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Interviews with Westerners (7-10)
Interviews with Westerners (7-10)
Bill Aitken
Mussoorie
December 1980
But Bill, what did you intend doing with your life? Did
you just fall into this thing of looking for a guru?
But you were told to stay for a few days. How long did
you stay?
But you stayed all those years. How did you maintain
yourself?
Bill, you have been here twenty years, how did you
adapt?
8. Brahmacharini Atmananda
Anandamayi Ma Ashram
Rajpur
December 1980
Yes, I know. But only what you wish to talk about will
be published. You know, our backgrounds are rather
similar: I was also born a Jew of Austrian-Polish
parents, and like you I became a musician. Can you tell
me how you started your musical training?
With all the literary work you have been doing, does it
not keep you away from Mataji?
I am now too old to travel with her all the time. It was
different in the beginning — I was with her very much,
at times going to small villages where they had never
even heard of a bathroom. I often had to sleep in a
storeroom — on the floor — having arrived in the
middle of the night. All that was good; you see,
everything depends on your attitude. Yes, there may be
Ashram hells, but there are two sides to everything. If
you wish to be with such a being like Mataji, you have
to be prepared to go through ups and downs. I have seen
Rajas and Ranis putting up with conditions they hadn’t
met before. It’s hard, but look at how many Ranis come
of their own accord to the Samyam Saptah!
Yes. The one that has just ended is the 32nd. They
started in 1952. You see, Mataji is extremely particular
about one thing: Without self-restraint nothing can be
achieved. Mataji firmly maintains if we live soft,
indulgent lives, nothing can be achieved. She tells
everybody there must be self-discipline. She says that
worldly pleasures lead to spiritual death. But knowing
that most people live like this these days, she started
advising them to keep one day a week or at least one
day a month to observe strict rules: eat only one meal,
don’t smoke, drink or talk unnecessarily, don’t visit
anyone but stay at home reading scriptures and
meditating.
9. Jamie Smith
Kirpal Ashram
Delhi
December 1980
Jamie spoke much about seva, and I can see you are
very much into that as I have been waiting five days to
snatch one hour of your time. Can you describe your
day to day life in the Ashram?
It has been our good fortune to serve the Master in a
personal capacity for the past five years or so. I have
learned that to live and serve in an Ashram means one
has to completely forget about one’s own self. One’s
personal needs become secondary. It is an experience in
living for others. Part of the day is your own, but —
there can never be fixed times — most of it is taken up
in helping the many Western devotees who come here
for short visits. Physically it is sometimes difficult;
inwardly there’s joy and gratitude for being allowed to
serve others. Sant Kirpal Singh used to say: Do you lose
anything when you give? — No! — On the contrary,
the heart becomes larger as the self expands to embrace
all. The important part is to lose oneself in the Master
and see that he is the doer: it’s he who is serving, not
oneself.
In those early days did you ever see yourself living and
serving the guru so closely?