Desperate

Cold, lying in my bed

Feeling so shame
The guilty sensations in my head
Just want to burn it in blame
So many days i’ve spent in frustration
And they always win
I’ve been looking for an illumination
But all I got is only the effect of my sin
I am feel so far away
And so alone
Somehow i want to fly away
And makes my spirit gone
Suddenly I remember
That I have a religion
I know that it can be my lighter
For myself to keep shine on
I have nowhere to run, God
But now, You gave me Your little helpness
Fly me your bless, Dear God
And I can go back into my happiness
I will comeback to Your door
I won’t smashed it again
I will sweep my own floor
I won’t stop until it can be plain
Send me Your enlightenment
So that I can relieved
Or just bring me to Your settlement
And then i can lived
Dear God
Fly me Your great bless
I don’t want to get sucked by my stress
And God
I know it looks like I don’t have a pride now
But I don’t know why
From now
Finally I know