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Interviews with Westerners (16-22)
Interviews with Westerners (16-22)
Interviews with Westerners (16-22)
Giorgio Bonazzoli
Banaras
January 1981
Interview 16
Well, the first thing I ought to tell you is that in spite of
my Hindu pandit clothes, I am a priest — a Catholic
priest. But everyone just calls me Giorgio…I suppose
it’s easier for them.
But are you really Italian? Where were you born?
Ah, yes…in Cremona in 1934.
The city of Stradivarius?
Exactly. I received my religious training there in the
seminario when I was 11, then in a missionary society
in Milan. When I became a priest I was appointed to
teach Greek. After two years — having paid my taxes,
so to speak — I thought I would be sent abroad to work
in a mission. But — no! — I was sent for further study
to the Catholic University of Milan — not far! Well, I
thought: My life is lost…I don’t want to study, I want to
go abroad. Anyway, amongst the studies I found there
was Sanskrit, so I got myself interested in it thinking
this would take me to India. I was fascinated with this
language, but I was sent — to polish up my German —
to Austria! I thought: If I have to come here for
German, why shouldn’t I go to India for Sanskrit?
No one from our institute had ever gone abroad except
for missionary work, so my superior had to carefully
consider my request. After a week, he agreed, but with
this warning: Don’t go to Banaras; it’s not a place for
Catholic priests. He had been in India forty years, but I
never knew what he had against Banaras.
Anyway, in November 1964 I arrived in Delhi — and
now it is important — as soon as I put foot in India I
felt I had come home. Whatever I saw was already
known. I wrote in my diary: I don’t know anyone here,
but if they told me I am in a remote place in southern
Italy — a place I had never seen — yet I would know it
as my own country. At the first moment I was writing
so.
I went straight to Allahabad, and within days I was
telling my colleagues: Why don’t you speak the
language of the people? — why don’t you eat what they
eat? — why don’t you dress as they dress? — why
don’t you bathe in the Ganges? Nobody understood me,
and I remained upset for months until I met Raimon
Panikkar, the author of many books on the dialogue
between Hinduism and Christianity. I explained my
feelings to him. He was also a Christian, but he opened
my eyes: I could see I could remain what I had been
brought up to be, but could also open myself up
to Hinduism.
After one month in Allahabad I came to Banaras. As I
saw there were Capucines and Jesuits living unafraid, I
decided I could also stay. I was introduced to a
professor at the university, and so improved
my Sanskrit. This went on for two years. Then I had to
return to Italy, but with the idea that I would certainly
come back. Permission was granted, so back I came in
1968.
I came back with two ideas…maybe I should call them
problems: first, how to support myself (you see, I
wanted to be independent financially and make my own
decisions); and second: how to get a visa? For money I
began to teach Italian in Delhi at the Italian Embassy; to
get the visa, I enrolled at the University of Delhi to
study the Puranas. The Puranas are half way between
the Vedas and modern Hinduism. So by studying them I
could get a better understanding of the Vedas as well as
modern Hinduism.
After three and a half years study, I discovered there is a
center of Puranic studies in Banaras which publishes a
magazine called Purana. It is run by the Maharaja of
Banaras so I asked him if there was a place for me. He
accepted me, and since 1975 I have been assistant editor
of the magazine. We do research work on the Puranas.
So this is the external history of how I come to be here.
Can you say anything about the internal happenings?
Yes…you see, India chose me, I never chose India — I
had a strong impression from the beginning that I’d
come home. My early years were a preparation for what
happened later. At first I wanted to make a dialogue
between Western and Eastern cultures. I dropped this
after a while because I wanted to understand the Hindu
culture fully — from the inside, so to speak. I began by
observing, listening, studying, receiving as a child
would — learning, learning, learning, without surprise,
without comparing anything from my own culture and
faith.
Would you give an illustration?
All right. With the food, I ate everything without
judging it too hot or too sweet. With dress, I adopted
this style as a pandit, and as a pandit this allows me to
enter the temples. I never tried to compare the Hindu
gods. I said: Hindus enter temples with veneration - it’s
enough to trust them. I did the same thing with
sincerity, although I didn’t quite know what to do, yet I
complied with the rituals: I offered water, flowers, I
prostrated, I adored the idols. I did all this as a sincere
religious act. Then after a time I could see this started to
weaken my own faith — I could see my Christian
prayers were less frequent. I nevertheless kept on with
the study of Hindu religious books as well as going to
the temples.
I had faith that if Christ is really God, He will make
everything clear. In an unsuspecting way He did. It
wasn’t the sort of victory in which he remained and all
the other gods were destroyed — there was no need to
destroy them. Slowly I went back to my Christian faith,
but in a broader way…there was no exclusion of the
others, rather the inclusion of them all. I saw I was
contacting God through Shiva, through Vishnu, through
the shakti of the Devi as well as through Christ. This
encouraged me to be more and more sincere in my
prayers to the Hindu gods, to understand them better. I
never see them in conflict with Christ or my Christian
faith. My faith deepened.
Did you study any form of yoga?
Not in the beginning. It is only a recent development. I
am not studying it as a sadhana with a guru, more from
books. As I don’t have a guru I try to understand —
perhaps from an intellectual point of view — the many
ways. I am in no hurry, so I’m not looking for
a sadhana, one which will change my life completely.
When I look at my Hindu neighbours, they don’t dash
about looking for gurus: this all comes at the right time,
no? So I’m taking the same attitude. It will develop
naturally.
You are happy going on this way?
Of course. No one is compelling me to do anything. I
live here because I love it. I have no problems with
visas as I work for the Maharaja…he sends a formal
letter to the Government office when necessary.
Most of your time must be taken up with your literary
work and studies, but have you travelled much in
India?
No. I prefer to stay in one place and go deep. I also
have little money and little time. Recently I wanted to
go south to see Father Bede Griffiths — I have never
met him; but I couldn’t go. Have you heard about him?
I wrote asking if I could Interview him for this book, but
the letter was returned: I didn’t have the right address.
Oh, do go...I shall give you the address!
That will help me very much. Now as I understand it,
you are employed by the Maharaja — how does this
affect your relationship with the Church authorities?
Hmm! When I first came to India to do this special
work, no one else had done this before. Now, of course
others are also studying in this field. At first there were
sometimes tensions with the authorities, but I never
disobeyed. They just wanted me to keep them informed
of what I was doing. Now they actually ask me to write
articles on the subject. It’s too early for me to do this.
All the years I was in Delhi I was only in contact with
my superior, not with the local authorities. I kept aloof,
but there was no break. These days I write now and
then. In Banaras I know the Bishop, but there’s no other
contact.
I take it that you are accepted by the local Hindus.
Yes, yes.
Living in this sacred city, do you ever feel the need to
keep up with what is going on in the world outside?
I am not cut off. I take myself as if I have been born
here, so I live naturally like my neighbours. I don’t see
myself in two worlds, so as I am in this one, I am more
interested in what goes on around me here.
Was there any time when you couldn’t relate to the
usual difficulties of Indian life which sometimes come
hard on those of us brought up in the efficient West?
I would say I feel these things more now than at the
beginning. It sounds strange, doesn’t it?
Do you eat hot, spicy food?
I used to. For three years I ate in dark, dirty restaurants.
Now I prepare my own food — it isn’t Eastern or
Western…I don’t know what it is.
You must have seen many Westerners pass through
Banaras over the years.
For many years I kept aloof from all that — purposely I
cut off. I didn’t want to meet the Western community.
But last year I met someone who slowly introduced me
to the others. Some smoke and take drugs, but many are
serious — very serious: they are looking for something.
One French girl is doing her Ph.D. at the University on
contemporary Indian women ascetics — a very
fascinating theme. Some of the Westerners here are
studying Indian classical music, others are with gurus.
Recently a few have started coming to me to talk about
their religious feelings, and I encourage them. I find
they are starting to think about Christianity again.
Have you met anyone who has become absolutely
absorbed in a form of sadhana or the Hindu rites and
rituals?
Yes. There was a Canadian girl living nearby who for
seven years did an extremely hard sadhana — her name
was Sita. Extraordinary tapas she did: in summer she
meditated in the full sun surrounded by four fires
without taking food since the morning.
As a priest how do you accept the Hindu doctrine
of karma and reincarnation?
They can both be reconciled with Christian faith
because the doctrine of reincarnation as developed
in Hinduism, being different from that developed by
Greek philosophy, is not against the individuality of the
persons who are reborn. It is always the same atma
reborn, so there is no conflict with the Christian
doctrine that Christ saves each one of us.
The karma doctrine presupposes the cycle continues,
whereas in Christianity there is an end. There are some
conflicting points, but not serious ones. If we develop
more, understand more, we can still be Christian and
accept the doctrine of reincarnation.
You have so completely associated yourself with the
Hindu way of life, but do you ever miss Western culture
or society?
I don’t. I am at home here. Only recently I have had
some proposals to go back to Italy to teach Sanskrit and
Indology at Milan University — and, well, I’m a bit
upset because I haven’t found a decision. If I were to
follow my likings I would remain in India. But I have
some feeling also of duty towards those who have
formed me, helped me. If I agree to go, I will do it only
if I can spend six months in Europe and six months in
India…otherwise, I will remain here. I do not care to
give up my life here, you see.
Now I think you have heard enough…are you not ready
for some chai? I’m sure you are, so let us go to the chai
shop…they make good tea.
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Anil Bhai
Hospital for skin diseases, Sarnath
January 1981
Interview 17
I hope I’m not interfering with your routine.
I don’t spend my life down there, if that’s what you
mean. Anyway, I never get any visitors here, so that
will make a change.
What brought you here — can you tell me?
I have been living in the village — Chiraigaon, the
village of the birds — for two and a half years. Before
that I was in Andhra Pradesh; before that I lived in
Europe. You see, I was born in England of Catholic
parents — let me see, yes, about thirty years ago — but
there I was plain John Davis. Here they call me
Anil Bhai — Brother Anil. I spent six years in a
seminary in Birmingham, but in the end, the Bishop
was not keen to ordain me…he thought I should do
more social work.
So social work I did with some Sisters until I went to
Rome and met the Brothers of Charles de Foucauld. I
left England with the intention of visiting the Brothers
in the desert, but somehow I ended up in Sicily. Life
there with the Brothers and their principles attracted
me very much. I was finally sent to the south of Spain
for a year as a formal novitiate.
During that time I did in fact go to the Sahara Desert
where Charles de Foucauld had set up what you would
call an Ashram. I stayed six weeks. During my
novitiate I was asked by the prior where I would like to
go. I replied: Anywhere outside Europe. I was offered
India, so I accepted.
Can you describe what Charles de Foucauld stood for,
what he created?
He was born in 1856 of a French aristocratic family. He
was thrown out of the army, he left his religion, he
explored Morocco which was then closed — he went
disguised as a Jew, and his survey of Morocco is still a
standard work even though his work was hidden. What
impressed him was the faith of the Muslims: the
adoration of prayer. This brought him back to his own
religion. He then joined a silent order, and lived in
solitude and recollection. He spent three years in
Nazareth, very much the servant — he became the
door-keeper to the Sisters.
He was later ordained a priest in France, but decided to
return to the Sahara where there were no priests. He
built a hermitage in Beniabbes. Here he stayed many
years living a life of silence, although on some days he
had perhaps a hundred visitors. His idea was to
proclaim the truth not by what we say but what we do.
He had a big thing about being a brother to all men,
and so all the Brothers who follow him carry this on
irrespective of religious differences.
Was he involved in doing good work, social work?
Not really. People came to see him as a brother for
advice, for money. He never left his compound —
people came to see him. In the Sahara there are only
five towns, and there was always trouble with
terrorists. In 1916 he was killed in his hermitage; he
was alone without any Brothers. Not until 1932 did six
Brothers go to his hermitage to live the life he had
lived. Now there are fourteen different Charles de
Foucauld families of Brothers and Sisters scattered all
over the world. His basic principle was to live amongst
the poor — the poorest of the poor. Here in this village
we don’t find the poorest of the poor, but they’re pretty
poor.
But what do you actually do here?
We are at the moment three Brothers. The other two are
from Goa. Within our fraternity there’s no difference
between ordained and non-ordained Brothers. One of
the Brothers here works in the village as a carpenter;
the other is learning to be a tailor. I am in this leper
hospital, sometimes in charge — which I’m not happy
about, nor the fact that I have this big room and drive
the van. But no one is keen to work in a leper
hospital…the patients are maltreated by the doctors as
well as society. I am on the medical staff but as you
saw, I also have to fix things like broken pumps. But
doing mechanical work keeps me sane. My main work
is going to villages trying to detect early leprosy
symptoms, then going regularly to give treatment,
doing a little education, and on every second Saturday I
go to the main ghat in Benaras giving medicines and
dressings to the leprosy patients there.
How many patients do you attend to in Benaras?
80 to 100 regulars, mostly beggars. It was hard — I can
tell you — at first.
Are you given a wage by the hospital?
300 rupees monthly — about 35 dollars, I guess.
Somehow I manage.
Does your work involve teaching the Gospel?
No, not at all. Charles de Foucauld’s basic thing was:
no teaching, no preaching — we go out of our way to
avoid this. We never even accept money from the
missions…we want to avoid identification with the
Church business. In the village they all know we are
Christians; on Christmas Day lots of people come to
see us for prasad, and if anyone asks questions, we just
answer them. Our aim is to be amongst simple,
ordinary, poor people, to treat them as Jesus treated the
people of Nazareth.
Have you been influenced by Hindu forms of
meditation and prayer?
In a sense, yes; we are affected by the way they pray,
by the arati which is unknown in the West but which
we do here. We do not copy but use the form we are
more at home with. We celebrate the Hindu feasts. All
the three of us are conscious we are young beginners;
so where we are going to be in five years from now is
to be seen.
You have chosen a hard way not only living with the
poor but being poor yourself. Was it difficult to adapt
to these conditions?
There are millions living in conditions much worse
than these. In the eyes of a Westerner — yes — it’s
hard, and some people will never adapt. Some Brothers
have tried it, and it doesn’t work — they can’t take it. I
have had no problems, partly because I don’t worry
about what I eat, and if there’s nothing to eat, there’s
nothing to eat. The heat gets bad in summer, well…
Does the electricity ever work?
You can see there’s an electric wire that reaches us, and
— yes — sometimes it actually works. Last night it
came on at 10 and went off at 5 a.m. which isn’t much
good to anyone. You can’t rely on it.
Can you describe a typical day in your village?
I never have a typical day — all are different. When I
come to the hospital in the morning I never know what
is going to happen. We tend to get up at 5.30, wash, go
to chapel till 6.30 for silent adoration, then have Mass,
read the psalms and Bible. 7.30 we cook tea and roti; I
then shoot off to hospital. Yesterday I was in the city all
day long. The day before I cycled 10 kilometres to
another village for a clinic; this means I sit by the side
of the temple from 8 till 10, and all sorts of people
come. What is important for leprosy patients is regular
dressings.
All your work is done in the open?
Oh, yes. Usually with an audience. When the school
opens at 10 I get all the kids — the foreigner, you
know.
How do you sterilize your instruments?
There’s none whatsoever. I have to use spirit. I have to
work amongst the flies and the muck, and the other day
I had a dead body facing me all the time. I usually get
brought lots of cups of tea. When I leave I have lunch
with a neighbour, spend some time on my Hindi
studies, return to the hospital where there’s always
something to repair, or I might have to take a patient
into the city — I’m the only driver. If there are surgery
cases, I either bring the doctor here or take the patient
to him. In the evening back in our house, we do the
cooking, eat, talk a little, then hit the bed any time
between 8 and 11 — it all depends. There are no rules.
Once a month we have one complete day off for
recollection; I do this away from the house and hospital
— just to be alone. The house is usually full of
people… mostly village children.
Can you explain the purpose of the two Brothers
working here as a carpenter and tailor?
In India you have the sadhu, a man consecrated to God,
and usually he is supported by the community. We are
also consecrated to God, but we follow St. Paul’s
advice: Let him who does not work, let him not eat!
Charles de Foucauld was very strong on this because
he saw the missionaries sitting about being fed. For us
the key phrase is the hidden life of Jesus of Nazareth.
We are living with the poor but not supported by them.
It’s not very obvious being a carpenter or a tailor
leading a consecrated life. The clergy in Benaras
cannot understand what a priest is doing here living as
a carpenter or tailor. But this is a calling; it’s nothing
we’ve chosen.
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Russell Balfour-
Clarke
Madras
January 1981
Interview 18
Before you speak about your early life, may I ask you if
it’s true that you are 96 years old?
No! That’s not correct — I’m only 95.(1) Hmm…my
early life? Well, I am British, born in London in 1885,
June 2nd. My parents were landed gentry — squires —
owners of land and farms. My mother was a Low
Church Protestant; my father, because of his love of
music, would often visit Catholic cathedrals to listen to
the music although he was not a Catholic — he was
broad minded. I wanted to become an engineer, and I
was accepted at London University for a B.Sc. in
engineering, but after one year I had a six months’
illness with typhoid fever and another six months to
learn to walk again and recover.
One little door-mouse nurse came to look after me; she
had a magnetic power, and when I was raving with
fever she would put up her hand and say: “Now Dick,
be quiet!” — and I was like a lamb.
When I began to think and recover — and this is the
way I came to Theosophy — I said to little nurse:
Is there nothing more to be known about God and man
than what we learn from the parson?
She gave a strange answer: There is infinitely more to
be known.
I said: Where is it? It’s not taught in the Bible.
She replied: It’s mentioned in the Bible — Jesus said,
‘Unto the multitudes I speak in parables, but unto my
own I speak of the mysteries of the Kingdom of
Heaven’ — that is the further knowledge.
Then she told me about the Theosophical Society in
London where I could meet people who had found that
wisdom. When I had recovered, I found the Society and
went there.
How old were you then?
About 19 or 20 — it was in 1904. There I met Mr.
Bertram Keightley who helped Madame Blavatsky
publish her book, Isis Unveiled — her first remarkable
book which made the world sit up prior to founding the
T.S. He handed me a form to fill in; there I read the
Society’s three aims:
1) To form a nucleus of the Universal Brotherhood of
Humanity without distinction of race, creed,
sex, caste or colour.
2) To encourage the study of Comparative Religion,
Philosophy and Science.
3) To investigate unexplained laws of Nature and the
powers latent in man.
I was in sympathy with these aims and paid the fee.
Later I was sent for and met Col. Olcott, the co-founder
of T.S., who handed me my diploma of membership,
shook my hand and wished me well. He had a powerful
magnetic personality. I then made friends with a
staunch Theosophist, Mr. A.P. Sinnett who claimed to
have had contact with the Master Kuthumi — he has
written about it in a book called, The Occult World. Due
to his influence, I wanted to become a Buddhist monk
and give up Christianity, but he advised me to follow
my career for a while. I was still studying T.S. books
but took an apprenticeship on the railways in London
which led to an appointment as assistant engineer of
construction in Nairobi for two years. That was a world
of candles and kerosene oil.
Did you have any contact there with Theosophists?
No, but I formed a group of three people called the
Occult Group. Now I hear that there is a live T.S.
movement in Nairobi. At night in my tent I used to read
Theosophy. I became more and more interested, and
when I returned to England in 1908 I attended lectures
by Dr. Annie Besant, the new President of the Society. I
had written to Col. Olcott about becoming a monk, but
he had died, and Dr. Besant replied:
I strongly advise you not to plunge into
orthodox Buddhism, but perhaps if we can meet we can
discuss it.
After meeting her three times, she said:
I would like a young man like you to see India — today
I have been given two thousand pounds to do what I
like with, so I invite you as my guest at the International
Headquarters of the T.S. at Adyar.
I jumped with joy, but she said: No, no! — think about
it for a week, then let me know.
At that time I was also offered a very good job in West
Africa; it meant a high salary and a step up in my
career. I was at a crossroads. Now, Mr. D.N. Dunlop
was a famous Theosophist who had a miniature of two
adepts, whom I recognized as the Masters Morya and
Kuthumi; he had copies made for me….
They were paintings?
They were photographs of paintings made in Madame
Blavatsky’s London studio I believe; somehow she
placed her hand on the painter’s head, he saw the
Masters and painted them. I was thrilled to have these
copies, and as I was at this crossroads, I placed them
before me and sent out a plea: If I am worth being taken
notice of by the Society founded at your instigation by
H.P.B. (Madame Blavatsky), could you give me a hint
which way to go? I received a definite sentence in my
head: Choose the way of unworldly wisdom, and there
will be no regrets. It was clear.
I arrived here in 1909 with a letter of introduction from
Dr. Besant. I was put in room no.7 at Blavatsky
Gardens — a very simple room. C.W. Leadbeater had
already awakened the kundalini and was cultivating
clairvoyance; I went to his Octagonal Bungalow, and
told the man leading me to say Dr. Besant had sent me.
He went in and said: Dr. Besant has come. I could hear
Leadbeater saying inside: Hmm! She must have
materialized, let’s go and see. We laughed when we
met.
And then I met a shy, sorrowful-looking boy — J.
Krishnamurti. He was about 13 years old then. I was 10
years older. Mr. Leadbeater took me into his confidence
when he got to know me better and said: Master
Kuthumi has asked me and Annie to look after these
two children of his, -- at that time Krishnaji’s younger
brother was still alive. I was entrusted with the task of
helping. What we had to do was to clean up these two
boys: they were unhappy, dirty, ill-fed because their
mother had died and a very hard-hearted aunt was in
charge of the house — the father was not much good
with children so they were neglected.
We set to work. It was a great joy to me having come
into all this. People point to me now and say: He was
Krishnamurti’s teacher. That is not quite true. I was
Krishnamurti’s constant companion, his nurse, his valet
de chambre. We went cycling and swimming together
— yes, and I did teach him his first English. I moved
with him closely day and night until his 19th birthday.
That was from the beginning of his career until 1915
when I had to go to war and join the army.
There has been some criticism that the booklet, “At the
Feet of the Master” was never written by Krishnamurti
himself during this period. Do you know anything about
this?
I certainly do. When Mr. Leadbeater first saw the 13
year old Krishnaji, he was struck by his aura, which he
described as the most wonderful he had ever seen. It
could not have been Krishnaji’s outer appearance that
was striking, for at that time he was undernourished and
uncared for. But Leadbeater took him and his younger
brother under his care. The father — who was a
Theosophist — and the other children were given a
place to live within the Society’s grounds. Leadbeater
told me Krishnaji was destined to become the World
Teacher: He will undergo spiritual training; there will
be opposition but it has to be done.
Now Mr. Leadbeater had Krishnaji come to him at 5
o’clock every morning and asked him to recollect what
the Master KH had taught him on the astral plane
during the night while he was out of the body. I was
always present so I saw Krishnaji write down the
teachings in the form of notes. The only outside help he
received was in his spelling and punctuation — you see,
he was still learning English. But these were the notes
that were later turned into the book, At the Feet of the
Master, and published under the name of Alcyone; it has
been translated into about thirty languages and gone
into forty editions or more. Yes, I know there have been
many skeptics who have tried to prove that a boy of 13
could not write such a book. But I saw him with my
own eyes; that is my personal testimony.
That is invaluable testimony, thank you. What happened
after you came out of the army?
I became a civilian again in 1924, and Annie Besant
suggested I should join Leadbeater in Australia. I was
with him for five years living a strange and wonderful
life. I was initiated into Co-Masonry and into other
ceremonial groups and helped Leadbeater; I cooked his
food and nursed him when he was sick. I toured with
him, he made me a priest of the Liberal Catholic
Church and I attended the meetings of the esoteric
school of Theosophy and the general meetings. A very
full life. I plunged into all this with enthusiasm and
believed that all I was doing and hearing about were
facts.
When you say you believed in everything then, does it
mean that later you had doubts?
Well, I’ll tell you. I don’t doubt, but through the years
because of my strong link with Krishnaji I seemed to be
going through, in a lighter vein of course, what he went
through. So now I have to say that in my book, The
Boyhood of J. Krishnamurti, I wrote about things as
though I knew them, but I had been told them by
Leadbeater and others and accepted them as facts. Now
I would say that whether they are facts or not I don’t
know, but because I don’t know I can’t deny or affirm.
I see. How did you part from Mr. Leadbeater?
I married. I came back to London, took a job, but after a
time my wife and I came back here to Adyar where we
lived and I was given permission to take a job in a big
engineering firm outside.
Was all this before Krishnamurti renounced his role as
the World Teacher?
Long before, oh, yes, yes…
You were still in contact with him in those days?
Yes, of course. I met him often. I met him in Australia
and observed the painful fact that Leadbeater, from
being affectionately disposed towards him, turned
against him and said everything had gone wrong.
Krishnaji later told me how he was asked to get out of
Adyar and never come back. Well — as everyone
knows — he did get out, and it was only a few days ago
that after fifty years he was invited back by the
President of the T.S., Mrs. Radha Burnier, and he
walked through these grounds again. I had the pleasure
of welcoming him, although I have been seeing him
practically every year when he comes to India. He is
now looking in better health than ever. He is 85, you
know — 10 years younger than me.
All these many years you have lived in India must have
been very fulfilling for you.
Yes, they have. I can say that when I first came to
Theosophy, my mind, through contact with the early
Theosophists, was filled with visions of the Wise Men
of the East, the Great Adept Brotherhood, the Hierarchy
standing behind the people who were said to be running
the inner government of the world. But all that has
rather faded — I don’t say it isn’t true. Leadbeater
wrote a wonderful book about this, The Masters and the
Path. I have been presented with much teaching and
have read many books, but I took into my heart what I
liked and made it my own. But in the past I made a
mistake in an effort to help others by writing and
talking about the Masters and what they did and didn’t
do as if I knew. No, whatever progress I have made, I
have progressed to this point of view that much of my
belief has fallen off me like a cloak: my Co-Masonry,
my priesthood, the teaching about karma, reincarnation,
and the rest of it. I don’t say it isn’t true, I say belief
isn’t knowledge.
But you do follow Krishnaji?
Yes, rather. He looks at us and says: I suppose I have to
talk — why do you come to hear me? — Well, the
world is in a mess… Then he paints a picture of the
chaos of modern life. He asks: What is the root of
chaos? — the power of thought! As I sit there I
remember Madame Blavatsky saying: The mind is a
great slayer of the Real; let the disciple slay the slayer.
Krishnaji puts it in his own way, and then asks if it’s the
mind that creates confusion, how to stop the confusion?
Well — by realizing it, that stops it…then in freedom
from confusion there’s love. That’s his message. It’s so
tremendous, we can’t take it. He’s still emphatic that
he’s not a teacher. I don’t touch his feet — I wanted to, I
feel like it. I told him the other day when I was holding
his hand on his historical re-entry into this place that I
feel like touching his feet but I’m not going to. He said:
Quite right; and laughed.
As a last question, what do you think you have achieved
by your seventy-five years association with the T.S. and
Krishnaji?
I am not able to estimate what I have achieved — you
or others who meet me may form their own opinion: I
can’t say I have arrived at this or that. I have learned
that nobody can teach me how to meditate or
“muditate”, as most people do. And nobody can tell me
how to become spiritual or to define God. It’s all
ineffable wonder and beauty and love. That’s what I
think, I can’t describe it. Should I try, I would destroy it.
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Norma Sastry
The Theosophical
Society Adyar
Madras
Interview 19
There was certainly nothing of the Theosophical ideals
in my background. I was born on a farm in Michigan, a
child of a poor family doing the usual things, and as
soon as I finished school I looked for a job in Detroit.
The ad I answered happened to be with a Theosophist,
although this had no meaning to me at the time. When I
was told to come for the Interview, there was a frantic
to-do as I didn’t have any coloured stockings – only
white ones, which I tried to dye black but they came out
a sort of navy blue. Anyway, I was told I could start
immediately although it was in the middle of the week.
Those first days pay enabled me to buy a new pair of
shoes.
It was my first contact with a vegetarian, and I thought
he was exceedingly foolish. He had recently lost his
wife so I thought – Yes, no doubt she didn’t eat
properly. After a while my employer handed me the
booklet, At the Feet of the Master, and in a very
superior 16-year-old-way I said: I am not interested!
But later when the bait was held out to go to Chicago as
he was to attend a T.S. convention, I accepted.
When we arrived, I found there was a reception for Dr.
Arundale, the T.S. President, and his wife,
Rukmini Devi. But I couldn’t go in as I wasn’t a
member. So I said: All right, I will join and go. And
that’s how I became a member of the T.S. It was 53
years ago and I am still a member.
The time came when I had saved enough money for a
coat – I wanted so much to have a fur coat. But when
my employer heard about this, he said: I cannot allow
you to come here dressed in parts of dead animals! I
was rebellious, so I asked advice from a Christian
Scientist who said: You can do what you like with
money you’ve earned, and anyway, God created
animals to serve man. I was shocked at that sort of
reasoning…I never bought that fur coat.
A long time after I began working for that gentleman, I
learned he had given me the job because he thought I
looked sickly: he decided to make my last months on
earth happy. I am now 72. Of course, having joined the
Society, I felt I had reached the top and there was no
need for me to study the T.S. books. But I regularly
went to all the meetings and thought I was doing my
Theosophical duty by standing at the door shaking
hands with everybody. Theosophy at that stage meant
being brotherly, and that was the most brotherly thing I
knew. Whatever study I did came later. When I went to
the World Conference of 1929 at Chicago, I heard Dr.
Besant lecture on: Just Men Made Perfect. It made such
an impression that I began to be curious to know who
she was talking about. She spoke about the Inner
Government, Evolution, and the Great Beings helping
guide the world. That did make me read more.
When did you come to India?
The East had no appeal for me. Rukmini Devi met
many of the young people and they all told her they
longed to see India. She said to me: Norma, don’t you
also want to go? I said: No…I’m sure I won’t like the
food. That was in the early thirties at Wheaton the
American Headquarters where the Summer Schools
were held. In 1935 when they were planning the Adyar
Jubilee Convention, some interest was aroused and as a
message came from Dr.Arundale inviting me, with a lot
of palpitation, I went. I arrived here in October of that
year – 1935 --and as I came over the bridge at Adyar, I
saw a glorious sky with a wonderful moon coming out
of the sea. I can never forget that.
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Peter Hoffman
A house by the
Indian Ocean
Tiruvanmiyur
Madras
21st January 1981
Interview 21
Before you tell me about life in this superb beach
house, can you translate the name given to your
village?
It’s called Tiruvanmiyur… tiru means sacred place, ur
means village, and Valmiki was the famous author of
the Ramayana — so because he is supposed to have
worshipped at the temple, the full name is Tiru-Valmiki-
ur.
But before I talk about my present life I should tell you
something about my background. I was brought up in a
very well-to-do family in the USA. The only person
interested in spiritual things was my mother who was
basically a Christian Scientist. I majored in physics, but
I realized I was not being taught what I wanted to know.
I became more interested in literature. One of my
professors had an interest in Vedanta and had been to
India, and that influenced me. I read books on the New
Thought Movement, and then I became interested
in Buddhism. I quit Kenyon College after two years to
study Buddhism on my own…that must have been in
1941 — yes — I’m 59 now.
My father wanted me to continue at university so I tried
the Philosophy Department at Chicago University; but
the courses were staid and stilted — no use to me — so
I never went back to college. The war was on; I had
done some flying, so I became a flying instructor in the
Air Force, and this brought me to India. In 1945 I was
stationed at Karachi, and it was there I discovered
Theosophy in a book; it seemed to me a real, consistent,
beautiful, logical, well-organized system of cosmology.
But I didn’t know the Theosophical Society still existed.
I didn’t even know there were other T.S. books.
Not until I was back in Indiana was I made aware that
there were Theosophists actually living there; we got a
group going very soon.
Did it take long before you returned to India?
It happened like this. Rukmini Devi is a great lady in
her own right, but at the time she was the wife of the
T.S. President — she was nominated a couple of years
ago as President of India but she declined — well, it
was she who invited me back. I could talk for an hour
on her, how she married Dr. Arundale at 16, how she
studied dancing with Anna Pavlova, how she revived
and made respectable the ancient Indian temple dances
and later founded Kalakshetra, an academy of the Arts
in 1936 where Indian dance, vocal and instrumental
music can be studied. But when the Republic of India
was formed, she accepted a ten-year period in the Upper
House of Parliament. I became her secretary and helped
her most important work which was getting Parliament
to pass an Act against cruelty to animals.
Did these political activities affect your Theosophical
interests?
In a way they weren’t such a change in the interests I
had. But since 1949 up to the present, I have traveled
every year with Rukmini Devi on world tours…she is
of course a well-known Theosophical leader. And I
should say that every time I return to India I notice the
difference — the magnetic difference — and I would
like to stress that from my point of view, India is like
the spiritual guru of the world. Each nation has a certain
character, as each person is different and has his own
unique value. The fundamental contribution India has
made historically and is qualified to make in the future,
is to be like a spiritual guru to the world. From the
dawn of history, its sages and adepts have experimented
with the forces of the human body and the depths to
which human consciousness can go. In each generation,
spiritual truths have been taught and confirmed by each
succeeding generation. Unlike scientific
experimentation where they experiment on others, the
only way to experiment in spiritual life is to experiment
on yourself.
Is this spiritual experimentation part of Theosophy or
the work you are involved in?
That’s been one of the battles of the T.S. — defining
this sort of thing. In the thirty or forty years I have been
in Theosophy, my conception of it is to have an open
mind searching for spiritual truths…and I think I’m a
real Theosophist because I’m interested in looking into
all spiritual truths, some of them even like Krishnaji’s
[J. Krishnamurti] denying the value of all concepts. I
can see colossal advantages to humanity accepting the
principles of karma and reincarnation from our earliest
school days, as a fundamental part of our basic
thinking. Unfortunately, karma as a conviction is
disappearing even in the East because people are
committing all sorts of crimes even though they say
they know there will be a karmic reaction. But if
children are brought up with the cosmology
of karma, reincarnation, evolution, spiritual progress
and so on, many of society’s problems would be solved.
Can I ask you again if you will talk about your work
here?
My work is mainly teaching — I have developed about
a hundred cosmological diagrams, and have been
teaching that for many years on my travels. I had a
series of classes here at various times. I get invited to
lecture once in a while. In February I have a two-weeks
course in the T.S. school. One can’t tell anyone about
the actual experience of what is called self-realization,
or moksha in Hinduism, or salvation in Christianity.
That’s an experience about a state totally unknown and
incomprehensible to a brain developed in three-
dimensional thinking. To teach spiritual values — in the
sense that you think you can tell anyone how to develop
the knowledge of the Self — can’t be done.
Yet teaching has a value in the sense that it helps people
understand there is such an experience. People can be
convinced that such an experience can happen to them
and that it instantaneously solves their problems. There
are no problems for those who have experienced that.
One can also help others understand that we are not
seeing this world as it is; we are seeing an illusionary
projection of our own consciousness distorted by
desires, likes and dislikes; nobody could call it
objective. Most of our pains and sufferings come from
this ignorance…so teaching can help achieve a higher
awareness state. Teaching has value, at least that has
been my experience.
Do you teach any form of meditation?
The course I’m giving is called: Kundalini and
Meditation. There are many definitions of what
meditation is, but if you don’t meditate there’s no way
to go beyond the illusion we are in. Meditation helps us
turn within and see differently what we are seeing now.
This is so essential that most of us cannot achieve
awakening, illumination — call it whatever you like —
without that inner seeing.
But Theosophists don’t believe in the need of a living
teacher. Or is this Krishnaji’s idea?
I have great respect for his teaching; he’s struggling
with the essential points which will reduce human
suffering and will transform society into one where
spiritual growth is more possible than it is in this one
which is rapidly degenerating. He has the key to get rid
of that degeneration. His idea of not having a guru I
don’t quite agree with. There are stages on the path
where a guru is essential because one goes into a totally
unknown territory with a body totally unprepared; you
really have to get someone to help you. Gurus who can
do this are scarce.
May I ask about the spiritual masters who have been
guiding Theosophists? Have they actually manifested?
I don’t think they have been guiding Theosophists. If
you look at the early literature you’ll find that people
were constantly saying to H.P.Blavatsky and Col.
Olcott: How is it you make so many blunders if you say
you are pupils of the Masters and the Masters are
behind the Theosophical Society? The Masters
themselves explained in their letters: “We give help and
general principles, but it’s up to you what you do.”
When I asked about a Master, I meant one in the body,
one you can sit with and talk to.
Yes, I understood. I did much research and even wrote a
book about that — it was never published; I never
found time to finish it — but there’s absolutely no doubt
that if you went into a court of law with all the
witnesses that had met these Masters in person in their
own physical bodies, you could establish their existence
legally. Obviously no one would do that now. But those
Masters do exist…there’s so much proof.
Why are there no reports of Theosophists contacting the
Masters these days?
If you look at the Masters’ letters, there are things that
have a bearing on that. In a letter to Mr. Sinnett, the
Master said: I wish we could convince you that the last
thing we want to do is convince everybody that we
exist; that would cause our work to be much interfered
with. On another occasion, the Master said: By a certain
time, if certain things are not accomplished - I can’t
remember the exact words - then every trace of the
Masters will disappear.
Can you say how the Masters’ letters were sent into this
material world?
These letters are definitely physical letters. In fact they
are deposited in the British Museum. I was once able to
examine them with a microscope and found that the
words which seemed to be formed by ordinary hand-
writing are actually formed by tiny lines, each one of
which is separate and which couldn’t happen with a
pen, although they look as if they have been written
with a pen. There are, of course, people who don’t think
these letters are genuine. The process of precipitation
which the Master describes as helpful to the chelas is
extremely fascinating. The Master may be riding a
horse in Tibet. One of his disciples may be in the Indian
plains, and that disciple will be instructed telepathically
by the Master to take down a letter for him. The disciple
places paper and ink powder before him which are used
in the precipitation. The master then sends his thought
into the mind of the disciple who then puts the thought
into words which he materializes on the paper using
molecules of the ink powder to embed it onto the paper.
It doesn’t soak into the paper like ink; it’s sort of on the
surface of the paper and is made up of a series of tiny
lines if you look at it microsopically. I personally think
the letters genuine. They have been published in book
form as: The Mahatma Letters.
When were the last ones sent?
When we say the last ones, we are talking about the last
ones published. The Masters are there and the chelas are
there, so they are still being sent, I presume. One of the
first published — I’m not an authority on this — came
to Dr. Besant long after Madame Blavatsky died. Some
people thought Madame Blavatsky was faking the
letters, but this couldn’t be so.
So nothing has been published since the turn of the
century?
One of the most outstanding letters we received came
later; this story I can tell. But remember, it will be from
memory, so the exact words and circumstances may be
slightly off. One night before the 1925 Jubilee
Convention, Dr. Arundale woke up, as he did many
times in the middle of the night and had to write
something down: his whole book, Nirvana, was written
that way. He could apparently only hold the higher
influences in his consciousness brain in the early hours
when everything is still. Well, this message was taken
down and in the morning shown to Rukmini Devi. They
were inspired ideas, so they were shown to Mr.
Leadbeater who declared it was a letter from a Great
Being — a Master of the Masters — and it was sent
specially for the convention. I will give you a copy…
it’s very beautiful.
Thank you. May I ask you as a last question what you
feel you have gained by choosing to live this life all
these years?
Being in India one is in a kind of spiritual atmosphere
— the country is spiritually orientated. In the course of
my being here, I have been helped very much. I have
reached a stage where I recognize that everything, even
something that may make me unhappy, is the most
valuable step that could be made for my spiritual
growth. I know there’s absolutely nothing that could
happen to me including violence and starvation that
would make me feel upset because I would recognize it
as an extremely valuable lesson life is teaching me.
With that conviction — that knowledge — that gives
you a happy life. Even if you are unhappy, you are
happy being unhappy.
I don’t have any regular meditation practices, although I
agree with Dr. Besant who made this categorical
statement: A man should take at least half an hour daily
to bring down currents from the higher world, but I’m
continually travelling so this is difficult for me.
Anyway, I do have an ideal in life and that’s to spend up
till noon in spiritual studies, meditation and spiritual
discourse. And there have been certain periods in my
life here when I have been absolutely disconnected
from all worldly obligations, so I’ve been able to do
that. That is my idea of an ideal life. Now look, before
the sun sets I think we just have time for a swim in the
ocean; that’s if you’d like that?
Peter Hoffman is alive and well.
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Dhruva
Interview 22