She blooms

when she
found grace…
a story untold.
It was a dark place. A room full of uncertainties, sorrows
in each corner, guilt, anger, and above all, fear.
Hope is the only thing we hold onto but still, it’s nowhere
to be found. She was all alone. No hiding place where
she be comfortable at, all she thinks is that she was left
behind.
It drains her- inside and out. No matter how hard she tries, it’s a
never-ending cycle. Dark, her definition of life she has. Questioning
everything what path she’s taking, an adventure of her life? A living
testimony for the future? Even her doesn’t know the answer.
One day, a thought pops in her mind. She will be free, eternally
for the only solution to end her sufferings. All comes up with
mixed emotions. Feelings come up and starts to tremble. The full
of conviction decision becomes a little bit hesitant.
Once again, she fails. Her fears always takes over in whatever occurrence,
she cannot find courage neither good nor bad. A lost of opportunity to end it
all, gives another hope to see a glimpse of a little hope.
 And there again, she tries but grabbing the little hope she has. Even when it
feels draining, she chose to fight all over again. No matter how loud the scream
inside her head, little by little courage helps her to get back on herself.
And yes, no matter how hard she tries to recover, there will always be the days
where fear takes place. Rest, that is what she needs. She is reminded how it is
necessary on whatever situations she faced. There will be bad days- cannot be
avoided, but through this, it makes you realize a lot while you are resting.
“I am not alone”, she remembered. On the times of her rest, she was reminded how
many people are there waiting for her to reach out. Without any hesitant, she called
her best of friend. It feels good to be heard. It feels good to have shoulder to lean on,
and it feels good knowing that I still have everything, there are still people who
became parts in her life. She still has, never gone.
Things are about to change. She constantly reminded herself that there’s a chance. It all
happens for a reason. In her dark times, she found her light, so much growth is about to
happen. As her weakness exposed back on those times, she finds her strength.
Regardless how big the waves are, it is a momentous when she learn
how to surf despite all of that. She is back. The tensions she felt,
becomes her toughness to move forward. Even with the strong current
of the waves, she manage to keep balance on herself.
 Feelings may be overwhelming, but she is glad noticing her
progress. Roots will be deeper as her faith becomes stronger. Life
has its ups and downs, it’s a cliché but truly, never give up.
 On the days she thought it was too late, God reminds her it is just the
beginning. She was captured on that instant knowing her strength comes from
Him. Her foundation was never shaken, she was just tested but never shaken.
On the obscure moments, she became certain. And yes, even in
the beginning, she knew how it will be her living testimony.
As a new beginning, the
roots planted grows into
something bigger. The
hopes that slowly fading,
it is the grace that keeps
her shining. She believed
she could, so she did.
Grace, it is always with