I really dont want to say things such as I want to go back as how things were before.

I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on. Aya Youve always encouraged me. Youve listened to everything I couldnt tell anyone else. When I was down, you made me laugh. You were always near me. Whenever I was in pain, you were always with me. Arigatou Asou-kun. Aya Suffer and suffer through, and theres a rainbow colored happiness waiting on the other side. Do not rush it; do not be greedy. Dont give up, because everybody takes a step at a time. It didnt matter how insignificant, but I wanted to be useful to others. Aya Live on. Live on forever. Aya As I think about the past, the tears will come out. Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I dont even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again. Aya Its painful when Im with you, wanting to do this and that. When Im with you, I keep dreaming a dream that would never come true Aya Whats wrong with falling down? You can always stand up again. If you look up at the sky after falling down, the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me Im alive. Aya Without hurrying, lets challenge many things, or be absorbed in doing something. Doing silly things together wont be such a bad idea, I think, because we all still have plenty of time from now. Aya Even now sometimes I want to hear her voice so badly. Haruto I want to accept the me right now. And live on. Although I will always be hurt by those heartless glances, but also at the same time I understand that gentle glances exist. Even though its like this I still want to be here. Because here is, the place that I exist. Whats wrong with falling down? Because as long as I stand back up again itll be just fine. If you look up at the sky after falling down. The blue sky is also today, stretching timelessly and smiles at me. People shouldnt dwell on the past. Its enough to try your best for all that your doing now. Mother, will I. be able to get married? Thank you. Aya Whats wrong with falling down when you can always stand up? Aya If you feel frustrated, do something about it! Aya People shouldnt dwell on the past. Its enough to try your best in all that youre doing now. Aya

' stopping by or taking a longer way, is not such a bad idea.' 'I really dont want to say things such as I want to go back to how things were before.' I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.' 'I wont be impatient I wont be greedy I wont give up Because everyone takes things step by step.' 'Not having other people understand. Not understanding others. Both of those are awful.' 'My life is like a blossoming flower. From the start of my youth, I want to have no regrets and treasure it.' 'Fate. It can't be put in words. You really cant make people accept it.' 'Whats wrong with falling down? Because as long as I stand up again itll be just fine.' 'People shouldnt dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that youre doing now.' 'If I am a flower, please, help me from ruining the life of the bud, that hasnt blossomed yet.' 'Is that something you can't understand unless you experience it? Even if you can't feel what that person is feeling, I want you to at least try to think in my point of view. But I think that's hard to do. Even for me, I only first realized this after it happened to me.' 'The tough times are when a human is growing. If I can overcome this, a beautiful morning will be waiting for me.' 'I wonder where happiness is. I wonder what happiness is.' 'I look up to people with strong personality traits, because I myself have nothing special. I'm attracted to the idea of each individuals putting out their own unique characteristics.' 'Maybe even in the world that we live in, our uniqueness and talents are used to make the most out of life.' 'There is only one road for me. I don't have the right to pick my options. I can never go onto the same path as my friends.' 'If make myself feel better by thinking that I'm going to walk the same paths as my friends, my own path will disappear...' 'I wanna hit something really hard, yell and scream like crazy, fall down laughing....'

'Now, I can cry without making any noise.' 'Relationships with people are complicated. It's not like someone is wrong, but it just becomes worse without realization.' 'Maybe because I'm limited with where I can go, but I don't even know what I want anymore. But... I want to do something. I wanna do something so badly that I can't stand it. My hands and feet are being tightly bounded. People being nice to me is a pain for me.' 'Time will continue to move even if I break all the clocks in the world.

I can't stop time as long as I live.' 'Can't a human live only with their mind?' 'I wanted to vent my energy on something.' 'My experience seems to resemble theirs in terms of gradually becoming numbed.' 'I look up as I walk along, so my tears won't fall . . .' 'I suppose everyone has some kind of burden. But why is it only me that has to be miserable?' 'I've already turned my back on my life without being aware of it.' 'The waves of my fate have washed me away. ' 'How much longer will I have to suffer and fight until I can find my life?' 'It's very hard to live through each day without any purpose.'
Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing."

- This isnt something special. Its just the record of a girl who was chosen by this strange disease. - My life is like a flower thats hasnt bloomed yet. From the start of the youth, I want to treasure it and have no regrets. - Okaasan, in my heart, I know I can always trust you. From this point forward, I leave it to you. Im sorry for always making you worry. - This disease, why did it choose me? Fate. It cant be put into words. - I want to make a time machine and go back in time. If it wasnt for this disease, not only I could enjoy falling in love but I also wouldnt have to rely on anyone and live by myself. - I really dont want to say things such as I want to go back to how things were before. I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on. - Therefore, I definitely wont run away. Thats what Ill do. Definitely, always. - Even if its like that, I still want to stay here. Because this is the place where I am. To be able to be seen as an equal by my friends, Im really thankful. I didnt just only make trouble for them Thinking like this, Ive started not mind it that much. - If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me Im alive. - People shouldnt dwell on the past. Its enough to try your best in all youre doing now. - I dont want a comfortable place to stay in. From now on, I am thinking about how I am going to continue living.

- Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I dont even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again. - Okaasan, will I be able to get married? It is you who helped me to find a reason to live on - Zutto Ikite ; live on forever - I had a dreamand in it I was running freely and I was walkingBut I had another dreamand in it I was in a wheelchairI thought I had accepted me for who I am now - As long as its you saying it, no matter how slowly you say it, ill still listen - If you cant talk on the phone, then ill come see you - If you want to walk, no matter how slow itll be, ill walk with you - As long as its you saying it, no matter how slowly you say it, ill still listen - If you cant talk on the phone, then ill come see you - If you want to walk, no matter how slow itll be, ill walk with you - Whats wrong with falling down? As long as I stand up again
"As I think about the past, the tears will come out. Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don't even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again." "I'm glad I came (to Higashi High School again), because it reminded me, the 15-year old me, was indeed, alive here." "The flower petals are opening up, each one more than the other. The flowers will once again blossom in full glory. Knowing yesterday what will happen to them today, made me happy." "Just that one sentence, 'I won't leave you', encouraged me a lot. Doctor, thank you for not leaving me." Why did the disease choose me? I cannot carry it, if it's just for the word "fate". I want to build a time machine and revisit the past. If it weren't for this disease, I might even be in love. I want to cling to someone's arm so badly.

Regret. Pitiful. It's okay if I'm in pain by myself. But I'm also bringing trouble to the people around me. I really don't want to say things such as "I want to go back as how things were before" . I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on. "Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing." Sometimes I feel like my body doesn't belong to me. What's happening to me? "To be able to smile and tell everyone this; i have, at least, cried one litre of tears. " * I really don't want to say things such as "I want to go back to how things were before". I recognize how i am right now, and I will continue to live on. * Even though I have been hurt before by those heartless glares this also helped me to understand that around me, there still exists some gentle glares. Therefore, I definitely won't run away. That's what I'll do. Definitely. Always. * The quiet classroom after class; The view outside the window; the wooden floor of the corridoors; Talking in homeroom; I like all these. I'm likely to only cause trouble for people and it might not really do me any good to stay here. Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here. Because this is the place where I am. * To be able to smile and tell everyone this; i have, at least, cried one litre of tears. Therefore, even when i leave this school, I definitely won't think that some things have ended. * If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...I'm alive. * For those people who are really listening, they will definitely understand. * People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now. * Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don't even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again. * Where should I head towards? Even if there isn't answer, I'll feel better by writing it down. I've looked for a pair of helping hands but I couldn't feel them, couldn't see them. I only face towards darkness and hear hear the sounds of my hopeless screams.