Midr
andst at
ionswait
ingforourbus
Ndil
e:BabyIwi
llmissyouguyswhenarey'
al
l
comingbackagaindon'tt
ellmei
nJanuar
yplease
Ne:
Butbabywehavespokenaboutt
hisnj
eit
'sonl
y
3weeks
Hi
m:Yousayi
ngonl
ythat
'swayt
ool
ongnanami
SoIf or
gottotel
lyouthatTi
nastudiedl
awbutdue
tolackofjobopport
unit
iesshebecameamodel
askiesi
nibodarl
y..

CHAPTERNI
NETEEN
.
.
KHI
THA
Wear efi
nall
yhereyoooam soexhaustedbroy'
all
shoul
d'veseenthestar
esIgotwhenIwasi ntown
am suretheyal
lgotsomethi
ngnewt ogossi
pabout
andmyauntwaspapdr unkl
astnightIcant
ellshe
blockoutedinthel oungebutatl eastthehouseis
cleanIwentstraighttomyr oom it'
sdustyhere
l
ucki l
yIbroughtmybedl inensandcover ssojaam
sortedtheyaremanyt houghIwi l
lgi
vetheother
onest omyauntIf i
rst
edpr eparedwat ert
obathmy
sonandIandcl eanedmyr oom changedt heli
nens
somyxoxocansl eepIwentt ot hekit
chenand
there'
snof oodotherthant helit
tlegrocer
yIbought
Iwillgomaybet ommor owf orsomemor ewhenI
wasdoneIdeci dedt owakenmyauntshe' saheavy
sleeperaveryheavyoneIwentt oshakeherup
fi
nallysheopenedhereyesandshej umpedand
screamed
Her:
ThixowaseMpumakol
oniundi
bonisant
oni
ngubanil
o<GodofEast
ernCapewhatwondersar
e
youshowingmenowwho'sthi
sperson>
Me:
Haiboant
iawundi
boni<Ohnoauntcan'
tyou
r
ecogni
seme>
Her:RhaaaNomkhi
thandyakuzalayizapha<ShitI
bir
thyoucomehere>shehuggedmesot ighteven
thoughshewassmelli
ngalcoholasi fshewas
swimmi ngoni
tbutIhavetoenjoythisshei smy
par
entnowshewassohappy
Her:
Lookatyou.
.yougai
nedsomuchwei ghtand
uyi
kaka<f
lames>maarnjonga<look>anyway
where'
smyson? shesai
dlooki
ngar ound
Me:Ummmhuhh..
ilookedshatt
eredIwaspl
ayi
ng
herIwant
edt
oseeherr eAct
ion
Her:
Unganyakalokuwher
e'shehuh?shesai
d
get
ti
ngclosert
omeIr anformydearli
feand
scr
eam s'
he'si
nmyr oom sl
eepi
ng'
Her:Iwasgoingtowhipthatfatassofyoursand
sendyoubackt ojobur
gletmegoandt akeabatha
coldoneaftert
hatIwewoul dcatchupandIwant
mybot t
letheoneyoupromi sedwhenyoul ef
t
Me:
Ihavet
hem
Her:
Them?bot
tl
esyoumean.
.sheaskedwi
th
exci
tement
Me:
Yes
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
whenmyauntwasdoneshecamet ot
hedinni
ng
andweatelunchandxoxowasawaket oosowe
ateasafamil
yxoxowenttovi
sithi
sfr
iendssoI
waswithmyauntgossi
pingpl
usshewasabi tt
ipsy
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Awuudlali
lemtshanabobutywal
abaseTV
obu<Heymynieceyouout di
dandimpressedme
thi
sistheal
coholIusual
lyseeonTV>
Me:
owpl
easeyouar
eexagger
ati
ngnowhawu
Her:
Sothethakal
okngumsebenzi
oryi
ndoda?
<Ok
sayi
tisitajoboraman>
Wel
lItel
lherwhathasbeenhappeni
ngandhowI
metBandil
e
Her :
Ndizokuxel
ela<Iwilltel
lyou>howIf eelabout
thisIwon'tevensugar coatit.
.mnt anam youknow
howIendedupcomi ngbackf rom Jobur gmaybe
youdon' tknowtheact ualreasonwel lIwasi n
joburgtolookforaj obIgoti tatther etai
lstores
andmovedt oarestaur antandt hat'
swher eImeta
Nigerianmanhewasmar ri
edIdi dn'tknowabout
thatheneverment ionedt hatonmebesi deshis
wifewasatNi geriathenhet oldmehel ovesmehe
saidImustr esignf rom workhewi l
ltakecareof
myneedshedi dt hatfor2yearsunti
lhe'swifecame
toS. Aandwehadt obreakupbutwithinthat2years
heusedt ot akewhati shisandthrowmeputoft he
fl
atheusedt or entitformeandt akemebackwhen
hef eelslikeitsomybabypl easehaveabackupI
don'ttrustt hi
smanhe' swaytookindf ormyl i
king
maybehel ovesyoubutwhatIcansayi sthecause
ofmanydi vorcesi smoneyasawomanyoudonot
havet of ull
ydependonamanpl usasyousayhe' s
i
nt oill
egalbusi nessyouknowwhenpol i
cecomet o
arresthimt heywon' tleaveyoubehindori nthis
kindofbusi nesst heyhavesomanyenemi esso
youar enotsaf ebutyousayyoul ovehi m andI
won' tstandonyourwayyouneedsomeonebaby
buthaveyourownt hing..wowthat'
samout hful
Me: Wel
launtyIhearyouandt hisyearIwil
lbe
attendi
ngclasseseventhoughhe'stheonepaying
formyf eesbutIhavemysavi ngsidot hi
nkabout
thosethingsbutIdon'
tuseallthemoneyhe' s
givingmeIsaveit
CHAPTERTWENTY
.
.
MEANWHI
LEI
NJOBURG

Bandilewaswi thhisbodyguar dst heywer e

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pri
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li
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arwal kladies
werewi shingtohavehi m andtheguyswer eenvi ed
himtheywentst raighttothevvipsect i
onandt hey
gotservedwhi l
ewai ti
ngf orwhoeverandMenzi and
Thabower ewat chinghimf r
om adistancebutt hey
wereont hesamecl ubinaf ewmi nutesaRussi an
manwal kedinwi thhisbodyguar dst oocarrying4
L.Vweekender stheygr eetedeachot her
Rman:Itsal
waysni
cedoingbusi
nesswi
thyouMr
Biyel
a..
hesaidwhi
stl
etheguar
dswereexchangi
ng
bags
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e:AsusualBer
tei
s..
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uff
yest
erdayfreshandstr
ong..Ber
tei
ssmil
led
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tt
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That
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ikei
tai
n'tyougoi
ngt
ocount
t
hemoneyi
t'
stheamountweagr
eedon
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le:
Ihopei
t'
sal
linher
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ll
iondol
lar
sri
ght
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eis:
Iknowwhathappenstopeoplewhomess
wit
hyousoIwi l
lsavemyselfbybeingtr
uet
oyou
manIhavet obesomewhere
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le:
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ooam goi
ngt
oTabooni
ghtcl
ubt
o
meetwit
hmyni
ggas
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eis:Iheardt
herearenewstri
pper
sf r
om
Camer oonandBr azi
landthosear
eyourt ypes.
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hey
sharedal aught
erandbidgoodbyebeforegoingon
thei
rsepar at
eways
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Nowyoubel
i
eveme?
Menzi:
Sohe'
sagangst
erdi
str
ibut
ingdr
ugsor
sel
li
ngthem?
Thabo:
Idon'
tknowbr
owehavet
ofi
ndout
Menzi
:Nowt
hisi
sgoi
ngt
obei
nter
est
ing
t
heycheer
edandcont
inueddr
inki
ng

BANDI
LE
.
.
MysquadandIar eatBoot hnightclubhavingthe
ti
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l
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i
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squadhadt hem 2/ 3eachsoIdeci dedt oalso
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ha
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ti
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izeever yt
hingit
'snew
yearsevesoIhavet ogetmyshi twheniwasdoneI
drovetooneofmybarIaskedMenzit omeetme
there
.
.
MENZI
.
.
Iam onmywayt omeetBandi
lehecall
edme
yester
daywhenIgottotheaddresshesentmeI
waswel comedbyatoughcoockieyoucoul
dt el
l
thatshe'
slesbi
anbutshe'
swayt ooni
cebeinga
manshecamet ome
Her
:YoumustbeMenzi
?
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Cor
rect
Her:
Foll
owme. idi
dasIwast oldwegoti
ntoan
el
evatorandbefor
eIknowi twewer eatt
hedar k
cor
ri
dorwal ki
ngtothecorneroffi
cesheknockeda
manshout ed'
open'am sureit'
sBandi
lewegotin
Her
:Bossher
eisyourguest
Hi
m:Goodj
obNj
ayam Iwi
llseeyouaf
terhour
s
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:Nostress.
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kedoutandshuttedthedoor
i
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edir
ectedmet othecouch
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icet
able
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m:SoMrLokhweIgotachancet
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hrough
yourcont
ractt
horoughl
ysoand..
ideci
dedtocut
him of
fandspeakbecauseIwasabitshaki
ng
Me:
Wel
laboutt
hecont
ract
Him:Shutup!!!
I(
ijumped)don'tyoudaredi
stur
bme
whenIam speaki ngIcall
edyouhearsoyouar e
goingtoli
stentomeok. ijustlookathi
m and
shruggedmyshoul dersIthinkit'
sti
metoputmy
bigguypant s
Hi
m:Youdi
dwhatyoudi
dbypur
posedi
dn'
tyou?
Me:
Noi
..
umm.
ii
..
Him: Yesthere'
snowayt ojust
if
yi tsoIcamewi t
ha
betterplanbecauseIknowhowt odealwithmen
l
ikeyouhypocr itesmenwhor unawayf rom
responsibil
it
yanddr ewyetanothercontr
actforyou
tosign.hegavemepaper s
Hi
m:Youdon'
thavet
ogot
hroughi
tjustsi
gn
Me:Ican'
tsi
gnwithoutevenknowwhatIam
si
gning..
Hechuckl
ed
Him:
Itsaysyouar
esi
gni
ngact
ual
lygi
vingupyour
company
toyoursont heoneyour anawayf rom, youinsult
ed
hismot hermywomanyout ol
dhert het hi
ngsshe
sti
llt
hinksaboutyout houghofdepr i
vingherson
thechanceofhavi ngabiologicalfatherandl eft
them inthevil
lagetosufferwhileyouar ehere
fl
autinginmoneyandaf t
erthatyougangupwi t
h
yourlawyeranddr ewsomeshi tt
ycont ractforwho
tosignTheeTer minat
or ?
!WrongmoveChar l
ie
wrongmove. .hewasbr eathi
ngf i
rehet ookouta
gunandl oadedsomebul l
etsinit
Hi
m:it
'sei
thermywayort hehi
ghwayandbequi
ck
onyourdeci
sionIhavegotpl
acest
obeat.
.
Me:DowhatyouwouldliketodomanIam not
si
gningthi
s..
okhecockedthegundi
rect
edit
st
raightt
omyt hi
ghhelookedatme
Hi
m:Si
gnt
hedamncont
ract
Me:Iwon'
tsignt
he..
gunshotiscr
eam IswearIam
l
osingmydamnmi ndf l
ashesofmywi f
eand
daught
erscametomymi ndthej
oyandhappiness
weusedtohaveifIdiethenwhat
Hi
m:Idon'
thaveal
ldaysonofabi
tch!
!
Me:oki
fisi
gni
twhat
'si
nforme?Iaskf
li
nchi
ngi
n
pai
n
Him:Iwil
lhir
eyouasthemarket
ingmanagerIhave
seenthatyouaregoodoni
tbutnotatthemines
butatoneofmyr est
aur
ant
sorhotelhowaboutthat
?
Me:howmuchwi
llibeear
ning?becauseIdon'
t
haveachoi
ce
Hi
m:R22000
Me:
Not
hat
'
sli
tt
lemannoat
leastR45000ke
Hi
m:Unganya<youwoul
dshi
tonyoursel
f>doyou
t
akei
toryougobacktoTembi
sa?
Me:I
tsf
ineIwil
ltakeit
..
isignedt
hecont
ractandhe
ki
ckedmeoutofhi sof
ficesoIli
mpedtomycar
dammitkhi
tha
.
.
TI
NA
.
.
SoLuuandIwer
eworki
ngonabigcaseandwe
wonnowweareatr
ooft
opinoneofBandzcl
ubs
cel
ebr
ati
ng
Him:
Ididn'
tknowyoucanbet
hatgoodyouar
e
goodatwhatyoudo
Me:andt
hat
'
snottheonl
ythi
ngam goodat
..
isay
l
icki
ngmybott
om l
ip
Hi
m:Okt
ellmewhati
sitt
hatyouar
egoodat
Me:
Irat
hershowyou.
.hel
ookedconf
used
Him:oksure..
.igotclosert
oHim andsuckedhis
l
owerlipandher espondedwekissedIhadmy
handsrunningf r
om hisanddownt ohiswaist
andtothehoodhi sbr
eathi
ngcir
clesincr
easedi
massagedtheballsIunbuckl
edhisjeansandgave
hi
m ahandj obwhenhewasaboutt ocum I
stoppedandlookedathim
Me:Am sorr
yI..i.
.hegr
abbedmeandputmeont op
ofhisbonnethetoreupmyl acethongandent er
ed
mei nonegoIj umpedIsweari yestrai
ght
kunembeza<itwentstraighttoconsciousness>he
fuckedthel
eavingdaylightsoffmeIwas
screamingontopofmyvoi cewhydi dievendid
thathewasgoodbutthesizeGodIswearam goi
ng
todienowweswitchedposit
ionsanddi
dthedidi
endedupri
dinghi
mt hankstothechampagne
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
It
'ssti
llnicehereathomebutImi ssmymannowI
can'
tcopeyooohbutnextweekIam l eavi
ng
becauseihavet oregist
erandstartschooland
besidesxoxogotschoolt oat
tendbutIam goi ngto
missmyauntandhergossi psGodi thasbeena
wonder f
ulfesti
veseasonandnowwear eprepari
ng
forthebraaiwewi l
lbehavingourdrinksareont he
i
cemusi cisonjongasiWrongo

Iam t
ir
edmnaguysngeke
CHAPTERTWENTY-
ONE
.
..
BANDI
LE
SonowIam of fi
cial
lyowni ngtheMasakhaneMi nes
Menzihadapr essconf erenceandannouncedt hatI
am theonewhopai df orthatandguesswhatImy
womani sint ownam onmywaydr ivingthenew
Mer cedesBenzc- class2019Iboughti tforher
whenIgoti ntoheryar ditwassi l
entam sur et
hey
arestil
lsleepingIpar kedi toutsidedecor ateditwith
ball
oonswr it
tenbemi neandot herswr it
tenhappy-
for
everIwentt oherdoorandknockedonceandi
l
etmysel finsheappear edl ookingsl eepyandher
hairwasmessyshescr eamedandj umpedonme
wehuggedandweshar edal ongpassi onatekiss
wewer edisturbedbyt hel i
ttl
echamp
Hi
m: Daddywam.
her
ant
omeIpi
ckedhi
m upand
ki
ssedhim
Me:
Imissedyouguysyooo..
isaysi
dehuggi
ngmy
womanIkissedherf
orehead
Me:
Babycanwepl
easegoout
side
Her
:Whybaby?
Xoxo:
Asambenikuyatshi
saaphaendl
ini
<let
'sgoi
t'
s
hoti
nhere>l
olyou'dswearheknewmypl an
Her:
Butbabymyeyeshurt
..
shesaysr
ubbi
ngt
hem I
f
orgothowhardshecanbe
Me:
Babypl
easeIwantt
otakeapi
ctur
eofyou
Her
:areyouevenser
iousbabyhaveyouseenmy
hai
rit
'smessybro
Me:Butyouloolcut
ebrocomeonpl ease.
.ibegged
hersheagreedandwewentoutIwal kedbehindher
whenshesawherdr eam carshej
umped
Her:
Babyyouboughtanewri
dewowbabyit'
s
beaut
if
ulButyouhavesomanycar
sthough
Me:YesIknowt
hati
swhyIboughtyout
his
one.
.shej
umpedandscr
eamed
Her:
BabyNoar eyouser i
ous.
.inoddedandgaveher
thekeysshewenttoitandopenedi twasful
lof
ball
oonswhenshet urnedtomeIwasonmyone
kneeyesIam proposi
ngherIsai dIam get
ti
ng
marriedt
hisyearr
ightyeah
Her
:Baby.
..
Me:Nomkhi
thaNgxowacanyoumakemethe
happi
estmanint
hispl
anetandbemywi
feI
pr
omiset
obeagoodhusbandandaf
athert
oour
12ki
dspl
ease.
..
shewascr
ying
Her
:BabyI
..idon'
tknowwehaven'
tbeent
oget
her
f
..
.
Him:
Mykneei
sfr
eezi
ngbr
ocomeonshel
aughed
socut
e
Her
:LolyesbabyIwi
llmar
ryyou
CHAPTERTWENTY-
ONE
.
.
KHI
THA

SoBandileproposedtomeawhol emeIam so
happyandheal soboughtmemydr eam caram t he
gyel
..
soafterthatwegoti nsi
dethehousemyson
andItookabat handwewentoutt ocelebr
atewe
wereatthemal landy'al
lknowhowmysonl oves
pl
ayingsowewer etherethewholedaywedi dn'tgo
backtomyapar t
mentbutwewentt oWest cli
ff
i
nsteadandIl oveitt
hereIjustcan'
tgetover
Bandil
esplaceit'
ssobeaut if
ulpl
usam theonewho
choosesomei nterior
sanddecor at
edi twit
hDj
Zinhlesstylesoyoucani magi nehowbeaut ifuli
t
i
s.Xoxoandhi sdadt ookabat hwhi leItooka
showerandgavet hem theirti
met obondaf terthey
weredonehet ookhi mt obegandr eadhim his
bedtimest orybutNdi l
epr efer
stell
inghimt hose
fair
yt al
esourgr andparent susedtot el
lusagesago
fi
nallyhewasbackatt hemai nbedr oom
Me:
isheasl
eep?
thatwasf
ast
Him: Thatboyi smymai nni ggahel ooksoutf orme
I'
veseent hatbutanyways. .hesai dget t
ingt owhere
Iwashewasonl ywr appingat owelonhi swai st
andIont heot herhandwaswear ingmysee-
throughmi ninightdressIwassi t
tingatt hebeds
edgehest oodnextt omewi t
hthisnaught ysmi l
eon
hisfaceheki ssedmeaf tert hatheunwr appedt he
towelandhi schockspr angf reel
yher ubbedi ton
myl ipsasi toozest hepr e-cum andf uckedmeon
themout ht houghmyj awswer esot iredbutl ethi
m
beandhenut tedonmyf aceanddi rectedt hechock
backt omymout hhet ookhi sphoneandt ook
picturesandmadeavi dsoIdeci dedt omakei t
mor
eint
erest
ingbyplayi
ngwithitusi
ngmyl
ipshe
t
hencl
eanedmyf aceandthen.
..
..
..

TI
NA
.
.
SoLuudr ovemebackt omypl aceyesterdaybutit
wasal ongsil
entwasdriveIwasabi tembar r
assed
ofwhatIdidandmyabdomenwasabi tpaini
ng
becausehe'stoobigbutIenjoyedeachandever y
secondofitwhenIgottomypl aceitookalong
bathandwentst r
aightt
obedaf tert
hatamessage
camet hr
uandLuu' snameflashedmessager eads*
*Ienj
oyedeachandeverysecondofwhatwedid
andIprayther
ewi l
lbenextt
imeandhaveyour
self
agoodnightsleep
LovesLuuXoXo:)*Ismil
ledbutImustmakei
t
cleart
oHim ofwhatIwantIdontwantt
oandup
l
ikeLethu
.
.
KHI
THA
It'
sbeenawhol e3mont hsnowandaorhas
happenedBandi l
esf amil
ymetmi neIwasl obolad
andIhavebeenat t
endingmycl assesit'
sast rain
thoughbutIam copi ngbecausemyhusbandyes
myHUSBANDhi redahel perbutallshedoesi s
cleanaroundthehousebutshei snotallowedt o
cleanthemai nbedroom,cookanddoNdi leslaundry
i
t'smyj obsohesaysbutIdon' thaveapr oblem
withthatandThaboandIhavebeengoodf ri
endsi f
ImaysayandNdi ledoesn'tknowi fhedoesf indout
aboutitGodknowsam goodasdeadbecausehe
haswar nedmeabouthi m butIenjoyhiscompany
andIt hi
nkit'
sbecausemyhusbandi salwaysbusy
withwor ksometi
meshesl eepsatt heoff
icesoj a
Thabo'scarcameandIgoti nbutwehuggedbef ore
wegoti nandhedr ovedof f
Hi
m:HowwasyourdayMrsBee?that
'showhecal
ls
meIl
iket
hef
actthather
espectmymar ri
age
Me:
Itwasbusyandam t
ir
ed
Hi
m:butt
ommor
owyoudon'
thavecl
assesmossso
youwillrestandIthi
nkImustcomenseeyou
duri
ngt hedayjustafewhoursbecauseIknowhow
yourhusbandf eel
saboutourfr
iendshi
p
Me:I
tsfi
nej
ustcomemid-daykeanywayam hungr
y
br
olet'
sgograbsomet
hing
Hi
m:Iknewi
tyouar
eal
wayshungr
y
Me:
Foodi
sli
febr
o
Welaughedandconti
nuedchi
t-chat
ti
ngit
'sal
ways
goodhangi
ngoutwithhi
m Icanbef r
eeandswear
anyt
imeIwanttobutwit
hNdileIwouldn'
tdar
e
EDI
TEDTHELASTPOST
.
CHAPTERTWENTY-
TWO

THABO
Mypl anisslowl
ycomingtoget
heram happyso
todayit'
sWednesdaydaythedayIam goingtovi
sit
Bandilespl
aceIdon'
tknowhowIam goi ngto
dist
ractKhit
haIwanttogetmyhandsintoher
husbandsfi
lesit
's11:
50soam drivi
ngtoWestcli
ff
whenIIgotthereIhadtocal
lhersoshecangetme
i
nf i
nal
lyIgotint
othehouselenj
a<thisdog>hasit
al
labighouseabeaut i
fulwi
feandbusinesses
Her:
Hieart
htoThabo.
.shesai
dsnappi
ngher
f
ingersonmyface
Me:Yourhousei
sbi
gandbeaut
if
ulj
ustl
ikeyou.
.she
l
aughed
Her:
owpleasegeti
nsi
de.
.wewentinIwasbusy
checki
ngtheasswhooamyJizasi<Jesus>
Her:
Makeyoursel fcomfort
ablebutnott
oo
much..shewinkedbeforeaski
ngmewhatIwi l
lhave
shemadef oodshe'ssuchagoodcookBandi l
eis
oneluckybustardtheti
mewasnotonmysi dethi
s
womanhasbeenkeepi ngmecompanyt ell
ingme
stor
iesIhadtopr et
endthatIl
iket
hem smh
Me:Canyoupl
easedirectmetot
heguestbat
hroom
bef
oreIgoyourhusbandwil
lbeher
eanyti
mesoon
Her:
Yeahri
ghtbuti
t'
sni
cehavingyouaround..
she
di
rect
edmeandshement i
onedsomethingabout
Bandi
lesof
fi
ceIwentupst
air
sandsearchedforthi
s
damnof fi
ceIf ounditbingoIgoti nitsnoteven
l
ockedIsear chedt hr
uhi sfi
lesuntilIgottheone
writ
tenColombi ayesIwantt oexposet hi
sdrug
dealerIwenttot hebathroom andmadesur eItuck
i
tinnicelysothatshedoesn' tnot
icethenIwentout
IfoundherlookingatmeIwasconf useddidshe
seeme
Her:
Ithoughtyoul
eftyouhavebeenher
eforl
ong
yoo
Me:It
syourbighousemydar lyseeIhavetogo
ri
ghtshenoddedandwewentdownst ai
rssheled
meoutsi deIquickl
ygotintothecarbeforeshe
couldthi
nkabouthuggi ngmeshewasabi t
confusedbutplayeditcoolIblewakissforherand
Idroveoff.

KHI
THA

It
's19:00Iam si
tt
ingonthelaungewatchi
ngTV
andxoxoissleepi
ngandmyhus. .
.hegoti
nlooki
ng
sotir
edhewasmessyt ooIwentto
hughim andIki ssedmyman' sf oreheadeven
thoughhef i
ghtsithejustgavemeawei rdlookI
l
aughedIt ookhisbr i
efcaseandl aptopbagandput
them ont hecouchwhi l
ehet hrewhi mselfonthe
dini
ngcouchhet ookof fhi
sshoesIgavehi m his
sli
desandheundr esseduntilhewasl eftwithhis
boxert henhegotcl osertothet ableouk. .
iwentto
thekit
chenandt ookhi sfoodfrom t hewar merbut
fi
rstl
yIt ookabowlwi thli
kewar m wat erwi t
hl i
quid
andIt ookat abl
ecl othIwentt ohi m hewashedhi s
handsigavehi mt heclothtowi pet hem
Me:
arehavi
ngbeer
,wi
neorj
uice?
Him: ubhiyaobandampo<abeeri tmustbeice-
cold>wechuckl edandIwenttotakehisfoodand
beerIopenedi tandpourediti
ntohisbeermugi
gavei ttohim andsatnexttohim andwechi t-
chatedwhenhewasdonehi sphoneringedgood
ti
mi nghuhwel lIlefthi
mt her
eandwentt oputt he
dishesint hesinkandwentt oprepar
eabat hfor
him butwhenIwasbusywi ththathegotin
Me:
uleqwayi
nton?
<what
'sr
unni
ngaf
teryou>
Hi
m:Whowasi
nmyof
fi
ce?
Me:
It
smewheniwascl
eani
ngwhy?
Hi
m:Ther
e'saf
il
emi
ssi
ngt
her
eMaBi
yel
a
Me:afi
le?
didyoubr
ingi
ttot
hisof
fi
cebabyyou'
ve
gotsomanyoffi
ces
Him:YesIdidbutIwil
lchecki
tatthebar
sorcl
ubs
off
icesthenbutIam sur
eIbroughti
ther
eokletme
cal
lJackson
HewentoutmyphonebeepedThabosname
f
lashedmessagereads*
Goodni
ghtMrsBee *
whoooaandthis
Bandi
le:
Who'smaki
ngmywi
fesmi
leatt
hist
imeof
theni
ghtam j
eal
ous
Me:I
ts.
.i
tsEnt
leshecompl
aini
ngt
hatIhaven'
tbeen
vi
sit
ngher
Hi
m:Argshei
m andwhyi
sthatshe'
syourbest
ie
moss
Me:
Ithoughthernewmani
skeepi
nghercompany
Hi
m:ohi
sit
?Inodded
Him:Don'
tyouwantt
obatheyourhusband?
he
askedwit
hhisbeggi
ngf
ace
Me:Asknomor e.
.isayde-nudingandIfol
lowedhim
tothebat hr
oom wegotintothebathtabIhelped
him bathIgavehim abackmassageandf oot
massageheenj oyedital
otaftert
hatwedr ied
ourselvesandwenttosleepbuttnakedandsl ept
CHAPTERTWENTY-
THREE
.
.
Iwokeupandcheckedt het i
mei twas03: am and
husbyi sbusysnor ringont heothersidesoIgota
chancet ogot hr
oughhi sphoneandwentt ohis
phonegal lerytherewerepi ctur
esofnakedwomen
diff
erentsizesandmynudesof cozourf amily
pictur
esandl otsofpornogr aphyvidsandIgot
temptedIwentt ohisWhat sAppt her
e'sanunsaved
numberIt abitandr eadtheconver sati
oni twasa
l
adypr ol
lyast udentcozshement i
onedt hatshei
s
studyingsoshewasbusyaski ngt obemyman' s
sidebecausehet oldherthathe' smar r
iedsmh
theset hi
rstylowbudgetsl ayqueenssmhIwentt o
theothernumberunsavedal sotherewasan
unviewedvideoIignoreditandscr oll
edupand
cameacr ossthesenudesandt herewerev.ns
surelyhewascommuni catingwithhersoIwanted
tohearwhatt heyweretalkingaboutsoIsearched
formyear phonesdamnt heyar einmybackpack
okletmegoandt othebat hroom becauseIdon'
t
wantt owakehi m whenIwasaboutt orol
loutof
bedNdi l
egrabbedmyhand
Hi
m:Uyaphi
?heaskedwi
thhi
sdeepestvoi
ceGod
Me:
Iam goi
ngt
othebat
hroom baby
Hi
m:Wi
thmyphone.
.
Me:
Owi
sitIt
houghti
twasmi
ne.
.if
akedal
aught
er
Hi
m: Comeher
e..
hepull
edmetohi
schestandhe
t
urnedmyfaceandIfacedhi
m
Him:Whatdoyouwantt
oknowImeananyt
hingj
ust
ask
Me:
What
'swi
tht
hesenakedl
adi
esi
nyourgal
ler
y
Hi
m:i
t'
sthestr
ippersam sur
etheyarenewthe
cl
ub'
smarketalwayssendpict
uresofnewstr
ipper
s
t
oeveryi
mportantcl
ientsobef
orewemetIwas
t
hei
rtopcl
ient
Me:
oktel
lmeaboutyourcl
ient
sthatar
ein
Col
ombiaandRussi
a
Him: Babypl easehaveanopenmi ndaboutt his..
i
nodded' Igrewupi nar ichfami lybutIr anaway
from homebecauseofmyst epf atherandhouse
keepert heyabusedmemyst epphysi cal and
sexual l
ysoIwentt oTembi saandst ayedwi thmy
uncl ewhowasagangl eaderandadr uglordhe'sthe
onewhoi ntroducedmei nt
oi l
legalbusi nessI
droppedoutofschooli ngr ade11andj oinedhis
crewhedi edandl eftallhisbusi nessest omesoI
thoughtofmaki ngal otofmymoneybycooki ng
drugsi nsteadandusedhi scli
ent sfrom over seas
sol uckilytheylovedmyst uffbecausei tsvir
ginand
Itranspor titbymysel fandIal wayswant edt obea
busi nessmanandf undmybusi nesssoal lmy
busi nessesar ef undedbymewi ththemoneyIget
from dr ugsandf ir
ear m designs. .
iwassoshocked
myhusbandi sagangst erWTF
Me:
Butbabyyoucanst
il
lgetoutf
rom t
hesei
ll
egal
i
shImeanyouhavebusi
nessesr
ight
Hi
m:unf
ort
unat
elyi
t'
snotaseasyasyout
hinkbaby
Me:Howdoyoumeanbabyourl
ivesar
eindanger
can'
tyousee?
Him:Thati
swhyImarri
edyousoIcanprotectyou
guysbecauseyouwi
llbet
heenemiestar
getand
thati
swhyIalwayswanttoknowyoureverymove
andyoudonotunder
standyouthi
nkam control
li
ng
youangisho
Me:ButIdi
dn'
tknowsonowthatIknowI.
.idon'
t
knowhowshouldIreActont
hisIr
eall
ydon't
Him:Youj
usthavet
oli
stent
omet
hat
'si
tandst
op
bei
ngstubbor
n
Me:Soallt
hesethingsyoumenti
onedwhereare
youdoingthem Imeanwhereareyoucooki
ngyour
drugs?
andwher eareyoudesi
gningt
hoseil
legal
fir
e
arms?
Hi
m:Her
e..
wai
twhatIl
ookedathi
m shockedashel
l
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
Hi
m:That
'swhyIal
wayssayidon'
twantanydoggy
visi
torsher
eifaper
sonisnotatr
ustedfri
endor
familywho'
sgoingt
owalkaroundthishouseI
won'tkeepupwitht
hat
Me:
Wher
ear
etheynowbaby?
Hi
m:Basement
Me:
Ther
e'sabasementher
e?!
wowj
ustwow
Him:am sur
eyouknowthateachandeveryfamil
y
gotsecr
etsdon'
tyoudar
etellasoulaboutwhatI
tol
dyouok..
Me:
Howdoyout
akemekodwa?
Him:
Sinceyouar
ebefr
iendi
ngwi
tht
hatThaboof
your
swhatcanIsay
Me:
Ourf
ri
endshi
pendedl
ongt
imeagobaby
Hi
m:Ihopeso.
.yooht
hisi
sal
otguys
Me:Sowhenwer
eyoupl
anni
ngont
ell
ingmeabout
t
his?
Him:
WhenIwasr eadyIal
wayst
houghtyouwer
e
goi
ngtof
reakoutandleaveme
Me:
Andbybei
ngt
hiscal
m doesn'
tmeanIam ok
wi
thi
t
Him:
Makepeacewithi
tMaBi
yel
ather
e'snot
hing
youcandoabouti
t
Me:
Owwow
Him:It
houghtIshoul
djustbehonestwi
thyou
mnkami<mywi fe>anywaynowthatweareboth
awakehowaboutwe. .
hesaidget
ti
ngontopofme
thi
smanandsex
.
.
It
'sThursdaymid-
dayam chil
li
ngwi t
hmyfri
ends
Lebo,
Thandiandotherstheyar
etalki
ngaboutthe
fr
esherspartyt
hattheywil
lbeatt
endingt
onight
Lebo:
Babesyouhavebeensi
lentai
n'tyougoi
ngt
o
thepar
ty?
Me:
NobabesIdon'
tthi
nkIwi
llmakei
t
Lebo:
Whyt
hough?
Thandi
:Wh
Thandi
:Whooat
hisoneyoucanthi
nkthatshe'
s
marri
edwit
h20chil
drenshe'
stooupt
ight
Me:
Act
ual
lyIam mar
ri
edwi
thaki
d
Them:
Saywhat
?!!
Me:
yesIam
Lebo:
Youneverment
ionedt
hatonme
Thandi
:us!
!
Me:Iwasavoi
dingunnecessar
yquest
ionsand
at
tenti
on
Thandi
:Sohow'
syourhusbandi
sitanarr
anged
marri
ageweknowhowyouspoiltbr
atandarr
anged
marri
agesyi
Combo
Me:Noit
'snot
..
inar
rat
edt
hewhol
eBandi
leandI
st
oryofhowwemet
Lebo:Wowthat
'ssocut
ecanyouborr
owmeyour
grandmot
herbecausewowsheknowsherj
ob.
.we
l
aughedatthat
Thandi
:Sowher
ear
ey'
al
lresi
ding?
Me:
West
cli
ff
Them:
What
?!Ichuckl
ed
Lebo:
wowcanIseeyourhouseam cur
ious
Thandi:
am mor
eint
erest
edont
hehusbandand
ki
d..
itookmyphone
Lebo:
ani
Phone11pr
omax.
ibow
Wel aughedIshowedthem mycut
eson,
my
handsomehusbandandourhouseandshowed
them mycartheywerescrèami
ng
Thandi
:Gi
rli
skol
okal
oku<schoolus>
Lebo:
Iwantt
obet
aughtt
ooIl
oveyoursonwow
Me:
He'
shandf
ult
oo
Lebo:
Youcant
ellbyj
ustl
ooki
ngathi
m
Thandi
:Sowear
egoi
ngt
othef
resher
sri
ght
Me:
Idon'
tthi
nkmyhusbandWi
llal
lowmet
o
Lebo:
it
'sunder
standabl
ethough
Thandi
:Whydon'
tyouwantt
owena
Me:
Ido
Thandi
:okr
elaxIwi
l
lhel
pyoul
ie
Me:
What
?!
Thandi:
yesIwi
llspeakt
omycousinshewi
llactas
i
fshe'smymotheroverthephone
Me:Okyouhavetocomeandfet
chmetheni
fit
worksbecausei
fwewil
lusemycarhe'
sgoi
ngto
t
rackme
Lebo:
wewi
llusemi
nedon'
tyouwor
rymoGur
l
Thandi:
justsaywewil
lbecr ossnight
ingatmy
placei
fhedoesn'tbel
ievet
hatcallmeIwillwor
kon
thethi
ngs
Me:
hahaokpl
usIwantsomet
imeouti
t'
sbeena
whi
le
CHAPTERTWENTY-
FOUR
.
.
SoImanagedtolietomyhusbandandnowwear e
atLebo'
sfl
atgett
ingreadyforthefresher
sIwas
weari
ngashortcream whit
ejumpsui tanddust
y
pi
nkblockheel
sIwor emyPer uvianblondbobmy
makeupwasonpoi ntt
heyaskedt ousemi ne
bcausei
t'
s'FENTY'
Lebo:
Fent
ymake-
uponInevert
houghtIwoul
d
werei
tthi
searl
yIthoughtIhavet
owor
k3year
s
bef
oreweari
ngitbutl
ookatGod
Wel
aughed
Thandi
:Nomi
ecanyoupleasebor
rowmeyourot
her
weaveyouar
eweari
ngthatoneanyways.
.
SoIbroughtt
woweavesbecauseIwant
edt
o
choosetheonet
hatwi
llsui
tmewell
Me: Okit
'sfi
nebutdon'tbehardwhenit
'st
imet
o
returni
tiyaduraloweaveyayaziMel
uvi
ana
grade?<i
t'sexpensi
vedoyouknow>
Lebo:
lolr
oastusgi
rl
Wel aughedandwewer er
eadytogoyheayhand
Lebodr ovet
othi
sclubGodit
'sThabo'
sclubIso
praythathe'
snotther
e
Thandi
:Ur
ightmnt
ase?
<ar
eyouf
inesi
bli
ng>
Me:Yeahsure.
.wegotapar ki
ngspotandwewent
i
nsideweboughtal coholitwasmor eli
keIbought
al
coholandfoodfort hem Iusedmysavingsthebi
ll
wasonaR15ki magineandi t
'sThandishewas
busyorder
ingnon-stopandnowwewer epap
drunk.Wewenttothedancefl
ooranddancedthe
nightaway.
.whenitwashiphophourIgotupand
twerkedandgri
ndingmywasonLeboshewast he
oneaccommodat ingmydancemovesokwewent
tothebathr
oom andwhenIcheckedmyphonei t
had23mi sscall
sf r
om Ndi
lehol
yshi
tam screwed
Me:
LeboIneedt
ogo
Thandi
:Whyi
sthati
t'
sst
il
lear
lymoGur
lrel
axyoo
Lebo:
Nolet
'sgobackt
omyf
latguysherhusband
hasbeencal
li
ngher
Thandi:Noyouwi l
lsaywewer ealr
eadyasl eep
hawu.okwewentbackt ot
heclubandt herewer e
hott
ieswhower esitt
ingonourspotbutt hey
i
nsistedthatwecanchi l
lwit
hthem wesmoked
hookaandIwassohi ghiwentatthedancef l
oor
wit
hsomeot herguyIwasbusyt werkngf orhim
andgr i
ndingonhisdickbutLebocamet ostopme
andpointedattheentranceandthere'
sNdi leFUCK
Ij
uststoodthereIdi
dn'
tknowwhatt
odoorhow
shoul
dIr eAct
Guy:
sweet
nesscomeonwhati
sit
?
Me:Khawuhlukanenam wena?!
<leavemeal one>I
sai
dwi t
hsomuchangerBandi l
ewal kedoutandI
fol
lowedhim Iwasbusyrunni
ngaf terhim because
hewaswal ki
ngonaf ast
erpacef i
nallyIgotto
wherehewasheopenedadoorf ormeIgoti na
passengerseathegoti
nanddrove
Me:
Baby
Hi
m:
Me:BabBi
yel
a..
Ntshangase.
.Myeniwam <my
husband>
Hi
m:
Me:Babyam sorr
yIgottemptedandI.
.i
..l
iedt
oyou
butam sosorr
yIwon'tdoitagai
nbabyareyou
l
ist
eningtomebabyplease
Hi
m:
Icontinuedbegginghim buthedidn'
tsayanything
wear rivedatt
hehouseandhegotoutandt ooka
sleepingXoxoandwenti nsideokIguessIwillhave
towal kt ot
hehousethenam evensobernowyooI
salutet hef
earIhaveforBandil
eIgotinandsl ept
onthecoucht
hinki
nghewi
llcomeandt
akemet
o
ourbedr
oom
.
.
Ifeell
it
tl
ehandsonmyf aceandItr
yopeni
ngmy
eyesandt her
e'smycut
estsonandam i
nthemai
n
bedroom yeah
Me:
Morni
ngl
alaIki
ssedhi
m hequi
ckl
ycl
eanedhi
s
mout
hwowsincewhen
Hi
m:Anukabeer<yousmel
l>hol
yshi
t
Ndi
le:
let
'sgoboyyoudon'
twantt
obel
atedoyou?
xoxo:
Nodaddywam,
byemamal
avu
Me:Iloveyout oo.
.yooBandil
eissodiscussedwit
h
mehecan' tevenlookmei ntheeyewhatwasI
thi
nkingokwai twhere'
smyr ingyooyooandIhave
aclassat10l etmegonowsoIcanst artatLebo'
s
fl
atIgotupandpr epar
edandwhenIwasdoneI
uberedmyselft oLebo'
sflat
Her
:owheybebihow'
syourhusband?
Me:
KuTensebabes
Her
:am sor
ry.
Me:
Icameheretolookf
ormyri
ngbr
o..
wesear
ched
f
ori
tandnoluckitwasnott
her
e
Lebo:
Andwhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odonow?
Me:Idon'
tknowwhatIknowisthatIhavet
ofi
ndit
okyouknowwhatIwillcal
lThabosohecancheck
onhiscamerasmaybesomeonet ooki
tatt
heclub
Her
:Soyouar
egoi
ngt
omi
sst
hecl
ass
Me:
it
'
snotl
ikeIhaveachoiceIhavetosavemy
mar
ri
agej
usttakenot
esformepl ease
Her
:Okl
ove,
,
Icall
edThaboandaskedhi mifwecouldmeetat
mugandbeansi t
'surgentheagreesoIgotint
her
e
beforehi
m Ior
derdandat ewhil
ewait
ingforhi
m
aft
eragood30mi nut
esheshowsupwowwe
huggedandhesatdown
Hi
m:Mr
sBeehowdoIowet
hepl
easur
e?
Me:
Manam scr
ewed
Hi
m:Whathappened?It
oldhi
m ever
ythi
ngt
hat
happenedyest
erday
Me:SoIwoul
dli
keyoutogothr
oughyourcamer
as
andcheckI
fsomebodyst
olei
ffrom t
her
eandwho
i
she
Him:anyt
hingforyouMr
sBee..
hesaidbr
ushi
ngmy
cheeksIsmill
edandhesmi
ledalso
Voi
ce:
kumnandil
aangi
Joyi
nenami<i
t'
sni
ceher
e
l
etmejoi
nthepart
y>
whenIl
ookedupi
twasmydearhusbandbutGOD
whyhuh
Him:Ipar kedmycarj ustnexttotheent rance..
igot
upandr ushedoutsideitwasabi tchill
yt houIwas
wearingashor tmaxidr ess,deni
mj acketandGucci
sl
idessoIwasst andingnextt oNdi l
escarpr aying
byhear tAm inabigmessLor dhavemer cyhe
cameandopenedt hedoorf ormeheal sogoti n
andhedr ovedoffwegott oourpl acehedi dn'teven
opent hedoorformeIdi dandwal kedbehi ndhim
wegoti nt ot
hehousehel ockedit
Hi
m:Inmyoffi
cenow..
..
okIdidasIwastol
diwent
t
ohisoff
iceandwai
tedforhi
m aft
eraf
ewmi nut
es
hegoti
nandcl
osedt
hedoor
Hi
m:Tel
lmewher
edi
digowr
ong?
Me:
baby.
.
Him:Don' tbabymeNomkhi tha(hewasshouti
ng)
Youl i
edt omeaboutyourf ri
endshi
pwi t
hThabo
youevenl ethiminmyhousehecamet omyoffice
andst olemyf il
eIaskedyouwhowasher ewhatdid
yousay/ doyoul iedtomeIaskedyouwhowas
texti
ngyoui nthemiddl
eoft henightyouli
edtome
andsai dit'safri
endyesterdayyousaidyouwere
goingt oast udygroupbutyouwentt oacluband
youwer ebusydancinglikeahoeNomkhi t
hawhen
didyoubecomet hi
spersonhuh?
Me:
BabyI..IHesl
appedmesohar
dIevenhear
d
t
he'
nti
ii
i'
sound
Him:Iaskedyouaquest
ionNomkhi t
ha!
!hesai
d
unbuckli
nghisGucci
belthewhippedmyassIwas
screamingancryi
ngbuthisof
fi
ceissoundproof
sonol uck
CHAPTERTWENTY-
FIVE
.
.
BANDI
LE
Iwasatoneofmyst ri
pcl ubsdri
nkingmyf avouri
te
whiskydeepinthoughtsthinki
ngofwhatIdi dbut
Nomkhithapushedmet otheedge,whatbusiness
doesshehavewi thThabospeakingofhi m Iwil
lpay
him avi
sitt
onightbutfornowIam st i
llwai
tingfor
Zanetherewasaknockatt hedoorIshoutedinand
ther
ehewaswi t
hayoungl ady
Me:
what
'
sgoi
ngonZetman?
Zane:
Bossthi
sisoneofyourwif
e'sfr
iendIgother
i
noneofthosegoldexchangi
ngcornersi
nsmal l
st
reet
Me:
Soyoust
olemywi
fe'
sri
ng?
yourf
ri
end'
sri
ng?
Her
:NoIdi
dn'
tst
eal
it.
.
Me:Thenwhydoyouhavei
tbecausei
tsal
waysi
n
herfi
nger
?
Her:
Nosirshelefti
tatLebo'
sfl
atwhenwewer e
get
ti
ngreadyforthefresher
ssoanevilmindgott
o
meIdecidedtotakeitandgoforanexchange
becauseam i
nneedofmoney
Me:
Soyouar
esayi
ngshet
ookt
hisr
ingof
f?
Her:sheal
waysdoesthatwhenshe'
satschooland
wear si
twhenThaboherfri
endcometofet
ch
her.
.ohmygoodnesssot hi
siswhatmywifewas
doi
ngbehindmyback...
Mysquadbargeinmy
off
ice
Me:Listenhereandli
stentomeverycaref
ull
yyou
needt ogoandr et
urnthi
sringt
oit
'sownerand
apologiestoherbyyoursel
fnowVoetsekinmy
off
iceshequi ckl
yrushedout
Luu:Hawunj
ayam 3/
4mont
hsnyanai
nmar
ri
age
sekunyi
wa
Me:Ei
shbaf oIdon'tknowwhatt odoanymoreI
meanIl oveherwithallofmeIdidever
ythi
ngfor
herIevenlovedhersonandmadehi m mypri
ori
ty
butnoiguessi twasn'tenough
Luu:
Manyouneedt
ogohomeandf
ixt
hingswi
th
yourwi
fe
Nat
hi:
Andpl
easedon'
thi
theragai
npl
ease
Me:
Don'
tyoudar
eremi
ndmeoft
hat
..
Itookmycarkeysandwentout,
idr
ovet
omypl ace
andgoti
nIwentst r
aightt
othemai
nbedroom and
whenIgoti
nKhi t
hawasf aci
ngt
hecei
li
ng
Me:Ngiyaxol
isangokukushaya<Iam sorryfor
hi
tti
ngyou>i twassouncal l
edforbutyoupissed
meyoupushedmeKhi t
ha,Babyam Iabad
husband?isther
esomewher ethatIam lacki
ngat?
becauseitry
yomakeyouhappyandi nmyeyesyoul ooked
happy..ievenwentanext rami lebyf ight i
ngf oryour
son'sbenef i
tsItookMenzi 'sbusi nessand
regi
steredi twithBaxol ise'snamebecauseI
thoughtitwast her ightthingtodo, Imar riedyou
becauseIl ovedyouwhol ehear tedly,IknowIhave
mademyownmi stakesbutIal wayscomecl eant o
youwhenIgetachancet o,babyIam notper fect,
the
onlytimeIhadt oshowt ruelovet oawomanIwas
l
eftshel eftmebr okenandwi thmanyquest ions
thatIstil
lneedanswer st o.Soift here'ssomet hing
wrongwi thmeKhi thapl easet ellmej ustdon'tmake
i
thar dformet ol oveyouok. .i
fyoudon' twantt obe
wi
thmeanymor
ejustsayi
tdon'
tdr
agmeal
ong
pl
ease

KHI
THA
.
.
Asmuchasam angr yatBandi
lebutmyhear tbroke
i
ntomi l
li
onpieceswhenIheardhim speakli
kethat
hewasevencr ying,
hesankonthefloorandhis
backwasont hewal lhehadabott
leofwhiskyin
hishandsoIgotupi nbedandlimpedtohim Itook
thebott
lefr
om him andhuggedhim hehuggedme
backsotighteventhoughIwasinpainbutlethim
be
Me:Nobabyt here'
snothi
ngwr ongwi t
hyou, i
t'
sall
myf aultIshouldn'
thaveactedli
keabr atandlet
peoplecomebet weenusam sor r
yIpr omiseyou
thatfr
om nowi twi
llal
waysbeyou, xoxoandI .
.ok
am sorry..
henoddedIwi pedhistearswehear da
doorbel l
Him:t
hatmustbeadoct
orIhopeyoudon'tmi
nd.
.i
shookmyheadhewenttoopenfori
ttheycamet
o
theroom t
hedoct
ordi
shi
sjobhewaschecki
ngme
aft
erthathewasdone
Doc:MrBiyel
apleasef
indwayst opuni
shalady
especi
all
ywhenshe'spregnant
,youcoul
d've
damagedt hezygot
e
Us:
What
?!
Doc:ohhuhsoyoudon'
tknowt
hatyouguysar
e
expect
ing
Ndi
le:
Baby
Me:
No
Doc:
whenl
astdi
dyouseeyourper
iods.
.owshi
t
Ndi
le:
Don'
tswear
..
wasIt
hatl
oud
Doc:Youneedtocomet
omyoffi
cesowecanalso
checkIfi
tissaf
ewenoddedMyhusbandwasso
happy
Hi
m:thankyousomuchbaby..
thankyouso
much..
heli
ft
edmeandspinnedmewi thexci
tement
Me:
Whooa.
CHAPTERTWENTY-
SIX
.
.
BANDI
LE
IwassohappyaboutthenewsImeanIwil
lbea
fat
herabi
ologi
calonetomyson/
daught
eram over
themoon
Me:Mamihowdoyoufeel
aboutt
his,
Imeanyou'
ve
beensi
lentt
hewhol
eti
me?
Her:
Idon'
tknowNaniam just
..
.over
whel
medI
guessIj
ustdon'
tknow.
.ihuggedherandki
ssedher
for
ehead
Me:BabyIassureyouthatIwi
llal
waysbewithyou
andourkidsal
lthedaysofmyl i
feIwi
llnotl
eave
youok.Shenodded
.
.
ItwaseveningandIhavetogoandvisitThabo'
s
householdtoni
ghtIt
ookashowerwentt othe
closetandtookmyblackbal
enciagat
racksuitand
sneakersIt
ookmygunl oadeditandtookmycar
keysandwentt omymai nbedr
oom andwhenIgot
therexoxoandhismamawer ecolour
ingbooksand
busyarguingaboutwhichoneistheri
ghtonefor
whateverIjustt
ookmyphoneandst olesome
snapsandpi csj
usttosavethem onmyphoneI
don'
thaveanysoci almedi
abesidesWhatsAppI
don'
thavet i
mef ori
t
Me:
Fami
ly.
.t
heyt
urnedt
olookatme
Her
:Ar
eyougoi
ngsomewher
ebaby?
Me:
YesbutIwi
llbebackbef
oreyoumi
ssme
Xoxo:
Daddywam canIgowi
thyou?
hesai
dget
ti
ng
up
Me:Nokeepyourmom companypl usit
'sdark
outsi
deai
n'tyouafr
aidofghost.
.hequi
cklywent
backtohi
smot herIl
aughedy'al
lshoul
d'veseent
he
speed
Her:
Youwon' tseeheaven'
s..shesai
dt hat
contai
ningal aughterIwenttokissthem andgot
outIdrovei nmybl acki8ithasbull
etpr oof
ed
windowsj ustincaseshitgodown. .
iarri
vedwher
e
hewasr esidingIgavetheguar dsafewnot es
becausemyni ggaLuuoncel ivedt
heresoIknow
them Isneakedi nhiswif
ewasbusycooki ng
whistl
etheki
ds2boyswer epl
ayingandaninf
ant
wasont hematIwentupst ai
rsandgottowherehe
keepshisgunsandoffloadedthem It
ookthe
bull
etsandwentoutt
oknocksot heycanl
etmei n
hiswifecametoopenthedoorwowshe' sbeauti
ful
Her:
comein.
.shewel
comedmeweexchanged
gr
eeti
ngs
Me:
ThankyouMr
swher
e'sThabo?
Her
:Hesai
dhe'
sonhi
swaybackhe.
.
hadameet
ingi
nPr
etor
ia
Me:
Nopr
obl
em Iwi
llwai
tforhi
m
Her
:owoksowoul
dyoul
iket
ohaveum.
..
Me:Nothingam fi
ne..
shenoddedandIwentt
osi
t
onthecouchandpl ayedwitht
heli
tt
lechamp
ot
herscamet ogreetmeandwentbackt odo
whateverinabout20minuteshegotin
Hi
m:Heybaby.
.am sur
etheyhuggedandhi
ski
ds
wentt
ohughim
Hi
m:wher
e'sJuni
or?
Ki
ds:
He'
swi
thuncl
e
Hi
m:uncl
e?!baby
Her
:Ther
e'samanwhocamet
oseeyou
Hi
m:who'
sthat
?IshowedupwiththebabyJuni
ori
n
myarmshewassmill
ingandbabytal
king
Me:
It
sme.
.hewasshockedt
oseeme
Him:
Whatdoyouwanti
nmyhouse?howdi
dyou
f
indme?
Me:i
sthathowyougr eetvisi
tor
s?youshoul
dteach
daddyhowtotreatvi
sitor
sokboy?Isaidref
erri
ng
toj
uniorhehuf
fedandor deredhiswi
feandkidsto
l
eavetheroom sotheydid
Hi
m: Am comi
ng.
.hedi
sappear
edandcameback
af
terafewminut
es
Me:ManIthoughtyouwer
egoingt
ofet
chmyf
il
e
hawulendonda<eythi
sman>
Hi
m:whi
chf
il
eMrBi
yel
a?
Me:soyouar
egoingtoactsur
pri
sednow?man
l
ist
enI'
vegotaverybeaut
if
ulwif
eandcut
eson
wait
ingf
ormeathomecanwepl easedot hi
st he
easywayyourki
dsar et
ooyoungtomour nyour
deat
handsheim yourpoorwi
fewillbedevastated
Him:Getout
!!youarenotget
ti
nganyfi
lefrom me
uyezwaIwanteverybodytoknowtherealyouand
especi
all
yyourwife
Me:Okhewant sitt
hehardway..
iam notleavi
ng
yourhousethenwhat?!hetookagunf r
om his
waistandpoint
edatme
Hi
m:Isai
dleave.
.
Me:Orelsewhat?!
youwillshootme? !f
uckgo
ahead..
hecockedandpul l
edt het
ri
ggerdaanghe
pull
editagai
nItookthebulletsandplacedt
hem at
thetabl
ehewassopi ssedIt ookputmine
Me:Nowyouar egoingtodoasIsayyouhearme?
henodded)goodfir
stl
ycanIhavemyfil
es.
.hewent
tohi
soffi
ceandt ookitandgavei
ttome
Me: goodsecondl ystayawayfr
om mywife
otherwisehellwillbr
eakIknowyourfami
lyyour
belovedparent sareatMpumalangaTweefont
ein
andyourwi fe'stoosodon'tt
ryme
andt hi
rdly.
.ishoot edontheroofhi swif
eandki ds
screamed. .
iwon' tbeshootingblanksthat'ssonot
mesost ayawayf rom meandt ellyourfr
iendMenzi
tostopinvest i
gatingmeyouwi l
lneverwi noverme
theytri
edwher ear etheynow?Itookasi ponhi s
whiskyIspi titout
Me:
Fake!
!Iwentout
.
.
KHI
THA
It'
sFridaysoIwokeupear lyt
odayIprepared
breakfastformyf amily.
iwentt
obathmysonand
tookhisschoolbaghewentdownst ai
rsandIwent
tocheckonmyhusbandhewasst i
llsl
eepingItook
ashowerandwor ej ustasimpl
edressandmy
Adidassl i
desItookmycarkeysandwentdown
stair
swhenIgott hereitwasamessxoxodi shed
upf orhimself
Me:
soyoucoul
dn'
twai
tformeboy?
Hi
m: kuni
niungekhol
ambi
lemna<you'
vebeengone
f
orlongam hungry>
Me:
andwho'
sgoi
ngt
ocl
eant
hismessbaby?
him:andazindi
yeskol
enmna<Idon'
tknowam goi
ng
toschool>
Ilaughedwowki dssohef i
nishedIcleanedhim up
l
uckilyhewasn' tthatdirt
yItookhi mtoschooland
camebackandwhenIgoti ntot hehouseitwas
cleanokIdi dcallMaFat i
manott ocomet owork
mossandnowokIj oggedupst air
sandwentt othe
bathroom andmymanwasl otioninghi
sf aceIwent
tohughi mf r
om behi ndhewasonl yinhisboxer
andIki ssedhim andt henIgotmyhandsi nhi
s
manhoodhesmi ll
ed
Hi
m:Don'
tyouhavecl
assest
oat
tendnana?
Me:
Idonani
Hi
m:andwhyar
eyouher
e?
Me:I
sitagai
nstt
helawt
obunkclassesj
usttobe
wi
thyourhusbandandmakeout
..
isaidmassagi
ng
hi
shood
Him:Wowareyouf
orr
eal
?babyyouhavet
ogot
o
yourcl
asses
Me:Soyoudon'tli
kethisideadoyou?It
urnedt
o
walkawayhegr abbedmyar m andbumpedinhis
chesthesmil
edandki ssedmewemadeoutf r
om
bathr
oom t
obedr oom
Him:MaBiyel
aist
urni
ngi
ntoabeastkhuzanibo.
.he
sai
dwipinghissweat
Me:
I'
vel
ear
nedf
rom t
hebest
Hi
m:i
sit
?weki
ssed
Me:NaniIhavebeent
hinki
ngofdr
oppi
ngoutof
school
Hi
m:What?!
why?!i
sitaboutwhathappenedbaby
noyouhavetogobacktoschool
CHAPTERTWENTY-
SEVEN
.
.
Me:Butnaniyoual
wayssayyouwi
shIwasa
housewif
enowIwanttobecomeone
Him:ar
eyouseri
ousaboutthatnana?
Imeanyou
alwaysdr
eam aboutgr
aduati
ngwhathappenedt
o
that
?
Me:
Iwi
llnaniqhake<butthen>iwi
llenr
ollat
UNI
SAbutforadiff
erentcourse
Hi
m:oksowhatcour
sewi
llyoubedoi
ngl
apho
<t
her
e>?
Me:
Publ
icRel
ati
onManagement
Hi
m:Wowbabysoyouhavet
akenmyadvi
seam
pr
oud
Me:
YesnaniIt
houghtabouti
tsoj
aIwanti
t
Him:OknowIwi
llhavesomeonewho'sgoi
ngt
o
hel
pmer unmybusinessesIl
oveyouok
Me:
Iloveyout
oo.
.isayget
ti
ngont
opofhi
m
Hi
m:Babyam t
ir
edyoo.
..
Me:
Nowor
iesIwi
lldot
hewor
k
Hi
m:Lordhavemer
cyonme.
..
wel
aughedandwe
madelove
.
.
It
'smi-
daytobequi tehonestwi
thyouguysam
boredam evenregrett
ingondecidi
ngonthi
sbutI
alr
eadyderegi
steredmyselfatUJandIwil
lappl
yat
UNISAforsecondsemest erbecausetheyare
cl
osedforfi
rstsemester.
Myhusbandi sbusyatthe
basementgett
inghishandsonsomedi rt
yworkso
basi
call
yam alone,
therewasaknockatt hedoorI
wenttoopenandt herewasadel i
veryguy
Hi
m:Ar
eyouMr
sBi
yel
a?
Me:
Yes
Him:
signher
emadam andt
akeyourpar
cel
..
idi
das
Iwastol
dandhelef
t
Iopenedt heboxitwasn'tbigandi twasn'
tsmalli
t
wasj ustoki nsi
detheboxt herewasal ett
er
reads* Hikhit
haam sorryforwhatIdi ditwasevil
andsel fi
shIhopeyouwi l
lfinditinyourhear
tto
forgi
vemet here'
salit
tl
eboxi nt herei
thasyour
weddi ngringaboutyourweaveam sor rysi
sIwill
keepi t
Thandi
*
Wowt hisgirlhasalivert
hathasatwinItellyouso
whost ealherfri
endsbelongi
ngsespeci
allya
weddingr i
ngwowIbowasf ormywigIguessi twi
ll
getherar i
chestblessersoshecanbuymor eof
them mnxaaayouknowsomepeopl earejust
weir
doshowcanyout akeaweavet hat
'snotyours
andgoflexwithitifIwasoneoft hosegir
lswhobe
exposi
ngtheirfr
iendsf ornotr
eturni
ngtheirweaves
Iwil
lbedoingthatbutIam busy
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
It
'sSatur
dayaf t
ernoonIam wi
thEntle,
Bandi
leand
hissonwentt othemallsi
ncemorningbutthey
gavemygi rlandIsomet i
metocatchupsoIhave
beentell
ingheraboutallt
heevent
sthathappened
Her
:Sof
ri
endvel
euyekel
a<i
ndeedyouar
eleavi
ng>
i
Lawtodobusi
ness?
Me:
Yeswhynot
?
Her
:Doyouevenl
ikeokl
etal
onel
ikedoyoueven
l
oveit
?
Me:
Wel
lIu.
.
Her
:exact
ly
Me:
Howdoyoumeanbysayi
ngt
hat
?
Her:
FriendIam goingt osayitj
ustthewayi t
i
s,wena<you>ar ejustdoingthistopleaseBandileI
meanwhol eavesherowncar eerchoicefortheone
that
'sbeingchosenf orher?i
sitbecausehe'sthe
onepayingf oryourf
ees? don'
tlethi
m controlyou
thi
safaryouknowyoual waysdr eamtofbecomi ng
alawyerwhathappenedt othat?
Me:Owpl easeBontlecanyoustopcreati
ngthi
ngs
thatarenoteventhere,
myhusbandgotnot hi
ngto
dowi t
hmydeci sionandbesidest
hathowcanyou
sayhe'scontrol
li
ngme? fr
iendpl
easeIloveyouso
muchbutIwon' tletyouspeaktomel i
kethat
,t
hisi
s
mymar r
iagesoleaveitt
ome
Her:Sohowdi dwegethere?fr
iendIt
houghtIwas
openingyoureyesminabutam sorryokeit
herway
whatdoIknowaboutmar riageyoo..
shesaid
whistl
edri
nkingfr
om herglassofwater
Me:
Sohowi
sthej
obhunt
ing?
Her
:I
tsbadnt
angai
t'
sbeen3mont
hsnol
uck
Me:Iwil
laskmyhusbandift
heyar
esti
llt
aki
ngCVs
athishot
elandIwi
lll
etyouknowok
Her
:l
etmeknowt
hatIam hi
redr
ight
?
Me:
what
?!nof
ri
endIneverment
ionedt
hat
Her:
butIhaveHCi
noffi
ceadmi
nmossandnawe
ungi
khulumel
eoedur
ingpi
ll
owtal
khawu
Me:Idon'
tthi
nkIwillr
ememberthatbecauseour
i
nti
macyi sfi
reIwi
llbeconf
essingmysi nsand
f
orgetaboutjobof
fers.
..
welaughedthatoff
Her
:Okkebutdoputawor df
ormeIreal
lyneeda
j
obfri
endIcan'tevenaff
ordamake-
upIdon'twant
t
oment i
ongroceryitt
ough
Me:
Okl
ovesIwi
ll
Her
:sohowi
spr
egnancysof
ar?
Me:
Idon'
tknowwehaven'
tbeent
oadoct
oryet
Her
:Youdon'
tsoundokwhyi
sthat
?
Me:Idon'tknowIam j
ustnotexci
tedaboutthi
s
pregnancybutIhavet
opretendasifIam fort
he
sakeofmyhusbandhappi ness
Her:
Youhavetomoveon- onwhathappenedt
oyou
whenyoufel
lpregnantt
hefir
stt
ime..
Me:Ndil
eisgoingtobeagoodf at
herIdon'
tdoubt
t
hatbutIam notreadytol
ooseshapeandbeugl y
whatifhedoesn'
tfindmeatt
racti
veaft
erthat
?
Her
:am Iun-
att
ract
ive?
me:
noyounot
Her
:exact
lybabesbet
hehot
testwi
feandamot
her
t
heyhaveeverseen
Me:It
snotlikeIhaveachoiceNdilehasaneyefor
beauti
full
adiessoIhavetolevelupever
yti
me..
.
.
Somewher
e*
Guy1:
Bossar
eyousur
ethi
sist
heone?
Guy2:
Doyouknowthi
sman,wecan'tbemessi
ng
wit
hhim unl
esswear
eti
redofl
ivi
ng
Guy3:
DoasIsaystoppr
aisi
ngt
hisbust
ardIwant
myfather
'sshar
es
Guy4:
Bosshaveyoudoneyourr
esear
chand
per
uzi
edontheinfoyougot
?
Guy3:
Areyouunder
mini
ngme,
l
ookher
eni
na
zi
thi
phaIneedthi
sguythi
scomingweekendIcan'
t
bepoorwhil
esomebodyisbusybl
owi
ngmy
i
nheri
tance
Guy5:
Oksodoyouhaveapl
anboss?
Guy3:
Myki ndofaguywellIhavesomeonewho's
onhistal
esandapparent
lywehavesomanyways
ofget
ti
ngt ohi
m hehasawi f
eandasonsoi t
's
goi
ngtobei nt
erest
ing
Guy2:
Ihaveabadf
eel
ingaboutt
his
Guy5:
Stopbei
ngasi
ssyandmanupweaboutt
obe
ri
ch
Guy6:
Sobossyouwi llbemil
kingsomeonewho's
evenr
icherthanPatr
ickMotsepehimsel
f?not
for
get
tingthathe'
sdanger
ous
Guy5:
He'sweaknowIhaveseenhi
m, whenlastdi
d
youhearabouthi
mint
hegangsIwillwait
?
Guy2:
butt
hatdoesn'
tchanget
hef
act
Guy3:Iam notgoi
ngtoworkwit
hcowar dsifyou
don'
twantt obepartoft
hist
henleavebecauseam
abouttoletThebi
gJoeknowaboutt hi
splan
Them:
saywhat
?!
Guy3:
wat
chandl
ear
nwor
ldwari
x
Guy5:
Thatmanhast
oomuchpr
ideam j
usthappy
he'
saboutt
omeethi
smat
ch
Guy6:
Am st
il
lshookaboutJoe
Guy3:
OlddogBrut
altoohe'sgoi
ngt
oshakewhen
heseesJoewewillgetwhatwewantf
rom hi
m
evenhi
sbeaut
if
ulwife
CHAPTERTWENTY-
EIGHT
.
.
BANDI
LE
Thingsbeengoodwi thmyf ami lyIam ahappy
man. .iam atmydar koff
icewhi chismysecret
placei talsohasanel evatortothebasementIwas
busyi nstalli
ngthespycamer asbecauseIhave
noticedt hatIhavepeopl ewhoar efol
lowi
ngme
aroundsoIhavet obear medandr eadywhenIwas
doneIwentt othemai nbedroom andwhenIgot
theremybeaut ifulwif
ewasi nbedbusyon
what everi nherphoneIwentt ojoinher
Me:Youar
ealwaysgl
uedtoyourphonemaBiyel
a
youneedtot
eachmeInst
agram bythewayngif
una
ubawithi
nnami
Her
:What
?!babyno
Me:
whynot
?
Her:Nanit
her
earelotsandlot
sofbeautif
ulwomen
i
nt hereot
her
saremor ethanmesot heywillbe
hit
tinguponyouunlessIwil
lhaveaccesstoyour
acc
Me:
Wowsoyoudon'
ttr
ustyour
sel
fMaBi
yel
a?
Her:
IdobabybutIdon'
timagi
nemyl
if
ewi
thout
you.
.
Me:Whyi ngathiuyi
dleyonkenjeImeanenye
bengi
yibekeleforrai
nydays..
welaughed
Me:
Iloveyout
oonanami
Her
:Babycanyoupl
easedomeaf
avour
?
Me:
Shoot
Her:
WellBontl
eisinneedofajobandIhaveheard
youtal
kingabouthi
ri
ngatfourseasonhot
elshe
hasaHCi
nof
fi
ceadmi
nsocanyoumakeapl
an?
Me:
Onl
yinonecondi
ti
on
Her
:Yes
Me:Shehast oknowthatwhenIam atwor
kIam Mr
Biyel
anotBandileIam notni
ceal
lmyemployees
knowt hatt
heyneedtogetthi
ngsdoneint
ime
Her
:Soar
eyougoi
ngt
ohi
reher
?
Me:
Iwi
llcheckont
hatMondaymadam
Her
:Youar
ethebestbaby,
Me:
Iknow.
.shechuckl
ed
Her:
Don'
tyouwantapi
eceofsomevel
vetcake
baby?
Me:Youboughtvelvetcakebutser
vedusbl
ack
f
orestdur
ingdinnerthiswoman
Her
:Soi
t'
str
uet
hatmanar
esl
ow?
Me:whatareyouonabout?shet
ookmyhandand
di
rect
editstr
aightt
ohercoochi
eshewaswetwai
t
what
Her
:t
hisone,
uyayi
funa<doyouwanti
t>
Me:canyoubepr egnantf
ort
herestofyourl
if
eso
thatIcangetpussy25ti
mesaday..
shesulkedIgot
ontopofher
Her:
Andi
saf
unihl
ika<am nol
ongeri
nter
est
edget
of
f>
Me:
Whatbabynoyoucan'
tdot
hat
Her
:sodoyouwantt
orapeme?i
ssheevenser
ious
Me:Butbabyyouaretheonewhost
art
edt
hisso
pl
easedon'tactl
ikeavict
im
Her
:butIaskedyouandt
henwena
Me:babyyoucan'
tevendef
endyoursel
fnowl
ook..
i
sai
dshowinghermynower ectdi
cksheswal
lowed
har
d
Me:SodoyouwantyourmanImeanyourown
husbandwhopai dl
obol
aforyoutosl
eepl
iket
his
Mamihuh? Iaskedr
ubbi
ngmydi cki
nheri
nner
thi
ghsasitwasoozingal
ready
Her
:I.
..
shesai
dli
ft
ingherbut
ttr
yingt
omeetme
hal
fwayandsear
chingformeasshewasgri
ndi
ng
t
het
ip
Me:Youwhatnanami?..
imovedbackfrom heryou
couldt
ellt
hatshewaspissedIgotof
fbedand
pull
edhertothebedsedgeItookapi
ll
owandputi t
underherass
Me:
khul
umaphel
a
Her:
Idon'
tknowNanibutIwantyoui
ntor
ho
<pl
ease>
Me:ar
eyour
eady?
Iaskedopeni
ngherf
oldswi
thmy
di
ck
Her :
YesIa..ienteredherinonegoshescreamed
afterthatIgrabbedbothherlegandpull
edherso
thatshecanf eeli
tinherli
verIsawhereyes
changi ngyesgot chaistar
tedmovingonalower
pace
Me:Youloveit
..
shenoddedIsl
appedherassso
har
dt hatshescr
eamedIwentonfast
erpacenow
shewasmoani ngandcall
ingmyname
Her
:Babyam sor
rybabyuxol
o
Me:
whyar
eyousor
ry?
Isai
dgoi
ngbeastonher
Her:Idon'tknowNanibutam sorryahh.
.ok
Ntshangasei shit
ti
ngtheri
ghtcornersnow.she
came3t i
mesi noneroundIturnedheraroundass
upchestwasf l
atdownandIf uckedherunti
lwe
bothcameandaf tert
hatshecoll
apsedandsl epti
n
thatpositi
onIwaspower l
essnamisoIj ustthrew
mysel font opofherassandsleptl
ikethatGodam
pussyt i
red

Loveandl
ightseey'
al
lonSundayci
ao
TWENTY-
NINE
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
It
'sbeenacoupl eofweeksnowwehavebeen
vi
siti
ngadoct orsomommyi s4mont hspregnant
andam st ar
ti
ngtoseethechangesinmy
body,Bandil
ehasbeensupporti
veandlovi
ngmy
husbandisheavenlysentIal
wayspraytoGodt hat
hemaynevereverchangeonmet helovehehasf or
mei sunquest i
onabl ehealwaysf i
ndaawayt o
showi teverydayt hati swhyIr especthi m somuch
andIbedoi ngmywi feyduti
eswi t
hnoquar reli
ng
becauseIknowt hatIam lovedandbei ngtaken
careoffandnowt hatIknowhi sbusi nesseshe
sometimesl etmeknowwhati sgoi ngont ohi s
compani esandhi sgangst erl
ife.soIdeci dedt o
surpri
sehi mt odayIam onmywayt ohisofficeI
broughthim homecookedmealdampand
beans,hard-bodychi ckenandspi nachIcooked
them thetraditi
onalwaynospi cesj ustsaltandI
knowhe' sgoi ngt oenj oyi
tandt henIam goi ngt o
feeduNt shangaset oomymangott obehappyi got
tothebui l
dingandIwentt otheRecept ionIfound
Entl
ewi thsomeot herladyIthinkIhaveseenheron
myman' sWhat sAppbusyf l
ir
ti
nghi m arrg
Me:
Gooddayl
adi
es.
.isai
dappr
oachi
ngt
hem
Them:
Mor ni
ng.
.wowthatissocol
dcomi
ngf
rom
mybesti
eokletmeignorethat
Me:
Icamet oseemyhusbandi
sheinthebuil
ding?
t
heotherl
adyandtheot
heronewhojustar
ri
ved
wer
eeyespoppedout
l
ady1:
Yourhusband?
whodoyoumean? sheasked
f
ixi
ngherweave..
andjustbef
oreIcoul
dbreathmy
mancame
Me:
Thi
sone.
.iwentt
ohughi
m andweki
ssed
Him:
howdoIowethepl
easur
eMawengane
<mot
herofmyki
ds>
Lady1&2:
Sot
her
e'saMr
sBi
yel
a?
Me:
Theoneandonl
y.isai
drai
singmylef
thandby
t
hewayNdil
eboughtmeanewdi amondring
Lady1:t
alkaboutbei
ngl
ay-
buyed.
.t
heyl
aughed
Me:Foryourinfot
radi
ti
onall
ywear
emarr
iedandI
am st
il
lplanningawester
nweddi
ngy'
al
lhaveto
chi
ll
Him:Sosincewhendoyouguysst artgett
ingyour
noseinmyper sonall
if
edidihi rey'al
ltochator
worksomet imeyallhavetomi ndandr espectthe
j
obt hatpaysyousopl easethedi srespecty'al
l
gi
vingmywi feain'
tgoi
ngt otolerat
ei t
,l
et'
sgobaby.
hesaidtakingthetakeawaybagandmyhandbag
fr
om mewewentt otheelevatorandwentt ohis
off
icehedidn'
twasteanyt
imeheopenedt
hef
ood
contai
nerandwhist
led
Me:
Youl
ovei
t?
Him:
Yesbabyngi
yabongankosi
kazi
yami<t
hank
youmywife>
Heat
eandi
n6/
7mi
nut
eshewasdone
Me:Thatwasquick.isai
dcleani
nghim upandI
l
ift
edmydr essandsatonhi smanhoodhesmi l
led
andIgri
ndedoni tandpressedmycoochieandass
onitandfel
titr
egainingst
rengthbestf
eel
ingever
Me: Howi syourdaysofarMrBiyel
a?Iasked
playingwithhisti
easIwasadjusti
ngitmoreli
ke
takingitoffandunbut
toni
nghisshir
t
Him:i
tis.(ohf uck..
shi
t)babyitisgood..
hesaidas
hisbreathingpat t
ernschangesIkissedhimf r
om
themout hal lthewaydownt ohi sneckandnow
exposedchestandabsandmyhandswer eonhi sV
-l
ineIlovei tandyenahewaspent ingandswearing
soIgotof fhi m andkneltdownandbr ushedhis
nower ectdi ckheswear sagainandcallsmynameI
unbuttonhi strouserandundressedhim hisdick
sprangoutf reelyGodyougavemeal i
verwho
downt hroat sananacondahe' ssobigici rcl
edmy
taungeonhi st ipasi twasoozi ngal r
eadyandI
starteddoi ngmyj obIgavehi m agoodonehewas
surrendinghi ssoul onmeever yti
mehef eltitonmy
throathecameandIcl eanedhi m usingmyt aunge
i
twasst i
llhar dsoIj ustli
ft
edmydr essandIdi dn'
t
wearanyunder garment ssoIj ustsatonhi m asi t
wasent eringmeIf elthimt oodeepasi twas
uncomf ortabl esohel if
tedmeandputmeont opof
hisof f
icet abl eandf uckedmei nami ssionaryst yl
e
afterhet ur nedmeandent eredf r
om behi ndhe
didn'tmovesoIdi dt hejobIst art
edmovi ngmyass
upanddownandci rclesitdrovehi m crazysoI
movedonaf ast erpaceandt werkedoni t-i
tdrove
him crazieraf terwebot hcamewewentt ositonhi s
couchanddr ankwat er
Hi
m:Iyakut
handaindoda<manl
ovesyou>hesai
d
ki
ssi
ngmyhai r
li
ne
Me:Uyakut
handaumf
azi<wi
feyl
ovesyou>he
chuckl
ed
Hi
m:copycat
Me:
ButyouknowIdo
Hi
m:Isai
ditf
ir
st
Me:
but
..
Hi
m: don'
tst
artdef
endi
ngyour
sel
fpl
easeyouknow
am corr
ect
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hingIj
ustpl
ayedwi
thhi
sbal
ls
Hi
m:Tel
lmemamakwam whatdoyou
want
?anyt
hingIwi
lldoi
t
Me:
RangeRoverSUVandyourbl
ackcar
d..
hewent
t
othehi
swall
et
Him:Hereismybl ackcardyouknowt hepinand
yourcarwillbedeli
veredanyti
met hi
sweekor
weekendMaBi yelayourhappinessinmyjoy
Ngiyakut
handayezwa<Il oveyouyouhear>ij ust
becameemot i
onalhecomf ort
edmeandwespent
sometimetogetherbeforeIlef
tandwenttothemall
tospendmyman' smoneyImethi sexPalesahe
wassocr ustyyuuu
Me:
Pal
esaunj
ani<howar
eyou>?
Her
:Ngi
yaphi
la<am f
ine>
Me:
Nat
hisi
yazi
phi
lel
awet
hu<wear
eal
sof
ine>
Her
:Wel
lmar
ri
agei
str
eat
ingyougoodIsee
Me:
Gur
lyouhavenoi
dea
Him:Enj
oyitwhil
eitl
astbecauseweal
lknowt
hat
nothi
nglastf
orever
Me:
Thanksf
oryourki
ndadvi
sesi
s
Icont
inuedshoppi
ngIwon'
tl
etadumpassgi
rlr
uin
myday

Somewher
e*
Guy3:
Thi
sweekendwear
epl
ayi
ngboys
Joe:
Iwanty'
al
ltobr
ingmet
hatboyIwanthi
m al
ive
youhearme
Them:
Yessi
radyousay
Joe:
GoodIhaveasoftspotf
orwomenandchi
ldr
en
sowewilll
eavet
hem andfocusont
hemaini
ssue
Guy3:
butt
hebi
gJoeyouknowawayt
othatmani
s
throughthesepeopl
esohowcanwenoti ncl
ude
them sowenaLuckyyouaregoi ngt
okidnapthat
kidatschoolIhavel
ear
nedt hathegoesforhi
s
swi mmingandsoccerl
essonsonSat ur
dayso
makeapl anandcatchhim ok
Lucky(
Guy5)
:Asyousaybhozayam <myboss>
Theyconti
nuedonplanni
ngt
hei
rthi
nghopi
ngt
o
accompli
shthemissi
on
.
.
Iknowi
t'
snotSundaybutIam i
nagoodmoodso

Don'
tfor
gett
ocomment
CHAPTERTHI
RTY
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
I
t'
sSaturdaysonisatschoolevent
houghIdidn'
t
wanthi
mt ogotoschoolbuthewascr yi
ngandhis
f
atheri
nsist
edthathecangoguysImi ssbei
ng
wit
hmysonmnayooosowewer edr i
vingf r
om
Ndil
eswar ehousehehar dl
yusesitsowewer e
fet
chingsomei mportantfi
leshesaidokwewer e
dri
vinginhisLamborghinizuruhi
sf avorit
eandwe
wereplayi
ngsomemusi candsingingal ongwhen
somet r
affi
ccopsstopedourcarf orthewhyIdon' t
knowsowest opped
T.
Cop1:
Gooddaysi
ryourcarseem tobesmoki
ng
di
syouchecki
t?wewereconfused
Ndil
e:LookhereIdon'thaveti
met oplayoksoifI
getoutofthi
scarandcheckI fithasasmokei fnot
am goingtosueyourasshyassesNdi l
ecli
mbed
outtocheckandIf el
tsomebodygr abbingmeso
hardIalmosthitt
hegr oundaft
erwecoul dknowit
theygotint
othecaranddr oveoff
Ndi
le:
WTFjusthappened?
!cansomebodyt
ellme
whatt
heactualFuck?
!
Me:
Babyt
heyt
ookt
hecar
Ndil
e:Thoseidi
otscan'
tcalculat
ewhojusthi
jackan
expensivecarandthi
nkitwillj
ustbet
heendofi t
babywher earethephones?l
uckil
yIhadmineand
hi
swasont
hecarIgavei
ttohi
m hemadeacal
l
Hi
m:ExeLuumf
ethut
heyj
ustt
ookmycar
Luu:
..
.
Him:Idon'
tknowwhereIam atnowjustt
rackt
he
phoneit'
sacti
vat
edandpleasesendmesbus
number
Luu:
..
.
Aft
erasecondmyphonebeepedhemadeyet
anot
hercal
l
Him:sbudabrayam t
heyt
ookmyLambor ghi
nizuru
canyout r
ackitwewil
lmeetatt
hesquar
egoi nt
o
myhousewi thnat
hiandtakemyBuggat
tiV.Iwant
tocatchthem ont
ime
Sbu:
..
Hi
m:sur
e
westoodther
eforagood30minandtherewasno
signofLuusoNdil
est
opedataxiandwegotinand
thestar
eswegotweseatedonthesecondrow
Ndi
le:
Howmuchi
sthef
are?
Taxidr
iver
:Hawuabocheeseboykhul
umamf ana
si
zweut hi
ni?
<speakboysowecanhearyou>
Him:
angisi
ngucheeseboywenanhlamayi mal
ini
i
teki
sil
akhoentl
ekmithatha<iam not
..
,youdough
howmuchi sataxif
arei
nfactt
akehereisyour
money>hegavehim aR200note
Hi
m:Ngi
funaukwehl
aeMal
lofAf
ri
cai
n5mi
nut
es
makei
tquick
Hedidn'tsayanythi
nghejustdrovei
mali<money>
haspower ,
Whenwegott herehecall
edLuuandhe
tol
dhim wherewewer esohecamewi t
hhisSUVhe
waswi t
hPhi l
aniandthei
rchicswegotinandwent
toanopenspacewher et
heBuggatti
'
sappeared
theygetoutofthecar
Ndi
le:
Sbudaawungi
jabul
ise<makemehappy>
Sbu:
Imanagedt
otrackthelocat
ioni
t'
sin
Mpumal
angaattheskraal
s
Ndil
e:St
upid.
.hewenttoopent
hebootandtookout
gunsandmadesur ethatt
heyaref
ull
yloadedI
wenttohim
Me:Babypleasebecar
efulIdon'
twantt
olooseyou
andou..
.hecutt
edmeshor t
Ndil
e:Nomkhithacanyoust opnaggi
ngme! !
just
st
opi tam notacrawlerIam abigdogIhavebeen
doi
ngt hi
ssopl easeungangibangel
iisi
cef
e
l
okh'ungi
cefzelaminaheshoutedatmeasi fIwas
not
hingandIcr ied
Ndil
e:gobackt
othecarpl
easeLuuhuggedmeand
tookmet ot
hecarandwhenIgott
herethel
adi
es
comfortedme
Theyspokeaboutwhateverbutnat
hicametous
andwedr ovebackt
othejoburgrout
ineast
heygot
totheBuggatt
i'
sanddrovetheseparat
eway
Pear
l(Phi
lani
sgir
lf
ri
end):
Iam sor
ryam sur
ehe
di
dn'
tmeani thei
spissed
Me:
buthehadnor
ightt
oshoutatmet
hough
Nathi
:That
'showhebecomeswhenhei
sinsuch
si
tuat
ionsjustbar
ewi
thhim
Lady:
Uxol
omntaseuzobari
ghtavha<Iam sor
ry
si
bli
ngyouwi
ll
befine>shel
ookedfami
li
arandI
t
houghtIhaveseenhersomewher
eshegaveme
wat
erIdrank
Me:
thankyou.
.
Her
:am Ti
naLuu'
sgi
rlandPal
esa'
sexf
ri
end
Me:YeahIt
houghtIsawyousomewher
esowhat
happenedi
fImayask?
Her
:l
ongst
ory
Me:ok.
..
andIthoughtofmysonIaskedNat hit
o
dr
ivetohisschoolsowecanfetchhim andwhen
wedrovetherewesawhisteacherIcl
imbedoffand
wenttoher
Me:
Icamet
ofet
chmyson
Her
:Wel
lhi
suncl
etookhi
m..
wai
twhatuncl
e
Me:Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
hisuncl
ehedoesn'
thave
anyuncl
ehowdoyoumean?hereyespopped
Her
:wel
lum
Me:
speak.
.ishout
ed
Her:
okamancameandsai
dImustnotsai
dImust
notr
epor
thi
m asIwasonmywayoutsoIdon'
t
evenknowtheman..al
lIcoul
dheari
sherspeaking
butIdi
dn'
tunder
standherwhocant akemybabyI
sankdownandcriedNathiandt
heladiescame
Nat
hi:
canwepleasegoi
nsi
deandaskf
orsecur
it
y
t
ocheckthecameras
Me:Youbett
erpraythatmysoni satmyhouse
other
wiseIwil
lski
nyou..isai
daftergi
vingherahot
sl
apherfacewaspi nkwewentt othecameraroom
andtheguysfacewashiddent hecardidn'
thave
anynumberplateandmysonwasasl eepIcri
ed
Tina:
am sorr
ybbestheywi
llf
indhi
m Bandi
lewi
l
l
fi
ndhim babessor
ry
Me:nonono! !
!!IwantmysonIwanthi m he'sonl
y
4years4years..
icriedsobadIevenl ostmyvoice
theydrovemet othehouseIwentt ohisbedroom
andhewasnott hereIcr iedformydearlif
eistood
upandwentdownst airssoIcant akemyphone
andcallthecopsbutwhenIgott othestai
rsI
missedast epandf ellIroll
edfrom f
ir
sttolast
.

BANDI
LE
.
.
Wegoti nt
othisbushhouseandwewenti nIwant
toseewho'stryi
ngt omessupwi t
hmewhenwe
gotintheguardsjumpedinfearwhent heysawme
butactedmanlyandshowedmet hewayi n
and..
..
wtfishesti
llali
vedi
dn'tIki
llhi
m
Joe:
Bandil
eyouaresogrownboy.t
hisi
sthetop
dogthatIt
ooksharesf
rom byf
orceandkil
ledhi
m
Godam sweati
ngbutIam amanIhavetofight
Me:
WhatdoyouwantJoe?
Him:noteven'Uncl
eJoe'okngi
yabonaukuthiyou
havegrownsomebal lssoIwil
lbestr
aightwit
hyou
Iwantwhat '
smineandwhatbelongedtomyf ri
end
eddsoyoudon' twanttomakeanenemyoutofme
andeddsonbecausenowyourcheeseboysand
youcan'tcompete
Sogiveus50%ofallyourbusinessessoyoucan
getyourcarandsonback..
wai twhatIswearIlost
mydamnmi ndIwantedtotakemygunshootever y
corneroft
hishouseandeverybodyi nitbutLuu
stoppedme
Luu:
it
'sokIwil
ldrawacontr
actsocanwehavet
hat
i
nnocentbabyback.hesai
dlooki
ngatme
Joe:Nowyouar etalki
ngbutbr i
ngt hecontractfi
rst
andam gi vingyou42hour sam notgoodwi t
h
babiesnowdi smiss..
ifel
tshi tIfai
ledkhithaIwent
toleanonmycarasJoemadesur eIdon'ttouchi t
butithadt hepapersIwassupposet osendt o
Colombi at onightGodwhyi sthishappeningt ome
whenIgott omyBuggat t
iIsawmyphoneandFi l
es
Luuwi nkedatmemyki ndofaguywhencheckedi t
i
thadvoi cemessagef rom Nat hiIli
stentoitOwmy
khit
hai sadmi tt
edtoMedicl inichospi t
alohmyGod
Idrovef asterIwasonmyVi ndieselmodeIgot
thereaf
teranhourandwentst raighttowher ethey
were
Me:What'
sgoingon?Whyi ssheadmi
tt
ed?When
Pear
ltr
iedexpl
aini
ngDoctorNel(
myex)and
anot
hermaledoctorcame
Mal
eD:
Wher
e'sMrBi
yel
a?
Me:
Her
e
Hi
m:Wel
lthegoodnewsar
eyourwi
fei
swel
lbut
sti
llunconsci
ousfornowbecauseshewasisthe
ICUunf or
tunat
elythebabydi
dn'
tmakeit
..
isweari
hadwor ldwall
sclosi
ngonmeNelcameand
huggedmet i
ghtl
y
Her
:Am sor
ry.
.sher
ubbedmyback
Me:CanIseemywi fe?theynoddedandtookmeto
herwardwhenIgott her
eshewasf aci
ngawall
cryi
ngmyhear tbr
okeevenmor eIwenttohugher
shefoughtmebutIf i
nall
ywonandwehugged
eachotherandcri
edoneachot her
sarms
Her
:GetoutNdi
leGetout
Me:
babyI
..
Her:
Mytwosonsar emissi
ngnot heotheroneis
deadandtheot
heroneismi ssi
ngallbecauseof
youBandi
leal
lbecauseofyourself
ishselfj
ustgo
andgetmysonshecr i
edoutloudshewasi npain
Her
:IwantmysonBandi
leineedhi
m
shecr
iedIcoul
dn'
ttakei
tanymor
eIst
ormedout
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
ONE
.
.
BANDI
LE
IwasfumingIgottomyhouseandwenttothe
basementsetdownandcri
edmylungsoutwhenI
fel
tsomeonehuggingmyshoul
dersandwhenI
l
ookupi t
'sPhi
laniwebr
ohuggedandLuu
appear
ed
Luu:
ManIhavedrewacont
racti
tst
atet
hatal
lyour
compani
esaresi
gnedt
oJoe..
Me:Uyahlanyamfet
huareyououtofyourdamn
mindmf ethui
fJoewantawarhe'sgoi
ngtogeti
t.
.i
st
oodupandopenedt hedrawert
hathasallmy
weapons
Luu:Njayam youhavet ostopprovi
ngt hatyouarea
beastineverythi
ngokl ethimfeell
ikehe'sin
controlj
ustforaf ewdaysbecauset hatcontr
actis
fakemanhedi dn'tevenseethathesigneditand
saidyoursonwi llbedeli
vered
Me:Ayi
ncwadangavel
eleyanj
a<t
hatdogi
snot
educat
ed>
Phi
lN:Mf
ethuIt
hinkyoushoul
drestandthi
nkabout
aplanonhowwear egoi
ngtotakethesepi
ecesof
shi
tdown
Me:Theywil
lknowt her
ealt
erminat
orLuusinceyou
choseyoursel
ftobemyr i
ghthandmant el
lthat
Joeofyourswehaveameet i
ngonWednesday
19:00atTembisaex3
Them:
war
ehouse?
!
Me:
Yesandtel
ltheguyst
hattheyhavet
opr
epar
e
t
heG-wagonst
heyhaveatri
p
Luu:
andt
hat
?
Me:t
ellt
heguystocomeandseemenobody
messeswi t
hmyf amil
yandgetsawaywit
hit
..
we
wentupstai
rsandItookashowerandsl
ept
It'
sbeent wodaysnowmysonwasdel i
ver
edthey
haveinjectedhim wi
thdrugssoIt ookhi mtothe
hospit
albutl ucki
lyt
heyar ebothcomi nghome
todaymywi fewasdischargedyesterdaybutshe
didn'
tcomebackhome. SoIcl eanedthehousemy
guysgoti nitwasnoonal readytodayit'
s
Wednesdaysowear egoingt opl
ay
Them:
hayiyouat
eital
l<webr
ohugged>
Me:Ngabuyangadl anamal eftover
snjayam. .
we
sharedalaughterafterafewmi nMywi fecameshe
hadmysoni nherar msshewaswi thTinaand
PearlIwenttohugt hem anditri
edtaki
ngLi seis
herarmssher efusedandt hen?!
Her
:Iam her
etot
akeal
lmybel
ongi
ngsBandi
le
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
!
Her
:Ar
eyoudeafnorst
upi
dyourpr
obl
em i
sthat
.
youareselfi
shandyout hi
nkyouar esmart
..
.she
cont
inuedshout i
ngatmei nfr
ontofever
yoneshe
mentionedalotofhur
tfult
hingsaft
ershewent
upst
airsIfol
lowedher
Her:
Getof
fmybackBandi
le.
.it
ookLi
seandt
ucked
himinhi
sbedandki
ssedhim amil
li
onti
mesand
tur
nedtoKhi
tha
Me:
atthebalcony.
.iwal
kedoutshedr
aggedher
f
eetandfol
lowedme
Me:Si
ncewhendi
dyoubecamearecked
wi
fe?!
wheredi
dyout
akethel
ivert
ospeakt
ome
l
iket
hati
nfr
ontofmyfri
endscal
li
ngmestupi
dand
poki
ngmeasifIam a3yrol
dhuhkhi
tha?
!
Her
:.
.
Me: Ownowyouar enotgoi ngt osayat hingnow
l
istentomever ycar eful
lyIknowt hatyouar e
hurtingandmadatmeaboutwhatwentdownbut
thatdoesn'
tgiveyouar ighttoshoutatmeandt ell
mehowusel essIam unesbi ndiyazi mfazi f
ir
stof
allIboughtthi
shouseandever ythinginitIpayed
foryouandLi seandam t akingagoodcar eofyou
guyswi thj
ustonet hinggoi ngwr ongwenayou
wantt opackyourbagsandl eave? !
reall
yKhi t
ha
l
ookher eIam themant heheadoft hishousehol d
whatIsaygoessopl easest opirr
itati
ngmeand
tell
ingmethatIam usel essi fyouwantt oseewho' s
uselessyoushouldconsul tami rrormydear .
.

KHI
THA
IknowIwasoutofhandbutwhathej
ustsai
dbr
oke
me
Me:
SoIam usel
essnow?
!
Him:Iam hungryNomkhi t
hangifunaujeqenesbindi
senkomo<steam breadandoxliver>makei tqui
ck
i
t'
s17: 50nowkeepi nmindthatat19:00Ishouldbe
atTembi saakusheshwehewalkedoutIj ustcri
ed
howdi dwegether eIfel
tstr
ongar mshuggingme
i
t'
sLuu
Him:Don'
tmindwhathesaidwhenhe'sinsuch
sit
uati
onsheactswit
houtt
hinki
ngsoyoumust
underst
andthatt
hisal
sohurt
shim buthehidesi
t
foryoubecausehe'
saman..
Me:Iknowt hatIwaswrongbutIdon'
tdeser
vet
his
tr
eatmentIhat esayi
ngthi
sbuthe'
sso
heart
less.
Tinacame
Her:
sor
rytodist
urbbutLuuBandzsai
dImust
comeandcallyou.
.hewentdownstai
rs.
Iwi
pedmy
tear
sshecameandhuggedme
Iwentt
otheki
tchent
opr
epar
ether
equest
edmeal
Pearl
:whydon'
tyouorderonli
nether
earesome
rest
aurant
sthathasSteam br
eadonthei
rmenu
Me:Nohewant
sahomecookedmealandbesi
desI
haveapr
essur
ecookersoIwi
llusei
t
Ti
na:
okl
etushel
pyoumnt
ase
Imixedt hedoughwi thboil
ingwat ersot hatitwil
l
pressuretheyeasttor i
sefasterthant heusualt ime
andin40mi nut
esIwasdoneIwentt otheliving
room the2ndonewehar dl
yusei tit
'sxoxowho
l
ikesplayinginther
ewhenIgott hereNdi l
ewas
busyor deri
ngthem tell
ingthem whatt odoandal l
theydidwast onodwhatInot icedi sthattheydon' t
arguehi mit'
sonlyLuuandPhi laniwhomanagest o
getthruhim
Me:
Dinneri
sreadyguys
Them:
Awumakot
iwet
hu<Ourbr
ide>
Luu:ayi
ngododir
hoyimoss<i
t'
snotimmat
ure
cookes>Il
aughedsohardwhenlastdi
diheart
hat
word
Me:
Noyouknowam chefi
ntheki
tchen
Luu:
And.
.
Ndil
e:Fut
sekwenaLuu.
.hecametohugmeand
squeezedmybutthet
henkissedmyfor
eheadandI
hadtopretendt
hatwearei
ngoodter
msmnk
marriagetheyat eeverybodywaspr ai
singmewhen
i
twasal mosttimeforthem tol
eaveheaskedmet o
goupst air
swithhim wewentt othemai nbedr oom
wet henspokeandapol ogi
zedtoeachot herhe
wentt otakeashowerandcamebackbut tnaked
whenIsawhi m Iswearmypant iesdrenchedbut
i
t'stooearlytointi
mat esowewentf ororalsexand
theycamet ofet
chhi m
Ndi
le:
Iwi
llal
waysl
oveyou.
.hesai
dki
ssi
ngme
Me:
Alwaysandf
orever
..
weki
ssed
THI
RTY-
TW0
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
.
Oknowwear eonourwayt oTembisaIcal
ledJoe
andItoldhi
m wherewear egoingt
omeet .
Tobe
quit
ehonestJoescaresmehehasbeeni nt he
gamef orl
ongbutIwillactt
oughbecauseIhavehi
s
famil
ysoithinkmyplanwi l
lgosmoothl
y
Luu:
Njayam
Me:
Exe
Luu:Wearehere..
wegotoutofthecarandwent
i
nsideandwentst r
aightt
otheoff
iceinafewJoe
camei nwi
thMi keEdssontheywerewiththei
r
guards4ofthem okwewel comedthem t
hey
set
tled
Joe:
Where'sever
ybodyIwantt
omaket hi
ngs
qui
ckerIhavetobeinLi
mpopoinseconds
Me:
What
'sthemat
teri
syourf
ami
lyf
ine?
Iasked
t
aki
ngasiponmywhisky
Joe:
Iguess
Me:MikeuRightdog?
he'soneoft
hoseskr
rskr
r
boyssohe'snotathreatt
ome
Mi
ke:
Jasur
e
Me:Let
sgototheothersi
desi
ncey'
al
lar
eina
hur
ry.t
heyl
ookedconfused
Joe:
Icameher
etosi
gnfor
msandgetthestuffso
pl
easedon'
twast
emyti
me!!hesai
dshout
ing
Me:Ther
e'ssomet
hingIneedt
oshowyoubefor
e
si
gningthedamnpapersyouar
eher
efor
..
isaid
wi
thast
ernvoi
cenobodyshout
satmeIhat
ethat
Theyallf
oll
owedmeasSbuandThatoopened
doorswereachwher
eIkeptt
hei
rfami
li
esbutthe
room wasdark
Mi
ke:
andt
hen?
Iswi
tchedont
hel
ight
s
Mike&Joe:
Thefuck!
!mysquadandItookoutour
gunswhistl
ethei
rguar
dstookthei
rsoutwewere
point
ingateachot
her
Me:Sowhat'
sinyourmind?youthi
nkyoucantake
mybusinessaseasyasthat?Iwor
khardfort
hese
busi
nessesandyoucomeher eanddemand50%
wonkeunganyasowedot hisnywayorthehigh
way
Joe:
Youthinkyouaresmartwenamfanahuhso
whatisyourway?Ipoi
ntedt
heguntohispr
egnant
wif
e
Me:
huh?
Joe:
Youwoul
dn'
tdar
e..
Me:
Whynot?!
Ilookedar
oundthehousemyguys
wer
eingoodposit
ionsj
ustt
hewaywepl annedour
gunswer ealr
eadycockedsoIpul l
edthetri
ggerand
shothiswifestr
aightt
ot hest
omach5bullets
beforeIknewittheli
ghtswereoffbul
letf
lyi
ngall
aroundtheroom Ifoundacornerandwatched
everymoveImanaged
toseeJoeandIshothi m onthespinalcordand
whenhet urnedIshothi m st
rai
ghtont hehearthe
fel
landtheyt r
yshootingwher eIam Ishift
edIshot
thei
rguardswhenever ybodywasdownandmy
guyswereal lal
ivewhenIpeepedont hewi ndow
Mikewasescapi ngIwentoutandIcoul dn'
tfind
him andbeforeIknowi tIwasshotonmywai stand
onmyar mswhenIt urnedheshotmei nmychest
andboom lightsoff.
.

LUKHANYO
.
.
Me:
Wher
e'sB?
Them:hewentout .
.t
heyshoutedMe:ever
ybodyout
now...
ishoutedbackiopened5gassesandtook
mylighterandthr
ewi ti
ntheIclosedt
hedoorand
wentoutwegoti
nthecarandBandi
lei
snott
her
e
okwhat'
sgoi
ngonnow?
Me:
Wher
e'sBandz?
Them: Wehavebeenl ooki
ngf orhi
m andcall
inghim
butnochancel ..WTFIgotoutoft hecarandwent
tolookforhim Icalledhi m andIsawal i
ghtandI
heardhisphonevi br ati
ngIt hinkit
'shi
m Igotclose
andhewasnextt othebur ninghouseast he
mat er
ial
sstartfall
ingIgotcl osehe'si
npoolof
blood
Me:Shithe'
sbeenshot !
!IshoutedandIt ookhim
befor
et hel
astgasstartedboomi ngwer eachedthe
carandwhenwegoti nsideNat hicall
edNelasthey
arecoll
eaguestheybothsur geonssheagr eedto
meetatmyhousesoIdr ovestraighttomyplace
Me:
Ishest
il
lal
ive?
Phi
lani
:Yest
hepul
sei
sst
il
lbeat
ingbutsl
owl
y..
I
scr
eamed
Me:
Ohshi
titcan'
tbehappeni
ng
Sbu:
Vut
hal
emot
onawe<dr
ivef
ast
er>orbet
teryet
l
etmedr i
ve..
sbuisli
keBandztheyaregoodin
dri
vingsoweswitchedsideshedrovebef
orewe
couldnot
icewewer eatmyplaceNelandNathi
werealr
eadyther
etoo
Nel
:Whathappened?
Me:
Justdoyourj
obNel
!!
theycheckedhi
m Nelcr
ied
Me:Yi
ntoningokuul
il
elani
?<whati
sthatyouar
e
cr
yingfor>
Nel
:Weneedt
otakehi
mtot
hehospi
talwemi
ght
l
oosehi
m
Me:
What
?!
Phi
lani
:Letsgo.
.wetookhi
m andwentt
othecarwe
dr
ovetot hehospi
talohmyGodhebett
erbeali
ve
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
TWO
.
.
KHI
THA
Ihavebeenwaiti
ngforBandi
leandther
e'snosign
ofhim andxoxohasbeenaskingmeabouthim am
str
essedhavingagangst
erhusbandcanbebitchyI
heardaknockatt
hedoorIwentt
oopenitwasLuu
helookedl
ikeamessandhewasalone
Me:
Wher
e'sBandi
le?
Luu:
CanIcomein?il
ethi
minandhegoti
nand
set
tl
edonthecouch
Me:
andt
hen?
Hi
m: hewasshotyester
dayandnowhe'satmedi
cl
ini
c..hesai
drunni
nghishandsonhi
sfaceashe
wasf aci
ngdown
Me:Lukhanyout
hini
?uthinikum huh?Lukhanyo
Ndif
unaindodayam mf ondini
!!
<whatareyou
sayi
ngtome? whatareyousayi ngtome? Iwantmy
husbandman>Ishout ed
Hi
m: Unf
ort
unat
elynam t
here'
snothi
ngIcandowe
al
lhavetohopeandprayforhi
srecover
y..
iwas
cr
yingohLordmyhusbandIcan'tbea23yearold
wi
dow
Me:Baxol
iseyi
zasambe<comel
etusgo>hecame
downstai
r s
Xoxo:
Mol
oal
umewam <gr
eet
ingsmyuncl
e>t
hey
f
istbumped
Luu:Ntwanayam estrongo.
.hetookhimt ohi sarms
wewentt othecaranddr ovetothehospitalthe
dri
vewasl ongandsilentwegott her
eandwentt o
hiswar dIl
eftxoxowithLuuashe' snotall
owedi n
theICUwhenIgoti ntherewasal adyDoct orcrying
nexttomyhusbandandt henIsli
ghtlycl
ear edmy
throatandsheturnedtolookatme
Her
:OwhiIdi
dn'
tseeyout
her
e
Me:
Whoar
eyou?Iaskedmaki
ngmyt
oher
Her:am Nelhi
sexwebot hmovedonfr
om thatbut
seeinghimli
kethi
shur t
ssobadbutIwil
lleaveyou
toitIhavet
otakemyr oundsshewentoutmxm. My
manwasbr eathi
ngwi t
hthehelpoft
hemachi nes
hisbodywasjustlyi
nginbedhedidn'
tevenmove
aninchIcri
ed
Me: babyi
t'
smenanababyi tsmeyourbelovedwif
e
pleasewakeupnaniineedyouweneedyouxoxo
needhi sf
atherespeci
all
yaf t
erwhathewent
throughbabypleaseI..
i.
.iwordsfai
ledmeijust
criedandamal edoctorcamei nand huggedme
hegavemewat
erIr
efused
Hi
m:youhavetodr
inki
tmam youhavet
obest
rong
f
orhi
m please
Me:Idon'
twanttobest
rongIneedmymanal i
veI
wanthimtoholdmeandt el
lmethathelovesmei
needhim,
Bandil
eIsai
dcal l
inghi
m moreli
ke
screami
nghisname
Dr:
Nomam thatisnotall
owedinherepl
easej
ust
gohomewewi l
lcallyouimmediat
elywhenwe
not
iceachange
Me:
Whenwi
llbet
hatdoct
orwhen?
Dr:
Idon'tknowhehaslostsomuchbloodbutwe
managedt ogethi
m somesowear ejustwaiti
ng
hi
mt orespondtoitsowecanpredi
cthisli
ving
l
if
e..
iwascr yi
ngandwrestl
inghi
m ashewast aki
ng
meoutofhi sward
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
TI
NA
SoMondayIwentt oseeLuubuthet hrewmeoutof
hispl
aceIknowhe' shur t
ingbecauseofhi sfri
end'
s
sit
uati
onbutthatdidn'tgiveshimt herighttoil
l-
tr
eatmesoIcal l
edKhi thaandaskedi fit
'ssafeto
comesheagreedIboughtsomegoodi esf orher
andxoxoplusit'
srainyoutsi de,Ij
ustdrovei nher
yardIpar
kedmycart ookt heplasti
cbagsandwent
toknocksheopenedgi r
lsgowi shi
ngxei m Ihugged
her
Me:
Am sor
rybabe
Her
:Pl
easedon'
tIam t
ir
edofcr
ying.
.
Me:
howar
eyouguysdoi
ng?
Her:
Wecopi
ngImanagedtotal
kthr
oughXoxoI
t
oldhimt
hetrut
hhal
fofi
tthough
Me:
Owoki
sthatsmar
tthough?
Imeanhe'
sachi
ld
Her:
theyhavet
oknowt
hatl
if
eisnotal
wayshoney
andsugarv
Me:okyouhaveapointwel
lIknowit'
sstupi
dbutI
boughtt
hese.
.isai
dgivi
nghertheshoppi
ngbags
Her
:Yousai
dst
upi
d?!
noyousmar
tIwascr
avi
ngf
or
somethi
ngsweetandIwasn'tpl
ani
ngtogooutmy
sonisgoi
ngtolovet
hese.
.Shecall
edhi
m aswe
wenttosi
tnearthef
ir
epl
aceandhecamedown
he'
ssocute
Hi
m:mol
osi
si<gr
eet
ingssi
ster
>Ncooa
Me:mol
onaweboyunj
ani<gr
eet
sback,
howar
e
you>
Him:
Iam f
inet
hanksandu(
hesai
dthatasi
tis'
U'
asavowel
)Ichuckl
ed
Me:
am f
inet
oo
Her:
comebabyusisiukut
hengel
ekinder
j
oy,t
inki
es,
sourwor
msandchocol at
es<si
ster
boughtyou>
Him:
enkosisi
si,
zezam zonkeandit
hi?
<thank
you,
theyar
eallmineri
ght>Ismiledandnodded
Hi
m:mamasaphaiint
ozam pl
ease<mom gi
veme
mythi
ngspl
ease>
Her
:Notal
loft
hem her
ear
eyour
s
Hi
m:zamxel
elat
atam xayi
buyakugqi
rha<Iwi
llt
ell
myfat
herwhenhecomesbackf rom t
hedoctor
>he
stuckhi
staungeouttohismotherandrantothe
l
aunget owatchT.Vgivi
ngmet i
metochit-
chatwit
h
hi
smot herhonestl
yshe'
sagoodper sonanda
strongwomant ooandIStanIal
sotoldherhow
LuuandImet
Her
:Yoogi
rlyouar
esmar
t.
.shesai
dthatl
aughi
ng
Me:Thatwasmyonlywaytohi
mthoughhe'
s
i
nti
midati
nglaGuyyouknowhi
m
Her
:Mnkt
hat
'
sXhosamenf
oryout
oomuchpr
ide
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
TWO
.
.
KHI
THA
It
'sbeent woweeksnowandt here'
snochangei n
Bandilesli
fesoIdecidedtonotvisithimfortwo
daysjusttosavemysel ffrom t
hecr yi
ngIalways
dowheneverIent erathiswardbutIsawami ss
callf
rom anunsavednumberi t'
sal andli
nelooks
l
ikeitistheonethatmal edoct
orusedt ocallme
withsoIdecidedtodr i
vetothehospi t
alaft
er
droppingxoxofr
om schoolIpar kedmySUVyes
theybroughti tbutIwasn'texci
tedbutIlovei tI
wentt otheRecept ionandtheydirect
edmet oa
diff
erentwar dIguesshe'sawakenowIhadt hi
sjoy
feel
ingIr ushedtohi swardiwaswear ingal ong
maxi dresssoIl i
fteditabitsoIcanwal kfaster
whenIgoti nthatwar dhewasawakeIscr eamed
Me:
Nani
!!
Isai
dthr
owi
ngmysel
fathi
m
Hi
m:Nana!
!wehuggedforaboutami
nut
e..
isatnext
t
ohim ohhewaswithNel
Her:okIwil
lleaveyouguysbutonyourwayout
pleasepaybyt hepharmacysotheycangi
veyou
theprescr
ibedmeds..henoddedasNelwalkedout
Me:
Arebei
ngdi
schar
ged?
Him:YesIbeggedthem toIwasn'tgoi
ngt
ospend
anymor eti
mehereImi ssmybed. .
hesai
dhuggi
ng
meInot i
cethathi
sotherarm hasabandageand
sl
ing
Me:Imissedyoutooourbedwasbi gandcold
wit
houtyou,Nanipleasedon'tyoueverscar
eme
l
ikethatIthought
..
ithoughticri
edhehuggedand
comfortme
Hi
m:babyam her
enowam sor
ryokIwon'tI
pr
omiseaskedmunt
uwam <myperson>
Me:
IthoughtIl
ostyouf
oreverIwasst
ressedbaby
Hi
m:butyougai
nedmossIsawtheassandhi
ps
whenyougoti
nhere.
.hesai
dchecki
ngme
Me:Ispental
mostever
ydayatyourgym j
ustt
o
unwind
Hi
m:butiti
sagoodsi ghtmossil
ovei
ttur
naround
f
oryourhusband..
.idi
dasmyhusbandaskedand
t
werkedjustacoupleofji
ngl
es
Hi
m:awuuuushi
t.
.hespankedme
Me:andyoucal
lyoursel
fapat
ientwowsomuchof
bei
ngone..
welaughedashissquadgoti
n
Them:inj
ayeGame(theynodded)
Yes!!
..
Thee
Terminat
or(
theynodded)t
heyconti
nuehypi
ngwow
theyweresohappy
TheybrohuggedPhil
aniandSbustar
tedpoki
ngmy
man'sarm hewasfl
inchi
nginpai
n
Me:asozekalokuneverdaysIsai
ddefendi
nghi
m
andseparat
ingthem fr
om himtheyl
aughed
Luu:
osavuyikengoku<youar
ehappynow>
Me:Ndi
zothinindi
zobawithi
nnamnt ase
ndi
beli
banjwasbwlseyohappinesskngk<whatdo
youexpectmebeIwi llbewit
hinandbeaprisoner
am cr
avingam happy>
Luu:Seyotout
urent
oyobanjwangusandlana
senaworry<it
'sat
ort
uretobeholdhostagebya
onearm manam wor r
ied>
Me:Yi
ndodam mossl ut
hethangayokanj al
o<thatis
myhusbandyouar espeakingaboutmoss>Isl ight
ly
sl
appedhim onhi
sf ace..
.welaughedaswewent
oursepar
atewaysNdi l
ecamet oopent hedoorf or
meusinghisonehandi twasadr iver
ssidethough
hegotinonthepassengersitIdroveoff
Me:
Sowhatdoyouwantt
oeatbaby?
Hi
m:Pussynanamor
eandmor
eofi
t.
.il
aughed
Me:
besi
dest
hatbecauseobvi
ousl
yyouwi
llgeti
t
Him:Idon'
tknowmaybeseaf
oodlet
'sor
deronli
ne
atubereat
sam noti
nthemoodtogopubl
icbaby
Me:
okl
ovewewi
llor
derassoonasIgett
othe
housexoxoi
sgoi
ngt
obehappyyoo
Him:notmor
ethanIwillbe.
.hesai
dgetti
nghishand
undermydresshebrushedmyi nnert
highsand
wentformycoochi
e
Hi
m: Soyouworeapantyt
odaycanyoupl
easet
ake
i
toffint
henextrobbot
?
Me:
Nonanidoyouwantt
oret
urnt
othehospi
tal
?
Him:Iwilldoitmyselfyoualwaysdistr
actmewhen
am dri
vingsoi t
'syourturnnow..hesearchedinhis
paperbagt hathegotf rom t
hehospit
alhet ookout
abladeandcutmyt hongonesi dehelookedatme
andtri
edcut ti
ngunder neat
hIrefused
Me:asozeal
okwhati
fubuyanekhozol
am?
<never
whatifyoucutmycl
it
>hel
aughed
Him:Isaidt
akethatthingoff..
itookitoffandgaveit
tohim hesuckeditandstartedmassagi ngmycl it
l
uckil
ywewer eonoursur bubsnowIdr oveinthe
yardbutIwasal r
eadywetsohegotof ffrom hi
s
sideandcamet omi neheadj ustedtheseathegot
i
nandweki ssedIundressedhi m andgaspedwhen
Isawhi s
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
manhoodi
thasgr
own
Me:
wer
eyouatDrChi
nua?
Hi
m:who'
sthatnow?
Me:t
hosepeni
senlargementdoct
orswi
thf
unny
sur
names..
helaughed
Him: vulaamat hangatuh<openyourt hi
ghspl ease>
i
twassobi gmygothavemer cyonmeIf ully
undr essedhim andhet r
iedent eri
ngmebuthe
struggledheusedt obutnotasmuchashedoes
notithasgr owni ndeedsohepushedwi thf or
ceI
screamedal thoughi twasn' tf
ullyinhebr ought
backt heseatabi twhilstitwaswor kingonhi s
favoritwasent er
ingmei nchbyi nchunt i
litwas
full
yi nIfel
thim undermybel lybut t
on/potIgasped
hesmi l
edmyl egswer eonhi sshoul derscloset o
minet hought hisposit
ioni smi ndblowingand
painfultohest art
edmovi nginasl owpaceaswe
madeeyecont actIwasamoani ngmesshe
i
ncr easedthepaceIsweariwasl ookingmymi ndI
dagmynai
lsonhi
sbackidi
dn'
tknowwhatt
odohe
hadnomer
cy
Me:
Ba-
-ndi
-.
.aahhahhhshi
ii
ii
tGodno.
..
.ahhh
Hi
m:Whati
sitbaby?
!!hewentbeastonme.
.
Me:I
..
.i
..
.l
oveyouNtshangase.
.oh.
.ahhhIl
oveyou
somuch...
hepoundedandpoundedf ast
erasI
cameforthe3rdt
ime
Me: hssi
gdjsi
eoebehdi ebuui.
.iwasspeakingi n
taungesasIcamef ora5t htimeandyenahecame
aftermehef il
ledmewi t
hhisseedswest ayedin
thatposit
ionforaf ewmi nutescat
chingourbr eat
hI
havet ogetmor ni
ngaf terpi
llwhenfetchingxoxoI
am onmyf ert
iledaysIdon' twanttofallpregnant
asi nnow..hewasl ookingatmehecompl etel
y
pulledoutandgotof fthecar
Hi
m: asambesiyoqedelel
aendli
nimamekhaya<l
et'
s
goandf i
nishourbusinessi
nsidethehousemy
wif
e>Ilookedathim hawuJizasi
Me:
NoIam donebabyyooohIcan'
t
Hi
m:Donewhatbaby?
!1r
oundkuphel
auyadl
ala
wena<onl
yyouar
epl
ayi
ng>
Me:Yoohhayi
keANDIZI
!!
<iam notcomi
ng>he
l
aughedhisassout
Him:
ngiyadl
alamunt
uwam l
et'
sgoandpl
ayhi
de
andseekke.
.
Me:
Iam notbuyi
ngi
tjustpromi
semeyouwon'
t
f
uckmeagainandIwillcomeout
Hi
m:Ipr
omi
set
hatIwon'
tfuckyou.
.icl
imbedoutof
t
hecar
hequi
ckl
ygr
abbedmyhand
Hi
m:Iwon'
tfuckyouIwi
llmakel
ovet
oyouand
f
uckyouharder
Me:
Noyoupr
omi
sedmet
hatyouwontmoss
Him:Ipromi
sednott
oFuckyouIdi dn'
tpromi set
o
notfuckyouHARDER..owLor
dcomebyyourown
sel
fmypoorabdomenam goingt olooseit.
.wegot
i
ntothehouseimmediatel
yaf
terhehadcl osedthe
doorhepinnedmeonit
Hi
m:Khul
ula<undr
ess>hesai
dinhisdeepestvoi
ceI
wast
urnedonIfor
gotthatmycoochi
epotis
bur
ningi
nafewwewerebothnakedIundr
essed
hi
m wemadelovesl
owl
ysoi nt
hecouchwitheyes
l
ockedGodknowshowImissedthi
s
Him:Il
oveyouNomkhi thaNgiyakuthanda
NaNtshangase..
.heesoit'
shistur
nnowokwe
cameandIgotont opofhim androdehiminacow
gir
lposit
ionhewasswear ingonsome' fuck
Nomkhi t
hamaar n't
hewhol eti
mewemadel ove
andafterthatwegotdressedandor der
dourmeal
.
.
ItwasaftermiddaysoIhadt odri
vetoxoxo's
schoolandpickhim upIhadnochoiceIdidn'twant
tothoughbecauseIcouldn'
tkeepmylegst ogether
daddypar al
yzedmeIwenttopickhim upandIwas
l
isteni
ngtohi mtel
li
ngmeaboutschoolt hi
sand
thatki
dswegott othehouseandhisfatherwas
waiti
ngforhim att
hedoorhescreamed
Hi
m: boyboy!
!heli
ft
edhim usi
nghi
sonear
m he
ki
ssedhim al
loverhisf
ace
Xoxo:daddywam umamaumbethi
lewat
hat
ha
chocolat
eyam <mymotherwhi
pedmehealsot
ook
my>hef akedacrybuthi
stearsdi
sappoi
ntedhim
theydidn'tcomeoutsohisfat
hercomfor
tedhis
naggingson
Me: sbwlbanot atandzoxokanam<cr avingtohavea
fathersothatIcanl ie>Il aughedasNdi lewinkedat
met heywenttot heot hersitt
ingroom asiwentt o
theki t
chentopr eparedi nnerformycheer l
eaders
andIwentt ocheckont hem theywer eplaying
videogamesIst olepicsandvi dsIpost edonmy
Instacaption'mayt hegoodLor dkeepmyhear t
owner sanda#f atherAndSonGoal s'peopl ewer e
comment i
ngitreached3. 5klikeswithin15mi nutes
andBont ledidn'tcommentshehasbeendi stant
thesedaysIwonder
CHAPTERTHI
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THREE
.
.
It'
sbeentwomonthssoit'sMaynowand
everyt
hingi
ssuperbwewentonaf amil
ytr
ipt o
DubaiitaswasablustbruhIalwayswishtovi si
t
thatpl
aceasluckyandblessedasIam myl oving
husbandmademywi shcomet opass,
butgirlhas
beenfeel
ingsi
ckforsometi
menowsoNdi l
efor
ced
metoseeadoct oract
ual
lytheyaccompani
edme
hi
m andxoxo
Hi
m:babyyouseem outofpl
acear
eyouf
ine?
Me:
YesIam j
ustthi
nki
ngabouthowbl essedIam
t
oyouinmyli
fe.
.hekissedmyforehead
Him:Ili
vetoseeyousmi
lemami.
.xoxocameto
separateusaswewereget
ti
ngcosyseyojeal
ous
Dr
:Mr
sN.
Biyel
a
Me:
Her
e
Dr
:Youcancomei
n..
weal
lwenti
n
Dr
:okwhati
swr
ongMr
sBi
yel
a?
Me:Ihavebeenof
flat
elydoct
orIj
ustdon'
tknow
whatisgoi
ngon
Dr
:canIcheckyouImeanever
ythi
ngam Ial
lowed?
Ndil
e:anyt
hingdoctorsheneedtobef i
neyooo.
.ar
g
IknowIhavebeenmoodybuti tsoundsli
kehe'
sso
ti
redofmemxm. soIwascheckedandDrgaveme
apregnancytestsoIdiditandgaveittohi
m
Dr:
Wewi llwaitforabout5minutest
hen..
.sohe
askedusaf ewquest i
onsaboutoursexli
feandif
weusingcondomsf orsafet
yblahbl
ahblaham
hungryIcan'tevenpayattent
ionsoitwasabout
ti
meIwasner vous
Drwentt
otaket
hepr
egnancyt
estand.
.
Dr
:Wowcongr
atul
ati
onsyouguysar
eexpect
ing!
!
Us:
huh!
!
Dr:
Yesther
ewi l
lbeanewaddit
iont
oyourf ami l
y
anditl
ooksli
keyouare3monthspregnanttoday..
i
qui
cklycal
cul
atedandohshitt
hesexinthecarI
l
ookedatBandil
ehewassohappyast hedoct or
wasbusycongratul
ati
nghi
m
Ndi
le:
Canwepl easehaveascanandiwanttohear
mychil
dheartbeat,
,i
sitokbaby?hesai
daski
ngme
Iwasoutofpl
aceIj ustnodded
Xoxo:
mamanguchi
ldkabanil
owo?
<mom who'
s
chi
ldi
sit
>
Ndi
le:
Our
sboyawumf uniumnt
uozodl
alanaye
wenaeki
nikant
i?<don'
tyouwantsomeonetopl
ay
wi
thathome>
Xoxo:hayiuzogqi
baii
Kinderj
oyzam t
ata<nohewi
ll
fi
nishmyki nderj
oysdad>
Ndi
le:
Iwi
llbuymor
eandmor
eoft
hem mos
xoxo:mhh..
hewasagr eei
ngtodisagr
eeNdil
eandI
l
ookedateachot herandshruggedsoIwenttol
ay
onthebedsot hatwecangetascant hedoct
or
pouredtheicycol
dgelIfli
nched
Me:
Oucht
hat
'
scol
d..
hesl
ight
lyl
aughed
Dr:
Iknowandam sorrybutt
hat
'showitis.
.inodded
sohebegandoinghisthi
ngandIhearsoundsI
guessit
'st
heheartbeati
twassocute
Dr:
Owmanlooksl
ikei
t'
smor
ethanonehesays
checki
ng
Us:
huh
Ndi
le:
whatdoyoumeanSmi
th?
Dr:Manyouareagoat(
laughs)thr
eegoals
(whist
les)
myhusbandsmiledli
keachildwho'
s
givenacandynoratoyhe'sbeencryi
ngfor
Ndi
le:
Manyounotj
oki
ngr
ight
?
Dr:l
ook.
.hepoint
edatthescreenandther
ewere
thr
eedotsinther
eandyoucoul dheart
heheart
beatst
hattheyaremorethanonenortwoindeedI
wascarryi
ngtri
plet
sIcri
ed
Ndi
le:
babywhyar
eyoucr
yingnow?
Me:howam Igoi
ngtocar
ryt
hreeki
dsmna
ndi
mnye?<Ial
one>
Ndile:
iwil
lhel pyoubabyj ustdon'
tcr yokatl
east
notinfr
ontofxoxopl easehe' sconfusedsodon't
complicatethingsbycr yingam sor rybabybut
theseareblessi ngsheki ssedme. .
soxoxowas
questi
oningt hedoct orsohet oldhimt hathe'
s
goingtohavet hreesibl
ingsxoxowaspr ot
esti
ng
Ndileknowshowt ocalm him downsohedi dthe
j
ob
Xoxo:
kengokumamawenaubaginyeLeno?<so
nowmom whydidyouswal
lowthem>
Me:heavenlyfat
herdoctorfi
nishwhatyouhave
st
artedpleaseasformeIam hungr yashellIwant
pi
zza,chi
ps,peanutbut
terandcoffee
Ndil
e:al
loft
hem babyar
eyousur
eyouar
egoi
ngt
o
eatt
hem all
?
Me:noIam goi
ngtochewandswal l
owiam not
goi
ngtoeatthem nani
..
irol
ledmyeyeshethrewhi
s
handsi
ntheairasasignofsurrenderi
ngwhywas
heaski
ngmeanobvi ousquesti
on
xoxo:
mamaooChil
dbazof
ikani
nikengoku?
<so
mom whenar
etheygoi
ngtoarr
ive>
Me:
ngoNovemberbaby
Xoxo:
mhhh
Wedr ovefr
om thehospi
talt
othenear
estmallas
thehungerwaskill
ingmesowenttoabuffet
becauseIcoul
dn'tdeci
deonwhatIwantsoIcan
choosewhateverIwant
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Soit
'sSundayIdecidedt
odr
ivetothemallanddo
someshoppingit
'sbeenawhil
emaybenotbutI
j
ustcravedf
oritsowhenIwasati-st
oregett
inga
newiphone11promaxbutadiffer
entcol
ourandI
wantedt
obuyxoxoanewiPadsowhenIgotthere
Entl
ewaswit
hhernewfr
iendssoIdeci
dedt
ogr eet
herandt
estt
hewater
s
Me:
Hel
lost
ranger
..
isai
dasshet
urnt
olookatme
Her:
Hikhi
tha.
.shesai
dwhi
stl
econcent
rat
edonher
phone
Me:
It
sbeenal
ongt
imewher
ehaveyoubeenhi
ding?
Her:Whatyoudon' tunderstandKhi t
haiswena
<you>allyoudoi ssiti
nyourbi ggesthouseatJozis
numberonesur bubchi l
l,
shopandgoover seasand
spendingyourhusband' sbi l
l
ionswhi l
esomeofus
havetowor kourassesof fandbei ndependentso
babesIwaswor kl oaded..sheturnedherassand
wenttoherf r
iendst heylaughedIhear dthem
saying'Iwonderhowi sshegoi ngtocopewhenhe
l
eavesherf oranot herwoman' wowIwasIdon' t
knowhowIwasact ual
lyIt houghtshewasmybest
fr
iendIthought..iwasdi sturbedbyacashi erwhil
eI
wasbusyt hought ing
Him:
Heysweetiear
eyoufine?
..hewasgaybubbl
y
andbeaut
if
ulgoshIlovet
hesepeoplet
heyareki
nd
andwel
comi
ng
Me:
Hey,
,noIam j
ustamazedbysomeoneIt
hought
wasmybestfr
iendsheli
ter
all
ythr
ewsomehur
tful
wor
dstomebutneverthel
essam good
Him:Ihopeyouar ebabespeopl ewecal lfr
iendscan
amazeusandf reeadvi
cef oryou'beyourownbest
fri
endbecausepeopl echangechomma' owhe
remindsmeofmyhusbandheal wayswar nme
aboutlovi
ng,
trusti
ngandpr aisi
ngf r
iendsam even
ashamedoft el
li
nghi m ofwhatwentdownhenever
l
ikedEntle
Me:j
achommi esthat'
samout hfulonej onga
ndi
thabathi
le<lookItookit
>welaughedsohe
hel
pedmeasIwant edadustysilverpinknew
col
oursoIwentt oFoodchai nrestaurantandIwent
toorderIwasn'tgoi
ngt oeatt
her eiwasor deri
ng
outandohhIsawMenzicomi ngmyway
Hi
m: Mol
omamakaboy<greet
ingsmysons
mother
>Iwasshookai
bot
heliver
Me:
Mol
oMenzi<gr
eet
ings>hesmi
led
Hi
m:Youar
est
il
lbeaut
if
ulMaMdl
aneyour
gangst
er!
,
scami
nghusbandi
staki
ngagoodcar
eof
youIsee
Me:
Youforgott
osay'
andmyboss'
youar
ewor
king
f
orhi
m aren'
tyou?
Him:Asifyouknowsomethingaboutworki
ng
Bandil
eisgoingtol
eaveyouandpleaseint
roduce
thatboytohi
srealf
ather
..
.saywhatsotodayisnot
myday
Me: Heemamel abhut isukundinyelamnauyeva
pleasenott odaymymar ri
agehasnot hingt odo
withyouandaboutason. .
Mysoni swi thhi sfather
aswespeakt hat'shisf at
herandgett hatt hrough
yourt hickskullkaloluyousai dyoursoni sa
bustar dhemustbef l
ashedsokebhut if i
nda
hobbieIcanseeyouar ebored<nol ist enbr other
don'ttestme>It ookmyor derasi thasar rivedI
swipedmyman' sbl ackcar dIt ookR200not eand
gavet ot hewaitressandIwentoutIl ef thim
standingt her
eIdr ovest r
aighttomypl aceij ust
parkedmySUVandwentst r
aighttot hehouseNdi l
e
hadt hisquestioningl ook
Hi
m:Nanamiar
eyouf
ine?
Me:
I(
sni
ff
s)
Hi
m:whatbabyinj
ayakabanil
eikhal
isaumfazi
wamingi
qedengayo<who'sdidisbother
ingmy
wi
femakinghercr
ytel
lmesoIcanf ini
shhim of
f>
Me:
Ithi
nkt
odayi
snotmydaynani
..
Hi
m:Whyar
eyousayi
ngt
hatnanami
?
Me:
Not
hingbabyam hungr
y..
Isayget
ti
ngup
Him:Nothi
ngnguNothingwakhol oyo<whereisthat
Nothi
ngofyoursresidi
ng>babyyouar ecryingand
youaretel
li
ngmei t
'snothi
ng..
hesai dthathalf
shouti
ngInarr
atedthewholethingfrom Entleto
Menzi
Him: IoncewarnedyouaboutEnt l
esoIdon' ttouch
herst or
ybutasf orMenziIthinkhim andIhavet o
tal
k,yousaidyouar ehungry?Inoddedhewent
outsidetogettheshoppingbagshedi shedupf or
usasxoxowassl eepi
nghe'stir
edy'allknowhow
busyhecanbenowwewer esitt
ingatt hegrass
dri
nki ngjui
ceandhewasdr i
nkingbeerhewas
busyt
ell
ingmeaboutwhateverman'
sal
waysgot
st
ori
estotel
liwasalaughi
ngmess
Hi
m:t
hat
'
swhatIwant
edt
ohearyourl
aught
er
Me:
Owpl
easeyouf
ini
shedme
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
FOUR
.
.
Him:welli
tisnanamibutIhavetoheari
tever
yti
me
i
tmakesmysoulf eelset
tl
editassur
esmethatIam
attheri
ghtplace.
.iwasblushi
ng
Me:
Owpl
ease.
.
Him:yesnanamiyouj ustdon'tunderstandhow
muchIl oveyou(helookedmei ntheeye)ever
sinceyoucamet omyl if
eyoubr oughtl ight,
you
mademeseel if
ewiththeotherper spect i
veallIdi
d
beforeyoucamet omyl i
fewasgetmoneyspendi t
onhoes,dri
nksandt r
avell
ingthewor l
dbutyou
cameandever ythi
ngstartedmaki ngsenseyou
mademeaf at
herwhenIl eastexpect editIwasn't
readyiwasevenner vouswhenIwasar oundhi mI
evengoogled'howtobeagoodf ather'
(Ilaughed)
ser i
ousyazi <youknow>andj udgingf rom Li
seso
farsogoodandam aboutt obeaf atheroffour-
Fourbabyal lbecauseofyoursel flessnessIdi dyou
wr ongbutyoul ovedmest i
llyouencour agedmet o
taughtmel ifeisnotaboutmat eri
alistict
hingsasI
alwayst houghti twasIcoul dwr iteabookbaby
concl usioni sNgi yakuthandaNomkhi tha
ngenhl i
ziyoyamiyonkenkosi kaziyamiandpl ease
prepar eyour sel
fforbei nglovedbecauseIam goi ng
toloveyouShei m Iwantt hem t osuspectyouof
poisoni ngmebecauseIwi l
lbeyourpuppybaby
andpl easedon' tgett ir
edofmeIam amanbabyI
domyownmi stakesbutpl easel etmeacknowl edge
them andf i
xmebecausewhenIam outt hereIam
represent ingusnotj ustmeal one<Il oveyouwi th
allmyhear tmywi fe>Iwassoemot i
onalthankst o
thispr egnancyf ormaki ngt hingswor se
Me:babyyouar
ejustwayt
ooni
cehawu.
.we
hugged
Hi
m:Iwi
llal
waysl
oveyou
Me:Al
waysandf
orever
..
.weki
ssedasourki
sswas
heat
edweendupmakingloveout
sidemany
st
eamyr oundsandwhenIwasaboutt
ogetont
op
Tadaaa
xoxo:mamaumenzant
atam?<mom whatar
eyou
doingtomyfat
her
>welaughed
Me:
He'
sal
somyhusbandwear
eshar
inghi
m
Xox:
nonohe'
smine.
.her
antohi
sfat
herlucki
lywe
managedt
odressi
ntimeashewasbusyrubbing
hi
seyes
Hi
m:ButboyooChi
ldbayezayazi
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Me:
sobasical
lyhe'
sli
vingonabor
rowed
t
ime?sembi<t
oobad>
Hi
m:At
tent
ioni
saboutt
obedevi
ded
Me:
mhhhh.
mmmh
Him:Ki
nderj
oys,
Tinki
es,
Sourwor
msandt
oysar
e
aboutt
obeshared
Me:
Yooohsoyi
ki<am af
rai
d>
Hi
m:Evenpar
ent
simbhal
a<even>
Me:
Senawor
ry<Iam>
Hi
m:Changesbaba
Me:Naniyouf
orgotr
esponsi
bil
it
yhe'
sgoi
ngt
obea
bi
gbrother
Him:
KuzobaTense<itwi
llbe>xoxowasso
conf
usedaswewer ebusydissi
nghi
mt hr
owi
ng
someshadesathi
m
Xoxo:
ooChi
ldbazeneeToyszabokepl
ease<t
hey
mustcomewiththei
r>webustoutal
aught
er
Me:babyboyshari
ngiscari
ngyouwil
lhavetobe
thei
rbrot
herubanqandel
eeskol
weni
<protectt
hem
atschool
>
Xoxo:
ndizohl
alanabokwinaught
ycor
nerkemnake
<Iwil
lsi
twiththem att
henaught
ycor
ner>
Ndi
le:
saywhat
?
Xoxo:
Ndi
lambi
lemna<Iam hungr
y>
Ndil
e:phi
ndafut
hiut
heni
?<repeatagai
nwhatdid
yousay>hefakedacrybutdaddydidn'
tfal
lfori
t
t
hist
imehegavei
n
Xoxo:uxolot at
aIwon'tdi
srespectthet eachers
agai
ncel aki nderj
oysezi
yi4bef orebaf i
keooChi l
d
<sorr
ydad; canIhave>yooot hi
si sgoingt obehar d
xoxoisjealousbuthewi l
lgetusedt othechangesi
wil
ltr
ybyal lmeanstobalancethingssohecan
hearandspeakEngl i
shbuthecan' tpronouncet he
wordspr oper l
yashe'
sachi l
dandst il
llearning,he
wentinsidet hehousewit
hhi sdad...

TI
NA
.
.
IwasatthesalonIjustgotinandther
ewasmyex
fr
iendsIwentt
ogr eetthem andi
boyi
kimoss<Iam
notafr
aidoft
hem>
Me:
ladi
es.
.isayset
tl
ing
Them:
Hi
Pal
esa:
Sowher
e'syourbestf
ri
endKhit
ha?she'
sthe
onewho'
smoreint
erest
edinKhit
ha'
sli
femorethan
Bandzex
Me:pr
obabl
ywi
thherhubbymi
ndi
ngherown
busi
ness
Lel
ethu:
Yourpoi
ntbei
ng?
Me:Thatyouguysareal waysint
erestedonwhat '
s
happeni
ngintopeople'
sl i
vesi
nsteadofbet t
eri
ng
yourownsgetyourselvesjobsandst oprunni
ng
aft
ermarri
edoldhagsandwenaPal esayouare
marri
edforgoodnesssake
Pal
esa:
thathasnot
hingt
odowi
thyou
Me:
Iknowbutf
act
sbabes

CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
SIX
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
.
Iwasattheoff
icebusywithworkIt
hinkIwillhave
tot
akesomef i
lesandfi
nishsomeathomeIdon' t
wantkhi
thaandxoxotobealoneatnightIknow
therear
eguardsbutIhavetobet here,
nowi t
's
after
noonIam justwai
ti
ngforsomeonesheasked
toseemeit'
saboutbusinessthoughi nthemean
ti
meIam sextingwithmywifeshej ustaskedmeto
sendhermydi ckpri
ntait
hiswomanIl oveher
eit
herway.
..
therewasaknockatt hedoor
Me:i
t'
sopend.
.ishout
edandEnt l
ecamei
nshe's
f
il
li
nginformyP. Abecauseshe'
sinmat
erni
ty
l
eave
Her
:MrBi
yelaIhopeyouhaven'
tfor
got
tenaboutt
he
meeti
ngi
t'
sin5mi nut
es
Me:Iam comingthanksforremindi
ngme..she
smil
ledandturnedtoleave.
Iprepar
edmysel fand
wenttotheboardroom andshehasn'tar
ri
vedyet
Me:Issheevencoming?
Ihat
elat
ecomer
s
especi
all
yinbusi
nessti
meismoney
Her:shesaidshe'sonherway.
.i
nasecondal ady
camei nshe'sfl
amesbr uhachubbymommy, round
ass,sl
im waist
,t
helegsandshe'
salsobeaut
if
ul
herself
Lady:
Aft
ernoonMrBi
yel
a..
shesai
dbr
ingi
ngme
backofmyi
magi
nar
ywor
ld
Me:
Aft
ernoonMs.
.
Lady:
Mtswenisi
r.
.shesai
dwi
thconf
idence
Me:
ohsor
ry.
..
Lady:Noprobl
em youwerebusychecki
ngme
angisho<r
ight
>..
.Toomuchpride
Me:
Iam humant oobutIwoul
dloveiti
fwej
ust
j
umpint
oi tIhavetobesomewhere.
.
Lady:noprobl
em. .
.shedidherpitchandIcant ell
she'sgoodforbusinessevent houghshewasnot
hereforanint
erviewbutshe'sabeaut ywithbrains
weneedsuchpeopl einbusiness,sowereachedan
agreementshewasgoi ngtohostaconferencei n
oneofmyhot elssoIchar gedhershesaidit'
st oo
muchR23000f or2nightsthat'
scheapfora5st ar
hotel..
shefol
lowedmet omyof fi
ce
Me:MsMt sweniIam sor
rybutIwon'
tchar
geyou
anyless
Her:
butMrBi
yel
awecanmakeanarrangementI
canpayyouhal
foft
heamountandt
heotherone
wecanf
ixi
t
Me;fi
xithow?shegotclosetomeandplayedwi
th
mytiesoshewasseduci ngmenowsheopened
herblazerandsheexposedhercl
eavage
Her:
Huh?sohowdoyouseei
t?Icangi
veyout
he
bestt
imeofyourl
if
e
Me:
Bestt
imeofmyl
if
e?howso?
Her
:yes.
.shewasstar
ti
ngundressandshetr
iedt
o
t
ouchmydi ckhai
boam Iabouttogetr
appedI
movedaway
Me:MsMt sweniyouar ebei
ngunpr ofessi
onalandI
don'tdobusinesswithpeopl
elikeyou,whenwer e
doi
ngyourpitchIwassoi mpressedIevent hought
ofrecr
uit
ingyoubutnoyoudi dwel lbyshowingme
whatyouaremadeof ,
,
soisthi
sr eall
ywhatyou
do?youhoeforbusiness
Her:noIdon'tusuall
ydoi tbutMrBiyel
aIthinkyou
canseeyour sel
fyouar ea
man, i
nti
midati
ng,r
ich,
goodl ooki
ngandbyj udgi
ng
fr
om yourbodyst ructur
eyouknowhowt ouseyour
waist.
.shesaidbit
tingherLowerlip
Me:canyougatheryourthingsandgetthehellout
ofmyofficeMsMt sweni
?Ikeepaseri
ousfaceI
di
dn'twanthertomakeanymovef r
om then.
.she
st
artedfi
xingherself
Her:Yourloss,
sowhatar
eyougoi ngtodowi
thyour
vi
siblegigaba?owshi
tNtshangasecanembar
acea
per
son
Me:I'
vegotaverybeauti
fulwif
ewait
ingformeat
homesopl easetakeyourcheapwasoutofmy
off
iceandoht hepri
ceisR350002night
st akei
tor
l
eaveit
Her
:what
?!
Me:Youhear dmeyouar enotdeafcl oset hedoor
onyourwayout .
.shej uststoodthereIpoi ntedat
thedoorshecatwal kedt othedoorshi tIhaveto
gathermyst uf
fanddr ivetomypl ace..
inabout45
minutesIwasatmyhouseMywi f
ewasbusyatt he
kit
chenshehasgai nedsomuchwei ghtt his
pregnancylooksgoodonherevent houghshe' snot
showingyetshewaswear i
ngabaggyt -shir
tand
youcant el
lthatthere'snothingunderi twor ksfor
meItookoffmyblazerandshir
tigotcl
oset
oher
andhuggedherf
rom behindshejumpedabi
tbut
cl
amed
Her:
pleasestopsneaki
ngonme.
.wel
aughedI
pl
acedaki ssonherneck
Me:
wher
e'sxoxo?
Her:
he'
ssleepi
nghist
emper
atur
ewashi
ghIt
hink
he'
scatchi
ngfl
u..
Me:
canyout
akehi
mtot
hehospi
talt
ommor
ow?
Her :willdo?Istart
edki ssi
nghershewasenj oying
thisIt ookherandpl acedheront opoft hekit
chen
count erIopenedherl egsandat eherIsuckedt he
clitandwhenshewasdr ippingwetIf uckedher
wi thmyt aungeshewasamoani ngmessIt hen
replacedmyt aungewi thaf i
ngerandIwentf orher
but thol eandIr i
mmedherwhi lefingerfucki
ngher
shewascr azilyenjoyingthisandt henIstopped
shel ookedatmeIsmi ledwhi l
eunbut toni
ngmy
trouserandmychockspr angf r
eelyIrubbediton
hersl i
tsshewassoi mpat i
entsheendedup
beggi ngmet omakel ovet oherasIdi dgiveitto
her
..
..
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
It'
sFridaynightmyhusbandandIar eat t
endinga
partymor eli
keabasht hatishost edbySbuhe' sso
ghettoandIl ovehisstylesoi twasaal lbl
ackpar t
y
soIwor eahi ghwai st
edl eatherskirtwithaslitt
hat
reachesjustundermywai stbutithadst ri
ngst o
keepitclosedandIwor eacr oppieshirtandblack
halfbootsIfinishedmyl ookwi t
haf urblackscar f
whistlemyhusbandwaswear i
ngat ornupbl ack
jean,
golfshirtandaman' sl ongcar dianandhi s
smi t
hsneaker shewassosexyiwi shIcanhave
him nowsowecal l
edMaFat imat olookaf t
erxoxo
asgoodhear tedasshei sshecameshe' sgood
withbabiessoIt r
usther
Me:babyareyousuresur
ethatyouaremy
husband?hej
ustgavemea'wowl ook'
Hi
m:ar
eyouhi
gh?
areyoudr
unk?
Me:pl
easebabeshowdowecompl i
mentyoukant
i
ndi
yakuzama<am el
evat
ingyourl
evel
>
Wewentoutanddrovet
othepar
kwhi
chwasi
n
Tembi
saitwasal
readypar
ked
Hi
m:babydonotgetdr
unkpl
ease.
.
Me:
Whynot
?
Hi
m:ar
en'
tyoupr
egnantmadam?
!
Ij
ustrol
ledmyeyesandfi
xedmymake- upbefore
headi
ngoutwowit'
sabouttobealongtir
ingnight
butIam goi
ngt
onaghimj ustf
ort
hat.
..
..
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Sowhenwegott herewesawTi naandLuucomi
ng
from t
hebackoft
hest agefi
xingt
hemsel
veswow
thesetwoweapproachedthem
Me:butguyst
hepar
tyj
ustst
art
edmoss..
they
l
ookedatmemyhusbandandIlaughedt
heywer
e
soshyaboutthi
s
Ti
na:
kal
okuwenagi
rlyousl
eeponi
tandwakeup
onitsoyoucan' tcompar eyourselfnathi<us>..
shes
suchamoodal waysdef endi
ngher sel
fwehugged
eachotherandwentt owher et heywereseat edso
usladi
eswer eonoursi dewhi stl
eourmen' swere
si
tti
ngont hei
roncampi ngchai r
sIgreetedt hegir
ls
andwenttohugPear l
Me:
unj
animnt
ase<howar
eyousi
bli
ng>
Her
:neverbeenbet
ter
..
shesmi
ll
ed
Me:t
henighti
ssti
llyoungam goi
ngt
owai
tfor
you.
.shel
aughed
Me:hayiandi
zukuxhesha<Iam notgoi
ngt
orush
you>
Lady:
HiyoumustbeMr
sBi
yel
a?
Me:
YesIam.
.
Lady:
Iam koket
soSbu'
sgi
rl
fr
iend.
.wehugged
Me:Fi
nal
lythemyst
eri
ousKoket
so.
.Gi
rlyourmani
s
al
waystell
ingmeaboutyou
Ket
so:
Goodt
hingsIguess
Me:
Ievent
houghtyouwer
eanangel
..
wel
aughed
Ti
na:
thethamnt ase<t
akesi
bli
ng>shesai
dgi
vingme
aBer
niniclassi
cIr ef
usedi
t
Me:yhuuumnt
asenot
hankyout
odayIwantt
obe
sober
Ti
na:
tr
yagai
n..
oohgosh
Me:
okIwenttoadoctorshesai
dImustsl
owdown
onal
coholIt
hinkmyalcer
saregoi
ngtost
ri
keagai
n
Pear
l:
Maybeaftersomecoupl
esofmonthswewi
ll
bechangi
ngthem nappi
esAargyoural
cer
sar
e
nast
y..
iwasshookhowdidshefindout
Pearl
:I'
vegotasonbabessopl
easeyoucant
ri
ck
them notme..
welaughed
Me:
what
evermamsebel
etsi
<pr
ophet
ess>
Ti
na:
soyouar
eaboutt
obr
eakyourVi
jayj
ayagai
n?
Me:
imagi
ne.
.imadeapuppyf
acet
heyl
aughedat
me
Pearl
:butwhenyouwer emakingi
tam sur
eyou
weretheinst
ructor
..wel
aughedmymancamewi t
h
abottl
eofwine,aglassandaplat
eful
lofmeat
Hi
m:Ladi
esmant
ombazane.
.
Them:hi,
hey,
Bandz,
..
.ar
gthesehoeshecamet
ome
andperkedmyl i
ps
Hi
m:babyher
eidl
ananami<eat
>
Me:
aren'
tyout
hebesthusband?
!Iki
ssedhi
m
Him:Iai
mt oplease.
.(
wechuckled)what
everyou
needjustcal
lmeokl ove.
.inoddedashewalked
away
Thegir
lsandIconti
nuedchatt
ingunt
ilEnt
leandhi
s
squadcametherewasanewf acenowshewas
chubbyyel
lowandbeauti
fulam j
eal
ouscanIhide
mymanbecausei tl
ooksli
keIhaveacompet i
ti
on
Ent
le:
Hif
riend..
what
!!ij
ustl
ookedar
oundasTi
na
andPear
lwer econf
used
Entl
e:HawuKhi
thaam greet
ingyoui
sthathowyou
tr
eatyourol
dfr
iends.
.ist
oodupshestepbacka
l
itt
le
Me:
Whatdoyouwant
?
Ent
le:
owpleaseIj
ustcamet
ogr
eetyoumi
sshi
gh
andmight
y
Me: sothisistherealyounowhuh? SOt hisisthe
thankyouIgetaf terIhavehel pedyoui nsomany
thi
ngsbesi desget ti
ngyouaj obsodi srespectis
whatIgetf orarewar d,l
etmet ellyoukesi sithe
samewayyougott hatj obisthesameyoumi ght
evenkissi tgoodbyesoyoubet terstartrespecting
meandst opt r
yingt opr oveapoi nttoyournewl y
foundf r
iendsbecausewebot hknowwher ewe
comef rom sopl easebabesgoandbebor ed
somewher eelse..
shedi dn'tsayanyt hingshej ust
l
ookedmef rom myhai rtomyf eetandshel eftI
praythatwhenherbabydaddyst artactingcrazyon
herherf ri
endsar egoi ngt ohelpheroutshequi ckly
forget.
..

BANDI
LE
.
soweareatthepar kSbuhost
edabashhi sgoodat
thi
sAmapianower eonsoasagooddancerIam i
wasbusykeepingthem ent
ert
ainedheandLuucan
danceandothersallt
heyknowisfli
rtever
ygi
rl
Luu:Mfethudon'
tgettoomuchdrunkandownt he
stageyoudon'twantyourwi
fepanelbeat
ingt
hese
thir
styhoeswhoarebusychecki
ngyouout
Sbu:heyiphel
angi
thial
lhi
sexesar
eher
etodayi
t'
s
abouttogetli
t
Me:
Ihavemovedonfrom t
hatandbesi
desIt
hink
t
heysawthatIcamewit
hsomeone
Sbu:
let
'shopeso

KHI
THA
Iwasbusyenj oyi
ngmymeatandl ist
eni
ngtomy
girl
st el
li
ngmeandshowi ngmeBandzexeswho
wer ebusygivingmenastylooksandTinawasbusy
dissingthem Iwasalaughi
ngmessgoshIcan't
takeityoooh
Me:
NoTi
nast
opi
tIcan'
tbr
eat
h..
.idi
ed
Ti
na:
Ndi
yakuxel
elakesana<Iam t
ell
ingyoubabes>
Me:letmegotoNdil
eandaskf oranot
herwine
becauseIhavebeentext
inghi
m butdolol
orepl
y
Pearl
:gogetyourman..
shesaidinanAmer ican
accentIl
aughedandIwal kedt
owher etheywere
butIfel
tsomeonegrabbingmyar m andthenwho's
thi
s
Guy:Heylal
ayoulooknice.
.ipul
ledmyar
m backas
theotheronecameclosetomeandspankedmy
asswyd
Me:
leavemeal
oneyoushi
tt
yassr
api
st
Guy2:
wecanbemor ethanthatwenasl
ayqueen
sasemikhukhwi
ni<squat
tercamps>
Guy3:
let
haleyof
ounwenaskheber
sh..
hecame
cl
oserandhewassouglyyoucantel
lthathe'
san
ol
dlowlif
ethug
Guy1:ChaNt wanayam asi yi
that
helethikhensi
yise
ngaleandsat i
sfyourselvesawubhekel ezi
nqe<no
bruhlet'
stakehertotheot hersi
delookatt hi
sass>
sotheyagr eedIwaspr otest
ingtheyslappedmeso
hardIshout edforNdil
ebutt hemusicwassol oudI
couldseehi m hewasbusydanci ngwi thsome
otherchick
Guy2:
Heywenasf
ebeungazongi
cikawena
asambe<heyyoubi tchdon' tir
ri
tatemel et'
sgo>I
cri
edandpr otestedunt ilt
heDjguycamet omy
rescuebutt heyf oughthi m andtheot heronewas
busydr aggingmet ot hedar kcornerIwasn'tgoing
togetr appedj ustliket hatIfoughtItookabeer
bottleandt hrewi tonhi sfacethebeerpour edhim
ont hef aceam sur eitenteredhiseyest henIgotup
andr ant oBandi lewhowassi tt
ingdownandt here
wasagi r
lnextt ohim andhej umpedwhenhesaw
meal lofthem lookedatmeIcr i
ed
Ndi
le:
babywhat
'sgoingon?Ipoi
ntedwheret
hey
wer
etheyarest
il
lpanelbeat
ingthepoorDj
Me:theywantedtorapeme. .isaidcryi
ngNathi
comr f
otedmewhi st
leNdile,
SbuandLuuwentt o
theguysIwasevenvomi t
ingIf el
tasharppainon
myabdomenandIsawbl oodr unningthr
oughmy
l
egsIcr i
edlouderNathicall
edmyhusbandt hey
carr
iedmet othecarSubwasdr i
vingBandi
leandI
werecryingwecan'tl
ooset hesebabi est
ooGod
no..
.
Luu:Guysmasithandazeniwecan'
taff
ordanot
her
miscarr
iage<l
et'
spray>justt
hemiscar
ri
ageword
mademecrymylungsoutWhatdi
dwedot
o
deser
vet
hiski
ndofapuni
shment
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
SEVEN
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
Wehavear ri
vedatt hehospi talt heyhaveadmi t
ted
khithaIt oldYouandSbut ogobackt othepar kand
l
ookf orthoseguysIwantt hem al i
veandki ckingit
alsogavemet i
met opr ivatemysel fwit
hpr ayerI
haveneverbeenapr ayingper sonneverbel ievedin
prayerbutkhi t
hai stheonewhochangedt hatsoi
wasi nthebat hroom pr ayingt oGodt onottakemy
babi esIhavel ostoneandi t'
senoughhemustnot
puni shtheki dsformywr ongdoi ngs..
igotacal l
from Nelshesai dimustgot oKhi t
ha'swar dI
quicklywentt hereshewasf aci ngt heceil
ingand
shewasn' tcryingIguessshej ustgaveupandl et
thingsbe, Iwalkedt owher eshewasIsati nt he
chairt hatwasnearherbedIt ookherhandi nto
mi newej uststayedliket hatnowor dsexchangeda
mal
edoct
orcamei
n
Dr
:Eveni
ngMrandMr
sBi
yel
a
Me:
eveni
ngdoct
or
Dr:
wel
lIhavegoodnewsandbadones.
.iwas
sweat
ingshi
t
Me:Okdoct
orsayi
t.
.isqueezedKhi
tha'
shandI
coul
dseeshewasoutofi t
Dr:Yourwif
eandot hertwokidsarefinebutt he
otheronecoul dn'
tmakei tguysam sor r
y..
ifeltl
i
ke
thi
swhol ethingisadr eam Ifel
tsoempt yIwas
numbIdi dn'tknowwhatt odoIl ookedatmywi fe
shewascr yingitwasonl ytearsgushingdownher
cheeksthoughIsi dehuggedher
Me:
sodoct
ordi
dyoucheckt
hem t
hor
oughl
y?
Dr
:yesIdi
dandIdi
dn'
tfi
ndanydanger
..
Me:okcanwegohome. .
henoddedhegaveme
formstofil
linIdi
dandwewenttothecarandI
drovetoourplaceandwhenwegotthereitwas
sil
entIguessxoxoandMaFat
imaaresleepingi
t'
s
03:30am bythewayKhi
thadi
dn'
tsayanythingshe
wenttothebathroom shelockeditandIhear dthe
waterrunningIguessshe'staki
ngashoweraf t
er
20mi nutesshecameoutshedr i
edherselfloti
oned
andwentt otheclosetshecamebackwear i
ngher
see-
throughnightieshekneelsdownandpr ayed
aft
erthatshegotundercover ssheswit
chedher
si
delampandsl eptokIguessIdeservethesilent
tr
eatment .
.
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
Mysecondchi l
d' spassingdepr essedmeandIvow
tomysel ft
hat'iam neverget ti
ngpr egnantagai n'
Bandilehasbeenact ingstrongaboutal loft hi
sbut
whenipr et
endt obeasl eephewaswat chingme
andhewentt ot hebat hr
oom andIhear dthewat er
runningandIcoul dtellt
hathewascr yingitwas
hurtf
ultohearhi m cr
yl i
kethisam sur eit
's
depressi
nghim, hecamebackdr i
edhi mselfand
wentt ot
heclosethecamebackwear inghi sjogger
panthegotinbedandhecar efullyandsl i
ght l
y
pul
ledmet
ohi
schestidi
dntpr
otestil
ethi
m be.
..
Iwaswokenbyal i
ttl
ecutel
aught erwhenIopened
myeyesxoxowasl ayi
nginhisstomachhi sl
itt
le
l
egsr ai
sedupandcr ossedhisti
nyhandswer eon
hisfacehewaslookingathisfatherwhowas
si
tti
ngtoacouchnextt oourbedhehadf i
les
aroundhim andhewasbusywi t
hhi sl
aptopas
xoxowasbusydi st
urbinghi
m
Hi
m:Li
seIam busyher
ecomeon.
.
Xoxo:
noyousai
dIwi
llt
ypemosst
ata<dad>
Hi
m:okl
etmef
ini
sht
hisoneke
xoxo:
hayihayiuyandi
robhawena<nonoyouare
cheat
ingme>Ichuckl edandshookmyheadthey
l
ookedatme
Ndil
e:Nanamiyouar
eawake?
!i
sn'
tthatobvi
ousna
guys
Me:
Noam sl
eepi
ngnani
..
.hel
aughedatmeast
hey
wer
ecomi
ngclosert
omexoxocamet oki
ssme
Xoxo:mamayakuthandaavah<Il
oveyoumom you
hear>goshIswearIcr
iedt
hankstomyhormones
Me:Nomamakhouyakut
handa<yourmom l
oves
youtoo>Iki
ssedhi
m Ndi
lecametousandwe
famil
yhugged
Ndi
le:
Andil
ovet
hebot
hofyou
Xoxo:
Lavut
atam
Me:
Iloveyoumyhusband.
..
westayedl
ikethatf
ora
f
ewmi nut
esandIf
eltsomethi
ngonmyst omach
Me:
Ouch!
!t
heyl
ookedatme
Ndil
e:babywhat'sgoi
ngonURi
ght
?he'
seyeswer
e
f
ulloffear
..
ilaughed
Me:
theyar
eki
cki
ng.
.
Ndile:babyareyousure?!hecoveredhi
shandson
myt ummyhef eltt
hekickshesmi ledt
hey
continuedkicki
nghewasal l
smi l
esandlaughi
ng
thoughhebecameemot i
onalIrubbedhisback
Xoxo:
daddybhekel
isanam funaubamba<shi
ftabi
t
iwantt
otouchtoo>theybothaccommodat
edthei
r
handsandthebabi
esst oppedki
cki
ng
Ndi
le:
HaibonoNtshangase,
BoMenzi
wa,
BoMgazi
heconti
nuedcal
li
ngclansashi
sbabi
esst
art
ed
ki
cki
ng
Me:
Hai
boam Idyi
ngt
ellt
hem t
ost
op
Xoxo:
zint
oniezizi
laphaesuswi
nisakho
mama? <whataret
heseinyourstomachmom>
Me:Ngoochi
ldbaby.
.henoddedast
heywer
ebusy
hypi
ngthem
Me:
thepar
tyi
soverIam hungr
y..
theyf
rowned
Ndi
le:
kodwanana<but>Igavet
hem aser
iousl
ook
t
heygotupanddisappear
ediguesst
heywentt
o
t
hekit
chen
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
..
It
'sNovemberandal othashappenedi t'
stough,it
's
bad,
it'
st r
ickywelliburri
edmyauntj ustaft
era
weekil ostmybabySi munyet hatwashowNdi le
namedhi m/herhesai devent houghShe/hedi dn'
t
makei tbuywear eonei nspiri
t,
,wel
lmyauntwas
i
nvolvedi nacaracci dentandshedi dn'
tsurviveit
astheywer ebot
hdr unk,herandt hedri
verit
'sbad
guysbecauseshehasbeent heonlypersonIcal l
ed
fami l
ynowIam al onei t'ssadr eall
y,whoam igoi ng
tocr yto?who'sgoingt ocomf or tmewhenmar ri
age
turnssourImeani t'
snotal wayshoneyandsugar
mossbuti twasGodpl anIguessandasf ormeam
j
ustahi ppo,mytummyi shugeguysandIam
alwayshungr yf
oramanandf oodbutnowt hatI
am 9mont hssoIcangi vebirthatanygi venday. .
so
Ijusttookashoweri t
'sSat urdaymor ni
ngsoI
decidedonwear i
ngamaxil ongdr essandwhi t
e
pushi nswhenIgott othebedr oom Ndilewas
sitt
ingatt heedgeoft hebedhewasdeepi n
thought s
Me:
Naniar
eyouf
ine?
Iasksi
tt
ingnextt
ohi
m
Him:Eishnanathatdr
eam isbackit
'shorr
if
yingthis
ti
me. .
sohehasbeendr eamingofanoldwomannot
oldthoughmaybeshe'sonherearly50s,
this
womani swithher3kidsandtheyareinascattered
l
andandseem t obeindangersoNdi l
eisbusy
call
ingfort
hem eventhoughtheypayhim nomi nd
Me:Nanii
t'
sbeenawhi
lenow,
,dontyout
hinkwe
shoul
dgot ochur
chmaybewecangethelp
Hi
m:Eishminaangazinanayazi<Idon'
tknow>who
ar
ethesepeopl
e?whatdotheywantfrom me?
Me:babyletmegi
vebirt
hfi
rstt
henwewi
llgot
o
churchok?henodded
Hi
m:okam j
ustbot
her
edbyal
loft
his
Me:I
tsok,
,t
ellmewhatwoul
dyoul
iket
ohavef
or
br
eakfast
Him:anyt
hingthatmybeauti
fulwifei
shaving.
.ij
ust
smil
ledandwentt ot
hekit
chent oprepar
ebreakfast
butIfel
tpainsonmyabdomenIt hi
nk
Me:
ouch!
!Iscr
eamedi
npai
nNdi
leandXoxocame
r
unni
ng
Them:
Yini
<whati
sit
>
Me:
Ithi
nkIhaveper
iodpai
ns
Ndi
le:
ain'
tyoupr
egnant
?
Me:br
ingmemysani tar
ypadspl
easeandstop
act
ingli
keafamine.
.heshr
uggedandtur
nedto
l
eaveIfel
tli
qui
dwaterbetweenmythi
ghstolegs
Me:
NobabyIam i
nlabour
!!Ishout
ed
Xoxo:
yint
onl
eyo?
mamaur
ight<whati
sthat
?ar
e
youok>
Ndil
ecamewi t
habagt hatwepackedlongtimeago
andcarkeyssohedr ovetothehospi
talwhenwe
gott
here-t
her
ewasanambul ancegoi
ngoutbut
Ndil
estoppeditandf
orcedthem tot
akemet o
l
abourward
Me:Yhuuuunanindi
yaf
ast
ruahhhhh,
,
,yhooooooh
<Iam dyi
ngindeed>
Him: Nobabyyougott obestrongforthem and
us,youneedt osur
vivethi
sloveIneedal lofyou
al
ive...
doesheevenknowst hepainIam f eeli
ngI
continuedscreami
ngandki ckingNdil
ewast r
ying
hislevelbesti
ncalmingmedownbutIendedup
swear i
nghim butf
innalyIpushedandi naf ewI
heardal i
ttl
ecry
Dr:
secondbor
nit
'sababygi
rl
..
hegavei
ttoNdi
le
andther
ewasanothercr
y
Dr:
Firstbor
nit
'sababyboy.
..
ihear
dcr
iesbutj
ust
passedout
BANDI
LE
.
..
.
Sofinal
lyIam goi
ngtobeafat
hertomyownfl
esh
andbloodchil
drenitf
eel
sgoodseei
ngt
heset
wo
l
it
tl
eangelsbringmejòyIwasholdi
ngt
hegi
rl
yli
tt
le
angel
Me:Sawubonasisiunjanikodwa?<hel
losi
showare
youthough>shewassocut e.
.soLuuandTina
arr
ivedwit
hbabycl ot
hingsoTi nawashol
dingthe
boyoneMywi fejustwokeup
Her
:canIseemybabi
esguys?
Tina:
Aargtaket
hisonebbesbecauseuBandz
akafuningal
osi
mncamile<her
efusedwit
hthatone
wegaveup>
Her:
Ndzakubet
hantombikayi
se<yougof
ather
s
bel
oveddaughter
>shetookhim
Me:Babyt hatonei
sSiyabongaandt
hisonei
s
Siphesi
hle,doyouli
kethem?shesmi
ledand
nodded
Her
:yeaht
heyar
ecut
ebaby
noone:
nobodyatal
l:
att
ent
ionseeker
:mnamamandil
ambil
e<Iam
hungr
y>Thatwasxoxohewassi
tt
ingatt
hecor
ner
l
ikearej
ected
Me:ohhsanal wam yizakumamakho<ohmybaby
comet oyourmot her>heshyli
ycli
mbedi nbedand
heplayedwithSiya'stinyf
ingersIguesshe'
snot
hungrynomor e
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
EIGHT
.
.
KHI
THA
.
Ithasbeenaweeknowandmybabi esarestil
lal
ive
andki ckingandNdilecan'
tgetenoughofthem he
j
ustl oveshisbabiesandhehasbeengoodt oxoxo
tooandt al
kingaboutamanwho' sgoodinmul t
i-
tasking.Iwasinthekit
chenwi t
hMaFatimawehave
call
edhert ohelpmeadj ustandgetusedtobeinga
mot herofmanybutIt hinkIshoul
dhireherback
becauseIr
eal
lyhavet
ogot
oschoolnextyear
Her:
Makotinott
hatiam noseybutcanIaskyou
somethi
ng?
Me:Onl
yifi
t'
sgoi
ngt
omakemecomf
ort
abl
e..
we
gi
ggled
Her :
OkIguessitwi
llbutwhati
swr ongwit
hyour
husbandthesuddenchange?helooksli
kehehas
thiswhol
ewor l
donhi sshoul
der
s..
itookadeep
sigh
Me:EishmathingisNdilehasbeenhavi
ngsome
confusi
ngdreamsit'sbeenawhilenowsoI
suggestedt
hatwemustgoandseeapast orbut
youknowhowst raightZul
umanar e
Her
:St
ubbor
n
Me:
Right
..
isai
dbi
tt
ingmyAppl
e
Her:
Butyouneedt
oconvi
ncehi
mthi
smustbedeep
kot
i
Me:WellIdi
dbutafterhehasbeenprot
est
ing
agai
nstmyi deabutIthinkwhenhecomesbackhe
wil
lnotchangehismi nd..
Her:
IpraysotoobecauseIcanseet
her
e's
somethingbot
her
inghim
Voice:
Bother
ingwho?mymancameinwear
ing
casualokwhendidhechangehecamet
oki
ssme
andgreetedMaFati
ma
Her
:Iwi
llgoandcheckont
heki
ds
Hi
m:NomaIwoul
dli
ket
oaskyouaf
avour
Her
:okshoot
Him:
mywi f
eandIhavetor
ushsomewher
esocan
youpl
easeworkover
ti
meormaybesl
eepoveri
f
youdonotmind
Her
:NoIdon'
tmi
ndMkhwenyan<gr
oom>
hi
m:t
hankyou.
..
shel
eftt
her
oom
Him:Canyoupl
easet
akemet
othatchur
chofyour
s
baby?
Me:
Owr
eal
ly?
when?
Him:asinyester
day.
.okIqui
cklywentupst
air
sand
changedintocomfor
tabl
eclothessi
ncewewer e
goingtochurch
Hi
m:uhl
ulwayiniukigqokakanj
eeveryday?
<what
's
maki
ngithar
df oryoutowearliket
his>
Me: kuzubendi
ngafuni<i
t'
sbecauseIdon'twantto>
wel aughedthatofwedrovetoSowetot ownshi
ps
sincewewer egoingtoachri
sti
anchur ch
recommendedbymaFat i
ma,weapproacheda
chur chbui
ldi
ngasthenamewr it
ten'
FiveFolds
Mi nist
ri
es
Me:andwear eher
e..
wecli
mbedoffthecarand
wentinther
ewasanol dmannotold-
oldmaybeon
hi
searly60shewaswat er
ingt
hefl
ower s
Ndi
le:
Sawubonababa<gr
eet
ingsf
ather
>het
urned
t
ousandsmi l
ed
Him:Sanibonanani<greet
sback>ngi
yaqal
a
ukunibonalani
na<it'
smyf i
rstt
imeseei
ngyouguys
here>
Me:Ewetatasi
zocel
auncedo<yeswecameher
eto
askforhel
p>
Hi
m:Hlobol
uniol
uni
funayo?
<whatki
nddoyou
want
>
Me:
Spir
it
ual
..
henoddedashi
seyeswer
efi
xedon
Ndi
le
Hi
m:Ngi
landel
ani<f
ollowme>wefoll
owedhi
mto
t
hehousewegotinsidehi
soff
icei
fitwashi
s
Him:Makeyour
selvescomf ort
abl
e,
,butfi
rstofal
l
l
et'
sopenbyprayerwepr ayedandaf t
erthat
Bandil
etol
dhim abouthi
sdr eam
Him:Ndodanal
okhokukhoukut hiumamakho
wangempelauyakudi
ngaf ut
hingalendlel
angibona
ngayoisi
godl
asooNtshangasesesi yawasiyaphel
a
zi
dingawena<sonthatmeansyoumustgoback
homeandseeyourt r
uemot herbecauseshes
suff
eri
ngandtheyourclansherit
anceneedyout o
savethem
Ndi
le:
Yousai
dumamawamiwangempel
a?<or
igi
nal
mot
her>
Hi
m:yeskunj
alo<i
ndeed>
Ndi
le:
Sot hatmeanstheonewhoraisedmewasn't
mymot her?t
hepastornodded,
,
itmakessensenow
Me:
kengokuabobant
uawubazibat
hol
akal
aphi
?<so
nowwher
ecanwef
indt
hem>
Him:
Ihavenoideabutyouhavetofi
ndt hem bef
ore
youal
lsuff
er.
.okt
hisisashockerwethankedhim
byoff
eri
ngwewentt othecar
Me:
What
'sf
rom her
eonwar
ds?
Him:wehavetodr
ivet
oTembi saandl
ookfor
uMenziwaheusedtotal
kaboutMANandot her
s
thatIknowandwentt
oyourlobol
aarefr
om
Mpumal anga
Me:
Thi
sisgoi
ngt
obehar
dnow

Unf
ini
shed
Notedi
ted
am sl
eepy
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Wedr ovetohissocal
leduncleandwhenwegot
t
here-ther
ewere3Zulumenar guingon
whatsoever,
wecli
mbedof fthecarandwentt
o
appr
oacht
hem
Ndile:
Sanibonani<gr
eet
ings>t
heygr
eet
edbackbut
theotheronestooduphewassoshookand
surpri
sedIthinkthat
'st
heuncl
e
Hi
m:Mshananguwel
o<i
sthi
syounephew>
Ndil
e:Yeboyimil
ononkosi
kazi
<yest
hisi
smeam
wit
hmywi f
e>
Him:hawuasi
ngeneningaphakat
hibakwethuewwu
<real
lynol
et'
sgoinsi
demypeopl e>heledustothe
housewegotinsi
deandweset tl
ed
Him:nasukangaleebal
ungwi
ninazalanayi
nindava?
<youcameal lt
hewayf r
om t
hesurbubstohere
what'
sthemat t
er>
Ndil
e:Ei
shmal umengif
unaukwaziukuthiumalume
uBhekazangeakutsheleukut
hiubuyakuphiei
ngi
yahluphekalana<UncleIwantt
oknowi funcl
e
Bhekaneverment i
onedwherehewasf r
om toyouI
am faci
ngproblemshere>
Hi
m:Ewuyinimanjemshanakhul
umaphel
a<what
i
sitnephewtal
ktome>Ndil
enarrat
edt
hewhol
e
t
hingt
ohi
m
Him:Wheeemasekunjeangekhengiqambeamanga
kuzobanzi
makininobabi
lingobasewushadi
lekeei
angazi<Ei
shiti
sgoingtobehardIdon'twantt
oli
e
toyouasyouaremar r
iednow>hetolduswhere
theywerefr
om andwebi dgoodbye
Me:
Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odof
rom nowonbaby?
Him: Wehavet odrivet oKZNt ommor owbabywe
don'thaveachoi ce..yoohoksowear ri
vedatour
houseandpr eparedf orourtri
pt oKZNtommor ow
MaFat i
mawashel pingmemor ningcameBandi l
e
wokemeat05am i magi nesowepr eparedandl eft
j
obur gat7am at12mi ddaywewer eatMent rose
west oppedt obuysomet hingsandwedr oveasyou
allknowt hatNdileisaf astdriversoat14pm we
wer ealr
eadyatt hel ocati
onandwedi dn'tknow
wher etodrivetobutl uckil
ywecameacr osssome
boyswest oppedandaskf ordirecti
onst hey
showedusandwedr ovetherewegott ot hegat e
andt heweat herstartedchangi ngitwascl oudynow
andwhenNdi l
esteppedoutoft hecaritPour edand
then..
anol dwomancameoutshewasul uliat
ing
andcal
li
ngthecl
ansaf
tert
hati
tst
oppedwewent
i
nsidet
hehouse
Ol
dwoman:MfanakaDumazi
le?
<Dumazi
le'
sson>
Ndi
lewassoconfused
Ndi
le:
Sawubonama
Oldwoman:Anikhi
pheniuLindiwelaphoazobona
i
ndodanayakhe<bringLindiweher esoshecansee
herson>awomancameoutoft heot herr
oom
l
impingshelostsomuchwei ghtyoucant el
lhow
shewaswhenshesawNdi l
eshecr ied
Her:
Bandi
lenguwel
o<i
sthi
syou>henoddedt
hey
hugged
OldW:
Bandil
eubanil
oumakot
i<who'
sthi
sisshe
ourbr
ide>
Ndil
e:Yebomanguwenezi
nganezet
hu<yesi
t'
sher
andourkids>
OldW:
ohhlonaindodanayakhoyokuqal
a<i
sthi
s
yourf
ir
stbornson>Ndil
elookedatmeInodded
Ndil
e:Yebokodwangahl
angananoNkosikazi
seyi
naye<yesbuthe'
snotmybiologi
calson>
Ol
dW:
okkul
ungi
le
SoBandi l
esmot hernarrat
edhowshel osthi
m so
basical
lyhisfakemotherwashi sfatherssecond
wifeandstolehim becauseitwassai dwhoever
givesbir
thtoasonwi llgetallt
heinherit
ancethat
wasl ef
tbyancestorsandunf ort
unatelyhisfat
her
passedonl astmonth,t
heat mospherewast ense
youcant el
landasf ormeIcoul dtel
lthatIwasnot
reall
ywelcomedi nthi
shousehol d

BANDI
LE
.
.
Iwashappyt hatatl
astlongIf oundoutmyr eal
l
parentsbecausemyl at
euncleoncement ionedthat
Senzeniisnotmybi ologicalmotherandnamiI
couldtellImeanwhoget scomf ort
ablewhensheis
tol
dt hatthefatheri
sbusymol estoli
nghissonand
thenannywhoi ssupposet otakecareofhim uses
him asapl easuri
ngtoy
Mom:Iam sor
rysothatIwasn'
tther
eforyou.
.she
sai
dwhist
lecryi
ngIhuggedher
Me:
itwasn'
tyourf
aul
tmama
Mom:
Soisthatyourwi
fe?(Ismil
edandnodded)
she
i
ssobeaut
if
ulandcalm il
ikeheral
ready
Uncle:
Bandi
lemymanIam scaredthatt
her e'
s
goingtobeachangesomet
hingthatwil
lli
teral
ly
shakeyourmarr
iage?
Me:
whati
sthatuncl
e?Iwasshocked
Uncle:
whenyouwerebor nitwasvowedbyourold
fat
her,
theancest
orthatyouhavetomarr
yfr
om the
Mabuzaf ami
ly,
youhaveachosenwi fe
Me:
What
?!
Mom: am afraidsonbutiti
swhati ti
s,aft
ertheage
thatwasassi gnedforyouguyst omar r
ywest ar
ted
tolooseeverythingourharvestdiedandourst ock
sothat'
swhyIendedupgoi ngtoat radit
ional
healertohelpmet raceyousopl easesondon' t
maket hishardweal lr
elaytoyouwear epoor
becauseoft hathow
Me:Nomom nothati
snotgoi
ngtohappennoI
r
efusedIhavemoneylot
sandl
otsofi
tIcantake
car
eofyouandmysi
bli
ngs
Uncl e:yourbusi
nessesar egoingt otr
asht ooso
pleaseactnowbef or
ei t
'stoolatewewer et oldthat
wher eeveryouar eyourdownf al
lisnearsosave
your selfgoandspeakt oyourwi feaboutthi s..
iwas
soconf usedbutwhent heyment i
onsucht hi ngsit
l
ooksl ikeIdonothaveachoi ce..iwenttot hehut
whichwasgi ventomesi nceIam nowmar ried
khithawassl eepingthereit
'salreadynightsoIwent
i
n
Her:
YoohIthoughtyouwer en'
tcomingback,
,
,I
chuckl
edasIwenttoj oinhert
hekidsweresl
eepi
ng
onthespongesheim Ifeelsor
ryfort
hem
Me:whywouldIdi
tchmybeaut
if
ulwi
fe?
Iasked
ki
ssingher
Her
:Idon'
tknowNaniyout
ellme.
.ist
art
edsweat
ing
Me:BabyIhavet
otellyousomethi
ng.
.shenoddedI
nar
ratedt
hewholethingtohershewasfur
ious
Her
:andt
henwhataboutmeBandi
le?
Me:
BabyIhavet
odot
hisf
ormyf
ami
lyandusI
swearIwil
lneverf
allforherbabyyouneedt o
under
standandseei twit
hmyper spect
ive.
.shewas
shaki
ngherhead
Her
:Sowho'
sthi
sladyhuh?
Me:Theysayit
'sThandekaZulushe'
swasinCape
townshejustgraduat
edshewasdoi ngMedi
cine
butni
wshecamebackf orareedntonnt
on
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
Wowj ustwowsoIcamet oKZNt oloosemyman
mymar ri
ageistrushi
ngjustinf
rontofmyeyesand
abouttowatchitendGodhowdoIacceptt hisI
meaneveni fthi
sfamil
yneedt obesavedbut
Bandil
eisgoingtofal
lforherIswearistal
kedher
onInstaandshe'sabeautyjusthistypei
tlooksl
ike
Iwil
lbefight
ingalookinggame
Him:
it
's03am andyouar
ewi
ldawakebabyar
eyou
f
ine?
Me:
Soyouar
eexpect
ingmet
obeokaf
terwhatyou
havet
oldme?
Ican'
tbel
ieveyou
Hi
m:butIt
oldyouthatiwontevent
ouchherIam
j
ustmarr
yinghersoIcansignthei
nher
it
ancethat
's
al
l
Me: Bandilethi
swomani s
beaut i
ful
,educated,
chubbyandavir
ginsomet hi
ng
thatIam notandyouoncet ol
dmet hatyourdream
wast omar r
yavi r
ginsonowitisbr
oughtt oyouon
asi l
verplatt
erandyouar egoi
ngtojustleaveher
l
iket hatnoBandi l
eIam abouttol
ooseyounoI
refuse
Him:Babyyouhavet ot
rustmeokILoveyouno
bodycanchanget hatj
usttr
ustmeokandst op
comparingyourselfwi
thotherwomenyouar e
worthy,
youaremyqueenIal waystel
lyout
hatili
ve
topl
easeyoubutatt hi
smomentandt imewehave
tobendalit
tl
e
Me:
andi
fIagr
eet
othi
swher
edoesi
tputme?
Him:whatIknowisyouwil
lalwayscomef i
rsti
nmy
l
ifej
ustletmedothisbabyandwewi l
lleave
happil
yeveraft
er
Me:Oki
t'
sfineyoucandoi
tbutjustknowt
hatt
his
wholet
hingisbreaki
ngmebaby..
icri
ed
Hi
m:thanksf
ort
rust
ingmenanami,
Ipromi
set
onot
l
eaveyouandbr
eakyoufur
thermore
CHAPTERTHI
RTY-
NINE
.
.
SoIwasbusywit
hmymakot
idut
ieswhenBandi
les
mothercamet
ome
Her
:Kot
ihowar
eyout
hismor
ning?
Me:
Am f
inemaandyou?
Her:
Neverbeenbet
ter
,,
sot
ell
mehowdoyouf
eel
aboutal
lofthi
s?
Me:
Idon'
tknowmaIr
eal
lydon'
t
Her:
Iunderst
andmychi l
dbutyouhaveto
underst
andalsoukut
hithi
swasboundt ohappen
sopleasefor
givehi
m andtel
lyouwhateveryt
hing
i
sgoingt obefi
nethi
sMabuzaandZul ugi
rlisso
humblejustl
ikeyouIpr
omiseyouthatyouguys
wil
lgetalong
Me:
Iguess.
..
isai
dasIwaswashi
ngt
hedi
shesnow
Her:l
ookatLise(that'showshecal l
shi m naye)he
l
ovesplayingandl i
kesbei ngwi thbabi estoohe's
goingtobeagoodbi gbr ot
her..wel aughedsoshe
conti
nuedt el
li
ngmeaboutl ovest oriesofpolygamy
Mxm asi fIam interested..
sot hingswer edonet hey
payedlobolaforThandekaandt heysai dawhi te
weddingmustf ollowsoonsonowwewer eallon
ourwaybackt oj obur gthedrivewasl ongandsi lent
i
twasonl yxoxoaski ngThandekaaboutwhat ever
sowegott oourpl aceandof floadedourl uggage
wemyi nsidethehouseNdi l
ewel comedhi swi fe
andshowedhi m herr oom
.
.
2daysago
Iwasi
nthekit
chenbusycleani
ngwhenThandeka
camei
nlooki
nghotIguessshe'
sgoi
ngtowork
Her:
hisi
sterwi
fe.
.shesai
dpl
acingabowlthatshe
cameinwi t
hIguessshewaseati
ngonit
Me:
Hi.
.icont
inuedwi
thwhatIwasdoi
ng
Her:
Canyoupleaseuset
hestai
nremoveronmy
whit
ecoatwhenyouaredoi
ngthelaundr
ytoday
pl
ease?Il
ookedatherWTF
Me:excuseMe?!sher
epeat
edwhatshesai
dso
she'
snotmistaken
Me:WellIam notyourmaidandIam notmar r
iedto
yousomnt asejustfor
getitIwon'
tdoyourl
aundr y
andbesidesaftercl
eaningthi
skit
chenIam going
tomeetmyf ri
endsoIcan' t
Her
:Sothat'
swhatyoudo?gooutonl unchesspend
myhusbandmoneyonusel esst
hingslist
enhereI
am t
hefir
stwif
esoyouhavet ol
istentowhatisayI
meanwepr ovi
deforyou.
..
Me:Bri
khanetkhonalaphosisimamel afir
stofal l
sukundi
qhelasukundi
li
ngathisismyhouseNdi l
e
assi
gnedittomesowenagoandf i
ndyour sand
secondl
yiam notspendingyourmoneybut' our'
husbandsmoneywhi chhegivesittomewi t
hout
aski
ngforitkal
okuwenayouwer ebroughttot hi
s
marri
agesisandmnaont heothersidehechose
meandwhatyouhavet oknowi s'Helovesmenot
you' r
emi ndyour selfthosewor dseachand
everydaywhenyout hinkofdi srespectingmei nmy
houseandanot hert hingt odayi t'syourturnt ocook
themenusaysSampandbeans, hardbodychi cken
andchakal akat heymustbehomemadeandt he
chickenpl easecooki tthet raditi
onalwayhavea
nicedayNdl unkul u<f irstwife>Iwal kedoutoft he
kit
chenandwentt ot hebat hroom It ookal ongbat h
andi wentt othecl osetsoIpi ckedahi ghwai sted
skybl uejean, awhi teof fshoul dercr opt i
eandwhi te
highheel sIt ookmyL. Vsl i
ngbagandIwal kedt o
MaFat i
mascot tageIt oldhert hatIwasl eavingand
shemustnotcooki fshe' shungr yshemustor der
onlineIwi l
lt r
ansf erhermoneyasshe' sonly
l
ooki ngaf t
erourki dswhenam notar oundidr ovein
myBendzt odayIwentt oMor ningGl enmal lto
meetmyf ri
endsPear landTi nal ucki
lytheywer e
alreadyatt her estaur antweagr eedt omeetatwe
huggedandor derd
Pear
l:
Sohow'
syoursi
sterwi
fe?
wel
aughed
Me:she'
ssobossythatonecanyoubel
ieveshe
sai
dImustdoherlaundrytoday?
!
Ti
na:
Ihopeyout
oldherwheretogetoff
..
.shesai
d
whi
stl
ediggi
ngi
nfoodthatj
ustarr
ived
Me:Idi
dmnt aseandi
zuqhel
wanguyemnar haaa<I
am notgoi
ngt obedisr
espect
edbyherdamnit>not
i
nmyhouse
Pearl
:yesgir
landasomeslapshereandt
her
ewi
ll
worktoo..
.Ti
naandIbur
stedalaught
er
Ti
na:
sothati
si tbabesyouar
eshar
ingyour
man?t
hedeli
ciousdickyoual
waysprai
sed.
.il
etout
asi
gh
Me:AndinFebruar
ytheyaresupposetogetmar
ri
ed
awhiteweddingwhichIhaven'
thadwithmy
husband.
..
yooohthi
shurtsguysitt
rul
ydoes
Pear
l:
it
'sal
linyourhandsbabymakeapl
an
Me:Iam wor
kingonsomethi
ngbant
asethoughI
can'
twatchmymar r
iagegoi
ngdownthedrai
n
Ti
na:
hayiyi
ntonl
uzoyenza?
<nowhatar
eyou
pl
ani
ngtodo>
Me:agir
lgottadowhatagir
lgot
tadot
omake
t
hingshappen..
.wel
aughed
Pearl:
Soyiki<am afr
aid>wecont i
nuechit
-chatt
ing
andwentshoppi ngideci dedt
ogoandpl ait32inch
dreadlocksandIt ol
dthem tol
etthem bethey
suit
edmewheni twasl ateIdrovebacktomy
housewhenIgoti nthereever
ybodywassi tt
ingon
thedinningroom andsisterwi
f ewassit
ti
ngnextt o
myhusbandt henxoxoandMaFat i
maIgr eeted
them Iwentt osi
tonmyman' slapandIkissedhim
Me:howwasyourdaynani
?Iaskedbr
ushi
nghi
s
cheekshegenui
nel
ysmil
ed
Hi
m:itwasoknanami
..
iki
ssedhi
m oncemoreIgot
of
fhim andki
ssedmysonandsi
dehugged
MaFati
ma
Xoxo:
mamaumhl
e<youl
ookbeaut
if
ul>
Ndi
leandMaFati
ma:i
ndeedyoul
ookf
ine.
..
ismi
ll
ed
ast
heylaughedf
orspeaki
ngtwi
ce
Me:
sel
ambewhatareyouhavi
ngfordi
nner
t
oni
ght
?Si
sterwi
fedi
shedforusandAargshei
m
xoxo:
mhhhmamamnaf
unanoodl
es<nomom I
want>
MaFatima:
NoandIthi
nkIwilleatbr
ead..
.andnow
whenIdagOhhhGodwhat '
st hi
swhuuuuahayi
andazit
hefoodwassal
tyandi mmatur
ecooked
Me:nanihow'
sthef
ood?
Iaskedhi
m becauseIknow
howhel i
kesf
oodandhemadeasourface
Him:
nott
oobadbutIthi
nkpi
zzawilldo,
,
isn'
tthata
goodi
deasweet
s?hesai
dfi
xingThandekashair
Her:anythi
ngtomakemyhusbandhappy. .mxm i
stoodupandwentt othekit
chenandpreparedfood
forMaf i
tama,
xoxoandIsinceNdi
ledecidedtoplay
Msel eku
CHAPTERFORTY
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.
Sothingsbeenhect i
c,soit'
sSat
urdaymid-
dayIam
cl
eaningasusualMaFat imawentoutwit
hthe
ki
ds,Ndil
eisoutsidewi t
hLuuandThandekaisup
stai
rsshesaidsomet hingaboutmeeti
ngafri
endso
shecamedownl ookingforNdil
e
Her
:wher
e'sourhusband?
Me:
out
side.
.shecal
lshi
m andhecomes
Hi
m:sweet
syoucal
l
edme?
Her:
yesl
ovecanIuseyourLambor
ghi
nizur
u
pl
ease?!
Him:Ummmhyeahsur
eletmegoandt
aket
hecar
keys
Her
:NoIal
readyhavet
hem
Hi
m: mhm ohok,,
,
shequi
ckl
yhuggedhim and
ki
ssedhi
m Iclearedmyt
hroatandshet
urnedtome
Her:
oksor
ryncane(
shegi
ggles)Iwi
llbehome
bef
oreyouknowitf
am .
..
shethenwalkedout
Me:
Whatawow!
!
Hi
m:BabyWhati
sitnow?
!
Me:
Not
hingBandi
lei
t'
snot
hing
Hi
m:itwi
llbegoodi
fyoust
artt
alki
ngbef
oreIdr
ag
i
toutofyou
Me:
Sincewhendoyoul
etpeopl
euseyourbel
oved
Lambhorgi
niIhaven'
tevendr
ovei
tmysel
fbutno
yoursweet
sishavingit
Him:
butnanamiyouarebeingunr
easonabl
enowI
meanIboughtyoutwocarsmossordoyouwant
anot
herone?
Me:Noandmyot herprobl
em ishowshedoesas
shelikesi
nmyhouseshe' sl i
teral
lynotsupposeto
enterthemainbedroom orgoneari tandshe'snot
al
lowedt odoyourlaundrytoo,andifyouarenot
goingtotel
lhert
henIwi ll
..
Hi
m:Yoohokmadam i
sthereanyt
hingel
se?
tel
lme
whatyouwantmet
odof oryou
Me:
Iwantyout
oletmehandl
eoneofyourhot
elsor
r
est
aur
ants
Hi
m:What
?!
Me:
youhear
dme
Hi
m:Babyyougotki
dst
olookaf
terIam notgoi
ng
t
oall
owyoudot hat
Me:
ButwehaveMaFatimataki
ngaver
ygoodcar
e
oft
hem mossBandi
leIam t
ooyoungt
obeahouse
wi
feIwantt
ogoanddosomet
hingaboutmyl
if
e
Hi
m:Ihearyoubutmaybewhenourki
dst
urn
1/
2years
Me:NoNdil
eNoIwanttodoi
tnow.
..
sowear
gued
aboutt
hatt
il
lLuucamein
Luu:BandzmymanIdon' tmeantoint
rudebutshe
hasapoi ntImeant
hingsarenotal
waysabout
obtaini
ngadegreei
nor dert
oknowhowt odothem
youar eagoodexampleofitmoss
Me:exact
lynanij
ustgi
vemeachancetoprovemy
sel
fthenwewi l
ltakei
tfr
om t
her
edon'
tyouthi
nk?
helookeddeepintomyeyes
Him:
okiwi l
lletyoutaketheonethat'
sinCentur
ion
andIwil
lint
roduceyout oever
ythi
ngonMonday
andIneedyout ofocusNomkhithaonestupi
d
mist
akeyouar eoutgetit
?
Luu:
hayinonj
ayam l
omnt
ulousaqal
asomi
stakes
arecommon
Me:NoLuuIwil
lmanage,,
thanksnaniIwil
lpr
epar
e
mysel
f.
..
tobehonestt
hiswasal lanactbuti
t'
s
somet hi
ngIalwayswant edsowhynotIspentt he
wholeweekendpr epari
ngmysel fandthankst othe
coursesIwasdoi ngonli
newhenIwasbor eddur ing
theyearIwasf amil
iar
izi
ngmysel fwit
hbusi nessI
thi
nktheywi l
lworkplusiConfi
dencehayiiwi l
lbe
goodsoMondaycameandIwokeupear lyand
preparedfort
hedayIwaswear ingli
keabossl ady
thatam abouttobeIwasscr eamingmoneyIwent
downst ai
rsandMr sDrwasbusywi thbreakfast
Her
:Mor
ningwhat
'st
heoccasi
on?
Me:
Mor
ning.
.isai
dheadi
ngt
othedoor
Ndile:
areyounotgoi
ngtoeat?heaskedwhistl
e
goingtohugandkissherIdon'tt
hinkIwi
lleverget
usedtot hi
s
Me:NoIwi l
ldrivemySUVt henwewillmeett
her
e..
i
wentoutanddr ovet
omuggandbeansIat emy
br
eakfastthereanddr ovet
othehot
elandBandi
le
wasalreadyther e
Him:
themeeti
ngshoul
d'vest
art
ed2minut
esago
youarel
atewher
ewereyou?ishebei
ngseri
ous
Me:
Iwasatmuggandbeanseat
ingbr
eakf
astand
geezi
t'
sonl
y22mi
n
Him:Idon'
tdowi t
hl at
ecomersIrespectti
meso
pl
easegetthatthroughyourheadMaBi yel
alet'
s
go..
sowewentt ot heboar
droom andIwas
i
ntroducedasthenewCOOi nEventManagement
depart
mentheaskedsomeonet ohelpmewi ththe
j
obandyooohi t
'sabouttogetdown
《AWEEKAGO》
Sowear ewithinthefesti
veseasonbutIam not
feeli
nganyvibebecausegi r
lsbusywi t
hworkplus
attimesli
kethishotel
sarebusi est
places,
,
somet i
mesIknockof fat22:00andclockin
at06am thenextdayIt hi
nkIhat et
hisbutIhave
beengoodsof arNdil
esaidthathimselfsoi
t'
s
Wednesdayt odayIknockedof fat6pm andwheni
gothomei twasal r
eadypast7
Me:
Hel
loma.
.
Her
:Hel
lobabyyoul
ookexhaust
ed
Me:Tel
lmeabouti
t,
,
it
'ssoqui
tei
nher
ewher
e's
ever
yone?
Her
:ThandekaandBandi
lewentonadat
e
Me:
ohandxoxo
Her
:he'
ssl
eeping..
(inodded)mnt
anam don'
tbet
oo
har
donyourselfok
Me:
Itr
ymamaIdobutthi
sthi
ngofhavi
ngasi
ster
wi
feki
ll
smeser
iousl
y
Her:
Icanimaginebutwhatyouneedtodoisf
ocus
onyoursel
fri
ghtnowandwor khardonthose
busi
nessesandmar ri
age
Me: mamaIf eell
ikeam f
ail
ingyouknowImeanI
haveneverbeenmar r
iedbeforeandnobodyhave
evert aughtmeabouti tmymot herdiedwhenIwas
youngandmyauntwasnevermar r
iedsoam doi ng
alloft hisbymyownknowl edgenobodyi sgui
ding
meandencour agingmeImeanIneedsomeone
who' sgoi ngtoshowmeandt el
lmewhenIdo
thingst hewrongwaysomet i
mesIf eell
ikeIam
doingt oomuchbutsomet i
mesIf eelli
keam losing
i
t
Her:
stopwor
ryi
ngaboutt
hatIknowwhatist
hat
comingfr
om,st
opcompari
ngyoursel
fwi
th
ThandekaokBandi lelovesyouandIhaveseenhow
happyhei swhenhe' swi t
hyouoksot hatmeans
he'smor ecomf ortablewhenhe' swi t
hyouand
that'
syouradvant agesost resslessabouthi m but
doent ertainhim andf ocusonyourwor kf ornow
thenkengokuwhenyouar eusedt oal lofthisyou
willseeever ythingwi l
lfal
lintopl aceyouar ea
strongwoman, youar esmar tmnt anam genui nely
sook. .
.ithinkineededt oheart hatIj usthuggedher
andIwentt otakeal ongshoweraf terthatIwentt o
oneofNdi lesof fi
cest of i
nishof fsomewor kitwas
11pm Iwentt ocheckonmymanhe' snotbackas
i
nyetokIdeci dedt ogodownst airstogetwat er
andanAppl ebutwhenIgoti nther ehear dvoi ces
moansr atherIwentt ocheckandIsawNdi l
eand
Thandekabyt hef i
repl acemaki ngouthewas
wear i
ngacondom andt heycont i
nuedIf eltli
ket his
whol eear thcanopenupandswal lowmeIj ust
j
oggedupst ai
rsandl ockedmysel fathisof ficeand
Idrankhi swhi skeyandIcr ied.i
st histhel i
feIam
goingt olive?doIwantt hi
sf ormysel f?wil
lIeverget
usedt othi s?Iwal kedoutandwentt osleep
Wel lmorningcameIwokeupandNdi l
ewas
sleepingnexttomemxm Iwentt othebat hr
oom
anddi dmyhygei nprocessandtookmyl aptopbag
andwentdownst ai
rsIdidmyselfacerealwhi l
e
scroll
ingtomynewsf eedonfacebookThandeka
camei nhummi ngasongIswearmyman' sdickdi
d
thingstoher
Her
:I
t'
saver
ylovel
ydayi
sn'
tit
?
Me:Yeahitislovel
yindeed.
.icoul
dn'tst
andher
si
ghtIjuststoodupt ookmybowlt hrewitt
othe
si
nkandwal kedout
Her
:haveagoodday
Me:sametoyou...
soi
twaslunchti
meIdeci
dedt
o
dr
ivetot
hemal landImetLel
ethuwit
hEnt
le
Them:
hisecondwi
fe
Me:Hibabi
es..
.event
houghIwashur
tbyt
hatIwas
notgoi
ngtoletthem seemypai
n
Let
hu:It
oldyouthati
zintoziyaj
ikawhathappensto
mewi l
lal
sohappentoyou,soyout houghthewas
al
lyoursshei
m poorthing.
.t
heyl aughed
Me:Yooojonganiaphaguys<lookher e>someofus
gotbusi
nessestorunsoIl i
ter
allydon'thavetimeto
wasteonpeoplewhoar econfusedbyt heirown
probl
emsanddeci detomindot hersbyeebitches.
..
i
wasnotgoingtoletthem r
uinmyday

.
.
It'
sFridayt
oday31stofDecemberIwonderwhat
thelovebir
dshaveplannedtodaysoMaFati
ma
wentt oacrossover
,Ndi
lesmothercametofet
ch
thekidsanditwasonlythet
hreeofusitwas19pm
andIwaswat chi
ngTVwhenThandekacamet ome
Her
:Sowhatar
etodayspl
ansi
t'
s31st
?Ishr
ugged
Me:Idon'
tknowwhatiknowi
sthatiam t
ir
edand
sl
eepyithi
nkit
sthi
slongbat
hitook
Her :
wellokIwilll
eaveyouIhavetogotoworkbut
at10pm Iwi l
lbeheremaybewhenIcomebackyou
willhavechangedyourmi ndandpart
ying,
,
why
don'tyoucallyourfri
endsandwehangoutwith
them?
Me:
Not
heyar
ebusy
Her
:okletmegoandkissmymangoodbye.
.mxm I
j
ustrol
ledmyeyesshecamedownst
air
sagain
Her
:wher
e'she?
Me:
Ndi
ngakuqhat
ha<Iwoul
dli
etoyou>
Her:mxm whatever.
..
inaf ewmi nut
esNdi l
ecame
downwear i
nghi sshortjoggerpant,
vestandsl
ides
whistl
eIwaswear ingabaggyt -shir
tandnothi
ng
underneat
hjustbyseei nghim Iwast ur
nedonbutI
act
edasi fIf
eltnothi
nghecamet ome
Hi
m:Nanami
..
heki
ssedme
Me:
Hi.
.
Hi
m:t
hat
'
scol
dcomi
ngf
rom you,
,
,ar
eyouf
ine?
Me:Am t
ir
edofexpl
aini
ngmysel
ftoyouBandi
le,
I
gotonl
yonequesti
onthough
Hi
m:okshoot
Me:
wheni
sshemovi
ngout
?
Hi
m:soonaf
terwegetmar
ri
ed
Me:
That
'sf
arbutIwi
llwai
t
Him:
cant
hisni
ghtbeaboutusnanami
justt
hebot
h
ofusImi
ssyoubabyImissus
Me:
Whatabouther
?
Hi
m:canyoust
opaski
ngmest upidquest
ions
MaBiyel
aandf
oll
owmeplease?!Ist
oodupashe
l
edthewaywewentoutt
othebackyar dand.
..
.
Me:
Nani
..
..
hesmi
ll
ed
Him:
Youli
keit
..inoddedsoitwasagar
denpi
cni
cit
wassobeauti
fulguysandtherewasmusi
cpl
ayi
ng
ourf
avour
it
esongst obespecifi
c
Him:babyt
hisismesayingam sorr
yforbeingajerk
ofahusband,f
ortr
eat
ingyouthewayIdid,ipromise
tobeabett
erpersont
hisfol
lowingyearwithyouby
mysi de
Me:BabyIam notgoingtopr
omiseyouthatiwi
ll
al
waysbeheresopl easewhenyoudothings
consi
dermyfeeli
ngsok
Hi
m:NotedMaBiyel
abutr
ememberwhenwewere
ont
hisotherpl
acei
t'
sabush/wi
lder
nesswhenI
wasreachi
ngyouhowt
ouseagun?
(inodded)
what
di
disay
Me:Yousai
dthati
fIevert
hinkaboutl eavi
ngyou-
youaregoi
ngtotakemeintothatplace,makeme
digmyowngraveandshootmer ightt her
eand
buryme
Him:
Iam happyyouremember
,,
socanwesi
tdown
andenj
oyyourman'seff
ort
Me:Soyoudisappear
edf
ort
hewhol
e3hour
sto
pr
eparethi
s?
Hi
m:Iaimtopl
easeyouMaBi
yel
aar
en'
tyou
i
mpressed?
Me:Iam beyondthatNtshangase.
..
sohepl ayed
NgeThandawenabyMl indof
tSashaandhesang
thelyr
icstome(am lazytowri
tethem guysGoogle
them i
fyoudon'tknowt hesong)Iwasso
i
mpr essedhegotonhi sonekneeokheal readydid
thi
sandnowokhet ookoutal i
tt
leboxandopened
i
tgoodnessIcrieditwasadi amondringwi tharai
n
dropsignsameasCar diBone
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
athi
sismesayi
ngam sor
ryandaswe
ar
eabouttobegi
nanewyearcanyoupl
easebemy
wi
feagain?
Me:
BabyIam al
readyyourwi
femoss
Hi
m:Iknow..
.(
ijustnodded)hesl
idi
tinmyhandhe
t
ookthatoneout
Him:Iwillmarryyouoverandoveragai n.
..we
l
aughedweset tl
edashewasbusyf eedingmewe
satthereashewasbusyt ellingmest oriesam sur
e
i
t'
sfairytalesbecausewowt heywereso
i
mpossi blelolhet oldmeabouthi sfutureplansand
Nodolibysamt hingsowetopl ayedheknowshowI
l
ovet hatsongsohesangi tformeIt ookavi deoof
him andpicturesofusandt hegardenpi cnicI
postedthem Idi dn'tcar
eaboutThandekat hisi
smy
momentsoweendedupmaki ngoutatt hegarden
hewasonhi sbeastmodebutheyImi ssedmyman
.

THANDEKA
.
.
SowhenIwasatwor kaboutt oknockof fIdecided
tojustscrolldownmyI nstait'
sbeenawhi l
esinceI
l
oggedi nIam notasoci ali
stsoj awhenIscr ol
led
downIsawpi cturesofmyhusbandandkhi t
ha
enjoyi
ngt hevi deosoft hem busydanci ngand
singi
ngt oeachot herthesongst hatt
heywer e
dedicat
ingt oeachot herwer edeepheevenbought
heranewr ingowwowj ustwowBandi lelookedso
happywhenhewaswi thmebi tIhavetobehonest
hewasn' tthiscomf ortablethough
Nel
:Aargmanpol
ygamyi
sshi
tri
ght
..
.shesmy
col
league
Me:Tel
lmeaboutitIam event
hinki
ngofnot
knocki
ngoutIwasn'ti
nvi
tedmosstothi
spart
yI
wouldbei
ntrudi
ng
nurse:
Soyouaregoingtoletyourhusbandenjoy
thi
scrossoverwi
thhissecondwi f
ewhi st
leyouthe
fi
rstonedr
owninginsorr
ow
Nel:
Stopbei
ngevilpleasebuttrut
histhesetwoar
e
knownaslovebirdsandyoucant ellt
hatthey
l
oveeachothersopleaseallThandekaneedstodo
i
sgetusetoitthat'
sall.
..
lolifkhit
hathi
nkshe's
smartIam smartert
henfirstsheownst he
house,
shehascont r
olovercar sandbusinessesI
needtoupmygamet oo
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
SoIgat heredmyt hingsandknockedof fat06am
anddr ovestraighttot hehousewhenIgott hereit
wasmessyt heirclot heswereonfloorIignoredthat
andwentupst airsitwassi l
entIt
hinktheyar e
asleepsoIqui cklyt ookashowerandhead
downst ai
rstocl eansi ncemotherinlawiscomi ng
forlunch,
Istartedcl eaningby10am Iheardaknock
atthedoorandIwentt oopenitwasnoneot her
thanhershe'ssobeaut if
ulguysIstanhershewas
withherdaught erPhel oshehasanat t
it
udet hisone
Me:
HappyNewYearma.
.isai
dhuggi
ngher
Her
:HappyNewYeart
oyout
oo
Me:
happyNewYearPhel
o..
Phel
o:samet
oyouWher
e'ssi
sNomi
e?
Me:
she'
supst
air
ssl
eepi
ngandxoxohow'
syah?
Xoxo:
molosisiuphimama?
<gr
eet
ingssi
swher
e's
mymot her
>
MomL:it
's10am andt
heyarest
il
lasl
eepwhatwer
e
youguysdoingl
astni
ghthuh?
Me:
Iwasatwor
kma
MomL:Butyousaidyouwil
lcomebackearl
ier
moss.
..
ijustcr
iedandshowedhert
hepict
uresand
vi
deosofthem
Me:
seeIdi
dn'
twantt
oint
rude
MomL:
Iwil
ltal
ksomesensetohi
m ok(Inodded)
so
howar
etheweddingpr
epar
ati
onsgoi
ng
Me:welltheyare..
.iwasdi
sturbedbyKhitha'
s
l
aughterasshecamei nwithBandilet
heywer e
busyplayingandt heywer
ewear ingmatching
outf
it
st heylookedsobeautif
ul
Them:HappyNewYeareveryone.
.t
heysaidhuggi
ng
Motheri
nlawwasallsmilessmhtrai
torandPhel
o
j
umpedt ohugherandxoxoNdilecameandgave
meacoldhugwowandt heywenttocheckonthe
t
wins
MomL:Youguyslookbeaut
if
ulwhat'
sthe
occasi
on?
theyl
ookedateachotherandsmi
led
Bandi
le:
MywifeandIwerei
nvit
edbyafri
endsowe
headi
ngoutandIhopeyoudon'
tmindbei
ngwith
theki
dsmom
Khi
tha:
ori
fyouguyshavepl
ansIcancal
l
MaFati
ma
MomL:Noprobl
em Iwil
lst
aywit
hthem ohhht
hat'
s
abeaut
if
ulr
ing.
.shesai
dchecki
ngitshewasal
l
smil
es
Me:
Bandi
lewear
esupposet
ogot
ocaket
ast
ing
t
odaymoss
Him:YoucangoThandekacamei scaketomeI
don'tmindhowi tt
ast
ejustgooutthereand
prepareforourweddi
ngIwillpayforever
ythi
ng.
.
Phel
o:Br
othercanIhaveyouri
Pad?Iwantt
o
Googl
esomet hi
ng
Him:
oktel
lxoxotoshowyouwher eIkeepi
t,
,
fam we
gott
oloveandleaveyounanamiasambeyekel
a
l
ezoyinganezakama<l eavemymot her
ski
ds>he
sai
dreferri
ngtothetwinstheyl
aughedandwent
outchasingeachotherwhatawow. .
.
《WEEKSAGO》
Soi nt wodaysi t'
smyweddi ngdayam soner vous
guysever yt
hingissuperbbutam j ustnervousI
guessi t
'snormalthoughsoi t'
spast9pm Ij ust
camef rom bookingaclubf ormybachel orpar t
yI
wassoexhaust edandwhenIwal kedi nthehouseI
want edt omakesomet hingt oeatbutwhenIwas
aboutt ogeti nIheardmoansandgr oanscomi ng
from theki t
chensoIdeci dedtopeepi nIsaw
KhithaandBandi lemakingoutont opoft heki t
chen
count ertheywer ehavi
ngi trawsomet hingthathe
refusedt odowi thmet heyhadt heireyeslocked
Ndil
e:fuckkhit
haIl oveyouokNgi yakut handa
nanami .
.hesai
dpoundi ngandpoundi ngherasshe
wasamoani ngmessIwentupst airsandt ooka
soothingbathIdon' tt
hinkIwilll
ovet hisIhaveto
actonsomet hingeveni fit
'sbuyingal oveporti
onI
wil
lbuyi ti
magi neyourhusbandgi vingawaysome
del
iciousdicktoanot herpersonnoIcan' tguys
.
.
KHI
TH
.
.
Umshadonamhlanj
eit
'saweddi
nghal
alaIsai
d
fi
xingmymakeup
Ti
na:
Youlookhappybabesar
eyousur
eyouar
eok
wi
ththi
s?
Me:Whywouldn'tIbemntaseal
okuaft
erthi
sweds
gi
rl
sgoingtohaveherownapartmentandthatwi
ll
beitNdil
eismineonlyt
ohave..
isai
dhummi ngto
myself
Pearl
:Gi
rli
sthatyourdr
essyouwi
lll
ookl
ikea
queen
Ti
na:
thatsheis,
,
ImeanIwouldn'tsurviveseei
ngmy
manwalkingdowntheaisl
ewithsomebodyel se.
.i
j
ustl
aughedasIf i
xedmyselfandwor emydr essI
wasfl
amesguyIpr epar
edmybabi esandLuucame
i
nourroom andTinarantohi
m andki ssedhimthey
l
ooksocut e
Luu:
khi
thayourmani
scal
li
ngyoumnt
ase.
.
Me:
Why?
Luu:
andazi<Idon'tknow>Iwalkedoutandwentt
o
wherehewashel ookedlikemoneyam jeal
oushe
huggedmesot ightandkissedme
Him:BabyyouknowthatIl
oveyouri
ghtandwhat
s
abouttohappeni
sjustanarr
angementok
Me:oknaniIunderst
andbutyoulookfl
amesam
j
ealous.
.hegi
ggledandhelaughedwekissedand
endedupmaki ngoutathi
sdressi
ngroom then
aft
erweheardaknock
Luu:
hayikal
okuit
'saboutt
imenj
ayam wehavet
o
beatourbestpr
etensesowecan'
taf
fordt
obelate
Ndi
le:
onemorer
oundwi
thmyor
igi
nalwi
fenj
ayam
t
henIwil
lcomeout
Luu:
yizi
ntobhudaIwil
lwaitf
oryouleti
tbea
qui
cki
et hen.
.wel
aughedandwedi donemoret
hen
wehelpedeachotherwearandwentout.
.
Wewerenowtthevenueit
'ssobeaut
if
ulguysi
t
wasi
ntheparksi
nceitwashotNdil
ekepton
bl
owi
ngkissesonmewhileIwasbusywithmykids
i
naaf ewMakoticamelooki
ngguysam notjeal
ous
butshewasn'
tasbeauti
full
ikeabri
desupposeto
bewellshewasgivent
oNdilesotheyst
oodthere
andthepast
orbegantheceremony
Past
or:
okwher
ear
ether
ings?
t
hebr
ide'
sli
tt
lebr
othergavet
hem t
othepast
or
Whenshewasaboutt osl
idtheringinNdil
e'
s
f
ingur
eIsweatednomaarnt hi
swassupposet obe
meIbecameemot i
onalabitandIhear dasoundof
ari
ngfal
li
ngandpeopleshoutingIlookedupNdil
e
wasdownbloodoozingonhischest
Thandeka:
hehasbeenshot
..
ohmymanIcr
ied
Me:
Nonowhathappened?Ti
nacomfor
tedmeas
Ndi
lesf
ri
endsor
der
dust ogobackt
othehot
el
r
ooms
Luu:Khi
thagowi t
hThandekaont heroom oktake
thi
sgunj usti
ncasetheytr
ytoattackyouguys..
i
noddedandwewentt otheroom Tinahadmy
babiesIwassweat i
ng
Thandeka:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
huhcansomebodyt
ell
mei
twassupposet
obeagooddayand.
..
Me:shutup!
!shutt
hefuckupThandekadidn'
tyou
knowyouwer emarryi
ngagangsterkant
i
Her
:What
?!
Me:pl
easejustl
etmethinkokmymanmightbe
dead.
.whenwewer esi
tt
ingwehear
dalouddoor
bangandamanwi thagunpoint
edatus
Hi
m:don'
tyoudar
emove.
.
Us:
wear
esor
rywedi
dn'
t.
.
Him:shutupyoubi
tches!
!Isl
owlyt
ookmygunout
caref
ull
ysowhenhewasal r
eadypoi
nti
ng
Thandeka
Her:pl
easedon'
tshootmeplease.
.shewascrying
thenishott
heman3bul l
etsdownIl etoutahuge
sigh
Her
:owthankyoukhi
that
hankyouf
orsavi
ngmeI
oweyoualot
Me:
noi
t'
sfi
ne
Her
:noi
t'
snotIt
houghtyouwer
eabadper
sonbutI
j
udgedyouwr
ongam sor
ryok.
.iwi
pedmyt
ear
s
Me:
NoIam t
heonewho'
ssor
ryThandeka
Her
:huh
Me: Thandeka(Ipointedagunstraighttoherheart
)
l
istenhereBandi leismineokhe' smi neandwena
youcomeher eandt hinkyouaregoi ngtoseparat
e
ushuh? becauseyouar ethechosenone? well
letme
tel
lyousweet sIwoul ddarewatchyouandhi m pl
ay
l
oveyDaveyi nfr
ontofmeandt hepeopl eIhat
e
beingdisrespectedlikethat
Her:
okKhi
thaIwi
lll
eavehi
m al
oneIpr
omi
sej
ust
don'
t.
.
Me:Isaidshipup!Iwantyout odieknowingthat
Ndileismynani,myhusbandandaboutt helove
porti
onyouboughtl olRESTI NPEACEsis..
ipull
eda
tr
iggerandshef el
lIrepeat
edlyshotherandwhenI
wassur eshe'sdeadItuckedthegunonmywai st
andf i
xedmydr essandscr eamed
Voi
cr:
what
'sgoi
ngon?
Me:
theyshother
..
.peopl
ecamei
nther
oom and
par
amedicscameinherfami
lyt
oot
heyf
elther
pul
seanditwasn'
tbeat
ing
Paramedic:Iam sorrywelosther
..
.t
hecriesofher
famil
yespeci al
lyhermotherwentstr
aighttomy
heartIf
eltbadbuti thadt
ohappennobodyi sever
goingtothreatenmymar ri
ageLuucamet ocomfor
t
measIwascr ying
Luu:
Youar
eabeastr
haaa.
.
Me:
Ifeelbadhow'
smyhusband
Luu:he'
sawakebutIorder
edNelt
oinj
ecthi
m and
takehimtot
hehospital
Me:
okmnt
aseenkosi<si
bli
ngt
hankyou>
Theycamet ocomfor
tmeandsaidIshoul
dseea
ther
apistImi
ghtbedepr
essedaboutt
hisl
it
tl
edi
d
theyknow

RI
PTHANDEKAZULU
CHAPTERFORTY-
ONE
.
.
Theywerebusychecki
ngt
hepl
aceandThandeka'
s
fat
hercametome
Him:socanyout el
lmewhathappenedbecauset he
manwhoyousai dshotmydaught eri
sdownI
meant heyarebot hdeadandyouar etheonlyone
whodoesn' thaveascr at
cheventellmesoIcan
understand..
.di
ngdi ngdi
ngkhit
hat hi
nkfastIj
ust
snif
fedandt hatwasbuyi ngmetimet ot
hinkandhe
keptont el
li
ngmet ospeak
Me:WhenIheardgunshotsIhidmyselfi
nthe
wardrobeandIheardThandiscr
eamingso
basi
callysheal
sohadagunonhert heywere
shooti
ngeachothersoIguessthey.
..
Luucame
huggedmeandr ubbedmyback
Luu:
Ithi
nkyoumustlethercal
m downf
ir
stImean
she'
snotthi
nki
ngst
raightl
oolather
Him:okbutyouhavetounder
standthatIneed
answerstoobutIwi
llfi
ndwhathappenedhereIwi
ll
notrest
..
iwasnowaf r
aid
Me:
Ifeelbadyouknowi
..
.
Luu:
shhhhhhr
elaxwegott
hisSbuhackedi
ntot
he
camerasandi ft
heytryt
opi nyouwi t
hsomet hi
ng
anddecidetotakealegalacti
onthat'
ssmal lwater
s
tomeidon'tloosecasesanywayl etmetakeyou
home..
inoddedandhedr ovemet omypl acewe
huggedandIwhenIgoti nsidethehouseNdi l
e's
mothercameandhuggedme
Her
:awunt
ombazanauRi
ghtkodwa?
Me:
iguessIwi
llbe.
.isai
dshr
uggi
ngmyshoul
der
s
MaFati
ma:Justgoupst
air
stakeashoweriwil
l
br
ingyousomethingt
oeatyouneedtorestmakot
i
Ndi l
e'sMa: YesIagr eewi t
hheryouneedsome
rest..
inoddedandwentupst airsIundressedand
putt hegunont hedr awerasIt ookashowerand
alltheevent st
hathappenedt odaycamer unningin
mymi ndandi thittomet hatIki l
ledahumanIcr i
ed
iwasf ulloffear,
traumast art
edki cki
nginbutIhave
tobest rongbecausewhat 'sdonei sdoneIf i
nished
anddr iedmyselfandwentt ot hebedroom wi t
hjust
at owelwr appedar oundmeiwaswear ingNdile'
s
bigsl i
desIl ookedl ikeaPopeyeandwhenIgoti n
therehewassi t
ti
ngont opoft hechairthatwas
nearami
rr
orbef
oreicoul
dsayanyt
hing
Hi
m:Whydi
dyoudoi
t?
Me:Whatareyoutal
kingabout
?IaskedasIt
ookt
he
t
raythatwasbroughtbyMaFati
maiguessanddag
i
n
Hi
m:Don'tf
uckwit
hmeKhithaiknowiti
syouwho
di
sthatnowtel
lmether
easonbehindit
Me:Bandi
ledonotshoutatmeokpl
easej
ust
don'
t.
.hegavemeashar plook
Hi
m:am l
osi
ngmypat
ienceNomkhi
tha.
.
Me:
..
.
Hi
m:Nomkhi
thaIam.
..
Me:Bandil
eareyouslowbychoiceorthat
'show
youare?Imeananewbor nbabycanconnectthe
dotsbutyouarebusyaski
ngmeshi t
..
heroughly
grabbedmyarm andIbumpedintohischestandhe
squeezedmyarmi twaspai
nful
Me:Bandil
eyouar ehur
ti
ngmei fyouwant
somebodyt otakeoutt
heanger,
sadnessor
whateveraboutyourl
atebel
ovedwifepl
easel
eti
t
benotmeIwantpeace.
.hel
ookedatmef
orawhi
le
moreli
ker
eadi
ngmyf ace
Him:
Nomkhit
hauyangi
jwayel
ahuh?iwi
llsl
apt hi
s
newsti
nki
ngatt
it
udeyouhaveuyangi
zwa?!Isnif
fed
Me:
butit'
syouBandi l
eit'
sallyourf
ault,
yout
urned
meintosomebodyt hatIam notandyouhaveagut
t
otell
met hatIhaveast inki
ngatti
tudeand.
.and.
..
i
wascryi
nginbetween
Him:okmaybeIwast oomucham sor r
ybutIjust
gotfrustr
atedokIhadabetterplantotakeherout
ofourlivesitdi
dn'ti
ncl
udekil
li
ngherbutyou
MaBiyelachoset oactonmybehal f
Me:
Iwasn'tgoingtosi
tandwatchmymarri
age
f
adejustl
ikethatnoIr
efuse.
.heki
ssedme
Him:Itwasn'tgoi
ngtofadet
houghyi
nii
haba
<exaggerat
ion>Ichuckl
ed
Me:
Butl
ookedl
ikei
twast
ome
Him:soyoupull
edallt
hatbyyour
sel
f?(
I
nodded)YoohImustwatchmymovesbavi
nga
gangsterwif
emustbescary
Me:Am sureyouhavelear
ntal
essonthatwhenever
youthinkofdoubl
ecrossi
ngmejustknowyouare
put
tingthatgi
rl
sli
fei
ndanger
Hi
m:saywhat
?!
Me:YesbabykalokuyousaidifIevercheatonyou
andyouf i
ndoutyouaregoingtoki l
ltheguyandi
fI
everthi
nkofleavi
ngyouwenayouar egoingto
makemedi gmyowngr aveandkillmet hensame
appli
estoyouke..
helaughedhisassout
Hi
m:Nanamii
sthatat
hreat
?
Me:
noi
t'
sapr
omi
seorawar
ningr
ather
..
Him:okkesthandwasami Igetitjustknowthatyou
andmear est ucktoget
her(
hekissedme)andihave
tofi
nishoffthejobthatyoustartedtheMabuzaand
ZuluMenwontr estunt
ilt
heyfindoutwhoki ll
ed
thei
rdaughtersoimustcomeoutwi thaplan
Me:
Naniidi
dn'
tthi
nkoft
hatyouknow?
Him:
notaprobl
em nanami..
hesai
ddenuding
hi
mselfwhenhewasbuttnakedhefi
rstl
ydrankthe
pai
nkil
ler
sandgotundercover
sandIjoi
nedhim
Me:
how'
sthewoundnani
?
Hi
m:I
tspai
ningbutnott
oomuch
Me:
okwhatcanIdot
omakei
theal
Hi
m:Idon'
tknow,
what
'si
nyourmi
ndDoct
or?
Me: Hambaf acebook<yougo>wel list art
edkissing
him andt raveledmyhandsf r
om hisupperbodyt il
lI
reachedt heabsandhi sV- l
ineaf t
ert hatIkissedhis
neckIhear dhisbr eathingpat t
ernsi ncreasingthenI
brushedhi snowr egainingmanhoodhesl i
ghtly
groanedandIgotont opofhi m andsuckedhi s
nipplesIhaver ead( r
ed)somewher et hatsuckinga
man' snippleisagoodt urnonandIf oundoutby
myownsel fashewasbusypoundi ngi nmyhand
oozingpr e-cum Ilickedhi sabsandwentdownon
him Isuckedt heheadf i
rstandhewasnowcal li
ng
mynameandhegothi shandi nmyheadhewant s
met osucki tallwellIjustsuckedt het i
pandused
myot herhandt omassagehi sbal l
st henIspi t
ted
onhi sdickandwat chedmysal ivagoi ngdownoni t
Ilookedathi m hiseyeswer efulloflustt hengot
himi nsidemymout hevent houghi twasn' tful
lyin
becausei tshugeIt rytotakeal lofhi m butheyI
don' twantt ochokemysel fwel lImassagedhi s
visiblevei nsbymyt aungehewasswear ingandI
suckedhi m andIusedmyot herhandt ocovert he
otherpar tofhi sdickandIsuckedhi m hewas
sur r
ender inghi ssoult omeanddr ovehi m wayt oo
crazywhenIdeept hroathim andnowIwast ir
edi
l
ef thisdi ckandsuckedt hebal lsandhandj obthe
chockmymanwaspl easur edaf t
erthehecr azil
y
cameandi tdi dn'tl
osei t
'sst r
engt handt hatgave
met hechancet ogetont opofhi m andr odehi mI
fi
rstlygoti tallinsideofmeIf elti
tinmyst omach
andIl eanedf orwar dsoIcanr i
det hisanacondaI
startedbybounci ngsl owlyhi shandswer eonmy
assandIi ncr easedt hepacebi tbybi tandigr i
nded
andr odehi sdearl if
emengot tarespectust henwe
bot hcameaf tert hatIwentt ositonhi sfacesohe
coul deatmeandhegothi stwohandsonmy
thighsandpr essedmet ohi m goshheat emeI
cameandheswi tchedposi ti
onssonowmyback
wasatt heheadboar dandmyl egswer eonhi s
shoul derscl oset omi nethought hispositiongotme
pregnantFat herGodr emi ndmeoft hemor ning
afterpil
lheenteredmesl owlysoandwhenhewas
full
yinmanowmanIwasf uckedhepoundedme
fasterandfasterandcamei nsideofmet henhe
layedmeont hescissorpositi
onandst i
llf
uckedme
iwasshaki ngshitandwhenIwasaboutt ocum he
mademekneeloki t'
sdoggynowIwast iredbutI
hadt ogiveittomyhusbandandhepoundedme
fasterti
llwebothcameandwewer ebothsweaty
Wej ustcoll
apsedandsl eptinthatposit
ion
Him:Youhavetobearr
estedhowcanyouabusea
pati
entl
iket
his.
.(
wefaint
lyl
aughed)I
yakut
handa
i
ndoda<yourmanlovesyou>haike
.
.
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
《2DAYSLATER》
.
.
Soit'
sTuesdaytodayandI
'vegotaworkshopt
o
att
endandaboutwhathappenedweekendthe
famil
ieswentbackhometoprepar
eforthe
funeral,
soIroll
edoutofbedandicheckedt hetime
i
twas05: 30okIstil
lhavet imeIwentt ot
he
bathroom anddi dmyhygei nprocessIwentt odo
mymake- upandIwentt othecl osettopi
ckon
somet hingtowearsoIwentf oranavyblackdr ess
thathugsandr evealmybody, Iwor emynude
colourpeep-toehil
lsItookmyGuccihandbag, l
ap
topbagandmyhusband' sAMG63keysIwentt o
kisshim ashewasst i
llsleeping,andwhenIt ri
ed
walkingawayhesl ightlypulledmeIsatnextt ohi m
ashewasr ubbinghiseyesandhi sli
pscurvedinto
agenui nesmi l
ewhenhi seyesmetmi ne
Hi
m:al
readygoi
ngt
owor
kMaBi
yel
a?
Me:
Yesbabyandi
t'
sgoi
ngt
obeabusyday.
.
Him:
areyouinagoodst
atet
houghIcancal
l
Lwandl
etotakecar
eoft
hatand.
.
Me:Iknowyoucarealotaboutmebabybutt
rustme
whenIsayIam ok..
.hefrowned
Hi
m: oksoareyour
eal
lygoi
ngwi
thoutget
ti
nga
morninggl
ory?
Me:
Nomycoochi
eisbur
ningbaby,
i
tneedt
o
r
est
..
.hel
aughed
Him:
wowyouwer el
uckythatIwasst
il
lasl
eep
whenyouwokeupother
wiseyouwouldbehavinga
newwalknow.
..
Me:soyoudounder standmewhenIsayyouar e
paralyzingme,whenyouf ucki
nsteadofmake
l
ove...istoodupandf i
xedmyselfhealsorol
ledout
ofbedandwor ehisjoggerpantandsl
ideshet ook
mybagsandescor tedmeoutashewaswal king
behindmebusyspanki ngmyass
Me:
ouchbabyyouhur
ti
ngme.
.
Him:It
sjustaf
ewslapsbabydon'
ttel
lmeam
hurt
ingyouwit
hthatroundf
atass.
.ij
ustgi
ggl
ed
andshookmyhead
Hi
m:ar
eyounothavi
ngbr
eakf
ast
?
Me:noIdon'
twanttobel at
ebecauseourbabi esare
goi
ngtodemandmyat t
ent
ionespecialuXoxo.
..he
noddedandhewentt oopent hebootandloadedin
mybagsheclosedi tandwewentt othedri
ver
s
si
deandhepinnedmeont hedoorandhedr y
humpedmef rom behindIcouldfeelhiser
ecti
on
andi
ttur
nedmeonbutIhadt
oactl
ikeIwasn'
t
Hi
m:haveagooddayMaBiyel
a..
hesai
dthat
pr
essi
ngitmorehar
dernow
Me:
..
.
Him:yi
niawusakwaziukukhul
uma? <whati
sitare
youmut e>whenIwasaboutt ospeaknowords
camefrom mymout hitwasjustamoanhel aughed
atmemyGodIf eelbet
rayedheopenedthedoor
andspankedmyasssever alt
imesandIwenti nwe
ki
ssedbef or
ecl
osingthedoor
Me:ndiyakut
handanani<Iloveyou>owyou
coul
d'veseenhim bl
ushingIlaughedanddr
ove
away
.
.
It
'sal
readymid-
dayandIam atmyoffi
ceIjust
camef r
om t
heworkshopIheardaknockandmy
PApeepedhisheadin
Her:
Areyoubusymadam?
someonei
sher
etosee
you
Me:
noIam j
ustt
ir
ed,
who'
sthatsomeone?
Her:
apol
iceof
fi
cer
..
.mypal
mssweat
edIr
anoutof
br
eathamin
Me:ohhlethi
mi n..
MyGodwher e'
sNdi
lewhenI
needhim,t
hepoliceoff
icercameinweshookhands
andItol
dhi mtositdownhet hankedmeandsat
Him:soMrsBi
yelayousayyouwerewitht
heLate
ThandekaZul
uinthesameroom whenshedied
andyousayshewasshotbyamanwhoal sowas
deadandwasshotwith3bull
ets,
wher
ewer eyoual
l
al
ong?
Me:Iam sur
eyouhear
dthewhol
est
orysi
rsowhy
ar
eyouaskingmethesamedamnquest
ions?
Hi
m:Ij
ustwanttoknowandbesidesyoursi
ster
wi
feneedj
usti
cedon'tyout
hink?
Me:
Ido.
..
Him:Youneedtohel
pmetothi
sIknowyouknow
somethi
ngplusyouhat
edherever
ybodyknows
that
Me:
Iwasn'tsupposet
olovehermossorwasi ta
must
?li
stenhereMroff
icerThandekahadagunon
herokandIwasnotar medsoshet ol
dmet ogo
andhideandidi dionlycameoutofthewardr
obe
whenIhear dherscreamingandwhenIgotoutthey
werebot hdown,sowenaasapol i
ceyouneedtogo
outthereandfindoutwhathappenedmaybethere
wasal sosomeonewhowedi dn'
tseemaybeI
becauseunfortunat
elytheoneswhoIthi
nksaw
him/heraredeadsopl easeguysst
opharassi
ngme
Iam depressedenoughaboutwhatIsaw
Him:Iam sorryMr sBiyel
abutyouhavet o
understandthatIam doingmyjobbutIt hinkyou
haveapoi nttheremustbeat hi
rdhandint hisIwil
l
domyr esearchandthankyouforyourtime...
when
hestoodupt hedooropenedandNdi l
ecamei n
carr
yingat akeawaybagIguesshebr oughtme
l
unchbuthewasont hephoneandqui cklydropped
thecallwhenhesawt hepol
iceoff
icer
Ndi
le:
Mokoena.
.
Hi
m:Bi
yel
a..
Ndil
e:canyouguysst
ophar
assi
ngmywi f
eandgo
outt
her eandmanhuntf
ort
hisper
sonorifyou
can'
tfi
ndhi
m Iwil
ltakeoveri
t'
scl
earthatt
heyar
e
payi
ngyouforj
ustsati
fyi
ngpaper
s..
Hi
m:Iwil
lfi
ndhi
m si
rdon'
twor
ry.
.henoddedand
wentout
Ndi
le:
areyouokNanami
?
Me:
YesIam naniIj
ustneedsomedest
ruct
ion
t
hough
Hi
m:l
ike?
??
Me:
a15mi
nut
esr
oughqui
cki
ejustt
ocl
earmy
mi
nd..
Him:saynomor
e..
hewentt
olockthedoorand
rushedtomeandmanIwasfuckeditwasn'
tevena
quicki
e
Me:wowIthinkIwi
llneedawheel
chai
r.
.hel
aughed
andhisphonerang
Hi
m:Nj
ayam.
.
?
?..
..
Him:wadl
alanyambose.
hewor
ehi
scl
othesand
hel
pedmewi thmydress
?
?..
Hi
m:sendmet
hel
ocat
ionIwi
llbet
her
eok?
?
?..
.
Hi
m:oksur
ehedi
sconnect
edt
hecal
l
Me:whowasthat
?hehuggedmeandsqueezedmy
assandpr
essedmetohischestanddi
ck
Him:
Youwil
lfi
ndoutsoon,
sor
ryyouar
egoingt
o
eatl
unchal
oneIhavet
obounce.
..
hewentout
CHAPTERFORTY-
TWO
.
.
Soit's5pm andIam onmywayhomeandt he
tr
afficishecticEishij ustmi ssmybabi esguys
yoo..soIwashel dupandgoti ntomypl aceat7pm
i
magi neAargJobur g,soIdr ovei nmyyar dand
automat i
cal
lythegar aget hathasspaceopensand
Idrovest rai
ghttoi tpar kmycarandt ookmybagsI
draggedmyt ir
edsel finsidet hehousebutwhenI
gotinsi deeverybodywasont helaunge
Ndile,MaFatima,xoxoandt het winswereont hei
r
pram t heywereal llookinggoodok. .
Me:
Eveni
ngf
ami
ly
Them:
Eveni
ng
Me:oknababahl
ekangakaniyaphi<youal
llook
beaut
if
ulwhereareyouheadingto>
Ndile:
Nanamij
ustgoandfr
eshenupyoulookli
kea
ghostwegoingtotheBi
yel
arest
aur
antf
oraf amil
y
Dinner
Me:
Famil
ydinnerbutam t
ir
edt
hough.
.Ndi
lepul
l
ed
meandIstoodnextt
ohim
Ndile:
Icanhel pyout akeashoweri fthatisa
problem..hesaidashegothi shandi nbetweenmy
thi
ghsbr ushingt hem andhebi thislowerl i
p
MaFat i
macl earedhert hroatbecauset hi
swas
abouttobeheat edIlaughedandIqui ckl
yjogged
upstair
sleavingNdi leshyhecoul dn'tevenl ook
MaFat i
mai nt heeyewhatwashedoi ngsoIt ooka
10mi nshowerandIdr i
edmysel fandl oti
onedI
wentt otheclosetandIt ookal ongsummerdr ess
thatshowsmycl eavageandIal sowor emyL. V
sli
ndesidi dn'
tappl yanymake- upIj ustcombmy
hairandIusedvasel ineformyl i
psIt ookmysl ing
bagandphoneiwentdownst
air
sandNdi
leand
Xoxower
ewatchi
ngtv
MaFati
ma:Wazewamuhlemamabo<youl
ook
beaut
if
ult
hei
rmother
>Iblushed
Ndil
e:ohhyoudone?(ij
ustgavehi m afaintst
are)
youalwaystakeyourtimenjehawusowewentout
wewer eri
dingonhisLambor ghinizur
uwegoti n
hisrest
aurantandi
twaspackedawai tress
welcomeduswi thabiggestsmi l
eonherf ace,
she
welcomedusandshedi r
ectedust oanempt ytable
soweset t
ledandordedourf avouri
temeal
Me:areyoual
waysthi
sniceandwel comi
ngorit'
s
becausewearewit
hyourbiggestboss?shesl
ightl
y
gi
ggled
Her:
weal
waysdomam.
..
shesai
dbowi
ngherhead
andsmi
li
ng
Me:
areyoushowingr
espectorf
li
rt
ingmy
man?Ndi
lel
ookedatme
Ndi
le:
hawuNanami
..
hegavemeaf
aintl
ook
Me:
Hai
bondi
yazi
ncokol
elamna<am j
ust
j
oki
ng>t
hankyousi
skeepupt
hegoodser
vice
Her:
It
snoprobl
em mam Iwil
l.
..
shecont
inuedwi
th
herj
obleavi
ngusent
ert
ainedbyXoxoandhisdad
thet
winswerebusyf
eedingwit
hthei
rfi
ts
Me:
Bebekhebat
hieatkodwa?
<di
dthey>
MaFitama:Youknowyourki dsmakotii
zidl
akudla
ezi<theyli
keeati
ng>wel aughedIt
ookoutt hei
r
puri
ti
est heonesthatar
esqueezedintoabowland
Icall
edawai tr
essshecame
Me:
canyoupl
easegot
otheki
tchenandwar
m
t
hesef
orme?
Her
:am af
rai
dthati
snotpar
tofmyjobdescri
pti
on
mam..
shwsaidchewinghi
sbubbl
egum haibo
Me:Idon'trememberaski
ngyouaboutyourjobI
saidIneedt hesewar
m soifyourespectt
hejob
thatpaysyouyoushouldbei nt
heki t
chennow
warmingt hesemybabiesarehungry..
.
Ndil
e:Wher
e'sMrMashaba?
shebl
ewherchappi
es
androughl
ychewedi
t
Her
:l
etmegoandcal
lhi
m..
Ndi
le:
nof
orgetit(
hepressedhi
sphoneandcal
led
hi
m hecamer unni
ng)
Hi
m:Thebi
gboss.
.t
hewasshocked
Ndil
e:canyoupl
easeshowhertheexitpl
easeI
don'
twanttoseeheri
nmyr est
aurantagainpeople
Idon'
tdowellwit
hpeoplewi
thsti
nkingatt
itudes
Her
:NoIdi
dn'
tknowt
hatyouwer
ethebossand.
..
Ndil
e:t
akeheroutandst
opbeggi
ngyouar
edr
awi
ng
at
tenti
ontoussogo
Me:
butbabeyoucan.
..
hegavemeashar
plook
Ndi
le:
MaBi
yel
a
Me:Nothi
ng..ical
ledt
hewait
ertowarm upmy
babiespuri
ti
esbecausewhenBandil
eBi yelahas
spokenit
'sfi
nalyoo..
soweweredoneeat ingand
ourdessert
ssowewer eonourwayhomenow
Me:babyhaveyounot
icedt
hebl
ackj
eept
hathas
beenfol
lowi
ngus?
Him:YesIdi
dandIhavebeent
ryi
ngto.
.hedi
dn't
evenfini
shspeaki
ngwhenwehear
dgunshots
Me:
shi
t!
!!
Bandi
le.
.iscr
eamedhedr
ovefast
erand
t
heyst
art
edshootingowGodmybabies
Him:Stopswear
ingMaBi
yelaandopenunderyour
seatther
earegunsi
nther
eIdidandItookoneand
gaveittohi
m
Him:gi
vemeoneandt
akeoneandmakesur
eyou
shoott
hedr
iverok
Me:
whatt
hef
uckBandi
le?
noIcan'
tand.
..
Him:shutthefuckupandst opswear ingdowhatI
sayyoumustdook. .
.heshout edatmet heydidn'
t
stopshootingmykidswer ecr yingandMaFat i
ma
wascover i
ngthem busypr ayingthankst othe
bull
etproofedwindowssoIsawNdi leshoot i
ngand
whenIl ookedtothecarit
'sonaut omaticnowokI
don'thavethegutstodothi snotinfrontof
MaFat i
mabutIgotnochoi ceIopenedt hewindow
andIf i
redthr
eetimesandIscr eamed
Ndil
e:Goodjobnowt heyhavel ostbot
htheirdr
iver
s
andnowwehavet odr i
vetoTembi sasowecan
destr
uctthem hedrovefasterandwegott othe
townshipbutt
heyfollowedussohecal l
edwhoever
t
ocomeandt
akecar
eoft
hepeopl
efol
lowi
ngus
Me:
Bandi
lewhati
fthey.
.
Him:St
opnaggi
ngmeMaBiyel
aIneedtot
hinkokI
needtofi
ndoutwho'
smessi
ngupwithmeshit
!!
Me:
Youar
eswear
ing
Hi
m:Ungangi
jwayel
iwena.
.wow
.
.
TI
NA
.
.
It
's10pm andam wi
ldawakedoingnot
hingbut
hungryandcravi
ngforsomet
hingmeatyandIam
l
azyt ocooksoIcal
l
edLuujusttocl
earmymi ndhe
pickedonthefor
thr
ing
Me:ohsoyouar
edonewi
thyourl
astr
oundhow
ni
ce?
Him:
babyit
'sj
ustpast10pm andyouknowiwasin
cour
tthewhol
edaysoi sn'
tobvi
ousthatam t
ir
e?
Me:
LuuIam hungryandam cravi
ngforsomet
hing
meat
yandIdon'thaveanygrocer
y..
Him:Yoohuzot hinikengoku?<whatareyougoi ngt o
donow>whenIwasaboutt oanswerhim Ihadan
arguet ovomitandIqui cklywenttothebathroom
tovomi tIhavebeennauseasf ort
hepastf ewdaysI
don'tknowwhywhenIwasdoneIsatont het oil
et
stool t
ocatchmybr eat
hIhat evomit
ingitfeelsli
ke
mywhol eoasophogus,throat,
andeveryt
hing
l
ocat edinmyneckar eabouttocomeoutsoi t'snot
niceaf t
er30mi norsoIhear daknockatt hedoor
andt hedooropens
Luu:
babywhereareyouat?
hekeptknocki
ngto
eachandever
ydoorIwenttot
hebedroom and
wait
edforhi
m
me:
soyoudon'
tknowmybedr
oom now?
Him:mxm uyaqhel
awenasowhat '
swasgoingon
hereIhear
dyou...
.aaargwhatthat
'ssmel
lIqui
ckl
y
ret
urnedtothebathroom andIvomit
edaagainhe
cameandr ubbedmyback
Luu:
areyouokbaby?
Me:
Luuwhathaveyougoti
ntot
hatpl
ast
ic?
Hi
m:I
tsmeatwhy?
Me:
Inwhi
chdustbi
ndi
dyoupi
cki
tfr
om?
Hi
m;saywhat?!
uthet
hangant
on?
!<whatar
eyou
t
alki
ngabout
>
Me:i
bolil
ecan'
tyousmelli
tit
'sr
ottenIdon'
twantitI
wi
llorderpi
zzanotaket
hatoutside..
isai
dcover
ing
mynose
Him:yooohzandaxakwamf ondinIboughtt
hismeat
now,onourf avouriteshisanyamahowdoyou
meani t
'sr
ot ten<Ihaveneverbeenamazed>imi zed
him andwentst r
aighttothekit
chenItookout
peanutbutter,j
am andMel r
oseItookoutbr
eadand
star
tedspreadi ngLuuwentt ot
hrowthemeatoutto
thedustbi
nandcameback
Hi
m:andt
hen?
Me:
Yint
onngoku?
<whati
sitnow>
Hi
m:Babyar
eyoupregnant?myworl
dst
oppedabi
t
whenl
astdi
diseemyper i
odsand.
..
Hi
m:ndyabuza<am aski
ng>
Me:Nowhy?
..it
ri
edconvi
nci
ngmysel
fthatnoam
not
Him:babyhaveyounot i
cedhowgrownyourbr east
are,
thecolourofyoureyesImeantheyar epure
whiteandwher etheresblacki
t'
sblackbabyletme
feelyourstomach..
isteppedawayfrom hi
m
Me; areyouadoct ornangokuLukhanyo?sincewhen
mf ondinifyouar enotgoingtomakel ovet ome
i
nst eadofquest ioningmemanmakeyour sel
f
comf ortableatthecouchandgoodni ght.
.hethrew
hishandsi nt heairasasignofsurrenderi
ngandhe
camet okissmebutmymi ndwason
'
Areyoupr
egnant
?'
GodIbett
erbenotnoIam notr
eadyt
obeamot
her
agai
n..
.

Ther
emi ghtbeerr
orsbutIl
ovebei
ngcor
rect
ednot
bei
ngjudgedthankyou
LOVEANDLI
GHT
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
KHI
THA
Wegottot
hehouseaft
er11pm t
heshookin
MaFat
imaandXoxo'
seyeswasoutofthi
sworl
d
Her
:Iwi
llgot
omyspacegoodni
ght
Ndi
le:
am sor
ryyouhavet
oexper
iencet
hatma
Her :
It
sokIneedt orest.
.hewal kedoutItookmy
xoxosi ncedaddywashol dingbot hhiski
dsIr an
him abat handIgavehi m aPanadoIsanghi m his
favourit
el ull
abyandwentst raighttomybat hroom
andNdi l
ewasl oti
oningthet wi
nsohhehasbat hen
them,wel lIwentt otheensui t
eanddi dmyhygei n
processgotdr essedwi t
hmypi jamasandwent
strai
ghtt obedandBandi l
ewasi ntheshowerhe
gotbackanddr iedhimselfandhecamet obedbut t
nakedt hat'swhathedoeshesl eepsnakedal lthe
ti
meandhi sphoner ang
Hi
m:Mj
akes?
?..
Mj
akes.
..
Hi
m:It
slatenowIcan'tl
eavemyfamil
ynotaf
ter
whathappenedear
li
ersopleasemakesur
eyoukil
l
al
loft
hem andIwil
lhavetospeakt
othoseMabuza
cowar
dssurel
ytheydon'
tknowme
Mj
akes:
..
.
Hi
m: i
fIdri
vether
etommorowandf i
ndthem al
ive
manyoubet t
erbeingoodbookswithJesus
ot
herwiseyougoingst
rai
ghtt
ohellyougetwhat
am sayi
ng
Mj
akes:
..
..
.
Hi
m:Nazoke<t
her
ewego>
hethr
ewhi sphoneonhi
ssi
dedrawerandshi
ft
ed
sohecouldbenexttomehebr
ushedmyassand
sl
ight
lysqueezedi
t
Me:
canIpl
easehaveapeacef
ulni
ghtsl
eep?
Hi
m:Soyouaregoi
ngt
osl
eepwhi
leyouar
emadat
meMaBiyel
a?
Me:
..
.
Him:i
fthat
'
swhatyouwantt hen'yonk'
i
nto
oyi
funayomayenzuwe'
(hesangthispart)uyi
bhoza
angi
showena<everyt
hingthatyouwantmustbe
doneyouareabossisn'
tit
>
Me.
..
Hekissedmyneckandcuppedmyboobsandhe
pr
essedhisdi
ckinmyassandwesleptl
iket
hat
.
.
MorningcameandwhenIwokeupmybabi eswere
busyhavingaseriousconversati
onwi t
ht heirbaby
tal
ksandItookavi deoofthem andpost edonI nst
a
capti
on'sot
heirdaddyhasbat henthem andf ed
them nowtheyarer eadyf
orthedaysemnandiI
wonderwhatar etheyeventalki
ng#Twi nGoal s
sbwl'andputmyphonedownpr epar
ed
CHAPTERFORTY-
THREE
.
.
WhenIwasdoneIt ooktheTwinsdownstair
sand
wenttotheki
tchenandIgotanotereads'
idrove
xoxotoschoolandyourbr
eakf
astisinthewar mer
haveagooddayMaBi yel
a ' Itookthenoteteared
i
tandt hr
ewitonthedir
tybi
naftert
hatItookmy
breakf
astandatemhhhmyhusbandshoul d've
beenachefyaziwhenIwasbusyeat i
ngMaFat ima
gotin
Her
:Mor
ningMakot
iwher
e'sxoxo?
Me:MorningMahewentt oschoolhi
sf at
herdr
ove
him.
.shenoddedsoIqui ckl
ytookthefood
cont
ainerandputmyf oodinbecauseIwas
avoi
dingthequest
ionsthatIwillbeaskedandIam
notr
eadyf ort
hat
Her
:Noyoucansi
tmakot
iIwi
llst
artcl
eani
ngatt
he
l
aunge
Me:
NoIwi l
lfi
nisheati
ngattheoff
iceIhaveto
r
ush..
iwenttokissmybabiesgoodbyeandIdrove
t
otheoffi
cewheni twasLunchTinacamet ovi
sit
meshelookedsowor kedupIhuggedherand
wel
comedhersheset tl
eddown
Me:Youdon'
tlookf
inemnt
asewhati
sitt
hat
's
bot
heri
ngyou?
Her
:It
hinkam pr
egnantagai
n..
wai
twhat
Me:Pr
egnantwowcongr atul
ati
onsbabeswhyar en'
t
younothappy?waityousaidsomethi
ngabout
agai
nwhatdoyouhaveachi ld?shej
ustcri
edI
wenttocomfortherandIgaveherwatertodri
nk
shefi
nishedt
hem justi
nonegul p
Me:
akuyoshotl
e<t
hisi
snot
>wel
aughed
Her:wel
lkhit
hathethingisUmmmhIwaspr egnant
beforenotoncebuttwiceonthefirstpregnancyI
wasi nhi
ghschoolandIdi dabort
ionandont he
secondoneImi scar
ri
edt hebabyand. .
.shecried
Me:am sor
rymntaselet
'sprayt
hisonesur
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al
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eswere
rape..
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Saywhat
?!shenodded
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orabout
yearsItol
dmymot herbutshecoul
dn'
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ieveme
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vedwit
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cousin
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herapi
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rom herTi
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oughcookie
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rom?Idon'
t
wanttobeamot
herkhi
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usewhati
fi
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ctomychi
ldwhati
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.
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mesoyouneed
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otIhaveseenhi m wi
th
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i
mydearHusbanddeci dedtodisturbus
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mingyazi
<arr
gyoudon't
have>helaughedadTi
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carkeyshewalkedout
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dgetusedi
nbeingvi
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si
tt
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icechai
r
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m:Ididn'
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hismor
ningsodoyoubl
ame
meforcoming?
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uat
ionwit
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downandstret
chedhisar
ms
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hinkt
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mati
onaboutThandekasfatherso
i
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hmei tmightbeover
forhi
m
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howdoyoumean?
Hi
m:st
oryforanotherdayMaBi
yel
angi
lambi
le
mi
na<Iam hungry>
Me:
ButIam att
heof
fi
cewor
kingmoss
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hungry.
.soIstoodupandwentt obuyhi mfoodat
therest
aurantthatwasonthegr oundf
loorandwent
backtomyof ficeaft
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Hi
m:Thatwasf
ast
..
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dtaki
ngthef
oodand
i
ndul
gingmymanandfoodi
nabout10minut
eshe
wasdoneok
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coveredwithgravyAar gmenandbei
ngbabi
edI
tookmywi pesandcl eanedhi
m
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y
died>soangiyi
thol
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e<Iam not
getti
ngpussytoday>hai boIl
aughedathowhe
call
edit
Me:
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dn'
tnotaskf
ori
tmoss
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
angi
cel
aigqe<canIhavei
tpl
ease>
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Kengokuwhat'
switht
hatl
anguage?
<sonow>
hej
ustl
aughedbefor
eatt
acki
ngme

TI
NA
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vousonhowIshouldtellLuuaboutt
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ImeanhecanbejudgyIknowhim,t
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lpant i
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i
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notIthinkthat '
sit,
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heiswor ki
ngf r
om homet odaywhenIgott o
parkwoodsur bubstheyl etmei ncozt heyknowme
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evenknockhewasbusycooki ngatt hekit
chen
Me:mmmhi tsmel
lsnicei
nher
e..
isai
dhuggi
nghim
fr
om behi
ndandrest
ingmyheadonhisbackhe
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Hi
m:Youknowam agoodcookmossbaby.
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hingt
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m
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m:thi
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he
st
ovesowecouldsi
tdieandtalk.
.sowewentt
othe
l
aunge
Me:LukhanyoIam pregnant..
hejustlookedatme
wit
hnoemot ionforami nute'Lukhanyodidyou
hearwhatIsaid'
hejuststoodupandhuggedme
andkissedmeIjustcried
Him:babyandwhyareyoucryi
ngnow?Itol
dhim
thewholestor
yaboutmypregnanci
esandhowI
gotpregnant
Hi
m:andyoujustdi
dn'
tbot
heryour
sel
fbyt
ell
ingme
Ti
na.
.hesai
dshouti
ngatme
Me:
Ithoughtyouwoul
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.
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Inodded)
wowIcan't
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ieveyouTi
nasot hat
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ryachi
ldbaby.
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comfort
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hatImis-
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al
sonotr eadyt
otalkaboutitt
oo.
.
Hi
m:weareinthi
stoget
herok(
Inodded)
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yakut
handaMadlomouyeva<Iloveyou>I
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ushed
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art
..
.
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m:Bi
yel
aomncane<j
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or>hej
ustbuggedi
n
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and
i
t'
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tdown..
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leddown
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m:Soyoudeci
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o
godownBi
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ed
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areyoual
sor
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l
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arespect edmayorofManzi mt otiandhehasbeen
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nessest hathedoeswi t
hhi s
fel
lowf ami l
ymember shismout hwashangi ng
Me:whatdoyouhaveonme?oryouwantust
ocuta
dealMrMabuzaorZuluwhat
evert
heshi
tyouar
e?
Hi
m:Yousonofabi
tch!
!howdi
dyou
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opitr
ightt
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uyezwajustdon'
torelseIwillstopact i
ngnicewi
th
youandshowyout heothersideofmewhi chyou
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ovesodon'tyoudarecal lmymot hera
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redhoe<don'
t
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dbangi ngt hetabl
eandhe
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umi
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mymotherl
iket
hat
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m: Bi
yel
ayoucansweatal
lyouwantbecauseI
wi
llnotgodownal
one
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andam appr oaching32,Ispent7year sinjailand
thatwast helastti
mebei ngl ockedupYouknow
why? becauseIhavepowerIr unJobur gand
Pretori
asowhoar eyout omehuh? solist
enher e
takeyourdumpassbackt oDur banandt hreaten
thoselowl i
fethugsandl eavet hebigshar ks
becauseyouar enotr
eadyt oswi mi nthedept hsof
theocean
Hi
m:t
hisi
snotover
..
hesai
dst
andi
ngup
Me:
sukaemabhozenisbal
iandohhaveani
ce
t
ri
p..
hewentoutf
umingandIcall
edSbu
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offi
ceam suretheyar eheadi
ngtotheairpor
tas
theyhaveagal adinnertoni
ghtyenzanjal
obhoza
yam
Hi
m..
..
.
Me:andyouwonderwhyyouar
emyf avour
it
eguy
i
zint
obafo.
.idi
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land
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andIwor emyani malpr i
ntedskirtthathasasl it
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ingsandIwor emy
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keysIjoggeddownst ai
rsIf oundMaFat i
ma
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ng
outt
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e'ssomet
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hatneedsmyatt
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em makotigoandr unyourer
rands.
.i
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hegarageIgotint
omy
caranddrovestr
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lesoffi
cehe'
s
workingatMelr
oseAr cidi
dn'
tevenknockIjustgot
i
n
Him:
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ssesherhusband.
.hesai
d
smil
li
ng
Me:Bandil
ecanyoupleaset
ellmeubawhatki
ndof
apersonareyou?whatki
ndofapersonwhoki
ll
s
t
hewhol efami
lyhuh?whoareyou?
Hi
m:soyoucameal
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om Westcl
if
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Mel
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ll
ed
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m:t
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ll
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emember
..
.
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ikeyouBandi
le
youarejustasel
fi
shbustardthatdoesn'
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der
otherpeopl
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ings.
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mehe
Hi
m:Whatdi
dyouj
ustsayMaBi
yel
a?
Me:Isai
dwhatIsai
dBandi
leand.
..
hesmackedmy
asswithonest
rongsl
api
twaspainful
Hi
m:Who'
sasel
fi
shbust
ardNomkhi
tha?
Me:shi
tmaar
nBandil
eyouar
ehur t
ingme.
.he
sl
appedmefourt
imesmybuttcheekswer
eburni
ng
Hi
m:Thati
sfordi
srespect
ingmeandinsul
ti
ng
me,
yourpr
oblem i
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mateormaybeyourfr
iendNomkhi
thaIam your
f
uckenHUSBANDyougett hat?
CHAPTERFORTY-
FOUR
.
.
Me:
Butbot
tom l
inei
swhatyoudi
dwaswr
ong
Him:whatwasIsupposet odohuh? waitf
orhi
mt o
att
ackmewi thoutknowi ngandyouwoul dsti
ll
bl
ameme, i
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llhimf i
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outtherepl
anni ngtoki l
lmesowi l
lthatberi
ghtMrs
j
udge? Idi
dn'tsayanyt hing
Hi
m:t
houghtasmuch.
andwhatdi
dit
ellyouabout
t
hisski
rt
?
Me:
..
.
Hi
m:Nomkhi
tha.
.hesai
dbr
ushi
ngmyass
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l
eIwasn'
tthi
nki
ngstrai
ghtIj
usttook
whateverIf
oundf
ir
stanywayIhavetogoItookmy
handbagandcarkeys
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m:uyakuphi
?<wher
ear
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ngt
o>
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owl
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up
yourbel
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okemyf oundat
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m:wear
ingl
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hat
?
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It
snott
oor
eveal
ingmoss.
.
Hi
m:Youcango.
.hesai
donacoldvoi
cemxm i
wal
kedoutandwentt
otheel
evat
or

TI
NA
SoIcall
edPear landKhit
hal ucki
lyshesaidshe'
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themallImissedmygi r
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ngon
mntase?shesai
dt hatinhersothoaccentwe
l
aughed
Khi
tha:
Am goodmnt
asej
ustt
hatam t
ir
edyoo
Us:
ti
red?
!
Khi
tha:
ifIwastol
dthatbei
ngawi f
eandamot
her
wasthi
st i
ri
ngIswearIwould'
vebeenone
Pear
l:
whatdi
dhedo?
Khi
tha:
stor
yforanot
herdayl
adi
es.
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Pearl
:soMr sBerninibl
ushisdri
nki
ngjui
cetoday
ok.
.shesai drai
singhereyebrowsshedoesn'
tknow
soItellherwhyshewassohappy
Pear
l:
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edyouandIaskedyou
l
astweekremember?
Me:yeahyeahIwasi
ndenial
..
khit
ha'
sphone
beepedandshehadthi
sboredface
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samp, har
dbodychi
ckenandboi
ledveggi
es
bantasedon'
tyoudaregetmar
ri
edunlessyouar
e
readyIhavetogoguys
Us:
Aar
gBandzi
ssuchapar
typooper
Sosherequest
edat akeawaybagandpackedher
foodandbidgoodbye
Khi
tha
.
.
IdrovebacktomyhouseandwhenIgoti nxoxo
wasbusywi tht
hebabiesandIwentt oplaywi th
them justaf
ewmi nut
esandIwentt othekitchen
andf oundMaFati
macr yingshewasont hephone
becauseIheardhersaying'goodbyeIwillcallyou
l
ater'Iwentt
ocomf or
therIwonderwhati swr ong
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everi
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ll
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ngherback
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:t
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,
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nkIwil
lgoandsleep
t
ommorowimighthavetogobacktoKat
hlehong
Me:
Why?
doyouwantt
otal
kabouti
t?
Her:
rememberIoncetol
dyouaboutmydaught er
whoisinUniver
sit
yofPret
ori
a(Inodded)
yest
hat
oneshecal
ledmeandsai dherbursar
yiscut
ti
ng
heroff
Me:
whooat
hat
'shect
icdi
dshesaywhy?
Her
:Appar
ent
lyshe'
spr
egnant
..
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unreasonableyouknowthesethingshappenso
theyshould'
vegaveherachancet oprovethatshe
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ldoitevenifshe'
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t'
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j
ustlosthereyesvisi
on
Her:
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ngmeseri
oushowam I
goi
ngt ohel
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ect
ed
herwedon'tknowwhyt hi
sisal
lamess
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NoMaIt
hinkiwi
llhel
pherout
..
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ookedat
me
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makotiyouhavedonesomuchf orme,youand
yourhusbandbui
ltmeabi ghouseandgavemea
jobsonoIdon'tt
hinkIwi
llhavetomilkyouthat
much
Me:NomaIi nsi
styourThandoneedtost udyri
ght
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documentsandIwillaskmyP. Atoprocess
ever
ythi
ng..
sheti
ghtlyhuggedmeshewasso
happyohmyGodam sopr oudofmyselfri
ghtnow
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llneedt orestthoughIwillbri
ngyour
dinnerok..
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nish
Bandi l
ecamei nandhewaswi thsomeoneand
j
udgi ngbythevoi ceit
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tygotmei
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snon
otherthanOkuhl ehissist
erohshebor esmethis
one
Her
:Makot
ihowareyoummhhi
t'
sni
cebei
ngyou.
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f
akedasmileandgr
eet
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Igreet
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oldedmyar
msIdon'
twant
herhugs
Her
:Br
otheryourhousei
stodi
efori
t'
sbeaut
if
ul
Hi
m:t
hankst
omyl
ovel
ywi
fet
hisi
sal
lherwor
k
Her
:mmhh,canItaket
hetwinsouttommorow?Ndi
le
l
ookedatmeIjustwentbacktotheki
tchenand
fi
nishedcookingipreparedthet ableanddishedfor
them andtookanotherplateandj uiceIwentt ogi
ve
i
ttoMaFat imaandIcamebackandandgi rlwas
sit
ti
nginmyspaceandIj ustbrushedthatof fand
satnexttoNdilesotheywer etalkingaboutDubai
becausegirlhasbeenlivi
ngt hereijustbabiedmy
xoxoandf edhim
Ndi
le:
hawunt
wanayamiar
eyouokar
en'
tyouol
d
f
orbeingf
ed?
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e
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eshehas
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mest hatshedi sli
kesmyson
andIandi t'
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i
ncl udingxoxoandIwentt ot hebedroom Bandile
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m:Thanksf
ordi
nnerMaBi
yel
a
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mmmh.
.
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m:Am notami
ndr
eaderandIt
hinkyouknowt
hat
Me:
whyi
ssheher
e?
Hi
m:wel
lisshenotal
lowedher
e?
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsayt
hatmnaBandi
le
Hi
m:okbabyIal
sodi
dn'
tknowt
hatshewascomi
ng
Me:k.
.hegavemet he'
andt
hen'
l
ookIj
ustmi
zedhi
m
andconti
nuedreading
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m:Iknowhowyoufeel
aboutherandIt
hinkshe
wasj
ustpassi
ngbyshe'
snother
etostaynanami
Me:andshe'snotl
eavi ngt
ommor owei t
her,
Ijust
hat
ehowshesepar atesmybabiesImeanshe
makesitobviousthatshedoesn'tl
ovemysonand
am notsayi
ngshemustbet hatboresmet odeath
andshe'snottheonlyonewhodoest hat
Him:
wowbabycanyoust
opseei
ngt
hingst
hatar
e
not
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her
e
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beli
evewhatyouwantt
obel
ievenanibutt
hat
's
t
hetr
uth
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Okam sor
ryf
orbei
ngi
gnor
antt
henIwi
ll
addr
esst
his
Me:
Nodon'
t
Him:whynot ?sowenaever yti
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goingt otr
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i
ftheydon' tacceptandr espectyoutwot henthey
havet oalsoforgetaboutmephel aIcan'
tnot
entertai
nthem andeveni fIdowhatwi l
liobtai
n
nothingotherthanbei ngmi l
ked..
ichuckl
ed
Me:
that
'sf
ami
lyf
oryou.
.
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dhateseeingxoxol osingfait
hin
meImeanIpr omisedtobehisfatherandmake
surehe'
shappyandnowbyf indi
ngmyf amil
y
meansIshouldchangeuponhi m not heyallrat
her
gotohellandl
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hmyf amily.
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ki
ssisngme
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ooki
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t
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winsandmi naIam
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eadyt
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nkt heyarecut
eto
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edatmidni
ghtinst
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hosear
est
il
lyourki
ds
br
uh..
Him:
IknowIjustwantt
hem t
obe1yearol
dsot
hey
canmovefr
om ourbedroom.
.il
aughed
Me:
areyoual
wayst
hisr
ude?
Hi
m:NobabyIj
ustwantt
obewi
thyou-
youal
one
Me:
soyouchoosemeoveryourki
ds
Him:t
hesetwoaregoingt
ogrowupandleaveus
heresoIbett
erchoosewi
sel
y..
wel
aughedthatof
f
Hi
m:Il
ikei
twhenwear
ehappynanami
..
Me:metoobabyandsorryforcausingdr
amar
somet
imesIjustactwi
thoutthi
nking
Him:
Andyouhavetostopthatother
wiseam st
il
l
goi
ngtosmackyourass.
.hesaidbrushi
ngi
t
Me: ohhoifyouwantt
obeinmygoodbooksmake
suret hatbyMondayOkuhl
eisoutoft
hishouse
pleasenani
Him:oknanami..
heturnedmetolookathi
m and
ki
ssedmewewer ebusygrindi
ngoneachot her
unti
lIfel
ttheheatanddeci
dedtoopenmyl egsand
wemadel oveandslept
.
.
Morni
ngcameandIwokeupear l
yandtooka
showeraft
erthatIwentt
olot
ionmysel
fandwentt
o
thecl
osettopickonsomethi
ngto
WearsoIwentf orami
niskir
tandjustasimple
vestthathasit
'sownbraIthi
nkyoualreadyknow
thatIam notafanofbr
asandpant i
essoIt ookmy
phoneandcarkeysIwentdownst ai
rsand
MaFat i
mawasbusywi thxoxoalt
houghhewasst il
l
wearinghispyj
amas
Me:
Goodmor
ning.
.
Them:
Mor
ning
Me:
Areyour
eadyt
ogoma?
Her
:yesbyexoxoIwi
llmi
ssyouboybutIt
hinkIwi
ll
bebackmonthend
Me:
wear
egoi
ngt
omi
ssyout
hough
Her
:met
ooyouwer
eli
kemyf
ami
lynow
Xoxo:
nam ndi
yahambamama<Iam al
sogoi
ng>
Me:ngepyj
ama?
hel
ookedathi
msel
fandf
ixedhi
s
pyj
amas
Xoxo:ewemama. .
yoohIl ethi
m beandIdrove
MaFat i
matothetaxirankbutwestart
edatthemall
Iboughthersomegr ocerysowebidgoodbyeandI
drovetomyhouseandwhenIgoti nther
eNdileand
Okuhlewereeati
ngbr eakfast
Ndi
le:
ohyouar
eback?
Me:yesl
ove.
.isai
dtaki
ngabi
teint
ohiswaf
fl
eshe
gr
oanedIchuckledthi
smanandfood
Okuhl
e:wel
lIt
hinkIwi
llhavetocal
lmyotherf
riend
si
ncethetwi
nsarenotfeel
ingwell
butIam st
il
l
goi
ngtobearoundsotherewil
lbenextt
ime
Ndi
le:
soyouar
egoi
ngt
oli
vewi
thmom i
nCent
uri
on?
Okuhl
e:Aar
gwhatyouknowyoursibli
ngstheydon'
t
havei
nnerpeacesoIwi
llst
ayher
e..ir
oll
edmyeyes
Me:
mhm.
.isai
dgoi
ngupst
air
s
Okuhl
e:ori
fyourwif
edoesn'
twantmehereIcan
getanapart
ment.
.shesai
dthatwi
thanat
ti
tude
Ndil
e:nott
hatyouar
enotwel
comedwejustl
ove
ourownspaceIhopeyouunder
stand
Okuhle:
jasur
e..
shesoundeddi sappointedIdon't
careshemustgosoIwentt omybedr oom and
checkedonmybabi estheywer est
il
lsl eepi
ngand
thatgi
vesmet i
met ocl
eananddoourl aundry..
so
Mr sDubaiwentoutandPearlcamet of etchxoxo
asshewast aki
nghersont othemal lsoIam l eft
withmyhusbandwear ewat chingtv
Hi
m:nanamiIhavepl
annedaf
ami
lyt
ri
ptoGr
eece
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsaynani
?
Hi
m:yesnanamiandit
hinkwewi l
lhavetogonext
mont
h..
iwassohappyijusthuggedhim
Me:aren'
tyout
hebesthusbandwena?
Iasked
ki
ssinghim
Hi
m:Iai
mtopl
easeMaBi
yel
a..
Me:andyouar egoodatwhatyoudoIl
oveyou
husband..
.befor
ehecoul
danswermeIgotontop
ofhim andkissedhimt
hingsheat
edupbutwe
heardcri
esupst ai
rs
Ndi
le:
Aar
gyourbabi
es.
.hesai
dsul
king
Me:
theyar
emi
nenow
Ndi
le:
hai
sukat
heydon'
thavet
iminghowcouldthey
di
stur
bsuchamomentcanwet r
adethem nanami?
Me:Ican'tbel
ieveyou..
wewentt
oat
tendourbabi
es
andi st
il
lcan'
tbelievet
hati
nafewweeksIwil
lbe
i
nGr eeceam t hegyel
CHAPTERFORTY-
FIVE
.
.
KHI
THA
《AWEEKLATER》
.
.
It
'saFr
idayt
odayandIdeci
dedtoknockear
lyIam
sodrai
nedIwishIcanj
ustt
hrowmyselfi
nbedand
sl
eepandwakeupt henextday,soIam drivi
ngfr
om
worktomypl aceandwhenIgoti nther
eOkuhle
waswat chi
ngtvatthelaungebusyeat i
ngmyson' s
i
ce-cr
eam yesshe'ssti
llhereGodknowshowshe
i
rr
it
atesmet hehouseismessyi tneedareal
cl
eaningthi
sgirli
sgoingt odri
vemenut s
Her:
owheyIdidn'
tseeyouthereNomkhi t
ha.
.yes
that
'showshecal
lsmenotevena' sis'
nyana
becauseshe'
s23andam approaching25
Me:
Kumnandihuh?
<it
'sni
cehuh>
Her
:howdoyoumean?
Me: Usemziniwam,utyaice-cream yomntanawam
l
oumcal u-
calul
ayo,i
ndluyam i mdakaandt hereyou
aresitt
ingatmyf avouri
tecouchwat chi
ngt vand
readingmymagazi nehowni ce?<youareinmy
house,eati
ngmyson' sice-cream theoneyou
discri
minate,
myhousei smessy>
Her:
Ubanikantiumakot ibet
weenmeandyou? and
gi
rlpl
easedonotbemi stakenthi
sisBandil
es
houseandeverythinginherewasboughtbyhim so
pl
easedon'tf
latteryourself
,youar
ejusther
eby
bri
depri
ceandyoubroughtnothi
nginthetabl
e
besi
desaresponsi
bil
it
ysopleasemadam goand
changesoyoucanstartcl
eani
ng'TheBiyel
ahouse'
Me: uyandi li
ngane?ncncncawundaziwena<you
aret estingmer ight?youdon' tknowme>Isai d
joggingupst ai
rsandIwentst r ai
ghttoherr oom
wi t
ht hosedi rt
ybinpl asti
csIt ookt heblackones
andIst artedunpackinghercl othesfrom my
war drobeandIl oadedt hem int heplasti
cwhent wo
wasf ul
lIwentdownst airsandt hrewt hem outand
wenti nsi deagainandt ookt heot heronesand
threwt hem outagai nIdi dthatwhi l
stwearingheel
s
iwasangr yandchangi ngwasgoi ngtowast emy
timewhenIt ookoutt helastloadshet ookupand
camet ome
Her:
haibosfebesomxhosawenzani ?
<heyyou
Xhosabitchwhatareyoudoing>Igaveherahard
sl
apshescr eamedIdragheroutofmyhouseand
pushedhershefellonherbutt
ocksshefli
nched
Me:Phumakwam Okuhl e<getoutofmyhouse>I
sai
dscr eamingandIpoint
edatthegat
esoi twoul
d
beclearthatIam ki
cki
ngherout
Her:Angiyindawoumuzikabhut il
ona<Iam not
goi
nganywher ethisismybrother'
shouse>shesai
d
gatheri
nghert hi
ngsshet r
iedgetti
nginsi
deI
pushedherandsl appedheragain
Me:ucingubauyaphi?j
ongaaphakesisiyoucan
nevereverdisr
espectmeinmyownhouseIhave
beenwat chi
ngyouandyoubr oughtyoursocal
led
fr
iends
i
nmyhouset ohel
pyoudisr
espectmeandIt old
youthatyourdayi
scomingandIwilldealwit
hyou
accordi
nglynowpl
easel
eave..
shedidn'tmovean
i
nch
Me:Fr
ankcomeandescor tt
hispi
eceofshi
toutof
myyard!
!!
..
isai
dthatshouti
ngbecauseFr
ankwas
neart
hegatehe'
soursecurit
yguard
Her:
Heyiwenakwere-kwer
eyoubett
erst
aywher e
youarei
fyourespectyourj
ob<heyyoufor
eigner
>
Me:Shedoesn'tevenrespectol
derpeopl et
hisspoi
lt
brat
(Ical
ledFrankoncemor ehethenj oggedto
whereIwas)i am theonewho'spayingyour i
ght
(henodded)nowescorther..
heroughlygrabbedher
asshewasf i
ghti
ngandwrestli
ngsoIgather
edher
thingsandIfoll
owedthem Iopenedthegat
eandI
threwallofherclot
hesi
nthestreetandshewas
alsooutside
Her:angekengi hambeLanaespeci al
lywheni t'
syou
whoi ski cki
ngmeoutbewuyazel akuphiWest cl
if
f
wena<Iwon' tl
eave..
.wheredidyouf indout
about >ngobayouar eusedonst ayingi nleaki
ngone
roomedshacksngokuf ebasewuzibonaul ana<just
bywhor i
ngyouseeyoursel fhere>Iopenedt he
gateshet ri
edtoforceherwayi nbecause
neighbour swerewat chingnowIpushedherand
shef ellonherbuttocksagainIwentt othepipethat
wasi rrigati
ngthefl
ower sandIspr ayedherwi thit
shewasdr i
ppi
ngwet
Her:
ungi manzisel
aniwena<whyar eyoumaki ngme
wet>lookatmyphonear eyougoingtoreplaceit
?I
j
ustwal kedinsidemyyardandlockedthegat eIlef
t
hertherebusyshout i
ngandswear i
ngyesesshe
hastoknowt hatnobodymesseswi t
hme. Igotto
thehouseandiwentt otakeashowerandwor emy
l
eggingsandNdi l
e'
soversizeT-
shir
tandhi ssli
desI
j
ustloveweari
ngmyman' scl ot
hesandItookmy
bl
uetoothpear
ingheadphones,ipl
ayedmusicand
worethem asicl
eanmyhouseaboutanhourorso
Ndi
lecamei nwit
hthetwins,xoxoandthebi
tchjust
l
ookedatthem andsaidnothing
Ndil
e:MaBi
yel
awhat'
sgoi
ngon?
whydi
dyouki
ck
heroutofmyhouse?
Her
:yi
zwake?
<youhear
>
Ndil
e:shutt
hefuckupOkuhle!!
hehalfshout
edat
hershejumpedabi txoxowentupst
airshedoesn'
t
l
ikenoiseandbeingshouted
Ndi
le;
MaBi
yel
aIaskedyouar
equest
ion.
.
Me:
..
.
Ndi
le:
Okuhlegotoyourroom..shedr
aggedher
f
eet
sandwentupst ai
rsIjustgaveheranevi
ll
ook
Ndi
letookoffmyheadphones
Me:ndiyakuvasoit
'snouseremovingthem am just
notinthemoodf oryouandyourfavouri
teli
tt
le
si
sterandbesidesthi
shouseneedt obeclean
andit
hiyenathisi
shercastl
e..
itookmy
headphonesandworet hem agai
nNdi
lelookedat
mef oraboutagood5mi nut
esandhewent
upstai
rswhenitwas7pm IwasdonesoIwentt o
knockatxoxo'
sroom hewasbusydrawing
Me:umntanam ke<mybaby>Isai
dhuggi
nghi
m and
ki
ssinghim
Xoxo:mamautheniusi
si?
<whatdidsi
sdo>he'
s
bother
edeventhoughshewouldn'
tyena
Me:andi
maziboybutwhatIknowist
hatmybabyis
hungryandheneedshismommat obat
hhi
mf i
rst
sohecouldeatyayi
funai
Pizza?
Xoxo:eweewemama<yesyes>Iknowhel ovesi t
soIfirstbathenhi m andIal
sotookthet wi nst oo
andIdr essedt hem thei
rpyj
amasandwewentt o
thekitchenandIcookedpumpki nformyt wi nsand
orderdpi zzaformeandxoxoam sot iredIcan' tbe
cookingouror dercameandweat eIwasdr inking
Moëtf rom thebot tl
eandmysonwasdr inking
orangej uiceandt hetwi
nswerealreadysl eepi ngso
i
twasmeandhi m weatewhi
lstwat chingt v..
Ndi l
e
camedownst airsweari
nghisjoggerpantand
sl
ideshet
ookonesl
ices
xoxo:
hayit at
awenaut hat
hei
shar
ekamama
andit
hi?<nodadyout ookmomsshar
eisn'
t>i
tcan'
t
bemi ne..
theylaughed
Ndile:
Kodwauthizeuthandaminaukundlul
ayena
njeimangikut
hengelaamakinderjoysandt i
nki
es
<butyousaidyoulovememor ethanherwhenI
boughtyou>xoxowhisperedandsaid'he'
slyi
ng'ì
justsmil
edandshookmyhead
Ndi
le:
ngi
yakuzwanj
alo<Icanhearyout
hough>
Xoxo:hayikodwatata<nobutdad>t heylaughed
Ndilewenttothekit
chenIguesst omake
somet hi
ngtoeatashecanseeIam noti nthe
moodsowhenwewer edoneIwentt oputxoxot o
sl
eepandsanghi m al ul
labyyesasol dashei sbut
hewi l
lalwaysbeababyt omesoIwentt omy
bedroom andfoundBandi lesit
ti
ngont hestoolt
hat
i
sneart hewallmirr
orhepul ledmeintohim andI
stoodinbetweenhislegs
Hi
m:babycanyoupl
ease.
.Icuthi
m shor
t
Me:
wit
hal
lduer
espectmyhusbandIam noti
nthe
moodtotal
kaboutyourli
tt
lesi
steriam enough.
.he
l
etoutahugesi
ghandf ai
ledonhisphonesohe
cal
ledhi
smother
Her
:hel
loboy.
.hegr
oanedashi
smot
herl
aughed
Hi
m:maIam wi
thmywi
fe
Her
:shebet
terknowt
hatyouar
emybaby.
.t
hey
bot
hchuckl
ed
Him:mom canyoupleasecomeandtakeyour
Daught
erbefor
eIlosemybeauti
full
ovingwif
e
pl
ease.
.
Her:
Iknewthatt
heywoul
dnotgetal
ongIknow
Okuhlecanbebi
tchy
Hi
m:huhmom yousai
dwhat
?!
Her:
Iwil
lcomesonbyeeiloveyouall
goodni
ght.
..
shel
aughedbefor
edroppi
ngt
hecal
l
Me:
youshoul
d'vedonet
hatl
ongt
imeago
Hi
m:am sor
ry.
.hesai
dhuggi
ngmeandt
ouchi
ngme
al
lover
Me:
noNdi
leam t
ir
ed
Hi
m:wowi
sit
?
Me:
howdoyoumean?
Hi
m:Youhavebeenti
redf
ort
hepast8days
Nomkhit
hasowheredoyout
hinkam get
ti
ngsex
f
rom huh?.
.
Me:Iwanttosl
eepBandi
lepl
easei
t'
snotl
ikei
t'
sthe
l
astdaytodayam al
waysher
e
Him:f
ineandohham goi ngtot
heclubt
onightyou
cansleep.
.bef
oreIcoul
dsayanythi
nghewentt o
changeint
ocasual andtookhi
sBuggat
tikeys
Me:Bandi
lear
eyouser
ious.
.hej
ustl
ookedatme
andwentout
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Iroll
edoutofbedandwor ehi
ssli
desandwal kout
ofmybedr oom andfol
lowedhim unfort
unatel
y
whenIgotdownst ai
rshewasal readydrivi
ngoutof
theyard.
Iwenttothekitchenandtookmyi ce-
cream andwenttowatchTVi nthelaungeandate
myi ce-
cream
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
.
Idr
ovet
otheclubwher
emyf r
iendswereIgott
o
cl
ubver
nuceandwentstr
aighttoourf
avouri
tespot
Luu:
Lookwho'
sher
e..
theyal
ltur
nedt
ome
Them:
Theet
ermi
nator
..
theyst
oodupandcheer
ed
meandwebrohugged
Sbu:
wher
e'sMr
sTee?
Me:Athomebr o,canwegetdr unkandhi gh..we
orderdalcoholandwewer ejoinedbyt heother
groupofgi r
lstheyal lgetsettl
edandnextt omesat
abeautifulcolouredlady,shewor eashor tblack
dressthathugsandr evealherwell
structuredbody
i
thadasl i
tthatgoesupheryel l
owthickthighsshe
hadherlegscr ossedandt hatalsorevealedherbutt
cheeks
Her
:ar
eyoudonecheckinguponme?
sheasked
t
aki
ngasiponmywhi skey
Me:
doyoubl
ameme?
wit
hwhatyouhave
Her:
Iwillt
aket
hatasacompl i
ment
..
ileanedbackto
thecouchsoIcangetachancetogetabettervi
ew
anddamnherinnerthi
ghsdrovemetot heedge
Me:
whatwoul
dyouliket
odri
nkmissy?
Iasked
t
aki
ngoutapackedofweedandr
oll
edathickbl
unt
Her:Moetandi ce-t
ropezanyf l
avouram good. .
she
saidfixi
ngherweaveIcal l
edthewai terandorder
d
forhermyni ggasboughtmeat ,chickenandwor s
wehadabl issfulnightful
loflaught er,j
okesand
stol
enki ssesthisgi r
lisawhol ecr eam andnaye
shekeptonbr ushingmeandf eeli
ngmydi ckpri
ntI
wast urnedonpl usam highasf uckmyphone
beepedandKhi t
ha'snamef lashedont hescreenI
i
gnor edthatandcheckedt het i
mei nsteaditwas
j
ustpast12
Her:
areyouok?sheaskedr
estingherheadi
nmy
chestIbr
ushedhermarvel
loushair
Me:YeahIam sweet
s..
isai
dkissi
ngherfor
ehead
andeachandoneofuswer ekeptcompanymy
phonebeepedandIcheckedagai
nandKhitha'
s
namef l
ashedont hescreensoIswippedtolock
andwentst rai
ghttoWhatsAppandshesentme
pict
uresIloadedthem andGoddamni tthewif
e
sentmenudesandavi deoofherjustshowingme
myassetsokIbi tmylowerlipasNtshangase
regai
nedhi sst
rengthIthi
nkit
'sbecausehesawhis
foodIquicklyfi
xedmyselfsoIcanhidehim and
stoodup
Luu:
NjakaMenziwa..
he'sdrunkandhighasfuckhe
hasl
ipsti
ckalloverhi
mt hi
soneisgoingt
obe
admit
tedTinadoesn'tplay
Me:Nj
akaZizimi
nangi
yavaya..
<Iam goi
ng>Ifi
st
bumpedthem andt
hecolouredladyfol
lowedme
Her:
canyoupleasegivemealif
t?It
hinkIshoul
d
al
soleavesi
nceyouar egoi
ngwhoi sgoingtokeep
mecompany? sheaskedtucki
ngherarmi nmine
Me:oknopr
oblem..
wewentoutandIdroveasshe
wasbusyst
rokingmydi
ckwear r
ivedather
sur
bubs
Her
:okyoucanl
eavemeher
e..
Me:
oksur
ebesaf
e..
shel
eanedt
oki
ssmeandaf
ter
asecondIki
ssedherbackandt
hingsgotheat
edI
pul
ledout
Me:
Ithi
nkI
..
..
sheputaf
ingeri
nmymout
h
Her:
ahhh.
.heunbuckl
edmyj
eant
oget
herwi
thmy
boxer
Me:nowentbehavi ngi
therecanyou..shecut
ted
meshor tandgavemeami ndblowingheadshe
evenwentf arasrimmingmeIwaspl easur
edbut
Ntshangasewant edmorethanthatbutshecli
mbed
offandwalkedt oherhouseandIturnedmycarand
drovetomypl ace
WhenIgotinmybedr oom khi
thawasasl eepand
thatgavemetimet ocleanmyselfbytakinga
showeranditiptoedandwentt owashthecl othes
thatIwaswearingandwhenIcamebackf rom the
l
aundr yr
oom shewassi tt
ingonherbuttocks
l
eaningontheheadboar d
Me:
Nanami
?Isai
dcl
imbi
ngbedIki
ssedher
Her
:Howwasi
t?sheaskedl
ooki
ngdeepi
nmyeyes
Me:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Her
:wer
en'
tyouatt
hecl
ubkant
i?
Me:ohthati
twascoolIenj
oyednowcanIgetwhat
Ihavebeenpromi
sed..
wekissedandmadeout
CHAPTERFORTY-
SIX
.
.
KHI
THA
Iwokeupear l
yinthemorningbecauseNdiles
mot heri
scomi ngoversoIhavet oti
ddenup,Iwent
totheensuiteanddi dmybusinessandIwasf resh
forthedayIdon'tknowifit
'sbecausetheevilsi
ster
i
n-lawisleavingorit'
smydayt odaywhenIwas
abouttoopent hedoorBandil
ef ai
ntl
ycall
edmy
nameIt urnedtoattendhi
m
Me:
Youcal
ledme
Hi
m:Isn'
tear
ly?
MaBi
yel
ait
'sSat
urdaycanyour
est
al
it
tl
e
Me:Noyourmot
heri
scomingoversoIwanthert
o
f
indmeawakeandthehousecl
ean..
.hegr
oaned
Hi
m:Ihearyou,
butcanIaskyousomet
hing?
Me:
shoot
Hi
m:Nomkhit
haareyouseei
ngsomeone?
myhear
t
st
oppedbeat
ingal
it
tl
e
Me:
What
?!
Him:Youhear dmeandbesi desam aski ngbecause
yest
erdaywhenwewer emaki ngloveyouwer en't
your
selfit'
slikeIf
orcedyoui ntoitorisitbecause
youwant edtokeepmeawayf rom theclub,
Imean
yousentt hosenudesbypur poser i
ght?okam
doomednowbecauset hat
'sexactlywhatIwas
aimi
ngf or,Ij
ustwantedhim nexttome
Me:
Not
hat
'
snott
het
rut
hBandi
le.
.il
ie
Hi
m:sowho'
she?heaskedget
ti
ngupandr
ubbi
ng
hi
sheadandst
ret
chi
nghisarms
Me:nobody,
whyar
eyouaski
ngmet
hat
?yazi
Idon'
t
getyou
Him:Justmakesur ethatIdon'tf
indoutaboutyour
l
it
tl
eaf f
airnaleyobharibecauseIwil
lnothesit
ate
putt
ingabulletonhim andbl owhisbrai
nsinf
ront
ofyouandasf oryouyourtearsandthepil
lowwill
makeagoodr elati
onshi
psoyoumayknow. .my
mouthwashangi ngIwasshockedr at
heramazed
hayiIdon'tknowwher edoesheget sthi
sj ustby
denyinghim sexhesuspectthatIam cheat i
ng
kal
okuIcan' tbeinthemoodever ydayandIam
busyr unni
nghiscompani esheforgetsthatsohe
wokeupnowhe' sonhi swaytotheensui t
e
Him:andohcanyoupl easemakemesomet hi
ngt
o
tr
eatmyhangoveryoooam dyingbaby..he
disappearedt
othecorri
dorIcl
appedonceandI
checkedonmybabi estheyweresti
llsl
eepi
ngandI
wentdownst ai
rsandmadehi m Ti
nasbestHang
overtreat
..
soicleanedmyhouseandIwhenIwasdoneI
deci
dedt omakebreakfastf
ormyf amil
yandwhenI
wasoni tBandi
lewalkedinandsatonthehigh
chai
rnexttotheki
tchencounterIgavehim hi
str
eat
Hi
m:Ngiyabonga<thankyou>aft
erthatxoxowalked
i
nsingi
ngwhat eversongiwonderuyivephihe
wasn'
tinhispyjamasilookedathi
mi n'expl
ain'
l
ook
Xoxo:
mnat
atam undi
hlambi
le<mydadhasbat
hen
me>
Me: besendixakiwendi ci
mbauveskewat shi
ntsha<I
wasamazedit houghyouj ustchanged>sohe
stoodnextt oBandi l
ewhol if
tedhim andputhim on
topoft hecount erandt heystart
edwi t
hthei
rdaily
thethaandt henaf t
ertherewasaknockatt hedoor
Ndi l
eat t
endedi tsoi twashismot hershecamet o
hugmeandweki ssedandshehuggedxoxoand
kisshi m al
loverhi sfacethat'
showki ndand
humanshei sIguessi t'
sonlybecauseshe'snot
original
lyaBi yelashecamewi thabr i
depri
cejust
l
ikeme
Her
:wher
eisshe?
sheaskedl
ooki
ngar
ound
Ndi
le:
Areyour
ushi
ngsomewher
e?
Her:
YesIam goi
ngt
ochurchandIwi
llcomeback
l
atesothat
'
swhyIstar
tedher
e
Ndi
le:
okmamal
etmegoandcal
lher
.
Okuhl
e:t
here'
snoneedam here..
hermotherl
ooked
herf
rom uptobot
tom andagainandagain
Ndi
le:
hawumama?
<real
lymom>
Her:
Iam j ustamazedt hat'
sallImeanwhoi nthi
s
wholewor ldwouldtakeherschoolf eesmoneyand
gospendi ti
nDubaiandwheni ti
sfi
nishedsheget
s
ablesserandt heblesserleaveshernowshe
becomesar esponsibi
li
ty..okuhlel
ookeddownyou
cantellshewasembar rassed
Ndi
le:
huh?
!hewasshockedsoIwas
Her
:Wher
ear
eyourbags?
sheaskedt
urni
ngt
oher
Okuhl
e:byt
hedoor
Her :
Youarenotgoingtolivei
nmyhousef orlong
sisimakesureyouf i
ndaj obsoyoucanmoveoutI
can'tbestayi
ngwi t
hawomanwhodoes
embar r
assingthi
ngsitshowsthatyouareoldyou
canbeonyourownsel fplusyouareabull
ymyki ds
aregoingtosurferyazi
..
shesaidpushi
ngherf r
om
thedoorandsheshout edagoodbye
Ndi
le:
Yooohi
mihl
ola<wonder
s>
Me:
am j
usthappyshe'
sgone
Thent
herestofthedaywasfi
neandbori
ngt
hanks
toNdi
lef
ortaki
ngouthiski
dsandhelef
tmealone
soIwasj ustlazingar oundthehouseandnowi t'
s
j
ustpast9Ij ustcamef r
om downstair
sandhewas
notinthebedr oom soIwentt otakeashowerand
woremysi lkygownasIwentt ocheckhim onhi s
off
icesluckil
yIf oundhi m ontheonethat'
sj ust
nearourbedr oom Ist oodatthedoorandl eanedon
i
thewasbusypunchi ngonhislaptophel ookedso
sexyandIwentt ohi m andstoodathisbackandI
massagedhi m. .
hel etoutahugesi ghfol
lowedbya
moanIchuckl ed
Me:Youli
kei t
?henoddedsoIwentt ost
raddl
ehi
m
andhewasonl yweari
nghisboxersoIsatonhi
s
gi
ganti
ct hi
ngandpr essedmycoochieandassoni
t
andfel
titregaini
ng
Him:Fucknanamiwenzani<whatareyoudoi
ng>I
putmoreofmywei ghttohim andgri
ndedhi
m hi
s
eyeswereredam surehewassmoki ngweedbut
nowhe'shornysoIkissedhim
Me:Isi
tagai
nstthel
awt odist
urbyourmanwith
pussywhil
ehe'swor
king?Iaskedhim whi
leki
ssi
ng
hi
m hechuckled
Hi
m:Notatal
lnanami
Me:Whatar
eyoubusywith?
Iaskedwr
appi
ngmy
handsonhi
sbackoftheneck
Him:Drugexpensesandmynextdest i
nat
ion..
i
noddedandwest art
edkissi
ngasIwasbusy
gri
ndinghi m sohel i
ft
edmeupabi tandundressed
hi
m sel fif
elthiscochenteri
ngmeIcaressedand
wheni twasf ul
lyinIleanedfor
war
dsoIcanr ide
hi
m Ist art
edslowl yandwemadeeyecont act
Me:Iam sor
ryf
orhowIhavebeent
hepastf
ew
daysbaby
Him:whywereyouacti
ngfunnyMaBiyelahuh?oh
shit
..
hesai
dthatbecauseIwasbusypleasur
ing
him
Me:Ithoughtitwast heonl
ywayt ogetr
ightbackto
youafternotput t
ingmoreeffor
tonchasingyour
si
steroutIthoughtIwasj ustpuni
shi
ngyouIdi dn'
t
knowt hati
twi l
lcauseahavocbetweenusam sor r
y
baby..
isaidincreasi
ngmypace
Hi
m:Youshoul
d'vesai
ditAngi
shoIam notami
nd
r
eader
..
ohfuckheshif
tedhi
sfil
esandl
aptopashe
pl
acedmeont
opofhi
stabl
eandIwasf
uckedso
har
d
CHAPTERFORTY-
SEVEN
.
.
Iwaswokenbyl itt
lecr i
esandatf ir
stIthoughtI
wasj ustdr eami ngbutnoam amot herandwhenI
wasaboutt orolloutofbedIheadBandi l
eNur sing
hisBabySi yabecausehewast heonecr yi
nghi s
l
ungsoutandBandi lekeptonaski nghi m'kanti
ufunani'<whatdoyouwant >asifhewasgoi ngto
answerhi m andhet ookhismi lkbot tl
eandgavei t
tohim andher efusedi thethengavehi mt heone
fi
ll
edwi thwat erhegul peditdownandbur ped
afterwardsandBandi l
ewasl i
ke'bewungasho
ngani '
<whydi dn'tyousayso>t henhecont inued
dressinghi m andwhenhewasdonehepl acedhi m
onhi scoatandSphest art
edcr yi
ngt oot hi
sonei sa
dramarqueenshel ikesbeingat t
endedj ustlikeher
fatherBandi legr oanedyoucant ellthathewasj ust
ti
redheaskedher '
Manj ewenasi siudl i
wayi ni'
<so
nowwhat 'swr ongwi thyousis'Idiedwi thlaught er
becauseoft hewayhesai dithewassopi ssedbut
pl
ayi
ngi
tcoolhet
hent
urnedt
ome
Ndil
e:ohyouareawakeandyoudeci
dedtol
etyour
ki
dsbullyyourhusbandwowwhatawif
eIhave
Me:babynoIj
ustwokeupmna<me>thenIr
oll
ed
outofbedandIwentt
ostandwher
ehewas
Ndi
le:
takeyourdr
amarqueenIam goi
ngt
ocheck
ont
hebi gguy
Me:
whyar
eyoupr
epar
ingt
hem t
hisear
lykant
i?
Ndi l
e:mymot hercal
ledandsai dthatImustbr i
ng
them toherhouseasear lyasIcan. .inoddedashe
j
oggedoutasi fhewasr unningfrom somet hing
afterafewmi nutesxoxocamei nlookingnicehe
greetedmeandst ar
tedplayi
ngwi t
hhi ssi
blinghe
l
ovest hem somuchaf t
erthatNdi l
ecameandwent
totakeashowerandwhenhewasdoneheshowed
upwear inghischinoandhe'sRawgol fT-
shirtand
thosesemi f
ormalshoeshewasl ookingyummyI
drooledhecamet omeandki ssedme
Ndi
le:
wehavet
ogoki
ds
Me:
areyoual
sogoi
ngt
oat
tendt
heser
vices
wajuwi
shakangaka?
<wear
ingni
ce>hel
aughedand
shookhi
shead
Ndil
e:Iwi
llbebackbef
oreyouknowi
tnanami
uyezwa
.
inoddedhet ookSiyaandthebagsandwewent
outtothecarthatwasalr
eadyparkedout
sidet
he
garageIki
ssedmybabi esgoodbyeandhedrove
out
.
.
BANDI
LE

SoIj ustdr
ovei nmymomsyar dinCent ur
ionand
i
ncaseyouar ewonder i
ngwhymom al lofthe
suddeni si
nJobur gwel lshehadadegr eei n
physcologybef oreshemetmyf atherandmyf ather
wasoneoft hoseZul umenwhokeptwomeni nt
he
vi
llageswhiletheywor kforthem soaf terthewhole
sagaandmyf ather'
spassi ngsheper sudeher
dream sheappl i
edforaj obinoneofj oburg
hospital
sluckilyshegotaj obandshe' sstaying
withmyot hert hreesibl
ingsexcludingOkuhl ewhich
areLungahe'sdoingMechani calengineer
ingand
i
t'
shi sfi
rstyearatWitsPheloisinhighschooland
Nosiphoisinpri
mar yschoolsoiwentt oopenthe
doorandthesister
swer eatthekitchen
Phelo:
Lookwho'shere.
.theybothrantousandt hey
tookthetwinsf
rom meandxoxowentt ogr
eetmy
motherili
kehowhef eel
scomf or
tabl
eand
welcomedwhenhei sher eandIfoll
owedhim and
mymot herwassti
lleati
ngbr eakf
astandwatchi
ng
tvwithLunga
Me:Morni
ngfami
ly.
.isai
dsi
dehuggi
ngmymot
her
andfi
stbumpedLunga
Mom:
am Il
ateson?
sheaskedsar
cast
ical
ly
Me:noIbr
oughtt
hem becauseIhavesomet
hingt
o
t
ellyou
Lunga:nt
wanayam l et
'sgoupstai
rsandleave
peopl
edi scussi
ngthei
rthingsorkanj
animfethu?
he
askedreferr
ingtoxoxothesetwoarebesti
esthey
nothjoggedupstai
rs
Mom: Khul
umaphelabefor
engiphat
hwayihear
t
at
tack<speakbef
oreIgeta>shesai
dhol
dingher
chestwowt
hedr
amarIchuckl
ed
Me:
Mom Ihaveboughtyouguyst
icket
stoGr
eece
Mom:whatal
lofus? sonar
eyout
aki
ngust
oa
f
amil
ytri
ptoGr eece?
Me:It
ssomet
hingl
iket
hat
..
isai
dleani
ngont
he
couch
Mom:
okwhati
sit
?
Me:Ihaveplannedandor
gani
sedasur
pri
se
weddingformywife
Mom:
whathowdi
dyoupul
lthat
?
Me:Ial
waysknownt hatshelovedGreeceandI
havebeendoi ngmyi nvesti
gat
ionaboutthekindof
aweddingthatshewoul dli
ketohavesoIthinkshe
hasntsuspectedanythingsofarsoiam tel
li
ngyou
guystogetr eadybynext weekonTuesdayyou
havetobedepar t
ing
Mom:wowsonIam pr oudofyouandam j eal
ousof
yourwi
feImeant hewayyoul oveher
,doIsti
llhave
aspaceinyourheartt
hough?sheaskedmel ooking
atmethroughherspectacl
es
Me:
Youwi
llal
wayshavei
tmom
Mom:Ohpleaseli
etomesoIcanf
eelgood.
.we
l
aughedatthat
Me:
it
'
sthet
rut
hthough
Mom:
hayichanowenayouar
eital
lIswear
Me;ngacel
anempindaNgabuyangakhot ha
nephephalayoyoi
mnandii kor
obel
a<andIaskedf
or
somemor eandIalsol i
ckedit'
spaperyoool
ove
port
ionisnice>welaughed
Mom: butIam proudsonItrul
yam andam sur et
he
sameener gyandl oveyoushowinpubli
cisthe
samebehi ndcloseddoorsandIgiveyoumy
blessi
ngsboyIwi llal
waysprayf
oryourmarriageI
am notsayingthissoyouguyscanr el
axnoyou
havetof i
ndachur chandcommityoursel
vesto
Christ
..
.phokthatismyquee
Me:Mom pleasest
oppr eachingandyeswewi lland
Ihavetogomywi f
eiswai t
ingforherhusband..
i
stoodupandwentt ohughermymot herandwi fe'
s
hugsarethebestIdon'
tknowi fit
'sbecauseIlove
them
.
.
SonowIj ustgoti nmyhousei t'
salready11am I
wentupst air
st ocheckonmywi fewhenIgoti nour
bedr oom shewasbusywi thhermake- upshespend
alotoft imei nt hemi r
rorshewaswear i
ngt hose
thi
ngscal l
edj umpsui tsashortcream whi t
eone
thathugsherbodyver ywellanddust ypi nkheel s
mat cheshergoodandheraf rowasneat lycombed
andst yl
edandt iedupIl oveherhairevent hough
shel ikesshor thairanddyeIt ookpi csandvi deosI
postedt hem onmyI nstaandcapt ioned'sheal ways
spendal otoft imet r
yingtomakeher selflookl i
kea
roseknowi ngl essthatIam inlovewi t
hherr oots,
the
wifeImar ri
ed ' i
nabout4mi nut eitwason15k
l
ikesandcomment sarebuzzinginper ksofbei nga
wellknownper sonwor ldwideandt hinki t
's
becauseIdon' tpostever ydaysowhenIdot heyget
curi
os
Her
;howl
onghaveyoubeenst
andi
ngt
her
e?
Me:
NoIj
ustgoti
nnanami
Her
:t
hati
sal
ieyourcol
ognehasf
il
ledt
her
oom
i
mmedi at
elywhenyoust
oodt
her
e..
shesai
dtaki
ng
herhandbag
Me:
wher
ear
eyougoi
ngt
osoIcant
agal
ong?
Her
:wearebot
hgoingt
othemal
lforshoppi
ngI
meanInafewweekswewil
lbei
nGr eece
Me:ohoknanamilet
'sgosoIwasbehi
ndherand
andcheckingwhat'
smi nemywi
fehasabanger
bodyandalwaysfal
linl
ovewi
thi
tever
ydayli
kei
t'
s
myf i
rstt
imeseei
ngit
CHAPTERFORTY-
EIGHT
.
.
Mywi feandIwer eatthemallthewhol eday
womenandshoppi ng,
sonowi t'
sjustpast9pm the
kidsareasleepandKhi t
haisbusywi thpaper
wor k,
businesscal
lsandwhatevershewaswor ki
ng
atoneofmyof fi
cesandIwantt otalktohershe
wasont hephoneforthepast30mi nutesandIwent
tocheckuponheragai nandlucki
lyshej ust
disconnectedthecal
l
Me:
Iwast
hinki
ngofwr
it
ingyoual
ett
er.
.isai
d
si
tt
ingdown
Her
:i
thasn'
tbeent
hatl
ongnanihayi
bo
Me:I
twasbabyanywaycanIpl
easegot
osumon
cl
ubsthandwasami
?shegavemethi
sunreadabl
e
l
ook
Her
:ohyougoi
ngout
?
Me:Idon'
tknowbabyIam wai
ti
ngforyouto
approveordecl
inemyr
equest
..
shesmill
edIknow
It
'sf
ake
Her
:Noit
'sokyoucango.
.okt
hati
sn'
tcomi
ngf
rom
ari
ghtpl
ace
Me:BabyIwil
lbehavemyselfandIam notgoi
ngto
getdrunkIwil
lbej
usttipsyandbebackbefor
eyou
evennoti
cethatam notnextt
oyou
Her:
Bandileyouaremyhusbandnotmypr i
sonerok
Imeanyoucan' tbeher
e24/7you'
vegotal i
fet
o
l
ivejustpromisemethatyouar
enotgoi
ngt oget
yoursel
finjur
edordosomethi
ngthatwi
llcausea
havocbetweenus
Me:
Iswearbabyandt
hankyouf
oral
lowi
ngmet
o
go..isai
dst
andingupIhuggedherandkissedher
foreheadIwentout.
..
sowhenIgoti
nt heclubmy
fri
endsandtheirgi
rl
swerealr
eadytherewait
ingf
or
me
Me:
Gent
s..
.isai
daswest
art
edgr
eet
ingeachot
her
Sbu:Awuuthemanoft
hehour.
.hesai
dpl
ayf
ull
y
wrestl
ingwi
thmewechuckl
ed
Me:
soni
phuzani
?<whatar
eyoudr
inki
ng>
Phi
lani
:Bal
veni
e,
Glenl
ivetandsomeBr
ewmei
ster
..
Me:
Uyahl
anyawenayeses<youar
emad>wel
aughe
Luu:butyouaskedmosssosi cel
auzibonasisela
please<wewantt oseeour selvesdri
nking>Icalled
thewaiterandorderdthemostexpensi vewhi skeys
andbeerhatt heyrequest
edbecauseIam t heone
whoaskedt hem t
omeetatt heclub
Sbu:phel
angebasi
chi
thakobusisevenmanj
e<we
shouldbecumingf
ort
heseventhtimenow>we
l
aughed
Me:
Jaj
abutIwil
lal
waysret
urnt
hefavour
r
emembert
hat
..
theyal
lgr
oanedIl
aughed
Luu:nj
embausi nyobangot
ywalauzosixel
elanini
unobangela<asyouarebusybri
binguswi thal
cohol
whenar eyougoingtotel
lusthereasonwhywe
here>hesaidopeninghi
sbeercapIjustlaughedat
theword'nyoba'wowXhosaiskindofawkwar d
howcant heyuset hi
swordtocal
lbribe
Me:Iam gett
ingmarri
edthiscomi
ngSunday.
.t
hey
al
lturnedtomeeyesout ,
mouthhangi
ngandshook
waswr it
tenonthei
rfaces
Luu:Iwonderngubanilounqwenel auyokorobha
amaf ukubaalokuGi nt
sakaziakathikusasa<I
wonderwho' scravi
ngt owasht hecloudsbecause
thatfemalegangsterdoesn'tpl
ay>hesai dt
hat
refer
ringt
omywi fe
Philani
:avee-
innocentmawumbhekilekantiyheeyh
ucleverlamuntu<sheswaytooinnocentwhenyou
arelookingatherbutheyshe'
sasavaget hatone>
Sbu:Sonqenhackerkemina<am t
ir
edof
hacking>wej
ustlaughedathowhet r
iedt
oimi
tat
e
Luu'
sXhosaaccentwhi l
esayingt
hat
Me:
Ther
e'snoonedyi
ngher
eit
'smei
nvi
ti
ngyout
o
khi
thaandI
'
sweddi
ng
Them:
Nigga.
.t
heyhypedme
Tina:
Wowandam onl
yhearingthi
snow.
.shesai
d
taki
ngasi
ponhernon-al
coholi
cchampagne
Pear
l:
Maybeshef
orgott
otel
lus
Ti
na:whocanfor
gettoinvi
teherf
ri
endsonher
weddingdayIwi
llwai
t
Me:Ladi
eswaitf
ormet ofi
nishtal
kingpl
ease(t
hey
nodded)
thi
sisasurpr
iseweddingshedoesn'tknow
i
tsokeepitli
ket
hatpleaseguys
Them:
Huh!
!whatar
eyousayi
ngut
hini
Me:yessoal
lyougottodoistocallyourt
ravel
agentsi
fyougotoneandtellt
hem tobookaf l
ight
andahotelr
oom foryouguys
Luu:
hayi
bonj
ayam wher
e'st
heweddi
ngat
?
Me:
Greece
Them: Yooooh..
theysaidastheyputt
heirhandson
theirheadsthedr amarandnowtheyjustdrew
attenti
ontoourt abl
e
Luu:
Njayam ut
hiuhaveasurpr
iseweddi
ngf
oryour
wif
ewhichwi l
lbeatGr
eece?
Me:
Yessi
r.
.lsai
dsi
ppi
ngonmywhi
skey
Luu:
Yooohl
omf
o<t
hisguy>
Phil
ani
:soyousaidi
t'
sasur pri
seweddingri
ght
?(I
nodded)sohowdidyoupullthi
sout?
Imeanyouar e
amanr ight
,howdoyouknowshewi lll
ikei
t?
Me: NjakaBhovunganekunentoababyibizaint
ernet
soIconsul teditandbesideswhenIwasshoppi ng
thecar gotoAmer i
caIal
sowenttoGr eecesoIcan
bef acetofacewi ththenumberoneweddi ng
plannerandIt oldherwhatmywi fewoul dl
ikeher
weddi ngtobel i
keasIwasbusyaski ngherabout
thekindofweddi ngshewouldli
ketohaveandal l
theneccet i
es
Luu:
Mf ondi
niar
eyouawar eoft
hepr
essur
eyouar
e
putt
ingusunder..
theyl
aughed
Ti
na:andi
thit
hinasot
shatel
aePar
isbaby?
<wear
e
goingtogetmarri
edatPari
sri
ght
>sheasked
brushi
ngherman'sfade
Luu:
yabonaBandzmf
ethu<yousee.
.br
uh>
Sbu:soNj
ayam howmuchdi
dthi
scostyou?
am j
ust
cur
ious
Ot
her
s:Yeswewantt
oknow
Me:
sof
arIhavespentacoupl
eofMi
ll
ions.
.
Pearl
:Chelet
eekanayooohnoIwantt
oenrollat
khit
ha'sacademyyeses.
..
thel
adi
eswerebusy
prai
singher
Tina:
lont
oumakhuluwakhei
swor
kingovert
ime
<hergranny>wel
aughed
Phil
ani:
NjakaNtshangasewowyouar
ejusttel
li
ng
ustoupourgamebutanywaycongr atul
ati
ons
Njakagogo..
theyallbr
ohuggedmeand
congratul
atedme
Ti
na:
Yooosonqeniunayobri
desmaidkengoku<am
l
azyt
obeabr i
desmai dyouknow>
Luu:
Sonqenbayibestman<am l
azyt
obea>we
l
aughed
Sbu:
wehavet
otel
lNat
hiandhiswif
eaboutt
his;
so
whenar
ewesupposet
odepartnj
ayam?
Me:TuesdayorWednesdayorThur
sdaybuton
Fr
idayit'
sBachel
orpart
y
Ti
na:mnandihambangol
wesi
binisoz'
uvekal
ok<I
wi
llgoonTuesday>
Phi
lani
:sengxame<youcan'
twai
t>
Pearl
:Shei
sgoi
ngtobesohappyicani
magineher
wait
siImeansheal
wayswantedt
ovisi
tGr
eece
Me:Yeahyenasheknowsthatwewil
lbegoingto
Greecebutonl
yforafami
lytr
ipshedoesn'
tknow
i
t'
smor ethant
hat.
..
Tina:Ididn'tknowt hatZulumenar et hisromantic
wowguysbutBandzIam j usthappyf orthebothof
youImeanmar r
iagei sabeaut ifult
hi ng..
weal l
agreedsowecont inueddrinkingandt alki
ng,
Ihad
anar guet ogoandpeesoIst oodupandwentt o
mensbat hroomsanddi dmybusi nessandwhenI
wasdoneImetMi randashe'soneoft heVarsi
ty
girl
st hatsendmenudesvi aD. M Iknowhershe
evenwentanext rami l
ebycomi ngint omyof f
ice
butunf ortunatel
yIdi dn'
thavet i
mef orherIwas
goingt oameet i
ng
Her
:Heydzaddy.
.shesai
dseduct
ivel
y
Me:
Mir
andaunj
ani
?<howar
eyou>
Her:
Am goodbutnotsogood.
..
iwonderwhat
doesshewant
s
Me:Wanttotal
kaboutit
?shenoddedasshe
unbut
tonedhershortdr
essandheryel
lowt
hick
bodywasondi spl
ay
Her :
Iwouldlikeyout
ohavemedzaddy..shesaid
touchingherselfwhi
chshedidonaseductivewayI
wast urnedondon'tj
udgemeIam amanIgot
feeli
ngstoososhecamecl osert
omeandt r
ied
kissi
ngIj ustpi
nnedheronthewallanddry
humpedher
Me:
canyoufeelt
hat
?Isai
dpr
essi
ngmyer
ect
ionon
t
opofhercoochi
e
Her
:YesIcan.
.hervoi
cehasnowchanged
Me:canyoufeelt
hesizet
oo?
shenoddedasIwas
busydryhumpingherandpr
essi
ngmysel
ftoher
Me:Umncanesi
siuyezwai
zokudabul
alent
o
uzohambangewheelchai
rformorethan2weeeks
andmi ssyourst udi
eshowbad? sopl easejuststay
farawayf rom meorel sengi
zokudl ami nangishiye
i
sibel ekosidingaoperati
onuyezwa<youar eyoung
thisisgoi ngtotearyouapartandyouwi l
luse..
.or
elseIwi l
lfuckyousohar dandleaveyourdamage
yourwombi twil
lneedt obeoper ated>nowwear
yourdr essandbeagoodgi rl
..
.ifixedmysel fandI
wal kedoutonmywayt owhereIwassi tt
edimet
themi ghtyOkuhlewithherfr
iends
Her:
brot
her.
.shecametohugmeandherf
ri
ends
wantedtosoIlett
hem be
Me:
howar
eyoul
adi
es?
Them:
ohhGod!
!!
Fri
end1:Iwoul
dn'tmi
ndwakingnexttoahunkli
ke
thi
sandbeingtol
dthatIam l
ovedwit
hthatvoi
ce
whoooaam drenched
Them:
Gir
l.
.t
heysai
dchecki
ngme
Me:unfor
tunat
elyam notavai
labl
ebutyoucankeep
ondreaming..
Mirandashowedupandshequickl
y
l
ookeddownwhenshesawme
Okuhl
e:ar
eyoual
ri
ghtf
ri
end?
Mi
randa:
Yesbabe.
.t
heysai
dhuggi
ngeachot
her
Me:
Iwi
llseeyouar
oundmnt
ase
Okuhl
e:sur
e..
that
scol
diwentbackt
otheguys
Sbu:
haveyoucheckedwhatt
imei
sit
?
Me:ohshi
tubani
?<whatt
imei
sit
>heshowedmei
t
yoooham deadmeatIt
ookmycarkeys
Phil
ani:
Iam notget
ti
ngmar
ri
edanyt
imesoonno
thi
sli
fe.
.
Me: Neversaynever(welaughed)butguysitwas
just11pm mosshowdi di tbecomethislat
eit'
spast
1am al r
eadyyooam goinguf ist
edbumpedt hem as
iwal kedoutKhi
thaisgoingtobemad

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CHAPTERFORTY-
NINE
.
.
KHI
THA
.
.《DaysLat
er》
Wewer ef
inall
yinGr eece.
.guysican'
tbeli
evethata
wholemesleptandmadel ovei
nVolcanoView
Hoteli
nSantori
nitheonet heKardashianswer
eat
l
astmontham t hr
il
lediwassmi ll
ingtomyselfAm
bl
essedtohaveahusbandl iket
heoneIhaveIwi ll
ki
llahoeforthi
sman
Him:Morni
ngMaBiyel
a..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngmeand
caressi
ngmythi
ghs
Me:
Mor
ningBabawabo.
.hef
aint
lyl
aughed
Him:
Andwhyar
eyouupthi
searl
y?heaskedsi
tt
ing
andl
eani
ngont
hebedheadboar
d
Me:
whowoul
dsl
eepunt
ilmi
d-daywhi
let
heyi
n
Gr
eece?
Hi
m:butyouar
eri
ghtwehavet
ogosomewher
e
Me:
mhhhsohusbandbaei
saboutt
ospoi
lmehuh?
Hi
m:Iwi
llal
waysdo.
.wel
aughedaswewer
egoi
ng
t
otheensui
te

BANDI
LE

Sowewer efinallyi
nGr eecemywi fewassohappy
shecouldn'
tstopsmi ll
ingandpr aisi
ngthi
splace,so
wewokeupear lyinthemor ningbecauseIhadan
appoi
ntmentwi ththeweddi ngplannershehadt ofi
t
herweddinggownandmakeherchoi cesMom, my
auntandherfriendswer ealreadyatthebouti
que
andwejustgoti nacart hatIrentedandwhenwe
havearr
ivedatt hemallwewentt othebouti
que
Her
:Babywher
ear
ewegoi
ngt
o?
Me:Toseeaf r
iendwhowor kssomewher e(Isai
d
l
ookingaroundandasi fam l
ostornotsure)oh
her
e..t
henwegoti nandwewer ewelcomedby
Annahtheweddi ngpl
anner
Me:
HeyAnnah.
.isai
dhuggi
ngher
Annah:MrBi
yelait
'sni
cetoseeyouagai
n
ever
ythi
ngisreadysoshecanchoose,i
sshet
he
br
ide?Hey.
.Shesai
dinherGreekaccentasshe
of
feredmywi f
eahugandsheaccept editKhi
tha
wasconfusedIthi
nkshelookedatmeandbackt o
Annahwiththi
s'what
'sgoi
ngon'look
Her
:HiAnnah.
.f
aki
ngasmi
le
Annah:canwecomei npl
ease.
.shesaidleadi
ngus
tothecouchesam sur
emom andot hersarei
nthe
nextroom
Me: oknanamiIcanseet hatyouareconfused(I
saidtakingherhandsinmi neandmadeeyecont act
)
youwantcl ar
it
yaboutwhat'sgoi
ngonbabyt hi
sis
AnnahGr eecenumberoneweddi ngpl
annerIhir
ed
hersoshecanhel pmepl anourweddingwhichI
plannedi tt
obeasur pri
sebabythisi
snotaf amil
y
tri
pbutonSat ur
dayweget ti
ngmarri
ed..
shehad
thisunreadablelookonherface
khi
tha:whatdi
dyouj
ustsayBandi
le?
shel
ookedme
str
aighti
ntheeye
Me:YesImeanwhatIsaidam sureyouheard
me..
.t
earsst
artedfal
li
ngoutshehadherhandon
hermouthasifbit
ti
ngit
Her
:Babyareyousure?Imeanar
eyoubei
ng
r
eal
isti
c?babypleasedon'
tpl
ayme
Me:nobabyam notsoyoucan'
tevenrecogni
zethe
mightAnnahweddinggur
uplanner
..
shelookedat
her
Her :
OhhhmyGod( scr
eamed)babyIonl
yknowher
throughi
nternetandnowyesIcanseeher..
.she
crazil
yhuggedherAnnahwasal lsmil
es
Her:
Nani(shesai
df ai
ntl
y)Idon'tknowwhattosay
orwhattodonowt oshowyouhowmuchI
appreci
atethi
sBandileI
.(sni
ffs)i
..
.shej
ustcr
iedand
Ihuggedhersotight
Me:Youdeservei
tbabyyoudo.
.isai
dcar
essi
ngher
back.
.wepull
edout
Her:
aren'
tyout hebesthusband?myhusband,my
nani
,mylife,myallIloveyousomuchBandil
eIjust
don'
tknowwhatt odot oshowyouhowmuchI
appr
eciatethisimeani twon'
tbeenoughizi
nto
i
ndenzelazona<t hingsyoudoforme>Bandil
eare
j
ustsoper fect
Me:
iloveyout
oonanami
..
weki
ssedasAnnahwas
busypl
ayi
ngwitht
heki
dsxoxocamet
ohugour
l
egswelaughed
Us;
par
typooper
Thenmom andt hem cameoutwithbal
loons
writ
tencongrat
ulat
ions,
acrownandabeltl
iket
hing
writ
tenBRIDETOBEt heygavemeacrownsot hat
Icanputitonherheadandmymom hel pedher
wit
ht hebodycrossbelt
Her:
Youguysar esowr onghowcanyounottel
l
me?Mom? Tina?Pearl
?Koket
soandwenaImetyou
att
hemal lonMondaywowguyswowdon' tt
alkto
me,,
Heyauntiza.
.shesaidhuggi
ngmymom' ssist
er
andtheybabykissed
Koket
so:
Andr
uint
hesur
pri
senoIdon'
tthi
nkso.
.
Ti
na:
Andwhenyourhusbandt ol
dusthatyouguys
ar
egetti
ngmarr
iedIwassodisappoi
ntedthatyou
di
dn'
ttel
lmeIwasgoingtogetmadmnt asebutit
wasasurpr
iset
hough
Pearl
:Andevenifwehavet ol
dyouiwasn'tgoi
ngt
o
seeyouruglyface.
.t
heylaughedhershef
aked
tear
sandwi pethem andIcomfort
edherasshe
r
est
edherheadonmychest
Koket
so:Andwhenar etheregi
str
ati
onsopening?
I
wanttoenrol
latyouracademy..
theylaughed
Ti
na:
Andther
egi
str
ati
onf
eeguys.
..
theycont
inued
l
aughi
ng
Khi
tha:
Nextmont
hbabesandt
hef
eei
sR4500.
.t
hey
l
aughed
Me:gi
rls,
l
adi
esI '
vegott
oloveandl
eaveyouallI
wanttoseetheboysandbabyam l
eavi
ngwi t
hxoxo
andsiyaok.
.isaidl
ooki
ngatmywifeaf
terhuggi
ng
thel
adies
Her
:okmyl
ove.
.shecamet
oki
ssme
Mom:YoooIcan'
ttel
lthatIhavetot
all
ylostmy
son.
..
shesai
dmaki ngherselfl
ookpiti
fult
his
womananddramar
Aunti
za:
weehmntaseusul
otshi
wewena<you
al
readyl
ost
>welaughed
Me:hawumama,,
wher
e'sPhel
oandNosi
pho?
I
askedlooki
ngar
ound
Aunt
:att
hebal
conyt
aki
ngsel
fi
es.
.
Me:
mmmhf
utur
esl
ayqueensandOkuhl
e?
Mom: shewil
lar
ri
veonSat urdaywit
hNathi.
.i
noddedadItookSiyaandhi sbabybagandxoxoI
ki
ssedmywi feoncemoreandIwentoutl aughi
ng
ofhowt heywer
ecomplaining

KHI
THA
.
..
Canyourhusbandever ?canheeverplanyour
dream weddi ngwithouttel
li
ngyou?Chooseyour
dream weddi nggownsandmakeyouchooseand
venuesatt henumberonecount r
yyoualways
want edtovisitcabtheyever?notheycan'
tsoyou
allgottorespectmeam yourl eader
MomL:sowhichoneareyougoi
ngtochoose
Mamawabo?shesoundsli
keBandi
ler
ightnowIj
ust
smi
led
Me:Idon'
tknowIloveal
loft
hem,,Annahi
sit
possi
bleforaal
linone?
shelaughedAnnahi
sso
cal
m andhumble
Annah:unf
ortunatel
ynother
e'snoalli
nonebutI
am suggesti
ngf ort
hisonet
hewayi tr
evealsyour
bodyandhowyourboobspopoutoni nisjust
amazingplusyourmanwoul dalwaysment iont
hat
al
lyourweddi nggownsmustshowsomeassand
hi
ps..
.wealllaughedather
Me:
Aarghemakesmef eell
ikeIam t
heonl
ygir
l
whogotthi
skindandt
herearewomenoutther
e
whoaredol
ls
Koket
so:
Homemadedol l
s(shesaidsi
ppingonher
champagneandrol
l
inghereyes)
thosepeopl
ego
thr
oughthekni
fe
Pear
l:Andwhataboutyoubecauseyouareadoll
your
selfthatassi
sn'
tnotheavythough?
shesai
d
l
ookingather
Koket
so:NoSbusi
soisdi
ckmizi
ngmesogood
moGurlgooddi
ckgrowsyourassandhi
ps
Aunt
:Hewenant ombazane<heyyou
gi
rl
>language.
..
welaughed
MomL:Ishoul
dgetmysel
fonet
hen.
..
weal
llooked
ather
Aunt
:hawumnt
asear
eyouser
ious?
MomL:Idon'
tknowifi
t'
sthi
swineorwhatbutI
r
eal
lygottogetmysel
fapathol
ogi
call
ier
Ti
na:
ohhi
Deepmenemenekwedi
n<aver
ydeepl
ier
br
uh>
Pear
l:
IwonderhowBandi
lewoul
dfeelaboutt
his.
.
Me:Gur
lam askingmysel
fthattooyoooIt
hinky'
al
l
gottomeetatthecor
neratnight
Koketso:Ri
ght.
.wel
aughed.
..
.soIchoset heone
Annahr ecommendedanditwast heoneIlovedtoo
andshesai dBandi
lel
ikedi
ttooIcan'twaitforhi
m
topraisemesowewentt oacaket asti
ngandt he
guyswer ealr
eadyt
hereandwet astedallt
he
fl
avour s
Me;
sowhichonecanarewegoingt
ochoose?
he
washuggi
ngmefrom behi
ndandhi
sfacewason
myneckki
ssi
ngme
Me:
areyouevenl
ist
eni
ngt
omeNani
?
Ndil
e:mi
nangifunalenai
Cake<Iwantt
hisone>i
Red
vel
vetcake.
.hesai
dcuppingmycoochie
Me:Babyweareatt
hecakest
oreandpeopl
ear
e
st
aringatus
Ndi
le:
sowhat
?am t
ouchi
ngwhatbel
ongst
ome
moss
Me:okyouwil
lgetwhati
syour swhenwegett ot he
housefornowcanyoupleasefocus.
.herubbedhi s
di
ckonmyassasIwaswear ingashortgolf-
dress
Luu:
asozenobaseni
thanda<youwi
llnevereveni
f
youl
ikedit
>
Sbu:
sovel
ewej
ustbecamei
nvi
sibl
enj
ayam?
they
l
aughed
Philani
:Bandznj
ayam canyoulett
hepoorwoman
restYoohIswearyouyr estwhenit
'st
hatt
imeof
themont h
Luu:
Yooonjaninj
ayam i
tyekaineGr
avynj
e<howmy
ni
ggait
'seatabl
ewithi
t'
sgr avy>
Me:
Eeewyourf
ri
endsar
enast
y..
theyl
aughed
Ndi
le:
Ievenmuf
fitNj
ayam.
.
Phil
ani
:wenauyidl
isi
lei
ntwanayet
huandi
funi
nokuzwa<youfedourfri
endalovepor
ti
onIdon'
t
wantt
ohearwhatyousay>
Ndi
le:
Andi
mnandinj
ani<i
t'
swayt
oodel
ici
ous>
Luu:YoooIpr ayTi nadoesn' tIcan' tloveawoman
l
iket hi
sndi yiDyanmnai Dyanayicat ch.i<Iam a
Xhosamanwedon' tfal
ldeepi nlove>wel aughed
andwedeci dedonaZi ngyLemon4st epcakeand
afteral
loft hatwheni twasni ghtt i
memymanandI
wer echil
li
ngatt heJacuzzit akingpi csandpost ing
them ijustloveshowi ngof faboutmyl ifeImeanI
haveachi evedal otofthingsdon' tgetmewr ongI
grewuponapoorf amilysowhenigetsuch
treatmentsIj ustwantt of l
exandbeseenespeci al
ly
theoneswhot houghtIwoul dn' tmakei tinli
fe
becauseIgotpr egnantear l
ierthant hem sot hey
assumedt hatIhadnol i
feandIwi l
lforeverbeand
endupbei ngadr unkardlikemyl ateAunt
CHAPTERFI
FTY
.
.
Nomkhi
tha
It
'sFri
daynightbachelorpartydaysoweal lagreed
tonotgointhecl ubsoranywher ebutbeinthe
housewer entedit'
satri
plestoreyhousesous
l
adieswereatt hetopandt heguysweatt he
secondfl
oorandel derswer eat1stfl
oorwiththe
kidsmyladiesandIdeci dedonwear ingsomesexy
l
ingeri
eandsilkygownsweal llookedsexy
Koket
so:
Gir
lyougett
ingmarri
edt
omorr
owsotel
l
mehowdoyouf eel
?sheaskedsi
ppi
ngonherwi
ne
Me:Idon'
tknowguysIt r
ulydon'tam j
usthappyyou
knowmar ryi
ngyourcheerleader,
your
fr
iend,
husband,
your.
..
Tina:Yoooyoookhomesi siuyayazibukhewaqala
wat hethangoBandil
esakubonaungekho
uyawut handaumphant siwendodayakho<wai tsi
s
youknowwhenyoust arttal
kingaboutBandil
eyou
willdisappearonusyoul ovetobeingunderneath
yourman>wel aughed
Pear
l:
sheevencr
yfori
t.
.shesai
dpl
ayi
ngwi
thher
l
egsandsippi
ngonherwine
Koket
so:
Huh?
ourf
ocuswasonpear
l
Tina:
hayispeaksi
siyoucan'
tleaveushangi
ngl
ike
that
Pear l
;okIrememberwhenwewer eatmypl ace
havingdi nnerBandzwentt othebat hroom and
moGur lf
ollowedhim soyoual lknowt hatt
he
visit
orsbat hr
oom isi
nt hesamecor ri
dorasmy
bedroom soIeavesdr opont heirconvosobasi cal
ly
moGur lwasbeggingtobef uckedandBandi l
ewas
busyt hrowingsomedi ckthreatswasshe
threatenedno...
weallgaspedandl aughedIwasso
shyandembar r
assed
Me: Iwasdrunkguysdon'tyoudar estartjudging
meanhel lmanknowshowt olaythepi pe..
theyall
hypedmeandaf tert
hatIjustwenttost andatt he
balconyandlookedatthebeaut i
fulskiesfil
ledwith
startsandwatchedtheconstell
ationthatmymom
andIuset owatchIfeltsomeonehuggi ngmef r
om
behind
Ti
na:
areyouf
inebabes?
Me:
YesIam.
.idi
dn'
tevenl
ookather
Ti
na:
butyouhavet
ear
sonyourf
acenj
e..
owasn'
t
evenawar
e
Me:babesnott
oberudeIjustwanttobealone.
.she
noddedandwehuggedbeforeshewentinsidesoI
wascommemor at
ingal
ltheeventsofmy
chil
dhoodir ememberpl ayingdr essupwi thmy
mom' scl othesandshowedher ,
Iwoul dmodelf or
herandpr etendt obeabr i
deasshewoul djust
smi l
eandl aughatmeandt ellmet hatshewi l
lbe
therewhenIgetmar riedandr emi ndmeofwhatI
uset odot oget herwi thmyf at
herij ustcr i
edand
l
ookedatt heconst ellat i
onagai nandmyhear t
painedt hehur tandi tf el
tlikeIj ustl ostthem
yesterdayt henIt houghtaboutwhatmyauntwoul d
saysheal wayssai dt hatl uckyi st hemant hatis
goingt omar rymebecauseIcancookandt idethe
housesheal sosai dt hatshewi l
lbei nchargeoft he
alcoholatmyweddi ngil aughedsohar dandwe
agreedont hatIcr iedt oGodwhydi dhehavet o
takethem awayf rom mei twasear lyguysi twas
earlynowIam goi ngt ogetmar riedwi thoutthem
withoutmyf ami lyIgotnof ami l
yt hatIwoul d
alwaysr unt oGodr obbedmemyj oyIswearhedi d
iwantmyf athertowal kmedownt heaisl
eIwant
mymot hertohel pmecutt hecakeIwantmyaunt
onherdr unkmodeandbusykeepi ngpeopl e
enter t
ainedbyherhi lari
ousj okesandgossi pIwant
them Iwantt hem Isankont hefloorandleanedon
thecol dwal l
sasIwat chedt heskiesandcr iedI
hear dthef ootstepscomi ngcloserandaf tera
secondIsmel l
edmyman' scolognehewasbusy
singing'IdobyAmandabl ackandLasauce' andI
cant ellhewasdr unkwhenhesawmeont hatstate
hesatnextt omeevent houghshest ruggledsi t
ti
ng
downduet ohi ghbeveragei nt
akehedi dn'taskme
anyt hi
nghepl acedmeonhi slapandcar essedmy
backasIcr i
edwheniwasdoneIl ookedhi mi nthe
eyesyooguysmymanwashi ghhi seyeswer ered
hel ookeddownandsmi ll
edIcuppedhi sf aceand
kissedhi m hewassmel li
ngalcoholIsweart hey
wer eshower i
nghi m withit
Hi
m:URi
ghtmunt
uwami
?uf
unani
?
Me:yesIam Ij
ustwantt
otakeadvant
ageoft
he
dr
unkyou
Hi
m:t
hel
astt
imewef
uckedatt
hebal
conyyouf
ell
pr
egnantr
emember
?
Me:
itwasi
nJobur
gnowwei
nGr
eece
Hel
aughedasIgotont
opofhi
m anddi
dthet
hings
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FTY-
ONE
.
.
NARRATED

Itwasf i
nall
yt hedaythatwaschosenbyt heLord
thatt hetwol ovebirdswi l
lt i
etheknotandshow
theirloveinfrontofever yonet osee,
thevenue,
the
weddi ngdressandever yt hingwasbeyondbeauty
theBi yelasondi dn'
tflashhi s2Mi l
li
onUERdown
thedr ainitwasal lworthitspeakingofhim hewas
sti
llpassedoutatt hebedr oom al
onehiswifel
eft
ther oom becausei twasunaccept ablet
oseeherso
earlysohewasal onewhenhi sfri
endsbuggedin
Phil
ani
:Hayi
bomfethuulel
e?<nomanareyousti
ll
asl
eep>heaskedshaki
nghisfri
endwhoistot
all
y
outandsnori
ng
Sbu:Mfethumyekelelomuntuunqunuangi f
uni
kubonaamanyal a<bruhleavehim al
onethi
sperson
i
snakedIdon' twanttoseenakedness>Ndilewas
busysnor r
ingandLuut ookhisphoneandplayed
thewakingupal ar
mt oneinhisphoneandputiton
Ndil
esearhej umpedandhesatonhi sbutt
ockshe
l
ookedar oundandr ubbedhiseyes
Ndil
e:Whatthef
uckiswrongwi
thyouguys?hesai
d
sear
chingforhi
sboxerandwor
eitundert
hecovers
Luu:mf
ondi
niyouar
egett
ingmar r
iedtodayvuka
bafo<man.
..
wakeupbr
other>Bandil
escenesthe
room
Ndi
le:
wher
e'smywi
feni
na?
<youguys>
Sbu:Iguessshel
eft
..
aft
eraminut
eNat hicamei
n
l
ookingniceandhehadBandi
lesfavouri
tewhi
skey
whichcostR23000theybr
ohugged
Nathi
:Congr
atul
ati
onsntwanayamiIam pr
oudof
youam suretheot
hersaretaki
ngnot
es
Phi
lani
&Luu:
Weonlyget
ti
ngpr essur
enj
ayam.
.t
hey
l
ookedateachot
herandlaughed
Ndil
e;Letmegoandt akeabathIhavetobeclean
andsmel lnicebecauseihavetobeinBoraBoraby
theendoft heday..
.t
heyallgasped
Luu;
hayi
bosi
fel
ani
<whyar
ewedyi
ng>
Nathi:
Am justhappythatmywi fei
snotbesti
eswit
h
yoursotherwiseiwouldbeindebtsbynow..t
hey
l
aughedast heyal
lwenttofreshenupandthey
woretheirexpensi
vekill
ersuit
s

I
nKhi
tha'
sroom
.
.
Thebridewaslooki
nghell
afineshewasso
beauti
fulherdr
essfi
tt
edhersowel ljustt
heway
sheli
keditandherafr
owast iedint
oaneatbunny
andshehadacr ownon,whent heyweredonewi
th
hershestoodupwearingher30kheel sand
neckl
aceshewassobeaut i
ful
Ti
na:
Am sojealousr
ightnow.
.t
heyal
lhuggedand
pr
ayedf
ortheirbest
ie
Bandi
leMom:
Makot
iit
'saboutt
imesweet
s
Lukhanyoi
swait
ingf
oryou.
.Luuwastheonewho
wasgoingtowal
kKhit
hadownt heai
slet
heyal
l
wentout
Luu:Awusemhl emnt ase<youl ookbeauti
ful
si
bli
ng>shesmi ledthegirlsledt hewayast he
pi
anistplayedt hesuitablerhymef ort
hemoment
whenBandi lesawhi swi fehesmi l
edandt hetears
fr
eedthemsel vesf r
om hi sfacebecausehewas
l
ookingathi swor l
dt helovet hathehasf orheris
deeperthant heoceani tisgenuineand
unquesti
onabl eheloveshersomuchNat higave
hi
m at i
ssuehewassoshy, theygotcloserandLuu
handedKhi t
haovert oBandi le
Bandile:Nanamiumuhl e<youl ookbeauti
ful>khi
tha
smill
edandt heywentt ostandinf
rontofthepast or
astheser vicestart
edBandi l
ehasboughtkhi thaa
newr i
ngwhi chisdiamondshapedshecr i
ed
becauseshe' sbeenstanningonitandtheywer e
i
ntroducedt hem asMr &Mr sBiyel
aasever ybody
cheeredf orthem Bandil
esangt heNomkhi thasong
byMusakhi t
hawassot ouchedbyherman' s
beautifulvoiceandtheydancedandenj oyedaf ter
thatt
heytookaf
li
ghtt
oBor
aBor
afort
hei
r
honeymoon

'
THEEND'
CHAPTERFI
FTY-
TWO
.
Khi
tha

It'
sbeenawhol ethreeyear sandal othas
happenedandst i
llhappeningwel lokletmefi
llyou
guysinmyxoxoi s8year soldnowandhe' sin
grade2t hetwinsar e2yearsol dandIam heavil
y
pregnantam 7mont hspr egnantandIhavebeen
alonethisti
mebecausedaddyhasbeenbusywi th
wor ksohesayssoImanagedt ocl
eanhishotels
andmadet hem internat
ionalandyouknowwhat
thatmeansr ightmor emool asonowiam homet he
kidsareatschoolbecauseNdi l
esaidImusttakean
earlyl
eavebecauseIal waysl ookti
redspeaki
ngof
him hejustgotintothehouseIwentt ohugand
ki
sshi
m
Me:Youhomeearlyt
oday.
.isai
dtaki
nghi
sbr
ief
caseonhishand
Him: Icouldn'
tcopewi feyindodai khathele<mani s
ti
red>am goi ngt ot akeashowerok. .Inoddedashe
wentupst airssoIpl acedhi scaseont opoft heside
tableIhear davi bratingthingonhi scaseandIgot
curiousandwentt ocheckbecausewhenhegot
herehehashi sphoneont hehandsowhenI
openedt herewasaphoneandani ncomi ngcal l
from anumbersavedMi randaandmi sscal lsfrom
anumbersavedBel l
awheni tstoppedr i
ngi ngI
wentt ohisWhat sAppandcheckedt hechat sand
wowmyhear tdr oppedIsweari t'
snearmyki dneys
nowsohehasbeenf uckingar oundt hatiswhyhe
bear l
ytouchesmeandspendt imewi t
hmeyesi t
explainsitiqui cklyputhi st hingsbackt ot hecase
andIcl osedi tsohehas2phonesnowyooIwent
totheki t
chenandt ookmyi ce-cream andwentt o
watchTVasIdagi neat i
ngi tf astersoi tcancl ear
thelumponmyt hroatIwant edt ocr yIwant edto
scream butnoI mmat hugi toutandbecoolwi thitI
am notgoingtoaskhi m anythingandIoncef ound
usedcondomsononeofhi scar sandIdidn't
confr
onthim Ijustlett
hatsli
dandam goi ngt olet
thi
sonealsoIdon' twanthimt olietomeIdon' t
wanthimtol eavemeatt hemi ddleofthenightlike
hedoeswhenwehaveanar gumentIdon' twantt o
beslappedbecauseam i rr
it
atinghim iwil
lthugit
out
Aft
erawhi l
ehecomesbackwear i
nghisfor
mal
t
rouser,
rawgolft
-shi
rtandsemi
-f
ormalshoeshe
waslookingyummy
Me:wher
ear
eyougoingnani
?Isai
dsmill
ingbutI
wasfaki
ngi
tiwasscar
edbecausehe'
saboutto
l
eaveme
Him:Ihavelat
ebackt obackmeet i
ngsnanami
pl
easedon'twaitupformeIwi llbebacklat
e..
i
noddedhewentt otakehiscaseandwentt othe
ki
tchenwithitam sur
ehe' sgoingtotakeouthi
s
phonebecauseIam her ehethencamebackwi thi
t
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
acanyoupl
easechar
gemyl
apt
op?
Me:
nopr
obl
em Iwi
ll
..
isai
dtaki
ngi
t
Him: okletmego. .
heki ssedmyf oreheadandj ust
l
iket hathei sgoneIsankont hef l
oorandl eanedon
thedoorIcr iedhe'sgoi ngoutt her etobewi thone
ofthem andhe' sgoi ngtogi vet hem whatheshoul d
begi vingi tt
omeandwhatpai nsmei sthatwhen
theki dscomebackt heywi l
laskhi swher eabouts
andIhavet olieagai nbutwhatdi didot oGodI
meant hehappi nessIal wayshavedoesn' tlast
foreveranddi vorcinghi mi ssoi mpossibleImean
who' sgoi ngt otakecar eofmybabi eswhenam
goneIhaveoncet riedescapi ngandhecaughtme
andr emi ndedmeal lthethingshewoul dsayhe
saidi fIam notwi t
hhi mt henIwi llbewithGodor
Satansowhatam Igoi ngt ohi de?thismanknows
allplacespossi bl
esoIwi lljustst i
ckaround
aft
eraawhi l
emyki dsbuggedi nIwasatt
he
l
aungenowsoNdi l
ehiredadrivert
odri
vethem t
o
schoolandalsomet owhereverIwantt
ohedoenst
tr
ustmeaf t
erItr
iedescapi
ng
Sphe:
mamaubaba<mom dad>Iknowshewanthi
m
Me:akekhousemsebenzi
nibabykodwamna
ndi
khonane<he'satworkbutiam her
eri
ght
>
Si
ya:afunadlal
abhol
a<Iwantt
opl
aysoccer
>yooo
Ndil
ei sstr
essi
ngmehowam Igoi
ngt
oplaysoccer
wit
ht hisbel
ly
Xoxo:masambenimamazobayicouchyabo<l et'
s
gomom wi llbeacouchyousee>Ithinkhesawhow
IreAct
edoni txoxoi
sanobserverIlovetohat
ethat
abouthim Idon'
twanthi
mt oseewhenhi sfat
her
andIarenoti nagoodspace
Me:
okf
inewewi
llpl
ay
OKUHLE
.
.
GuysIhopey' allremembermenowr i
ghtsomyl if
e
hastakenahuget ur
nar oundIam nowi ndependent
thankstomybr otherwhocamet hroughformel i
ke
hehiredmeatt heMasakhanemi necompanyandI
am anadmi ni
strati
onmanagerhi m andiar e
bestbuddiesnosol i
fe'sgoodandnowIwasat
Oceanbasketwi thmynewl yf
oundf ri
ends
Bontle,
l
elethuandPal esa
Let
hu:
soshet
houghtt
hati
twi
lll
astf
orever
..
Entl
e:Argshewasdr eami ngsheim Idon'tblameher
shethoughti t
'sinthevill
ageherewedon' thave
cowskr aalsshemust '
vewokeupandsmel tt he
coff
ee..welaughedsoaiwasbusyupdat ingt hem
aboutkhithaandhowl ifehasturnedt obesourI
meanshedeser vesitshe'sbeenhappyandf lexing
aboutherl i
fejustyear
sagoandt houghtshe
ownedt hewor ldri
ghtnowshe' sseei ngflamesI
can'
tbecompet ingherovermybr othersoshe
knowst hatIcomewheneverIwantatt hathouse
andbr i
ngmyf ri
endMi randasomybr ot
hercanf uck
herintheirmat r
imonyhouseyest hat'showI
disr
espectandhat ehershecamet ot hi
smar ri
agea
nobodysoshedoesn' tevendeser vet obet reateda
queenandasf orhissonmybr otherforcedhi m
downmyt hroatsoIhadt olovehim andshei m he's
suchanangelbutIst i
llhatehisassandhi smama
Let
hu:
sothechanceofget
ti
ngmymanbackar
eon
a90%right
?sheaskedsi
ppingonherwi
ne
Me:judgi
ngfrom t
hesit
uat
ioni
t'sayes
chomzaza..
welaughedandcontinuedchat
ti
ngand
Palesawasoutofitshewaspretendi
ngtobe
i
nter
est
edIwonderwhatagendadoesshehave

Pal
esa
SoMr suniverseisseei ngflamesi nhermar ri
age
sheim manbutt hiswillgivemet hetimet ohavemy
pieceofhishusbandIal wayswant edhi m butwe
usedt ofuckbehi ndlethu'sbackwhent heywer e
datingbutsheneverf oundoutandnowIwantt hat
backsoIcoul dhavemoneyt hatmanf lashes
moneyt oeachandever ygir
lthatoff
ershim
coochiesoi t'
sobvi oust hatwifeydoesn'tknowher
j
obvi abedr oom affair
showbad? sohehasbeen
pretendi
ngal lalong
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FTY-
THREE
.
.
IstalkedhisInstabecausehe'salwayspostingand
ohhe' sinSumoncl ubsoIwentt herewear i
ngmy
sexiestpieceIknowhowhel ovessexythingsand
whenIgott her
ehehewaswi thSbu,Nathiandother
guysbutLuuandPhi laniwer
en'tther
eandIt hink
theyar enomor ef ri
endsbecauseIhaven'
tseen
them togetherinawhi l
esoIwentt osi
tonat abl
e
nexttot heir
sandwhenhest oodupandwentt othe
bathroom If oll
owedhi m andsecudedhim soyes
hisisnothar dtogetnomor esoweendedup
makingoutatt het heclub'
sbathr
oom event hough
hewasonl yconcent rati
ngonmybut thol
ei twas
sopai nfulandpl easurabl
ethough
.
NDI
LE
Iam att heclubbathroom andIjustdidshitagainI
knowyouhat emeal lbynowbutKhi thahasbeen
moodyshehasbeenpushi ngmeawaynotonl y
aftershegotpr egnantbutithasbeenawhi l
esoI
thoughtImustj ustherspacesoshecanbeal one
untilshecomesbackt ohersensesokIdr oveback
tomyhousei twasjustpast11pm andIwent
straighttoourbedroom andshewasr eadinga
bookIgr eetedherandwentt ot
heensui t
eIneedt o
cleanmysel fandIcamebackt oher
Me:
MaBi
yel
angi
cel
aukudl
a<canIpl
easehave
food>shej ustroll
edoutofbedandwentt ot akeit
shegavei ttomeaf terIwasdoneeat i
ngshe
cleanedmyhandsassheusedt oandshej ustslept
withoutsayinganyt hingoklam goi ngtosleept oo
anywayam t i
redaf ternoonIwasbusywi t
hMi r
anda
atherapar tmentwhi chi sbeingpayedbymeshe' s
probablymysi debecauseIt akecar eofherand
she'sstudyingt ooonet hingIlikeaboutheri sthat
sheunder standt hatIl ovemywi femor ethanher
andIdon' tgaraunt eewhatwedoi ngLuuand
Philanit
urnedt heirbacksonmeasf orLuuhe' sso
pissedofhowit r
eathi ssocal ledsistercousinI
don'tknowmuchaboutPhi lanisoIwentt ot he
offi
ceandvi deocal l
edBel l
ashe'st hecolouredI
metatt heclubyear sbackshe' salsomysi deand
she'sthejealousoneIhavet oalwayscheckupon
her
Khi
tha
Daysl
ater
》
Soit'
saSaturdayandIhavealatelunchdat
ewith
LuuattheBunsoutsoIwor eamaxi dresst
hatI
boughtatkhosinkosii
t'
ssobeauti
fulandmy
32inchcur
ledweaveandcomf ysl
idesIt
ookmy
handbagandwentdownstairsNdilewasbusy
cookingl
unchforhi
m andthekids
Me:Iam goingoutnanibutIwi
llbebacksoon.
.i
sai
dkissingmybabies
Hi
m:ohIthoughtweweregoingtohavelunchall
t
oget
herasaf amil
y..
hesoundeddi
sappointed
Me:am sor
rybutIhavepr
omi
sedLuut
hatIwi
ll
showup
Him:i
t'
sokenjoyyourl
unchbabyandIl
oveyou
ok.
.hesaidhuggingmeti
ghtandheper
kedmyli
psI
j
ustfakedasmi l
eandwalkedout
..
WhenIwasfinal
lyatt
heRestaur
antLuustoodup
andwehuggedandhet i
tt
ledmeIlaughedsohar
d
Hi
m:that
'
showIwant ed,
youl
ookedl
ikeyouhad
t
hisworl
dal
loveryourshoul
der
s
Me:Hayimnt
aseonl
yifIknewIwoul
dn'
tbeher
e
youknow
Hi
m:nodon'
tregretanyt
hingmntaset
hisshal
lpass
t
oo..
soweorderdandafterwehaveeatenwe
decidedtogot
otheparkandItoldhimther
ecent
scandalsiwascr
yingthenIfel
tasharppai
nonmy
abdomenandandIf el
tli
qui
dinbetweenmythi
ghsI
screamed
Him:kwenzekant
oni
?<whati
sgoi
ngon>hewasso
shocked
Me:It
hinkam inlabourbuti
t'
s8mont hsmoss..he
j
usttookmet othecarandhedr ovestr
aightt
othe
hospi
talandIwasadmi tt
edtothelabourward

BANDI
LE
Iwaswithmyki
dswhenIrecei
vedacal
lfr
om Luu
i
t'
sbeenawhole10monthsofnotcommunicat
ing
whatdoeshewantnow
Me:
Khul
uma<speak>
Hi
m:Yourwi
fei
sinl
abour
.
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
!
Hi
m:Youknowyourbesthospitalmakesur
eyou
br
ingal
ltheneccet
ies.
.hedi
sconnect
edthecal
l
whati skhit
hainlabourImeanhowokIknowt hatI
havebeenaj er
kbuthowcanIbest upidand
carelessli
kethatokIcall
edmom tot aketheki
ds
whilstItookthebagkhit
hapackedwi ththebaby
thi
ngswhensheIar ri
vedIwasalreadyreversi
ng
mycaranddr ovetothehospi
tal
whenIgottoherwhatshewasbusypushingLuu
washoldingherhandandencouragi
nghert
opushI
wentt
ot heothersi
deofthebed
Me:NanamiIam sorr
yam sor
ry.
.'
ahhhGodam I
dyi
ng'that
'
sherscreami
ngandkicki
ng
Luu:
thi
sisnott
heti
mebr
o..
ijustl
ookedathi
m af
ter
afewIheardl
it
tl
ecry
Dr:
it
'saboy.
.hesai
dhandi
nghi
mtomeIsmil
edhe
l
ooksexactl
yli
kemeheevenhast
hesamebi
rt
h
markasmineallmyki
dshavei
t
Luu:
Congr
atul
ati
onsman
Me:Thankyoubro..
igavehim hisnephewhe
smil
ledashewasl ooki
ngathim khithahaspassed
out
,Aft
erafewhour sIwascalledandIwaswi t
h
Phi
lani
,Luu,
TinaandPearlnowwewentt oherward
t
heybr
oughtgi
vesandbal
loons
Them:
Heybabymama..
theyhuggedandki
ssedher
asIwentt
osi
tnextt
oher
Dr
:sowhati
shi
sname?
Ilookedatkhi
thashemi
zed
me
Me:
Nanamisi
zombi
zabani
?<whi
chnamear
egoi
ng
t
ogivehi
m>
Her:
Andaziwazi
thi
yel
anjeekuqal
enikut shintsheni
ngoku<Idon'
tknowatfi
rstyounamet het wins
yoursel
fwhathaschangednow>Ijustlookedather
Luu:Bandi
leyi
thaninguLubenat
hisheal
wayssaid
that
'sthenameshewoul dli
ketogi
vehim..
inodded
sothedoctorandhewalkedout
Ti
na;It
hinkweshouldl
eaveyouguys.
.it
hinkt
hey
not
icedhowpissediwas
Phil
ani:Canyoupleaseconsi
derot
herpeopl
e's
feel
ingsforonceshejustgavebi
rt
hdon'tst
ress
her.
.hesaidwhisperi
ngonmyearwowso
everybodyknowsourbusinesswhenIwasleftwit
h
herandt hechi
ld
Me:
Whatwast
hataboutMaBi
yel
a?
Her:Iam noti
nthemoodf oranythi
ngi fyoumust
knowBandi l
eam ti
redndi
kuxelele<totellyou>t
he
nursecamei nwit
hpainki
ll
ersandot hermedsso
theyweredischar
gedandIdr ovethem home
Mom:
anot
heraddi
ti
ont
othef
ami
ly.
.shebabyt
alked
Khi
tha:
Iwi
llbeupst
air
s
Aunt
:l
etmehelpyoumakot
iyour
eal
lyneedt
o
pamperyour
sel
f.
.t
heyl
aughed
Okuhl
e:Yoohaiuyazal
ashei
m
Me:uthi
ni?Okuhl
eIknowt hatIhavevi
olatedmy
wif
e'srulesbybri
ngingyouherebutdon'tyoudar
e
t
alkI'
llaboutherok?
《AMONTHLATER》
KHI
THA

ThingsbeengoodBandil
ehasbeenacommi t
ed
fat
herandhehashelpedmeal otbuthe'
ssti
ll
seeinghi
ssidessoIhavejustdeci
dedtofi
nda
hobbyt hanstal
kingthir
styhoessoaf terIhave
healedIstart
edwor kingoutbecausemyst omach
wasst art
ingtodevelopsomef att
ies,
myl astborni
s
growingsof astandIhatethefactthatallmykids
areexactcopiesoftheirfat
her'
ssot odayit'
s
MondayIam al one

BANDI
LE
Iknockedof fearlytodayIjustgoti ntomyhouseI
wentupst ai
r stochangeIwor eajoggerpantand
sli
desIwentdownst air
sagainIcoul dn'
tfi
ndmy
wifebutmybabyi sonhi scoatsleepingIwentt o
thekitchenandt hereshei sallsexyshewas
wear i
nghisgym cl othingthoseshor tti
ghtsand
brasherasswasr oundandf atter,
herwaistwas
sli
m andherl egswer esobeaut i
fulIswearIwas
turnedIwal kedtoherandhuggedherf rom behind
andIpr essedmyer ectiononherassandIki ssed
herneck
Me:Sawubonananami<gr
eet
ings>Isai
dki
ssi
ngher
andcuppi
ngherboobs
Her:HiBandi
leand(her emovedmyhandsand
pushedmeasi de)
that'
sunacepptabl
ewehaveto
waitfor3monthssowecanbei nt
imatesopl
ease
don'tgeti
ntoyourfeel
ings
Me:
What?
!youcan'
tbeseri
ousyoumean1-
2-3
mont
hsnotdaysnotweeks?
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unatel
ythat'si
tandi t
'snotli
keyoudon' t
haveabackupmossanywayIhavet oattendmy
l
itt
lesomebody. .
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whatisshepl aningIknowhershe' sonto
somet hingIwatchedherassgi ngli
ngIbitmyl ower
l
ipandi maginedall t
hethingsiusedtodowi t
hit
aft
ershedi sappearedIreceivedacallfr
om Bella
Me:
wrongt
imi
ng
Her
:Iwasatyourof
fi
ce
Me:
yeahIknockedof
fI'
vegotawi
fer
emember
Her
:butyouhar
dlyhavet
imef
ormenow
Me:
Ihavet
hingstodoandnowt hatIam f
ather
ing
4ki
dsandbusinessesam ver
ybusy
Her
;i
sthi
sal
laboutl
astweekend?
Me:
GoodbyeIwi
llseeyouonFr
iday.
.idi
sconnect
ed
Khi
tha:
whowast
hat
?
Me:
acl
ient
..
shej
ustgi
ggl
edandshookherhead
Khi
tha
theweekwent -
bysoqui cknowi twasSat urdayjust
after12soIdeci dedtogooutt odayandiwas
wear i
ngt hosetightshortblackj umpsuitsi
tdrew
mybodygoal sIwor emyf il
ayel l
owsneaker sandI
fi
nishedmyl ookwi thaboyf ri
enddeni mjacketI
tookmy80kL. Vslingbagt hatwasboughtbymy
husbandyest erdaymymake- upwasont opsI
topedof fwithbeaut i
fulshadesIwentdownst air
s
andBandi l
eandxoxower ewear ingapronsbaking
what evertheyhadf l
ouralloverevent heli
tt
leones
Xoxo:
osemhl
emamam <youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
mama>hesmill
ed
Ndil
e:Nanamimawugqokekanjezi
shaphi?<whyyou
weari
ngliket
hatwhat
'stheoccasi
on>Ijustl
ooked
athi
m andmadeaseduci veposeandlaughed
Me:
Thankyouboywel
lhusbandIam goi
ngt
othe
mallagirlneedanewweaveandal lIwi
llberi
ding
onyourG63andIhaveyourbl ackcardtoo
toodl
es..
irushedoutbef
orethetwi
nsseeme. .
when
Iarri
vedatthemallIwentst
rai
ghttothesalon
Owner
:Lookwho'
shere.
.hecametohugmehe'sso
wel
comingandni
cethat'
swhyIli
kegayguys
Me:
It
smwhaaa.
.andOkuhl
e,Mi
randaandEnt
lewer
e
t
her
etooi
nst
all
ingsomeBrazi
li
an
Owner:
ohmygoshgi
rlyoul
ookf
lameswhatdi
d
yourmansay?
Me:hedidn'
twantmetol
eaveonsome'
uyakuphi
ugqokekanjal
o..
wedi
edofl
aught
erandthe
att
enti
onwasonushepouredmemyf avouri
te
champagne
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sAPl
usgr
adeofMel
uvi
an
45i
nch.
.hescreamed
Owner:
I'
vegoti
t!
!I
'
vegoti
t!
!hesai
djumpi
ngupand
down
Me:
Ndi
yayi
cel
atu<canIhavei
t>
Owner
:i
t'
s26konl
ychomzaza
Me:
Noprobl
em babyIwi
llpay.
.ever
yonet
urnedt
o
meeyesout
Owner:t
hat'soneyouaremynumberonecust
omer
am soinlovewit
hyoubabesl
etmecallt
he
prof
essionalhi
mselfhewasi
nst
all
ingBonang
hoursago
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all
auDaduboRihannanee
Kardashianskal
oku<hemustcomeandi nst
all
RihannaandKardashianssi
bli
ng>wedi ed and
he'stheonewhocameupwi t
hthathesaidI'
vegot
thekim bodyandbecauseIuseRihannasmake- up
coll
ecti
onsoIam her
OKUHLE
.
.
Somygi rl
sandIwer eatthemal lwesawKhi t
haat
thesalonhonest lyguysweal lhavet oadmititwe
allgetjeal
ousseei nganot hergir
llivingtheli
feyou
l
iveinyouri maginati
onsImeanshehasmybody
goalsialwaysst alkherInstaandpi cturemyselfi
n
herbodyandl i
vingherli
f eandt hesl ingbagshe
hadi t
'stherecentoneweal lknowL. Visthemost
expensiveBrandwelltoherit '
snothi
ngandwhat
pissesmeof fist
hatmybr otherworshi
psthe
groundshewal ksont hat
'swhyIhavebeenshovi ng
Mi r
andadownhi sthroatandhi m asamanhegot
temptedbecauseMi randaisadol lguys,
soMrshas
beenshoppi ngal
ldayshehadChannel
bags,Zara,
L.V,
DolceGabbanaandFent ysosheis
alsousingthemostexpensi vemake- upseewhyI
hateher
Ent
le:
Shemaylookhappyandal
lbutsheai
n't
get
ti
ngiti
nthebedr
oom
Me:hahahayhooophel
ashe'
sbusyspendi
ngmy
br
othersmoneyIdidnoti
cet
hatshewasswippi
ng
hi
sblackcard
Mir
anda:
andIhaveaskedhi
mfora12kt
obuya
l
aptophemizedme
Me:hahathatXhosachi
chashim byhi
sball
sup
yourgamechommi ebecausehi
m andIar
eno
l
ongerbesti
esnow
Ent
le:
Yourbrotheramazemesohast heonewho
hastodi
srespecthiswi
fenotever
ybodyelse.
.we
wal
kedt
othepar
kingl
otand
Me:wai
twai
tlookatthat
..
soshewasbusyhuggi
ng
amanshewasal lsmil
esandblushi
ngIt
ookmy
phoneandt
akepictur
esofthem
Me:Iam goingtosendthem tomybrotherasi
n
now..
weal lagr
eedont hatsowhenwehavesettl
ed
atEntl
espoloIsentthem pict
uresvi
awhatsapp
andmydearbr otherbl
uet i
ckedme
KHI
THA
Guyslet'
sagreeonthisshoppingisexhausti
ng
ri
ght?sowhenIwasbusyshoppi ngImetLucas
that
'swhatIcallhi
m he'
sayummyol dmannott hat
oldmaybehe'sonhe'slatè40sandhesochar ming
i
fyouknowI dri
sAlbaorwhoeverhei syeshelooks
l
ikehim soLucasisoneoft heboar dmembersI
j
ustsignedwhenwewenti nter
national
.OknowI
wasdr i
vingi
ntomyyar dandIpar kedmycarand
tookallmybags
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FTY-
FOUR
.
.
Ithenwenttot akethesecondoneandt
henit
ook
them alli
nsi
det hehouseNdil
ewaswatchi
ngtvat
thelaungealone
Me:Naniwher
ear
etheki
ds?
Iaskset
tl
ingnextt
o
hi
m
Him:
theyar
esleepi
ngNomkhi
thawhatar
eyou
doi
ngwithLucas?
Me:
Huh?
Him:YouknowIhat
erepeat
ingmysel
f.
.ir
oll
edmy
eyes
Me:Bandileyouar esofunnyyouknowl etmet el
l
youthis;
noteverybodyi sacheatjustlikeyouokI
respectmyweddi ngvowsmnaIr espectandf ear
theLordsodon' tyoueveraccusemeofadul t
er y
andasf orLucashewasbei ngagent l
emant hathe
i
shehel pedmewi ththebagsandwehadaconvo
youknowhowsar casti
cheisjustliketheoldyou
andyeshei schar mingbutheisal soapast orhe's
wayt ooloyalt
ohi swifeandhel oveshersopl ease
maar nNaniifyouar enotgoingtogi vemeaf oot
massaget henstopaski ngme21quest ions.
.i
answer
edhimjustl
iket
hatIknowhowhehat
esi
t
butheneededt
ohearit
Hi
m:MhhhokIhearyou.
.ipl
acedmylegsont
opof
hi
m ashet
ookoffmysneakersandst
art
edgi
ving
mehismagi
calmassage
Me:Iknowyout hinkingofsomethingletitbe
somethinggooddon' tyoudarekil
lLucasBandi l
e
he'
sinnocentratherkil
lyourhypocri
tesisterof
mustidot hehonor s?
Hi
m:What
?!
Me:ndi
yekekhondi
hambendoyol
ingani
sai
impahl
a
zam <l
eavemeletmegoandfitmyclot
hes>
Him:
songi
zeuzongi
model
ela?
<canIcomet
ooso
youcanmodelf
orme>
Me:CabauMi randanoBel laabakwaziYi
zanani
uzondibona<sot heycan'tmodelcomeandseeme
nani>Imuffl
edthef i
rstpartandIswearhehear
d
mehej usttookhisbagsandf ol
lowedme
Hi
m:NanamicanIpl
easeki
ssi
tke?
Me:
KisswhatBandi
le?
...
het
ouchedmyboot
y
Hi
m:t
hisbaby
Me:makeitqui
ckIwanttofitmynewcl
othes.
.sohe
bentdownandgrabbeditandki
ssedi
taft
erthatI
woremyclothesandshowedhim
Him:babythosecl
osear
etight
,t
ooshor
t,
too
reveal
ingandsomuchshitKhi
thayouaremywi
fe
notsomegi r
l
Me:
Yoouzot
hinikengoku?
kubakal
okundi
zozi
nxi
ba
Him:MhhhNomkhi thauyazi
phat
haneyoudoas
youpleaseIoncetoldyouandIam goi
ngtorepeat
thi
sIam yourgoddamnHUSBANDr espectme
Me:ohnowhet alksabout'respect'ungubaniwena
Bandil
e?whoar eyoubusyt el
lingmeaboutr espect
whenyoucoul dn'trespectme, ourmatri
moni al
houseandmyef fortsonthef amilybusiness
huh?Youdisrespectedmewhenyoust i
ckyourdi ck
i
nsideanotherbitch'spussyyouevensl eptwithher
onthebasementi nourhouseBandi l
eyouar eeven
fi
nancingherli
feaswespeakshe' sont he
apart
mentthati sbeingpayedbyourmoney, eati
ng
foodthatwasboughtbyi tandbusysl ayingandon
topofthatshe'
sdisrepecti
ngmesowhatdowecal l
thatBandi
lehuhwhatdowecal lit
? .
.iwasn'
teven
shouti
ngIwassocal m Ihavebeenwai ti
ngfora
ti
mel i
kethisIwantedtogivehimt hepieceofmy
mind
Hi
m:BabyI
..
I.
Me: Youwhatsor ryBandilesayi tsayyoudi dn't
meani tbl
amemef orbeingmoodyandcol dt oyou
whi l
styouwer ethereasonbehi ndi tBandileIwas
pregnantf orf ucksakeIneededyout ocomf ortme
event houghIwoul dshoutatyouf ornor eason
becauseIwasn' tmyselfhor moneswer eget ting
betterofmeandngaphakokoIdi dn'timpr egnat e
mysel fyoudi dandyoust i
llhavet heaudaci tyto
callmesel fishandbl amemef oryourst upidand
selfi
shways, Bandi l
eyouhur tme, youhur tme
Bandi l
ewhenIt houghtofescapi ngbecauseIhad
enoughyoucoughtmeandl ockedmeupi nt he
houseandst i
llHur tmemor e..
.ibrokedownand
cri
edIcoul dn'tholdmysel fanymor ehetriedget ti
ng
cl
oserIki ckedhi m,hetri
edhuggi ngmeIpushed
him ont hef arcor nerIheardhi m bumpont hewal l
andfl
inchedi
npai
niwenttomydr
awerandt
ook
mygunoutandIpoint
edandhi
mtheshooki
nhi
s
eyes
Him:Khit
haIknowIf uckedupbutpleaseplease
Nanamidon'tkil
lmebabypl easeIam sor
ryIwill
nevereverdoitagai
n..
hewasbusybeggi ngmeasI
wasloadingthebull
etsonit
Hi
m:Babythi
nkaboutourki
dswho'
sgoi
ngt
ofat
her
t
hem l
ikeIdi
d?.
..
CONTI
NUATI
ON

Idi
dn'tsayanyt
hingIgotcl
oserwherehewas
shei
m whowoul dhavethoughtt
heBigShark,
Thee
Terminat
or,
Theonewhor unsJoziandPret
ori
abe
onhiskneesbeggingforhi
sli
fe
Him:Babypleasedon'
tdoitpleasengiyakucela
nanamiIpromisetoneverlookorbreaththesame
ai
rasanotherwomanbesi desyou,babyyoucan
sayanythi
ngyouwantmet odoIwi l
ldoi tbaby.
Me:
Iwon'
ttel
lyouwhatt
odoBandi
leIwon'
t
changethewayyouf
eel
aboutBel
laandMi
randa
Bandil
e
Hi
m:BabyIf
eelnot
hingIswearIdon'
thaveany
f
eel
ingsf
orthem
Me:Sowhydi dyoucheatonmewi t
ht hem?am Inot
goodenough?don' tIsat
isf
yyourneeds? orisi
t
becausetheyareyoungert hanmeandt heydon't
havekidssotheirpussiesarefr
eshert hanmine
huh?Bandil
ewhenyoucheatonawomant hatthi
ng
cutsdeepwest artquesti
oningourlooksand
comparingonsomet hi
ngthatshehasandImi ght
belacki
ngsot el
lmewhydi dyoudoi t?
Hi
m:Babyi
twasl
ustj
usti
tnot
hingmor
e
Me:
Thenwhyar
eyoust
il
lgi
vingherourmoney?
Hi
m:Ihonest
lydon'
tknowbaby
Me:Doyouloveher?myheartwasbeat i
ngfast
er
nowIwasaf raidt
hathemightconfessandsayyes
sheloveshertoo,
myworldwil
ljustshatt
eri
nfr
ont
ofmyeyes
Hi
m:noIdon'
tloveherbabyIwasonl
ydoi
ngt
hat
becauseiwant
edt
ohavemywaywi
thheratany
gi
ventimeandday
Me:soi
tthathowyouthi
nkofwomen?thatt
hey
canbeboughtandbecomeyoursexsl
avesBandi
le?
Him:Babyno..
ididn'
tevenwai
tforhi
mt ofini
shI
pull
edthetr
iggerandfir
edtwobull
etsnexttohi
m
hebeggedmehewasevencr yi
ngthisti
meAar g
crocodi
let
ears
Me:Answermydamnquest
ionBandi
le.
.if
ir
ed
anotherone
Hi
m:nobabynochacha.
.iwant
edt
olaughbutno
t
hisi
saseri
ousmoment
Me: Bandi
leyourprobl
em isthatyouknowhow
muchIl oveyouandyouar et akingadvantageof
thatandt el
lyouwhatasyouuset osaythatyou
andIar estucktoget
heryeswear eandnexttimeI
fi
ndshi t
(Ifi
redashotnexttohi m)Iwil
lnotshot
blanksbitchnigga
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FTY-
FIVE
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
Whoooat hatwascl oseIt
houghtIwasgoi ngt odie
manIknowmywi fedoesn'tpl
aygames, youguys
mi ghtthinkIwasf aki
ngthoset ear
st heywer er ealI
wasn' treadyt odieandaboutt hecheat ingt hingyI
thoughti twoul dendsoqui ckIdidn'tplant obeso
deepIt ookmyphoneandwentt othebat hroom to
takeashowerif i
rstl
ycall
edMi randashepi ckedi t
ont hethirdr i
ng
Her:
dzaddyIdi
dn'
tknowyouevenuset
hisnumber
especi
all
ywhenyouareathome
Me:Mirandaam sorryaboutwhatIam goi ngtosay
butpackallyourshitandevacuatethatapartment
andwhat everwehadi soverdon'tt
rytocallme
unl
essyoudon' tmindbei ngwit
hyourancest ors.
.i
di
sconnect edt
hecal landcal
ledBell
ashepi ckedit
onafirstri
ng
Her;
Handsomeam sur eyouarenotgoi ngtocancel
ourni
ghtImeanmyf i
ancéjustdroveouthei s
worki
ngnightshi
ftsoIam allyourstonight
Me: Bel
lathi
sisthelastt
imeyour ecei
veacal lf
rom
meunder standandwhat everwehadi soverIknow
youl i
keacti
ngpsychobutdon' ttr
ydoi ngthaton
mywi f
ethatoneisabeastam notsayi ngthis
becauseam t hr
eateni
ngyounoshewon' tthi
nk
twiceaboutshooti
ngyourf latassnowst ayaway
from meok
Her
:Iwoul
dli
ket
oseehert
ryme
Me:don'tletyourcolouredtrait
spl
aytri
cksonyou
Bell
adon' tyoudar emesswi thmywi f
eunless
otherwiseandpl easebeal adyandacceptbreakup
thesethingshappenImeant hi
nkaboutyourfi
ancé
howwi llhetakeitbehumanandst opbeingself
ish
andit'
snotl i
keIst i
llwantyouam donebitchbyee.
.i
l
etoutahugesi ghandpl acedmyphoneont opof
thesinkandIwentt otheshoweryooowhataday

Khi
tha

SoIwaseavesdr
oppingNdi
lesconvoandhi
sside'
s
soappar
ent
lyhebrokeupwiththem somypl
an
wor
kedandnot hisisnothowIwant editIwanted
t
ohandl
eitbymyownsel fIwantedtofeedthem to
t
heli
onsbutkeIwilll
etitbeli
kethattheybet
ternot
t
rysomet
hingsi
llyother
wi sei
t'
sgoingtobesour
CONTI
NUATI
ON
.
.
Oknowi tj
ustpast7Ndil
ewasonhi soffi
ceafter
ourl
it
tlemovieandnowIam busydi shi
ngasmy
ki
dsar epl
ayingar
oundandmyonemont hold
sweethear
tisbusybabylaughi
ngandt al
kingashis
si
bli
ngswer ebusyplayi
ngwrest
li
ngandt henafterI
hear
dacr ythati
sSiya
Me:hayihayibendi
thenikuningesi
li
lo<nonowhat
di
disayt oyouaboutcr yi
ng>
xoxo:kal
okumnamamabendi nguJohncenayena
enguRomanndamphakami sandambetheki
sa
ndamj ul
awanya<mom IwasJohncenaandhewas
RomanandIl i
ftedhi
m andthr
ewhim andhe
shit
ted>
Ndi
le:
Vul
garxoxoVulgar
..hesai
dcl
imbi
ngdown
f
rom t
hestai
rshetookSiyaandcomfor
tedhi
m
Si
ya:
Ungi
shayi
leuBobo
Xoxo:
Mynamei sBaxol
isea.
k.axoxonotBobo
wenanent
loko<youwit
hbighead>
Me:
Ndi
zakubet
haBaxol
ise<Iwi
llbeatyou>
Xoxo:
Ndi
cel
aukut
yaMaBi
yel
a<canIpl
easehave
food>
Ndi
le:
LiseapologisetoSiyabef
oreaski
ngf
oodand
cal
li
ngmywi felikethat
Xoxo:kodwatat
abesidl
alabutanywaysorr
y
nt
loko<butdadwe2wer epl
aying>hesai
dbrushi
ng
Si
ya'sheadIlaughed
Ndile:
Nanamipl easedon't,
youknowhewi l
lcryal
l
overagainwher e'
sSphe? Ipoi
ntedwher eshewas
andshewasbusycombi ngbebewi thherdollcomb
shel i
kescombingpeople'shairthi
sonewhenIwas
doneIcalledthem sowecaneataf t
erthatNdile
washedt hedisheswhileIbathethekidshecamet o
bathetheboysandheal soreadthem thei
rbedtime
stori
eswhenhecamebackiwasl oti
oningIjust
cameoutoft heshower
Me:canyoupl
easecomeandlot
ionmyback?he
wassouncomfort
ablewi
tht
hatbecauseIwasbut
t
nakednow
Hi
m:youknowIam asexaddi
ctr
ight
?(Inodded)so
whati
syourpoi
nt
Me:l
astt
imeIcheckedyouwer eonprohi
bit
ion
bhut
ithi
sispartofthepuni
shmentcanyouloti
on
mebeforeIcat
chf l
uoryoudon'twantt
o?
Him:
Whenwil
lthisbeover
?heaskedt
ouchi
ngmy
boot
yandl
oti
oningit
Me:mybackalsodon'tonl
yfocusonmyass
becauseyouarenotgoingt
ogetitanyway
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
angi
yaxol
isamamipl
easef
orgi
veme
CONTI
NUATI
ON+

Soitwas12mi d-nightandIwaswi l
dawakethanks
toLubenathisoIdeci dedtogodownstai
rsand
wenttotakewat erandappl ethenIwasbackinthe
bedroom andNdi lewassear chi
ngformeinthe
room Iswearheevenl ookedinthedr
awerandhe
coul
dn'
tfi
ndme
Me:Iam here.
.isaidgett
ingi
nIclosedthedoorand
Iwenttositont hecouchthati
snexttoourbed
Hi
m:Iwaswor
ri
ednanami
..
hesai
dsi
tt
ingnextt
o
me
Me:
WhywouldIleavei
nthemi
ddl
eoft
heni
ght
t
hough?
heshrugged
Him:Babynextmonthi
tisourAnniversar
ysowhat
haveyouplanned?
OhshitIevenforgotaboutt
hat
Me:
Umhhuhhh
Him:soyouf
orgot
?wowIthoughtwomenl
ike
cel
ebrat
ingt
hosethi
ngs
Me:
Ihadal
otonmypl
ateBandi
lehawu
Hi
m:soali
tt
leZul
uiski
cki
ngi
nam pr
oud.
.we
l
aughed
Hi
m:Il
ikeust
hisway
Me:
Andyout
heonewhobr
eakus
Hi
m:Ipr
omi
set
hatwast
hel
astt
ime
Me:
k
Him:
sohowaboutwegot
oIbi
zaorPar
isf
orour
Anni
ver
sar
y?
Me:
Onl
yofwehavet
ogoaf
terMayt
heni
t'
sfi
ne
Him:i
t'
sokaynanamianyti
meandohtommorowi
t'
s
Sundaymymot hersaidwehavet
ogotochur
cht
he
ki
dsneedtobebapt i
sed
Me:Notapr oblem. .
i watchedhim wal ki
ngtothe
bathroom ashisdi ckwasbusyswangi ngsideto
si
deGodknowshowmuchIwant edbutthi
s
punishmentthingi sget ti
ngonmeAar gImight
evenbr eakt
her ulesoIgotunder coversandplayed
withmyphoneIl ogi ntoInstaIhadnewf ol
lowers
andamongstt hem wasBel laIwonderwhatdoes
shewantshebet ternotmesswi thmeNdi l
ecame
backandgotunder coversandwhenIt houghtof
makingamovehewasal readysnor i
ngwowso
whatdoIdonowokIpl acedmyphoneonmysi de
drawerandIr estedmyheadonhi schestandmy
otherlegwasi nbetweenhi sdidhewakeuphej ust
pull
edmecl oserandki ssedmyf oreheadandhe
slept
,whatdoidonextokItravel
ledmyhanddown
tohisabsohhehasgai nedandtheV-l
inet
ooand
whenIwasaboutt oreachhismanhoodhesmill
ed
andtookmyhandbackt ohi
scheek
Hi
m:sl
eepnanami
..
WTF
CHAPTERFI
FTY-
SIX

Bel
la

SoBandi lecal
ledmeyest erdaynighttell
ingmet hat
hedon' twantmenomor e,soinhismi ndhet hi
nks
thatIam goingtoletthatsl i
deandmoveonasi f
nothinghappenednohegotanot hert hi
ngcomi ng
hiswayandIhavebeenst al
kinghiswi f
eshelooks
l
ikeasweet heartthatoneIdon' tthinkifshecan
evenki l
lafl
ysohewasj ustmaki ngsomeempt y
threatsIcan'
tbeki l
ledbyher .AndIhavemademy
researchhappenst hatmanwasal soshaggingaUJ
studentIneedt ocallherwehavet omeetandcome
upwi thsomethingnowecan' tbeplayedbyhim, ,
in
thatverysamemomentIdeci detocallherbecause
shehadhernumberonFacebookBi
oshepi
ckedi
t
onafir
str
ing
Me:
Hiam Ispeaki
ngt
oMi
randa?
Her:
YesandhowmayIhel
pyou?
..shei
ssor
udeI
can'
tkeepup
Me:Iam Bel
laIthinkyouknowmeweusedt oshar
e
amant hatwasn'toursnowIwoul
dli
keforusto
meetandteacht hisbi
tchni
ggaal
esson,Imeanhe
pl
ayedusr i
ght?
Her :
BellaIwoul dlovethatbuthemadei tcl
eart hat
hedoesn' twantusnomor esowhydowehavet o
forcethingsandbyt hewayIam ast udentandI
havet ofocusonmyst udiesandohhgoodl uckon
maki ngyourpl anasuccessbecauseyouwi llneed
i
tbyeee. .shedisconnectedt henerveshecanl etit
sli
det hismanneedt obet houghtal esson.
.ohyesI
knowhowIam goi ngtogethim him andIuset o
fuckatsomest r
ipclubsandofcour sethereare
camer aspl ant
edt oeachandever ycorneri
nt here
soIam goi ngtoaskf oroursext apeyesitisandI
am goi ngt opubli
shi thi
m asar espectedJozi
businessmani sgoi ngtoseef lames,hiscli
entsand
sponsor sandwhat everwilldrophiml i
keahot
potato.SoIdecidedtodr i
vet othatclubandIhadt o
bri
bet heITguyandIdi dyeppiIgoti tBandil
ebet t
er
watchoutIam Bel lanobodymesseswi thmeIwi l
l
showhi mthati
ttakestwot otango,butIdon'tknow
i
fIshoul dapproachhi m orhiswi f
ebutIt hi
nkof
approachingthewi feshemi ghtgivememoney
j
ustt oshutme
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
.
.
SoitwasMondayandIhear dthatMr si
sbackat
heroffi
ceandIam onmywayt ovi
sither
,okifshe
doesoffermemoneyhowmuchdoIchar geher3M
yesthat'
sthepri
cesoijustgoti
ntotheHotelIwent
str
aighttother
ecept
ion
Me:
Goodmor
ningMs
Recept
ioni
st:
Averygoodmor
ningtoyouMshow
canIhelpyou?shesai
dwi
tht
hebiggestsmi
le
Me:
Iam her
etoseeMr
sBi
yel
acanyoupl
easel
et
methr
ough?
Her
:Doyouhaveanappoi
ntmentmam?
Me:
Noit
'safamil
ymatter
..
shegavemeagazeand
Imi
zedi
titseemsli
keshewasreadi
ngmyface
Her:
8thfl
oort
hat
'stheonl
yoff
icei
ntherei
t'
sinthe
cor
ri
doryouhavetoaskherPAshe'
sjustneart
he
el
evator
Me:thankyouMs. .
iwal
kedtotheelevat
orIpr
essed
no.
8andwhenIwast hereiaskedherPAshef i
rst
ly
wenttocheckuponherandshecamebackt olet
meknowt hatIwaswelcomedwhenIgottoher
off
icewowi twassobeautif
ulguysyooIwouldn't
l
eavei tbutIhavet
ofocus
Me:
Mor
ningMr
sBi
yel
a
Her
:Mor
ningBel
la.
.whatdoessheknowsme
Her:
YesIdonowt
akeasi
t.
oknowwhydi
dit
hink
outl
oud
Me:
Thankyou
Her
:HowcanIhel
pyou?
Me:
NohowcanIhelpyou?(
shewassoconfused)
wel
lIhavesomet
hingt
hatwil
ldest
royyour
busi
nessesandohsheimtheMight
yBiyela'
smi
ght
ki
ssthedust.
.shepl
ayedwit
hherof
ficechai
r
Her:
whatisthat
?It
ookmyphoneandshowedher
ourvi
deoandshegavemeabor edf aceokIhave
moreiswippedandshowedhertheoneIstolei
n
herhusband'
sphonehewasfucking3womenI
knowitwasyearsagobuti
tst
il
lcount s
Me:
sowhati
sonyourmi
nd?
Her:
Whyiyoushowi
ngmeal lthi
s?Icanseethat
she'
sbur
ningwit
hangerbutshe'
splayingi
tcool
Me:areyouawarethatthi
sisgoingtoruinyour
i
mageandt hebusi
nessesthatyoujustsi
gned
i
nternat
ional?
Imeanwecandot hi
st heeasi
estway
Her
:howmuchdoyouwant
?
Me:nowyouspeaki ngmylanguageIwant3M no
decreaseunlessyoucani
ncreaseit
..
shel
aughed
sarcasti
cal
ly
Her
:3M?
(Inodded)youmustbej
oki
ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
.
Me:unfor
tunat
elyIam notandbesidesIdi
dn'
tpai
nt
myf acet
hat'
squitecl
earthatam noti
ntheci
rcus
ofclowns
Her
:Iseet
hatyouhaveanagendabutf
ort
hesake
ofmyhusband'
simageIcanarr
angesomet
hingbut
3M i
stoomuchhowaboutami l
li
on?
Me:Youcan'
tbeser
iousgir
lyoucan'
tbewhatam I
goi
ngtodowi t
hami l
li
on
Her:
Itseemslikeyouar eshyingfrom t
hefactt
hat
youarealsoint hatvi
deobusyf ucki
nganother
woman' shusbandwhi chthatwomanhappenst obe
mesi syouhaveaf i
ancèsoyoudonotevencar e
howhewoul df eelaboutt
his?
Me:
..
.
Her:
exact
lynowasawomanIdounder st
andbeing
l
etdownbyamanwhowoul dmakeyoucum
3t
imesinaroundfeel
ssoIam bei
ngkindtoyouby
of
feri
ngyouami l
li
onandt
hat'
seventoomuch
maybea20ki sf
ine
Me:
whatyoumustbeoutofyourdamnmi
nd
Her:
Whatkindofanadvocatecanyouaf f
ordand
whocanwi nacaseovertheLuuofJoburgand
Russi
agirlyoushoul
d'vemadeyourresearchand
t
aketimetoperusetheinfor
mati
onyougotseems
l
ikeyouthoughtiwasgoingtosi
gnthe3M cheque
j
ustli
kethatyoumustbemad
Me;oklet
'sseeifyoursponsorsandi
mport
ant
peopl
eont hi
sbusinesswillgeti
tImeant
hisi
s
yourdownfall
Her:
Itol
dyout hatyoudon'thaveenough
i
nformati
onaboutt hi
sGirlal
ltheBiyel
abusinesses
gotnocompanynorpeopl esponsor i
ngitbuti
t
sponsorothercompaniessoweown100%ofwhat
wehave...
oknowIam doomed
Me:Iwon'tt
akeanyl owamountbutIam gi vi
ngyou
3daystogetmemymoneyot herwiset hi
swillbeall
overt
hei nt
ernetbyee.
.iwalkedoutofherof f
iceI
wanttoseeifshe'sgoingtogi vemet hatmil
li
onI
am goingtotakeitIwasjustact i
ngt oughinfrontof
hergeezshe'sahumbl easssavageshedoesn' t
evenrushevenwhenshet alksshet akeshert ime
andmakesur etoemphasi zeever ydoorshesays
argmyplanisnotgoingthewayIplannedoutI
wantedtotakethemoneyandr unawayfrom
Joburgandliveabet
terl
ifesomewhereinworl
d
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Iwasrest
ingatt hebathtubanddri
nki
ngwines
Bandil
ewasbusywi t
ht heki
dsandIwasthinki
ng
oftel
li
nghim aboutwhatBel l
ahasbutnoIdeci
ded
tot
akecareoft hisi
ssuebymyownsel f
Voice:it
'sbeenlongyouar egoingt ocatchfl
u..t
hat
wasNdi ledi
stur
bi ngmymomenthewasdr i
pping
wetIt hinkhejustgotoutoft heshowerandhi s
bodyGodIwaswethi sphoner i
ngedandhewentt o
answeri tIgotoutoft hetubandIwr appedat owel
andwentt othebedr oom husbandwasbusyont he
phonehewassi ttingont opofourbedsoIdeci ded
todisturbHim andIt hinkit'
saboutt hedrugs
becausehewasspeaki ngFr enchsoIgotdownon
mykneesandbr ushedhi smanhoodhesmi l
ledand
i
tregai nedit
'sstrenghthewast ryi
ngsohar dto
i
gnor emebutke. .soIunwr appedthetowelandi
l
ookedathi sgigant i
cmanhoodi twasal ready
oozingpr e-cum Ilickedt heheadandIspi ttedoni t
andwat chedmysal ivaandcum goi ngdownoni n
thenIt ookt heanacondai nmymout handcover ed
theleftedspacebymyot herhandandhandj obbed
him asIwasbusysucki nghi m andwheni thi tt
ed
thebackofmyt hroathegr oanedandhi sphone
wasont opoft hedr awersohef ocusedonmeaf ter
hecr azil
ycameIt ookachai randt ir
edhi m even
thoughher efusedbutheendedupagr eei ngsoI
wentt ot akemedi ldoandpl easuredmysel fashe
wasl ooki nghewassomadwhenIwasaboutt o
cum hegr abbedmyhandhowdi dhebr eakf rom
thehandcuf fsokhehadhi sbel tsandt hest retcher
sohet ur nedmeoverandt iedmyar msatmyback
andt hest r etcherwast ohel pmychestt obef laton
bedheevensepar atedmyl egsandt i
edeachont he
cornerofbedandIknewshi tisaboutt ohi tthef an
hetookhi st i
eandcover edmymout handaf terifel
t
him onmyent r
ancehef ir
stlyteasedmeandashe
couldseemyi mpat i
entbecauseIwasnow
searchingt heheadbymyownassheent er edme
slowlyandwhenhewasf ullyinIcoul df eelhi m on
mybel
lybut
tonandhest
art
edt
hrust
ingonme
CHAPTERFI
FTY-
SEVEN
.
TI
NA

Higuysi t'
sbeenawhi l
eheyandal otoft hi
ngshad
happenedyoookaf terfi
ndi ngoutt hatIwas
pregnantLukhanyodeci dedt oputar ingoni tso
yeaham of f
ici
all
yMr sNgcol osimybabyboy
kungawoi s2yearsol dandsi si sexpect i
ngagai nI
swearidi dn'tpl
ani tguyssoam onl y4mont hs
thoughandIhavemyownbusi nessi t'
sabout i
que
thatdesigns,sewsandsel lweddi ng
gowns, gr
aduat i
onandmat ernityclothes,my
businesshasbeendoi ngwel lthankst oKhitha
she'stheonewhohel pedmef i
nanci allyandmy
l
ovinghusbandofcour se.SonowIam meet i
ngmy
BestieKhithaatt heBunsout ,PearlandKoket soare
busywi thwhat evertheysai dt heywi llnotmakei t
Mr sBiyelacomesi nandget salltheat t
enti
on
especiall
yf r
om ment hisonei sabeaut yshe
screamsmoneyandwhatIli
keaboutheri
sthat
she'ssodowntoeart
handhumblesoshegotto
wher eIwaswehuggedandki
ssed(
fri
endl
y)andwe
orderd
Her:
Youhavegainedsomuchwei ghtandyoulook
beaut
if
ulMaNgcol osi
..
shesai
dwit
hacur i
oussmirk
onherfaceam sureshenoti
cedImeanshe'sa
motheroffourki
ds
Me:Wellt
here'
snothi
ngtobecur
iousabout
Ummmht hankyouMs..
isai
daft
erthewait
ress
boughtourorder
sweare
Her
:OkokIwon'
tdr
agi
toutf
rom you
Me:
oki
t'
sfi
nedon'
tki
llmeyoooo.
.isai
dbi
tt
ingmy
f
ry
Her
:Thet
hakal
oku<speakupgeez>
Me:OkIam 4mont
hspr
egnant
..
isayshl
ylooki
ng
down
Her:
OhmyGodgir
lam sohappyfory'
all
..
shesaid
ki
ssi
ngmyfor
eheadasshestoodfrom herchai
r
Me:
ThankyouMr
ssot
ellmehowar
ethi
ngsat
home?
Her
:ever
ythi
ngi
sbackt
onor
mal
Me:Okthat
'sgoodisn'
t?
(shenodded)whatmade
hi
m changethough
Her
:somet
hing'
shavet
obedoneandt
heywor
ked
Me:
hayi
bowenzent
oni
?<yoowhatdi
dyoudo>
Her:
Ndimyeleegqir
henichommi
e<Iwenttoa
t
radi
ti
onaldoct
or>il
aughedshecan'
tbeser
ious
Me:i
sit
?welaughedagai
nthenshenar
rat
edt
he
l
it
tl
emovieshedidiwasintear
s
Me:
unesbi
ndibr
o<you'
vet
heaudaci
ty>
Her:
agirlgot
tadowhatagi
rlgot
tado.
.whenshe
saysthatweknowshiti
saboutt
ohitt
hefan
Me:YoooIdi
dn'
tknowyoucanbeapsychof
ri
end
yoo
Her
:Ihadtoandi
thihei
stheonewhoi
ntr
oduced
meintothi
sli
fesoyoucan'
tbl
ameme
Me:
Yeahandheal
sofi
xedthi
ngswithhi
sfri
ends
t
ooLuutol
dmethathewaswithhi
m yest
erdayat
t
hecl
ub
Her
:YesIf
orcedhi
mtoi
tanywaychommi
eIwant
t
oplaceaorder
Me:
areyouget
ti
ngmar
ri
edagai
nMr
sBi
yel
a?
Her
:LolnoIwantagr
aduat
iongownsweet
hear
t
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
Her:Ioncetoldyouthatiwasbusywi tha3year
courseatUNI SArightsoyeahgirli
sgraduat
ing
nextmont hactuall
yintwoweeksandaf tert
hat
manandIar egoingtoIbizaIwouldli
ketoplacea
orderintothenewcol l
ect
ionofsexywearyouj ust
i
ntroducedbabes. .
.mymout hwashangingwhati s
shebei ngseri
ousrightnowIjumpedandIwentt o
hugt hehelloutofher
Me:Gi
rlIcan'
tbel
ievet
hatIhavef
orgot
tent
hatIam
sor
ryyooopIam sohappyforyoubaby.
.
Her:
thankyoubabythankyousomuchandBandi
le
doesn'
tknowitsokeepitl
iket
hatok
Me:
okyoursecr
eti
ssaf
ewi
thme
Her
:Gi
rldi
dit
ellyouaboutBel
la?
Me:
Nowhatabouther
?shet
oldmet
hest
ory
Her
:3M i
sshenotcr
azy?
tel
lmeshei
s
Me:
Sowhatar
eyougoi
ngt
odoaboutt
hisbabes?
Her
:wat
chandl
ear
nit
'saboutt
ogodown
Me:Yoosoyi
kikemna<Iam af
rai
d>wecont
inued
chi
t-
chat
ting

LUCI
A
.
Hiam sureyouwonder ingwhomstam I ?loliam
Nathi'
swifeandamot hert ohis3ki dstheyhave
grownsomuchandanot herthingisBandi l
eandI
usetohaveat hinggoingonbutwecuti toffwhen
NathiengagedmebutevenI nmar ri
aget herewasa
ti
meweuset ostealeachot heranddi dour
businessinthesecretandweal sotri
editthisyear
thi
ngi swhatIfeelwhenmaki ngl ovetoBandi l
eis
sostrongmor ethanwhatIf eelwhenmaki nglove
toNathisometimesIwoul dmoanhi snamebutI
sayBeet hat
showIcal lhim somyhusbanddoesn' t
noticethatandher eIam mi ssi
nghim eventhough
hemadei tclearthathedoesn' twanttocontinue
withthisnomor eandnowyougett her easonwhyI
hatehiswi feIdidn'tevenat t
endthei
rweddi ngI
fakedasi cknesssoi tworkedbuthusbandi s
thi
nkingofi nvit
inghi sfr
iendsoverfordinneron
SaturdayandIam her ethi
nkingofhowam Igoi ng
toevenactonhi spr esenceandmyhusbandsi t
's
Bad

LELETHU

okqui ckupdateaboutmyli
feummhhuhhht here's
nothingthatIcantal
kaboutandsayImaybe
achievedit'
sandIam brokesoImademyr esearch
aboutThaboandappar entl
yheisBandi
lesenemy
soIcal l
edhim sowecouldmeetwhenIgottot he
spothewaswi thMenzi
Me:
HiguysIsai
dsi
tt
ingdown
Them:
Youl
ate
Me:
Iam agi
rlduh
Menzi
:SoLel
ethuwhatdoyouhave
Me:
That
'sr
udeyouhaven'
tevenaskedhowIam
Thabo:
wear
ebusywenast
opwast
ingourt
ime
Me:
okwel
lIcanhel
pyougetBandi
lear
rest
ed
Them:
How?
Me:Iam hi
sexsoobvi
ousl
yIknowat
hingort
wo
abouthi
m
Menzi
:Okt
het
hakal
oku<speak>
Me:Hehasawar ehouseinTembi saatthebushes
ateastsi
dethat'
swher ehekeepshi smer chandise
andprobablyeveryt
hingil
legalandhehasaman
who'skeepi
nganeyef orhim heiscall
edMj akeshe
hasachisanyamai nKathlehongsoIt hi
nkifyou
cancontacthi
m youcangetsomet hing
Thabo:onitbutthewar
ehousewast
heonet
hat
theyburntyearsago
Menzi
:butMj
akesi
sst
il
lal
iver
ight
?
Me:
Yeshei
s
Thabo:
wear
eonhi
mthi
sguyi
sgoi
ngdownf
orr
eal
thi
sti
me
Me:
thenwhat
'si
nforme?
Thabo:
whatdoyouwant
?
Me:
Moneyl
otsandl
otsofi
t
Thabo;icanonlyhireyouasaVIPwai
tr
essother
thanthatsi
siIcan'tyouhavet
oknowthatweare
playi
ngadanger ousgamehere
Me:
Iwi
llt
hinkabouti
t.
..

LOVEANDLI
GHT
CHAPTERFI
FTY-
EIGHT
.
.
NARRATED
It'
sSatur
dayafternoontheweatheri
schi l
lyni
cefor
cuddlesBell
aislonelyatherapar
tmentbusy
drinki
ngcoff
eewhensher ecei
vedamessagef rom
Bandiler
eads'canwepl easemeetiwillsendyou
thelocat
ion'
shej umpedoutofhappinessshe
qui
cklyr
epli
ed'Noprobl
em Iwil
lbether enow'she
wenttochangeint
ocomfort
ablecl
ot hesinher
mindshethoughtmaybeBandil
emi ssesherandhe
wanttotal
kthi
ngsoutaft
ershehasr eceived
l
ocati
onshetakesanubertotheplaceitwasan
emptyspacewhichhadbushesandt rees
Uber
D:Ar
eyousur
ethi
sist
hepl
acemadam?
Bell
a:Don'tyoudareaskmesi ll
yquestionsandf uck
off
..
theuberdr i
verdroveoffshewentt ost and
underat r
eeandt r
iedcalli
ngBandilebutt hecalled
wasdr oppedandshegotamessager eads' onmy
waysweet s'Shesmilledbecausethat'
showhe
wouldcallherinami nuteazoovanpul ledwher e
shewasandaper sonwhodoesn' tevenl ookl i
ke
Bandilegotoutwearingabaggyt r
acksui tand
coveredtheirf
aceandwhensheuncover edshe
saw
Khi
tha:
Heysweet
s
Bel
la:
ohheyMr
sBi
yel
aIdi
dn'
texpectyou
Khit
ha:Youthoughtyouwer
egoingt
omeetmy
husbandfordinnerher
edoyouknowwher
eyou
ar
e?Bel
lal
ookedar
ound
Bel
la:
Bit
chwhatdoyouwant?Khi
that
ookouther
gunandcockedi
tandpoi
ntedBell
a
Khi
tha:
Givemeyourphone
Bel
la:
Why?
Idon'
twantt
o
Khitha:
Iwon'tr
epeatmyselfsaphal
ofoun<gi
veme
thatphone>Bel
ladroppedt
hePhoneandKhi t
ha
pickeditusi
ngherlegsandsheputiti
nherpocket
Khit
ha:
Ihat
ebei
ngdi
srespect
edandt
hreat
enedyou
knowwhy?
Bel
la:
No.
.shewasshaki
ngnow
Khit
ha:onlybecauseIhaveal otofthi
ngstol
ose
andwenayouwentt oanext entyouwanttodrag
myFami lyintomudafteralltheseyear
syouwere
busyfuckingmyhusbandbi t
chyouhavemessed
wit
hawr ongone..
khit
halookedar oundandsmil
led
shewalkedt othecarl
eavingBel l
abehind
Bell
a:soyout
hinkbyt
akingmyphoneyouscor
ed
bi
tchyoumustbestupid.
.Khi
thadr
oveof
f
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
KHI
THA
.
.
IgotintothehouseandBandi lewasstil
lasl
eepwel
l
Idruggedhi m andtookhisphoneIcouldn'
tget
thr
oughBel lasoIusedhi sphoneanditworkedsoI
wentt otakeofftheclot
hesandwentt otakea
showerwhenIcamebackt oourbedroom Ndil
e
wasr ubbinghiseyes
Me:
Wakeywakeysl
eepyheadwehaveadi
nnert
o
got
o
Hi
m:myheadi
sheavynanamiyoo.
.hesai
d
br
ushi
ngi
t
Me:Goandt akeashoweriwi l
lhel
pyouchoose
andout f
it
..
hewentt ot heensui t
ewell t
hekidsare
withthei
rgr annysohecamebackandwor ehis
cl
otheswel lIchoseal ightgreychinoandamer oon
golft-
shir
tandsemi -
formalboot sandamen' scoat
whilstIwaswear ingashor tblackvelvetdress,a
greyfurandr edheeledboot sbesinyi
saandwe
drovetoNat hishouseandt heywer ealreadyatthe
di
nnert
abl
eandwat
chi
ngnewschannel
Nat
hi:TheKanyeWestandKi
m Kardashi
anoft
he
f
amily..
welaughedandgr
eet
edeachother
Tina:
Yasssi
nyi
senisi
ngabenu<sl
ayuswear
e
yours>wel
aughedagai
n
Luci
a:Youl
ookgoodMr
sBi
yel
a
Me:Thankyoubabes,
Koket
soIl
ikeyourhai
rgi
rlyou
doi
ngthethings
Koket
so:
Ohheynow.
.shesai
dfl
exi
ng
Wel
aughedoncemor
e
Luu:Yoooyooguyskhani thulenant sii
ntoi
vela
<shutupyouguyst here'
ssomet hi
ngt hatshowed
up>hesai dfocusedont heTVsoweal lwatched
Repor t
er '
Therewasawomani nLionspar kjust
outsideJobur gshewasf ounddeadappar entl
yshe
wast respassingknowi ngl essthat'
swher ethey
keepl i
onsunf ortunat
elythel i
onsf eastedonher'
andBel la'
spictureappear edandt heykepton
tal
kingabouti tIcanf eelBandileseyesbur ni
ngin
myski nbutIwi llmizehim
Philani
:weehkudal
angashoukuthil
elicolour
ed
l
idom belif
unanil
apha<I
'veal
wayssai dthatshei
s
stupidwhatwasshedoingther
e>
Sbu:
Bekaf
unanil
apha?
<whatwasshedoi
ngt
her
e>
Nat
hi:
Hayit
hisi
sbadbaf
wet
hu
Phi
lani
:Ar
eyouokMenzi
wa.
.al
leyeswentt
ohi
m
Ndi
le:
NahngiGrandnjayamiam sohungryLuci
a
di
shupalready.
.wel
aughedhethenpinchedmy
i
nnerthi
gh
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
.
.
Il
ookedathi
m andhegavemeast er
nlookandhe
pi
nchedmeagainIsl
ight
lyopenedmythi
ghs
Luci
a:Ar
eyouokKhi
tha?
shesai
ddi
shi
ngup
Me:yeahsur
ecanIpl
easehavest
eakMr
sIdon'
t
eatpork
Luci
a:Nopr
obl
em babes.
.if
eltBandi
lesf
ingerunt
o
myvulvahewasbrushi
ngthem
Luu:
Yooican'
tst
opt
hinki
ngaboutwhatij
ustsaw
whoi
nthei
rri
ghtmi
ndwoul
dgot
oaLI
ONSpar
k?
Ndile:Shewant
edt
ochil
lwit
ht helionsandtake
sel
fiesmaybe..
ohshi
tohshitIdidn'tswi
tchoffher
phoneandi t
'si
nmyhousehowcoul dIbethat
careless
Tina:
Hahahapluskecol
ouredsandwhi
tepeopl
e
withpett
ingdanger
ousani
malsam sur
eother
s
havelearned
Me:
Mmmhshei
mit
'
sbadguysyoo
Pearl
:VeryBad.
.Weat eandNdilewasusi
nghi
sone
handandt heotheronewasbusywi t
hmycli
tand
fi
ngerfuckingmeohshi ti
tfel
tsogood
Luu:Khit
hahowi sLuujunior
..
ohhowam Igoi
ngt
o
answerhi m wi
thoutl
ett
ingoutamoanandhewas
abitfasternow
Me:I
..
i.
.(ahhh)ohIhat
esneezi
ngwel
lhe'sfi
nehe
j
ustmisseshisgodFat
her
..
Bandil
ewaslaughing
Pearl
:Wearyourfurbabe.
.ij
ustnoddedIdi
dn'
twant
toopenmymout hagai nsoeverybodywast
alki
ng
abouttheBell
aissueilookedatBandil
eandshook
myheadhewentdeepert hi
sti
meIfeltorgasm
formingi
sthi
sreal
lyhappeni
ngdur
ingt hepeopl
eI
bitmylowerl
ipwhenIwasabouttoreleasehe
stoppedwhat
Ndi
le:
Areyouokwi
fey?
ever
ybodywasl
ooki
ngat
menow
Me:yeahIthinkIneedabathroom Ist
oodupand
qui
cklyrushedtoitandgotinonmyathereiheard
Luutell
ingBandil
etocomeandcheckuponmehe
openedIwassi t
ti
ngontopoft hestool
Hi
m:Whydi
dyoudoi
tNomkhi
tha?
Me:
Wecan'
ttal
kaboutt
hatnow
Him:Heeencncncyouthinkyouaret
hemaininthi
s
gamehuh..hesaidunbuckl
inghi
schinookt
here
goesadickthreat
Me:
YooBandi
leIdi
dn'
tdoanyt
hingmoss
Him:soyoudon'tmindscreamingyourl
ungsout
hereduri
ngthepeoplesuwugabhadiyamosswena
i
njayeGame..hegotcloserLor
dhavemer cy
CONTI
NUATI
ON3
.
.
Me:Bandilepl easedon'tdoi twecan' tdi srespect
Nathishouse. .heli
ftedmeandpl acedmeont opof
thesinkandat emeIwast ryingsohar dto
suppressmymoanswhenIcamehepushedhi s
manhoodIj umpedbecauseIcoul df eelitinmy
stomachhet ookmyheadandpr essedi tonhi s
neckansshi twentdownhet hr
ust edandt hrusted
thetearswer ecomi ngoutnowdoest hisman
knowshowbi ghei sandst illhast hener vet ofuck
mewi thnomer cyhowcoul dbesowecr azi
lycame
andhecl eanedmeandaf terhef ixedhi msel f
l
eavingmef eel i
ngdizzyandIwasshaki ngshi tI
evenlostsightvi ewIt r
iedst andingupbutIcoul dn'
t
myl egswer eshaki ngsoIsatont het oil
etstool
againandr egai nedmyst rengt haf terthatIf i
xed
myselfandwentbackt ot hel ounget heywer e
sit
ti
ngbyt hef i
repl
acenowandt heguyswer eat
thebalcony
Ti
na:
MoGur
l.
.shesai
dwi
thasmi
le
Me:
Babes.
.ipour
edsomewi
ne
Pear
l:
Yourwal
kMaBiyel
asaysalot
bewenzan?
<whatwer
eyoudoing>
Me:
Iwasdoi
ngsquat
smybaby
koket
so:
oni
tri
ght
?
Me:Hahahayoudi rt
ygirlyoudirty..
wecont i
nued
chit
-chat
ti
ngandnowi deasthinkingofleavingI
wasn'tcomfort
ableaft
ert hi
nki
ngaboutBel l
a's
phoneiwenttocheckonBandi lesobef oreIgott
o
thestai
rsIheardhisvoiceatthecor ri
dor
Him:LuciaItoldyouthatican'
tkeepon
backstabbi
ngmyf ri
endwhatwehadendedwhen
yougotmar riedtohiminsteadofmeyouaret
he
onewhol eftmenott heotherwayroundsopl
ease
don'
tmaket hingshardf
oryoursel
f
Luci
a:Butwecandoiti
nsecr ett
houghBandil
eI
havethi
sstrongf
eel
ingforyouIjustcan'
thel
pit
pl
easelet'
sgivei
tat
ry
Him:Nomywi f
eal waysfi
ndsshitandIdon'twant
tobeanunfait
hfulhusbandanymor ewordof
advi
setakeyourmansoyoucanat tendasec
ther
apyandleavemeal one.
..
iheardfoot
steps
get
ti
ngcl
osersoImovedbackf
ast
er
Ndi
le:
ther
e'snoneedoft
hatIsawyou
Me:
naniIwantt
ogohome
Ndi
le:
Metoonanami.
.hesai
dgr
abbi
ngmyass.
.we
sai
dourgoodbyes
CHAPTERFI
FTY-
NINE
.
BANDI
LE

Thedr ivetoourhousewassi l
entitwasonl ymusi c
playingandt heki dswer easleepatt hebackseat
andbabyBebewasi nhismot hersar msIt oldherto
l
eavet hebabieswewi l
ltakethem tommor owas
usualbutshei nsistedsoIl etherbeandnowIam
dr i
vingtomyhouseandwhenIpul l
edof fshe
jumpedoutandr ushedt ot hehousesoIt ookt he
kidsandputt hem t otheirbedsandIwentt ocheck
uponherIsear chedt hewhol ehouseandIcoul dn'
t
findhersoshei si nthebasementIt ookt helif
t
downst ai
rsandIf i
ndherbusywi tht hecomput er
s
andaphoneonherhandconnectedtot he
computershewastryi
ngtodi
sconnectthetracker
andshe'sfai
li
ngsoIIqui
ckl
yhelpedherasIsaw
thatt
heyaretryi
ngt
olocat
eitandinlessthanfive
minutesIwasdone
Me:
Sayt
hankyou.
.isayt
easi
ngher
Her
:Thanks.
.okshe'
smad
Me:
Whatdi
didonow?
Her:
Youdidnothi
ngBandil
eandi
thiyoudon'
tsee
anyt
hingwrongwithsl
eepi
ngwit
hLuciayour
Best
iesWif
e
Me:SoNomkhi
thayouwantmet oexpl
ainmyself
onsomethi
ngt
hathappenedyearsagoyoucan'
tbe
ser
ious
Her:Tomei ssoundslikesomet hingt
hathappened
recent
lyandIam deadser iousevenifithappened
yearsagoyoust i
llsl
eptwithsomebody' swifebut
whoam It el
li
ngaper sonwhobr okeavowt hathe
madebef oreGodhi mselfsi
ngobanithina<whom
arewe>shewal kedawayIf oll
owedher
Me:
Nomkhi
thayoudon'
tknowwhatl
edmet
othat
Her:onl
ybecauseyouhitt
edonherfi
rstand
nalaphoitwasbecauseshewasbesti
eswithyour
fi
rstLoveMilanr
ightshewasareminderofher
Me:Whydi
dhemar ryherwhenheknewexact
ly
whatwashappeni
ngbetweenus?
Her:
Onlybecausehelovedherhedi dn'
tseeheras
areminderandastr
essr el
ieverBandil
e..
oknow
t
hishit
stoit
Her:
exact
lyyoudon'tknowwhattosaybecause
youareaself
ishbeingyouonl
ythinkaboutwhat
's
goi
ngtobenefityouBandi
le
Me:
Youar
einsul
ti
ngmeNomkhi
tha
Her:
ifyout
akei
tasani
nsul
ttheni
t'
syourpr
obl
em
notmine
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
.
.
Me:Nomkhi
thauyakuphingi
khul
umanawe<wher
e
ar
eyougoingtoam tal
kingt
oyou>
Her:
Toourbedr
oom Bandi
leIam t
ir
edIwantt
o
sl
eep
Me:Nomkhi
thangi
phethweyindl
alaIwouldl
iket
o
havepapst
ewmeatandsomevegi espl
easeiwi
ll
beinmyoff
iceopposi
teourbedroom
Her:
Bandil
eit'
sjustpast11pm howam Igoi
ngt
o
cookthi
slate?
Me:
Figur
eitout

KHI
THA

SonowIam i nt
hekitchencookinganddr inki
ng
wineandbusyst rol
li
ngonmyTwi tternewsfeedit
's
all#RI PBELLAsheim Idon'tevenfeelbadyouknow
andwhenIwasdoneIdi shedupforhusbandandI
tookt hetrayupst
airsandwhenIgoti nhisoffi
cehe
wasnott heresoIwenttoourbedr oom andiwas
welcomedbyhi ssnoresBandi l
eistesti
ngmy
patienceyazin
Me:
Bandi
lewakeupIbr
oughtyourf
ood.
.isai
d
shaki
nghi
m
Hi
m:I
tsl
atekhi
thaIwi
lleatksasaam f
ull
Me:
Butyousai
d..
Him:IknowwhatIsai dNomkhi
thacanyoustop
makingnoi seam t
ryi
ngtosl
eephereandyouare
goi
ngt owakeBebet ooyouknowhe'scheekyas
he'
st eet
hingsoplease
Me:k.
.iwassopi
ssedIwentt
otheki
tchenand
pl
acedhisfoodi
nthewarmerandwenttobed
Him:Soarewenotgoingtopraytodaybutwhoam I
tel
li
ngsomebodywho'sguil
tyfortaki
ngawhole
humanspiri
t.
.hesaidwr
appingaf l
eeceonhi
swaist
andhekneltdownandprayedwowsohe' sgoingt
o
rubthi
sinmyf acenowwhenhewasdonehegot
i
ntobed
Me:Ihopeyoual
soaskedforgi
venessforl
ett
ing
somebodygotosleepmadatyouam hur t
ing
becauseofyouBandi
ledon'
tactallmi
ghty
Hi
m:Soi
yakudl
alent
o<sot
hisi
sbot
her
ingyou>
Me:
Whatar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osay?ar
eyout
ryi
ngt
osay
youaremadatmebecauseyoursexpar t
nerwas
kil
ledbyli
onsIdidn'tf
orcehert
oLi
onspar kshe'
s
theonewhot ooktheuberandwentther
enott he
otherwayaround..whenhewasabouttoanswer
mehi sphoneringed
Hi
m;Whatt
imei
sit
?
?
?:.
..
Hi
m:WhogotMj
akesnow?
?
?:.
..
Hi
m:Oknopr
obl
em Iwi
llcomet
omor
row
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
.
.
BANDI
LE
.
.
Soit
'sSundayIwokeupver yearlyandIdi dspri
ng
cl
eaningar
oundt hehousewellhalfofitthi
shouse
i
sbigandaf t
erthatibat
hethekidsandmade
br
eakfastf
orthem andIfedtheli
ttl
emanandI
j
oggedupstair
sandmywi f
ewasst i
lloutwellI
prepar
edabathf
orhert
oowel lIam t
ir
ednowbutI
havetodothi
smaybeIwil
lbei ngoodbookssoI
j
ustdecor
atedwi
thfl
owersfr
om bedt obat
hroom
andwhenIwasdoneyeaywifeyisawake
Me:Aver
ygoodmor
ningMr
sBi
yel
a..
isai
dki
ssi
ng
her
Her
:Mor
ningBr
eat
hMi
ster
Me:Ishouldbetheonesayi
ngthatbutkeangi f
uni
kulwanamhlanj
e<Idon'twanttofi
ghttoday>Itook
hishandandIhelpedheroutofbedandl edherto
thebathr
oom andther
ewassof tmusicplayi
ngf or
rel
axi
ng
Her
:Nani
..
shewasal
lsmi
lesokani
ggascor
eda
poi
nt
Me:
Letmeundr
essyounanami
Her
:Okwhatdoyouwant
?
Me:SoIdon'
thavetospoi
lmywif
enjewi
thout
aski
ngforsomethi
nginr
etur
ncomeonnanami
don'
tdi
sappointme
Her
:Okt
hankyoubabyt
hisi
samazi
ng.
.sheki
ssed
meokanot herpointshegoti nthet ubIt iedher
brai
dsi namessybundon' tl
ookatmel iket hat
she'stheonewhot houghtmeal lthiswel l Il
efther
thereandIwentt ochangeourbeddi ngandt he
curtai
nst oobecauset heyhavet omat cht henit ook
thechannel ,
AldoandL. Vshoppingbagst heyhad
allt
hehandbags, boot sandheelsshebeent alki
ng
aboutwi thherfri
endsabdwhenIwasdoneIwent
totakeherbr eakfastful
lEngli
shbr eakfastand
l
ucki l
ywhenIgotbackshewasst i
llinthebat hr
oom
soIpl acedthetrayont hecouchnextt oourbed
andIt ookmyphoneandpl acedi nont opoft he
draweri twasvideorizi
ngandIwentout

KHI
THA

Somansur pri
sedmet hismorningImeanhe
prepar
edabat hf
ormewi t
hallther
omant i
cthings
oham soinlovewellIwenttothebedroom and
whenIgottherewowi twassobeaut i
fulImeanI
rememberbuyingthosecurtai
nsandbeddi ngbutI
havef
orgot
tent
hem okt
hebagst
hef
ood
CONTI
NUATI
ON3
.
.
Iwasjumpingupanddownl i
keali
tt
legir
lwhom
theyboughtheradol
lshe'
sbeenst
anningonokI
checkedwhat'
sinthebagsohmy
Me:Bandi
le!
!Nani
!!
!.
.ical
ledhim whil
stscreamingi
n
exci
tementhecamei nlooki
ngtiredAFhehadBebe
i
nhisarmsandt hewhol esquadwasf oll
owinghim
Hi
m:Ar
eyouoknanami
?
Me:
Babyar
etheseal
lmi
ne?
Him:NozezikaSphe..
<theyare>hesai
dlooki
ngat
herbutgi
rlwasal r
eadyfit
ti
ngmyheelsthisone
l
ovesplayi
ngdr essup,
combi ngpeopl
e'
shairand
pl
ayingwithmymake- uptoo
Me:
Icanseeami
nimegr
owi
ngi
nsi
deofher
Him:
AndIprayshef
indsahusbandl
ikemedon'
t
yout
hink?
Me:
Wel
lyeah.
.iwasagr
eei
ngt
odi
sagr
ee
Him:Ohpl easeIknowIam notper
fectbutbabyItr
y
Ireal
lydopl easeappr
eci
atemyeffort
sngiyakucel
a
<am pleasingyou>
Me:Idoappr
eci
atei
tal
otbabybutsomet
imesyou
canbea..
Hi
m:Sayi
tbabysayi
t
Me:
Ass
Xoxo:
VulgarmamaVulgar
..
Bandi
leandIl
ookedat
eachotherandl
aughed
Me:NyhalgurNyhal
gurubusyut
yaukutyakwam
endi
kwenzelwengumyeniwam xoxonoSiya
<eat
ingmyf oodthatwasmadebymy
husband>theyqui
cklyr
anawaylaughi
ng
Me:Khawuthet
henayemf undi
si<tal
ktoher
past
or>Isai
dsingi
ngiwasr ef
err
ingtoSphewho
wasbusyseeinghersel
fonmyheel sboot
sandshe
hadmyhandbagi nherhand
Hi
m:NoIdon'
twantt
ost
artwor
ldwari
iv
Me:Nunu.
.shel
ookedatmewi
thherr
oundbeaut
if
ul
eyes
Her
:Mamaesamiezine?
<thesear
emi
ner
ight
>
Me:Chal ezizakamamakodwandi zokut
hengela
esakhouyeva<not hesearemi nesbutIwillbuyyou
yoursok>Isai dinmypoor estZulutonebecause
Ndil
esaidhedoesn' twanthiskidstospeakXhosa
heisevenst ri
ctonxoxot oowel lIwastryi
ngt o
convincemyl itt
leNunie
Her:
Hayiezamibabaangi
shoezam <Notheyar
e
mineri
ghtdaddy>shesai
dinherbabytone
Him:Yebokodwaazi
kuli
nganibolekaumamakho
me?<yesbuttheydon'
tfi
tyouint hemeanti
me
borr
owyourmom>hesai dtr
yinghi sl
uckwel
lshe
j
ustcriedandIhadt
olethershineonmyspot
CHAPTERSI
XTY

KHI
THA

Itwasabli
ssf
ulSundayIwaswit
hmymanandt
he
kidswer
eatchurchwit
hthei
rgr
anny
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
aar
eyouf
ine?
Me:
YouAr
ethel
astonet
oaskmet
hat
..
hel
aughed
Him:
Hawuyhiniul
welanikant
i?<Whyar
eyou
f
ight
ingnow>hesai
dsarcasti
call
y
Me:
Bandi
leIam notf
ineIam r
eal
lynot
Him:
Sheim butit'
syourf
aultyoukeptt
ell
ingmeto
godeeperonsome' Don'
tstopbabyyesthatway
ahhdeeperpleaseohshit
'hesaidcopyi
ngmyvoice
Me:
..
Him:andnowmybel ovedwif
ewalksl
ikeat
ri
ppl
ed
newbor ncalf
..
hesai
dwrappi
nghi
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CONTI
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Me:Noudl
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m:Whoam I
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m:Idon'
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oneyourmotheri
sst
il
lmad
atmeaboutnott
elli
ngheraboutt
heli
fewel
ive
BONUS
.
.
NATHI
.
.
Iwentt
oFourseasonhot
elt
ocheckuponKhi
thaI
needt
oknowhermovesyoucan'
ttr
ustagangst
ers
wif
esoIknockedasherof
fi
ceshel
etmein
Me:
GoodDayMr
s..
isai
dhuggi
ngher
Her
:GoodDayDoct
or.
.shesai
dsar
cast
ical
ly
Me:
Howar
eyoudoi
ng?
Her
:Neverbeenbet
terandyour
sel
f?
Me:
Iam goodsohowar
ethi
ngsathome?
Her:
theyaresl owl
yfal
li
ngintopl
aceyouknowhow
ki
dsar easlongasIcallthei
rfat
herbef
oret
hei
rbed
ti
met heywillnotgi
vemeahar dtime
Me:
Iunder
standsoanynewsaboutt
het
ri
al?
Her:
Idon'tknowbroIdon'
tknowIdon'
twantt
o
eventhi
nkaboutitshi
thur
tssobad
Me:
Icani
magi
ne
Her
:Sur
esohow'
sLuci
a?
Me:
she'
sgood
Her
:andt
heki
ds?
Me:
theyar
egoodt
oo
Her
:That
'sni
cehuh?Happyhome..
shesai
dasifshe
wasmockingorpul
li
ngastuntIj
ustcoul
dn'
tfi
gur
e
Me:
Wet rysohowaboutyoubr
ingyourki
dsoveron
Sat
urdayIam t
aki
ngmineout
Her :
Oht hat
'ssweetNathibutunfort
unatel
yIstil
l
havet obeal er
tImeanthissonofabi tchmightbe
undermynosehemi ghttargetmykidssonoIcan't
riskitnotwithmybabies..iwassouncomf or
tabl
e
nowt hi
swomanknowshowt ot
hrowsome
tantrums
Me:yeahsurethat
sunder
standabl
esohowaret
he
businessest
houghImeantheyareal
otyoo.
.we
l
aughed
Her
:Iam asmar
twomanNathiandbesi
desPhi
lani
i
shelpi
ngmesoyeaham good
Me:
Andyouknowi
canhel
pyout
oor
ight
?
Her:
OhpleaseNat
hiyouar
eadoctortheonlyt
hing
youcanhelpmeabouti
smedici
neotherthant
hat
noIcan'
tri
skmyhusbandhar
dwor k
Me:
Icanamazeyouyazimar
a
Her
:NoNat
hiIknowam ar
iskt
akerbutnott
hisway
Me:
it
'
sokhowaboutIt
akeyououtf
orLunch
Her:
Nowyouaretal
kingletmegat
hermyt
hings
andbeoutofher
e..
thi
sonehasbeenmycrush
si
ncedayoneImightshootmyshot
Me:
soyounotcomi
ngbackher
e?
Her:
NoIhavetobeatther
estaur
antaf
termi
d-day.
.i
noddedt
hem wewalkedout
CHAPTERSI
XTY-
TWO
.
.
KHI
THA

OkNat hihasbeenniceandalladthatshitbor
esme
forreal
,Iam l
osingmypati
encenowiwantt omake
amovebuthowIhavet obeext r
acarefulwhenam
doingthisimeanNdilei
snother etocl
eanaf t
erme
soIam al lal
onenow
Xoxo:
MommycanIpleasehavemyice-
cream?he
saysashewasl
ooki
ngatm withhi
spuppyeyeshe
makesmemissNdil
eImeant heybot
hhavet
hei
r
ownbeggi
ngtr
ickst
hatsof
tensme
Me:Babyyoucan'
ttheki
dsaregoi
ngt
owanti
ttoo
andyouknowtheyhaveflu
xoxo:
butmamaIam notsi
ckmossmna
Me:Baxoli
secanyoupleasestopmaki
ngthi
sabi
g
i
ssuepleaseyoucangoandt aketi
nki
esor
whateverbutnotani
ce-cr
eam
Xoxo:YooohayinoImissudaddymna..
.hesaid
busyroughlyshaki
nghimsel
fAarghewillcome
aroundthi
sonemyphoner anganditwasNat hiI
answeredthecall
Hi
m:Gooddaybeaut
if
ul
Me:
GooddayMi
ster
..
isayt
ryi
ngt
ofl
ir
tback
Hi
m:canIcomearound?onl
yifyouneedcompany
t
houghIam notpushi
ngyou
Me:Wealwaysspendti
metoget
herjustt
aket
his
dayanddedicat
eitt
oyourwi
feImeanIam withthe
ki
dstooyouknowhowmyki dsare
Hi
m:ohokIunder
stand
Me:
Youar
enotmadr
ight
?
Hi
m:Noj
ustl
etmeknowwhenIwi
llseeyou,
ok?
Me:Sur
eIwill
..
hedi
sconnectedt
hecallandI
deci
dedtocal
lZai
nhepi ckedonafi
rstring
Hi
m:Bossl
ady
Me:Wehavet
omeeti
fyouar
enotbusyt
oni
ght
cometomyhouse
Hi
m:Ei
sht
odayIam wi
thmygi
rl
fr
iendcanIshow
upt
ommorow?
Me:
Per
fectt
ommor
owaf
ter
noonbeher
epl
ease
Him:Nomayi niBozayami ..
idisconnectthecalli
wanthi mtohelpmehackt hehotelscamerasand
makesur ethecoastiscl earNathiisgoingtomeet
wit
hhi sancestorshe'sbeingt oomuchIcan' tcope
andMenzii snext,Lel
ethuandThaboar enotthat
harmfulbutkill
ingMenzii sgoingtobehar dImean
whatifxoxogr owsupandwantt oknowhi sreal
fat
her,whatam igoingt osayt ohim?thatIki
ll
ed
himtryingtoprotectwhat '
smi nebutkehewi ll
understand
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
.
.
ItwasSundayaft
ernoonIwaswait
ingforZainas
mybabieswereplayi
ngswingsout
sideatthe
gardenanLubewasbusyonhi smatwithhisbaby
tal
ksandeati
ngeverythi
nghi
shandsgettherewas
aknockatthedooranditwasZai
nIlethimin
Me:
Rightont
ime.
.isai
ddi
rect
inghi
mtot
hel
aunge
Hi
m:Am al
waysear
lyBozayamiHowar
eyout
oday?
Me:
Neverbeenbet
terwhatshoul
dIgetyouBeeror
whi
skey?
Him:WhiskeyBozza..
.ipour
edhi
m oneofmy
husband'swhiskey
Me:
Nazo.
.igavei
ttohi
m het
ookasi
p
Hi
m: Expensi
vet
ast
e..
hesai
dtaki
nganot
herone
welaughed
Me:okwi
thoutwast
ingyourt
imeIhaveaj
obf
or
you
Hi
m:okBozza
Me:onFri
daynightIwantyoutohackal
lsecur
it
y
camerasatf
ourseasonhotelst
art
ingfr
om 10pm
andIwil
lcal
lyouwhenIam done
Hi
m:OkFl
opl
essBozzakuf
abani
?<who'
sdyi
ng>
Me:Youwil
lfi
ndoutsoonandknowt
hatIwi
llnot
cal
lyouandremi
ndyou,ok?
Him:okBozzabutIwi
llneedthesecuri
typassword
evenifi
t'
stheol
doneasl ongasitonceunlocked
themachines
Me:Iwil
llookf
ori
tIt
hinkIhavearecentonebutI
wi
llgivei
ttoyoubef
oretheendofthi
sweek
Hi
m:OkIwi
llbewai
ti
ngf
oryourcal
l.

NATHI

ThingsbetweenKhithaandIarelooki
ngoutwe
oncesharedakissandIf el
tsomeconnecti
on
betweenusIthinkshefelti
ttooasshehasinvit
ed
met oadinnerdateatfourseasonhot
elonFridayI
wil
lhavetoli
etomywifeagai
nIcan'teventouch
heral
lIseeisKhi
thaGodyourdaughterhasmeby
myballsIswear
Luci
a:Andnow?
Me:
Whati
sit
?
Luci
a:Ohpleaseyouar ealoneandyouar
ebusy
smil
ingl
ikeat eenageri
nlove
Me:ComeonLul uhawusoit
'
sagainstt
hel
awto
smil
einyourownhouseespeci
all
yinmybedr
oom
i
t'
sobviousImissmywife
Luci
a:Youhavebeendi
stantNathisopl
easest
op
fool
ingmemaybeyouhavef oundyoursel
fasi
de
Me;
what
?!
Luci
a:Ibet
ternotf
indout.
.shesai
dwalkingout
ohhoWhatevershitIdon'
tcareiam aboutt
o
smashBandi l
e'
sbelovedwifewhowouldcare?
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA
Theweekwentbysof astit'
sFridayalr
eadygett
ing
readyf
ormymi ssi
onandIwasi nthephonewi t
h
myhusbandItoldhim aboutmypl anwithNathi
andheisbusyinsi
sti
ngt hatImustinvolvet
he
wholesquadt
ohelpmepul lthi
s
Hi
m: SoNanamiwhenyouarerefusi
ngmyhelp
whathappensi
fNathif
indsoutyourpl
anandhe
ki
ll
syou?
Me:canyoust
opbeingbei
ngnegat
ivepl
easeIwi
ll
pul
lthi
sbabytr
ustme
Hi
m:Ar
eyoual
lal
one?
Me:NoZaini
stheonewho'
sgoingtoworkmagics
onthecamerasandmakesur
ethatthesyst
em i
s
downatfl
oor12
Hi
m:okal
lthebestofl
uckNani
Me:
Sur
eIl
oveyouok
Hi
m:Al
waysandf
orever
Me:
Butt
hat
'smyl
inekodwa
Him:Youst ol
eminetoo..welaughedthenweki ssed
onthephoneanddi sconnectedthecallandIwor e
mysexi estli
nger
iepiece,
Iworemybl ackl eat
her
hi
ght hi
ghheelbootsandmyl ongcoatit ookthe
buggaticarkeysandIwentdownst airs
Lunga:
okarewegoi
ngt
oshootamovi
ebecause
wowIswearweaboutt
ogetf
astandt
hefur
ious23
now..
welaughed
Anati
:Youlookbeaut
if
ulsi
sKhi
tha.
.t
hatwas
Lunga'sgi
rlf
ri
end
Me:
Thankyoubabesandpleasedon'
tyoudar
e
makeouti
nmyhouseplease
Lunga:
Hawukodwa
Me:Isaidit
..
ileftthehouseandIgoti nthecarI
drovetothehot elandImadesur ethatnobodysees
meIwentst raighttotheroom Ianonymousbooked
andIwor kedmyt hi
ngsaftert
hattherewasaknock
atthedoorandIwentt oopenitwasNat hiI
welcomedhi mi n
Hi
m:Youl
ookbeauti
ful
..
hesai
dcover
inghi
sar
ms
onmywai
standkissedme
Me:t
henightissti
llyoungbaby.
.isai
dtaki
ngoffmy
j
acketandhismout hwashangingIwenttohangit
andmadesur ethatIcatwalksohecanseemyass
andhipscl
early
Hi
m:Wowbabyyousof
ineIcan'
twai
ttot
ouchyou
Me:
aren'
tyouhungr
y?l
et'
seatf
ir
st
Hi
m:Sure.
.wear
easwewer
ebusyt
alki
ngabout
what
ever
Me:
Ihavel
ear
nedthatyoul
ovet
hissal
adthat
's
whyIor
der
dlotsandl
otsofi
tdoyouwantsome
more
Hi
m:Yespl
easeal
lofi
t
CONTI
NUATI
ON3
.
.
Therewasmusicplayi
ngonthebackgroundaswe
weredini
ngheyawnedohyesi t
'saboutt
okicki
n
am onl
ywait
ingfortheeyest
oturnred
Me:AreyouokDr?henoddedashi
seyeswer
e
al
readytur
ningr
ed
Him:
Ifeelabi
theavycanIhaveawhiskey
somet
hingtokeepmeawaket hewholeni
ght
Me:Andsmashmyasshuh?
hehadthi
sunr
eadabl
e
l
ookItookagl
assofwi
neandpl
ayedi
twit
hmy
hands
Hi
m:Whatdoyoumean?
Me:SowenaNathiyouthi
nkyouaresmar tri
ghtyou
sni
tchonmyhusbandandaf t
erthatyouwentto
seehimInj
ailt
ocheckifhe'
sreal
lysuffer
ingornot
andnowyouwantt osl
eepwithhiswife?!
whatare
youonabout
?
Him: Bandi
lebetrayedmeandyouknowi thewas
sleepingwithmywi f
ebehindmyback, Bandil
etook
mybusi nessideasandmadet hem hi
sIal ways
thoughtofsigningthishotelandhemadeamove
oni tknowi
ngexact lythatIam af
teri
tBandilehas
donesomanyshamef ult
hingstome
Me:
Soyouar
eusi
ngmef
orr
evenge?
Hi
m: i
fIwasn'
tinl
ovewithyouyesiwasgoi
ng
t
o..
(hecoughedblood)whatdi
dyoudotome?
Me: Yourfavour i
tesal adcontainedsomehear t
failouroverdozedpr ecauti
onsImi xedt hem and
pour edsomechemi calIhaver eadthatitkil
ls
slowl yandpai nful
lysoi nthemeant i
meyouhave
towr iteyoursuicidenot etel
lthewor l
dt hatyou
foundoutt hatyourwi fewassl eepi
ngwi t
hyour
wifeandshest i
lll
oveshi m,t
ellthem t
hati t
depr essesyout oknowt hatyouar eafai l
ouryou
failtosatisfyyourwi feandaddsomef alse
i
nf ormationt her
e
Hi
m:andwhywi
llIbedoi
ngt
hat
?het
ri
edt
omove
Me:don'tevent r
ysear
chingforyourgunItookit
andtoansweryourquest ionit
'sf
oryourki
dssake
i
fyouwr i
tethisnot
eIwillmakesureyourkidsgeta
bri
ghterfuture,
gett
hat?
Hi
m:t
heni
fnot
?
Me:Theywillendupsleepingaroundwi thmenjust
l
iketheirmothernowstartwri
ti
ng. .
.hewasstar
ting
tobleedtoeachandeveryholehehasandhewr ote
thenoteandwhenhewaspower lessItookhi
s
phoneandIwal kedout
CHAPTERSI
XTY-
THREE

Ir
ushedt
owher
eZai
npar
kedhi
scar
Me:
Didyoucal
ltheguys?
Iaskedset
tl
ingi
nhi
scar
Hi
m: Yestheyarebusycl
eani
ngnowhi
sbodyi
s
al
readyinthecar
Me:Goodnowhackhi sphoneanddel et
emy
conversationswi thhi
m. .whenhewasdoneIt ook
hisphoneandpl acedi thispocketthenhi scarkeys
wereonhi m IorderdZai ntolockthecarhedi d
l
uckil
yi twaspar kedfewkm awayf rom myHot elI
wenttocheckont heroom andwhenIgett hereit
wassqueakycl eangoodshotIcal ledZai ntoplug
onthesyst em andkuddosever yt
hingi sbackto
normalt henIwentt omycaranddr ovetomyhouse
andwhenIgott hereLungawasbusywi thhi
s
womanIcl earedmyt hr oattheyturnedt ome
Lunga:
OhheySi
siyouar
eback?
Me:
YesIam whenar
eyout
wosl
eepi
ng?
Anat
i:
Ifeelsi
ckandIcoul
dn'
tsowedeci
dedt
o
comeandwat
cht
.v.
Me:Lungawhydi
dn'tyoutakehert
otheci
nema?we
haveourownminicinemainthi
shousesojah
Him:Iforgotaboutthat
..
ishookmyheadandl
eftt
o
takeashowerwhenIwasdoneical ledBandi
lehe
pickeditonaf i
rstr
ing
Me:
Aren'
tyousl
eepi
ngMrMe?
Hi
m:NohowcanIsl
eepknowi
ngthatMrsMei
sout
t
herepl
ayi
ngwi
thfi
resohowdi
ditgo?
Me:It
oldyout
otr
ustmeever
ythi
ngi
soknoneedt
o
st
ressMrMe
Him:
Gint
sakaziwamihayinomakeaplan
somet
hingli
kepri
sonbreakIhat
ebei
nghere
Me:Nowor r
iesi
fAll
ydoesn'
tcomeupwi
thaplan
thenIwi
llbabythi
sbedisbi
gandcol
dwit
houtyou
andIam inneedofyourt
ouch
Hi
m:Babypl
easei
t'
sonl
y3weeksl
eftnow
Me:
Babyi
tisnotguar
ant
eedt
hatyouwi
llbef
ree
Hi
m:NanamiIam amanmyhopei
snotonAl
lyonl
y
Ihavealotofpeopl
ewor
kingont
hisdon'
twor
ry
baby,ok?
Me:
okkeandIwil
lbebusyt
hesecomingweeksso
t
hatmeansIwon'
tcomeandseeyou
Him:Iunder
standbabyandpleasel
eavetherestto
meokyouhavedoneenoughIwantt oshowt hese
guyswhoIam actuall
yitwi
llbeareminder
Me:
Theet
ermi
nat
or
Hi
m:Gi
ntsakaziwami
..
wel
aughed
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

LUCI
A

Nathihasbeengonef orlongIdon'
tknowwher ehe
i
sthisisnotlikehim hisphonejustr
ing
unansweredokl etmecl eanthehouseafterawhi l
e
Iheardaknockatt hedoorandIwentt ocheckwho
wasitandi twasallNat hi
sfamil
yhismother,
father
and3si bl
ings
MomL:
Youbi
tch!
!shesai
dsl
appi
ngme
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngon?
!
Fat
herL:
MaGebapleasest
opit
,,
Makotipleasel
et'
s
goandsitdown..
wewenttosi
tatthelaungehis
motherwascryi
ng
FL:Wegotacallfr
om thepoli
cest
art
ingt
hatNathi
wasfounddeadi nhi
scar..
myheadwasspinni
ngI
fel
tli
ket
hiswholeisshutt
ingdownohLordthi
s
can'
tbehappening
Me:Nononowhatdi
dyoujustsay?!
NoNathii
snot
deadnoIr
efuset
oacceptt
hat!
!Isai
dcr
ying
FL:
Unf
ort
unat
elyt
hati
sitt
heysayhel
eftasui
cide
not
esohepoi
sonedhi
mself
Me:
CanIpleasereadi
t.
.hegaveitt
omeandIr ead
i
twhatsoheknewaboutBandileandIbutwhydid
het
ookthecorwardwaywecoul d'
vef
ixedt
his
MomL:Ar
eyouhappynow?
!ar
eyouhappy?
!shewas
cr
ying
Me:
HowcanIbewhist
lmymanissl
eepi
ngi
nthe
mor
tuar
yhowcanIdothat
?huh
MomL: Youar enothingbutal oosehoehowcanyou
cheatonmyson?howdi dyouwanthi mtot ake
i
t? BabaIalwayssai dt hatt hisgirlisawi t
chIhat ed
herf r
om thef i
rstdayIsawherIknewt hatshewas
aftermysonsmoneynowhei saboutt ogeti tand
l
eaveherl i
fewiththemenshehasbeensl eeping
withIwi l
lcallsocialwor ker stogi vemef ullcustody
ofmygr andkidsandl ett hisskankbe. .
wowIj ust
ranupst ai
rsandcr i
edf ormydearl if
eItookhi s
picturewhichwasi nmysi deoft hebedandi
l
ookedathi m andal lt
hememor iesofthet hingswe
uset odot ogethercamer ushingi nmymi ndwe
wer ehappyt hismanl ovedmewhol eheartedlyhi s
kidsohLor dmyki dshowar et heygoingt oeven
takethismyphonebeepedandMi l
annamef lashed
ont hescreensoshel ef tavoi cemessagesayi ng'hi
babesIhaveseent henewsam sor ryandIhave
beent ryi
ngt ocallyou'
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
.
.
LUKHANYO
Iwaswi t
hmyf ri
endschi
ll
ingatoneofBandzBar
s
tal
kingaboutt
hisNathii
ssue
Sbu:
SoNat
hideci
dedt
oki
llhi
msel
fhe'
ssucha
coward
Phil
ani:
Butsomethi
ngdoesn'
taddupher
ehowdid
heevenf i
ndoutImeanBandi
leandLuci
ast
opped
smashinglongti
meagoandheonceaskedme
boutthem andIt
oldhi
mthetrut
hitwasl
ongti
me
ago
Me:
Soheknew?
Phi
lani
:Yeshedi
dquest
ioni
swhywoul
dhecommi
t
sui
cidenowsolat
e?
Sbu:
Hayimi
naangazi<noIdon'
tknow>
Me:Youarecor
rectnj
ayam t
hismanwaski
ll
ed,
but
ngubani
?<bywho>
Phi
lani
:I
sn'
tobvi
ous
Sbu:
Noi
tcan'
tbeher
Me:
NoIdoubtsoImeanshecoul
dn'
tpul
lthi
sby
herownsel
fNat
hii
sasi
lentbackst
abberpeopl
e
Sbu:
Remembert
heBel
lasaga
Phi
lani
:Seemsl
ikeweareunder
est
imat
ingthi
s
per
sonbutIdoubtshei
stheonewhokil
ledhi
mI
meanwhywouldshedot hat
?
Me:
Thati
sthequest
ionnowwhywoul
dsheki
llhi
m
i
fshedi
d..
weweresoconfused

MI
LAN
HiguysIt hinkyouknowmeasBandi lesexlover
wel lIhavebeenr esi
dingi nL.Awi t
hanol dri
chman
Ihavebeent i
redoft hi
sl i
featleastnowIhavea
wayoutIwi l
lsayIam goi ngtocomf or tabest
friendandIhear dthatBandi l
eismarriedwel l
now
wewi l
lseehowst r
ongt heirlovei
simeanBandi le
andIar efir
stloverswel ovedeachot herIbeli
eve
west i
lldoandIam t hi
nki ngofdeparting
tommor owaf ter
noonandt hatwil
lbei tIhaveto
transferenoughmoneyt opushmef ormont hsin
S.A.whi leistil
lgot ointerviewsbecauseIhave
beenappl yi
ngt ohospi t
al sIusetobeadent i
st
befor
eoldMrcameinmyl
if
eandcont
rol
ledmyl
if
e
butIam goi
nganyway
Hi
m:Ar
eyouokMi
mi?
Me:
YesdaddyIam okIam j
ustt
hinki
ngaboutmy
f
ri
end
Him:
Aargshewillbef
inethesethi
ngshappenyou
knowit
'sl
if
e..
hesaidcomforti
ngmeIf el
tli
ke
poki
nginhi
smout hri
ghtnowIhat ehi
m idon'
t
knowmaybeit'
sbecauseIthoughtaboutBandi
leok
l
etmepackmyt hings
Hi
m:I
sn'
tthatabi
gsui
tecase?
Me;
Iam agi
rlduh.
.wel
aughed
CONTI
NUATI
ON3
KHI
THA

It
'sabeauti
fuldayit
'sSundayt
hekidsareplayi
ng
aroundthehouseasf ormeIam chi
ll
ingwit
hBebe
i
nt hecouchhavingagoodconversat
iongoingon
andwewer edistur
bedbyLukhanyo
Me:
Youdon'
tevenknockMzal
a<cousi
n>
Him:Ihavebeenknocki
ngfort
hepast3hours
asozekalokundimelel
ont
okacomein
andiphambenanga<Iwoul
dneverwai
tforyouto
saycomei nIam notmad>hesaidt
akingBebeand
playi
ngwithhim
Me:
Whati
fIwasmaki
ngout
?
Hi
m:wit
hwhonaungenamnt
u?<youar
esi
ngl
e>we
l
aughed
Me:
Wowyousuchabor
e
Him:Iknowsowhenar eyougoi
ngt
opayyour
condolencesatNat
his?
Me:Condol
ences?
KwaNathi
?whodi
ed?
Iask
keepi
ngastrai
ghtface
Him:Nat
hicommitedsuicideonFri
dayandhewas
foundonSatur
daymor ningbythepol
icei
nhiscar
heevenlef
tanote
Me:YoooNathiseemedokwheniwaswit
hhim on
ThursdayImeanheneverl
ookedli
keadepr
essed
bei
ng
Him:Yeahandt hi
swholethingdoesn'tmakesense
sendit
shongubaniongazibulal
elaint
oezenzeka
yearsago?<Imeanwhocanki l
lhimselff
or
somethingthathappened>weehsoImustacton
now
Me:Wowmaybei thasbeenbother
inghi
m andnow
hecoul
dn'tt
akeitanymorethati
swhyheendedup
taki
nghi
sownl i
feShei
mt hi
sisbad
Hi
m:Verybad,
wher
ear
etheki
ds?
heaskedl
ooki
ng
ar
ound
Me:
Upst
air
spl
ayi
ng
Hi
m:OksoYourhusbandwi
llbeher
ein3weeks
t
ime
Me:
Ther
eisst
il
lgoi
ngtobeat
ri
albr
oandi
t'
ski
ll
ing
mehawuphel
atheSALT.
.
wel
aughed
Him:Argshei
m maar
nlet
'shopeever
ythi
nggoes
accordi
ngl
y
Me:
Yeahwi
thGor
donbyoursi
dei
t'
spr
omi
sing
Hi
m:Sohehi
redHi
m?
Me:
Yessi
ncei
twasanobvi
ouscaset
oyou
Hi
m:Wowar
ewegoi
ngt
ofi
ghtnow?
Me:Nobuti tneedtobesaidLukhanyowhatyou
saidthatdaybrokemyhear tyouknowImeanit
seemedl i
keyouwer en'
twil
lingtohelpmesoI
thoughttomyselfthatIam neveraski
ngf
orhel
pto
neit
herofyouguys
Hi
m:Wowyouar
esounbel
ievabl
e
Me:
LetitbesoLuubuti
tist
het
rut
hyoudi
dn'
teven
t
ryt
olinkmeup
CHAPTERSI
XTY-
FOUR

ANATI

Oky'allknowmeasLunga' sgi
rl
fr
iendokIam af irst
yearatWi tsIam doingmydegreeinFinancial
Account i
ngwellIcomef r
om adisadvantaged
backgroundmymot heri
sadomest i
cwor kerand
weliveinasquat ercampinTembi sawit
hherand
my3ot hersibli
ngsi t'
sa3r oomedshackmyf at
her
diedlongagosomypr oblem i
sthatIhavebeen
feeli
ngabi toffandIt hinkthatIam pregnantIam
sot er
rif
iedandIam st uckinbet
weenoft ermi
nating
thispregnancyorkeepi ngitImeanLungai soneof
thosehandsomer ichfuckboysidon' tthinkhe'
s
readytobeapar entevenIam j uststressedbyal l
thisandmybi ggestf earismymom howi sshe
goingtot akethiswhooaokmyphoner ingedand
Lunga'snamef lashedont hescreensoIanswer ed
thecall
Hi
m:Munt
uwami..
igetbut
ter
fl
iesever
yti
mehesays
t
hatt
omeIlovehi
m somuch
Me:
Heyl
ove
Hi
m:Howhaveyoubeen?
Me:
am okbabyj
ustf
eel
ingabi
tti
red
Him:Youal waystir
edlovecanyoupleasecometo
mypl aceyouseei t'
sagoodweatherforcuddl
es
andImi ssbeinginbetweenyourt
highsbaby..
he
sai
dt helastpartseduct
ivel
y
Me:
BabyIhaveanassi
gnmentt
owr
it
ethough
Him:
Iwil
lhel
pyouwi t
hitbabyandIal
wayshel
p
youdon'
tusethatasanexcuse
Me:
Okyougotmet
her
eIwi
llcome
Hi
m:Iwi
llt
ransf
ermoneyf
oruberok
Me:
OkLove
Him:Ican'
twaitt
oseeyou..hedisconnectedthecal
l
andwheewl etmedragmysel ftotheshowersoI
l
iveinResandLungahashi sownapar t
mentanda
carsoItookashowerandwor emyAdi das
tr
acksuitt
hatwasboughtbymyboyf i
eIt hi
nkhe
hasseenthatIsometi
mesr epeatclot
hesandI
woremy2yearallst
arsneakerandt ir
edmyaf r
o
i
ntoaneatbunnyandIr equestedforanuber

LUKHANYO

SoyesterdayIl
eftKhit
ha'
shousef uri
ousImean
youknowwhatt heysaytruthhur
tsshewasgiving
mer eal
it
ycheckswellfor
givemef orbei
ngsel
fi
sh
formyselfwelawyersworkonouri magesi
fIl
osea
caset
henam doomedIhopeshewi
llf
orgi
veme
CONTI
NUATI
ONS
.
.
MENZI

It
'sMondaymid-daysoit
'spossi
blelunchti
mesoI
am att
heGri
llhouserest
aurantwait
ingforThabo
andLethuwhoshowedupaf terawhole5mi nut
es
ofwait
ing
Them:
hi/
hel
lo
Me:Higuysyouar
elat
esomeofushaver
ude
bosses
Lethu:
Wowt hatwomanthinkt
hiswor
ldr
evol
ves
aroundher
..
shesaidset
tl
ing
Thabo:
Howar
eyoubr
uh?
Me:
Iam goodandst
ressed
Let
hu:whyi
sthat
?sheaskedl
ooki
ngki
ndof
unset
tl
ed
Me:
SheknowsormustIsayt
heyknow
Thabo:
Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:Nomkhit
haistheonewhoki
ll
edNathishe
foundoutt
hathe'
stheonewhosnit
chedonhis
husbandandhewaswor ki
ngwi
thusam surethat
bastur
dsnit
chedonustoo
Lethu:
What?
!hecommi
tedsui
cidemoss.
.t
heywer
e
shockedashel
l
Thabo:
heevenl
eftanot
est
ati
nghi
sreasons
Me:Weareworki
ngagainstasmartwomanhere
whoknowshowt ocoveruphert
racksandshe'
s
unt
raceabl
eshe'
stheonewholeftBel
laatt
heli
ons
par
k
Thabo:
Iunder
est
imat
edheryouknow?
Me:Metoobutaft
erIeavesdr
opherconver
sati
on
wit
hherhusbandoverthephoneIwasshakenand
t
hehusbandcanbeher eanyt
imesoon
Let
hu:
Wowsot
heyknowaboutyouguys?
Thabo:
whyar
eyouexcl
udi
ngyour
sel
f?hawusonke
<al
lofus>
Me:Maybehewi
llhavemer
cyonyoubecauseyou
ar
ehisex
Thabo:
thewi
fei
sbr
utalt
oosoyouar
enotsaf
elady
Lethu:I
tstoughnevert
houghtitt
hiswaybutwecan
sti
llconti
nuewithourpl
anright
Me:YeahandwemustactnowbecauseIhear
dher
saytheyneedt
olayl
owastheyl
aylowwemustact
Thabo:
asformeam pul
li
ngoutofthisguysam
doneplot
ti
ngagai
nsthi
mI '
vegotafamilyt
othi
nk
about
Me:
Asi
fwedon'
thavef
ami
li
es
Let
hu:St
opbeingacowardThabowear ecloset
o
get
ti
ngthem ImeanIhavebeentai
li
nghermoves
wecantakeherki
dsalloft
hem andplaceour
demands
Me:
Thatwasmypl
ant
oo
Thabo:
NocountmeoutguysIam l
eavi
ng.
.he
st
oodupandtookhi
scarkeyspai
dforhi
sbil
land
l
eft
Let
hu:
Wowhe'
ssuchanass
Me:
Myl unchi
soverbutwest
il
lhavet
omeetkeep
ont
ail
ingherok
Let
hu:
oksur
e..
ipai
dforourbi
ll
sandl
eft

ANATI

Sol astSaturdayIwaswi t
hLungahavi ngour
qualityt
imeandhegotacal lfrom hi
sfriendsand
guesswhatheuppedandl ef tmeaf t
erthathecame
backi nthemi ddleofthenightdemandi ngtosleep
withmet henerveirefusedandnowhe' smadatme
fordenyinghi m coochiewel loknowIam f rom my
classesandonmywayt oresIboughtt wo
pregnancyt estandpeedont hem andIam wai ti
ng
ont heti
meri t'
sjust3mi nawayi fam sweatinghell
myhandsar esweat ingandt herewasaknockat
thedoorandi t
'snotmyr oomi ebecauseon
Mondaysshecomesbackl ateIhidthet est
sand
openedt hedoori twasLungahehar dlycomet omy
room heal wayssendmemoneyf oruberwhyt oday
orbecauseofourl i
ttl
efight
Him:canyoupleasel
etmei
nbaby.
.iopenedt
he
doorhegotin
Hi
m:Howar
eyoudoi
ngbaby?
Me:am f
ine.
.isai
dsi
tt
ingdownhecamet omebut
whenhesatdownandmyt est
sfel
lonthef
loorand
i
thasbeen6mi nssotheresul
tsar
eshown
Hi
m:Babywhati
sthi
s?
Me:
..
.
Him:aniam aski
ngyouaquesti
on?hepi
ckedt
hem
butIquickl
ysnapthem onhi
shand
Him:
Anatiar
eyoupregnant
?who'
sbabyi
sit
?have
youbeencheat
ingonme?
Me:
..
Him:Answerme!!heshout
edIjustcr
iedandthr
ew
thetestathi
sfaceaft
erIhaveseentwoli
nesin
bothofthem
Hi
m:Ngumnt
wanakabanil
onaAni
?<who'
sbabyi
s
i
t>
Me:
LungaIhavebeenf
eel
ingsi
ckf
orawhi
leandi
t
wasaf t
eryoutol
dmeyouf ail
edtopulloutandI
thinkt
hatanswersyourquestionandyouknowt hat
youaretheonlymant hatIsl
eptwithinmyl i
feso
pleasestopaski
ngmest upidquesti
ons
Him;Howam isupposetoknowAnihuhImeanI
thoughtIgaveyoumoneythefol
lowi
ngdayyou
should'
veboughtwhatwhatpi
ll
s
Me:
Ihadamor
ningt
estsoIf
orgott
hatmna<i
>
Him:Wowyoudidthi
sbypur
poseAni,
tomeitlooks
l
ikeyouwant
edit,
howcanyoufor
getsomet
hing
l
ikethi
s?i
shebei
ngseri
ousri
ghtnow
Me:Ndicel
auphumeLungagett hef uckoutofmy
room andthi
swast hereasonIwant edtotermi
nate
thi
spregnancybecauseIknowyour ichboysact
Lungayouar esoi
mmat ur
e,youprioriti
zeyour
fri
endsbeforemeandyouar esochi ldi
shsoplease
goIdon'tneedyouanymor ei t
'sover
Hi
m:What
?!youcan'
tbeser
iousAninoyoucan'
tbe
Me:
Wel
lIam goLunga.
.hel
ookedatme
Hi
m:i
t'
sfi
neIwon'
tbegyou.
.hewentoutf
uri
ousI
j
ustsankonthefl
oorandcr
iedhowt
hehel
lam I
goi
ngtodothis

KHI
THA

I
t'
sMondayaf
ter
noonIam wit
hPhi
lanii
noneof
Ndi
lescl
ubwehadameet i
ng
Hi
m:Bossl
adyi
thasbeenalongdaygeez..
hesaid
st
ret
chi
nghi
sarmsandrest
ingontheoff
icecouch
Me:Pearlmustsayitshe'
spregnantumit
hisi
lewena
youarealwayssleepy,
ti
redandhungry<you
i
mpr egnat
ed>
Him:Noshe'
soncontrapt
ivesshe'
sbusywi
thher
beautynt
onnton<whatwhat>
Me:Thosearenotahundr
edper
centbr
oanyway
how'sherbusi
ness?
Hi
m:Sl
owl
ycomi
ngt
oget
her
Me:that
'sni
cewelli
t'
slat
eI'
vegott
ofet
chmy
squadatschoolandatdaycar
eam sur
etheyar
e
al
onebynow
Him:
Yeahki
sst
hei
rbut
tocksf
ormet
ellt
hem t
hei
r
uncl
emisst
hem
Me:iwilldoso..
welaughedasIwentoutIf etched
myki dstheygot othesameschoolit
'sacombi ned
from day-car
etohighschoolsoIdon'thaveto
sufferIwenthomeandIchangedmycl othesand
thei
rsandiwassot ir
ednoBandilei
snother eto
ordermei ntocooki
ngsoIam goingtoor derin
whensoIwentdownst ai
rstoanswermyr ingi
ng
phonei twasonachar geritwasZai
n
Me:
Nigga
Him:
Bozza.
..
welaughedZai
nissuchacr
azysoul
andf
reesounbother
dIli
kehim
Me:
Sowhatdi
dyouf
ind?
Hi
m: Iwi
llsentyout
hepi
csoft
hel
adywho'
sbusy
t
ail
ingyou
Me:okntwanaIwil
lbewait
ing.
..
afterhedr
opped
thecal
lhesentmehassentmet hepicswowLethu
Iwonderwhatdoesshewantandshehasbeen
vi
sit
ingmykidswel
lnobodycanf
uckwit
hmyki
ds
herandIneedtohaveagoodconver
sat
ion

MI
LAN

Iam fi
nal
lyi
nS.A.whheewi gotanaffordabl
e
apart
mentinSandtonandIam goingtomeetmy
fr
iendLul
uIwentt oherhouseIknockedatthe
doorsheopenedandwowshehasgai nedalotof
weightwecrazi
lyhugged
Her
:Longt
imebaby!
!wehuggedandki
ssedagai
n
Me:
OwImi
ssedyousweet
y
Her
:Youraccentf
ri
end
Me:Don'
texxager
atepl
ease.
.wewentt
ositonthe
bal
conywithachampagnetodri
nkdur
ingour
convo
Her:
Yooyoudidwel
lbycomingIwasgoi
ngtolose
mymi ndst
ayi
ngint
hishouseal
onecandri
veone
cr
azy
Me:
Youdi
dthavef
ri
ends?
Her
:t
heyar
ebusywi
tht
hei
rshi
t
Me:
oksohowar
eyout
aki
ngt
his?
Her
:St
upi
dquest
ionbutIt
akei
tonedayatat
ime
Me:am sor
ryIwasj
ustchecki
ngoutwher
ear
emy
ki
ds?
Her:
Yousti
llr
emembert hatyouar
eagod-mot
her?
wowyouar esounbel
ievablewel
ltheyar
ewi
ththei
r
gr
and-par
ents
Me:
Owoksowheni
sthef
uner
al?
Her
:Thi
scomingSatur
dayandIam notr
eadyany
wayhowisyourbl
esser
Me:owpl
easeIam nevergoi
ngbackt
her
eam sur
e
he'
swit
hthewif
enow
Her:
Youthoughthewoul
dli
vehi
swi
fef
orasi
de
pl
easecomeon
Me:amarr
iedwomanoncesai
dowbor
emeagai
n,,
,
where'
sBandz?
Her
:Thai
land
Me:
Whati
shedoi
ngt
her
e?
Her
:hewasar
rest
edamont
hagoifnott
wothey
f
ounddrugsi
nhismat
ri
moni
alhousei
nWestcl
if
f
Me:
Yousai
d..
.shecut
tedmeof
f
Her
:Mat
ri
moni
alHousei
nWESTCLI
FF
Me:
He'smarried..shedi
dn'
tsayanyt
hingshejust
t
ookherphoneandshowedmehi si
nstgal
ler
yI
t
houghthedislikedsoci
almediaandwowhe's
marr
iedwit
hki ds
Her
:Youseenow?
Me:
He'
smar
ri
edal
ready?
wit
hfourki
ds?
Her:Hewasn'tgoi
ngtowaitf
oryouandyeshe'
sthe
fat
heroffourbuttheol
deronei
snotbiol
ogi
cal
ly
his
Me:
sot
hewi
fecheat
edor
..
Her
:Nohemar
ri
edherwi
tht
heki
d
Me:
Wow
CHAPTERSI
XTY-
FIVE
Her
:Ar
eyouokf
ri
end?
Me:
YesIam j
ustshockedt
hat
'sal
l
Her
:hewasn'
tgoi
ngt
owai
tforyou
Me:
Youhavebeensayingt
hatIheardyouthef
ir
st
t
imesoonwhichjai
lishei
mprisonedat?
Her
;Thenat
ionalone
Me:
okt
heonet
hat
'snotf
arf
rom t
heAi
rpor
tri
ght
?
Her
:Ihaveneverbeent
her
esoangazi
<Idon'
tknow>

NEXTDAY》

Itookafli
ghttoThail
andIhadtoseehim nowIam
waiti
ngatthevisi
torroom t
hedooropensanda
handsomeBandi l
ewal ksi
naccompaniedbyacop
theylookateachotherhenoddedandt heof
fi
cer
l
eft
Me:
Bandi
le
Hi
m:Mimi
..
iwenttohugt
hel
ivi
ngdaysoutofhi
m
wel
lwehuggedt
ight
lyso
Me:
Imissedyou.
.isai
dfeel
inghisembr
aceagai
n
het
henalloft
hesuddenpulledout
Me:
Areyouok?
wesatdown
Hi
m:YesIam amanMi l
anIdidn'
tdi
ewhenyoul
eft
mesowhatispr
isoncomparedtothepai
nyoul
eft
mewithhuh?
Me:
OhpleaseIhadtoleavef
orschol
arshi
pdon'
t
maket
hisabigissue
Him:
Andthatmentyoushoul
dnotvi
sitmeor
cont
actmeMimi?
Me:
Iwaswr
ongBandi
leIknow
Hi
m:SohowcanIhel
pyou?
Me:NoIcametoseeyouormaybehelpyoubail
yououtseemsl
ikeyourXHOSAwifeisoutt
here
enj
oyi
nglif
ewit
houtyouplusyouknowhowt hose
l
ikemoneyshemightdivor
ceyouandhaveital
lto
her
Hi
m:Mxm i
fthat
'swhatyouar
eher
efort
henl
eave
Mi
lanl
eave!
!hewasl
oud
Me:
Iam t
ryi
ngt
ohel
p
Him:bytal
kingillofmywi f
epleasesavei
tidon'
t
wanttohearitthatwomani stheonlyper
sonwho
knowsandunder standmeandont opofthatIam
goingtobef r
eeanyt imesoonbecauseofherso
pleasesweetiedon'tcomeheretryi
ngtobegoody
twoshoes
Me:Youdi dn'thavetobi t
emyheadof fIam stil
l
goi
ngt obeher eyouandIhaveanunf inished
business..
isaidgoingt ositonhi
slapandAf t
erI
di
dil ookedathi m hewassoyummyhi sar msare
mor ebroadernowhi sthickbr
owsandl i
psar eso
purpli
shIt hi
nki t
'sbecausehesmokeshewas
mor ehandsomenow If oundmyselfkissinghim
hedidn'trespond
CONTI
NUATI
ON1 .
.
KHI
THA
Soiwentt ovisi
tmymenyooimi ssedhim sowhen
IgotinhereIwentst r
aighttohisroom butt
heytol
d
met hathewasi nthevisit
orsroom ok'×whocame
tovisithi
m?allhisfr
iendsar ehomesot hey
dir
ect edmetowher ehewasandt her
ewasacop
outsidether
oom
Hi
m:HeyMam.
.hesai
dst
ret
chi
nghi
shead
Me:
Openher
eIwantt
ogeti
n
Hi
m:Thi
ngi
s..
icut
tedhi
m of
f
Me:Thi
ngiswhat?!
Iwantto.
.iwasdi
stur
bedby
voi
cescomingfr
om theroom
??:
Whatt
hehel
ldoyouthi
nkyouar
edoi
ng?
Mimi
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m:NanamiIam evendonesi
gni
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s
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he
necceti
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backtomewehugge
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

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m:NoIwantt
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m:Nanamicanyoupl
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ki
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m:Babythi
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i
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ON3
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lyat
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pri
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lehowwasAmer
ica?
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le:
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ingImi
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ds
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Ndi
le:
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her
sel
f
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le:
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le?
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dshehi
tyou>
Si
ya:
Nami
<met
oo>
Ndi
le:
Haaaandwenaxoxo
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vimbei
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i
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ngsessi
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anicame
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m:Bafoza<brothers>t
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:Hayimi
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oryourwi
fe
Phi
laniyoo
Ndi
le:
Nanamigoandchangepl
ease..
hesai
d
whi
speri
nginmyearwowhe'str
yingtodi
smissme
now
Luu:
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cheninthemean
ti
me?Phi
laniwasalr
eadyopeningmycupboar
ds
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il
laski
ng
he'
sfi
nishi
ngof
f>
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lrant
otheki
tchen
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SIX
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themal lf
orgrocer
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alonesoIwaswear ingashor tjoggerpant
,vestand
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desnomakeupnoweavej usttwocornrows
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wenttogr eedher
Me:
Babes.
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urnt
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:Heysi
sKhi
thahowar
eyou?
Me;
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eYOU?shesni
ff
edandIhuggedher
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.shesaidwipingher
tearswellIdi
dn'ttakethatIt ol
dherthatwemust
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sforprivacyaf
ter
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nglikeweare
doinglaundrysoaf terawhi l
ewer eattherooft
op
Me:
Sowhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Her
:Iam pr
egnant
Me:
What
?!shel
ookeddown
Me:
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ustshockedt
hat
'sal
lIam notgoi
ngt
o
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udgeyouiam awomanIunder
standandbesi
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her
etoo
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:Ij
ustdon'
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odowi
thmypr
egnancy
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oldmet
hewhol
e
Lungaandpregnancysaga
Her
:Si
nceMondayhenevert
extnorcal
lme
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sasel
fi
shcowar
dIwi
llmakea
pl
anbabe
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:Iam j
ustwor
ri
edaboutmymot
herandt
he
bur
sary
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haplanthoughwe
arewomensucht hingshappenunplannedandas
foryourmot hersheisgoingtobeangr ybutwhatI
knowi sthatshewi l
lcomear ounddon'tworr
yas
youdeci dedtokeept hezygoteyouarebravehuns
Her:
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thawhat
ever
si
tuat
ionigetIwi
llhavet
ofacei
t
Me:NoyouarenotalonemntaseIam heref
oryou
ok.
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leeat
ingandIendedup
buyinghercl
othesandmake-upItookhert
othe
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onj
ustt
ocheeruphermood
Her
:Iam sor
ryf
orchowi
ngyourmoney
Me:
Nopr
obl
em sweet
iebutonedayyouwi
llpay
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Her
:Haaawi
thwhat
?
Me:
Youwil
lcomeandbabysitmyki
dsandcl
ean
myhousewhenIam l
azytodosobymysel
f
Her
:Thatbi
ghouse?
!yoooIwoul
ddi
e
Me:
YetIam st
il
lal
ive.
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aughed
Her
:Gotme
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et'
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llt
akeyout
other
es
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erdroppi
ngof
fAnat
iidr
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omyhouse
andmyhusbandcametohelpmewit
hthe
shoppi
ngbags
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m:Iam sur
eyouf
ini
shedt
hewhol
est
ores
Me:
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iondaddy>wel
aughedas
wesatdownonthekitchenstool
s
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m:Butyouseeal
lthesepl
ast
ics
Me:
YeahyeahUncl
etobe
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m:Huh?
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rl
fr
iendapparentl
y
she'spregnantandshet ol
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tingto
dri
nkt hemor ni
ngaf terpil
lsot
heyhaven't
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lis
goingthroughal otalone
Hi
m:What?!soLungai
soutt
her
ebusyeat
ingPussy
t
hatsnothi
syetraw
Me:
Howdoyoumean?
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dhi
mt hathemustusea
condom everyti
mehe'
sfucki
ngtheonlyti
mehe
eatsrawiswi t
hhiswi
fel
ookathim now
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'snott
heissuenowthebabyisal
readyon
t
hegirl
swombandshe' smoreworri
edabouther
motherwho'sadomesti
cworkerandherbursar
y
i
t'
sgoingtocancelheri
t'
sobvi
ous
Hi
m:Yoot
hat
'
shect
icnanami
Me:
Yeahr
ight
Him:
IknowyouMaTheresaal
readypr
omi
sedher
somet
hingt
ellmeal
ready
Me:
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dn'
tIof
fer
edemot
ionalsuppor
t
Him: MhhButLungahastot
akeresponsi
bili
tyofhi
s
actionsIwi
llhavet
odivi
dehisal
lowanceintotwo
fornowandwhent hebabyisher
eit'
sgoingtobein
threehehastolear
n
Me:
Yoohe'sgoi
ngt
ohat
ethi
shealwayssai
dI
mustputi
nawordf
orhi
m soyoucoul
dincr
ease
t
heall
owance
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Unf
ortunatel
yhemessedupwel
lmymot
heri
s
comi
ngfordinner
Me:
What
?!
Him:Iam shockedtoosolet
'sst
artcooki
ngbet
ter
yetletmehititf
rom behi
ndwhil
ethekidsar
e
sleepi
ng
Me:
Nani
Him:What?
pleasej
ustaqui
ckiebaby..
sowemade
outonthekit
chencount
eraf
terthatwecooked
di
nner
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

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akea
quickshowerandIworemyl ongmaxidressand
sl
eepersjustt
oberelaxedandIhadmyBebei nmy
armshi smamawalkedinwiththewholesquad
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eet
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<mal
eandfemal
e
gangst
ers>welookedateachot
herandwewant
ed
tol
aughbutnomamawasser i
ous
Hi
m:Butmama
Her:
What?
!Iam hungryplease.
.wel
ltheyal
lsett
led
andIdi
shedupforthem andnowwewer eeati
ng
Hi
m:SoLungahow'
sever
ythi
ng?
Lunga:
It
'sohf
uck.
.her
anupst
air
shol
dinghi
s
mouth
Me:
IsheokMama?
Her
:Shei
mpr
egnat
edagi
rlt
hisonehe'
sdenyi
ngi
t
Phel
o:Anat
iAnat
i.
.shesai
dsi
ngi
ng
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wasdi smissingherthi
sonei sfor
wardbutshekept
onsinging'thegirli
sAnatiAnati
'smhkidsNosi pho
i
snotat al
kativeonesheratherpl
aywit
ht hekids
i
nsteadandnowshewasar gui
ngwit
hxoxo,Siya
andSphewi thwhateverandbabyLubenathiwasi n
hi
sgr anniesar msLungacameback
Lunga:
IswearIam dyi
ng
Her
:Who'
sAnat
iwena?
Lunga:
..
Ndi
le:
Justoutwi
thi
tal
ready
Her
:Soyouguysknew?
Me:nowedi
dn'
tbutIsawAnat
iatt
hemal
landshe
t
oldmeabouti
t
Her:
Wowsoi
ssher
eal
lypr
egnant
?weal
llookedat
Lunga
Lunga:Yesmamashei spregnantwithmy
baby.
.shesar
cast
ical
lylaughedandcl appedonce
asshewasbusyfeedinghergr andchi
ld
Ndi
le:
Thenyouhavet
obeamanbr
o
Her:
hebecameamanwhenhel ayedherand
i
mpregnatedhersohehast
otakeresponsi
bil
it
yof
hi
sacti
ons
Lunga:
howdoyoumeanmom?
Her
:Getaj
ob
Lunga:
What
?!Iam st
il
last
udentt
hough
Ndi
le:
thati
swhyIdeci
dedt
odi
videyoural
lowance
Lunga:
That
'scr
azy
Ndil
e:bel
ievemeIwi
lldoitt
hatgi
rlwi
llneedan
apar
tmentandmoneyf orherf
ees
Me:Andwhatabouthermot
her
?she'
ssowor
ri
ed
abouther
Her:
Ohosheshould'vebeenwor
riedf
rom t
hestar
t
thi
scouldn'
thavehappenedAar
gourkids.
.shewas
sopissed
Ndi
le:
Sonowoni
tsR2000l
ivi
ngal
lowance
CONTI
NUATI
ON3
ANATI

Wel lideci
dedt otel
lmymot heraboutmy
pregnancyIsentherat extmessageandshecal l
ed
mer i
ghtawayandGodIwasbei ngcal l
edbynames
andt heinsult
swer en'
tgoodIgeti tthatshewasso
disappointedinmebutt hosewer en'tgoodsoIjust
satont opofmybedandscr ol
ledthroughmy
FacebookandLungahasbeenact ivebuthedoesn't
evensenda' Hi'smhIdon'tknowwhyIl ovehim
thismuchIj ustpraythatIgetoverhi m soonIcan'
t
dot histomyselfno.Myr oommat eKamvagoti n
carryingdoughnut s
Her
:Gi
rl
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Hey.
.shecamet
osi
tnextt
ome
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:Iboughtyout
heseIhear
dthatpr
egnant
womenlovedoughnut
s
Me:
What
?!.
.howdi
dsheknow
Her
:Don'
twor
ryyoursecr
eti
ssaf
ewi
thme,
,
and
whataboutyourbur
sar
y?
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dshewil
ltel
lheremployers
aboutt
hei
ssueathandandwewi l
ltakeitf
rom
ther
e
Her:
Don'
tputyourhopest
oohi
ghl
ovest
heycut
ti
ng
youout
Me:
Iknow
Her:
andthati
sgoodbyetoyourfutur
eandyour
boyfi
eisgoi
ngtoconti
nuewithschoolgraduate
andgetawellpayi
ngjobandforgetaboutyouguys
Haaawhatajokeyoushould'
vedoneabor t
ion
sweetsandconti
nuel
ivi
ngyourlif
eit'
snotlikeyou
wil
lbewalki
ngaroundwithastamponyour
for
ehead
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oIdon'
tcar
eI
can'
tcr
yoveraspi l
tmilk
Her
:Soyouar
enotgoi
ngt
oeatmydoughnut
s?
Me:NoIwillhavethem lat
erthankyou.
.honest
lyI
wasn'ti
nthemoodf oranyt
hingmyhear twas
pai
ningmymi ndwasbusyt hinki
ngaboutLungai
deci
dedt
osendhi
m acol
d'Hi
'vi
aappandhecal
led
wowIaccept
edt
hecal
l
Hi
m:Bhabha
Me:
Hi
Hi
m:Iam out
sidecanIseeyou?
Me:OkIwillbedowni
naf ewmi nutes..
hedropped
thecal
lokIworemysleeperstookmyphonesand
keysIwentoutwhenIgotdownst airsIsawhisred
polohegotoutandopenedthedoorf ormeandhe
alsogoti
n
Hi
m:Canwegot
omyapar
tmentbaby?
Me:Onlyi
fyouaregoingt
odrivemebackher
e..
he
noddedandstar
tedtheengi
neonourwayhe
boughtmefood
CONTI
NUATI
ON3+

Wear r
ivedathi
sapar
tmentandhepar
kedhi
scar
out
sideandwewentinsi
de
Hi
m:Wher
eist
hef
ood?
Me:
Iat
eital
lyoudi
dn'
tsayyouwantsome
Him:
Butthosewer e.
.her anupst
air
sholdinghis
mouthIranafterhim hegotinthebathroom and
eewhewasvomi t
ingIhat epokeit
'sl
ikeit'
sinmy
mouthIquickl
yclosedt hedooraft
eraf ewmi nut
es
hecameback
Me:
areyouok?
Hi
m:damnmorni
ngsi
cknessesbutIhavedeci
ded
t
hatwemustgotoadoct
oraft
erclasstommorowif
t
hat'
sokwi
thyou
Me:
Iti
s..
hecamet
osi
tnextt
omeont
opofhi
sbed
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yIrinsedmymout hwithamouth
washerandAniIam sor r
yforact
ingthewayIdid
l
astweekIwasshockedIneveri maginedmysel
f
bei
ngaf atheratanearl
ystageIam sosor
ryfor
bei
ngaj erk
Me:
k
Him:OhIunderst
andandIt
hinkyouhavet
otel
l
yourmothert
ooso..
.
Me:
noIdi
dandshe'
snott
aki
ngi
twel
landshesai
d
she'
sgoingtotel
lherempl
oyersabouttheissueat
handbecausetheyaret
heoneswhogr antedme
wit
habur sar
ysoit'
sobvi
ousthattheyaregoingto
cutmeoff
Him:Don'
tworrybabyIwi
llmakeaplanweare
goingtocont
inuewit
hschoolandr
aiset
hischi
ld
thebothofus
Me:
Wowar
eyousur
e?andwi
thwhat
?
Hi
m:Iam sur
eandIremembersayi
ngiwi
llmakea
pl
anokam amantrustme
Me:I
fyousaysothenIwil
lint
hemeant imeIthi
nkI
wil
lhavet
ogoandpackmycl othesbecause
tommorowIwassupposedtogetmyal l
owance
andhavemyaccommodat i
onpayed
Him:Maybetheyarenotgoi
ngt
ost
opf
undi
ngyou
babystopbeingnegat
ive
Me:
Doyoubl
ameme?
Hi
m:f
orwhat
?
Me:
Forbei
ngnegat
ivehawu
Hi
m:Ohnonotal
it
tl
e..
hecamecl
oset
omeand
ki
ssedmewhilstcaressi
ngmythighsIwaswear i
ng
adressImi
ssedthissoIwil
ltot
all
ygi veinwe
ki
ssedandaft
erthatwewereundr essingeach
ot
herandwemadel ove

It
'sMondaymorni
ngam prepar
ingf
ormycl
assand
igotacal
lfr
om mymothersayi
ngwemustmeetat
10atmuggandbeansIwassoshakenhowam I
goingt
ofaceher
CHAPTERSI
XTY-
SEVEN
.
Aftercl
assIwentstraightt
oMuggandbeansandI
foundmymot herwait
ingformeifthi
swasa
meet i
ngforsomethingelseIwouldjumpi
ngupand
downoutofhappi nessbecauseIam seei
ngherbut
nowi t
'stense
Me:Molomama<gr
eet
ings>shest
oodupandwe
hugged
Her:
Molosanal
wam <gr
eet
ingst
oyout
oomy
baby>
Me:MamaIam sor r
yforbeingpr egnantIswearI
didn'
tpl
anitam sor
ryforl
ettingpeerpressureget
thebett
erofmeIam sor r
yf or.
.
Her:Ohpl
easeAnatisaveityouknewthatwhenyou
openedyourlegsf
orthatboyyouwoul dgetababy
orwhatdidyouexpectacar?oragraduati
on
ceremony?
Me:
hayimama<no>
Her:
exactl
ysopleasethi
sweekendIwanttomeet
him andhi
sfamilyIdon'
twantdamagesIwant
them tomarr
yyoumnt anam
Me:
Wai
twhat
?!mom youcan'
tdot
hat
Her
:Whynot
?
Me:Idon'
twanttogetmar
ri
ednowandbesi
desI
youngformarr
iage
Her:youshould'
vethoughtaboutitbef
oreopening
yourlegsmybabyandIdon' twantyoutosufferl
ike
Idi
dr aisi
ng4kidswithdiff
erentf
ather'
swhodi dn'
t
bothersupporti
ngyouguysnoIdon' twantthatfor
youAnat iyougrewupinashacki sthatwhatyou
wantf
oryourki
d?oht
hathi
tshomeIhadt
ear
son
myface
Me:
Nomama
Her:
Goodnowandbadnewsar etheyar ecut
ti
ng
youofffundi
ngsoit
'sbacktoAlaxandr
asweets
youdidthist
oyoursel
fsodon'tcryasifyouwere
sentIexpect
edagownandacer t
if
atetheone
writ
tenonahardcopynottheonewi t
heyes
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Okmamai
t'
sfi
neIwi
llgoandpackmycl
othes
Her:OkbabyIhavetogetbackt owor ktaket hisand
buysomet hi
ngtoeat.
.shel ef
tmewi thR300Ipayed
formycoffeeandmuf fi
nt heniwal kedar oundt he
mallthi
nki
ngaboutmydr eamst hatar efadingaway
thenmyphonebeepedandSi sKhitha'sname
fl
ashedont hescr
eenmessager eads' don'tyou
wanttohavelunchwithmet ommor ow?'ireplyed
withayesandar edheartshe'ssuchagoodper son
Iwishtohaveherli
feshewassol uckyandbl essed
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
It
'sbeenaweeknowandIhavemovedt oaf l
atit
's
oneroom andabat hr oom Il ikeitthoughi t'
s
beauti
fulandmyf eesar ebei ngpayedbyt he
Biyel
a'sandSisKhithai sal wayschecki nguponme
whenshehast i
meIunder standt hatshe'sabusy
womansoyesi t'
sfineandaboutmymot herwel l
sheisgoodandshe' sstartingt ocar enowand
Lungahasbeenagoodsuppor teventhoughI
foundoutthathe'sbeencheat ingwi t
hthi sothergir
l
buthehasbeendenyi ngi tsoam notgoi ngto
complaintohim becauseyenahe' salwayssor ry
butrepeatthesameshi the'ssor rywi t
hsoam good
Iwantt of
ocusinmyst udi esandonmypr egnancy

BANDI
LE

Todayit
'sMondayabeaut ifuldayandIdeci dedto
gotowor kIst
art
edatt herestaurantandhotels
nowIam headingtoMasakhanepeopl ebeengiving
mestaresIknowIam ahotmot herfuckerbutthey
weretoomuchwel lIgottothebui l
dingandpast
t
her
ecept
ioni
st
Me:
mor
ningKayl
a
Her:
MrBi
yel
ait
'ssogoodt
oseeyouhowhaveyou
been?
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en'
t
gi
vingmywi f
eahar dt
ime
Her:
Nowewer egood..welaughedasIwenttothe
el
evatorIwasgreet
ingeverypersonimeetonthe
waytomyof fi
ceicameacr ossMenzitheshooki
n
hi
seyeswasoutoft hisworld
Me:
ubonai
spokoyi
ni?
<ar
eyouseei
ngaghost
>
Hi
m:Noam j
ustwonder
ingt
hat
..
Me:Howigotout?!manpleaseyouknowhowmuch
powerIhaveasforthesni
tchesbasazonya<t
hey
wil
lshi
tthemsel
ves>
Him:Ohi
sit?!anywayhaveagooddayi
t'
sgoodt
o
haveyouback
Me:NoProbl
em..
isai
dwalkingawayinmymill
ion
dol
larwal
ktheat
tent
ionIgotfr
om thel
adi
esyeahit
got
tashowthei
rever
ydaycrushisbackwi
thbang
OKUHLE

It
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cMondayIhavet obeatworkIam an
assist
antinoneofSandtonbeaut
yspaIam r enti
ng
anapar t
mentwithMirandaevent
houghsheadr op
outnowbutshest i
llcont
ri
buti
ngtorentherparent
s
sti
llgi
veherall
owanceperksofbeingaspoil
t
Me:
Mir
andawakeupi
t'
spast12al
ready
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Shecamedownst air
swear
ingagownandsl
eeper
s
that
'sherl
if
elat
ely
Her:
Iwasabouttogetdownwhat
swi
tht
he
shout
ingAunt
ie?
Me:
Youarenotgoi
ngt
ost
arvemyni
ece/
nephewi
n
mywatchno
Her
:ohpl
easeyouwi
llmakeahor
ri
bleone
Me:
YetIam f
eedi
ngyouGur
lyougotaner
ve.
.we
l
aughed
Her
:YouknowIam j
oki
ng
Me:Whenareyouplani
ngontel
li
ngBandi
le?he'
s
backf
rom pr
isonsothi
sist
hechance
Her
:Idon'
twantt
oendupi
nli
onspar
kam sor
ry.
.we
l
aughedoncemore
Me:
Gir
lthi
sisser
iousbabenoj
okes
Her:
Iam notjoki
ngeit
herbutIwi
llhavetotellhi
m
becausedadhasbeenonmyneckt hreat
eningto
cutmyallowanceoffi
fIdon'
tbri
ngthebabydaddy
home
Me:
Sadpar
tist
hathe'
smar
ri
ed
Her
:Iam st
upi
dri
ght
?
Me:
Noyounot
Her:Okuhleyoudon' tunder
standallIwantedwasto
geteducat ed,
getmoney,getmar r
iedandhaveki ds
thi
sisr eal
lyfrust
rati
ngmehonest l
yifi
twasn'tmy
mom whonot icedthatIam pregnantIwould'
ve
ter
mi natedthebaby
Me:Yeahr
ightanditwasal
ready5mont
hsnowi
t'
s
howmanykonj e?
Her
:7br
uh.
.
Me:YouarenearyouhavetogotohishouseIwi l
l
accompanyyouorbett
eryetIwil
ltel
lthem andhe
wil
lcomeandseeyoui fhedoesn'
tbeli
eveme
Her
:Yest hatsabr
ighti
deaandyouhavet
otakemy
medicalcardsandscanstoshowhi
m
Me:
Iwi
llgot
oni
ghtbabes
Her
:Thankyouf
ri
end.
.wehuggedasIl
eft

Menzi

Iam att
heGr
il
lhouser
est
aur
antwi
thLet
hu
Me:
Yourexi
sback.
.sheal
mostchokedt
hej
uice
Her
:What
?!Who?
!
Me:
Theoneandonl
yBandi
le
Her
:Yooj
ustaswewer
eaboutt
oputourpl
ani
n
act
ion
Me:
Wehavetocomeupwi t
habet
terpl
anandwe
mustbesmar
tabouti
tal
lok
Her
:Thi
sseemssoi
mpossi
bleyouknow
Me:Nol
et'
stryandgi
veupwithsomethi
ngatleast
wemightnotwinhi
m buthemustknowthathe's
bei
ngchal
lenged
Her:
That'
sabrighterpl
anmanfornowiam surehe
hashisdogssniff
ingaroundweneedt
olaylow
Me:Beent
hinki
ngaboutt
hatt
ooIwassoshocked
whenIsawhimt hi
smorni
ng
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

KHI
THA

It
'sMondayeveni
ngIam watchingnewschannel
withmymanwewer esocozyIhadmyonehand
aroundhi
swaistandmyotherwasst r
aighti
nhis
manhoodmassaginghi
sballslolandIhadmy
heardr
estedinhi
sbroadarmswewer ebusyt
alki
ng
aboutwhathappenedduri
ngthedayandwhathe
di
dmymanal waysgotsomethingt
otel
landt
oo
muchgossipam alwaysl
aughing
Hi
m:youshoul
d'veseenhi
sfacenanami
Me:Aar
gbabywenayouar
eexagger
ati
ng
t
hings.
.wel
aughed
Him:Ngi
yakut
shel
aebenje<Iam tel
li
ngyouhewas
l
ikethi
s>hesaidtr
yingtoactl
ikeashockedand
afr
aidMenziyooIdied
Me:
Naniyekel
ayoo
Hi
m:Mhhawungi
khol
wane?<soyoudon'
tbel
ieve
me>
Me: Idobutyouar eexxagerat
ingnawe. .
isaid
kissinghi m andthekisswasheat edIended
straddlingont opofhim ashewasbusysucki ngmy
nower ectnipplesIf
elthismanhoodget ti
nghar das
rockunder neat
hmeImoanedandst ar
tedgrinding
onhi m hewassosl owf ormyl i
kingsoIendedup
undr essinghim andtookt hebeastforaridewe
changedposi ti
onanddi dthedancewhenwewer e
donebusycatchi
ngourbreatht
her
ewasaknockat
thedoorwegotdressedandBandi
lewentt
oopeni
t
wasnoneotherthanOkuhle
Her:
Don'tl
ookatmeli
ket
hatIam nother
etost
ay
orvi
sitIgotmyownapar
tment
Ndi
le:
Sowhatdoyouwant
?
Her
:Notevenahel
lookbr
otherIwi
llgetst
rai
ghtt
o
i
t
Ndi
le:
Ok.
..
Her
:Mi
randai
s7mont
hspr
egnant
Me:
Andhowi
sthatourpr
obl
em?
Her
:i
tmi
ghtnotbeyour
sbutBhut
iBandi
lei
shi
s
Me:
Huh?Il
ookedatBandi
lewhowasbusyper
uzi
ng
t
hepaper
shejustgotf
rom kuhl
e
Hi
m:Not
hisi
sfakeandi
t'
sil
legalhow.
ca.
.
Her:
She'
sevendownf
orapat
erni
tyt
esti
fyouar
ein
deni
al
Me:
Wow..
icl
appedonceIdi
dn'
tknowhowt oreAct
t
othi
sIj
ustwal
kedawayandjoggedupst
air
sI
wentstrai
ghtt
otheoff
iceandgulpeddownhis
whiskeysohewasbusysleepi
ngwi tht
hem wi
tout
acondom buthewasbusylect
uringLungaabout
t
her i
sksofunprot
ect
edsexyesterdaynowthi
s
wow
SI
XTY-
EIGHT

WhenIwasaboutt
otakeanot
hergul
pthebot
tl
e
wassnat
chedawayfr
om myhand
Ndi
le:
Wenzani
?<whatar
eyoudoi
ng>
Me:Bandi
leandi
khori
ghtndi
nomsindokakhulu
fut
hihowcouldyou?
<Iam notokIhavealotof
anger
>
Ndi
le:
Mnkamil
alel
aphel
aangi
sho.
.<mywi
fel
ist
en
her
eImean>
Me: WhatBandil
e?youdidn'
tmeani thuh?yougoall
oversleepingwi
thever ygi
rlunpr
otectednotthatI
am okwi thyousleepi
ngwiththem butdidyouhave
todisrespectmyhealt
handihuh?Isai dthrowinga
glassathim heduckedit
Ndi
le:
Babyst
opf
ight
ingpl
easel
et'
stal
kaboutt
his
Me:
Youwantt
oli
etomeagai
nBandi
le
Ndi
le:
NoIwon'
tnanal
ist
en
Me:NoIhavebeent ol
erat
ingyournonsenseit
's
enoughnowIam doneIam def eat
edhowam I
goingt oraiseachi
ldwhowasconcei vedwit
hme
ont hepicturehuh?
youwentoutandbr okeyour
weddi ngvowsandcamewi t
hapr i
zedoIhavet o
applaudyoumydearhusband? andyouknowt hat
i
nyourf ami l
yyoui
mpregnateagir
lyoumar r
yher
Ndi
le:Butbabywear
enotsureIam wi
ll
ingt
otake
t
heriskanddopater
nit
ytest
s
Me:FuckoffBandi
leokFuckoffIam donewit
hyou
iwantdivor
ceyouratherki
llmethandi
ewith
depressi
onandstr
essyouar eputt
ingmeunderI
am l
eavingyou
Ndi
le:
Nobabyyouar
enotBabynoyoucan'
t
Me:Watchme.
.isaidl
eavingtheroom hef ol
lowed
tometoourbedroom andtothecl osetItookmy
sui
tcaseandstart
edthrowinginmycl othes
Hi
m:Babypleasedon'
tdothi
sngiyakucel
a
MaBi
yela.
.hewasonhiskneesnowhehadt ear
sin
hi
seyes
Me:NoBandileyouhavedisr
epect
edmeenough.
.i
saidtaki
nganotheronehewasbeggi
ngmehesaw
thatIwasn'
tgivi
nginsohestoodup
Ndi
le:
Okf
inedon'
tleavet
henIwi
lll
eave
Me:
Huh?
het
ookhi
sLambhor
ginikeys
Ndil
e:Iam goi
ngtosleepatt
hehotelbabywewi
ll
t
alkaboutthistom.
.icut
tedhi
m short
Me:There'
snot
hingtotal
kaboutwhenyoucome
tommorowyouwi l
lfi
ndyourbagsnextt
othegat
e
Bandil
e
Ndi
le:
kodwaMaBi
yel
a
Me:
Yest
hat
'si
tnowl
eavemysi
ght
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

It
'sMor
ningalr
eadyIcal
ledBabKhumal
ototakethe
ki
dstoschoolIwant
edtobealoneIwassosleepyI
didn'
tevensl
eepawi nkIwascr yi
ngallnightsome
cancallmeself
ishbecauseNdi l
eacceptedXoxo
butnothisadif
fer
entsit
uationnowIjustcan't
i
magi nemysel
fwithasisterwifesoIgottobet he
oneleavi
nghim soIwasbusycl eani
ngar oundthe
housewhenBandi l
egotinwi t
hhismother
Her
:Goodmor
ningMakot
i
Me:
Mor
ningma
Ndi
le:
Goodmor
ningMaBi
yel
a
Me:
..
.
Her:
Canweat
leastsi
tdownandfi
ndabet
ter
sol
uti
ont
hanyougoingsepar
ateways
Me:Isai
dwhatIsai
dmaIam notbacki
ngdown
Bandil
ehasdamagedmei
t'
senough
Her
:Whati
fthat
'snothi
sbaby?
Me:
It
sobvi
oustheti
meli
neismatchi
ngIknowi
t'
s
t
hetr
uthMi
randaknowsbet
tert
hanlyi
ngtome
Her:
Makotipl
easedonottakedeci
sionswhenyou
areangr
ypleaseandtheonethi
ngyouf or
getist
hat
youaremarri
edandthereareki
dsinthepict
ureso
whataboutt
hem?
Me:
Theywi
lladj
ust
Her :Towhat ?Don' tbesel
fi
shKhit
hapleaseIam
beggi ngyout hesekidswerenotcopingwhenthei
r
fatherwasi npr i
sonhowmuchmor ewhenhe's
hereandt hereisachancetobewi t
hhim anyt
ime
theywantbutnot heirmot
heri
sputti
ngherneeds
beforet heir
s
Me:
..
.
Her:
Makotidon'
tgetmewr ongokIam nott aki
ng
Bandi
lessi
denoryour smyonl yconcer nher eare
mygrandkidswhoar eusedt obeinginthesame
housewit
ht hei
rparent
spleasesi sipl
easesi tdown
wit
hyourhusbandandt alkthingsoutwel lIhaveto
beatworknow..shetookherbagandl eft
Me:Youwil
lusetheguestr
oom Andifyouar
enot
goingt
otheoff
iceletmeknowsoIcanIcan'tbei
n
thesameroom wit
hyouthewholeday
Hi
m:NoIwi
llgoMaBi
yel
aandt
hanksf
orl
ett
ingme
i
n
Me:
It
sYourhouseaf
teral
l
Hi
m:Babyyouknowt
hat
'snot
..
Me:Saveyoursel
ffr
om unnecessaryexpl
anati
on
becausewheneverIdon'
tagreewithyouorwhen
wearguingyouwouldalwaysremindmet hatthi
sis
yourhousesopleasedoasyoupl ease.
.
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
.
《AWEEKLATER》

Soi twasalr
eadyconfir
medt hatindeedMirandais
carryi
ngBandileschi
ldIreal
lydonotknowhowt o
takethisr
eall
yimovedoutf rom ourhouseandgot
myownspaceTheki dsar ewit
ht heirgr
anyfornow
andnowIam wi t
hthegirl
swat chingmoviesand
drinki
ngwines
Ti
na:
Somnt aset
hisi
sgoodbyetoyour
marr
iage?
sheaskedl
ooki
ngatthedi
vor
cepaper
s
Me:
Ther
e'snoot
herway
Pear
l;
SoBandilei
sr eal
lygoi
ngt
omar
ryher
?wow
wondersshal
lneverend
Koket
so:
It
sthei
rtr
adi
ti
ont
her
e'snot
hinghecando
naye
Tina:
heshould'
vekepthispant
stohimsel
fnaye
uBandil
elookatourfr
ienduyagowi
shangoku
<she'
shurti
ngnow>
Me: Thi
sshal
lpasstooladieswhathurtsmorei
s
thatItr
ygett
ingoverhim buti
t'
ssoimpossibl
e
guysIfindmyselfst
alki
nghim andli
steni
ngtohis
voicemessagesonwhat sappIam notcomping
withoutmyhusbandt el
lmehowam Igoi ngtoli
ve
withouthi
m?Iwasnowcr yi
ng
Koket
so:
Youcan'
tgetoverhi
m over
nightitwil
ltake
t
imebabesj
ustfi
ndsomet hi
ngtodi
stractyouat
t
hemoment
Pear
l:
Yeahshe'
sri
ghtchommi
e
Me:Aar
gIthi
nkIwi
l
lbef
ineguysandImi
ssmy
babi
estoo
Ti
na:
thatcanbear
rangedicanevengoandf
etch
t
hem t
ommor
ow
Me:
Noi
t'
sokIst
il
lneedsomet
imet
omysel
f
Pearl
:wecangiveyouspacei
fyouwantt or
ight
l
adies?oht
hankGodIhavebeendr oppi
nghintsI
wantthem gonetheyar
enothel
pingeit
herway
Them:
Isi
tokwi
thyou?
Me:YeahsureIwanttosl
eepanyway..
weal
l
huggedbefor
etheylef
tIwentt
odrinkmysl
eepi
ng
pi
ll
sandslept

BANDI
LE

Myheadi sspinningIjustgotacal lfr

om ourf amily
l
awyerLamber tsayingKhi thacamet ohim and
coll
ecteddivorcepaper sam sweat ingandshaki ng
j
ustwhenIgavemyal lt ohereverythinggoesl ef
tI
havest oppedeyeingot herwomenIhadmyf ull
focusonherKhi t
haisjustf ool
ingherselfifshe
thi
nksshewi llleavemef oranothermanIwi llkil
l
everyniggashegoesonadat ewithIcan'ti
magi ne
hergi
vingaguyt
hesl
iceofme
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Itwasafternoonandwewer egoi ngt omeetatour

housewi t
hourl awyerandshewaswi t
hLuu
standi
ngupf orheriagreedtoitbecausehei s
doinghisjobandi t'
snotgoingt oaf f
ectour
fri
endshi
psoshegoti nwearingaj eanitwastight
toseehershapeandsi mpl
et -
shirtandhercoatmy
womani sbeaut if
ulmyhear tisbleedingwho's
goingtotapt hatfatassbesidesmewho' sgoingto
holdonthosehi pswhent heyar etakingitf
rom
behindnocal lmesel f
ishbutIam notdoi ngthis
Lambert
:Youneedtofocus.
.hewhi
sper
edonmy
earandsli
ght
lyl
aughed
Luu:
Biyel
a
Me:Ngcolosi
..
webrohuggedaskhit
hawentt osi
t
onthetablewewenttojoi
nherandthelawyersdi
d
thethi
ngthroughoutt
hesecti
onIwast hi
nki
ng
hardonthismymi ndwentst
rai
ghtonthefir
stdayI
sawherIsmi l
ledt
hefi
rstt
imesheintr
oducedmet o
hersonandourf i
rstnightmaki
ngoutherloud
moans,thehardsl
apsigotbecauseiwast oobig
forher,
sheevenhadt earsmanismil
ledandgood
andtightshewas
Li
mbert
:MrBiyelaMrsBiyel
asoontobeMs
Ngxowahasalreadysi
gnediti
syourtur
nnow.
.he
gavemethepapersandpen

KHI
THA

IKnowIwant edthi
sbutmyhear twaspumping
whenitwasBandi l
esturntosignt hepapershewas
busyperuzi
ngthepaper sasIwasl ooki
ngathow
handsomehewasr eall
yMi r
andai sluckywhatI
knowisthatBandil
eisal overbesidesallt
hebad
thi
nghehasdonebuthecanl oveandknowshow
totr
eatawomanandagoodf athertoomyheart
waspainingandmaki ngmedoubtmydeci si
on
Luu:
Wehavepl
acest
obeMrBi
yel
a
Ndi
le:
Sur
e..
okhe'
ssi
gni
ngLor
dnowel
lhet
ookt
he
penandsignedt
hefi
rstpaperhel
aughedand
shookhi
sheadbefor
eteari
ngthepaperst
opieces
Ndil
e:Idi
dn'
tmarrytodi
vorceIam notsi
gningthese
f
uckingpapersKhit
hagetyourshitt
ogethernanami
wearestil
lgoi
ngtobetogetherandfor
getabout
t
his.
.hestoodupandlef
t
Luu:
Exact
lywhatIi
magi
ned
Lamber
t:Ial
waysknewhe'
sapsychopat
hbutnott
o
thi
sext
ent
CHAPTERSI
XY-
NINE

Iam backatmyapar tmentstil

lthinkingaboutt he
stuntBandi lepulledwowt hatmant hinksthi
swor l
d
revolvesar oundhi m sohereallydoesnotconsi der
myf eelingst heonlypersont hatmat ter
sishim not
othersaaar gIj ustwantsomet imeal oneawayf r
om
thisplacewher ecanIgot hough? thismanl i
terall
y
knowsever ycor nerofS.Aandasf ormegoi ng
abroadwi l
lcauseahavocandt hemoneyIhavet o
myper sonalaccountwon' tlastbutIam booki nga
fl
ighttoLesot hoyest hat
'sthepl acemymom used
totakeust hereatleastI '
vegotal i
tt
leli
ghtabout
theplaceIbookedt hef l
ightthat
'sdepar t
ingina
fewhour scallmesel f
ishorwhatbutIr eall
yhaveto
goIpackedmybagst ookashowerandr equested
foranuberIleftal
lmycar dsbuttookaper sonal
oneandmyI '
dcard,andpasspor tIalsoleftmy
phonet abl
etsandever ythinghecoul duset otrace
meandl ef
t

BANDI
LE

WellafterwhatIdi dthi
safter
nooniwenttoaclub
j
ustt oeaseabi tIknowIcanbesel fi
shbutnoI
can'ti
magi nemyl ifewi
thoutkhit
haIcall
edMir
anda
tocomet omyof fi
ceIjustwantedclar
it
yImeanI
alwaysusedacondom wi thhershecan'tbe
pregnantsheknockedandwesatonacouchshe
l
ookedcut ecar
ryingmyseedwoul dbeproudi
fthi
s
waskhi tha
Me:
Sot
ellmehowdi
dyougetpr
egnant
?
Her
:WhatBandi
lear
eyoui
nsane?
Me:Don'
tyoudar
edisr
espectmewenapleaseI
onceshotapr
egnantwomanIam notaf
raidt
odoi
t
agai
n
Her
:Bandi
lewehadsexmoss
Me:Ieasil
ylosepat
ienceandyouknowt
hatsoyou
bet
terstartt
alki
ng
Her:
OkItookthecondom weusedanduseda
syr
inget
otransferi
tinsi
deofme
Me:
Uthi
ni?
!..
iwentcl
osert
oher
Her:
Iwantedtoalwayshaveyourattent
ionBandi
le
youcoul
dn'tj
ustfuckmeandl ivewhenit'
sdueto
youBandi
leIcatchedfeel
ings
Me:
HowcanyoudothatMi
randa?
sobasi
cal
lyyou
i
mpregnat
edyour
sel
f?
Her
:NoI
Me;noshutupshutthefuckup!!youusedmyseeds
toyoursel
fmymar r
iageturnedapartbecauseof
you
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
Her
:ButyouusedmeBandi
le
Me:Soyoudecideonmessi ngupmyLi fe?Mi r
anda
youknewt hatwhatwehadwoul dn'tlastfrom t
he
fi
rstti
mewehadi t
,youknewthatIlovemywi f
e
mor ethananyt
hingevenmyki ds,
itwasj usta
momentofweaknessi twasl
ustMi randa
Her
:Butwhataboutme?
Me:
Doyouwantt
oknow?
Her
:Yes
Me:Si
nceyouknowhowtoimpregnat
eyour
sel
fthat
meansyouknowhowt opayl
obolaandmar
ryyour
sel
fuyi
mbozaangisho<youar
eaboss>
Her
:Nomypar
ent
ssai
dyouagr
eedt
omar
ryme
Me:Who? Me?mar r
yanotherwoman? nosweetsthey
gotitallwrongIwoul dneverdothatsowenago
andt el
lyourpar entswhatyoudidandIwillonl
y
takecar eofthebabynowVoet sekinmy
offi
ce..
.shesawhowf uri
ousIwassoher anoutside
If
oundmysel
fdr
ivi
ngt
oKhi
tha'
sapar
tmentImi
ss
herandIwantt otellherofwhatshedi diwantust o
tryagai nIwantt obegherIwantt ojustseeher
faceIdr oveinheryar dparkedmycarandwentt o
knockatt hedoorherdoorwaybutnor esponseI
knockedf orabout10mi nutesandIthoughtt hatI
haveaspar ekeyIwentt ot
akeitandopenedshe
wasnott her
emyspi ri
twasnotset t
ledIwent
upst airsIfoundhercar dsandphonet abletsand
everyt hingmyhear twaspumpi ngIalsof ounda
l
et t
err eads'Iam gonedontt r
ylooki
ngf orme
becauseyoudon' tf
indmeIam gonef oreverand
pleaset ellMirandatot akeagoodcar eofmyki dsI
l
ovet hem andIl oveyout oobutIcan'tst andthe
disrespectandhear tacheyoubeengi vingmeam
goneLoveandLI GHT'

wowIt ookitandthr
ewi tdownIpunchedt hewal
l
ti
llmyhandswer epaini
ngIscr eamedIcri
edIknow
am ajerkiknowIam selfishbutthi
shurt
swhatam
igoingtosaytomyki dsf uckf
uck!!
!sheevenl
eft
thecardswhatisshegoi ngtolivewi
thdi
dshe
commi tsui
cidenoherpasspor tandI'
darenotnot
herethatmeansshe'
sst
illaroundIam notgoi
ngto
restunti
lifi
ndhernoIr
ef useIpul
ledmyself
togethergat
her
edmystrenghtIneedtofacethi
s
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
.
Idrovetomymom' shousetoseemykidsIfound
Anatii
ntheki
tchensotheypaidl
obolaf
orherbut
herandLungastil
lli
vei
nseparat
eapart
mentsthey
areyoungandnotreadyforcommit
mentsoshe
comesheresomet i
mes
Me:
Heyani
..
isai
dsi
dehuggi
nghershesmi
led
Her:
Heybhut
iBandil
eyooyoudi
dwel
lbyar
ri
ving
yourki
dsar
ebull
yingme
Me:
uwuMakot
inj
e..
wel
aughed
Her
:Noyourki
dsar
eoverwor
kingme
Me: Letmehelpyout hen.
..
wedi dsandwi
chesand
j
uicesf ort
hem andj ui
cesandtookthem t
othe
diningroom whentheysawmet heyweresohappy
theyallrantomeevenacr awl
ingLubenat
hiI
pickedhim andkissedallmybabies
Xoxo:
uphiumamam?
<wher
e'smymom>
Me:useAmeri
ka<she'
sinAmeri
ca>theyknow
whenpeopl
egothereshegoesf
orl
ongthat'
show
wetaughtt
hem
Sphe:
Funamama<Iwant
>
Me:Uzobuyaangi
sho<shewi l
lcomebackr ight>
shewasnothavingitshecri
esAnatitookLubenathi
asIwascomf or
ti
ngSphet heothert
winjoinedand
xoxoyoooit
'sahavocmymom camedownst ai
rs
andhelpedmewi t
hthem
Her:
Whereisshekant
i?t
hesekidsar
elongingfor
t
heirmothert
heybeencryi
ngsinceyest
erdayno
Khi
thadoesn'
tthi
nkcanyoupleasebri
ngmyphone
Anati
Me:
Noshe'
snother
e
Her
:Whatdoyoumean?
Me:Shelef
tmemamashe' sawayi
naplaceIdon'
t
evenknowsheevenleftt
hecardsandphonejust
ever
ythi
ngthatcoul
d'vel
inkedmetoher
Her
:Anat
itaket
heki
dsupst
air
s..
shenoddedand
t
ookt
hem upst
air
s
Her
:Sokhi
thaj
ustwentAWOLnow
Me;Idon'
tbl
amehermom Idi
dn'
ttr
eatherwel
lsoI
deser
vedthi
s
Her
:Andt
heki
ds?
Me:Idon'
tknowmel
aphomaybeshewi
llcome
back
Her:
Ithinkyouhavel
ear
nedBandi
let
okeepyour
pant
st oyoursel
f
Me:
Ilear
nedt
hatl
ongt
imeagomom
Her:
Noshewi l
lcomear
ounddon'
twor
ryandwhat
aboutMi
randa?
Me:Leyonj
akazi<t
hatbi
tch>It
oldherwhatshesai
d
hermout hwashanging
Her:
Yoomfanawhatar
eyougivi
ngt
heseladi
es
seemsli
keever
yexyougotwant
syouback
Me:
Andnowt
hati
snotwpr
kin
CONTI
NUATI
ON3
《AMONTHLATER》

KHI
THA

IhavebeenI nLesot hoandgi r lIam havi ngt hebest

ti
meofmyl ifelolam l yi
ngit'
svi cever saIhaven' t
healedandIcan' ttakei tanymor eIwantt oseemy
babiesandmyshi ttyhusbandbutnohegot t
afind
meam notgoi nganywher eihavebeenst alkinghim
withaf akeaccountandmymani shur ti
ngheeven
l
ostwei ghtItsnotni ceandhehasn' tmar ried
MirandaIcal ledTi nat heyest erdayshet oldme
whatt hatbitchdi dandsheal sohavebi rtht oagirl
chil
dandBandi l
ei st heonet akingcar eoft heinfant
yooohe' sseei ngflamesbecauset heBi yela's
want edtheirbabyasf orMirandashewentt ostudy
i
ncapet ownsosoonIhavebeenwor kingoutAm
fl
amesHe' sgoi ngt obecr azywheneverheseesme
he'
st hebiggestst anwheni tcomest omybodyi
wanthi mt ocr avef ormel olandgi rli
sgl owi ng
shei
m

BANDI
LE

Iam tiredemot i
onall
y,
Physical
ly,
Spiri
tuall
yand
What evercall
yIgaveuponl ookingforKhithashe'
s
goingtocomebackwhenshewant stoIhireda
nannyf orbabyAhl umet hat
swhatmymom named
herIdon' tevenknowt hemeaningbutIl oveher
that'
swhatIknownowiam atwor kinMasakhane
buil
dingwai ti
ngforMenzi
Me:
Youar
elat
e
Hi
m:Iwascaughtupam
Me:
Timei
smoneysopl
easedon'
twast
eit
Him:canyoustopbr
ingi
ngyourmarr
iageissuesat
workmanshel ef
tyousoadmiti
tandmoveonbr o
andpleasegi
vemebackmysonyouar enotagood
rol
emodel
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
Idi
dn'
twai
tforhi
mto
r
epl
yIpunchedhi
sfaceandkickedhi
m Iwasnow
t
aki
ngal
lmyangertohim howdarecoul
dhe
Me:Don'tyoudar efuckwi t
hmeMenzi getthatyou
l
eftxoxohe' snotyoursbutmi nenowandformy
marriagepleasefocusonsat i
fyi
ngyourwifesoshe
couldstopfoll
owingmear oundandalsoyouare
Fir
edt akemet owher everuni
onyouhaveam down
fori
tIdon'twantt oeverseeyouagainyoupieceof
shit
Him:Iwon'
tlett
hathappenyoutakemycompany
andnowyouar efi
ri
ngme? r
eall
y?nothat
'snot
happeni
ng
CHAPTERSEVENTY

It'
sar ai
nychill
ySaturdayIam indoorswithallof
myki dsIcleanedthehouse,bathethem all
,f
edthem
nowt heyaresleepi
ngIam onl ywearingaboxer
thoughit'
shoti nhereImadef irepl
ustheheat er
s
i
t'sjustamazingIam wat chi
ngmovi esallbymyself
andbusyeat ingpopcorns
KHI
THA

Iam backi nJoburgwel lIreall

ygottiredbeingin
LesothoImi ssedmyf amil
yIar ri
vedher eOn
Wednesdaybeeni ndoorssi ncebuttodayIdeci ded
togoandcheckonmyhouseIt ookmycarkeys
anddr ovestrai
ghttomyhouseIpar kedt hecarand
Iwentt othedoorsoiwasst uckbetweenknocki ng
andjustletti
ngmysel finokl etmeknockIknocked
buttherewasnor eplymaybeIam sof tiopenedt he
doorandmyeyesmetwi thBandi l
ewhowasabout
toopent hedoorIguess
Hi
m:Nanami
..
hisf
acel
itupandhi
ssmi
led
Me:
HeycanIcomei
n?
Hi
m: Sur
e. .
hemovedasIgoti
nheclosedt
hedoorI
l
ookedar oundi
twassqueakycl
eannotcl
eancl
ean
t
houghitneededmyt ouchGodknowshowmuchI
missbeinghere
Hi
m:Howareyoudoi
ngnanami
?Heaskedchecki
ng
uponmehiseyeswer
eonmyasshecouldn'
tstop
l
ooki
ngati
t
Me:
Iam goodIguesswher
ear
emyki
ds?
Him:Iam notgoodincaseyouwantt
oknow.
.he
sai
dcomi ngtostandnexttome
Me:
ow
Hi
m: YesbabyImi ssyouandIam sor
ryf
oral
lthe
t
hingsIhavedonesopl easebabypl
ease
r
econsideryourdecisi
ons
Me:Bandi
leIam onl
yher
eto.
.isawxoxor
ubbi
nghi
s
eyes
Me:Bigboy..herantomeandwehuggedIsquated
tohislevelandIcouldf
eel
thatmywai
standmy
str
ingsareexposedam sureNdi
lei
sbusychecking
meoutIcanf eeli
t
Xoxo:
ubuyi
leAmer
ika?<ar
eyoubackf
rom
Ameri
ca>
Me:Yesbabyandt
henwhyar
eyouup?
youhar
dly
wakeupthist
ime
Xoxo:Iwant
edt
odrinkwat
erbutsi
nceyouar
eher
e
Iam notgoi
ngt
osleepandmamadaddyhasanew
ki
ddoyouwantt oseeher
?
Me:
isn'
tshesl
eepi
ng?
Xoxo:
Shei
sandIcanwakeherup
Ndil
e:Noxoxogoandsleeppl
easeIwantt
otal
kto
yourmother
..
heyawned
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Hewassl
eepybutf
ight
ingi
thel
ookedatme
xoxo:
Ungahambimama<don'
tgomama>
Me:Iwon'tbabyboynowdri
nkyourwat
erandgo
backtosleep.
.hedr
ankandwentbackt
ohis
bedroom
Ndi
le:
Canwegoandsi tdown?
Inoddedaswewent
t
ositonthecouches
Me:I
tshoti
nhere.
.isai
dtaki
ngoffmyl eat
herj
acket
andbootsIpl
acedmyl egonthecouchesarm and
theot
heronewasont opofit
Hi
m:Bengi
sacel
auhl
alekahl
eMaBi
yel
a<canyou
pl
easesi
twell
>
Me:
Whyi
sther
eapr
obl
em?
Iknewwhathemeant
t
hismani
saper
ver
t
Him:BabypleaseIdon'
twanttoendupalloveryou
andit'
snotli
keyouaregoingtoletmetapit
anyway..
thi
smanandt appingassIshookmyhead
Me:
Buti
t'
scomf
ort
abl
emoss
Hi
m:Iknow
Me:
Sowhati
shername?
Hi
m:Howdi
dyouknowi
t'
sher
?
Me:
Bandi
lecomeon
Him:
heecoolmymot
hernamedherAhlumedon't
askmethemeani
ngpl
ease.
..
wesl
ight
lylaughed
Me:
Youshoul
d'veaskedhert
hough
Him:Iwasn'tt
hinki
ngstr
aightmymindwasal lover
theplacebabywhenyouwer egoneIwasn'tcoping
atallMaBiyel
apleasengi
yakucel
acanwepl ease
giveusachancewecanevengot ocounsel
li
ng
baby
Me:
youar
etheonewhoneedsi
tnotme
HI
m:butiam notmar
ri
edt
omysel
fthough
Me:
Whateverwor
ksforyouBandi
lekal
okuwehave
t
obendourbacksforyou
Him:Comeonmeetmehal fwaybabyyouknewt hat
owasdownf oryoubef oreallt
hisiwasal
lforyou
MirandaandIf uckedlongt i
meagoandyou
for
gavemef ort hatbabywemovedonsopl ease
andIwon'tf
or ceyoul oveAhlumebabyI
underst
and
Me: Bandi l
eit'
shar dbeingamar riedwomanwi th
kidssomet i
mesbecauseyouhavet oforgetabout
your selfandt hi
nkaboutt hekidsandt heir
happi nessitwoul dhurtf ormyki dstoadj usttothe
whol eideaofco- par
entingt hingietheyar eusedin
havingt heirpar entsunderoner oofBandi l
eIam
onlygi vingyout hischancet ofixusbecauseIsee
remor se,becauseyouar eagoodf athertoourkids
andbef oreallthisihaveseenchangei nyouso
please
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Don'
tbr
eakmyhear
teveragai
norIam goi
ngt
o
paralyzeyouandI'
llt
reatyouknowingexact l
ythat
youcannotdomeshi tsopleasedon'tturnmei nt
o
somebodyt hatIam notandasforAhl umeIam a
parentIhaveloveandshei saninnocentsouli
don'thavearightt
opunishherforhermot herssins
Iwillrai
seherasmyown. ..
hestoodupwher ehe
wasandcamet ohugmehi sembracef el
tli
kehome
Irestedabit
Hi
m:Thankyounanamit
hankyousomuch
Me:andthatdoesn'
tmeanIam overthi
sit
'sst
il
l
hur
tingIam goingt
ousetheguestroom
Him:Icanmoveoutf
rom ourbedr
oom f
oryoubaby
Idon'tmi
nd
Me:OkIwil
lbemovi
ngi
ntommor
ow.
.wehear
dli
tt
le
cr
iesupst
air
s
Him:That'
sher..hesai
djoggingupstair
sandi
fol
lowedhim hehadhi sli
tt
lepri
ncessi nhisarmsi
wenttostandnextt ot
hem andshe'ssocut eand
beauti
fulshelooksmor el
ikeSphedaddi esgirls
Bandil
ehasst ronggenesallofhi
ski dslookexactl
y
l
ikehim
Me:She'
ssobeaut if
ul.
.it
ri
edhol di
ngherbutshe
cri
edhercr i
eswokeLubenat hiIwenttohim he
l
ookedatmef orasecondandaf t
erhehadf igured
thatIam hismot herhesmi l
edandthrewhishands
tomeIt ookhim hewasal lsmil
esandhappyibaby
tal
kedwi thmybabywewentdownst ai
rstodo
bottl
esandt hewhol esquadwast heretheyallran
tome
Them: Mama/ mom/ manowIhavet oputlubedown
andf ocusont heotherst ooandIwasputi na
custodyquest i
onsaf t
erquest ionsmyki dswer eso
happyit ookAhlumei npl acedheront opofmeas
Dadydear estwasbusymaki ngdi nnerandIwas
busywi t
hmyki dsnowt hisfeelsgoodIf eel
compl eteIam goi ngtobui ldthishomei ntoawar m
andal ovingoneitmustbeagr eatenvir
onmentf or
myki dst oliveandfeel safeoni tasformyhusband
hestillneedt ouphi sbeggi nggameIwantanew
blackG- wagonandashoppi ngi nHolywoodanda
weekendawayi nLasVegasIwantt omi l
khim dryI
al
waysl ookoutf orthef amilybudgetnowi t'
shigh
ti
meIwast eitmysel f
CHAPTERSEVENTY-
ONE

OKUHLE

It'
sbeenmont hssinceihavebeenwi t
hmyf ami l
yI
mi ssthem somuchIknowIam t heblacksheepof
thef amilybutIst il
lneedamot herslovetooandI
havebeeni nvitedintoaf amilyDinnerandwhat
pissesmeof fi
st hattheMi ghtyKhithaisgoingto
bet herewi thhersquadofki dsnxxxshebor esme
reall
ybutIam pl anningt opullsomer ealshi
tonher
somet hingt hatisgoingt ocrushherdownandyesI
am goi ngt odoi twellIboughtaf oodpoi son
'
somebodyi sgoi ngtodietonight'Isaidtaki
ngmy
carkeysanddr ovetomymom' shousewhenIgot
thereever ybodywasal readyinthehousei ncludi
ng
thelitt
lemakot i
Me:
Greet
ingsf
ami
ly.
.iwentt
ohugt
hem al
lIwasal
l
smi
les
Mom:
Who'
sinagoodmoodt
oday?
Me:mom Idecidedtostopbei
ngevilbecauseit
doesnotpayyouknowsot oever
yonet hatIhave
wrongedIam sorryespeci
alt
osisKhitha..
.iwentt
o
hugher
Her:
Noit
'swat
erundert
hebr
idgehuns.
.shesmi
led
aaar
gIcan'
tst
andhersit
e
Bandi
le:
wowyoukeeponamazi
ngmeespecial
ly
thi
sweekIam pr
oudsi
s..
wehuggedeachot
her
Me:
Isai
dIhavechanged,
wher
e'sxoxo?
Khi
tha:
Out
sidewi
thLunga
Me:ohImisshi
m yooyourki
dissuchamood.
.she
chuckl
edandwesettl
ed
Mom:
Hlel
ecomeandhel
pmei
ntheki
tchennana
Me:asIwasgoi ngt
oaskifyoudon'
tneedhelp
wor r
ynotIam onmyway..wewenttothekit
chent
o
preparet
hefoodwellshegotal
it
tl
edistur
bedand
thatgavemeachancet omakemymoveandwent
toserveever
yoneandwatchedmytargeteat
ing
bingooo
Mom:
owbabyyouar
edone
Me:
YesIwi
llmakeagoodmakot
ioneday
Mom:You?Makoti?wowIcan'twaitfort
hatday..
we
l
aughedasweat eourdinnermhht hisi
sgoingto
behardyazibutIhadtodoitIpraytomygodst hat
mom'skit
chendoesn'thavecamer asot
herwiseit
wil
lbeoverforme
Me:
Siskhi
thahow'
smot
her
ingAhl
ume?
Her:
she'
sasweet
hear
tshehar
dlygi
vesme
pr
oblems
Me:
Iknewt
hatshe'
sanangel
Mom:
youl
ikeherdon'
tyou?
Me:
Ilovet
hem al
lmamahawu.
Whenwewer edoneeatingIcol
lect
edthedi
shes
andt
ookt hem t
othekitchentowashthem whenI
wassti
llonitmybrothercamein
Hi
m:Il
iket
henewyousi
s
Me:It
oldyouthatihavechangedbhutiIam t
ir
edof
al
wayscausingahavoci npeopl
e'
slivesyouknow
Hi
m:OkandIam t
hankf
ulf
ort
hatokseei
ngyouand
mywi
fealwaysoneachot
herst
hroatwaski
ll
ing
meIl
oveyoubutIl
oveherwaytoomuch
Me:
Wowwhatawow
Him:That'
showbi t
tert
hetr
uthisbet
terl
ivewit
hit
evenmom gaveuponbei ngont hef
ir
stspot.
.we
keptontalki
ngandhewashel pi
ngmewi tht
he
disheskhi
thawalkedin
Her
:Naniwehavet
ogoi
t'
sget
ti
ngl
ate
Me:
Areyounotguyssl
eepi
ngover
?
Her:
Nowedidn'
tpl
anonsl
eepi
ngoverunl
essmy
husbandsai
dit
Hi
m:Nonanamilet
'sgo.
.wehuggedastheyal
lwent
t
othei
rMercedesBenzf
amilycart
hesetwoare
moni
ed

KHI
THA

Wewer
eonourwayhomenaniwasdri
vingandI
waswi
tht
heki
dsatt
hebackxoxohasbeen
sl
eepi
ngandi
t'
snotl
ikehi
m It
ookhi
mtomyar
ms
Ndil
e:Youwor
ryt
oomuchbabyhe'
sfi
nemaybehe
hasfl
u
Me:Nosomet
hingi
swr
ongwi
thhi
mlet
'sgot
othe
hospi
tal
Hi
m:Youcan'
tbeseri
ousMaBiyel
a..
ifel
tmyson'
s
t
emperat
urehe'
swarm andsomethi
ngdirect
edme
t
ohisi
mpulseandfuck
Me:
Bandi
let
urnt
hecarnowhi
simpul
sei
sweak
Hi
m:Howdoyoumean?
Me:Don'
taskmeshi
tBandi
let
urnt
hedamncar
!!
I
shout
ed
Him:Don'tshoutatmeMaBi yelaam notaki d.
.he
sai
dchangi ngthedirect
ionatleasthelist
enedt o
mehespedupt hecarandwear ri
vedatthe
hospit
almysonwasadmi t
tediwasst andingthere
dumbstardedidi dn'
tknowwkt atodowi t
hmysel f
Bandil
ewasbusycar essingmybackasIhadLube
i
nmyar msandhehasHl umet hetwinswer e
sl
eepingatt hebanchesanur secame
Me:
What
'swr
ongwi
thHi
m?
Her:
Eveni
ngBiyel
a'
summ yoursonconsumed
somethi
ngwit
hpoisonandyoudidwell
bybri
ngi
ng
himinti
methedoctor
sarest
il
lbusywit
hhim
Me:Whatdoyoumean?
Isai
dast
ear
sst
art
ed
gushi
ngdownmycheeks
Her
:unf
ort
unat
elyyes
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Isatdownandcr
ied
Me:
hei
snotgoi
ngt
odi
eri
ght
?
Him:Nobodyi
sdyi
ngher
eNanamist
opbei
ng
negati
ve
Her:Nohei snotgoi
ngtodieal
lyouguyscandois
todrivehomeandcomebackt ommorowplusthe
otherkidsneedaproperpl
acetosl
eepatlookat
them
Hi
m:ThankyouNur
se.
.shewal
kedaway
Me:
DoIhavet
oli
vel
iket
hisBandi
le?
DoIhavet
o
spendmywhol
eli
fei
ntear
s?
Him:Nobabypleasedon' tcryl
et'
sgotomymom' s
houseit
'snotf
arfrom her e.
.wewalkedoutt
othe
carandhedrovetohi smot her
shousewhenwegot
i
nt heywerest
il
lcleaningup
Her
:Whati
swr
ongnow?
sheaskedt
aki
ngl
ubef
rom
myarms
Him:Xoxohasbeenadmi
tt
edappar
ent
lyhe
consumedpoison
Her:What?!LungayouseenowIt ol
dyout ostop
taki
ngthischildout
sidenearthepoolmaybeheat e
thegrasscleanerst
hinki
ngi t
'ssweetsIbought
them becauseithadsmallinsect
sthatit
chont he
skinandiwar nedLunga
Okuhle:Thisonehasabigheadfornot
hinghe
doesn'tli
sten.
.shesai
dpi
nchinghi
m
Lunga:
Butmom Idi
dn'
tknowam sor
ryguysIdi
dn'
t
know
Me:
It
sokLunga
Lunga:
Iam ser
ious
Me:Nothedoctor
sar ebusydrai
ninghim solet'
s
hopehewillmakeiteventhoughthatnur
sewas
busyt
ell
inglyi
ngonusIwi llt
akeherwordt hough
Ndi
le:
Babyst
opbei
ngnegat
ivepl
easehei
sgoi
ng
t
omakei t
Me:Youdon' tgeti
thuhNobodydoesgeti tBaxoli
se
i
smyl if
emywhol eIhavebeent hroughhelland
backwithhim hecannotdi enownohecannotmy
hearti
sbleedingBandi l
eIhavebeenhear tbr oken
andcrushedbef orebutthisonetakesthecupmy
hearti
sbleedingsobadandpai nfull
yIcan'thandle
i
tnobodydeser vestoseehi skidinthatsi
tuat i
on
no..
isai
dbr eakingdownAnat icamet ocomf ortme
asBandilewasbusywi pingmyt ears
Okuhl
e:Iam sor
rysi
sKhi
thahe'
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine.
.
MomL:
Hlehl
egoandmakeherast
rongcof
fee
Kuhl
e:Okmom
Me:
Noi
t'
sfi
neiwi
llgoandsl
eep
Ndi
le:mom canyoupl
easel
ookaft
ert
hebabi
esI
am goingt
oputmywifetosl
eep
MomL:
Okson
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Bandi l
eaccompani edmet osleepItookashower
fi
rstandwentt obedBandi lewasbusycuddlingme
butmymi ndwasbusyt hi
nkingofhowXoxogotthe
poisonIdontbuyt hestoryaboutgrasswhatwhat's
IknowOkuhl ehatesmysonandshehasshownme
somanyt imessheoncebur nthim wit
hboil
ing
waterandsai ditwasami stakesoyesshe's
capabl eofpoi
soningheraf t
erawhileIhear
dNdile
snoringwowwhowascuddl i
ngwhot osl
eep
kanti
? soIsneakedoutt othekit
chentodri
nkwater
becauseicoul dn'
tsleepifoundLungastari
nginthe
sky
Me:
Whyar
eyounotsl
eepi
ng?
Hi
m:Ican'
tsi
sKhi
that
hist
hingi
ski
ll
ingme
Me:Lungagot osl
eepAnatineedsthetouchofhi
s
manpl usshe'
spregnantshemustbeneeding
somelatenightat
tent
ion.
.welaughed
Him:
Okkeletmegobutt
ommorowwhenyouar
e
goi
ngtot
hehospi
talt
agmeal
ong
Me:Iwi
lluncl
eLuuanddon'
tbi
tyoursel
fupokhe
wi
llbefine
Him:Ishoul dbetheonesayi ngthatt hough..we
l
aughedandhuggedhewentupst air
sasIgoti nthe
ki
tchenandwentt odr inkwat erbutIbumpedona
di
rtybinandever ythi
ngi nther ewasont hef l
ooras
Iwasbusycol l
ecti
ngt hem Isawasmal lbot t
leand
i
twaswr itt
eninSpani shluckilyIhadmyphoneand
googledt henameandyesi twasaf oodpoi sonthat
ki
ll
ssl owlyandpeacef ul
lyi
nhumanssosomebody
poureditinxoxo'splateandi t
'snoneot herthatthe
l
it
tlewi t
chIwasf umi ngIcleanedt hekitchenand
whenIwasgoi ngtosl eepibumpedi ntoher
Her
:owsor
rysisKhi
tha.
.sl
owdownsi
ssl
owdownI
t
ookadeepbreat
her
Me:Noproblem Hleleyouarest
il
lsl
eepyIgetit.
.i
wentupstai
rst hi
nkinghar
donthisshebetterpr
ay
tohergodst hatmysonmakesi tot
herwiseshe'
s
goi
ngtof ol
lowhi m onewayortheotherandIam
notgoingtotel
lBandil
eaboutthishewil
lsayIam
j
ustmaki ngupstor
iesbecauseIhatehersist
erI
understandhehasloveforherandBandil
eisall
aboutpeaceihavetoactont hi
sbecauseshe'sst
il
l
goi
ngt obeonourlives
CHAPTERSEVENTY-
TWO

Wewer ealr
eadyinourhousexoxohasbeen
di
schargedandNdi l
eisbusywi
thhim athi
sroom
soIdecidedtogoanddistur
bbutbeforei
appr
oachedt hedoorwayihear
dthem tal
king
Ndi
le:
Boydi
dwhatdi
dyoueatatyourgr
andma'
s
pl
ace?
Xoxo:
Food.
.heanswer
edwi
thhi
slowestvoi
cemy
poorson
Ndi
le:
onl
y?
Xoxo:
Andj
uicedaddy
Ndi
le:
Whil
eyouwerepl
ayi
ngsoccerwi
thLungaand
Si
yadidyoupi
ckonsomethi
ngandatei
t?
Xoxo:
Nodaddywewer
epl
ayi
ngcar
dsatt
he
bal
conynotout
side
Ndi
le:
sobasi
cal
lyyouguysneverwentout
side?
Xoxo:
Yesdaddy
Ndile:
Okson..
.hehuggedhi m wowsoheal sofi
ndit
hardtobeli
evetheout sidestoryIqui
ckl
ywentt o
ourbedroom andsleptonmyst omachwhi st
le
scrowil
ngdownhi sInstagram andrepl
yingtoallof
hisDMs
Hi
m:I
founiyendodaayi
banj
wa<youdon'
ttoucha
man'
sphone>
Me:
Why?
Hi
m:pr
ivacy
Me:
Yetyoust i
llmuf
fmypr i
vat
epartsandevensul
k
i
fIdon'
tletyouseethem hownice
Him:
YoooMaBiyel
anaweIwasjoki
nghowi
nfact
canIpl
easehavewhat
smine?
Me:
Anydayanyt
imeNt
shangase
Him:AndtheywonderwhyIl oveyouhawuisbunu
esi
ngaka<suchabigfatass>hesaidspanki
ngit
aft
erthathestar
tedundressi
ngmeandkissi
ngmy
backaftert
hathegotinbetweenmythi
ghsand
l
ift
edmyonel egashewasent eri
ngmefr
om
behindandwemadel ovelikethat

OKUHLE

'
Damni tdamni tt
hatsonofabit
chisst
il
lali
ve'I
sai
dtomysel fandImadeabossbabemovet her
e
nobodynoti
cedanythingsoIgott
obethelovely
auntIwasplayingweeksagoandcheckhim how
muchishedamaged
Mom:
Whatar
eyout
hinki
ngaboutHl
ehl
e?
Me:
Wor
kmom
Phel
o:Whenar
eyougoi
ngbackt
oyourapar
tment
?
Me:
why?
Phel
o:ever
yonewentt
othei
rpl
acesbesi
desyou
canyoupleasegoyoo
Mom:
Phel
o!!
Shej
ustwal
kedupst
air
s
Me:
thebel
oveddaught
erofal
l
Mom: pl
easeam sur
eit
'spuber
tyyouknowshe'
s
notl
ikethat
Me:
Nomat
terhowIt
ryshewi
llf
oreverhat
eme
Mom: Don'
twor
rynanashewi
llcomear
oundandoh
Ixoxoisfi
ne
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

BANDI
LE
.
Ihavebeent hi
nkingaboutthiswholemessOkuhle
didonethingforsureisthatKhi
thaknowsaboutit
allandshe'sgoi
ngt oactonitsoonbeforeweall
knowsoImustdeci deondoneKuhl ehastoskip
thecountryorelseshewi l
lmeetherancest
orssoI
waswai t
ingforherinoneofmyCl ubsinMel r
ose
Arc
Her
:Youseem deepi
nyourt
hought
swhat
's
bot
heri
ngyou?
Me:
What
'swr
ongwi
thyou?
Her:
Aquesti
onwit
haquest
ionwhat
'sgood?
she
askedsi
tt
ingdown
Me:
Khi
thaandIknowswhatyoudi
d
Her
:Huh?whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me: Don'tactallf
ooli
shOkuhleyouknowyou
poisonedoursonandwhatIknowi sthatKhithai
s
planningacl apback,shedoesn'
tknowt hatIknow
aboutt hissomyadvi seskipthecountr
ysisIlove
youasmyl i
ttl
esisbutIwon'thesi
tat
eput t
ingagun
i
nyourheadwhenyouputmei napositi
ont odo
that
Her
:Wowsoyouar
ereal
lygoi
ngt
obel
ieveherover
meBhut
i?
Me:HenceIsai
dshedoesn'
tknowthatIknowabout
thi
sandyouhavebeendisr
espect
ingherbutnow
youhitt
heli
mit
Her:
Butyoualsoknowt
hatt
hisi
saser
ious
accusat
ionr
ight?
Me:
Ihat
erepeat
ingmysel
fyazi
Okuhl
eIwoul
d
r
eal
lyappr
eci
atei
tifyouwoul
djustbest
rai
ghtwi
th
meor.
.
Her :OrwhatBandi l
ehuh? Youwillkil
lmef ort hat
crapofawi f
ehuh? t
hatreti
redhowf rom thedust y
street?youalwayschooseheroverussopl ease
don' tmakethisaboutmeyouar et r
yingtocoverup
fort heshi
tyoudi dtoherbyact ingasacar ingass
husbandsopl easebr ot
herletherdowhat evershe
l
ikes. .
shegrabsherhandbagandl eftIwasso
furiousofhowshespoket omeIr anaf t
erheras
shewasusi ngt hestair
sIpushedheront hem so
har dthatsherolledfrom f
loor11to2It ookt he
elevatorandwhenIgott hereeverybodywas
wat chingandwonder i
ngwhatoccur red
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngon?
shehadbl
oodal
loverhershe
Me:Callt
heambul
anceandstopStari
ngatme.
.i
shoutedmyhear
twasbeati
ngfast
erherfacewas
greensoshewasbleedi
ngf
rom i
nside
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Luucal
ledt
heambul
anceandshewasadmi
tt
edt
o
netcar ehonestlyidon'
twanthertodiewhowould
wi shthatforhisli
tt
lesi
stershemightbeevi
lbut
thatdoesn'tmeanIhat eherwithapassionIst
il
l
wanthert olivemaybeshecoul dchangeint
oa
bet t
erpersonwhenIwasst i
lli
nthebanches
frustai
tedmymom came
Her
:Bandi
lewhathappenedt
omydaught
er?
Me:Idon'tknowmom shecamet oseemethenwe
hadanar gumentwhich..
imeanshestor
medoutof
myof f
iceandrantothestai
rsam sur
eshemissed
onortwot hensheroll
ed
Her:
What?!that
'scr
azyOkuhl
ecanbestupid
someti
meshowcoul dshedothatkodwa?she
askedscoff
ing
Me:
Iguessshewasmadmama. .
shesatdownnext
t
omet henadoct
orshowedup
Dr
:Okuhl
eBi
yel
a..
wequi
ckl
yst
oodup
Us:
Howi
sshe?
Dr:
She'
sstil
linI
CUshel
ostalotofbl
oodandyou
knowint
ernalbl
eedi
ngi
sn'
tgoodwehadtodrai
n
thebl
oodf
irstsoshe'
ssti
lli
nacri
ti
calcondi
ti
on
youcanal
wayscomet ocheckuponher
Mom:
Canweat
leastseeher
?
Dr:
Sure.
.wefol
lowedhi
m ashewasleadi
ngt heway
wegotinherwardshewaslayi
ngi
nbedl ooking
l
if
eless
Me: heysisam sor
ryforwhathappenedtoyou
pleaserecoversoonsowecanf ixwhathasuson
eachot herpl
ease
Mom: Canwepleasepray.
.shedi
dn'twaitf
ormeto
answerhershelockedherhandsintomineand
thenweprayedshewascr yingi
nbetweenthi
shur
ts
aftert
hatwewentout

KHI
THA

Iwasont hephonewi ththegirl

splanningourt
ripto
BarcelonaitwasKoketso'sideaIneverhadint
erest
i
ni tbutIguessit
'sbecauseInevergavemysel f
ti
met olookouttoitBandilecameinlookingmessy
andstr
essedIdi
sconnect
edt
hecal
landIwentt
o
att
endmyhubby
Me:Youdon'tl
ookf
inewhat
'sbot
heri
ngmyman? I
sai
dwr appi
ngmyhandsonhiswaistandgavehi
m
aperk
Him:I
tsamessbabythatit
houghtwasgoi
ngtofi
x
i
t'
sselfni
ceandsmoothandIdidn'
twantt
otel
lyou
orrat
herhaveyouf
indoutt
hisway
Me:
What
'sgoi
ngonBandi
le?
hewentt
osi
tdown
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Hi
m:Canyoupl
easesi
tdownMaBi
yel
a?
Me;Whatisi
tBandi
leIwantt
ohearitwhi
lst
standi
ngher
esothatIcanqui
ckl
yjogupstai
rsand
takemygun..
hechuckl
ed
Him:
Iknowyouarecapabl
eofdoi
ngthatbutpl
ease
canyousitdownSt
handwasam..
isi
ghedandwent
tosi
tnexttohi
m
Him:Okf
ir
stofal
lIam sor
ryandsecondl
ypl
ease
haveanopenmindaboutthi
s
Me:
Ok
Him:
WellMaBiyel
aIknowkuhl
eist
heonewho
poi
sonedourson
Me:
Ohwow
Him:
Nolist
enokIwasn'tpar
tofherpl
anam sur
e
youknowthatIl
ovexoxowholehear
tedl
y
Me:
Khawut
het
heBandi
le<canyouspeakup>
Him:SoIcal
ledOkuhletomyoffi
ceandconfront
ed
heraboutt
heissuesoshedenieditandIkepton
tel
li
nghertoconfesssoIcanhel
pherskipthe
countr
ybutsherefused
Me:Soyouwant
edhert
orunawayf
rom he
pr
oblems?
Hi
m:NoKhi
tha
Me:
Yesyoudi
d!!
Him:Canyoust opover
eacti
ngNomkhi t
haandl i
sten
tome!!OkuhleismysisterokItwon'tbethateasy
tokil
lherpleaseunder
standthatIknowshe
disr
espectedmeandyousheevendi dbeyondi tall
butthatdoesn'tmeanshedeservedityoudon'tjust
geti
t
Me:
Iwoul
dn'
tgeti
tkal
okuIdon'
thavesi
bli
ngs
Hi
m:Canyoust
opt
hatpl
ease
Me:
Cont
inue
Him:Sosheinsult
edmeandIl ett
hatslidebutwhen
sheincl
udedyouIgotf r
ustratedshetookthestai
rs
onherwaydownandIdon' tknowwhatgott ome
butIpushedherthensherolledfrom f
loor11to
fl
oor2soshebl edint
ernal
lynowshei si nI
CU
Me:
What
?!Idi
dn'
t
Hi
m:That
'showi
tis
Me:
Bandi
let
hisi
sbadsowher
e'ssheadmi
tt
ednow?
Hi
m:Nomkhi
tha
Me:What?Iam notgoi
ngtovisi
therIam j
ust
cur
iousbabythisisbadiwonderhowwillyour
mothert
akethis
Hi
m:Sheknowsshewascr
yingshecoul
dn'
teven
t
alkt
oher
Me:
Yeahl
et'
shopeshewi
llbef
ineandshehad
l
ear
ntherl
essont
oo
Him;
Iam happyt
hatyoudi
dn'toverr
eActphel
aI
knowyouokletmegoandtakeashower
Me:okIwil
lmakeyousomet
hingtoeatsol
ong.
.he
noddedanddi
sappear
edupst
air
s
CHAPTERSEVENTY-
THREE

SoIwentt ocookdi nnerformyf amil

yandili
teral
ly
dontf eelsorryforthatwit
chmi ghtaswell
payhera
visitandBandi l
et hi
nkIwon'tfi
ndoutwher eshe
hasbeenadmi t
tedt oandkehe'stheonewho's
goingt otellmeIwi llj
ustwaitf
orhim orj
usttake
hisphoneandcheckbecauseonet hi
ngforsure
theyhavesenthi m amessageconf ir
minghis
numberandIknowmyhusbanddoesn' tal
wayspay
attentiontoSMSsessoIf ini
shedcookingasallmy
childrencamer unni ngint
hekitchen
Me:Nit
shovwayint
onkant
i?<what
'spushi
ng
yal
l>t
heyalll
ookedtome
Them:
Sil
ambi
le<wear
ehungr
y>
Me:There'
snowayt hatyouguyscansaynoweare
ful
lyourstomachsarealwaysemptyhayi
sukayou
arefi
nishi
ngmygr ocer
y
Ndil
e:Hai
bonanamiwhat
'swi
thyouanddi
ssi
ngmy
ki
ds?
Me:Hayit
heyal
wayswanttoeatt hesekidsi
f
your
s,,
Oksogetsett
ledam abouttoserveyou.
.i
sai
drefer
ri
ngtothem t
heyallr
ant othei
rmats
Me:Di
dyouwashyourhands?
theyl
ookedoneach
ot
her
Xoxo:
kodwasi
gezi
lenj
e<butwej
ustt
ookabat
h>
Me:
Okr
unupst
air
sandwasht
hosehands
Them:
Yooo/
Haaa
Me:Thatmeansyoudon'twantt
oeat.
.t
heyall
scr
eamedandr anupst
airsmyhusbandlaughed
Ndi
le:
Iwonderwhatdi
dtheydo?
Me:Nothi
ngbabestheyhavet
oknowthatt
heir
handsmustbecleanbeforet
heyeat
..
.t
heycame
backrunni
ng
Ndi
le:
Slowdownyouwi
llf
all
Siya:
Lambilemina<Iam hungr y>theyal lsatdown
andsaidGr aceandatetheirf
oodwhi lstNdi l
eandI
fedtheli
tt
leonesafterthatweat eandNdi l
etook
theothersquadtobedandmadest oriesandIput
theli
tt
leonesinbedt ooIwentt otakeashowerand
whenIcamebackNdi l
ewassit t
ingont opofbed
Him:Idon'
tthi
nkyouwi
llneedyourni
ghtdr
ess
nanami
Me:
Why?
Hi
m:Iwantt
ohavemycake,
canIpl
easehavei
t?
Me:
NoPr
obl
em l
etmel
oti
onf
ir
st
Hi
m: Letmehel
pyou.
.het
ookthelot
ionandstart
ed
wit
hmyasshesqueezeditIt
urnedtohim and
ki
ssedhim
Me:
Pat
ienceNt
shangase
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Hi
m:YouknowIam t
hebi
ggestst
anmossnanami
Me:Yeahyeah..
itur
nedtohi m andIundressedhim
ashewaswear ingajoggerpantwheni twasf ul
loff
Imassagedhisball
sandki ssedhim hi
sbr eat
hing
pat
ternschanged
Me:Sot hehospi
talhasn'tsentanymessageabout
herrecovery?
Iam justtr
yingtosearchhi
mt hey
don'
tsendmessagest hatIknow
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowbaby
Me:Okke.
..
ist
oodupandpushedhim ont
opofour
bedandcl
imbedontopofhi
m Iputmywholeass
i
nhismanhoodandstart
edgri
ndingandt
easi
ng
hi
m
Him:Doyouwantt ohospi t
ali
zemenanami ?Idon'
t
wanttogoandl aynexttoOkuhl eatNetcareso
pl
easej ust
..
.ohfuckNomkh. ..
.shi
t,
,Isl
idt
hewhol e
ofhim andstart
edwor ki
nghi m yesIgotthename
nowIam goi ngtolethimthinkIdon'tknowitbut
nextweekihavet ovisi
tthathoe
Irodehim madlyunt
ilwecameandweswitched
positi
onsandhewast heoneinchar
geIwas
screamingontopofmyl ungsmymoanswoke
Ahl
umeshecr i
edasBandi
legroanedontopofme
hedi
dn'tst
opbutkeptont
hrusti
ngunti
lhecame
andIcameforthe3r
dtimenowIwasdr ained
Me:Ndodaumnt
anauyal
il
a<mant
hebabyi
s
cr
ying>
Hi
m:Uvusweubani
?<whowokeherup>
Me:Butwebothknowi t
'syourfaul
tsopleasebethe
fat
heroftheyearandattendher.
..
shedidn'
tst
op
unti
lwebothdecidedtowakeupandat tendher
whenwegott ohercoatshewasf east
ingonher
fi
ngersandandsleepi
ng
Me:
yaqhel
alewei
Him:
She'
splayi
ngusbabyshedoesn'
tknowt
hat
she'
snott
helastbor
n
Me:
Howdoyoumean?
Hi
m:Isai
dIwant8ki
dsam sur
eyouhaven'
t
f
orgot
ten
Me:
Lol
Hi
m: Kusokusi
zaukudunusamamekhayangi
cela
i
zinqe<givi
ngmesomeasswi l
lhel
pcanIplease
havesomeass>
Me:Andwaket hebabiesupagainnobesi
desmy
coochieisburning..
hejustpoi
ntedt
hechai
rand
walkedtoitandst oodinadoggystyl
emenare
bull
iesyooosowehadi tTher
e

Iwi
llcont
inuel
ater
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Ithasbeendaysaf terOkuhlehasbeenadmi tted

andt odayit'
sThursdayBandi lehasbackt oback
meet i
ngssot hatmeansIwi l
lgett hechancet ogo
andseeherpl ushermot herisalsobusyIpacked
myt hingsandt ol
dmyP. AthatIam goi ngtoa
meet i
ngidr ovetothehospitalandaskedt osee
Okuhl eBiyel
aIintroducedmysel fashercolleague
theyagr eedbecauseIhadt oseducet hemale
doctorweexchangednumber sandagr eedto
contacteachot hersoheshowedmeherwar d
Dr
:Makesur
enobodyseesyoubecausei
thasbeen
sai
dthatwemustnotal
lowvi
sit
orsi
nherwar
d
Me:Notaproblem Mist
erIwil
lbegonebef
oret
hey
noti
ce..
isai
dfixi
nghiscoatheli
ckedhi
sli
psand
winkthenheleftIwentt
oherbad
Me:HeyKuhl eIknowyoucanhearmewel lIcame
togiveyout hepi eceofmymi ndwel lsi
siIknow
whyyouhat emebutwhatidon' tunder standi sthat
whyar eyoupuni shingmysonmaybei tistoget
backt omeandal lt
hest unt
syoupul ledplayedt he
tri
ckt heyallcr ashedmei nt
opi ecesbutIam di e
hardam sur eyouhaveseent hatOkuhl eIdi dn't
expectyout ol ovemeImeant heWhol eBiyela
familyhatesmemaybenotal lofi tbutmostof
them doandIgi vezer ofucksBandi leandIl ove
eachot heral lyouguysneedt odoi sacceptt hat
andl i
vewi thi tandwhatyouguysseem t of orgeti
s
thatHei stheonewhowentoutt heret olookf orhis
familywi t
hmyhel pof cozbutbeat smewhyyouar e
tryi
ngt oturnhi m againstme.Okuhl eIam apar entI
knowhowyourmot herfeel
saboutyoul ayingher e
i
tpai nshersobadt hatiswhyIwoul dli
ket osave
herfrom allthepai nandf orgi
veyouIacceptyour
apol
ogyt oosendmyr egardstoGodoranyoneel se
youmeetort r
yt ocooldownt hef i
reinhellsowe
canmeett her
eIsaiddi sconnecti
ngthemachi nes
andIinject
edthedripswi thafastkil
lerthati
sgoi
ng
tomakeherhear tstopsbeat i
ngIwatchedherspiri
t
depart
ingfrom herbodyshewasbat tli
ngitbut
fi
nall
yshegavei tupIpl uggedthem back
CHAPTERSI
XTY-
FOUR

Icall
edZai ntot
ur nthecamerasbackagainasIlef
t
herwar dtochit
-chatwithoneoftheNursesitwas
Lebomyf ri
endfrom Varsi
tyaft
erthatDoct
orswere
runningtoherwar dIstoodther
eandwat chedfora
whileaftert
hatshewasi nabodybagyheeyh
missionaccompl i
shedIdrovetowher eBandil
ewas
workingattoday
Me:
Ishei
n?Iaskedhi
sP.
A
Her
:Yesmadam hej
ustgoti
n
Me:Okthankyou..
itookanelevat
ortohisoff
icehe
waslooki
ngi nt
hewi ndowscheckingoutt
heviewI
wenttohim andpull
edmydr essupasIstraddled
hi
m andki
ssedhi
m hepul
ledoutoft
heki
ss
Hi
m:Andnow?
Me:Imissyouhusband.
.isai
dkissi
nghim again
andwemadel oveontopofhisoffi
cedeskafter
thatwesatonhercouchtocatchourbr
eathes
Hi
m:Youar
eat
igeryeses
Me: l
earnedfr
om thebest.
.helaughedandwe
kissedandthenIwentdownonmykneesandgave
him headhewaspent ing,
groaningsoloudthanks
tothesoundpr oofsandwedi danotherround
beforehisphonerang
Me:
Babyi
tmi
ghtbei
mpor
tantgoandansweri
t
Hi
m:Ngicel
aungi
let
hel
eyonake<cam youpl
ease
br
ingi
ttomethen>Iwentt
otakei
tandgaveitt
o
hi
m heanswer
ed
Hi
m:YesIam MrBi
yel
a
?
?:.
.
Hi
m:Ohdi
dshewakeup?
?
?:.
.
Hi
m:I
sever
yti
ngal
ri
ghtdoct
or?
?
?:.
.
Him:okIwillbet
her
einasecond.
.hest
oodupand
getdressed
Me:
And?
Him:Somet
hingiswrongbabyIcanfeeli
tinmy
spi
ri
teventhoughthi
soafdoesn'
tsayit
Me:
Don'
tbehar
shnanicanIgowi
thyou?
Him:Noit'slatetheki
dsneedyounanamiIwi l
lsee
youendlini..
hekissedmyf oreheadbef or
erushing
outialr
eadyknowwhatt heywillsaywelligot
dressedtooandwentt ofetchmyki dsandwentt o
myhouset or el
axbutwhoam If ool
ingwiththe
squadint hishousetheyevenf orcedmet opl ay
soccerwitht hem i
twasf unandt henIwentt o
bathethem andst art
edwi t
hmycooki ngit
'slate
andBandi leisnotbackyetwhenIwasdoneI
dishedoutf ormybabi eswhenIwast aki
ngthem t o
bedhegoti n
Me:
Nani
?hi
seyeswer
ered
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Hi
m:Letsgoandt
uckthekidsbaby.
.hi
svoi
cewas
cr
acki
ngmakingmefeelbad
Me:
Oknani
..
wewentt
otuckt
heki
dsandwentt
o
t
hebal
cony
Hi
m:Okuhl
eisdead.
.hesai
dsi
ppi
ngonhi
swhi
skey
Me:What?!
howpossi
blekodwat
heypr
omi
sedt
o
saveher
Hi
m:TheyarenotGodbabyallt
heydoistr
yand
Goddoestherest
..
hiseyeswer
eful
lofhur
tand
t
earsIr
ubbedhisback
Me:Iam sor
rybabyIam t
rul
yam IknowherandI
di
dn'tseeeyet
oeyebutthatnevermeantIwas
wi
shingdeathuntoherl
if
e
Hi
m:Noi
t'
smyf
aul
t.
.hesni
ff
ed
Me:Noit'
snotbabyshewasgoingt
ohealunt
ilGod
deci
dedtotakeher.
.t
hegui
lti
nmyvoicemaybeit'
s
becauseIwasputt
ingmyblametoGod
Him:Icouldn'
tstandmymom andmysi bl
ingscr
ies
Il
eftthem withmyauntbabyt hishurt
s..
hesaid
huggingmet ightl
yandIhuggedhi m backandhe
cri
edintomyar msIwasst ar
ti
ngtofeelbadbutI
won'tcracktheywillf
orgetabouthersoonanyway

It'
sFridayandIdi dn'
tgotoworkIwasatmy
mot herinlwasplaceIwasbusydoingspr
ing
cleaningandwel comingever
yguestcomingtopay
theirrespectsandMirandagoti
n
Her
:Am sur
eyouar
ehappynow
Me:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Her
:Youhatedhernowt
hatshe'
snomor
eyouar
e
goi
ngtorej
oicei
fyoudi
dn'
tkil
lher
Ndi
le:
Mir
anda!
!wet
urnedt
ohi
m
Her
:i
tisthet
rut
handIwantmydaught
ershecan'
t
ber
aisedbygangst
ers
Ndi
le:Don'
tletemoti
onsgetthebett
erofyou
nt
ombazanai fyoucamewi t
haf i
ghti
ngspir
itt
hen
am sorr
ywedon' thaveaboxingr
inghereweonly
accommodat epeoplewhocamet opayRESPECTS
sopleasegobackt othewholeyouleftyourmor
als
atandfetchthem andohAhlumei snotyour
daughternxx.
.het
henwal kedoutIsmill
edand
shruggedmyshoul der
s
Her:Everydoghasi t
'sowndaywenaIam notgoi ng
toletthi
sliedownnoIr efuse.
.shewentoutI
continuedwi t
hwhatIwasdoi ngandthewhole
Durbanuncl esandauntscamei nIgreet
edthem
andt ooktheirbagsupst
airs
Aunt
Cebo:
Makot
iwher
eist
hef
ood?
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:
Iwassti
llt
idyi
ngthehouseaunti
eIhaven'
t
madeanyt
hingproperr
athert
hansconesand
muff
ins
AuntCebo:Wehnt ombazaneungazongi cikawena
ucabangaukuthiwewi lleatsconesandmuf f
ins
si
sukakudekanj ena?<heyyougi rldon'
tboremeso
youthink.
..
whi
lewehavecameal ongway>yooi t
's
abouttobealongassweekswi thheraroundnxxx
Me:Iam sor
ryauntbutIonl
yhaveonebodywho
doesonlyonethi
ngat i
meIcan'tdi
vedemyself
i
ntot wosoIam aboutt
ocooknowIwi l
lusea
pressur
ecookerinthemeanti
meIwi l
lser
vey'
all
tea
AuntCebo:Heeeabafazibasegoli<Joburg
wives>sheclappedonceandl eftIquickl
ymadet ea
andwentt oplacethecupsandt eapot sinthe
dinnertabl
eandt ookni
cecont ainer
sandf i
ll
ed
them withsconesandmuf fi
nsIwentt oplacethem
i
nt hetableaswell
UncleP:KhithauCebosaysyoudisr
espect
edheri
n
thekit
cheni sthatso?
Ilookeddownasawayof
showingr espect
Me:Nouncl
eIdi
dn'
tbuti
fshef
eltt
hatwayt
henI
am sor
ry
AuntCebo:
Iam sur
eyouguyshear
dhershewas
har
shandl oudPhi
li
soisdoi
ngthi
sbecausehe
wantstobeingoodbookswit
hBandi
leforever
AuntB:
Thi
steal
ookscol
dtooNokut
hulawoul
d've
beenabet
termakot
itor
epl
acethel
ate
Thandeka..
theykeptont
alki
ngmebadbuteat
ing
thesconesIhavemadethenuncl
ePtoldmetogo
andfini
shcookingandIwenttot
heki
tchenaf
ter
thatAuntLi
zzygotin
Aunt
L:Heymommy.
.shesai
dhuggi
ngme
Me:
HeyMaunj
ani
?
Aunt
L:Iam goodcanIhel
pyou?
Me:Youdon'
thavet oIam sur
eyouar
eti
redsogo
andrestIwi
llmanage
Aunt
L:Nowedon'twantAunt
Cebot
ochewyoual
ive
soIwil
lhel
pyou
Me:Okt hanks..wecookedandshewast el
li
ngme
aboutthehousesheandherhusbandj ustbought
she'
saSi st
eratDurbanshospit
alshe'
snott hatol
d
astheot herssheissokindthewifeofPhil
isothey
arebothpast orsaft
erwehavedoneweser ved
them andIcl eanedthehouseagai
n
Aunt
Cebo:
Wher
e'sLunga'
swi
fe?
Me:
School
Aunt
Cebo:
Sheshoul
dbeher
emoss
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:
mhh.
.isai
dsweepi
ngt
hef
loor
AuntCebo:Cal
lherandtel
lherthatsheshouldbe
her
e..shesaidwalki
ngawayImadet eaonceagai
n
andwhenIwascol l
ect
ingthecupsinthelaunge
Aunt
B:Whati
sshesayi
ng?
uyeza?
Me:
Shedidn'
tpi
ckupt
hephoneshehasbeenbusy
wi
thschool
Ndi
le:
Babywehavet
ogohomenowandbesi
des
wehavetof
etcht
hebabi
es
Aunt
Cebo:
Areyounotsl
eepi
ngover
?
Ndil
e:Nomawehavebusi nessessowehave
email
storespondtoandkidstotakecar
ebutIam
sureyouguyswillmanage.
.heal
readyhadmy
handbaginhishand
Uncl
eP:Noit
'sunderst
andabl
esonyoucango..
i
wentt
or i
nsethecupsandsaidmygoodbyes
Aunt
L:Iwi
llseeyout
ommor
ow.
.wehugged
Me:
Sur
emommy.
.wewentoutandgoti
nacar
Ndil
e:Don'
tlett
hem overworkyoubabyyouar
ea
wif
eMywi fetobeexactnotthei
rmaid
Me:
it
'
shar
dtor
efusenanit
heyar
eadul
ts
Ndil
e:Nothatt
hingofMakot i
'
smustbesl avesis
notsowithmeandt el
lAnat
itostayather
apart
mentyoual lcamewithbri
depricestheymust
notactholi
er
Me:
okkeIhear
dyoubutIam t
ir
edashel
l
Hi
m:YouseenowIam notgoi
ngt
ogetsomeass.
.i
l
aughedsohar
d
Me:
OwwowwowBi
yel
abutwewi
lldomi
ssi
onar
y
t
hough
Hi
m:Real
lybaby?
Me:Anythi
ngforyoumybel
oved..
.hethankedme
wit
haki ssandhegothi
shandinbet
weenmy
t
highsthewholedri
ve

MI
LAN
I
t'sweekendandIwasatt hemal lwhenImet
Bandi l
ehewaswi t
hhiskidsIcan'tbel
ievethatthi
s
manwhom wepr omisedtobetogetherforever
l
iterall
ydoesn'
tseemenowkknowIhavedonehi m
wr ongbutthatdoesn'tmeanhemustj ustforgetnje
l
iket hatIwenttogreethi
m
Me:
Fat
heroft
heyear
..
isai
dhesmi
led
Hi
m:Mi
mi.
.ohImel
tedhi
svoi
cei
ssochar
ming
Me:Ohpleasest
opitandohmanIam sor
ryabout
yoursi
stermydeepestcondol
ences
Hi
m:Thankyouweappr
eci
atei
t.
.iwentt
ohughi
m
Xoxo:
umamam?
<mymom>
Me:
What
?Isai
dlooki
ngathi
m
Him:Xoxodon'
tbeasnit
chbutwhoar
eyougoi
ngt
o
sni
tchonphelayou'
vegotsomanysi
ns
CHAPTERSEVENTY-
FIVE

Me:
wowsohei
shi
smot
her
scamer
a?
Him:NoIam theonewhosaidhemustcheckonhi
s
motherwheneverIam notwi
tht
hem soyenahe
doesitwi
thmeal so
Me:
Wowki
ds.
.wel
aughed
Xoxo:
Buymei
ce-
cream f
ir
st
Hi
m:okandwhatar
eyougoi
ngt
obuyme?
Xoxo:
huh?
Him:Youaretheonewhobrokeyourmother
sipod
screenandyousaidi
t'
sLubenat
hiremember?
Xoxo:
Butdaddyi
twasami
stake
Hi
m:Youl
ie
Xoxo:
Ohkf
inebutumamam yena
Hi
m:FinekeIwil
lgety'
al
lice-
cream i
twasa
pl
easureseei
ngyouMimiIhavet ogo
Me:
Okunder
stand

KHI
THA
SoAuntLizzyandIwer
ejustchi
t-
chat
ti
ngi
nthe
ki
tchencooki
ng
Me:
Who'
sthi
sNokut
hul
alady?
shel
aughed
Her
:Soi
t'
sbot
her
ingyoul
ent
o?
Me:Ei
shgir
lIam t
ir
edoff
ight
inggi
rl
swhocomet
o
Bandi
lesl
if
eiam done
Her:Wel
lyoudon'
thavet oworr
yhemadei tcl
ear
thathedoesn'
twantherwhentheysuggestedher
i
nsteadofAhlumesmot herheref
usedthem al
lto
behonestyouareluckyandyou'vegotyourselfa
goodhusbandKhithathatmanlovesyou
Me:Iknowhedoesbutsomet
imeshi
sisj
ust
confusi
ng
Her:bythatIknowyoumeancheat i
ngbuthe
showedr emor seangishoandheneverr epeated
whatheaskedf orgi
venessforri
ght?(Inodded)it
's
alwaysupt oaper sonbecausewe' vegotdiff
erent
vi
ewsoncheat ingit
'seasytoleaveapar t
nerwhen
youar enotmar ri
edbutwhenyouar emar r
iedit
's
somet hi
ngel sebecauseyouhaveal mostyourl i
fe
withthispersonandt heKidsKhithathemoment
youhaveki dswithyourpar t
nerit
'snotalways
aboutyounowweshi fttheattent
iontothekidsand
alwaysdowhat '
sbestforthem anddon'tgetme
wrongi fhe'
sabusingyoudon' tstayl
eaveifit
'snot
forgoveableshei
mt hekidswi l
lhavetosuckitup
Me:YesIhearyouandbesi desIdon'tt
hinkIseemy
l
ifewi t
houtBandil
eIlovehi
m andwhenIt hi
nkof
punishinghim someti
mesitendsuphur t
ingmeand
that
'swhatIhat eaboutmysel
fialwaysputhis
needsbef or
emi nebutIam j
usthappythatheloves
mer ightback
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

It'
sEveni
ngnowandwear eatourhouseBandi
le
hasbeeninhisof
fi
ceIwasbusywi t
htheki
dsafter
theyhavesl
epti
twaspast9Iwenttocheckupon
him andhewasonthephone
Hi
m:ZainIwantyoutohackt
hecamerasoft
hat
Hospi
talandsendt
hecli
pstomeIneedthem ok?
Zai
n:.
..
.
Hi
m:Tr
yhar
dermaar
n!!
Zai
n:.
.
Hi
m:Ifyoudoval
ueyourl
if
eandjobyouaregoi
ng
t
odoasIsay,ori
sther
eanythi
ngyouknowabout
t
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hing?
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n:.
.
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m:Tommor owaft
ernoonIwantanswer
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di
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l
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kedi
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m:Howl
onghaveyoubeenst
andi
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her
e?
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dimi
sssomet
hing?
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m:NoIam j
ustchecki
ng,
sohowar
ethe
pr
epar
ati
onsgoi
ng?
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tknowIshouldbeaski
ngyoubecauseal
l
t
heyseet
omei saslaveandacooki
ng
machi
ne.
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angheaccept
edit
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m:Mjakesgi
vemeNiol
a'scont
actIwantanot
her
I
.TZai
nisacti
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ikeabi
tch
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akes:
..
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m:Sur
e
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Whati
sthef
ussal
laboutkant
i?
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tdieanat
uraldeat
hthatI
knowIdon'
tbuythesestori
es
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hinkt
her
e'spr
obabl
ysomeonebehi
nd
t
his?
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m:Def
ini
tel
yIwantt
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ingpeacei
nmymoms
l
if
e
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ti
ngr
evenge?
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m:Yest
hat
'showIr
ollmoss
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.iwalkedoutandsenta
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allystr
essedonwhatt odowi tht hi
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e
i
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li
nghissisterbutwhat evershit
happensmusthappensIwasn' treadyt olosemy
sont oo
Hi
m:Whatar
eyoubusywi
thMr
sme?
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obeatMasakhanetommorowmorni
ng
gotamessageaboutMar
keti
ngandchangesof
economyinSpai
n
Him:
Ohoklove.
.iwi
lll
ookaf
tert
heki
dst
il
lyou
comebackthen
Me:
ok.
.t
henwesl
ept
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Iwokeupandpr
epar
edf
ort
he'
meet
ing'
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le:
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eupsoear
ly..
hesai
dwr
appi
nghi
s
ar
msonmywaistandkissedme
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obeear lybaby.
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urnedaroundand
ki
ssedhim aft
erthatIt
ookmybagandkeyshe
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ice
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n:Bhoza
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ellmeal
liswel
l
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n:Iwi
shIdi
dhackt
hecamerasanddel
etedt
he
evi
denceandwear
ebothcl
ean
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yetyousoundconcer
ned?
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n:Ial
waysdeli
vert
ohi
m andIknowhowhe
hat
eslosinghewil
lbl
amemewhatifIl
osemyjob?
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lnotIwi llt
alkt
ohim youarenotGod
youdon'
tseeeveryt
hinghappeninginthi
sworld
andohhehashiredNi oladoyouknowhim?
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it
's'her
'andnoshe'
snotathreatnobodyi
s
thatIhavedelet
edeachandever
ything
Me:
Youpl
ayedi
tletmegot
henIwi
llsor
tyouout
Zai
n:Sur
emboza..
wefistbumpedandIdroveback
tomyhouseIhavetobecl oset
oBandi
leIhavet
o
beastepaheadfr
om him Igoti
nashewast i
dyi
ng
up
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m:Thatwasqui
ck.
.iwentt
ohughi
m andki
ssed
hi
m
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Itwasjustabr
ief
ingmeet
inganywaywher
ear
e
t
hekids?
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m:Aunt
Lizzycamet
otaket
hem ar
ewegoi
ng
t
heret
oday?
Me:
Idon'
tfeell
ikedoi
nganyt
hingt
oday.
.isai
d
t
aki
ngofmyshoesandbr a
Hi
m:Okyoumustbet
ir
edanyway,
aren'
tyouhungr
y
Imadef
ood?
Me:
Iwoul
dlovet
ohavesome

BANDI
LE

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ledZaint
omeetmeatthecl
ub'
soff
icehecame
i
nwit hhi
sbagsf
ullofl
apt
opsandwhat
ever
Me:
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imewhat
'sgood?
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opand
showedittomeal lIcoul
dseear edoct
orswalki
ng
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doraft
erthatIheardbeepi
ng
machinesadoct orwenti nrunningIhavetopay
him avi
sitaf
terthatshecameouti nabodybag
thatwasitIf
eellikeit'
slacking
Me:
Doyout
hinkt
hisi
sal
lofi
t?
Him:
Yesunl esst
heonewhohackedisamasterbut
Iam st
il
ltr
acingsour
cesr
elat
edtotheHospi
tal
Me:
Oknopr
obl
em keepi
ntoucht
hen
..
hewentoutIdr
ovet
othehospi
talandaskedt
o
seet
hedoctor
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Iwasdi
rect
edt
otheonewhowasi
nchar
geofher
Me:
Aft
ernoonDoc
Dr
:Af
ter
noonMrBi
yel
a
Me:Canyoupl
easet
ellmeaboutt
hedaymysi
ster
di
ed
Dr:
Iwon'tli
etoyoubutwhatiknowi sthatyour
si
sterdi
edanat uraldeathherheartst
opped
beati
ngduet otheinter
nalbleedi
ngandherr i
bs
werebrokenthatadded
Me:
Whocamet
ovi
sitherbesi
desme?
anddon'
tli
e
Dr:
Aladybyt
henameofNaki t
acamet ovisi
ther
shesai
dsheisacol
leagueandaclosefr
iendshe
wasbeggi
ngtoseehersowedecidedtoletheri
n
Me:
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ibeherl
ooks
Dr
:She'
sLi
ghti
ncompl
exi
on,
hasawel
lst
ruct
ed
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ngl
ongbl
ackdressandhadher
facecover
edIassumeshei
smarri
edtoMuslims
Me:
Oknopr
obl
em t
hankyouf
oryourt
ime
Dr
:Nopr
obl
em MrBiyel
a..
weshookhandsandI
dr
ovet
owater
fal
ltomeetNiol
a
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Hey.
.isai
dhuggi
ngher
Her
:MrBi
yel
ahowcanIhel
pyou?
Me:
Iwantyout
ohel
pmewi
tht
heNetcar
ecamer
as
Her
:Dat
eandt
ime?
..sheaskedpunchi
ngonher
l
apt
op
Me:
Thi
spastThur
sdayIdon'
tknowt
het
ime
Her:
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tthe29November.
.shekepton
punchi
ngandsheshookherhead
Her
:Ther
e'syouhavei
t.
.shesaidt
urni
ngthel
apt
op
t
omeIsawt hever
ysamet hi
ngIfumed
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em Iwi
lldeposi
tyourmoney
t
onight
..
wepart
edwayswhenIgothomeKhi t
ha
waswatchi
ngtv
Her
:Youhavebeengonef
orl
ong,
whatdi
dyouf
ind?
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om ZainandNiolabutt
heDoct
or
sai
dacol l
eagueofhercameabi tt
all
,
li
ghti
nski
n
andwellstr
uctur
edIhavetofi
ndher
Her
:Okwi
shyoual
lthel
uck
Me:
Youdon'
tsuppor
tmekant
i?
Her
:doyouwantt
oknow?
Me:
Yes
Her :
whateveryoudowon' tbri
ngherbackBandi
le
moveondon' thol
duntothepastnaweyounear l
y
kil
ledherIam surethatdoctortol
dyouwhat
causedherdeat hstopbeingstubbor
nandlooki
ng
fornothi
ngyouwi llendupcrazyandbrokeIsti
ll
wantmyhusbandandt hemoneyt oo
Me:
Areyoual
wayst
hishear
tl
ess?
Her:
ift
hetr
uthmakesmehear
tl
esst
hen.
.she
shr
ugged
CHAPTERSEVENTY-
SIX

《2WEEKSLATER》
Thefuner alwashel dinKZNl astweekitwasaver y
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hebetraysmeIcal ledZai nt
omyof f
iceatoneof
myCl ubsi nMelroseAr checamei nrushing
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Who'
schasi
ngyou?
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m:Nobodysi
rIusedt
hest
air
sal
lthewayupher
e
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Okhaveasi
t.
.hesatdownt
othecouch
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m:Okwhyam Iher
eifImayask?
Me:It
houghtyouwereloyalZai
n..
isai
dlooki
ngat
hi
m str
aighti
nhiseyes
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m:Whati
sTheBi
gBosst
alki
ngabout
?
Me:Don'tactdumbwithmeZai
nyouknowwhatI
am talki
ngaboutandnowyouar
egoi
ngtotel
lme
thet
r uth
Hi
m:Aboutwhat
?
Me:
Whoki
ll
edOkuhl
e?
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowsi
r
Me:Iam goi
ngtoaskyouonceagai
n,whoki
ll
edmy
si
sterOkuhl
e?
Him:
Isai
dI.
.Isl
appedhi
mtwi
cehi
snosewas
oozi
ngbl
ood
Me:
Don'
tyoudar
eli
etomeyouknowi
twon'
tend
wel
l
Hi
m:ButIcan'
ttel
lyoube.
..ipunchedhi
m sever
al
t
imeshewascoughi ngbl
oodal r
eady
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eyoureadyt
otal
k?It
ookoutmygunand
l
oadedbul
let
sonebyoneonit
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m:Okokletme.
.wewer
edi
stur
bedbykhi
thawho
j
ustwal
kedin
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:Naniwhat
'sgoi
ngonher
e?
Me:
Whatdoyouwanther
e?
Her:
Icametoseemyhusbandi
sn'
tthat
obvi
ous,
Zai
nohmyGodWhathaveyoudonet
o
hi
m?shesai
dkneel
ingt
ohi
m andhel
pinghi
m st
and
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Khi
thacanyoupl
easego?
Her
:Iam notgoi
nganywher
eBandi
leZai
nist
heone
whoshouldgo
Me:
Iwon'
tbecont
rol
ledbyyouwoman
Her
:Zainyoumayexcuseus..ishott
heroofZai
n
wassoshockedhewasonhi skneesbutkhitha
wasstandingl
ikenot
hinghasjusthappened
Her
:Iwi
llt
ellyouwhatyouwanttoknowal
lofi
t.
.i
l
etZai
ngohel i
ter
all
yrant
othedoor
Me:
Tal
k
Her
:Iki
ll
edher
Me:What
?!IswearIwentdeaff
orami
nut
emywi
fe
ki
ll
edmysi st
er
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Her
:Isai
dIki
ll
ed.
.
Me:
Stopi
tkhi
tha!
!!
shef
rozeIwasgoi
ngcr
azynow
sl
owl
ylosingmymindIfoundmysel
fsl
appi
ngher
shef
li
nchedasshehel
donacouchesarm
Her:
Bandil
ewhatdi
dyouwantmet odo?Waitf
or
himtoki
llmysonhuh?t
ellwhatyouexpect
edme
todo?
Me:Thatdi
dn'
tgiveyouther
ighttoki
llherKhit
ha!!
Shewasgoingtocomet ohersensesIwasr eadyto
off
erherabigdealandshewasgoingt ostopbeing
anuseatousNomkhi t
hadoyouknowt hepainyou
haveputt
eduson?
Her
:ThesamewhenIf
eltl
ikeIwasl
osi
ngmyson
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tknowt hatyouaret
hisheart
less
andst
upidyoudon'tt
hinkKhithawedon'tal
ways
sol
veprobl
emsbyki l
li
ng
Her
:sayswho?
Don'
tactsmar
tonmewena
Me:Don'
tyoudar
egi
vemeat
ti
tudent
ombazane
pl
ease
Her:orel
sewhat?.
.heeIshookmyheadi
ndisbel
ief
shedoesn'tknowmet hi
soneIpoi
ntedagun
str
aightonherheart
Me:
Khi
thaIwi
llki
llyounowi
fyoupushme
Her:
What evershi
tyoudeci
deonIdon'tfucki
ngcare
Bandil
e..
sheshovedmebackasshet riedwalki
ng
awayIblockedherwayandshefellont hefl
oorI
poi
ntedagunt oher
Her
:Soyouar
egoi
ngt
oki
llmenow?
Me:Igotnochoi
ceNomkhit
hathi
smeansyouar e
capabl
eofkil
li
ngmymotherandmyf amil
yasa
wholeandIyouareathr
eatandIhatethr
eatsso
oneofushastodieandi
t'
snotme..
.shecri
ed
Her
:NoYouarenotgoingtoki
llmeBandi
le.
.she
wasonherkneesbeggingme
Me:Asmuchasi
tishar
dformeIcan'
tIcan'
tlet
youli
ve
Her:
Sowhatwoul
dyouhavedonei
fOkuhl
eki
ll
ed
Baxol
ise?
Me:Iwoul
d'veki
ll
edherasIam goi
ngtokil
lyou
nowNomkhi t
hayouknowihateaplacewithno
peacehowam Igoinggoli
veknowi ngt
hatmywif
e
ki
ll
edmysister?
Her:Bandil
eletmelivekeforthesakeofourunbor
n
babyt henaft
erIgavebirt
hyoucanki l
lmeIdon't
carebutthinkabouthim/herplease
Me:
Areyoupr
egnant
?shenodded
Her:
YesIwantedtot
ellyouoverdi
nnerbutt
his
happened.
..
ipl
acedmygundown
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

andfacedt
hewindowandt
her
ewassi
lencef
or
about10minut
es
Me:
Thent
hatmeanswehavet
osepar
ate
Her
:What
?!
Me:YouheardmeNomkhi t
haloudandcl
earwear
e
goi
ngtodivorceandyouaregoi
ngtoconf
esst
omy
wholefami
lywhatyoudid
Her:Wowsounbel i
evableBandil
eyouareturning
againstmebecauseoft hefamil
ythatl
eftyouthat
didn'
tcareaboutyourwhereaboutsfor30year s
andIam t heonewhowast hereforyoubefore
them Ievenhelpyoulookfori
tnowi st
histhethank
yout
hatiget
Me:
Isai
dwhatIsai
dKhi
tha
Her:Fi
neIdoacceptdivor
cebutonethingIwil
l
neverdoisconfessi
ngtoyourfamil
y..
shetookher
handbagandwal kedoutIwaslivi
dIgrabbedmy
keysandwentdownst air
stojoi
ntheguysand
drankalcohol
Luu:
What
'supbr
o?
Me:
Mywi
feandIAr
edi
vor
cing?
Them:
What
?!
Me:
Longst
oryl
et'
sgetwast
ed

KHI
THA

idrovetomypl acecryingashellbutthankingGod
formylifeInearl
ydiedandIhadt ol
ieforitIam not
pregnantIgottothehouset herewasLungaIt old
himt ot
akeAhl umewi thhim It
oldhim hi
smot her
wantstoseeherandt hatgavemet i
met opackal l
myt hingsittookmehour sbutwhenIwasf ini
shed
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oadedal lofmybagst omyG-wagonandmyki ds
Idrovet otheapar t
mentIwasusingthetimewe
wer eaparttobehonestIdon'twanttoleavehi
mI
prayhechangeshi smindsnoIcan'tandIwon'tl
ive
withouthim butifthat
'swhathewantwhoam It o
standonhi swayhe' sonlygoi
ngtohurtmeand
especiall
yt hatIl
iedaboutpr
egnancy
Xoxo:
Mom ar
eyoucr
ying?
shi
tIdi
dn'
tnot
iceiwas
Me:NobabyIgotsomet
hingonmyeyewhyar
eyou
notasl
eep
Xoxo:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Me:
Toournewhouse
Xoxo:
k..
hewentbacktowhathewasbusywit
h
wownoIam goingtobeasingl
emotheroff
our
ki
dsli
fewil
lhumbleyou
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Chri
stmasi
sin3daysnowIhaven'
tseenBandi
le
si
ncehealwayssendLungat
ocomeandf et
chthe
ki
dsihavedecoratedmyChrist
mastreeandput
somegif
tsunderitIusedtodothi
swithBandil
e
andnowIam allalonetheki
dswentoutwithhi
mI
cl
eanedthehouseandwentt oagym becauseIhad
not
hingtodo

BANDI
LE

Lifehasbeenmi serablewi thoutmywi fear oundwe

signeddi vorcepaperst hesepastweek' sandIhave
beennot hingbutadr unkardshet oldmet hatsheis
notpr egnantshewasonl yprotecti
ngherl ifeand
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andIhi r
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depar t
ment ssheusedt ohel pmewi t
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l
iveswi t
hmymom soshe' snother eafterourlong
dayIdeci dedtofaceheri t'
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if
uli
nherl
eggi
ngs
andoversi
zedt-
shi
rt
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Hi
Her
:Hi
..
welookedateachot
herIswearshe'
s
f
eel
ingwhatIam f
eeli
ng
Me:
canIgeti
n
Her
:Yeahsur
e..
weal
lgoti
n
Me: Eachandever
yoneofyoumustt akehi
s/her
belongingstot
hei
rroom t
heyal
lcol
lectedt
hem and
ranupst ai
rs
Her
:Doyouwantsomet
hingt
odr
ink?
Me:Evenf
oodit
'sf
ine.
.shewenttotheki
tchenand
camebackwit
hapl at
eandajuice
Me:t
hankyou.
..
iat
eandi
nlesst
han5mi
nIwas
donethi
swomanknowshowtocook
Her
:Thatwasqui
ck.
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ight
lyl
aughed
Me:
Yeahsowher
ear
eyougoi
ngt
ommor
ow?
Her
:Iwi
llbewor
kingatt
hehot
el
Me:
onChr
ist
mas?
Her
:Gotnochoi
cei
t'
sbusy
Me:
oksothatmeansIwi
llbewi
tht
heki
dsdur
ing
t
heday?
Her:
Yesandthatwi
llgi
veyout
imef
oryouandyour
gi
rli
ntheeveni
ng
Me:ohpleasecomeon..
myphonerangi
twasMilan
Ipromisetogotoherpl
acef
ordi
nnerandshi
tiam
ful
lalr
eady
Her
:i
sever
ythi
ngok?
Me:
Yeahsur
eIwi
llseeyou.
.ij
oggedout

CHAPTERSI
XTY-
EIGHT

MI
LAN

I
t'
sbeenamonthnowt hatmeanswearein
Febr
uar
yIam busycookingdi
nnerf
orBandil
eandI
hepromi
sedtocomeovermyplacewhenIwas
doneIwenttowat
chtvandwai
tforhi
m af
teral
ong
ass30minut
eshegoti
n
Hi
m:Heysweet
s..
hesai
dhuggi
ngme
Me:
Heyl
oveIt
houghtyoucancel
led
Hi
m:NoIwouldn'
t.
.hesatdownonthecouchI
di
shedoutandcalledhi
mt oeat
Me:Whyar
eyoupl
ayi
ngwi
thyourf
ooddoesi
ttast
e
bad?
Him:Noti
t'
sgoodjustthatthesalti
snotbalanced
that
'swhyIwouldalwaysr ecommendt he
Robert
sonspicesmywi fealwaysusedsee
yest
erdayshecookedbeefst ewitwasniceand..
Me:OhpleaseBandi
lest
opi
tcan'
tyouseethatyou
ar
ehurti
ngme? Imeanyoual
wayscompareme
wi
thherit'
salwaysher
!!
Hi
m:Iwasj
ustr
ec.
.
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'swhatyoudoeverydayBandil
eyou
alwaysmakemecookt henyoucri
ti
cizemyfoodor
youcomefullandyoueatatherpl
acethi
sisti
ri
ng
ser
ious!
!
Hi
m:Fi
rstofal
ldon'tyoudarer
aiseyourvoi
seto
meandsecondlyIam sorr
yIthoughtIwashel
ping
Me:OkIam goi
ngt
oaskonequest
ionDoyoul
ove
her
?
Hi
m:That
'snotnecessar
y
Me:
Answert
hedamnquest
ionBandi
le?
Him:
Areyousur
eyouwanttoheari
t?myhear
twas
pumpi
ngIwassuff
ocat
ing
Me:
Yessayi
t
Him:
YesIloveherIlovehersosomuchbutbei
ng
apar
tist
heonlysoluti
onbetweenusgoti
tnow
Me:
Sowhataboutme?
Him:Mimiyouknowwhataboutusdon'
tmaket
his
dif
fi
cultpleaseok.
.hesai
dki
ssi
ngmeand
squeezingmyassImoaned
Me:
canwenotuseacondom t
oni
ght
?
Him:NoIam notr
eadybabybutonedaywewi
ll
..
i
noddedaswewentupstai
rstomakelove
KHI
THA

It'
sabeaut i
fuldaygirlshappyandbeauti
fulIam at
themal ldoi
ngsomeshoppi ngit
'sbeenawhi leI
fi
rstlywenttothesal ongotmy32i nchAgr ade
Mel uvi
anandmani cureIthenwentshoppingwhen
Iwasi nchannel ibumpedi nt
oSphiweLukhozione
ofjoburgbusinessmenwehugged
Hi
m:Hel
lobeaut
if
ul.
.hi
svoi
cei
ssooutoft
hiswor
ld
Me:
Heyst
ranger
..
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Hi
m:Somanyshoppingbagsam sur
eyouar
edead
br
okenow.
..
welaughed
Me:
Aar
gIj
ustdon'
tgetenough
Hi
m:Okl
etmepayf
ort
heseones
Me:Ar
eyousur
e?hesmi
ll
edshowi
nghi
scut
est
di
mples
Hi
m:Yes
Me:Okift
hat
'st
hecaseummhIst il
lneedmore.
..
he
l
aughedashepushedthetrol
leyf
ormehepayed
andwewenttoarest
aurantandateaft
ert
hatI
wenthome
Pear
l:
Khul
umaphel
a?<t
alkpl
ease>
Me:
What
?
Ti
na:
Youhavebeensmi
li
ngeversi
nce
Me:Okokwel
lwhenIwasatt
hemal
lImetSphi
we
Lukhozi
Them:Mhhhhh.
..t
heyallknowhowsexyhei shi
s
bodyhe'sabi
ttougherthanBandil
eandhisdar
kin
complexi
onhe'
stall
,hi
sf adej
ustsui
tshi
m
ever
ythi
ngabouthimjustsoperfect
Ti
na:
ButBabesi
t'
sokt
omoveonyazi
Pear
l:
Iagr
eet
othat
Me:
Owpl
easeIt
hinki
t'
sjustaf
li
ngnj
e
Ti
na;
Mhhhgwewi
llsee
Me:
OkokIagr
eedt
ogi
veusachance.
..
the
scr
eamed
Pear
l;
youdi
dwhat
?Inodded
Ti
na:
Wear
esohappyf
oryoubaby.
.wehugged
Pear
l:
Bandi
lei
sgoi
ngt
ohat
ethi
s
Ti
na:
Andhe'
sal
waystal
kingaboutyousayi
ng'
m
wi
fethi
s,
mywif
ethat
'Ij
ustroll
edmyeyes.
Me:HayiIdon'
tcar
eabouthi
m Iwi
llgi
vet
his
r
elat
ionshi
pmyal l
Pear
l:
ohoksohewon'tf
eeli
nti
midat
edashe'
sis
st
il
lamil
li
onerandwenaphel
ayouareabi
g
gun.
.wel
aughed
Me:
Lovei
slovebr
o

IthasbeenaweekIam wi
thSphi
weatthemovi
es
butwedecidedt
ogooutasitwasver
yemoti
onal
Hi
m:Aargmywomanissuchababy.
.hesai
dwi
ping
t
hefaketear
sonmyeyes
Me;
ohpl
easeIsawyoual
soshedat
ear
Him;Who?me?nevercr
iest
hisone..
ilaughedathi
s
faci
alexpr
essi
onandhowhei mitat
est hemakula
accent
Me:
Wowkeepondenyi
ngi
tMr
Him;Il
oveyou.
.imel
tedheal
waysdr
opst
hat
unexpect
edl
y
Me:Owpleasedon'
tmakemeweakdur i
ngt he
peopl
e..
welaughedaswepassi
onat
elykissed
Hi
m:Babyiwast
hinki
ngoft
aki
ngyout
omyhome
t
hiscomi
ngweekend
Me:
ohi
sitnotear
lybaby?
Him:
NoIdon'tthinksobesidesi
t'
smysister
s
t
radi
ti
onalweddingit'
snothingf
ormalok
CONTI
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ON2

Me:
it
'sokl
oveIdonthaveaprobl
em wi
thi
tokj
ust
t
hatIwant
edustobesureaboutus
Hi
m:Doyouhearwhatyouar
esayi
ng?
Me:
NobutwhatIknowi
sthatIam i
nlove.
.we
l
aughed
Hi
m:l
et'
sgohomebabysomypl
aceoryour
s?
Me:
your
sdaddyIsai
dseduct
ivel
y
Him:Okmyl ady.
.hedr oveust ohishousewhenwe
gottherewewentt ot hefir
eplaceandwet alked
aboutourl i
feexperiencesf rom chi
ldhoodti
ll
growthandweendedupki ssi
ngandmadel ovef or
thefir
sttimehewasgent lebecausehewasbi gnot
biggerthanBandi l
et houghIam notcompar ingam
j
ustsayi ngandit'
snotal waysaboutt hesi
zejust
howt heyplayithesat i
sfi
edmeaswewentt of i
nish
ourbusinessi nhisbedr oom

It'
stwodaysbef
oreIgotoMpumalangawith
Sphiweihadtogoandtal
ktoBandi
lelucki
lyhewas
athismother
shouseIgotinsi
det
hehouseand
theywereint
helaunge
Me:
Goodday
MomL:
Heysweet
s..
.weal
lhuggedandIsatdown
MomL:
Howdoweowet
hepl
easur
e?
Me:Iact
ual
lywantyouguyst
ohel
pmewi
th
somethi
ng
MomL:
Ok
Me:t
hisweekendIam goi
ngtoMpumalangasoI
wouldli
ket
oleavemyki dswi
thBandi
leifyouar
e
busyma
MomL:NoBandil
ewil
llookaft
erthem mi
naIam
busysweet
hear
tokIwilll
eaveyouguystoi
t.
.she
wentout
Hi
m:Noi
t'
sfi
necanIaskwhyyouar
egoi
ngt
her
e?
Me:
Wel
lit
'sabusi
nessconf
erence
Hi
m:ohr
eal
ly?
Me:Yes..
myphoner
angandi
twasSphi
weI
answeredhi
m
Me:
Heyl
ove
Sphi
we;
Iam atyourpl
ace
Me:
okIam comi
ng
Sphi
we:
Iloveyouok
Me:
Iloveyout
oo.
.hedi
sconnect
ed
Hi
m:Whowast
hatNomkhi
tha?
Me:noneofyourbusi
nessIwi
llbr
ingt
heki
dsher
e
Fr
idaynightIhavet
ogo
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Youal lshould'
vseenhi sfaci alexpressionhewas
pissedormor et
hant hatIgi vezer ofucks.It
s
Saturdayt heweddingdayandt ellyouwhat
everybodyher eisnicetomet heyareal lwelcoming
SphiweandIbot hwor eNi gerianat t
ir
eswel ooked
l
ikemoneyIt ookpicturesanddeci dedt opostt hem
andaGi fofuskissi
ngIpost edi tonmyst oryand
peoplewer er
eActi
ngwi t
hWowReAct ionslolI
switchedof fmyphoneandwentt oatt
endt hewedd

BANDI
LE

Ican'tbel
ievewhatIam seei
ngri
ghtnowsokhit
ha
real
lyhasamannowandonet hi
ngthatf
ucksme
upisthatshe'
skissingherprobablyhavi
ngsexwith
herIcan'
timaginethatshitwhydidievenlet
emotionsgett
hebet terofmenowIam t rul
yfaci
ng
hel
lihavebeenr egrett
ingmydecisionsbutno
maarnIcan'tt
akei t
Luu:
Youneedt
osucki
tupbr
oandl
etherbehappy
Phi
lani
:Tr
ueandbesi
desyou'
vegotMi
lanonyour
si
deanyway
Sbu:
Mat
ter
soft
hehear
t.
.t
heyl
aughed
Me:Easi
ersaidthandoneyouguysknowt hat
Khit
haismyl i
feItr
iedget
ti
ngoverherbutit'
sso
i
mpossibleandMi l
anwasjustadi
stracti
onnjea
bouncebackidon'tdowit
hacommuni t
ypussy
Luu:
Uzot
hinikengoku?
<whatar
eyougoi
ngt
odo
now>
Me:Iwi
llhavet
ohaveawor dwithkhi
thaand
pr
obabl
ypayavi si
tforLukhozi
Phi
lani
:Don'
tki
llhi
m
Me:Iwon'
tIwi
llt
eachhi
m at
hingort
wobuti
fhe
di
eshedies
Luu:
Youar
eapsychowena
Me:sayssomeonewhoki
ll
edTi
nassecr
etadmi
re
hownice
Luu:
thatl
ousyasswast
est
ingmypat
iencemoss
Me:
am sur
eyoudogetmypoi
ntt
hen
Sbu:Butt
hisi
sgoingtokil
lherImeanshel
ooks
happycabyoulethergetburnt
Me:YouknowKhi
thashe'
sst
ubbor
nsoIwi
llhavet
o
pl
ayitthehar
dway
Phi
lani
:She'
sst
il
lthemot
herofyourki
dsBandz
man
Me:
that
'swhyshegott
obewi
thmef
orever
Luu:Suthengi
safishBandi
le<stopselli
ngfishes>we
l
aughedaswedr ankourbeersIam r eall
ygoingto
rui
nt hi
ngsforherandwhat '
sgoodi sthatsheknew
howIf eelaboutherbei
ngwi t
hanotherman
CHAPTERSEVENTY-
NINE

KHI
THA
Itwasaveryexciti
ngweekendnowir eal
lyenjoyed
atMpumalangapluswhenyourmani sbusy
showingyouof
ft ohispeoplei
snicerIam atwork
nowwhenihear daknockIshoutedit'
sOpenMr
Biyel
acameinlookingallhot
Hi
m:MaBi
yel
a
Me:Iwoul
dreal
lyappr
eci
atebei
ngcal
ledbymy
name
Hi
m:Iam sor
ryIam usedt
ocal
li
ngyoul
iket
hat
Me:
Mhhthat
'
sbadt
henyouhavet
olear
ncal
li
ng
mebyname
Him:Iwi
llt
rysowhat
'supwi
thyouandSphi
we
Lukhozi
?
Me:
Wear
einar
elat
ionshi
pwhy?
Hi
m:St
rai
ghtandsi
mpl
e
Me:
whydoIhavet
osugarcoati
t?
Hi
m:Noneedbutyouhavet
obr
eakupwi
thhi
m
Me:
Lolyouar
esof
unnyyazi
Hi
m:Iam ser
iousKhi
thaIwantust
ofi
xthi
ngs
Me:Stopfl
atter
ingyour
sel
fthati
snotgoi
ngt
o
happenforgetabouti
t
Hi
m:Butbabyr
ememberwhatwesai
dwesai
dwe
wi
ll
..
Me:
Stopitr
ightt
hatdon'
ttel
lmeaboutwhatwe
'
sai
d'moveonBandile
Hi
m:Doeshel
ayi
tli
keIdo?
Me:That'
swhatyoucareabout ?l
etmet el
lyou
Sphiweisfait
hful
,
herespectsme,communi cat
es
wit
hmeandl etmeknoweachandever ymovehe
makessopl easedon'
tboremeWenaandt oanswer
yourquesti
onhegoshIj ustgotdrenchedIthi
nkI
wil
lhavetogoandmast urbatebecausehedoesme
sogood
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m:Soyou(
sni
ff
es)
yousl
eptwi
thhi
m?
Me:of
cozIdidandpleasel
eavemyoff
iceandgo
cr
yinMilan'
sarms.
.niggabr
okedownandcri
ed
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m:Whathur
tsmostist
hatyoulookhappywi
thout
meKhi
thaIoncet
oldyouthatigr
ewupinavery
coldhomewi thamanwhodoesn' tknowaval ueof
amanIt ol
dyout hatiwil
ltrymybestIwasn' tgoi
ng
toexcellIam humanandyoual soknewIhavea
problem wheni tcomest osexualthingsyousaid
willbethereformeandhel pmeBabyi t
'snoteasy
atallMilanwasj ustadistracti
onidon'tl
oveher
youar etheonlyoneIl oveAndaboutdi vorceiam
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youwoul d'vedonet hesameorIwoul dbewi t
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ancestorsnowi thur t
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CONTI
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ON1

Iam notsayi ngthisbecauseIwantyout ofeelbad

formebutIam j ustlett
ingyouknowihopehe
continuesdoi nggoodbyyouandt reatsyoubetter
thanIdidot herwisehewi llmeett her ealmeyou
surelydeservehappi nessnanamianddomeone
favourpleasedon' tint
roducehimt omyki dsIdon'
t
wantt oconfuset hem okandIwi llbegonef or
somet i
met oSpai nsoIwon' tbeabl et otakethe
kidsIwi l
lal
waysl oveyou..iwhisper ed'alwaysand
forever'
Him:IheardthatanywayIhavet ogobeforeImiss
myflight
..ist
oodupandr antohisar mswehugged
andheki ssedmyf oreheadafterthatISphi
wes
col
ognehi tmynost r
ilsItur
nedt othedoorther
ehe
wasleaningont hedoor
Ndil
e:Takeagoodcar
eofmyki dsMaBiyel
aheside
huggedmeandhewentt oSphiwehelookedathi
m
andclenchedhi
sjawsandwalkedout
Hi
m:Idi
dn'
tknowt
hatyouguysar
etal
king
Me:Noi
t'
sonl
ytodayhecamet
osayhi
sgoodbyes
si
ncehe'
sgoi
ng
Hi
m:Wher
e'shegoi
ng?
Me:OverseasbabyIam hungr
ycanwegooutf
or
l
atelunch?
Hi
m:Sur
ethi
ng.
..
wewentout

AWeekl
ater
》

Sphi
wehasbeendi
stantl
atel
yhesai
dhe'
sbusy
withwor ksoIdecidedtoshiftmyat t
entiont omy
kidswhent heywer easl
eepIt ookmyphoneand
scroll
edtoInstaIsawhi sstori
eshewaswi thagi r
l
childmaybe4year sandcapt i
oneddaddy' slessons
andpost edvideosofthem playingonthepar kwow
thisisnewt omeil i
kedittoshowt hatihaveseeni t
buthedi dntbotheri
nboxingmeideci dedt ocall
him
Me:
Heyl
ove
Him:Hi..
.(
al adyvoicei nthebackgroundshoutedno
comebackher ewenotf ini
shedt akethet
owelin
thebathroom)her espondedwi thasweetokIj ust
disconnectedt hecallandthrewmyphonei nthe
drawerokIt ookitbackandscr oll
eddownBandi les
ti
mel i
nebuti twasdr yhehasn' tbeenacti
veever
sincewebr okeupIl oggedoutbef oreImake
stupiddecisionsIthendeci dedtobakecakesf or
mybabi es
CONTI
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ON2

I
t'
sanot
herdayandIam i
nmyof
fi
cebusywi
th
workwhenSphi
wecamei
nhol
dingf
lower
sand
chocol
ates
Hi
m:Myl
ove
Me:
Hi.
..
hecamet
ohugme
Hi
m:Thesear
eformybeaut
if
ull
ady
Me:Don'tbor
emewenatakeyourcheapestf
lowers
andchocolat
esandgett
hefuckoutofmyoffice
youpieceofshi
t
Hi
m:Whyar
eyouf
ight
ingbabywhtdi
dido?
Me:
Wher
ewer
eyout
hewhol
eti
me?
Hi
m:Atwor
k
Me:
Withgi
rl
stal
kingonyourbackgr
oundandoh
t
hedaddyl
essonswhataboutthem?
Hi
m:Oht
hatwasmybabymamawewer
epl
ayi
ng
wi
thmyki
donel
e
Me:Soyouwer eplayingwithyourbabymamaand
daughteratworkwhileyouareint heparkHayi
yi
MovieyiFil
m ndiyaqalauyi
va<its-it
'smyfi
rstt
ime
heari
ng/seei
ngit>
Him:ohpleaseNomiedon'
tyoudareactsai
ntyou
aretheonewhostart
edhangingputwit
hyour'ex
husband'sowhat'
swrongwithmehangingoutwith
mybabymama?
Me:Not
hingwrongatal
lnowcanIgetbackt
owor
k
gotbi
ll
ionst
omakenotmi l
li
onssof
uckoff
Hi
m:That
'snotnecessar
yIwi
lll
iveIwi
llf
etchyou
l
ater
Me: t
here'snoneedt o..hewalkedoutIscr eamed
andt ookt heflower soutofmyof f
iceandt he
cheapestchocol atesheboughtIcont inuedwi t
hmy
jobwel lIhaveasl eepi nnannyhel pingmewi ththe
kidsIcal l
edt hatIwi llbelatetodayidr ovef rom
wor kpast8whenIhear dmyt ir
ebur stingint he
mi ddl
eofnowher eIsawguysappr oachingI
searchedf ormygunBandi lehast aughtmet obe
alwaysar medIcockedi tastheybr oket hewi ndows
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etproffedical l
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shithe'sinSpai ntheygr abbedmebyhai rand
threwmeont hegr oundaf t
erthattheypoi nt
edguns
atmeaf terthattheyputmeont hebootandt he
guyst ookmygunohshi twhat '
sgoi ngonnow? I
j
ustpr ayedt hatt
heyar enotgoingtokil
lmewhat
aboutmyki dsIcriedandquicklywipedthem Ihave
tobest rongf ort
hem thecarstoppedandt heydrag
meoutl uckilyIknowt heplaceit'
sinTembisa
groundst herearehousedatt hebackofthebush
theythrewme
CONTI
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ON3

WhenIgotinsi
desur
pri
sesur
pri
seSphi
we,
Menzi
andLel
ethu
Let
hu:
MrsBiyel
a..
shesai
dslappi
ngmeIf
li
nched
shesl
appedmeseveralt
imes
Menzi:
That
'senought
ieherupweneedtoleavewe
wi
lldealwi
thhertommorowLukhoziWel
lpl
ayed
nj
ayam
Sphi
we;
Anyt
imegr
ootman..
theyal
lwal
kedout
l
eavi
ngmewithal
ocalgangst
er

BANDI
LE
IwasonmywayhomewhenIsawKhi tha'
scarnext
tother
oadandt heguyswerebusyfixi
ngitoh
what'
sitnowandIhavehermi sscal
lwel l
Icame
backyesterdayf
rom Spai
niparkedmycaront he
roadsi
det ookmygunandwal kedtothem
Guy1:
Howcanwehel
pyoust
hipha?
<fool
>
Guy2:Thi
sisBiyel
abro..
theyallr
antothebushesI
tookmygunandi twastool at
eImustf i
ndthat
Lukhoziguyheneedstot el
lmewher emywi f
eisat
igottomycaranddr ovetohisplaceIhavebeen
stal
kinghi
m Ifoundhisbabymamaanddaught er
Me:
Hi
Her
:Howdi
dyougeti
n?
Me:That'
snotimportantwhere'
syourst
upid
f
iancé(dooropens)
thereheisNdodawhere'
smy
woman?
Hi
m:Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me;Ihat
erepeat
ingmysel
fheyIwantmywi
feyou
pi
eceofshit
Hi
m;Idon'
tknowmanandyouneedt
oleave.
.It
ook
mygunoutandpoi nt
edhim hetookouthiswai t
that
smygunIgavei ttokhi
thashe'sgoi
ngt otel
l
met het
rut
hIgrabbedhisdaughterandplaceda
gunonherli
tt
lehead
Me:Idon'
tpi
tyanyonewhenitcomestosavi
ng
what'
sminesoyoubetterst
artt
alki
ng
Hi
m:Leavemydaught
eroutoft
his.
.icockedt
hegun
Me:
3..
2..
Hi
m:okIdon'tknowtheplacebutIwashi
redby
Menziandsomel adypl
easesavemydaughter
Me:
thatwasn'
thar
dnowl
et'
sgot
oMenzi
shouse
Hi
m:i
t'
slat
e
Me:Di
dIaskyouwhatt
imeisit
?hequi
cklyopened
t
hedoorandwegottomycarandhedirect
edme
wegotinhi
sapar
tmenthewasmakinglovetohis
wif
ewhenhesawmehest opped
Him:Howdidyougether
e?hehi
dhi
swoman'
sassI
spankedi
tinst
ead
Hi
m:whatt
hef
uck?
Me:weusedt
oshar
eitanywayl
et'
sgot
oTembi
sa
andgetmywif
e
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Hi
m:Bi
yel
awhatar
eyout
alki
ngaboutnow?
Me:let'
sgoLokhweIknowyouar et
heonewhot ook
mywi f
esoasambebaf o<let'
sgobr other
>hegot
dressedandshowedmewher etheylockedherat
andwhenIgott otheroom itwasdar kwhenI
openedt hedoorsomethi
nghi tt
hebackofmyhead
andi twasli
ghtsoutf
orme

Iwokeupaf
terawhi
let
ir
ednextt
okhi
tha
Me:Nanami
..
isai
dtr
yingt
ofr
eemysel
ffr
om t
he
chai
ns
Her:
Bandi
let
heyar
eont
hei
rwayt
otakemyki
ds
ourki
ds
Me:Whatdi
dyoujustsay?It
ri
edsearchingformy
phoneIwant
edtocallLuubutIcoul
dn'treachi
t
Me:Shitshit
!!
!It
ensedf uckthesechainsar
estr
ong
butafterIhavetri
edf oralongti
met heybr
okeI
groaneditwashur tingiquickl
ycall
edLuuhe
pi
ckedi tuponaat hir
dring
Hi
m:Nj
akaNt
shangase
Me:Pleasebafodri
vetoKhi
tha'
shousenowpleaseI
am beggingyou.
.aft
ert
hatmyphonesbatt
eryfai
led
me
Her
:Di
dhegett
hemessaget
hough?
Me:IhopesoIr
eall
yhopesof
uckt
hishur
tsl
etme
hel
pyououtofthese

Luu

Iquickl
yrushedoutandst
artedmyengineand
drovetoKhit
ha'shouseaf
ter20minut
esiwasther
e
iknockedthenannyletmein
Me:
Goandcal
ltheki
dswear
eal
lgoi
ng
Her
:si
r.
..
Me:
DoasIsay
Her:
Ican'tmadam wi l
lmur
derme. .
ijustwal
ked
pastherIwokexoxoandt hetwinsItookLubein
myar msigott hem i
nmycarIdr agthenannyt
omy
caranddr oveoutshewasstubbornmosswhenI
wasdr i
vingoutIsawMenziscardr i
vingint
heyard
Ispedout

MENZI

Ij
ustgoti
nKhit
ha'
splaceandIknockedt
il
lI
deci
dedtobr
eakinandther
ewasnoonei nsi
det
he
house
Let
hu:
Shi
twher
ear
ethey?
Me:
Idon'
tknowlet
'swai
tforthem buti
t'
slat
eor
maybeBandi
let
ookthem bef
oregoingtomyplace
Lethu:
Andhi
smother
shouseisoffl
imi
tsj
ustl
ike
hiscamer
asever
ywhereandpani
calar
ms
Me:
Fucki
t!
!Ibangedt
het
abl
e
Let
hu:
let
'sgoanddealwi
tht
hem i
nst
ead
Me:Nol
et'
sgotheret
ommorowweneedt
orest
..
we
dr
oveoutoft
heirsur
bubs
CHAPTEREI
GHTY

NOMKHI
THA

Bandi
lef
reedmealsoandnowwewerelooki
ngfor
awayoutbutwecouldn'
tfi
ndi
tIwaspani
cki
ng
Hi
m:Wedon'
thavei
tnanamil
et'
sjustsi
tandwai
t
f
orthem
Me:
Sit
?!Bandi
lewhataboutmyki
ds?
Hi
m:i
ftheyhavethem sur
elytheywillgi
vet
hem t
o
mewit
houtafight
..
hewentt ositdown
Me:
Howar
eyourhands?
Him:Ver
ypai
nfulbutitwasforagoodcourseand
thechai
nswerenotthatst
rong.
.hecombinedthe
chai
rs
Me:Okyouar estr
ong..hesmiledican'tbel
ieve
myselfrightnowIam busydr ool
ingonhi m he'sa
l
itt
lebitbiggernowIam sur ehespental otift
imeat
thegym,hi scomplexi
onhe' sabitli
ghtbrown
everyt
hingabouthi m Ican'
timaginehi m down
ther
esur elyhis28cm IjustgotwetokokKhi t
ha
youareki dnappedandhe' syourex-husbandf ocus
Him:
Youcancomeandl ayontopofmeifyoudon'
t
mindyouwon'
tbestandi
ngthewholeni
ghtwil
l
you?hewassl
eepi
ngont hechai
rsf
aci
ngdown
Me:
SoImustsl
eepatyourback?
Him:Toavoi dalotofthi
ngs?yesNanami ..
isl
ight
ly
l
aughedandcl i
mbedonhi m andsl epthewas
tal
kingt ell
ingmeabouthi stri
ptoSpai nandoh
Bandi l
ei sagossiperhewast ell
ingmeabout
what everheknows. .
Mor ni
ngcameandwehear d
voi
cesout sideIcl
imbedof fhi
m
Me:
Whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odonow?
Him:Okl
etmesee.
.hetookt
hechainshegaveme
oneandmademest andontheot
hersideofthe
doorast
heyweret
wohest oodbehindtheot
herso
Iam goingt
of i
gur
eitoutmaybeokt
heycamet
o
openitanditwasMenzihegotin
Menzi :
Wher ear ethey?hegoti nandcheckedbef ore
hecoul dknowi thewasont hefloorbleedi ngNdil
e
hi
thim wi t
ht hechai nshegotandhet ookhi min
andsear chedf oragunandf oundt womi neandhi s
anotheronecamewhi l
ehewasbusywi thMenzi I
hadtot akecar eofhi m Idi
dt hesamebutyouknow
howheavychai nsar eIscr
eamedasIhi thim att
he
backiknockedhi m downBandi l
egr abbedmet o
hi
m andgavemeanot hergunhecockedt hem as
otherscamet ot heroom
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Him:Don'
tpani
crel
axnanamiorel
set
heywi
llshoot
you
Voi
ce:
orIwil
lshootyourat
her.
.wetur
nedaroundit
wasLelet
hushehadhergunpointedatBandi
leand
t
heotherswer
estandingbehi
ndhim
Hi
m:OwLethuyouknowhowt ouseagunnow?
but
whoam If
ool
ingidon'
tteachi
mmatur
es.
.we
wal
kedbackwar
dst
il
lwehi
tthewal
l
Lethu:
Youreal
lythi
nkt hi
sworl
drevol
vesaround
youguyshuh? sheaskedasMenziwalkedtoushe
hadawett owelatthebackofhi
sheadhe'snot
deadyetkanti
?
Menzi
:Sl
owdownLet
huIneedt
ohaveawor
dwi
th
Bi
yel
a
Let
hu:
Ok.
.shepl
ayedwi
thhergun
Menzi
:Bi
yel
aIwantmycompanybackandIwanti
t
now
Hi
m:orel
sewhat
?
Menzi:
Stopbei
ngstubbornyoucanseethatyou
guysareoutnumberedsurr
enderi
tal
ltomenow! !
Him:
Iwoul
dn'
tdaredothat
..
Menzitookt
hegunswe
hadandst
art
edpunchingNdil
eashetookouthi
s
gunashewasabouttoshoothim
Me:Wait!
!IscreamedandIalreadysawat argetal
l
theguysatt hebackweren'
tfocusonlyonehasa
gunloadedBandi l
etaughtmeever yt
hingsoIcan
seeanempt ygunt hesepeoplearenotseri
ous
Menzi
:Whati
sityoubi
tch?
Hi
m:Don'
tyoudar
ecal
lmywi
fel
iket
hat
!!
Lethu:Orel sewhat ?
shesai dcomi ngt
omeNdi l
e
andIl ookedateachot herwequi ckl
ygrabbedthem
andt ookt heirgunsandst art
edshootingtheother
guyswhi l
stst andi
ngbehindt hetwowhent hey
wereal ldownwepushedLet huandMenzi down
andNdi l
et i
edt hem onthechairs
Me:
Whatat
urnar
oundoft
hings
Him: Whodoyout hinkyouar ewenaMenzi ? Youare
ani mmat uret
hat'
spr etendi ngtoknowever ything
manIal waystol
dyout ost ayawayf r
om meI
war nedyouandyouneverl istenedpityBaxoliseis
notgoi ngtoseehisfatherwhenhegr owsup
becauseIam aboutt oki llhim nowandf at
herhi m
asIal waysdidhetookoutakni f
emyGodiam not
readyheopenedi tandst abbedhi mi nhislaps5
holesineacht her
ewasbl oodal loverandhewas
groaninginpainhet urnedt oLethuwhowas
shiveri
nghegavemeagunandhenod
CONTI
NUATI
ON2
Iblewherheadof fandther
ewasahol einherfore
headandt hem Ishoother3bull
etsonherheart
andf aceBandi
lewasbusywi t
hMenzi skinni
nghim
ali
vehewasgr oaningnoIcan'tst
andthisnotthatI
feelsorr
yforhi
m Iam humanIgota' l
it
tl
e'
conscious
Me:
It
senoughnowBabuBi
yel
alet
'sgoandl
ive
t
hem her
e
Him: Nowehavet olitthi
spl acesotherewillbeno
evidence..t
her ewer egassesandBandi l
eopened
them youknowgasandf l
amescour sebombwe
l
eftt heplaceNdi lecal l
edMj akesusinghisphone
whi chhechar geditonhi scarandever yt
hingt hey
tookf rom mewasonhi scarmom t hesepeopl ehe
tol
dMj akestocomeandt akethecarstohisscr ap
yardhe' sgivinghimf orfr
eeIcoul dimaginet he
happi nessokBandi l
edr oveust ohishouseandmy
carwaspar kedathi sgat emxm ar gwegoti nsi de
andever ythingher echangedi nt
othenewst yleI
alwayswant ed
Me:
wowi
t'
sbeaut
if
ul
Him:t
hiswastheonl
ywaytofeelyourpresence
nanamiyoucanusethemai
nbedr oom Iwilluset
he
guestroom
Me:
Nol
etmeuset
he.
.
Him; noIhaven' tsleptoni tsinceyoul ef tIjust
changedi tyoucangoandusei tandi thasyour
thingst hatyoul eftheresleepwel lhejogged
upst air
sandIf oll
owedhi m whenIgott oour
bedr oom t hi
smani ssounbel i
evablethi siadr eam
ever yt
hingwasi nwhi t
eandsi l
verjustt hewayIl ike
i
tt heensui t
enowhohasabeaut i
fulbedr oom ot her
thanmei nthiswor l
dohi t'
snotmyhousekaneneI
wentt ot akeal ongassbat hIdr i
edmysel fand
l
ot i
onedIwor eNdi l
est-shir
taftericalledl uut obe
sur eifmyki dsarewi t
hhi m heagr eedandsl ept
peacef ull
yandaf t
erhour sofsl eepingIhear da
knockwhenIwasaboutt oshoutIr emember edthat
i
t'snotmyhouseIl ethimi nhehadat r ayonhi s
hands
Hi
m:Heysl
eepyhead.
.hewassmi
ll
ingandt
hef
ood
hemademymout
hwasf
il
ledwi
thsal
iva
Me:l
etmegoandr i
nsemymout
hyooIam
st
arvi
ng.
.hel
aughed
Hi
m:Iwi
llbedownstai
rssol
ongandohIcal
ledLuu
t
obri
ngthebabiesher
e
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:
ohhh
Hi
m:Yesandever
ythi
ngthatwasinyourpl
aceeven
t
hedir
tybi
ns.
.welaughedhyst
eri
cal
ly
Me:
Youcan'
tbeser
ious
Him:Iam seeKhi t
haIam notf or
cingthi
ngs
betweenusokwhatIam t ryi
ngtodoi sprot
ect
what'smi neonl ybyi nvi
ti
ngyouher ewewi l
lbeli
ke
roomiest hatshareever ythi
ngbesidesbedrooms
ofcozyoucanl iveyourlifeIwon'tmindaslongas
youar egoingt oletmeknowaboutyourwher e
aboutsokIl oveyousomuchandyouknowt hatso
enjoyyourl unchIwi llbebat hi
ngthekidsand
feedi
ngt hem whi lstyouar egett
ingyourbeaut
y
sleeproomie..helaughedashej oggedoutwhatt he
fuckisheonaboutIwassor eadyforhimt okiss
meIwassor eadytolethi m butitbutletmenot
thinkofmyl ustImustf ixmysel fbutthatdoesn't
makehi m un-att
racti
venowIunder st
andwhyhi s
exeswi l
lfol
lowhi m aroundiat eandsl eptforan
hourthenIwokeupandt ookashowerandwor e
myshor tmaxidr essandNdi lessli
desIf i
ndthem
cuteItookthet r
aydownst airsandIf oundNdi le
withMilanarguing
Me:
HiMil
an..
.iwal
kedpastt
hem andwentt
owash
t
hebowlIwaseati
ngon
Her
:Hi
Me:
Ndi
lewher
ear
emyki
ds?
Him:Theywentwi t
hnannyandBabKhumal ofor
groceryshoppingandever
ythingt
heyneedandall
yourthingsareatthef
ir
stoffi
cesamecorr
idor
Me:Nopr obl
em Iwentupst
air
sbutIwascur
ious
andIstoodinacornertohearwhatt
heywer
e
tal
kingabout
Mi
lan:
Soyoubr
oughtherher
eBandi
leandyou
di
dntbot
hert
ell
ingmeabouti
t
Him:I
tist
hedecisionItookthi
sMorni
ngand
besi
desthere'
snothi
ngwr ongwit
hthatanywayt
his
housebelongstoherandI
Milan:
sothatsupposetomakemeunder standt
his
wholethi
ngNdi l
enoyouwon' thaveti
meformelike
youdidandIam t el
li
ngyouthatineedyouandyou
tel
lmeabouthowt i
redyouareit
'sbeenl
ong
Him:AndwhatmustIdoMi miweneverhadi ti
nmy
housewhyt oday?
Ial
waystol
dyout hatt
hisismy
matri
monialhousesoIcan'
tjustdoasIplease
Mi
lan:
wow
CHAPTEREI
GHTY-
ONE

《WEEKSLATER》

Li
vingwithBandil
ejustbei
ngr oomi
esisexhausti
ng
butfunli
kemyr oommat ei
sbet t
ert
hany'al
lsmine
buysgrocer
ies,
fi
xesmycar ,
takecar
eofmy
ki
ds, cleanst hewhol ehouseanddoesl aundr yand
ohhegi vesmehi sblackcar dtooandIget
compl iment edandt akepi cseachandever ytimeI
gooutsuchr oommat esarelif
eyouguyssot oday
i
sFr i
dayni ghtt hegirlsandIdeci dedt ohi ttheclub
Ihadt oaskper missiont omyr oomief irstandyes
heagr eedsoyesIam f r
eetogosoIj ustf ini
shed
myf acebeatnobodycompet eswi t
hmewheni t
comest ot hatokIwor emy32i nchAgr ade
Mel uvianandwor emybl ackbumshor t,blacklace
bodysui tandSuperr edhi ghthighpenci lheelboot
s
9inchhi ghyesIam t hatbadwheni tcomest oheel
s
Itookmybl ackf urandmychannelsl i
ngbagand
myBenzcarkeysIwentdownst ai
rs
Sphe:
mamauyaphi ?<mom wherearewegoi
ngto>
sheaskedfi
xingher
selfshewaswearingal
ong
fr
ozendressandgumboot sf
acingsi
detosi
deyou
knowourbundlesofjoysandgumbootsIl
aughed
Me:Nonunumommyi sgoi
ngtoworkndizobuya
ngawevah? <Iwi
llcomebackandtakeyouok>she
wassodi sappoi
ntedshenoddedIki
ssedherjustt
o
cheerherup
Me:TshelauDaddyakuni
keyourchocol
atene<t el
l
yourfat
hertogiveyou>shenoddedandrant ohim
hewasi ntheki
tchenhecamebackandhi sjaw
wasmopi ngthefl
oorsIfi
xedmyweaveinstead
Me:
OkIam goi
ngnow
Him:Owyoul
ookumhyoul
ookbeaut
if
ul.
.hewas
checki
ngme
Me:
ThankyouIt
ry
Hi
m:Canyoupl
easedr
ivei
nmyi
8?
Me:
Whyi
sthat
?
Hi
m:itwi
llmakeyoul
ookmoreli
keabossbabe.
..
i
l
aughedashewenttotaket
hekeys
Xoxo:
omhl
emama<youlookbeaut
if
ul>It
hanked
hi
m andSi
yasai
ditt
ooIt
hankedhim ki
ds
Him:Thereyougoandpleasecomebackbef oreI
noti
cethatyouarenotar
ound..
wel aughedasIran
outbeforeSphecomesbackfrom thekit
chenI
droveinhisi
8andIgotaVVI PparkingattheCl
ubI
gotinandallat
tent
ionwasonmeIt hesepeopl
e
theywill
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Dist
urbmywalkIcatwal
kedt
otheVVIPsession
andmyfri
endswerether
ewehuggedandkissed
Koket
so:
MaBi
yel
a
Me:
Theoneandonl
y..
wel
aughedhyst
eri
cal
ly
Ti
na:
Wher
e'st
her
ingboo?
Me:
Wearest
il
lroomiesguysandhi sbeengi
ving
meacol
dshoulderwheneverIseducehim
Pear
l:
Haaahe'
sact
ingt
oughIknow.
.wel
aughed
andorder
dal
cohol
Koket
so:
OkguysIhavesomet
hingt
otel
lyou
Me:YooKatdon'
tlett
hisal
coholmakeyouhor
nyI
knowyouareabouttotal
ksomecrapnow..
we
l
aughed
Kat:
Nobabesi
timportantIalwayswant
edt
otel
l
y'
al
laboutmyfr
iendshipwithMilan
Me:
Okar
eyouf
ri
endswi
thher
?
Kat:
oldf r
iendssoshecamebackt othecountryfor
Nathisfuner aleversincethenshe'
shereherandI
werehighschoolf r
iendssoshevisi
tmesomet imes
Ij
ustwant edtogi vey'al
lsheadupsanddon'tcall
meahypocr i
tewhenyouseemewi thherIj
ust
Can'tdismi ssherevent houghsheboresme
somet i
mes
Me:Youdon'thavetof
ightherovermebabesIam
oldIunder
standeit
herwayIam happyyouletme
knowaboutitIwasgoingtoseeyouasat r
ait
orf
or
sure
Pearl:
andgir
lshehastoknowt hatyoudon'
tli
keher
str
ingingal
ongpeopl
ei snotsoonguysithurt
sso
shemustknowherpl acebefor
eshecant r
yto
befri
endus
Ti
na:
Pearlyi
mangamat yechoza<stopf
ight
ing>we
l
aughedPearldoesn'
tbeatar
oundthebush
Me:That'
str
uet
houghbutguysl
et'
sfor
geti
tand
getdrunk
Ti
na:
GuysI'
vegotapr
obl
em LuuandIbeendist
ant
wear
ealwaysbusywi
thwor
kandsleepinthe
middl
eofthenightandoursexl
ifeisbori
ngandI
j
ustcan'
twiththatImeanhe'
sallaboutsati
fyi
ng
hi
mselfnotusItri
edcommunicati
ngwi t
hhim but
hesaysIam beingdramat
ic
Me:ukhonauNomncedi
sichoza<t
her
e'sa
hel
per>welaughed
Kat
:Ihatet
oagreewit
hyouImeani ftherewasn'
t
hewasgoingtobebotheredaboutyounotbeing
sat
isfi
edandbesi
desthatyourqual
itytimeiswhat
matter
s
Pearl
:Buti
t'
snotalwaysaboutt
hatdon'
tgetme
wrongIam notsaying
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Pearl
:Iam notsayi
nghe'snotcheati
ngbutyou
needtotal
kt ohim makehim under
standhowyou
feel
Me:Andthat
'showthesemanarewehavet o
al
wayscompl ai
naboutcommunicat
ionbadi
ngaa
backofagunknockinthei
remptyheads
Kat
:Gi
ntsakazi
..
wel
aughed
Me:
Iti
str
uet
houghhawu,
anywaywhatt
imei
sit
?
Pear
l:
Never
!!
!
Me:
What
?!
Ti
na:
Youj
ustgoti
nit
sonl
ybeen2hour
sdon'
ttel
l
meyouwantt
ogo
Me:I
tsbeenl
ongguysIpr
omi
sedt
ohi
mtocome
backear
li
erbut
..
.
Kat:
weeeh.
.shesai
dshaki
ngherheadIgavet
hem
puppyeyes
Ti
na:Ukwenzat
em-
tem sozuve<he'
smaki
ngyou
weaknever>
Me:
ButIs.
.
Kat
:EishIt
hinkwehavet
ocal
litani
ghtyazi
iam
wetlennawait
si
Pear
l:
YouguyscangoTi
naandIAr
eni
ghtr
ider
s
Ti
na:
Ohpl
easel
et'
sgof
ri
end
Pear
l:
wowokIwi
llf
indagr
oupofot
herf
emal
es
andj
oint
hem si
ncemyf
ri
endschoosedi
ckover
ourt
ime
Me:
Emot
ionalbl
ackmai
l.
..
myphoner
angandi
twas
Ndi
le
Me:
Heyr
oomi
e
Hi
m: Hayingekemf
ethuKul
atemanj
e<nowaybr
o
i
t'
slatenow>
Me:Iam onmywayyooar oommateli
keyouisa
bor
eapar typooper
..
hel
aughedbef
orehangi
ngup
Tina:Let
sgohomeandwenaPhi
lanineedshi
sred
velvet
Pearl:
Theoneheeat
sdayindayoutIwashappy
thatIwasgoingt
ospendt
hewholenighther
ewit
h
y'al
lIam t
ir
edofpar
ti
ngmylegsever
ydayyoo
Me:
sbwl
..
theyl
aughed
Kat
;Iam usedt
oitnnashei
m
Me:NoIam goingtorapet
hatBiyel
asontodayIgot
nochoicebendif
unaumnxil
elaandbebrave<I
wantedtogetdrunkf
orhim>welaughed
Ti
na:
That
'si
ll
egalbr
o
Me:
Idon'
tcar
e
Ti
na:
Pear
lar
eyoul
eavi
ngchoza?
Pear
l:
Youguysar
esel
lout
s
Tina:
NoIam notleavi
ngmanbesidesmyhusband
gotperi
odpains.
.welaughedhyst
eri
cal
lyont
hat
sarcasm shi
tTi
na
Me:Iheardenough..
wehuggedasIwenttotakea
ri
skofdr unkdr
ivi
ngIgoti
nmyhouseafter40minI
wasn'tspeedi
ngwhenIgotinNdil
ewaswat chi
ngtv
atthelaunge
Hi
m:OHyouback?
hecamet
ohugme
Me:
yeahr
oomza
Hi
m:Doyouwantt
ojoi
nmymovi
eti
me?
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Me:
letmegoandandt
akeashowerf
ir
st
Hi
m:Okdon'
tbl
ackoutke.
..
ilaughedasIwal
ked
awayItookashowerandworehist
-shi
rtwit
h
not
hingunder
neathIwor
ehissli
destoothenIhead
downstai
rs
Hi
m:Ohshe'
sbackandyoul
ikewear
ingmyt
hings
wena
Me:
Ithoughtweshar
edever
ythi
ng
Him:Heeeelet'
sgosi
tdown..
wewenttowatcha
r
omant i
chor r
ormovi
etherewer
ecushi
onsonthe
f
loorandtherewerepopcor
nsandchampagne
hehel pedmesi tandsheal sosatdownnexttome
hef i
ll
edtheglasseswi t
hshampopoandwe
watchedt hemovi eihadmyheadr estedinhi
s
broadchestandhi sarm wascover ingmybackand
ohIwasi nbet
weenhi sthi
ghsIwasn' teven
watchingt hemovieiwast hinki
ngofhowiam
goingt orapethi
shumanbei ng
Hi
m:ar
eyouoknanami
?
Me:Yeahsure.
.isaidfaci
nghi
m ourfaceswere
cl
osetooneanot herwewerebreathi
ngthesame
ai
rhesmiledandl ookedawayeehnottodayChar
li
e
Ibr
oughthisfaceinthesamedirecti
onandI
qui
cklykissedhim hungr
il
ysoherespondedbot
h
myhandswer eonhisbackoft
heneckmyasswas
onhislapam sur ehefel
tmycoochieasIwasn'
t
weari
nganyt hingandhewaswearingonlyhi
sshor
t
panthegothi shandinmyassandbr ushedi
t
Him: Shi
t!!Iam surehewassearchi
ngformyundie
Itravell
edmyhandst ohi
smanhoodandgotmy
handsi nitheslightl
ygr
oanedasheplacedme
downandgothi sheadi
nbetweenmythighsandate
mehesuckedandmassagedmycoochi ewithhi
s
taungeIcameandhecl eanedme
Him:Iam sorryweshouldn'thaved..
iundressed
hi
mt i
llhi
spantwasonhi sanklesIfli
ppedhim over
andshi thewassobi ghayiboisthi
sat r
eethat
growseachandever ymont hIgaspedhechuckl ed
andt henIgavehim headIsuckedhim careful
lyI
don'twanttochokemysel fphelaandwhenhewas
aboutt ocum Ist
opped
Me:
Iam sor
..
Hi
m:Youar
eoutofyourmindhegr
abbedmeand
f
li
ppedmeoverandhepenet
rat
edme
Me:Ba.
.ouch.
..
Hecoul
dn'
tjustent
ermesohe
pusheditbi
tbybi
t
BONUSI
NSERT
.
.
Me:
Begent
lepl
ease
Hi
m:Iam atmyhi
ghestbabydon'
texagger
ate
Me: Butahhh. .
damnt hismanhepushedt hewhole
ofitIcoul dfeeliti
nmychestokam l yi
ngbuthe
wassobi ghet hent hrustedi nandIwasal so
movi ngmeet inghim hal fwayunt i
lhedecidedtoup
thepacedr i
vingmecr azyt hemoanswer esoloud
afterour15mi nroundIwasshi veringandboymy
abdomenwasi npainitwasl ikeIam havi ngmy
periodpai nsfuckBandi l
eaf terr esti
ngforabout8
minut esIwast hi
nkingofst andi ngupandl eavehe
gotont opofmeandst artedki ssingmeand
brushingmyt highsheopenedt hem hewasso
heavyf ormesoIwasn' tgoi ngt oevenbat t
lehim he
thenent eredmeandpoundedi nsi deofmewe
madel oveandchangedposi ti
onsal otandhecame
i
nsi deofmel uckil
yIwasi ncont rapti
vesher est
ed
ontopofmeandsl owlypull
edoutbestfeeli
ngever
thenhelookedatmeBandi l
ehasashysi deokthen
hethencarri
edmet othebedroom af
terhetucked
mei nbedkissedmyforeheadandswitchedoffthe
l
ightsIguesshewenttohisbedroom Iam sotir
edI
thi
nkIwast heonerapedhere
CHAPTEREI
GHTY-
TWO

Iwokeupexhaust edashellmybodyi sjustl

ame
andmycoochi eisbreathi
ngfi
rewhyt hehelldi
di
agreeonthatItookalongbathjusttosoakupmy
wholebodyafterthatIworemytrackpantanda
cropi
eandmysocksIwentdownst air
sIwasso
shyguysyoowhenIgotdownst air
sNdi lewason
thephonehesmi ll
edwhenhesawmeGodt akeme
nowIsmi l
ledbackiquickl
yrushedtot hekit
chen
andpreparedfood
Me:
Xoxo!
!
Xoxo:
Mamandi
lambi
lemna<Iam hungr
y>
Si
ya&Sphe:
Nami
<ust
oo>
Me:Yooooandikatshonobandi kubizel anihayi
nohlul
e<Ididn'
tevensaywhyIcal ledyounoyou
areover>Imadeoat sandbabypor ridgef or
LubenathiandAhlume,theneggs,toast ed
bread,
bacon,vi
enaandavocadoIam l azyIdon't
haveti
mef orfancyshitImadet het abl eandserved
mysquadIputLumei nherwal kingr ingandLube
asIfedthem Ihadtochaset hem
Ndi
le:
Heyr
oomi
e..
hesai
dki
ssi
ngmycheek
Me:
Heyr
omza
Ndi
le:
Howdi
dyousl
eep?
hel
aughedaf
tert
hat
Me:
Likeababyandyou
Ndil
e:Iwouldappr
eci
ateeyecont
actyouknow?I
sl
eptwelltoo.
.hel
aughedatmysuddenshyness
Me:
Iwonderwhat
'sf
unny
Hi
m:Goandl
ookatt
hemi
rr
orNi
ghtRi
der
Xoxo:
tat
ayi
ntonNi
ghtRi
der
?<dadwhati
s>
Ndil
e:Yi
zint
ozasebusukuezi
lumaabant
wana<I
ts
eveni
ngthingst
hatscarebabies>
Xoxo:
Yooo.
.iam sur
ehewasscar
edsmhki
ds

TI
NA

Igotinmyhouseat4am drunkashel
lnowIam
payi
ngforitt
hroughheadacheIwasl
yingi
nthe
ki
tchencount
er
Luu:
That
'swhatyougetwhenyouar
eatt
hewhol
e
ni
ght
Me:Myheadi
sheavyst
opmaki
ngnoisegeez.
.i
st
oodupandwenttosi
tint
hel
aungeandswitched
of
ftv
Luu:
Iam st
il
lwat
chi
ngmoss
Me:
Itwasl
oudLuu..
isai
dbal
anci
ngmyheadwi
th
myhandsourbabyLi
sa(
6monthsol
d)cr
ied
Me:Luut
hebabyi scryi
ngandshe'sgoingtowake
Kungawo(3year
s)pleasegoandat t
endherhe
l
ookedatmebef orej
oggingupstai
rshi
sphone
beepedt
wiceandIcheckedwhowasi tandi twas
amessagefrom agirli
treads*
donotforgetabout
ourdat
e*
CONTI
NUATI
ON1

Ifel
tmywhol ebodyf ail
ingmeandmyhear t
beati
ngfastershitLukhanyohasbeenfucking
aroundwellIwentt hr
oughthewholeconversati
on
hereall
ydoesn'tknowmeAndohboyi t
'sbeena
yearawholeyearIgotmadIneedt othi
nkIplaced
hisphonedownhecameback
Me:
Yourphonehasbeenmaki
ngnoi
se
Hi
m:Ohisit
?Ngubani
?<who'
sit
>Icoul
dseet
he
di
scomf
ortinhi
seyes
Me:Idon'
tknow.
.hecheckedhi
sphoneandsmi
ll
ed
andquickl
ybacktonormal
Hi
m:I
tsPhi
lanihewant
sust
omeetatt
hehot
el
Me:ohoknoproblem am aboutt
ocookat
eyou
goi
ngtowaitupformyf ood?
Hi
m:Whyi
tseemsl
ikeyouar
efi
ght
ingMaNgcol
osi
?
Me:
Youhar
dlyeatnj
esoIdon'
twantt
owast
emy
ener
gy
Hi
m:NoyoucancookIwi
llbei
nthebal
conysol
ong
Me:Ohok. .
hej oggedupstai
rsandwho' shef ooli
ng
Icookedhisf avourit
emeal andaftert
hatIcrushed
heavysleepingpi l
lsandpoureditinhi
sjuiceand
plat
eItookhi strayupstai
rsIdon'twanttostruggl
e
putt
inghimi nbed
Me:
Zikodet
hef
oodi
sready
Him:ThankyouMaMcirha.
..
hetooktheplat
eandI
walkedoutIwentdownstai
rstofeedLi
saand
Kungawowaseat i
ngandIdruggedthem tosleep
andwhenIwentt oputt
hem tobedthei
rfatherwas
snorri
ngontopofourbed
Me:Ndingubani?<whoIam>Iqui cklyt
ookashower
andtookhi sphoneIknowhispasswor dandhe
doesn'tknowitthatIcanunl
ockhi sphoneIt
ook
hiscarkeysandwentt othehotelwhenIgottot
he
room Theladywaswear ingl
ingeri
e
Me:
Owheycakes.
.il
aughed
Her
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Me:
Youthoughtmyhusbandwi
llbeher
etof
uck
wi
thyouhuh?
Her:
Argyouar esuchanimmatur
e..
shetookher
bagandhesitatet
ogoIpull
edherbyhisweave
andpanelbeatedhersobadshewascrying
Me:Idar
eyout
ocomecl
osert
omyhusbandagai
nI
dar
eyou!!
Her:
What ?
!youar
esuchalowlif
eyoudon'tvalue
yoursel
fhowcanyoubeatagir
loveraman? he'
s
theonewhocamet omenottheotherwayround
Me:Andwhatdoest
hatmakeyouawomanof
st
andard?
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

Me:Iaskedyouaquest i
on!!Youguyshavet he
att
endancyofsl eepi
ngwi thpeople'shusband'
sand
actvicti
msf uckfemini
stsquadf orthatmatteryou
don'tvalueyoursel
ftoosleepingwi t
hsomeone
who's'only'
ledbylusttoyouandi fitwasnotabout
sexonlywher ewouldyouandhi m benow? Ihope
youwoul dbeinar el
ati
onshipandacommi t
edone
becauseyouguysbeenf ucki
ngf orawhol e
year,
youkeptonaskinghi m aboutwhatwer eyout o
him,t
here'
sonethingwomenl i
keyoudonot
underst
andit'st
hatnomat t
erhowwet ryto
toughenupandshownoemot i
onfakeoursel ves
becausewewantt obel i
kemenandf uckaround
withnostri
ngsattachedthingiebutit
'sso
i
mpossi bl
ebecausewomencat chfeeli
ngsoncewe
getagooddi ckwegetaddi ctedandst ar
tbeing
jeal
ousmaybeyouwer ealsopl ani
ngsomet hing
badformeaswel l
Her
:Owpl
easemanl
eashyourdog
Me:Iwil
lbeatyouupsisIwil
lshootyourassandI
won'tspendmytimeexplai
ningmyselft
oyou
becauseonedayyouwi l
lgetmarri
edand
underst
andhowif eel
Her
:Notal
lofuswantmar
ri
age
Me:Onlybecauseyouhaveseenf ail
ed
marri
ages,onl
ybecauseyoubel
ieveinthenew
gener
ationthatl
ookdownonmar riedwomanand
onlybecauseyouhaven' tfoundsomeonewho
l
ovesyouwhol ehear tedlysogi rlnevereverjudge
whatyoudon' tunder standnowt akeyourassoutof
thishotelIam sureyoucan' tevenaf fordthe
champagneyouhaveor derdfuckof f
!!
!!sheranout
cryingIsatdownandexhal edIopenedabot tl
eof
champagneandgul peditdowncool i
ngmysel fI
don'tcareifshetellsLukhanyoIwi llcrossthat
bridgewhenIgett oitafterthatIpl ayedt hebi
ll
thendrovebackt omyhouseLuuhasn' tmovedabit
Ichangedmycl othesandwor emypyj amasand
sleptnexttomymanasi fnothinghappened
CONTI
NUATI
ON3

Mor ni
ngcameIwokeupandwentt otakeashower
andcamebackwear i
ngj ustadressandsleeper
s
Luuwasawakeandhi seyeswer ewandering
aroundthehouseIsmil
ledsheim Iwonderwhatis
hethinki
ng
Me:
Yint
onibaby?
<whati
sit
>
Hi
m:Whatt
imei
sitMaNgcol
osi
?
Me:
It
sjustpast8i
nthemor
ningwhy?
Hi
m:What
?!Ihadt
obeat
..
Shi
tshi
tshi
t!
!!
..
heyel
d
Me:What?
Itri
edcall
ingPhil
aniIwantedtotel
lhi
m
whyyoudidn'
tshowupbutl ucki
lyhehasbeeni n
I
tal
ywithPearl
..
icouldseethediscomfor
tinhim
Hi
m:Ohyeahokt
henl
etmegoandt
akeashower

Luu

It
ookashoweraf t
erthatIwor
emyjeanandjusta
pl
aint-
shi
rtandsneaker
sItookmycarkeysand
wentdownstai
rsMywi fewasbusywit
hthekids
Me:
BabyIj
ustgotacal
lfr
om mycl
ientihavet
ogo
Her:Nopr obl
em Zikode.
.ikissedherandqui ckl
y
wentoutIdr oveintomyBenzf astestcari
nmy
garageIwentst r
aighttoOliviasfl
atiknockedshe
didn'
treplyandIdecidedt oletmysel fi
nIhadkeys
toherflatwhenIgoti nshewasi nthemi r
ror
nursingherwounds
Me:
Heycakes.
.shet
urnedt
omescar
ed
Her
:Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Me:
isn'
tobvi
ous?okwhodi
dthi
stoyou?
Her
:GoLuugoIdon'
twantyourwi
fepanelbeat
ing
meagai
n
Me:
Whatdi
dyouj
ustsay?
!Iwasshocked
Her :
Shecameatt hehot elwewer ebookedi nand
thenshi twentdownl ookatmeLuuj ustt
akeal ook
atmeIdon' twanttodieatanear l
yagesopl ease
goIdon' twantt oeverseeyoui nmywhol eent i
re
l
ife..
sheshout edatmeIdeci dedt ogoyoooTi nai s
asnakehowdi dshef i
ndout ?sosheusedt heheavy
sleepingpil
lsonme? yest hatexplainswhyIsl ept
foralongt i
memnkIdr ovet oBandi le'
splace
becauseIwasn' tr
eadyt of aceherIdr oveinandt he
kidswer eplayingoutsidebabyLubecanwal know
theyal lr
ant omeasIhuggedt hem andbaby
Ahlumewasi nherwalkingr ingIkissedherand
wentt oknockBandzwel comedme
Hi
m:Youdon'
tlookhappysupboy?
Me:
Heeebr
oabeerwi
llbef
ineIgotbi
ggeri
ssues.
.
CHAPTEREI
GHTY-
THREE

Hewenttotheki
tchenandcamebackwi
tht
wo
cast
lel
it
esandtossedtheot
heronet
omewedrank
Khit
hacamedownl ooki
ngfl
ames
Her
:Heyboys.
.wehugged
Me:
Heymommyyoul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Her:
Youknowme.
.shesai
dthati
mit
ati
ngCar
d-b
voi
ce
Her:
RoomzaIam goi
ngtowashmyweavespr
oll
y
fi
xmynail
sandpassbytherest
aur
anti
nMelr
ose
doyouwantsomethi
ng?
Hi
m:NoIj
ustwantyouback
Me:
Am Imi
ssi
ngsomet
hing?
Her
:Okay.
.sher
anoutandqui
ckl
ycameback
Hi
m:Di
dyouf
orgetsomet
hing?
Her
:Thewhol
esquadi
sout
sidehowam Igoi
ngt
o
dri
veout? Canyoupleasedi
stractthem?wewent
outtoplaywi t
hthekidsunt
ilKhithadroveoutwe
wentinsidethehouseandcont i
nuedwi thour
dri
nks
Me:
areyouguysbackt
oget
her
?
Hi
m:Notr
eal
ly
Me:
Howdoyoumean?
Him:It
rygett
ingthepict
ureofherandthatloserout
ofmymi ndbutIcan'tbroandIam soti
redof
sheddi
ngbloodli
keit'snot
hingIdon'
tknowwhatt o
dobutIloveherIwil
lwaitforhert
obet heone
makingamove
Me:MakessenseNtshangaseI
'
vegotaprobl
em
si
nceyouaretheonewhoknowseverytr
icki
n
cheat
ersbooksIt
hinkyoucanhel
pme
Hi
m:What
?!hel
aughedhi
sassout
Me:Youknowit'
str
uebr
o,Phi
lanii
stheonl
yloyal
ni
ggahereSbuandIAreimmat ur
eandwe
mboza..
welaughed
Hi
m:OkIwi
llgetyouf
ort
his
Me:
Mfet
huTi
naknowsaboutOl
ivi
a
Hi
m:What
?!
Me: Yesyest
erdayOliviaandIsupposedt ospent
thenightinahotelbutmywi fecookedmyfavouri
te
mealandat eunknowi ngl
yt hatithassl
eepi
ng
pil
ls..
Bandswasi ntearslaughingandbegging
tables
Hi
m:Soyousl
eptt
hewhol
eni
ght
?
Me:
Yes.
.thatsenthi
m away
Hi
m:Tinaf
orpr
esi
dencynoforvi
ceweal
lknow
whothePr
esi
denti
sconti
nue
Me:Shewenttothehot
elinsteadandbeatthehell
outofOli
viashehasbr
uiseswoundsalloverher
bodyandmywi fewasactingallni
ceasifshedidn'
t
doanythi
ng
Him:Tal
kingaboutbi
ggunsIhavebeentel
li
ngyou
tostopf
uckingaroundil
ear
ntmylessonwhen
khi
thapulledamovieonme
CONTI
NUATI
ON1
Me:
Iwonderwhatmovi
ewi
llIget
?
Him:
Heemi naIgotanAct
ionmovi
e..
.wel
aughed
hyst
eri
cal
ly
Me:
Yoohowam Igoingtoli
vewiththi
sandIswear
t
otel
liam notgoi
ngtoaskheraboutl
astni
ght
Him:Ican'tadvi
ceyouNj
akaZi
kodebutpr
ayshe
doesn'tseekhelpt
omywifeorel
se.
.
Me:Li
onsparkforOl
ivi
a..
wel
ookedateachot
her
andwelaughedagai
n
Hi
m:Youbett
erlaughatthi
snowNj ayam ot
her
wise
whenyougettoyourhouseheekuzonyiwa
Me:St
opt
hreati
ngmenaweam alr
eadyinshi
tI
wantt
obetipsyaswel
lsoIcanf
acethatwoman
Hi
m:Xhosawomenar
enott
heonest
omesswi
th
br
oaskmeIknow
Me:
Andiam Xhosat
ooIshoul
d'veknownbet
ter

TI
NA
Iwasbusycl
eani
ngmyhousewhenIhear
daknock
Iwentt
oopenitwasKhi
thaal
ongwi
thKoket
so
Me:
Higi
rl
s..
wehuggedandki
ssed
Khi
tha:
Spr
ingcl
eani
ngonaSunday?
Kat
:Amazeme
Me:
Ohpl
easeyouknowil
oveat
idypl
ace
Khitha:
Dissmeagain..
wel aughedKhi thaislazy
especiall
ywhenitcomestot idyi
ngt hehouseal l
shedoesi swashthedishesnopt heroomst hey
onlyuseandthat'
sitl
uckil
yt hatherhusbandi sa
neatfreakhedoesn'
tmindcl eaningthewhol e
houseandhe'salsogoodi ncooki ngtooluckyl azy
ass
Me:YouhavetochangebabesBandzi
sgoi
ngt
oget
t
ir
edt oooneday
Khi
tha:
IknowIknowbutIdot
ryt
hough
Kat
:Yougett
ir
edbyonl
ywashi
ngf
ourpl
atesi
sthat
atr
y?
Me:
Andonecup.
.wel
augh
Khi
tha:
okl
etmegot
henIcan'
tbeyourj
oke
Me:
wel
yingf
ri
endwenayouar
eaneatf
reak
Khi
tha:
Sodi
dmypl
anwor
kchoza?
Me:
YesMoGur
l
Khitha:
Ndandi
tshi
loesam i
skolosi
yapaselwa<I
saidsomyschoolgotgeniuses>welaughedather
stat
ement
Kat
:Ial
wayswant
edtoenrol
lnowt
hatIseer
esul
ts
noIwil
lpayr
egi
str
ati
onfees
Khitha:
Yeswenagirlcomet omeIwi llt
eachyou
howt okeeptheseniggasinplacethenmove
numbert woprepar
ear omanticdinneratthe
balconywearyoursexylinger
ieandmakehi m
confesshissi
nsandpl easedon'tl
ethim eatt
he
cakeokmakehi m sweatke
CONTI
NUATI
ON2

KHI
THA
Idr ovetomyhouseandi twasal readyeveningI
boughtt akeawaysf ormyf amil
ybecausemynai l
s
arest i
llunstableigotinmyyar d,drovetothe
gar ageandt ookmyshoppi ngbagsoutandwenti n
thehousewasqui ettheki dswer ebusywi t
ht hei
r
booksNdi leisbusyt eachingthem wowwhata
fatherAhl umei sasleepandLubewasbusy
disturbingthem mor eespeci all
yuSi yahehar dl
y
talkssohewascl oset ocryingwhenIgoti n
Me:Lubenathi
..
theyallt
urnedt
omeandheranand
al
mostt r
ippedIputthebagsdownandpi
ckedhi
m
Me:whydoyoualwaysnagSi
yabongawena
huh?webabyt
alkedwit
hmybaby
Ndi
le:
Khit
haandSi
yagot
otheki
tchenyouar
e
di
stur
bingus
Me:
Yoo..
itookmybagsandwewentt
otheki
tchen
hef
oll
owedmei nafew
Ndi
le:
Whatar
eweeat
ingt
oday?
Me:
Iboughtr
ibs,
sal
adandchi
ps
Ndi
le:
Oh.
..
hesoundeddi
sappoi
nted
Me:
Whyohme?
Ndile:
Not hi
ngMamaboIwi llcookpapandbeef
stew..ifel
tguil
tyBandi
lehasbeent hewif
eever
sinceImeanIknowIcancookbutihavebeenl azy
forthepastf ewweekswhatt hegi r
lssai
daboutme
reall
ywentt omyhear tIhavetogetusedi n
cleaningmyhouseandst opletti
nghim doit
'
somet i
mes'
Me:Noit
'sokIwi
llcookyoucangobackt
ocl
ass
Teacher
Hi
m:Ohpl
ease
Me:Iam seriousIwillcookforyouandIam sor
ry
forabusingyourkindnessIknowIhavebeenact i
ng
l
ikeabr atbutIwasn'tawarenowt hatpeopl
efr
om
outsi
dehaveseenmyl azi
nesscutsdeepbabyI
meanNdi l
eihatecleaningbutIwil
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